[Whitney] Previously on My Big Fat Fabulous Life.
Oh, hell to the no.
She went exorcist with it.
The only thing that scares me about being 40 is not having a partner.
Also knowing like, I'm probably not gonna
have kids because I'm still single.
[Jaime] Do you think
that you are ready to move on?
[Whitney speaking]
I still talk to the Frenchman very regularly.
Am I pathetic? Probably.
It might would be easier to move on
if you didn't talk to him every day.
-Mmm-hmm. -[gasps]
We are middle aged.
I'm having an existential crisis about it.
That's the thing. I've been in existential crisis since I was 18.
On the highway of life,
I truly feel that I am stalled.
So I have got to change my gears
because I would like to get back on the road
and headed in a positive direction.
I think we really do need to go to the psychic.
I need someone to, like, sage.
I'll sage my [bleep] I don't care.
Spirits, the demons.
They're clogging up my passageways.
[upbeat music playing]
[slow music playing]
[upbeat music playing]
Who's up? Goose, uh-uh.
-Ma'am, uh-uh. -[Tal] Is Goosey coming?
-Goosey is not coming. -Oh.
And I have sprained my ankle so bad.
Oh, no.
You want me to drive your car?
If you want to. Yeah.
I don't mind. And certainly if you're unable to, I will.
[groans]
Ooh, it looks like you have
one of the house monitor ankle bracelet. [laughs]
It's a hot and cold gel pack.
-I'm so sorry. -[Whitney] This is 40.
[Tal] Is this psychic gonna help you get it together--
Give me... Psychic, please give me some good news.
Things are falling apart over here.
One of my New Year's resolutions was to visit
a psychic with Tal because I'm looking
for a way to feel more connected to my mother.
And also, of course, I have lots of questions
about my future, uh, particularly my love life.
Oh, lord [bleep]. Ah!
I've always been interested in psychics
and the paranormal,
but I've also really always been a skeptic.
But I have heard amazing things about Gina.
So if this woman can give me some hope for the future,
it will be more than worth
the 90-minute drive it takes to get there
'cause I have got a whole lot going on
and not a lot of time left
before I turn 40 to figure it out.
Oh, I'm excited.
-I'm really excited. -[Whitney] I am too.
[Tal] I'm truly curious to hear
what the psychic has to say.
If a psychic can look into their crystal ball
and see something exciting on the horizon,
then yes, please, and thank you.
How are your resolutions going?
[Whitney] Well, I haven't been very resolute yet
because I had the bachelorette party
and so I was all consumed.
[Tal] Well, now that the bachelorette weekend is over,
I was thinking about having everyone over to my house
'cause I haven't really gotten to entertain.
And I'm focusing on friendships in the New Year.
So I would love to have all of y'all over this weekend.
[Whitney] Of course.
[Tal] That kind of is one of my resolutions
for the new year. Like, I'm focusing on me
and other kinds of relationships.
[Whitney] You know, me too.
I've had some serious [bleep]
uh, with men.
It just sucks because obviously
it's not a future here
with Frenchman, logistically.
Maybe the psychic will be able to give you some insight
into why it's been such a frustrating road for you.
[Whitney] I certainly hope so.
[upbeat music playing]
Look what's right next to the psychic.
Cat's Coffee & Magic. We're doing the magic part.
Wait, how many stairs is this?
Oh, boy.
I got you.
I can't believe the psychic is right next
to the cat cafe.
-[Whitney] Hi. -[Gina] Hey there.
-How you doing today? -[Whitney] I'm good.
-How are you? -Good. My name is Gina.
Gina, I'm Whitney. Nice to meet you.
-Very nice to meet you. -This is Tal.
-[Gina] Hey Tal, how are you? -Gina, I'm great.
-Nice to meet you. -[Tal] Nice to meet you. We're excited to be here.
-[Whitney] Yeah. -I'm so excited to have you guys here.
Do you wanna look around first or you just wanna get right to it?
-Let's do it. -Yeah, let's do it.
[Gina] All right. You can have a seat right over here.
Tal and I are on opposite ends of the spectrum
when it comes to actually finding people to date.
But at the end of the day,
we're both in the same boat.
Like we're both still single
and wondering what we can do to change it.
So first and foremost, I'm a futurist.
And what that means is I'm gonna tap into the future
that you guys are co-creating with the universe.
So I tell my clients, if you like what you hear,
keep doing what you're doing.
If you don't like what you hear,
change your mind, change your outcome.
If you have a specific question,
-I don't wanna know. -[Whitney] Okay.
You wanna whisper it in each other's ears?
So what you're gonna be able to do is apply the information
that I'm giving you to your question.
All righty. Mmm. Interesting.
So the energy that covers you both, okay?
