1 00:00:43,118 --> 00:00:44,621 I'm not like the rest of you. 2 00:00:47,624 --> 00:00:50,860 I never made any plans about what I'd do when I grew up. 3 00:00:53,430 --> 00:00:57,032 I never thought of being married as you all did. 4 00:00:59,736 --> 00:01:02,639 I couldn't seem to imagine myself anything 5 00:01:03,807 --> 00:01:08,277 but stupid little Beth trotting about at home. 6 00:01:09,913 --> 00:01:12,214 No use anywhere, but there. 7 00:01:15,852 --> 00:01:17,487 I never wanted to go away. 8 00:01:24,527 --> 00:01:25,628 The hard part now 9 00:01:31,166 --> 00:01:33,268 the hard part now is leaving you all. 10 00:01:37,640 --> 00:01:38,475 I'm not afraid, 11 00:01:42,745 --> 00:01:43,546 I'm not afraid, 12 00:01:46,048 --> 00:01:46,916 but it seems, 13 00:01:53,890 --> 00:01:54,691 it seems. 14 00:02:16,446 --> 00:02:17,413 Goodbye Pearl. 15 00:02:43,372 --> 00:02:45,708 - DNR. - Excuse me? 16 00:02:47,042 --> 00:02:47,944 She's DNR just in case you didn't... 17 00:02:53,215 --> 00:02:54,180 I'll get the doctor. 18 00:02:54,182 --> 00:02:55,950 And she's not an organ donor, 19 00:02:55,952 --> 00:02:58,953 so you know, no rush. 20 00:03:10,967 --> 00:03:14,037 Thank you so much for everything. 21 00:03:18,441 --> 00:03:20,140 I'm so sorry for your loss. 22 00:03:20,142 --> 00:03:21,444 Bless you, Mrs. Cordova, 23 00:03:22,612 --> 00:03:26,013 what you've done for us, it truly is a miracle. 24 00:03:26,015 --> 00:03:27,548 We should all take comfort in knowing 25 00:03:27,550 --> 00:03:30,283 that our suffering is over and we, she can finally... 26 00:03:30,285 --> 00:03:31,686 - Mrs. Cordova. - Finally be at peace. 27 00:03:31,688 --> 00:03:33,723 It's okay if you need to cry too. 28 00:03:34,891 --> 00:03:37,123 I know this is your job but you don't have 29 00:03:37,125 --> 00:03:38,459 - to be brave for us. - You were Mama's angel, 30 00:03:38,461 --> 00:03:39,827 - Mrs. Cordova. - Okay. 31 00:03:39,829 --> 00:03:41,328 Did we, oh crud. 32 00:03:41,330 --> 00:03:43,631 Is this, is there... 33 00:03:43,633 --> 00:03:45,098 Can we stop this, can this stop happening? 34 00:03:45,100 --> 00:03:46,333 - An angel among us. - If you could just, 35 00:03:46,335 --> 00:03:47,568 if this could just stop happening. 36 00:03:47,570 --> 00:03:49,369 - Mrs. Cordova. - You're an angel. 37 00:03:49,371 --> 00:03:51,306 Could just, can you... 38 00:03:55,912 --> 00:03:56,713 I'm sorry. 39 00:03:59,983 --> 00:04:01,884 I'm sorry for your loss. 40 00:04:03,586 --> 00:04:05,086 What the hell is this? 41 00:04:05,088 --> 00:04:09,557 Hold at night, we should, no, oh god never gives you 42 00:04:09,559 --> 00:04:10,827 more than you can handle. 43 00:04:12,061 --> 00:04:14,395 So, yeah. 44 00:04:14,397 --> 00:04:15,798 I think you should go now. 45 00:04:20,069 --> 00:04:21,571 What is wrong with her? 46 00:04:28,645 --> 00:04:31,481 What's wrong with me? 47 00:04:32,982 --> 00:04:36,617 You hired a complete stranger to help your mother die 48 00:04:36,619 --> 00:04:38,719 because none of you, 49 00:04:38,721 --> 00:04:42,288 her loved ones understood her well enough to provide a sense 50 00:04:42,290 --> 00:04:43,958 of peace or dignity, 51 00:04:43,960 --> 00:04:47,030 the bare minimum to get her to finally let go. 52 00:04:49,532 --> 00:04:51,199 Pearl found you condescending. 53 00:04:52,669 --> 00:04:54,802 And you only called her when she sent you birthday checks 54 00:04:54,804 --> 00:04:57,838 and you, her only child, 55 00:04:57,840 --> 00:05:02,779 you disappointed her Ellen, just like in general. 56 00:05:13,723 --> 00:05:15,190 She always related to Beth. 57 00:05:16,626 --> 00:05:19,294 I think there was a lot more Joe in her than she realized. 58 00:05:21,831 --> 00:05:24,266 You probably didn't know that was her favorite book, 59 00:05:25,835 --> 00:05:26,669 did you? 60 00:05:28,971 --> 00:05:33,176 I knew her for three days, you had your whole life. 61 00:05:34,677 --> 00:05:35,478 You blew it. 62 00:05:36,646 --> 00:05:37,513 Get out! 63 00:05:50,793 --> 00:05:52,225 I know the timing isn't ideal, 64 00:05:52,227 --> 00:05:53,861 but I just wanted to let you know 65 00:05:53,863 --> 00:05:55,361 that we're offering a cash bonus 66 00:05:55,363 --> 00:05:56,797 as part of our referral program. 67 00:05:56,799 --> 00:05:57,798 So if you happen... 68 00:07:03,866 --> 00:07:05,701 Did you mention the referral program? 69 00:07:10,473 --> 00:07:12,275 We'll get them next time honey. 70 00:07:34,597 --> 00:07:38,032 Number three grocery store, number two dog park 71 00:07:38,034 --> 00:07:40,366 and number one church. 72 00:07:40,368 --> 00:07:42,269 Interesting don't you think? 73 00:07:42,271 --> 00:07:43,804 I'm not religious. 74 00:07:43,806 --> 00:07:46,073 The article doesn't say you have to be religious, 75 00:07:46,075 --> 00:07:47,842 it's just pointing out the best places to meet 76 00:07:47,844 --> 00:07:49,245 nice single men. 77 00:07:53,015 --> 00:07:54,215 I don't have a dog. 78 00:07:54,217 --> 00:07:55,718 I know Lex, I know. 79 00:08:16,505 --> 00:08:17,707 We need a secretary. 80 00:08:18,741 --> 00:08:19,974 What? 81 00:08:19,976 --> 00:08:21,475 As the CEO it's not professional 82 00:08:21,477 --> 00:08:24,345 for me to answer the phone here and you, you know. 83 00:08:24,347 --> 00:08:25,846 Would fuck it up. 84 00:08:25,848 --> 00:08:27,314 You don't have a unique skill set, no shame in that, 85 00:08:27,316 --> 00:08:29,650 but the desk doesn't make any sense without a secretary. 86 00:08:29,652 --> 00:08:31,151 Maybe we should get rid of the desk. 87 00:08:31,153 --> 00:08:32,486 Think bigger, Lex. 88 00:08:32,488 --> 00:08:34,455 We can't afford a secretary. 89 00:08:34,457 --> 00:08:35,923 Whose fault is that? 90 00:08:35,925 --> 00:08:37,324 I told them about the referrals. 91 00:08:37,326 --> 00:08:39,093 I know, I'm sorry that wasn't fair. 92 00:08:39,095 --> 00:08:40,630 I'm sure it'll ring soon. 93 00:08:43,499 --> 00:08:45,299 I just think it'd be nice you know, 94 00:08:45,301 --> 00:08:49,203 the smell of fresh coffee, when we arrive. 95 00:08:49,205 --> 00:08:51,872 Comforting, feminine voice greeting potential clients 96 00:08:51,874 --> 00:08:53,240 over the phone, 97 00:08:53,242 --> 00:08:55,576 the sound of a typewriter clicking away... 98 00:08:55,578 --> 00:08:56,810 - They're not all women. - What? 99 00:08:56,812 --> 00:08:58,612 Secretaries. 100 00:08:58,614 --> 00:09:00,281 Of course, I know that I shouldn't have, 101 00:09:00,283 --> 00:09:04,652 it was just in my head, I was picturing, but you're right. 102 00:09:04,654 --> 00:09:08,022 In fact, a nice, well put together man might be good too, 103 00:09:08,024 --> 00:09:10,491 for you and us, the business. 104 00:09:10,493 --> 00:09:12,192 And they're obsolete. 105 00:09:12,194 --> 00:09:13,460 Men, or secretaries? 106 00:09:13,462 --> 00:09:14,664 Typewriters. 107 00:09:17,133 --> 00:09:19,934 You couldn't have studied the note cards a bit more 108 00:09:19,936 --> 00:09:21,135 before going in there. 109 00:09:21,137 --> 00:09:23,137 I had them memorized Dad, I really did. 110 00:09:23,139 --> 00:09:24,440 - I know. - I can't just, 111 00:09:25,741 --> 00:09:27,608 you have no idea how much it takes out of me 112 00:09:27,610 --> 00:09:29,576 to just make the kind of connection required... 113 00:09:29,578 --> 00:09:30,980 I know, Lex, I know. 114 00:09:33,149 --> 00:09:35,582 I bet if we talked to someone at the university, 115 00:09:35,584 --> 00:09:37,451 we could probably get an intern so we don't have to pay, 116 00:09:37,453 --> 00:09:40,888 but a real up and comer, you know, 117 00:09:40,890 --> 00:09:44,124 to bring a little sunshine into this place. 118 00:09:44,126 --> 00:09:45,125 What's wrong with this place? 119 00:09:45,127 --> 00:09:47,330 Nothing per se, 120 00:09:49,131 --> 00:09:50,798 you don't want a better life? 121 00:09:50,800 --> 00:09:52,032 What? 122 00:09:52,034 --> 00:09:54,335 I just think it might be nice if we did better. 123 00:09:54,337 --> 00:09:55,569 We do fine. 124 00:09:55,571 --> 00:09:58,408 Yeah but better would be better. 125 00:09:59,542 --> 00:10:00,808 Someday, you're gonna wanna settle down 126 00:10:00,810 --> 00:10:02,410 and you should be set up to... 127 00:10:02,412 --> 00:10:03,378 Dad. 128 00:10:03,380 --> 00:10:05,848 You deserve to be happy. 129 00:10:07,950 --> 00:10:10,017 - We should get a website. - Why? 130 00:10:10,019 --> 00:10:11,785 To help solidify our brand. 131 00:10:11,787 --> 00:10:12,720 We don't have a brand. 132 00:10:12,722 --> 00:10:14,321 Not yet, but with a website. 133 00:10:14,323 --> 00:10:15,157 Dad. 134 00:10:17,226 --> 00:10:18,627 You couldn't just be nice. 135 00:10:19,829 --> 00:10:21,495 Look, I get it, the note cards are there 136 00:10:21,497 --> 00:10:23,130 just as a guide and it's not easy 137 00:10:23,132 --> 00:10:25,065 what you do, I know that, you know, I know that, 138 00:10:25,067 --> 00:10:27,735 but couldn't you just decide to be nice to these people. 139 00:10:27,737 --> 00:10:29,269 It's not that simple. 140 00:10:29,271 --> 00:10:31,473 No, it is, it is, that's really all it would take. 141 00:10:31,475 --> 00:10:33,807 It's just, you just, you know, 142 00:10:33,809 --> 00:10:36,944 you do your thing and just shake a few hands, 143 00:10:36,946 --> 00:10:38,914 maybe a hug, then leave. 144 00:10:40,149 --> 00:10:41,715 They don't need a goddamn Knute Rockne. 145 00:10:41,717 --> 00:10:43,451 - Who? - Knute Rockne. 146 00:10:43,453 --> 00:10:45,786 Knute Rockne, come on. 147 00:10:45,788 --> 00:10:46,887 The client gets it all. 148 00:10:46,889 --> 00:10:47,988 - Lex. - You know that. 149 00:10:47,990 --> 00:10:49,256 - I just think that if... - Fuck them, 150 00:10:49,258 --> 00:10:50,458 fuck the rest of them, I'm not there for them. 151 00:10:50,460 --> 00:10:51,759 I can't give what I, 152 00:10:51,761 --> 00:10:55,095 it takes everything, I can't just do that 153 00:10:55,097 --> 00:10:56,563 and then have some polite chatter and just... 154 00:10:56,565 --> 00:10:57,898 If you're not happy doing this, 155 00:10:57,900 --> 00:10:59,434 I didn't say that. there are easier ways 156 00:10:59,436 --> 00:11:00,701 - to make a living. - Dad, it's not like 157 00:11:00,703 --> 00:11:01,570 it's a choice. 158 00:11:09,379 --> 00:11:10,212 Sorry. 159 00:11:11,515 --> 00:11:14,583 You have a real gift, you know that, right? 160 00:11:17,521 --> 00:11:18,819 I think they'd 161 00:11:18,821 --> 00:11:20,354 prefer the term administrative assistant now. 162 00:11:20,356 --> 00:11:23,559 - Who? - Secretaries. 163 00:11:25,194 --> 00:11:27,930 I still think we can make that typewriter thing work. 164 00:11:30,566 --> 00:11:32,833 I can't thank you enough for Mrs. Cordova. 165 00:11:32,835 --> 00:11:36,737 I can't thank you enough, insert client's name here 166 00:11:36,739 --> 00:11:39,507 for letting me be apart of Nora's life. 167 00:11:39,509 --> 00:11:41,775 - The Shaw's. - What? 168 00:11:41,777 --> 00:11:43,343 Darren and Kelly Shaw, those are her parents, 169 00:11:43,345 --> 00:11:45,714 you gotta I can't thank you enough Mrs. Cordova. 170 00:11:46,615 --> 00:11:48,816 I can't thank you enough, 171 00:11:48,818 --> 00:11:51,952 Darren and Kelly for letting me be a part of Nora's life, 172 00:11:51,954 --> 00:11:56,025 It's such a profoundly difficult moment. 173 00:11:56,992 --> 00:11:58,462 God bless you, Mrs. Cordova. 174 00:11:59,795 --> 00:12:01,695 - Oh come on. - Lex. 175 00:12:01,697 --> 00:12:03,197 God bless you. Mrs. Cordova. 176 00:12:03,199 --> 00:12:04,832 - God is dead. - Lex. 177 00:12:06,635 --> 00:12:07,670 - Lex. - Sorry. 