[Jazz] Previously on I Am Jazz.
Would you be okay if I kissed you?
I don't know.
-I'll save that kiss for another date. -Okay, cool.
[Jazz] I've been talking to this other guy who's a little older.
He's 26 years old and his name is Yash.
Yeah, I would love that, 100 percent.
-[Jeanette] Beautiful. -Mom, can you tie it for me?
Mmm-hmm, I'm coming around.
[Jeanette] It it is so hard to let go
and I have been so protective of her,
but she's old enough, she's got this.
She's gonna do it on her terms,
and, you know, I'm happy for her
but I'm also pleasantly cautious.
[Jazz] I'm nervous because it's been many years
since I've been on a one-on-one date.
I actually just started feeling really sick know.
All of a sudden, I feel sick to my stomach.
I don't feel well for this date.
I don't even think I could go inside.
Not good.
Literally, my stomach is causing problems,
and I have acid reflux and heartburn going on,
and I'm not ready to meet Yash
under these conditions.
I just don't want to throw up because then if I throw up then I'm not kissing anyone.
[producer] No. [chuckles]
There you go.
-[producer] Yes. -Your girl got issues.
I'm feeling a little better.
I'm feeling a lot of anxiety about this date.
Even though I just recently went on a date with Daron,
I feel like that was just, like, testing the waters
and this is an even bigger date
because I am on my own this time.
So I am a ball of anxiety right now,
I have butterflies, and I have no idea how this is gonna go.
-Yash? -Hey, Jazz.
Hello.
-Hi, Yash. How are you? -Hey, Jazz.
-Pleasure to see you. -Good to see you, too.
-Nice to meet you in person. -Yeah, finally, right?
-I know. -How's your day been so far?
-Today's been good. How was your day? -But, yeah.
It's been pretty chill.
I see there's a drink there. Is that mine?
-Yeah go for it. -All right, I'm gonna try it.
-Oh, no, it's gonna spill. -It's okay, you got this.
-Mmm. -How is it?
-It's really good. -Nice.
-I don't drink a lot, really, ever, -Yeah?
but this is yummy, this tastes good.
-I'm gonna take another sip. -Yeah.
Oh, I can only imagine how crazy the parties at Harvard must get.
-Insane. -[chuckles]
No, so all my siblings went to University of Florida, Gators.
-Ah, cool. -I am the youngest of four.
-I think I was telling you about that. -Yeah.
But, yeah, that school's a party school.
So, you're heading back up in, like, a week and a half?
Classes are starting early for you?
So, yeah, about a week and a half,
and I really am excited to go back.
-I did two gap years -Yeah.
where I spent a lot of time focusing on myself and my personal goals.
Sounds like you're not pressuring yourself
-No, exactly, no. -to follow society's BS standards.
You're just doing what you want.
I'm charting my own path, for sure.
I know what I want,
and I'm gonna work hard to achieve what I want, you know?
-I like that. -I just want to be happy.
-To be... Okay. -Whoa, whoa, whoa.
-You're asking for too much now. -[laughs]
You know, we gotta...
In the past, I don't know if I could say that
because I went through a pretty dark period of time where I was really struggling,
-Yeah. -but I'm a lot better now
and I feel more confident and sure of myself, which is good.
Not that I can relate to the same life experiences that you've had,
-but I've had my own fair share -Of course.
of, like, [bleep],
and it takes a while to reprogram your mind
to think differently about how you can find happiness in life.
-Mmm. -Especially when you...
I really the things you say. You're so, like, deep and wise.
-Like, I feel it, for sure. -Thanks.
Yash is great, and he's really mature, too.
I think that comes with his age,
but I feel, like, comes a maturity
that the people I've dated in the past haven't had.
And he's cute, for sure. Like, definitely attractive.
Do you want to play, like, cornhole or anything right now?
-Sure, I'm down. -All right.
I have to warn you though, I suck at this game.
-Nice. -[Yash laughs]
If I get this on my first try I'll be so happy.
-Oh, my God, it went in. -Did it go in?
That's awesome. I called that.
I was like, "That's going in."
You did play soccer.
What was the other sports you said you played again?
I played lacrosse, and tennis, and flag football.
Oh, that's ridiculous. That actually sucks. I have to get this one in now.
Yes, that's the second time I called it.
-What the heck? -Yeah, that's amazing.
If you want to grab another drink or maybe go for a walk?
Yeah, let's go for a walk. Honestly, it's really nice.
I feel at ease talking with Yash.
I do think he's a great conversationalist.
I find him interesting, and he's just smart,
and so many different qualities about him are so positive.
So, have you had fun tonight?
-Oh, yeah, I love it. This was great. -Yeah,
I'm having so much fun tonight.
-Getting to know you, though, like, you're really... -Yeah, you're really cool.
I think you're really cool, too.
Yeah, you're interesting.
You know, you're different than most people.
You're unique which is amazing.
I mean, I do believe everyone's unique, but you're extra unique.
