1
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Are you going to be
a good sub and do as I say?

2
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Yes.

3
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Yes, what?
Yes, sir.

4
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And why will you submit
to me in this way?

5
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Because I am your sub, sir.

6
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That's right. And
why are you my sub?

7
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Because you are worthy
of being my dom.

8
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Good girl.

9
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The story I'm about
to tell you may shock you.

10
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Make you feel uncomfortable...
even scared.

11
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But not for the
reasons you think.

12
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Mom!
Hey, sweetheart.

13
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Chad's mom says not to pick him up on
Thursday. He's not going to practice.

14
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Thank you. Now why don't you go take your
dirty uniform off and put in the laundry?

15
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This is my story. And it's real.

16
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It's not a fantasy
or a nightmare,

17
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although it has
elements of both.

18
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It's a story of liberation
through sex,

19
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power, domination,

20
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submission... and love.

21
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The story has its
beginnings, like many,

22
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in what I now see was
a very unhealthy marriage.

23
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Woo-hoo!! Take that, jerk-off!

24
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Tyler! How many times
do I have to tell you

25
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to turn that game off?

26
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And don't talk like that.

27
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Hello?
Hey. How's it going?

28
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Oh, hey! Um, good. I guess
you got checked in okay?

29
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Obviously, or I wouldn't be
calling you right now. Listen,

30
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I'm gonna stick around for a couple extra
days, do some golfing with a few of the guys.

31
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Oh. Okay. Well, as long

32
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as you're gonna be
back by Halloween?

33
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Yes, Delaine, how many times
do you have to ask me?

34
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I will be back to take the
kids trick-or-treating.

35
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Mommy, is that Daddy?

36
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Yes, it is, sweetheart.
Tyler, it's time for dinner.

37
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Amanda wants to talk to you,
hold on one second.

38
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No, listen, Delaine, I gotta go. I
gotta meet some guys down at the bar.

39
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I'll call you tomorrow, okay?

40
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Okay.

41
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I wanted to say hi to Daddy!

42
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Oh, I know, I'm sorry,
sweetheart.

43
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I promise we'll call him
tomorrow, okay?

44
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Okay.

45
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Now, napkins on our laps.

46
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I didn't know it then, but this
was the beginning of the end.

47
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For years, I'd single-handedly
raised our two children

48
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while my husband made a living.
He was rarely around,

49
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and when he was,
his attention was elsewhere.

50
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So when he was home,
I tried to keep the peace

51
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for the sake of our kids,
and when he was gone,

52
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I just made excuses.

53
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Hello?

54
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Is Robert there?

55
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No. He's away for work.
Who is this?

56
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Chubbo's Bar & Grill.

57
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Hi. I just got a call
from this number.

58
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It was a woman asking for
my husband, Robert Morris.

59
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Uh, that was Natasha.

60
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Just hang up on her.

61
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Just hang up!
No, please, don't hang up!

62
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Hello?

63
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Your girlfriend just called.

64
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What girlfriend? What are
you talking about? Natasha.

65
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Okay, listen to me.

66
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I'm coming home.
I'm coming home right now.

67
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Robert insisted
he wasn't in love

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with Natasha.
It was purely sexual.

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He said the affair was my fault.

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If I'd been more
interested in sex,

71
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he wouldn't have gone
looking for it elsewhere.

72
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So I tried.

73
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Somehow, I managed to twist the
betrayal I felt into anger at myself

74
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for being an inferior wife, and
instead of demanding that he leave,

75
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I forgave him...

76
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even though the act
of sex made me feel

77
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even less connected to him.

78
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Jim said Robert invited him to go
to the car show this weekend, so...

79
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Oh, gosh!
What just happened?

80
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Every once in a while,
I get this searing pain

81
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in my hip. It's...

82
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I've been to three doctors and none
of them can tell me what's wrong.

83
00:05:09,309 --> 00:05:12,593
That's because western medicine sucks.
Oh.

84
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You need to go see an acupuncturist.
When I had that thing with my neck,

85
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it's the only thing that worked.
The guy I saw was good.

86
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I'll give you
his number. Graham

87
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is the name.
Okay.

88
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Here it is.

89
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An acupuncturist?

90
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You know that stuff's just
a bunch of phony crap, right?

91
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There's no scientific evidence

92
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that sticking needles
into your skin relieves pain.

93
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I just haven't slept through the
night for weeks. I wanna try it.

94
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Okay, fine.

95
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Try it. But we're going
to cancel your gym membership.

96
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So the choice is yours.
You can have

97
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some tree-hugger stick
you with needles,

98
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or you can have your spin class.

99
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Up to you.

100
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Over the years, I had deferred
so many decisions to my husband

101
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that I wondered if I was capable of
even making a right choice anymore.

102
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I hadn't always been like that.

103
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I could remember a time
when I was confident and happy

104
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and could hold my own
in any situation.

105
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Acupuncture is the study
of the body as a whole.

106
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Qi is the energy
that flows through us.

107
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When it's interrupted,

108
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you have pain. But
that doesn't mean

109
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that the block is in the hip. It
might be somewhere else in the body.

110
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You can sit up now.

111
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So since your doctors have
ruled out organ malfunction

112
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and you don't have any injuries,

113
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let's talk about
your emotional health.

114
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Can you think of anything that
might be causing you stress?

115
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No, everything's good.

116
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Well, it may take
a few sessions,

117
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but we'll figure it out.

118
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There was something about Graham
that made me feel... centered.

119
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His sessions helped me so much

120
00:07:04,902 --> 00:07:07,012
that I started going
twice a week.

121
00:07:07,035 --> 00:07:10,450
And about a month in,
I had what you might call...

122
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a breakthrough.

123
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What did today's
session trigger?

124
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My husband had an affair.

125
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You're the first person
I've told.

126
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I can't really blame him,
though. I looked her up online,

127
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she's gorgeous.
Delaine,

128
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his cheating had to do
with him, not you.

129
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I just want him to be
attracted to me.

130
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He says he will

131
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after I get breast implants.

132
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Whose idea was that?

133
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Mine. Sort of.

134
00:08:04,658 --> 00:08:06,811
I just want him to be happy.

135
00:08:06,834 --> 00:08:09,010
Are you happy?

136
00:08:11,186 --> 00:08:13,818
I will be.

137
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When I feel like
I'm enough for him.

138
00:08:20,456 --> 00:08:22,545
Delaine, uh...

139
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For there to be real love
between two people,

140
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there has to be a spiritual
relationship.

141
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A physical relationship

142
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without the spiritual
is like a body with no soul.

143
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You have a beautiful spirit.

144
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See, women have a feminine
energy that we don't.

145
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So the masculine energy

146
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craves the feminine one
for completion.

147
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That's why it's more about
a spiritual connection

148
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than a physical one.

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You exude that feminine energy.

150
00:09:05,675 --> 00:09:08,548
And that is why
you are so alluring.

151
00:09:12,943 --> 00:09:16,794
Graham's words made me feel
attractive again.

152
00:09:16,817 --> 00:09:19,623
For years, I had just turned
my head and ignored it

153
00:09:19,646 --> 00:09:21,407
when Robert would stare at a
beautiful woman in a restaurant

154
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or at the store.

155
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But when I thought of Graham,

156
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I thought of a man who
couldn't keep his eyes off me.

157
00:09:29,351 --> 00:09:33,181
For once, I was
the object of desire.

158
00:09:35,487 --> 00:09:38,337
And on nights
when Robert was gone,

159
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I began to imagine
what it would feel like

160
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to make love to Graham.

161
00:09:43,670 --> 00:09:47,085
I did feel guilty fantasizing about
someone who wasn't my husband.

162
00:09:47,108 --> 00:09:49,435
But those fantasies
awoke something in me

163
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that had been gone a long time.

164
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You're making progress.

165
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It doesn't hurt like it used to.

166
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Well, normally I'd tell you that
you don't need to come in as often.

167
00:10:06,867 --> 00:10:08,869
But I'm not going to say that.

168
00:10:33,371 --> 00:10:36,700
I wanna make sure that
I'm not making a mistake.

169
00:10:36,723 --> 00:10:39,050
Who's saying it's a mistake?

170
00:10:39,073 --> 00:10:41,008
Your head or your heart?

171
00:10:41,031 --> 00:10:44,011
<i>♪ I want to break bread</i>

172
00:10:44,034 --> 00:10:46,666
<i>♪ With you</i>

173
00:10:46,689 --> 00:10:49,626
<i>♪ To dance amongst
the dead with you ♪</i>

174
00:10:49,649 --> 00:10:52,716
<i>♪ To fall into the arms</i>

175
00:10:52,739 --> 00:10:58,112
<i>♪ Of the sea and to breathe</i>

176
00:10:58,135 --> 00:11:03,509
<i>♪ I want to break
each rule with you ♪</i>

177
00:11:03,532 --> 00:11:07,861
<i>♪ I want to say I can be true</i>

178
00:11:07,884 --> 00:11:12,170
<i>♪ To feel your body
breaking through ♪</i>

179
00:11:12,193 --> 00:11:17,285
<i>♪ Is to breathe and
breathe and breathe ♪</i>

180
00:11:19,766 --> 00:11:22,571
Even though I was riddled
with guilt afterward,

181
00:11:22,594 --> 00:11:26,053
I did something I never
thought I would do.

182
00:11:26,076 --> 00:11:29,471
I had sex with someone
besides Robert.

183
00:11:31,212 --> 00:11:33,757
Go ahead. One, two.
There are people

184
00:11:33,780 --> 00:11:36,890
who will tell you that an affair can
actually make a marriage better.

185
00:11:36,913 --> 00:11:39,394
Okay, go again.

186
00:11:41,309 --> 00:11:45,333
Hey.

187
00:11:45,356 --> 00:11:49,163
Did you forget to pack my gray slacks?
They were at the cleaners,

188
00:11:49,186 --> 00:11:52,166
So I packed your brown ones instead
and the shirt that goes with 'em.

189
00:11:52,189 --> 00:11:54,734
Right, see,

190
00:11:54,757 --> 00:11:58,042
this is why you need to ask them
specifically for next-day service.

191
00:11:58,065 --> 00:12:00,653
It's the whole reason we
switched dry cleaners, right?

192
00:12:00,676 --> 00:12:04,048
Yeah, I guess it was.

193
00:12:04,071 --> 00:12:07,596
Yeah. Okay, I gotta go.

194
00:12:12,166 --> 00:12:14,841
It doesn't make it better.
It just gives you

195
00:12:14,864 --> 00:12:18,018
something to escape to. Whose turn is it?
Mine.

196
00:12:18,041 --> 00:12:19,890
Awesome, let's go.

197
00:12:19,913 --> 00:12:22,544
The marriage is still broken.

198
00:12:22,567 --> 00:12:25,809
A broken marriage for me,
at that time,

199
00:12:25,832 --> 00:12:28,028
seemed a better alternative
than a broken home for them,

200
00:12:28,051 --> 00:12:30,074
so I chose to stay

201
00:12:30,097 --> 00:12:32,598
with Robert. By February,

202
00:12:32,621 --> 00:12:34,469
Graham and I were embroiled

203
00:12:34,492 --> 00:12:36,602
in a full-on affair.

204
00:12:36,625 --> 00:12:38,778
For the first time in years,

205
00:12:38,801 --> 00:12:41,172
I felt loved.

206
00:12:41,195 --> 00:12:43,652
But, to protect my kids,
we never met

207
00:12:43,675 --> 00:12:46,612
where a nosy neighbor or gossipy
soccer mom might see us.

208
00:12:46,635 --> 00:12:49,049
Our meetings were confined
to his clinic

209
00:12:49,072 --> 00:12:51,835
or clandestine rendezvous
in hotel rooms.

210
00:12:51,858 --> 00:12:53,793
I don't know how to explain it.

211
00:12:53,816 --> 00:12:56,796
Robert always made me feel

212
00:12:56,819 --> 00:12:59,648
like he could do... better.

213
00:13:01,606 --> 00:13:04,412
And Graham makes me feel
like I'm the best there is.

214
00:13:04,435 --> 00:13:07,111
Okay.

215
00:13:07,134 --> 00:13:09,397
What about the kids?

216
00:13:11,399 --> 00:13:13,291
That's what I wanted
to talk to you about.

217
00:13:13,314 --> 00:13:15,772
Part of me thinks the kids

218
00:13:15,795 --> 00:13:17,774
would be better off with
Robert not around so much.

219
00:13:17,797 --> 00:13:19,624
Tyler's picking up
some of his bad habits.

220
00:13:21,670 --> 00:13:25,216
Okay, what does Graham
have to say about that?

221
00:13:25,239 --> 00:13:27,696
He says it's impossible

222
00:13:27,719 --> 00:13:31,091
to have a healthy upbringing
in an unhealthy environment.

223
00:13:31,114 --> 00:13:33,180
It's better to have two parents

224
00:13:33,203 --> 00:13:35,292
that are happy and apart than
together and dysfunctional.

225
00:13:51,787 --> 00:13:55,269
Mm-hmm... I am so horny.

226
00:13:58,402 --> 00:14:00,381
I'll go shut the door.
No, no, wait.

227
00:14:00,404 --> 00:14:03,341
When I get back
from the trade show,

228
00:14:03,364 --> 00:14:05,865
I think we should schedule
your gift to me.

229
00:14:05,888 --> 00:14:08,259
I'm gonna be around a lot more,

230
00:14:08,282 --> 00:14:10,174
I can take care of the kids
while you recover.

231
00:14:10,197 --> 00:14:13,133
And one of the guys from work

232
00:14:13,156 --> 00:14:16,180
told me his wife
had a great surgeon,

233
00:14:16,203 --> 00:14:18,683
so he's gonna send me
the doctor's info.

234
00:14:23,253 --> 00:14:26,343
What?

