1 00:00:02,000 --> 00:00:06,040 This programme contains strong language. 2 00:00:06,080 --> 00:00:09,960 PHONE RINGING 3 00:00:11,880 --> 00:00:14,040 Queen's ED Resus. 4 00:00:14,080 --> 00:00:15,960 Oh, God! 5 00:00:16,000 --> 00:00:18,520 Resus, code alpha. 6 00:00:18,560 --> 00:00:19,920 Stepped out in front of a tram. 7 00:00:19,960 --> 00:00:22,680 Fractured limb. 13-year-old impaled on a fence. 8 00:00:22,720 --> 00:00:24,400 That's going to be a red. 9 00:00:24,440 --> 00:00:26,600 Piece of machinery has hit him in the face. 10 00:00:26,640 --> 00:00:28,600 There's absolutely no space. 11 00:00:28,640 --> 00:00:31,320 Oh! No pulse. Cardiac arrest. 12 00:00:31,360 --> 00:00:33,760 That's it. Can we have another pulse check, please? 13 00:00:33,800 --> 00:00:35,760 Yeah, I've got a pulse. 14 00:00:35,800 --> 00:00:37,240 You guys are awesome. 15 00:00:37,280 --> 00:00:39,200 It's all go, ain't it? 16 00:00:39,240 --> 00:00:40,960 Hello, sir. Welcome to Queens. 17 00:00:41,000 --> 00:00:43,680 Queen's Medical Centre, Nottingham... 18 00:00:43,720 --> 00:00:46,200 Ey up, duck. I've chopped me fingers off! 19 00:00:46,240 --> 00:00:48,560 ..one of the busiest A&E departments in Europe... 20 00:00:48,600 --> 00:00:50,520 Can we have some help? 21 00:00:50,560 --> 00:00:52,800 ..now under more pressure than ever. 22 00:00:52,840 --> 00:00:54,880 Patients from last night are still here. 23 00:00:54,920 --> 00:00:57,560 The last few years have definitely been a lot tougher. 24 00:00:57,600 --> 00:01:00,520 So sorry about the wait. It's OK. 25 00:01:00,560 --> 00:01:02,920 We just feel like we're battling every day, 26 00:01:02,960 --> 00:01:05,560 but we have to keep going. 27 00:01:05,600 --> 00:01:08,280 You're in the right place with the right people. Thank you. 28 00:01:08,320 --> 00:01:09,880 A place where life... 29 00:01:09,920 --> 00:01:11,120 Huh-huh-hu! 30 00:01:11,160 --> 00:01:12,720 Are you all right? Hi! 31 00:01:12,760 --> 00:01:14,200 ..love... 32 00:01:14,240 --> 00:01:16,240 I just wanted you. 33 00:01:16,280 --> 00:01:17,440 ..and loss... 34 00:01:17,480 --> 00:01:20,080 He's going to go to intensive care. 35 00:01:20,120 --> 00:01:23,200 ..unfold every single day. 36 00:01:23,240 --> 00:01:25,280 Your mum is here. 37 00:01:25,320 --> 00:01:28,480 We can't let the bad times destroy people. 38 00:01:28,520 --> 00:01:31,520 Whatever happens, you've got to fight. 39 00:01:31,560 --> 00:01:33,840 It's humanity that gets people through. It's the love. 40 00:01:33,880 --> 00:01:37,800 She's here. Hi, love. Hi, love. 41 00:01:37,840 --> 00:01:41,400 I think we sometimes take the people we love for granted, 42 00:01:41,440 --> 00:01:44,480 and we think they're going to be there forever. 43 00:01:44,520 --> 00:01:47,560 But we need to hold on to those connections, 44 00:01:47,600 --> 00:01:51,800 because you don't know when they're not going to be there any more. 45 00:01:51,840 --> 00:01:53,400 I love you. 46 00:01:53,440 --> 00:01:55,200 Probably don't say it as much as I should. 47 00:02:18,200 --> 00:02:21,160 This guy has literally just turned off, 48 00:02:21,200 --> 00:02:24,560 come crashing in, and gone into them. 49 00:02:26,640 --> 00:02:30,360 PHONE RINGING 50 00:02:30,400 --> 00:02:31,920 Queen's Resus. 51 00:02:36,520 --> 00:02:39,800 20 minutes. 52 00:02:39,840 --> 00:02:43,360 Multiple pedestrians have been injured after being hit by a car. 53 00:02:43,400 --> 00:02:47,640 Paramedics are rushing them to Queen's Medical Centre. 54 00:02:47,680 --> 00:02:49,280 PHONE RINGING 55 00:02:49,320 --> 00:02:53,880 Queen's Resus. Yeah. Another pedestrian. 56 00:02:53,920 --> 00:02:58,160 Hi, could I have two adult amber trauma calls to ED Resus, please? 57 00:03:00,400 --> 00:03:03,640 Trauma Doctor James is on call in Resus. 58 00:03:03,680 --> 00:03:05,440 Multiple pedestrians hit by 59 00:03:05,480 --> 00:03:08,560 a vehicle coming in at once is an unusual scenario. 60 00:03:10,560 --> 00:03:13,560 That's going to be number three. Hello, Queen's Resus. 61 00:03:13,600 --> 00:03:16,040 And immediately you need to start planning about how you're going to 62 00:03:16,080 --> 00:03:17,280 do deal with them. 63 00:03:17,320 --> 00:03:21,320 I'm going to move ACU chap to Team Two. 64 00:03:21,360 --> 00:03:25,360 Car versus person can result in catastrophic injuries. 65 00:03:25,400 --> 00:03:27,320 Thoracic or heart injuries. 66 00:03:27,360 --> 00:03:29,880 The spine, intra-abdominal bleeding. 67 00:03:29,920 --> 00:03:32,240 And then we always worry about head injuries. 68 00:03:36,000 --> 00:03:39,880 An 18-year-old woman is one of the patients being rushed to A&E. 69 00:03:39,920 --> 00:03:42,520 Set the timer for ten minutes. 70 00:03:42,560 --> 00:03:46,560 Her mother is on her way to the hospital. 71 00:03:46,600 --> 00:03:49,200 It was a very warm evening. 72 00:03:49,240 --> 00:03:51,720 She was going to a pub quiz. 73 00:03:51,760 --> 00:03:55,080 The last thing I said to her was "Be careful". 74 00:03:55,120 --> 00:03:57,960 She'd been out of the house about 45 minutes, 75 00:03:58,000 --> 00:03:59,240 and my phone started to ring. 76 00:03:59,280 --> 00:04:02,560 I thought, "What's wrong?" She usually messages. 77 00:04:02,600 --> 00:04:05,760 So, I answered it and it was not my daughter. 78 00:04:05,800 --> 00:04:10,080 The ambulance lady said she was unconscious. 79 00:04:10,120 --> 00:04:12,440 Your stomach churns. 80 00:04:12,480 --> 00:04:15,640 It's every parent's worst nightmare. 81 00:04:15,680 --> 00:04:19,040 My first thought was I just wanted to be with her. 82 00:04:34,040 --> 00:04:35,760 All right. 83 00:04:38,880 --> 00:04:44,480 Mica was walking where a car has mounted the pavement, 84 00:04:44,520 --> 00:04:48,400 knocked Mica and other pedestrians into the air. 85 00:04:48,440 --> 00:04:51,840 Mica's been thrown across the front of the car, 86 00:04:51,880 --> 00:04:53,840 landed, 87 00:04:53,880 --> 00:04:56,880 was witnessed that she was a loss of consciousness 88 00:04:56,920 --> 00:04:58,920 for approximately 30 seconds, 89 00:04:58,960 --> 00:05:02,080 with a potential seizure during that time. 90 00:05:02,120 --> 00:05:06,240 She has got pain to her left shoulder, 91 00:05:06,280 --> 00:05:10,760 left elbow, pain to the right side of her jaw. 92 00:05:10,800 --> 00:05:13,200 She's got a haematoma to the left side of her forehead, 93 00:05:13,240 --> 00:05:15,360 and abrasions to the left cheek. 94 00:05:19,800 --> 00:05:22,800 My jaw's killing me. 95 00:05:22,840 --> 00:05:25,320 Hello, my name's James. Are you all right? 96 00:05:25,360 --> 00:05:28,320 MOANS 97 00:05:28,360 --> 00:05:31,080 If somebody has a seizure following a head injury, 98 00:05:31,120 --> 00:05:33,040 it makes you more concerned, 99 00:05:33,080 --> 00:05:35,720 because it might represent significant trauma to the brain. 100 00:05:39,640 --> 00:05:41,720 We'd be very concerned about intracranial bleeding, 101 00:05:41,760 --> 00:05:44,040 so bleeding on the brain. 