Well, you know, and more power to you.
I would argue and say most people aren't that unique,
or most people don't want to be unique,
-so they try to limit themselves, -Mmm.
but you, on the other hand, are not limiting yourself.
You're embracing your uniqueness,
-so I admire that about you. -Mmm-hmm.
I am a [bleep] weirdo and I know it.
-[laughs] -Good. [laughs]
-Be the [bleep] weirdo. -[deep voice] Be the [bleep] weirdo.
Exactly. Keep using that voice, too.
-That's pretty cool, badass voice. [chuckles] -[deep voice] Yes.
Oh, my God, your laugh. I love your laugh. [imitates laugh]
-Oh, thank you. -[laughs] Sorry.
-No, it's okay. It was great. -It's the...
It's actually better when you do it
-so, you know what, -[imitates laugh]
I think you should just keep doing it from here on out.
That's so cute. I love it.
I think we're vibing, and there's definitely a connection there.
I don't know if he's ready for a kiss or not,
but, not gonna lie, I would be open to it.
Well...
[humming]
Yeah, I guess this would be time
-to head back home for the night, I suppose. -Yeah.
[sighing] Yeah. I am a little tired, for sure.
-It's pretty late. -Yeah.
But I really did have a good time with you.
Yeah, I really liked talking to you.
-Yeah. -You're really cool, Jazz.
I would definitely love to get together again, for sure.
It's gonna happen, for sure.
-Your hair is in your face. -Ah, thank you.
Oh, no, it's blowing back in your face.
-[chuckles] -I appreciate the effort.
-Our hair, our long hair. -Indeed.
[Jazz] Yash doesn't go in for the kiss,
but I want someone to want me.
I want to feel desired, and Yash is not giving me any of that energy right now.
Not gonna lie though, I am a little disappointed.
Well, if you want, I can get a ride for you, if you like.
-Yeah, let's do it. Let's head out, all right? -Cool.
[humming]
♪ I don't know what it is but I keep dreaming ♪
♪ keep dreaming about you, babe ♪
♪ I guess we're more than friends because I've got feelings ♪
♪ and I don't think they can't wait ♪
Yoga. Oh, Nemo, do you want to come to goat yoga?
-Nemo! Nemo's here. -It's a beautiful day for yoga.
[Jacky] You're the cat's meow.
[Jeanette] Are you guys excited for a family day?
Yeah, oh, yeah, always.
-I love being with the family. -[Jeanette] I hope I don't get car sick.
[Jazz] I texted Yash after our date last night but he hasn't responded yet,
and I'm just trying not to let it get to me.
-[Jeanette] I have the address right here. -[Greg] Okay.
Just hang on.
I will get us there.
Goat yoga.
[Jeanette] We are heading to goat yoga.
I've been told it's a lot of fun.
I don't like yoga but I love goats.
Just want to play with goats.
-Sounds like a baa-d idea. -Sounds like naa-maste.
[Jack snoring]
Aww, Grandpa just snored.
[Jeanette chuckles]
Did one little baby snore. He's not a snorer.
-Who? -[laughs]
Let's hear about Jazz's date.
Okay, so I did go on a date,
and he was really, really cool.
And we went to this park, and there was, like, a lake,
and we were just sitting on the edge, and it was kind of romantic.
-I wasn't sure if he was gonna lean in for a kiss or not, -13.
but he didn't, and then I ended on kind of a flat note there.
Are you waiting to hear from this person?
If he was, like, "Let's go out on another date" I would totally be open to it.
You could just text this person
and say that, "I had a lovely time. I hope it was mutual."
Which, I did, yeah.
-I did, yeah. -Oh, if you did that already, great.
Then leave it alone.
Dating is tough. Welcome to the party, Jazz.
I've often said
you have to kiss a lot of frogs
before you hit the prince.
Well, this is the time to live and learn.
I do not have a view of us sitting in the pew,
watching her walk down the aisle with Brad Pitt.
Those days are not existing.
Are you kidding? Brad Pitt is much too old for Jazz.
All right, so maybe Bieber, the beaver, or whatever.
-Bieber? -Beaver, the singer?
I don't come to any conclusions.
When I was Jazz's age,
I didn't have the slightest idea
that I was gonna meet anybody like you,
and how could I make any decisions
about who Jazz should be with?
That's interesting. [chuckles]
-Oh, my God, they're selling goat cheese. -Ooh.
-I hate goat cheese. -I love goat cheese.
[Greg] Hey, how you doing?
-Hey, I'm Griff. -Hey, welcome.
Is this the first time
you guys have been to goat yoga?
Yeah. You gonna introduce us to all the goats now?
[Julian] There's about, I think, 70, 80 goats here.
These goats are show goats,
so they're super calm and they're super well behaved,
especially around people.
I'm gonna set up my yoga mat over there.
So when you're ready, feel free to take a mat of your choice,
and we're gonna come into the goat farm area.
I still don't know the relationship between goats and yoga.
