1 00:00:11,619 --> 00:00:15,619 Un-shitting-believable. 2 00:00:41,136 --> 00:00:45,136 I'm Dr Khan's replacement. Dr Gill. 3 00:00:46,256 --> 00:00:49,795 You can call me Kester. 4 00:00:49,895 --> 00:00:54,635 - Is it Rachel? - Rae. 5 00:00:54,735 --> 00:00:58,354 I told Dr Khan to ask you to start keeping a diary. 6 00:00:58,454 --> 00:01:01,154 But you can't read it because Dr Khan... 7 00:01:01,254 --> 00:01:02,994 I don't want to read it. 8 00:01:03,094 --> 00:01:07,093 It's private. It's for you. 9 00:01:11,533 --> 00:01:15,533 Are you always this quiet? 10 00:01:17,452 --> 00:01:19,912 You know, there's a theory 11 00:01:20,012 --> 00:01:22,872 that you can discern the majority of a person's characteristics 12 00:01:22,972 --> 00:01:26,431 in the first five seconds of meeting them. 13 00:01:26,531 --> 00:01:28,031 What do your instincts say about me? 14 00:01:28,131 --> 00:01:32,131 My instincts say that a bird took a dump on your head. 15 00:01:34,450 --> 00:01:36,430 So... 16 00:01:36,530 --> 00:01:40,630 You survived the first week still in one piece, I see. 17 00:01:40,730 --> 00:01:42,430 What have we been up to? 18 00:01:42,530 --> 00:01:45,029 Look, with Dr Khan, we would just talk... 19 00:01:45,129 --> 00:01:49,129 I'm not Dr Khan. 20 00:01:49,969 --> 00:01:51,749 So... 21 00:01:51,849 --> 00:01:55,848 what have we been up to this week? 22 00:01:59,448 --> 00:02:03,467 Not much. 23 00:02:03,567 --> 00:02:07,567 Big lie. This week has, in fact, been pretty momentous. 24 00:02:09,047 --> 00:02:13,046 Wednesday, 10th July, 1996. 25 00:02:14,686 --> 00:02:17,586 Freedom. 26 00:02:17,686 --> 00:02:21,685 Dear Diary, I'm 16, I weigh 16.5 stone 27 00:02:22,165 --> 00:02:24,465 and I live in Lincolnshire. 28 00:02:24,565 --> 00:02:28,565 My interests include music, vegging out and finding a fit boy... 29 00:02:29,805 --> 00:02:33,804 Oh, scratch that, any boy, to quench my ever-growing horn. 30 00:02:35,404 --> 00:02:39,404 Unfortunately, I already have a lover that makes me look pregnant. 31 00:02:39,884 --> 00:02:40,983 Food. 32 00:02:41,083 --> 00:02:45,023 But, well, there is a difference between snacking and bingeing. 33 00:02:45,123 --> 00:02:48,983 And I don't binge any more. 34 00:02:49,083 --> 00:02:51,542 And if anyone ever finds this diary 35 00:02:51,642 --> 00:02:55,642 and reads it and comes to the conclusion that I'm crazy... 36 00:02:59,761 --> 00:03:01,081 they'd be spot on. 37 00:03:39,757 --> 00:03:42,137 Go away. I'm not speaking to you. 38 00:03:42,237 --> 00:03:43,377 Why not? 39 00:03:43,477 --> 00:03:47,476 You're abandoning me. You're leaving me here with all the mentals. 40 00:03:48,316 --> 00:03:50,496 I'll be back for my sessions all the time. 41 00:03:50,596 --> 00:03:52,416 You won't be back. 42 00:03:52,516 --> 00:03:54,216 You'll be off going to loads of parties, 43 00:03:54,316 --> 00:03:55,895 boy parties. 44 00:03:55,995 --> 00:03:59,995 Tix, we both know that there are zero cool people in Lincolnshire. 45 00:04:03,235 --> 00:04:07,234 Tissue, please, Skinny. 46 00:04:18,553 --> 00:04:22,493 Did you get a new toothbrush? 47 00:04:22,593 --> 00:04:24,772 I'm gonna miss you. 48 00:04:24,872 --> 00:04:29,052 'Poor, lovely, messed-up Tixy.' 49 00:04:29,152 --> 00:04:33,151 Here. 50 00:04:37,591 --> 00:04:41,591 Go. 51 00:04:49,790 --> 00:04:52,369 Hi, Rae. 52 00:04:52,469 --> 00:04:53,769 Hi. 53 00:04:53,869 --> 00:04:56,049 'Dr Nick Kassar, 54 00:04:56,149 --> 00:04:59,049 'expert moistener of lady gardens. 55 00:04:59,149 --> 00:05:03,148 'I wanna eat his face!' 56 00:05:04,028 --> 00:05:05,728 It's, erm... It's good for the skin. 57 00:05:05,828 --> 00:05:07,688 Yeah, I know, yeah. I drink two litres a day. 58 00:05:07,788 --> 00:05:10,027 Problem is, it makes you go to the loo every half hour. 59 00:05:15,747 --> 00:05:17,407 I'm getting picked up in 20 minutes. 60 00:05:17,507 --> 00:05:18,847 What a shame. 61 00:05:18,947 --> 00:05:20,046 Why is that? 62 00:05:20,146 --> 00:05:24,146 Because I never got a chance to do a sex on you. 63 00:05:24,666 --> 00:05:25,766 Rae. 64 00:05:25,866 --> 00:05:27,326 Yeah. 65 00:05:27,426 --> 00:05:29,425 Don't get up to any mischief. 66 00:05:32,345 --> 00:05:34,605 Well, don't go changing! 67 00:05:34,705 --> 00:05:36,885 You keep drinking that water! 68 00:05:36,985 --> 00:05:40,984 'Oh, God. Why do I always say such twattish things?' 69 00:05:42,944 --> 00:05:45,724 Four months locked away. 70 00:05:45,824 --> 00:05:47,443 Four months convincing people 71 00:05:47,543 --> 00:05:51,543 my finger is no longer on the self-destruct button. 72 00:05:52,303 --> 00:05:56,303 Finally, I was leaving. 73 00:05:57,022 --> 00:06:01,022 Finally, I was free. 74 00:06:20,740 --> 00:06:21,960 I'm not ready. 75 00:06:22,060 --> 00:06:24,060 Where are you? Outside. 76 00:06:25,259 --> 00:06:26,999 I'm freaking out. 77 00:06:27,099 --> 00:06:28,679 I'm having a freak-out. 78 00:06:28,779 --> 00:06:30,359 Just count to ten. 79 00:06:30,459 --> 00:06:32,199 I'm not strong enough to make it on my own. 80 00:06:32,299 --> 00:06:35,358 You're not on your own. You've got your mum and all your friends. 