1 00:00:01,935 --> 00:00:04,238 - ♪♪ MTV ♪♪ 2 00:00:12,045 --> 00:00:13,881 - Previously on "Love & Hip Hop Atlanta"... 3 00:00:13,947 --> 00:00:16,149 - Renni was dead-ass wrong for saying 4 00:00:16,216 --> 00:00:18,552 that you should have died or whatever she said there. 5 00:00:18,619 --> 00:00:19,987 And that [bleep] up. 6 00:00:20,053 --> 00:00:21,321 - She called me Black monkey. 7 00:00:21,388 --> 00:00:22,956 - Oh, Black monkey? 8 00:00:23,023 --> 00:00:24,458 - What do you mean, Sierra? 9 00:00:24,525 --> 00:00:26,593 You got to understand the type of friends you're having. 10 00:00:26,660 --> 00:00:28,428 - How come you haven't talked to your best friend? 11 00:00:28,495 --> 00:00:30,364 - Oh, I have talked to her, but not about that. 12 00:00:30,430 --> 00:00:32,232 - Why are you always so fake? 13 00:00:32,299 --> 00:00:34,234 - You was like, "Stop with all this fake-ass [bleep]. 14 00:00:34,301 --> 00:00:35,702 "Y'all with that fake-ass [bleep]. 15 00:00:35,769 --> 00:00:37,604 Y'all fake as [bleep]." - No, I said fake-ass [bleep] 16 00:00:37,671 --> 00:00:40,841 when Bambi started saying, "I haven't spoken to Erica." 17 00:00:40,908 --> 00:00:43,777 I'm like, here we go with the fakeness. 18 00:00:43,844 --> 00:00:44,878 - How's you and Safaree? 19 00:00:44,945 --> 00:00:47,047 - You're causing unnecessary drama, 20 00:00:47,114 --> 00:00:48,615 and I don't deserve this. 21 00:00:48,682 --> 00:00:52,019 I've let myself down in all of this by blacking out. 22 00:00:52,085 --> 00:00:56,256 Me and Spice never had issues up until this point. 23 00:00:56,323 --> 00:00:58,592 - I do want to tell you that I am sorry 24 00:00:58,659 --> 00:01:00,961 that I hurt your heart. 25 00:01:01,028 --> 00:01:02,429 I apologize. 26 00:01:02,496 --> 00:01:04,831 I appreciate everything you have done for me. 27 00:01:04,898 --> 00:01:08,569 You are a definite person that changed my life. 28 00:01:08,635 --> 00:01:10,737 - I want to just give you a hug. 29 00:01:15,709 --> 00:01:16,877 [funky music] 30 00:01:16,944 --> 00:01:18,278 - ♪♪ This is the life ♪♪ 31 00:01:18,345 --> 00:01:19,279 - ♪♪ It's the life that I'm living ♪♪ 32 00:01:19,346 --> 00:01:20,647 - ♪♪ This is the life ♪♪ 33 00:01:20,714 --> 00:01:21,682 - ♪♪ It's the life that I chose ♪♪ 34 00:01:21,748 --> 00:01:22,983 - ♪♪ This is the life ♪♪ 35 00:01:23,050 --> 00:01:24,051 ♪♪ It's the life that I'm living ♪♪ 36 00:01:24,117 --> 00:01:25,419 - ♪♪ This is the life ♪♪ 37 00:01:25,485 --> 00:01:27,187 - ♪♪ It's the life that I chose ♪♪ 38 00:01:27,254 --> 00:01:29,189 - ♪♪ Make my way to the top, and there ain't no stoppin' ♪♪ 39 00:01:33,260 --> 00:01:34,428 - ♪♪ Comin' in hot ♪♪ 40 00:01:34,494 --> 00:01:36,530 ♪♪ Always on top ♪♪ 41 00:01:36,597 --> 00:01:38,599 ♪♪ Baby, I'm the boss ♪♪ 42 00:01:38,665 --> 00:01:40,033 ♪♪ Baby, I'm the boss ♪♪ 43 00:01:40,100 --> 00:01:42,002 ♪♪ Yeah, yeah, yeah, make it go ♪♪ 44 00:01:42,069 --> 00:01:43,203 [line ringing] 45 00:01:43,270 --> 00:01:44,204 - Hello? 46 00:01:44,271 --> 00:01:45,339 - Hi. 47 00:01:45,405 --> 00:01:46,907 - Hi, my love. 48 00:01:46,974 --> 00:01:50,978 We just got the most amazing offer. 49 00:01:51,044 --> 00:01:52,613 - OK. 50 00:01:52,679 --> 00:01:55,449 - It's going to be the movie that changes your career. 51 00:01:55,516 --> 00:01:58,552 - D, am I an actress? 52 00:01:58,619 --> 00:02:00,387 - ♪♪ Gonna make it go, oh ♪♪ 53 00:02:00,454 --> 00:02:01,688 - Ahh! 54 00:02:02,956 --> 00:02:04,358 - ♪♪ Gonna make it go ♪♪ 55 00:02:04,424 --> 00:02:06,059 ♪♪ Oh ♪♪ 56 00:02:06,126 --> 00:02:07,361 ♪♪ ♪♪ 57 00:02:07,427 --> 00:02:09,162 ♪♪ Gonna make it go ♪♪ 58 00:02:09,229 --> 00:02:10,731 ♪♪ ♪♪ 59 00:02:10,797 --> 00:02:12,199 - Y'all want spinach in your eggs? 60 00:02:12,266 --> 00:02:13,133 - I do. - Yeah. 61 00:02:13,200 --> 00:02:14,234 - OK. 62 00:02:14,301 --> 00:02:15,936 - We're going to make some mimosas. 63 00:02:16,003 --> 00:02:17,404 - Oh, yeah! 64 00:02:17,471 --> 00:02:20,207 [laughs] 65 00:02:22,009 --> 00:02:25,746 ♪♪ ♪♪ 66 00:02:25,812 --> 00:02:28,182 - They all moving. 67 00:02:28,248 --> 00:02:29,983 [gasps] Oh! 68 00:02:30,050 --> 00:02:31,852 Hey, Renni. 69 00:02:31,919 --> 00:02:34,488 Did you know that, like, it's something inside of seashells? 70 00:02:34,555 --> 00:02:35,589 Like, pull this one right here. 71 00:02:35,656 --> 00:02:36,590 - Oh, it's a snail. 72 00:02:36,657 --> 00:02:37,624 - It's a snail. 73 00:02:37,691 --> 00:02:38,625 Oh my God. 74 00:02:38,692 --> 00:02:40,227 I never knew that. 75 00:02:40,294 --> 00:02:43,297 [mellow Afro pop music] 76 00:02:43,363 --> 00:02:47,901 ♪♪ ♪♪ 77 00:02:47,968 --> 00:02:51,038 [non-English singing] 78 00:02:51,104 --> 00:02:56,643 ♪♪ ♪♪ 79 00:02:56,710 --> 00:02:58,579 - Spice, you look really beautiful in that blue. 80 00:02:58,645 --> 00:03:00,247 - Thank you, sweetie! 81 00:03:00,314 --> 00:03:01,415 - Hey. 82 00:03:01,481 --> 00:03:02,683 Hey, y'all. 83 00:03:02,749 --> 00:03:04,518 Y'all ready for the pigs? 84 00:03:04,585 --> 00:03:05,652 - Hi, Shekinah. 85 00:03:05,719 --> 00:03:07,387 - Hey. 86 00:03:07,454 --> 00:03:10,257 Hey, ladies. 87 00:03:10,324 --> 00:03:11,358 - Are you on that boat? 88 00:03:11,425 --> 00:03:12,359 - Hey, girl. 89 00:03:12,426 --> 00:03:13,560 - Yep. 90 00:03:13,627 --> 00:03:14,728 I'll see you guys in a minute. 91 00:03:14,795 --> 00:03:16,029 - All right. 92 00:03:16,096 --> 00:03:19,199 We going to have a good time today. 93 00:03:19,266 --> 00:03:21,201 [upbeat dance music] 94 00:03:21,268 --> 00:03:22,703 - Yes, sir! 95 00:03:22,769 --> 00:03:24,771 - There's been so much going on on this trip, y'all. 96 00:03:24,838 --> 00:03:26,940 So the last time we were all together on a boat, 97 00:03:27,007 --> 00:03:28,442 it was a whole, whole lot. 98 00:03:28,509 --> 00:03:30,344 So today we decided, let's split the activities. 99 00:03:30,410 --> 00:03:32,646 The drama crew can go feed the pigs. 100 00:03:32,713 --> 00:03:36,149 And the peaceful crew can all ride jet skis together. 101 00:03:36,216 --> 00:03:38,352 And hopefully, we all can just kick it 102 00:03:38,418 --> 00:03:40,120 and have a little bit of fun. 103 00:03:40,187 --> 00:03:41,755 - Come on! 104 00:03:41,822 --> 00:03:44,424 - ♪♪ All you haters, got you right here in my Prius ♪♪ 105 00:03:44,491 --> 00:03:47,160 ♪♪ Putting bulls on the strip, wasn't saving it ♪♪ 106 00:03:47,227 --> 00:03:49,830 ♪♪ All the fiends, they tell you that I'm they favorite ♪♪ 107 00:03:49,897 --> 00:03:51,965 ♪♪ Bigger load, bigger bank rolls ♪♪ 108 00:03:52,032 --> 00:03:55,269 ♪♪ I was smoking on exotic in my state clothes ♪♪ 109 00:03:55,335 --> 00:03:58,372 [tense music] 110 00:03:58,438 --> 00:03:59,640 - Hey, E. 111 00:03:59,706 --> 00:04:00,908 - Hey, I missed your call earlier. 112 00:04:00,974 --> 00:04:02,242 I was shooting. What's up? 113 00:04:02,309 --> 00:04:04,478 - Erica is finally calling me back after 114 00:04:04,545 --> 00:04:06,480 this whole blow-up with Spice. 115 00:04:06,547 --> 00:04:09,449 This isn't the ideal place that I want to have 116 00:04:09,516 --> 00:04:10,751 this conversation with Erica. 117 00:04:10,817 --> 00:04:12,085 We're getting on a boat. 118 00:04:12,152 --> 00:04:14,154 It's really hectic on my end, 119 00:04:14,221 --> 00:04:18,091 but I mean, since everything is happening so fast, 120 00:04:18,158 --> 00:04:19,927 I don't really have a choice. 121 00:04:19,993 --> 00:04:21,828 I'm going to just tell you from the top 122 00:04:21,895 --> 00:04:24,164 what really has been going on. 123 00:04:24,231 --> 00:04:27,801 So do you remember saying, like, the monkey thing? 124 00:04:29,870 --> 00:04:33,373 - Spice made some pretty wild accusations, 125 00:04:33,440 --> 00:04:36,710 and I understand people blacking out when they get 126 00:04:36,777 --> 00:04:38,378 in these heated conversations. 127 00:04:38,445 --> 00:04:42,316 But I do have to let Erica know that if she did make 128 00:04:42,382 --> 00:04:45,819 this comment about the monkey when she blacked out, 129 00:04:45,886 --> 00:04:47,221 that's not OK. 130 00:04:47,287 --> 00:04:49,223 I just don't know what to do with this. 131 00:04:49,289 --> 00:04:51,191 To be honest, I don't know what to do. 132 00:04:51,258 --> 00:04:54,361 I don't know you to be this person. 133 00:05:01,869 --> 00:05:03,804 - But you can't say that. - You cannot say that. 134 00:05:03,871 --> 00:05:06,773 - The way that it's being presented it in a way 135 00:05:06,840 --> 00:05:09,643 that we being drugged, Bambi being attacked 136 00:05:09,710 --> 00:05:11,545 the other night completely. 137 00:05:11,612 --> 00:05:13,514 This [bleep] bad. 138 00:05:13,580 --> 00:05:16,683 As much as I love Erica, I'm going to hold her accountable. 139 00:05:16,750 --> 00:05:18,118 I hope Bambi do the same. 140 00:05:18,185 --> 00:05:19,653 Calling somebody a Black monkey, 141 00:05:19,720 --> 00:05:23,123 a blue monkey, that's really crossing the [bleep] line. 142 00:05:23,190 --> 00:05:25,592 We already got to fight so hard just 143 00:05:25,659 --> 00:05:27,494 to be accepted in America. 144 00:05:27,561 --> 00:05:30,130 So you can't just say that to a Black person. 145 00:05:30,197 --> 00:05:32,366 Because once you say it to one Black person, 146 00:05:32,432 --> 00:05:33,867 you're saying it to all. 147 00:05:36,036 --> 00:05:38,038 - Well, Erica, I accept your apology. 148 00:05:38,105 --> 00:05:40,641 And at the end of the day, I'm not going to crucify you. 149 00:05:40,707 --> 00:05:44,444 And yeah, I think my service is gone. 150 00:05:44,511 --> 00:05:45,913 Put this here. - Wow. 151 00:05:45,979 --> 00:05:47,147 So it was said? 152 00:05:47,214 --> 00:05:48,182 - She don't know. 153 00:05:48,248 --> 00:05:50,384 She said she apologizes to us, 154 00:05:50,450 --> 00:05:52,319 to everybody, if she said anything. 