102 00:05:47,120 --> 00:05:51,240 A bleed on the brain following trauma can be really significant, 103 00:05:51,280 --> 00:05:55,240 and can cause brain damage or potentially could be fatal. 104 00:05:59,720 --> 00:06:02,080 Mica's amazing. 105 00:06:02,120 --> 00:06:03,880 She's selfless. 106 00:06:03,920 --> 00:06:08,640 She's made a lot of sacrifices to help me. 107 00:06:08,680 --> 00:06:10,680 I'd be lost without her. 108 00:06:20,920 --> 00:06:22,760 Will you go to Bay 3? Yeah. 109 00:06:22,800 --> 00:06:25,600 Ready for your new trauma that's inbound. 110 00:06:25,640 --> 00:06:27,280 The Major Trauma Team have been called 111 00:06:27,320 --> 00:06:30,160 to Resus after three pedestrians were hit by 112 00:06:30,200 --> 00:06:32,840 a car when it mounted the pavement. 113 00:06:32,880 --> 00:06:34,480 Oh, here we go. 114 00:06:37,360 --> 00:06:39,480 3. 3, please. 115 00:06:39,520 --> 00:06:42,480 Yeah. Ready, steady, slide. 116 00:06:42,520 --> 00:06:46,240 So, this is James. James is a 59-year-old male. 117 00:06:46,280 --> 00:06:47,520 We've got another pedestrian. 118 00:06:49,600 --> 00:06:52,080 So were you just walking past? 119 00:06:58,720 --> 00:07:01,000 Are you happy? Ready, steady, roll. 120 00:07:01,040 --> 00:07:03,080 And lower. 121 00:07:03,120 --> 00:07:06,440 18 year old Mica, the most seriously injured patient, 122 00:07:06,480 --> 00:07:09,600 is having an urgent CT scan. 123 00:07:11,160 --> 00:07:15,000 Doctors are concerned she may have a significant brain injury. 124 00:07:21,840 --> 00:07:24,920 Just stay nice and still. That's all you have to do. 125 00:07:27,960 --> 00:07:33,120 Mica was a lovely, smiley, happy baby and toddler. 126 00:07:34,120 --> 00:07:36,560 But mischievous. 127 00:07:36,600 --> 00:07:39,440 I'd find her down the bottom of the garden 128 00:07:39,480 --> 00:07:41,320 covered in glue and glitter. 129 00:07:41,360 --> 00:07:45,040 She'd draw on walls and under the table. 130 00:07:45,080 --> 00:07:47,920 The Silent Assassin was her nickname. 131 00:07:50,760 --> 00:07:53,040 Being a mum means everything. 132 00:07:53,080 --> 00:07:55,800 You don't know what love is until you have a child of your own. 133 00:07:57,360 --> 00:08:01,040 I've got three children - Mica's older brother, Scott. 134 00:08:01,080 --> 00:08:03,200 She's got a younger sister, AmyMae. 135 00:08:06,040 --> 00:08:08,600 I never imagined I'd be a single parent. 136 00:08:08,640 --> 00:08:11,640 I don't suppose anybody does when they first have children. 137 00:08:13,600 --> 00:08:17,520 Mica's father left me the week before her first Christmas. 138 00:08:17,560 --> 00:08:19,880 She was about six months old. 139 00:08:19,920 --> 00:08:23,240 So, it really was cutting. 140 00:08:23,280 --> 00:08:26,240 I've not got many photos of her first Christmas, 141 00:08:26,280 --> 00:08:28,440 cos I was a bit of a mess. 142 00:08:31,520 --> 00:08:33,280 Very difficult on your own, 143 00:08:33,320 --> 00:08:36,160 but I knew I could do it for them. 144 00:08:36,200 --> 00:08:41,000 I took myself on holiday abroad for the first time on my own with them. 145 00:08:41,040 --> 00:08:42,680 Mica couldn't walk at the time, 146 00:08:42,720 --> 00:08:45,320 and I'm like walking around the airport 147 00:08:45,360 --> 00:08:48,440 with one under my arm, one running around like a lunatic. 148 00:08:50,160 --> 00:08:55,280 I was on my own for nine, ten months when I got with Matt. 149 00:08:55,320 --> 00:08:57,800 I can remember the first time I met him, 150 00:08:57,840 --> 00:09:00,840 and he popped his bald head around the door, 151 00:09:00,880 --> 00:09:02,560 and a big grin on his face. 152 00:09:02,600 --> 00:09:05,200 This big, bouncy party animal. 153 00:09:06,720 --> 00:09:09,080 He fitted in with the family instantly. 154 00:09:09,120 --> 00:09:10,760 He was a good father. 155 00:09:10,800 --> 00:09:13,960 He used to work away Monday to Friday in construction. 156 00:09:14,000 --> 00:09:15,720 So, Friday nights there would be 157 00:09:15,760 --> 00:09:18,960 music on, dancing around - "Dad's home!" 158 00:09:21,120 --> 00:09:23,360 Mica and Matt got along great. 159 00:09:23,400 --> 00:09:26,440 He was the one that got her into football. 160 00:09:26,480 --> 00:09:29,400 She wanted to be a footballer when she was growing up, 161 00:09:29,440 --> 00:09:32,400 but she realised that it's a bit tougher for girls to be 162 00:09:32,440 --> 00:09:34,200 a footballer. 163 00:09:34,240 --> 00:09:38,520 So, she focused on wanting to be a sports journalist instead. 164 00:09:38,560 --> 00:09:43,840 She wanted to go to university to do media. 165 00:09:54,320 --> 00:09:59,680 Life was very good. Everything was fantastic. 166 00:09:59,720 --> 00:10:04,440 But then we'd be out for walks and Matt, his leg'd go dead. 167 00:10:04,480 --> 00:10:07,120 And it was often a standing joke that, 168 00:10:07,160 --> 00:10:09,640 "Oh, Dad's leg's gone again!" 169 00:10:09,680 --> 00:10:12,280 And he wouldn't be able to move it for a few minutes. 170 00:10:15,040 --> 00:10:16,920 Then just over five years ago he had 171 00:10:16,960 --> 00:10:19,640 a massive seizure at home. 172 00:10:19,680 --> 00:10:22,560 I didn't understand what was happening. 173 00:10:24,040 --> 00:10:26,080 We called an ambulance. 174 00:10:26,120 --> 00:10:28,960 I'm going to slide you down, and then back to the bed. 175 00:10:32,080 --> 00:10:36,040 I never imagined I'd be a single parent twice over. 176 00:10:38,760 --> 00:10:43,240 But life definitely changed for both me and Mica. 177 00:11:04,280 --> 00:11:06,120 Hello, are you all right? 178 00:11:06,160 --> 00:11:08,000 Are you OK? 179 00:11:08,040 --> 00:11:11,080 This isn't alcohol, Chan, this is lost of blood, Chan. 180 00:11:11,120 --> 00:11:13,600 That's fine. I'm not really, I don't really mind what it is, 181 00:11:13,640 --> 00:11:15,720 but as long as it goes in the bowl, please. 182 00:11:15,760 --> 00:11:18,840 Yeah, yeah, I will. 183 00:11:18,880 --> 00:11:21,520 Hell... 184 00:11:21,560 --> 00:11:24,240 ..oh! Me talking to the answer phone. 185 00:11:24,280 --> 00:11:25,280 I'm good. 186 00:11:26,720 --> 00:11:29,560 These hats are cool, though. I like them. 187 00:11:29,600 --> 00:11:30,760 Maybe keep it in your hand. 188 00:11:30,800 --> 00:11:32,640 Yeah. It's in my hand. 189 00:11:35,440 --> 00:11:37,240 You're annoying when you're drunk. 190 00:11:46,640 --> 00:11:47,920 God almighty! 191 00:11:53,000 --> 00:11:54,800 Hello, it's Chyna on reception in ED, 192 00:11:54,840 --> 00:11:57,800 can I just let you know about a patient? 193 00:11:57,840 --> 00:12:01,240 He's in UTU in ED, he's just literally walked in. 194 00:12:01,280 --> 00:12:04,320 He's trying to speak and he's just not coming out right. 195 00:12:06,080 --> 00:12:10,280 61-year-old Crispin has come to A&E with his partner Stella, 196 00:12:10,320 --> 00:12:13,720 after he started struggling to speak. 