[Rain Brown speaking]
[Snowbird Brown speaking]
[breathes deeply]
[sniffles and exhales]
[narrator] On this episode of Alaskan Bush People...
I've never given up on Raiven and I's marriage.
You looking forward to getting moved up here, little man? [chuckles]
[Raiven Adams] I think it'll be good in the long run,
but I do think they'll be that little adjustment period.
[Bear Brown] I have zero experience driving trailers.
Oh, you're really close, and I really don't like it.
[Noah Brown] Then we would start in Haines.
After Juneau, where are we going?
[Snowbird] This Alaska trip means a lot to me.
It does cross my mind of, like, where am I supposed to be?
[all] One, two, three, Alaska!
[Snowbird exhales deeply]
I don't wanna go to the doctor.
-[Rain] What if it's something serious? -[Snowbird exhales]
[Bam Bam Brown] My mind has a tendency
-to go to the worst-case scenario. -[Rain crying]
[Rain] I know that everything's gonna be okay,
but I've thought that before and I was wrong.
[Rain] I don't know how she got out, but she did.
[goat bleats]
The hard part is getting her inside without them getting out.
Go on. Stay over there.
-[goats bleating] -No, guys.
-Don't follow me. -[goats bleating]
[narrator] It's spring in northern Washington,
and the new season brings endless opportunities for the Browns
as they continue the rejuvenation of North Star Ranch.
I shouldn't go any further.
It'll get flimsy on me. [groans]
[narrator] But for a part of the wolfpack,
an adventure awaits,
as they finalize plans to return to Alaska.
[Noah] This trip to Alaska could end up being
the thing that changes my little family's life forever.
This isn't a nostalgia trip.
My wife and I are looking for a home.
This is about reclaiming something we lost,
and I realize now that one of the most important things is Alaska.
[Snowbird] You know, after losing dad,
my love of our way of life in the bush has definitely gotten stronger,
and I know that's what he wanted for me.
Everyone else in the family is settling down
and building houses and having babies,
but I don't know if that's in the cards for me.
I definitely think Alaska will help answer a lot of my questions.
We're going up in the time that the bears are going to be waking up.
-[Snowbird] I was gonna say, they're hungry. -They're hungry.
-Yep, yeah. -Yes.
[Noah] So we'll have to be very careful.
And we all look delicious.
Yeah, I know, I know. Especially you three.
[laughing]
[Snowbird] So, anytime you go to Alaska, it's fairly dangerous.
There are definitely still gonna be some storms,
uh, the bears are fully awake now.
Part of me is excited that Noah and his wife are going.
Having more people, it is always a good idea.
The bigger the group the better.
-We have the Integrity. -Okay.
[Snowbird] And it's in Juneau.
The bunks from downstairs were ripped out and put upstairs.
[Rain] What Bird and I were thinking
is that we would take the roof.
And plus, we can throw a tent out--
And let y'all have the downstairs bunk area.
So, what happens if we get blown in and it's a storm...
and it's like... [mimics wild wind blowing]
-[Snowbird] I get blown off. -Okay, guys, goodnight!
I'll see you all tomorrow.
-[mimics wild wind blowing] -[Snowbird laughing]
-Yes. -Well, if there's a giant storm coming,
we'll go down to the bow.
And we have two kids as well that are going with us.
For a little while, Noah, Alisha and I didn't get along.
I'm just concerned that we'll get in close quarters.
Someone will say something that somebody doesn't like.
You know, or an issue we'll get brought back up
that just needs to die. [chuckles]
I feel like we need to figure out some way
to each have, you know, a spot to go.
I don't wanna accidentally strangle anybody.
So, are we all on the same page,
that we're starting in Haynes and working our way down?
-Yeah, I think so... -[Noah] Okay.
...'cause that's where Rain and I wanted to start.
I just... I want to walk Mom's and Dad's path
and see, you know, what they did.
A lot of stuff could still be there even,
you know, from Mom and Dad.
-It's, like, we're redoing what Mom and Dad did. -Yeah.
-I'm taking my wife, my two boys... -Right.
-...and going up to find a piece of property. -Mmm-hmm.
My wife and I, we're going to scout out some property.