81 00:06:35,458 --> 00:06:38,518 My mum's a nightmare, and I haven't got any friends. 82 00:06:38,618 --> 00:06:40,618 You're my friend. 83 00:06:41,138 --> 00:06:42,998 The pips are going. 84 00:06:43,098 --> 00:06:44,997 What if something really bad happens? 85 00:06:45,097 --> 00:06:47,277 What if I have a proper freak-out, what then? 86 00:06:47,377 --> 00:06:48,357 Just count to ten. 87 00:06:48,457 --> 00:06:50,457 Yeah, but... 88 00:07:02,335 --> 00:07:06,335 One, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine, ten. 89 00:07:27,053 --> 00:07:30,153 I'm sorry I was late. It's only been ten minutes. 90 00:07:30,253 --> 00:07:30,792 40 minutes. 91 00:07:30,892 --> 00:07:32,512 Give over with your 40 minutes. 92 00:07:32,612 --> 00:07:36,612 You talk more random than duck shite sometimes. 93 00:07:39,931 --> 00:07:40,951 D'you want one? 94 00:07:41,051 --> 00:07:42,471 When have I ever smoked? 95 00:07:42,571 --> 00:07:46,571 You might have started. 96 00:07:51,490 --> 00:07:55,490 Might have some Blue Ribands in the glove box. 97 00:08:03,009 --> 00:08:06,389 No, no. I can't, love. No, I'm on the alphabet diet. 98 00:08:06,489 --> 00:08:07,709 The what? 99 00:08:07,809 --> 00:08:10,388 Each week, you only eat food beginning with a certain letter. 100 00:08:10,488 --> 00:08:14,488 Makes you rotate all your food types. This week it's W. 101 00:08:15,048 --> 00:08:16,748 So, you've nearly done the entire alphabet? 102 00:08:16,848 --> 00:08:20,147 No. I started on S, cos I bought a load of Scotch eggs on the cheap. 103 00:08:20,247 --> 00:08:22,587 I've lost six pounds, though. 104 00:08:22,687 --> 00:08:24,587 That's, what, just over a month, 105 00:08:24,687 --> 00:08:27,026 month and a bit. 106 00:08:27,126 --> 00:08:29,226 Have Blue Ribands got wafer in it? 107 00:08:29,326 --> 00:08:33,326 Wafer begins with a W. 108 00:09:17,521 --> 00:09:20,901 Oh, no. 109 00:09:21,001 --> 00:09:22,501 Rae? 110 00:09:22,601 --> 00:09:23,580 Who's that? 111 00:09:23,680 --> 00:09:24,700 Chloe. 112 00:09:24,800 --> 00:09:25,860 Rae! Oh, my God! 113 00:09:25,960 --> 00:09:29,180 Chloe? Blood and stomach pills, she's blossomed. 114 00:09:29,280 --> 00:09:33,279 Look at the chest. 115 00:09:38,599 --> 00:09:40,259 Please don't embarrass me. 116 00:09:40,359 --> 00:09:41,738 Oh, get over yourself. 117 00:09:41,838 --> 00:09:45,218 And don't be long. We're in a rush. 118 00:09:45,318 --> 00:09:47,458 Oh, my God! Come here! 119 00:09:47,558 --> 00:09:50,458 Why didn't you tell me you were back? How was France? 120 00:09:50,558 --> 00:09:52,897 France? 121 00:09:52,997 --> 00:09:56,857 Yeah, it was great. It was really nice. 122 00:09:56,957 --> 00:09:58,297 I can't believe you've been gone three months. 123 00:09:58,397 --> 00:10:01,176 Four months. 124 00:10:01,276 --> 00:10:03,376 - Yeah, well... - Rae! 125 00:10:03,476 --> 00:10:04,856 I'm glad you're back, anyway... 126 00:10:04,956 --> 00:10:06,956 Thanks. 127 00:10:10,035 --> 00:10:11,935 I should go. 128 00:10:12,035 --> 00:10:13,615 Oh, no, no, no. Listen, listen... 129 00:10:13,715 --> 00:10:15,715 Come to the pub tonight with the gang. 130 00:10:17,435 --> 00:10:20,054 I've started hanging round with the sixth formers from Wellesley Park. 131 00:10:20,154 --> 00:10:24,134 The guys are fit as, right? 132 00:10:24,234 --> 00:10:26,094 - And they're all single. - Chop! 133 00:10:26,194 --> 00:10:27,814 So, please come, sweets. 134 00:10:27,914 --> 00:10:31,913 Please! 135 00:10:35,033 --> 00:10:39,032 'Yes, please...' 136 00:10:39,992 --> 00:10:40,652 Yeah? 137 00:10:40,752 --> 00:10:43,252 I mean, um, yeah... 138 00:10:43,352 --> 00:10:47,351 I'm a bit busy, but it would be cool to hang out with you. 139 00:10:48,631 --> 00:10:50,971 In France, all I did was hang. Definitely. 140 00:10:51,071 --> 00:10:54,411 I'd probably get withdrawal symptoms if I stopped hanging. 141 00:10:54,511 --> 00:10:55,571 Yeah. 142 00:10:55,671 --> 00:10:57,670 Rae! 143 00:11:07,189 --> 00:11:09,529 Well, I'll see you later, then. 144 00:11:09,629 --> 00:11:13,129 Bye. 145 00:11:13,229 --> 00:11:14,569 France?! 146 00:11:14,669 --> 00:11:17,608 Well, I had to say something. You told me not to tell anyone. 147 00:11:17,708 --> 00:11:19,008 France?! 148 00:11:19,108 --> 00:11:23,108 Why didn't you just say I had glandular fever or summat? 149 00:11:28,747 --> 00:11:31,567 'Welcome to the house of pain. 150 00:11:31,667 --> 00:11:33,927 'Barely enough room for one person, 151 00:11:34,027 --> 00:11:35,886 'let alone me and her. 152 00:11:35,986 --> 00:11:39,986 'I'm not even in and I wanna get out.' 153 00:11:40,906 --> 00:11:44,905 Come on, Rachel. I've got something to show you. 154 00:11:47,025 --> 00:11:49,025 What? 155 00:12:00,824 --> 00:12:03,563 Rae, this is Karim. 156 00:12:03,663 --> 00:12:05,403 My lover. 157 00:12:05,503 --> 00:12:07,503 Isn't he something? 158 00:12:10,863 --> 00:12:14,862 Ohhh! Say hello! Say hello, say hello. 159 00:12:15,582 --> 00:12:16,722 Pleased to meet you. 160 00:12:16,822 --> 00:12:19,402 Why were you in the boot? 161 00:12:19,502 --> 00:12:21,721 Oh... Well, he can't speak much English. 