[dramatic music]
♪
- I'm gonna do this, man.
I'm gonna do this.
I'm gonna fight this thing out until the last breath.
♪
- Okay, game on.
♪
- I got him!
- In "Alone's" most remote location yet...
- Yes!
- Ten participants set out to survive at all costs.
- I'm going to stay alive.
- [inhales sharply] Ah!
- Battling extreme isolation...
- There is no camera crews.
You are really alone.
- It'll eat at you, tear you up.
- God, why?
- It's a battle.
Nobody ever comes out the same.
- Oh, man.
- It would be impossible to.
- And fierce predators.
- It's a big bear.
It's right outside my shelter.
- Predators like that damn sure are gonna kill you.
- Please don't rip my face off.
[animal screeching]
- He bit the hell out of me.
- They'll endure merciless wind...
- It's been over 60 hours, and it has not let up.
- I can hear the trees falling down around me.
- And bitter cold.
- This whole place has turned into a frozen hell.
- The last one standing...
- It's a moose. Wow.
- Whoo-hoo-hoo!
- No, no.
- Wins.
♪
- Being so close to the Arctic,
if my shelter is not built impenetrable from the wind,
I'm kind of screwed.
- This is absolutely crazy.
There's trees blowing down everywhere.
♪
- No, no, no, no, no.
♪
My quiver came off my bow.
[bleep]
There's big-game trails.
So my overwintering shelter will increase my chances.
Shoot a moose from up here.
- I want to increase my odds to catch fish,
so I decide I really want to make a canoe
to fish in deeper water.
Holy cow, it works.
- The expenditure of calories that it's taken
to put up this log cabin is extreme.
I will need protein at some point.
- I worked as hard as I've ever worked on no food.
I'm not gonna subject my body to any more.
I am officially tapping out.
- I feel extreme dizziness.
My heart rate is skyrocketing.
I'm officially tapping out.
[sniffs]
♪
- I'm out looking for anything this morning.
I'm hoping for a grouse,
but I'll take whatever I can get.
♪
Losing those arrows, for me, was potentially
a journey-ending moment,
but I'm not someone who is ever
gonna give up at anything.
So at the end of the day, when my journey is over here,
I want to walk away knowing that I did everything that
I could do to succeed out here.
I just have to continue to get food.
Back into the good berries.
There are hardly any left anywhere else.
I'm doing my best.
So I'm gonna keep doing my best.
Look at that.
I got a little bear scat.
♪
See how fresh that bear [bleep] it is?
♪
That was last night.
♪
He's in here somewhere.
♪
I've just got to find him.
I don't have to accept failure like I have to accept loss,
because there are some things in this world
that you can change,
and you just have to want to.
I think he's eating his way into this patch.
This is a sign, and I'm gonna see my way through this.
♪
I need that bear.
♪
- This is gonna be a good one.
I can feel it.
I believe I'll heat treat this arrow,
these that I build today.
I'm gonna treat them right.
I made a couple of sharp broadhead arrows
out of some beer cans that I found.
I'm really hoping that I can get the arrows
sharp enough to kill a bear.
Hold it just like that.
Put it around the end.
Put some snare wire around that.
I'm gonna go all in on this.
It's worth a shot.
♪
Nice and sharp.
Let's roast this bad boy.
Winning this thing would put me in a position
where I could do something outdoors
and maybe not have to be gone from my family,
because my wife isn't crazy about that,
especially with the little one.
Neither am I, to be honest.
Just got to put some fletching down.
I find that bear, this is my ticket.
So I'm giving it my best shot.
And if my best is the best, I win $500,000.
I think that's a finished arrow.
I'm pretty content with it, really.
I think that is my end game.
I just keep hunting that bear until I starve.
I got to start crafting some more.
♪
- Well, that's done.
I need to reset my gillnet.
Wow.
Otters--some of the best fishermen going.
You know where the fish are, don't ya?
They're not coming up for much air, they're not.
Now, catch me a fish, please.
♪
That's that.
I want to get fishing.
♪
We need to eat.
♪
I have found absolutely no fresh moose sign,
no fresh bear sign.
But we have been catching fish.
Still got two left.
The way things are going, fishing is key.
I'm gonna tie on our new lure.
The Reindeer Lake gold hellfire.
She's a thing of beauty.
Good knot.
And there we have it,
our homemade rod and our homemade lure.
Fingers crossed.
That's acceptable.
The rod's working good.
♪
I can remember my first fishing rod was
given to me as an Easter present.
That day, my dad and Uncle David took
my brother and I down to the pond
at the local gravel pits...
Come on.
