1 00:00:02,292 --> 00:00:04,292 - Marrying a stranger is crazy. 2 00:00:04,375 --> 00:00:09,333 - ♪ Am I dreaming, dreaming 3 00:00:09,375 --> 00:00:10,958 - Oh. 4 00:00:11,042 --> 00:00:12,833 Hearing her say that she couldn't marry me 5 00:00:12,917 --> 00:00:14,708 was the biggest failure of my life. 6 00:00:14,792 --> 00:00:18,083 I want to continue to follow through 7 00:00:18,167 --> 00:00:20,250 with wanting a divorce. 8 00:00:20,375 --> 00:00:22,958 - I would like a divorce. 9 00:00:23,042 --> 00:00:26,167 - I would like to get a divorce. 10 00:00:26,208 --> 00:00:29,667 - I'm excited to say I want to stay married. 11 00:00:29,750 --> 00:00:32,833 - I need to be with Austin without the cameras 12 00:00:32,958 --> 00:00:34,500 and without production 13 00:00:34,583 --> 00:00:38,375 and just rebuilding what I hope we can have. 14 00:00:38,500 --> 00:00:42,292 - Are you willing to get married at first sight again? 15 00:00:42,292 --> 00:00:43,917 - I most definitely am, yes. 16 00:00:44,000 --> 00:00:45,542 [laughter] 17 00:00:45,625 --> 00:00:49,500 - ♪ I've got dreams I can follow, follow ♪ 18 00:00:49,583 --> 00:00:52,958 - We've really leaned in to accepting each other 19 00:00:53,042 --> 00:00:55,042 for exactly who we are. 20 00:00:55,125 --> 00:00:56,667 - Austin, did you go out last night? 21 00:00:56,750 --> 00:00:58,208 - Yeah. - Any producers there? 22 00:00:58,292 --> 00:00:59,208 - No. 23 00:00:59,292 --> 00:01:00,708 Went out with my friends. 24 00:01:00,833 --> 00:01:02,292 - Just be honest. 25 00:01:02,375 --> 00:01:04,917 - He is going to be the perfect guy for someone. 26 00:01:05,000 --> 00:01:07,958 I don't think it's me. 27 00:01:08,042 --> 00:01:08,917 - ♪ I am free 28 00:01:09,000 --> 00:01:10,333 ♪ I am me 29 00:01:10,375 --> 00:01:11,625 ♪ I am who I want to be 30 00:01:11,708 --> 00:01:14,292 - And tonight, while most transition 31 00:01:14,375 --> 00:01:16,375 to life after Decision Day-- 32 00:01:16,458 --> 00:01:19,792 - It'd be nice to have men to help us with this [bleep]. 33 00:01:19,875 --> 00:01:21,500 Too bad they were [bleep]twads. 34 00:01:21,625 --> 00:01:23,833 - Do you want to be more than friends? 35 00:01:23,875 --> 00:01:25,625 - Honestly, I think that would be a huge benefit regardless. 36 00:01:25,708 --> 00:01:27,167 - Yeah. 37 00:01:27,208 --> 00:01:29,500 - One couple has less than three weeks 38 00:01:29,542 --> 00:01:31,833 until it's their time to decide. 39 00:01:31,875 --> 00:01:34,667 - How many foster children are in this dream of yours? 40 00:01:34,708 --> 00:01:37,167 - Probably, you know, maybe five at a time. 41 00:01:37,208 --> 00:01:38,583 - Five at a time? 42 00:01:38,708 --> 00:01:40,250 [dramatic musical sting] 43 00:01:40,333 --> 00:01:43,167 - I really have no intentions of ever speaking to her again. 44 00:01:43,208 --> 00:01:44,667 - Oh, [bleep]. 45 00:01:44,750 --> 00:01:46,458 - Do you have any regrets about the whole thing? 46 00:01:46,542 --> 00:01:47,833 - Uh... 47 00:01:47,875 --> 00:01:51,583 - I reached out to Becca, and that was a mistake. 48 00:01:51,708 --> 00:01:53,833 - It's going to be hard for me to move on. 49 00:01:53,875 --> 00:01:57,208 - If Decision Day was tomorrow, 50 00:01:57,292 --> 00:01:59,625 I might be feeling like it's a no. 51 00:01:59,708 --> 00:02:03,333 - I would be feeling like I have insufficient data. 52 00:02:03,458 --> 00:02:05,042 ♪ 53 00:02:05,125 --> 00:02:07,417 - Happy one monthiversary. 54 00:02:07,500 --> 00:02:09,042 - ♪ It's all or nothing 55 00:02:09,167 --> 00:02:11,667 - This is "Married at First Sight." 56 00:02:11,750 --> 00:02:13,458 - ♪ There's no other way 57 00:02:13,542 --> 00:02:15,167 ♪ 58 00:02:15,167 --> 00:02:18,292 ♪ It's all or nothing 59 00:02:18,375 --> 00:02:22,542 - ♪ Even if we sometimes get our wires crossed ♪ 60 00:02:22,625 --> 00:02:27,833 ♪ We will always find each other when we get lost ♪ 61 00:02:27,917 --> 00:02:30,167 - So with the girls. 62 00:02:30,292 --> 00:02:33,500 We don't--we don't leave each other's sides. 63 00:02:33,583 --> 00:02:35,292 The funny thing that we wanted to document 64 00:02:35,375 --> 00:02:37,792 is that none of our husbands, our now ex-husbands, 65 00:02:37,875 --> 00:02:40,667 have not texted us whatsoever after yesterday, 66 00:02:40,750 --> 00:02:44,167 which it seems like to some extent, while different, 67 00:02:44,208 --> 00:02:46,167 we all deserve some sort of apology. 68 00:02:46,208 --> 00:02:49,333 - Like, if he was willing to lie about that in front 69 00:02:49,375 --> 00:02:51,542 of three people who literally saw him out at a bar, 70 00:02:51,625 --> 00:02:54,042 like, what else has he lied about? 71 00:02:54,125 --> 00:02:56,000 And what else would he be willing to lie about? 72 00:02:56,083 --> 00:02:57,333 - I will say that Cameron leaving, 73 00:02:57,375 --> 00:02:59,417 I feel like I knew he felt guilty-- 74 00:02:59,500 --> 00:03:00,958 - Me too. 75 00:03:01,042 --> 00:03:02,125 - He could not look me in the eye. 76 00:03:02,208 --> 00:03:03,708 - And he raised his voice at me. 77 00:03:03,833 --> 00:03:06,250 - The issue is that these men do not know how 78 00:03:06,333 --> 00:03:08,833 to decipher their emotions. 79 00:03:08,833 --> 00:03:12,000 - I do think that what we all know, us girls, is that-- 80 00:03:12,083 --> 00:03:13,667 - We got each other. 81 00:03:13,750 --> 00:03:16,792 And we've--we've strengthened our backbones. 82 00:03:16,875 --> 00:03:18,167 - Yes. - Mm-hmm. 83 00:03:18,250 --> 00:03:19,458 - And like-- - And I'm so grateful. 84 00:03:19,542 --> 00:03:20,958 Again-- 85 00:03:21,042 --> 00:03:22,333 - Couldn't have done it without us all. 86 00:03:22,417 --> 00:03:23,167 - Very grateful to you-- to you for that. 87 00:03:23,250 --> 00:03:24,500 - So stay tuned. 88 00:03:24,583 --> 00:03:27,042 ♪ 89 00:03:27,167 --> 00:03:30,000 [upbeat music] 90 00:03:30,083 --> 00:03:31,417 ♪ 91 00:03:31,542 --> 00:03:32,833 [cow moos] 92 00:03:32,875 --> 00:03:36,083 ♪ 93 00:03:36,167 --> 00:03:38,125 [goat bleats] 94 00:03:38,125 --> 00:03:40,667 - Right here. 95 00:03:40,750 --> 00:03:43,125 ♪ 96 00:03:43,208 --> 00:03:45,167 - Hi! - Hi! 97 00:03:45,292 --> 00:03:47,083 - So glad you're here. 98 00:03:47,208 --> 00:03:48,958 - Oh, so happy to be here. I'm Chloe. 99 00:03:48,958 --> 00:03:50,167 - Chloe, I'm Andrea. 100 00:03:50,250 --> 00:03:52,167 I'm the director of Broken Shovels. 101 00:03:52,292 --> 00:03:54,083 - I've always dreamed of having an animal sanctuary 102 00:03:54,208 --> 00:03:55,750 since I was a little girl. 103 00:03:55,833 --> 00:03:57,500 And so I thought bringing Michael today 104 00:03:57,583 --> 00:04:00,167 to get a feel for what it might look like for us 105 00:04:00,208 --> 00:04:02,458 in the future is just the absolute best way 106 00:04:02,542 --> 00:04:03,667 to spend the afternoon. 107 00:04:03,792 --> 00:04:05,583 It's probably not a life he ever envisioned. 108 00:04:05,667 --> 00:04:08,500 But it's something that I would hope that Michael 109 00:04:08,500 --> 00:04:10,458 could really lean into and be open to. 110 00:04:10,542 --> 00:04:11,708 - For you and for you. 111 00:04:11,833 --> 00:04:13,375 - Awesome. - Perfect. 112 00:04:13,375 --> 00:04:15,958 - And then these are your patting gloves. 113 00:04:16,042 --> 00:04:18,417 So if you each wear one of these, as you're going around, 114 00:04:18,500 --> 00:04:20,542 the goats are going to love you so much. 115 00:04:20,708 --> 00:04:22,833 These are like brushes and gloves at the same time. 116 00:04:22,917 --> 00:04:25,792 [upbeat music] 117 00:04:25,875 --> 00:04:29,500 ♪ 118 00:04:29,542 --> 00:04:31,000 - Let's go pet some babies. 119 00:04:31,042 --> 00:04:32,375 - So first thing we're going to do 120 00:04:32,500 --> 00:04:33,708 is we're going to meet Miss Lila Moo. 121 00:04:33,792 --> 00:04:35,292 - OK. 122 00:04:35,417 --> 00:04:39,542 - Lila Moo is one of two disabled, immobile cows 123 00:04:39,625 --> 00:04:42,333 in the country that is currently living in sanctuary. 124 00:04:42,375 --> 00:04:43,625 - Hmm. - Aww. 125 00:04:43,708 --> 00:04:45,958 - This is her. 126 00:04:46,042 --> 00:04:48,833 She is--oh, you're crying. 127 00:04:48,875 --> 00:04:50,083 You're so sweet. 128 00:04:50,208 --> 00:04:51,417 But she is-- 129 00:04:51,500 --> 00:04:53,333 - Does she love carrots? 130 00:04:53,375 --> 00:04:54,500 - She brings on a lot of tears, a lot of happy tears. 131 00:04:54,542 --> 00:04:56,917 She may take a little tip of a carrot. 132 00:04:57,000 --> 00:04:59,000 She likes horn rubs. 133 00:04:59,083 --> 00:05:02,292 So just take that little tip off of that carrot for her. 134 00:05:02,292 --> 00:05:05,500 She's kind of a little surprise angel sent to us. 135 00:05:05,542 --> 00:05:07,500 - Is there any particular area that she speci-- 136 00:05:07,625 --> 00:05:09,042 like, really enjoys being pat? 137 00:05:09,042 --> 00:05:11,000 - If you go under her chin, that-- 138 00:05:11,125 --> 00:05:12,333 that sort of flappy neck area. 139 00:05:12,417 --> 00:05:13,375 - Like right here? 140 00:05:13,458 --> 00:05:15,000 - Yes, you got it. 141 00:05:15,042 --> 00:05:16,417 You're a pro. 142 00:05:16,542 --> 00:05:18,792 So she has a wheelchair as well 143 00:05:18,875 --> 00:05:22,167 if she needs to get a little adventure, but being out here, 144 00:05:22,208 --> 00:05:23,417 she can see the whole sanctuary. 145 00:05:23,500 --> 00:05:25,042 She stays very engaged. 146 00:05:25,167 --> 00:05:27,250 - I personally haven't ever pictured living on a farm, 147 00:05:27,333 --> 00:05:28,833 you know, for my own future. 148 00:05:28,917 --> 00:05:31,167 But seeing Lila-- this place is providing her 149 00:05:31,208 --> 00:05:32,667 such a high quality of life. 150 00:05:32,750 --> 00:05:35,375 I'm actually emotionally touched. 151 00:05:35,375 --> 00:05:37,083 And so it's really fulfilling 152 00:05:37,208 --> 00:05:39,500 to kind of see and be a part of. 153 00:05:39,625 --> 00:05:41,333 - One of these days, this will be my life. 154 00:05:41,375 --> 00:05:43,167 I can feel it. 155 00:05:43,208 --> 00:05:44,833 OK. 156 00:05:44,917 --> 00:05:46,000 - All right, so we're going to go see all the goats. 157 00:05:46,083 --> 00:05:47,083 - Oh. 158 00:05:47,167 --> 00:05:49,000 Hi, everybody. 159 00:05:49,083 --> 00:05:51,250 Oh, my gosh, this is my dream. 160 00:05:51,333 --> 00:05:53,042 Hi! 161 00:05:53,167 --> 00:05:54,917 - These are all of our old-- 162 00:05:54,917 --> 00:05:57,292 old goats. 163 00:05:57,375 --> 00:06:00,667 These guys are doing their golden years. 164 00:06:00,708 --> 00:06:02,875 Arnie's going to stay in here with the old-- 165 00:06:03,000 --> 00:06:04,042 with the old goats. 166 00:06:04,125 --> 00:06:05,833 - You stay here, buddy. 167 00:06:05,917 --> 00:06:07,583 - So... - How are ya? 168 00:06:07,667 --> 00:06:10,625 - Your work today, of course, where there's goats, 169 00:06:10,708 --> 00:06:12,542 there's going to be poop. 170 00:06:12,542 --> 00:06:13,667 We want them to have nice--nice places to lay. 171 00:06:13,750 --> 00:06:15,250 - OK. 172 00:06:15,375 --> 00:06:17,042 - So you guys will be raking up piles. 173 00:06:17,125 --> 00:06:19,375 And then later, our bobcat will come through and scoop it up 174 00:06:19,458 --> 00:06:21,083 and take it to our compost. - Great. 175 00:06:21,208 --> 00:06:22,292 Put us to work. 176 00:06:22,375 --> 00:06:24,417 - Million dollar volunteers, so-- 177 00:06:24,500 --> 00:06:26,500 - You can be on pet patrol right now. 178 00:06:26,583 --> 00:06:30,333 I'm going to literally start raking this [bleep] up. 179 00:06:30,417 --> 00:06:32,458 - [laughing] Oh. 180 00:06:32,542 --> 00:06:35,000 Oh, this is amazing. 181 00:06:35,083 --> 00:06:36,792 What a dream day. 182 00:06:36,875 --> 00:06:39,167 So my dream, actually, has always been 183 00:06:39,292 --> 00:06:42,792 since I was a little kiddo to have an animal sanctuary, 184 00:06:42,875 --> 00:06:45,958 live and be a part of everything that we're doing, 185 00:06:46,042 --> 00:06:51,833 and feel like they have a sense of love and purpose 186 00:06:51,917 --> 00:06:55,792 and all the good stuff, so this is a big one. 187 00:06:55,875 --> 00:07:01,083 So what do you think about my dream here? 188 00:07:01,167 --> 00:07:04,500 - In your dream, how does it compare size-wise to this? 189 00:07:04,625 --> 00:07:07,042 - This is bigger than I would-- 190 00:07:07,125 --> 00:07:08,500 than I would do probably. 191 00:07:08,583 --> 00:07:09,833 - Would you say half the size? 192 00:07:09,875 --> 00:07:11,792 - Yeah, probably about half the size. 193 00:07:11,875 --> 00:07:13,792 Really depends upon the animals 194 00:07:13,875 --> 00:07:16,417 that would need to be brought in. 195 00:07:16,500 --> 00:07:19,667 - Do you envision it kind of 50% farm animals, 196 00:07:19,750 --> 00:07:23,000 50%, like, potentially domesticated animals? 197 00:07:23,083 --> 00:07:26,083 - I'd say anything that wants a permanent home, 198 00:07:26,167 --> 00:07:28,250 probably hospice. 199 00:07:28,333 --> 00:07:29,625 - So more like senior? 200 00:07:29,625 --> 00:07:30,792 - Yes. - Across the board, 201 00:07:30,875 --> 00:07:33,417 farm animals and-- - Seniors, special needs, 202 00:07:33,500 --> 00:07:35,500 any of the animals that just needs a home. 203 00:07:35,583 --> 00:07:38,333 And in recent years, 204 00:07:38,375 --> 00:07:42,000 that has expanded to an animal sanctuary 205 00:07:42,083 --> 00:07:45,500 where we have our foster kiddos that get to come and just 206 00:07:45,583 --> 00:07:50,000 kind of enjoy unconditional love from animals. 