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That was my husband's Ford Galaxy.
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We drove Jamie home from
the hospital in that car.
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My mom was 40 when she had me.
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Everyone told her she was too old
to be a mother.
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I put my hand through the little window,
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and he'd squeeze my finger,
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and I'd tell him life was very big...
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and unknown.
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And she told me that there were animals
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and sky and cities...
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...music, movies.
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He'd fall in love,
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have his own children,
have passions, have meaning,
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have his mom and dad.
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When they got divorced,
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my father moved back east
and left the car with us.
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He calls on birthdays and Christmas.
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Last time I felt close to him
was on my birthday in 1974.
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He bought me mirrored sunglasses.
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I saw the president fall down the
stairs...
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and I threw up on the carpet.
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Since then it's just been us.
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I don't understand. What about you?
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I'm staying here with him 'til the plane
gets safely away.
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No, Richard, no.
What has happened to you?
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- Last night we...
- Last night we said a great many things.
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Listen, Captain,
I am having a party tonight,
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it's my birthday actually,
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and I would like you to drop by
so I can feed you.
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It's not necessary, Mrs. Fields.
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No, Dorothea. No, I... I insist. Please?
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That way I... I can thank you.
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It was a beautiful car.
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Mom, it...
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smelled like gas
and overheated all the time...
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and it was just old.
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What?
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Well it wasn't always old.
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It just got that way all of a sudden.
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You know...
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when the firemen come...
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people don't usually
invite them over for dinner.
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Yeah? Why not?
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Why can't she just move on
and be happy with me
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rather than...
lingering on him?
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My mom just makes me feel
like I'm not good enough.
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It's just, I'm constantly
being compared to my dad.
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Oh, hey, sorry.
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Uh, Jamie's not here right now.
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They're not home.
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Don't.
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I'm taking a picture of everything
that happens to me in a day.
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I don't like having my pictures taken.
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I didn't happen to you.
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Hello?
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- Hey.
- Hi.
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Hi. Here.
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- You okay?
- You aren't gonna believe what happened.
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What?
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Our car burst into flames
in the parking lot.
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- It wh...
- Seriously?
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- Are you okay?
- Yeah.
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You know, we're okay.
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- How did it happen?
- Well I don't know.
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They... they said it was probably
just something electrical.
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We walked out and it was
just sitting there... on fire.
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Oh, man.
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- Yeah.
- I'm sorry.
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So... what happened?
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They never tell you anything,
I... They won't...
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I won't know anything for like a week.
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Oh.
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And I'm... I'm gonna be late on rent.
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That's okay. Don't worry about that.
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Thanks.
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Oh, God.
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What if you had been in the car?
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I wouldn't be here.
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You would've missed me?
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Don't joke.
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It was so much easier
before you got all horny.
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It... it's not like you don't...
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Do it?
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Friends can't have sex
and still be friends.
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I like us like we are, okay?
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Okay.
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Jamie!
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Could you come help me
set up, please?
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Can my mom just chill out?
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She's compensating for her loneliness.
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Dorothea, all that is really
beautiful molding there.
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- It is.
- I want to continue that around the side.
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Right so we're gonna
have to re-match that.
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Now is that...
is that actually wood...
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- That is wood.
- or is that plaster?
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No, the plaster is underneath it.
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The molding on the outside there is wood.
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- So...
- Okay.
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It's gonna take a little bit of time,
but...
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Well, we've got...
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Okay, no, it's good.
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Actually, it was, it was built in 1905,
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and the same family had it forever,
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but they lost all their money
during the war,
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and then there was a fire and...
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You should've been here for that.
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Anyway, so, it was just a mess.
They let it fall apart.
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Then a bohemian inherited it
in the '60s,
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then a bunch of free spirits moved in,
and they lost it to the bank.
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It's beautiful.
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Oh, I... I completely fell in love with it.
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We're connected to the dirt
'cause we came from the dirt.
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The dirt is made of stars and stardust,
in the same way we are,
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so when you put your hands
into that dirt
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and feel the Earth Mother...
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- Uh, William?
- Mm-hmm?
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It looks as though I'm gonna be
in need of a car.
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Do you think you have something
for me out there, cheap?
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Maybe that '49 Deluxe?
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I think we can work something out.
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Maybe we'll trade for rent or something.
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- Thank you.
- Sure.
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Okay. Got through that one.
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All right. Just, um...
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give me a minute and then come out.
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My mom was born in 1924.
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When she was my age
people drove in sad cars
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to sad houses with old phones, no money,
or food, or televisions...
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but the people were real.
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When she was 16,
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the war broke out
and she had to leave school.
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Her dream was to be a pilot
in the Air Force.
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She actually went to flight school.
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But the war ended
before she was done.
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She became the first woman to work
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in the Continental Can Company
drafting room.
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Then she met my dad...
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and then I came.
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Then they got divorced.
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But people from her time
never admit anything went wrong.
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- What do you mean?
- I'm sorry.
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He's too young to have an account
in his name only, little guy.
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No. He... he's a person.
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He's not half a person,
and he's not some cute little guy.
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He has volition and autonomy
and privacy.
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He needs a bank account.
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Can you do that for us?
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Now, Jamie, you can't just keep
skipping school and making excuses.
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Well wait a minute, why not?
Why can't he just skip school
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if he... if he has a legitimate
need to be away?
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Well, then I need a legitimate
real note from you...
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- Okay.
- with your real signature.
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Wow, how did you forge
my signature so well?
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That is ingenious!
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But you should never
forge someone's signature
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or do anything
behind someone's back.
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Please excuse Jamie
from school this morning.
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He was doing volunteer work
for the Sandinistas.
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Please excuse Jamie
from school this morning.
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He was involved in
a small plane accident.
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Fortunately, he was not hurt.
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You're gonna be in for
a legendary surprise.
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It's mahogany underneath.
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She's always trying to
bring a man into my life.
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This is probably Honduran mahogany.
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Really fine, very...
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- This is, like, really, really boring.
- Hey, come on, watch it.
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He's talking about, like, wood and stuff.
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He's helping me out.
Restore the house, okay?
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IBM?
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She writes down her stocks every morning.
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Two-hundred and thirteen point two.
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GE?
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Um, 51.62.
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She smokes Salems
because they're healthier,
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wears Birkenstocks
because she's contemporary.
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She read Watership Down
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and learned how to carve rabbits
out of wood.
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And she never dates a man
for very long.
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Thank you, bye bye.
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Good night, Dorothea.
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- Good night.
- Bye.
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So, I'll see ya later.
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Just don't hang out with
that Chris guy anymore, okay?
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- Good night.
- He's a skeez and he's kinda dumb.
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- Exactly.
- Good night, Dorothea.
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- Happy Birthday.
- Bye, Julie.
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Stop.
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What?
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Thinking that you know
everything that's going on.
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No, I don...
I just think that, you know,
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having your heart broken is a tremendous
way to learn about the world.
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Okay.
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Do you think you're happy?
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Like...
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as happy as you thought you'd be
when you were my age?
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Seriously?
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You don't ask people questions like that.
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You're my mom.
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Especially your mom.
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Look, wondering if you're happy
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is a great shortcut
to just being depressed.
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Give me that.
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What is that?
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It's The Raincoats.
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Can't things... just be pretty?
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"Pretty" music is used
to hide how unfair and corrupt society is.
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Ah.
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Okay, so...
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they're not very good,
and they know that, right?
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Yeah, it's...
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It's like they got all this,
this feeling,
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and they don't have any skill,
and they don't want skill,
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because it's really interesting
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what happens when your passion
is bigger than the tools
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you have to deal with it.
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It creates this energy
that's... that's... that's raw.
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Isn't it great?
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My son was born in 1964.
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He grew up with a meaningless war...
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with protests, with Nixon...
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with nice cars and nice houses...
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computers, drugs, boredom.
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I know him less every day.
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He said it was just a game.
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You breathe real hard
and another kid
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He said you're supposed to come to
a few seconds later...
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- Dude, can I try?
- Yeah.
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but it took Jamie almost
a half an hour to wake up.
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Going to get help!
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- You all right?
- He's fine.
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Can you tell me your name?
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Jamie Fields.
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You got lucky this time.
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Lack of oxygen to the brain
can cause brain damage,
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comas... even death.
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Jamie, why would you do something
so dangerous?
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I don't know. Um...
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I mean, everyone was doing it.
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So you just went along with it?
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- It looked like fun.
- That's just dumb.
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Why would you do something
so stupid?
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Just following along?
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You... you know you almost died, right?
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- You don't need to worry about me.
- Why didn't you think?
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Jamie! Hey!
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Jamie...
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What... what is going on?
What, why...
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What? You're not
gonna talk to me now?
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I'm not the one who doesn't talk.
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What? Come on.
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You scared the hell out of me!
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Why... why did you hurt yourself
like that?
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Why do you smoke yourself to death?
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Hey!
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Why are you fine being sad and alone?
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I, uh...
258
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I... You... You c...
259
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You can't talk to me like that.
We don't...
260
00:18:41,748 --> 00:18:43,828
You don't say that to me.
261
00:18:54,302 --> 00:18:56,932
♪ This day and age we're living in ♪
262
00:18:57,013 --> 00:18:59,433
♪ Gives cause for apprehension ♪
263
00:18:59,766 --> 00:19:01,926
♪ With speed and new invention ♪
264
00:19:02,185 --> 00:19:04,315
♪ And things like third dimension ♪
265
00:19:04,395 --> 00:19:07,115
♪ Yet we get a trifle weary ♪
266
00:19:07,398 --> 00:19:09,978
♪ With Mr. Einstein's theory ♪
267
00:19:10,318 --> 00:19:13,028
♪ So we must get down to Earth
at times ♪
268
00:19:14,197 --> 00:19:17,157
♪ Relax, relieve the tension ♪
269
00:19:17,283 --> 00:19:19,663
♪ No matter what the progress ♪
270
00:19:19,786 --> 00:19:21,996
♪ Or what may yet be proved ♪
271
00:19:22,497 --> 00:19:25,497
♪ The simple facts of life are such ♪
272
00:19:25,875 --> 00:19:30,095
♪ They cannot be removed ♪
273
00:19:35,134 --> 00:19:37,594
♪ You must remember this ♪
274
00:19:37,846 --> 00:19:40,136
♪ A kiss is still a kiss... ♪
275
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I think history has been tough on men.
276
00:19:43,101 --> 00:19:44,811
I mean, they can't be what they were,
277
00:19:45,186 --> 00:19:47,016
and they can't figure out what's next.
278
00:19:47,355 --> 00:19:48,615
What are we talking about?
279
00:19:48,690 --> 00:19:49,730
Men?
280
00:19:50,191 --> 00:19:52,111
I think history and men?
281
00:19:52,193 --> 00:19:54,493
I mean who are your heroes nowadays?
282
00:19:54,737 --> 00:19:56,447
A bunch of privileged drug addicts?
283
00:19:56,573 --> 00:19:59,243
I think maybe you guys
can help me with Jamie.
284
00:19:59,534 --> 00:20:02,294
I think... he needs help...
285
00:20:03,079 --> 00:20:06,539
in figuring out how to be himself
in all this mess.
286
00:20:06,749 --> 00:20:08,459
And I can't be there.
287
00:20:09,210 --> 00:20:11,710
I can't be there with him.
I have to let go.
288
00:20:12,422 --> 00:20:14,592
Is this because of the fainting thing?
289
00:20:14,716 --> 00:20:16,336
- He's fine.
- No.
290
00:20:16,718 --> 00:20:18,258
It's because of everything.
291
00:20:20,305 --> 00:20:22,515
I don't understand what...
What are you asking?
292
00:20:23,474 --> 00:20:24,814
Well, how do you be a good man?
293
00:20:26,352 --> 00:20:28,272
What does that even mean nowadays?
294
00:20:29,397 --> 00:20:31,057
He's... he's only got me.
It's just...
295
00:20:31,858 --> 00:20:33,688
Think about it. It's not enough.
296
00:20:33,943 --> 00:20:35,693
- You're serious?
- Yeah.
297
00:20:35,778 --> 00:20:38,488
What about William?
William's a guy. That's...
298
00:20:38,573 --> 00:20:41,283
He can talk to him about guy things.
299
00:20:41,367 --> 00:20:43,237
Have you ever seen them
have a conversation?
300
00:20:43,328 --> 00:20:45,368
They have nothing in common.
They don't connect.
301
00:20:45,455 --> 00:20:47,795
It's just not working.
I mean, I thought about that.
302
00:20:47,957 --> 00:20:48,997
He...
303
00:20:50,251 --> 00:20:53,341
Well, he likes you and you.
He likes you a lot.
304
00:20:53,755 --> 00:20:55,025
- That... that's...
- He's my friend.
305
00:20:55,048 --> 00:20:56,338
I don't want to be his mom.
306
00:20:57,300 --> 00:20:58,840
Yeah, no. I'm his mom.
307
00:20:59,469 --> 00:21:03,219
I mean don't you need a man
to raise a man?
308
00:21:04,766 --> 00:21:06,346
No. I don't think so.
309
00:21:07,268 --> 00:21:08,308
I mean,
310
00:21:08,603 --> 00:21:11,523
I think you're what's gonna work for him.
311
00:21:15,151 --> 00:21:18,861
I mean... you know him better than anyone.
312
00:21:19,155 --> 00:21:21,455
You know that, and...
313
00:21:21,532 --> 00:21:25,202
you care about him.
You can watch out for him.
314
00:21:25,411 --> 00:21:30,171
And you just share your life.
You're a talented person.
315
00:21:30,291 --> 00:21:31,691
Show him what you're interested in.
316
00:21:31,751 --> 00:21:33,631
You know, he would be lucky to have that.
317
00:21:52,105 --> 00:21:53,155
Help me with what?
318
00:21:53,564 --> 00:21:56,364
Oh, go through this part of your life.
319
00:21:56,442 --> 00:21:58,402
It's not easy. It's not easy for anybody.
320
00:21:59,821 --> 00:22:01,451
- You asked them to help me?
- Yeah.
321
00:22:02,240 --> 00:22:04,410
No, they... they get it.
322
00:22:06,285 --> 00:22:07,335
So they said yes?
323
00:22:07,578 --> 00:22:08,948
Yeah.
324
00:22:09,372 --> 00:22:10,752
- Fuck.
- Hey!
325
00:22:11,874 --> 00:22:14,634
You just feel guilty
'cause it's just me and you.
326
00:22:17,630 --> 00:22:19,170
You don't know what I'm feeling.
327
00:22:20,258 --> 00:22:21,338
Just tell me.