197 00:12:13,760 --> 00:12:15,880 Thank you, bye. 198 00:12:18,000 --> 00:12:20,040 When working on reception, 199 00:12:20,080 --> 00:12:24,080 you're always wondering what story you're going to get next. 200 00:12:24,120 --> 00:12:27,320 If someone's unable to speak properly or they're confused, 201 00:12:27,360 --> 00:12:31,080 my first question I would ask would be, "Is it a stroke?" 202 00:12:33,200 --> 00:12:35,440 You're going to be all right. 203 00:12:37,400 --> 00:12:41,600 I was downstairs and I heard this kind of noise upstairs, 204 00:12:41,640 --> 00:12:43,320 and Cris shouted out "Help!" 205 00:12:43,360 --> 00:12:45,320 So, I went running upstairs, 206 00:12:45,360 --> 00:12:48,320 and when I got up there he was lying on the floor. 207 00:12:48,360 --> 00:12:52,320 I was pretty unsure what was going on. 208 00:12:52,360 --> 00:12:55,120 is body was OK 209 00:12:55,160 --> 00:12:57,120 and he was just talking complete gobbledygook, 210 00:12:57,160 --> 00:12:58,760 like "bli-blur-blue-blah", 211 00:12:58,800 --> 00:13:03,400 kind of making proper sounds but just not words. 212 00:13:04,360 --> 00:13:07,360 So, I spoke to the Stroke Team, they're going to come and see you. 213 00:13:07,400 --> 00:13:10,600 We will book a scan of your head in the meantime regardless, 214 00:13:10,640 --> 00:13:13,400 because this is one of the things that we prioritise - strokes. 215 00:13:15,400 --> 00:13:17,320 There's two types of strokes. 216 00:13:17,360 --> 00:13:19,400 There's an ischemic stroke, which is 217 00:13:19,440 --> 00:13:21,800 a blood clot or plaque that's blocked 218 00:13:21,840 --> 00:13:23,280 the blood supply off to the brain. 219 00:13:23,320 --> 00:13:26,320 Or there's a haemorrhagic stroke, which is a bleed in the brain. 220 00:13:26,360 --> 00:13:29,880 Stroke, it's this guy, just there. 221 00:13:29,920 --> 00:13:35,240 If it's not treated quickly, then you're at risk of permanent damage... 222 00:13:36,840 --> 00:13:38,360 ..brain death or dying. 223 00:13:44,360 --> 00:13:49,160 Can you have numbruk, mumber from migraine? 224 00:13:49,200 --> 00:13:51,120 Yes, you can. 225 00:13:51,160 --> 00:13:53,560 Well, you can have speech as well, but... 226 00:13:53,600 --> 00:13:56,560 Comes and goes at the moment. 227 00:13:56,600 --> 00:14:00,200 Moment lucidia-ish. 228 00:14:01,320 --> 00:14:04,600 So, Crispin, we'll wheel you around to Resus, OK? 229 00:14:04,640 --> 00:14:06,960 Thank you. 230 00:14:10,680 --> 00:14:12,320 Rum, rum. 231 00:14:12,360 --> 00:14:13,560 What's wrong? 232 00:14:13,600 --> 00:14:16,080 Gone. You can't feel it? Nmm... 233 00:14:16,120 --> 00:14:18,400 Numb? Mm, now, gone. OK, OK. 234 00:14:18,440 --> 00:14:22,440 Would it be OK if I do a quick neurological test with you? 235 00:14:22,480 --> 00:14:23,920 Can you help me? Yeah. 236 00:14:23,960 --> 00:14:25,160 What month are we in? 237 00:14:25,200 --> 00:14:29,360 8-3, January, February, sart... 238 00:14:29,400 --> 00:14:34,000 It's going to... Madrial sun duranary. Is that right? 239 00:14:34,040 --> 00:14:37,760 Cris was always my solid ground at home, 240 00:14:37,800 --> 00:14:40,760 and it's where my heart feels safe. 241 00:14:40,800 --> 00:14:42,400 What's this? 242 00:14:42,440 --> 00:14:44,520 It's a staired. Right. 243 00:14:44,560 --> 00:14:47,360 OK. And these? 244 00:14:47,400 --> 00:14:49,000 Diets. Right. 245 00:14:50,520 --> 00:14:53,760 It was really hard to know what was 246 00:14:53,800 --> 00:14:54,960 going to go on from here. 247 00:14:55,000 --> 00:14:57,760 It was really, really scary. 248 00:14:57,800 --> 00:14:58,960 And this? 249 00:14:59,000 --> 00:15:01,600 A diet, er, rayar, erm... 250 00:15:03,040 --> 00:15:06,960 You know, is this the day that completely changes our lives? 251 00:15:19,240 --> 00:15:21,840 What's your name, sir? 252 00:15:21,880 --> 00:15:23,280 Rispin. 253 00:15:23,320 --> 00:15:25,680 Resp... 254 00:15:25,720 --> 00:15:30,480 It's been almost an hour since 61-year-old Crispin arrived in A&E. 255 00:15:30,520 --> 00:15:32,680 Did you have any headache? 256 00:15:32,720 --> 00:15:34,200 Yes. 257 00:15:34,240 --> 00:15:36,800 Doctors suspect he may be having a stroke. 258 00:15:36,840 --> 00:15:38,960 Before the speech loss. Yes. 259 00:15:39,000 --> 00:15:42,880 10, 20, 30, 40, 50. 50? 260 00:15:42,920 --> 00:15:45,600 50 minutes? 30. 30 minutes? 261 00:15:45,640 --> 00:15:47,800 38, nine. Yeah, yeah, yeah. 262 00:15:47,840 --> 00:15:51,840 Specialist stroke consultant Ash is on call in Resus. 263 00:15:53,120 --> 00:15:56,120 A stroke is a race against time. 264 00:15:56,160 --> 00:15:58,640 It can progress very quickly. 265 00:15:58,680 --> 00:16:04,520 Every minute you delay, 1.9 million neurons will be dead. 266 00:16:04,560 --> 00:16:07,240 You're going down for a scan, yeah? Good. 267 00:16:07,280 --> 00:16:09,440 If there is no bleed in the brain... Yes. 268 00:16:09,480 --> 00:16:11,560 ..it's most likely to be a clot. 269 00:16:11,600 --> 00:16:14,440 Thank you for help me. 270 00:16:14,480 --> 00:16:18,840 That's OK, that's what we're here for. 271 00:16:18,880 --> 00:16:22,000 You'll be all right, matey. Yeah. Don't panic. Don't panic. 272 00:16:22,040 --> 00:16:26,040 Want to try, must trart, try-an... 273 00:16:26,080 --> 00:16:29,160 So hard. 274 00:16:31,120 --> 00:16:32,440 Head first, please. Thank you. 275 00:16:36,880 --> 00:16:41,360 Crispin's always been passionate about his music, 276 00:16:41,400 --> 00:16:44,640 and music's always been a big part of both of our lives. 277 00:16:44,680 --> 00:16:49,080 I believe music talks to people's hearts 278 00:16:49,120 --> 00:16:53,600 and lets people actually feel what they feel about things. 279 00:16:53,640 --> 00:16:57,000 I'm going to flush your cannula with a bit of water. 280 00:16:57,040 --> 00:16:59,920 Shush, shuh-a help. Yes. 281 00:16:59,960 --> 00:17:01,680 He was a drummer. 282 00:17:01,720 --> 00:17:04,000 He played music with lots of different musicians, 283 00:17:04,040 --> 00:17:08,520 trying out new styles and creating music in his own studio. 284 00:17:08,560 --> 00:17:10,680 Working with young musicians as well, 285 00:17:10,720 --> 00:17:13,440 and keeping his finger on the pulse of 286 00:17:13,480 --> 00:17:16,920 the kind of music that's happening now. 287 00:17:16,960 --> 00:17:18,920 Just a strap, OK? 288 00:17:18,960 --> 00:17:20,520 Thank you. 289 00:17:20,560 --> 00:17:24,280 And keep your head nice and still now, OK? Sure. 290 00:17:24,320 --> 00:17:26,680 I grew up in South Manchester. 291 00:17:26,720 --> 00:17:28,920 I came to Nottingham when I was 18, 292 00:17:28,960 --> 00:17:31,240 and I started playing in a band. 293 00:17:33,120 --> 00:17:35,480 We got very involved in the Women's Peace Movement, 294 00:17:35,520 --> 00:17:37,160 and played at Greenham Common, 295 00:17:37,200 --> 00:17:42,360 and I really enjoyed playing music in those political situations, 296 00:17:42,400 --> 00:17:45,760 bringing some joy and celebration and pulling people together. 