Catching small chub and small trout.
You know, it's one of my oldest memories.
Let's go try a couple casts out off this other point.
It was the roots of something that
would stay with me forever.
Every time I catch a fish,
it kind of brings out that little kid.
♪
[tense music]
Oh, we got something.
All right.
No, no.
Oh!
What a terrible spot to be.
Come on.
Get up here.
♪
All right!
Can you see it?
Oh.
Rah, rah, rawr.
Oh, yeah.
I am happy.
Put this here.
I can start my pool.
I'm gonna continue fishing.
Well, well, well.
♪
Every time we catch a fish,
it adds another day, two, three, four,
depending on the size of the fish.
♪
We got a fish, boys and girls.
♪
No, no, no, no, no, no, no.
♪
Yes!
Trout number two on the gold hellfire.
Oh, yeah.
I'm gonna throw this in over here.
What a game-changer.
♪ We got two fish, two fish, two fish ♪
It's getting dark.
I don't have time to smoke fish today.
I got my livewell here.
I'll just leave them here for the night.
And I think they'll be all right.
I'm taking a chance on it.
I'll clean them in the morning.
♪
The only thing I have to worry about
is one of those otters or something coming
and stealing them on me.
And that'll create such a ruckus.
It's not far away.
So I'm sure I'll hear it.
And we'll go put a stop to that really quickly.
♪
I don't know what I'm hearing out there.
Just thinking about it got me nervous.
But anyway, they're not gonna get them.
♪
- The wind blew up.
I'm gonna go check on my fish.
♪
There it is.
♪
How the [bleep]?
Oh, my God.
Ah.
Wow.
[dramatic music]
- How the [bleep]?
♪
Oh, no.
I don't see any fish.
Oh, no.
They're gone.
Ah.
I had two nice fish.
I put them in what I thought was gonna be
a very safe reservoir for the night.
And obviously, it [bleep] wasn't.
I'm sick about it.
That is a mistake that won't be made again.
[bleep] damn it.
♪
That was four days' worth of food minimum, gone.
I can't believe what I've just done.
I made every excuse not to clean those fish last night,
and now I got nothing.
I know better, and I went against my own judgment,
and it cost me.
How [bleep] depressing.
I can't afford mistakes.
Only one idiot to blame, and you're looking at him.
♪
- Okay, flies, for real.
Stay out of there!
I'm liking the way the shelter is coming together.
It's time to go fishing.
♪ I know I'm only here 'cause of my family tree ♪
♪ The impact I'm having's so much bigger than me ♪
♪ But it's not a stress
♪ All I'm feeling is love
♪ And I know my son will see the situation is humbling ♪
♪ Reach out to his papa when he feels like he's stumbling ♪
♪ Like I do, Daddy, I miss you ♪
♪ I'm walking in your footsteps ♪
♪ And man, you got big shoes
♪ So I'm doing the work and digging the dirt ♪
♪ To make my bear den
♪ So when it gets cold, I'm underground ♪
♪ Like my bear friends
♪ And when I need a break, I pick some blueberry magic ♪
♪ It's one of my tactics to filling my belly basket ♪
♪
Trout! Sweet.
Actually, I lost count.
I think that's 16 fish so far.
Wow, like as soon as that hit the water.
♪
Another trout.
Awesome.
♪ I feel like I'm thriving and not just surviving ♪
It's so crazy.
My problems are, I have too much food to cook.
♪
I got a lot of smoked fish hanging
in beach house and three-day-old pike.
I'm fit for this challenge because
of my really unique childhood.
Going to school was a daily choice.
I didn't struggle in school at all,
but it was quite boring.
So I opted into school until fifth grade,
and then my parents let me do my own version
of homeschooling, which was basically
I take my goats up our canyon every day.
My dad gave me a big stack of literature to read.
And being alone and being outside,
I was way more fulfilled discovering things
in the wilderness than I was in the classroom.
Call that dinner.
♪
- Great.
♪
Working on my fireplace.
Starting to work on the comforts of bear den.
This feels nice.
♪
I've been married for 18 years to my amazing wife, Delia.
And 10 years ago, we had our son, Osiris.
He's in an outdoor school now
that skills and survival influence.
So it was a really good time for me
to come do this and reconnect with my roots
and start to share that with my son more.
Don't think that'll cave in.
I'm gonna go get a piece of fire.
Being alone here is definitely a lot different than the rest
of the times I've spent away from my family,
especially my son.
There's a lot of work that I do in Oregon,
but we still talk every day, and I still tell him
bedtime stories every night.
Yeah!
So that's pulling on me a little bit,
but the whole time prepping to come out here,
he was like, "Just don't tap out, Dad,"
and, "Be strong," and, "Me and Mom will be okay.
Don't worry about us."
He is such a brave kid.
And definitely, he's keeping me motivated out here.
♪
I'm really stoked how that's drafting like that.
Success.
♪
Oh, yeah.
It's definitely cold tonight, but the fireplace is amazing.
I don't want to brag...
but I think this would definitely win "Alone" cribs.
Ah, it's big, and it's comfy.
[stomach rumbles]
Ugh, my gut feels weird, though.
Definitely got bubble gut.
♪
Hoping it's just food poisoning,
something simple like that.
There has been a couple of times that I've eaten,
like, two-day-old fish.
So it could have something to do with it.
But it doesn't feel like food poisoning.
Like, I usually just puke.
[burps]
I guess there's a lot of other things it could be, though.
Oh, I feel like I gotta poop.
♪
[tense music]
♪
- It's so good.
All right.
[laughs]
Get to work.
♪
Now, we're gonna check the gillnets.
♪
I feel that the land is really providing for me,
and I feel set up.
I think there's a fish.
[laughs]
All right, let's bring this net out.
♪
I have a gillnet.
I have snare for a squirrel.
I have set line in the middle of my cove.
And eventually, I want to take advantage of the canoe
when the water's a little more calm.
Whoo!
We're flowing here. We are moving.
We got a fish!
Big trout.
That's what I live for.
Sharp teeth, though.
Not sharper as mine.
[laughs]
♪
I have food for, like, the next ten days.
I think that's a good feeling.
♪
Here we are.
I think the smoker is smokin' cool.
And the--
First, we have to start a fire.
You know, we have to get our food, hunt for it.
♪
But even the bigger challenge is to keep your food
from other creatures.
There we go.
♪
Lunch.
Here we go.
It will be delicious.
♪
Oh, I like this.
This is beautiful.
I think I'm setting myself up for success
and having some fun.
And that's how I like it, you know?
♪
- What's going on?
You are a bald little bugger.
♪
That's one brave little mink.
[laughs]
Yeah, I see ya.
Did you steal my fish?
Look at you.
You're pretty comical.
Not very afraid of nothing, are ya?
You know, if I go get my bow, you're one dead rat.
But what a pain in the ass.
You need to stick to yours, and I'll stick to mine.
How is that? Fair deal?
♪
Let's go try a couple casts.
It's prime time.
We need some food.
Hopefully find a fish.
All right, gold hellfire back in action.
♪
Let's hope the fish want to bite.
If I am so fortunate to catch one,
there won't be any mistakes like the other night
and try and keep me a livewell.
I'd still be eating fish today.
Instead, I'm hungry.
Got him.
We got a fish.
♪
All right, keep the line tight.
Come on.
No, no, no, no, don't flop.
Don't flop. Come on.
Yeah.
[laughs]
Nice 3- to 4-pound lake trout.
Now, that is a beautiful feeling.
Oh, yeah.
It's just an overwhelming feeling
to build a rod that I've never built,
build a lure that I've never built,
and have them all work.
And the reward is here.
♪
It is that final statement to me that
I deserve to be here.
♪
Look at that beautiful, beautiful fish.
Oh.
Mmm.
♪
I can't even describe how badly my body needed it.
A couple of days with no protein.
Nothing more than a couple of handfuls of berries, really.
♪
Oh.
♪
Perfect.
I'm like a kid at Christmas.
♪
Oh.
Mmm, mmm, mmm.
[dramatic music]
♪
- My house is a mess.
I'm so busy working, I'm not keeping it tidy anymore.
Look at my nice, little stack of firewood I got.
And there's my moss ready for chinking.
Not too long, and I'll be moving in.
Home sweet home.
It's time to get to work.
♪
I got to get my shelter done.
I want to have this done within the next three to four days.
I am pushing for time.
I really have to get the roof on today.
I'm using all of my time on this cabin.
But winter is coming, and it's coming fast.
Snow is gonna be on the ground,
and I'm gonna be sorry if I don't have this cabin up.
And then I can go to fishin' and huntin'.
I can go catch fish any time,
but I cannot live here if my shelter is not finished.
♪
One more.
I'm earning every bit of that $500,000 building this cabin.
[laughs]
♪
Whoo!
Yes!
[laughs]
Wow.
That feels good.
Now, I just need to cover it with moss
and throw my tarp on there later.
I'm so excited.
How about you?
Whoo!
Yes!
I can't wait to see my family's faces
when they see the cabin that I built.
♪
It's not physically tough.
I could do this forever if I had to.
But it sure is mentally tough.
The only thing I wasn't prepared for was
how much I was gonna miss my family.
27 years, I've never been away from any of my family
for more than a couple of weeks at a time.
♪
I'm gonna have to see if I can get up on this
and spread this moss out.
Coming out here, it was really bad timing
with my dad having a heart attack recently,
and my mom doesn't get around.
So she can't take care of my dad.
That responsibility was mine, and I left that
to my kids and my husband.
All right, I brought my ax up here
because there was a couple of knots that will be too bad.
Hopefully, none of these buggers break on me, huh?
♪
Whoa.
But before I left, he said,
"Don't you ever let anything that I do
stop you from living."
And so because of my father, I'm here.
♪
All right.
My dad was a cowboy, and he used
to ride cows in the mountains all summer long.
He'd be up there about five months out of the year
without speaking to anybody, seeing anyone, nothing.
He was so immersed in making sure that his family was
well taken care of and well fed that
my dad gave himself to his work.
♪
It's magical out here.
It truly is.
I draw a lot of strength from him.
I feel him here with me,
and I know he'd be so proud of me.
Okay, I got all the way across the top.
I get to move in today.
♪
- Ugh.
It's gross.
Still got total bubble gut...
burpy and poopy feelings.
I've felt super bloated,
super gassy for a few days now.
And then last night really felt like I needed to fart.
And when I went to let that fart out,
it turned into a waterfall of liquid diarrhea.
I was naked in my sleeping bag,
and it really made quite a mess.
Did not sleep at all last night.
♪
I don't think it was the fish.
But sanitation out here is difficult.
♪
I know I've been risking it,
drinking water straight out of the lake,
especially right at the beach.
Could have been a mistake.
♪
My stomach's just gurgling.
[burps]
Hopefully, a nap will help.
♪
So I'm back at the beach house.
I just can't shake this rotten gut.
♪
Oh.
[groans]
Yeah, it's getting worse.
♪
Last time--it could be something besides giardia,
but last time I had giardia, it started out
with pooping and pooping and pooping,
and then it started puking and pooping
and puking and pooping.
♪
So that could be what's ahead of me.
♪
[burping, groaning]
♪
It's hitting me that this could be
the beginning of the end for me.
♪
There's definitely a lot of pressure
to do well here
because my dad is so legendary.
There's nowhere I go that people don't want to tell me
their story of when they met him
or when they found his book.
♪
I got to spend the least amount of time with him
because I was the youngest.
So when he passed, it was definitely an eye-opener
about how short life really is
and what we're able to accomplish in life.
Hard to think right now.
♪
I feel delirious.
♪
There are so many more things that I want to accomplish.
But also, I feel like I've really been able
to carve out my own place here.
♪
And maybe it's enough.
♪
I'm gonna do it.
It's time to get out of here.
Whoa.
♪
There's a bear.
Man, that's a big decision right now.
Right here at camp, a bear.
♪
I could be winning this thing
if I can get over this sickness.
♪
[dramatic music]
- There's a bear.
♪
[bleep]
♪
[bleep]
♪
And I missed it.
Okay, wait.
I don't think I can shoot this bear.
One there.
You see him?
That's obviously a sow with cubs.
♪
She's just chilling there.
She's definitely got a younger one with her.
I even took a shot at it, like, not thinking.
♪
And not only is that against the rules,
it just feels wrong.
♪
Mama and a baby.
♪
[sighs]
♪
What a beautiful sign.
That cub showed me what was really going on.
Time to go home to my mama bear and my cub.
[sniffs]
I'm so thankful that I didn't make contact
with one of those arrows.
Had I hit and still had to leave from illness,
which was a very real possibility,
what a shame that would be
to have that effect on this place and on that family.
♪
Hi. This is Luke,
and I'm officially tapping out.
♪
That feels so right.
♪
So I've been debating all morning
'cause of a really sleepless night with diarrhea
and stomach cramps.
And then I encountered two bears,
a mom and a cub.
And it just, like, overwhelmed me
with that feeling of--
of parenthood.
And...
yeah, it was just, like, a really solidifying moment
for me to just respect myself, respect this place.
♪
I promised myself that I would leave here
stronger than when I came.
And all this time alone in an environment that's
really conducive to connecting with my dad
has given me ample opportunity to finish mourning him.
And I've realized that, yes, he's got big shoes.
But my shoes have also seen some incredible miles
and been some amazing places.
So I am a lot more proud of who I am as myself
and not just as an Olsen.
And I'm really appreciative of my life
and incredibly excited to dive into a lot
of this lifestyle with my son.
♪ I've done what I came to do
♪ I said what I needed to say
♪ Staying alive, staying alive ♪
♪
- Well, I woke up to Christmas today.
It's a good thing I got the roof done when I did.
Everything was completely dry inside.
It was perfect.
Winter wonderland out there.
And this is just the beginning.
♪
Go get water.
Out here, nature doesn't hold back for you.
You have to be ready for that and prepared.
I feel extremely protected in my cabin,
knowing that I'm gonna be dry,
and I'm gonna be warm.
And I could stay out here the whole winter, if I needed to.
♪
There's my cabin, the Lost Cabin.
Good place get lost and go find yourself.
Here we go, fresh water.
♪
I feel like I'm accepted here.
It's magical, and it's provided me
with nourishment, medicine,
and spiritual energy and love.
I have everything I need up here.
♪
I miss my family,
but I'm getting around it by staying busy.
I'm gonna finish my cabin today.
I'm gonna do the door.
♪
I think I've got a lot done for just one person.
I have a lot more in me than I thought I did.
One of the reasons why I came here was to test myself.
♪
My entire life,
I have fought to be superwoman,
to take care of everyone.
After I had my accident, I changed.
The snow is starting to melt.
Out here, by losing myself to this wilderness
and letting go of the fear,
I have found that I am strong,
I am resilient,
and I've come into my own self again.
I can move on with my life and not be stuck in the past.
♪
Oh, it's heavier than heck.
♪
My family--they're all who got me here.
They were carrying the torch then.
This is my turn,
and I'm gonna carry that torch to the end.
There's the door.
[laughs]
Now I just have to chink.
I'm kind of worried when I get done with the cabin, though.
I'm gonna have to find a lot of projects
to be able to keep my mind busy during the days,
because I'm really worried about my mom and my dad.
I talked to my mom before I left,
and she said she would be okay
and that she would get through.
But I'm still feeling guilty.
But my stubbornness in me says that
you've got to stay,
because I know I can get the $500,000.
It's a solid door, and I don't feel any air coming out of it.
I think having a full belly will help a lot.
I just need to get some protein.
♪
I've got to check my snares.
I seen a lot of sign of squirrels.
They have little trails that they run from tree to tree.
That would be nice.
♪
Right on.
[laughs]
Yay!
♪
Okay.
I remember my first bird that I caught
on the trap that I made.
My stepfather said, "Okay, now you have to kill it.
"You know, we need food,
"and nobody's gonna do that for you.
You have to do it for yourself."
And I killed it. I cried.
But then after that, I got very good at catching birds.
Put you up there.
My whole childhood and teenagerhood
was hunting and fishing.
That was how we managed to feed ourselves.
♪
What the [bleep]?
♪
Whoa.
[bleep]
♪
Oh, my God.
[dramatic music]
♪
- Yeah, yeah.
♪
He destroyed the feathers that are left here.
And he grabbed it and left.
He came this way.
It could have been, like, a fox.
It could have been a bear too.
Oh, man.
But half of my trout.
[bleep] This is bad.
That's food for two days or more.
And the fight begins.
One of my battles here is to protect my food,
because it's not gonna serve me to catch trout
so the animals can just eat.
♪
Oh, okay, here we go.
He stopped here and plucked all the feathers.
I don't see big footprint.
So that means that it was probably a marten.
Holy cow, a half.
How could he carry that?
Now I'm, like, paranoid.
I don't want to leave my food alone.
♪
Man, I worked so hard for that fish.
♪
I hope you enjoy, little creature.
But now I have to protect this.
I know what that project is--
box.
♪
I'm scraping so the animals cannot climb.
♪
Start making a ladder to go up.
I need to build a food cache.
And I suspect that this was a marten.
But the marten, you know, it could just strip the bark,
put across a piece of wood, and put my meat right there.
♪
But another camp robber is the gray jay.
Not just one gray jay-- there's a whole gang.
They're gonna just sit there, eating the whole thing.
Okay, I'm gonna cut the top now.
So I decide to make a box
and suspend it 16 feet in the air
because bear can come as well.
It's a challenging project...
because it's tricky and dangerous.
But it's a risk worth taking
to protect the catch that I got.
Maybe?
Okay, there we go.
♪
Thank you for not cutting down together with you.
Oh.
We're not done yet.
If I have enough food, I could go 80 days.
I could go 100 days.
But the bigger challenge is to keep your food
from the other critters.
The winter is setting in, and everyone wants
to survive just like us.
Got the ladder.
♪
Losing my trout was a mistake.
Okay.
But I know that the path of learning
is also a path full of mistakes and missteps.
Bow, bow, go.
And the desire to overcome the challenges,
it's what keep me here.
[grunts]
Perfect.
♪
Good stash.
Whoo! Done.
That was a lot of work.
♪
- Now the real fun begins.
♪
So I have picked these four...
as my trees.
That's not too far away from home.
It's facing the sun.
So now I'm gonna think of a height
where I don't have to bend down.
Oh, hell yes.
I've decided to build a woodshed.
So this is one of the arms of my sweater.
It's given me so much cordage.
Well, on the mantra of "fire, shelter, water,"
the most important thing is having dry tinder.
And for the most part, you're gonna want
to make a fire first thing in the morning.
And the other thing that happens
first thing in the morning is morning dew.
And so this is gonna help me move forward
through the winter to have
a successful breakfast and dinner.
It can snow as much as it wants.
My wood is gonna be up here.
Next step, I need those back walls.
All right.
Oh, an old Band-Aid.
That's pretty fun.
I'm enjoying being out here by myself very much.
I am carpe diem-ing.
I am a huge, huge proponent of carpe diem.
My mom, when she hit 50,
decided that she was gonna go off and have an adventure.
And I'm 55,
so I guess this is what I'm doing, my thing.
Anyway, she eventually ended up in Bali
and settled there for, like, 15 years,
very happily teaching English as a foreign language,
had an amazing place.
♪
And that's when she got diagnosed with cancer
for the first time.
♪
She came back to England, went into treatment,
and went into remission for eight months, I think it was.
And then it came back again into her soft tissues.
And she basically said, nah, I'm done.
I'm not gonna do any more.
I'm not gonna fight it.
So she kind of died gracefully.
♪
But I would visit her in the hospice,
and we would talk a lot about facing fears.
And she really taught me to understand
what it was that I might be holding myself back from,
even silly things.
Like, I was scared of heights.
And after she passed, I went and did a course
at a stunt school and taught myself to jump
out of a three-story window.
Almost done.
But also big challenges, big leaps of faith,
such as this opportunity to come on the show.
Watching my mom,
understanding her as I became older myself
gave me the impetus to not just sit back,
but to grab life by the hair and just live it.
It's one of the best things she could ever teach me.
That makes me happy.
All right, then, I'm going to drink some water
and then let us see if I can catch me a fishy.
I am definitely not the fish whisperer at the moment.
I'm doing a bit of fishing every day,
not catching anything.
I've done a new lure.
But just got to keep on plugging away.
I'll get there in the end.
♪
Like a fish telegraph.
Watch out.
There's a hook.
Stay away.
Mommy is hungry.
[gasps]
♪
Ahh! [bleep]
He took my lure.
These fish are feisty.
Ahh!
I've spent the last ten years fishing,
both in New York and in Ontario.
All right, let's get a slightly different shaped hook.
You ready for it?
♪ Dun, dun, dun
This is what I keep my hooks in, here.
And I am in a lake that is famous for its fish.
So it is gonna drive me fricking crazy
if I can't catch them.
It's partly because of my ego,
because I know what I'm capable of,
but also because I really want to bring fish in
and add it to my diet.
I'm not gonna do my wool.
Those fats, those oils, and the variation
are something that I'm gonna want to have for my foodstuffs
for when it gets cold.
Ah. Got a Band-Aid wrapper.
Why don't I try that?
And I have my pink from my underwear.
They'll be like, what the heck is this?
[grunts]
Let's see how it goes.
♪
Bring it on, [bleep].
♪
I heard my raven.
[bird call]
Wow.
For me, a raven is special.
♪
[raven calling]
[imitating call]
I am being watched over.
I love that.
Thank you.
♪
Oh, my God.
♪
Oh, my God.
[dramatic music]
Oh, my God.
♪
I have a fish.
[laughs] I have a pike.
Turns out pikes like Band-Aid wrappers.
So if ever you are caught short of a lure,
Band-Aid wrappers and a pink pair of underwear
is gonna do the trick.
That's all I can say. Signing out.
Gonna have dinner.
Mel.
♪
What a fantastic way to end a day.
I couldn't believe it.
It's like, yes!
But hey, if it works, I'm gonna carry it.
[laughs]
Oh, lordy.
My main skill is to adapt and survive.
Give me a problem, I'll find a solution
and I'll move forward and I'll be stronger for it.
But it's not just your skills and your talents.
It's your head game.
People don't tap out because of food.
They tap out because their head gets to them.
It's really nice, clean meat on a pike too.
Happy Mel.
And I will tell you this from experience
of working with children, that some children are happy.
Some are angry.
Some are withdrawn.
It's their own personal spirit.
And so I've never known a time when I was not smiling.
I've never known a time when I wasn't
trying to find the positive.
And that could be because I have
a large amount of serotonin.
But it also could be a coping mechanism
to find the positive out of every experience
that I went through.
And it stuck with me, because I know from experience
that life can get really bad.
So if you find the positives, then you have
something to look forward to
and you release those endorphins
and you feel good about the world again.
However, the spell is now broken.
I shall be a fish maniac.
Success is a wonderful feeling,
and it's gonna taste even better.
♪
- There was strong winds last night.
So I'm gonna go check on it again,
see my gillnet.
Hope for the best.
Hard to even see, which kind of worries me.
My net is not in the water.
[bleep]
I need some sunshine so I can see through.
♪
How does the GoPro see in the water?
♪
Let's see.
♪
I'm hopeful that I can find my gillnet
because there is weight to it.
So it might be right around there on the bottom.
♪
That gillnet was one of my main strategy.
So if I don't find it, the cost is really huge,
because I need fish to fuel me to get big game.
And if I want to fish, it will have to be active fishing.
And that is gonna make me work twice as hard,
and I'll lose energy to continue hunting.
♪
[bleep]
It probably got washed out.
I didn't know how wild the water was going to be,
because then I would have tied my gillnet
to something onshore.
Today is a challenging day--
not finding my gillnet. I'm very cold.
My fingers are hurting.
So let's go back to the shelter
and check my food stash
because the winter is coming in hard and fast.
♪
I just lost that
main food recruitment tool,
and that is a big blow
because that was all the monofilament line
that I brought with me.
I have some still to fish, not to build another gillnet.
Small mistakes can become big failures,
and I probably have to start rationing.
So cache, thanks so much for keeping everything safe, okay?
But the fear is that I might need to brace myself
and starve for a while.
♪
Just trying to survive.
[dramatic music]
♪
- Oh.
♪
If I had one wish right now, it would be for protein.
I just wanted to show you my spruce bark.
It's kind of like celery after you cook it.
It has a sweet flavor to it too.
Plus, I put some cranberries in there.
They've all sunk to the bottom.
I'm moving slow today.
♪
Last night, I had a dream that
my mom was calling out for me.
It was like she was standing outside of my cabin,
calling my name.
"Jodi, I need you. I need your help.
Jodi, help me."
She said it over and over.
And when I woke up, I couldn't shake it.
I think I'll go ahead and do some chinking.
♪
God sure has blessed me in my life--
five beautiful, healthy, smart, intelligent kids.
When I started this, I was hopeful that the money
could take care of my children.
I wanted to give them a good life.
But the most important thing that I want is,
I want my kids to be proud of me
because everybody needs a hero.
But after my accident, I became pretty self-centered,
and I stopped doing everything.
♪
All right, how are you doing there?
So I built myself my own little prison,
and it was built out of fear.
And out here, I built this cabin.
And I did it in the middle of nowhere
with my own two hands.
But what I've realized
is that this is also a prison,
and now that it's completed,
this pull to go home is just--
♪
Just so burning inside of me.
And it almost makes it hard to breathe.
♪
It was a huge responsibility that I left at home.
And I thought I would be okay with that,
But it's been a constant internal battle.
I can only equate it to gravity holding us to this Earth.
The force is so strong that I just feel like...
family--that's the most important thing.
[beeping]
Hello. This is Jodi Rose.
I'm officially tapping out.
♪
I'm being pulled home.
I'm being called home.
And that force is so strong that I just--
I have to answer, and I have to go home.
I've--I've come into my own up here.
I found myself again.
And I would stay, if for no other reason
that my mom needs me and my family needs me.
♪
It is sad to not be able to bring home the prize money,
but the trophy isn't the $500,000.
The trophy is myself.
I have a lot to be proud of.
I defied the odds with my leg,
and I was able to create this amazing cabin.
I've had a life-changing experience
in a very short amount of time.
I'm a new person now.
I've come to understand that
this is just part of the journey.
This isn't the end.
I'm not quitting.
My finish line isn't here.
My finish line is at home with my family
and going back to being a mom as strong as I used to be.
♪
[dramatic music]
♪ ♪
- This bear has just presented itself to me.
But then when I realized that second bear was a cub
it just really hit me hard,
recognized the responsibility that that mother had
to get that cub through the winter.
And there's this little part inside of you that's like,
whatever, delete that clip or something, you know,
but I don't have it in me.
I'm gonna go call it in
and start my journey home.
♪ ♪
Everybody has their boundary of, like,
their limit of suffering that they're willing to go through.
I've had diarrhea for five days.
I've just been dealing with it.
And without a moose or a bear
for my time, it's not gonna pay off out here.
And if I'm not here to
really go for the win here,
I'm not willing to gamble
my family's time away from me.
The longer I spend away from them
the more selfish that becomes.
♪ ♪
I feel like I've thrived in so many ways.
♪ ♪
I've fed myself really well...
♪ ♪
Had great wildlife encounters.
Like, I learned so much and--
to just do something I'd never done before.
It was super-empowering for me.
I am really, really excited
to share my stories with my son when I get home.
♪ ♪
- Hello, my friend.
- Aloha. - Aloha.
♪ ♪
- Any lightheadedness,
any of your cognition has decreased?
- No.
Well, yes.
Yeah, I didn't sleep at all last night.
So, like, I was tripping today all over the place.
When we were walking around with the crew and everything,
I just didn't feel like I was on my feet.
- Difficulty breathing? Any shortness of breath?
- No, but I did have some chest pain in, like,
the top right side here.
I don't know. - Totally.
- Right there. - Any pain on palpation,
Like, if I'm actually pushing on it?
Does that feel any different? - No. Uh-uh.
- Then right on the back side right around here?
- Yeah, a little higher, yeah.
- So basically kind of more right at the bottom of the neck
up here and this one sitting right--
- In that spot.
- Basically it is a sign of being elevated.
Considering what you've just gone through
with your movements and the stress level,
I'm worried that that might be a small little sign
of dehydration as well.
I want to make sure-- - I've been drinking
so much water.
- More so worried about electrolyte levels too,
so as you're hydrating, this is an isotonic...
- Okay. - Solution,
so you can start sipping at it right now
to see if that helps
after a day of just kind of re-adapting.
100%. I think probiotics would be
a very beneficial thing to put into your system.
♪ ♪
- I wish I could have finished bear den
and then had some more time in there, but...
The wilderness is
such an amazing playground
and teacher.
Super-grateful for all the experience that I've had.
And life is so much more meaningful
seeing things through that lens.
♪ ♪
[dramatic music]
♪ ♪
- It's the morning that I'm going home.
It's time to do that.
Come here to do what I meant to do,
and now I'm needed at home, so I'm coming home.
♪ ♪
Hello. This is Jodi Rose.
I'm officially tapping out.
♪ ♪
I have never been so torn in my life before
between the land here that I love
and--and heeding the call to go home.
I could stay up here forever,
but this--this force that's calling me home is so strong,
and...
the end of my story is at home.
It's not here.
I--I feel a little guilty that I'm letting some people down,
but the only people that matter in my life are my family.
♪ ♪
No, I didn't eat anything all day,
so I'm getting a little hungry. [chuckles]
♪ ♪
Oh, that is a blessing. [chuckles]
This land is so magical,
and I'm a part of this land now.
And I'm leaving a piece of my heart here Lost Cabin,
and it will stay here for the rest of my life.
♪ ♪
[somber music]
♪ ♪
- Up and at 'em.
♪ ♪
- We're gonna go back to the clinic for a few minutes.
- I'm so tired that I feel like I could just, like, fall over.
I think it's just from the emotions of the day.
- I can imagine.
♪ ♪
And you can take a seat there.
How you feeling? Any difficulties breathing?
Shortness of breath?
Chest pains? Heart fluttering?
Nothing like that?
- Well, my toes are frozen. Does that count?
- When was the last bowel movement you had?
- Before I left.
- Before you left, as in before the competition started?
Copy.
- But I do feel like I'm gonna pass out, though.
I'm so tired. [chuckles]
- Not gonna pass out for a different reason?
- No, just from-- - Like mental exhaustion?
- Just, I'm gonna fall asleep in this ti--in this chair...
[chuckles] While you're talking to me.
- Okay. I'll try to be quick.
♪ ♪
Did you enjoy your time out there?
- I did. I did.
Up until about five days ago-- four days ago,
and then it just--
- Got hard? Got--
- It's just--something made me feel like I needed to go home
to my family.
- So other than that, you look pretty good to me.
- Thank you. - Considering what you
went through up there.
Obviously, it does take a very big toll on the body.
Your fatigue is not surprising.
Let's get you some food. Let's get you some rest.
Then we'll just take it from there
and start the rehabilitation process.
- Okay. - Any questions for me
that I can answer for you at this time?
- No. - Awesome.
- Honestly, the hardest part is
being separated from my family.
I could still be out there
Family, I miss you guys. I love you guys,
and I'm needed there.
I'll see you soon.
♪ ♪