Is the Two of Wands. And the Two of Wands
is literally a card that talks
about making plans for the future.
When I look at this card, this is a Three of Pentacles.
And it basically talks about the fact
that one of you or both of you don't feel
like you're being admired, appreciated, or respected
for what you bring to the table.
Okay.
And what I'm seeing here
with this Eight of Cups is that one
or both of you are thinking about going back to something,
someone, or some place that you left.
Does that resonate?
-Mmm-hmm. -Okay.
So Whitney, I'm gonna also tap into your energy body,
your auric field, specifically your chakras.
So when I tap into you energetically definitely
feeling your heart chakra, you got a huge heart chakra.
You are definitely working with your ancestors.
Your maternal lineage is very strong.
And there is someone who passed away that's with you.
A female just popped up.
It's so interesting. Let me see if there's anything
that she wants to pop through.
Mmm.
So this is a card. I want you to look at it.
-[Whitney] Mmm-hmm. -These black birds represent thoughts,
ideas, and beliefs and she's basically urging you
-to let some things go. -Mmm-hmm.
Okay? And actually what I love about this image
-is that you see her back. -[Whitney] Mmm-hmm.
She is letting it go. And this is you.
-Okay. -Mmm-hmm.
Mmm.
For someone who has such an easy time
accessing my emotions, I truly think that
I have a lot of grief about my mom, kind of,
boxed up in a place that I cannot access.
So to hear from Gina that my mom is encouraging me
to let that go is actually very comforting.
[Gina] It's painful.
You will stop mourning.
You will never stop grieving.
So...
did you have another question?
Well, I just wanna know if...
I'm gonna find like romantic love and partnership.
[Gina] Oh.
Okay. Interesting. All right. Let's look at this.
This particular card actually talks about
that you're holding onto grief from something in the past.
-Mmm-hmm. -[Gina] And when you are done
-healing from that experience, right? -Mmm-hmm.
You're gonna create the space
that will allow you to attract what it is that you want.
And let me tell you why this is really important.
If you don't heal
before you attract this new person in your life,
whoever it is, is going to reflect
your worst thoughts, ideas, and beliefs around yourself.
-Okay. Don't want that. -[Gina] No, no, we don't want that.
And so your homework is you have to flip the switch
when you've gotten negative self-talk.
-Yes. -[Gina] Okay?
-Mmm-hmm. -So that you can attract
-what it is that you desire. -Mmm-hmm.
There's some opportunity around worth here, right?
And so just know you can have whatever you want.
You just have to believe you're worth it.
I think Gina just dispensed
some really valuable wisdom here.
I mean, I've been through a lot in my life
and I've been through a lot in relationships
and I do think that I need to really make sure
I've healed from that stuff because I can't think of anything
less desirable than meeting a new partner
and him reflecting my worst qualities back to me.
-Are you ready? -[Tal] I think so.
-Okay. -I had a question about returning
-into something or someone. -[Gina] Mmm-hmm.
[Tal] Concerning a relationship
that I have felt very conflicted about.
I've been in a really tumultuous
on and off relationship
for the last eight or nine months.
And this person and I are not currently together.
Oh, interesting.
This is about planting seeds.
So did you actually reach out to this person last week?
-Yes. -[laughter]
Yeah.
That's here. [laughs]
So this is spooky.
I reached out to him
because I still love him a lot,
but there were indicators
that this relationship is just not viable.
So this temperance card is basically
a card that talks about balance.
So there's an opportunity for you to have balance
between your light and your dark.
You don't always have to be nice.
You don't always have to be kind.
Sometimes you just got to tell somebody,
-"Back up, man." -[Tal] Mmm-hmm.
Back up. And this is The Hierophant.
So this is a card that talks about the way
you've always done things.
This card is reversed and so it's basically
giving you an invitation to change things up.
Yeah.
I do believe a 100%
that she is intuitive and she is sensing things
about me that I have not told her.
I definitely have more homework to do
after this reading because I am fascinated
by everything she's saying.
That was wonderful. Thank you so much.
-Thank you. I appreciate it. -Yeah, it was. Thank you.
I am really grateful for this session.
I think Gina told me a lot of things I needed to hear.
I can't say that I immediately feel
more connected to my mother,
which is something I had hoped for,
but you know, maybe the more work I do on myself,
I will clear space
to, like, be able to feel her.
Um, even though she's not here.
-[woman] Welcome to the Cat Lounge. -[Whitney] Thanks.
Definitely, they're are all rescue cats
and they are all up for adoption.
That's the last thing you needed to tell me.
-[woman laughs] -[Whitney] Oh, boy.
[Tal] This one's cute.
-Sweet. -This makes me want to adopt a cat.