297 00:17:45,800 --> 00:17:50,720 I played music professionally, and really enjoyed playing at gigs. 298 00:17:50,760 --> 00:17:53,160 I did a few theatre tours. 299 00:17:54,920 --> 00:17:58,960 I first met Cris in a band practice around 1989. 300 00:18:00,600 --> 00:18:03,520 We had a nine piece dance band, 301 00:18:03,560 --> 00:18:05,240 and we were needing a new drummer. 302 00:18:05,280 --> 00:18:07,560 This guy turned up with long dark hair 303 00:18:07,600 --> 00:18:09,640 and a big leather jacket. 304 00:18:09,680 --> 00:18:13,840 Cris rang me up and asked to come round and see me. 305 00:18:13,880 --> 00:18:17,800 So, I said, yeah, and he came round and kind of made a proclamation 306 00:18:17,840 --> 00:18:20,440 and said that he thought I was really gorgeous! 307 00:18:20,480 --> 00:18:25,200 As we got to know each other, we drew closer together 308 00:18:25,240 --> 00:18:28,600 and I remember a romantic evening around 309 00:18:28,640 --> 00:18:30,640 a little open fire, 310 00:18:30,680 --> 00:18:34,200 which was the first time we spent time, the pair of us. 311 00:18:34,240 --> 00:18:37,880 Cris was always an intriguing person. 312 00:18:37,920 --> 00:18:40,520 He was very good looking to my eyes, 313 00:18:40,560 --> 00:18:42,080 and fun to be with, 314 00:18:42,120 --> 00:18:45,120 and great to have conversations with. 315 00:18:45,160 --> 00:18:48,320 So for this scan, we need to give you an injection, 316 00:18:48,360 --> 00:18:52,280 that we used to highlight your blood vessels. Hi, hi. 317 00:18:52,320 --> 00:18:54,960 Highlight. Light E, E. Highlight, yes. Yeah. 318 00:18:55,000 --> 00:18:59,040 So like mu-jay, ru-jay. 319 00:18:59,080 --> 00:19:02,360 You have words and things. Love them. 320 00:19:02,400 --> 00:19:05,440 I remember telling a friend that I was having a bit of a fling. 321 00:19:05,480 --> 00:19:08,600 So, I obviously wasn't taking it very seriously. 322 00:19:08,640 --> 00:19:11,000 But over the next few years, 323 00:19:11,040 --> 00:19:14,520 I just got to the point where I knew I wanted 324 00:19:14,560 --> 00:19:16,560 to have children with him. 325 00:19:16,600 --> 00:19:20,800 And we've got two kids, Lorenzo and Bertie. 326 00:19:20,840 --> 00:19:24,120 Cris really enjoyed having the kids. 327 00:19:24,160 --> 00:19:26,440 He'd have fun with them - sometimes do a little bit of music 328 00:19:26,480 --> 00:19:28,960 with them when they were in the mood. 329 00:19:29,000 --> 00:19:31,280 Are you OK, Crispin? Yes. 330 00:19:31,320 --> 00:19:32,480 How, was it? 331 00:19:32,520 --> 00:19:34,680 Fine. Yeah? All done. 332 00:19:35,760 --> 00:19:38,800 Having kids certainly does change your life. 333 00:19:38,840 --> 00:19:40,920 It becomes the life, 334 00:19:40,960 --> 00:19:44,760 and it was at that point that I had decided 335 00:19:44,800 --> 00:19:46,400 to make music my hobby. 336 00:19:46,440 --> 00:19:49,640 We played in lots of gigs, all around the country, 337 00:19:49,680 --> 00:19:52,040 and I felt like having two musicians in 338 00:19:52,080 --> 00:19:55,200 the family wasn't really going to work. 339 00:19:55,240 --> 00:19:58,760 We had quite a rich and varied life through having kids 340 00:19:58,800 --> 00:20:03,160 and we're both sociable people who enjoy sharing time 341 00:20:03,200 --> 00:20:07,120 and food and music with other people. 342 00:20:07,160 --> 00:20:11,240 But then Cris started to have lots of health issues 343 00:20:11,280 --> 00:20:15,120 and we all had to fit around that. 344 00:20:17,200 --> 00:20:21,160 How will you know if stroken? 345 00:20:21,200 --> 00:20:24,320 The stroke consultant is already looking at the pictures. 346 00:20:24,360 --> 00:20:28,200 Brilliant. And they will let you know what's going on. 347 00:20:34,400 --> 00:20:38,120 If I see a calcified artery, 348 00:20:38,160 --> 00:20:41,560 then there is a high suspicion that this might be 349 00:20:41,600 --> 00:20:43,880 a stroke due to a clot. 350 00:20:43,920 --> 00:20:47,200 Calcification can cause a narrowing of the arteries 351 00:20:47,240 --> 00:20:48,880 in the neck. 352 00:20:48,920 --> 00:20:51,840 A clot can be thrown up from THIS artery into the brain, 353 00:20:51,880 --> 00:20:54,760 blocks one of the major arteries in the brain. 354 00:20:54,800 --> 00:20:58,240 Bye-bye Crispin. Thanking you. 355 00:20:59,640 --> 00:21:01,480 If there is no bleed in the scan, 356 00:21:01,520 --> 00:21:05,320 and there are some indicators it is a clot, 357 00:21:05,360 --> 00:21:10,600 the only hope for improvement is by bursting that clot. 358 00:21:14,200 --> 00:21:17,760 Yeah. Four MT. Thank you. Thank you. 359 00:21:17,800 --> 00:21:22,200 But any intervention does not come without a risk. 360 00:21:32,360 --> 00:21:37,040 I'm going to pull the sticker. Are you ready? Yeah. 361 00:21:37,080 --> 00:21:39,280 Free waxing on the NHS. 362 00:21:39,320 --> 00:21:40,920 I shaved yesterday. 363 00:21:40,960 --> 00:21:43,320 That's a good job, isn't it? 364 00:21:43,360 --> 00:21:46,880 Look at that. It's swollen. 365 00:21:46,920 --> 00:21:49,200 I don't like having a broken arm. 366 00:21:49,240 --> 00:21:54,040 Aw, mate! You know what that means though, don't you? What? 367 00:21:54,080 --> 00:21:55,280 No PS5. 368 00:21:55,320 --> 00:21:57,400 Shite! 369 00:21:57,440 --> 00:21:58,640 Don't swear. 370 00:21:58,680 --> 00:22:00,720 I said "shite". 371 00:22:02,320 --> 00:22:03,560 Oh, how do you spell coccyx? 372 00:22:05,160 --> 00:22:07,280 A "cox-it"? 373 00:22:07,320 --> 00:22:09,480 Cox-it, is that how you spell it? I don't know. 374 00:22:09,520 --> 00:22:11,120 I think you spell it with "YX". 375 00:22:13,240 --> 00:22:15,440 That's how you spell it. Yeah. 376 00:22:15,480 --> 00:22:18,120 God, I'd have failed in the spelling bit. 377 00:22:21,400 --> 00:22:24,000 I'm sorry to bring this up, 378 00:22:24,040 --> 00:22:26,920 but I'm literally like leaking into my bandages. That's not good. 379 00:22:26,960 --> 00:22:28,520 That's gross. 380 00:22:28,560 --> 00:22:29,960 Shall I tell them that? 381 00:22:30,000 --> 00:22:33,560 No, I'm pretty sure they'll be aware of it. 382 00:22:36,120 --> 00:22:37,920 Sorry to bother you. 383 00:22:39,960 --> 00:22:43,800 Jodes, what's up? 384 00:22:43,840 --> 00:22:48,600 Jodie? Jodes, there. Oh, that's me. Yeah. 385 00:22:48,640 --> 00:22:50,160 Good timing. 386 00:22:50,200 --> 00:22:54,080 Tell me what happened? So, I was at PRYZM, right? 387 00:22:54,120 --> 00:22:55,720 Yeah. And one of my friends, 388 00:22:55,760 --> 00:22:59,160 she for some reason tackled me into the wall, against the wall. 389 00:22:59,200 --> 00:23:01,680 OK. Which is where everyone leaves their bottles. 390 00:23:01,720 --> 00:23:04,160 OK, fine, so you fell to the floor, you cut your leg on some glass? 