[dramatic music]
♪ ♪
- I'm gonna do this, man.
I'm gonna do this.
I'm gonna fight this thing out till the last breath.
♪ ♪
- OK, game on.
[bear growls]
- [grunts] - I got him.
- In "Alone's" most remote location yet...
- [screams]
- Ten participants set out to survive at all costs.
- My goal is to stay alive.
♪ ♪
- [groans]
- Battling extreme isolation.
- There is no camera crews.
You are really alone.
- It'll eat at you, tear you up.
- God, why? - It's a battle.
Nobody ever comes out the same.
- Oh, man. - It'd be impossible to.
- And fierce predators.
- It's a big bear.
It was right outside my shelter.
- Predators like that damn sure gonna kill you.
- Please don't rip my face off. [marten screeching]
Ow. He bit the hell out of me.
- They'll endure merciless wind...
- Been over 60 hours, and it has not let up.
- I can hear the trees falling down around me.
- And bitter cold.
- This whole place has turned into a frozen hill.
- Last one standing... - It's a moose. Wow.
- Whoo! - No, no.
- Wins.
♪ ♪
- I'm out looking for anything this morning.
See how fresh that bear [bleep] is?
I just got to find him.
I don't have to accept failure.
I just have to continue to get food.
- [sighs]
I don't think I can shoot this bear.
It's obviously a sow with cubs.
What a beautiful sign.
Time to go home to my mama bear and my cub.
♪ ♪
- I hit it.
Hell yeah.
I got a bird, but I'm down an arrow.
- Now that I have my shelter completed,
this pull to go home is just burning inside of me.
This is Jodi Rose. I'm officially tapping out.
- Stay right there, my friend. [marten snarls]
You're free, you're free!
I'm gonna take down all my snares.
I haven't seen any rabbits,
and I did not like that poor thing suffering in that snare.
- Can you see it? Oh, ho.
[imitates growling]
I got two nice fish.
Yes!
I put them in safe reservoir for the night.
How the [bleep]?
Oh, no, they're gone.
Obviously, it [bleep] wasn't.
♪ ♪
- Done the gillnet.
She's done.
Launch the gillnet into the lake.
♪ ♪
The fishing doesn't get any better
as it goes into winter.
So it was good to have another means of potentially
getting food besides hand casting.
So I'm really putting a lot of hope into my gillnet.
♪ ♪
[sighs] Man.
After all that, I forgot to press record.
I just launched my gillnet.
It went really smoothly.
Yeah, so there's the gillnet, guys.
I'm just looking for some half blind, dumb old fish
to swim into it.
♪ ♪
Good day for building the door to the shelter.
I don't want to get hit with three or four days
of crappy weather and be stuck in there
without the door.
♪ ♪
I wasn't too interested in school.
It's so ironic because I'm a teacher now, right?
But no, school wasn't my thing.
I hated doing homework.
I want to keep these ones more spaced out
because my door tapers wide at the bottom.
What do I want to do in life? I want to have fun, right?
I don't want to go home and do homework.
I want to go ride my bike. I want to go fishing.
There's some good moss up here.
The teachers I respected the most
and worked the hardest for were the ones that
I had a good relationship with,
that had time for me, was interested in me
as a human.
This is gonna be one well insulated door,
that's for sure.
My favorite part about teaching is
the relationships and connections
you form with the kids.
I like to show them my human side a lot.
I admit when I make mistakes.
I'm constantly joking around and just trying to have
as much fun as possible.
That will hold that moss there, like, rock solid.
And trying to think of ways to make learning fun.
♪ ♪
And that's my door, my insulated moss door.
That's sweet.
I'm ready for winter.
♪ ♪
- Being hungry makes you do some questionable stuff.
Howdy, mister.
Um, you the guy giving out berries?
I be that man.
♪ ♪
You be the man looking for the bears?
How did you know I was looking for a bear?
He come through here?
Where'd he go?
I couldn't tell you that kind of information.
That bear, he told me you're a crafty feller.
Ain't to be trusted.
Not me. I'm a pretty trustworthy guy.
Mm.
You seem down on your luck.
♪ ♪
Can of berries for your trouble.
Thank you so much. Thank you.