Most of the places that I'm going are not listed.
That's what this journey is.
It's trying to find a place that you're not gonna find down here.
Then we would start in Haines,
head down to Juneau.
After Juneau, where are we going?
[Snowbird] Honestly, this is exciting.
You know, I wanna go to Alaska
and go to all these different islands,
Haines, Juneau, and Petersburg,
and I'm super excited to go to Mosman.
You know, I can open the letter that Mom gave me.
I mean, I'm definitely hoping by the end of this trip,
I come back with all the answers.
[Rain] My main motivation
is to make sure that it's Bird's best trip ever.
She's very torn if she should stay here,
or she should follow her heart and go to Alaska.
I'm just really hoping that she gets the answer that she's seeking.
Alaska on three.
Right!
[all] One, two, three, Alaska!
[Bear] You wanna see the sky? Can you see the sky?
-[Raiven] Here. -[Bear] The sky.
-[both] Yeah. -[Raiven] Do you want these?
[Bear] You smart boy.
Well, life isn't just sunshine and rainbows.
Not everything is perfect.
Like, most storms and most things like that,
you always have obstacles.
During tough times, you always think back.
You're, like, "Oh, I wish I did something differently,"
or things that you regret.
I'd love to have a happy fairytale sort of life,
but I feel like I've already failed as a dad.
I've never given up on Raiven and I's marriage.
I've never give up that we can still work things out.
As long as we both want to be with each other and we both love each other,
then that is something worth fighting for to the end.
Yeah, you wanna have some fun, baby?
Ooh, you got some more pine cones.
-Oh, you knew his weakness. -Wow.
[Raiven] No matter what we went through,
we always felt like we were still committed to working things out,
because it feels like our relationship is worth fighting for.
I have never picked cherries before.
Having love for each other and just knowing each other so well,
we've definitely come a long way.
Raiven, would you marry me?
Yes, Bear.
When Bear asked me to marry him,
saying "Yes," it felt like a very comfortable choice,
and it definitely feels like a good choice then and a great choice now.
Daddy's gonna build you a very cool swing.
-I have never built a swing. -You've never built a swing?
-Oh, okay. -[Raiven] This is totally on you.
So, I was actually taut by my old man,
but I've made a few swings myself.
-But I'll make sure that this one is more secure. -[Raiven chuckles]
[Bear] I think this is the one I had my eye on.
It feels really great to be up on mountain with Raiven and River.
The fresh air and the beauty of it is just awesome,
and it really feels great,
and it really makes you feel alive,
and that you really know what you're living for.
[grunting]
[laughing]
[Bear] You spin them enough and they come down.
Was that pretty cool?
[Bear] Well right now, my main goal
is to just get my family moved up on mountain on a permanent basis
and make Raiven and River as comfortable as they possibly can be.
-Nothing but net. -[Raiven] Good throw.
Okay, let's see if I can get this thing
to go through this one properly.
[Raiven] Where are you trying to go?
You got dirt. Yeah.
He said, "I'd be content with just the dirt, Daddy."
-[vocalizes] -[Bear and Raiven] Yeah.
You like it up here, don't you?
-He always seems to. -Yeah, he does.
He definitely is enjoying being outdoors, and in the dirt,
and just having, like, the freedom to run around,
-you know, wherever he wants. -[Bear] Yeah. Yeah.
No roads to worry about and...
Be nice if we can get moved up here
on a permanent basis, you know?
With a trailer being up here would be the best way to start, don't you figure?
[narrator] Seven miles down mountain,
Raiven and River have been temporarily living in a trailer home.
In order to raise their son on their mountain homestead,
Bear plans to haul the RV through the narrow roads
onto North Star Ranch.
[Bear] If we can get that trailer up here,
maybe even get a small shack type thing thrown up beside it,
uh, give us a little bit more room maybe,
then we could really start working on maybe, like, a house plan.
Talking about getting the trailer that we have prepared to move up mountain,
it's really starting to set in that our life is about to change.
There's gonna be bigger adjustments,
now learning how to live together
and in an environment I am not used to.
Obviously gonna bring some challenges there.
And I feel like the, uh,
trailer's kind of like a happy-medium right now.
