1 00:00:02,333 --> 00:00:05,833 - ♪ I can't help myself, I like what I see ♪ 2 00:00:05,917 --> 00:00:08,542 - Four newlywed couples took a leap into the unknown 3 00:00:08,625 --> 00:00:09,542 in search of love. 4 00:00:09,667 --> 00:00:11,083 [cheers and applause] 5 00:00:11,167 --> 00:00:13,208 They married as complete strangers. 6 00:00:13,292 --> 00:00:15,333 [cheers and applause] 7 00:00:15,417 --> 00:00:17,625 ♪ 8 00:00:17,708 --> 00:00:20,500 Last time, our couples took a major step 9 00:00:20,625 --> 00:00:24,208 towards incorporating each other into their daily lives. 10 00:00:24,292 --> 00:00:26,125 - Emily told you some [bleep], and you guys came in hot. 11 00:00:26,208 --> 00:00:27,833 - Emily didn't tell me [bleep]. 12 00:00:27,875 --> 00:00:29,833 - ♪ Step into my world 13 00:00:29,958 --> 00:00:31,833 - Emily and Brennan. 14 00:00:31,917 --> 00:00:35,375 - Your friends pretty much, like, came at me unfairly. 15 00:00:35,458 --> 00:00:38,250 - I am sorry about that, 'cause I wouldn't want your friends 16 00:00:38,333 --> 00:00:40,458 to treat me like that. 17 00:00:40,542 --> 00:00:42,375 - Becca and Austin. 18 00:00:42,375 --> 00:00:43,667 - You think they all liked each other? 19 00:00:43,708 --> 00:00:44,875 - Yeah. - Nice. 20 00:00:44,958 --> 00:00:46,167 I think so, too. - You think so, too? 21 00:00:46,250 --> 00:00:47,333 - I think so, too. 22 00:00:47,417 --> 00:00:49,208 - Derik said that religion in the past 23 00:00:49,292 --> 00:00:50,500 hasn't really been an issue for Austin. 24 00:00:50,542 --> 00:00:53,208 I'm not sure exactly what that means, 25 00:00:53,292 --> 00:00:56,542 but, more importantly, I just want to get intimacy 26 00:00:56,625 --> 00:00:59,000 to work and trying to get us to a place 27 00:00:59,083 --> 00:01:01,917 where we both feel connected. 28 00:01:02,000 --> 00:01:03,708 - Clare and Cameron. 29 00:01:05,583 --> 00:01:07,458 - Does he know you're on this? - No. 30 00:01:07,542 --> 00:01:09,167 - [gasps] 31 00:01:09,292 --> 00:01:11,667 - What would you like to tell a man who's on his deathbed? 32 00:01:11,708 --> 00:01:13,208 - Oh, wow, okay, I didn't-- 33 00:01:13,292 --> 00:01:15,667 first of all, did not realize either of those things. 34 00:01:15,708 --> 00:01:18,500 It's really strange to me that he's bringing up 35 00:01:18,583 --> 00:01:22,333 really heavy things, you know, in front of people, 36 00:01:22,417 --> 00:01:25,500 when he won't even do that with me in private. 37 00:01:25,583 --> 00:01:27,167 ♪ 38 00:01:27,208 --> 00:01:29,250 - Lauren and Orion. 39 00:01:29,333 --> 00:01:32,208 - I didn't have a partner who was like, it can work out. 40 00:01:32,292 --> 00:01:34,208 - It's not you. It's, for sure, him. 41 00:01:34,292 --> 00:01:36,167 And let him know that it's him, 42 00:01:36,208 --> 00:01:38,458 and hopefully this is the last time you see his [bleep]. 43 00:01:38,542 --> 00:01:41,792 ♪ 44 00:01:41,875 --> 00:01:43,208 - And tonight... 45 00:01:43,292 --> 00:01:45,458 our couples will work harder than ever 46 00:01:45,542 --> 00:01:48,125 to fight for their dream of having everlasting love. 47 00:01:48,208 --> 00:01:49,333 - You pegged me. - Yep. 48 00:01:49,417 --> 00:01:51,208 - Let's make this sexual. 49 00:01:51,333 --> 00:01:53,583 Let's create sexual tension in this nonsexual game. 50 00:01:53,708 --> 00:01:55,042 - [laughs] 51 00:01:55,125 --> 00:01:58,292 - I am head over heels with how much-- 52 00:01:58,375 --> 00:01:59,708 - Don't make me cry. Don't do it. 53 00:01:59,792 --> 00:02:01,333 [laughs] 54 00:02:01,417 --> 00:02:03,333 - I'm talking to her, though. - Yeah, I know. 55 00:02:03,417 --> 00:02:05,000 - Let me talk to her. - Yeah, I get you. 56 00:02:05,042 --> 00:02:06,417 - Okay, so let me talk to her. - So we-- 57 00:02:06,542 --> 00:02:08,125 - Brennan, I'm talking to Emily. 58 00:02:08,208 --> 00:02:09,500 Thank you. - Yeah, I'm just helping-- 59 00:02:09,625 --> 00:02:11,833 - She doesn't need your help, though. 60 00:02:11,917 --> 00:02:13,583 ♪ 61 00:02:13,667 --> 00:02:16,542 - I still need time to, like, work through certain things 62 00:02:16,667 --> 00:02:18,500 that could, like, really tear us apart. 63 00:02:18,542 --> 00:02:19,542 ♪ 64 00:02:19,625 --> 00:02:21,917 - [crying] It's really hard. 65 00:02:22,000 --> 00:02:23,708 - Do you see a future with me? - You're not--let me finish. 66 00:02:23,792 --> 00:02:25,208 - Do you see a future with me? 67 00:02:25,333 --> 00:02:27,042 - Cutting me off really does piss me off. 68 00:02:27,042 --> 00:02:28,458 I'm sorry. - Do you see a future with me? 69 00:02:28,542 --> 00:02:29,750 - You really cut me off. - Do you see a future with me? 70 00:02:29,833 --> 00:02:31,833 - If that's your truth, that's your truth, but-- 71 00:02:31,917 --> 00:02:33,458 - You're such a gaslighter, bro. 72 00:02:33,542 --> 00:02:35,667 - No. - You are such a gaslighter. 73 00:02:35,792 --> 00:02:37,042 - Okay. 74 00:02:37,167 --> 00:02:38,667 - [crying] I tried my best. [sniffles] 75 00:02:38,750 --> 00:02:40,583 For you to say that I failed this marriage 76 00:02:40,667 --> 00:02:42,625 and I failed you, when all I've been doing 77 00:02:42,708 --> 00:02:44,792 is assuring you that you haven't failed me... 78 00:02:44,875 --> 00:02:48,333 ♪ 79 00:02:48,417 --> 00:02:51,000 [sobs] 80 00:02:51,042 --> 00:02:52,958 - ♪ It's all or nothing 81 00:02:53,042 --> 00:02:55,500 - This is "Married at First Sight." 82 00:02:55,583 --> 00:02:57,667 - ♪ There's no other way 83 00:02:57,792 --> 00:02:59,000 ♪ 84 00:02:59,083 --> 00:03:01,125 - ♪ It's all or nothing 85 00:03:01,208 --> 00:03:03,208 - ♪ Tick, tick, boom 86 00:03:03,292 --> 00:03:05,250 ♪ Come on, let's get it started ♪ 87 00:03:05,333 --> 00:03:06,958 - [vocalizing] 88 00:03:07,042 --> 00:03:09,875 - ♪ Tick, tick, tick, tick, tick, tick, boom ♪ 89 00:03:09,958 --> 00:03:14,125 - I slept great, although it was hot as Hades in here. 90 00:03:14,250 --> 00:03:15,667 Like, literally-- 91 00:03:15,750 --> 00:03:17,708 - The thermostat is right over there. 92 00:03:17,792 --> 00:03:19,333 - Yeah, I get that, but I literally said, 93 00:03:19,417 --> 00:03:21,000 like, five times. I'm like, can I-- 94 00:03:21,083 --> 00:03:22,500 - I didn't hear you say once. 95 00:03:22,542 --> 00:03:24,208 - Well, and I wanted to open the window, 96 00:03:24,333 --> 00:03:25,958 and you just were not about that. 97 00:03:26,042 --> 00:03:27,375 I was, like, roasting. - You didn't-- 98 00:03:27,375 --> 00:03:29,250 - But-- - You didn't ask me once. 99 00:03:29,333 --> 00:03:30,833 - Anyway. [sniffs] 100 00:03:30,958 --> 00:03:32,958 ♪ 101 00:03:33,042 --> 00:03:35,667 - Uh, last night, you know, we talked 102 00:03:35,792 --> 00:03:37,667 about a few things about-- 103 00:03:37,792 --> 00:03:41,542 I know my father, and my father's health came up. 104 00:03:41,625 --> 00:03:43,833 Um... 105 00:03:43,917 --> 00:03:45,500 I... 106 00:03:45,583 --> 00:03:50,208 You know, I didn't realize that I hadn't communicated 107 00:03:50,292 --> 00:03:52,292 that clearly to you. - Yeah. 108 00:03:52,375 --> 00:03:54,500 - I just assumed that-- 109 00:03:54,542 --> 00:03:57,333 - it was very, very strange the way that it was brought up. 110 00:03:57,417 --> 00:03:59,333 So I just was like, whoa, that's interesting 111 00:03:59,417 --> 00:04:01,542 that out the gate, he doesn't even know Amy, 112 00:04:01,625 --> 00:04:03,875 and all of a sudden, he's, like, diving into all that, 113 00:04:03,958 --> 00:04:05,542 which, I mean, I was intrigued. 114 00:04:05,625 --> 00:04:07,917 - Yeah, for me, my father's been sick 115 00:04:08,000 --> 00:04:10,042 for many years, and... - Yeah. 116 00:04:10,125 --> 00:04:12,500 And I'm sorry to hear that. That's, like, really hard. 117 00:04:12,583 --> 00:04:14,917 - Yeah, well, I mean, it's something that I've, like, 118 00:04:15,000 --> 00:04:17,000 already kind of, like, grieved and, like, accepted, 119 00:04:17,042 --> 00:04:18,667 in the sense that it's just, it's just something that-- 120 00:04:18,708 --> 00:04:20,542 - Still hard, though. - Yeah, absolutely. 121 00:04:20,625 --> 00:04:24,542 So for me, it's, like, the reason why I was being short 122 00:04:24,667 --> 00:04:26,500 was, like, there was no hidden mystery. 123 00:04:26,667 --> 00:04:28,167 My dad is sick. 124 00:04:28,292 --> 00:04:30,333 You know, like, it just kind of is what it is 125 00:04:30,458 --> 00:04:32,375 versus, like, oh, you know, here's this recent thing 126 00:04:32,458 --> 00:04:33,667 that happened to me, 127 00:04:33,708 --> 00:04:35,458 and I'm feeling really emotional about it. 128 00:04:35,542 --> 00:04:37,292 It's like I've kind of already gone through the stages, 129 00:04:37,375 --> 00:04:38,958 and that's why-- 130 00:04:39,042 --> 00:04:40,625 and that's why we kind of, like, 131 00:04:40,708 --> 00:04:42,292 you know, missed each other. - Mm-hmm. 132 00:04:42,375 --> 00:04:43,917 Thank you for sharing. 133 00:04:44,042 --> 00:04:46,000 I know that that's not an easy thing to talk about, 134 00:04:46,167 --> 00:04:48,500 and so I appreciate you being so open. 135 00:04:48,542 --> 00:04:52,167 And now I understand. 136 00:04:52,208 --> 00:04:53,667 You know, last night was the first time 137 00:04:53,750 --> 00:04:55,333 that I had ever heard that he didn't know 138 00:04:55,375 --> 00:04:57,167 that you were married. 139 00:04:57,292 --> 00:05:00,333 - So people don't understand necessarily, like, 140 00:05:00,458 --> 00:05:03,542 what it means to have people in their life 141 00:05:03,667 --> 00:05:05,875 that are in these situations. - Yeah. 142 00:05:05,958 --> 00:05:08,417 - My dad is a survivor, right? - Of course, yep. 143 00:05:08,500 --> 00:05:10,875 - And anything I could say... - Yeah. 144 00:05:10,875 --> 00:05:12,875 - Can kind of alter that. - Mm-hmm. 145 00:05:12,875 --> 00:05:15,750 - I can't just be like, oh, yeah, by the way, 146 00:05:15,875 --> 00:05:18,292 I married a stranger, because I do have to be careful... 147 00:05:18,375 --> 00:05:19,750 - Yeah, and I get that. 148 00:05:19,833 --> 00:05:21,333 - Because when that gets back to him, 149 00:05:21,417 --> 00:05:23,167 what does that do to him and his-- 150 00:05:23,292 --> 00:05:24,875 - Right, right. I completely get it. 151 00:05:25,000 --> 00:05:26,667 And I am grateful 152 00:05:26,667 --> 00:05:29,333 that you were willing to have that conversation with me, 153 00:05:29,375 --> 00:05:31,167 because I can't imagine being in your position. 154 00:05:31,292 --> 00:05:33,125 Like, that sounds really, really hard. 155 00:05:33,208 --> 00:05:35,000 Up until last night, I didn't realize 156 00:05:35,042 --> 00:05:37,708 that his parents and his dad didn't know 157 00:05:37,792 --> 00:05:39,625 that he was actually even getting married, 158 00:05:39,708 --> 00:05:41,875 but I hope there comes a point where Cameron 159 00:05:41,958 --> 00:05:44,708 feels comfortable just not hiding this information. 160 00:05:44,792 --> 00:05:47,833 I think he knows family is everything to me, 161 00:05:47,917 --> 00:05:51,458 and Cameron's family is now my family. 162 00:05:51,542 --> 00:05:53,583 - It is hard, but it's something-- 163 00:05:53,667 --> 00:05:56,667 like I said, I've learned over the years how to work with it. 164 00:05:56,750 --> 00:05:57,750 - Yeah. 165 00:05:57,875 --> 00:06:04,667 ♪ 166 00:06:07,125 --> 00:06:10,708 - So I'm gonna make bacon, eggs... 167 00:06:10,792 --> 00:06:13,208 and toast. 168 00:06:13,292 --> 00:06:14,500 - Perfect. 169 00:06:14,583 --> 00:06:15,500 - Oh, I forgot to get butter, 170 00:06:15,542 --> 00:06:17,208 but it's really good bread, so... 171 00:06:17,292 --> 00:06:18,667 - Yeah, that'll be good. 172 00:06:18,750 --> 00:06:21,000 I do just want to say sorry again for last night. 173 00:06:21,042 --> 00:06:22,000 - Yeah. 174 00:06:22,042 --> 00:06:24,208 ♪ 175 00:06:24,292 --> 00:06:28,208 - It's just not how I wanted 176 00:06:28,292 --> 00:06:31,917 the first fun night to go. - Yeah. 177 00:06:32,000 --> 00:06:34,667 I'm trying not to take it personally, you know. 178 00:06:34,750 --> 00:06:36,750 They're just looking out for their friend, and-- 179 00:06:36,833 --> 00:06:38,167 I don't know. 180 00:06:38,250 --> 00:06:41,000 I think I could have definitely done things differently 181 00:06:41,042 --> 00:06:42,917 and handled it better. 182 00:06:43,000 --> 00:06:46,333 Obviously, I never want to come across as defensive, 183 00:06:46,417 --> 00:06:48,208 even though it felt like a personal attack. 184 00:06:48,292 --> 00:06:50,167 You know, I have to stand up for myself and my marriage. 185 00:06:50,292 --> 00:06:52,292 - Yep. 186 00:06:52,375 --> 00:06:55,417 - So, you know, I don't apologize for that. 187 00:06:55,500 --> 00:06:58,125 I just--you know, obviously, heated in the moment. 188 00:06:58,208 --> 00:07:01,208 - Yeah, and I... [egg tapping] 189 00:07:01,292 --> 00:07:02,542 Obviously want you to know, 190 00:07:02,625 --> 00:07:05,500 like, I'm always gonna take your side, 191 00:07:05,583 --> 00:07:09,333 and, like, I don't want that to happen to you ever again, 192 00:07:09,375 --> 00:07:11,083 and I obviously didn't, like, tell them 193 00:07:11,167 --> 00:07:13,000 to say anything that they did. 194 00:07:13,083 --> 00:07:16,750 Like, I know they care about me and are protective, 195 00:07:16,833 --> 00:07:19,750 but that was just, like, crossing the line. 196 00:07:19,833 --> 00:07:21,667 - Especially 'cause it was supposed to just be... 197 00:07:21,750 --> 00:07:23,583 - Fun. Yep. - Good vibes. 198 00:07:23,667 --> 00:07:25,792 And, like, if they had, you know, questions or concerns, 199 00:07:25,875 --> 00:07:27,583 like, definitely, but, you know, 200 00:07:27,708 --> 00:07:30,000 to come in with that level of intensity 201 00:07:30,083 --> 00:07:33,500 when it was such a good-vibe atmosphere just... 202 00:07:33,542 --> 00:07:36,333 - Yeah, it just sucks because you did like my friends 203 00:07:36,375 --> 00:07:38,042 at the wedding, and, like, obviously, 204 00:07:38,167 --> 00:07:39,875 those were my best friends, and, like, I just-- 205 00:07:39,958 --> 00:07:43,375 like, it is just, like, a reflection of me, 206 00:07:43,500 --> 00:07:46,750 and I just don't want you to, like, think... 