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Ah.
Ow.
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Having my hand burned,
I can't shoot my bow,
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which means that
I really need to rely on fish.
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Look at that guy.
He's huge.
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Oh, my gosh.
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Oh, there's two.
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I am attempting to
make the warmest shelter
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this show's seen.
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Everyone knows Rock House.
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I think I can outdo it.
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Wow.
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The more I get into my body,
the longer I last.
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This will be half the pike
in this pot.
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Oh, my berry breakfast.
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Ah.
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First puke of "Alone."
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I haven't used
the bathroom in ten days.
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This is something serious.
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Oh, God.
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This is one of
the hardest things
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I've ever done in my life.
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I'm officially tapping out.
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God, please
help me kill this moose.
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I'm not tapping out.
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I'd rather die.
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Here goes nothing.
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Whoa!
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Yes!
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Holy [bleep].
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This is the harshest
location possible.
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We're 125 miles
in the Arctic Circle.
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I never had an environment
make me feel like
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a complete amateur before.
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Everything is
against us out here.
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Mother Nature
went and bitch slapped me.
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Looks like I got grizzlies
and wolves as my neighbors.
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Holy crap.
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They're just
hunting the shoreline.
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Mother Nature is about
to dim the lights on us.
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We're heading into
total darkness.
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- Hey, bear.
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The cold and the dark is
going to sap people's souls.
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It really makes you wonder
if it's worth it.
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There is no camera crew.
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There's no support system.
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I'm completely alone.
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Yes!
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People go in one way...
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Stop bleeding.
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And they come out
entirely different.
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This is the most difficult
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survival challenge
in the world.
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$500,000. That's completely
life-changing money.
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It's beautiful.
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Whoever can thrive
the longest...
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If they out here,
they ought to be afraid of me.
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Whoever can
push through it...
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- Wins.
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I hope I made the
right choice coming out here.
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God, please
help me kill this moose.
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It's about 60 yards away
right now.
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I can't believe it.
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Now I can sing and shout
and chop trees all I want to.
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I don't care
what the noise does.
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I don't care
how much noise I make.
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The biggest game here is down.
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It's clear to me
that God is with me.
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Oh, my goodness.
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It's a beast.
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This thing's bigger
than one of my horses.
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There's no way I can flip
this animal over, though.
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I'm gonna have to skin it off
the best I can.
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I have to get the guts out
so that they won't
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make the meat spoil quicker
in this warmer weather.
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The leg is where
it's gonna be really hard
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to skin it this way.
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I've never butchered a moose,
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but I've butchered
plenty of large animals
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that I know how much work
this is gonna be.
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Stomach lining fat.
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This is
an all-consuming project.
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It could take all day and all
night and all the next day.
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This is, like,
a 60-pound liver.
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And I know that I have to just
buckle in for this process.
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Found the arrow.
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All right.
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Now I've got to make sure
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that I don't lose any of it.
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As I'm cutting
on this fresh meat,
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the wind of this
is carrying far and wide.
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And grizzlies
are gonna smell this.
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I don't want to come
and find a giant grizzly.
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I'm gonna clear this little
area and make a fire here.
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And I'm gonna keep that fire
going all night
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to mix
with the scent signature
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so if grizzlies smell it,
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they know that this
is a moose owned by man.
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And I'll also be cooking meat
on that fire
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while I work all night,
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'cause I'm gonna burn up
a lot of energy doing this.
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Think I'll cut the legs off
and take the top quarters off.
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This nagging feeling
is growing in me...
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That the weather
is not gonna cooperate.
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That means I'm gonna have
to work like a maniac
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to preserve this meat.
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Mmm.
Yeah, that's tasting good.
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I have to transport the meat.
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I have to get it
into a place where
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I can watch over it and
not let the birds land on it
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and bears get it.
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But I look at the sun
and I know that
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I won't get it done
before dark.
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Man, I hope
this weather drops cold.
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Well, I've got the top half
of the moose butchered.
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I'll butcher
the lower half tomorrow.
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Round trip is a mile
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back to where
I can drop it near my camp.
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And then I start to calculate
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how many trips
is it gonna take?
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I mean, I'm already tired
from the day,
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from killing the moose,
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from butchering just over half
of the moose.
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It's a big job.
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Big job.
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I'm a target for every bear
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and everything else
in this whole region,
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so I've got
to be smart about this.
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Yeah, I can carry it home.
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I can carry it home.
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I've covered the carcass up
with the skin for the night.
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There's a good chill on
tonight,
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and I'm debating right now
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which is more dangerous
in grizzly country--
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to go work through the night
on it,
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or to...
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go tackle the other half
of it in the morning
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in the daylight when I can see.
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There's like 5,000 grizzly
bears in this territory.
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So I've got to build a cache
that they can't get into.
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So I've got a lot of work
over the next couple of days.
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Either way, a lot of work.
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Well, one thing I've noticed
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since it's been
mild weather out
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and I've got these, like,
thick winter boots on
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is, my feet are
starting to suffer.
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So I'm taking a piece
of black carbon,
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and I dust that up
onto my toes,
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and that keeps them
nice and dry.
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I'm just grinding it up
into a powdery texture
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and then rubbing that
into my feet.
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So this is like
a medicated foot powder.
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OK, so I have
to check my traps.
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I'm feeling confident
in my trail.
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Animals will follow the trail.
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And then that makes
a successful trap line.
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Making a trail is like
utilizing animal psychology.
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They will follow the path
of least resistance.
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So far, I've set
just rabbit snares
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'cause I've just seen
so much sign.
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But I haven't
caught anything yet.
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Some fresh grass.
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My plan is to expand,
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to set some squirrel poles
as well.
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I really want
to make sure that
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I'm just focused on
getting animals all the time.
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.
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Oh, [bleep].
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It's so hard.
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OK, now I'm gonna
go look for the arrows.
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Being out here,
it's a lot of tough work,
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and I'm feeling anxiety
about everything.
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I need to hunt more.
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I need more fish,
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and I don't really have
a way to release it.
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It's a hard space
to be sometimes.
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So out here,
I'm trying to stick with
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that feeling of hope
that I can win.
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I found it,
I found it, I found it.
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Yes.
Ah.
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I have all my arrows now,
so I feel much better.
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Don't lose arrows.
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Determination.
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Success.
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Gotta finish butchering
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and transporting all the meat.
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Hustling to get all my meat
out of the sun.
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Still got a big pile
of meat to haul,
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so I'll be busy
for quite a while.
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I'm just thankful that
no bears have eaten it yet.
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I slept a bit last night,
and I'm now finished
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butchering and carrying the meat.
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And my project today
is all building
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the food cache cold storage.
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Trying to save all the meat
from the hot weather
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got me so ragged.
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And I was just worried
all night long
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that a bear will find it.
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If I can get through
these next few days,
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I'll be all right.
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I'm gonna get to work.
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Preserving and keeping this
meat is my biggest concern.
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More than bears, birds,
anything else,
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the enemy is weather.
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It's still really cool
back here on this north bank.
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And I'll work on
building something in the bank.
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I got to keep this meat
so that I can smoke it all.
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Everything comes down to this.
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I have to do my best
to save the meat.
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I'm definitely
burning a ton of energy
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on this project
and the whole moose project.
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But food security is worth it.
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To preserve this meat,
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it's not just saving it
from the warm weather.
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I have to save it
from moist weather.
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And if the weather
is anything in this area,
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it's very moist and humid.
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Now that
I've gotten this moose
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and I have the meat,
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tapping out,
that's not an option.
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The pressure to win now
is intense,
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so I better pull it off.
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I'm gonna make a solid wall.
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I need a bunch more of those.
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Food cache is coming along.
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I'm praying
for colder weather, quick.
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Such a huge blessing
can also be a curse
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if the timing isn't right.
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But everything for me
this season
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could come down to this.
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There's no option on Earth
of wasting this meat.
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Hopefully
this will be grizzly-proof.
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Now, I'm gonna
put stakes out here
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and then fix it all together.
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It'll be a 7- or 8-inch-thick
front wall.
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I'm not quite finished
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with the outside
to make it bear-proof.
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Almost.
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But I'm gonna go ahead
and put the meat in.
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I'm gonna line the inside
with these bows,
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put a grate of sticks down,
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'cause I want some airflow
to it.
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I don't want to seal it off
'cause then it will go bad.
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This is life here
for the winter.
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I've got to protect it.
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All right, guys.
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Fort Moose Meat is done.
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It's staked down well
back here.
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And the bear is gonna
tear at it here
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and he'll be able to put
no leverage back there,
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and he won't think to go
back there and undo that.