235
00:14:28,563 --> 00:14:30,565
I don't want breast implants.

236
00:14:34,743 --> 00:14:38,158
I don't want to stay
in this marriage.

237
00:14:38,181 --> 00:14:40,227
I want a divorce.

238
00:14:43,056 --> 00:14:47,277
You want a divorce from me?
I've thought a lot about it.

239
00:14:50,454 --> 00:14:52,390
So that's it?

240
00:14:52,413 --> 00:14:55,175
No discussion?
Nothing?

241
00:14:55,198 --> 00:14:57,569
You don't want a boob job
and you're leaving now?

242
00:14:57,592 --> 00:14:59,942
Please. Keep your voice down.

243
00:15:04,468 --> 00:15:06,708
This marriage hasn't worked
for a long time, Robert.

244
00:15:06,731 --> 00:15:08,754
What are you talking about?

245
00:15:08,777 --> 00:15:11,844
We've been happier now
than we have in years!

246
00:15:11,867 --> 00:15:16,045
I'm not happy.
Oh, right, okay.

247
00:15:18,265 --> 00:15:20,331
So, what's it going to take
to make Delaine happy?

248
00:15:20,354 --> 00:15:24,509
I don't know if you can.

249
00:15:24,532 --> 00:15:26,534
I don't know if you care to.

250
00:15:29,624 --> 00:15:31,733
Do you have any idea

251
00:15:31,756 --> 00:15:33,735
how selfish and
ungrateful you are?

252
00:15:33,758 --> 00:15:37,000
Hmm?

253
00:15:37,023 --> 00:15:39,002
Do you know how many women would
love to have what you have?

254
00:15:39,025 --> 00:15:41,961
A husband who provides
for his wife and kids

255
00:15:41,984 --> 00:15:44,268
so she can just sit
around the house all day?

256
00:15:44,291 --> 00:15:47,271
I don't sit around the house
all day, Robert.

257
00:15:47,294 --> 00:15:49,708
Come on!

258
00:15:49,731 --> 00:15:51,971
You have no idea
how good you have it.

259
00:15:51,994 --> 00:15:55,258
None.

260
00:15:58,348 --> 00:16:00,394
I don't know what else to say.

261
00:16:02,874 --> 00:16:05,942
I just want this to end.

262
00:16:05,965 --> 00:16:08,945
No, you know what, actually,
I don't think you do.

263
00:16:08,968 --> 00:16:11,599
I think this is just
some kind of ploy

264
00:16:11,622 --> 00:16:14,124
so you can get more attention.

265
00:16:14,147 --> 00:16:16,714
Poor Delaine, she's not fulfilled
in her marriage, right?

266
00:16:18,803 --> 00:16:21,131
You know what? I don't have time
for this crap right now.

267
00:16:21,154 --> 00:16:23,263
I worked today.

268
00:16:23,286 --> 00:16:26,701
I busted my hump to provide
for you and the kids.

269
00:16:26,724 --> 00:16:28,790
So you know what?

270
00:16:28,813 --> 00:16:31,184
If you think I'm that bad,
just go sleep on the couch.

271
00:16:31,207 --> 00:16:34,753
This is my bed.
I bought it.

272
00:16:34,776 --> 00:16:37,909
Go have your little pity party
somewhere else.

273
00:16:39,520 --> 00:16:41,478
Go.

274
00:16:55,144 --> 00:16:58,820
I hadn't planned on telling
Robert the way I did.

275
00:16:58,843 --> 00:17:02,868
It just came out because I couldn't
keep it inside any longer.

276
00:17:02,891 --> 00:17:05,566
I felt such a mix of emotions.

277
00:17:05,589 --> 00:17:07,568
Relief that the marriage
was finally over.

278
00:17:07,591 --> 00:17:10,093
Happiness that I could
start over with Graham.

279
00:17:10,116 --> 00:17:12,573
Fear of how vindictive
Robert would be

280
00:17:12,596 --> 00:17:14,619
during the divorce.

281
00:17:14,642 --> 00:17:17,056
And guilt.

282
00:17:17,079 --> 00:17:19,885
Incredible guilt that I was
taking my children's family

283
00:17:19,908 --> 00:17:22,540
away from them.

284
00:17:22,563 --> 00:17:25,760
Did Robert move out yet?

285
00:17:25,783 --> 00:17:30,548
He's going to this weekend.
Did you tell him about Graham? No!

286
00:17:30,571 --> 00:17:33,290
No, I'm afraid he'll hold it
against me with the kids,

287
00:17:33,313 --> 00:17:35,901
you know, "Your mother's
leaving me for another guy."

288
00:17:35,924 --> 00:17:37,685
Do they know
you're separating yet?

289
00:17:37,708 --> 00:17:40,166
Robert thinks I should be
the one to tell them.

290
00:17:40,189 --> 00:17:43,735
So he's getting his stuff out, the
kids and I are gonna leave the house,

291
00:17:43,758 --> 00:17:47,347
and then I will sit them down
and explain it to them.

292
00:17:47,370 --> 00:17:50,307
I'm dreading it.

293
00:17:50,330 --> 00:17:54,833
There are a lot worse things
than having divorced parents.

294
00:17:54,856 --> 00:17:57,206
Not to a four-year-old.

295
00:18:00,514 --> 00:18:04,300
Okay, so we're gonna have
a really important talk.

296
00:18:06,389 --> 00:18:09,978
You know how... well, me
and Daddy haven't been...

297
00:18:10,001 --> 00:18:12,590
very happy lately?

298
00:18:12,613 --> 00:18:15,268
We've been sad.

299
00:18:17,748 --> 00:18:21,033
Well, sometimes...

300
00:18:21,056 --> 00:18:23,166
in order for mommies and daddies

301
00:18:23,189 --> 00:18:25,429
to continue to be
really good parents,

302
00:18:25,452 --> 00:18:27,605
we have to do things

303
00:18:27,628 --> 00:18:30,999
that don't make sense.

304
00:18:31,022 --> 00:18:32,871
Are you getting a divorce??

305
00:18:32,894 --> 00:18:35,265
Yes, sweetheart.

306
00:18:35,288 --> 00:18:37,333
We are.

307
00:18:39,335 --> 00:18:41,314
We decided

308
00:18:41,337 --> 00:18:44,230
that Mom and Dad are gonna live
in separate houses.

309
00:18:44,253 --> 00:18:46,168
Why?

310
00:18:48,518 --> 00:18:51,672
Because that way
we can all be really happy.

311
00:18:51,695 --> 00:18:55,937
It'll be like your friend
Hannah. She lives

312
00:18:55,960 --> 00:18:59,941
with her mom and her dad...

313
00:18:59,964 --> 00:19:02,901
I know it seems like
a really big change,

314
00:19:02,924 --> 00:19:06,383
and it's hard
to understand right now,

315
00:19:06,406 --> 00:19:08,341
but it really is the best thing

316
00:19:08,364 --> 00:19:10,343
for all of us, I promise you.

317
00:19:10,366 --> 00:19:12,606
No! I don't want it!

318
00:19:12,629 --> 00:19:16,285
I hate you!
Tyler, please...

319
00:19:21,725 --> 00:19:24,815
It's okay, Mommy.
I'm not mad at you.

320
00:19:30,169 --> 00:19:33,389
I just love you both so much.

321
00:19:35,652 --> 00:19:38,415
The spring had brought with it
a sense of revival for me.

322
00:19:38,438 --> 00:19:40,504
Freedom.

323
00:19:40,527 --> 00:19:42,506
And it came through Graham.

324
00:19:42,529 --> 00:19:45,248
I was scared to be on my own,
but somehow I knew

325
00:19:45,271 --> 00:19:47,554
I just had to keep
moving forward.

326
00:19:47,577 --> 00:19:49,687
Even Tyler began to have
moments where he would

327
00:19:49,710 --> 00:19:53,081
smile and laugh.

328
00:19:53,104 --> 00:19:54,996
I finally felt like my life was
moving in the right direction.

329
00:19:55,019 --> 00:19:58,957
Mom! Look! Hannah's here!

330
00:19:58,980 --> 00:20:02,830
Oh! You can go say hi if you want, honey.
Just hold on to your sister's hand. Sara!

331
00:20:02,853 --> 00:20:06,094
Hey!
Hi!

332
00:20:06,117 --> 00:20:09,359
How are you?

333
00:20:09,382 --> 00:20:12,666
It's nice to see you.
I see you completely got suckered

334
00:20:12,689 --> 00:20:15,234
into this place as well.
Yeah, it's the only way

335
00:20:15,257 --> 00:20:16,757
I can bribe Hannah
to go to the dentist.

336
00:20:16,780 --> 00:20:19,717
Oh...
So, how are you?

337
00:20:19,740 --> 00:20:21,980
I haven't had a chance to talk
to you since Robert moved out.

338
00:20:22,003 --> 00:20:24,722
That's right. I'm doing

339
00:20:24,745 --> 00:20:26,854
really well, thank you.

340
00:20:26,877 --> 00:20:29,683
Really?
Yeah.

341
00:20:29,706 --> 00:20:31,207
That look makes me think
you've met someone.

342
00:20:31,230 --> 00:20:34,297
I have.

343
00:20:34,320 --> 00:20:36,995
He's wonderful.

344
00:20:37,018 --> 00:20:39,302
What's he like?

345
00:20:39,325 --> 00:20:42,392
He's... tall,

346
00:20:42,415 --> 00:20:44,959
dark and handsome.

347
00:20:44,982 --> 00:20:47,266
He's thin, super fit.

348
00:20:47,289 --> 00:20:49,312
He's a big runner.

349
00:20:49,335 --> 00:20:52,140
He's got these beautiful,
light, caring eyes.

350
00:20:52,163 --> 00:20:55,143
He's into spirituality
and healing.

351
00:20:55,166 --> 00:20:57,581
He's an acupuncturist.

352
00:20:57,604 --> 00:20:59,974
I don't know how to explain it,
he's just very centered.

353
00:20:59,997 --> 00:21:02,281
Well, where's his practice?

354
00:21:02,304 --> 00:21:06,047
It's over on South Main,
on the west side.

355
00:21:09,006 --> 00:21:12,183
He doesn't drive a gold SUV?
Yeah, he does!

356
00:21:15,535 --> 00:21:17,818
His name's not Graham, is it?

357
00:21:17,841 --> 00:21:20,647
Yeah! Yeah, it is.

358
00:21:20,670 --> 00:21:22,606
This is too funny!
How do you know him?

359
00:21:22,629 --> 00:21:25,783
Wow...

360
00:21:25,806 --> 00:21:28,742
Sara?

361
00:21:28,765 --> 00:21:32,442
Uh... I don't even know
how to tell you this.

362
00:21:32,465 --> 00:21:34,661
What a complete dick.

363
00:21:34,684 --> 00:21:37,011
Tell me what?

364
00:21:37,034 --> 00:21:39,341
You're starting to freak me out.

365
00:21:41,430 --> 00:21:44,323
Graham...

366
00:21:44,346 --> 00:21:47,805
is in a relationship
with another woman too.

367
00:21:47,828 --> 00:21:51,112
The woman he's with

368
00:21:51,135 --> 00:21:54,855
is having a baby in three weeks.

369
00:21:54,878 --> 00:21:57,902
No, that's not possible.
My Graham is divorced,

370
00:21:57,925 --> 00:22:00,383
he already has three kids.
It's not the same.

371
00:22:00,406 --> 00:22:03,322
Delaine, it's the same one.

372
00:22:05,411 --> 00:22:07,607
The woman that's having his baby

373
00:22:07,630 --> 00:22:11,330
is my friend. We used to go
running with him every weekend.

374
00:22:14,376 --> 00:22:17,205
I'm so sorry.

375
00:22:39,619 --> 00:22:41,859
How could you do this to me?

376
00:22:41,882 --> 00:22:43,730
After everything that I went
through with Robert?

377
00:22:43,753 --> 00:22:47,081
All the love and the trust
that I showed you?

378
00:22:47,104 --> 00:22:50,194
How long were you going
to put my life on hold?

379
00:22:52,327 --> 00:22:54,393
I don't know.
Say something

380
00:22:54,416 --> 00:22:57,788
besides 'I don't know'! Help me
make some sense out of this!

381
00:22:57,811 --> 00:23:00,573
I didn't tell you because
I didn't have the balls to.

382
00:23:00,596 --> 00:23:02,662
Is that what you wanna hear?

383
00:23:02,685 --> 00:23:05,230
I don't know, I guess

384
00:23:05,253 --> 00:23:08,320
I figured you'd
find out eventually,

385
00:23:08,343 --> 00:23:10,627
and you did.

386
00:23:10,650 --> 00:23:13,630
That's what I'm gonna get?

387
00:23:13,653 --> 00:23:17,416
After the crap about a spiritual connection
and how I should be enough for someone?

388
00:23:17,439 --> 00:23:20,332
Well, clearly I wasn't
enough for you!

389
00:23:20,355 --> 00:23:21,899
I wasn't lying when I said
you're a beautiful person...

390
00:23:21,922 --> 00:23:24,815
I left my husband
for you, Graham!

391
00:23:24,838 --> 00:23:28,471
That's not true. You left your husband
because he didn't love and appreciate you.

392
00:23:28,494 --> 00:23:30,757
Well, neither did you.

393
00:23:37,851 --> 00:23:40,526
This was my punishment,
I thought.

394
00:23:40,549 --> 00:23:44,704
For having an affair while I was still
married. For wanting more than I had.

395
00:23:44,727 --> 00:23:48,142
My head was still so messed up
from Robert, and at the time,

396
00:23:48,165 --> 00:23:51,232
part of me still felt like I
didn't deserve anything better.

