[Jeremiah] Previously on Return to Amish.
We're gonna have to see how many girls we can kiss.
[Sabrina] It's pretty obvious that Fannie has a crush on Daniel.
I don't want her to get her heart broken.
[cries]
-How you doing? -Hi, baby.
Last year, I found out that my real father was
probably murdered because of me.
I still believe that I am the reason.
[Fannie] I was just wondering if I could
stay with you guys for a couple days.
[Johnny] I mean, with Fannie being shunned, it's just...
it's very risky, with having her there.
If anybody sees her, they're gonna run and tell the bishop,
and it's just gonna get us in more trouble.
I mean, we kinda got a secret we've
been trying to keep hid from everybody.
I'm pregnant.
Oh, wow.
[Sabrina] Just so worried about the baby.
[Jethro] All right, I'm calling an ambulance.
[siren wails]
I was seeing stars.
My vision was blurred.
I was scared there was something wrong.
[Jethro] No extra visitors are allowed in the hospital.
It's very strict.
I hate hospitals.
[nurse] Okay.
It's been pretty much three years straight, of pregnancy.
[Sabrina] I'm scared.
It's a lot on your body, physically, mentally,
emotionally.
[bell dings]
All right. Let's go have a baby.
It's overwhelming.
I'm worried.
[Sabrina] Ow. Ooh.
They took me back to the room where they do the C-section and, um,
I've had epidurals before,
and I've had the emergency C-section
but, I've never had a spinal before.
And, that spinal hurt like a SOB.
[Sabrina moaning]
She stuck the needle in the wrong place, I think.
[Sabrina moaning]
Finally, they get it in right.
And I literally went numb.
And... my first thought was like,
oh, my God, this feels like I did a shot of heroin.
I've been sober for two years.
And, that was really scary for me, I didn't...
I didn't think it would trigger me the way it did, but...
it did.
It was a really good reminder of me
why I don't want to go back to that.
[baby crying]
[Sabrina] I was really relieved when they let Jethro in to cut the cord.
[Jethro] Say hi.
[people clamoring]
[Jethro] Say hi.
[Sabrina] We had a little baby girl and her name is Kalani Ariyah.
[Jethro] Say hi.
[Sabrina] In the Mennonite communities, her name, Kalani, means
"the royal one of the heavens".
It's a relief, she's so healthy.
We're just so happy.
And, she is just the sweetest thing.
[Jethro] Holding your baby or the first time is a feeling that...
you really can't put words to, it's just...
this is... this is...
my mini me. [chuckles]
[Sabrina] Seeing your baby for the first time is just always so...
unique, because it's a miracle like,
you're like, my body and God created that,
like, I made these bones, I made those ears.
I can't believe that...
[sobbing]
God gave me the blessing of life.
And, I'm just so grateful.
[sobs]
[grandmother] Hmm.
-[Jethro] It's good seeing you. -[grandmother] Love you.
I was so worried that grandmother was gonna blame me
for my father's death.
-We'll see you soon. -Okay.
[Jeremiah] And so, when grandmother told me that I'm not the reason
that my father got killed,
you know, a sense of relief just came over me
because I've always been...
you know, blaming myself and thinking that I'm the reason that it happened.
The minute we left grandmother's house,
it just clicked to my brain that I need to get this tattoo and I need to get it now.
-[Jeremiah] Oh, wow. -[Carmela] It's nice in here.
[Jeremiah] I've been wanting to get this tattoo for a long time, but...
it wasn't until after I met my grandmother,
that I knew the time was right.
-How you doing? -How's it going, man?
Going pretty good.
-[artist] Okay. -I want something
with my fathers last name, his date of birth
and when he, uh, when he got killed.
Okay.
And, how many letters?
-Uh, -It's ten.
-Ten. -[artist] Oh, wow.
-Alright. -Right, let me get you to write this down.
I'll have you write it.
Okay.
You wanna hold this?
[Jeremiah] I may have never met my father, but...
ever since I learned about his existence,
I felt his spirit around me.
-[artist] Is that your last name? -[Jeremiah] Yes and no.
I was actually adopted.
-Okay. -Uh, and so,
my last name is right here.
My adopted last name.