You know, it's not exactly as you grew up,
but, you know, it's closer than not being up here.
I think it'd be nice to be up here
and get him used to being up here.
-[Bear] Yeah. -More of a daily basis.
No. It would be nice with the stars up here at night.
[River vocalizes]
Pretty nice. Oh, you got the swing on.
Okay. We can do it with Mommy's help, okay?
Hold on on your hands.
-[Raiven] What you think? -Swing!
[Raiven] I'm gonna get...
Swing!
-[Bear chuckles] -Oh!
[laughing]
[Bear and Raiven laughing]
Hold on, baby. Hold on.
Definitely excited for River
to live, like, the same type of lifestyle that I grew up with.
It's a new chapter that I'll be starting with my family up mountain.
It's a pretty awesome feeling.
-[Raiven] What are you trying to see? -[Bear] What you going for?
[Raiven] I think you're, uh, gonna wear Daddy out.
-And I don't think anybody's every done that before. -[Bear laughing] No.
Circle of life, maybe one day he'll be chasing his own boy.
[Snowbird exhales deeply]
[Snowbird] It hurts so bad.
[exhales]
-[exhales] -[Rain] I think we should take you down mountain.
I don't think you should be up here.
[Snowbird] I think I'm fine, though.
[Rain] I don't feel comfortable going to sleep with you
-like this up here. -[Snowbird] But I don't wanna go to the doctor.
One second. I apologize. Just give me a minute.
Let me think about it for one second, okay?
[exhales deeply]
I've been feeling pretty bad for quite a while.
I haven't really told anybody.
I've been in a lot of pain uh, with my stomach,
uh, like my sides a lot.
The pain has significantly gotten worse lately.
It's gotten bad enough that I couldn't move,
and I was just, like, on the floor.
I don't wanna go to the doctor, though.
[Rain] It doesn't matter what you want.
[Snowbird] They're gonna wanna, like, take blood and do tests...
-[Rain] Yes. -...and have needles.
-[Rain] Maybe, yeah. -[Snowbird] I don't wanna go to the doctor.
-[Rain] What if it's something serious? -[Snowbird breathes deeply]
[exhales]
She's tried to hide the pain for a very long time.
[exhales] I feel really dizzy.
-Let me help you. -[exhales]
Bird wants nothing to do with the doctor.
I practically had to hold her for ransom
to get her to go to the doctor.
Can I go down the stairs before you, please?
-Please, please, please. -[Snowbird] I'm gonna throw up.
-[Rain] Thank you. -[Snowbird] No, I have to get outside.
-[Rain] I know. I know. -[Snowbird] I'm gonna... I'm gonna throw up.
-[Rain] I know. -[Snowbird exhales]
Argh, my side really hurts. Give me one second.
-[Rain] Just wait a minute. -[Snowbird exhales]
And to see her get to the point where she says,
"I need to go to the doctor," you know it's...
it's serious.
[Raiven] Do you wanna go get the last bag out of the house?
I think it's Daddy's bag.
[groans]
One day you'll be a big boy and you can help Mommy, huh?
[narrator] As Bird seeks medical care at an Oroville clinic,
Raiven packs her trailer for a life-changing move
up to North Star Ranch.
I promise we're almost done,
and then we can go up mountain
where the horsies are.
Well, there's almost no room left.
All your stuff's in here and Mommy and Daddy's stuff.
Now we just gotta make the stretch up the mountain,
which hopefully...
-[River vocalizes] -...Daddy can take care of that, huh?
That sounds like Daddy's job.
I do feel like it's going to be a bit more of an adjustment for me.
I grew up with my dad.
It was more a country small town,
and, you know, when I was with my mom,
beaches and very simple,
but still had access to everything
you'd need or want.
It was much different than the type of lifestyle
that I am preparing to go adjust to.
I think we've kind of got everything together.
Moving to the bush is definitely an adjustment
especially for someone that grew up in cities,
and so I think one of the biggest things
that Raiven's gonna have to adjust to is the isolation.
[Gabe] There's a certain amount of survival skills
that you get when you live as remote as where we grew up.
[turkey call box starts]
Those kind of survival skills that are just second nature
to us can be a tough adjustment even for someone from the country.
