- ♪ It's time to shout it out louder ♪
- Just under one month ago,
eight singles took the ultimate leap of faith
in order to find love.
They married as complete strangers.
But for one groom, the journey ended before it even began.
- I couldn't move her enough to even give this a shot.
- He will rise from this, and she's out there, man.
♪
- How are you? - Hi. Good seeing you.
- Last time, our remaining couples
continued to dive deeper
in order to better understand their partner
as they navigate the highs and lows
of everyday domestic life.
♪
- So when we're talking about sex,
is it okay to do other things?
- We haven't yet, but it's okay to.
- I think she just perked up a little bit.
♪
- Do you want me to stay?
- I don't--I don't know.
I just don't want you to be resentful towards me
about anything.
- I mean, I'm not yet.
♪
- Is not a very good feeling when someone tells you
you should go to therapy.
- While I understand that that was
a hard recommendation for you, I actually think
it's a very important piece to the problem.
♪
- You know, I don't think it would be beneficial
to continue on with the marriage
because I know in my heart, I'm already out.
- I'm very excited to just continue on with life
and know that I tried my best.
♪
- ♪ So dance the night away
- We're going in.
- And tonight, our couples approach
their one-month anniversary.
♪
- Killed it.
- Can we, like, agree to, like, try to hug more?
- Yes. I love hugging.
- Awesome. Should we start that now?
- Right this very moment? - Yeah.
- Do you guys see yourself-- do you see a future?
- Clare, way to stir the pot.
- I'm sorry. - I know.
- If he's not sure of you, you need to walk away.
- And so it's hard to, like, be married to someone
that isn't sure whether I do or not.
And it just makes me feel really sad and hurt.
- On the count of three, say you want a divorce...
- Oh, no! - No!
- That is absolutely not what I was trying to get to.
- Or you want to keep trying.
- Don't wanna resent you, and, like,
I don't think you understand that will happen
if you don't make changes.
- And for the first time
in "Married at First Sight" history...
- There has been some talk about if you would be willing
to take another chance.
♪
- ♪ It's all or nothing
- This is "Married at First Sight."
- ♪ There's no other way
♪
♪ It's all or nothing
- ♪ Up, up, up we go
♪ Move around, going running
♪ Everybody's up and bumping
♪ Move fast, move that, you mad ♪
♪ Baby, keep it coming, coming ♪
♪ Ain't no way it's ever stopping ♪
♪ Move that, sure can't hold back ♪
- Here's your dough.
- Oh, nice.
- And then I'm Googling.
Treat the dough gently.
- I feel like the dough just wants me
to be patient with it.
So I'm just trying to go at her pace, you know?
- I'm trying to be gentle 'cause I am not.
[chuckles]
And this is delicate.
- Oh, yours is really good.
This was such a great idea.
Thanks for getting all the stuff.
- Yeah, it's like, this is a good way
to, like, offset last night,
even though, like, I think we are fine.
- Yeah, I think it was just,
like, a little miscommunication.
- Yeah.
But I enjoyed Pia.
- Yeah.
- And I know you don't wanna go to therapy,
and I get it, but I need you to continue
just to, like, open up and share more.
- Yeah. - I think it's getting better.
- Yeah.
- Which is important because this can get better.
And I think last week was harder
to, like, measure progress 'cause we needed to, like,
get through moving in and all of that.
So I think now it's just gonna be more important
coming out of these conversations
just moving forward, that, like, we're actually
taking action on this stuff.
So that's why, like, it's important for me
at the highest level this week to figure out how we do that.
- Yeah. - And when we set the goals.
- I know we agreed to do Pia's exercises,
but the touching one seemed a little odd to me
to, like, force each other to, like, touch.
- What I want you to do is,
you're going to touch one another from head to toe
with as minimal clothing
as the two of you feel comfortable with.
That would be okay? - Yeah.
- Okay. We're getting somewhere.
We're getting somewhere! Brennan, I'm proud of you.
- I think we can pivot on that a little bit.
- Yeah. - And maybe expand--
like, for me, I like hugging. - Yeah.
- So I think instead of, like, the whole boop and then boop,
can we, like, agree to, like, try to hug more?
- Yeah, I love hugging. - Okay. Awesome.
Should we start that now?
- Right this very moment?
- Yeah. - Yeah.
♪
- But I think the hugging is complementary to talking more.
- Right.
- And I'd rather focus on that, you know, like,
continuing to build the emotional connection,
and, like, go back to conversations.
I feel like we haven't had a chance
to, like, do that because... - Mm-hmm.
- I think will be important. - Okay.
- 'Cause, like, some of the, like, past relationship stuff,
I think would be helpful for me.
So then I think, like, that's probably
what I will wanna talk to you about this week.
- Okay. Gotcha. - Yeah.
- We can talk through some of it later.
- Um...
I just want you to know, while I can feel frustrated
here and there, I'm sure you feel the same with me.
Like, I am committed to this, to you,
and to, like, figuring this all out.
And I know we're in different spots currently.
But yeah, like, I just wouldn't be doing this
if I didn't want to or think it was worth it.
- Same.
♪
- So I'm a little nervous about this meeting.
We're here to see Michael after this debacle at the altar.
- I'm sorry.
I don't think I can do this.
I don't wanna marry a stranger.
- Oh.
- I can say we've never had anything close to this.
- Not since I've been here. I haven't seen it.
- And it's to me, an emotional disaster.
I feel terrible about it,
and I wanna find out how he's thinking,
um, and how he's feeling.
Honestly, I feel terrible about being one of the people
who matched him because had I an inkling,
this, of course, wouldn't happen.
- You can never know exactly what's going to happen.
You make the best decision that you have
based on the information that you have at the time.
And I don't think any of us could have seen this coming.
- No. No, we couldn't.
Yeah, I really feel bad for him.
And I gotta admit, he was very classy
during the entire thing.
You know, he was a complete gentleman.
- Sure. - But I just give him
so much credit for being a gentleman, you know,
about the whole thing.
♪
- Hi. - King Michael.
- Yes. Amazing.
- Make sure I don't poke any eyes out.
- It's the crown for me. - It's good to see you.
- Mm-hmm. - Hey, buddy.
Good to see you, man. - And you as well.
- Good to see you. - Of course. You as well.
- All right.
- I like the crown.
- I have no negative things to say about the crown.
It was a great gift, so.
- I--you know, first of all, let me speak for all of us
that we are appalled that this happened
and feel so bad for you.
We have--well, we wouldn't have matched you
if we didn't think you were, you know,
a really interesting, great guy.
- Mm-hmm.
- And we thought we had picked somebody
who would be the right choice for each of you.
She had seemed resolute, committed, excited.
- Mm-hmm.
- I just didn't pick up anything.
And honestly, I couldn't believe it happened.
It's never happened before.
- It was tough, 'cause I'll be honest,
I didn't really contemplate that possibility,
meeting my potential wife, and her just saying no.
But in the moment, seeing her in what I considered
a very vulnerable state--
- Mm.
- Even if I was mad, like, there was no incentive
to express any type of anger in that moment.
Once I went upstairs, I will admit,
I was a little upset.
Your mind works how it works,
and so immediately, my mind is going to, like,
what if she saw me prior, and was like,
there's no way I could do that.
And you know, that hits--
that hits a certain way.
And I'll be honest, there was a moment
where almost, like, an existential moment,
I was like, wow, like, the--
the woman that they felt was a great match for me
is the same woman who doesn't even want
to do this journey with me.
And, like, that--
I think that's probably when, like, I started crying.
I didn't verbalize that part, but, like, I felt it.
- We have matched you to become more and more in love
if you give yourself that option.
- Mm-hmm.
- She took away all the options.
And all she had was her own fears, her own background,
and a very quick vision of you. - Mm-hmm.
- So this really couldn't have been about you.
- I'm curious, though, how has this affected your--
your view of marriage?
- It hasn't.
My response and my feelings about this experience
is specific to me, not to my ideas of marriage as a whole.
- Wow. That is how you need to think
in order to have a successful relationship.
- You know your worth, you know your value,
and you deserve someone who appreciates that as well.
- Well, thank you. - You're very welcome.