Now, get.
Yes, sir.
I'll be on my way.
♪ ♪
Hi there.
Are you the guy giving out berries?
You look at an awful lot like the first fella who just come
running through these parts.
Not me.
I've never been here a day in my life.
You sure you ain't the same fella?
I'm positive.
Take your berries and get.
Thank you so much.
♪ ♪
Can of berries. Two cans.
What a dummy.
Cowboys are so dumb.
Today is the day.
Today's bear day.
♪ ♪
Hopefully, that bear's out in that meadow,
picking off the very last of the berries.
I got a good idea where I want to sit.
All I can do is hope he'll do what I think he's gonna do
and be there waiting on him.
♪ ♪
OK.
There's a little bit of berries still left in this patch
out here.
I got berries left.
So there's a main trail that the caribou and the bears
are using that comes right down here.
♪ ♪
I'll try and just set up on this trail.
We'll make a little blind out of this cubby of trees here.
♪ ♪
I didn't gain any weight for this competition.
I know that will be a hindrance to me.
But I don't think that it would be right.
I believe that the idea of being out here
is to see how long I can survive
on this little "Gilligan's Island" territory.
I'll use this tree as a little chair.
Just don't want all that bark down my neck
every time I move my head.
♪ ♪
Think that's pretty good.
♪ ♪
Long days in this blind. I'm going crazy.
♪ ♪
It takes a lot of mental strength
to force yourself to sit here.
♪ ♪
Thinking about my little boy a lot while I'm out here.
I try not to, but I think a lot about the baby
we just lost as well.
When it's on my mind, I try to escape it,
but it's not really something that you can get away from.
Now I just need a bear.
I just need a bear.
♪ ♪
[sighs]
I had enough.
Couldn't sit no more.
I've come to the...
I've come to the realization that...
that was my last walk that far till I can get some...
some serious food of some kind.
I think I see a squirrel.
I do see a squirrel way up in that tree.
[squirrel chittering]
♪ ♪
I'm very hungry.
I need this.
♪ ♪
[dramatic music]
♪ ♪
- Got him.
I got him good.
He's bleeding good.
Where is it?
I can't even find it now.
[bleep].
I think he's dead in the tree now.
[sighs]
I'm so hungry.
So I'm gonna try and climb this tree real quick
and get to him.
He's right-- he's right up there.
He quit moving, and I can see blood dripping down.
I think he's dead.
I got him good with the-- oh, maybe not.
It was a good shot.
I can't believe he went up there
and wrapped onto that tree and died.
Couple blueberries here.
That's how hungry I am.
I'm like, "Oh, man, blueberries,"
while I'm trying to get the squirrel.
I'm, like, 99% positive he's dead.
I can't just let him waste up there,
not when I'm starving to death.
Not period, but especially when I'm starving to death.
That squirrel makes this walk to do worthwhile.
♪ ♪
- I watched my first deer die
when I was about five years old.
My father and I, we'd gone hunting together.
And he--he eased the rifle up into his shoulder,
and it went off,
and she collapsed,
and he smiled at me, and we walked down to her.
and I look at her eyes,
just lifeless open eyes,
and I leaned down, and I touched her coat,
and her body was warm,
and I got all teary eyed.
♪ ♪
And I remember, he looked at me,
and he said, "You can't undo this.
This is how we survive."
♪ ♪
[squirrel chittering]
[groans] Oh, ow.
Ow, he's biting me.
[bleep]. [bleep].
Ow, [bleep].
♪ ♪
[panting]
I got that squirrel.
I bet that squirrel wasn't even worth the calories
to climb that tree, but I'm not gonna wound a critter
that's gonna die and leave it.
I hit him a little low.
Man, he bit the hell out of me.
I'll wash that out good when I get back.
I gotta take these--
take this shirt off and stuff and get the--
get the sticks off of me. I almost passed out.
♪ ♪
But I got a squirrel for my effort.
♪ ♪
[sighs]
That'll do.
♪ ♪
- Last night, my door was, like, rock solid.
It's a beautiful bluebird day out there, but she's chilly.
I'm gonna check the gillnet right now.
Exciting stuff, man.
Keep her going. Keep pushing.
