1 00:00:02,333 --> 00:00:05,083 - ♪ It's time to shout it out louder ♪ 2 00:00:05,167 --> 00:00:07,208 - Just under one month ago, 3 00:00:07,292 --> 00:00:10,000 eight singles took the ultimate leap of faith 4 00:00:10,042 --> 00:00:11,375 in order to find love. 5 00:00:11,458 --> 00:00:15,542 They married as complete strangers. 6 00:00:15,667 --> 00:00:20,167 But for one groom, the journey ended before it even began. 7 00:00:20,250 --> 00:00:24,792 - I couldn't move her enough to even give this a shot. 8 00:00:24,875 --> 00:00:28,875 - He will rise from this, and she's out there, man. 9 00:00:28,958 --> 00:00:32,458 ♪ 10 00:00:32,542 --> 00:00:33,875 - How are you? - Hi. Good seeing you. 11 00:00:33,958 --> 00:00:35,958 - Last time, our remaining couples 12 00:00:36,042 --> 00:00:38,167 continued to dive deeper 13 00:00:38,292 --> 00:00:40,417 in order to better understand their partner 14 00:00:40,417 --> 00:00:42,667 as they navigate the highs and lows 15 00:00:42,750 --> 00:00:45,333 of everyday domestic life. 16 00:00:45,417 --> 00:00:47,375 ♪ 17 00:00:47,458 --> 00:00:49,042 - So when we're talking about sex, 18 00:00:49,125 --> 00:00:51,292 is it okay to do other things? 19 00:00:51,375 --> 00:00:52,958 - We haven't yet, but it's okay to. 20 00:00:53,042 --> 00:00:55,833 - I think she just perked up a little bit. 21 00:00:55,958 --> 00:00:58,000 ♪ 22 00:00:58,125 --> 00:01:00,042 - Do you want me to stay? 23 00:01:00,125 --> 00:01:01,625 - I don't--I don't know. 24 00:01:01,708 --> 00:01:03,042 I just don't want you to be resentful towards me 25 00:01:03,167 --> 00:01:04,125 about anything. 26 00:01:04,208 --> 00:01:06,958 - I mean, I'm not yet. 27 00:01:07,042 --> 00:01:09,333 ♪ 28 00:01:09,375 --> 00:01:11,625 - Is not a very good feeling when someone tells you 29 00:01:11,708 --> 00:01:13,500 you should go to therapy. 30 00:01:13,542 --> 00:01:15,167 - While I understand that that was 31 00:01:15,250 --> 00:01:17,125 a hard recommendation for you, I actually think 32 00:01:17,208 --> 00:01:20,667 it's a very important piece to the problem. 33 00:01:20,750 --> 00:01:22,583 ♪ 34 00:01:22,667 --> 00:01:26,958 - You know, I don't think it would be beneficial 35 00:01:27,042 --> 00:01:29,000 to continue on with the marriage 36 00:01:29,042 --> 00:01:31,792 because I know in my heart, I'm already out. 37 00:01:31,875 --> 00:01:36,125 - I'm very excited to just continue on with life 38 00:01:36,208 --> 00:01:38,458 and know that I tried my best. 39 00:01:38,542 --> 00:01:41,958 ♪ 40 00:01:42,042 --> 00:01:44,458 - ♪ So dance the night away 41 00:01:44,542 --> 00:01:46,000 - We're going in. 42 00:01:46,083 --> 00:01:47,875 - And tonight, our couples approach 43 00:01:47,875 --> 00:01:49,667 their one-month anniversary. 44 00:01:49,750 --> 00:01:51,750 ♪ 45 00:01:51,833 --> 00:01:53,375 - Killed it. 46 00:01:53,458 --> 00:01:55,125 - Can we, like, agree to, like, try to hug more? 47 00:01:55,208 --> 00:01:56,542 - Yes. I love hugging. 48 00:01:56,625 --> 00:01:57,958 - Awesome. Should we start that now? 49 00:01:58,042 --> 00:01:58,833 - Right this very moment? - Yeah. 50 00:01:58,917 --> 00:02:00,417 - Yeah. 51 00:02:00,542 --> 00:02:03,292 - Do you guys see yourself-- do you see a future? 52 00:02:03,375 --> 00:02:05,833 - Clare, way to stir the pot. 53 00:02:05,917 --> 00:02:07,583 - I'm sorry. - I know. 54 00:02:07,708 --> 00:02:11,125 - If he's not sure of you, you need to walk away. 55 00:02:11,208 --> 00:02:13,875 - And so it's hard to, like, be married to someone 56 00:02:13,958 --> 00:02:16,458 that isn't sure whether I do or not. 57 00:02:16,542 --> 00:02:21,667 And it just makes me feel really sad and hurt. 58 00:02:21,708 --> 00:02:24,708 - On the count of three, say you want a divorce... 59 00:02:24,792 --> 00:02:26,250 - Oh, no! - No! 60 00:02:26,375 --> 00:02:29,000 - That is absolutely not what I was trying to get to. 61 00:02:29,083 --> 00:02:31,083 - Or you want to keep trying. 62 00:02:31,167 --> 00:02:32,500 - Don't wanna resent you, and, like, 63 00:02:32,583 --> 00:02:34,333 I don't think you understand that will happen 64 00:02:34,417 --> 00:02:36,333 if you don't make changes. 65 00:02:36,417 --> 00:02:38,333 - And for the first time 66 00:02:38,458 --> 00:02:40,750 in "Married at First Sight" history... 67 00:02:40,875 --> 00:02:44,167 - There has been some talk about if you would be willing 68 00:02:44,208 --> 00:02:47,000 to take another chance. 69 00:02:47,083 --> 00:02:50,000 ♪ 70 00:02:50,042 --> 00:02:51,625 - ♪ It's all or nothing 71 00:02:51,708 --> 00:02:54,208 - This is "Married at First Sight." 72 00:02:54,208 --> 00:02:56,333 - ♪ There's no other way 73 00:02:56,417 --> 00:02:57,917 ♪ 74 00:02:58,042 --> 00:03:00,125 ♪ It's all or nothing 75 00:03:00,208 --> 00:03:02,250 - ♪ Up, up, up we go 76 00:03:02,333 --> 00:03:03,375 ♪ Move around, going running 77 00:03:03,500 --> 00:03:04,708 ♪ Everybody's up and bumping 78 00:03:04,792 --> 00:03:06,167 ♪ Move fast, move that, you mad ♪ 79 00:03:06,292 --> 00:03:07,625 ♪ Baby, keep it coming, coming ♪ 80 00:03:07,708 --> 00:03:09,125 ♪ Ain't no way it's ever stopping ♪ 81 00:03:09,208 --> 00:03:11,125 ♪ Move that, sure can't hold back ♪ 82 00:03:11,208 --> 00:03:12,542 - Here's your dough. 83 00:03:12,625 --> 00:03:13,875 - Oh, nice. 84 00:03:13,958 --> 00:03:16,292 - And then I'm Googling. 85 00:03:18,083 --> 00:03:19,583 Treat the dough gently. 86 00:03:19,667 --> 00:03:20,917 - I feel like the dough just wants me 87 00:03:21,000 --> 00:03:22,333 to be patient with it. 88 00:03:22,417 --> 00:03:25,000 So I'm just trying to go at her pace, you know? 89 00:03:25,125 --> 00:03:28,083 - I'm trying to be gentle 'cause I am not. 90 00:03:28,208 --> 00:03:29,250 [chuckles] 91 00:03:29,333 --> 00:03:31,500 And this is delicate. 92 00:03:31,583 --> 00:03:33,750 - Oh, yours is really good. 93 00:03:33,833 --> 00:03:34,875 This was such a great idea. 94 00:03:34,958 --> 00:03:36,500 Thanks for getting all the stuff. 95 00:03:36,583 --> 00:03:37,750 - Yeah, it's like, this is a good way 96 00:03:37,833 --> 00:03:39,667 to, like, offset last night, 97 00:03:39,708 --> 00:03:43,167 even though, like, I think we are fine. 98 00:03:43,208 --> 00:03:44,333 - Yeah, I think it was just, 99 00:03:44,375 --> 00:03:45,667 like, a little miscommunication. 100 00:03:45,750 --> 00:03:46,875 - Yeah. 101 00:03:46,958 --> 00:03:48,167 But I enjoyed Pia. 102 00:03:48,250 --> 00:03:49,625 - Yeah. 103 00:03:49,708 --> 00:03:51,458 - And I know you don't wanna go to therapy, 104 00:03:51,542 --> 00:03:55,083 and I get it, but I need you to continue 105 00:03:55,167 --> 00:03:57,083 just to, like, open up and share more. 106 00:03:57,167 --> 00:03:59,667 - Yeah. - I think it's getting better. 107 00:03:59,750 --> 00:04:01,417 - Yeah. 108 00:04:01,500 --> 00:04:04,333 - Which is important because this can get better. 109 00:04:04,375 --> 00:04:06,958 And I think last week was harder 110 00:04:07,042 --> 00:04:10,167 to, like, measure progress 'cause we needed to, like, 111 00:04:10,208 --> 00:04:12,250 get through moving in and all of that. 112 00:04:12,375 --> 00:04:15,958 So I think now it's just gonna be more important 113 00:04:16,042 --> 00:04:17,292 coming out of these conversations 114 00:04:17,375 --> 00:04:18,333 just moving forward, that, like, we're actually 115 00:04:18,417 --> 00:04:20,208 taking action on this stuff. 116 00:04:20,292 --> 00:04:22,083 So that's why, like, it's important for me 117 00:04:22,167 --> 00:04:26,250 at the highest level this week to figure out how we do that. 118 00:04:26,333 --> 00:04:29,500 - Yeah. - And when we set the goals. 119 00:04:29,542 --> 00:04:31,333 - I know we agreed to do Pia's exercises, 120 00:04:31,417 --> 00:04:34,833 but the touching one seemed a little odd to me 121 00:04:34,875 --> 00:04:38,167 to, like, force each other to, like, touch. 122 00:04:38,292 --> 00:04:39,625 - What I want you to do is, 123 00:04:39,708 --> 00:04:42,333 you're going to touch one another from head to toe 124 00:04:42,375 --> 00:04:45,208 with as minimal clothing 125 00:04:45,292 --> 00:04:47,250 as the two of you feel comfortable with. 126 00:04:47,333 --> 00:04:49,000 That would be okay? - Yeah. 127 00:04:49,167 --> 00:04:50,625 - Okay. We're getting somewhere. 128 00:04:50,708 --> 00:04:53,458 We're getting somewhere! Brennan, I'm proud of you. 129 00:04:53,458 --> 00:04:55,125 - I think we can pivot on that a little bit. 130 00:04:55,208 --> 00:04:58,167 - Yeah. - And maybe expand-- 131 00:04:58,250 --> 00:05:00,125 like, for me, I like hugging. - Yeah. 132 00:05:00,208 --> 00:05:04,708 - So I think instead of, like, the whole boop and then boop, 133 00:05:04,833 --> 00:05:06,875 can we, like, agree to, like, try to hug more? 134 00:05:06,958 --> 00:05:09,125 - Yeah, I love hugging. - Okay. Awesome. 135 00:05:09,208 --> 00:05:11,000 Should we start that now? 136 00:05:11,042 --> 00:05:12,333 - Right this very moment? 137 00:05:12,375 --> 00:05:13,875 - Yeah. - Yeah. 138 00:05:13,958 --> 00:05:16,625 ♪ 139 00:05:16,708 --> 00:05:22,083 - But I think the hugging is complementary to talking more. 140 00:05:22,208 --> 00:05:23,708 - Right. 141 00:05:23,792 --> 00:05:26,000 - And I'd rather focus on that, you know, like, 142 00:05:26,083 --> 00:05:28,417 continuing to build the emotional connection, 143 00:05:28,500 --> 00:05:30,167 and, like, go back to conversations. 144 00:05:30,208 --> 00:05:32,292 I feel like we haven't had a chance 145 00:05:32,375 --> 00:05:34,167 to, like, do that because... - Mm-hmm. 146 00:05:34,250 --> 00:05:35,917 - I think will be important. - Okay. 147 00:05:36,000 --> 00:05:37,625 - 'Cause, like, some of the, like, past relationship stuff, 148 00:05:37,708 --> 00:05:39,625 I think would be helpful for me. 149 00:05:39,708 --> 00:05:41,333 So then I think, like, that's probably 150 00:05:41,375 --> 00:05:42,958 what I will wanna talk to you about this week. 151 00:05:43,042 --> 00:05:46,292 - Okay. Gotcha. - Yeah. 152 00:05:46,375 --> 00:05:49,958 - We can talk through some of it later. 153 00:05:50,042 --> 00:05:52,792 - Um... 154 00:05:52,875 --> 00:05:55,833 I just want you to know, while I can feel frustrated 155 00:05:55,875 --> 00:05:57,500 here and there, I'm sure you feel the same with me. 156 00:05:57,625 --> 00:06:00,500 Like, I am committed to this, to you, 157 00:06:00,583 --> 00:06:03,500 and to, like, figuring this all out. 158 00:06:03,625 --> 00:06:09,542 And I know we're in different spots currently. 159 00:06:09,542 --> 00:06:12,750 But yeah, like, I just wouldn't be doing this 160 00:06:12,833 --> 00:06:16,792 if I didn't want to or think it was worth it. 161 00:06:16,875 --> 00:06:18,667 - Same. 162 00:06:18,750 --> 00:06:25,458 ♪ 163 00:06:26,958 --> 00:06:29,833 - So I'm a little nervous about this meeting. 164 00:06:29,917 --> 00:06:35,042 We're here to see Michael after this debacle at the altar. 165 00:06:35,167 --> 00:06:36,583 - I'm sorry. 166 00:06:36,667 --> 00:06:38,333 I don't think I can do this. 167 00:06:38,417 --> 00:06:40,000 I don't wanna marry a stranger. 168 00:06:40,042 --> 00:06:42,750 - Oh. 169 00:06:42,833 --> 00:06:46,417 - I can say we've never had anything close to this. 170 00:06:46,542 --> 00:06:47,667 - Not since I've been here. I haven't seen it. 171 00:06:47,708 --> 00:06:49,667 - And it's to me, an emotional disaster. 172 00:06:49,750 --> 00:06:51,333 I feel terrible about it, 173 00:06:51,375 --> 00:06:54,042 and I wanna find out how he's thinking, 174 00:06:54,125 --> 00:06:56,000 um, and how he's feeling. 175 00:06:56,042 --> 00:06:59,458 Honestly, I feel terrible about being one of the people 176 00:06:59,542 --> 00:07:03,500 who matched him because had I an inkling, 177 00:07:03,542 --> 00:07:05,667 this, of course, wouldn't happen. 178 00:07:05,750 --> 00:07:07,000 - You can never know exactly what's going to happen. 179 00:07:07,042 --> 00:07:08,833 You make the best decision that you have 180 00:07:08,875 --> 00:07:11,000 based on the information that you have at the time. 181 00:07:11,083 --> 00:07:13,250 And I don't think any of us could have seen this coming. 182 00:07:13,375 --> 00:07:15,292 - No. No, we couldn't. 183 00:07:15,375 --> 00:07:16,583 Yeah, I really feel bad for him. 184 00:07:16,667 --> 00:07:19,958 And I gotta admit, he was very classy 185 00:07:20,042 --> 00:07:21,583 during the entire thing. 186 00:07:21,667 --> 00:07:23,250 You know, he was a complete gentleman. 187 00:07:23,375 --> 00:07:25,667 - Sure. - But I just give him 188 00:07:25,750 --> 00:07:30,583 so much credit for being a gentleman, you know, 189 00:07:30,583 --> 00:07:32,792 about the whole thing. 190 00:07:32,875 --> 00:07:39,667 ♪ 191 00:07:41,125 --> 00:07:42,000 - Hi. - King Michael. 192 00:07:42,083 --> 00:07:43,458 - Yes. Amazing. 193 00:07:43,542 --> 00:07:44,917 - Make sure I don't poke any eyes out. 194 00:07:45,000 --> 00:07:46,458 - It's the crown for me. - It's good to see you. 195 00:07:46,542 --> 00:07:48,667 - Mm-hmm. - Hey, buddy. 196 00:07:48,750 --> 00:07:51,000 Good to see you, man. - And you as well. 197 00:07:51,083 --> 00:07:55,083 - Good to see you. - Of course. You as well. 198 00:07:55,083 --> 00:07:57,250 - All right. 199 00:07:57,375 --> 00:07:59,000 - I like the crown. 200 00:07:59,042 --> 00:08:00,917 - I have no negative things to say about the crown. 201 00:08:01,042 --> 00:08:02,833 It was a great gift, so. 202 00:08:02,875 --> 00:08:05,500 - I--you know, first of all, let me speak for all of us 203 00:08:05,625 --> 00:08:07,667 that we are appalled that this happened 204 00:08:07,667 --> 00:08:09,250 and feel so bad for you. 205 00:08:09,375 --> 00:08:11,750 We have--well, we wouldn't have matched you 206 00:08:11,875 --> 00:08:13,333 if we didn't think you were, you know, 207 00:08:13,375 --> 00:08:14,500 a really interesting, great guy. 208 00:08:14,583 --> 00:08:16,292 - Mm-hmm. 209 00:08:16,375 --> 00:08:18,167 - And we thought we had picked somebody 210 00:08:18,250 --> 00:08:21,792 who would be the right choice for each of you. 211 00:08:21,875 --> 00:08:25,250 She had seemed resolute, committed, excited. 212 00:08:25,375 --> 00:08:26,708 - Mm-hmm. 213 00:08:26,792 --> 00:08:29,125 - I just didn't pick up anything. 214 00:08:29,208 --> 00:08:33,208 And honestly, I couldn't believe it happened. 215 00:08:33,208 --> 00:08:34,667 It's never happened before. 216 00:08:34,792 --> 00:08:37,208 - It was tough, 'cause I'll be honest, 217 00:08:37,292 --> 00:08:40,875 I didn't really contemplate that possibility, 218 00:08:40,875 --> 00:08:43,458 meeting my potential wife, and her just saying no. 219 00:08:43,542 --> 00:08:47,542 But in the moment, seeing her in what I considered 220 00:08:47,625 --> 00:08:49,333 a very vulnerable state-- 221 00:08:49,417 --> 00:08:50,833 - Mm. 222 00:08:50,958 --> 00:08:54,083 - Even if I was mad, like, there was no incentive 223 00:08:54,167 --> 00:08:58,375 to express any type of anger in that moment. 224 00:08:58,500 --> 00:09:01,917 Once I went upstairs, I will admit, 225 00:09:02,042 --> 00:09:04,083 I was a little upset. 226 00:09:04,208 --> 00:09:05,667 Your mind works how it works, 227 00:09:05,792 --> 00:09:08,583 and so immediately, my mind is going to, like, 228 00:09:08,667 --> 00:09:10,750 what if she saw me prior, and was like, 229 00:09:10,833 --> 00:09:12,625 there's no way I could do that. 230 00:09:12,708 --> 00:09:15,208 And you know, that hits-- 231 00:09:15,292 --> 00:09:16,833 that hits a certain way. 232 00:09:16,958 --> 00:09:18,500 And I'll be honest, there was a moment 233 00:09:18,583 --> 00:09:20,667 where almost, like, an existential moment, 234 00:09:20,708 --> 00:09:22,167 I was like, wow, like, the-- 235 00:09:22,250 --> 00:09:25,750 the woman that they felt was a great match for me 236 00:09:25,833 --> 00:09:27,667 is the same woman who doesn't even want 237 00:09:27,708 --> 00:09:30,083 to do this journey with me. 238 00:09:30,167 --> 00:09:31,833 And, like, that-- 239 00:09:31,917 --> 00:09:36,833 I think that's probably when, like, I started crying. 240 00:09:36,917 --> 00:09:41,333 I didn't verbalize that part, but, like, I felt it. 241 00:09:41,417 --> 00:09:45,500 - We have matched you to become more and more in love 242 00:09:45,583 --> 00:09:47,250 if you give yourself that option. 243 00:09:47,333 --> 00:09:48,500 - Mm-hmm. 244 00:09:48,542 --> 00:09:50,667 - She took away all the options. 245 00:09:50,708 --> 00:09:54,500 And all she had was her own fears, her own background, 246 00:09:54,542 --> 00:09:57,042 and a very quick vision of you. - Mm-hmm. 247 00:09:57,125 --> 00:10:00,500 - So this really couldn't have been about you. 248 00:10:00,667 --> 00:10:04,292 - I'm curious, though, how has this affected your-- 249 00:10:04,375 --> 00:10:06,542 your view of marriage? 250 00:10:06,625 --> 00:10:08,583 - It hasn't. 251 00:10:08,708 --> 00:10:10,250 My response and my feelings about this experience 252 00:10:10,333 --> 00:10:14,875 is specific to me, not to my ideas of marriage as a whole. 253 00:10:14,958 --> 00:10:17,417 - Wow. That is how you need to think 254 00:10:17,542 --> 00:10:19,625 in order to have a successful relationship. 255 00:10:19,708 --> 00:10:21,875 - You know your worth, you know your value, 256 00:10:21,958 --> 00:10:24,417 and you deserve someone who appreciates that as well. 257 00:10:24,542 --> 00:10:26,333 - Well, thank you. - You're very welcome. 