162 00:12:21,821 --> 00:12:24,361 He speaks Arabic and French. 163 00:12:24,461 --> 00:12:26,561 That's what they speak in Tunisia. 164 00:12:26,661 --> 00:12:28,761 Er... Help... 165 00:12:28,861 --> 00:12:32,920 Right, who'd like a sticky waffle? 166 00:12:33,020 --> 00:12:35,800 Why was he in the chuffing boot? 167 00:12:35,900 --> 00:12:39,899 Look... Right, look. He hasn't done anything wrong, 168 00:12:40,219 --> 00:12:41,759 but there are people looking for him. 169 00:12:41,859 --> 00:12:43,239 What people? Immigration. 170 00:12:43,339 --> 00:12:46,999 He's not allowed to be here. Not just yet. Not just for now. 171 00:12:47,099 --> 00:12:48,079 He, er... 172 00:12:48,179 --> 00:12:51,198 He ran away from this holding place, and... 173 00:12:51,298 --> 00:12:53,558 we fell in love. 174 00:12:53,658 --> 00:12:55,558 Now, no-one can know about this. 175 00:12:55,658 --> 00:12:59,617 Not just for now. Is that OK, Rachel? 176 00:13:00,337 --> 00:13:01,357 Oh, Karim! 177 00:13:01,457 --> 00:13:03,237 Put me down, you bloody beast! 178 00:13:03,337 --> 00:13:07,317 Oh! 179 00:13:07,417 --> 00:13:10,436 There is a difference between snacking and bingeing. 180 00:13:10,536 --> 00:13:14,536 And I don't binge any more. 181 00:13:29,254 --> 00:13:32,214 Ever feel like you're returning to the scene of a crime? 182 00:14:07,170 --> 00:14:11,030 Oh, Damon. I love you, but I've gotta get out of this house 183 00:14:11,130 --> 00:14:13,569 and meet some real boys. 184 00:14:19,169 --> 00:14:20,869 Right, look. 185 00:14:20,969 --> 00:14:23,668 Before you meet everyone, just try and be cool, yeah? 186 00:14:23,768 --> 00:14:27,868 I could try and get you in with them, but they're a pretty exclusive bunch, 187 00:14:27,968 --> 00:14:31,388 so... just don't be upset if it doesn't happen. 188 00:14:31,488 --> 00:14:32,827 OK? Yeah. 189 00:14:32,927 --> 00:14:33,947 You ready? Yeah. 190 00:14:34,047 --> 00:14:35,067 Come on. 191 00:14:35,167 --> 00:14:36,587 Izzy. 192 00:14:36,687 --> 00:14:39,187 'Being in a pub is weird 193 00:14:39,287 --> 00:14:42,066 'when eight hours earlier you were in a mental ward. 194 00:14:42,166 --> 00:14:45,786 'I felt like a criminal, like a renegade, 195 00:14:45,886 --> 00:14:49,546 'like it was so obvious I wasn't meant to be there.' 196 00:14:49,646 --> 00:14:50,626 Sorry, lover! 197 00:14:50,726 --> 00:14:53,025 'I felt alive.' 198 00:14:53,125 --> 00:14:54,825 Everyone, this is Rae. 199 00:14:54,925 --> 00:14:56,025 You all right? 200 00:14:56,125 --> 00:14:57,145 Hiya! All right? 201 00:14:57,245 --> 00:14:58,985 Do you want a drink? Cos Chop can get served. 202 00:14:59,085 --> 00:15:00,464 Er, no, it's all right. I don't drink. 203 00:15:00,564 --> 00:15:02,064 Really? 204 00:15:02,164 --> 00:15:03,224 Yeah. 205 00:15:03,324 --> 00:15:04,984 Where's Archie? 206 00:15:05,084 --> 00:15:09,084 Somewhere. He said he was coming, so... 207 00:15:13,683 --> 00:15:17,683 What are you doing, you benny? You trying to get us kicked out? 208 00:15:18,003 --> 00:15:21,302 Here y'are. Make yourself useful and take a picture 209 00:15:21,402 --> 00:15:24,062 of the biggest pythons in sports entertainment. 210 00:15:24,162 --> 00:15:26,162 What, these ones? Them ones or them ones? 211 00:15:27,682 --> 00:15:29,981 Here y'are. Let me have a go. 212 00:15:30,081 --> 00:15:31,381 Archie, get up here! 213 00:15:31,481 --> 00:15:35,481 Archie, get up here! 214 00:15:38,080 --> 00:15:39,020 Cheers. 215 00:15:39,120 --> 00:15:40,740 Go on, Arch! 216 00:15:40,840 --> 00:15:42,980 Go on! Go on! 217 00:15:43,080 --> 00:15:46,900 Now, this is a little hit that came out a few months back. 218 00:15:47,000 --> 00:15:50,139 ♪ Well, I tried to tell you so 219 00:15:50,239 --> 00:15:52,499 ♪ But I guess you didn't know 220 00:15:52,599 --> 00:15:54,219 ♪ As the sad story goes 221 00:15:54,319 --> 00:15:57,578 ♪ Baby, now I've got to flow 222 00:15:57,678 --> 00:16:00,218 ♪ Cos I knew it from the start 223 00:16:00,318 --> 00:16:02,098 ♪ Baby, when you broke my heart 224 00:16:02,198 --> 00:16:06,197 ♪ That I had to come again and show you that I'm real 225 00:16:07,677 --> 00:16:09,857 ♪ You lied to me 226 00:16:09,957 --> 00:16:12,737 ♪ All those times I said that I loved you 227 00:16:12,837 --> 00:16:14,697 ♪ You lied to me 228 00:16:14,797 --> 00:16:17,896 ♪ And I tried, yes, I tried 229 00:16:17,996 --> 00:16:19,816 ♪ Return of the Mack... ♪ 230 00:16:19,916 --> 00:16:21,136 'Two words. 231 00:16:21,236 --> 00:16:25,235 'Gushington Central. 232 00:16:27,755 --> 00:16:30,455 'So, this is what I've worked out so far about the gang. 233 00:16:30,555 --> 00:16:31,855 'There's Chloe, 234 00:16:31,955 --> 00:16:34,094 'who's, like, my oldest friend. 235 00:16:34,194 --> 00:16:37,374 'We kind of grew apart over the last year. 236 00:16:37,474 --> 00:16:39,854 'I guess I kind of had my own stuff going on. 237 00:16:39,954 --> 00:16:43,933 'Like wondering why my best friend was growing apart from me. 238 00:16:44,033 --> 00:16:48,033 'Like wondering why I was having a secret mental breakdown. 239 00:16:48,873 --> 00:16:52,532 'But whatever. It's complicated, ' I guess. 