[Raiven] Now I just gotta make the stretch up the mountain.
All of our belongings, everything that's important to us.
Good job.
All heading up.
It's a scary thought that we could lose everything in the blink of an eye.
It's definitely a good way to get shoved into the lifestyle.
[Gabe] There's no shortage of ruts.
We need it to be at least passable.
If this road is not operational, neither are we.
[grunting] Just want to try to give Bear the best shot at getting that thing up here.
[Bam] There are a couple spots on the road,
this one being the main ones
that always accumulate a lot of water.
Now for Bear to bring up his trailer,
patching this spot of the road does give him the best chance to not get stuck.
[Gabe] We're also effectively widening the road, which is a good thing.
[Bam] This is true.
If the road isn't open and drivable,
we're at a complete standstill.
There are not alternate ways to drive around. At the moment,
this is the spot that's important.
I'mma put all these bits in here, like little wooden logs and stuff.
Well, what we should do is some of the larger areas
is what the Romans actually did and take large rocks,
and fill the holes with them and then put the dirt on top of that.
-Yeah. -Is what we should do.
I definitely think that the peace of the mountain
will help Bear and Raiven's relationship.
There's definitely something about it when you break through the canopy,
and you get that breath of fresh air,
an absence from outside interference.
You know, they need the time to themselves to really learn each other.
Already I can tell you that's gonna be better.
We do that all the way down.
Do you have a rake or anything?
No, we need a hoe and a rake.
-Yeah, we do. -And another shovel.
You know, just like patching a road,
patching a relationship's the same way.
It takes a lot of hard work.
And I think that's what they need,
and I think that's what they're gonna get up here.
Assuming Bam and I can fill all these holes.
This is the ever famous Alaskan arm shovel.
I've used it many a times.
It is both therapeutic and very progressive.
This is the Alaskan hopscotch padding method,
originally designed by the early settler children.
When we said by hand we mean it.
[laughs]
We sure do.
[Raiven] Look what you have gotten me into.
[laughs] What have I gotten myself into this time?
The brake is on the left, huh?
[Bear laughs]
Joking, I got my license, babe, I'm just joking.
I actually have zero experience driving trailers,
in general, not even regular trailers,
or motorhome, RVs at all.
But that's what makes life worth living, that's the adventure.
Having that cliff ledges and slipping out,
that is what makes it really fun.
[Raiven] Are you nervous about the turns up here?
Uh, not really. I don't know if nervous is the right word.
My dad could pull trailers in his sleep.
Backwards, forwards, sideways,
up mountains, down mountains.
My dad though, he could do pretty much anything.
I just think I can.
[Raiven] I'm a little nervous with him making the corners with the RV.
It is quite a large RV,
and those roads are very skinny,
and they're very on the edge.
If you make a wrong turn,
I hate to think what would happen.
I, you know, that'd be the case, so hopefully
all will go and we can get it up there.
-[Bear] Here we go, baby, we just take it nice and easy. -[Raiven whoops]
Not overheat this baby.
-We've got all of our prized possessions back there. -I know, right?
Any obstacles that my family and I ever encountered,
we always just trust in the faith of the good Lord to take care of it.
And it's not different driving this trailer up mountain.
Uh, I know God's got it, so I'm just full barreling ahead
and hoping to get that trailer all the way up.
I better hit this one fast, hold on, baby.
-We got it, baby. -[Raiven groans]
[Raiven] You need to slow down a little because I can even see the trailer tipping.
[Bear] I'm right on this edge.
I'd rather put it in the trees than off the ledge.
Bringing the trailer up mountain,
I really want to prove to Raiven that she can count on me.
[Raiven groans]
You're really close on my side and I really don't like it.
[Bear] Even if it's a little bit out of my comfort zone,
she can count on me for anything, even things that I don't normally do.
[Raiven] Oh, I'm so ready to park this.
[Bear] Okay, now, where we parking this baby
is the next question.
Probably back it out, actually.
[Raiven] Yeah, you might wanna pull forward and then...
[car groaning]
That's not good.
I don't think that's supposed to happen, baby.
[Raiven] Be careful.