207 00:07:46,833 --> 00:07:49,500 any, like, less of me or, like, those are-- 208 00:07:49,542 --> 00:07:51,083 - No, I don't think any less of you. 209 00:07:51,167 --> 00:07:53,875 I'm honestly just treating it like a one-off night 210 00:07:53,958 --> 00:07:57,833 with all this pressure and, like, just felt a little off. 211 00:07:57,917 --> 00:08:02,458 - Yeah, that's the right way to look at it. 212 00:08:02,542 --> 00:08:05,333 - Yeah, it's not your fault, obviously. 213 00:08:05,417 --> 00:08:08,542 You know, or forgive and forget, you know. 214 00:08:08,625 --> 00:08:10,042 - That's good. - So... 215 00:08:10,167 --> 00:08:12,292 - That's important. - Yeah.. 216 00:08:12,375 --> 00:08:19,208 ♪ 217 00:08:23,083 --> 00:08:26,375 - So this is a game... 218 00:08:26,458 --> 00:08:31,083 that my mom taught me when I was a young-un. 219 00:08:31,167 --> 00:08:33,208 Okay, so there's, like, two parts of play. 220 00:08:33,208 --> 00:08:35,000 There's, like, the pegging round, 221 00:08:35,083 --> 00:08:37,042 which you, like, play cards... - [giggles] 222 00:08:37,125 --> 00:08:39,792 - [laughs] And then the counting round. 223 00:08:39,875 --> 00:08:41,167 So, like... - [laughs] 224 00:08:41,250 --> 00:08:42,792 - I don't know how to explain this. 225 00:08:42,875 --> 00:08:44,500 I probably should have read the rules first 226 00:08:44,583 --> 00:08:46,375 to, like, get a better grasp of it, but basically-- 227 00:08:46,458 --> 00:08:48,167 - Is it actually called the pegging round? 228 00:08:48,250 --> 00:08:50,667 - I play a card. You play a card, and we try it. 229 00:08:50,750 --> 00:08:53,333 So, if I were to play a king, you'd want to play a 5. 230 00:08:53,417 --> 00:08:55,875 This is for, like, the pegging round. 231 00:08:55,958 --> 00:08:57,958 - We got to name it something else. 232 00:08:58,042 --> 00:08:59,375 [chuckles] - I know. 233 00:08:59,458 --> 00:09:00,750 - The process of pegging in cribbage 234 00:09:00,833 --> 00:09:02,500 is apparently to keep score. 235 00:09:02,625 --> 00:09:04,667 However, let's make this sexual. 236 00:09:04,708 --> 00:09:07,333 Let's create sexual tension in this nonsexual game. 237 00:09:07,417 --> 00:09:11,167 You've got to be ready to peg if you want to play cribbage. 238 00:09:11,250 --> 00:09:13,917 Peg yourself, bro. - Just be 2. 239 00:09:14,000 --> 00:09:16,167 So then I got 19. 240 00:09:16,208 --> 00:09:21,667 ♪ 241 00:09:21,708 --> 00:09:23,333 - Yeah. - [whispers indistinctly] 242 00:09:23,417 --> 00:09:25,125 [laughs] - So I won. 243 00:09:25,208 --> 00:09:26,792 - Yeah, so 28, last card. 244 00:09:26,792 --> 00:09:28,500 You get one point. - I peg. 245 00:09:28,542 --> 00:09:29,792 - Boop. - You pegged me. 246 00:09:29,875 --> 00:09:33,375 - Yeah, so-- [laughter] 247 00:09:33,500 --> 00:09:35,458 - What is my goal? What am I trying to do? 248 00:09:35,542 --> 00:09:37,667 - To get points. Get all the way around. 249 00:09:37,750 --> 00:09:39,167 - And so now I'm just playing with myself? 250 00:09:39,208 --> 00:09:41,042 [laughter] - Oh, [bleep]. 251 00:09:41,125 --> 00:09:42,792 - Sorry. 252 00:09:42,875 --> 00:09:45,375 I know I need to be patient, 253 00:09:45,500 --> 00:09:48,167 and I am respecting the fact that Austin 254 00:09:48,250 --> 00:09:51,750 doesn't have the same comfort level as I do. 255 00:09:51,875 --> 00:09:55,208 But I am starting to feel worried that I'm running out 256 00:09:55,292 --> 00:09:57,458 of ways for us to connect 257 00:09:57,542 --> 00:10:00,667 that do separate us from a friendship 258 00:10:00,750 --> 00:10:02,958 and still fulfill my needs. 259 00:10:03,042 --> 00:10:05,167 ♪ 260 00:10:05,208 --> 00:10:06,417 - All right. 261 00:10:06,500 --> 00:10:07,833 - For later. - For later. 262 00:10:07,875 --> 00:10:09,833 - For pegging later. - My stash. 263 00:10:09,958 --> 00:10:11,750 [laughter] 264 00:10:11,833 --> 00:10:15,083 - ♪ 'Cause you know when you know it ♪ 265 00:10:15,208 --> 00:10:17,000 ♪ And you'll know when you know when you figure it out ♪ 266 00:10:17,083 --> 00:10:19,833 ♪ 'Cause you know when you know it ♪ 267 00:10:19,875 --> 00:10:23,667 ♪ And you'll know when you know when you figure it out ♪ 268 00:10:23,750 --> 00:10:26,208 - Doesn't this look good? - It looks amazing. 269 00:10:30,583 --> 00:10:34,458 [both chewing] Mmm. 270 00:10:34,542 --> 00:10:36,833 The sounds of mastication. 271 00:10:36,875 --> 00:10:39,500 ♪ 272 00:10:39,583 --> 00:10:42,708 I think, specifically, it means chewing, but... 273 00:10:42,833 --> 00:10:45,042 - Could've just said "chewing." 274 00:10:45,125 --> 00:10:47,042 - Hmm, but I wanted to use a big word. 275 00:10:47,167 --> 00:10:48,458 - Yeah, as you do. 276 00:10:48,542 --> 00:10:50,333 [laughs] 277 00:10:50,417 --> 00:10:51,875 You tend to do that quite a bit. 278 00:10:51,958 --> 00:10:53,750 - Oh, no, I think I use a lot of small words. 279 00:10:53,833 --> 00:10:56,167 I wish I used way bigger words. 280 00:10:56,250 --> 00:10:59,000 Then people would know how really smart I am. 281 00:10:59,083 --> 00:11:01,708 - Oh, my God. No, that's-- 282 00:11:01,792 --> 00:11:04,542 Yeah, okay. 283 00:11:04,542 --> 00:11:07,500 - When Clare expresses feelings 284 00:11:07,500 --> 00:11:10,583 of cascading annoyances, 285 00:11:10,667 --> 00:11:12,875 that makes me feel like we're stuck, 286 00:11:13,000 --> 00:11:15,958 because I want to feel wanted. 287 00:11:16,042 --> 00:11:18,375 Her body language and her actions 288 00:11:18,458 --> 00:11:21,000 say that she doesn't want me. 289 00:11:21,083 --> 00:11:21,958 ♪ 290 00:11:22,042 --> 00:11:23,833 So... 291 00:11:23,917 --> 00:11:28,500 I feel like we are stuck. 292 00:11:28,583 --> 00:11:30,708 Like, I mean, it feels like we're at, like, 293 00:11:30,792 --> 00:11:32,625 an impasse, right? 294 00:11:32,708 --> 00:11:36,167 - I mean, I feel like we're both trying very hard, 295 00:11:36,208 --> 00:11:40,583 and I don't know, I... 296 00:11:40,667 --> 00:11:43,542 I'm not sure if we've, like, hit a wall. 297 00:11:43,625 --> 00:11:45,458 There is zero romance. 298 00:11:45,542 --> 00:11:47,042 I don't think that's on either of us. 299 00:11:47,125 --> 00:11:48,917 I'm not saying there's anyone to blame. 300 00:11:49,042 --> 00:11:50,625 It's just that's the way it is, 301 00:11:50,708 --> 00:11:52,333 and I don't think... 302 00:11:52,375 --> 00:11:53,458 ♪ 303 00:11:53,542 --> 00:11:55,125 That that's healthy. 304 00:11:55,208 --> 00:11:56,375 ♪ 305 00:11:56,458 --> 00:12:01,125 - Yeah, but it's easy to look at lack of romance 306 00:12:01,208 --> 00:12:03,042 and say, it will come with time. 307 00:12:03,125 --> 00:12:04,875 ♪ 308 00:12:05,000 --> 00:12:06,583 When we're talking about "romantic"... 309 00:12:06,708 --> 00:12:08,000 - Mm-hmm. 310 00:12:08,083 --> 00:12:09,958 - Turn-ons... - Mm-hmm. 311 00:12:10,042 --> 00:12:12,917 - Have I actually been doing any? 312 00:12:13,042 --> 00:12:16,375 - Yeah, yeah, I think--yeah, when you let me know 313 00:12:16,500 --> 00:12:19,833 that you are here--like, even little stuff like that, 314 00:12:19,917 --> 00:12:21,500 when you're like, are you okay? 315 00:12:21,625 --> 00:12:23,250 Like, that kind of stuff, I really love, 316 00:12:23,333 --> 00:12:24,667 and I've noticed that you do that a lot. 317 00:12:24,750 --> 00:12:26,167 In every situation where it's, like, 318 00:12:26,208 --> 00:12:28,000 it might be causing a little bit of stress, 319 00:12:28,042 --> 00:12:29,833 before I even mention it, you're like, are you okay? 320 00:12:29,958 --> 00:12:31,500 And to me, that is a turn-on, 321 00:12:31,542 --> 00:12:34,000 'cause it's like you're being in tune with who I am. 322 00:12:34,083 --> 00:12:38,042 - Okay, and then are there specific things I'm doing, 323 00:12:38,125 --> 00:12:40,792 you know, romantically that are turning off? 324 00:12:40,875 --> 00:12:42,333 - No. - Okay. 325 00:12:42,417 --> 00:12:44,042 ♪ 326 00:12:44,042 --> 00:12:46,333 - I just don't think I'm romantically ready 327 00:12:46,500 --> 00:12:51,167 to engage in behavior that is, you know, sexual at this point. 328 00:12:51,208 --> 00:12:54,500 It doesn't feel natural for me to do that with you, 329 00:12:54,542 --> 00:12:56,667 and it's not nothing against you. 330 00:12:56,708 --> 00:12:58,125 It's just the way that our relationship is, 331 00:12:58,208 --> 00:12:59,958 and it's like, you feel the same. 332 00:13:00,042 --> 00:13:01,542 It's not like you can just naturally just come over 333 00:13:01,625 --> 00:13:03,208 and give me a kiss. 334 00:13:03,292 --> 00:13:05,667 Like, that's not natural for you to do that to me, right? 335 00:13:05,708 --> 00:13:07,292 - Well, I would. 336 00:13:07,375 --> 00:13:09,500 - Okay, would it feel unnatural to kiss me, though? 337 00:13:09,500 --> 00:13:10,667 - No. 338 00:13:10,708 --> 00:13:12,833 - Hmm, that's interesting, okay. 339 00:13:12,917 --> 00:13:14,500 Hearing him say that he's attracted to me 340 00:13:14,542 --> 00:13:17,208 and that he wants to kiss me, this is news to me. 341 00:13:17,292 --> 00:13:19,500 I don't feel that coming from him all the time. 342 00:13:19,542 --> 00:13:21,833 Like, your actions aren't aligning with your words. 343 00:13:21,875 --> 00:13:23,542 I just feel a little bit of guilt, 344 00:13:23,625 --> 00:13:25,333 and maybe that's built by myself. 345 00:13:25,375 --> 00:13:27,250 But I feel like in all these conversations, 346 00:13:27,333 --> 00:13:29,125 I just feel a sense of like, wow, I'm not doing enough. 347 00:13:29,208 --> 00:13:32,833 I'm not enough because I'm not giving him 348 00:13:32,875 --> 00:13:35,833 what he needs right now or in this moment, you know? 349 00:13:35,917 --> 00:13:37,667 And that's hard. That's a hard pill to swallow. 350 00:13:37,708 --> 00:13:38,958 And I'm sorry. I don't--I don't-- 351 00:13:39,042 --> 00:13:40,958 - No, no, don't be sorry. - [sighs] 352 00:13:41,042 --> 00:13:43,250 - You can't be at fault for being uncomfortable. 353 00:13:43,375 --> 00:13:45,750 That's not-- In your programming, 354 00:13:45,875 --> 00:13:47,833 that's nothing that you are at fault for. 355 00:13:47,958 --> 00:13:50,375 But even with the limited romance we have, 356 00:13:50,458 --> 00:13:51,542 I'm getting attached to you. 357 00:13:51,625 --> 00:13:53,000 ♪ 358 00:13:53,083 --> 00:13:55,917 And so, like, I'm here to try, 359 00:13:56,000 --> 00:13:58,167 and I'm happy to try. 360 00:13:58,292 --> 00:14:02,167 However, I would be doing myself a great disservice 361 00:14:02,250 --> 00:14:05,917 if we really thought there was no future 362 00:14:06,000 --> 00:14:09,333 because it's literally just pain at that point. 363 00:14:09,375 --> 00:14:12,583 ♪ 364 00:14:12,667 --> 00:14:14,792 But if there is a potential future, 365 00:14:14,875 --> 00:14:17,667 then the pain is worth it. 366 00:14:17,750 --> 00:14:19,042 ♪ 367 00:14:19,125 --> 00:14:23,750 So is there a 0.1% chance 368 00:14:23,833 --> 00:14:25,417 of this working out? 369 00:14:25,542 --> 00:14:31,417 ♪ 370 00:14:31,542 --> 00:14:33,000 - No. 371 00:14:33,125 --> 00:14:34,000 - Okay. 372 00:14:34,125 --> 00:14:35,833 - I think there's more than that. 373 00:14:35,875 --> 00:14:37,333 - Oh, there's more, okay. 374 00:14:37,417 --> 00:14:40,250 So, I mean, anything can happen... 375 00:14:40,375 --> 00:14:42,750 right, at any time? 376 00:14:42,875 --> 00:14:44,875 - Mm-hmm. 377 00:14:44,958 --> 00:14:46,458 - We just got to stick it through 378 00:14:46,542 --> 00:14:48,167 and make the romance work, right? 379 00:14:48,250 --> 00:14:49,667 ♪ 380 00:14:49,750 --> 00:14:52,833 - ♪ To choose love over fear 381 00:14:57,417 --> 00:14:58,833 - ♪ Ooh, ooh-ooh 382 00:14:58,833 --> 00:15:01,750 ♪ Where we go when we are alone ♪ 383 00:15:01,875 --> 00:15:04,875 - Hello. - Hi, it's so good to see you. 384 00:15:05,000 --> 00:15:07,000 - I know. - How have you been? 385 00:15:07,042 --> 00:15:08,333 - Today was just a really good day. 386 00:15:08,417 --> 00:15:12,292 We had, like, a full day together, 387 00:15:12,375 --> 00:15:14,500 so I just want to keep the mood light. 388 00:15:14,542 --> 00:15:16,958 Hopefully, chemistry can grow from here on out. 389 00:15:17,042 --> 00:15:18,417 - Better stay with me. 390 00:15:18,500 --> 00:15:20,042 You can hold in stillness if you need to. 391 00:15:20,125 --> 00:15:21,333 Lots of good people to watch. 392 00:15:21,375 --> 00:15:24,542 Emily, a pro, obviously. It's gonna be great. 393 00:15:24,625 --> 00:15:26,917 - It's gonna be so fun. - Yeah. 394 00:15:27,000 --> 00:15:28,125 - Oh, they're getting in position. 395 00:15:28,208 --> 00:15:29,208 Got to get in position. 396 00:15:29,292 --> 00:15:30,417 ♪ 397 00:15:30,500 --> 00:15:32,292 - We're gonna go with center core first. 398 00:15:32,375 --> 00:15:34,167 [cheers and applause] Anyways... 399 00:15:34,292 --> 00:15:36,292 [laughter] Okay, cool. 400 00:15:36,375 --> 00:15:40,292 Tiptoes front platform--press out, and just hold for me. 401 00:15:40,375 --> 00:15:41,750 ♪ 402 00:15:41,833 --> 00:15:43,167 Beautiful, gorgeous. 403 00:15:43,250 --> 00:15:45,167 You guys, rock your heels forward slightly. 404 00:15:45,333 --> 00:15:47,917 Emily, pop up onto your toes for me. 405 00:15:48,042 --> 00:15:51,333 - ♪ Light it up, light it up ♪ 406 00:15:51,417 --> 00:15:53,833 ♪ Like a shooting star, like a... ♪ 407 00:15:53,917 --> 00:15:56,125 - In three, two, one. Hold it. 408 00:15:56,208 --> 00:15:58,000 Beautiful, Brennan. 409 00:15:58,042 --> 00:16:01,792 - ♪ 'Cause nobody else got a brighter star ♪ 410 00:16:01,875 --> 00:16:03,042 ♪ So light it up 411 00:16:03,125 --> 00:16:05,125 - So I'm doing it right? - Yeah, that's good. 412 00:16:05,208 --> 00:16:06,833 - ♪ Yeah, light it up 413 00:16:06,917 --> 00:16:09,292 ♪ Yeah, light it up 414 00:16:09,375 --> 00:16:11,167 ♪ 415 00:16:11,250 --> 00:16:12,792 - A big "hell, yeah" round of applause... 