1 00:00:05,000 --> 00:00:07,896 [dramatic music] 2 00:00:08,000 --> 00:00:14,034 ♪ ♪ 3 00:00:15,310 --> 00:00:17,724 Beaver. Oh, hell yeah. 4 00:00:17,724 --> 00:00:19,655 [arrow thuds] [water splashing] 5 00:00:19,655 --> 00:00:20,965 Did I get him? 6 00:00:21,068 --> 00:00:24,586 Oh, please, God, let me have gotten him. 7 00:00:24,689 --> 00:00:27,896 Oh, my God, there's nothing. [bleep]. 8 00:00:27,896 --> 00:00:29,896 Just look what I got here. 9 00:00:29,896 --> 00:00:32,448 That is a beautiful rabbit. 10 00:00:32,551 --> 00:00:35,206 First rabbit, here in the Northland, 11 00:00:35,206 --> 00:00:37,931 200 kilometers north of the Arctic Circle. 12 00:00:37,931 --> 00:00:41,241 ♪ ♪ 13 00:00:41,241 --> 00:00:42,896 Got him. 14 00:00:43,000 --> 00:00:44,793 Knocked him right in the head. 15 00:00:44,793 --> 00:00:47,689 I've come to realize that I'm right where I belong. 16 00:00:47,689 --> 00:00:50,310 Lost my fishing line out of my backpack. 17 00:00:50,413 --> 00:00:51,862 And I can't find it. 18 00:00:51,862 --> 00:00:53,689 I'm worried that my body 19 00:00:53,689 --> 00:00:56,137 will start becoming weaker and weaker. 20 00:00:56,896 --> 00:00:59,034 I got a fish in the net. Look at that. 21 00:00:59,034 --> 00:01:02,379 Check it out, people. I got a monster pike. 22 00:01:02,379 --> 00:01:04,448 This is the hunt of my lifetime. 23 00:01:04,551 --> 00:01:08,689 I want this moose as bad I've wanted any animal in my life. 24 00:01:10,241 --> 00:01:11,379 Oh, my gosh. 25 00:01:11,379 --> 00:01:14,103 Dropped about 10 feet in front of it. 26 00:01:15,275 --> 00:01:19,586 ♪ 27 00:01:19,586 --> 00:01:21,482 I'm not tappin' out. 28 00:01:21,482 --> 00:01:22,620 I'd rather die. 29 00:01:22,620 --> 00:01:26,827 ♪ ♪ 30 00:01:26,827 --> 00:01:27,965 [exhales] 31 00:01:28,068 --> 00:01:30,172 Here goes nothing. [arrow twangs] 32 00:01:30,275 --> 00:01:31,275 [laughing] Whoa! 33 00:01:31,275 --> 00:01:32,655 Yes! 34 00:01:32,655 --> 00:01:33,758 Holy [bleep]. 35 00:01:33,758 --> 00:01:36,586 ♪ ♪ 36 00:01:36,586 --> 00:01:38,655 This is the harshest location possible. 37 00:01:38,758 --> 00:01:41,241 We're 125 miles in the Arctic Circle. 38 00:01:41,344 --> 00:01:42,241 [shouts] 39 00:01:42,344 --> 00:01:43,655 Never had an environment 40 00:01:43,758 --> 00:01:44,793 make me feel like a complete amateur before. 41 00:01:44,793 --> 00:01:46,827 Everything is against us out here. 42 00:01:46,827 --> 00:01:48,620 Mother Nature went and bitch-slapped me. 43 00:01:48,620 --> 00:01:50,241 ♪ 44 00:01:50,241 --> 00:01:52,068 Looks like I've got grizzlies and wolves as my neighbors. 45 00:01:52,068 --> 00:01:54,551 Holy crap. They're just hunting the shoreline. 46 00:01:54,655 --> 00:01:56,620 Mother Nature is about to dim the lights on us. 47 00:01:56,620 --> 00:01:57,827 We're heading into total darkness. 48 00:01:57,827 --> 00:01:59,517 [bear huffs, branch cracks] - Hey, bear. 49 00:01:59,620 --> 00:02:03,344 The cold and the dark is going to sap people's souls. 50 00:02:03,344 --> 00:02:05,172 Really makes you wonder if it's worth it. 51 00:02:05,172 --> 00:02:06,310 [spits] 52 00:02:06,310 --> 00:02:07,448 There is no camera crew. 53 00:02:07,551 --> 00:02:08,793 There's no support system. 54 00:02:08,793 --> 00:02:10,413 I'm completely alone. 55 00:02:10,517 --> 00:02:11,482 Yes! 56 00:02:11,586 --> 00:02:12,758 People go in one way... 57 00:02:12,758 --> 00:02:14,241 Stop bleeding. 58 00:02:14,241 --> 00:02:16,000 And they come out entirely different. 59 00:02:16,000 --> 00:02:17,000 [muffled shout] 60 00:02:17,000 --> 00:02:18,206 This is the most difficult 61 00:02:18,206 --> 00:02:19,206 survival challenge in the world. 62 00:02:19,206 --> 00:02:20,241 Hoo! Hoo! Hoo! 63 00:02:20,241 --> 00:02:21,517 $500,000. 64 00:02:21,620 --> 00:02:23,275 That's completely life-changing money. 65 00:02:23,275 --> 00:02:24,482 It's beautiful. 66 00:02:24,482 --> 00:02:25,931 Whoever can thrive the longest. 67 00:02:26,034 --> 00:02:27,862 If they out here, ought to be afraid of me. 68 00:02:27,862 --> 00:02:29,344 - Whoever can push through... - [groans] 69 00:02:29,448 --> 00:02:30,896 Wins. 70 00:02:30,896 --> 00:02:32,448 I hope I've made the right choice coming out here. 71 00:02:32,448 --> 00:02:37,379 ♪ 72 00:02:37,482 --> 00:02:40,344 [soft suspenseful music] 73 00:02:40,344 --> 00:02:47,448 ♪ ♪ 74 00:03:01,517 --> 00:03:02,724 [sighs] 75 00:03:06,827 --> 00:03:08,586 Really hate to do it 'cause it's gon' be cold, 76 00:03:08,689 --> 00:03:12,103 but I can't stand dirty hair. 77 00:03:12,103 --> 00:03:14,034 So... 78 00:03:14,137 --> 00:03:15,551 [grunts] 79 00:03:15,551 --> 00:03:17,413 It's hair-washing time. 80 00:03:17,517 --> 00:03:20,413 [soft banjo music] 81 00:03:20,413 --> 00:03:21,827 ♪ ♪ 82 00:03:21,827 --> 00:03:23,000 [grunts] 83 00:03:29,931 --> 00:03:31,931 Oh, my goodness. 84 00:03:33,931 --> 00:03:36,896 All right, this stuff here's a good abrasive stuff. 85 00:03:42,931 --> 00:03:47,000 ♪ 86 00:03:47,103 --> 00:03:48,551 Man. 87 00:03:48,551 --> 00:03:50,724 Gosh, I'm muddy. 88 00:03:53,793 --> 00:03:55,689 Well, I hope that worked. 89 00:03:55,793 --> 00:03:58,862 'Cause if it didn't, my hair's gon' be a mess now. 90 00:03:58,965 --> 00:04:00,413 Now I'm gonna turn the camera off 91 00:04:00,413 --> 00:04:05,137 and wash my other end, in private. [laughs] 92 00:04:05,241 --> 00:04:07,517 [tense music] 93 00:04:07,517 --> 00:04:09,206 Feel better. 94 00:04:09,310 --> 00:04:11,379 Let's run down to the fishing spot. 95 00:04:16,793 --> 00:04:19,620 So I would really like to catch some fish. 96 00:04:19,724 --> 00:04:21,551 [burps] My goodness. 97 00:04:21,551 --> 00:04:24,517 ♪ 98 00:04:24,517 --> 00:04:25,793 Hey. 99 00:04:29,241 --> 00:04:33,413 I believe I see that thing shaking. 100 00:04:33,413 --> 00:04:35,103 Please. 101 00:04:35,206 --> 00:04:36,689 There's something yanking on it, 102 00:04:36,689 --> 00:04:41,172 so I'm preparing myself for battle. 103 00:04:41,275 --> 00:04:43,448 ♪ ♪ 104 00:04:43,448 --> 00:04:44,896 All right, guys. 105 00:04:44,896 --> 00:04:47,206 [rubs palms] Oh, please. 106 00:04:47,310 --> 00:04:50,758 Please, please. 107 00:04:50,862 --> 00:04:52,137 Feel something. 108 00:04:52,137 --> 00:04:54,586 [water splashes] Oh, my goodness. 109 00:04:54,689 --> 00:04:56,965 [laughs] 110 00:04:56,965 --> 00:04:59,551 Ah, I got me a fish! 111 00:04:59,551 --> 00:05:01,068 Don't--you ain't going nowhere, buddy. 112 00:05:01,068 --> 00:05:03,413 I'll stomp on you. I don't care. 113 00:05:03,413 --> 00:05:04,896 Nope. Nope. Nope. 114 00:05:05,000 --> 00:05:06,517 Hey. Hey. 115 00:05:06,620 --> 00:05:08,344 Gotcha. 116 00:05:08,448 --> 00:05:10,655 Ah! 117 00:05:10,655 --> 00:05:13,034 ♪ 118 00:05:13,034 --> 00:05:15,379 Yes. 119 00:05:15,482 --> 00:05:18,206 That's a good-sized pike. 120 00:05:18,310 --> 00:05:20,689 I'm gon' dispatch this guy. 121 00:05:20,689 --> 00:05:23,586 ♪ ♪ 122 00:05:23,586 --> 00:05:27,724 There now. He's not going nowhere. 123 00:05:27,724 --> 00:05:29,586 Heck yeah. 124 00:05:29,586 --> 00:05:32,034 This'll be good for me. 125 00:05:32,137 --> 00:05:33,827 I hope. 126 00:05:33,827 --> 00:05:37,379 [soft music] 127 00:05:37,379 --> 00:05:39,620 Pike is a really bony fish. 128 00:05:39,620 --> 00:05:41,689 If you ain't careful, you're gonna get some bones. 129 00:05:41,793 --> 00:05:43,275 [spits] 130 00:05:43,275 --> 00:05:44,896 I raised up eating catfish. 131 00:05:45,000 --> 00:05:47,068 [huffs] Oh, yeah. 132 00:05:47,068 --> 00:05:49,103 Ain't hardly no bones in a catfish. 133 00:05:52,689 --> 00:05:54,931 [spits] Excuse me. 134 00:05:54,931 --> 00:05:58,172 I like catfish a lot better than pike. 135 00:05:58,275 --> 00:06:00,310 Sorry about that, guys. 136 00:06:18,862 --> 00:06:21,724 Hate to say that. It's true, though. 137 00:06:27,517 --> 00:06:31,620 [geese honking] 138 00:06:31,724 --> 00:06:34,620 [soft upbeat music] 139 00:06:34,724 --> 00:06:41,758 ♪ ♪ 140 00:06:48,137 --> 00:06:50,862 Small, but cozy. 141 00:06:58,758 --> 00:06:59,862 All right. 142 00:07:02,206 --> 00:07:04,620 ♪ 143 00:07:04,620 --> 00:07:06,793 If you're inland, you gotta be efficient. 144 00:07:06,793 --> 00:07:08,758 I wanted my shelter to be close to resources, 145 00:07:08,758 --> 00:07:10,379 like, I gotta build a stove. 146 00:07:10,379 --> 00:07:12,275 There's a lot of clay and stuff at the edges of the bank 147 00:07:12,379 --> 00:07:14,482 that I can haul down and use to make a stove out of. 148 00:07:14,482 --> 00:07:16,482 But that's the only material that I gotta walk. 149 00:07:16,482 --> 00:07:18,103 Everything else is close by. 150 00:07:18,103 --> 00:07:20,689 So you're not gonna waste as much energy building it. 151 00:07:28,206 --> 00:07:30,758 Also, sizing the shelter is very important 152 00:07:30,758 --> 00:07:33,724 because a large shelter takes more and more energy 153 00:07:33,724 --> 00:07:35,275 to heat that air volume. 