328
00:22:22,218 --> 00:22:24,338
Kid...
329
00:22:24,429 --> 00:22:27,679
You never tell me what you're gonna do.
You just do it.
330
00:22:43,322 --> 00:22:45,322
I got the keys to my stepmom's car.
331
00:22:45,408 --> 00:22:47,448
I'm going to The Starwood.
332
00:22:47,535 --> 00:22:50,795
Tanya and Michelle
are both gonna be there.
333
00:22:51,122 --> 00:22:52,292
Hey, you guys going to LA?
334
00:22:53,458 --> 00:22:55,578
Yeah, I am.
335
00:22:57,170 --> 00:22:58,210
Can I come?
336
00:23:00,048 --> 00:23:02,418
...kissed a girl? Are you ready?
337
00:23:03,301 --> 00:23:05,841
Are you gonna... are you gonna
get with some chick there?
338
00:23:29,494 --> 00:23:30,794
That was Jamie.
339
00:23:31,537 --> 00:23:34,037
He is in, uh, LA.
340
00:23:34,332 --> 00:23:36,882
He and some friends went to a show.
341
00:23:38,503 --> 00:23:41,513
- Oh.
- Yeah. He wanted me to tell you.
342
00:23:42,590 --> 00:23:44,010
Okay.
343
00:23:52,433 --> 00:23:54,103
Aren't you worried or...
344
00:23:57,396 --> 00:23:59,896
He's mad at me and this is his way
of dealing with it...
345
00:24:01,234 --> 00:24:03,284
and he has every right to be mad.
346
00:24:05,363 --> 00:24:06,993
Yeah, but if it makes him this mad,
347
00:24:07,198 --> 00:24:09,568
then maybe it wasn't a good idea.
348
00:24:16,290 --> 00:24:18,830
♪ Got television, got supervision ♪
349
00:24:18,918 --> 00:24:20,498
♪ No decisions for you ♪
350
00:24:20,711 --> 00:24:24,301
♪ Media blitz, media blitz,
media hits, we rule ♪
351
00:24:30,304 --> 00:24:32,064
♪ Don't steal your eyes
off the TV screen ♪
352
00:24:32,140 --> 00:24:33,850
♪ Can you realize we're what we've seen? ♪
353
00:24:33,933 --> 00:24:37,643
♪ Take an injection... ♪
354
00:24:46,529 --> 00:24:48,029
Maybe...
355
00:24:48,781 --> 00:24:50,531
Maybe I did the wrong thing.
356
00:24:51,993 --> 00:24:53,703
Oh, I...
357
00:24:54,662 --> 00:24:56,202
- With the kid, I mean.
- Yeah, I know.
358
00:24:56,289 --> 00:24:59,249
I think that Jamie's energy
is very...
359
00:25:01,836 --> 00:25:03,456
unstable.
360
00:25:05,673 --> 00:25:07,173
Yeah. Well, you're right.
361
00:25:07,258 --> 00:25:08,838
Then, though,
there's an energy crisis.
362
00:25:08,926 --> 00:25:14,006
Maybe that plays into it in some way.
363
00:25:15,850 --> 00:25:17,520
I'm sorry.
364
00:25:19,187 --> 00:25:21,857
You don't have very many
funny lines, do you?
365
00:25:25,443 --> 00:25:26,693
Okay.
366
00:25:54,555 --> 00:25:55,605
Jamie?
367
00:26:04,565 --> 00:26:06,075
Jamie?
368
00:26:29,674 --> 00:26:30,764
Hey.
369
00:26:31,509 --> 00:26:32,759
Hey.
370
00:26:33,719 --> 00:26:35,719
- Everything okay?
- Yeah.
371
00:26:36,472 --> 00:26:37,682
Can I come in?
372
00:26:38,975 --> 00:26:40,185
Sure.
373
00:26:43,980 --> 00:26:46,730
So I had this new idea
for... for my photography
374
00:26:46,816 --> 00:26:51,486
that I was gonna take a picture
of everything that I owned
375
00:26:51,570 --> 00:26:56,780
so it would be a self-portrait of myself
through the stuff that I have.
376
00:27:00,705 --> 00:27:01,755
Can I show you?
377
00:27:02,248 --> 00:27:06,038
That's a bra, birth control,
378
00:27:06,711 --> 00:27:11,511
um, photography by Susan Sontag,
shoes, underwear,
379
00:27:12,300 --> 00:27:13,800
a picture of a picture of my mom.
380
00:27:14,927 --> 00:27:17,137
I'm gonna do a bunch of 'em.
381
00:27:18,764 --> 00:27:21,984
It's a little bit... It's a little bit sad.
382
00:27:26,105 --> 00:27:27,775
You know, all this stuff together.
383
00:27:29,025 --> 00:27:30,865
I don't know why that is.
384
00:27:32,111 --> 00:27:33,151
Not... I mean...
385
00:27:33,904 --> 00:27:35,324
Do you know what I mean?
386
00:27:36,532 --> 00:27:38,332
It's really beautiful, Abbie.
387
00:27:39,201 --> 00:27:42,831
Do you want to fool around...
with me?
388
00:27:45,082 --> 00:27:46,422
Really?
389
00:27:47,918 --> 00:27:49,168
Yeah.
390
00:27:52,381 --> 00:27:53,801
Yeah.
391
00:27:55,301 --> 00:27:56,721
I do.
392
00:28:00,556 --> 00:28:03,846
You know, I'm recovering
from cervical cancer.
393
00:28:07,480 --> 00:28:08,730
I know.
394
00:28:25,581 --> 00:28:27,501
Your hair smells good.
395
00:28:31,629 --> 00:28:33,169
I make my own shampoo.
396
00:28:34,423 --> 00:28:35,883
Of course you do.
397
00:29:04,120 --> 00:29:05,160
Oh.
398
00:29:05,412 --> 00:29:08,002
It's okay, Jeeves, he's back.
399
00:29:08,082 --> 00:29:10,042
You can relax now.
400
00:29:22,930 --> 00:29:24,430
Where were you?
401
00:29:25,641 --> 00:29:26,681
I went to The Starwood.
402
00:29:27,476 --> 00:29:31,436
Saw a show in LA. Had a lot of fun.
403
00:29:33,107 --> 00:29:34,147
Are you drunk?
404
00:29:42,825 --> 00:29:44,125
Don't.
405
00:29:48,372 --> 00:29:49,662
What's wrong?
406
00:29:52,543 --> 00:29:54,543
Tim Trammer came inside me.
407
00:29:58,883 --> 00:30:01,013
I don't want to hear this shit.
408
00:30:02,803 --> 00:30:05,723
We broke
into that old pool at the rec center.
409
00:30:05,806 --> 00:30:07,596
Got loaded.
410
00:30:08,642 --> 00:30:10,142
Fucked around.
411
00:30:12,229 --> 00:30:14,899
And me and Tim ended up
in his mom's Maverick.
412
00:30:21,864 --> 00:30:23,074
Did you just cum?
413
00:30:24,116 --> 00:30:25,736
Yeah.
414
00:30:27,953 --> 00:30:29,583
You said you'd pull out.
415
00:30:32,499 --> 00:30:33,999
Yeah.
416
00:30:34,418 --> 00:30:35,998
Sorry.
417
00:30:38,005 --> 00:30:39,885
I thought we had a deal there.
418
00:30:42,593 --> 00:30:43,933
Fuck.
419
00:30:46,972 --> 00:30:48,722
What are you gonna do?
420
00:30:52,561 --> 00:30:54,231
It'll be fine.
421
00:31:10,996 --> 00:31:13,826
Your mom asked me to, like,
help raise you.
422
00:31:17,378 --> 00:31:19,338
Yeah, I know.
423
00:31:21,882 --> 00:31:23,512
She was raised in The Depression.
424
00:31:24,426 --> 00:31:25,966
Everyone helped raise everyone.
425
00:31:26,345 --> 00:31:28,725
You know,
the whole neighborhood raised the kids.
426
00:31:30,015 --> 00:31:31,605
Sorry.
427
00:31:34,937 --> 00:31:35,977
Can we do therapy?
428
00:31:37,064 --> 00:31:39,364
Jesus, I don't want
to do therapy right now.
429
00:31:39,441 --> 00:31:40,981
- Let's just role play.
- Please, no.
430
00:31:41,068 --> 00:31:44,148
I'll be your mom, and you can tell her
what you want to tell her.
431
00:31:44,571 --> 00:31:45,861
Just do it.
432
00:31:47,574 --> 00:31:49,094
I don't want to talk to my mom right now.
433
00:31:49,118 --> 00:31:50,158
What would you say to her?
434
00:31:53,163 --> 00:31:54,833
Okay.
435
00:31:59,086 --> 00:32:01,376
I don't need your help, Mom.
436
00:32:02,464 --> 00:32:04,094
I've got it.
437
00:32:04,800 --> 00:32:06,090
I'm okay.
438
00:32:09,930 --> 00:32:12,850
Um, I'm gonna need a story.
439
00:32:13,309 --> 00:32:14,349
What?
440
00:32:14,810 --> 00:32:15,850
A story.
441
00:32:16,312 --> 00:32:18,102
- What do you mean?
- Like a... a story.
442
00:32:19,064 --> 00:32:20,114
Um... where... I'm...
443
00:32:25,070 --> 00:32:27,360
I'm just a normal woman,
444
00:32:28,198 --> 00:32:30,618
and you're a photographer,
445
00:32:30,993 --> 00:32:35,203
and so you're photographing me,
but while you're doing it...
446
00:32:36,957 --> 00:32:40,837
you can't help yourself,
and you start touching me.
447
00:32:41,837 --> 00:32:45,047
And you touch me...
448
00:32:46,133 --> 00:32:52,723
and you say...
"I'm sorry. I'm sorry."
449
00:32:55,100 --> 00:32:56,270
Really?
450
00:32:57,728 --> 00:32:59,728
I can't just be myself?
451
00:33:03,525 --> 00:33:04,945
No.
452
00:33:06,570 --> 00:33:07,964
Okay, so... Do I just, uh...
- Okay.
453
00:33:07,988 --> 00:33:09,448
Hey, nice to meet you.
- Oh, Hi.
454
00:33:10,240 --> 00:33:13,950
Do I just look in the camera,
or should I look... off to the side?
455
00:33:14,036 --> 00:33:16,076
Let's start that way,
looking in the camera.
456
00:33:16,163 --> 00:33:17,213
Okay. Should I smile?
457
00:33:18,082 --> 00:33:19,462
- Do you like to smile?
- Yeah.
458
00:33:20,167 --> 00:33:22,087
- Okay.
- Okay.
459
00:33:22,920 --> 00:33:23,960
Uh, oh, you took it.
460
00:33:24,254 --> 00:33:26,024
I thought you were gonna
say like, "One, two, three..."
461
00:33:26,048 --> 00:33:27,088
- No.
- Okay.
462
00:33:27,341 --> 00:33:29,011
- I just wait for the moment.
- Okay.
463
00:33:29,134 --> 00:33:30,934
- I just have to fix something.
- Okay.
464
00:33:31,470 --> 00:33:32,760
- Just right here.
- Um, oh.
465
00:33:33,514 --> 00:33:35,434
- I'm sorry.
- Oh, God. No, it's all right.
466
00:33:35,516 --> 00:33:38,976
I don't mind. I'm just...
Never done this before.
467
00:33:39,061 --> 00:33:44,441
I, um, so I'm just a little bit nervous,
but, um, I can, um,
468
00:33:44,525 --> 00:33:47,115
wear my hair differently if you want.
- Abbie...
469
00:33:48,904 --> 00:33:50,204
Yeah?
470
00:33:52,533 --> 00:33:54,163
I'm sorry.
471
00:33:59,206 --> 00:34:00,996
I'm really sorry.
472
00:34:18,684 --> 00:34:22,024
Julie and I
have been friends since we were little.
473
00:34:26,108 --> 00:34:28,648
She likes to say
she's self-destructive.
474
00:34:30,487 --> 00:34:31,697
Her mother is a therapist.
475
00:34:32,239 --> 00:34:33,279
We used to talk and I...
476
00:34:34,324 --> 00:34:37,454
had a better sense of what was going on
with you. I worry that...
477
00:34:38,078 --> 00:34:40,868
She makes Julie attend
her teen group sessions.
478
00:34:40,956 --> 00:34:42,326
How about the possibility...
479
00:34:43,959 --> 00:34:46,629
that you're choosing boys
who are inappropriate...
480
00:34:47,087 --> 00:34:48,127
unconsciously?
481
00:34:49,631 --> 00:34:51,591
When her mother remarried, Julie changed.
482
00:34:51,675 --> 00:34:53,195
I love this shirt! Don't get me wrong...
483
00:34:53,218 --> 00:34:54,548
When her half-sister Amanda
484
00:34:54,636 --> 00:34:58,056
was born with cerebral palsy,
she changed more.
485
00:35:00,142 --> 00:35:01,812
Wow, it looks really pretty on you.
486
00:35:02,227 --> 00:35:05,017
Brings... Just... just makes
your whole face pop.
487
00:35:05,856 --> 00:35:06,896
Like soda. Like pop.
488
00:35:17,284 --> 00:35:19,454
She started fooling around.
489
00:35:21,288 --> 00:35:23,458
She started
sneaking into my house.
490
00:35:24,625 --> 00:35:26,135
Sleeping over.
491
00:35:27,628 --> 00:35:28,788
Why'd you do it?
492
00:35:29,254 --> 00:35:30,674
'Cause I'm crazy.
493
00:35:33,592 --> 00:35:35,382
You wish you were crazy.
494
00:35:39,473 --> 00:35:41,023
Scratch me.
495
00:35:44,394 --> 00:35:46,904
We should go
up the coast somewhere.
496
00:35:48,315 --> 00:35:49,365
Just me and you.
497
00:35:52,236 --> 00:35:55,026
Julie works at the La Cumbre Plaza mall.
498
00:35:55,113 --> 00:36:00,163
Spring Rain features cinnamon, jasmine,
lily of the valley and rose.
499
00:36:01,537 --> 00:36:03,157
"Sex is a commitment.
500
00:36:03,247 --> 00:36:05,617
Once you're there, you can't
go back to holding hands,
501
00:36:05,707 --> 00:36:08,497
and when you give yourself,
both mentally and physically,
502
00:36:08,752 --> 00:36:10,382
well, you're completely vulnerable."
503
00:36:10,462 --> 00:36:13,172
All he cares about is his new wife,
and her birthday,
504
00:36:13,632 --> 00:36:15,472
and Christmas with her
and her family,
505
00:36:16,677 --> 00:36:19,007
and inviting all of her family to our...
