1 00:00:15,931 --> 00:00:18,448 Ah. Ow. 2 00:00:18,448 --> 00:00:21,517 Having my hand burned, I can't shoot my bow, 3 00:00:21,517 --> 00:00:24,379 which means that I really need to rely on fish. 4 00:00:24,482 --> 00:00:26,068 Look at that guy. He's huge. 5 00:00:26,068 --> 00:00:27,896 Oh, my gosh. 6 00:00:27,896 --> 00:00:30,758 Oh, there's two. 7 00:00:30,758 --> 00:00:32,965 I am attempting to make the warmest shelter 8 00:00:32,965 --> 00:00:34,206 this show's seen. 9 00:00:34,206 --> 00:00:36,586 Everyone knows Rock House. 10 00:00:36,586 --> 00:00:38,551 I think I can outdo it. 11 00:00:38,551 --> 00:00:40,724 Wow. 12 00:00:40,827 --> 00:00:43,448 The more I get into my body, the longer I last. 13 00:00:43,448 --> 00:00:46,827 This will be half the pike in this pot. 14 00:00:49,620 --> 00:00:53,034 Oh, my berry breakfast. 15 00:00:53,034 --> 00:00:54,034 Ah. 16 00:00:54,034 --> 00:00:56,896 First puke of "Alone." 17 00:00:59,275 --> 00:01:02,413 I haven't used the bathroom in ten days. 18 00:01:02,413 --> 00:01:04,275 This is something serious. 19 00:01:04,379 --> 00:01:06,172 Oh, God. 20 00:01:06,172 --> 00:01:07,620 This is one of the hardest things 21 00:01:07,620 --> 00:01:10,241 I've ever done in my life. 22 00:01:10,241 --> 00:01:13,000 I'm officially tapping out. 23 00:01:16,241 --> 00:01:18,448 God, please help me kill this moose. 24 00:01:30,862 --> 00:01:32,517 I'm not tapping out. 25 00:01:32,517 --> 00:01:33,758 I'd rather die. 26 00:01:38,172 --> 00:01:41,344 Here goes nothing. 27 00:01:41,344 --> 00:01:42,413 Whoa! 28 00:01:42,517 --> 00:01:44,034 Yes! 29 00:01:44,137 --> 00:01:45,586 Holy [bleep]. 30 00:01:47,655 --> 00:01:49,965 This is the harshest location possible. 31 00:01:49,965 --> 00:01:52,034 We're 125 miles in the Arctic Circle. 32 00:01:53,482 --> 00:01:54,689 I never had an environment make me feel like 33 00:01:54,793 --> 00:01:55,862 a complete amateur before. 34 00:01:55,862 --> 00:01:58,034 Everything is against us out here. 35 00:01:58,034 --> 00:02:00,896 Mother Nature went and bitch slapped me. 36 00:02:00,896 --> 00:02:03,310 Looks like I got grizzlies and wolves as my neighbors. 37 00:02:03,310 --> 00:02:04,551 Holy crap. 38 00:02:04,551 --> 00:02:05,862 They're just hunting the shoreline. 39 00:02:05,965 --> 00:02:07,793 Mother Nature is about to dim the lights on us. 40 00:02:07,793 --> 00:02:09,620 We're heading into total darkness. 41 00:02:09,724 --> 00:02:11,206 - Hey, bear. 42 00:02:11,206 --> 00:02:14,517 The cold and the dark is going to sap people's souls. 43 00:02:14,620 --> 00:02:16,344 It really makes you wonder if it's worth it. 44 00:02:17,448 --> 00:02:18,620 There is no camera crew. 45 00:02:18,620 --> 00:02:19,965 There's no support system. 46 00:02:19,965 --> 00:02:21,586 I'm completely alone. 47 00:02:21,586 --> 00:02:22,655 Yes! 48 00:02:22,655 --> 00:02:23,896 People go in one way... 49 00:02:24,000 --> 00:02:25,413 Stop bleeding. 50 00:02:25,413 --> 00:02:27,137 And they come out entirely different. 51 00:02:28,310 --> 00:02:29,517 This is the most difficult 52 00:02:29,517 --> 00:02:30,482 survival challenge in the world. 53 00:02:32,103 --> 00:02:34,517 $500,000. That's completely life-changing money. 54 00:02:34,517 --> 00:02:35,931 It's beautiful. 55 00:02:35,931 --> 00:02:37,344 Whoever can thrive the longest... 56 00:02:37,344 --> 00:02:38,965 If they out here, they ought to be afraid of me. 57 00:02:39,068 --> 00:02:39,965 Whoever can push through it... 58 00:02:40,068 --> 00:02:42,000 - Wins. 59 00:02:42,000 --> 00:02:43,586 I hope I made the right choice coming out here. 60 00:03:20,896 --> 00:03:23,344 God, please help me kill this moose. 