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So the locking log
lifts off...
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Like this,
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And I get the lid off...
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and get the meat.
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I think it should be enough,
but we'll see.
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What a nightmare it's been.
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00:16:47,000 --> 00:16:52,034
Four days ago,
I sat down on a rock,
258
00:16:52,034 --> 00:16:56,448
and there was this really
sharp protrusion from the rock.
259
00:16:56,448 --> 00:16:57,931
When I sat down on it,
260
00:16:58,034 --> 00:16:59,689
that thing hit me right
on the tailbone
261
00:16:59,689 --> 00:17:02,206
and snapped my tailbone.
262
00:17:04,758 --> 00:17:08,068
So I've been--
263
00:17:08,172 --> 00:17:09,862
I've been gimping around
out here.
264
00:17:12,000 --> 00:17:15,379
I'm not worried about it.
It'll get better.
265
00:17:15,379 --> 00:17:17,448
It's just one more thing,
you know?
266
00:17:19,448 --> 00:17:22,310
But anyway,
267
00:17:22,310 --> 00:17:24,724
let's go check the net.
268
00:17:27,310 --> 00:17:29,689
The first few days
it slowed me down a bit,
269
00:17:29,689 --> 00:17:30,793
but not anymore.
270
00:17:30,896 --> 00:17:32,344
I'm doing fine.
271
00:17:32,344 --> 00:17:36,206
But I need to get a real
big win for me at some point.
272
00:17:40,172 --> 00:17:43,379
Oh, I see something.
273
00:17:43,379 --> 00:17:46,655
I see a fish for--
I see two fish for me.
274
00:17:51,000 --> 00:17:52,310
That's the spot.
275
00:17:52,413 --> 00:17:54,000
I guess that was
the whole deal,
276
00:17:54,000 --> 00:17:57,517
'cause I played around
all over this bank.
277
00:17:57,620 --> 00:18:00,517
That's just awesome.
278
00:18:02,551 --> 00:18:04,965
Oh, man.
279
00:18:04,965 --> 00:18:07,000
That one's just barely
hanging on there.
280
00:18:08,931 --> 00:18:11,586
Better be careful.
281
00:18:11,586 --> 00:18:15,379
Oh, my gosh.
Look at how fat he is.
282
00:18:15,379 --> 00:18:17,620
Oh, my gosh.
He's huge.
283
00:18:17,620 --> 00:18:19,034
Huge.
284
00:18:19,034 --> 00:18:20,517
Oh, and he's got--
285
00:18:20,620 --> 00:18:23,241
He's got a lingcod in his mouth
or something.
286
00:18:24,620 --> 00:18:26,448
Oh, my gosh.
Look at this.
287
00:18:30,034 --> 00:18:32,896
I scored big time on these.
288
00:18:32,896 --> 00:18:36,482
This is just amazing.
289
00:18:37,827 --> 00:18:41,517
All right, let's see
what's in your mouth, buddy.
290
00:18:42,724 --> 00:18:45,379
That looks like a burbot.
291
00:18:45,379 --> 00:18:48,103
I think the burbot was
caught in the net,
292
00:18:48,103 --> 00:18:50,793
and the pike
came after the burbot.
293
00:18:54,413 --> 00:18:56,310
All right, man.
You're dead.
294
00:18:56,413 --> 00:18:58,758
You might as well let go.
295
00:19:04,344 --> 00:19:05,931
Can I dump him out?
296
00:19:11,965 --> 00:19:13,931
Look at this.
297
00:19:19,551 --> 00:19:22,896
Oh, my gosh.
What a score.
298
00:19:28,620 --> 00:19:30,896
What a freaking score, man.
299
00:19:32,793 --> 00:19:34,241
All right.
300
00:19:36,068 --> 00:19:38,689
It's been kind of
a rough start for me.
301
00:19:38,689 --> 00:19:41,931
But when I lost
my fishing line,
302
00:19:42,034 --> 00:19:43,965
rather than breaking
all over the country
303
00:19:43,965 --> 00:19:46,758
trying to kill squirrels
and burning more calories
304
00:19:46,758 --> 00:19:48,586
than what a squirrel
would provide...
305
00:19:50,137 --> 00:19:53,931
I chose to teach myself
how to make a gillnet.
306
00:19:53,931 --> 00:19:57,137
This is a turning point
for me.
307
00:19:57,137 --> 00:20:00,068
Everything is going
to be different now.
308
00:20:00,172 --> 00:20:02,206
That's two huge pike
309
00:20:02,206 --> 00:20:06,241
and some of my favorite fish
in the world, which is cod.
310
00:20:06,241 --> 00:20:10,241
If I had some potatoes, I'd be
having fish and chips tonight.
311
00:20:10,241 --> 00:20:12,241
I'm feeling pretty good
about this.
312
00:20:12,241 --> 00:20:15,275
I finally found some methods
that are working.
313
00:20:15,275 --> 00:20:17,655
That is incredible.
314
00:20:34,965 --> 00:20:36,827
Good enough for the chimney.
315
00:20:41,137 --> 00:20:45,275
All right, we're back
on the shelter train...
316
00:20:45,379 --> 00:20:47,448
'cause last night was cold.
317
00:20:48,758 --> 00:20:49,896
So cold.
318
00:20:50,000 --> 00:20:52,655
It was by far the coldest night
we've had.
319
00:20:52,655 --> 00:20:54,482
And it kind of got me spooked.
320
00:20:54,482 --> 00:20:57,862
I want to make sure this
is good as I can get it
321
00:20:57,862 --> 00:21:01,241
and the insulation is all in.
322
00:21:01,344 --> 00:21:02,413
I came out here knowing
323
00:21:02,517 --> 00:21:04,620
I wanted
to get a solid shelter
324
00:21:04,620 --> 00:21:06,586
and begin preparing
for winter.
325
00:21:06,586 --> 00:21:11,413
OK.
We got a layer of horsetail.
326
00:21:11,413 --> 00:21:13,931
Crossed it.
327
00:21:14,034 --> 00:21:18,206
Staging myself for a long-term
situation is a priority.
328
00:21:18,206 --> 00:21:21,068
It's just mud and grass
mixed together.
329
00:21:21,068 --> 00:21:22,862
Yeah, big game,
if you get it,
330
00:21:22,862 --> 00:21:24,482
then you got a real good shot
at winning.
331
00:21:24,482 --> 00:21:27,310
But I'll tell you what, it's
a full-time job to process it,
332
00:21:27,310 --> 00:21:30,310
to smoke it, to keep it
all safe from animals.
333
00:21:31,206 --> 00:21:32,965
I mean, I want that steak
really badly,
334
00:21:33,068 --> 00:21:34,896
but it's almost irresponsible
335
00:21:34,896 --> 00:21:37,172
to take an animal
in this kind of weather.
336
00:21:37,172 --> 00:21:39,965
Whereas if I wait
for it to get cold,
337
00:21:39,965 --> 00:21:42,931
I can slowly make the cache,
and when I get an animal,
338
00:21:42,931 --> 00:21:45,137
I can just pop it up there,
and I'll be ready.
339
00:21:45,137 --> 00:21:48,034
Willow branches
340
00:21:48,137 --> 00:21:49,896
working beautifully.
341
00:21:50,000 --> 00:21:52,034
I've put spruce bows
across the whole top
342
00:21:52,034 --> 00:21:54,241
of the shelter for insulation.
343
00:21:54,241 --> 00:21:57,344
On top of that, I have
about 5 inches of horsetail.
344
00:21:58,862 --> 00:22:02,137
My new shelter may be small,
but it's strong,
345
00:22:02,137 --> 00:22:04,413
and it's gonna
be warmer inside.
346
00:22:05,551 --> 00:22:07,689
Let's tuck this down.
347
00:22:08,931 --> 00:22:10,448
The only thing
that can make you
348
00:22:10,551 --> 00:22:12,344
a stronger outdoorsman
349
00:22:12,344 --> 00:22:15,034
and survivalist
is to be able to push through
350
00:22:15,137 --> 00:22:17,413
tough situations
and learn from them.
351
00:22:19,241 --> 00:22:22,241
We got this damn thing
insulated.
352
00:22:22,241 --> 00:22:24,724
Beautiful mud daub fireplace.
353
00:22:26,241 --> 00:22:29,310
We just need a front door
and some final touches.
354
00:22:29,413 --> 00:22:32,413
But if winter came tomorrow,
we would be fine.
