1 00:00:02,542 --> 00:00:04,958 - Four newlywed couples put their futures 2 00:00:05,042 --> 00:00:07,333 in the hands of experts 3 00:00:07,417 --> 00:00:09,333 when they married as complete strangers. 4 00:00:09,375 --> 00:00:14,375 ♪ 5 00:00:14,458 --> 00:00:16,833 Last time, the honeymoons continued in Mexico. 6 00:00:16,917 --> 00:00:20,917 ♪ 7 00:00:20,917 --> 00:00:24,125 - I'm just unbelievably pleasantly surprised. 8 00:00:24,208 --> 00:00:27,042 You are truly such an amazing person, 9 00:00:27,125 --> 00:00:29,917 and it helps that you're easy on the eyes. 10 00:00:30,042 --> 00:00:31,333 - [laughs] 11 00:00:31,417 --> 00:00:33,625 ♪ 12 00:00:33,625 --> 00:00:36,667 - Trust, for me, is one of the biggest things I look for, 13 00:00:36,750 --> 00:00:40,250 and I feel like you're really starting to earn my trust. 14 00:00:40,333 --> 00:00:41,750 - I'm not in the circle yet. 15 00:00:41,833 --> 00:00:43,208 - We're getting there. 16 00:00:43,333 --> 00:00:45,500 - We're in the outer ring. - We're working on it. 17 00:00:45,542 --> 00:00:47,667 ♪ 18 00:00:47,708 --> 00:00:50,958 - Do you guys have any fears of what might change 19 00:00:51,042 --> 00:00:52,500 when reality comes back? 20 00:00:52,667 --> 00:00:55,083 - I honestly, like, think we're gonna do pretty well. 21 00:00:55,167 --> 00:00:56,708 - Me, being an overthinker, I'm already thinking 22 00:00:56,792 --> 00:00:58,792 about the things that will go wrong when we're back. 23 00:00:58,875 --> 00:01:00,583 But like, what could go right? 24 00:01:00,708 --> 00:01:02,458 ♪ 25 00:01:02,542 --> 00:01:05,792 - How do you feel that I had sex two months ago? 26 00:01:05,875 --> 00:01:10,583 - Being honest, it kind of took sex off the table for me. 27 00:01:10,667 --> 00:01:13,500 [dramatic music] 28 00:01:13,583 --> 00:01:15,250 ♪ 29 00:01:15,333 --> 00:01:19,333 - ♪ I like you right by my side ♪ 30 00:01:19,417 --> 00:01:21,500 - Tonight, our couples enjoy the final days 31 00:01:21,625 --> 00:01:22,500 of their honeymoon. 32 00:01:22,625 --> 00:01:24,667 - ♪ We go together 33 00:01:24,708 --> 00:01:27,500 ♪ Wherever you go, I go 34 00:01:27,542 --> 00:01:29,917 - Aww, thank you. 35 00:01:30,000 --> 00:01:32,042 - I think something that we haven't dove into super deep 36 00:01:32,125 --> 00:01:33,250 is religion. 37 00:01:33,333 --> 00:01:34,917 - We should talk about that. 38 00:01:35,000 --> 00:01:36,750 - Right now? - No, probably not now. 39 00:01:36,875 --> 00:01:38,333 ♪ 40 00:01:38,417 --> 00:01:39,750 - Do you know how to have fun? 41 00:01:39,833 --> 00:01:43,000 - Do you like to have fun? What the [bleep] is that? 42 00:01:43,042 --> 00:01:45,542 - I have to go to the hospital in Cancun. 43 00:01:45,625 --> 00:01:47,333 - Hopefully, he didn't leave, leave and go home. 44 00:01:47,417 --> 00:01:49,000 I don't know. - It's his escape plan. 45 00:01:49,042 --> 00:01:50,375 ♪ 46 00:01:50,500 --> 00:01:51,833 - Our honeymoon has been a little bit 47 00:01:51,917 --> 00:01:53,458 of a roller coaster, I'd say. 48 00:01:53,542 --> 00:01:55,833 - She was saying that I am lying 49 00:01:55,875 --> 00:01:57,625 about how things played out. 50 00:01:57,708 --> 00:01:59,333 - I just had this huge blow-up with him 51 00:01:59,417 --> 00:02:01,333 in which I was yelling, and I asked for a divorce. 52 00:02:01,458 --> 00:02:02,708 - Do you want a divorce? 53 00:02:02,792 --> 00:02:04,333 ♪ 54 00:02:04,417 --> 00:02:06,708 - I have no idea where we go from here. 55 00:02:06,792 --> 00:02:10,333 ♪ 56 00:02:10,375 --> 00:02:12,208 - ♪ It's all or nothing 57 00:02:12,333 --> 00:02:14,667 - This is "Married at First Sight." 58 00:02:14,750 --> 00:02:16,708 - ♪ There's no other way 59 00:02:16,792 --> 00:02:18,167 ♪ 60 00:02:18,208 --> 00:02:20,542 ♪ It's all or nothing 61 00:02:20,708 --> 00:02:22,833 [tense music] 62 00:02:22,917 --> 00:02:24,208 ♪ 63 00:02:24,292 --> 00:02:25,167 - How do you feel that 64 00:02:25,250 --> 00:02:28,208 I had sex two months ago? 65 00:02:28,333 --> 00:02:32,833 - Being honest, it kind of took sex off the table for me. 66 00:02:32,917 --> 00:02:38,458 ♪ 67 00:02:38,542 --> 00:02:40,583 - All right, what's next? Sex is done. 68 00:02:40,583 --> 00:02:47,333 ♪ 69 00:02:47,375 --> 00:02:49,417 - Curious as to where you're sitting with it. 70 00:02:49,500 --> 00:02:52,417 It really just sounds to me like you're not okay with it. 71 00:02:52,500 --> 00:02:55,458 - It felt mildly judgey. 72 00:02:55,542 --> 00:02:58,167 It's like, why did that make that the reason 73 00:02:58,167 --> 00:02:59,833 and that sex wasn't an option? 74 00:02:59,917 --> 00:03:04,125 - Well, that's not the reason, but it does play a part. 75 00:03:04,208 --> 00:03:06,583 - Okay, now I'm confused again. 76 00:03:06,667 --> 00:03:09,042 - I still feel like there's a lot of steps of getting 77 00:03:09,125 --> 00:03:11,292 to know each other so that, you know, 78 00:03:11,375 --> 00:03:13,667 it's not something we would regret. 79 00:03:13,750 --> 00:03:16,458 You know, and it could just be my own opinion about it, 80 00:03:16,542 --> 00:03:20,292 but I just want to take the right steps in the marriage. 81 00:03:20,375 --> 00:03:23,708 I don't want sex to be a checked off thing with it. 82 00:03:23,792 --> 00:03:26,708 - Things you say don't necessarily align 83 00:03:26,792 --> 00:03:28,500 with this conversation that I feel like 84 00:03:28,500 --> 00:03:29,792 we're having on the things that we're talking about. 85 00:03:29,875 --> 00:03:32,000 - Why, because maybe we're talking about super open 86 00:03:32,042 --> 00:03:33,333 about sex conversation? 87 00:03:33,375 --> 00:03:34,792 - It's not even about being super open 88 00:03:34,875 --> 00:03:36,500 about sex conversation. 89 00:03:36,625 --> 00:03:40,000 And if you're not aware of your flip-flopping, 90 00:03:40,083 --> 00:03:41,750 I think we should just have a quiet meal. 91 00:03:41,833 --> 00:03:45,083 I have nothing else to add about sex. 92 00:03:45,167 --> 00:03:48,000 I think I would appreciate quietness. 93 00:03:48,125 --> 00:03:48,958 - Okay. - Yeah. 94 00:03:49,042 --> 00:03:50,208 - Okay. 95 00:03:57,875 --> 00:04:00,792 You know, if I'm being honest, 96 00:04:00,875 --> 00:04:03,000 I'm not really good with the quietness. 97 00:04:03,083 --> 00:04:04,500 - I'm not gonna beat a dead horse, 98 00:04:04,542 --> 00:04:06,833 and I don't have the mental capacity 99 00:04:06,875 --> 00:04:10,625 to sit here and discuss things where I already feel like 100 00:04:10,708 --> 00:04:15,417 there's nothing more conducive or constructive to say. 101 00:04:15,500 --> 00:04:18,250 - Right, but we still have to figure this out and navigate. 102 00:04:18,250 --> 00:04:20,125 - But does it have to happen now? 103 00:04:20,208 --> 00:04:21,917 - Why not? 104 00:04:22,000 --> 00:04:24,000 - Because I don't feel safe. 105 00:04:24,083 --> 00:04:26,125 Why does that not speak to you? 106 00:04:26,208 --> 00:04:27,542 - It does. 107 00:04:27,667 --> 00:04:29,708 - No, it doesn't, because you keep asking me, 108 00:04:29,792 --> 00:04:31,333 "Well, why can't we do it right now?" 109 00:04:31,375 --> 00:04:33,500 I think this is a valuable conversation, too, 110 00:04:33,583 --> 00:04:36,542 and clearly, one that needs more conversation on. 111 00:04:36,625 --> 00:04:39,833 Like, we need ample time to discuss this. 112 00:04:39,833 --> 00:04:42,458 - Okay. - Okay. 113 00:04:42,542 --> 00:04:45,792 - Okay. You know, I am very, you know, 114 00:04:45,875 --> 00:04:47,875 sorry if you felt like I was pressing something. 115 00:04:47,958 --> 00:04:49,500 - I don't like a-- 116 00:04:49,542 --> 00:04:51,292 I don't need a, "I'm sorry if you felt apology." 117 00:04:51,375 --> 00:04:52,583 And you know damn well 118 00:04:52,708 --> 00:04:54,667 that's not an apology to give someone. 119 00:04:54,792 --> 00:04:56,750 You are more mature than that to say, 120 00:04:56,833 --> 00:04:59,333 "I'm sorry if you felt." 121 00:04:59,458 --> 00:05:02,833 - Then I guess I really have nothing else to say. 122 00:05:02,875 --> 00:05:06,667 - ♪ No more love songs 123 00:05:06,708 --> 00:05:12,167 ♪ I'm done with playing over you ♪ 124 00:05:12,208 --> 00:05:15,583 ♪ 125 00:05:15,667 --> 00:05:20,167 - ♪ We've come so far, so far ♪ 126 00:05:20,333 --> 00:05:23,792 ♪ And I'm not looking back now ♪ 127 00:05:23,875 --> 00:05:25,500 - Cheers. - Cheers. 128 00:05:25,583 --> 00:05:27,542 Cheers to a great day. - Great day. 129 00:05:29,750 --> 00:05:30,708 - Oh, that's good. 130 00:05:30,792 --> 00:05:32,833 - Strong, it's fine. - Good? 131 00:05:32,917 --> 00:05:35,250 - Mm-hmm. - Yeah? 132 00:05:35,333 --> 00:05:36,542 - Are you feeling fine after the boat? 133 00:05:36,625 --> 00:05:39,458 - Yeah, I think we had a nice talk 134 00:05:39,542 --> 00:05:42,000 about where we've been 135 00:05:42,083 --> 00:05:45,167 and, like, where we're headed, which is kind of cool. 136 00:05:45,250 --> 00:05:47,333 How do you feel about it? - I agree. 137 00:05:47,417 --> 00:05:49,792 I feel like now we can maybe, like, 138 00:05:49,875 --> 00:05:52,292 move into, like, the next phase of conversations. 139 00:05:52,375 --> 00:05:54,708 - Yeah. - Like religion. 140 00:05:54,792 --> 00:05:56,333 I feel like we should talk about it, 141 00:05:56,458 --> 00:05:58,750 and our little "Chrismukkah" situation. 142 00:05:58,833 --> 00:06:00,750 - You celebrate Christmas growing up, right? 143 00:06:00,833 --> 00:06:02,292 - Catholic, but, like, fake Catholic. 144 00:06:02,375 --> 00:06:04,083 - Yeah. 145 00:06:04,167 --> 00:06:05,875 Yeah, I mean, I was raised Jewish. 146 00:06:05,958 --> 00:06:08,000 - Do you wanna raise the kids Jewish? 147 00:06:08,083 --> 00:06:10,500 - Um, I'm not sure. 148 00:06:10,583 --> 00:06:12,292 - I definitely don't want kids to be Catholic, 149 00:06:12,375 --> 00:06:14,792 so I'm open to whatever. 150 00:06:14,875 --> 00:06:16,083 - You would convert? 151 00:06:16,167 --> 00:06:17,958 - I would. - Really? 152 00:06:18,042 --> 00:06:19,500 - Mm-hmm. - Wow. 153 00:06:19,583 --> 00:06:21,208 - I don't really know what that entails. 154 00:06:21,333 --> 00:06:22,792 - Neither do I. 155 00:06:22,875 --> 00:06:24,458 - I don't want my kids to be Catholic. 156 00:06:24,542 --> 00:06:25,833 - Is there a reason why? 157 00:06:25,917 --> 00:06:28,875 - I just think it's a little culty for me. 158 00:06:28,958 --> 00:06:30,500 - It's honestly just so refreshing to hear 159 00:06:30,542 --> 00:06:32,542 how open you are about everything. 160 00:06:32,625 --> 00:06:34,500 It just feels so easy to talk to you. 161 00:06:34,583 --> 00:06:35,792 It just leaves the door open for us to figure 162 00:06:35,875 --> 00:06:38,500 everything out, honestly, 'cause I'm the same way. 163 00:06:38,542 --> 00:06:40,083 Like, my views always change, you know, 164 00:06:40,208 --> 00:06:41,375 when I learn new things. 165 00:06:41,458 --> 00:06:43,042 It's just refreshing to see, like, 166 00:06:43,167 --> 00:06:47,708 you have that similar mindset, so I appreciate you, honestly. 167 00:06:47,833 --> 00:06:50,500 - Yeah, I guess we'll figure this out together. 168 00:06:50,542 --> 00:06:52,917 - Cheers to together. 169 00:06:53,000 --> 00:06:55,042 - But what about kids? 170 00:06:55,167 --> 00:06:56,292 Thank you. 171 00:06:56,375 --> 00:06:59,042 - Thank you. 172 00:06:59,167 --> 00:07:02,000 - So how many kids have you, like, always imagined? 173 00:07:02,083 --> 00:07:03,833 - Two. 174 00:07:03,917 --> 00:07:06,500 - Boys? - I think I'd be happy any way. 175 00:07:06,583 --> 00:07:08,167 Ideally, like, boy, girl would be nice. 176 00:07:08,250 --> 00:07:10,625 - That's what I want too. - Two? 177 00:07:10,708 --> 00:07:12,000 - And I want boy, girl. 178 00:07:12,083 --> 00:07:13,833 I want older boy, younger girl. 179 00:07:13,917 --> 00:07:15,667 - I just want them to be, like, best friends. 180 00:07:15,792 --> 00:07:16,625 - Same. 181 00:07:16,708 --> 00:07:18,583 - I want it to be, like, 182 00:07:18,667 --> 00:07:19,667 probably about, like, three years apart, 183 00:07:19,792 --> 00:07:21,500 give us enough time in between. 184 00:07:21,625 --> 00:07:23,250 - Nice little gap. 185 00:07:23,375 --> 00:07:24,458 - So, real topic at hand here-- 186 00:07:24,542 --> 00:07:26,875 what are we doing on football Sundays? 187 00:07:26,958 --> 00:07:29,833 Like, are we turning on the Jets game or the Bills game? 188 00:07:29,875 --> 00:07:31,500 Or are we turning on the Bengals? 189 00:07:31,625 --> 00:07:32,708 Do you have a team? 190 00:07:32,792 --> 00:07:34,125 - I'm a dedicated Broncos fan now. 191 00:07:34,208 --> 00:07:35,667 - Oh, [bleep]. 192 00:07:35,750 --> 00:07:37,417 Are you converting me to a Broncos fan? 193 00:07:37,500 --> 00:07:38,750 I am--I do love the Broncos, though. 194 00:07:38,875 --> 00:07:40,500 - I mean, I just committed this year. 195 00:07:40,583 --> 00:07:41,542 So I feel like that's a lot of converting 196 00:07:41,667 --> 00:07:43,125 on my end, though, so-- 197 00:07:43,208 --> 00:07:45,042 - So if you want me to convert to a Broncos fan... 198 00:07:45,125 --> 00:07:47,000 - I feel like we maybe need to convert in my direction. 