1 00:00:02,302 --> 00:00:04,004 - ♪♪ MTV ♪♪ 2 00:00:04,071 --> 00:00:05,973 - Previously on "Love & Hip Hop Atlanta." 3 00:00:06,039 --> 00:00:09,042 - We all have healing to do. 4 00:00:09,109 --> 00:00:10,610 - There's a lot of [bleep] that I've been running from. 5 00:00:10,677 --> 00:00:12,613 - You're going to tap into your PTSD. 6 00:00:12,679 --> 00:00:14,381 You've got to let it out. Do you have-- 7 00:00:14,448 --> 00:00:16,250 - [screams] - Get it out! 8 00:00:16,317 --> 00:00:17,784 Yes, get it out! 9 00:00:17,851 --> 00:00:19,719 - You know Kisha been trying to have a baby? 10 00:00:19,786 --> 00:00:21,622 I'm going to give her one of my eggs. 11 00:00:21,689 --> 00:00:23,990 - If Yandy gives Kisha an egg, 12 00:00:24,057 --> 00:00:25,992 that's Yandy child she's carrying, right? 13 00:00:26,059 --> 00:00:27,228 - No. - No. 14 00:00:27,294 --> 00:00:28,429 - Listen, y'all crazy. 15 00:00:28,495 --> 00:00:29,730 - You're not gonna deny this of me! 16 00:00:29,797 --> 00:00:30,798 - Don't do that. 17 00:00:30,865 --> 00:00:32,500 Don't do that. Don't walk away. 18 00:00:32,566 --> 00:00:34,268 [dramatic music] 19 00:00:34,335 --> 00:00:36,570 - So where do you and Diamond stand? 20 00:00:36,637 --> 00:00:38,806 - I want to appreciate you. You've always been there. 21 00:00:38,872 --> 00:00:41,608 - [slight giggle] - You touching my ass. 22 00:00:41,675 --> 00:00:43,877 You so sexy. You just came out like that? 23 00:00:43,944 --> 00:00:46,780 - I did. So what you want, young Scrap? 24 00:00:46,847 --> 00:00:48,848 ♪♪ ♪♪ 25 00:01:12,339 --> 00:01:13,941 [upbeat music] 26 00:01:14,008 --> 00:01:15,676 - ♪♪ I drink my coffee in the morning ♪♪ 27 00:01:15,743 --> 00:01:17,411 ♪♪ When I wake up, no yawning ♪♪ 28 00:01:17,477 --> 00:01:19,213 ♪♪ Got to stay up, got to get it all done ♪♪ 29 00:01:19,279 --> 00:01:20,580 - Let's see what you got. 30 00:01:20,647 --> 00:01:21,748 - ♪♪ Got places to be like a Taurus ♪♪ 31 00:01:21,815 --> 00:01:23,417 - Oh. - Oh, no. 32 00:01:23,483 --> 00:01:25,252 Came right back to me. 33 00:01:25,319 --> 00:01:27,521 - With my grandmother passing and my divorce 34 00:01:27,588 --> 00:01:29,656 and this whole fallout with Bambi, 35 00:01:29,723 --> 00:01:31,591 I need a day where I could just really 36 00:01:31,658 --> 00:01:33,527 put all of this craziness to the side. 37 00:01:33,594 --> 00:01:36,797 So today, I invited Spice and Spice's kids 38 00:01:36,864 --> 00:01:38,365 to play mini-golf with me, Mason, 39 00:01:38,432 --> 00:01:41,201 my son, and Shekinah Jo. 40 00:01:41,268 --> 00:01:43,003 ♪♪ ♪♪ 41 00:01:43,070 --> 00:01:45,372 - Oh, [bleep]. - [chuckles] 42 00:01:45,438 --> 00:01:46,506 - She went up through it. 43 00:01:46,573 --> 00:01:49,977 - Oh. - Oh? 44 00:01:50,044 --> 00:01:51,311 Yeah, baby. 45 00:01:51,378 --> 00:01:54,214 - Why the [bleep] I can't hit this goddamn ball? 46 00:01:54,281 --> 00:01:56,450 - Take your time and concentrate. 47 00:01:56,517 --> 00:01:59,753 - [laughs] - One, two, three. 48 00:01:59,820 --> 00:02:01,388 - No. - Now, see, 49 00:02:01,454 --> 00:02:03,390 you're gonna knock the [bleep] out of somebody in a minute. 50 00:02:03,457 --> 00:02:04,591 You know what? 51 00:02:04,658 --> 00:02:06,159 I'm not a golfer either, 52 00:02:06,226 --> 00:02:08,762 but Sierra ass damn sure don't know how to play golf. 53 00:02:08,829 --> 00:02:10,897 First, your ass running away from marriages. 54 00:02:10,964 --> 00:02:12,899 Now, your ass running away from these balls. 55 00:02:12,966 --> 00:02:14,901 What are we doing, Sierra? 56 00:02:14,968 --> 00:02:16,269 - Hey! - Hey, guys. 57 00:02:16,336 --> 00:02:17,570 - Hey! - Hi. 58 00:02:17,637 --> 00:02:19,673 - Hey, Nicholas. - What's up? 59 00:02:19,739 --> 00:02:22,476 - Why I just want him to be a baby so bad? 60 00:02:22,543 --> 00:02:24,578 - I know. - Hi. 61 00:02:24,645 --> 00:02:26,480 - You look cute. You smell good. 62 00:02:26,547 --> 00:02:28,749 - Hey, sis. - Hi, sis! 63 00:02:28,816 --> 00:02:32,419 [upbeat music] 64 00:02:32,486 --> 00:02:34,855 - Damn. - You got it, girl. 65 00:02:34,922 --> 00:02:37,658 - Aw! - Oh, that was good. 66 00:02:37,724 --> 00:02:39,526 - OK, Ma-- - All right, Mason. 67 00:02:39,593 --> 00:02:43,163 ♪♪ ♪♪ 68 00:02:43,230 --> 00:02:45,999 - Ah! - Ah! 69 00:02:46,066 --> 00:02:47,668 - Let me show you how it really done. 70 00:02:47,735 --> 00:02:49,136 - Show us. - OK, go ahead. 71 00:02:49,203 --> 00:02:51,071 Go ahead, so let's see. - You look good in them heels. 72 00:02:51,137 --> 00:02:53,407 I ain't never seen nobody play golf in heels. 73 00:02:53,474 --> 00:02:55,209 - Oh! [overlapping chatter] 74 00:02:55,276 --> 00:02:57,144 - Ooh! [laughter] 75 00:02:57,211 --> 00:02:58,545 - Wait a minute. 76 00:02:58,612 --> 00:02:59,846 - I need to do this more often with the kids, though. 77 00:02:59,913 --> 00:03:01,415 I like this. - Yeah, we do, we do. 78 00:03:01,481 --> 00:03:02,716 - Where I fit in it? I don't have no kids. 79 00:03:02,783 --> 00:03:04,684 - You the crazy auntie, [bleep]. 80 00:03:04,751 --> 00:03:05,653 - No, they're here now because, you know, 81 00:03:05,719 --> 00:03:06,753 they're out of school. 82 00:03:06,820 --> 00:03:08,055 - Yeah. - Yeah. 83 00:03:08,122 --> 00:03:09,990 - And I'ma take them with me on tour. 84 00:03:10,056 --> 00:03:10,958 So everyone will go with me, I carry them all to the show. 85 00:03:11,025 --> 00:03:12,326 But I want you to come. 86 00:03:12,392 --> 00:03:13,627 I want both of you to come to Belize. 87 00:03:13,693 --> 00:03:14,695 - Really? - What? 88 00:03:14,761 --> 00:03:15,796 - Yeah. - Belize, bitch? 89 00:03:15,863 --> 00:03:17,130 - Oh, yeah! 90 00:03:17,197 --> 00:03:18,999 - Oh, my God, we would love to do that. 91 00:03:19,066 --> 00:03:21,402 - Of course. I want you to come. 92 00:03:21,469 --> 00:03:22,769 - We coming. 93 00:03:22,836 --> 00:03:24,939 - My bags are packed, bitch, at the door! 94 00:03:25,005 --> 00:03:27,841 And I'm ready to go! Passport ready! 95 00:03:27,908 --> 00:03:30,043 - I want to invite Renni too. - Oh, that'd be so good. 96 00:03:30,110 --> 00:03:31,678 - I love her. 97 00:03:31,745 --> 00:03:33,313 But, you know, me and her, we connected more 98 00:03:33,380 --> 00:03:34,881 because we wanted to do anger management. 99 00:03:34,948 --> 00:03:36,283 You know, that kind of opened my mind 100 00:03:36,350 --> 00:03:38,585 a little bit because I'm on this healing journey. 101 00:03:38,652 --> 00:03:40,788 I just want to be a better person. 102 00:03:40,855 --> 00:03:42,756 My approach to my new life was a little bit wrong 103 00:03:42,822 --> 00:03:44,325 because of my trauma. 104 00:03:44,391 --> 00:03:47,093 Boot camp showed me that all of my past traumas 105 00:03:47,160 --> 00:03:48,995 and everything that I've been through 106 00:03:49,062 --> 00:03:53,100 is really what's affecting my attitude and my behavior. 107 00:03:53,167 --> 00:03:55,169 I'm ready to take on another journey of healing. 108 00:03:55,235 --> 00:03:57,737 And I'm just ready for my new walk. 109 00:03:57,804 --> 00:03:59,006 So on this trip, when we go to Belize, 110 00:03:59,072 --> 00:04:00,340 I want to take it a little bit further. 111 00:04:00,407 --> 00:04:02,509 It's like a spiritual thing that they're 112 00:04:02,576 --> 00:04:04,044 known for in Belize. 113 00:04:04,111 --> 00:04:05,979 Belize is definitely a cultural place of healing. 114 00:04:06,046 --> 00:04:08,849 It's beautiful. The people there is nice. 115 00:04:08,916 --> 00:04:12,453 The ambiance, the food. I'm excited for us. 116 00:04:12,519 --> 00:04:15,555 - That sounds so good, Spice. I need something like that. 117 00:04:15,622 --> 00:04:16,891 When I tell y'all, emotionally, 118 00:04:16,957 --> 00:04:18,758 I've been going through so much [bleep]. 119 00:04:18,825 --> 00:04:19,794 - And I know you just lost your grandma. 120 00:04:19,860 --> 00:04:21,228 - I just lost my grandma. 121 00:04:21,294 --> 00:04:22,429 It's just so much. - It's been a lot. 122 00:04:22,496 --> 00:04:23,764 - It's just so much on me. 123 00:04:23,831 --> 00:04:27,067 And I feel like I'm-- I act off of impulse. 124 00:04:27,133 --> 00:04:28,635 And I'm tired of doing that, 125 00:04:28,702 --> 00:04:30,170 but I've really been working on it. 126 00:04:30,237 --> 00:04:31,571 And this trip can really help me 127 00:04:31,638 --> 00:04:34,008 take my healing to the next level. 128 00:04:34,074 --> 00:04:36,677 It's been hard for me to grieve the loss of my grandmother 129 00:04:36,743 --> 00:04:39,012 because I've been going through so much [bleep] with Eric. 130 00:04:39,079 --> 00:04:42,349 And then on top of that, I have four major companies 131 00:04:42,416 --> 00:04:43,650 and I'm a mom. 132 00:04:43,717 --> 00:04:45,052 So it's just a lot that I really 133 00:04:45,119 --> 00:04:46,720 need to tap into and ask myself, 134 00:04:46,787 --> 00:04:49,022 Sierra, are you really OK? Because I'm not. 135 00:04:49,089 --> 00:04:50,858 But we'll see. We'll see how it go. 136 00:04:50,925 --> 00:04:52,259 We got to check on these kids, though, for real now. 137 00:04:52,326 --> 00:04:53,293 - I know. [laughs] 138 00:04:53,360 --> 00:04:54,694 - [bleep]. 139 00:04:54,761 --> 00:04:56,030 - This [bleep] gonna close down, girl. 140 00:04:56,096 --> 00:04:57,965 We got to go. - Yeah, we got to go. 141 00:04:58,031 --> 00:04:59,233 They gonna call the police on us. 142 00:04:59,300 --> 00:05:00,734 - Sure. 143 00:05:00,801 --> 00:05:03,304 - ♪♪ I wished upon a star or two, a star to you ♪♪ 144 00:05:03,371 --> 00:05:05,472 ♪♪ I told you nowadays it's when it's hard to lose ♪♪ 145 00:05:05,539 --> 00:05:07,474 ♪♪ I'm on to you but I won't do no harm to you ♪♪ 146 00:05:07,540 --> 00:05:09,109 ♪♪ We on the move ♪♪ 147 00:05:09,176 --> 00:05:10,377 ♪♪ I take you on a ride just like a carnival ♪♪ 148 00:05:10,444 --> 00:05:11,478 ♪♪ Whoa ♪♪ 149 00:05:11,545 --> 00:05:12,779 ♪♪ But I can't love ya ♪♪ 150 00:05:12,846 --> 00:05:16,383 ♪♪ ♪♪ 151 00:05:16,449 --> 00:05:17,618 - Ooh. 152 00:05:17,685 --> 00:05:19,653 I'm gonna start getting my shots soon 153 00:05:19,720 --> 00:05:23,123 so that Kisha can use my eggs to have a baby of her own. 154 00:05:23,189 --> 00:05:26,126 But I also want to try some holistic things 155 00:05:26,193 --> 00:05:29,963 and take a really healthy approach to this situation. 