355
00:22:33,551 --> 00:22:35,965
This shelter
356
00:22:36,068 --> 00:22:38,517
is fortified
357
00:22:38,517 --> 00:22:40,344
for the Arctic winter.
358
00:22:40,344 --> 00:22:43,689
Man, I think we got
this situation handled.
359
00:22:57,206 --> 00:22:58,620
All right, this one goes out
360
00:22:58,620 --> 00:23:02,034
to my nieces and nephews,
361
00:23:02,034 --> 00:23:04,689
who were curious.
362
00:23:04,689 --> 00:23:07,896
They'd say Chow Chow,
which is what they call me.
363
00:23:07,896 --> 00:23:09,689
They call me Uncle Chow Chow.
364
00:23:09,689 --> 00:23:12,137
They're curious how I'm gonna
brush my teeth out here.
365
00:23:12,137 --> 00:23:14,241
So this is how.
366
00:23:15,551 --> 00:23:18,241
You can either
just go at it
367
00:23:18,344 --> 00:23:20,275
with just your spit,
some water,
368
00:23:20,379 --> 00:23:22,620
or you can, uh...
369
00:23:22,620 --> 00:23:25,275
you can just use
a simple piece of charcoal.
370
00:23:26,965 --> 00:23:28,206
Throw it in there.
371
00:23:32,379 --> 00:23:34,103
Oh, yeah.
372
00:23:39,655 --> 00:23:41,724
Not too shabby.
373
00:23:42,965 --> 00:23:43,931
All right.
374
00:23:44,931 --> 00:23:46,310
Let's work on a fireplace.
375
00:23:48,103 --> 00:23:51,241
I think we're in for a winner
like this show's never seen.
376
00:23:51,344 --> 00:23:53,655
And so I'm gonna
keep working on my shelter
377
00:23:53,758 --> 00:23:56,379
as my main priority
to keep myself warm,
378
00:23:56,379 --> 00:23:59,965
to keep myself dry,
and to keep myself safe.
379
00:23:59,965 --> 00:24:01,517
Oh, man.
380
00:24:01,620 --> 00:24:03,689
I'm gonna call this
the bunker.
381
00:24:03,689 --> 00:24:05,379
This is gonna have
so many layers,
382
00:24:05,482 --> 00:24:08,655
and it's gonna have
the best fireplace.
383
00:24:08,655 --> 00:24:10,137
I've just got
to be able to do it
384
00:24:10,241 --> 00:24:12,275
without killing myself
385
00:24:12,275 --> 00:24:14,103
and burning too much calories,
386
00:24:14,103 --> 00:24:16,793
but I think
I can knock it out.
387
00:24:16,896 --> 00:24:21,034
So I'm gonna throw some
of these stakes in the ground.
388
00:24:21,137 --> 00:24:23,172
And as I build these rocks up,
389
00:24:23,172 --> 00:24:27,793
I'll have dirt behind them to
fill in and keep all the sparks
390
00:24:27,793 --> 00:24:29,586
and make it
a little more solid.
391
00:24:37,620 --> 00:24:39,413
So now, rocks.
392
00:24:44,448 --> 00:24:47,137
I'm no stonemason, obviously.
393
00:24:49,034 --> 00:24:52,068
After college,
I did a lot of great jobs,
394
00:24:52,068 --> 00:24:53,724
a lot of different jobs.
395
00:24:53,724 --> 00:24:56,551
I joined the West Virginia
Air National Guard.
396
00:24:56,551 --> 00:24:59,206
And that's one of the best
decisions I ever made,
397
00:24:59,310 --> 00:25:03,068
getting to serve my country.
398
00:25:05,655 --> 00:25:10,310
One leg up I might have
on some of my competitors
399
00:25:10,310 --> 00:25:13,482
is my military experience.
400
00:25:13,482 --> 00:25:17,310
That made me really good
at one thing in particular,
401
00:25:17,310 --> 00:25:20,413
and military members
would know this.
402
00:25:20,517 --> 00:25:23,275
I know how to just
shut up and color.
403
00:25:23,275 --> 00:25:25,413
A lot of hurry up and wait,
404
00:25:25,517 --> 00:25:27,551
but sometimes you just
got to get something done.
405
00:25:27,551 --> 00:25:30,758
And we call that
shut up and color.
406
00:25:30,758 --> 00:25:32,172
That's what I'm doing.
407
00:25:35,344 --> 00:25:37,862
That one go about right there.
408
00:25:40,000 --> 00:25:41,862
It's perfect.
409
00:25:41,862 --> 00:25:44,931
So today,
I got quite a bit done.
410
00:25:46,137 --> 00:25:49,344
I didn't eat today.
Um...
411
00:25:49,448 --> 00:25:52,620
just didn't really
feel like it.
412
00:25:52,620 --> 00:25:54,068
I'll be fine.
413
00:25:56,275 --> 00:25:58,517
I'm just gonna go to bed.
414
00:26:43,241 --> 00:26:47,275
And to me, it sounded like
they're really close,
415
00:26:47,379 --> 00:26:50,000
but yeah, I don't--
416
00:26:50,000 --> 00:26:54,655
I don't really know how
to tell out here,
417
00:26:54,655 --> 00:26:57,379
as far as how far
sound travels.
418
00:26:59,448 --> 00:27:01,137
Wolves scare me.
419
00:27:05,586 --> 00:27:08,413
Got to get the shelter done.
420
00:27:08,413 --> 00:27:10,758
'Cause I don't want to get
my face eaten off.
421
00:27:45,344 --> 00:27:50,793
Last night was
the roughest night so far.
422
00:27:54,551 --> 00:27:56,517
Those--
423
00:27:56,620 --> 00:27:58,896
those wolves
would just not let up.
424
00:28:01,896 --> 00:28:06,344
Luckily, nothing came up
against the...
425
00:28:06,344 --> 00:28:07,965
shelter last night.
426
00:28:09,551 --> 00:28:11,344
At least,
I don't think anything did.
427
00:28:13,758 --> 00:28:16,655
That's all the more reason
to get that shelter
428
00:28:16,758 --> 00:28:18,620
finished as fast as possible.
429
00:28:19,827 --> 00:28:21,827
I gotta get to work.
430
00:28:26,034 --> 00:28:28,896
I need to get out of
the temporary shelter.
431
00:28:28,896 --> 00:28:32,931
I need to be as safe as I can
from any kind of predators.
432
00:28:32,931 --> 00:28:35,896
And it's just gonna get colder
and colder and colder,
433
00:28:35,896 --> 00:28:40,931
so I'm gonna push and do
as much in one day as I can.
434
00:28:40,931 --> 00:28:44,310
Around about right there.
435
00:28:44,310 --> 00:28:45,758
Like so.
436
00:28:45,758 --> 00:28:49,344
It's gonna go about right here
437
00:28:49,344 --> 00:28:50,448
and drop straight down.
438
00:28:50,551 --> 00:28:52,965
That should make 16 feet.
439
00:28:52,965 --> 00:28:55,448
Psh, psh, psh, psh.
440
00:28:55,551 --> 00:28:56,793
Basically what I'm doing is
441
00:28:56,793 --> 00:29:01,172
I'm cutting out these corners
of the ceiling.
442
00:29:01,275 --> 00:29:03,586
I'm taking away
some of my space.
443
00:29:03,689 --> 00:29:06,344
That way,
I have less to heat up.
444
00:29:06,344 --> 00:29:07,551
I think in the long run,
445
00:29:07,551 --> 00:29:11,137
that's gonna
be a pretty big calorie-saver.
446
00:29:12,172 --> 00:29:15,793
Let's go shopping
for some poles.
447
00:29:15,793 --> 00:29:18,793
I know that there might be,
like, the question of
448
00:29:18,793 --> 00:29:23,034
why am I not going harder
after fish and after game?
449
00:29:23,137 --> 00:29:25,793
I'm trying to set myself up
long-term.
450
00:29:25,793 --> 00:29:27,448
When it comes to the cold,
like,
451
00:29:27,448 --> 00:29:30,448
you're burning calories
to try to keep yourself warm.
452
00:29:30,448 --> 00:29:32,413
And so I'm doing smaller
453
00:29:32,413 --> 00:29:35,103
so that I can actually
move into it
454
00:29:35,103 --> 00:29:38,103
and then I can just keep
adding walls to the inside
455
00:29:38,206 --> 00:29:40,310
to provide more insulation
as it gets colder.
456
00:29:40,310 --> 00:29:42,655
I think in the long run,
digging in,
457
00:29:42,655 --> 00:29:45,793
framing up is the way to go.