207 00:07:50,042 --> 00:07:51,500 Would be really nice, so-- 208 00:07:51,625 --> 00:07:53,333 - Do you imagine foster children like in parallel 209 00:07:53,375 --> 00:07:55,000 with the sanctuary, or pre, 210 00:07:55,000 --> 00:07:57,292 or after the sanctuary is up and running? 211 00:07:57,375 --> 00:07:58,958 - I feel like it's, uh, 212 00:07:59,042 --> 00:08:01,000 definitely going to be a pre-sanctuary thing. 213 00:08:01,083 --> 00:08:02,500 Sanctuary is going to take some time. 214 00:08:02,542 --> 00:08:04,458 But I would love for foster kiddos 215 00:08:04,542 --> 00:08:05,875 to definitely come prior to that. 216 00:08:05,958 --> 00:08:09,500 - How many foster children are in this dream of yours? 217 00:08:09,542 --> 00:08:12,000 - Probably, you know, maybe five at a time. 218 00:08:12,083 --> 00:08:13,167 - Five at a time? 219 00:08:13,250 --> 00:08:15,167 [tense music] 220 00:08:15,208 --> 00:08:16,500 - And the older kids. 221 00:08:16,542 --> 00:08:18,500 I'm not looking for the little kids. 222 00:08:18,583 --> 00:08:20,708 Little kids tend to be pretty easy to place. 223 00:08:20,792 --> 00:08:23,833 I'm looking for the older kiddos that are a little more 224 00:08:23,917 --> 00:08:26,042 challenging because they typically 225 00:08:26,167 --> 00:08:27,958 come with some behavior issues 226 00:08:28,042 --> 00:08:31,958 that might be tough to navigate. 227 00:08:32,042 --> 00:08:33,750 I would love middle school, high school kiddos. 228 00:08:33,875 --> 00:08:34,833 - Middle school, high school? - Yeah. 229 00:08:34,917 --> 00:08:35,958 - OK. 230 00:08:35,958 --> 00:08:37,583 - And we'll see how it all goes. 231 00:08:37,667 --> 00:08:38,875 Got to have the space. 232 00:08:38,958 --> 00:08:40,500 I want each kiddo to have their own bedroom 233 00:08:40,583 --> 00:08:43,667 so they can feel like they have a place of their own. 234 00:08:43,792 --> 00:08:45,875 - OK, that's not a small-ass space. 235 00:08:45,958 --> 00:08:48,333 Can't really--I don't think there's any-- 236 00:08:48,375 --> 00:08:50,125 any apartments in the neighboring cities 237 00:08:50,208 --> 00:08:52,000 that would accommodate that. 238 00:08:52,042 --> 00:08:54,542 - I mean, it's a journey, and there's a lot to consider. 239 00:08:54,625 --> 00:08:56,542 - Would we be aligned? 240 00:08:56,625 --> 00:08:59,333 Because my whole thing in the case of foster children, 241 00:08:59,458 --> 00:09:01,292 like that-- 242 00:09:01,375 --> 00:09:04,458 that feels like it requires a different type of engagement, 243 00:09:04,542 --> 00:09:06,417 you know? 244 00:09:06,500 --> 00:09:08,167 - It does. 245 00:09:08,208 --> 00:09:10,500 There's a lot to learn, but I think it all starts with 246 00:09:10,583 --> 00:09:12,625 just having a heart that is ready to give the love 247 00:09:12,708 --> 00:09:13,833 that these kiddos deserve. 248 00:09:13,917 --> 00:09:15,333 - Sure. 249 00:09:15,417 --> 00:09:16,667 - Same with these animals, you know? 250 00:09:16,708 --> 00:09:18,958 And nothing worth having is easy. 251 00:09:19,042 --> 00:09:22,125 It's all got to be a little difficult. 252 00:09:22,208 --> 00:09:25,000 - I'm concerned that our passion for fostering children 253 00:09:25,083 --> 00:09:26,750 and having an animal sanctuary 254 00:09:26,875 --> 00:09:29,042 are on significantly different levels. 255 00:09:29,167 --> 00:09:31,917 For me, I'd imagine five would be quite the endeavor. 256 00:09:32,000 --> 00:09:34,000 But in terms of where we're at, 257 00:09:34,042 --> 00:09:36,375 I don't feel like it would be appropriate necessarily 258 00:09:36,458 --> 00:09:38,208 for me to press on that. 259 00:09:38,292 --> 00:09:40,000 Because right now I just want to understand her vision. 260 00:09:40,125 --> 00:09:41,875 You know, and then once we get closer and once 261 00:09:42,042 --> 00:09:44,417 we start marching towards a future, 262 00:09:44,500 --> 00:09:45,833 then we could have the conversations 263 00:09:45,917 --> 00:09:47,875 when they're more appropriate. 264 00:09:47,958 --> 00:09:50,208 Prior to you, I hadn't conceptualized 265 00:09:50,292 --> 00:09:51,875 being on a farm, you know, 266 00:09:51,958 --> 00:09:54,417 pursuing foster children or anything like that. 267 00:09:54,542 --> 00:09:56,667 I just--it had never-- 268 00:09:56,750 --> 00:10:00,667 it had never crossed my mind, to be honest with you. 269 00:10:00,708 --> 00:10:03,875 - Well, you know, it's a lot to take in. 270 00:10:03,875 --> 00:10:07,167 But I would love to do that. 271 00:10:07,208 --> 00:10:08,708 You know that I-- 272 00:10:08,792 --> 00:10:10,833 I just want to make these dreams a reality. 273 00:10:10,958 --> 00:10:12,208 ♪ 274 00:10:12,292 --> 00:10:14,125 [laughs] 275 00:10:14,250 --> 00:10:17,458 ♪ 276 00:10:17,542 --> 00:10:20,417 [pensive pop music] 277 00:10:20,542 --> 00:10:24,333 ♪ 278 00:10:24,417 --> 00:10:27,458 - ♪ Picking up the pieces 279 00:10:27,542 --> 00:10:29,167 ♪ Of my broken heart 280 00:10:29,208 --> 00:10:31,167 ♪ Broken heart 281 00:10:31,292 --> 00:10:34,125 ♪ You took me for granted 282 00:10:34,208 --> 00:10:36,208 ♪ Just admit it 283 00:10:36,292 --> 00:10:38,167 ♪ 284 00:10:38,208 --> 00:10:40,000 ♪ Thought that things would get better ♪ 285 00:10:40,083 --> 00:10:41,542 [knocking on door] 286 00:10:41,625 --> 00:10:43,500 - Come in! 287 00:10:43,542 --> 00:10:44,917 ♪ 288 00:10:45,042 --> 00:10:46,625 Hi, lover! - Hi, honey! 289 00:10:46,708 --> 00:10:47,708 - How we doing? - Good. 290 00:10:47,833 --> 00:10:49,583 You? - You know. 291 00:10:49,667 --> 00:10:50,667 - Did you shower? - I did. 292 00:10:50,750 --> 00:10:52,583 - Wow! - Wow! 293 00:10:52,667 --> 00:10:54,167 - What does that feel like? 294 00:10:54,250 --> 00:10:55,667 - Oh, now you're like, I wouldn't know. 295 00:10:55,708 --> 00:10:57,208 - I have no idea. - Oh, it was-- 296 00:10:57,292 --> 00:10:58,333 I needed it. 297 00:10:58,458 --> 00:10:59,750 So refreshing. - Yeah. 298 00:10:59,833 --> 00:11:01,333 Do you have all your stuff packed? 299 00:11:01,417 --> 00:11:03,042 - All of it. It's all in my car. 300 00:11:03,125 --> 00:11:04,667 I literally threw things in trash bags 301 00:11:04,750 --> 00:11:06,083 that were just like-- - I would've helped you. 302 00:11:06,167 --> 00:11:07,625 - Let's go. 303 00:11:07,708 --> 00:11:09,000 - No, literally, it took me like an hour. 304 00:11:09,042 --> 00:11:10,167 - Yeah? 305 00:11:10,250 --> 00:11:11,583 - I didn't have that much. 306 00:11:11,708 --> 00:11:12,458 - It's not the full move out, you know? 307 00:11:12,542 --> 00:11:13,500 - Right. Right. 308 00:11:13,583 --> 00:11:15,750 ♪ 309 00:11:15,833 --> 00:11:18,250 So have you talked to Austin? 310 00:11:18,333 --> 00:11:19,958 - I talked to him this morning. 311 00:11:20,042 --> 00:11:22,333 But, look, I--I was expecting to hear an apology. 312 00:11:22,458 --> 00:11:24,000 - Of course. 313 00:11:24,042 --> 00:11:25,750 - And it was him saying, like, he doesn't understand 314 00:11:25,833 --> 00:11:27,792 why he can't have our producer as a friend 315 00:11:27,875 --> 00:11:29,500 and me as a wife. 316 00:11:29,583 --> 00:11:31,167 - He doesn't get it. - No. 317 00:11:31,250 --> 00:11:33,042 I don't want anything to do with people like that 318 00:11:33,125 --> 00:11:34,167 because I've worked hard enough. 319 00:11:34,208 --> 00:11:35,583 - Absolutely. 320 00:11:35,708 --> 00:11:36,917 - Like, I have definitely had those toxic traits 321 00:11:37,000 --> 00:11:38,708 in relationships in the past. 322 00:11:38,792 --> 00:11:41,208 Like, I have gaslit people. I have been controlling. 323 00:11:41,292 --> 00:11:43,500 And, like, I did the work to not be that again. 324 00:11:43,542 --> 00:11:44,667 - Absolutely. 325 00:11:44,708 --> 00:11:46,083 - And I can't be in a relationship 326 00:11:46,208 --> 00:11:47,542 with someone who hasn't done that work. 327 00:11:47,625 --> 00:11:49,875 - No. It's just sad, but I'm proud of you. 328 00:11:50,000 --> 00:11:52,125 And it's time that we move on. - Yeah. 329 00:11:52,208 --> 00:11:54,875 And I think it's going to be hard for me to move on. 330 00:11:54,958 --> 00:11:56,542 Like, I still loved Austin 331 00:11:56,625 --> 00:11:58,167 for so many different parts of him. 332 00:11:58,250 --> 00:11:59,375 - Right. 333 00:11:59,458 --> 00:12:01,042 - Maybe in a different lifetime, 334 00:12:01,125 --> 00:12:03,458 maybe we could have worked, but that's not where we're at. 335 00:12:03,542 --> 00:12:05,000 - It's not reality. 336 00:12:05,083 --> 00:12:07,000 ♪ 337 00:12:07,042 --> 00:12:09,958 - I really did think that Austin and I had a shot. 338 00:12:09,958 --> 00:12:14,000 And less than 24 hours later, that all crumbled. 339 00:12:14,042 --> 00:12:17,333 And it's sad and disappointing. 340 00:12:17,417 --> 00:12:19,917 And yeah, there's always a what could have been. 341 00:12:20,042 --> 00:12:22,708 But now I just have to use this time 342 00:12:22,792 --> 00:12:25,625 to move forward and move on. 343 00:12:25,708 --> 00:12:26,500 - So what are you going to do with the fish? 344 00:12:26,542 --> 00:12:28,333 Do you know? 345 00:12:28,375 --> 00:12:33,375 - If the side of anger were to speak today-- 346 00:12:33,458 --> 00:12:35,667 - [laughs] The anger side. 347 00:12:35,750 --> 00:12:37,167 - I would take one of them. 348 00:12:37,292 --> 00:12:39,583 But then the ethical side of me is like, 349 00:12:39,667 --> 00:12:41,708 I don't want to separate the fish. 350 00:12:41,792 --> 00:12:43,000 Like, they need to stay together. 351 00:12:43,083 --> 00:12:45,708 But hot damn, high school Becca would have 352 00:12:45,792 --> 00:12:47,958 been taking that damn fish. 353 00:12:48,042 --> 00:12:49,958 Like "Legally Blonde," 354 00:12:50,042 --> 00:12:52,542 "going to take the dogs," or whatever the [bleep] she says. 355 00:12:52,625 --> 00:12:54,417 [laughter] 356 00:12:54,542 --> 00:12:57,667 I'm taking the fish. 357 00:12:57,708 --> 00:12:59,875 I don't know what the future holds for me, 358 00:12:59,958 --> 00:13:02,500 but I just know that I need a partner that 359 00:13:02,625 --> 00:13:04,417 is honest with themselves. 360 00:13:04,500 --> 00:13:05,333 Nobody's perfect. 361 00:13:05,417 --> 00:13:07,333 We're humans. 362 00:13:07,375 --> 00:13:10,042 But I think there's a certain level of trust 363 00:13:10,125 --> 00:13:11,333 that you need to have with your partner 364 00:13:11,458 --> 00:13:13,250 to make the relationship work. 365 00:13:13,333 --> 00:13:16,500 And so I'm looking forward to a little change in pace. 366 00:13:16,542 --> 00:13:19,042 And I'm going to take a page out of Austin's book 367 00:13:19,125 --> 00:13:20,583 and just live in the moment. 368 00:13:20,708 --> 00:13:23,208 ♪ 369 00:13:23,333 --> 00:13:25,125 Let me grab this. 370 00:13:25,125 --> 00:13:27,083 - You better give your fishies a goodbye kissy. 371 00:13:27,208 --> 00:13:28,958 - Aww. 372 00:13:29,042 --> 00:13:30,833 You're going to have a new mom one day. 373 00:13:30,917 --> 00:13:32,792 And it won't be me, but I bet she's going to be great. 374 00:13:32,875 --> 00:13:33,833 And she's going to be Christian. 375 00:13:33,917 --> 00:13:36,167 And she'll pray over you. 376 00:13:36,250 --> 00:13:38,625 And you guys will be best friends. 377 00:13:38,708 --> 00:13:41,667 Bye, honeys. [smooches] 378 00:13:41,750 --> 00:13:43,875 ♪ 379 00:13:43,958 --> 00:13:46,000 - ♪ Made me believe in 380 00:13:46,083 --> 00:13:47,667 ♪ 381 00:13:47,708 --> 00:13:49,750 ♪ Made me believe in us 382 00:13:49,875 --> 00:13:51,542 ♪ 383 00:13:51,625 --> 00:13:53,292 ♪ Made me believe in 384 00:13:53,375 --> 00:13:55,708 - Ooh, one done. 385 00:13:55,875 --> 00:13:57,750 ♪ 386 00:13:57,833 --> 00:13:59,500 Damn, I have a lot of [bleep]. 387 00:13:59,542 --> 00:14:01,000 [phone rings] 388 00:14:01,083 --> 00:14:02,125 Oh, no! 389 00:14:06,250 --> 00:14:07,500 Hi. What's up? 390 00:14:07,583 --> 00:14:09,000 - Hey, do you want to chat? 391 00:14:09,083 --> 00:14:10,042 - Yeah. 392 00:14:10,125 --> 00:14:12,083 I'm in the midst of moving out. 393 00:14:12,083 --> 00:14:15,917 It is time to go back to Emily party of one and do me. 394 00:14:16,042 --> 00:14:18,000 - How are you feeling about moving out? 395 00:14:18,042 --> 00:14:21,375 - I mean, yeah, I'm excited, bittersweet, sad. 396 00:14:21,500 --> 00:14:22,708 I just hate change. 397 00:14:22,833 --> 00:14:24,458 Like, I'm sad, but, like, 398 00:14:24,542 --> 00:14:26,625 I also think I haven't had time to process anything, 399 00:14:26,625 --> 00:14:28,917 like the accident, this. 400 00:14:29,000 --> 00:14:31,292 So I do know that being alone 401 00:14:31,375 --> 00:14:33,958 is going to be a little tricky for me and not having people. 402 00:14:34,042 --> 00:14:36,292 So I just don't really know what to expect, like, 403 00:14:36,375 --> 00:14:38,208 if I'm going to, like, have a meltdown anytime soon, 404 00:14:38,333 --> 00:14:40,125 you know? 405 00:14:40,208 --> 00:14:41,458 - Yeah, because it's not like you just went on vacation. 406 00:14:41,542 --> 00:14:42,875 It's like you moved into this place. 407 00:14:43,000 --> 00:14:44,667 You created a life with someone. 408 00:14:44,708 --> 00:14:46,625 Like, there's a lot of, like-- it's almost grief, right? 409 00:14:46,708 --> 00:14:48,083 - Yeah. 410 00:14:48,167 --> 00:14:49,833 I mean, I've been definitely grieving. 411 00:14:49,917 --> 00:14:51,375 But, I mean, honestly, like, you know me. 412 00:14:51,500 --> 00:14:53,167 I think like going back to bopping and being a nomad 413 00:14:53,250 --> 00:14:56,000 and just travel, travel, travel, travel is, like, 414 00:14:56,125 --> 00:14:57,833 really actually what I need. 415 00:14:57,875 --> 00:15:00,000 So while it sounds exhausting in this moment, 416 00:15:00,042 --> 00:15:02,875 I think it's going to really help, like, 417 00:15:02,958 --> 00:15:06,000 not get into, like, a very deep, dark place. 