199 00:07:47,042 --> 00:07:49,333 - I can compromise. - You can compromise? 200 00:07:49,417 --> 00:07:50,750 - You've compromised so much for me. 201 00:07:50,875 --> 00:07:52,542 I feel like this is the least I can do 202 00:07:52,625 --> 00:07:53,833 is compromise on the Broncos. 203 00:07:53,917 --> 00:07:55,792 Okay, you know what? In the effort of unity-- 204 00:07:55,875 --> 00:07:57,583 - I feel like we should meet in the middle 205 00:07:57,667 --> 00:08:00,167 because we both live here for now. 206 00:08:00,208 --> 00:08:02,833 - So is that gonna change if we move to another state? 207 00:08:02,833 --> 00:08:04,750 - Wherever we go, that's where our kids are gonna be. 208 00:08:04,833 --> 00:08:07,500 - So we're gonna have to get a lot of jerseys. 209 00:08:07,542 --> 00:08:09,708 - Well, that's already, like, avoiding a big fight. 210 00:08:09,708 --> 00:08:10,917 - That's where my mom said we'd clash. 211 00:08:11,042 --> 00:08:12,375 'Cause if we agree on everything, 212 00:08:12,458 --> 00:08:13,500 how are we gonna challenge each other? 213 00:08:13,625 --> 00:08:16,167 - No, I think you will challenge me. 214 00:08:16,208 --> 00:08:17,333 - I think you will too. 215 00:08:17,417 --> 00:08:18,917 ♪ 216 00:08:19,042 --> 00:08:20,375 - Yeah. 217 00:08:20,458 --> 00:08:21,167 - I don't think that will ever change. 218 00:08:21,250 --> 00:08:27,917 ♪ 219 00:08:29,417 --> 00:08:31,833 -♪ Let's go 220 00:08:31,917 --> 00:08:33,667 - All right, I'm just gonna get changed. 221 00:08:33,750 --> 00:08:36,333 - Okay, I'm just gonna pack up some of my stuff. 222 00:08:36,417 --> 00:08:37,875 - Brush time. 223 00:08:38,000 --> 00:08:40,250 - Hello, brush time. 224 00:08:40,333 --> 00:08:42,667 - Our room's a mess. 225 00:08:42,750 --> 00:08:45,000 - Okay, well, good night. 226 00:08:48,833 --> 00:08:52,000 - Funny meeting you here. 227 00:08:52,083 --> 00:08:53,250 - Hey. - Hey. 228 00:09:01,833 --> 00:09:05,667 - Is there a temporary solution? 229 00:09:05,708 --> 00:09:08,833 You know, I'm really sorry if I didn't support you 230 00:09:08,875 --> 00:09:10,500 in the way that you needed in that moment. 231 00:09:10,625 --> 00:09:15,792 And you know, I'm really-- 232 00:09:15,875 --> 00:09:20,292 I am really curious if you feel like, you know, 233 00:09:20,375 --> 00:09:25,167 this whole sex being off the table is because you had sex. 234 00:09:25,208 --> 00:09:27,083 - Yes, I feel that way because you said that. 235 00:09:27,167 --> 00:09:29,375 - It's not off the table because of that. 236 00:09:29,458 --> 00:09:31,125 - So why'd you say that? 237 00:09:31,208 --> 00:09:32,667 Stand on what you said. 238 00:09:32,792 --> 00:09:35,500 - I am. You know, and I apologize for-- 239 00:09:35,542 --> 00:09:36,833 - I don't want an apology. 240 00:09:36,917 --> 00:09:38,000 I don't wanna hear I'm sorry. 241 00:09:38,083 --> 00:09:39,958 I want answers. 242 00:09:40,042 --> 00:09:45,250 Why did you say that if that's not what you meant? 243 00:09:45,375 --> 00:09:47,083 ♪ 244 00:09:47,208 --> 00:09:50,083 - Well, because it-- 245 00:09:50,208 --> 00:09:54,125 I mean--because it's, you know, kind of the truth. 246 00:09:54,208 --> 00:09:55,792 ♪ 247 00:09:55,875 --> 00:09:57,708 - There we go. - Yeah. 248 00:09:57,792 --> 00:09:59,250 - You're finally starting to tell the truth. 249 00:09:59,375 --> 00:10:01,667 So why is it the truth? - I've always been truthful. 250 00:10:01,792 --> 00:10:04,542 - Now, let's not start this [bleep], Orion, okay? 251 00:10:04,625 --> 00:10:06,208 We're having a constructive conversation, right? 252 00:10:06,333 --> 00:10:08,167 - Okay. - We telling the truth. 253 00:10:08,250 --> 00:10:10,875 Because downstairs you said, well, that's not all it was, 254 00:10:11,000 --> 00:10:12,542 and now you said it is the truth. 255 00:10:12,625 --> 00:10:14,542 Why is that? 256 00:10:14,625 --> 00:10:17,458 - Well, because you were engaged. 257 00:10:17,542 --> 00:10:18,875 Were you not? 258 00:10:18,958 --> 00:10:21,167 - I was engaged before I got selected? 259 00:10:21,250 --> 00:10:23,667 When I had sex in December, I was not selected for this. 260 00:10:23,792 --> 00:10:25,667 - I mean, but you signed up for the show, right? 261 00:10:25,792 --> 00:10:28,333 - So you're saying that you feel like I did not 262 00:10:28,375 --> 00:10:29,875 take this as serious as you. 263 00:10:29,958 --> 00:10:31,625 - That's not what I'm saying. 264 00:10:31,708 --> 00:10:33,000 - Then I need you to say an answer, Orion. 265 00:10:33,083 --> 00:10:35,542 I very much need you to say an answer. 266 00:10:35,625 --> 00:10:37,250 I don't do well with this. 267 00:10:37,375 --> 00:10:39,625 Whatever this is, I don't do well with gray. 268 00:10:39,708 --> 00:10:41,667 - I understand. I know. 269 00:10:41,792 --> 00:10:43,833 - I promise you it's not gonna hurt my feelings, 270 00:10:43,875 --> 00:10:45,958 but I need you to say the answer 271 00:10:46,042 --> 00:10:50,917 as to why that comment made you take sex off the table. 272 00:10:51,000 --> 00:10:54,083 - I mean, because intention with this process, right? 273 00:10:54,167 --> 00:10:56,667 - So you feel like I lacked intention with the process? 274 00:10:56,667 --> 00:10:58,667 - Did you? You know? 275 00:10:58,708 --> 00:11:00,458 - No, we're talking about what you felt right now. 276 00:11:00,542 --> 00:11:02,250 You tell me. 277 00:11:02,333 --> 00:11:04,417 - I guess, you know, I don't feel comfortable with the fact 278 00:11:04,500 --> 00:11:07,542 that while you started this process, 279 00:11:07,542 --> 00:11:09,333 going through this process and everything 280 00:11:09,417 --> 00:11:13,417 that it has to do with it, you did sleep with somebody else. 281 00:11:13,500 --> 00:11:14,375 - I did. 282 00:11:14,458 --> 00:11:16,583 ♪ 283 00:11:16,708 --> 00:11:20,792 But why is it because I did something different 284 00:11:20,875 --> 00:11:23,750 than you, why does that make my intentions 285 00:11:23,833 --> 00:11:25,667 not as pure as yours? 286 00:11:25,750 --> 00:11:27,125 - I never said that your intention weren't-- 287 00:11:27,208 --> 00:11:29,333 - You didn't say it, but you're not saying a lot, 288 00:11:29,500 --> 00:11:31,417 but things are being implied. 289 00:11:31,500 --> 00:11:33,417 And that's what's being implied. 290 00:11:33,500 --> 00:11:36,833 - But I am not judging you for it. 291 00:11:36,875 --> 00:11:41,417 - But you assumed that because I did that, 292 00:11:41,500 --> 00:11:45,417 that I was not moving in the way, 293 00:11:45,500 --> 00:11:48,083 that you would want your future wife to move in. 294 00:11:48,167 --> 00:11:50,500 - No, I just felt very uncomfortable 295 00:11:50,625 --> 00:11:51,667 that you did that. 296 00:11:51,792 --> 00:11:53,958 You signed up for this. 297 00:11:54,042 --> 00:11:57,042 - But why-- no, that's not fair. 298 00:11:57,167 --> 00:11:58,625 It's not. 299 00:11:58,708 --> 00:11:59,917 And I'm not gonna sit here and act like 300 00:12:00,000 --> 00:12:01,833 it is fair of you to say that. 301 00:12:01,917 --> 00:12:03,958 And I'm gonna stand on that [bleep]. 302 00:12:04,042 --> 00:12:07,125 - And what I'm standing on is, I did not judge you. 303 00:12:07,208 --> 00:12:08,667 - Okay. 304 00:12:08,792 --> 00:12:09,917 - I did not judge you. 305 00:12:10,000 --> 00:12:11,667 - But you made assumptions. 306 00:12:11,750 --> 00:12:14,417 - No, I didn't make assumptions, Lauren. 307 00:12:14,500 --> 00:12:16,708 - I probably won't get a clear answer on that either. 308 00:12:16,708 --> 00:12:19,000 - It made me uncomfortable. 309 00:12:19,083 --> 00:12:21,958 - And that's--I think that is completely fair to say. 310 00:12:22,042 --> 00:12:25,167 - That's--that's all I have to give you. 311 00:12:25,250 --> 00:12:26,833 - Okay. 312 00:12:26,917 --> 00:12:28,625 - You know, and the way it came up, 313 00:12:28,708 --> 00:12:31,292 you know, it was careless on my part. 314 00:12:32,958 --> 00:12:35,667 You know, but that is the truth of it. 315 00:12:35,750 --> 00:12:39,000 - And I think that your truth is your truth. 316 00:12:39,083 --> 00:12:41,208 And that's all you have at the end of the day, 317 00:12:41,208 --> 00:12:43,333 so stand on it. 318 00:12:43,417 --> 00:12:45,875 - Okay. - Okay. 319 00:12:45,958 --> 00:12:47,875 - ♪ There's one last breath 320 00:12:47,958 --> 00:12:53,667 ♪ Before the light fades out 321 00:12:53,750 --> 00:12:55,667 ♪ And we drown 322 00:12:55,708 --> 00:12:57,708 ♪ 323 00:12:57,833 --> 00:12:59,417 ♪ And we drown 324 00:13:03,500 --> 00:13:06,542 - ♪ All I need is your love 325 00:13:06,542 --> 00:13:09,333 ♪ Your love 326 00:13:09,375 --> 00:13:10,500 ♪ All I need 327 00:13:10,583 --> 00:13:12,167 - Good morning. 328 00:13:12,208 --> 00:13:14,208 How'd you sleep? - I slept great. 329 00:13:14,292 --> 00:13:15,833 Except for every time I woke up, you were awake. 330 00:13:15,875 --> 00:13:17,333 - Yeah, I didn't sleep. 331 00:13:17,375 --> 00:13:19,208 Something happened yesterday I think in the water. 332 00:13:19,292 --> 00:13:21,250 Like, I dived down to, like, the bottom 333 00:13:21,375 --> 00:13:23,417 and, like, picked up the sand and stuff. 334 00:13:23,500 --> 00:13:25,833 And I did hear some popping. - And now it's like-- 335 00:13:25,917 --> 00:13:28,333 - Yeah, it feels like someone's pushing a sharp object 336 00:13:28,375 --> 00:13:30,292 into the side of my head. - I'm sorry. 337 00:13:30,375 --> 00:13:33,167 Oh, no, that's not good. We need to get that checked. 338 00:13:33,250 --> 00:13:35,000 - Yes, I think we-- yeah, go to a doctor. 339 00:13:35,042 --> 00:13:36,875 - So first off, I have, like, a mandatory meeting 340 00:13:36,958 --> 00:13:38,875 that I have to do for work. 341 00:13:38,875 --> 00:13:41,042 - Well, maybe I'll go to the doctor 342 00:13:41,125 --> 00:13:43,667 when you go to your meeting. 343 00:13:43,708 --> 00:13:47,542 I think as long as we take care of it today, then we're good. 344 00:13:47,625 --> 00:13:50,500 - Okay, before we do that, should we eat breakfast? 345 00:13:50,542 --> 00:13:52,250 - What's my order? 346 00:13:52,333 --> 00:13:57,125 - Okay, pancakes with scrambled eggs with iced coffee. 347 00:13:57,208 --> 00:13:59,292 - Yeah-huh. How do I like my coffee? 348 00:13:59,375 --> 00:14:04,000 - Just black, black and iced and then with syrup 349 00:14:04,083 --> 00:14:06,833 on the pancakes. - Yeah. 350 00:14:06,917 --> 00:14:09,167 - I feel really good about the honeymoon so far. 351 00:14:09,292 --> 00:14:13,042 I think there is a different level of intimacy 352 00:14:13,042 --> 00:14:14,917 that wasn't there at the beginning. 353 00:14:15,000 --> 00:14:18,250 And so the attraction is developing, and it's growing. 354 00:14:18,333 --> 00:14:21,000 And so it's just kind of a relief for me that that's-- 355 00:14:21,083 --> 00:14:24,083 we've been able to get to that point. 356 00:14:24,167 --> 00:14:25,417 - I think when we live together, 357 00:14:25,500 --> 00:14:29,833 we're gonna be great at it. 358 00:14:29,917 --> 00:14:31,833 I don't know how you're feeling about 359 00:14:31,875 --> 00:14:34,208 where we are in our relationship 360 00:14:34,292 --> 00:14:36,292 and moving in together, like... 361 00:14:36,375 --> 00:14:40,083 - You know, I'm a very independent person. 362 00:14:40,167 --> 00:14:42,333 I tend to do a lot of things by myself. 363 00:14:42,375 --> 00:14:44,958 But the reason I did this because I don't wanna 364 00:14:45,042 --> 00:14:47,167 have to do that alone all the time. 365 00:14:47,208 --> 00:14:49,042 Is that to say that it's not gonna be hard 366 00:14:49,125 --> 00:14:50,667 to adjust to that? 367 00:14:50,750 --> 00:14:52,625 No, it's going to be hard. 368 00:14:52,708 --> 00:14:54,083 It's just going to be a lot of change, 369 00:14:54,167 --> 00:14:55,875 and that's just what it is. 370 00:14:56,000 --> 00:14:57,208 - I mean, we don't crowd each other. 371 00:14:57,292 --> 00:14:58,833 - No. 372 00:14:58,917 --> 00:15:00,208 - But, like, we enjoy being around each other. 373 00:15:00,333 --> 00:15:01,833 I'm not following you around like, you know, 374 00:15:01,875 --> 00:15:03,000 a little puppy or something. 375 00:15:03,083 --> 00:15:04,667 - I would be like, get away from me. 376 00:15:04,750 --> 00:15:06,500 And I wouldn't do the same for you. 377 00:15:06,542 --> 00:15:08,333 - Right, but we can-- like, we can do our own thing, 378 00:15:08,417 --> 00:15:12,542 and then we can settle down together, which just feels 379 00:15:12,625 --> 00:15:16,167 very natural and healthy. 