258 00:10:26,375 --> 00:10:30,917 - So Michael, there has been some talk about whether 259 00:10:31,042 --> 00:10:35,542 we could find in the very large pool of people 260 00:10:35,625 --> 00:10:38,042 that we didn't look at closely enough. 261 00:10:38,125 --> 00:10:42,792 If we could find someone we thought was worthy, 262 00:10:42,875 --> 00:10:47,333 would you be willing to take another chance 263 00:10:47,417 --> 00:10:48,875 while we're still in Denver? 264 00:10:48,875 --> 00:10:50,625 I don't know if there is such a person, 265 00:10:50,708 --> 00:10:53,167 but if there were, would you want 266 00:10:53,250 --> 00:10:54,583 to face that moment again? 267 00:10:54,708 --> 00:10:58,000 ♪ 268 00:11:02,167 --> 00:11:09,000 ♪ 269 00:11:09,083 --> 00:11:10,917 - You know, you emotionally and mentally 270 00:11:11,000 --> 00:11:12,917 kind of tune yourself for this. 271 00:11:13,000 --> 00:11:14,667 And I discovered things about myself 272 00:11:14,708 --> 00:11:16,208 that I didn't realize in the moment. 273 00:11:16,292 --> 00:11:17,833 Like, I knew I was ready for marriage, 274 00:11:17,917 --> 00:11:20,833 but I didn't know I was that ready. 275 00:11:20,958 --> 00:11:26,125 So to answer your question, I would 100% do this again. 276 00:11:26,208 --> 00:11:28,292 - And you're gonna make someone extremely happy. 277 00:11:28,375 --> 00:11:30,125 ♪ 278 00:11:30,208 --> 00:11:33,417 - If we could find someone else, 279 00:11:33,500 --> 00:11:35,625 after going through this experience, up to this point... 280 00:11:35,708 --> 00:11:37,958 - Mm-hmm. - Tell me now. 281 00:11:38,042 --> 00:11:39,917 I mean, we asked you before you were in this, 282 00:11:40,042 --> 00:11:42,875 but now that you've gone through all this, 283 00:11:43,000 --> 00:11:45,875 and you've had these challenges, 284 00:11:46,000 --> 00:11:49,292 tell me the kind of woman you'd be looking for. 285 00:11:49,375 --> 00:11:51,667 - I mean, of course, I would, you know, 286 00:11:51,708 --> 00:11:53,625 love an intelligent woman. 287 00:11:53,708 --> 00:11:57,125 Someone that, you know, is very witty and quick, 288 00:11:57,125 --> 00:11:59,750 and is very invested in themselves. 289 00:11:59,875 --> 00:12:01,875 And I think maybe what I didn't articulate as well 290 00:12:01,958 --> 00:12:04,875 is how much I appreciate, like, silliness too. 291 00:12:04,958 --> 00:12:06,292 I know it doesn't come out here as much, 292 00:12:06,375 --> 00:12:08,125 but I'm a pretty silly person. 293 00:12:08,208 --> 00:12:09,667 - [laughs] 294 00:12:09,750 --> 00:12:11,625 - And I kind of love that levity of, like, 295 00:12:11,708 --> 00:12:13,667 you can be that strong version of yourself 296 00:12:13,708 --> 00:12:15,292 in whatever form you need to be, 297 00:12:15,375 --> 00:12:17,750 but that you also have that latitude of, like, 298 00:12:17,750 --> 00:12:20,000 letting yourself be silly and goofy. 299 00:12:20,042 --> 00:12:23,000 But I would also reiterate that sweetness. 300 00:12:23,083 --> 00:12:25,708 Like, yeah, you might be a hard-ass at work, 301 00:12:25,792 --> 00:12:30,125 but there's that sweet nature that really, 302 00:12:30,208 --> 00:12:32,000 you foster inside of you. - I do. 303 00:12:32,083 --> 00:12:34,333 - Okay, we're looking for sweet and silly. [laughs] 304 00:12:34,417 --> 00:12:35,583 - Yeah. - Okay. 305 00:12:35,667 --> 00:12:36,875 - One thing that we are sure of-- 306 00:12:36,958 --> 00:12:39,042 and I think we all can agree-- 307 00:12:39,167 --> 00:12:42,250 is that we are completely, absolutely, 308 00:12:42,250 --> 00:12:46,000 unequivocally convinced 309 00:12:46,042 --> 00:12:48,708 that we chose the right husband. 310 00:12:48,833 --> 00:12:50,875 You are a king. 311 00:12:50,958 --> 00:12:54,958 - We think you have what it takes to create a relationship 312 00:12:55,042 --> 00:12:58,833 that has depth and fun in it. 313 00:12:58,958 --> 00:13:02,792 I really hope we could find the right person for you. 314 00:13:02,875 --> 00:13:05,333 - We're going to put our nose to the grindstone 315 00:13:05,458 --> 00:13:06,333 and see what we can do. 316 00:13:06,458 --> 00:13:07,792 - Well, thank you. 317 00:13:07,875 --> 00:13:09,417 That means a lot. - All right. 318 00:13:09,500 --> 00:13:10,875 To the future. - To the future. 319 00:13:11,042 --> 00:13:12,542 - To the future. - To the future. 320 00:13:12,542 --> 00:13:14,000 - ♪ You only got one life 321 00:13:14,083 --> 00:13:17,292 ♪ I'm not wasting it now 322 00:13:17,375 --> 00:13:24,042 ♪ 323 00:13:28,042 --> 00:13:30,500 - [laughs] Oh, I'm nervous. 324 00:13:30,542 --> 00:13:32,292 I'm about to make a fool. 325 00:13:32,375 --> 00:13:35,375 It's been a minute since we've skied. 326 00:13:35,500 --> 00:13:37,875 - I'm still trying to figure out Clare, I'll be honest. 327 00:13:38,000 --> 00:13:42,333 She does say one thing one day 328 00:13:42,417 --> 00:13:44,000 and says something different the next day. 329 00:13:44,083 --> 00:13:47,125 So today, with the fun that we're having, 330 00:13:47,208 --> 00:13:50,875 with Dr. Pia's advice, I'm hoping that at minimum, 331 00:13:51,000 --> 00:13:53,708 she'll figure out what she wants 'cause obviously, 332 00:13:53,792 --> 00:13:56,042 we've had problems meeting in the same place. 333 00:13:58,875 --> 00:14:00,250 - You feel like skiers? 334 00:14:00,250 --> 00:14:01,958 - We're--I'm feeling like a skier. 335 00:14:02,042 --> 00:14:03,792 - You look like skiers. - [laughs] 336 00:14:03,875 --> 00:14:06,500 ♪ 337 00:14:06,625 --> 00:14:08,458 - Follow me on up. 338 00:14:08,542 --> 00:14:12,042 ♪ 339 00:14:12,042 --> 00:14:13,833 - It's been a long time since I skied. 340 00:14:13,875 --> 00:14:15,750 I know Cameron hasn't skied in a minute. 341 00:14:15,833 --> 00:14:19,083 So I think it'll be a lot of fun, but, like, I don't know. 342 00:14:19,208 --> 00:14:21,000 There's just a lot of things that we need to work through. 343 00:14:21,042 --> 00:14:23,458 And maybe this will really bring out, like, the playful, 344 00:14:23,542 --> 00:14:25,667 fun side of both of us, to really help us 345 00:14:25,792 --> 00:14:27,292 turn the relationship around. 346 00:14:27,375 --> 00:14:28,458 I don't know. 347 00:14:28,542 --> 00:14:29,792 ♪ 348 00:14:29,875 --> 00:14:32,125 - Yeah. - Wow. 349 00:14:32,250 --> 00:14:34,542 Look at him go. 350 00:14:34,667 --> 00:14:36,500 - Very nice. 351 00:14:36,542 --> 00:14:38,500 - Ooh. 352 00:14:38,542 --> 00:14:40,125 ♪ 353 00:14:40,208 --> 00:14:41,750 - Good. 354 00:14:41,833 --> 00:14:44,000 - Cameron, you're gonna run into me? 355 00:14:44,125 --> 00:14:46,167 - Don't be afraid to move over a lot. 356 00:14:46,250 --> 00:14:49,583 ♪ 357 00:14:49,708 --> 00:14:51,750 - Cameron, get ready. - No. 358 00:14:51,833 --> 00:14:53,000 She wants to go between my legs. 359 00:14:53,083 --> 00:14:54,458 - I'm doing it. - Yeah! 360 00:14:54,542 --> 00:14:56,833 - I'll slow it down for you. - Go in front of me. 361 00:14:56,917 --> 00:14:58,208 - Okay, slow it down. - If we fall, we fall. 362 00:14:58,333 --> 00:14:59,917 - Okay. Okay. 363 00:15:00,000 --> 00:15:01,333 - Cameron, you gotta come up a little bit, though. 364 00:15:01,458 --> 00:15:03,250 Meet me halfway. - Okay, nice instructing. 365 00:15:03,333 --> 00:15:04,500 Thank you. 366 00:15:04,542 --> 00:15:07,292 ♪ 367 00:15:07,375 --> 00:15:08,750 - Cameron, you gotta move back a little bit, dude. 368 00:15:08,750 --> 00:15:09,792 - Well, I'm [bleep] trying. 369 00:15:09,875 --> 00:15:14,417 ♪ 370 00:15:14,542 --> 00:15:16,375 - Killed it! 371 00:15:16,458 --> 00:15:18,292 - Nice. - [laughs] 372 00:15:18,375 --> 00:15:19,958 - All right, Cameron, come on down. 373 00:15:20,042 --> 00:15:21,167 - That was impressive. 374 00:15:21,250 --> 00:15:23,000 - Yeah. 375 00:15:23,083 --> 00:15:24,583 - I am definitely trying, and I will 376 00:15:24,667 --> 00:15:26,375 continue to try, for sure. 377 00:15:26,458 --> 00:15:30,833 But I think it's hard because I do think Cameron 378 00:15:30,917 --> 00:15:33,292 has given a lot of his energy 379 00:15:33,375 --> 00:15:36,000 into trying to make this marriage work, 380 00:15:36,083 --> 00:15:39,250 but I think he's checked out, you know? 381 00:15:39,333 --> 00:15:40,917 And it's making it a little uncomfortable, 382 00:15:41,000 --> 00:15:42,042 to be quite honest. 383 00:15:47,375 --> 00:15:50,875 - So we're taking Dr. Pia's advice. 384 00:15:51,000 --> 00:15:52,833 - Yup. - We're having fun. 385 00:15:52,917 --> 00:15:54,667 - We are. - We're killing the fun. 386 00:15:54,750 --> 00:15:59,875 ♪ 387 00:16:00,000 --> 00:16:02,208 - But it is weird. 388 00:16:02,292 --> 00:16:03,417 And I--I'll say weird 'cause it is weird. 389 00:16:03,500 --> 00:16:04,792 Like, I'm sorry. 390 00:16:04,917 --> 00:16:07,125 That is the only feeling I have about it. 391 00:16:07,208 --> 00:16:09,542 We did not get to sign up for this 392 00:16:09,625 --> 00:16:12,333 to be in a platonic marriage. 393 00:16:12,458 --> 00:16:15,000 [laughs] I mean, did you sign up for a platonic marriage? 394 00:16:15,042 --> 00:16:17,208 'Cause I most certainly didn't. - I did not. 395 00:16:17,292 --> 00:16:18,708 - And do you feel like that's where--where-- 396 00:16:18,792 --> 00:16:21,042 like, it's just weird. 397 00:16:21,125 --> 00:16:22,333 - Mm-hmm. - I don't know. 398 00:16:22,375 --> 00:16:23,917 I didn't wanna-- 399 00:16:24,042 --> 00:16:25,167 - I mean, I feel like you just have said 400 00:16:25,250 --> 00:16:26,542 exactly what I was saying. - Right. 401 00:16:26,625 --> 00:16:28,125 - You know? It just-- - Right, and I just-- 402 00:16:28,208 --> 00:16:29,417 - It took you a little bit to catch up. 403 00:16:29,500 --> 00:16:31,167 - Well, I'm just-- I needed to reflect 404 00:16:31,250 --> 00:16:33,417 after Dr. Pia's visit. - Okay. 405 00:16:33,500 --> 00:16:35,542 - I mean, it's important to implement the, like-- 406 00:16:35,667 --> 00:16:38,667 the having fun, and taking your mind off of, 407 00:16:38,750 --> 00:16:43,000 like, the stress that sometimes relationships can be. 408 00:16:43,042 --> 00:16:44,833 - I don't know if I would force, like, 409 00:16:44,875 --> 00:16:46,333 a particular schedule on us. 410 00:16:46,375 --> 00:16:48,375 I don't wanna be, like, it's the first Thursday 411 00:16:48,458 --> 00:16:50,583 of every month. It's fun day today. 412 00:16:50,667 --> 00:16:52,792 - [laughs] That's fair. 413 00:16:52,875 --> 00:16:56,125 But, like, I feel like some things do need to be planned. 414 00:16:56,208 --> 00:16:59,042 And I'm not a quitter. 415 00:16:59,125 --> 00:17:02,125 So I do think it's important 416 00:17:02,208 --> 00:17:04,208 that we try everything, you know? 417 00:17:04,292 --> 00:17:06,708 ♪ 418 00:17:06,792 --> 00:17:08,250 - Yeah. 419 00:17:08,375 --> 00:17:10,333 - I am worried that he may start 420 00:17:10,375 --> 00:17:12,583 to become resentful of the time that we're spending 421 00:17:12,667 --> 00:17:13,750 right now with one another. 422 00:17:13,833 --> 00:17:15,167 Like, that is my worst fear 423 00:17:15,208 --> 00:17:17,208 because he is like a best friend to me. 424 00:17:17,292 --> 00:17:22,042 And so I would be so sad if I-- if that was stripped away 425 00:17:22,125 --> 00:17:23,833 from me just because we tried to force 426 00:17:23,917 --> 00:17:25,500 something that wasn't there. 427 00:17:25,583 --> 00:17:27,375 - Look, we're in a difficult spot. 428 00:17:27,458 --> 00:17:28,583 - Right. 429 00:17:28,667 --> 00:17:30,917 - So we can have fun, but it does-- 430 00:17:31,000 --> 00:17:33,958 there is kind of that looming feeling of... 431 00:17:34,042 --> 00:17:36,917 okay. - Yeah. 432 00:17:37,000 --> 00:17:38,833 But I still think that we should be 433 00:17:38,917 --> 00:17:40,167 embracing every single moment. 434 00:17:40,208 --> 00:17:42,125 - Mm-hmm. - You know what I mean? 435 00:17:42,208 --> 00:17:44,667 And so that's kind of where, like, how I feel. 436 00:17:44,708 --> 00:17:45,708 Yeah. 437 00:17:45,792 --> 00:17:48,792 So...yeah. 438 00:17:48,875 --> 00:17:55,708 ♪ 439 00:17:58,792 --> 00:18:00,667 - ♪ I can feel the water 440 00:18:00,750 --> 00:18:02,167 ♪ Batten up the doors 441 00:18:02,208 --> 00:18:07,292 ♪ Before the flood 442 00:18:11,292 --> 00:18:14,500 - Earlier today was a little difficult. 443 00:18:14,542 --> 00:18:17,000 We were just talking about religion a little bit, 444 00:18:17,083 --> 00:18:20,167 and I'm having a really hard time with it. 445 00:18:20,167 --> 00:18:25,167 And, um, it wasn't really going well. 446 00:18:25,292 --> 00:18:28,125 I still don't even know, like, what to say or what to do. 447 00:18:28,208 --> 00:18:30,583 I'm hoping that Pastor Cal will guide us. 448 00:18:30,667 --> 00:18:32,167 - Hey, Cal. 449 00:18:32,292 --> 00:18:34,083 - 'Cause, like, I don't know-- 450 00:18:34,167 --> 00:18:37,167 I don't know what to do. 451 00:18:37,250 --> 00:18:39,000 - What's going on, guys? 452 00:18:39,042 --> 00:18:40,500 - Hi. 453 00:18:40,583 --> 00:18:43,000 - [sighs] Well, I was gonna say not a lot, 454 00:18:43,083 --> 00:18:44,625 but that's not quite true. [chuckles] 455 00:18:44,708 --> 00:18:45,833 - That's not true at all, is it? 456 00:18:45,917 --> 00:18:47,333 - No. 457 00:18:47,417 --> 00:18:49,833 - So I understand we've been having 458 00:18:49,917 --> 00:18:53,333 some discussions about religion. 459 00:18:53,375 --> 00:18:55,000 - Yeah. 460 00:18:55,083 --> 00:18:57,333 - We just, like, got into a topic of, like, 461 00:18:57,375 --> 00:19:01,125 heaven and hell, and, like, Austin was being, like, 462 00:19:01,125 --> 00:19:03,333 very loving and comforting, 463 00:19:03,417 --> 00:19:05,542 and just telling me that, like, you know, 464 00:19:05,625 --> 00:19:10,167 even if it does end up that, like, I do die, 465 00:19:10,208 --> 00:19:12,125 and I do go to hell, like, he still thinks 466 00:19:12,208 --> 00:19:14,042 that he can, like, love me in the same way 467 00:19:14,125 --> 00:19:16,000 in this lifetime. 468 00:19:16,083 --> 00:19:17,708 Um... 469 00:19:17,833 --> 00:19:21,000 - How does that make you feel? 470 00:19:21,125 --> 00:19:26,125 - Um, it makes me feel less than. 471 00:19:26,208 --> 00:19:29,708 I don't think I'm going to hell. 472 00:19:29,792 --> 00:19:35,000 Um, and so it's hard to, like, be married to someone 473 00:19:35,125 --> 00:19:37,792 that isn't sure whether I do or not. 474 00:19:40,375 --> 00:19:43,833 And it just makes me feel really sad and hurt. 475 00:19:43,917 --> 00:19:45,417 - Yeah. 476 00:19:45,500 --> 00:19:47,917 Do you believe in hell, Becca? 477 00:19:48,000 --> 00:19:49,250 - No, not really. 478 00:19:49,375 --> 00:19:50,750 I mean, I don't know. 479 00:19:50,833 --> 00:19:52,667 To me, like, being agnostic means that, like, 480 00:19:52,708 --> 00:19:55,250 anything could be true, and anybody could be right. 481 00:19:55,375 --> 00:19:56,667 I like not knowing. 482 00:19:56,750 --> 00:19:59,708 Like, I love that anybody could be right. 483 00:19:59,708 --> 00:20:03,708 But, like, to think that if he believes that after this, 484 00:20:03,792 --> 00:20:06,875 we do go somewhere, and that we would go to different places-- 485 00:20:07,000 --> 00:20:10,583 - That kind of breaks you up. 486 00:20:10,667 --> 00:20:12,750 - [sobs] Yeah. It really hurts. 487 00:20:12,833 --> 00:20:15,708 - I'm so glad you guys are talking to me about this. 488 00:20:15,792 --> 00:20:18,333 But here's the thing. Here's the thing. 489 00:20:18,375 --> 00:20:22,292 Neither you, Austin, you, Becca, or I 490 00:20:22,375 --> 00:20:25,625 have ever left this life 491 00:20:25,708 --> 00:20:29,542 and come back to say what happens. 492 00:20:29,625 --> 00:20:33,167 I don't think anybody has the power or authority to do that. 493 00:20:33,292 --> 00:20:35,417 Is that fair enough to say? 494 00:20:35,500 --> 00:20:37,458 - Yeah. - Right, Austin? 495 00:20:37,542 --> 00:20:39,500 I mean, help me. - Yeah, yeah. 496 00:20:39,583 --> 00:20:42,167 - But this is what he said his church taught. 497 00:20:42,250 --> 00:20:47,208 - I said my church is accepting of gay people 498 00:20:47,292 --> 00:20:50,958 and anything that, like, is thought of and-- 499 00:20:51,042 --> 00:20:52,333 - But if you don't accept Jesus, 500 00:20:52,417 --> 00:20:54,375 then you're going to hell. - Right. 501 00:20:54,458 --> 00:20:56,458 - Okay. Let me tell you something. 502 00:20:56,542 --> 00:20:58,875 There are people who say they accept Jesus and are still 503 00:20:59,000 --> 00:21:00,250 doing a whole lot of stuff that the Bible says 504 00:21:00,333 --> 00:21:02,250 will keep you out of heaven. 505 00:21:02,250 --> 00:21:04,167 So let's just get real with it. 506 00:21:04,250 --> 00:21:06,167 Accepting Jesus is one thing, 507 00:21:06,208 --> 00:21:07,667 but accepting the principles of Jesus 508 00:21:07,708 --> 00:21:08,833 is something completely different, 509 00:21:08,917 --> 00:21:10,417 which are open to everybody. 510 00:21:10,500 --> 00:21:12,750 Is it reasonable for God to say, hey, look, 511 00:21:12,833 --> 00:21:14,333 you can only accept-- 512 00:21:14,375 --> 00:21:15,917 go to heaven if you accept Jesus Christ. 513 00:21:16,000 --> 00:21:18,542 However, if you're born in Afghanistan, 514 00:21:18,625 --> 00:21:21,000 and you never get a chance to accept Jesus Christ, 515 00:21:21,083 --> 00:21:23,000 oh, well, you burn in hell. 516 00:21:23,042 --> 00:21:25,625 - I mean, that's-- - Is that what I'm to believe? 517 00:21:25,708 --> 00:21:27,208 - I mean, that's not what I believe, either. 518 00:21:27,292 --> 00:21:28,292 - That's not what you believe? 