- So Michael, there has been some talk about whether
we could find in the very large pool of people
that we didn't look at closely enough.
If we could find someone we thought was worthy,
would you be willing to take another chance
while we're still in Denver?
I don't know if there is such a person,
but if there were, would you want
to face that moment again?
♪
- You know, you emotionally and mentally
kind of tune yourself for this.
And I discovered things about myself
that I didn't realize in the moment.
Like, I knew I was ready for marriage,
but I didn't know I was that ready.
So to answer your question, I would 100% do this again.
- And you're gonna make someone extremely happy.
♪
- If we could find someone else,
after going through this experience, up to this point...
- Mm-hmm. - Tell me now.
I mean, we asked you before you were in this,
but now that you've gone through all this,
and you've had these challenges,
tell me the kind of woman you'd be looking for.
- I mean, of course, I would, you know,
love an intelligent woman.
Someone that, you know, is very witty and quick,
and is very invested in themselves.
And I think maybe what I didn't articulate as well
is how much I appreciate, like, silliness too.
I know it doesn't come out here as much,
but I'm a pretty silly person.
- [laughs]
- And I kind of love that levity of, like,
you can be that strong version of yourself
in whatever form you need to be,
but that you also have that latitude of, like,
letting yourself be silly and goofy.
But I would also reiterate that sweetness.
Like, yeah, you might be a hard-ass at work,
but there's that sweet nature that really,
you foster inside of you. - I do.
- Okay, we're looking for sweet and silly. [laughs]
- Yeah. - Okay.
- One thing that we are sure of--
and I think we all can agree--
is that we are completely, absolutely,
unequivocally convinced
that we chose the right husband.
You are a king.
- We think you have what it takes to create a relationship
that has depth and fun in it.
I really hope we could find the right person for you.
- We're going to put our nose to the grindstone
and see what we can do.
- Well, thank you.
That means a lot. - All right.
To the future. - To the future.
- To the future.
- ♪ You only got one life
♪ I'm not wasting it now
♪
- [laughs] Oh, I'm nervous.
I'm about to make a fool.
It's been a minute since we've skied.
- I'm still trying to figure out Clare, I'll be honest.
She does say one thing one day
and says something different the next day.
So today, with the fun that we're having,
with Dr. Pia's advice, I'm hoping that at minimum,
she'll figure out what she wants 'cause obviously,
we've had problems meeting in the same place.
- You feel like skiers?
- We're--I'm feeling like a skier.
- You look like skiers. - [laughs]
♪
- Follow me on up.
♪
- It's been a long time since I skied.
I know Cameron hasn't skied in a minute.
So I think it'll be a lot of fun, but, like, I don't know.
There's just a lot of things that we need to work through.
And maybe this will really bring out, like, the playful,
fun side of both of us, to really help us
turn the relationship around.
I don't know.
♪
- Yeah. - Wow.
Look at him go.
- Very nice.
- Ooh.
♪
- Good.
- Cameron, you're gonna run into me?
- Don't be afraid to move over a lot.
♪
- Cameron, get ready. - No.
She wants to go between my legs.
- I'm doing it. - Yeah!
- I'll slow it down for you. - Go in front of me.
- Okay, slow it down. - If we fall, we fall.
- Okay. Okay.
- Cameron, you gotta come up a little bit, though.
Meet me halfway. - Okay, nice instructing.
Thank you.
♪
- Cameron, you gotta move back a little bit, dude.
- Well, I'm [bleep] trying.
♪
- Killed it!
- Nice. - [laughs]
- All right, Cameron, come on down.
- That was impressive.
- Yeah.
- I am definitely trying, and I will
continue to try, for sure.
But I think it's hard because I do think Cameron
has given a lot of his energy
into trying to make this marriage work,
but I think he's checked out, you know?
And it's making it a little uncomfortable,
to be quite honest.
- So we're taking Dr. Pia's advice.
- Yup. - We're having fun.
- We are. - We're killing the fun.
♪
- But it is weird.
And I--I'll say weird 'cause it is weird.
Like, I'm sorry.
That is the only feeling I have about it.
We did not get to sign up for this
to be in a platonic marriage.
[laughs] I mean, did you sign up for a platonic marriage?
'Cause I most certainly didn't. - I did not.
- And do you feel like that's where--where--
like, it's just weird.
- Mm-hmm. - I don't know.
I didn't wanna--
- I mean, I feel like you just have said
exactly what I was saying. - Right.
- You know? It just-- - Right, and I just--
- It took you a little bit to catch up.
- Well, I'm just-- I needed to reflect
after Dr. Pia's visit. - Okay.
- I mean, it's important to implement the, like--
the having fun, and taking your mind off of,
like, the stress that sometimes relationships can be.
- I don't know if I would force, like,
a particular schedule on us.
I don't wanna be, like, it's the first Thursday
of every month. It's fun day today.
- [laughs] That's fair.
But, like, I feel like some things do need to be planned.
And I'm not a quitter.
So I do think it's important
that we try everything, you know?
♪
- Yeah.
- I am worried that he may start
to become resentful of the time that we're spending
right now with one another.
Like, that is my worst fear
because he is like a best friend to me.
And so I would be so sad if I-- if that was stripped away
from me just because we tried to force
something that wasn't there.
- Look, we're in a difficult spot.
- Right.
- So we can have fun, but it does--
there is kind of that looming feeling of...
okay. - Yeah.
But I still think that we should be
embracing every single moment.
- Mm-hmm. - You know what I mean?
And so that's kind of where, like, how I feel.
Yeah.
So...yeah.
♪
- ♪ I can feel the water
♪ Batten up the doors
♪ Before the flood
- Earlier today was a little difficult.
We were just talking about religion a little bit,
and I'm having a really hard time with it.
And, um, it wasn't really going well.
I still don't even know, like, what to say or what to do.
I'm hoping that Pastor Cal will guide us.
- Hey, Cal.
- 'Cause, like, I don't know--
I don't know what to do.
- What's going on, guys?
- Hi.
- [sighs] Well, I was gonna say not a lot,
but that's not quite true. [chuckles]
- That's not true at all, is it?
- No.
- So I understand we've been having
some discussions about religion.
- Yeah.
- We just, like, got into a topic of, like,
heaven and hell, and, like, Austin was being, like,
very loving and comforting,
and just telling me that, like, you know,
even if it does end up that, like, I do die,
and I do go to hell, like, he still thinks
that he can, like, love me in the same way
in this lifetime.
Um...
- How does that make you feel?
- Um, it makes me feel less than.
I don't think I'm going to hell.
Um, and so it's hard to, like, be married to someone
that isn't sure whether I do or not.
And it just makes me feel really sad and hurt.
- Yeah.
Do you believe in hell, Becca?
- No, not really.
I mean, I don't know.
To me, like, being agnostic means that, like,
anything could be true, and anybody could be right.
I like not knowing.
Like, I love that anybody could be right.
But, like, to think that if he believes that after this,
we do go somewhere, and that we would go to different places--
- That kind of breaks you up.
- [sobs] Yeah. It really hurts.
- I'm so glad you guys are talking to me about this.
But here's the thing. Here's the thing.
Neither you, Austin, you, Becca, or I
have ever left this life
and come back to say what happens.
I don't think anybody has the power or authority to do that.
Is that fair enough to say?
- Yeah. - Right, Austin?
I mean, help me. - Yeah, yeah.
- But this is what he said his church taught.
- I said my church is accepting of gay people
and anything that, like, is thought of and--
- But if you don't accept Jesus,
then you're going to hell. - Right.
- Okay. Let me tell you something.
There are people who say they accept Jesus and are still
doing a whole lot of stuff that the Bible says
will keep you out of heaven.
So let's just get real with it.
Accepting Jesus is one thing,
but accepting the principles of Jesus
is something completely different,
which are open to everybody.
Is it reasonable for God to say, hey, look,
you can only accept--
go to heaven if you accept Jesus Christ.
However, if you're born in Afghanistan,
and you never get a chance to accept Jesus Christ,
oh, well, you burn in hell.
- I mean, that's-- - Is that what I'm to believe?
- I mean, that's not what I believe, either.
- That's not what you believe?
- No. - Okay, fine.