61 00:03:38,241 --> 00:03:40,931 It's about 60 yards away right now. 62 00:04:14,103 --> 00:04:15,862 I can't believe it. 63 00:04:15,965 --> 00:04:20,172 Now I can sing and shout and chop trees all I want to. 64 00:04:20,172 --> 00:04:22,275 I don't care what the noise does. 65 00:04:22,379 --> 00:04:25,206 I don't care how much noise I make. 66 00:04:25,206 --> 00:04:28,689 The biggest game here is down. 67 00:04:28,793 --> 00:04:32,620 It's clear to me that God is with me. 68 00:04:51,344 --> 00:04:53,275 Oh, my goodness. 69 00:04:54,689 --> 00:04:55,965 It's a beast. 70 00:04:58,344 --> 00:05:00,896 This thing's bigger than one of my horses. 71 00:05:02,758 --> 00:05:05,206 There's no way I can flip this animal over, though. 72 00:05:05,206 --> 00:05:07,379 I'm gonna have to skin it off the best I can. 73 00:05:08,896 --> 00:05:11,586 I have to get the guts out so that they won't 74 00:05:11,689 --> 00:05:15,379 make the meat spoil quicker in this warmer weather. 75 00:05:15,482 --> 00:05:17,137 The leg is where it's gonna be really hard 76 00:05:17,137 --> 00:05:19,344 to skin it this way. 77 00:05:19,344 --> 00:05:20,793 I've never butchered a moose, 78 00:05:20,793 --> 00:05:22,655 but I've butchered plenty of large animals 79 00:05:22,758 --> 00:05:25,620 that I know how much work this is gonna be. 80 00:05:25,724 --> 00:05:28,827 Stomach lining fat. 81 00:05:28,931 --> 00:05:31,620 This is an all-consuming project. 82 00:05:31,620 --> 00:05:34,827 It could take all day and all night and all the next day. 83 00:05:34,827 --> 00:05:37,379 This is, like, a 60-pound liver. 84 00:05:37,379 --> 00:05:40,241 And I know that I have to just buckle in for this process. 85 00:05:43,413 --> 00:05:44,793 Found the arrow. 86 00:05:46,000 --> 00:05:47,241 All right. 87 00:05:47,241 --> 00:05:48,517 Now I've got to make sure 88 00:05:48,517 --> 00:05:51,137 that I don't lose any of it. 89 00:05:51,241 --> 00:05:53,068 As I'm cutting on this fresh meat, 90 00:05:53,068 --> 00:05:56,068 the wind of this is carrying far and wide. 91 00:05:56,068 --> 00:05:58,620 And grizzlies are gonna smell this. 92 00:05:58,724 --> 00:06:02,413 I don't want to come and find a giant grizzly. 93 00:06:02,413 --> 00:06:06,241 I'm gonna clear this little area and make a fire here. 94 00:06:08,620 --> 00:06:11,068 And I'm gonna keep that fire going all night 95 00:06:11,068 --> 00:06:13,275 to mix with the scent signature 96 00:06:13,275 --> 00:06:14,724 so if grizzlies smell it, 97 00:06:14,724 --> 00:06:18,724 they know that this is a moose owned by man. 98 00:06:18,724 --> 00:06:20,551 And I'll also be cooking meat on that fire 99 00:06:20,655 --> 00:06:22,137 while I work all night, 100 00:06:22,137 --> 00:06:25,482 'cause I'm gonna burn up a lot of energy doing this. 101 00:06:27,103 --> 00:06:29,172 Think I'll cut the legs off and take the top quarters off. 102 00:06:31,931 --> 00:06:34,172 This nagging feeling is growing in me... 103 00:06:35,379 --> 00:06:37,206 That the weather is not gonna cooperate. 104 00:06:37,206 --> 00:06:40,206 That means I'm gonna have to work like a maniac 105 00:06:40,206 --> 00:06:42,586 to preserve this meat. 106 00:06:42,586 --> 00:06:48,310 Mmm. Yeah, that's tasting good. 107 00:06:48,413 --> 00:06:49,551 I have to transport the meat. 108 00:06:49,655 --> 00:06:51,068 I have to get it into a place where 109 00:06:51,068 --> 00:06:53,586 I can watch over it and not let the birds land on it 110 00:06:53,586 --> 00:06:55,103 and bears get it. 111 00:06:57,068 --> 00:06:58,379 But I look at the sun and I know that 112 00:06:58,482 --> 00:07:00,758 I won't get it done before dark. 113 00:07:00,758 --> 00:07:02,827 Man, I hope this weather drops cold. 114 00:07:06,172 --> 00:07:09,827 Well, I've got the top half of the moose butchered. 115 00:07:09,827 --> 00:07:11,965 I'll butcher the lower half tomorrow. 116 00:07:14,068 --> 00:07:15,689 Round trip is a mile 117 00:07:15,689 --> 00:07:18,034 back to where I can drop it near my camp. 118 00:07:18,034 --> 00:07:19,241 And then I start to calculate 119 00:07:19,241 --> 00:07:21,379 how many trips is it gonna take? 120 00:07:21,482 --> 00:07:23,689 I mean, I'm already tired from the day, 121 00:07:23,689 --> 00:07:25,103 from killing the moose, 122 00:07:25,103 --> 00:07:29,103 from butchering just over half of the moose. 