519 00:21:28,375 --> 00:21:29,708 - No. - Okay, fine. 520 00:21:29,792 --> 00:21:31,417 Is it possible that you can see yourself 521 00:21:31,500 --> 00:21:33,375 to looking at different possibilities, Austin? 522 00:21:33,500 --> 00:21:35,542 Where are you on that? 523 00:21:35,667 --> 00:21:38,875 - Yeah, I mean, I'm always open to, like, hearing new theories. 524 00:21:39,000 --> 00:21:41,500 And one thing that, like, we kind of connected on 525 00:21:41,583 --> 00:21:46,875 was, like, the similarities between, like, Christianity, 526 00:21:47,000 --> 00:21:49,542 Judaism, and Islam is, like-- - Absolutely. 527 00:21:49,667 --> 00:21:52,833 - So I am, like, somewhat, like, agnostic 528 00:21:52,917 --> 00:21:55,167 in the fact that, like, there are so many similarities, 529 00:21:55,250 --> 00:21:56,542 like, they could all be the same thing. 530 00:21:56,625 --> 00:21:58,542 Like, who's to say? Who knows? 531 00:21:58,625 --> 00:22:00,500 Like, I don't, that's for sure. 532 00:22:00,583 --> 00:22:04,250 But, like, I'm always open to learning more, 533 00:22:04,375 --> 00:22:06,667 to talking to people, to figuring this out, 534 00:22:06,750 --> 00:22:09,417 like, regardless of how I grew up, 535 00:22:09,542 --> 00:22:13,000 or, like, what I believe happens in the afterlife. 536 00:22:13,083 --> 00:22:17,667 I don't think any of that affects how I care for you. 537 00:22:17,708 --> 00:22:21,333 Like, I can still love you, like, regardless 538 00:22:21,458 --> 00:22:23,250 of whatever happens in the afterlife. 539 00:22:23,333 --> 00:22:24,750 - And I'm thankful for that. 540 00:22:24,833 --> 00:22:27,333 But I'm just saying, like, if he were paired, like, 541 00:22:27,375 --> 00:22:28,917 with a Christian woman, like, he would-- 542 00:22:29,042 --> 00:22:30,417 - He wasn't. 543 00:22:30,542 --> 00:22:31,375 We didn't pair him with a Christian woman 544 00:22:31,542 --> 00:22:32,875 because you were his match. 545 00:22:32,958 --> 00:22:35,333 You are his match. Period. 546 00:22:35,417 --> 00:22:37,750 Couples always have issues. 547 00:22:37,833 --> 00:22:39,708 There will always be something. 548 00:22:39,792 --> 00:22:41,792 We chose you because we felt that you would be 549 00:22:41,875 --> 00:22:44,500 compatible with this man, and that he would be 550 00:22:44,583 --> 00:22:46,875 compatible with you, that he would love who you are, 551 00:22:46,958 --> 00:22:49,583 and that you would love who he is. 552 00:22:49,667 --> 00:22:51,250 And I believe that's happening. 553 00:22:51,375 --> 00:22:52,625 And you guys, the only reason you're 554 00:22:52,708 --> 00:22:54,500 showing this kind of emotion is because 555 00:22:54,583 --> 00:22:56,875 of the deep emotion and deep passion 556 00:22:56,958 --> 00:22:58,042 you feel for each other. 557 00:22:58,167 --> 00:22:59,583 Is that safe to say? 558 00:22:59,667 --> 00:23:02,167 - I thought we were feeling it. 559 00:23:02,208 --> 00:23:03,833 - [chuckles] Yeah. 560 00:23:03,917 --> 00:23:05,958 - I don't--I don't know-- - I do not, Becca? 561 00:23:06,042 --> 00:23:07,083 He says he is. - No. 562 00:23:07,208 --> 00:23:08,458 Austin, the other night, 563 00:23:08,542 --> 00:23:11,792 accidentally told me he loved me. [laughs] 564 00:23:11,875 --> 00:23:13,958 But it was a joke. [chuckles] 565 00:23:14,042 --> 00:23:16,625 - It was not a joke. - No, he was really tired. 566 00:23:16,708 --> 00:23:17,917 He was really tired, and he said, 567 00:23:18,000 --> 00:23:18,958 "Love you, good night." 568 00:23:19,042 --> 00:23:20,000 - And that's when truth comes out. 569 00:23:20,042 --> 00:23:21,167 It's like being drunk. 570 00:23:21,250 --> 00:23:23,583 Most people are in love 571 00:23:23,667 --> 00:23:25,000 long before they recognize it. 572 00:23:25,042 --> 00:23:26,583 - Yeah. 573 00:23:26,667 --> 00:23:27,917 - If you didn't care for one another, 574 00:23:28,000 --> 00:23:29,333 this wouldn't even be a conversation. 575 00:23:29,375 --> 00:23:31,542 - No, I'm feeling this way 576 00:23:31,625 --> 00:23:34,333 because I want us to work so badly. 577 00:23:34,458 --> 00:23:36,417 - And that's what's going to make you work. 578 00:23:36,500 --> 00:23:38,667 That is the thing that you need to hold on to. 579 00:23:38,708 --> 00:23:40,667 The fact that you want this so badly. 580 00:23:40,750 --> 00:23:42,833 And that is where you need to focus. 581 00:23:43,000 --> 00:23:45,042 - ♪ I need something ♪ 582 00:23:49,042 --> 00:23:50,958 [upbeat music] 583 00:23:51,042 --> 00:23:57,792 ♪ 584 00:24:00,167 --> 00:24:04,167 - So how was that for you? 585 00:24:04,292 --> 00:24:07,542 There were times when I felt like 586 00:24:07,625 --> 00:24:09,875 you wanted to say more or get more out. 587 00:24:10,000 --> 00:24:13,417 Do you feel satisfied? 588 00:24:13,500 --> 00:24:15,667 - If you do think that I'm going to hell, 589 00:24:15,792 --> 00:24:20,167 then that won't work for me. 590 00:24:20,250 --> 00:24:21,375 - Okay. 591 00:24:21,458 --> 00:24:24,042 I don't know what I think. 592 00:24:24,125 --> 00:24:25,333 - Okay. 593 00:24:25,375 --> 00:24:28,167 ♪ 594 00:24:28,208 --> 00:24:31,500 - I feel like you want an answer out of me right now, 595 00:24:31,542 --> 00:24:34,958 and, like, I don't have an answer for you. 596 00:24:35,042 --> 00:24:38,750 It's not like I can, like, sit down for hours a day 597 00:24:38,833 --> 00:24:41,500 and, like, think about this-- this one thing-- 598 00:24:41,583 --> 00:24:43,333 - I'm not asking for that. 599 00:24:43,375 --> 00:24:45,042 I just want it to be a priority. 600 00:24:45,125 --> 00:24:46,250 - Yeah. 601 00:24:46,333 --> 00:24:47,958 - I--like-- 602 00:24:48,042 --> 00:24:50,583 I think our marriage is a priority to both of us. 603 00:24:50,667 --> 00:24:52,500 And, like, this is... - Yeah. 604 00:24:52,625 --> 00:24:55,792 - A large difference in us that we have to try 605 00:24:55,875 --> 00:24:57,667 to understand in our marriage. 606 00:24:57,708 --> 00:24:59,000 And I think, like, I've made it a priority, 607 00:24:59,083 --> 00:25:01,583 and I would love if you made it a priority too. 608 00:25:01,667 --> 00:25:03,375 - Like, it is. 609 00:25:03,458 --> 00:25:05,000 - I just know in the past four weeks, 610 00:25:05,083 --> 00:25:07,875 you haven't talked to anybody about religion yet. 611 00:25:08,000 --> 00:25:09,792 - Where is the time? 612 00:25:09,875 --> 00:25:11,292 - That's fine. 613 00:25:11,375 --> 00:25:13,875 Then if you--you don't wanna find the time, but it's okay. 614 00:25:13,958 --> 00:25:15,333 - It's not that I don't wanna find the time. 615 00:25:15,417 --> 00:25:16,917 - Well, like, if you don't think 616 00:25:17,000 --> 00:25:18,708 that there's time to explore it, 617 00:25:18,792 --> 00:25:20,458 then that's what I'm hearing from you, and that's okay. 618 00:25:20,542 --> 00:25:21,958 - I'm not saying that. 619 00:25:22,042 --> 00:25:25,458 I'm just saying that, like, this will take time. 620 00:25:25,583 --> 00:25:27,917 And I'm just asking you to give me time to do it 621 00:25:28,042 --> 00:25:29,292 'cause, like, these are big questions. 622 00:25:29,375 --> 00:25:30,583 - I said that I would give you time. 623 00:25:30,708 --> 00:25:33,667 I'm just asking for you not to put it off. 624 00:25:33,708 --> 00:25:35,042 I think all I really need to hear right now 625 00:25:35,167 --> 00:25:37,667 is that you're gonna make it a priority. 626 00:25:37,667 --> 00:25:39,542 - I absolutely will make it a priority. 627 00:25:39,625 --> 00:25:41,208 It never hasn't been. 628 00:25:41,292 --> 00:25:42,375 - That's all I needed to hear. 629 00:25:42,458 --> 00:25:44,250 - Okay. 630 00:25:44,375 --> 00:25:46,458 Thank you for sharing that with me. 631 00:25:46,542 --> 00:25:48,333 ♪ 632 00:25:48,333 --> 00:25:52,125 - ♪ I just wanna feel everything, let me feel ♪ 633 00:25:52,208 --> 00:25:55,375 ♪ Let me feel, oh 634 00:25:55,458 --> 00:26:00,500 ♪ 635 00:26:00,583 --> 00:26:04,167 ♪ I just wanna feel everything, let me feel ♪ 636 00:26:04,208 --> 00:26:10,625 ♪ 637 00:26:13,500 --> 00:26:15,417 - Hey! 638 00:26:15,500 --> 00:26:17,333 You look cute. - Thanks. So do you. 639 00:26:17,417 --> 00:26:18,833 - I love the hair. 640 00:26:18,917 --> 00:26:21,208 - There's a nice fire pit over here. 641 00:26:21,292 --> 00:26:24,000 - Yeah. Nice. Yeah. They got, like, four grills? 642 00:26:24,083 --> 00:26:25,583 - Yeah. 643 00:26:25,583 --> 00:26:27,875 - I wanna know, like, A, how you're doing, 644 00:26:28,000 --> 00:26:31,833 B, like, if you've had any communication with Orion. 645 00:26:31,917 --> 00:26:33,375 - Yes, I'm good. No, I haven't. Done. 646 00:26:33,458 --> 00:26:34,833 - Okay. [laughter] 647 00:26:34,875 --> 00:26:36,167 That's all we need to know. 648 00:26:36,208 --> 00:26:37,667 - No, I think we're-- 649 00:26:37,708 --> 00:26:39,875 one thing we're good at is giving each other space. 650 00:26:40,000 --> 00:26:41,792 - Yeah. Yeah. 651 00:26:41,875 --> 00:26:43,333 - I haven't spoken with Lauren. 652 00:26:43,375 --> 00:26:46,500 You know, after the whole potluck with everybody, 653 00:26:46,625 --> 00:26:47,917 I guess I got more of an understanding 654 00:26:47,917 --> 00:26:51,000 how far we are from each other in terms 655 00:26:51,083 --> 00:26:53,833 of not being on the same page, not even the same book. 656 00:26:53,917 --> 00:26:58,000 - I very much appreciate hearing Orion's perspective 657 00:26:58,083 --> 00:27:01,792 because he felt for what was best for himself 658 00:27:01,875 --> 00:27:03,750 that he had to leave his marriage. 659 00:27:03,833 --> 00:27:06,833 And right now, I'm essentially on the brink 660 00:27:06,917 --> 00:27:09,083 of walking away from my marriage. 661 00:27:09,208 --> 00:27:14,000 I think Clare and I are at the point where, um, 662 00:27:14,083 --> 00:27:16,750 I'm going to need to advocate for myself. 663 00:27:16,833 --> 00:27:20,083 All of my emotional capital is gone. 664 00:27:20,083 --> 00:27:22,833 But when I reach my breaking point, 665 00:27:22,917 --> 00:27:27,208 she'll throw something out that reels me right back in. 666 00:27:27,333 --> 00:27:28,750 - Hmm. So what reels you in? 667 00:27:28,833 --> 00:27:32,250 - Any display, verbally or physically, 668 00:27:32,333 --> 00:27:33,875 that there's a chance. 669 00:27:33,875 --> 00:27:35,667 Like, the other night, she's--she's saying 670 00:27:35,708 --> 00:27:37,708 that she prefers when I'm in the apartment 671 00:27:37,708 --> 00:27:39,667 versus when I'm not. 672 00:27:39,708 --> 00:27:41,500 Like, that reels me right back in. 673 00:27:41,583 --> 00:27:43,000 - I don't know. 674 00:27:43,042 --> 00:27:45,000 I just--something doesn't feel totally there yet. 675 00:27:45,083 --> 00:27:46,625 'Cause I'm so in my head, like, 676 00:27:46,708 --> 00:27:48,833 he's not actually attracted to me. 677 00:27:48,958 --> 00:27:51,500 Is he just trying to force it because we're married now? 678 00:27:51,583 --> 00:27:52,917 He's trying to, like, make it work solely 679 00:27:53,000 --> 00:27:55,417 because he wants the marriage to work? 680 00:27:55,417 --> 00:27:57,208 Or does he wanna make it work, like, 681 00:27:57,292 --> 00:27:59,333 because he actually is attract--I don't know. 682 00:27:59,417 --> 00:28:02,917 And I think I have been so in my head this entire time. 683 00:28:03,000 --> 00:28:07,542 - At any chance that I have gotten, I have shown 684 00:28:07,667 --> 00:28:10,250 that I want to try and make this work, 685 00:28:10,333 --> 00:28:14,333 that I am attracted to her, that I value her immensely, 686 00:28:14,458 --> 00:28:15,792 and that I-- 687 00:28:15,875 --> 00:28:17,125 and I'm gonna say this in past tense, 688 00:28:17,208 --> 00:28:20,458 I had feelings for her. 689 00:28:20,542 --> 00:28:22,208 - Man. 690 00:28:22,292 --> 00:28:25,750 - And Cameron and I are at a place where he is leaning more 691 00:28:25,833 --> 00:28:27,542 towards divorce at this time... - Mm-hmm. 692 00:28:27,542 --> 00:28:29,833 - Which is heartbreaking. 693 00:28:29,917 --> 00:28:33,250 Because if my marriage ends in divorce, that's not something 694 00:28:33,333 --> 00:28:34,708 I want to happen at all. 695 00:28:34,792 --> 00:28:37,708 But we've hit a wall. 696 00:28:37,792 --> 00:28:40,292 - Do you think you're getting too far ahead? 697 00:28:40,375 --> 00:28:42,000 Like, with the future tripping? 698 00:28:42,083 --> 00:28:43,833 Is that what we calling it, right, future tripping? 699 00:28:43,875 --> 00:28:45,417 - Future tripping, and that's what Dr. Pia said. 700 00:28:45,542 --> 00:28:49,000 She was, like, you two just seem so focused on the future 701 00:28:49,042 --> 00:28:52,042 that you're not really focusing on enjoying 702 00:28:52,042 --> 00:28:54,000 each other's presence right here, right now. 703 00:28:54,083 --> 00:28:56,125 So that's why we're trying to, like, go on more dates, 704 00:28:56,208 --> 00:28:57,875 and, like, we're doing fun things. 705 00:28:57,958 --> 00:29:00,917 But, like, it just feels so forced, you know what I mean? 706 00:29:01,000 --> 00:29:03,667 My fear is that we're forcing it so much 707 00:29:03,750 --> 00:29:05,958 that he just wants to remove himself entirely. 708 00:29:06,042 --> 00:29:07,875 And I don't want him to just all of a sudden be, like, 709 00:29:07,958 --> 00:29:10,333 I don't wanna see this person anymore. 710 00:29:10,458 --> 00:29:13,167 - Honestly, man, I'm taking this time being away from, 711 00:29:13,208 --> 00:29:16,042 you know, the marriage, and just kind of all of it, 712 00:29:16,167 --> 00:29:18,667 having the time to reflect, I wish I advocated 713 00:29:18,708 --> 00:29:20,583 for myself a bit more. 714 00:29:20,708 --> 00:29:24,708 So maybe it's not in your best benefit 715 00:29:24,792 --> 00:29:28,792 to just be the good husband that shows up 716 00:29:28,875 --> 00:29:31,083 and is ready to do this just because I just 717 00:29:31,208 --> 00:29:34,167 don't want you to get cut at the knees. 718 00:29:34,250 --> 00:29:35,958 Just keep on track with what you want 719 00:29:35,958 --> 00:29:38,167 and be your own advocate in those moments. 720 00:29:38,333 --> 00:29:41,000 - I want to take your-- I wanna take your advice. 721 00:29:41,083 --> 00:29:45,042 But I can tell you, I know for a fact that I'm gonna say, 722 00:29:45,208 --> 00:29:47,167 "You know what? That's it. I'm leaving." 723 00:29:47,208 --> 00:29:49,917 And it's gonna be, "Oh, I don't want you to leave," 724 00:29:50,000 --> 00:29:51,792 or "I'll try now." - Mm-hmm. 725 00:29:51,875 --> 00:29:54,500 Don't get so reeled back in, you know? 726 00:29:54,542 --> 00:29:57,458 Because once the feelings do go, 727 00:29:57,542 --> 00:29:59,333 it is hard to continue to try. 728 00:29:59,417 --> 00:30:00,833 - Yeah. 729 00:30:00,875 --> 00:30:06,167 - ♪ 'Cause it all breaks down ♪ 730 00:30:06,250 --> 00:30:11,500 - I think that part of people's want to skirt out fast 731 00:30:11,542 --> 00:30:13,167 is, like, a control thing. 732 00:30:13,208 --> 00:30:15,750 It's, "This sucks in the moment. 733 00:30:15,875 --> 00:30:18,375 "I don't like it, and I'm not in control. 734 00:30:18,458 --> 00:30:20,375 The only way I can take control is to leave." 735 00:30:20,458 --> 00:30:22,833 - So your advice to me is to stick this out? 736 00:30:22,917 --> 00:30:26,542 - [sighs] If you step out now, you might have what-ifs. 737 00:30:26,667 --> 00:30:30,292 And to me, what-ifs are, like, the worst. 738 00:30:30,375 --> 00:30:31,458 ♪ 739 00:30:35,458 --> 00:30:36,583 [upbeat music] 740 00:30:36,583 --> 00:30:40,000 - ♪ This is a brand new day 741 00:30:40,083 --> 00:30:42,167 ♪ 742 00:30:42,292 --> 00:30:43,375 - Morning. 743 00:30:43,375 --> 00:30:45,958 - Good morning. 744 00:30:46,042 --> 00:30:47,792 - Happy one month. - Happy one month. 745 00:30:47,875 --> 00:30:49,125 [both chuckle] 746 00:30:49,208 --> 00:30:50,750 - We made a lot of progress 747 00:30:50,833 --> 00:30:52,583 with our effective communication. 748 00:30:52,708 --> 00:30:58,000 And waking up today, I feel excited to go horseback riding 749 00:30:58,042 --> 00:31:00,583 with you, and go on another little adventure 750 00:31:00,667 --> 00:31:02,000 through the mountains. 751 00:31:02,083 --> 00:31:03,667 - I'm excited, too, for an adventure. 752 00:31:03,708 --> 00:31:04,750 I think it's overdue. 753 00:31:04,750 --> 00:31:07,375 ♪ 754 00:31:07,458 --> 00:31:10,000 - So Cameron and I are not celebrating our anniversary 755 00:31:10,083 --> 00:31:12,833 because I think the word anniversary 756 00:31:12,917 --> 00:31:14,542 put a lot of pressure on him, 757 00:31:14,542 --> 00:31:16,875 and I think there's definitely, like, 758 00:31:16,958 --> 00:31:21,500 some lingering confusion and just, like, mixed emotions 759 00:31:21,583 --> 00:31:23,833 that are just really weighing on me, that I just-- 760 00:31:23,917 --> 00:31:26,000 I can't take that weight off. 761 00:31:26,083 --> 00:31:29,000 And I'm trying to get familiar with these feelings 762 00:31:29,042 --> 00:31:30,417 and these emotions, but they're not 763 00:31:30,500 --> 00:31:33,042 making sense to me, and so I just feel bad 764 00:31:33,125 --> 00:31:36,333 that, like, when Cameron asked me, like, how I feel, 765 00:31:36,375 --> 00:31:38,000 sometimes I just literally don't know. 766 00:31:38,083 --> 00:31:41,417 So I don't think it's too far gone for us 767 00:31:41,500 --> 00:31:43,208 to just be, like, okay, we're done. 768 00:31:43,292 --> 00:31:44,833 But the word anniversary just was a little much for us 769 00:31:44,875 --> 00:31:48,125 to, like, really soak in. 770 00:31:48,208 --> 00:31:49,125 Yeah. 771 00:31:49,208 --> 00:31:56,042 ♪ 772 00:31:56,125 --> 00:31:58,500 - ♪ Never gonna give up, never gonna ♪ 773 00:31:58,542 --> 00:32:02,083 ♪ Never gonna back down, never gonna ♪ 774 00:32:02,167 --> 00:32:07,583 ♪ Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh 775 00:32:07,708 --> 00:32:09,125 ♪ Keep on going 776 00:32:09,208 --> 00:32:11,000 - Hello, Becca and Austin. 