458
00:29:45,896 --> 00:29:47,000
And once everything's
together,
459
00:29:47,103 --> 00:29:50,448
we'll just tie these
at the top.
460
00:29:50,448 --> 00:29:52,931
It's a solid wall.
461
00:29:52,931 --> 00:29:55,413
When I'm done, this place
is gonna be bomb-proof.
462
00:30:00,551 --> 00:30:03,000
I gotta be careful
standing up so quick.
463
00:30:03,000 --> 00:30:05,655
It's easy to forget
how much I haven't eaten.
464
00:30:09,448 --> 00:30:11,034
Raining a little.
465
00:30:11,034 --> 00:30:13,862
All right.
We need my tarp.
466
00:30:30,689 --> 00:30:33,379
Oh.
467
00:30:33,379 --> 00:30:37,965
Yes. Oh, yes. Oh!
468
00:30:37,965 --> 00:30:39,620
New shelter.
New shelter.
469
00:30:39,724 --> 00:30:41,517
I can stand up.
470
00:30:41,517 --> 00:30:44,206
Oh, I'm so excited.
471
00:30:59,862 --> 00:31:03,551
This tree has
a little bird's nest in it.
472
00:31:05,758 --> 00:31:08,068
That's cool.
473
00:31:08,172 --> 00:31:10,068
I wonder if this would be good
for starting a fire.
474
00:31:10,172 --> 00:31:13,827
Probably.
A literal bird's nest.
475
00:31:13,827 --> 00:31:15,103
Usually when you make a fire,
476
00:31:15,206 --> 00:31:17,413
you take a whole bunch
of really dry material,
477
00:31:17,413 --> 00:31:20,241
and you shape it into
a ball with a little crevice
478
00:31:20,241 --> 00:31:22,517
in the center,
and you call it a bird's nest.
479
00:31:22,620 --> 00:31:27,310
And here,
I literally have a bird's nest.
480
00:31:27,310 --> 00:31:29,275
That's really cool.
481
00:31:29,275 --> 00:31:32,413
So there's moose around here,
'cause there's moose hairs
482
00:31:32,517 --> 00:31:35,379
in this bird's nest.
483
00:31:35,482 --> 00:31:38,793
Save that for a cold day.
484
00:31:38,896 --> 00:31:43,137
OK.
We continue the shelter.
485
00:31:45,206 --> 00:31:50,000
So I would like to cut
all the poles for this side.
486
00:31:52,965 --> 00:31:54,689
About...
487
00:31:58,206 --> 00:32:00,758
I love my shelter.
It's a great shelter.
488
00:32:00,862 --> 00:32:04,758
It's a simple A-frame attached
to a big tree, so it's strong.
489
00:32:04,862 --> 00:32:06,172
One side is facing north,
490
00:32:06,172 --> 00:32:08,206
so that's where the main winds
are gonna come.
491
00:32:08,206 --> 00:32:11,379
I'm gonna leave all the trees
there to be a wind block.
492
00:32:11,379 --> 00:32:14,413
And then the other side
is facing south.
493
00:32:14,413 --> 00:32:16,379
And I'm thinking that
maybe I can capture
494
00:32:16,379 --> 00:32:18,275
some radiant heat
from the sun
495
00:32:18,379 --> 00:32:21,620
and then all the spruce boughs
is insulation.
496
00:32:28,275 --> 00:32:29,896
It is small,
497
00:32:29,896 --> 00:32:33,344
but I'm willing to sacrifice
a little bit of comfort
498
00:32:33,448 --> 00:32:36,758
so that I'm staying warm
and safe.
499
00:32:36,862 --> 00:32:39,379
♪ I need another tree ♪
500
00:32:42,137 --> 00:32:45,620
I grew up out in the
trapline, being homeschooled.
501
00:32:45,724 --> 00:32:48,586
And I always thought
my world was so small.
502
00:32:48,586 --> 00:32:50,551
All I wanted to do was
just go to the real world.
503
00:32:50,551 --> 00:32:52,586
That's what I called it.
504
00:32:52,586 --> 00:32:54,586
So I went to university.
505
00:32:54,586 --> 00:32:56,413
And when I got to the city,
506
00:32:56,413 --> 00:33:00,172
I wanted to experience
everything all at once.
507
00:33:00,172 --> 00:33:02,896
So I was going
to all the parties,
508
00:33:02,896 --> 00:33:04,724
I was in all the sports.
509
00:33:04,724 --> 00:33:07,413
I tried it all out,
from the good to the bad.
510
00:33:07,517 --> 00:33:09,758
But I was trying
to fit in some other box
511
00:33:09,862 --> 00:33:11,482
that was not me at all.
512
00:33:11,482 --> 00:33:13,000
And then one day,
513
00:33:13,103 --> 00:33:16,551
I had a complete
mental breakdown.
514
00:33:16,551 --> 00:33:18,482
And I was hospitalized.
515
00:33:18,586 --> 00:33:21,793
And my mom
came rushing to the city
516
00:33:21,793 --> 00:33:24,241
and she's like,
"You need to come home."
517
00:33:24,344 --> 00:33:27,172
And the first thing
that really healed me
518
00:33:27,172 --> 00:33:31,655
when I got home
was the quietness.
519
00:33:31,655 --> 00:33:34,275
There was no traffic.
There was no machines.
520
00:33:34,275 --> 00:33:36,068
There was just nature,
521
00:33:36,068 --> 00:33:40,103
and I could just really
be safe.
522
00:34:10,896 --> 00:34:12,000
Oh, my God.
523
00:34:21,517 --> 00:34:24,551
It's a marten hunting rabbit.
524
00:34:35,482 --> 00:34:37,103
Hey.
525
00:34:38,586 --> 00:34:39,689
Hey.
526
00:34:48,448 --> 00:34:50,620
Oh, my God.
527
00:34:57,689 --> 00:34:59,068
What?
528
00:34:59,068 --> 00:35:01,206
This place is wild, man.
529
00:35:02,793 --> 00:35:04,000
Oh, man.
530
00:35:14,310 --> 00:35:15,896
Look at that.
531
00:35:15,896 --> 00:35:17,896
Fresh rabbit.
532
00:35:20,137 --> 00:35:22,758
I guess I'm skinning
some rabbit.
533
00:35:23,931 --> 00:35:26,344
After my college experience,
534
00:35:26,344 --> 00:35:30,379
the land healed
and gave me a new education.
535
00:35:30,379 --> 00:35:32,655
It's like
I found purpose again.
536
00:35:32,758 --> 00:35:36,379
Now,
rabbit skin is very fragile.
537
00:35:38,965 --> 00:35:40,275
So if you want it
to be intact,
538
00:35:40,379 --> 00:35:44,482
you kind of have to be gentle.
539
00:35:44,586 --> 00:35:48,517
The Cree philosophy
of teaching is kinisitohten.
540
00:35:48,620 --> 00:35:52,551
That's the Cree word for
"Do you understand?"
541
00:35:52,655 --> 00:35:54,482
And that's something that
542
00:35:54,482 --> 00:35:56,827
my dad has asked me
throughout my life.
543
00:35:56,827 --> 00:35:59,103
"Kinisitohten?"
544
00:35:59,103 --> 00:36:01,344
It's not a written language,
545
00:36:01,344 --> 00:36:04,862
so the way that Cree people
teach is by showing.
546
00:36:04,965 --> 00:36:09,206
And my dad isn't really, like,
explaining things beforehand.
547
00:36:09,206 --> 00:36:11,689
I would just have to start
helping him out
548
00:36:11,793 --> 00:36:16,689
and copying his actions
and figuring it out on the go.
549
00:36:18,206 --> 00:36:20,655
And then eventually,
it becomes part of your body
550
00:36:20,655 --> 00:36:23,172
because you've been doing it
with your own hands.
551
00:36:25,103 --> 00:36:27,344
Inspect the liver.
552
00:36:29,793 --> 00:36:33,379
So now, I'm just
gonna start slicing.
553
00:36:33,379 --> 00:36:36,758
And then when you can say
"ninistohten,"
554
00:36:36,758 --> 00:36:39,620
which means "I understand,"
555
00:36:39,620 --> 00:36:44,344
that means you can
actually teach someone else.
556
00:36:44,344 --> 00:36:46,620
And now
I'm showing other people
557
00:36:46,620 --> 00:36:48,827
my knowledge, what I'm doing.
558
00:36:48,827 --> 00:36:51,034
Whoo.
That's amazing.
559
00:36:57,034 --> 00:37:00,137
All right.
Here it is, my rabbit.
560
00:37:04,965 --> 00:37:07,379
Oh, my gosh.