155 00:05:52,386 --> 00:05:53,487 She blacked out. 156 00:05:53,554 --> 00:05:55,189 She don't know what she said. 157 00:05:55,255 --> 00:05:57,824 - Erica Mena saying that she blacked out 158 00:05:57,891 --> 00:05:59,259 is not flying with me. 159 00:05:59,326 --> 00:06:01,495 Accountability is what's needed right now, 160 00:06:01,562 --> 00:06:04,565 and I wanna know, who is the real Erica Mena? 161 00:06:04,631 --> 00:06:05,599 I have questions. 162 00:06:05,666 --> 00:06:07,034 I really do have questions. 163 00:06:07,100 --> 00:06:09,102 - And as a Black woman, I do have a responsibility 164 00:06:09,169 --> 00:06:10,904 to hold her accountable 165 00:06:10,971 --> 00:06:12,406 and shed some more light on this situation. 166 00:06:12,472 --> 00:06:14,107 - For sure. 167 00:06:14,174 --> 00:06:16,710 - ♪♪ It's a brand new day coming our way ♪♪ 168 00:06:16,777 --> 00:06:22,416 ♪♪ ♪♪ 169 00:06:22,482 --> 00:06:24,184 ♪♪ It's a brand new day coming our way ♪♪ 170 00:06:24,251 --> 00:06:27,654 - Honestly, I'm just happy my life is going the direction 171 00:06:27,721 --> 00:06:29,523 it is finally with my career. 172 00:06:29,590 --> 00:06:31,525 I've been in this for so long. 173 00:06:31,592 --> 00:06:35,195 - I'm still shooting season two of "Hush" here in DC. 174 00:06:35,262 --> 00:06:37,264 Being able to have my kids here 175 00:06:37,331 --> 00:06:39,499 is just one of those things that is, like, 176 00:06:39,566 --> 00:06:42,069 this is kind of like a dream come true, because I get 177 00:06:42,135 --> 00:06:44,872 to be a mom and not miss those moments 178 00:06:44,938 --> 00:06:46,807 that you can never get back. 179 00:06:46,874 --> 00:06:48,375 And I've been doing a lot of work 180 00:06:48,442 --> 00:06:49,977 just to better myself. 181 00:06:50,043 --> 00:06:51,144 - Centering yourself. 182 00:06:51,211 --> 00:06:52,479 - Yeah, I've been in therapy. 183 00:06:52,546 --> 00:06:54,715 And I know I need it because, honestly, 184 00:06:54,781 --> 00:06:58,652 dealing with Safaree outside of the kids, it's complicated. 185 00:06:58,719 --> 00:07:00,354 Why start trouble for me? 186 00:07:00,420 --> 00:07:02,589 And then to even tell Spice what she told Spice? 187 00:07:02,656 --> 00:07:05,659 So I've been dealing with that, obviously. 188 00:07:05,726 --> 00:07:07,394 And I got to-- 189 00:07:07,461 --> 00:07:09,396 I got to be honest that I'm really, really 190 00:07:09,463 --> 00:07:11,431 disappointed in myself just for going 191 00:07:11,498 --> 00:07:13,200 to that place with Spice. 192 00:07:13,267 --> 00:07:16,236 Could I tell you word for word what I said? 193 00:07:16,303 --> 00:07:18,071 - When you get to that point, you don't know what's 194 00:07:18,138 --> 00:07:19,706 coming out of your mouth. You just black out. 195 00:07:19,773 --> 00:07:21,508 - Well, when King was old enough 196 00:07:21,575 --> 00:07:25,245 to speak on it, him telling me he wants his own private life. 197 00:07:25,312 --> 00:07:26,847 - And you as his mom, you respect that. 198 00:07:26,914 --> 00:07:28,282 - Yes. - And everybody just wants 199 00:07:28,348 --> 00:07:29,983 to push it on you. - Yes. 200 00:07:30,050 --> 00:07:32,452 Up until that point, I really respected Spice, 201 00:07:32,519 --> 00:07:35,189 being a single mother, having to, you know-- 202 00:07:35,255 --> 00:07:38,158 your kids be there, you got to do this, be the hustle, 203 00:07:38,225 --> 00:07:39,760 be on the-- you know what I mean? 204 00:07:39,826 --> 00:07:41,195 The ground running. 205 00:07:41,261 --> 00:07:43,730 - And then it just took a whole left turn. 206 00:07:43,797 --> 00:07:46,800 - Now, you know my friends are being 207 00:07:46,867 --> 00:07:49,303 ganged up on about what I did. 208 00:07:49,369 --> 00:07:52,239 I wish I could rewind and watch it. 209 00:07:53,507 --> 00:07:54,808 - Yeah. 210 00:07:54,875 --> 00:07:56,276 - OK. with your son, I don't like you. 211 00:07:56,343 --> 00:07:57,878 - How do you know about my son? 212 00:07:57,945 --> 00:07:59,413 - You said [bleep], right? 213 00:07:59,479 --> 00:08:00,614 [clattering] 214 00:08:02,749 --> 00:08:05,986 - You monkey! You [bleep] blue monkey. 215 00:08:06,053 --> 00:08:08,922 Kiss my ass, bitch! 216 00:08:08,989 --> 00:08:11,225 You should have [bleep] died, ho! 217 00:08:11,291 --> 00:08:13,594 You [bleep] monkey! - Erica, get in the car. 218 00:08:13,660 --> 00:08:15,195 - Oo-ah! 219 00:08:16,663 --> 00:08:18,632 Thanks. 220 00:08:18,699 --> 00:08:21,168 You could definitely... 221 00:08:23,237 --> 00:08:26,907 You could definitely see I was just not-- 222 00:08:26,974 --> 00:08:29,543 what I said in that-- 223 00:08:29,610 --> 00:08:33,514 I so heartily from the bottom of my heart apologize 224 00:08:33,580 --> 00:08:37,417 to, you know, the incredible Black community. 225 00:08:37,484 --> 00:08:39,520 It came from just a hurt place, 226 00:08:39,586 --> 00:08:41,688 and I don't want to justify anything. 227 00:08:41,755 --> 00:08:45,125 And I take full responsibility for what I said. 228 00:08:45,192 --> 00:08:48,195 You know, I'm just disappointed in myself in that. 229 00:08:48,262 --> 00:08:50,797 What I said-- there's no excuse. 230 00:08:50,864 --> 00:08:52,099 There's no justification. 231 00:08:52,165 --> 00:08:53,734 It was wrong. 232 00:08:53,800 --> 00:08:55,869 It's not something I'm proud of because my children are Black, 233 00:08:55,936 --> 00:08:58,972 and it's something that I don't ever want my kids 234 00:08:59,039 --> 00:09:00,541 to actually experience. 235 00:09:00,607 --> 00:09:02,309 I just want to be better for them, 236 00:09:02,376 --> 00:09:04,311 and I'm going to do the work to make sure that something 237 00:09:04,378 --> 00:09:05,612 like this never happens again. 238 00:09:05,679 --> 00:09:07,981 It came from an ugly place, clearly. 239 00:09:08,048 --> 00:09:09,983 You know what I'm saying? - Yeah, that's-- 240 00:09:10,050 --> 00:09:13,187 - And it's just-- I don't know. 241 00:09:13,253 --> 00:09:15,489 I'll be apologizing for a while. 242 00:09:15,556 --> 00:09:17,224 ♪♪ ♪♪ 243 00:09:17,291 --> 00:09:19,026 - Coming up on "Love & Hip Hop Atlanta"... 244 00:09:19,092 --> 00:09:20,494 - I knew you had over your house that had 245 00:09:20,561 --> 00:09:22,196 a big old bunch of people over there. 246 00:09:22,262 --> 00:09:24,131 - You know, they filming a music video. 247 00:09:24,198 --> 00:09:25,699 I got to pay the mortgage. 248 00:09:25,766 --> 00:09:27,100 - Uh-uh. Get Big Daddy. 249 00:09:27,167 --> 00:09:28,268 Get Big Daddy out. 250 00:09:28,335 --> 00:09:29,736 - You know I'm terrified of animals. 251 00:09:29,803 --> 00:09:31,705 - Don't be greedy. Don't be acting like that. 252 00:09:31,772 --> 00:09:35,209 - For calling me out and making a racial slur 253 00:09:35,275 --> 00:09:37,277 because she's your friend, she gets to get away-- 254 00:09:37,344 --> 00:09:38,812 - No, she does not. 255 00:09:38,879 --> 00:09:40,047 - She don't get no pass. 256 00:09:40,113 --> 00:09:41,915 - I'm just making it very clear. 257 00:09:41,982 --> 00:09:44,051 - ♪♪ On my way to the top, there ain't no stopping ♪♪ 258 00:09:49,089 --> 00:09:50,357 - ♪♪ On my way to the top, there ain't no stopping ♪♪ 259 00:09:50,424 --> 00:09:52,192 - ♪♪ One, two, one, two, on my way ♪♪ 260 00:09:52,259 --> 00:09:54,428 ♪♪ Shorty so fine, yeah, come by me ♪♪ 261 00:09:54,494 --> 00:09:56,663 ♪♪ Can we take time? Let's get away ♪♪ 262 00:09:56,730 --> 00:09:58,498 ♪♪ We can take time. It'll be OK ♪♪ 263 00:09:58,565 --> 00:09:59,700 - I just want to have fun today. 264 00:09:59,766 --> 00:10:01,168 - Well, I want you to have fun. 265 00:10:01,235 --> 00:10:02,870 - So when I come up-- I said, we can't have one day 266 00:10:02,936 --> 00:10:05,138 of good energy, good vibes, good spirit? 267 00:10:05,205 --> 00:10:06,340 - Oh, no. 268 00:10:06,406 --> 00:10:07,574 - Let's just have fun. 269 00:10:07,641 --> 00:10:08,709 - Now-- 270 00:10:08,775 --> 00:10:09,943 - You ever swim with the pigs? 271 00:10:10,010 --> 00:10:11,612 - We're about to go feed some pigs. 272 00:10:11,678 --> 00:10:14,348 I see other people feeding pigs all the time on Instagram. 273 00:10:14,414 --> 00:10:16,183 I think this is going to be a great day for me. 274 00:10:16,250 --> 00:10:17,351 I can't wait. 275 00:10:17,417 --> 00:10:18,685 - Hi, babies. 276 00:10:18,752 --> 00:10:20,787 Y'all ready to pool these pigs? 277 00:10:20,854 --> 00:10:22,523 - Whoo. - Hi. 278 00:10:22,589 --> 00:10:24,424 - Hi. - Hey. 279 00:10:24,491 --> 00:10:25,626 - Ready to feed some pigs? 280 00:10:25,692 --> 00:10:27,160 All: Yes. - Whoo! 281 00:10:27,227 --> 00:10:29,663 - Baby, I love pig. 282 00:10:29,730 --> 00:10:30,898 - I'm not ready. 283 00:10:30,964 --> 00:10:32,699 - Right, ladies. Welcome to the pig beach. 284 00:10:32,766 --> 00:10:34,601 Make some noise! [cheering] 285 00:10:34,668 --> 00:10:35,936 All right, ladies. 286 00:10:49,283 --> 00:10:51,351 - No smoke. Call, it'll be like this. 287 00:10:51,418 --> 00:10:52,486 Like this. No smoke. 288 00:10:52,553 --> 00:10:53,820 - No smoke. 289 00:10:53,887 --> 00:10:55,522 - I'm just very anxious because I'm like, 290 00:10:55,589 --> 00:10:56,957 are they going to be running? 291 00:10:57,024 --> 00:10:58,425 Are they going to be fat, skinny, short? 292 00:10:58,492 --> 00:10:59,693 Are they going to be hairy? 293 00:10:59,760 --> 00:11:01,195 Am I going to be disgusted 294 00:11:01,261 --> 00:11:02,629 and don't want to eat pork anymore? 295 00:11:02,696 --> 00:11:04,097 And then pork is my favorite meat. 296 00:11:04,164 --> 00:11:06,166 When I see them pigs, God forbid, 297 00:11:06,233 --> 00:11:10,103 but I like them to be packaged up and ready to fry. 298 00:11:10,170 --> 00:11:11,538 - Are you ready? 299 00:11:11,605 --> 00:11:12,706 - Uh-uh. 300 00:11:12,773 --> 00:11:14,107 When are they coming? 