Woman #3: I CAN'T AFFORD TO GET ANY WORSE.
IF I CAN'T START LOSING THE WEIGHT,
I'M NOT GONNA BE ALIVE MUCH LONGER.
♪♪
Woman #2: HE CAN'T STOP. HE DOESN'T KNOW HOW.
Woman #3: IT'S TERRIFYING TO THINK THAT AT ANY MOMENT,
YOUR HEART COULD EXPLODE.
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Woman #4: I DON'T WANT TO DIE.
I HAVEN'T EVEN GOTTEN TO LIVE YET.
♪♪
WHY ARE YOU JUMPING ON MY CASE?
YOU'RE OVER-EATING, AND YOU'RE ACTING LIKE IT IS OUR FAULT.
I KNOW THAT I'M DYING.
I KNOW THAT I'M NOT GONNA MAKE IT.
Woman #5: I DON'T HAVE TIME FOR THAT.
HEAVEN FORBID, WE WASTE ANY OF YOUR TIME
WHILE YOU WASTE OURS WITH YOUR LIES AND GAMES.
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♪♪
THE LIFE I'M LIVING RIGHT NOW IS MISERABLE.
BECAUSE I HAVE MADE MYSELF A PRISONER IN A ROOM
INSIDE OF MY HOME.
I USED TO LEAVE THE HOUSE MAYBE ONCE A WEEK,
BUT NOW I'M MOSTLY HOUSE-BOUND
BECAUSE IT'S BECOMING HARDER TO WALK.
MY LEGS CONSTANTLY HURT, SO MY DAUGHTER DESIREé HELPS ME.
DESIREé?
♪♪
TURN THAT LIGHT ON.
MORNING.
I LIVE WITH MY HUSBAND JUSTIN
AND MY DAUGHTER DESIREé,
ALONG WITH HER BOYFRIEND WILL AND HER DAUGHTER,
MY GRANDDAUGHTER, DAISY.
AND DESIREé IS MY CARETAKER.
SHE'S MY RIGHT HAND.
SHE'S MY BEST FRIEND.
BUT I FEEL BAD FOR HER. I DO.
SHE'S, YOU KNOW, NOT SUPPOSED TO BE IN THIS ROLE YET, YOU KNOW?
THEY'RE SUPPOSED TO TAKE CARE OF YOU WHEN YOU GET OLD.
AND I'M NOT THAT OLD, BUT I DON'T WANT MY HUSBAND
JUSTIN TO HELP ME BECAUSE I DON'T WANT HIM TO CROSS OVER
FROM BEING MY HUSBAND TO MY CAREGIVER.
I DON'T WANT HIM TO LOOK AT ME DIFFERENTLY,
BECAUSE I FEEL ASHAMED OF MYSELF, OF MY BODY.
MY BODY LOOKS LIKE A NIGHTMARE, LIKE A MONSTER.
SOMETHING NON-HUMAN.
SO I SHOWER ALMOST EVERY DAY.
THE SHOWER IS EXHAUSTING.
WASHING IN BETWEEN MY SKIN FOLDS IS HARD,
BECAUSE IT'S HEAVY, IT'S HARD TO GET ALL THE WAY IN THERE,
AND IT'S A LOT OF LIFTING.
IT'S OVERWHELMING.
I REMEMBER WHEN TAKING A 10-MINUTE SHOWER IN THE MORNING
AND GOING ABOUT MY DAY WAS FUN.
-YOU READY? -MM-HMM.
PULL.
NOW IT'S THE MOST EXHAUSTING PART OF THE DAY.
AND WHEN I'M DONE WITH THAT, I'M SORE, I'M TIRED.
I JUST USUALLY GO BACK AND SIT IN MY BED AND WAIT TO EAT.
♪♪
I FEEL LIKE A BURDEN TO DESIREé BECAUSE SHE TAKES CARE OF ME
WHEN SHE COULD BE HAVING A LIFE OF HER OWN.
Desireé: DAISY, NANA WANTS YOU.
MY GRANDDAUGHTER DAISY
IS ONE OF THE MOST IMPORTANT THINGS IN MY LIFE.
BUT I MISS OUT ON A LOT IN DAISY'S LIFE
BECAUSE OF MY WEIGHT.
I'M A BED GRANDMA TO HER.
I HATE USING THE WORD "HANDICAPPED,"
BUT I CAN'T EVEN GET MYSELF OUT OF BED.
♪♪
DESIREé DOES ALL THE COOKING NOW.
I USED TO BE THE COOKER, AND THEN WE USED TO SHARE IT,
AND NOW IT'S PRETTY MUCH SHE COOKS ALL THE TIME.
IS SOMETHING BURNING?
Desireé: NO.
ARE YOU GUYS...
YOU GUYS NEED TO TURN THE HEAT DOWN, DESIREé, ON THE STOVE.
THE HEAT IS ON FIVE.
FOR THE BACON.
SOMETHING'S BURNING.
I GET VERY FRUSTRATED WITH MY MOTHER SOMETIMES
BECAUSE I TAKE CARE OF MY OWN 3-YEAR-OLD AT THE SAME TIME.
AND IT GETS TO BE A BIT MUCH.
BUT I WOULD NEVER TURN MY BACK ON HER.
I WILL BE HERE, BECAUSE I KNOW THAT SHE NEEDS ME.
I SIT ON THE SIDELINE FOR EVERYTHING.
AND BY THE TIME IT'S TIME TO EAT,
I'M STARVING, I WANT TO EAT.
FOOD IS THE ONLY THING THAT HELPS ME DEAL
WITH THE MISERY OF MY LIFE.
AND I CONSTANTLY NEED IT BECAUSE I CONSTANTLY NEED TO ESCAPE.
SO WE HAVE TO KEEP A LOT OF FOOD IN THE HOUSE AT ALL TIMES.
AND I HAVE TO HAVE WHAT I WANT.
ARE YOU DONE WITH THAT?
SO IF WE EVER RUN OUT OF ANYTHING,
THEN DESIREé NEEDS TO GO TO THE STORE.
BECAUSE I CAN'T DO IT FOR MYSELF.
-YOU READY? -YEAH.
HERE'S THE GROCERY LIST.
ALL RIGHT?
I LOVE YOU GUYS.
LOVE YOU.
I LOOK FORWARD TO EATING THROUGHOUT THE DAY.
IT'S A BREAK-UP IN MY BOREDOM.
ONE OF MY BROTHERS, LEE,
WILL SOMETIMES STOP BY AND BRING ME FOOD.
[ KNOCKS ON DOOR ]
THAT'S LEE, PROBABLY.
-WILL YOU GET THE DOOR? -YES.
TO WORD "FAMILY" TO ME MEANS PEOPLE THAT YOU CAN CALL
WHEN YOU NEED SOMETHING
WHEN YOU HAVE NO TIME AT ALL, YOU MAKE TIME FOR THEM.
I DID IT TODAY, BRINGING MY SISTER ANGELA...
WENT AND GOT HER TACOS BECAUSE I LOVE HER
AND I WANT HER TO BE HAPPY.
Angie: GROWING UP IN MY FAMILY,
I COULDN'T EVER PICTURE MY LIFE TO BE LIKE IT IS RIGHT NOW.
WHEN I WAS A CHILD, MY LIFE WAS HARD.
MY MOM WAS AN ALCOHOLIC AND MY FATHER WAS A DRUG ADDICT.
AND MY FATHER WAS ABUSIVE PHYSICALLY TO MY MOTHER.
SO I FELT ABANDONED MOST OF THE TIME.
BECAUSE OF MY PARENTS' ALCOHOL, DRUG ABUSE,
AND NEGLECT, THEY JUST WEREN'T PRESENT.
AND WHEN I WAS EIGHT YEARS OLD,
I WAS SEXUALLY ABUSED BY A FAMILY FRIEND.
WHEN I FINALLY CAME OUT ABOUT IT,
MY MOM DIDN'T DEFEND ME,
SO I FELT UNPROTECTED BY THE PEOPLE
WHO WERE SUPPOSED TO PROTECT ME.
IT WAS AT THAT POINT THAT I STARTED EATING MORE.
FOOD WAS A GOOD COMFORT BECAUSE IT WAS ALWAYS THERE,
AND IT WAS SOMETHING THAT I COULD CONTROL
WHEN EVERYTHING ELSE IN MY LIFE WAS UNCONTROLLABLE.
AND BY THE TIME I WAS 13, I WEIGHED 260 POUNDS.
WHEN I WAS 13, I WAS IN MY FIRST MAJOR RELATIONSHIP,
WITH A 27-YEAR-OLD MAN, AND I ENDED UP PREGNANT.
SIX MONTHS AFTER MY SON T.J. WAS BORN,
I GAVE HIM UP FOR ADOPTION.
AND MY RELATIONSHIP WITH HIS FATHER ENDED DUE TO ABUSE.
AND I WAS STILL TURNING TO THE ONE THING THAT WAS FAMILIAR,
AND THAT WAS FOOD.
SO WHEN I WAS 16 YEARS OLD, I WEIGHED AROUND 300 POUNDS.
AND I MET MY FIRST HUSBAND, JAMES.
I BECAME PREGNANT WITH MY DAUGHTER,
DESIREé, AT 17.
JAMES BECAME ABUSIVE WHEN WE FOUND OUT
I WAS PREGNANT WITH DESIREé.
WHEN DESIREé WAS JUST A NEWBORN, WE WERE EVICTED.
WE NEEDED A PLACE TO GO, AND MY DAD TOOK US IN.
AND THAT'S WHEN I REUNITED WITH MY DAD.
AT 18, I WEIGHED 340 POUNDS,
AND I WENT TO JAIL FOR COMPLICITY TO BURGLARY.
I WAS SENTENCED TO TWO YEARS. I ONLY WENT FOR EIGHT MONTHS.
BUT WHILE I WAS IN JAIL, MY HUSBAND,
JAMES, WAS INCARCERATED WITH A 10-YEAR SENTENCE.
DESI WENT TO MY DAD WHEN I WENT TO PRISON,
SO WHEN I GOT OUT I DIDN'T HAVE A PLACE TO LIVE,
SO I LIVED WITH THEM.
I DIDN'T GAIN NO WEIGHT IN JAIL,
SO AT 20 YEARS OLD I WEIGHED 340 POUNDS,
MET SOMEONE, AND GOT PREGNANT WITH MY SECOND DAUGHTER,
THIRD CHILD, HAILEY.
I HAD HAILEY TILL SHE WAS 2,
AND THAT'S WHEN I WENT BACK TO PRISON FOR THE SECOND TIME,
PROBATION VIOLATION, SAME CHARGE,
AND HER GRANDPARENTS GOT HER AND KEPT HER.
WHEN I WAS 26 YEARS OLD, I WAS RELEASED FROM PRISON.
I WEIGHED 420.
BUT, AT THAT TIME, MY WEIGHT STARTED TO PLATEAU
BECAUSE I BECAME ADDICTED TO DRUGS FOR ABOUT 10 YEARS.
AND THE NEXT FEW YEARS WERE A BIT OF A BLUR,
AND THEN, WHEN I WAS 32 YEARS OLD,
I INJURED MY KNEE, AND IT WAS THE WORST THING
AND THE BEST THING THAT HAPPENED IN MY LIFE.
IT WAS THE BEST THING BECAUSE I GOT SOBER.
AND IT WAS THE WORST THING BECAUSE I BECAME IMMOBILE.
I WAS DRINKING, AND MY LEG HYPEREXTENDED BACKWARDS,
CAUSING SOME DAMAGE TO MY KNEE.
I WAS PULLED OUT OF A HOUSE ON A TARP LIKE I WAS AN ANIMAL,
BY FIREMEN, PARAMEDICS, AND ANYBODY ELSE
THAT WOULD HELP THAT WASN'T DRUNK.
WHEN I ARRIVED AT THE HOSPITAL, THAT'S WHEN I'D SEEN MY WEIGHT
FOR THE FIRST TIME IN A FEW YEARS.
AND IT WAS 505 POUNDS.
THAT'S WHEN IT BECAME REAL, WHAT I HAD LET MY BODY BECOME.
I NEEDED AN MRI, BUT I WAS TOO HEAVY FOR THE MRI TABLE,
SO THE HOSPITAL REFERRED ME TO A REHABILITATION CENTER
WITH NO DIAGNOSIS.
WHEN I WENT INTO THE REHAB CENTER FOR 90 DAYS, I GOT CLEAN.
WHEN I GOT OUT, I WAS LIKE, I'M ON A STRAIGHT PATH,
I'M GONNA STAY ON IT.
BUT I WAS IN A WHEELCHAIR.
I COULDN'T GO BACK TO MY PARENTS.
I HAD TO GO LIVE IN A HANDICAP-ACCESSIBLE PLACE,
YOU KNOW, AND DESIREé STAYED WITH MY PARENTS
BECAUSE SHE WAS IN SCHOOL.
I KINDA SHUT DOWN.
I WAS DEPRESSED.
I DEALT WITH IT WITH FOOD AND I JUST KEPT GAINING.
WHEN I WAS 34, DESIREé MOVED IN WITH ME
AND STARTED TO TAKE CARE OF ME.
AT 37 YEARS OLD, I WEIGHED ABOUT 580 POUNDS
AND I MET MY CURRENT HUSBAND, JUSTIN.
I WAS ON A DATING SITE AND I GOT A MESSAGE,
AND IT JUST SO HAPPENED TO BE THREE DAYS
PRIOR TO LOSING MY FATHER.
AND BECAUSE JUSTIN'S LOST HIS FATHER,
WE BECAME FRIENDS IMMEDIATELY.
Justin: WHEN I MET ANGELA FOR THE FIRST TIME,
I WAS ATTRACTED BECAUSE OF HER PERSONALITY,
HER HEART, JUST THE PERSON SHE WAS.
I THOUGHT WE WAS GONNA BE FRIENDS.
I DIDN'T EVER THINK WE WERE GONNA BE MARRIED.
THINGS WENT ON, AND...
HERE WE ARE A YEAR LATER, MARRIED.
Angie: AND NOW I'M 39 YEARS OLD.
I'M STILL CURRENTLY MARRIED.
I DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH I WEIGH.
BUT I'M PROBABLY OVER 600 POUNDS.