It's so good.
561
00:37:07,379 --> 00:37:09,000
Wow.
562
00:37:09,000 --> 00:37:11,931
Thank you for this gift
of rabbit.
563
00:37:15,586 --> 00:37:16,896
Normally,
I don't like rabbit that much.
564
00:37:17,000 --> 00:37:18,620
But I must be out
here a long time,
565
00:37:18,620 --> 00:37:21,310
because this is delicious.
566
00:37:22,620 --> 00:37:24,310
That is so good.
567
00:37:39,517 --> 00:37:44,448
I keep seeing fish hitting
on this point right here.
568
00:37:44,551 --> 00:37:48,413
So I got this whitefish.
We're gonna try that as bait.
569
00:37:53,482 --> 00:37:54,862
Try here.
570
00:37:57,000 --> 00:38:00,103
A school of whitefish
in front of me.
571
00:38:03,758 --> 00:38:05,137
Whitefish,
how do you feel about
572
00:38:05,137 --> 00:38:08,620
a little bit of cannibalism?
573
00:38:10,310 --> 00:38:12,758
How's that sound?
574
00:38:15,344 --> 00:38:17,862
They're not into that, apparently.
575
00:38:21,172 --> 00:38:25,068
I'm about ready to indulge
in a little cannibalism.
576
00:38:25,068 --> 00:38:29,068
About ready to creep into the
next "Alone" survivalist area
577
00:38:29,068 --> 00:38:31,275
and...
578
00:38:31,275 --> 00:38:33,862
cut myself a femur to chew on.
579
00:38:37,620 --> 00:38:39,724
Just kidding, of course.
580
00:38:39,724 --> 00:38:41,275
Just kidding.
581
00:38:44,689 --> 00:38:47,620
But I'm not kidding
about these whitefish
582
00:38:47,724 --> 00:38:50,206
needing
to become cannibalistic.
583
00:38:51,379 --> 00:38:52,586
'Cause this morning,
584
00:38:52,586 --> 00:38:54,620
they were going bananas
all along the edge.
585
00:38:54,620 --> 00:38:56,000
Now that the sun's out
and bright,
586
00:38:56,000 --> 00:38:58,172
they moved out a bit.
587
00:38:59,862 --> 00:39:02,448
Nature's gonna be throwing
curveballs left and right
588
00:39:02,448 --> 00:39:04,172
every day,
589
00:39:04,275 --> 00:39:06,620
but I'm ready.
590
00:39:06,724 --> 00:39:09,103
There's a lot
of subtle cues in nature
591
00:39:09,103 --> 00:39:10,931
that a lot of people
might not pick up on,
592
00:39:10,931 --> 00:39:12,379
but you spend
enough time out there,
593
00:39:12,482 --> 00:39:15,620
and you can read everything
sort of like a book.
594
00:39:15,724 --> 00:39:18,413
You just got to know
what to look for.
595
00:39:22,000 --> 00:39:25,448
Dude, come on back.
596
00:39:25,551 --> 00:39:26,827
Pike's right at my feet.
597
00:39:33,379 --> 00:39:34,448
Ooh.
598
00:39:34,448 --> 00:39:37,068
Ah.
I lost him.
599
00:39:37,068 --> 00:39:38,793
Dude.
600
00:39:40,655 --> 00:39:42,689
That was insane, man.
601
00:39:43,758 --> 00:39:45,896
Damn it, fish.
602
00:39:45,896 --> 00:39:47,275
You're killing me.
603
00:39:49,206 --> 00:39:51,068
We gotta go fish that river.
604
00:39:52,827 --> 00:39:56,620
It's worth taking the time
at our money spot.
605
00:40:07,862 --> 00:40:09,379
He stared right at me,
606
00:40:09,379 --> 00:40:12,586
came up out of the grass
that I had it packed in.
607
00:40:12,586 --> 00:40:14,689
There's a freaking mink
608
00:40:14,689 --> 00:40:18,137
eating my meat
in my meat cache.
609
00:40:18,241 --> 00:40:19,689
I better get
leather gloves in case
610
00:40:19,793 --> 00:40:21,103
I have to grab him.
611
00:40:21,103 --> 00:40:23,103
Mink can bite like the devil.
612
00:40:25,103 --> 00:40:27,620
I'm going to scare it away.
613
00:40:27,724 --> 00:40:29,896
It's in my meat cache
right now.
614
00:40:38,689 --> 00:40:42,000
Hoo, hoo, hoo, hoo!
615
00:40:43,551 --> 00:40:45,413
Freaking mink.
616
00:40:45,413 --> 00:40:47,896
There you go. Good.
Get out of here, you.
617
00:40:48,896 --> 00:40:52,275
Yeah, mink tracks for sure.
618
00:40:52,379 --> 00:40:54,793
He's run here two days
in a row.
619
00:40:58,413 --> 00:41:01,793
I know he'll be back,
plus probably others.
620
00:41:01,793 --> 00:41:03,724
Yeah, he chewed up the heart
really good.
621
00:41:03,724 --> 00:41:04,724
Look.
622
00:41:04,724 --> 00:41:06,103
That's the moose heart,
623
00:41:06,103 --> 00:41:08,068
and he's eaten the whole
bottom end of it off.
624
00:41:08,172 --> 00:41:10,482
So I have a problem now.
625
00:41:10,586 --> 00:41:11,827
Any little thing
that gets in there
626
00:41:11,827 --> 00:41:14,655
is going for the fat first,
so I'm gonna--
627
00:41:14,655 --> 00:41:16,103
I'm gonna start
rendering this fat,
628
00:41:16,206 --> 00:41:20,241
because the fat is the most
precious commodity out here.
629
00:41:24,000 --> 00:41:25,310
It's hard to build
something out here
630
00:41:25,413 --> 00:41:26,689
that would be mink-proof.
631
00:41:26,689 --> 00:41:29,482
And pine martens are
the same way, same size.
632
00:41:29,482 --> 00:41:31,275
They can get through
that stuff.
633
00:41:31,275 --> 00:41:32,344
That's a big problem.
634
00:41:32,448 --> 00:41:35,689
I've got to do something
about that meat.
635
00:41:37,344 --> 00:41:38,517
I know one thing.
636
00:41:38,517 --> 00:41:39,517
I've got to start
making some containers
637
00:41:39,517 --> 00:41:41,000
and rendering the fat,
638
00:41:41,000 --> 00:41:42,793
'cause the fat is the first
thing everything goes for.
639
00:41:42,896 --> 00:41:44,793
And the fat is what
I need the most.
640
00:41:44,793 --> 00:41:47,620
So I'm gonna start cooking
it down a bit each day
641
00:41:47,620 --> 00:41:50,551
as fast as I can cook it
through this pot.
642
00:41:50,551 --> 00:41:54,068
I don't know how else to
keep it away from everything.
643
00:42:18,275 --> 00:42:20,034
I have to save the fat.
644
00:42:20,137 --> 00:42:22,896
Starting to render this down
pot by pot.
645
00:42:28,137 --> 00:42:29,896
It's sealing.
646
00:42:30,000 --> 00:42:32,655
Yeah.
647
00:42:32,655 --> 00:42:35,137
This birch bark lard canister.
648
00:42:35,241 --> 00:42:36,344
And I'll make more
of these and just
649
00:42:36,448 --> 00:42:39,068
fill them with rendered lard.
650
00:42:39,068 --> 00:42:40,931
All right.
651
00:42:40,931 --> 00:42:43,172
I should be moving
into my shelter,
652
00:42:43,275 --> 00:42:46,724
but it's big enough, I think,
to smoke a whole moose,
653
00:42:46,724 --> 00:42:48,724
so I'm staying in a tarp.
654
00:42:48,724 --> 00:42:53,586
This is just one of many,
many huge hunks of meat.
655
00:42:53,586 --> 00:42:57,482
What I'm gonna do is
just strip it pretty thin
656
00:42:57,586 --> 00:43:01,896
and get it on a bunch
of skewers like this
657
00:43:01,896 --> 00:43:05,896
and hang it in racks
inside the smoker.
658
00:43:08,896 --> 00:43:11,931
This is good.
Putting up food in the fall.
659
00:43:11,931 --> 00:43:13,482
Food for winter.
660
00:43:13,482 --> 00:43:15,379
Some of my best
childhood memories
661
00:43:15,379 --> 00:43:19,103
are putting up food
in the fall with my family.
662
00:43:19,103 --> 00:43:21,827
I'm one of 11 kids.
