1 00:00:12,045 --> 00:00:14,915 [dramatic music] 2 00:00:15,048 --> 00:00:22,122 ♪ ♪ 3 00:00:22,256 --> 00:00:25,459 - To start from scratch and make a rod, 4 00:00:25,592 --> 00:00:28,962 the raft, the fishnet to get food out of the water 5 00:00:29,096 --> 00:00:31,198 is such a satisfactory feeling. 6 00:00:31,331 --> 00:00:33,467 Mmm, mmm, mmm. 7 00:00:33,600 --> 00:00:35,836 Oh, holy [bleep], it's huge. 8 00:00:35,969 --> 00:00:38,939 [laughs] Yes! 9 00:00:39,072 --> 00:00:40,507 Oh, my God, look at all this roe. 10 00:00:40,641 --> 00:00:42,609 Do have to eat that roe tonight. 11 00:00:42,743 --> 00:00:44,678 [coughs] [gags] 12 00:00:44,811 --> 00:00:46,413 - Oh, my gosh. 13 00:00:46,546 --> 00:00:48,782 Moose poop-- it's really fresh. 14 00:00:48,916 --> 00:00:51,652 If I could go get a moose, then I'd be set. 15 00:00:51,785 --> 00:00:54,288 - Just saw a black bear in the grass there. 16 00:00:54,421 --> 00:00:55,656 There it is, right there. 17 00:00:55,789 --> 00:00:59,326 ♪ ♪ 18 00:00:59,459 --> 00:01:01,628 [bleep]. Can't believe I missed. 19 00:01:01,762 --> 00:01:03,697 You can't hit a shot you don't take though. 20 00:01:03,830 --> 00:01:05,699 - No, no, no, no, no. 21 00:01:05,832 --> 00:01:08,435 My quiver came off my bow. 22 00:01:08,568 --> 00:01:12,139 I just-- [bleep]. 23 00:01:12,272 --> 00:01:13,874 That's all my arrows. 24 00:01:14,007 --> 00:01:15,809 It's the biggest mistake of my life, 25 00:01:15,943 --> 00:01:17,544 and it ain't OK to give up. 26 00:01:17,678 --> 00:01:19,112 - Now there's just a wave of nausea 27 00:01:19,246 --> 00:01:21,081 rushed over me. 28 00:01:21,214 --> 00:01:23,417 Oh, what the [bleep]? 29 00:01:23,550 --> 00:01:28,288 Oh, God. [breathing deeply] 30 00:01:28,422 --> 00:01:31,692 [retches] Oh, I can't do this. 31 00:01:32,960 --> 00:01:38,699 ♪ ♪ 32 00:01:38,832 --> 00:01:40,600 - I'm gonna do this, man. 33 00:01:40,734 --> 00:01:42,235 I'm gonna do this. 34 00:01:42,369 --> 00:01:45,072 I'm gonna fight this thing out till the last breath. 35 00:01:45,205 --> 00:01:48,342 ♪ ♪ 36 00:01:48,475 --> 00:01:51,511 OK, game on. 37 00:01:51,645 --> 00:01:52,746 [bear grunts] 38 00:01:52,879 --> 00:01:54,181 ♪ ♪ 39 00:01:54,314 --> 00:01:55,816 - I got him. 40 00:01:55,949 --> 00:01:58,118 narrator: In "Alone's" most remote location yet... 41 00:01:58,251 --> 00:02:00,153 - Yeah! 42 00:02:00,287 --> 00:02:01,622 narrator: Ten participants set out 43 00:02:01,755 --> 00:02:03,190 to survive at all costs... 44 00:02:03,323 --> 00:02:05,292 - God! - My goal is to stay alive. 45 00:02:05,425 --> 00:02:07,094 ♪ ♪ 46 00:02:07,227 --> 00:02:09,296 - [inhales sharply] Ugh! 47 00:02:09,429 --> 00:02:11,732 narrator: Battling extreme isolation... 48 00:02:11,865 --> 00:02:13,333 - There is no camera crews. 49 00:02:13,467 --> 00:02:15,469 You are really alone. 50 00:02:15,602 --> 00:02:16,870 - It'll eat at you, tear you up. 51 00:02:17,004 --> 00:02:19,206 - God, why? - It's a battle. 52 00:02:19,339 --> 00:02:20,273 Nobody ever comes out the same. 53 00:02:20,407 --> 00:02:22,642 - Oh, man. - It'd be impossible to. 54 00:02:22,776 --> 00:02:24,578 narrator: And fierce predators. 55 00:02:24,711 --> 00:02:25,812 - It's a big bear. 56 00:02:25,946 --> 00:02:28,715 It was right outside my shelter. 57 00:02:28,849 --> 00:02:31,151 - Predators like that damn sure gonna kill you. 58 00:02:31,284 --> 00:02:32,352 - Please don't rip my face off. 59 00:02:32,486 --> 00:02:33,620 [marten growling] 60 00:02:33,754 --> 00:02:36,023 He beat the hell out of me. 61 00:02:36,156 --> 00:02:37,424 narrator: They'll endure merciless wind... 62 00:02:37,557 --> 00:02:40,527 - Been over 60 hours, and it has not let up. 63 00:02:40,660 --> 00:02:43,263 - I can hear the trees falling down around me. 64 00:02:43,397 --> 00:02:45,532 narrator: And bitter cold. 65 00:02:45,666 --> 00:02:48,835 - This whole place just turned into a frozen hill. 66 00:02:48,969 --> 00:02:50,470 narrator: Last one standing... 67 00:02:50,604 --> 00:02:52,439 - It's a moose, wow! 68 00:02:52,572 --> 00:02:56,009 - Whoo-hoo-hoo! - No, no! 69 00:02:56,143 --> 00:02:57,477 narrator: Wins. 70 00:02:57,611 --> 00:03:04,418 ♪ ♪ 71 00:03:20,600 --> 00:03:22,803 - [chuckles] 72 00:03:22,936 --> 00:03:26,273 Oh, God. 73 00:03:26,406 --> 00:03:28,909 [retches] [grunts] 74 00:03:38,618 --> 00:03:40,654 Feeling a bit better this morning. 75 00:03:40,787 --> 00:03:42,289 My back's still stiff, 76 00:03:42,422 --> 00:03:44,257 but I'm not extremely nauseated. 77 00:03:46,760 --> 00:03:48,128 It's day 10. 78 00:03:50,297 --> 00:03:51,465 Today is my birthday. 79 00:03:53,133 --> 00:03:54,501 Happy birthday. 80 00:03:57,738 --> 00:04:01,274 I was dreaming of my son, and it woke me up. 81 00:04:01,408 --> 00:04:03,276 It was a good dream. It wasn't a nightmare. 82 00:04:03,410 --> 00:04:04,377 It was a good dream. 83 00:04:06,880 --> 00:04:08,515 I had a dream he had made achievements 84 00:04:08,648 --> 00:04:09,883 that he hasn't made yet... 85 00:04:10,016 --> 00:04:11,651 ♪ ♪ 86 00:04:11,785 --> 00:04:13,987 And I was happy I got to see him. 87 00:04:14,121 --> 00:04:17,991 I got to hear his little voice, hold his little hand. 88 00:04:18,125 --> 00:04:21,762 ♪ ♪ 89 00:04:21,895 --> 00:04:24,131 I guess I've done enough procrastinating. 90 00:04:24,264 --> 00:04:27,434 Get some pants on, get out from this sleeping bag. 91 00:04:27,567 --> 00:04:32,572 ♪ ♪ 92 00:04:32,706 --> 00:04:35,742 Instead of spending my days actively looking for meat, 93 00:04:35,876 --> 00:04:38,945 I'll actively forage and just have my bow. 94 00:04:39,079 --> 00:04:40,280 ♪ ♪ 95 00:04:40,413 --> 00:04:42,549 I'm just glad I'm not sick. 96 00:04:42,682 --> 00:04:46,786 I was dry heaving, and bile was coming up. 97 00:04:46,920 --> 00:04:48,321 Man, that had me scared. 98 00:04:48,455 --> 00:04:50,357 I was thinking, my God, I ate this bird. 99 00:04:50,490 --> 00:04:53,660 It made me sick. Now I'm done, you know? 100 00:04:53,794 --> 00:04:56,763 I don't know what it was, but I made it through that. 101 00:04:56,897 --> 00:04:59,166 Feeling pretty good. 102 00:04:59,299 --> 00:05:01,268 I'd really like to know what the moose 103 00:05:01,401 --> 00:05:03,436 are grazing on right now. 104 00:05:03,570 --> 00:05:06,740 ♪ ♪ 105 00:05:06,873 --> 00:05:08,542 It's the first birthday I've been alone 106 00:05:08,675 --> 00:05:11,711 since I met my wife. 107 00:05:11,845 --> 00:05:15,348 She always has a way of making my birthday special for me, 108 00:05:15,482 --> 00:05:18,451 whether it's just a card or a special dinner. 109 00:05:18,585 --> 00:05:21,588 It doesn't have to be some big, immaculate gift-- 110 00:05:21,721 --> 00:05:24,257 not for me. I'm a simple person, really. 111 00:05:25,926 --> 00:05:27,894 Maybe she'll conjure something up for me. 112 00:05:35,902 --> 00:05:37,204 There's a grouse over there. 113 00:05:37,337 --> 00:05:39,472 I just heard it. 114 00:05:39,606 --> 00:05:46,379 ♪ ♪ 115 00:05:52,886 --> 00:05:55,155 [beep]. I missed. 116 00:05:55,288 --> 00:06:02,062 ♪ ♪ 117 00:06:09,369 --> 00:06:11,037 I hit it. 118 00:06:11,171 --> 00:06:13,106 I hit it, but it flew off. 119 00:06:13,240 --> 00:06:14,541 [bleep]. 120 00:06:14,674 --> 00:06:16,876 ♪ ♪ 121 00:06:17,010 --> 00:06:19,946 I'm gonna see about maybe tracking him down. 122 00:06:20,080 --> 00:06:21,581 ♪ ♪ 123 00:06:21,715 --> 00:06:24,451 I don't know if it's wounded or not. 124 00:06:24,584 --> 00:06:30,423 ♪ ♪ 125 00:06:30,557 --> 00:06:32,259 Wow, there it is. Awesome. 126 00:06:32,392 --> 00:06:39,165 ♪ ♪ 127 00:06:41,001 --> 00:06:43,403 Hell, yeah. Happy birthday, Mikey. 128 00:06:45,205 --> 00:06:46,973 I got a bird, but I'm down an arrow. 129 00:06:48,908 --> 00:06:50,210 I think Hazel sent this bird. 130 00:06:52,112 --> 00:06:55,215 I told you she'd take care of me for my birthday. 131 00:06:55,348 --> 00:07:02,122 ♪ ♪ 132 00:07:31,251 --> 00:07:33,453 - Mm, it's like 133 00:07:33,586 --> 00:07:34,888 there's a party going on in my mouth, 134 00:07:35,021 --> 00:07:37,457 and everyone's invited. 135 00:07:37,590 --> 00:07:40,226 No, not really. 136 00:07:40,360 --> 00:07:43,396 ♪ ♪ 137 00:07:43,530 --> 00:07:45,999 The danger of not eating for periods of time 138 00:07:46,132 --> 00:07:48,234 is your stomach loses its ability 139 00:07:48,368 --> 00:07:50,970 to digest food properly, 140 00:07:51,104 --> 00:07:52,639 so I'm trying to make sure I eat something 141 00:07:52,772 --> 00:07:55,241 every day, like, whether it's a handful of berries 142 00:07:55,375 --> 00:07:57,110 or a little bit of fungus, 143 00:07:57,243 --> 00:08:00,714 just something for my gut to work on. 144 00:08:00,847 --> 00:08:02,282 I just don't want to take any chances of getting sick 145 00:08:02,415 --> 00:08:03,883 over something stupid. 146 00:08:12,826 --> 00:08:14,694 But I'm grateful for it. 147 00:08:14,828 --> 00:08:17,530 ♪ ♪ 148 00:08:17,664 --> 00:08:21,267 I haven't caught a fish in six days, 149 00:08:21,401 --> 00:08:25,271 but yesterday, I set up some snares. 150 00:08:25,405 --> 00:08:27,841 It's a passive way of getting food. 151 00:08:27,974 --> 00:08:30,744 It's working 24 hours a day. 152 00:08:30,877 --> 00:08:34,014 So right now, my plan is working on my shelter. 153 00:08:34,147 --> 00:08:35,715 ♪ ♪ 154 00:08:35,849 --> 00:08:39,919 I only have moss about up to here 155 00:08:40,053 --> 00:08:41,821 so the smoke can go out the top. 156 00:08:41,955 --> 00:08:45,091 Small, simple, cozy, and warm. 157 00:08:45,225 --> 00:08:46,893 That's the plan, anyways. 158 00:08:47,026 --> 00:08:49,562 ♪ ♪ 159 00:08:49,696 --> 00:08:51,464 My overall survival philosophy 160 00:08:51,598 --> 00:08:54,968 is to keep things as simple as possible, 161 00:08:55,101 --> 00:08:57,937 disrupt the land as little as possible, 162 00:08:58,071 --> 00:08:59,973 and become in tune with the land 163 00:09:00,106 --> 00:09:03,276 as much as you can, and what's been nice 164 00:09:03,410 --> 00:09:05,311 about this shelter is everything I've needed 165 00:09:05,445 --> 00:09:08,815 has been within 10 yards of this spot. 166 00:09:08,948 --> 00:09:13,186 I'm gonna tie off a piece like this, 167 00:09:13,319 --> 00:09:14,721 and then I'll just stack sticks from there 168 00:09:14,854 --> 00:09:16,923 to here on the outside 169 00:09:17,056 --> 00:09:19,893 and give it a bit more structural support. 170 00:09:20,026 --> 00:09:22,028 I was inspired to make tipi by speaking 171 00:09:22,162 --> 00:09:24,397 with some of the Woodland Cree elders 172 00:09:24,531 --> 00:09:27,267 that we met at orientation. 