[engine revving]
[Bear] Come on.
[engine struggling]
-[Bear] Hold on. -[engine throttling]
Well, that's if it actually works, it would help, come on!
Hold on, baby, hold on.
-[Raiven] Get out. -[Bear] It's on fire.
Damn, I thought she smelled a little hot.
And just when we think we're okay,
we just make another hill and all of a sudden,
the truck keeps overheating, barreling smoke out of it,
to the point of literally catching on fire.
[sighs] Baby.
-You always gotta set something on fire, don't you? -I know. [laughs]
-It's not my fault. -[Raiven, sarcastically] Sure.
Reminds me of the good ol' days of boats blowing up and things going wrong.
It was a bit sticky getting up here,
but we have our feet on mountain.
Feels awesome to be up here finally, and up here with my family.
[exclaims] I couldn't be happier right now.
I mean, I call that victory, right?
-[Raiven] Close enough. -[both laugh]
[narrator] Coming up...
We're gonna do surgery as soon as possible
because it's very serious.
I supposed to be like the strong one.
You know, nothing's supposed to happen to me.
[narrator] And later...
[Bird] Waiting for these results is hard.
I'm preparing for the worst, I guess, in this case.
Is there going to be a point that
it's just normal?
[Bird] Okay.
Okay.
[voice cracking] But like, what happens next?
[Rain speaking]
[Bird speaking]
[Rain] Bird's telling me that it's serious.
My heart sank.
Our family has been through so much
in just the past couple years.
And now that Bird's health is in jeopardy,
um,
it makes me feel like the devil found my weak spot.
Your beagle is gonna have to pull hard.
-Are you ready? -Ready.
Forgot my jacket.
-Let's do this. -All right.
You know, I didn't want to go to the doctor,
because I didn't want it to be something serious.
And that's why I always put it off.
It's a lot more serious than I thought it was gonna be.
If I'm being honest, none of this feels real.
I mean, I potentially have cancer.
I'm supposed to be like the strong one.
You know, nothing's supposed to happen to me.
But on top of that, it's the punch in the gut
that the Alaska trip is being delayed.
Has to be delayed.
You know, I know that God has this, and I know he has a plan.
As scary as this is,
but when looking down and knowing that's a tumor,
it's hard not worry about it.
And I hate to admit it, but I like can't even quit crying
because it's just like I just don't know anymore.
[Bam] Uh, a billion things going through my mind when I hear about Birdy.
The main one of course is just not knowing what's going on.
And not having any idea how bad this is.
'Cause my mind has a tendency to go to the worst case scenario,
and we've all been through so much, uh, just...
Just kind of hard to wrap your mind around
when you get another set of news like that.
[Gabe] You know, I was a big brother to Bird,
it's just a hard position for me to be in.
Not really know what's wrong is hard.
You know, there's no doubt in my mind
Bird is one of the strongest person I've ever met.
[Billy] I'm gonna leave you the best crew I can.
You're enough like Mom and enough like me both. You just keep hitting.
And they do listen to you.
[Gabe] Bird has always been a great leader.
One of the best at pep talks.
When it comes to rallying the troops, Bird's the one for the job.
[Snowbird] Now is not when to give up.
Giving up is just not in our nature.
As long as you know you're not alone.
The entire family is here for you,
and I'll always be there for you.
[Gabe] I just have to stay strong
for the rest of the pack in moments like this.
Bird's a very strong woman of God,
so I definitely think she'll get through it.
-[engine starts] -[Noah] Eli, come on.
Let's go take care of the horses.
Hearing what's going on with Bird,
and that she is definitely not doing well,
I mean, that's just not fair.
Eli, lower the bucket.
Good.
I'm the one that's supposed to keep getting hurt.
Right? Or anyone but Birdy.
Come one, buddy.
Growing up, Birdy and I were really close.
For the first 10 years of my life,
Birdy and I were the best of friends, we were inseparable.
[gunshot]
-[Noah] She got it. -[Bird] I hit it.
[Noah] It makes it difficult to do anything, worrying about Birdy.
It's another adversity being thrown at us.
And it's something trying to stop us from another chapter of life.
The first priority is always the family.