380 00:15:16,292 --> 00:15:18,458 - For sure. 381 00:15:18,542 --> 00:15:21,292 - I know relationships can be really stressful for people, 382 00:15:21,375 --> 00:15:24,083 and I've had very stressful relationships 383 00:15:24,208 --> 00:15:25,542 where, like, coming home was, like, 384 00:15:25,625 --> 00:15:27,125 the worst part of the day. 385 00:15:27,208 --> 00:15:30,167 And I know that for me, the only way 386 00:15:30,208 --> 00:15:33,667 it's gonna work out is that when I walk through the door, 387 00:15:33,750 --> 00:15:37,000 like, all my problems, like, melt away. 388 00:15:37,042 --> 00:15:39,500 And I really think that that can happen with Clare. 389 00:15:39,542 --> 00:15:43,833 Oh, man, yeah, if we got signs here on the honeymoon 390 00:15:43,958 --> 00:15:46,167 that living together was gonna be terrible, 391 00:15:46,250 --> 00:15:50,667 oh, man, I would be-- I would be scared right now. 392 00:15:50,750 --> 00:15:52,250 - But it is scary altogether. 393 00:15:52,333 --> 00:15:54,750 I think I'm still scared. I'm not like, well-- 394 00:15:54,833 --> 00:15:56,083 - It's a lot of new territory. 395 00:15:56,167 --> 00:15:57,333 - Yeah, you nailed it. 396 00:15:57,417 --> 00:15:59,333 Like, It's gonna be a lot of change. 397 00:15:59,458 --> 00:16:06,167 ♪ 398 00:16:10,250 --> 00:16:12,000 - I would wait for you, but I-- 399 00:16:12,083 --> 00:16:13,542 - You don't have to wait for me. 400 00:16:13,667 --> 00:16:17,792 - My body has never been so excited to see protein. 401 00:16:17,875 --> 00:16:19,500 - Hits the spot, eh? 402 00:16:19,583 --> 00:16:21,542 - I feel it coursing through my veins. 403 00:16:21,625 --> 00:16:23,333 Do I look like the Hulk yet? 404 00:16:23,417 --> 00:16:28,000 - Absolutely, you're [bleep] turning She-Hulk pink. 405 00:16:28,125 --> 00:16:29,250 - I have something very intense to tell you. 406 00:16:29,375 --> 00:16:30,958 - Okay. 407 00:16:31,042 --> 00:16:32,542 - And I've been meaning to tell you for a while. 408 00:16:32,625 --> 00:16:34,458 I'm not a natural pink. 409 00:16:34,542 --> 00:16:36,208 - No! 410 00:16:36,292 --> 00:16:38,500 Divorce? 411 00:16:38,583 --> 00:16:40,875 So, is there anything you wanna talk about, 412 00:16:41,000 --> 00:16:44,417 anything specific? 413 00:16:44,500 --> 00:16:47,667 - I think something that we haven't... 414 00:16:47,750 --> 00:16:50,667 dove into super deep is religion. 415 00:16:50,750 --> 00:16:52,083 - [coughs] 416 00:16:52,167 --> 00:16:53,250 - Like, we just have-- 417 00:16:53,333 --> 00:16:55,125 we haven't really talked about it. 418 00:16:55,208 --> 00:16:57,667 - I don't know what that is. I've never heard of religion. 419 00:16:57,750 --> 00:17:03,667 ♪ 420 00:17:03,750 --> 00:17:04,917 We should talk about that. 421 00:17:05,000 --> 00:17:05,958 - Right now? 422 00:17:06,042 --> 00:17:07,417 - No, probably not now. 423 00:17:07,542 --> 00:17:09,958 ♪ 424 00:17:10,042 --> 00:17:11,500 - I'm definitely trying to give him space, 425 00:17:11,542 --> 00:17:15,167 but it stings a little trying to connect with your partner 426 00:17:15,208 --> 00:17:17,292 and feeling rejected. 427 00:17:17,375 --> 00:17:19,208 - It's early. - It's early. 428 00:17:19,292 --> 00:17:20,792 - I don't wanna scare you off quite yet. 429 00:17:20,875 --> 00:17:27,667 ♪ 430 00:17:36,500 --> 00:17:40,208 - When I woke up, Orion wasn't in bed with me. 431 00:17:40,333 --> 00:17:43,583 We did sleep in the same bed, but we did have 432 00:17:43,667 --> 00:17:45,458 some more conversation last night. 433 00:17:45,542 --> 00:17:49,500 And I did tell him that I felt like 434 00:17:49,583 --> 00:17:54,917 I was just being judged and attacked for my sexual past. 435 00:17:55,000 --> 00:18:00,500 I just felt very isolated and very unsupported and unheard, 436 00:18:00,583 --> 00:18:03,458 to which he did get really emotional 437 00:18:03,458 --> 00:18:06,250 and expressed that he does understand 438 00:18:06,333 --> 00:18:11,250 that the consistency has not been there, 439 00:18:11,250 --> 00:18:14,000 specifically on the subject of sex. 440 00:18:14,083 --> 00:18:16,292 He told me that he doesn't care 441 00:18:16,375 --> 00:18:18,167 that I had sex two months ago. 442 00:18:18,250 --> 00:18:22,667 You know, I'm definitely able to extend grace 443 00:18:22,708 --> 00:18:24,667 in this situation. 444 00:18:24,750 --> 00:18:27,042 But while I'm extending grace, 445 00:18:27,042 --> 00:18:29,000 it still makes me just feel a little 446 00:18:29,083 --> 00:18:30,833 unsettled in the marriage. 447 00:18:30,875 --> 00:18:32,375 ♪ 448 00:18:32,458 --> 00:18:34,750 [blows raspberry] I don't know, y'all. 449 00:18:38,875 --> 00:18:40,250 [upbeat music] 450 00:18:40,375 --> 00:18:44,000 - Just remember I'm going left-handed. 451 00:18:44,125 --> 00:18:47,375 - The drink in the hand is key for me. 452 00:18:47,458 --> 00:18:50,875 - ♪ Doing it all in the name of fame ♪ 453 00:18:50,958 --> 00:18:52,292 ♪ Crazy nights 454 00:18:52,375 --> 00:18:54,083 - Hey, you are so good with your left. 455 00:18:54,208 --> 00:18:55,708 ♪ 456 00:18:55,792 --> 00:18:59,500 - I like that. Got it. 457 00:18:59,583 --> 00:19:01,042 Then that's game. 458 00:19:01,042 --> 00:19:04,125 ♪ 459 00:19:04,208 --> 00:19:06,083 Oh. - Whoo! 460 00:19:06,208 --> 00:19:09,167 Maybe I'm gonna be, like, the super competitive one. 461 00:19:09,250 --> 00:19:10,750 - All right, okay. 462 00:19:10,833 --> 00:19:12,292 I'm done with this. 463 00:19:12,375 --> 00:19:13,833 - Is that all you wanted and more? 464 00:19:13,875 --> 00:19:15,000 - Nice to, like, clear our heads 465 00:19:15,125 --> 00:19:16,667 and just have fun, you know? 466 00:19:16,750 --> 00:19:19,125 - Even with my crippled hand, I also found out 467 00:19:19,208 --> 00:19:22,708 that I might be a left-handed athlete. 468 00:19:22,792 --> 00:19:24,000 Do you know how to have fun? 469 00:19:24,083 --> 00:19:25,500 - Yeah, like, did you not see that? 470 00:19:25,542 --> 00:19:27,583 - I know. You're letting me win. 471 00:19:27,708 --> 00:19:28,875 - Why did you ask that? 472 00:19:28,958 --> 00:19:30,708 You're like, do you like to have fun? 473 00:19:30,792 --> 00:19:32,583 - I was just joking. 474 00:19:32,708 --> 00:19:34,208 ♪ 475 00:19:34,333 --> 00:19:35,583 Oh. - It's fine. 476 00:19:35,667 --> 00:19:37,833 You can be honest. - I'm just kidding. 477 00:19:37,917 --> 00:19:40,417 Like, I thought you were just more, like, competitive. 478 00:19:40,500 --> 00:19:42,000 - You think I only care about winning. 479 00:19:42,083 --> 00:19:43,500 - No, I don't. 480 00:19:43,583 --> 00:19:45,208 ♪ 481 00:19:45,292 --> 00:19:47,708 I know you like to have fun. I'm just kidding. 482 00:19:47,833 --> 00:19:50,000 - To me, it's just, we're having fun together, 483 00:19:50,125 --> 00:19:51,958 and who cares, you know? 484 00:19:52,042 --> 00:19:54,500 It's like, it's just all in good fun. 485 00:19:54,542 --> 00:19:56,500 - Like, we're both trying to take this slow 486 00:19:56,542 --> 00:19:58,208 and, like, really understand each other. 487 00:19:58,375 --> 00:20:01,292 But I'm just taken back 'cause, like, 488 00:20:01,375 --> 00:20:03,458 he's seeing something different, 489 00:20:03,542 --> 00:20:06,417 and I'm trying to figure out what that means. 490 00:20:06,542 --> 00:20:08,833 - Do you like to have fun? What the [bleep] is that? 491 00:20:08,875 --> 00:20:10,833 ♪ 492 00:20:10,958 --> 00:20:14,542 - Oh, my God, sorry. 493 00:20:14,625 --> 00:20:16,208 - Mr. "Does he like to have fun." 494 00:20:16,292 --> 00:20:18,500 - You have to stop thinking about everything. 495 00:20:18,542 --> 00:20:21,042 - Trust me, you'll know when mad, actually. 496 00:20:21,125 --> 00:20:22,292 - Just turn. 497 00:20:22,375 --> 00:20:24,500 - You? Why? 498 00:20:24,583 --> 00:20:26,167 It takes a lot. 499 00:20:26,250 --> 00:20:27,333 And the only people who have ever actually 500 00:20:27,375 --> 00:20:31,292 gotten me really mad is my parents, so. 501 00:20:31,375 --> 00:20:34,625 - Well, wifey's right up there. 502 00:20:34,708 --> 00:20:37,417 [laughs] 503 00:20:37,542 --> 00:20:42,667 - ♪ I don't want trouble in my way ♪ 504 00:20:42,708 --> 00:20:45,542 ♪ I won't go there till it's over ♪ 505 00:20:45,625 --> 00:20:48,375 ♪ I'll fight another day 506 00:20:48,458 --> 00:20:51,500 - Hey. - Hey, how was the gym? 507 00:20:51,583 --> 00:20:53,958 - Sweaty. 508 00:20:54,042 --> 00:20:57,208 Leg day, cardio day, tired day. 509 00:20:57,208 --> 00:20:59,333 - Yeah. 510 00:20:59,375 --> 00:21:00,792 Today, I feel very tired. 511 00:21:00,875 --> 00:21:02,250 - Yeah? 512 00:21:02,333 --> 00:21:04,250 - Yeah, I would say, you know, I know we, uh, 513 00:21:04,333 --> 00:21:05,833 we were a little offbeat this morning. 514 00:21:05,917 --> 00:21:07,375 - Yeah. 515 00:21:07,458 --> 00:21:09,208 - You know, and I kinda feel like, you know, 516 00:21:09,333 --> 00:21:11,833 I kinda still need to sit in my emotions. 517 00:21:11,875 --> 00:21:13,750 You know, 'cause I'm really just feeling 518 00:21:13,833 --> 00:21:16,583 emotionally depleted. 519 00:21:16,667 --> 00:21:22,375 - I think that yesterday was just a lot. 520 00:21:22,458 --> 00:21:24,250 I do offer you grace in that moment. 521 00:21:24,333 --> 00:21:27,375 I know that was not necessarily your best self. 522 00:21:27,458 --> 00:21:29,250 And sometimes that happens. 523 00:21:29,333 --> 00:21:31,125 You know, we've been there, and I'm not 524 00:21:31,208 --> 00:21:32,792 going to hold that moment against you 525 00:21:32,875 --> 00:21:35,667 or hold it over our marriage 'cause that's not fair. 526 00:21:35,750 --> 00:21:39,375 But the emotions just aren't dissipating as quickly 527 00:21:39,500 --> 00:21:42,833 as I would like them to. 528 00:21:42,917 --> 00:21:47,083 - Yeah, and I would say I'm in the same boat, 529 00:21:47,208 --> 00:21:50,875 but I think everything that you are feeling is fair. 530 00:21:50,958 --> 00:21:52,833 You know, and I understand, you know, 531 00:21:52,875 --> 00:21:55,708 the contradictory topic that we were talking about. 532 00:21:55,792 --> 00:21:58,500 And I think just with the long day 533 00:21:58,583 --> 00:22:00,000 that we had and everything else, 534 00:22:00,125 --> 00:22:02,833 it's a real [bleep] excuse. 535 00:22:02,917 --> 00:22:06,125 You now, but I really did just drop the ball. 536 00:22:06,208 --> 00:22:09,042 ♪ 537 00:22:09,208 --> 00:22:11,292 - I think moving forward, I just need 538 00:22:11,375 --> 00:22:13,625 consistency in your words. 539 00:22:13,708 --> 00:22:17,333 Because I feel like I haven't backtracked 540 00:22:17,458 --> 00:22:20,708 or changed words on what I say to you. 541 00:22:20,833 --> 00:22:23,250 And I would just appreciate that from you 542 00:22:23,250 --> 00:22:24,833 moving forward as well-- 543 00:22:24,917 --> 00:22:27,083 not to just put all the blame on you 544 00:22:27,167 --> 00:22:30,917 because I know I got very vocally dramatic with you. 545 00:22:31,000 --> 00:22:34,625 But I think my frustrations were just so high 546 00:22:34,708 --> 00:22:37,792 that I didn't really feel like you were my husband. 547 00:22:37,792 --> 00:22:40,083 I honestly just felt like you were 548 00:22:40,167 --> 00:22:42,042 a man that I met six days ago. 549 00:22:42,125 --> 00:22:44,083 ♪ 550 00:22:44,167 --> 00:22:45,625 - And I understand that. 551 00:22:45,708 --> 00:22:48,417 I think that's really fair to feel that way. 552 00:22:48,542 --> 00:22:50,583 You know, because, you know, I wasn't being 553 00:22:50,667 --> 00:22:53,208 your husband in that moment. 554 00:22:53,292 --> 00:22:56,625 - We've both had moments where we weren't our best selves, 555 00:22:56,708 --> 00:22:58,458 but I've also seen a lot of moments 556 00:22:58,458 --> 00:23:00,667 where I feel like you were at your best, 557 00:23:00,708 --> 00:23:04,167 and I think that at your purest, most genuine, 558 00:23:04,250 --> 00:23:06,167 that's who you really are. 559 00:23:06,250 --> 00:23:07,458 - Thanks. 560 00:23:07,542 --> 00:23:09,875 - You know, we got this. 561 00:23:09,958 --> 00:23:13,792 - ♪ I won't let you go 562 00:23:13,875 --> 00:23:20,125 ♪ 563 00:23:20,208 --> 00:23:23,500 - Come sit by me. Come on. 564 00:23:23,625 --> 00:23:25,167 It's okay, it's okay, 565 00:23:25,250 --> 00:23:26,250 it's okay, it's okay, it's okay. 566 00:23:26,333 --> 00:23:27,750 It's okay. 567 00:23:27,833 --> 00:23:30,208 - ♪ All that we fight for 568 00:23:30,333 --> 00:23:32,833 ♪ Got lost in the shuffle 569 00:23:32,917 --> 00:23:35,000 ♪ But all I know 570 00:23:35,083 --> 00:23:41,792 ♪ 571 00:23:46,333 --> 00:23:49,208 - Okay, looks like we're here. 572 00:23:49,208 --> 00:23:50,375 - Hola! 573 00:23:50,458 --> 00:23:52,000 Saw the doctor at the resort, 574 00:23:52,083 --> 00:23:55,292 and she doesn't have the specialized knowledge 575 00:23:55,375 --> 00:23:57,875 to know if my ear is damaged. 576 00:23:57,875 --> 00:24:02,208 So I'm going to a doctor in the city of Cancun. 577 00:24:02,333 --> 00:24:04,792 I have to go to the hospital in Cancun. 578 00:24:04,875 --> 00:24:06,542 - Yeah. - So I'm gonna go there. 579 00:24:06,625 --> 00:24:08,667 - Yeah, all right, that sounds good. 580 00:24:08,750 --> 00:24:10,000 I don't know if I can go 'cause I have my meeting. 