173 00:09:27,400 --> 00:09:29,569 You guys know what time it is? 174 00:09:29,702 --> 00:09:32,005 It's moss time. 175 00:09:32,138 --> 00:09:34,507 I've seen too many times in the past shows 176 00:09:34,641 --> 00:09:38,244 people who spend too much time on complex shelters, 177 00:09:38,378 --> 00:09:40,947 blowing themselves out early with calories. 178 00:09:41,080 --> 00:09:42,382 I'm just gonna tarp the section 179 00:09:42,515 --> 00:09:44,317 I'm sleeping under 'cause I bet you this thing 180 00:09:44,451 --> 00:09:45,718 is pretty much waterproof. 181 00:09:45,852 --> 00:09:47,220 ♪ ♪ 182 00:09:47,353 --> 00:09:49,456 Tipis are simple and effective structures 183 00:09:49,589 --> 00:09:52,425 because you need very little to make them, 184 00:09:52,559 --> 00:09:56,129 and once they're constructed, they're rock solid. 185 00:09:56,262 --> 00:09:58,798 So yeah, that's it. 186 00:09:58,932 --> 00:10:02,969 Permanent shelter completed. 187 00:10:03,102 --> 00:10:03,870 Boom. 188 00:10:07,040 --> 00:10:10,577 ♪ ♪ 189 00:10:10,710 --> 00:10:14,080 This is probably my biggest caloric expenditure, 190 00:10:14,214 --> 00:10:15,982 so now I need 191 00:10:16,116 --> 00:10:20,086 to procure food 192 00:10:20,220 --> 00:10:23,156 and do a little small game hunting. 193 00:10:23,289 --> 00:10:26,426 I'm a big person, and I need to eat, 194 00:10:26,559 --> 00:10:29,896 or my time here is gonna be brief. 195 00:10:35,268 --> 00:10:38,171 Whoa! Holy [bleep]. 196 00:10:40,073 --> 00:10:42,142 There's a pine marten in my snare, 197 00:10:42,275 --> 00:10:44,410 and he's growling at me. 198 00:10:44,544 --> 00:10:46,813 [marten growling] 199 00:10:46,946 --> 00:10:50,083 I thought it was a rabbit. 200 00:10:50,216 --> 00:10:51,484 Yeah, he's pissed. 201 00:10:51,618 --> 00:10:54,020 ♪ ♪ 202 00:10:54,154 --> 00:10:56,723 We're not allowed to keep marten, 203 00:10:56,856 --> 00:10:59,325 so I'm gonna do my best to try to release him. 204 00:10:59,459 --> 00:11:00,793 I mean, I don't know what's gonna happen, 205 00:11:00,927 --> 00:11:03,329 but I'm gonna throw my winter jacket over him 206 00:11:03,463 --> 00:11:05,899 and just try to cut the snare off the tree. 207 00:11:06,032 --> 00:11:08,434 He's defending his life, man. Like, he will bite. 208 00:11:08,568 --> 00:11:10,904 They're vicious little [bleep]. 209 00:11:11,037 --> 00:11:13,406 Let me get a look at where this snare is. 210 00:11:13,540 --> 00:11:16,075 [bleep]. Mercy. 211 00:11:16,209 --> 00:11:19,746 [marten growling] 212 00:11:19,879 --> 00:11:22,949 Where is the snare? Okay, I see it. 213 00:11:23,082 --> 00:11:25,785 Let me cut it. You're almost free. 214 00:11:25,919 --> 00:11:27,654 You're almost free. [marten growling] 215 00:11:27,787 --> 00:11:29,989 OK, stay there, stay there. 216 00:11:30,123 --> 00:11:32,992 Stay right there, my friend. 217 00:11:33,126 --> 00:11:36,829 Please don't rip my face off. Holy [bleep]. 218 00:11:36,963 --> 00:11:41,067 ♪ ♪ 219 00:11:42,502 --> 00:11:45,905 [marten growling] 220 00:11:46,039 --> 00:11:48,708 - I'm gonna try to come and help you, my friend. 221 00:11:48,841 --> 00:11:50,543 Please don't rip my face off. 222 00:11:50,677 --> 00:11:53,079 [dramatic music] 223 00:11:53,212 --> 00:11:55,582 Where is the snare? OK, I see it. 224 00:11:55,715 --> 00:11:58,585 Let me cut it. You're almost free. 225 00:11:58,718 --> 00:12:00,153 You're almost free. 226 00:12:00,286 --> 00:12:02,655 Stay right there, my friend. [marten growling] 227 00:12:02,789 --> 00:12:04,824 You're free. You're free. 228 00:12:04,958 --> 00:12:08,094 Whoo-hoo! Yeah! 229 00:12:09,996 --> 00:12:13,166 Oh, awesome. 230 00:12:13,299 --> 00:12:14,701 ♪ ♪ 231 00:12:14,834 --> 00:12:17,637 That poor little guy, man. 232 00:12:17,770 --> 00:12:20,974 He just wanted to get the heck out of dodge. 233 00:12:21,107 --> 00:12:22,742 He's still got the noose around his neck, 234 00:12:22,875 --> 00:12:25,278 but there's nothing-- there's nothing holding it, 235 00:12:25,411 --> 00:12:28,481 so he's gonna be fine. 236 00:12:28,615 --> 00:12:31,150 [sighs] 237 00:12:31,284 --> 00:12:32,352 That feels good. 238 00:12:32,485 --> 00:12:34,354 ♪ ♪ 239 00:12:34,487 --> 00:12:36,189 When you're using these types of traps, 240 00:12:36,322 --> 00:12:38,558 you always have to remember that you can catch 241 00:12:38,691 --> 00:12:41,027 other animals you may not be able to keep, 242 00:12:41,160 --> 00:12:43,062 so you'd have to release them. 243 00:12:43,196 --> 00:12:44,998 I'm gonna take down all my snares. 244 00:12:45,131 --> 00:12:46,432 I haven't seen any rabbits. 245 00:12:46,566 --> 00:12:48,368 I haven't seen any rabbit sign. 246 00:12:48,501 --> 00:12:50,136 I don't want to catch him again, 247 00:12:50,270 --> 00:12:52,038 and I'm just gonna cut 'em all down 248 00:12:52,171 --> 00:12:53,206 because they're just so indiscriminate. 249 00:12:53,339 --> 00:12:54,874 ♪ ♪ 250 00:12:55,008 --> 00:12:56,743 Harvesting animals ethically, for me, 251 00:12:56,876 --> 00:12:58,578 is very important because I've always had 252 00:12:58,711 --> 00:13:00,113 a great respect for animals. 253 00:13:00,246 --> 00:13:01,748 ♪ ♪ 254 00:13:01,881 --> 00:13:03,916 Being an ethical hunter means making choices 255 00:13:04,050 --> 00:13:07,620 that are in the animal's best interests. 256 00:13:07,754 --> 00:13:09,455 So I feel good letting him go, 257 00:13:09,589 --> 00:13:12,125 and I'm happy to wait until the snow, 258 00:13:12,258 --> 00:13:13,993 if I'm here that long, to see 259 00:13:14,127 --> 00:13:15,795 where the rabbits really are moving, 260 00:13:15,928 --> 00:13:18,364 and I can set snares up accordingly. 261 00:13:18,498 --> 00:13:20,967 But until then, I'm gonna focus on fish 262 00:13:21,067 --> 00:13:24,504 as my primary source of food. 263 00:13:24,637 --> 00:13:26,005 I did not like that, man. 264 00:13:26,139 --> 00:13:29,742 I did not like that poor thing suffering in that snare. 265 00:13:29,876 --> 00:13:31,878 [sighs] OK. 266 00:13:33,613 --> 00:13:40,653 ♪ ♪ 267 00:13:46,359 --> 00:13:49,462 - I got grouse, but I lost an arrow. 268 00:13:49,595 --> 00:13:54,233 So I'm gonna try to make an arrow out of this alder. 269 00:13:54,367 --> 00:13:55,601 Don't judge too harshly. 270 00:13:55,735 --> 00:13:57,370 This is the first time I've ever done this, 271 00:13:57,503 --> 00:14:00,406 and I don't even know if I'm doing what I'm supposed to. 272 00:14:00,540 --> 00:14:03,142 So I did find a cool, little rock 273 00:14:03,276 --> 00:14:06,979 with a little divot in it right here. 274 00:14:07,113 --> 00:14:09,382 May make peeling the bark off of 'em 275 00:14:09,515 --> 00:14:12,318 a little bit easier. Oh, yeah. 276 00:14:12,452 --> 00:14:13,653 Look at that. 277 00:14:13,786 --> 00:14:18,324 ♪ ♪ 278 00:14:18,458 --> 00:14:21,027 I miss my family. 279 00:14:21,160 --> 00:14:23,930 I miss Hazel and the kids. 280 00:14:24,063 --> 00:14:26,332 I miss my son, Nikolai. 281 00:14:26,466 --> 00:14:29,602 ♪ ♪ 282 00:14:29,736 --> 00:14:33,773 I'm really thankful for that dream with my son. 283 00:14:38,778 --> 00:14:42,081 In my dream, he was overcoming challenges 284 00:14:42,215 --> 00:14:43,850 that he faces... 285 00:14:46,018 --> 00:14:48,454 And he spoke to me, 286 00:14:48,588 --> 00:14:50,723 and it wasn't, you know, 287 00:14:50,857 --> 00:14:54,794 "Oh, Daddy, you can do this," or anything like that. 288 00:14:54,927 --> 00:14:56,396 He just spoke. 289 00:14:56,529 --> 00:14:59,732 ♪ ♪ 290 00:14:59,866 --> 00:15:03,803 People, when you tell your kids to be quiet, 291 00:15:03,936 --> 00:15:06,239 go on somewhere, or something like that... 292 00:15:06,372 --> 00:15:10,610 ♪ ♪ 293 00:15:10,743 --> 00:15:13,946 Just think that somewhere 294 00:15:14,080 --> 00:15:16,249 there's a kid that can't speak. 295 00:15:16,382 --> 00:15:18,985 ♪ ♪ 296 00:15:19,118 --> 00:15:20,787 I want nothing more than to have 297 00:15:20,920 --> 00:15:22,321 a stupid little conversation 298 00:15:22,455 --> 00:15:24,791 with my son that's just meaningless. 299 00:15:24,924 --> 00:15:27,860 ♪ ♪ 300 00:15:27,994 --> 00:15:31,664 My wife, who shows that boy so much love, 301 00:15:31,798 --> 00:15:33,366 never gets to hear, "I love you, Mama." 302 00:15:33,499 --> 00:15:36,502 ♪ ♪ 303 00:15:36,636 --> 00:15:38,938 I'm struggling out here, and I have a tap-out button. 304 00:15:39,071 --> 00:15:41,974 ♪ ♪ 305 00:15:42,108 --> 00:15:43,142 There's not a single day of his life 306 00:15:43,276 --> 00:15:44,510 he doesn't struggle. 307 00:15:44,644 --> 00:15:47,380 ♪ ♪ 308 00:15:47,513 --> 00:15:48,848 There are these kids-- 309 00:15:48,981 --> 00:15:51,818 and, you know, some of them are even adults-- 310 00:15:51,951 --> 00:15:54,287 that drive around in these jacked up trucks 311 00:15:54,420 --> 00:15:56,756 or these lowrider cars and everything else, 312 00:15:56,889 --> 00:15:59,158 and they're super loud... 313 00:15:59,292 --> 00:16:01,427 ♪ ♪ 314 00:16:01,561 --> 00:16:04,397 And they really think that they're cool, 315 00:16:04,530 --> 00:16:07,133 but they're not, 316 00:16:07,266 --> 00:16:10,870 and my son and the millions of people 317 00:16:11,003 --> 00:16:13,606 with autism out there, 318 00:16:13,739 --> 00:16:16,909 they can't handle that. 319 00:16:17,043 --> 00:16:19,545 Please just be respectful about the people around you. 320 00:16:19,679 --> 00:16:22,548 ♪ ♪ 321 00:16:22,682 --> 00:16:26,786 I had no idea what autism was until he was diagnosed, 322 00:16:26,919 --> 00:16:29,755 and it still took years to understand what it was. 323 00:16:29,889 --> 00:16:32,124 ♪ ♪ 324 00:16:32,258 --> 00:16:33,926 A good friend of mine told me one time 325 00:16:34,060 --> 00:16:35,628 that there's a difference 326 00:16:35,761 --> 00:16:38,331 between ignorance and stupidity. 327 00:16:38,464 --> 00:16:40,700 Ignorance can be fixed. 328 00:16:40,833 --> 00:16:43,669 Stupidity can't be fixed. 329 00:16:43,803 --> 00:16:47,540 Before I found out my son had autism, I was ignorant. 330 00:16:47,673 --> 00:16:49,508 ♪ ♪ 331 00:16:49,642 --> 00:16:51,410 I'm not ignorant anymore. 332 00:16:51,544 --> 00:16:53,913 ♪ ♪ 333 00:16:54,046 --> 00:16:57,049 That's what I'm trying to do while I'm out here-- 334 00:16:57,183 --> 00:16:59,619 have a greater respect for my surroundings. 