418 00:15:06,125 --> 00:15:07,750 - Are you feeling, like, anxious 419 00:15:07,833 --> 00:15:09,667 or, like, have you shed tears? 420 00:15:09,750 --> 00:15:10,792 - I've been crying a lot. 421 00:15:10,875 --> 00:15:12,000 And then I get sad. 422 00:15:12,083 --> 00:15:13,000 And then I get, like, depressed. 423 00:15:13,083 --> 00:15:15,000 And then I get, like, angry. 424 00:15:15,042 --> 00:15:17,042 But I think actually--like, I might actually get 425 00:15:17,125 --> 00:15:19,583 very sad when I'm, like, in my room alone. 426 00:15:19,667 --> 00:15:21,458 - Yeah. 427 00:15:21,542 --> 00:15:22,708 And it might feel weird when you get back to your new spot 428 00:15:22,792 --> 00:15:24,542 for like a week or two. 429 00:15:24,667 --> 00:15:26,917 But I feel like eventually you'll get to the other side, 430 00:15:27,000 --> 00:15:30,167 and it will not feel so painful. 431 00:15:30,250 --> 00:15:32,750 - I'm, like, excited now to grow from this, 432 00:15:32,833 --> 00:15:36,125 but also, like, learn exactly what to avoid with a partner. 433 00:15:36,208 --> 00:15:37,750 But also, I feel like this is just going to make me, like, 434 00:15:37,833 --> 00:15:40,417 better to be a better partner. 435 00:15:40,500 --> 00:15:43,000 I just shifted priorities, and, like, I'm thankful for that. 436 00:15:43,042 --> 00:15:45,958 And no regrets. 437 00:15:46,042 --> 00:15:47,583 Yeah, I would not take any of this back. 438 00:15:47,667 --> 00:15:50,125 And I think it's, like, what I really needed. 439 00:15:50,208 --> 00:15:52,458 And although it was not at all how I expected it, 440 00:15:52,542 --> 00:15:54,500 I think, like, I'm going to be, like, 441 00:15:54,542 --> 00:15:56,875 so much better off and stronger for it. 442 00:15:56,958 --> 00:16:00,708 And so I'm appreciative of that. 443 00:16:00,875 --> 00:16:06,833 It won't be easy, but first up is leaving this space behind. 444 00:16:06,917 --> 00:16:08,500 - It's just going to get better and better. 445 00:16:08,542 --> 00:16:10,667 You just have to, like, have fun. 446 00:16:10,708 --> 00:16:13,500 - Roll with it and keep riding the wave, but it's a new wave. 447 00:16:13,542 --> 00:16:15,042 It's a new ocean. 448 00:16:15,167 --> 00:16:16,750 - It's a new ocean. 449 00:16:16,833 --> 00:16:18,750 - Well, you know, I love you. 450 00:16:18,875 --> 00:16:20,167 Have fun. And I'll talk to you tonight. 451 00:16:20,333 --> 00:16:21,750 - OK. Talk to you later. 452 00:16:21,833 --> 00:16:23,125 - Yep. Bye. 453 00:16:23,208 --> 00:16:24,792 This is the end of Emily and Brennan, 454 00:16:24,875 --> 00:16:27,417 and then kind of, like, 455 00:16:27,500 --> 00:16:30,500 the start of Emily happened here in the past week. 456 00:16:30,583 --> 00:16:33,500 So I think it just has come full circle. 457 00:16:36,625 --> 00:16:38,125 - I don't know. 458 00:16:38,208 --> 00:16:39,708 Because I've been emotional all week. 459 00:16:39,792 --> 00:16:41,417 But yeah, I mean, this has brought 460 00:16:41,542 --> 00:16:44,083 a lot of different perspectives. 461 00:16:44,167 --> 00:16:46,000 - ♪ Stop fighting the fight 462 00:16:46,125 --> 00:16:49,708 ♪ I'm sorry you've been waiting ♪ 463 00:16:49,792 --> 00:16:53,458 -It's just really time to get my life back in order 464 00:16:53,542 --> 00:16:57,500 and just start, like, the new beginning after this. 465 00:16:57,625 --> 00:17:00,500 ♪ 466 00:17:00,542 --> 00:17:02,000 - ♪ I see your fear 467 00:17:02,083 --> 00:17:04,750 ♪ I know you're freed 468 00:17:08,875 --> 00:17:10,083 - ♪ Only 469 00:17:10,167 --> 00:17:13,875 ♪ Only you can lift me up 470 00:17:13,958 --> 00:17:15,708 - There's a lot of stuff in there, Becca. 471 00:17:15,792 --> 00:17:16,750 - I'm ready. 472 00:17:16,875 --> 00:17:17,875 - Remember, I'm crippled. 473 00:17:18,000 --> 00:17:20,250 - [laughs] I'm here to help. 474 00:17:20,333 --> 00:17:21,583 - I don't even know where to begin. 475 00:17:21,667 --> 00:17:22,667 - Oh, Jesus. 476 00:17:22,750 --> 00:17:23,833 - I really committed, dude. 477 00:17:23,875 --> 00:17:24,917 - You really moved in. 478 00:17:25,000 --> 00:17:26,208 - I really did. 479 00:17:26,333 --> 00:17:27,833 - You really did the damn thing. 480 00:17:27,917 --> 00:17:28,875 OK. 481 00:17:28,958 --> 00:17:31,250 ♪ 482 00:17:31,250 --> 00:17:34,250 It'd be nice to have men to help us with this [bleep]. 483 00:17:34,333 --> 00:17:37,875 Too bad they were [bleep]twads. 484 00:17:37,958 --> 00:17:39,708 - We're so strong and independent. 485 00:17:39,792 --> 00:17:41,042 - And just like that-- 486 00:17:41,125 --> 00:17:42,417 - Just a lot of work. 487 00:17:42,500 --> 00:17:44,417 - Two single girls back in Denver. 488 00:17:44,500 --> 00:17:47,583 - Becca is literally the most well-articulated, 489 00:17:47,667 --> 00:17:52,417 powerful, feminist, just strong person. 490 00:17:52,500 --> 00:17:55,000 Like, she honestly has been giving me 491 00:17:55,083 --> 00:17:56,542 all the advice from the beginning. 492 00:17:56,625 --> 00:17:59,667 She has always the right words to say. 493 00:17:59,750 --> 00:18:04,208 And she's going to be a lifelong friend after this 494 00:18:04,292 --> 00:18:05,833 and definitely one that I'm going 495 00:18:05,917 --> 00:18:08,167 to be leaning on for sure. 496 00:18:08,250 --> 00:18:09,542 - It's going to feel so good once you get settled in. 497 00:18:09,625 --> 00:18:11,292 - I know. 498 00:18:11,375 --> 00:18:13,208 - It's funny because when I look back on the honeymoon, 499 00:18:13,333 --> 00:18:15,583 I just think of, like, baby us 500 00:18:15,708 --> 00:18:16,917 who were like, we're going to be great. 501 00:18:17,042 --> 00:18:18,292 This is going to work. 502 00:18:18,375 --> 00:18:20,333 Like, we've-- we've got good guys. 503 00:18:20,417 --> 00:18:23,708 Like--and then it just, like, slowly unraveled, 504 00:18:23,833 --> 00:18:26,333 but in a way that it wasn't like one big explosion. 505 00:18:26,417 --> 00:18:27,750 It was just like each of us being like, wait, 506 00:18:27,833 --> 00:18:29,000 this isn't right. 507 00:18:29,083 --> 00:18:30,042 Wait, this isn't right. - Mm-mm. 508 00:18:30,125 --> 00:18:31,250 - That's not right. 509 00:18:31,375 --> 00:18:32,208 And then it started to slowly turn 510 00:18:32,375 --> 00:18:34,500 into anger for both of us. 511 00:18:34,583 --> 00:18:37,000 - I think what we both want is just, like, focus on us again. 512 00:18:37,042 --> 00:18:38,292 - Yeah. 513 00:18:38,375 --> 00:18:39,500 I never liked dating, 514 00:18:39,625 --> 00:18:41,458 but [bleep] no am I going out there. 515 00:18:41,542 --> 00:18:43,250 Because, like, I don't want to go out there 516 00:18:43,333 --> 00:18:45,333 until I work on everything I need to work through. 517 00:18:45,375 --> 00:18:46,750 - Same, and I don't want to go out there-- 518 00:18:46,875 --> 00:18:48,875 - And, like, my time and energy for that right now-- 519 00:18:49,000 --> 00:18:50,208 - Yeah. - And so many other things. 520 00:18:50,333 --> 00:18:51,500 - I don't want to go on a date 521 00:18:51,583 --> 00:18:53,208 until I know that I can be a better partner 522 00:18:53,333 --> 00:18:55,000 than I was to Austin. 523 00:18:55,083 --> 00:18:57,083 Like, every time-- each relationship, 524 00:18:57,167 --> 00:19:00,000 I want to be the better version of myself 525 00:19:00,042 --> 00:19:01,625 and a better partner. 526 00:19:01,708 --> 00:19:02,750 - They obviously feel like they can treat us 527 00:19:02,833 --> 00:19:04,167 that way for a reason. 528 00:19:04,250 --> 00:19:05,667 So have you gone back to your drawing board of, like, 529 00:19:05,708 --> 00:19:07,333 why you think? 530 00:19:07,375 --> 00:19:09,875 So, yeah, that's really what I'm curious to know. 531 00:19:09,958 --> 00:19:12,125 And that's where I think I have a very pivotal opportunity 532 00:19:12,208 --> 00:19:13,500 because I think, 533 00:19:13,583 --> 00:19:15,500 fortunate, unfortunate first relationship. 534 00:19:15,542 --> 00:19:18,167 But it's the first relationship that I think can steer me away 535 00:19:18,208 --> 00:19:20,750 from, like, literally so many other bad ones, 536 00:19:20,875 --> 00:19:25,000 which I think is, like, a very, very, very positive thing 537 00:19:25,083 --> 00:19:26,292 coming out of this. - Yeah. Yeah. 538 00:19:26,375 --> 00:19:28,583 - Because I just know where this could go. 539 00:19:28,667 --> 00:19:32,625 And I know this track record is most likely. 540 00:19:32,708 --> 00:19:34,167 - It could be a pattern, 541 00:19:34,208 --> 00:19:35,625 but you're not going to let it be a pattern. 542 00:19:35,708 --> 00:19:37,708 And also, you're doing the work to make sure 543 00:19:37,792 --> 00:19:40,250 that anything that you brought toxic into the relationship 544 00:19:40,333 --> 00:19:42,750 won't also be a pattern. 545 00:19:42,833 --> 00:19:44,792 - Like, I think, yeah, I can maybe handle myself better, 546 00:19:44,875 --> 00:19:46,333 but like-- 547 00:19:46,375 --> 00:19:48,167 - I think when you learn to put boundaries up 548 00:19:48,292 --> 00:19:50,167 and you know your worth and you know 549 00:19:50,208 --> 00:19:52,250 how you're willing to be treated, 550 00:19:52,333 --> 00:19:53,875 there's going to be an easier way to communicate 551 00:19:53,958 --> 00:19:55,792 that than with rage. 552 00:19:55,875 --> 00:19:58,250 If you feel safe, if you feel seen, if you feel respected, 553 00:19:58,375 --> 00:20:02,708 there's not as much urgency to be reactive like that. 554 00:20:02,792 --> 00:20:04,917 Because you feel like you can take the time 555 00:20:05,000 --> 00:20:07,000 to actually express your emotions 556 00:20:07,125 --> 00:20:08,833 and know that they'll be heard. 557 00:20:08,917 --> 00:20:10,500 - That's where I know, like, I've come a long way because 558 00:20:10,583 --> 00:20:12,167 I used to always just react. 559 00:20:12,208 --> 00:20:14,000 - Mm. You were really reactive. 560 00:20:14,042 --> 00:20:15,500 I could say that for you. 561 00:20:15,542 --> 00:20:16,875 - I know, but I have really realized through this 562 00:20:16,958 --> 00:20:18,125 I've come actually a really long [bleep] way. 563 00:20:18,208 --> 00:20:19,583 - Yeah. And-- 564 00:20:19,708 --> 00:20:21,042 - And you're going to keep going further. 565 00:20:21,125 --> 00:20:22,333 - Yeah. 566 00:20:22,417 --> 00:20:24,917 - But I just want you to know what 567 00:20:25,000 --> 00:20:27,625 an amazing partner you're going to be to someone someday. 568 00:20:27,708 --> 00:20:30,375 Because the way that you are accepting 569 00:20:30,458 --> 00:20:33,875 of people's criticism, the way that you just 570 00:20:33,875 --> 00:20:37,042 want to have fun, I imagine you maybe one day as a mom 571 00:20:37,125 --> 00:20:38,375 if you want to do that. 572 00:20:38,500 --> 00:20:40,125 And I just think your partner is going 573 00:20:40,208 --> 00:20:42,792 to be so lucky because you are willing to give 574 00:20:42,875 --> 00:20:44,083 up some of that control. 575 00:20:44,167 --> 00:20:45,667 And I think you learned that. 576 00:20:45,750 --> 00:20:49,208 And I think one day some guy is going 577 00:20:49,333 --> 00:20:51,208 to swoop in and just be like, 578 00:20:51,292 --> 00:20:53,750 what the [bleep] was this guy doing? 579 00:20:53,833 --> 00:20:54,667 - I know. Same. 580 00:20:54,750 --> 00:20:59,792 ♪ 581 00:20:59,875 --> 00:21:02,208 ♪ 582 00:21:07,708 --> 00:21:11,708 - I'm kind of finishing up the move from apartment 583 00:21:11,792 --> 00:21:13,167 back into my old spot. 584 00:21:13,250 --> 00:21:15,500 Morning! 585 00:21:15,542 --> 00:21:18,333 - Bag lady over here. 586 00:21:18,458 --> 00:21:23,167 - Definitely going to miss living with Becca, 587 00:21:23,208 --> 00:21:25,375 but I'm just excited to be back in a place 588 00:21:25,500 --> 00:21:28,833 where I can, like, kind of get back to my routines 589 00:21:28,875 --> 00:21:31,417 and, like, normal habits. 590 00:21:31,500 --> 00:21:33,625 - So, Austin, I'm really glad that 591 00:21:33,708 --> 00:21:35,958 you brought back dish towels. 592 00:21:36,042 --> 00:21:37,875 - I know. We got a lot of towels. 593 00:21:38,042 --> 00:21:39,542 We got to get rid of some stuff. 594 00:21:39,625 --> 00:21:42,000 - I mean, you know, we're combining households-- 595 00:21:42,083 --> 00:21:43,500 - Yeah. 596 00:21:43,583 --> 00:21:47,625 - But not combining people necessarily. 597 00:21:47,708 --> 00:21:48,833 How are you-- 598 00:21:48,958 --> 00:21:50,667 - Not necessarily. 599 00:21:50,750 --> 00:21:54,000 - Feeling about coming back without a wife? 600 00:21:54,125 --> 00:21:55,750 - It sucks, honestly. 601 00:21:55,833 --> 00:21:58,167 - Was it an explosion or was it just, 602 00:21:58,292 --> 00:22:01,000 we don't think this is going to work? 603 00:22:01,083 --> 00:22:03,833 - One of the bigger issues in our relationship 604 00:22:03,917 --> 00:22:07,708 was the process of filming 605 00:22:07,792 --> 00:22:11,083 and how that made me feel inauthentic to her. 606 00:22:11,167 --> 00:22:14,750 And after Decision Day, I, like, went out with a producer. 607 00:22:14,833 --> 00:22:17,958 I didn't think it was a big deal at the time, 608 00:22:18,042 --> 00:22:20,000 but Becca found out. 609 00:22:20,125 --> 00:22:25,167 And I...lied to her. 610 00:22:25,250 --> 00:22:26,875 ♪ 611 00:22:27,000 --> 00:22:31,167 And it was a mistake. 612 00:22:31,208 --> 00:22:33,333 I've had [bleep], like, 613 00:22:33,417 --> 00:22:35,750 worst day I've experienced in like 10 years. 