154 00:07:37,655 --> 00:07:39,172 I spent a few nights in a igloo. 155 00:07:39,172 --> 00:07:42,000 I know what body heat can do in a small shelter. 156 00:07:52,482 --> 00:07:55,586 ♪ 157 00:07:55,586 --> 00:07:57,724 One more trip of clay. 158 00:08:03,206 --> 00:08:05,034 OK. [wings fluttering] 159 00:08:05,137 --> 00:08:06,517 Whoa. 160 00:08:22,241 --> 00:08:26,551 This is a skill not known by many outside of Labrador. 161 00:08:26,655 --> 00:08:28,724 You look for a long, skinny stick. 162 00:08:28,827 --> 00:08:30,103 And then you get a rabbit snare. 163 00:08:30,103 --> 00:08:33,344 And you wind it around on the tip of the stick. 164 00:08:33,448 --> 00:08:36,275 And you put the snare over his head and snare. 165 00:08:37,931 --> 00:08:40,000 Let's go that way. 166 00:08:48,586 --> 00:08:51,137 That's good. 167 00:08:51,137 --> 00:08:52,551 [wings fluttering] 168 00:08:52,551 --> 00:08:54,241 One right there. 169 00:08:54,241 --> 00:08:56,620 When I see a grouse, I watch and see what he's doing first. 170 00:09:04,758 --> 00:09:07,137 [tutting softly] 171 00:09:07,137 --> 00:09:10,137 [tense music] 172 00:09:10,137 --> 00:09:11,965 The key to getting him is making sure 173 00:09:11,965 --> 00:09:13,517 you get the stick out in front of him 174 00:09:13,517 --> 00:09:16,206 so he can't fly because there's a obstacle in his way. 175 00:09:16,206 --> 00:09:18,965 And then slowly try to get that noose around his neck. 176 00:09:21,758 --> 00:09:26,586 ♪ 177 00:09:26,586 --> 00:09:27,862 Damn. 178 00:09:29,413 --> 00:09:34,103 ♪ 179 00:09:35,931 --> 00:09:42,965 ♪ 180 00:09:55,344 --> 00:09:56,413 Oh! 181 00:09:56,517 --> 00:09:57,551 ♪ ♪ 182 00:10:04,310 --> 00:10:06,758 [tense music] 183 00:10:06,758 --> 00:10:10,241 [wings fluttering] - Oh! Oh! Oh. 184 00:10:10,241 --> 00:10:14,655 ♪ 185 00:10:14,655 --> 00:10:16,344 Awesome, awesome, awesome. 186 00:10:24,172 --> 00:10:27,724 I tell you, persistence-- persistence pays off. 187 00:10:27,724 --> 00:10:28,931 [exhales heavily] 188 00:10:39,206 --> 00:10:41,551 I'll bide my time and wait for when they tame down a bit, 189 00:10:41,551 --> 00:10:43,586 and then just do it again. 190 00:10:43,586 --> 00:10:45,793 Gosh, I was surprised to see so many. 191 00:10:48,724 --> 00:10:51,241 Good sign. Real good sign. 192 00:10:51,241 --> 00:10:54,724 ♪ ♪ 193 00:10:54,827 --> 00:10:57,310 Over here, in my little food cache. 194 00:10:57,310 --> 00:10:58,758 I got a couple different caches. 195 00:10:58,862 --> 00:11:00,344 I don't store everything in one place. 196 00:11:02,034 --> 00:11:03,275 That way, if something comes to one site, 197 00:11:03,379 --> 00:11:04,931 they're not gonna get all of it. 198 00:11:11,413 --> 00:11:13,413 Oh, see, he's going over right there. 199 00:11:17,137 --> 00:11:18,965 This is a skill that a lot of people could benefit. 200 00:11:19,068 --> 00:11:20,137 Maybe there's people out there that don't know how 201 00:11:20,241 --> 00:11:21,620 to shoot a bow like me. 202 00:11:21,620 --> 00:11:23,275 Don't move. Don't move. Don't move. Don't move. 203 00:11:23,275 --> 00:11:25,827 ♪ ♪ 204 00:11:25,827 --> 00:11:27,758 Oh. 205 00:11:31,551 --> 00:11:33,413 To show this skill that others could use 206 00:11:33,517 --> 00:11:35,310 to help them in their adventures... 207 00:11:35,310 --> 00:11:37,137 Yeah, get back and get this cleaned up. 208 00:11:42,241 --> 00:11:45,206 [soft tense music] 209 00:11:45,206 --> 00:11:52,068 ♪ 210 00:12:02,517 --> 00:12:04,379 Toss that out there. 211 00:12:04,379 --> 00:12:05,896 Back there on that branch again. 212 00:12:05,896 --> 00:12:08,172 ♪ ♪ 213 00:12:08,172 --> 00:12:09,413 Aah! 214 00:12:09,413 --> 00:12:11,965 Ugh, failing miserably. 215 00:12:11,965 --> 00:12:16,068 [water running] 216 00:12:16,827 --> 00:12:21,758 I'm going to add layers of debris for insulation. 217 00:12:29,482 --> 00:12:32,068 An owl. Hi. 218 00:12:32,068 --> 00:12:33,517 Oh, my God, you're so beautiful. 219 00:12:33,517 --> 00:12:35,965 What is up with you, owl? 220 00:12:36,068 --> 00:12:38,000 How magical. 221 00:12:40,206 --> 00:12:43,758 Get you on video 'cause this is too frickin' awesome. 222 00:12:43,758 --> 00:12:45,965 I need my glasses. 223 00:12:45,965 --> 00:12:47,310 What a blessing. 224 00:12:47,310 --> 00:12:50,689 What in the world are you doing awake? 225 00:12:50,793 --> 00:12:53,413 I'm sure the Gwich'in have some type of meaning 226 00:12:53,413 --> 00:12:56,448 associated with a visit from an owl. 227 00:12:56,551 --> 00:12:59,000 Hopefully it's good. 228 00:13:01,448 --> 00:13:03,379 Wow. 229 00:13:03,482 --> 00:13:05,482 That was spectacular! 230 00:13:05,482 --> 00:13:09,379 ♪ 231 00:13:09,379 --> 00:13:11,172 I'm gonna go do some foraging. 232 00:13:11,172 --> 00:13:13,655 Let's go find some vetch. 233 00:13:13,758 --> 00:13:17,241 My mind is blown at how well I'm foraging in the Arctic. 234 00:13:17,344 --> 00:13:18,793 Hmm, there's some right over here. 235 00:13:18,793 --> 00:13:19,862 [wind blowing] 236 00:13:19,965 --> 00:13:23,172 Sweetvetch is an edible root. 237 00:13:23,172 --> 00:13:24,586 There we go. 238 00:13:24,586 --> 00:13:26,724 I'm gonna be focusing a lot on the roots. 239 00:13:26,827 --> 00:13:29,137 A lot of carbohydrates in roots. 240 00:13:29,241 --> 00:13:31,896 Ha! And I got it that time, the whole thing. 241 00:13:32,000 --> 00:13:33,620 Yay. 242 00:13:33,620 --> 00:13:37,000 The Arctic is similar to my home in Alaska. 243 00:13:37,103 --> 00:13:42,172 And my foraging skills, that's gonna take me far. 244 00:13:42,275 --> 00:13:45,206 Yum. That's a beast. 245 00:13:45,310 --> 00:13:48,551 But I haven't gotten a single source of protein. 246 00:13:48,551 --> 00:13:50,965 All right, good for now. 247 00:13:50,965 --> 00:13:53,689 I am going to go over to the lake, 248 00:13:53,689 --> 00:13:55,793 see if my beaver comes back. 249 00:13:55,793 --> 00:13:57,206 ♪ ♪ 250 00:13:57,206 --> 00:13:59,137 Foraging is keeping me in the game. 251 00:13:59,137 --> 00:14:01,620 But gotta get some meat. 252 00:14:01,620 --> 00:14:03,275 Let's go this way. 253 00:14:03,275 --> 00:14:06,068 I did try some handline fishing. 254 00:14:06,068 --> 00:14:09,793 But I can't catch fish if I don't have real bait. 255 00:14:09,896 --> 00:14:11,931 Sucks I missed that beaver. 256 00:14:11,931 --> 00:14:14,931 But I just have to be ready. 257 00:14:14,931 --> 00:14:16,172 [twig snaps] 258 00:14:16,172 --> 00:14:18,379 What is that? 259 00:14:18,379 --> 00:14:20,931 There's something rustling around over here. 260 00:14:20,931 --> 00:14:23,931 ♪ 261 00:14:23,931 --> 00:14:25,551 Oh, my God. 262 00:14:25,551 --> 00:14:27,379 There's grouse up in that tree. 263 00:14:27,379 --> 00:14:29,206 Holy [bleep]. 264 00:14:29,206 --> 00:14:30,482 Crap. 265 00:14:30,586 --> 00:14:32,413 Please, God. [sighs] 266 00:14:32,413 --> 00:14:34,034 Could really use this. 267 00:14:34,034 --> 00:14:37,034 [tense music] 268 00:14:37,034 --> 00:14:39,517 ♪ 269 00:14:39,620 --> 00:14:42,103 [arrow thuds] 270 00:14:42,103 --> 00:14:43,862 Oh, my God. 271 00:14:45,655 --> 00:14:47,344 Holy crap, I got it. 272 00:14:47,448 --> 00:14:48,965 Oh, my God. 273 00:14:49,068 --> 00:14:50,620 Ptarmigan. 274 00:14:50,724 --> 00:14:53,896 Thank you for giving your life for me 275 00:14:53,896 --> 00:14:56,206 so I could sustain mine. 276 00:14:56,310 --> 00:14:58,896 Wow. 277 00:14:58,896 --> 00:15:01,103 This is a game changer for me. 278 00:15:01,206 --> 00:15:03,862 I just got protein. 279 00:15:03,862 --> 00:15:05,896 It's absolutely amazing, 280 00:15:06,000 --> 00:15:09,448 this feeling of accomplishment. 281 00:15:11,862 --> 00:15:13,931 He's not using his trails. 282 00:15:14,034 --> 00:15:16,896 He might be gone. 283 00:15:16,896 --> 00:15:19,068 I needed this. 284 00:15:19,068 --> 00:15:21,551 And this is a lot of food for me. 285 00:15:21,551 --> 00:15:23,586 I'm looking at this ptarmigan, 286 00:15:23,586 --> 00:15:27,000 and I should have a week's worth of meals. 287 00:15:27,000 --> 00:15:31,068 This is also some bait that I desperately needed for fishing. 288 00:15:31,172 --> 00:15:33,620 With the innards for bait, 289 00:15:33,620 --> 00:15:37,448 I'm going to have no problem getting fish from this lake. 290 00:15:37,448 --> 00:15:39,689 I'm gonna make some ptarmigan soup. 291 00:15:39,793 --> 00:15:42,862 Because of my ownership of a fishing lodge, 292 00:15:42,862 --> 00:15:45,896 I am going to get a lot of grief 293 00:15:45,896 --> 00:15:49,551 if I cannot feed myself via fishing out here. 294 00:15:51,137 --> 00:15:57,758 Sauté up a little bolete and sweetvetch so I get my carbs. 295 00:15:57,862 --> 00:16:00,137 If I can just store up the carbs 296 00:16:00,137 --> 00:16:04,448 and keep hunting the protein, I'm gonna keep going. 297 00:16:04,448 --> 00:16:06,413 Mm, the meat's good. 298 00:16:06,413 --> 00:16:12,068 This bird has changed everything about this game. 299 00:16:12,068 --> 00:16:13,482 Mmm. 300 00:16:13,482 --> 00:16:15,965 My confidence is starting to build. 