506
00:36:19,096 --> 00:36:24,636
Spring Rain features cinnamon, jasmine,
lily of the valley and rose.
507
00:36:26,061 --> 00:36:28,271
"Of all the misconceptions about love,
508
00:36:28,355 --> 00:36:29,985
the most powerful and persuasive
509
00:36:30,315 --> 00:36:32,325
is the belief
that falling in love is love,
510
00:36:34,278 --> 00:36:36,988
or at least one of the
manifestations of love."
511
00:36:38,240 --> 00:36:40,620
Love is supposed to be
a feeling that you feel.
512
00:36:41,076 --> 00:36:44,946
People say that they're falling in love,
but they're not actually falling in love.
513
00:36:46,248 --> 00:36:48,748
It's a fake connection
that you feel with someone...
514
00:36:49,376 --> 00:36:51,206
and marriage should never happen.
515
00:36:51,628 --> 00:36:55,128
You should have died.
It should have been you!
516
00:36:56,425 --> 00:36:57,475
Die!
517
00:37:40,427 --> 00:37:41,467
Hey, Julie.
518
00:37:42,262 --> 00:37:44,062
- Hey.
- Hi.
519
00:37:44,806 --> 00:37:47,596
So come on in. It's okay. Come in.
520
00:37:48,310 --> 00:37:51,270
He's not up yet. He, uh...
- Yeah.
521
00:37:51,355 --> 00:37:52,565
Yeah, he got in kinda late.
522
00:37:53,440 --> 00:37:55,440
Okay, you wanna help me
bring this stuff in?
523
00:38:01,365 --> 00:38:03,535
So is, uh, Jamie okay?
524
00:38:03,825 --> 00:38:06,295
Yeah, he's okay.
525
00:38:07,454 --> 00:38:09,294
Yeah, I... I heard him come in last night.
526
00:38:09,664 --> 00:38:11,464
- Oh.
- I was... I was awake.
527
00:38:12,292 --> 00:38:13,332
Right.
528
00:38:13,543 --> 00:38:16,843
Yeah, I was just...
Couldn't sleep, so I was...
529
00:38:18,590 --> 00:38:20,760
you know, listening for him.
530
00:38:35,065 --> 00:38:36,445
How was the show?
531
00:38:37,442 --> 00:38:38,732
It was good.
532
00:38:39,861 --> 00:38:42,821
Next time you take a trip
just let me know, okay?
533
00:38:42,906 --> 00:38:45,316
I won't make too much dinner.
534
00:38:54,376 --> 00:38:56,376
Hey, do the stocks with me?
535
00:38:59,673 --> 00:39:00,883
Here.
536
00:39:06,263 --> 00:39:07,893
Okay. IBM?
537
00:39:10,058 --> 00:39:12,938
IBM, 69.73.
538
00:39:13,478 --> 00:39:16,478
Xerox? You okay?
539
00:39:19,109 --> 00:39:21,399
Xerox, 53.92.
540
00:39:21,486 --> 00:39:22,526
- Stop.
- Okay.
541
00:39:23,280 --> 00:39:25,570
Fifty-three point nine two.
542
00:39:26,366 --> 00:39:27,406
Listen.
543
00:39:27,534 --> 00:39:29,474
Abbie has her appointment today
and I can't be here.
544
00:39:29,494 --> 00:39:30,544
I have to go to work,
545
00:39:30,662 --> 00:39:32,662
so I was hoping that maybe
you could be here
546
00:39:33,331 --> 00:39:36,211
when she gets back
in case she needs some support.
547
00:39:36,751 --> 00:39:38,591
She's going through a lot.
548
00:39:39,504 --> 00:39:43,424
Okay, well, like, what if it's,
like, bad news or something?
549
00:39:44,551 --> 00:39:45,681
Well, you can handle it.
550
00:39:46,136 --> 00:39:49,556
Or if you can't,
you have to start somewhere.
551
00:39:51,349 --> 00:39:53,639
Men always feel like
they have to fix things
552
00:39:53,727 --> 00:39:55,637
for women
or they're not doing anything,
553
00:39:55,729 --> 00:39:58,859
but some things just can't be fixed.
554
00:39:58,982 --> 00:40:00,322
Just be there.
555
00:40:01,234 --> 00:40:03,444
Somehow that's hard for all of you.
556
00:40:05,405 --> 00:40:08,955
Mom, I'm not "all men."
Okay? I'm just me.
557
00:40:09,951 --> 00:40:12,371
Well, yes and no.
558
00:40:16,082 --> 00:40:18,582
What if I have to have full-on chemo...
559
00:40:19,503 --> 00:40:21,633
or get a hysterectomy?
560
00:40:22,422 --> 00:40:24,302
Do you know what that is?
561
00:40:26,510 --> 00:40:28,890
Look, I should just
go with you, you know? I mean...
562
00:40:35,101 --> 00:40:38,151
Your mom did tell me
to share my life with you.
563
00:40:39,439 --> 00:40:41,189
Yeah, I know.
564
00:40:42,317 --> 00:40:44,357
You don't...
565
00:40:44,444 --> 00:40:45,904
Don't worry about her.
She's...
566
00:40:46,154 --> 00:40:47,784
she's from The Depression.
567
00:40:51,451 --> 00:40:52,541
Yeah.
568
00:40:57,624 --> 00:40:59,924
It's good news, Abbie.
569
00:41:01,628 --> 00:41:03,088
There were no malignant cells.
570
00:41:03,964 --> 00:41:05,634
Your biopsy's benign.
571
00:41:09,553 --> 00:41:12,473
And in the future?
572
00:41:13,974 --> 00:41:17,274
There was damage to the muscle wall,
from the surgery.
573
00:41:19,646 --> 00:41:21,766
You have an incompetent cervix.
574
00:41:30,740 --> 00:41:32,450
Incompetent?
575
00:41:33,702 --> 00:41:36,542
It may not be strong enough
to go full term during pregnancy.
576
00:41:37,497 --> 00:41:40,537
As the baby grows, the cervix widens.
577
00:41:41,501 --> 00:41:43,961
If it's weakened, it's likely
to open prematurely.
578
00:41:50,468 --> 00:41:52,048
I'm gonna be okay.
579
00:41:56,391 --> 00:41:59,231
He said that I probably
can't have kids.
580
00:42:05,859 --> 00:42:07,689
Was having Jamie, like...
581
00:42:08,778 --> 00:42:11,068
the biggest thing
that ever happened to you?
582
00:42:16,161 --> 00:42:17,621
I guess so.
583
00:42:19,914 --> 00:42:22,124
- Sorry.
- It's okay.
584
00:42:27,631 --> 00:42:29,671
You'll get through this.
585
00:42:31,676 --> 00:42:33,546
You will get through it.
586
00:42:34,596 --> 00:42:36,466
You will do it.
587
00:42:40,060 --> 00:42:43,730
You'll... This is the really hard part.
And then what happens is,
588
00:42:44,105 --> 00:42:47,115
there's a hard part
and then it gets better.
589
00:42:48,610 --> 00:42:50,570
And then it gets hard again,
but never mind.
590
00:42:54,157 --> 00:42:55,867
I shouldn't have told you that part.
591
00:42:56,743 --> 00:43:00,333
I should have just said it gets better
and then that's it, but...
592
00:43:01,122 --> 00:43:02,162
You got birds?
593
00:43:02,874 --> 00:43:03,924
Is that okay?
594
00:43:04,334 --> 00:43:05,384
Yeah.
595
00:43:08,421 --> 00:43:09,921
So did you name them?
596
00:43:10,507 --> 00:43:11,547
Not yet.
597
00:43:12,133 --> 00:43:14,223
They're a boy and a girl,
and...
598
00:43:14,302 --> 00:43:16,512
that they're monogamous
for life, so if...
599
00:43:18,640 --> 00:43:20,640
one of them dies, then the other one...
600
00:43:21,685 --> 00:43:23,695
will die like a week later.
601
00:43:23,978 --> 00:43:25,648
Wow.
602
00:43:27,357 --> 00:43:29,317
Well how 'bout
Maximilian and Carlotta?
603
00:43:30,568 --> 00:43:31,608
I... I...
604
00:43:32,404 --> 00:43:33,904
You know,
they deserve something grand
605
00:43:33,988 --> 00:43:37,318
if they're gonna be monogamous
their whole lives.
606
00:43:37,409 --> 00:43:39,869
Right?
607
00:43:41,788 --> 00:43:45,868
Aw.
608
00:43:48,795 --> 00:43:52,425
Max and Carlotta are really good names.
609
00:43:54,175 --> 00:43:57,265
So, um, you...
610
00:43:57,345 --> 00:44:00,515
you went to the doctor's
and you waited with her.
611
00:44:02,016 --> 00:44:03,386
Yeah.
612
00:44:04,686 --> 00:44:07,096
But I... I told you to wait here.
613
00:44:07,397 --> 00:44:08,437
I, um,
614
00:44:08,815 --> 00:44:10,775
I thought it'd be better to, uh, go and...
615
00:44:11,735 --> 00:44:12,785
really be there.
616
00:44:13,778 --> 00:44:15,148
Wow.
617
00:44:17,574 --> 00:44:19,494
She's really upset.
618
00:44:22,203 --> 00:44:24,003
That must have been a lot to deal with.
619
00:44:24,748 --> 00:44:26,168
I'm fine.
620
00:44:26,750 --> 00:44:28,000
I'm good.
621
00:44:29,127 --> 00:44:31,587
I... I learned a lot.
622
00:44:35,175 --> 00:44:36,385
Abigail Porter?
623
00:44:43,183 --> 00:44:44,683
"Home pregnancy tests
624
00:44:44,768 --> 00:44:46,478
that women can do safely and easily.
625
00:44:47,854 --> 00:44:51,364
A small revolution for women
seeking to take control of their lives."
626
00:45:11,711 --> 00:45:13,551
What the fuck is this?
627
00:45:14,297 --> 00:45:16,877
It's a pregnancy test.
628
00:45:22,472 --> 00:45:23,512
Um,
629
00:45:23,932 --> 00:45:25,392
Abbie's doctor said that, uh,
630
00:45:26,392 --> 00:45:28,942
she wouldn't be able to have kids.
631
00:45:31,231 --> 00:45:33,231
Why'd she take you?
632
00:45:37,821 --> 00:45:39,611
- Is that all of it?
- Yeah.
633
00:45:40,907 --> 00:45:42,317
That's a lot.
634
00:45:42,867 --> 00:45:45,037
- Now what?
- Um...
635
00:45:45,787 --> 00:45:47,787
"Shake for ten seconds."
636
00:45:56,840 --> 00:45:58,470
Okay, um...
637
00:46:03,805 --> 00:46:07,475
Um... "Leave undisturbed for two hours."
638
00:46:09,269 --> 00:46:11,229
Two hours?
639
00:46:12,772 --> 00:46:14,272
That's what it says.
640
00:46:18,278 --> 00:46:21,358
Okay, if it appears, then you're positive,
641
00:46:21,447 --> 00:46:24,907
and if no ring appears here,
then the test is negative.
642
00:46:30,290 --> 00:46:31,500
What do we do for two hours?
643
00:46:37,046 --> 00:46:38,336
Guys don't smoke like that.
644
00:46:38,798 --> 00:46:39,838
Don't hold it like that.
645
00:46:39,924 --> 00:46:42,894
Like... this,
646
00:46:43,261 --> 00:46:44,471
between your two fingers.
647
00:46:44,971 --> 00:46:46,931
- That?
- Yeah. That's better.
648
00:46:51,102 --> 00:46:52,392
Okay now walk. Do like a...
649
00:46:53,146 --> 00:46:55,356
a cool cigarette walk.
650
00:47:04,115 --> 00:47:05,435
Guys aren't supposed to look like
651
00:47:05,491 --> 00:47:07,831
they're thinking about
what they look like.
652
00:47:09,954 --> 00:47:11,334
Watch me.
653
00:47:19,213 --> 00:47:20,553
See?
654
00:47:21,174 --> 00:47:24,094
Smoking's gross.
655
00:47:24,510 --> 00:47:26,180
No, it's not.
656
00:47:28,014 --> 00:47:29,064
It gives you cancer.
657
00:47:31,392 --> 00:47:32,522
This is just my opinion.
658
00:47:32,727 --> 00:47:35,017
I think being strong
is the most important quality.
659
00:47:35,104 --> 00:47:38,694
It's not being vulnerable,
it's not being sensitive.
660
00:47:38,983 --> 00:47:41,743
It's not even...
Honestly, it's not even being happy.
661
00:47:42,654 --> 00:47:43,704
It's about strength
662
00:47:44,447 --> 00:47:47,737
and your durability
against the other emotions.
663
00:47:58,086 --> 00:47:59,746
No ring.
664
00:48:01,005 --> 00:48:02,805
No ring.
665
00:48:11,224 --> 00:48:13,354
- Hey.
- Hey.
666
00:48:15,687 --> 00:48:17,347
Thanks for coming with me.
667
00:48:17,981 --> 00:48:19,311
Yeah, totally.
668
00:48:20,358 --> 00:48:22,028
I made you this.
669
00:48:23,194 --> 00:48:24,324
- It's a mix tape.
- Yep.
670
00:48:25,613 --> 00:48:28,163
These were a bunch of songs that...
671
00:48:28,241 --> 00:48:31,241
I think my life
would have been better
672
00:48:31,577 --> 00:48:35,287
if they had been around
when I was a teenager.
673
00:48:35,581 --> 00:48:38,791
So I'm hoping that
if you listen to them now,
674
00:48:39,210 --> 00:48:42,170
you will be a happier
and more realized person
675
00:48:42,255 --> 00:48:45,845
than I could ever hope to be.
676
00:48:51,806 --> 00:48:53,306
From that night on...
677
00:48:53,391 --> 00:48:55,891
Abbie started telling me everything.
678
00:48:57,103 --> 00:49:00,113
She grew up in Santa Barbara
where everyone is happy,
679
00:49:00,356 --> 00:49:02,476
but that just made her feel crazy.
680
00:49:04,610 --> 00:49:08,070
In 1973, she moved to New York City
and went to art school.
681
00:49:09,157 --> 00:49:11,697
New York City made her feel sane.
682
00:49:11,868 --> 00:49:13,618
It was so fucked up.
683
00:49:14,537 --> 00:49:16,707
She fell in love with photography.
684
00:49:17,874 --> 00:49:19,674
She learned to dance when she got sad.
685
00:49:21,127 --> 00:49:24,917
She saw The Man Who Fell to Earth
and dyed her hair red.