663
00:43:21,931 --> 00:43:23,482
We grew everything we ate;
664
00:43:23,586 --> 00:43:27,379
green beans, apple sauce,
tomatoes, venison--
665
00:43:27,379 --> 00:43:28,620
to keep it any way we could.
666
00:43:28,620 --> 00:43:29,586
We didn't have a refrigerator,
you see,
667
00:43:29,586 --> 00:43:31,448
we had no electricity.
668
00:43:31,448 --> 00:43:35,724
Fresh stuff is
just so delicious.
669
00:43:37,448 --> 00:43:41,310
I'm torn about smoking this
much meat right in my camp.
670
00:43:41,310 --> 00:43:43,448
There's decent-sized
bear tracks that I've seen
671
00:43:43,448 --> 00:43:46,137
three times now close
to my camp.
672
00:43:46,137 --> 00:43:49,482
But I don't have the luxury
of choosing another option,
673
00:43:49,482 --> 00:43:52,034
so I'm just going forward.
674
00:43:54,206 --> 00:43:56,827
The silence out here
and the isolation
675
00:43:56,931 --> 00:43:58,793
has really brought me
to a point of thinking
676
00:43:58,793 --> 00:44:01,689
about other situations
in my life,
677
00:44:01,689 --> 00:44:03,655
doubts that start
pouring into my mind.
678
00:44:03,655 --> 00:44:04,689
It's all very dirty
679
00:44:04,793 --> 00:44:07,689
because that mink
wallowed in it.
680
00:44:07,689 --> 00:44:09,931
Not real proud of
my butchering right now
681
00:44:10,034 --> 00:44:12,034
because I'm in a rush.
682
00:44:12,758 --> 00:44:15,379
All it is is just functional
and adequate at the moment.
683
00:44:15,482 --> 00:44:16,965
Nothing beautiful.
684
00:44:18,137 --> 00:44:20,103
When I was a kid,
685
00:44:20,103 --> 00:44:22,931
my parents viewed society
as becoming really godless
686
00:44:22,931 --> 00:44:25,965
and wanted to protect
their children from that.
687
00:44:25,965 --> 00:44:27,965
But at the time,
what I got instead
688
00:44:27,965 --> 00:44:32,241
was the message
that God hated everybody.
689
00:44:32,344 --> 00:44:33,827
I remember living
every day thinking
690
00:44:33,827 --> 00:44:36,103
that I wasn't worthy of,
you know,
691
00:44:36,206 --> 00:44:37,620
the food that I was eating.
692
00:44:37,620 --> 00:44:40,655
Like, I could never
deserve to exist.
693
00:44:40,655 --> 00:44:44,068
And I thought you could
compensate for that feeling
694
00:44:44,068 --> 00:44:45,689
by hard work.
695
00:44:45,793 --> 00:44:48,620
It's time to get
this thing done.
696
00:44:57,896 --> 00:44:59,896
Look at all this meat.
697
00:44:59,896 --> 00:45:01,862
Rows and rows and rows
698
00:45:01,862 --> 00:45:05,241
and rows and rows of it
all the way back.
699
00:45:05,241 --> 00:45:07,413
I'm just about to fire it up.
700
00:45:09,068 --> 00:45:10,689
The smell of fresh meat
coming from there
701
00:45:10,793 --> 00:45:13,689
is almost overwhelming.
702
00:45:13,689 --> 00:45:18,275
And I've never had such an urge
to just eat it just like it is.
703
00:45:20,068 --> 00:45:22,689
Controlling the airflow
to the fire
704
00:45:22,689 --> 00:45:24,344
is what's gonna make
it smolder and smoke
705
00:45:24,344 --> 00:45:26,620
and not just burn
and cook the meat.
706
00:45:26,724 --> 00:45:30,344
So yeah,
I think it's gonna work.
707
00:45:34,172 --> 00:45:37,034
As a child,
trying to be worthy of living
708
00:45:37,034 --> 00:45:40,379
made me basically suicidal
through my teenage years.
709
00:45:40,379 --> 00:45:42,310
And even afterwards
as an adult,
710
00:45:42,413 --> 00:45:45,482
I remember it just
becoming such a reality for me
711
00:45:45,586 --> 00:45:49,448
that I could not be enough
for God or for people.
712
00:45:49,448 --> 00:45:52,448
But now, somehow,
out here with nature,
713
00:45:52,448 --> 00:45:55,482
I'm starting to find a peace
and balance with God
714
00:45:55,482 --> 00:45:57,448
about my story somehow.
715
00:46:01,344 --> 00:46:03,275
Hoo.
716
00:46:03,379 --> 00:46:06,448
This is a pot
of total goodness.
717
00:46:06,551 --> 00:46:07,827
God's bounty.
718
00:46:07,827 --> 00:46:11,275
So I'm gonna sit here
and eat my fill.
719
00:46:11,379 --> 00:46:12,862
If I'm a tough person,
720
00:46:12,862 --> 00:46:14,827
it's because of my dad
diligently teaching that.
721
00:46:14,827 --> 00:46:16,310
I love him for that.
722
00:46:16,413 --> 00:46:18,482
That's because of my mother,
the person who she was
723
00:46:18,482 --> 00:46:20,862
raising 11 kids
and schooling them all.
724
00:46:20,862 --> 00:46:22,655
I love her for that.
725
00:46:22,655 --> 00:46:25,310
And out here,
I'm actually feeling
726
00:46:25,310 --> 00:46:29,724
just incredible joy in my soul
727
00:46:29,724 --> 00:46:33,862
that I exist, that I live.
728
00:46:33,862 --> 00:46:37,000
I smell cooler weather
on the wind.
729
00:46:37,103 --> 00:46:39,689
And I thank God for it.
730
00:46:59,413 --> 00:47:00,862
Welcome, man.
731
00:47:00,862 --> 00:47:02,931
Welcome to "Alone's"
first freaking rave.
732
00:47:06,724 --> 00:47:07,827
I think this smoke's
starting to make
733
00:47:07,931 --> 00:47:10,034
my head go a little bit wrong.
734
00:47:12,551 --> 00:47:14,137
What is wrong with my head?
735
00:47:15,655 --> 00:47:19,620
I'm not thinking nearly
as clearly as I'd normally do.
736
00:47:21,310 --> 00:47:22,689
Ugh.
737
00:47:24,793 --> 00:47:26,689
Let's go fishing.
738
00:47:26,793 --> 00:47:30,034
Because Dub is hungry.
739
00:47:36,517 --> 00:47:37,758
Couple more days of no food,
740
00:47:37,758 --> 00:47:43,172
and I will probably
fall into a downward spiral.
741
00:47:43,172 --> 00:47:45,517
Today has got to be a good one.
742
00:47:49,206 --> 00:47:52,206
I need to start
focusing on food again.
743
00:47:54,793 --> 00:47:57,620
There's my pike club
right there.
744
00:48:00,275 --> 00:48:03,655
I'm gonna make a bushcraft...
745
00:48:03,655 --> 00:48:05,103
situation here.
746
00:48:07,344 --> 00:48:11,413
So this is gonna make it
so that when a pike hits,
747
00:48:11,517 --> 00:48:13,103
this rig that I'm making
748
00:48:13,103 --> 00:48:16,586
is gonna set the hook
automatically on the pike.
749
00:48:16,586 --> 00:48:20,586
So this is gonna be...
750
00:48:20,586 --> 00:48:24,068
pretty much what you call
an L7 trigger.
751
00:48:24,172 --> 00:48:27,655
So it's two triggers
that sit together like that.
752
00:48:27,758 --> 00:48:29,551
So when this trigger,
753
00:48:29,655 --> 00:48:33,241
the top trigger,
gets pulled off, boom.
754
00:48:33,241 --> 00:48:36,965
This stick...
755
00:48:37,068 --> 00:48:40,896
that I'm carving right here...
756
00:48:40,896 --> 00:48:44,172
is gonna get
jammed into the ground.
757
00:48:44,172 --> 00:48:47,310
And then I'm gonna get a nice,
super spring-loaded tree,
758
00:48:47,310 --> 00:48:50,034
and I can set the hook
on the fish.
759
00:48:50,137 --> 00:48:52,379
Probably from about
age seven or eight,
760
00:48:52,379 --> 00:48:54,551
I decided I wanted
to be a pro fisherman,
761
00:48:54,551 --> 00:48:56,068
so I bought a bass boat
762
00:48:56,172 --> 00:48:59,137
and won a bunch
of bass tournaments.
763
00:48:59,137 --> 00:49:03,724
Turns out gas for bass boats
is really expensive.