301 00:16:16,068 --> 00:16:17,862 That is amazing. 302 00:16:22,034 --> 00:16:25,103 [tense music] 303 00:16:25,103 --> 00:16:32,103 ♪ 304 00:16:33,689 --> 00:16:35,137 [grunts] 305 00:16:37,034 --> 00:16:40,931 I don't know if my belly hurts or if my damn back does. 306 00:16:40,931 --> 00:16:42,724 Hard work, hard work. 307 00:16:52,275 --> 00:16:53,517 I got a few little spots, 308 00:16:53,620 --> 00:16:57,241 I can stack my extra wood in here, keep it dry. 309 00:16:57,241 --> 00:17:00,517 'Cause these boughs will-- will make the water shed. 310 00:17:00,517 --> 00:17:03,206 So they won't let all of it in. 311 00:17:03,206 --> 00:17:07,827 And won't let all the smoke out till it hits the top. 312 00:17:07,931 --> 00:17:10,758 But if not, we can redo it, you know? 313 00:17:10,758 --> 00:17:15,034 I gotta stay busy all the time or... 314 00:17:15,034 --> 00:17:17,034 I start thinking about my family. 315 00:17:17,034 --> 00:17:18,344 [grunts] 316 00:17:18,448 --> 00:17:22,241 And that's not good to do while you're out here. 317 00:17:22,241 --> 00:17:23,931 ♪ 318 00:17:23,931 --> 00:17:25,862 When I first started into this adventure, 319 00:17:25,862 --> 00:17:27,931 I was afraid that I was gonna have a lot of trouble, 320 00:17:28,034 --> 00:17:29,310 missing home. 321 00:17:29,310 --> 00:17:31,379 Now, I miss my family, 322 00:17:31,482 --> 00:17:34,482 but I haven't missed it like I thought I was going to. 323 00:17:34,482 --> 00:17:37,724 Cut one more stick, and we'll call it good for my crossbars. 324 00:17:37,724 --> 00:17:40,793 My wife, I've been married to her for 13 years. 325 00:17:40,793 --> 00:17:43,413 And I wouldn't change one minute of it. 326 00:17:43,413 --> 00:17:45,206 She's a honest, good woman. 327 00:17:45,206 --> 00:17:50,103 She loves the same things I do, deer hunting, fishing. 328 00:17:50,206 --> 00:17:53,275 But the most important thing to me is 329 00:17:53,379 --> 00:17:55,448 that's the best mama in the world, you know? 330 00:17:55,448 --> 00:17:57,586 She's right up there with my mama. 331 00:17:57,586 --> 00:17:59,206 That'll work. 332 00:17:59,206 --> 00:18:02,344 So I'm pretty settled with everything back home. 333 00:18:02,344 --> 00:18:05,793 And I really don't got nothing to worry about. 334 00:18:05,896 --> 00:18:08,965 ♪ ♪ 335 00:18:08,965 --> 00:18:10,413 [exhales] 336 00:18:10,413 --> 00:18:13,000 I'ma take a little break from that 337 00:18:13,000 --> 00:18:14,724 and catch y'all in a little while. 338 00:18:14,724 --> 00:18:17,689 [soft tense music] 339 00:18:17,793 --> 00:18:24,827 ♪ ♪ 340 00:18:32,310 --> 00:18:34,137 [silence] 341 00:18:34,241 --> 00:18:36,586 Boy, I tell you, the-- 342 00:18:36,689 --> 00:18:39,034 the [bleep] I don't get on camera. 343 00:18:41,310 --> 00:18:43,172 But... 344 00:18:43,172 --> 00:18:47,206 here's my first grouse I've ever killed in my life. 345 00:18:47,310 --> 00:18:51,448 I ain't gonna lie, I shot at him, like, three, four times. 346 00:18:51,551 --> 00:18:53,758 I was so excited to seen him. 347 00:18:53,758 --> 00:18:57,344 I-- [muttering] 348 00:18:57,344 --> 00:18:59,448 Poom. Miss him. 349 00:18:59,551 --> 00:19:01,034 Ready? 350 00:19:01,034 --> 00:19:03,000 Poom. Miss him. 351 00:19:03,103 --> 00:19:05,793 I snuck around like I was just gonna go around him, 352 00:19:05,896 --> 00:19:08,000 like I wasn't after him. 353 00:19:08,103 --> 00:19:09,758 Well, I closed the distance that way. 354 00:19:09,862 --> 00:19:11,103 And when I did, I just turned back 355 00:19:11,103 --> 00:19:12,517 and went, poom, like that. 356 00:19:12,517 --> 00:19:16,586 And boy, I centered it, rolled him over. 357 00:19:16,586 --> 00:19:19,827 So first grouse. 358 00:19:22,172 --> 00:19:24,689 Now, here's my other gaiter here. 359 00:19:27,517 --> 00:19:30,000 Now I'ma gonna grab ahold of him 360 00:19:30,000 --> 00:19:31,931 and give him a little yank... [grunts] 361 00:19:32,034 --> 00:19:33,793 Just like that. 362 00:19:35,551 --> 00:19:40,655 Possible to use them as, uh, arrow fletches. 363 00:19:43,586 --> 00:19:45,724 Oh, my belly. 364 00:19:45,724 --> 00:19:48,724 [soft tense music] 365 00:19:48,724 --> 00:19:50,758 ♪ 366 00:19:50,758 --> 00:19:52,931 [sighs] Man, my belly. 367 00:19:52,931 --> 00:19:56,931 I constantly burping too. 368 00:19:56,931 --> 00:19:59,206 I don't know what that's all about. 369 00:19:59,206 --> 00:20:03,275 ♪ 370 00:20:03,379 --> 00:20:06,620 But I'm sure it's not good. 371 00:20:15,655 --> 00:20:17,482 That's what's gonna happen, though. 372 00:20:17,482 --> 00:20:19,275 ♪ 373 00:20:19,275 --> 00:20:21,931 When you playing the starving game, 374 00:20:22,034 --> 00:20:25,310 you can watch yourself starve. 375 00:20:25,310 --> 00:20:27,965 But when you got something going on in your belly 376 00:20:28,068 --> 00:20:29,896 and you don't know what's going on, 377 00:20:29,896 --> 00:20:32,137 it's a lot more concerning. 378 00:20:32,137 --> 00:20:39,172 ♪ 379 00:20:40,896 --> 00:20:44,758 I'm scared to death that I've caught some kind of... 380 00:20:44,758 --> 00:20:48,310 Beaver Fever, or beaver-- 381 00:20:48,413 --> 00:20:52,620 God knows what out of that damn creek over there. 382 00:20:52,620 --> 00:20:56,137 I hope and pray to God it's not, 383 00:20:56,241 --> 00:21:01,517 because that could get bad quick. 384 00:21:01,517 --> 00:21:03,379 Right above my belly button. 385 00:21:03,379 --> 00:21:05,551 It started out as a knot. 386 00:21:05,551 --> 00:21:08,137 It's progressed to a burning. 387 00:21:11,034 --> 00:21:12,758 And now it's a sharp pain. 388 00:21:15,620 --> 00:21:16,758 Ah. 389 00:21:16,862 --> 00:21:18,862 I don't really know what's going on. 390 00:21:18,862 --> 00:21:23,310 [huffs, groans loudly] 391 00:21:23,413 --> 00:21:27,310 [grunts] 392 00:21:27,310 --> 00:21:29,310 Oh, I got lightheaded on that one. 393 00:21:34,517 --> 00:21:37,482 All right. 394 00:21:37,482 --> 00:21:39,379 Later, my friends. 395 00:21:39,482 --> 00:21:42,379 [tense music] 396 00:21:42,482 --> 00:21:49,517 ♪ ♪ 397 00:21:56,655 --> 00:21:59,931 [gasps] I don't have my picture hanging up. 398 00:22:00,034 --> 00:22:02,896 I need to get my picture hanging up. 399 00:22:02,896 --> 00:22:04,344 I didn't want a photo. 400 00:22:04,344 --> 00:22:07,137 Yeah, I know what my loved ones look like. I feel it. 401 00:22:07,137 --> 00:22:10,827 But I didn't want to come without anything cool. 402 00:22:13,206 --> 00:22:15,793 Ta-da! 403 00:22:17,275 --> 00:22:19,827 The grandkids drew this for me. 404 00:22:19,827 --> 00:22:24,896 Elina, age 10, drew this. 405 00:22:24,896 --> 00:22:30,724 James, also known as "Monster," drew my house. 406 00:22:30,724 --> 00:22:35,482 So this is my life in a nutshell; bears and home. 407 00:22:35,482 --> 00:22:36,896 I miss 'em all. 408 00:22:36,896 --> 00:22:40,103 But I'm doing this to better us. 409 00:22:40,103 --> 00:22:41,310 A couple more months. 410 00:22:41,310 --> 00:22:43,689 ♪ 411 00:22:43,689 --> 00:22:46,241 All righty, back to work. 412 00:22:46,344 --> 00:22:47,793 Now that I have some bait, 413 00:22:47,793 --> 00:22:52,793 I am going to make some gorge hooks. 414 00:22:52,793 --> 00:22:54,827 I'm gonna carve a couple up. 415 00:22:54,827 --> 00:22:58,103 And I'm gonna set them on a long line in the lake, 416 00:22:58,206 --> 00:23:02,137 and get some type of passive protein source going. 417 00:23:02,241 --> 00:23:04,586 Just looking for the right stick. 418 00:23:04,689 --> 00:23:06,344 There we go. 419 00:23:06,344 --> 00:23:10,206 Now that I have ptarmigan innards for bait, 420 00:23:10,310 --> 00:23:12,793 I am going to fish this lake hard 421 00:23:12,793 --> 00:23:14,448 and hopefully catch a bottomfish, 422 00:23:14,551 --> 00:23:17,206 you know, some pike, some burbot. 423 00:23:17,206 --> 00:23:19,827 In case you're not familiar with a gorge hook, 424 00:23:19,931 --> 00:23:22,482 you sharpen both ends. 425 00:23:22,586 --> 00:23:27,034 And a fish doesn't chew; a fish just sucks it in. 426 00:23:27,034 --> 00:23:29,448 And so it goes in, and then it twists, 427 00:23:29,448 --> 00:23:33,655 and it lodges down inside of the fish. 428 00:23:33,655 --> 00:23:36,448 So going primitive. 429 00:23:36,448 --> 00:23:39,931 And primitive is sometimes a little bit more brutal, 430 00:23:39,931 --> 00:23:44,000 but usually a very successful way of fishing passively. 431 00:23:44,103 --> 00:23:45,379 [bird caws] 432 00:23:49,965 --> 00:23:51,103 Love them things. 433 00:23:51,103 --> 00:23:52,103 [bird caws] 434 00:23:52,103 --> 00:23:54,413 Back home, I have a family of jays 435 00:23:54,517 --> 00:23:56,344 that I've been feeding for years. 436 00:23:56,344 --> 00:23:58,000 [gentle music] 437 00:23:58,000 --> 00:24:00,137 I hear ya. 438 00:24:00,137 --> 00:24:02,517 Ooh, that's on there good. 439 00:24:02,620 --> 00:24:04,586 See it? 440 00:24:04,689 --> 00:24:07,517 One of the biggest decisions we made as a family 441 00:24:07,620 --> 00:24:09,689 was moving to Alaska. 