686
00:49:25,048 --> 00:49:27,418
I figured out how to be looked at
687
00:49:27,967 --> 00:49:29,007
by men,
688
00:49:30,053 --> 00:49:34,433
and how to make them excited,
689
00:49:34,849 --> 00:49:36,889
and uncomfortable.
690
00:49:37,560 --> 00:49:38,600
I was so cocky,
691
00:49:39,062 --> 00:49:40,772
and I was so angry
692
00:49:41,314 --> 00:49:44,074
and I was so happy.
693
00:49:47,320 --> 00:49:49,740
She fell in love with her teacher.
694
00:49:56,662 --> 00:49:58,462
Then she went
to Planned Parenthood.
695
00:49:58,998 --> 00:50:00,458
Abigail Porter?
696
00:50:04,128 --> 00:50:07,048
Her friends couldn't
deal with her having cancer,
697
00:50:07,131 --> 00:50:09,051
so she went home to her mom.
698
00:50:09,133 --> 00:50:10,223
Hey, Mom...
699
00:50:11,052 --> 00:50:12,682
Gail, did you ever take...
700
00:50:12,762 --> 00:50:15,972
D.E.S. when you were pregnant with Abbie?
701
00:50:16,933 --> 00:50:18,103
Yes.
702
00:50:19,185 --> 00:50:24,025
I had two miscarriages before Abbie.
The doctor told me to take it.
703
00:50:25,108 --> 00:50:28,608
D.E.S. was a fertility medication.
704
00:50:28,694 --> 00:50:31,534
Doctors prescribed it to women.
705
00:50:31,656 --> 00:50:34,276
Later they found out
that the daughters
706
00:50:34,367 --> 00:50:37,737
of the women who took it
got cervical cancer.
707
00:50:38,287 --> 00:50:41,207
I didn't know that
you had miscarriages.
708
00:50:43,835 --> 00:50:44,925
When her mom found out
709
00:50:45,002 --> 00:50:46,632
it was because she took that drug,
710
00:50:47,213 --> 00:50:48,513
she wouldn't talk about it.
711
00:50:49,632 --> 00:50:52,722
And everything Abbie did made her mad.
712
00:50:53,928 --> 00:50:56,348
So Abbie looked
for another place to live.
713
00:50:58,599 --> 00:50:59,639
- Hi. Hello...
- Hi.
714
00:51:00,226 --> 00:51:03,226
And she started renting the room upstairs.
715
00:51:03,646 --> 00:51:04,726
I'm Abbie.
716
00:51:05,731 --> 00:51:07,691
And she got a job at the news press.
717
00:51:07,775 --> 00:51:08,825
...the landslide.
718
00:51:09,277 --> 00:51:11,067
It shows how erosion along the bluff,
719
00:51:11,612 --> 00:51:14,742
it causes instantaneous
loss of oceanfront property
720
00:51:14,824 --> 00:51:15,954
and... and construction.
721
00:51:17,034 --> 00:51:18,334
Over time, it gradually...
722
00:51:30,423 --> 00:51:31,973
Hi, Dorothea.
723
00:51:32,425 --> 00:51:34,225
Hey, Charlie.
724
00:51:40,141 --> 00:51:43,021
Hey... um...
725
00:51:45,229 --> 00:51:46,439
You wanna go out some time?
726
00:51:47,190 --> 00:51:48,820
Get a drink?
727
00:51:49,567 --> 00:51:51,737
Oh, um...
728
00:51:54,113 --> 00:51:55,783
Yeah.
729
00:51:57,200 --> 00:51:59,870
What the heck, Charlie?
730
00:51:59,952 --> 00:52:02,082
Sure. Okay.
731
00:52:02,246 --> 00:52:04,156
I wasn't sure.
732
00:52:04,248 --> 00:52:05,828
- Uh...
- What?
733
00:52:06,459 --> 00:52:09,419
Some... some of the guys
thought you were a lesbian.
734
00:52:09,503 --> 00:52:13,673
You know, which, look,
I don't have a problem with if you are,
735
00:52:13,925 --> 00:52:15,685
but you're not.
736
00:52:16,219 --> 00:52:18,179
Yeah, no, I am not.
737
00:52:22,391 --> 00:52:24,181
Um, should we go out then?
738
00:52:26,437 --> 00:52:28,307
Okay, yeah. Sure.
739
00:52:28,397 --> 00:52:32,437
You wanna come to dinner
at my house again some time?
740
00:52:34,195 --> 00:52:35,365
You could...
741
00:52:35,738 --> 00:52:37,278
We could do that.
742
00:53:11,232 --> 00:53:13,782
Shit. Julie.
743
00:53:27,415 --> 00:53:29,125
It's really-It's nothing.
744
00:53:29,292 --> 00:53:31,292
I just end up there sometimes.
745
00:53:32,670 --> 00:53:34,340
What do you guys do?
746
00:53:35,047 --> 00:53:36,297
I just sleep.
747
00:53:36,966 --> 00:53:38,166
We talk.
748
00:53:44,724 --> 00:53:46,144
Can I have one?
749
00:53:47,351 --> 00:53:48,811
No, they're really bad for you.
750
00:53:50,146 --> 00:53:51,346
You smoke all the time.
751
00:53:52,231 --> 00:53:54,361
You know when I started,
they weren't bad for you.
752
00:53:54,442 --> 00:53:56,742
They were just stylish, sort of edgy,
753
00:53:56,819 --> 00:53:59,699
so it's different for me.
754
00:54:05,953 --> 00:54:07,293
Okay.
755
00:54:16,547 --> 00:54:18,167
You're good at hiding stuff, huh?
756
00:54:19,425 --> 00:54:21,895
My mom calls it compartmentalizing.
757
00:54:22,553 --> 00:54:24,393
Apparently, I do that a lot.
758
00:54:29,143 --> 00:54:30,643
Are you helping him?
759
00:54:33,397 --> 00:54:35,517
- I'm trying.
- Really?
760
00:54:37,735 --> 00:54:38,785
What about you?
761
00:54:39,403 --> 00:54:41,993
Have you thought about your impact on him?
762
00:54:43,324 --> 00:54:45,414
It's always about the mother.
763
00:54:47,370 --> 00:54:48,410
Like...
764
00:54:48,579 --> 00:54:51,369
do you think you've moved on
since his dad?
765
00:54:52,750 --> 00:54:54,960
You know that you're
not actually a therapist?
766
00:54:58,756 --> 00:55:00,966
I've had new guys, okay?
767
00:55:03,469 --> 00:55:05,389
No one appropriate.
768
00:55:06,931 --> 00:55:08,311
Appropriate?
769
00:55:10,976 --> 00:55:13,686
Guys you're not
gonna risk anything with...
770
00:55:15,731 --> 00:55:17,401
men you don't even really like.
771
00:55:18,401 --> 00:55:20,991
Listen, you're 17, okay?
772
00:55:21,195 --> 00:55:23,745
Maybe you don't know
what's good about these guys
773
00:55:23,823 --> 00:55:25,493
that I really like.
774
00:55:27,576 --> 00:55:28,616
I'm talking about you.
775
00:55:29,954 --> 00:55:32,214
You never seem into it...
776
00:55:33,290 --> 00:55:35,170
except for with William.
777
00:55:37,128 --> 00:55:38,498
But...
778
00:55:39,547 --> 00:55:41,297
he's inappropriate.
779
00:55:43,843 --> 00:55:47,053
Okay, Jesus. Uh, yeah.
780
00:55:50,057 --> 00:55:52,557
It's hard to find someone that I like.
781
00:55:54,478 --> 00:55:56,268
I... I had my chance twice,
782
00:55:56,355 --> 00:55:59,615
but that part of life
just didn't work out for me.
783
00:56:09,702 --> 00:56:11,622
- Bye.
- Bye.
784
00:56:48,157 --> 00:56:49,487
Where were you?
785
00:56:51,660 --> 00:56:53,580
I had some errands.
786
00:56:56,540 --> 00:56:57,580
You did the whole list.
787
00:56:58,667 --> 00:56:59,787
You know all the stocks?
788
00:57:00,503 --> 00:57:01,753
Yeah.
789
00:57:03,714 --> 00:57:06,424
IBM is down, huh?
790
00:57:06,592 --> 00:57:07,932
Sorry. I'll fix it next time.
791
00:57:09,386 --> 00:57:11,756
That...
Good job on that.
792
00:57:27,780 --> 00:57:29,910
- William?
- Yes?
793
00:57:31,700 --> 00:57:33,620
Do I seem stuck to you?
794
00:57:37,581 --> 00:57:38,961
How do you mean?
795
00:57:43,045 --> 00:57:45,715
Well, I, I guess
I wouldn't know, would I?
796
00:57:51,971 --> 00:57:53,811
- Abbie?
- Yes?
797
00:57:54,974 --> 00:57:57,274
Let's go out tonight.
798
00:57:58,060 --> 00:58:00,980
I want to see this modern world.
799
00:58:04,191 --> 00:58:05,441
Can I come?
800
00:58:25,546 --> 00:58:28,756
I don't know if I'm gonna find
an appropriate man here.
801
00:58:29,967 --> 00:58:31,427
Thank you.
802
00:58:42,062 --> 00:58:43,652
What?
803
00:58:54,908 --> 00:58:55,948
What was that?
804
00:58:56,702 --> 00:58:58,332
What does that mean?
805
00:58:59,204 --> 00:59:03,294
Oh... Um... Uh...
806
00:59:03,709 --> 00:59:04,999
I mean you don't kiss a woman
807
00:59:05,210 --> 00:59:07,420
unless you know
what you mean by it.
808
00:59:13,427 --> 00:59:15,257
Aren't you sleeping with Abbie?
809
00:59:17,514 --> 00:59:20,604
That's not something serious.
It's...
810
00:59:22,645 --> 00:59:24,235
Then why do it?
811
00:59:57,137 --> 00:59:58,807
It's 1979.
812
00:59:59,098 --> 01:00:00,928
I'm 55 years old.
813
01:00:01,308 --> 01:00:03,308
This is what my son believes in.
814
01:00:04,269 --> 01:00:05,309
These people...
815
01:00:06,188 --> 01:00:07,978
with this hair...
816
01:00:08,273 --> 01:00:09,443
and these clothes...
817
01:00:09,983 --> 01:00:13,283
making these gestures,
making these sounds.
818
01:00:15,030 --> 01:00:18,070
It's 1979. I'm 55 years old,
819
01:00:18,367 --> 01:00:19,407
and in 1999,
820
01:00:19,702 --> 01:00:22,372
I will die of cancer from the smoking.
821
01:00:26,709 --> 01:00:29,089
Hey. Are you going?
822
01:00:29,795 --> 01:00:31,005
Yeah.
823
01:00:32,047 --> 01:00:35,757
Do me a favor.
Just take care of Abbie.
824
01:00:39,054 --> 01:00:42,014
They don't know this is the end of punk.
825
01:00:42,182 --> 01:00:44,022
They don't know
that Reagan's coming.
826
01:00:45,394 --> 01:00:46,984
It's impossible to imagine
827
01:00:47,062 --> 01:00:50,232
that kids will stop
dreaming about nuclear war,
828
01:00:50,774 --> 01:00:52,654
and have nightmares about the weather.
829
01:00:53,986 --> 01:00:57,236
It's impossible to imagine HIV,
830
01:00:57,906 --> 01:00:59,906
what will happen
with skateboard tricks,
831
01:01:01,160 --> 01:01:02,910
the internet.
832
01:01:03,662 --> 01:01:04,702
You have a good time?
833
01:01:05,164 --> 01:01:06,964
Yeah, it was interesting.
834
01:01:09,585 --> 01:01:11,135
So Abbie has your number, right?
835
01:01:11,503 --> 01:01:14,053
- Yeah.
- Maybe you'll come over for dinner.
836
01:01:14,757 --> 01:01:15,797
I'd like that.
837
01:01:23,891 --> 01:01:25,431
Kid.
838
01:01:28,562 --> 01:01:29,852
It's late.
839
01:01:31,690 --> 01:01:32,940
How was it?
840
01:01:33,275 --> 01:01:37,155
It was... life-changing.
841
01:01:50,793 --> 01:01:53,633
Before I die, I will prepare for Y2K.
842
01:01:54,338 --> 01:01:57,338
I put canned food and water
in the garage.
843
01:01:57,841 --> 01:02:01,301
I put $16,000 dollars' worth of gold coins
844
01:02:01,386 --> 01:02:05,216
into a safe deposit box
at the Bank of Montecito.
845
01:02:09,895 --> 01:02:12,155
I died before the new year,
846
01:02:12,773 --> 01:02:16,033
Dolphin shaped balloons
floated over my head.
847
01:02:16,401 --> 01:02:19,491
They were playing Louis Armstrong
on a boom box.
848
01:02:33,919 --> 01:02:35,039
Jamie?
849
01:02:37,881 --> 01:02:39,511
Hey, sorry. Are you awake?
850
01:02:40,801 --> 01:02:42,091
I just wanted to tell you...
851
01:02:42,970 --> 01:02:48,140
that you have to get out of this town
if you want to have any chance
852
01:02:48,225 --> 01:02:50,105
of an interesting life moving forward.
853
01:02:50,477 --> 01:02:52,227
What happened?
854
01:02:54,898 --> 01:02:56,688
Sorry. Shit.
855
01:02:57,484 --> 01:02:59,074
We don't have sex.
856
01:03:00,237 --> 01:03:01,897
I just sleep here.
857
01:03:04,283 --> 01:03:05,783
Okay.
858
01:03:07,411 --> 01:03:08,451
Can I lay down?
859
01:03:09,121 --> 01:03:10,791
- We were sleeping.
- Just scoot over.
860
01:03:10,873 --> 01:03:13,963
It's okay. I'm just gonna
talk to Jamie for a second.
861
01:03:16,670 --> 01:03:19,920
So Lynette Winters spit on me,
862
01:03:20,007 --> 01:03:21,047
so then I hit her.
863
01:03:21,592 --> 01:03:22,762
Why'd she spit on you?
864
01:03:22,843 --> 01:03:24,303
Because I spit on her,
865
01:03:24,511 --> 01:03:25,905
right before
I was going to New York
866
01:03:25,929 --> 01:03:27,889
and I thought I was never
gonna come back.
867
01:03:28,140 --> 01:03:29,720
It felt very liberating at the time.
868
01:03:29,808 --> 01:03:31,138
- Fucking bitch!
- All right.
869
01:03:31,226 --> 01:03:33,386
And somehow I ended up breaking a chair.