397
00:23:51,255 --> 00:23:53,409
I know better now,

398
00:23:53,432 --> 00:23:55,976
but back then, I was still
in the old habit of believing

399
00:23:55,999 --> 00:23:58,262
everything was my fault.

400
00:24:06,009 --> 00:24:09,816
You're getting divorced,
Delaine.

401
00:24:09,839 --> 00:24:11,775
You're not dead.
She's right, you know.

402
00:24:11,798 --> 00:24:13,820
After my divorce,
I tried online dating

403
00:24:13,843 --> 00:24:15,866
and I loved it.

404
00:24:15,889 --> 00:24:18,738
It's like choosing men or women
out of a catalog. Women?!

405
00:24:18,761 --> 00:24:22,002
Yeah. It was something I always
wanted to try. Good lord.

406
00:24:22,025 --> 00:24:25,092
I don't know anything
about this lesbian thing,

407
00:24:25,115 --> 00:24:27,660
but I agree with
the online dating.

408
00:24:27,683 --> 00:24:29,662
It just sounds weird to you

409
00:24:29,685 --> 00:24:31,969
because it wasn't invented

410
00:24:31,992 --> 00:24:34,406
when you and Robert tied the knot.

411
00:24:34,429 --> 00:24:37,278
Who's gonna want to date a
36-year-old with two small kids?

412
00:24:37,301 --> 00:24:39,019
I think these could be cute.

413
00:24:39,042 --> 00:24:42,283
Very cute. Put it on my list.
Why would they care?

414
00:24:42,306 --> 00:24:44,242
It's not like you're bringing
your kids on the date!

415
00:24:44,265 --> 00:24:46,331
Just drink, dance,

416
00:24:46,354 --> 00:24:48,725
and have sloppy sex.

417
00:24:48,748 --> 00:24:50,683
That's not the kind
of date I want!

418
00:24:50,706 --> 00:24:52,946
I want a relationship.
A real one.

419
00:24:52,969 --> 00:24:55,819
With a guy that's
kind of like Graham,

420
00:24:55,842 --> 00:24:57,951
just faithful.

421
00:24:57,974 --> 00:25:01,433
Pretty sure I deserve that.
You definitely do. First off,

422
00:25:01,456 --> 00:25:04,480
there are lots of great guys out there
who are not gonna be intimidated

423
00:25:04,503 --> 00:25:07,395
by your entourage
of little munchkins.

424
00:25:07,418 --> 00:25:10,486
I just don't understand why
you have to find Mr. Right.

425
00:25:10,509 --> 00:25:13,619
Start with Mr. Tonight.

426
00:25:13,642 --> 00:25:16,927
She doesn't want a one-night stand.
She wants what's always been missing

427
00:25:16,950 --> 00:25:19,190
from her life... a guy who
will love and respect her.

428
00:25:19,213 --> 00:25:22,541
That's never gonna happen sleeping
with a guy three hours after meeting.

429
00:25:22,564 --> 00:25:26,284
Okay, the 1950s called and they
want their sexual politics back.

430
00:25:26,307 --> 00:25:30,331
Old-fashioned or not, she's too
good to be somebody's booty call.

431
00:25:30,354 --> 00:25:34,466
You know, a guy that respects women,
and I mean truly respects women,

432
00:25:34,489 --> 00:25:37,600
is gonna get that we are in
control of our own sexuality.

433
00:25:37,623 --> 00:25:41,212
Where were these when I had my kid? There's
no need to play this game of how many dates

434
00:25:41,235 --> 00:25:44,650
to go on before you fall into bed,
hoping he'll call the next day.

435
00:25:44,673 --> 00:25:48,611
Sounds like you think I
should sleep around. Delaine,

436
00:25:48,634 --> 00:25:50,526
I'm just saying that if you
wanna bunk up with this guy

437
00:25:50,549 --> 00:25:52,484
on the first date, then do it.

438
00:25:52,507 --> 00:25:55,748
If it's the tenth,
it's the tenth. Or never.

439
00:25:55,771 --> 00:25:58,534
But it should be when you want.

440
00:25:58,557 --> 00:26:02,473
Not when you think it's been
long enough to earn his respect.

441
00:26:05,476 --> 00:26:07,412
So I picked a free site

442
00:26:07,435 --> 00:26:09,980
and I created a profile.

443
00:26:10,003 --> 00:26:13,374
I didn't put much stock in it. I just
wanted to see how many of these guys

444
00:26:13,397 --> 00:26:15,202
still found me appealing.

445
00:26:15,225 --> 00:26:17,967
"You have 43 new responses"?!

446
00:26:31,415 --> 00:26:33,612
This guy messaged you?

447
00:26:33,635 --> 00:26:37,137
Yeah.

448
00:26:37,160 --> 00:26:40,793
He's 23, fitness model
slash entrepreneur.

449
00:26:40,816 --> 00:26:44,057
Translation: No job, and he
spends a lot of time at the gym.

450
00:26:44,080 --> 00:26:46,669
He said he's attracted
to older women.

451
00:26:46,692 --> 00:26:49,933
Won't you feel like a cougar

452
00:26:49,956 --> 00:26:53,110
if you go out with him though?
Oh yes. Is that a bad thing?

453
00:26:53,133 --> 00:26:54,764
Show me another one.

454
00:26:54,787 --> 00:26:57,505
Okay, this guy is Cal.

455
00:26:57,528 --> 00:27:00,813
He is 45, software developer,

456
00:27:00,836 --> 00:27:04,338
divorced with twin boys.

457
00:27:04,361 --> 00:27:07,820
He's not bad.
Do you like him?

458
00:27:07,843 --> 00:27:09,866
He's not as tall as Graham.

459
00:27:09,889 --> 00:27:12,825
Don't compare
these guys to Graham!

460
00:27:12,848 --> 00:27:14,914
I think you should go out with him.
Really?

461
00:27:14,937 --> 00:27:18,462
Mm-hmm. What have you
got to lose?

462
00:27:22,641 --> 00:27:26,752
For the first time in 16 years,

463
00:27:26,775 --> 00:27:29,648
I got ready for a date.

464
00:27:31,040 --> 00:27:33,324
Oh my God, I forgot

465
00:27:33,347 --> 00:27:35,436
how hard that is.

466
00:28:04,291 --> 00:28:07,227
The mobile unit you are
trying to reach is unavailable.

467
00:28:07,250 --> 00:28:09,752
Leave a voice message
at the tone.

468
00:28:09,775 --> 00:28:12,058
Uh, hey Cal.

469
00:28:12,081 --> 00:28:14,147
It's Delaine.
I'm here at the bar

470
00:28:14,170 --> 00:28:17,629
and I just wanted to let you
know I'm wearing a blue shirt.

471
00:28:17,652 --> 00:28:19,675
Just in case maybe you walked in

472
00:28:19,698 --> 00:28:22,460
and didn't recognize me.

473
00:28:22,483 --> 00:28:24,767
Okay, well, I'm looking forward
to meeting you in person.

474
00:28:24,790 --> 00:28:27,073
Bye.

475
00:28:27,096 --> 00:28:30,163
You want me to open a tab?
Yeah,

476
00:28:30,186 --> 00:28:32,775
I'm sure we'll order food
when he gets here. Thanks.

477
00:28:32,798 --> 00:28:35,061
I'll bring the menu.
Thanks.

478
00:28:39,761 --> 00:28:43,133
So he stood you up.
Aren't you glad

479
00:28:43,156 --> 00:28:46,092
you found out he's a jerk
now instead of later?

480
00:28:46,115 --> 00:28:48,834
I didn't need this crap right
now, not after what Graham did.

481
00:28:48,857 --> 00:28:50,749
I know, honey.

482
00:28:50,772 --> 00:28:52,925
Do you wanna come over?

483
00:28:52,948 --> 00:28:55,406
I have vodka and really bad
store-bought cookies.

484
00:28:55,429 --> 00:28:59,410
No. Thanks, though.
Are you sure?

485
00:28:59,433 --> 00:29:02,718
We could go out.
You could get sloppy drunk

486
00:29:02,741 --> 00:29:05,503
and I'll be your designated driver.
Woo-hoo.

487
00:29:05,526 --> 00:29:08,419
No, I'm fine. I'll just go home
and take a hot bath.

488
00:29:08,442 --> 00:29:11,204
Okay. Call me tomorrow, okay?

489
00:29:11,227 --> 00:29:15,034
Yes, ma'am. You get back
to your downward dog.

490
00:29:15,057 --> 00:29:17,254
Alright, love. G'night.

491
00:29:17,277 --> 00:29:19,627
Good night.

492
00:29:22,891 --> 00:29:25,044
And in a momentary lapse
of reason,

493
00:29:25,067 --> 00:29:27,699
I made the granddaddy
of all mistakes.

494
00:29:27,722 --> 00:29:29,832
Can you guess what I did?

495
00:29:29,855 --> 00:29:33,206
Yeah. I went to Graham's house.

496
00:29:37,297 --> 00:29:40,103
Graham?

497
00:29:40,126 --> 00:29:43,607
Graham, please, open the door!

498
00:29:47,263 --> 00:29:51,093
Graham, please, open the door!

499
00:29:53,966 --> 00:29:57,317
I hate you.

500
00:30:02,409 --> 00:30:04,954
Looking back, I can truly say

501
00:30:04,977 --> 00:30:07,695
this was my low point.

502
00:30:07,718 --> 00:30:09,480
Every woman

503
00:30:09,503 --> 00:30:12,744
has moments of craziness,
I suppose. Thank God

504
00:30:12,767 --> 00:30:16,443
no one was home that night
to witness mine.

505
00:30:16,466 --> 00:30:18,837
I was logging on to the site

506
00:30:18,860 --> 00:30:21,144
to write a scathing message
to Mr. Software Developer

507
00:30:21,167 --> 00:30:24,147
when I got my first email
from... the Duke.

508
00:30:24,170 --> 00:30:26,453
I was already over
the whole concept

509
00:30:26,476 --> 00:30:28,673
of meeting someone online,

510
00:30:28,696 --> 00:30:30,893
but for some reason, I decided
to open his message.

511
00:30:30,916 --> 00:30:32,895
"I'm a dominant alpha male

512
00:30:32,918 --> 00:30:34,897
"with two basic kinks.

513
00:30:34,920 --> 00:30:38,683
"First, I'm very
attracted to strong,

514
00:30:38,706 --> 00:30:40,728
"confident, dominant women...

515
00:30:40,751 --> 00:30:44,297
"and I like them to be
sexually submissive to me.

516
00:30:44,320 --> 00:30:48,214
"Second, I like helping
to create monsters...

517
00:30:48,237 --> 00:30:50,913
"powerful, demanding women
who want to rule submissive

518
00:30:50,936 --> 00:30:53,306
"or beta males for sport.

519
00:30:53,329 --> 00:30:56,440
"So if you're a top-shelf alpha
female not afraid of the work needed

520
00:30:56,463 --> 00:30:59,573
"to be a woman like that,
and looking for a mentor

521
00:30:59,596 --> 00:31:02,881
"to support you in pursuing
your alpha dreams, let me know.

522
00:31:02,904 --> 00:31:05,928
If you're bi, that
would be very nice."

523
00:31:05,951 --> 00:31:08,867
Is this guy for real?

524
00:31:13,959 --> 00:31:18,027
Oddly enough, I couldn't get the Duke
and his words out of my head.

525
00:31:18,050 --> 00:31:21,247
After picking up the kids from
Robert's the next day, I went back

526
00:31:21,270 --> 00:31:24,337
and reread his email
a few more times.

527
00:31:24,360 --> 00:31:26,687
He wanted to chat.

528
00:31:26,710 --> 00:31:30,213
The area code matched his profile,
which said he lived in Seattle.

529
00:31:30,236 --> 00:31:33,477
That was a long way away, so even
if he was some sort of freak,

530
00:31:33,500 --> 00:31:36,480
it's not like he could
come here and find me.

531
00:31:36,503 --> 00:31:40,353
So I decided one phone call
couldn't hurt.

532
00:31:40,376 --> 00:31:44,096
Guys, if you wanna go to the pool,
you better go get dressed right now.

533
00:31:44,119 --> 00:31:46,948
Okay, Mom!

534
00:32:00,135 --> 00:32:03,724
Hello.
Hi.

535
00:32:03,747 --> 00:32:06,510
Is this, um... Duke?

536
00:32:06,533 --> 00:32:09,774
The duke.
This must be delaine.

537
00:32:09,797 --> 00:32:11,776
Yeah.

538
00:32:11,799 --> 00:32:14,300
I take it you decided to call
because you're interested

539
00:32:14,323 --> 00:32:16,955
in what I said in my email.

540
00:32:16,978 --> 00:32:19,436
Interested is a strong word.

541
00:32:19,459 --> 00:32:21,742
Curious is more like it.

542
00:32:21,765 --> 00:32:23,875
I don't know that much

543
00:32:23,898 --> 00:32:25,964
about the whole...

544
00:32:25,987 --> 00:32:28,358
dom-sub thing.

545
00:32:28,381 --> 00:32:31,578
Well, what would you like to know?
Oh...

546
00:32:31,601 --> 00:32:34,755
I don't know. Um...

547
00:32:34,778 --> 00:32:37,845
You don't wear a vinyl mask

548
00:32:37,868 --> 00:32:39,935
when you have sex, do you?

549
00:32:39,958 --> 00:32:42,894
No. You're confusing
domination

550
00:32:42,917 --> 00:32:44,983
with sadomasochism.

551
00:32:45,006 --> 00:32:48,421
I'm not into whips and chains
and ball gags.

552
00:32:48,444 --> 00:32:50,858
I'm more into the mental
side of domination.

553
00:32:50,881 --> 00:32:54,558
Oh. That's good. I think.

554
00:32:54,581 --> 00:32:58,170
There are physical elements
like teasing

555
00:32:58,193 --> 00:33:01,304
Or spanking at times.