178 00:12:08,838 --> 00:12:10,270 God is dead Darren and Kelly. 179 00:12:10,272 --> 00:12:11,107 Forget it. 180 00:12:12,308 --> 00:12:13,841 You're not going to take this seriously. 181 00:12:13,843 --> 00:12:15,242 Come on Dad, she's a kid, 182 00:12:15,244 --> 00:12:16,844 She's 17 that's all she gets 183 00:12:16,846 --> 00:12:20,316 'cause what some freakish blood condition? 184 00:12:23,386 --> 00:12:24,618 I'll deal with her parents okay? 185 00:12:24,620 --> 00:12:26,456 You just, you do your thing. 186 00:12:28,257 --> 00:12:30,757 One day, you'll be doing this for me you know? 187 00:12:30,759 --> 00:12:32,292 Oh Jesus Christ, Dad. 188 00:12:32,294 --> 00:12:34,663 No, no, no, listen, I can't, 189 00:12:38,901 --> 00:12:43,906 it would break my heart to know I left you here 190 00:12:45,007 --> 00:12:47,207 in this world alone, 191 00:12:47,209 --> 00:12:49,945 without the ability to take care of yourself. 192 00:12:55,418 --> 00:12:56,218 That's all. 193 00:12:57,420 --> 00:12:59,221 God closes a door, he opens a window. 194 00:13:02,158 --> 00:13:03,225 I nailed that shit! 195 00:13:26,650 --> 00:13:28,182 A little more ice, I'm good. 196 00:13:28,184 --> 00:13:29,783 I'm not a nurse. 197 00:13:29,785 --> 00:13:30,984 Doctors can't get ice? 198 00:13:30,986 --> 00:13:32,052 I'm not a doctor either. 199 00:13:32,054 --> 00:13:33,120 - Then who are you? - I'm... 200 00:13:33,122 --> 00:13:34,755 Nevermind. 201 00:13:34,757 --> 00:13:36,290 - My name is... - What is this? 202 00:13:36,292 --> 00:13:37,257 - Can I answer? - What? 203 00:13:37,259 --> 00:13:39,092 - You can't... - Forget it. 204 00:13:39,094 --> 00:13:40,227 - See... - Just go. 205 00:13:40,229 --> 00:13:41,795 - Can I just... - I'm not doing this. 206 00:13:41,797 --> 00:13:43,600 - Doing what? - This, leave! 207 00:13:50,139 --> 00:13:50,973 You're dying. 208 00:13:53,142 --> 00:13:54,644 You're going to do that alone. 209 00:13:56,111 --> 00:14:00,849 And while intellectually it might be easy to rationalize, 210 00:14:01,717 --> 00:14:03,951 it must be pretty difficult 211 00:14:03,953 --> 00:14:05,886 trying to find comfort in the fact that right now, 212 00:14:05,888 --> 00:14:10,893 just this particular moment, it's just your turn. 213 00:14:15,898 --> 00:14:18,602 - I'm Lex, by the way. - What the hell? 214 00:14:19,802 --> 00:14:21,235 Why are you here? 215 00:14:21,237 --> 00:14:22,670 This is what I do. 216 00:14:22,672 --> 00:14:24,238 - You creep out dying girls? - Are you creeped out? 217 00:14:24,240 --> 00:14:26,374 I'm not not creeped out. 218 00:14:26,376 --> 00:14:28,576 What are you like a therapist or something? 219 00:14:28,578 --> 00:14:31,044 Independent contractor so to speak. 220 00:14:31,046 --> 00:14:31,945 - Doing what? - This. 221 00:14:31,947 --> 00:14:33,180 What is this? 222 00:14:33,182 --> 00:14:35,282 I meet with people right before they die. 223 00:14:35,284 --> 00:14:37,685 - Why? - Peace of mind, 224 00:14:37,687 --> 00:14:42,657 spirit, brief moment of existential comfort, 225 00:14:42,659 --> 00:14:44,960 it's what it says on our business cards. 226 00:14:46,429 --> 00:14:49,129 People call it all sorts of stuff though. 227 00:14:49,131 --> 00:14:52,799 Some people think it's religious, magical 228 00:14:52,801 --> 00:14:55,168 and other worldly channeling. 229 00:14:55,170 --> 00:14:58,408 I don't know this thing I do. 230 00:14:59,576 --> 00:15:01,310 - Sounds like bullshit. - It's not. 231 00:15:03,279 --> 00:15:05,145 So what you just stand there until whatever's supposed 232 00:15:05,147 --> 00:15:06,346 to happen, actually happens? 233 00:15:06,348 --> 00:15:08,282 Pretty much, yeah. 234 00:15:08,284 --> 00:15:10,817 - What if you run out of time? - Never had that problem. 235 00:15:10,819 --> 00:15:11,655 Not yet. 236 00:15:36,912 --> 00:15:39,281 - You into swords? - Aspiring Samurai. 237 00:15:42,719 --> 00:15:46,186 Should have been my destiny not some random ass blood thing 238 00:15:46,188 --> 00:15:49,323 that doesn't even have a foundation or a Wikipedia page 239 00:15:49,325 --> 00:15:50,225 dedicated to it. 240 00:15:53,463 --> 00:15:54,296 Bushido. 241 00:15:57,066 --> 00:16:01,335 Man, it could have been legendary. 242 00:16:01,337 --> 00:16:02,804 Bushido? 243 00:16:02,806 --> 00:16:05,642 Yeah you know, like the way of the warrior, the code. 244 00:16:07,343 --> 00:16:09,843 Righteousness, courage, benevolence, 245 00:16:09,845 --> 00:16:14,615 respect, sincerity, honor, self-control, loyalty. 246 00:16:14,617 --> 00:16:16,116 It's beautiful. 247 00:16:16,118 --> 00:16:17,052 You talk a lot. 248 00:16:17,920 --> 00:16:19,186 Well, you know 249 00:16:19,188 --> 00:16:21,622 780 on the English portion of my SAT 250 00:16:21,624 --> 00:16:23,725 and I can't take that with me so. 251 00:16:23,727 --> 00:16:25,926 - What'd they try? - To save me? 252 00:16:25,928 --> 00:16:30,130 Antibiotics, more antibiotics, transfusions. 253 00:16:30,132 --> 00:16:33,534 I'm on some experimental drug thing right now, 254 00:16:33,536 --> 00:16:35,670 but I could totally taste the placebo sugar. 255 00:16:35,672 --> 00:16:38,105 I'm pretty sure you can't actually taste the sugar in it. 256 00:16:38,107 --> 00:16:40,541 - I was being hyperbolic. - Oh. 257 00:16:40,543 --> 00:16:41,977 What's the goal here again? 258 00:16:43,145 --> 00:16:43,979 Peace. 259 00:16:45,347 --> 00:16:47,214 Oh okay and you've really never failed at it? 260 00:16:47,216 --> 00:16:48,050 No. 261 00:16:49,519 --> 00:16:52,420 So I'd like be forever burned in your memory 262 00:16:52,422 --> 00:16:53,488 as the one that got away? 263 00:16:53,490 --> 00:16:54,321 There's still time. 264 00:16:54,323 --> 00:16:56,659 You sure about that? 265 00:17:10,407 --> 00:17:12,939 Honestly, I could have died in that moment. 266 00:17:12,941 --> 00:17:13,907 It's okay if you need to cry, 267 00:17:13,909 --> 00:17:15,075 I understand no judgment. 268 00:17:15,077 --> 00:17:17,745 - You smiled. - No I didn't. 269 00:17:17,747 --> 00:17:18,979 You did when you were talking about 270 00:17:18,981 --> 00:17:20,615 being burned in my memory forever. 271 00:17:20,617 --> 00:17:22,650 So what, is that like a crime? 272 00:17:22,652 --> 00:17:24,251 No, it's a tell. 273 00:17:24,253 --> 00:17:25,453 A tell, what does that even mean? 274 00:17:25,455 --> 00:17:26,854 You're afraid they'll forget you. 275 00:17:26,856 --> 00:17:29,156 - Who? - I don't know, parents. 276 00:17:29,158 --> 00:17:31,158 Oh please, they are self obsessed dicks. 277 00:17:31,160 --> 00:17:32,993 This whole thing is so they can get closure. 278 00:17:32,995 --> 00:17:35,563 I couldn't care less how they remember me. 279 00:17:35,565 --> 00:17:37,097 - Siblings? - Only child. 280 00:17:37,099 --> 00:17:40,568 Friends, boyfriend, 281 00:17:40,570 --> 00:17:42,068 - aunts and uncles... - Is this the magic part, 282 00:17:42,070 --> 00:17:44,574 please tell me, this is where the magic actually happens. 283 00:17:47,677 --> 00:17:49,309 - I don't get it. - So I win? 284 00:17:49,311 --> 00:17:53,514 No, you die, still alone, still terrified 285 00:17:53,516 --> 00:17:54,782 in your inability to let me help you with that, 286 00:17:54,784 --> 00:17:56,584 does it make it any less tragic. 287 00:17:56,586 --> 00:17:58,486 I'm not afraid, okay, I'm pissed. 288 00:17:58,488 --> 00:17:59,754 - 'Cause you got a shit deal? - We all get a shit deal. 289 00:17:59,756 --> 00:18:03,156 It's the timing I have a problem with it. 290 00:18:03,158 --> 00:18:04,958 I mean, come on, I'll live on in the hearts 291 00:18:04,960 --> 00:18:06,694 of friends and family yay, 292 00:18:06,696 --> 00:18:08,962 but this was my shot and I wasted it. 293 00:18:08,964 --> 00:18:10,898 Fine, so what would you have done differently? 294 00:18:10,900 --> 00:18:14,234 You mean other than become a master of all major sword 295 00:18:14,236 --> 00:18:16,069 and hand to hand combat? 296 00:18:16,071 --> 00:18:18,573 Time travel to feudal Japan and really fuck some shit up? 297 00:18:18,575 --> 00:18:19,841 Yeah. 298 00:18:19,843 --> 00:18:21,642 I don't know, I don't know, that's the thing, 299 00:18:21,644 --> 00:18:24,978 I don't have an unfulfilled dream to lament. 300 00:18:24,980 --> 00:18:28,852 I didn't have the time, okay, I didn't have the time. 301 00:18:30,453 --> 00:18:33,186 No I did, I just wasted it. 302 00:18:42,398 --> 00:18:44,264 Well, if it makes you feel any better, 303 00:18:44,266 --> 00:18:46,235 most people say the same thing. 304 00:18:51,875 --> 00:18:53,073 Why would that make me feel any better? 305 00:18:53,075 --> 00:18:55,043 Yeah, oh man I don't know. 306 00:18:56,746 --> 00:18:59,248 Okay, look you're such a dick. 307 00:19:00,984 --> 00:19:04,050 - I'm sorry. - You get paid for this? 308 00:19:04,052 --> 00:19:04,888 Yeah. 309 00:19:06,221 --> 00:19:07,624 But you smiled. 310 00:19:08,791 --> 00:19:10,156 You smiled so I win. 311 00:19:10,158 --> 00:19:12,125 It's a nervous laughter. 312 00:19:12,127 --> 00:19:15,863 This is nervous laughter 'cause I feel bad for you. 313 00:19:15,865 --> 00:19:17,063 - A - millionaire's million, 314 00:19:17,065 --> 00:19:18,265 now this show is just two weeks away. 315 00:19:18,267 --> 00:19:19,433 Will one of these players 316 00:19:19,435 --> 00:19:21,702 make it to the leaderboard tonight? 317 00:19:21,704 --> 00:19:23,171 We should be on Twitter. 318 00:19:25,040 --> 00:19:25,873 What a terrible idea. 319 00:19:25,875 --> 00:19:26,709 And Instagram. 320 00:19:28,043 --> 00:19:29,276 Why? 321 00:19:29,278 --> 00:19:31,344 Technology Lex, you gotta adapt. 322 00:19:31,346 --> 00:19:34,448 What's Periscope? 323 00:19:34,450 --> 00:19:36,751 We got one client under the age of 50 324 00:19:36,753 --> 00:19:38,318 and now you think we should just... 325 00:19:38,320 --> 00:19:39,754 The world keeps spinning whether 326 00:19:39,756 --> 00:19:41,689 we choose to acknowledge it or not. 327 00:19:41,691 --> 00:19:45,191 But still, most of the people dying are old. 328 00:19:45,193 --> 00:19:46,029 Mostly, sure. 329 00:19:50,900 --> 00:19:52,065 What are you saying? 330 00:19:52,067 --> 00:19:53,568 You offer a niche product, Lex, 331 00:19:53,570 --> 00:19:55,368 there's an unexplored market out there. 332 00:19:55,370 --> 00:19:59,540 I see no reason why we should ignore the possibilities. 333 00:19:59,542 --> 00:20:02,577 Watching 17-year-olds die is depressing, that's one reason. 334 00:20:02,579 --> 00:20:04,277 Well, technically didn't stick around until... 335 00:20:04,279 --> 00:20:05,880 And then she went into a coma. 336 00:20:05,882 --> 00:20:08,317 My job was done from there. 337 00:20:11,353 --> 00:20:13,790 Her parents seemed grateful for your work. 338 00:20:15,592 --> 00:20:17,058 Maybe if her parents had been better parents, 339 00:20:17,060 --> 00:20:19,562 they wouldn't have needed me in the first place. 340 00:20:23,700 --> 00:20:25,666 Yeah, maybe we aren't quite ready 341 00:20:25,668 --> 00:20:27,868 for social media. 342 00:20:27,870 --> 00:20:29,269 25 for the fifth contestant, 343 00:20:29,271 --> 00:20:32,039 that's $3,000 Brenda. 344 00:20:32,041 --> 00:20:36,644 Valerie Monroe age 61, stage four, pancreatic cancer, 345 00:20:36,646 --> 00:20:38,846 no siblings, no children and no spouse. 346 00:20:38,848 --> 00:20:41,551 - Who hired us? - She did. 347 00:20:44,186 --> 00:20:45,888 I think she has you now, right? 348 00:20:47,624 --> 00:20:49,090 And on the more positive note, 349 00:20:49,092 --> 00:20:51,358 no family around really lowers the chances 350 00:20:51,360 --> 00:20:53,461 of you getting punched. 351 00:20:53,463 --> 00:20:54,629 Do I even need these then? 352 00:20:54,631 --> 00:20:56,264 Lowers, not removes. 