Well, this has just been the best afternoon.
The sweet baby.
-The sweet baby. -[woman] Hey, Tal.
-Hey, Whitney. -Hey.
So I'm Gianna, Gina's daughter,
and I was there throughout the entire reading.
And I just wanted to tell you that when my mom had tapped
into you and was actually tapping into the energies
around you, your mom showed up.
She did say that she's always there.
She's always with you.
And basically all you have to do is turn around.
[dramatic music playing]
-Of course -Thank you.
Of course. Yeah.
[Whitney] It does mean a lot to me
that Gina's daughter told me that.
Because what it reminded me is that...
my mom is still there for me
because before she died,
she told me that she would always try to be with me.
And I can try to connect with her at any time,
even though she's not here in the flesh.
Whitney, if you need a sign that your mom was here,
I think all these cats was enough of one.
Right next to our psychic.
There was a cat cafe right next door.
-They're up for adoption. -I don't wanna hear any more
about adopting a cat.
Well, Dad, if I'm not gonna have kids, then I'm--
Well, how do you know you're not gonna have kids?
You gotta work at finding a man.
[Whitney] Do you think I wanna be single?
I'm a childless woman in the midst of a midlife crisis.
And I'm only making it a joke
because if I don't laugh, I'll cry.
[clears throat]
[upbeat music playing]
[Whitney] I wish... I wish you'd know
when you came to Greensboro that I couldn't walk
'cause I could have used your scooter.
-[Buddy] Yeah. -Your little ankle scooter.
-[Buddy] You all right? -[Whitney] Oh no, I'm fine.
I just don't wanna walk on it 'cause it hurts.
And I'm nervous that I'm gonna, like,
step wrong and like
-really do it in. -[Buddy] Right.
[Whitney] And I was just walking out of my bathroom
-and I just went... [makes sound] -Yeah.
-For no reason. -Yeah, I walked down a curb.
That's what happened to me, so.
-Is this what happens-- -This is 40, dude.
-[laughs] -This is it.
That's what I'm saying, "Look at me. I'm backing up.
I'm getting ready." I'm like, all right.
You getting ready for the little bump?
Here I go. [laughs] Ugh.
As soon as my brother and I learned
that my dad wanted to sell the house,
we immediately tried to scheme ways
to incentivize him to not do that.
The solution is to reno the downstairs bedroom.
-Are you Mike? -I'm Mike. You must be Whitney.
-I'm Whitney. Nice to meet you. -Nice to meet you as well.
[Whitney] My first step in doing that is to see
some flooring and hopefully we are going to change
this room into something that my dad will love.
-Is he your design consultant? -[Whitney] No.
Although, he's not bad,
especially for a straight male.
-[laughter] -Yeah, I hold it down.
-Yeah, he does. -I hold it down.
[Whitney] We've got a little bit of a remodel...
-Sure. -in the works.
It's for my dad's bedroom
-with an attached bathroom. -Sure. Okay.
Right now it's got some nasty carpet in there
that's been in there for probably 30 years.
-Time to go. -Absolutely.
So I want some LVP.
And can you put that over tile?
We can. So there's some processes we can do to tile
-that way the grout joints don't bleed through. -Right.
So my ultimate fantasy in terms of the flooring
is luxury vinyl plank flooring.
And if that doesn't make me sound old as [bleep]
I don't know what does.
I am heading into my geriatric era
a little faster than I wanted to.
So this is actually a local company I work with.
They have a ton of different options to choose from,
all the way from your rustic
kind of, farmhouse kind of a vibe.
To be honest with you, I don't... I don't like farmhouse.
I don't like rustic. I don't like chickens.
If I go my way,
it's that one right there.
-This one on top? -[Whitney] Yeah.
But if we go dad's way, what could it be?
Ultimately, this is a Glenn Thore renovation,
so I have to kind of keep his tastes in mind
because I know we have different tastes.
But that's why I have Buddy here
because he can give a little insight here or there
onto what a man would like.
And if you want it, 'cause it is gonna be butting up.
-Oh. -Right there at the bathroom.
-Now-- -The black one would work as well.
[Buddy] Yeah, I'll walk all over that.
[Whitney] Okay. Let me see with the black.
[Mike] All right.
Ooh. But I like that too.
Maybe the black is better.
I'd say let's go with black.
-Let's do it. -[Mike] Excellent.
Do you have like a recommendation
for like a painter?
Absolutely. Yeah. I use...
He's the best painter in town right now.
His company's called 50 Shades of Gray.
-Love it. -His name's Gray.
-So he does a phenomenal job, so-- -[Whitney] Oh, perfect.
Okay. We can get the ball rolling.
Do you wanna do next week?
Oh, perfect. Yeah, as soon as possible would be great.