♪ ♪
I'm really putting a lot of hope into my gillnet.
This could be my key to staying
in the game the longest.
♪ ♪
Come on, fish in the gillnet.
♪ ♪
It doesn't look like there's anything in there
that I can see. Nope.
Damn, I was really hoping I had fish in here
this morning.
I need to eat,
or my time here is going to be brief.
That sucks.
♪ ♪
I've noticed the fall brushing my cheeks some nights,
that cold air coming in.
Some of the things I was eating are dying off,
like the Labrador tea.
It's harder to find green leaves to make
your tea in the morning.
The mushrooms are kind of getting rotten.
Being alone isn't what I'm worried about.
Man, I like to eat.
♪ ♪
Gut's definitely getting smaller.
I used to be able to just grab it with two hands.
My most valuable asset is time fishing.
This seems to be the only way
I'm getting food is hand lining,
so I've got to do it, right?
I got one more day with food.
Not a lot, but enough. Then I'm SOL.
I got today and tomorrow to catch a fish,
if I don't want to ever be without food for a day.
♪ ♪
Holy [bleep].
There's a huge fish right there.
Take it, take it. What is it?
Oh, it's that big pike.
Oh, my God, he was huge.
He was right there.
He was, like, this big.
Oh, shoot.
Oh, there he is. Shoot.
And there's some--darn it.
But that's a good sign he came back for it.
♪ ♪
Man, that was the biggest fish I've seen here,
that's for sure.
Son of a gun.
It's so frustrating, man.
Like, I can't even describe to you
how frustrating it is to be so close,
but not have anything on the shore.
Don't get mad, Al. Don't get mad.
Pay attention. Right hand goes out.
Something gonna strike.
Just goes out.
Oh!
Two bites, two little nibbles there.
Come on.
Why are they-- is it a little fish?
There he is. Take it.
Got him!
Got him. You stay on.
You stay on, mister.
Yes! [laughs]
Just a little guy,
but hey, I'm happy.
Yes.
Yes!
Oh, I set the hook perfect. It was awesome.
So pumped, so pumped.
Let's get this guy in the shade.
♪ ♪
So I'm gonna keep fishing here.
Take advantage of this, man.
It'd be nice to pile up a couple of fish
in the old fish bag, you know?
♪ ♪
What made me specifically want to teach
outdoor ed and survival
and experience all these things
that I've enjoyed in my whole life
was because I'm so passionate about it.
Being an outdoor ed teacher,
I'm known as a guy who loves hunting and fishing
and being outside,
and I'm teaching these kids all these outdoor skills.
♪ ♪
And I want that passion transferred into the kids.
Got one.
♪ ♪
Come on in.
Come on right up here, my friend.
[laughs] Lake trout.
Okay.
♪ ♪
Let's go!
♪ ♪
[sighs] Two fish day,
and the day's not even over.
Oh, my God.
♪ ♪
That's better.
♪ ♪
Got another one. Holy crap, he's a big one.
♪ ♪
OK, he's under the shelf. He's under the shelf.
Holy [bleep], this is a big one.
Come up here, you.
Oh.
Holy [bleep].
I can't believe this.
♪ ♪
[sighs] Oh, my God,
I need to take a minute here. Are you serious?
Three fish.
What is going on with--
what's going on with the fishing today?
It's so good!
There's something happening here today.
I don't know what it is, but I like it.
I'm gonna keep fishing till it's dark.
♪ ♪
Let's keep it going.
♪ ♪
My goal going in to this experience
was to not be embarrassed by my performance,
and be an inspiration to the outdoor ed kids.
I feel like I'm finally doing that.
Be nice to get one more tonight.
Got one. It's a good one.
OK, come on up. Come on. Come on up.
Get up here.
♪ ♪
Yes.
Oh, my God.
I don't even know what to say.
[sighs] It's unbelievable.
Thank you, Mother Nature.
Thank you for what you've provided me today.
[laughs] I can't believe it.
Thank you. Thank you.
Oh, my gosh.
I can't believe it, man.
So good.
I'll never forget this day.
♪ ♪
- There's a grouse. Missed it.
Chasing this bird all the way across hell
and half of Georgia.