156 00:05:30,030 --> 00:05:32,032 - Hey. - Oh, hey! 157 00:05:32,099 --> 00:05:35,969 - How you doing? We drinking tea? 158 00:05:36,036 --> 00:05:37,204 - We've been drinking-- - Spiked with what? 159 00:05:37,271 --> 00:05:38,605 Nah. 160 00:05:38,672 --> 00:05:41,575 - Normally, I am the type of woman to feel like 161 00:05:41,642 --> 00:05:44,511 this is my body, this is my egg, 162 00:05:44,578 --> 00:05:47,480 these are my choices, but I want my husband on board. 163 00:05:47,547 --> 00:05:49,583 He should be a part of this process with me. 164 00:05:49,649 --> 00:05:52,386 So this is difficult. 165 00:05:52,453 --> 00:05:53,954 ♪♪ ♪♪ 166 00:05:54,021 --> 00:05:57,057 - Oh, this place is beautiful. What brings me here? 167 00:05:57,124 --> 00:05:58,425 - I just wanted to, you know, 168 00:05:58,492 --> 00:06:00,794 make sure I'm really prepping my body for this. 169 00:06:00,861 --> 00:06:04,365 I'm trying to make sure my eggs are at its healthiest point. 170 00:06:04,431 --> 00:06:07,301 Like, I want to make sure-- - I have so much to tell you. 171 00:06:07,368 --> 00:06:10,203 I feel like, you know, God put this in your heart 172 00:06:10,270 --> 00:06:12,138 to help me with this journey. 173 00:06:12,205 --> 00:06:15,308 You my sister. You my love. You my baby. 174 00:06:15,375 --> 00:06:18,111 But I just had my meeting with the doctor, 175 00:06:18,178 --> 00:06:21,682 and it was not good news, so-- 176 00:06:21,749 --> 00:06:22,983 - What do you mean? - Um... 177 00:06:23,049 --> 00:06:24,685 [dramatic music] 178 00:06:24,752 --> 00:06:27,655 They found five fibroid. - Five more? 179 00:06:27,721 --> 00:06:32,059 - Five more fibroid. And, uh, my uterus is enlarged. 180 00:06:32,125 --> 00:06:34,295 And I have endometriosis. 181 00:06:34,361 --> 00:06:35,829 So I can either do another surgery, 182 00:06:35,896 --> 00:06:38,398 which will be four surgeries. 183 00:06:38,465 --> 00:06:41,001 - A surgery to do what? - To remove the fibroids. 184 00:06:41,068 --> 00:06:43,536 And that will set back another whole year 185 00:06:43,603 --> 00:06:46,006 to have my uterus repair itself 186 00:06:46,072 --> 00:06:49,276 and then go through the process of carrying a child. 187 00:06:49,343 --> 00:06:51,344 I don't want to put myself through that no more. 188 00:06:51,411 --> 00:06:53,714 Mentally, physically, emotionally, 189 00:06:53,781 --> 00:06:55,348 I don't want to go through it, 190 00:06:55,415 --> 00:06:59,453 so I'm not gonna have another surgery to remove the fibroids. 191 00:06:59,520 --> 00:07:01,021 I don't know. 192 00:07:01,088 --> 00:07:02,923 I've just been, like, an emotional roller coaster. 193 00:07:02,990 --> 00:07:06,293 [sniffles] And I've just got to figure it out 194 00:07:06,360 --> 00:07:09,930 and just somehow just pray through it. 195 00:07:09,997 --> 00:07:11,565 I don't know. 196 00:07:11,632 --> 00:07:16,871 - Hearing Kisha can't carry her own baby, she is so broken. 197 00:07:16,937 --> 00:07:20,774 And if this were my reality, I would probably feel 198 00:07:20,841 --> 00:07:23,444 just like her, like, what is wrong with me? 199 00:07:23,510 --> 00:07:25,645 Why is this not happening for me? 200 00:07:25,712 --> 00:07:28,215 I just feel horrible right now. 201 00:07:28,282 --> 00:07:31,185 However it has to go, I'm here, Kisha, you know? 202 00:07:31,252 --> 00:07:33,020 I know you have so many concerns and-- 203 00:07:33,086 --> 00:07:34,955 - Yeah, I'll get a surrogate 204 00:07:35,022 --> 00:07:38,191 to carry your eggs, and then, you know, 205 00:07:38,258 --> 00:07:39,560 we'll go from there. 206 00:07:39,626 --> 00:07:41,595 It's a journey, and I'm OK with it. 207 00:07:41,661 --> 00:07:44,431 - Motherhood looks different for everybody. 208 00:07:44,498 --> 00:07:49,336 But I think surrogacy is a beautiful thing. 209 00:07:49,403 --> 00:07:51,805 It's been heartbreaking watching her go through, 210 00:07:51,872 --> 00:07:53,407 trying to have a baby naturally 211 00:07:53,473 --> 00:07:55,909 then going through the in vitro process, 212 00:07:55,976 --> 00:07:58,378 and now she can't carry the baby. 213 00:07:58,445 --> 00:08:01,648 I'm hoping that when Mendeecees hears the news, 214 00:08:01,715 --> 00:08:04,684 he will be empathetic and just feels like this is something 215 00:08:04,751 --> 00:08:07,487 we as a family have to come together on. 216 00:08:07,554 --> 00:08:09,923 I just don't want Kisha to lose hope, 217 00:08:09,990 --> 00:08:11,859 so I have to figure this out for her. 218 00:08:11,926 --> 00:08:13,594 I'm here with you. 219 00:08:13,660 --> 00:08:14,928 I'm here with you till the end of this journey. 220 00:08:14,995 --> 00:08:16,797 - I know you are. [sniffles] 221 00:08:16,864 --> 00:08:21,201 - Mm. - [sighs and sniffles] 222 00:08:21,268 --> 00:08:23,303 - Coming up on "Love & Hip Hop Atlanta." 223 00:08:23,370 --> 00:08:24,938 - What's the obstacle courses? 224 00:08:25,005 --> 00:08:28,141 - Like tight ropes, uneven planks that you walk across. 225 00:08:28,208 --> 00:08:29,543 - In the air? - Yeah. 226 00:08:29,609 --> 00:08:30,844 - Yup. 227 00:08:30,911 --> 00:08:32,412 - Oh, [...]! 228 00:08:32,479 --> 00:08:35,182 - Kisha found out that she can't carry the baby. 229 00:08:35,249 --> 00:08:37,117 - I can't move forward with that. 230 00:08:37,184 --> 00:08:39,086 - You about to throw up? 231 00:08:39,153 --> 00:08:40,487 - I just got real lightheaded. 232 00:08:40,554 --> 00:08:41,789 [coughing] 233 00:08:41,855 --> 00:08:43,657 - My friend, she's having real bad shakes. 234 00:08:46,727 --> 00:08:48,728 - ♪♪ On my way to the top and there ain't no stopping ♪♪ 235 00:08:53,667 --> 00:08:55,135 - ♪♪ On my way to the top and there ain't no stopping ♪♪ 236 00:08:55,202 --> 00:08:57,537 - ♪♪ Lights up, this is how we're feeling ♪♪ 237 00:08:57,604 --> 00:08:58,939 ♪♪ Look so appealing ♪♪ 238 00:08:59,006 --> 00:09:03,144 ♪♪ [rapping indistinctly] ♪♪ 239 00:09:03,210 --> 00:09:05,579 - Ooh. - Yeah. 240 00:09:05,645 --> 00:09:07,380 - Oh, it's pretty out here. 241 00:09:07,447 --> 00:09:09,382 - Ooh, wee. It's so hot. 242 00:09:09,449 --> 00:09:10,817 - It's hot as hell. 243 00:09:10,884 --> 00:09:13,286 is trip to Belize is gonna be great for all of us. 244 00:09:13,353 --> 00:09:15,189 I feel like we all have different things 245 00:09:15,256 --> 00:09:18,124 that we're dealing with that we all need to heal from. 246 00:09:18,191 --> 00:09:19,726 It's the right group of girls right now. 247 00:09:19,793 --> 00:09:21,195 We need each other. 248 00:09:21,261 --> 00:09:23,630 - Can we please just, like, let our hair down 249 00:09:23,697 --> 00:09:25,032 and really have, like, a good-ass time? 250 00:09:25,099 --> 00:09:26,700 - That's why it's us here. - I got to. 251 00:09:26,767 --> 00:09:28,101 - I feel like-- - I got to. 252 00:09:28,168 --> 00:09:29,269 - I feel like us four... - I got to breathe. 253 00:09:29,336 --> 00:09:30,704 - It's gonna be a good time. - A vibe. 254 00:09:30,770 --> 00:09:31,872 Yeah. - Yeah. 255 00:09:31,938 --> 00:09:33,640 - I need some healing. 256 00:09:33,707 --> 00:09:35,609 Today is my one-year anniversary. 257 00:09:35,676 --> 00:09:36,944 - That you've been married to this [bleep]. 258 00:09:37,011 --> 00:09:39,113 - And I decided to let it go. 259 00:09:39,179 --> 00:09:41,881 He made me think and plant it in my head 260 00:09:41,948 --> 00:09:44,218 that it was something wrong with my parenting. 261 00:09:44,284 --> 00:09:46,019 Eric said he didn't want nobody with kids. 262 00:09:46,086 --> 00:09:47,688 I should have just took that as a sign 263 00:09:47,755 --> 00:09:48,955 that he didn't want to be with me. 264 00:09:49,022 --> 00:09:50,191 You didn't want to be with nobody with kids. 265 00:09:50,257 --> 00:09:51,391 - I just don't want to talk to you. 266 00:09:51,458 --> 00:09:52,692 I didn't, I didn't. 267 00:09:52,759 --> 00:09:53,860 - Did you want somebody with kids? 268 00:09:53,927 --> 00:09:55,162 - No, I did not, but I [bleep]-- 269 00:09:55,228 --> 00:09:56,930 - You act like it too. - But I still--I still-- 270 00:09:56,997 --> 00:09:58,666 - Your ass [bleep] act like it. 271 00:09:58,732 --> 00:10:00,000 - Sierra don't wanna bust that boy head. 272 00:10:00,067 --> 00:10:01,601 - She don't. - No. 273 00:10:01,668 --> 00:10:03,136 Y'all, stop. It's serious. 274 00:10:03,203 --> 00:10:06,006 Even though me and Eric is going through so much, 275 00:10:06,072 --> 00:10:08,975 I got to say that I love and appreciate him 276 00:10:09,042 --> 00:10:10,944 for coming through for my grandma's funeral. 277 00:10:11,011 --> 00:10:13,847 And he did not leave my side, not one time. 278 00:10:13,914 --> 00:10:16,249 And I'm not gonna lie, I don't want to give Eric 279 00:10:16,316 --> 00:10:18,185 mixed emotions, but I just want to make sure 280 00:10:18,252 --> 00:10:20,787 that I'm doing the right thing by leaving him. 281 00:10:20,854 --> 00:10:23,557 So while I'm here, I just want to get some type 282 00:10:23,624 --> 00:10:26,026 of, um, clarity, and I hope I get that. 283 00:10:26,093 --> 00:10:27,595 - Sierra, I want to help you get 284 00:10:27,661 --> 00:10:28,862 through it because I want you to help 285 00:10:28,929 --> 00:10:30,264 me get through my [bleep]. - What? 286 00:10:30,331 --> 00:10:31,465 What's your [bleep], Shekinah? - Just everything. 287 00:10:31,532 --> 00:10:32,900 Funeral home, revamping my life, 288 00:10:32,966 --> 00:10:34,701 trying to be more professional, um-- 289 00:10:34,768 --> 00:10:36,103 - You didn't get a boyfriend? 