581 00:24:10,042 --> 00:24:11,333 - I know, I know. 582 00:24:11,375 --> 00:24:13,167 - But, yeah, let me know how it goes. 583 00:24:13,292 --> 00:24:15,333 I know that he is in a lot of pain, 584 00:24:15,458 --> 00:24:17,500 and I do feel really bad for him. 585 00:24:17,542 --> 00:24:19,000 So yeah, I don't know. I hope it all works out. 586 00:24:19,125 --> 00:24:21,000 I hope that he gets whatever he needs 587 00:24:21,083 --> 00:24:22,750 so that he can start, like, healing 'cause, like, 588 00:24:22,875 --> 00:24:24,458 he hasn't slept because of this. 589 00:24:24,542 --> 00:24:27,333 So I hope that they fix whatever the issue is. 590 00:24:27,375 --> 00:24:30,750 ♪ 591 00:24:30,833 --> 00:24:33,917 - ♪ It's the feeling that you give me ♪ 592 00:24:34,042 --> 00:24:37,458 ♪ Every time that you are with me ♪ 593 00:24:37,542 --> 00:24:38,792 - I picked flowers on the beach. 594 00:24:38,875 --> 00:24:40,875 - [laughs] 595 00:24:40,958 --> 00:24:43,083 We couldn't do this in Denver. - No! 596 00:24:43,167 --> 00:24:44,833 - But could you pick me a flower off of the beach 597 00:24:44,917 --> 00:24:47,667 with the ocean behind me? - No. 598 00:24:47,792 --> 00:24:49,167 How many rose beaches do we have in Denver? 599 00:24:49,292 --> 00:24:50,625 - Three. 600 00:24:50,708 --> 00:24:52,167 - [laughs] All right. 601 00:24:52,208 --> 00:24:54,083 - All in my imagination. 602 00:24:54,167 --> 00:24:56,458 - I just kind of wanna clear everything up with you. 603 00:24:56,542 --> 00:25:01,333 I know in the past you had boyfriends 604 00:25:01,375 --> 00:25:03,833 who were avoidant 605 00:25:04,000 --> 00:25:06,542 and make sure you aren't feeling that way with me. 606 00:25:06,667 --> 00:25:09,500 - In past relationships, I think it's been my go-to 607 00:25:09,542 --> 00:25:12,500 to rush in pretty quickly by way of, like, 608 00:25:12,583 --> 00:25:14,333 really deep, hard conversations 609 00:25:14,375 --> 00:25:15,583 because I've found-- - Right off the bat? 610 00:25:15,708 --> 00:25:17,375 - Yeah. - Oh, interesting. 611 00:25:17,500 --> 00:25:19,542 - Like, they're topics that are important to me, 612 00:25:19,667 --> 00:25:21,250 and so when I've dated people in the past, like, 613 00:25:21,333 --> 00:25:23,000 I do bring them up right away. 614 00:25:23,042 --> 00:25:24,833 ♪ 615 00:25:24,917 --> 00:25:26,750 - Well, to each their own, you know? 616 00:25:26,833 --> 00:25:30,000 - Yeah, and I know that there might be differences there 617 00:25:30,083 --> 00:25:33,667 because I was raised Jewish, but I'm personally agnostic. 618 00:25:33,708 --> 00:25:36,708 But like, I also know that those differences 619 00:25:36,708 --> 00:25:39,792 have caused me such anxiety before in past relationships. 620 00:25:39,875 --> 00:25:42,833 And with you, I don't feel that. 621 00:25:42,917 --> 00:25:46,042 - I'm just, like, plain old Christian. 622 00:25:46,125 --> 00:25:49,917 But my parents didn't exactly line up on faith. 623 00:25:50,042 --> 00:25:52,792 So seeing how they maneuvered those topics, like, 624 00:25:52,875 --> 00:25:55,958 I think that is beneficial, especially considering 625 00:25:56,042 --> 00:26:00,958 we might have differences in those areas now. 626 00:26:01,042 --> 00:26:02,292 - We know we do. 627 00:26:02,375 --> 00:26:04,667 But like, there's so much else there, 628 00:26:04,750 --> 00:26:06,667 where in past relationships, there hasn't. 629 00:26:06,750 --> 00:26:08,833 And I've only, like, looked for those commonalities, 630 00:26:08,833 --> 00:26:10,250 latched on to those commonalities, 631 00:26:10,333 --> 00:26:12,042 and used those as a foundation. 632 00:26:12,125 --> 00:26:13,500 And that has failed me. 633 00:26:13,583 --> 00:26:15,917 I feel like by us building a foundation on all 634 00:26:16,042 --> 00:26:17,667 of the other aspects of our relationship 635 00:26:17,750 --> 00:26:20,625 and all of our other strengths and everything else, 636 00:26:20,625 --> 00:26:24,000 we will be able to get through a lot. 637 00:26:24,083 --> 00:26:25,708 - I agree 100%. 638 00:26:25,792 --> 00:26:28,292 I think we are learning how one another communicates, 639 00:26:28,375 --> 00:26:29,833 and I think the best way to do that 640 00:26:29,958 --> 00:26:31,833 is starting out with the small issues 641 00:26:31,917 --> 00:26:33,667 and then moving to the big ones. 642 00:26:33,750 --> 00:26:36,958 - Yeah, and I personally am not extremely worried 643 00:26:37,042 --> 00:26:39,542 about how the, like, issues that we haven't talked about 644 00:26:39,667 --> 00:26:41,333 might impact our relationship. 645 00:26:41,375 --> 00:26:43,750 Like, I feel like we are strong, 646 00:26:43,833 --> 00:26:46,542 and I feel like we're so understanding of each other, 647 00:26:46,667 --> 00:26:50,417 and this time will only make that better. 648 00:26:50,500 --> 00:26:51,708 - Yeah, totally. 649 00:26:51,792 --> 00:26:54,000 - ♪ Let's make some waves 650 00:26:54,083 --> 00:26:55,583 ♪ 651 00:26:59,500 --> 00:27:02,208 [upbeat music] 652 00:27:02,292 --> 00:27:04,417 - Yeah, I think I'm very much in my head right now. 653 00:27:04,542 --> 00:27:05,833 - Yeah? 654 00:27:05,917 --> 00:27:07,458 - Yeah, 'cause, I mean, right now, 655 00:27:07,542 --> 00:27:09,750 I actually feel kind of bad that, 656 00:27:09,833 --> 00:27:12,667 you know, I'm not as talkative or as touchy 657 00:27:12,750 --> 00:27:14,792 as I have been. 658 00:27:14,875 --> 00:27:17,458 I know it can be, like, a bit of a night and day difference. 659 00:27:17,542 --> 00:27:20,000 - I'm like that too. That's okay. 660 00:27:20,125 --> 00:27:21,417 - Okay. 661 00:27:21,542 --> 00:27:25,750 - Orion is still feeling like he failed the marriage 662 00:27:25,833 --> 00:27:27,542 and failed me, so I wanted to have 663 00:27:27,625 --> 00:27:29,708 a conversation with Dr. Pia. 664 00:27:29,833 --> 00:27:33,167 I'm really hoping that she can give us some better tools 665 00:27:33,208 --> 00:27:35,333 to navigate conflict in the moment 666 00:27:35,417 --> 00:27:36,875 and maybe do better 667 00:27:36,958 --> 00:27:39,000 at compartmentalizing in the moment. 668 00:27:39,083 --> 00:27:40,542 Come a little closer, just because-- 669 00:27:40,625 --> 00:27:42,458 - Yeah, sure, sure. 670 00:27:42,542 --> 00:27:45,500 Here we go. - Okay. 671 00:27:45,583 --> 00:27:46,375 - Hi. - Hi. 672 00:27:46,458 --> 00:27:47,750 - Hi. 673 00:27:47,875 --> 00:27:49,500 - Hi, how are you both doing? 674 00:27:49,542 --> 00:27:50,750 - Good. - Doing good. 675 00:27:50,875 --> 00:27:52,750 How are you? - Good. Good. 676 00:27:52,833 --> 00:27:56,542 So tell me, what's going on? 677 00:27:56,625 --> 00:27:59,125 - So, last night, something came up, you know, 678 00:27:59,208 --> 00:28:01,542 I'd not really discussed with Lauren before. 679 00:28:01,625 --> 00:28:04,375 And what it specifically was, was she had-- 680 00:28:04,458 --> 00:28:07,500 she had had sex two months prior to, you know, 681 00:28:07,583 --> 00:28:10,500 our marriage, and I kind of said 682 00:28:10,625 --> 00:28:12,500 that, you know, sex is off the table. 683 00:28:12,542 --> 00:28:14,000 - Gotcha. 684 00:28:14,125 --> 00:28:17,125 Orion, is that still how you're feeling? 685 00:28:17,208 --> 00:28:19,333 - Honestly, no. 686 00:28:19,375 --> 00:28:21,833 You know, but what I do know that has come clear 687 00:28:21,917 --> 00:28:23,625 is just, you know, I do think 688 00:28:23,708 --> 00:28:25,708 that we need more of a foundation. 689 00:28:25,792 --> 00:28:27,833 And so, you know, I think I failed her 690 00:28:27,917 --> 00:28:29,583 in using the words that I did, 691 00:28:29,667 --> 00:28:31,833 and because of it, I kind of put Lauren 692 00:28:31,875 --> 00:28:33,792 in a very uncomfortable situation 693 00:28:33,917 --> 00:28:35,667 where she didn't feel safe. 694 00:28:35,750 --> 00:28:38,250 And I just--and I just really feel like I failed her 695 00:28:38,333 --> 00:28:40,125 as a husband in the moment. 696 00:28:40,208 --> 00:28:41,542 You know, and right now, it's actually-- 697 00:28:41,625 --> 00:28:44,250 - [whispering] It's okay, it's okay. 698 00:28:44,333 --> 00:28:46,250 - It's heavy. 699 00:28:46,333 --> 00:28:48,500 - You didn't fail me, okay? 700 00:28:48,583 --> 00:28:50,792 - So I appreciate your vulnerability 701 00:28:50,875 --> 00:28:52,125 even in this moment, Orion, 702 00:28:52,208 --> 00:28:54,542 and I appreciate you acknowledging 703 00:28:54,625 --> 00:28:57,708 your ownership into what contributed to this conflict. 704 00:28:57,792 --> 00:28:59,708 I'm also hearing a lot of judgmental words 705 00:28:59,792 --> 00:29:00,958 for yourself, right, like, I failed. 706 00:29:01,042 --> 00:29:02,917 Right, I'm a failure. 707 00:29:03,000 --> 00:29:06,208 And so I'm curious if that is your perspective, Lauren. 708 00:29:06,292 --> 00:29:10,208 - No, I've tried to explain to him 709 00:29:10,333 --> 00:29:13,667 that I don't feel like he's failing me in this marriage. 710 00:29:13,750 --> 00:29:16,000 It just comes with the territory 711 00:29:16,042 --> 00:29:18,000 of being married for seven days. 712 00:29:18,083 --> 00:29:19,750 - Orion, can you believe her that 713 00:29:19,833 --> 00:29:21,083 she doesn't view you as a failure and think 714 00:29:21,167 --> 00:29:22,875 that you failed the marriage? 715 00:29:22,958 --> 00:29:24,833 - I can feel it, you know, because I think 716 00:29:24,917 --> 00:29:27,833 when the elevation of emotions toned down, 717 00:29:27,875 --> 00:29:29,708 she did do a good job, you know, 718 00:29:29,833 --> 00:29:31,833 reassuring me and everything. 719 00:29:31,875 --> 00:29:34,667 But it was very apparent for me when, I guess, 720 00:29:34,708 --> 00:29:37,917 the tone of the conversation got elevated, 721 00:29:38,000 --> 00:29:41,125 I did feel myself, you know, get uncomfortable. 722 00:29:41,208 --> 00:29:43,167 And I started to get confused. 723 00:29:43,250 --> 00:29:45,833 And the reason why it's affecting me as much as it is 724 00:29:45,917 --> 00:29:49,000 is because I had to protect my mom and sister 725 00:29:49,125 --> 00:29:50,958 from my stepfather growing up, 726 00:29:51,042 --> 00:29:55,292 and it's not something I want to be a part of our marriage. 727 00:29:55,375 --> 00:29:59,250 But right now, I'm having a really hard time just feeling 728 00:29:59,375 --> 00:30:02,833 confident in that, you know, just because of how intense 729 00:30:02,917 --> 00:30:05,000 and how raw the emotions were last night. 730 00:30:05,125 --> 00:30:06,667 - Okay. 731 00:30:06,750 --> 00:30:09,708 So in that, I hear perhaps that you need for the tone 732 00:30:09,833 --> 00:30:12,708 to be calm, for voices to not be elevated, 733 00:30:12,833 --> 00:30:15,375 maybe to remain respectful of one another? 734 00:30:15,458 --> 00:30:16,958 - Yeah. 735 00:30:17,042 --> 00:30:21,083 - Okay. Lauren, can you agree to that? 736 00:30:21,167 --> 00:30:24,958 - Yeah, I know that in the heat of the moment, 737 00:30:25,042 --> 00:30:26,792 my tone does elevate. 738 00:30:26,875 --> 00:30:29,542 I would definitely say that there was no yelling 739 00:30:29,625 --> 00:30:31,125 last night, but I get a little bit 740 00:30:31,208 --> 00:30:32,917 more animated when I'm frustrated 741 00:30:33,000 --> 00:30:34,250 and when I'm not feeling heard. 742 00:30:34,333 --> 00:30:35,958 - Sure. And that makes sense, right? 743 00:30:36,042 --> 00:30:37,708 I heard that you didn't feel safe, 744 00:30:37,792 --> 00:30:39,333 and I heard that you felt attacked. 745 00:30:39,375 --> 00:30:43,125 - I honestly just felt judged for being myself, 746 00:30:43,208 --> 00:30:46,417 and I felt like he was saying that my intentions 747 00:30:46,500 --> 00:30:48,958 weren't as pure as his. 748 00:30:49,042 --> 00:30:51,042 - I never questioned her intentions. 749 00:30:51,125 --> 00:30:52,667 I just feel like I was very careless 750 00:30:52,708 --> 00:30:54,042 in the way it came up. 751 00:30:54,125 --> 00:30:56,833 - Do you believe her when she says 752 00:30:56,917 --> 00:30:58,792 she is taking this seriously? 753 00:30:58,875 --> 00:31:01,125 The fact that she had sex two months ago 754 00:31:01,208 --> 00:31:03,708 does not impact how much she's committed 755 00:31:03,792 --> 00:31:04,958 to this relationship. 756 00:31:05,042 --> 00:31:06,542 - I believe her, yeah. 757 00:31:06,625 --> 00:31:08,458 - Does that feel genuine, Lauren? 758 00:31:08,542 --> 00:31:11,250 - Yeah, it does. 759 00:31:11,333 --> 00:31:12,792 So what I'm going to offer to you is this. 760 00:31:12,875 --> 00:31:14,333 I'm gonna leave you with this. 761 00:31:14,417 --> 00:31:15,958 I want you to think about your marriage 762 00:31:16,042 --> 00:31:18,708 as a bank account, an emotional bank account. 763 00:31:18,792 --> 00:31:20,792 We've got to work on putting deposits 764 00:31:20,875 --> 00:31:22,208 into that bank account, 'cause every time 765 00:31:22,292 --> 00:31:24,167 there's this negative interaction, 766 00:31:24,250 --> 00:31:26,167 whenever there is an argument, wherever one is shutting down 767 00:31:26,208 --> 00:31:27,750 or whatever, it's a withdrawal. 