353 00:20:57,867 --> 00:20:59,669 I'm going to pull back my energy now. 354 00:21:00,737 --> 00:21:04,705 All right, thank you Tim. 355 00:21:04,707 --> 00:21:08,341 And thank your dear father too, may he rest in peace. 356 00:21:08,343 --> 00:21:11,614 Okay, love and blessings. 357 00:21:21,658 --> 00:21:22,957 Can I help you with something? 358 00:21:22,959 --> 00:21:23,793 What? 359 00:21:25,395 --> 00:21:26,794 You're kind of staring? 360 00:21:26,796 --> 00:21:29,362 No I'm not. 361 00:21:29,364 --> 00:21:31,866 Please forgive my daughter, she's, 362 00:21:31,868 --> 00:21:33,634 we're in the middle of prepping 363 00:21:33,636 --> 00:21:35,403 for a very important client, 364 00:21:35,405 --> 00:21:38,406 so, you know, she's normally not this rude. 365 00:21:38,408 --> 00:21:39,509 Isn't that right, Lex? 366 00:21:40,843 --> 00:21:43,276 Her name's Lex short for Alexis. 367 00:21:43,278 --> 00:21:45,613 - You were talking. - What? 368 00:21:45,615 --> 00:21:48,416 You were talking, I didn't... 369 00:21:48,418 --> 00:21:49,217 Lex. 370 00:21:51,087 --> 00:21:54,187 - I'm Gary, by the way. - Spencer. 371 00:21:54,189 --> 00:21:58,193 Oh, that's a sturdy name for a sturdy fella. 372 00:21:59,128 --> 00:22:00,163 Don't you think honey? 373 00:22:01,764 --> 00:22:03,764 Spencer, is that a family name or... 374 00:22:03,766 --> 00:22:05,298 You two don't look like lawyers. 375 00:22:05,300 --> 00:22:06,500 I'm sorry? 376 00:22:06,502 --> 00:22:07,968 You said you had a client here, 377 00:22:07,970 --> 00:22:11,405 I just assumed that in this context that makes you lawyers. 378 00:22:11,407 --> 00:22:13,574 Actually we're small business owners, 379 00:22:13,576 --> 00:22:15,609 thriving business owners. 380 00:22:15,611 --> 00:22:17,812 I'm the CEO and Lex is, 381 00:22:17,814 --> 00:22:22,083 well she's, I guess you can call her the talent. 382 00:22:22,085 --> 00:22:23,316 I mean seriously she's got a real... 383 00:22:23,318 --> 00:22:26,487 Cordova and Cordova Mortality Solutions. 384 00:22:26,489 --> 00:22:29,190 Incorporated, well, technically we're an LLC, 385 00:22:29,192 --> 00:22:31,859 but we thought the I-N-C had a better ring to it. 386 00:22:31,861 --> 00:22:33,127 Why don't we look like lawyers? 387 00:22:33,129 --> 00:22:34,528 What? 388 00:22:34,530 --> 00:22:35,896 You said we don't look like lawyers. 389 00:22:35,898 --> 00:22:37,965 Oh, your clothes have a slept in quality 390 00:22:37,967 --> 00:22:40,167 and you have mustard right there on your shirt. 391 00:22:40,169 --> 00:22:42,136 No offense. 392 00:22:42,138 --> 00:22:45,508 - None taken. - Some taken. 393 00:22:47,309 --> 00:22:48,144 I took some. 394 00:22:54,751 --> 00:22:56,450 So Spencer, is it? 395 00:22:56,452 --> 00:22:58,385 What do you do if you don't mind me asking? 396 00:22:58,387 --> 00:23:00,154 Oh, a little bit of this, a little bit of that. 397 00:23:00,156 --> 00:23:02,123 I'm much more interested in what it is that you do. 398 00:23:02,125 --> 00:23:04,391 I mean Mortality Solutions, that sounds fascinating. 399 00:23:04,393 --> 00:23:05,659 We really don't have time. 400 00:23:05,661 --> 00:23:07,561 Well, it's sort of a complicated... 401 00:23:07,563 --> 00:23:08,963 Do you plan funerals? 402 00:23:08,965 --> 00:23:10,431 Oh no, it's more along the lines... 403 00:23:10,433 --> 00:23:11,398 It's really hard to prep with all the talking. 404 00:23:11,400 --> 00:23:13,934 Sort of it's hard to, 405 00:23:13,936 --> 00:23:17,138 while there's a large philosophical component to it, 406 00:23:17,140 --> 00:23:18,706 there's also a, 407 00:23:18,708 --> 00:23:20,775 you're much better at describing it. 408 00:23:20,777 --> 00:23:21,911 I'm working. 409 00:23:22,845 --> 00:23:24,111 We're working so. 410 00:23:24,113 --> 00:23:27,347 A brief moment of existential comfort. 411 00:23:27,349 --> 00:23:29,016 You're going to have to explain that. 412 00:23:29,018 --> 00:23:30,951 It's pretty self explanatory. 413 00:23:30,953 --> 00:23:32,188 Come on Lex. 414 00:23:33,422 --> 00:23:35,389 Come on Lex. 415 00:23:35,391 --> 00:23:38,326 Yeah Lex, come on. 416 00:23:41,931 --> 00:23:43,132 We do what they can't. 417 00:23:44,299 --> 00:23:47,568 - They? - Family members, friends, 418 00:23:47,570 --> 00:23:49,904 self-proclaimed loved ones. 419 00:23:49,906 --> 00:23:51,405 People that have failed someone in their life 420 00:23:51,407 --> 00:23:52,773 to such a profound extent 421 00:23:52,775 --> 00:23:54,408 that they have to outsource that person's last 422 00:23:54,410 --> 00:23:59,380 and greatest existential dilemma to a stranger 423 00:23:59,382 --> 00:24:01,417 with mustard on her shirt. 424 00:24:04,086 --> 00:24:05,353 And they're not slept in, 425 00:24:06,255 --> 00:24:07,657 I'm really bad with an iron. 426 00:24:08,691 --> 00:24:10,191 It's true. 427 00:24:10,193 --> 00:24:11,926 I tried to teach her the proper technique. 428 00:24:11,928 --> 00:24:14,762 I even offered to do it for her but... 429 00:24:14,764 --> 00:24:16,530 You're still staring. 430 00:24:16,532 --> 00:24:17,998 You're still talking. 431 00:24:18,000 --> 00:24:19,233 This is a conversation, 432 00:24:19,235 --> 00:24:20,167 I didn't even want to be a part of it. 433 00:24:20,169 --> 00:24:21,003 At my pecs. 434 00:24:25,474 --> 00:24:29,278 I like an athletic cut, so you know it happens, CrossFit? 435 00:24:30,446 --> 00:24:32,513 Well, I always say if you've got it, 436 00:24:32,515 --> 00:24:34,014 you might as well flaunt... 437 00:24:34,016 --> 00:24:35,516 - Oh my god, it's time. - Yeah I guess you're, 438 00:24:35,518 --> 00:24:39,722 remember cards are there as a guide, not a crutch. 439 00:24:43,292 --> 00:24:44,359 She's a good kid. 440 00:24:45,561 --> 00:24:47,230 What is it you say you did again? 441 00:24:49,165 --> 00:24:51,901 I didn't. 442 00:24:53,102 --> 00:24:53,903 Hey. 443 00:24:55,338 --> 00:24:56,172 Yes I do. 444 00:25:02,879 --> 00:25:03,713 Valerie. 445 00:25:13,055 --> 00:25:13,890 Valerie. 446 00:25:20,196 --> 00:25:23,030 The Pulled Pork Experience, that's thier name 447 00:25:23,032 --> 00:25:25,165 I know because their theremin player 448 00:25:25,167 --> 00:25:26,634 is my drug dealer 449 00:25:26,636 --> 00:25:28,402 and I feel like I should be supportive of their art. 450 00:25:28,404 --> 00:25:30,804 I don't normally have a lot of patience for white guys 451 00:25:30,806 --> 00:25:33,841 with dreadlocks, not entirely pro-drum circle either, 452 00:25:33,843 --> 00:25:35,976 but they really believe it when they play. 453 00:25:35,978 --> 00:25:39,213 It matters so much to them, it's kinda beautiful. 454 00:25:39,215 --> 00:25:42,850 But they're fucking terrible though, aren't they? 455 00:25:45,621 --> 00:25:47,288 - Drug dealer? - Yeah. 456 00:25:47,290 --> 00:25:50,357 This stuff can get a bit predictable. 457 00:25:50,359 --> 00:25:52,960 I like to supplement from time to time. 458 00:25:52,962 --> 00:25:55,129 Mostly edibles, nothing too crazy. 459 00:25:55,131 --> 00:25:56,797 Hey you want some? 460 00:25:56,799 --> 00:25:59,302 I'm Alexis Cordova. 461 00:26:00,336 --> 00:26:01,437 You can call me Lex. 462 00:26:03,239 --> 00:26:04,471 You hired me. 463 00:26:04,473 --> 00:26:06,173 So, that's a hard pass on the weed. 464 00:26:06,175 --> 00:26:07,341 Got it. 465 00:26:07,343 --> 00:26:08,876 - Valerie. - Which one are you? 466 00:26:08,878 --> 00:26:10,144 - I'm sorry? - Please, 467 00:26:10,146 --> 00:26:14,081 please tell me you don't have cards or crystals? 468 00:26:14,083 --> 00:26:16,150 - Valerie. - No, nope, call me Val. 469 00:26:16,152 --> 00:26:18,686 - Val. - Let's try just V. 470 00:26:18,688 --> 00:26:23,693 Nope, Valerie, Val, that's the familiarity sweet spot. 471 00:26:24,860 --> 00:26:26,327 You've been having a lot of visitors? 472 00:26:26,329 --> 00:26:28,595 What's a normal head count for deathbed visitations 473 00:26:28,597 --> 00:26:30,564 just as a point of reference? 474 00:26:30,566 --> 00:26:31,832 I was actually just referring 475 00:26:31,834 --> 00:26:34,568 to the eternal peace field specifically. 476 00:26:34,570 --> 00:26:37,738 You've been having a lot of visitors? 477 00:26:37,740 --> 00:26:39,673 Sort of a new hobby of mine. 478 00:26:39,675 --> 00:26:41,642 It'd be so much cheaper for me 479 00:26:41,644 --> 00:26:43,413 to just find God though, right? 480 00:26:46,182 --> 00:26:50,286 Wow, you just seem so much lighter than I expected. 481 00:26:51,687 --> 00:26:54,422 That would be the I'm dying of cancer diet. 482 00:26:54,424 --> 00:26:56,790 Oh, I was referring to your mood. 483 00:26:56,792 --> 00:26:59,860 Well, I could try moping 484 00:26:59,862 --> 00:27:01,161 if that would make you feel more... 485 00:27:01,163 --> 00:27:05,265 Well it's just no children, no spouse, 486 00:27:05,267 --> 00:27:09,269 no siblings, parents deceased. 487 00:27:09,271 --> 00:27:13,443 So moping it is. 488 00:27:18,581 --> 00:27:19,515 This isn't easy 489 00:27:22,251 --> 00:27:24,454 and sure as hell is a normal, which is weird 490 00:27:25,955 --> 00:27:27,556 because it happens to all of us. 491 00:27:37,266 --> 00:27:40,636 If you're worried about death and you're afraid to let go, 492 00:27:42,138 --> 00:27:43,639 I'd first asked myself this 493 00:27:45,374 --> 00:27:47,977 what kept me up at night before I got sick? 494 00:27:51,580 --> 00:27:54,083 Fear of death at it's core. 495 00:27:55,785 --> 00:27:57,686 So it was just fear of something else. 496 00:28:02,625 --> 00:28:04,193 What are you afraid of Valerie? 497 00:28:05,061 --> 00:28:07,495 - Val. - What? 498 00:28:07,497 --> 00:28:11,098 I thought we agreed to call me Val. 499 00:28:11,100 --> 00:28:12,566 Why'd you hire me, Val? 500 00:28:12,568 --> 00:28:15,104 You're not a Scientologist are you? 501 00:28:16,338 --> 00:28:17,838 Excuse me? 502 00:28:17,840 --> 00:28:19,139 Because you have like this weird vibe about you 503 00:28:19,141 --> 00:28:20,707 and your clothes 504 00:28:20,709 --> 00:28:22,976 like a sloppy Scientologist. 505 00:28:22,978 --> 00:28:25,779 Are Scientologists even allowed to be sloppy? 506 00:28:25,781 --> 00:28:27,014 Oh I see what you're doing. 507 00:28:27,016 --> 00:28:30,851 And you don't strike me as the horoscope. 508 00:28:30,853 --> 00:28:32,086 I bet I don't because I'm not. 509 00:28:32,088 --> 00:28:33,521 You know voodoo, magic numbers type. 510 00:28:33,523 --> 00:28:35,523 - I don't see a Ouija board. - Didn't bring one. 511 00:28:35,525 --> 00:28:36,723 I don't see any weird candles, 512 00:28:36,725 --> 00:28:38,959 I'm still trying to figure out what you are. 513 00:28:38,961 --> 00:28:42,397 Oh but you, you hired me. 514 00:28:42,399 --> 00:28:47,267 Oh honey, I hire just about everybody in this time zone, 515 00:28:47,269 --> 00:28:50,771 even tangentially connected with the business of dying. 516 00:28:50,773 --> 00:28:54,208 Apparently death is thriving these days. 517 00:28:54,210 --> 00:28:59,215 Oh, okay, so this is a joke to you. 518 00:29:00,983 --> 00:29:02,950 What's the alternative? 519 00:29:02,952 --> 00:29:04,552 Oh knock, knock. 520 00:29:04,554 --> 00:29:05,955 - Hey. - Hey. 521 00:29:06,856 --> 00:29:09,857 Oh, I'm sorry, am I early? 522 00:29:09,859 --> 00:29:12,759 I'm sure you know the answer to that already. 523 00:29:12,761 --> 00:29:15,430 Psychic humor, isn't Val the best? 524 00:29:15,432 --> 00:29:18,667 - You don't have to go. - Yes, I do. 525 00:29:19,735 --> 00:29:20,736 This isn't a joke. 526 00:29:22,938 --> 00:29:24,439 Take care. 527 00:29:24,441 --> 00:29:26,673 Oh, there is a lot of energy in this room today my dear. 528 00:29:26,675 --> 00:29:29,143 I hope you're ready for a killer reading. 