AND I KNOW THAT I'M AT A VERY BAD PLACE IN MY WEIGHT RIGHT NOW
AND THAT I HAVE TO GET HELP,
BUT THE PROBLEM IS THERE ARE ALMOST NO OPTIONS OUT THERE
FOR PEOPLE LIKE ME.
SO I CALLED DR. NOW A FEW DAYS AGO
AND I GOT AN APPOINTMENT FOR NEXT WEEK,
AND I'VE BEEN TALKING TO MY FAMILY
ABOUT THE IDEA OF ALL OF US MOVING,
TO TRY AND GET THE HELP I NEED.
JUSTIN SAID HE'D DO IT FOR ME.
THE ONLY ONE WHO ISN'T SURE YET IS DESIREé.
MOSTLY, BECAUSE HER BOYFRIEND WILL DOESN'T WANT TO DO IT.
BUT I HAVE TO KEEP PUSHING IT WITH HER
BECAUSE I HAVE TO HAVE AN ANSWER.
SO WHEN SHE GETS DONE WITH ERRANDS
AND GETTING THE GROCERIES,
I'M GONNA TRY TO TALK TO HER AGAIN.
BECAUSE THERE'S NO MORE TIME FOR HER TO STAY ON THE FENCE
ABOUT IT, AND HONESTLY, I THINK SIDING WITH HER MOTHER
AND SAVING ME WOULD BE THE OBVIOUS CHOICE.
-DESIREé? -THAT'S EVERYTHING.
SO, I NEED TO KNOW IF YOU'RE ON BOARD WITH GOING TO HOUSTON.
BECAUSE YOUR BOYFRIEND IS GIVING ME [BLEEP] ABOUT IT.
WHAT'D HE DO?
SO, I THINK THAT HE'S MAD
FROM THE OTHER DAY WHEN THERE WAS A CONVERSATION
THAT IF I WAS TO LOOK FOR A DOCTOR IN ANOTHER AREA,
HE INSINUATED HE DIDN'T EVEN WANT TO COME TO HOUSTON
SO I CAN GET THE HELP I NEED.
SO ALL I SAID WAS, "HOW ABOUT, GET A LIFE,"
AND HE JUMPS UP, RUNS HIS MOUTH,
COMES UP [BLEEP] AND SAYS I'M A [BLEEP]
YOU THINK THAT'S NORMAL?
AND SAID, "WHY DON'T YOU GET A LIFE?"
Justin: HE SAID, "WE'RE ALL DOING THIS FOR YOU."
AND, "WE'RE ALL DOING THIS FOR YOU, ANGELA."
SO HE'S NOT GONNA BE LIVING HERE.
[ Voice breaking ] SO YOU WANT ME TO LEAVE MY BOYFRIEND,
MOVE TO TEXAS, AND BE OKAY WITH THAT?
OH, HERE WE GO. DRAMAS.
I MEAN, HOW AM I BEING DRAMATIC?
BUT YOUR BOYFRIEND'S NOT GONNA BE DRAMATIC
AND CALL ME A [BLEEP]
I-I HAVEN'T EVEN GOT TIME TO ADDRESS ANYTHING.
I'M BEING...
YEAH, THIS IS WHAT I KNEW WAS GONNA HAPPEN.
I HAVEN'T HAD TIME TO ADDRESS ANYTHING.
I AM TIRED OF EVERY SINGLE TIME
A LITTLE THING IS SAID AROUND HERE,
YOUR DRAMATIC BOYFRIEND GETS ESCALATED TO UP HERE.
SO THEN, I'M IN THE POSITION TO PICK
BETWEEN MY MOTHER OR MY BOYFRIEND AND MY CHILD.
YOUR CHILD WOULD STILL BE HERE
WITHOUT YOUR BOYFRIEND, JUST LIKE THE OTHER ONE WAS.
THAT'S NOT RIGHT.
WELL, YOU DO WHATEVER YOU WANT TO DO.
ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU KNOW THAT I'M GONNA PICK YOU.
OKAY. IT'S NEVER ABOUT ME.
IT'S NEVER BEEN ABOUT ME -- EVER.
YOU GUYS HAVE LIVED WITH ME FOREVER.
I TAKE CARE OF YOU.
I ASK FOR ONE [BLEEP] THING. ONE THING.
IT'S NOT MY FAULT WILL SAID SOME STUPID [BLEEP]
AND IT CAN'T BE SOMETHING SIMPLE.
I CAN'T RELY ON NOBODY, BUT EVERYBODY RELIES ON ME.
-I'M NOT SAYING I'M NOT GOING. -I'M TIRED, I'M TIRED.
-I'M NOT SAYING I'M NOT GOING. -I KNEW THIS WAS STUPID.
I'VE BEEN ON BOARD SINCE DAY ONE.
YEAH, SO YOU CAN...
YEAH, YOU WERE ON BOARD BEFORE, TOO,
AND BECAUSE OF DAISY, YOU DIDN'T GO.
AND NOW I DON'T HAVE A REASON TO BE HERE.
EXCEPT FOR YOU'RE KNOCKED UP AGAIN.
[ SCOFFS ] YEAH.
[ DAISY CRYING ]
Angie: I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS IS HAPPENING.
FOR ME TO HAVE TO CONVINCE MY DAUGHTER TO DO THIS
TO SAVE HER MOTHER'S LIFE JUST DOESN'T MAKE SENSE TO ME,
AND I'M REALLY HURT BY THAT.
BECAUSE IF I DON'T FIND A WAY TO BE ABLE TO DO THIS,
THEN THE ONLY OPTION I HAVE LEFT
IS TO GIVE UP AND JUST WAIT TO DIE.
♪♪
Desireé: [ Voice breaking ]DUDE, I CANNOT PHYSICALLY DO THIS.
I CANNOT MENTALLY [BLEEP] DO THIS.
I REALLY CAN'T.
IF THAT'S WHAT YOU WANT TO DO, THEN GO AHEAD, DUDE.
I AM NOT TELLING YOU TO LEAVE. GET OUT OF MY FACE.
♪♪
Angie: I'M REAL UPSET AT DESIREé AND HER BOYFRIEND WILL,
AND MY WHOLE SITUATION.
I'VE DECIDED TO TRY TO GET HELP,
AND I WANT MY FAMILY AND ME TO MOVE TO HOUSTON
SO I CAN DO THAT BY SEEING DR. NOW
AND TRYING TO GET WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY.
BUT I CAN'T BELIEVE I'M HAVING TO FIGHT MY OWN DAUGHTER
TO SUPPORT ME AND DO THIS TO HELP SAVE MY LIFE.
I EVEN HAVE TO ASK HER TO CHOOSE BETWEEN WHAT HER BOYFRIEND WANTS
AND WHAT HER MOTHER NEEDS TO LIVE.
SHE'S GONNA COST ME MY LIFE.
I NEED TO TALK TO YOU ONE ON ONE.
BECAUSE YOUR BOYFRIEND WAS A [BLEEP] TO ME
AND I REACTED IN A WAY ANY NORMAL PERSON WOULD?
[ Voice breaking ] I'M NOT SAYING THAT IT WAS ANYWHERE NEAR
OKAY FOR HIM TO SPEAK TO YOU LIKE THAT.
SO WHY ARE YOU CRYING?
I'M EMOTIONAL!
OKAY.
SO, WHAT'S THE PROBLEM?
YOU'RE UPSET BECAUSE YOU KNOW
THAT I'M NOT GONNA LET WILL STAY HERE?
THAT'S WHAT YOU'RE UPSET ABOUT?
YEAH.
WHY?
BECAUSE HE'S THE FATHER OF MY CHILD AND WE'RE TOGETHER.
AND YOU WANT ME TO MOVE 19 HOURS AWAY.
OKAY, WE'RE NOT -- THAT'S NOT A TOPIC RIGHT NOW.
WE'RE TALKING ABOUT YOUR BOYFRIEND
DISRESPECTED ME, PERIOD.
AND THIS ISN'T THE FIRST TIME.
IT'S NOT OKAY FOR HIM TO TALK TO YOU LIKE THAT.
I'M NOT SAYING IT IS.
I'M NOT SAYING THAT I'M CHOOSING HIM OVER YOU.
I'M SAYING I'M CHOOSING YOU OVER HIM, AND IT HURTS ME.
IT'S NOT SUPPOSED TO HURT ME.
THAT'S LIKE ME SAYING "IT'S ME OR JUSTIN."
AND I WOULDN'T EVEN DROP A TEAR FOR THAT DECISION.
BUT I DON'T KNOW HOW THIS IS GOING TO BE RESOLVED
IN FIVE MINUTES.
YEAH, I DON'T EITHER.
SO WE'RE GONNA GO TO SARA'S FOR THE NIGHT
SO EVERYBODY CAN COOL DOWN, AND WE'LL BE HOME TOMORROW.
AND I'LL TALK TO YOU.
[ SNIFFLES ]
COME HERE.
Desireé: YOU COULD BE HEALTHY A HORSE AND STILL DIE THE NEXT DAY.
YOU NEVER KNOW, AND YOU...
NO ONE'S PROMISED TOMORROW.
SO I ALWAYS MAKE SURE THAT WE RESOLVE CONFLICTS
AND LET EACH OTHER KNOW THAT WE LOVE EACH OTHER
AT THE END OF THE DAY.
THAT'S A BIG THING FOR ME
BECAUSE I CERTAINLY DON'T WANT HER TO PASS AWAY
AND OUR LAST WORDS TO BE SOMETHING FOUL.
YOU'RE HOT.
Angie: NONE OF US LIKE THE SITUATION.
I MEAN, I ASSUME THAT IT'S HARD FOR DESIREé
TO HAVE TO BE PUT IN A POSITION
WHERE SHE POSSIBLY HAS TO CHOOSE BETWEEN HER MOM
AND HER SOON-TO-BE-BORN BABY'S DAD.
I FEEL BAD FOR HER. I DO.
BECAUSE WILL'S NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR HER.
I DON'T WANT HER TO FEEL LIKE SHE DOES
WITH DAISY, WITH NO FATHER.
I MEAN, SHE WANTS TO KEEP THIS BABY,
AGAINST ALL BETTER JUDGEMENT.
BUT I DID THE SAME THING, SO I GET IT.
I MEAN, I WANT WILL TO STEP UP AND BE EVERYTHING
THAT SHE WANTS OR THINKS THAT HE IS.
♪♪
FOOD IS THE ONLY THING THAT HELPS ME DEAL
WITH ALL THE STUFF LIKE THIS,
AND THE THINGS I DON'T WANT TO HAVE TO DEAL WITH.
I WISH I HADN'T LET THINGS GET THIS BAD, BUT THEY ARE.
AND I KNOW I HAVE TO DO SOMETHING NOW, AND IF I DON'T,
I'M JUST NOT GONNA BE ALIVE MUCH LONGER.
♪♪
ME AND DESIREé TALKED THINGS OVER SOME MORE,
AND AFTER WE HAD SOME TIME TO COOL DOWN,
MY WHOLE FAMILY WORKED OUT A COMPROMISE.
WHAT WE ALL AGREED TO WAS TO GO DOWN TO HOUSTON TOGETHER
AND SEE HOW THE APPOINTMENT GOES WITH DR. NOW
AND IF HE'S GONNA HELP ME.
BUT I DON'T WANT WILL GOING WITH US ON THIS TRIP,
SO HE'S STAYING HERE.
SO IF DR. NOW'S WILLING TO HELP ME,
THEN WE'LL ALL MOVE DOWN TOGETHER.
AND THAT MAKES SENSE AND WORKS FOR ME.
♪♪
YEP.
DESIREé.
SO, YOU HAVE, UH...
YOUR BAG, THE BATHING STUFF...
MM-HMM.
...MY BLANKET, PILLOWS...
-YEP. -OKAY.
YOUR GRANDMA'S COMING.
SHE SHOULD BE HERE ANY TIME TO WATCH DAISY, HOLD THE FORT DOWN.
THAT'S IT.
ALL RIGHT. I GUESS WE'RE READY TO DO THIS.
♪♪
HELLO, HELLO.
-HI. -HELLO.
HOW ARE YOU?
I LOVE YOU, TOO.
EVERYTHING'S GONNA BE OKAY.
I KNOW.
Desireé: MOMMY'S GOTTA LEAVE.
HEY, DAISY. COME HERE, BABY.
YOU BE GOOD FOR GRANDMA, OKAY?
MOMMY WILL CALL YOU EVERY DAY.
COME HERE, BABY GIRL.
Angie: ARE WE GOING? ARE WE READY?
THIS ROAD TRIP IS GONNA TAKE ABOUT THREE DAYS
TO GET TO HOUSTON, SO I'M WORRIED
IF I'M GONNA BE ABLE TO HANDLE BEING IN THE VEHICLE THAT LONG.
♪♪
COME AND GIVE ME A HUG AND A KISS, BABY.
BE GOOD, OKAY?
GIVE NANA HUGS.
I LOVE YOU.
[ CHUCKLES ] SHE LOVES YOU, NANA.
♪♪
-ARE WE READY? -YEAH.
Desireé: THIS ROAD TRIP IS GONNA BE REALLY STRESSFUL ON MY MOM,
SO I'M A BIT NERVOUS ABOUT IT,
BUT IT'S GONNA BE WORTH IT,
BECAUSE IT'S PRETTY MUCH HER LAST CHANCE.
I KNOW THAT SHE WANTS TO DO BETTER AND BE BETTER,
AND I FEEL LIKE IF IT DOESN'T HAPPEN NOW,
THEN SHE COULD ULTIMATELY DIE.
Angie: [ GRUNTING ]
EVERYTHING IS RIDING ON THIS TRIP.
I'M RIGHT HERE, MOM.
I JUST HOPE THAT THIS WORKS AND THAT I GET DR. NOW'S HELP,
BECAUSE IF I DON'T,
THEN NOT ONLY WILL MY FAMILY AND ME HAVE GONE THROUGH HELL,
BUT IT'LL MEAN I DON'T HAVE ANY OPTIONS TO SAVE MY LIFE.
♪♪
Angie: MY APPOINTMENT WITH DR. NOW IS IN FOUR DAYS,
AND THAT SHOULD BE MORE THAN ENOUGH TIME FOR US TO GET THERE,
BECAUSE THIS DRIVE TO HOUSTON IS A 20-HOUR TRIP.