442 00:24:09,689 --> 00:24:13,551 OK, gorge hook number one. 443 00:24:13,551 --> 00:24:16,379 We had two children, at the time, living at home, 444 00:24:16,482 --> 00:24:17,965 in Central Oregon. 445 00:24:17,965 --> 00:24:20,379 We had a successful masonry company. 446 00:24:20,379 --> 00:24:23,034 But we had found ourselves 447 00:24:23,137 --> 00:24:25,034 getting caught up in a lifestyle 448 00:24:25,137 --> 00:24:27,448 of money was the most important. 449 00:24:27,551 --> 00:24:31,655 And we were losing the priority of our family. 450 00:24:31,655 --> 00:24:35,103 Living remote, the first couple months, 451 00:24:35,206 --> 00:24:37,034 I can't believe our marriage survived. 452 00:24:37,034 --> 00:24:39,758 I can't believe we physically survived. 453 00:24:39,862 --> 00:24:43,275 We had to learn to-- to do it all on our own. 454 00:24:43,275 --> 00:24:45,448 Just do a couple more. 455 00:24:45,448 --> 00:24:46,758 But everything was about 456 00:24:46,862 --> 00:24:49,103 bringing the family back together. 457 00:24:49,103 --> 00:24:51,137 It's a lot easier to be focused on someone 458 00:24:51,137 --> 00:24:52,931 when you go sit around a campfire 459 00:24:52,931 --> 00:24:56,137 and have a river trickle behind you. 460 00:24:56,137 --> 00:24:59,172 The outdoors just helped unify us. 461 00:24:59,172 --> 00:25:02,034 Everything was together outside. 462 00:25:02,034 --> 00:25:05,241 ♪ 463 00:25:05,241 --> 00:25:09,482 That's what I have going, gorge hooks. 464 00:25:09,586 --> 00:25:11,689 And that's pretty cool. 465 00:25:11,689 --> 00:25:14,655 I'm gonna get baited up. 466 00:25:14,655 --> 00:25:18,965 In Alaska, I started to become at peace with myself as well, 467 00:25:18,965 --> 00:25:23,379 which has been an ongoing battle my entire life. 468 00:25:23,482 --> 00:25:25,034 ♪ ♪ 469 00:25:25,137 --> 00:25:28,586 Where did I put my bait? 470 00:25:28,586 --> 00:25:32,000 I wrapped my bait in spruce boughs. 471 00:25:32,000 --> 00:25:33,379 Oop, there it is. 472 00:25:33,379 --> 00:25:34,586 Fell down again. 473 00:25:34,586 --> 00:25:36,206 [grunts softly] 474 00:25:37,620 --> 00:25:40,827 [gasps] Oh, my God! 475 00:25:40,827 --> 00:25:42,827 Did something come and eat my bait? 476 00:25:42,827 --> 00:25:45,724 [suspenseful music] 477 00:25:45,724 --> 00:25:48,034 You ass[bleep]! 478 00:25:51,965 --> 00:25:53,310 [soft tense music] 479 00:25:53,310 --> 00:25:55,310 Oh, my God! 480 00:25:55,310 --> 00:25:57,172 How's that even possible? 481 00:25:57,275 --> 00:25:59,758 [quietly] No. 482 00:25:59,862 --> 00:26:02,862 Did something come and eat my bait? 483 00:26:02,965 --> 00:26:04,896 This [bleep] was secure. 484 00:26:05,000 --> 00:26:07,034 And I hung it. 485 00:26:07,034 --> 00:26:10,206 It had to have been a damn bird. 486 00:26:10,206 --> 00:26:11,724 Canadian jays? 487 00:26:13,000 --> 00:26:15,482 Well, they picked it clean. 488 00:26:15,586 --> 00:26:19,310 You ass[bleep]! 489 00:26:19,310 --> 00:26:21,103 Needed that bait. 490 00:26:21,103 --> 00:26:23,172 [sighs] 491 00:26:23,275 --> 00:26:26,103 This is a bit of a serious setback. 492 00:26:26,103 --> 00:26:30,068 Let me tend to my fire, 493 00:26:30,068 --> 00:26:32,965 calm the [bleep] down. 494 00:26:32,965 --> 00:26:34,655 I'm coming to the end of my bird. 495 00:26:34,758 --> 00:26:39,172 And using some of my meat for bait isn't an option. 496 00:26:39,172 --> 00:26:41,275 I need to eat that meat. 497 00:26:41,379 --> 00:26:43,206 I cannot believe that happened. 498 00:26:43,206 --> 00:26:47,034 That was a lot of bait that I desperately needed for fish. 499 00:26:47,034 --> 00:26:49,655 [sighs] 500 00:26:49,758 --> 00:26:51,068 I'll figure it out. 501 00:26:51,172 --> 00:26:53,241 Stay positive and figure it out. 502 00:26:53,241 --> 00:26:54,793 It's all I can do. 503 00:26:54,793 --> 00:26:58,586 ♪ ♪ 504 00:26:58,689 --> 00:27:01,965 I've spent my life beating myself down. 505 00:27:01,965 --> 00:27:06,793 And it comes to life when I make mistakes-- 506 00:27:06,793 --> 00:27:09,758 See if I could flush a grouse or ptarmigan 507 00:27:09,758 --> 00:27:13,241 out of this row of spruce. 508 00:27:13,241 --> 00:27:15,655 Out here, when something goes wrong, 509 00:27:15,655 --> 00:27:19,275 it's going to bring that battle to the forefront. 510 00:27:19,275 --> 00:27:23,068 If I don't improve on it out here, it's gonna break me. 511 00:27:23,068 --> 00:27:24,724 What is that? 512 00:27:24,827 --> 00:27:28,137 [soft music] 513 00:27:28,241 --> 00:27:29,758 Are those boletes? 514 00:27:29,862 --> 00:27:32,482 God, they're huge! 515 00:27:32,482 --> 00:27:34,862 Wow. 516 00:27:34,862 --> 00:27:37,275 I have never in my life 517 00:27:37,275 --> 00:27:41,310 come across a bolete batch like this. 518 00:27:41,310 --> 00:27:43,172 I'm gorging myself on mushrooms. 519 00:27:46,413 --> 00:27:50,241 Unbelievable. 520 00:27:50,344 --> 00:27:52,448 My daughter and my granddaughter, 521 00:27:52,448 --> 00:27:56,310 they have picked up behaviors from me... 522 00:27:56,413 --> 00:27:59,655 Oh, my God, there's another bolete patch. 523 00:27:59,655 --> 00:28:03,931 The insecurity, the inability to make a mistake. 524 00:28:03,931 --> 00:28:05,655 Unbelievable. 525 00:28:05,758 --> 00:28:10,517 I need to show them that it's OK to make mistakes. 526 00:28:10,517 --> 00:28:12,413 It doesn't make you less than. 527 00:28:12,413 --> 00:28:15,413 In fact, it makes you stronger that you could push through. 528 00:28:15,413 --> 00:28:17,793 Just keep trying. Don't give up. 529 00:28:17,793 --> 00:28:20,206 That one's beautiful. 530 00:28:20,206 --> 00:28:22,275 Wow. 531 00:28:22,379 --> 00:28:24,241 Unbelievable! 532 00:28:24,241 --> 00:28:27,310 Large amount of food. 533 00:28:27,413 --> 00:28:32,896 I am focused on making sure my thoughts stay positive. 534 00:28:32,896 --> 00:28:34,482 No luck on the birds. 535 00:28:34,482 --> 00:28:39,000 But we'll figure that out later. 536 00:28:39,103 --> 00:28:42,000 [determined music] 537 00:28:42,103 --> 00:28:48,793 ♪ ♪ 538 00:28:54,793 --> 00:28:57,034 Uh, I'm about to get up. 539 00:28:57,034 --> 00:29:00,275 Been lying around a lot today, not feeling too good. 540 00:29:02,275 --> 00:29:06,103 I've got a burning ball of fire in my belly. 541 00:29:08,517 --> 00:29:10,448 I got some worries on my mind but-- 542 00:29:10,448 --> 00:29:13,344 [tense music] 543 00:29:13,344 --> 00:29:15,206 [exhales] 544 00:29:15,310 --> 00:29:19,344 ♪ ♪ 545 00:29:19,344 --> 00:29:22,620 We'll see how they work out, I guess. 546 00:29:22,724 --> 00:29:24,655 You can't plan on everything. 547 00:29:24,758 --> 00:29:27,413 You can't say, "Well, today is a good day to feel bad" 548 00:29:27,413 --> 00:29:29,275 or "Today is a good day to feel good." 549 00:29:29,379 --> 00:29:30,724 [bleep] happens, 550 00:29:30,827 --> 00:29:33,275 and you just gotta deal with it as you get to it. 551 00:29:33,275 --> 00:29:36,275 All right. [sniffles] 552 00:29:36,275 --> 00:29:39,689 Let's nibble on a little bit of grouse. 553 00:29:39,689 --> 00:29:42,827 I'm not hungry at all. 554 00:29:42,827 --> 00:29:45,413 But I'm not gonna let it waste. 555 00:29:45,517 --> 00:29:49,862 There's so much more to see, to do, to experience here. 556 00:29:49,862 --> 00:29:53,379 So I need to keep pushing through. 557 00:29:53,379 --> 00:29:56,172 I'm just gonna go ahead and force myself to eat. 558 00:30:10,862 --> 00:30:14,517 [stomach gurgling] 559 00:30:14,620 --> 00:30:15,896 God. 560 00:30:19,586 --> 00:30:23,344 I will not kill nothing else until this gets settled. 561 00:30:28,758 --> 00:30:30,551 All right. 562 00:30:32,241 --> 00:30:34,827 My stomach feels like [bleep]. 563 00:30:34,931 --> 00:30:37,172 We're gonna go for us a little walkabout. 564 00:30:37,172 --> 00:30:40,965 Maybe it'll stretch out or something. 565 00:30:40,965 --> 00:30:47,103 ♪ 566 00:30:47,206 --> 00:30:49,793 [sighs] Still burns. 567 00:30:49,793 --> 00:30:53,068 It's got me worried to death... 568 00:30:53,068 --> 00:30:55,793 If this is something serious. 569 00:30:55,793 --> 00:30:58,620 [groaning] Oh, God. 570 00:30:58,620 --> 00:31:00,896 [exhales] 571 00:31:00,896 --> 00:31:04,137 Makes it hard to walk. 572 00:31:04,137 --> 00:31:05,758 I'm gon' turn this off. 573 00:31:05,758 --> 00:31:08,551 I ain't gon' make y'all watch me suffer. 574 00:31:08,551 --> 00:31:15,620 ♪ 575 00:31:25,896 --> 00:31:27,931 All right, guys. 576 00:31:29,862 --> 00:31:34,310 I'm gonna reveal... 577 00:31:34,310 --> 00:31:36,103 my worries that I've had 578 00:31:36,103 --> 00:31:37,275 for the last couple days 579 00:31:37,275 --> 00:31:39,413 because they're not getting better. 580 00:31:41,172 --> 00:31:43,620 I've hid it... 581 00:31:43,724 --> 00:31:45,758 and it's embarrassing. 582 00:31:45,758 --> 00:31:47,068 [sniffles] 583 00:31:47,172 --> 00:31:50,310 But I haven't used the bathroom in ten days. 584 00:31:53,379 --> 00:31:56,517 The burning pain, it's not getting better. 