768 00:31:27,833 --> 00:31:29,208 And what we don't want to happen 769 00:31:29,208 --> 00:31:30,792 is have our bank account go into the negative. 770 00:31:30,875 --> 00:31:32,708 So we have to keep feeding into it. 771 00:31:32,792 --> 00:31:34,375 So now, while you're on your honeymoon, 772 00:31:34,458 --> 00:31:37,333 enjoy one another, focus on having fun. 773 00:31:37,375 --> 00:31:39,375 - You know, I don't wanna speak for her, 774 00:31:39,458 --> 00:31:41,750 but, you know, I feel like there have been a lot 775 00:31:41,875 --> 00:31:45,375 of great deposits in our bank account. 776 00:31:45,458 --> 00:31:48,833 But this was just a really big withdrawal for me. 777 00:31:48,958 --> 00:31:50,708 - And that's okay. 778 00:31:50,792 --> 00:31:52,708 That just means we're gonna continue 779 00:31:52,833 --> 00:31:55,042 to put in more deposits, okay? 780 00:31:55,208 --> 00:31:57,500 All right, y'all, it was a pleasure talking with you. 781 00:31:57,542 --> 00:31:59,583 - Thank you so much. - Thank you so much, Dr. Pia. 782 00:31:59,667 --> 00:32:01,750 - You're welcome. - Bye. 783 00:32:01,833 --> 00:32:03,833 I really appreciate you doing that. 784 00:32:03,958 --> 00:32:06,250 And know that I don't feel like 785 00:32:06,333 --> 00:32:08,250 it was a big withdrawal last night. 786 00:32:08,333 --> 00:32:11,167 I expressed my emotions, and I think 787 00:32:11,250 --> 00:32:12,917 we've come to an understanding. 788 00:32:13,000 --> 00:32:15,042 - Yeah, I think so too. 789 00:32:15,125 --> 00:32:20,167 And I think right now, it's just what I'm feeling. 790 00:32:20,250 --> 00:32:23,292 - Is there anything that I can offer you or do? 791 00:32:23,375 --> 00:32:27,375 - I think--I would think that space would be helpful 792 00:32:27,500 --> 00:32:30,667 so that I can get my feet back on the floor. 793 00:32:30,750 --> 00:32:32,917 - I can just come back to you later. 794 00:32:33,000 --> 00:32:35,000 - Yeah, 'cause I-- yeah, I definitely 795 00:32:35,042 --> 00:32:39,208 do need to, uh, catch my breath. 796 00:32:39,292 --> 00:32:41,625 - Okay. - Okay. Thank you. 797 00:32:41,708 --> 00:32:48,333 ♪ 798 00:32:54,208 --> 00:32:58,167 - So it's the first time that I am in this hotel room 799 00:32:58,167 --> 00:33:01,792 without Cameron, and all I have to do is just... 800 00:33:01,875 --> 00:33:04,333 [sighs, laughs] 801 00:33:04,417 --> 00:33:07,708 It has been so much fun spending time with him. 802 00:33:07,792 --> 00:33:10,667 To go from single to this has been an adjustment, 803 00:33:10,792 --> 00:33:12,083 to say the very least. 804 00:33:12,167 --> 00:33:13,500 But I do hope that Cameron is doing well. 805 00:33:13,542 --> 00:33:16,667 I hope that his ear, you know, gets fixed 806 00:33:16,750 --> 00:33:18,167 and that the pain goes away. 807 00:33:18,250 --> 00:33:19,708 Yeah. 808 00:33:19,792 --> 00:33:25,042 ♪ 809 00:33:25,125 --> 00:33:27,458 - ♪ Live it up 810 00:33:27,458 --> 00:33:29,333 ♪ Raise your cup 811 00:33:29,375 --> 00:33:33,292 ♪ We'll keep dancing till the sun is coming up ♪ 812 00:33:33,375 --> 00:33:35,125 ♪ Live it up 813 00:33:35,208 --> 00:33:37,583 ♪ Can't get enough 814 00:33:37,667 --> 00:33:39,750 ♪ So live it up 815 00:33:42,000 --> 00:33:43,958 - Where is Cameron? 816 00:33:44,042 --> 00:33:46,083 - Cameron wasn't feeling great. 817 00:33:46,083 --> 00:33:48,625 He literally didn't sleep last night the entire night. 818 00:33:48,708 --> 00:33:52,458 But he went to the doctors. 819 00:33:52,542 --> 00:33:55,000 And yeah, I think he just has an ear infection. 820 00:33:55,042 --> 00:33:57,500 So hopefully, he shows up. I don't know. 821 00:33:57,583 --> 00:33:58,875 - Yeah, yeah, hopefully he's doing okay. 822 00:33:58,958 --> 00:34:00,958 - Hopefully he shows up. 823 00:34:01,042 --> 00:34:02,000 - Hopefully he didn't leave and go home. 824 00:34:02,125 --> 00:34:04,458 I don't know, but yeah. 825 00:34:04,458 --> 00:34:06,583 - Maybe he got-- - It's his escape plan. 826 00:34:06,708 --> 00:34:08,500 - What did you guys do today? 827 00:34:08,542 --> 00:34:10,333 - We were supposed to go to the beach, 828 00:34:10,375 --> 00:34:13,667 but we ended up on a FaceTime with Dr. Pia. 829 00:34:13,792 --> 00:34:18,500 Probably our first hurdle of-- - Second hurdle. 830 00:34:18,542 --> 00:34:21,042 - Yeah, so we've been communicating through that 831 00:34:21,167 --> 00:34:23,208 and giving each other clarity in it. 832 00:34:23,292 --> 00:34:25,333 - And lots of space. - Yeah. 833 00:34:25,375 --> 00:34:27,000 - Sometimes space is good and necessary. 834 00:34:27,083 --> 00:34:28,375 - Yeah, there's been a lot of that today. 835 00:34:28,458 --> 00:34:33,667 ♪ 836 00:34:33,750 --> 00:34:36,083 - [gasps] Shut up. 837 00:34:36,167 --> 00:34:37,667 - That is as tall as me. 838 00:34:37,750 --> 00:34:38,833 [laughter] 839 00:34:38,875 --> 00:34:40,000 - What? 840 00:34:40,042 --> 00:34:42,750 That's so sweet. 841 00:34:42,833 --> 00:34:45,917 - What is this? - Oh, thank you. 842 00:34:46,042 --> 00:34:47,708 How's your ear, for one? - Better. 843 00:34:47,792 --> 00:34:49,667 - Better. This is so sweet. 844 00:34:49,792 --> 00:34:52,625 - We've spent so much time talking about ways 845 00:34:52,708 --> 00:34:54,875 of showing affection. 846 00:34:54,958 --> 00:34:56,417 I decided to go back to basics. 847 00:34:56,500 --> 00:34:59,167 - There you go. 848 00:34:59,250 --> 00:35:01,125 - Thank you, Cameron. - You're welcome. 849 00:35:01,208 --> 00:35:03,500 - You're the bomb. I really appreciate you. 850 00:35:03,542 --> 00:35:06,167 I have no words for how much that means to me. 851 00:35:06,250 --> 00:35:08,042 Because it means more than just the roses 852 00:35:08,167 --> 00:35:09,833 and how beautiful they are, but it's the fact that 853 00:35:09,958 --> 00:35:12,000 he was going through such a hard day 854 00:35:12,042 --> 00:35:14,500 and went out of his way to make that happen. 855 00:35:14,542 --> 00:35:15,667 - How's the ear? 856 00:35:15,708 --> 00:35:17,375 - Yeah. - Yeah, better. 857 00:35:17,500 --> 00:35:19,500 Apparently a course of antibiotics, 858 00:35:19,625 --> 00:35:20,667 and I'll be right. 859 00:35:20,750 --> 00:35:22,167 - Nice, okay. 860 00:35:22,208 --> 00:35:23,542 - That was so, so sweet. 861 00:35:23,625 --> 00:35:25,750 I will not cry, but that was sweet. 862 00:35:27,542 --> 00:35:29,000 - Guys, I'm sad that we're leaving soon. 863 00:35:29,125 --> 00:35:30,583 - I know. 864 00:35:30,708 --> 00:35:32,917 - I think I'm just so happy with our honeymoon. 865 00:35:33,042 --> 00:35:36,208 I think I didn't expect to get out of it what I got, 866 00:35:36,292 --> 00:35:40,208 which is, I think relief and distraction from a lot 867 00:35:40,333 --> 00:35:43,000 of the physical and mental pain that I've gone through 868 00:35:43,042 --> 00:35:44,750 in the last few months. 869 00:35:44,833 --> 00:35:46,792 And it's funny 'cause, like, I remember asking for somebody 870 00:35:46,875 --> 00:35:48,250 with, like, a sense of humor. 871 00:35:48,375 --> 00:35:50,000 But I don't remember asking for, like, 872 00:35:50,042 --> 00:35:51,833 the weirdest person, the weirdest puppy 873 00:35:51,875 --> 00:35:53,542 that ever lived. - I love weird. 874 00:35:53,625 --> 00:35:55,042 - Yeah, and that's what they gave me, and, like, 875 00:35:55,167 --> 00:35:57,042 I'm really happy that that's what they gave me. 876 00:35:57,125 --> 00:35:59,583 - Yeah. - Same. 877 00:35:59,708 --> 00:36:02,625 We had fun. I'm good. 878 00:36:02,708 --> 00:36:03,875 - Our honeymoon has been a little bit 879 00:36:03,958 --> 00:36:06,417 of a roller coaster, I'd say, 880 00:36:06,500 --> 00:36:08,375 kind of like one extreme to the next. 881 00:36:08,500 --> 00:36:12,667 So you know, I'm just enjoying the ride. 882 00:36:12,750 --> 00:36:15,417 - I also think, like, having a roller coaster now 883 00:36:15,542 --> 00:36:16,750 is better than having a roller coaster down the road. 884 00:36:16,833 --> 00:36:18,292 - I said the same thing. 885 00:36:18,375 --> 00:36:21,292 I think I'd rather get all the loop de loops out now 886 00:36:21,292 --> 00:36:24,750 and see how everything else goes after. 887 00:36:24,833 --> 00:36:27,583 - We're kind of approaching it in a different fashion. 888 00:36:27,667 --> 00:36:31,875 Things that we presume might be contentious, 889 00:36:31,958 --> 00:36:33,583 we're putting off to a later date 890 00:36:33,667 --> 00:36:35,792 so we can build a foundation and really understand 891 00:36:35,875 --> 00:36:40,333 one another before we take on those bigger, harder issues. 892 00:36:40,375 --> 00:36:41,542 - Yeah, I think that's also a good way of doing it. 893 00:36:41,625 --> 00:36:42,875 - Yeah. - Everyone's different. 894 00:36:42,958 --> 00:36:44,042 - There's no right or wrong way. 895 00:36:44,125 --> 00:36:45,417 - There's not. - Everyone's different. 896 00:36:45,542 --> 00:36:46,667 - There's no really guidebook for marriage. 897 00:36:46,750 --> 00:36:47,958 If there was, I would have read it. 898 00:36:48,083 --> 00:36:49,875 [laughter] 899 00:36:49,958 --> 00:36:51,292 - For me, I feel like the honeymoon 900 00:36:51,375 --> 00:36:54,167 is going way better than I could have ever expected. 901 00:36:54,208 --> 00:36:56,708 So I just appreciate you for just being you 902 00:36:56,792 --> 00:36:59,208 and making it so much fun. 903 00:36:59,292 --> 00:37:00,708 That's really all that matters. 904 00:37:00,792 --> 00:37:03,833 - But I sometimes am a little too sarcastic, 905 00:37:03,917 --> 00:37:05,417 and I'm used to speaking my mind 906 00:37:05,500 --> 00:37:07,042 and not having any repercussions 907 00:37:07,125 --> 00:37:08,500 on anyone but myself. 908 00:37:08,667 --> 00:37:10,417 So I just wanna be more aware in the way 909 00:37:10,542 --> 00:37:12,417 that I usually would, like, just say things 910 00:37:12,500 --> 00:37:13,917 and, like, not think. 911 00:37:13,917 --> 00:37:15,667 But I really wanna be more cognizant of, like, 912 00:37:15,708 --> 00:37:17,958 the effects it has on us together. 913 00:37:18,042 --> 00:37:20,042 - Yeah, I appreciate that. 914 00:37:20,125 --> 00:37:21,667 - What about you guys? 915 00:37:21,750 --> 00:37:25,625 - I think, like, specifically, Clare and I-- 916 00:37:25,708 --> 00:37:27,208 I haven't said this before, so I guess 917 00:37:27,292 --> 00:37:28,167 I'm gonna gauge your reaction. 918 00:37:28,250 --> 00:37:30,333 [laughter] 919 00:37:30,417 --> 00:37:32,458 I think that we're the kinds of people that, 920 00:37:32,458 --> 00:37:33,750 like, if we were dating, like, 921 00:37:33,833 --> 00:37:35,333 we wouldn't throw ourselves at each other. 922 00:37:35,417 --> 00:37:36,583 - Right. - Right? 923 00:37:36,667 --> 00:37:39,250 So I think when we go back, 924 00:37:39,333 --> 00:37:40,833 what I think's gonna be important is 925 00:37:40,917 --> 00:37:45,125 transitioning a friendship into a romantic one. 926 00:37:45,208 --> 00:37:46,792 ♪ 927 00:37:46,875 --> 00:37:48,458 - I appreciate that. 928 00:37:48,542 --> 00:37:50,708 And I think something I need to be better about 929 00:37:50,792 --> 00:37:53,667 is, like, waiting before I just respond. 930 00:37:53,708 --> 00:37:56,083 'Cause sometimes it's just, like, reacting in that moment 931 00:37:56,167 --> 00:37:57,958 when I should be, like, processing it 932 00:37:58,042 --> 00:37:59,292 and then saying something. 933 00:37:59,375 --> 00:38:01,042 - I mean, you're the fastest gun in the West. 934 00:38:01,167 --> 00:38:02,833 I'll give you that. 935 00:38:02,917 --> 00:38:05,208 - Yeah, but I need to chill. 936 00:38:05,333 --> 00:38:07,083 - I feel like we definitely have that in common. 937 00:38:07,208 --> 00:38:08,667 That's why--that's probably why we bonded. 938 00:38:08,708 --> 00:38:10,375 - Yeah, I agree. I agree. I know. 939 00:38:10,458 --> 00:38:13,333 I'm like, she's my soul sister. She gets it. 940 00:38:13,417 --> 00:38:16,167 - I definitely think I got 941 00:38:16,250 --> 00:38:17,667 what I wanted out of this honeymoon. 942 00:38:17,792 --> 00:38:19,500 Just be careful what you ask for, 943 00:38:19,583 --> 00:38:22,083 'cause I think my goal was to see what makes Orion tick, 944 00:38:22,167 --> 00:38:23,583 and we got there. 945 00:38:23,667 --> 00:38:26,625 And hopefully, it's something we can laugh about 946 00:38:26,708 --> 00:38:29,750 maybe not tomorrow, but maybe in a few weeks. 947 00:38:29,875 --> 00:38:32,875 But we figured out that I am a very fiery person, 948 00:38:32,958 --> 00:38:36,083 and my tone can kind of dictate 949 00:38:36,208 --> 00:38:38,667 the flow of conversation sometimes. 950 00:38:38,750 --> 00:38:44,875 And I never want Orion to feel like my tone is making him 951 00:38:44,958 --> 00:38:47,458 regress in the conversation. 952 00:38:47,542 --> 00:38:49,292 So I'm gonna do better. 