529 00:29:29,145 --> 00:29:32,146 Didn't we agree on a no pun rule last time? 530 00:29:32,148 --> 00:29:33,714 - Yes we did. - You forgot? 531 00:29:33,716 --> 00:29:36,183 Yep, was she doing your horoscope? 532 00:29:36,185 --> 00:29:38,118 What are you, you're cancer. 533 00:29:38,120 --> 00:29:40,723 - No, I have cancer. - Oh, that's right. 534 00:29:41,924 --> 00:29:45,092 Ba-dum-bump, I know you're here all week. 535 00:29:49,098 --> 00:29:51,265 I'm just saying it's a thing that people do, 536 00:29:51,267 --> 00:29:53,100 most people on a regular basis. 537 00:29:53,102 --> 00:29:55,002 - Not me. - That's clear, 538 00:29:55,004 --> 00:29:57,371 but Mrs. Monroe is willing to pay for you to come back 539 00:29:57,373 --> 00:29:59,907 and she seemed, you know, fun, 540 00:29:59,909 --> 00:30:01,241 when I talked to her on the phone, 541 00:30:01,243 --> 00:30:03,977 did I mention she's willing to pay. 542 00:30:03,979 --> 00:30:04,912 I can't help her. 543 00:30:04,914 --> 00:30:05,846 She would suggest otherwise. 544 00:30:05,848 --> 00:30:07,415 She doesn't need what I offer. 545 00:30:07,417 --> 00:30:10,083 She just, I don't know what she's doing, 546 00:30:10,085 --> 00:30:13,020 but I'm not gonna be a part of her parade 547 00:30:13,022 --> 00:30:14,087 of death buddies. 548 00:30:14,089 --> 00:30:15,490 Death buddies? 549 00:30:15,492 --> 00:30:17,659 Apparently she's bringing in people that just, 550 00:30:17,661 --> 00:30:19,860 anybody who claims to know anything 551 00:30:19,862 --> 00:30:21,128 about this particular field. 552 00:30:21,130 --> 00:30:23,363 - Can you blame her? - What? 553 00:30:23,365 --> 00:30:24,767 She's dying, Lex? 554 00:30:25,935 --> 00:30:26,900 She's not scared. 555 00:30:26,902 --> 00:30:28,168 Is that a bad thing? 556 00:30:28,170 --> 00:30:30,103 Yeah because I help people who are dying, 557 00:30:30,105 --> 00:30:30,971 that's what I do. 558 00:30:30,973 --> 00:30:31,939 - Then fake it. - Fake. 559 00:30:31,941 --> 00:30:33,340 - Yeah. - Fake it. 560 00:30:33,342 --> 00:30:35,876 You go back, you say something, she's happy. 561 00:30:35,878 --> 00:30:37,445 We get paid, it's a win, win. 562 00:30:37,447 --> 00:30:40,415 There's an integrity to what I do. 563 00:30:40,417 --> 00:30:41,715 And it requires complete and total trust... 564 00:30:41,717 --> 00:30:44,253 Oh for god's sake Lex, just be normal. 565 00:30:45,622 --> 00:30:46,887 - What? - Be normal. 566 00:30:46,889 --> 00:30:48,956 Do normal things, live a normal life. 567 00:30:48,958 --> 00:30:51,024 If someone wants to pay for your services, 568 00:30:51,026 --> 00:30:52,960 you do the best you can. 569 00:30:52,962 --> 00:30:54,861 And sometimes yes, you have to show up 570 00:30:54,863 --> 00:30:57,398 and do the things you don't wanna do. 571 00:30:57,400 --> 00:30:59,266 That's why it's called work. 572 00:30:59,268 --> 00:31:01,902 It's how everyone else operates. 573 00:31:01,904 --> 00:31:04,871 Why would I want to be like everyone else? 574 00:31:04,873 --> 00:31:06,942 Because it has to be better than this. 575 00:31:26,061 --> 00:31:26,994 Dad. 576 00:31:26,996 --> 00:31:28,531 Are you seeing this too? 577 00:31:31,033 --> 00:31:32,533 We should call the police. 578 00:31:32,535 --> 00:31:34,404 Am I dead, did have a stroke in the parking lot? 579 00:31:35,971 --> 00:31:38,372 Yeah, I want to report a break in. 580 00:31:38,374 --> 00:31:39,306 Don't touch anything. 581 00:31:39,308 --> 00:31:41,542 They're gonna wanna get prints. 582 00:31:41,544 --> 00:31:44,778 Yeah, no, technically they didn't take anything, 583 00:31:44,780 --> 00:31:46,282 nothing's damaged. 584 00:31:47,983 --> 00:31:50,817 Hazelnut, let this be my final memory. 585 00:31:50,819 --> 00:31:51,952 I'm ready now. 586 00:31:51,954 --> 00:31:53,655 I don't know. 587 00:31:53,657 --> 00:31:57,226 They fucking tidied everything up like aggressively. 588 00:31:58,595 --> 00:31:59,396 Hello? 589 00:32:06,670 --> 00:32:09,936 You guys should consider investing in a watering can. 590 00:32:09,938 --> 00:32:11,907 It's really hard to fit this thing under the sink. 591 00:32:16,680 --> 00:32:18,413 Are you some sort of angel or something? 592 00:32:18,415 --> 00:32:20,180 Oh my God, you're a zombie. 593 00:32:20,182 --> 00:32:21,416 - I'm Nora. - Gary, 594 00:32:21,418 --> 00:32:22,349 wonderful to meet you. 595 00:32:22,351 --> 00:32:24,985 Nora Shaw, the coma girl. 596 00:32:24,987 --> 00:32:25,921 The coma, oh. 597 00:32:26,790 --> 00:32:29,457 Oh, you look great. 598 00:32:29,459 --> 00:32:30,725 Well, you know, not dying 599 00:32:30,727 --> 00:32:32,859 has really done wonders for my complexion. 600 00:32:32,861 --> 00:32:34,529 - What the hell? - Lex. 601 00:32:34,531 --> 00:32:36,096 No, it's fair. 602 00:32:36,098 --> 00:32:38,433 Turns out that last round of experimental drugs, 603 00:32:38,435 --> 00:32:39,933 not so sweet after all. 604 00:32:39,935 --> 00:32:42,570 You can't just break into a place of business. 605 00:32:42,572 --> 00:32:46,173 I wasn't planning on it, I just came by to say, thank you, 606 00:32:46,175 --> 00:32:47,675 but when I looked in the window, 607 00:32:47,677 --> 00:32:49,142 I assumed that the place had been robbed or something, 608 00:32:49,144 --> 00:32:51,144 you know, maybe even a violent kidnapping of sorts. 609 00:32:51,146 --> 00:32:52,680 Thank me for what? 610 00:32:52,682 --> 00:32:54,348 Well, I'm not dead, so that's sort of something. 611 00:32:54,350 --> 00:32:55,949 I had nothing to do with that. 612 00:32:55,951 --> 00:32:58,285 I'm not saying that you're a miracle worker, 613 00:32:58,287 --> 00:33:00,488 but something happened that night. 614 00:33:00,490 --> 00:33:04,726 Something more than just medicine or whatever. 615 00:33:04,728 --> 00:33:05,859 You saved my life. 616 00:33:05,861 --> 00:33:07,395 No I didn't. 617 00:33:07,397 --> 00:33:08,629 Well, you might have and that's good enough for me. 618 00:33:08,631 --> 00:33:11,799 - What do you want? - I owe you. 619 00:33:11,801 --> 00:33:13,133 You've done more than enough. 620 00:33:13,135 --> 00:33:15,470 I mean, bagels, wonderful touch. 621 00:33:15,472 --> 00:33:17,672 Yeah, okay, so we're even, you can go. 622 00:33:17,674 --> 00:33:19,540 You saved my life, now I have to save yours. 623 00:33:19,542 --> 00:33:20,775 It's basic Samurai code. 624 00:33:20,777 --> 00:33:22,477 - That's stupid. - You're stupid. 625 00:33:22,479 --> 00:33:23,745 I'm not dying. 626 00:33:23,747 --> 00:33:26,079 Technically, we're all dying every day, 627 00:33:26,081 --> 00:33:29,584 just a long slow march towards the inevitable 628 00:33:29,586 --> 00:33:30,951 and eternal darkness. 629 00:33:30,953 --> 00:33:33,120 I'm assuming you want the Asiago? 630 00:33:33,122 --> 00:33:34,858 - How can I help? - You can't. 631 00:33:36,959 --> 00:33:40,797 We're fine, really and thanks for everything. 632 00:33:55,378 --> 00:34:00,113 No, Bushido, leaving, isn't an option. 633 00:34:00,115 --> 00:34:01,248 What the fuck? 634 00:34:01,250 --> 00:34:02,717 Righteousness. 635 00:34:02,719 --> 00:34:05,420 I'm definitely right about this. 636 00:34:05,422 --> 00:34:06,920 Courage. 637 00:34:06,922 --> 00:34:08,221 Only a coward would abandon you in your time of need. 638 00:34:08,223 --> 00:34:09,925 - My time of need. - Benevolence. 639 00:34:11,026 --> 00:34:12,227 You're welcome. 640 00:34:13,663 --> 00:34:14,497 Respect. 641 00:34:15,665 --> 00:34:17,297 Are you enjoying your bagel, Mr. Cordova? 642 00:34:17,299 --> 00:34:18,633 I am, thank you. 643 00:34:18,635 --> 00:34:21,067 Sincerity, I owe you my life Lex. 644 00:34:21,069 --> 00:34:22,670 - No you don't. - Honor. 645 00:34:22,672 --> 00:34:25,873 I won't rest until I save your life too. 646 00:34:25,875 --> 00:34:27,274 Self control. 647 00:34:27,276 --> 00:34:28,743 I'll refrain from using 648 00:34:28,745 --> 00:34:30,343 my deadly martial arts slash sword skills on you 649 00:34:30,345 --> 00:34:32,078 whenever you're being an asshole, 650 00:34:32,080 --> 00:34:34,247 which from what I can tell is quite often. 651 00:34:34,249 --> 00:34:37,184 - I like her. - And loyalty. 652 00:34:37,186 --> 00:34:39,821 I promise to never abandon you unless the time comes 653 00:34:39,823 --> 00:34:40,954 when you no longer need me. 654 00:34:40,956 --> 00:34:42,924 Holy shit, that's right now, 655 00:34:42,926 --> 00:34:44,892 Sometimes people need to do something for somebody else 656 00:34:44,894 --> 00:34:48,629 in order to deal with their own shit, okay. 657 00:34:48,631 --> 00:34:50,798 - So? - So what? 658 00:34:50,800 --> 00:34:54,435 - How do we fix you? - I'm not broken. 659 00:34:54,437 --> 00:34:57,440 You do have a few issues. 660 00:34:58,608 --> 00:35:02,610 I don't have to, are, man you can't be here, 661 00:35:02,612 --> 00:35:03,711 we have work to do. 662 00:35:03,713 --> 00:35:05,446 - No, we don't. - Dad! 663 00:35:05,448 --> 00:35:07,381 You turned down our only current job offer, 664 00:35:07,383 --> 00:35:08,683 So unless you want to, you know, 665 00:35:08,685 --> 00:35:10,818 reconsider going back to the hospital and working 666 00:35:10,820 --> 00:35:14,489 with Mrs. Monroe, we have all the time in the world. 667 00:35:14,491 --> 00:35:16,392 Great, where should we start? 668 00:35:41,016 --> 00:35:43,920 What are the cards for? 669 00:35:46,088 --> 00:35:47,622 They're part of the job 670 00:35:47,624 --> 00:35:51,893 The, oh, what is it, the fatality fixes? 671 00:35:51,895 --> 00:35:53,895 - Mortality Solution. - Yes, right, 672 00:35:53,897 --> 00:35:56,198 I knew it was something catchy. 673 00:35:58,735 --> 00:36:00,066 So what's on them? 674 00:36:00,068 --> 00:36:01,404 - What? - The cards. 675 00:36:03,640 --> 00:36:04,805 That's really none of your business. 676 00:36:04,807 --> 00:36:06,440 Okay, now look, I don't care, 677 00:36:06,442 --> 00:36:08,378 I was just trying to make conversation. 678 00:36:12,080 --> 00:36:14,080 Val doesn't invite too many people back a second time, 679 00:36:14,082 --> 00:36:15,348 so I figured it would be good 680 00:36:15,350 --> 00:36:16,817 to see where you're coming from. 681 00:36:16,819 --> 00:36:18,486 Money's not going to be an issue by the way. 682 00:36:18,488 --> 00:36:19,987 What? 683 00:36:19,989 --> 00:36:23,089 For Val, I mean, she's got more than enough to go around 684 00:36:23,091 --> 00:36:26,259 so there's plenty of room for us to do what we do. 685 00:36:26,261 --> 00:36:27,795 I'm a psychic medium in case you were wondering. 686 00:36:27,797 --> 00:36:29,296 - I wasn't. - Really? 687 00:36:29,298 --> 00:36:31,699 Because I kinda got the sense that you were there 688 00:36:31,701 --> 00:36:33,266 - for a second... - I really gotta get back. 689 00:36:33,268 --> 00:36:34,537 The cards right, sorry. 690 00:36:39,308 --> 00:36:40,808 So what's your angle? 691 00:36:40,810 --> 00:36:41,909 My what? 692 00:36:41,911 --> 00:36:42,743 I mean, how do you build trust? 693 00:36:42,745 --> 00:36:44,244 Is it a cold read, 694 00:36:44,246 --> 00:36:45,780 is it a hot read, is that what the cards are for? 695 00:36:45,782 --> 00:36:48,583 I mean, like they, it's like Val's background information 696 00:36:48,585 --> 00:36:49,517 - and then... - It's real. 697 00:36:49,519 --> 00:36:50,851 - What? - What I do. 698 00:36:50,853 --> 00:36:53,421 - What do you mean? - Like real. 699 00:36:53,423 --> 00:36:55,923 - As opposed to... - A lie, a scam, 700 00:36:55,925 --> 00:36:56,926 total bullshit. 701 00:37:02,031 --> 00:37:02,832 Wow. 702 00:37:04,199 --> 00:37:09,104 I wasn't, I didn't, whatever, I gotta get back to this. 703 00:37:10,073 --> 00:37:12,075 - The anger. - What? 704 00:37:14,010 --> 00:37:15,511 So present in your being. 