BUT I KNOW THERE'S NO WAY I CAN GO THAT LONG,
SO WE'RE GONNA HAVE TO BREAK IT UP OVER A FEW DAYS.
BUT I'M GONNA TRY TO PUSH MYSELF
TO GO AT LEAST SIX OR SEVEN HOURS A DAY.
BUT RIGHT NOW, WE'VE BEEN ON THE ROAD FOR FOUR HOURS,
AND I'M DONE.
AND I'M SO HUNGRY.
LOOK. THERE'S FOOD OFF THIS EXIT.
Justin: OKAY.
SO WE'RE GONNA STOP SO I CAN REST AND EAT.
WHAT DO YOU WANT, DESI? DO YOU KNOW?
-I DON'T. -CAN I HELP YOU?
I WANT A SANDWICH WITH CHEESE, MINUS ONION, EXTRA PICKLES.
-ALL RIGHT. -AND THEN A REGULAR CHICKEN.
AND THREE FRIES.
-ALL RIGHT. SECOND WINDOW. -OKAY.
-THANK YOU. -THANK YOU.
-HAVE A NICE DAY. -YOU, TOO.
I'M AGGRAVATED.
AND I'M STARVING.
-ALL RIGHT. -OW!
WHY YOU DON'T LEARN HOW TO DRIVE OR SOMETHING, GUY?
I HOPE MY NEXT HUSBAND KNOWS HOW TO DRIVE BETTER.
♪♪
DESIREé DOESN'T THINK JUSTIN'S GOOD FOR ME.
SHE DOESN'T THINK HE'S GOOD ENOUGH.
SHE THINKS HE USES ME.
I DON'T KNOW WHAT HE'S USING ME FOR, BUT I DON'T KNOW.
WE HAVE SOME ISSUES THAT NEED TO BE TAKEN CARE OF.
JUSTIN, GO IN AND FIND OUT WHERE OUR ROOM IS.
HANG ON.
WHOSE NAME IS IT UNDER?
IT'S ON YOURS. DIDN'T I JUST SAY THAT?
TAKE YOUR I.D. IN AND GO.
NO, YOU DIDN'T [BLEEP] SAY THAT.
IT'S KIND OF A HARD TIME TO FOCUS ON OUR MARRIAGE
WHEN I'M TRYING TO FOCUS ON ME.
SO, I'VE BEEN FOCUSING ON EVERYBODY ELSE FOR A LONG TIME.
IT'S KIND OF THE REASON THAT I AM THE WEIGHT THAT I AM.
I'VE ALWAYS LET PEOPLE DUMP ON ME, FOR YEARS,
AND I'M JUST LIKE, NUMB.
AND I WANT TO WORK ON ME.
IF HE'S THERE AT THE END, HE'S THERE.
IF NOT...
I DON'T KNOW.
-WHERE'S OUR ROOM AT? -RIGHT AROUND THE CORNER.
126.
WHERE IS IT AT? DID THEY TELL YOU?
SHE SAID AROUND THE CORNER.
HOW AM I GONNA GET OVER THERE, DUDE?
♪♪
GO OUT THERE, DESI, AND DO IT.
WE NEED MY WALKER.
I'M NOT SURE WHAT YOU'RE DOING.
JUST MOSEYING AROUND, DOING WHATEVER HE WANTS.
I'M WAITING FOR JUSTIN SO HE CAN HELP ME.
IT'S NEVER JUST ME GETTING IN THE CAR AND GOING.
ANYTHING THAT I DO, ANYWHERE THAT I GO, IT'S ME,
MY WHEELCHAIR, MY WALKER -- WHERE ARE THEY GONNA GO?
WHO'S GONNA SIT WHERE?
IT'S NEVER AN EASY THING.
AND THIS IS NOT EASY TIMES A THOUSAND.
YEAH, I'M PROBABLY NOT GONNA BE ABLE TO WALK UP ON THIS.
READY? ONE, TWO, THREE.
-HERE WE GO. -WHOA!
A LOT OF HOTELS ONLY HAVE ONE OR TWO HANDICAP-ACCESSIBLE ROOMS.
I DON'T EVEN KNOW THE CHANCES OF ME GETTING ONE.
I THINK I'M GONNA PICK THE NEXT ROOM
BECAUSE I'M NOT GONNA BE CRAMMED IN A ROOM LIKE THIS.
I'M CLAUSTROPHOBIC.
WE ABOUT TO EAT? LET'S GET OUR FOOD.
IT'S OVERWHELMING, EVERYTHING THAT'S GOING ON RIGHT NOW.
I KNOW I HAVE TO DIET.
BUT RIGHT NOW, I'M STARVING, AND I CAN'T WAIT ANY LONGER.
THAT'S THE ROAD WE'RE ON.
EVERYTHING IS RIDING ON THIS TRIP.
GETTING AN APPROVAL FROM THE SURGEON
IS MAKE-OR-BREAK FOR MY LIFE.
I WOULD BE DEVASTATED IF HE TOLD ME NO.
BUT I DON'T THINK HE'S GOING TO.
♪♪
IT'S BEEN A DAY SINCE WE LEFT HOME, AND TODAY,
I KNOW I NEED TO GO LONGER
IF WE'RE GONNA MAKE IT TO HOUSTON LIKE WE NEED.
AND I'M GONNA DO MY BEST TO TRY.
WHEN I WOKE UP THIS MORNING, I WAS VERY SORE.
EVERYTHING IN MY BODY HURT.
I HOPE WE GET A BETTER ROOM TONIGHT,
BECAUSE THAT ROOM WAS DEFINITELY NOT SOMETHING FOR ME.
I AM VERY ANXIOUS TO GET THE DRIVE OVER.
I'D LIKE TO BE HALFWAY TO TEXAS TODAY.
♪♪
YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO PULL UP TO THE FRONT, BABE,
UNDERNEATH THAT AWNING.
THEY MIGHT HAVE CARTS SO YOU CAN PUT THE STUFF ON, TOO,
WHENEVER YOU COME OUT. THEY DO. RIGHT THERE.
IT'S THE END OF OUR SECOND DAY OF DRIVING.
WE ARE IN TENNESSEE AT A HOTEL.
BEING IN THE CAR FOR THAT LONG, IT'S WEARING ON ME.
I'M TIRED, AND MY LEGS ARE SORE.
MY BACK'S SORE, AND I AM FRUSTRATED.
I HOPE AFTER A GOOD NIGHT'S SLEEP TONIGHT,
I'LL BE READY TO DO THIS ALL OVER AGAIN TOMORROW.
HOPEFULLY WITH BETTER SPIRITS.
IS IT COMFORTABLE?
IT SURE IS.
OKAY. SO...
PLAN.
WELL, ME AND DESIREé ALREADY KINDA HAVE
A LITTLE BIT OF A PLAN.
I'M GONNA FIND OUT A STORE FOR YOU,
AND YOU CAN GO TO THE STORE.
RIGHT. YOU BETTER MAKE SURE IT'S CLOSE TO HERE,
'CAUSE I'M NOT GETTING [BLEEP] LOST IN HERE.
AND I AIN'T SEEN NOTHING CLOSE.
OKAY, FIRST OF ALL, YOU CAN QUIT CUSSING AT ME.
THAT'S WHERE WE CAN START AT.
YOU CAN QUIT CUSSING AT ME.
SECONDLY, I'M GONNA GOOGLE FOR A STORE
AND YOU'RE GONNA GO TO THE STORE.
IF IT'S NOT CLOSE, I'M NOT GOING.
WHAT ARE WE SUPPOSED TO EAT?
WHAT THE [BLEEP] ARE YOU, EINSTEIN?
...THE STORE SO I CAN SEE HOW FAR IT IS AND WHERE I GOT TO GO.
NO, IT'S THE POINT OF YOUR ATTITUDE.
YOU'VE HAD AN ATTITUDE SINCE WE LEFT HOME,
AND YOU CAN GO BACK HOME
AND I'LL HAVE MY BROTHER COME HERE, BELIEVE THAT.
AND GET YOU [BLEEP] AND GO TO YOUR MAMA'S HOUSE,
'CAUSE I'M SICK OF YOUR ATTITUDE.
I DON'T WANT YOU AND I DON'T NEED YOU.
I GUESS I'M SEEING MAYBE THIS ISN'T SOMETHING
HE REALLY WANTS TO DO,
'CAUSE HE'S HAD AN ATTITUDE SINCE WE LEFT THE HOUSE.
HE PROBABLY DOESN'T EVEN REALLY WANT TO BE DOING THIS TRIP,
BUT HE HOLDS IT IN AND THEN IT ALL COMES OUT OVER SOME STUPID,
LIKE, STORE TRIP.
I KNEW THIS WAS GONNA HAPPEN.
I [BLEEP] KNEW IT.
KNEW WHAT WAS GONNA HAPPEN?
YOU. YOU'RE [BLEEP] PATHETIC. YOU.
BECAUSE I DON'T WANT TO DRIVE TO STORE THAT I DON'T...
I'M IN A CITY I DON'T KNOW [BLEEP] ABOUT,
AND YOU WANT ME TO DRIVE AROUND TO STORES?
YOU'RE PATHETIC. YOU'RE PATHETIC. YOU'RE PATHETIC.
BUT THAT'S PATHETIC 'CAUSE I DON'T WANT TO GET LOST?
WASTE OF LIFE. [BLEEP] LOSER.
YOU SHOULDN'T EVEN BE AROUND ME ANYWAYS.
THAT'S ALL YOU ARE IS A [BLEEP] LOSER.
YOU FRICKIN' PUT ON A SHOW FOR PEOPLE.
YOU'RE FAKE AS [BLEEP]
NO, YOU ARE.
YOU'RE A FAKE PIECE OF [BLEEP]
'CAUSE I DON'T WANT TO GO TO A STORE
THAT I DON'T KNOW [BLEEP] ABOUT?
WHATEVER. I DON'T KNOW WHERE YOU'RE GOING
BUT YOU'RE GETTIN' UP OUT OF THIS ROOM.
THIS ROOM'S IN MY NAME.
PSH. THAT'LL BE CHANGED REAL QUICK, GUY.
[ SNIFFLES ]
THERE'S SOMETHING GOING ON, SOMETHING MORE.
I DON'T KNOW WHAT IT IS.
I THINK HE'S HAVING DOPE FITS, IF YOU ASK ME.
MY DAUGHTER IS THE ONE THAT ASSISTS ME THROUGH EVERYTHING.
HE DOESN'T DO ANYTHING.
HE'S JUST THERE.
THAT'S MY SUPPORT GROUP -- MY DAUGHTER.
HE'S JUST CONVENIENT RIGHT NOW BECAUSE HE'S DRIVING.
HE'S NOT MY SUPPORT GROUP.
I'M GOING FORWARD WITH OR WITHOUT HIM, AND HE KNOWS THAT.
WHETHER WE GET A DIVORCE, WHETHER WE SPLIT UP...
HE DOESN'T REALLY HAVE MUCH CHOICE.
♪♪
WHEW.
TODAY, I'M AT THE CLINIC TO SEE DR. NOWZARADAN
FOR MY FIRST APPOINTMENT,
IN HOPES THAT I GET APPROVED FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY.
THIS JOURNEY WAS HARDER THAN I ANTICIPATED.
MY LEGS ARE SWOLLEN. MY FEET ARE SWOLLEN.
EVERYTHING HURTS.
ANGELA JOHNS?
I'M NERVOUS DR. NOW WON'T ACCEPT ME AS HIS PATIENT
BECAUSE I'M TOO HEAVY.
I'M SCARED OF FINDING OUT WHAT MY WEIGHT REALLY IS.
IF I'M 600 POUNDS, I'LL PROBABLY BE VERY UPSET.
'CAUSE I'VE NEVER SEEN THAT NUMBER BEFORE.
♪♪
HOLY [BLEEP]
♪♪
QUIT BEING SPAGHETTI ARMS WHEN I NEED YOU, DUDE.
Justin: I'M NOT.
THAT'S A LITTLE BIT OF A SHOCK.
IT'S A LOT, AND IT JUST BECAME REAL.
I JUST REALIZED THAT I AM 39 YEARS OLD
AND THAT AMOUNT OF WEIGHT...
I'M WORRIED THAT I'M NOT GONNA HAVE ENOUGH TIME
TO GET RID OF IT.
I JUST HOPE DR. NOW TAKES ME ON AS A PATIENT,
BECAUSE I HAVE TO GET THIS HELP.
[ KNOCKS ON DOOR ]
♪♪
-HELLO. -HELLO.
HOW Y'ALL DOIN'?
GOOD.
I'M DR. NOWZARADAN.
-HI. -YOU'RE ANGELA?
YES.
AND THIS YOUNG MAN?
-JUSTIN. -GOOD TO MEET YOU.
-AND YOU? -DESIREé.
-AND YOU'RE THE DAUGHTER? -YES.
-AND YOU'RE THE HUSBAND? -YEP.
ALL RIGHT. WHERE Y'ALL COMING FROM?
-OHIO. -OHIO.
THAT'S A FAR DRIVE DOWN.
YOU FEELING ALL RIGHT? ANY PROBLEMS?
-I'M FINE, I GUESS. -THAT'S GOOD.
ALL RIGHT, ANGIE, YOU ARE A 39-YEAR-OLD
AND 5'5" AND 643 POUNDS.
SO, ARE YOU ABLE TO BE ACTIVE?
NO, NOT REALLY. WELL, I...
I INJURED MY KNEE IN 2011, SO...
MY KNEE GIVES OUT, POPS OUT OF PLACE.
IT'S GRINDING BONE ON BONE NOW.
OKAY. WELL, THE BEST THING TO HELP YOUR KNEE
WOULD BE TO LOSE WEIGHT.
I FIGURED THAT.
I KNOW I HAVE TO LOSE WEIGHT TO FIX MY KNEE.
WELL, IF YOU'VE FIGURED THAT,
THEN WHAT'S HOLDING YOU UP SO FAR TO LOSE WEIGHT?
I JUST...
I DON'T KNOW. I DON'T KNOW.
-OKAY. -I FEEL LIKE IF I CAN'T MOVE,
I CAN'T LOSE WEIGHT.
NO, THAT'S COMPLETELY INACCURATE.
THE REASON YOU'RE OVERWEIGHT IS YOU EAT TOO MUCH.