585 00:31:56,620 --> 00:31:58,896 I mean, what am I gonna get out of it? 586 00:31:58,896 --> 00:32:02,379 Possibly put in the hospital, possibly surgery. 587 00:32:02,482 --> 00:32:09,172 ♪ ♪ 588 00:32:09,172 --> 00:32:10,689 [voice breaking] This is one of the hardest things 589 00:32:10,689 --> 00:32:13,206 I've ever done in my life. 590 00:32:13,206 --> 00:32:17,241 ♪ ♪ 591 00:32:17,344 --> 00:32:21,379 I'm throwing something away that I'll never get back. 592 00:32:21,379 --> 00:32:22,655 [phone beeps] 593 00:32:22,758 --> 00:32:24,827 ♪ ♪ 594 00:32:24,827 --> 00:32:26,931 This is Dusty. 595 00:32:27,034 --> 00:32:29,344 I'm officially tap-- 596 00:32:29,448 --> 00:32:31,655 I'm officially tappin' out. 597 00:32:31,655 --> 00:32:34,344 [thunder rumbling] 598 00:32:34,448 --> 00:32:38,275 ♪ ♪ 599 00:32:47,689 --> 00:32:54,413 ♪ 600 00:32:56,172 --> 00:32:59,862 I don't know if it's nerves or what's going on, 601 00:32:59,862 --> 00:33:02,172 if I ate the wrong kind of berries or something, 602 00:33:02,275 --> 00:33:06,896 but I haven't... went to the bathroom in ten days. 603 00:33:06,896 --> 00:33:08,137 [chuckles] 604 00:33:08,137 --> 00:33:11,551 And I've got a ball of fire right here. 605 00:33:11,551 --> 00:33:14,758 My wife said she didn't care how long I stayed, 606 00:33:14,758 --> 00:33:17,965 just come home in one piece. 607 00:33:17,965 --> 00:33:21,413 And, uh, I'd rather walk out now 608 00:33:21,413 --> 00:33:25,517 instead of y'all carrying me out. 609 00:33:25,620 --> 00:33:28,551 I'll have to live without the money. 610 00:33:28,551 --> 00:33:31,241 I have for 35 years. 611 00:33:31,241 --> 00:33:34,241 I'm just proud that I've actually 612 00:33:34,241 --> 00:33:37,413 went on the adventure, like, got out. 613 00:33:37,413 --> 00:33:40,137 This is the first time I've ever been... 614 00:33:40,241 --> 00:33:43,551 anywheres in life. 615 00:33:43,655 --> 00:33:46,103 Uh, means a lot to me. 616 00:33:46,103 --> 00:33:49,103 [soft dramatic music] 617 00:33:49,103 --> 00:33:51,758 ♪ 618 00:33:51,758 --> 00:33:54,172 I'm very glad that I come out here to attempt this. 619 00:33:54,172 --> 00:33:56,103 I wish it would have went better for me. 620 00:33:56,103 --> 00:33:57,965 But I don't need the money. 621 00:33:57,965 --> 00:34:01,068 As long as I got my family, I'm happy. 622 00:34:01,068 --> 00:34:02,896 But this place, 623 00:34:02,896 --> 00:34:06,655 it's made me open my eyes to a lot of stuff. 624 00:34:06,655 --> 00:34:08,482 You know, I always said, "Where I was born, 625 00:34:08,482 --> 00:34:11,482 it's just the perfect place for me." 626 00:34:11,482 --> 00:34:14,310 But I was living in my dream world. 627 00:34:14,310 --> 00:34:15,655 This place is beautiful. 628 00:34:15,655 --> 00:34:17,206 It's just true wild. 629 00:34:17,310 --> 00:34:19,551 It shows me that there is a lot more out there 630 00:34:19,551 --> 00:34:21,517 than just my home. 631 00:34:21,517 --> 00:34:23,206 I think, at least once a year, 632 00:34:23,310 --> 00:34:25,620 that me and my family needs to make plans 633 00:34:25,724 --> 00:34:27,551 on going different places, 634 00:34:27,551 --> 00:34:29,206 seeing different things, 635 00:34:29,206 --> 00:34:31,034 and enjoying life a little bit more. 636 00:34:31,137 --> 00:34:34,172 So I may have tapped, 637 00:34:34,172 --> 00:34:36,413 but I didn't lose. 638 00:34:36,413 --> 00:34:39,034 ♪ 639 00:34:43,000 --> 00:34:45,896 [tense music] 640 00:34:45,896 --> 00:34:52,931 ♪ 641 00:35:09,103 --> 00:35:10,689 Oh, yeah, look at this. 642 00:35:10,689 --> 00:35:12,068 Do the happy dance this morning. 643 00:35:12,068 --> 00:35:13,275 Whoo-hoo. 644 00:35:14,724 --> 00:35:16,862 Well, oh, down to the bare buff 645 00:35:16,862 --> 00:35:19,586 and enjoy the sun. 646 00:35:19,689 --> 00:35:22,551 Oh, yeah. 647 00:35:22,551 --> 00:35:24,689 I got a nice bit of work done with the stove. 648 00:35:24,689 --> 00:35:26,000 Really happy with that. 649 00:35:26,103 --> 00:35:28,000 Looking forward to grouse. 650 00:35:30,620 --> 00:35:32,862 [grunts] Oh, yeah. 651 00:35:32,965 --> 00:35:35,034 Right now, I'm sweating more 'cause I'm working harder. 652 00:35:35,137 --> 00:35:37,586 And staying dry out here is gonna be key 653 00:35:37,586 --> 00:35:38,931 for staying here long-term. 654 00:35:38,931 --> 00:35:40,241 You don't wanna get no sores on your feet 655 00:35:40,241 --> 00:35:41,620 or anything, no chafes. 656 00:35:41,620 --> 00:35:43,206 I only got two pairs. 657 00:35:43,206 --> 00:35:45,896 And so I really enjoy taking clothes off 658 00:35:46,000 --> 00:35:48,275 and drying everything out as much as I can. 659 00:35:48,275 --> 00:35:51,137 But it's also a mental thing. 660 00:35:51,241 --> 00:35:52,931 I'm not, like, a overly religious person. 661 00:35:53,034 --> 00:35:54,344 I like to follow certain customs and things 662 00:35:54,448 --> 00:35:56,310 that my grandmother taught me, but... 663 00:36:01,413 --> 00:36:04,310 [peaceful music] 664 00:36:04,310 --> 00:36:06,827 ♪ ♪ 665 00:36:06,827 --> 00:36:09,344 Oh, my legs is getting cold. 666 00:36:16,448 --> 00:36:20,310 ♪ 667 00:36:20,310 --> 00:36:22,758 I got a good food cache up there on the hill. 668 00:36:22,862 --> 00:36:25,275 I'll get the grouse in a second, 669 00:36:25,275 --> 00:36:27,965 do my cooking. 670 00:36:28,068 --> 00:36:29,793 Oh. 671 00:36:29,896 --> 00:36:31,586 What the frig? 672 00:36:31,689 --> 00:36:33,000 This, right here, is not 673 00:36:33,103 --> 00:36:35,034 something I was expecting to see. 674 00:36:35,137 --> 00:36:37,517 [ominous music] 675 00:36:37,517 --> 00:36:38,931 Look at that. 676 00:36:38,931 --> 00:36:42,827 Feathers... 677 00:36:42,931 --> 00:36:44,758 feathers. 678 00:36:44,758 --> 00:36:49,448 ♪ 679 00:36:49,551 --> 00:36:51,275 Oh, my God. 680 00:36:51,379 --> 00:36:53,241 [bleep]. 681 00:36:53,241 --> 00:36:54,413 Empty. 682 00:36:54,413 --> 00:36:57,448 [dramatic music] 683 00:36:57,448 --> 00:36:59,275 Feathers. 684 00:37:01,172 --> 00:37:04,413 Greedy bugger. Never left a scrap. 685 00:37:04,517 --> 00:37:06,724 Food, out here, I think the only safe place 686 00:37:06,724 --> 00:37:08,172 is in your belly. 687 00:37:08,172 --> 00:37:09,551 It's one thing, getting food. 688 00:37:09,551 --> 00:37:13,103 But looking after it is almost a bigger challenge. 689 00:37:13,206 --> 00:37:14,793 Sometimes I succeed. 690 00:37:14,793 --> 00:37:16,827 And I thought this was one of the safest places I had. 691 00:37:19,034 --> 00:37:22,793 ♪ 692 00:37:22,793 --> 00:37:25,793 [tense music] 693 00:37:25,793 --> 00:37:32,896 ♪ ♪ 694 00:37:37,931 --> 00:37:40,827 I think about how little I've eaten over the last week. 695 00:37:40,931 --> 00:37:42,551 And I feel hungry. 696 00:37:42,551 --> 00:37:46,620 But I don't feel, like, hunger pains. 697 00:37:46,620 --> 00:37:48,758 But I'm getting sick of berries. 698 00:37:48,758 --> 00:37:50,965 I need some meat. 699 00:37:50,965 --> 00:37:53,965 [soft music] 700 00:37:53,965 --> 00:37:57,206 ♪ ♪ 701 00:37:57,206 --> 00:38:00,275 Nothing, except a big tangle. 702 00:38:00,275 --> 00:38:03,275 I think something got in it and got out. 703 00:38:06,517 --> 00:38:07,931 Pretty big disappointment. 704 00:38:12,413 --> 00:38:15,827 I'm going to move it to another spot. 705 00:38:15,827 --> 00:38:18,655 I've gotta find some deeper water, I think. 706 00:38:18,758 --> 00:38:21,068 [tense music] 707 00:38:21,068 --> 00:38:25,068 My dad used to say, "Life is a series of choices. 708 00:38:25,068 --> 00:38:29,034 "When something doesn't work, you move on to something else. 709 00:38:29,034 --> 00:38:33,758 Never give up trying." 710 00:38:33,862 --> 00:38:36,172 My father was a civil engineer. 711 00:38:36,275 --> 00:38:40,965 When I was a toddler, he would take me to work with him. 712 00:38:40,965 --> 00:38:43,517 He'd be running a survey crew through the woods, 713 00:38:43,517 --> 00:38:45,896 and he'd just turn me loose. 714 00:38:45,896 --> 00:38:48,310 I learned all of the sounds of nature. 715 00:38:48,310 --> 00:38:50,241 I observed animals. 716 00:38:50,344 --> 00:38:52,586 Nice and easy. 717 00:38:52,689 --> 00:38:54,034 I'd come home with a pet... 718 00:38:54,137 --> 00:38:56,034 [laughs] Like a fox. 719 00:38:56,034 --> 00:38:58,827 And my dad would let me hang on to it for a little while. 720 00:38:58,827 --> 00:39:01,689 And then he'd say, "OK, it's time to put 'em back." 721 00:39:01,689 --> 00:39:03,655 All right, we'll see what happens. 722 00:39:03,655 --> 00:39:05,310 That's what laid the foundation 723 00:39:05,310 --> 00:39:09,551 for pretty much everything I enjoy in life. 724 00:39:09,551 --> 00:39:12,482 So I'm going to leave it in overnight. 725 00:39:12,482 --> 00:39:17,551 It's a little bit deeper there than in other places around me. 726 00:39:17,551 --> 00:39:20,931 All right. On to laundry. 