R-A-B-E-R.
But, I just found my biological father.
Or, found out that...
he actually got killed by his wife.
-Oh, wow. -And, that's his last name.
And, this is actually my biological cousin,
-who I just met with in the last year. -Wow.
-That's a pretty important tattoo. -Yeah?
[Jeremiah] You wonder if my father knew...
that he had a kid.
Because I was his only child.
Yeah.
-He had no other kids. -Yeah.
Alright, what I need you to do is just lay face-down right here with your head down here,
and then, kinda put your arm off to the side like that.
Well... here we go.
[tattoo machine whirring]
[Jeremiah] If my dad was here,
with my right now, I'd have two things to say to him.
I'd ask him, "why did you leave me?"
And, the second thing would be, "I love you, please don't leave me again."
[artist] So, you think this will help you close the chapter in your journey?
[Jeremiah] Oh, it's... yeah, definitely.
You know, I found out a lot of stuff,
over the last year.
And, I don't know if I was living in denial of everything.
I just... you know what I mean?
[artist] Yeah, yeah I do.
But, not it's...
This is just helping close that gap.
I think you did things to try to forget about it.
Like, you didn't wanna face it.
And, I think this, right here, is facing it.
And accepting.
[Jeremiah] That is actually true.
I tend to push things to the back of my mind if it's...
emotional stuff.
You made it, champ.
This looks fantastic, man.
I'll have you go look at it...
-Yeah. -...in the mirror over there.
-You're gonna love it. -Dude, you're gonna love it.
[Jeremiah] From the beginning of this journey, you know,
finding out about Dennis and my entire family.
You know, my real father, my cousins, you know, my grandmother.
It just seems like everything just keeps falling in place
as if somebody's putting it there for me.
-That looks amazing. -That looks good.
Dude, I couldn't ask for a better...
-It looks really good. -It looks real good.
I ended up getting a tattoo with...
the Hiltabidel name, which is my father's last name
and then, it has his birth date and...
the day that he died.
It looks amazing.
-Thanks. -Just so you know,
this is a memory that will always be with me.
-Thanks, man. -Yup.
You guys have no idea.
[indistinct chatter]
I'm like...
That looks freaking amazing.
He did a real... he did a really good job.
[Carmela] I'm hoping that Jeremiah, now finding a lot of answers about his family,
will help relax him.
And, now, maybe we can move forward and, hopefully, conceive.
You happy now?
-[Jeremiah] Oh, 100 percent -Cool.
[Kenneth] I'm about to go tell my parents that
my decision is, you know, to leave the Amish.
[in foreign language]
I don't... like...
[Fannie] Ray is staying away from our Amish community,
so, I went into town, to talk to him today.
And, he told me about what happened.
[siren wails]
[man] The local Amish man was arrested for operating
a buggy under the influence.
I was stopped in my horse and buggy.
'Cause...
I was really [bleep] hammered.
I feel bad because if I do something wrong,
the Amish punish my family for it.
Even my sister.
I just feel really bad, I feel like...
everything has their limits, like,
I like partying and everything but, I also like having a responsibility.
-Responsibility is the part I love. -True.
-And, I feel like that's...
taking care of my parents.
[Fannie] He's taking his buggy under the influence arrest very hard.
Because, family reputation
is very important among the Amish.
And, that,
the buggy under the influence,
doesn't only reflect on Ray,
it reflects on their whole family.
Hello.
Pretty good.
[in foreign language]
Yeah.
[in foreign language]
Yeah.
Can you tell mom and dad to call me?
Like, I've really been trying to get in touch with 'em.
[in foreign language]
In the Amish, if you do some stuff bad... like you do some bad things,
like, they come at your family,
they shun your... your fam... like, your mom and dad.
And, like, I don't think that's fair.
That's just wrong.
Like, I can't have my family being punished for something I did.
Ready to go?
Alright, well,
tell my family I'm trying to get a hold of 'em, tell 'em to call me back.
-Who are you on the phone with? -Alright, bye.
I was on the phone with my family, my sister,
who is... I'm worried about her.
I know.
I feel bad for Ray,
but, I also feel bad for Johnny and Rosanna because
they are trying to do everything by the book
because they went back to the Amish and...
they're having a baby and...