777 00:32:11,125 --> 00:32:13,833 Congratulations on making it to your one month anniversary. 778 00:32:13,875 --> 00:32:15,292 By now, I am sure you have started to realize 779 00:32:15,375 --> 00:32:16,917 that marriage is not always easy, 780 00:32:17,000 --> 00:32:18,583 especially when it's to a stranger. 781 00:32:18,667 --> 00:32:21,417 This week is about celebrating the hurdles you've overcome, 782 00:32:21,542 --> 00:32:23,917 the conversations and vulnerabilities you've shared, 783 00:32:24,042 --> 00:32:25,833 and the growth you have accomplished both together 784 00:32:25,917 --> 00:32:27,167 and individually. 785 00:32:27,208 --> 00:32:28,625 We wish you the very best. 786 00:32:28,708 --> 00:32:30,167 Please enjoy this video. 787 00:32:30,208 --> 00:32:35,333 ♪ 788 00:32:35,375 --> 00:32:36,875 - Oh, gosh. 789 00:32:37,000 --> 00:32:38,375 - Honey. 790 00:32:38,458 --> 00:32:40,375 ♪ 791 00:32:40,500 --> 00:32:42,042 - Becca. - Yes? 792 00:32:42,125 --> 00:32:44,333 - Meet for the very first time, 793 00:32:44,333 --> 00:32:46,583 Austin, your husband to be. 794 00:32:46,667 --> 00:32:48,167 [laughter] 795 00:32:48,250 --> 00:32:51,833 Austin, meet for the very first time, 796 00:32:51,917 --> 00:32:54,333 Becca, your wife to be. 797 00:32:54,458 --> 00:32:57,167 - I promise to laugh with you, at you. 798 00:32:57,250 --> 00:32:58,875 We will laugh. - Great. 799 00:32:58,958 --> 00:33:00,625 [laughter] 800 00:33:00,708 --> 00:33:02,917 - I promise to be vulnerable and honest with you, 801 00:33:03,042 --> 00:33:04,833 even when it's not comfortable or easy. 802 00:33:04,875 --> 00:33:07,208 I promise to share my N64 with you, 803 00:33:07,292 --> 00:33:09,042 so long as you're okay with losing. 804 00:33:09,125 --> 00:33:11,875 - Losing? Losing? 805 00:33:11,958 --> 00:33:15,000 [laughter] 806 00:33:15,083 --> 00:33:16,292 - You're so cute. - My turn. 807 00:33:16,375 --> 00:33:18,333 Aw. 808 00:33:18,417 --> 00:33:21,000 I hope we become best friends, fall in love, 809 00:33:21,083 --> 00:33:23,417 and spending the rest of our lives living together. 810 00:33:23,500 --> 00:33:25,125 Since today, I choose you to be my wife, 811 00:33:25,208 --> 00:33:28,167 and I'm excited to start building a life 812 00:33:28,292 --> 00:33:30,042 far better than either one of us could have imagined. 813 00:33:30,125 --> 00:33:32,000 [both laugh] 814 00:33:32,042 --> 00:33:35,250 - And now, I pronounce you a married couple. 815 00:33:35,333 --> 00:33:38,333 - It looks like we've done that 55 times. 816 00:33:38,417 --> 00:33:40,375 Like, that's our first kiss, and it looks so good. 817 00:33:40,500 --> 00:33:42,250 [cheering] 818 00:33:42,333 --> 00:33:44,708 - Ladies and gentlemen, it is my pleasure 819 00:33:44,833 --> 00:33:46,958 to introduce for the first time 820 00:33:47,042 --> 00:33:50,792 as husband and wife, Becca and Austin. 821 00:33:50,875 --> 00:33:54,792 [cheering] 822 00:33:54,875 --> 00:33:56,083 - Aww. 823 00:33:56,208 --> 00:33:58,000 - I wanna do it again. 824 00:33:58,042 --> 00:33:59,875 Again and again and again. 825 00:33:59,958 --> 00:34:01,833 ♪ 826 00:34:01,917 --> 00:34:03,875 I really liked it. - Yeah, that was sweet. 827 00:34:04,000 --> 00:34:06,333 - I feel like when Pastor Cal said, 828 00:34:06,417 --> 00:34:09,042 are you guys in the stages of falling in love? 829 00:34:09,125 --> 00:34:12,583 You said yes, and I feel same. 830 00:34:12,667 --> 00:34:14,542 - Yeah. You didn't make that apparent. 831 00:34:14,625 --> 00:34:16,208 - I was so tired. 832 00:34:16,208 --> 00:34:17,625 I, like, didn't even, like-- 833 00:34:17,708 --> 00:34:19,000 English didn't even sound like English. 834 00:34:19,042 --> 00:34:20,167 - Yeah. - It was hard. 835 00:34:20,250 --> 00:34:21,583 - It's a long day. - Yeah. 836 00:34:21,667 --> 00:34:25,083 - Well, let's make today a lot more fun. 837 00:34:25,167 --> 00:34:28,042 - Yeah, okay. - Less emotionally exhausting. 838 00:34:28,167 --> 00:34:30,625 - Okay, great. - Okay, great. 839 00:34:30,708 --> 00:34:32,792 Monthiversary it is. 840 00:34:32,875 --> 00:34:34,958 ♪ 841 00:34:35,042 --> 00:34:36,958 - Just so happy to see you. 842 00:34:37,042 --> 00:34:39,333 - Oh, that's sweet. I'm so happy it's you. 843 00:34:39,417 --> 00:34:41,417 ♪ 844 00:34:41,500 --> 00:34:45,667 - ♪ Get away, get away from 845 00:34:45,708 --> 00:34:47,958 ♪ All we know, gotta go 846 00:34:48,042 --> 00:34:49,542 ♪ It's time to run 847 00:34:49,542 --> 00:34:50,875 - It's pretty. 848 00:34:50,958 --> 00:34:52,500 - So nice. 849 00:34:52,583 --> 00:34:54,375 Wow. 850 00:34:54,458 --> 00:34:55,833 - I'm excited we made it to our one month. 851 00:34:55,917 --> 00:34:57,875 It is a milestone. - It is. 852 00:34:58,000 --> 00:35:00,667 I'm just, you know, it hasn't felt, like, a month, honestly. 853 00:35:00,708 --> 00:35:03,167 - I wonder how fast the next month is gonna be. 854 00:35:03,292 --> 00:35:06,083 - Yeah. - Or slow. 855 00:35:06,167 --> 00:35:08,958 I think it's gonna feel slower. 856 00:35:09,042 --> 00:35:10,667 - You think? - Yeah. 857 00:35:10,708 --> 00:35:13,667 'Cause we have serious [bleep] to talk about. 858 00:35:13,750 --> 00:35:14,833 - Yeah. 859 00:35:14,833 --> 00:35:21,625 ♪ 860 00:35:29,500 --> 00:35:31,125 - What's up, man? - How's it going? 861 00:35:31,208 --> 00:35:32,208 - Hello. - It's going. 862 00:35:32,333 --> 00:35:33,750 - Brendan and Emily, I presume? 863 00:35:33,833 --> 00:35:35,000 both: Yes. 864 00:35:35,083 --> 00:35:37,792 - This past month, it's just-- 865 00:35:37,875 --> 00:35:39,792 it's just a lot. 866 00:35:39,875 --> 00:35:42,292 And while I know we still have a lot of conversations ahead, 867 00:35:42,375 --> 00:35:45,708 I'm so glad now that we decided to go back 868 00:35:45,833 --> 00:35:47,250 to what I think him and I 869 00:35:47,333 --> 00:35:48,708 enjoy a lot, which is adventure. 870 00:35:48,833 --> 00:35:51,000 - This is Gucci. - Ooh. Okay. 871 00:35:51,042 --> 00:35:53,083 - Gucci, my guy. 872 00:35:53,208 --> 00:35:55,167 - And I think that getting the opportunity 873 00:35:55,208 --> 00:35:58,375 to do more adventures, I think is kind of just 874 00:35:58,458 --> 00:36:02,167 setting our relationship up for success. 875 00:36:02,208 --> 00:36:03,625 - All right, guys, here we go. - Let's do it. 876 00:36:03,708 --> 00:36:06,333 - Here we go. - Come on, Doc, giddy up. 877 00:36:06,417 --> 00:36:07,875 ♪ 878 00:36:07,958 --> 00:36:09,958 Feel like Doc goes really slow. 879 00:36:10,042 --> 00:36:17,000 ♪ 880 00:36:17,083 --> 00:36:19,333 - Gucci's raring to go. I can feel it. 881 00:36:19,375 --> 00:36:20,833 - You guys wanna trot real quick? 882 00:36:20,958 --> 00:36:22,500 - Yeah, let's trot. 883 00:36:22,542 --> 00:36:24,625 - I just wanna show the world what Gucci can do. 884 00:36:24,708 --> 00:36:27,708 - How do we make them trot? - Just click your heels. 885 00:36:27,792 --> 00:36:29,542 - Go, go, go, go. - Yeah, give him some punch. 886 00:36:29,625 --> 00:36:30,750 - Oh, [bleep]. We're going this way. 887 00:36:30,875 --> 00:36:32,125 - Yeah. - Attaboy. 888 00:36:32,208 --> 00:36:33,375 - Come on. Let's go. - Go ahead. Go ahead. 889 00:36:33,458 --> 00:36:35,667 - Go, go, go, go, go, go. 890 00:36:35,750 --> 00:36:37,000 - Attaboy, Guc. 891 00:36:37,083 --> 00:36:39,042 - Whoo, we're going. 892 00:36:39,167 --> 00:36:40,292 Come on. - Good boy. 893 00:36:40,375 --> 00:36:41,792 - He is. - No, no. 894 00:36:41,792 --> 00:36:43,042 [horse snorting] 895 00:36:43,167 --> 00:36:45,042 No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no. 896 00:36:45,125 --> 00:36:47,042 ♪ 897 00:36:47,125 --> 00:36:49,042 Jeez. 898 00:36:49,167 --> 00:36:50,792 Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa. 899 00:36:50,875 --> 00:36:52,208 [horse snorting] 900 00:36:52,333 --> 00:36:54,542 Oh, [bleep]. I almost just ate it. 901 00:36:54,542 --> 00:36:56,042 Sorry, Guc. 902 00:36:56,125 --> 00:36:57,625 That was crazy. He literally just slipped. 903 00:36:57,708 --> 00:36:59,417 - Sorry if that was a little scary for you. 904 00:36:59,417 --> 00:37:00,625 - No. 905 00:37:00,708 --> 00:37:01,667 I know Gucci wouldn't let anything happen. 906 00:37:01,708 --> 00:37:02,833 He just slipped. 907 00:37:02,917 --> 00:37:04,833 Gucci, you did it, buddy. 908 00:37:04,875 --> 00:37:07,292 Thanks, bud. 909 00:37:07,375 --> 00:37:08,833 - Wow, this is so pretty. 910 00:37:08,875 --> 00:37:11,667 ♪ 911 00:37:11,750 --> 00:37:13,375 - Very scenic. - Yes. 912 00:37:13,542 --> 00:37:15,750 I feel like we need to do something next 913 00:37:15,833 --> 00:37:17,333 that, like, is maybe a little bit more 914 00:37:17,417 --> 00:37:19,667 suspenseful, like, adrenaline. 915 00:37:19,750 --> 00:37:20,917 Scary. 916 00:37:21,000 --> 00:37:22,208 - Scary. [both laugh] 917 00:37:22,375 --> 00:37:24,167 I don't know, when he was slipping, that, uh-- 918 00:37:24,208 --> 00:37:26,167 - That was scary. Yeah. - But he's all right. 919 00:37:26,208 --> 00:37:27,583 - Right, Gucci? 920 00:37:27,667 --> 00:37:29,417 - Brennan really bonded with his horse. 921 00:37:29,500 --> 00:37:32,375 It was cute/bizarre, but it's emotion. 922 00:37:32,458 --> 00:37:35,458 And I'm like, this is something. [chuckles] 923 00:37:35,542 --> 00:37:38,375 I love that you have a connection with this horse 924 00:37:38,375 --> 00:37:40,292 so instantly. - So weird. 925 00:37:40,375 --> 00:37:41,833 But you feel it, too, huh, bud? 926 00:37:41,875 --> 00:37:45,333 - Definitely feel the spark with the horse, right? 927 00:37:45,375 --> 00:37:46,792 He felt the spark with the horse. 928 00:37:46,875 --> 00:37:48,708 Just not really with me. 929 00:37:48,792 --> 00:37:50,500 - Gucci is just special. 930 00:37:50,625 --> 00:37:51,750 - Yeah. 931 00:37:51,833 --> 00:37:53,000 Him and Gucci. 932 00:37:53,000 --> 00:37:54,708 - Let's go. 933 00:37:54,792 --> 00:37:55,750 ♪ 934 00:37:59,792 --> 00:38:02,750 [upbeat music] 935 00:38:02,750 --> 00:38:05,333 - So we just got back from a day in Pueblo. 936 00:38:05,417 --> 00:38:08,000 - Amazing. - Riding the canyons. 937 00:38:08,083 --> 00:38:09,500 I got a day away from the wife. 938 00:38:09,542 --> 00:38:12,250 And a few hours of, um, 939 00:38:12,333 --> 00:38:14,375 of some of the more technical trails, 940 00:38:14,500 --> 00:38:17,500 I was able to clear my head 941 00:38:17,500 --> 00:38:21,167 and, um, and just spend time with those that I love, 942 00:38:21,250 --> 00:38:23,167 and have a great time riding my bike. 943 00:38:23,250 --> 00:38:24,375 - Yeah, good to see you again, man. 944 00:38:24,500 --> 00:38:26,000 It's been a while. - Yeah. 945 00:38:26,083 --> 00:38:29,417 ♪ 946 00:38:29,542 --> 00:38:34,917 - ♪ When the sky is falling, I will pick it up again ♪ 947 00:38:35,000 --> 00:38:38,958 - Oh, I'm nervous. - [laughs] Oh, I'm so scared. 948 00:38:39,042 --> 00:38:40,167 - You need one of these? 949 00:38:40,208 --> 00:38:41,708 - Yeah. [laughs] - Think you do. 950 00:38:41,792 --> 00:38:44,125 - ♪ And I won't give up, won't give up ♪ 951 00:38:44,208 --> 00:38:45,833 ♪ Won't give up 952 00:38:45,958 --> 00:38:47,750 - Whoo-hoo! 953 00:38:47,833 --> 00:38:51,000 I was gonna try to see if I can go backwards with this thing. 954 00:38:51,083 --> 00:38:53,000 - Do it, try going backwards. 955 00:38:53,083 --> 00:38:56,583 ♪ 956 00:38:56,583 --> 00:38:59,708 I feel incredibly lucky to have been matched with Becca. 957 00:38:59,792 --> 00:39:01,833 Now, turn the other way, turn the other way. 958 00:39:01,875 --> 00:39:03,333 - Am I turning? - Oh, too much! Too much! 959 00:39:03,417 --> 00:39:04,958 - Ahh! [laughs] 960 00:39:05,042 --> 00:39:06,917 - One of the great things about our relationship is, 961 00:39:07,000 --> 00:39:09,708 we built up this foundation in which we can, like, 962 00:39:09,792 --> 00:39:12,000 feel safe going into, like, the big topics, 963 00:39:12,042 --> 00:39:14,167 which gives us the perfect space to have, like, 964 00:39:14,292 --> 00:39:17,417 romantic fun days like today. 965 00:39:17,542 --> 00:39:20,042 - ♪ Ooh, you know I'm not perfect ♪ 966 00:39:20,125 --> 00:39:22,167 ♪ But baby, it's worth it 967 00:39:22,208 --> 00:39:25,292 ♪ We can work it out 968 00:39:25,375 --> 00:39:27,667 - This is nice. I like this. - [giggles] 969 00:39:27,708 --> 00:39:29,375 You like not having to work. - This is a lot of fun. 970 00:39:29,500 --> 00:39:31,042 Uh, I'm your support system. - You are. 971 00:39:31,125 --> 00:39:32,833 - But yeah. 972 00:39:32,875 --> 00:39:34,625 - Although I don't know how much I trust your balance. 973 00:39:34,625 --> 00:39:36,167 - I'm your support. - You almost-- 974 00:39:36,208 --> 00:39:37,542 - You do all the leg work. 975 00:39:37,542 --> 00:39:38,917 That's how this relationship works. 976 00:39:39,000 --> 00:39:39,875 - That actually is. 977 00:39:39,958 --> 00:39:41,667 [laughter] 978 00:39:41,750 --> 00:39:43,917 Trust is everything in a marriage, 979 00:39:44,042 --> 00:39:48,583 and I think this process, like, this is so wild, 980 00:39:48,667 --> 00:39:51,333 and, like, it pushes you in, like, 981 00:39:51,417 --> 00:39:53,125 all of these different extremes, 982 00:39:53,125 --> 00:39:54,833 and, like, there's a lot of things that I can't control. 983 00:39:54,917 --> 00:39:56,708 And I'm still just giving Austin time and space 984 00:39:56,833 --> 00:39:58,458 to, like, process all of, like, the spiritual things 985 00:39:58,542 --> 00:40:00,708 that we've talked about. 986 00:40:00,833 --> 00:40:02,792 - You wanna roast some marshies? 987 00:40:02,875 --> 00:40:04,583 - Yeah, I do. 988 00:40:04,667 --> 00:40:06,417 - ♪ The stars come out tonight ♪ 989 00:40:06,542 --> 00:40:08,125 - Oh, boy. It's hot, man. 990 00:40:08,208 --> 00:40:09,417 - [chuckles] It's good. 991 00:40:09,542 --> 00:40:11,792 You're usually cold, so-- 992 00:40:11,875 --> 00:40:13,167 - Ooh! 993 00:40:13,250 --> 00:40:14,833 - We're going in the middle, though. 994 00:40:14,958 --> 00:40:16,667 - Oh, you're one of those that blows them out 995 00:40:16,708 --> 00:40:18,917 when they get on fire? - Yeah, of course. 996 00:40:19,000 --> 00:40:20,667 - Ugh. - Classic. 997 00:40:20,750 --> 00:40:23,333 - I can't believe I'm married to one of those. 998 00:40:23,375 --> 00:40:26,750 [laughs] That is a loose mallow. 999 00:40:26,833 --> 00:40:28,292 - [laughs] 1000 00:40:28,375 --> 00:40:32,333 ♪ 1001 00:40:32,417 --> 00:40:33,833 - Nailed it. - You're a liability. 1002 00:40:33,958 --> 00:40:35,333 - Nailed it. 1003 00:40:35,458 --> 00:40:36,917 - I cannot. 1004 00:40:37,000 --> 00:40:38,583 You're just gonna light it on fire again? 1005 00:40:38,708 --> 00:40:41,125 - Yep. 1006 00:40:41,208 --> 00:40:46,500 I didn't really know what marriage would be like, 1007 00:40:46,583 --> 00:40:49,375 but it's been, like, really great and really amazing, 1008 00:40:49,458 --> 00:40:53,708 and I've loved doing it with you. 1009 00:40:53,708 --> 00:40:56,292 And another thing that has just kind of, like, 1010 00:40:56,375 --> 00:41:00,625 made this relationship so easy and unique 1011 00:41:00,708 --> 00:41:02,667 is, like, the amount of trust we've had with each other, 1012 00:41:02,708 --> 00:41:04,333 like, since the beginning. 1013 00:41:04,417 --> 00:41:09,667 And it feels like every day, that builds more. 1014 00:41:09,750 --> 00:41:12,000 And I think that's really sweet, 1015 00:41:12,083 --> 00:41:13,750 and I'm really excited to-- 1016 00:41:13,875 --> 00:41:16,042 to be in a relationship like that. 1017 00:41:16,167 --> 00:41:17,500 - Yeah. Me, too. 1018 00:41:17,625 --> 00:41:20,083 And I think it's nice because in a lot 1019 00:41:20,083 --> 00:41:22,458 of my past relationships, like, guys have just 1020 00:41:22,542 --> 00:41:24,042 been really avoidant and have just, like, 1021 00:41:24,042 --> 00:41:25,917 gone with whatever I want. 1022 00:41:26,000 --> 00:41:28,792 And I think although it wasn't easy for me to hear that, 1023 00:41:28,875 --> 00:41:30,583 like, you still have searching to do, 1024 00:41:30,708 --> 00:41:32,792 like, in regards to religion, like, 1025 00:41:32,875 --> 00:41:34,667 you don't have any answers yet for me. 1026 00:41:34,708 --> 00:41:37,125 And, like, while that still leaves me in, like, 1027 00:41:37,208 --> 00:41:39,375 discomfort and, like, anxiety. 1028 00:41:39,458 --> 00:41:42,250 I'd way rather that than, like, you just 1029 00:41:42,333 --> 00:41:44,417 compromise who you are to make us work. 1030 00:41:44,500 --> 00:41:46,750 I appreciate that a lot. 1031 00:41:46,833 --> 00:41:51,417 - I do promise to be with you through thick and thin 1032 00:41:51,500 --> 00:41:54,833 and, like, respect you and be kind to you 1033 00:41:54,917 --> 00:41:57,333 and listen to you and give you the things 1034 00:41:57,375 --> 00:41:59,375 you need to be successful. 1035 00:41:59,458 --> 00:42:01,542 - It was, like, very comforting to hear that in your vows. 1036 00:42:01,708 --> 00:42:03,208 And to hear it again today is nice. 1037 00:42:03,292 --> 00:42:04,583 - Aww. - So thank you. 1038 00:42:04,667 --> 00:42:06,667 - Absolutely. 