SO, WHAT IS GOING ON WITH YOUR EATING HABIT?
BECAUSE IN ORDER FOR YOU TO MAINTAIN YOUR WEIGHT
AT 643 POUNDS,
YOU'RE EATING AT LEAST 6,000 TO 7,000 CALORIES A DAY.
AND IF YOU'RE GAINING, IT'S EVEN MORE THAN THAT.
-OKAY. -OKAY.
SO, WHAT IS DRIVING YOU TO EAT LIKE THAT?
ARE YOU HUNGRY?
IS IT HABIT? STRESS?
I THINK I EAT WHEN I'M BORED.
SO YOU YOU'RE KILLING YOURSELF FOR ENTERTAINMENT WITH BOREDOM?
WELL, PROBABLY NOT.
YOU DON'T THINK THIS KIND OF EATING YOU HAVE
HAS ANYTHING TO DO WITH THINGS LIKE EMOTIONS?
I MEAN, I WOULDN'T SAY I'M AN EMOTIONAL EATER,
'CAUSE I DON'T THINK THAT I AM.
I EAT AT BAD TIMES.
I DON'T EAT DURING THE MORNING AND AFTERNOON,
BECAUSE I DRINK COFFEE WHICH SUPPRESSES MY APPETITE.
I EAT AT THE NIGHT, AND THEN I GO TO BED.
I EAT A LOT AT NIGHT,
BECAUSE I'M HUNGRY FROM NOT EATING ALL DAY
AND THEN I OVEREAT.
THE ONLY ACCURATE THING THAT YOU SAID WAS THAT YOU EAT A LOT.
BUT WHAT YOU'RE LEAVING OUT IS THAT IT'S ALL DAY LONG.
SO DON'T TRY TO CONVINCE ME YOU'RE JUST EATING ONCE A DAY,
BECAUSE I'M NOT BUYING IT.
RIGHT.
BUT IF YOU HAVE TROUBLE GETTING AROUND,
THEN WHO BRINGS YOU THE FOOD?
MY HUSBAND AND HER DOES.
OKAY.
IT SEEMS YOUR WEIGHT-GAIN IS AFFECTING YOUR DAUGHTER,
SO THERE IS A MUTUAL BENEFIT
BECAUSE YOUR DAUGHTER ALSO HAS SOME WEIGHT PROBLEMS, HUH?
YEAH.
SO IF SHE BRINGS YOU UNHEALTHY FOOD, SHE CAN EAT IT, TOO.
YEAH.
ALL RIGHT.
SHE EATS THE SAME FOOD AS ME, SO...
I'M WORRIED. I TELL HER ALL THE TIME,
WHEN YOU GET TO THIS AGE IT'S HARDER TO LOSE WEIGHT,
AND YOU'RE A LOT MORE -- THINGS ARE GONNA HAPPEN.
'CAUSE I WAS HER WEIGHT WHEN I...
I WAS ACTUALLY A LITTLE LIGHTER THAN HER
WHEN I WAS HER AGE, TO BE HONEST.
AND IT'S HERE NOW. I TELL HER ALL THE TIME,
IT'S GONNA HAPPEN IF IT DOESN'T CHANGE.
AND SHE'S PREGNANT,
SO IT'S GONNA MAKE HER WEIGHT-GAIN EVEN WORSE.
AND ON TOP OF THAT, SHE SMOKES, TOO.
-WE ALL SMOKE. -PREGNANT LADY DOESN'T SMOKE
AS MUCH AS PREGNANT LADY USED TO SMOKE.
THIS IS THE MOST DANGEROUS THING FOR YOUR CHILD...
-I KNOW. -...A MOTHER SMOKING.
YOU HAVE TO STOP THAT IMMEDIATELY.
DO YOU GOT THAT?
-ALL RIGHT. -GOOD.
BACK TO YOUR EATING HABITS.
JUSTIN IS ENABLING YOU, BUT HE IS NOT OVERWEIGHT,
SO LET'S TALK ABOUT HIS EATING HABITS.
HE EATS MORE THAN BOTH OF US.
HE EATS MORE THAN BOTH OF YOU?
-ABSOLUTELY. -THAT'S PHYSICALLY IMPOSSIBLE.
SO, WE GOT SOME SERIOUS ISSUES WITH DELUSION WITH YOU ALL.
ALL RIGHT.
THIS MAN DEFINITELY EATS MORE THAN I DO.
HE HAS A HIGH METABOLISM.
I EAT PROBABLY 8,000 TO 10,000 CALORIES A DAY.
ANGIE, YOU CAN LIE ALL YOU WANT,
BUT THIS IS ALL SCIENCE AND MATH.
AND THE BIG PART OF THE PROBLEM WE'RE FACING HERE
IS THAT YOU SEEM LIKE A MASSIVE MANIPULATOR
WHO THINKS SHE CAN JUST DECIDE WHAT THE FACTS ARE
SHE WANTS TO BELIEVE,
AND JUST TELL EVERYONE ELSE WHAT TO THINK.
SO IF YOU'RE HERE TO JUST PLAY GAMES,
THEN THIS IS NOT GONNA END WELL FOR YOU,
BECAUSE YOU REALIZE THAT THIS IS A DANGEROUS SITUATION?
YOU'RE 39 AND YOU ARE 643 POUNDS.
SO, AT THIS POINT, YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO DECIDE
WHETHER YOU WANT TO DO THIS,
OR IF YOU PLAN TO JUST KEEP DOING THINGS LIKE YOU HAVE BEEN,
HOPING YOUR SITUATION SOMEHOW MAGICALLY GETS BETTER.
BECAUSE THE REALITY IS IT'S NOT
UNLESS YOU START MAKING THE CHANGES YOU NEED IMMEDIATELY.
OKAY.
SO I'M GONNA GIVE YOU A 1,200 A DAY,
HIGH-PROTEIN, LOW-CARB DIET, THAT YOU NEED TO START TODAY.
OKAY.
AND YOU'RE GONNA STICK WITH THAT.
AND IF YOU DO THAT,
YOU'RE GONNA BE ABLE TO LOSE 50 POUNDS
IN ONE MONTH, OKAY?
OKAY.
AND IF YOU HIT THAT GOAL BY THEN,
I'LL APPROVE YOU FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY.
SO, IF I EAT HEALTHY, THE 1,200,
STICK TO EVERYTHING YOU GIVE ME,
I'LL LOSE WEIGHT EVEN IF I CAN'T REALLY GET UP
AND EXERCISE AROUND AND DANCE AROUND?
YES. BUT YOU CAN EXERCISE.
YOU CAN EXERCISE IN YOUR CHAIR.
-YEAH, I DO. -ARMS.
AND YOU CAN DO YOUR LEG EXERCISE.
YOU CAN EXERCISE IN A BED.
YOU CAN LIFT UP YOUR LEG.
SO WE'RE GONNA GIVE YOU SOME TO DO EVERY DAY.
ONE HOUR IN THE MORNING, ONE HOUR IN THE AFTERNOON,
YOU WORK ON YOUR MUSCLES.
SO, YOU THINK YOU CAN DO THAT?
ABSOLUTELY. BUT HERE'S THE THING --
I'M COMING HERE NEXT MONTH.
WELL, I WAS JUST KINDA HOPING
THAT I'M GONNA BE IN YOUR PROGRAM
SO THAT I CAN JUST GO AHEAD
AND CONTINUE WITH MY PLANS OF LEAVING AND COMING HERE.
IF YOU WANT TO DO MY PROGRAM,
YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO BE HERE IN HOUSTON.
SO YOU CAN MOVE DOWN TO HOUSTON ANY TIME YOU WANT TO.
OKAY.
BUT UNTIL YOU SHOW ME YOU'RE WILLING TO TAKE THIS FIRST STEP
AND PUT FORTH SOME EFFORT,
THERE'S NO GUARANTEE YOU'RE GONNA BE PART OF THE PROGRAM.
SO THAT'S A RISK YOU TAKE.
AND WHAT WE DO FROM HERE ALL DEPENDS ON YOU.
I KNOW.
SO, LOSE THE WEIGHT YOU NEED IF YOU WANT TO DO THIS PROGRAM.
DO YOU THINK YOU CAN DO THAT?
YES.
ANY QUESTIONS?
NO.
ALL RIGHT.
I'LL SEE YOU WHEN YOU ALL GET BACK DOWN TO HOUSTON.
I'LL SEE YOU.
ALL RIGHT.
♪♪
Dr. Nowzaradan: THERE ARE A NUMBER OF ISSUES
THAT I AM VERY CONCERNED ABOUT WITH ANGELA NOW
THAT ARE GOING TO MAKE ADDRESSING HER SITUATION
EXTREMELY DIFFICULT.
THE FIRST BEING THE DYSFUNCTIONAL DYNAMIC
THE WHOLE FAMILY SEEMS TO HAVE WITH EACH OTHER.
THERE DOESN'T APPEAR TO BE MUCH SUPPORT BETWEEN THEM.
AND HER MANIPULATING IS GONNA BE ANOTHER BIG PROBLEM,
BECAUSE SHE CLEARLY WANTS TO BE THE ONE WHO'S IN CONTROL,
WHERE EVERYONE BELIEVES AND DOES WHATEVER SAYS.
BUT THESE TWO CONCERNS I HAVE
ARE JUST THE TIP OF THE ICEBERG OF ISSUES I'M SEEING
THAT ARE GOING TO MAKE IT DIFFICULT
TO ADDRESS HER SITUATION.
SO AT THIS POINT, I'M HOPEFUL THAT SHE'LL TAKE THIS SERIOUSLY
AND WORK HARD TO DO WHAT SHE NEEDS AND HIT HER GOAL.
BUT IT'S LOOKING LIKE IT'S GOING TO BE AN UPHILL BATTLE
TO BE ABLE TO GET HER THERE.
Angie: I HAVE A LOT GOING THROUGH MY MIND RIGHT NOW
WITH TAKING IN EVERYTHING THE DOCTOR TOLD ME.
I WAS ONLY HOPING TO HEAR THAT I WAS GONNA BE GIVEN A CHANCE
TO BE IN HIS PROGRAM, AND THAT'S WHAT I HEARD TODAY,
SO I AM PREPARED TO DO WHAT DR. NOWZARADAN HAS ASKED OF ME.
BUT I'VE NEVER LOST 50 POUNDS EVER,
SO IF I LOSE 50 POUNDS IN A MONTH,
I'M GONNA SHOCK MYSELF.
BUT I'M GETTING A SECOND CHANCE AT LIFE,
AND I'M GONNA DO WHAT IT TAKES TO GET APPROVED FOR SURGERY.
BECAUSE I WANT TO LIVE.
♪♪
SINCE WE'VE BEEN BACK FROM DR. NOW'S,
ME AND MY FAMILY HAVE BEEN TRYING TO ADJUST
TO ALL THE CHANGES THAT WE NEED,
WHILE ALSO TRYING TO FIGURE OUT HOW TO MOVE TO HOUSTON.
THE DEAL THAT ME AND DESIREé MADE WAS
WE'D SEE IF DR. NOW WAS GONNA HELP ME.
AND IF HE WAS, WE AGREED WE ALL MOVE TO HOUSTON,
NO MATTER WHAT HER BOYFRIEND WILL WANTS.
BUT IT JUST SEEMS LIKE NO ONE'S HAPPY OR ON BOARD ANYMORE,
SO IT FEELS LIKE EVERYONE IS TURNING AGAINST ME.
BUT I TOLD THEM ALL, AS FAR AS I'M CONCERNED,
IT'S A DONE DEAL --
WE'RE MOVING TO HOUSTON, AND THAT'S ALL THERE IS TO IT.
AND UNTIL THEN, I'VE GOT TO LOSE WEIGHT.
SO WHILE THE FAMILY ALL EATS THE SAME JUNK
I WANT TO EAT, WE'RE MAKING SPECIAL MEALS FOR ME
THAT FOLLOW DR. NOW'S DIET.
AND I FEEL LIKE IT'S MAKING A DIFFERENCE,
BECAUSE I FEEL BETTER EVEN THOUGH I'M STARVING A LOT.
THE CHICKEN LOOKS PRETTY.
THANK YOU.
BUT, UM...
ANYWAYS, I'M WORRIED I'M GONNA GO INTO
THE APPOINTMENT WITH THE DOCTOR AND NOT LOSE THAT 50 POUNDS
AND HE'S GONNA, LIKE, GET SMART WITH ME
AND I'M GONNA HAVE TO CUSS HIM OUT.
-NO, DON'T CUSS HIM OUT. -I'M NOT.
'CAUSE I KNOW I NEED TO COME THERE.
I MEAN...
YEAH, IT'S NOT REALLY, LIKE, AN IDEAL LIVING SITUATION,
BUT EVEN IF WE HAVE TO, LIKE, TAKE ONE BEDROOM RIGHT NOW,
I CAN SLEEP IN THE LIVING ROOM
AND GIVE YOU GUYS THE BEDROOM UNTIL WILL GETS A JOB DOWN THERE
AND WE CAN AFFORD SOMETHING BIGGER, JUST TO GET US THERE.
JUST THE THOUGHT OF PACKING ME, DAISY, AND WILL,
AND A NEWBORN BABY INTO ONE ROOM...
IS STRESSFUL.
WELL, YOU DON'T HAVE TO DO ANYTHING,
BUT I APPRECIATE THAT YOU'RE DOING IT FOR ME.
I'M DOING IT FOR ALL OF US.
THIS HASN'T BEEN EASY AT ALL,
AND SOME DAYS IT FEELS LIKE TORTURE.
MY WHOLE LIFE IS DEPENDING ON GETTING ALL THIS FIGURED OUT.
THE DIET, EXERCISE, MOVING MY FAMILY DOWN,
ALL OF IT, AND THAT'S A LOT AT ONCE,
SO I FEEL LIKE THERE'S SO MUCH PRESSURE ON ME RIGHT NOW.
SO THIS IS ROUGH.
BUT I HAVE TO DO THIS,
AND I HAVE TO KEEP MY FAMILY ON BOARD, TOO.
♪♪
MY LIFE IS ALL OVER THE PLACE RIGHT NOW.
JUSTIN IS NO LONGER HERE.
WE HAVE SEPARATED.