705 00:37:17,447 --> 00:37:19,547 - What are you? - And it's deep, 706 00:37:19,549 --> 00:37:21,451 buried, entrenched in every cell. 707 00:37:24,787 --> 00:37:27,955 You're not angry at someone, it's much deeper than that. 708 00:37:27,957 --> 00:37:32,627 What is it, the universe, God, most profound concepts 709 00:37:32,629 --> 00:37:34,729 that you can conjure up in your head. 710 00:37:34,731 --> 00:37:37,332 You've got enough anger inside of you to destroy it. 711 00:37:40,202 --> 00:37:43,205 - Oh fuck me. - But it doesn't complete you. 712 00:37:44,272 --> 00:37:45,173 And you know that. 713 00:37:49,912 --> 00:37:53,583 Still there's that part of you that you can feel, 714 00:37:56,953 --> 00:38:00,023 but it's empty, it's questions without answers. 715 00:38:04,694 --> 00:38:05,795 I think seems fair. 716 00:38:11,100 --> 00:38:13,002 You know when it's not. 717 00:38:19,174 --> 00:38:23,012 But you are not alone, Lex, you're not alone. 718 00:38:32,254 --> 00:38:33,219 Now tell me that shit isn't real. 719 00:38:33,221 --> 00:38:34,422 Oh my god, you're messed up. 720 00:38:34,424 --> 00:38:35,523 I know, I was just proving a point. 721 00:38:35,525 --> 00:38:37,725 You have problems. 722 00:38:37,727 --> 00:38:39,393 Well, you're good, you're well adjusted. 723 00:38:39,395 --> 00:38:41,162 Hey, you know, you shouldn't be so sensitive. 724 00:38:41,164 --> 00:38:42,932 It just kinda fucks with your aura. 725 00:38:55,745 --> 00:38:57,878 - Raise. - I really don't have time- 726 00:38:57,880 --> 00:39:00,246 - This is interesting 'cause Doug's been betting hard 727 00:39:00,248 --> 00:39:01,449 since the very beginning. 728 00:39:01,451 --> 00:39:03,718 So I don't see how the turn or the river 729 00:39:03,720 --> 00:39:07,455 could have possibly helped you so I know, you're bluffing 730 00:39:07,457 --> 00:39:09,623 and Grogan's been suspiciously quiet 731 00:39:09,625 --> 00:39:12,026 through the entire hand. 732 00:39:12,028 --> 00:39:13,961 So that makes me think he's blocked the set, 733 00:39:13,963 --> 00:39:15,429 which leads me to Terry. 734 00:39:15,431 --> 00:39:18,835 I haven't been able to get a read on you all day. 735 00:39:23,539 --> 00:39:25,338 He thinks we're playing go fish. 736 00:39:25,340 --> 00:39:26,507 Okay, forget it. 737 00:39:26,509 --> 00:39:30,144 Okay, we'll take this up tomorrow, boys. 738 00:39:30,146 --> 00:39:32,747 Same time, same place. 739 00:39:32,749 --> 00:39:34,014 I know where you work, 740 00:39:34,016 --> 00:39:36,251 go settle up with my goons on the way out. 741 00:39:39,622 --> 00:39:42,156 - What? - This isn't a game. 742 00:39:42,158 --> 00:39:46,994 It literally is, was until you pissed all over it. 743 00:39:46,996 --> 00:39:48,696 - What do you want? - I want pizza. 744 00:39:48,698 --> 00:39:50,131 - Then order one. - I'm not hungry. 745 00:39:50,133 --> 00:39:51,632 Then why do you want a pizza? 746 00:39:51,634 --> 00:39:55,301 I want you to order it so that if I'm not up for it, 747 00:39:55,303 --> 00:39:57,270 it can be yours and then I don't have to be 748 00:39:57,272 --> 00:39:58,839 all depressed about a missed opportunity. 749 00:39:58,841 --> 00:40:00,941 Okay, well guess what, I'm not here to order you food. 750 00:40:00,943 --> 00:40:03,276 The Wiccan priestess was much more amenable than you. 751 00:40:03,278 --> 00:40:05,079 Oh really, I'll go get her. 752 00:40:05,081 --> 00:40:07,150 I want to want pizza. 753 00:40:08,584 --> 00:40:10,084 I haven't been hungry for months. 754 00:40:10,086 --> 00:40:12,086 Even when I get high, 755 00:40:12,088 --> 00:40:14,488 it's like, oh that hospital jello looks kind of, 756 00:40:14,490 --> 00:40:17,024 no I'm nauseous. 757 00:40:17,026 --> 00:40:22,031 I wanna want things still, I miss that. 758 00:40:30,305 --> 00:40:32,338 What do you want from me? 759 00:40:32,340 --> 00:40:36,076 I want you to stay for the remaining eight minutes 760 00:40:36,078 --> 00:40:38,946 of the session that I'm paying you for. 761 00:40:38,948 --> 00:40:41,347 - Why? - Why not? 762 00:40:41,349 --> 00:40:43,117 Isn't the customer always right? 763 00:40:43,119 --> 00:40:46,387 I'm not an Applebee's I do one thing, that's it, 764 00:40:46,389 --> 00:40:47,788 and you don't need it. 765 00:40:47,790 --> 00:40:50,724 - And what is that? - I remove fear. 766 00:40:50,726 --> 00:40:53,060 You're not afraid, Valerie, you're just lonely. 767 00:40:53,062 --> 00:40:55,129 So save me from that. 768 00:40:55,131 --> 00:40:57,264 It seems like a pretty valid service to me. 769 00:40:57,266 --> 00:40:58,532 Yeah, the one thing you can get 770 00:40:58,534 --> 00:41:00,501 from pretty much any hospice nurse. 771 00:41:00,503 --> 00:41:01,869 There is something about the, 772 00:41:01,871 --> 00:41:04,872 "We'll just make you comfortable until you fade away," 773 00:41:04,874 --> 00:41:06,473 that I don't know, it's not for me. 774 00:41:06,475 --> 00:41:07,708 Well, I guess that's why 775 00:41:07,710 --> 00:41:08,909 you have your psychic friend just waiting 776 00:41:08,911 --> 00:41:13,783 in the wings, either way, I am done. 777 00:41:15,685 --> 00:41:18,855 - What about you? - What about me? 778 00:41:19,789 --> 00:41:21,188 You know, so much about fear, 779 00:41:21,190 --> 00:41:22,389 what are you afraid of? 780 00:41:22,391 --> 00:41:23,492 This isn't about me. 781 00:41:24,694 --> 00:41:27,563 When you're on your death bed 782 00:41:28,998 --> 00:41:31,364 and you have to call someone like yourself to, 783 00:41:31,366 --> 00:41:34,568 I don't know, exercise your demons, 784 00:41:34,570 --> 00:41:36,639 what's the thing you'll be worried about? 785 00:41:40,343 --> 00:41:41,709 What are we doing here? 786 00:41:41,711 --> 00:41:44,845 We're talking like people. 787 00:41:44,847 --> 00:41:46,480 Get a chance to do that much? 788 00:41:46,482 --> 00:41:49,049 Yeah part of my job is building trust with my clients, 789 00:41:49,051 --> 00:41:53,254 so we talk and share or whatever, so yeah. 790 00:41:53,256 --> 00:41:54,955 - What about everyone else? - Who? 791 00:41:54,957 --> 00:41:57,725 People who aren't about to die? 792 00:41:57,727 --> 00:42:00,995 Do you talk and share and whatever with them? 793 00:42:00,997 --> 00:42:02,596 - Why does it matter? - Why doesn't it? 794 00:42:02,598 --> 00:42:04,164 - Do you have anyone? - For what? 795 00:42:04,166 --> 00:42:05,401 To talk to. 796 00:42:10,473 --> 00:42:15,075 You want to help finish the job you wanna help me let go. 797 00:42:15,077 --> 00:42:18,178 You want to build that trust. 798 00:42:18,180 --> 00:42:20,316 Well my trust comes at a premium, Lex. 799 00:42:23,319 --> 00:42:25,087 Come sit down, come on. 800 00:42:43,839 --> 00:42:47,076 - My dad. - What? 801 00:42:48,611 --> 00:42:51,345 I have my dad, we talk all the time. 802 00:42:51,347 --> 00:42:52,880 Well, parents don't count. 803 00:42:52,882 --> 00:42:54,016 I didn't say parents. 804 00:42:57,954 --> 00:42:58,888 Just your dad. 805 00:43:02,191 --> 00:43:06,360 Well, he's either way, you know, 806 00:43:06,362 --> 00:43:08,430 genetically disposed to give a shit about you, 807 00:43:08,432 --> 00:43:11,465 which is great that he cares, but it doesn't count 808 00:43:11,467 --> 00:43:12,967 till you get out there and earn one. 809 00:43:12,969 --> 00:43:15,805 - Earn one? - Yeah, a person. 810 00:43:17,707 --> 00:43:22,712 You find someone, no ties, 811 00:43:23,913 --> 00:43:27,481 just a person out in the world and you earn their 812 00:43:27,483 --> 00:43:32,488 giving a shit about you, love, friendship, something real. 813 00:43:38,361 --> 00:43:40,227 Then you got a chance. 814 00:43:40,229 --> 00:43:41,063 For what? 815 00:43:49,872 --> 00:43:50,706 For what? 816 00:43:54,710 --> 00:43:57,713 I'm not talking until I see that pizza. 817 00:44:07,723 --> 00:44:10,924 I knew you were gonna do that. 818 00:44:10,926 --> 00:44:12,460 What is that? 819 00:45:58,134 --> 00:46:00,701 Actually we charge a flat fee, not hourly 820 00:46:00,703 --> 00:46:02,636 so there's no benefit in you 821 00:46:02,638 --> 00:46:05,839 trying to expedite the death of your grandfather. 822 00:46:05,841 --> 00:46:08,476 That actually might put you in a bit of a legal, gray area, 823 00:46:08,478 --> 00:46:12,312 so, okay, yeah, great. 824 00:46:12,314 --> 00:46:15,349 You let us know and we'll be happy to help him with whatever 825 00:46:15,351 --> 00:46:17,219 existential crisis he may be having. 826 00:46:18,388 --> 00:46:20,455 Okay, yeah, you have a great day. 827 00:46:20,457 --> 00:46:21,724 You too, bye. 828 00:46:22,658 --> 00:46:23,857 You guys are late. 829 00:46:23,859 --> 00:46:25,792 Lex has been putting in a lot of hours 830 00:46:25,794 --> 00:46:27,462 at the hospital lately, 831 00:46:27,464 --> 00:46:28,662 I thought I'd let her sleep in. 832 00:46:28,664 --> 00:46:30,998 Big mistake, I have a lot to get done. 833 00:46:31,000 --> 00:46:32,266 Actually your week is pretty open 834 00:46:32,268 --> 00:46:33,403 other than Mrs. Monroe. 835 00:46:35,371 --> 00:46:38,205 You've been staring at her file for weeks. 836 00:46:38,207 --> 00:46:39,407 Just trying to do my job. 837 00:46:39,409 --> 00:46:41,411 Probably gonna have it memorized soon? 838 00:46:42,978 --> 00:46:44,612 You actually memorized it. 839 00:46:44,614 --> 00:46:45,913 - So? - So it's weird. 840 00:46:45,915 --> 00:46:47,517 Well, there's gotta be a clue, 841 00:46:48,585 --> 00:46:50,017 a tell. 842 00:46:50,019 --> 00:46:52,152 I don't know, everybody's afraid of something. 843 00:46:52,154 --> 00:46:53,555 - I hate rats. - Heights. 844 00:46:53,557 --> 00:46:54,755 Undercooked meat. 845 00:46:54,757 --> 00:46:57,026 - Moist towelettes. - You guys mind? 846 00:46:58,093 --> 00:46:59,195 Oh, I almost forgot. 847 00:47:00,696 --> 00:47:03,697 You got a message from some guy named Spencer. 848 00:47:03,699 --> 00:47:05,032 Thanks for dinner. 849 00:47:05,034 --> 00:47:06,503 Spencer, huh? 850 00:47:09,338 --> 00:47:10,837 I didn't realize she had friends. 851 00:47:10,839 --> 00:47:12,806 - Neither did I. - Interesting. 852 00:47:12,808 --> 00:47:14,174 Yes, yes it is. 853 00:47:14,176 --> 00:47:17,681 I, we, I gave him an old pizza and we didn't, 854 00:47:18,615 --> 00:47:20,948 I didn't, it was his old. 855 00:47:20,950 --> 00:47:23,250 - Are you blushing? - You're blushing. 856 00:47:23,252 --> 00:47:25,455 Actually she looks kind of pale, you okay? 857 00:47:26,755 --> 00:47:28,324 - I'm fine. - You sure? 858 00:47:29,792 --> 00:47:31,959 I didn't have a romantic Italian dinner last night 859 00:47:31,961 --> 00:47:33,561 but other than that I'm fine. 860 00:47:34,397 --> 00:47:35,231 The cheese was cold. 861 00:47:36,433 --> 00:47:37,967 I didn't take it out of the box for him. 862 00:47:40,236 --> 00:47:42,035 Crust was really greasy, it was gross. 863 00:47:42,037 --> 00:47:45,839 The pepperoncini was all soggy, I don't like that. 864 00:47:45,841 --> 00:47:48,242 And it's not like I even ate it with him. 865 00:47:48,244 --> 00:47:50,844 So I don't see what the big deal is. 866 00:47:50,846 --> 00:47:52,279 Clearly, it's not. 867 00:47:52,281 --> 00:47:53,548 Okay, let's change the subject. 868 00:47:53,550 --> 00:47:54,848 You brought it up. 869 00:47:54,850 --> 00:47:56,083 Okay, well now I'm changing it. 870 00:47:56,085 --> 00:48:01,023 - To what? - Well, you. 871 00:48:01,491 --> 00:48:02,624 Me. 872 00:48:02,626 --> 00:48:04,461 That's why we're here, right? 