All right. I will see you guys there.
-Perfect. Thank you, Mike. -All right.
It's been a pleasure doing business.
-It's a pleasure. -Yeah.
[sighs] I'm thankful that one thing
for this renovation is done,
but there are a million more things to do
and the more and more I think about it, I'm like,
"How am I going to do this in a timely manner
where my dad doesn't get suspicious?" Like,
I may have bitten off way more than I can chew.
Oh, if you got anybody on the crew,
you know, they're single, whatever?
-Oh. -Attractive?
-I'll send them your way. -[Whitney] Send them my way.
-You got it. -[Whitney] Bye.
Bye.
[grunts]
[upbeat music playing]
[Glenn] Are we gonna do some bike work?
[Whitney] I have not been on one of these
and I couldn't tell you when.
I woke up today with my ankle feeling much better,
which is great news. And I wanted to get in the gym
and do something because I haven't been able
to put much weight on it. So I'm bringing my dad with me
because between my ankle, and his hip, and his knee,
and his everything else, we got some work to do.
Ah, I don't know if this is right.
Let me go back some more.
[whimsical music playing]
Oh no, that's too much. Now I can't reach.
Damn. I've already done 'em.
Huh-huh.
[sighs] They got the air on here?
Tell me about your visit to the psychic.
She was really nice and...
I liked her and she dispensed some wisdom.
One of the upsides of the psychic
was that there was a cat cafe right next door.
-They're up for adoption. -[scoffs]
-What? -[Glenn] You can't have another cat.
Who says?
I don't wanna hear any more about it.
About what?
About adopting a cat.
Well, Dad, if I'm not gonna have kids
then I have all the time
and effort and resources to pour into something else.
Well, how do you know you're not gonna have kids?
Do you know how kids are made?
Usually...
someone's gotta put the pizza in the oven.
You know what I mean?
[clears throat]
I'm a childless woman
in the midst of a midlife crisis.
And I'm only making it a joke
because if I don't laugh, I'll cry.
-[laughs] -Do you think I wanna be single?
-[Glenn] No. -You don't think I would love
to be putting these ovaries to use?
We can cut out the middle part here.
I just want a grandchild.
A human grandchild.
It is unnerving to talk
about a grandchild with my dad.
It's certainly not the first time
that we've had this conversation.
You know, it's like, "Dad, I want this too."
Well, I wanna know this. If you are so concerned,
what is the hard work that you are doing
into finding me a man?
Well, you need to start going out more
and you could go with me to some of the places I go to
because, for instance,
that basketball game I went to the other night,
there was a lot of young men roaming around.
And if you don't get involved like that
then you're not gonna meet any.
Oh, my God.
I don't like basketball, Daddy.
Well...
you gotta work at finding a man.
Well, this is not helping my hip at all.
Here. You know what you should do for your hip?
Do this. Take your one leg,
turn it... And turn your foot out like that,
and you're gonna wanna come forward on it.
And you want that knee to be down.
See how high up your knee is?
That whole... This whole side's bad.
Here. No, you stay straight. Your body stays straight.
Okay. That's...
We didn't do... We didn't go nowhere.
-[laughs] Well. -Okay.
I think you're gonna need a professional, Daddy.
-A professional what? -Stretcher.
Are there professional stretchers?
There are. Yeah.
And I can book us one 'cause you're too young
at heart to be this old in your leg.
As a woman who has been fat for a long time,
I know the benefits of having someone else
stretch you to push you past your limits
and also just to help you where, like,
your body, you know,
puts up a little roadblock.
So I think to get stretched out
by a professional for me and dad
is absolutely necessary.
I didn't know if I was gonna mention it
just 'cause I wasn't sure.
You know, I don't know.
But, you know, Gina didn't really say anything
about mom in my reading,
but there had been another young woman in there
during the reading and I wasn't sure who she was.
She came in and she said, you know,
"I'm Gina's daughter
and she said I'm a medium."
And she said, "I just wanted you to know
that your mom was with you the whole time."
Mmm-hmm.
[Whitney] And she said she's always with you.
You just have to turn around.
[Glenn] Huh?
I went by and saw her last night.
I kind of catch her up on what's going on.
I have a nice conversation.
Do you feel like she...
listens?
Do you feel like she ever says
anything back to you?
Well, I think she listens as much as she ever did.
[laughs]
-True. -[laughs]
You think that was the funniest thing you've ever said?
-Don't you? -[laughter]
[Tal] Welcome.
We've got the sage going?
I have a whole ritual prepared.
We're doing a sexual energy cleanse.
[Whitney] What the [bleep], Tal?
[upbeat music playing]
[Tal] Hey, what are you doing?
[Whitney] I'm just driving out from therapy.