870
01:03:36,023 --> 01:03:37,733
Hey, Julian, I'm sorry.
871
01:03:37,941 --> 01:03:40,191
- You okay?
- Yeah, yeah, I'm fine.
872
01:03:42,571 --> 01:03:43,911
And then William told me
873
01:03:43,989 --> 01:03:45,869
he didn't want
to sleep with me anymore.
874
01:03:46,033 --> 01:03:48,533
What are you saying?
I don't like you!
875
01:03:48,619 --> 01:03:50,159
I don't like you! I don't like...
876
01:03:51,622 --> 01:03:54,122
Just, just, I'm just gonna
talk to Jamie for a second.
877
01:03:55,417 --> 01:03:59,547
Um, you cannot let her sleep here
878
01:03:59,838 --> 01:04:02,418
if she's not having sex with you.
879
01:04:02,549 --> 01:04:05,009
It's disempowering.
880
01:04:05,886 --> 01:04:07,596
Also, you need to get out of this town
881
01:04:09,306 --> 01:04:12,306
before you start working
at a sunglasses shop.
882
01:04:15,354 --> 01:04:16,734
I mean, it goes for you, too.
883
01:04:33,664 --> 01:04:37,004
Jamie, um, here's some books
from a feminism class I took.
884
01:04:37,084 --> 01:04:38,424
I thought it would be helpful
885
01:04:38,752 --> 01:04:40,382
for you to get a woman's perspective.
886
01:04:40,462 --> 01:04:41,672
What happened to your lip?
887
01:04:41,838 --> 01:04:43,338
Oh, I got in a fight.
888
01:04:43,423 --> 01:04:44,883
- You want some apples?
- What?!
889
01:04:44,967 --> 01:04:47,257
There was a fight.
It was... it was ridiculous.
890
01:04:47,344 --> 01:04:49,224
Hold on, is that
Our Bodies, Ourselves?
891
01:04:49,805 --> 01:04:50,855
Yes, it is.
892
01:04:51,014 --> 01:04:52,454
This was a really, really good book.
893
01:04:53,684 --> 01:04:58,404
There's a really good chapter
on home... childbirths.
894
01:04:59,731 --> 01:05:03,531
Home birth actually stunts
the baby's growth personality.
895
01:05:03,694 --> 01:05:06,114
What is a growth personality?
896
01:05:06,196 --> 01:05:07,236
It's a real term.
897
01:05:07,614 --> 01:05:10,164
"And who knows what it means
for a newborn
898
01:05:10,909 --> 01:05:14,449
to see wood walls and carpeted floor
899
01:05:14,538 --> 01:05:17,118
and to smell real human smells
900
01:05:17,207 --> 01:05:20,577
and to feel wool
and cotton and flannel clothes
901
01:05:20,669 --> 01:05:25,839
instead of starchy, white, deodorized"
dot, dot, dot.
902
01:05:25,966 --> 01:05:27,926
To me, that meant, like,
"And what else?"
903
01:05:36,977 --> 01:05:38,437
Women's sexuality,
904
01:05:38,520 --> 01:05:40,770
defined by men to benefit men,
905
01:05:40,856 --> 01:05:43,146
has been downgraded and perverted,
906
01:05:43,233 --> 01:05:44,823
repressed and channeled.
907
01:05:45,694 --> 01:05:48,864
Anatomically, all orgasms
are centered in the clitoris,
908
01:05:48,947 --> 01:05:50,867
whether they result
from direct manual pressure
909
01:05:50,949 --> 01:05:52,119
applied to the clitoris,
910
01:05:52,784 --> 01:05:54,294
indirect pressure resulting from...
911
01:05:54,369 --> 01:05:56,079
Last night, I fucked Heather so hard,
912
01:05:56,163 --> 01:05:57,543
she came like, three times.
913
01:05:59,166 --> 01:06:01,456
How did you stimulate her clitoris?
914
01:06:02,461 --> 01:06:04,051
With my dick.
915
01:06:06,006 --> 01:06:09,046
Women need
direct clitoral stimulation,
916
01:06:09,134 --> 01:06:12,804
like with fingers or a vibrator
or something.
917
01:06:13,805 --> 01:06:16,145
She probably faked it.
Women fake it all the time.
918
01:06:17,225 --> 01:06:19,105
Talking Heads are a bunch of fags.
919
01:06:21,229 --> 01:06:23,059
Actually, there's a girl in their band,
920
01:06:23,148 --> 01:06:25,898
and she's dating the drummer,
so...
921
01:06:28,153 --> 01:06:30,033
Your name's Jamie, right?
922
01:06:30,530 --> 01:06:33,660
Fuckin' art fag.
923
01:06:43,043 --> 01:06:45,293
So what was the fight about?
924
01:06:48,340 --> 01:06:50,550
Clitoral stimulation.
925
01:06:54,137 --> 01:06:55,967
Why do you need to fight about that?
926
01:06:57,140 --> 01:06:58,180
I don't know. I...
927
01:06:58,600 --> 01:07:00,980
I wanna be a good guy, okay?
928
01:07:01,061 --> 01:07:05,731
I just... want to be able
to satisfy a woman.
929
01:07:13,573 --> 01:07:15,953
Kid, I'm sure you will.
930
01:07:31,216 --> 01:07:32,586
Shit.
931
01:07:34,052 --> 01:07:35,722
Jamie!
932
01:07:36,429 --> 01:07:37,759
That's not cool.
933
01:07:37,889 --> 01:07:42,019
Yeah. That's what Matt called me
for liking the Talking Heads.
934
01:07:43,228 --> 01:07:44,518
Uh-huh.
935
01:07:45,313 --> 01:07:48,113
And what is "Black Flag?"
936
01:07:48,733 --> 01:07:50,403
It's a hard core band,
937
01:07:50,485 --> 01:07:55,325
so the people who love Black Flag
hate the Talking Heads.
938
01:07:56,116 --> 01:07:57,736
What?!
939
01:07:57,826 --> 01:08:00,996
The punk scene is very divisive.
940
01:08:01,454 --> 01:08:06,174
Hey! You're all so advanced, aren't you?
941
01:08:07,377 --> 01:08:10,127
The next time a dude
tells you a sex story,
942
01:08:10,213 --> 01:08:13,763
you just have to agree
with everything he says
943
01:08:13,842 --> 01:08:15,802
and act like it's right, even if it's not,
944
01:08:16,970 --> 01:08:18,970
because they don't
wanna be contradicted.
945
01:08:19,055 --> 01:08:21,855
They just wanna live
in their fantasy lands.
946
01:08:24,186 --> 01:08:27,186
How are you doing... with everything?
947
01:08:43,246 --> 01:08:45,496
Whatever you think your life
is going to be like,
948
01:08:45,582 --> 01:08:49,422
just know it's not gonna be
anything like that.
949
01:08:53,298 --> 01:08:54,378
Right.
950
01:09:10,106 --> 01:09:11,896
Take me to that club.
951
01:09:17,322 --> 01:09:18,412
Tonight?
952
01:09:19,950 --> 01:09:22,200
- Hey.
- Hey.
953
01:09:23,328 --> 01:09:25,198
Wow, you look amazing.
Where you going?
954
01:09:26,331 --> 01:09:28,121
We're just gonna go out.
Is that okay?
955
01:09:28,291 --> 01:09:30,081
Well yeah, of course.
And, uh, where?
956
01:09:31,169 --> 01:09:32,289
Just goin' out.
957
01:09:35,173 --> 01:09:36,223
- Bye.
- Bye!
958
01:09:55,360 --> 01:09:56,860
Put that down.
959
01:09:57,696 --> 01:10:00,316
Hey, could I get a beer?
960
01:10:02,993 --> 01:10:06,163
Now say, "I... I'm into older women."
961
01:10:06,538 --> 01:10:08,368
Just say it.
962
01:10:08,957 --> 01:10:10,577
I'm into older women.
963
01:10:10,667 --> 01:10:11,707
Oh...
964
01:10:13,420 --> 01:10:14,460
How old are you?
965
01:10:15,213 --> 01:10:17,173
Age is a bourgeois construct.
966
01:10:18,466 --> 01:10:20,756
Age is a bourgeois construct.
967
01:10:21,428 --> 01:10:22,888
That's a good answer.
968
01:10:23,763 --> 01:10:25,143
Age is a bourgeois construct.
969
01:10:25,432 --> 01:10:26,562
Okay, okay. You get it.
970
01:10:26,975 --> 01:10:29,985
Um, so now
if she asks you any questions,
971
01:10:30,061 --> 01:10:33,021
you just say as little as possible, okay?
972
01:10:34,024 --> 01:10:36,484
Now show me
your most inscrutable face.
973
01:10:48,288 --> 01:10:50,288
I don't really make choices, when they...
974
01:10:50,790 --> 01:10:52,040
about...
975
01:10:52,751 --> 01:10:54,211
about women. They just...
976
01:10:55,378 --> 01:10:56,378
They come to you.
977
01:10:57,505 --> 01:11:00,425
That... that's...
You could have more than that.
978
01:11:03,428 --> 01:11:05,218
But what about you? Why...
979
01:11:06,181 --> 01:11:08,771
I mean, what happened to Jamie's dad?
980
01:11:11,436 --> 01:11:14,266
Well...
981
01:11:15,523 --> 01:11:19,233
He just, no... He just didn't turn out like
I thought he would.
982
01:11:21,363 --> 01:11:22,403
I guess that happens.
983
01:11:23,406 --> 01:11:25,526
There must have been
something good about him.
984
01:11:28,536 --> 01:11:31,656
Um, he was left-handed.
985
01:11:32,582 --> 01:11:35,502
That's it? That's it?
986
01:11:35,585 --> 01:11:37,805
Yes, and I was right-handed.
987
01:11:38,463 --> 01:11:39,513
And so in the morning,
988
01:11:41,383 --> 01:11:43,513
we would look at
the stock reports together,
989
01:11:44,469 --> 01:11:45,509
and...
990
01:11:47,472 --> 01:11:48,792
he could write with his left-hand
991
01:11:48,848 --> 01:11:51,518
and scratch my back
with his right.
992
01:11:54,979 --> 01:11:56,439
And that's it?
993
01:11:58,316 --> 01:11:59,476
I loved that.
994
01:12:04,280 --> 01:12:05,320
Do you ever meditate?
995
01:12:08,660 --> 01:12:09,700
Uh...
996
01:12:10,703 --> 01:12:11,753
I feel the air,
997
01:12:12,414 --> 01:12:14,254
coolness of the air
goes through my nose.
998
01:12:15,708 --> 01:12:17,788
All I'm really doing is...
999
01:12:19,421 --> 01:12:20,631
bringing my attention
1000
01:12:21,923 --> 01:12:24,173
back to my breath.
1001
01:12:24,342 --> 01:12:26,842
So when I take a breath in...
1002
01:12:27,804 --> 01:12:29,354
there's a feeling.
1003
01:12:30,306 --> 01:12:32,056
It's air going in.
1004
01:12:33,601 --> 01:12:35,351
It's air going out.
1005
01:12:36,062 --> 01:12:37,442
It's a good feeling.
1006
01:12:43,862 --> 01:12:46,072
No, it's okay. Go ahead.
I'm just gonna...
1007
01:12:49,367 --> 01:12:50,407
Go ahead.
1008
01:12:51,035 --> 01:12:52,795
I'm just gonna smoke.
1009
01:12:54,122 --> 01:12:55,412
I'm listening.
1010
01:12:57,292 --> 01:12:59,502
All right, I wanna get
on the same page.
1011
01:13:00,462 --> 01:13:01,502
You are such...
1012
01:13:01,963 --> 01:13:05,263
How did you get to be
this person that you are?
1013
01:13:05,341 --> 01:13:08,761
It's so... You're so unusual.
1014
01:13:10,930 --> 01:13:12,310
William's dad managed
1015
01:13:12,390 --> 01:13:14,020
an auto repair shop in Cleveland.
1016
01:13:15,435 --> 01:13:18,695
Engines always made sense to him.
1017
01:13:19,731 --> 01:13:21,651
He tried
to put himself through college,
1018
01:13:21,733 --> 01:13:23,613
but couldn't afford it.
1019
01:13:27,530 --> 01:13:30,490
He met Theresa in 1963.
1020
01:13:30,575 --> 01:13:33,455
She was smart, brave, better off.
1021
01:13:33,536 --> 01:13:34,576
They were in love.
1022
01:13:35,121 --> 01:13:36,251
They'd move to Oakland,
1023
01:13:36,456 --> 01:13:38,786
then to a commune in Sebastopol.
1024
01:13:38,875 --> 01:13:41,005
Well, I learned to be like them, you know?
1025
01:13:41,085 --> 01:13:42,135
And... as it turns out,
1026
01:13:43,755 --> 01:13:45,845
it's a lot easier
than I thought it would be.
1027
01:13:45,924 --> 01:13:48,884
But it wasn't really me
I was doing it for...
1028
01:13:50,345 --> 01:13:53,065
so that I wouldn't lose Theresa.
1029
01:13:54,307 --> 01:13:55,807
He started talking like them,
1030
01:13:55,892 --> 01:13:56,932
looking like them,
1031
01:13:57,435 --> 01:14:01,065
but they made him feel old
and uneducated and poor.
1032
01:14:01,731 --> 01:14:03,271
Theresa started thinking
1033
01:14:03,358 --> 01:14:05,858
William was uptight and possessive
and she left him.
1034
01:14:07,278 --> 01:14:08,358
After Theresa,
1035
01:14:08,446 --> 01:14:10,446
women didn't have to look
one way or the other,
1036
01:14:10,532 --> 01:14:11,572
or be a certain way.
1037
01:14:16,329 --> 01:14:17,369
I think that I just...
1038
01:14:18,623 --> 01:14:19,673
I want to win them over
1039
01:14:20,458 --> 01:14:21,628
so that I won't be lonely.
1040
01:14:22,502 --> 01:14:23,752
You live here?
1041
01:14:24,420 --> 01:14:25,460
I do.
1042
01:14:25,588 --> 01:14:27,088
But once I have them,
1043
01:14:28,132 --> 01:14:30,012
I don't really know
what to do with them.
1044
01:14:38,142 --> 01:14:39,772
You wanna do something later?
1045
01:14:40,812 --> 01:14:42,652
You're sweet.
1046
01:14:43,606 --> 01:14:45,146
I should go.
1047
01:14:46,609 --> 01:14:49,149
What he likes is making bowls.
1048
01:14:49,571 --> 01:14:51,361
He doesn't smell like oil and grease.