873 00:48:05,828 --> 00:48:10,230 Okay, my urine looks like ice tea. 874 00:48:10,232 --> 00:48:11,765 That's not at all... 875 00:48:11,767 --> 00:48:14,067 Seriously, that baggy thing, 876 00:48:14,069 --> 00:48:16,937 looks like a fresh batch of Lipton. 877 00:48:16,939 --> 00:48:18,774 - Thank you for that. - Yeah. 878 00:48:19,975 --> 00:48:22,646 I suppose to mean, I'm getting close 879 00:48:23,747 --> 00:48:25,047 when it looks like that. 880 00:48:26,181 --> 00:48:27,781 I know. 881 00:48:27,783 --> 00:48:29,417 Of course you do, you do this all the time, 882 00:48:29,419 --> 00:48:31,153 this is my first crack at death. 883 00:48:34,457 --> 00:48:35,759 How do you feel about that? 884 00:48:40,296 --> 00:48:43,398 Well, you know how, when you first turn 18 885 00:48:43,400 --> 00:48:47,769 and they're telling you you're finally an adult 886 00:48:47,771 --> 00:48:49,504 and you still feel like a little kid 887 00:48:49,506 --> 00:48:53,807 and then you turn 40 and everybody's telling you 888 00:48:53,809 --> 00:48:57,978 you're finally established and maybe you even play the part 889 00:48:57,980 --> 00:49:02,918 but deep inside you still feel like a scared 20-year-old. 890 00:49:07,256 --> 00:49:10,427 They told me my 50's would bring wisdom. 891 00:49:11,827 --> 00:49:15,430 I still can't get past the first page of Ulysses. 892 00:49:15,432 --> 00:49:18,899 And I like sharing memes on Facebook. 893 00:49:24,273 --> 00:49:25,709 Oh, okay hold on. 894 00:49:27,843 --> 00:49:29,512 Just a sec, just a sec. 895 00:49:30,979 --> 00:49:34,482 Incoming, there's a little one, hold on, one second, 896 00:49:34,484 --> 00:49:35,918 give me a second. 897 00:49:44,159 --> 00:49:44,993 Thanks. 898 00:49:50,700 --> 00:49:55,705 So when it comes to dying, 899 00:49:56,939 --> 00:50:00,040 the most inevitable process we have, 900 00:50:00,042 --> 00:50:02,978 I guess I still haven't bought in. 901 00:50:04,781 --> 00:50:05,682 I'm not there yet. 902 00:50:09,586 --> 00:50:12,822 Seriously, why do you do this? 903 00:50:16,793 --> 00:50:19,159 You ever watched someone die? 904 00:50:19,161 --> 00:50:20,994 Like really be there till the end. 905 00:50:20,996 --> 00:50:24,634 - No. - It's beautiful. 906 00:50:26,902 --> 00:50:28,870 I mean, it's weird obviously for the reasons 907 00:50:28,872 --> 00:50:29,905 that it would be 908 00:50:34,411 --> 00:50:38,280 but facing death like sharing that with someone, 909 00:50:39,783 --> 00:50:44,754 no baggage, no bullshit, just perfect human exchange, 910 00:50:49,793 --> 00:50:51,561 there's nothing terrifying about it. 911 00:50:59,736 --> 00:51:04,106 My mom died fast, it was a car accident when I was a kid. 912 00:51:06,743 --> 00:51:10,210 It was a semi truck that just crossed the line for a second, 913 00:51:10,212 --> 00:51:11,881 spilled coffee or something. 914 00:51:14,183 --> 00:51:17,052 Just completely obliterated the driver's side of the car. 915 00:51:19,389 --> 00:51:22,692 My dad was in the passenger seat, I was behind him. 916 00:51:24,794 --> 00:51:25,929 Not a scratch on us. 917 00:51:30,567 --> 00:51:32,669 She didn't even get a chance to scream. 918 00:51:37,239 --> 00:51:42,244 So I wondered if there was that moment, 919 00:51:45,080 --> 00:51:46,616 a fraction of a second 920 00:51:47,750 --> 00:51:49,619 that the terror really set in for her. 921 00:51:51,353 --> 00:51:53,588 Just that knowing that was it. 922 00:51:53,590 --> 00:51:57,694 No resolution, no answers, no goodbye. 923 00:52:19,716 --> 00:52:24,084 You have that chance to come to terms with whatever it is 924 00:52:24,086 --> 00:52:29,091 that you're still lingering to say anything, 925 00:52:29,692 --> 00:52:30,092 to ask anything. 926 00:52:32,027 --> 00:52:35,932 - Lex. - What a gift, 927 00:52:37,132 --> 00:52:39,567 you are so lucky you don't even know it. 928 00:52:39,569 --> 00:52:41,101 What are you doing? 929 00:52:41,103 --> 00:52:44,007 You got to have that moment, you get to write the end. 930 00:52:45,207 --> 00:52:46,707 Just stop. 931 00:52:46,709 --> 00:52:49,510 Whatever you're holding on to, whatever you're afraid of 932 00:52:49,512 --> 00:52:53,983 let it go on your terms before it's too late. 933 00:52:55,485 --> 00:52:59,756 Let go, let go. 934 00:53:12,702 --> 00:53:16,005 Let me know if you make it out of that car. 935 00:54:00,083 --> 00:54:03,886 Hey, how's, everything okay? 936 00:54:06,623 --> 00:54:07,590 Take care of her. 937 00:54:25,173 --> 00:54:27,375 Good job, next up from Star city, it's our friend, Betty. 938 00:54:27,377 --> 00:54:28,609 How are you Betty? 939 00:54:28,611 --> 00:54:30,811 Never underestimate the Salisbury steak? 940 00:54:30,813 --> 00:54:33,213 What it lacks in presentation more than makes up for. 941 00:54:33,215 --> 00:54:35,783 In meat-like calories. 942 00:54:35,785 --> 00:54:37,283 Give it a try at least, 943 00:54:37,285 --> 00:54:39,987 I haven't really seen you eat much since you've been here. 944 00:54:39,989 --> 00:54:41,422 Still getting my appetite back. 945 00:54:41,424 --> 00:54:46,159 Aren't you like missing school or something? 946 00:54:46,161 --> 00:54:47,360 Lex. 947 00:54:47,362 --> 00:54:48,963 Do your parents even know you're here? 948 00:54:48,965 --> 00:54:50,831 I'm on a Samurai honor mission. 949 00:54:50,833 --> 00:54:53,100 They respect that unlike some people. 950 00:54:53,102 --> 00:54:56,103 A Samurai secretary, what more can you ask for? 951 00:54:56,105 --> 00:54:57,805 Samurai administrative assistant. 952 00:54:57,807 --> 00:54:59,674 Right, of course, forgive me for not being up to date on. 953 00:54:59,676 --> 00:55:00,841 She's 17. 954 00:55:00,843 --> 00:55:02,743 I have a timeless warrior soul. 955 00:55:02,745 --> 00:55:03,611 It's true. 956 00:55:03,613 --> 00:55:04,845 She can't... 957 00:55:04,847 --> 00:55:07,081 What, make coffee and answer phones. 958 00:55:07,083 --> 00:55:08,518 I strongly disagree. 959 00:55:10,853 --> 00:55:14,021 And type almost 50 words per minute, 960 00:55:14,023 --> 00:55:15,556 I tested her yesterday. 961 00:55:15,558 --> 00:55:17,124 When was the last time you guys dusted? 962 00:55:17,126 --> 00:55:18,526 Why? 963 00:55:18,528 --> 00:55:20,930 Excess dust is bad for the respiratory system. 964 00:55:22,165 --> 00:55:24,100 Why are you still here? 965 00:55:25,001 --> 00:55:25,833 Look at us. 966 00:55:25,835 --> 00:55:27,735 Look at our lives. 967 00:55:27,737 --> 00:55:29,603 That's exactly why I'm still here. 968 00:55:29,605 --> 00:55:31,172 Your sadness clearly extends 969 00:55:31,174 --> 00:55:33,273 well beyond the walls of your business. 970 00:55:33,275 --> 00:55:36,977 Until we figure out how to fix you, you're stuck with me. 971 00:55:36,979 --> 00:55:39,547 - No. - Yes. 972 00:55:39,549 --> 00:55:41,214 If you don't call her parents, I will. 973 00:55:41,216 --> 00:55:44,284 My parents deferred to you when they thought I was dying. 974 00:55:44,286 --> 00:55:46,153 You think they're worried, now? 975 00:55:46,155 --> 00:55:49,090 I'm a badass with an ancient code. 976 00:55:49,092 --> 00:55:50,458 You don't have to worry about me. 977 00:55:50,460 --> 00:55:51,992 You on the other hand, well. 978 00:56:00,268 --> 00:56:01,502 Why aren't we answering the door? 979 00:56:01,504 --> 00:56:04,270 We don't get many visitors around here. 980 00:56:05,808 --> 00:56:07,043 This is ridiculous. 981 00:56:13,149 --> 00:56:16,953 - Is Lex here? - Yes she is. 982 00:56:19,655 --> 00:56:20,690 Hey, can we talk? 983 00:56:22,492 --> 00:56:23,926 - What are you... - It's Val. 984 00:56:26,162 --> 00:56:29,029 - What's wrong? - Invite him in Lex. 985 00:56:29,031 --> 00:56:31,198 Yeah, Lex, invite him in. 986 00:56:31,200 --> 00:56:33,100 - Who are you? - I'm Nora, 987 00:56:33,102 --> 00:56:34,735 Lex brought me back from the dead. 988 00:56:34,737 --> 00:56:36,904 You must be Spencer. 989 00:56:36,906 --> 00:56:38,172 Yeah, can we go someplace and just... 990 00:56:38,174 --> 00:56:40,674 Hey Spencer, pardon my daughter's manners. 991 00:56:40,676 --> 00:56:43,244 We don't get a lot of drop-ins around here. 992 00:56:43,246 --> 00:56:46,348 Would you like to join us for dinner, we're having steak. 993 00:56:49,819 --> 00:56:50,820 I'll grab my coat. 994 00:56:57,026 --> 00:56:58,592 - You kids have fun. - Okay go. 995 00:56:58,594 --> 00:56:59,927 But not too much fun. 996 00:56:59,929 --> 00:57:00,730 I'm just kidding. 997 00:57:08,871 --> 00:57:11,939 You guys really like your food compartmentalized. 998 00:57:11,941 --> 00:57:13,607 I've had some great meals here. 999 00:57:13,609 --> 00:57:15,676 I hear it is one of the better hospital cafeterias 1000 00:57:15,678 --> 00:57:16,911 in town. 1001 00:57:16,913 --> 00:57:18,114 It's actually the only one, so. 1002 00:57:20,516 --> 00:57:21,482 Oh you were making a joke? 1003 00:57:21,484 --> 00:57:23,017 Yes, I was. 1004 00:57:23,019 --> 00:57:24,418 This is called banter. 1005 00:57:24,420 --> 00:57:28,389 Is that why you brought me here to banter? 1006 00:57:28,391 --> 00:57:29,322 You've gotta be a lot of fun at parties. 1007 00:57:29,324 --> 00:57:30,624 I don't go to parties. 1008 00:57:30,626 --> 00:57:32,628 Really, are you too busy dating? 1009 00:57:34,797 --> 00:57:39,802 - Banter. - Is this a date? 1010 00:57:50,680 --> 00:57:51,512 I'm sorry. 1011 00:57:51,514 --> 00:57:52,379 What's wrong with Val? 1012 00:57:52,381 --> 00:57:53,581 You tell me. 1013 00:57:53,583 --> 00:57:56,150 - You brought me here. - She's different. 1014 00:57:56,152 --> 00:57:57,785 What? 1015 00:57:57,787 --> 00:57:59,854 Whatever it was that you said to her, I don't know, 1016 00:57:59,856 --> 00:58:02,690 she, I know that she plays things off 1017 00:58:02,692 --> 00:58:06,026 like it doesn't actually matter, but she, you know, 1018 00:58:06,028 --> 00:58:07,595 it's different, she's different. 1019 00:58:07,597 --> 00:58:09,530 And I don't think she's okay. 1020 00:58:09,532 --> 00:58:10,497 - She's dying. - Yeah. 1021 00:58:10,499 --> 00:58:11,532 That's not what I mean. 1022 00:58:11,534 --> 00:58:12,367 I know. 1023 00:58:14,170 --> 00:58:15,636 She told you what I said. 1024 00:58:15,638 --> 00:58:18,939 I heard it through the, was it true? 1025 00:58:18,941 --> 00:58:21,175 - What? - Stuff about your mom? 1026 00:58:21,177 --> 00:58:22,977 Why would I lie about that? 1027 00:58:22,979 --> 00:58:24,411 - I don't know. - Would you? 1028 00:58:24,413 --> 00:58:26,313 Look, there's a lot of gray area doing 1029 00:58:26,315 --> 00:58:27,314 what it is that we do. 1030 00:58:27,316 --> 00:58:28,849 We don't do the same thing. 1031 00:58:28,851 --> 00:58:30,117 Oh, are you sure about that? 1032 00:58:30,119 --> 00:58:32,253 Yeah, it's real what I do, you... 1033 00:58:32,255 --> 00:58:33,556 What? 1034 00:58:36,726 --> 00:58:37,958 Do you honestly think you talk to the dead? 1035 00:58:37,960 --> 00:58:38,993 That's not what people hire me for. 1036 00:58:38,995 --> 00:58:40,194 That's literally your job. 1037 00:58:40,196 --> 00:58:41,962 No my job is to make people feel better 1038 00:58:41,964 --> 00:58:43,666 about death, like you. 1039 00:58:46,335 --> 00:58:48,035 Seriously do you have the pallet 1040 00:58:48,037 --> 00:58:49,904 of a post-apocalyptic cockroach, this is... 1041 00:58:49,906 --> 00:58:52,008 You are wearing a Henley. 1042 00:58:53,609 --> 00:58:55,743 So I could do without the judgment. 1043 00:58:55,745 --> 00:58:58,479 Says the woman who clearly thinks that I'm a fraud. 1044 00:58:58,481 --> 00:58:59,580 Am I wrong? 1045 00:58:59,582 --> 00:59:01,682 - It's not appropriate. - Am I wrong? 1046 00:59:01,684 --> 00:59:03,450 Look, I get letters from people all the time, 1047 00:59:03,452 --> 00:59:07,421 thanking me for helping them through the loss of a spouse 1048 00:59:07,423 --> 00:59:08,355 or a parent or a child. 