416 00:16:12,875 --> 00:16:14,333 [cheers and applause] 417 00:16:14,417 --> 00:16:16,500 To our friend Brennan for his first class. 418 00:16:16,542 --> 00:16:18,000 Well done. How was it? 419 00:16:18,042 --> 00:16:19,250 - [breathlessly] Thanks for having me. 420 00:16:19,333 --> 00:16:20,500 - Spicy, huh? - Appreciate it. 421 00:16:20,583 --> 00:16:21,833 Can't wait to never see you guys again. 422 00:16:21,917 --> 00:16:23,625 [laughter] 423 00:16:23,708 --> 00:16:25,083 - Fair enough, fair enough. - Just kidding. It was great. 424 00:16:25,167 --> 00:16:26,542 I'll see you guys next Tuesday. 425 00:16:26,667 --> 00:16:28,000 Oh, man, that was good. 426 00:16:28,083 --> 00:16:29,917 - Would you do it again? - Yeah. 427 00:16:30,000 --> 00:16:31,333 - I mean, I do give him credit. 428 00:16:31,417 --> 00:16:33,250 I feel like a lot of guys, like, wouldn't do this. 429 00:16:33,333 --> 00:16:35,958 I'm proud of what he did here tonight. 430 00:16:36,042 --> 00:16:38,042 - It was cool to see you in your element. 431 00:16:38,208 --> 00:16:41,042 Model Emily, everyone look at model Emily. 432 00:16:41,125 --> 00:16:43,292 - Definitely not. I felt under pressure. 433 00:16:43,375 --> 00:16:45,083 - She called me beautiful, and so that was-- 434 00:16:45,167 --> 00:16:46,333 - Well, that's a plus. 435 00:16:46,417 --> 00:16:48,167 Will you come back for compliments? 436 00:16:48,250 --> 00:16:49,958 - I mean, why else are we doing this, right? 437 00:16:50,042 --> 00:16:51,708 - [chuckles] 438 00:16:51,792 --> 00:16:53,417 ♪ 439 00:16:53,500 --> 00:16:57,375 - ♪ Stuck in my head, thinking it's dead ♪ 440 00:16:57,458 --> 00:17:01,042 ♪ It's only just a matter of time ♪ 441 00:17:01,042 --> 00:17:03,500 - First trip to the grocery store together. 442 00:17:03,542 --> 00:17:06,500 We'll be meeting with the other couples for potluck. 443 00:17:06,583 --> 00:17:08,000 - That was it? - Yep. 444 00:17:08,083 --> 00:17:10,667 - That was it? Okay. - Oh, it's responsibly sourced. 445 00:17:10,708 --> 00:17:12,208 [laughs] 446 00:17:12,292 --> 00:17:14,667 ♪ 447 00:17:14,750 --> 00:17:17,167 - Friends! - Hey! 448 00:17:17,208 --> 00:17:20,375 [indistinct chatter and laughter] 449 00:17:20,458 --> 00:17:22,000 - I feel like it's been, like, forever. 450 00:17:22,125 --> 00:17:24,500 - I know. [laughter] 451 00:17:24,583 --> 00:17:27,333 - Yeah, so where is everyone else's stuff they brought? 452 00:17:27,375 --> 00:17:28,583 - You guys each brought one thing. 453 00:17:28,667 --> 00:17:30,083 - You guys brought-- 454 00:17:30,167 --> 00:17:31,417 Yes, we thought that that was-- I'm sorry. 455 00:17:31,500 --> 00:17:33,000 - It's all right. We got the team on our back. 456 00:17:33,042 --> 00:17:34,333 It's fine. - You did. You did. 457 00:17:34,375 --> 00:17:36,292 - If we all brought enough food for 8 people, 458 00:17:36,375 --> 00:17:38,000 we'd be feeding 36 people. - Exactly. 459 00:17:38,125 --> 00:17:40,042 - So... - That's true. 460 00:17:40,125 --> 00:17:42,167 Wow. - Just throwing it out there. 461 00:17:42,208 --> 00:17:44,042 - God, you're [bleep] brilliant. 462 00:17:44,042 --> 00:17:47,250 [laughter] - It's true. 463 00:17:47,375 --> 00:17:49,583 - Lauren and Orion are not here right now. 464 00:17:49,667 --> 00:17:51,542 - I mean, I've been talking to Lauren, 465 00:17:51,625 --> 00:17:54,000 and I think she's gonna come tonight. 466 00:17:54,042 --> 00:17:55,750 I think she's gonna-- 467 00:17:55,833 --> 00:17:57,833 I don't know about Orion, 'cause I don't know what you-- 468 00:17:57,958 --> 00:17:59,167 - I have not heard if Orion is coming. 469 00:17:59,292 --> 00:18:00,500 - Have they moved in? 470 00:18:00,625 --> 00:18:02,792 - My understanding is-- I don't think they have. 471 00:18:02,875 --> 00:18:03,875 - I love carrots. - Me too. 472 00:18:04,042 --> 00:18:05,167 - I hate carrots. - Me too. 473 00:18:05,250 --> 00:18:06,583 - I like celery. That's it. 474 00:18:06,667 --> 00:18:07,667 - Really? - Celery? 475 00:18:07,792 --> 00:18:09,000 - Yeah. - There's nothing-- 476 00:18:09,083 --> 00:18:10,125 - That's the worst veggie of all. 477 00:18:10,208 --> 00:18:11,750 - Hey, guys, hey. - Oh, hi. 478 00:18:11,875 --> 00:18:13,000 - Hey. Oh, see? 479 00:18:13,083 --> 00:18:15,458 This is proper. - Look at her. 480 00:18:15,542 --> 00:18:17,333 - Nice. - Oh. 481 00:18:17,458 --> 00:18:19,458 - That is the spread of the century. 482 00:18:19,542 --> 00:18:21,167 - Give me mine. Hype me up. Hype me up. 483 00:18:21,208 --> 00:18:24,250 - Where is Orion? 484 00:18:24,333 --> 00:18:26,333 - I actually don't know. I thought he was gonna be here. 485 00:18:26,375 --> 00:18:27,500 ♪ 486 00:18:27,542 --> 00:18:30,083 I'm not super excited. I'm, like, 50-50. 487 00:18:30,167 --> 00:18:32,583 I'm really excited to see everyone 488 00:18:32,667 --> 00:18:34,750 and hear their good news with their marriages, 489 00:18:34,833 --> 00:18:37,333 but I'm not looking forward to seeing Orion. 490 00:18:37,417 --> 00:18:40,833 And as far as the divorce, it just sucks. 491 00:18:40,958 --> 00:18:44,167 But I'm okay with letting everyone know what's going on. 492 00:18:44,292 --> 00:18:47,000 - You're not moved in. - No, we never moved in. 493 00:18:47,042 --> 00:18:49,333 - Wow. - Yeah. 494 00:18:49,333 --> 00:18:50,292 - There he is. - Hi. 495 00:18:50,375 --> 00:18:51,667 - What up? - Hey. 496 00:18:51,708 --> 00:18:53,667 - Oh, he brought dessert. 497 00:18:53,792 --> 00:18:55,625 - I brought dessert. - Wow. 498 00:18:55,708 --> 00:18:57,250 - Yeah. 499 00:18:57,333 --> 00:18:58,833 - How are you? - Good. How are you? 500 00:18:58,875 --> 00:19:00,333 - Hey. - Where can I put these? 501 00:19:00,458 --> 00:19:02,417 - Put it here. - Okay. So-- 502 00:19:02,542 --> 00:19:04,333 - That looks bomb. - Yeah, so... 503 00:19:04,417 --> 00:19:06,083 - We have, like, a full meal. - Holy moly. 504 00:19:06,208 --> 00:19:09,250 - Yeah, so toffee cake, strawberry, and then tuxedo 505 00:19:09,333 --> 00:19:11,583 from a friend who owns a bakery here in Denver. 506 00:19:11,667 --> 00:19:14,083 - That looks delish. Thank you, Orion. 507 00:19:14,208 --> 00:19:15,958 - How were your housewarmings? 508 00:19:16,042 --> 00:19:17,625 - Ours was good. 509 00:19:17,708 --> 00:19:20,625 We just played games, and then I had a one-on-one 510 00:19:20,708 --> 00:19:24,375 with her friends, or two-on-one, and got grilled. 511 00:19:24,458 --> 00:19:26,208 - I think my plan backfired. 512 00:19:26,292 --> 00:19:27,667 I was like, oh, everyone will have wigs. 513 00:19:27,750 --> 00:19:29,458 Everyone will be, like, open and fun, 514 00:19:29,458 --> 00:19:32,042 and then the personas got a little out of control. 515 00:19:32,167 --> 00:19:33,458 - They assumed other identities. 516 00:19:33,542 --> 00:19:35,500 - Uh-oh, you got roasted? 517 00:19:35,583 --> 00:19:39,583 - Yeah, Emily and I have been going through our bumps. 518 00:19:39,708 --> 00:19:43,625 There's not really, like, a romantic bond yet, 519 00:19:43,708 --> 00:19:46,750 so we're just trying to work through that 520 00:19:46,875 --> 00:19:48,833 as difficult as it is. 521 00:19:48,917 --> 00:19:51,625 Just want to be open with you guys on where we're at, 522 00:19:51,708 --> 00:19:53,833 because we were doing so good on the honeymoon, 523 00:19:53,833 --> 00:19:56,417 and then reality hit, and things changed, so... 524 00:19:56,500 --> 00:19:58,208 - Yeah, don't feel guilty. - Yeah. 525 00:19:58,292 --> 00:19:59,875 - This is a lot for everyone, I think. 526 00:19:59,958 --> 00:20:01,625 both: Yeah. - For sure. 527 00:20:01,708 --> 00:20:03,667 - Relationships are work. I mean, you guys are still-- 528 00:20:03,750 --> 00:20:05,042 even through that, 529 00:20:05,208 --> 00:20:07,167 you guys are still sticking it through together. 530 00:20:07,208 --> 00:20:09,125 - Yeah. - That's commendable. 531 00:20:09,208 --> 00:20:10,542 - Thank you. 532 00:20:10,625 --> 00:20:12,375 - That's very commendable, actually. 533 00:20:12,375 --> 00:20:14,000 - We're trying. - I agree. 534 00:20:14,083 --> 00:20:15,750 - Because it's easy to just leave 535 00:20:15,833 --> 00:20:17,333 when stuff gets hard, so... 536 00:20:17,375 --> 00:20:19,000 And you guys did it. - Yeah. 537 00:20:19,125 --> 00:20:20,708 [indistinct chatter] 538 00:20:20,792 --> 00:20:23,000 - It's definitely surprising to hear. 539 00:20:23,083 --> 00:20:25,375 And I know a lot has happened with Cameron and I, 540 00:20:25,500 --> 00:20:27,333 but we kind of assumed that, you know, 541 00:20:27,417 --> 00:20:29,625 everyone else is happy with where they're at, 542 00:20:29,708 --> 00:20:31,000 but we could be wrong. 543 00:20:31,083 --> 00:20:33,000 Who knows? I don't know. 544 00:20:33,083 --> 00:20:36,000 - I guess we really didn't talk 545 00:20:36,083 --> 00:20:37,875 to everybody since the honeymoon, 546 00:20:38,000 --> 00:20:41,125 but Lauren and I... 547 00:20:41,208 --> 00:20:45,000 I have decided to get a divorce. 548 00:20:45,083 --> 00:20:47,542 - I, not Lauren and I. - Yeah, I. 549 00:20:47,625 --> 00:20:49,833 ♪ 550 00:20:49,875 --> 00:20:53,667 - If you don't mind me asking, when did this happen? 551 00:20:53,708 --> 00:20:55,542 - I think you can speak to that, 552 00:20:55,667 --> 00:20:57,333 since it happened so many different times. 553 00:20:57,417 --> 00:20:59,292 - Yeah, I mean, you know, just coming back 554 00:20:59,375 --> 00:21:02,000 from the honeymoon, just taking that break and so... 555 00:21:02,125 --> 00:21:03,833 - That's when he asked for a divorce. 556 00:21:03,958 --> 00:21:06,333 - And so, yeah, so that's when I first brought up 557 00:21:06,417 --> 00:21:08,667 wanting the divorce. 558 00:21:08,750 --> 00:21:11,958 But everything that kind of just followed after that 559 00:21:11,958 --> 00:21:15,833 made it more real when we had our discussion with Dr. Pia. 560 00:21:15,917 --> 00:21:17,625 ♪ 561 00:21:17,708 --> 00:21:19,833 - Lauren, do you feel like Orion gave this a chance? 562 00:21:19,917 --> 00:21:22,167 - No, I don't. 563 00:21:22,292 --> 00:21:25,958 Yes, we had a race dis-- 564 00:21:26,042 --> 00:21:27,333 not even a disagreement. 565 00:21:27,417 --> 00:21:30,250 I said a horrible, offensive joke 566 00:21:30,375 --> 00:21:32,750 on, like, day two of the honeymoon. 567 00:21:32,833 --> 00:21:37,500 But, like, I was called a failure in the marriage. 568 00:21:37,500 --> 00:21:40,083 You did tell me that I failed you and I failed the marriage. 569 00:21:40,167 --> 00:21:42,167 You did slut-shame me 570 00:21:42,292 --> 00:21:46,083 for having sex two months before the wedding. 571 00:21:46,208 --> 00:21:49,208 You've never apologized for the way you made me feel. 572 00:21:49,208 --> 00:21:51,208 You just cried about how it made you feel bad 573 00:21:51,292 --> 00:21:52,917 that you made me feel bad. 574 00:21:53,042 --> 00:21:54,917 - Well, I did, that night. 575 00:21:54,917 --> 00:21:56,792 - [voice breaking] You did not even apologize 576 00:21:56,875 --> 00:21:58,667 for calling me a failure and that I failed in this marriage 577 00:21:58,750 --> 00:22:00,000 and for not having your back. 578 00:22:00,042 --> 00:22:02,208 So don't sit here and say you've apologized 579 00:22:02,292 --> 00:22:03,542 for those words unless you really felt them. 580 00:22:03,625 --> 00:22:05,417 And if you didn't really feel them, 581 00:22:05,500 --> 00:22:07,208 that hurts even more for you to say 582 00:22:07,333 --> 00:22:08,833 that I failed this marriage and I failed you, 583 00:22:08,875 --> 00:22:10,500 when all I've been doing is assuring you 584 00:22:10,542 --> 00:22:12,167 that you haven't failed. 585 00:22:12,250 --> 00:22:15,208 ♪ 586 00:22:15,292 --> 00:22:17,458 - Well, I don't think you have failed. 587 00:22:17,542 --> 00:22:19,125 - Then why would you say that? 588 00:22:19,208 --> 00:22:20,583 - Like, there-- [scoffs] 589 00:22:20,667 --> 00:22:22,458 I'm not changing what I'm saying. 590 00:22:22,542 --> 00:22:24,958 - But you literally do change what you say, Orion. 591 00:22:25,042 --> 00:22:26,833 You change it every moment. 592 00:22:26,875 --> 00:22:29,625 - If that's your truth, that's your truth, but, I mean-- 593 00:22:29,708 --> 00:22:31,500 - You're such a gaslighter, bro. 594 00:22:31,583 --> 00:22:32,667 - No. 595 00:22:32,750 --> 00:22:34,333 - And I'm about to bring that up. 596 00:22:34,417 --> 00:22:36,250 You are such a gaslighter. - Okay. 597 00:22:36,333 --> 00:22:38,375 - [clears throat] 598 00:22:38,458 --> 00:22:40,167 - I'm not gonna sit here and let you say otherwise, 599 00:22:40,250 --> 00:22:41,667 because you know it's the truth. 600 00:22:41,750 --> 00:22:43,417 ♪ 601 00:22:43,542 --> 00:22:46,583 I have been accountable for my actions this entire time. 602 00:22:46,667 --> 00:22:48,542 And if you're not gonna hold yourself accountable, I will. 603 00:22:48,625 --> 00:22:51,042 ♪ 604 00:22:51,125 --> 00:22:52,500 - Well, I don't know 605 00:22:52,542 --> 00:22:55,125 what I need to hold myself accountable with. 606 00:22:55,208 --> 00:22:58,375 The only thing that I really came to a conclusion on 607 00:22:58,458 --> 00:23:00,958 is that how I felt about her in the beginning 608 00:23:01,042 --> 00:23:03,583 is not how I was feeling about her in that moment. 609 00:23:03,667 --> 00:23:05,917 And that hasn't quite come back. 610 00:23:06,042 --> 00:23:08,250 ♪ 611 00:23:08,375 --> 00:23:11,250 And so for that, you know, I don't think 612 00:23:11,375 --> 00:23:15,042 it would be beneficial to continue on 613 00:23:15,125 --> 00:23:16,625 with the marriage, 614 00:23:16,708 --> 00:23:19,000 because I know in my heart I'm already out. 615 00:23:19,042 --> 00:23:20,708 ♪ 616 00:23:20,792 --> 00:23:24,333 - Do either of you feel like you gave up too fast 617 00:23:24,458 --> 00:23:26,500 or, like, you didn't let the process play out? 618 00:23:26,542 --> 00:23:27,667 - I don't think I gave up 619 00:23:27,792 --> 00:23:30,083 because I didn't ask for the divorce. 