953 00:38:49,375 --> 00:38:53,417 And I want to apologize. 954 00:38:53,542 --> 00:38:56,500 My jokes don't always land where they're supposed to, 955 00:38:56,542 --> 00:39:00,500 and I sometimes speak without consideration 956 00:39:00,542 --> 00:39:03,500 to your feelings, or at least I did in that moment. 957 00:39:03,542 --> 00:39:06,250 I've used terms that, when I was younger, 958 00:39:06,333 --> 00:39:08,042 that I didn't even know were derogatory. 959 00:39:08,125 --> 00:39:09,750 - Redskin? 960 00:39:09,833 --> 00:39:11,792 - No, I don't think I've ever used that language. 961 00:39:11,875 --> 00:39:13,083 But, like, I don't even know what redskin means, honestly. 962 00:39:13,167 --> 00:39:15,167 Oh, I do. 963 00:39:15,208 --> 00:39:16,833 I just looked at your face. 964 00:39:16,875 --> 00:39:19,042 ♪ 965 00:39:19,125 --> 00:39:20,667 I know we're still navigating that, 966 00:39:20,792 --> 00:39:22,708 and I don't expect it to be an overnight thing. 967 00:39:22,792 --> 00:39:25,125 I don't expect it to be an over week thing. 968 00:39:25,208 --> 00:39:30,792 But I'm just very apologetic for just how it made you feel. 969 00:39:30,875 --> 00:39:35,750 I think that hurt me the most, just knowing that it hurt you. 970 00:39:35,833 --> 00:39:38,542 And I'm still working with that too. 971 00:39:38,625 --> 00:39:42,333 - The unintentional joke, you know, it cut really deep. 972 00:39:42,417 --> 00:39:46,083 And it is definitely the one thing that 973 00:39:46,167 --> 00:39:47,833 I cannot stop thinking about. 974 00:39:47,917 --> 00:39:51,625 But it's really hard to be vulnerable 975 00:39:51,708 --> 00:39:57,708 with all the other couples about what had taken place 976 00:39:57,792 --> 00:40:02,542 because I'm not sure if they would understand, 977 00:40:02,625 --> 00:40:04,667 you know, just with the topic of, you know, 978 00:40:04,708 --> 00:40:06,625 race, culture, things like that. 979 00:40:06,708 --> 00:40:12,000 But, you know, it's still-- it's still a big obstacle. 980 00:40:12,042 --> 00:40:14,792 You know, one thing that I do want to improve on, 981 00:40:14,875 --> 00:40:18,208 being a little more consistent with sharing my feelings, 982 00:40:18,292 --> 00:40:20,458 you know, when things do come up. 983 00:40:20,542 --> 00:40:22,958 You know, and so I do want to improve on, you know, 984 00:40:23,042 --> 00:40:25,667 voicing it, regardless of how I'm feeling. 985 00:40:25,750 --> 00:40:27,458 - And I just want you to feel safe 986 00:40:27,542 --> 00:40:30,458 that you can do that, honestly. 987 00:40:30,542 --> 00:40:31,708 I tell you all the time, I'm pretty strong. 988 00:40:31,833 --> 00:40:33,833 Like, you can't really hurt my feelings too bad. 989 00:40:33,875 --> 00:40:36,333 I mean, you can, but you know, I feel like 990 00:40:36,375 --> 00:40:38,958 we're learning each other, and so it's better 991 00:40:39,042 --> 00:40:41,042 to just lay it all out on the table. 992 00:40:41,042 --> 00:40:42,417 - Yes. 993 00:40:42,500 --> 00:40:46,208 But I know for me, you know, I do kind of-- 994 00:40:46,292 --> 00:40:47,708 I reserve myself. 995 00:40:47,792 --> 00:40:50,917 So I'm trying to not do that so much 996 00:40:51,000 --> 00:40:53,708 and actually open up a different door 997 00:40:53,792 --> 00:40:56,667 that honestly, right now, does feel a little scary. 998 00:40:56,708 --> 00:40:57,833 It does feel a little scary. 999 00:40:57,958 --> 00:41:04,083 ♪ 1000 00:41:08,333 --> 00:41:09,500 - ♪ Take a deep breath 1001 00:41:09,500 --> 00:41:10,875 ♪ And open my eyes 1002 00:41:11,000 --> 00:41:14,083 ♪ I've been waiting all my life ♪ 1003 00:41:14,167 --> 00:41:15,500 [upbeat music] 1004 00:41:15,583 --> 00:41:17,375 - Good morning. How'd you sleep? 1005 00:41:17,458 --> 00:41:19,000 - Better. 1006 00:41:19,042 --> 00:41:20,458 - Yeah, I didn't notice you, like, 1007 00:41:20,542 --> 00:41:22,208 awake all night, which is good. - No. No. 1008 00:41:22,333 --> 00:41:24,792 - That means your ear is not hurting nearly as much, right? 1009 00:41:24,875 --> 00:41:27,708 - Yes, the pain has reduced, I'd say, significantly. 1010 00:41:27,792 --> 00:41:31,250 Now, it feels like it's kind of blocked, which is a good thing 1011 00:41:31,333 --> 00:41:32,708 that I got the antibiotics. 1012 00:41:32,792 --> 00:41:34,167 'Cause that's, like-- that's definitely-- 1013 00:41:34,208 --> 00:41:36,333 - It's not painful, it's just kind of uncomfortable. 1014 00:41:36,458 --> 00:41:38,333 - Yeah, exactly. - That's good. 1015 00:41:38,417 --> 00:41:40,000 - But I think I'll be fine now. 1016 00:41:40,083 --> 00:41:42,542 - That's good. - Yeah. 1017 00:41:42,625 --> 00:41:47,333 So we're about to go on our second travel journey 1018 00:41:47,417 --> 00:41:48,875 as a married couple. 1019 00:41:48,958 --> 00:41:52,250 - First was not the greatest. 1020 00:41:52,333 --> 00:41:53,583 - I mean, not the greatest for you. 1021 00:41:53,708 --> 00:41:56,500 - Not the worst--right. - It was great for me. 1022 00:41:56,542 --> 00:41:58,042 - 'Cause I didn't really understand you 1023 00:41:58,167 --> 00:41:59,583 at the beginning. 1024 00:41:59,667 --> 00:42:03,000 - Well, as you described to me, you felt abandoned. 1025 00:42:03,083 --> 00:42:05,792 - That's dramatic. - I'm sorry, is that not-- 1026 00:42:05,875 --> 00:42:07,750 - You were just booking, hauling away. 1027 00:42:07,833 --> 00:42:09,250 - Okay. - You know what I mean? 1028 00:42:09,333 --> 00:42:10,875 Like, you were a man on a mission. 1029 00:42:10,875 --> 00:42:12,375 And I was like, I don't even know where he is at this-- 1030 00:42:12,500 --> 00:42:14,667 but the communication was very much lacking. 1031 00:42:14,708 --> 00:42:17,500 - Yes, you felt that I just left you behind. 1032 00:42:17,583 --> 00:42:19,583 Is that fair? - Sort of. Yeah, yeah. 1033 00:42:19,708 --> 00:42:24,625 - Okay, okay, and that was not my intention at all. 1034 00:42:24,708 --> 00:42:26,583 - Yeah, I don't know. 1035 00:42:26,583 --> 00:42:28,083 What was I supposed to think that you were running-- 1036 00:42:28,167 --> 00:42:30,667 I guess there was just a missing link there. 1037 00:42:30,792 --> 00:42:32,792 - Did you think I was running away? 1038 00:42:32,875 --> 00:42:34,708 - I thought you were just like, yeah, on a mission 1039 00:42:34,792 --> 00:42:36,625 'cause that's kind of your personality too. 1040 00:42:36,708 --> 00:42:38,500 It's like bing, bing. We have this to do, that. 1041 00:42:38,583 --> 00:42:40,625 And I was just like, he needs to chill out. 1042 00:42:40,708 --> 00:42:43,917 He needs to take a chill. 1043 00:42:44,000 --> 00:42:45,917 But now I'm understanding where that came from, 1044 00:42:46,000 --> 00:42:47,292 and that helps. 1045 00:42:47,375 --> 00:42:51,500 - Going back home, that needs to be 1046 00:42:51,542 --> 00:42:54,000 at the forefront of my mind. 1047 00:42:54,083 --> 00:42:56,458 - I overreacted is what happened there. 1048 00:42:56,542 --> 00:43:00,833 - Yes, and I was confused by the over--you know, just by-- 1049 00:43:00,917 --> 00:43:03,917 - So was I. - I think it was a long day. 1050 00:43:04,000 --> 00:43:06,583 - Right, right, right, right. - We were both exhausted. 1051 00:43:06,583 --> 00:43:08,292 And I don't blame you at all. 1052 00:43:08,375 --> 00:43:10,667 It was a lot. 1053 00:43:10,708 --> 00:43:13,917 And I think--honestly, I think we're better for it. 1054 00:43:14,042 --> 00:43:15,958 Even if it could have been better in the moment, 1055 00:43:16,042 --> 00:43:17,708 I think now we're better for it. 1056 00:43:17,833 --> 00:43:20,042 - And it'll make going back a lot easier. 1057 00:43:20,125 --> 00:43:21,583 - Yeah. 1058 00:43:21,667 --> 00:43:25,000 Yeah, I think--I think you maybe give me more 1059 00:43:25,083 --> 00:43:27,750 of the benefit of the doubt, and me for you as well, 1060 00:43:27,833 --> 00:43:30,833 where it's like we know we have good intentions 1061 00:43:30,917 --> 00:43:33,792 about how we wanna treat each other, 1062 00:43:33,875 --> 00:43:36,833 right, and it's just assuming the best but, you know, 1063 00:43:36,917 --> 00:43:40,167 asking if something's wrong. - Yeah. Yeah. 1064 00:43:40,208 --> 00:43:41,792 Yeah, no, I get that. 1065 00:43:41,875 --> 00:43:43,542 I think I can't wait to, like, I go home 1066 00:43:43,625 --> 00:43:45,000 and get back to my routine. 1067 00:43:45,125 --> 00:43:46,792 I think I've been really missing that. 1068 00:43:46,875 --> 00:43:48,625 - Well, I need that routine as well, 1069 00:43:48,708 --> 00:43:52,208 and I just hope that we can learn the new routine. 1070 00:43:52,292 --> 00:43:53,750 - Yeah. 1071 00:43:53,833 --> 00:43:55,167 - 'Cause it's not gonna be the same. 1072 00:43:55,208 --> 00:43:56,458 - Yeah, you're right. 1073 00:43:56,542 --> 00:43:58,500 You're right. [laughs] 1074 00:43:58,542 --> 00:44:05,250 ♪ 1075 00:44:25,708 --> 00:44:28,708 - We were up pretty late last night chatting, 1076 00:44:28,792 --> 00:44:30,917 until about 3:00. 1077 00:44:31,042 --> 00:44:33,083 Last night, Lauren and I were, you know, 1078 00:44:33,167 --> 00:44:37,333 kind of recapping of the honeymoon, and, uh... 1079 00:44:37,417 --> 00:44:39,500 ♪ 1080 00:44:39,542 --> 00:44:41,625 A dialogue opened up. 1081 00:44:41,708 --> 00:44:44,542 - He let me know that he's just not sure 1082 00:44:44,667 --> 00:44:50,292 if he can come back from the offensive comment 1083 00:44:50,375 --> 00:44:52,083 I made in the hot tub. 1084 00:44:52,167 --> 00:44:54,875 - Something I haven't told her was, you know, 1085 00:44:55,000 --> 00:44:57,875 one of the biggest feelings that happened to me 1086 00:44:57,875 --> 00:45:01,333 in that moment was, you know, I felt like a minority 1087 00:45:01,417 --> 00:45:04,708 in my marriage, which is something that, you know, 1088 00:45:04,792 --> 00:45:06,833 really hasn't gone away. 1089 00:45:06,875 --> 00:45:09,000 - I definitely take ownership of what I said 1090 00:45:09,042 --> 00:45:11,208 and the impact it has had on the marriage. 1091 00:45:11,292 --> 00:45:15,833 But the repercussions are going to make me 1092 00:45:15,917 --> 00:45:20,667 feel equally disconnected from the marriage. 1093 00:45:20,750 --> 00:45:23,833 And I don't know how to move in a marriage 1094 00:45:23,875 --> 00:45:27,333 where I don't feel married. 1095 00:45:27,417 --> 00:45:29,667 I guess we'll see. 1096 00:45:29,708 --> 00:45:31,833 What a way to end the honeymoon. 1097 00:45:36,375 --> 00:45:39,083 [upbeat music] 1098 00:45:39,083 --> 00:45:41,958 ♪ 1099 00:45:42,042 --> 00:45:43,875 - Good morning. - Morning. 1100 00:45:43,958 --> 00:45:45,708 You ready to get up? 1101 00:45:45,792 --> 00:45:48,417 - No. Ready to go home? 1102 00:45:48,500 --> 00:45:51,167 - Not at all. 1103 00:45:51,292 --> 00:45:54,583 - But we get to move in. 1104 00:45:54,667 --> 00:45:56,417 - [clears throat] Excited for that. 1105 00:45:56,500 --> 00:45:59,500 - Is there anything you're nervous for getting back? 1106 00:45:59,583 --> 00:46:02,333 - I'm not nervous because I know 1107 00:46:02,375 --> 00:46:06,000 you won't be as messy at the house as you are here. 1108 00:46:06,083 --> 00:46:07,583 - I don't know what you're talking about. 1109 00:46:07,667 --> 00:46:10,625 - If you are, we gonna have issues. 1110 00:46:10,708 --> 00:46:13,000 - [laughs] No. 1111 00:46:13,083 --> 00:46:15,792 To be a functioning adult in society 1112 00:46:15,875 --> 00:46:17,875 and then to also find another functioning adult 1113 00:46:17,958 --> 00:46:21,542 and then to live together and to make that work together, 1114 00:46:21,625 --> 00:46:24,000 that is-- that's a milestone, baby. 1115 00:46:24,083 --> 00:46:27,292 But I just need him to keep showing up authentically 1116 00:46:27,375 --> 00:46:31,292 who he is and all of the sides to him-- 1117 00:46:31,375 --> 00:46:32,667 good, bad. 1118 00:46:32,792 --> 00:46:33,792 Although, I haven't really seen a bad side, 1119 00:46:33,875 --> 00:46:35,458 but all the good sides that I've seen 1120 00:46:35,542 --> 00:46:37,042 and the bad sides to come. 1121 00:46:37,125 --> 00:46:39,667 - So basically, when we move back to Denver, 1122 00:46:39,708 --> 00:46:42,333 we're taking two very independent lives 1123 00:46:42,375 --> 00:46:44,792 and smushing them together. - Yeah. 1124 00:46:44,875 --> 00:46:46,167 - You think that will be an issue? 1125 00:46:46,208 --> 00:46:47,958 You think we'll be able to handle it well? 1126 00:46:48,042 --> 00:46:49,792 - There will always be a learning curve, like, 1127 00:46:49,875 --> 00:46:51,833 when you blend a life with anybody. 1128 00:46:51,917 --> 00:46:54,792 And so we will tackle them one day, 1129 00:46:54,875 --> 00:46:58,042 one step, one task at a time. 1130 00:46:58,125 --> 00:46:59,958 I'm excited to learn how to show up for you 1131 00:47:00,042 --> 00:47:02,583 in those difficult ways 1132 00:47:02,667 --> 00:47:05,417 and also in the exciting ways that-- 1133 00:47:05,500 --> 00:47:07,042 you know, like, when something good happens, like, 1134 00:47:07,167 --> 00:47:10,250 with one of your friends, or if you have a bad day at work, 1135 00:47:10,333 --> 00:47:12,167 you know, stuff like that, just learning how to show up 1136 00:47:12,208 --> 00:47:13,667 to you--for you in that way. 1137 00:47:13,750 --> 00:47:15,625 - That's nice. 1138 00:47:15,708 --> 00:47:18,542 ♪ 1139 00:47:18,625 --> 00:47:20,375 Ditto. 