1049 00:59:08,357 --> 00:59:10,257 So yeah, that is real what I do. 1050 00:59:10,259 --> 00:59:12,860 But it's bullshit, right? 1051 00:59:12,862 --> 00:59:14,561 Yeah, everything's bullshit the minute 1052 00:59:14,563 --> 00:59:17,399 that you pretend that death isn't fucking terrifying. 1053 00:59:17,401 --> 00:59:20,402 I'm not that bad of a guy Lex. 1054 00:59:20,404 --> 00:59:23,203 - I didn't say you were. - Yeah but you're thinking it. 1055 00:59:23,205 --> 00:59:24,740 Why do you care what I think? 1056 00:59:27,043 --> 00:59:27,877 I don't. 1057 00:59:30,947 --> 00:59:33,347 What? 1058 00:59:33,349 --> 00:59:35,983 - Oh fuck. - What? 1059 00:59:35,985 --> 00:59:37,718 Oh you care what I think. 1060 00:59:37,720 --> 00:59:38,686 No, I don't. 1061 00:59:38,688 --> 00:59:40,354 - Oh my God. - No, I don't. 1062 00:59:40,356 --> 00:59:41,922 - Yeah you do. - No, I don't. 1063 00:59:41,924 --> 00:59:43,592 - Oh man. - What? 1064 00:59:44,927 --> 00:59:48,028 Nothing, I'm fine, I'm fine. 1065 00:59:48,030 --> 00:59:49,596 You're, look, you're clearly. 1066 00:59:49,598 --> 00:59:50,998 why don't you just get over yourself 1067 00:59:51,000 --> 00:59:53,734 and we can focus on Val. 1068 00:59:53,736 --> 00:59:55,569 Why does it matter to you so much? 1069 00:59:55,571 --> 00:59:56,937 - What? - Helping her. 1070 00:59:56,939 --> 00:59:59,374 - She's a client. - One of how many? 1071 00:59:59,376 --> 01:00:00,908 - No she's different. - How? 1072 01:00:00,910 --> 01:00:03,477 All of my other clients, 1073 01:00:03,479 --> 01:00:05,779 they wanna connect with somebody who has passed. 1074 01:00:05,781 --> 01:00:07,083 She just wants to connect. 1075 01:00:08,217 --> 01:00:10,454 She listens, I don't get a whole lot of that. 1076 01:00:12,021 --> 01:00:13,487 You know, I find people, that's what I do, 1077 01:00:13,489 --> 01:00:14,422 I don't lose them. 1078 01:00:14,424 --> 01:00:17,293 I don't know how to do this. 1079 01:00:18,627 --> 01:00:19,929 - Do what? - Say goodbye. 1080 01:00:23,467 --> 01:00:26,335 - I've tried everything. - Yeah, so have I. 1081 01:00:27,336 --> 01:00:29,471 - But I was thinking. - Oh no. 1082 01:00:29,473 --> 01:00:31,839 - What if we work together? - What? 1083 01:00:31,841 --> 01:00:32,708 Yeah, 1084 01:00:35,344 --> 01:00:36,910 - like a team. - Fuck no. 1085 01:00:36,912 --> 01:00:38,545 I work alone. 1086 01:00:38,547 --> 01:00:41,148 Yeah and you eat like a child and you dress like your dad. 1087 01:00:41,150 --> 01:00:42,918 Maybe a little change would be good. 1088 01:00:44,353 --> 01:00:46,454 - Come on. - No. 1089 01:00:46,456 --> 01:00:49,023 Come on, hey look, I helped people hang on, 1090 01:00:49,025 --> 01:00:50,591 you help them let go, between the two of us, 1091 01:00:50,593 --> 01:00:52,359 we've got pretty much everything covered. 1092 01:00:52,361 --> 01:00:53,694 - No. - Please. 1093 01:00:53,696 --> 01:00:54,728 - No. - Come on. 1094 01:00:54,730 --> 01:00:55,996 No. 1095 01:00:55,998 --> 01:00:58,632 I'm being like extra charming right now. 1096 01:00:58,634 --> 01:01:00,000 - No, you're not. - Lex. 1097 01:01:00,002 --> 01:01:00,801 Nope. 1098 01:01:00,803 --> 01:01:01,969 I think, that you 1099 01:01:01,971 --> 01:01:03,270 - and us together... - No, the answer is no. 1100 01:01:03,272 --> 01:01:04,204 - Please. - No, no. 1101 01:01:04,206 --> 01:01:05,139 - Please. - No. 1102 01:01:05,141 --> 01:01:07,810 - Please. - Fuck no, no. 1103 01:01:09,678 --> 01:01:12,447 I'm not paying double for this. 1104 01:01:12,449 --> 01:01:14,114 I guess humor really is the last thing to go. 1105 01:01:14,116 --> 01:01:16,150 It's actually the lungs. 1106 01:01:17,953 --> 01:01:21,622 I would have pegged you for the straight man 1107 01:01:21,624 --> 01:01:24,158 in is little duet you've thrown together. 1108 01:01:24,160 --> 01:01:25,959 Oh, Lex is a lot of fun. 1109 01:01:25,961 --> 01:01:28,062 Especially once you get to know her. 1110 01:01:28,064 --> 01:01:30,964 Oh, you've come to the right place for fun. 1111 01:01:30,966 --> 01:01:33,867 Hey, who wants a hit off my morphine? 1112 01:01:33,869 --> 01:01:34,902 - Valerie. - Val. 1113 01:01:34,904 --> 01:01:35,738 Val. 1114 01:01:39,775 --> 01:01:41,077 - I'm not ready. - What? 1115 01:01:43,579 --> 01:01:45,114 For what you do. 1116 01:01:47,149 --> 01:01:49,817 I don't want it to end. 1117 01:01:49,819 --> 01:01:50,853 Who says it has to? 1118 01:01:52,288 --> 01:01:56,924 My body, the doctors, God apparently. 1119 01:01:56,926 --> 01:01:58,493 Since, when do you believe in God? 1120 01:01:58,495 --> 01:02:02,399 I don't, it hasn't stopped him from fucking up my plan? 1121 01:02:03,766 --> 01:02:07,069 Hey, where's my pizza? 1122 01:02:08,170 --> 01:02:10,806 - It's on the way. - You're a shitty liar. 1123 01:02:12,542 --> 01:02:15,412 So who are we gonna bring in today? 1124 01:02:18,614 --> 01:02:21,283 A long lost uncle, childhood friend. 1125 01:02:22,618 --> 01:02:24,284 - Your parents. - Again. 1126 01:02:24,286 --> 01:02:28,490 Hey, what, hey I don't choose who comes through so. 1127 01:02:28,492 --> 01:02:30,759 Surprise me okay. 1128 01:02:32,294 --> 01:02:33,127 I'll do my best. 1129 01:02:33,129 --> 01:02:34,429 Yeah, maybe I should... 1130 01:02:34,431 --> 01:02:39,168 No say stay, stay. 1131 01:02:40,369 --> 01:02:41,370 It's okay. 1132 01:02:54,016 --> 01:02:55,617 I see a girl. 1133 01:02:55,619 --> 01:02:59,521 She is holding a bouquet of freshly picked flowers 1134 01:02:59,523 --> 01:03:02,725 in one hand and in the other a pocket watch. 1135 01:03:05,462 --> 01:03:07,163 - Are you still with me? - Yeah. 1136 01:03:08,598 --> 01:03:12,467 Oh she's smiling, it's a great smile, beautiful. 1137 01:03:12,469 --> 01:03:13,669 Like yours. 1138 01:03:14,670 --> 01:03:16,573 - I wish. - Oh my God, you guys. 1139 01:03:22,344 --> 01:03:27,349 This girl she's gripping them so tight like it's... 1140 01:03:28,317 --> 01:03:30,350 - Why? - It's hard to say. 1141 01:03:30,352 --> 01:03:32,152 You sure you don't know her? 1142 01:03:32,154 --> 01:03:34,121 You know, I don't have any kids. 1143 01:03:34,123 --> 01:03:35,155 It doesn't have to be literal. 1144 01:03:35,157 --> 01:03:36,223 Sometimes it 1145 01:03:36,225 --> 01:03:37,024 - can be a symbol for... - No kids, 1146 01:03:37,026 --> 01:03:40,761 imagine that. 1147 01:03:40,763 --> 01:03:45,768 They all told me, family, friends, 1148 01:03:47,102 --> 01:03:49,539 random people who thought they knew better. 1149 01:03:51,541 --> 01:03:56,310 They all said, one day, one day, you'll meet someone, 1150 01:03:56,312 --> 01:03:58,582 fall in love, start a family. 1151 01:04:00,049 --> 01:04:04,588 One day I was gonna finally be complete, whole one day. 1152 01:04:10,660 --> 01:04:14,962 Shit, made it sound like some disease I was going to have 1153 01:04:14,964 --> 01:04:17,701 to catch in order to be like the rest of them. 1154 01:04:19,569 --> 01:04:20,468 Fuck that. 1155 01:04:26,576 --> 01:04:30,079 They were right about one thing though. 1156 01:04:34,883 --> 01:04:37,487 I did meet someone, 1157 01:04:43,025 --> 01:04:44,260 several someones. 1158 01:04:49,898 --> 01:04:53,002 I was loved, I loved, 1159 01:04:58,974 --> 01:05:01,645 never made me wanna settle down though. 1160 01:05:04,581 --> 01:05:07,049 Never made me feel whole, 1161 01:05:08,851 --> 01:05:13,822 never made me wanna be like them, as they said. 1162 01:05:15,357 --> 01:05:17,826 The thing is, I always felt whole. 1163 01:05:23,866 --> 01:05:25,669 I was fine. 1164 01:05:30,339 --> 01:05:33,242 I just wished I'd figure that out earlier. 1165 01:05:37,813 --> 01:05:42,684 That girl that's holding the flowers and the pocket watch, 1166 01:05:42,686 --> 01:05:45,586 that's supposed to be me, right? 1167 01:05:45,588 --> 01:05:47,888 I only interpret what comes through, so. 1168 01:05:47,890 --> 01:05:52,895 Yeah, real subtle on the symbolism Mrs. Cleo. 1169 01:05:53,496 --> 01:05:55,364 Jesus. 1170 01:05:58,200 --> 01:06:00,737 - But I don't get it. - Get what? 1171 01:06:02,137 --> 01:06:05,939 Is it the morphine, or I'm just, I don't, are you? 1172 01:06:05,941 --> 01:06:08,275 - What? - You know it ends, right? 1173 01:06:08,277 --> 01:06:09,744 - It ends. - Lex. 1174 01:06:09,746 --> 01:06:14,316 Okay if this is how you wanna, I'm glad that you're happy, 1175 01:06:16,852 --> 01:06:20,222 I'm so glad, but the moment is coming, 1176 01:06:21,424 --> 01:06:23,156 when it feels like it's slipping away 1177 01:06:23,158 --> 01:06:25,058 and when there's a panic. 1178 01:06:25,060 --> 01:06:27,894 - Lex, you don't... - No, this is final. 1179 01:06:27,896 --> 01:06:31,666 And it's not like, it's not like closure final, okay. 1180 01:06:31,668 --> 01:06:33,835 You're going to wanna to cling to something 1181 01:06:33,837 --> 01:06:35,503 and you're not going to be able to 1182 01:06:35,505 --> 01:06:36,738 because it's coming 1183 01:06:36,740 --> 01:06:39,640 and it might take hours or seconds 1184 01:06:39,642 --> 01:06:42,410 but it's not even gonna feel like time passing to you 1185 01:06:42,412 --> 01:06:45,680 and you don't have to be scared. 1186 01:06:45,682 --> 01:06:47,214 You don't have to be scared. 1187 01:06:47,216 --> 01:06:50,620 I can take that away from you but right now I don't, 1188 01:06:53,456 --> 01:06:54,990 I don't know how to help you. 1189 01:07:02,164 --> 01:07:04,601 I don't know how to help you. 1190 01:07:08,237 --> 01:07:09,071 It's okay. 1191 01:07:19,214 --> 01:07:21,016 It's okay, it's okay. 1192 01:07:23,952 --> 01:07:26,088 I just didn't wanna die alone. 1193 01:07:45,007 --> 01:07:49,646 That woman, probably logged 30 hours in the past month. 1194 01:07:53,750 --> 01:07:55,250 That's just the billable ones. 1195 01:07:56,686 --> 01:07:58,619 I mean, sometimes I would pretend 1196 01:07:58,621 --> 01:08:00,588 like we had an appointment just so I could 1197 01:08:00,590 --> 01:08:01,825 spend more time with her. 1198 01:08:03,493 --> 01:08:07,229 All that time, I don't know her real story, 1199 01:08:09,766 --> 01:08:13,601 just like basic stuff. 1200 01:08:13,603 --> 01:08:15,971 Probably everything that you have in your files. 1201 01:08:17,407 --> 01:08:21,310 No old stories, memories, it's just, I don't know. 1202 01:08:24,681 --> 01:08:27,851 But I feel like I know her, like her and she knows me 1203 01:08:29,318 --> 01:08:32,986 and it's like, everybody talks about, you know, 1204 01:08:32,988 --> 01:08:35,391 live in the moment, but most people don't do it 1205 01:08:36,826 --> 01:08:39,429 and, everything all right? 1206 01:08:52,475 --> 01:08:54,475 I ate something that was weird but... 1207 01:08:54,477 --> 01:08:55,310 Shut up. 1208 01:09:06,389 --> 01:09:07,724 - Regret. - What? 1209 01:09:09,425 --> 01:09:10,259 Regret, that's it, that's definitely it. 1210 01:09:13,496 --> 01:09:14,929 Were you here, like 10 seconds ago? 1211 01:09:14,931 --> 01:09:17,266 I think the regret thing that's how I'm... 1212 01:09:19,301 --> 01:09:23,270 I can do this, I just need, yeah. 1213 01:09:23,272 --> 01:09:25,573 See, 'cause I don't think that you get kissed like that 1214 01:09:25,575 --> 01:09:26,974 very often, I think maybe that's what 1215 01:09:26,976 --> 01:09:27,975 we should focus on right now. 1216 01:09:27,977 --> 01:09:29,510 - She needs me. - What? 1217 01:09:29,512 --> 01:09:30,711 Valerie, she needs me. 1218 01:09:30,713 --> 01:09:32,045 - Val's fine. - No it's an act. 1219 01:09:32,047 --> 01:09:32,980 Are you serious? 1220 01:09:32,982 --> 01:09:34,281 Everyone's afraid of death. 1221 01:09:34,283 --> 01:09:35,550 Don't do this to yourself. 