[Bam Bam] Welcome to all who have gathered here
to share this marriage ceremony
of Raiven and Solomon Brown.
"Do you, Solomon, take Raiven to be your lawfully wedded wife
till death do you part?"
I do.
"Do you, Raiven, take Solomon to be your lawfully wedded husband?
Till death do you part."
I do.
[Snowbird] My siblings and I, we grew up wild.
Independent of society.
Living by God's rules,
not man's.
We banded together as a wolf pack,
working for a common goal, nine as one.
But now as the family expands...
"I now pronounce you husband and wife."
You may kiss the bride.
...we each feel the pull of our own calling.
[narrator] On this season of Alaskan Bush People...
[Bear] Gabe, get out of there.
Move.
[narrator] The Brown family is at a crossroad.
[Gabe] This year there are definitely
a lot of big steps to be taken,
and I don't know if we're ready for it.
[narrator] Some chase the dream of the mountain.
[Bear] I hope you all guys are hungry 'cause I've brought dinner.
I feel like it's going to be an adjustment for me.
[Gabe] I want to build a house.
[Bam Bam] That is an accident waiting to happen.
[narrator] While others hunt for a destiny of their own.
I've never felt more like myself than when I'm in Alaska.
[Snowbird] Now we're cooking with gasoline.
[grunting]
[Noah] With everything that's happened
I realize that when you need to do something,
you do it, you don't put it off.
I have some big things planned, life-changing things.
[narrator] But when fate strikes again...
[Snowbird speaking]
[Bam Bam] We've all been through so much.
My mind has a tendency to go to the worst-case scenario.
[narrator] ...the strength of the pack is tested to the limit.
[woman] Hold on, there's a really big wave coming.
Buoy's up, get the line.
[woman] Hold on.
[Gabe] Little more, little more.
Hold, hold.
[cheering]
Yes!
I've had trouble letting the kids go.
But what I want for my kids is happiness...
Yeah.
...self-fulfillment and no regrets.
[howling]
[Snowbird speaking]
I'm going to assume most of that dirt
was from my hands, not my face.
That water is so much dirtier.
Early in the morning I take like five minutes to,
like, wake up and then get dressed.
And then I'm pretty much good to go.
A fork work surprisingly well to brush your hair with
that has the prongs, it's the go to.
Mmm-hmm.
I love olives, the juice is so salty.
It's really like, it's like a boost.
I grew up different than most families.
Some people like, what's something, you know,
weird that you do?
And I'm like, I don't know, because I've always done it.
Hey, Rain.
[Rain] Yep.
[Snowbird] Can you see me?
[Rain] Not really.
Looks like it's going to be a wet one today, Harley.
To us, the bush lifestyle just is our way of life.
Living free in the bush is like
you're in your own little fairytale.
Morning, neighbor.
[Snowbird] Yeah, morning, squatter.
I'm not a squatter.
You know I'm here.
[narrator] It's been over one year
since Billy Brown's death.
The family is still recovering from the fire
that destroyed much of their land,
waiting for the spring thaw
to resume the task of rebuilding.
[Noah] When the forest fire came through,
it took our house, took everything.
[Gabe] We've gotten most of our animals back up on the mountain
but most of us are having to live down the mountain in town.
[Snowbird] I don't like town.
I don't like the amount of people, the noise.
[narrator] Now, in the last gasp of winter,
the wolf pack is desperate to get back to the bush.
[Bam Bam] Yo, Gaby, the roads getting really muddy,
but at least it's not a sheet of ice.
Let's keep it going. I'll keep pulling it down.
Up our mountain we're secluded.
We're back in the bush and that's what we all need.
This is the spot.
Honey, I'm home.
After being displaced from the fire and losing Dad
and all the things that we've gone through
we just want to get back up there
and really make it the wonderland
that we know it can be.
[Bam Bam] Too much hair.
So much hair.
We are facing a lot of challenges right now
to get the ranch to a point where it is self-sufficient,
sustainable, where it is turning a profit.
Mom, do you want me see if there are any eggs?
Please.
I told you five more hatched out this morning, right?
Other than having more eggs
than we know what to do with.
It hasn't been lucrative in any sense of the word.
One, two, three.
We've put a lot into it.
We're getting a little bit out of it.
But the thing is that you... you got to
build from the ground up.
We need to put in wells
and we need to build enclosures for the animals
and we need to build
all of our houses and everything.
But the number one thing I'm seeing that's going to
stop or slow all that down is building material.
We need lumber.
We need a lot of wood, a whole lot of wood.