391 00:23:04,200 --> 00:23:05,480 Yes, leg and arm. 392 00:23:05,520 --> 00:23:07,600 And it broke when you landed on it? 393 00:23:07,640 --> 00:23:09,760 Yeah, it was broken when I got tackled into it, 394 00:23:09,800 --> 00:23:12,600 and there was just blood dripping down my leg. 395 00:23:12,640 --> 00:23:13,960 It's kind of gross. 396 00:23:14,000 --> 00:23:15,960 Feels like a shark bit me. 397 00:23:16,000 --> 00:23:17,720 That's what you can tell people. 398 00:23:25,240 --> 00:23:29,240 Just need to put some fluids up for you. OK. 399 00:23:29,280 --> 00:23:33,480 In Resus, Mica is awaiting her CT scan results 400 00:23:33,520 --> 00:23:36,280 after she was hit by a car. 401 00:23:36,320 --> 00:23:40,000 Doctors are concerned she has a bleed on her brain. 402 00:23:40,040 --> 00:23:44,440 Mica's mum Lyndsey has arrived at A&E. 403 00:23:45,880 --> 00:23:49,680 Mica? Who's that? It's Mum. Oh, hello. 404 00:23:49,720 --> 00:23:51,640 I don't even remember what happened. 405 00:23:51,680 --> 00:23:53,080 You don't remember these things 406 00:23:53,120 --> 00:23:55,600 to save you from remembering the trauma. 407 00:23:55,640 --> 00:23:59,000 It's a good thing. 408 00:23:59,040 --> 00:24:01,960 Hello. So one of your scan results has just come back. 409 00:24:02,000 --> 00:24:05,120 So, I don't think there's any injuries below her shoulder 410 00:24:05,160 --> 00:24:08,080 basically down. OK. There are injuries on it, right? 411 00:24:08,120 --> 00:24:10,840 You've broken your jaw. 412 00:24:10,880 --> 00:24:13,920 We'll talk to the jaw max-fax people who are the specialists for that. 413 00:24:13,960 --> 00:24:15,680 OK. OK? Mm-hm. 414 00:24:15,720 --> 00:24:17,480 She's obviously bumped her head, 415 00:24:17,520 --> 00:24:20,960 but she might have had a seizure at the time, OK? 416 00:24:21,000 --> 00:24:25,240 Sometimes with a bit of a trauma, or a faint or that sort of thing, 417 00:24:25,280 --> 00:24:27,440 you can have kind of twitching and like things that look like 418 00:24:27,480 --> 00:24:29,600 seizures that aren't necessarily real seizures, 419 00:24:29,640 --> 00:24:32,720 but, without being there, it's very difficult to say. 420 00:24:34,640 --> 00:24:38,040 The whole seizure thing and being at this hospital is stressing me. 421 00:24:38,080 --> 00:24:44,080 Oh, is it? Oh, dear. Because we've spent a lot of time in this hospital. OK, all right. 422 00:24:44,120 --> 00:24:46,360 Just over five years ago, 423 00:24:46,400 --> 00:24:49,840 Mica's step father had a massive seizure at home. 424 00:24:49,880 --> 00:24:53,480 And he was taken to the hospital, 425 00:24:53,520 --> 00:24:56,520 where they gave him a scan, and they found a mass. 426 00:24:57,880 --> 00:25:00,640 OK. Thank you. 427 00:25:02,560 --> 00:25:07,320 He had a brain tumour that they tried to remove. 428 00:25:07,360 --> 00:25:09,800 They couldn't remove it. 429 00:25:09,840 --> 00:25:13,720 First few weeks was crazy. 430 00:25:13,760 --> 00:25:17,240 Lots of seizures - daily, all through the night. 431 00:25:17,280 --> 00:25:22,160 He lost two stone in a week or two, 432 00:25:22,200 --> 00:25:24,880 with the amount of seizures he had. 433 00:25:26,160 --> 00:25:29,000 Then the doctors told us it was terminal. 434 00:25:33,000 --> 00:25:35,560 He was only 42. 435 00:25:35,600 --> 00:25:37,800 Oh... 436 00:25:37,840 --> 00:25:39,640 It's the cruellest cancer I've seen. 437 00:25:53,400 --> 00:25:55,560 So, every day's a blessing. 438 00:25:57,080 --> 00:25:59,560 Matt and I decided to get married, because he wanted to make 439 00:25:59,600 --> 00:26:02,320 an honest woman out of me before he died. 440 00:26:02,360 --> 00:26:05,560 Mica was 13. 441 00:26:05,600 --> 00:26:07,880 She was the bridesmaid with her sister. 442 00:26:07,920 --> 00:26:10,280 Scott was his best man. 443 00:26:11,760 --> 00:26:14,840 Calm down. Calm down. 444 00:26:15,960 --> 00:26:17,760 I just want to sit up. Calm down. 445 00:26:17,800 --> 00:26:19,080 You can't. 446 00:26:19,120 --> 00:26:21,600 You've got this thing on your head. 447 00:26:21,640 --> 00:26:25,440 We went on holiday to Tenerife a lot. 448 00:26:25,480 --> 00:26:28,840 I guess the dynamics of the family changed. 449 00:26:28,880 --> 00:26:31,240 I think children are far more resilient than you think. 450 00:26:31,280 --> 00:26:33,800 Are you comfy? Mm. 451 00:26:33,840 --> 00:26:37,520 Yeah? I'll try and get this hair out of your scab. 452 00:26:37,560 --> 00:26:39,840 Mica took it in her stride. 453 00:26:39,880 --> 00:26:43,800 She tried her hardest to care for him while I was at work. 454 00:26:45,240 --> 00:26:48,040 But then Matt became bed-bound. 455 00:26:48,080 --> 00:26:52,840 Mica helped get him drinks and food, helped move him around. 456 00:26:52,880 --> 00:26:56,320 Get up in the night when I'd not heard him as well. 457 00:26:59,160 --> 00:27:01,880 Caring for someone that you love that you know you're 458 00:27:01,920 --> 00:27:05,440 going to lose is hard, 459 00:27:05,480 --> 00:27:07,160 but you wouldn't have it any other way, 460 00:27:07,200 --> 00:27:11,240 because I don't want anyone else to look after him. 461 00:27:11,280 --> 00:27:12,800 I think we do it best. 462 00:27:14,520 --> 00:27:17,280 You know, it's not a job, it's family. 463 00:27:21,560 --> 00:27:23,240 Just got something now. Yeah. 464 00:27:31,320 --> 00:27:34,960 Doctors now have Mica's full CT report. 465 00:27:35,000 --> 00:27:37,040 So, just to bring you up to speed 466 00:27:37,080 --> 00:27:39,560 with what we think's been going on. Mm? 467 00:27:39,600 --> 00:27:43,080 There's something on the scan that they've said could be a bleed. 468 00:27:47,600 --> 00:27:50,720 Any significant injury to the head or bleed on the brain 469 00:27:50,760 --> 00:27:52,880 has to be closely monitored. 470 00:27:54,240 --> 00:27:56,800 And I think keep her overnight, to observe her, essentially. 471 00:27:56,840 --> 00:27:58,880 OK. OK. 472 00:27:58,920 --> 00:28:01,160 Bleeding on the brain can be really significant, 473 00:28:01,200 --> 00:28:03,760 because the skull acts as a fixed space, 474 00:28:03,800 --> 00:28:08,560 and there's not much space in there to accommodate a volume of blood, 475 00:28:08,600 --> 00:28:13,800 and they can have long-standing effects on your brain function 476 00:28:13,840 --> 00:28:15,440 and your qualify of life. 477 00:28:34,240 --> 00:28:37,880 Oh, does he not want to go to the walk-in centre in the morning? 478 00:28:37,920 --> 00:28:39,840 Oh, they need to stop coming now. 479 00:28:39,880 --> 00:28:41,520 I know. I'm done. 480 00:28:41,560 --> 00:28:42,560 It's all or nothing. 481 00:28:42,600 --> 00:28:45,640 It's like the guy with the, you know... 482 00:28:45,680 --> 00:28:48,320 The stroke that we had? I wonder what happened to him. 483 00:28:51,280 --> 00:28:55,280 Doctors are awaiting the results of Crispin's CT scan, 484 00:28:55,320 --> 00:28:57,960 to confirm if the symptoms are being caused by a bleed 485 00:28:58,000 --> 00:29:00,000 or a clot on his brain. 486 00:29:00,040 --> 00:29:02,000 I am "lile" to be OK again? 