290 00:10:36,170 --> 00:10:37,571 - I want one. I think it's time. 291 00:10:37,637 --> 00:10:39,039 - You should go on like some blind-- 292 00:10:39,105 --> 00:10:41,175 we should get her, like, some blind dates or something. 293 00:10:41,241 --> 00:10:43,511 - I really want to do a series of dating. 294 00:10:43,577 --> 00:10:44,812 Like, I want to date. - Blind date. 295 00:10:44,878 --> 00:10:46,914 - I went online-- - You keep switching it up. 296 00:10:46,981 --> 00:10:49,116 - And y'all, like-- - But it's got to be some-- 297 00:10:49,182 --> 00:10:51,585 it got to be some-- some rich head. 298 00:10:51,651 --> 00:10:53,253 - Some rich-ass-- - Not no bull[bleep]. 299 00:10:53,320 --> 00:10:55,222 - I'm tired of these broke-ass [bleep]. 300 00:10:55,289 --> 00:10:56,356 - A rich-ass man. 301 00:10:56,423 --> 00:10:57,691 - He broke, looking for a pork chop. 302 00:10:57,758 --> 00:10:58,825 Looking for something to lay on. 303 00:10:58,892 --> 00:11:00,093 I don't want him to lay on me. 304 00:11:00,160 --> 00:11:02,797 It's time for Shekinah Jo to start dating! 305 00:11:02,863 --> 00:11:05,032 I'm in the streets, baby! 306 00:11:05,099 --> 00:11:07,200 This trip is about emotional healing, 307 00:11:07,267 --> 00:11:09,169 but it's time for me some sexual healing. 308 00:11:09,236 --> 00:11:11,038 This thing ain't been tapped in a minute. 309 00:11:11,104 --> 00:11:13,740 [chuckles] She getting cobwebs. 310 00:11:13,807 --> 00:11:14,975 - I think on online applications, 311 00:11:15,042 --> 00:11:17,110 they need to tell the size of they penises. 312 00:11:17,177 --> 00:11:18,612 - [laughs] - I don't even got the time. 313 00:11:18,679 --> 00:11:20,680 - Oh, the penis matter? - What? 314 00:11:20,747 --> 00:11:22,115 - I don't like them big. 315 00:11:22,182 --> 00:11:23,450 - I don't want them too big, but, baby, 316 00:11:23,516 --> 00:11:24,918 I don't want [bleep] small. 317 00:11:24,985 --> 00:11:26,286 - When they fat and they've got strength, 318 00:11:26,353 --> 00:11:27,621 I'm all right with that. - A little short? 319 00:11:27,687 --> 00:11:29,122 - Not that short, but I-- 320 00:11:29,189 --> 00:11:30,557 - Make up for what he missing now, then I'm all right. 321 00:11:30,624 --> 00:11:31,559 - Yeah, I don't want no big, gigantic 322 00:11:31,625 --> 00:11:32,827 anaconda-type [bleep]. 323 00:11:32,893 --> 00:11:34,361 - No, I don't want [bleep] too big. 324 00:11:34,427 --> 00:11:36,029 - Honestly, I don't even want to do all that work. 325 00:11:36,096 --> 00:11:37,698 I'd rather you just real small with a lot of money. 326 00:11:37,765 --> 00:11:38,965 - Yeah, real small with a lot of money. 327 00:11:39,032 --> 00:11:40,401 - We can get this over real quick. 328 00:11:40,467 --> 00:11:42,102 - Give me what I want. He can be ugly too. 329 00:11:42,169 --> 00:11:44,204 You can be ugly, fat, all that, 330 00:11:44,271 --> 00:11:45,405 just have the money and like me. 331 00:11:45,472 --> 00:11:46,606 - Yeah. 332 00:11:46,673 --> 00:11:48,108 ♪♪ ♪♪ 333 00:11:48,175 --> 00:11:49,843 - ♪♪ That's why I see 'em from the top ♪♪ 334 00:11:49,910 --> 00:11:53,080 [upbeat music] 335 00:11:53,147 --> 00:11:54,881 ♪♪ ♪♪ 336 00:11:54,948 --> 00:11:57,084 ♪♪ That's why I see 'em from the top ♪♪ 337 00:11:57,151 --> 00:11:58,786 - Right now, we got in two more weeks. 338 00:11:58,853 --> 00:12:00,788 We got the property being torn down. 339 00:12:00,854 --> 00:12:01,955 You've got to get rid of all these trees. 340 00:12:02,022 --> 00:12:03,123 - How much are they charging? 341 00:12:03,189 --> 00:12:04,291 $600 a tree? - Yeah. 342 00:12:04,358 --> 00:12:05,960 - So I'm meeting with the realtor today 343 00:12:06,026 --> 00:12:09,463 to talk about the demolition of this lot right here. 344 00:12:09,530 --> 00:12:11,332 And this is going to be like a $3 million house. 345 00:12:11,398 --> 00:12:13,166 And I'm really trying to pre-sell it 346 00:12:13,233 --> 00:12:14,935 before we even touch the dirt. 347 00:12:15,002 --> 00:12:16,637 I think if we can sell this in pre-sell, 348 00:12:16,703 --> 00:12:18,539 I'll sleep better at night. 349 00:12:18,606 --> 00:12:19,940 - 100% with you. I'm with that. 350 00:12:20,007 --> 00:12:21,975 That's what we should do. - Right? 351 00:12:22,042 --> 00:12:23,944 - Hey, fellas. - Like I said, tuxedo-- 352 00:12:24,011 --> 00:12:25,579 hey, queen! - Hey! 353 00:12:25,646 --> 00:12:26,980 - How you doing? - The hat? 354 00:12:27,047 --> 00:12:28,982 - Hey! - You got the hardhat on. 355 00:12:29,049 --> 00:12:30,384 OK. - What's going on? 356 00:12:30,451 --> 00:12:31,618 - I came to help. 357 00:12:31,685 --> 00:12:32,987 What's up, Dave? - How you doing? 358 00:12:33,053 --> 00:12:34,355 - You came to help? - Hello, queen. 359 00:12:34,421 --> 00:12:35,622 - You guys look great. 360 00:12:35,689 --> 00:12:37,124 - You came to help in high heels? 361 00:12:37,191 --> 00:12:38,525 - Heels can come off. I just left the store. 362 00:12:38,592 --> 00:12:39,960 - Hey, the more, the merrier, man. We need help. 363 00:12:40,027 --> 00:12:42,162 - I came here for you, whatever you need me to do. 364 00:12:42,229 --> 00:12:44,465 I want to bring lunch. I want to help. 365 00:12:44,531 --> 00:12:46,633 - Your wife do this for you? - No, no, no, no. 366 00:12:46,700 --> 00:12:49,569 If my wife did do this, I wouldn't be divorced. 367 00:12:49,636 --> 00:12:51,572 [laughter] 368 00:12:51,638 --> 00:12:53,106 - See? 369 00:12:53,173 --> 00:12:56,109 I have to get my husband on board with 370 00:12:56,176 --> 00:12:59,713 Kisha using my eggs and a surrogate. 371 00:12:59,780 --> 00:13:03,183 I need to butter him up and let him know that I love him 372 00:13:03,249 --> 00:13:05,786 and that I really, really want his support 373 00:13:05,852 --> 00:13:08,822 and his OK on this process. 374 00:13:08,888 --> 00:13:11,325 I brought a blanket. This is gonna be nice. 375 00:13:11,392 --> 00:13:12,659 It's really nice. 376 00:13:12,726 --> 00:13:15,729 - This is not like Yandy to pop up unexpectedly, 377 00:13:15,796 --> 00:13:17,197 bringing me lunch. 378 00:13:17,263 --> 00:13:18,298 - I'm gonna go take a look over here to-- 379 00:13:18,365 --> 00:13:19,366 - Yeah. 380 00:13:19,433 --> 00:13:20,934 - I got you some garlic spinach. 381 00:13:21,001 --> 00:13:22,235 - I think she's trying to 382 00:13:22,302 --> 00:13:24,104 definitely get something from me. 383 00:13:24,171 --> 00:13:27,041 So talk to me. What made you do all this? 384 00:13:27,107 --> 00:13:28,675 What's the special occasion? 385 00:13:28,742 --> 00:13:31,078 - I can't just want to bring you lunch and show up? 386 00:13:31,145 --> 00:13:32,179 - No, you don't do that. 387 00:13:32,246 --> 00:13:33,346 - Can I have one of your shrimp? 388 00:13:33,413 --> 00:13:34,849 - Yeah, sure. Eat up. - Thank you. 389 00:13:34,915 --> 00:13:38,552 So I went out the other day with Kisha, 390 00:13:38,619 --> 00:13:42,022 and she just opened up to me about what's going on 391 00:13:42,088 --> 00:13:43,824 with the pregnancy journey. 392 00:13:43,891 --> 00:13:45,192 And she found out from the doctors 393 00:13:45,259 --> 00:13:48,829 that, um, she can't carry the baby. 394 00:13:48,896 --> 00:13:50,931 - Then I can't move forward with that. 395 00:13:50,998 --> 00:13:52,366 - She's not gonna be able to carry the baby. 396 00:13:52,433 --> 00:13:56,102 Um, so now, we're gonna have to get a surrogate. 397 00:13:56,169 --> 00:14:00,174 But with the surrogate, we're going to still use my egg, 398 00:14:00,241 --> 00:14:03,644 that's if, you know, I can get you on board with this. 399 00:14:03,710 --> 00:14:04,945 - Why don't she just adopt? 400 00:14:05,012 --> 00:14:06,179 - She doesn't want to, Mendeecees. 401 00:14:06,246 --> 00:14:08,482 She wants to have a baby that has her DNA, 402 00:14:08,548 --> 00:14:11,118 that looks like us, that she feels like is 403 00:14:11,184 --> 00:14:12,519 a part of her heritage, her culture. 404 00:14:12,586 --> 00:14:15,322 - Let me ask you this. She don't have no one in-- 405 00:14:15,389 --> 00:14:17,290 in the family else that can do it? 406 00:14:17,357 --> 00:14:18,359 You the only one? 407 00:14:18,426 --> 00:14:19,726 - I'm her sister, her only sister. 408 00:14:19,793 --> 00:14:21,929 - Listen, you're not her sister. You're her cousin. 409 00:14:21,996 --> 00:14:24,265 - Mendeecees, that is my sister. 410 00:14:24,331 --> 00:14:26,032 - But, listen, but I'm your husband. 411 00:14:26,099 --> 00:14:28,436 - Yeah, but-- - So legally, that's our child. 412 00:14:28,502 --> 00:14:30,103 - It's not your child. 413 00:14:30,170 --> 00:14:31,304 You have nothing to do with this baby. 414 00:14:31,371 --> 00:14:32,907 - I'm your husband. - No, Mendeecees. 415 00:14:32,973 --> 00:14:34,108 - What are you talking about? - No, no. 416 00:14:34,174 --> 00:14:35,509 - And who's paying for that? 417 00:14:35,576 --> 00:14:37,711 Because that's a lot of money from what I hear. 418 00:14:37,777 --> 00:14:41,782 - Well, I thought that we'd help Kisha with this process. 419 00:14:41,849 --> 00:14:44,184 - What? 420 00:14:44,251 --> 00:14:47,288 I'm already not on board with Yandy donating her eggs 421 00:14:47,354 --> 00:14:51,959 to Kisha, but now she wants us to help financially? 422 00:14:52,026 --> 00:14:53,460 This is like a rough time 423 00:14:53,527 --> 00:14:56,330 because we are investing in our business. 424 00:14:56,397 --> 00:14:57,965 You know, she just bought her dad house. 425 00:14:58,032 --> 00:14:59,433 This is very expensive. 426 00:14:59,500 --> 00:15:01,368 And I'm telling you, Yandy don't think. 427 00:15:01,435 --> 00:15:02,736 She just goes. 428 00:15:02,803 --> 00:15:05,205 And to be able to bring this on me today, it's tough. 429 00:15:05,272 --> 00:15:08,508 - Kisha has been through a very rough journey 430 00:15:08,575 --> 00:15:10,711 trying to have a baby, like so many other women. 431 00:15:10,777 --> 00:15:13,547 We've been blessed. We've never had an issue. 