[bleep].
I got no grouse this morning.
Having a hard go right now,
but still got a lot of stuff to do today.
Gonna work on my shelter a little bit.
Gonna try to get this thing to where...
It's actually half past warm because it's starting to get
colder at nights and mornings.
So...
let's move this show outside.
Gotta get this stuff done
before the snow comes in and caves in
the side of my tent.
Gonna do just like I did before,
I'm gonna cut poles and bring them
over here and lay them down.
Then I'll clean them up and stand them up.
♪ ♪
Wasted a good bit of time on shelters so far.
This is a temporary shelter.
Permanent shelter will be coming up soon.
The trees around here really aren't big enough
to build a decent cabin for it to be over my head.
I'd have to have 45 on each wall.
This is actually the first teepee I've ever built.
♪ ♪
Oh, it's just not long enough. Son of a [bleep].
[grunts]
And I just don't see it becoming
what I wanted it to become, so...
God, this is a good spot to build.
It's just-- I can't find anything
to start with or build to.
I don't know.
Maybe I can build some kind of a lean-to structure.
I don't know, man.
It's terrible.
I feel like I look like I don't have any idea
what I'm doing when I do.
It's just learning a new place.
God!
Oh, this is so [bleep] hard when you're tired.
This is supposed to be where I was having fun.
Would have loved to build a cabin,
but this is what I've started, this is what I'm doing.
I'm not going backwards.
In a survival situation, you can only plan so much.
Everything's so unpredictable.
I gotta get out of this groove.
I've been making one mistake right after the other.
I'm a carpenter.
I was gonna come out here.
I was going to have a single pitch cabin.
And coming out here,
the situation that I was handed
was I'm exhausted,
and I have to make do with what I can build
right now, not what I can have done
two weeks from now.
I'm not used to a whole lot of snow,
but I know
that snow gets heavy,
and I want my shelter to be able to withstand heavy snow.
In fact, I'd like for it to hold it in place
to help insulate more.
As a young child, I lived on a farm.
My parents were renting to own the farm.
And our landlord died, and we were forced to move.
Wound up in poverty.
Bring on the sun.
We built a basic shack.
We were collecting rainwater in barrels
because we had no running water.
When we did have electricity, it came from a generator.
It's one thing for an adult to decide
I'm gonna live off grid.
It's another thing for a child who has to go to school
not having a bath for a week.
This is my last pole.
If I didn't grow up having to adapt...
Insulation.
I probably wouldn't be here today.
So it's kind of a double edged sword.
All right, think I'm done working
on the shelter for today.
[dramatic music]
♪ ♪
- Good morning.
Got mighty cold last night.
It is pretty this morning.
I couldn't help but notice this morning
that my belt is fitting a little looser on me
today than it was yesterday.
From the mark I made on it when I first came out,
I've lost about four inches of waste.
It is a beautiful morning, though.
♪ ♪
My entire strategy revolves around
the pursuit of big game.
That squirrel is done.
Gonna have me a nice breakfast cocktail.
But unfortunately, I understand
that my metabolism will not hold me up
without a source of fat.
♪ ♪
Everything in here has a little bit of a bitter flavor
because I'm desperate,
and I cut a chunk of the extra off my belt
that's just dragging and threw it in the pot.
So it's got fat in it.
I can see it on the top there.
♪ ♪
I'm just desperate for some fat or some food.
♪ ♪
There it is, piece of leather.
♪ ♪
OK, here goes.
♪ ♪
Oh, that tastes horrid.
♪ ♪
Can't do it.
Can't do it, too chewy.
Every bite, every chew is just the worst taste
I've ever had in my mouth, ever.
♪ ♪
[grunts]
[spits]
I hope that little bit of oil in the belt leather
will do me some good.
♪ ♪
OK, so I'm feeling a little better.
I'm just gonna hit the west side
of that berry patch,
and it's just a couple hundred yards,
but it's getting to be about all I can do, man.
Even my face just looks sunk in.
♪ ♪
[sighs]
It's so frustrating because
I know where that bear moves.
I know where he's been eating.
Pathetic excuse for blueberries,
but it is food
I absolutely cannot pass up.