487 00:29:02,040 --> 00:29:04,520 It's difficult to say, sweetheart, because sometimes it doesn't... 488 00:29:04,560 --> 00:29:06,520 Is it really more likely to always be "porta-taste"? 489 00:29:06,560 --> 00:29:08,600 I'm always going to some, a little bit... 490 00:29:08,640 --> 00:29:10,920 ..going to be something wrong with me whatever. 491 00:29:10,960 --> 00:29:15,440 It's very difficult to say that at this time. 492 00:29:15,480 --> 00:29:18,760 I'm trying not to be "strensible". 493 00:29:18,800 --> 00:29:21,320 Streshon. Shreshon. 494 00:29:21,360 --> 00:29:23,000 Stressed? Cusha. 495 00:29:23,040 --> 00:29:24,320 Depressed? 496 00:29:24,360 --> 00:29:27,360 No, not presteta, no, no. Erm... 497 00:29:27,400 --> 00:29:30,240 Under pressure? Yeah...yeah, maybe it is right, I mean, 498 00:29:30,280 --> 00:29:32,400 I don't think it's what I mean, though. 499 00:29:32,440 --> 00:29:34,120 There's a lot going on, isn't it? 500 00:29:34,160 --> 00:29:35,160 Yes. 501 00:29:38,040 --> 00:29:41,280 When I first Crisp, he was really active. 502 00:29:41,320 --> 00:29:44,280 As well as his drums, he would run and run, 503 00:29:44,320 --> 00:29:47,160 and cycle many miles. 504 00:29:47,200 --> 00:29:50,120 I never would have thought he wouldn't be an active person. 505 00:29:51,920 --> 00:29:57,000 But Cris has had lots of health episodes over the years. 506 00:29:57,040 --> 00:29:59,960 He's always had lots of back problems, 507 00:30:00,000 --> 00:30:02,920 and he was often living with pain. 508 00:30:02,960 --> 00:30:05,600 He's had three spinal operations 509 00:30:05,640 --> 00:30:07,400 to help him with the pain. 510 00:30:08,440 --> 00:30:11,880 I remember when Cris had his first operation. 511 00:30:11,920 --> 00:30:15,280 I was waiting in the park with the kids, 512 00:30:15,320 --> 00:30:20,120 and that real fear and dread of losing him. 513 00:30:21,560 --> 00:30:24,640 I feel scramble more now. Does that make sense? Do you? 514 00:30:24,680 --> 00:30:26,360 You feel more scrambled now? 515 00:30:26,400 --> 00:30:29,040 Yes, more than before. 516 00:30:29,080 --> 00:30:30,200 Than before. Try to relax. 517 00:30:30,240 --> 00:30:32,440 Take some deep breaths. Yeah, it's just odd. 518 00:30:34,240 --> 00:30:38,040 Cris' walking and stuff never really recovered, 519 00:30:38,080 --> 00:30:40,840 which meant he was not able to do 520 00:30:40,880 --> 00:30:43,280 a lot of physical stuff, 521 00:30:43,320 --> 00:30:47,440 and I pretty much had to look after the kids on my own. 522 00:30:47,480 --> 00:30:51,960 It was really, really hard for all of us, 523 00:30:52,000 --> 00:30:53,840 but we always had music. 524 00:30:55,640 --> 00:30:57,440 I'm losing everything. It's going. 525 00:30:59,040 --> 00:31:00,600 I'm losing everything. 526 00:31:02,400 --> 00:31:06,280 I don't know what I'm saying any more properly, like this. 527 00:31:06,320 --> 00:31:08,720 I mean, I just want to be able to do my... 528 00:31:22,400 --> 00:31:26,920 It's been two-and-a-half years since the kids left home. 529 00:31:26,960 --> 00:31:31,480 We've kind of being able to re-find our relationship as the two of us. 530 00:31:32,960 --> 00:31:35,880 We've both always really enjoyed being out in nature, 531 00:31:35,920 --> 00:31:39,240 going to new bits of countryside, 532 00:31:39,280 --> 00:31:41,640 looking out to sea and walking on the beach, 533 00:31:41,680 --> 00:31:45,400 and Cris always wanted to get a camper van and go 534 00:31:45,440 --> 00:31:48,120 and tour up the coast of West Scotland. 535 00:31:49,280 --> 00:31:51,160 I would've loved to do that, as well, 536 00:31:51,200 --> 00:31:53,920 but we had to put it all on hold. 537 00:31:55,920 --> 00:31:58,240 I certainly didn't expect that I'd have to face 538 00:31:58,280 --> 00:32:00,000 my own life-threatening illness. 539 00:32:07,080 --> 00:32:10,960 Doctors now have Crispin's initial CT report. 540 00:32:11,000 --> 00:32:12,960 Hi, Crispin. Yes. 541 00:32:13,000 --> 00:32:15,400 I've done a scan. Yes. 542 00:32:15,440 --> 00:32:17,720 There's no evidence of bleed there. 543 00:32:17,760 --> 00:32:18,760 Great. 544 00:32:18,800 --> 00:32:20,880 But it might be still a clot. 545 00:32:20,920 --> 00:32:21,960 OK. 546 00:32:22,000 --> 00:32:26,360 So, we are going to go ahead and give the clot-busting injection. OK. 547 00:32:26,400 --> 00:32:28,240 Which would make it better. 548 00:32:29,760 --> 00:32:34,000 Thrombolysis is a medication which is given intravenously to the body. 549 00:32:34,040 --> 00:32:37,080 It thins the blood and busts the clot 550 00:32:37,120 --> 00:32:39,480 which is blocking the artery. 551 00:32:39,520 --> 00:32:42,800 But given Thrombolysis is not guaranteed to work. 552 00:32:44,080 --> 00:32:48,360 So, I need to explain to you the risk and the benefit... 553 00:32:48,400 --> 00:32:51,400 Yes. ..of giving this injection. 554 00:32:51,440 --> 00:32:54,960 The benefit is one in seven people get completely better. 555 00:32:55,000 --> 00:32:57,960 You walk out of the hospital next day. Yes. 556 00:32:58,000 --> 00:33:01,240 But one in 20 people can become worse. 557 00:33:01,280 --> 00:33:05,720 So, "process-ger" might... bad or good? 558 00:33:05,760 --> 00:33:07,800 Yes. So, yeah. Yeah, yeah. OK, yeah. 559 00:33:07,840 --> 00:33:11,360 Obviously the benefit is better than the risk. 560 00:33:11,400 --> 00:33:14,840 Wh-What are the bad things that could happen? 561 00:33:14,880 --> 00:33:16,800 It's a bleed into the brain. 562 00:33:18,680 --> 00:33:22,920 It is scary, and can be really difficult for the patient. 563 00:33:22,960 --> 00:33:25,040 They feel the pressure to make a decision, 564 00:33:25,080 --> 00:33:27,160 but it is a race against time. 565 00:33:27,200 --> 00:33:29,560 It needs to be given within four-and-a-half hours. 566 00:33:29,600 --> 00:33:31,240 Beyond four-and-a-half hours, 567 00:33:31,280 --> 00:33:34,400 it does carry a risk of significant brain bleed. 568 00:33:36,160 --> 00:33:39,840 So, are you happy for me to go ahead with the injection? 569 00:33:39,880 --> 00:33:42,320 Er, difficult to know. 570 00:33:42,360 --> 00:33:44,560 Is diagrammed? 571 00:33:44,600 --> 00:33:48,480 So, if I get a more "glud-spren"... 572 00:33:48,520 --> 00:33:49,800 Blood spread? Yeah. 573 00:33:49,840 --> 00:33:53,520 ..then could it be, could - anything could happen? 574 00:33:54,600 --> 00:33:57,880 See what I mean? So, it could... 575 00:33:57,920 --> 00:34:01,280 It's not a nice sish, "sishion". 576 00:34:06,920 --> 00:34:09,360 No. Then you lose the time window. 577 00:34:13,680 --> 00:34:15,440 What do you think? 578 00:34:15,480 --> 00:34:19,760 I'm a bit...gone a bit too difficult to decide if, 579 00:34:19,800 --> 00:34:22,320 probably - properly - to make quite decision... 580 00:34:22,360 --> 00:34:23,800 Time is of the essence. 581 00:34:25,600 --> 00:34:27,320 I don't know. It's too much. 582 00:34:42,040 --> 00:34:44,120 It wasn't my fault. 583 00:34:44,160 --> 00:34:47,800 Usually it is my fault, but this time was not my fault. 