432 00:15:13,613 --> 00:15:15,583 We don't understand the hurt and the pain 433 00:15:15,649 --> 00:15:17,884 that so many women have to go through 434 00:15:17,951 --> 00:15:19,352 when they're trying to bear children. 435 00:15:19,419 --> 00:15:20,888 I want you to support me in this. 436 00:15:20,955 --> 00:15:23,189 I want you to make this easy for me. 437 00:15:23,256 --> 00:15:24,758 I don't want to argue with you. 438 00:15:24,825 --> 00:15:26,393 For me to be able to do this, like, 439 00:15:26,460 --> 00:15:30,197 I have to get my eggs prepared. I have to start taking shots. 440 00:15:30,263 --> 00:15:32,366 I'm supposed to start the shots next week. 441 00:15:32,433 --> 00:15:35,001 God-willing my eggs are healthy, 442 00:15:35,068 --> 00:15:36,603 let's just see if we can get through that. 443 00:15:36,670 --> 00:15:38,873 - Yeah, but it seems like you made your mind up without me, 444 00:15:38,939 --> 00:15:40,240 and that's disrespectful. 445 00:15:40,307 --> 00:15:42,243 It's just confusing at this point. 446 00:15:42,309 --> 00:15:44,245 And you just want to help and I understand that, I get it. 447 00:15:44,311 --> 00:15:45,746 You love your cousin. 448 00:15:45,812 --> 00:15:47,814 And you want to do anything you can 449 00:15:47,881 --> 00:15:49,483 to make sure that she's happy. 450 00:15:49,549 --> 00:15:51,818 - You know if me and you wanted to have a baby, 451 00:15:51,885 --> 00:15:53,887 Kisha would have our baby for us. 452 00:15:53,954 --> 00:15:55,823 Do you doubt that? 453 00:15:55,889 --> 00:15:57,624 If the roles were reversed and you wanted to have children, 454 00:15:57,691 --> 00:16:00,727 do you doubt that she would do this for you? 455 00:16:00,794 --> 00:16:03,130 [soft dramatic music] 456 00:16:03,197 --> 00:16:04,731 - Yandy has a point. 457 00:16:04,798 --> 00:16:06,433 Kisha would do anything for us, 458 00:16:06,500 --> 00:16:08,536 but there's a lot to wrap my head around. 459 00:16:08,602 --> 00:16:10,871 We need to have more discussions. 460 00:16:10,938 --> 00:16:12,039 Let's just sit down. 461 00:16:12,106 --> 00:16:13,607 Let's talk to somebody and let's 462 00:16:13,673 --> 00:16:15,609 get properly educated before you start taking shots. 463 00:16:15,676 --> 00:16:18,045 - All right, but can you just keep an open mind? 464 00:16:18,111 --> 00:16:19,913 No matter what, if it's a baby of Kisha's, 465 00:16:19,980 --> 00:16:21,114 it's a baby of ours. 466 00:16:21,181 --> 00:16:22,950 Just be open-minded. 467 00:16:23,017 --> 00:16:25,719 - Listen, I don't appreciate you coming here like this, 468 00:16:25,786 --> 00:16:28,122 but I'm gonna eat this food. - You don't appreciate it? 469 00:16:28,188 --> 00:16:29,523 - Not with that news. 470 00:16:29,589 --> 00:16:31,525 - I thought this would make you very happy. 471 00:16:31,591 --> 00:16:33,193 - No. 472 00:16:33,260 --> 00:16:35,195 I knew something was behind all this. 473 00:16:35,262 --> 00:16:38,031 I [bleep] knew it. 474 00:16:39,433 --> 00:16:41,735 - Coming up on "Love & Hip Hop Atlanta." 475 00:16:41,802 --> 00:16:44,571 - When I was your age, I used to come to school and 476 00:16:44,638 --> 00:16:47,107 I used to write everything that the teacher was telling me. 477 00:16:47,173 --> 00:16:50,210 Guess what? I'm now a successful Black woman. 478 00:16:50,277 --> 00:16:51,811 - Mama said she was trying to speak to the babies, 479 00:16:51,878 --> 00:16:53,413 and she hung up the phone. 480 00:16:53,480 --> 00:16:55,849 - I said, damn, why you hang up the phone? What's going on? 481 00:16:55,916 --> 00:16:58,218 - ♪♪ On my way to the top and there ain't no stopping ♪♪ 482 00:17:03,490 --> 00:17:05,459 ♪♪ On my way to the top and there ain't no stopping ♪♪ 483 00:17:05,526 --> 00:17:09,262 [upbeat music] 484 00:17:09,329 --> 00:17:13,033 ♪♪ ♪♪ 485 00:17:13,099 --> 00:17:14,835 - Hi, bestie! - Hi! 486 00:17:14,902 --> 00:17:17,104 - Gwaan, gwaan! [blows kiss] 487 00:17:17,171 --> 00:17:20,741 ♪♪ ♪♪ 488 00:17:20,807 --> 00:17:22,676 - Hey, twin. What's happening today? 489 00:17:22,743 --> 00:17:25,046 - Oh, you found me! Y'all want to eat? 490 00:17:25,112 --> 00:17:27,648 - Yeah. - They have jerk chicken. 491 00:17:27,715 --> 00:17:29,182 So we're at the Belize Festival. 492 00:17:29,249 --> 00:17:31,818 I'm taking my kids on tour with me for the entire summer. 493 00:17:31,885 --> 00:17:33,353 And the girls are here to celebrate. 494 00:17:33,420 --> 00:17:36,356 And we're doing this grand healing journey 495 00:17:36,423 --> 00:17:37,724 right here in Belize. 496 00:17:37,791 --> 00:17:40,194 I'm just super excited and I'm grateful to God 497 00:17:40,260 --> 00:17:42,329 for helping me to overcome everything 498 00:17:42,396 --> 00:17:43,697 that I've been through. 499 00:17:43,764 --> 00:17:45,332 I'm glad y'all get the chance to come. 500 00:17:45,399 --> 00:17:47,133 - This is a big deal. - It's a very big day. 501 00:17:47,200 --> 00:17:49,002 - No, it really is. - And we have a lot to do. 502 00:17:49,069 --> 00:17:50,537 We have the spiritual healing. 503 00:17:50,604 --> 00:17:51,605 But after we leave here, we're going 504 00:17:51,671 --> 00:17:53,006 to go to a charity event. 505 00:17:53,073 --> 00:17:54,274 We're going to give back to the kids. 506 00:17:54,341 --> 00:17:55,776 - Oh, yeah, I love that. 507 00:17:55,842 --> 00:17:57,178 - Um, so the kids are here just to remind 508 00:17:57,244 --> 00:17:58,712 them to always give back. 509 00:17:58,779 --> 00:18:00,481 So I think that's going to be good. 510 00:18:00,548 --> 00:18:03,350 When I almost died, I remember thinking about my kids. 511 00:18:03,417 --> 00:18:05,151 And one thing that really bothered me 512 00:18:05,218 --> 00:18:07,888 was the fact that I didn't get to visit 513 00:18:07,955 --> 00:18:09,756 a lot of places with my kids. 514 00:18:09,823 --> 00:18:12,125 So here they are, they're on tour with me. 515 00:18:12,192 --> 00:18:13,793 And I love the fact that they're 516 00:18:13,860 --> 00:18:15,795 getting to experience these different culture 517 00:18:15,862 --> 00:18:17,865 and places that I've seen. 518 00:18:17,932 --> 00:18:20,834 Where's Shekinah? - I'm right here! What? 519 00:18:20,901 --> 00:18:23,104 - Shekinah! - I got to eat. 520 00:18:23,170 --> 00:18:24,571 [laughter] [shouts with mouth full] 521 00:18:24,638 --> 00:18:25,706 Girl, [bleep]. 522 00:18:25,773 --> 00:18:32,913 ♪♪ ♪♪ 523 00:18:36,483 --> 00:18:38,418 - I have my Grace Hamilton Women Empowerment Foundation. 524 00:18:38,485 --> 00:18:41,154 And I always try to reach out to an education system 525 00:18:41,221 --> 00:18:44,024 to find out how I can give back to that community. 526 00:18:44,091 --> 00:18:46,994 Hello! all: Hello! 527 00:18:47,060 --> 00:18:49,563 - And so today, we wanted to reach out to the kids 528 00:18:49,629 --> 00:18:51,398 and deliver books and bags. 529 00:18:51,465 --> 00:18:53,500 How are you feeling today? [kids shouting joyfully] 530 00:18:53,567 --> 00:18:56,036 That's what I'm talking about! Can I tell you a story? 531 00:18:56,102 --> 00:18:57,538 all: Yes! 532 00:18:57,605 --> 00:19:00,841 - When I was your age and I was going to school, 533 00:19:00,907 --> 00:19:02,776 I used to go to school with no books. 534 00:19:02,843 --> 00:19:04,477 You know why I couldn't go with books? 535 00:19:04,544 --> 00:19:06,447 Because my mom couldn't afford to give me a book. 536 00:19:06,513 --> 00:19:09,150 And so what I used to do, I used to come to school 537 00:19:09,216 --> 00:19:10,884 and I used to get pieces of paper 538 00:19:10,951 --> 00:19:13,053 and I used to write everything that the teacher was telling me 539 00:19:13,120 --> 00:19:15,322 because I wanted to be a successful woman 540 00:19:15,388 --> 00:19:17,324 when I get older. And guess what? 541 00:19:17,391 --> 00:19:18,792 It worked out for me pretty good 542 00:19:18,859 --> 00:19:21,128 because I'm now a successful Black woman, 543 00:19:21,194 --> 00:19:23,463 queen of the dance hall, I'm Grammy-nominated. 544 00:19:23,530 --> 00:19:25,599 And if I can do it, you can do it too. 545 00:19:25,665 --> 00:19:26,800 So give yourself round of applause. 546 00:19:26,867 --> 00:19:28,135 [applause] 547 00:19:28,202 --> 00:19:29,903 I want you to believe in yourself. 548 00:19:29,970 --> 00:19:31,772 And I want you to set your dreams and your goals. 549 00:19:31,839 --> 00:19:33,507 I want you to write them down. 550 00:19:33,573 --> 00:19:35,809 Think about what you want to be in the future, 551 00:19:35,876 --> 00:19:37,311 and you're going to aim for it. 552 00:19:37,378 --> 00:19:39,079 And you're never ever going to stop and give up 553 00:19:39,146 --> 00:19:40,780 no matter what until you get there. 554 00:19:40,847 --> 00:19:42,049 OK? 555 00:19:42,115 --> 00:19:43,483 - This was just beautiful for me. 556 00:19:43,550 --> 00:19:45,119 And it's healed me a little bit. 557 00:19:45,186 --> 00:19:47,221 It made me feel good to see the kids laughing 558 00:19:47,288 --> 00:19:49,023 and telling me what color book bag they want. 559 00:19:49,089 --> 00:19:51,625 Like, it makes me feel good to put a smile 560 00:19:51,691 --> 00:19:52,859 on other people face. 561 00:19:52,926 --> 00:19:54,394 - Thank you, ladies, for having me. 562 00:19:54,461 --> 00:19:58,031 I love you guys so, so much. [cheers and applause] 563 00:20:02,403 --> 00:20:05,105 - ♪♪ Take a ride, take a ride, take a ride, take a ride ♪♪ 564 00:20:05,172 --> 00:20:07,675 ♪♪ Take a ride, take a ride, take a ride with me ♪♪ 565 00:20:07,741 --> 00:20:10,210 ♪♪ Take a ride, take a ride, take a ride, take a ride ♪♪ 566 00:20:10,277 --> 00:20:12,713 ♪♪ Take a ride, take a ride, won't you ride with me ♪♪ 567 00:20:12,780 --> 00:20:14,414 - I just wish it was something like-- 568 00:20:14,481 --> 00:20:16,016 - Oh, ain't going through the trees right here. 569 00:20:16,082 --> 00:20:17,785 - That one's going through the trees. 570 00:20:17,851 --> 00:20:18,818 - We're at the zip line obstacle course. 