Is it possible that you can see yourself
to looking at different possibilities, Austin?
Where are you on that?
- Yeah, I mean, I'm always open to, like, hearing new theories.
And one thing that, like, we kind of connected on
was, like, the similarities between, like, Christianity,
Judaism, and Islam is, like-- - Absolutely.
- So I am, like, somewhat, like, agnostic
in the fact that, like, there are so many similarities,
like, they could all be the same thing.
Like, who's to say? Who knows?
Like, I don't, that's for sure.
But, like, I'm always open to learning more,
to talking to people, to figuring this out,
like, regardless of how I grew up,
or, like, what I believe happens in the afterlife.
I don't think any of that affects how I care for you.
Like, I can still love you, like, regardless
of whatever happens in the afterlife.
- And I'm thankful for that.
But I'm just saying, like, if he were paired, like,
with a Christian woman, like, he would--
- He wasn't.
We didn't pair him with a Christian woman
because you were his match.
You are his match. Period.
Couples always have issues.
There will always be something.
We chose you because we felt that you would be
compatible with this man, and that he would be
compatible with you, that he would love who you are,
and that you would love who he is.
And I believe that's happening.
And you guys, the only reason you're
showing this kind of emotion is because
of the deep emotion and deep passion
you feel for each other.
Is that safe to say?
- I thought we were feeling it.
- [chuckles] Yeah.
- I don't--I don't know-- - I do not, Becca?
He says he is. - No.
Austin, the other night,
accidentally told me he loved me. [laughs]
But it was a joke. [chuckles]
- It was not a joke. - No, he was really tired.
He was really tired, and he said,
"Love you, good night."
- And that's when truth comes out.
It's like being drunk.
Most people are in love
long before they recognize it.
- Yeah.
- If you didn't care for one another,
this wouldn't even be a conversation.
- No, I'm feeling this way
because I want us to work so badly.
- And that's what's going to make you work.
That is the thing that you need to hold on to.
The fact that you want this so badly.
And that is where you need to focus.
- ♪ I need something ♪
[upbeat music]
♪
- So how was that for you?
There were times when I felt like
you wanted to say more or get more out.
Do you feel satisfied?
- If you do think that I'm going to hell,
then that won't work for me.
- Okay.
I don't know what I think.
- Okay.
♪
- I feel like you want an answer out of me right now,
and, like, I don't have an answer for you.
It's not like I can, like, sit down for hours a day
and, like, think about this-- this one thing--
- I'm not asking for that.
I just want it to be a priority.
- Yeah.
- I--like--
I think our marriage is a priority to both of us.
And, like, this is... - Yeah.
- A large difference in us that we have to try
to understand in our marriage.
And I think, like, I've made it a priority,
and I would love if you made it a priority too.
- Like, it is.
- I just know in the past four weeks,
you haven't talked to anybody about religion yet.
- Where is the time?
- That's fine.
Then if you--you don't wanna find the time, but it's okay.
- It's not that I don't wanna find the time.
- Well, like, if you don't think
that there's time to explore it,
then that's what I'm hearing from you, and that's okay.
- I'm not saying that.
I'm just saying that, like, this will take time.
And I'm just asking you to give me time to do it
'cause, like, these are big questions.
- I said that I would give you time.
I'm just asking for you not to put it off.
I think all I really need to hear right now
is that you're gonna make it a priority.
- I absolutely will make it a priority.
It never hasn't been.
- That's all I needed to hear.
- Okay.
Thank you for sharing that with me.
♪
- ♪ I just wanna feel everything, let me feel ♪
♪ Let me feel, oh
♪
♪ I just wanna feel everything, let me feel ♪
♪
- Hey!
You look cute. - Thanks. So do you.
- I love the hair.
- There's a nice fire pit over here.
- Yeah. Nice. Yeah. They got, like, four grills?
- Yeah.
- I wanna know, like, A, how you're doing,
B, like, if you've had any communication with Orion.
- Yes, I'm good. No, I haven't. Done.
- Okay. [laughter]
That's all we need to know.
- No, I think we're--
one thing we're good at is giving each other space.
- Yeah. Yeah.
- I haven't spoken with Lauren.
You know, after the whole potluck with everybody,
I guess I got more of an understanding
how far we are from each other in terms
of not being on the same page, not even the same book.
- I very much appreciate hearing Orion's perspective
because he felt for what was best for himself
that he had to leave his marriage.
And right now, I'm essentially on the brink
of walking away from my marriage.
I think Clare and I are at the point where, um,
I'm going to need to advocate for myself.
All of my emotional capital is gone.
But when I reach my breaking point,
she'll throw something out that reels me right back in.
- Hmm. So what reels you in?
- Any display, verbally or physically,
that there's a chance.
Like, the other night, she's--she's saying
that she prefers when I'm in the apartment
versus when I'm not.
Like, that reels me right back in.
- I don't know.
I just--something doesn't feel totally there yet.
'Cause I'm so in my head, like,
he's not actually attracted to me.
Is he just trying to force it because we're married now?
He's trying to, like, make it work solely
because he wants the marriage to work?
Or does he wanna make it work, like,
because he actually is attract--I don't know.
And I think I have been so in my head this entire time.
- At any chance that I have gotten, I have shown
that I want to try and make this work,
that I am attracted to her, that I value her immensely,
and that I--
and I'm gonna say this in past tense,
I had feelings for her.
- Man.
- And Cameron and I are at a place where he is leaning more
towards divorce at this time... - Mm-hmm.
- Which is heartbreaking.
Because if my marriage ends in divorce, that's not something
I want to happen at all.
But we've hit a wall.
- Do you think you're getting too far ahead?
Like, with the future tripping?
Is that what we calling it, right, future tripping?
- Future tripping, and that's what Dr. Pia said.
She was, like, you two just seem so focused on the future
that you're not really focusing on enjoying
each other's presence right here, right now.
So that's why we're trying to, like, go on more dates,
and, like, we're doing fun things.
But, like, it just feels so forced, you know what I mean?
My fear is that we're forcing it so much
that he just wants to remove himself entirely.
And I don't want him to just all of a sudden be, like,
I don't wanna see this person anymore.
- Honestly, man, I'm taking this time being away from,
you know, the marriage, and just kind of all of it,
having the time to reflect, I wish I advocated
for myself a bit more.
So maybe it's not in your best benefit
to just be the good husband that shows up
and is ready to do this just because I just
don't want you to get cut at the knees.
Just keep on track with what you want
and be your own advocate in those moments.
- I want to take your-- I wanna take your advice.
But I can tell you, I know for a fact that I'm gonna say,
"You know what? That's it. I'm leaving."
And it's gonna be, "Oh, I don't want you to leave,"
or "I'll try now." - Mm-hmm.
Don't get so reeled back in, you know?
Because once the feelings do go,
it is hard to continue to try.
- Yeah.
- ♪ 'Cause it all breaks down ♪
- I think that part of people's want to skirt out fast
is, like, a control thing.
It's, "This sucks in the moment.
"I don't like it, and I'm not in control.
The only way I can take control is to leave."
- So your advice to me is to stick this out?
- [sighs] If you step out now, you might have what-ifs.
And to me, what-ifs are, like, the worst.
♪
[upbeat music]
- ♪ This is a brand new day
♪
- Morning.
- Good morning.
- Happy one month. - Happy one month.
[both chuckle]
- We made a lot of progress
with our effective communication.
And waking up today, I feel excited to go horseback riding
with you, and go on another little adventure
through the mountains.
- I'm excited, too, for an adventure.
I think it's overdue.
♪
- So Cameron and I are not celebrating our anniversary
because I think the word anniversary
put a lot of pressure on him,
and I think there's definitely, like,
some lingering confusion and just, like, mixed emotions
that are just really weighing on me, that I just--
I can't take that weight off.
And I'm trying to get familiar with these feelings
and these emotions, but they're not
making sense to me, and so I just feel bad
that, like, when Cameron asked me, like, how I feel,
sometimes I just literally don't know.
So I don't think it's too far gone for us
to just be, like, okay, we're done.
But the word anniversary just was a little much for us
to, like, really soak in.
Yeah.