620 00:23:30,167 --> 00:23:31,958 I was ready to stay married. 621 00:23:32,083 --> 00:23:35,042 - I don't think that I'm not giving it a chance. 622 00:23:35,167 --> 00:23:37,000 You know, I feel like I tried, 623 00:23:37,042 --> 00:23:40,292 and it was just small steps back with each argument. 624 00:23:40,375 --> 00:23:41,292 ♪ 625 00:23:41,375 --> 00:23:43,625 - How? 626 00:23:43,708 --> 00:23:48,667 - How easy it is for us to fall out of a easy conversation 627 00:23:48,708 --> 00:23:51,042 and then kind of start going back and forth with each other, 628 00:23:51,167 --> 00:23:54,292 that's something that has been really consistent. 629 00:23:54,375 --> 00:23:56,333 And it's just... 630 00:23:56,375 --> 00:23:59,583 There is a disconnect in our communication. 631 00:23:59,708 --> 00:24:01,708 You know, I'm specifically talking... 632 00:24:01,792 --> 00:24:03,667 - But where was the disconnect? - With the honeymoon. 633 00:24:03,792 --> 00:24:05,625 I mean, there was disconnect all throughout the honeymoon. 634 00:24:05,708 --> 00:24:08,750 - Sometimes I feel like you'll say things, and I'm like, huh? 635 00:24:08,833 --> 00:24:11,708 - As a whole, it does feel like there's a big disconnect 636 00:24:11,792 --> 00:24:14,042 when it comes to communicating. 637 00:24:14,125 --> 00:24:15,667 - 'Cause we don't communicate. 638 00:24:15,708 --> 00:24:17,000 ♪ 639 00:24:17,083 --> 00:24:19,042 - Lauren, you're not alone. 640 00:24:19,125 --> 00:24:21,458 Um... 641 00:24:21,458 --> 00:24:23,542 I mean, I can only speak to our experience, 642 00:24:23,625 --> 00:24:26,000 but it's been very difficult for Clare and I. 643 00:24:26,083 --> 00:24:29,333 There are some big things that we just simply don't align on. 644 00:24:29,417 --> 00:24:31,833 - Yeah. Huge things. - And... 645 00:24:31,917 --> 00:24:34,667 we're having chemistry, romance issues. 646 00:24:34,708 --> 00:24:38,042 We don't agree on how we would raise our children-- 647 00:24:38,167 --> 00:24:40,625 religious versus nonreligious. 648 00:24:40,708 --> 00:24:43,542 - And, you know, I respect him so much 649 00:24:43,625 --> 00:24:46,500 and care for him so much, and it makes me sad. 650 00:24:46,583 --> 00:24:49,625 - Like, the best person maybe, ever I've met. 651 00:24:49,708 --> 00:24:52,458 Like, I am--truly, truly... - Oh, that's so nice. 652 00:24:52,542 --> 00:24:56,458 - I am head over heels with how much... 653 00:24:56,542 --> 00:24:58,333 - Don't make me cry. 654 00:24:58,375 --> 00:24:59,625 Don't do it. - Okay. 655 00:24:59,708 --> 00:25:01,333 - [laughs] - You're gonna make me cry. 656 00:25:01,375 --> 00:25:03,000 I haven't cried since the second grade. 657 00:25:03,042 --> 00:25:03,958 Come on. 658 00:25:04,042 --> 00:25:05,708 ♪ 659 00:25:05,792 --> 00:25:10,500 - I can empathize with, like, how difficult that is to see 660 00:25:10,583 --> 00:25:12,458 and, like, to be confused by, to be-- 661 00:25:12,542 --> 00:25:15,792 - Yeah, we do have... 662 00:25:15,875 --> 00:25:18,667 albeit a tiring chemistry, 663 00:25:18,750 --> 00:25:21,125 we do have a chemistry that is special to ourselves. 664 00:25:21,208 --> 00:25:22,333 But it is a-- 665 00:25:22,417 --> 00:25:25,000 it is a fiery... 666 00:25:25,125 --> 00:25:27,625 [laughter] 667 00:25:27,708 --> 00:25:29,417 - You're not wrong. He's not wrong. 668 00:25:29,500 --> 00:25:30,833 That is accurate. 669 00:25:30,917 --> 00:25:32,417 - I mean, you know, we get along. 670 00:25:32,500 --> 00:25:33,833 I mean, that could easily be a disaster. 671 00:25:33,958 --> 00:25:35,625 - But I love it 'cause I think we challenge 672 00:25:35,708 --> 00:25:37,250 each other in that way, too. - Yeah. 673 00:25:37,333 --> 00:25:39,000 - I think that's what the experts saw 674 00:25:39,042 --> 00:25:40,542 is that they knew that we would challenge each other, 675 00:25:40,625 --> 00:25:42,167 intentionally... - And we want to be challenged. 676 00:25:42,250 --> 00:25:43,792 - That we're both passionate about our opinions, beliefs, 677 00:25:43,875 --> 00:25:45,500 and we're willing to share that with each 678 00:25:45,583 --> 00:25:46,875 other very openly and safely. 679 00:25:46,958 --> 00:25:48,625 So part of me is like, yeah, the experts 680 00:25:48,708 --> 00:25:49,875 nailed it there, for sure. 681 00:25:49,958 --> 00:25:51,375 - So nothing's been decided. 682 00:25:51,500 --> 00:25:52,833 You're still sort of sorting that out? 683 00:25:52,875 --> 00:25:54,000 - Yeah, we're just kind of just... 684 00:25:54,083 --> 00:25:55,333 Yeah. - Yeah. 685 00:25:55,417 --> 00:25:56,292 - Figuring it out. - That's okay. 686 00:25:56,375 --> 00:25:57,458 - Yeah. - Yep. 687 00:25:57,542 --> 00:25:59,792 - Yeah, nothing is--yeah, so... 688 00:25:59,875 --> 00:26:02,000 Yeah. Sheesh, I'm sweating. 689 00:26:02,042 --> 00:26:03,125 [laughing] I'm like... 690 00:26:03,208 --> 00:26:06,292 Like, that was a lot. 691 00:26:06,375 --> 00:26:07,833 - How are you guys doing? 692 00:26:07,875 --> 00:26:09,708 - This has been a very stressful conversation. 693 00:26:09,792 --> 00:26:12,000 [chuckles] I'm not handling it well. 694 00:26:12,042 --> 00:26:13,292 - You're doing great. - [chuckles] 695 00:26:13,375 --> 00:26:14,792 But, no, we're doing good. 696 00:26:14,875 --> 00:26:19,500 I mean, we had the similar religion kind of issues 697 00:26:19,542 --> 00:26:24,125 and my slower intimacy speed, but we're both, 698 00:26:24,208 --> 00:26:25,750 like, pretty open-minded. 699 00:26:25,833 --> 00:26:27,542 And, you know, I still need time to, like, work 700 00:26:27,667 --> 00:26:29,375 through certain things. 701 00:26:29,458 --> 00:26:32,958 That's kind of why we went down the path of figuring out 702 00:26:33,042 --> 00:26:37,667 one another before we really talk about those big pieces, 703 00:26:37,750 --> 00:26:39,667 because for me, it's, like, important to understand 704 00:26:39,792 --> 00:26:42,042 who she is at her heart 705 00:26:42,125 --> 00:26:45,417 before we talk about things that could, like, really-- 706 00:26:45,542 --> 00:26:47,167 I don't know--tear us apart. 707 00:26:47,250 --> 00:26:49,750 ♪ 708 00:26:49,875 --> 00:26:52,833 It has been hard. - Yeah, for sure, for sure. 709 00:26:52,917 --> 00:26:55,042 - But her support and everything is, like, really... 710 00:26:55,125 --> 00:26:56,250 - Yeah. 711 00:26:56,375 --> 00:26:58,500 - Helpful and meaningful for me. 712 00:26:58,583 --> 00:27:00,208 - Yeah, I think I'm getting emotional right now 713 00:27:00,333 --> 00:27:03,292 'cause it's difficult to see, like, all of us... 714 00:27:03,375 --> 00:27:06,250 ♪ 715 00:27:06,333 --> 00:27:07,750 Yeah... [laughs] 716 00:27:07,833 --> 00:27:09,333 [crying] To, like, know that each of us 717 00:27:09,417 --> 00:27:10,583 are, like, struggling in that way. 718 00:27:10,667 --> 00:27:12,333 Like, I know how hard it can be 719 00:27:12,417 --> 00:27:14,500 and then to know that each of you are feeling that 720 00:27:14,542 --> 00:27:15,833 is really hard. 721 00:27:15,917 --> 00:27:17,375 Now I want to hug all of you. 722 00:27:17,500 --> 00:27:19,125 [both chuckle] Sorry. 723 00:27:19,208 --> 00:27:20,667 ♪ 724 00:27:20,750 --> 00:27:22,583 - I have a mix of emotions 725 00:27:22,708 --> 00:27:25,417 with hearing that all the other couples 726 00:27:25,500 --> 00:27:27,833 are experiencing ups and downs, 727 00:27:27,958 --> 00:27:30,500 but they're still, you know, navigating their marriage 728 00:27:30,542 --> 00:27:32,042 as best as possible. 729 00:27:32,125 --> 00:27:34,458 It does feel comforting that they understand. 730 00:27:34,542 --> 00:27:35,667 I just wish they weren't going 731 00:27:35,792 --> 00:27:37,917 through their own challenges, too. 732 00:27:38,000 --> 00:27:40,500 - We can do a group hug. - Yeah, can we? 733 00:27:40,583 --> 00:27:42,458 [laughter] 734 00:27:42,542 --> 00:27:44,500 - I'm very excited 735 00:27:44,583 --> 00:27:47,458 to just continue on with life 736 00:27:47,542 --> 00:27:49,000 and know that I tried my best. 737 00:27:49,125 --> 00:27:51,083 [sniffles] 738 00:27:51,208 --> 00:27:53,625 ♪ 739 00:27:53,708 --> 00:27:56,375 [sobs] 740 00:27:56,458 --> 00:27:58,667 ♪ 741 00:27:58,750 --> 00:28:00,833 [sniffles] 742 00:28:00,917 --> 00:28:05,042 ♪ 743 00:28:05,125 --> 00:28:07,583 I'm okay. 744 00:28:07,667 --> 00:28:09,125 I'm okay. 745 00:28:09,208 --> 00:28:13,708 - ♪ No, I'm never gonna cry again ♪ 746 00:28:13,792 --> 00:28:17,000 ♪ Yeah, I've done it for the last time ♪ 747 00:28:17,042 --> 00:28:18,667 - [sniffles] 748 00:28:18,708 --> 00:28:23,375 - ♪ No, I'm never gonna cry again ♪ 749 00:28:23,458 --> 00:28:26,292 ♪ When it's over you 750 00:28:26,375 --> 00:28:29,000 ♪ Goodbye 751 00:28:29,083 --> 00:28:31,458 ♪ Goodbye 752 00:28:31,542 --> 00:28:33,292 ♪ Goodbye 753 00:28:37,333 --> 00:28:38,917 [dreamy music] 754 00:28:38,917 --> 00:28:42,500 ♪ 755 00:28:42,583 --> 00:28:44,250 - Ooh. - Well, that was something. 756 00:28:44,375 --> 00:28:45,708 ♪ 757 00:28:45,833 --> 00:28:48,667 - That was draining on many levels. 758 00:28:48,750 --> 00:28:51,292 - Oh, yeah. - [chuckles] 759 00:28:51,375 --> 00:28:53,000 - Like, holy cow. 760 00:28:53,083 --> 00:28:55,667 Oh, my God. Yeah, I just... 761 00:28:55,750 --> 00:28:58,792 I guess I didn't realize, like, you know, 762 00:28:58,875 --> 00:29:00,792 where the other couples were at. 763 00:29:00,875 --> 00:29:03,000 Like, I thought we were, like, down in the dumps. 764 00:29:03,083 --> 00:29:06,583 [chuckles] And realizing that we aren't the only ones, 765 00:29:06,667 --> 00:29:08,542 I think it gave me a better understanding 766 00:29:08,542 --> 00:29:11,500 that, like, we aren't doing as poor as maybe I thought. 767 00:29:11,583 --> 00:29:13,667 - Yes, we have potentially 768 00:29:13,708 --> 00:29:15,750 insurmountable problems. - Yeah. 769 00:29:15,833 --> 00:29:17,583 - But at least we're talking about it. 770 00:29:17,667 --> 00:29:19,792 - Yeah, right, right. 771 00:29:19,875 --> 00:29:22,542 - I mean what I heard from Austin and Becca is that 772 00:29:22,625 --> 00:29:24,167 they have major problems... - Mm-hmm. 773 00:29:24,208 --> 00:29:26,833 - And they're just not talking about it. 774 00:29:26,875 --> 00:29:30,250 They're just steering clear of the conversation. 775 00:29:30,333 --> 00:29:31,917 - 'Cause they're scared... - Yeah. 776 00:29:32,042 --> 00:29:33,583 - To confront it, you know, but-- 777 00:29:33,667 --> 00:29:35,333 - It seems unhealthy. - Right. 778 00:29:35,458 --> 00:29:37,125 - But, you know, I'm not gonna tell anyone 779 00:29:37,208 --> 00:29:39,042 how to live their lives. - Right. 780 00:29:39,167 --> 00:29:41,083 - And then we've got Brennan and Emily. 781 00:29:41,167 --> 00:29:43,375 - I don't think they're on the same page about something. 782 00:29:43,458 --> 00:29:44,833 - Something's up. 783 00:29:44,917 --> 00:29:46,667 - I think they're just not being specific enough 784 00:29:46,708 --> 00:29:48,792 about the issues, which speaks a lot 785 00:29:48,875 --> 00:29:50,625 to maybe their relationship, too. 786 00:29:50,708 --> 00:29:52,125 - Mm-hmm. - You know what I mean? 787 00:29:52,208 --> 00:29:53,667 I think they're not being honest, really. 788 00:29:53,750 --> 00:29:55,333 And it's like-- So I don't know. 789 00:29:55,375 --> 00:29:57,667 This whole thing has made me realize, like, 790 00:29:57,750 --> 00:29:59,625 I'm really good at being honest. 791 00:29:59,708 --> 00:30:01,375 You're really good at being honest. 792 00:30:01,458 --> 00:30:03,875 And as long as we continue that for the rest of our lives, 793 00:30:03,958 --> 00:30:06,667 that's gonna be really beneficial to us. 794 00:30:06,708 --> 00:30:07,958 ♪ 795 00:30:08,042 --> 00:30:11,167 - Yeah, but in the spirit of being honest, 796 00:30:11,250 --> 00:30:13,792 you know, this is just not gonna sound right, 797 00:30:13,875 --> 00:30:15,458 but I'm gonna say it anyways. 798 00:30:15,542 --> 00:30:19,875 I have been inspired... 799 00:30:19,958 --> 00:30:23,125 to actually consider myself 800 00:30:23,208 --> 00:30:25,750 a little more moving forward. - Mm-hmm. 801 00:30:25,875 --> 00:30:27,708 ♪ 802 00:30:27,833 --> 00:30:29,708 - I look at Orion and Lauren, 803 00:30:29,833 --> 00:30:32,333 and, yeah, okay, there's definitely... 804 00:30:32,417 --> 00:30:34,792 something might have been cut short there 805 00:30:34,875 --> 00:30:36,833 and maybe selfishly so. - Mm-hmm. 806 00:30:36,917 --> 00:30:39,083 - And I think Orion was willing to say, 807 00:30:39,208 --> 00:30:40,917 this is just what I need. 808 00:30:41,000 --> 00:30:43,000 And to be honest... - [clears throat] 809 00:30:43,125 --> 00:30:45,750 - While the situation is very unfortunate... 810 00:30:45,833 --> 00:30:47,542 - [sniffs] 811 00:30:47,667 --> 00:30:49,958 - I was actually inspired to think, 812 00:30:50,042 --> 00:30:52,417 okay, it's very unlikely 813 00:30:52,500 --> 00:30:56,208 that we're going to be able to move past our roadblock. 814 00:30:56,333 --> 00:30:58,167 - Mm-hmm. 815 00:30:58,250 --> 00:31:02,083 - The biggest hurdle for our relationship 816 00:31:02,167 --> 00:31:04,125 is the lack of physical intimacy 817 00:31:04,208 --> 00:31:08,333 and the clash between our religious views. 818 00:31:08,375 --> 00:31:10,833 We're just stuck between a rock and a hard place. 819 00:31:10,917 --> 00:31:14,167 Like, is there an adjustment that we need to make? 820 00:31:14,250 --> 00:31:17,500 ♪ 821 00:31:17,500 --> 00:31:19,000 - I don't know. 822 00:31:19,083 --> 00:31:23,167 - ♪ I've been waiting for too long ♪ 823 00:31:23,250 --> 00:31:26,333 ♪ 824 00:31:26,375 --> 00:31:28,167 - Like, sheesh. 825 00:31:28,250 --> 00:31:31,583 ♪ 826 00:31:31,708 --> 00:31:35,708 - ♪ I'm so tempted to tell you ♪ 827 00:31:35,792 --> 00:31:37,167 ♪ That you might be the one 828 00:31:37,292 --> 00:31:39,833 - Welcome to my place. It's the same as yours. 829 00:31:39,917 --> 00:31:41,250 - I like your guys' little, like, horn. 830 00:31:41,375 --> 00:31:42,792 - Thanks. 