764
00:49:03,724 --> 00:49:06,241
There was a time I had
just enough gas in my boat
765
00:49:06,241 --> 00:49:08,517
and my truck
to make it to the tournament.
766
00:49:08,517 --> 00:49:10,724
But in the back of my truck
was a trash bag
767
00:49:10,724 --> 00:49:12,413
filled with pop cans.
768
00:49:12,517 --> 00:49:16,517
And in Michigan, they have
a 10¢ refund on cans.
769
00:49:16,517 --> 00:49:17,965
I'm like,
"If I don't win it,
770
00:49:17,965 --> 00:49:19,551
"I'm gonna have
to turn these pop cans in
771
00:49:19,551 --> 00:49:22,275
and get, like, four bucks
and maybe get home."
772
00:49:22,379 --> 00:49:27,551
So I risked all my money that
I had to pay the entry fee.
773
00:49:27,551 --> 00:49:30,000
That's actually really easy.
774
00:49:30,000 --> 00:49:32,586
So I'm just tying them.
775
00:49:32,586 --> 00:49:34,931
Overhand loop.
776
00:49:35,034 --> 00:49:36,482
Now, I want to tie it
right around the area
777
00:49:36,586 --> 00:49:38,241
where this trigger is.
778
00:49:38,241 --> 00:49:40,344
So I go there,
win the bass tournament.
779
00:49:40,448 --> 00:49:41,862
I win, like, 5 grand.
780
00:49:41,862 --> 00:49:44,379
And fortunately, I didn't
have to use my pop cans.
781
00:49:44,482 --> 00:49:47,551
That's how poor I am
and how much I love fishing.
782
00:49:49,517 --> 00:49:52,137
So we want one more loop.
783
00:49:52,137 --> 00:49:55,275
Probably right about there.
784
00:49:56,827 --> 00:49:58,379
And they fit on each other.
785
00:49:58,379 --> 00:50:03,206
So when something pulls even
pretty lightly right there...
786
00:50:03,206 --> 00:50:05,793
it's gonna pull this
trigger off that,
787
00:50:05,793 --> 00:50:08,137
and this rod's gonna
spring like crazy.
788
00:50:09,965 --> 00:50:11,620
Something's happening
on this one.
789
00:50:11,620 --> 00:50:13,275
Something just hit.
790
00:50:16,586 --> 00:50:17,655
That's definitely got it.
791
00:50:17,655 --> 00:50:19,793
I'm gonna give it
a little line.
792
00:50:21,689 --> 00:50:23,689
Hmm.
793
00:50:23,689 --> 00:50:26,655
Hook set right there, boy.
794
00:50:31,689 --> 00:50:33,379
He's coming.
795
00:50:36,689 --> 00:50:38,689
Good size.
796
00:50:38,689 --> 00:50:40,551
It's a really good size.
797
00:50:45,137 --> 00:50:47,000
Hell yeah, little pike.
798
00:50:47,000 --> 00:50:48,827
Yeah.
799
00:50:51,379 --> 00:50:54,241
Yes! Dude.
800
00:50:54,241 --> 00:50:57,482
Put them up
on these pine boughs.
801
00:51:00,068 --> 00:51:02,137
Oh, hell.
802
00:51:02,137 --> 00:51:03,896
I weakened ya.
803
00:51:05,379 --> 00:51:07,965
And what I'm gonna do is
804
00:51:07,965 --> 00:51:11,275
cast this one back out...
805
00:51:11,379 --> 00:51:15,862
and let it fish
while I clean that pike.
806
00:51:15,965 --> 00:51:17,655
There's gonna be
a time frame where
807
00:51:17,655 --> 00:51:21,068
the river starts to freeze
and I can't ice fish.
808
00:51:21,068 --> 00:51:23,655
Can't walk on the ice
till it's at least 4 inches.
809
00:51:23,655 --> 00:51:25,551
So I'm gonna be snaring.
810
00:51:25,655 --> 00:51:28,379
I'm gonna do hunting
and trapping, everything.
811
00:51:28,482 --> 00:51:30,517
Fishing will not get
you all the way,
812
00:51:30,517 --> 00:51:32,344
no matter how good you are
at it.
813
00:51:32,448 --> 00:51:35,517
So I want to try
to bring this one in
814
00:51:35,517 --> 00:51:37,275
without triggering it
815
00:51:37,275 --> 00:51:40,586
and put a fresh piece of bait
on there.
816
00:51:40,689 --> 00:51:42,000
And right then--look at that.
817
00:51:42,103 --> 00:51:43,758
Right then,
something's grabbing that.
818
00:51:43,758 --> 00:51:45,931
Look at that.
819
00:51:45,931 --> 00:51:47,758
That line's moving right now.
820
00:51:49,965 --> 00:51:51,655
That's game on.
821
00:51:56,793 --> 00:51:58,896
Holy crap.
Are you kidding me?
822
00:52:06,068 --> 00:52:07,448
Boom!
823
00:52:09,103 --> 00:52:10,827
Got him.
824
00:52:17,551 --> 00:52:19,172
Coming right at me.
825
00:52:21,965 --> 00:52:23,068
Yeah.
826
00:52:23,172 --> 00:52:25,586
Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes.
yes, yes, yes, yes.
827
00:52:27,000 --> 00:52:29,275
Get in here, bro.
Mm, mm.
828
00:52:34,241 --> 00:52:35,586
Yeah!
829
00:52:42,068 --> 00:52:44,068
Thank you, spring pole.
830
00:52:46,275 --> 00:52:48,793
He wasn't coming off
that big hook.
831
00:52:51,344 --> 00:52:52,724
Oh, my goodness.
832
00:52:52,724 --> 00:52:55,241
That is so amazing, dude.
833
00:52:55,344 --> 00:52:57,551
Rod demonstration, done.
834
00:53:00,000 --> 00:53:03,379
And I could not be
any freaking happier.
835
00:53:04,827 --> 00:53:07,896
'Cause it's freaking
lunch time!
836
00:53:09,862 --> 00:53:12,862
I love nature
more than anything.
837
00:53:12,862 --> 00:53:15,620
Nature is honest.
838
00:53:15,724 --> 00:53:17,379
People, in general,
are not honest.
839
00:53:17,379 --> 00:53:20,137
But fish aren't
gonna lie to you.
840
00:53:20,137 --> 00:53:23,413
The grizzly bear
is not gonna lie to you.
841
00:53:23,413 --> 00:53:25,379
Grizzly bear is
just gonna kill you.
842
00:53:25,379 --> 00:53:27,137
It's not hiding that fact.
843
00:53:28,275 --> 00:53:29,862
So I strongly believe that
844
00:53:29,965 --> 00:53:31,068
you're never
gonna beat nature.
845
00:53:31,172 --> 00:53:33,862
But when nature
throws you a tidal wave,
846
00:53:33,862 --> 00:53:38,310
you build a bushcraft
surfboard and ride it out.
847
00:53:38,413 --> 00:53:41,034
I'm so happy
we got that spring pole.
848
00:53:42,448 --> 00:53:43,931
Yes.
849
00:54:00,551 --> 00:54:03,241
I'm gonna go get
some more water.
850
00:54:11,724 --> 00:54:14,103
Look at that.
851
00:54:14,103 --> 00:54:18,448
It's a happy family of swans.
852
00:54:21,172 --> 00:54:22,551
That's what I want.
853
00:54:22,551 --> 00:54:25,172
I want to start a family.
854
00:54:27,344 --> 00:54:32,551
I really want my future kids
to see the possibilities
855
00:54:32,551 --> 00:54:35,344
of a life living close
to the land.
856
00:54:35,344 --> 00:54:39,620
And I hope that I inspire them
to follow in my footsteps
857
00:54:39,620 --> 00:54:43,241
like I'm following
my parents' footsteps.
858
00:54:50,448 --> 00:54:52,896
Got some water.
859
00:54:52,896 --> 00:54:56,068
Boil it
and then get back to work.
860
00:55:04,241 --> 00:55:06,275
I thought this would be
a really good spot
861
00:55:06,379 --> 00:55:10,275
to set up a squirrel pole.
862
00:55:10,275 --> 00:55:14,206
Because there is
a very active squirrel here.
863
00:55:52,000 --> 00:55:53,517
I feel so alone.
864
00:55:53,620 --> 00:55:57,862
I feel really alone,
and it's really hard for me.
865
00:55:57,862 --> 00:56:00,586
It's hard for my mentality.
866
00:56:02,517 --> 00:56:06,000
I just--I came into this game
so mentally strong.
867
00:56:06,000 --> 00:56:08,241
I thought I was so strong.