571 00:20:18,885 --> 00:20:20,854 Now, I know what you're thinking, 572 00:20:20,921 --> 00:20:23,423 Scrap, you got asthma, you afraid of heights. 573 00:20:23,490 --> 00:20:27,428 All the above, but I'm trying to show Miss Erica Dixon that, 574 00:20:27,494 --> 00:20:30,331 hey, I'ma risk it all for you, Jack. 575 00:20:30,398 --> 00:20:31,799 You feel me? 576 00:20:31,865 --> 00:20:34,568 Levels of difficulty. - What's the obstacle courses? 577 00:20:34,635 --> 00:20:36,871 - Like tight ropes or, uh, 578 00:20:36,937 --> 00:20:38,939 uneven planks that you walk across. 579 00:20:39,006 --> 00:20:40,206 - In the air? - Yeah. 580 00:20:40,273 --> 00:20:42,643 - Yup. - It sounds scary. 581 00:20:42,710 --> 00:20:43,877 It's really not. 582 00:20:43,944 --> 00:20:45,278 You're hooked in the whole time, 583 00:20:45,345 --> 00:20:47,648 so even if you do, like, slip or get nervous, 584 00:20:47,715 --> 00:20:49,349 you are hooked in. 585 00:20:49,416 --> 00:20:50,784 - Let him go first. - No, ladies first. Remember? 586 00:20:50,851 --> 00:20:52,653 - Nuh-uh. No, what you talking-- 587 00:20:52,719 --> 00:20:55,388 Scrappy and I really are just having a good time together. 588 00:20:55,455 --> 00:20:56,891 I'm just grateful we're in this space. 589 00:20:56,957 --> 00:20:59,326 It's no beef. It's no drama. 590 00:20:59,393 --> 00:21:01,528 Like, we can actually have conversations. 591 00:21:01,595 --> 00:21:03,397 I want us to continue to build 592 00:21:03,463 --> 00:21:05,465 and just get back to how we used to be. 593 00:21:05,532 --> 00:21:06,500 - Oh, God. 594 00:21:06,567 --> 00:21:07,968 [suspenseful music] 595 00:21:08,035 --> 00:21:09,469 Oh, [bleep]! - [laughs] 596 00:21:09,536 --> 00:21:11,438 - [bleep] No! 597 00:21:11,504 --> 00:21:14,775 Lord, help me! Lord, please help me today. 598 00:21:14,842 --> 00:21:16,843 Oh, [bleep]. [bleep]. 599 00:21:16,910 --> 00:21:20,447 - I am very happy for Scrappy that the divorce is final. 600 00:21:20,514 --> 00:21:23,350 I honestly can see that he's getting back to being himself. 601 00:21:23,416 --> 00:21:26,720 He's silly. He's goofy. It is good. 602 00:21:26,787 --> 00:21:28,088 You not hugging that tree. - Yes. 603 00:21:28,155 --> 00:21:30,724 - You having fun, though? - No. 604 00:21:30,791 --> 00:21:31,692 I'm just trying to stay focused, 605 00:21:31,758 --> 00:21:32,860 but I'm nervous as [bleep]. 606 00:21:32,926 --> 00:21:35,930 I'm, like, sweating out my drawers. 607 00:21:35,996 --> 00:21:37,164 You know what I'm saying? 608 00:21:37,231 --> 00:21:38,298 I came out here to be courageous. 609 00:21:38,365 --> 00:21:39,600 You know what I'm saying? 610 00:21:39,666 --> 00:21:41,402 So Erica, like, you know what I'm saying, I'm-- 611 00:21:41,469 --> 00:21:42,870 [scoffs] the hell? 612 00:21:42,936 --> 00:21:45,038 But, God damn, I can't wait 613 00:21:45,105 --> 00:21:46,973 to get back on that solid-ass ground again. 614 00:21:47,040 --> 00:21:48,174 I need to be level. 615 00:21:54,748 --> 00:21:57,117 - She did her things. It's cute. 616 00:21:57,184 --> 00:21:59,553 - Come on. You got your key? 617 00:21:59,619 --> 00:22:02,956 Out of all this craziness me and Erica done been through 618 00:22:03,023 --> 00:22:06,960 and the stuff that Emani and I had to witness and go through, 619 00:22:07,027 --> 00:22:09,362 and now she's a whole grown woman. 620 00:22:09,429 --> 00:22:11,231 She's finna be out there doing her thing. 621 00:22:11,298 --> 00:22:13,433 So now I'm looking at Emani, doing something 622 00:22:13,500 --> 00:22:15,235 I never done in my life. You know what I'm saying? 623 00:22:15,302 --> 00:22:16,437 Never been to college. 624 00:22:16,504 --> 00:22:17,938 It's a blessing. 625 00:22:18,005 --> 00:22:20,107 - I'm happy for this new experience for her, 626 00:22:20,174 --> 00:22:22,143 but I just-- it's hard. 627 00:22:22,209 --> 00:22:24,178 Now I get it, like how moms be like, 628 00:22:24,244 --> 00:22:25,412 oh, I just-- it's so different. 629 00:22:25,479 --> 00:22:27,281 I go look at her room every day. 630 00:22:27,348 --> 00:22:29,183 I'm just like, she's not here. 631 00:22:29,249 --> 00:22:32,052 I look at Emani and I'm just proud. 632 00:22:32,119 --> 00:22:33,720 I mean, there's no handbook to parenting. 633 00:22:33,787 --> 00:22:36,257 And I just think Scrappy and I did a hell of a job. 634 00:22:36,323 --> 00:22:38,525 Awoo! 635 00:22:38,592 --> 00:22:40,260 [upbeat music] 636 00:22:40,327 --> 00:22:43,463 Ooh! Shoot. - Oh, [bleep]. 637 00:22:43,530 --> 00:22:45,165 [distressed sigh] 638 00:22:45,231 --> 00:22:46,367 - You did it. - Oh. 639 00:22:46,433 --> 00:22:48,302 - I honestly hope that our relationship 640 00:22:48,369 --> 00:22:50,738 just continues to blossom and we can just continue to grow. 641 00:22:50,805 --> 00:22:53,874 I mean, it's a good start. Baby steps, you know? 642 00:22:53,941 --> 00:22:55,675 There you go. See? 643 00:22:55,742 --> 00:22:57,177 - [heavy breathing] 644 00:22:57,243 --> 00:22:58,879 - [chuckles] You know, after we stopped and got 645 00:22:58,946 --> 00:23:02,249 something to eat, after we dropped Emani off at school, 646 00:23:02,315 --> 00:23:03,850 Momma Dee was really sad. 647 00:23:03,917 --> 00:23:06,086 - Why the hell was she sad? She always sad about something. 648 00:23:06,153 --> 00:23:07,588 - No, because she-- 649 00:23:07,654 --> 00:23:10,190 remember you answered the FaceTime to talk to Bri? 650 00:23:10,257 --> 00:23:11,324 She said she was trying to speak to the babies, 651 00:23:11,391 --> 00:23:12,826 and she hung up the phone. 652 00:23:12,893 --> 00:23:14,027 - Oh, she hung up the phone, huh? 653 00:23:14,094 --> 00:23:15,562 - Yeah. - Yeah. 654 00:23:15,629 --> 00:23:18,465 Erica never let what her and my mama had going on 655 00:23:18,532 --> 00:23:20,668 get in between my mama and Emani relationship. 656 00:23:20,734 --> 00:23:22,336 Everybody know I love them. 657 00:23:22,403 --> 00:23:24,838 And everybody know I love my mom. 658 00:23:24,905 --> 00:23:28,942 I can't wait for the day that we all could get together. 659 00:23:29,009 --> 00:23:30,477 It'd be cool for the kids, man. 660 00:23:30,544 --> 00:23:32,413 - She was sad. I feel bad for her. 661 00:23:32,480 --> 00:23:34,948 - I said, damn, why you, uh, gonna hang up the phone? 662 00:23:35,015 --> 00:23:37,751 Gonna hang up the FaceTime when my mama talking to Charlotte? 663 00:23:37,818 --> 00:23:39,719 Like, like, what going on? 664 00:23:39,786 --> 00:23:41,521 Like, but I don't care. It don't mess with me. 665 00:23:41,588 --> 00:23:43,356 It mess with them kids. You know what I'm saying? 666 00:23:43,423 --> 00:23:44,959 Because they be--they supposed to know they whole family. 667 00:23:45,025 --> 00:23:46,360 You know what I'm saying? - That's true. 668 00:23:46,427 --> 00:23:49,062 - Not just Bam's family, supposed to know everybody. 669 00:23:49,129 --> 00:23:50,931 - I just feel bad for her. 670 00:23:50,997 --> 00:23:53,534 Talking about Emani, you know, her going off to college. 671 00:23:53,600 --> 00:23:55,402 And she was just like, you know, one thing, 672 00:23:55,469 --> 00:23:57,137 you let me be in Emani's life. 673 00:23:57,203 --> 00:23:59,540 And I was like, yeah, I did. 674 00:23:59,606 --> 00:24:01,642 Back in the days, Momma Dee and I didn't get along. 675 00:24:01,709 --> 00:24:03,978 Everybody knows that. We always had our issues. 676 00:24:04,044 --> 00:24:06,580 But if Bambi just steps back, let Momma Dee 677 00:24:06,647 --> 00:24:08,014 be a grandmother, she will be one. 678 00:24:08,081 --> 00:24:09,883 She's actually a really great grandmother. 679 00:24:09,950 --> 00:24:11,718 - Yeah. 680 00:24:11,785 --> 00:24:13,387 - Well, hopefully everything will work itself out. 681 00:24:13,454 --> 00:24:15,856 - It will. - [sighs] 682 00:24:15,923 --> 00:24:17,858 - Coming up on "Love & Hip Hop Atlanta." 683 00:24:17,924 --> 00:24:19,159 [conch blowing] 684 00:24:19,225 --> 00:24:22,129 - Ask God to give you good health in life. 685 00:24:22,195 --> 00:24:25,499 - What did you say about my health? 686 00:24:25,566 --> 00:24:28,401 - You're put to sleep, a needle goes through your vagina. 687 00:24:28,468 --> 00:24:30,604 - Needle in the vagina? - Correct. 688 00:24:30,671 --> 00:24:33,106 - ♪♪ On my way to the top ♪♪ and there ain't no stopping ♪♪ 689 00:24:38,045 --> 00:24:40,214 - ♪♪ On my way to the top ♪♪ and there ain't no stopping ♪♪ 690 00:24:40,281 --> 00:24:43,083 [upbeat music] 691 00:24:43,150 --> 00:24:45,519 ♪♪ ♪♪ 692 00:24:45,585 --> 00:24:47,587 - ♪♪ DJ, DJ ♪♪ 693 00:24:47,654 --> 00:24:49,322 ♪♪ DJ, DJ ♪♪ 694 00:24:49,389 --> 00:24:50,891 ♪♪ DJ, DJ ♪♪ 695 00:24:50,958 --> 00:24:52,592 - You ladies ready? - Yes. 696 00:24:52,659 --> 00:24:54,361 - Yeah. - Yes, I'm excited. 697 00:24:54,428 --> 00:24:56,563 So today, we're going to a historical temple 698 00:24:56,630 --> 00:24:57,865 before my show tonight. 699 00:24:57,932 --> 00:24:59,800 And I don't know what to expect. 700 00:24:59,866 --> 00:25:01,068 But I'm excited to be still 701 00:25:01,134 --> 00:25:02,670 on my healing journey here in Belize. 702 00:25:02,736 --> 00:25:04,604 - ♪♪ One dance ♪♪ 703 00:25:04,671 --> 00:25:05,839 ♪♪ Just give me one dance ♪♪ 704 00:25:05,906 --> 00:25:07,207 ♪♪ Give me one dance ♪♪ 705 00:25:07,274 --> 00:25:09,242 ♪♪ You're dealing with the goddess ♪♪ 706 00:25:09,309 --> 00:25:11,712 ♪♪ Before the next one, give me one dance ♪♪ 707 00:25:11,779 --> 00:25:13,547 ♪♪ ♪♪ 708 00:25:13,614 --> 00:25:15,816 - Welcome, welcome. - Hey. 709 00:25:15,883 --> 00:25:22,656 ♪♪ ♪♪ 710 00:25:23,590 --> 00:25:25,192 - So how old is this place? 711 00:25:25,259 --> 00:25:27,328 - One of the oldest temples right here 712 00:25:27,394 --> 00:25:28,995 dates back to about 200 B.C. 713 00:25:29,062 --> 00:25:31,432 And it survived up until about 1,200 A.D. 714 00:25:31,499 --> 00:25:34,067 - 200 B.C.? - Yeah, yeah. 715 00:25:34,134 --> 00:25:36,002 - You hear that? - And it's survived-- 716 00:25:36,069 --> 00:25:38,405 - Y'all not getting into this. Y'all on the phone. 