-[Greg] It's like they know something's okay. -[Jeanette] Oh, my God.
[Jazz] Hi, my friend. Hi.
Hi. Oh.
They love the yoga.
[Greg] How do we avoid the dookie?
This is their pen.
This is where they live, this is where they do everything,
they eat and everything else.
So pooping and peeing is part of this space,
and sometimes it's part of the experience.
If they happen to poop or pee on your mat,
-flip your mat over. -Oh, oh, oh, more poop.
Look, we have an example right here.
[Jazz] This goat's pooping right now.
[Julian] You have to kind of embrace the dookie here.
I totally forgot that goats poop. [chuckles]
-[Julian] Oh, wow, -Ah, oh.
-everybody's getting love today. -Oh, my God.
-Smile. -Ahh!
Okay. Oh, God. All right, we're done. No.
You're too little. Oh! [laughs]
-Oh, no, on his... -[sighs]
Hey, I'm getting jealous over here.
-This goat... -Grandpa, are you still there?
I'm here. I don't know about my kneecap.
Take your hands and place them in prayer in front of your heart.
I'd like to encourage you to maybe practice love,
practice patience, practice empathy,
compassion for the situations you can't control.
Send love to the challenges in your life.
See them as opportunities.
And then, when you're ready, let's begin.
Blink your eyes open, inhale, reach your arms up,
look up to the sky.
Push the hand down, reach the right arm up, and over to the right side.
Do I have crap on the bottom of my shoe?
[thunder rumbling]
When you're ready, extend the legs out in front.
Oh, I think I feel a raindrop.
-Raise your arms up. -[Jeanette] Greg,
-Look up to the sky. -I am not doing this.
Give her the keys.
A drop of rain hits me between the eyes,
and I'm like, "Mmm, maybe my mom didn't feel that"
because I know as soon as one little drop hits her she's out of there.
-Raindrops are falling. -Grandma, where are you going?
-She doesn't... -You don't feel the raindrops?
Your grandmother's out of here when it raining.
She's getting her umbrella.
I don't like rain. I don't like weather.
I am a firm believer Mother Nature wins.
The last time I saw your hair wet was in a beauty salon.
We're not talking about my hair.
It's threatening.
Weather is threatening to me.
Take your hands and place them in prayer in front of your heart,
And then if you want to go deeper,
you start to grow your branches
and you think to yourself
what kind of tree am I emulating today?
In South Florida are we mango trees, are we lychee trees?
-Citrus trees? -[chuckles softly]
And then exhale, release it down.
Let's go ahead and have a seat on our mat.
Come on, goats, come here.
Remember the purpose for practice this morning,
for what situations, for who in your life
would you like to be more peaceful and more loving?
Thank you very much, everyone, and naa-aaa-maste.
[all] Naa-aaa-maste.
Thank you.
Did you understand goat yoga?
Do you have any understanding of it?
-The concept of the two things together? -No.
-Not completely. -No.
-Soft, soft. -Oh, another one's here. Hi, big girl.
-Hello, sweetie. -Most of them are girls.
-Yes. -[gasps] Another one.
Did you hear back from Yash?
Oh, no, eating my phone case.
Oh, he sent me a message, actually.
I said, "Thank you so much for a fun night."
He said, "Same to you, Jazz."
Oh, look at that.
How do you feel about, like, texting him back and saying, you know,
"Do you think we had a connection?" What do you think?
I'm a little hesitant to do that
because what if I say, "Do we have a connection?" and he says "No"?
Well, that kind of puts me in a vulnerable place.
Yash's response made it seem like he's not that interested,
and I want to date someone
who's excited to get to know me more,
and I feel like there's a lack of interest in his response,
and therefore I feel like things are gonna kind of fizzle out.
-So excited. -It's, like, so exciting.
Jacqueline and I
are going to a speed dating event,
and I am very intrigued because it is a queer event.
So, who knows, maybe I'll meet someone.
Let's put our hope into finding people tonight
who respect and appreciate us for who we are.
Cone, cone.
My car!
I'm Jazz, I'm 21 years old.
Yeah, how about you?
That's 14 years older than me.
Can the three minutes end now?
[Jazz] I have to complete the college's
sexual harassment and misconduct training
to enroll in classes,
-Oh. -so I can't do anything
until I finish that.
Okay, but we can pick out classes, right?
-We can pick out classes. -Okay.
-Shall I do the... I'm gonna see how much-- -Here's paper...
and pencil since they are...
Pen... Which pen do you want?
[Jeanette] I never got involved with
the other kids picking classes.
They were very independent, off on their own.
We have learned from the last two semesters,
because she waited and didn't do her research,
she either ended up not getting the classes she wanted to,
and the ones she did get she did not enjoy.
So Greg and I said to her,
"This time we're gonna get involved.
We're gonna make sure you get it right."
-Jazz, what are you focusing on? -Yeah, you...
-What are you trying to... -[Jazz] I don't know, this is so hard
because I don't know what I want to do career wise.