[Bam Bam] Hey, Gaby, first one to 100 trees wins.
[Gabe] You're on.
-Go for it. -[Gabe] Yo, bro.
-Yeah. -Watch your back.
Always.
[Gabe] Yeah!
Watch out.
Timber!
Oh, that feels good.
[motor dies out]
Oh, come on.
Of course, you took the steel.
Now, the idea we've been tossing around
is something that Dad and I had talked about after the fire.
Now we have just a forest of widowmakers.
We really need to take these trees down
so that they're not just sitting there in the elements rotting
and mill 'em.
[Gabe] There's such a high demand for lumber nowadays.
It's driven the costs through the roof.
It's a blessing in disguise.
We're going to turn all these burned trees into houses,
and school houses.
It just starting to make me smile.
[narrator] The Browns have identified
dozens of dead trees for removal,
which should yield 20,000 board feet of lumber,
lumber necessary to build new barns,
cabins and animal fencing on the ranch.
[whirring]
Argh!
Getting it the kick off of there.
It's really dangerous.
Probably not the best solution,
but I really don't want to go tell Bam.
[Bam Bam] Do you need help?
[Gabe] Yeah.
[Bam Bam] Slows me down if I got to keep fixing your mistakes.
Come on, man.
[Gabe] One, two, three.
-And four... -And just gently, rock.
-Dude, gently. -Okay.
We'll gently, rock.
-Dude, you really stuck it up there, man. -I know I did.
All right, the problem is we're diggin' way in down here.
[Gabe] Yeah, what are we going to do?
I'm gonna take this rock and this rope
and I'm gonna throw it up there.
Argh, almost.
-[Gabe] And a miss. -Almost.
Oh, that was way off.
-Right. -That was just silly.
Well, I think Bam's a little off his game.
[laughs] Some of these throws aren't doing very good.
They're not really making it up over the tree.
There you go.
Well, well, let's not pull it down literally on us.
Let's get more slack.
One...
Two...
[grunting]
I have always hated to correct mistakes,
but I'm just happy to have Gaby's help,
even if he does end up not paying attention
as much as he should.
Okay, and go.
All right, and the tree is down.
[Bam Bam] All right, so what are we looking at to move the log?
[Gabe] The good thing about these trees
is there are a lot of them.
But the bad thing about these trees,
they're not in a great area.
Uh, the hill that we're taking down,
it's like 100 yards trying to take them all down to the road.
It's a little daunting.
You know, we've moved giant trees with the Egyptian railroad
we've moved heavy lumber.
One thing we're thinkin' high is that
the ice could actually help us.
So I'm hoping that we can cut the trees down,
put 'em on the ice and make sort of like a run,
like an ice luge.
[narrator] Gabe's vision? Create an ice luge,
which will allow the fallen trees deeper in the brush
to slide over 100 yards through the snow
to a nearby access road.
From there, the lumber can be loaded
and hauled to a local mill to be turned into usable boards.
All right, let's cut a couple more.
Gaby's idea for the ice luge is a good idea in theory.
What could possibly go wrong?
[narrator] While some of the wolfpack remains determined
to reclaim their mountain,
others wonder if there is a new chapter
beyond the ranch.
[Snowbird] You know, after everything, uh, that happened last year,
sometimes it does cross my mind of like,
where am I supposed to be?
It's not even just the devastation of,
you know, everything physical, you know,
there's just a lot been happening in life.
I always try and hide my emotions and everything,
and there's just a lot inside.
Mom and I ended up talkin',
and it's not necessary that
I don't feel like the ranch is for me
or the mountain is for me.
It's just this.
There's just been a lot on my mind lately.
You know, everyone else in the family is settling down
and, you know, building houses and having babies and...
I just don't know where my life is to go.
You know, I don't know if that, if that's in the cards for me.
The settling down.
Women my age definitely have done more.
You know, a lot of, a lot of girls my age are married with kids.
Even mom had, like, you know,
three kids by the time she was my age.
Me wanting to spread my wings,
I do feel, I guess, guilty.
Starting a family it's a very big commitment.
If my time was being taken away,
in turn, it would impact the wolfpack.
So I don't know what I want to do
moving forward, I guess.
[Ami] I love my outdoor cooking.
Sticks are very useful.
We used to walk on the beach when the kids were little
and there'd be little gun shaped sticks
and I'd pick them up
and let them play guns as we go down the beach.
The kids are definitely getting older
and taking their next steps in life.
I have heard the kids talking about
possibly living life on the mountain.