♪
- ♪ Never gonna give up, never gonna ♪
♪ Never gonna back down, never gonna ♪
♪ Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh
♪ Keep on going
- Hello, Becca and Austin.
Congratulations on making it to your one month anniversary.
By now, I am sure you have started to realize
that marriage is not always easy,
especially when it's to a stranger.
This week is about celebrating the hurdles you've overcome,
the conversations and vulnerabilities you've shared,
and the growth you have accomplished both together
and individually.
We wish you the very best.
Please enjoy this video.
♪
- Oh, gosh.
- Honey.
♪
- Becca. - Yes?
- Meet for the very first time,
Austin, your husband to be.
[laughter]
Austin, meet for the very first time,
Becca, your wife to be.
- I promise to laugh with you, at you.
We will laugh. - Great.
[laughter]
- I promise to be vulnerable and honest with you,
even when it's not comfortable or easy.
I promise to share my N64 with you,
so long as you're okay with losing.
- Losing? Losing?
[laughter]
- You're so cute. - My turn.
Aw.
I hope we become best friends, fall in love,
and spending the rest of our lives living together.
Since today, I choose you to be my wife,
and I'm excited to start building a life
far better than either one of us could have imagined.
[both laugh]
- And now, I pronounce you a married couple.
- It looks like we've done that 55 times.
Like, that's our first kiss, and it looks so good.
[cheering]
- Ladies and gentlemen, it is my pleasure
to introduce for the first time
as husband and wife, Becca and Austin.
[cheering]
- Aww.
- I wanna do it again.
Again and again and again.
♪
I really liked it. - Yeah, that was sweet.
- I feel like when Pastor Cal said,
are you guys in the stages of falling in love?
You said yes, and I feel same.
- Yeah. You didn't make that apparent.
- I was so tired.
I, like, didn't even, like--
English didn't even sound like English.
- Yeah. - It was hard.
- It's a long day. - Yeah.
- Well, let's make today a lot more fun.
- Yeah, okay. - Less emotionally exhausting.
- Okay, great. - Okay, great.
Monthiversary it is.
♪
- Just so happy to see you.
- Oh, that's sweet. I'm so happy it's you.
♪
- ♪ Get away, get away from
♪ All we know, gotta go
♪ It's time to run
- It's pretty.
- So nice.
Wow.
- I'm excited we made it to our one month.
It is a milestone. - It is.
I'm just, you know, it hasn't felt, like, a month, honestly.
- I wonder how fast the next month is gonna be.
- Yeah. - Or slow.
I think it's gonna feel slower.
- You think? - Yeah.
'Cause we have serious [bleep] to talk about.
- Yeah.
♪
- What's up, man? - How's it going?
- Hello. - It's going.
- Brendan and Emily, I presume?
both: Yes.
- This past month, it's just--
it's just a lot.
And while I know we still have a lot of conversations ahead,
I'm so glad now that we decided to go back
to what I think him and I
enjoy a lot, which is adventure.
- This is Gucci. - Ooh. Okay.
- Gucci, my guy.
- And I think that getting the opportunity
to do more adventures, I think is kind of just
setting our relationship up for success.
- All right, guys, here we go. - Let's do it.
- Here we go. - Come on, Doc, giddy up.
♪
Feel like Doc goes really slow.
♪
- Gucci's raring to go. I can feel it.
- You guys wanna trot real quick?
- Yeah, let's trot.
- I just wanna show the world what Gucci can do.
- How do we make them trot? - Just click your heels.
- Go, go, go, go. - Yeah, give him some punch.
- Oh, [bleep]. We're going this way.
- Yeah. - Attaboy.
- Come on. Let's go. - Go ahead. Go ahead.
- Go, go, go, go, go, go.
- Attaboy, Guc.
- Whoo, we're going.
Come on. - Good boy.
- He is. - No, no.
[horse snorting]
No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no.
♪
Jeez.
Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa.
[horse snorting]
Oh, [bleep]. I almost just ate it.
Sorry, Guc.
That was crazy. He literally just slipped.
- Sorry if that was a little scary for you.
- No.
I know Gucci wouldn't let anything happen.
He just slipped.
Gucci, you did it, buddy.
Thanks, bud.
- Wow, this is so pretty.
♪
- Very scenic. - Yes.
I feel like we need to do something next
that, like, is maybe a little bit more
suspenseful, like, adrenaline.
Scary.
- Scary. [both laugh]
I don't know, when he was slipping, that, uh--
- That was scary. Yeah. - But he's all right.
- Right, Gucci?
- Brennan really bonded with his horse.
It was cute/bizarre, but it's emotion.
And I'm like, this is something. [chuckles]
I love that you have a connection with this horse
so instantly. - So weird.
But you feel it, too, huh, bud?
- Definitely feel the spark with the horse, right?
He felt the spark with the horse.
Just not really with me.
- Gucci is just special.
- Yeah.
Him and Gucci.
- Let's go.
♪
[upbeat music]
- So we just got back from a day in Pueblo.
- Amazing. - Riding the canyons.
I got a day away from the wife.
And a few hours of, um,
of some of the more technical trails,
I was able to clear my head
and, um, and just spend time with those that I love,
and have a great time riding my bike.
- Yeah, good to see you again, man.
It's been a while. - Yeah.
♪
- ♪ When the sky is falling, I will pick it up again ♪
- Oh, I'm nervous. - [laughs] Oh, I'm so scared.
- You need one of these?
- Yeah. [laughs] - Think you do.
- ♪ And I won't give up, won't give up ♪
♪ Won't give up
- Whoo-hoo!
I was gonna try to see if I can go backwards with this thing.
- Do it, try going backwards.
♪
I feel incredibly lucky to have been matched with Becca.
Now, turn the other way, turn the other way.
- Am I turning? - Oh, too much! Too much!
- Ahh! [laughs]
- One of the great things about our relationship is,
we built up this foundation in which we can, like,
feel safe going into, like, the big topics,
which gives us the perfect space to have, like,
romantic fun days like today.
- ♪ Ooh, you know I'm not perfect ♪
♪ But baby, it's worth it
♪ We can work it out
- This is nice. I like this. - [giggles]
You like not having to work. - This is a lot of fun.
Uh, I'm your support system. - You are.
- But yeah.
- Although I don't know how much I trust your balance.
- I'm your support. - You almost--
- You do all the leg work.
That's how this relationship works.
- That actually is.
[laughter]
Trust is everything in a marriage,
and I think this process, like, this is so wild,
and, like, it pushes you in, like,
all of these different extremes,
and, like, there's a lot of things that I can't control.
And I'm still just giving Austin time and space
to, like, process all of, like, the spiritual things
that we've talked about.
- You wanna roast some marshies?
- Yeah, I do.
- ♪ The stars come out tonight ♪
- Oh, boy. It's hot, man.
- [chuckles] It's good.
You're usually cold, so--
- Ooh!
- We're going in the middle, though.
- Oh, you're one of those that blows them out
when they get on fire? - Yeah, of course.
- Ugh. - Classic.
- I can't believe I'm married to one of those.
[laughs] That is a loose mallow.
- [laughs]
♪
- Nailed it. - You're a liability.
- Nailed it.
- I cannot.
You're just gonna light it on fire again?
- Yep.
I didn't really know what marriage would be like,
but it's been, like, really great and really amazing,
and I've loved doing it with you.
And another thing that has just kind of, like,
made this relationship so easy and unique
is, like, the amount of trust we've had with each other,
like, since the beginning.
And it feels like every day, that builds more.
And I think that's really sweet,
and I'm really excited to--
to be in a relationship like that.
- Yeah. Me, too.
And I think it's nice because in a lot
of my past relationships, like, guys have just
been really avoidant and have just, like,
gone with whatever I want.
And I think although it wasn't easy for me to hear that,
like, you still have searching to do,
like, in regards to religion, like,
you don't have any answers yet for me.
And, like, while that still leaves me in, like,
discomfort and, like, anxiety.
I'd way rather that than, like, you just
compromise who you are to make us work.
I appreciate that a lot.
- I do promise to be with you through thick and thin
and, like, respect you and be kind to you
and listen to you and give you the things
you need to be successful.
- It was, like, very comforting to hear that in your vows.