556
00:33:01,327 --> 00:33:03,610
But before we even went
into the bedroom,

557
00:33:03,633 --> 00:33:07,049
I might grab you by the hair,

558
00:33:07,072 --> 00:33:09,051
look into your eyes and tell you

559
00:33:09,074 --> 00:33:11,096
that you're going to do
everything I wanted.

560
00:33:11,119 --> 00:33:13,272
And you would.

561
00:33:13,295 --> 00:33:15,840
Because you know I'm worthy.

562
00:33:15,863 --> 00:33:18,364
Oh.

563
00:33:18,387 --> 00:33:21,237
So this is more about men
controlling women?

564
00:33:21,260 --> 00:33:23,456
Not at all.

565
00:33:23,479 --> 00:33:25,676
Being submissive
to an alpha male

566
00:33:25,699 --> 00:33:28,244
does not make you
a weakling or a doormat.

567
00:33:28,267 --> 00:33:30,376
Quite the opposite, actually.

568
00:33:30,399 --> 00:33:32,335
Alpha females are capable,

569
00:33:32,358 --> 00:33:34,598
Confident,

570
00:33:34,621 --> 00:33:37,949
and strong-minded.

571
00:33:37,972 --> 00:33:40,038
They want an alpha man

572
00:33:40,061 --> 00:33:43,085
to take control
and challenge them

573
00:33:43,108 --> 00:33:45,913
Because they don't get to
experience that type of pleasure

574
00:33:45,936 --> 00:33:48,069
in a vanilla relationship.

575
00:33:51,029 --> 00:33:52,920
I thought about
what the Duke said.

576
00:33:52,943 --> 00:33:56,750
Had I been in a vanilla
relationship my entire life?

577
00:33:56,773 --> 00:33:59,536
Was it time to try
something new?

578
00:33:59,559 --> 00:34:02,669
So this Duke guy,
he's going to teach you

579
00:34:02,692 --> 00:34:04,715
to be more assertive

580
00:34:04,738 --> 00:34:07,500
by making you submissive?

581
00:34:07,523 --> 00:34:10,503
Yes.
How does that make sense?

582
00:34:10,526 --> 00:34:14,420
Basically, by turning over
control of my sexuality to him,

583
00:34:14,443 --> 00:34:18,337
he's going to show me how to control it.
How to be more empowered.

584
00:34:18,360 --> 00:34:20,035
Not following.

585
00:34:20,058 --> 00:34:23,038
Okay. It's sort of...

586
00:34:23,061 --> 00:34:25,083
It's like this.

587
00:34:25,106 --> 00:34:27,129
Women who are empowered

588
00:34:27,152 --> 00:34:30,306
are in control of their
sexuality as much as men are.

589
00:34:30,329 --> 00:34:33,700
She chooses who she's gonna sleep with,
she dictates how men are gonna treat her,

590
00:34:33,723 --> 00:34:35,833
and she doesn't allow them
to treat her like crap.

591
00:34:35,856 --> 00:34:37,835
With you so far.

592
00:34:37,858 --> 00:34:41,143
Well, I've never been that way.

593
00:34:41,166 --> 00:34:43,362
I've allowed men to
treat me like a doormat.

594
00:34:43,385 --> 00:34:45,669
I've never been in control.
They've always disrespected me.

595
00:34:45,692 --> 00:34:47,932
But with the Duke,

596
00:34:47,955 --> 00:34:52,023
it's different. It's my choice
to engage in this with him.

597
00:34:52,046 --> 00:34:55,853
I have to give consent
to be submissive.

598
00:34:55,876 --> 00:34:59,291
If I choose to submit,
it's up to me.

599
00:34:59,314 --> 00:35:01,989
And I can choose not to submit,
that's up to me as well.

600
00:35:02,012 --> 00:35:05,341
How do you know he's not
just some creep who gets off

601
00:35:05,364 --> 00:35:07,604
on telling women what to do?
Because the stuff he's telling me to do

602
00:35:07,627 --> 00:35:10,128
is not really for him.

603
00:35:10,151 --> 00:35:13,633
It's more for me.
Example?

604
00:35:15,852 --> 00:35:18,876
He wants me to go out with a younger guy.
How young

605
00:35:18,899 --> 00:35:21,444
is this guy supposed to be?

606
00:35:21,467 --> 00:35:23,533
I mean, like that gym rat
you met online?

607
00:35:23,556 --> 00:35:26,188
That's exactly who
I was thinking of.

608
00:35:26,211 --> 00:35:28,929
Payton. He's still
messaging me.

609
00:35:28,952 --> 00:35:32,803
And do what? I mean, do you date him?
Do you sleep with him? What?

610
00:35:32,826 --> 00:35:36,589
Yeah, all of it, I guess. He
just wants me to take control.

611
00:35:36,612 --> 00:35:39,201
How?
I don't know,

612
00:35:39,224 --> 00:35:41,290
Hali!

613
00:35:41,313 --> 00:35:43,402
This is what the Duke
is going to teach me!

614
00:36:20,047 --> 00:36:22,484
Are you doing what I told you to do?
Are you looking at yourself?

615
00:36:24,791 --> 00:36:27,901
Yes.
Yes, what?

616
00:36:27,924 --> 00:36:29,947
Yes, sir.

617
00:36:29,970 --> 00:36:32,799
Describe it to me.

618
00:36:35,584 --> 00:36:38,390
Well, it's two pieces.

619
00:36:38,413 --> 00:36:40,436
It's black and sheer

620
00:36:40,459 --> 00:36:42,635
with white lace
around the edges.

621
00:36:44,680 --> 00:36:47,007
It has a garter, black.

622
00:36:47,030 --> 00:36:49,096
And there's stockings.

623
00:36:49,119 --> 00:36:51,751
I'm not ordering it out
of a catalog, Delaine.

624
00:36:51,774 --> 00:36:55,886
Describe it to me in a way that
makes me want to tear it off you.

625
00:36:55,909 --> 00:36:58,454
Now, delaine.
I don't know what to say.

626
00:36:58,477 --> 00:37:00,653
That is not
an acceptable answer.

627
00:37:02,655 --> 00:37:05,722
I don't want a sub
that can't turn me on.

628
00:37:05,745 --> 00:37:08,487
Come on, describe it.

629
00:37:11,272 --> 00:37:13,773
Um...

630
00:37:13,796 --> 00:37:16,428
Well...

631
00:37:16,451 --> 00:37:19,866
the top...

632
00:37:19,889 --> 00:37:22,501
the top is sexy.

633
00:37:24,633 --> 00:37:27,222
It's black and sheer and
you can almost see through it,

634
00:37:27,245 --> 00:37:29,746
but not quite.

635
00:37:29,769 --> 00:37:33,576
It's feminine...

636
00:37:33,599 --> 00:37:36,405
and a little bit naughty.

637
00:37:36,428 --> 00:37:39,344
Good. Good. What else?

638
00:37:41,781 --> 00:37:43,847
The bottoms match.

639
00:37:43,870 --> 00:37:48,243
They come up just far enough
to hug my hips.

640
00:37:48,266 --> 00:37:52,008
And the white lace
caresses my thighs.

641
00:37:55,142 --> 00:37:58,340
The garter has this...

642
00:37:58,363 --> 00:38:00,385
black bow

643
00:38:00,408 --> 00:38:02,431
on each side.

644
00:38:02,454 --> 00:38:04,955
It holds up my stockings.

645
00:38:04,978 --> 00:38:08,263
Those are soft

646
00:38:08,286 --> 00:38:11,353
and sheer.

647
00:38:11,376 --> 00:38:15,226
And they're tight against
the curves of my legs.

648
00:38:15,249 --> 00:38:17,750
That's very good, Delaine.

649
00:38:17,773 --> 00:38:20,013
Now go to your bedroom window

650
00:38:20,036 --> 00:38:22,604
and open the curtains.

651
00:38:25,085 --> 00:38:27,392
And I'll know
if you don't do it.

652
00:38:50,589 --> 00:38:53,090
Good girl.

653
00:38:53,113 --> 00:38:57,181
Now stand in front of
the window and get undressed.

654
00:38:57,204 --> 00:38:59,531
Do as I say.

655
00:38:59,554 --> 00:39:01,664
Remove your top
in front of the window.

656
00:39:01,687 --> 00:39:04,667
I have neighbors.
So?

657
00:39:04,690 --> 00:39:07,670
So...

658
00:39:07,693 --> 00:39:10,063
I don't want them to think
that... that I'm...

659
00:39:10,086 --> 00:39:13,960
what? Too lazy to close the blinds?
No, slutty.

660
00:39:15,918 --> 00:39:18,985
What does that mean
to you? That word?

661
00:39:19,008 --> 00:39:22,206
It means a woman who has sex

662
00:39:22,229 --> 00:39:24,382
with pretty much
anyone she wants.

663
00:39:24,405 --> 00:39:27,254
And what's wrong with that?

664
00:39:27,277 --> 00:39:29,518
Women aren't supposed
to want multiple partners?

665
00:39:29,541 --> 00:39:32,782
Society says women
should be chaste and pure

666
00:39:32,805 --> 00:39:35,437
to be worthy of love.

667
00:39:35,460 --> 00:39:37,874
Women that love sex,
that are in full control

668
00:39:37,897 --> 00:39:40,006
of their sexuality
are called sluts,

669
00:39:40,029 --> 00:39:42,226
skanks, whores.

670
00:39:42,249 --> 00:39:45,360
But I don't buy that,

671
00:39:45,383 --> 00:39:48,406
and I'm not gonna let you
buy into it either.

672
00:39:48,429 --> 00:39:51,888
A woman's sexuality is her own

673
00:39:51,911 --> 00:39:53,846
and there is no shame

674
00:39:53,869 --> 00:39:55,892
in loving sex.

675
00:39:55,915 --> 00:39:58,982
Now, I want you to say:

676
00:39:59,005 --> 00:40:02,725
'Not all men are worthy
of receiving me.

677
00:40:02,748 --> 00:40:06,142
Those that are must prove it.'

678
00:40:11,800 --> 00:40:15,694
Not all men are worthy
of receiving me.

679
00:40:15,717 --> 00:40:18,218
Those that are

680
00:40:18,241 --> 00:40:20,220
must prove it.

681
00:40:20,243 --> 00:40:22,289
Excellent.

682
00:40:24,291 --> 00:40:27,271
Now do as you're told.

683
00:40:27,294 --> 00:40:30,428
Stand in front of the window
and get undressed.

684
00:41:33,621 --> 00:41:36,601
AH!!!

685
00:41:36,624 --> 00:41:38,908
It's probably Hali.

686
00:41:38,931 --> 00:41:41,127
You think? Okay,

687
00:41:41,150 --> 00:41:43,390
final word of caution, campers:

688
00:41:43,413 --> 00:41:46,481
Watch out for...
Bears.

689
00:41:50,333 --> 00:41:53,270
I want you guys to be very,
very good for Hali, okay?

690
00:41:53,293 --> 00:41:57,274
You need to go to bed exactly when
she says to. Promise? We will.

691
00:41:57,297 --> 00:42:00,843
Okay.
Mom? Yeah?

692
00:42:00,866 --> 00:42:04,934
You're the coolest mom ever. Well, you're
the coolest kids ever! Who loves you?

693
00:42:04,957 --> 00:42:07,066
You.
So much!!!

694
00:42:07,089 --> 00:42:09,634
So much!!

695
00:42:09,657 --> 00:42:12,094
Okay, good night.
I'll see you in the morning.

696
00:42:16,708 --> 00:42:19,949
Hi! Oh my God, this is perfect!

697
00:42:19,972 --> 00:42:23,474
Have fun on your date.
Thank you so much!

698
00:42:26,587 --> 00:42:30,350
The bear! The bear!

699
00:42:32,637 --> 00:42:35,225
The Duke decided
I needed what he called

700
00:42:35,248 --> 00:42:37,227
'Sexuality Boot Camp.'

701
00:42:37,250 --> 00:42:40,360
If I wanted to find
my alpha femaleness,

702
00:42:40,383 --> 00:42:44,364
I needed to get out there and
learn how to keep my men in line.

703
00:42:44,387 --> 00:42:47,477
And what better guinea pig than Mr.
Testosterone himself...

704
00:42:49,175 --> 00:42:51,220
Payton.

705
00:43:01,100 --> 00:43:04,059
Uh... Delaine?

706
00:43:15,114 --> 00:43:17,354
So what's the oldest woman
you've ever been with?

707
00:43:17,377 --> 00:43:20,096
Actually, it was
my last girlfriend.

708
00:43:20,119 --> 00:43:23,447
We were together for about
six months and she was 43.

709
00:43:23,470 --> 00:43:25,971
So what makes us so special?

710
00:43:25,994 --> 00:43:28,670
I don't know, a lot of things.

711
00:43:28,693 --> 00:43:31,150
Like, uh...

712
00:43:31,173 --> 00:43:34,371
you're not gonna call drunk, stranded
at some bar, looking for a ride.

713
00:43:34,394 --> 00:43:36,329
And, uh...

714
00:43:36,352 --> 00:43:40,139
you don't try to play dumb
to get attention.

715
00:43:42,184 --> 00:43:45,643
Okay, at least most of you don't.
How's the sex?

716
00:43:45,666 --> 00:43:47,906
They enjoy it a lot more,

717
00:43:47,929 --> 00:43:50,605
which makes it more
enjoyable for the guy.

718
00:43:50,628 --> 00:43:53,912
I find that older women
tend to be

719
00:43:53,935 --> 00:43:55,914
more in touch

720
00:43:55,937 --> 00:43:57,983
with their bodies.

721
00:44:03,249 --> 00:44:05,294
I don't disagree.

722
00:44:07,993 --> 00:44:10,517
You just better not try to kiss me
tonight without asking my permission.