[Noah] I guess I'm just, kind of to the point
where I'm starting to think about looking for my dream
instead of chasing my family's.
I want to thrive.
I want to give my wife and my kids
what I promised that I could.
It might be a good idea for a change.
[narrator] Coming up...
The only one that is to blame in that has to be me.
I think a part of our problem is kind of stimulated based off
of big changes, a lot of stressors.
[narrator] And later...
[Bam Bam] Don't pull your kidneys.
[Gabe] This is not very time efficient.
This is not very effective.
Not for as many trees as we need.
We've got to come up with something.
I see the veins are popping in your head.
[Snowbird] What are you eating?
[Rain] I'm just gonna throw together a sandwich.
Is it cat food?
[Rain] Mmm. Look at that.
-Oh, man, that looks so good. -[Snowbird] Baby, get off of it.
Here, I'll leave you a little.
[Rain] I'm starving. That looks good.
I mean, it should.
Well...
[Snowbird speaking]
This is so good.
Way too much onion.
[Snowbird speaking]
[narrator] On North Star ranch
the vision for life in the bush is in flux.
While some attempt to turn tragedy into opportunity...
[Bam Bam] I look out at that burned forest
and I don't see burned trees.
I see 2X6 and 2X4 and I see houses
waiting to be built.
[narrator] ...one member of the pack
faces a new challenge closer to home.
[Bear] It's not easy to go through so much.
I sometimes do feel like just going ahead
and disappearing, you know, back into the woods.
But I know y'all guys need me.
I know, you know, my, my boy needs me.
-And it's just, you know-- -Your wife needs you.
Well, life isn't just sunshine and rainbows.
You've got to have trials and stuff like that, too.
And, you know, it just, it just happens.
That is life.
You get tested.
[narrator] Two weeks after their wedding,
an argument with wife Raiven over moving up mountain
has left Bear questioning his path forward.
[Raiven] I think a part of our problem's kind of stimulated
based off of big changes, a lot of stressors,
moving to a new environment and getting that new normalcy essentially,
uh, you add a toddler to the mix
and going up mountain essentially
where there's not much up there
and it adds that new layer.
I always try to be the best that I can be.
And, you know, anything I did, I gave it my all.
I give 100%.
I always have.
Uh, and it just doesn't seem like
it's really ever good enough.
And the only one that is to blame in that has to be me.
Dad's shoes are such big shoes
to fill that havin' a kid,
I would want to be looked at by my son
the same way that I looked at Dad.
When you've got a little one looking up to me
and he's reaching out with his hands for me to, you know,
pick him up, you realize basically I'm not that good.
In lots of ways, I feel like I've already failed as a dad.
One my most prized possession in the world
is definitely my little boy.
I want to be in every one of River's memories.
I want to see everything that he does.
I want to be there for him as much as I possibly can.
River is definitely the most important thing in my life, for sure.
There is nothing in the world to me
that means more than my boy.
You trying and wanting to be
the best dad you can be is all your son wants.
Especially if you make changes that you have to make,
you can be a fun dad and be the best dad.
You don't have to be...
you don't have to be Dad.
[Bear] That's one thing Dad always said
that you try to be better the next day
than you were the day before.
I'd love to be able to build an actual proper house up here
and, you know, have a wife and kid
livin' in a happy fairytale style,
white picket fence sort of, sort of life.
Make it happen, then, man.
[Snowbird] It's not even just hard for Bear.
Every little thing right now is hard for everyone
without Dad to... to guide us.
He always knew what to do.
I think my best advice for Bear at this moment
is just don't lose hope.
Dad and Mom always taught us one wave at a time.
Just make your dream happen, that's what Dad would say.
[birds chirping]
[Bam Bam] All right, let's dance.
One, two, go.
[narrator] The next morning, the Browns dive headfirst
into their next big project, the ice luge.
This is going to work.
[narrator] To shape the flume the brothers must first carve out
an icy trail down to the access road.
[Gabe] Next one will be easier because we already have a trail
think about when you're sledding.
You go, you stop.
Second time you go further.
Third time and then...
[narrator] Once the pathway freezes over,
they'll be able to transport the lumber off mountain
to be milled into vital building materials.
[Gabe] Havin' a lot of snow on the ground makes the ice luge possible.
We definitely want to get as many of these trees
off of this hill as we can with the snow,
because it could be a lot harder once the snow thaws.
Temperatures are rising every day
and it's going to start drying out really quick.
And look at this nice luge we're creating.
[Bam Bam] Oh, look, who decided to join us.