123 00:07:29,103 --> 00:07:31,586 It's a big job. 124 00:07:31,689 --> 00:07:33,172 Big job. 125 00:07:33,275 --> 00:07:35,137 I'm a target for every bear 126 00:07:35,137 --> 00:07:37,206 and everything else in this whole region, 127 00:07:37,310 --> 00:07:39,172 so I've got to be smart about this. 128 00:07:41,965 --> 00:07:46,000 Yeah, I can carry it home. 129 00:07:46,000 --> 00:07:47,586 I can carry it home. 130 00:07:59,103 --> 00:08:02,448 I've covered the carcass up with the skin for the night. 131 00:08:02,551 --> 00:08:05,517 There's a good chill on tonight, 132 00:08:05,517 --> 00:08:07,172 and I'm debating right now 133 00:08:07,172 --> 00:08:09,206 which is more dangerous in grizzly country-- 134 00:08:09,206 --> 00:08:11,448 to go work through the night on it, 135 00:08:11,551 --> 00:08:15,310 or to... 136 00:08:15,413 --> 00:08:16,620 go tackle the other half of it in the morning 137 00:08:16,620 --> 00:08:19,000 in the daylight when I can see. 138 00:08:19,000 --> 00:08:23,310 There's like 5,000 grizzly bears in this territory. 139 00:08:23,413 --> 00:08:28,275 So I've got to build a cache that they can't get into. 140 00:08:28,275 --> 00:08:31,689 So I've got a lot of work over the next couple of days. 141 00:08:31,689 --> 00:08:35,517 Either way, a lot of work. 142 00:08:54,896 --> 00:08:56,275 Well, one thing I've noticed 143 00:08:56,379 --> 00:08:59,827 since it's been mild weather out 144 00:08:59,827 --> 00:09:02,586 and I've got these, like, thick winter boots on 145 00:09:02,689 --> 00:09:06,758 is, my feet are starting to suffer. 146 00:09:06,758 --> 00:09:12,206 So I'm taking a piece of black carbon, 147 00:09:12,310 --> 00:09:14,931 and I dust that up onto my toes, 148 00:09:14,931 --> 00:09:18,103 and that keeps them nice and dry. 149 00:09:21,241 --> 00:09:25,965 I'm just grinding it up into a powdery texture 150 00:09:25,965 --> 00:09:28,482 and then rubbing that into my feet. 151 00:09:29,620 --> 00:09:34,517 So this is like a medicated foot powder. 152 00:09:34,517 --> 00:09:37,620 OK, so I have to check my traps. 153 00:09:39,724 --> 00:09:42,793 I'm feeling confident in my trail. 154 00:09:42,896 --> 00:09:44,931 Animals will follow the trail. 155 00:09:48,620 --> 00:09:51,172 And then that makes a successful trap line. 156 00:09:52,965 --> 00:09:57,448 Making a trail is like utilizing animal psychology. 157 00:09:57,551 --> 00:10:00,655 They will follow the path of least resistance. 158 00:10:02,172 --> 00:10:05,379 So far, I've set just rabbit snares 159 00:10:05,379 --> 00:10:07,620 'cause I've just seen so much sign. 160 00:10:07,620 --> 00:10:10,275 But I haven't caught anything yet. 161 00:10:10,275 --> 00:10:12,068 Some fresh grass. 162 00:10:12,068 --> 00:10:14,034 My plan is to expand, 163 00:10:14,034 --> 00:10:17,034 to set some squirrel poles as well. 164 00:10:17,034 --> 00:10:18,517 I really want to make sure that 165 00:10:18,517 --> 00:10:21,448 I'm just focused on getting animals all the time. 166 00:11:14,862 --> 00:11:15,862 . 167 00:11:26,655 --> 00:11:27,931 Oh, [bleep]. 168 00:11:27,931 --> 00:11:30,551 It's so hard. 169 00:11:30,551 --> 00:11:33,482 OK, now I'm gonna go look for the arrows. 170 00:11:39,000 --> 00:11:42,827 Being out here, it's a lot of tough work, 171 00:11:42,827 --> 00:11:47,379 and I'm feeling anxiety about everything. 172 00:11:47,379 --> 00:11:49,448 I need to hunt more. 173 00:11:49,448 --> 00:11:51,241 I need more fish, 174 00:11:51,241 --> 00:11:55,000 and I don't really have a way to release it. 175 00:12:00,965 --> 00:12:03,241 It's a hard space to be sometimes. 