831 00:31:42,875 --> 00:31:43,833 - Why do you guys like tribal vibes? 832 00:31:43,833 --> 00:31:45,167 - [chuckles] 833 00:31:45,250 --> 00:31:48,083 ♪ 834 00:31:48,208 --> 00:31:50,917 - What's up, brother? - What up, my guy? 835 00:31:51,000 --> 00:31:53,833 - Long night, huh? - Yeah. [chuckles] 836 00:31:53,917 --> 00:31:56,208 - So, before I, like, step into me, 837 00:31:56,292 --> 00:31:58,125 I also want to hear how things are going for you. 838 00:31:58,208 --> 00:32:00,708 - Don't want to sing for you. 839 00:32:00,792 --> 00:32:03,958 Ours is, like, relatively... 840 00:32:04,042 --> 00:32:07,167 I wouldn't say easy, but, like, it's, like, big issues 841 00:32:07,292 --> 00:32:08,875 that are just gonna take time. - Yep. 842 00:32:08,958 --> 00:32:11,292 - Things are good. Things are good. 843 00:32:11,292 --> 00:32:12,833 - Awesome. 844 00:32:12,875 --> 00:32:14,667 - I just don't prescribe to the notion 845 00:32:14,750 --> 00:32:17,500 that we have to figure out everything right now, you know? 846 00:32:17,542 --> 00:32:19,792 - So I just have to, like... 847 00:32:19,875 --> 00:32:22,042 - Be patient? - Yeah. [chuckles] 848 00:32:22,125 --> 00:32:24,167 - Which, like, I feel like I am being very patient. 849 00:32:24,292 --> 00:32:25,667 - Yeah. 850 00:32:25,708 --> 00:32:29,667 - I wasn't expecting for us to kind of take a turn. 851 00:32:29,750 --> 00:32:31,667 I, like, thought things were fine during the honeymoon. 852 00:32:31,792 --> 00:32:33,667 - Yeah. both: They seemed fine. 853 00:32:33,792 --> 00:32:35,833 [chuckles] Like, liked me a lot, 854 00:32:35,958 --> 00:32:39,458 like, found me attractive, like... 855 00:32:39,542 --> 00:32:43,000 And then something is happening right now. 856 00:32:43,083 --> 00:32:44,375 He's, like, shutting off. - Mm. 857 00:32:44,375 --> 00:32:45,958 - And I was like, that's literally the one thing, 858 00:32:46,042 --> 00:32:47,667 like, you just can't do. - Mm-hmm. 859 00:32:47,708 --> 00:32:49,250 - And I've asked him, like-- 860 00:32:49,250 --> 00:32:50,917 And the one thing he won't tell me 861 00:32:51,000 --> 00:32:52,333 is, like, physical attraction. 862 00:32:52,417 --> 00:32:55,083 It's weird. - So you've directly asked him. 863 00:32:55,083 --> 00:32:57,292 - Yeah. - He is attracted to you. 864 00:32:57,375 --> 00:33:00,125 There's no way that, like, it's not there, 865 00:33:00,208 --> 00:33:01,833 so it feels like there's something else 866 00:33:01,917 --> 00:33:03,042 that he doesn't even know. 867 00:33:03,125 --> 00:33:04,833 - That's what I, like, feel, too. 868 00:33:04,917 --> 00:33:07,167 - Yeah. 869 00:33:07,208 --> 00:33:09,125 - Yeah, so it was a pretty big bomb that you dropped 870 00:33:09,208 --> 00:33:12,833 about, like, the romantic feelings, all that. 871 00:33:12,917 --> 00:33:17,167 Do you think attraction and, like, romance 872 00:33:17,208 --> 00:33:19,583 and, like, chemistry-- is that, like, something 873 00:33:19,708 --> 00:33:21,500 that you need to have from the beginning, 874 00:33:21,542 --> 00:33:23,208 or is it something that, like, can grow over time 875 00:33:23,292 --> 00:33:24,667 as you get to know someone? 876 00:33:24,750 --> 00:33:26,542 - My past-- it's been immediate. 877 00:33:26,625 --> 00:33:30,042 So this is, like, very uncharted territory for me. 878 00:33:30,125 --> 00:33:32,167 I did this because I wanted to trust the experts 879 00:33:32,250 --> 00:33:34,208 and do things differently, 880 00:33:34,292 --> 00:33:36,333 not anticipating that this would be one of my obstacles. 881 00:33:36,458 --> 00:33:39,250 But now that it is, you know, I told everyone 882 00:33:39,333 --> 00:33:42,333 I wanted to trust the process, and that's what I'm gonna do. 883 00:33:42,375 --> 00:33:45,875 Divorce is not an option for me in this, but it's just like-- 884 00:33:46,000 --> 00:33:47,667 I don't know, honestly. - Yeah. 885 00:33:47,708 --> 00:33:50,167 - It's just like, you know, if I can take a pill for that 886 00:33:50,250 --> 00:33:54,083 and have chemistry, I would so that this could work, 887 00:33:54,167 --> 00:33:56,958 but, you know, we got to do it the natural way, so... 888 00:33:57,042 --> 00:33:59,500 - Yeah, yeah, yeah. 889 00:33:59,583 --> 00:34:00,917 I mean, it's hard. 890 00:34:01,042 --> 00:34:03,000 - It's hard. 891 00:34:03,125 --> 00:34:05,167 - I do believe it was there. - Yeah. 892 00:34:05,208 --> 00:34:07,000 - And I still think it is there. 893 00:34:07,083 --> 00:34:08,750 - Yeah. - Yeah, I'm not gonna, like, 894 00:34:08,833 --> 00:34:11,542 harp on it anymore, but it's... 895 00:34:11,625 --> 00:34:13,542 it's just more of, like, I just want to make sure 896 00:34:13,625 --> 00:34:15,458 I'm, like, playing it right moving forward. 897 00:34:15,542 --> 00:34:17,333 - Are you playing it right is you being, 898 00:34:17,458 --> 00:34:19,208 like, your unfiltered self and, like-- 899 00:34:19,208 --> 00:34:20,875 - That's the only way I know how to be. 900 00:34:21,000 --> 00:34:22,750 - And you know-- 901 00:34:22,833 --> 00:34:24,333 Whether he's attracted to you, 902 00:34:24,500 --> 00:34:26,458 you know how attractive you are, right? 903 00:34:26,542 --> 00:34:28,458 - Thank you. [chuckles] - Do you know that? 904 00:34:28,542 --> 00:34:31,167 - I mean, this week has been tough, 905 00:34:31,333 --> 00:34:33,167 but I have learned a lot about myself. 906 00:34:33,208 --> 00:34:34,792 Like, I'm hitting limits, like... 907 00:34:34,875 --> 00:34:37,583 [crying] I didn't even know, like, I was capable of. 908 00:34:37,667 --> 00:34:40,458 Like, I've learned, like, I am, like, stronger 909 00:34:40,542 --> 00:34:43,417 and, like, more in tune with my emotions 910 00:34:43,500 --> 00:34:45,667 for not having a relationship. 911 00:34:45,708 --> 00:34:48,625 But like, now it's, like, this is, like, why I didn't date, 912 00:34:48,708 --> 00:34:50,125 like, for these, like-- 913 00:34:50,208 --> 00:34:51,667 I need someone who was, like, sure of me 914 00:34:51,750 --> 00:34:53,333 and, like, sure of themselves. 915 00:34:53,417 --> 00:34:55,875 Like, it's--but I don't want to give up because I do believe, 916 00:34:56,000 --> 00:34:58,208 like, a lot's there. 917 00:34:58,208 --> 00:35:00,333 And it's also hard to, like, hear him. 918 00:35:00,417 --> 00:35:02,917 He just talks about, like, the romance 919 00:35:03,000 --> 00:35:04,458 and, like, whatever that is 920 00:35:04,583 --> 00:35:06,833 and, like, just doesn't give me direct answers. 921 00:35:06,917 --> 00:35:09,333 Like, I just don't know, like, what to do 922 00:35:09,417 --> 00:35:11,417 other than just do nothing. 923 00:35:11,500 --> 00:35:13,750 - And then that just leaves you in this, like, gray area, 924 00:35:13,833 --> 00:35:15,375 which is so hard. 925 00:35:15,458 --> 00:35:17,917 - I don't know what it's gonna take for something 926 00:35:18,000 --> 00:35:19,167 to get through to him. 927 00:35:19,250 --> 00:35:21,000 - ♪ Unresolved 928 00:35:21,042 --> 00:35:23,083 ♪ Unresolved 929 00:35:27,333 --> 00:35:29,208 - ♪ For you, I will fight 930 00:35:29,208 --> 00:35:30,792 ♪ For you, I will cry 931 00:35:30,792 --> 00:35:34,708 - Okay, so today, Dr. Pia is coming to visit Cameron and I, 932 00:35:34,792 --> 00:35:36,833 and... 933 00:35:36,958 --> 00:35:40,542 I'm feeling pretty lost and confused. 934 00:35:40,708 --> 00:35:43,500 It's obviously been a lot, and we're both-- 935 00:35:43,583 --> 00:35:47,000 Both Cameron and I are very mentally drained. 936 00:35:47,125 --> 00:35:51,542 But it'll be nice to get her expertise 937 00:35:51,667 --> 00:35:53,500 on the situation, 938 00:35:53,583 --> 00:35:55,833 on what we can do to move forward 939 00:35:55,958 --> 00:35:57,875 in such a difficult time. 940 00:35:57,958 --> 00:35:59,542 ♪ 941 00:35:59,667 --> 00:36:01,583 - Hello. - Hello. 942 00:36:01,667 --> 00:36:03,917 You look stunning. - Likewise. Thank you. 943 00:36:04,000 --> 00:36:05,750 - That's a very cute outfit you got on. 944 00:36:05,833 --> 00:36:07,167 - Thank you. - Hello. 945 00:36:07,250 --> 00:36:08,542 - Hi, good seeing you. - You look well. 946 00:36:08,625 --> 00:36:10,000 - All right, y'all want to have a seat here. 947 00:36:10,125 --> 00:36:12,458 - All right. - All right. 948 00:36:12,542 --> 00:36:15,250 - Well, how have things been going? 949 00:36:15,333 --> 00:36:17,125 - It's been a-- 950 00:36:17,208 --> 00:36:18,792 it feels like it's been a long journey already. 951 00:36:18,875 --> 00:36:20,542 - And then I'm looking down and neither one of you 952 00:36:20,625 --> 00:36:22,625 have your rings on. - Yeah. 953 00:36:22,708 --> 00:36:25,167 - What's going on? What are y'all not telling me? 954 00:36:25,250 --> 00:36:27,208 - Unfortunately, it's become apparent 955 00:36:27,292 --> 00:36:30,250 that our long-term viability 956 00:36:30,333 --> 00:36:32,917 is probably not there, unfortunately. 957 00:36:32,917 --> 00:36:34,500 ♪ 958 00:36:34,583 --> 00:36:35,792 - Wow. - Yeah. 959 00:36:35,875 --> 00:36:38,000 - That's a pretty strong, like, bold statement. 960 00:36:38,042 --> 00:36:39,750 So let's pull ourselves back 961 00:36:39,833 --> 00:36:43,792 in terms of giving this more time to process, 962 00:36:43,875 --> 00:36:47,333 to experience one another, to think things through. 963 00:36:47,375 --> 00:36:49,125 Is there any possibility for that-- 964 00:36:49,208 --> 00:36:50,542 that you could see that happening? 965 00:36:50,542 --> 00:36:52,042 - I think I want to try and figure out 966 00:36:52,167 --> 00:36:53,708 how to make this work. 967 00:36:53,833 --> 00:36:55,625 - I just want to make sure I'm understanding you correctly. 968 00:36:55,708 --> 00:36:57,208 You're saying-- - Okay, so there are-- 969 00:36:57,292 --> 00:36:59,083 I mean, basically, we have a fundamental disagreement 970 00:36:59,208 --> 00:37:01,500 about how we want to raise our children. 971 00:37:01,542 --> 00:37:03,792 - So I've heard about that with regard to religion. 972 00:37:03,875 --> 00:37:05,458 Is that what we're talking about right now? 973 00:37:05,583 --> 00:37:06,917 - Yeah, primarily. - Primarily. 974 00:37:07,000 --> 00:37:08,708 Are there other things as well? 975 00:37:08,792 --> 00:37:10,833 - There's also this lack of maybe, 976 00:37:10,917 --> 00:37:13,208 like, romantic connection. 977 00:37:13,292 --> 00:37:14,500 That's just what it is. 978 00:37:14,625 --> 00:37:16,708 And so, if we can't, first of all, 979 00:37:16,792 --> 00:37:19,333 be on the same page about our future, but, second of all, 980 00:37:19,458 --> 00:37:21,417 can't be on the same page about where we are emotionally 981 00:37:21,542 --> 00:37:23,750 here in this romantic, physical moment... 982 00:37:23,833 --> 00:37:25,500 - Mm-hmm. - Then how can we progress? 983 00:37:25,583 --> 00:37:28,125 We have tried very, very, very hard. 984 00:37:28,208 --> 00:37:29,833 - Okay. 985 00:37:29,958 --> 00:37:31,667 - I'd say the most painful thing about all this is, 986 00:37:31,708 --> 00:37:34,000 Clare and I, I think, are extremely compatible. 987 00:37:34,125 --> 00:37:35,500 - Yeah. 988 00:37:35,583 --> 00:37:38,208 - She's the smartest and most mature person 989 00:37:38,292 --> 00:37:40,000 I've ever been in a relationship with, so... 990 00:37:40,083 --> 00:37:41,375 - Oh, that's nice. 991 00:37:41,458 --> 00:37:43,333 - It's kind of just like a perfect mixture there, 992 00:37:43,417 --> 00:37:45,292 where I just feel-- I feel heard... 993 00:37:45,375 --> 00:37:47,083 - Mm-hmm. 994 00:37:47,167 --> 00:37:50,583 - Which, for whatever reason, in relationships is rare to me. 995 00:37:50,708 --> 00:37:51,792 - Okay. 996 00:37:51,875 --> 00:37:54,250 - You know, we get along really well. 997 00:37:54,333 --> 00:37:55,792 Just the more time I spend around her, 998 00:37:55,875 --> 00:37:57,792 the more and more I'm getting attached. 999 00:37:57,875 --> 00:37:59,833 It's just this feeling that, like, when I'm away from her, 1000 00:37:59,917 --> 00:38:01,167 like, I miss her. 1001 00:38:01,250 --> 00:38:02,750 And, I mean, I've essentially said, 1002 00:38:02,833 --> 00:38:04,542 you know, it's time to protect Cameron 1003 00:38:04,667 --> 00:38:09,167 because I think our future is bleak. 1004 00:38:09,208 --> 00:38:11,875 ♪ 1005 00:38:11,958 --> 00:38:14,708 - Wow. 1006 00:38:14,792 --> 00:38:16,750 - Clare, what's it like to hear him say that? 1007 00:38:16,833 --> 00:38:18,792 - Obviously, it's not great to hear, because, I mean, 1008 00:38:18,875 --> 00:38:22,000 I think we're both not doing mentally the best that we want 1009 00:38:22,042 --> 00:38:23,167 to be doing in this moment. 1010 00:38:23,208 --> 00:38:24,917 This has been very draining. 1011 00:38:25,042 --> 00:38:27,000 We can't be a couple if we're not doing well individually. 1012 00:38:27,083 --> 00:38:29,917 We have to put ourselves first, 1013 00:38:30,000 --> 00:38:32,375 and if that means that we can't make this work, 1014 00:38:32,458 --> 00:38:34,708 then that's what it has to be. - Okay. 1015 00:38:34,792 --> 00:38:36,625 So what I'm hearing is, you feel like you all 1016 00:38:36,708 --> 00:38:38,167 have exhausted all options. - Mm-hmm. 1017 00:38:38,208 --> 00:38:39,875 - You've given it your best shot. 1018 00:38:39,875 --> 00:38:42,542 It doesn't seem like there's any viable opportunity 1019 00:38:42,625 --> 00:38:44,333 for marriage to continue on. 1020 00:38:44,417 --> 00:38:45,917 And I'm looking at, like, well, wait a minute. 1021 00:38:46,000 --> 00:38:48,000 What have you all tried? - Mm-hmm. Yeah, that's fair. 1022 00:38:48,083 --> 00:38:49,542 That's a very fair question to ask. 1023 00:38:49,625 --> 00:38:52,542 - I mean, are there specific things that... 1024 00:38:52,542 --> 00:38:54,000 that we should try? 1025 00:38:54,042 --> 00:38:55,708 - Yeah, so here's the thing. 1026 00:38:55,792 --> 00:38:57,708 There's been so much change in such 1027 00:38:57,792 --> 00:39:00,625 a very short period of time... - Lots, yeah. 1028 00:39:00,708 --> 00:39:03,500 - And it can be really "dysregulating" to the system. 