723
00:44:11,736 --> 00:44:14,063
I might have to slap you.

724
00:44:14,086 --> 00:44:16,369
You can slap me all you want,

725
00:44:16,392 --> 00:44:18,328
because I like when
it gets a little rough.

726
00:44:18,351 --> 00:44:21,505
You have no idea
what rough is, little boy.

727
00:44:24,052 --> 00:44:27,642
I had no clue what
I even meant by that.

728
00:44:27,665 --> 00:44:31,167
But apparently it did the trick.

729
00:44:31,190 --> 00:44:33,996
The Duke wanted Payton
to be my 'service male.'

730
00:44:34,019 --> 00:44:36,433
A plaything I was to use for sex

731
00:44:36,456 --> 00:44:40,089
and nothing else.
But he was charming and funny.

732
00:44:40,112 --> 00:44:43,005
I found I was enjoying myself

733
00:44:43,028 --> 00:44:45,398
more than I anticipated.
That is, until...

734
00:44:45,421 --> 00:44:47,574
an unpleasant surprise
walked in.

735
00:44:47,597 --> 00:44:49,402
Delaine?

736
00:44:49,425 --> 00:44:51,230
Robert.

737
00:44:51,253 --> 00:44:55,278
What would the Duke
say about this?

738
00:44:55,301 --> 00:44:58,716
I'm guessing he'd tell me
to swallow first... come on,

739
00:44:58,739 --> 00:45:03,373
you know what I mean... and then just keep
my mouth shut. I'm Robert. And you are?

740
00:45:03,396 --> 00:45:05,375
Payton. Nice to meet you, man.

741
00:45:05,398 --> 00:45:08,987
Yeah, you too, kiddo.

742
00:45:09,010 --> 00:45:11,033
Can I help you with something?

743
00:45:11,056 --> 00:45:13,580
We're just having dinner.

744
00:45:15,538 --> 00:45:18,257
I'll call you later.

745
00:45:18,280 --> 00:45:21,196
Apparently we have
a lot to discuss.

746
00:45:25,331 --> 00:45:29,161
So who was that guy?
He's kind of a dick.

747
00:45:31,119 --> 00:45:33,208
Just my husband.

748
00:45:35,254 --> 00:45:37,712
Husband. I thought
you were divorced.

749
00:45:37,735 --> 00:45:41,651
Yeah, well, we're still
ironing out the paperwork.

750
00:45:45,655 --> 00:45:48,331
I don't want you parading your
boy toys in front of my children.

751
00:45:48,354 --> 00:45:51,421
Is that the example
you want to set for them?

752
00:45:51,444 --> 00:45:53,945
I'm not 'parading' anyone.
Payton will never meet the kids.

753
00:45:53,968 --> 00:45:55,817
What then? You're just
sleeping with him?

754
00:45:55,840 --> 00:45:58,059
I'm not gonna
answer that, Robert.

755
00:46:00,235 --> 00:46:02,760
So I leave and you turn
into some sort of nasty slut?

756
00:46:04,762 --> 00:46:08,830
No. And I left you.

757
00:46:08,853 --> 00:46:11,702
And who I choose to sleep with
has no bearing whatsoever

758
00:46:11,725 --> 00:46:13,748
on my ability to be
a good mother.

759
00:46:13,771 --> 00:46:16,881
Don't think this won't come
out in the custody hearing.

760
00:46:16,904 --> 00:46:19,101
Do you want
full custody of the kids?

761
00:46:19,124 --> 00:46:22,191
Do you? Do you really
want to spend all weekend

762
00:46:22,214 --> 00:46:24,323
shuffling them
between ballet lessons

763
00:46:24,346 --> 00:46:27,370
and soccer games, cooking dinner for
them every night, and getting up

764
00:46:27,393 --> 00:46:29,395
an hour early every morning to make
sure they're ready to go to school?

765
00:46:31,876 --> 00:46:35,160
Look, I know you're upset with me, and I
know you don't really want to see me happy

766
00:46:35,183 --> 00:46:37,119
with someone else, but
we have got to do what's best

767
00:46:37,142 --> 00:46:39,187
for our kids.

768
00:46:48,153 --> 00:46:51,133
I'm proud of you for asserting
your dominant side.

769
00:46:51,156 --> 00:46:53,178
None of it was good.

770
00:46:53,201 --> 00:46:56,486
I felt like I was being
a total bitch to Payton and...

771
00:46:56,509 --> 00:46:59,706
once Robert came out,
I was consumed with guilt.

772
00:46:59,729 --> 00:47:01,926
I just figured he thought
I should be home with the kids

773
00:47:01,949 --> 00:47:04,537
instead of leaving them
with a babysitter.

774
00:47:04,560 --> 00:47:06,931
If you two were still together
and you had to go

775
00:47:06,954 --> 00:47:09,412
to some business dinner for Robert,
you'd get a babysitter, wouldn't you?

776
00:47:09,435 --> 00:47:11,588
Well, yes, of course.

777
00:47:11,611 --> 00:47:13,764
But that's not the same.

778
00:47:13,787 --> 00:47:17,246
You're not very good
at feeling your power yet.

779
00:47:17,269 --> 00:47:19,248
Being powerful and in control

780
00:47:19,271 --> 00:47:21,641
does not make you a bitch.

781
00:47:21,664 --> 00:47:24,470
And getting a babysitter so
that you can go out on a date

782
00:47:24,493 --> 00:47:27,691
and fulfill your sexual
and emotional needs

783
00:47:27,714 --> 00:47:29,824
Does not make you irresponsible.

784
00:47:29,847 --> 00:47:33,044
I know, it's...
stop whining.

785
00:47:33,067 --> 00:47:35,264
Get down on your knees
and bow your head.

786
00:47:35,287 --> 00:47:37,289
Then beg for my forgiveness.

787
00:47:41,162 --> 00:47:43,295
Okay...

788
00:48:03,793 --> 00:48:06,251
Sir, will you please forgive me?

789
00:48:06,274 --> 00:48:08,320
For what?

790
00:48:10,800 --> 00:48:12,802
For what, Delaine?

791
00:48:14,804 --> 00:48:17,045
For giving control
of my emotions to Robert

792
00:48:17,068 --> 00:48:19,699
when you are the only dom
I have chosen to submit to.

793
00:48:19,722 --> 00:48:21,745
Very good.

794
00:48:21,768 --> 00:48:24,574
Now assure me that
it won't happen again.

795
00:48:24,597 --> 00:48:27,794
It won't happen again, sir.

796
00:48:27,817 --> 00:48:30,928
Excellent.
For your next task,

797
00:48:30,951 --> 00:48:33,975
I want you to find a sex club
and I want you to go to it.

798
00:48:33,998 --> 00:48:36,020
See for yourself
what it looks like

799
00:48:36,043 --> 00:48:38,327
when women are comfortable
with their power.

800
00:48:38,350 --> 00:48:41,199
I'll expect a phone call
when you get home.

801
00:48:41,222 --> 00:48:42,897
Good night, Delaine.

802
00:48:42,920 --> 00:48:45,682
Wait! Can I just
ask you one question?

803
00:48:45,705 --> 00:48:48,032
Yes.

804
00:48:48,055 --> 00:48:50,556
What is your name?

805
00:48:50,579 --> 00:48:53,211
Your real name.

806
00:48:53,234 --> 00:48:56,020
Shane.
Shane.

807
00:48:57,978 --> 00:49:01,939
Shane, can I ask you one more thing?
No.

808
00:49:13,472 --> 00:49:15,712
I couldn't disobey Shane,

809
00:49:15,735 --> 00:49:18,628
and I couldn't go
to a sex club alone.

810
00:49:18,651 --> 00:49:21,892
I invited Payton.

811
00:49:21,915 --> 00:49:25,678
And for those of you who have never
been to one, let me just say...

812
00:49:25,701 --> 00:49:28,116
it's probably the craziest
thing I've ever seen.

813
00:49:41,152 --> 00:49:43,131
Is this your first time here?
Yeah.

814
00:49:43,154 --> 00:49:45,808
I'll show you around.

815
00:49:49,856 --> 00:49:51,989
Our DJ plays all night...

816
00:50:01,520 --> 00:50:04,935
Everything here
is consensual, of course.

817
00:50:04,958 --> 00:50:08,156
We have condoms free and
available throughout the club.

818
00:50:08,179 --> 00:50:11,051
And you can have sex
anywhere you want to.

819
00:50:17,710 --> 00:50:20,559
If you have any questions,

820
00:50:20,582 --> 00:50:23,368
just ask me.
Thank you.

821
00:50:29,809 --> 00:50:34,530
<i>♪ I was just a girl
when you came into my world ♪</i>

822
00:50:34,553 --> 00:50:40,231
<i>♪ But I feel more
like a woman now ♪</i>

823
00:50:40,254 --> 00:50:42,668
<i>♪ You've grown up too</i>

824
00:50:42,691 --> 00:50:45,236
<i>♪ That's why I'm telling you</i>

825
00:50:45,259 --> 00:50:49,197
<i>♪ When it comes to loving me
Only you know how ♪</i>

826
00:50:49,220 --> 00:50:53,723
<i>♪ Ooh baby I like it like that</i>

827
00:50:53,746 --> 00:50:57,509
<i>♪ The world is where it's at
Ooh baby I like it like that ♪</i>

828
00:50:57,532 --> 00:51:00,904
<i>♪ You're turning me on
and I can't hold back ♪</i>

829
00:51:00,927 --> 00:51:03,733
<i>♪ I love the way you hold me
I like the way you kiss ♪</i>

830
00:51:03,756 --> 00:51:05,604
<i>♪ A girl like me
can get into this ♪</i>

831
00:51:05,627 --> 00:51:09,588
<i>♪ I love you
in the morning... ♪</i>

832
00:51:11,807 --> 00:51:15,136
Although I'd been having more fun
with Payton than I'd had in years,

833
00:51:15,159 --> 00:51:18,313
I found that on most nights,
my thoughts drifted

834
00:51:18,336 --> 00:51:20,358
to someone else.

835
00:51:20,381 --> 00:51:22,470
Shane.

836
00:51:25,169 --> 00:51:27,452
Why can't I just see a picture?

837
00:51:27,475 --> 00:51:30,629
Just one picture of your face?

838
00:51:30,652 --> 00:51:33,284
Why do you need to see
a picture of me?

839
00:51:33,307 --> 00:51:35,852
To know if you're attracted?

840
00:51:35,875 --> 00:51:38,399
You already are.

841
00:51:42,099 --> 00:51:48,386
Maybe.

842
00:51:56,548 --> 00:51:59,180
And I'm gonna have the
sirloin, please. Medium.

843
00:51:59,203 --> 00:52:01,292
Thanks.

844
00:52:04,512 --> 00:52:07,231
What are you smiling about?

845
00:52:07,254 --> 00:52:10,582
I got you a little something.
Hmm!

846
00:52:10,605 --> 00:52:12,433
Oh!

847
00:52:14,392 --> 00:52:16,698
What's this for?
You don't know?

848
00:52:19,048 --> 00:52:20,984
Come on.

849
00:52:21,007 --> 00:52:23,465
Really?
No!

850
00:52:23,488 --> 00:52:27,144
Today is the three-month
anniversary of our very first date.

851
00:52:29,581 --> 00:52:31,386
It's been three months?

852
00:52:31,409 --> 00:52:33,388
Mm-hmm.
Really?

853
00:52:33,411 --> 00:52:36,086
Wow. Is that gift-worthy?

854
00:52:36,109 --> 00:52:39,263
Doesn't matter.
I think you've earned it.

855
00:52:39,286 --> 00:52:41,396
Payton...

856
00:52:41,419 --> 00:52:43,398
My goodness, these are gorgeous.

857
00:52:43,421 --> 00:52:45,878
They remind me of you.

858
00:52:45,901 --> 00:52:49,055
Dainty, beautiful,

859
00:52:49,078 --> 00:52:52,995
yet strong enough
to slice through glass.

860
00:52:59,828 --> 00:53:02,179
Thank you.
You're welcome.

861
00:53:04,224 --> 00:53:07,900
So, you know what I was thinking?
What?

862
00:53:07,923 --> 00:53:10,729
We should all go up
to the lake this weekend.

863
00:53:10,752 --> 00:53:12,818
Oh, I can't.

864
00:53:12,841 --> 00:53:15,081
I have the kids this weekend.
Robert's out of town on business.

865
00:53:15,104 --> 00:53:18,238
I know. When I said 'all',
I meant the kids.

866
00:53:20,240 --> 00:53:22,263
Oh. Um...

867
00:53:22,286 --> 00:53:24,201
I thought you just
meant your friends.

868
00:53:26,377 --> 00:53:28,617
No, you know, I was thinking I
would throw the Frisbee with Tyler,

869
00:53:28,640 --> 00:53:30,749
and...

870
00:53:30,772 --> 00:53:32,708
okay, I honestly have no idea

871
00:53:32,731 --> 00:53:34,753
what I'd do with your youngest.

872
00:53:34,776 --> 00:53:37,214
I'm sure I can think of
something fun, right?

873
00:53:43,437 --> 00:53:46,112
You don't want me to meet
your kids, do you?

874
00:53:46,135 --> 00:53:49,028
It has nothing to do with you.

875
00:53:49,051 --> 00:53:52,510
Honestly, I think you would make an incredible
role model and my kids would love you.

876
00:53:52,533 --> 00:53:54,947
Is it Robert?

877
00:53:54,970 --> 00:53:57,211
Because if he has any issues with me,
I'm sure him and I could talk it out...

878
00:53:57,234 --> 00:54:00,301
No, it's not that either.

879
00:54:00,324 --> 00:54:02,868
I just don't know exactly

880
00:54:02,891 --> 00:54:05,958
where this is going.