1049
01:14:51,447 --> 01:14:53,777
His hands don't look like
dumb mechanic's hands.
1050
01:14:54,450 --> 01:14:56,290
I was using the smaller bowls for a while.
1051
01:14:56,369 --> 01:14:58,539
Um, and then I was kind of feeling
like I needed
1052
01:14:58,871 --> 01:15:00,751
to beat the crap
out of some stuff, so...
1053
01:15:02,041 --> 01:15:05,461
And when it gets a little bit drier,
1054
01:15:05,545 --> 01:15:07,425
you spray everything away.
1055
01:15:08,381 --> 01:15:09,551
Wow.
1056
01:15:10,258 --> 01:15:11,298
It's beautiful.
1057
01:15:17,515 --> 01:15:18,685
What?
1058
01:15:21,394 --> 01:15:22,444
Did you fix it?
1059
01:15:22,770 --> 01:15:23,810
Um...
1060
01:15:23,896 --> 01:15:24,936
Well, maybe...
1061
01:15:25,523 --> 01:15:29,443
It's, uh, part Vol... Volkswagen now.
I had to imp... improvise.
1062
01:15:56,888 --> 01:15:59,508
And how are you gonna get to know
a person way over there?
1063
01:16:01,017 --> 01:16:03,187
What am...
What am I supposed to do?
1064
01:16:04,062 --> 01:16:06,652
Well, just make a little small talk
1065
01:16:06,814 --> 01:16:09,864
and introduce yourself, ask her to dance.
1066
01:16:10,902 --> 01:16:13,112
Okay. Hello, I'm William.
1067
01:16:13,863 --> 01:16:14,913
- Hello.
- Hello.
1068
01:16:15,740 --> 01:16:17,410
- Um, I live downstairs.
- Oh, yeah.
1069
01:16:17,700 --> 01:16:18,870
I'm the one with the cars.
1070
01:16:19,994 --> 01:16:21,504
Would you like to dance with me?
1071
01:16:22,288 --> 01:16:24,958
- Yes. Sure.
- Okay.
1072
01:16:25,041 --> 01:16:26,211
Put your hand out, right?
1073
01:16:27,085 --> 01:16:28,215
Put the other hand here.
1074
01:16:28,795 --> 01:16:30,635
And just be there.
1075
01:16:31,673 --> 01:16:33,383
She just wants a little company.
1076
01:16:34,384 --> 01:16:35,804
Oh.
1077
01:16:36,803 --> 01:16:38,143
Okay.
1078
01:16:40,723 --> 01:16:42,273
That's nice.
1079
01:17:14,841 --> 01:17:17,881
I... I feel like I... I understand you.
1080
01:17:19,721 --> 01:17:21,051
We should get away from here.
1081
01:17:21,639 --> 01:17:23,139
Just... just me and you, you know?
1082
01:17:23,808 --> 01:17:26,598
Go up the coast, be alone somewhere.
1083
01:17:28,354 --> 01:17:30,654
Jamie, you're in love with Julie.
1084
01:17:35,778 --> 01:17:37,398
You can't let her push you around.
1085
01:17:38,364 --> 01:17:40,534
You have to tell her what you want.
1086
01:17:50,668 --> 01:17:53,208
...if you, if you were to listen to it...
1087
01:17:53,296 --> 01:17:54,296
Right.
1088
01:17:54,672 --> 01:17:56,512
What does... what does that mean?
1089
01:17:56,591 --> 01:17:58,431
"Art Fag?" I mean what does...
1090
01:17:58,509 --> 01:18:03,259
If you were to think about it
from more like a sociological perspective,
1091
01:18:03,347 --> 01:18:05,597
what does that come from? "Art Fag."
1092
01:18:05,683 --> 01:18:06,744
- I think we...
- What is that?
1093
01:18:06,768 --> 01:18:09,308
- Abbie understands it.
- Abbie does not understand it.
1094
01:18:09,687 --> 01:18:11,727
She's just a part of it.
1095
01:18:26,704 --> 01:18:28,624
You don't need to like it.
1096
01:18:29,207 --> 01:18:30,867
Okay, what is he saying?
1097
01:18:33,419 --> 01:18:35,499
"Head on my shoulders..."
1098
01:18:37,840 --> 01:18:38,880
"Going berserk..."
1099
01:18:39,801 --> 01:18:40,841
Right.
1100
01:18:41,010 --> 01:18:42,050
Is that interesting?
1101
01:18:42,428 --> 01:18:43,468
I don't know.
1102
01:18:43,888 --> 01:18:44,928
I don't know either.
1103
01:18:45,765 --> 01:18:47,725
I think we're maybe over-thinking this.
1104
01:19:03,866 --> 01:19:05,776
Let's try the Art Fag one.
1105
01:19:08,412 --> 01:19:10,332
Here come the Art Fags.
1106
01:19:14,377 --> 01:19:15,377
Oh, yeah.
1107
01:19:33,062 --> 01:19:34,562
All right, you ready?
1108
01:19:37,233 --> 01:19:38,533
That's it.
1109
01:19:42,113 --> 01:19:43,783
I guess we're more the Art Fag type.
1110
01:19:44,740 --> 01:19:45,740
Uh-huh.
1111
01:19:45,825 --> 01:19:47,285
I like that.
1112
01:19:48,452 --> 01:19:51,042
♪ ...I remember from maps ♪
1113
01:19:53,291 --> 01:19:55,831
♪ I see the shoreline ♪
1114
01:19:57,753 --> 01:20:00,263
♪ I see the whitecaps ♪
1115
01:20:01,716 --> 01:20:05,046
♪ A baseball diamond ♪
1116
01:20:05,887 --> 01:20:08,677
♪ Nice weather down there ♪
1117
01:20:10,558 --> 01:20:13,228
♪ I see the school ♪
1118
01:20:14,729 --> 01:20:17,809
♪ And the houses where the kids are ♪
1119
01:20:19,400 --> 01:20:21,400
♪ Places to park ♪
1120
01:20:23,195 --> 01:20:24,995
♪ By the fac'tries and buildings... ♪
1121
01:20:25,406 --> 01:20:27,616
Come here, inscrutable boy.
1122
01:20:31,871 --> 01:20:33,041
I gave him beer,
1123
01:20:33,456 --> 01:20:38,206
and then I... I taught him
how to verbally seduce women,
1124
01:20:38,294 --> 01:20:42,014
and we drove drunk,
but I stopped that,
1125
01:20:42,381 --> 01:20:43,551
and then he kissed Trish.
1126
01:20:45,301 --> 01:20:47,511
And then we walked home.
1127
01:20:49,847 --> 01:20:51,177
Ah.
1128
01:20:57,271 --> 01:20:58,941
You're not mad?
1129
01:21:00,149 --> 01:21:01,399
You're mad.
1130
01:21:07,907 --> 01:21:12,117
You get to see him out in the world
as a person.
1131
01:21:13,037 --> 01:21:14,827
I never will.
1132
01:21:22,380 --> 01:21:23,670
Just...
1133
01:21:32,056 --> 01:21:33,136
There.
1134
01:22:05,131 --> 01:22:07,471
I can't believe Abbie gave you this book.
1135
01:22:09,385 --> 01:22:10,725
It's interesting.
1136
01:22:13,597 --> 01:22:16,637
What's it like... for girls?
1137
01:22:16,809 --> 01:22:19,729
What? Sex?
1138
01:22:22,106 --> 01:22:23,516
Orgasms.
1139
01:22:26,861 --> 01:22:29,151
Do you really want to know
what it's like?
1140
01:22:32,283 --> 01:22:33,623
Yeah.
1141
01:22:35,077 --> 01:22:36,657
I don't have them.
1142
01:22:38,622 --> 01:22:40,122
What?
1143
01:22:41,333 --> 01:22:43,043
None of my friends do.
1144
01:22:45,963 --> 01:22:47,463
Then why do you do it?
1145
01:22:48,090 --> 01:22:49,220
There's other reasons.
1146
01:22:50,593 --> 01:22:53,053
You know, like the way
that he looks at you...
1147
01:22:56,474 --> 01:22:59,274
or the way they get a little
bit desperate at some point.
1148
01:23:00,853 --> 01:23:03,733
And the little sounds that they make.
1149
01:23:17,244 --> 01:23:19,204
And their bodies...
1150
01:23:21,248 --> 01:23:24,328
'cause you don't exactly know
what they're gonna look like...
1151
01:23:25,961 --> 01:23:28,461
or smell or feel like...
1152
01:23:30,674 --> 01:23:31,934
until you do it.
1153
01:23:36,138 --> 01:23:39,058
But, yeah...
half the time I regret it.
1154
01:23:42,853 --> 01:23:44,813
Then why do you do it?
1155
01:23:47,191 --> 01:23:49,071
'Cause half the time, I don't regret it.
1156
01:24:00,788 --> 01:24:02,408
"I am gregarious.
1157
01:24:02,498 --> 01:24:03,538
Interested in others.
1158
01:24:04,124 --> 01:24:05,294
And I think, intelligent.
1159
01:24:10,381 --> 01:24:12,471
All I ask is to get to know people
1160
01:24:12,550 --> 01:24:14,550
and to have them interested
in knowing me.
1161
01:24:15,177 --> 01:24:16,847
I doubt whether I would marry again
1162
01:24:17,137 --> 01:24:19,847
and live that close
to another individual,
1163
01:24:19,932 --> 01:24:22,272
but I remain invisible.
1164
01:24:23,227 --> 01:24:25,267
Don't pretend for a minute
as you look at me,
1165
01:24:26,188 --> 01:24:28,188
that I am not as alive as you are,
1166
01:24:28,899 --> 01:24:31,899
and I do not suffer from the category
to which you are forcing me.
1167
01:24:36,156 --> 01:24:38,366
I think, stripped down,
I look more attractive
1168
01:24:38,701 --> 01:24:40,621
than my ex-husband...
1169
01:24:41,620 --> 01:24:45,870
...but I am sexually and socially obsolete
and he is not.
1170
01:24:47,209 --> 01:24:49,589
I have a capacity now for
taking people as they are,
1171
01:24:49,837 --> 01:24:50,877
which I lacked at 20.
1172
01:24:52,172 --> 01:24:56,052
I reach orgasm in half the time
and I know how to please,
1173
01:24:56,135 --> 01:25:00,015
yet I do not even dare show a man
that I find him attractive.
1174
01:25:00,431 --> 01:25:03,981
If I do, he may react
as if I have insulted him.
1175
01:25:06,061 --> 01:25:09,901
I'm supposed to fulfill my small functions
and vanish."
1176
01:25:16,280 --> 01:25:17,320
Well...
1177
01:25:18,240 --> 01:25:19,870
What do you think of all that?
1178
01:25:23,412 --> 01:25:26,212
I don't know. Maybe I'm a feminist.
1179
01:25:32,171 --> 01:25:33,171
So...
1180
01:25:38,344 --> 01:25:40,304
You think that's me.
1181
01:25:41,055 --> 01:25:42,685
No, I don't know.
1182
01:25:44,183 --> 01:25:46,683
So you think you know me better
because you read that?
1183
01:25:46,977 --> 01:25:48,477
No, no.
1184
01:25:51,190 --> 01:25:54,320
Then why are you reading it to me?
1185
01:25:57,154 --> 01:26:00,284
Um, I thought it was interesting.
1186
01:26:06,246 --> 01:26:08,036
Okay, well...
1187
01:26:10,709 --> 01:26:13,879
I... I don't need a book
to know about myself.
1188
01:26:21,845 --> 01:26:23,265
Sorry.
1189
01:26:39,738 --> 01:26:42,198
I mean, I appreciate you trying to help.
1190
01:26:42,282 --> 01:26:45,452
I do. I just think
you're taking it too far.
1191
01:26:45,703 --> 01:26:46,743
This stuff with,
1192
01:26:48,288 --> 01:26:50,118
you know, the women's movement
I respect,
1193
01:26:50,207 --> 01:26:52,577
but it's just, it's complicated
1194
01:26:52,668 --> 01:26:54,588
and I think it's too much for him.
1195
01:26:54,670 --> 01:26:57,110
What are... I don't know what
it is that you're talking about.
1196
01:26:57,172 --> 01:26:59,802
- Okay. He's a 15-year-old boy.
- I know.
1197
01:26:59,883 --> 01:27:02,263
You're giving him hard core
feminism, and it-it...
1198
01:27:02,928 --> 01:27:04,608
But he really loves it, and it's really...
1199
01:27:04,680 --> 01:27:06,560
- It's helping him...
- Helping him what?
1200
01:27:07,307 --> 01:27:08,618
It's helping him
become a man, th...
1201
01:27:08,642 --> 01:27:10,122
What you were talking about. It's like...
1202
01:27:10,144 --> 01:27:12,694
Learning about a female orgasm
is helping him be a man?
1203
01:27:12,896 --> 01:27:15,436
Well, what man do you know
that cares anything about that?
1204
01:27:15,524 --> 01:27:17,234
- Look, he's...
- I mean that's a miracle.
1205
01:27:17,317 --> 01:27:18,857
But he is a high school kid, okay?
1206
01:27:19,319 --> 01:27:22,239
It's too much. I'm telling you.
1207
01:27:25,325 --> 01:27:27,585
I think he seems really okay with it.
1208
01:27:29,121 --> 01:27:31,961
You know you don't actually know
what you're doing with him?
1209
01:27:34,293 --> 01:27:38,763
Okay? So... just...
1210
01:27:41,508 --> 01:27:43,298
As you know,
1211
01:27:43,385 --> 01:27:47,565
there is a growing
disrespect for government,
1212
01:27:47,639 --> 01:27:49,969
for schools, the news media
1213
01:27:50,142 --> 01:27:51,272
and other institutions.
1214
01:27:52,519 --> 01:27:56,729
This is not a message
of happiness or reassurance.
1215
01:27:57,316 --> 01:27:59,276
But it is the truth
1216
01:27:59,568 --> 01:28:01,398
and it is a warning.
1217
01:28:02,738 --> 01:28:04,278
It is a crisis... of confidence.
1218
01:28:08,285 --> 01:28:09,335
We can see this crisis
1219
01:28:10,287 --> 01:28:12,827
in the growing doubt
about the meaning of our own lives
1220
01:28:13,457 --> 01:28:15,117
and in the loss of a unity of purpose
1221
01:28:16,460 --> 01:28:18,090
for our nation.
1222
01:28:19,630 --> 01:28:20,670
Too many of us now
1223
01:28:21,799 --> 01:28:26,589
tend to worship self-indulgence
and consumption.