301 00:11:14,174 --> 00:11:15,275 - Hey! 302 00:11:15,342 --> 00:11:16,710 - I'm terrified of animals. 303 00:11:16,777 --> 00:11:19,513 - One, two, three! 304 00:11:19,580 --> 00:11:21,114 - Thank you, Lord, for blessing me. 305 00:11:21,181 --> 00:11:22,115 [whistle blows] 306 00:11:22,182 --> 00:11:23,717 Thank you, Lord, for blessing me. 307 00:11:23,784 --> 00:11:25,586 [pigs snorting] 308 00:11:25,652 --> 00:11:27,120 - Uh-uh. Get Big Daddy. 309 00:11:27,187 --> 00:11:28,288 Get Big Daddy out. 310 00:11:28,355 --> 00:11:29,690 - [laughs] 311 00:11:29,756 --> 00:11:31,358 - OK, he's standing next to you. 312 00:11:31,425 --> 00:11:32,726 - I don't got no more [bleep]. 313 00:11:32,793 --> 00:11:34,628 [upbeat music] 314 00:11:34,695 --> 00:11:36,763 - Oh, these pigs are very aggressive. 315 00:11:36,830 --> 00:11:38,198 They're aggressive. 316 00:11:38,265 --> 00:11:40,467 They're giving me more dogs than pigs, 317 00:11:40,534 --> 00:11:41,702 but they are so cute. 318 00:11:41,768 --> 00:11:43,370 I'm in love with them. 319 00:11:43,437 --> 00:11:46,173 - Why are you so--ooh! 320 00:11:46,240 --> 00:11:49,076 [chattering] 321 00:11:49,142 --> 00:11:50,577 - Oh! 322 00:11:50,644 --> 00:11:51,912 - They so big. Wait. 323 00:11:51,979 --> 00:11:53,981 They don't stink either. 324 00:11:54,047 --> 00:11:55,716 Big boy. 325 00:11:55,782 --> 00:11:57,351 - You brought your food. - Yeah. 326 00:11:57,417 --> 00:11:58,652 - Yeah. Give them the food. 327 00:11:58,719 --> 00:11:59,853 Don't even make them work for it. 328 00:11:59,920 --> 00:12:01,421 They haven't eaten. 329 00:12:01,488 --> 00:12:03,590 You can tell by the fact that they're running out. 330 00:12:03,657 --> 00:12:06,593 - What gives me my reservations about the swine shore 331 00:12:06,660 --> 00:12:07,961 are the pigs. 332 00:12:08,028 --> 00:12:09,363 And they're like, oh, no. 333 00:12:09,429 --> 00:12:10,464 They're on this island. 334 00:12:10,531 --> 00:12:11,632 They're really happy. 335 00:12:11,698 --> 00:12:13,233 Really? They're happy? 336 00:12:13,300 --> 00:12:15,702 I don't [bleep] think these pigs are [bleep] happy. 337 00:12:15,769 --> 00:12:17,905 Look at how he's holding the [bleep] fruit there. 338 00:12:17,971 --> 00:12:20,140 Why does he have to work for that? 339 00:12:20,207 --> 00:12:22,009 I'm an animal lover, and I have a problem 340 00:12:22,075 --> 00:12:23,377 with stuff like this. 341 00:12:23,443 --> 00:12:24,711 - Well, what do you want me to do about it? 342 00:12:24,778 --> 00:12:27,247 - I need a drink. 343 00:12:27,314 --> 00:12:29,283 ♪♪ Girl, let's dip and wine ♪♪ 344 00:12:29,349 --> 00:12:31,852 ♪♪ Work it, but take your time ♪♪ 345 00:12:31,919 --> 00:12:34,021 ♪♪ Bring your tight body over here ♪♪ 346 00:12:34,087 --> 00:12:37,057 ♪♪ You know that it's mine, all mine ♪♪ 347 00:12:37,124 --> 00:12:38,892 ♪♪ Girl, let's go dip and wine ♪♪ 348 00:12:38,959 --> 00:12:41,261 ♪♪ Work it, but take you time ♪♪ 349 00:12:43,397 --> 00:12:44,531 - Hell no. 350 00:12:44,598 --> 00:12:45,666 - You ain't getting back on? 351 00:12:45,732 --> 00:12:47,501 - Not with Khaotic. - I got you. 352 00:12:47,568 --> 00:12:49,503 I got you. Come on. 353 00:12:49,570 --> 00:12:51,138 - You got this. 354 00:12:51,205 --> 00:12:53,407 - I want to take her on the ride of a lifetime. 355 00:12:53,473 --> 00:12:54,942 I know she can't swim. 356 00:12:55,008 --> 00:12:57,277 But come on, Karlie, you got to live a little! 357 00:12:57,344 --> 00:13:00,948 And we're about to live life to the fullest. 358 00:13:01,014 --> 00:13:03,917 [upbeat music] 359 00:13:03,984 --> 00:13:08,589 ♪♪ ♪♪ 360 00:13:08,655 --> 00:13:10,290 - Spice, come into the office. 361 00:13:10,357 --> 00:13:11,859 Sit down. 362 00:13:11,925 --> 00:13:14,161 You know, everybody is just having fun, feeding the pigs, 363 00:13:14,228 --> 00:13:16,396 running around, and just really enjoying theyself. 364 00:13:16,463 --> 00:13:19,266 But I feel like it was awkward a little bit 365 00:13:19,333 --> 00:13:21,902 because Bambi was kind of standoffish, 366 00:13:21,969 --> 00:13:23,337 and then Spice was on the other side. 367 00:13:23,403 --> 00:13:24,938 So I'm like, all right. 368 00:13:25,005 --> 00:13:27,341 I'm going to try to see if Bambi and Spice can talk. 369 00:13:27,407 --> 00:13:29,843 Damn, top model. 370 00:13:31,078 --> 00:13:33,981 - Sierra pulls Spice and me together 371 00:13:34,047 --> 00:13:35,449 to have a little conversation. 372 00:13:35,516 --> 00:13:38,452 And at this point, I'm like, whatever. 373 00:13:38,519 --> 00:13:41,021 I'm just going to see what type of time she on today. 374 00:13:41,088 --> 00:13:42,956 - So y'all know the other night, it was crazy. 375 00:13:43,023 --> 00:13:45,425 And I feel like Spice came to the table, 376 00:13:45,492 --> 00:13:47,895 and she called us a fake or whatever. 377 00:13:47,961 --> 00:13:49,363 I feel like it was a trigger towards you. 378 00:13:49,429 --> 00:13:51,665 - Yeah, no. - It wasn't in a--fake. 379 00:13:51,732 --> 00:13:53,066 - I said, who are you talking to? 380 00:13:53,133 --> 00:13:54,334 - So when you were at the table making 381 00:13:54,401 --> 00:13:56,203 it seem like you don't know nothing 382 00:13:56,270 --> 00:13:58,605 about the whole situation, that's why I gave off, 383 00:13:58,672 --> 00:13:59,907 "Oh my God, this is so fake." 384 00:13:59,973 --> 00:14:01,675 - What I said was that I have not 385 00:14:01,742 --> 00:14:03,477 spoken to Erica about that. 386 00:14:03,544 --> 00:14:05,512 I didn't interrogate her about what happened. 387 00:14:05,579 --> 00:14:07,114 She told me what she wanted me to know. 388 00:14:07,181 --> 00:14:08,482 - Yes, she did. She really did. 389 00:14:08,549 --> 00:14:10,517 She called me back before we came here. 390 00:14:10,584 --> 00:14:12,119 - She said she don't know what she said. 391 00:14:12,186 --> 00:14:13,587 She said she blacked out. 392 00:14:13,654 --> 00:14:15,155 She said she knows she said some horrible things 393 00:14:15,222 --> 00:14:16,890 and truly don't feel like-- 394 00:14:16,957 --> 00:14:18,392 you know-- 395 00:14:18,458 --> 00:14:21,728 - So for calling me out and making a racial slur, 396 00:14:21,795 --> 00:14:24,164 because she's your friend, she gets to get away with it? 397 00:14:24,231 --> 00:14:25,999 - No, she don't get no pass. 398 00:14:26,066 --> 00:14:28,402 - That's why I'm just making it very clear. 399 00:14:29,603 --> 00:14:31,238 I just felt like Bambi was lying that 400 00:14:31,305 --> 00:14:32,806 she never talked to Erica Mena. 401 00:14:32,873 --> 00:14:34,641 But, no, they say they talked to Erica. 402 00:14:34,708 --> 00:14:36,577 Them say them have a conversation with her right 403 00:14:36,643 --> 00:14:38,579 before they go on the boat, and she don't remember nothing. 404 00:14:38,645 --> 00:14:40,714 OK, now she has amnesia. 405 00:14:40,781 --> 00:14:43,417 I heard what she said, and the cameras did too. 406 00:14:43,483 --> 00:14:45,886 So if they want to pick up for her, then that's on them. 407 00:14:45,953 --> 00:14:47,254 I'll just let it go. 408 00:14:47,321 --> 00:14:48,555 We'll leave it at that, and it's cool. 409 00:14:48,622 --> 00:14:50,023 - Spice, I feel like you owe me an apology. 410 00:14:50,090 --> 00:14:51,425 I was truly-- - Why? And you were the one 411 00:14:51,491 --> 00:14:53,894 who said, "What the [bleep] you talking to?" 412 00:14:53,961 --> 00:14:55,462 And you were talking-- - No, you talking-- 413 00:14:55,529 --> 00:14:57,831 no, sit down. Spice. 414 00:14:57,898 --> 00:14:58,966 - When I get angry and I give you-- 415 00:14:59,032 --> 00:15:00,367 - You not doing right. 416 00:15:00,434 --> 00:15:01,735 You not doing right. 417 00:15:01,802 --> 00:15:03,136 - I don't want to be the angry one. 418 00:15:03,203 --> 00:15:04,671 No, I'm tired of this. 419 00:15:04,738 --> 00:15:06,039 - It's OK. 420 00:15:06,106 --> 00:15:07,474 - Bambi, I'm tired of them triggering me. 421 00:15:07,541 --> 00:15:09,176 And then when they come out to something, 422 00:15:09,243 --> 00:15:10,911 I'm going to be angry. - It's OK. It's OK. 423 00:15:10,978 --> 00:15:12,312 - I'm going to go. - All right. 424 00:15:12,379 --> 00:15:14,281 - You know, a Black woman coming out of Jamaica, 425 00:15:14,348 --> 00:15:16,783 struggling through poverty, and making it big in the US, 426 00:15:16,850 --> 00:15:20,554 the racial slurs are something I've lived with all my life. 427 00:15:20,621 --> 00:15:22,389 So everything was a trigger. 428 00:15:22,456 --> 00:15:24,725 And if they don't want to support me, it is what it is. 429 00:15:24,791 --> 00:15:26,159 But I love myself. 430 00:15:26,226 --> 00:15:28,095 I love my color, my complexion. 431 00:15:28,161 --> 00:15:30,597 I love who I am, and I'm always going to embrace. 432 00:15:30,664 --> 00:15:33,734 I'm proud for the Black, proud of my color. 433 00:15:33,800 --> 00:15:35,435 - You can't just walk away, though. 434 00:15:35,502 --> 00:15:38,038 Because I ain't do that last night. 435 00:15:38,105 --> 00:15:40,841 Spice wants me to just disown Erica, 436 00:15:40,908 --> 00:15:43,911 And I haven't even had a real face-to-face conversation 437 00:15:43,977 --> 00:15:45,045 with Erica yet. 438 00:15:45,112 --> 00:15:46,280 Erica's not here. 439 00:15:46,346 --> 00:15:47,681 I didn't make the comment. 440 00:15:47,748 --> 00:15:48,749 I didn't hear the comment. 441 00:15:48,815 --> 00:15:50,083 I don't know about the comment. 442 00:15:50,150 --> 00:15:54,221 So why are you inserting me into this mess? 443 00:15:54,288 --> 00:15:55,689 - She said what she said. 444 00:15:55,756 --> 00:15:57,024 I said what I said. 445 00:15:57,090 --> 00:15:58,625 Then Bambi is telling me to apologize, 446 00:15:58,692 --> 00:16:01,228 and I'm like, why do I need to apologize when you started it? 447 00:16:01,295 --> 00:16:04,598 You can't hold me accountable for stuff, for the reaction. 