And to hear it again today is nice.
- Aww. - So thank you.
- Absolutely.
- ♪ I never wasted time
- Glad we made it to a month. - [laughs]
- I'm proud of us. - Proud of us.
- And I'm excited to celebrate every single month
until we die. - Oh, my God. Sounds great.
- Kiss me. - I'm not freaking out inside.
- You married me.
[laughter]
I'm freaking out inside.
It's what you signed up for, bro.
I hate you.
- Love liking you.
[laughter]
- That's my new favorite.
[laughter]
- ♪ I love you so
♪ I love you so
- ♪ Summer on the outside
♪ Trying to find a way that we can get back in ♪
- Nice.
♪
- This is a really nice place.
- Yeah. - Thank you.
Thank you. Appreciate it. - Right away.
- All right, well, cheers.
- Salt? [laughs] I don't know.
Purple salt? - That's cool.
Oh, this place has everything. - Cheers.
I feel like today was, like, a good stepping stone,
but I need to see just some more progress and change.
And I think what's important for us is to, like,
set a new tone for our next chapter
after one month, whatever that means.
Do you wanna stir the Caesar first?
- Oh, it's Caesar. - It's grilled.
- Very nice. This is beautiful.
- I'll let you cut that salad.
- I will do my best.
- I feel like this week couldn't have gone better,
at least for me. - Yeah.
- Like, getting in, living together, crazy schedules.
Like, I feel like we got into a rhythm.
- Yeah, you've made it a very comfortable place to live.
So it's allowed me to really trust the process
and stay moved in.
But you know, I don't wanna sugarcoat it
and be, like, this has been--
like, obviously, it's been a lot of fun,
like, and everything, but this has been, like,
very tough, like, at least for me.
And in the past, I would have just
ran from, like, a red flag.
Like, oh, not there anymore. Done.
- So I'm a red flag?
- I mean...
♪
Um, yeah.
Like, it's very uncomfortable to have something
and then have it gone, and you don't know why.
What I would do in the past is, when that would fizzle out,
I would just run.
Where here, I don't wanna do that.
And I've been trying.
- I don't know.
I just need to, like, learn more about this, like, running.
- Um, yeah.
- I was curious to know while you had the spark
immediately with them, like, did you take things
slow after that?
- This isn't like any relationship, right?
Like, this is totally different.
I'm just taking it day by day.
Honestly, like, I'm just giving it time and seeing
if that, you know, changes anything.
- I feel like he doesn't understand
that we have been taking it day by day.
But that is not going to cut it.
I need to see more.
We're in this space because he can't express, like,
the littlest of things that I think would help me
understand, like, why he's feeling the way he is.
Like, we have to move forward, and in order to do that,
I need to see a little bit more
of him opening up and expressing himself.
I mean, I was just curious 'cause I feel like
I was just asking you the shortest terms, like,
did you have a spark?
I never really asked, like, oh, like, how was the pace after?
- Yeah. I know what you mean. - I get feelings change.
- Like, I'm just trying to be honest.
Like-- - No, yeah.
That's what I'm trying to be right now too.
- Like, I don't know if it was fizz or adrenaline.
You know what I mean?
And that's where I'm trying to navigate.
- Now I don't know, either, how to navigate anything.
♪
- ♪ Oh, come on
♪ 'Cause I'm giving my heart to a known heartbreaker ♪
♪ Say it ain't so
♪ 'Cause I'm giving my heart to a known heartbreaker ♪
♪
- So Cameron sends me a text message,
and he tells me that he's not coming home.
It's sad, but it's not something
that is totally shocking.
And I respect him saying, yeah, I am getting attached
to something that I won't be able to have
for the rest of my life.
And this is the moment that I need to tap out
because it's getting a little too much
for my heart to handle.
That statement says everything.
♪
We have a lot of different issues, you know?
The fact that we have religious differences
and the lack of physical connection.
♪
It makes me feel really empty.
It really does 'cause it's, like,
I want to feel a certain-- and I also feel, like,
just sad 'cause there's the part of us
that really wants to be together
and wants to make it work,
but then there's a part of us that realizes
we're not on the same page, you know?
It just makes me sad.
I just--I don't like feeling like I can't meet him
where he's at, you know?
♪
- ♪ And I know I crossed something ♪
♪ I can't leave from my life
- He is a great person, and, like,
I wanna be able to, you know?
But I just...
it's just been a lot mentally for me.
[sobbing]
- ♪ I'm too far gone now
Thank you. Yeah.
- ♪ I ain't thinking right
♪ Pull me under so I don't miss the air ♪
♪
- ♪ If you open your eyes, take a look inside ♪
♪
- Hello. - Hi. How are you?
- I'm good. How are you doing?
- Good. How's married life? - Yeah.
It's good. Yeah.
Sure you're kinda caught up
with what's happening with Becca and I.
- Uh-huh. - Yeah.
Like, religion has kind of been, like, issue.
And in our marriage,
Becca and I do share a lot of the same values
and, like, characteristics that we, like,
want to, like, live by, which is amazing,
which is why the experts said
they matched us together, right?
And it wasn't until the idea of, like, the afterlife,
and, like, heaven and hell came into it
that, like, it became more of an issue.
The way I was taught when I was a kid was literally,
it's as simple as, like, if you don't believe in Jesus and God,
like, you don't go to heaven, and everyone else,
like, goes to hell, right?
You were raised Catholic. - Mm-hmm.
- So, like, where do you stand in the afterlife
and, like, what might happen, and, like,
how does that work with Becca,
who's very against any, like, type of, like, hell?
- I don't know if I really believe in hell.
Like, your spirit lives on and gets
reunited with God in heaven,
and I think if you haven't been close to God
on your time on Earth, and you--
you know, killed people and were just a terrible person,
just putting, like, just negativity
and hate out into the world, I think
there's a true separation from God in the afterlife.
- Okay.
- And I think that's the interpretation
of hell, for me.
So someone--if I look at someone like Becca,
who is pure light and love,
I would never think she would be separated
from her creator in the afterlife.
I mean, she's so--
she's such an advocate for people.
She's so ethical. - Yeah.
- She's so, like, you know, challenges the--
the hate in the world, and, like, the restricting beliefs.
Like, to me, that's exactly what Jesus embodied.
Like, to just challenge what is wrong in the world.
- I definitely feel like I'm being exposed to new ideas.
I am open to changing.
I'm not, like, not holding on to any, like, one concept.
I think it's a lot that there is to think about
and to consider, and I'm okay with that.
I'm okay with, like, re-evaluating
and seeing where that takes me.
- I see and hear her wanting to grow towards you in this.
- You do? - And I think--yeah.
- That's, like--that's, like--
I feel like they hit a wall
when it came to, like, the afterlife.
And that--it's not-- - It is a wall.
I mean, it's definitely a test, but I think
it's going to challenge you to--
to really, like, sink into your soul.
Does that feel right to me that someone like Becca
would be condemned to hell.
- I'm open to growing.
And, like, it's nice to hear that you're saying
she is open to growing, too, because I didn't
necessarily feel that way.
- If you guys both can, you know,
grow towards each other rather than away,
it's possible for you to grow and evolve in these areas
just as much as it is for her.
You're doing the hard work to get to the other side of it,
you know? - Yeah. Yeah, totally.
No, and, like, that is what I believe and hope for.
But it's not, like, the sort of thing
that just, like, flips in a day or night.
You know? - Yeah. Yeah.
It's a journey. - Yeah.
- For sure.
♪
- ♪ 'Cause it's you, girl, oh, oh, oh ♪
- I mean, I'm bracing to be cold,
so I gotta keep my stuff on. - Yeah.
I'm just gonna get hammered right away.
- Just immediately start drinking?
- Yeah.
- So I mean, I know I didn't go
into too much detail with you guys,
but I did have an opportunity to--to chat with the experts.
♪
I mean, not immediately after.
After some time, when I had an opportunity
to decompress and everything.
And getting an opportunity to speak with them,
I'll be honest, I didn't really know what to expect.
But I felt like they took...
- Ownership? - Accountability, I guess?
All in all, they were very--
I would say, like, super empathetic.