Have you declared a major yet?
No, you don't have to
until the end of sophomore year.
-I graduated college... -Thank God,
because if I would have had to declare a major
-I would be so lost right now. -Jazz, I was...
Actually, declaring a major is what makes you less lost
because you have less...
But then you have to follow a structured path
that you may not be interested.
[Jazz] I know I'm procrastinating in picking out classes,
but I feel like there's so many different doors
and I just have to pick
which door I want to walk through.
I'm just feeling really anxious
in what I want to do with my life.
It's too much.
Okay, interesting.
To apply for enrollment, enter lottery and building though,t
-please complete the following by Sunday, August 21st. -[Jeanette] Oh, my God.
-So I have sevens to complete. -[Jeanette] My God.
Do you want me to fill out the questionnaire?
No, why are you asking us?
-I don't know if I'm fully interested. -This is your schedule.
I need to read more about the course first.
The pressure's starting to get to me.
I have to start charting out my life
and what direction I'm gonna go in,
and I don't want to waste my time taking classes
that aren't gonna help me with what I choose to do in my later life.
But also, I have the ability to be successful without a degree.
-I know, but you're there. -I know, I know.
[Jeanette] My patience has been tested,
and that patience has been tested,
and I've run out of patience.
It's gone.
-Oh, my God, guys, school is a lot. -Yes, it is.
[Jazz groans]
-[sighs] -Allie, we're gonna go inside.
Do you remember when my name used to be Jared?
-Yes. -She knew me as Jared.
Wait, you only knew me as Jazz though, right?
I knew you when you first started going by Jazz,
-Yes. -so, like, Casey would still call you Jared,
and it was, like, kind of confusing for me at first.
Yeah, that makes sense.
[Jazz] Kaci and Jay are like my sisters.
We've been friends since early childhood,
and I love them both,
and today we're gonna take Kaci's dog to the dog park.
[Kaci] Oh, there's another dog here.
-That's exciting. -There's another dog.
-Let's meet this other dog. -Allie, come on.
A friend.
-Hi, what's your dog's name? -Hi.
-Baxter. -Baxter.
[both] Aww, she likes him.
It's been a few days now since the date with Yash,
and I feel kind of confused by how things ended.
But Kaci and Jay are old souls,
and they're really, really wise,
and I know that they're always there for me
to provide advice or whatever I need.
Wait, I wanted to tell you both,
you know how I went on that date with the guy, Yash?
-[Jay] Yes. -I've not heard back from him.
[Kaci] Oh, no.
I know, I thanked him for a good night,
he said, "Same to you, Jazz."
and then he hasn't reached out to me.
So I don't know
if I'm supposed to make a move or not.
I want to feel desired, you know?
[Kaci] You're a great person.
If he actually was into you he would...
-[Jazz] Yeah, he would make the move, -have already said something.
you know?
[Jazz] That's how I feel.
Do you have any plans on, like, dating again?
I mean, I'm trying to find new people.
-I might go speed dating with Jacqueline. -[Jay gasps]
I know, I've never been speed dating before so I'm like, "Okay."
You know, my dates with Daron and Yash didn't really go as planned.
I did not find summer love.
However, hopefully at speed dating I will meet someone.
Just, like, see it as meeting new people,
-making friends. -Exactly, I'm good at that.
-[Jay] Be yourself. -[Jazz] I'm a good conversationalist.
Exactly.
How do you feel like it's gonna be
with your social anxiety, like, meeting so many people
-[Jazz] Mmm. -in such a short amount of time?
I mean, it's gonna be hard.
My social anxiety is definitely prevalent at times,
but I'm also so much better than I used to be
-when it comes to my social anxiety. -Mmm-hmm.
Like, I think college has helped a lot with that
because you meet so many new people
and you have to, like, engage in so many social situations
that you just kind of, like, learn from experience to let go
-Yeah. -and just be yourself.
I understand.
-Her feet are hot again. -Hi, baby. [cooing]
Yeah, she looks like she's trying to stand off of them.
Her feet get so hot.
We need to bring her back to the shade.
Look, there's a bowl over there,
we could put some water in it.
[Jazz] Oh, totally.
So, like, tell me more about Harvard.
How's the experience been like there?
Overall it was a great experience
and I grew a lot as a person.
But I haven't really talked to my parents about it,
but it's been going on in my mind, like,
I wonder if Harvard is even the right school for me.
Like, it's so amazing,
and you could do whatever you want there.
But, like, it's been a little stressful,
'cause I have to, like, pick out classes
and I have to figure out my major, my concentration,
and what I wanna do for the rest of my life.
And those are huge decisions.
I'm just trying to find the path
that makes me the happiest
and that will lead to the greatest fulfillment for me, but...
Well, do you feel like you're going to Harvard
because you really wanna be at Harvard
and you're happy there?
Do you feel like the pressure
of everything around you
and everyone around you
is kind of pushing you in that direction?
I just really don't want it to seem like I'm ungrateful
because I've been gifted with this amazing opportunity
at Harvard.