Yo, guys, cutting trees?
Well, even though I've had a lot on my mind lately,
it's still important to get out there
and help the wolfpack out with everything that
they're doing as much as I possibly can.
And I don't think that there is any better way
to get back to work than this awesome log luge.
How, uh, far are we tryin' to get 'em
just to the road area?
-[Gabe] To the road. -To the road, okay.
But I don't know if we're going to be
able to do that with how moist the snow is.
[Gabe] The plan was to wait for the ice luge to freeze over,
but it's getting warmer.
Although the road for us isn't completely frozen,
there's still a lot of moisture there.
It's still a lot better than the dirt.
So I'm hoping it's kind of slippery enough.
Mush.
This way, this way.
Hold it up. Let me do the pushing.
Don't pull your kidneys.
Oh, is this rope stretching or is that my arms?
[Bam Bam] Uh, follow the trail. Follow the trail.
The weather decided to warm up and everything's melting
and you can't have an ice luge to move logs without ice.
-Gabe, you're the one who gotta hurt yourself. -[Gabe] Okay.
I see the veins are popping in your head.
-[Bear] Yeah, you don't need to do that. -No.
Couple trees down and we are all starting to feel it.
[grunting]
It's a boy.
We got one.
We've got about what? Fifteen more to go?
Yeah.
[Gabe] This is not very time efficient.
This is not very effective.
Not for as many trees as we need.
So a couple of guys trying to haul these trees
out on their back isn't going to cut it.
We've got to come up with something.
[power screwdriver whirring]
[Noah] It's a bit crooked.
I'm making automatic animal feeders.
It's a good idea to have automatic feeders
so our animals can be fed daily.
My wife and I put everything we had into the mountain.
But the fire took out everything we had worked for.
All the livestock, all of our animals are with us
down the mountain.
I've built automatic feeders in the past,
but this time I'm going a little bit more advanced.
This thing is the seed spreader.
This is just the bottom of it.
When you pull the trigger,
it makes this spin.
This little device here is just a small open source computing.
I just uploaded a simple, just button press servo code.
So that once you turn it on,
it will spread the feed every 12 hours.
So when I press this button, it has a delay
and this will move in order to be able to connect it.
But right now I really need to get these projects finished.
I'm trying to set up as much automated
onto the property as I can
so that my ranch is just self sufficient and everything.
I have some big things planned, life-changing things.
With everything that's happened,
I realized that when you need to do something, you do it.
You don't put it off.
My wife and I have discussed it a lot.
We've decided that we're going to move back to Alaska.
We're going to find a piece of property.
It's time for my three-and-a-half-year-old
to see where Daddy comes from.
I want the boys to have Alaskan memories like you had.
[Rhain] I married my husband for a lot of good reasons.
The freedom that Alaska gave him
is actually one of those big reasons.
It's something I want to give my kids.
I want them to be able to explore
and experience adventure.
I think the main concern
is the family depends on Noah a lot.
I don't mean to stress you out
because I really want to go back to Alaska,
but how do you think your mom is going to feel?
Uh...
[Gabe] I mean, it's dead, but it's good wood.
It looks like it's going to want to do it that way.
It's your tree, why don't you start her off?
Thank you, tree. We had fun.
And I'll see you on the next house.
Right now I'm needed in Washington
because we're trying to, you know,
we're trying to rebuild everything.
We're taking all the trees and we're,
you know, getting lumber made out of it.
It's the perfect excuse to have to take my tree down,
have a clean slate.
I'm really bad at this one.
You got it. You got it.
[Snowbird] At first glance you think this is just a tree.
But, uh, this tree means a lot to me, honestly.
This was the tree that my tree house was on.
The upstairs up here
is actually going to be my bedroom.
Mommy's home.
It was my first house, my first home, really.
And it was supposed to be my birdhouse
that I was going to have forever.
Now I only have the tree.
So it's definitely important to me.
Letting go of things,
especially things that you loved...
uh, it is hard.
You know, it's hard for me at least.
I do think chopping it down
is definitely a way to move forward.
[Rain] It's going.
[Gabe] Go.
Let it go. Let it go.
[Gabe and Rain cheering]
Great show, Bird!
[Gabe] That's how you do it.
You got to get first walk. Go get it.
[Snowbird] The first walk is when you cut a tree
we always walk on the fallen tree.
It's a little bittersweet, though.
-I'm in the loft right now. -Ah!
-Yeah. -Uh-huh. Nice.
Like what you've done with the place.
Thank you. That's where my bed was.