- I'm Brett. I'll be helping you guys out tonight.
- Thank you. - Awesome.
- Need anything, let me know. - All right.
- Okay. - Cheers.
- Cheers.
- Well--well, with that said,
we did kind of broach the topic of like,
well, what happens now, right? - Yes.
- Like, will there be, you know, an opportunity
for me to be re-matched?
Or is this just kind of it?
And they did talk about the possibility of re-matching me.
And I was really curious on, like,
what you guys thought about the possibility
of going through this again.
- So the thing that I am struggling with is,
you put your trust in these people to find you someone.
- Mm-hmm. - Like, that, to me--
yeah, it diminished a lot of my trust within that process.
So I would wanna know--
like, you know, people make mistakes, that happens,
and there's no guarantees, but there needs
to be changes in whatever process they did
that brought you to that altar. - Sure.
- 'Cause that was-- that was not inspiring.
- That's a good point.
- So I think if you feel you have heard the changes
that get you to feel inspired again,
we will be here to support you through that.
- Sure.
- Let me ask you this.
Are you excited about the prospect of another match?
- I am.
I think when I think through the possibility
of doing this again, it's like having that--
that muscle memory.
- Yeah, you gotta practice with it.
- Yeah. [laughter]
- And if you suspect it's gonna happen this time,
you back out. Just--just run.
[laughter]
- So if you had to quantify, let's use a 1 to 10 scale,
10 being the utmost comfort. - Stoked.
- 1 being bed of nails discomfort.
How comfortable would you guys be with me
going through this again?
- Um, I'd be pretty worried-- pretty nervous about it.
Maybe, like, a four.
- Four, okay. - Whoa.
- I think it's a seven because it's you.
And so I have full faith that you will go in for this.
- You're putting a lot of faith in me.
- I do put a lot of faith into you 'cause you've earned it.
- Aww.
- Um, a big factor is, you are at least 50% of this equation.
So, like, a four would just be--
- Hi.
- Can I join you? - Hi.
- Of course. - Good.
That's the right answer.
- Can I at least give you a hug?
- Please do.
- It's nice seeing you again. - It's great to see you again.
Oh, man.
- I hope you heard all the craziness she was talking.
She has questions. - Yeah.
- So I'm here to answer some of your questions.
- Fair.
- But we were kinda talking through the possibility
of me potentially getting re-matched again.
And I think one of the points Paige brought up
that I didn't really broach with you guys was
her curiosity of how things played out if that would
influence the methodology that you would use
to potentially rematch me.
- The thing that really, really struck me was when we were
debriefing the day afterward.
And Michael, you said it was the biggest
failure of your personal life.
- You said that? - I did say that, yeah.
- And that was something that, like, really hit me
because I don't think that was something
that you had any control over.
And that's where, like, I don't know, I just--
I'd never want him to feel that way again.
♪
- This is so without precedent in the history
of a 17-season show.
But we admired and do admire Michael so much,
in part 'cause how he took this.
And so that said, we did do a lot of due diligence.
And we were listening.
You said, "I want someone really nice, sweet.
I want someone intelligent, and I want someone playful."
I think you used the word silly.
I'm translating it a little bit.
So we went and thought about that, like, okay,
if we try and marry him again, we've gotta find that.
And I think we have.
♪
- Well, that's exciting. - So--
- You found a person?
- Are you willing to get married at first sight again?
- Um, I had kind of made peace with the possibility
that that may not be in my future...
♪
But...
I most definitely am, yes.
[laughter]
- Getting married.
- Not only are you getting married at first sight,
you are getting married at first sight
in less than two weeks.
- We get to run this back again.
- Let's do it.
- Well, first and foremost, I do appreciate
the opportunity of being able to potentially
seize this again.
So thank you.
- Well, you're welcome, but thank you
for just being so resilient, good-natured,
uber civilized, and ready.
I mean, we can't create that.
Only you could create that. - That's our boy.
- You're being far too humble. - Marvelous Michael.
- There it is. Boom. - Yay!
- I was excited the first time around,
but being in this unique position
of having a second go at it
and hearing kind of Dr. Pepper's thoughts
behind it and her resolve,
like, only bolsters that excitement.
- He's ready. - To Michael.
- Thank you all.
- For a wonderful wedding and a long and happy marriage.
- Let's hope so. That's what I'm aiming for.
- ♪ I can't wait for tomorrow ♪
- ♪ There's nothing better than us ♪
♪
♪ I know we can make it this time ♪
- Are you excited for tonight? - Yeah.
- Excited to see our people?
- I love our people.
- Cute.
He's cute.
I like this with your eyes a lot.
- Oh. Green eyes, baby.
- Really brings them out.
How was your talk with Lindsay?
- It was good. - Yeah?
- Yeah.
Yeah, no, it went really well.
Kind of talked about life and love
and faith and religion
and things that we have issues with.
- Do you feel like it helped at all?
- Yeah, for sure.
- I'm glad you did that. - Yeah.
- That makes me happy.
- Yeah, no problem. - It means a lot.
♪
- I'm hungry.
- Hungry? - I am.
- ♪ Oh, been fading out and falling deeper ♪
♪ Oh, so close your eyes, and I'll be there ♪
♪ Oh, I'm coming back to you
- It's hard to be going into this group dinner,
this month anniversary dinner knowing that Cameron and I
are not in this celebratory phase.
And I'm sure the other couples may be in that place
where they're happy and they're joyful
and they're, you know, really in a good, good place.
So it's difficult because I don't want
to be in this position, but it's just the reality
of what's going on right now.
Cameron and I haven't really touched base.
So we are going from being separated for a few days
straight into this dinner.
So I really don't know how it's gonna go.
♪
- ♪ Twisting around, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah ♪
♪ Wild, so give us room
♪ We the crew in the back so loud ♪
♪ Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
♪ Whoa, atmosphere in here just crazy, crazy ♪
♪ Other fellas chilling with the ladies, ladies ♪
♪ On the way, all I hit was green lights, green lights ♪
♪ I think it's finna be a good night ♪
♪ Hands up in the VIP 'cause the mood right, look around ♪
- Your lipstick looks good. - Thank you.
- It looks good.
- Hi.
How are you? - Yeah, doing all right.
- Wonderful.
- Round of tequila shots? - Yeah.
- Ooh. Okay.
- Thank you.
- Oh, there we go, baby girl.
- Very nice.
- Oh, what a way to kick it off, guys.
- Cheers to a month. - Cheers.
- To a long, eventful month. - Love you, guys.
- I'll just be honest, I really don't know
where Clare is at in terms of our marriage.
And so I'm-- I'm a little anxious.
And I--I hope that Clare and I are on the same page,
but I don't know if we are.
- Where is the meat on this charcuterie board?
- It's just a cheese board.
Charcuterie is a separate thing.
- That's a very strong flavor. - Got it.
- Okay, you guys, I have a question.
I have a question for all of us.
- Yeah? - Yeah?
- If you could go back in time and give yourself
any advice going into this,
what advice would you give yourself?
- Wow.
♪
- Um, I'll start.
I would say--I, like, always use the analogy,
like, ride the wave.
I feel like this has been a ride the wave experience.
- Ride the wave.
- But I wish I was, like, more prepared for, like,
more like, ripple effects, you know?
- That's good advice to yourself.
- Round in a circle. I guess you're next.
♪
- Yeah, you can go, Cam.
♪
- I just feel a little bit skeptical because clearly,
Brennan's having a harder time understanding his feelings,
communicating them.
And so I'm trying to stay patient,
but, like, my frustrations are, I need him to be better.
Like, I deserve better.
And I need him to realize that.
I need him to step the [bleep] up.
Truly.
- My advice would be, no matter how hard
you think it's gonna be, it's gonna be harder.
[laughter]
- True facts.
There is no manual for this kind of marriage.
You think that you know how you're gonna feel,
but you have no idea how you're gonna feel.
And you will be confused.
So just being, like, you know, aware of that,
and moving through that
'cause that's all you can do, you know?
- Yeah.
Maybe, you know, get in tune with your emotional side
a little bit, not that I'm not.
I just, like, you know, you're way more
well-versed in that sort of thing.
- You're doing great. - Eh.