727 00:39:20,931 --> 00:39:26,586 ♪ ♪ 728 00:39:26,586 --> 00:39:28,689 So what I'm gonna do to wash my clothes, 729 00:39:28,793 --> 00:39:32,275 I'm just gonna boil 'em. 730 00:39:32,379 --> 00:39:34,068 I can't fit-- [chuckles] 731 00:39:34,068 --> 00:39:36,068 I can't fit a sweater in a two-quart pot. 732 00:39:36,068 --> 00:39:42,000 But I can wash my underwear in there. 733 00:39:42,103 --> 00:39:46,172 I can't believe that I didn't catch anything today. 734 00:39:46,275 --> 00:39:51,586 But you just... go on to the next thing. 735 00:39:52,931 --> 00:39:56,103 My dad had a deep understanding 736 00:39:56,103 --> 00:39:57,724 of the importance 737 00:39:57,724 --> 00:40:02,068 of letting somebody scrape their knee, fall down, 738 00:40:02,172 --> 00:40:05,034 and pick themselves back up. 739 00:40:05,137 --> 00:40:07,241 This'll burn better. 740 00:40:07,241 --> 00:40:10,034 He didn't coddle me 741 00:40:10,034 --> 00:40:13,482 and encouraged me to go out into the unknown. 742 00:40:13,482 --> 00:40:16,862 I forgot to bring gloves. 743 00:40:16,862 --> 00:40:19,241 I learned, in survival, 744 00:40:19,241 --> 00:40:22,137 things are never going to go the way you plan. 745 00:40:22,241 --> 00:40:24,896 ♪ ♪ 746 00:40:24,896 --> 00:40:28,103 All right, now we're finally boiling. 747 00:40:28,103 --> 00:40:31,137 So I think what I'll do 748 00:40:31,137 --> 00:40:33,206 is just drop them in there for a minute. 749 00:40:33,310 --> 00:40:37,931 ♪ ♪ 750 00:40:41,586 --> 00:40:43,241 [sizzles] Aah, [bleep]! 751 00:40:43,344 --> 00:40:45,000 ♪ ♪ 752 00:40:48,965 --> 00:40:49,827 [tense music] 753 00:40:49,965 --> 00:40:51,793 All right, now we're finally boiling. 754 00:40:51,793 --> 00:40:53,862 ♪ 755 00:40:57,551 --> 00:40:59,827 [sizzles] Aah, [bleep]! 756 00:40:59,827 --> 00:41:06,724 ♪ 757 00:41:06,724 --> 00:41:09,206 Well, that was smart. [groans] 758 00:41:09,310 --> 00:41:14,827 ♪ ♪ 759 00:41:19,448 --> 00:41:21,034 Burned both hands. 760 00:41:25,068 --> 00:41:27,724 It's weird. It, like, took the... 761 00:41:29,689 --> 00:41:31,517 Top layer of skin off. 762 00:41:31,620 --> 00:41:31,655 [groans softly] 763 00:41:32,068 --> 00:41:34,517 [groans softly] 764 00:41:34,517 --> 00:41:37,793 It's getting swollen. 765 00:41:37,896 --> 00:41:40,655 Kind of numb, actually. 766 00:41:43,379 --> 00:41:45,586 Usually when I take my pot off of the fire, 767 00:41:45,689 --> 00:41:47,344 I use a leather glove. 768 00:41:47,344 --> 00:41:49,827 But I left my glove up at camp. 769 00:41:49,827 --> 00:41:52,206 So I took a handful of grass and wadded it up 770 00:41:52,206 --> 00:41:55,103 and used that as a oven mitt. 771 00:41:55,206 --> 00:41:58,275 When I did that, the handle of my pot scorched 772 00:41:58,379 --> 00:42:00,896 its way through the grass and into my hand. 773 00:42:00,896 --> 00:42:06,689 That made me spill that pot of water straight onto my hand. 774 00:42:06,689 --> 00:42:08,620 All right. [sighs] 775 00:42:08,724 --> 00:42:10,896 ♪ ♪ 776 00:42:10,896 --> 00:42:17,379 Lesson in... doing laundry in the sticks is 777 00:42:17,379 --> 00:42:21,103 don't burn your frickin' hand. 778 00:42:21,206 --> 00:42:23,034 Stupid. 779 00:42:23,034 --> 00:42:26,482 ♪ ♪ 780 00:42:26,586 --> 00:42:29,310 [groans] 781 00:42:29,413 --> 00:42:30,862 Quit being such a baby, Jake. 782 00:42:30,862 --> 00:42:32,103 [sighs] 783 00:42:35,689 --> 00:42:37,137 What's the matter, never you-- 784 00:42:37,241 --> 00:42:39,551 never had a third-degree burn before? 785 00:42:39,655 --> 00:42:41,758 Oh, man. 786 00:42:41,758 --> 00:42:45,931 This is gonna be a lot of fun out here, 787 00:42:45,931 --> 00:42:48,241 trying to shoot my bow with that. 788 00:42:48,344 --> 00:42:51,551 Pa-chow. [laughs] 789 00:42:51,551 --> 00:42:55,103 One careless act. 790 00:42:55,206 --> 00:43:00,862 So I need to wrap pretty much the whole half of my hand. 791 00:43:00,965 --> 00:43:04,551 My hand is really starting to ache now. 792 00:43:04,655 --> 00:43:07,689 But I am not going to stop working. 793 00:43:07,689 --> 00:43:09,275 [grunts] 794 00:43:09,275 --> 00:43:11,586 What I learned most from my dad 795 00:43:11,689 --> 00:43:15,310 is that it's OK to be uncomfortable. 796 00:43:15,310 --> 00:43:20,448 And you're capable of doing very difficult things 797 00:43:20,551 --> 00:43:24,000 if you just make the decision that you can grit your teeth 798 00:43:24,000 --> 00:43:29,482 and put up with pain and put yourself aside. 799 00:43:29,586 --> 00:43:30,896 About seven years ago, 800 00:43:31,000 --> 00:43:34,862 he went in for a cataract surgery. 801 00:43:34,862 --> 00:43:37,689 And surgery went fine. 802 00:43:37,689 --> 00:43:40,862 And he was in the recovery room. 803 00:43:40,862 --> 00:43:45,068 And his heart stopped. 804 00:43:45,068 --> 00:43:48,379 And I got a phone call from my mom. 805 00:43:48,482 --> 00:43:50,931 And so I jumped in my car. 806 00:43:50,931 --> 00:43:54,103 And they were doing CPR on him. 807 00:43:54,103 --> 00:43:56,724 And no matter what they did, 808 00:43:56,724 --> 00:44:01,551 they couldn't get him jumpstarted again. 809 00:44:01,655 --> 00:44:05,517 After a half an hour of that, my mom and I had a talk, 810 00:44:05,620 --> 00:44:10,655 and we told the doctors to let him go. 811 00:44:10,655 --> 00:44:14,965 And I held my dad while he passed away. 812 00:44:14,965 --> 00:44:18,551 And I think about this situation that I'm in. 813 00:44:18,551 --> 00:44:21,758 And I want to be my father's son. 814 00:44:21,758 --> 00:44:24,482 And so no matter what, I'm just gonna tough it out. 815 00:44:24,482 --> 00:44:26,517 OK. 816 00:44:26,517 --> 00:44:28,827 Pretty demoralizing. 817 00:44:28,827 --> 00:44:34,689 Making mistakes out here is not sustainable. 818 00:44:37,034 --> 00:44:40,793 But anyway, I'm done thinking about it. 819 00:44:47,137 --> 00:44:54,137 ♪ 820 00:45:07,413 --> 00:45:09,137 This is my perch. 821 00:45:09,241 --> 00:45:12,793 It's as high as I can get around here. 822 00:45:12,793 --> 00:45:14,862 And I come down and I stand here. 823 00:45:14,862 --> 00:45:19,862 And I survey everything around me, 824 00:45:19,862 --> 00:45:22,137 but especially over there, 825 00:45:22,137 --> 00:45:25,758 where a moose could be likely to be... 826 00:45:26,655 --> 00:45:29,655 [sighs] 827 00:45:29,758 --> 00:45:33,827 Across that waterway, right over there. 828 00:45:36,206 --> 00:45:39,551 The feeling of defeat that settled in was beyond words. 829 00:45:39,551 --> 00:45:41,896 I've never wanted an animal in my life 830 00:45:42,000 --> 00:45:44,862 as much as I wanted that bull moose. 831 00:45:44,862 --> 00:45:47,241 To increase my chances of getting a moose, 832 00:45:47,241 --> 00:45:50,275 I've been getting out into the edges of the meadow, 833 00:45:50,275 --> 00:45:52,448 where I've seen moose tracks cross. 834 00:45:55,241 --> 00:45:56,724 Instinct is just telling me, 835 00:45:56,724 --> 00:46:01,448 get there to where the moose are every morning. 836 00:46:01,551 --> 00:46:04,724 Nothing. All's quiet. 837 00:46:04,724 --> 00:46:06,137 Hm. 838 00:46:06,137 --> 00:46:08,620 [wind blowing] 839 00:46:08,620 --> 00:46:10,793 All right. 840 00:46:10,793 --> 00:46:14,482 [determined music] 841 00:46:14,586 --> 00:46:18,689 My plan today is to try to get a gill net in the water. 842 00:46:18,793 --> 00:46:20,241 There we go. 843 00:46:20,241 --> 00:46:22,379 I'm really gonna try to harness the power of the river 844 00:46:22,482 --> 00:46:23,896 to bring me food. 845 00:46:23,896 --> 00:46:25,896 I believe that the river could bring me as much meat 846 00:46:25,896 --> 00:46:27,965 as a moose carries on its feet. 847 00:46:27,965 --> 00:46:31,344 So I'm going long on river techniques and tactics 848 00:46:31,344 --> 00:46:36,172 and waiting for opportunities on big game. 849 00:46:36,172 --> 00:46:38,344 Happy birthday, Elliot. 850 00:46:38,344 --> 00:46:40,724 ♪ 851 00:46:40,724 --> 00:46:45,689 This gill net, which I'm making on your birthday, 852 00:46:45,793 --> 00:46:50,275 will be your part of this adventure. 853 00:46:52,034 --> 00:46:53,275 And it'll be a good part. 854 00:46:53,379 --> 00:46:58,241 I have faith that this'll really help to feed me. 855 00:46:58,241 --> 00:47:01,724 One big reason I want to do this is for my kids. 856 00:47:01,724 --> 00:47:04,206 Levi's the oldest. He's nine years old. 857 00:47:04,310 --> 00:47:07,241 Elliot is six years old. He turned six today. 858 00:47:07,344 --> 00:47:09,413 One stitch at a time. 859 00:47:09,413 --> 00:47:11,896 This, right here, takes a while. 860 00:47:12,000 --> 00:47:14,241 My boys' view of me scares me sometimes 861 00:47:14,344 --> 00:47:16,482 because, unfortunately, they think I'm perfect. 862 00:47:16,586 --> 00:47:19,517 And I want my kids to fully know me. 863 00:47:19,620 --> 00:47:21,413 I want them to be able to see me 864 00:47:21,413 --> 00:47:24,344 in ways that they wouldn't get to otherwise. 