240 00:16:52,632 --> 00:16:53,772 There's no topping on this. 241 00:16:53,872 --> 00:16:57,872 There's no topping on this. You've opened the box upside down, you div. 242 00:16:58,872 --> 00:17:00,052 'Then there's Izzy. 243 00:17:00,152 --> 00:17:04,151 'She's so cute. I've only known her for two hours, but I can't imagine 244 00:17:05,351 --> 00:17:07,931 'she'd have a negative thought about...anything.' 245 00:17:08,031 --> 00:17:10,531 You two are so like a married couple sometimes. 246 00:17:10,631 --> 00:17:12,930 Uh, gross! It'd be like marrying me sister. 247 00:17:13,030 --> 00:17:15,290 Yeah! So gross! 248 00:17:15,390 --> 00:17:17,530 'There's three boys. 249 00:17:17,630 --> 00:17:21,529 'Chop. Rating - slice. 250 00:17:21,629 --> 00:17:23,809 'He doesn't even go to school. 251 00:17:23,909 --> 00:17:27,249 'Chloe says he works down at some garage, fixing cars or summat.' 252 00:17:27,349 --> 00:17:31,348 I don't care what you say, Jennifer Aniston is fitter than Pammy. 253 00:17:31,708 --> 00:17:34,368 There's only one woman that's fitter than both. 254 00:17:34,468 --> 00:17:35,568 Bollocks. Who? 255 00:17:35,668 --> 00:17:37,668 Your mum! 256 00:17:39,947 --> 00:17:40,727 No... 257 00:17:40,827 --> 00:17:43,647 'And Finn's a bit of a grumpy sod. 258 00:17:43,747 --> 00:17:45,887 'He's such an epic slice, 259 00:17:45,987 --> 00:17:48,687 'but he massively knows it.' 260 00:17:48,787 --> 00:17:52,786 Argh! 261 00:17:54,506 --> 00:17:57,046 'And finally... 262 00:17:57,146 --> 00:18:00,885 '..Archie. Ultimate slice. 263 00:18:00,985 --> 00:18:02,645 'Half geek, half rock god. 264 00:18:02,745 --> 00:18:06,125 'So hot, he'd make a priest kick a hole in a stained-glass window. 265 00:18:06,225 --> 00:18:10,224 'I wanna do 14,000 romances on him.' 266 00:18:52,420 --> 00:18:54,839 'I couldn't believe it. 267 00:18:54,939 --> 00:18:58,199 'There were cool people in Lincolnshire. 268 00:18:58,299 --> 00:19:00,359 'This was it. 269 00:19:00,459 --> 00:19:04,458 'This was my chance.' 270 00:19:06,578 --> 00:19:07,838 Oh, everyone. What? 271 00:19:07,938 --> 00:19:10,958 Announcement, right? Party at mine on Saturday 272 00:19:11,058 --> 00:19:13,058 to celebrate Izzy's birthday. 273 00:19:14,657 --> 00:19:18,657 'And all I had to do was just...' 274 00:19:20,297 --> 00:19:21,397 Here y'are, Chloe's mate! 275 00:19:21,497 --> 00:19:25,496 Take a picture! 276 00:19:27,336 --> 00:19:28,596 It's Rae. 277 00:19:28,696 --> 00:19:32,295 May, take a picture of us, will you? 278 00:19:39,135 --> 00:19:43,134 Chop, your guns nearly don't fit in that picture! 279 00:20:06,132 --> 00:20:08,032 I've decided. 280 00:20:08,132 --> 00:20:12,071 There are three ways Archie is gonna go out with me. 281 00:20:12,171 --> 00:20:15,311 One - if he's secretly got a thing for big women, 282 00:20:15,411 --> 00:20:17,951 like Lenny Henry has for Dawn French. 283 00:20:18,051 --> 00:20:20,030 Two - apocalyptic catastrophe 284 00:20:20,130 --> 00:20:22,510 takes out all of the women on the Earth, 285 00:20:22,610 --> 00:20:25,670 and therefore my humps become a precious commodity. 286 00:20:25,770 --> 00:20:29,529 Three - I feed him biscuits until he's fat too. 287 00:20:36,569 --> 00:20:40,568 If this goes in the bin, Archie will definitely sleep with me. 288 00:21:11,165 --> 00:21:12,665 I had to see you. 289 00:21:12,765 --> 00:21:16,764 What are you doing here? 290 00:21:17,484 --> 00:21:19,484 Let's not talk. 291 00:21:33,243 --> 00:21:35,662 Mmm. Kiss my neck, Archie. 292 00:21:35,762 --> 00:21:36,822 Please, for me. 293 00:21:36,922 --> 00:21:37,942 What? 294 00:21:38,042 --> 00:21:39,062 Please, I beg you. 295 00:21:39,162 --> 00:21:41,942 Why are you talking like that? 296 00:21:42,042 --> 00:21:43,501 Please. 297 00:21:43,601 --> 00:21:47,601 Oh, Karim! Oh! Oh! Karim! Karim! Oh! 298 00:21:48,001 --> 00:21:50,941 Oh! Oh! Karim! Karim! 299 00:21:51,041 --> 00:21:52,620 Oh, my God! 300 00:21:52,720 --> 00:21:56,720 I...can't... believe it! 301 00:22:08,159 --> 00:22:08,939 What? 302 00:22:09,039 --> 00:22:12,818 Do you have any idea what time it is? 303 00:22:12,918 --> 00:22:14,138 It's quarter to five. 304 00:22:14,238 --> 00:22:15,738 It's quarter to five. 305 00:22:15,838 --> 00:22:19,378 And I'm awake! 306 00:22:19,478 --> 00:22:22,457 What do you want? A chufty badge and a round of applause? 307 00:22:22,557 --> 00:22:26,217 I want to go to sleep knowing that I'm not gonna be woken up 308 00:22:26,317 --> 00:22:29,657 by the sound of you getting your bones jumped. 309 00:22:29,757 --> 00:22:31,416 I beg your pardon?! 310 00:22:31,516 --> 00:22:34,056 Just stop having sex at top volume, yeah? 311 00:22:34,156 --> 00:22:35,696 I didn't know we were being loud. 312 00:22:35,796 --> 00:22:39,096 There's people in Peterborough that think the world's coming to an end. 313 00:22:39,196 --> 00:22:42,695 Oh, come on, Rachel. You talk more random than duck shite sometimes. 314 00:22:42,795 --> 00:22:44,335 Will you just stop saying that? 315 00:22:44,435 --> 00:22:47,255 It's just stupid. 