881
00:54:05,981 --> 00:54:08,091
Yet.

882
00:54:08,114 --> 00:54:11,442
Or at all.

883
00:54:11,465 --> 00:54:14,619
I don't understand.

884
00:54:14,642 --> 00:54:17,840
Look, I thought things
were going well with us.

885
00:54:17,863 --> 00:54:22,389
They are.
So what's the problem?

886
00:54:24,348 --> 00:54:27,153
Payton...

887
00:54:27,176 --> 00:54:29,222
You're 24.

888
00:54:31,180 --> 00:54:34,314
Yeah. I've been 24
since you met me.

889
00:54:39,928 --> 00:54:41,930
Right, I know.

890
00:54:44,193 --> 00:54:46,912
Can we just put this
conversation on hold?

891
00:54:46,935 --> 00:54:49,611
My divorce isn't even
finalized until next week.

892
00:54:49,634 --> 00:54:52,353
Yeah, sure.

893
00:54:52,376 --> 00:54:54,682
What's the rush, right?

894
00:54:56,858 --> 00:54:58,904
Yeah.

895
00:55:02,037 --> 00:55:04,170
Thank you.
Thank you.

896
00:55:10,524 --> 00:55:13,983
I knew I'd hurt Payton.

897
00:55:14,006 --> 00:55:16,725
He saw a future with me
and I'd known from the start

898
00:55:16,748 --> 00:55:19,249
that there wouldn't
be one with him.

899
00:55:19,272 --> 00:55:22,252
This was the first time it hit me
that this newly empowered Delaine

900
00:55:22,275 --> 00:55:25,626
also needed to take
some responsibility.

901
00:55:28,412 --> 00:55:31,261
When I got home, I logged on
to see if there was an email

902
00:55:31,284 --> 00:55:33,742
from the Duke. There was,

903
00:55:33,765 --> 00:55:35,636
and it included something
I wasn't expecting.

904
00:55:50,825 --> 00:55:53,196
That's so cute.

905
00:55:53,219 --> 00:55:56,721
So, has he run out of cigars yet?
I think he's finally done.

906
00:55:56,744 --> 00:56:00,856
Oh, thank God. I don't understand
people celebrating the birth of a baby

907
00:56:00,879 --> 00:56:04,642
by giving other people cancer.
Oh, stop. Eric's a really good guy.

908
00:56:04,665 --> 00:56:07,384
I know. I'm so lucky.

909
00:56:07,407 --> 00:56:10,192
Yes, you really are.

910
00:56:12,325 --> 00:56:16,001
So what's next? Are you going
back on the dating site?

911
00:56:16,024 --> 00:56:19,048
No. Hm-hm.

912
00:56:19,071 --> 00:56:22,356
I think I might go to Seattle.

913
00:56:22,379 --> 00:56:24,923
Seattle?

914
00:56:24,946 --> 00:56:27,622
Why would you want to go to...?

915
00:56:27,645 --> 00:56:29,363
Oh my God.

916
00:56:29,386 --> 00:56:32,627
The Duke!
Tell me that's not

917
00:56:32,650 --> 00:56:35,760
why you're going. Why not?
Because he's a dom!

918
00:56:35,783 --> 00:56:39,111
It's not as creepy
as you're making it sound.

919
00:56:39,134 --> 00:56:42,593
Okay, then why?

920
00:56:42,616 --> 00:56:45,944
Would you actually consider being
in a long-distance relationship?

921
00:56:45,967 --> 00:56:49,078
Maybe.

922
00:56:49,101 --> 00:56:51,733
It's just...
I got him in my head

923
00:56:51,756 --> 00:56:54,672
and I can't get him out.

924
00:56:56,500 --> 00:56:58,827
So I've gotta go
figure this thing out

925
00:56:58,850 --> 00:57:00,872
before I can move on
with anybody else.

926
00:57:00,895 --> 00:57:04,441
Listen to you!
You've come a long way.

927
00:57:04,464 --> 00:57:07,488
What does that mean?

928
00:57:07,511 --> 00:57:09,664
A lot more decisive
than the Delaine

929
00:57:09,687 --> 00:57:11,863
who took her husband back
after he cheated.

930
00:57:13,865 --> 00:57:16,540
Yeah, well...

931
00:57:16,563 --> 00:57:19,804
I let Robert get away
with way too much.

932
00:57:19,827 --> 00:57:21,937
You know, I wonder if I had
stood up for myself more,

933
00:57:21,960 --> 00:57:24,156
if he would've respected me...

934
00:57:24,179 --> 00:57:26,985
our marriage could've
ended up differently.

935
00:57:27,008 --> 00:57:30,511
Yeah. You would've divorced
him in the first year.

936
00:57:30,534 --> 00:57:33,514
I don't know.
Come on, D.

937
00:57:33,537 --> 00:57:36,038
Robert didn't respect you

938
00:57:36,061 --> 00:57:39,302
because Robert isn't
a respectful person.

939
00:57:39,325 --> 00:57:42,305
Even Eric said that
when they first met.

940
00:57:42,328 --> 00:57:45,177
That information would've been
helpful years ago.

941
00:57:45,200 --> 00:57:47,768
You wouldn't have listened.

942
00:57:50,554 --> 00:57:53,751
So when are you going
to Seattle?

943
00:57:53,774 --> 00:57:56,188
Next month.

944
00:57:56,211 --> 00:57:58,974
Robert's gonna take the kids to his
parents' house for Thanksgiving.

945
00:57:58,997 --> 00:58:00,845
I've got a little time.

946
00:58:00,868 --> 00:58:05,894
I know.

947
00:58:05,917 --> 00:58:08,331
The awakening of my sexual self

948
00:58:08,354 --> 00:58:10,768
had stirred other things
awake too.

949
00:58:10,791 --> 00:58:13,902
I loved my children
more than life itself,

950
00:58:13,925 --> 00:58:16,600
and I loved being a mother,
but it was beginning to feel

951
00:58:16,623 --> 00:58:19,211
like it wasn't enough anymore.

952
00:58:19,234 --> 00:58:22,171
I watched as women,
single moms like me,

953
00:58:22,194 --> 00:58:25,870
dropped their children off and then
headed to their jobs as bankers,

954
00:58:25,893 --> 00:58:28,461
doctors and CEOs.

955
00:58:42,214 --> 00:58:44,193
Can I go play for a bit?

956
00:58:44,216 --> 00:58:46,087
Just a second, honey, yeah.

957
00:58:54,487 --> 00:58:56,533
Hello, Graham.

958
00:58:58,709 --> 00:59:02,341
Hi. How are you?

959
00:59:02,364 --> 00:59:05,954
I'm well. How are you?

960
00:59:05,977 --> 00:59:08,109
Not so good, actually.

961
00:59:09,937 --> 00:59:11,829
Yeah, I went from having
a three-week wait list

962
00:59:11,852 --> 00:59:14,353
to just a few
appointments a day.

963
00:59:14,376 --> 00:59:17,095
They opened this new,

964
00:59:17,118 --> 00:59:20,272
state-of-the-art holistic health center
a few blocks from the office, so...

965
00:59:20,295 --> 00:59:23,211
that has a lot to do with it.
Hmm.

966
00:59:25,170 --> 00:59:27,715
How's your daughter?
You had a baby girl, right?

967
00:59:27,738 --> 00:59:31,066
Yeah, she's...
Do you want to sit down?

968
00:59:31,089 --> 00:59:33,590
No, no, it's okay.

969
00:59:33,613 --> 00:59:37,376
She's... she's great.

970
00:59:37,399 --> 00:59:40,597
She's getting bigger.

971
00:59:40,620 --> 00:59:43,339
I see her about once a week.

972
00:59:43,362 --> 00:59:46,844
It's a shame, you know,
they grow up so fast.

973
00:59:49,673 --> 00:59:51,521
You look really good.

974
00:59:51,544 --> 00:59:54,698
Thanks.

975
00:59:54,721 --> 00:59:57,985
Amanda, sweetheart,
it's time to go!

976
00:59:59,291 --> 01:00:01,598
Good girl.

977
01:00:04,296 --> 01:00:06,472
Great seeing ya.

978
01:00:08,953 --> 01:00:11,802
Was there satisfaction

979
01:00:11,825 --> 01:00:13,587
in knowing that Graham's
doing poorly?

980
01:00:13,610 --> 01:00:16,459
You'd think so, but honestly,

981
01:00:16,482 --> 01:00:19,636
No. Not after the initial
shock of seeing him.

982
01:00:19,659 --> 01:00:22,508
I think that's progress for you.

983
01:00:22,531 --> 01:00:24,423
You still want me
to come for Thanksgiving?

984
01:00:24,446 --> 01:00:27,209
Of course. Why would I
change my mind?

985
01:00:27,232 --> 01:00:30,691
'Cause I was thinking,
if I still come,

986
01:00:30,714 --> 01:00:33,824
I could... ask
some business advice.

987
01:00:33,847 --> 01:00:35,870
Since you've bought and sold

988
01:00:35,893 --> 01:00:37,872
and developed so many companies.

989
01:00:37,895 --> 01:00:40,309
Are you buying
a business, Delaine?

990
01:00:40,332 --> 01:00:43,312
No, but I'm thinking
of creating a company.

991
01:00:43,335 --> 01:00:45,662
Online mostly.

992
01:00:45,685 --> 01:00:47,708
What kind?

993
01:00:47,731 --> 01:00:49,927
Before I quit work to have kids,

994
01:00:49,950 --> 01:00:52,451
I was an interior decorator.

995
01:00:52,474 --> 01:00:55,280
So I was thinking
of creating a business

996
01:00:55,303 --> 01:00:58,109
where rich people hire me
to come into their home

997
01:00:58,132 --> 01:01:01,199
and decorate for a holiday

998
01:01:01,222 --> 01:01:03,593
Or a party or whatever,
and then once the event's over,

999
01:01:03,616 --> 01:01:06,727
I would go back in
and take it all away.

1000
01:01:06,750 --> 01:01:08,946
Does it sound
like a stupid idea?

1001
01:01:08,969 --> 01:01:11,253
No, not at all.

1002
01:01:11,276 --> 01:01:14,125
I think you can do anything
you set your mind to.

1003
01:01:14,148 --> 01:01:16,214
There's a niche for that.

1004
01:01:16,237 --> 01:01:19,087
Because I think I'd be
really good at it.

1005
01:01:19,110 --> 01:01:22,177
So do I.

1006
01:01:22,200 --> 01:01:26,660
Who do you know in Seattle? You don't
have friends there. He's a new friend.

1007
01:01:26,683 --> 01:01:29,793
And the only reason I'm even telling you
this is to let you know I'll be out of town

1008
01:01:29,816 --> 01:01:31,818
in case there's an emergency
with the kids.

1009
01:01:33,820 --> 01:01:36,713
Fine. Do your thing.
Whatever that is.

1010
01:01:36,736 --> 01:01:38,912
I will.

1011
01:01:51,229 --> 01:01:53,599
Ladies and gentlemen, we will
be landing in Seattle shortly.

1012
01:01:53,622 --> 01:01:55,558
Thanks for flying with us
and have a great day.

1013
01:01:55,581 --> 01:01:58,082
Shane had planned on picking
me up from the airport himself,

1014
01:01:58,105 --> 01:02:01,520
but he ended up having
to take a meeting.

1015
01:02:01,543 --> 01:02:03,827
He texted me about an hour
before I got on the flight

1016
01:02:03,850 --> 01:02:06,592
and told me he'd send a car to pick
me up and take me to his lake house.

1017
01:02:08,637 --> 01:02:10,660
He gave me the code to get in,

1018
01:02:10,683 --> 01:02:12,706
but no apology that
he wasn't picking me up

1019
01:02:12,729 --> 01:02:15,166
in person.

1020
01:02:41,714 --> 01:02:44,781
Hello?
Delaine. Did you make it in okay?

1021
01:02:44,804 --> 01:02:48,176
Yeah. I just got here.

1022
01:02:48,199 --> 01:02:51,919
This place is beautiful.
Change of plans.

1023
01:02:51,942 --> 01:02:53,964
I was going to take you on
a cruise tonight on my boat,

1024
01:02:53,987 --> 01:02:56,010
but my chef can't make it.
We're going out

1025
01:02:56,033 --> 01:02:58,969
to dinner instead. I had
my assistant buy you a dress

1026
01:02:58,992 --> 01:03:01,102
in case you didn't bring one.

1027
01:03:01,125 --> 01:03:03,713
Oh. Okay.

1028
01:03:03,736 --> 01:03:06,324
I'm on my way to my meeting now.

1029
01:03:06,347 --> 01:03:09,698
Help yourself to anything in the fridge
and I'll see you in a couple hours.

1030
01:03:27,064 --> 01:03:29,913
Hi.

1031
01:03:29,936 --> 01:03:32,417
Hi.

1032
01:03:35,246 --> 01:03:37,312
I'm glad you're here.

1033
01:03:37,335 --> 01:03:39,424
Me too.

1034
01:03:45,909 --> 01:03:48,259
Come on. Follow me.

1035
01:03:55,309 --> 01:03:57,375
This is where you'll stay.

1036
01:03:57,398 --> 01:04:00,532
You may come up to the main house
when I instruct you to do so.

1037
01:04:16,374 --> 01:04:18,724
Try this on.

1038
01:04:22,859 --> 01:04:25,447
Where are you going?

1039
01:04:25,470 --> 01:04:28,145
I thought you said you wanted
me to try this on.

1040
01:04:28,168 --> 01:04:30,104
Try it on right here.

1041
01:04:30,127 --> 01:04:32,607
In front of me.

1042
01:05:27,010 --> 01:05:31,034
Don't look at yourself.
Look at me.

1043
01:05:31,057 --> 01:05:34,800
It doesn't matter what you think you
look like. It only matters what I think.