1222 01:09:35,552 --> 01:09:36,717 And I know, I know when the time comes, 1223 01:09:36,719 --> 01:09:37,985 she's going to need someone. 1224 01:09:37,987 --> 01:09:39,420 Look, this is your shit, it's not hers. 1225 01:09:39,422 --> 01:09:40,821 Okay, I don't expect you to understand 1226 01:09:40,823 --> 01:09:42,255 what I do or why people need what I do. 1227 01:09:42,257 --> 01:09:43,457 Just leave her out of this. 1228 01:09:43,459 --> 01:09:45,292 I can't when people need me like this, 1229 01:09:45,294 --> 01:09:47,060 leaving is not an option. 1230 01:09:47,062 --> 01:09:48,598 She's not your mom, Lex, she, 1231 01:09:51,467 --> 01:09:53,066 just don't put that on her. 1232 01:09:53,068 --> 01:09:54,167 Look, I'm sorry, I'm sorry. 1233 01:09:54,169 --> 01:09:58,539 I'm sorry, Lex, Lex. 1234 01:09:58,541 --> 01:10:00,309 Hey, can we please talk about this, 1235 01:10:03,278 --> 01:10:04,112 like people? 1236 01:10:23,066 --> 01:10:24,197 What the hell! 1237 01:10:24,199 --> 01:10:26,299 - How was your date? - It wasn't, 1238 01:10:26,301 --> 01:10:27,535 why are you still here? 1239 01:10:27,537 --> 01:10:29,169 You've been gone for an awfully long time 1240 01:10:29,171 --> 01:10:30,370 for it not being a date. 1241 01:10:30,372 --> 01:10:33,374 - I was with a client. - Sorry, did she... 1242 01:10:33,376 --> 01:10:34,209 No, not yet. 1243 01:10:35,078 --> 01:10:36,176 So you're not done with her? 1244 01:10:36,178 --> 01:10:41,183 No, yes, I don't know. 1245 01:10:42,351 --> 01:10:43,216 Kind of a tall drink of water, huh? 1246 01:10:43,218 --> 01:10:44,184 Valerie? 1247 01:10:44,186 --> 01:10:45,151 No, Spencer, your date. 1248 01:10:45,153 --> 01:10:47,054 It wasn't a date. 1249 01:10:47,056 --> 01:10:48,089 You didn't answer my question. 1250 01:10:48,091 --> 01:10:50,156 Yeah, he's tall, whatever. 1251 01:10:50,158 --> 01:10:51,692 - Go to bed. - I'm not tired. 1252 01:10:51,694 --> 01:10:54,795 You were on death's door like less than a month ago, 1253 01:10:54,797 --> 01:10:56,430 shouldn't you be focusing on getting better? 1254 01:10:56,432 --> 01:10:58,668 - I'm fine. - Are you? 1255 01:11:01,471 --> 01:11:02,570 Did you at least get to first base? 1256 01:11:02,572 --> 01:11:04,371 - Nora? - I'm fine, okay. 1257 01:11:04,373 --> 01:11:06,040 How many times do I ever tell you that, I'm fine. 1258 01:11:06,042 --> 01:11:07,273 Till I believe you. 1259 01:11:07,275 --> 01:11:09,175 Well, I guess I can't fault you for caring. 1260 01:11:09,177 --> 01:11:12,245 - What? - What? 1261 01:11:12,247 --> 01:11:13,881 You just did a thing. 1262 01:11:13,883 --> 01:11:15,148 No I didn't. 1263 01:11:15,150 --> 01:11:16,617 Yes you did when I said you cared. 1264 01:11:16,619 --> 01:11:19,787 - You just did it again. - No. 1265 01:11:19,789 --> 01:11:21,154 You totally just care flinched. 1266 01:11:21,156 --> 01:11:22,590 All right I'm going to bed. 1267 01:11:22,592 --> 01:11:23,824 Do they have to be dying? 1268 01:11:23,826 --> 01:11:26,093 The people you let yourself care about 1269 01:11:26,095 --> 01:11:27,995 is that like part of the deal for you? 1270 01:11:27,997 --> 01:11:29,229 It's my job. 1271 01:11:29,231 --> 01:11:33,067 A job you made up, but nobody else does, 1272 01:11:33,069 --> 01:11:36,671 a job you never stop doing. 1273 01:11:36,673 --> 01:11:38,304 You think it's easier that way. 1274 01:11:38,306 --> 01:11:39,774 What? 1275 01:11:39,776 --> 01:11:42,745 Losing someone and you know it's part of the deal. 1276 01:11:44,179 --> 01:11:46,179 I guess I never thought about it like that. 1277 01:11:46,181 --> 01:11:47,448 How do you think about it? 1278 01:11:47,450 --> 01:11:48,216 I don't. 1279 01:12:06,301 --> 01:12:07,136 I can't. 1280 01:12:14,911 --> 01:12:16,045 Are you really okay? 1281 01:12:21,851 --> 01:12:23,052 I was supposed to die. 1282 01:12:24,387 --> 01:12:25,220 We all know that, 1283 01:12:28,791 --> 01:12:31,192 once we got past all the tragically young shit, 1284 01:12:31,194 --> 01:12:35,196 it was something that not even the most optimistic doctor 1285 01:12:35,198 --> 01:12:37,900 or delusional family member could deny. 1286 01:12:43,673 --> 01:12:44,507 It was my time. 1287 01:12:46,075 --> 01:12:47,376 You helped me accept that. 1288 01:12:53,616 --> 01:12:55,182 Right before I went into that coma, 1289 01:12:55,184 --> 01:12:59,889 I remember feeling somewhat ready, whatever that means. 1290 01:13:03,593 --> 01:13:05,392 It was like I was outside myself, 1291 01:13:05,394 --> 01:13:07,096 watching it happen to someone else 1292 01:13:10,933 --> 01:13:15,069 and suddenly all the sadness and the anger 1293 01:13:15,071 --> 01:13:19,575 and the fear and the heartache 1294 01:13:24,981 --> 01:13:26,682 it started to add up to something. 1295 01:13:29,284 --> 01:13:33,422 It didn't go away but it started to make sense. 1296 01:13:36,492 --> 01:13:37,927 And it was kind of beautiful. 1297 01:13:42,698 --> 01:13:44,299 When I woke up, I still felt it. 1298 01:13:45,168 --> 01:13:46,002 I still do. 1299 01:13:49,605 --> 01:13:52,305 I figured it'd be a waste to not try and share that 1300 01:13:52,307 --> 01:13:54,644 - with someone else before... - Before what? 1301 01:13:58,414 --> 01:14:01,148 Before I remember that the world still sucks. 1302 01:14:01,150 --> 01:14:04,654 God's dead, I'm an asshole and you're fucking hopeless. 1303 01:14:07,089 --> 01:14:08,489 Do you have any ice cream? 1304 01:14:08,491 --> 01:14:09,957 What? 1305 01:14:09,959 --> 01:14:11,458 I don't know I thought maybe we could stay up all night 1306 01:14:11,460 --> 01:14:13,994 do each other's nails, talk about your new boyfriend. 1307 01:14:13,996 --> 01:14:17,431 - He's not my boyfriend. - Yes he is. 1308 01:14:17,433 --> 01:14:19,602 You just went on a date with him. 1309 01:14:20,937 --> 01:14:21,771 He's not. 1310 01:14:22,839 --> 01:14:24,471 Is that him? 1311 01:14:24,473 --> 01:14:26,242 About him being your new boyfriend. 1312 01:14:28,211 --> 01:14:29,078 Shit. 1313 01:18:25,247 --> 01:18:26,082 Thanks. 1314 01:18:31,521 --> 01:18:32,389 For what? 1315 01:18:56,979 --> 01:18:57,813 You hungry? 1316 01:19:04,620 --> 01:19:09,024 I hear in this place, it's got some pretty good food. 1317 01:21:06,075 --> 01:21:07,810 The flowers were lovely. 1318 01:21:09,912 --> 01:21:11,780 She would have approved, I think. 1319 01:21:14,250 --> 01:21:15,751 What'd you think of the music? 1320 01:21:19,188 --> 01:21:20,555 I didn't really notice. 1321 01:21:20,557 --> 01:21:22,726 Well then maybe it served it's purpose. 1322 01:21:23,892 --> 01:21:26,829 Tasteful compliment to the event. 1323 01:21:28,998 --> 01:21:30,266 It was nice though right? 1324 01:21:33,936 --> 01:21:36,003 Funerals aren't really supposed to be nice. 1325 01:21:36,005 --> 01:21:37,006 Having her around. 1326 01:22:05,367 --> 01:22:07,167 I will never understand why hazelnut 1327 01:22:07,169 --> 01:22:10,306 isn't the default flavor of all office coffee. 1328 01:22:12,676 --> 01:22:14,109 I mean the smell alone. 1329 01:22:18,914 --> 01:22:21,484 I don't even have to drink it, could just sniff it. 1330 01:22:23,952 --> 01:22:24,788 You okay? 1331 01:22:27,923 --> 01:22:28,758 Fine. 1332 01:22:33,463 --> 01:22:36,399 Her parents were really grateful. 1333 01:22:39,301 --> 01:22:42,102 You would think considering the circumstances, 1334 01:22:42,104 --> 01:22:45,506 drugs bought her a few more weeks, 1335 01:22:45,508 --> 01:22:49,713 and she spends them helping us instead of, but no. 1336 01:22:54,116 --> 01:22:57,687 Said they respected her mission, how much a mentor 1337 01:23:03,158 --> 01:23:04,293 made her happy. 1338 01:23:06,962 --> 01:23:11,066 This, can you imagine? 1339 01:23:13,670 --> 01:23:18,541 Life is well, it's something else, isn't it? 1340 01:23:20,577 --> 01:23:23,011 The circumstances, the rules, 1341 01:23:27,216 --> 01:23:29,251 the people, they come and go. 1342 01:23:31,353 --> 01:23:34,323 Everything around us is constantly changing. 1343 01:23:35,525 --> 01:23:40,162 And here we are holding off, fighting, clawing, 1344 01:23:47,102 --> 01:23:48,405 to stay the same. 1345 01:23:58,882 --> 01:24:00,383 I miss her too, Lex. 1346 01:24:03,352 --> 01:24:04,353 Can we please not. 1347 01:24:06,656 --> 01:24:07,588 Can we please not talk about her. 1348 01:24:07,590 --> 01:24:08,558 Your mom, 1349 01:24:14,930 --> 01:24:15,832 I miss her too. 1350 01:24:41,724 --> 01:24:43,358 Why don't we ever talk about her? 1351 01:24:56,573 --> 01:24:57,407 It's okay. 1352 01:25:01,845 --> 01:25:02,679 It's okay. 1353 01:25:09,919 --> 01:25:13,488 Lex. 1354 01:25:13,490 --> 01:25:14,323 I know. 1355 01:25:15,190 --> 01:25:16,024 Lex. 1356 01:25:22,532 --> 01:25:23,365 I know. 1357 01:25:41,851 --> 01:25:42,886 It's okay, it's okay. 1358 01:25:53,396 --> 01:25:54,397 You're a good kid. 1359 01:25:58,001 --> 01:25:59,201 And we're gonna be fine. 1360 01:27:14,577 --> 01:27:16,844 This isn't easy. 1361 01:27:18,280 --> 01:27:19,983 It certainly isn't normal. 1362 01:27:23,686 --> 01:27:24,520 It's just weird. 1363 01:27:26,923 --> 01:27:29,291 Because at some point it happens to us all. 1364 01:27:33,963 --> 01:27:35,999 I have no answers for you today. 1365 01:27:37,533 --> 01:27:41,269 No promises, no helpful secrets. 1366 01:27:44,007 --> 01:27:46,643 I can offer you exactly nothing that will dull the pain. 1367 01:27:49,779 --> 01:27:51,346 Certainly I can't take it away. 1368 01:27:56,686 --> 01:27:59,187 I can say that it's worth it. 1369 01:28:03,325 --> 01:28:04,159 It's worth it. 1370 01:28:08,564 --> 01:28:10,165 If you're worried about death 1371 01:28:11,467 --> 01:28:13,335 and you're scared to let go 1372 01:28:16,606 --> 01:28:18,541 I'd first ask myself this, 1373 01:28:20,910 --> 01:28:22,310 am I really living now? 1374 01:28:26,449 --> 01:28:28,816 Are you really living now? 1375 01:28:28,818 --> 01:28:30,987 What does this have to do with my father? 1376 01:28:31,821 --> 01:28:32,655 What? 1377 01:28:33,856 --> 01:28:35,658 Well, neither of us is dying so. 1378 01:28:37,727 --> 01:28:41,696 I think, maybe you're missing the point of... 1379 01:28:41,698 --> 01:28:43,731 I think maybe you should just do what we hired you to do 1380 01:28:43,733 --> 01:28:46,436 because the morphine's not enough 1381 01:28:52,240 --> 01:28:53,339 and the nurse says that he screams at night 1382 01:28:57,714 --> 01:28:59,413 and I just think that you should be telling him this 1383 01:28:59,415 --> 01:29:00,915 when they move him in here and not us 1384 01:29:00,917 --> 01:29:03,984 because we're not dying. 1385 01:29:03,986 --> 01:29:06,687 I'm, I just, 1386 01:29:06,689 --> 01:29:10,091 well, I think what I was saying still applies. 1387 01:29:10,093 --> 01:29:10,927 Relax. 1388 01:29:14,130 --> 01:29:16,866 I think that's what my associate is trying to say, yes? 1389 01:29:19,502 --> 01:29:23,704 She gets a little wordy with her words, 1390 01:29:23,706 --> 01:29:26,175 but I think she makes a good point. 1391 01:29:28,144 --> 01:29:33,149 If you relax, if you focus on the good things 1392 01:29:35,852 --> 01:29:38,353 on the time that you do have, 1393 01:29:41,256 --> 01:29:42,892 your dad's gonna pick up on that. 1394 01:29:45,695 --> 01:29:46,529 It's gonna help. 1395 01:29:50,466 --> 01:29:52,633 Or we put a muzzle on him at night 1396 01:29:52,635 --> 01:29:54,470 and double down on the morphine drip. 1397 01:30:08,518 --> 01:30:11,254 - Oh my god. - Wow, all right bud. 1398 01:30:12,188 --> 01:30:17,193 Okay, so morphine aside, 1399 01:30:18,628 --> 01:30:22,062 Why don't you tell me a little bit about your dad. 1400 01:30:22,064 --> 01:30:23,363 My dad's a...