1029 00:39:03,583 --> 00:39:06,500 - Mm-hmm. - So my recommendation 1030 00:39:06,583 --> 00:39:08,333 would be to go back into, 1031 00:39:08,375 --> 00:39:10,833 like, what makes you both work individually? 1032 00:39:10,917 --> 00:39:13,333 Like, let's get you, like, more stabilized. 1033 00:39:13,417 --> 00:39:17,292 Can there also be some focus on having fun 1034 00:39:17,375 --> 00:39:19,500 and being more in the moment? 1035 00:39:19,583 --> 00:39:22,083 Take off talking about children, 1036 00:39:22,208 --> 00:39:24,333 romance, sex, and religion 1037 00:39:24,417 --> 00:39:27,208 until the next time you meet with an expert, 1038 00:39:27,292 --> 00:39:29,708 because there can be some, like, fatigue 1039 00:39:29,792 --> 00:39:32,625 in talking about this. - Totally. 1040 00:39:32,708 --> 00:39:35,333 - And I can understand that there's a lot of anxiety there 1041 00:39:35,417 --> 00:39:36,875 because you're thinking, holy [bleep], 1042 00:39:37,000 --> 00:39:39,125 this is the rest of our lives we're talking about. 1043 00:39:39,208 --> 00:39:40,458 - Yeah. - Like, hold the phone. 1044 00:39:40,542 --> 00:39:41,833 Get me out. - [laughs] 1045 00:39:41,875 --> 00:39:44,833 - Right? I hear that. I see that. I feel that. 1046 00:39:44,958 --> 00:39:48,000 And what I'm offering is, like, give yourselves time 1047 00:39:48,083 --> 00:39:51,583 to be in the moment and enjoy one another's company. 1048 00:39:51,708 --> 00:39:54,333 Get to have more fun together. 1049 00:39:54,417 --> 00:39:56,625 I would hate for this to be a missed opportunity, 1050 00:39:56,708 --> 00:39:58,875 to give up right now, saying, well, we've tried everything 1051 00:39:58,875 --> 00:40:01,583 under the sun, right, because you all led 1052 00:40:01,667 --> 00:40:04,708 with saying how compatible that you feel that you are. 1053 00:40:04,792 --> 00:40:06,625 And you already have this understanding 1054 00:40:06,708 --> 00:40:07,667 of what you've tried that hasn't worked. 1055 00:40:07,750 --> 00:40:09,792 Let's focus on what is working. 1056 00:40:09,875 --> 00:40:12,667 What if we take away the pressure from everything else 1057 00:40:12,708 --> 00:40:16,667 and just focus on having fun and being more in the moment? 1058 00:40:16,750 --> 00:40:19,042 - Yeah, yeah, I like that. 1059 00:40:19,167 --> 00:40:22,000 - I guess what I'd say is... 1060 00:40:22,083 --> 00:40:26,583 I'd be disingenuous if I agreed right now. 1061 00:40:26,667 --> 00:40:28,292 I would like to sleep on your advice. 1062 00:40:28,375 --> 00:40:29,500 ♪ 1063 00:40:29,583 --> 00:40:30,875 And that's just who I am. - Yeah. 1064 00:40:30,958 --> 00:40:33,167 - I just need time when it comes to those things. 1065 00:40:33,208 --> 00:40:35,333 - I respect that. - So I hear you. 1066 00:40:35,417 --> 00:40:37,375 I think it is fantastic advice. - Yeah. 1067 00:40:37,500 --> 00:40:39,792 - But I can't commit to you right in this moment. 1068 00:40:39,875 --> 00:40:43,083 ♪ 1069 00:40:47,208 --> 00:40:48,333 - ♪ Don't say it's over 1070 00:40:48,458 --> 00:40:49,917 ♪ 1071 00:40:50,042 --> 00:40:51,625 ♪ Don't say goodbye 1072 00:40:51,708 --> 00:40:54,292 - Excited to talk to Pia today? 1073 00:40:54,375 --> 00:40:58,500 - I wouldn't say excited, but, yeah, I'm excited, sure. 1074 00:40:58,583 --> 00:41:00,333 We went through a lot of [bleep], 1075 00:41:00,375 --> 00:41:02,750 and we finally put everything behind us, 1076 00:41:02,875 --> 00:41:05,042 but, like, I just know deep down that there's still, 1077 00:41:05,125 --> 00:41:06,500 like, a disconnect. 1078 00:41:06,583 --> 00:41:08,792 We need to start figuring this out. 1079 00:41:08,875 --> 00:41:11,375 Are you nervous? - I don't know. 1080 00:41:11,500 --> 00:41:13,750 I've never really done therapy before, so... 1081 00:41:13,833 --> 00:41:15,333 Is this therapy? - I would say it's therapy. 1082 00:41:15,375 --> 00:41:16,833 - Is it? - Mm-hmm. 1083 00:41:16,875 --> 00:41:18,292 - Okay. 1084 00:41:18,375 --> 00:41:20,083 I wonder what, like, her intentions are. 1085 00:41:20,083 --> 00:41:21,167 ♪ 1086 00:41:21,292 --> 00:41:22,625 - You should ask her. 1087 00:41:22,708 --> 00:41:24,500 - It's gonna be interesting. 1088 00:41:24,583 --> 00:41:28,000 [knock at door] 1089 00:41:28,042 --> 00:41:31,000 [groans] 1090 00:41:31,083 --> 00:41:32,375 [chuckles] 1091 00:41:32,500 --> 00:41:34,167 both: Hello. - Oh, I love your top. 1092 00:41:34,208 --> 00:41:35,625 Hi! - I love your pink. 1093 00:41:35,708 --> 00:41:37,250 Love it. - Nice to see you. 1094 00:41:37,333 --> 00:41:38,667 - Nice to see you. 1095 00:41:38,750 --> 00:41:40,167 - Good to see you again as well. 1096 00:41:40,292 --> 00:41:41,708 - You too. - Thanks, love it. 1097 00:41:41,792 --> 00:41:43,792 - Welcome to our home. - Thank you for having me. 1098 00:41:43,875 --> 00:41:45,375 - Would you like something to drink? 1099 00:41:45,458 --> 00:41:46,875 - I'm all right. Thank you for asking. 1100 00:41:47,042 --> 00:41:48,417 - Okay, yeah, of course. 1101 00:41:48,500 --> 00:41:49,875 - Pretty, pretty. 1102 00:41:49,958 --> 00:41:51,583 - Nice, right? - It is nice. 1103 00:41:51,667 --> 00:41:53,042 - Got you that chair. 1104 00:41:53,125 --> 00:41:54,333 - Thank you. 1105 00:41:54,375 --> 00:41:55,583 All right, get comfy. 1106 00:41:55,708 --> 00:41:56,667 - Yeah. - Settle in. 1107 00:41:56,750 --> 00:41:58,125 - Is that chair comfy? - Yeah. 1108 00:41:58,208 --> 00:42:00,500 So how has it been? 1109 00:42:00,583 --> 00:42:03,958 - We had a little rocky, like, back-to-reality week, 1110 00:42:04,042 --> 00:42:05,167 but then we-- 1111 00:42:05,250 --> 00:42:06,542 I feel like we're back on track. 1112 00:42:06,625 --> 00:42:08,083 - Yeah. - Yeah? 1113 00:42:08,167 --> 00:42:11,000 So you feel like that rockiness has subsided now? 1114 00:42:11,083 --> 00:42:14,292 - Yeah, but I still feel like we're-- 1115 00:42:14,417 --> 00:42:17,667 - Disconnect. - Yeah, disconnect. 1116 00:42:17,708 --> 00:42:19,375 - Currently, there's a disconnect? 1117 00:42:19,458 --> 00:42:20,833 - Yeah, he doesn't feel like there's, 1118 00:42:20,917 --> 00:42:23,833 like, romance, chemistry. - Mm. 1119 00:42:23,875 --> 00:42:27,583 - So we're trying to, like, let time see... 1120 00:42:27,667 --> 00:42:30,667 - Yeah. - If that can evolve. 1121 00:42:30,708 --> 00:42:33,250 But I think the only way for us to figure this out 1122 00:42:33,333 --> 00:42:35,958 is to just be as open as possible. 1123 00:42:36,042 --> 00:42:38,583 So, like, while it wasn't what I wanted to hear... 1124 00:42:38,708 --> 00:42:40,708 - Sure. - And obviously, like, 1125 00:42:40,792 --> 00:42:44,458 doesn't feel great, it's still like progress to hear 1126 00:42:44,542 --> 00:42:46,042 any bit more than like, we're fine, 1127 00:42:46,125 --> 00:42:47,833 or like, we're taking it slow. - Mm-hmm. 1128 00:42:47,917 --> 00:42:50,667 - Like, just hearing any more, like, words and emotion, 1129 00:42:50,750 --> 00:42:54,458 I think, is gonna be critical. 1130 00:42:54,542 --> 00:42:55,625 - Sure. 1131 00:42:55,708 --> 00:42:57,208 - I mean, I know I've never had, 1132 00:42:57,292 --> 00:42:58,417 like, a serious relationship. 1133 00:42:58,500 --> 00:42:59,917 This is all new to me. 1134 00:43:00,000 --> 00:43:02,750 But I think, like-- he's getting so much better-- 1135 00:43:02,875 --> 00:43:04,417 but, like, talking about emotions 1136 00:43:04,500 --> 00:43:07,083 is just not his thing, which is fine. 1137 00:43:07,167 --> 00:43:10,542 - Would you agree with her that it's challenging at times 1138 00:43:10,542 --> 00:43:12,417 for you to verbalize what you're feeling 1139 00:43:12,500 --> 00:43:14,500 or to verbalize what you're thinking? 1140 00:43:14,625 --> 00:43:18,042 - Yeah, absolutely, you know, definitely. 1141 00:43:18,125 --> 00:43:21,750 - But you are able to identify that you're not feeling 1142 00:43:21,875 --> 00:43:24,750 the romantic chemistry. - Correct. 1143 00:43:24,833 --> 00:43:29,083 - Can you put into words why you're not feeling it? 1144 00:43:29,167 --> 00:43:32,750 Are there certain things that are turning you off from it? 1145 00:43:32,833 --> 00:43:35,667 - Yeah, let's be mindful of Emily here. 1146 00:43:35,750 --> 00:43:37,792 This is not easy. 1147 00:43:37,875 --> 00:43:40,417 - I am being mindful. 1148 00:43:40,500 --> 00:43:41,750 Help me understand. 1149 00:43:41,750 --> 00:43:43,292 Is there something that just happened 1150 00:43:43,375 --> 00:43:45,167 that I did that made you feel like I wasn't being mindful? 1151 00:43:45,292 --> 00:43:47,708 - Well, it's just-- you know, this is not easy 1152 00:43:47,833 --> 00:43:49,500 to talk about, and, like... 1153 00:43:49,583 --> 00:43:51,375 - Yeah. - If I was in her shoes, 1154 00:43:51,458 --> 00:43:52,958 I know I would be really uncomfortable 1155 00:43:53,042 --> 00:43:57,500 hearing my partner, like, talk about physical intimacy, 1156 00:43:57,583 --> 00:43:59,458 especially through all this. 1157 00:43:59,542 --> 00:44:00,750 - Am I making you feel uncomfortable? 1158 00:44:00,833 --> 00:44:02,167 - No, but-- - Okay. 1159 00:44:02,208 --> 00:44:04,000 - I feel like I got over the uncomfortable, 1160 00:44:04,083 --> 00:44:05,333 which was, like, getting this out in the open. 1161 00:44:05,417 --> 00:44:07,125 - Yeah. 1162 00:44:07,208 --> 00:44:08,875 - So now I'm just trying to figure out how we move forward 1163 00:44:08,958 --> 00:44:10,833 and, like, fix it if it's possible. 1164 00:44:10,917 --> 00:44:13,917 - Right, and, like, that's my intention of being here today, 1165 00:44:14,042 --> 00:44:16,167 is to try to figure out, what can we do? 1166 00:44:16,208 --> 00:44:18,875 And so for me, like, the way that I work through that 1167 00:44:18,958 --> 00:44:21,167 is to figure out, well, how did we get here? 1168 00:44:21,333 --> 00:44:23,000 What's going on? 1169 00:44:23,042 --> 00:44:25,625 Because that's gonna alter what type of solutions 1170 00:44:25,708 --> 00:44:27,667 or tips or advice that I'm giving to you. 1171 00:44:27,708 --> 00:44:29,333 - Yeah. Of course. - Right? 1172 00:44:29,417 --> 00:44:32,375 And the only way in which to do that is, to your point, Emily-- 1173 00:44:32,458 --> 00:44:34,167 is to have a very frank 1174 00:44:34,250 --> 00:44:36,875 and honest conversation, right? - Of course. 1175 00:44:37,042 --> 00:44:40,000 - So, when I just heard you say that let's be mindful of her, 1176 00:44:40,042 --> 00:44:43,000 I'm wondering, Brennan, if there might be some of you 1177 00:44:43,083 --> 00:44:46,333 that is holding back from being fully honest with her 1178 00:44:46,375 --> 00:44:49,917 because there's a concern of hurting her feelings. 1179 00:44:50,042 --> 00:44:52,708 - Yeah, I'm definitely mindful of being respectful 1180 00:44:52,792 --> 00:44:54,833 and taking very much into account her feelings, 1181 00:44:54,917 --> 00:44:58,000 and I'm not gonna say anything that won't help anything 1182 00:44:58,083 --> 00:44:59,167 but do damage. 1183 00:44:59,208 --> 00:45:00,792 ♪ 1184 00:45:00,875 --> 00:45:03,667 - So I'm noticing your body language 1185 00:45:03,750 --> 00:45:05,333 and your eye movements as he's saying that. 1186 00:45:05,375 --> 00:45:06,667 - That's just her. [chuckles] 1187 00:45:06,792 --> 00:45:08,583 - But there's something behind that. 1188 00:45:08,667 --> 00:45:10,750 So when you're squinting your eyes and looking like that, 1189 00:45:10,833 --> 00:45:12,375 what does that mean? - Oh, no. 1190 00:45:12,458 --> 00:45:13,833 - Explain it--explain it-- - I'm talking to her, though. 1191 00:45:14,000 --> 00:45:15,292 - Yeah, I know. - Let me talk to her. 1192 00:45:15,375 --> 00:45:17,167 - Yeah, I get you. - Okay, so let me talk to her. 1193 00:45:17,250 --> 00:45:18,500 - So we-- 1194 00:45:18,583 --> 00:45:19,833 - Brennan, I'm talking to Emily. 1195 00:45:19,875 --> 00:45:21,208 - Yeah. - Thank you. 1196 00:45:21,292 --> 00:45:23,250 - I'm just helping-- this is a lot, right? 1197 00:45:23,250 --> 00:45:25,083 So I'm just gonna help her take a step back and get her-- 1198 00:45:25,167 --> 00:45:26,625 - She doesn't need your help, though. 1199 00:45:26,708 --> 00:45:28,542 - This is my wife, so I'm just gonna make sure she's okay. 1200 00:45:28,625 --> 00:45:30,167 So... 1201 00:45:30,292 --> 00:45:33,167 - That's my job, is to ask her if she's okay. 1202 00:45:33,250 --> 00:45:34,208 ♪ 1203 00:45:38,250 --> 00:45:39,708 [dramatic music] 1204 00:45:39,708 --> 00:45:41,333 ♪ 1205 00:45:41,417 --> 00:45:42,958 - Yeah, I am fine. 1206 00:45:43,042 --> 00:45:44,708 I think I will be fine. 1207 00:45:44,792 --> 00:45:46,333 - When you made the kind of, like, eye squint, 1208 00:45:46,375 --> 00:45:48,417 and we're looking like that, what was that for you? 1209 00:45:48,542 --> 00:45:49,917 - Um... 1210 00:45:50,000 --> 00:45:51,625 - When you do that, what does it mean? 1211 00:45:51,708 --> 00:45:52,750 - I think it's a thinking face. Am I wrong? 1212 00:45:52,833 --> 00:45:54,167 - A what? - A thinking face. 1213 00:45:54,292 --> 00:45:55,708 - Thinking/frustration. 1214 00:45:55,833 --> 00:45:57,500 - Thank you. both: Yeah. 1215 00:45:57,625 --> 00:45:59,667 ♪ 1216 00:45:59,708 --> 00:46:01,542 - It's a hard balance. Like, I know he cares. 1217 00:46:01,625 --> 00:46:03,417 I know he doesn't want to disrespect me, 1218 00:46:03,500 --> 00:46:05,833 but I... - Mm-hmm. 1219 00:46:05,917 --> 00:46:08,458 - Will feel maybe more resentment 1220 00:46:08,542 --> 00:46:10,833 and feel like we're not gonna be able to go anywhere 1221 00:46:10,875 --> 00:46:12,458 unless I hear everything. 1222 00:46:12,542 --> 00:46:14,333 - Yeah. 1223 00:46:14,375 --> 00:46:18,125 What I'm trying to figure out is, what is the barrier, 1224 00:46:18,208 --> 00:46:20,583 and how do we move forward with that? 1225 00:46:20,708 --> 00:46:22,000 ♪ 1226 00:46:22,083 --> 00:46:24,708 To do that is, to your point, Emily, 1227 00:46:24,792 --> 00:46:27,750 is to have a very frank, direct, 1228 00:46:27,750 --> 00:46:29,958 and honest conversation. 