We have to make sure that Bird's good
before we can greenlight the trip to Alaska.
I really don't want to go back without her.
[Ami speaking]
[Bird speaking]
[Ami speaking]
[Bird speaking]
[Ami speaking]
[Ami] Bird has always been a rock of the family,
and she's always done, or try to do what people would let her for others.
So now that she has to be the one to be helped,
she's like me when I went through cancer.
It's, it's not natural
because we're the doers, not the receivers.
[whispers] I knew it.
You're strong, Birdy.
It's hard to watch a child going through this.
But I want to be strength for her.
Not, you know, sadness and despair.
I'm here.
No way, girl, look at you.
[Bird speaking]
-[Ami] I love you. -[Bird speaking]
[Ami speaking]
-Love you too. -I love you.
[exhales]
So I'm still in the hospital getting fluids.
Surgery's at 2:00. I'm gonna go down at one-ish.
I've been getting prepared since last night with the antibiotics and everything.
[exhales] I mean, life isn't always in your best...
Hopefully I'll feel a lot better once the, you know,
the pain and the surgery is fixed,
or at least subsided,
'cause it'll be a different pain than I'm in right now.
I'm in the elevator headed down to surgery.
Uh, literally the second. I'll be in pre-op for a little bit.
[voice trembling] And then, uh, I'll have the surgery and I'll be out.
I just got to the pre-op room.
I guess now I wait.
No one's able to come down with me so I'm alone.
[exhales] But I got this.
I do.
[Raiven] You never had a s'more before.
[Bear] Ooh, the first s'more.
Maybe Daddy can make you your first s'more.
I can do that. [grunts]
I think you'll like it. It's pretty messy,
but that's okay.
Got the trailer up mountain. Got us totally settled in.
It's a little hard to focus on anything else besides Birdy.
I was really shocked to hear that, that she's in the hospital.
And it's like we just cannot catch a break.
Mmm.
-You want a bite? -That's how you do it.
-Mmm. -It's pretty good, you sure?
-[laughing] -Mommy will eat it.
Yeah, anytime my family, the wolfpack, we face any tough situations,
it's time to just make you step back and appreciate what you have even more.
Right now, I have River, and I have Raiven, and I'm just trying to take solace
and appreciate that.
Hah, it's pretty nice and exciting to finally, uh, be up here with y'all guys,
and be makin' a home.
We got our trailer. Roasting some s'mores.
[Raiven] Yeah, it's crazy to open our door and have horse and ostriches.
[Bear laughs]
Just casually have a bonfire.
-Yeah. -Yeah. [laughs]
I think Bear took a little more, um, thought and care into being
you know, a good dad and a good husband, and just trying to
make his family happy and...
And it's been fun to see Bear comfortable in that role.
Aww. Looky there.
He's a big boy.
[Bear] I will say that I've definitely changed.
'Cause I've gone from a lone wolf
or a little role dad, to a family man.
I mean, I've got a wife, I've got a son.
That's something that I never thought that I'd have.
All that changed when I met Raiven, and, uh,
and I'm glad that it did.
[Rain] It is...
currently 5:30.
This is very reminiscent of when Mom was going through chemo.
I never thought I'd have to be
doing that with Mom.
But, and I...
I never dreamed that I would be doing it with Bird
and that's very surreal to me,
because Bird's never...
I don't know. She's never hurt. She's...
She's invincible.
Waiting for Bird to get out of surgery.
It just feels like time is standing still.
And I... I can't think about anything else.
Ever since Bird and I were kids,
it's always been Bird and I.
You know.
As anything with everything.
Always. Always, always, always.
20 years.
Bird's always been the one to take care of me.
She's always been the one that looks after me.
[laughing]
Anywhere Bird goes, I go.
Always.
You're not even just my sister, you're like, you're my best friend.
-You know? -Yeah.
[Rain] We've always said that
if the whole world disappeared we'd be fine as long as we had each other.
It killed me seeing Bird like this.
She was just in so much pain, she could barely breathe.
And I just wish that it were me.
[sobbing]
It's hard for a mother to watch their child suffering,
I have faith in her, because
when you sit back and think of it,
for God to put something so large on her plate,
he has a lot of faith in her.