335 00:16:59,752 --> 00:17:03,923 ♪ ♪ 336 00:17:04,056 --> 00:17:06,092 I love you all, and I miss you all, 337 00:17:06,225 --> 00:17:07,927 and I just wanted you guys to get the full effect 338 00:17:08,060 --> 00:17:11,464 of what I'm seeing here. 339 00:17:11,597 --> 00:17:14,967 Look at that sky. 340 00:17:15,101 --> 00:17:16,669 That's something off a painting. 341 00:17:19,071 --> 00:17:20,706 Good night, Nikolai. 342 00:17:20,840 --> 00:17:23,242 I love you, and I miss you, buddy. 343 00:17:23,376 --> 00:17:24,544 I miss you with all my heart. 344 00:17:31,751 --> 00:17:34,620 [dramatic music] 345 00:17:34,754 --> 00:17:40,860 ♪ ♪ 346 00:17:40,993 --> 00:17:42,562 - Oh, holy cow, look at that. 347 00:17:42,695 --> 00:17:44,096 I never even noticed that before. 348 00:17:47,266 --> 00:17:48,534 Old wasp nest. 349 00:17:50,169 --> 00:17:52,605 That's pretty dang cool. 350 00:17:52,738 --> 00:17:55,541 Man, you talk about grade A fire starter. 351 00:17:57,243 --> 00:17:59,612 Should I save that? That'd be good. 352 00:17:59,745 --> 00:18:02,548 ♪ ♪ 353 00:18:02,682 --> 00:18:05,584 Today, I'm gonna get to work making some arrows. 354 00:18:05,718 --> 00:18:07,620 That's number one. 355 00:18:07,753 --> 00:18:10,323 My snares have not been working, 356 00:18:10,456 --> 00:18:14,160 and so I have not collected any small game at all 357 00:18:14,293 --> 00:18:18,030 since the loss of my arrows. I'm here to hunt. 358 00:18:18,164 --> 00:18:20,166 And if I can't win this thing hunting, 359 00:18:20,299 --> 00:18:22,168 then I just won't win this thing. 360 00:18:22,301 --> 00:18:23,736 ♪ ♪ 361 00:18:23,869 --> 00:18:26,072 I was so heartbroken when I lost those arrows, 362 00:18:26,205 --> 00:18:28,841 and I still am, but at the end of the day, 363 00:18:28,975 --> 00:18:31,644 I'm gonna fight this thing out to the last [bleep] breath. 364 00:18:31,777 --> 00:18:33,779 ♪ ♪ 365 00:18:33,913 --> 00:18:37,149 As a hunter, finding myself in a situation 366 00:18:37,283 --> 00:18:40,886 where my greatest asset is now 367 00:18:41,020 --> 00:18:45,191 all but gone is frustrating. 368 00:18:45,324 --> 00:18:48,327 I figure it's about time I use this bucket 369 00:18:48,461 --> 00:18:51,630 maybe for the buckets most intended purpose, 370 00:18:51,764 --> 00:18:52,898 as a chair. 371 00:18:53,032 --> 00:18:54,934 ♪ ♪ 372 00:18:55,034 --> 00:18:59,271 So I'm gonna do something that I've never done, 373 00:18:59,405 --> 00:19:02,141 and, God, I hope it works. I hope I can do it. 374 00:19:02,274 --> 00:19:03,909 I put some snare wire 375 00:19:04,043 --> 00:19:06,312 on my grouse-killing broadhead. 376 00:19:06,445 --> 00:19:08,214 I put a little notch in the front there 377 00:19:08,347 --> 00:19:10,149 so it would want to stick. 378 00:19:10,282 --> 00:19:12,918 Getting that weight up front does a lot, 379 00:19:13,052 --> 00:19:15,187 number one, for penetration. 380 00:19:15,321 --> 00:19:17,890 Number two, it makes it fly a lot straighter, I think. 381 00:19:19,291 --> 00:19:21,827 Need to thin it down a little more down here, 382 00:19:21,961 --> 00:19:25,498 but for the most part, it's a pretty good arrow. 383 00:19:25,631 --> 00:19:31,504 ♪ ♪ 384 00:19:31,637 --> 00:19:36,609 OK, I got these grouse feathers 385 00:19:36,742 --> 00:19:39,412 and fishing line, 386 00:19:39,545 --> 00:19:42,348 and I rubbed some charcoal on there just for looks. 387 00:19:42,481 --> 00:19:43,983 ♪ ♪ 388 00:19:44,116 --> 00:19:47,553 Feathers on, a little charcoal decoration. 389 00:19:47,686 --> 00:19:50,389 I dig it. I dig it. 390 00:19:50,523 --> 00:19:52,658 ♪ ♪ 391 00:19:52,792 --> 00:19:56,796 OK, I'm down but not out. 392 00:19:56,929 --> 00:19:58,230 I'm gonna set up a target. 393 00:19:58,364 --> 00:20:00,332 ♪ ♪ 394 00:20:00,466 --> 00:20:04,503 I'm surviving off of my pure determination 395 00:20:04,637 --> 00:20:06,772 because I refuse to quit. 396 00:20:06,906 --> 00:20:08,374 ♪ ♪ 397 00:20:08,507 --> 00:20:11,310 There's Mr. Grouse in the tree, that log. 398 00:20:11,444 --> 00:20:13,779 ♪ ♪ 399 00:20:13,913 --> 00:20:18,484 And I've got my first homemade arrow here. 400 00:20:18,617 --> 00:20:20,986 And the homemade blunt deal I got figured out there. 401 00:20:21,120 --> 00:20:24,757 ♪ ♪ 402 00:20:24,890 --> 00:20:26,525 Pretty realistic range. 403 00:20:26,659 --> 00:20:32,231 ♪ ♪ 404 00:20:32,364 --> 00:20:35,201 [laughs] 405 00:20:35,334 --> 00:20:39,205 Oh, I [bleep] did it. Oh! 406 00:20:39,338 --> 00:20:42,208 That's gonna work. That's gonna work. 407 00:20:42,341 --> 00:20:45,678 [sighs] Yes! 408 00:20:45,811 --> 00:20:48,447 I'm still in the game. 409 00:20:48,581 --> 00:20:55,621 ♪ ♪ 410 00:21:10,002 --> 00:21:13,772 - OK, let's do laundry. 411 00:21:18,110 --> 00:21:20,412 Let's rub it all on the rock there. 412 00:21:23,449 --> 00:21:26,752 Whoever said that wool long underwear doesn't stink 413 00:21:26,886 --> 00:21:29,755 is wrong because this stinks. 414 00:21:34,193 --> 00:21:36,428 Good enough. 415 00:21:36,562 --> 00:21:39,532 ♪ ♪ 416 00:21:39,665 --> 00:21:43,736 Today, I'm not gonna work on my shelter very much. 417 00:21:43,869 --> 00:21:48,407 I'm going to go out and try to procure food. 418 00:21:48,541 --> 00:21:49,975 ♪ ♪ 419 00:21:50,109 --> 00:21:53,646 Being outside, it's almost like a church for me. 420 00:21:53,779 --> 00:21:57,283 That's when I feel the best is when I'm out in the woods. 421 00:21:57,416 --> 00:21:59,952 ♪ ♪ 422 00:22:02,922 --> 00:22:05,491 [sighs] [bleep]. 423 00:22:05,624 --> 00:22:06,592 ♪ ♪ 424 00:22:09,662 --> 00:22:15,301 This is a beautiful place, but it's a harsh environment. 425 00:22:15,434 --> 00:22:19,638 It's been a real struggle for me to find food. 426 00:22:19,772 --> 00:22:22,174 There is a grouse up that way, 427 00:22:22,308 --> 00:22:26,378 so I'm just gonna try and get him. 428 00:22:26,512 --> 00:22:28,881 Wish me luck. 429 00:22:29,014 --> 00:22:32,585 I need to get some fuel in me right now. 430 00:22:32,718 --> 00:22:35,754 It's gonna turn. My luck is gonna turn 431 00:22:46,065 --> 00:22:48,934 I got him! Oh, my God. 432 00:22:52,037 --> 00:22:54,506 It's the death throes. 433 00:22:54,640 --> 00:22:57,509 Oh, my God, oh, my God, oh, my God. 434 00:22:57,643 --> 00:23:00,112 It's like I won the lottery. 435 00:23:00,246 --> 00:23:03,482 Oh, I never even signed up 436 00:23:03,616 --> 00:23:05,985 for the lottery once in my life. 437 00:23:06,118 --> 00:23:10,623 Oh, well, let's go home and cook some grouse. 438 00:23:10,756 --> 00:23:14,293 ♪ ♪ 439 00:23:14,426 --> 00:23:17,796 It feels like my luck has just turned. 440 00:23:17,930 --> 00:23:19,331 This is it. 441 00:23:19,465 --> 00:23:22,201 Like, my story is gonna change now. 442 00:23:22,334 --> 00:23:24,703 You know, it seems like I've just been slogging along 443 00:23:24,837 --> 00:23:26,038 and nothing has been happening, 444 00:23:26,171 --> 00:23:29,008 and now I got this grouse. 445 00:23:29,141 --> 00:23:32,945 We used to go with my dad grouse hunting. 446 00:23:33,078 --> 00:23:35,781 This experience has got me thinking about my mother. 447 00:23:35,914 --> 00:23:38,584 She died recently. 448 00:23:38,717 --> 00:23:40,519 I miss her. 449 00:23:40,653 --> 00:23:43,155 There's a little bit of fat on there. 450 00:23:43,289 --> 00:23:44,690 Oh, it just rips like you won't believe. 451 00:23:44,823 --> 00:23:47,192 It's the thinnest skin. 452 00:23:47,326 --> 00:23:49,194 I was always striving, as a child, 453 00:23:49,328 --> 00:23:52,164 to do the best I possibly could, 454 00:23:52,298 --> 00:23:55,668 but she didn't give me much feedback. 455 00:23:55,801 --> 00:23:58,003 I think part of what my mom said later 456 00:23:58,137 --> 00:24:00,339 was that they didn't want to push us, 457 00:24:00,472 --> 00:24:02,441 so, like, if I came home and said, "oh, Mom, 458 00:24:02,574 --> 00:24:05,978 I just won the 10K race," she's like, "Oh?" 459 00:24:06,111 --> 00:24:08,814 And then she turns back and looks at the TV. 460 00:24:08,948 --> 00:24:10,582 She didn't really want to say, "Oh, 461 00:24:10,716 --> 00:24:12,518 you need to go out and beat so-and-so." 462 00:24:12,651 --> 00:24:16,021 But I felt like I wasn't getting any attention, 463 00:24:16,155 --> 00:24:20,025 so I was always trying to do the best, 464 00:24:20,159 --> 00:24:22,628 and I still wasn't getting any attention. 465 00:24:22,761 --> 00:24:25,631 Look at that meat. Oh. 466 00:24:25,764 --> 00:24:29,268 I'm gonna cook this until it falls off the bones. 467 00:24:29,401 --> 00:24:33,205 I need every bit of mineral I can get. 468 00:24:33,339 --> 00:24:35,541 All she wanted me to do is finish my college degree, 469 00:24:35,674 --> 00:24:37,676 which I never did. 470 00:24:37,810 --> 00:24:40,846 I think she thought of farmers as kind of low life, 471 00:24:40,980 --> 00:24:42,214 but my whole life, 472 00:24:42,348 --> 00:24:45,150 I've really been a farmer and a gatherer. 473 00:24:45,284 --> 00:24:48,821 The outdoors is all there is to me, you know? 474 00:24:48,954 --> 00:24:51,590 I wonder if she ever thought I made her expectations 475 00:24:51,724 --> 00:24:53,859 or whatever it was that she was looking for. 476 00:24:53,992 --> 00:24:57,529 ♪ ♪ 477 00:24:57,663 --> 00:25:01,600 Liver, healthy as can be. 478 00:25:01,734 --> 00:25:04,103 I think, with my mother passing, 479 00:25:04,236 --> 00:25:06,805 I feel like my life is passing by, 480 00:25:06,939 --> 00:25:10,509 and I feel like I haven't done anything of any significance. 481 00:25:10,642 --> 00:25:14,246 But being out here seems like a great opportunity 482 00:25:14,380 --> 00:25:17,049 to see what I've got, see what I can do. 483 00:25:18,817 --> 00:25:20,152 OK. 484 00:25:20,285 --> 00:25:23,055 [moose grunting] 485 00:25:24,790 --> 00:25:26,325 Holy [bleep]. 486 00:25:26,458 --> 00:25:33,232 ♪ ♪ 487 00:25:36,635 --> 00:25:38,937 [bleep] something. 488 00:25:39,071 --> 00:25:41,440 A [bleep] moose. It's a moose. 489 00:25:41,573 --> 00:25:44,710 ♪ ♪ 490 00:25:49,548 --> 00:25:52,451 [dramatic music] 491 00:25:52,584 --> 00:25:56,422 ♪ ♪ 492 00:25:56,555 --> 00:25:58,290 Holy [bleep]. 493 00:25:58,424 --> 00:25:59,525 [moose grunting] 494 00:25:59,658 --> 00:26:01,994 [bleep] something. 495 00:26:02,127 --> 00:26:04,863 A [bleep] moose. It's a moose. 496 00:26:04,997 --> 00:26:07,366 ♪ ♪ 497 00:26:07,499 --> 00:26:09,635 Look at that big guy. 498 00:26:09,768 --> 00:26:12,438 Holy crap. 499 00:26:12,571 --> 00:26:13,939 See him? 500 00:26:16,642 --> 00:26:18,043 Look at him. 501 00:26:19,611 --> 00:26:21,847 Look at him go. 502 00:26:21,980 --> 00:26:23,382 Unbelievable. 