But the berries are all but gone,
and it's gonna get really tough from here out
to find that bear.
♪ ♪
[bleep]. [groans]
So I almost fell down over nothing.
I'm exhausted after that.
[sighs]
I gotta go find something to kill.
Right now.
♪ ♪
I can't help but think of an Iroquois legend
about a Mohawk village that was haunted
by a great spirit bear.
♪ ♪
All of the greatest hunters tried to get the spirit bear,
and all they could ever find was tracks.
Fresh bear poop.
Still on him, kind of.
I'm onto him.
Three hunters had a dream that they caught the spirit bear,
and so they decided to take their dog,
and they began hunting for days
and days on end without rest.
And eventually, they came to the edge of the Earth.
♪ ♪
And refusing to give up, they leapt into the stars
to chase the bear across the night sky...
♪ ♪
And when the hunters were upon him
and thought they finally had the bear,
he cast a net down upon them.
♪ ♪
And so when you look up into the sky towards the North,
you will see the three stars of the hunters
and the fourth star of their dog,
trapped forever under his net.
We refer to this now as the Big Dipper.
And I think that that story is quite fitting for me
because I'm just chasing my spirit bear.
♪ ♪
[dramatic music]
♪ ♪
- Nikolai, it's snowing, buddy. It's snowing.
Look, Nikolai.
Look, it's snow.
But the sun is starting to peek out,
so I think it'll probably melt here in a little while.
That's pretty cool, though, my first Canadian snow.
Huh, it's already snowing.
♪ ♪
Well, it was a lot warmer last night.
Just insulating my shelter really has made a difference,
but apparently, the way I've built my shelter
is the perfect mouse amusement park
because they have not stopped running around this thing.
So today, I'ma work on some traps.
Well, it's warmed up a little bit.
I'm going to make some figure four traps.
I'd like to have at least four of them.
I've got some dry sticks.
Reason I like using the dry sticks
is because they don't bend as easy.
OK, let's work our way through one of these.
I try to find sticks that are somewhat straight,
but I work with what I got.
♪ ♪
So they're a bit upright.
♪ ♪
Bushcraft is something that's just ingrained in me.
Since my childhood, not having anything
and having to make it work for something,
it's nothing for me to make a tool out of an antler
or whittle new ax handle, whittle a new hammer handle.
You know, when that's what you have, that's what you use.
That'll probably just about work right there.
♪ ♪
One more part to this, and that's the bait stick.
Let me see about how long this thing needs to be.
♪ ♪
Somewhere right in here.
There's a beauty in everything that you do,
whether that's processing an animal
or processing a piece of wood.
Everything that I do out here has a piece of me in it.
♪ ♪
Make a notch.
This is what keeps me centered is being able
to build something with my hands.
Then, see about where it needs to sit.
People meditate.
I don't meditate, I carve.
♪ ♪
Now, I have the upright stick.
I have the weight stick, where the rock will sit on it.
And then, I have the bait stick.
When all that comes together, it makes a four.
Thus the figure four deadfall.
OK, I'm gonna get a bunch of rocks,
bring them up places that I want to set these traps
and get them set.
I just want something to work until the snow comes,
and I can track. I think I'll do a lot better.
Think that'll work.
♪ ♪
- All the nice kindling, huh?
Good fire starter.
[grunts]
Hey, you looking at my butt?
Don't be looking at my butt.
[chuckles]
♪ ♪
Fishing's been doing OK by me.
Reindeer Lake go of Hellfire.
Proven to be a notable lure, there's no denying it.
We're catching fish.
But the bottom line is, I need to catch
more fish until the Gold Hellfire fails me.
It is my go-to. [smooches]
Love you, baby.
Aw, yes, you're so pretty.
♪ ♪
I just heard a fish.
♪ ♪
It's a sign.
I'm so excited.
♪ ♪
It's a glorious night to go and catch a fish.
There we go.
♪ ♪
There we go.
♪ ♪
Yeah, baby.
♪ ♪
And that'll work. Another beautiful trout.
The Gold Hellfire does it again.
How beautiful is that?
♪ ♪
[smooches]
Crafted with love and fishes with passion.
Oh, you are awesome.