448 00:16:04,665 --> 00:16:05,732 And you, you get action. 449 00:16:05,799 --> 00:16:07,234 - She felt attacked. 450 00:16:07,301 --> 00:16:08,735 - Because I'm a Jamaican. - No, no, no. 451 00:16:08,802 --> 00:16:09,970 And I do understand. 452 00:16:10,037 --> 00:16:11,238 - Because I'm a darker skin tone. 453 00:16:11,305 --> 00:16:13,207 - No, it's not about that. Don't do that. 454 00:16:13,273 --> 00:16:14,675 Don't do that, Spice. 455 00:16:14,741 --> 00:16:16,009 I swear, do not do that. 456 00:16:16,076 --> 00:16:17,411 - No, because-- - No, no, no, because-- 457 00:16:17,477 --> 00:16:18,912 - Because it was because I felt attacked. 458 00:16:18,979 --> 00:16:20,180 That's why I reacted. 459 00:16:20,247 --> 00:16:22,182 But you said Bambi felt attacked. 460 00:16:22,249 --> 00:16:23,617 - Bambi said that she felt attacked. 461 00:16:23,684 --> 00:16:25,519 This is my first time hearing from you. 462 00:16:25,586 --> 00:16:27,321 - And the trigger words at that table 463 00:16:27,387 --> 00:16:29,756 was when Bambi said, "Who the [bleep] are you talking to?" 464 00:16:29,823 --> 00:16:31,124 And I'm sticking by it. 465 00:16:31,191 --> 00:16:32,326 I said what I said. - But-- 466 00:16:32,392 --> 00:16:33,994 - That was the trigger at the table. 467 00:16:34,061 --> 00:16:35,762 And everybody is talking about what happened 468 00:16:35,829 --> 00:16:37,164 after the trigger word. 469 00:16:37,231 --> 00:16:38,365 You take care. 470 00:16:38,432 --> 00:16:39,666 It was nice meeting you. - See y'all. 471 00:16:39,733 --> 00:16:41,201 - I met you before. 472 00:16:41,268 --> 00:16:43,604 Over the last few days, I have watched Spice. 473 00:16:43,670 --> 00:16:44,872 I can read her. 474 00:16:44,938 --> 00:16:46,907 She's a [bleep] complicated human being. 475 00:16:46,974 --> 00:16:49,209 And it's OK to be complex. 476 00:16:49,276 --> 00:16:51,278 It's OK to be a complicated human being. 477 00:16:51,345 --> 00:16:53,380 I know she's been through a lot, 478 00:16:53,447 --> 00:16:55,616 especially after a near-death experience. 479 00:16:55,682 --> 00:16:56,850 [tense music] 480 00:16:56,917 --> 00:16:58,619 I need some sage. 481 00:16:58,685 --> 00:16:59,920 - ♪♪ Oh, please ♪♪ 482 00:16:59,987 --> 00:17:01,154 ♪♪ I am the realest one ♪♪ 483 00:17:01,221 --> 00:17:02,890 ♪♪ That's what you call it ♪♪ 484 00:17:02,956 --> 00:17:05,259 - Oh! 485 00:17:05,325 --> 00:17:06,994 I'll try everything once. 486 00:17:07,060 --> 00:17:08,762 After the one time-- 487 00:17:08,829 --> 00:17:10,197 Oh! - Whoa. 488 00:17:10,264 --> 00:17:11,798 - Oh, my God. 489 00:17:11,865 --> 00:17:14,034 [indistinct conversation] 490 00:17:14,101 --> 00:17:15,335 Yo. 491 00:17:15,402 --> 00:17:18,238 - Karlie looked like she's scared [bleep], 492 00:17:18,305 --> 00:17:20,507 like she shouldn't have took her ass out there. 493 00:17:20,574 --> 00:17:23,410 - Yo, I cannot believe I convinced her. 494 00:17:23,477 --> 00:17:24,912 - I'm about to go back out. 495 00:17:24,978 --> 00:17:27,814 - Khaotic, you're going to give her a heart attack! 496 00:17:27,881 --> 00:17:29,750 [laughing] 497 00:17:29,816 --> 00:17:31,752 - Whoo! - Yeah! 498 00:17:31,818 --> 00:17:33,587 - Yay! 499 00:17:33,654 --> 00:17:36,390 [cheering] 500 00:17:37,925 --> 00:17:41,028 - Karlie is from Trinidad, and she's terrified of water. 501 00:17:41,094 --> 00:17:44,264 If you want to get you one of them rich-ass billionaires, 502 00:17:44,331 --> 00:17:46,433 you have to know how to sit cute on the yacht 503 00:17:46,500 --> 00:17:48,035 just in case you got to dive your ass in. 504 00:17:48,101 --> 00:17:49,937 Bitch, you got to know how to swim. 505 00:17:50,003 --> 00:17:52,139 So Karlie, what's going on with Spice? 506 00:17:52,206 --> 00:17:53,941 - You know I love that lady. 507 00:17:54,007 --> 00:17:55,409 I have not moved in the house. 508 00:17:55,475 --> 00:17:57,711 I'm trying to do everything to make up, 509 00:17:57,778 --> 00:18:00,180 but everything she has an issue with. 510 00:18:00,247 --> 00:18:02,282 And her energy lately has been off. 511 00:18:02,349 --> 00:18:04,218 - It is, but just taking consideration-- 512 00:18:04,284 --> 00:18:05,586 - So I'm not tripping? 513 00:18:05,652 --> 00:18:07,020 - --of what she's been going through. 514 00:18:07,087 --> 00:18:08,522 - I know, but you would think that somebody that's 515 00:18:08,589 --> 00:18:10,324 going through that will be a little bit more-- 516 00:18:10,390 --> 00:18:12,226 - I think different people react differently. 517 00:18:12,292 --> 00:18:13,627 - Yeah. People take things different. 518 00:18:13,694 --> 00:18:15,395 People deal with things in a different way. 519 00:18:15,462 --> 00:18:18,799 - I mean, listen, we are in a beautiful ambiance. 520 00:18:18,866 --> 00:18:21,401 Right? Maybe it's time to try again. 521 00:18:21,468 --> 00:18:22,769 But let me just give you some advice. 522 00:18:22,836 --> 00:18:24,471 - I'm scared. - Just come as real as you can. 523 00:18:24,538 --> 00:18:25,873 - Yeah. - That's it. 524 00:18:25,939 --> 00:18:27,307 That's what I would just say. 525 00:18:27,374 --> 00:18:29,042 Just come as real as you can, and put it on the table. 526 00:18:29,109 --> 00:18:30,477 - Spice has been on edge this whole trip, 527 00:18:30,544 --> 00:18:32,579 and things between us has not been friendly. 528 00:18:32,646 --> 00:18:35,749 I know I'll be taking a risk in approaching Spice, 529 00:18:35,816 --> 00:18:38,385 but this relationship means a lot to me. 530 00:18:38,452 --> 00:18:39,853 I didn't want to go back to Atlanta 531 00:18:39,920 --> 00:18:42,256 with this bad blood between us. 532 00:18:42,322 --> 00:18:44,124 I still got love for her. She's my sister. 533 00:18:44,191 --> 00:18:45,592 That will never go away. 534 00:18:45,659 --> 00:18:47,895 - No screaming, no yelling, no theatrics, 535 00:18:47,961 --> 00:18:49,229 just heart to heart. 536 00:18:49,296 --> 00:18:50,597 - I went to her so many times, 537 00:18:50,664 --> 00:18:52,566 and I'm scared of rejection now. 538 00:18:52,633 --> 00:18:54,635 - Coming up on "Love & Hip Hop Atlanta"... 539 00:18:54,701 --> 00:18:56,537 - No. See, I knew. 540 00:18:56,603 --> 00:18:57,738 - Oh! 541 00:18:57,804 --> 00:18:59,239 - And I knew you was about to do that. 542 00:18:59,306 --> 00:19:01,241 - I just wanna tell my brother, 543 00:19:01,308 --> 00:19:02,709 it hurting me arguing with you. 544 00:19:02,776 --> 00:19:04,411 It hurting me that we even was standing 545 00:19:04,478 --> 00:19:06,246 going toe to toe like that. 546 00:19:06,313 --> 00:19:08,448 - ♪♪ On my way to the top, there ain't no stopping ♪♪ 547 00:19:12,786 --> 00:19:13,820 - ♪♪ On my way to the top ♪♪ 548 00:19:13,887 --> 00:19:15,322 ♪♪ There ain't no stopping ♪♪ 549 00:19:15,389 --> 00:19:17,124 - ♪♪ May be temporary, but it's long-lasting ♪♪ 550 00:19:17,191 --> 00:19:19,059 ♪♪ Nobody gon' know dey broadcast it ♪♪ 551 00:19:19,126 --> 00:19:20,928 ♪♪ When I'm feeling lost, you be my compass ♪♪ 552 00:19:20,994 --> 00:19:22,362 ♪♪ My compass ♪♪ 553 00:19:22,429 --> 00:19:23,931 ♪♪ When it rain, you change the forecast ♪♪ 554 00:19:23,997 --> 00:19:26,200 ♪♪ All them other women no dey contest you ♪♪ 555 00:19:26,266 --> 00:19:28,302 - So it's our last night in Bahamas. 556 00:19:28,368 --> 00:19:29,937 We are doing something extremely special 557 00:19:30,003 --> 00:19:31,171 to close out the trip. 558 00:19:31,238 --> 00:19:33,307 I love to be able to go to other places, 559 00:19:33,373 --> 00:19:35,542 other countries, and indulge in their culture. 560 00:19:35,609 --> 00:19:38,812 We had to make sure we experienced the Junkanoo. 561 00:19:38,879 --> 00:19:40,547 [lively music playing] 562 00:19:40,614 --> 00:19:42,649 - Amy, come on. 563 00:19:42,716 --> 00:19:47,221 ♪♪ ♪♪ 564 00:19:47,287 --> 00:19:48,755 - No. See I knew-- 565 00:19:48,822 --> 00:19:50,390 - Oh! 566 00:19:50,457 --> 00:19:51,825 - And I knew you were about to do that. 567 00:19:51,892 --> 00:19:58,398 ♪♪ ♪♪ 568 00:19:58,465 --> 00:20:00,033 - Oh, my God. 569 00:20:00,100 --> 00:20:03,937 The Junkanoo band came in, y'all--dancing instruments. 570 00:20:04,004 --> 00:20:05,205 And we're sitting here trying to learn some 571 00:20:05,272 --> 00:20:07,207 of the dance moves, and everybody 572 00:20:07,274 --> 00:20:09,576 is smiling for the first time. 573 00:20:09,643 --> 00:20:11,178 - I'm having fun, man. 574 00:20:11,245 --> 00:20:13,480 And it set the tone for positive energy, man. 575 00:20:13,547 --> 00:20:16,116 It's really doing something for the mental health 576 00:20:16,183 --> 00:20:17,818 of our little tribe right here. 577 00:20:17,885 --> 00:20:20,754 [cheering] 578 00:20:20,821 --> 00:20:22,923 - It is called Junkanoo. 579 00:20:22,990 --> 00:20:24,291 - Junkanoo. - Yeah! 580 00:20:24,358 --> 00:20:25,759 - Junkanoo! 581 00:20:25,826 --> 00:20:27,294 - Junkanoo is a festival. 582 00:20:27,361 --> 00:20:29,730 It goes all the way back to slavery times, 583 00:20:29,796 --> 00:20:31,665 and a lot of the Caribbean nations 584 00:20:31,732 --> 00:20:33,267 all have their different celebrations 585 00:20:33,333 --> 00:20:36,570 expressing their original heritage 586 00:20:36,637 --> 00:20:38,105 against their oppressors. 587 00:20:38,172 --> 00:20:39,273 - Junkanoo! 588 00:20:39,339 --> 00:20:40,741 - Junkanoo! 589 00:20:40,807 --> 00:20:43,977 [cheering] 590 00:20:45,779 --> 00:20:48,415 - So it's the last night in Bahamas. 591 00:20:48,482 --> 00:20:50,284 As I've been on my healing journey 592 00:20:50,350 --> 00:20:52,085 and seeing how I can move forward, 593 00:20:52,152 --> 00:20:54,154 I thought that tonight would be the perfect night 594 00:20:54,221 --> 00:20:56,456 for me to actually apologize to Scrapp. 