503 00:26:26,819 --> 00:26:29,488 Wow. [chuckles] 504 00:26:31,590 --> 00:26:34,827 It's like things have started happening now. 505 00:26:34,960 --> 00:26:40,165 ♪ ♪ 506 00:26:40,299 --> 00:26:42,634 There was no potential for a shot. 507 00:26:42,768 --> 00:26:44,803 It was too far. 508 00:26:44,937 --> 00:26:47,172 Let's cook some grouse. 509 00:26:47,306 --> 00:26:49,608 But I think that moose could be lured back 510 00:26:49,741 --> 00:26:51,043 with moose calls. 511 00:26:51,176 --> 00:26:52,711 ♪ ♪ 512 00:26:52,845 --> 00:26:55,647 For long-term staying power, 513 00:26:55,781 --> 00:26:58,517 a moose would be the way to do it. 514 00:26:58,650 --> 00:27:01,987 I'm back in business. 515 00:27:02,120 --> 00:27:03,956 I'm gonna win half a million. 516 00:27:04,089 --> 00:27:05,657 ♪ ♪ 517 00:27:05,791 --> 00:27:09,261 If I actually won, I would try to use the money 518 00:27:09,394 --> 00:27:12,931 to help our farm come up with some staff 519 00:27:13,065 --> 00:27:15,300 so that we could do a better job of farming 520 00:27:15,434 --> 00:27:17,436 and keep farming until the money runs out. 521 00:27:17,569 --> 00:27:21,406 ♪ ♪ 522 00:27:21,540 --> 00:27:22,674 All right. 523 00:27:22,808 --> 00:27:25,477 ♪ ♪ 524 00:27:25,611 --> 00:27:26,945 Here goes. 525 00:27:33,785 --> 00:27:35,821 Wow, good. 526 00:27:42,661 --> 00:27:44,796 Ah. [laughs] 527 00:27:44,930 --> 00:27:47,733 It seriously is so good. 528 00:27:47,866 --> 00:27:49,868 What a gift. 529 00:27:50,002 --> 00:27:57,009 ♪ ♪ 530 00:28:29,374 --> 00:28:32,644 - Well, this is what the purple soup looks like-- 531 00:28:32,778 --> 00:28:34,446 birch and berries. 532 00:28:37,049 --> 00:28:38,083 We'll drink some. 533 00:28:40,519 --> 00:28:43,555 [slurps] 534 00:28:43,689 --> 00:28:46,391 It tastes kind of bitter. 535 00:28:46,525 --> 00:28:48,493 I don't know how much energy I can get off berries, 536 00:28:48,627 --> 00:28:52,798 but I'll find out 537 00:28:52,931 --> 00:28:54,600 because it's all I've got. 538 00:28:58,403 --> 00:28:59,938 I ate about half of it. 539 00:29:00,072 --> 00:29:03,909 I'm gonna let it sit and eat it later. 540 00:29:04,042 --> 00:29:06,945 Now, I got to check my net 541 00:29:07,079 --> 00:29:09,414 and then work on the permanent shelter. 542 00:29:09,548 --> 00:29:13,418 ♪ ♪ 543 00:29:13,552 --> 00:29:16,188 You know, I thought I'd be getting more fish, 544 00:29:16,321 --> 00:29:19,458 but it's harder than I thought. 545 00:29:19,591 --> 00:29:22,995 I've been eating berries. I'm not holding back. 546 00:29:23,128 --> 00:29:25,664 I'm eating all the berries I got, 547 00:29:25,797 --> 00:29:29,735 but I don't think that's good enough. 548 00:29:29,868 --> 00:29:33,272 OK, see what's happening with my net. 549 00:29:33,405 --> 00:29:38,777 ♪ ♪ 550 00:29:38,910 --> 00:29:41,813 Well, ain't that something. 551 00:29:41,947 --> 00:29:44,316 Put that net out, and it never catches a thing. 552 00:29:44,449 --> 00:29:46,652 ♪ ♪ 553 00:29:46,785 --> 00:29:48,854 I'm trying everything, 554 00:29:48,987 --> 00:29:51,123 but I'm just not getting any fish. 555 00:29:51,256 --> 00:29:54,559 But fish or not, I need a shelter. 556 00:29:58,096 --> 00:30:00,666 All right, get the big trees here-- 557 00:30:00,799 --> 00:30:02,634 a couple of big ones. 558 00:30:02,768 --> 00:30:05,304 ♪ ♪ 559 00:30:05,437 --> 00:30:07,372 The log cabin I'm going to make 560 00:30:07,506 --> 00:30:11,176 is gonna be the same type of log cabin that my dad made 561 00:30:11,310 --> 00:30:14,279 and that I grew up in. 562 00:30:14,413 --> 00:30:16,314 I've got to put all the big ends 563 00:30:16,448 --> 00:30:19,251 of the logs on the forward side 564 00:30:19,384 --> 00:30:22,154 and the small ends in the back. 565 00:30:22,287 --> 00:30:24,389 That will give me a sloping roof. 566 00:30:24,523 --> 00:30:29,161 And I'm gonna go about 5 and 1/2 feet high. 567 00:30:29,294 --> 00:30:31,263 I'm not gonna get fancy-- 568 00:30:31,396 --> 00:30:33,665 just old, trapper-style cabin. 569 00:30:33,799 --> 00:30:35,167 ♪ ♪ 570 00:30:35,300 --> 00:30:38,503 Decided not to bring all my logs over at once 571 00:30:38,637 --> 00:30:41,973 because, if I do that, 572 00:30:42,107 --> 00:30:44,042 I'm just gonna get real tired. 573 00:30:44,176 --> 00:30:47,312 So I've been doing a little bit every day. 574 00:30:47,446 --> 00:30:48,847 ♪ ♪ 575 00:30:48,980 --> 00:30:50,749 We're gonna be here into winter. 576 00:30:50,882 --> 00:30:52,651 I know that. 577 00:30:52,784 --> 00:30:56,054 And I need a warm place to be, a substantial place, 578 00:30:56,188 --> 00:30:58,657 but it takes a while to make a cabin... 579 00:30:58,790 --> 00:31:00,859 [sighs] 580 00:31:00,992 --> 00:31:03,695 So this has to be done right. 581 00:31:03,829 --> 00:31:05,230 I have to put the effort in. 582 00:31:05,364 --> 00:31:06,465 ♪ ♪ 583 00:31:06,598 --> 00:31:07,833 Ooh. 584 00:31:07,966 --> 00:31:11,970 ♪ ♪ 585 00:31:12,104 --> 00:31:14,539 I don't know if I can do that all day. 586 00:31:14,673 --> 00:31:17,642 Might not be able to. 587 00:31:17,776 --> 00:31:20,879 The older I get, the more time I spend out in the woods, 588 00:31:21,012 --> 00:31:23,382 the more I understand my dad. 589 00:31:23,515 --> 00:31:25,851 My dad was a real woodsman, you know? 590 00:31:25,984 --> 00:31:27,719 They called him Blondie 591 00:31:27,853 --> 00:31:31,656 because he had long, curly, blond hair as a young man. 592 00:31:31,790 --> 00:31:33,392 He was a mountain man. 593 00:31:33,525 --> 00:31:35,427 He just wandered all around Alaska by himself. 594 00:31:35,560 --> 00:31:37,362 ♪ ♪ 595 00:31:37,496 --> 00:31:39,598 So just being in the woods, 596 00:31:39,731 --> 00:31:42,400 I feel I'm following in his footsteps. 597 00:31:45,203 --> 00:31:48,106 It didn't take long for me to start getting tired. 598 00:31:49,875 --> 00:31:51,910 Man, I need some water. 599 00:31:52,043 --> 00:31:54,713 OK, got to get you some water. 600 00:31:56,648 --> 00:32:03,722 ♪ ♪ 601 00:32:15,133 --> 00:32:17,269 - Time to make some more arrows. 602 00:32:17,402 --> 00:32:20,672 I'm just gonna be limited to how far I can shoot, 603 00:32:20,806 --> 00:32:23,308 and then to the learning curve 604 00:32:23,442 --> 00:32:27,612 of my own handmade wooden arrows. 605 00:32:27,746 --> 00:32:30,715 Sometimes, you know, maybe I like to think 606 00:32:30,849 --> 00:32:35,020 maybe we're handed adversity like this for a reason, 607 00:32:35,153 --> 00:32:38,056 to force us into growth. 608 00:32:38,190 --> 00:32:40,192 Nothing in my life has ever been easy, so... 609 00:32:40,325 --> 00:32:41,993 ♪ ♪ 610 00:32:42,127 --> 00:32:43,862 And at the end of the day, I'm supposed to be 611 00:32:43,995 --> 00:32:46,898 representing my back country hunting community, 612 00:32:47,032 --> 00:32:49,501 as well as my family. 613 00:32:49,634 --> 00:32:52,804 I'm not gonna disrespect them by moping around. 614 00:32:52,938 --> 00:32:54,639 This is the opportunity of a lifetime, 615 00:32:54,773 --> 00:32:56,174 and I can't blow it. 616 00:32:56,308 --> 00:32:58,743 I got so many people counting on me at home. 617 00:33:03,915 --> 00:33:05,450 I just heard a grouse. 618 00:33:05,584 --> 00:33:12,090 ♪ ♪ 619 00:33:17,362 --> 00:33:19,798 This other arrow I've got, 620 00:33:19,931 --> 00:33:21,366 I haven't test fired it yet, 621 00:33:21,500 --> 00:33:24,970 so I don't know how it shoot. 622 00:33:30,108 --> 00:33:32,477 There he is. 623 00:33:32,611 --> 00:33:37,616 ♪ ♪ 624 00:33:37,749 --> 00:33:40,352 I got him. 625 00:33:40,485 --> 00:33:44,756 All right, awesome, man. 626 00:33:44,890 --> 00:33:47,025 One very beautiful grouse. 627 00:33:52,230 --> 00:33:53,331 ♪ ♪ 628 00:33:53,465 --> 00:33:56,968 To take that frustration from my loss 629 00:33:57,102 --> 00:34:01,072 and redirect all of that energy 630 00:34:01,206 --> 00:34:03,675 into something that provides, 631 00:34:03,808 --> 00:34:05,310 it's empowering. 632 00:34:05,443 --> 00:34:08,480 OK, next camp chore of the day. 633 00:34:08,613 --> 00:34:10,515 ♪ ♪ 634 00:34:10,649 --> 00:34:15,987 I'm gonna go build a better cooking area fire pit. 635 00:34:16,121 --> 00:34:19,624 When I finish, I'm gonna have a little food there. 636 00:34:19,758 --> 00:34:21,560 [sighs] 637 00:34:21,693 --> 00:34:23,461 I like this spot. 638 00:34:23,595 --> 00:34:26,998 ♪ ♪ 639 00:34:27,132 --> 00:34:28,533 Take the moss off of this rock. 640 00:34:28,667 --> 00:34:30,001 ♪ ♪ 641 00:34:30,135 --> 00:34:32,437 Got this wasp nest fire starter. 642 00:34:32,570 --> 00:34:34,139 ♪ ♪ 643 00:34:34,272 --> 00:34:37,309 And I think that'll work just fine for my fire pit. 644 00:34:41,479 --> 00:34:43,214 Talk about a morale booster. 645 00:34:44,649 --> 00:34:46,484 I woke up hungry. 646 00:34:46,618 --> 00:34:48,820 I wanted to fix it. 647 00:34:48,954 --> 00:34:50,422 I went out, and I fixed it. 648 00:34:53,158 --> 00:34:54,926 Whoa, that is so good. 649 00:34:57,929 --> 00:35:00,665 OK, get me a drink of water. 650 00:35:00,799 --> 00:35:03,168 ♪ ♪ 651 00:35:03,301 --> 00:35:05,503 For several years of my childhood, 652 00:35:05,637 --> 00:35:08,440 things were hard. 653 00:35:08,573 --> 00:35:12,310 I grew up in Central Texas, in a very rural area. 654 00:35:12,444 --> 00:35:14,512 We didn't have running water. 655 00:35:14,646 --> 00:35:17,082 We were poor. 656 00:35:17,215 --> 00:35:19,384 And so, for me, as a young boy, 657 00:35:19,517 --> 00:35:22,821 to kill was to provide. 658 00:35:22,954 --> 00:35:27,459 I understood that things were different for us, 659 00:35:27,592 --> 00:35:30,895 and I grew up a lot quicker than my peers. 660 00:35:31,029 --> 00:35:35,900 And out here, I'm directly reminded of that. 661 00:35:36,001 --> 00:35:39,471 And it's not upsetting because it's life. 662 00:35:39,604 --> 00:35:43,975 ♪ ♪ 663 00:35:44,109 --> 00:35:46,211 I'm very thankful for that grouse today. 664 00:35:46,344 --> 00:35:47,579 Feeling a little better. 665 00:35:47,712 --> 00:35:50,715 I think I'm gonna make myself a cup of tea 666 00:35:50,849 --> 00:35:53,518 and start prospecting on some straight-- 667 00:35:53,652 --> 00:35:57,756 ♪ ♪ 668 00:35:57,889 --> 00:36:01,159 I see smoke. Oh, [bleep]. 