I gotta stop home and let Goosey out
and then I'm gonna head over to your place.
I'm actually already at your house.
Todd, let me in.
Would it be cool if we hung out here tonight instead?
[Whitney] That's fine.
Yeah. I mean I can just send a text, I guess,
and let everybody know.
I actually already let everybody know.
I had a really busy week
and I wasn't able to get my house together in time.
I'm so sorry.
[Whitney] Well, okay. I'll be there
in like literally two minutes.
Okay. I also have a little surprise.
So come through the front door when you get here, okay?
-[Whitney laughs] Okay. Bye. -All right, bye.
I was super inspired by our experience with Gina
and I thought, why not continue the work
that we started in Charlotte right here in her living room?
We were originally gonna hang out at my house tonight.
And some folks in the friend group
haven't seen my house yet
and they were really excited about coming over.
But this is more important.
Whitney's house is much larger than mine.
She is a gracious, accommodating host,
and once the shock wears off,
she is gonna be so down.
Welcome.
We got the sage going.
I have a whole ritual prepared.
We're doing a sexual energy cleanse.
What the [bleep], Tal?
[Tal] Just wait.
We're doing homework like Gina said.
No, don't look yet.
Oh, I see it.
How did you get that in the house?
I got it in with Todd's help.
-Ah. -Oh, don't worry about it.
Don't worry about it.
Ah, you let him do this without asking me.
You're supposed to be in charge with households.
Just let me show you.
I think I would rather see Tal naked,
which I have many times
than see him wearing this cobalt blue
banana hammock thing.
Like, it's actually worse.
He was just naked.
I will say that the blossoms are beautiful.
[Whitney] The flowers are pretty.
[Todd] I should just sit here and hold the towels.
I knew Tal was really into the psychic.
But this is...
This is a sexual energy cleanse
because you can hold on to toxic sexual energy
for seven to 30 years.
These are rituals that will help us release
what we need to let go of and invite in
what we want to have more of.
I need you to undress to your comfort.
I don't want to attribute any of this to Gina
because this was all my own doing
that was just inspired by Gina.
This is going to be a sexual energetic cleanse
because I read that you can hold on
to toxic sexual energy for seven to 30 years.
And Gina said that Whitney has some things
from the past to let go of.
So I have gathered my ingredients
and they all have their own function
for what they are going to help us out with
in the process.
[gasps] That's freezing.
It's not freezing. It's room temp.
-That's not room temp. -[Tal] It is room temp.
This is freezing.
Why are we doing this?
[Tal] Okay.
So we start with basil.
Do you know what the basil is for?
-No, I do not. -[Todd] Tomato sauce?
-[Tal] Emotional balance. -Okay.
This is freezing.
[Whitney] Gina advised me
to let go of the trauma of my past relationships
and I was hoping to do that via therapy,
maybe positive affirmations, learning some mantras,
some sensible chanting.
But I don't even know what this is.
So at this point, I will probably die
from inhalation of toxic chemicals
or hypothermia before I ever even get back to therapy.
It's gonna make me pee.
I'm not gonna do...
No, no, no. I'm not gonna do it on purpose.
This is about releasing dark energy,
not about releasing urine.
-But when you-- -Please contain yourself.
My body is conditioned even when I hit...
When the shower water hits me.
You know this about me.
And yet I brought this pool into your living room.
-[Whitney] Exactly. -[Tal] Okay.
Rosemary is for releasing dark energy.
So whatever that energy is that's been keeping you stuck,
we are letting that go.
[Whitney] And the salt's just for what? The cleansing?
-[Tal] Just general cleansing. -Sprinkle some salt on me.
[Todd] One thing that you are already, salty enough.
Breathe in the beautiful aromas
of the herbs and the blossoms.
Breathe out toxic dating app.
[Whitney] Of lovers' past.
And ghosts of potential lovers who...
-That never were. -[Todd laughs]
leave you high and dry.
Now you're low and wet.
[Tal] The black walnuts are for cleansing the womb.
-[Todd] Oh. -[Whitney] Put 'em in.
[Todd] So, put them right in the cross hole.
[Whitney laughs]
The final phase of the ritual experience.
Yeah.
I got it out of your bag.
Love oil?
Yeah. To open the heart chakra.
[Whitney] How much are you supposed to use?
[Tal] Just a little bit.
Let's open it wide up.
-[Jessica] Hello? -Who's here?
-Oh, God. -[Whitney] Oh.
What is happening?
-We're doing a ritual. -What?
[laughs]
This doesn't look like anything good.
[Isaiah] Are we at the right spot?
What is that smell?
[Tal speaking]
Okay. Um...
We went to a psychic
and she had given us some instructions.
[Jessica] Okay.