595 00:20:56,523 --> 00:21:00,994 All right, so I just want to tell my brother that, you know, 596 00:21:01,061 --> 00:21:04,097 it's been a long, rocky ride with us, 597 00:21:04,164 --> 00:21:06,433 and I hate us being at odds like this, 598 00:21:06,500 --> 00:21:09,336 just like I hate it for you and Bam to be at odds. 599 00:21:09,403 --> 00:21:11,772 That's my girl, and I'ma ride for her. 600 00:21:11,839 --> 00:21:13,841 But it hurting me arguing with you. 601 00:21:13,907 --> 00:21:15,642 It hurting me that we even was standing 602 00:21:15,709 --> 00:21:17,377 going toe-to-toe like that. 603 00:21:17,444 --> 00:21:18,846 - I don't give a [bleep] about none of that [bleep]. 604 00:21:18,912 --> 00:21:19,980 - [bleep], go-- 605 00:21:20,047 --> 00:21:20,948 - Go ahead on with that [bleep]. 606 00:21:21,014 --> 00:21:22,416 - Put it on the Bible. 607 00:21:22,482 --> 00:21:23,684 You want [bleep] diamonds. - I'll put it on Bible. 608 00:21:23,750 --> 00:21:24,818 I'll put it on the Bible. 609 00:21:24,885 --> 00:21:25,919 I'll do that [bleep] right now. 610 00:21:25,986 --> 00:21:27,554 - I want to say I apologize 611 00:21:27,621 --> 00:21:29,356 for just doing too much. 612 00:21:29,423 --> 00:21:31,592 I had no business being in y'all business like that. 613 00:21:31,658 --> 00:21:32,860 You know what I'm saying? 614 00:21:32,926 --> 00:21:34,127 - I love you for that. 615 00:21:34,194 --> 00:21:36,129 - Scrappy is really like my brother for real. 616 00:21:36,196 --> 00:21:38,065 And even though I felt like, 617 00:21:38,131 --> 00:21:39,533 why are you doing Bambi like that, 618 00:21:39,600 --> 00:21:41,001 I should have totally stayed out of that. 619 00:21:41,068 --> 00:21:42,369 And I recognize that. 620 00:21:42,436 --> 00:21:44,771 I miss my brother, and I'm like-- 621 00:21:44,838 --> 00:21:46,840 - I apologize, myself, for all that. 622 00:21:46,907 --> 00:21:48,442 - Yeah. [applause] 623 00:21:48,509 --> 00:21:49,576 - I apologize. 624 00:21:49,643 --> 00:21:50,711 - I love you, bro. 625 00:21:50,777 --> 00:21:51,879 - Love you too. 626 00:21:51,945 --> 00:21:53,580 Sierra, I appreciate that. 627 00:21:53,647 --> 00:21:55,215 You know what I'm saying, when everybody calm down 628 00:21:55,282 --> 00:21:57,985 and we able to chop it up, we let [bleep] go, man. 629 00:21:58,051 --> 00:22:00,254 Life's too short to keep riding on that bull-[bleep]. 630 00:22:00,320 --> 00:22:03,357 - Let's not leave Bahamas with bad blood. 631 00:22:03,423 --> 00:22:06,727 So is there anybody else that got something to say 632 00:22:06,793 --> 00:22:09,429 before we go back to Atlanta? 633 00:22:09,496 --> 00:22:12,032 [tense music] 634 00:22:12,099 --> 00:22:13,166 ♪♪ ♪♪ 635 00:22:13,233 --> 00:22:16,203 Spice, do you got something to say? 636 00:22:16,270 --> 00:22:17,538 - OK. 637 00:22:17,604 --> 00:22:21,675 Bambi, we had a conversation earlier, 638 00:22:21,742 --> 00:22:24,244 and you apologized. 639 00:22:24,311 --> 00:22:26,513 I should have in return apologized, too, 640 00:22:26,580 --> 00:22:28,315 because of the things that I was saying at the table. 641 00:22:28,382 --> 00:22:29,917 I don't remember everything and word for word. 642 00:22:29,983 --> 00:22:32,519 I know I was angry, and that's just how I get when I'm angry. 643 00:22:32,586 --> 00:22:34,121 I just go from 0 to 100. 644 00:22:34,188 --> 00:22:35,756 But I'm working on myself. 645 00:22:35,822 --> 00:22:37,558 After everything what just happened at the beach today, 646 00:22:37,624 --> 00:22:38,926 it made me reflect. 647 00:22:38,992 --> 00:22:40,360 I feel like I probably overreacted. 648 00:22:40,427 --> 00:22:42,162 Bambi was trying to apologize. 649 00:22:42,229 --> 00:22:44,398 I honestly did feel bad, because at the end of the day, 650 00:22:44,464 --> 00:22:45,999 I know she's going through her divorce, 651 00:22:46,066 --> 00:22:47,467 and that must be a lot. 652 00:22:47,534 --> 00:22:49,570 I feel like I'm too triggered with hurt, 653 00:22:49,636 --> 00:22:51,205 and I've been going about things 654 00:22:51,271 --> 00:22:52,506 and my emotions the wrong way. 655 00:22:52,573 --> 00:22:55,342 I want to change and be a better person. 656 00:22:55,409 --> 00:22:58,712 And I just want to apologize if I came at you a certain way. 657 00:22:58,779 --> 00:23:00,848 And I feel like me coming at you, it came from a place 658 00:23:00,914 --> 00:23:04,351 where I feel like you were already picking up for Erica 659 00:23:04,418 --> 00:23:06,286 because I already put you and Sierra in a box 660 00:23:06,353 --> 00:23:07,821 to say that's your friend. 661 00:23:07,888 --> 00:23:10,190 So you're going to rock with her regardless of the facts. 662 00:23:10,257 --> 00:23:12,526 So I was already coming to the table looking at you guys 663 00:23:12,593 --> 00:23:14,027 sideways to see what's the approach, 664 00:23:14,094 --> 00:23:15,629 you know what I'm saying? 665 00:23:15,696 --> 00:23:17,598 And that's where the anger came from, because it was already 666 00:23:17,664 --> 00:23:19,666 built up like, OK, me go watch Sierra 667 00:23:19,733 --> 00:23:22,569 and Bambi to see if them gonna go pick up for Erica. 668 00:23:22,636 --> 00:23:23,937 And it was wrong of me. 669 00:23:24,004 --> 00:23:25,973 And so I just want to say I apologize 670 00:23:26,039 --> 00:23:29,042 for all the hurtful things that I said. 671 00:23:29,109 --> 00:23:31,812 - I'm just super proud of Spice 672 00:23:31,879 --> 00:23:34,815 for apologizing after all she's been through. 673 00:23:34,882 --> 00:23:37,918 But I also feel bad that Bambi's going through this. 674 00:23:37,985 --> 00:23:39,119 - Maybe Erica wasn't so forthright 675 00:23:39,186 --> 00:23:40,621 in the information. 676 00:23:40,687 --> 00:23:43,624 I don't know how I would feel telling my Black friend 677 00:23:43,690 --> 00:23:46,627 that I called another Black female a monkey. 678 00:23:46,693 --> 00:23:48,829 So I'm going to just hug you, because at the beach 679 00:23:48,896 --> 00:23:50,631 I never returned the hug. 680 00:23:50,697 --> 00:23:52,699 [applause] - Yes! 681 00:23:52,766 --> 00:23:54,601 - Thank you so much. 682 00:23:54,668 --> 00:23:55,936 - I love you guys. 683 00:23:56,003 --> 00:23:57,538 - I appreciate Spice's apology. 684 00:23:57,604 --> 00:23:59,973 But at the end of the day, I feel like she came 685 00:24:00,040 --> 00:24:02,309 out of nowhere with the insults towards me, 686 00:24:02,376 --> 00:24:05,045 and I had never, ever done anything to her. 687 00:24:05,112 --> 00:24:06,747 - You crybaby! 688 00:24:06,813 --> 00:24:07,981 Give me a hug. 689 00:24:08,048 --> 00:24:10,017 [laughs] 690 00:24:10,083 --> 00:24:11,885 The crybaby! 691 00:24:11,952 --> 00:24:14,588 - So again, I accept her apology. 692 00:24:14,655 --> 00:24:17,658 But I'm going to have to keep her at a safe distance. 693 00:24:17,724 --> 00:24:19,927 - I'm so happy to be here. 694 00:24:19,993 --> 00:24:21,528 - See, that's that Bahamas. 695 00:24:21,595 --> 00:24:23,297 That's that water, that breeze, that just-- 696 00:24:23,363 --> 00:24:25,766 the love, you know, begins to take over. 697 00:24:25,832 --> 00:24:27,167 And that's what I wanted. 698 00:24:27,234 --> 00:24:29,102 - We about to party some more. 699 00:24:29,169 --> 00:24:31,572 Let's get this music going. 700 00:24:31,638 --> 00:24:32,873 Let's go. 701 00:24:32,940 --> 00:24:34,007 - Come dance with me. 702 00:24:34,074 --> 00:24:35,542 - I see you, big booty bitch. 703 00:24:35,609 --> 00:24:37,744 ♪♪ ♪♪ 704 00:24:37,811 --> 00:24:38,879 - You look beautiful. 705 00:24:38,946 --> 00:24:39,980 - You do too. 706 00:24:40,047 --> 00:24:42,850 ♪♪ ♪♪ 707 00:24:42,916 --> 00:24:45,853 - I'm fighting with my inner self, like I need to just-- 708 00:24:45,919 --> 00:24:47,721 but I'm going to work on it. 709 00:24:47,788 --> 00:24:49,656 - But look at the steps you're taking so far. 710 00:24:49,723 --> 00:24:50,991 I'm super proud of you. 711 00:24:51,058 --> 00:24:52,259 - I try hard. - It's just going to be-- 712 00:24:52,326 --> 00:24:53,927 - I have to be with people. 713 00:24:53,994 --> 00:24:55,696 - It's going to be a process, for real. 714 00:24:55,762 --> 00:24:57,097 - That was good. 715 00:24:57,164 --> 00:24:59,733 I'm glad I was able to just, whoo. 716 00:24:59,800 --> 00:25:01,301 Woosah, and just let it go. 717 00:25:01,368 --> 00:25:03,036 Because it's not really me at the end of the day. 718 00:25:03,103 --> 00:25:04,438 So I hate when people bring me there, 719 00:25:04,505 --> 00:25:05,873 because I'm trying to come from there. 720 00:25:05,939 --> 00:25:07,207 - Exactly. 721 00:25:07,274 --> 00:25:09,476 Earlier when we rode the jet skis and stuff, 722 00:25:09,543 --> 00:25:11,512 Karlie was kind of confessing. 723 00:25:11,578 --> 00:25:13,080 - Oh, Lord. 724 00:25:13,146 --> 00:25:15,082 Here we go. - Am I pushing it? 725 00:25:15,148 --> 00:25:16,483 Am I pushing it too far? 726 00:25:16,550 --> 00:25:18,418 - Rasheeda! 727 00:25:18,485 --> 00:25:20,487 - Coming up on "Love & Hip Hop Atlanta"... 728 00:25:20,554 --> 00:25:23,857 - There were cars and strangers and men outside. 729 00:25:24,658 --> 00:25:26,827 - ♪♪ On my way to the top, there ain't no stopping ♪♪ 730 00:25:31,565 --> 00:25:33,066 - ♪♪ On my way to the top, there ain't no stopping ♪♪ 731 00:25:33,133 --> 00:25:35,569 - Earlier, Karlie was kind of confessing. 732 00:25:35,636 --> 00:25:37,104 - Oh, Lord! 733 00:25:37,171 --> 00:25:38,305 Here we go. 734 00:25:38,372 --> 00:25:39,339 - Am I pushing it? 735 00:25:39,406 --> 00:25:40,541 Am I pushing it too far? 736 00:25:40,607 --> 00:25:41,909 What am I doing? 737 00:25:41,975 --> 00:25:44,311 - Can I have fun? [laughter] 738 00:25:44,378 --> 00:25:48,115 I've been trying to avoid Karlie for a while. 