So many dreams come true there.
But at the same time, I have to...
I have to weigh in, you know,
how I'm feeling
and what feels right for me.
And maybe Harvard just isn't the right fit.
I feel like this is something
you definitely need to talk to your parents about.
[Jazz] We've been here before.
Depending on how things go this next semester,
I'm not sure if I wanna go back to Harvard or not.
And I really don't know
how my parents are gonna respond
to me saying, like,
"Hey, look, maybe I wanna take a different path."
I just hope they don't freak out too much when I,
you know, bring the idea to the table.
Hello! Welcome, everyone!
It's been hard putting myself out there this entire summer.
But I feel like I've got nothing to lose.
Uh, I'm a Libra.
Do you like Libras, or no?
Okay, this is a little awkward.
So, Jaclyn.
Tell me a little bit about what we're doing tonight.
But I really don't know everything.
It's, like, a queer event that I found.
And I'm really excited
because I wanna get us both,
like, out and doing stuff.
-Yes. -Because I feel like we're both kind of, like...
We need to be kinda pushed outside of our comfort zones.
Jaclyn and I are going to a speed dating event.
And I am very intrigued
because it is a queer event,
so who knows,
maybe I'll meet someone.
Maybe.
Oh, I'm gonna miss you when I go off to school soon.
[Jaclyn] I know! I'm gonna miss you, too.
-[Jazz] We'll stay in touch. -Yeah.
And I'm really excited, too,
especially for my upcoming breast augmentation.
[gasping]
-It's gonna be awesome! -I know!
I'm so excited!
I feel like every day we're getting closer and closer
-to the day. -We really are.
It's so exciting.
And then I feel like too this is gonna be a really great way
to kind of, like, enhance my dating experience.
-Mmm-hmm. -And like, my navigating...
my navigation...
[both laughing]
...of the dating world as a trans woman.
Because I feel like I'm gonna be
so much more connected with my body...
-Yeah. -And to finally have it,
like, coming here, is so exciting.
I am so over the moon
to get my breast surgery and have boobs.
Because it's aligning myself with my inner being.
And it can be very difficult
finding love as a trans woman,
you know, especially
as a trans woman that hasn't had surgery yet.
So exciting!
[in a silly voice] This is very exciting.
Honestly, we're a little pumped up, which is good.
-I know! -I feel like we need some energy
-going into this dating thing. -We need this...
We need this kinda, like,
[exhales] 'I'm ready to date' energy.
[Jazz] Okay...
[Jaclyn] I think it's a really good idea to bring Jazz
to this speed dating thing
because it's gonna kind of get her out of her shell.
She has three minutes to talk to someone,
see if they connect.
If they do, great. If they don't, oh, well.
You talked to them, moving on.
I know that there's gonna be a lot of, like, sexually fluid
and like, bisexual people there.
-Um... -Okay, so, like, bisexual.
-Even maybe pansexual people. -Yeah.
It's good that it's a queer event
because obviously we're both transgender women
and we wanna find people
who are gonna be accepting and loving
and supportive and embracing
of us for who we are.
-Exactly. -We don't want any bigots.
And I feel like if you're going to an event
that is queer-faced,
you're not gonna find someone bigoted.
Let's put our hope into finding people tonight
who'll respect and appreciate us
for who we are as women.
And people who are just kind and genuinely...
-Cone, cone! -[soft thudding]
[gasping]
It's okay. It's okay.
We hit a cone.
-It's okay. -I'm...
It was not a car or anything, so we're good.
I hit a cone!
-Oh, my gosh. -[Jazz inhales nervously]
-We're almost there, girl. -[Jaclyn sighs]
-I literally am so nervous. -I'm a little...
I'm a little intimidated, too.
Because you have to, like, meet these strangers
and like, converse really quickly,
trying to get to know someone.
I don't know what it's gonna be like,
I don't know if this is gonna work for me or not, but...
But we got 10 seconds to decide, girl.
The cone! Stop, stop.
-[thudding] -You did it again!
-[laughing] -I didn't see it.
For real?
I don't know Jaclyn is the best driver.
Eyes on the road, girl.
All right, we're here!
-Let's go. Let's do it. -[sighing]
Girl, I gotta check my car.
[Jazz] Oh, just a little bit.
That's not too bad, that's not too bad.
[Jaclyn] It's fine.
-There's the cone over there. -Uh-huh.
Just lying dead on the ground.
Just lying dead on the floor.
You know what they say, that trans girls can't drive.
[laughing]
[Jazz] While Dayron and Yash were great,
both of those dates were a bust.
And I don't want speed dating to be a bust, too.
All right, you ready for this?
-I'm ready. -Let's do it.
Let's go.
I love those.
Oh, great, this is the place.
All right, well, this is a vibe.
-Yeah. -This is cool.
Look at the roses and the candles.
-[Jaclyn] I love it. -Very romantic.
-It's summer Valentine's Day. -Summer Valentine's Day.