ABOUT A WEEK AGO, WE GOT INTO AN ARGUMENT.
HE WAS UNDER THE INFLUENCE, AS USUAL,
AND HE PACKED HIS THINGS UP AND LEFT.
IT WAS A STUPID FIGHT HE CREATED
BECAUSE HE DIDN'T WANT TO GO TO TEXAS,
AND THE WHOLE TIME HE KNEW HE DIDN'T WANT TO GO.
BUT HE NEVER SAID THAT.
♪♪
BE CAREFUL ON THE ONION RINGS.
OOH. IT'S SO HOT.
BE CAREFUL. YEAH, YOU'RE GONNA BURN YOUR MOUTH.
AH! HOT.
HE HAD ME CONVINCED THAT HE WAS THIS GREAT GUY.
♪♪
SO, I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO, BECAUSE THE ONLY THING
THAT'S GETTING ME THROUGH ALL THIS RIGHT NOW IS FOOD.
BUT I'M TRYING TO STICK TO THE DIET AS MUCH AS I CAN,
EVEN THOUGH IT'S HARD.
I'M JUST HAVING MOMENTS
WHERE I HAVE TO HAVE SOMETHING THAT'S NOT ON THE DIET.
SOMETHING THAT TASTES REALLY GOOD.
AND I'M SCARED BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW
HOW I'M GONNA GET TO HOUSTON AND DO THIS NOW.
I'M SUPPOSED TO BE BACK FOR MY FOLLOW-UP APPOINTMENT
WITH DR. NOW IN TWO DAYS, BUT I'M NOT GONNA MAKE IT
BECAUSE WITHOUT JUSTIN, I CAN'T DO THIS.
I FEEL A LOT OF FEELINGS ABOUT IT,
BUT MOSTLY I FEEL BETRAYED.
AND I HAVE NO IDEA HOW TO FIX THIS OR WHAT TO DO.
♪♪
IT'S BEEN THREE MONTHS SINCE MY APPOINTMENT
WITH DR. NOW, AND I WAS SUPPOSED TO BE BACK DOWN TO SEE HIM
FOR MY FOLLOW-UP A COUPLE MONTHS AGO,
BUT WITH MY HUSBAND LEAVING ME, NOW I'M ON MY OWN.
LIKE, EVERYTHING IS ON MY SHOULDERS.
AND MOVING TO HOUSTON'S BEEN DIFFICULT AND CHALLENGING.
FINDING A PLACE THERE IS NOT THAT EASY FROM HERE.
AND DESIREé'S DUE DATE IS IN A COUPLE MONTHS,
AND THAT'S JUST ANOTHER THING THAT'S MAKING FIGURING OUT
ANY PLANS TO DO THIS EVEN HARDER,
BUT I DON'T WANT DR. NOW TO GIVE UP ON ME,
SO I'M TALKING TO HIM TODAY.
AND I'M HOPING HE'S UNDERSTANDING
OF EVERYTHING I HAVE GOING ON.
♪♪
HI, DR. HOW.
HEY. HOW ARE YOU?
I'M GOOD. HOW ARE YOU?
I'M DOING GREAT. SO, WHAT'S GOING ON WITH YOU?
I THINK THAT I'M DOING OKAY,
EXCEPT I'M STILL DRINKING POP HERE AND THERE.
WELL, THAT'S UNACCEPTABLE.
IF YOU WANT TO CHANGE YOUR LIFE,
YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO STICK WITH THE DIET.
DON'T BE WISHY-WASHY ABOUT IT.
IF YOU'RE WISHY-WASHY ABOUT IT, STAY WHERE YOU ARE.
-DON'T COME TO HOUSTON. -OKAY.
BECAUSE YOU'RE PLAYING GAMES WITH ME.
BUT IF YOU'RE SERIOUS ABOUT IT,
CHANGE YOUR LIFE AND STICK WITH IT, OKAY?
I WANT TO, BUT IT'S JUST BEEN HARD
BECAUSE ME AND MY HUSBAND SEPARATED
AFTER WE LEFT YOUR OFFICE.
HE DOESN'T WANT TO MOVE TO TEXAS, SO...
HE PUT ME IN A LITTLE BIT OF A FINANCIAL ISSUE, BUT...
I'M TRYING.
WELL, ACT LIKE YOU SHOULD, THEN YOU NEED TO DECIDE
WHAT THE BEST COURSE OF ACTION AND OPTION IS BEST FOR YOU.
WELL, MY BEST OPTION WOULD BE TO COME TO HOUSTON.
IT'S MY...
I MEAN, IT'S MY LAST OPTION.
IT'S MY ONLY OPTION, TO CHANGE MY LIFE.
BUT YOU'RE DOING NOTHING TO MAKE THAT HAPPEN.
YOU'RE JUST GIVING ME EXCUSES.
OKAY? SO, WHAT CAN YOU DO TO MAKE THAT HAPPEN?
I'M TRYING REALLY HARD TO FIND A PLACE.
BUT YOU'RE NOT LOSING WEIGHT.
IF YOU DON'T CHANGE THAT,
THEN THERE'S NO POINT IN COMING HERE.
YOU GET THAT?
OKAY.
SO, THIS IS WHAT WE CAN DO.
I'M GONNA SET UP FOR YOU TO GET A WEIGH-IN SOMEWHERE LOCAL,
AND THEY'RE GONNA GIVE YOU TWO MONTHS
TO LOSE 100 POUNDS.
GOT IT?
I GOT IT.
I HOPE SO, BECAUSE SO FAR,
THINGS ARE NOT LOOKING GOOD FOR YOU.
BUT YOU CAN DO THIS IF YOU WANT.
OKAY.
ALL RIGHT, ANGIE.
IF YOU NEED ANYTHING JUST CALL US, OKAY?
ALL RIGHT. THANKS.
-OKAY. BYE. -ALL RIGHT. BYE.
I DON'T THINK DR. NOW UNDERSTANDS EVERYTHING
I HAVE TO DEAL WITH RIGHT NOW AND HOW HARD IT IS.
I THINK DOUBLING MY GOAL IS JUST PUNISHMENT
BECAUSE I MISSED MY APPOINTMENT.
IF I LOSE 50 POUNDS, THEN THAT SHOULD BE MORE
THAN ENOUGH TO GET WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY.
AND IF I COULD JUST LOSE ALL THIS WEIGHT,
I WOULDN'T NEED HIS HELP, NOW WOULD I?
BUT I HAVE TO DO WHAT HE SAYS IF I WANT WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY.
SO I'LL STICK TO IT TO MAKE SURE I HIT HIS GOAL
SO HE'LL SEE HE'S WRONG AT MY NEXT WEIGH-IN,
AND THE ONLY THING HE SHOULD HAVE TO SAY THEN
IS I WAS WRONG, ANGIE, AND GOOD JOB.
♪♪
THE PAST FEW WEEKS, THINGS HAVEN'T GOTTEN ANY EASIER.
-READY? -MM-HMM.
YOU HAVE THE BAND-AIDS AND STUFF?
I'M STILL WORKING ON DOING WHAT I NEED,
BUT I HAD TO TAKE A BREAK FROM MY EXERCISES
BECAUSE I GOT AN INFECTION IN MY GROIN AREA
AND IT'S EXTREMELY PAINFUL.
AND IT MAKES IT HARD TO GET AROUND
AND WALK AS MUCH AS DR. NOW WANTS ME TO WALK.
BUT DESIREé HAS BEEN TAKING CARE OF ME
AND HELPING ME TEND TO THAT SO IT DOESN'T GET ANY WORSE.
I THINK IT LOOKS REALLY GOOD. THERE'S NEW SKIN FORMING.
OH, THANK GOD.
BECAUSE I KNOW I CAN'T AFFORD TO LET ANYTHING SERIOUS
HAPPEN TO ME WITH HOW BAD MY BODY IS NOW.
ONE BAND-AID IS PROBABLY
GONNA BE A LITTLE MORE IDEAL RIGHT NOW.
THERE YOU GO.
-THAT GOOD? -YEP.
THE ONLY GOOD THING THAT'S HAPPENED TO ME AT ALL
IS THAT JUSTIN CAME BACK AND MOVED BACK IN WITH US.
HE ASKED ME TO TAKE HIM BACK,
AND HE SAID HE'D BE WILLING TO GO TO HOUSTON WITH ME.
SO I TOLD HIM I'D TAKE HIM BACK,
BUT THAT I HAD SERIOUS TRUST ISSUES STILL.
BUT NOW DESIREé SAYS IF HE GOES, SHE'S NOT.
BECAUSE SHE DOESN'T THINK I SHOULD TAKE HIM BACK
OR THAT I SHOULD TRUST HIM.
Desireé: JUSTIN ENDED UP HAVING A DOWNFALL,
SO HE LEFT, BUT HE CAME BACK.
YOU CAN'T WRONG A PERSON FOR LOVING SOMEBODY,
SO I STILL SUPPORT HER, BUT I'M NOT GONNA TRUST HIM ANYMORE.
TO ME, HE WILL JUST BE WROTE OFF, BASICALLY.
Justin: I LOVE MY WIFE, AND I WANT TO GO TO TEXAS WITH HER
AND I WANT TO SEE HER GET BETTER SO SHE CAN HAVE A LIFE
AND WE CAN HAVE A LIFE TOGETHER.
♪♪
HOW YOU BEEN?
Angie: I'M ALL RIGHT.
AS WE DISCUSSED, TRUSTING YOU IS GOING TO BE A PROCESS.
I KNOW.
ADDICTION IS HARD, I KNOW.
I MEAN, I'M A RECOVERING ADDICT, SO IT'S JUST...
HOPEFULLY, HE'S LEARNED.
HE SAYS HE'S LEARNING.
SO, YOU'RE AWARE IF YOU LEAVE OR YOU DON'T FOLLOW THROUGH
WITH THE THINGS THAT YOU SAID YOU WILL,
WE ARE GETTING A DIVORCE?
YES. I DO.
LIKE, DIVORCED. DONE.
YEAH.
NO MORE CHANCES. THIS IS IT.
I'M READY TO DO THIS.
I'M FROM THE SHOW ME STATE, SO YOU HAVE TO SHOW ME BETTER
THAN YOU CAN TELL ME ANYWAYS.
♪♪
I THINK IT'S GONNA BE A GOOD NEW START FOR BOTH OF US
AND ANOTHER CHAPTER, AND I THINK IT'S EVEN GONNA BE BETTER
'CAUSE HE'S NOT GONNA HAVE DRUG DEALERS
THERE THAT HE KNOWS, SO...
PUT SOME TIME UNDER HIS BELT FOR SOBRIETY, AND WE BOTH GET WELL.
BUT IF HE'S RELAPSING AT ALL,
I HAVE TO BE EXTRA CAREFUL TO NOT LET THAT INFLUENCE ME.
BECAUSE WITH MY HISTORY WITH DRUGS,
I CAN'T LET MYSELF FALL BACK INTO ANY OF THOSE HABITS.
-I LOVE YOU. -I LOVE YOU TOO.
I WANT TO BE HEALTHY. I WANT TO LIVE LONGER.
I DON'T WANT TO BE A FAILURE.
I WANT TO SUCCEED IN DOING THIS.
I'LL MAKE SURE NOT TO LOSE MY FOCUS,
OR LET HIM SLIP ME UP AT ALL,
BECAUSE I CAN'T LOSE THIS CHANCE.
♪♪
Angie: DR. NOW IS SENDING ME TO A LOCAL CLINIC
TO GET MY WEIGHT CHECKED,
AND THEN I'M SUPPOSED TO CALL HIM
AND LET HIM KNOW HOW MUCH I LOST.
MY PLAN IS TO SHOW DR. NOW THAT HE IS WRONG
AND I'M MAKING PROGRESS,
AND THEN GET APPROVED FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY,
AND THEN WE'RE ALL MOVING EVERYTHING DOWN TO HOUSTON.
DESIREé'S REFUSING TO DO MUCH OF ANYTHING
AS LONG AS JUSTIN'S AROUND,
WHICH IS FINE BY ME BECAUSE
I DON'T WANT HER BOYFRIEND AROUND ANYWAY.
BUT MY BEST FRIEND MANDY'S BEEN IN TOWN
FOR ABOUT A WEEK NOW, HELPING OUT.
AND BETWEEN HER AND JUSTIN, WE'LL GET THE JOB DONE
AND MOVE DOWN TO HOUSTON NO MATTER WHAT.
I'M NOT WORRIED ABOUT HOW THIS IS GONNA GO TODAY,
BECAUSE I KNOW I'VE LOST A LOT.
-ANGIE? HI. -HI.
DR. NOW GAVE ME A BIGGER WEIGHT-LOSS GOAL
ON MY LAST CALL WITH HIM THAT HE WANTED ME TO HIT,
WHICH I THINK WAS JUST PUNISHMENT FROM HIM
FOR MISSING MY APPOINTMENT.
HE DOESN'T KNOW WHAT HE'S TALKING ABOUT
WHEN HE SAYS I'M JUST MAKING EXCUSES.
SO AS LONG AS I HIT THE FIRST GOAL OF LOSING 50 POUNDS,
I THINK I'M GOOD.
AND IF I DID THAT, I'D BE 593.
AND I'M PRETTY SURE I DID THAT.
YOU GOOD? I'M GOOD. I'M CLEAR.
♪♪
I'M GETTING OFF THIS THING.
-DO YOU NEED SOME WATER, ANGIE? -UH, YEAH.
I'M IN TROUBLE.
IT'S ONLY 45 POUNDS.
THAT'S CLOSE. DON'T BEAT YOURSELF UP FOR THAT.
ARE YOU READY TO CALL DR. NOW
AND LET HIM KNOW WHAT YOUR WEIGHT WAS?
-YEAH. -OKAY.
♪♪
HELLO.
ANGIE, HOW YOU DOIN'?
I'M ALL RIGHT.
ALL RIGHT. SO, DID YOU CHECK YOUR WEIGHT?
YES.
AND HOW MUCH YOU WEIGH NOW?
I'M DOWN TO 598.6. AND I'M PROUD OF THAT.
SO, LOOKING BACK, YOU ALMOST LOST 50 POUNDS, HUH?
YES.
ALL RIGHT. THAT'S A LITTLE PROGRESS,
BUT YOU WERE SUPPOSED TO LOSE 100 POUNDS IN TWO MONTHS.