865 00:47:24,448 --> 00:47:26,517 We tend to hide our own struggles from our kids 866 00:47:26,620 --> 00:47:29,103 because we're trying to help them with theirs. 867 00:47:29,103 --> 00:47:31,896 And they may lose something because of that. 868 00:47:31,896 --> 00:47:34,793 But I know that I'll struggle out here. 869 00:47:34,896 --> 00:47:37,482 And I want them to see that. 870 00:47:37,482 --> 00:47:38,931 And I want them, at the end of the day, 871 00:47:38,931 --> 00:47:40,517 to be made stronger by it, 872 00:47:40,517 --> 00:47:43,137 and know that they fully know me 873 00:47:43,137 --> 00:47:46,724 and have seen me struggle and fall flat on my face and fail, 874 00:47:46,724 --> 00:47:49,931 but get up and face the next day. 875 00:47:51,344 --> 00:47:53,896 That's enough gillnetting for tonight. 876 00:47:54,000 --> 00:47:56,310 I didn't get it done. A little disappointed. 877 00:47:56,413 --> 00:47:59,827 But I'm gonna go run the fish lines and look around. 878 00:47:59,827 --> 00:48:01,724 Three more rows to tie tomorrow. 879 00:48:01,724 --> 00:48:04,586 ♪ ♪ 880 00:48:04,689 --> 00:48:07,379 I'm just checking some fish lines, 881 00:48:07,482 --> 00:48:10,379 quickly, before night. 882 00:48:10,379 --> 00:48:14,103 And I hope like crazy to have a fish on one of 'em. 883 00:48:14,103 --> 00:48:16,310 But from here, they all look slack. 884 00:48:16,310 --> 00:48:20,482 ♪ ♪ 885 00:48:20,586 --> 00:48:23,241 I didn't have the camera rolling. 886 00:48:23,241 --> 00:48:26,655 Look at this baby! 887 00:48:26,758 --> 00:48:28,931 [laughs] 888 00:48:29,034 --> 00:48:30,896 Yes! 889 00:48:31,000 --> 00:48:32,862 He's huge. 890 00:48:32,862 --> 00:48:34,965 I love it! 891 00:48:35,068 --> 00:48:37,448 ♪ ♪ 892 00:48:37,448 --> 00:48:41,310 All right, let's check these other lines. 893 00:48:41,310 --> 00:48:44,275 Oh, yeah, there's a fish on there. 894 00:48:44,275 --> 00:48:45,586 Come to Papa. 895 00:48:45,689 --> 00:48:49,172 Come, come, come, come, come. 896 00:48:49,172 --> 00:48:51,724 Yes! [laughs] 897 00:48:51,724 --> 00:48:53,793 Yeah! 898 00:48:53,793 --> 00:48:57,000 Thank you, Lord, for this beautiful fish. 899 00:48:57,000 --> 00:48:59,862 Tonight we feast. 900 00:48:59,965 --> 00:49:02,862 I'm almost overwhelmed by how much food I just got 901 00:49:02,862 --> 00:49:04,689 in the last 30 minutes. 902 00:49:04,689 --> 00:49:06,931 [grumbles playfully] 903 00:49:08,310 --> 00:49:10,172 Happy birthday, Elliot. 904 00:49:14,517 --> 00:49:17,551 [tense music] 905 00:49:17,551 --> 00:49:21,206 ♪ 906 00:49:22,965 --> 00:49:24,758 Oh boy. 907 00:49:24,758 --> 00:49:27,206 I have a big nosebleed. 908 00:49:28,655 --> 00:49:34,241 And I'm trying to collect it all 909 00:49:34,241 --> 00:49:37,344 until it stops so I can throw the leaves in the fire, 910 00:49:37,448 --> 00:49:40,413 and the blood will not be here to attract bears. 911 00:49:42,034 --> 00:49:45,310 It's weird. I haven't had a nosebleed since I was a kid. 912 00:49:47,379 --> 00:49:49,620 Plug that baby up. 913 00:49:49,724 --> 00:49:51,344 The bears will smell it and be like, 914 00:49:51,344 --> 00:49:54,000 "The hunter that lives here, 915 00:49:54,103 --> 00:49:59,206 "if he bleeds, he can be killed. 916 00:49:59,310 --> 00:50:02,379 He's a mere mortal after all." 917 00:50:02,379 --> 00:50:06,206 All right, I think it's stopping. 918 00:50:06,206 --> 00:50:08,758 Yeah, it might be stopped. 919 00:50:08,758 --> 00:50:11,241 OK, to work. 920 00:50:11,241 --> 00:50:14,034 I know what I shall do. 921 00:50:14,034 --> 00:50:16,206 Shelter logs. 922 00:50:16,206 --> 00:50:18,275 ♪ ♪ 923 00:50:18,275 --> 00:50:20,310 I have food security for a couple days. 924 00:50:20,413 --> 00:50:21,827 So my instincts are telling me that 925 00:50:21,827 --> 00:50:23,724 it's time to build a home. 926 00:50:23,827 --> 00:50:25,862 I have to finally select a site 927 00:50:25,862 --> 00:50:28,448 that I'm gonna try to put a shelter in here 928 00:50:28,448 --> 00:50:30,758 because it was a lot colder last night. 929 00:50:30,758 --> 00:50:33,137 And a lot colder weather will be coming soon. 930 00:50:33,137 --> 00:50:38,724 All right, it's time to start cutting trees for my home. 931 00:50:38,724 --> 00:50:41,655 I considered so many different shelter designs for this. 932 00:50:41,758 --> 00:50:43,620 And ultimately, what it's governed by 933 00:50:43,620 --> 00:50:45,517 is the materials that I see. 934 00:50:45,517 --> 00:50:47,413 [saw rasping] 935 00:50:47,413 --> 00:50:50,482 The materials that I see are huge logs. 936 00:50:50,586 --> 00:50:53,620 [brush crunching] 937 00:50:53,620 --> 00:50:57,068 So I'm gonna be making a typical lean-to. 938 00:50:57,068 --> 00:50:58,448 [groans] 939 00:51:00,241 --> 00:51:02,448 That's not good for your back. 940 00:51:04,000 --> 00:51:09,137 ♪ 941 00:51:09,137 --> 00:51:10,413 You might ask me, 942 00:51:10,413 --> 00:51:14,172 "Timber, why are you using such big trees? 943 00:51:14,172 --> 00:51:15,241 "Use smaller ones. 944 00:51:15,344 --> 00:51:19,068 They're more energy efficient to cut." 945 00:51:19,172 --> 00:51:21,482 Well, you're right. And I'd love to. 946 00:51:21,586 --> 00:51:25,827 There just aren't, but, like, six, 947 00:51:25,827 --> 00:51:27,896 and I've cut them. 948 00:51:28,000 --> 00:51:29,448 It's not the right way to conserve energy. 949 00:51:29,448 --> 00:51:32,241 But it's what I have to do. 950 00:51:32,241 --> 00:51:33,896 ♪ ♪ 951 00:51:33,896 --> 00:51:36,896 I'm basically building the attic of a cabin, 952 00:51:36,896 --> 00:51:42,103 with a wall in the back that's gonna be my fireplace. 953 00:51:42,103 --> 00:51:44,000 As I'm building, I know 954 00:51:44,103 --> 00:51:47,689 that it's not smart to use materials this big. 955 00:51:47,689 --> 00:51:49,000 [grunts] 956 00:51:49,103 --> 00:51:51,827 But I know that my body can build and build 957 00:51:51,931 --> 00:51:54,620 and build things for a long time. 958 00:51:54,724 --> 00:51:57,034 [grunting] 959 00:51:57,034 --> 00:51:59,689 From my upbringing, we survived largely 960 00:51:59,793 --> 00:52:01,931 by what we could grow in gardens. 961 00:52:02,034 --> 00:52:04,413 I remember a couple of years that 962 00:52:04,517 --> 00:52:06,551 we had a seven-acre field of corn. 963 00:52:06,551 --> 00:52:09,551 And two of my brothers and I had to take hoes, 964 00:52:09,551 --> 00:52:12,103 just work that seven-acre field, 965 00:52:12,103 --> 00:52:13,379 the whole seven acres, 966 00:52:13,379 --> 00:52:17,137 several times each summer with a hoe. 967 00:52:17,137 --> 00:52:18,827 We're talking seven-year-old boys, 968 00:52:18,931 --> 00:52:20,586 eight-year-old boys, you know? 969 00:52:20,586 --> 00:52:22,758 That's a daunting task. 970 00:52:22,758 --> 00:52:24,344 That'll teach you fortitude. 971 00:52:30,517 --> 00:52:35,931 Silas... 972 00:52:35,931 --> 00:52:39,344 if God'll let you see what's going on down here... 973 00:52:39,448 --> 00:52:43,379 [somber music] 974 00:52:43,482 --> 00:52:45,000 [sniffles] 975 00:52:45,103 --> 00:52:48,724 I wish you were right here with me right now, dude. 976 00:52:48,724 --> 00:52:50,965 [sniffles] 977 00:52:50,965 --> 00:52:53,793 'Cause you'd really like this land. 978 00:52:53,793 --> 00:52:58,620 My youngest brother drowned in June 2001. 979 00:52:58,620 --> 00:53:03,448 And that became such a loss for my family. 980 00:53:03,448 --> 00:53:05,275 One of the last things I did with my little brother 981 00:53:05,275 --> 00:53:07,310 was take him deer hunting and he killed his first deer 982 00:53:07,310 --> 00:53:10,793 with a recurve bow. And he was so happy. 983 00:53:10,896 --> 00:53:14,551 We won't make another one of those memories together. 984 00:53:14,551 --> 00:53:17,103 We won't go hunting again. 985 00:53:17,103 --> 00:53:19,724 So I have this struggle going on in my mind. 986 00:53:19,724 --> 00:53:22,172 So I've got you here in my heart, buddy. 987 00:53:22,172 --> 00:53:25,172 ♪ 988 00:53:25,172 --> 00:53:28,206 [tearfully] Couldn't ask for a better brother than you. 989 00:53:28,206 --> 00:53:33,172 ♪ 990 00:53:33,172 --> 00:53:36,482 Here in the Arctic, the solitude is different. 991 00:53:36,482 --> 00:53:38,931 And I've spent time in very desolate places 992 00:53:39,034 --> 00:53:41,689 in the mountains in Central Asia, very alone. 993 00:53:41,793 --> 00:53:43,724 But in the brain, 994 00:53:43,827 --> 00:53:46,793 it's different than being here. 995 00:53:46,896 --> 00:53:49,172 Every barrier in your mind, it crashes down. 996 00:53:49,275 --> 00:53:51,103 And you have to face things 997 00:53:51,103 --> 00:53:54,000 that you've never processed fully. 998 00:53:54,103 --> 00:53:55,724 Thoughts out here will tear up your mind 999 00:53:55,724 --> 00:53:57,793 'cause it's so quiet out here. 1000 00:53:57,896 --> 00:53:59,413 And so I'm wrestling with those. 1001 00:53:59,517 --> 00:54:00,965 And I'm trying to put those thoughts in the background. 1002 00:54:00,965 --> 00:54:04,689 But at the end of the day, that's tough. 