176 00:12:03,344 --> 00:12:06,896 So out here, I'm trying to stick with 177 00:12:06,896 --> 00:12:09,758 that feeling of hope that I can win. 178 00:12:11,344 --> 00:12:15,206 I found it, I found it, I found it. 179 00:12:17,862 --> 00:12:21,482 Yes. Ah. 180 00:12:22,827 --> 00:12:26,862 I have all my arrows now, so I feel much better. 181 00:12:28,068 --> 00:12:29,655 Don't lose arrows. 182 00:12:29,655 --> 00:12:31,482 Determination. 183 00:12:31,482 --> 00:12:33,344 Success. 184 00:12:43,931 --> 00:12:45,551 Gotta finish butchering 185 00:12:45,551 --> 00:12:47,172 and transporting all the meat. 186 00:12:48,517 --> 00:12:51,241 Hustling to get all my meat out of the sun. 187 00:12:56,655 --> 00:12:58,620 Still got a big pile of meat to haul, 188 00:12:58,620 --> 00:13:01,034 so I'll be busy for quite a while. 189 00:13:02,551 --> 00:13:05,551 I'm just thankful that no bears have eaten it yet. 190 00:13:07,310 --> 00:13:10,310 I slept a bit last night, and I'm now finished 191 00:13:10,310 --> 00:13:12,103 butchering and carrying the meat. 192 00:13:13,758 --> 00:13:16,413 And my project today is all building 193 00:13:16,413 --> 00:13:18,413 the food cache cold storage. 194 00:13:20,000 --> 00:13:21,896 Trying to save all the meat from the hot weather 195 00:13:22,000 --> 00:13:23,655 got me so ragged. 196 00:13:23,655 --> 00:13:26,310 And I was just worried all night long 197 00:13:26,413 --> 00:13:28,275 that a bear will find it. 198 00:13:29,620 --> 00:13:30,724 If I can get through these next few days, 199 00:13:30,827 --> 00:13:32,068 I'll be all right. 200 00:13:33,241 --> 00:13:35,206 I'm gonna get to work. 201 00:13:39,241 --> 00:13:42,758 Preserving and keeping this meat is my biggest concern. 202 00:13:42,758 --> 00:13:45,000 More than bears, birds, anything else, 203 00:13:45,103 --> 00:13:47,344 the enemy is weather. 204 00:13:47,344 --> 00:13:51,965 It's still really cool back here on this north bank. 205 00:13:51,965 --> 00:13:56,379 And I'll work on building something in the bank. 206 00:13:56,379 --> 00:13:59,931 I got to keep this meat so that I can smoke it all. 207 00:13:59,931 --> 00:14:01,758 Everything comes down to this. 208 00:14:01,862 --> 00:14:04,965 I have to do my best to save the meat. 209 00:14:05,068 --> 00:14:08,965 I'm definitely burning a ton of energy 210 00:14:09,068 --> 00:14:11,103 on this project and the whole moose project. 211 00:14:11,103 --> 00:14:16,137 But food security is worth it. 212 00:14:17,137 --> 00:14:18,862 To preserve this meat, 213 00:14:18,965 --> 00:14:21,137 it's not just saving it from the warm weather. 214 00:14:21,137 --> 00:14:23,620 I have to save it from moist weather. 215 00:14:23,620 --> 00:14:25,413 And if the weather is anything in this area, 216 00:14:25,413 --> 00:14:27,586 it's very moist and humid. 217 00:14:30,000 --> 00:14:31,206 Now that I've gotten this moose 218 00:14:31,206 --> 00:14:32,448 and I have the meat, 219 00:14:32,448 --> 00:14:34,586 tapping out, that's not an option. 220 00:14:34,586 --> 00:14:36,862 The pressure to win now is intense, 221 00:14:36,862 --> 00:14:38,827 so I better pull it off. 222 00:14:40,655 --> 00:14:42,310 I'm gonna make a solid wall. 223 00:14:45,448 --> 00:14:47,137 I need a bunch more of those. 224 00:14:48,241 --> 00:14:50,137 Food cache is coming along. 225 00:14:50,137 --> 00:14:54,620 I'm praying for colder weather, quick. 226 00:14:54,724 --> 00:14:58,344 Such a huge blessing can also be a curse 227 00:14:58,344 --> 00:14:59,758 if the timing isn't right. 228 00:15:01,413 --> 00:15:03,482 But everything for me this season 229 00:15:03,482 --> 00:15:05,517 could come down to this. 230 00:15:05,620 --> 00:15:09,413 There's no option on Earth of wasting this meat. 231 00:15:13,310 --> 00:15:17,172 Hopefully this will be grizzly-proof. 232 00:15:19,103 --> 00:15:21,482 Now, I'm gonna put stakes out here 233 00:15:21,482 --> 00:15:22,793 and then fix it all together. 