1224
01:28:27,387 --> 01:28:28,427
But we've discovered
1225
01:28:29,431 --> 01:28:31,561
that owning things
and consuming things...
1226
01:28:34,186 --> 01:28:35,226
does not satisfy
1227
01:28:36,396 --> 01:28:39,266
our longing for meaning.
1228
01:28:41,110 --> 01:28:42,900
We always believed...
1229
01:28:43,946 --> 01:28:46,776
that we were part
of a great movement
1230
01:28:46,865 --> 01:28:47,915
of humanity itself...
1231
01:28:49,326 --> 01:28:52,366
involved in a search for freedom.
1232
01:28:57,417 --> 01:29:00,877
We are at a turning point
in our history.
1233
01:29:03,340 --> 01:29:07,470
The path that leads to fragmentation
and self-interest.
1234
01:29:08,804 --> 01:29:12,684
Down that road lies
a mistaken idea of freedom.
1235
01:29:14,643 --> 01:29:18,313
It is a certain route to failure.
1236
01:29:20,899 --> 01:29:22,979
Thank you and good night.
1237
01:29:25,112 --> 01:29:27,492
Wow. He is so screwed.
1238
01:29:28,365 --> 01:29:29,415
No shit.
1239
01:29:29,867 --> 01:29:31,447
It's over for him.
1240
01:29:32,661 --> 01:29:35,001
I thought that was beautiful.
1241
01:29:36,456 --> 01:29:40,706
Well, why didn't you just say,
"I'm sorry, I'm done?"
1242
01:29:41,086 --> 01:29:42,126
My pride.
1243
01:29:42,504 --> 01:29:43,674
- I know.
- Yeah, it's...
1244
01:29:43,797 --> 01:29:46,417
You didn't seem like a prideful person.
You seem humble.
1245
01:29:46,508 --> 01:29:50,048
I left my pride outside today.
1246
01:29:51,138 --> 01:29:53,308
Jamie, would you please wake up Abbie?
1247
01:29:55,517 --> 01:29:58,767
- Yeah. Abbie?
- No, stop it. I'm menstruating.
1248
01:30:00,355 --> 01:30:01,405
Abbie, you know what?
1249
01:30:01,940 --> 01:30:04,650
You're menstruating. Okay.
But do you have to say it?
1250
01:30:05,611 --> 01:30:09,031
Okay? And do we really need to know
everything that's going on with you?
1251
01:30:09,448 --> 01:30:11,698
What? I'm menstruating.
1252
01:30:12,326 --> 01:30:13,366
Why is that a big deal?
1253
01:30:13,577 --> 01:30:16,247
We don't need to hear about that.
Thank you.
1254
01:30:17,414 --> 01:30:20,004
If you ever want to have
an adult relationship with a woman,
1255
01:30:20,083 --> 01:30:22,423
like if you want to have sex
with a woman's vagina,
1256
01:30:22,628 --> 01:30:23,838
you need to be comfortable
1257
01:30:24,254 --> 01:30:27,304
with the fact
that the vagina menstruates,
1258
01:30:27,382 --> 01:30:29,552
and just say menstruation.
It's not a big deal.
1259
01:30:29,635 --> 01:30:33,355
So start saying it now.
Menstruation.
1260
01:30:34,389 --> 01:30:37,269
- Now?
- Yes. Menstruation.
1261
01:30:37,976 --> 01:30:39,016
Menstruation.
1262
01:30:39,311 --> 01:30:41,271
Jamie, no, you don't have to.
1263
01:30:41,730 --> 01:30:43,041
You're saying it like you're scared.
1264
01:30:43,065 --> 01:30:44,255
- Don't say it like you're scared.
- Abbie.
1265
01:30:44,274 --> 01:30:46,284
- Say it like it's normal.
- Menstruation.
1266
01:30:46,526 --> 01:30:48,106
- Menstruation.
- Menstruation.
1267
01:30:48,195 --> 01:30:52,115
Not bad. Julian, menstruation.
You can say it. Right now.
1268
01:30:52,991 --> 01:30:55,831
- I'm sorry.
- Uh, men... menstruation.
1269
01:30:56,161 --> 01:30:58,911
Just keep eye contact with me.
What... Who are you looking at?
1270
01:30:58,997 --> 01:31:01,207
- Menstruation.
- Menstruation.
1271
01:31:01,291 --> 01:31:03,001
Yeah, that's right. Menstruation.
1272
01:31:03,168 --> 01:31:05,998
Charlie, you're quiet. Menstruation?
1273
01:31:06,088 --> 01:31:07,298
Menstruation?
1274
01:31:07,381 --> 01:31:09,671
No, not like a question. Menstruation.
1275
01:31:10,550 --> 01:31:13,010
- Menstruation.
- Now everybody say it together.
1276
01:31:13,595 --> 01:31:15,225
Menstruation.
1277
01:31:15,347 --> 01:31:18,597
Like gentle, happy, but casual.
And...
1278
01:31:18,976 --> 01:31:20,016
Menstruation.
1279
01:31:20,519 --> 01:31:21,559
It's gross, Abbie.
1280
01:31:21,770 --> 01:31:25,770
No, it's... it's not gross.
It's a very deep time creatively,
1281
01:31:25,941 --> 01:31:28,401
and it's emotionally transformative.
1282
01:31:29,111 --> 01:31:30,651
And sex during menstruation
1283
01:31:31,363 --> 01:31:33,073
can be very pleasurable for a woman.
1284
01:31:33,240 --> 01:31:36,330
It can even, like,
relieve some of the cramps.
1285
01:31:36,410 --> 01:31:39,580
Jamie, I also wanna say never
have sex with just the vagina.
1286
01:31:39,663 --> 01:31:41,303
You have to have sex
with the whole woman.
1287
01:31:42,958 --> 01:31:44,998
That's slightly off topic
of what I'm talking about.
1288
01:31:45,043 --> 01:31:46,093
You too? You too, William?
1289
01:31:46,169 --> 01:31:47,999
- I mean... Thank you.
- But that's okay.
1290
01:31:48,422 --> 01:31:50,512
The first time that I got my period,
1291
01:31:50,757 --> 01:31:51,797
I was watching
1292
01:31:52,676 --> 01:31:54,136
One That Flew
Over the Cuckoo's Nest
1293
01:31:54,219 --> 01:31:55,259
with some guy.
1294
01:31:55,721 --> 01:31:57,141
And, um...
1295
01:31:57,639 --> 01:31:59,519
Yeah, I just told him
that I had to leave,
1296
01:32:00,225 --> 01:32:03,605
so I went to the market
and I bought a box of tampons,
1297
01:32:03,687 --> 01:32:06,307
and I read the instructions
on the box and I put one in...
1298
01:32:06,523 --> 01:32:08,213
- Julie?
- and I never told my mom about it,
1299
01:32:08,233 --> 01:32:10,533
but she never asked, so it didn't matter.
1300
01:32:11,695 --> 01:32:14,535
And I never saw the end
of the Cuckoo's Nest.
1301
01:32:17,034 --> 01:32:20,294
Jack Nicholson got a lobotomy,
and so the big Indian guy
1302
01:32:20,537 --> 01:32:22,577
smothered him with a pillow
so that he could,
1303
01:32:22,664 --> 01:32:23,794
you know, be free and...
1304
01:32:24,041 --> 01:32:25,521
Okay, let's talk about
something else.
1305
01:32:25,751 --> 01:32:27,171
- Would you mind?
- When I was 14,
1306
01:32:27,252 --> 01:32:28,592
I had sex for the first time.
1307
01:32:28,754 --> 01:32:29,804
Julie!
1308
01:32:29,921 --> 01:32:31,381
Julie, please. You... Honey...
1309
01:32:32,049 --> 01:32:34,839
I decided one night
that I was just gonna lose my virginity.
1310
01:32:35,052 --> 01:32:36,262
I didn't care who it was to.
1311
01:32:36,553 --> 01:32:39,013
- Julie, you gotta calm down.
- Stop it. Let her talk.
1312
01:32:39,264 --> 01:32:41,564
I picked this guy that
I didn't know at a party...
1313
01:32:42,309 --> 01:32:46,439
and we had fairly painful sex in his van.
1314
01:32:46,521 --> 01:32:48,061
It was just parked on the street.
1315
01:32:48,774 --> 01:32:50,444
He just used spit for lubrication.
1316
01:32:53,695 --> 01:32:55,655
I made it home on time
for curfew, though.
1317
01:32:55,822 --> 01:32:58,572
His carpet smelled
like spilled bong water.
1318
01:33:04,247 --> 01:33:05,407
Okay, um...
1319
01:33:06,500 --> 01:33:08,540
let's call it a night. All right?
1320
01:33:08,668 --> 01:33:10,708
Thanks all for coming.
Show's over, girls.
1321
01:33:12,339 --> 01:33:14,049
Thank you so much for coming.
1322
01:33:16,593 --> 01:33:18,263
Jamie, we need to talk.
1323
01:33:19,012 --> 01:33:20,972
There's a lot of stuff happening, right?
1324
01:33:21,640 --> 01:33:25,430
And I just would like to know
what's going on with you.
1325
01:33:26,353 --> 01:33:28,903
I mean, I know this has all been
a lot for us to deal with.
1326
01:33:30,649 --> 01:33:33,319
Mom, I'm dealing
with everything right now.
1327
01:33:33,902 --> 01:33:36,282
You are dealing with nothing.
1328
01:33:49,709 --> 01:33:51,839
I can't believe you told
everyone all that.
1329
01:33:52,963 --> 01:33:54,963
I can say what I want to say.
1330
01:33:57,175 --> 01:33:58,845
They're gonna think you're some...
1331
01:33:59,803 --> 01:34:01,723
They're gonna get
the wrong idea about you.
1332
01:34:01,805 --> 01:34:02,855
What?
1333
01:34:03,390 --> 01:34:04,930
That I'm a slut?
1334
01:34:07,519 --> 01:34:08,889
Is that what you think?
1335
01:34:13,233 --> 01:34:15,403
You can't sleep here anymore...
1336
01:34:16,319 --> 01:34:17,989
and just want to talk.
1337
01:34:22,033 --> 01:34:23,453
Really?
1338
01:34:26,163 --> 01:34:27,583
Yeah.
1339
01:34:31,126 --> 01:34:32,746
Jamie.
1340
01:34:37,966 --> 01:34:39,466
I'm sorry.
1341
01:34:43,722 --> 01:34:46,182
I am sorry, okay?
1342
01:34:50,770 --> 01:34:53,650
Let's... let's just get out of here.
1343
01:34:55,108 --> 01:34:58,738
Let's go up the coast like...
like you said that we would.
1344
01:35:00,906 --> 01:35:01,946
Just the two of us.
1345
01:35:10,790 --> 01:35:11,960
Mom...
1346
01:35:12,918 --> 01:35:14,708
Julie and I took the car.
1347
01:35:16,838 --> 01:35:18,588
We're taking a trip up the coast...
1348
01:35:19,841 --> 01:35:21,591
just to get away.
1349
01:35:22,552 --> 01:35:24,092
You don't need to worry about us.
1350
01:36:22,529 --> 01:36:24,359
Hey, do you think
that you could, um...
1351
01:36:25,657 --> 01:36:27,367
buy us some, like, wine coolers?
1352
01:36:27,993 --> 01:36:29,123
You can keep the change.
1353
01:36:30,120 --> 01:36:32,870
Strawberry or anything berry, really.
1354
01:36:42,841 --> 01:36:43,881
Hi. What's the matter?
1355
01:36:44,259 --> 01:36:45,299
Hi.
1356
01:36:45,594 --> 01:36:47,974
You changed lanes
in the intersection back there.
1357
01:36:48,680 --> 01:36:50,220
Seriously? That's all?
1358
01:36:51,224 --> 01:36:53,354
I need to see your license
and registration.
1359
01:36:54,352 --> 01:36:57,022
Well, what if I don't have my license?
1360
01:36:58,648 --> 01:37:00,751
Okay, well what's your name,
address and date of birth?
1361
01:37:00,775 --> 01:37:01,825
Do you have that?
1362
01:37:01,985 --> 01:37:04,155
You know,
those are very personal questions,
1363
01:37:04,529 --> 01:37:05,569
and we've just met.
1364
01:37:06,489 --> 01:37:09,369
What's your name?
What's your address, right?
1365
01:37:09,451 --> 01:37:11,411
I mean, it's a little forward.
1366
01:37:38,938 --> 01:37:41,398
I, uh, I love you.
1367
01:37:49,407 --> 01:37:50,947
What's wrong?
1368
01:37:51,868 --> 01:37:52,988
Nothing.
1369
01:37:58,083 --> 01:37:59,173
Tell me.
1370
01:38:05,048 --> 01:38:07,758
I think that I'm too close to you...
1371
01:38:08,968 --> 01:38:10,678
to have sex with you.
1372
01:38:13,181 --> 01:38:15,021
I know it's confusing.
1373
01:38:17,060 --> 01:38:18,270
I'm sorry.
1374
01:38:23,024 --> 01:38:24,364
I can...
1375
01:38:25,151 --> 01:38:26,651
I can help you get over that.
1376
01:38:29,906 --> 01:38:32,026
I don't want to get over that.
1377
01:38:34,911 --> 01:38:36,041
Yes, you do.
1378
01:38:37,872 --> 01:38:39,502
You're being like the other guys.
1379
01:38:40,041 --> 01:38:42,251
I don't wanna just have sex with you.
1380
01:38:43,253 --> 01:38:44,383
I want you.
1381
01:38:45,088 --> 01:38:47,088
But it's your version of me.
1382
01:38:49,217 --> 01:38:50,627
It's not me.
1383
01:38:52,846 --> 01:38:55,006
It would be a lot better
if you just wanted sex.
1384
01:38:56,141 --> 01:38:57,851
You are exactly like the other guys.
1385
01:38:59,018 --> 01:39:01,478
You just seem like you're all modern.
1386
01:39:14,409 --> 01:39:16,029
Jamie.
1387
01:39:17,620 --> 01:39:19,080
Jamie.
1388
01:39:19,914 --> 01:39:20,964
Jamie!
1389
01:39:52,071 --> 01:39:54,991
These people have no sense of humor.
1390
01:40:13,051 --> 01:40:15,761
Having a kid seems like...
1391
01:40:17,096 --> 01:40:18,966
the hardest thing.
1392
01:40:20,683 --> 01:40:22,023
Yeah.
1393
01:40:23,561 --> 01:40:25,481
How much you love the kid...
1394
01:40:29,943 --> 01:40:32,493
You're just pretty much screwed.
1395
01:40:44,749 --> 01:40:46,749
- Well, it's good for you.