717 00:25:38,472 --> 00:25:39,673 - And it's survived up until-- 718 00:25:39,740 --> 00:25:40,574 - That's 200 years before Christ came. 719 00:25:40,640 --> 00:25:42,176 - Yes. 720 00:25:42,243 --> 00:25:45,112 - I feel privileged to be experiencing 721 00:25:45,179 --> 00:25:48,616 the grounds of such an historic place. 722 00:25:48,682 --> 00:25:50,650 I'm learning a lot today. 723 00:25:50,717 --> 00:25:52,453 Even though I don't know anything 724 00:25:52,519 --> 00:25:54,054 about this kind of religion. 725 00:25:54,121 --> 00:25:56,690 I'm just trying to process everything at the moment. 726 00:25:56,757 --> 00:25:58,626 I'm trying to figure it out as we go. 727 00:25:58,692 --> 00:26:01,428 [conch blowing] 728 00:26:03,931 --> 00:26:05,966 - So these are the local shamans. 729 00:26:06,033 --> 00:26:09,770 And they will be blessing you guys today. 730 00:26:09,837 --> 00:26:12,739 [soft suspenseful music] 731 00:26:12,806 --> 00:26:19,412 ♪♪ ♪♪ 732 00:26:27,187 --> 00:26:29,823 - In a place like this will have, like, 733 00:26:29,890 --> 00:26:32,226 the type of cleansing energy we need. 734 00:26:32,293 --> 00:26:34,328 All of us are bringing some type of baggage with us, 735 00:26:34,394 --> 00:26:35,829 something that we want to heal from, 736 00:26:35,895 --> 00:26:37,398 something we want to let go. 737 00:26:37,464 --> 00:26:40,467 And I definitely feel peace and calm in my spirit 738 00:26:40,534 --> 00:26:41,936 during the ceremony. 739 00:26:42,002 --> 00:26:44,171 I feel like I'm leaving a lot of baggage and trauma 740 00:26:44,237 --> 00:26:47,708 here in Belize, right here at the ruins. 741 00:26:47,774 --> 00:26:49,643 - Here, to bless you, to guide you. 742 00:26:49,709 --> 00:26:52,546 Nobody should break this energy. OK? 743 00:26:52,613 --> 00:26:54,215 - I try to do right by people. 744 00:26:54,281 --> 00:26:56,350 I try--I treat everybody like I want somebody to treat me. 745 00:26:56,416 --> 00:26:57,717 - Yes. 746 00:26:57,784 --> 00:26:58,953 - But I always get the ass end of the stick. 747 00:26:59,019 --> 00:27:00,721 - You will keep doing good. 748 00:27:00,788 --> 00:27:02,756 Big things will start to come to you. 749 00:27:02,823 --> 00:27:05,059 Let no one break down good energy. 750 00:27:05,126 --> 00:27:06,726 - Right. - Or good intentions. 751 00:27:06,793 --> 00:27:07,894 - I feel good on the trip. 752 00:27:07,961 --> 00:27:09,663 I mean, I'm really trying to heal. 753 00:27:09,730 --> 00:27:10,998 That was a blessing. 754 00:27:11,065 --> 00:27:13,066 He said, keep going, keep being how you are. 755 00:27:13,133 --> 00:27:15,535 So I can appreciate it. 756 00:27:22,409 --> 00:27:24,011 - What did you say about my health? 757 00:27:24,078 --> 00:27:27,081 - You stress up yourself. So don't let the stress-- 758 00:27:27,148 --> 00:27:28,949 - It don't. - Affect you. 759 00:27:29,016 --> 00:27:30,351 - Oh, my God. 760 00:27:30,417 --> 00:27:32,052 How did he even know that I'm really 761 00:27:32,119 --> 00:27:33,653 stressing about my health? 762 00:27:33,720 --> 00:27:36,423 Because I have another hernia surgery to do again. 763 00:27:36,490 --> 00:27:39,192 But I'm alive, and I just need to live in the moment 764 00:27:39,259 --> 00:27:41,494 and leave it to God and let it be. 765 00:27:52,539 --> 00:27:54,842 - Oh, that was deep. 766 00:27:54,909 --> 00:27:56,509 - I felt some type of spirit of peace. 767 00:27:56,576 --> 00:27:59,012 And I can't lie, it was something here today. 768 00:27:59,079 --> 00:28:01,515 What did you mean about me being confused? 769 00:28:01,582 --> 00:28:03,617 Because I'm actually going through a divorce right now. 770 00:28:03,683 --> 00:28:06,887 - There--there's confusion, but you need-- 771 00:28:06,954 --> 00:28:08,021 you need to start analyzing your life. 772 00:28:08,088 --> 00:28:09,756 OK? - Mm-hmm. 773 00:28:09,823 --> 00:28:12,092 - And think about whether it's-- 774 00:28:12,159 --> 00:28:16,397 it's--it's--it's what you want, or it's something 775 00:28:16,464 --> 00:28:18,932 that you need to let go. - Mm. 776 00:28:18,999 --> 00:28:20,601 I wanted a sign to make sure that I 777 00:28:20,668 --> 00:28:23,069 was just doing the right thing by divorcing Eric. 778 00:28:23,136 --> 00:28:25,505 And this man don't know me from a can of paint 779 00:28:25,572 --> 00:28:28,441 and he really had a message from God for me, 780 00:28:28,508 --> 00:28:31,345 for all of us that gave us some type of clarity. 781 00:28:31,412 --> 00:28:33,146 And I feel like it was needed. 782 00:28:33,213 --> 00:28:36,684 I just feel at peace. I feel good, I really do. 783 00:28:36,751 --> 00:28:37,918 - Thank you. - You're welcome. 784 00:28:37,985 --> 00:28:39,787 - Thank you so much. - It's a pleasure. 785 00:28:39,854 --> 00:28:41,755 - Thank you. 786 00:28:42,790 --> 00:28:47,594 - ♪♪ Every time you think you've touched the goal ♪♪ 787 00:28:47,661 --> 00:28:50,897 ♪♪ You find another door that's closed ♪♪ 788 00:28:50,964 --> 00:28:52,866 ♪♪ Yeah ♪♪ 789 00:28:52,933 --> 00:28:54,435 - Hi. - How you doing? 790 00:28:54,501 --> 00:28:55,736 - Good. It's good to see you. 791 00:28:55,803 --> 00:28:56,904 - Thank you. - How are you? 792 00:28:56,971 --> 00:28:58,339 - Good. 793 00:28:58,405 --> 00:29:00,307 Mendeecees has all kind of questions. 794 00:29:00,374 --> 00:29:03,143 And I really feel like him hearing that this 795 00:29:03,210 --> 00:29:05,779 is a safe process, that so many women do this, 796 00:29:05,846 --> 00:29:08,148 I'm just hoping and praying that Mendeecees 797 00:29:08,215 --> 00:29:10,050 gets all his questions answered 798 00:29:10,116 --> 00:29:12,386 and the doctors can take us to the next step. 799 00:29:12,453 --> 00:29:14,688 - I think maybe it's best we do, like, a recap. 800 00:29:14,755 --> 00:29:17,658 So you would like to have a baby using your eggs... 801 00:29:17,724 --> 00:29:18,826 - Yes. 802 00:29:18,893 --> 00:29:19,993 - Right, and using a surrogate? 803 00:29:20,060 --> 00:29:21,461 - Yes. - Right? 804 00:29:21,528 --> 00:29:23,063 Correct. 805 00:29:23,130 --> 00:29:24,965 So you will be undergoing a process called IVF. 806 00:29:25,032 --> 00:29:26,800 What that entails is, Yandy, you'll 807 00:29:26,867 --> 00:29:30,304 be taking shots to basically make your follicles bigger. 808 00:29:30,371 --> 00:29:34,241 And once we see the follicles are big, they're put to sleep, 809 00:29:34,308 --> 00:29:36,009 a needle goes through your vagina, 810 00:29:36,076 --> 00:29:37,778 and we extract the eggs. 811 00:29:37,845 --> 00:29:40,180 - A needle in the vagina? - Correct. 812 00:29:40,246 --> 00:29:42,683 That's how we--that's how we get the eggs out. 813 00:29:42,750 --> 00:29:45,118 - What the hell? 814 00:29:45,185 --> 00:29:46,753 I don't know. 815 00:29:46,820 --> 00:29:49,489 I'm just like, golly, it's a lot that goes into this. 816 00:29:49,556 --> 00:29:51,591 - So the process with the IVF-- - Mm-hmm? 817 00:29:51,658 --> 00:29:53,594 - It's going to take approximately 818 00:29:53,660 --> 00:29:55,562 a month to two months? 819 00:29:55,629 --> 00:29:57,664 - The shots just take about two weeks. 820 00:29:57,731 --> 00:29:58,999 Mm-hmm. 821 00:29:59,066 --> 00:30:00,200 - And then to transfer, do you have-- 822 00:30:00,267 --> 00:30:01,468 is there a waiting period? 823 00:30:01,535 --> 00:30:03,170 - Well, we would need a surrogate. 824 00:30:03,237 --> 00:30:04,671 If you have a surrogate ready, 825 00:30:04,738 --> 00:30:07,041 the transfer could happen within a month or two. 826 00:30:07,107 --> 00:30:09,543 - I'm just so thankful that my sister and her-- 827 00:30:09,610 --> 00:30:11,378 and my brother-in-law would just 828 00:30:11,444 --> 00:30:15,983 allow me the opportunity to-- to have a family of my own. 829 00:30:16,050 --> 00:30:20,321 How selfless of her to want to put her body through something 830 00:30:20,387 --> 00:30:22,489 like this for me or anyone. 831 00:30:22,556 --> 00:30:23,958 It's a lot. 832 00:30:24,024 --> 00:30:25,392 - But, you know, I don't think it's a big deal. 833 00:30:25,459 --> 00:30:27,661 I don't want to have any more children that I've 834 00:30:27,727 --> 00:30:29,296 personally raised of my own. 835 00:30:29,362 --> 00:30:30,997 - Mm-hmm. 836 00:30:31,064 --> 00:30:33,000 - So instead of my eggs going to waste, 837 00:30:33,066 --> 00:30:35,235 I can endure shots, I can-- 838 00:30:35,302 --> 00:30:38,105 - Can you find an egg that looks more like Kisha 839 00:30:38,172 --> 00:30:39,440 than Yandy? [music slows down and stops] 840 00:30:39,506 --> 00:30:41,542 - We don't have that kind of technology. 841 00:30:41,609 --> 00:30:42,843 - [chuckles] 842 00:30:42,910 --> 00:30:44,845 - Do you hear what you are saying? 843 00:30:44,912 --> 00:30:46,379 This is not going good. 844 00:30:46,446 --> 00:30:48,348 I think this is just not going good. 845 00:30:48,415 --> 00:30:53,019 I feel like I am in "The Twilight Zone" right now. 846 00:30:53,086 --> 00:30:55,155 - It's just now finding who's going to carry. 847 00:30:55,222 --> 00:30:57,124 - So now we just have to get the surrogate. 848 00:30:57,191 --> 00:31:00,694 - OK, so finding someone to carry, is that expensive? 849 00:31:00,761 --> 00:31:02,562 - It can be, it can be. 850 00:31:02,629 --> 00:31:05,165 An agency will be the best person to give you, 851 00:31:05,232 --> 00:31:06,466 like, the pricing. 852 00:31:06,533 --> 00:31:07,734 - But that's separate from the IVF? 853 00:31:07,801 --> 00:31:09,135 - Correct. 854 00:31:09,202 --> 00:31:11,839 - I heard it's anywhere from $75,000 to $150,000. 855 00:31:11,906 --> 00:31:12,940 - Possibly. 856 00:31:13,007 --> 00:31:14,374 Again, I don't want to say so, 857 00:31:14,441 --> 00:31:16,377 and the agency gives you like a different price sheet. 858 00:31:16,444 --> 00:31:18,345 - Thank you. - You're welcome. 