614 00:22:35,833 --> 00:22:39,667 Like, it was--yeah. 615 00:22:39,750 --> 00:22:42,458 Anyway, after the group meet-up, 616 00:22:42,542 --> 00:22:43,667 I reached out to Becca. 617 00:22:43,750 --> 00:22:44,875 And I was like, hey, can we talk 618 00:22:44,958 --> 00:22:46,708 about what happened again? 619 00:22:46,708 --> 00:22:51,500 And that was also probably a mistake. 620 00:22:51,542 --> 00:22:53,000 - Why was that a mistake? What do you mean? 621 00:22:53,042 --> 00:22:54,500 - So-- 622 00:22:54,542 --> 00:22:56,583 - It sounds like what you should be doing. 623 00:22:56,583 --> 00:23:01,500 - She felt like I should have taken that time to, like, 624 00:23:01,583 --> 00:23:04,750 think about everything and think about all the events 625 00:23:04,833 --> 00:23:06,625 and my actions and all this stuff. 626 00:23:06,708 --> 00:23:08,292 - I mean, do you feel like you were doing that? 627 00:23:08,375 --> 00:23:10,292 I feel like that's exactly what you were doing. 628 00:23:10,375 --> 00:23:12,625 - I wasn't. 629 00:23:12,708 --> 00:23:16,458 I just disconnected. - Oh. 630 00:23:16,583 --> 00:23:20,000 - And I guess she came into our conversation 631 00:23:20,083 --> 00:23:23,708 basically expecting, like, an apology, like, immediately. 632 00:23:23,792 --> 00:23:26,333 And when it didn't start out that way-- 633 00:23:26,375 --> 00:23:27,500 - And I've--yeah. - It didn't. 634 00:23:27,583 --> 00:23:29,000 - Like-- - Yeah. 635 00:23:29,083 --> 00:23:30,250 - Like, that wall-- - It didn't go anywhere. 636 00:23:30,333 --> 00:23:31,625 - Wall dropped, totally. 637 00:23:31,708 --> 00:23:32,667 - Yeah. 638 00:23:32,708 --> 00:23:34,583 - Like, yeah, I mean, as a girl, 639 00:23:34,667 --> 00:23:35,958 I probably would have assumed the same thing, I think. 640 00:23:36,042 --> 00:23:37,167 So I-- - Yeah. 641 00:23:37,250 --> 00:23:38,167 - Have you seen her since? 642 00:23:38,208 --> 00:23:39,250 - Nope. 643 00:23:39,375 --> 00:23:40,833 - Oh, my god. 644 00:23:40,917 --> 00:23:45,125 - She told me that she wanted to... 645 00:23:45,208 --> 00:23:47,167 disconnect from me completely, 646 00:23:47,208 --> 00:23:49,625 unfollow each other on Instagram, 647 00:23:49,708 --> 00:23:53,000 no talking, none of this. 648 00:23:53,083 --> 00:23:55,000 Just like-- [clicks tongue] 649 00:23:55,083 --> 00:23:56,542 - How do you feel? 650 00:23:56,625 --> 00:24:00,167 - This has been the hardest time-- 651 00:24:00,208 --> 00:24:02,167 ♪ 652 00:24:02,292 --> 00:24:04,750 Like, the hardest times of my life. 653 00:24:04,875 --> 00:24:09,833 What's even harder is, like, she now doesn't, like, trust 654 00:24:09,875 --> 00:24:13,708 or have faith in, like, our relationship. 655 00:24:13,833 --> 00:24:18,500 You know, she told me that she was excited to hear my friends 656 00:24:18,500 --> 00:24:20,833 talk about my loyalty 657 00:24:20,958 --> 00:24:23,000 and, like, trust and honesty and communication 658 00:24:23,083 --> 00:24:24,458 and all that. 659 00:24:24,542 --> 00:24:26,958 And now all of that is, like, tainted. 660 00:24:27,042 --> 00:24:28,917 - Yeah. 661 00:24:29,000 --> 00:24:31,417 - And it's, like, hard to, like, have someone who you, 662 00:24:31,542 --> 00:24:35,167 like, deeply care about, like, think those things. 663 00:24:35,250 --> 00:24:39,333 ♪ 664 00:24:39,500 --> 00:24:41,000 - I'm sorry. 665 00:24:41,083 --> 00:24:42,042 - It's OK. 666 00:24:42,125 --> 00:24:43,958 - Aww. 667 00:24:44,042 --> 00:24:50,833 ♪ 668 00:24:52,875 --> 00:24:54,667 - Yeah. - Yeah. 669 00:24:54,708 --> 00:24:57,500 So-- 670 00:24:57,542 --> 00:24:59,917 - So what--where do you go from here? 671 00:25:00,042 --> 00:25:02,333 ♪ 672 00:25:02,417 --> 00:25:05,208 - I don't know. 673 00:25:05,292 --> 00:25:06,500 - ♪ We're fading out 674 00:25:06,542 --> 00:25:07,708 ♪ Fading out 675 00:25:11,583 --> 00:25:13,125 - ♪ You want to go high 676 00:25:13,125 --> 00:25:14,792 ♪ I want to go low 677 00:25:14,875 --> 00:25:16,333 ♪ You want to spend days 678 00:25:16,458 --> 00:25:18,625 ♪ Watching videos 679 00:25:18,708 --> 00:25:21,167 ♪ You wanted to fly 680 00:25:21,208 --> 00:25:22,792 ♪ I wanted to fall 681 00:25:22,875 --> 00:25:23,708 - Can you do two of the crown refreshers? 682 00:25:23,792 --> 00:25:24,708 - Yeah. 683 00:25:24,792 --> 00:25:27,000 - Sweet. That's perfect. 684 00:25:27,083 --> 00:25:28,042 - Enjoy. 685 00:25:28,167 --> 00:25:30,375 - Thank you. 686 00:25:30,500 --> 00:25:31,917 All right, should we go play? - Yeah. 687 00:25:32,042 --> 00:25:32,958 Yeah. 688 00:25:33,042 --> 00:25:34,625 Might as well. 689 00:25:36,708 --> 00:25:38,375 - That bartender was actually really cute. 690 00:25:38,500 --> 00:25:40,375 - Yeah, she was. 691 00:25:40,458 --> 00:25:42,042 - Damn, bro, I'm a single man. 692 00:25:42,125 --> 00:25:43,375 - Someone is single. 693 00:25:43,458 --> 00:25:47,000 ♪ 694 00:25:47,042 --> 00:25:51,500 Man, so how has it been, the transition from going-- 695 00:25:51,583 --> 00:25:54,667 going from 0 to 60 from 100 to 0? 696 00:25:54,708 --> 00:25:57,167 Because I remember you--you saying that, 697 00:25:57,250 --> 00:26:00,458 like--like, divorce was not going to be an option. 698 00:26:00,583 --> 00:26:01,917 - Yeah. 699 00:26:02,000 --> 00:26:06,125 But when, you know, I was miserable, 700 00:26:06,208 --> 00:26:09,417 I had to kind of put my pride aside and say, 701 00:26:09,542 --> 00:26:11,458 this isn't working for me. 702 00:26:11,542 --> 00:26:12,958 This is not what I signed up for. 703 00:26:13,042 --> 00:26:14,500 - Yeah. 704 00:26:14,583 --> 00:26:16,333 - And I had to come to terms with that. 705 00:26:16,375 --> 00:26:20,708 - I hope this doesn't poison the idea of marriage for you. 706 00:26:20,792 --> 00:26:23,875 Do you think this whole experience has done that or-- 707 00:26:23,958 --> 00:26:25,833 - No. 708 00:26:25,875 --> 00:26:27,500 I mean, obviously, I'm going to take a lot of time to myself 709 00:26:27,583 --> 00:26:29,167 and, like, not try to rush into anything. 710 00:26:29,208 --> 00:26:30,375 - Right, right. 711 00:26:30,458 --> 00:26:31,875 - But it was cool, you know, having 712 00:26:31,958 --> 00:26:34,750 someone to do a bunch of [bleep] with, 713 00:26:34,833 --> 00:26:35,875 tackle tasks with. 714 00:26:35,958 --> 00:26:37,375 - Yeah. 715 00:26:37,500 --> 00:26:38,792 Well, now you just need to find the person 716 00:26:38,875 --> 00:26:40,917 that has the same wavelength. 717 00:26:41,000 --> 00:26:42,542 - Right, right. 718 00:26:42,667 --> 00:26:44,292 - So, I mean, I guess going forward, what are you-- 719 00:26:44,375 --> 00:26:46,875 what are you going to be, like, more on the lookout for 720 00:26:46,958 --> 00:26:51,583 than you were before this whole thing? 721 00:26:51,667 --> 00:26:54,500 - You know, this really did teach me 722 00:26:54,542 --> 00:26:58,125 how to ask more questions, you know? 723 00:26:58,250 --> 00:26:59,667 - OK. 724 00:26:59,750 --> 00:27:01,000 - Because I would just ask the questions, 725 00:27:01,042 --> 00:27:03,083 but then that would be it, you know? 726 00:27:03,167 --> 00:27:05,625 Here it's--they taught you how to ask questions 727 00:27:05,625 --> 00:27:07,667 to help you get a little bit deeper and, like, 728 00:27:07,792 --> 00:27:10,458 to think of [bleep] you never really thought of. 729 00:27:10,542 --> 00:27:12,333 So I'm going to take some of that 730 00:27:12,333 --> 00:27:14,833 and apply that into my next one so I can, you know, 731 00:27:14,917 --> 00:27:17,250 get to know someone a little bit better. 732 00:27:17,333 --> 00:27:20,333 - Get deeper, uncover the good things and the bad. 733 00:27:20,417 --> 00:27:24,000 ♪ 734 00:27:24,083 --> 00:27:26,417 I mean, do you have any regrets about the whole thing? 735 00:27:26,500 --> 00:27:28,250 - No, you know, dude-- 736 00:27:28,333 --> 00:27:30,667 - Like, any of the way that you handled anything or like-- 737 00:27:30,792 --> 00:27:32,958 - Obviously, I made some mistakes, you know? 738 00:27:33,042 --> 00:27:34,542 - Because I wanted it for you. 739 00:27:34,625 --> 00:27:36,000 I wanted you to be happy. 740 00:27:36,083 --> 00:27:40,875 - I did care about Emily, but there's moments like-- 741 00:27:41,000 --> 00:27:44,167 one day I was just, like, looking through, you know, 742 00:27:44,208 --> 00:27:46,542 our diary cams for memories, right? 743 00:27:46,542 --> 00:27:47,500 Because we do that a lot. 744 00:27:47,583 --> 00:27:49,042 - Yeah. 745 00:27:49,167 --> 00:27:50,625 - And I saw one that was just, like, 746 00:27:50,708 --> 00:27:52,417 her just unloading on me and just talking 747 00:27:52,500 --> 00:27:53,708 a whole bunch of [bleep] about me. 748 00:27:53,875 --> 00:27:56,042 And I was just like, um, 749 00:27:56,125 --> 00:27:57,458 is it possible you could delete this? 750 00:27:57,542 --> 00:27:58,500 Because it's kind of [bleep] up. 751 00:27:58,583 --> 00:28:00,083 - Yeah, yeah, yeah. 752 00:28:00,167 --> 00:28:01,583 - She was--accused me of being, like, controlling 753 00:28:01,667 --> 00:28:03,625 and, like, all this [bleep]. 754 00:28:03,708 --> 00:28:05,500 If you're going to come at me with these baseless 755 00:28:05,542 --> 00:28:09,083 accusations, then, you know, 756 00:28:09,083 --> 00:28:11,625 we're really just not meant to be in each other's lives. 757 00:28:11,708 --> 00:28:15,125 So that's that, you know? 758 00:28:15,208 --> 00:28:17,625 - So you feel like you got hurt a little bit, though, 759 00:28:17,708 --> 00:28:18,625 from all this? 760 00:28:18,708 --> 00:28:19,625 - Yeah. 761 00:28:19,708 --> 00:28:23,042 ♪ 762 00:28:23,125 --> 00:28:26,000 - I mean, do you think you're ever going to see her again? 763 00:28:26,083 --> 00:28:27,792 Do you want to? 764 00:28:27,875 --> 00:28:29,708 - I don't really feel the need to kind of open up 765 00:28:29,792 --> 00:28:33,083 those doors again and those wounds. 766 00:28:33,167 --> 00:28:35,500 - Does that mean there's things that 767 00:28:35,583 --> 00:28:36,958 you think require closure? 768 00:28:37,042 --> 00:28:39,625 - I don't have anything I need to say or-- 769 00:28:39,708 --> 00:28:41,917 I'm just trying to heal for myself. 770 00:28:42,000 --> 00:28:45,625 And that includes just taking time away from her. 771 00:28:45,708 --> 00:28:47,583 - I just don't want you to regret it. 772 00:28:47,667 --> 00:28:49,125 - Regret what? 773 00:28:49,208 --> 00:28:53,667 - Just leaving things unsaid or--you know? 774 00:28:53,708 --> 00:28:55,625 I love Brennan. 775 00:28:55,708 --> 00:28:59,417 And I don't think he's had the closure from this experience 776 00:28:59,542 --> 00:29:00,875 that he was looking for. 777 00:29:00,875 --> 00:29:03,000 He seems like there's more to be said. 778 00:29:03,083 --> 00:29:06,500 But if he doesn't want to do it and he sees no reason to, 779 00:29:06,583 --> 00:29:08,417 I can't tell him otherwise. 780 00:29:08,500 --> 00:29:09,875 - There's nothing left to say. 781 00:29:09,958 --> 00:29:11,958 I mean, I'm just going to do what's best for me 782 00:29:12,083 --> 00:29:17,167 and walk away from this with my head up and-- 783 00:29:17,208 --> 00:29:18,583 - As long as you think that's what's best for you, 784 00:29:18,667 --> 00:29:19,500 that's what I want for you. 785 00:29:19,583 --> 00:29:20,875 - Hell yeah, bro. 786 00:29:20,958 --> 00:29:22,958 - That's all--that's all I care about. 787 00:29:23,042 --> 00:29:29,833 ♪ 788 00:29:29,958 --> 00:29:32,000 - ♪ Pretty blue eyes 789 00:29:32,042 --> 00:29:34,333 ♪ Hollywood smile 790 00:29:34,458 --> 00:29:36,375 ♪ Yeah, yeah, yeah 791 00:29:36,500 --> 00:29:38,292 - [sighs] 792 00:29:38,417 --> 00:29:40,500 ♪ 793 00:29:40,583 --> 00:29:42,250 Love it. 794 00:29:42,333 --> 00:29:43,458 Beautiful. 795 00:29:43,542 --> 00:29:46,125 - [vocalizing] 796 00:29:46,208 --> 00:29:48,458 ♪ 797 00:29:48,542 --> 00:29:49,667 - Oh, I have to go for-- OK, fine. 798 00:29:49,750 --> 00:29:50,708 - You have to come to me. - Go. 799 00:29:50,833 --> 00:29:51,708 Go. Come here. 800 00:29:51,792 --> 00:29:52,667 - [laughs] 801 00:29:52,792 --> 00:29:55,750 ♪ 802 00:29:55,875 --> 00:29:58,458 [both laughing] 803 00:29:58,542 --> 00:30:00,167 ♪ 804 00:30:00,208 --> 00:30:03,917 - Right now that's like-- that's tentacle action. 805 00:30:04,000 --> 00:30:06,000 That chemistry with Chloe and I, 806 00:30:06,083 --> 00:30:08,167 like, I would say that's in an extremely positive place. 807 00:30:08,292 --> 00:30:11,083 And, you know, after the sex store, 808 00:30:11,167 --> 00:30:13,875 no pun intended, but slid right into having sex. 809 00:30:14,000 --> 00:30:16,625 And sex with Chloe is great. 810 00:30:16,708 --> 00:30:19,167 I knew we were going to have great physical chemistry, 811 00:30:19,250 --> 00:30:22,833 and sex was just kind of the culmination of all that. 812 00:30:22,917 --> 00:30:25,875 So now that we've kind of crossed this bridge 813 00:30:25,875 --> 00:30:28,208 of foster children and an animal sanctuary, 814 00:30:28,292 --> 00:30:30,542 let's talk about what the immediate future 815 00:30:30,542 --> 00:30:31,833 would look like. 816 00:30:31,917 --> 00:30:34,042 Because I am in a high rise. - Mm-hmm. 817 00:30:34,125 --> 00:30:36,292 - You are in a cutesy flat. 818 00:30:36,375 --> 00:30:37,500 - Yes. 819 00:30:37,583 --> 00:30:40,042 - So what would be the three things 820 00:30:40,167 --> 00:30:41,500 that would be most important? 821 00:30:41,625 --> 00:30:44,250 - So we will have five animals. 822 00:30:44,375 --> 00:30:45,292 - Yes. 823 00:30:45,375 --> 00:30:47,167 - I think size. 824 00:30:47,208 --> 00:30:48,417 - Size. 825 00:30:48,500 --> 00:30:51,667 - I think access ease. 826 00:30:51,750 --> 00:30:54,875 - OK. - And I think, um, 827 00:30:54,958 --> 00:30:56,333 probably parking. 