1140 00:47:20,458 --> 00:47:21,542 No, I agree. 1141 00:47:21,625 --> 00:47:28,042 I...look forward to doing that, 1142 00:47:28,125 --> 00:47:31,792 albeit, I'm unsure... 1143 00:47:31,875 --> 00:47:35,708 what exactly that entails at this moment. 1144 00:47:35,792 --> 00:47:38,458 I'm not fearful of it. 1145 00:47:38,542 --> 00:47:44,417 I do know you need to be well-fed and well-rested, 1146 00:47:44,500 --> 00:47:47,167 so I feel like I've already learned a lot. 1147 00:47:47,333 --> 00:47:49,000 - And how do you think you can show up for me 1148 00:47:49,083 --> 00:47:51,208 emotionally when we get back? 1149 00:47:51,292 --> 00:47:56,542 - Oh, by opening up and going deeper. 1150 00:47:56,542 --> 00:47:57,792 ♪ 1151 00:47:57,875 --> 00:47:59,333 - Do you wanna answer seriously? 1152 00:47:59,417 --> 00:48:02,292 - That is serious. 1153 00:48:02,375 --> 00:48:04,375 I just, like, don't know how to answer it. 1154 00:48:04,458 --> 00:48:08,208 I mean, yeah, I will always show up for you 1155 00:48:08,292 --> 00:48:11,875 and do my best to not only, like, 1156 00:48:11,958 --> 00:48:13,708 progress this relationship, but also, like, 1157 00:48:13,833 --> 00:48:15,958 be there for you. 1158 00:48:16,042 --> 00:48:18,000 And although I don't know what that entails, like, 1159 00:48:18,083 --> 00:48:22,333 that doesn't stop me from wanting to do that. 1160 00:48:22,375 --> 00:48:24,042 Aww. 1161 00:48:24,125 --> 00:48:25,667 He answered right this time. - That one gets a kiss. 1162 00:48:25,792 --> 00:48:28,333 [both laugh] 1163 00:48:28,417 --> 00:48:29,833 - Psshew. Okay. 1164 00:48:29,875 --> 00:48:31,667 - What was that? - That was a high five. 1165 00:48:31,708 --> 00:48:35,958 I recognize that my hand moves so fast it's just a blur. 1166 00:48:36,042 --> 00:48:39,667 - Lightning bolt. Pew! 1167 00:48:39,708 --> 00:48:42,042 ♪ 1168 00:48:42,125 --> 00:48:44,417 - [singing in Spanish] 1169 00:48:44,417 --> 00:48:47,000 ♪ 1170 00:48:47,083 --> 00:48:48,833 - Do you want me to help you with your stuff? 1171 00:48:48,917 --> 00:48:50,917 - Wow. No, but thank you. 1172 00:48:51,000 --> 00:48:52,333 - I mean-- 1173 00:48:52,375 --> 00:48:54,417 - I can be packed literally in two minutes. 1174 00:48:54,500 --> 00:48:56,625 - Okay, cool, cool. 1175 00:48:56,708 --> 00:48:58,208 - ♪ My bags are packed 1176 00:48:58,208 --> 00:49:00,958 - Perfect. 1177 00:49:01,042 --> 00:49:02,583 - ♪ No, there's no turning back ♪ 1178 00:49:02,667 --> 00:49:04,292 ♪ I'm coming home 1179 00:49:04,375 --> 00:49:10,333 ♪ 1180 00:49:10,375 --> 00:49:12,833 - Usually, I sit on it, but I don't think 1181 00:49:12,917 --> 00:49:14,500 I needed to do that today. 1182 00:49:14,583 --> 00:49:17,250 ♪ 1183 00:49:17,375 --> 00:49:18,708 - All right, let's go meet everyone for breakfast 1184 00:49:18,792 --> 00:49:20,708 before we head out. - Yeah. 1185 00:49:20,708 --> 00:49:22,708 - Giddy up. - Andale, andale. 1186 00:49:22,792 --> 00:49:24,167 - All right, rolling out. 1187 00:49:24,250 --> 00:49:25,667 - ♪ I'm coming home 1188 00:49:25,708 --> 00:49:27,750 ♪ My bags are packed 1189 00:49:27,833 --> 00:49:29,792 ♪ I'm coming home 1190 00:49:29,875 --> 00:49:31,667 ♪ No, there's no turning back ♪ 1191 00:49:31,708 --> 00:49:33,667 ♪ I'm coming home 1192 00:49:33,708 --> 00:49:35,042 ♪ 'Cause it's been too long 1193 00:49:35,125 --> 00:49:36,917 ♪ I'm coming home 1194 00:49:37,000 --> 00:49:38,458 - Where do you wanna sit? - Sit, yeah. 1195 00:49:42,958 --> 00:49:45,375 - [crying] 1196 00:49:45,500 --> 00:49:48,042 I just be trying to hold it together in front of y'all. 1197 00:49:48,167 --> 00:49:50,000 I'm trying so hard. 1198 00:49:50,042 --> 00:49:52,250 Because I did feel myself falling for him, 1199 00:49:52,375 --> 00:49:54,333 and now I'm just like, "Well, what the [bleep]?" 1200 00:49:54,375 --> 00:49:56,625 - Yeah. 1201 00:49:56,708 --> 00:49:59,542 - And then today, I'm trying to go downstairs to get my stuff, 1202 00:49:59,542 --> 00:50:01,583 and I overhear him say that he felt like 1203 00:50:01,667 --> 00:50:03,292 I didn't have his back. 1204 00:50:03,375 --> 00:50:05,500 And it's just little things that have happened to me 1205 00:50:05,583 --> 00:50:07,292 that I'm like, you know, I can give you grace for that. 1206 00:50:07,375 --> 00:50:09,125 You know, I know that's not your best self. 1207 00:50:09,208 --> 00:50:10,292 I know that we are working through this, 1208 00:50:10,375 --> 00:50:12,292 blah, blah, blah, but for this, he's like, 1209 00:50:12,375 --> 00:50:14,583 no, you attacked my community, my culture. 1210 00:50:14,708 --> 00:50:16,708 And I'm just like, how many more ways can I say I'm sorry? 1211 00:50:16,792 --> 00:50:18,917 How many more times can I tell you 1212 00:50:19,042 --> 00:50:21,333 that I am researching and doing what I need to do 1213 00:50:21,375 --> 00:50:25,250 to figure out how to navigate this intercultural relationship 1214 00:50:25,333 --> 00:50:26,833 that I've never done before 1215 00:50:26,917 --> 00:50:28,333 because I care so much about you? 1216 00:50:28,458 --> 00:50:30,333 And you're down here saying that I don't have your back 1217 00:50:30,417 --> 00:50:31,667 and that I failed the marriage. 1218 00:50:41,208 --> 00:50:43,500 - This is so hard. 1219 00:50:43,583 --> 00:50:47,083 I'm just so frustrated with not being I feel, like, understood. 1220 00:50:47,167 --> 00:50:48,583 And I don't think I'm making it any better 1221 00:50:48,667 --> 00:50:50,750 because I just had this huge blow-up with him 1222 00:50:50,875 --> 00:50:53,292 in which I was yelling, and I asked for a divorce 1223 00:50:53,375 --> 00:50:55,333 because he told me that he feels like I failed him 1224 00:50:55,417 --> 00:50:58,292 and I failed the marriage. 1225 00:50:58,375 --> 00:51:00,750 And I took my ring off today, but I'm just so mad. 1226 00:51:00,833 --> 00:51:02,792 I'm just so [bleep] mad. 1227 00:51:02,875 --> 00:51:06,542 ♪ 1228 00:51:11,208 --> 00:51:12,333 - Honestly, other than losing my mom, 1229 00:51:12,458 --> 00:51:15,333 I think this is the most difficult 1230 00:51:15,375 --> 00:51:17,833 physically and emotionally thing 1231 00:51:17,875 --> 00:51:20,333 that I have ever done in my life. 1232 00:51:20,417 --> 00:51:24,042 ♪ 1233 00:51:28,042 --> 00:51:31,333 - ♪ It's just another one of those days ♪ 1234 00:51:31,375 --> 00:51:35,333 ♪ One of those days 1235 00:51:35,375 --> 00:51:39,667 ♪ That never ends 1236 00:51:39,750 --> 00:51:41,167 - Hey. 1237 00:51:41,250 --> 00:51:42,667 - What's going on, Orion? 1238 00:51:42,708 --> 00:51:44,125 How you doing, man? 1239 00:51:44,125 --> 00:51:45,875 - I'm doing all right. 1240 00:51:45,958 --> 00:51:48,833 First off, thank you so much for taking the time to really, 1241 00:51:48,875 --> 00:51:51,000 you know, I guess, be here with me. 1242 00:51:51,083 --> 00:51:52,292 - Not a problem. 1243 00:51:52,375 --> 00:51:54,250 I just wanted to see what's going on 1244 00:51:54,333 --> 00:51:57,000 and talk to you to see what I can do to help. 1245 00:51:57,083 --> 00:52:01,167 - I had brought up a derogatory term. 1246 00:52:01,292 --> 00:52:03,625 And after I brought that up, 1247 00:52:03,625 --> 00:52:08,208 she made a very careless, crude joke. 1248 00:52:08,292 --> 00:52:10,667 - Did at any point she say that she was wrong 1249 00:52:10,708 --> 00:52:13,083 or admit it was crass? 1250 00:52:13,167 --> 00:52:16,667 - After, you know, emotions had settled, 1251 00:52:16,708 --> 00:52:19,667 she really expressed herself how she was feeling, you know, 1252 00:52:19,708 --> 00:52:21,292 and, you know, let me know that, you know, 1253 00:52:21,375 --> 00:52:22,833 it was very vile, she shouldn't have done it, 1254 00:52:22,917 --> 00:52:25,500 things like that, which I thought was really nice. 1255 00:52:25,583 --> 00:52:30,583 But also with that, the weight of the joke 1256 00:52:30,667 --> 00:52:35,833 started to really sit with me in the sense where I was 1257 00:52:35,875 --> 00:52:38,042 really starting to feel, honestly, 1258 00:52:38,125 --> 00:52:39,958 really offended and violated in it. 1259 00:52:40,042 --> 00:52:43,250 - You have every right to stand firmly 1260 00:52:43,375 --> 00:52:45,500 against anyone who wants to use a derogatory term 1261 00:52:45,542 --> 00:52:46,875 about you or your culture. 1262 00:52:47,000 --> 00:52:48,375 Look, of all people, I get that, 1263 00:52:48,458 --> 00:52:50,792 and she does, too, which is why we thought-- 1264 00:52:50,875 --> 00:52:52,417 which is why this is so surprising that 1265 00:52:52,500 --> 00:52:53,958 this is a conflict for you guys, 1266 00:52:54,042 --> 00:52:55,500 because it shouldn't be. 1267 00:52:55,500 --> 00:52:57,417 - Yeah, and really, this was the last thing 1268 00:52:57,500 --> 00:52:59,708 I expected to happen. 1269 00:52:59,833 --> 00:53:02,000 - But did you-- so she did apologize? 1270 00:53:02,083 --> 00:53:04,292 - Yes. 1271 00:53:04,375 --> 00:53:06,750 - Did you accept her apology? 1272 00:53:06,833 --> 00:53:09,958 - Honestly, this is why it's hard to accept the apology. 1273 00:53:10,042 --> 00:53:14,208 Because today, we got into it, and, you know, she was saying 1274 00:53:14,292 --> 00:53:16,792 that I am lying about how things played out. 1275 00:53:16,875 --> 00:53:21,208 And then it went as far as, you know, she wanted a divorce. 1276 00:53:21,333 --> 00:53:23,250 She's not attracted, and she took her ring off. 1277 00:53:23,333 --> 00:53:24,667 I mean, it's just-- 1278 00:53:24,750 --> 00:53:27,042 - Yeah, that-- that--that's just-- 1279 00:53:27,125 --> 00:53:29,125 that's reaction, man. 1280 00:53:29,208 --> 00:53:33,292 That is a knee-jerk reaction to pain. 1281 00:53:33,375 --> 00:53:36,167 Yeah, I get it, man. Yeah, I--yeah. 1282 00:53:36,208 --> 00:53:38,292 How do you feel? 1283 00:53:38,375 --> 00:53:42,833 - Right now, I am sad in the fact that I know she cares. 1284 00:53:42,917 --> 00:53:44,625 I know she cares a lot about me, 1285 00:53:44,708 --> 00:53:46,875 and we've built a really great connection. 1286 00:53:46,958 --> 00:53:49,208 But any time it does come up, 1287 00:53:49,208 --> 00:53:51,000 because it is still sitting, 1288 00:53:51,083 --> 00:53:54,000 you know, not naturally with me, 1289 00:53:54,083 --> 00:53:56,542 it gets pretty explosive. 1290 00:53:56,625 --> 00:53:58,833 - You haven't had a chance to express how you actually feel. 1291 00:53:58,875 --> 00:54:00,792 - Truly. 1292 00:54:00,875 --> 00:54:02,125 - I think there needs to be a conversation 1293 00:54:02,208 --> 00:54:04,167 where we all can talk about this, 1294 00:54:04,208 --> 00:54:06,000 and we can come to some conclusions. 1295 00:54:06,083 --> 00:54:06,917 - Agreed. - Fair enough? 1296 00:54:07,042 --> 00:54:08,333 - Yes, agreed. 1297 00:54:08,417 --> 00:54:09,750 - Okay, where is she right now? 1298 00:54:11,542 --> 00:54:13,500 - Okay, let me talk to Lauren. 1299 00:54:13,583 --> 00:54:14,958 - Thank you. - All right. 1300 00:54:15,042 --> 00:54:16,125 We're good, buddy. I got you. 1301 00:54:16,208 --> 00:54:17,833 - Thank you. 1302 00:54:17,917 --> 00:54:24,667 ♪ 1303 00:54:24,708 --> 00:54:26,167 - Ready to bounce? 1304 00:54:26,250 --> 00:54:27,250 - Let's see, we're waiting on one or two? 1305 00:54:27,333 --> 00:54:28,583 - We're missing Lauren-- 1306 00:54:28,708 --> 00:54:30,125 - Are the other two over there with you? 1307 00:54:30,208 --> 00:54:32,167 - Okay. 1308 00:54:32,208 --> 00:54:33,708 - ♪ So now we're chilling longer ♪ 1309 00:54:33,792 --> 00:54:40,833 ♪ 1310 00:54:40,875 --> 00:54:42,000 - Hey, Pastor Cal. 1311 00:54:42,083 --> 00:54:44,167 - What's going on, Lauren? 1312 00:54:44,208 --> 00:54:45,333 - The days are running together. 1313 00:54:45,417 --> 00:54:46,500 I don't know if it was yesterday. 1314 00:54:46,583 --> 00:54:47,833 Whatever day we went on the boat, 1315 00:54:47,875 --> 00:54:51,042 I asked him if we were good on that conversation 1316 00:54:51,125 --> 00:54:52,500 we had in the tub. 1317 00:54:52,542 --> 00:54:54,667 And he told me we're good. 1318 00:54:54,708 --> 00:54:56,333 Next thing I know, he's not good. 1319 00:54:56,417 --> 00:54:59,500 And so I don't really know what set it off, 1320 00:54:59,583 --> 00:55:00,667 but I heard him say that he felt 1321 00:55:00,708 --> 00:55:02,792 like I didn't have his back. 1322 00:55:02,875 --> 00:55:04,917 ♪ 1323 00:55:05,000 --> 00:55:07,292 And that just-- 1324 00:55:07,375 --> 00:55:09,167 I was not my best self. 1325 00:55:09,250 --> 00:55:10,333 It just sent me into a spiral. 1326 00:55:10,417 --> 00:55:11,917 And I was like, I want a divorce. 