316 00:22:47,355 --> 00:22:50,654 You watch your tone with me, young lady. 317 00:22:50,754 --> 00:22:53,054 You remember who you're talking to. 318 00:22:53,154 --> 00:22:55,334 D'you know what? 319 00:22:55,434 --> 00:22:57,254 'And then I said it. 320 00:22:57,354 --> 00:22:59,933 'The worst thing I've ever said to my mum. 321 00:23:00,033 --> 00:23:02,413 'And, as I'm feeling mega guilty anyway, 322 00:23:02,513 --> 00:23:05,613 'we might as well do the top three.' 323 00:23:05,713 --> 00:23:09,712 Mum, why's your bum bigger than all the other mums' bums? 324 00:23:11,152 --> 00:23:14,132 Rachel... Earl! 325 00:23:14,232 --> 00:23:17,611 Come on. 326 00:23:17,711 --> 00:23:19,211 I wanted a Kylie one. 327 00:23:19,311 --> 00:23:21,691 Well, maybe I couldn't afford a Kylie one. 328 00:23:21,791 --> 00:23:25,811 Maybe if you hadn't made Dad leave, we'd be able to get nice things. 329 00:23:25,911 --> 00:23:29,910 Rachel... Earl! 330 00:23:30,470 --> 00:23:34,470 All right! 331 00:23:35,190 --> 00:23:37,129 It's no wonder I went mental, is it? 332 00:23:37,229 --> 00:23:40,009 When I've got the biggest screw-up 333 00:23:40,109 --> 00:23:44,109 in the history of screw-ups for a parent. 334 00:23:44,908 --> 00:23:48,608 Go on. Say it. 335 00:23:48,708 --> 00:23:52,708 "Rachel Earl!" 336 00:24:06,786 --> 00:24:09,866 One, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine, ten. 337 00:24:16,905 --> 00:24:20,905 Thursday, the 11th of July, 1996. 338 00:24:21,665 --> 00:24:25,664 No-one's called. 339 00:24:26,424 --> 00:24:28,444 I loved Thursdays in the hospital. 340 00:24:28,544 --> 00:24:30,004 In the mornings, 341 00:24:30,104 --> 00:24:31,643 me and Tix would catch up on the charts 342 00:24:31,743 --> 00:24:33,243 and have toast. 343 00:24:33,343 --> 00:24:36,203 And in the afternoon, we'd have group and then go out to the lake 344 00:24:36,303 --> 00:24:40,283 with Danny Two Hats and play Ten Questions. 345 00:24:40,383 --> 00:24:44,042 But now, there's a new gang, I suppose. 346 00:24:44,142 --> 00:24:47,642 But why haven't they called? 347 00:24:47,742 --> 00:24:51,741 Have I fucked it up already? 348 00:25:09,739 --> 00:25:13,599 Rae? 349 00:25:13,699 --> 00:25:15,039 What are you doing here? 350 00:25:15,139 --> 00:25:16,239 I was just passing. 351 00:25:16,339 --> 00:25:18,039 I thought I'd nip in. 352 00:25:18,139 --> 00:25:21,798 I would have rang to say we were all coming down, but... 353 00:25:21,898 --> 00:25:23,758 it was kind of a spontaneous thing. 354 00:25:23,858 --> 00:25:27,318 You know how it is. 355 00:25:27,418 --> 00:25:31,077 Archie, put summat decent on the jukebox, will you? 356 00:25:31,177 --> 00:25:34,037 'Music. My turf. 357 00:25:34,137 --> 00:25:36,517 'Go big or go home.' 358 00:25:36,617 --> 00:25:37,157 I'll do it. 359 00:25:37,257 --> 00:25:38,636 No, I want Archie to do it. 360 00:25:38,736 --> 00:25:40,396 He knows his music. 361 00:25:40,496 --> 00:25:41,516 I know my music. 362 00:25:41,616 --> 00:25:43,276 Look, May... Rae. 363 00:25:43,376 --> 00:25:44,956 As in Raymond? As in Rachel. 364 00:25:45,056 --> 00:25:49,055 Whatever. Rae, it's my 20p, and I want Archie to do it, all right? 365 00:25:49,415 --> 00:25:53,415 If you don't like what I put on, I'll give you your 20p back. 366 00:26:02,254 --> 00:26:06,153 It was time to drop the big guns. 367 00:26:06,253 --> 00:26:09,193 And I hereby present my case for gang membership. 368 00:26:09,293 --> 00:26:11,573 Spin on that, Finn. 369 00:26:17,172 --> 00:26:20,112 Tune! 370 00:26:20,212 --> 00:26:21,072 Nice one! 371 00:26:21,172 --> 00:26:24,032 Yeah, it's not bad... for mainstream. 372 00:26:24,132 --> 00:26:28,131 I don't think we've been introduced properly. I'm Archie. 373 00:26:28,531 --> 00:26:29,791 Hi, Archie. 374 00:26:29,891 --> 00:26:33,191 'I'd shag him until there was nothing left. 375 00:26:33,291 --> 00:26:37,290 'Just a pair of glasses and a damp patch.' 376 00:26:37,850 --> 00:26:41,110 Rae, you're still coming to my party on Saturday, right? 377 00:26:41,210 --> 00:26:42,150 Am I invited? 378 00:26:42,250 --> 00:26:46,309 Of course you are! Silly moo! 379 00:26:46,409 --> 00:26:47,669 Tell everyone! 380 00:26:47,769 --> 00:26:49,429 All right. 381 00:26:49,529 --> 00:26:52,188 Right, listen. As you all know, 382 00:26:52,288 --> 00:26:55,628 I am proper excited about moving into my new house, 383 00:26:55,728 --> 00:26:59,728 so I am delighted to say that my party on Saturday night 384 00:27:00,088 --> 00:27:02,107 will be my first ever... 385 00:27:02,207 --> 00:27:03,227 pool party. 386 00:27:03,327 --> 00:27:04,707 Whoo! 387 00:27:04,807 --> 00:27:08,807 Pool party? Get in there! 388 00:27:11,486 --> 00:27:13,346 Are you kidding me?! 389 00:27:13,446 --> 00:27:17,106 Who wants a snakebite? Yeah, I do. 390 00:27:17,206 --> 00:27:19,186 Go on, you can do it! 391 00:27:19,286 --> 00:27:22,385 You can do it! 392 00:27:22,485 --> 00:27:26,485 Yes! 393 00:27:26,925 --> 00:27:28,925 'I am...' 394 00:27:32,644 --> 00:27:35,504 Friday, the 12th of July. 395 00:27:35,604 --> 00:27:38,784 My first hangover. 396 00:27:38,884 --> 00:27:42,883 I felt like an orang-utan had been sick on my brain. 397 00:27:44,083 --> 00:27:48,083 The big question is, one piece, bikini or monokini? 