739 00:25:48,182 --> 00:25:50,751 I just need genuine people around me 740 00:25:50,817 --> 00:25:52,819 who I know that I can trust, 741 00:25:52,886 --> 00:25:54,388 and I don't feel like Karlie is one of them. 742 00:25:54,454 --> 00:25:56,523 I hate the fact that this whole Karlie situation 743 00:25:56,590 --> 00:25:57,824 keeps following me, 744 00:25:57,891 --> 00:25:59,259 and I really just want to forget about it. 745 00:25:59,326 --> 00:26:02,396 - You know, she was confessing about how she misses you 746 00:26:02,462 --> 00:26:03,964 and she loves you. 747 00:26:04,031 --> 00:26:05,632 - She had access to me 24/7, 748 00:26:05,699 --> 00:26:07,668 and she was the one who ruined that, so I don't know why 749 00:26:07,734 --> 00:26:09,169 now she said she missed me. 750 00:26:09,236 --> 00:26:12,139 Yesterday, I went to another state of just, 751 00:26:12,206 --> 00:26:15,075 me can't fathom was happening because I worry 752 00:26:15,142 --> 00:26:16,743 about my kids when I'm away, right? 753 00:26:16,810 --> 00:26:18,278 I checked the cameras to my house. 754 00:26:18,345 --> 00:26:21,782 There was cars and strangers and men outside-- 755 00:26:21,849 --> 00:26:23,250 - What? - Who were smoking 756 00:26:23,317 --> 00:26:25,085 and all kinds of stuff. So I send my friend. 757 00:26:25,152 --> 00:26:26,820 I said, what's going on at my house? 758 00:26:26,887 --> 00:26:28,288 She said it's not your house. 759 00:26:28,355 --> 00:26:30,157 She said Karlie probably rented out 760 00:26:30,224 --> 00:26:31,792 the house to some production. 761 00:26:31,859 --> 00:26:33,961 There's video crews over there and strange men. 762 00:26:34,027 --> 00:26:35,295 My kids would have been home. - Oh, right. 763 00:26:35,362 --> 00:26:36,864 - And that's the same thing me tell her. 764 00:26:36,930 --> 00:26:38,432 I moved away from you because I'm 765 00:26:38,498 --> 00:26:41,568 trying to find a safe place for my kids and my family. 766 00:26:41,635 --> 00:26:43,704 Being here in the Bahamas, and my kids are home, 767 00:26:43,770 --> 00:26:45,239 and I'm checking my security camera 768 00:26:45,305 --> 00:26:48,075 and seeing all these strange men outside 769 00:26:48,141 --> 00:26:51,078 and jeopardizing my daughter's privacy. 770 00:26:51,144 --> 00:26:52,980 So yes, I'm in my feelings. 771 00:26:53,046 --> 00:26:55,849 My anger--I can feel it getting the best of me. 772 00:26:55,916 --> 00:26:59,152 - She was saying, "I haven't moved into the house. 773 00:26:59,219 --> 00:27:01,255 I've done everything that Spice has asked." 774 00:27:01,321 --> 00:27:04,157 That's the only reason why I was wondering. 775 00:27:04,224 --> 00:27:05,759 - So I ask her to turn our house into 776 00:27:05,826 --> 00:27:07,528 a [bleep] commercial thing? 777 00:27:07,594 --> 00:27:09,997 Honestly, I can't even be dealing with Karlie 778 00:27:10,063 --> 00:27:12,766 and her drama, but I'm tired of people provoking me 779 00:27:12,833 --> 00:27:14,434 and then playing the victim. 780 00:27:14,501 --> 00:27:17,037 I don't know if me and Karlie's situation can be fixed. 781 00:27:17,104 --> 00:27:20,774 You know, I just feel like she invaded my privacy, 782 00:27:20,841 --> 00:27:24,878 and it's hard to digest, 783 00:27:24,945 --> 00:27:27,447 knowing that it came from a friend 784 00:27:27,514 --> 00:27:30,083 or someone who I used to consider a friend. 785 00:27:30,150 --> 00:27:32,653 - Ma'am, ma'am, come here. 786 00:27:32,719 --> 00:27:33,854 Come. - Mm-mm. 787 00:27:33,921 --> 00:27:35,088 - Come here. - Mm-mm. 788 00:27:35,155 --> 00:27:37,090 - Come here. - Mm-mm. 789 00:27:37,157 --> 00:27:40,827 I was ready to talk to Spice, but now I'm feeling reluctant. 790 00:27:40,894 --> 00:27:42,129 Everyone's apologizing. 791 00:27:42,196 --> 00:27:43,630 Everyone seems to be nice. 792 00:27:43,697 --> 00:27:45,199 I don't want to start anything. 793 00:27:45,265 --> 00:27:46,500 I'm just trying to end this trip 794 00:27:46,567 --> 00:27:48,635 on a peaceful, great note. 795 00:27:48,702 --> 00:27:52,472 I want to go back to Atlanta chilling and happy. 796 00:27:52,539 --> 00:27:54,007 - Remember we were having this conversation? 797 00:27:54,074 --> 00:27:55,342 - Mm-hmm. - And you really, 798 00:27:55,409 --> 00:27:57,444 really want your friend back? - Mm-hmm. 799 00:27:57,511 --> 00:28:00,280 - I just don't want you to leave here 800 00:28:00,347 --> 00:28:03,483 with regrets, feeling like you missed an opportunity. 801 00:28:03,550 --> 00:28:05,519 - Rasheeda, come here. 802 00:28:05,586 --> 00:28:07,354 - What's up? - Hey. 803 00:28:07,421 --> 00:28:09,323 So you know that conversation we were having at the beach? 804 00:28:09,389 --> 00:28:10,324 - Yes. 805 00:28:10,390 --> 00:28:12,426 - And Spice rejected it, right? 806 00:28:12,492 --> 00:28:14,328 - Yes. - See? 807 00:28:14,394 --> 00:28:15,996 - Right now is not a good time. 808 00:28:16,063 --> 00:28:17,931 Karlie, you done rented the house out 809 00:28:17,998 --> 00:28:19,266 to some random people. 810 00:28:19,333 --> 00:28:21,768 I got to be honest, I totally feel 811 00:28:21,835 --> 00:28:23,437 Spice being mad about that. 812 00:28:23,504 --> 00:28:26,573 When it comes to your home, that should be the place 813 00:28:26,640 --> 00:28:28,575 where you feel most safe. 814 00:28:28,642 --> 00:28:31,478 If I was Karlie, I would stay away from her, to be honest. 815 00:28:31,545 --> 00:28:33,046 - And who you had over your house that 816 00:28:33,113 --> 00:28:34,815 had a big old bunch of people over there? 817 00:28:34,882 --> 00:28:37,084 - You know, they filmed a music video. 818 00:28:37,150 --> 00:28:40,387 But nobody said anything about her, 819 00:28:40,454 --> 00:28:42,689 and nobody-- I mean, I got to pay the rent. 820 00:28:42,756 --> 00:28:44,291 I got to pay the mortgage. 821 00:28:44,358 --> 00:28:46,093 So first Spice didn't want me living next to her. 822 00:28:46,159 --> 00:28:47,594 I respected her wishes. 823 00:28:47,661 --> 00:28:49,162 I didn't move in. 824 00:28:49,229 --> 00:28:53,166 Now I can't even rent my own house out to pay the bills? 825 00:28:53,233 --> 00:28:55,802 I feel like she's just using any excuse to stay mad at me. 826 00:28:55,869 --> 00:28:58,138 It just doesn't make any sense. 827 00:29:00,607 --> 00:29:02,509 - You better not, fool. 828 00:29:08,549 --> 00:29:10,484 - ♪♪ On my way to the top, there ain't no stopping ♪♪ 829 00:29:15,422 --> 00:29:16,957 - ♪♪ On my way to the top, there ain't no stopping ♪♪ 830 00:29:17,024 --> 00:29:19,359 - ♪♪ It's gonna be a better day ♪♪ 831 00:29:19,426 --> 00:29:21,161 ♪♪ It's getting better ♪♪ 832 00:29:21,228 --> 00:29:22,629 ♪♪ Getting better ♪♪ 833 00:29:22,696 --> 00:29:24,298 ♪♪ A better day ♪♪ 834 00:29:24,364 --> 00:29:25,866 - Life is crazy right now. 835 00:29:25,933 --> 00:29:28,836 If all goes according to plan, 836 00:29:28,902 --> 00:29:32,539 next year the bistro will be slamming, jamming. 837 00:29:32,606 --> 00:29:34,608 More than anything, I really want 838 00:29:34,675 --> 00:29:37,678 to enjoy the healthy relationships with people 839 00:29:37,744 --> 00:29:39,179 who I have in my life. 840 00:29:39,246 --> 00:29:40,981 I told everybody, y'all want to come to Nassau, 841 00:29:41,048 --> 00:29:42,516 holler at your peoples? You know. 842 00:29:42,583 --> 00:29:43,917 We right here. Pull up. 843 00:29:43,984 --> 00:29:46,253 - ♪♪ Grabbing the wheel, taking control ♪♪ 844 00:29:46,320 --> 00:29:48,856 ♪♪ Love is the medicine we're looking for ♪♪ 845 00:29:48,922 --> 00:29:51,024 - This year has been a reset. 846 00:29:51,091 --> 00:29:52,993 The restaurant made it past its first year. 847 00:29:53,060 --> 00:29:56,063 My husband and I made it past our seventh year of marriage. 848 00:29:56,129 --> 00:29:59,633 So I think things should be smooth sailing from here, 849 00:29:59,700 --> 00:30:01,602 and I'm really, really looking forward to that. 850 00:30:01,668 --> 00:30:03,203 - ♪♪ It's getting better ♪♪ 851 00:30:03,270 --> 00:30:06,039 - This Bahamas trip really opened my heart, my mind, 852 00:30:06,106 --> 00:30:08,742 my soul, because being married to being divorced, 853 00:30:08,809 --> 00:30:11,812 it was one of the most challenging years for me. 854 00:30:11,879 --> 00:30:15,182 And I just thank God that I made it through, because whoo! 855 00:30:15,249 --> 00:30:17,584 - ♪♪ Lean on each other like never before ♪♪ 856 00:30:17,651 --> 00:30:20,187 ♪♪ 'Cause I don't think we've ever needed it more ♪♪ 857 00:30:20,254 --> 00:30:22,222 - I've really been through hell and back. 858 00:30:22,289 --> 00:30:24,725 My second life gave me a spirit of like, 859 00:30:24,791 --> 00:30:26,727 I can't deal with the fakeness. 860 00:30:26,793 --> 00:30:28,328 And that's why I'm on a healing journey, 861 00:30:28,395 --> 00:30:32,266 because I need to relearn who I am and be a better person. 862 00:30:32,332 --> 00:30:33,734 Because I'm not perfect. 863 00:30:33,800 --> 00:30:36,770 I'm still, you know-- I'm still a work in progress. 864 00:30:36,837 --> 00:30:39,673 - This year, I've had so many highs, so many lows. 865 00:30:39,740 --> 00:30:42,409 I need to focus on getting back to Karlie, 866 00:30:42,476 --> 00:30:45,212 getting back to my music, and getting back to my family. 867 00:30:45,279 --> 00:30:47,381 Spice and I have been friends for over six years, 868 00:30:47,447 --> 00:30:50,317 but right now I'm just giving her her space. 869 00:30:50,384 --> 00:30:51,618 I'm just going to let time tell, 870 00:30:51,685 --> 00:30:52,719 and hopefully she'll come around. 871 00:30:52,786 --> 00:30:54,521 - ♪♪ It's a better day ♪♪ 872 00:30:54,588 --> 00:30:56,857 - What's next for me is my career. 873 00:30:56,924 --> 00:30:58,992 Anybody's going to be pimping, it will always be me. 874 00:30:59,059 --> 00:31:01,361 I'm not letting anything stop me 875 00:31:01,428 --> 00:31:03,830 from focusing on my music. 