1039 00:42:06,750 --> 00:42:10,333 - ♪ I never wasted time 1040 00:42:10,417 --> 00:42:12,333 - Glad we made it to a month. - [laughs] 1041 00:42:12,417 --> 00:42:14,958 - I'm proud of us. - Proud of us. 1042 00:42:15,042 --> 00:42:18,042 - And I'm excited to celebrate every single month 1043 00:42:18,125 --> 00:42:22,500 until we die. - Oh, my God. Sounds great. 1044 00:42:22,542 --> 00:42:25,167 - Kiss me. - I'm not freaking out inside. 1045 00:42:25,250 --> 00:42:26,417 - You married me. 1046 00:42:26,500 --> 00:42:28,667 [laughter] 1047 00:42:28,708 --> 00:42:30,875 I'm freaking out inside. 1048 00:42:30,958 --> 00:42:32,333 It's what you signed up for, bro. 1049 00:42:32,375 --> 00:42:34,583 I hate you. 1050 00:42:34,667 --> 00:42:37,042 - Love liking you. 1051 00:42:37,167 --> 00:42:40,625 [laughter] 1052 00:42:40,708 --> 00:42:42,208 - That's my new favorite. 1053 00:42:42,292 --> 00:42:46,000 [laughter] 1054 00:42:46,125 --> 00:42:48,125 - ♪ I love you so 1055 00:42:48,208 --> 00:42:50,542 ♪ I love you so 1056 00:42:51,917 --> 00:42:55,167 - ♪ Summer on the outside 1057 00:42:55,250 --> 00:42:58,042 ♪ Trying to find a way that we can get back in ♪ 1058 00:42:58,167 --> 00:43:00,333 - Nice. 1059 00:43:00,375 --> 00:43:01,750 ♪ 1060 00:43:01,833 --> 00:43:03,750 - This is a really nice place. 1061 00:43:03,833 --> 00:43:07,042 - Yeah. - Thank you. 1062 00:43:07,167 --> 00:43:08,500 Thank you. Appreciate it. - Right away. 1063 00:43:08,583 --> 00:43:11,333 - All right, well, cheers. 1064 00:43:11,375 --> 00:43:12,833 - Salt? [laughs] I don't know. 1065 00:43:12,917 --> 00:43:15,042 Purple salt? - That's cool. 1066 00:43:15,125 --> 00:43:17,667 Oh, this place has everything. - Cheers. 1067 00:43:17,750 --> 00:43:20,292 I feel like today was, like, a good stepping stone, 1068 00:43:20,375 --> 00:43:24,000 but I need to see just some more progress and change. 1069 00:43:24,083 --> 00:43:27,500 And I think what's important for us is to, like, 1070 00:43:27,542 --> 00:43:30,833 set a new tone for our next chapter 1071 00:43:30,917 --> 00:43:32,875 after one month, whatever that means. 1072 00:43:32,958 --> 00:43:34,792 Do you wanna stir the Caesar first? 1073 00:43:34,875 --> 00:43:36,792 - Oh, it's Caesar. - It's grilled. 1074 00:43:36,875 --> 00:43:38,833 - Very nice. This is beautiful. 1075 00:43:38,958 --> 00:43:40,500 - I'll let you cut that salad. 1076 00:43:40,583 --> 00:43:43,167 - I will do my best. 1077 00:43:43,250 --> 00:43:45,167 - I feel like this week couldn't have gone better, 1078 00:43:45,292 --> 00:43:46,792 at least for me. - Yeah. 1079 00:43:46,875 --> 00:43:50,667 - Like, getting in, living together, crazy schedules. 1080 00:43:50,750 --> 00:43:53,083 Like, I feel like we got into a rhythm. 1081 00:43:53,167 --> 00:43:55,500 - Yeah, you've made it a very comfortable place to live. 1082 00:43:55,625 --> 00:44:00,167 So it's allowed me to really trust the process 1083 00:44:00,208 --> 00:44:02,583 and stay moved in. 1084 00:44:02,708 --> 00:44:04,708 But you know, I don't wanna sugarcoat it 1085 00:44:04,792 --> 00:44:06,542 and be, like, this has been-- 1086 00:44:06,625 --> 00:44:08,000 like, obviously, it's been a lot of fun, 1087 00:44:08,083 --> 00:44:10,958 like, and everything, but this has been, like, 1088 00:44:11,042 --> 00:44:13,583 very tough, like, at least for me. 1089 00:44:13,667 --> 00:44:16,750 And in the past, I would have just 1090 00:44:16,750 --> 00:44:18,667 ran from, like, a red flag. 1091 00:44:18,708 --> 00:44:22,167 Like, oh, not there anymore. Done. 1092 00:44:22,250 --> 00:44:24,333 - So I'm a red flag? 1093 00:44:24,375 --> 00:44:25,500 - I mean... 1094 00:44:25,583 --> 00:44:28,417 ♪ 1095 00:44:28,500 --> 00:44:30,708 Um, yeah. 1096 00:44:30,833 --> 00:44:33,875 Like, it's very uncomfortable to have something 1097 00:44:34,042 --> 00:44:37,042 and then have it gone, and you don't know why. 1098 00:44:37,167 --> 00:44:39,042 What I would do in the past is, when that would fizzle out, 1099 00:44:39,125 --> 00:44:40,667 I would just run. 1100 00:44:40,750 --> 00:44:45,250 Where here, I don't wanna do that. 1101 00:44:45,375 --> 00:44:46,792 And I've been trying. 1102 00:44:48,792 --> 00:44:51,000 - I don't know. 1103 00:44:51,042 --> 00:44:53,042 I just need to, like, learn more about this, like, running. 1104 00:44:53,125 --> 00:44:54,917 - Um, yeah. 1105 00:44:55,000 --> 00:44:56,708 - I was curious to know while you had the spark 1106 00:44:56,833 --> 00:44:58,667 immediately with them, like, did you take things 1107 00:44:58,750 --> 00:45:00,833 slow after that? 1108 00:45:00,958 --> 00:45:04,500 - This isn't like any relationship, right? 1109 00:45:04,583 --> 00:45:06,792 Like, this is totally different. 1110 00:45:06,875 --> 00:45:08,917 I'm just taking it day by day. 1111 00:45:09,042 --> 00:45:11,417 Honestly, like, I'm just giving it time and seeing 1112 00:45:11,500 --> 00:45:15,667 if that, you know, changes anything. 1113 00:45:15,750 --> 00:45:18,000 - I feel like he doesn't understand 1114 00:45:18,083 --> 00:45:21,083 that we have been taking it day by day. 1115 00:45:21,167 --> 00:45:23,625 But that is not going to cut it. 1116 00:45:23,708 --> 00:45:25,250 I need to see more. 1117 00:45:25,333 --> 00:45:29,875 We're in this space because he can't express, like, 1118 00:45:29,958 --> 00:45:32,042 the littlest of things that I think would help me 1119 00:45:32,042 --> 00:45:35,583 understand, like, why he's feeling the way he is. 1120 00:45:35,667 --> 00:45:39,000 Like, we have to move forward, and in order to do that, 1121 00:45:39,042 --> 00:45:40,875 I need to see a little bit more 1122 00:45:40,958 --> 00:45:42,708 of him opening up and expressing himself. 1123 00:45:42,792 --> 00:45:44,458 I mean, I was just curious 'cause I feel like 1124 00:45:44,542 --> 00:45:47,292 I was just asking you the shortest terms, like, 1125 00:45:47,375 --> 00:45:49,250 did you have a spark? 1126 00:45:49,333 --> 00:45:52,500 I never really asked, like, oh, like, how was the pace after? 1127 00:45:52,542 --> 00:45:54,250 - Yeah. I know what you mean. - I get feelings change. 1128 00:45:54,333 --> 00:45:55,500 - Like, I'm just trying to be honest. 1129 00:45:55,583 --> 00:45:57,167 Like-- - No, yeah. 1130 00:45:57,208 --> 00:45:58,750 That's what I'm trying to be right now too. 1131 00:45:58,833 --> 00:46:00,667 - Like, I don't know if it was fizz or adrenaline. 1132 00:46:00,708 --> 00:46:02,042 You know what I mean? 1133 00:46:02,167 --> 00:46:04,333 And that's where I'm trying to navigate. 1134 00:46:04,375 --> 00:46:09,500 - Now I don't know, either, how to navigate anything. 1135 00:46:09,542 --> 00:46:15,917 ♪ 1136 00:46:15,917 --> 00:46:18,417 - ♪ Oh, come on 1137 00:46:18,542 --> 00:46:21,750 ♪ 'Cause I'm giving my heart to a known heartbreaker ♪ 1138 00:46:21,833 --> 00:46:24,500 ♪ Say it ain't so 1139 00:46:24,583 --> 00:46:27,708 ♪ 'Cause I'm giving my heart to a known heartbreaker ♪ 1140 00:46:27,708 --> 00:46:30,167 ♪ 1141 00:46:30,292 --> 00:46:32,667 - So Cameron sends me a text message, 1142 00:46:32,792 --> 00:46:37,250 and he tells me that he's not coming home. 1143 00:46:37,333 --> 00:46:38,792 It's sad, but it's not something 1144 00:46:38,875 --> 00:46:41,208 that is totally shocking. 1145 00:46:41,292 --> 00:46:44,292 And I respect him saying, yeah, I am getting attached 1146 00:46:44,292 --> 00:46:46,458 to something that I won't be able to have 1147 00:46:46,542 --> 00:46:48,000 for the rest of my life. 1148 00:46:48,083 --> 00:46:49,833 And this is the moment that I need to tap out 1149 00:46:49,917 --> 00:46:51,083 because it's getting a little too much 1150 00:46:51,083 --> 00:46:52,792 for my heart to handle. 1151 00:46:52,875 --> 00:46:55,167 That statement says everything. 1152 00:46:55,208 --> 00:46:57,792 ♪ 1153 00:46:57,875 --> 00:47:01,958 We have a lot of different issues, you know? 1154 00:47:01,958 --> 00:47:04,583 The fact that we have religious differences 1155 00:47:04,708 --> 00:47:07,208 and the lack of physical connection. 1156 00:47:07,375 --> 00:47:09,042 ♪ 1157 00:47:09,125 --> 00:47:10,833 It makes me feel really empty. 1158 00:47:10,958 --> 00:47:12,250 It really does 'cause it's, like, 1159 00:47:12,333 --> 00:47:14,708 I want to feel a certain-- and I also feel, like, 1160 00:47:14,792 --> 00:47:17,083 just sad 'cause there's the part of us 1161 00:47:17,167 --> 00:47:18,458 that really wants to be together 1162 00:47:18,542 --> 00:47:19,875 and wants to make it work, 1163 00:47:20,000 --> 00:47:22,208 but then there's a part of us that realizes 1164 00:47:22,292 --> 00:47:24,917 we're not on the same page, you know? 1165 00:47:25,042 --> 00:47:26,792 It just makes me sad. 1166 00:47:26,875 --> 00:47:29,625 I just--I don't like feeling like I can't meet him 1167 00:47:29,708 --> 00:47:31,667 where he's at, you know? 1168 00:47:31,750 --> 00:47:33,167 ♪ 1169 00:47:33,250 --> 00:47:35,042 - ♪ And I know I crossed something ♪ 1170 00:47:35,125 --> 00:47:38,958 ♪ I can't leave from my life 1171 00:47:39,042 --> 00:47:42,125 - He is a great person, and, like, 1172 00:47:42,208 --> 00:47:43,833 I wanna be able to, you know? 1173 00:47:43,917 --> 00:47:47,875 But I just... 1174 00:47:47,958 --> 00:47:50,167 it's just been a lot mentally for me. 1175 00:47:50,333 --> 00:47:52,125 [sobbing] 1176 00:47:52,208 --> 00:47:54,958 - ♪ I'm too far gone now 1177 00:47:55,042 --> 00:47:56,625 Thank you. Yeah. 1178 00:47:56,625 --> 00:47:58,250 - ♪ I ain't thinking right 1179 00:47:58,333 --> 00:48:03,333 ♪ Pull me under so I don't miss the air ♪ 1180 00:48:03,417 --> 00:48:07,500 ♪ 1181 00:48:11,458 --> 00:48:15,500 - ♪ If you open your eyes, take a look inside ♪ 1182 00:48:15,542 --> 00:48:17,042 ♪ 1183 00:48:17,042 --> 00:48:20,000 - Hello. - Hi. How are you? 1184 00:48:20,000 --> 00:48:21,958 - I'm good. How are you doing? 1185 00:48:21,958 --> 00:48:23,917 - Good. How's married life? - Yeah. 1186 00:48:24,000 --> 00:48:25,500 It's good. Yeah. 1187 00:48:25,583 --> 00:48:27,000 Sure you're kinda caught up 1188 00:48:27,042 --> 00:48:29,625 with what's happening with Becca and I. 1189 00:48:29,708 --> 00:48:31,500 - Uh-huh. - Yeah. 1190 00:48:31,542 --> 00:48:33,667 Like, religion has kind of been, like, issue. 1191 00:48:33,750 --> 00:48:36,000 And in our marriage, 1192 00:48:36,083 --> 00:48:38,125 Becca and I do share a lot of the same values 1193 00:48:38,208 --> 00:48:40,167 and, like, characteristics that we, like, 1194 00:48:40,250 --> 00:48:43,000 want to, like, live by, which is amazing, 1195 00:48:43,083 --> 00:48:45,125 which is why the experts said 1196 00:48:45,208 --> 00:48:47,000 they matched us together, right? 1197 00:48:47,042 --> 00:48:50,250 And it wasn't until the idea of, like, the afterlife, 1198 00:48:50,250 --> 00:48:52,500 and, like, heaven and hell came into it 1199 00:48:52,542 --> 00:48:56,875 that, like, it became more of an issue. 1200 00:48:57,000 --> 00:49:01,208 The way I was taught when I was a kid was literally, 1201 00:49:01,333 --> 00:49:03,667 it's as simple as, like, if you don't believe in Jesus and God, 1202 00:49:03,708 --> 00:49:06,708 like, you don't go to heaven, and everyone else, 1203 00:49:06,792 --> 00:49:08,333 like, goes to hell, right? 1204 00:49:08,375 --> 00:49:11,375 You were raised Catholic. - Mm-hmm. 1205 00:49:11,458 --> 00:49:14,833 - So, like, where do you stand in the afterlife 1206 00:49:14,875 --> 00:49:16,875 and, like, what might happen, and, like, 1207 00:49:17,000 --> 00:49:19,167 how does that work with Becca, 1208 00:49:19,250 --> 00:49:23,375 who's very against any, like, type of, like, hell? 1209 00:49:23,500 --> 00:49:25,333 - I don't know if I really believe in hell. 1210 00:49:25,417 --> 00:49:27,792 Like, your spirit lives on and gets 1211 00:49:27,875 --> 00:49:29,333 reunited with God in heaven, 1212 00:49:29,375 --> 00:49:32,208 and I think if you haven't been close to God 1213 00:49:32,292 --> 00:49:34,500 on your time on Earth, and you-- 1214 00:49:34,583 --> 00:49:37,083 you know, killed people and were just a terrible person, 1215 00:49:37,208 --> 00:49:39,125 just putting, like, just negativity 1216 00:49:39,208 --> 00:49:41,000 and hate out into the world, I think 1217 00:49:41,125 --> 00:49:42,792 there's a true separation from God in the afterlife. 1218 00:49:42,875 --> 00:49:44,208 - Okay. 1219 00:49:44,292 --> 00:49:45,042 - And I think that's the interpretation 1220 00:49:45,167 --> 00:49:47,083 of hell, for me. 1221 00:49:47,167 --> 00:49:48,208 So someone--if I look at someone like Becca, 1222 00:49:48,292 --> 00:49:50,000 who is pure light and love, 1223 00:49:50,083 --> 00:49:52,292 I would never think she would be separated 1224 00:49:52,375 --> 00:49:54,042 from her creator in the afterlife. 1225 00:49:54,208 --> 00:49:55,500 I mean, she's so-- 1226 00:49:55,583 --> 00:49:56,917 she's such an advocate for people. 1227 00:49:57,000 --> 00:49:58,583 She's so ethical. - Yeah. 1228 00:49:58,667 --> 00:50:01,417 - She's so, like, you know, challenges the-- 1229 00:50:01,500 --> 00:50:04,208 the hate in the world, and, like, the restricting beliefs. 1230 00:50:04,333 --> 00:50:08,583 Like, to me, that's exactly what Jesus embodied. 1231 00:50:08,708 --> 00:50:12,042 Like, to just challenge what is wrong in the world. 1232 00:50:12,125 --> 00:50:15,083 - I definitely feel like I'm being exposed to new ideas. 1233 00:50:15,208 --> 00:50:17,375 I am open to changing. 1234 00:50:17,458 --> 00:50:20,333 I'm not, like, not holding on to any, like, one concept. 1235 00:50:20,375 --> 00:50:23,875 I think it's a lot that there is to think about 1236 00:50:23,958 --> 00:50:26,458 and to consider, and I'm okay with that. 1237 00:50:26,542 --> 00:50:28,000 I'm okay with, like, re-evaluating 1238 00:50:28,083 --> 00:50:29,875 and seeing where that takes me. 1239 00:50:29,875 --> 00:50:33,333 - I see and hear her wanting to grow towards you in this. 1240 00:50:33,417 --> 00:50:35,125 - You do? - And I think--yeah. 1241 00:50:35,250 --> 00:50:36,708 - That's, like--that's, like-- 1242 00:50:36,792 --> 00:50:37,875 I feel like they hit a wall 1243 00:50:37,958 --> 00:50:39,417 when it came to, like, the afterlife. 1244 00:50:39,500 --> 00:50:42,042 And that--it's not-- - It is a wall. 1245 00:50:42,208 --> 00:50:44,000 I mean, it's definitely a test, but I think 1246 00:50:44,125 --> 00:50:46,375 it's going to challenge you to-- 1247 00:50:46,500 --> 00:50:48,625 to really, like, sink into your soul. 1248 00:50:48,708 --> 00:50:51,083 Does that feel right to me that someone like Becca 1249 00:50:51,167 --> 00:50:52,750 would be condemned to hell. 1250 00:50:52,875 --> 00:50:54,667 - I'm open to growing. 1251 00:50:54,792 --> 00:50:58,042 And, like, it's nice to hear that you're saying 1252 00:50:58,125 --> 00:51:00,167 she is open to growing, too, because I didn't 1253 00:51:00,292 --> 00:51:02,125 necessarily feel that way. 1254 00:51:02,208 --> 00:51:04,125 - If you guys both can, you know, 1255 00:51:04,208 --> 00:51:05,917 grow towards each other rather than away, 1256 00:51:06,000 --> 00:51:09,292 it's possible for you to grow and evolve in these areas 1257 00:51:09,375 --> 00:51:11,292 just as much as it is for her. 1258 00:51:11,375 --> 00:51:13,833 You're doing the hard work to get to the other side of it, 1259 00:51:13,875 --> 00:51:16,417 you know? - Yeah. Yeah, totally. 1260 00:51:16,500 --> 00:51:19,542 No, and, like, that is what I believe and hope for. 1261 00:51:19,625 --> 00:51:20,917 But it's not, like, the sort of thing 1262 00:51:21,042 --> 00:51:23,333 that just, like, flips in a day or night. 1263 00:51:23,375 --> 00:51:25,708 You know? - Yeah. Yeah. 1264 00:51:25,792 --> 00:51:26,833 It's a journey. - Yeah. 1265 00:51:26,917 --> 00:51:28,958 - For sure. 1266 00:51:29,042 --> 00:51:32,250 ♪ 1267 00:51:32,375 --> 00:51:38,042 - ♪ 'Cause it's you, girl, oh, oh, oh ♪ 1268 00:51:38,125 --> 00:51:40,167 - I mean, I'm bracing to be cold, 1269 00:51:40,250 --> 00:51:43,000 so I gotta keep my stuff on. - Yeah. 1270 00:51:43,125 --> 00:51:44,833 I'm just gonna get hammered right away. 1271 00:51:44,958 --> 00:51:46,625 - Just immediately start drinking? 1272 00:51:46,708 --> 00:51:48,000 - Yeah. 1273 00:51:48,083 --> 00:51:49,500 - So I mean, I know I didn't go 1274 00:51:49,625 --> 00:51:51,417 into too much detail with you guys, 1275 00:51:51,500 --> 00:51:55,000 but I did have an opportunity to--to chat with the experts. 1276 00:51:55,042 --> 00:51:57,667 ♪ 1277 00:51:57,792 --> 00:52:01,125 I mean, not immediately after. 1278 00:52:01,208 --> 00:52:03,042 After some time, when I had an opportunity 1279 00:52:03,125 --> 00:52:04,375 to decompress and everything. 1280 00:52:04,500 --> 00:52:06,375 And getting an opportunity to speak with them, 1281 00:52:06,458 --> 00:52:09,417 I'll be honest, I didn't really know what to expect. 1282 00:52:09,500 --> 00:52:12,250 But I felt like they took... 1283 00:52:12,333 --> 00:52:14,833 - Ownership? - Accountability, I guess? 1284 00:52:14,875 --> 00:52:17,167 All in all, they were very-- 1285 00:52:17,208 --> 00:52:21,125 I would say, like, super empathetic. 1286 00:52:21,208 --> 00:52:23,125 - I'm Brett. I'll be helping you guys out tonight. 1287 00:52:23,208 --> 00:52:24,667 - Thank you. - Awesome. 1288 00:52:24,708 --> 00:52:26,500 - Need anything, let me know. - All right. 