234 00:15:22,793 --> 00:15:25,379 It'll be a 7- or 8-inch-thick front wall. 235 00:15:30,000 --> 00:15:31,206 I'm not quite finished 236 00:15:31,206 --> 00:15:32,586 with the outside to make it bear-proof. 237 00:15:32,586 --> 00:15:34,689 Almost. 238 00:15:34,793 --> 00:15:36,862 But I'm gonna go ahead and put the meat in. 239 00:15:36,862 --> 00:15:39,793 I'm gonna line the inside with these bows, 240 00:15:39,793 --> 00:15:41,034 put a grate of sticks down, 241 00:15:41,034 --> 00:15:42,689 'cause I want some airflow to it. 242 00:15:42,689 --> 00:15:45,655 I don't want to seal it off 'cause then it will go bad. 243 00:15:47,448 --> 00:15:50,172 This is life here for the winter. 244 00:15:50,275 --> 00:15:51,758 I've got to protect it. 245 00:15:53,241 --> 00:15:55,724 All right, guys. 246 00:15:55,724 --> 00:15:59,793 Fort Moose Meat is done. 247 00:15:59,896 --> 00:16:03,103 It's staked down well back here. 248 00:16:03,206 --> 00:16:04,931 And the bear is gonna tear at it here 249 00:16:05,034 --> 00:16:07,034 and he'll be able to put no leverage back there, 250 00:16:07,034 --> 00:16:09,620 and he won't think to go back there and undo that. 251 00:16:09,620 --> 00:16:12,068 So the locking log lifts off... 252 00:16:14,241 --> 00:16:15,896 Like this, 253 00:16:15,896 --> 00:16:19,620 And I get the lid off... 254 00:16:19,620 --> 00:16:20,896 and get the meat. 255 00:16:22,931 --> 00:16:26,241 I think it should be enough, but we'll see. 256 00:16:28,310 --> 00:16:32,413 What a nightmare it's been. 257 00:16:47,000 --> 00:16:52,034 Four days ago, I sat down on a rock, 258 00:16:52,034 --> 00:16:56,448 and there was this really sharp protrusion from the rock. 259 00:16:56,448 --> 00:16:57,931 When I sat down on it, 260 00:16:58,034 --> 00:16:59,689 that thing hit me right on the tailbone 261 00:16:59,689 --> 00:17:02,206 and snapped my tailbone. 262 00:17:04,758 --> 00:17:08,068 So I've been-- 263 00:17:08,172 --> 00:17:09,862 I've been gimping around out here. 264 00:17:12,000 --> 00:17:15,379 I'm not worried about it. It'll get better. 265 00:17:15,379 --> 00:17:17,448 It's just one more thing, you know? 266 00:17:19,448 --> 00:17:22,310 But anyway, 267 00:17:22,310 --> 00:17:24,724 let's go check the net. 268 00:17:27,310 --> 00:17:29,689 The first few days it slowed me down a bit, 269 00:17:29,689 --> 00:17:30,793 but not anymore. 270 00:17:30,896 --> 00:17:32,344 I'm doing fine. 271 00:17:32,344 --> 00:17:36,206 But I need to get a real big win for me at some point. 272 00:17:40,172 --> 00:17:43,379 Oh, I see something. 273 00:17:43,379 --> 00:17:46,655 I see a fish for-- I see two fish for me. 274 00:17:51,000 --> 00:17:52,310 That's the spot. 275 00:17:52,413 --> 00:17:54,000 I guess that was the whole deal, 276 00:17:54,000 --> 00:17:57,517 'cause I played around all over this bank. 277 00:17:57,620 --> 00:18:00,517 That's just awesome. 278 00:18:02,551 --> 00:18:04,965 Oh, man. 279 00:18:04,965 --> 00:18:07,000 That one's just barely hanging on there. 280 00:18:08,931 --> 00:18:11,586 Better be careful. 281 00:18:11,586 --> 00:18:15,379 Oh, my gosh. Look at how fat he is. 282 00:18:15,379 --> 00:18:17,620 Oh, my gosh. He's huge. 283 00:18:17,620 --> 00:18:19,034 Huge. 284 00:18:19,034 --> 00:18:20,517 Oh, and he's got-- 285 00:18:20,620 --> 00:18:23,241 He's got a lingcod in his mouth or something. 286 00:18:24,620 --> 00:18:26,448 Oh, my gosh. Look at this. 287 00:18:30,034 --> 00:18:32,896 I scored big time on these. 288 00:18:32,896 --> 00:18:36,482 This is just amazing. 289 00:18:37,827 --> 00:18:41,517 All right, let's see what's in your mouth, buddy. 290 00:18:42,724 --> 00:18:45,379 That looks like a burbot. 291 00:18:45,379 --> 00:18:48,103 I think the burbot was caught in the net, 292 00:18:48,103 --> 00:18:50,793 and the pike came after the burbot. 293 00:18:54,413 --> 00:18:56,310 All right, man. You're dead. 294 00:18:56,413 --> 00:18:58,758 You might as well let go. 295 00:19:04,344 --> 00:19:05,931 Can I dump him out? 296 00:19:11,965 --> 00:19:13,931 Look at this. 297 00:19:19,551 --> 00:19:22,896 Oh, my gosh. What a score. 