828 00:30:56,417 --> 00:30:57,708 - OK. - Yeah. 829 00:30:57,792 --> 00:30:59,542 - Sure. 830 00:30:59,625 --> 00:31:00,833 - Yeah, it's all the things we can think about. 831 00:31:00,958 --> 00:31:02,833 Oh, my gosh. - Thank you. 832 00:31:02,917 --> 00:31:05,500 - Oh, my gosh, no. 833 00:31:05,583 --> 00:31:07,708 That looks amazing. 834 00:31:07,792 --> 00:31:09,833 So how do you feel about maybe 835 00:31:09,917 --> 00:31:12,708 pivoting from an apartment altogether 836 00:31:12,792 --> 00:31:16,000 and looking at an actual freestanding house? 837 00:31:16,083 --> 00:31:17,417 - Oh, I'd be fine with a house. 838 00:31:17,500 --> 00:31:18,708 But I would also add-- 839 00:31:18,792 --> 00:31:20,000 because you said your lease is up in June? 840 00:31:20,083 --> 00:31:21,583 - December. - December? 841 00:31:21,708 --> 00:31:22,958 - Yours is June. 842 00:31:23,042 --> 00:31:25,333 - So we could just ride your lease out 843 00:31:25,375 --> 00:31:27,167 to not have to deal with that headache. 844 00:31:27,250 --> 00:31:29,375 ♪ 845 00:31:29,458 --> 00:31:31,542 - Do you foresee us living together 846 00:31:31,625 --> 00:31:33,958 in that time or just kind of-- 847 00:31:34,042 --> 00:31:35,125 - Well, I would say this. 848 00:31:35,208 --> 00:31:37,458 We would commit to at least 849 00:31:37,542 --> 00:31:39,417 four to five days 850 00:31:39,500 --> 00:31:43,208 of spending with each other, two days recharge. 851 00:31:43,292 --> 00:31:47,000 That would be our transition to, like, full-on cohabitation 852 00:31:47,125 --> 00:31:50,375 when your lease is up. 853 00:31:50,458 --> 00:31:52,708 - Do you think it'll still feel like we're actually married? 854 00:31:52,792 --> 00:31:54,542 Or do you think this is an opportunity 855 00:31:54,542 --> 00:31:56,417 for us to fizzle out if we don't move in together 856 00:31:56,500 --> 00:31:59,417 right away? 857 00:31:59,417 --> 00:32:01,208 - I do think it's something to consider. 858 00:32:01,292 --> 00:32:02,667 - Yeah. 859 00:32:02,792 --> 00:32:04,042 - It's not something I'm worried about. 860 00:32:04,125 --> 00:32:06,000 I would--for a frame of reference, 861 00:32:06,083 --> 00:32:08,083 I would use, like, when you took time off. 862 00:32:08,167 --> 00:32:10,542 For most people, they would be like, what the [bleep]? 863 00:32:10,625 --> 00:32:14,250 For me, that was like, no, that is--that is what we need 864 00:32:14,375 --> 00:32:17,333 to stay as engaged as we want to be 865 00:32:17,417 --> 00:32:19,583 when we're in each other's presence. 866 00:32:19,708 --> 00:32:24,167 So though I think it's a--it's a question worth considering, 867 00:32:24,250 --> 00:32:28,167 it's not a concern that I have. 868 00:32:28,250 --> 00:32:34,000 - Is there anything that gives you pause? 869 00:32:34,042 --> 00:32:36,417 Because I know, at the end of the day, 870 00:32:36,542 --> 00:32:38,375 the thought of an animal sanctuary is a lot. 871 00:32:38,458 --> 00:32:40,000 - Sure. 872 00:32:40,042 --> 00:32:41,833 - The thought of fostering children is a lot. 873 00:32:41,875 --> 00:32:43,917 So I think I just want to hear from you, 874 00:32:44,042 --> 00:32:47,083 and safe space-- now is the time to say, 875 00:32:47,167 --> 00:32:49,208 yeah, this stuff scares me a little bit. 876 00:32:49,292 --> 00:32:51,250 And I'm not quite sure how I feel about it. 877 00:32:51,333 --> 00:32:53,500 - An animal sanctuary doesn't scare me. 878 00:32:53,583 --> 00:32:57,667 An animal sanctuary of 500 animals scares me. 879 00:32:57,750 --> 00:32:59,333 Fostering children doesn't scare me. 880 00:32:59,375 --> 00:33:02,625 Fostering five of them scares me. 881 00:33:02,708 --> 00:33:07,667 So what scares me is intensity and scope, not the idea of it. 882 00:33:07,750 --> 00:33:09,000 - Mm. 883 00:33:09,083 --> 00:33:10,292 - Like, I am great with two children. 884 00:33:10,375 --> 00:33:12,250 You put four around me, like, 885 00:33:12,333 --> 00:33:13,708 that's going to be a lot on your boy. 886 00:33:13,792 --> 00:33:18,583 ♪ 887 00:33:22,625 --> 00:33:24,375 [upbeat music] 888 00:33:24,375 --> 00:33:26,500 ♪ 889 00:33:26,542 --> 00:33:27,667 - Here? 890 00:33:27,750 --> 00:33:29,000 - Yeah, I like it. 891 00:33:29,042 --> 00:33:32,417 [line rings] 892 00:33:32,542 --> 00:33:33,958 - Hi. 893 00:33:34,042 --> 00:33:35,083 - Hi. 894 00:33:35,083 --> 00:33:36,333 - You look pretty. 895 00:33:36,375 --> 00:33:38,000 - So do you. 896 00:33:38,042 --> 00:33:39,750 - Glad you guys can join me today. 897 00:33:39,833 --> 00:33:40,833 - Yeah, likewise. 898 00:33:40,917 --> 00:33:42,750 ♪ 899 00:33:42,833 --> 00:33:45,833 - So yeah, there's a Venmo payment waiting for you 900 00:33:45,917 --> 00:33:47,792 that I need to send to you. 901 00:33:47,875 --> 00:33:50,375 [laughs] Do you remember when I was a good business owner? 902 00:33:50,458 --> 00:33:52,833 - I never thought I would see this day. 903 00:33:52,917 --> 00:33:55,833 - I just prioritized Austin way too-- 904 00:33:55,917 --> 00:33:59,292 way too much, which isn't healthy for any relationship. 905 00:33:59,375 --> 00:34:02,375 - To be honest, I just never thought 906 00:34:02,500 --> 00:34:05,333 that you would be in a relationship 907 00:34:05,417 --> 00:34:08,375 that would require so much of your time and energy. 908 00:34:08,458 --> 00:34:10,500 I just never saw that happening. 909 00:34:10,583 --> 00:34:11,917 - Yeah. 910 00:34:12,000 --> 00:34:13,583 - I also feel for you because 911 00:34:13,667 --> 00:34:19,042 having put so much time and energy into something that 912 00:34:19,125 --> 00:34:21,083 didn't turn out the way you wanted to is, like, 913 00:34:21,167 --> 00:34:23,917 also kind of a hard pill to swallow, 914 00:34:24,000 --> 00:34:26,500 knowing that time and energy was taken away 915 00:34:26,583 --> 00:34:29,542 from something that you really do care about. 916 00:34:29,667 --> 00:34:30,917 - I know. 917 00:34:31,042 --> 00:34:32,792 - You also thought that you were 918 00:34:32,792 --> 00:34:35,667 going to have somebody that was going to be on your team. 919 00:34:35,750 --> 00:34:37,542 - I know. 920 00:34:37,625 --> 00:34:40,667 - But knowing what we know now, that's not the case. 921 00:34:40,708 --> 00:34:42,125 - Yeah. 922 00:34:42,208 --> 00:34:43,583 - How are you, dude? What's up? 923 00:34:43,708 --> 00:34:44,750 How's life? 924 00:34:44,875 --> 00:34:45,792 What's new? 925 00:34:45,875 --> 00:34:46,708 How's this been? 926 00:34:46,833 --> 00:34:48,750 - [laughs] 927 00:34:48,833 --> 00:34:50,208 A lot of questions. 928 00:34:50,292 --> 00:34:54,167 It's been a bit of a roller coaster. 929 00:34:54,208 --> 00:34:56,292 It's had, like, a lot of ups and downs 930 00:34:56,375 --> 00:35:01,167 and kind of ending it on-- on a down note, unfortunately. 931 00:35:01,250 --> 00:35:04,417 So it's been tough. 932 00:35:04,500 --> 00:35:05,583 So yeah, tough. 933 00:35:05,667 --> 00:35:06,917 - What'd you do? 934 00:35:07,042 --> 00:35:07,833 - Yeah. 935 00:35:07,958 --> 00:35:09,333 [laughter] 936 00:35:09,458 --> 00:35:11,125 - That's a very fair question. 937 00:35:11,208 --> 00:35:13,500 Yeah, no, I definitely [bleep] up. 938 00:35:13,583 --> 00:35:16,667 - If you had a partner that was on your team 939 00:35:16,708 --> 00:35:18,792 and that was lifting you up and supporting you 940 00:35:18,875 --> 00:35:21,833 in all the right ways, this will be so hard. 941 00:35:21,917 --> 00:35:23,292 - Yeah. 942 00:35:23,375 --> 00:35:24,833 - That's why I just don't want you 943 00:35:24,917 --> 00:35:26,500 to be too hard on yourself. 944 00:35:26,625 --> 00:35:30,667 - I'm trying not to be, but it's, like, 945 00:35:30,708 --> 00:35:34,125 you know that I can be critical at times of people. 946 00:35:34,208 --> 00:35:37,208 And I have high expectations. 947 00:35:37,292 --> 00:35:39,958 And I can be demanding. 948 00:35:40,042 --> 00:35:44,167 And I don't know if I 949 00:35:44,250 --> 00:35:47,292 maybe did too many of those things with him. 950 00:35:47,375 --> 00:35:49,208 - From my perspective, I don't think that 951 00:35:49,333 --> 00:35:52,375 if you would have been less of that, 952 00:35:52,458 --> 00:35:54,000 that that would have changed the course 953 00:35:54,042 --> 00:35:56,833 of your relationship. 954 00:35:56,833 --> 00:35:58,500 - I know. 955 00:35:58,542 --> 00:36:00,542 But then I play the game in my head where I'm like, 956 00:36:00,625 --> 00:36:03,625 oh, well, he was working on x, and he was working on Y, 957 00:36:03,708 --> 00:36:04,875 and he was working on Z. 958 00:36:04,958 --> 00:36:08,708 And, you know, like, I-- 959 00:36:08,792 --> 00:36:11,417 yeah, I do that whole thing. 960 00:36:11,500 --> 00:36:15,500 - The way that you grow, like, you specifically, 961 00:36:15,583 --> 00:36:18,042 is you talk about things. 962 00:36:18,125 --> 00:36:21,542 And the fact that when you did that in your marriage, 963 00:36:21,625 --> 00:36:25,583 you got shut down over and over again 964 00:36:25,667 --> 00:36:28,667 shows you that he wasn't ready to grow with you. 965 00:36:28,708 --> 00:36:31,417 - Yeah. 966 00:36:31,542 --> 00:36:35,833 - Hindsight being 20/20, would you have done anything-- 967 00:36:35,917 --> 00:36:37,000 have done anything differently? 968 00:36:37,083 --> 00:36:38,583 - Yeah, absolutely. 969 00:36:38,667 --> 00:36:40,833 There's, like, a lot I would have done differently. 970 00:36:40,917 --> 00:36:45,083 But, you know, we talked after-- 971 00:36:45,208 --> 00:36:48,333 after the argument and kind of, like, talked about 972 00:36:48,458 --> 00:36:52,333 what happened and what we wanted for our future. 973 00:36:52,458 --> 00:36:57,000 And basically the vibe was like, 974 00:36:57,083 --> 00:37:00,167 there's no salvaging this. 975 00:37:00,208 --> 00:37:01,667 - Did you want to? 976 00:37:01,750 --> 00:37:03,292 - Yeah, for sure. 977 00:37:03,375 --> 00:37:04,542 I wanted to make it work. 978 00:37:04,625 --> 00:37:06,167 Like-- 979 00:37:06,250 --> 00:37:07,292 - I know you did. - I liked her. 980 00:37:07,375 --> 00:37:08,667 - You said that. - Mm-hmm. 981 00:37:08,750 --> 00:37:11,083 - There was, like, a lot of good 982 00:37:11,167 --> 00:37:13,250 that we had in our relationship and a lot of similarities 983 00:37:13,333 --> 00:37:14,792 that I loved. 984 00:37:14,875 --> 00:37:16,042 And even some of the differences, like, 985 00:37:16,125 --> 00:37:17,667 I did like between us. 986 00:37:17,750 --> 00:37:20,208 ♪ 987 00:37:20,292 --> 00:37:22,333 - You have done everything in your power 988 00:37:22,417 --> 00:37:24,333 to try to make this work. 989 00:37:24,375 --> 00:37:29,167 - I have no doubt that Austin will grow from this. 990 00:37:29,250 --> 00:37:31,208 And it sucks to not, like, 991 00:37:31,292 --> 00:37:34,000 reap those benefits in a certain way. 992 00:37:34,042 --> 00:37:36,333 - Just as long as you know in the back of your head 993 00:37:36,417 --> 00:37:40,167 that the solution isn't to run back to him, you know? 994 00:37:40,292 --> 00:37:42,333 ♪ 995 00:37:42,375 --> 00:37:46,875 - Maybe with time, I'll come to realize that, you know. 996 00:37:46,958 --> 00:37:48,500 - Yeah. 997 00:37:48,625 --> 00:37:50,625 - Yeah. 998 00:37:50,708 --> 00:37:52,292 - So you're pretty certain at this point, 999 00:37:52,375 --> 00:37:55,708 like, there's not really any recovery? 1000 00:37:55,792 --> 00:37:57,125 ♪ 1001 00:37:57,208 --> 00:37:58,958 - I don't know. 1002 00:37:59,042 --> 00:38:00,750 ♪ 1003 00:38:05,000 --> 00:38:06,625 [upbeat music] 1004 00:38:06,708 --> 00:38:09,958 ♪ 1005 00:38:10,042 --> 00:38:11,708 - How's it going, guys? - Hi! 1006 00:38:11,708 --> 00:38:12,708 - You ready to go? 1007 00:38:12,792 --> 00:38:14,125 - Yes. 1008 00:38:14,208 --> 00:38:15,417 Ooh, I'm really excited for this. 1009 00:38:15,500 --> 00:38:17,750 The last time I talked to Orion, 1010 00:38:17,833 --> 00:38:20,667 I said that I wasn't going to be the first to reach out. 1011 00:38:20,708 --> 00:38:22,583 But I do want to give him his credit 1012 00:38:22,667 --> 00:38:24,833 and say that Orion invited me out 1013 00:38:24,917 --> 00:38:28,000 to have a little fun playing, like, dodgeball, 1014 00:38:28,125 --> 00:38:30,667 but with bow and arrows. 1015 00:38:30,750 --> 00:38:33,167 I feel like this is a really fun way 1016 00:38:33,167 --> 00:38:35,875 to take out some past aggression 1017 00:38:35,958 --> 00:38:39,000 and get a couple shots off of my ex-husband. 1018 00:38:39,042 --> 00:38:41,417 - On my whistle, you can run in, grab some arrows, 1019 00:38:41,500 --> 00:38:42,375 and we're ready to go. 1020 00:38:42,500 --> 00:38:44,667 All right. 3, 2, 1. 1021 00:38:44,750 --> 00:38:46,000 [whistle blows] 1022 00:38:46,083 --> 00:38:51,500 ♪ 1023 00:38:51,583 --> 00:38:52,417 - Oh. 1024 00:38:52,542 --> 00:38:53,667 - Oh, nice first shot. 1025 00:38:53,708 --> 00:38:54,958 - Oh! 1026 00:38:55,042 --> 00:38:56,917 ♪ 1027 00:38:57,000 --> 00:38:58,417 Oh, man! 1028 00:38:58,500 --> 00:39:00,167 - Coming for blood. 1029 00:39:00,250 --> 00:39:01,958 - You almost broke my glasses. 1030 00:39:02,042 --> 00:39:06,125 ♪ 1031 00:39:06,208 --> 00:39:07,333 Ooh! 1032 00:39:07,375 --> 00:39:10,000 Let me try that. 1033 00:39:10,083 --> 00:39:12,667 - Oh, there's a hit. 1034 00:39:12,750 --> 00:39:14,167 - Ooh, I think that's a second hit. 1035 00:39:14,250 --> 00:39:17,083 ♪ 1036 00:39:17,167 --> 00:39:18,667 - Oh, he got me. 1037 00:39:18,750 --> 00:39:20,708 ♪ 1038 00:39:20,833 --> 00:39:23,833 - 3, 2, 1. 1039 00:39:23,875 --> 00:39:25,250 [whistle blows] 1040 00:39:25,375 --> 00:39:27,208 - I'm so out of breath right now. 1041 00:39:27,292 --> 00:39:30,292 - I think I counted three hits on you and only one on her. 1042 00:39:30,375 --> 00:39:32,708 I think she might have you beat at some archery. 