I just hope this doesn't ruin
Johnny and Rosanna trying to get
into the bishop's good graces.
[Raymond] I just feel really bad.
[Kenneth] I'm about to go tell my parents that uh,
um, my decision is to, you know, leave the Amish.
I mean, I really love my parents
and I'm worried that this decision is gonna break their hearts.
You know, that's the last thing that I wanna do.
[in foreign language]
[Kenneth speaking]
[sniffling]
[Kenneth speaking]
[cries]
So, you know, after I talked with my dad,
you know, he told me that...
I mean, he wasn't overjoyed with my decision.
I can see a look of disappointment in his eyes.
Made me feel more guilty.
Our parents def... my parents want me to stay Amish,
but, you know, right now, I have things to do.
You know, I'll have a...
I have a dream to accomplish.
[Raymond] I'm driving to Pennsylvania to pick up Fannie,
so we can go down to Florida, and see Sabrina's little baby.
When I was Amish, I was lucky to...
to have my license.
Amish, technically, are not supposed to drive,
but, you're allowed to get your license
if it's for work.
That's how I can drive.
I'm showing up to Johnny's house with Amish clothes
out of respect for the community.
[dog barking]
-[Johnny] Hey, Daniel. -[Daniel] Hey, guys.
-[Johnny] How you doing? -[Daniel] Pretty good.
Oh, come on, Fannie, give me a hug.
[all laugh]
[Fannie] I don't know if Johnny and Rosanna
know what happened with Ray and...
I'm just not that type of person to...
say anything about it.
How was your drive out here?
[Daniel] Pretty good, it was long.
I'll get some food ready and...
we can catch up.
I think you guys have time.
[both chuckle]
[Rosanna] I don't think Daniel has any idea
that Fannie likes him,
but, they would make a really cute couple.
I'm excited to see Daniel again.
But, I'm also very nervous.
I'm pretty sure that Johnny and Rosanna
would keep my secret, but...
I'm nervous that they would start, like,
making weird comments,
that he would pick up on, and it would be like,
super-awkward and it would even be worse...
than just telling him myself.
Hey, if you're staying, we gotta get that car off the road.
-Hide it before the neighbors see it. -Oh, yeah.
Why don't you meet me around the back
and we'll put it in the shed out there.
-Alright. -We'll get the food ready.
[Johnny] Me and Rose are trying to
get on the bishop's good side.
[cow mooing]
So, we can get married and be together.
And, have a family.
So, I needed Daniel
pull his car in a barn,
just so, the neighbors and...
no other Amish see that he was there.
We gotta do what we gotta do.
What do you think, this is a good spot?
Yeah, it looks like a good spot.
[Fannie] Me, being shunned and...
someone that is baptized,
if I see someone that is baptized,
I cannot...
eat at the same table as them,
I cannot dish out my own food,
from the same bowls that they're gonna dish out, because...
basically, my sins would be in there.
So, they had to dish out my food...
on my plate,
and then, they'll bring it over to...
where I'm sitting,
and then...
I'll just eat by myself there.
The whole shunning process is very humiliating.
I don't know how to explain
to English people, what it's like,
to be shunned, but...
take the biggest rejection in your life
and multiply it by 100.
It's that hard.
You guys are gonna have a good time out in Florida, I'm sure.
I don't know, I'm gonna have to put her in the backseat if she...
-No. -...if she's like, messing with my radio too much.
But, I'm really excited to see the baby.
Yeah, we're also gonna pick up Kenneth on the way down.
-Oh. Oh, there you go. -Oh, okay.
He doesn't get to talk about music,
he's just gonna have to listen to it.
-I think you guys would get along good... -Yeah.
Have a good ride down.
[Daniel] We'll see.
[Fannie] I kind of, have to tell Daniel
how I feel and...
I'm really nervous.
But, also excited.
Thanks for the lunch.
You're welcome.
[Daniel] It's good seeing you guys again.
I'm glad you stopped and stayed a while.
Definitely.
Well, I wanna talk to you before we go.
[chuckles]
I don't know what Daniel's reaction will be,
but, I hope...
I hope he, like, feels the same way.
Think she's gonna tell him?