I don't know how many fish that is
on the Gold Hellfire now,
but we're getting there.
We're chalking them up.
Any more takers? Any more takers?
♪ ♪
I'm just so happy I've got another victory.
I feel like I'm walking on clouds.
See if we can't catch one or two more.
♪ ♪
And we got something.
♪ ♪
Whoa-ho, it's a good fish, by the feel of it.
It's a good fish.
The Reindeer Lake Gold Hellfire comes through for me again.
♪ ♪
Oh! No, no.
No. Oh, no.
♪ ♪
The Gold Hellfire is gone.
A big pike took it.
Oh, no.
♪ ♪
That is terrible.
That is really terrible.
♪ ♪
I have lost a lot of lures in my life,
and I'll tell you, I have never had one
make me feel so sick as that does.
That is depressing.
♪ ♪
Well... [laughs]
I can't even describe how I feel right now.
Not only was it losing a lure, but I lost two treble hooks,
and I only brought four.
So I have a pile of single hooks,
but they're not very big.
You know what I'm saying? They won't work.
I've caught lots of fish on single hooks,
but having a treble hook on that lure
was obviously working very well.
I picked up a piece of driftwood here
on the way over that--
well, we'll never make the Gold Hellfire again,
but maybe we can make something close that'll work.
We just need something that's gonna work.
♪ ♪
I came into this game with the intention
that my big game hunting was going to be
my feature contribution to my survival,
and then I got here, and I have not seen anything.
♪ ♪
So I have to change my whole plan
on what I was going to do.
Fishing is the only thing
that's really gonna give me a feasible chance
of staying here.
No crying over spilt milk or lost lures.
♪ ♪
There's no room for failure.
If you think you're gonna fail,
you've already failed,
and I don't do that.
♪ ♪
She's an absolutely perfect night to be fishing.
But we're not gonna have
this done in time for that.
♪ ♪
I don't like to quit.
There's no room in this life for quitting
because you're quitting on yourself,
and that's the one person you should always count on.
I don't want to screw this up.
It's not the Gold Hellfire,
but I think it's gonna work.
One thing's for sure, we're gonna find out.
♪ ♪
- Well, the trap fell.
Hey, hey! Hey, look at that.
Holy [bleep].
♪ ♪
It's a rat.
♪ ♪
Oh.
♪ ♪
Wee little guy, a little flat rat.
♪ ♪
[laughs] That's awesome.
Well, it looks like I'll be eating rat.
♪ ♪
Now, take it easy on me.
Never cleaned a rat before, so...
Damn, about cut his leg off right there.
Not really what I was wanting.
I had to perform surgery on a rat.
You have to watch how you pull on it.
You'll pull the little guy right in two.
There we are.
A little skinned mouse.
I'm not gonna lie to you, guys,
this has probably been the hardest animal
I have ever gut or skinned.
I'm gonna clean my hands off, get a fire going...
See about cooking a rat.
♪ ♪
I've got the mindset it's just meat.
When you're wanting protein, and here comes
a little bitty piece of red meat running around,
you're gonna take it.
You're gonna eat that damn thing.
♪ ♪
Hell yes, give me rats.
♪ ♪
Right now, what I'm gonna do is I'm going to make
a hoop out of this willow.
Stretch this little guy on.
Just because I think it would be cool.
It's amazing how even the smallest
little bit of food...
Move this wire to hold this little guy in place for me.
Can really lift your spirits.
Man, if I can eat rats, I can do this.
That's basically where I'm at.
There's a lot of people out there
who don't get dinner every night
and be thankful for what you've been given today.
♪ ♪
What do you think?
♪ ♪
Not too too bad, huh?
♪ ♪
Nice little furry critter here.
Put his tail on this side.
There we go.
Look at that.
Might have a couple little rips in it,
but I won't let that happen next time.
♪ ♪
- Time to finish off the new lure.
We're gonna tie that leader onto the Gold Fury.
We can't have any more incidents like went on
with the Gold Hellfire.
♪ ♪
Yep.
The Gold Fury. The Gold Fury.
Made with love.
Manufactured with love.
[smooches]
Let's ravish these waters.
Together, we shall raid Reindeer Lake.
[laughs]
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OK.