[Tal] So, this is a sexual energy cleansing.
Come put your hand in this water.
-[Isaiah] Oh, walnuts? -Sexual energy cleansing?
[Whitney] Touch how cold this water is.
But why are you in there together?
[laughter]
He had to put walnuts in my womb.
-[laughs] -[Jessica] What?
I'm leaving.
Bye.
-No, no, no! -No, no, no.
[Jessica speaking]
I'm not really sure what the [bleep] we just walked into.
There's like a lot of smells going on.
I've never experienced a sexual ritual,
but watching this now definitely makes me think
that I certainly don't want one.
I don't know what I just saw.
[laughter]
What if this really works?
What did you mean if it really works?
Why did we do it if you did not feel confident?
-Oh, I believe in it. -[Whitney] Okay.
I do.
Oh, my God.
Personally, I'm not sure I feel a whole lot different
than I did when I first stepped into the tub.
However, I don't know, maybe I have not given the oils,
herbs, and walnuts enough time
to deeply penetrate the epidermis.
So I think if I just wait,
I might see what's been marinating.
And hopefully, once it's done,
I will feel better
whether I'm single or whether I'm partnered,
but hopefully, I can clear that space
to invite new energy into my life.
[Tal] That was fun. I love you.
It was very fun. I will meet you back shortly.
All right.
Is there something about me that is so wrong
that people won't even give me a first date?
It's not wrong, but you're intimidating.
Why am I intimidating?
'Cause I'm a fat, 'cause I'm a heavyset lady?
[Lennie] I mean, there's nothing wrong with you.
You're definitely better now
than what you were before, I'm assuming.
You don't have any constructive criticism?
[Lennie] Whitney is expecting some perfect love connection.
She kinda needs to grow up.
[upbeat music playing]
[Jessica] Look at Ollie still hanging out up there.
Do you know why? 'Cause the food is right there.
-The food. -You know what's hilarious?
-Oh, hi, guys. -[Tal] Hi.
[Whitney] Nobody else is here, right?
Okay. I can say this in front of y'all.
So literally we just did the womb cleansing,
guess what just happened to me?
-[Jessica] What? -I just got my period.
-[Jessica] Oh, did you really? -Yeah.
You have to start all over.
[Jessica] Is that supposed to do that?
[laughs] I think it... I think it was...
So you guys are gonna start holding clinics
here in the living room now?
[Tal] I invite all of you to undress
and step into the living room.
I bet you do, Tal.
[laughter]
[Todd] Why does that happen to me?
Every time I go somewhere, that's what people say.
-Hey. -[Jessica] What's up, guys?
-Ah! -Hey.
I just spilled mozzarella water all over my arm.
-Ooh, can I have one? -That is a lot.
-Yes, I love mozzarella water. -Courtney.
I have no idea what is going on tonight.
Obviously, I didn't plan any of these activities.
But I'm really okay, I think,
with seeing where the night takes us.
It's already started off pretty strange.
I just don't wanna get wet anymore.
Thank you for being flexible and coming here
instead of my house
'cause we just did a very important cleansing ritual
in the living room in a kiddie pool.
-Y'all go ahead and-- -So that's why we're here.
Y'all go ahead and... Seriously.
Go ahead and look in the living room
and see what we just did.
[Jessica] You can probably still smell the incense.
This is what I just came home to with Tal in a G-string.
[Tal] I'm gonna show everyone what I've done.
[Buddy] What were you guys doing?
[woman laughs]
A whole sexual energy cleanse.
[Buddy] Go on.
Just, like, letting go of all dark energy.
I've never heard of a sexual energy cleanse
but now that Whitney has one of these in her house,
she should leave it here,
you know, maybe use it once a week or so.
[laughs]
[Whitney] Sweet girl.
I love her.
Watching babies fall asleep is the best.
[Lennie] Yeah, she's a heavy drinker.
[laughs]
Just like her daddy used to be.
[laughter]
I used to be a heavy drinker but not anymore for me either.
Still half-truth.
-No. -[laughs]
-[Todd] Still heavy. -Todd.
You're hot and heavy.
[Whitney] As Todd admonishes me for being heavy
while he hands me food, that's what it is.
I'm using the word heavy in general,
the Southern way to call people big...
-[Whitney] Right. -which is a euphemism.
-When your dad called me. -My dad.
[Whitney] Say what your dad called me that time?
You're a heavyweight friend, was that what it was?
[laughter]
I think my dad was really hoping
we were gonna get married when I moved in here.
He might have hoped that that heavyweight lady
was gonna turn me.
Didn't work. [laughs]
Yeah, here I am, still 40 and just...
You know, still single.
Are you still... You got any of these apps
or anything like that?