- Hi. Uh...
1396
01:40:46,835 --> 01:40:47,965
Hey.
1397
01:40:48,878 --> 01:40:50,998
Julie just called me.
They're in San Louis Obispo.
1398
01:40:51,089 --> 01:40:52,419
She doesn't know where he is.
1399
01:40:52,674 --> 01:40:54,054
She can't find him.
1400
01:40:55,218 --> 01:40:57,048
- I... Would you drive me...
- Yes, I will.
1401
01:40:57,303 --> 01:40:58,763
- ...up there?
- Yep. Let's go.
1402
01:40:58,930 --> 01:41:00,600
- Will you come?
- Yes.
1403
01:41:45,143 --> 01:41:46,773
I'm sorry.
1404
01:41:51,608 --> 01:41:53,188
He came back.
1405
01:41:54,319 --> 01:41:55,989
He's right there.
1406
01:41:57,864 --> 01:42:00,244
Okay. Okay.
1407
01:42:04,287 --> 01:42:05,697
It's okay.
1408
01:42:28,478 --> 01:42:29,728
Well...
1409
01:42:30,229 --> 01:42:32,019
Julie's a pretty complicated woman.
1410
01:42:33,191 --> 01:42:34,781
It's a lot to take on,
1411
01:42:35,109 --> 01:42:37,029
but I'm impressed in a way.
1412
01:42:39,238 --> 01:42:40,318
Whatever.
1413
01:42:50,708 --> 01:42:52,078
Aren't you gonna get Julie...
1414
01:42:52,877 --> 01:42:53,997
to come talk with me?
1415
01:42:54,587 --> 01:42:56,087
Jamie!
1416
01:42:56,255 --> 01:42:57,305
What?
1417
01:42:57,757 --> 01:42:59,337
I... I thought they'd help.
1418
01:43:00,802 --> 01:43:04,302
Well, it just seemed like you
couldn't deal with me anymore.
1419
01:43:06,557 --> 01:43:07,927
Look.
1420
01:43:08,726 --> 01:43:12,476
I wanted... I...
I...
1421
01:43:13,314 --> 01:43:14,694
Look, I...
1422
01:43:16,150 --> 01:43:19,240
I don't want you to end up
in the same place as me.
1423
01:43:21,906 --> 01:43:23,366
What does that mean?
1424
01:43:24,409 --> 01:43:26,739
Well, I wanted you to be happier.
1425
01:43:28,913 --> 01:43:32,923
And I just didn't think
I could do it by myself. I...
1426
01:43:36,379 --> 01:43:37,589
Okay.
1427
01:43:39,632 --> 01:43:41,842
I thought we were fine, though,
just me and you.
1428
01:43:48,975 --> 01:43:50,355
Yeah?
1429
01:43:52,729 --> 01:43:54,099
Yeah.
1430
01:44:27,305 --> 01:44:29,105
Okay. Come on.
1431
01:44:29,223 --> 01:44:30,603
Come on. Dance with your mom.
1432
01:45:29,826 --> 01:45:30,866
- Bye.
- Bye.
1433
01:45:31,494 --> 01:45:32,624
Bye.
1434
01:45:34,497 --> 01:45:35,537
- Be safe.
- Bye.
1435
01:45:35,790 --> 01:45:37,500
Bye. Bye.
1436
01:45:47,176 --> 01:45:49,506
So maybe we don't go back yet.
1437
01:45:52,473 --> 01:45:53,523
Okay.
1438
01:46:03,860 --> 01:46:05,940
Were you and Dad ever in love?
1439
01:46:06,612 --> 01:46:08,032
Sure.
1440
01:46:13,536 --> 01:46:15,116
Or, um...
1441
01:46:16,414 --> 01:46:17,464
Maybe I was just...
1442
01:46:19,792 --> 01:46:21,962
I felt I was supposed to be in love.
1443
01:46:23,045 --> 01:46:25,965
Or I was...
1444
01:46:26,173 --> 01:46:28,843
I was scared I'd never be in love...
1445
01:46:30,928 --> 01:46:32,968
so I... I...
1446
01:46:34,557 --> 01:46:37,387
I just picked
the best solution at the time.
1447
01:46:48,362 --> 01:46:49,992
I wanna bleach my hair.
1448
01:46:50,573 --> 01:46:53,533
Kid... really?
1449
01:46:54,452 --> 01:46:55,872
Yeah.
1450
01:47:04,420 --> 01:47:05,800
Okay.
1451
01:47:10,968 --> 01:47:12,468
Are you lonely?
1452
01:47:13,721 --> 01:47:14,761
Well...
1453
01:47:15,556 --> 01:47:18,636
I might marry Bogart in my next life.
1454
01:47:19,101 --> 01:47:20,141
We'll see.
1455
01:47:20,353 --> 01:47:21,393
I'm thinking about it.
1456
01:47:22,605 --> 01:47:24,525
Uh, he's dead.
1457
01:47:25,775 --> 01:47:27,285
Well...
1458
01:47:27,902 --> 01:47:29,192
This is my next life, right?
1459
01:47:30,196 --> 01:47:31,606
So...
1460
01:47:32,657 --> 01:47:33,697
he may be there.
1461
01:47:33,783 --> 01:47:36,993
He may be around
and we might meet and...
1462
01:47:38,329 --> 01:47:40,829
something might happen between us.
1463
01:47:42,416 --> 01:47:44,576
Okay, um...
1464
01:47:45,461 --> 01:47:47,301
you can't have it in the real world?
1465
01:47:47,922 --> 01:47:50,052
Hey. This is no time
to be rational, sweetie.
1466
01:47:50,925 --> 01:47:52,095
Can you just go with this?
1467
01:47:53,552 --> 01:47:54,592
Yeah. Keep going.
1468
01:47:55,221 --> 01:47:56,601
Okay.
1469
01:47:57,515 --> 01:47:59,145
So he... he knows what I'm thinking,
1470
01:48:01,018 --> 01:48:03,018
and he makes me laugh...
1471
01:48:04,230 --> 01:48:06,690
and he really sees me...
1472
01:48:08,025 --> 01:48:11,865
and you know that he's gonna
do what he says he's gonna do,
1473
01:48:11,946 --> 01:48:14,486
so that's easy.
1474
01:48:15,449 --> 01:48:17,279
He sounds nice.
1475
01:48:18,577 --> 01:48:19,617
Yeah.
1476
01:48:27,336 --> 01:48:28,563
I thought that was just the beginning
1477
01:48:28,587 --> 01:48:30,207
of a new relationship with her...
1478
01:48:32,216 --> 01:48:34,426
where she'd really tell me stuff...
1479
01:48:36,804 --> 01:48:39,564
but maybe it was
never really like that again.
1480
01:48:41,308 --> 01:48:42,978
Maybe that was it.
1481
01:48:44,729 --> 01:48:46,599
In March of 1999,
1482
01:48:47,189 --> 01:48:49,479
I'll start to feel tired and confused.
1483
01:48:50,609 --> 01:48:52,109
When I finally go to the doctor,
1484
01:48:52,361 --> 01:48:54,151
he will say that the cancer
in my lungs
1485
01:48:54,947 --> 01:48:58,827
had already traveled
to my breast and brain.
1486
01:48:59,493 --> 01:49:02,373
I'll try to teach Jamie
what to do with my stocks,
1487
01:49:02,455 --> 01:49:06,175
but my instructions will be
impossible to understand.
1488
01:49:11,964 --> 01:49:13,634
See you later.
1489
01:49:20,056 --> 01:49:23,096
Abbie will take me
to Planned Parenthood...
1490
01:49:23,893 --> 01:49:25,813
and I will go on the pill.
1491
01:49:29,815 --> 01:49:31,825
I will go to NYU
1492
01:49:31,901 --> 01:49:33,901
and lose touch with Jamie
and Dorothea...
1493
01:49:35,738 --> 01:49:38,108
and I will stop talking to my mom.
1494
01:49:39,658 --> 01:49:41,368
I will fall in love with Nicholas...
1495
01:49:42,578 --> 01:49:44,498
and we'll move to Paris...
1496
01:49:45,623 --> 01:49:47,333
and choose not to have children.
1497
01:49:49,627 --> 01:49:51,957
I will stay in Santa Barbara.
1498
01:49:52,463 --> 01:49:54,133
In just two years,
I'll marry Dave.
1499
01:49:56,092 --> 01:49:57,382
A month after I get married,
1500
01:49:58,469 --> 01:50:00,389
Carlotta will die.
1501
01:50:02,681 --> 01:50:06,391
A week later, Max will die, too.
1502
01:50:07,895 --> 01:50:09,565
I will work out of my garage
1503
01:50:09,647 --> 01:50:12,517
and show in local galleries.
1504
01:50:13,734 --> 01:50:15,074
Against my doctor's advice,
1505
01:50:15,569 --> 01:50:16,609
I will get pregnant.
1506
01:50:17,571 --> 01:50:18,611
By the time I'm 34,
1507
01:50:19,406 --> 01:50:20,446
I'll have two boys.
1508
01:50:25,287 --> 01:50:27,827
I'll live with
Dorothea for another year...
1509
01:50:30,167 --> 01:50:34,627
and then I'll open a pottery store
in Sedona, Arizona.
1510
01:50:37,591 --> 01:50:39,591
I'll marry Laurie, a singer-songwriter.
1511
01:50:40,594 --> 01:50:42,354
We'll get divorced in a year.
1512
01:50:43,139 --> 01:50:44,259
Then I'll meet Sandy...
1513
01:50:45,558 --> 01:50:47,178
and continue to do my pottery.
1514
01:50:50,396 --> 01:50:52,686
My mom will meet Jim in 1983.
1515
01:50:54,191 --> 01:50:56,031
They will stay a couple
until she dies.
1516
01:50:57,611 --> 01:50:58,821
On her birthday each year,
1517
01:50:59,738 --> 01:51:02,658
he will buy her a trip on a biplane.
1518
01:51:05,286 --> 01:51:07,656
Years after she's gone,
I will finally get married
1519
01:51:07,746 --> 01:51:09,576
and have a son.
1520
01:51:11,375 --> 01:51:12,585
I will try to explain to him
1521
01:51:12,960 --> 01:51:15,130
what his grandmother was like...
1522
01:51:16,630 --> 01:51:18,010
but it will be impossible.
1523
01:51:26,682 --> 01:51:29,312
♪ You must remember this ♪
1524
01:51:29,685 --> 01:51:31,735
♪ A kiss is still a kiss ♪
1525
01:51:31,812 --> 01:51:35,692
♪ A sigh is just a sigh ♪
1526
01:51:36,567 --> 01:51:39,487
♪ The fundamental things apply ♪
1527
01:51:39,778 --> 01:51:44,278
♪ As time goes by ♪
1528
01:51:45,201 --> 01:51:47,411
♪ And when two lovers woo ♪
1529
01:51:47,786 --> 01:51:49,246
♪ They still say I love you ♪
1530
01:51:49,872 --> 01:51:53,002
♪ On that you can rely ♪
1531
01:51:53,792 --> 01:51:57,132
♪ No matter what the future brings ♪
1532
01:51:57,296 --> 01:52:01,926
♪ As time goes by ♪
1533
01:52:03,135 --> 01:52:06,225
♪ Moonlight and love songs
never out of date ♪
1534
01:52:06,639 --> 01:52:09,599
♪ Hearts full of passion
jealousy and hate ♪
1535
01:52:09,850 --> 01:52:14,480
♪ Woman needs man
and man must have his mate ♪
1536
01:52:14,647 --> 01:52:19,567
♪ That no one can deny ♪
1537
01:52:20,361 --> 01:52:23,111
♪ It's still the same old story ♪
1538
01:52:23,197 --> 01:52:25,567
♪ A fight for love and glory ♪
1539
01:52:25,866 --> 01:52:27,986
♪ A case of do or die ♪
1540
01:52:29,954 --> 01:52:31,624
♪ The world will always welcome...
1541
01:52:54,311 --> 01:52:59,321
♪ Well it seems so real I can see it ♪
1542
01:52:59,942 --> 01:53:04,822
♪ And it seems so real I can feel it ♪
1543
01:53:05,406 --> 01:53:10,366
♪ And it seems so real I can taste it ♪
1544
01:53:11,161 --> 01:53:16,831
♪ And it seems so real I can hear it ♪
1545
01:53:17,126 --> 01:53:22,456
♪ So why ♪
1546
01:53:22,548 --> 01:53:25,128
♪ Can't I touch it? ♪
1547
01:53:28,345 --> 01:53:33,685
♪ So why ♪
1548
01:53:33,767 --> 01:53:35,977
♪ Can't I touch it? ♪
1549
01:53:44,403 --> 01:53:49,073
♪ Then it looks so real I can see it ♪
1550
01:53:50,117 --> 01:53:55,247
♪ And it feels so real I can feel it ♪
1551
01:53:55,998 --> 01:54:00,748
♪ And it tastes so real I can taste it ♪
1552
01:54:01,712 --> 01:54:07,302
♪ And it sounds so real I can hear it ♪
1553
01:54:07,468 --> 01:54:12,678
♪ So why ♪
1554
01:54:12,765 --> 01:54:15,105
♪ Can't I touch it? ♪
1555
01:54:18,896 --> 01:54:23,686
♪ So why ♪
1556
01:54:23,776 --> 01:54:25,896
♪ Can't I touch it? ♪
1557
01:54:46,131 --> 01:54:51,181
♪ Then it looks so real I can feel it ♪
1558
01:54:51,970 --> 01:54:56,720
♪ And it feels so real I can taste it ♪
1559
01:54:57,935 --> 01:55:01,985
♪ And it tastes so real I can hear it ♪
1560
01:55:03,273 --> 01:55:07,493
♪ And it sounds so real I can see it ♪
1561
01:55:09,405 --> 01:55:14,535
♪ So why ♪
1562
01:55:14,618 --> 01:55:16,908
♪ Can't I touch it? ♪
1563
01:55:20,332 --> 01:55:25,382
♪ So why ♪
1564
01:55:25,462 --> 01:55:27,592
♪ Can't I touch it? ♪
1565
01:56:15,304 --> 01:56:20,224
♪ Now it is so real I can see it ♪
1566
01:56:21,018 --> 01:56:25,518
♪ And it is so real I can feel it ♪
1567
01:56:26,565 --> 01:56:31,445
♪ And it is so real I can hear it ♪
1568
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♪ And it is so real I can feel it ♪
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♪ So why ♪
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♪ Can't I touch it? ♪
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♪ So why ♪
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♪ Can't I touch it? ♪