[grunts] Well, she casts.
Let's see if we can't catch a fish or two
with the new lure.
Man, I've had a lot of [bleep] challenges in life,
but this is a challenge I wanted.
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I tell you, I sure would like to catch
a big pike with a Reindeer Lake Gold Hellfire
stuck in his mouth.
Some people aren't so lucky,
and they face adversity with no choice.
I got a choice, and I want this,
and I embrace this.
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This ain't near the challenge I had when my wife
was on her deathbed with cancer
and going through surgeries and...
trying to look after her the best I can
and trying to raise little kids.
And really, in-- in the big picture,
this competition is a [bleep] cakewalk.
Oh, I just had a hit. OK, she works.
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That was a hit.
I think I got everything that it's gonna take to win this.
I really do.
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That was a hit.
It's a sign of life. It's a sign of life!
The Gold Fury is alive.
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Come on.
Oh, come on.
Oh, no! Oh, no.
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Oh, no.
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Oh, my God.
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The Gold Fury is gone.
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[bleep] even with the leader.
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[sighs]
That is just heartbreaking.
I'm down to one treble hook, and it's a small one.
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I can't even begin to tell you how deflating that is.
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- I'm getting a late start, but I'm just beat.
I got some mushrooms in the pot.
And I've been trying to hydrate.
I'm having these weird flashes
of warm and then cold.
I don't know what that means or what's going on.
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I need to go hunt.
Tonight could be the night, you know?
I could have the big bear come out in front of me.
So I gotta push through it.
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Be strong, Cade.
Be strong, man.
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[sniffs] [sighs]
I'm exhausted, but I've got to get to the berry patch.
It's the last place I saw any fresh bear sign.
And if I'm not in the patch, I'm not gonna have
that opportunity at a bear.
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I'm just gonna bring the GoPros again.
I know I should be packing around this big camera.
I'm just... [sighs]
I'm beat.
Just hoping that today is the day.
Gotta find me a monster.
Monster anything, monster squirrel,
monster grouse, monster mouse, monster bear,
monster moose, monster goose.
Something, man, just something to kill.
I need something big, though.
These squirrels just aren't doing it.
Squirrels and mushrooms ain't keeping me going.
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My little boy, I think about him all the time.
He thinks the world of me. He thinks I can do anything.
He thinks I'm Superman.
Look at that.
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Day old bear poop.
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That's something, two cranberries
right there beside it.
I wanna prove to him that I'm who he thinks I am.
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Because I'm not a quitter.
I'll leave here medically before I give up.
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[groans]
[sighs]
[bleep] feel like I'm gonna pass out
every time I get back up,
and I see three more cranberries,
so I gotta get back down again.
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Legs feel so heavy.
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I'm just so-- [body thuds]
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[dramatic music]
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- [groans]
[sighs] Oh.
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Passed out.
[panting]
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[groans] Oh.
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[camera thuds]
Oh, I wanted it so bad. [sniffles]
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I want it so bad, man.
I just...
I don't think I can do it no more.
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[sighs]
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[sniffles]
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I lost that baby. We lost that baby.
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And I lost my arrows,
and I've been-- I've been fighting so hard.
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I don't want to leave.
I don't want to quit.
[bleep].
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I've been fighting so hard for this.
[sniffles]
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I left my family at home,
my wife grieving by herself.
I couldn't even--
I couldn't even do it. Couldn't get it done.
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Sometimes-- sometimes, your best...
Sometimes, your best is not good enough.
[sniffs]
[sighs]
[phone beeping]
[sniffs]
[line trilling]
Um, this is Cade.
Um...
I passed out for a while.
I--I think I'm done.
I--I'm tapping out.
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[sniffs]
[sighs]
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Headed back, trying to meet them there.
Danielle, I'm so sorry I couldn't do it.
I was just wore my body out before I could find success.
I never knew my limit.
[sighs]
But I know it now.
This place has reminded me who I am.
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And who I want to be, love for family
and everything that is important in this world.
♪ ♪
[sighs]
My whole body hurts.
I just-- I was eating some berries.
I don't remember. I just woke up.
I sat there for a minute, and I figured...
I don't know.
I don't know, where do I go from there, you know?