398 00:27:49,402 --> 00:27:53,402 Well, where's the makes-you-not-look like-a-massive-bloater-kini? 399 00:27:55,602 --> 00:27:57,142 What? 400 00:27:57,242 --> 00:27:58,261 Nothing. 401 00:27:58,361 --> 00:28:01,281 Well, come on, try them on. 402 00:28:04,281 --> 00:28:06,981 'There was a time when I refused 403 00:28:07,081 --> 00:28:10,660 'to wear anything other than a swimsuit.' 404 00:28:10,760 --> 00:28:14,760 Will you help me get a pasty, please? 405 00:28:15,960 --> 00:28:18,859 You shouldn't eat too many of these, you'll get fat. 406 00:28:18,959 --> 00:28:21,099 I don't care if I get fat. They taste nice. 407 00:28:21,199 --> 00:28:24,499 But if you get fat, you won't be able to wear a swimsuit 408 00:28:24,599 --> 00:28:26,178 and boys won't like you. 409 00:28:26,278 --> 00:28:27,458 I don't like boys. 410 00:28:27,558 --> 00:28:29,218 And even if I did like boys 411 00:28:29,318 --> 00:28:32,218 and I was fat and I wore a swimsuit, they'd like me anyway. 412 00:28:32,318 --> 00:28:33,938 Why would they like you? 413 00:28:34,038 --> 00:28:35,697 Because I'm brilliant. 414 00:28:35,797 --> 00:28:39,797 Rae! 415 00:28:40,917 --> 00:28:44,257 'There's no fucking way anyone's gonna see me in this.' 416 00:28:44,357 --> 00:28:48,116 Phhhhh... 417 00:28:55,235 --> 00:28:56,775 What are you doing? 418 00:28:56,875 --> 00:28:57,975 Burning one? 419 00:28:58,075 --> 00:28:59,055 But you don't smoke. 420 00:28:59,155 --> 00:29:00,535 Well, I started yesterday. 421 00:29:00,635 --> 00:29:03,714 You know, it keeps you thin. 422 00:29:06,914 --> 00:29:08,494 We're evacuating the store. Yep. 423 00:29:08,594 --> 00:29:10,614 We really need to get out of the store. 424 00:29:10,714 --> 00:29:12,294 If you need to cover yourself up with this. 425 00:29:12,394 --> 00:29:14,613 What? Excuse me, please. Thank you. 426 00:29:14,713 --> 00:29:18,713 Let's just go, thank you. 427 00:29:21,793 --> 00:29:23,792 Oh, my God. I'm so sorry, Rae. 428 00:29:25,112 --> 00:29:29,112 Just ignore them, Rae. 429 00:29:34,351 --> 00:29:37,251 Oi, Jabba! D'you want this burger? I've lost my appetite. 430 00:29:37,351 --> 00:29:39,051 Rae? Jabba, Jabba, Jabba! 431 00:29:39,151 --> 00:29:40,691 Oh, my God, no! What's going on? 432 00:29:40,791 --> 00:29:42,530 Jabba, Jabba, Jabba! What's going on? 433 00:29:42,630 --> 00:29:44,630 Just ignore them, Rae. 434 00:30:10,267 --> 00:30:13,207 One. 435 00:30:13,307 --> 00:30:14,887 Two. 436 00:30:14,987 --> 00:30:17,407 Three. 437 00:30:17,507 --> 00:30:21,286 Four. Five. 438 00:30:21,386 --> 00:30:23,406 Six. 439 00:30:23,506 --> 00:30:27,126 Seven. 440 00:30:27,226 --> 00:30:29,765 Eight. 441 00:30:29,865 --> 00:30:33,865 Nine. 442 00:31:45,817 --> 00:31:47,557 I'm back. 443 00:31:47,657 --> 00:31:49,797 I lasted, what? 444 00:31:49,897 --> 00:31:53,036 Two days? 445 00:31:53,136 --> 00:31:55,676 Something happened. 446 00:31:55,776 --> 00:31:58,336 It was so embarrassing. 447 00:32:00,936 --> 00:32:04,935 My skin feels itchy with it. 448 00:32:05,775 --> 00:32:09,075 I hate to think that people would have gone home and... 449 00:32:09,175 --> 00:32:11,954 talked about it... 450 00:32:12,054 --> 00:32:14,594 like it was a joke... 451 00:32:14,694 --> 00:32:18,694 over their Yorkshire puddings or summat. 452 00:32:22,653 --> 00:32:26,653 It's too much out there. 453 00:32:27,933 --> 00:32:31,932 I don't even know how to explain it. 454 00:32:33,212 --> 00:32:37,212 It smashes up all of your senses. 455 00:32:39,851 --> 00:32:43,851 I'm not strong enough to deal with it all on my own. 456 00:32:56,010 --> 00:33:00,009 Tissue, please, Fatty. 457 00:33:16,927 --> 00:33:20,947 What are you doing here? 458 00:33:21,047 --> 00:33:23,187 I've, um... 459 00:33:23,287 --> 00:33:24,307 I've got some good news. 460 00:33:24,407 --> 00:33:25,866 What? 461 00:33:25,966 --> 00:33:28,386 Decided to come back. 462 00:33:28,486 --> 00:33:32,486 I just don't think I'm ready. 463 00:33:43,325 --> 00:33:44,584 What are you doing? 464 00:33:44,684 --> 00:33:48,684 Stop it! Stop it! 465 00:33:50,324 --> 00:33:53,624 Just stop it! 466 00:33:53,724 --> 00:33:57,223 Everyone in here is holding on to their lives by their fingertips, Rae. 467 00:33:57,323 --> 00:34:00,423 And you get given a chance to start again 468 00:34:00,523 --> 00:34:04,622 and you don't want it! 469 00:34:04,722 --> 00:34:06,942 I don't like it out there. 470 00:34:07,042 --> 00:34:11,042 No! You don't like it anywhere, because you don't like yourself. 471 00:34:13,321 --> 00:34:15,661 You'd better start doing. 472 00:34:15,761 --> 00:34:19,461 Because I've been trying to be more like you for months. 473 00:34:19,561 --> 00:34:23,560 And if there's no hope for you then what hope is there for me? 474 00:34:24,920 --> 00:34:28,980 What if something bad happened, something really bad? 475 00:34:29,080 --> 00:34:32,179 I tried counting to ten, and it didn't work. 476 00:34:32,279 --> 00:34:36,279 Then you put on your Rae armour and you charge at it. 477 00:34:39,679 --> 00:34:43,678 Promise me you won't come back. 478 00:34:45,358 --> 00:34:49,358 But I really miss you. 479 00:35:04,676 --> 00:35:08,676 So, the pool party. 