859 00:31:18,412 --> 00:31:20,414 - I feel better coming to this appointment because 860 00:31:20,481 --> 00:31:22,850 I need to be in this decision-making. 861 00:31:22,916 --> 00:31:25,318 We need to understand exactly what we doing 862 00:31:25,385 --> 00:31:28,588 so if we execute, we can feel good about that decision. 863 00:31:28,655 --> 00:31:33,193 Yeah, so it was, uh, a whole lot to take in, you know? 864 00:31:33,260 --> 00:31:36,296 Um, listen, your tears almost broke me down. 865 00:31:36,363 --> 00:31:39,500 You know, you've been a mom to our kids from day one 866 00:31:39,566 --> 00:31:41,335 and you deserve to be a mom to your own kids. 867 00:31:41,401 --> 00:31:42,802 - I love your babies. 868 00:31:42,869 --> 00:31:45,372 They can have whatever kidney, whatever liver. 869 00:31:45,438 --> 00:31:46,807 - Right, so-- - So-- 870 00:31:46,874 --> 00:31:49,009 - I just--you know. 871 00:31:49,076 --> 00:31:50,344 - Oh, my God. - Let's go. 872 00:31:50,410 --> 00:31:52,879 I'm gonna give you a hug. - Oh, don't make me cry. 873 00:31:52,946 --> 00:31:55,616 - Mendeecees hasn't signed off on this process, 874 00:31:55,683 --> 00:31:58,852 but I'm hoping that hug is full of words unsaid, 875 00:31:58,919 --> 00:32:00,687 like, this is gonna happen, 876 00:32:00,754 --> 00:32:03,723 we're going to do this together as a family. 877 00:32:03,790 --> 00:32:06,026 - Golly. 878 00:32:06,727 --> 00:32:08,829 - Coming up on "Love & Hip Hop Atlanta." 879 00:32:08,896 --> 00:32:11,531 - Part of our traumas is having a baby at 15 years old. 880 00:32:11,598 --> 00:32:13,366 - We had them kids at 15 years old and stuff. 881 00:32:13,433 --> 00:32:15,402 - We? - We. 882 00:32:15,468 --> 00:32:18,839 I had an abortion at about 15. - Shekinah. 883 00:32:18,906 --> 00:32:21,208 - ♪♪ On my way to the top and there ain't no stopping ♪♪ 884 00:32:26,247 --> 00:32:27,714 - ♪♪ On my way to the top and there ain't no stopping ♪♪ 885 00:32:27,781 --> 00:32:28,882 - ♪♪ Oh, what to do ♪♪ 886 00:32:28,949 --> 00:32:30,384 ♪♪ You know what to say ♪♪ 887 00:32:30,451 --> 00:32:33,887 ♪♪ Just to make things go your way ♪♪ 888 00:32:33,954 --> 00:32:35,656 ♪♪ You know what to do ♪♪ 889 00:32:35,723 --> 00:32:37,825 ♪♪ You know what to say ♪♪ 890 00:32:37,892 --> 00:32:41,294 ♪♪ Just to make things go your way ♪♪ 891 00:32:41,361 --> 00:32:46,533 ♪♪ ♪♪ 892 00:32:46,600 --> 00:32:50,271 - Man, this is a blessing. You know what I'm saying? 893 00:32:50,337 --> 00:32:52,139 I'm adjusting to this new single life, 894 00:32:52,206 --> 00:32:53,941 you know what I'm saying, adjusting to this new home 895 00:32:54,008 --> 00:32:55,308 God blessed me with. 896 00:32:55,375 --> 00:32:56,476 It feels good, man. 897 00:32:56,543 --> 00:32:57,911 I'm ready to whip it up right now. 898 00:32:57,978 --> 00:32:59,847 - What about my sausage? I don't get no sausage? 899 00:32:59,913 --> 00:33:01,482 - I got some sausage. 900 00:33:01,549 --> 00:33:05,185 - Ah! [laughs] 901 00:33:05,252 --> 00:33:07,087 Mm. 902 00:33:07,153 --> 00:33:09,056 I don't get no sausage for real, though? 903 00:33:09,123 --> 00:33:10,524 - Huh? - I want a little piece. 904 00:33:10,591 --> 00:33:12,025 - You want a piece? - I do. 905 00:33:12,092 --> 00:33:13,193 I just want to sample it. - I got you, I got you. 906 00:33:13,260 --> 00:33:14,295 - I'm eating it. 907 00:33:14,361 --> 00:33:15,562 - Hard not to have some real nice-- 908 00:33:15,629 --> 00:33:18,332 - Sausage. And I get sausage in my mouth. 909 00:33:18,399 --> 00:33:20,000 ♪♪ ♪♪ 910 00:33:20,767 --> 00:33:22,036 - [laughs] 911 00:33:22,102 --> 00:33:23,671 Listen, man. Me and Diamond, we having fun. 912 00:33:23,737 --> 00:33:25,138 I'm single, she's single. 913 00:33:25,205 --> 00:33:27,641 I'm not dating both Erica and Diamond. 914 00:33:27,708 --> 00:33:29,243 I'm just living right now. 915 00:33:29,309 --> 00:33:31,245 I don't want to speak on the future. 916 00:33:31,311 --> 00:33:32,612 You know what I'm saying? 917 00:33:32,679 --> 00:33:36,083 I love Diamond and I really, really love Erica. 918 00:33:36,150 --> 00:33:38,919 At the same time, I just don't want to move fast with nobody 919 00:33:38,986 --> 00:33:40,120 but I just want to enjoy myself. 920 00:33:40,187 --> 00:33:41,322 I want them to enjoy they life. 921 00:33:41,388 --> 00:33:43,157 - I saw you was out with Ms. Dixon. 922 00:33:43,224 --> 00:33:45,259 How's college? - Oh, it was good. 923 00:33:45,326 --> 00:33:46,393 Dropped off. 924 00:33:46,460 --> 00:33:48,696 - You and Erica? - Mm-hmm, and Mama. 925 00:33:48,762 --> 00:33:49,897 - Momma Dee. - Yeah. 926 00:33:49,963 --> 00:33:51,265 We all took her down there. 927 00:33:51,332 --> 00:33:54,101 You know, just out there having fun. 928 00:33:54,168 --> 00:33:56,103 I really was just happy that we all 929 00:33:56,169 --> 00:33:57,638 could be together like that, you know what 930 00:33:57,705 --> 00:33:58,972 I'm saying, without a problem. 931 00:33:59,039 --> 00:34:00,874 - Your divorce is final, you in peace. 932 00:34:00,941 --> 00:34:02,910 - I'm still, you know what I'm saying, 933 00:34:02,976 --> 00:34:05,012 I be having them days where I'd be like, damn, 934 00:34:05,079 --> 00:34:06,880 like I was just married, like. 935 00:34:06,947 --> 00:34:08,749 But, you know, even though people 936 00:34:08,815 --> 00:34:10,217 be trying to act like you had something 937 00:34:10,284 --> 00:34:12,586 to do with the divorce and stuff like that, I be-- 938 00:34:12,653 --> 00:34:14,354 I would have to check them because I'd be like, man, 939 00:34:14,421 --> 00:34:16,423 it was horrible before it even got there. 940 00:34:16,490 --> 00:34:17,625 Thank you. - Mm-hmm. 941 00:34:17,691 --> 00:34:19,293 - It was, like, crazy. 942 00:34:19,359 --> 00:34:21,895 I've just been trying to, like, take it easy. 943 00:34:21,962 --> 00:34:23,463 Going through the [bleep] divorce, 944 00:34:23,530 --> 00:34:25,899 I was [bleep] hurt and just-- 945 00:34:25,966 --> 00:34:27,701 - You was not yourself. - Not myself. 946 00:34:27,768 --> 00:34:28,969 Curled up, you know what I'm saying, 947 00:34:29,035 --> 00:34:31,204 like a little puppy dog. You know what I'm saying? 948 00:34:31,271 --> 00:34:33,407 I thought it was going to be horrible after my divorce, 949 00:34:33,473 --> 00:34:35,342 but I have peace. 950 00:34:35,409 --> 00:34:37,444 I just want peace. I want happiness. 951 00:34:37,511 --> 00:34:41,381 So listen, so I know, you know what I'm saying, 952 00:34:41,448 --> 00:34:44,318 you been down for me, you've been there for me, 953 00:34:44,384 --> 00:34:45,652 and I appreciate that. 954 00:34:45,719 --> 00:34:47,087 Hopefully in a minute, you know what I'm saying, 955 00:34:47,153 --> 00:34:50,024 I can eat a little bit off the plate. 956 00:34:50,091 --> 00:34:51,859 - So you talking about the future? 957 00:34:51,926 --> 00:34:54,861 - Mm-hmm. - So what's your timeline? 958 00:34:54,928 --> 00:34:56,597 - I ain't got a timeline. I was just-- 959 00:34:56,663 --> 00:34:57,898 - It ain't no-- it ain't no rush. 960 00:34:57,965 --> 00:34:59,733 I'm just asking. - No, I'm having fun. 961 00:34:59,800 --> 00:35:01,869 Cheers to you. 962 00:35:01,936 --> 00:35:03,704 Damn. - [laughs] 963 00:35:03,771 --> 00:35:05,673 - It's your face. 964 00:35:05,740 --> 00:35:07,708 And we should do something fun one of these days. 965 00:35:07,775 --> 00:35:09,743 - I would love that. - Yes. 966 00:35:09,809 --> 00:35:11,545 And you ain't got no-- 967 00:35:11,612 --> 00:35:13,347 - Entanglement. - Entanglements going on. 968 00:35:13,413 --> 00:35:14,882 - Nah. - You ain't got no triangles. 969 00:35:14,948 --> 00:35:16,083 - Me? Me? 970 00:35:16,149 --> 00:35:18,085 Nah, I'm good. - Really? 971 00:35:18,151 --> 00:35:20,086 That-- - We outside. 972 00:35:20,153 --> 00:35:22,423 - We outside. - [laughs] 973 00:35:22,490 --> 00:35:23,490 - [smooches] 974 00:35:23,557 --> 00:35:24,725 [quirky upbeat music] 975 00:35:24,792 --> 00:35:26,527 - You better stop. 976 00:35:26,594 --> 00:35:27,995 - You better stop. 977 00:35:28,061 --> 00:35:29,196 - I'm just gonna go lay down real quick, take a nap. 978 00:35:29,262 --> 00:35:30,463 - OK. 979 00:35:30,530 --> 00:35:31,898 Oh, wow. 980 00:35:31,965 --> 00:35:33,000 Blanca, you gonna go with her? - Come on. 981 00:35:33,067 --> 00:35:34,068 [smooches] Come on, Blanca. 982 00:35:34,135 --> 00:35:36,370 - Nah, you my dog. 983 00:35:36,437 --> 00:35:38,138 Yeah, you hear me. Come here. 984 00:35:38,204 --> 00:35:40,307 Bring your ass, cuz. Don't do that. [chuckles] 985 00:35:40,374 --> 00:35:41,975 Don't ever do that, OK? [chuckles] 986 00:35:42,042 --> 00:35:44,378 Ever get it twisted who feeds you, OK? 987 00:35:44,445 --> 00:35:47,080 - ♪♪ On my way to the top and there ain't no stopping ♪♪ 988 00:35:52,053 --> 00:35:54,121 - ♪♪ On my way to the top and there ain't no stopping ♪♪ 989 00:35:54,188 --> 00:35:57,691 - ♪♪ Swing, batter, batter, show us what you got ♪♪ 990 00:35:57,757 --> 00:36:00,461 ♪♪ Slide, who's the baddest on the block? ♪♪ 991 00:36:00,527 --> 00:36:02,162 ♪♪ Head to head ♪♪ 992 00:36:02,229 --> 00:36:03,597 ♪♪ We gonna tear this place apart ♪♪ 993 00:36:03,664 --> 00:36:05,732 - I want to really be with a man 994 00:36:05,799 --> 00:36:07,701 that's financially, financially stable. 995 00:36:07,767 --> 00:36:09,136 - Do you feel like you're-- 996 00:36:09,203 --> 00:36:11,405 you're addicted to getting married or something? 997 00:36:11,472 --> 00:36:13,373 - OK, this is what it is for me. 998 00:36:13,440 --> 00:36:15,476 I have to heal my traumas. 999 00:36:15,542 --> 00:36:17,911 Like, me and Renni was talking about, a part of our traumas 1000 00:36:17,978 --> 00:36:20,047 is having a baby at 15 years old. 1001 00:36:20,114 --> 00:36:21,615 - Yeah. 1002 00:36:21,681 --> 00:36:23,317 - So once you go through that trauma at such a young age, 1003 00:36:23,383 --> 00:36:25,919 anything after that, you're looking for that feeling 1004 00:36:25,986 --> 00:36:27,387 because you feel like, oh, I just 1005 00:36:27,454 --> 00:36:28,589 need to be in a relationship, 1006 00:36:28,655 --> 00:36:30,223 oh, I just need to be with somebody. 