This could be interesting.
I'm like, a little nervous.
This is gonna be interesting for sure.
Yeah.
As we arrive at the event,
I'm feeling okay.
It really does feel good to have Jaclyn by my side.
She's someone I can just, like...
confide in.
And if things aren't going well,
I could be like, "All right, Jaclyn, we gotta get out of here."
What do you think? You see anyone who's, like, cute?
No, not yet...
No.
You're just like, "No."
[laughing] No.
I'm weird, like.
Unless I really think someone's attractive,
I don't really get, like, attractive vibes
until I'm, like, up front in front of them
and talking to them, you know what I mean?
[Jazz] Totally.
I think it's about to begin.
Seeing all of these single people in the room,
it's making me nervous
but also excited.
It's been hard putting myself out there this entire summer,
but I feel like I've got nothing to lose.
I'm on a quest to find love
and I wanna meet that special person.
And the only way to do that
is by putting yourself out there.
Hello! Welcome, everyone!
[everyone] Hi!
Welcome to our speed dating event
for sexually fluid singles.
We're gonna get started in just a moment.
So I'd like to invite you all to take a seat
anywhere that you'd like.
Hello!
-Hi, how are you? -I'm good, how are you?
-What's your name? -Steven, and you?
Say it one more time?
-Steven. -Steven?
-Uh-huh. -Wow, awesome.
-Thank you. -How old are you?
Okay, wait. I'm Jazz, by the way.
Let me say my name first.
-Jazz? Jazz. -Jazz.
I'm 21 years old.
Yeah, how about you?
You're 25?
You're older than 25?
-35? -Yeah.
Oh, wow.
-"Wow"? -Okay.
Why you say...
-Why you do this face? -[Jazz hesitating]
Well, I've never dated someone who...
I don't date a lot of people.
But, like, 35, like, that's 14 years older than me.
There are some interesting people at this event.
There is a colorful array of individuals.
-[laughing] -Yeah, yeah...
Like, ugh, awkward.
Can the three minutes end now?
[Paula] Please stand up and shift to your next seat.
[Jazz] I'm heading into this speed dating event
with an open mind.
But even with Jaclyn by my side,
I'm not gonna deny that I am nervous.
Like, this is the type of thing
where you really can easily get in your head
and you just have to be true and authentic to you.
-Hello. -Hey.
Oh, look at your cool make-up and your tattoos
and everything.
-What's your name? -Venus.
-Venus! Okay. -Yeah.
Such a cool name.
-You have a cool name, too. -Jazz.
[laughing awkwardly]
What do you do, like, hobbies-wise?
I'm in a band.
Okay, are you, like, the singer
or do you play an instrument?
I'm the singer and keyboardist.
Oh, wow. That's awesome!
What's your band's name?
It's called Actias Luna.
I've a cat named Luna.
-Really? -Yeah!
-Me too. -Really?
Oh, my God.
I love Luna, she's so cute.
How old is she?
She's, like, six years old now.
-How old is your Luna? -So is my cat.
-Really? -Well, no.
I have eight cats.
-Oh, wow. -But same as another cat.
Eight cats! That's crazy!
I'm vibing right now, like...
There are some really special people here.
Some of the individuals I'm talking to
are super interesting.
And it's so, so cool.
I really, just, like talking to people.
All right, well, it was nice talking to you.
-Yeah, it was. -Enjoy the rest of this.
Jaclyn's presence is definitely helping lessen the nerves.
But I feel like Jaclyn's nervous, too.
[laughing]
Hello.
-How are you? -I'm good, how about you?
Oh, my God. You fixed yourself up a little plate there...
[both laughing]
All right, so, what's your name?
-Ava. -Ava!
-I'm Jazz, nice to meet you. -Nice to meet you.
I'm 21, how old are you?
Okay, so we're about the same age.
Um, I'm a Libra.
Do you like Libras or no? [laughing nervously]
But then when it kinda goes off...
-it goes off. -The scales, yeah.
We can be imbalanced at times.
And when that happens, it's a trainwreck, but...
-I guess so. -I'm not gonna lie to you.
-Yeah! -[both laughing]
So, what do you do?
Well, I model, I'm in school...
Okay, that's a given.
-[Ava giggles] -Modelling, like, you're beautiful.
-Thank you. -Yeah.
No, so are you, like, sexually fluid?
That's how I feel!
Exactly.
Yes! Preach it. Oh, my God.
I feel the same way.
I mean, I don't even like using labels.
Just saying, "I'm Jazz" and I'm a person.
And whoever I'm attracted to is whoever I'm attracted to.
-You know? -Exactly.
All right, everyone!
Time is up!
Let's stand up and go to our next partners.
Ugh, I wish we got to talk more.
-I know! -I think you're super cool.
-This conversation is-- -Yeah, you're super cool.
-[both laughing awkwardly] -Bye-bye.
It is easy to tell when you have
a connection with someone
because some conversations just flow like that.
Other conversations are much harder.