480 00:35:10,475 --> 00:35:12,975 Turn up to a pool party with a bag of booze nicked from your mum, 481 00:35:13,075 --> 00:35:17,075 and no-one'll care if you swim or not. 482 00:35:17,395 --> 00:35:19,954 But how to escape? 483 00:35:25,874 --> 00:35:27,873 Ah! 484 00:35:34,713 --> 00:35:37,052 Jesus, Rae! 485 00:35:37,152 --> 00:35:39,312 You've bloody ruined my flowerbeds. 486 00:35:40,912 --> 00:35:43,112 All right, all right. 487 00:35:47,151 --> 00:35:48,531 You smell like a brewery. 488 00:35:48,631 --> 00:35:51,411 Next time you wanna borrow some booze, just ask. 489 00:35:51,511 --> 00:35:55,511 We haven't got the right guttering for sneaking in and out of windows. 490 00:35:57,390 --> 00:35:59,530 Take off your top off. Let's have a look at your back. 491 00:35:59,630 --> 00:36:00,970 No! No way! 492 00:36:01,070 --> 00:36:03,130 Come on. It's not like I haven't seen it all before. 493 00:36:03,230 --> 00:36:06,049 When you were little, you used to run around naked all the time. 494 00:36:06,149 --> 00:36:09,929 Yeah, well, I'm not a kid any more. 495 00:36:10,029 --> 00:36:12,029 Karim. 496 00:36:15,428 --> 00:36:19,428 Right, let's have a look at your back. 497 00:36:20,108 --> 00:36:21,128 Ow! 498 00:36:21,228 --> 00:36:23,088 Right, right. It's just a bruise. 499 00:36:23,188 --> 00:36:26,947 OK. 500 00:36:32,307 --> 00:36:36,046 You sure you're all right about going to the pub and things? 501 00:36:36,146 --> 00:36:37,686 I do worry about you, you know. 502 00:36:37,786 --> 00:36:40,206 I'm fine. 503 00:36:40,306 --> 00:36:44,305 Are you still going to this pool thing today, then? 504 00:36:46,225 --> 00:36:48,765 It doesn't matter what people think about you. 505 00:36:48,865 --> 00:36:52,004 Yeah, you're not the one who has to stand in a swimming costume 506 00:36:52,104 --> 00:36:55,324 next to Chloe with her gravity-defying boobs. 507 00:36:55,424 --> 00:36:59,424 I'm gonna look like a condom filled with Bolognese sauce. 508 00:37:01,983 --> 00:37:05,203 You remember when you were little, and we went to Butlin's, 509 00:37:05,303 --> 00:37:09,303 and you said I had a big arse in front of Sally Crowther's parents? 510 00:37:09,863 --> 00:37:12,562 No. 511 00:37:12,662 --> 00:37:14,482 Why, did it upset you? 512 00:37:14,582 --> 00:37:17,962 You get used to it. 513 00:37:18,062 --> 00:37:19,362 Besides, I was sleeping 514 00:37:19,462 --> 00:37:23,461 with Sally Crowther's dad at the time, so made no odds, really. 515 00:37:26,781 --> 00:37:30,780 Got it. Yep. 516 00:37:32,500 --> 00:37:35,200 I'm sorry about what I said the other day. 517 00:37:35,300 --> 00:37:39,299 In the kitchen. 518 00:37:41,299 --> 00:37:42,359 Wait. 519 00:37:42,459 --> 00:37:43,399 Got it. Mum... 520 00:37:43,499 --> 00:37:45,079 It's all right. Look, look, look. 521 00:37:45,179 --> 00:37:49,178 Oh! 522 00:37:53,058 --> 00:37:57,058 Rae? 523 00:37:57,937 --> 00:37:59,717 Hey, Rae. Hey. 524 00:37:59,817 --> 00:38:03,077 There's something different about you today. 525 00:38:03,177 --> 00:38:06,317 Where's your inflatable crocodile? 526 00:38:06,417 --> 00:38:08,676 Actually, I thought you were fantastic. 527 00:38:08,776 --> 00:38:11,716 There's not many people that could have styled that out like you did. 528 00:38:11,816 --> 00:38:15,816 Come on. Let's stay here and chat. I don't fancy a swim. 529 00:38:18,495 --> 00:38:19,475 Why not? 530 00:38:19,575 --> 00:38:21,395 I don't really wanna talk about it. 531 00:38:21,495 --> 00:38:22,795 Tell me. No. 532 00:38:22,895 --> 00:38:24,355 You'll laugh. 533 00:38:24,455 --> 00:38:25,594 Maybe. 534 00:38:25,694 --> 00:38:28,354 Um... 535 00:38:28,454 --> 00:38:31,474 Well, er... 536 00:38:31,574 --> 00:38:32,794 I've got spots on my back. 537 00:38:32,894 --> 00:38:37,073 Like, back acne. 538 00:38:37,173 --> 00:38:38,553 Bacne? Yeah. 539 00:38:38,653 --> 00:38:39,833 Show me. 540 00:38:39,933 --> 00:38:40,993 No way. 541 00:38:41,093 --> 00:38:43,113 Show me. 542 00:38:43,213 --> 00:38:46,112 Show me. 543 00:38:46,212 --> 00:38:50,212 No laughing. All right. 544 00:38:51,212 --> 00:38:52,552 'Oh, my God. 545 00:38:52,652 --> 00:38:55,791 'Even his spots were really sexy!' 546 00:38:55,891 --> 00:38:56,871 Well? 547 00:38:56,971 --> 00:39:00,971 Well, there's hardly anything there. No-one's gonna see anything. 548 00:39:01,531 --> 00:39:05,530 Look, let's make a deal. I'll go in if you go in. 549 00:39:07,290 --> 00:39:11,290 All right. 550 00:39:13,129 --> 00:39:15,689 Aarghhh...! 551 00:39:55,525 --> 00:39:57,525 Stop it! 552 00:40:07,324 --> 00:40:08,663 Is there something wrong? 553 00:40:08,763 --> 00:40:09,503 No. Why? 554 00:40:09,603 --> 00:40:12,263 So, why aren't you getting involved? 555 00:40:12,363 --> 00:40:13,783 I'm DJ-ing. Dur. 556 00:40:13,883 --> 00:40:17,423 Well, we don't need a DJ. Just stick on NOW 33. 