I can't hunt.
I'm just wasting away.
I didn't come here to play arts and crafts
or starve to death.
I came here to do what I know how to do.
And I just--
I can't even walk no more.
You ever wanted something so bad that--
you know you're losing weight, so you cut the leather
off your belt and then eat it?
I'm just out of gas, man.
[sniffs]
It's painful because my heart and my mind
are still in it.
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This place will always be a reminder
to me that I am more than capable
when the going gets tough.
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I'll never forget that.
I learned that I'm exactly
who I thought I was.
I worked myself to death,
and that's why my time was so short,
and I don't think I would be happier
if I had lasted longer and done less
because that's not what I came here to do.
I will not make any excuses for my failures
out here because to do so
would deprive me of my victories.
Am I disappointed with the outcome?
Yes.
But am I content with myself? Absolutely.
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God has blessed me
with a once in a lifetime adventure,
and it started the day that I was born,
and it does not end here.
I've got a million more hunts for me
and a beautiful family at home...
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And this is just the beginning of something better
down the road,
and I can hang my hat on that.
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[dramatic music]
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- Oh, [bleep], I passed out.
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I think I gotta call it, man.
I can't even [bleep] walk out here anymore.
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Never hurt to do something so bad in my whole damn life.
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I don't know how long I was out.
I just woke up and didn't know where I was.
It ain't about being hungry or tired or lonely,
'cause none of that [bleep] matters to me.
I'm just--
I just physically can't.
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And that's a hard-- that's a hard pill to swallow.
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This is something that I've always dreamed of,
and I love this place,
and I don't wanna leave it.
I'm sorry I couldn't do it.
I gave it my best.
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I know that's broth, but I wish it was coffee.
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[bleep], that's hot too.
Mmm. Sorry, excuse my language.
Hell of a lot better than that squirrel broth
I've been drinking.
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I'm just heartbroken right now.
I'm having a hard time.
'Cause I'm not a quitter.
Not everything out here worked out in my favor,
but man, I fought as hard as anybody ever could.
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I believe I proved everything to myself
that I ever needed to prove out here.
I didn't come here for fame and fortune
and all that [bleep].
But I would love if I could use
this platform to teach people
the appreciation for the hunt.
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This place didn't change me,
but it taught me something:
not all losses are failures.
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Gotta keep my chin up
and set a good example for my little boy.
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- Ready, champ?
- [chuckles]
Oh.
- How you feeling? Any thirst or--
- I just-- oh, thank you so much.
- Yep. - [indistinct].
- Wow. - Yeah.
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When I started walking, I thought,
"Man, I'm feeling a little better."
Usually if I kind of get to moving around,
I feel better. [sighs]
My legs just felt so heavy.
- How we doing, my friend?
- Man, I've seen better days, I'm not gonna lie to you.
I remember I reached down
and grabbed a handful of cranberries.
Next thing I know, I woke up,
and I was, like, face down, my [bleep] hat in the dirt.
I was trying to figure out who the [bleep] I was.
- Do you remember any other feelings
before you passed out?
Chest, heart-- - Kinda lightheaded.
I was just dizzy, you know, like I was tired.
And then I just kinda sat there
and cried like a baby for a minute.
- Gonna take a set of vitals on you,
check the blood pressure, check your blood sugars too,
just to make sure there's nothing major
going on with the vitals.
- I thought I could make it at least another week.
- Obviously, if your body's doing something like this,
it's telling you not to go on.
- Oh, I'm just--
I'm really sad that it's over, man.
I'm really sad.
Man, that thing's getting hot now.
- Could just lean forward for me, my friend.
Take a nice big breath for me.
Given the weight that you came in with,
you've lost, I think, about 14% of your total body weight.
What we'll be doing is putting you
on a high-risk refeeding program.
We want to monitor your food intake.
- Look at me, man. I'm [bleep]--I'm a skeleton.
- Takes about five days to get you
back to the baseline, ideally.
Make sure that we're not doing any further damage.
Here you go. - Thank you.
- Any questions?
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- What's for supper?
I gave it my 100% best.
And so this place will always be a reminder
of my inner strength,
and I'd do it again in a heartbeat.
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