1043 00:39:32,792 --> 00:39:34,875 - Good game. There was one. 1044 00:39:34,958 --> 00:39:36,500 I think it was over here. 1045 00:39:36,583 --> 00:39:38,500 Like, zoom, just right past my head. 1046 00:39:38,583 --> 00:39:39,458 - Yeah, I was aiming for your head. 1047 00:39:39,458 --> 00:39:40,833 - Yeah. [laughs] 1048 00:39:40,958 --> 00:39:42,042 - All right, guys. Hopefully, you had some fun. 1049 00:39:42,125 --> 00:39:43,417 If you want to hang out, feel free. 1050 00:39:43,542 --> 00:39:44,583 I'll bring you guys some drinks. 1051 00:39:44,667 --> 00:39:45,667 - All right. Thank you so much. 1052 00:39:45,750 --> 00:39:47,167 - No problem. 1053 00:39:47,292 --> 00:39:48,333 - But this was fun. 1054 00:39:48,458 --> 00:39:49,333 Yeah, I really enjoyed this. 1055 00:39:49,458 --> 00:39:50,500 I'm not going to lie. 1056 00:39:50,625 --> 00:39:51,833 I did enjoy shooting you. [laughs] 1057 00:39:51,917 --> 00:39:53,125 - You got me right in the heart. 1058 00:39:53,208 --> 00:39:54,250 Yeah, that was in the chest. 1059 00:39:54,333 --> 00:39:55,958 - Perfect aim. 1060 00:39:56,042 --> 00:39:57,958 [both laugh] 1061 00:39:58,042 --> 00:40:00,583 - So how are you doing? 1062 00:40:00,708 --> 00:40:02,792 - I want you to know I'm doing really well. 1063 00:40:02,875 --> 00:40:07,708 Like, better than before I came into this process, 1064 00:40:07,833 --> 00:40:10,333 I think, just because it's like, yeah, 1065 00:40:10,417 --> 00:40:11,958 it didn't work out. 1066 00:40:12,042 --> 00:40:13,625 But let's look at the growth that came from it. 1067 00:40:13,708 --> 00:40:15,333 So-- 1068 00:40:15,375 --> 00:40:16,333 - It's kind of like the blessing or a lesson? 1069 00:40:16,375 --> 00:40:17,292 - Yeah. - Yeah. 1070 00:40:17,375 --> 00:40:18,792 - Yeah. 1071 00:40:18,875 --> 00:40:20,042 I thought it was a blessing and a lesson. 1072 00:40:20,167 --> 00:40:21,292 - Yeah? - I feel blessed. 1073 00:40:21,375 --> 00:40:22,833 - I would agree. I would agree. 1074 00:40:22,917 --> 00:40:24,958 It was definitely-- I definitely felt blessed. 1075 00:40:25,042 --> 00:40:27,333 But, you know, I got a hard lesson through it, so-- 1076 00:40:27,417 --> 00:40:29,958 but, you know, I mean, you know, 1077 00:40:30,042 --> 00:40:32,417 with that, you know, I am doing really good. 1078 00:40:32,500 --> 00:40:34,667 - Are you going to start dating soon? 1079 00:40:34,708 --> 00:40:36,250 Or have you been dating? 1080 00:40:36,333 --> 00:40:37,875 - I don't know. 1081 00:40:37,958 --> 00:40:40,250 I feel like I'm not quite done in this process with you. 1082 00:40:40,375 --> 00:40:43,000 ♪ 1083 00:40:43,083 --> 00:40:46,000 - So I'm a little confused. 1084 00:40:46,042 --> 00:40:49,917 Like, what--because I know we left off on, 1085 00:40:50,000 --> 00:40:52,250 yeah, let's--like, friendship is on the table. 1086 00:40:52,375 --> 00:40:55,333 But do you want to be more than friends? 1087 00:40:55,375 --> 00:40:59,167 - I have been thinking about that. 1088 00:40:59,208 --> 00:41:00,542 - OK, so that means yes. 1089 00:41:00,667 --> 00:41:01,958 - I'm kind of on board 1090 00:41:02,042 --> 00:41:04,875 to have the uncomfortable conversation. 1091 00:41:05,000 --> 00:41:08,375 Because I don't want to leave things unresolved. 1092 00:41:08,500 --> 00:41:10,833 I think that would-- 1093 00:41:10,917 --> 00:41:13,333 honestly, I think that would be a huge benefit, 1094 00:41:13,417 --> 00:41:14,875 just to talk about all of it. 1095 00:41:14,958 --> 00:41:17,000 And so there's not anything either one of us 1096 00:41:17,083 --> 00:41:18,917 is hanging on to. 1097 00:41:19,042 --> 00:41:20,667 - I don't really think I'm hanging onto anything. 1098 00:41:20,708 --> 00:41:25,500 But I guess we can discuss having that discussion. 1099 00:41:25,583 --> 00:41:27,583 - OK. Yeah. 1100 00:41:27,708 --> 00:41:29,875 I mean, I'm open for it. 1101 00:41:29,875 --> 00:41:32,667 ♪ 1102 00:41:32,750 --> 00:41:33,875 - OK. 1103 00:41:33,875 --> 00:41:36,583 ♪ 1104 00:41:36,667 --> 00:41:38,500 I don't know. I don't know. 1105 00:41:38,542 --> 00:41:40,458 I just got to see where I'm at with everything 1106 00:41:40,542 --> 00:41:43,333 and, like I said, how much effort 1107 00:41:43,417 --> 00:41:47,833 I want to expel to this dynamic at this point in my life-- 1108 00:41:47,875 --> 00:41:49,333 - Sure, sure. 1109 00:41:49,417 --> 00:41:51,083 - just because I feel like my effort 1110 00:41:51,167 --> 00:41:54,333 might be used elsewhere 1111 00:41:54,417 --> 00:41:56,917 and used better elsewhere right now. 1112 00:41:57,000 --> 00:41:58,917 I just don't know if it's going to be good. 1113 00:41:59,042 --> 00:42:01,208 ♪ 1114 00:42:01,333 --> 00:42:04,458 [upbeat music] 1115 00:42:04,542 --> 00:42:11,000 ♪ 1116 00:42:12,125 --> 00:42:15,000 [line ringing] 1117 00:42:15,083 --> 00:42:16,375 - Yeah? 1118 00:42:16,458 --> 00:42:18,000 - Hey, what's up, guy? 1119 00:42:18,083 --> 00:42:20,792 Last time we were together, I would say 1120 00:42:20,875 --> 00:42:23,417 that was pretty much like a shootout. 1121 00:42:23,500 --> 00:42:25,333 So how are you feeling after that conversation? 1122 00:42:25,417 --> 00:42:27,833 I know you kind of bounced early and everything, so... 1123 00:42:27,875 --> 00:42:29,833 - I would have preferred a standoff. 1124 00:42:29,875 --> 00:42:32,958 But you're right, it was more of a shootout. 1125 00:42:33,042 --> 00:42:34,750 I mean, there were a few things that, you know, that 1126 00:42:34,875 --> 00:42:39,000 kicked me off to begin with, where, you know, the whole-- 1127 00:42:39,042 --> 00:42:41,750 thing of saying there's a theme of the men silencing 1128 00:42:41,833 --> 00:42:45,125 the women, which definitely, 1129 00:42:45,208 --> 00:42:48,917 for lack of a better description, triggered me. 1130 00:42:49,000 --> 00:42:51,208 Because throughout my marriage, 1131 00:42:51,333 --> 00:42:54,750 there was literally never once ever said to Clare, 1132 00:42:54,833 --> 00:42:56,500 you can't say this, you can't do that, 1133 00:42:56,542 --> 00:42:58,167 you can't anything, right? 1134 00:42:58,292 --> 00:43:02,833 It's always been, please, make sure you express yourself. 1135 00:43:02,917 --> 00:43:07,500 And watching Clare kind of be Emily's puppet master-- 1136 00:43:07,583 --> 00:43:09,000 - Mm-hmm. 1137 00:43:09,042 --> 00:43:12,667 - Where everything Emily was doing 1138 00:43:12,750 --> 00:43:16,917 was being coordinated by Clare. 1139 00:43:17,000 --> 00:43:19,000 And it all clicked for me that 1140 00:43:19,042 --> 00:43:22,167 that could've been my entire marriage. 1141 00:43:22,292 --> 00:43:25,000 And every step of the way, 1142 00:43:25,083 --> 00:43:28,500 Clare had lied to me to try and get 1143 00:43:28,542 --> 00:43:31,000 some type of reaction out of me. 1144 00:43:31,042 --> 00:43:36,667 I'm now very glad that I'm divorcing Clare. 1145 00:43:36,750 --> 00:43:38,875 And frankly, I really have no intentions 1146 00:43:38,958 --> 00:43:40,750 of ever speaking to her again. 1147 00:43:40,875 --> 00:43:43,042 - Oh, [bleep]. - Anyway, sorry. 1148 00:43:43,125 --> 00:43:44,500 That's-- 1149 00:43:44,542 --> 00:43:45,833 - Hey, I'm here for you to vent. 1150 00:43:45,958 --> 00:43:47,167 I'm here for you to vent. 1151 00:43:47,250 --> 00:43:48,500 So please feel free. 1152 00:43:48,542 --> 00:43:49,750 - Gotta get some of my questions. 1153 00:43:49,833 --> 00:43:51,333 I got to get some questions in too. 1154 00:43:51,375 --> 00:43:52,500 - What's on your mind there? 1155 00:43:52,542 --> 00:43:54,333 - All I've heard through the grapevine 1156 00:43:54,375 --> 00:43:55,833 is, like, you guys are doing better 1157 00:43:55,917 --> 00:43:58,208 than some of the other couples, right? 1158 00:43:58,292 --> 00:44:02,125 - I will validate what the grapevine has whispered 1159 00:44:02,208 --> 00:44:05,458 to you, that throughout this journey, 1160 00:44:05,542 --> 00:44:08,167 things have been primarily really good. 1161 00:44:08,250 --> 00:44:09,708 - That's awesome. 1162 00:44:09,833 --> 00:44:11,792 - I think for me, what I'm trying to sort through 1163 00:44:11,875 --> 00:44:14,917 in terms of, you know, figuring out where I'm going to land 1164 00:44:14,917 --> 00:44:17,583 on Decision Day is just how I feel 1165 00:44:17,708 --> 00:44:19,500 about my own emotional growth. 1166 00:44:19,583 --> 00:44:22,375 How do I feel about my readiness, 1167 00:44:22,458 --> 00:44:27,208 willingness, and ability to continue in a marriage? 1168 00:44:27,292 --> 00:44:29,833 Which I'm just in a space right now where I'm, you know, 1169 00:44:29,875 --> 00:44:32,583 navigating those emotions so that I can come 1170 00:44:32,583 --> 00:44:35,083 into Decision Day with a very clear answer 1171 00:44:35,167 --> 00:44:38,167 and a clear understanding of how I feel. 1172 00:44:38,208 --> 00:44:39,667 - Yeah. 1173 00:44:39,708 --> 00:44:42,500 I mean, you have to understand that that's-- 1174 00:44:42,625 --> 00:44:44,792 that begs a lot of questions. 1175 00:44:44,875 --> 00:44:46,875 One thing I might be thinking about 1176 00:44:46,958 --> 00:44:48,833 if I was in your position, like, how do we actually 1177 00:44:48,917 --> 00:44:52,750 fit into each other's, like, long-term lives 1178 00:44:52,833 --> 00:44:54,667 and lifestyles? 1179 00:44:54,750 --> 00:44:57,167 - I think for me, it's specifically how I'm feeling. 1180 00:44:57,208 --> 00:44:59,708 Do I feel like I'm coming out the other end, 1181 00:44:59,792 --> 00:45:03,833 you know, in an emotional place to continue to foster 1182 00:45:03,875 --> 00:45:07,208 not just a marriage, but this marriage? 1183 00:45:07,292 --> 00:45:10,792 - You might consider saying, hey, you know, 1184 00:45:10,875 --> 00:45:13,708 let's maybe, you know, 1185 00:45:13,792 --> 00:45:17,333 be less serious about the marriage 1186 00:45:17,417 --> 00:45:20,792 after this experience to kind of make sure that 1187 00:45:20,875 --> 00:45:22,417 the seriousness of the marriage 1188 00:45:22,542 --> 00:45:25,500 is organic and comes back naturally. 1189 00:45:25,583 --> 00:45:29,667 - For me, kind of the mindset is, you know, it's not asking, 1190 00:45:29,750 --> 00:45:31,167 do you want to continue to date? 1191 00:45:31,208 --> 00:45:33,375 It's asking, do you want to still continue 1192 00:45:33,458 --> 00:45:34,833 to work on this marriage, 1193 00:45:34,958 --> 00:45:36,750 which means a lot to me. 1194 00:45:36,875 --> 00:45:38,833 - You want to focus on, 1195 00:45:38,875 --> 00:45:40,083 are we over the goal line, 1196 00:45:40,167 --> 00:45:41,417 or have we come up a yard short? 1197 00:45:41,500 --> 00:45:43,333 - Exactly. Exactly. 1198 00:45:43,375 --> 00:45:45,875 - You know, if I was in your position and I was with 1199 00:45:45,958 --> 00:45:48,875 someone--if I was with someone who, you know, 1200 00:45:48,958 --> 00:45:51,250 we got along well, like, I liked them, 1201 00:45:51,333 --> 00:45:55,292 you know, there's more of each other that we can explore, 1202 00:45:55,375 --> 00:45:57,875 I'm the kind of person who's going to be like, 1203 00:45:57,958 --> 00:46:02,208 well, I'm going to say yes no matter what. 1204 00:46:02,292 --> 00:46:04,417 - Look, man, I want to go into Decision Day. 1205 00:46:04,500 --> 00:46:05,917 Leading up to it, I want to have 1206 00:46:06,042 --> 00:46:09,167 all the tools I can to make the best decision possible. 1207 00:46:09,250 --> 00:46:11,417 So I really do appreciate your thoughts there. 1208 00:46:11,500 --> 00:46:13,375 - Yeah, of course. 1209 00:46:13,458 --> 00:46:16,292 And any time before or any time after, you know, 1210 00:46:16,375 --> 00:46:18,875 you want to chat, you know, hit me up. 1211 00:46:18,958 --> 00:46:21,417 I definitely don't envy you, honestly. 1212 00:46:21,500 --> 00:46:23,292 - [laughs] 1213 00:46:23,375 --> 00:46:24,833 - Because the fact that you guys are still trying to, like, 1214 00:46:25,000 --> 00:46:28,167 work it out, that actually makes it really, really hard. 1215 00:46:28,292 --> 00:46:30,833 ♪ 1216 00:46:34,708 --> 00:46:36,000 [upbeat music] 1217 00:46:36,042 --> 00:46:42,875 ♪ 1218 00:46:46,208 --> 00:46:49,167 - Oh. [laughs] 1219 00:46:49,250 --> 00:46:50,708 - It's a cute setup, right? - Oh. 1220 00:46:50,792 --> 00:46:53,042 That is so sweet. 1221 00:46:55,542 --> 00:46:57,500 - I wanted to bring Chloe here to the beer spa 1222 00:46:57,583 --> 00:47:00,125 for our one-month anniversary, because this past week 1223 00:47:00,208 --> 00:47:02,833 we've really had to envision what our future looks like, 1224 00:47:02,875 --> 00:47:04,167 which can, you know, be a little stressful. 1225 00:47:04,333 --> 00:47:06,292 So what I was thinking is like, oh, 1226 00:47:06,375 --> 00:47:08,875 it's really nice to kind of just take a moment. 1227 00:47:08,958 --> 00:47:10,542 Just relax and reflect. 1228 00:47:10,625 --> 00:47:11,875 I'm going to get naked. - Oh. 1229 00:47:11,958 --> 00:47:13,458 - I need to get naked. - Are you? 1230 00:47:13,542 --> 00:47:14,792 - Yes. 1231 00:47:14,875 --> 00:47:15,875 Even if it's only going to reduce 1232 00:47:15,958 --> 00:47:17,917 my temperature by a fraction. 1233 00:47:18,042 --> 00:47:20,375 - [laughs] - [grunts] 1234 00:47:20,500 --> 00:47:23,750 - Oh, oh, oh, wring those out. 1235 00:47:23,875 --> 00:47:25,500 Dang. 1236 00:47:25,583 --> 00:47:26,875 - Oh, god, I feel so much better. 1237 00:47:26,958 --> 00:47:29,375 - It feels like you would. 1238 00:47:29,458 --> 00:47:31,167 - Wide open right now. 1239 00:47:31,208 --> 00:47:34,500 - Me next. Just kidding. Just kidding. 