AND ON TOP OF THAT,
IT'S BEEN FIVE MONTHS SINCE YOU WERE HERE.
AT THIS POINT, YOU HAVEN'T SHOWN ME
YOU'RE TAKING THIS AS SERIOUSLY AS YOU NEED.
AND I'M NOT APPROVING YOU FOR ANYTHING TODAY.
BUT SINCE YOU LOST 50 POUNDS,
I'M GIVING YOU ANOTHER CHANCE TO STICK WITH YOUR DIET
AND TRY TO LOSE ANOTHER 50 POUNDS, OKAY?
OKAY.
ALL RIGHT, ANGIE.
YOU LOOK LIKE YOU'RE A LITTLE UNDER THE INFLUENCE OF A DRUG.
ARE YOU TAKING ANY MEDICINE?
'CAUSE YOU DON'T SOUND VERY NORMAL.
I DON'T SOUND WHAT?
YOU DON'T SOUND NORMAL.
ARE YOU TAKING ANY NEW MEDICATION
OR ANYTHING ELSE I SHOULD KNOW ABOUT?
AM I TAKING MEDICINE?
YEAH, ARE YOU TAKING ANY DRUGS OR ANYTHING?
NO.
OKAY.
WELL, SOMETHING IS GOING ON WITH YOU.
OKAY.
BUT REGARDING YOUR WIGHT -- YOU NEED TO BE MORE PROACTIVE
AND YOU NEED TO FOLLOW A BETTER DIET
BEFORE WE BRING YOU TO HOUSTON, OKAY?
OKAY. WELL...
IT'S GONNA BE IMPORTANT.
MY U-HAUL IS LEAVING TOMORROW.
AND LET ME REMIND YOU, 'CAUSE MAYBE YOUFORGOT,
YOUR WEIGHT-LOSS WAS 50 POUNDS IN ONE MONTH,
NOT 100 POUNDS, EVER, DID YOU SAY THAT TO ME.
I DEFINITELY DID.
ON MY CALL WITH YOU TWO MONTHS AGO,
THAT WAS THE GOAL I GAVE YOU.
SO, EITHER YOU FORGOT
OR YOU'RE TOO HIGH ON SOMETHING TO REMEMBER.
BUT IT'S GOING ON SIX MONTHS SINCE WE SAW YOU,
AND THIS TOTAL OF WEIGHT LOSS
IS UNACCEPTABLE FOR ALL THAT TIME.
LOSING LESS THAN 10 POUNDS A MONTH
IS NOT GOING TO BE ENOUGH TO SAVE YOUR LIFE.
OKAY. WELL, IF YOU EXPECTED ME TO LOSE 50 POUNDS
EVERY MONTH FOR SIX MONTHS, I WOULDN'T NEED YOU.
WHAT YOU SEEM TO NEED IS A CALCULATOR.
BECAUSE LOSING 50 POUNDS A MONTH FOR SIX MONTHS
WOULD HAVE BEEN A WEIGHT-LOSS GOAL OF 300 POUNDS,
AND THAT'S NOT WHAT I ASKED YOU TO DO.
BUT I DID GIVE YOU A GOAL OF 100 POUNDS IN TWO MONTHS,
SINCE YOU WASTED THE FIRST THREE MONTHS,
AND YOU DIDN'T EVEN DO THAT.
SO YOU CAN EITHER GIVE ME MORE ATTITUDE,
OR FIGURE OUT WHETHER YOU WANT TO DO THIS OR NOT.
BECAUSE IF YOU DON'T,
YOU'RE NOT GONNA BE ALIVE FOR MUCH LONGER.
OKAY.
IF YOU'RE EXPECTING ME TO COME THERE
AND SIT AROUND AND WAIT FOR SURGERY FOR ANOTHER MONTH,
I'M NOT COMING.
I DON'T HAVE TIME FOR THAT.
HEAVEN FORBID, WE WASTE ANY OF YOUR TIME
WHILE YOU WASTE OURS WITH YOUR LIES AND GAMES.
ANGIE, YOU DECIDE IF YOU WANT TO DO THIS OR NOT.
BUT IF YOU DO, THEN I WILL GIVE YOU TWO MORE MONTHS
TO LOSE 100 POUNDS.
AND THIS TIME, I SUGGEST YOU WRITE IT DOWN
SO YOU REMEMBER THAT.
OTHERWISE, JUST STAY UP THERE AND DO WHATEVER YOU WANT.
THEN YOU DON'T NEED TO COME BACK DOWN HERE.
WELL, I'M TRYING TO DO THIS, TO COME DOWN THERE,
BUT IT COSTS MONEY TO MOVE.
MONEY. YEAH.
I DIDN'T HAVE IT.
AND, SINCE YOU'RE MAKING ACCUSATIONS
OF WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME, I'M SICK.
I PUKED ON MYSELF, SLEPT ALL DAY YESTERDAY.
I'M ILL.
I DON'T TAKE ANYTHING BUT WHAT'S PRESCRIBED TO ME.
SO PLEASE DON'T MAKE ACCUSATIONS, OKAY?
I'M A DOCTOR, ANGIE.
I KNOW THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN SICK AND HIGH.
AND IF YOU DECIDE TO CONTINUE AND COME BACK DOWN HERE,
I'M GONNA RUN TOXICOLOGY ON YOU
TO MAKE SURE THERE IS NOTHING IN YOUR SYSTEM
THAT SHOULDN'T BE THERE.
SO YOU CAN EITHER CLEAN UP YOUR ACT RIGHT NOW,
OR WE DON'T NEED TO BOTHER
PLAYING ANY MORE GAMES WITH YOU.
SO, WHEN YOU DECIDE, YOU JUST LET US KNOW YOUR PLANS. OKAY?
UM...
MY PLAN IS TO GO HOME AND GO TO BED.
WHAT'S YOURS?
WELL, MY PLAN RIGHT NOW IS TO END THIS CONVERSATION.
SO, YOU HAVE A GOOD DAY, ANGIE.
IF YOU DECIDE YOU WANT TO TRY TO LIVE
INSTEAD OF KILLING YOURSELF, HIT YOUR GOAL.
OTHER THAN THAT, I WISH YOU WELL.
GOODBYE.
ALL RIGHT. BYE.
♪♪
Angie: THIS IS TOTAL BULL [BLEEP]
DR. NOW CROSSED THE LINE,
AND HE DOESN'T KNOW WHAT HE'S TALKING ABOUT.
HE CAN'T JUST CHANGE THINGS ON ME LIKE THAT
AND JUST ADD MORE TO MY GOAL AND JUST SAY,
OH, JUST LOSE MORE.
AND THEN, TO ACCUSE ME OF BEING ON SOMETHING
IS JUST ABSOLUTELY RIDICULOUS,
SO I AM EXTREMELY OFFENDED RIGHT NOW.
AND IF THINGS WEREN'T ALREADY AS FAR ALONG AS THEY ARE NOW
WITH MY MOVE TO HOUSTON, I WOULD CALL IT OFF.
BUT I ALREADY GAVE UP MY LEASE HERE
AND WE HAVE AN APARTMENT UNDER CONTRACT THERE,
SO I HAVE TO DO IT NOW.
SO WHEN I GET TO HOUSTON, THIS IS EITHER GONNA HAPPEN,
OR HE CAN TAKE HIS GOAL AND STICK IT.
♪♪
TODAY IS THE DAY THAT I AM FINALLY MOVING TO HOUSTON.
THE PLAN IS MY HUSBAND AND I ARE GONNA BE RIDING IN A RENTAL.
MY BEST FRIEND MANDY AND HER HUSBAND, JAMES,
ARE GONNA BE CO-DRIVING THE U-HAUL.
-KNOCK, KNOCK! -AND DESIREé IS STAYING HERE.
SHE'S GONNA LIVE WITH FRIENDS.
SO, SHE MADE HER CHOICE.
AND I'M TRYING NOT TO LET IT BE A RIFT BETWEEN US.
HELLO.
BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE SHE'S FAILING ME WHEN I NEED HER MOST,
AND I'VE ALWAYS BEEN THERE FOR HER.
SAY, "HI, NANA."
YOU'RE GONNA SEE -- COME TO SEE NANA.
AND I DON'T WANT THIS TO TEAR US APART.
BUT IT'S HARD BECAUSE I'M HURT.
AND I FEEL LIKE SHE'S BEING SELFISH.
NANA'S GONNA GO BUH-BYES.
YOU KNOW, TEXAS IS KINDA FAR AWAY.
I'M GONNA MISS YOU.
I HAVE TO GIVE YOU A BUNCH FOR TWO YEARS' WORTH.
[ SMOOCHES ]
COME TO NANASAURUS.
[ BABY, DAISY CRYING ]
STOP CRYING.
I HAVEN'T HAD THAT LONG WITH YOU.
BUT I LOVED YOU FOR NINE MONTHS BEFORE YOU WERE HERE.
♪♪
[ Voice breaking ] HE'S NOT EVEN GONNA KNOW ME.
HE'S GONNA KNOW YOU.
BUT THE TIME YOU COME BACK, HE'LL START TO REMEMBER.
HE'LL NEVER EVEN KNOW YOU WERE GONE.
[ SMOOCHES ]
WHAT WERE YOU GONNA SAY TO ME?
[ SNIFFLES ]
AH.
WAH.
-[ CHUCKLES ] -YOU...
I THINK YOU'RE GONNA BE OKAY.
JUST DON'T GIVE UP.
YOU EITHER.
I WON'T.
I'LL FIGHT SO I CAN GET BACK TO YOU SOON.
-I LOVE YOU. -GIVE ME A HUG AND A KISS.
I LOVE YOU.
I'LL LET YOU KNOW WHAT'S GOING ON.
ALL RIGHT? CATCH UP WITH THEM.
[ BABY CRYING ]
[ SIGHS ]
I'LL PROBABLY CRY ALL THE WAY TO HOUSTON.
BUT AT THE END OF THE DAY, I HAVE TO PUT MYSELF FIRST.
I CAN DO THIS.
JUSTIN AND I FOUND A ONE-BEDROOM APARTMENT IN HOUSTON
NOT TOO TERRIFICALLY FAR FROM THE DOCTOR'S OFFICE, ACTUALLY.
♪♪
I'VE STILL BEEN DOING THE DIET.
I RARELY EVER EAT ANYTHING I'M NOT SUPPOSED TO ANYMORE.
SO WHEN I GET THERE AND GO BACK TO SEE DR. NOW
AGAIN, I SHOULD SHOW HIM EVEN MORE PROGRESS.
SO I EXPECT TO BE ABLE TO GET APPROVED FOR MY SURGERY THEN.
THE ROAD TRIP ALONE, IT JUST GIVES ME ANXIETY.
BUT I KNOW I CAN DO THIS.
I AM STRONGER THAN A [BLEEP] LION.
SO I AM FINE. I'M GONNA HANDLE IT.
AND WE'RE GONNA MAKE IT TO HOUSTON TO SAVE MY LIFE.
♪♪
Angie: WE FINALLY MADE IT TO HOUSTON.
I'M GLAD THIS IS GONNA BE OVER WITH,
BECAUSE IT'S BEEN A LONG FEW DAYS.
I HAD TO GIVE IN A FEW TIMES AND EAT SOME THINGS
THAT WEREN'T THE HEALTHIEST, BUT I DIDN'T HAVE AN OPTION.
I JUST HOPE THE APARTMENT WE GOT IS GOOD.
WE FOUND IT ONLINE, SO IT'S GONNA BE A BIT OF A CRAP SHOOT.
THERE'S THE APARTMENTS.
Angie: OH, MY GOD.
THIS PLACE SUCKS. IT'S AWFUL.
I AIN'T LIVIN' HERE.
♪♪
-ALL RIGHT. -THAT'S GOOD.
YOU NEED ROOM FOR THE RAMP.
I HATE THIS PLACE.
HEY, IT LOOKS NICE, ANGIE.
SHUT THE [BLEEP] UP. THIS IS THE PROJECTS, DUDE.
BACK THE [BLEEP] UP.
OW! THESE ROCKS HURT, Y'ALL.
OW! MY TENDER FEET.
THANK YOU.
I HATE THIS LIFE.
SERIOUSLY. I'M VERY UNHAPPY.
I JUST LEFT A BEAUTIFUL,
BEAUTIFUL [BLEEP] PLACE FOR THIS DUMP.
NO, YOU LEFT THIS FOR DR. NOW.
AND WE'RE HERE RIGHT NOW, SO, COME ON.
LET'S GO SEE YOUR HOUSE RIGHT NOW.
♪♪
I'M NOT LIVING HERE.
WELL, HOPEFULLY THE APARTMENT JUST WOWS US.
JUST OPEN THE DOOR.
I CAN DO THAT, RIGHT?
YEAH.
[BLEEP]
YOU GOT IT.
OKAY.
THERE YOU GO.
IT DOESN'T HAVE THE FIREPLACE WALL
THAT I'D SEEN IN THE PICTURES,
SO THIS IS NOT THE APARTMENT I PICKED OUT.
SO THAT WAS A LIE.
I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS.
THIS IS NOT THE UNIT THAT WE RENTED, AND IT'S NOT GONNA WORK.
I AM PISSED OFF.
I FEEL LIKE I'VE BEEN LIED TO,
AND WE HAVE SERIOUS, SERIOUS PROBLEMS RIGHT NOW.
BECAUSE THERE'S NO WAY I'M LIVING HERE.
THIS BATHROOM IS A [BLEEP] JOKE.
[BLEEP]
LOOK AT THE BATHROOM DOOR.
ARE YOU [BLEEP] KIDDING ME?
NO WAY.
THIS BATHROOM IS COMPLETELY UNACCEPTABLE,
AND NOWHERE NEAR WHERE I NEED.
THERE'S NO WAY I CAN FIT IN IT.
I DIDN'T COME ALL THIS WAY TO BE THROWN IN SOME DUMP.
I KNEW I SHOULD'VE CAME HERE.
THIS PLACE IS NOTHING LIKE IT WAS DESCRIBED,
AND THIS IS COMPLETELY UNACCEPTABLE.
♪♪
YOU GOT IT, BABY. ONE FOOT AT A TIME.
PUT YOUR GOOD FOOT FIRST.