Y'all know I've been on the dating apps
for over 10 years.
The most common thing...
[bleep] pic, just [bleep] pic.
-[Tal] They want you to eat. -[Buddy] Squashing.
No. Sit on my face.
Oh, God, yeah.
I don't need an advanced degree in psychology
to understand why a man wants me to sit on his face.
However, I do need a degree to understand
why a man would think that this approach works.
Like, I truly wanna know how many times
have you opened with that line
and you actually got your face sat on.
Like, can somebody let me know
because I cannot understand what men are doing?
See, that's so frustrating.
It's not that I can't get the second date,
I can't get the first,
you know, so it's like I don't know
what I'm supposed to modify
because it's not like I'm getting there
and then, getting turned down,
like no one's giving me a chance.
Is there something about me that is so wrong
that people won't even give me a first date?
You can tell me.
It's not wrong but you're intimidating.
Why am I intimidating?
'Cause I'm fat, 'cause I'm a heavyset lady?
No, because you are so confident and smart, and...
sexually charged.
[laughter]
There's nothing wrong with you.
[gasps]
[Todd] He said like there's more to come.
There's... I mean, there's nothing wrong with you.
You're definitely better now
than what you were before, I'm assuming.
I'm assuming you've grown as a person--
[Jessica speaking]
Okay. You don't have any constructive criticism?
[Lennie] Whitney has been a good friend to me
but, like, she kinda needs to grow as a person.
Like, I've changed as a person in 10 years,
like, tremendously.
I've really tried to.
You know, I've gone out of my way.
I've tried to do the hardest things to be a better person.
And she kinda needs to grow up
and realize what her options are.
I think you need to take the pressure off,
be a little less picky,
stop anticipating that you meet your husband
-on the next date you go on... -I don't.
and just go on some fun dates.
Okay. But I don't want to go on dates
with people that I am, like, unattracted to
for whatever reason.
Then I'm settling.
Like, I have to at least, like, find you somewhat--
But here's the thing, going on a date
with somebody doesn't mean you're gonna marry them,
that doesn't mean you're settling for anything.
You're just going out and having a good time
with somebody of the opposite sex.
I think, it's year 10 of the apps,
it's time to try something different.
Yeah, at least something different.
I agree. I know I can't meet somebody sitting,
you know, on my couch with y'all.
You're gonna do the old-timey... The old-timey way
that parents hooked you up.
Like a matchmaker.
Do they still have those?
[Todd] Yeah, they... But they have, like, professional ones
who, like... It's like the gift.
They have a gift.
[Tal] I just think you need to get out more.
Like you have to leave the house
and get out into the world.
I don't disagree with that. I don't disagree with that.
But I just don't know where to go.
[dramatic music playing]
Nobody's really telling the truth here.
You know, I think, you know, Whitney is picky.
She wants something that's kinda out of reach
and she wants everything to be lined up perfectly.
That's not gonna help her get a man,
you know, that's kinda, I think, a problem
is that she's expecting some perfect, elaborate,
you know, love connection.
And that just doesn't happen.
I mean, if you can't look inwards and see
what's wrong with yourself,
I don't know if anyone's gonna be able
to convince you, you know.
Everybody telling you that you're perfect all the time
isn't gonna make you change.
I'm sad that after all this time, like, I am still single,
but it is wonderful to see y'all so happy
to have Courtney in our lives, have Allison in our lives,
to have this baby, like it is really...
I don't know. It's... It is kinda hard to watch
-everybody, like... -[Jessica] I get it.
move on, you know.
[Tal] Gina said to let go of the past,
so let go of the past and open yourself up
-to trying something you haven't tried before. -Yeah.
The frustrating thing about not getting something concrete
from my friends about what is wrong with me
is that if I don't have something concrete,
that means that I can't fix it,
and that actually makes me feel really disempowered,
like the ball is always in everyone else's court.
Like, I knew that they were gonna say
like, "Oh, my God, you're perfect,
you're just intimidating."
Like, I've heard that a lot in life
and I was hoping to hear something else.
[dramatic music playing]
When I met you, you were thin
and you had no problems attracting men.
The size holds you back.
Would you consider losing weight again?
If there is something about me that I could change
that would help me reach my goals,
I would probably do it.
[dramatic music playing]
[upbeat music playing]
[Whitney] The remnants of the ritual.
Oh, my gosh.
Jessica and Isaiah sure got to see
another side of me tonight.
[laughs]
[Tal sighs]
I have to say, unexpected Friday evening but--
A lot of surprises.
What did you have to think about what everybody said?
[Whitney] Well, I'm mad.
[Tal] Why?
Because I was hoping somebody was gonna have something
to tell me that I could fix.