669 00:36:01,292 --> 00:36:04,529 My fire pit. [bleep], no, no, no. 670 00:36:12,737 --> 00:36:15,840 [dramatic music] 671 00:36:15,974 --> 00:36:17,676 - Oh, [bleep]. My fire pit. 672 00:36:17,809 --> 00:36:22,847 ♪ ♪ 673 00:36:22,981 --> 00:36:25,350 Oh, oh, no. 674 00:36:25,517 --> 00:36:28,153 ♪ ♪ 675 00:36:28,286 --> 00:36:31,322 The roots must have caught on fire 676 00:36:31,456 --> 00:36:35,360 underneath my rock pile there, and I just about 677 00:36:35,493 --> 00:36:38,730 started one hell of a forest fire. 678 00:36:38,863 --> 00:36:40,832 Holy cow. 679 00:36:40,965 --> 00:36:42,200 I got to get some water. 680 00:36:42,333 --> 00:36:48,873 ♪ ♪ 681 00:36:50,942 --> 00:36:53,111 I'm burning so many calories. 682 00:36:53,244 --> 00:36:55,914 This hurts me in so many ways right now. 683 00:36:56,047 --> 00:37:00,185 ♪ ♪ 684 00:37:00,318 --> 00:37:02,454 A lot of smoldering going on still. 685 00:37:02,587 --> 00:37:03,855 A couple of hours 686 00:37:03,988 --> 00:37:06,591 and a couple hundred gallons of water in. 687 00:37:06,724 --> 00:37:08,460 ♪ ♪ 688 00:37:08,593 --> 00:37:10,028 I'll stay here all day. 689 00:37:10,161 --> 00:37:13,031 ♪ ♪ 690 00:37:13,164 --> 00:37:14,532 Every time I think I'm getting close to having 691 00:37:14,666 --> 00:37:16,801 this thing whooped, 692 00:37:16,935 --> 00:37:19,070 I see a little more smoke peeking up. 693 00:37:19,204 --> 00:37:21,806 I don't think I'm getting close, so-- 694 00:37:21,940 --> 00:37:23,408 Lord, I hope I am. 695 00:37:23,541 --> 00:37:29,781 ♪ ♪ 696 00:37:29,914 --> 00:37:32,183 What an ordeal. [sighs] 697 00:37:32,350 --> 00:37:33,651 I pretty well got the fire out. 698 00:37:33,785 --> 00:37:35,153 ♪ ♪ 699 00:37:35,286 --> 00:37:39,524 As you can see, I got another fire pit. 700 00:37:39,657 --> 00:37:42,360 This is a much better fire pit, anyways. 701 00:37:42,494 --> 00:37:44,129 I should have just done this in the first place, 702 00:37:44,262 --> 00:37:48,466 but could've, should've, would've, right? 703 00:37:48,600 --> 00:37:55,340 ♪ ♪ 704 00:38:04,282 --> 00:38:07,118 - Guys, you got to see this new winter cottage 705 00:38:07,252 --> 00:38:11,089 I just picked up, and I got it for dirt cheap. 706 00:38:12,891 --> 00:38:16,494 Number one, it's a lakefront, 30 yards from my front porch. 707 00:38:16,628 --> 00:38:17,862 Amazing. 708 00:38:17,996 --> 00:38:19,497 ♪ ♪ 709 00:38:19,631 --> 00:38:23,234 So it's got a walkaround yard, which is super hard to find 710 00:38:23,368 --> 00:38:25,970 in Cottage Country these days. 711 00:38:26,104 --> 00:38:28,573 Now, for the exterior, it's got moss 712 00:38:28,706 --> 00:38:31,509 with spruce overlay. 713 00:38:31,643 --> 00:38:33,678 It's got what's called a living floor. 714 00:38:33,812 --> 00:38:35,780 Apparently, it's all the rage in New York. 715 00:38:35,914 --> 00:38:39,384 Comes with a built-in fire pit, and my fave? 716 00:38:39,517 --> 00:38:42,287 Skylight. 717 00:38:42,420 --> 00:38:45,123 The only thing that sucks about this place? 718 00:38:45,256 --> 00:38:47,492 They wouldn't give me fire insurance. 719 00:38:47,625 --> 00:38:50,495 Why? [scoffs] 720 00:38:50,628 --> 00:38:53,164 ♪ ♪ 721 00:38:53,298 --> 00:38:56,301 After building the shelter, I'm feeling pretty hungry. 722 00:38:56,434 --> 00:38:57,769 ♪ ♪ 723 00:38:57,902 --> 00:38:59,270 I don't know what happened to the fishing. 724 00:38:59,404 --> 00:39:01,606 I really can't figure it out. 725 00:39:01,739 --> 00:39:03,942 Like, literally, I fish for minutes, 726 00:39:04,075 --> 00:39:07,111 three nights in a row, and I had big fish. 727 00:39:07,245 --> 00:39:09,113 I'm like, "Wow, this is gonna be awesome." 728 00:39:09,247 --> 00:39:11,149 ♪ ♪ 729 00:39:11,282 --> 00:39:13,685 I don't know, man. Got to figure it out. 730 00:39:13,818 --> 00:39:15,854 ♪ ♪ 731 00:39:20,158 --> 00:39:22,360 I'm not feeling very positive about catching fish there 732 00:39:22,493 --> 00:39:24,596 right now, but I'm definitely not gonna catch 733 00:39:24,729 --> 00:39:26,631 a pike sitting by the fire. 734 00:39:26,764 --> 00:39:28,499 ♪ ♪ 735 00:39:28,633 --> 00:39:31,169 Gotta get some food. Gotta catch a fish. 736 00:39:31,302 --> 00:39:32,570 ♪ ♪ 737 00:39:32,704 --> 00:39:34,973 It's all about food. 738 00:39:35,106 --> 00:39:37,141 Everything else is fine. 739 00:39:37,275 --> 00:39:39,010 Oh, there's a big pike right there. 740 00:39:39,143 --> 00:39:43,982 Come on, take it. [bleep]. 741 00:39:44,115 --> 00:39:46,517 He won't bite it. 742 00:39:46,651 --> 00:39:49,888 I love it out here, but I know that my time here 743 00:39:50,021 --> 00:39:53,691 will be limited if I don't acquire some food. 744 00:39:53,825 --> 00:39:56,961 Come on. I need a fish so bad. 745 00:39:57,095 --> 00:40:00,298 I need some luck to go my way right now. 746 00:40:00,431 --> 00:40:02,300 I think one of the biggest assets that I have 747 00:40:02,433 --> 00:40:04,769 is I'm a stubborn bastard. 748 00:40:04,902 --> 00:40:07,138 When I fail or I'm frustrated, 749 00:40:07,272 --> 00:40:09,374 that actually makes me work harder to correct it 750 00:40:09,507 --> 00:40:11,843 and create another opportunity. 751 00:40:11,976 --> 00:40:14,712 My persistence and my mental drive 752 00:40:14,846 --> 00:40:16,948 can help me in this experience. 753 00:40:17,081 --> 00:40:18,549 Oh. 754 00:40:18,683 --> 00:40:22,220 ♪ ♪ 755 00:40:22,353 --> 00:40:23,554 Come on. Come on. 756 00:40:23,688 --> 00:40:25,323 Move. 757 00:40:25,456 --> 00:40:26,824 Come on. 758 00:40:26,958 --> 00:40:31,763 ♪ ♪ 759 00:40:31,896 --> 00:40:35,967 Whoo-hoo-hoo! Yes! 760 00:40:38,002 --> 00:40:39,337 Whoo! 761 00:40:39,470 --> 00:40:42,840 ♪ ♪ 762 00:40:42,974 --> 00:40:44,909 I am so happy. 763 00:40:45,043 --> 00:40:46,344 ♪ ♪ 764 00:40:46,477 --> 00:40:49,314 I needed something to turn things around. 765 00:40:49,447 --> 00:40:50,982 I honestly haven't eaten in five days-- 766 00:40:51,115 --> 00:40:53,618 just, like, scraps of vegetation 767 00:40:53,751 --> 00:40:57,155 and whatnot. Look at this guy. 768 00:40:57,288 --> 00:41:00,124 He is a beast. 769 00:41:00,258 --> 00:41:05,296 Oh, what an exciting night for me. 770 00:41:05,430 --> 00:41:07,665 This fish means so much. 771 00:41:07,799 --> 00:41:14,772 ♪ ♪ 772 00:41:18,509 --> 00:41:21,980 Man, I never thought I'd get emotional catching a fish. 773 00:41:22,113 --> 00:41:25,116 [clears throat] Nice voice crack. 774 00:41:25,249 --> 00:41:29,220 Anyhoo, super pumped. 775 00:41:29,354 --> 00:41:32,256 A fillet tomorrow, a fillet the next day, 776 00:41:32,390 --> 00:41:36,861 and then fish head soup with the skeleton boiled up. 777 00:41:36,994 --> 00:41:38,996 Almost as good as a fillet. 778 00:41:39,130 --> 00:41:40,732 So I got three days I got food. 779 00:41:40,865 --> 00:41:44,135 Man, so exciting. 780 00:41:44,268 --> 00:41:46,237 [sighs] 781 00:41:46,371 --> 00:41:47,772 Whoo! 782 00:41:53,811 --> 00:41:55,413 [dramatic music] 783 00:41:55,546 --> 00:42:02,587 ♪ ♪ 784 00:42:03,588 --> 00:42:04,856 - Hell, yeah 785 00:42:04,989 --> 00:42:11,763 ♪ ♪ 786 00:42:14,866 --> 00:42:18,169 My belly is nice and full, and I cooked down 787 00:42:18,302 --> 00:42:20,605 a bunch of blueberries. 788 00:42:20,738 --> 00:42:22,607 Cooking all the moisture out of that can, 789 00:42:22,740 --> 00:42:24,175 and then I'm spreading them out into cakes 790 00:42:24,308 --> 00:42:26,577 on my gaiters. 791 00:42:26,711 --> 00:42:29,380 I custom made my gaiters out of two layers 792 00:42:29,514 --> 00:42:33,251 of marine vinyl so that I can dry my berries in the sun. 793 00:42:33,384 --> 00:42:34,385 ♪ ♪ 794 00:42:36,154 --> 00:42:40,091 ♪ ♪ 795 00:42:40,224 --> 00:42:44,529 Since I have that super cold North wind hitting me, 796 00:42:44,662 --> 00:42:47,165 I would love to have two shelters. 797 00:42:47,298 --> 00:42:49,133 ♪ ♪ 798 00:42:49,267 --> 00:42:50,768 I'm super fed on fish. 799 00:42:50,902 --> 00:42:54,272 I've got plenty of energy, so I've found 800 00:42:54,405 --> 00:42:56,340 a spot for my winter shelter. 801 00:42:56,474 --> 00:42:58,910 So it's further away from the beach 802 00:42:59,043 --> 00:43:00,611 where the wind isn't blowing. 803 00:43:00,745 --> 00:43:04,015 ♪ ♪ 804 00:43:04,148 --> 00:43:06,951 Here it is. 805 00:43:07,084 --> 00:43:10,021 I'm digging a hole into the side of this hill. 806 00:43:10,154 --> 00:43:13,458 Not too small of a hole. 807 00:43:13,591 --> 00:43:17,829 Want to be able to kick it in there. 808 00:43:17,962 --> 00:43:21,065 I feel like an earthen shelter 809 00:43:21,199 --> 00:43:24,936 is gonna be the best for retaining heat 810 00:43:25,069 --> 00:43:28,773 and being truly protected from the elements. 811 00:43:28,906 --> 00:43:31,042 I made a new shovel handle last night-- 812 00:43:31,175 --> 00:43:33,277 nice and cool for digging. 813 00:43:33,411 --> 00:43:35,980 There's definitely big game trails 814 00:43:36,114 --> 00:43:38,382 that I've found in my exploration here. 815 00:43:38,516 --> 00:43:40,785 That's a big part of what I'm counting on 816 00:43:40,918 --> 00:43:44,622 for my strategy. So my overwintering shelter-- 817 00:43:44,755 --> 00:43:46,824 it really is a bear den. 818 00:43:46,958 --> 00:43:50,328 This is gonna be quite the hoist. 819 00:43:50,461 --> 00:43:53,164 It'll increase my chances of big game encounters. 820 00:43:53,297 --> 00:43:56,134 ♪ ♪ 821 00:43:56,267 --> 00:43:59,804 That's as big a log as I want to move here. 822 00:43:59,937 --> 00:44:03,241 ♪ ♪ 823 00:44:03,374 --> 00:44:07,245 Theresa and Karie Lee both dug in, 824 00:44:07,378 --> 00:44:10,948 but you're like, "I'm taking it to a new level." 825 00:44:11,082 --> 00:44:14,986 My bear den shelter is a really small version 826 00:44:15,119 --> 00:44:17,788 of a 1,000-square foot house that me and my family 827 00:44:17,922 --> 00:44:20,892 built over a 40-year process. 828 00:44:21,025 --> 00:44:23,027 ♪ ♪ 829 00:44:23,160 --> 00:44:26,264 I want to go with a fully primitive shelter 830 00:44:26,397 --> 00:44:28,432 to just, like, honor everything 831 00:44:28,566 --> 00:44:31,469 that my dad has taught me about living in the wild, 832 00:44:31,602 --> 00:44:34,038 trying my hardest and representing myself, 833 00:44:34,172 --> 00:44:36,240 and my dad's definitely been a huge part 834 00:44:36,374 --> 00:44:38,075 of what's on my mind. 835 00:44:38,209 --> 00:44:39,710 It was really difficult to watch him 836 00:44:39,844 --> 00:44:43,281 go through dementia and being stuck in bed 837 00:44:43,414 --> 00:44:46,450 because he is such an adventurous person. 