1229 00:46:30,042 --> 00:46:33,000 I can respect that this is a lot, 1230 00:46:33,125 --> 00:46:35,792 and so I can totally empathize 1231 00:46:35,875 --> 00:46:38,042 with how that might feel like pressure. 1232 00:46:38,125 --> 00:46:39,958 So we've got to figure out what we're gonna do differently. 1233 00:46:40,042 --> 00:46:41,333 In order to figure out what to do differently, 1234 00:46:41,417 --> 00:46:43,208 I got to know, what have we been doing? 1235 00:46:43,292 --> 00:46:44,583 - Yeah. Yeah. - Make sense? 1236 00:46:44,667 --> 00:46:46,083 - Mm-hmm. - Okay. 1237 00:46:46,208 --> 00:46:49,083 So can you put into words, 1238 00:46:49,208 --> 00:46:51,042 in a way that you feel comfortable with, 1239 00:46:51,167 --> 00:46:55,833 what is holding back for you the physical attraction? 1240 00:46:55,958 --> 00:46:58,000 - Like, it's just a feeling that I don't have, 1241 00:46:58,042 --> 00:46:59,750 so I don't act on it. 1242 00:46:59,875 --> 00:47:01,167 - Okay. 1243 00:47:01,250 --> 00:47:03,125 So what is the feeling that you have? 1244 00:47:03,208 --> 00:47:05,375 You said you don't have the feeling. 1245 00:47:05,458 --> 00:47:07,625 - Um... 1246 00:47:07,708 --> 00:47:09,375 [sighs] 1247 00:47:09,458 --> 00:47:10,500 ♪ 1248 00:47:10,542 --> 00:47:11,625 I don't know. 1249 00:47:11,708 --> 00:47:13,833 ♪ 1250 00:47:13,875 --> 00:47:17,333 Like, just not there. 1251 00:47:17,417 --> 00:47:19,125 - What's not there? 1252 00:47:19,208 --> 00:47:20,667 - That feeling to want to be intimate. 1253 00:47:20,750 --> 00:47:22,458 - Okay. 1254 00:47:22,542 --> 00:47:25,667 Is this something that you've experienced before, Brennan? 1255 00:47:25,750 --> 00:47:27,292 - No, it's not. 1256 00:47:27,292 --> 00:47:28,833 - 'Cause I can tell that there's a lot 1257 00:47:28,958 --> 00:47:30,667 of care that you have for her, right? 1258 00:47:30,750 --> 00:47:32,625 Like, even when you were like, 1259 00:47:32,708 --> 00:47:35,167 whoa, whoa, stop there, Dr. Pia, like, this is my wife. 1260 00:47:35,250 --> 00:47:37,458 I'm trying to protect her. I'm all of that. 1261 00:47:37,542 --> 00:47:39,042 So that feeling is there. 1262 00:47:39,125 --> 00:47:41,500 - Yeah. 1263 00:47:41,542 --> 00:47:44,042 - Is there an emotion attached to that thought? 1264 00:47:44,125 --> 00:47:47,792 ♪ 1265 00:47:47,875 --> 00:47:51,333 - Um... [sighs] 1266 00:47:51,375 --> 00:47:52,750 Maybe. 1267 00:47:52,833 --> 00:47:54,292 I don't know. - Okay. 1268 00:47:54,375 --> 00:47:57,042 - Like, maybe. 1269 00:47:57,125 --> 00:47:58,750 - What might it be? 1270 00:47:58,875 --> 00:48:01,333 - The emotion? - Yes. 1271 00:48:01,375 --> 00:48:05,083 - I don't know, like, what emotion that is. 1272 00:48:05,167 --> 00:48:06,958 - Yeah, that's what I'm asking. 1273 00:48:07,042 --> 00:48:08,292 - Yeah, I don't know what emotion that is. 1274 00:48:08,375 --> 00:48:10,042 - Okay. - I just--that's just how I am 1275 00:48:10,125 --> 00:48:12,000 when I care about people. - Mm-hmm. 1276 00:48:12,083 --> 00:48:14,250 Okay, so there's care that you have. 1277 00:48:14,333 --> 00:48:17,292 I think I might label what I saw happen 1278 00:48:17,375 --> 00:48:19,875 is, like, protective of her. - Yeah. 1279 00:48:20,000 --> 00:48:22,958 - Yeah, is that how you feel? - Yeah, definitely. 1280 00:48:23,042 --> 00:48:24,542 - Yeah, okay. 1281 00:48:24,625 --> 00:48:27,125 So next thing is, 1282 00:48:27,208 --> 00:48:30,708 I want to ask y'all both about your thoughts about therapy. 1283 00:48:30,708 --> 00:48:33,042 ♪ 1284 00:48:33,125 --> 00:48:35,417 - I go back and forth on my thoughts. 1285 00:48:35,542 --> 00:48:38,375 I haven't had any, like, bad personal experiences. 1286 00:48:38,458 --> 00:48:41,792 I think, like, the critical part is wanting to do it. 1287 00:48:41,875 --> 00:48:43,917 - Sure. Right. What about for you, Brennan? 1288 00:48:44,042 --> 00:48:45,917 - Have I, or what are my thoughts on it? 1289 00:48:46,042 --> 00:48:47,875 - Both. - I have not been in therapy. 1290 00:48:47,958 --> 00:48:49,375 Do I believe in it? 1291 00:48:49,458 --> 00:48:51,750 Yeah, I believe it helps a lot of people 1292 00:48:51,833 --> 00:48:54,042 and could be a really good resource. 1293 00:48:54,125 --> 00:48:56,667 - Yeah, so I'm gonna make a suggestion for you 1294 00:48:56,833 --> 00:48:58,875 to enter individual therapy, Brennan-- 1295 00:48:59,000 --> 00:49:00,667 like, outside of this process-- 1296 00:49:00,708 --> 00:49:04,833 with the goal of helping to identify your emotions, 1297 00:49:04,917 --> 00:49:06,667 because I think that that is going 1298 00:49:06,708 --> 00:49:10,125 to continue to be a barrier for the relationship. 1299 00:49:10,208 --> 00:49:12,042 - I don't think so. 1300 00:49:12,125 --> 00:49:13,625 Like, I do a lot of self-reflection. 1301 00:49:13,708 --> 00:49:16,292 I have a, you know, really amazing support system. 1302 00:49:16,375 --> 00:49:19,333 And, um... 1303 00:49:19,417 --> 00:49:22,500 I don't--right now I'm not talking about my emotions 1304 00:49:22,542 --> 00:49:24,125 because I don't have any, 1305 00:49:24,208 --> 00:49:27,542 so it's really hard to explain them if they're not there. 1306 00:49:27,625 --> 00:49:29,875 ♪ 1307 00:49:29,958 --> 00:49:32,458 - Mm-hmm. 1308 00:49:32,542 --> 00:49:35,667 So that right there, I think, is an example of why therapy 1309 00:49:35,708 --> 00:49:37,208 would be helpful for you. - Okay. 1310 00:49:37,292 --> 00:49:38,667 - Because everyone has emotions all the time. 1311 00:49:38,708 --> 00:49:39,917 - Yeah, right, right, but I'm associating it 1312 00:49:40,042 --> 00:49:41,417 with feelings, right? 1313 00:49:41,500 --> 00:49:43,167 - Feelings and emotions, yeah, same thing. 1314 00:49:43,292 --> 00:49:45,208 - Right, so if I don't have feelings, right, about-- 1315 00:49:45,333 --> 00:49:46,875 - You don't know what they are. 1316 00:49:46,958 --> 00:49:48,167 - Okay. [both chuckle] 1317 00:49:48,208 --> 00:49:50,208 - Okay, so... - Okay. 1318 00:49:50,292 --> 00:49:52,250 - That's what I'm suggesting. 1319 00:49:52,375 --> 00:49:54,958 ♪ 1320 00:49:58,708 --> 00:50:00,167 - ♪ Oh, oh 1321 00:50:00,250 --> 00:50:02,583 - Hello. - Hello. 1322 00:50:02,708 --> 00:50:04,208 - Hi. - Hi. 1323 00:50:04,333 --> 00:50:06,417 - Look at y'all holding hands, just casually strolling in. 1324 00:50:06,542 --> 00:50:08,208 - Hi, nice to see you! 1325 00:50:08,292 --> 00:50:09,917 - Good to see you, too. - Yeah, glad you made it. 1326 00:50:10,042 --> 00:50:11,625 - Good to see you again. - Of course. 1327 00:50:11,708 --> 00:50:13,083 - Good. 1328 00:50:13,167 --> 00:50:15,333 Have a seat. Get comfy on the-- 1329 00:50:15,417 --> 00:50:16,833 Is this a teal couch, green couch? 1330 00:50:16,875 --> 00:50:18,208 - A futon. - Yeah. 1331 00:50:18,292 --> 00:50:20,375 - So I'm just, like, enamored by how, 1332 00:50:20,500 --> 00:50:22,375 like, genuine the connection looks, 1333 00:50:22,458 --> 00:50:24,167 like, even in this moment. - Yeah. 1334 00:50:24,250 --> 00:50:26,875 - Yeah, how you're looking at each other, the smiling, 1335 00:50:27,000 --> 00:50:28,292 the laughing, the touching. - Yeah. 1336 00:50:28,375 --> 00:50:30,000 - [chuckles] 1337 00:50:30,042 --> 00:50:31,875 - Yeah, how is the intimacy in the relationship? 1338 00:50:31,958 --> 00:50:34,292 ♪ 1339 00:50:34,375 --> 00:50:36,125 - I mean, what do you think? 1340 00:50:36,208 --> 00:50:38,167 [chuckles] - I like making out with him. 1341 00:50:38,292 --> 00:50:40,167 - [chuckles] - That sounds good. 1342 00:50:40,292 --> 00:50:42,125 - He moves at a slower pace than I do, 1343 00:50:42,208 --> 00:50:44,042 so it's been, like, an adjustment for me. 1344 00:50:44,208 --> 00:50:46,708 But, like, I'm just being respectful. 1345 00:50:46,792 --> 00:50:48,583 - So, when you say "a slower pace," 1346 00:50:48,667 --> 00:50:50,667 can you tell me a little bit more what you mean by that? 1347 00:50:50,750 --> 00:50:52,625 - I just like to have an emotional connection 1348 00:50:52,708 --> 00:50:55,375 with someone before... 1349 00:50:55,458 --> 00:50:57,500 like, jumping in bed with them. 1350 00:50:57,583 --> 00:50:59,917 I want it more special than just, like, banging. 1351 00:51:00,000 --> 00:51:01,292 - Got ya. 1352 00:51:01,375 --> 00:51:03,333 Is there something that you think 1353 00:51:03,458 --> 00:51:05,167 would make it feel like banging now? 1354 00:51:05,250 --> 00:51:07,500 'Cause what I'm seeing is not, like, banging energy. 1355 00:51:07,583 --> 00:51:09,083 - Yeah. 1356 00:51:09,167 --> 00:51:10,792 - I'm seeing, like, true, genuine connection. 1357 00:51:10,875 --> 00:51:12,167 ♪ 1358 00:51:12,250 --> 00:51:13,875 - Yeah, I mean, I don't know. 1359 00:51:13,958 --> 00:51:16,292 It's still.. 1360 00:51:16,375 --> 00:51:19,292 just need a little more time... 1361 00:51:19,375 --> 00:51:21,500 - Mm-hmm. - To process and figure it out. 1362 00:51:21,583 --> 00:51:24,167 ♪ 1363 00:51:24,250 --> 00:51:26,917 - Is that something that you can understand? 1364 00:51:27,000 --> 00:51:28,875 - I think I can empathize with it. 1365 00:51:29,000 --> 00:51:32,833 Like, that's not how I see it, but it's not as easy as, like, 1366 00:51:32,917 --> 00:51:34,583 just what I need or just what he needs. 1367 00:51:34,708 --> 00:51:37,333 It's, like, two people's needs coming together, so... 1368 00:51:37,417 --> 00:51:40,333 - Yeah. Have you expressed some of what your needs are? 1369 00:51:40,375 --> 00:51:42,833 - I think so. - Yeah. 1370 00:51:42,917 --> 00:51:44,000 - Yeah. - Yeah? 1371 00:51:44,083 --> 00:51:45,750 - Yeah. - Can you let me know? 1372 00:51:45,833 --> 00:51:47,333 - [laughs] 1373 00:51:47,417 --> 00:51:50,333 - I am attracted to him, and I feel connected to him. 1374 00:51:50,417 --> 00:51:54,000 So, like, if it were up to me, I would move further. 1375 00:51:54,083 --> 00:51:55,708 [laughs] - Yeah. 1376 00:51:55,792 --> 00:51:58,958 What's it like to know that she's into you in that way? 1377 00:51:59,042 --> 00:52:00,375 - I mean, it's great. 1378 00:52:00,458 --> 00:52:02,250 Like, I'm also into her in that way. 1379 00:52:02,375 --> 00:52:06,542 Just, like, I do move slow, and it, like, has... 1380 00:52:06,542 --> 00:52:08,833 bothered girlfriends in the past. 1381 00:52:08,917 --> 00:52:10,333 - Okay. 1382 00:52:10,417 --> 00:52:12,583 So, Austin, when we're talking about sex-- 1383 00:52:12,667 --> 00:52:14,542 like, I'm assuming that you're meaning, 1384 00:52:14,667 --> 00:52:16,583 like, actually intercourse. - Yeah. 1385 00:52:16,708 --> 00:52:18,792 - Is it okay to do other things? 1386 00:52:18,875 --> 00:52:20,542 - Yeah. - Yeah? 1387 00:52:20,625 --> 00:52:23,375 - I mean, we haven't yet, but it's okay to. 1388 00:52:23,458 --> 00:52:25,500 - I think she just perked up a little bit. 1389 00:52:25,542 --> 00:52:26,917 ♪ 1390 00:52:27,000 --> 00:52:28,292 - It's news to me. 1391 00:52:28,375 --> 00:52:30,208 - Okay, well, how are you receiving? 1392 00:52:30,333 --> 00:52:32,083 - I'm okay with that. [laughs] I just-- 1393 00:52:32,083 --> 00:52:33,833 We haven't gotten there yet. - Yeah. 1394 00:52:33,917 --> 00:52:35,333 - What might that look like? 1395 00:52:35,458 --> 00:52:37,500 Can we talk about, like, what would be safe to try? 1396 00:52:37,583 --> 00:52:40,000 - I mean, we haven't really, like, 1397 00:52:40,083 --> 00:52:43,625 discussed thoroughly, really, but, like... 1398 00:52:43,708 --> 00:52:45,125 ♪ 1399 00:52:45,208 --> 00:52:49,625 I feel like that will happen more in the moment. 1400 00:52:49,708 --> 00:52:51,292 - Okay. 1401 00:52:51,375 --> 00:52:53,542 I think that it's important to talk about sex, 1402 00:52:53,542 --> 00:52:55,708 and I know that sometimes it can be awkward to do so. 1403 00:52:55,792 --> 00:52:59,458 Talking about it can truly be a form of foreplay as well. 1404 00:52:59,542 --> 00:53:01,125 - I don't think we need to turn her on anymore here. 1405 00:53:01,208 --> 00:53:02,625 - Oh, got ya, okay. 1406 00:53:02,708 --> 00:53:04,375 Are we a light switch over here, Becca? 1407 00:53:04,500 --> 00:53:06,375 - I don't know. I am who I am. 1408 00:53:06,458 --> 00:53:08,042 - [laughs] - Okay. No, girl, own that. 1409 00:53:08,167 --> 00:53:09,792 - [laughs] - She does own it. 1410 00:53:09,875 --> 00:53:11,125 She owns it. - Yeah. 1411 00:53:11,208 --> 00:53:12,583 - I just tell her, like, be yourself. 1412 00:53:12,667 --> 00:53:15,208 Like, you don't have to worry about me. 1413 00:53:15,292 --> 00:53:17,833 Like, I will tell you if anything is an issue. 1414 00:53:17,917 --> 00:53:20,000 - Think of it as, like, getting to know each other, 1415 00:53:20,083 --> 00:53:21,667 which the two of you are doing that. 1416 00:53:21,792 --> 00:53:23,500 And that's why I want to give you that homework 1417 00:53:23,542 --> 00:53:25,750 to get to know each other sexually as well in terms 1418 00:53:25,833 --> 00:53:29,500 of the turn-ons, turnoffs, boundaries, hard limits, 1419 00:53:29,542 --> 00:53:31,333 if there's anything that makes either of you 1420 00:53:31,375 --> 00:53:33,167 feel uncomfortable... - Mm-hmm. 1421 00:53:33,250 --> 00:53:35,333 - If there's anything that would be really important 1422 00:53:35,417 --> 00:53:38,208 for either of you to know about your sexual histories. 1423 00:53:38,292 --> 00:53:40,875 As much as you can verbalize it to one another, 1424 00:53:40,958 --> 00:53:43,083 I think that's gonna be what's really important. 1425 00:53:43,208 --> 00:53:44,500 - Yeah. - Yeah, agreed. 