1240 00:47:34,583 --> 00:47:40,167 I feel happy and peaceful 1241 00:47:40,250 --> 00:47:43,750 and, like, this is probably 1242 00:47:43,875 --> 00:47:46,500 the healthiest relationship I've ever been in 1243 00:47:46,542 --> 00:47:50,000 in my entire life. 1244 00:47:50,083 --> 00:47:53,750 - I feel very fond of the person in front of me. 1245 00:47:53,875 --> 00:47:58,917 And, like, I've had a taste of what it's like 1246 00:47:59,000 --> 00:48:02,792 to have someone who will perpetually and unequivocally 1247 00:48:02,917 --> 00:48:05,750 have your back. 1248 00:48:05,833 --> 00:48:07,792 - That's beautiful. 1249 00:48:07,875 --> 00:48:10,542 Is there anything that you wanted 1250 00:48:10,625 --> 00:48:12,167 and you feel like you didn't get? 1251 00:48:12,167 --> 00:48:13,833 Or is there anything that you got 1252 00:48:13,917 --> 00:48:15,875 that you didn't really want? 1253 00:48:16,000 --> 00:48:19,500 - If you would have asked me, hey, 1254 00:48:19,583 --> 00:48:22,042 we want to set you up with a woman that wants to start up 1255 00:48:22,167 --> 00:48:23,958 a sanctuary, I probably wouldn't have been like, 1256 00:48:24,042 --> 00:48:25,417 you know what? - That's what I want to do. 1257 00:48:25,542 --> 00:48:26,875 - That's what I want. 1258 00:48:26,958 --> 00:48:28,750 But I didn't actively call out, hey, 1259 00:48:28,833 --> 00:48:31,375 no animal sanctuaries, [bleep] damn it. 1260 00:48:31,500 --> 00:48:33,375 And at the very least, I do love animals. 1261 00:48:33,458 --> 00:48:34,667 So yeah. 1262 00:48:34,708 --> 00:48:35,833 - OK. 1263 00:48:35,917 --> 00:48:37,542 That makes sense. - How about you? 1264 00:48:37,542 --> 00:48:40,625 Was there anything you asked for and did not receive 1265 00:48:40,708 --> 00:48:45,250 and something that you received that you were like, ah, 1266 00:48:45,333 --> 00:48:46,708 if you would have told me, I probably would have said, 1267 00:48:46,833 --> 00:48:49,000 I don't want that. 1268 00:48:49,083 --> 00:48:51,250 - You know, the thing with me is 1269 00:48:51,333 --> 00:48:55,875 I came into this process asking for an empathetic man 1270 00:48:55,958 --> 00:48:57,333 who wanted to love me harder 1271 00:48:57,458 --> 00:48:59,750 than he's ever loved anyone before. 1272 00:48:59,875 --> 00:49:01,750 - What'd he look like? 1273 00:49:01,875 --> 00:49:03,833 - Ironically enough, I asked specifically 1274 00:49:03,917 --> 00:49:06,333 for a 6'3" man bun with yoga muscles 1275 00:49:06,458 --> 00:49:08,292 that I met in the Whole Foods produce section. 1276 00:49:08,375 --> 00:49:09,667 - OK. 1277 00:49:09,750 --> 00:49:10,833 - You're coming in at a hot 5'11". 1278 00:49:10,875 --> 00:49:12,292 - Sure. 1279 00:49:12,375 --> 00:49:13,375 - You got that hair tied up in a bun. 1280 00:49:13,458 --> 00:49:14,833 - I do. 1281 00:49:14,875 --> 00:49:16,458 - We have a Whole Foods beneath us. 1282 00:49:16,542 --> 00:49:19,375 I feel like we can work out this fantasy. 1283 00:49:19,500 --> 00:49:21,167 - Yoga muscles? 1284 00:49:21,250 --> 00:49:24,375 - Yoga muscles, boxing muscles. 1285 00:49:24,500 --> 00:49:26,333 I'll meet you in the squash, baby. 1286 00:49:26,458 --> 00:49:29,458 - Mm. - [laughs] 1287 00:49:29,542 --> 00:49:34,000 Do you feel like we are on the trajectory where we're going 1288 00:49:34,125 --> 00:49:37,417 to start feeling like we are each other's person 1289 00:49:37,542 --> 00:49:40,833 and throwing around that L word? 1290 00:49:40,875 --> 00:49:43,833 - Oh, do I think we're in a trajectory to be in love? 1291 00:49:43,875 --> 00:49:45,583 Is that what you're asking me? - That's what I'm asking. 1292 00:49:45,708 --> 00:49:49,167 - Yeah, I think we can grow at it at our own pace 1293 00:49:49,208 --> 00:49:51,083 and still be at it in a place we're saying, 1294 00:49:51,167 --> 00:49:52,833 no, we're on a trajectory of where 1295 00:49:52,875 --> 00:49:55,000 we could one day be in love. 1296 00:49:55,042 --> 00:49:58,000 - Cool. OK. 1297 00:49:58,083 --> 00:50:00,917 I want to make sure that we are aligned. 1298 00:50:01,042 --> 00:50:05,375 So if Decision Day was tomorrow-- 1299 00:50:05,458 --> 00:50:07,167 - What would I say? - What would you say? 1300 00:50:07,250 --> 00:50:09,208 - Aw. 1301 00:50:09,333 --> 00:50:12,167 Well, I would say that I feel that we're trending 1302 00:50:12,292 --> 00:50:14,750 in the positive direction towards a yes. 1303 00:50:14,833 --> 00:50:17,667 What I would need to say yes 1304 00:50:17,750 --> 00:50:22,083 is just feel like that we've not only solidified 1305 00:50:22,167 --> 00:50:23,917 and created an emotional connection, 1306 00:50:24,000 --> 00:50:27,542 which I think we did, but we've sustained it and progressed it 1307 00:50:27,625 --> 00:50:31,125 to a degree not just where I would say like, 1308 00:50:31,208 --> 00:50:33,375 I want to continue dating you, because it's not dating, 1309 00:50:33,500 --> 00:50:37,042 you know, but that I want to continue in this marriage, 1310 00:50:37,125 --> 00:50:40,250 which I think is, like, a significant level up. 1311 00:50:40,333 --> 00:50:42,667 That's what I would say I need. 1312 00:50:42,708 --> 00:50:44,208 - Oh. 1313 00:50:44,292 --> 00:50:46,875 I think I might be kind of hearing a little bit 1314 00:50:46,958 --> 00:50:51,000 that if Decision Day was tomorrow, 1315 00:50:51,083 --> 00:50:53,417 you might be feeling like it's a no. 1316 00:50:53,542 --> 00:50:58,167 - I would be feeling like I have insufficient data. 1317 00:50:58,208 --> 00:51:01,500 - Thank you for being honest about that. 1318 00:51:01,583 --> 00:51:03,500 ♪ 1319 00:51:03,542 --> 00:51:05,042 Happy one monthiversary. 1320 00:51:05,042 --> 00:51:07,708 ♪ 1321 00:51:11,750 --> 00:51:12,708 - ♪ New levels 1322 00:51:12,708 --> 00:51:13,417 ♪ New heights 1323 00:51:13,417 --> 00:51:14,875 ♪ Yeah, I'm flying high 1324 00:51:14,875 --> 00:51:16,125 ♪ Push the pedal to the metal ♪ 1325 00:51:16,208 --> 00:51:17,958 ♪ Yeah, it's time to shine 1326 00:51:18,042 --> 00:51:21,708 ♪ 1327 00:51:21,833 --> 00:51:22,833 - Hello. 1328 00:51:22,875 --> 00:51:24,250 - Hi. 1329 00:51:24,375 --> 00:51:25,792 - I'm Becca. - Nice to meet you. 1330 00:51:25,875 --> 00:51:26,875 I'm Monica. - Emily. 1331 00:51:26,958 --> 00:51:27,958 Nice to meet you. 1332 00:51:28,042 --> 00:51:29,625 - Nice to meet you, Emily. 1333 00:51:29,708 --> 00:51:31,542 Have you gotten your aura photos done before? 1334 00:51:31,625 --> 00:51:33,167 - Never. 1335 00:51:33,292 --> 00:51:34,417 - No, I have actually never-- which is really exciting 1336 00:51:34,500 --> 00:51:35,917 because I'm very much into, like, 1337 00:51:36,000 --> 00:51:37,458 the supernatural stuff. 1338 00:51:37,542 --> 00:51:39,208 - Awesome. 1339 00:51:39,292 --> 00:51:41,333 This will be a really great and fun experience for you both. 1340 00:51:41,375 --> 00:51:43,000 - We wanted to get an aura reading today 1341 00:51:43,042 --> 00:51:45,000 because me and Emily are dealing with 1342 00:51:45,083 --> 00:51:46,417 the end of our marriages. 1343 00:51:46,542 --> 00:51:49,500 - We're about to embark on a personal growth 1344 00:51:49,583 --> 00:51:51,083 discovery journey. 1345 00:51:51,208 --> 00:51:54,042 - That's an underestimation. - Yeah. 1346 00:51:54,125 --> 00:51:56,250 - Energetically, I've had a difficult time 1347 00:51:56,333 --> 00:51:59,125 finding my grounding during this entire process 1348 00:51:59,208 --> 00:52:03,250 and doubting myself. 1349 00:52:03,333 --> 00:52:06,708 And I think being aware of what your energy is 1350 00:52:06,792 --> 00:52:11,333 and where you are in the world spiritually is important. 1351 00:52:11,458 --> 00:52:15,583 I think Emily feels the same. 1352 00:52:15,708 --> 00:52:17,500 - Are we ready for our aura photos? 1353 00:52:17,542 --> 00:52:18,792 - Yes. - Great. 1354 00:52:18,875 --> 00:52:21,375 So as a psychic medium, 1355 00:52:21,458 --> 00:52:24,375 what can happen is your guides come in. 1356 00:52:24,458 --> 00:52:27,000 I connect with your guides. I also connect with my guides. 1357 00:52:27,125 --> 00:52:29,167 And so I'll pull in their energy. 1358 00:52:29,208 --> 00:52:32,333 I'll start with Becca, since we took your photo first. 1359 00:52:32,417 --> 00:52:35,042 So that one's ready to go. 1360 00:52:35,167 --> 00:52:36,958 - Pretty. 1361 00:52:36,958 --> 00:52:39,958 - So yeah, super cool energy, 1362 00:52:40,042 --> 00:52:44,125 really deep red auric field right here. 1363 00:52:44,208 --> 00:52:47,833 And so this is the energy that you feel inside 1364 00:52:47,917 --> 00:52:51,167 but also how people kind of feel around you as well. 1365 00:52:51,208 --> 00:52:54,500 So a lot of people feel very safe with you. 1366 00:52:54,583 --> 00:52:57,375 And it is a very nurturing type of energy. 1367 00:52:57,458 --> 00:53:00,833 You're so thoughtful and so empathetic 1368 00:53:00,917 --> 00:53:05,333 that it would be good for you to see how much you give 1369 00:53:05,375 --> 00:53:07,250 and how much you receive in the relationship. 1370 00:53:07,333 --> 00:53:11,000 So try not to overcompensate 1371 00:53:11,042 --> 00:53:12,917 by overgiving too much 1372 00:53:13,000 --> 00:53:14,708 and allowing yourself to receive. 1373 00:53:14,792 --> 00:53:16,792 And don't feel like you can't ask for help. 1374 00:53:16,875 --> 00:53:18,333 - Yeah. 1375 00:53:18,417 --> 00:53:20,792 - And speaking your truth is very important to you. 1376 00:53:20,875 --> 00:53:22,125 So does that make sense? 1377 00:53:22,208 --> 00:53:23,292 - Yeah. 1378 00:53:23,417 --> 00:53:24,333 Wow. 1379 00:53:24,417 --> 00:53:26,083 I feel like that's spot on. 1380 00:53:26,167 --> 00:53:27,500 - All right. 1381 00:53:27,583 --> 00:53:28,750 - I'm excited to see yours. 1382 00:53:28,833 --> 00:53:30,167 - Yours is pretty cool too. 1383 00:53:30,208 --> 00:53:31,167 - [gasps] Oh, my gosh. 1384 00:53:31,208 --> 00:53:32,042 - You guys are so similar. 1385 00:53:32,125 --> 00:53:33,625 - I know. 1386 00:53:33,708 --> 00:53:35,542 - Even though you share very similar energy, 1387 00:53:35,542 --> 00:53:38,333 there's a different message with yours, which is cool. 1388 00:53:38,417 --> 00:53:42,625 So you can see how deep your red auric field is around 1389 00:53:42,708 --> 00:53:44,833 your aura of protection. 1390 00:53:44,917 --> 00:53:49,667 So this to me is saying that you know who you are. 1391 00:53:49,708 --> 00:53:52,708 You're not apologetic for who you are. 1392 00:53:52,792 --> 00:53:56,042 You live life the way you want to live it, 1393 00:53:56,167 --> 00:53:58,083 and you embrace that. 1394 00:53:58,167 --> 00:54:00,083 And that's a really beautiful thing. 1395 00:54:00,167 --> 00:54:03,125 There's something about this because 1396 00:54:03,208 --> 00:54:05,875 it feels to me very hot and heavy energy 1397 00:54:05,958 --> 00:54:07,042 when you all got together. 1398 00:54:07,125 --> 00:54:08,250 - When who got together? 1399 00:54:08,333 --> 00:54:10,875 - You and your person. 1400 00:54:10,958 --> 00:54:13,917 Like it was all like, you know, when you have 1401 00:54:14,000 --> 00:54:15,750 like a grade school crush, you're just like... 1402 00:54:15,833 --> 00:54:18,208 [squeals] You know? 1403 00:54:18,333 --> 00:54:20,292 Like, it's very infatuating. 1404 00:54:20,375 --> 00:54:23,083 And then whenever you all actually, like, 1405 00:54:23,167 --> 00:54:26,208 cohabitate together, it was, like, 1406 00:54:26,292 --> 00:54:29,125 this huge energy shift. 1407 00:54:29,208 --> 00:54:30,833 It was like, what happened? 1408 00:54:30,917 --> 00:54:32,750 - I think she was very spot on about my relationship 1409 00:54:32,833 --> 00:54:34,333 with Brennan. 1410 00:54:34,417 --> 00:54:37,292 Like, it was kind of intense in the beginning, 1411 00:54:37,375 --> 00:54:39,333 hot and heavy, whatever you want to call it. 1412 00:54:39,375 --> 00:54:40,875 It just felt, like, too good to be true. 1413 00:54:40,875 --> 00:54:42,667 And then when we moved in together, 1414 00:54:42,708 --> 00:54:44,833 stuff immediately went to [bleep]. 1415 00:54:44,875 --> 00:54:47,333 But I think that's a pretty powerful 1416 00:54:47,417 --> 00:54:49,000 validating statement to hear. 1417 00:54:49,042 --> 00:54:51,667 And I do feel, like, motivated coming out of this. 1418 00:54:51,708 --> 00:54:54,917 Yep, that was me. [laughter] 1419 00:54:55,042 --> 00:54:56,417 That was me to a T. 1420 00:54:56,542 --> 00:54:58,167 - And that's OK, you know? 1421 00:54:58,250 --> 00:55:00,958 You are very powerful, magnetic, 1422 00:55:01,042 --> 00:55:02,542 caring, loving people. 1423 00:55:02,667 --> 00:55:04,458 And so you deserve the same. 1424 00:55:04,542 --> 00:55:06,167 - That's good. - That's helpful. 1425 00:55:06,250 --> 00:55:07,542 - Yeah. - [sighs] 1426 00:55:07,625 --> 00:55:09,833 [laughter] 1427 00:55:09,917 --> 00:55:11,458 It's hard. 1428 00:55:11,542 --> 00:55:12,333 We don't always know if we made the right-- 1429 00:55:12,417 --> 00:55:13,708 I mean, you know if you-- 1430 00:55:13,792 --> 00:55:14,875 I know you made the right decision. 1431 00:55:15,000 --> 00:55:16,458 I'm not really sure if I made the right decision. 1432 00:55:16,542 --> 00:55:18,042 - I think yours was very spot on, though. 1433 00:55:18,125 --> 00:55:19,875 - Yeah. Yeah. 1434 00:55:19,958 --> 00:55:21,000 Yeah. 1435 00:55:21,042 --> 00:55:23,292 I don't--yeah. - Mm-hmm. 1436 00:55:23,375 --> 00:55:26,042 - I have had a lot of self-doubt 1437 00:55:26,125 --> 00:55:28,750 as to what my responsibility has been 1438 00:55:28,750 --> 00:55:31,000 in the ending of our relationship. 