868
00:56:08,344 --> 00:56:09,517
And then I came out here
869
00:56:09,620 --> 00:56:15,172
and I just feel like my brain
is struggling.
870
00:56:15,172 --> 00:56:18,655
It's mentally really tough
out here.
871
00:56:18,655 --> 00:56:21,413
I don't like it.
872
00:56:24,655 --> 00:56:26,724
I feel like I'm going back
and forth
873
00:56:26,724 --> 00:56:30,551
between feeling
great success here
874
00:56:30,551 --> 00:56:33,724
and then feeling anxiety,
875
00:56:33,724 --> 00:56:35,758
almost a sense of depression
coming in
876
00:56:35,758 --> 00:56:39,724
because I feel
so disconnected.
877
00:56:41,310 --> 00:56:43,586
I live in an isolated place,
far away from people
878
00:56:43,586 --> 00:56:45,862
and I've spent
a lot of time alone.
879
00:56:47,344 --> 00:56:49,586
But this feels different
somehow.
880
00:56:49,586 --> 00:56:52,413
It's really isolated here.
881
00:56:52,413 --> 00:56:56,068
I've chosen this path,
but this extreme sense
882
00:56:56,068 --> 00:57:00,068
of being taken away
from my family and my culture
883
00:57:00,068 --> 00:57:03,586
and placed in this environment
that I'm unfamiliar with
884
00:57:03,689 --> 00:57:05,758
is really instilling in me
885
00:57:05,758 --> 00:57:08,655
that feeling of what
it might be like
886
00:57:08,758 --> 00:57:12,137
to be taken away
to a residential school.
887
00:57:14,137 --> 00:57:15,344
I didn't think
that these feelings
888
00:57:15,344 --> 00:57:17,655
would come up out here.
889
00:57:17,758 --> 00:57:19,827
I thought this was in my past.
890
00:57:19,827 --> 00:57:23,000
I mean, one place that
I feel most healthy
891
00:57:23,000 --> 00:57:25,344
is when I'm in nature.
892
00:57:25,448 --> 00:57:29,068
But for some reason, there is
a huge piece of me missing.
893
00:57:31,034 --> 00:57:33,517
Oh, I just wanted
to be out here.
894
00:57:35,655 --> 00:57:39,068
At the same time, I feel,
895
00:57:39,068 --> 00:57:41,344
as an Indigenous woman,
896
00:57:41,344 --> 00:57:43,965
I need to keep staying here,
897
00:57:43,965 --> 00:57:47,413
that I need
to keep pushing myself.
898
00:58:20,379 --> 00:58:22,620
It [bleep] sucks.
899
00:58:25,000 --> 00:58:28,034
And everything is fine.
Everything's good.
900
00:58:28,034 --> 00:58:31,103
My shelter is getting warmer.
901
00:58:31,206 --> 00:58:32,827
I have food.
902
00:58:35,482 --> 00:58:37,896
I'll just keep going.
903
00:58:41,034 --> 00:58:43,310
Come on.
Just one more day.
904
00:58:43,310 --> 00:58:45,586
Just one more day.
905
00:59:04,310 --> 00:59:08,482
You know...
906
00:59:08,482 --> 00:59:10,517
the more time I spend here,
907
00:59:10,517 --> 00:59:14,000
the more I want to be
with someone that is from here,
908
00:59:14,103 --> 00:59:16,379
the Gwich'in and Aleut.
909
00:59:16,482 --> 00:59:19,034
I want them to show me
how much they love this land,
910
00:59:19,137 --> 00:59:21,379
what they know about this land.
911
00:59:23,586 --> 00:59:27,241
I came here with skills
enough to feed me,
912
00:59:27,344 --> 00:59:31,896
to shelter me,
to keep me alive and thriving.
913
00:59:34,655 --> 00:59:37,206
This is an amazing experience
for me.
914
00:59:40,206 --> 00:59:42,724
But I wish I was with someone.
915
00:59:46,310 --> 00:59:49,689
I just want to get through
the isolation.
916
00:59:50,379 --> 00:59:53,482
So I want to go
check the fishnet.
917
01:00:07,137 --> 01:00:08,793
Look at that.
918
01:00:25,482 --> 01:00:27,344
.
919
01:00:36,344 --> 01:00:40,034
It just didn't feel right,
keeping that fish.
920
01:00:40,137 --> 01:00:41,689
I need to honor it.
921
01:00:41,689 --> 01:00:44,172
I need to eat it with joy.
922
01:00:47,344 --> 01:00:48,758
Ugh.
923
01:01:01,551 --> 01:01:02,793
18 days.
924
01:01:02,896 --> 01:01:06,379
I got this far.
925
01:01:06,379 --> 01:01:08,379
I got this far.
926
01:01:11,206 --> 01:01:14,000
Oh, what the heck?
927
01:01:15,206 --> 01:01:16,827
I don't want to go
to that place again.
928
01:01:16,827 --> 01:01:19,793
I don't want to have
another mental breakdown
929
01:01:19,793 --> 01:01:23,689
that I can't come back from
that takes me years and years.
930
01:01:26,068 --> 01:01:27,275
It's a delicate balance
931
01:01:27,275 --> 01:01:30,068
and you really got
to be careful.
932
01:01:37,793 --> 01:01:40,103
This is a nice place.
933
01:01:40,103 --> 01:01:42,896
It'll always be in my memories.
934
01:01:44,689 --> 01:01:46,620
It's time to call in.
935
01:01:52,965 --> 01:01:56,000
Hi, this is Michela.
I'm officially tapping out.
936
01:02:11,344 --> 01:02:15,241
I just couldn't deal with the
social isolation aspect of it.
937
01:02:16,724 --> 01:02:19,620
I needed to be connected again
to people,
938
01:02:19,724 --> 01:02:21,586
to my family, to my home.
939
01:02:23,586 --> 01:02:25,241
It's been a really
beautiful time here.
940
01:02:25,241 --> 01:02:27,241
I've had so many blessings.
941
01:02:27,241 --> 01:02:31,068
And this competition
has made me understand that
942
01:02:31,068 --> 01:02:33,137
I am
the Saskatchewan River Delta,
943
01:02:33,241 --> 01:02:36,551
I am my home, I am my family,
944
01:02:36,655 --> 01:02:39,413
and I really feel that
in my heart now.
945
01:02:44,517 --> 01:02:49,137
It's really disappointing
to have to go home so early,
946
01:02:49,137 --> 01:02:51,931
but this experience
has taught me
947
01:02:51,931 --> 01:02:55,689
something even deeper
than I've ever known before.
948
01:02:56,896 --> 01:02:59,827
Finally,
I can say "ninistohten"
949
01:02:59,827 --> 01:03:02,310
because now,
I understand completely
950
01:03:02,413 --> 01:03:08,241
how being Indigenous is more
than just living off the land.
951
01:03:08,241 --> 01:03:12,689
We need community.
We need connection.
952
01:03:12,689 --> 01:03:14,965
And I'm feeling
a really strong calling
953
01:03:14,965 --> 01:03:18,000
to go home with a new sense
of how to share
954
01:03:18,103 --> 01:03:21,206
what I know
about Cree culture.
955
01:03:21,310 --> 01:03:24,137
I need to take people out
into nature,
956
01:03:24,137 --> 01:03:25,482
onto the canoe trips,
957
01:03:25,586 --> 01:03:28,586
and we can just
connect deeply to each other.
958
01:03:29,965 --> 01:03:33,275
I came here to take care
of my family.
959
01:03:33,379 --> 01:03:38,827
But now, I realize that
there's no way to separate us.
960
01:03:38,827 --> 01:03:41,137
We're stronger together.
961
01:03:41,241 --> 01:03:44,965
So I feel like I am
going home with a prize.
962
01:03:49,896 --> 01:03:53,517
They're doing med check
sometime today.
963
01:03:53,517 --> 01:03:55,103
I must be getting sick.
964
01:03:56,275 --> 01:03:57,689
Kind of nervous.
965
01:03:57,689 --> 01:03:59,206
How thorough is the med check?
966
01:04:01,793 --> 01:04:04,034
My stomach
is feeling really lean.
967
01:04:04,034 --> 01:04:06,827
I'm actually worried
about this med check.
968
01:04:06,827 --> 01:04:08,275
OK, that's sore.
969
01:04:08,275 --> 01:04:09,896
I've thought about
whether or not I should just
970
01:04:09,896 --> 01:04:13,724
grit my teeth and fake it
through this check.
971
01:04:13,724 --> 01:04:18,137
We need to officially extract
you for medical reasons.