838 00:44:46,584 --> 00:44:48,452 I got myself to where I am 839 00:44:48,586 --> 00:44:50,821 largely because of his influence, 840 00:44:50,955 --> 00:44:53,424 and this is my inheritance from my dad-- 841 00:44:53,558 --> 00:44:56,928 a gift that he's given me. 842 00:44:57,061 --> 00:45:00,665 I could shoot a moose from up here. 843 00:45:00,798 --> 00:45:07,538 ♪ ♪ 844 00:45:30,928 --> 00:45:32,930 - Here goes. 845 00:45:33,064 --> 00:45:34,365 Wish me luck. 846 00:45:38,002 --> 00:45:39,704 There you go. That's better. 847 00:45:39,837 --> 00:45:41,872 I didn't like it right along the reef there. 848 00:45:42,006 --> 00:45:44,609 ♪ ♪ 849 00:45:44,742 --> 00:45:46,711 It's hard to see my lure in this wind. 850 00:45:46,844 --> 00:45:49,246 ♪ ♪ 851 00:45:49,380 --> 00:45:50,915 There's a little trout there. 852 00:45:51,048 --> 00:45:52,383 ♪ ♪ 853 00:45:52,516 --> 00:45:55,519 Come on. 854 00:45:55,653 --> 00:45:58,756 This hook is just too big for it, I think. 855 00:45:58,889 --> 00:46:01,092 ♪ ♪ 856 00:46:01,225 --> 00:46:04,262 Sure feels like something is grabbing it, 857 00:46:04,395 --> 00:46:05,863 and that's just the bottom. 858 00:46:05,997 --> 00:46:08,532 ♪ ♪ 859 00:46:08,666 --> 00:46:10,234 There are no fish biting. 860 00:46:13,738 --> 00:46:15,506 I think I'm about ready to call it. 861 00:46:19,110 --> 00:46:21,178 ♪ ♪ 862 00:46:21,312 --> 00:46:24,815 While working on the shelter, I haven't had much food. 863 00:46:24,949 --> 00:46:26,350 ♪ ♪ 864 00:46:26,484 --> 00:46:30,388 I'm only going to the fishing hole once a day 865 00:46:30,521 --> 00:46:33,457 for my energy conservation. 866 00:46:33,591 --> 00:46:36,560 And every day, I hope I get a fish 867 00:46:36,694 --> 00:46:38,896 that will allow me to eat another two days. 868 00:46:39,030 --> 00:46:40,765 ♪ ♪ 869 00:46:40,898 --> 00:46:44,302 How long can I stay out here only eating vegetation 870 00:46:44,435 --> 00:46:48,406 like a moose? Am I going to get more fish? 871 00:46:48,539 --> 00:46:51,108 That's what it's down to. 872 00:46:51,242 --> 00:46:53,544 OK, she's ready for moss. 873 00:46:53,678 --> 00:46:56,314 ♪ ♪ 874 00:46:56,447 --> 00:47:00,318 I really want to complete this cabin now 875 00:47:00,451 --> 00:47:01,318 for two reasons. 876 00:47:01,452 --> 00:47:04,422 One, that will allow me 877 00:47:04,555 --> 00:47:06,524 to just concentrate on fishing. 878 00:47:06,657 --> 00:47:11,929 Between the tarp, these logs, and this pretty thin layer 879 00:47:12,063 --> 00:47:15,866 of moss, I think there will be 880 00:47:16,000 --> 00:47:19,103 some insulative property to this. 881 00:47:19,236 --> 00:47:23,240 And two, my father raised a family doing this, 882 00:47:23,374 --> 00:47:24,675 and he was hungry. 883 00:47:24,809 --> 00:47:26,777 He did it starving because we starved. 884 00:47:26,911 --> 00:47:29,747 I remember. I was a little kid. 885 00:47:29,880 --> 00:47:32,883 He could handle starvation. 886 00:47:33,017 --> 00:47:34,952 He had just gotten used to it over the years 887 00:47:35,086 --> 00:47:38,089 of being hungry, I guess. 888 00:47:38,222 --> 00:47:42,927 I appreciate the level that he had to push himself. 889 00:47:43,060 --> 00:47:46,731 He gave everything he had to try to feed us. 890 00:47:46,864 --> 00:47:50,401 But dad being the straight-arrow, honest guy 891 00:47:50,534 --> 00:47:53,771 he was, nope, he's not gonna take free food. 892 00:47:53,904 --> 00:47:57,708 OK, getting down to the wire here. 893 00:47:57,842 --> 00:48:00,378 When I was five years old and I was hungry, 894 00:48:00,511 --> 00:48:04,048 I don't know how far down I went. 895 00:48:04,181 --> 00:48:05,950 We were starving out camp-- 896 00:48:06,083 --> 00:48:09,320 the deep snow, way out there. 897 00:48:09,453 --> 00:48:11,655 Children are more resilient 898 00:48:11,789 --> 00:48:14,024 and bounce back easier than adults. 899 00:48:14,158 --> 00:48:15,826 If I was gonna do this again, 900 00:48:15,960 --> 00:48:19,764 I would definitely consider, when I was logging, 901 00:48:19,897 --> 00:48:23,901 the size of my tarp because I'm pretty sure my tarp 902 00:48:24,034 --> 00:48:26,303 is smaller than the roof. 903 00:48:26,437 --> 00:48:30,074 I don't fault him for his shortcomings, 904 00:48:30,207 --> 00:48:34,178 but I could not hide my disdain. 905 00:48:34,311 --> 00:48:36,781 But the way I look at it is 906 00:48:36,914 --> 00:48:41,085 I am responsible for my success. 907 00:48:41,218 --> 00:48:42,787 ♪ ♪ 908 00:48:42,920 --> 00:48:46,157 He was strong, and the challenges he had-- 909 00:48:46,290 --> 00:48:48,592 I have learned from those 910 00:48:48,726 --> 00:48:51,562 with part of my personal growth. 911 00:48:51,695 --> 00:48:53,831 I am not gonna change other people, 912 00:48:53,964 --> 00:48:57,201 but I can certainly change myself, 913 00:48:57,334 --> 00:48:59,970 be a better person. 914 00:49:00,104 --> 00:49:03,474 Moment of truth. See how it fits. 915 00:49:03,607 --> 00:49:05,910 There you go. 916 00:49:06,043 --> 00:49:11,081 I'm ready to move in. 917 00:49:12,783 --> 00:49:15,419 [dramatic music] 918 00:49:15,553 --> 00:49:21,592 ♪ ♪ 919 00:49:23,661 --> 00:49:26,163 - It's a little after 2:00 a.m. 920 00:49:26,297 --> 00:49:27,198 I can't sleep. 921 00:49:33,771 --> 00:49:34,805 More lack of food. 922 00:49:34,939 --> 00:49:38,042 I hear, like, a ringing in my ears. 923 00:49:38,175 --> 00:49:40,678 My eyes were twitching. 924 00:49:40,811 --> 00:49:45,349 I hear, like, a pounding or ringing in my ears, 925 00:49:45,482 --> 00:49:49,019 like a "reer, reer, reer," like a tinnitus 926 00:49:49,153 --> 00:49:51,589 or whatever they call it. 927 00:49:51,722 --> 00:49:55,392 My body's just telling me that it's hungry. 928 00:49:55,526 --> 00:49:57,561 Hard to sleep on an empty stomach, I guess. 929 00:49:57,695 --> 00:49:59,864 ♪ ♪ 930 00:49:59,997 --> 00:50:04,068 I can't do the starvation thing because I just don't have-- 931 00:50:04,201 --> 00:50:06,036 I didn't start with much reserve. 932 00:50:06,170 --> 00:50:07,905 ♪ ♪ 933 00:50:08,038 --> 00:50:11,442 I've worked as hard as I've ever worked on no food, 934 00:50:11,575 --> 00:50:14,845 and my body is just-- I don't have the reserves. 935 00:50:16,614 --> 00:50:19,717 Messed up on that one. 936 00:50:19,850 --> 00:50:21,752 All right, I'll try to sleep. 937 00:50:23,354 --> 00:50:26,123 ♪ ♪ 938 00:50:30,961 --> 00:50:34,164 The fish are not pouring in. 939 00:50:34,298 --> 00:50:36,567 There's no sign of moose. 940 00:50:36,700 --> 00:50:38,869 There's not much else other than fish, 941 00:50:39,003 --> 00:50:41,171 and I'm not doing very well at it. 942 00:50:41,305 --> 00:50:43,240 All right. 943 00:50:43,374 --> 00:50:44,942 Pull my net and see what's going. 944 00:50:47,177 --> 00:50:51,615 I'm disappointed, but what can I do about it? 945 00:50:53,183 --> 00:50:55,786 That's the hand I've been dealt. 946 00:50:55,920 --> 00:50:59,256 I was more optimistic earlier, but nothing I can do about it. 947 00:50:59,390 --> 00:51:00,791 Nope. 948 00:51:05,062 --> 00:51:07,131 I'm running low on energy. 949 00:51:07,264 --> 00:51:09,466 I'm not gonna be able to hunt 950 00:51:09,600 --> 00:51:15,139 because I don't feel as strong as I would like. 951 00:51:15,272 --> 00:51:17,107 ♪ ♪ 952 00:51:17,241 --> 00:51:19,176 There's very low likelihood 953 00:51:19,310 --> 00:51:21,979 I'm going to be able to stay out here very long 954 00:51:22,112 --> 00:51:24,715 given the lack of fish I'm bringing in. 955 00:51:24,848 --> 00:51:29,887 Well, I spent too much time on that cabin. 956 00:51:30,020 --> 00:51:33,223 I used too much energy. 957 00:51:33,357 --> 00:51:37,494 I'm not gonna subject my body to more lack of food. 958 00:51:37,628 --> 00:51:38,529 ♪ ♪ 959 00:51:38,662 --> 00:51:39,930 Yeah. 960 00:51:40,064 --> 00:51:43,000 ♪ ♪ 961 00:51:43,133 --> 00:51:45,970 [phone beeping] 962 00:51:46,103 --> 00:51:50,107 ♪ ♪ 963 00:51:54,178 --> 00:51:56,447 Good morning, it's Lee DeWilde. 964 00:52:00,584 --> 00:52:02,987 I am officially tapping out. 965 00:52:05,055 --> 00:52:12,062 ♪ ♪ 966 00:52:24,074 --> 00:52:26,110 Hey, guys. 967 00:52:26,243 --> 00:52:28,012 Thanks for coming out in this weather. 968 00:52:28,145 --> 00:52:29,847 ♪ ♪ 969 00:52:29,980 --> 00:52:31,482 Ah, I just couldn't get no fish. 970 00:52:31,615 --> 00:52:33,484 I'm hungry. 971 00:52:33,617 --> 00:52:37,821 I'm working 12, 14 hour days on hardly any food, 972 00:52:37,955 --> 00:52:39,656 and then the last couple of days, no food. 973 00:52:39,790 --> 00:52:41,225 ♪ ♪ 974 00:52:41,358 --> 00:52:42,993 I learned a lot about, 975 00:52:43,127 --> 00:52:45,662 you know, physically, emotionally, mentally, 976 00:52:45,796 --> 00:52:47,531 what it's like getting hungry. 977 00:52:47,664 --> 00:52:49,600 You know, it made me think a lot more of my father, 978 00:52:49,733 --> 00:52:51,502 you know. 979 00:52:51,635 --> 00:52:58,409 ♪ ♪ 980 00:53:09,987 --> 00:53:11,622 I don't think I ever-- 981 00:53:11,755 --> 00:53:12,756 You know, I don't even know 982 00:53:12,890 --> 00:53:14,058 if I ever cried for him, but... 983 00:53:14,191 --> 00:53:15,359 ♪ ♪ 984 00:53:15,492 --> 00:53:17,394 [sighs] 985 00:53:17,528 --> 00:53:18,729 I don't know. 986 00:53:18,862 --> 00:53:22,733 It's just-- I guess I appreciate him, 987 00:53:22,866 --> 00:53:24,201 what he went through, you know? 988 00:53:26,637 --> 00:53:28,472 That's about it. 989 00:53:28,605 --> 00:53:35,145 ♪ ♪ 990 00:53:35,279 --> 00:53:39,383 This process of following in my father's footsteps 991 00:53:39,516 --> 00:53:43,220 has given me insight into my own challenges 992 00:53:43,353 --> 00:53:47,157 and my shortcomings. 993 00:53:47,291 --> 00:53:50,694 I'm 59 years old, but I'm never too old 994 00:53:50,828 --> 00:53:53,030 to learn or to change 995 00:53:53,163 --> 00:53:56,433 or to try to be a better person. 996 00:53:56,567 --> 00:53:59,236 I never was a very good team player, 997 00:53:59,369 --> 00:54:03,340 and I held that as a badge of honor of my independence, 998 00:54:03,474 --> 00:54:07,845 my uniqueness, and I no longer see that 999 00:54:07,978 --> 00:54:12,249 as something to be proud of or to hang on to. 1000 00:54:12,382 --> 00:54:14,218 ♪ ♪ 1001 00:54:14,351 --> 00:54:17,054 My father was there in front of me 1002 00:54:17,187 --> 00:54:20,057 walking a trail, 1003 00:54:20,190 --> 00:54:24,828 and the fact that there's a trail in front of me 1004 00:54:24,962 --> 00:54:29,166 to also follow and see the good and the bad 1005 00:54:29,299 --> 00:54:32,102 is appreciated because I know now 1006 00:54:32,236 --> 00:54:37,708 where to step off the side and walk a different path. 1007 00:54:37,841 --> 00:54:40,511 Someone else is going to walk away 1008 00:54:40,644 --> 00:54:43,147 with the half million dollars. 