1007 00:36:30,290 --> 00:36:32,125 - Like we had them kids at 15 years old and stuff. 1008 00:36:32,192 --> 00:36:33,794 - We? - We. 1009 00:36:33,861 --> 00:36:36,363 I had a abortion at about 15, 16, too. 1010 00:36:36,429 --> 00:36:38,298 - What? - Shut up. You know that. 1011 00:36:38,365 --> 00:36:39,866 You took it--yeah. 1012 00:36:39,933 --> 00:36:41,135 - You never told me it was when you were 15. 1013 00:36:41,201 --> 00:36:42,302 - But when we-- 1014 00:36:42,369 --> 00:36:44,371 - Stop brushing off your things. 1015 00:36:44,438 --> 00:36:45,606 - We got to talk about it. 1016 00:36:45,673 --> 00:36:46,907 - You're always in people's business. 1017 00:36:46,973 --> 00:36:47,974 Girl, you want to talk about your business. 1018 00:36:48,041 --> 00:36:48,775 - Girl, everybody know that I had-- 1019 00:36:48,842 --> 00:36:50,210 - No, I don't know that. 1020 00:36:50,277 --> 00:36:53,380 - Me having a abortion at 15 years old, it was sad. 1021 00:36:53,446 --> 00:36:56,517 It was bittersweet because I think I really wanted my baby. 1022 00:36:56,583 --> 00:36:59,452 But it wasn't time for me to keep my baby. 1023 00:36:59,519 --> 00:37:01,388 I did what my family thought was best for me, 1024 00:37:01,454 --> 00:37:02,523 and that's just what it was. 1025 00:37:02,589 --> 00:37:04,058 And I don't hate my family. 1026 00:37:04,124 --> 00:37:06,259 I resent them for making me do that. 1027 00:37:06,326 --> 00:37:10,297 - Have you ever been pregnant any time after that? 1028 00:37:10,364 --> 00:37:13,066 - Yeah. - At what age? 1029 00:37:13,133 --> 00:37:15,336 - By 24. 1030 00:37:15,403 --> 00:37:17,237 - Shekinah. 1031 00:37:17,304 --> 00:37:19,239 You are hurting over it... - I don't want to. 1032 00:37:19,306 --> 00:37:21,508 - So stop trying to hide your pain and your trauma. 1033 00:37:21,575 --> 00:37:22,710 Your eyes are watering. - Oh, my God. 1034 00:37:22,776 --> 00:37:24,245 - I cannot believe-- - Yes, you are. 1035 00:37:24,311 --> 00:37:25,379 You are hurting. - Stop! 1036 00:37:25,446 --> 00:37:26,714 - So stop. - I can't do it. 1037 00:37:26,780 --> 00:37:28,348 - No, I'm not gonna stop. 1038 00:37:28,415 --> 00:37:29,683 - Did it traumatize me? Yes. 1039 00:37:29,750 --> 00:37:31,118 I ended up dropping out of school and everything 1040 00:37:31,185 --> 00:37:32,519 behind this [bleep]. 1041 00:37:32,586 --> 00:37:33,553 - Now I can hug you because you spoke-- 1042 00:37:33,620 --> 00:37:35,088 - You ain't [bleep]. 1043 00:37:35,155 --> 00:37:36,423 It's OK, but you ain't [bleep]. - I love you. 1044 00:37:36,490 --> 00:37:37,858 - I love you, too. 1045 00:37:37,925 --> 00:37:39,760 - I feel like we're in a community 1046 00:37:39,826 --> 00:37:41,728 of healing right now. 1047 00:37:41,795 --> 00:37:44,131 And we gave her the opportunity to feel safe. 1048 00:37:44,197 --> 00:37:47,267 I'm really just gonna continue to encourage Shekinah, 1049 00:37:47,334 --> 00:37:50,037 help her to heal in whatever way that she can 1050 00:37:50,103 --> 00:37:52,473 to get over that decision that she made 1051 00:37:52,539 --> 00:37:54,041 that has been haunting her. 1052 00:37:54,107 --> 00:37:57,077 - I've never seen you be, like, that vulnerable and stuff. 1053 00:37:57,144 --> 00:37:59,246 Like, that mean, like, what we doing is working. 1054 00:37:59,312 --> 00:38:01,381 - Yeah. - For all of us. 1055 00:38:01,448 --> 00:38:03,083 - That's what the trip is for. 1056 00:38:03,149 --> 00:38:04,818 - And whatever--baby steps, even if it's just a little bit 1057 00:38:04,885 --> 00:38:06,353 of saying, you know what, I am traumatized by it, 1058 00:38:06,420 --> 00:38:09,790 but I do understand it, my-- - No, that's why we're here. 1059 00:38:09,857 --> 00:38:11,892 - You're so used to [bleep]. - On this trip. 1060 00:38:11,959 --> 00:38:15,963 This is your own personal stuff that you got going on. 1061 00:38:16,030 --> 00:38:17,464 - Yeah, it's gonna be all right. 1062 00:38:17,531 --> 00:38:18,899 - It will be. - Damn. 1063 00:38:18,965 --> 00:38:20,701 - Feel that glory. - It will be, my-- 1064 00:38:20,768 --> 00:38:22,169 - I enjoyed you releasing it. 1065 00:38:22,236 --> 00:38:25,172 - I know, I know. - I'm glad you released that. 1066 00:38:25,238 --> 00:38:26,606 - Me too. 1067 00:38:26,673 --> 00:38:29,977 I had no idea that this is still affecting me. 1068 00:38:30,043 --> 00:38:31,412 And I guess that's something that needed to come out 1069 00:38:31,479 --> 00:38:33,480 from all those years I've been having it buckled in. 1070 00:38:33,547 --> 00:38:35,849 And I'm happy that I was able to talk and get it out. 1071 00:38:35,916 --> 00:38:37,117 - When I found out I was pregnant, 1072 00:38:37,184 --> 00:38:38,686 I was so scared to tell my mama. 1073 00:38:38,752 --> 00:38:40,955 And when I told my mama, she said, whatever you want to do, 1074 00:38:41,021 --> 00:38:43,123 I'm gonna support you. And that's all she said. 1075 00:38:43,190 --> 00:38:44,859 Every hardship, when I look back now, 1076 00:38:44,925 --> 00:38:47,661 even an abortion, my mama stay right there. 1077 00:38:47,728 --> 00:38:48,829 I had found out I was pregnant 1078 00:38:48,896 --> 00:38:50,397 two weeks before Fu got locked up. 1079 00:38:50,463 --> 00:38:52,966 And I wanted to keep that baby. I wanted that baby so bad. 1080 00:38:53,033 --> 00:38:56,437 But it just started reminding me of my kids 1081 00:38:56,504 --> 00:39:00,040 that I just took care of kids for a whole eight years 1082 00:39:00,107 --> 00:39:01,241 while somebody was gone, you know? 1083 00:39:01,308 --> 00:39:02,976 - Wow. - Like, it was just a lot. 1084 00:39:03,043 --> 00:39:04,411 But when he left, it was like, you know what, 1085 00:39:04,478 --> 00:39:06,847 I don't know when I'm coming home and I don't want you 1086 00:39:06,914 --> 00:39:07,981 out there by yourself like that. 1087 00:39:08,048 --> 00:39:10,483 So we made the decision together 1088 00:39:10,550 --> 00:39:12,286 to not go through with it. 1089 00:39:12,353 --> 00:39:15,655 I can relate to Shekinah more than she probably understands. 1090 00:39:15,722 --> 00:39:18,592 I was lucky enough to have a very supportive mom. 1091 00:39:18,658 --> 00:39:22,396 And talking about this with my like-minded sisters is good, 1092 00:39:22,463 --> 00:39:26,567 but it also brings up trauma, anxiety, suppressed feelings. 1093 00:39:26,633 --> 00:39:29,069 And I don't really know how to handle all that right now. 1094 00:39:30,937 --> 00:39:32,773 - You know what I'm saying? - We almost there? 1095 00:39:32,839 --> 00:39:34,441 - Feel sick? - Yeah. 1096 00:39:34,507 --> 00:39:37,578 - You gonna throw up? - You want a water? 1097 00:39:37,644 --> 00:39:38,579 - She got to throw up. 1098 00:39:38,645 --> 00:39:40,247 [dramatic music] 1099 00:39:40,314 --> 00:39:42,883 - Pull this bitch over. [indistinct] I feel it. 1100 00:39:42,950 --> 00:39:44,484 - Give me that bag, give me that bag. 1101 00:39:44,551 --> 00:39:46,453 [indistinct chatter] 1102 00:39:46,520 --> 00:39:48,789 ♪♪ ♪♪ 1103 00:39:48,855 --> 00:39:50,624 - What you ate this morning? 1104 00:39:50,691 --> 00:39:53,727 - Oh, yeah. What is that? 1105 00:39:53,794 --> 00:39:55,395 - What is this? - I don't know. 1106 00:39:55,462 --> 00:39:56,763 But it ain't start doing this 1107 00:39:56,830 --> 00:39:59,733 until my kidneys started bothering me. 1108 00:39:59,800 --> 00:40:01,267 - OK, relax. 1109 00:40:01,334 --> 00:40:03,603 - They're going to need to get out and get back in. 1110 00:40:03,670 --> 00:40:05,239 - Ooh, so happy to-- 1111 00:40:05,306 --> 00:40:06,974 - All of a sudden, I'm feeling 1112 00:40:07,040 --> 00:40:11,979 really lightheaded, dizzy, nauseous, hot, and I'm shaking. 1113 00:40:12,046 --> 00:40:15,149 And I just don't understand what's going on right now. 1114 00:40:15,215 --> 00:40:16,817 - Hey, you want to give this water to her? 1115 00:40:16,883 --> 00:40:20,788 - She's shaking again. - She's shaking bad. 1116 00:40:20,854 --> 00:40:23,423 - Her hands is shaking really, really bad. 1117 00:40:25,926 --> 00:40:27,861 - Want to just pour a little water on her neck? 1118 00:40:27,928 --> 00:40:29,829 - [coughs] - No, it's-- 1119 00:40:31,298 --> 00:40:34,601 - Hey, Doc. My friend, she's having real bad shakes. 1120 00:40:34,668 --> 00:40:35,870 - I just got real lightheaded. 1121 00:40:35,936 --> 00:40:37,471 - She has a hole in her kidney too. 1122 00:40:37,538 --> 00:40:39,273 - [coughing] 1123 00:40:39,339 --> 00:40:41,308 [dramatic music] 1124 00:40:56,256 --> 00:40:57,724 - Next on "Love & Hip Hop Atlanta." 1125 00:40:57,791 --> 00:41:00,193 - Maybe we can invite some of my little Atlanta friends. 1126 00:41:00,260 --> 00:41:01,896 You know, can I show you off? 1127 00:41:01,962 --> 00:41:04,931 - That's just not something that I'm excited to dive into. 1128 00:41:04,998 --> 00:41:07,367 - I want you to be on this record. 1129 00:41:07,434 --> 00:41:11,538 Actually, Erica Banks, she got on this song a long time ago. 1130 00:41:11,605 --> 00:41:12,740 - The song you want me to be on? 1131 00:41:12,806 --> 00:41:15,209 - Yes. 1132 00:41:15,276 --> 00:41:16,544 - Super excited for you. 1133 00:41:16,610 --> 00:41:19,079 Your sound's great. You look great. 1134 00:41:19,146 --> 00:41:21,081 You just, you know, you've got to work on your duck walk. 1135 00:41:21,148 --> 00:41:22,282 - The duck walk was bad? 1136 00:41:22,349 --> 00:41:24,518 - You need to learn how to duck walk. 1137 00:41:24,584 --> 00:41:26,287 - Water, water. 1138 00:41:26,353 --> 00:41:27,821 - Been having several panic attacks. 1139 00:41:27,888 --> 00:41:28,889 - Oh, my God. 1140 00:41:28,956 --> 00:41:30,557 - You got to go to the hospital. 1141 00:41:30,624 --> 00:41:32,259 - [sobbing] - Just breathe. 1142 00:41:32,326 --> 00:41:34,928 - My mouth is numb, y'all.