[laughter]
- No, I think there's--
there's a lot of good things, there's a lot of hard things,
but I think that's any marriage.
I think there's a lot to uncover and unearth.
But I thank him all the time
that I'm just really happy and lucky that it was him.
And that it is him.
That's not to say that we aren't also having issues,
like, deep issues, where I cry in a closet sometimes.
- Cheers, man.
- There's been some stuff. - Yeah.
- But you guys have been able to work through them,
and it sounds like you've come out on top.
- We're working through them. - Yeah.
- Yeah, I mean, we got some deep stuff
that we gotta, like, figure out.
But, like, how much of that can you really do in a month?
- Mm-hmm. - Yeah.
- Not a lot. - Mm-mm.
♪
- I mean, married a stranger, you know?
[laughter] - I did too.
- We do know. We do know.
- We all did. - Yes, we do.
- It's been hard.
- Yeah.
- What is everyone, like, most nervous about
for, like, the next month of the post one month?
'Cause it's, like, great! - Nervous or excited?
- We graduated first month. - Graduated.
- Yeah, graduated. [laughs]
- Now-- - That's one way to look at it.
- I call it, like, our 2.0.
So what do you guys feel most nervous about
in this next month?
- I love that question. I love these questions.
Guys, good questions all around.
- Cameron, take it away.
- Um...
The thought that comes to mind
when I think about the next month is fallout.
- That's dark. - Yeah, that is.
- That's dark.
- I don't like that word, but yeah, it is true.
- I feel like our marriage is in a situation where
we have been having misalignments
as to exactly what we want.
And I have essentially been waiting,
for lack of a better description,
until we are on the same page.
- Yeah.
- And I have a feeling soon, we will be on the same page.
Or I hope we are, but we actually haven't talked
in a couple days, so...
- Yeah.
I've been very confused, like, about my own feelings.
And I--and I'm sorry for my ups and downs
and my fluctuations and my not being sure of,
like, where I'm at 'cause I haven't
done enough reflecting.
I know that's what a marriage is about, right?
Like, you have to focus on the we,
but at what point do I have to realize
where's the me in this?
That's part of me navigating, like, how do I feel?
But I think this past, like, few days,
I have done the most reflecting I have
through this whole marriage.
And I'm no longer confused in where I'm at.
And... - Can I ask?
Like, are you guys, like, still together or...?
- I mean, at the moment, yeah.
That's the answer.
- Do you guys ever talk about, like, exactly what you want?
- We try.
Like, we say it, and then we miss each other
a lot of the times, right? - Yeah.
- Like, maybe try, like, a different approach,
like, what do we want?
What do we want?
- Okay.
So on the count of three...
- [laughs] - Say what you want.
- It sounds like a dangerous game.
- Say what you want. - Okay, that's not exa--
- No, no, no, we're gonna--
- That is not definitely not at all what I intended to be.
- We're gonna do this. - Jesus.
- On the count of three, say you want a divorce.
- Oh, no! - Or--or you want--
- That is not absolutely what I was trying to get to.
- Or you want to keep trying.
- Okay. - Oh, my God.
This was not a game.
This was literally, like-- - I'm scared.
- One, two, three.
[tense music]
♪
- I want a divorce. - Separated. Separation.
- Same thing. Same answer. Yeah.
- But that's not at all--
- At least you guys are on the same page now.
At least. - We are on the same page.
And so when you say we keep missing each other,
I don't think that's always true.
I think we are on the same page a lot of the time.
Where we are in this relationship
is very much aligned, right?
- Now. - Yeah.
- But it hasn't been many times.
- I've been, and I will say, and I'll admit this to you all,
I've been very confused.
And I know that I've unfortunately
dragged Cameron along on that process of, like, I don't know.
I'm confused, this and that.
And that's not fair, and I realize that,
and I'm really sorry.
'Cause I realize that I did hurt you in the process,
and I never--that was never my intention.
And I do regret.
That's--that's the thing I regret the most.
Marrying you, I don't regret at all.
But the way I handled my emotions in the beginning,
I do regret, and I do apologize.
And so I'm sorry.
- Thank you.
Just forgive me with what I'm about to say.
A few years ago, I had a choice when I put my dog down,
whether I was gonna put her down right away
or put her down a few days later.
And I would never take those days back,
and I would never take these days back with you.
And thank you.
♪
- That's a good--good way to look at things.
- Zero regrets.
- Me too.
- You have taught me that a lot of things
about myself that I was not even closely in tune with.
So I appreciate that.
And I'm grateful for that.
- I am a better man because I met you.
Thank you. - Mm-hmm.
Don't make me cry. Don't do it.
[laughs] Yeah, that's sweet.
- I don't wish I did anything differently.
I don't regret anything.
The fact that tonight we were able to acknowledge
that Clare and I have already washed ashore.
This is the best chance for us
to not continue to hurt each other.
I feel maybe we're finally on the same page.
- That was a lot. - Yup.
- Sorry, everyone. - Don't be sorry.
I think you guys... [clears throat]
Handled this and are handling it, like, really maturely.
And the fact that you guys can still
be so friendly with each other and, like,
enjoy each other's company, you know?
- Yeah. I know. That is pretty amazing.
- I think that's amazing.
And yeah.
- Do you guys have anything to say?
You guys look mind blown over here in the corner over here.
- Just thinking.
[laughter]
- Take your time. - Thanks.
- Yeah.
- I 100% recognize this is hard for him,
but, like, there is nothing coming out.
And that is frustrating.
It's, like, just show me anything more.
Anything. Anything.
- I have a question.
Like, is there anything you guys would have done
like, different to this point? - Mm.
That's a good question. - Looking back?
♪
- I think maybe you need to answer this one.
- Yeah, I mean for me, it's been definitely
a process to, like, open up.
And so I feel, like, you know,
opening up a little bit quicker would have been better or not.
I don't know.
But it definitely has taken me a while to warm up, so.
♪
- Ooh! - Yes, girl. What is that?
- Pizza!
- Oh, thank you. - Wow.
- Damn, girl. - That is a lot of food.
- Did you get steak? - Wow.
- Did you get steak? - I've forgotten.
- Oh, yeah, Cam. - That is a hunk of meat.
- Whoa. Wait, why did I not get that?
- I better cut down on the appetizers
to get through this thing.
- I'm jealous now.
[laughter]
- So I have a question.
Do you guys see yourself--
do you see a future?
♪
Is that a lot?
And if it is, please. I'll--I'm just curious.
- Asking hard questions, Clare. - Sorry, sorry.
You may not know. - Ooh, jeez.
- Sorry. You may not know right now.
But, like, I'm just curious. Like--
- Clare, way to stir the pot.
- No, I'm not trying to stir the pot.
I'm just curious.
- Yeah, I'll let you answer that one first.
- Yeah, I think we're just taking it day by day, honestly.
♪
Trying to make the previous day better than the next.
- I don't wanna, like, flip out on him at the table,
but, like, hearing, like, the day-by-day thing
one more time is going to make me snap.
- We're trying to, you know, figure it out.
- Yeah. - But it is really hard, so.
- It's just the same answers. There's nothing more.
There's nothing-- there's like, no expressing
of like, the progress we've made.
- Just being here and being in this moment
and taking it day by day is a lot.
♪
I just appreciate you being resilient and with me
and just helping me open up and say the things
I really wanna say.
- That's great. He needs that.
He-- - You think?
[laughter]
Trying to stay patient,
but is this gonna be me forever?
'Cause, like, that is not how this goes.
I'm looking at these couples, although they have, like,
their own differences, and there's people opening up
that, like, maybe don't usually.
Even Austin, no offense.
Austin doesn't have many words to say a lot of the time.
Austin's communicating.
To what point does this just look sad for me?
Like, it's sad.
And it's frustrating, and it's just not what I deserve.
- I have to go to the bathroom.
- Nope. You don't have to do that.
[tense music]
- I'm gonna excuse myself.
- You need to go to the bathroom?
- No. No, I don't. - [laughs]
- All right. - Okay.
See you when we see you. - [laughs]
- I'm a little confused about what's going on
because I feel like there's so much more
underneath the surface that I'm not hearing about.