1009 00:54:43,280 --> 00:54:45,716 It's not meant for me for whatever reason. 1010 00:54:45,849 --> 00:54:48,385 I don't question it. 1011 00:54:48,519 --> 00:54:51,088 This experience has taught me so much, 1012 00:54:51,221 --> 00:54:54,825 and I feel I still have more work to do. 1013 00:54:54,958 --> 00:55:01,965 ♪ ♪ 1014 00:55:19,883 --> 00:55:22,920 - I brought this sweater in honor of my mom. 1015 00:55:25,322 --> 00:55:28,392 This sweater... 1016 00:55:28,525 --> 00:55:33,530 is one of hundreds like this-- 1017 00:55:33,664 --> 00:55:36,333 complicated ones. 1018 00:55:36,466 --> 00:55:38,969 She could look at other people's knitting 1019 00:55:39,102 --> 00:55:40,304 and say, "Oh." 1020 00:55:40,437 --> 00:55:42,039 And she would see all the mistakes. 1021 00:55:44,741 --> 00:55:47,978 So, like, all of her sweaters that she made were perfect. 1022 00:55:50,180 --> 00:55:52,549 I think my trying to go for excellence 1023 00:55:52,683 --> 00:55:54,852 is because my mom. 1024 00:55:54,985 --> 00:55:57,554 She was really talented. 1025 00:55:57,688 --> 00:56:00,757 I miss her a lot. 1026 00:56:00,891 --> 00:56:03,760 I'm not gonna go any further because I'm not crying on TV. 1027 00:56:03,894 --> 00:56:07,097 ♪ ♪ 1028 00:56:07,231 --> 00:56:10,701 Since that grouse, I've been burning a lot of calories. 1029 00:56:10,834 --> 00:56:12,202 ♪ ♪ 1030 00:56:12,336 --> 00:56:15,072 It's almost like I didn't eat it. 1031 00:56:15,205 --> 00:56:16,673 I need to keep eating, you know? 1032 00:56:16,807 --> 00:56:18,575 I need to have meals. 1033 00:56:18,709 --> 00:56:21,445 So I'm gonna try another hunt. 1034 00:56:21,578 --> 00:56:25,249 Gonna give her a shot, try to call in a moose. 1035 00:56:25,382 --> 00:56:27,117 ♪ ♪ 1036 00:56:27,251 --> 00:56:29,786 The only way I can stay here is to get a moose 1037 00:56:29,920 --> 00:56:32,756 because I'm not getting any fish... 1038 00:56:38,095 --> 00:56:42,099 Ah! 1039 00:56:50,140 --> 00:56:51,608 Sound doesn't travel too well, 1040 00:56:51,742 --> 00:56:53,377 but you never know. 1041 00:56:53,510 --> 00:56:55,812 They have better ears than we do. 1042 00:56:55,946 --> 00:56:57,214 ♪ ♪ 1043 00:56:57,347 --> 00:57:02,319 Ah! 1044 00:57:02,452 --> 00:57:06,556 ♪ ♪ 1045 00:57:06,690 --> 00:57:08,425 Oh, I don't feel good. 1046 00:57:08,558 --> 00:57:11,528 ♪ ♪ 1047 00:57:11,662 --> 00:57:16,199 I'm hungry, super hungry. 1048 00:57:16,333 --> 00:57:18,302 ♪ ♪ 1049 00:57:18,435 --> 00:57:23,106 I guess I thought I had more energy than I did. 1050 00:57:23,240 --> 00:57:25,008 I'm just not operating. 1051 00:57:25,142 --> 00:57:27,110 ♪ ♪ 1052 00:57:27,244 --> 00:57:29,579 I'm dizzy, and I think I'm having 1053 00:57:29,713 --> 00:57:31,348 a heart attack or something. 1054 00:57:31,481 --> 00:57:33,283 ♪ ♪ 1055 00:57:33,450 --> 00:57:36,019 Well, I might have to move this operation to the ground 1056 00:57:36,153 --> 00:57:41,491 because I'm not feeling too hot. 1057 00:57:41,625 --> 00:57:43,727 ♪ ♪ 1058 00:57:49,800 --> 00:57:52,469 [dramatic music] 1059 00:57:52,602 --> 00:57:55,439 ♪ ♪ 1060 00:57:55,572 --> 00:57:58,909 Oh, there. A backrest. 1061 00:58:03,580 --> 00:58:04,881 [sighs] 1062 00:58:07,317 --> 00:58:09,553 I think I'm just rapidly deteriorating. 1063 00:58:09,686 --> 00:58:12,522 ♪ ♪ 1064 00:58:12,656 --> 00:58:14,825 Let's say I actually took a shot at a moose, 1065 00:58:14,958 --> 00:58:18,462 and I actually got it. Then what? 1066 00:58:18,595 --> 00:58:20,097 ♪ ♪ 1067 00:58:20,230 --> 00:58:23,700 I'd be probably too weak to even get a moose. 1068 00:58:23,834 --> 00:58:26,002 I'm no spring chicken. 1069 00:58:26,136 --> 00:58:29,339 I feel extreme dizziness. 1070 00:58:29,473 --> 00:58:32,275 My heart rate is skyrocketing. 1071 00:58:32,409 --> 00:58:33,910 ♪ ♪ 1072 00:58:34,044 --> 00:58:35,479 Yeah, I'm really worried. 1073 00:58:35,612 --> 00:58:37,514 ♪ ♪ 1074 00:58:37,647 --> 00:58:40,350 This situation reminds me of my daughter 1075 00:58:40,484 --> 00:58:42,786 who told me, when she was three, 1076 00:58:42,919 --> 00:58:44,488 you can't rewind your life. 1077 00:58:44,621 --> 00:58:46,189 ♪ ♪ 1078 00:58:46,323 --> 00:58:49,192 I think my mom had a heart attack at my age. 1079 00:58:49,326 --> 00:58:51,728 ♪ ♪ 1080 00:58:51,862 --> 00:58:53,530 I don't need to have a heart attack. 1081 00:58:53,663 --> 00:58:55,732 ♪ ♪ 1082 00:58:55,866 --> 00:58:58,201 I really don't feel good. 1083 00:58:58,335 --> 00:59:01,271 I think I got to get back to the shelter. 1084 00:59:01,405 --> 00:59:08,145 ♪ ♪ 1085 00:59:14,985 --> 00:59:16,420 Well... 1086 00:59:20,023 --> 00:59:21,992 I feel sick to my stomach. 1087 00:59:24,060 --> 00:59:25,562 ♪ ♪ 1088 00:59:25,695 --> 00:59:27,664 I don't know what's going on with my body, 1089 00:59:27,798 --> 00:59:32,169 but I've never felt like this, ever in my life. 1090 00:59:32,302 --> 00:59:34,838 It seems like I can't do anything. 1091 00:59:34,971 --> 00:59:37,541 It's kind of disturbing. 1092 00:59:37,674 --> 00:59:39,810 I really don't know what to do. 1093 00:59:39,943 --> 00:59:42,379 ♪ ♪ 1094 00:59:42,512 --> 00:59:44,147 I wish I felt better. 1095 00:59:44,281 --> 00:59:45,916 ♪ ♪ 1096 00:59:46,049 --> 00:59:47,384 Ugh. 1097 00:59:47,517 --> 00:59:50,887 ♪ ♪ 1098 00:59:51,021 --> 00:59:54,057 My mind is good. It's still here. 1099 00:59:54,191 --> 00:59:56,092 My body, though, is not following. 1100 00:59:56,226 --> 01:00:01,264 ♪ ♪ 1101 01:00:01,398 --> 01:00:04,534 I still don't know what the deal is. 1102 01:00:04,668 --> 01:00:06,436 Is it just bad luck? 1103 01:00:06,570 --> 01:00:09,239 ♪ ♪ 1104 01:00:09,372 --> 01:00:13,543 Bad management of time? 1105 01:00:13,677 --> 01:00:15,545 ♪ ♪ 1106 01:00:15,679 --> 01:00:20,584 I wanted to be here 30, 40, 50, 60, 70, 80 days, you know? 1107 01:00:20,717 --> 01:00:23,653 ♪ ♪ 1108 01:00:23,787 --> 01:00:28,592 Oh, Christ, it's not what I want to do, 1109 01:00:28,725 --> 01:00:31,895 but here goes nothing. 1110 01:00:32,028 --> 01:00:33,897 ♪ ♪ 1111 01:00:34,030 --> 01:00:36,900 [phone beeping] 1112 01:00:37,000 --> 01:00:39,736 ♪ ♪ 1113 01:00:39,870 --> 01:00:41,838 This is Ann. 1114 01:00:41,972 --> 01:00:44,774 I'm officially tapping out. 1115 01:00:48,845 --> 01:00:50,413 Oh. 1116 01:00:50,547 --> 01:00:52,582 I did it. 1117 01:00:56,920 --> 01:00:59,256 [sighs] 1118 01:00:59,389 --> 01:01:06,162 ♪ ♪ 1119 01:01:13,370 --> 01:01:16,206 Feel like this is my home. 1120 01:01:16,339 --> 01:01:17,674 I don't want to leave. 1121 01:01:17,807 --> 01:01:24,814 ♪ ♪ 1122 01:01:26,816 --> 01:01:29,619 Just don't have any energy. I just-- 1123 01:01:30,787 --> 01:01:32,856 Heart racing. 1124 01:01:32,989 --> 01:01:35,692 I think it's just lack of food. 1125 01:01:35,825 --> 01:01:37,861 ♪ ♪ 1126 01:01:37,994 --> 01:01:40,564 There's nothing I can do right now. 1127 01:01:40,697 --> 01:01:42,499 I mean, I could try and get a moose, 1128 01:01:42,632 --> 01:01:43,833 but I can hardly move. 1129 01:01:43,967 --> 01:01:46,236 It would take me five days to skin it. 1130 01:01:46,369 --> 01:01:47,837 ♪ ♪ 1131 01:01:47,971 --> 01:01:50,073 It's a very hard decision, 1132 01:01:50,206 --> 01:01:52,208 and it feels like it's too early. 1133 01:01:52,342 --> 01:01:54,311 ♪ ♪ 1134 01:01:54,444 --> 01:01:57,247 I don't want to go. I really like it here. 1135 01:01:57,380 --> 01:01:59,149 ♪ ♪ 1136 01:01:59,282 --> 01:02:02,285 But I think it's a huge accomplishment, 1137 01:02:02,419 --> 01:02:04,955 even just to be where I'm at, you know? 1138 01:02:05,088 --> 01:02:09,426 I can't believe I'm here. It's a gift. 1139 01:02:09,559 --> 01:02:11,228 It really is. 1140 01:02:11,361 --> 01:02:18,101 ♪ ♪ 1141 01:02:19,402 --> 01:02:21,338 It's very frustrating. 1142 01:02:21,471 --> 01:02:25,675 This is not what I planned for at all, 1143 01:02:25,809 --> 01:02:28,378 and I sometimes wish you could get a do-over card. 1144 01:02:28,511 --> 01:02:30,513 ♪ ♪ 1145 01:02:30,647 --> 01:02:32,782 I was thinking about how this experience has changed me. 1146 01:02:32,916 --> 01:02:37,754 Even though I didn't do as well as I had projected, 1147 01:02:37,887 --> 01:02:42,559 I did as well as I could, and I'm satisfied with that. 1148 01:02:42,692 --> 01:02:44,728 ♪ ♪ 1149 01:02:44,861 --> 01:02:46,096 It feels like my whole life, 1150 01:02:46,229 --> 01:02:47,364 I've always been trying to live up 1151 01:02:47,497 --> 01:02:49,566 to some expectation that's not there 1152 01:02:49,699 --> 01:02:53,003 or be somebody who I'm not, 1153 01:02:53,136 --> 01:02:55,705 but I don't need that validation anymore. 1154 01:02:55,839 --> 01:02:57,240 ♪ ♪ 1155 01:02:57,374 --> 01:02:59,576 I'm letting it all go after this. 1156 01:02:59,709 --> 01:03:02,679 The apprehension and the anxiety? 1157 01:03:02,812 --> 01:03:05,315 I'm done with it. 1158 01:03:05,448 --> 01:03:08,418 I like myself, I've decided. 1159 01:03:08,551 --> 01:03:10,520 It's taken me this many years to say, 1160 01:03:10,654 --> 01:03:12,922 "I like myself." 1161 01:03:13,056 --> 01:03:15,225 It seems like a better way to be. 1162 01:03:15,358 --> 01:03:19,462 ♪ ♪ 1163 01:03:19,596 --> 01:03:21,865 - I got to get my shelter done. 1164 01:03:21,998 --> 01:03:24,034 Then I can go to fishing and hunting. 1165 01:03:24,167 --> 01:03:26,336 Oh, it's heavier than heck. 1166 01:03:26,469 --> 01:03:29,306 I'm earning every bit of that $500,000 1167 01:03:29,439 --> 01:03:31,308 building this cabin. - [laughs] 1168 01:03:31,441 --> 01:03:32,809 Rah, rah, rah. 1169 01:03:32,942 --> 01:03:34,010 I had two nice fish. 1170 01:03:34,144 --> 01:03:35,945 Yes! 1171 01:03:36,079 --> 01:03:38,548 I put them in a safe reservoir for the night. 1172 01:03:38,682 --> 01:03:40,483 That is a mistake that won't be made again. 1173 01:03:40,617 --> 01:03:42,018 ♪ ♪ 1174 01:03:42,152 --> 01:03:44,654 - There's a bear right over there. 1175 01:03:44,788 --> 01:03:47,924 If this goes down, I could be winning this thing. 1176 01:03:48,058 --> 01:03:53,763 ♪ ♪ 1177 01:03:58,768 --> 01:04:01,738 [dramatic music] 1178 01:04:02,305 --> 01:04:05,208 [soft, tense music] 1179 01:04:05,308 --> 01:04:11,981 ♪ ♪ 1180 01:04:12,082 --> 01:04:14,184 - It sure is nice to have a cabin. 1181 01:04:14,284 --> 01:04:16,853 That's one thing I really wanted to do. 1182 01:04:16,953 --> 01:04:18,555 But I'm just hungry, 1183 01:04:18,655 --> 01:04:20,356 and I don't have no fat left. 1184 01:04:20,457 --> 01:04:22,726 I feel a little dizzy. 