1044
01:05:40,066 --> 01:05:42,199
Now take off your panties.

1045
01:06:02,045 --> 01:06:04,024
You will not wear panties

1046
01:06:04,047 --> 01:06:06,765
in my presence.

1047
01:06:06,788 --> 01:06:09,507
You'll get these back
when you leave.

1048
01:06:09,530 --> 01:06:11,315
Do you understand?

1049
01:06:14,318 --> 01:06:18,365
Yes, sir.

1050
01:06:21,151 --> 01:06:25,132
Shane didn't ask -or tell-me to do
anything sexual at the restaurant.

1051
01:06:25,155 --> 01:06:28,439
It was a normal dinner,
much like a first date.

1052
01:06:28,462 --> 01:06:30,789
We talked about a million
different subjects,

1053
01:06:30,812 --> 01:06:33,967
including domination
and submission.

1054
01:06:33,990 --> 01:06:37,187
So in a dom-sub relationship,

1055
01:06:37,210 --> 01:06:40,147
do people ever take turns?
Like, one night they would be

1056
01:06:40,170 --> 01:06:43,193
the dominant figure, and the next
night, they would be the sub?

1057
01:06:43,216 --> 01:06:45,674
Of course. A person that does
that is called a 'switch.'

1058
01:06:45,697 --> 01:06:49,678
Do you ever do that?
No.

1059
01:06:49,701 --> 01:06:53,377
I explained that in my profile.
I'm always dominant,

1060
01:06:53,400 --> 01:06:56,554
and I like subs
who are alpha females.

1061
01:06:56,577 --> 01:06:59,775
Some of mine were very
successful and wealthy,

1062
01:06:59,798 --> 01:07:02,453
heads of major corporations,
that type of thing.

1063
01:07:04,629 --> 01:07:06,825
Why would a woman like that
ever want to be submissive?

1064
01:07:06,848 --> 01:07:09,785
Why does anyone
want to be submissive?

1065
01:07:09,808 --> 01:07:12,680
Lots of reasons.
Like what?

1066
01:07:15,379 --> 01:07:17,749
It makes them feel empowered

1067
01:07:17,772 --> 01:07:20,187
to trust another person
to that degree.

1068
01:07:20,210 --> 01:07:22,493
For people in positions
with an inordinate amount

1069
01:07:22,516 --> 01:07:26,149
of power and control, feeling quite
helpless and at someone else's whim

1070
01:07:26,172 --> 01:07:28,195
can be a nice escape

1071
01:07:28,218 --> 01:07:30,153
from having to make
all the decisions.

1072
01:07:30,176 --> 01:07:32,938
What about someone
that's always...

1073
01:07:32,961 --> 01:07:35,115
dominant?

1074
01:07:35,138 --> 01:07:38,205
Does that mean that they're not in
control in their regular lives?

1075
01:07:38,228 --> 01:07:41,208
Some might feel that way.
You?

1076
01:07:41,231 --> 01:07:43,253
No.

1077
01:07:43,276 --> 01:07:46,453
So what is it that
you get out of this?

1078
01:07:48,455 --> 01:07:51,632
Some of my reasons are selfish.

1079
01:07:53,547 --> 01:07:56,745
I like to know exactly when
I'm gonna be having sex.

1080
01:07:56,768 --> 01:08:00,053
And the type of sex
that I can expect,

1081
01:08:00,076 --> 01:08:02,098
since all of that is discussed

1082
01:08:02,121 --> 01:08:05,081
before she becomes my sub.

1083
01:08:07,605 --> 01:08:11,194
I got tired of having my hand
slapped away by women

1084
01:08:11,217 --> 01:08:14,589
who were reluctant
to try new things.

1085
01:08:14,612 --> 01:08:16,852
Okay.

1086
01:08:16,875 --> 01:08:20,638
But it's also something

1087
01:08:20,661 --> 01:08:24,033
that I can do
for women, as a feminist.

1088
01:08:24,056 --> 01:08:26,905
How can you consider
yourself a feminist

1089
01:08:26,928 --> 01:08:30,213
yet want women to be
submissive to you?

1090
01:08:30,236 --> 01:08:33,869
Women have the choice
to be whatever they want.

1091
01:08:33,892 --> 01:08:38,134
Unfortunately, our society
judges submissive women.

1092
01:08:38,157 --> 01:08:40,745
They say 'Poor thing,

1093
01:08:40,768 --> 01:08:44,227
look at what our patriarchal
society has done to her, '

1094
01:08:44,250 --> 01:08:48,101
or they get criticism from
"feminists" who see them as impeding

1095
01:08:48,124 --> 01:08:51,104
on their fight for equality.
They're both wrong.

1096
01:08:51,127 --> 01:08:55,064
A true feminist believes
that a woman has a choice

1097
01:08:55,087 --> 01:08:57,675
to be whatever she wants
without being judged.

1098
01:08:57,698 --> 01:09:00,983
It doesn't matter
if she chooses to be a sub,

1099
01:09:01,006 --> 01:09:03,420
or a dom, or a switch,

1100
01:09:03,443 --> 01:09:07,207
or if she wants to be in a vanilla
relationship her entire life. It's her choice.

1101
01:09:07,230 --> 01:09:10,035
For those who want a dom,

1102
01:09:10,058 --> 01:09:12,081
I offer that.

1103
01:09:12,104 --> 01:09:14,605
And I never judge them.

1104
01:09:14,628 --> 01:09:17,608
I'm better at that, you know.

1105
01:09:17,631 --> 01:09:20,872
You're getting better, yes.

1106
01:09:20,895 --> 01:09:23,136
What about Robert?

1107
01:09:23,159 --> 01:09:25,486
When Robert tried to make you feel
guilty when you came out here,

1108
01:09:25,509 --> 01:09:28,141
did it work?
How do you know he tried?

1109
01:09:28,164 --> 01:09:31,361
Making you feel guilty and have
you second-guess your decisions

1110
01:09:31,384 --> 01:09:33,386
is one of the ways that
a beta man controls a woman.

1111
01:09:35,997 --> 01:09:39,566
When you're confident in your own decisions,
nothing he can say will make you feel guilty.

1112
01:09:41,612 --> 01:09:44,331
I didn't actually feel bad.

1113
01:09:44,354 --> 01:09:46,681
I'm not letting anyone
control me anymore.

1114
01:09:46,704 --> 01:09:50,206
There's nothing wrong
with being controlled

1115
01:09:50,229 --> 01:09:52,817
as long as it's consensual.

1116
01:09:52,840 --> 01:09:54,993
Robert controls you
for his own benefit.

1117
01:09:55,016 --> 01:09:57,932
I control you
because you like it.

1118
01:10:33,316 --> 01:10:36,275
What would you like me
to do for you, sir?

1119
01:10:38,625 --> 01:10:42,302
I'd like you to go sit
in that chair, be quiet,

1120
01:10:42,325 --> 01:10:45,676
and I will let you know
when I want you.

1121
01:10:59,124 --> 01:11:01,582
Delaine.

1122
01:11:01,605 --> 01:11:04,042
Thank me for making you wait.

1123
01:11:06,653 --> 01:11:09,700
Thank you for
making me wait, sir.

1124
01:11:14,095 --> 01:11:16,466
At first I was angry with
the Duke for rebuffing me.

1125
01:11:16,489 --> 01:11:19,339
I felt sort of rejected.

1126
01:11:19,362 --> 01:11:21,341
But by the time
an hour had passed,

1127
01:11:21,364 --> 01:11:24,996
I was so worked up,
I could barely stand it.

1128
01:11:25,019 --> 01:11:28,043
I wanted him more

1129
01:11:28,066 --> 01:11:31,112
than I have ever
wanted anyone before.

1130
01:11:41,427 --> 01:11:44,320
From this point forward,
until you leave,

1131
01:11:44,343 --> 01:11:46,409
you will ask permission

1132
01:11:46,432 --> 01:11:48,890
for everything that you do.

1133
01:11:48,913 --> 01:11:50,848
Before you eat,
before you sleep,

1134
01:11:50,871 --> 01:11:54,199
before you get dressed.

1135
01:11:54,222 --> 01:11:56,854
You are my sub,

1136
01:11:56,877 --> 01:11:59,901
and as such, you will only do
what I allow you to do.

1137
01:11:59,924 --> 01:12:02,033
Do you understand?

1138
01:12:02,056 --> 01:12:05,408
Yes, sir.

1139
01:12:07,410 --> 01:12:10,346
To ask my permission, you will

1140
01:12:10,369 --> 01:12:13,131
bow your head

1141
01:12:13,154 --> 01:12:16,570
and say, "With the
Duke's permission."

1142
01:12:16,593 --> 01:12:18,769
Any questions?

1143
01:12:21,380 --> 01:12:23,730
Yes.

1144
01:12:25,732 --> 01:12:29,606
What happens if I disobey you?

1145
01:12:31,999 --> 01:12:35,284
Then I will take you
over my knee,

1146
01:12:35,307 --> 01:12:37,939
and spank you.

1147
01:12:37,962 --> 01:12:41,139
And then...

1148
01:12:47,101 --> 01:12:49,080
...with you

1149
01:12:49,103 --> 01:12:51,082
wearing this,

1150
01:12:51,105 --> 01:12:53,476
I will take

1151
01:12:53,499 --> 01:12:55,870
my disobedient pet for a walk

1152
01:12:55,893 --> 01:12:57,828
through the neighborhood
so that everyone

1153
01:12:57,851 --> 01:13:00,657
can see that you...

1154
01:13:00,680 --> 01:13:03,443
were a bad sub.

1155
01:13:03,466 --> 01:13:06,512
Are you going to disobey me,
Delaine?

1156
01:13:08,471 --> 01:13:12,344
No, sir.

1157
01:13:15,565 --> 01:13:18,022
Good.

1158
01:13:18,045 --> 01:13:21,440
You may ask for permission
to go into the master bedroom.

1159
01:13:23,486 --> 01:13:26,248
With the Duke's permission,

1160
01:13:26,271 --> 01:13:29,338
may I go into the master
bedroom, sir?

1161
01:13:33,321 --> 01:13:36,020
You may.

1162
01:13:50,426 --> 01:13:53,341
The entire trip
wasn't just about sex.

1163
01:13:55,256 --> 01:13:57,279
Shane?

1164
01:13:57,302 --> 01:14:00,064
Do you have a turkey baster?
Yes.

1165
01:14:00,087 --> 01:14:02,502
Where is it?

1166
01:14:02,525 --> 01:14:04,808
Probably in the bedroom.

1167
01:14:04,831 --> 01:14:07,376
Well, okay, a lot of it was.

1168
01:14:07,399 --> 01:14:09,552
Ugh...

1169
01:14:09,575 --> 01:14:12,860
But some of it was also just
us talking about relationships

1170
01:14:12,883 --> 01:14:15,079
and life and my future.

1171
01:14:15,102 --> 01:14:17,627
You also need to file
a Federal Tax ID number.

1172
01:14:19,716 --> 01:14:21,695
So how do I know if I should be

1173
01:14:21,718 --> 01:14:23,958
a sole proprietorship or an LLC?

1174
01:14:23,981 --> 01:14:26,917
Okay, so there are two important
factors in making that decision: First,

1175
01:14:26,940 --> 01:14:30,204
how is the business taxed, and what
is your level of personal liability.

1176
01:14:32,250 --> 01:14:34,229
But to be honest,

1177
01:14:34,252 --> 01:14:36,776
it was mostly about sex.

1178
01:14:55,882 --> 01:14:58,427
My long weekend with the Duke
was, on the surface,

1179
01:14:58,450 --> 01:15:01,038
about sexual exploration.

1180
01:15:01,061 --> 01:15:04,128
But like the water, there was
so much more underneath.

1181
01:15:04,151 --> 01:15:06,391
True submission

1182
01:15:06,414 --> 01:15:08,655
is a gift.

1183
01:15:08,678 --> 01:15:11,396
It can only happen when
a person chooses to submit.

1184
01:15:11,419 --> 01:15:14,487
It's never about the dom
taking control.

1185
01:15:14,510 --> 01:15:17,315
It's about the sub giving it.

1186
01:15:17,338 --> 01:15:20,841
Both parties must get
something out of it.

1187
01:15:20,864 --> 01:15:24,061
For 37 years,
I'd let other people,

1188
01:15:24,084 --> 01:15:25,976
especially men, control me

1189
01:15:25,999 --> 01:15:28,718
for their own benefit.

1190
01:15:28,741 --> 01:15:32,069
The Duke taught me how to change that.
That's why I will always be grateful to him.

1191
01:15:32,092 --> 01:15:35,116
You ready?

1192
01:15:35,139 --> 01:15:38,577
How deep is it out there?
About 40 feet.

1193
01:15:40,623 --> 01:15:43,037
So I was thinking,

1194
01:15:43,060 --> 01:15:45,300
when I get home,
I'm ready for a relationship.

1195
01:15:45,323 --> 01:15:47,389
On my own.

1196
01:15:47,412 --> 01:15:50,348
Just the fact that
you said that shows me

1197
01:15:50,371 --> 01:15:52,612
that there's no reason for us
to continue to correspond.

1198
01:15:52,635 --> 01:15:55,615
You had the experience
you needed.

1199
01:15:55,638 --> 01:15:58,336
That's all it was
ever meant to be.

1200
01:16:02,819 --> 01:16:05,015
You've changed me.

1201
01:16:05,038 --> 01:16:08,323
I'm a different person
than I was before we met.

1202
01:16:08,346 --> 01:16:11,654
I know.

1203
01:16:20,880 --> 01:16:22,816
We should get going.

1204
01:16:22,839 --> 01:16:25,145
You don't wanna
miss your flight.