876 00:31:03,897 --> 00:31:05,899 - ♪♪ I know together that we can be ♪♪ 877 00:31:05,966 --> 00:31:07,968 - So the trip has been actually refreshing, 878 00:31:08,035 --> 00:31:09,870 and I'm optimistic about how things will be 879 00:31:09,937 --> 00:31:11,371 when we get back to Atlanta. 880 00:31:11,438 --> 00:31:13,874 I need to face my feelings and not run from them. 881 00:31:13,941 --> 00:31:15,509 You've got to embrace that, 882 00:31:15,576 --> 00:31:16,910 just like you embrace all the good. 883 00:31:16,977 --> 00:31:18,545 And I'm learning how to do that. 884 00:31:18,612 --> 00:31:21,281 ♪♪ ♪♪ 885 00:31:21,348 --> 00:31:24,751 - After everything that I went through, I've grown. 886 00:31:24,818 --> 00:31:27,487 When it comes to love, when it comes to health, 887 00:31:27,554 --> 00:31:29,523 when it comes to mental health, 888 00:31:29,590 --> 00:31:31,158 I've never felt better. 889 00:31:31,225 --> 00:31:35,062 And I'm praying and fasting and hoping that God will bring 890 00:31:35,128 --> 00:31:38,031 that man in my life so that I can get married in three weeks 891 00:31:38,098 --> 00:31:39,766 and I'm pregnant in two months. 892 00:31:39,833 --> 00:31:41,869 Maybe that's going to be my story. 893 00:31:41,935 --> 00:31:43,237 [laughs] 894 00:31:43,303 --> 00:31:45,072 - I have a lot of preparing to do. 895 00:31:45,138 --> 00:31:48,075 This divorce case is coming up very soon, 896 00:31:48,141 --> 00:31:51,278 and I'm just hoping that Scrapp and I can be able 897 00:31:51,345 --> 00:31:54,314 to just be peaceful and co-parent. 898 00:31:54,381 --> 00:31:57,017 Listen, goodbye, Bahamas. 899 00:31:57,084 --> 00:32:02,422 The Bam is on the first thing up out of here in the morning. 900 00:32:02,489 --> 00:32:04,224 - ♪♪ Better days ♪♪ 901 00:32:04,291 --> 00:32:07,895 ♪♪ ♪♪ 902 00:32:07,961 --> 00:32:10,130 ♪♪ Better days ♪♪ 903 00:32:10,197 --> 00:32:11,965 ♪♪ ♪♪ 904 00:32:12,032 --> 00:32:14,168 ♪♪ Better, better days ♪♪ 905 00:32:15,769 --> 00:32:17,905 - Ahh! - What the--? 906 00:32:17,971 --> 00:32:20,240 - Get your--get up! 907 00:32:20,307 --> 00:32:21,708 Get up! 908 00:32:21,775 --> 00:32:23,310 - Let me tell you something. Stop talking. 909 00:32:23,377 --> 00:32:24,678 Let me tell you something. 910 00:32:24,745 --> 00:32:26,413 - What the hell just happened? 911 00:32:26,480 --> 00:32:27,781 - [indistinct] [bleep]. 912 00:32:27,848 --> 00:32:29,116 Me, mother[bleep]! 913 00:32:29,183 --> 00:32:30,817 Wait till the cameras stop rolling. 914 00:32:30,884 --> 00:32:32,152 - No. No, Spice. No. 915 00:32:32,219 --> 00:32:33,720 - I'm beating that [bleep]. Watch me. 916 00:32:33,787 --> 00:32:35,088 - No, no, no. Spice. 917 00:32:35,155 --> 00:32:36,723 - I'll grab you back. [indistinct shouting] 918 00:32:36,790 --> 00:32:39,359 [bleep]. - You see how she attacked me? 919 00:32:39,426 --> 00:32:40,861 She attacked me. 920 00:32:40,928 --> 00:32:43,130 The fact that someone I look at as my sister 921 00:32:43,197 --> 00:32:45,799 would even try to do that to me? 922 00:32:45,866 --> 00:32:47,601 I said nothing to you. 923 00:32:47,668 --> 00:32:49,336 I didn't even talk to you. 924 00:32:49,403 --> 00:32:51,238 None of this makes any sense. 925 00:32:51,305 --> 00:32:52,739 I don't know who she is. 926 00:32:52,806 --> 00:32:55,075 - Stop rolling the camera on me, man. 927 00:32:55,142 --> 00:32:56,944 I don't want to talk about Karlie. 928 00:32:57,010 --> 00:32:58,278 No one will ever understand. 929 00:32:58,345 --> 00:33:00,113 I don't think people will ever understand 930 00:33:00,180 --> 00:33:02,349 that every time I love a friend, 931 00:33:02,416 --> 00:33:04,384 they just betray me. 932 00:33:08,755 --> 00:33:10,090 - I don't want to talk about it. 933 00:33:10,157 --> 00:33:11,825 I'll leave her to play the victim. 934 00:33:11,892 --> 00:33:15,362 You moved from your house just to what, spite me? 935 00:33:15,429 --> 00:33:17,631 I've been so [bleep] good to Karlie Redd! 936 00:33:17,698 --> 00:33:18,932 - Don't make me cry, though. 937 00:33:18,999 --> 00:33:20,968 - I've been so good to her. - You have been. 938 00:33:21,034 --> 00:33:22,503 - And this is how you repay me? 939 00:33:22,569 --> 00:33:24,371 - We cool with Spice and friends with Spice. 940 00:33:24,438 --> 00:33:27,040 I'm also cool with Karlie, but I know that Spice 941 00:33:27,107 --> 00:33:28,475 has been going through [bleep]. 942 00:33:28,542 --> 00:33:31,111 But you're touching another place when, you know, 943 00:33:31,178 --> 00:33:32,779 you open your front door and there's guys 944 00:33:32,846 --> 00:33:34,114 smoking straight across the street 945 00:33:34,181 --> 00:33:36,216 from where my kids gotta be living, playing--no. 946 00:33:36,283 --> 00:33:37,718 I don't think she's out of pocket. 947 00:33:37,784 --> 00:33:40,354 - You're a [bleep]-up individual, Karlie Redd. 948 00:33:40,420 --> 00:33:42,122 You're [bleep] [bleep]-up. 949 00:33:42,189 --> 00:33:44,892 I never did nothing but good to you, bitch! 950 00:33:44,958 --> 00:33:47,327 - The reason Spice went off on Karlie Redd like that-- 951 00:33:47,394 --> 00:33:50,063 because Karlie Redd like to do [bleep] behind people back. 952 00:33:50,130 --> 00:33:52,833 She like to antagonize you and provoke you 953 00:33:52,900 --> 00:33:54,635 and then when you go the [bleep] off, 954 00:33:54,701 --> 00:33:55,936 she likes to play the victim. 955 00:33:56,003 --> 00:33:59,840 She's good at hiding her [bleep] hand. 956 00:33:59,907 --> 00:34:01,508 That's Karlie Redd. 957 00:34:01,575 --> 00:34:03,010 - When everyone hated you, 958 00:34:03,076 --> 00:34:05,612 when people said you can't sing and you can't rap, 959 00:34:05,679 --> 00:34:07,281 I was the one who gave you a song! 960 00:34:07,347 --> 00:34:09,116 Everyone told me you were messy! 961 00:34:09,183 --> 00:34:11,385 Everyone was asking, why am I your friend? 962 00:34:11,451 --> 00:34:15,322 I was so [bleep] good to you, and this is how you repay me? 963 00:34:17,824 --> 00:34:19,793 - My little daughter can't go outside 964 00:34:19,860 --> 00:34:21,595 because you come by your house and rent 965 00:34:21,662 --> 00:34:23,764 it out with [bleep] strangers. 966 00:34:27,668 --> 00:34:32,072 - I go over to Karlie, and I just put my arms around her. 967 00:34:32,139 --> 00:34:34,508 I felt like she needed someone to stand behind her. 968 00:34:34,575 --> 00:34:37,878 Why are we Black women attacking each other? 969 00:34:37,945 --> 00:34:39,813 We all need to support each other. 970 00:34:39,880 --> 00:34:41,448 - Y'all get the cameras off of me! 971 00:34:41,515 --> 00:34:44,017 I keep on telling you to turn off the camera. 972 00:34:45,052 --> 00:34:47,087 - No, that's horrible. 973 00:34:47,154 --> 00:34:49,356 - Wait. - No, you Karlie-- 974 00:34:51,992 --> 00:34:54,328 - You're an evil witch! 975 00:34:57,164 --> 00:34:59,366 I don't think anyone will ever understand 976 00:34:59,433 --> 00:35:03,537 going to a friend and sharing the joy of buying a home-- 977 00:35:03,604 --> 00:35:06,306 they go behind your back and buy the house next door 978 00:35:06,373 --> 00:35:07,774 and not tell me. 979 00:35:07,841 --> 00:35:09,009 I wanted her to look me in the face 980 00:35:09,076 --> 00:35:10,777 and tell me that she did not care. 981 00:35:10,844 --> 00:35:12,145 That's just what I wanted-- 982 00:35:12,212 --> 00:35:13,881 to look me in the eyes and tell me, 983 00:35:13,947 --> 00:35:15,349 why is she doing this to me? 984 00:35:15,415 --> 00:35:18,352 Kirk, tell me the truth. You think I'm crazy? 985 00:35:18,418 --> 00:35:19,920 - You're headed up. 986 00:35:19,987 --> 00:35:21,388 - Yes. - You gotta stay away 987 00:35:21,455 --> 00:35:23,390 from things that's gonna pull you down. 988 00:35:23,457 --> 00:35:24,791 It will [bleep] you. 989 00:35:24,858 --> 00:35:26,660 What I'm trying to get Spice to understand-- 990 00:35:26,727 --> 00:35:28,161 you gotta be very careful. 991 00:35:28,228 --> 00:35:30,998 The old Spice, you know, the whoop-your-ass Spice, 992 00:35:31,064 --> 00:35:32,599 you're gonna have to park her for a little while 993 00:35:32,666 --> 00:35:34,067 and enjoy the ride to the top. 994 00:35:34,134 --> 00:35:35,769 - I'ma leave it to God. I'ma let go, 995 00:35:35,836 --> 00:35:37,237 'cause this [bleep] crazy. 996 00:35:37,304 --> 00:35:41,141 I promise, I'm gonna try to not let anything trigger me. 997 00:35:41,208 --> 00:35:42,843 I'm gonna just leave it to God. 998 00:35:42,910 --> 00:35:47,581 I need to find a way to stop going from 0 to 100 real quick. 999 00:35:47,648 --> 00:35:50,684 I'm gonna work on myself, because I can't be doing this. 1000 00:35:50,751 --> 00:35:52,152 - Let's pray. Let's pray. 1001 00:35:52,219 --> 00:35:54,154 - Our Father, who art in heaven, 1002 00:35:54,221 --> 00:35:56,490 I decree and I declare in the mighty name of Jesus 1003 00:35:56,557 --> 00:35:58,625 that you'll take out the anger that is within me. 1004 00:35:58,692 --> 00:36:00,294 In Jesus' name, I pray. 1005 00:36:02,563 --> 00:36:05,432 - Coming up on "Love & Hip Hop Atlanta"... 1006 00:36:13,774 --> 00:36:15,108 - I don't want to get emotional. 1007 00:36:15,175 --> 00:36:16,810 Why did I have to do this? 1008 00:36:16,877 --> 00:36:19,012 - ♪♪ On the way to the top, there ain't no stopping ♪♪ 1009 00:36:23,984 --> 00:36:25,252 - ♪♪ On the way to the top, there ain't no stopping ♪♪ 1010 00:36:25,319 --> 00:36:28,222 [soft dramatic music] 1011 00:36:28,288 --> 00:36:33,927 ♪♪ ♪♪ 1012 00:36:43,871 --> 00:36:45,105 - [sighs] 1013 00:36:45,172 --> 00:36:48,575 - You know, seeing it live, seeing the scene, 1014 00:36:48,642 --> 00:36:50,544 hearing the sounds, 1015 00:36:50,611 --> 00:36:53,046 it was like you felt it. 1016 00:36:53,113 --> 00:36:57,217 - Watching that--[sighs] 1017 00:36:57,284 --> 00:36:59,152 It was really upsetting to me. 1018 00:36:59,219 --> 00:37:02,789 - To me, it turned from, like, a one-on-one 1019 00:37:02,856 --> 00:37:06,793 to a one-on-the culture. 