1289 00:52:26,625 --> 00:52:27,958 - Okay. - Cheers. 1290 00:52:28,042 --> 00:52:29,083 - Cheers. - Cheers. 1291 00:52:29,208 --> 00:52:33,042 - Well--well, with that said, 1292 00:52:33,042 --> 00:52:34,542 we did kind of broach the topic of like, 1293 00:52:34,625 --> 00:52:36,708 well, what happens now, right? - Yes. 1294 00:52:36,792 --> 00:52:39,083 - Like, will there be, you know, an opportunity 1295 00:52:39,167 --> 00:52:40,708 for me to be re-matched? 1296 00:52:40,833 --> 00:52:42,792 Or is this just kind of it? 1297 00:52:42,875 --> 00:52:46,792 And they did talk about the possibility of re-matching me. 1298 00:52:46,875 --> 00:52:48,708 And I was really curious on, like, 1299 00:52:48,792 --> 00:52:52,417 what you guys thought about the possibility 1300 00:52:52,417 --> 00:52:54,125 of going through this again. 1301 00:52:58,375 --> 00:53:02,542 - So the thing that I am struggling with is, 1302 00:53:02,625 --> 00:53:06,833 you put your trust in these people to find you someone. 1303 00:53:06,917 --> 00:53:09,583 - Mm-hmm. - Like, that, to me-- 1304 00:53:09,667 --> 00:53:12,125 yeah, it diminished a lot of my trust within that process. 1305 00:53:12,208 --> 00:53:14,583 So I would wanna know-- 1306 00:53:14,667 --> 00:53:16,667 like, you know, people make mistakes, that happens, 1307 00:53:16,750 --> 00:53:18,750 and there's no guarantees, but there needs 1308 00:53:18,750 --> 00:53:21,167 to be changes in whatever process they did 1309 00:53:21,250 --> 00:53:23,458 that brought you to that altar. - Sure. 1310 00:53:23,542 --> 00:53:27,417 - 'Cause that was-- that was not inspiring. 1311 00:53:27,500 --> 00:53:29,250 - That's a good point. 1312 00:53:29,333 --> 00:53:33,167 - So I think if you feel you have heard the changes 1313 00:53:33,250 --> 00:53:36,167 that get you to feel inspired again, 1314 00:53:36,250 --> 00:53:38,167 we will be here to support you through that. 1315 00:53:38,250 --> 00:53:39,292 - Sure. 1316 00:53:39,375 --> 00:53:41,208 - Let me ask you this. 1317 00:53:41,292 --> 00:53:44,750 Are you excited about the prospect of another match? 1318 00:53:44,875 --> 00:53:47,208 - I am. 1319 00:53:47,292 --> 00:53:49,208 I think when I think through the possibility 1320 00:53:49,292 --> 00:53:51,958 of doing this again, it's like having that-- 1321 00:53:52,042 --> 00:53:53,750 that muscle memory. 1322 00:53:53,833 --> 00:53:55,042 - Yeah, you gotta practice with it. 1323 00:53:55,167 --> 00:53:56,667 - Yeah. [laughter] 1324 00:53:56,792 --> 00:53:58,625 - And if you suspect it's gonna happen this time, 1325 00:53:58,708 --> 00:53:59,875 you back out. Just--just run. 1326 00:53:59,875 --> 00:54:02,667 [laughter] 1327 00:54:02,750 --> 00:54:07,000 - So if you had to quantify, let's use a 1 to 10 scale, 1328 00:54:07,083 --> 00:54:10,000 10 being the utmost comfort. - Stoked. 1329 00:54:10,125 --> 00:54:13,333 - 1 being bed of nails discomfort. 1330 00:54:13,417 --> 00:54:16,458 How comfortable would you guys be with me 1331 00:54:16,542 --> 00:54:19,417 going through this again? 1332 00:54:19,500 --> 00:54:22,958 - Um, I'd be pretty worried-- pretty nervous about it. 1333 00:54:23,042 --> 00:54:24,167 Maybe, like, a four. 1334 00:54:24,208 --> 00:54:25,333 - Four, okay. - Whoa. 1335 00:54:25,375 --> 00:54:27,500 - I think it's a seven because it's you. 1336 00:54:27,583 --> 00:54:30,208 And so I have full faith that you will go in for this. 1337 00:54:30,292 --> 00:54:32,000 - You're putting a lot of faith in me. 1338 00:54:32,125 --> 00:54:34,125 - I do put a lot of faith into you 'cause you've earned it. 1339 00:54:34,208 --> 00:54:35,917 - Aww. 1340 00:54:36,042 --> 00:54:41,000 - Um, a big factor is, you are at least 50% of this equation. 1341 00:54:41,000 --> 00:54:41,792 So, like, a four would just be-- 1342 00:54:41,875 --> 00:54:42,917 - Hi. 1343 00:54:43,000 --> 00:54:44,792 - Can I join you? - Hi. 1344 00:54:44,875 --> 00:54:45,833 - Of course. - Good. 1345 00:54:45,958 --> 00:54:47,167 That's the right answer. 1346 00:54:47,250 --> 00:54:48,042 - Can I at least give you a hug? 1347 00:54:48,208 --> 00:54:49,917 - Please do. 1348 00:54:50,000 --> 00:54:51,750 - It's nice seeing you again. - It's great to see you again. 1349 00:54:51,833 --> 00:54:53,458 Oh, man. 1350 00:54:53,542 --> 00:54:54,625 - I hope you heard all the craziness she was talking. 1351 00:54:54,708 --> 00:54:56,250 She has questions. - Yeah. 1352 00:54:56,333 --> 00:54:58,625 - So I'm here to answer some of your questions. 1353 00:54:58,708 --> 00:55:00,375 - Fair. 1354 00:55:00,500 --> 00:55:02,583 - But we were kinda talking through the possibility 1355 00:55:02,667 --> 00:55:05,167 of me potentially getting re-matched again. 1356 00:55:05,292 --> 00:55:07,167 And I think one of the points Paige brought up 1357 00:55:07,292 --> 00:55:09,708 that I didn't really broach with you guys was 1358 00:55:09,792 --> 00:55:13,333 her curiosity of how things played out if that would 1359 00:55:13,417 --> 00:55:16,333 influence the methodology that you would use 1360 00:55:16,417 --> 00:55:18,125 to potentially rematch me. 1361 00:55:18,208 --> 00:55:21,917 - The thing that really, really struck me was when we were 1362 00:55:22,000 --> 00:55:24,292 debriefing the day afterward. 1363 00:55:24,375 --> 00:55:26,250 And Michael, you said it was the biggest 1364 00:55:26,375 --> 00:55:29,125 failure of your personal life. 1365 00:55:29,208 --> 00:55:31,333 - You said that? - I did say that, yeah. 1366 00:55:31,417 --> 00:55:35,417 - And that was something that, like, really hit me 1367 00:55:35,500 --> 00:55:37,333 because I don't think that was something 1368 00:55:37,417 --> 00:55:41,167 that you had any control over. 1369 00:55:41,250 --> 00:55:46,625 And that's where, like, I don't know, I just-- 1370 00:55:46,708 --> 00:55:48,833 I'd never want him to feel that way again. 1371 00:55:48,875 --> 00:55:50,833 ♪ 1372 00:55:50,917 --> 00:55:53,708 - This is so without precedent in the history 1373 00:55:53,833 --> 00:55:57,625 of a 17-season show. 1374 00:55:57,708 --> 00:56:02,500 But we admired and do admire Michael so much, 1375 00:56:02,583 --> 00:56:06,750 in part 'cause how he took this. 1376 00:56:06,833 --> 00:56:11,542 And so that said, we did do a lot of due diligence. 1377 00:56:11,625 --> 00:56:13,667 And we were listening. 1378 00:56:13,750 --> 00:56:16,417 You said, "I want someone really nice, sweet. 1379 00:56:16,542 --> 00:56:20,333 I want someone intelligent, and I want someone playful." 1380 00:56:20,417 --> 00:56:21,708 I think you used the word silly. 1381 00:56:21,792 --> 00:56:23,667 I'm translating it a little bit. 1382 00:56:23,708 --> 00:56:27,667 So we went and thought about that, like, okay, 1383 00:56:27,750 --> 00:56:32,542 if we try and marry him again, we've gotta find that. 1384 00:56:32,667 --> 00:56:34,667 And I think we have. 1385 00:56:34,792 --> 00:56:36,750 ♪ 1386 00:56:36,833 --> 00:56:38,083 - Well, that's exciting. - So-- 1387 00:56:38,167 --> 00:56:39,667 - You found a person? 1388 00:56:39,750 --> 00:56:44,667 - Are you willing to get married at first sight again? 1389 00:56:44,708 --> 00:56:49,167 - Um, I had kind of made peace with the possibility 1390 00:56:49,250 --> 00:56:50,708 that that may not be in my future... 1391 00:56:50,792 --> 00:56:53,625 ♪ 1392 00:56:53,708 --> 00:56:56,333 But... 1393 00:56:56,375 --> 00:56:57,917 I most definitely am, yes. 1394 00:56:58,000 --> 00:57:01,333 [laughter] 1395 00:57:01,375 --> 00:57:03,500 - Getting married. 1396 00:57:03,542 --> 00:57:06,833 - Not only are you getting married at first sight, 1397 00:57:06,875 --> 00:57:09,333 you are getting married at first sight 1398 00:57:09,333 --> 00:57:11,333 in less than two weeks. 1399 00:57:11,417 --> 00:57:13,417 - We get to run this back again. 1400 00:57:13,500 --> 00:57:15,292 - Let's do it. 1401 00:57:15,375 --> 00:57:16,667 - Well, first and foremost, I do appreciate 1402 00:57:16,750 --> 00:57:20,500 the opportunity of being able to potentially 1403 00:57:20,542 --> 00:57:22,042 seize this again. 1404 00:57:22,042 --> 00:57:23,375 So thank you. 1405 00:57:23,542 --> 00:57:24,833 - Well, you're welcome, but thank you 1406 00:57:24,875 --> 00:57:27,667 for just being so resilient, good-natured, 1407 00:57:27,708 --> 00:57:30,208 uber civilized, and ready. 1408 00:57:30,375 --> 00:57:31,875 I mean, we can't create that. 1409 00:57:31,958 --> 00:57:34,542 Only you could create that. - That's our boy. 1410 00:57:34,667 --> 00:57:36,542 - You're being far too humble. - Marvelous Michael. 1411 00:57:36,667 --> 00:57:39,958 - There it is. Boom. - Yay! 1412 00:57:40,042 --> 00:57:41,542 - I was excited the first time around, 1413 00:57:41,625 --> 00:57:43,542 but being in this unique position 1414 00:57:43,625 --> 00:57:46,083 of having a second go at it 1415 00:57:46,167 --> 00:57:48,417 and hearing kind of Dr. Pepper's thoughts 1416 00:57:48,417 --> 00:57:50,167 behind it and her resolve, 1417 00:57:50,250 --> 00:57:52,333 like, only bolsters that excitement. 1418 00:57:52,333 --> 00:57:53,458 - He's ready. - To Michael. 1419 00:57:53,542 --> 00:57:55,333 - To Michael. - Thank you all. 1420 00:57:55,375 --> 00:57:59,958 - For a wonderful wedding and a long and happy marriage. 1421 00:58:00,042 --> 00:58:02,542 - Let's hope so. That's what I'm aiming for. 1422 00:58:02,625 --> 00:58:04,208 - ♪ I can't wait for tomorrow ♪ 1423 00:58:08,375 --> 00:58:09,667 - ♪ There's nothing better than us ♪ 1424 00:58:09,750 --> 00:58:13,500 ♪ 1425 00:58:13,625 --> 00:58:15,292 ♪ I know we can make it this time ♪ 1426 00:58:15,375 --> 00:58:17,417 - Are you excited for tonight? - Yeah. 1427 00:58:17,500 --> 00:58:18,542 - Excited to see our people? 1428 00:58:18,667 --> 00:58:20,833 - I love our people. 1429 00:58:20,875 --> 00:58:22,250 - Cute. 1430 00:58:22,333 --> 00:58:23,500 He's cute. 1431 00:58:23,625 --> 00:58:25,083 I like this with your eyes a lot. 1432 00:58:25,167 --> 00:58:27,167 - Oh. Green eyes, baby. 1433 00:58:27,208 --> 00:58:28,458 - Really brings them out. 1434 00:58:31,208 --> 00:58:33,542 How was your talk with Lindsay? 1435 00:58:33,625 --> 00:58:35,000 - It was good. - Yeah? 1436 00:58:35,042 --> 00:58:36,042 - Yeah. 1437 00:58:36,167 --> 00:58:39,375 Yeah, no, it went really well. 1438 00:58:39,458 --> 00:58:42,542 Kind of talked about life and love 1439 00:58:42,667 --> 00:58:44,500 and faith and religion 1440 00:58:44,583 --> 00:58:48,583 and things that we have issues with. 1441 00:58:48,667 --> 00:58:50,042 - Do you feel like it helped at all? 1442 00:58:50,125 --> 00:58:52,375 - Yeah, for sure. 1443 00:58:52,542 --> 00:58:53,667 - I'm glad you did that. - Yeah. 1444 00:58:53,708 --> 00:58:55,500 - That makes me happy. 1445 00:58:55,583 --> 00:58:57,708 - Yeah, no problem. - It means a lot. 1446 00:58:57,792 --> 00:59:01,500 ♪ 1447 00:59:01,583 --> 00:59:02,625 - I'm hungry. 1448 00:59:02,625 --> 00:59:05,583 - Hungry? - I am. 1449 00:59:05,667 --> 00:59:10,125 - ♪ Oh, been fading out and falling deeper ♪ 1450 00:59:10,208 --> 00:59:13,750 ♪ Oh, so close your eyes, and I'll be there ♪ 1451 00:59:13,875 --> 00:59:17,542 ♪ Oh, I'm coming back to you 1452 00:59:17,625 --> 00:59:19,917 - It's hard to be going into this group dinner, 1453 00:59:20,000 --> 00:59:23,750 this month anniversary dinner knowing that Cameron and I 1454 00:59:23,833 --> 00:59:25,833 are not in this celebratory phase. 1455 00:59:25,917 --> 00:59:28,833 And I'm sure the other couples may be in that place 1456 00:59:28,875 --> 00:59:31,500 where they're happy and they're joyful 1457 00:59:31,667 --> 00:59:37,125 and they're, you know, really in a good, good place. 1458 00:59:37,208 --> 00:59:39,042 So it's difficult because I don't want 1459 00:59:39,125 --> 00:59:41,500 to be in this position, but it's just the reality 1460 00:59:41,625 --> 00:59:43,667 of what's going on right now. 1461 00:59:43,750 --> 00:59:47,125 Cameron and I haven't really touched base. 1462 00:59:47,208 --> 00:59:50,208 So we are going from being separated for a few days 1463 00:59:50,292 --> 00:59:51,833 straight into this dinner. 1464 00:59:51,875 --> 00:59:53,667 So I really don't know how it's gonna go. 1465 00:59:56,875 --> 01:00:00,292 ♪ 1466 01:00:00,375 --> 01:00:02,833 - ♪ Twisting around, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah ♪ 1467 01:00:02,958 --> 01:00:04,458 ♪ Wild, so give us room 1468 01:00:04,542 --> 01:00:06,375 ♪ We the crew in the back so loud ♪ 1469 01:00:06,458 --> 01:00:08,042 ♪ Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah 1470 01:00:08,042 --> 01:00:10,000 ♪ Whoa, atmosphere in here just crazy, crazy ♪ 1471 01:00:10,083 --> 01:00:12,333 ♪ Other fellas chilling with the ladies, ladies ♪ 1472 01:00:12,375 --> 01:00:14,167 ♪ On the way, all I hit was green lights, green lights ♪ 1473 01:00:14,250 --> 01:00:16,167 ♪ I think it's finna be a good night ♪ 1474 01:00:16,208 --> 01:00:19,958 ♪ Hands up in the VIP 'cause the mood right, look around ♪ 1475 01:00:21,625 --> 01:00:23,042 - Your lipstick looks good. - Thank you. 1476 01:00:23,167 --> 01:00:24,167 - It looks good. 1477 01:00:24,250 --> 01:00:25,792 - Hi. 1478 01:00:25,875 --> 01:00:28,000 How are you? - Yeah, doing all right. 1479 01:00:28,042 --> 01:00:29,542 - Wonderful. 1480 01:00:29,625 --> 01:00:30,542 - Round of tequila shots? - Yeah. 1481 01:00:30,667 --> 01:00:32,500 - Ooh. Okay. 1482 01:00:32,542 --> 01:00:34,167 - Thank you. 1483 01:00:34,292 --> 01:00:37,042 - Oh, there we go, baby girl. 1484 01:00:37,125 --> 01:00:38,208 - Very nice. 1485 01:00:38,292 --> 01:00:40,500 - Oh, what a way to kick it off, guys. 1486 01:00:40,542 --> 01:00:41,833 - Cheers to a month. - Cheers. 1487 01:00:41,875 --> 01:00:43,542 - To a long, eventful month. - Love you, guys. 1488 01:00:43,625 --> 01:00:45,000 - Love you, guys. 1489 01:00:45,083 --> 01:00:46,917 - I'll just be honest, I really don't know 1490 01:00:47,000 --> 01:00:49,500 where Clare is at in terms of our marriage. 1491 01:00:49,583 --> 01:00:52,958 And so I'm-- I'm a little anxious. 1492 01:00:53,042 --> 01:00:55,833 And I--I hope that Clare and I are on the same page, 1493 01:00:55,917 --> 01:00:57,667 but I don't know if we are. 1494 01:00:57,792 --> 01:00:59,208 - Where is the meat on this charcuterie board? 1495 01:00:59,333 --> 01:01:01,583 - It's just a cheese board. 1496 01:01:01,667 --> 01:01:03,083 Charcuterie is a separate thing. 1497 01:01:03,208 --> 01:01:04,917 - That's a very strong flavor. - Got it. 1498 01:01:05,000 --> 01:01:06,833 - Okay, you guys, I have a question. 1499 01:01:06,917 --> 01:01:08,292 I have a question for all of us. 1500 01:01:08,375 --> 01:01:09,792 - Yeah? - Yeah? 1501 01:01:09,875 --> 01:01:12,667 - If you could go back in time and give yourself 1502 01:01:12,750 --> 01:01:14,833 any advice going into this, 1503 01:01:14,875 --> 01:01:15,958 what advice would you give yourself? 1504 01:01:16,042 --> 01:01:17,375 - Wow. 1505 01:01:17,458 --> 01:01:19,375 ♪ 1506 01:01:19,375 --> 01:01:21,542 - Um, I'll start. 1507 01:01:21,625 --> 01:01:23,375 I would say--I, like, always use the analogy, 1508 01:01:23,375 --> 01:01:24,875 like, ride the wave. 1509 01:01:24,958 --> 01:01:26,333 I feel like this has been a ride the wave experience. 1510 01:01:26,375 --> 01:01:28,000 - Ride the wave. 1511 01:01:28,042 --> 01:01:29,375 - But I wish I was, like, more prepared for, like, 1512 01:01:29,458 --> 01:01:31,000 more like, ripple effects, you know? 1513 01:01:31,083 --> 01:01:33,667 - That's good advice to yourself. 1514 01:01:33,708 --> 01:01:35,542 - Round in a circle. I guess you're next. 1515 01:01:35,625 --> 01:01:37,500 ♪ 1516 01:01:37,625 --> 01:01:38,875 - Yeah, you can go, Cam. 1517 01:01:38,958 --> 01:01:41,000 ♪ 1518 01:01:41,125 --> 01:01:45,500 - I just feel a little bit skeptical because clearly, 1519 01:01:45,583 --> 01:01:49,542 Brennan's having a harder time understanding his feelings, 1520 01:01:49,667 --> 01:01:51,083 communicating them. 1521 01:01:51,167 --> 01:01:52,958 And so I'm trying to stay patient, 1522 01:01:53,042 --> 01:01:56,542 but, like, my frustrations are, I need him to be better. 1523 01:01:56,667 --> 01:01:58,375 Like, I deserve better. 1524 01:01:58,458 --> 01:02:00,083 And I need him to realize that. 1525 01:02:00,167 --> 01:02:03,500 I need him to step the [bleep] up. 1526 01:02:03,583 --> 01:02:05,667 Truly. 1527 01:02:05,750 --> 01:02:08,792 - My advice would be, no matter how hard 1528 01:02:08,875 --> 01:02:10,292 you think it's gonna be, it's gonna be harder. 1529 01:02:10,375 --> 01:02:11,500 [laughter] 1530 01:02:11,583 --> 01:02:13,750 - True facts. 1531 01:02:13,833 --> 01:02:16,292 There is no manual for this kind of marriage. 1532 01:02:16,375 --> 01:02:18,708 You think that you know how you're gonna feel, 1533 01:02:18,792 --> 01:02:20,750 but you have no idea how you're gonna feel. 1534 01:02:20,875 --> 01:02:23,167 And you will be confused. 1535 01:02:23,208 --> 01:02:25,833 So just being, like, you know, aware of that, 1536 01:02:25,875 --> 01:02:27,917 and moving through that 1537 01:02:28,042 --> 01:02:29,333 'cause that's all you can do, you know? 1538 01:02:29,375 --> 01:02:31,750 - Yeah. 1539 01:02:31,833 --> 01:02:36,542 Maybe, you know, get in tune with your emotional side 1540 01:02:36,667 --> 01:02:38,750 a little bit, not that I'm not. 1541 01:02:38,875 --> 01:02:41,083 I just, like, you know, you're way more 1542 01:02:41,167 --> 01:02:43,333 well-versed in that sort of thing. 