557 00:40:17,523 --> 00:40:20,502 Are you kidding me? It's got Father And Son by Boyzone on it. 558 00:40:20,602 --> 00:40:23,262 Yeah, well, we'll just get out and skip it. 559 00:40:23,362 --> 00:40:27,362 You're not gonna make friends if you sit on the sidelines all the time. 560 00:40:28,881 --> 00:40:31,901 Are people talking about that? 561 00:40:32,001 --> 00:40:33,501 They might be. 562 00:40:33,601 --> 00:40:37,600 Look, you don't want people thinking you're weird, do you? 563 00:40:37,920 --> 00:40:40,620 You don't want people thinking you're not normal. 564 00:40:40,720 --> 00:40:44,720 Just come in. 565 00:40:45,920 --> 00:40:49,919 You are boring. 566 00:41:04,638 --> 00:41:05,657 Get on my back! 567 00:41:05,757 --> 00:41:07,177 No! Get on my back. 568 00:41:07,277 --> 00:41:09,317 I wanna see how long you can hold your breath. 569 00:41:25,075 --> 00:41:29,075 Oh, God. 570 00:41:41,234 --> 00:41:43,893 So, that's it. You went to a party... 571 00:41:43,993 --> 00:41:47,993 and the party was OK. 572 00:41:49,713 --> 00:41:53,712 Rae, these sessions are meant to be a time when you can open up, 573 00:41:54,832 --> 00:41:58,832 discuss with someone, confidentially, how you're really feeling. 574 00:41:59,232 --> 00:42:03,231 I told you. It was all right. 575 00:42:04,671 --> 00:42:06,491 Tell me how you're feeling right now, 576 00:42:06,591 --> 00:42:10,590 but be honest. 577 00:42:11,110 --> 00:42:15,050 OK. I'll tell you how l feel, yeah? 578 00:42:15,150 --> 00:42:17,010 Two weeks ago, my wife kicked me out. 579 00:42:17,110 --> 00:42:19,530 I've been stopping on my brother's couch ever since. 580 00:42:19,630 --> 00:42:22,409 This morning, I wake up, and there's no milk. 581 00:42:22,509 --> 00:42:25,889 I bought that fucking milk, and he used it to drown his Sugar Puffs in. 582 00:42:25,989 --> 00:42:29,328 So, with no cup of coffee, I come to work, I get shat on by a pigeon, 583 00:42:29,428 --> 00:42:33,428 I meet my new patient, and she's about as open as a nun's foo. 584 00:42:37,948 --> 00:42:41,947 So...how do you feel? 585 00:42:43,547 --> 00:42:46,327 Pffff... 586 00:42:46,427 --> 00:42:50,426 I feel like I hate being here. 587 00:42:51,466 --> 00:42:53,726 I feel like I hate this room. 588 00:42:53,826 --> 00:42:57,645 What do you hate most about it? 589 00:42:57,745 --> 00:42:59,245 Well, the pictures. 590 00:42:59,345 --> 00:43:03,345 They're shit. 591 00:43:17,223 --> 00:43:20,763 Won't you get into trouble for that? 592 00:43:20,863 --> 00:43:22,243 No. If anyone asks, I'll tell them that you did it. 593 00:43:22,343 --> 00:43:23,563 I'll say you're lying. 594 00:43:23,663 --> 00:43:26,362 Who will they believe? I'm not the one with a history of mental illness. 595 00:43:26,462 --> 00:43:27,882 Oh, wow! 596 00:43:27,982 --> 00:43:29,922 What about the ink blot? 597 00:43:30,022 --> 00:43:33,522 Oh, that reminds me of a sanitary towel. 598 00:43:33,622 --> 00:43:37,621 Then out it goes. 599 00:43:39,261 --> 00:43:41,261 Oh! 600 00:43:42,341 --> 00:43:45,240 What about Buster Keaton here? 601 00:43:45,340 --> 00:43:49,340 No. I quite like that one. 602 00:43:50,260 --> 00:43:54,259 Yeah. Me too. 603 00:44:00,339 --> 00:44:03,798 What did your instincts say about me... 604 00:44:03,898 --> 00:44:07,898 after five seconds? 605 00:44:09,178 --> 00:44:10,758 I can't remember. 606 00:44:10,858 --> 00:44:14,857 I don't believe you. 607 00:44:16,337 --> 00:44:20,117 My instincts said... 608 00:44:20,217 --> 00:44:24,216 that you see yourself as a fragile thing. 609 00:44:24,696 --> 00:44:26,476 Like a little broken bird 610 00:44:26,576 --> 00:44:29,796 sloshing around in a bottle. 611 00:44:29,896 --> 00:44:33,895 But if you trust me, if we trust each other... 612 00:44:34,255 --> 00:44:38,115 that you'll be all right. 613 00:44:38,215 --> 00:44:42,214 Because, basically, I think you're a pretty tough cookie. 614 00:45:01,852 --> 00:45:04,832 - Chop? - Yes, my dear. 615 00:45:04,932 --> 00:45:07,912 Come and use those big swans you've been building 616 00:45:08,012 --> 00:45:10,271 to prise my fat butt out of this slide. 617 00:45:10,371 --> 00:45:14,371 Not a problem, Rae. 618 00:45:23,050 --> 00:45:26,150 Barman! A lemon Hooch if you'd be so kind. 619 00:45:26,250 --> 00:45:28,249 And turn that shit off. 620 00:45:36,049 --> 00:45:38,388 Who's going to the chippy, cos I'm yamming? 621 00:45:38,488 --> 00:45:40,508 Oh, maybe we should play a game for it. 622 00:45:40,608 --> 00:45:42,668 All right. Yeah. I've got a good one. 623 00:45:42,768 --> 00:45:43,988 What? 624 00:45:44,088 --> 00:45:45,428 Maybe... 625 00:45:45,528 --> 00:45:49,527 last one into the pool should go. 626 00:45:52,487 --> 00:45:53,507 Whoo! 627 00:45:53,607 --> 00:45:55,306 Weh-hey! 628 00:45:55,406 --> 00:45:58,746 Whoo! 629 00:45:58,846 --> 00:46:02,586 'The doctors looked at my legs and said didn't it hurt? 630 00:46:02,686 --> 00:46:05,625 '"Didn't it hurt so much when you were doing it 631 00:46:05,725 --> 00:46:07,505 '"that it burnt to breathe?" 632 00:46:07,605 --> 00:46:11,605 'At least they remind me that I survived. 633 00:46:12,285 --> 00:46:16,284 'But only just. 634 00:46:17,964 --> 00:46:21,624 'I can't believe I've actually got a group of friends. 635 00:46:21,724 --> 00:46:25,723 'I can't believe I'm finally out.' 636 00:46:26,243 --> 00:46:29,843 'I can't believe they actually think I'm getting better.'