1205
01:16:32,849 --> 01:16:36,046
As I drove home
from the airport,

1206
01:16:36,069 --> 01:16:38,440
I felt at peace for the first
time in a long time.

1207
01:16:38,463 --> 01:16:42,336
More than anything, I was just
looking forward to seeing my kids.

1208
01:16:44,904 --> 01:16:47,667
As December rolled around,

1209
01:16:47,690 --> 01:16:51,061
I managed to get my website up for
my holiday decorating business.

1210
01:16:51,084 --> 01:16:53,716
To my surprise,
I got several clients

1211
01:16:53,739 --> 01:16:56,197
in the first few weeks.

1212
01:16:56,220 --> 01:16:58,678
One stuck out in particular.

1213
01:16:58,701 --> 01:17:01,681
He was a widower
in his late 60s.

1214
01:17:01,704 --> 01:17:05,119
He hadn't decorated for Christmas since
his wife had passed five years earlier,

1215
01:17:05,142 --> 01:17:08,949
but since his grandchildren were coming,
he wanted to make it festive for them.

1216
01:17:08,972 --> 01:17:12,082
The man told me he'd
never taken much time

1217
01:17:12,105 --> 01:17:14,630
with his grandkids and
he wanted to change that.

1218
01:17:17,284 --> 01:17:20,700
And so I decided to do something
I never imagined I would do.

1219
01:17:20,723 --> 01:17:23,639
I called Robert.

1220
01:17:25,553 --> 01:17:27,620
Hello?

1221
01:17:27,643 --> 01:17:31,275
Hey, it's me.

1222
01:17:31,298 --> 01:17:34,539
The kids are gonna
decorate the tree and...

1223
01:17:34,562 --> 01:17:36,956
I thought you might
like to help.

1224
01:17:47,924 --> 01:17:50,207
It's not like I never
thought about it.

1225
01:17:50,230 --> 01:17:53,689
I know there were times

1226
01:17:53,712 --> 01:17:56,736
that I didn't...

1227
01:17:56,759 --> 01:18:00,130
I didn't treat you the way
that I should have.

1228
01:18:00,153 --> 01:18:04,352
I don't know what I really
could have done differently.

1229
01:18:04,375 --> 01:18:07,268
Except for the affair,
of course.

1230
01:18:07,291 --> 01:18:10,184
I guess I deserved that, right?

1231
01:18:10,207 --> 01:18:12,426
One good turn deserves another?

1232
01:18:14,472 --> 01:18:17,234
I don't think we knew how
to deal with our issues.

1233
01:18:17,257 --> 01:18:20,391
We both made some
really bad decisions.

1234
01:18:22,349 --> 01:18:24,633
Yeah.

1235
01:18:24,656 --> 01:18:27,418
I know that the thing
with Natasha

1236
01:18:27,441 --> 01:18:30,683
really hurt you.

1237
01:18:30,706 --> 01:18:32,946
But I just...

1238
01:18:32,969 --> 01:18:35,383
I want you to know
that when I said

1239
01:18:35,406 --> 01:18:38,168
it would never happen
again, I meant it.

1240
01:18:38,191 --> 01:18:40,759
The night you called me
and I came home...

1241
01:18:43,501 --> 01:18:46,046
...the whole drive home
I couldn't stop thinking

1242
01:18:46,069 --> 01:18:48,071
about how much
that must've hurt you.

1243
01:18:51,814 --> 01:18:54,228
It did.

1244
01:18:54,251 --> 01:18:57,840
By the time that I really
started to try,

1245
01:18:57,863 --> 01:19:00,083
it was too late for you.

1246
01:19:02,825 --> 01:19:05,915
You didn't need the guy
who wanted to make it up to you.

1247
01:19:07,960 --> 01:19:11,442
You needed the guy who never
did it in the first place.

1248
01:19:16,360 --> 01:19:20,451
I do think our marriage stopped working
way before Natasha and Graham, though.

1249
01:19:23,846 --> 01:19:25,761
I want you to be happy.

1250
01:19:28,372 --> 01:19:30,699
I know.

1251
01:19:30,722 --> 01:19:33,180
Thank you.

1252
01:19:33,203 --> 01:19:35,617
I'm trying.

1253
01:19:35,640 --> 01:19:37,903
Good.

1254
01:19:40,166 --> 01:19:43,648
How did things go
with your parents?

1255
01:19:46,129 --> 01:19:49,500
Well, I'm still not that good
with the kids yet.

1256
01:19:49,523 --> 01:19:52,112
My mother even noticed that.

1257
01:19:54,746 --> 01:19:57,291
Things'll be going great and...

1258
01:19:57,314 --> 01:19:59,684
then I'll say something
that upsets one...

1259
01:19:59,707 --> 01:20:01,774
As I listened to Robert
talk about how hard it was

1260
01:20:01,797 --> 01:20:05,734
to be a parent,
I didn't feel sorry for him.

1261
01:20:05,757 --> 01:20:09,564
This was part of his journey
to become a better father.

1262
01:20:09,587 --> 01:20:11,522
I'd inhibited his growth in the
same way he had inhibited mine

1263
01:20:11,545 --> 01:20:14,351
in becoming a woman who could
stand up for herself.

1264
01:20:14,374 --> 01:20:16,310
But I wanted to guide him.

1265
01:20:16,333 --> 01:20:18,616
Shane had been my guide.

1266
01:20:18,639 --> 01:20:20,793
He helped me reach a place where
I could actually help Robert

1267
01:20:20,816 --> 01:20:23,404
become the man I always
wanted him to be.

1268
01:20:23,427 --> 01:20:26,647
Not for me.
But for the children.

1269
01:20:29,694 --> 01:20:33,327
It was the first time
I felt happy being alone...

1270
01:20:33,350 --> 01:20:36,896
Ever. Maybe I wouldn't
find someone.

1271
01:20:36,919 --> 01:20:39,899
Who knows? But that
no longer seemed scary.

1272
01:20:39,922 --> 01:20:43,119
I knew I could be happy with
or without a relationship.

1273
01:20:43,142 --> 01:20:46,035
I didn't need to be someone's
wife or girlfriend.

1274
01:20:46,058 --> 01:20:48,516
I could just be...

1275
01:20:48,539 --> 01:20:51,954
Delaine.

1276
01:20:51,977 --> 01:20:55,262
And things got better.

1277
01:20:55,285 --> 01:20:57,873
Robert and I were able
to put the past behind us

1278
01:20:57,896 --> 01:21:00,507
and become effective co-parents.

1279
01:21:03,554 --> 01:21:06,882
What's this?
It's for you, Mom. From Dad.

1280
01:21:06,905 --> 01:21:09,319
Wow!

1281
01:21:09,342 --> 01:21:11,626
I helped picked it out.

1282
01:21:11,649 --> 01:21:13,933
It's for your new business.

1283
01:21:13,956 --> 01:21:16,936
It was my idea.
No, it wasn't, Amanda! Yes, it was!

1284
01:21:16,959 --> 01:21:19,721
I can tell you both
collaborated on this.

1285
01:21:19,744 --> 01:21:21,854
And it's wonderful.
Are you my new

1286
01:21:21,877 --> 01:21:24,270
marketing executive? Yes.
How about you, kiddo?

1287
01:21:28,361 --> 01:21:30,906
It was nice to feel supported
in my business endeavor.

1288
01:21:30,929 --> 01:21:33,082
But surprisingly,
I didn't need it.

1289
01:21:33,105 --> 01:21:35,978
I knew I could make it a success
even with no support at all.

1290
01:21:38,067 --> 01:21:40,829
As my little business continued
to pick up, I settled back

1291
01:21:40,852 --> 01:21:44,354
into my role as Delaine the mom. Between
the two, I didn't have much time to date.

1292
01:21:44,377 --> 01:21:47,728
But I didn't feel like
I was missing out either.

1293
01:21:55,214 --> 01:21:58,978
Let me give you a hand with that.
Oh!

1294
01:21:59,001 --> 01:22:01,328
Thanks.
Sure. How many do you need?

1295
01:22:01,351 --> 01:22:03,460
All of them.
All of them?

1296
01:22:03,483 --> 01:22:05,245
What, one for every outfit?

1297
01:22:05,268 --> 01:22:07,812
No, it's my daughter's birthday.

1298
01:22:07,835 --> 01:22:10,119
I told her she could
invite all the girls

1299
01:22:10,142 --> 01:22:11,991
from her class at school.

1300
01:22:12,014 --> 01:22:15,321
I don't know exactly
what I was thinking.

1301
01:22:18,672 --> 01:22:21,391
It's that age-old question:
Where are...

1302
01:22:21,414 --> 01:22:23,741
The keys.
Where are the keys.

1303
01:22:23,764 --> 01:22:27,397
Right at the bottom.
Always. I can never find my keys.

1304
01:22:27,420 --> 01:22:31,010
I would love to know
how the party goes.

1305
01:22:31,033 --> 01:22:33,882
Oh, really?
Hey, I'm invested now.

1306
01:22:33,905 --> 01:22:35,928
Without me, they'd
just be a bunch

1307
01:22:35,951 --> 01:22:39,519
of sad, tiara-less princesses.

1308
01:22:44,176 --> 01:22:46,613
I'm Aiden, by the way.

1309
01:22:48,615 --> 01:22:52,161
Uh, my cell's on there.
Delaine.

1310
01:22:52,184 --> 01:22:54,163
Hi, Delaine.

1311
01:22:54,186 --> 01:22:56,209
Thanks for your help.

1312
01:22:56,232 --> 01:22:59,734
And for being so... tall.

1313
01:22:59,757 --> 01:23:03,520
Sure. I guess I will

1314
01:23:03,543 --> 01:23:05,740
talk to you later.

1315
01:23:08,418 --> 01:23:11,485
<i>♪ Let it go</i>

1316
01:23:11,508 --> 01:23:14,488
<i>♪ Don't hide away</i>

1317
01:23:14,511 --> 01:23:17,557
<i>♪ Follow the muse...</i>

1318
01:23:19,864 --> 01:23:23,105
I invited Robert to bring his new
girlfriend to Amanda's birthday party.

1319
01:23:23,128 --> 01:23:25,499
He'd asked my advice on how
he could introduce them,

1320
01:23:25,522 --> 01:23:28,786
and I figured the party atmosphere
would make everyone feel more at ease.

1321
01:23:38,056 --> 01:23:39,948
So, I don't know if you heard,
but you have to have

1322
01:23:39,971 --> 01:23:41,950
one of these before you can
pass the evil dragon.

1323
01:23:41,973 --> 01:23:44,257
Thank you.

1324
01:23:44,280 --> 01:23:46,607
You have to kiss it

1325
01:23:46,630 --> 01:23:49,218
or you're not a real princess.

1326
01:23:49,241 --> 01:23:51,481
Ha, ha, ha!

1327
01:23:51,504 --> 01:23:54,615
Speaking of evil dragons.
My brother used to do

1328
01:23:54,638 --> 01:23:57,487
the same thing to me.

1329
01:23:57,510 --> 01:24:00,992
Can you believe how young
they start flirting?

1330
01:24:03,212 --> 01:24:06,105
Look at you!
There's my girl.

1331
01:24:06,128 --> 01:24:08,150
Mommy, I'm tired.

1332
01:24:08,173 --> 01:24:10,239
Oh, are you?

1333
01:24:10,262 --> 01:24:12,459
You ready to go with Daddy
and Pam to Daddy's house?

1334
01:24:12,482 --> 01:24:15,114
Hey, did you have
a good birthday?

1335
01:24:15,137 --> 01:24:18,508
That was the best birthday ever!
It was?

1336
01:24:18,531 --> 01:24:20,902
Well, that makes Mommy happy!

1337
01:24:20,925 --> 01:24:23,252
Why don't you take Pam

1338
01:24:23,275 --> 01:24:25,863
and go find Tyler?

1339
01:24:25,886 --> 01:24:27,952
Thank you.

1340
01:24:27,975 --> 01:24:30,085
Thank you. It was
nice to see you.

1341
01:24:30,108 --> 01:24:32,609
Nice to meet you.

1342
01:24:32,632 --> 01:24:34,698
We can take care
of all this junk later.

1343
01:24:34,721 --> 01:24:38,615
Why don't you just take the
kids and get going? Okay.

1344
01:24:38,638 --> 01:24:41,270
Thank you.

1345
01:24:41,293 --> 01:24:45,144
For making this easier
for Pam. And for me.

1346
01:24:45,167 --> 01:24:48,779
Yeah, of course.

1347
01:24:54,785 --> 01:24:56,720
I knew in that moment,

1348
01:24:56,743 --> 01:24:58,766
I'd finally become
the person I wanted to be.

1349
01:24:58,789 --> 01:25:01,943
I had taken control
of my life in every aspect.

1350
01:25:01,966 --> 01:25:03,858
The truth is, I liked Pam

1351
01:25:03,881 --> 01:25:06,121
and I actually wanted
Robert to be happy.

1352
01:25:06,144 --> 01:25:08,341
I was glad he found someone.

1353
01:25:08,364 --> 01:25:10,821
And I'm glad that he's
with Pam instead of me.

1354
01:25:21,855 --> 01:25:24,313
Hey, Aiden.
Hi.

1355
01:25:24,336 --> 01:25:27,838
Perfect timing. Everyone just left.
So how did the party go?

1356
01:25:27,861 --> 01:25:30,711
Oh, it was absolutely perfect.

1357
01:25:30,734 --> 01:25:34,454
And did you have any princess
gear left over?

1358
01:25:34,477 --> 01:25:37,610
No, I don't have
any tiaras left.

1359
01:25:41,527 --> 01:25:44,681
It might seem like this is the
end of my story, but it's not.

1360
01:25:44,704 --> 01:25:48,207
It's just the beginning.

1361
01:25:48,230 --> 01:25:51,233
<i>♪ Follow the muse</i>