584 00:34:47,840 --> 00:34:50,560 I'm very accident-prone, I'm telling you. 585 00:34:50,600 --> 00:34:52,760 I'm often in QMC. 586 00:34:52,800 --> 00:34:56,080 Ah. I fell through a window a couple of years ago, 587 00:34:56,120 --> 00:34:59,040 and I got that stitched up, so I'm OK with needles. Go for it. 588 00:34:59,080 --> 00:35:00,760 Going to put a local anaesthetic. 589 00:35:00,800 --> 00:35:04,520 It's a bit stingy, but... That's OK. ..once the solution is in there... 590 00:35:04,560 --> 00:35:05,600 Ahh! 591 00:35:05,640 --> 00:35:07,480 Erm, that is hurting me very much. 592 00:35:07,520 --> 00:35:09,520 I'm so sorry. It's OK. Ah! 593 00:35:09,560 --> 00:35:12,480 SHE SHOUTS That is sore! Ahh! 594 00:35:17,120 --> 00:35:18,920 Have you bitten your toes yet? 595 00:35:18,960 --> 00:35:21,160 Yeah. SHE LAUGHS 596 00:35:21,200 --> 00:35:24,720 So weird. Oh, my God. 597 00:35:24,760 --> 00:35:25,760 Yo! 598 00:35:25,800 --> 00:35:27,840 THEY LAUGH 599 00:35:27,880 --> 00:35:31,360 I think you've had enough of that. I think you have, as well. Yeah. 600 00:35:31,400 --> 00:35:33,960 I saw unicorns! 601 00:35:34,000 --> 00:35:35,960 I like this. This was funny. 602 00:35:40,360 --> 00:35:42,120 We can take the blocks off. 603 00:35:45,840 --> 00:35:48,960 Just cover yourself up. Get a bit cold. How's that? 604 00:35:49,000 --> 00:35:50,480 OK, thank you. 605 00:35:51,920 --> 00:35:53,160 Thank you. 606 00:36:04,080 --> 00:36:06,120 Oh, dear. 607 00:36:06,160 --> 00:36:10,840 In Resus, Mica is being closely monitored after initial scan results 608 00:36:10,880 --> 00:36:12,840 showed she's broken her jaw, 609 00:36:12,880 --> 00:36:14,680 and has a bleed on her brain. 610 00:36:16,480 --> 00:36:19,200 I keep replaying it in my head. Aww. 611 00:36:19,240 --> 00:36:21,920 Just breathe, cos you're panicking a bit, aren't you? 612 00:36:24,800 --> 00:36:27,640 There are multiple different types of trauma. 613 00:36:27,680 --> 00:36:29,400 There's the physical trauma, 614 00:36:29,440 --> 00:36:32,560 and generally, those things are easier to sort out. 615 00:36:32,600 --> 00:36:34,400 But potentially, there's ongoing, 616 00:36:34,440 --> 00:36:37,360 long-term psychological trauma. 617 00:36:37,400 --> 00:36:40,080 You can develop high levels of anxiety about being out 618 00:36:40,120 --> 00:36:43,200 in public spaces or near roads, 619 00:36:43,240 --> 00:36:46,240 and it can really significantly change the way that 620 00:36:46,280 --> 00:36:48,160 you think and see the world. 621 00:36:49,440 --> 00:36:51,760 I just want to go home. I know you do. 622 00:36:51,800 --> 00:36:53,480 I want you to come home, too. 623 00:36:53,520 --> 00:36:56,760 But you're in the best place here, and I'm not going anywhere, OK? 624 00:37:00,080 --> 00:37:02,840 It's hard being a carer, never mind being a young carer. 625 00:37:05,680 --> 00:37:09,600 Mica's made a lot of sacrifices to help care for Matt, 626 00:37:09,640 --> 00:37:11,200 her step father, 627 00:37:11,240 --> 00:37:14,280 and help me look after her younger sister. 628 00:37:15,560 --> 00:37:17,440 She's had to put plans on hold. 629 00:37:18,840 --> 00:37:20,440 Like university. 630 00:37:20,480 --> 00:37:21,720 She's not doing that now. 631 00:37:23,440 --> 00:37:27,920 Tried her hardest to do her A-levels, as well as care for him, 632 00:37:27,960 --> 00:37:29,520 but her grades went down. 633 00:37:32,520 --> 00:37:35,000 She doesn't have a normal teenage life 634 00:37:35,040 --> 00:37:36,920 like her friends do. 635 00:37:36,960 --> 00:37:39,680 Interesting pub quiz, this. Yeah. 636 00:37:39,720 --> 00:37:42,840 Probably all messaging me going, "Where are you?" 637 00:37:42,880 --> 00:37:45,280 But it's brought us closer together as a family. 638 00:37:49,360 --> 00:37:53,160 Mica's brother and his girlfriend have arrived at A&E... 639 00:37:53,200 --> 00:37:54,520 Hi, Mica-mich. 640 00:37:58,760 --> 00:38:00,280 I've just been run over! 641 00:38:00,320 --> 00:38:02,080 Of course they're not going to be clean. 642 00:38:02,120 --> 00:38:03,640 THEY LAUGH 643 00:38:04,680 --> 00:38:06,320 Hi. 644 00:38:06,360 --> 00:38:08,680 ..along with Mica's boyfriend, Leo. 645 00:38:08,720 --> 00:38:10,720 She is OK, Leo. 646 00:38:10,760 --> 00:38:12,840 Causing trouble as usual. 647 00:38:14,280 --> 00:38:17,320 Do I still look pretty? Of course you do. 648 00:38:17,360 --> 00:38:19,920 I wasn't drunk, by the way. I dunno if I believe. 649 00:38:19,960 --> 00:38:21,960 THEY CHUCKLE 650 00:38:22,000 --> 00:38:24,120 Hello. Are you all right? Hello. 651 00:38:24,160 --> 00:38:26,720 There was a test that we did called your lactate, OK? 652 00:38:26,760 --> 00:38:28,480 And that's the acid in your blood. 653 00:38:28,520 --> 00:38:30,720 That was a little bit raised when you came in, 654 00:38:30,760 --> 00:38:32,920 and we sort of watch it quite carefully in trauma, 655 00:38:32,960 --> 00:38:35,520 because it can mean that you're losing blood somewhere. 656 00:38:35,560 --> 00:38:38,000 We've got no evidence you're losing blood anywhere. Yeah. 657 00:38:38,040 --> 00:38:40,960 And the other thing that puts it up is having a couple of cocktails. 658 00:38:41,000 --> 00:38:43,800 So... That is all I've had today, as well. 659 00:38:43,840 --> 00:38:46,600 So, I suspect it's because of that. It's cos of the cocktails. 660 00:38:46,640 --> 00:38:47,880 Not because you're unwell. OK. 661 00:38:47,920 --> 00:38:50,200 We're going to give you a bag of fluid, repeat that test, 662 00:38:50,240 --> 00:38:52,440 and just make sure that comes down. All right? Mm-hm. 663 00:38:52,480 --> 00:38:53,760 Have you got any questions? 664 00:38:53,800 --> 00:38:56,280 No. Thank you. Cheers for that. 665 00:39:01,240 --> 00:39:03,960 Life's changed completely, 666 00:39:04,000 --> 00:39:07,520 but I like to think we take it in our stride now. 667 00:39:07,560 --> 00:39:10,440 Matt certainly is a fighter, that's for sure. 668 00:39:10,480 --> 00:39:12,200 He was initially given six months, 669 00:39:12,240 --> 00:39:15,040 but he's still going strong after five years. 670 00:39:17,920 --> 00:39:21,440 Matt and I just want Mica to get her hopes and dreams one day. 671 00:39:23,880 --> 00:39:25,880 She's been a massive support. 672 00:39:25,920 --> 00:39:28,320 She's a rock, along with her brother and sister. 673 00:39:29,800 --> 00:39:31,080 She's amazing. 674 00:39:35,640 --> 00:39:38,280 So, we're just going to get rid of these blocks now. Yes! 675 00:39:38,320 --> 00:39:43,000 OK. So, just keep your head still for a second while I get them off. 676 00:39:43,040 --> 00:39:45,720 So, if you just look down kind of that way... 677 00:39:45,760 --> 00:39:48,400 Does that feel OK? No. Where is it sore? 678 00:39:48,440 --> 00:39:50,720 Stop, stop, stop. It's just stiff. Oh... 679 00:39:50,760 --> 00:39:53,360 Oh, my gosh. That's it. Just relax, relax, relax. 