So, I take comfort from God that,
she's got this.
[Bear] You want to try to pull the awning out?
-I wanna watch you try. -Watch me try, okay.
[narrator] During their first night on the mountain,
Bear and Raiven face their first obstacle as a Bush family,
retracting the awning of their RV.
Uh, you probably have to just push that thing.
Now, go down or up?
Think maybe down.
Now I think I have to do the other end maybe.
[laughs] Poor Daddy.
I'm not sure which way it's supposed to go.
You might want to push the other side.
Either broke it or got it.
It's my family, it's my wife, it's my trailer.
I got to step up and take that responsibility.
Gotta be one of these knobs.
I can't have one of my brothers do it, I mean that would look pretty lame.
[gasps] It's a tent!
And the awning is put down!
[Rain] How you feelin', Bird?
[Ami] Hi, Birdy, I'm glad you're out of surgery.
You did so good. High five!
-[Ami] I'm glad you're back, sweetie. -[Snowbird] Me too.
It's all over.
Now you take a break.
You will be. You will.
I'm so glad that Bird's out of surgery and that she is alive.
'Cause that was my main concern.
Um... They say that she did really well.
And they say it went well.
But it's gonna be a really tough recovery.
A blankie.
Dr. Urban said that Bird had two tumors on her ovaries.
Uh, one weighing eight pounds, and the other weighing four pounds.
Uh, um, and they were pushing on everything.
Um, so they removed the tumors,
they left her uterus and her ovaries
to give her a chance at having a baby.
And, uh, they took her appendix and her abdominal wall.
Okay.
You get some sleep, and I'll see you tomorrow.
[kiss] Love you.
Since the day after surgery, uh, don't feel super fantastic.
Uh, I tried to walk, it didn't go well.
Uh...
Ended up passing out.
And they just said, "Well, take it slow."
Still a little out of it.
But at least the worst part's over. Now, I'm just healing up.
And waiting for the results to come back on if it's cancer or not.
Waiting for these results is hard.
And I'm just telling myself it's cancer.
I'm gonna be honest.
Uh, because I would rather
be prepared for it to be cancer
and already thinkin' about losing my hair
in chemo, and it not be.
You know, opposed to be like, "It's not cancerous,
it's fine," and then them come in here and tell me it's cancer.
Hi.
The good thing is, is it's not definitively cancer.
The troublesome thing is when
we see something like this again,
there's so much of this tumor,
we can't really, well, 100%, was there some tiny
invasive area that we just didn't pick up.
Correct.
The chance that it could be coming back
is probably higher than 50%.
And it can come back, either as this borderline tumor,
or as a cancer, or both.
We... possibly.
So, I mean, I think, to be clear, one of the options would be
we go in and we take everything out.
And that would definitely reduce the chance of it coming back.
[Snowbird] I guess, the main decision is do I want a kid or not.
Because, if I don't,
remove my ovaries, I'm gonna get cancer, basically is the option.
And so I basically have to decide if I want a kid.
And that's, it's hard, it's a hard decision.
I haven't really faced a harder decision in my life, if I'm being honest.
The good thing, to me, is that
you're not currently dying.
Which I think is a good thing.
And always a thing to celebrate.
[Snowbird] I've been counting the days
for our Alaska trip that we're supposed to leave like next week.
It's been the trip that I want to find a piece of myself.
And now, now this.
I just need time to think.
Mmm-hmm.
[narrator] On the next episode of Alaskan Bush People...
[Gabe] Instead of going into town and getting lumber,
I've been thinking a lot more about salvaging.
I want to build a house.
That thing is probably going to get somebody hurt.
The whole thing is starting to wobble.
[Rain] That's not good.
-Bear! -[Bear] Get out of here!
[Snowbird] There's like an 80% chance that the tumors will come back.
And that they'll be cancerous.
This whole ordeal has definitely not been easy.
I just want to go to Alaska and clear my head.
-Just, no. No. -[Rain] Put your foot. Stop.
You can't lift yourself, Birdy.
Bird, going back to Alaska, not sure how that's gonna happen.
[Noah] I definitely missed it more than I thought I would.
Just awesome.
[howling]