Oh, this hurts me,
this has got to be bothering you.
Part of me thought that cutting down my tree
would be like a fresh start,
but it's honestly just flooding in a lot of memories.
I was 20 something when we did it,
but it was still my first house.
It's definitely the end of a chapter.
I don't know.
Dad got to see me build it.
I think it does kind of seem like
as much as I try and like, move forward,
the past is always there.
I know I'm getting older and I know I should be
starting a family, but right now
that's not where my mind is.
I still want to think about the life we had with Dad.
You guys remember the story about the wolves?
We first started howling?
They were literally howling all the way around us,
and Mom and I both figured we're dead.
[Snowbird] Dad always knew what to say.
All of Dad's stories, fiction or not,
taught all of us kids about the real world.
I'm pretty sure it was Matt.
"Let's howl back, guys."
You guys all at once start howling back.
You hadn't quit for two and a half seconds
-and they answered you. They howled back. -[Ami] Yes.
I always looked at it like they were letting us know it was okay.
[Snowbird] There's nothing that I wouldn't give
to be able to hear him reading a story again.
He would have the answer.
He always did.
[Rain speaking]
You want to move over to that corner?
[Snowbird] Yeah.
[narrator] Later that day, 25 miles from the ranch,
Bird, along with Noah and Rain,
search the family's storage unit
in hopes of finding Billy's treasure trove
of old stories and writings.
I think it's on the top.
I think it's on this shelf.
[Snowbird speaking]
Dad's writing started 20 years ago, more maybe.
He wrote stories, everything from poems
to little ditties, as he would call them.
He even has one story about a little plastic sandwich bag
that's blowing down the street.
So he got a briefcase and he put stories in there
until it got full and he got another briefcase.
And now there's like five or six briefcases
that are just scattered about
that have Dad's writings in them.
What's up?
Dad's cowboy hat, the last hat that he opened?
I think findin' a quote or a message,
even a picture from Dad would help Bird to push forward.
Bird hasn't really come close
to the thought of starting a family,
and I know the only person
she's going to listen to is Dad.
Bird, I think I found it.
Yep.
[Snowbird] Oh, wait, isn't this Dad's?
[Rain] Yeah.
See, it has the Alaska to Pennsylvania flight ticket.
There's another one.
I guess, I want to make sure whose it is.
[Rain speaking]
Mmm-hmm.
I remember we'd be moving camps or boats.
Mom and I were always like, "Make sure
you get those writing bags."
Okay, guys, let's... let's load 'em.
We found the bags, but we can't look though them without Mom.
It's too special.
And I know she would want to be there, even if it's hard.
I can't help but hope that every time I open something,
there's going to be something like to me.
[Bam Bam] Why don't we, uh, load up,
see about cutting into some portions
and go from there?
[whirring]
[Gabe] The Ice luge is not working is a major setback.
Uh, we were depending on that to get all these trees out of here.
So until we come up with something else,
we definitely want to get these trees cleaned up.
It should make things a lot faster.
Make sure she's clean.
Take off all the branches.
[Gabe] But first let's see if we can pull it down the hill.
You want to try to pull it down the hill?
I mean, I don't see why not.
I see a lot of why not!
Oh, no.
[Bam Bam] What did you just do?
You lost your wedding ring, didn't you?
[grunts]
I lost my wedding ring again.
I dare not to even venture
what Raquell would say right now
if she saw me lose my ring.
Probably just an eye roll
and tell me to quit playing with it.
You need a wedding ring that fits, man.
Well, it fluctuates because in the extreme heat,
my hands are like fat and swollen.
[Bam Bam] Why don't you just get it tattooed on?
[Gabe] You know, right now Raquell and the girls
are off of the mountain.
So I'm just desperately trying to get some place
built up there, someplace comfortable for them,
especially with more kids being born.
So we had another daughter.
Her name is Winifred.
She is the cutest little girl you've ever seen in your life.
Did it feel like it shot off your hand
or like the branch pull it off.
It feel like it flung with the branch.
I definitely think about Raquell and the girls a lot
while I'm up here working.
It helps get me through the day.
And so, you know, the most important thing right now
is just finding my wedding ring.
I just can't go home.
I can't let her see my bare little finger.
I got to have my ring.
Uh, Noah probably has, like, metal detectors and stuff.
Then let's stop, rope this off and come back.
There's always something.
[narrator] Coming up...
I did see him writing this one day,
he told me not to look in it.
Oh, boy. Are you all ready for this?
[Ami] The horizon lit up with colors of blue and green.