I don't know, probably.
I'm kinda nervous for her.
[both chuckle]
[Daniel] So, what do you wanna talk about?
[Fannie] Now that it's actually time to tell him how I feel,
I'm worried that he'll turn me down and...
guess that would be really hard.
I'm also scared that...
in the long run, it'll ruin our friendship.
[Daniel] What is it?
[Fannie] I'm really nervous to talk to him and...
tell him how I feel.
[Daniel] Fannie pulled me aside,
to talk about something.
I'm very confused right at the moment.
This friendship is really important to me
because, I mean,
I feel like we've both been there for each other in situations where...
we both needed each other and...
I don't know, it would just be weird not having him as a friend anymore.
You're different from the guys that I've met in my community.
Like...
just honest and straightforward and...
kind, like,
when we were... went roller-skating in Florida,
like, when you helped Ada,
I just thought that was really sweet.
There's something else I wanna talk to you about.
It was really... I didn't think
I was gonna be able to do it because...
well, that's usually just not me, I'm just not...
usually, I'm just not that type of girl, I would never do that.
What is it?
[clears throat]
[in foreign language]
I don't... like...
I don't know, I guess I'm a little... I don't know,
shocked, I guess.
[in foreign language]
I mean, I think you're... like a very...
smart girl.
I like how you're, you know, straightforward with things,
I... I do like that, but...
I don't know, I guess we could, you know,
be friends for now.
I'll be honest, like,
what you, you know,
asked there, that's like, it...
or told me, it just...
caught me off-guard.
It's like, I was not expecting that, so...
don't feel like I'm trying to reject you or...
I just... I just wanna... you know,
at least keep it a friendship
-for now, you know. -Yeah.
-Like, I enjoy that. -I totally get that.
[Fannie] I mean, it was hard to tell Daniel how I feel
because I'm not the type of girl
that will just...
I don't run after men, in my opinion, that's the men's problem...
to do stuff like that, I mean,
if you actually like me, you'll tell me.
But, if you don't, then...
then you don't like me, apparently.
So...
I think, that was just a nice way of, like,
"no, let's just be friends".
-Alright, well, it was a good talk. -Okay.
We had a little baby girl
and she has this light about her
and it's interesting to me because I've never seen...
a child with...
an inner radiance in them before.
But, she has it and I don't know what it is but, it's beautiful.
-[baby cries] -[Sabrina] Cleaning her diaper.
What are you thoughts on the contents of her diaper?
I don't know, but they're messy.
I'm ready to go home.
-[baby crying] -It's good, it's good, it's good.
[Jethro] I hate hospitals, number one, you know and...
just dealing with a bunch of stress in the hospital is just...
I was... I was... I was just over it.
Babe, are you ready to go home?
[Sabrina] I'm so glad that I get to go home to my own house
with me and Jethro and the kids.
Where's the baby?
Baby.
Baby. [laughs] Yes.
This baby, you're staying up with this baby every single night.
[chuckles]
[Jethro] Yes.
-[laughs] -You are, 'cause I am done not sleeping.
This'll be the third year I haven't slept.
[seagulls squawking]
[Fannie] Me and Daniel, we both decided that we're not gonna let this get...
awkward for our Florida trip.
But, I still have a feeling it's going to be...
a little bit awkward.
Did you see the way he looked at her
-in that dress? -Yeah.
[Fannie] Me and Daniel, we both decided that we're not gonna let this get...
awkward for our Florida trip.
But, I still have a feeling it's going to be...
a little bit awkward, I don't care how hard we both try
because, deep down, I'm gonna make it awkward because...
that was hard for me
to actually tell him how I feel.
Now, I have to go on this trip with him
and for what his answer was,
it's just gonna be awkward for me because...
I don't know, it just is, that's just how I am.
-What do you think? Florida approve? -Oh, yeah.
[Daniel] Nice.
Nice outfit for the trip.
You ready to go?
-Absolutely. -[Rosanna] Hope you guys have a safe trip.
[together] Thanks.
[Daniel] We will definitely try that.
-[Fannie] You take care of yourself. -[Rosanna] You too.
[Daniel] Good luck, Rose.
-[Johnny] See you, Fannie. -[Fannie] You take care of her.