1185 01:04:22,826 --> 01:04:24,928 ♪ ♪ 1186 01:04:25,028 --> 01:04:28,465 I'm ready to go. 1187 01:04:28,565 --> 01:04:31,768 ♪ ♪ 1188 01:04:31,868 --> 01:04:33,737 I don't know what's going on. I did everything 1189 01:04:33,837 --> 01:04:35,705 that I think was right. 1190 01:04:35,805 --> 01:04:38,908 I had a wonderful rod and a reel, lures. 1191 01:04:39,008 --> 01:04:41,277 Got some right off and then they just quit. 1192 01:04:41,378 --> 01:04:43,480 My little fat reserve burned off, 1193 01:04:43,580 --> 01:04:46,349 and I'm probably burning muscle now and whatever else. 1194 01:04:46,449 --> 01:04:48,451 And that's just-- that's too much for me. 1195 01:04:48,551 --> 01:04:51,721 So finished my cabin, slept in it last night, 1196 01:04:51,821 --> 01:04:53,857 and this is all hand-built, you know, 1197 01:04:53,957 --> 01:04:57,127 with a saw and axe, and that's on-- 1198 01:04:57,227 --> 01:04:58,361 that's on very little food, 1199 01:04:58,461 --> 01:05:00,497 and the last two days, zero food. 1200 01:05:00,597 --> 01:05:03,566 I just knew that I wasn't gonna be able to compete 1201 01:05:03,666 --> 01:05:05,468 with the people who, uh-- 1202 01:05:05,568 --> 01:05:06,703 who are out there, 1203 01:05:06,803 --> 01:05:08,471 got a lot more reserves than me. 1204 01:05:08,571 --> 01:05:10,039 I don't wanna-- 1205 01:05:10,140 --> 01:05:13,176 I don't wanna get any older than I already am. 1206 01:05:13,276 --> 01:05:15,145 [sighs] Holy [bleep]. 1207 01:05:15,245 --> 01:05:16,312 What is that? 1208 01:05:17,947 --> 01:05:18,848 - Oh! Well, thank you. 1209 01:05:18,948 --> 01:05:21,951 ♪ ♪ 1210 01:05:22,051 --> 01:05:24,420 Oh, wonderful. 1211 01:05:24,521 --> 01:05:31,428 ♪ ♪ 1212 01:05:31,528 --> 01:05:34,197 Thank you. I'll take more. 1213 01:05:34,297 --> 01:05:36,299 Keep--yeah. 1214 01:05:36,399 --> 01:05:41,438 ♪ ♪ 1215 01:05:41,538 --> 01:05:42,672 [inspiring music] 1216 01:05:42,772 --> 01:05:44,340 I think I'm mostly a craftsman. 1217 01:05:44,440 --> 01:05:46,676 You know, I was an engineer. I was in the corporate world, 1218 01:05:46,776 --> 01:05:48,845 and now I'm a pilot and mechanic. 1219 01:05:48,945 --> 01:05:51,748 So yeah, I'm proud of the things I made. 1220 01:05:51,848 --> 01:05:53,750 And you know, I built the cabin 1221 01:05:53,850 --> 01:05:55,952 the way my old man did, 1222 01:05:56,052 --> 01:06:00,990 without a chainsaw and just materials on hand. 1223 01:06:01,090 --> 01:06:02,525 Because I always thought, you know, 1224 01:06:02,625 --> 01:06:03,660 "I wanna go out there. 1225 01:06:03,760 --> 01:06:04,928 "I wanna, you know, get back 1226 01:06:05,028 --> 01:06:07,363 to where I came from." 1227 01:06:07,464 --> 01:06:09,432 I wanna get home, 'cause there's some remote places 1228 01:06:09,532 --> 01:06:12,702 up in Alaska that I would like to have a cabin at. 1229 01:06:12,802 --> 01:06:14,237 ♪ ♪ 1230 01:06:14,337 --> 01:06:15,605 I'm 59 years old. 1231 01:06:15,705 --> 01:06:18,208 "Alone" show has given me the opportunity 1232 01:06:18,308 --> 01:06:20,910 to go out there and do this, 1233 01:06:21,010 --> 01:06:22,946 and I'm proud of that, you know? 1234 01:06:23,046 --> 01:06:27,617 ♪ ♪ 1235 01:06:27,717 --> 01:06:30,086 - Feel free to just take a seat right over here. 1236 01:06:30,186 --> 01:06:31,154 You're welcome in. 1237 01:06:31,254 --> 01:06:32,422 - When I was laying down, 1238 01:06:32,522 --> 01:06:34,357 my heart was beating fast, 1239 01:06:34,457 --> 01:06:35,458 you know, faster than normal. 1240 01:06:35,558 --> 01:06:37,494 I usually have a pretty low heart rate. 1241 01:06:37,594 --> 01:06:39,229 And I noticed it was thumpin' away. 1242 01:06:39,329 --> 01:06:41,598 - Mm-kay. - And after about four days, 1243 01:06:41,698 --> 01:06:43,766 I didn't feel like I was really there. 1244 01:06:43,867 --> 01:06:45,768 - Basically just gonna check your blood sugar levels. 1245 01:06:45,869 --> 01:06:47,203 And after we get the assessment in today, 1246 01:06:47,303 --> 01:06:48,805 we'll be sending that through to our doctor 1247 01:06:48,905 --> 01:06:50,073 and our dietician. 1248 01:06:50,173 --> 01:06:51,708 Just part of getting a baseline. 1249 01:06:51,808 --> 01:06:53,142 Over the next few days, 1250 01:06:53,243 --> 01:06:56,579 we'll be reintegrating food into your diet, obviously, 1251 01:06:56,679 --> 01:06:58,014 and we just wanna make sure that you're not having 1252 01:06:58,114 --> 01:06:59,816 any adverse reactions to that. 1253 01:06:59,916 --> 01:07:02,852 - Oh, well, anything's better than what I've had before. 1254 01:07:02,952 --> 01:07:06,489 [laughs] Ain't gonna complain. 1255 01:07:06,589 --> 01:07:08,524 [soft music] 1256 01:07:08,625 --> 01:07:10,293 - And take a deep breath in for me. 1257 01:07:10,393 --> 01:07:12,428 - I really thought I could do it, you know? 1258 01:07:12,528 --> 01:07:14,864 - And deep breath. 1259 01:07:14,964 --> 01:07:19,569 - I'll just be happy to get back and, you know, 1260 01:07:19,669 --> 01:07:21,004 eat more. 1261 01:07:21,104 --> 01:07:23,339 I wanna be a healthier person. 1262 01:07:23,439 --> 01:07:24,974 [laughs] 1263 01:07:25,074 --> 01:07:27,277 Yeah, I gave it my best shot. 1264 01:07:27,377 --> 01:07:30,980 ♪ ♪ 1265 01:07:31,080 --> 01:07:33,449 You know, we're all on a path, I think, 1266 01:07:33,550 --> 01:07:37,420 on the same trail, just a different time. 1267 01:07:37,520 --> 01:07:39,289 My dad was a real woodsman, 1268 01:07:39,389 --> 01:07:45,395 so this experience brings me back to my roots, 1269 01:07:45,495 --> 01:07:51,000 and it brings me closer to him. 1270 01:07:51,100 --> 01:07:54,003 [dramatic music] 1271 01:07:54,103 --> 01:07:55,772 ♪ ♪ 1272 01:07:59,842 --> 01:08:02,779 [dramatic music] 1273 01:08:02,845 --> 01:08:09,886 ♪ ♪ 1274 01:08:10,820 --> 01:08:14,257 - I haven't slept at all. My stomach hurts really bad. 1275 01:08:14,324 --> 01:08:15,592 ♪ ♪ 1276 01:08:15,658 --> 01:08:18,795 So much for winning the half a million, huh? 1277 01:08:18,861 --> 01:08:24,834 Now look at me. Washed up, no energy. 1278 01:08:24,901 --> 01:08:26,135 I don't want to leave. 1279 01:08:26,202 --> 01:08:29,205 ♪ ♪ 1280 01:08:29,272 --> 01:08:31,140 Okay, here goes nothing. 1281 01:08:31,207 --> 01:08:34,210 ♪ ♪ 1282 01:08:34,277 --> 01:08:36,346 It's the hardest thing, I think, I've ever done. 1283 01:08:36,412 --> 01:08:39,349 [phone beeping] 1284 01:08:39,415 --> 01:08:42,051 ♪ ♪ 1285 01:08:42,118 --> 01:08:44,587 Hi, I'm officially tapping out. 1286 01:08:44,654 --> 01:08:48,992 I--I just don't feel good, and I don't want to tap out 1287 01:08:49,058 --> 01:08:51,628 'cause I want to stay here, and-- 1288 01:08:51,694 --> 01:08:54,330 ♪ ♪ 1289 01:08:54,397 --> 01:08:57,066 Ugh, I'm just 100% spent. 1290 01:08:57,133 --> 01:09:01,137 ♪ ♪ 1291 01:09:01,204 --> 01:09:03,940 I don't want to go back to reality. 1292 01:09:04,007 --> 01:09:06,743 Feel like this is my home. 1293 01:09:06,809 --> 01:09:09,212 I don't want to leave. 1294 01:09:09,278 --> 01:09:12,315 I'll always remember what this place looks like 1295 01:09:12,382 --> 01:09:15,284 in my mind, I think. It's so raw. 1296 01:09:15,351 --> 01:09:17,286 It's so primitive. 1297 01:09:17,353 --> 01:09:18,688 ♪ ♪ 1298 01:09:18,755 --> 01:09:21,858 It's a beautiful, beautiful place. 1299 01:09:21,924 --> 01:09:23,493 ♪ ♪ 1300 01:09:23,559 --> 01:09:25,061 If I can't get food, 1301 01:09:25,128 --> 01:09:26,696 how am I gonna keep living out here? 1302 01:09:26,763 --> 01:09:28,865 I just-- my health is going down. 1303 01:09:28,931 --> 01:09:31,434 I just can hardly-- hardly move. 1304 01:09:31,501 --> 01:09:34,937 I realized that there's nothing I can do right now. 1305 01:09:35,004 --> 01:09:37,774 I thought I'd win the half a million. 1306 01:09:37,840 --> 01:09:42,445 - Some tea for you. - Oh, my gosh. 1307 01:09:42,512 --> 01:09:43,880 It's something in a thermos. - Here. 1308 01:09:43,946 --> 01:09:45,448 Something in a thermos. 1309 01:09:45,515 --> 01:09:49,318 ♪ ♪ 1310 01:09:49,385 --> 01:09:50,820 Mmm. 1311 01:09:50,887 --> 01:09:52,321 [sighs] 1312 01:09:52,388 --> 01:09:54,457 ♪ ♪ 1313 01:09:54,524 --> 01:09:58,161 Oh, that almost fills me up. 1314 01:09:58,227 --> 01:10:00,163 It's like a full meal. 1315 01:10:00,229 --> 01:10:07,203 ♪ ♪ 1316 01:10:11,808 --> 01:10:14,077 It's a very hard decision, 1317 01:10:14,143 --> 01:10:16,546 and it feels like it's too early. 1318 01:10:16,612 --> 01:10:23,653 ♪ ♪ 1319 01:10:35,364 --> 01:10:37,400 - This is my cabin/the clinic. 1320 01:10:37,467 --> 01:10:40,069 We'll just be going inside and doing a quick, little exam. 1321 01:10:40,136 --> 01:10:42,472 ♪ ♪ 1322 01:10:42,538 --> 01:10:44,273 Your signs were giving us a little bit of concern 1323 01:10:44,340 --> 01:10:46,242 out there, specifically related 1324 01:10:46,309 --> 01:10:47,744 to the amount of water you were drinking. 1325 01:10:47,810 --> 01:10:50,680 The tentative plan is that we'll be flying you back 1326 01:10:50,746 --> 01:10:53,516 to the hospital just for a quick evaluation. 1327 01:10:53,583 --> 01:10:55,651 - Can't I just, like, have some food here 1328 01:10:55,718 --> 01:10:56,986 and stay here? 1329 01:10:57,053 --> 01:10:58,821 - Unfortunately, not with the symptoms 1330 01:10:58,888 --> 01:11:00,156 that you've been giving. 1331 01:11:00,223 --> 01:11:02,959 - It seems like too extreme to go from, like, 1332 01:11:03,025 --> 01:11:05,461 beautiful wilderness to a hospital. 1333 01:11:05,528 --> 01:11:07,563 - You have mild symptoms of starvation 1334 01:11:07,630 --> 01:11:09,665 since you haven't had too much food. 1335 01:11:09,732 --> 01:11:12,101 We want to confirm those through lab tests, 1336 01:11:12,168 --> 01:11:14,437 so obviously we can't really do lab tests here. 1337 01:11:14,504 --> 01:11:17,206 Making sure that whatever we do do 1338 01:11:17,273 --> 01:11:19,642 doesn't harm further and that you're also 1339 01:11:19,709 --> 01:11:22,812 in a state that you can recover well and healthily 1340 01:11:22,879 --> 01:11:24,680 - Right. - Make sense? 1341 01:11:24,747 --> 01:11:26,616 - Yep. - Perfect. 1342 01:11:26,682 --> 01:11:28,784 ♪ ♪ 1343 01:11:28,851 --> 01:11:31,187 - I wish that my story would've been different. 1344 01:11:31,254 --> 01:11:33,156 Wish it would've been more spectacular, 1345 01:11:33,222 --> 01:11:36,826 but I guess I just did what I could, you know? 1346 01:11:36,893 --> 01:11:43,900 ♪ ♪