It was the northern lights showing the way.
[Snowbird] It sounds like him.
Like you can hear him readin' it.
You know, going through the bags
and seein' all that stuff.
It is nice to see his handwritin'
and all the stuff, because I didn't realize
he kept all the Dad's day cards.
[Ami] Gabriel S. Brown.
[Snowbird] I think the main thing that I would like to find
is, uh, like a letter to me specifically.
Which bag next?
I mean, it's like I want to go through everything.
I did see him writing in this one day
and he told me not to look in it.
[Snowbird speaking]
[Ami] Sure.
-What is that? -[Ami speaking]
I don't know. I mean, the bookmark is not marking anything.
"When my family died
it ripped a hole in me deep into my soul,
I missed them more than I can explain.
But what I laid down was how bad I missed my dad.
After the crash, I searched through every paper,
hoping to find something he wrote for me.
He died so young.
I guess he thought he had time to do that later,
but never got the chance.
On my 60th birthday I was thinking about that
and didn't want to do the same thing to you guys,
so I thought I would leave this for you all.
If you're reading this..."
[Ami sniffles]
"If you're reading this, the Lord has called me home
and my seat at the table is empty.
My hope now is I have enough time to fill this book
and maybe two or three more.
There's so much I want to tell you.
It's hard to know where to start.
And I'll start...
Please know how much I love you.
Remember me in springtime
when the first green starts to show.
Remember me when the summer sun shines warm upon your face.
Remember the love I have for you
long after I've gone away.
Good night.
I love you.
Just in case you fall asleep more."
[Rain speaking]
What are you doing?
[Snowbird] You know, seeing that there was a letter to Mom,
it somewhat gives me hope that
maybe there is a letter for me.
Uh, the only thing is, is that it looks like the book
he was going to write them in,
but maybe he jotted something down
when it came spur of the moment.
There could still be something,
even if it was not in the book, right?
I can't help but have a little bit of hope
that I'll be going through something
and there'll be a, be a letter from Dad.
Being like, "This is what you should do.
Family or not family."
If I could talk to Dad one thing
that I would tell him was how much
that I needed him,
because I don't know if he knew that.
I think he did. And I hope he did.
And I guess he knows now.
[Bam Bam] All right, Frodo, let's go find your ring.
[beeping]
First we'll wave this thing around
and see if it picks anything up.
Let me see.
You're waving it around like a child with a crayon.
Yeah, that's it.
Whoo! I see it.
-[Bam Bam] I found it. -[Gabe laughs]
You did it, man.
-[Bam Bam] And now we can go back to work. -Yes.
♪ Hallelujah ♪
[narrator] With the day fading,
the siblings race to complete the biggest challenge
of their wood sourcing mission,
moving the fallen trees across the melting snow
to their mountain road.
[Bam Bam] That is a tough sled.
[Gabe] Oh, wait. This is Noah's.
We can't mess this up.
We can't cut it not without asking him.
Well, I'll just blame you for anything that goes wrong.
One of the number one rules in the bush is to use
what you have, you know, repurpose what you can,
you know, and you have to make what you don't.
Oh, chihuahua!
I think the sled's going to definitely speed things up.
We can just pull the trees down
instead of having to lift and drag.
You pull, I'll push.
Now, let's see if we can do it that way.
All right.
One, two, three.
-Broke the rope. -I caught that.
I was concerned that rope might not be
able to take the stress.
What do you want to do?
You're going to get on one end of the sled,
I'm gonna get on the other.
You got to lose more clothes.
-Unfortunately, yes. -You just got to get your shirt off.
What do you think I'm going to do with this?
Fold it and have it pressed?
Let's go.
-It didn't work. -Okay.
I just think we either need more people or machinery.
I say more manpower.
[Snowbird] So what is it exactly we need help with?
[Gabe] It's a whole bunch of logs.
We're having trouble with manpower.
Are you sure this is going to do any helping?
Uh, time will tell.
[Snowbird] The guys having a little bit of trouble
getting, you know, the trees to the road.
It's just Bam and Gabe doing it.
So two people makes it a little hard.
We should move a smaller one or a thinner one
and get help with the big ones.
[Gabe] Well, let's see if we can get this one down.
Okay.
I think it's a case of just like way too much testosterone.
I think that there's way too much brawn
and no brain.
Oh, wait. We're pushing.
[Bam Bam] Usually on three, but that's fine.
Hold on.
You run this right into the stump, man.
One, two, three.
[Gabe] The sled's not going to make that turn.
Turn back. It's downhill.