1020 00:37:06,860 --> 00:37:10,230 - My first go-to in anger or in outrage 1021 00:37:10,297 --> 00:37:11,798 is not a racial slur. 1022 00:37:20,607 --> 00:37:21,842 - I don't want to get emotional. 1023 00:37:21,909 --> 00:37:23,911 Why did I have to do this? 1024 00:37:26,246 --> 00:37:28,482 I don't know. Whoo. 1025 00:37:28,549 --> 00:37:30,617 It's a lot. I don't wanna-- 1026 00:37:33,787 --> 00:37:35,155 [tense music] 1027 00:37:35,222 --> 00:37:36,757 It's not just about me. 1028 00:37:36,823 --> 00:37:40,427 Erica came for an entire race. 1029 00:37:40,494 --> 00:37:43,330 This racial slur 1030 00:37:43,397 --> 00:37:46,767 is over 100 years older than me. 1031 00:37:46,834 --> 00:37:50,771 It's deeply rooted into Black history 1032 00:37:50,838 --> 00:37:53,707 of how they used to dehumanize us. 1033 00:37:53,774 --> 00:37:57,344 How they used to sell us 1034 00:37:57,411 --> 00:38:00,214 and consider us animals. 1035 00:38:00,280 --> 00:38:03,450 It's okay to say, oh, Spice was wrong 1036 00:38:03,517 --> 00:38:06,119 for saying whatever I said, 1037 00:38:06,186 --> 00:38:07,988 but it's a whole different thing 1038 00:38:08,055 --> 00:38:10,791 when someone's response is to be a racist 1039 00:38:10,858 --> 00:38:14,328 or someone's response is to come for Black women 1040 00:38:14,394 --> 00:38:15,796 and dehumanize them. 1041 00:38:15,863 --> 00:38:17,898 - We've all seen the comment, "Spice went low, 1042 00:38:17,965 --> 00:38:19,399 and Erica went to hell." 1043 00:38:19,466 --> 00:38:22,336 I think that was the best way to describe it. 1044 00:38:22,402 --> 00:38:23,804 Just because you go low, 1045 00:38:23,871 --> 00:38:26,139 that doesn't mean you should go to hell. 1046 00:38:26,206 --> 00:38:28,275 It kinda make you feel, like, disgusted. 1047 00:38:28,342 --> 00:38:29,776 So you gotta make amends. 1048 00:38:29,843 --> 00:38:31,245 You need to do some history. 1049 00:38:31,311 --> 00:38:33,213 You need to understand what you're saying, 1050 00:38:33,280 --> 00:38:35,015 because it's bad. 1051 00:38:35,082 --> 00:38:36,583 - I don't feel that there's a difference between 1052 00:38:36,650 --> 00:38:38,385 using a racial slur and being racist. 1053 00:38:38,452 --> 00:38:39,820 It's the same thing. 1054 00:38:39,887 --> 00:38:41,855 - I've listened to my great-grandparents 1055 00:38:41,922 --> 00:38:44,124 tell me stories about how they picked cotton, 1056 00:38:44,191 --> 00:38:46,527 and they were called monkeys, monkey, 1057 00:38:46,593 --> 00:38:47,895 get your monkey ass. 1058 00:38:47,961 --> 00:38:51,164 It was very offensive. It wasn't right. 1059 00:38:51,231 --> 00:38:52,866 - So after the Bahamas, 1060 00:38:52,933 --> 00:38:55,135 I personally wanted to speak to Erica 1061 00:38:55,202 --> 00:38:59,506 to, in my mind, educate her on the history 1062 00:38:59,573 --> 00:39:03,710 behind calling a person of African descent a monkey. 1063 00:39:03,777 --> 00:39:05,412 ♪♪ ♪♪ 1064 00:39:05,479 --> 00:39:06,680 - Hi. - Hi. 1065 00:39:08,415 --> 00:39:09,850 The first time I saw Erica 1066 00:39:09,917 --> 00:39:12,319 was at Bambi's divorce party. 1067 00:39:12,386 --> 00:39:13,554 I wanted to talk to you. 1068 00:39:13,620 --> 00:39:16,456 If Erica would have a real, 1069 00:39:16,523 --> 00:39:19,159 sincere, remorseful apology, 1070 00:39:19,226 --> 00:39:22,930 I would have went to bat to fight for her 1071 00:39:22,996 --> 00:39:24,932 because I think there could have been 1072 00:39:24,998 --> 00:39:26,633 a teaching moment for Erica. 1073 00:39:26,700 --> 00:39:29,636 Calling a Black person a monkey--listen. 1074 00:39:29,703 --> 00:39:31,138 I was offended. - You was offended-- 1075 00:39:31,205 --> 00:39:32,606 - And let me tell you-- - Because you chose 1076 00:39:32,673 --> 00:39:33,774 to be offended. - No, no, no. 1077 00:39:33,841 --> 00:39:35,075 I was offended-- - Because you know me. 1078 00:39:35,142 --> 00:39:37,177 No one's going to violate me using my child-- 1079 00:39:37,244 --> 00:39:38,679 - It's not about-- 1080 00:39:38,745 --> 00:39:40,147 - There's no boundaries at that point. 1081 00:39:40,214 --> 00:39:43,350 - Erica was not very receptive to what I had to say. 1082 00:39:43,417 --> 00:39:45,485 You called her a monkey-- - But what she said to me-- 1083 00:39:45,552 --> 00:39:47,454 - You insulted every person of African descent. 1084 00:39:47,521 --> 00:39:51,391 I just wanted that moment of, like, "I am sorry." 1085 00:39:51,458 --> 00:39:52,759 - Was it wrong? Yes. 1086 00:39:52,826 --> 00:39:55,229 But at the same time, how [bleep] dare she? 1087 00:39:55,295 --> 00:39:56,663 The bitch crossed a line. 1088 00:39:56,730 --> 00:39:58,899 She violated me by coming for my son. 1089 00:39:58,966 --> 00:40:00,634 And I would do it all over a-[bleep]-gain 1090 00:40:00,701 --> 00:40:02,336 if she does it again. Period. 1091 00:40:02,402 --> 00:40:04,538 - So you're saying you would say the same thing 1092 00:40:04,605 --> 00:40:05,873 all over again? 1093 00:40:05,939 --> 00:40:07,441 - I didn't say I would say the same thing. 1094 00:40:07,508 --> 00:40:08,876 If I have to violate this bitch 1095 00:40:08,942 --> 00:40:10,444 for talking about my kid, I will. 1096 00:40:10,511 --> 00:40:11,478 - OK. - OK? 1097 00:40:11,545 --> 00:40:14,181 - Erica was on defense. 1098 00:40:14,248 --> 00:40:15,549 She was just like, 1099 00:40:15,616 --> 00:40:17,251 I said what I said, and that's it. 1100 00:40:17,317 --> 00:40:20,053 This is another sister that just wasn't educated. 1101 00:40:20,120 --> 00:40:21,188 She doesn't know. 1102 00:40:21,255 --> 00:40:22,589 - I'm Puerto Rican and Dominican. 1103 00:40:22,656 --> 00:40:24,491 I have Black in my family. I have Black children. 1104 00:40:24,558 --> 00:40:25,859 I married a Black man. 1105 00:40:25,926 --> 00:40:27,427 My sister's the same color as you. 1106 00:40:27,494 --> 00:40:28,829 We came out the same [bleep]. 1107 00:40:28,896 --> 00:40:30,898 There's not a racist bone in my [bleep] body. 1108 00:40:30,964 --> 00:40:32,499 I'm just as Black as probably all of you. 1109 00:40:32,566 --> 00:40:34,501 - I was super disturbed. 1110 00:40:35,402 --> 00:40:37,871 Erica, being a mother of two Black children, 1111 00:40:37,938 --> 00:40:41,041 will quickly learn how this world 1112 00:40:41,108 --> 00:40:43,911 treats people of color with a darker skin. 1113 00:40:43,977 --> 00:40:45,479 Colorism is a real thing, 1114 00:40:45,546 --> 00:40:48,382 and I never want to be a person that furthers that divide. 1115 00:40:48,448 --> 00:40:51,485 I would more so prefer to bring us all together. 1116 00:40:51,552 --> 00:40:54,321 - "Love & Hip Hop Atlanta" star Erica Mena won't appear-- 1117 00:40:54,388 --> 00:40:56,089 - Erica Mena will not appear in the next season 1118 00:40:56,156 --> 00:40:57,624 of "Love & Hip Hop Atlanta" 1119 00:40:57,691 --> 00:41:00,427 after hurling a racial slur at her castmate, Spice. 1120 00:41:00,494 --> 00:41:02,529 - Announced today that Erica Mena will not appear 1121 00:41:02,596 --> 00:41:04,631 in future seasons of their show, "Hush." 1122 00:41:04,698 --> 00:41:06,099 - When you step across that line, 1123 00:41:06,166 --> 00:41:07,701 you have to deal with that. 1124 00:41:07,768 --> 00:41:09,403 - You're saying racist words. 1125 00:41:09,469 --> 00:41:12,005 And the way the world is today, they cancel you. 1126 00:41:12,072 --> 00:41:14,575 It's only fair, and it would happen to anybody. 1127 00:41:14,641 --> 00:41:16,310 - She shouldn't have been making no damn monkey sounds 1128 00:41:16,376 --> 00:41:18,278 at no Black person-- bottom line. 1129 00:41:18,345 --> 00:41:20,480 - I know my ancestry really well. 1130 00:41:20,547 --> 00:41:21,882 So that's why I'm hurt. 1131 00:41:21,949 --> 00:41:23,517 - We're not going to accept it. 1132 00:41:23,584 --> 00:41:25,018 And it's just wrong. 1133 00:41:25,085 --> 00:41:26,854 - We need to start having these conversations 1134 00:41:26,920 --> 00:41:28,555 so that the lines aren't blurred 1135 00:41:28,622 --> 00:41:29,857 and people aren't confused. 1136 00:41:34,127 --> 00:41:37,564 - Slave masters would call us monkeys to dehumanize us. 1137 00:41:37,631 --> 00:41:40,400 The history, the burden, the blood, 1138 00:41:40,467 --> 00:41:42,703 and everything is attached to this word. 1139 00:41:42,769 --> 00:41:43,904 - Yes. 1140 00:41:43,971 --> 00:41:45,372 - We are here with some of the cast 1141 00:41:45,439 --> 00:41:47,574 of "Love & Hip Hop Atlanta" 1142 00:41:47,641 --> 00:41:51,111 for a candid conversation about racism and colorism. 1143 00:41:51,178 --> 00:41:53,547 - I walk into the bank, and I'm not respected 1144 00:41:53,614 --> 00:41:55,282 until they log into my account. 1145 00:41:55,349 --> 00:41:58,685 - It makes my head hurt and my blood boil. 1146 00:41:58,752 --> 00:42:00,220 - It's different shades of Black. 1147 00:42:00,287 --> 00:42:01,455 - Yeah. -You know what I'm saying? 1148 00:42:01,522 --> 00:42:02,789 And they matter. 1149 00:42:02,856 --> 00:42:05,425 - My nickname growing up as a child was Blacky. 1150 00:42:05,492 --> 00:42:07,794 Every time I love someone, 1151 00:42:07,861 --> 00:42:11,465 they all hurt me or betray me. 1152 00:42:11,532 --> 00:42:13,800 - That's the go-to for someone that is a racist. 1153 00:42:13,867 --> 00:42:15,936 "I've got Black friends. How can I be a racist?" 1154 00:42:16,003 --> 00:42:18,672 You can like a Black person. - Yes. 1155 00:42:18,739 --> 00:42:21,275 - It doesn't mean that you won't use your power 1156 00:42:21,341 --> 00:42:23,043 to degrade the race. 1157 00:42:23,110 --> 00:42:25,312 - But that's why these conversations are so important. 1158 00:42:25,379 --> 00:42:28,015 This is needed because we gotta shake up 1159 00:42:28,081 --> 00:42:29,416 the Black community. 1160 00:42:29,483 --> 00:42:32,819 ♪♪ ♪♪