It really depends on the person you're talking to.
Hello!
I'm good, how about you?
-I'm Jazz. -I'm Kristian.
-Kristian, okay. -Yeah.
So, what are your interests?
Modeling? Okay. Awesome.
-Okay. -Yeah.
-Okay, I don't know... -Yeah, that's... It's okay.
...too much about the fashion industry at all.
It's okay.
Like, I came here. Some people are dressed really fancy, really nice.
-I'm in, like, my boho top. -You still look good.
Thank you.
-Thank you so much. -Of course.
Don't be nervous!
I'm just a person.
[laughing]
I'm really surprising myself at this speed dating event
because even though I have faced a lot of social anxiety in the past,
I feel like a lot of that isn't present here right now,
and I'm just kind of connecting with people
and learning about them
and I'm not worrying about what they think about me
or if they like me or don't like me.
And I'm having a really good time.
Just, um...
-Okay. -So, I kinda wanna go into, like...
I'm a little artist. I did a little eyeball.
[laughing]
Did I win you over?
[laughing] Yeah.
It is so exciting to talk to people
who seem genuinely interested in me.
We're just conversing
and I'm vibing with people
and it's really fun.
Oh, hi, beautiful.
[Jazz] How are you?
Are you enjoying yourself?
I'm having a good time.
So, tell me more about you.
Jamaican? Wow. Beautiful.
I found myself being more attracted
to the women more so than the men,
which is really interesting,
and it makes me question, like, should I approach dating
from a different angle?
Should I be hitting on women more?
Like, is that formu--
I don't know! It just...
It's a little confusing.
And I know it'll clear up
as I learn more about who I am as a person
and what I want.
All right, everyone!
Time's up, and that was our last round.
Do you think you made some matches?
-[everyone] Yeah! -[Paula] Yeah?
Speed dating has helped me
move past my situation with Yash.
I am just moving forward now.
If someone is not interested in me,
then I don't wanna waste my time
trying to build something with them.
I don't feel like Yash was super interested in me...
So, I have an open mind
and I am moving forward.
[both squealing]
-I love you! -[both laughing]
[Jazz sighing]
[Jaclyn] Well, that was an interesting night.
I know.
[laughing]
It's nice not talking to a stranger.
[Jaclyn] Adiós, puchachos.
All right, so...
How was that for you?
That was pretty good.
I mean, I'm a little disappointed...
I liked the guy, Kristian, I though the was pretty cute.
[Jazz] Don't be nervous!
He was really cute.
When he came over to talk to me,
I'm not gonna lie, I was kinda disappointed
with his energy and his vibe.
I also kind of...
vibe-wise, didn't really connect with him that much.
But some of the ladies there,
or female-presenting people,
I did really connect with and...
[Jaclyn] Me, too.
Yeah, they were super sweet
and I was like, "Oh, wow.
Like, you're really cool.
Like, this is amazing..."
-I don't know, it was really fun. -I agree.
There were some really nice
female-identifying people there.
I haven't dated a lot of girls in my life.
So, this speed dating event really showed me
that, you know, maybe I should pursue women
because I connected with the women at the event more than the men.
[sighing]
I just don't think I like men.
[giggling] No. I'm kidding.
You know, I felt really confident tonight.
In the past, I have experienced
a lot of social anxiety,
and I feel like the more I grow up,
the more I'm overcoming it.
I feel like I'm not gonna be nervous anymore
when I talk to people
I'm just gonna be my true, authentic self.
I feel like I sound like a pageant queen right now.
I'm like, "I enter with optimism
and the hope that I will find someone.
I know that by being the true version of me,
I will meet the lover of my life!"
And that's it.
I do have a lot to tell my parents
about my future at Harvard.
There's something I wanted to talk to both of you about.
I really am just nervous
that my parents are gonna be broken-hearted
by me even considering this as an option.
[Jeanette] What? What do you mean?
-[Greg] Hmm... -[Jazz] Not quite.
I'll let you off the hook.
Oh! I keep...
-[Greg] You ready? -Mmm-hmm.
[groaning]
Got ya.
-Oh, I got you. -Okay, tips. Tips count.
-You guys are so competitive. -[Jazz] Let's just play this.
I would never play that game.
I'm sucky at it.
Good game, good game.
-I'll shuffle these. -I love watching--
I love watching your bridges,
mine aren't as good as yours.
[Greg] Oh, look at you. Card show.
That's the best I can do.
I think I hear some boys wanting in, too.
[brother calling out indistinctly]
-All right. -Are we gonna deal them in or--
-Wassup? -You wanna play?
-We have plans. -We just started.
We just started.
[Jeanette and Jazz] Oh...
I'm like, about to put my socks on and everything.
[Sander] We're going out!
Jazz is outdating us right now,
so, like, we gotta pick up our game.
Didn't you just do speed dating, too?
Yes, I did.
-What was that like? -What is speed dating?
It was really cool 'cause everyone there
was sexually fluid
and you got to mingle with not just...
men but with women as well.