1439 00:55:31,083 --> 00:55:34,833 Maybe in six months, I finally will feel healed and move on. 1440 00:55:34,917 --> 00:55:36,667 But for right now, like, 1441 00:55:36,708 --> 00:55:39,042 I don't know if I made the right decision. 1442 00:55:39,125 --> 00:55:42,417 ♪ 1443 00:55:42,500 --> 00:55:44,958 - ♪ Just pull me out of this deep water ♪ 1444 00:55:49,083 --> 00:55:50,917 - ♪ Pressure is a paradise 1445 00:55:50,917 --> 00:55:54,042 ♪ Pressure is a paradise 1446 00:55:54,125 --> 00:55:56,833 - Come on, sweetheart. Hi, darling. 1447 00:55:56,875 --> 00:55:58,375 Are you ready? 1448 00:55:58,458 --> 00:56:00,750 See what Dr. Pia has to say this time around? 1449 00:56:00,833 --> 00:56:02,958 - Are you? 1450 00:56:02,958 --> 00:56:04,875 - A little nervous to see what happens today. 1451 00:56:05,000 --> 00:56:06,208 - You scared of her? 1452 00:56:06,292 --> 00:56:10,000 - Not scared. Just on edge. 1453 00:56:10,083 --> 00:56:11,583 - Ah. - On edge. 1454 00:56:11,667 --> 00:56:14,833 - I think it'll be all right. 1455 00:56:14,875 --> 00:56:16,208 - I have no idea where Michael and I are at, 1456 00:56:16,333 --> 00:56:17,500 if you want the truth. 1457 00:56:17,583 --> 00:56:18,792 I thought we were doing great. 1458 00:56:18,875 --> 00:56:20,917 - Hello. - Hey. 1459 00:56:21,000 --> 00:56:22,417 - Hi. How are you? 1460 00:56:22,500 --> 00:56:23,833 - Good. How are you? 1461 00:56:23,875 --> 00:56:26,542 - You know, we are at our one monthiversary. 1462 00:56:26,625 --> 00:56:29,542 And pose the question, if tomorrow's Decision Day, 1463 00:56:29,625 --> 00:56:31,167 how would you feel? 1464 00:56:31,250 --> 00:56:32,833 And Michael said, I don't know. 1465 00:56:32,917 --> 00:56:35,458 And so all the things that I thought were going well 1466 00:56:35,542 --> 00:56:38,000 and now I'm like, well, I don't even know. 1467 00:56:38,042 --> 00:56:40,333 I really don't. 1468 00:56:40,417 --> 00:56:41,542 - All right. So fill me in. 1469 00:56:41,667 --> 00:56:43,625 How have things been since we last met? 1470 00:56:43,708 --> 00:56:45,250 - I think our general consensus, 1471 00:56:45,375 --> 00:56:46,833 at least at the moment, is, you know, 1472 00:56:46,917 --> 00:56:48,375 we've been very fortunate that there hasn't been 1473 00:56:48,500 --> 00:56:50,667 a lot of misalignment when it comes 1474 00:56:50,750 --> 00:56:52,583 to values and perspectives. - Yeah. 1475 00:56:52,667 --> 00:56:55,500 - So we really haven't had to invest too much time, like, 1476 00:56:55,625 --> 00:56:57,500 working through any of that. 1477 00:56:57,583 --> 00:57:00,000 Like, for example, like, things like what would budgeting 1478 00:57:00,125 --> 00:57:02,667 look like or what would a potential living situation 1479 00:57:02,750 --> 00:57:05,458 look like, you know, those conversations, 1480 00:57:05,458 --> 00:57:07,042 we're pretty aligned on. 1481 00:57:07,125 --> 00:57:09,083 - How is family situation? 1482 00:57:09,167 --> 00:57:10,458 Have you all thought about, like, how you might 1483 00:57:10,542 --> 00:57:12,500 merge your families together? 1484 00:57:12,542 --> 00:57:14,292 - I was fortunate enough, like, at our wedding, 1485 00:57:14,292 --> 00:57:15,833 to meet her mother. 1486 00:57:15,875 --> 00:57:17,333 So I was very intentional of like getting to spend 1487 00:57:17,417 --> 00:57:19,167 a little bit of time with her. 1488 00:57:19,250 --> 00:57:22,500 You know, unfortunately for me, like, my mom wasn't there. 1489 00:57:22,583 --> 00:57:24,583 But, you know, we've had conversations 1490 00:57:24,667 --> 00:57:27,667 about, you know, when I think that that might be 1491 00:57:27,708 --> 00:57:30,333 a good time to introduce her to my mom and, like, 1492 00:57:30,375 --> 00:57:31,833 what that dynamic-- - Wait. Pause. 1493 00:57:31,875 --> 00:57:34,333 Did you say introduce, as in you have not met his mom yet? 1494 00:57:34,417 --> 00:57:36,667 - No. - Oh. 1495 00:57:36,750 --> 00:57:38,333 Does she know you're married? 1496 00:57:38,375 --> 00:57:39,667 - No, she doesn't know I'm married. 1497 00:57:39,667 --> 00:57:41,583 - OK. - She doesn't know I'm married. 1498 00:57:41,667 --> 00:57:44,333 She hasn't been included to this point 1499 00:57:44,375 --> 00:57:46,417 because, for me, I want to include her 1500 00:57:46,500 --> 00:57:49,208 after Decision Day, if that makes sense. 1501 00:57:49,292 --> 00:57:51,292 - It doesn't. Help me. Help me make it make sense. 1502 00:57:51,375 --> 00:57:52,333 Because if you want to include her, 1503 00:57:52,417 --> 00:57:53,875 but she hasn't been included. 1504 00:57:53,958 --> 00:57:58,500 - I also want to say that I've encouraged this mindset. 1505 00:57:58,542 --> 00:58:02,167 Because there's just no reason to elevate 1506 00:58:02,250 --> 00:58:06,208 feelings of anxiety and frustration and confusion-- 1507 00:58:06,292 --> 00:58:07,917 - OK. - If we don't have to. 1508 00:58:08,000 --> 00:58:10,625 - I am respecting that this is a decision that the two of you 1509 00:58:10,708 --> 00:58:11,833 have made, especially, you. 1510 00:58:11,917 --> 00:58:13,750 This is your mom. - Right. 1511 00:58:13,875 --> 00:58:18,042 - So I'm curious if there are any doubts that either of you 1512 00:58:18,125 --> 00:58:20,542 or both of you are having that, for instance, 1513 00:58:20,625 --> 00:58:23,333 might impact your decision to, you know, introduce mom 1514 00:58:23,417 --> 00:58:25,500 or might impact your decision to, like, 1515 00:58:25,542 --> 00:58:29,292 think about the future and planning future? 1516 00:58:29,375 --> 00:58:31,583 - So for me, my doubt or concern is, 1517 00:58:31,708 --> 00:58:33,458 how is this going to progress? 1518 00:58:33,542 --> 00:58:34,708 Like, we're now starting to broach the topic 1519 00:58:34,792 --> 00:58:37,125 of, like, after Decision Day. 1520 00:58:37,208 --> 00:58:38,458 - Tell me a little bit more about what those conversations 1521 00:58:38,542 --> 00:58:40,292 have been like. 1522 00:58:40,375 --> 00:58:43,000 - Yeah, so we were talking at a high level of like, OK, well, 1523 00:58:43,083 --> 00:58:46,750 how soon should we be moving in together? 1524 00:58:46,833 --> 00:58:51,708 Like, our leases end, like, six months apart. 1525 00:58:51,792 --> 00:58:54,458 So kind of understanding, OK, well, in that meantime, 1526 00:58:54,542 --> 00:58:56,292 like, are we still just-- are we just going 1527 00:58:56,375 --> 00:59:00,667 to have our own space until the respective leases are over? 1528 00:59:00,750 --> 00:59:04,375 You know, those kind of conversations. 1529 00:59:04,458 --> 00:59:07,625 - I don't think it's going to be a good idea 1530 00:59:07,708 --> 00:59:09,583 to be living separately. 1531 00:59:09,667 --> 00:59:12,417 That's where I'm like, OK, let's challenge here. 1532 00:59:12,500 --> 00:59:14,333 Because if y'all are married, 1533 00:59:14,417 --> 00:59:15,917 this isn't dating anymore, right? 1534 00:59:16,042 --> 00:59:17,375 And so if we're talking about, like, 1535 00:59:17,458 --> 00:59:19,125 how do we have things be successful? 1536 00:59:19,208 --> 00:59:20,917 Help me understand why there's a conversation of, 1537 00:59:21,000 --> 00:59:22,542 When will it be right for us to move in, 1538 00:59:22,625 --> 00:59:24,792 versus, OK, whose place are we moving into, 1539 00:59:24,875 --> 00:59:26,958 or are we getting a new place? 1540 00:59:27,042 --> 00:59:28,875 - Well, number one, I've never been married before. 1541 00:59:29,000 --> 00:59:30,417 So, you know, I'm trying to just better 1542 00:59:30,500 --> 00:59:32,167 understand how this all feels. 1543 00:59:32,208 --> 00:59:36,500 And really, I'm just trying to hone in on my emotions. 1544 00:59:36,583 --> 00:59:38,875 And so there's so many levels to it. 1545 00:59:38,875 --> 00:59:40,292 Like, the first part I established, 1546 00:59:40,375 --> 00:59:41,375 like, do I like Chloe? 1547 00:59:41,500 --> 00:59:42,500 Yes. 1548 00:59:42,542 --> 00:59:43,667 I do like Chloe. 1549 00:59:43,750 --> 00:59:44,833 We have that covered, you know? 1550 00:59:44,958 --> 00:59:46,458 Do I like spending time with her? 1551 00:59:46,542 --> 00:59:48,083 I go through--it's this categorical checklist. 1552 00:59:48,167 --> 00:59:49,708 And then as you get closer to like, 1553 00:59:49,792 --> 00:59:52,417 OK, do I want to be with her? 1554 00:59:52,500 --> 00:59:53,500 Yes, I want to be with her. 1555 00:59:53,500 --> 00:59:55,542 Do I want to stay married? 1556 00:59:55,542 --> 00:59:57,667 Like, those are those areas where it's like, 1557 00:59:57,750 --> 01:00:00,000 I know what I want to feel. 1558 01:00:00,083 --> 01:00:04,542 And I'm trusting that I will, or as best as I can, 1559 01:00:04,625 --> 01:00:06,792 when that day comes. 1560 01:00:06,875 --> 01:00:09,083 ♪ 1561 01:00:09,083 --> 01:00:10,792 - And I know that as a married couple, 1562 01:00:10,875 --> 01:00:12,750 we should be living together. 1563 01:00:12,833 --> 01:00:16,000 But if after Decision Day we have come to this place 1564 01:00:16,042 --> 01:00:18,000 where we want to see this through 1565 01:00:18,083 --> 01:00:20,792 and we still have a story to tell, 1566 01:00:20,875 --> 01:00:23,458 where we're living is not going to impact that. 1567 01:00:23,542 --> 01:00:27,792 What I want him to feel confident about 1568 01:00:27,875 --> 01:00:30,667 is our way forward without bringing 1569 01:00:30,750 --> 01:00:32,458 this extra layer of stress. 1570 01:00:32,542 --> 01:00:34,000 So this is where I'm saying, 1571 01:00:34,083 --> 01:00:35,583 don't worry about telling your mother. 1572 01:00:35,667 --> 01:00:36,833 This is where I'm saying, 1573 01:00:36,958 --> 01:00:39,750 I don't want you to even ask about the things 1574 01:00:39,875 --> 01:00:42,167 that I feel are irrelevant. 1575 01:00:42,250 --> 01:00:45,625 Like, I feel like this is the most mature relationship 1576 01:00:45,750 --> 01:00:47,458 I've ever been in. 1577 01:00:47,542 --> 01:00:50,708 This is the most fulfilling and satisfying relationship 1578 01:00:50,792 --> 01:00:52,833 I've ever been in. 1579 01:00:52,875 --> 01:00:55,167 So we are just trying to take every moment for what it is 1580 01:00:55,208 --> 01:00:58,000 and hope that we can make a really informed decision 1581 01:00:58,042 --> 01:01:00,667 on Decision Day. 1582 01:01:00,708 --> 01:01:02,083 - I hear that. 1583 01:01:02,167 --> 01:01:05,667 And my concern is the authenticity here. 1584 01:01:05,792 --> 01:01:10,833 Because your responses almost seem curated. 1585 01:01:10,917 --> 01:01:13,375 It's coming off to me as like, OK, 1586 01:01:13,500 --> 01:01:14,917 what's being withheld here? 1587 01:01:15,000 --> 01:01:17,042 Like, what is this wall that's up, right? 1588 01:01:17,125 --> 01:01:19,833 And if that's just for me or for the cameras 1589 01:01:19,917 --> 01:01:23,208 or for production, OK, so long as that's not happening 1590 01:01:23,292 --> 01:01:25,500 between the two of you. 1591 01:01:25,542 --> 01:01:27,417 - I didn't come into this 1592 01:01:27,500 --> 01:01:29,667 giving a damn what anybody thought. 1593 01:01:29,750 --> 01:01:33,000 I came into this saying, I'm going to be raw, 1594 01:01:33,083 --> 01:01:35,000 I'm going to be vulnerable, and I'm going to hopefully 1595 01:01:35,083 --> 01:01:38,042 leave this entire process with my person. 1596 01:01:38,042 --> 01:01:39,750 ♪ 1597 01:01:39,875 --> 01:01:41,792 I could not be more authentically myself. 1598 01:01:41,875 --> 01:01:43,417 - I just--you know, 1599 01:01:43,542 --> 01:01:45,125 I really want you all to be more honest with each other 1600 01:01:45,208 --> 01:01:47,000 after I leave. 1601 01:01:47,042 --> 01:01:48,542 Because that's what my concern is, is like, oh, [bleep], 1602 01:01:48,625 --> 01:01:50,375 are they kind of, like, faking the funk? 1603 01:01:50,458 --> 01:01:51,875 Or is Chloe people pleasing? 1604 01:01:51,958 --> 01:01:53,625 And then once cameras are gone, 1605 01:01:53,708 --> 01:01:54,833 and then real life hits, like, oh, [bleep], 1606 01:01:54,958 --> 01:01:56,375 here's all this stuff both of you 1607 01:01:56,458 --> 01:01:58,167 all have been holding back. 1608 01:01:58,250 --> 01:02:02,625 ♪ 1609 01:02:02,708 --> 01:02:04,792 - ♪ Coming out, gotta hit the beat ♪ 1610 01:02:04,917 --> 01:02:06,250 ♪ Like a match, want to bring the heat ♪ 1611 01:02:06,333 --> 01:02:08,500 - Next time on "Married at First Sight"... 1612 01:02:08,583 --> 01:02:10,000 - I want to be very clear. 1613 01:02:10,042 --> 01:02:11,667 If we are going to stay married, 1614 01:02:11,750 --> 01:02:14,125 we need to move in together. 1615 01:02:14,125 --> 01:02:15,583 - It was, like, 2:00 a.m. in the morning, 1616 01:02:15,708 --> 01:02:17,333 and he stayed with me the whole time. 1617 01:02:17,417 --> 01:02:19,583 - Trying to talk to Lauren as much as I can. 1618 01:02:19,667 --> 01:02:21,667 - It made me feel very safe in the moment. 1619 01:02:21,708 --> 01:02:23,750 - We are not going to go and try to buy a house 1620 01:02:23,833 --> 01:02:25,958 right after this. 1621 01:02:26,042 --> 01:02:28,167 - I'm still missing Austin really badly. 1622 01:02:28,292 --> 01:02:30,625 Like, he really did the best that he could. 1623 01:02:30,708 --> 01:02:32,208 And I'm just, like, having second thoughts 1624 01:02:32,292 --> 01:02:34,292 and feeling like I gave up too quick. 1625 01:02:34,375 --> 01:02:37,667 - What would you do if he said no on Decision Day? 1626 01:02:37,750 --> 01:02:41,458 - Um... [dramatic music] 1627 01:02:41,542 --> 01:02:44,167 - I don't know. 1628 01:02:44,208 --> 01:02:45,875 - Now that I've really started to evaluate, 1629 01:02:46,000 --> 01:02:47,958 I'm really questioning this marriage. 1630 01:02:48,042 --> 01:02:53,708 ♪