IT LOOKS LIKE OUR ONLY OPTION IS TO SLEEP IN A HOTEL TONIGHT,
BECAUSE WE'RE NOT MOVING IN HERE.
SO ALL I KNOW IS, SOMEONE BETTER FIX IT AND FIX IT FAST.
AND IF NOT, THEN WE MAY HAVE NO OTHER OPTION
THAN GOING BACK TO OHIO,
AND MISSING A CHANCE TO SAVE MY LIFE ALL BECAUSE I WAS LIED TO.
AND THAT'S, LIKE, MURDER, AS FAR AS I'M CONCERNED.
♪♪
TODAY, I'M GETTING READY TO HOPEFULLY MOVE IN
TO MY NEW APARTMENT.
WE'RE GOING BACK BECAUSE THEY SAY THEY HAVE A BETTER UNIT
WE CAN TAKE THAT'S BIGGER.
AND THEY ALSO SAID THEY WERE ABLE TO WIDEN THE DOOR,
SO I'M HOPING THAT'S ACCURATE.
I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT WILL HAPPEN
IF THEY DON'T HAVE A UNIT THAT WILL WORK FOR ME.
I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE NEXT STEP IS YET.
BECAUSE IF THE BATHROOM ISN'T BIGGER,
THEN WE MAY HAVE NO CHOICE BUT TO JUST HEAD BACK TO OHIO,
BECAUSE I CAN'T JUST GO OUT AND FIND A NEW PLACE.
I LET A LOT BEHIND TO COME HERE,
SO I'M JUST HOPING THIS UNIT WORKS.
BECAUSE I'M TIRED AND I JUST WANT THIS ALL TO BE OVER WITH.
OKAY.
SO...
DO YOU WANT TO USE YOUR WALKER TO TAKE A STEP?
OR MY HANDS?
IF I FALL GOING IN HERE, I'M GONNA BE SO PISSED.
I MEAN, WE CAN -- THEY CAN PUT A RAMP IN.
WE CAN GET A RAMP PUT IN IF WE NEED TO.
WELL, LET'S DO THIS.
LET'S SEE IF YOU CAN DO IT.
I DON'T KNOW WHY, BUT I'M AFRAID OF THIS.
AMANDA, CAN YOU JUST BE BEHIND ME
AND, LIKE, PUSH ME OR SOMETHING?
-I GOT YOU. -OKAY.
ONE, TWO...
-OH [BLEEP] -I GOT YOU.
OH [BLEEP] MY HANDS ARE SHAKING, THOUGH.
GIVE ME MY WALKER.
OH. SORRY, BABY.
I WAS JUST GONNA WALK YOU FORWARD SO THAT...
IT SMELLS LIKE LEMON IN HERE.
SOMEBODY JUST CLEANED.
-SMELLS GOOD. -YEAH.
MANDY, DO YOU HAVE THE WHEELCHAIR IN?
YEAH, I GOT IT.
SO WHEN I MELTDOWN IN HERE A LITTLE BIT,
WE CAN DO THAT TOGETHER.
OH, THE BEDROOM IS HUGE.
-YEAH. -THAT'S AWESOME.
-OH, WOW. -YEAH.
OH, HE'S NOT IN HERE. LET ME SEE THE BEDROOM.
YEAH.
-GOT TO SHOW ME AROUND THE DOOR. -WHY WOULDN'T I SHOW YOU?
HOLD ON. I CAN'T. HOLD ON. LET ME SEE.
IT'S TOO -- IT'S TOO HOT FOR ALL THIS CRAP.
OKAY.
GREAT. IT'S PERFECT.
IT'S HOME. I'M HOME.
THANK GOD.
WE CAN START MOVING STUFF IN AND LET THIS MAN GET TO WORK.
ALL RIGHT. WELL, THEN, I'M COOL WITH THAT.
LET'S GO.
THANKFULLY, THIS WILL DO.
THIS ONE'S BETTER, NOT BY MUCH,
BUT WE CAN AT LEAST MAKE IT WORK.
SO NOW I JUST WANT TO GET MOVED IN
BECAUSE I HAVE MY APPOINTMENT WITH DR. NOW IN A FEW WEEKS,
AND I SHOULD BE GETTING APPROVED FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY THEN,
BECAUSE I KNOW I'M GONNA HAVE THE PROGRESS I NEED.
I LOST THE 50 POUNDS HE ASKED ME TO LOSE ALREADY,
SO WE SHOULD BE MOVING ON TO SOME MEDICAL STUFF
AND GETTING READY TO DO THE SURGERY.
I'M NOT WORRIED.
I MEAN, I DID WHAT I WAS SUPPOSED TO DO.
SO IF HE TRIES TO RUN ME AROUND AND GIVE ME MORE GOALS
AND AVOID GIVING ME WHAT I DESERVE THEN,
THEN I'M REALLY GONNA [BLEEP] WIG OUT.
BUT UNTIL THEN, I'M PUSHING MYSELF TO MAKE
AS MUCH PROGRESS AS I CAN, BECAUSE I DIDN'T MOVE DOWN HERE
JUST TO SIT AROUND WAITING TO DIE.
♪♪
I HOPE I DON'T MISS IT.
Angie: WE'VE BEEN IN HOUSTON FOR ALMOST A MONTH,
AND ME AND JUSTIN ARE GOING TO
MY NEXT APPOINTMENT WITH DR. NOW.
AND I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO SHOWING HIM
I'M STILL DOING WELL.
AND I'VE BEEN STAYING ON THE DIET,
SO I KNOW I LOST A LOT.
SO HIS ACCUSATIONS TOWARDS ME HAVE BEEN COMPLETELY UNFAIR.
♪♪
I KNOW WE'RE GONNA HAVE WORDS.
I MEAN, EVERY SINGLE TIME I TALK TO HIM
HE SAYS THE SAME OLD CRAP TO ME.
SO I'M NOT GOING IN THERE TO FIGHT WITH HIM INTENTIONALLY.
I'M JUST ON EDGE AT THIS POINT TO ATTACK ANYBODY.
♪♪
ANGELA?
AT MY LAST APPOINTMENT IN OHIO, I GOT DOWN TO 598,
AND DR. NOW TOLD ME I HAD TO LOSE 100 POUNDS THIS TIME,
EVEN THOUGH I ALREADY LOST ALMOST 50 POUNDS ALREADY.
SO HE EXPECTS ME TO BE BELOW 498 TODAY.
BUT IF I COULD EASILY LOSE 100 POUNDS ON MY OWN,
I WOULDN'T HAVE ANY NEED FOR HIM OR SURGERY.
SO IT DOESN'T MATTER TO ME WHAT THE SCALE SAYS
BECAUSE I KNOW HOW HARD I'M WORKING,
AND THAT I'VE ALREADY LOST ENOUGH TO PROVE
I'M READY FOR SURGERY.
♪♪
WELL, I'M STILL MAKING PROGRESS.
I THINK THAT TOTAL IS ACTUALLY A LOT HIGHER,
AND THAT THE SCALE IS MESSED UP,
BUT THE BOTTOM LINE IS I'M STILL LOSING.
SO THERE'S REALLY NO REASON FOR DR. NOW TO TELL ME
I'M NOT READY FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY,
OTHER THAN, HE LIKES GETTING PEOPLE TO JUMP THROUGH HOOPS.
AND THAT'S WHAT I'M STARTING TO WONDER.
SO, IF HE DOESN'T APPROVE ME TODAY,
THEN I'M GONNA KNOW THAT'S WHAT HE LIKES.
BUT I'M NOT GONNA LET HIM GET AWAY WITH THAT WITH ME.
DR. NOW IS NOT THE ALMIGHTY GOD.
I REFUSE TO BE WEAK.
SO I'M GONNA STAND UP TO HIM.
♪♪
[ KNOCKS ON DOOR ]
-HELLO. -HI.
Dr. Nowzaradan: HOW Y'ALL DOIN'?
-GOOD. -GOOD. HOW ARE YOU?
HOW ARE YOU?
I'M DOING GOOD.
ALL RIGHT...
IN THE PAST FEW MONTH, YOU LOST ALMOST NOTHING,
JUST NINE POUNDS.
SO, YOU WANT TO EXPLAIN TO ME WHY THAT IS?
I AM GOING THROUGH A LOT OF CHANGES RIGHT NOW.
BEAR WITH THAT.
OKAY. YOU DONE WITH YOUR LITTLE TANTRUM AND FINISHED TALKING?
SURE.
ALL RIGHT. AT YOUR CURRENT RATE,
YOU'RE YOU'RE GONNA BE DEAD IN A YEAR OR LESS,
UNLESS YOU MAKE THE CHANGES YOU NEED.
SO YOU CAN GIVE ME EVERY EXCUSE AND JUSTIFICATION YOU WANT,
IT'S NOT GONNA CHANGE THAT.
BUT MAYBE YOU THINK YOU CAN ARGUE YOUR WAY OUT OF THAT
BECAUSE YOU SEEM TO THINK THAT'S THE SOLUTION TO EVERYTHING.
I'M NOT ARGUING. I'M JUST FRUSTRATED.
AND I'M ANGRY, AS YOU CAN SEE.
YOU CAN TELL YOURSELF THAT, BUT THIS IS BEHAVIORAL PROBLEMS,
IT'S NOT ANGER.
YEAH. I HAVE BEHAVIOR PROBLEMS.
YOU TRY TO CONVINCE YOURSELF
IT IS AN EMOTIONAL ISSUE THAT IS JUSTIFIED.
YOU LIKE TO ACT LIKE THE WHOLE WORLD IS UNFAIR
AND YOU DON'T DESERVE YOUR SITUATION.
SO IF YOU WANT TO GIVE ME ATTITUDE AND ACT LIKE THIS
IS UNFAIR, GO RIGHT AHEAD.
BUT THE ONLY PERSON YOU'RE GONNA HURT IS YOURSELF.
AND THAT'S WHAT YOU'RE DOING RIGHT NOW.
BECAUSE YOU HAVE HAD EIGHT MONTHS AT THIS POINT,
AND YOU STILL HAVEN'T SHOWN ME ENOUGH TO CONVINCE ME
THAT YOU'RE READY TO DO THE PROGRAM.
BUT SINCE YOU'RE DOWN HERE IN HOUSTON,
I'LL GIVE YOU ONE MORE CHANCE.
I SHOULD'VE NEVER CAME HERE. [ SCOFFS ]
WELL, THEN WHY ARE YOU HERE?
WHY DO YOU EVEN WANT TO DO THIS?
I DON'T KNOW. I DON'T KNOW.
SO, THAT'S A GOOD QUESTION.
ALL RIGHT, WELL, YOU THINK IT OVER,
AND ONCE AGAIN, DECIDE WHAT YOU WANT TO DO.
AGAIN, SINCE YOU'RE HERE IN HOUSTON,
I WILL GIVE YOU ANOTHER CHANCE.
BUT YOU'RE GONNA NEED TO LOSE 100 POUNDS
OVER THE NEXT TWO MONTHS.
IF YOU DO THAT, THEN WE'LL START YOU ON THE PROGRAM
AND DISCUSS NEXT STEPS.
BUT I ALSO TOLD YOU I WANT TO DO A BLOOD TEST.
SO WE'LL DRAW SOME BLOOD REALLY QUICK, AND THEN WE'LL BE DONE.
WE'RE HERE TO HELP YOU OUT AND GIVE YOU GUIDANCE
TO GO IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION,
SO YOU MIGHT WANT TO CONSIDER LISTENING TO US.
OKAY? ALL RIGHT.
SEE Y'ALL LATER.
-SEE YOU LATER. -YOU TOO.
OKAY.
Dr. Nowzaradan: THE SITUATION WE HAVE WITH ANGIE RIGHT NOW
IS VERY DISAPPOINTING
BECAUSE SHE SEEMS MORE INTERESTED IN GIVING EXCUSES
AND ARGUING THAN SAVING HER LIFE.
AND HER BEHAVIOR IS ONLY GETTING WORSE.
BUT SOME OF HER INTERACTIONS WITH ME HAVE ME CONCERNED
THAT'S SHE'S UNDER THE INFLUENCE OF SOMETHING
SHE'S NOT TELLING ME ABOUT, SO WE'RE GONNA DO A TOXICOLOGY
TO TRY AND DETERMINE WHAT'S GOING ON,
AND IF THERE'S A TRACE OF ANYTHING
THAT WE NEED TO BE CONCERNED ABOUT IN HER SYSTEM.
AND IF WE DO FIND ANYTHING, THEN WE'LL NEED TO MAKE
ADDRESSING THAT OUR MAIN FOCUS WITH HER.
BECAUSE SUBSTANCE ABUSE IS ESPECIALLY DANGEROUS FOR SOMEONE
IN HER CONDITION, WITH HOW FRAGILE HER HEALTH IS.
BUT WHETHER OR NOT THAT'S THE CASE,
SHE'S VERY QUICKLY RUNNING OUT OF TIME.
I THINK THIS IS RIDICULOUS
AND ALL OF THIS IS COMPLETELY UNFAIR.
I'VE BEEN DISRESPECTED I DON'T KNOW HOW MANY TIMES
AT THIS POINT.
I'VE BEEN TOLD I'M MAKING EXCUSES WHEN I'M NOT.
I'VE BEEN ASKED OFFENSIVELY IF I'M "ON" ANYTHING,
LIKE DRUGS.
AND IT DEFIES ALL LOGIC AND MAKES NO SENSE WHATSOEVER
TO HAVE TO LOSE EVEN MORE AT THIS POINT,
TO GET A SURGERY THAT I NEED TO EVEN LOSE THE WEIGHT.
SO I'LL PLAY THIS LITTLE GAME FOR A LITTLE LONGER.
BUT AT THIS POINT, ALL OF THIS HAS BEEN TOTAL BULL [BLEEP]
♪♪
THINGS HAVE BEEN REALLY STRESSFUL.
ONCE AGAIN, I AM BACK TO DOING THE DIET ON MY OWN
WITHOUT SURGERY, WHICH IS FRUSTRATING,
BUT I'M STILL DOING IT.
DR. NOW SAYS HE'S STILL NOT CONVINCED
I'M READY FOR SURGERY, WHEN I AM.
SO I GUESS MY ONLY OPTION IS TO TRY AND LOSE MORE WEIGHT.