And instead, I got just like, "Oh, well, you're too picky,"
or, "Oh, you're, like, whatever
but there's nothing wrong with you."
I'm like, "I need there to be something wrong with me
because if there's nothing wrong with me,
then I can't fix it."
It's funny to listen to my friends reassure me
that nothing is wrong with me
because I knew that that's what they would say.
But as for me,
I can only sit alone in my house,
getting no dates for so long
before I have to believe that there is something amiss.
I really didn't wanna say this in front of everybody else
because I honestly don't know how you'll react.
The one thing that you are always saying
that holds you back romantically is your size.
When I met you, you were thin
-and you had no problems attracting men. -Yeah.
That's true.
If there is something that you could change
about yourself to make things easier for you,
would you consider losing weight again?
You've done it in the past.
You had men falling all over you.
You would light up a room
and everybody was attracted to you, they still are.
But size holds you back.
[dramatic music playing]
Whitney can't get in front of a man
because she's so easily discounted.
I mean, she is just dismissed so quickly.
I have watched it happen over and over again.
If there is something about me that I could change
that would help me reach my goals,
I would probably do it.
And I know you have legitimate challenges,
-which is-- -You sound like my dad.
He gave me a talk years and years ago.
He said,
"Well, you know...
when I met your mother,
if she had been your size...
-Oh. -[Whitney] Yeah.
And it killed me because I'm like, you know,
my mother's looks were the last thing
that my dad valued about my mother, you know,
and... But he would have never known any of that,
like if she just weren't thin, like...
I don't wanna have to feel
like I've got to prove to my dad
that a man can want me,
but I truly don't think that my dad thinks it's possible.
And that sucks.
I'm crying because you're right, like it's true.
-I hate it. -And this feeling like,
"Well, I could just, like, try harder.
I could just, like, lose more weight."
[sighs]
I'll say this,
if I just kept losing weight again
and didn't, like, spiral into an eating disorder
and all that, would I be sad that I lost weight?
Absolutely not.
Do I think it would benefit my life in a lot of ways?
Yes, it would.
Unfortunately, I have the "luxury"
of knowing what life was like
when I was thin
and when I was considered to be "pretty",
and when I had social currency in the form of my appearance.
I spent my childhood, my teenage years,
my adolescence, my formative years,
and my young adulthood being a thin woman.
I was prom queen, for God's sakes.
The way that life changed for me when I became fat
quite literally almost overnight,
I mean, within a couple months,
it was like doing a social experiment
where you put on a fat suit and you go out in public,
except the fat suit was real
and I couldn't take it off.
You know, I look at myself sometimes and I just think,
"I'm so gross."
You are not gross.
But if I... And if I lost weight,
I would just continue to get grosser,
like, I mean, what... Where is all this skin gonna go,
you know what I mean?
And, like, being this age,
and then the whole thing just, like, overwhelms me, and...
I just see you becoming more and more hopeless.
I know there are things you want
that you don't have, but please do not give up.
We're just gonna be later-in-life people.
[laughs]
I never... If you would've asked me
when I was in high school,
"Can you imagine that you would be 40 and not married?"
Mine just ended it then,
so I'm glad no one told me.
Nobody could've paid me any amount of money
for me to have foreseen the way that...
Honestly, in any way, in the good ways
and the bad ways that my life would have gone this way.
Look at everything else that's happened, though.
[Whitney] But it's like, "What do you want the most?"
You know.
When I come home, I want one person
who can love me. I want unconditional love.
[dramatic music playing]
[Whitney] It's not only about the men.
It is the way that you become invisible to the entire world.
It is the way that everything communicates to you
that you are worth nothing now because you're fat.
Have I done myself a disservice
by doing what I thought was right,
which was accepting myself and owning my fatness,
and repositioning it as, you know,
not this horrible thing, like was all of that wrong?
[dramatic music playing]
I'm over it, Tal. I'm just [bleep].
I'm so over it.
[dramatic music playing]
[exhales]
Oh, God. I thought that was a person.
[laughs]
Next time on My Big Fat Fabulous Life.
Hi, Whitney.
Hi, how are you?
I found a matchmaker because I am determined
to find my husband in my fourth decade.
Let me be honest, I don't leave the house.
-I don't ever leave the house. -Whitney.
-[Whitney] Yeah, I know. -Listen to yourself.
The thing is, my dad wants to sell the house.
-So he doesn't know? -[Whitney] No, no, no.
But yeah, Glenn Thore is not allowed in the house.
Okay.
[Glenn] Are you almost done working on the garage?
[Whitney] I have things going on
that you don't need to know about.
Hopefully, I'll convince my dad not to sell this house.
So I'm about to turn 40 and I decided
I wanna do a big trip.
We're all gonna go to Spain.
Oh.