1003 00:54:04,793 --> 00:54:07,931 No one around to hear me... 1004 00:54:08,034 --> 00:54:11,137 except God and the wilderness. 1005 00:54:11,241 --> 00:54:14,275 Look at my fortress! 1006 00:54:14,275 --> 00:54:17,241 [soft dramatic music] 1007 00:54:17,241 --> 00:54:24,000 ♪ ♪ 1008 00:54:26,827 --> 00:54:29,758 Gotta redress my burn. 1009 00:54:29,758 --> 00:54:33,000 I can't do 60% of what I was doing. 1010 00:54:33,586 --> 00:54:35,206 It's really important 1011 00:54:35,206 --> 00:54:38,793 that stuff does not get in there right now. 1012 00:54:38,793 --> 00:54:41,965 If bacteria were to get in there and I got infected, 1013 00:54:41,965 --> 00:54:43,655 this show'd be over. 1014 00:54:45,413 --> 00:54:50,655 Fighting infection out here is pretty unlikely. 1015 00:54:50,655 --> 00:54:53,517 OK. 1016 00:54:53,620 --> 00:54:57,068 Fresh new mummy hand. 1017 00:54:57,068 --> 00:54:59,965 [laughs] 1018 00:55:00,068 --> 00:55:02,379 Oh. 1019 00:55:03,413 --> 00:55:06,655 All right, let's go see if there's anything in the net. 1020 00:55:06,758 --> 00:55:08,793 ♪ ♪ 1021 00:55:08,793 --> 00:55:12,241 Having my hand burned, I can't shoot my bow, 1022 00:55:12,241 --> 00:55:17,310 which means that I really need to rely on fish. 1023 00:55:17,310 --> 00:55:18,758 When you step into nature, 1024 00:55:18,862 --> 00:55:20,862 everything else is stripped away 1025 00:55:20,862 --> 00:55:24,000 and you are a vulnerable animal. 1026 00:55:24,103 --> 00:55:26,551 Having that ego stripped away from me 1027 00:55:26,551 --> 00:55:29,137 is how I can start building from ground zero 1028 00:55:29,137 --> 00:55:32,758 and become a better person. 1029 00:55:32,758 --> 00:55:34,827 OK, fishies. 1030 00:55:34,931 --> 00:55:37,931 Are you in here at all? 1031 00:55:37,931 --> 00:55:39,931 ♪ ♪ 1032 00:55:39,931 --> 00:55:41,551 I don't believe it. 1033 00:55:41,551 --> 00:55:43,896 There's a pike in my net. 1034 00:55:44,000 --> 00:55:47,758 [laughing] Oh, my gosh. 1035 00:55:47,758 --> 00:55:51,482 Oh, there's two! [laughs] 1036 00:55:51,586 --> 00:55:53,034 Oh, my gosh! 1037 00:55:53,034 --> 00:55:56,068 [laughing] 1038 00:55:56,068 --> 00:55:58,310 Holy crap. 1039 00:55:58,310 --> 00:56:01,034 I am on such a high right now. 1040 00:56:01,137 --> 00:56:02,034 Got him. 1041 00:56:02,137 --> 00:56:05,931 My net finally produced. 1042 00:56:05,931 --> 00:56:09,620 Look at that pike. 1043 00:56:09,620 --> 00:56:12,689 That is food. 1044 00:56:12,793 --> 00:56:15,586 I'm feeling really confident. 1045 00:56:15,586 --> 00:56:19,655 That is a big boy. 1046 00:56:19,655 --> 00:56:21,689 I'm gonna process these pike 1047 00:56:21,689 --> 00:56:23,689 and put the net back in the water 1048 00:56:23,689 --> 00:56:25,724 and keep the fish coming in. 1049 00:56:25,724 --> 00:56:30,931 All I had to do was move my net to the right spot. 1050 00:56:30,931 --> 00:56:34,310 This is awesome. 1051 00:56:34,310 --> 00:56:36,379 This is a turning point for me. 1052 00:56:36,379 --> 00:56:39,275 Everything is going to be different now. 1053 00:56:39,275 --> 00:56:41,586 ♪ ♪ 1054 00:56:41,586 --> 00:56:44,793 I'm just gonna do a simple smoker. 1055 00:56:47,206 --> 00:56:49,448 I just want to get these fish smoked real quick 1056 00:56:49,448 --> 00:56:52,448 'cause I am hungry. 1057 00:56:52,448 --> 00:56:54,241 After my dad passed, 1058 00:56:54,241 --> 00:56:57,827 I went through a period of confusion, 1059 00:56:57,827 --> 00:57:00,241 of stepping into the unknown. 1060 00:57:00,241 --> 00:57:06,241 I went through a divorce, a very dark period of my life. 1061 00:57:06,344 --> 00:57:08,931 I had to make a decision. 1062 00:57:08,931 --> 00:57:13,758 And that decision was, who are you going to be? 1063 00:57:13,758 --> 00:57:16,862 Are you going to be your father's son? 1064 00:57:16,862 --> 00:57:22,448 Or are you going to let this beat you? 1065 00:57:22,448 --> 00:57:25,000 It wasn't an immediate decision. 1066 00:57:25,000 --> 00:57:30,172 It took me being able to find my path again. 1067 00:57:30,275 --> 00:57:34,517 And of all of my interests, all of my hobbies, 1068 00:57:34,517 --> 00:57:38,517 for me, fatherhood is my life's purpose. 1069 00:57:38,517 --> 00:57:41,586 Oh, look at the fat in that. 1070 00:57:41,689 --> 00:57:45,379 ♪ ♪ 1071 00:57:45,379 --> 00:57:47,896 [chuckles softly] 1072 00:57:47,896 --> 00:57:49,172 My kids have watched me 1073 00:57:49,172 --> 00:57:52,793 go through some very trying times. 1074 00:57:52,793 --> 00:57:56,241 This is so good. [chuckles] 1075 00:57:56,241 --> 00:58:01,551 The reason that I'm out here is because of how tough it is. 1076 00:58:01,655 --> 00:58:04,896 And if they can see me do this 1077 00:58:04,896 --> 00:58:07,586 and be successful, 1078 00:58:07,689 --> 00:58:11,310 I don't think I could ever ask for anything more valuable 1079 00:58:11,310 --> 00:58:13,655 to teach my kids as a father. 1080 00:58:13,758 --> 00:58:17,379 Mm, I've never gotten emotional over food before. 1081 00:58:17,379 --> 00:58:20,379 ♪ ♪ 1082 00:58:20,379 --> 00:58:22,862 Today was a good day. [chuckles softly] 1083 00:58:28,413 --> 00:58:31,482 [soft music] 1084 00:58:31,482 --> 00:58:35,172 ♪ 1085 00:58:38,068 --> 00:58:39,896 Oh, yeah, look at that. 1086 00:58:39,896 --> 00:58:42,241 Look at that, right there. 1087 00:58:42,241 --> 00:58:43,862 That will strengthen me today. 1088 00:58:43,862 --> 00:58:46,931 That's a good breakfast. 1089 00:58:46,931 --> 00:58:49,344 Thank you, God, for this delicious fish 1090 00:58:49,344 --> 00:58:51,965 that you keep on giving me. 1091 00:58:51,965 --> 00:58:54,517 Keep 'em coming. 1092 00:58:54,517 --> 00:58:57,689 You know, when I take a minute to not be stressed out 1093 00:58:57,793 --> 00:59:00,344 about what has to be done or whatever, 1094 00:59:00,344 --> 00:59:03,862 I realize that things are going really well. 1095 00:59:03,862 --> 00:59:05,758 I've got meat. 1096 00:59:05,862 --> 00:59:08,103 My shelter's well on its way to completion. 1097 00:59:08,103 --> 00:59:10,931 And I'm still alone in the Arctic. 1098 00:59:10,931 --> 00:59:12,482 And I love it. 1099 00:59:12,482 --> 00:59:15,931 ♪ 1100 00:59:15,931 --> 00:59:18,620 This is gonna be another gorgeous day. 1101 00:59:20,793 --> 00:59:26,000 It's a gift from God... to prepare for winter. 1102 00:59:28,482 --> 00:59:30,379 Gonna make the best of it. 1103 00:59:30,379 --> 00:59:32,172 [brush rustling] 1104 00:59:32,172 --> 00:59:35,172 [soft tense music] 1105 00:59:35,172 --> 00:59:37,517 Sounded like the gait of a moose. 1106 00:59:37,620 --> 00:59:44,655 ♪ ♪ 1107 00:59:53,689 --> 00:59:55,275 [wings beating] 1108 01:00:04,758 --> 01:00:05,931 [wood knocks] 1109 01:00:07,965 --> 01:00:11,517 [whispering] I heard something walking right out here. 1110 01:00:11,620 --> 01:00:15,068 And then the owl tried to chase me away again. 1111 01:00:15,172 --> 01:00:20,206 So I threw a few sticks off at it to shoo it off. 1112 01:00:20,206 --> 01:00:22,655 And I'ma peek my head out here and see what's out here, 1113 01:00:22,655 --> 01:00:24,103 if anything. 1114 01:00:24,103 --> 01:00:25,482 I definitely heard something. 1115 01:00:25,482 --> 01:00:32,551 ♪ 1116 01:00:35,000 --> 01:00:38,689 [brush rustling] 1117 01:00:41,379 --> 01:00:43,206 Oh, my goodness. 1118 01:00:43,310 --> 01:00:47,517 I see a moose, over in the far distance. 1119 01:00:47,517 --> 01:00:49,827 There. It's right there. 1120 01:00:49,931 --> 01:00:52,068 ♪ ♪ 1121 01:00:52,172 --> 01:00:54,172 Yeah, it's just standing there right now. 1122 01:01:15,241 --> 01:01:18,206 [exhilarating music] 1123 01:01:18,206 --> 01:01:25,241 ♪ 1124 01:01:38,275 --> 01:01:45,310 ♪ 1125 01:01:56,655 --> 01:01:59,620 [steadying breaths] 1126 01:01:59,620 --> 01:02:06,758 ♪ 1127 01:02:20,275 --> 01:02:25,137 [imitating moose call] 1128 01:02:25,793 --> 01:02:28,689 [soft tense music] 1129 01:02:28,793 --> 01:02:35,827 ♪ ♪ 1130 01:02:43,655 --> 01:02:46,172 [whispers] God, please help me kill this moose now. 1131 01:02:46,275 --> 01:02:53,275 ♪ ♪ 1132 01:03:00,172 --> 01:03:02,689 [vocalizing rhythmically] 1133 01:03:02,689 --> 01:03:04,482 I think this smoke's starting to make my head 1134 01:03:04,482 --> 01:03:06,482 go a little bit wrong. [groans] 1135 01:03:06,482 --> 01:03:09,482 [distant screeching] - What the heck? 1136 01:03:11,103 --> 01:03:13,137 Hey. [wings fluttering] 1137 01:03:13,137 --> 01:03:14,137 [bird screeches] 1138 01:03:14,137 --> 01:03:15,586 Oh, my God. 1139 01:03:15,689 --> 01:03:17,551 [whispering] It's about 60 yards away right now. 1140 01:03:17,551 --> 01:03:20,241 Everything for me this season could come down to this. 1141 01:03:20,344 --> 01:03:21,586 [imitates moose call] 1142 01:03:21,586 --> 01:03:25,241 [wolves howling] - They're really close. 1143 01:03:25,344 --> 01:03:26,793 I don't want to get my face eaten off. 1144 01:03:26,793 --> 01:03:29,448 [wolf pack howling] 1145 01:03:29,551 --> 01:03:34,551 ♪ ♪