298 00:19:28,620 --> 00:19:30,896 What a freaking score, man. 299 00:19:32,793 --> 00:19:34,241 All right. 300 00:19:36,068 --> 00:19:38,689 It's been kind of a rough start for me. 301 00:19:38,689 --> 00:19:41,931 But when I lost my fishing line, 302 00:19:42,034 --> 00:19:43,965 rather than breaking all over the country 303 00:19:43,965 --> 00:19:46,758 trying to kill squirrels and burning more calories 304 00:19:46,758 --> 00:19:48,586 than what a squirrel would provide... 305 00:19:50,137 --> 00:19:53,931 I chose to teach myself how to make a gillnet. 306 00:19:53,931 --> 00:19:57,137 This is a turning point for me. 307 00:19:57,137 --> 00:20:00,068 Everything is going to be different now. 308 00:20:00,172 --> 00:20:02,206 That's two huge pike 309 00:20:02,206 --> 00:20:06,241 and some of my favorite fish in the world, which is cod. 310 00:20:06,241 --> 00:20:10,241 If I had some potatoes, I'd be having fish and chips tonight. 311 00:20:10,241 --> 00:20:12,241 I'm feeling pretty good about this. 312 00:20:12,241 --> 00:20:15,275 I finally found some methods that are working. 313 00:20:15,275 --> 00:20:17,655 That is incredible. 314 00:20:34,965 --> 00:20:36,827 Good enough for the chimney. 315 00:20:41,137 --> 00:20:45,275 All right, we're back on the shelter train... 316 00:20:45,379 --> 00:20:47,448 'cause last night was cold. 317 00:20:48,758 --> 00:20:49,896 So cold. 318 00:20:50,000 --> 00:20:52,655 It was by far the coldest night we've had. 319 00:20:52,655 --> 00:20:54,482 And it kind of got me spooked. 320 00:20:54,482 --> 00:20:57,862 I want to make sure this is good as I can get it 321 00:20:57,862 --> 00:21:01,241 and the insulation is all in. 322 00:21:01,344 --> 00:21:02,413 I came out here knowing 323 00:21:02,517 --> 00:21:04,620 I wanted to get a solid shelter 324 00:21:04,620 --> 00:21:06,586 and begin preparing for winter. 325 00:21:06,586 --> 00:21:11,413 OK. We got a layer of horsetail. 326 00:21:11,413 --> 00:21:13,931 Crossed it. 327 00:21:14,034 --> 00:21:18,206 Staging myself for a long-term situation is a priority. 328 00:21:18,206 --> 00:21:21,068 It's just mud and grass mixed together. 329 00:21:21,068 --> 00:21:22,862 Yeah, big game, if you get it, 330 00:21:22,862 --> 00:21:24,482 then you got a real good shot at winning. 331 00:21:24,482 --> 00:21:27,310 But I'll tell you what, it's a full-time job to process it, 332 00:21:27,310 --> 00:21:30,310 to smoke it, to keep it all safe from animals. 333 00:21:31,206 --> 00:21:32,965 I mean, I want that steak really badly, 334 00:21:33,068 --> 00:21:34,896 but it's almost irresponsible 335 00:21:34,896 --> 00:21:37,172 to take an animal in this kind of weather. 336 00:21:37,172 --> 00:21:39,965 Whereas if I wait for it to get cold, 337 00:21:39,965 --> 00:21:42,931 I can slowly make the cache, and when I get an animal, 338 00:21:42,931 --> 00:21:45,137 I can just pop it up there, and I'll be ready. 339 00:21:45,137 --> 00:21:48,034 Willow branches 340 00:21:48,137 --> 00:21:49,896 working beautifully. 341 00:21:50,000 --> 00:21:52,034 I've put spruce bows across the whole top 342 00:21:52,034 --> 00:21:54,241 of the shelter for insulation. 343 00:21:54,241 --> 00:21:57,344 On top of that, I have about 5 inches of horsetail. 344 00:21:58,862 --> 00:22:02,137 My new shelter may be small, but it's strong, 345 00:22:02,137 --> 00:22:04,413 and it's gonna be warmer inside. 346 00:22:05,551 --> 00:22:07,689 Let's tuck this down. 347 00:22:08,931 --> 00:22:10,448 The only thing that can make you 348 00:22:10,551 --> 00:22:12,344 a stronger outdoorsman 349 00:22:12,344 --> 00:22:15,034 and survivalist is to be able to push through 350 00:22:15,137 --> 00:22:17,413 tough situations and learn from them. 351 00:22:19,241 --> 00:22:22,241 We got this damn thing insulated. 