But I know that Emily's sad.
And I'm sad for her 'cause I know
she's working really hard.
♪
- It's fine, I'm just, like, having a moment.
- I don't know the conversation.
I don't know the situation, but I respect her a lot.
- Interesting.
- Just, I don't think he really [bleep] understands.
Although you guys have issues, you're talking.
- Yeah. - And I'm like, oh, answer.
Answer.
It's just, like, it's so--
- And I'm sorry that I asked you, like,
the future of a relationship.
I just--it's because I feel like
he's not willing to answer that question for you.
You're the only one being honest.
He's giving you nothing.
- And I'm just--
- You don't deserve this [bleep], girl.
- I'm getting just very frustrated.
If I [bleep] hated him, I'd be like, sure.
- Yeah. - I'll walk away.
But I [bleep] care about him
in some stupid [bleep] way.
And it's so [bleep] annoying
'cause I just don't-- wish I didn't.
But here we are. Look at me. - You care so much about him.
- I really do, and I really wish I didn't.
And I really wish I didn't.
- I'm sorry. - I know.
- If he's not sure of you, you need to walk away
as in the way that I wasn't sure.
And I needed to walk away.
- Like, I'm not gonna walk away.
That's not-- - No. No.
- Oh, God. - You know what I'm saying?
If he's not gonna give you the respect,
it's, like, what do you do?
Just continue this thing? - That's the thing.
It's like, what do I do?
♪
- She--she's very hurt. - About what?
- 'Cause she, like, really, like's you.
Do you know that?
We can talk about this later. We don't have time.
- [exhales] - Okay.
♪
- I can't tell if she puts on this façade
that everything's okay in front of me.
But I won't let her walk away from me like that.
I just wanna ask why you're upset.
- Why do you think I'm upset? - Tell me.
But I care about her a lot,
so I'm trying my hardest to not hurt her.
I have no idea why you're upset.
Please tell me.
♪
- Apparently, you didn't understand I was upset,
like, the whole time during dinner?
- Did you see my--
so you wanted me to pull you out of the dinner?
- Did you not, like, see me upset visibly the whole dinner?
- You were making--
- That's the point.
- Okay. Sorry.
- Like, I'm not trying to be dramatic,
and I feel like I'm going insane.
- You're not, though.
- But it's, like, this is frustrating for me,
especially in a group setting.
- I couldn't tell.
- Like, it makes it-- it honestly makes me
feel like, it's embarrassing.
Like, I told you last night, like, it's, like, sad for me.
[sobbing] Like, I don't deserve this.
- No, you don't.
- Nothing changed tonight.
Absolutely nothing changed.
We had a day yesterday, like,
we go through everything last week.
And, like, everyone's opening their hearts,
and then, like, he just says the same [bleep].
Like, that's annoying.
♪
- ♪ And it's making me feel like home again ♪
- [sighs]
♪ It feels like I'm home
♪
♪ This is holding us up
- It's literally just frustrating.
♪
- I don't have the answers, though, Emily.
I really don't. - I don't need answers.
Just, like, anything just to, like, be there for, like, me.
- Okay.
- But, like, tonight was, like, really, like, bad.
It was bad.
- I'm sorry. I'm trying.
I know it's not good enough, but at this point,
with how I'm feeling, this is all I got.
And I recognize how much you're giving,
and I know it's not what you deserve
'cause you're giving more than I am.
I'm sorry.
- [sobbing] I don't want you to say sorry to say sorry.
Like-- - I mean it.
- I just want you to, like-- just, it's hard when
it's, like, all the time.
Like, I really meant what I said tonight,
and, like, I don't wanna resent you,
and that will happen if you don't make changes.
- ♪ Always thought that this would last ♪
♪ In my past, I always thought you'd be there ♪
♪ How do we move on from here ♪
- Yeah, I don't know what's going down.
I hope they're doing okay. - Yeah.
- I know emotions were heightened and whatnot,
but it is weird that they're not here.
And obviously, we're not super thrilled
'cause this is not what either of us wanted.
But we've--we've faced reality.
And that's all we can do at this point.
'Cause I think moving forward, I don't--
yeah, I don't know, Cameron.
I mean, I don't-- I'm just out of my--
my brain is fried.
- Yeah, I think so. - Yeah.
- Clare and I decided to separate.
I think me moving out of the apartment makes sense.
- I am so tired.
- I did not want my marriage to end this way,
and I'm going to have to work that out.
That's not something that I can just snap my fingers and--
and those feelings are gone.
♪
There's a present. - Oh, no. What is this?
This is--oh, this is our vows.
- Another bottle of the best champagne on Earth.
- That was good. That was good.
- "Married at First Sight" champagne.
- Oh, this is so--
[gasps] Cameron.
Oh, wow.
Do you wanna go sit over here? - Yeah.
I think it's gonna be very different
going back to an apartment where I'm alone.
I don't have Clare to talk to.
- Aw.
- But this is what is best for me
and what is best for us.
I forgot how good you looked on our wedding day.
- Oh, that's nice.
- Very cute. - Oh, this makes me really--
really kind of sad.
Huh.
- Looking at these photos makes me really happy.
This was, like, one of the most exciting things I've ever done.
- [laughs] Yeah. - And that--
- I was terrified in this moment for sure.
- That excitement... - Mm-hmm.
- Is coming back to me, you know,
looking at these photos.
- I just didn't expect to feel the way that I feel right now.
Like, I wasn't prepared for the emotions
that I was about to go through.
Like, in this moment, I'm very, like, you know, happy.
I had no idea what was about to come, you know?
I didn't realize there would be tears.
There would be fears.
There would be ups and downs.
And, like, I guess that is what marriage is,
but as someone who is single,
how was I to know what those feelings
would actually look like? And now I know.
Looking at the pictures of that day
is really hard because I see so much hope in myself.
It was a beautiful day, a beautiful wedding.
It's just crazy that in the one month from those pictures
to now, how much has changed.
We're looking at this on the night
that we're saying we're getting separated.
That's super hard to come to terms with.
♪
It is a sad situation that we're in.
Like, I can't leave and be--
like, this is not a happy feeling, right?
I know that I have been back and forth and back and forth.
But the underlying feeling was, like,
this is not really working. - Mm-hmm.
- And, like, we went with that,
and here we are now in this position,
and it's sad, right?
Like, I mean, I don't know if you're feeling sad
or what your feelings are.
'Cause I am. This is sad.
- The thing I can say is--is, I got married at first sight
with a particular vision
of how this was all gonna play out.
This is not what I was expecting.
- I think I'm only sad 'cause it's like,
my expectations were so, like,
I was so ready for marriage.
I was so ready for it to be--
- Mm-hmm. - To work out.
And I think we both deserve to live happy lives.
And I am ready to move forward.
- Move on separately.
- I mean, I hope this isn't the last
I see you or hear from you.
- Yeah, it won't be.
♪
So if you wanna walk me out, then I'll--
I'll-- - It's so weird.
- I know. I know.
- Wow. Wow, this feels bizarre.
- ♪ The face in your fairy tale looked like me ♪
- This is not something I wanted.
When you're with someone all the time,
and then all of a sudden, they just leave and they're gone,
that's a sad moment 'cause it's, like, wow,
that was my potential, like, future--future.
And now it's just gone, and it's walking
out the door right in front of me,
and that's hard.
- ♪ The truth is scary so here ♪
♪ I stand alone
♪ Alone
♪
- Next time on "Married at First Sight"...
- I never imagined I would be wedding dress shopping.
I just know it's gonna speak to me.
- Yes. - It's like, Chloe, I'm here.
- ♪ I gotta get my heart's desire ♪
- She is really great with children,
and seeing that is very important to me.
- We've tried what we thought was in our capabilities
and just reached a point where it was, like, what do we do?
- Since I moved out, I've developed a heart condition.
- Hi, Clare. It's Dr. Pia. How are you?
- I don't know. I just feel, like, guilty.
- Did the stress of my separation from Clare
lead to this heart problem?
Maybe it accelerated it.
- What do you fought the hardest for?
Tell me the story.
Honestly, probably for us, in this marriage.
- Yeah, same.
- Hmm.
Okay.
♪