It's definitely an all-hands-on-deck moment.
The more people that are helping with this,
the faster we can get actual lumber
and bring it back to the mountain
and start building things.
[Gabe] Almost there. Little more.
A really hard slash impossible job
turned into something that's doable
with just the sled and a couple extra arms.
[grunting]
All right, we're loggin'.
[Noah] So how are things with you? How are your chickens?
[Ami] Good.
I have a lot of roosters.
I didn't get to give enough away.
You have Rhain's and I's carriers.
I know, I have one picked out to give you.
Okay.
I guess I've put it off a little bit too long
to tell my mom about Alaska.
I'm nervous because, now,
I don't want to hurt my mom's feelings.
But life is an empty box,
and experiences are the things
you put in it until it's full and once you die it is closed.
My box of life is full of Alaska.
So I'm bringing up some automated feeders
for while we're gone.
Gone.
So it goes through and feeds everything
while we're in Alaska.
Alaska. You're going to Alaska?
Uh...
Rhain and I have been looking
for a piece of property in Alaska.
Noah is telling me that he wanted to go to Alaska
and get a piece of property.
I was, you know, taken aback by it.
I thought, "Oh, no, I'm losing my family.
I'll never see them.
Adam and Elijah would be so far away."
[Noah] We're going to find a house.
We're going to start up in Haines and work our way down.
When?
Very soon.
The coolest thing about this
is that we're going to go find our Alaska home, right?
With my wife and I and our two boys.
Does that sound familiar?
I turned 30 in July and it's time.
I've been gone too long.
Salt's running out of my blood.
I've had trouble letting the kids go.
It's true.
I never dreamt in all my days,
I figured we'd still be in one big nest,
you know, laughing and happy
and I guess it was my naivete.
But what I want for my kids is
happiness, self-fulfillment,
and to journey onward
with no regrets.
[cat meowing]
Do I taste clean?
You normally like licking.
I know they're cats but I'm too overprotective.
At the moment I'm in my tent and the cats
are actually in the trailer.
It gives them their... their cat space.
I ripped out everything in the trailer for the most part,
and put all the cat trees
and cat toys and cat beds in there.
So it's not as fit for a human as it once was.
I turned the shower into the cat box
because there are quite a few of them.
Hi, guys.
See you good boy, Snake.
I knew you would come out.
Yeah. Come here.
I sometimes crash on their floor just so they can,
like, sleep on me.
Randall, everybody come here.
It's a little kitty day spa.
One, two, three.
And then twist it, flick it and bop it.
There we go.
[Bear] We're finally loading these logs
to be taken off mountain.
And with the circumstances going on.
Got some really, really good news.
Uh, Raiven and I have been in touch.
Even though it's a small first step,
it is definitely a good sign.
Any time you're trying to, like, do anything,
really be it in a storm or mend the relationship.
It's best to take it one wave at a time.
I mean, there's a perfect spot for one more.
Yeah.
I mean, we can load another if you want to.
[Bam Bam] I think we should see what this does.
It's not just the truck, and it's not just the trailer.
It's the two feet of mud for 100 yards up a hill like this.
Have you taken a load
substantial like this
up that through the mud?
Look at his face.
What does this tell you?
It tells me that his whole life
he's been way cockier than he should have been.
[laughs]
This is the Chuck Norris of trucks.
-Wait, it's Truck Norris? -Truck Norris.
-Got it. -Yeah, truck man, yeah!
-Yeah. -Truck Norris.
[Gabe] Truck Norris.
-It has a name. -I love it.
That's extreme.
Truck Norris is definitely an extreme vehicle.
It really, really is.
But he's going to have to give it everything
that he's got to get all these logs out of there.
Okay.
Bring it straight back.
[Noah] Eli, you ready?
[Eli] Yeah.
[Bam Bam] Go for it.
They all want to stack as many logs as the trailer can hold,
uh, which is a bad idea.
We should test it with a few logs first.
[Bear] Straight back.
[Bam Bam] Don't stop. You got to go.
[Bear] He's working it. He's working it.
-Do your thing-- -[Bam Bam] You're spinning.
Keep movin'. Keep movin'.
Go, go, go, go!
Watch, you're getting some traction.
-No, no. -He's got it. He's got it. Let's go.
Bear, move.
[indistinct conversation]
[Bear] You're jackknifing hard.
You're going to break your trailer.
[Noah] I'm must straighten up, and I should be good.
[Bear] Yeah, he's in a dip.
He's not going to push through that.
[Gabe] You... you bent your fender a little.