1426 00:53:44,542 --> 00:53:47,333 - Yeah, that's good advice. - Yeah, okay. 1427 00:53:47,417 --> 00:53:49,167 - Yeah, it's-- yeah, nothing wrong with it. 1428 00:53:49,292 --> 00:53:51,167 I'm totally fine with it. 1429 00:53:51,208 --> 00:53:53,083 I love it. - [chuckles] 1430 00:53:53,083 --> 00:53:55,250 - ♪ Closer to the dream 1431 00:53:55,333 --> 00:53:58,333 ♪ Closer to the dream 1432 00:54:00,208 --> 00:54:02,958 - ♪ Nobody can 1433 00:54:03,042 --> 00:54:05,833 ♪ Nobody can 1434 00:54:05,875 --> 00:54:08,333 ♪ Tell me I can't 1435 00:54:08,375 --> 00:54:11,250 ♪ Tell me I can't, no 1436 00:54:11,333 --> 00:54:14,500 - [sighs] 1437 00:54:14,542 --> 00:54:17,250 You know, going from the conversations 1438 00:54:17,375 --> 00:54:19,417 that we've had... - Mm-hmm. 1439 00:54:19,500 --> 00:54:20,958 - I need to know. 1440 00:54:21,042 --> 00:54:23,333 Do you want me to stay? 1441 00:54:23,417 --> 00:54:25,167 - I don't know what to do, like, 1442 00:54:25,250 --> 00:54:26,583 'cause you want to leave, right? 1443 00:54:26,708 --> 00:54:29,083 - I'm asking about you. - Mm-hmm. 1444 00:54:29,167 --> 00:54:30,833 It would make me sad. 1445 00:54:30,917 --> 00:54:32,917 ♪ 1446 00:54:33,000 --> 00:54:34,833 I will miss you. I would be sad. 1447 00:54:34,917 --> 00:54:38,375 And I'm not sure if that's a place of, like... 1448 00:54:38,458 --> 00:54:41,833 of just the physical, like, body that I just-- 1449 00:54:41,875 --> 00:54:43,458 we've had for three weeks, 1450 00:54:43,542 --> 00:54:45,708 and then all of a sudden, it's like, okay, I'm by myself. 1451 00:54:45,708 --> 00:54:47,125 'Cause there is that attachment, 1452 00:54:47,208 --> 00:54:48,708 but back to what we talked about, 1453 00:54:48,792 --> 00:54:52,000 is that attachment even the right attachment? 1454 00:54:52,083 --> 00:54:54,375 ♪ 1455 00:54:54,458 --> 00:54:56,292 Like, are we just attached to being-- 1456 00:54:56,375 --> 00:54:58,250 - That's for you to decide. - I know. 1457 00:54:58,333 --> 00:55:01,208 - I've decided for me that it's unhealthy... 1458 00:55:01,292 --> 00:55:03,500 'cause I want to love you, 1459 00:55:03,583 --> 00:55:06,500 but I don't want us to hurt each other. 1460 00:55:06,542 --> 00:55:08,333 ♪ 1461 00:55:08,458 --> 00:55:10,208 - I don't know what to tell you from here. 1462 00:55:10,208 --> 00:55:11,833 I don't. 1463 00:55:11,917 --> 00:55:13,500 I don't know what to do, 'cause I don't want you to feel 1464 00:55:13,583 --> 00:55:14,667 like I'm pressuring you to stay 1465 00:55:14,750 --> 00:55:16,625 in a situation that's not healthy. 1466 00:55:16,708 --> 00:55:18,792 - Do you see a future with me? Do you see a future with me? 1467 00:55:18,875 --> 00:55:20,667 - Cutting me off really does piss me off. 1468 00:55:20,750 --> 00:55:22,667 I'm sorry. - Is there an answer? 1469 00:55:22,708 --> 00:55:28,792 ♪ 1470 00:55:28,875 --> 00:55:30,333 - I don't know. 1471 00:55:30,417 --> 00:55:31,833 I don't know. 1472 00:55:31,958 --> 00:55:36,333 ♪ 1473 00:55:36,458 --> 00:55:38,625 She told us not to talk about the future 1474 00:55:38,708 --> 00:55:40,458 and be so future-focused, right? 1475 00:55:40,542 --> 00:55:42,500 I am trying to stay present in this moment. 1476 00:55:42,583 --> 00:55:43,917 - Okay. 1477 00:55:44,042 --> 00:55:45,667 - 'Cause you keep jumping into the future of... 1478 00:55:45,750 --> 00:55:49,292 - Okay, how about tonight... 1479 00:55:49,375 --> 00:55:52,417 I sleep in the spare bed 1480 00:55:52,500 --> 00:55:56,042 and we see if that seems like something 1481 00:55:56,167 --> 00:55:58,667 that we can maintain? 1482 00:55:58,750 --> 00:56:01,333 - Mm-hmm, okay. 1483 00:56:01,375 --> 00:56:03,208 Yeah, I mean, I think that works. 1484 00:56:03,292 --> 00:56:04,833 - Okay. 1485 00:56:04,917 --> 00:56:06,833 - I just don't want you to be resentful towards me 1486 00:56:06,875 --> 00:56:07,833 about anything. 1487 00:56:07,875 --> 00:56:10,083 ♪ 1488 00:56:10,167 --> 00:56:12,083 Ooh. 1489 00:56:12,167 --> 00:56:14,083 - I mean, I'm not yet. 1490 00:56:14,208 --> 00:56:15,292 ♪ 1491 00:56:15,375 --> 00:56:16,792 - Okay. 1492 00:56:16,875 --> 00:56:17,583 ♪ 1493 00:56:21,375 --> 00:56:22,417 - ♪ I set out 1494 00:56:22,792 --> 00:56:26,083 ♪ On a mission just to find where you are ♪ 1495 00:56:26,167 --> 00:56:28,833 - What'd you think? 1496 00:56:28,917 --> 00:56:31,667 - Those conversations are moving in the right direction, 1497 00:56:31,833 --> 00:56:36,000 and I think next week will be a good opportunity 1498 00:56:36,083 --> 00:56:39,583 for us to, like, work through some of this stuff. 1499 00:56:39,667 --> 00:56:42,292 - Yeah. - What about you? 1500 00:56:42,375 --> 00:56:43,958 - She kept harping on emotions, 1501 00:56:44,042 --> 00:56:46,417 and I'm trying to understand, like, where that's coming from, 1502 00:56:46,500 --> 00:56:48,833 because I feel like I'm being open and honest 1503 00:56:48,958 --> 00:56:53,125 about how I feel, and I can't help how I feel. 1504 00:56:53,208 --> 00:56:55,458 - So I think a little bit was just, like, trying to-- 1505 00:56:55,542 --> 00:56:58,667 her just to better understand the situation in you. 1506 00:56:58,750 --> 00:57:01,167 - Yeah, but she says I need therapy because of that. 1507 00:57:01,250 --> 00:57:03,292 - I think you have feelings. 1508 00:57:03,375 --> 00:57:05,708 You just don't know what those feelings are. 1509 00:57:05,833 --> 00:57:07,750 - Yeah, I'm not saying I don't have feelings. 1510 00:57:07,833 --> 00:57:09,500 - No, I know-- 1511 00:57:09,583 --> 00:57:11,875 - But she asked me to disclose my feelings for you. 1512 00:57:11,958 --> 00:57:13,917 ♪ 1513 00:57:14,000 --> 00:57:17,000 And if there are no feelings there yet-- 1514 00:57:17,042 --> 00:57:19,667 and I'm not trying to sound rude or hurtful, 1515 00:57:19,792 --> 00:57:22,125 but, like, you want me to be honest-- 1516 00:57:22,208 --> 00:57:24,042 if that's where we're at, 1517 00:57:24,125 --> 00:57:26,708 I don't know why I need therapy 1518 00:57:26,792 --> 00:57:29,667 to explain why that's not there yet. 1519 00:57:29,708 --> 00:57:32,750 ♪ 1520 00:57:32,833 --> 00:57:34,417 - I think you're sharing your feelings 1521 00:57:34,500 --> 00:57:36,167 as much as you can share your feelings. 1522 00:57:36,250 --> 00:57:39,667 That is the point. - Okay. 1523 00:57:39,750 --> 00:57:42,833 - And I think you have more feelings and-- 1524 00:57:42,917 --> 00:57:44,292 - For you? 1525 00:57:44,375 --> 00:57:45,750 - No, just in general. [pan clatters] 1526 00:57:45,875 --> 00:57:47,833 - Okay, do you see why I'm getting frustrated? 1527 00:57:47,958 --> 00:57:49,417 ♪ 1528 00:57:49,500 --> 00:57:51,000 What are you talking about? 1529 00:57:51,083 --> 00:57:54,250 What am I not expressing to you about how I feel? 1530 00:57:54,250 --> 00:57:56,500 - I just don't know why this is getting heated right now. 1531 00:57:56,542 --> 00:57:58,833 - Let's not put this on me. - It's not you. 1532 00:57:58,917 --> 00:58:00,750 - Because you haven't brought up any serious topics. 1533 00:58:00,833 --> 00:58:02,667 You haven't brought up anything you want to discuss. 1534 00:58:02,750 --> 00:58:04,167 - Look, I know it's a two-way street, duh. 1535 00:58:04,250 --> 00:58:06,083 ♪ 1536 00:58:06,167 --> 00:58:08,083 - Mm-hmm. 1537 00:58:08,167 --> 00:58:10,667 - I feel like if anyone should be negative and, like, upset... 1538 00:58:10,708 --> 00:58:12,500 - I'm not--I don't-- - It should be me. 1539 00:58:12,583 --> 00:58:13,833 - [sighing] Oh, my God. - Right? 1540 00:58:13,958 --> 00:58:15,792 ♪ 1541 00:58:15,875 --> 00:58:19,583 I don't understand why it just got so serious so fast. 1542 00:58:22,000 --> 00:58:23,458 So... 1543 00:58:23,542 --> 00:58:25,208 - Well, it wasn't my intention, so... 1544 00:58:25,292 --> 00:58:26,917 ♪ 1545 00:58:27,042 --> 00:58:28,458 - I... 1546 00:58:28,542 --> 00:58:30,750 Brain was really going. I left that feeling good. 1547 00:58:30,875 --> 00:58:32,875 - Yeah, I guess there was just a disconnect there, 1548 00:58:32,958 --> 00:58:34,917 'cause I did not leave that feeling good. 1549 00:58:35,042 --> 00:58:36,958 - But, like, why not? 1550 00:58:37,042 --> 00:58:39,542 - Because it's not a very good feeling 1551 00:58:39,625 --> 00:58:42,083 when someone tells you you should go to therapy. 1552 00:58:42,167 --> 00:58:44,833 - While I understand that that was a hard recommendation 1553 00:58:44,917 --> 00:58:47,500 for you, I actually think it's a very important piece 1554 00:58:47,583 --> 00:58:48,750 to the problem. 1555 00:58:48,833 --> 00:58:50,667 - I understand how you feel. 1556 00:58:50,708 --> 00:58:54,000 You think that I need therapy, but it's never going to happen. 1557 00:58:54,042 --> 00:59:00,250 ♪ 1558 00:59:00,333 --> 00:59:03,292 [upbeat music] 1559 00:59:03,375 --> 00:59:04,542 ♪ 1560 00:59:04,625 --> 00:59:06,750 - Comfy, cozy couch. 1561 00:59:06,875 --> 00:59:09,750 Whoo! - So that was good. 1562 00:59:09,875 --> 00:59:11,542 - Mm-hmm. 1563 00:59:11,625 --> 00:59:14,000 - Were you surprised to hear that I was open 1564 00:59:14,083 --> 00:59:18,417 to more than just, like, making out? 1565 00:59:18,500 --> 00:59:22,333 - I mean, I think I'm surprised 1566 00:59:22,417 --> 00:59:24,792 that you haven't, like... [clicks tongue] 1567 00:59:24,875 --> 00:59:28,000 Giddy'd up, because I think you've known that I'm ready. 1568 00:59:28,083 --> 00:59:29,750 So, yeah, I was a little surprised. 1569 00:59:29,833 --> 00:59:31,500 - Okay. [chuckles] 1570 00:59:31,583 --> 00:59:34,333 - You haven't grabbed your lasso and... 1571 00:59:34,417 --> 00:59:35,500 - [laughs] - [clicking tongue] 1572 00:59:35,583 --> 00:59:37,083 Reeled me in, yeah. 1573 00:59:37,167 --> 00:59:39,542 - You know, it's this, you know, back and forth-- 1574 00:59:39,625 --> 00:59:40,792 - Are you cool to try it a different way? 1575 00:59:40,875 --> 00:59:42,208 - Yeah, of course. - Cool. 1576 00:59:42,333 --> 00:59:43,792 - Yeah. - Bedtime? 1577 00:59:43,875 --> 00:59:46,458 - Yeah, should we just, like, curl up in here? 1578 00:59:46,542 --> 00:59:48,917 No. Okay. - Let's kiss. 1579 00:59:49,042 --> 00:59:52,167 Let's get the ab workout to kiss and then separate. 1580 00:59:52,250 --> 00:59:55,292 ♪ 1581 00:59:55,375 --> 00:59:57,667 - Give me that again. [laughter] 1582 00:59:57,750 --> 00:59:59,667 - ♪ Put your body on me 1583 00:59:59,708 --> 01:00:02,750 - ♪ Give it to me right now - ♪ Right now 1584 01:00:02,875 --> 01:00:04,417 ♪ 1585 01:00:04,500 --> 01:00:07,167 - Still to come this season on "Married at First Sight"... 1586 01:00:07,292 --> 01:00:09,167 - ♪ Those pretty eyes... 1587 01:00:09,250 --> 01:00:11,125 - Whoa. 1588 01:00:11,208 --> 01:00:12,875 - Whoo-hoo. 1589 01:00:12,958 --> 01:00:15,958 - ♪ Yeah, you make me feel alive ♪ 1590 01:00:15,958 --> 01:00:18,000 - She is really great with children, 1591 01:00:18,083 --> 01:00:20,875 and seeing that is very important to me. 1592 01:00:21,000 --> 01:00:25,042 - ♪ Every time we get sweeter ♪ 1593 01:00:25,125 --> 01:00:26,625 - Can we, like, agree to, like, try to hug more? 1594 01:00:26,708 --> 01:00:28,083 - Yes. I love hugging. 1595 01:00:28,167 --> 01:00:30,458 - ♪ Every time we get stronger ♪ 1596 01:00:30,542 --> 01:00:32,625 - [laughs] 1597 01:00:32,625 --> 01:00:33,833 - All right, Cameron, come on down. 1598 01:00:33,875 --> 01:00:35,333 - That was impressive. 1599 01:00:35,458 --> 01:00:36,458 - Austin the other night 1600 01:00:36,542 --> 01:00:37,833 accidentally told me he loved me. 1601 01:00:37,917 --> 01:00:39,375 [laughs] 1602 01:00:39,458 --> 01:00:41,250 - ♪ Every time we get sweeter ♪ 1603 01:00:41,375 --> 01:00:45,542 - I would really like to build a bridge back to you 1604 01:00:45,625 --> 01:00:48,208 because I am missing our connection. 1605 01:00:48,292 --> 01:00:50,000 ♪ 1606 01:00:50,042 --> 01:00:53,333 - Are you willing to get married at first sight again? 1607 01:00:53,417 --> 01:00:55,000 ♪ 1608 01:00:55,000 --> 01:00:57,208 - Michael, you said it was the biggest failure 1609 01:00:57,333 --> 01:00:58,958 of your personal life. 1610 01:00:59,042 --> 01:01:01,833 I just--I never want him to feel that way again. 1611 01:01:01,917 --> 01:01:03,125 ♪ 1612 01:01:03,208 --> 01:01:04,958 - This continual toying 1613 01:01:05,042 --> 01:01:07,667 with my feelings and emotions, frankly... 1614 01:01:07,708 --> 01:01:09,833 - Yeah. - Is unsustainable for me. 1615 01:01:09,917 --> 01:01:12,500 - I'm getting just very frustrated. 1616 01:01:12,542 --> 01:01:14,875 - He's giving you nothing. - And I'm just-- 1617 01:01:14,958 --> 01:01:16,833 - You don't deserve this [bleep]. 1618 01:01:16,958 --> 01:01:18,500 - And, like, after what you said, 1619 01:01:18,583 --> 01:01:22,042 it makes me kind of feel like you want me to just not... 1620 01:01:22,125 --> 01:01:23,625 think for myself all the time. 1621 01:01:23,708 --> 01:01:27,375 - I'm starting to whether Austin is 1622 01:01:27,500 --> 01:01:30,333 really on the same train as me. 1623 01:01:30,417 --> 01:01:32,333 ♪ 1624 01:01:32,375 --> 01:01:36,083 - One of my deal breakers was a positive, positive person. 1625 01:01:36,208 --> 01:01:38,917 - I'm the most positive [bleep] person there is. 1626 01:01:38,917 --> 01:01:40,875 - This is not what I was expecting. 1627 01:01:40,875 --> 01:01:42,417 - I can't meet him where he's at. 1628 01:01:42,500 --> 01:01:45,708 - ♪ My eyes roll to the back of my head ♪ 1629 01:01:45,792 --> 01:01:49,167 - My emotions towards you are open to being open. 1630 01:01:49,208 --> 01:01:50,958 - Yeah? 1631 01:01:51,042 --> 01:01:53,750 - [crying] Days and nights of rejection, 1632 01:01:53,875 --> 01:01:56,000 and it just, like, gets to a point 1633 01:01:56,125 --> 01:01:57,917 where, like, I don't know what to do anymore. 1634 01:01:58,000 --> 01:02:01,667 - I can't do it. - [crying] 1635 01:02:01,750 --> 01:02:06,500 ♪ 1636 01:02:06,583 --> 01:02:08,042 - Oh, no. 1637 01:02:08,125 --> 01:02:13,667 ♪ 1638 01:02:13,750 --> 01:02:15,542 - It's [bleep] bad. 1639 01:02:15,625 --> 01:02:18,292 - ♪ Oh - ♪ Now I'm running 1640 01:02:18,375 --> 01:02:20,333 - The time is here for you to decide... 1641 01:02:20,375 --> 01:02:21,958 ♪ 1642 01:02:22,042 --> 01:02:23,625 - If you want to stay married... 1643 01:02:23,708 --> 01:02:26,000 - Or do you want to get a divorce? 1644 01:02:26,125 --> 01:02:29,292 - ♪ Runnin' away, runnin' away from you ♪ 1645 01:02:29,375 --> 01:02:31,958 ♪ Runnin' away from you 1646 01:02:32,042 --> 01:02:34,458 ♪