352 00:22:22,241 --> 00:22:24,724 Beautiful mud daub fireplace. 353 00:22:26,241 --> 00:22:29,310 We just need a front door and some final touches. 354 00:22:29,413 --> 00:22:32,413 But if winter came tomorrow, we would be fine. 355 00:22:33,551 --> 00:22:35,965 This shelter 356 00:22:36,068 --> 00:22:38,517 is fortified 357 00:22:38,517 --> 00:22:40,344 for the Arctic winter. 358 00:22:40,344 --> 00:22:43,689 Man, I think we got this situation handled. 359 00:22:57,206 --> 00:22:58,620 All right, this one goes out 360 00:22:58,620 --> 00:23:02,034 to my nieces and nephews, 361 00:23:02,034 --> 00:23:04,689 who were curious. 362 00:23:04,689 --> 00:23:07,896 They'd say Chow Chow, which is what they call me. 363 00:23:07,896 --> 00:23:09,689 They call me Uncle Chow Chow. 364 00:23:09,689 --> 00:23:12,137 They're curious how I'm gonna brush my teeth out here. 365 00:23:12,137 --> 00:23:14,241 So this is how. 366 00:23:15,551 --> 00:23:18,241 You can either just go at it 367 00:23:18,344 --> 00:23:20,275 with just your spit, some water, 368 00:23:20,379 --> 00:23:22,620 or you can, uh... 369 00:23:22,620 --> 00:23:25,275 you can just use a simple piece of charcoal. 370 00:23:26,965 --> 00:23:28,206 Throw it in there. 371 00:23:32,379 --> 00:23:34,103 Oh, yeah. 372 00:23:39,655 --> 00:23:41,724 Not too shabby. 373 00:23:42,965 --> 00:23:43,931 All right. 374 00:23:44,931 --> 00:23:46,310 Let's work on a fireplace. 375 00:23:48,103 --> 00:23:51,241 I think we're in for a winner like this show's never seen. 376 00:23:51,344 --> 00:23:53,655 And so I'm gonna keep working on my shelter 377 00:23:53,758 --> 00:23:56,379 as my main priority to keep myself warm, 378 00:23:56,379 --> 00:23:59,965 to keep myself dry, and to keep myself safe. 379 00:23:59,965 --> 00:24:01,517 Oh, man. 380 00:24:01,620 --> 00:24:03,689 I'm gonna call this the bunker. 381 00:24:03,689 --> 00:24:05,379 This is gonna have so many layers, 382 00:24:05,482 --> 00:24:08,655 and it's gonna have the best fireplace. 383 00:24:08,655 --> 00:24:10,137 I've just got to be able to do it 384 00:24:10,241 --> 00:24:12,275 without killing myself 385 00:24:12,275 --> 00:24:14,103 and burning too much calories, 386 00:24:14,103 --> 00:24:16,793 but I think I can knock it out. 387 00:24:16,896 --> 00:24:21,034 So I'm gonna throw some of these stakes in the ground. 388 00:24:21,137 --> 00:24:23,172 And as I build these rocks up, 389 00:24:23,172 --> 00:24:27,793 I'll have dirt behind them to fill in and keep all the sparks 390 00:24:27,793 --> 00:24:29,586 and make it a little more solid. 391 00:24:37,620 --> 00:24:39,413 So now, rocks. 392 00:24:44,448 --> 00:24:47,137 I'm no stonemason, obviously. 393 00:24:49,034 --> 00:24:52,068 After college, I did a lot of great jobs, 394 00:24:52,068 --> 00:24:53,724 a lot of different jobs. 395 00:24:53,724 --> 00:24:56,551 I joined the West Virginia Air National Guard. 396 00:24:56,551 --> 00:24:59,206 And that's one of the best decisions I ever made, 397 00:24:59,310 --> 00:25:03,068 getting to serve my country. 398 00:25:05,655 --> 00:25:10,310 One leg up I might have on some of my competitors 399 00:25:10,310 --> 00:25:13,482 is my military experience. 400 00:25:13,482 --> 00:25:17,310 That made me really good at one thing in particular, 401 00:25:17,310 --> 00:25:20,413 and military members would know this. 402 00:25:20,517 --> 00:25:23,275 I know how to just shut up and color. 403 00:25:23,275 --> 00:25:25,413 A lot of hurry up and wait, 404 00:25:25,517 --> 00:25:27,551 but sometimes you just got to get something done. 405 00:25:27,551 --> 00:25:30,758 And we call that shut up and color. 406 00:25:30,758 --> 00:25:32,172 That's what I'm doing. 407 00:25:35,344 --> 00:25:37,862 That one go about right there. 408 00:25:40,000 --> 00:25:41,862 It's perfect. 