680 00:39:53,400 --> 00:39:54,680 Look up towards me. 681 00:39:54,720 --> 00:39:56,920 Kind of lift your head up like that. 682 00:39:56,960 --> 00:39:59,440 That's all right. That's all right? 683 00:39:59,480 --> 00:40:00,920 Does that feel all right? 684 00:40:00,960 --> 00:40:02,240 Just stiff. 685 00:40:07,160 --> 00:40:09,080 All right. We're going to move you around the corner now. 686 00:40:09,120 --> 00:40:11,880 You might need to wait for your space on the ward, OK? OK. 687 00:40:15,720 --> 00:40:19,120 Mica will be closely monitored on the neurological ward. 688 00:40:20,880 --> 00:40:24,160 Specialists will also determine if she needs surgery 689 00:40:24,200 --> 00:40:25,880 to fix her broken jaw. 690 00:40:34,360 --> 00:40:37,760 Do I need to see anyone after this, or am I free to go? 691 00:40:37,800 --> 00:40:39,680 Off you go. 692 00:40:39,720 --> 00:40:42,960 You're amazing. Thank you so much. 693 00:40:43,000 --> 00:40:45,400 No worries, my dear. 694 00:40:45,440 --> 00:40:48,640 Alice! She's over there. 695 00:40:48,680 --> 00:40:50,320 Alice! 696 00:40:50,360 --> 00:40:52,880 Got it sorted, darling, OK? Yeah. Thank you. 697 00:40:52,920 --> 00:40:54,600 Go home and sleep well. 698 00:40:56,920 --> 00:41:00,520 I reckon we should either get Nando's or Maccies. 699 00:41:00,560 --> 00:41:03,840 You get Maccies after a night out. Yeah, and Nando's is gross. 700 00:41:03,880 --> 00:41:06,240 OK, so are we saying Maccies after a night out? 701 00:41:06,280 --> 00:41:08,440 I'm thinking nine chicky nuggies. 702 00:41:08,480 --> 00:41:10,160 Nine? 703 00:41:10,200 --> 00:41:13,600 Happy Meal, I need a toy. I need to be happy right now. 704 00:41:18,960 --> 00:41:21,680 I think I'm a bit...frightened. 705 00:41:23,360 --> 00:41:25,640 Is that the right word? Yeah, probably. 706 00:41:27,280 --> 00:41:31,960 In Resus, 61-year-old Crispin has been offered Thrombolysis, 707 00:41:32,000 --> 00:41:35,280 a clot-busting drug, to prevent further damage to his brain. 708 00:41:37,360 --> 00:41:40,440 The drug carries a risk of a bleed on the brain, 709 00:41:40,480 --> 00:41:43,680 and for one in 40 patients, it is fatal. 710 00:41:43,720 --> 00:41:46,600 OK. You need to make a decision. 711 00:41:48,680 --> 00:41:50,080 OK, do it. 712 00:41:54,680 --> 00:41:58,160 OK, sweetheart. So, does that stuff work straight away, 713 00:41:58,200 --> 00:41:59,760 or does it take a while? So... 714 00:41:59,800 --> 00:42:01,120 No, "nermal". 715 00:42:01,160 --> 00:42:04,320 ..we need to monitor for any sort of deterioration. 716 00:42:10,200 --> 00:42:12,120 I'm all right. Are you all right, love? 717 00:42:12,160 --> 00:42:14,560 Just a bit tense. Sorry, sorry. Thank you. 718 00:42:14,600 --> 00:42:17,160 Blood, die. I'm going to die. 719 00:42:17,200 --> 00:42:19,400 Is that the right word? Die? 720 00:42:19,440 --> 00:42:21,720 We want to do what is best for you. 721 00:42:23,640 --> 00:42:25,120 I'm frightened. 722 00:42:31,120 --> 00:42:33,920 I think our family is quite used to supporting Cris going 723 00:42:33,960 --> 00:42:35,560 through various health issues, 724 00:42:35,600 --> 00:42:39,840 and generally, I have really good health, so... 725 00:42:39,880 --> 00:42:42,080 ..I wasn't expecting to be 726 00:42:42,120 --> 00:42:44,000 diagnosed with breast cancer. 727 00:42:46,480 --> 00:42:48,440 I'm so sorry, Stella. 728 00:42:48,480 --> 00:42:50,120 I'm so sorry for you. 729 00:42:52,320 --> 00:42:54,400 Well, and the other shit that's going on, as well, 730 00:42:54,440 --> 00:42:57,720 that you've got to fucking get, as well. 731 00:42:57,760 --> 00:43:00,960 I was diagnosed this year a few days before my birthday. 732 00:43:01,000 --> 00:43:04,440 It came from a routine scan. 733 00:43:04,480 --> 00:43:09,240 It's just bloody... rather rotten timing. 734 00:43:09,280 --> 00:43:13,160 Cancer - it's such a scary word. 735 00:43:13,200 --> 00:43:15,240 But Cris had said, "I'm quite looking forward 736 00:43:15,280 --> 00:43:17,080 "to looking after you for a change." 737 00:43:18,240 --> 00:43:22,320 Cris was going to be my solid rock this time, 738 00:43:22,360 --> 00:43:24,520 but things can change so quickly. 739 00:43:25,920 --> 00:43:29,840 I just wanted to keep enjoying my creativity 740 00:43:29,880 --> 00:43:32,720 and also, my connection with Cris, 741 00:43:32,760 --> 00:43:34,960 spending time with him and doing things that 742 00:43:35,000 --> 00:43:36,760 we enjoy together, as well... 743 00:43:38,160 --> 00:43:39,800 ..while we're here. 744 00:43:51,200 --> 00:43:52,240 Thank you. 745 00:43:56,800 --> 00:44:00,680 Crispin is being transferred to the stroke ward. 746 00:44:00,720 --> 00:44:04,560 Specialists will assess if the Thrombolysis has been successful. 747 00:44:22,640 --> 00:44:25,760 The physical recovery, she's almost over. 748 00:44:25,800 --> 00:44:29,000 But the mental recovery is a bit longer. 749 00:44:29,040 --> 00:44:32,280 I'm not sure how you're supposed to get over something like that. 750 00:44:34,400 --> 00:44:36,360 Hi, guys. 751 00:44:36,400 --> 00:44:38,800 I think the hardest part about all of it 752 00:44:38,840 --> 00:44:41,280 is gaining back my confidence. 753 00:44:41,320 --> 00:44:43,880 It's left me with a lot of anxiety, 754 00:44:43,920 --> 00:44:45,760 just leaving the house. 755 00:44:45,800 --> 00:44:48,320 My main focus is just looking after my step dad, 756 00:44:48,360 --> 00:44:49,760 looking after my family. 757 00:44:49,800 --> 00:44:52,400 Like, I still want to be a football journalist. 758 00:44:52,440 --> 00:44:55,720 I'm just going to take it day by day. 759 00:45:03,800 --> 00:45:05,680 When the doctor phoned me, 760 00:45:05,720 --> 00:45:07,800 I just felt, "Oh, no. 761 00:45:07,840 --> 00:45:10,080 "This is not good." 762 00:45:20,360 --> 00:45:24,520 It was really hard to know whether Cris was going to recover from it, 763 00:45:24,560 --> 00:45:26,680 whether he was going to get another stroke, 764 00:45:26,720 --> 00:45:27,880 and it be worse. 765 00:45:35,040 --> 00:45:36,960 I'm very relieved that it doesn't seem 766 00:45:37,000 --> 00:45:38,960 to have done me permanent damage, 767 00:45:39,000 --> 00:45:43,920 apart from I find it hard to fetch words I want to have lately. 768 00:45:43,960 --> 00:45:46,560 Er, that sort of thing. 769 00:45:46,600 --> 00:45:49,080 I would be devastated if I couldn't play music any more. 770 00:45:49,120 --> 00:45:50,520 It doesn't bear thinking about it. 771 00:45:50,560 --> 00:45:52,800 I'm not going to think about it. HE CHUCKLES 772 00:45:58,800 --> 00:46:00,480 Stella's always looked after me. 773 00:46:00,520 --> 00:46:03,320 So, when her medical issues started, 774 00:46:03,360 --> 00:46:05,240 it was a chance for me to repay that. 775 00:46:05,280 --> 00:46:09,440 One of the hardest things for me was that I was meant to be helping her, 776 00:46:09,480 --> 00:46:11,480 and I found that really difficult to do. 777 00:46:18,640 --> 00:46:21,640 Subtitles by Red Bee Media