1543 01:02:43,458 --> 01:02:44,625 - You're doing great. - Eh. 1544 01:02:44,708 --> 01:02:47,000 [laughter] 1545 01:02:47,042 --> 01:02:50,458 - No, I think there's-- 1546 01:02:50,542 --> 01:02:52,458 there's a lot of good things, there's a lot of hard things, 1547 01:02:52,542 --> 01:02:54,625 but I think that's any marriage. 1548 01:02:54,708 --> 01:02:58,042 I think there's a lot to uncover and unearth. 1549 01:02:58,042 --> 01:03:00,500 But I thank him all the time 1550 01:03:00,542 --> 01:03:03,458 that I'm just really happy and lucky that it was him. 1551 01:03:03,542 --> 01:03:06,000 And that it is him. 1552 01:03:06,042 --> 01:03:08,333 That's not to say that we aren't also having issues, 1553 01:03:08,417 --> 01:03:11,500 like, deep issues, where I cry in a closet sometimes. 1554 01:03:11,542 --> 01:03:12,750 - Cheers, man. 1555 01:03:12,833 --> 01:03:14,333 - There's been some stuff. - Yeah. 1556 01:03:14,417 --> 01:03:15,833 - But you guys have been able to work through them, 1557 01:03:15,917 --> 01:03:18,875 and it sounds like you've come out on top. 1558 01:03:18,958 --> 01:03:20,583 - We're working through them. - Yeah. 1559 01:03:20,667 --> 01:03:23,708 - Yeah, I mean, we got some deep stuff 1560 01:03:23,833 --> 01:03:25,292 that we gotta, like, figure out. 1561 01:03:25,375 --> 01:03:28,542 But, like, how much of that can you really do in a month? 1562 01:03:28,625 --> 01:03:30,042 - Mm-hmm. - Yeah. 1563 01:03:30,125 --> 01:03:31,667 - Not a lot. - Mm-mm. 1564 01:03:31,708 --> 01:03:34,000 ♪ 1565 01:03:34,083 --> 01:03:35,708 - I mean, married a stranger, you know? 1566 01:03:35,792 --> 01:03:37,500 [laughter] - I did too. 1567 01:03:37,542 --> 01:03:38,958 - We do know. We do know. 1568 01:03:39,042 --> 01:03:40,208 - We all did. - Yes, we do. 1569 01:03:40,292 --> 01:03:41,167 - It's been hard. 1570 01:03:41,292 --> 01:03:43,167 - Yeah. 1571 01:03:43,250 --> 01:03:45,083 - What is everyone, like, most nervous about 1572 01:03:45,208 --> 01:03:50,292 for, like, the next month of the post one month? 1573 01:03:50,375 --> 01:03:52,167 'Cause it's, like, great! - Nervous or excited? 1574 01:03:52,250 --> 01:03:54,500 - We graduated first month. - Graduated. 1575 01:03:54,542 --> 01:03:55,917 - Yeah, graduated. [laughs] 1576 01:03:56,000 --> 01:03:57,458 - Now-- - That's one way to look at it. 1577 01:03:57,542 --> 01:03:58,750 - I call it, like, our 2.0. 1578 01:03:58,875 --> 01:04:00,500 So what do you guys feel most nervous about 1579 01:04:00,583 --> 01:04:02,333 in this next month? 1580 01:04:02,417 --> 01:04:04,042 - I love that question. I love these questions. 1581 01:04:04,125 --> 01:04:06,625 Guys, good questions all around. 1582 01:04:06,708 --> 01:04:08,458 - Cameron, take it away. 1583 01:04:08,542 --> 01:04:10,167 - Um... 1584 01:04:10,250 --> 01:04:12,000 The thought that comes to mind 1585 01:04:12,083 --> 01:04:14,750 when I think about the next month is fallout. 1586 01:04:14,833 --> 01:04:16,333 - That's dark. - Yeah, that is. 1587 01:04:16,417 --> 01:04:17,875 - That's dark. 1588 01:04:17,958 --> 01:04:20,500 - I don't like that word, but yeah, it is true. 1589 01:04:20,583 --> 01:04:24,042 - I feel like our marriage is in a situation where 1590 01:04:24,125 --> 01:04:28,542 we have been having misalignments 1591 01:04:28,625 --> 01:04:30,833 as to exactly what we want. 1592 01:04:30,917 --> 01:04:35,875 And I have essentially been waiting, 1593 01:04:36,000 --> 01:04:37,542 for lack of a better description, 1594 01:04:37,625 --> 01:04:39,500 until we are on the same page. 1595 01:04:39,542 --> 01:04:41,333 - Yeah. 1596 01:04:41,458 --> 01:04:46,000 - And I have a feeling soon, we will be on the same page. 1597 01:04:46,083 --> 01:04:48,000 Or I hope we are, but we actually haven't talked 1598 01:04:48,042 --> 01:04:50,333 in a couple days, so... 1599 01:04:50,417 --> 01:04:52,083 - Yeah. 1600 01:04:52,167 --> 01:04:55,792 I've been very confused, like, about my own feelings. 1601 01:04:55,875 --> 01:04:57,875 And I--and I'm sorry for my ups and downs 1602 01:04:57,958 --> 01:05:00,208 and my fluctuations and my not being sure of, 1603 01:05:00,292 --> 01:05:02,958 like, where I'm at 'cause I haven't 1604 01:05:03,042 --> 01:05:04,583 done enough reflecting. 1605 01:05:04,667 --> 01:05:06,000 I know that's what a marriage is about, right? 1606 01:05:06,042 --> 01:05:08,042 Like, you have to focus on the we, 1607 01:05:08,125 --> 01:05:09,750 but at what point do I have to realize 1608 01:05:09,833 --> 01:05:11,333 where's the me in this? 1609 01:05:11,417 --> 01:05:15,042 That's part of me navigating, like, how do I feel? 1610 01:05:15,125 --> 01:05:16,792 But I think this past, like, few days, 1611 01:05:16,792 --> 01:05:18,000 I have done the most reflecting I have 1612 01:05:18,167 --> 01:05:19,500 through this whole marriage. 1613 01:05:19,542 --> 01:05:24,000 And I'm no longer confused in where I'm at. 1614 01:05:24,125 --> 01:05:26,333 And... - Can I ask? 1615 01:05:26,375 --> 01:05:28,167 Like, are you guys, like, still together or...? 1616 01:05:28,250 --> 01:05:30,333 - I mean, at the moment, yeah. 1617 01:05:30,458 --> 01:05:32,375 That's the answer. 1618 01:05:32,375 --> 01:05:34,542 - Do you guys ever talk about, like, exactly what you want? 1619 01:05:34,625 --> 01:05:36,083 - We try. 1620 01:05:36,167 --> 01:05:38,333 Like, we say it, and then we miss each other 1621 01:05:38,375 --> 01:05:40,375 a lot of the times, right? - Yeah. 1622 01:05:40,458 --> 01:05:42,125 - Like, maybe try, like, a different approach, 1623 01:05:42,208 --> 01:05:44,750 like, what do we want? 1624 01:05:44,833 --> 01:05:46,833 What do we want? 1625 01:05:46,875 --> 01:05:48,042 - Okay. 1626 01:05:48,167 --> 01:05:50,000 So on the count of three... 1627 01:05:50,042 --> 01:05:51,917 - [laughs] - Say what you want. 1628 01:05:52,000 --> 01:05:53,167 - It sounds like a dangerous game. 1629 01:05:53,250 --> 01:05:54,667 - Say what you want. - Okay, that's not exa-- 1630 01:05:54,792 --> 01:05:56,292 - No, no, no, we're gonna-- 1631 01:05:56,375 --> 01:05:57,625 - That is not definitely not at all what I intended to be. 1632 01:05:57,708 --> 01:05:58,958 - We're gonna do this. - Jesus. 1633 01:05:59,042 --> 01:06:01,958 - On the count of three, say you want a divorce. 1634 01:06:02,042 --> 01:06:04,417 - Oh, no! - Or--or you want-- 1635 01:06:04,500 --> 01:06:05,917 - That is not absolutely what I was trying to get to. 1636 01:06:06,000 --> 01:06:08,083 - Or you want to keep trying. 1637 01:06:08,167 --> 01:06:09,833 - Okay. - Oh, my God. 1638 01:06:09,958 --> 01:06:11,167 This was not a game. 1639 01:06:11,250 --> 01:06:12,667 This was literally, like-- - I'm scared. 1640 01:06:12,708 --> 01:06:17,458 - One, two, three. 1641 01:06:23,000 --> 01:06:24,708 [tense music] 1642 01:06:24,708 --> 01:06:26,042 ♪ 1643 01:06:26,042 --> 01:06:28,167 - I want a divorce. - Separated. Separation. 1644 01:06:28,250 --> 01:06:29,792 - Same thing. Same answer. Yeah. 1645 01:06:29,875 --> 01:06:31,333 - But that's not at all-- 1646 01:06:31,458 --> 01:06:32,500 - At least you guys are on the same page now. 1647 01:06:32,542 --> 01:06:34,000 At least. - We are on the same page. 1648 01:06:34,042 --> 01:06:35,083 And so when you say we keep missing each other, 1649 01:06:35,167 --> 01:06:36,625 I don't think that's always true. 1650 01:06:36,708 --> 01:06:38,833 I think we are on the same page a lot of the time. 1651 01:06:38,875 --> 01:06:40,083 Where we are in this relationship 1652 01:06:40,208 --> 01:06:43,333 is very much aligned, right? 1653 01:06:43,375 --> 01:06:44,667 - Now. - Yeah. 1654 01:06:44,750 --> 01:06:46,458 - But it hasn't been many times. 1655 01:06:46,542 --> 01:06:49,000 - I've been, and I will say, and I'll admit this to you all, 1656 01:06:49,042 --> 01:06:51,208 I've been very confused. 1657 01:06:51,292 --> 01:06:53,417 And I know that I've unfortunately 1658 01:06:53,542 --> 01:06:56,833 dragged Cameron along on that process of, like, I don't know. 1659 01:06:56,958 --> 01:06:59,000 I'm confused, this and that. 1660 01:06:59,042 --> 01:07:00,958 And that's not fair, and I realize that, 1661 01:07:01,042 --> 01:07:04,167 and I'm really sorry. 1662 01:07:04,250 --> 01:07:06,000 'Cause I realize that I did hurt you in the process, 1663 01:07:06,083 --> 01:07:09,833 and I never--that was never my intention. 1664 01:07:09,875 --> 01:07:11,250 And I do regret. 1665 01:07:11,333 --> 01:07:14,250 That's--that's the thing I regret the most. 1666 01:07:14,333 --> 01:07:16,167 Marrying you, I don't regret at all. 1667 01:07:16,250 --> 01:07:18,375 But the way I handled my emotions in the beginning, 1668 01:07:18,458 --> 01:07:20,083 I do regret, and I do apologize. 1669 01:07:20,167 --> 01:07:22,583 And so I'm sorry. 1670 01:07:22,667 --> 01:07:25,333 - Thank you. 1671 01:07:25,375 --> 01:07:28,500 Just forgive me with what I'm about to say. 1672 01:07:28,542 --> 01:07:32,458 A few years ago, I had a choice when I put my dog down, 1673 01:07:32,542 --> 01:07:34,292 whether I was gonna put her down right away 1674 01:07:34,375 --> 01:07:35,958 or put her down a few days later. 1675 01:07:36,042 --> 01:07:38,958 And I would never take those days back, 1676 01:07:39,042 --> 01:07:43,333 and I would never take these days back with you. 1677 01:07:43,417 --> 01:07:44,667 And thank you. 1678 01:07:44,708 --> 01:07:46,917 ♪ 1679 01:07:47,000 --> 01:07:49,750 - That's a good--good way to look at things. 1680 01:07:49,875 --> 01:07:50,833 - Zero regrets. 1681 01:07:50,917 --> 01:07:52,917 - Me too. 1682 01:07:53,000 --> 01:07:54,875 - You have taught me that a lot of things 1683 01:07:54,958 --> 01:07:58,917 about myself that I was not even closely in tune with. 1684 01:07:59,000 --> 01:08:01,833 So I appreciate that. 1685 01:08:01,917 --> 01:08:03,375 And I'm grateful for that. 1686 01:08:03,458 --> 01:08:06,125 - I am a better man because I met you. 1687 01:08:06,208 --> 01:08:08,333 Thank you. - Mm-hmm. 1688 01:08:08,375 --> 01:08:10,125 Don't make me cry. Don't do it. 1689 01:08:10,208 --> 01:08:14,000 [laughs] Yeah, that's sweet. 1690 01:08:14,125 --> 01:08:16,292 - I don't wish I did anything differently. 1691 01:08:16,375 --> 01:08:19,125 I don't regret anything. 1692 01:08:19,208 --> 01:08:22,000 The fact that tonight we were able to acknowledge 1693 01:08:22,083 --> 01:08:24,833 that Clare and I have already washed ashore. 1694 01:08:24,917 --> 01:08:27,625 This is the best chance for us 1695 01:08:27,708 --> 01:08:32,667 to not continue to hurt each other. 1696 01:08:32,708 --> 01:08:36,792 I feel maybe we're finally on the same page. 1697 01:08:36,875 --> 01:08:38,375 - That was a lot. - Yup. 1698 01:08:38,458 --> 01:08:40,917 - Sorry, everyone. - Don't be sorry. 1699 01:08:41,000 --> 01:08:43,333 I think you guys... [clears throat] 1700 01:08:43,417 --> 01:08:46,167 Handled this and are handling it, like, really maturely. 1701 01:08:46,292 --> 01:08:49,500 And the fact that you guys can still 1702 01:08:49,542 --> 01:08:51,583 be so friendly with each other and, like, 1703 01:08:51,667 --> 01:08:53,000 enjoy each other's company, you know? 1704 01:08:53,083 --> 01:08:54,417 - Yeah. I know. That is pretty amazing. 1705 01:08:54,542 --> 01:08:56,333 - I think that's amazing. 1706 01:08:56,458 --> 01:08:59,292 And yeah. 1707 01:08:59,375 --> 01:09:01,292 - Do you guys have anything to say? 1708 01:09:01,375 --> 01:09:04,000 You guys look mind blown over here in the corner over here. 1709 01:09:04,042 --> 01:09:05,167 - Just thinking. 1710 01:09:05,167 --> 01:09:06,250 [laughter] 1711 01:09:06,333 --> 01:09:07,792 - Take your time. - Thanks. 1712 01:09:07,875 --> 01:09:09,500 - Yeah. 1713 01:09:09,583 --> 01:09:13,167 - I 100% recognize this is hard for him, 1714 01:09:13,208 --> 01:09:15,000 but, like, there is nothing coming out. 1715 01:09:15,042 --> 01:09:17,167 And that is frustrating. 1716 01:09:17,250 --> 01:09:20,917 It's, like, just show me anything more. 1717 01:09:21,000 --> 01:09:23,958 Anything. Anything. 1718 01:09:24,042 --> 01:09:25,417 - I have a question. 1719 01:09:25,500 --> 01:09:26,625 Like, is there anything you guys would have done 1720 01:09:26,708 --> 01:09:28,000 like, different to this point? - Mm. 1721 01:09:28,083 --> 01:09:28,875 That's a good question. - Looking back? 1722 01:09:28,958 --> 01:09:33,583 ♪ 1723 01:09:33,667 --> 01:09:36,542 - I think maybe you need to answer this one. 1724 01:09:36,625 --> 01:09:39,375 - Yeah, I mean for me, it's been definitely 1725 01:09:39,375 --> 01:09:41,167 a process to, like, open up. 1726 01:09:41,250 --> 01:09:44,417 And so I feel, like, you know, 1727 01:09:44,500 --> 01:09:47,792 opening up a little bit quicker would have been better or not. 1728 01:09:47,875 --> 01:09:49,833 I don't know. 1729 01:09:49,917 --> 01:09:53,542 But it definitely has taken me a while to warm up, so. 1730 01:09:53,708 --> 01:09:58,167 ♪ 1731 01:09:58,292 --> 01:10:00,667 - Ooh! - Yes, girl. What is that? 1732 01:10:00,750 --> 01:10:01,792 - Pizza! 1733 01:10:01,875 --> 01:10:03,167 - Oh, thank you. - Wow. 1734 01:10:03,250 --> 01:10:05,875 - Damn, girl. - That is a lot of food. 1735 01:10:05,958 --> 01:10:07,333 - Did you get steak? - Wow. 1736 01:10:07,417 --> 01:10:09,417 - Did you get steak? - I've forgotten. 1737 01:10:09,542 --> 01:10:11,375 - Oh, yeah, Cam. - That is a hunk of meat. 1738 01:10:11,458 --> 01:10:13,958 - Whoa. Wait, why did I not get that? 1739 01:10:14,042 --> 01:10:15,167 - I better cut down on the appetizers 1740 01:10:15,208 --> 01:10:16,333 to get through this thing. 1741 01:10:16,417 --> 01:10:17,667 - I'm jealous now. 1742 01:10:17,750 --> 01:10:19,792 [laughter] 1743 01:10:19,875 --> 01:10:22,375 - So I have a question. 1744 01:10:22,458 --> 01:10:25,250 Do you guys see yourself-- 1745 01:10:25,333 --> 01:10:26,625 do you see a future? 1746 01:10:26,708 --> 01:10:28,667 ♪ 1747 01:10:28,750 --> 01:10:30,167 Is that a lot? 1748 01:10:30,250 --> 01:10:34,292 And if it is, please. I'll--I'm just curious. 1749 01:10:34,375 --> 01:10:36,917 - Asking hard questions, Clare. - Sorry, sorry. 1750 01:10:37,000 --> 01:10:38,667 You may not know. - Ooh, jeez. 1751 01:10:38,750 --> 01:10:40,208 - Sorry. You may not know right now. 1752 01:10:40,292 --> 01:10:41,833 But, like, I'm just curious. Like-- 1753 01:10:41,917 --> 01:10:43,333 - Clare, way to stir the pot. 1754 01:10:43,417 --> 01:10:45,000 - No, I'm not trying to stir the pot. 1755 01:10:45,083 --> 01:10:46,833 I'm just curious. 1756 01:10:46,917 --> 01:10:48,708 - Yeah, I'll let you answer that one first. 1757 01:10:51,375 --> 01:10:53,708 - Yeah, I think we're just taking it day by day, honestly. 1758 01:10:53,708 --> 01:10:55,542 ♪ 1759 01:10:55,542 --> 01:11:00,833 Trying to make the previous day better than the next. 1760 01:11:00,875 --> 01:11:03,417 - I don't wanna, like, flip out on him at the table, 1761 01:11:03,542 --> 01:11:06,167 but, like, hearing, like, the day-by-day thing 1762 01:11:06,250 --> 01:11:10,125 one more time is going to make me snap. 1763 01:11:10,208 --> 01:11:13,167 - We're trying to, you know, figure it out. 1764 01:11:13,250 --> 01:11:15,458 - Yeah. - But it is really hard, so. 1765 01:11:15,542 --> 01:11:17,542 - It's just the same answers. There's nothing more. 1766 01:11:17,667 --> 01:11:21,000 There's nothing-- there's like, no expressing 1767 01:11:21,125 --> 01:11:22,833 of like, the progress we've made. 1768 01:11:22,875 --> 01:11:26,000 - Just being here and being in this moment 1769 01:11:26,083 --> 01:11:28,625 and taking it day by day is a lot. 1770 01:11:28,708 --> 01:11:31,708 ♪ 1771 01:11:31,708 --> 01:11:35,167 I just appreciate you being resilient and with me 1772 01:11:35,292 --> 01:11:39,792 and just helping me open up and say the things 1773 01:11:39,875 --> 01:11:41,292 I really wanna say. 1774 01:11:41,375 --> 01:11:42,458 - That's great. He needs that. 1775 01:11:42,542 --> 01:11:44,750 He-- - You think? 1776 01:11:44,833 --> 01:11:46,333 [laughter] 1777 01:11:46,417 --> 01:11:49,083 Trying to stay patient, 1778 01:11:49,208 --> 01:11:50,750 but is this gonna be me forever? 1779 01:11:50,833 --> 01:11:52,750 'Cause, like, that is not how this goes. 1780 01:11:52,833 --> 01:11:55,667 I'm looking at these couples, although they have, like, 1781 01:11:55,750 --> 01:11:57,708 their own differences, and there's people opening up 1782 01:11:57,833 --> 01:12:00,000 that, like, maybe don't usually. 1783 01:12:00,125 --> 01:12:01,917 Even Austin, no offense. 1784 01:12:02,000 --> 01:12:03,917 Austin doesn't have many words to say a lot of the time. 1785 01:12:04,042 --> 01:12:05,750 Austin's communicating. 1786 01:12:05,875 --> 01:12:07,750 To what point does this just look sad for me? 1787 01:12:07,875 --> 01:12:09,625 Like, it's sad. 1788 01:12:09,708 --> 01:12:12,500 And it's frustrating, and it's just not what I deserve. 1789 01:12:17,708 --> 01:12:18,542 - I have to go to the bathroom. 1790 01:12:19,625 --> 01:12:21,250 - Nope. You don't have to do that. 1791 01:12:21,333 --> 01:12:24,375 [tense music] 1792 01:12:24,458 --> 01:12:26,000 - I'm gonna excuse myself. 1793 01:12:26,125 --> 01:12:27,208 - You need to go to the bathroom? 1794 01:12:27,333 --> 01:12:29,875 - No. No, I don't. - [laughs] 1795 01:12:30,000 --> 01:12:31,792 - All right. - Okay. 1796 01:12:31,875 --> 01:12:34,333 See you when we see you. - [laughs] 1797 01:12:34,417 --> 01:12:39,292 - I'm a little confused about what's going on 1798 01:12:39,375 --> 01:12:41,458 because I feel like there's so much more 1799 01:12:41,542 --> 01:12:44,542 underneath the surface that I'm not hearing about. 