-[Daniel] See you guys. -[Johnny] I will.
-We'll see ya. -See ya.
[Rosanna] I know Daniel told Fannie that...
they just wanna be friends for now, but...
the way he looked at her in that dress...
I think he is...
he definitely wants
a little bit more than just being friends.
They're definitely gonna have something going on.
[Daniel] I'm still pretty surprised about how Fannie feels about me.
But, we do have a great friendship.
We could talk about, pretty much, anything and uh,
I guess, at the moment,
I'm just gonna value the friendship that we have and see where it goes.
You're gonna be tired of me by the time we get down there.
I don't think so.
No, I'm sure you will be. I'm gonna aggravate the crap out of you.
[both laugh]
[Fannie] I'm surprised that Johnny and Rosanna
didn't say anything about Ray's BUI arrest.
[Daniel] Yeah, I know.
Was kinda weird.
What'd you think about grandma?
Man, she's amazing.
-Yes. -Like, totally amazing.
-Pretty cool lady, huh? -Yeah.
And, I'll be... I'll be honest.
She...
accepted me a little...
better than what I thought she would actually.
Yeah, right.
Not gonna lie.
Every fear that I had, every worry that I had,
they just disappeared and I just felt calm and at peace.
That was probably the best decision I've made.
Going there.
I'm glad I came with you, man.
I think it's extremely healthy that he has Bill in his life.
Because, now he has somebody that shares that family bond and I feel like
Jeremiah needs that because I feel like his whole entire life,
he didn't feel like he belonged.
And now, I feel like he feels home.
Like he can relax.
I know Jeremiah comes up as hard, but...
you being here, has meant so much to him.
Like...
without you here...
or just being in his life, I think has...
made a huge difference.
Like, I feel like he can actually move forward in life now.
Well, that means a lot, means a whole lot.
-There's nothing more... -Means a lot to me.
...great in life than to have family, it's just... it's...
feels so...
to have an unconditional love,
whose, you know, family will accept you.
It's something I feel like he hasn't felt.
And, now, he has felt it.
It's meant a lot to me, too.
Glad I could be a part of it for you.
And, the rest of your life.
I'm not going anywhere.
Neither am I.
[Jeremiah] You know, in the past, I've pushed so many people away.
You know, because once somebody starts getting close to my heart,
I just don't like being the the type of person who shows emotion, opens up and...
it's easier for me if people just walk.
You know, that way it's no emotion, no...
connection, nothing, but...
now that I've found out about my biological family,
I feel like I'm in a better place.
And, that's why it's important that we keep pushing
forward so we can get all the answers we can about my family.
[Bill] I gotta get going now.
Alright.
I hate the endings,
-always. -I know.
I know, I don't like it.
-I don't like it either. -See you later.
-Yeah. See you. -See you both later.
-Na, come on, man. -Yes.
Two hugs, that deserves a two hug.
Should have been a one arm.
[chuckles] One arm.
I can feel it, like, I can feel it radiating from you.
I feel your calmness, which is nice.
[Jeremiah] I know I have more answers to find out,
but...
right now, I'm at peace.
Give me a hug.
And, right now, me and Carmela,
we can't wait to get to Sarasota
because we promised Sabrina that we would go see her baby.
Let's go get some sleep.
[Jeremiah] Hmm. Sleep.
[Johnny] Ray brought shame on you.
I mean, my choices are to turn my back on Rosanna,
or move out of the community and...
go our own way.
But, I wanna be Amish.
[Rosanna] Ever since my brother, Ray's got into some trouble,
everyone is talking about it
and Johnny's been very quiet.
And, I can tell that he's upset.
I'm really upset that Ray brought
shame on Rosanna,
and, it's gonna ruin her reputation more.
I'm just disappointed.
[chicken clucking]
I do not want Johnny to leave me.
I'm pregnant and...
if Johnny, if he decides to
leave, that would be really hard for me,
because... I would have to do it all on my own and...
I don't think I could.
I'm really supportive of you.
Hang on.
But...
Ray brought shame on you.
I know.
Maybe we would just...
worry about that when...
I don't know.