Like, it was a whole array of people.
And it was interesting 'cause I haven't had
as much experience dating women,
but the women were really cool.
I think I kinda bonded with some of the women
more so than some of the men that were there.
And when people came over I would be like,
"Hey, handsome!" or "Hey, beautiful."
-[Jeanette] Ooh... -Like, I was like...
a little flirty.
So, was speed dating a success?
It was a success in terms of
me discovering more about myself
and how confident and strong I can be.
Um, but in terms of finding someone...
I'm mostly attracted to people based off their personality
and in three minutes you can't really get a grasp
of someone's personality.
It's kind of... It's hard, it's hard.
I think I'm giving up on dating in Florida.
I'm gonna be living in Cambridge
for a couple months anyway,
and that's where my primary home is at,
so I'm really looking forward
to taking this dating app to Massachusetts.
And hopefully, I'll meet someone there
who's local,
and I'll fall in love.
So, where are you guys going tonight?
Well, that's for us to know
and you to look up on 'Find My Kids'.
-'Find My Kids'? -[laughing]
-Bye! -Bye, be safe.
-Good luck in your game. -Have fun.
Let's see...
What's wild?
-Sevens are wild. -Okay.
[Jazz] I do have a lot going on in my mind
and about my future at Harvard.
I definitely feel like I have to tell my parents about it.
I'm just hoping that
it doesn't damper the mood in any way.
Would you say, "Kings, queens and in-betweens"?
-Yes. -That's a cute phrase.
[Jazz] I really am just nervous
that my parents are gonna be broken-hearted
by me even considering this as an option.
[inhaling deeply, sighing]
I am just really stressed out right now.
-What's the score so far? -[Jeanette] Don't even!
Dad's in the lead with 9, then me with 11
then Mom with 53.
[exhaling dramatically]
[Jazz] All right, um...
[Greg] Throwing down the king!
[Jazz] There's something I wanted to talk to both of you about.
Um...
I'm a little scared,
I don't wanna disappoint either of you,
but I have thought about it and...
I don't know, there's a possibility that...
I might not go back to school after this semester
or I may take a gap year
to figure things out.
-[Jeanette] What? -[Greg] Wait, what?
[Jeanette] What do you mean?
[Jazz] We have been through this before.
[Jeanette] And I can't believe this is happening again.
But I know that Harvard is the best place for her
at this point in time in her life.
She'd be making a huge mistake
if she doesn't continue her education.
[Jazz] This fall semester I'm doing it, 100%.
However, before spring semester,
if I wanna take more time off, I can.
Now I'm stressed out because you don't have a plan B.
A is Harvard, B is...
Well, I think there are so many options
and so many paths for me.
And I could see myself being successful without Harvard.
Um, and...
Obviously, I already kind of have a career
as an LGBTQIA+ activist,
and I can continue leading on that
and helping people
and still, you know, having a job doing that.
-So... -You're not there yet.
But aren't you going to school to...
I mean, you're taking classes...
[Jazz] Not for myself, yeah.
...to get some knowledge and to get skills.
-Absolutely. -And to hone skills
that you may have already, refine them.
Most of these professors are world-renowned professors.
[Jazz] I know.
[Greg] We're listening.
If she's having reservations,
we definitely wanna hear her out.
But very few people are given that opportunity
to go to Harvard,
so she should see it out.
[Jazz] If things don't work out,
I just wanted to let you both know
that it was on my mind that, you know,
I may not finish my education there.
I know this is really hard,
but I want you to think deeply about this, okay?
Okay...
I could tell my parents are pissed off.
Even though they know it's my life
and that I'm the one who has to make decisions
about what path they take,
I know they really want to see me graduate
and get that degree.
But not every path requires a degree
and an education.
I don't know what to do.
Jazz, you excited to leave?
Yeah. [whooping weakly]
The day has come and Jazz is going back to Harvard.
Now that we're here, in Cambridge,
How do you feel about your long-term view of school?
[Jazz] I've been gifted this incredible opportunity to go to Harvard.
But at the same time,
I know that it's not the only life path I could take.
I've a reservation for two under the name Jazz.
Tonight is a special night.
Because I am going on a date with Erin.
And I'm gonna be meeting her for the first time and...
I feel all the jitters.
I haven't kissed someone in so long, it's been, like, years for me.
So, I get a message
from the Harvard administration
saying that someone wanted to kill me.
You can get used to being hated on.
Like, that's fine, I have a thick skin.
I don't care what people think.
But when someone threatens to kill you
and they know where you live
and what school you attend,
that's a whole different thing.
And it's terrifying.
Someone wants to kill me.
Just for being transgender.
-Look at me. -Okay.
This is serious.
You live in a world with a lot of hate.
And you're increasing your chances
of that hate coming towards you.
I see them out with the trans flags
in this world where transgender people
aren't accepted like they should be.
And I'm absolutely terrified.
I just need to get over there.
[woman] Everybody, come on!