[Bear] Truck Norris has a bloody nose.
[Noah] I'm gonna pull forward and gun it back.
[engine revving]
-[Bam Bam] What's going on? -[Bear] He's spinning out!
I wonder... Heavy...
-[Gabe] Hold, hold. -[Bam Bam] Stop, stop.
He's going off the road now.
Try to turn around down there.
[Gabe] Noah, why don't you go see if you can turn around,
even if we have to flatten out a spot.
Let me jump in.
[Gabe] These trees are really the most important thing
that we have going on right now.
We need to all do what the animals would do.
We need to all rally together, do what a wolfpack would do.
[Bear] Noah's going to be gunning it.
We want to get off the road when it comes to...
[Gabe] Yeah, we're going to all have to stick together
and work together or this is just a pipe dream.
Hoping you can just turn around in there.
There he is.
Whoo!
[Noah] Here we go. Yeah!
Whew!
Now we're talking.
[Bam Bam] Truck Norris just can't dance backwards.
Well, I probably won't be breathing any sighs of relief
until they bring the trailer back
with the lumber and it's all milled.
But it is nice that he's on the go.
[Gabe laughs]
This is one bad ride, man.
All right, we're here.
You know, when the tough gets going,
Browns get going, too.
We never stop until
we accomplish what we set out to do.
And now that's moving up on the mountain.
Now I know why I keep looking at you.
Your eyes, you got eyeliner on?
Yeah. Yeah.
Strange.
[Ami] You got any more letters?
No, I haven't.
I've been looking through all them.
Well, I'm still hopeful, because we haven't found
his lost songs yet either.
I mean, that's true. Yeah.
Birdy was really wanting to find a letter from Billy.
It's made her sad that she hasn't found one.
I just hope she can find inner peace with it.
I mean, he said he wanted to do letters to everybody, but--
-Yeah. -I don't know.
I haven't found anything yet, though.
It makes me feel a little selfish
that I want to, like, find something
that's like to me.
But I want to feel closer to Dad,
I guess. Like, I just wish Dad
can tell me, like, what to do.
You know what I mean?
Well, we didn't find a letter, right?
I wrote a letter.
You know, it does mean a lot,
Mom gave me this letter
because she knows how much it means for me
to find the letter, you know, from Dad.
And Mom and Dad were like one person.
Uh, and I think that she...
I think she would know what he would want to tell me.
It's from me and kind of from Dad.
[Ami speaking]
This letter, there's a special place
that I want her to go to open it.
Sometimes you have to go back to the beginning
to find your way forward.
I think you should go to Alaska.
[Ami speaking]
I wanted Birdy to open the letter at Mosman,
because it is a special letter
and Mosman is a special place.
[birds chirping]
[Snowbird] Mosman, that's where Mom and Dad decided
they wanted the Alaska life.
Mom giving me this letter
is her telling me like,
it's okay.
You know, if I do find something somewhere else.
Well, you know, my prayers have already been
and will continue to be that you'll be safe.
Well, the best thing for this trip to be good
is the kids can be together.
Birdy, Noah, and Kitten.
[Noah] Eli.
[Ami] I don't know if another chapter of their life
will begin at Mosman,
but Mosman is where Billy and I
stepped out of who we were, into who we are.
[Ami speaking]
[Snowbird] Thank you.
Mom, kind of saying, like, you should go.
I think that is what I've been waiting for.
Mom doesn't want me to be here and be sad.
She wants me to go and find what I need to find
and choose to come back.
And that's what Mom wants
and that's what I want.
But I can't guarantee you that that's what the future holds.
-Remember I love you. -Always.
[narrator] On the next episode of Alaskan Bush People...
I've never given up on Raiven and I's marriage.
You're looking forward to getting
moved up here, little man?
[Raiven] I think it'll be good in the long run,
but I do think there will be that little adjustment period.
[Bear] I have zero experience driving trailers.
Oh, you're really close.
I really don't like it.
[Noah] Then we would start in Haines
after Juneau, where are we going?
[Snowbird] This Alaska trip means a lot to me.
It does cross my mind like, where am I supposed to be?
One, two, three.
[all] Alaska!
[Snowbird speaking]
I don't want to go to the doctor.
[Rain] What if it's something serious?
[Bam Bam] My mind has a tendency
to go to the worst-case scenario.
[Rain] I know that everything's going to be okay,
but I've thought that before and I was wrong.
[Snowbird] I just got to the pre-op room.
No one's was able to come down with me so I'm alone.
[ECG beeping]