I ACTUALLY CONSIDERED GOING BACK OHIO.
IT'S STILL A CONSIDERATION.
DR. NOW SAYS IF I STICK TO HIS DIET COMPLETELY,
I'LL LOSE THE WEIGHT HE WANTS ME TO LOSE.
BUT I ALREADY WAS, AND WHAT I LOST WASN'T ENOUGH FOR HIM.
SO THE ONLY THING I COULD THINK OF TO DO BETTER IS TO BARELY EAT
AND ONLY EAT SALADS AND STARVE MYSELF.
SO IF I DON'T GET APPROVED THIS NEXT TIME,
THAT WILL MEAN DR. NOW HAS GIVEN ME A DEATH SENTENCE,
BECAUSE WITHOUT SURGERY I'M NOT GONNA SURVIVE FOR LONG.
AND IF DR. NOW CAN LIVE WITH THAT ON HIS CONSCIENCE,
THEN HE'S NOT WHO I THOUGHT HE WAS.
AND I DON'T DESERVE THIS ABUSE.
♪♪
ME, JUSTIN, AND MANDY ARE HEADED BACK TO DR. NOW'S.
HE CALLED AND SAID HE WANTED ME TO COME BACK IN,
AND I'M GUESSING IT'S NOT GOOD NEWS
IF HE WANTS ME TO COME BACK EARLY,
BECAUSE IT'S ONLY BEEN LIKE A LITTLE OVER TWO WEEKS
SINCE MY LAST APPOINTMENT WITH HIM,
SO I'M A LITTLE NERVOUS.
I SHOULD'VE QUIT SMOKING WHEN HE TOLD ME TO,
AND I WISH I WOULD'VE LISTENED
AND I WISH IT WAS THAT EASY, BUT IT'S NOT, AND I'M AN ADDICT.
I'M AN EX-DRUG ADDICT
AND ADDICTION IS HARD FOR ME, SO...
THIS IS THE HARDEST THING
I'VE EVER DONE IN MY WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE,
AND SO IT WOULDN'T BE FAIR
FOR DR. NOW TO TELL ME I CAN'T GET SURGERY.
SO, IF THAT HAPPENS, IT'S GONNA MEAN
I'VE WASTED A LOT OF TIME AND ENERGY ON THIS.
IT'S EVEN CREATED A RIFT IN MY RELATIONSHIP WITH DESIREé.
ANGIE?
SO IF THIS CHANCE GETS UNFAIRLY TAKEN FROM ME,
THEN ALL THAT WOULD HAVE BEEN FOR NOTHING.
AND IT'S ONLY BEEN TWO WEEKS SINCE MY LAST APPOINTMENT,
SO I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY I HAVE TO GET WEIGHED IN
LIKE THIS AGAIN.
♪♪
I'M AT DR. NOW'S BECAUSE HE CALLED ME OVER A MONTH EARLY
FOR MY NEXT APPOINTMENT.
I DON'T KNOW WHY I'M HERE EARLIER,
BUT I'M WORRIED IT'S NOT GONNA BE GOOD.
IT'S ONLY BEEN TWO WEEKS, AND I WAS DOWN TO 589
AND I'M PROBABLY ONLY A LITTLE LESS THAN THAT
BECAUSE I HAVEN'T BEEN GIVEN HARDLY ANY TIME TO LOSE MORE.
♪♪
[ SIGHS ]
OKAY.
I THINK THAT WEIGHT IS FLAT-OUT WRONG BECAUSE I HAVEN'T CHEATED.
I'M PRACTICALLY STARVING MYSELF TO DEATH,
SO THERE'S NO WAY I COULD'VE GAINED.
AND I'M CONFUSED HOW THAT HAPPENED.
LIKE, I'M REALLY EMOTIONALLY DISTRAUGHT,
BECAUSE FIVE POUNDS IS A BIG DEAL NOW.
AND IF DR. NOW JUST PLANS TO PUNISH ME MORE
AND ACCUSE ME OF THINGS,
THEN THAT'S NOT GONNA BE FAIR AT ALL.
SO, I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S GOING ON,
BUT NONE OF THIS SEEMS FAIR.
-HELLO. -HELLO.
HOW Y'ALL DOIN'?
[ Voice breaking ] I DON'T KNOW. I'M A MESS.
THINGS HAVE JUST BEEN HARD.
AND I WANT TO KNOW WHY I'M HERE, SO...
I'M JUST WAITING TO HEAR WHAT YOU HAVE TO SAY.
OKAY, WELL, I THINK YOU KNOW WHY YOU'RE HERE.
FIRST, YOU HAVEN'T SHOWN MUCH EFFORT UP TO THIS POINT.
EVEN NOW, YOU'RE NOT ON TRACK,
BECAUSE IN THE TWO WEEKS SINCE I SAW YOU,
IF YOU WERE DOING THE DIET,
YOU WOULD'VE LOST AT LEAST 25 POUNDS.
INSTEAD, YOU GAINED FIVE POUNDS IN THAT TIME.
SO YOU'RE STILL NOT MAKING PROGRESS.
I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M DOING WRONG.
DON'T GIVE ME YOUR TEARS.
BECAUSE IN ALMOST NINE MONTHS,
WE'VE GIVEN YOU EVERY CHANCE TO DO THIS,
BUT THEN YOU'VE JUST GIVEN ME ATTITUDE.
I'M NOT MAKING ANY EXCUSES. I HAVE NOTHING.
BUT I DO HAVE SOMETHING TO COME CLEAN ABOUT.
YOU KNOW I ALREADY KNOW WHAT YOU'RE GOING TO TELL ME.
AND THAT'S WHY I CALLED YOU EARLY,
BECAUSE WE GOT YOUR TOXICOLOGY BACK.
AM I RIGHT?
I DON'T...
I DON'T KNOW.
ALL RIGHT.
WELL, DON'T PLAY THIS GAME
WHERE YOU'RE GONNA BE HONEST WITH ME NOW.
YOUR TIME TO DO THAT HAS PASSED
BECAUSE YOU HAVE BEEN KEEPING A NUMBER OF THINGS FROM ME
THAT ARE AFFECTING YOUR HEALTH SIGNIFICANTLY.
TO START, WE SEE THAT YOU HAVE BEEN SMOKING
AND YOU'VE BEEN HIDING THAT FROM ME.
I DIDN'T TELL YOU THAT BECAUSE I QUIT.
THEN I GET ON THE ROAD AND I FREAK OUT AND I...
AND WHEN THAT MAKES YOU FREAK OUT, DO YOU SMOKE?
YEP.
WELL, THAT ALONE AND YOUR CONDITION
IS CAUSING SEVERE DAMAGE TO YOUR PULMONARY SYSTEM,
AND CAUSING OTHER HEALTH ISSUES FOR YOU, TOO,
THAT ARE ALL DECREASING YOUR LIFE SPAN RIGHT NOW.
AND THAT'S NOT THE BIGGEST ISSUE,
BECAUSE WE ALSO FOUND NARCOTICS.
BUT YOU KNEW THAT ALREADY, DIDN'T YOU?
I KNOW. I HAD MY MARIJUANA IN MY SYSTEM.
DON'T PLAY GAMES WITH ME.
I KNOW EXACTLY WHAT YOU HAVE IN YOUR SYSTEM.
AND I'VE NOTICED THAT
THERE ARE MULTIPLE OTHER NARCOTICS WE FOUND.
SO DON'T THINK YOU CAN DO THIS COMING-CLEAN GAME
AND DENY THE REST.
SO, THIS IS AN EXTREMELY SERIOUS SITUATION
YOU CAN'T PLAY GAMES TO GET OUT OF.
BUT YOU WERE NEVER GONNA BE ABLE TO HIDE THIS FROM ME.
WE WOULD HAVE FOUND ALL THIS IF YOU WERE GETTING SURGERY.
SO WHAT MADE YOU THINK YOU WOULD GET AWAY WITH THIS?
[ Crying ] I DON'T. I DON'T KNOW.
THIS IS A SEVERE ISSUE THAT WE NEED TO ADDRESS.
BECAUSE THIS IS GONNA BE WHAT KILLS YOU
THE QUICKEST IF WE DON'T.
BUT YOUR WEIGHT ISN'T GONNA TAKE TOO MUCH LONGER
TO KILL YOU EITHER.
BUT YOU CAN'T KEEP LIVING LIKE YOU ARE,
MAKING THESE CHOICES
TO DESTROY YOUR HEALTH IN EVERY POSSIBLE WAY.
SO, THIS IS WHAT'S GONNA HAPPEN FROM HERE
AND WHAT YOUR OPTIONS ARE.
FIRST, WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY RIGHT NOW IS OFF THE TABLE.
THEN I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M DOING, THEN.
I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M DOING, THEN.
I'LL TELL YOU WHAT YOU CAN DO.
IF YOU WANT A CHANCE TO DO THIS AND CONTINUE ON,
THEN YOU NEED TO START BY GOING TO REHAB.
AND IF YOU AGREE TO THAT, WE'LL SET THAT UP FOR YOU.
OKAY.
BUT IF YOU DON'T DO THAT,
THEN THERE IS NOTHING MORE TO DISCUSS WITH YOU.
SO THAT'S YOUR ONLY CHOICE.
YOU EITHER DO THAT, OR WE'RE DONE.
YOU GOT IT?
CAN I HAVE TIME TO THINK ABOUT IT?
SURE.
BUT YOU DON'T HAVE A LOT OF TIME,
SO I'LL GIVE YOU 24 HOURS.
BUT WE'RE NOT GOING TO PLAY ANY MORE GAMES
AND JUST WATCH YOU DO THE SAME THING
OVER AND OVER UNTIL YOU DIE.
SO YOU NEED TO DECIDE TO DO THIS,
OR THERE IS NOTHING MORE WE CAN DO FOR YOU.
BUT THE PRIORITY IS THAT WE ADDRESS YOUR SUBSTANCE ABUSE.
OKAY.
THEN, AFTER THAT, WE'LL CONTINUE TO ADDRESS
YOUR WEIGHT-LOSS AND SMOKING.
BUT AT THIS POINT, ANY ONE OF THOSE ISSUES IS GONNA LEAD
TO YOUR DEATH RIGHT NOW, SO YOUR SITUATION ISN'T GOOD
AND YOU DON'T HAVE ANY TIME TO WASTE.
I MEAN, I KINDA FEEL LIKE I DID A FIRST STEP, BECAUSE THIS...
COMING HERE WAS A HUGE STEP.
WELL, AND THAT STEP IS A DIFFERENT STEP.
JUST BECAUSE YOU COME DOWN HERE
DOESN'T GIVE YOU A PASS TO DO THESE THINGS.
-NO. -SO DON'T ARGUE THAT.
SO IF YOU WANT TO DO SOMETHING RIGHT FOR YOURSELF,
YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO BE RESPONSIBLE FOR YOUR BEHAVIOR.
AND TO DO THAT, YOUR NEXT STEP IS REHAB.
THAT'S YOUR ONLY OPTION.
OKAY.
SO LET ME KNOW WHAT YOU DECIDE, OKAY?
-[ Voice breaking ] OKAY. -ALL RIGHT.
I'LL WAIT TO HEAR FROM YOU.
BUT DON'T TAKE TOO LONG.
YOU HAVE 24 HOURS.
SO, LET ME KNOW.
♪♪
I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT TO SAY BECAUSE
I'VE NEVER BEEN MISTREATED LIKE THIS IN MY WHOLE LIFE.
IT'S EXTREMELY OFFENSIVE AND UTTERLY UNFAIR.
I DON'T CARE WHAT ANY OF THE REPORTS SAY.
DR. NOW IS WRONG.
AND AT THIS POINT, I FEEL LIKE I'VE BEEN NICE.
AND I LOST WEIGHT -- A LOT OF WEIGHT.
AND I DON'T NEED TO PUT UP WITH THIS ANYMORE.
SO I'M DONE.
MY LIFE WAS DEPENDING ON THIS.
BUT THAT DIDN'T SEEM TO MATTER MUCH TO DR. NOW,
SO I THINK IT'S TIME FOR ME TO JUST GO BACK TO OHIO.
BECAUSE AT THIS POINT, UNLESS DR. NOW APOLOGIZED
FOR ALL HIS ACCUSATIONS,
THEN I DON'T SEE HOW I CAN WORK WITH HIM.
BUT I DIDN'T LOWER MYSELF TO RESPOND
TO ANY OF THE HEINOUS THINGS
THAT DR. NOW SAID TO ME AT ANY POINT.
SO I'M PROUD OF MYSELF FOR THAT.
I WORKED HARD AND DESERVE TO GET SURGERY.
AND THE REASON I LOST IT IN THE END?
I STOOD UP FOR MYSELF.
SO I'M GONNA TAKE THAT WITH ME BACK TO OHIO.
I STILL HAVE MY PRIDE IN THE END.
♪♪
Dr. Nowzaradan: I'M VERY DISAPPOINTED IN THE OUTCOME WITH ANGIE
AND HER DECISION.
BUT THIS HAS ALWAYS COME DOWN TO HER CHOICES,
AND WHETHER SHE'S WILLING TO DO
WHAT SHE NEEDS TO TURN HER LIFE AROUND.
AND IT'S UNFORTUNATE THAT SHE'S CHOOSING TO CONTINUE
DOWN THE SAME PATH SHE'S BEEN ON
THAT IS LEADING HER TO ANY EARLY DEATH.
BUT HOPEFULLY, ANGIE WILL WAKE UP AND SEE HER SITUATION
FOR WHAT IT IS BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE.
BECAUSE WITH EVERYTHING SHE'S BEEN DOING TO HER BODY,
SHE'S NOT GONNA BE ABLE TO SURVIVE FOR LONG.
BUT IF SHE DOES GET TO THE POINT WHERE SHE DECIDES SHE WANTS HELP
AND IS READY TO GO TO REHAB
AND DO WHAT SHE NEEDS TO TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR HER LIFE,
THEN WE'LL BE HERE TO PROVIDE HER WITH THAT.
SO SHE STILL HAS A CHANCE FOR HER OUTCOME TO BE POSITIVE
IF SHE WANTS IT TO BE.
ALL SHE HAS TO DO IS TRY.
AS LONG AS SHE MAKES THAT DECISION THAT SHE NEEDS
BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE.