1 00:00:13,514 --> 00:00:16,416 [dramatic music] 2 00:00:16,483 --> 00:00:23,524 ♪ 3 00:00:26,693 --> 00:00:28,128 - I'm gonna do this, man. 4 00:00:28,195 --> 00:00:29,863 I'm gonna do this. 5 00:00:29,930 --> 00:00:32,666 I'm gonna fight this thing out until the last breath. 6 00:00:32,733 --> 00:00:36,370 ♪ 7 00:00:36,470 --> 00:00:40,073 - Okay, game on. 8 00:00:40,140 --> 00:00:41,708 ♪ 9 00:00:41,775 --> 00:00:43,143 - I got him! 10 00:00:43,210 --> 00:00:45,979 - In "Alone's" most remote location yet... 11 00:00:45,979 --> 00:00:48,015 - Yes! 12 00:00:48,015 --> 00:00:51,752 - Ten participants set out to survive at all costs. 13 00:00:51,818 --> 00:00:53,620 - I'm going to stay alive. 14 00:00:55,122 --> 00:00:57,090 - [inhales sharply] Ah! 15 00:00:57,157 --> 00:00:59,693 - Battling extreme isolation... 16 00:00:59,693 --> 00:01:01,128 - There is no camera crews. 17 00:01:01,194 --> 00:01:03,330 You are really alone. 18 00:01:03,330 --> 00:01:04,765 - It'll eat at you, tear you up. 19 00:01:04,865 --> 00:01:05,866 - God, why? 20 00:01:05,933 --> 00:01:06,867 - It's a battle. 21 00:01:06,934 --> 00:01:08,135 Nobody ever comes out the same. 22 00:01:08,135 --> 00:01:09,136 - Oh, man. 23 00:01:09,136 --> 00:01:10,370 - It would be impossible to. 24 00:01:10,470 --> 00:01:12,306 - And fierce predators. 25 00:01:12,372 --> 00:01:13,307 - It's a big bear. 26 00:01:13,373 --> 00:01:16,410 It's right outside my shelter. 27 00:01:16,510 --> 00:01:18,912 - Predators like that damn sure are gonna kill you. 28 00:01:18,979 --> 00:01:20,580 - Please don't rip my face off. 29 00:01:20,647 --> 00:01:21,615 [animal screeching] 30 00:01:21,682 --> 00:01:23,450 - He bit the hell out of me. 31 00:01:23,450 --> 00:01:25,485 - They'll endure merciless wind... 32 00:01:25,586 --> 00:01:28,288 - It's been over 60 hours, and it has not let up. 33 00:01:28,355 --> 00:01:31,058 - I can hear the trees falling down around me. 34 00:01:31,124 --> 00:01:33,093 - And bitter cold. 35 00:01:33,160 --> 00:01:36,563 - This whole place has turned into a frozen hell. 36 00:01:36,663 --> 00:01:38,332 - The last one standing... 37 00:01:38,332 --> 00:01:40,267 - It's a moose. Wow. 38 00:01:40,334 --> 00:01:42,102 - Whoo-hoo-hoo! 39 00:01:42,169 --> 00:01:44,137 - No, no. 40 00:01:44,204 --> 00:01:45,272 - Wins. 41 00:01:45,339 --> 00:01:52,346 ♪ 42 00:01:56,917 --> 00:01:58,685 - Being so close to the Arctic, 43 00:01:58,785 --> 00:02:02,089 if my shelter is not built impenetrable from the wind, 44 00:02:02,089 --> 00:02:04,057 I'm kind of screwed. 45 00:02:04,124 --> 00:02:06,426 - This is absolutely crazy. 46 00:02:06,493 --> 00:02:08,295 There's trees blowing down everywhere. 47 00:02:08,362 --> 00:02:10,263 ♪ 48 00:02:10,330 --> 00:02:12,532 - No, no, no, no, no. 49 00:02:12,532 --> 00:02:13,500 ♪ 50 00:02:13,567 --> 00:02:15,969 My quiver came off my bow. 51 00:02:16,069 --> 00:02:17,337 [bleep] 52 00:02:17,404 --> 00:02:19,139 There's big-game trails. 53 00:02:19,206 --> 00:02:23,577 So my overwintering shelter will increase my chances. 54 00:02:23,577 --> 00:02:25,779 Shoot a moose from up here. 55 00:02:25,779 --> 00:02:27,981 - I want to increase my odds to catch fish, 56 00:02:28,048 --> 00:02:30,450 so I decide I really want to make a canoe 57 00:02:30,517 --> 00:02:32,652 to fish in deeper water. 58 00:02:32,719 --> 00:02:34,988 Holy cow, it works. 59 00:02:35,055 --> 00:02:37,391 - The expenditure of calories that it's taken 60 00:02:37,457 --> 00:02:39,493 to put up this log cabin is extreme. 61 00:02:39,559 --> 00:02:41,928 I will need protein at some point. 62 00:02:41,995 --> 00:02:45,565 - I worked as hard as I've ever worked on no food. 63 00:02:45,666 --> 00:02:48,702 I'm not gonna subject my body to any more. 64 00:02:48,769 --> 00:02:51,838 I am officially tapping out. 65 00:02:51,905 --> 00:02:53,940 - I feel extreme dizziness. 66 00:02:54,007 --> 00:02:57,577 My heart rate is skyrocketing. 67 00:02:57,577 --> 00:03:00,347 I'm officially tapping out. 68 00:03:01,782 --> 00:03:03,383 [sniffs] 69 00:03:03,450 --> 00:03:10,490 ♪ 70 00:03:20,333 --> 00:03:26,373 ♪ 71 00:03:26,473 --> 00:03:30,877 - I'm out looking for anything this morning. 72 00:03:30,944 --> 00:03:32,779 I'm hoping for a grouse, 73 00:03:32,779 --> 00:03:35,749 but I'll take whatever I can get. 74 00:03:35,816 --> 00:03:37,150 ♪ 75 00:03:37,217 --> 00:03:40,454 Losing those arrows, for me, was potentially 76 00:03:40,454 --> 00:03:42,389 a journey-ending moment, 77 00:03:42,456 --> 00:03:44,691 but I'm not someone who is ever 78 00:03:44,691 --> 00:03:46,726 gonna give up at anything. 79 00:03:46,827 --> 00:03:49,963 So at the end of the day, when my journey is over here, 80 00:03:50,063 --> 00:03:52,732 I want to walk away knowing that I did everything that 81 00:03:52,799 --> 00:03:55,669 I could do to succeed out here. 82 00:03:57,304 --> 00:03:59,840 I just have to continue to get food. 83 00:04:02,409 --> 00:04:04,778 Back into the good berries. 84 00:04:04,778 --> 00:04:07,447 There are hardly any left anywhere else. 85 00:04:09,683 --> 00:04:10,817 I'm doing my best. 86 00:04:10,884 --> 00:04:13,887 So I'm gonna keep doing my best. 87 00:04:15,522 --> 00:04:16,923 Look at that. 88 00:04:17,023 --> 00:04:19,192 I got a little bear scat. 89 00:04:19,259 --> 00:04:23,130 ♪ 90 00:04:23,130 --> 00:04:25,565 See how fresh that bear [bleep] it is? 91 00:04:25,665 --> 00:04:27,000 ♪ 92 00:04:27,067 --> 00:04:28,535 That was last night. 93 00:04:28,602 --> 00:04:32,739 ♪ 94 00:04:32,739 --> 00:04:35,942 He's in here somewhere. 95 00:04:36,009 --> 00:04:37,744 ♪ 96 00:04:37,811 --> 00:04:40,580 I've just got to find him. 97 00:04:40,580 --> 00:04:46,086 I don't have to accept failure like I have to accept loss, 98 00:04:46,186 --> 00:04:48,822 because there are some things in this world 99 00:04:48,889 --> 00:04:50,390 that you can change, 100 00:04:50,457 --> 00:04:52,692 and you just have to want to. 101 00:04:52,759 --> 00:04:56,296 I think he's eating his way into this patch. 102 00:04:56,363 --> 00:04:59,366 This is a sign, and I'm gonna see my way through this. 103 00:04:59,466 --> 00:05:02,169 ♪ 104 00:05:02,269 --> 00:05:04,104 I need that bear. 105 00:05:04,171 --> 00:05:08,909 ♪ 106 00:05:11,845 --> 00:05:12,979 - This is gonna be a good one. 107 00:05:12,979 --> 00:05:14,748 I can feel it. 108 00:05:14,814 --> 00:05:17,784 I believe I'll heat treat this arrow, 109 00:05:17,851 --> 00:05:19,953 these that I build today. 110 00:05:20,020 --> 00:05:21,588 I'm gonna treat them right. 111 00:05:21,655 --> 00:05:25,458 I made a couple of sharp broadhead arrows 112 00:05:25,525 --> 00:05:28,295 out of some beer cans that I found. 113 00:05:28,361 --> 00:05:30,463 I'm really hoping that I can get the arrows 114 00:05:30,530 --> 00:05:33,366 sharp enough to kill a bear. 115 00:05:33,466 --> 00:05:36,236 Hold it just like that. 116 00:05:36,303 --> 00:05:39,339 Put it around the end. 117 00:05:39,406 --> 00:05:41,975 Put some snare wire around that. 118 00:05:41,975 --> 00:05:43,410 I'm gonna go all in on this. 119 00:05:43,510 --> 00:05:45,078 It's worth a shot. 120 00:05:45,145 --> 00:05:48,381 ♪ 121 00:05:48,448 --> 00:05:50,984 Nice and sharp. 122 00:05:51,051 --> 00:05:53,486 Let's roast this bad boy. 123 00:05:53,587 --> 00:05:56,189 Winning this thing would put me in a position 124 00:05:56,256 --> 00:05:58,191 where I could do something outdoors 125 00:05:58,258 --> 00:06:01,127 and maybe not have to be gone from my family, 126 00:06:01,127 --> 00:06:03,363 because my wife isn't crazy about that, 127 00:06:03,463 --> 00:06:04,864 especially with the little one. 128 00:06:04,931 --> 00:06:06,967 Neither am I, to be honest. 129 00:06:07,067 --> 00:06:09,669 Just got to put some fletching down. 130 00:06:09,736 --> 00:06:12,672 I find that bear, this is my ticket. 131 00:06:12,739 --> 00:06:15,475 So I'm giving it my best shot. 132 00:06:15,542 --> 00:06:20,480 And if my best is the best, I win $500,000. 133 00:06:20,547 --> 00:06:22,749 I think that's a finished arrow. 134 00:06:22,816 --> 00:06:25,018 I'm pretty content with it, really. 135 00:06:25,085 --> 00:06:26,653 I think that is my end game. 136 00:06:26,720 --> 00:06:30,690 I just keep hunting that bear until I starve. 137 00:06:30,757 --> 00:06:33,994 I got to start crafting some more. 138 00:06:34,060 --> 00:06:41,034 ♪ 139 00:06:54,281 --> 00:06:56,983 - Well, that's done. 140 00:06:57,050 --> 00:06:59,753 I need to reset my gillnet. 141 00:07:05,525 --> 00:07:06,793 Wow. 142 00:07:10,330 --> 00:07:14,267 Otters--some of the best fishermen going. 143 00:07:14,334 --> 00:07:17,871 You know where the fish are, don't ya? 144 00:07:17,938 --> 00:07:20,940 They're not coming up for much air, they're not. 145 00:07:22,375 --> 00:07:25,312 Now, catch me a fish, please. 146 00:07:25,378 --> 00:07:31,818 ♪ 147 00:07:32,852 --> 00:07:34,688 That's that. 148 00:07:34,688 --> 00:07:36,489 I want to get fishing. 149 00:07:36,489 --> 00:07:38,391 ♪ 150 00:07:38,458 --> 00:07:40,593 We need to eat. 151 00:07:40,660 --> 00:07:41,895 ♪ 152 00:07:41,962 --> 00:07:45,265 I have found absolutely no fresh moose sign, 153 00:07:45,332 --> 00:07:47,267 no fresh bear sign. 154 00:07:47,334 --> 00:07:49,903 But we have been catching fish. 155 00:07:49,970 --> 00:07:51,638 Still got two left. 156 00:07:51,705 --> 00:07:55,108 The way things are going, fishing is key. 157 00:07:55,175 --> 00:07:58,978 I'm gonna tie on our new lure. 158 00:07:59,045 --> 00:08:02,349 The Reindeer Lake gold hellfire. 159 00:08:02,415 --> 00:08:03,850 She's a thing of beauty. 160 00:08:05,785 --> 00:08:07,520 Good knot. 161 00:08:07,620 --> 00:08:09,789 And there we have it, 162 00:08:09,856 --> 00:08:14,094 our homemade rod and our homemade lure. 163 00:08:14,160 --> 00:08:16,429 Fingers crossed. 164 00:08:20,333 --> 00:08:21,901 That's acceptable. 165 00:08:24,137 --> 00:08:26,239 The rod's working good. 166 00:08:26,306 --> 00:08:27,707 ♪ 167 00:08:27,774 --> 00:08:30,176 I can remember my first fishing rod was 168 00:08:30,243 --> 00:08:33,513 given to me as an Easter present. 169 00:08:33,580 --> 00:08:35,749 That day, my dad and Uncle David took 170 00:08:35,815 --> 00:08:37,617 my brother and I down to the pond 171 00:08:37,684 --> 00:08:40,253 at the local gravel pits... 172 00:08:40,320 --> 00:08:42,022 Come on. 173 00:08:42,088 --> 00:08:44,457 Catching small chub and small trout. 174 00:08:44,524 --> 00:08:48,128 You know, it's one of my oldest memories. 175 00:08:48,128 --> 00:08:52,899 Let's go try a couple casts out off this other point. 176 00:08:52,966 --> 00:08:55,635 It was the roots of something that 177 00:08:55,702 --> 00:08:58,738 would stay with me forever. 178 00:08:58,805 --> 00:09:01,174 Every time I catch a fish, 179 00:09:01,174 --> 00:09:04,377 it kind of brings out that little kid. 180 00:09:04,444 --> 00:09:09,149 ♪ 181 00:09:09,215 --> 00:09:11,618 [tense music] 182 00:09:11,684 --> 00:09:14,054 Oh, we got something. 183 00:09:14,054 --> 00:09:16,256 All right. 184 00:09:16,322 --> 00:09:18,525 No, no. 185 00:09:18,625 --> 00:09:19,926 Oh! 186 00:09:20,026 --> 00:09:22,095 What a terrible spot to be. 187 00:09:22,162 --> 00:09:24,097 Come on. 188 00:09:24,164 --> 00:09:25,932 Get up here. 189 00:09:25,999 --> 00:09:29,169 ♪ 190 00:09:29,269 --> 00:09:30,937 All right! 191 00:09:30,937 --> 00:09:31,938 Can you see it? 192 00:09:32,005 --> 00:09:32,972 Oh. 193 00:09:33,072 --> 00:09:35,175 Rah, rah, rawr. 194 00:09:35,241 --> 00:09:36,342 Oh, yeah. 195 00:09:36,409 --> 00:09:38,745 I am happy. 196 00:09:38,812 --> 00:09:40,146 Put this here. 197 00:09:40,213 --> 00:09:42,449 I can start my pool. 198 00:09:42,549 --> 00:09:45,452 I'm gonna continue fishing. 199 00:09:45,452 --> 00:09:48,688 Well, well, well. 200 00:09:48,688 --> 00:09:51,858 ♪ 201 00:09:51,925 --> 00:09:54,094 Every time we catch a fish, 202 00:09:54,160 --> 00:09:56,930 it adds another day, two, three, four, 203 00:09:56,930 --> 00:09:59,232 depending on the size of the fish. 204 00:10:00,533 --> 00:10:03,536 ♪ 205 00:10:03,536 --> 00:10:05,472 We got a fish, boys and girls. 206 00:10:05,538 --> 00:10:08,942 ♪ 207 00:10:09,008 --> 00:10:11,311 No, no, no, no, no, no, no. 208 00:10:11,377 --> 00:10:14,080 ♪ 209 00:10:14,147 --> 00:10:15,748 Yes! 210 00:10:15,815 --> 00:10:19,986 Trout number two on the gold hellfire. 211 00:10:20,053 --> 00:10:21,821 Oh, yeah. 212 00:10:21,888 --> 00:10:25,291 I'm gonna throw this in over here. 213 00:10:25,358 --> 00:10:26,993 What a game-changer. 214 00:10:27,060 --> 00:10:30,730 ♪ We got two fish, two fish, two fish ♪ 215 00:10:30,730 --> 00:10:32,031 It's getting dark. 216 00:10:32,098 --> 00:10:34,901 I don't have time to smoke fish today. 217 00:10:34,968 --> 00:10:38,037 I got my livewell here. 218 00:10:38,104 --> 00:10:39,939 I'll just leave them here for the night. 219 00:10:39,939 --> 00:10:41,374 And I think they'll be all right. 220 00:10:41,441 --> 00:10:43,510 I'm taking a chance on it. 221 00:10:43,576 --> 00:10:45,278 I'll clean them in the morning. 222 00:10:45,345 --> 00:10:48,214 ♪ 223 00:10:48,281 --> 00:10:49,816 The only thing I have to worry about 224 00:10:49,883 --> 00:10:51,818 is one of those otters or something coming 225 00:10:51,885 --> 00:10:54,687 and stealing them on me. 226 00:10:54,687 --> 00:10:57,023 And that'll create such a ruckus. 227 00:10:57,090 --> 00:10:58,191 It's not far away. 228 00:10:58,258 --> 00:11:00,260 So I'm sure I'll hear it. 229 00:11:01,528 --> 00:11:04,097 And we'll go put a stop to that really quickly. 230 00:11:04,164 --> 00:11:08,735 ♪ 231 00:11:08,735 --> 00:11:11,838 I don't know what I'm hearing out there. 232 00:11:11,905 --> 00:11:15,074 Just thinking about it got me nervous. 233 00:11:15,141 --> 00:11:18,545 But anyway, they're not gonna get them. 234 00:11:18,611 --> 00:11:25,652 ♪ 235 00:11:38,531 --> 00:11:40,033 - The wind blew up. 236 00:11:40,099 --> 00:11:42,235 I'm gonna go check on my fish. 237 00:11:42,302 --> 00:11:44,137 ♪ 238 00:11:44,204 --> 00:11:45,872 There it is. 239 00:11:45,939 --> 00:11:47,540 ♪ 240 00:11:47,607 --> 00:11:49,375 How the [bleep]? 241 00:11:49,375 --> 00:11:51,511 Oh, my God. 242 00:11:51,578 --> 00:11:53,513 Ah. 243 00:11:53,580 --> 00:11:54,714 Wow. 244 00:11:58,851 --> 00:12:01,487 [dramatic music] 245 00:12:01,554 --> 00:12:03,122 - How the [bleep]? 246 00:12:03,122 --> 00:12:04,691 ♪ 247 00:12:04,757 --> 00:12:06,459 Oh, no. 248 00:12:06,526 --> 00:12:08,962 I don't see any fish. 249 00:12:09,028 --> 00:12:11,464 Oh, no. 250 00:12:11,531 --> 00:12:13,866 They're gone. 251 00:12:13,933 --> 00:12:15,335 Ah. 252 00:12:16,903 --> 00:12:19,072 I had two nice fish. 253 00:12:19,138 --> 00:12:20,907 I put them in what I thought was gonna be 254 00:12:20,974 --> 00:12:25,044 a very safe reservoir for the night. 255 00:12:25,144 --> 00:12:30,083 And obviously, it [bleep] wasn't. 256 00:12:32,085 --> 00:12:34,320 I'm sick about it. 257 00:12:34,420 --> 00:12:37,724 That is a mistake that won't be made again. 258 00:12:37,790 --> 00:12:39,926 [bleep] damn it. 259 00:12:39,993 --> 00:12:42,528 ♪ 260 00:12:42,595 --> 00:12:46,199 That was four days' worth of food minimum, gone. 261 00:12:46,299 --> 00:12:49,602 I can't believe what I've just done. 262 00:12:49,702 --> 00:12:53,373 I made every excuse not to clean those fish last night, 263 00:12:53,439 --> 00:12:55,975 and now I got nothing. 264 00:12:56,042 --> 00:12:59,145 I know better, and I went against my own judgment, 265 00:12:59,212 --> 00:13:01,014 and it cost me. 266 00:13:01,014 --> 00:13:03,616 How [bleep] depressing. 267 00:13:03,683 --> 00:13:06,019 I can't afford mistakes. 268 00:13:06,085 --> 00:13:10,356 Only one idiot to blame, and you're looking at him. 269 00:13:11,357 --> 00:13:18,364 ♪ 270 00:13:29,242 --> 00:13:31,411 - Okay, flies, for real. 271 00:13:31,411 --> 00:13:33,579 Stay out of there! 272 00:13:33,646 --> 00:13:35,782 I'm liking the way the shelter is coming together. 273 00:13:35,848 --> 00:13:37,617 It's time to go fishing. 274 00:13:40,486 --> 00:13:43,890 ♪ I know I'm only here 'cause of my family tree ♪ 275 00:13:45,324 --> 00:13:48,161 ♪ I know I'm only here 'cause of my family tree ♪ 276 00:13:48,261 --> 00:13:50,463 ♪ The impact I'm having's so much bigger than me ♪ 277 00:13:50,530 --> 00:13:51,931 ♪ But it's not a stress 278 00:13:51,998 --> 00:13:53,566 ♪ All I'm feeling is love 279 00:13:53,566 --> 00:13:57,203 ♪ And I know my son will see the situation is humbling ♪ 280 00:13:57,303 --> 00:13:59,739 ♪ Reach out to his papa when he feels like he's stumbling ♪ 281 00:13:59,806 --> 00:14:01,941 ♪ Like I do, Daddy, I miss you ♪ 282 00:14:02,008 --> 00:14:03,242 ♪ I'm walking in your footsteps ♪ 283 00:14:03,342 --> 00:14:04,744 ♪ And man, you got big shoes 284 00:14:04,811 --> 00:14:07,313 ♪ So I'm doing the work and digging the dirt ♪ 285 00:14:07,380 --> 00:14:08,848 ♪ To make my bear den 286 00:14:08,915 --> 00:14:10,616 ♪ So when it gets cold, I'm underground ♪ 287 00:14:10,683 --> 00:14:12,285 ♪ Like my bear friends 288 00:14:12,285 --> 00:14:14,187 ♪ And when I need a break, I pick some blueberry magic ♪ 289 00:14:14,253 --> 00:14:17,323 ♪ It's one of my tactics to filling my belly basket ♪ 290 00:14:19,092 --> 00:14:25,765 ♪ 291 00:14:28,401 --> 00:14:30,169 ♪ 292 00:14:30,236 --> 00:14:32,538 Trout! Sweet. 293 00:14:40,446 --> 00:14:42,448 Actually, I lost count. 294 00:14:42,515 --> 00:14:46,919 I think that's 16 fish so far. 295 00:14:50,857 --> 00:14:53,926 Wow, like as soon as that hit the water. 296 00:14:53,993 --> 00:14:57,163 ♪ 297 00:14:57,230 --> 00:14:58,398 Another trout. 298 00:14:58,498 --> 00:14:59,999 Awesome. 299 00:15:03,436 --> 00:15:06,773 ♪ I feel like I'm thriving and not just surviving ♪ 300 00:15:06,773 --> 00:15:08,107 It's so crazy. 301 00:15:08,174 --> 00:15:12,211 My problems are, I have too much food to cook. 302 00:15:12,278 --> 00:15:13,546 ♪ 303 00:15:13,613 --> 00:15:15,581 I got a lot of smoked fish hanging 304 00:15:15,648 --> 00:15:19,819 in beach house and three-day-old pike. 305 00:15:24,724 --> 00:15:26,325 I'm fit for this challenge because 306 00:15:26,325 --> 00:15:28,661 of my really unique childhood. 307 00:15:28,728 --> 00:15:31,531 Going to school was a daily choice. 308 00:15:31,597 --> 00:15:33,766 I didn't struggle in school at all, 309 00:15:33,833 --> 00:15:35,701 but it was quite boring. 310 00:15:35,768 --> 00:15:37,937 So I opted into school until fifth grade, 311 00:15:38,004 --> 00:15:40,006 and then my parents let me do my own version 312 00:15:40,106 --> 00:15:42,408 of homeschooling, which was basically 313 00:15:42,475 --> 00:15:45,311 I take my goats up our canyon every day. 314 00:15:45,378 --> 00:15:48,748 My dad gave me a big stack of literature to read. 315 00:15:50,716 --> 00:15:53,119 And being alone and being outside, 316 00:15:53,219 --> 00:15:56,823 I was way more fulfilled discovering things 317 00:15:56,889 --> 00:16:01,260 in the wilderness than I was in the classroom. 318 00:16:01,327 --> 00:16:03,362 Call that dinner. 319 00:16:05,198 --> 00:16:11,304 ♪ 320 00:16:11,370 --> 00:16:12,672 - Great. 321 00:16:12,738 --> 00:16:14,774 ♪ 322 00:16:14,774 --> 00:16:17,643 Working on my fireplace. 323 00:16:19,612 --> 00:16:23,382 Starting to work on the comforts of bear den. 324 00:16:23,449 --> 00:16:25,518 This feels nice. 325 00:16:25,618 --> 00:16:27,286 ♪ 326 00:16:27,353 --> 00:16:31,624 I've been married for 18 years to my amazing wife, Delia. 327 00:16:31,691 --> 00:16:35,228 And 10 years ago, we had our son, Osiris. 328 00:16:37,129 --> 00:16:38,998 He's in an outdoor school now 329 00:16:39,098 --> 00:16:41,801 that skills and survival influence. 330 00:16:41,901 --> 00:16:43,369 So it was a really good time for me 331 00:16:43,369 --> 00:16:46,072 to come do this and reconnect with my roots 332 00:16:46,138 --> 00:16:48,574 and start to share that with my son more. 333 00:16:48,641 --> 00:16:51,110 Don't think that'll cave in. 334 00:16:51,177 --> 00:16:53,446 I'm gonna go get a piece of fire. 335 00:16:53,546 --> 00:16:56,949 Being alone here is definitely a lot different than the rest 336 00:16:57,016 --> 00:16:59,619 of the times I've spent away from my family, 337 00:16:59,685 --> 00:17:01,621 especially my son. 338 00:17:01,687 --> 00:17:04,223 There's a lot of work that I do in Oregon, 339 00:17:04,290 --> 00:17:06,425 but we still talk every day, and I still tell him 340 00:17:06,492 --> 00:17:08,961 bedtime stories every night. 341 00:17:09,061 --> 00:17:10,296 Yeah! 342 00:17:10,363 --> 00:17:12,198 So that's pulling on me a little bit, 343 00:17:12,298 --> 00:17:14,800 but the whole time prepping to come out here, 344 00:17:14,901 --> 00:17:17,570 he was like, "Just don't tap out, Dad," 345 00:17:17,637 --> 00:17:19,872 and, "Be strong," and, "Me and Mom will be okay. 346 00:17:19,939 --> 00:17:21,540 Don't worry about us." 347 00:17:21,607 --> 00:17:23,943 He is such a brave kid. 348 00:17:24,010 --> 00:17:28,214 And definitely, he's keeping me motivated out here. 349 00:17:28,214 --> 00:17:31,717 ♪ 350 00:17:31,817 --> 00:17:34,587 I'm really stoked how that's drafting like that. 351 00:17:34,654 --> 00:17:36,522 Success. 352 00:17:36,522 --> 00:17:43,529 ♪ 353 00:17:49,335 --> 00:17:51,570 Oh, yeah. 354 00:17:51,570 --> 00:17:57,543 It's definitely cold tonight, but the fireplace is amazing. 355 00:17:59,578 --> 00:18:03,816 I don't want to brag... 356 00:18:03,883 --> 00:18:08,654 but I think this would definitely win "Alone" cribs. 357 00:18:09,722 --> 00:18:12,758 Ah, it's big, and it's comfy. 358 00:18:16,495 --> 00:18:17,897 [stomach rumbles] 359 00:18:17,964 --> 00:18:20,967 Ugh, my gut feels weird, though. 360 00:18:20,967 --> 00:18:22,935 Definitely got bubble gut. 361 00:18:23,002 --> 00:18:29,542 ♪ 362 00:18:30,543 --> 00:18:32,812 Hoping it's just food poisoning, 363 00:18:32,878 --> 00:18:35,815 something simple like that. 364 00:18:35,815 --> 00:18:38,985 There has been a couple of times that I've eaten, 365 00:18:39,051 --> 00:18:42,288 like, two-day-old fish. 366 00:18:42,355 --> 00:18:45,658 So it could have something to do with it. 367 00:18:46,692 --> 00:18:49,295 But it doesn't feel like food poisoning. 368 00:18:49,362 --> 00:18:51,497 Like, I usually just puke. 369 00:18:51,564 --> 00:18:53,566 [burps] 370 00:18:53,632 --> 00:18:56,869 I guess there's a lot of other things it could be, though. 371 00:18:56,936 --> 00:18:59,939 Oh, I feel like I gotta poop. 372 00:19:00,006 --> 00:19:02,408 ♪ 373 00:19:07,847 --> 00:19:10,783 [tense music] 374 00:19:10,850 --> 00:19:17,890 ♪ 375 00:19:24,330 --> 00:19:25,965 - It's so good. 376 00:19:43,049 --> 00:19:44,417 All right. 377 00:19:44,483 --> 00:19:46,218 [laughs] 378 00:19:46,285 --> 00:19:48,120 Get to work. 379 00:19:48,120 --> 00:19:50,122 ♪ 380 00:19:50,122 --> 00:19:52,358 Now, we're gonna check the gillnets. 381 00:19:52,425 --> 00:19:54,126 ♪ 382 00:19:54,193 --> 00:19:56,896 I feel that the land is really providing for me, 383 00:19:56,962 --> 00:19:58,964 and I feel set up. 384 00:19:59,031 --> 00:20:00,533 I think there's a fish. 385 00:20:00,599 --> 00:20:02,334 [laughs] 386 00:20:02,401 --> 00:20:04,804 All right, let's bring this net out. 387 00:20:04,804 --> 00:20:06,372 ♪ 388 00:20:06,439 --> 00:20:07,773 I have a gillnet. 389 00:20:07,840 --> 00:20:10,109 I have snare for a squirrel. 390 00:20:10,176 --> 00:20:13,345 I have set line in the middle of my cove. 391 00:20:13,412 --> 00:20:16,415 And eventually, I want to take advantage of the canoe 392 00:20:16,482 --> 00:20:19,018 when the water's a little more calm. 393 00:20:19,085 --> 00:20:20,252 Whoo! 394 00:20:20,319 --> 00:20:22,121 We're flowing here. We are moving. 395 00:20:22,121 --> 00:20:24,924 We got a fish! 396 00:20:28,360 --> 00:20:29,695 Big trout. 397 00:20:29,762 --> 00:20:31,931 That's what I live for. 398 00:20:31,997 --> 00:20:34,500 Sharp teeth, though. 399 00:20:34,567 --> 00:20:36,001 Not sharper as mine. 400 00:20:36,102 --> 00:20:37,203 [laughs] 401 00:20:37,269 --> 00:20:39,004 ♪ 402 00:20:39,004 --> 00:20:41,006 I have food for, like, the next ten days. 403 00:20:41,073 --> 00:20:43,042 I think that's a good feeling. 404 00:20:43,142 --> 00:20:46,645 ♪ 405 00:20:46,645 --> 00:20:48,180 Here we are. 406 00:20:52,952 --> 00:20:56,722 I think the smoker is smokin' cool. 407 00:20:56,789 --> 00:20:58,457 And the-- 408 00:21:02,528 --> 00:21:05,164 First, we have to start a fire. 409 00:21:05,231 --> 00:21:07,967 You know, we have to get our food, hunt for it. 410 00:21:11,570 --> 00:21:12,972 ♪ 411 00:21:13,038 --> 00:21:16,942 But even the bigger challenge is to keep your food 412 00:21:17,009 --> 00:21:19,044 from other creatures. 413 00:21:24,116 --> 00:21:25,518 There we go. 414 00:21:25,518 --> 00:21:32,525 ♪ 415 00:21:37,029 --> 00:21:38,697 Lunch. 416 00:21:38,764 --> 00:21:40,166 Here we go. 417 00:21:47,339 --> 00:21:48,607 It will be delicious. 418 00:21:48,674 --> 00:21:52,845 ♪ 419 00:21:52,912 --> 00:21:54,180 Oh, I like this. 420 00:21:54,246 --> 00:21:56,182 This is beautiful. 421 00:21:56,248 --> 00:21:58,484 I think I'm setting myself up for success 422 00:21:58,551 --> 00:22:00,519 and having some fun. 423 00:22:00,586 --> 00:22:03,322 And that's how I like it, you know? 424 00:22:03,389 --> 00:22:10,396 ♪ 425 00:22:20,639 --> 00:22:22,575 - What's going on? 426 00:22:25,377 --> 00:22:27,479 You are a bald little bugger. 427 00:22:31,250 --> 00:22:33,819 ♪ 428 00:22:33,886 --> 00:22:35,354 That's one brave little mink. 429 00:22:35,454 --> 00:22:36,856 [laughs] 430 00:22:36,922 --> 00:22:38,858 Yeah, I see ya. 431 00:22:38,924 --> 00:22:41,360 Did you steal my fish? 432 00:22:41,427 --> 00:22:42,895 Look at you. 433 00:22:42,962 --> 00:22:45,564 You're pretty comical. 434 00:22:45,631 --> 00:22:48,100 Not very afraid of nothing, are ya? 435 00:22:48,167 --> 00:22:51,904 You know, if I go get my bow, you're one dead rat. 436 00:22:51,971 --> 00:22:55,341 But what a pain in the ass. 437 00:22:55,407 --> 00:22:57,243 You need to stick to yours, and I'll stick to mine. 438 00:22:57,309 --> 00:22:59,545 How is that? Fair deal? 439 00:22:59,612 --> 00:23:00,946 ♪ 440 00:23:01,013 --> 00:23:04,016 Let's go try a couple casts. 441 00:23:04,083 --> 00:23:05,417 It's prime time. 442 00:23:05,484 --> 00:23:06,852 We need some food. 443 00:23:06,919 --> 00:23:09,088 Hopefully find a fish. 444 00:23:09,154 --> 00:23:13,726 All right, gold hellfire back in action. 445 00:23:13,792 --> 00:23:16,095 ♪ 446 00:23:16,161 --> 00:23:19,798 Let's hope the fish want to bite. 447 00:23:19,865 --> 00:23:22,768 If I am so fortunate to catch one, 448 00:23:22,768 --> 00:23:24,637 there won't be any mistakes like the other night 449 00:23:24,737 --> 00:23:27,406 and try and keep me a livewell. 450 00:23:27,473 --> 00:23:29,541 I'd still be eating fish today. 451 00:23:29,608 --> 00:23:32,011 Instead, I'm hungry. 452 00:23:37,683 --> 00:23:39,118 Got him. 453 00:23:39,184 --> 00:23:40,719 We got a fish. 454 00:23:40,786 --> 00:23:42,154 ♪ 455 00:23:42,254 --> 00:23:44,990 All right, keep the line tight. 456 00:23:45,090 --> 00:23:46,558 Come on. 457 00:23:46,558 --> 00:23:47,760 Come on. 458 00:23:47,760 --> 00:23:48,961 No, no, no, no, don't flop. 459 00:23:48,961 --> 00:23:50,996 Don't flop. Come on. 460 00:23:50,996 --> 00:23:52,798 Yeah. 461 00:23:52,865 --> 00:23:54,233 [laughs] 462 00:23:54,333 --> 00:23:57,136 Nice 3- to 4-pound lake trout. 463 00:23:57,202 --> 00:24:00,406 Now, that is a beautiful feeling. 464 00:24:01,774 --> 00:24:03,742 Oh, yeah. 465 00:24:03,809 --> 00:24:05,744 It's just an overwhelming feeling 466 00:24:05,811 --> 00:24:08,080 to build a rod that I've never built, 467 00:24:08,180 --> 00:24:10,482 build a lure that I've never built, 468 00:24:10,549 --> 00:24:12,518 and have them all work. 469 00:24:12,518 --> 00:24:15,120 And the reward is here. 470 00:24:15,120 --> 00:24:16,522 ♪ 471 00:24:16,588 --> 00:24:19,191 It is that final statement to me that 472 00:24:19,291 --> 00:24:21,393 I deserve to be here. 473 00:24:21,493 --> 00:24:22,761 ♪ 474 00:24:22,761 --> 00:24:26,966 Look at that beautiful, beautiful fish. 475 00:24:30,970 --> 00:24:32,805 Oh. 476 00:24:32,805 --> 00:24:34,173 Mmm. 477 00:24:34,239 --> 00:24:36,608 ♪ 478 00:24:36,608 --> 00:24:41,613 I can't even describe how badly my body needed it. 479 00:24:41,680 --> 00:24:43,849 A couple of days with no protein. 480 00:24:43,916 --> 00:24:47,119 Nothing more than a couple of handfuls of berries, really. 481 00:24:47,119 --> 00:24:49,455 ♪ 482 00:24:49,521 --> 00:24:51,056 Oh. 483 00:24:51,123 --> 00:24:54,126 ♪ 484 00:24:54,193 --> 00:24:56,195 Perfect. 485 00:24:56,295 --> 00:24:58,797 I'm like a kid at Christmas. 486 00:24:58,797 --> 00:25:02,101 ♪ 487 00:25:02,167 --> 00:25:03,569 Oh. 488 00:25:03,635 --> 00:25:05,404 Mmm, mmm, mmm. 489 00:25:09,842 --> 00:25:12,778 [dramatic music] 490 00:25:12,845 --> 00:25:19,885 ♪ 491 00:25:22,121 --> 00:25:24,690 - My house is a mess. 492 00:25:26,558 --> 00:25:30,596 I'm so busy working, I'm not keeping it tidy anymore. 493 00:25:30,596 --> 00:25:35,300 Look at my nice, little stack of firewood I got. 494 00:25:35,367 --> 00:25:38,036 And there's my moss ready for chinking. 495 00:25:38,137 --> 00:25:40,973 Not too long, and I'll be moving in. 496 00:25:41,040 --> 00:25:43,042 Home sweet home. 497 00:25:43,042 --> 00:25:44,443 It's time to get to work. 498 00:25:44,510 --> 00:25:46,278 ♪ 499 00:25:46,278 --> 00:25:48,313 I got to get my shelter done. 500 00:25:48,414 --> 00:25:51,850 I want to have this done within the next three to four days. 501 00:25:51,917 --> 00:25:53,952 I am pushing for time. 502 00:25:53,952 --> 00:25:57,156 I really have to get the roof on today. 503 00:25:57,156 --> 00:26:00,192 I'm using all of my time on this cabin. 504 00:26:00,259 --> 00:26:03,128 But winter is coming, and it's coming fast. 505 00:26:03,195 --> 00:26:04,897 Snow is gonna be on the ground, 506 00:26:04,963 --> 00:26:08,233 and I'm gonna be sorry if I don't have this cabin up. 507 00:26:08,233 --> 00:26:11,003 And then I can go to fishin' and huntin'. 508 00:26:12,070 --> 00:26:14,339 I can go catch fish any time, 509 00:26:14,406 --> 00:26:18,444 but I cannot live here if my shelter is not finished. 510 00:26:18,510 --> 00:26:19,878 ♪ 511 00:26:19,945 --> 00:26:21,580 One more. 512 00:26:21,647 --> 00:26:26,151 I'm earning every bit of that $500,000 building this cabin. 513 00:26:26,218 --> 00:26:27,553 [laughs] 514 00:26:27,553 --> 00:26:29,688 ♪ 515 00:26:29,755 --> 00:26:31,824 Whoo! 516 00:26:31,924 --> 00:26:33,792 Whoo! 517 00:26:33,859 --> 00:26:35,427 Yes! 518 00:26:35,527 --> 00:26:37,396 [laughs] 519 00:26:37,396 --> 00:26:39,164 Wow. 520 00:26:39,231 --> 00:26:40,766 That feels good. 521 00:26:40,833 --> 00:26:42,801 Now, I just need to cover it with moss 522 00:26:42,868 --> 00:26:46,138 and throw my tarp on there later. 523 00:26:46,205 --> 00:26:48,173 I'm so excited. 524 00:26:48,240 --> 00:26:49,441 How about you? 525 00:26:49,508 --> 00:26:51,443 Whoo! 526 00:26:51,443 --> 00:26:53,712 Yes! 527 00:26:53,812 --> 00:26:56,248 I can't wait to see my family's faces 528 00:26:56,315 --> 00:26:58,717 when they see the cabin that I built. 529 00:26:58,784 --> 00:27:00,185 ♪ 530 00:27:00,285 --> 00:27:01,954 It's not physically tough. 531 00:27:01,954 --> 00:27:04,256 I could do this forever if I had to. 532 00:27:04,323 --> 00:27:06,959 But it sure is mentally tough. 533 00:27:07,025 --> 00:27:08,794 The only thing I wasn't prepared for was 534 00:27:08,794 --> 00:27:12,130 how much I was gonna miss my family. 535 00:27:12,197 --> 00:27:16,101 27 years, I've never been away from any of my family 536 00:27:16,168 --> 00:27:18,971 for more than a couple of weeks at a time. 537 00:27:19,037 --> 00:27:22,774 ♪ 538 00:27:22,841 --> 00:27:25,410 I'm gonna have to see if I can get up on this 539 00:27:25,477 --> 00:27:27,846 and spread this moss out. 540 00:27:30,249 --> 00:27:33,552 Coming out here, it was really bad timing 541 00:27:33,552 --> 00:27:36,255 with my dad having a heart attack recently, 542 00:27:36,321 --> 00:27:38,156 and my mom doesn't get around. 543 00:27:38,223 --> 00:27:40,392 So she can't take care of my dad. 544 00:27:40,459 --> 00:27:43,395 That responsibility was mine, and I left that 545 00:27:43,462 --> 00:27:45,998 to my kids and my husband. 546 00:27:46,064 --> 00:27:48,367 All right, I brought my ax up here 547 00:27:48,433 --> 00:27:51,537 because there was a couple of knots that will be too bad. 548 00:27:54,506 --> 00:27:58,043 Hopefully, none of these buggers break on me, huh? 549 00:27:58,110 --> 00:28:00,479 ♪ 550 00:28:00,546 --> 00:28:02,447 Whoa. 551 00:28:02,514 --> 00:28:05,150 But before I left, he said, 552 00:28:05,217 --> 00:28:07,553 "Don't you ever let anything that I do 553 00:28:07,619 --> 00:28:09,288 stop you from living." 554 00:28:09,354 --> 00:28:12,624 And so because of my father, I'm here. 555 00:28:12,724 --> 00:28:14,693 ♪ 556 00:28:14,760 --> 00:28:16,495 All right. 557 00:28:16,562 --> 00:28:19,264 My dad was a cowboy, and he used 558 00:28:19,364 --> 00:28:23,035 to ride cows in the mountains all summer long. 559 00:28:23,135 --> 00:28:25,671 He'd be up there about five months out of the year 560 00:28:25,771 --> 00:28:30,976 without speaking to anybody, seeing anyone, nothing. 561 00:28:31,043 --> 00:28:34,313 He was so immersed in making sure that his family was 562 00:28:34,413 --> 00:28:36,448 well taken care of and well fed that 563 00:28:36,515 --> 00:28:39,751 my dad gave himself to his work. 564 00:28:39,818 --> 00:28:42,254 ♪ 565 00:28:42,321 --> 00:28:44,690 It's magical out here. 566 00:28:44,756 --> 00:28:46,592 It truly is. 567 00:28:46,658 --> 00:28:48,927 I draw a lot of strength from him. 568 00:28:48,994 --> 00:28:51,430 I feel him here with me, 569 00:28:51,530 --> 00:28:55,434 and I know he'd be so proud of me. 570 00:28:55,500 --> 00:28:59,805 Okay, I got all the way across the top. 571 00:28:59,871 --> 00:29:01,540 I get to move in today. 572 00:29:01,607 --> 00:29:08,614 ♪ 573 00:29:22,427 --> 00:29:24,963 - Ugh. 574 00:29:25,030 --> 00:29:27,432 It's gross. 575 00:29:27,499 --> 00:29:31,336 Still got total bubble gut... 576 00:29:31,403 --> 00:29:34,539 burpy and poopy feelings. 577 00:29:34,606 --> 00:29:36,608 I've felt super bloated, 578 00:29:36,675 --> 00:29:39,878 super gassy for a few days now. 579 00:29:39,945 --> 00:29:43,682 And then last night really felt like I needed to fart. 580 00:29:43,749 --> 00:29:48,286 And when I went to let that fart out, 581 00:29:48,353 --> 00:29:53,959 it turned into a waterfall of liquid diarrhea. 582 00:29:54,026 --> 00:29:56,895 I was naked in my sleeping bag, 583 00:29:56,962 --> 00:29:59,865 and it really made quite a mess. 584 00:29:59,965 --> 00:30:02,501 Did not sleep at all last night. 585 00:30:02,567 --> 00:30:04,202 ♪ 586 00:30:04,202 --> 00:30:07,272 I don't think it was the fish. 587 00:30:07,372 --> 00:30:11,843 But sanitation out here is difficult. 588 00:30:11,910 --> 00:30:13,178 ♪ 589 00:30:13,245 --> 00:30:15,647 I know I've been risking it, 590 00:30:15,714 --> 00:30:17,449 drinking water straight out of the lake, 591 00:30:17,516 --> 00:30:20,919 especially right at the beach. 592 00:30:20,986 --> 00:30:23,588 Could have been a mistake. 593 00:30:23,689 --> 00:30:25,891 ♪ 594 00:30:27,259 --> 00:30:29,795 My stomach's just gurgling. 595 00:30:31,596 --> 00:30:33,332 [burps] 596 00:30:34,566 --> 00:30:37,436 Hopefully, a nap will help. 597 00:30:37,536 --> 00:30:42,340 ♪ 598 00:30:42,407 --> 00:30:45,811 So I'm back at the beach house. 599 00:30:45,877 --> 00:30:49,848 I just can't shake this rotten gut. 600 00:30:49,915 --> 00:30:51,950 ♪ 601 00:30:52,017 --> 00:30:53,985 Oh. 602 00:31:02,828 --> 00:31:04,529 [groans] 603 00:31:06,264 --> 00:31:08,834 Yeah, it's getting worse. 604 00:31:08,834 --> 00:31:10,836 ♪ 605 00:31:10,936 --> 00:31:13,939 Last time--it could be something besides giardia, 606 00:31:14,005 --> 00:31:17,442 but last time I had giardia, it started out 607 00:31:17,442 --> 00:31:20,245 with pooping and pooping and pooping, 608 00:31:20,312 --> 00:31:22,881 and then it started puking and pooping 609 00:31:22,948 --> 00:31:24,983 and puking and pooping. 610 00:31:25,050 --> 00:31:26,952 ♪ 611 00:31:26,952 --> 00:31:29,588 So that could be what's ahead of me. 612 00:31:29,688 --> 00:31:32,491 ♪ 613 00:31:32,557 --> 00:31:35,494 [burping, groaning] 614 00:31:35,560 --> 00:31:38,196 ♪ 615 00:31:38,263 --> 00:31:41,066 It's hitting me that this could be 616 00:31:41,166 --> 00:31:43,502 the beginning of the end for me. 617 00:31:43,568 --> 00:31:46,638 ♪ 618 00:31:46,705 --> 00:31:48,774 There's definitely a lot of pressure 619 00:31:48,840 --> 00:31:50,942 to do well here 620 00:31:51,009 --> 00:31:53,879 because my dad is so legendary. 621 00:31:53,945 --> 00:31:57,215 There's nowhere I go that people don't want to tell me 622 00:31:57,282 --> 00:31:59,951 their story of when they met him 623 00:31:59,951 --> 00:32:02,487 or when they found his book. 624 00:32:02,554 --> 00:32:04,656 ♪ 625 00:32:04,723 --> 00:32:06,925 I got to spend the least amount of time with him 626 00:32:06,992 --> 00:32:08,693 because I was the youngest. 627 00:32:08,760 --> 00:32:11,930 So when he passed, it was definitely an eye-opener 628 00:32:11,997 --> 00:32:15,033 about how short life really is 629 00:32:15,100 --> 00:32:19,337 and what we're able to accomplish in life. 630 00:32:19,404 --> 00:32:21,373 Hard to think right now. 631 00:32:21,440 --> 00:32:23,475 ♪ 632 00:32:23,575 --> 00:32:25,710 I feel delirious. 633 00:32:25,811 --> 00:32:27,979 ♪ 634 00:32:28,046 --> 00:32:31,283 There are so many more things that I want to accomplish. 635 00:32:31,283 --> 00:32:34,519 But also, I feel like I've really been able 636 00:32:34,586 --> 00:32:36,788 to carve out my own place here. 637 00:32:36,888 --> 00:32:38,356 ♪ 638 00:32:38,423 --> 00:32:41,693 And maybe it's enough. 639 00:32:41,760 --> 00:32:46,765 ♪ 640 00:32:46,832 --> 00:32:48,633 I'm gonna do it. 641 00:32:52,704 --> 00:32:54,873 It's time to get out of here. 642 00:32:58,710 --> 00:33:00,378 Whoa. 643 00:33:00,445 --> 00:33:03,381 ♪ 644 00:33:03,448 --> 00:33:06,518 There's a bear. 645 00:33:06,585 --> 00:33:09,988 Man, that's a big decision right now. 646 00:33:10,088 --> 00:33:13,925 Right here at camp, a bear. 647 00:33:13,992 --> 00:33:18,196 ♪ 648 00:33:21,900 --> 00:33:25,136 ♪ 649 00:33:29,107 --> 00:33:30,775 I could be winning this thing 650 00:33:30,842 --> 00:33:33,011 if I can get over this sickness. 651 00:33:33,078 --> 00:33:36,915 ♪ 652 00:33:40,952 --> 00:33:42,821 [dramatic music] 653 00:33:42,921 --> 00:33:44,589 - There's a bear. 654 00:33:44,656 --> 00:33:46,625 ♪ 655 00:33:46,691 --> 00:33:47,826 [bleep] 656 00:33:47,826 --> 00:33:54,065 ♪ 657 00:33:54,065 --> 00:33:55,267 [bleep] 658 00:34:02,874 --> 00:34:09,881 ♪ 659 00:34:11,516 --> 00:34:13,518 And I missed it. 660 00:34:14,786 --> 00:34:16,121 Okay, wait. 661 00:34:19,391 --> 00:34:22,661 I don't think I can shoot this bear. 662 00:34:23,662 --> 00:34:25,196 One there. 663 00:34:25,263 --> 00:34:26,631 You see him? 664 00:34:32,504 --> 00:34:36,074 That's obviously a sow with cubs. 665 00:34:36,074 --> 00:34:38,176 ♪ 666 00:34:38,243 --> 00:34:41,279 She's just chilling there. 667 00:34:41,346 --> 00:34:44,549 She's definitely got a younger one with her. 668 00:34:44,649 --> 00:34:48,687 I even took a shot at it, like, not thinking. 669 00:34:48,753 --> 00:34:50,155 ♪ 670 00:34:50,221 --> 00:34:54,793 And not only is that against the rules, 671 00:34:54,859 --> 00:34:57,028 it just feels wrong. 672 00:34:57,095 --> 00:34:59,864 ♪ 673 00:34:59,965 --> 00:35:02,300 Mama and a baby. 674 00:35:02,400 --> 00:35:05,003 ♪ 675 00:35:05,070 --> 00:35:07,105 [sighs] 676 00:35:07,205 --> 00:35:09,708 ♪ 677 00:35:09,808 --> 00:35:12,477 What a beautiful sign. 678 00:35:12,544 --> 00:35:17,015 That cub showed me what was really going on. 679 00:35:18,316 --> 00:35:23,588 Time to go home to my mama bear and my cub. 680 00:35:23,588 --> 00:35:24,923 [sniffs] 681 00:35:24,990 --> 00:35:28,626 I'm so thankful that I didn't make contact 682 00:35:28,626 --> 00:35:30,628 with one of those arrows. 683 00:35:30,628 --> 00:35:34,566 Had I hit and still had to leave from illness, 684 00:35:34,632 --> 00:35:37,736 which was a very real possibility, 685 00:35:37,802 --> 00:35:39,871 what a shame that would be 686 00:35:39,971 --> 00:35:44,509 to have that effect on this place and on that family. 687 00:35:44,609 --> 00:35:50,515 ♪ 688 00:35:50,582 --> 00:35:52,150 Hi. This is Luke, 689 00:35:52,217 --> 00:35:54,719 and I'm officially tapping out. 690 00:35:54,786 --> 00:35:58,390 ♪ 691 00:35:58,390 --> 00:36:01,459 That feels so right. 692 00:36:01,559 --> 00:36:08,566 ♪ 693 00:36:17,542 --> 00:36:19,577 So I've been debating all morning 694 00:36:19,644 --> 00:36:22,747 'cause of a really sleepless night with diarrhea 695 00:36:22,847 --> 00:36:25,116 and stomach cramps. 696 00:36:25,116 --> 00:36:29,688 And then I encountered two bears, 697 00:36:29,754 --> 00:36:31,389 a mom and a cub. 698 00:36:31,389 --> 00:36:33,591 And it just, like, overwhelmed me 699 00:36:33,658 --> 00:36:35,794 with that feeling of-- 700 00:36:35,860 --> 00:36:38,263 of parenthood. 701 00:36:38,363 --> 00:36:41,466 And... 702 00:36:41,466 --> 00:36:43,868 yeah, it was just, like, a really solidifying moment 703 00:36:43,968 --> 00:36:48,373 for me to just respect myself, respect this place. 704 00:36:48,440 --> 00:36:52,077 ♪ 705 00:36:52,143 --> 00:36:53,878 I promised myself that I would leave here 706 00:36:53,945 --> 00:36:56,514 stronger than when I came. 707 00:36:56,581 --> 00:37:00,485 And all this time alone in an environment that's 708 00:37:00,552 --> 00:37:02,987 really conducive to connecting with my dad 709 00:37:03,054 --> 00:37:07,192 has given me ample opportunity to finish mourning him. 710 00:37:07,258 --> 00:37:11,429 And I've realized that, yes, he's got big shoes. 711 00:37:11,429 --> 00:37:14,999 But my shoes have also seen some incredible miles 712 00:37:15,066 --> 00:37:17,402 and been some amazing places. 713 00:37:17,469 --> 00:37:22,574 So I am a lot more proud of who I am as myself 714 00:37:22,640 --> 00:37:24,442 and not just as an Olsen. 715 00:37:24,509 --> 00:37:27,812 And I'm really appreciative of my life 716 00:37:27,879 --> 00:37:32,250 and incredibly excited to dive into a lot 717 00:37:32,317 --> 00:37:35,353 of this lifestyle with my son. 718 00:37:35,420 --> 00:37:37,622 ♪ I've done what I came to do 719 00:37:37,722 --> 00:37:39,824 ♪ I said what I needed to say 720 00:37:39,924 --> 00:37:43,061 ♪ Staying alive, staying alive ♪ 721 00:37:43,161 --> 00:37:50,135 ♪ 722 00:37:58,109 --> 00:38:05,116 ♪ 723 00:38:16,227 --> 00:38:19,397 - Well, I woke up to Christmas today. 724 00:38:19,464 --> 00:38:22,767 It's a good thing I got the roof done when I did. 725 00:38:22,834 --> 00:38:25,003 Everything was completely dry inside. 726 00:38:25,069 --> 00:38:26,671 It was perfect. 727 00:38:28,039 --> 00:38:30,008 Winter wonderland out there. 728 00:38:31,075 --> 00:38:33,912 And this is just the beginning. 729 00:38:33,912 --> 00:38:35,480 ♪ 730 00:38:35,547 --> 00:38:38,149 Go get water. 731 00:38:38,249 --> 00:38:40,985 Out here, nature doesn't hold back for you. 732 00:38:40,985 --> 00:38:43,121 You have to be ready for that and prepared. 733 00:38:43,188 --> 00:38:46,291 I feel extremely protected in my cabin, 734 00:38:46,357 --> 00:38:48,226 knowing that I'm gonna be dry, 735 00:38:48,293 --> 00:38:50,028 and I'm gonna be warm. 736 00:38:50,094 --> 00:38:53,164 And I could stay out here the whole winter, if I needed to. 737 00:38:53,231 --> 00:38:55,166 ♪ 738 00:38:55,233 --> 00:38:57,969 There's my cabin, the Lost Cabin. 739 00:39:02,040 --> 00:39:06,010 Good place get lost and go find yourself. 740 00:39:06,077 --> 00:39:09,013 Here we go, fresh water. 741 00:39:09,080 --> 00:39:10,315 ♪ 742 00:39:10,315 --> 00:39:12,116 I feel like I'm accepted here. 743 00:39:12,116 --> 00:39:15,587 It's magical, and it's provided me 744 00:39:15,587 --> 00:39:17,989 with nourishment, medicine, 745 00:39:18,056 --> 00:39:21,659 and spiritual energy and love. 746 00:39:21,759 --> 00:39:24,028 I have everything I need up here. 747 00:39:24,028 --> 00:39:27,899 ♪ 748 00:39:27,999 --> 00:39:29,567 I miss my family, 749 00:39:29,634 --> 00:39:33,004 but I'm getting around it by staying busy. 750 00:39:34,706 --> 00:39:36,641 I'm gonna finish my cabin today. 751 00:39:36,708 --> 00:39:38,610 I'm gonna do the door. 752 00:39:38,676 --> 00:39:40,111 ♪ 753 00:39:40,211 --> 00:39:43,414 I think I've got a lot done for just one person. 754 00:39:43,481 --> 00:39:46,651 I have a lot more in me than I thought I did. 755 00:39:46,718 --> 00:39:50,188 One of the reasons why I came here was to test myself. 756 00:39:50,255 --> 00:39:51,489 ♪ 757 00:39:51,556 --> 00:39:53,725 My entire life, 758 00:39:53,791 --> 00:39:56,828 I have fought to be superwoman, 759 00:39:56,894 --> 00:39:58,930 to take care of everyone. 760 00:39:58,997 --> 00:40:02,066 After I had my accident, I changed. 761 00:40:02,133 --> 00:40:04,569 The snow is starting to melt. 762 00:40:04,636 --> 00:40:09,474 Out here, by losing myself to this wilderness 763 00:40:09,540 --> 00:40:11,676 and letting go of the fear, 764 00:40:11,743 --> 00:40:14,012 I have found that I am strong, 765 00:40:14,078 --> 00:40:16,147 I am resilient, 766 00:40:16,247 --> 00:40:19,384 and I've come into my own self again. 767 00:40:19,484 --> 00:40:23,187 I can move on with my life and not be stuck in the past. 768 00:40:23,187 --> 00:40:25,189 ♪ 769 00:40:25,189 --> 00:40:27,558 Oh, it's heavier than heck. 770 00:40:27,625 --> 00:40:29,160 ♪ 771 00:40:29,227 --> 00:40:32,330 My family--they're all who got me here. 772 00:40:32,397 --> 00:40:35,099 They were carrying the torch then. 773 00:40:35,199 --> 00:40:36,467 This is my turn, 774 00:40:36,567 --> 00:40:40,138 and I'm gonna carry that torch to the end. 775 00:40:40,204 --> 00:40:41,472 There's the door. 776 00:40:41,539 --> 00:40:42,807 [laughs] 777 00:40:42,874 --> 00:40:45,410 Now I just have to chink. 778 00:40:45,476 --> 00:40:48,813 I'm kind of worried when I get done with the cabin, though. 779 00:40:48,880 --> 00:40:51,049 I'm gonna have to find a lot of projects 780 00:40:51,115 --> 00:40:53,284 to be able to keep my mind busy during the days, 781 00:40:53,351 --> 00:40:56,788 because I'm really worried about my mom and my dad. 782 00:40:56,788 --> 00:40:59,023 I talked to my mom before I left, 783 00:40:59,123 --> 00:41:01,426 and she said she would be okay 784 00:41:01,426 --> 00:41:03,361 and that she would get through. 785 00:41:03,428 --> 00:41:06,130 But I'm still feeling guilty. 786 00:41:06,197 --> 00:41:08,566 But my stubbornness in me says that 787 00:41:08,633 --> 00:41:10,435 you've got to stay, 788 00:41:10,435 --> 00:41:13,871 because I know I can get the $500,000. 789 00:41:13,871 --> 00:41:17,508 It's a solid door, and I don't feel any air coming out of it. 790 00:41:17,608 --> 00:41:20,745 I think having a full belly will help a lot. 791 00:41:20,845 --> 00:41:23,047 I just need to get some protein. 792 00:41:23,114 --> 00:41:30,154 ♪ 793 00:41:46,437 --> 00:41:49,440 I've got to check my snares. 794 00:41:49,507 --> 00:41:51,976 I seen a lot of sign of squirrels. 795 00:41:52,043 --> 00:41:55,079 They have little trails that they run from tree to tree. 796 00:42:01,419 --> 00:42:03,121 That would be nice. 797 00:42:05,189 --> 00:42:07,825 ♪ 798 00:42:07,825 --> 00:42:09,327 Right on. 799 00:42:09,394 --> 00:42:11,028 [laughs] 800 00:42:13,631 --> 00:42:15,600 Yay! 801 00:42:19,170 --> 00:42:20,371 ♪ 802 00:42:26,878 --> 00:42:28,713 ♪ 803 00:42:28,713 --> 00:42:30,248 Okay. 804 00:42:30,314 --> 00:42:31,916 I remember my first bird that I caught 805 00:42:31,916 --> 00:42:33,484 on the trap that I made. 806 00:42:33,551 --> 00:42:36,020 My stepfather said, "Okay, now you have to kill it. 807 00:42:36,120 --> 00:42:37,922 "You know, we need food, 808 00:42:37,989 --> 00:42:39,924 "and nobody's gonna do that for you. 809 00:42:39,991 --> 00:42:41,859 You have to do it for yourself." 810 00:42:41,959 --> 00:42:44,429 And I killed it. I cried. 811 00:42:44,429 --> 00:42:48,800 But then after that, I got very good at catching birds. 812 00:42:48,866 --> 00:42:52,203 Put you up there. 813 00:42:52,270 --> 00:42:55,106 My whole childhood and teenagerhood 814 00:42:55,206 --> 00:42:57,608 was hunting and fishing. 815 00:42:57,675 --> 00:43:01,646 That was how we managed to feed ourselves. 816 00:43:05,450 --> 00:43:06,951 ♪ 817 00:43:14,192 --> 00:43:19,864 ♪ 818 00:43:19,964 --> 00:43:21,766 What the [bleep]? 819 00:43:21,833 --> 00:43:23,534 ♪ 820 00:43:23,601 --> 00:43:24,969 Whoa. 821 00:43:27,472 --> 00:43:28,806 [bleep] 822 00:43:30,475 --> 00:43:34,112 ♪ 823 00:43:34,178 --> 00:43:36,547 Oh, my God. 824 00:43:40,985 --> 00:43:42,253 [dramatic music] 825 00:43:42,353 --> 00:43:43,387 ♪ 826 00:43:43,454 --> 00:43:45,590 - Yeah, yeah. 827 00:43:45,656 --> 00:43:52,663 ♪ 828 00:43:56,000 --> 00:43:59,003 He destroyed the feathers that are left here. 829 00:43:59,070 --> 00:44:01,072 And he grabbed it and left. 830 00:44:01,138 --> 00:44:02,807 He came this way. 831 00:44:02,874 --> 00:44:05,209 It could have been, like, a fox. 832 00:44:05,276 --> 00:44:08,246 It could have been a bear too. 833 00:44:08,312 --> 00:44:09,914 Oh, man. 834 00:44:09,981 --> 00:44:11,749 But half of my trout. 835 00:44:11,749 --> 00:44:14,385 [bleep] This is bad. 836 00:44:14,385 --> 00:44:18,022 That's food for two days or more. 837 00:44:18,089 --> 00:44:21,225 And the fight begins. 838 00:44:21,292 --> 00:44:25,463 One of my battles here is to protect my food, 839 00:44:25,463 --> 00:44:27,865 because it's not gonna serve me to catch trout 840 00:44:27,865 --> 00:44:30,468 so the animals can just eat. 841 00:44:30,535 --> 00:44:32,436 ♪ 842 00:44:32,503 --> 00:44:34,405 Oh, okay, here we go. 843 00:44:34,472 --> 00:44:37,542 He stopped here and plucked all the feathers. 844 00:44:37,642 --> 00:44:39,610 I don't see big footprint. 845 00:44:39,677 --> 00:44:42,880 So that means that it was probably a marten. 846 00:44:43,881 --> 00:44:46,984 Holy cow, a half. 847 00:44:46,984 --> 00:44:49,554 How could he carry that? 848 00:44:49,620 --> 00:44:51,422 Now I'm, like, paranoid. 849 00:44:51,489 --> 00:44:53,824 I don't want to leave my food alone. 850 00:44:53,824 --> 00:44:55,026 ♪ 851 00:44:55,092 --> 00:44:58,663 Man, I worked so hard for that fish. 852 00:44:58,663 --> 00:45:05,636 ♪ 853 00:45:08,439 --> 00:45:10,908 I hope you enjoy, little creature. 854 00:45:10,908 --> 00:45:13,711 But now I have to protect this. 855 00:45:13,778 --> 00:45:16,747 I know what that project is-- 856 00:45:16,747 --> 00:45:17,982 box. 857 00:45:18,082 --> 00:45:24,255 ♪ 858 00:45:24,355 --> 00:45:28,793 I'm scraping so the animals cannot climb. 859 00:45:28,859 --> 00:45:30,461 ♪ 860 00:45:30,461 --> 00:45:34,265 Start making a ladder to go up. 861 00:45:34,265 --> 00:45:36,067 I need to build a food cache. 862 00:45:36,133 --> 00:45:39,437 And I suspect that this was a marten. 863 00:45:39,503 --> 00:45:42,506 But the marten, you know, it could just strip the bark, 864 00:45:42,506 --> 00:45:46,911 put across a piece of wood, and put my meat right there. 865 00:45:46,978 --> 00:45:48,779 ♪ 866 00:45:48,879 --> 00:45:52,250 But another camp robber is the gray jay. 867 00:45:52,316 --> 00:45:54,485 Not just one gray jay-- there's a whole gang. 868 00:45:54,552 --> 00:45:56,954 They're gonna just sit there, eating the whole thing. 869 00:45:57,021 --> 00:45:59,423 Okay, I'm gonna cut the top now. 870 00:45:59,423 --> 00:46:01,692 So I decide to make a box 871 00:46:01,792 --> 00:46:04,028 and suspend it 16 feet in the air 872 00:46:04,095 --> 00:46:07,231 because bear can come as well. 873 00:46:07,298 --> 00:46:11,068 It's a challenging project... 874 00:46:11,135 --> 00:46:14,672 because it's tricky and dangerous. 875 00:46:14,739 --> 00:46:17,108 But it's a risk worth taking 876 00:46:17,174 --> 00:46:19,677 to protect the catch that I got. 877 00:46:19,744 --> 00:46:20,811 Maybe? 878 00:46:20,878 --> 00:46:23,547 Okay, there we go. 879 00:46:23,547 --> 00:46:25,650 ♪ 880 00:46:25,716 --> 00:46:29,954 Thank you for not cutting down together with you. 881 00:46:30,021 --> 00:46:31,389 Oh. 882 00:46:33,157 --> 00:46:35,459 We're not done yet. 883 00:46:35,459 --> 00:46:38,429 If I have enough food, I could go 80 days. 884 00:46:38,496 --> 00:46:39,997 I could go 100 days. 885 00:46:40,064 --> 00:46:42,967 But the bigger challenge is to keep your food 886 00:46:43,034 --> 00:46:45,636 from the other critters. 887 00:46:45,703 --> 00:46:47,872 The winter is setting in, and everyone wants 888 00:46:47,872 --> 00:46:50,708 to survive just like us. 889 00:46:50,775 --> 00:46:52,443 Got the ladder. 890 00:46:52,510 --> 00:46:53,944 ♪ 891 00:46:54,045 --> 00:46:56,580 Losing my trout was a mistake. 892 00:46:56,681 --> 00:46:57,782 Okay. 893 00:46:57,882 --> 00:46:59,784 But I know that the path of learning 894 00:46:59,850 --> 00:47:03,821 is also a path full of mistakes and missteps. 895 00:47:03,821 --> 00:47:05,222 Bow, bow, go. 896 00:47:05,289 --> 00:47:08,793 And the desire to overcome the challenges, 897 00:47:08,859 --> 00:47:10,995 it's what keep me here. 898 00:47:14,865 --> 00:47:17,301 [grunts] 899 00:47:17,401 --> 00:47:19,303 Perfect. 900 00:47:19,403 --> 00:47:23,674 ♪ 901 00:47:23,741 --> 00:47:25,943 Good stash. 902 00:47:26,043 --> 00:47:27,812 Whoo! Done. 903 00:47:27,878 --> 00:47:29,447 That was a lot of work. 904 00:47:29,513 --> 00:47:36,554 ♪ 905 00:47:44,495 --> 00:47:46,430 - Now the real fun begins. 906 00:47:46,497 --> 00:47:47,798 ♪ 907 00:47:47,865 --> 00:47:52,403 So I have picked these four... 908 00:47:52,470 --> 00:47:56,107 as my trees. 909 00:47:56,107 --> 00:47:58,075 That's not too far away from home. 910 00:47:58,142 --> 00:47:59,643 It's facing the sun. 911 00:47:59,710 --> 00:48:02,113 So now I'm gonna think of a height 912 00:48:02,179 --> 00:48:05,116 where I don't have to bend down. 913 00:48:05,182 --> 00:48:07,585 Oh, hell yes. 914 00:48:07,585 --> 00:48:09,820 I've decided to build a woodshed. 915 00:48:09,887 --> 00:48:13,057 So this is one of the arms of my sweater. 916 00:48:13,157 --> 00:48:15,259 It's given me so much cordage. 917 00:48:15,259 --> 00:48:17,862 Well, on the mantra of "fire, shelter, water," 918 00:48:17,862 --> 00:48:20,464 the most important thing is having dry tinder. 919 00:48:20,531 --> 00:48:22,233 And for the most part, you're gonna want 920 00:48:22,299 --> 00:48:23,801 to make a fire first thing in the morning. 921 00:48:23,868 --> 00:48:25,102 And the other thing that happens 922 00:48:25,202 --> 00:48:27,204 first thing in the morning is morning dew. 923 00:48:27,271 --> 00:48:30,007 And so this is gonna help me move forward 924 00:48:30,074 --> 00:48:31,542 through the winter to have 925 00:48:31,642 --> 00:48:33,511 a successful breakfast and dinner. 926 00:48:33,511 --> 00:48:35,446 It can snow as much as it wants. 927 00:48:35,513 --> 00:48:38,549 My wood is gonna be up here. 928 00:48:38,616 --> 00:48:41,485 Next step, I need those back walls. 929 00:48:43,154 --> 00:48:44,588 All right. 930 00:48:45,790 --> 00:48:47,725 Oh, an old Band-Aid. 931 00:48:47,792 --> 00:48:49,193 That's pretty fun. 932 00:48:53,464 --> 00:48:58,502 I'm enjoying being out here by myself very much. 933 00:49:00,504 --> 00:49:02,807 I am carpe diem-ing. 934 00:49:02,873 --> 00:49:07,478 I am a huge, huge proponent of carpe diem. 935 00:49:07,545 --> 00:49:11,582 My mom, when she hit 50, 936 00:49:11,682 --> 00:49:16,020 decided that she was gonna go off and have an adventure. 937 00:49:16,020 --> 00:49:17,555 And I'm 55, 938 00:49:17,621 --> 00:49:19,990 so I guess this is what I'm doing, my thing. 939 00:49:20,057 --> 00:49:22,493 Anyway, she eventually ended up in Bali 940 00:49:22,593 --> 00:49:25,396 and settled there for, like, 15 years, 941 00:49:25,462 --> 00:49:27,998 very happily teaching English as a foreign language, 942 00:49:28,065 --> 00:49:29,867 had an amazing place. 943 00:49:29,934 --> 00:49:32,470 ♪ 944 00:49:32,536 --> 00:49:35,606 And that's when she got diagnosed with cancer 945 00:49:35,673 --> 00:49:37,541 for the first time. 946 00:49:37,641 --> 00:49:39,810 ♪ 947 00:49:39,877 --> 00:49:42,646 She came back to England, went into treatment, 948 00:49:42,713 --> 00:49:47,918 and went into remission for eight months, I think it was. 949 00:49:47,985 --> 00:49:52,256 And then it came back again into her soft tissues. 950 00:49:52,356 --> 00:49:55,793 And she basically said, nah, I'm done. 951 00:49:55,860 --> 00:49:56,961 I'm not gonna do any more. 952 00:49:57,027 --> 00:49:59,263 I'm not gonna fight it. 953 00:49:59,330 --> 00:50:03,067 So she kind of died gracefully. 954 00:50:03,133 --> 00:50:04,668 ♪ 955 00:50:04,668 --> 00:50:07,271 But I would visit her in the hospice, 956 00:50:07,271 --> 00:50:10,641 and we would talk a lot about facing fears. 957 00:50:10,708 --> 00:50:14,078 And she really taught me to understand 958 00:50:14,144 --> 00:50:17,514 what it was that I might be holding myself back from, 959 00:50:17,581 --> 00:50:19,049 even silly things. 960 00:50:19,116 --> 00:50:20,618 Like, I was scared of heights. 961 00:50:20,718 --> 00:50:23,220 And after she passed, I went and did a course 962 00:50:23,220 --> 00:50:25,656 at a stunt school and taught myself to jump 963 00:50:25,756 --> 00:50:27,625 out of a three-story window. 964 00:50:27,691 --> 00:50:29,059 Almost done. 965 00:50:29,126 --> 00:50:32,162 But also big challenges, big leaps of faith, 966 00:50:32,229 --> 00:50:35,165 such as this opportunity to come on the show. 967 00:50:35,232 --> 00:50:36,600 Watching my mom, 968 00:50:36,667 --> 00:50:39,003 understanding her as I became older myself 969 00:50:39,069 --> 00:50:43,407 gave me the impetus to not just sit back, 970 00:50:43,474 --> 00:50:49,580 but to grab life by the hair and just live it. 971 00:50:49,680 --> 00:50:53,717 It's one of the best things she could ever teach me. 972 00:50:53,784 --> 00:50:55,753 That makes me happy. 973 00:50:57,655 --> 00:51:00,190 All right, then, I'm going to drink some water 974 00:51:00,257 --> 00:51:03,827 and then let us see if I can catch me a fishy. 975 00:51:03,894 --> 00:51:07,298 I am definitely not the fish whisperer at the moment. 976 00:51:07,398 --> 00:51:09,433 I'm doing a bit of fishing every day, 977 00:51:09,500 --> 00:51:10,901 not catching anything. 978 00:51:11,001 --> 00:51:13,037 I've done a new lure. 979 00:51:13,103 --> 00:51:15,339 But just got to keep on plugging away. 980 00:51:15,439 --> 00:51:16,807 I'll get there in the end. 981 00:51:16,874 --> 00:51:18,876 ♪ 982 00:51:18,943 --> 00:51:20,477 Like a fish telegraph. 983 00:51:20,544 --> 00:51:21,679 Watch out. 984 00:51:21,745 --> 00:51:23,580 There's a hook. 985 00:51:23,681 --> 00:51:25,082 Stay away. 986 00:51:26,350 --> 00:51:29,219 Mommy is hungry. 987 00:51:29,286 --> 00:51:30,588 [gasps] 988 00:51:30,654 --> 00:51:31,822 ♪ 989 00:51:31,889 --> 00:51:34,592 Ahh! [bleep] 990 00:51:34,658 --> 00:51:37,194 He took my lure. 991 00:51:37,261 --> 00:51:39,163 These fish are feisty. 992 00:51:39,229 --> 00:51:40,798 Ahh! 993 00:51:40,864 --> 00:51:43,834 I've spent the last ten years fishing, 994 00:51:43,901 --> 00:51:45,970 both in New York and in Ontario. 995 00:51:46,036 --> 00:51:49,139 All right, let's get a slightly different shaped hook. 996 00:51:49,239 --> 00:51:50,641 You ready for it? 997 00:51:50,708 --> 00:51:52,242 ♪ Dun, dun, dun 998 00:51:52,309 --> 00:51:54,278 This is what I keep my hooks in, here. 999 00:51:54,345 --> 00:51:58,983 And I am in a lake that is famous for its fish. 1000 00:51:59,083 --> 00:52:02,219 So it is gonna drive me fricking crazy 1001 00:52:02,286 --> 00:52:04,188 if I can't catch them. 1002 00:52:06,423 --> 00:52:08,225 It's partly because of my ego, 1003 00:52:08,225 --> 00:52:10,194 because I know what I'm capable of, 1004 00:52:10,260 --> 00:52:13,964 but also because I really want to bring fish in 1005 00:52:14,031 --> 00:52:16,033 and add it to my diet. 1006 00:52:16,100 --> 00:52:18,068 I'm not gonna do my wool. 1007 00:52:18,068 --> 00:52:21,038 Those fats, those oils, and the variation 1008 00:52:21,105 --> 00:52:24,675 are something that I'm gonna want to have for my foodstuffs 1009 00:52:24,742 --> 00:52:26,710 for when it gets cold. 1010 00:52:26,777 --> 00:52:28,779 Ah. Got a Band-Aid wrapper. 1011 00:52:28,879 --> 00:52:31,315 Why don't I try that? 1012 00:52:31,382 --> 00:52:34,318 And I have my pink from my underwear. 1013 00:52:34,385 --> 00:52:37,955 They'll be like, what the heck is this? 1014 00:52:38,022 --> 00:52:39,656 [grunts] 1015 00:52:39,757 --> 00:52:41,625 Let's see how it goes. 1016 00:52:41,625 --> 00:52:43,494 ♪ 1017 00:52:43,594 --> 00:52:45,896 Bring it on, [bleep]. 1018 00:52:45,996 --> 00:52:51,869 ♪ 1019 00:52:51,935 --> 00:52:54,071 I heard my raven. 1020 00:52:54,071 --> 00:52:56,206 [bird call] 1021 00:52:56,273 --> 00:52:57,274 Wow. 1022 00:52:57,341 --> 00:52:59,943 For me, a raven is special. 1023 00:53:00,044 --> 00:53:01,311 ♪ 1024 00:53:01,311 --> 00:53:03,047 [raven calling] 1025 00:53:03,113 --> 00:53:05,749 [imitating call] 1026 00:53:05,816 --> 00:53:08,786 I am being watched over. 1027 00:53:08,852 --> 00:53:10,421 I love that. 1028 00:53:10,487 --> 00:53:11,989 Thank you. 1029 00:53:12,056 --> 00:53:17,161 ♪ 1030 00:53:17,227 --> 00:53:19,296 Oh, my God. 1031 00:53:19,396 --> 00:53:22,199 ♪ 1032 00:53:22,266 --> 00:53:24,201 Oh, my God. 1033 00:53:29,039 --> 00:53:31,341 [dramatic music] 1034 00:53:31,408 --> 00:53:34,044 Oh, my God. 1035 00:53:34,111 --> 00:53:36,180 ♪ 1036 00:53:36,280 --> 00:53:37,681 I have a fish. 1037 00:53:37,748 --> 00:53:39,983 [laughs] I have a pike. 1038 00:53:40,050 --> 00:53:42,519 Turns out pikes like Band-Aid wrappers. 1039 00:53:42,586 --> 00:53:46,690 So if ever you are caught short of a lure, 1040 00:53:46,790 --> 00:53:49,693 Band-Aid wrappers and a pink pair of underwear 1041 00:53:49,793 --> 00:53:50,994 is gonna do the trick. 1042 00:53:51,061 --> 00:53:52,996 That's all I can say. Signing out. 1043 00:53:53,063 --> 00:53:54,131 Gonna have dinner. 1044 00:53:54,231 --> 00:53:55,599 Mel. 1045 00:53:55,666 --> 00:54:01,872 ♪ 1046 00:54:02,873 --> 00:54:05,676 What a fantastic way to end a day. 1047 00:54:05,742 --> 00:54:06,944 I couldn't believe it. 1048 00:54:06,944 --> 00:54:08,746 It's like, yes! 1049 00:54:08,746 --> 00:54:12,783 But hey, if it works, I'm gonna carry it. 1050 00:54:12,850 --> 00:54:16,019 [laughs] 1051 00:54:16,086 --> 00:54:17,855 Oh, lordy. 1052 00:54:17,921 --> 00:54:21,191 My main skill is to adapt and survive. 1053 00:54:21,258 --> 00:54:22,960 Give me a problem, I'll find a solution 1054 00:54:23,026 --> 00:54:25,262 and I'll move forward and I'll be stronger for it. 1055 00:54:25,329 --> 00:54:27,998 But it's not just your skills and your talents. 1056 00:54:28,065 --> 00:54:29,233 It's your head game. 1057 00:54:29,299 --> 00:54:31,235 People don't tap out because of food. 1058 00:54:31,301 --> 00:54:33,837 They tap out because their head gets to them. 1059 00:54:33,904 --> 00:54:36,940 It's really nice, clean meat on a pike too. 1060 00:54:37,007 --> 00:54:38,675 Happy Mel. 1061 00:54:38,742 --> 00:54:40,444 And I will tell you this from experience 1062 00:54:40,511 --> 00:54:44,181 of working with children, that some children are happy. 1063 00:54:44,181 --> 00:54:45,315 Some are angry. 1064 00:54:45,382 --> 00:54:46,850 Some are withdrawn. 1065 00:54:46,950 --> 00:54:49,219 It's their own personal spirit. 1066 00:54:49,219 --> 00:54:52,189 And so I've never known a time when I was not smiling. 1067 00:54:52,256 --> 00:54:54,057 I've never known a time when I wasn't 1068 00:54:54,057 --> 00:54:55,559 trying to find the positive. 1069 00:54:55,626 --> 00:54:57,461 And that could be because I have 1070 00:54:57,528 --> 00:54:59,029 a large amount of serotonin. 1071 00:54:59,096 --> 00:55:01,632 But it also could be a coping mechanism 1072 00:55:01,698 --> 00:55:05,202 to find the positive out of every experience 1073 00:55:05,269 --> 00:55:06,703 that I went through. 1074 00:55:06,770 --> 00:55:09,806 And it stuck with me, because I know from experience 1075 00:55:09,873 --> 00:55:11,341 that life can get really bad. 1076 00:55:11,341 --> 00:55:13,343 So if you find the positives, then you have 1077 00:55:13,410 --> 00:55:14,912 something to look forward to 1078 00:55:14,978 --> 00:55:17,381 and you release those endorphins 1079 00:55:17,381 --> 00:55:20,651 and you feel good about the world again. 1080 00:55:20,751 --> 00:55:23,587 However, the spell is now broken. 1081 00:55:25,255 --> 00:55:28,058 I shall be a fish maniac. 1082 00:55:28,058 --> 00:55:30,994 Success is a wonderful feeling, 1083 00:55:31,061 --> 00:55:33,530 and it's gonna taste even better. 1084 00:55:33,630 --> 00:55:40,604 ♪ 1085 00:55:57,421 --> 00:55:59,456 - There was strong winds last night. 1086 00:55:59,456 --> 00:56:02,025 So I'm gonna go check on it again, 1087 00:56:02,092 --> 00:56:04,862 see my gillnet. 1088 00:56:04,928 --> 00:56:07,297 Hope for the best. 1089 00:56:07,364 --> 00:56:12,069 Hard to even see, which kind of worries me. 1090 00:56:14,972 --> 00:56:17,341 My net is not in the water. 1091 00:56:17,407 --> 00:56:19,109 [bleep] 1092 00:56:19,176 --> 00:56:22,312 I need some sunshine so I can see through. 1093 00:56:22,379 --> 00:56:23,580 ♪ 1094 00:56:23,580 --> 00:56:27,951 How does the GoPro see in the water? 1095 00:56:28,018 --> 00:56:31,655 ♪ 1096 00:56:31,655 --> 00:56:33,690 Let's see. 1097 00:56:33,790 --> 00:56:37,127 ♪ 1098 00:56:37,227 --> 00:56:39,096 I'm hopeful that I can find my gillnet 1099 00:56:39,096 --> 00:56:40,530 because there is weight to it. 1100 00:56:40,631 --> 00:56:43,533 So it might be right around there on the bottom. 1101 00:56:43,533 --> 00:56:50,507 ♪ 1102 00:56:58,649 --> 00:57:05,589 ♪ 1103 00:57:05,656 --> 00:57:08,392 That gillnet was one of my main strategy. 1104 00:57:08,458 --> 00:57:12,496 So if I don't find it, the cost is really huge, 1105 00:57:12,562 --> 00:57:16,767 because I need fish to fuel me to get big game. 1106 00:57:16,867 --> 00:57:19,836 And if I want to fish, it will have to be active fishing. 1107 00:57:19,903 --> 00:57:22,839 And that is gonna make me work twice as hard, 1108 00:57:22,906 --> 00:57:26,743 and I'll lose energy to continue hunting. 1109 00:57:26,743 --> 00:57:31,014 ♪ 1110 00:57:31,114 --> 00:57:32,983 [bleep] 1111 00:57:32,983 --> 00:57:35,585 It probably got washed out. 1112 00:57:35,652 --> 00:57:38,021 I didn't know how wild the water was going to be, 1113 00:57:38,088 --> 00:57:41,591 because then I would have tied my gillnet 1114 00:57:41,658 --> 00:57:44,428 to something onshore. 1115 00:57:44,494 --> 00:57:47,497 Today is a challenging day-- 1116 00:57:47,497 --> 00:57:49,533 not finding my gillnet. I'm very cold. 1117 00:57:49,633 --> 00:57:51,335 My fingers are hurting. 1118 00:57:52,903 --> 00:57:55,505 So let's go back to the shelter 1119 00:57:55,505 --> 00:57:57,708 and check my food stash 1120 00:57:57,774 --> 00:58:02,245 because the winter is coming in hard and fast. 1121 00:58:02,312 --> 00:58:06,750 ♪ 1122 00:58:08,785 --> 00:58:10,754 ♪ 1123 00:58:10,821 --> 00:58:13,857 I just lost that 1124 00:58:13,857 --> 00:58:18,128 main food recruitment tool, 1125 00:58:18,228 --> 00:58:21,665 and that is a big blow 1126 00:58:21,732 --> 00:58:25,302 because that was all the monofilament line 1127 00:58:25,369 --> 00:58:26,937 that I brought with me. 1128 00:58:27,037 --> 00:58:31,141 I have some still to fish, not to build another gillnet. 1129 00:58:34,911 --> 00:58:38,548 Small mistakes can become big failures, 1130 00:58:38,615 --> 00:58:41,718 and I probably have to start rationing. 1131 00:58:41,785 --> 00:58:46,223 So cache, thanks so much for keeping everything safe, okay? 1132 00:58:46,289 --> 00:58:49,593 But the fear is that I might need to brace myself 1133 00:58:49,659 --> 00:58:51,495 and starve for a while. 1134 00:58:51,561 --> 00:58:52,729 ♪ 1135 00:58:52,829 --> 00:58:56,066 Just trying to survive. 1136 00:59:00,404 --> 00:59:03,340 [dramatic music] 1137 00:59:03,407 --> 00:59:07,210 ♪ 1138 00:59:07,310 --> 00:59:08,779 - Oh. 1139 00:59:08,845 --> 00:59:15,819 ♪ 1140 00:59:16,820 --> 00:59:20,824 If I had one wish right now, it would be for protein. 1141 00:59:26,696 --> 00:59:29,933 I just wanted to show you my spruce bark. 1142 00:59:29,933 --> 00:59:32,269 It's kind of like celery after you cook it. 1143 00:59:38,642 --> 00:59:40,944 It has a sweet flavor to it too. 1144 00:59:45,849 --> 00:59:48,218 Plus, I put some cranberries in there. 1145 00:59:48,285 --> 00:59:50,654 They've all sunk to the bottom. 1146 00:59:53,757 --> 00:59:56,092 I'm moving slow today. 1147 00:59:56,092 --> 00:59:58,328 ♪ 1148 00:59:58,328 --> 01:00:01,898 Last night, I had a dream that 1149 01:00:01,965 --> 01:00:04,935 my mom was calling out for me. 1150 01:00:05,001 --> 01:00:07,771 It was like she was standing outside of my cabin, 1151 01:00:07,871 --> 01:00:09,439 calling my name. 1152 01:00:09,506 --> 01:00:12,175 "Jodi, I need you. I need your help. 1153 01:00:12,242 --> 01:00:15,378 Jodi, help me." 1154 01:00:15,378 --> 01:00:17,013 She said it over and over. 1155 01:00:17,114 --> 01:00:21,218 And when I woke up, I couldn't shake it. 1156 01:00:22,385 --> 01:00:26,089 I think I'll go ahead and do some chinking. 1157 01:00:26,156 --> 01:00:31,728 ♪ 1158 01:00:31,795 --> 01:00:34,297 God sure has blessed me in my life-- 1159 01:00:34,364 --> 01:00:38,335 five beautiful, healthy, smart, intelligent kids. 1160 01:00:38,401 --> 01:00:41,505 When I started this, I was hopeful that the money 1161 01:00:41,571 --> 01:00:43,540 could take care of my children. 1162 01:00:43,540 --> 01:00:45,976 I wanted to give them a good life. 1163 01:00:46,042 --> 01:00:48,211 But the most important thing that I want is, 1164 01:00:48,311 --> 01:00:50,780 I want my kids to be proud of me 1165 01:00:50,780 --> 01:00:53,416 because everybody needs a hero. 1166 01:00:53,483 --> 01:00:57,053 But after my accident, I became pretty self-centered, 1167 01:00:57,053 --> 01:01:00,490 and I stopped doing everything. 1168 01:01:00,490 --> 01:01:01,825 ♪ 1169 01:01:01,892 --> 01:01:05,328 All right, how are you doing there? 1170 01:01:05,395 --> 01:01:08,164 So I built myself my own little prison, 1171 01:01:08,265 --> 01:01:10,834 and it was built out of fear. 1172 01:01:10,901 --> 01:01:13,136 And out here, I built this cabin. 1173 01:01:13,203 --> 01:01:15,105 And I did it in the middle of nowhere 1174 01:01:15,172 --> 01:01:18,675 with my own two hands. 1175 01:01:18,742 --> 01:01:21,144 But what I've realized 1176 01:01:21,211 --> 01:01:25,182 is that this is also a prison, 1177 01:01:25,248 --> 01:01:28,418 and now that it's completed, 1178 01:01:28,485 --> 01:01:32,088 this pull to go home is just-- 1179 01:01:32,155 --> 01:01:34,124 ♪ 1180 01:01:34,224 --> 01:01:37,594 Just so burning inside of me. 1181 01:01:37,661 --> 01:01:41,665 And it almost makes it hard to breathe. 1182 01:01:41,731 --> 01:01:43,233 ♪ 1183 01:01:43,300 --> 01:01:46,770 It was a huge responsibility that I left at home. 1184 01:01:46,870 --> 01:01:50,073 And I thought I would be okay with that, 1185 01:01:50,140 --> 01:01:53,376 But it's been a constant internal battle. 1186 01:01:53,443 --> 01:01:58,548 I can only equate it to gravity holding us to this Earth. 1187 01:01:58,615 --> 01:02:03,286 The force is so strong that I just feel like... 1188 01:02:03,386 --> 01:02:06,690 family--that's the most important thing. 1189 01:02:10,527 --> 01:02:13,496 [beeping] 1190 01:02:16,166 --> 01:02:18,335 Hello. This is Jodi Rose. 1191 01:02:18,335 --> 01:02:21,137 I'm officially tapping out. 1192 01:02:21,137 --> 01:02:27,944 ♪ 1193 01:02:37,320 --> 01:02:38,688 I'm being pulled home. 1194 01:02:38,755 --> 01:02:40,290 I'm being called home. 1195 01:02:40,357 --> 01:02:42,859 And that force is so strong that I just-- 1196 01:02:42,926 --> 01:02:45,729 I have to answer, and I have to go home. 1197 01:02:45,795 --> 01:02:49,032 I've--I've come into my own up here. 1198 01:02:50,533 --> 01:02:53,536 I found myself again. 1199 01:02:53,536 --> 01:02:57,540 And I would stay, if for no other reason 1200 01:02:57,607 --> 01:03:01,344 that my mom needs me and my family needs me. 1201 01:03:05,015 --> 01:03:06,816 ♪ 1202 01:03:06,816 --> 01:03:09,686 It is sad to not be able to bring home the prize money, 1203 01:03:09,786 --> 01:03:13,056 but the trophy isn't the $500,000. 1204 01:03:13,123 --> 01:03:15,892 The trophy is myself. 1205 01:03:15,959 --> 01:03:17,694 I have a lot to be proud of. 1206 01:03:17,694 --> 01:03:20,130 I defied the odds with my leg, 1207 01:03:20,196 --> 01:03:24,768 and I was able to create this amazing cabin. 1208 01:03:24,868 --> 01:03:26,970 I've had a life-changing experience 1209 01:03:27,070 --> 01:03:29,172 in a very short amount of time. 1210 01:03:29,272 --> 01:03:30,840 I'm a new person now. 1211 01:03:30,907 --> 01:03:32,976 I've come to understand that 1212 01:03:32,976 --> 01:03:35,178 this is just part of the journey. 1213 01:03:35,178 --> 01:03:36,780 This isn't the end. 1214 01:03:36,780 --> 01:03:37,981 I'm not quitting. 1215 01:03:38,048 --> 01:03:40,016 My finish line isn't here. 1216 01:03:40,083 --> 01:03:42,652 My finish line is at home with my family 1217 01:03:42,652 --> 01:03:46,623 and going back to being a mom as strong as I used to be. 1218 01:03:46,690 --> 01:03:48,224 ♪ 1219 01:03:51,227 --> 01:03:54,164 [dramatic music] 1220 01:03:54,230 --> 01:04:01,204 ♪ ♪ 1221 01:04:02,706 --> 01:04:08,111 - This bear has just presented itself to me. 1222 01:04:08,178 --> 01:04:11,981 But then when I realized that second bear was a cub 1223 01:04:12,048 --> 01:04:15,485 it just really hit me hard, 1224 01:04:15,552 --> 01:04:20,490 recognized the responsibility that that mother had 1225 01:04:20,557 --> 01:04:23,660 to get that cub through the winter. 1226 01:04:23,727 --> 01:04:27,731 And there's this little part inside of you that's like, 1227 01:04:27,797 --> 01:04:30,333 whatever, delete that clip or something, you know, 1228 01:04:30,400 --> 01:04:34,704 but I don't have it in me. 1229 01:04:34,771 --> 01:04:37,207 I'm gonna go call it in 1230 01:04:37,273 --> 01:04:40,443 and start my journey home. 1231 01:04:40,510 --> 01:04:44,380 ♪ ♪ 1232 01:04:44,447 --> 01:04:47,083 Everybody has their boundary of, like, 1233 01:04:47,150 --> 01:04:50,086 their limit of suffering that they're willing to go through. 1234 01:04:50,153 --> 01:04:53,022 I've had diarrhea for five days. 1235 01:04:53,089 --> 01:04:54,457 I've just been dealing with it. 1236 01:04:54,524 --> 01:04:57,427 And without a moose or a bear 1237 01:04:57,494 --> 01:05:00,363 for my time, it's not gonna pay off out here. 1238 01:05:00,430 --> 01:05:04,300 And if I'm not here to 1239 01:05:04,367 --> 01:05:06,669 really go for the win here, 1240 01:05:06,736 --> 01:05:08,738 I'm not willing to gamble 1241 01:05:08,805 --> 01:05:11,775 my family's time away from me. 1242 01:05:11,841 --> 01:05:15,378 The longer I spend away from them 1243 01:05:15,445 --> 01:05:17,447 the more selfish that becomes. 1244 01:05:17,514 --> 01:05:24,554 ♪ ♪ 1245 01:05:29,592 --> 01:05:32,695 I feel like I've thrived in so many ways. 1246 01:05:32,762 --> 01:05:33,797 ♪ ♪ 1247 01:05:33,863 --> 01:05:36,432 I've fed myself really well... 1248 01:05:36,499 --> 01:05:37,901 ♪ ♪ 1249 01:05:37,967 --> 01:05:41,738 Had great wildlife encounters. 1250 01:05:41,805 --> 01:05:44,908 Like, I learned so much and-- 1251 01:05:44,974 --> 01:05:49,145 to just do something I'd never done before. 1252 01:05:49,212 --> 01:05:53,283 It was super-empowering for me. 1253 01:05:53,349 --> 01:05:56,786 I am really, really excited 1254 01:05:56,853 --> 01:06:01,458 to share my stories with my son when I get home. 1255 01:06:01,524 --> 01:06:06,663 ♪ ♪ 1256 01:06:08,231 --> 01:06:09,399 - Hello, my friend. 1257 01:06:09,466 --> 01:06:11,334 - Aloha. - Aloha. 1258 01:06:12,468 --> 01:06:19,008 ♪ ♪ 1259 01:06:19,075 --> 01:06:21,211 - Any lightheadedness, 1260 01:06:21,277 --> 01:06:23,713 any of your cognition has decreased? 1261 01:06:23,780 --> 01:06:24,781 - No. 1262 01:06:24,848 --> 01:06:26,382 Well, yes. 1263 01:06:26,449 --> 01:06:28,451 Yeah, I didn't sleep at all last night. 1264 01:06:28,518 --> 01:06:32,722 So, like, I was tripping today all over the place. 1265 01:06:32,789 --> 01:06:35,058 When we were walking around with the crew and everything, 1266 01:06:35,124 --> 01:06:38,962 I just didn't feel like I was on my feet. 1267 01:06:39,028 --> 01:06:40,530 - Difficulty breathing? Any shortness of breath? 1268 01:06:40,597 --> 01:06:44,500 - No, but I did have some chest pain in, like, 1269 01:06:44,567 --> 01:06:46,002 the top right side here. 1270 01:06:46,069 --> 01:06:47,770 I don't know. - Totally. 1271 01:06:47,837 --> 01:06:49,939 - Right there. - Any pain on palpation, 1272 01:06:50,006 --> 01:06:51,207 Like, if I'm actually pushing on it? 1273 01:06:51,274 --> 01:06:53,476 Does that feel any different? - No. Uh-uh. 1274 01:06:53,543 --> 01:06:55,078 - Then right on the back side right around here? 1275 01:06:55,144 --> 01:06:57,413 - Yeah, a little higher, yeah. 1276 01:06:57,480 --> 01:07:01,251 - So basically kind of more right at the bottom of the neck 1277 01:07:01,317 --> 01:07:03,920 up here and this one sitting right-- 1278 01:07:03,987 --> 01:07:06,489 - In that spot. 1279 01:07:06,556 --> 01:07:08,458 - Basically it is a sign of being elevated. 1280 01:07:08,524 --> 01:07:09,792 Considering what you've just gone through 1281 01:07:09,859 --> 01:07:11,394 with your movements and the stress level, 1282 01:07:11,461 --> 01:07:13,229 I'm worried that that might be a small little sign 1283 01:07:13,296 --> 01:07:14,964 of dehydration as well. 1284 01:07:15,031 --> 01:07:16,566 I want to make sure-- - I've been drinking 1285 01:07:16,633 --> 01:07:18,568 so much water. 1286 01:07:18,635 --> 01:07:20,703 - More so worried about electrolyte levels too, 1287 01:07:20,770 --> 01:07:23,439 so as you're hydrating, this is an isotonic... 1288 01:07:23,506 --> 01:07:24,574 - Okay. - Solution, 1289 01:07:24,641 --> 01:07:26,276 so you can start sipping at it right now 1290 01:07:26,342 --> 01:07:27,477 to see if that helps 1291 01:07:27,544 --> 01:07:30,013 after a day of just kind of re-adapting. 1292 01:07:30,079 --> 01:07:31,881 100%. I think probiotics would be 1293 01:07:31,948 --> 01:07:34,050 a very beneficial thing to put into your system. 1294 01:07:34,117 --> 01:07:35,418 ♪ ♪ 1295 01:07:35,485 --> 01:07:38,054 - I wish I could have finished bear den 1296 01:07:38,121 --> 01:07:43,326 and then had some more time in there, but... 1297 01:07:43,393 --> 01:07:46,930 The wilderness is 1298 01:07:46,996 --> 01:07:50,033 such an amazing playground 1299 01:07:50,099 --> 01:07:52,669 and teacher. 1300 01:07:52,735 --> 01:07:55,672 Super-grateful for all the experience that I've had. 1301 01:07:55,738 --> 01:08:01,244 And life is so much more meaningful 1302 01:08:01,311 --> 01:08:04,614 seeing things through that lens. 1303 01:08:04,681 --> 01:08:09,385 ♪ ♪ 1304 01:08:12,288 --> 01:08:15,391 [dramatic music] 1305 01:08:16,926 --> 01:08:23,933 ♪ ♪ 1306 01:08:25,702 --> 01:08:27,704 - It's the morning that I'm going home. 1307 01:08:27,770 --> 01:08:29,906 It's time to do that. 1308 01:08:29,973 --> 01:08:32,108 Come here to do what I meant to do, 1309 01:08:32,175 --> 01:08:35,278 and now I'm needed at home, so I'm coming home. 1310 01:08:35,345 --> 01:08:37,080 ♪ ♪ 1311 01:08:37,146 --> 01:08:39,449 Hello. This is Jodi Rose. 1312 01:08:39,515 --> 01:08:42,852 I'm officially tapping out. 1313 01:08:42,919 --> 01:08:49,926 ♪ ♪ 1314 01:08:55,598 --> 01:08:58,101 I have never been so torn in my life before 1315 01:08:58,167 --> 01:09:00,703 between the land here that I love 1316 01:09:00,770 --> 01:09:04,140 and--and heeding the call to go home. 1317 01:09:04,207 --> 01:09:06,042 I could stay up here forever, 1318 01:09:06,109 --> 01:09:10,179 but this--this force that's calling me home is so strong, 1319 01:09:10,246 --> 01:09:11,748 and... 1320 01:09:11,814 --> 01:09:13,816 the end of my story is at home. 1321 01:09:13,883 --> 01:09:15,652 It's not here. 1322 01:09:15,718 --> 01:09:19,255 I--I feel a little guilty that I'm letting some people down, 1323 01:09:19,322 --> 01:09:22,825 but the only people that matter in my life are my family. 1324 01:09:22,892 --> 01:09:24,727 ♪ ♪ 1325 01:09:24,794 --> 01:09:26,996 No, I didn't eat anything all day, 1326 01:09:27,063 --> 01:09:29,899 so I'm getting a little hungry. [chuckles] 1327 01:09:29,966 --> 01:09:36,906 ♪ ♪ 1328 01:09:38,608 --> 01:09:40,276 Oh, that is a blessing. [chuckles] 1329 01:09:40,343 --> 01:09:43,479 This land is so magical, 1330 01:09:43,546 --> 01:09:45,748 and I'm a part of this land now. 1331 01:09:45,815 --> 01:09:50,253 And I'm leaving a piece of my heart here Lost Cabin, 1332 01:09:50,319 --> 01:09:52,588 and it will stay here for the rest of my life. 1333 01:09:52,655 --> 01:09:55,725 ♪ ♪ 1334 01:09:55,792 --> 01:09:58,728 [somber music] 1335 01:09:58,795 --> 01:10:05,768 ♪ ♪ 1336 01:10:07,303 --> 01:10:08,971 - Up and at 'em. 1337 01:10:09,038 --> 01:10:12,008 ♪ ♪ 1338 01:10:12,075 --> 01:10:14,444 - We're gonna go back to the clinic for a few minutes. 1339 01:10:14,510 --> 01:10:17,380 - I'm so tired that I feel like I could just, like, fall over. 1340 01:10:17,447 --> 01:10:20,083 I think it's just from the emotions of the day. 1341 01:10:20,149 --> 01:10:21,484 - I can imagine. 1342 01:10:21,551 --> 01:10:23,986 ♪ ♪ 1343 01:10:24,053 --> 01:10:25,888 And you can take a seat there. 1344 01:10:25,955 --> 01:10:28,291 How you feeling? Any difficulties breathing? 1345 01:10:28,357 --> 01:10:29,659 Shortness of breath? 1346 01:10:29,726 --> 01:10:31,794 Chest pains? Heart fluttering? 1347 01:10:31,861 --> 01:10:33,629 Nothing like that? 1348 01:10:33,696 --> 01:10:35,598 - Well, my toes are frozen. Does that count? 1349 01:10:35,665 --> 01:10:37,533 - When was the last bowel movement you had? 1350 01:10:37,600 --> 01:10:39,302 - Before I left. 1351 01:10:39,368 --> 01:10:41,904 - Before you left, as in before the competition started? 1352 01:10:41,971 --> 01:10:43,239 Copy. 1353 01:10:43,306 --> 01:10:45,041 - But I do feel like I'm gonna pass out, though. 1354 01:10:45,108 --> 01:10:47,176 I'm so tired. [chuckles] 1355 01:10:47,243 --> 01:10:48,978 - Not gonna pass out for a different reason? 1356 01:10:49,045 --> 01:10:50,480 - No, just from-- - Like mental exhaustion? 1357 01:10:50,546 --> 01:10:52,715 - Just, I'm gonna fall asleep in this ti--in this chair... 1358 01:10:52,782 --> 01:10:54,817 [chuckles] While you're talking to me. 1359 01:10:54,884 --> 01:10:56,252 - Okay. I'll try to be quick. 1360 01:10:56,319 --> 01:11:02,325 ♪ ♪ 1361 01:11:02,391 --> 01:11:03,626 Did you enjoy your time out there? 1362 01:11:03,693 --> 01:11:05,762 - I did. I did. 1363 01:11:05,828 --> 01:11:08,064 Up until about five days ago-- four days ago, 1364 01:11:08,131 --> 01:11:10,733 and then it just-- 1365 01:11:10,800 --> 01:11:12,668 - Got hard? Got-- 1366 01:11:12,735 --> 01:11:14,937 - It's just--something made me feel like I needed to go home 1367 01:11:15,004 --> 01:11:16,439 to my family. 1368 01:11:16,506 --> 01:11:20,076 - So other than that, you look pretty good to me. 1369 01:11:20,143 --> 01:11:21,110 - Thank you. - Considering what you 1370 01:11:21,177 --> 01:11:22,512 went through up there. 1371 01:11:22,578 --> 01:11:25,515 Obviously, it does take a very big toll on the body. 1372 01:11:25,581 --> 01:11:27,750 Your fatigue is not surprising. 1373 01:11:27,817 --> 01:11:30,720 Let's get you some food. Let's get you some rest. 1374 01:11:30,786 --> 01:11:32,021 Then we'll just take it from there 1375 01:11:32,088 --> 01:11:33,523 and start the rehabilitation process. 1376 01:11:33,589 --> 01:11:35,091 - Okay. - Any questions for me 1377 01:11:35,158 --> 01:11:36,993 that I can answer for you at this time? 1378 01:11:37,059 --> 01:11:38,694 - No. - Awesome. 1379 01:11:38,761 --> 01:11:41,564 - Honestly, the hardest part is 1380 01:11:41,631 --> 01:11:44,200 being separated from my family. 1381 01:11:44,267 --> 01:11:46,102 I could still be out there 1382 01:11:48,838 --> 01:11:51,174 Family, I miss you guys. I love you guys, 1383 01:11:51,240 --> 01:11:53,276 and I'm needed there. 1384 01:11:53,342 --> 01:11:54,977 I'll see you soon. 1385 01:11:55,044 --> 01:12:01,083 ♪ ♪