1327 00:55:12,000 --> 00:55:13,667 I took my ring off. 1328 00:55:13,708 --> 00:55:16,167 ♪ 1329 00:55:16,167 --> 00:55:17,792 Because I felt like through this thing, 1330 00:55:17,875 --> 00:55:19,208 I have had his back. 1331 00:55:19,292 --> 00:55:21,667 And it just made me feel-- 1332 00:55:21,708 --> 00:55:23,542 like, we already went through something where I felt 1333 00:55:23,667 --> 00:55:25,500 like he didn't have my back. 1334 00:55:25,583 --> 00:55:27,167 And I assured him and affirmed him that, you know, 1335 00:55:27,208 --> 00:55:29,833 it was a moment, we'll get through it. 1336 00:55:29,833 --> 00:55:30,667 We got into an argument, 1337 00:55:30,750 --> 00:55:32,208 and then he says that I failed him, 1338 00:55:32,292 --> 00:55:33,958 and I failed the marriage. 1339 00:55:34,042 --> 00:55:37,208 ♪ 1340 00:55:37,292 --> 00:55:39,667 And I know that I'm not doing everything right. 1341 00:55:39,750 --> 00:55:41,792 I'm taking ownership of that. 1342 00:55:41,875 --> 00:55:44,292 Like, I did say what I did-- I said that. 1343 00:55:44,375 --> 00:55:46,500 It was a joke in extreme-- 1344 00:55:46,542 --> 00:55:48,167 I don't even wanna say poor taste. 1345 00:55:48,250 --> 00:55:50,667 That makes it sound minimizing, honestly. 1346 00:55:50,750 --> 00:55:53,708 But it was a joke that I should have never said. 1347 00:55:53,792 --> 00:55:55,750 And yelling and taking the ring off, like, 1348 00:55:55,875 --> 00:55:59,333 all of that was wrong, absolutely wrong. 1349 00:55:59,458 --> 00:56:02,375 But it's not that I'm not trying. 1350 00:56:02,500 --> 00:56:05,375 - Okay, okay. I get it. I get that. Okay? 1351 00:56:05,542 --> 00:56:07,417 First of all, I don't have to tell you 1352 00:56:07,500 --> 00:56:08,833 that taking off the ring, 1353 00:56:08,958 --> 00:56:10,542 saying, "I want a divorce," was a bad move. 1354 00:56:10,625 --> 00:56:12,333 - Yes. 1355 00:56:12,458 --> 00:56:14,542 - Do you want a divorce? 1356 00:56:14,625 --> 00:56:16,583 ♪ 1357 00:56:20,542 --> 00:56:21,875 ♪ Say you hate me 1358 00:56:21,958 --> 00:56:23,833 ♪ Just a sound 1359 00:56:23,875 --> 00:56:26,208 ♪ Just say something 1360 00:56:26,292 --> 00:56:28,125 - First of all, I don't have to tell you 1361 00:56:28,208 --> 00:56:29,542 that taking off the ring, 1362 00:56:29,625 --> 00:56:31,125 saying, "I want a divorce," was a bad move. 1363 00:56:31,208 --> 00:56:33,042 - Yes. 1364 00:56:33,125 --> 00:56:35,125 - Do you want a divorce? 1365 00:56:35,208 --> 00:56:38,458 ♪ 1366 00:56:38,542 --> 00:56:41,958 - No, I was letting my passions override 1367 00:56:42,042 --> 00:56:43,000 the goal of the marriage. 1368 00:56:43,083 --> 00:56:44,708 - And I get it, Lauren. 1369 00:56:44,792 --> 00:56:47,208 Look, it was the knee-jerk reaction to pain. 1370 00:56:47,292 --> 00:56:49,292 You guys obviously have not talked 1371 00:56:49,375 --> 00:56:52,917 to any real emotional, vulnerable extent. 1372 00:56:53,000 --> 00:56:54,708 Right now, we're gonna deescalate. 1373 00:56:54,792 --> 00:56:56,750 We're gonna reset. - Okay. 1374 00:56:56,833 --> 00:56:59,500 - 'Cause this is too heavy at this stage in your marriage. 1375 00:56:59,542 --> 00:57:02,667 I need to sit in front of both of you 1376 00:57:02,750 --> 00:57:05,250 and talk with you together. 1377 00:57:05,375 --> 00:57:07,500 Okay, can we get him in here? 1378 00:57:08,875 --> 00:57:15,667 ♪ 1379 00:57:17,125 --> 00:57:18,458 - Hey, guys. both: Hey. 1380 00:57:18,542 --> 00:57:22,375 - I believe that every successful couple 1381 00:57:22,458 --> 00:57:24,833 has to fight through imperfection 1382 00:57:24,917 --> 00:57:27,583 to be perfectly perfect for each other. 1383 00:57:27,667 --> 00:57:29,667 So what I wanna do is use this opportunity 1384 00:57:29,750 --> 00:57:32,333 to talk about what has happened 1385 00:57:32,375 --> 00:57:34,000 and why we're at this point right now. 1386 00:57:34,042 --> 00:57:35,417 And then let's see how we can get through this. 1387 00:57:35,500 --> 00:57:37,958 You said, Lauren, that you felt 1388 00:57:38,042 --> 00:57:41,917 as though you gave him grace, but he's not giving you any. 1389 00:57:42,042 --> 00:57:43,667 And it's almost like he's not accepting your apology 1390 00:57:43,750 --> 00:57:45,167 or your contrition. Is that right? 1391 00:57:45,250 --> 00:57:46,875 - Yes. 1392 00:57:47,042 --> 00:57:50,625 And I feel like that's where so much of my hurt is from, 1393 00:57:50,708 --> 00:57:54,250 because I do see that I hurt you. 1394 00:57:54,333 --> 00:57:55,792 I've expressed this to you. 1395 00:57:55,875 --> 00:57:58,750 I've expressed this to anyone who will listen to me 1396 00:57:58,875 --> 00:58:03,458 that I understand the level of what I said 1397 00:58:03,542 --> 00:58:05,250 and why it affected you. 1398 00:58:05,375 --> 00:58:07,250 And I still feel like you're just like, "You don't get it. 1399 00:58:07,333 --> 00:58:08,708 You don't get it." 1400 00:58:08,792 --> 00:58:10,750 And I'm consistently telling you I do get it. 1401 00:58:10,875 --> 00:58:12,000 - You have. 1402 00:58:12,083 --> 00:58:13,917 You know, I wouldn't say that you haven't. 1403 00:58:14,000 --> 00:58:16,792 But when we do get onto the discussion of this, 1404 00:58:16,875 --> 00:58:21,500 I still have not been able to truly say how I have felt. 1405 00:58:21,583 --> 00:58:23,125 - Let's do it now. 1406 00:58:23,208 --> 00:58:24,917 Let's say exactly how you feel and how you felt. 1407 00:58:25,000 --> 00:58:30,875 - I feel like you not only offended me 1408 00:58:30,958 --> 00:58:34,375 and violated my culture, but I also feel like 1409 00:58:34,375 --> 00:58:36,083 you offended my family. 1410 00:58:36,167 --> 00:58:40,000 So there is a lot more that it extends on my end. 1411 00:58:40,042 --> 00:58:43,667 I have a whole community that I have to come back to, 1412 00:58:43,750 --> 00:58:45,833 and they are gonna have opinions about this, 1413 00:58:45,917 --> 00:58:48,583 my mom included, everybody around the world 1414 00:58:48,667 --> 00:58:50,917 who is indigenous. 1415 00:58:50,917 --> 00:58:54,708 It affects all of us at a much deeper level, 1416 00:58:54,833 --> 00:58:56,958 and that's where I feel like you don't get it. 1417 00:58:57,042 --> 00:59:00,500 Because I've never been able to actually say that 1418 00:59:00,583 --> 00:59:04,458 and finish my sentence because it goes 0 to 100. 1419 00:59:04,542 --> 00:59:06,042 - It went 0 to 100 because you said I didn't have your back. 1420 00:59:06,208 --> 00:59:07,583 - All the time. 1421 00:59:07,583 --> 00:59:09,000 - Okay, let's not interrupt. 1422 00:59:09,125 --> 00:59:11,792 Let's just--let's talk-- let's talk it through. 1423 00:59:11,875 --> 00:59:13,792 We're gonna talk to a complete thought, 1424 00:59:13,875 --> 00:59:15,667 and we're gonna wait, and we're gonna get a response. 1425 00:59:15,750 --> 00:59:18,417 So have you expressed to him that you understand 1426 00:59:18,500 --> 00:59:21,375 the depth of what was said? 1427 00:59:21,458 --> 00:59:23,708 - I have multiple times. 1428 00:59:23,833 --> 00:59:26,542 And honestly, we haven't-- you keep saying that 1429 00:59:26,708 --> 00:59:30,500 every time we talk about this, it goes 0 to 100, 1430 00:59:30,625 --> 00:59:32,208 but we haven't talked about it. 1431 00:59:32,292 --> 00:59:34,458 So I don't appreciate you saying that we have 1432 00:59:34,542 --> 00:59:36,667 when we actually haven't discussed it. 1433 00:59:36,792 --> 00:59:40,000 I've been trying to research and just get myself more aware 1434 00:59:40,042 --> 00:59:43,000 of just terms in general, not just derogatory terms 1435 00:59:43,042 --> 00:59:45,750 but terms of endearment in the Navajo culture, 1436 00:59:45,833 --> 00:59:48,292 terms--anything that I could just get off Google. 1437 00:59:48,375 --> 00:59:50,417 - Orion, how do you feel about that, that she's proactively 1438 00:59:50,542 --> 00:59:52,125 trying to learn more? 1439 00:59:52,208 --> 00:59:54,000 - I respect it, and I really appreciate it. 1440 00:59:54,125 --> 00:59:55,792 And it, you know, it speaks loads 1441 00:59:55,875 --> 00:59:58,167 to what we're dealing with. 1442 00:59:58,250 --> 01:00:00,125 - Is that not enough for you? 1443 01:00:00,208 --> 01:00:03,000 - Unfortunately. 1444 01:00:03,083 --> 01:00:05,792 - I'm sorry to hear that. I really am. 1445 01:00:05,875 --> 01:00:07,417 Why is that not enough? 1446 01:00:07,500 --> 01:00:11,167 - Because I can't get past what was said. 1447 01:00:11,292 --> 01:00:12,625 - So as it is right now, 1448 01:00:12,708 --> 01:00:14,958 are you saying you cannot forgive her? 1449 01:00:17,667 --> 01:00:20,000 - You know, because of this reason alone-- 1450 01:00:20,125 --> 01:00:22,208 the first time I experienced racism, 1451 01:00:22,292 --> 01:00:23,458 it was within my own culture. 1452 01:00:23,542 --> 01:00:25,042 I was called an apple-- 1453 01:00:25,208 --> 01:00:27,667 red on the outside, white on the inside. 1454 01:00:27,708 --> 01:00:29,375 And now the second time 1455 01:00:29,500 --> 01:00:31,833 I experienced that level of it... 1456 01:00:31,875 --> 01:00:34,000 ♪ 1457 01:00:34,042 --> 01:00:37,792 Was with a very crude joke from you. 1458 01:00:37,917 --> 01:00:40,333 - Orion, I want you to hear me. 1459 01:00:40,417 --> 01:00:42,042 There's an old saying, you know, 1460 01:00:42,125 --> 01:00:43,833 to err is human, to forgive divine. 1461 01:00:43,917 --> 01:00:48,083 - It is so sewn into who I am, how I grew up, 1462 01:00:48,167 --> 01:00:50,708 and where I came from, and it's just-- 1463 01:00:50,792 --> 01:00:52,917 it's--I can't do it. 1464 01:00:53,042 --> 01:00:56,167 ♪ 1465 01:00:56,208 --> 01:00:57,500 - Lauren. 1466 01:00:57,583 --> 01:00:58,500 - I just gotta get myself together. 1467 01:00:58,542 --> 01:01:00,292 I'm coming back. I'm coming back. 1468 01:01:00,417 --> 01:01:02,708 ♪ 1469 01:01:02,833 --> 01:01:04,583 - Orion, she's throwing herself on the sword. 1470 01:01:04,667 --> 01:01:06,042 - It doesn't matter what I do. 1471 01:01:06,125 --> 01:01:07,167 Like, that's what I'm trying to tell y'all. 1472 01:01:07,208 --> 01:01:08,833 It doesn't matter. 1473 01:01:08,875 --> 01:01:10,542 I could write a 50-page essay and give a PowerPoint 1474 01:01:10,625 --> 01:01:13,792 to the entire US of A about derogatory terms 1475 01:01:13,875 --> 01:01:15,833 in his nation, and it wouldn't matter to him 1476 01:01:15,917 --> 01:01:17,417 because it's a him thing, 1477 01:01:17,542 --> 01:01:18,500 and there's nothing else I can do. 1478 01:01:18,625 --> 01:01:20,042 It's nothing more remorse-- 1479 01:01:20,125 --> 01:01:25,083 there's nothing I can do that I haven't done. 1480 01:01:25,167 --> 01:01:29,208 - Yeah, and you know, honestly, it's-- 1481 01:01:29,292 --> 01:01:32,375 I don't know what more I can say to really explain it, 1482 01:01:32,458 --> 01:01:35,292 but I can't move past this. 1483 01:01:35,375 --> 01:01:37,000 - Okay. 1484 01:01:37,000 --> 01:01:39,958 - I have no idea where we go from here. 1485 01:01:40,042 --> 01:01:42,000 - ♪ You can blame it all on me ♪ 1486 01:01:42,083 --> 01:01:44,792 - Hold on. Hold on. Hold on. 1487 01:01:44,875 --> 01:01:50,500 - ♪ You can say it wasn't meant to be ♪ 1488 01:01:50,542 --> 01:01:56,042 ♪ You can claim I was impossible ♪ 1489 01:01:56,125 --> 01:01:59,333 - [crying] 1490 01:01:59,375 --> 01:02:01,167 ♪ 1491 01:02:01,250 --> 01:02:03,667 - Next time on "Married at First Sight"... 1492 01:02:03,750 --> 01:02:06,292 - You ready to see our new apartment? 1493 01:02:06,292 --> 01:02:10,250 - Our couples returned home to Denver and move in together. 1494 01:02:10,333 --> 01:02:11,583 - We're gonna rock this. - It's gonna be easy. 1495 01:02:11,667 --> 01:02:13,292 [knock at door] 1496 01:02:13,375 --> 01:02:15,833 - Maybe we should, like, reconvene in a few days 1497 01:02:15,917 --> 01:02:18,042 before moving to our new place. 1498 01:02:18,042 --> 01:02:20,542 - Like, what the [bleep]. Like, something is off. 1499 01:02:20,625 --> 01:02:22,000 Like, what happened? 1500 01:02:22,083 --> 01:02:23,792 - We talked about religion, and we definitely 1501 01:02:23,875 --> 01:02:26,583 have some differing opinions. 1502 01:02:26,667 --> 01:02:32,958 - I don't often meet Christians who don't wanna change my mind. 1503 01:02:33,042 --> 01:02:34,458 - See, I didn't know this about you. 1504 01:02:34,542 --> 01:02:36,708 - If you just ask. 1505 01:02:36,792 --> 01:02:37,958 - I just need you to tell me if you're physically 1506 01:02:38,042 --> 01:02:39,292 attracted to me or not. 1507 01:02:39,375 --> 01:02:40,958 - I just can't do it. 1508 01:02:41,042 --> 01:02:43,333 - I didn't ever really anticipate, like, 1509 01:02:43,458 --> 01:02:45,250 a lot of what's happening. 1510 01:02:45,333 --> 01:02:48,958 - There is no romance within me anymore. 1511 01:02:49,042 --> 01:02:51,292 ♪ 1512 01:02:51,375 --> 01:02:53,125 - Do you want a divorce? 1513 01:02:53,208 --> 01:02:57,125 ♪