I mean, my choices are basically,
to turn my back on Rosanna,
so I can stay in the Amish community,
or just...
move out of the community and...
go our own way.
I will never love anyone as much as I love Rosanna.
But... I wanna be Amish.
But, I really wanna be with you
and...
I guess we'll just have to...
try and see what we can... come up with.
[Rosanna sniffles]
Perfect.
-Is it good? -Yeah.
Thank you.
[Sabrina] I invited Jeremiah and Carmela
to come see the baby.
-Hello. -Hey, guys.
-Come in. -Come on in.
How are you?
[Sabrina] I also invited Daniel,
Fannie and Kenneth.
-Hey! -Hi.
-Hello, everyone. -Hello.
[Carmela] You guys look like you're glowing.
You guys look so confident and happy.
Thanks.
[baby crying]
I'mma go check on her.
[Fannie] I'm very happy for Jethro and Sabrina.
And...
I'm very happy for them, that their family is growing.
Oh, my.
-[Sabrina] Hi. -Oh, my God, it's so tiny.
Hi. How are you today?
-[Carmela] She's so cute. -Hi.
-So tiny. -Hi.
[Carmela] Look how little she is.
[Sabrina] I don't know who this person is.
Say hi.
Yeah, congratulations, guys.
-Thank you. -[in foreign language]
[Kenneth] I'm... very happy to see that...
you know, Jethro, Sabrina and their kids have a...
have a good family. It seems like they're happier now.
She's got your eyes, Jethro.
[Jethro] Yeah.
[Sabrina] Yeah. Yes, you can smile...
Aww, look at her.
-Say hi. -Look.
She's so precious.
-[Jeremiah] Very alert. -[Carmela] Yeah.
I'm happy for Sabrina.
I really am.
And, I truly feel that...
we would be so good with a...
child and...
you know, and it's something we both want.
I have a video of Rosanna, she sent this to me,
and she wanted me to show you.
Oh, okay.
[Rosanna] Hey, Sabrina, I just wanna tell you
congratulations on your new baby.
I really wish I could have been there.
And, I always looked up to you,
you were always just like a big sister to me.
And, but I just hope you understand...
about the decision that me and Johnny made about going back Amish.
But, I always will hold you close to my heart.
Aww.
-[Carmela] That was sweet. -[Sabrina] That's awesome.
So, how is home? I feel like I'm looking at all new people.
When I went home,
I mean, I wore my Amish clothes out of respect and...
that way, you know, you can preserve the relationship, but...
they're not overly joyed with my decision.
Yeah, I was pretty nervous to, you know,
go see my parents for the first time.
They're not...
proud of my decision or any means
but, also, they know, like,
this is now who I'm gonna be so.
It's good.
So, how was Vegas?
Went very awesome.
I don't even know how to explain it.
Like, I felt like I had family before.
-Mmm-hmm. -You know, with people
that weren't blood related, but now that I actually found
my biological family,
that's what real family feels like.
[Daniel] Well, I'm happy for you, at least you got that, you know,
figured out and everything's working out the way it sounds for ya.
[Jeremiah] How about you?
[Fannie] It didn't really go well, for me.
Mom kicked me out.
I really miss my nieces and nephews.
Have you seen them since you left?
No.
Are you happy?
I am.
I mean, family is important, yes, but...
I feel like...
my own happiness is just as important as everything else.
[Jethro] They'll come around.
It's a... it's a matter of time, I guess,
how my parents were, they didn't talk to me for the longest time and then...
I slowly started getting phone calls, you know, from dad and just, like,
if you kinda of, play that, like, tough love thing, like, you know what I'm saying.
-Like, eventually, they feel bad... -[Fannie] Yeah.
...and they feel like they [bleep] up.
[Sabrina] It's not that easy for everybody though.
No, it's not.
Some parents are just...
straight up dicks.
[Sabrina] I mean, my biggest thing
has been, just creating my own family.
With my own friends.
And, family isn't always blood.
-Yeah. That's true. -[Sabrina] You know.
Our couch is always open, y'all can always crash here whenever you need to.
-Thank you. -Appreciate it.
We're family and we have to have each other's backs
and since our families...
no longer exist in a sense,
we've created our own
family and I feel like we all have each other's back pretty good.