1800 01:12:44,625 --> 01:12:47,667 But I know that Emily's sad. 1801 01:12:47,750 --> 01:12:49,542 And I'm sad for her 'cause I know 1802 01:12:49,625 --> 01:12:51,542 she's working really hard. 1803 01:12:51,625 --> 01:12:53,875 ♪ 1804 01:12:53,958 --> 01:12:57,542 - It's fine, I'm just, like, having a moment. 1805 01:12:57,667 --> 01:12:58,917 - I don't know the conversation. 1806 01:12:59,042 --> 01:13:03,125 I don't know the situation, but I respect her a lot. 1807 01:13:03,208 --> 01:13:05,833 - Interesting. 1808 01:13:05,958 --> 01:13:08,917 - Just, I don't think he really [bleep] understands. 1809 01:13:09,000 --> 01:13:11,375 Although you guys have issues, you're talking. 1810 01:13:11,458 --> 01:13:14,167 - Yeah. - And I'm like, oh, answer. 1811 01:13:14,292 --> 01:13:15,333 Answer. 1812 01:13:15,375 --> 01:13:17,208 It's just, like, it's so-- 1813 01:13:17,292 --> 01:13:18,458 - And I'm sorry that I asked you, like, 1814 01:13:18,542 --> 01:13:20,042 the future of a relationship. 1815 01:13:20,125 --> 01:13:22,000 I just--it's because I feel like 1816 01:13:22,042 --> 01:13:24,208 he's not willing to answer that question for you. 1817 01:13:24,208 --> 01:13:25,917 You're the only one being honest. 1818 01:13:26,000 --> 01:13:26,917 He's giving you nothing. 1819 01:13:27,000 --> 01:13:28,333 - And I'm just-- 1820 01:13:28,417 --> 01:13:30,833 - You don't deserve this [bleep], girl. 1821 01:13:30,917 --> 01:13:33,750 - I'm getting just very frustrated. 1822 01:13:33,875 --> 01:13:35,208 If I [bleep] hated him, I'd be like, sure. 1823 01:13:35,292 --> 01:13:36,667 - Yeah. - I'll walk away. 1824 01:13:36,708 --> 01:13:38,500 But I [bleep] care about him 1825 01:13:38,583 --> 01:13:40,500 in some stupid [bleep] way. 1826 01:13:40,625 --> 01:13:42,458 And it's so [bleep] annoying 1827 01:13:42,542 --> 01:13:45,042 'cause I just don't-- wish I didn't. 1828 01:13:45,167 --> 01:13:47,833 But here we are. Look at me. - You care so much about him. 1829 01:13:48,000 --> 01:13:50,083 - I really do, and I really wish I didn't. 1830 01:13:50,167 --> 01:13:52,250 And I really wish I didn't. 1831 01:13:52,333 --> 01:13:54,000 - I'm sorry. - I know. 1832 01:13:54,042 --> 01:13:56,333 - If he's not sure of you, you need to walk away 1833 01:13:56,417 --> 01:13:57,958 as in the way that I wasn't sure. 1834 01:13:58,042 --> 01:13:59,333 And I needed to walk away. 1835 01:13:59,417 --> 01:14:00,458 - Like, I'm not gonna walk away. 1836 01:14:00,542 --> 01:14:02,333 That's not-- - No. No. 1837 01:14:02,458 --> 01:14:03,750 - Oh, God. - You know what I'm saying? 1838 01:14:03,875 --> 01:14:05,000 If he's not gonna give you the respect, 1839 01:14:05,083 --> 01:14:06,583 it's, like, what do you do? 1840 01:14:06,667 --> 01:14:07,583 Just continue this thing? - That's the thing. 1841 01:14:07,667 --> 01:14:09,667 It's like, what do I do? 1842 01:14:13,875 --> 01:14:17,417 ♪ 1843 01:14:17,500 --> 01:14:19,500 - She--she's very hurt. - About what? 1844 01:14:19,583 --> 01:14:22,500 - 'Cause she, like, really, like's you. 1845 01:14:22,542 --> 01:14:24,500 Do you know that? 1846 01:14:24,583 --> 01:14:26,417 We can talk about this later. We don't have time. 1847 01:14:26,542 --> 01:14:28,167 - [exhales] - Okay. 1848 01:14:28,250 --> 01:14:31,000 ♪ 1849 01:14:31,083 --> 01:14:33,458 - I can't tell if she puts on this façade 1850 01:14:33,542 --> 01:14:35,083 that everything's okay in front of me. 1851 01:14:35,167 --> 01:14:38,792 But I won't let her walk away from me like that. 1852 01:14:38,875 --> 01:14:41,583 I just wanna ask why you're upset. 1853 01:14:41,667 --> 01:14:44,000 - Why do you think I'm upset? - Tell me. 1854 01:14:44,083 --> 01:14:45,458 But I care about her a lot, 1855 01:14:45,542 --> 01:14:50,500 so I'm trying my hardest to not hurt her. 1856 01:14:50,583 --> 01:14:51,500 I have no idea why you're upset. 1857 01:14:51,542 --> 01:14:53,042 Please tell me. 1858 01:14:53,125 --> 01:14:55,333 ♪ 1859 01:14:55,500 --> 01:14:56,833 - Apparently, you didn't understand I was upset, 1860 01:14:56,917 --> 01:14:58,167 like, the whole time during dinner? 1861 01:14:58,292 --> 01:14:59,792 - Did you see my-- 1862 01:14:59,792 --> 01:15:02,000 so you wanted me to pull you out of the dinner? 1863 01:15:02,042 --> 01:15:05,417 - Did you not, like, see me upset visibly the whole dinner? 1864 01:15:05,500 --> 01:15:07,375 - You were making-- 1865 01:15:07,458 --> 01:15:08,333 - That's the point. 1866 01:15:08,417 --> 01:15:11,250 - Okay. Sorry. 1867 01:15:11,375 --> 01:15:12,500 - Like, I'm not trying to be dramatic, 1868 01:15:12,542 --> 01:15:13,583 and I feel like I'm going insane. 1869 01:15:13,667 --> 01:15:15,417 - You're not, though. 1870 01:15:15,500 --> 01:15:16,708 - But it's, like, this is frustrating for me, 1871 01:15:16,792 --> 01:15:19,542 especially in a group setting. 1872 01:15:19,625 --> 01:15:21,125 - I couldn't tell. 1873 01:15:21,208 --> 01:15:22,500 - Like, it makes it-- it honestly makes me 1874 01:15:22,583 --> 01:15:24,375 feel like, it's embarrassing. 1875 01:15:24,458 --> 01:15:26,667 Like, I told you last night, like, it's, like, sad for me. 1876 01:15:26,792 --> 01:15:29,250 [sobbing] Like, I don't deserve this. 1877 01:15:29,333 --> 01:15:31,667 - No, you don't. 1878 01:15:31,750 --> 01:15:33,167 - Nothing changed tonight. 1879 01:15:33,250 --> 01:15:35,125 Absolutely nothing changed. 1880 01:15:35,208 --> 01:15:36,500 We had a day yesterday, like, 1881 01:15:36,542 --> 01:15:38,667 we go through everything last week. 1882 01:15:38,750 --> 01:15:40,500 And, like, everyone's opening their hearts, 1883 01:15:40,583 --> 01:15:42,917 and then, like, he just says the same [bleep]. 1884 01:15:46,292 --> 01:15:47,375 Like, that's annoying. 1885 01:15:47,458 --> 01:15:50,958 ♪ 1886 01:15:51,042 --> 01:15:54,125 - ♪ And it's making me feel like home again ♪ 1887 01:15:54,208 --> 01:15:55,667 - [sighs] 1888 01:15:55,792 --> 01:15:59,833 ♪ It feels like I'm home 1889 01:15:59,958 --> 01:16:04,167 ♪ 1890 01:16:04,250 --> 01:16:06,833 ♪ This is holding us up 1891 01:16:06,958 --> 01:16:09,458 - It's literally just frustrating. 1892 01:16:09,542 --> 01:16:11,625 ♪ 1893 01:16:11,708 --> 01:16:13,667 - I don't have the answers, though, Emily. 1894 01:16:13,750 --> 01:16:15,250 I really don't. - I don't need answers. 1895 01:16:15,333 --> 01:16:18,250 Just, like, anything just to, like, be there for, like, me. 1896 01:16:18,375 --> 01:16:19,875 - Okay. 1897 01:16:20,000 --> 01:16:21,500 - But, like, tonight was, like, really, like, bad. 1898 01:16:21,625 --> 01:16:23,708 It was bad. 1899 01:16:23,708 --> 01:16:25,875 - I'm sorry. I'm trying. 1900 01:16:25,958 --> 01:16:28,500 I know it's not good enough, but at this point, 1901 01:16:28,583 --> 01:16:31,417 with how I'm feeling, this is all I got. 1902 01:16:31,500 --> 01:16:33,583 And I recognize how much you're giving, 1903 01:16:33,583 --> 01:16:36,625 and I know it's not what you deserve 1904 01:16:36,708 --> 01:16:39,375 'cause you're giving more than I am. 1905 01:16:39,375 --> 01:16:41,042 I'm sorry. 1906 01:16:41,125 --> 01:16:42,333 - [sobbing] I don't want you to say sorry to say sorry. 1907 01:16:42,375 --> 01:16:43,833 Like-- - I mean it. 1908 01:16:43,875 --> 01:16:46,292 - I just want you to, like-- just, it's hard when 1909 01:16:46,375 --> 01:16:47,833 it's, like, all the time. 1910 01:16:47,875 --> 01:16:49,792 Like, I really meant what I said tonight, 1911 01:16:49,875 --> 01:16:51,583 and, like, I don't wanna resent you, 1912 01:16:51,708 --> 01:16:54,250 and that will happen if you don't make changes. 1913 01:16:58,958 --> 01:17:00,708 - ♪ Always thought that this would last ♪ 1914 01:17:00,708 --> 01:17:03,917 ♪ In my past, I always thought you'd be there ♪ 1915 01:17:04,000 --> 01:17:07,625 ♪ How do we move on from here ♪ 1916 01:17:07,708 --> 01:17:09,625 - Yeah, I don't know what's going down. 1917 01:17:09,625 --> 01:17:11,708 I hope they're doing okay. - Yeah. 1918 01:17:11,708 --> 01:17:13,875 - I know emotions were heightened and whatnot, 1919 01:17:13,958 --> 01:17:15,792 but it is weird that they're not here. 1920 01:17:15,875 --> 01:17:18,792 And obviously, we're not super thrilled 1921 01:17:18,875 --> 01:17:20,417 'cause this is not what either of us wanted. 1922 01:17:20,500 --> 01:17:23,000 But we've--we've faced reality. 1923 01:17:23,083 --> 01:17:28,750 And that's all we can do at this point. 1924 01:17:28,833 --> 01:17:30,167 'Cause I think moving forward, I don't-- 1925 01:17:30,250 --> 01:17:31,375 yeah, I don't know, Cameron. 1926 01:17:31,500 --> 01:17:32,833 I mean, I don't-- I'm just out of my-- 1927 01:17:32,875 --> 01:17:33,833 my brain is fried. 1928 01:17:36,000 --> 01:17:37,333 - Yeah, I think so. - Yeah. 1929 01:17:37,417 --> 01:17:38,292 - Yeah. 1930 01:17:39,542 --> 01:17:40,958 - Yeah. 1931 01:17:41,042 --> 01:17:42,958 - Clare and I decided to separate. 1932 01:17:43,042 --> 01:17:46,083 I think me moving out of the apartment makes sense. 1933 01:17:46,208 --> 01:17:48,042 - I am so tired. 1934 01:17:48,125 --> 01:17:51,042 - I did not want my marriage to end this way, 1935 01:17:51,167 --> 01:17:55,375 and I'm going to have to work that out. 1936 01:17:55,458 --> 01:17:58,333 That's not something that I can just snap my fingers and-- 1937 01:17:58,417 --> 01:18:00,000 and those feelings are gone. 1938 01:18:00,042 --> 01:18:01,833 ♪ 1939 01:18:01,917 --> 01:18:05,000 There's a present. - Oh, no. What is this? 1940 01:18:06,583 --> 01:18:09,167 This is--oh, this is our vows. 1941 01:18:09,167 --> 01:18:11,417 - Another bottle of the best champagne on Earth. 1942 01:18:11,542 --> 01:18:13,125 - That was good. That was good. 1943 01:18:13,125 --> 01:18:14,333 - "Married at First Sight" champagne. 1944 01:18:14,417 --> 01:18:15,292 - Oh, this is so-- 1945 01:18:15,375 --> 01:18:19,167 [gasps] Cameron. 1946 01:18:19,208 --> 01:18:21,583 Oh, wow. 1947 01:18:21,667 --> 01:18:23,417 Do you wanna go sit over here? - Yeah. 1948 01:18:23,500 --> 01:18:24,750 I think it's gonna be very different 1949 01:18:24,875 --> 01:18:27,333 going back to an apartment where I'm alone. 1950 01:18:27,458 --> 01:18:29,000 I don't have Clare to talk to. 1951 01:18:29,083 --> 01:18:30,750 - Aw. 1952 01:18:30,833 --> 01:18:32,458 - But this is what is best for me 1953 01:18:32,542 --> 01:18:35,167 and what is best for us. 1954 01:18:35,292 --> 01:18:37,333 I forgot how good you looked on our wedding day. 1955 01:18:37,417 --> 01:18:39,625 - Oh, that's nice. 1956 01:18:39,708 --> 01:18:41,458 - Very cute. - Oh, this makes me really-- 1957 01:18:41,542 --> 01:18:45,167 really kind of sad. 1958 01:18:45,250 --> 01:18:46,708 Huh. 1959 01:18:46,792 --> 01:18:49,417 - Looking at these photos makes me really happy. 1960 01:18:49,500 --> 01:18:53,292 This was, like, one of the most exciting things I've ever done. 1961 01:18:53,375 --> 01:18:55,083 - [laughs] Yeah. - And that-- 1962 01:18:55,083 --> 01:18:57,000 - I was terrified in this moment for sure. 1963 01:18:57,125 --> 01:18:59,458 - That excitement... - Mm-hmm. 1964 01:18:59,542 --> 01:19:00,917 - Is coming back to me, you know, 1965 01:19:01,000 --> 01:19:04,000 looking at these photos. 1966 01:19:04,083 --> 01:19:07,292 - I just didn't expect to feel the way that I feel right now. 1967 01:19:07,375 --> 01:19:09,458 Like, I wasn't prepared for the emotions 1968 01:19:09,542 --> 01:19:10,958 that I was about to go through. 1969 01:19:11,042 --> 01:19:13,000 Like, in this moment, I'm very, like, you know, happy. 1970 01:19:13,083 --> 01:19:17,167 I had no idea what was about to come, you know? 1971 01:19:17,208 --> 01:19:18,292 I didn't realize there would be tears. 1972 01:19:18,375 --> 01:19:19,625 There would be fears. 1973 01:19:19,708 --> 01:19:21,333 There would be ups and downs. 1974 01:19:21,375 --> 01:19:22,750 And, like, I guess that is what marriage is, 1975 01:19:22,833 --> 01:19:24,875 but as someone who is single, 1976 01:19:25,000 --> 01:19:26,958 how was I to know what those feelings 1977 01:19:27,042 --> 01:19:28,875 would actually look like? And now I know. 1978 01:19:28,958 --> 01:19:32,000 Looking at the pictures of that day 1979 01:19:32,083 --> 01:19:37,833 is really hard because I see so much hope in myself. 1980 01:19:37,917 --> 01:19:41,125 It was a beautiful day, a beautiful wedding. 1981 01:19:41,208 --> 01:19:44,708 It's just crazy that in the one month from those pictures 1982 01:19:44,792 --> 01:19:47,875 to now, how much has changed. 1983 01:19:47,958 --> 01:19:49,625 We're looking at this on the night 1984 01:19:49,708 --> 01:19:51,292 that we're saying we're getting separated. 1985 01:19:51,375 --> 01:19:54,375 That's super hard to come to terms with. 1986 01:19:54,458 --> 01:19:57,000 ♪ 1987 01:19:57,083 --> 01:19:59,000 It is a sad situation that we're in. 1988 01:19:59,042 --> 01:20:01,083 Like, I can't leave and be-- 1989 01:20:01,167 --> 01:20:03,917 like, this is not a happy feeling, right? 1990 01:20:04,000 --> 01:20:06,333 I know that I have been back and forth and back and forth. 1991 01:20:06,417 --> 01:20:08,000 But the underlying feeling was, like, 1992 01:20:08,042 --> 01:20:09,875 this is not really working. - Mm-hmm. 1993 01:20:09,958 --> 01:20:11,917 - And, like, we went with that, 1994 01:20:12,000 --> 01:20:14,833 and here we are now in this position, 1995 01:20:14,917 --> 01:20:16,875 and it's sad, right? 1996 01:20:16,958 --> 01:20:18,667 Like, I mean, I don't know if you're feeling sad 1997 01:20:18,750 --> 01:20:20,833 or what your feelings are. 1998 01:20:20,917 --> 01:20:23,458 'Cause I am. This is sad. 1999 01:20:23,542 --> 01:20:26,500 - The thing I can say is--is, I got married at first sight 2000 01:20:26,542 --> 01:20:29,042 with a particular vision 2001 01:20:29,125 --> 01:20:31,542 of how this was all gonna play out. 2002 01:20:31,625 --> 01:20:33,875 This is not what I was expecting. 2003 01:20:33,875 --> 01:20:35,667 - I think I'm only sad 'cause it's like, 2004 01:20:35,750 --> 01:20:37,083 my expectations were so, like, 2005 01:20:37,208 --> 01:20:38,375 I was so ready for marriage. 2006 01:20:38,500 --> 01:20:39,792 I was so ready for it to be-- 2007 01:20:39,875 --> 01:20:41,417 - Mm-hmm. - To work out. 2008 01:20:41,542 --> 01:20:47,042 And I think we both deserve to live happy lives. 2009 01:20:47,125 --> 01:20:51,792 And I am ready to move forward. 2010 01:20:51,875 --> 01:20:54,833 - Move on separately. 2011 01:20:54,917 --> 01:20:56,083 - I mean, I hope this isn't the last 2012 01:20:56,083 --> 01:20:57,667 I see you or hear from you. 2013 01:20:57,750 --> 01:20:59,333 - Yeah, it won't be. 2014 01:20:59,375 --> 01:21:01,833 ♪ 2015 01:21:01,917 --> 01:21:07,958 So if you wanna walk me out, then I'll-- 2016 01:21:07,958 --> 01:21:09,375 I'll-- - It's so weird. 2017 01:21:09,458 --> 01:21:12,042 - I know. I know. 2018 01:21:12,125 --> 01:21:15,000 - Wow. Wow, this feels bizarre. 2019 01:21:15,083 --> 01:21:19,333 - ♪ The face in your fairy tale looked like me ♪ 2020 01:21:19,375 --> 01:21:21,375 - This is not something I wanted. 2021 01:21:21,458 --> 01:21:23,333 When you're with someone all the time, 2022 01:21:23,375 --> 01:21:26,167 and then all of a sudden, they just leave and they're gone, 2023 01:21:26,208 --> 01:21:29,375 that's a sad moment 'cause it's, like, wow, 2024 01:21:29,375 --> 01:21:32,833 that was my potential, like, future--future. 2025 01:21:36,375 --> 01:21:38,000 And now it's just gone, and it's walking 2026 01:21:38,083 --> 01:21:39,333 out the door right in front of me, 2027 01:21:39,333 --> 01:21:40,833 and that's hard. 2028 01:21:40,917 --> 01:21:43,667 - ♪ The truth is scary so here ♪ 2029 01:21:43,750 --> 01:21:46,917 ♪ I stand alone 2030 01:21:47,000 --> 01:21:51,500 ♪ Alone 2031 01:21:51,542 --> 01:21:54,833 ♪ 2032 01:21:54,917 --> 01:21:57,500 - Next time on "Married at First Sight"... 2033 01:21:57,542 --> 01:22:00,000 - I never imagined I would be wedding dress shopping. 2034 01:22:00,042 --> 01:22:02,167 I just know it's gonna speak to me. 2035 01:22:02,250 --> 01:22:05,042 - Yes. - It's like, Chloe, I'm here. 2036 01:22:05,167 --> 01:22:06,750 - ♪ I gotta get my heart's desire ♪ 2037 01:22:06,833 --> 01:22:09,083 - She is really great with children, 2038 01:22:09,208 --> 01:22:11,917 and seeing that is very important to me. 2039 01:22:12,042 --> 01:22:15,417 - We've tried what we thought was in our capabilities 2040 01:22:15,542 --> 01:22:21,167 and just reached a point where it was, like, what do we do? 2041 01:22:21,250 --> 01:22:24,958 - Since I moved out, I've developed a heart condition. 2042 01:22:25,042 --> 01:22:27,333 - Hi, Clare. It's Dr. Pia. How are you? 2043 01:22:27,417 --> 01:22:30,083 - I don't know. I just feel, like, guilty. 2044 01:22:30,167 --> 01:22:33,958 - Did the stress of my separation from Clare 2045 01:22:34,042 --> 01:22:35,917 lead to this heart problem? 2046 01:22:36,042 --> 01:22:37,667 Maybe it accelerated it. 2047 01:22:37,750 --> 01:22:39,875 - What do you fought the hardest for? 2048 01:22:39,958 --> 01:22:41,417 Tell me the story. 2049 01:22:41,542 --> 01:22:45,500 Honestly, probably for us, in this marriage. 2050 01:22:45,542 --> 01:22:46,375 - Yeah, same. 2051 01:22:46,458 --> 01:22:47,667 - Hmm. 2052 01:22:47,750 --> 01:22:49,625 Okay. 2053 01:22:49,708 --> 01:22:55,917 ♪