409 00:25:41,862 --> 00:25:44,931 So today, I got quite a bit done. 410 00:25:46,137 --> 00:25:49,344 I didn't eat today. Um... 411 00:25:49,448 --> 00:25:52,620 just didn't really feel like it. 412 00:25:52,620 --> 00:25:54,068 I'll be fine. 413 00:25:56,275 --> 00:25:58,517 I'm just gonna go to bed. 414 00:26:43,241 --> 00:26:47,275 And to me, it sounded like they're really close, 415 00:26:47,379 --> 00:26:50,000 but yeah, I don't-- 416 00:26:50,000 --> 00:26:54,655 I don't really know how to tell out here, 417 00:26:54,655 --> 00:26:57,379 as far as how far sound travels. 418 00:26:59,448 --> 00:27:01,137 Wolves scare me. 419 00:27:05,586 --> 00:27:08,413 Got to get the shelter done. 420 00:27:08,413 --> 00:27:10,758 'Cause I don't want to get my face eaten off. 421 00:27:45,344 --> 00:27:50,793 Last night was the roughest night so far. 422 00:27:54,551 --> 00:27:56,517 Those-- 423 00:27:56,620 --> 00:27:58,896 those wolves would just not let up. 424 00:28:01,896 --> 00:28:06,344 Luckily, nothing came up against the... 425 00:28:06,344 --> 00:28:07,965 shelter last night. 426 00:28:09,551 --> 00:28:11,344 At least, I don't think anything did. 427 00:28:13,758 --> 00:28:16,655 That's all the more reason to get that shelter 428 00:28:16,758 --> 00:28:18,620 finished as fast as possible. 429 00:28:19,827 --> 00:28:21,827 I gotta get to work. 430 00:28:26,034 --> 00:28:28,896 I need to get out of the temporary shelter. 431 00:28:28,896 --> 00:28:32,931 I need to be as safe as I can from any kind of predators. 432 00:28:32,931 --> 00:28:35,896 And it's just gonna get colder and colder and colder, 433 00:28:35,896 --> 00:28:40,931 so I'm gonna push and do as much in one day as I can. 434 00:28:40,931 --> 00:28:44,310 Around about right there. 435 00:28:44,310 --> 00:28:45,758 Like so. 436 00:28:45,758 --> 00:28:49,344 It's gonna go about right here 437 00:28:49,344 --> 00:28:50,448 and drop straight down. 438 00:28:50,551 --> 00:28:52,965 That should make 16 feet. 439 00:28:52,965 --> 00:28:55,448 Psh, psh, psh, psh. 440 00:28:55,551 --> 00:28:56,793 Basically what I'm doing is 441 00:28:56,793 --> 00:29:01,172 I'm cutting out these corners of the ceiling. 442 00:29:01,275 --> 00:29:03,586 I'm taking away some of my space. 443 00:29:03,689 --> 00:29:06,344 That way, I have less to heat up. 444 00:29:06,344 --> 00:29:07,551 I think in the long run, 445 00:29:07,551 --> 00:29:11,137 that's gonna be a pretty big calorie-saver. 446 00:29:12,172 --> 00:29:15,793 Let's go shopping for some poles. 447 00:29:15,793 --> 00:29:18,793 I know that there might be, like, the question of 448 00:29:18,793 --> 00:29:23,034 why am I not going harder after fish and after game? 449 00:29:23,137 --> 00:29:25,793 I'm trying to set myself up long-term. 450 00:29:25,793 --> 00:29:27,448 When it comes to the cold, like, 451 00:29:27,448 --> 00:29:30,448 you're burning calories to try to keep yourself warm. 452 00:29:30,448 --> 00:29:32,413 And so I'm doing smaller 453 00:29:32,413 --> 00:29:35,103 so that I can actually move into it 454 00:29:35,103 --> 00:29:38,103 and then I can just keep adding walls to the inside 455 00:29:38,206 --> 00:29:40,310 to provide more insulation as it gets colder. 456 00:29:40,310 --> 00:29:42,655 I think in the long run, digging in, 457 00:29:42,655 --> 00:29:45,793 framing up is the way to go. 458 00:29:45,896 --> 00:29:47,000 And once everything's together, 459 00:29:47,103 --> 00:29:50,448 we'll just tie these at the top. 460 00:29:50,448 --> 00:29:52,931 It's a solid wall. 461 00:29:52,931 --> 00:29:55,413 When I'm done, this place is gonna be bomb-proof. 462 00:30:00,551 --> 00:30:03,000 I gotta be careful standing up so quick. 463 00:30:03,000 --> 00:30:05,655 It's easy to forget how much I haven't eaten. 464 00:30:09,448 --> 00:30:11,034 Raining a little. 465 00:30:11,034 --> 00:30:13,862 All right. We need my tarp. 466 00:30:30,689 --> 00:30:33,379 Oh. 467 00:30:33,379 --> 00:30:37,965 Yes. Oh, yes. Oh! 468 00:30:37,965 --> 00:30:39,620 New shelter. New shelter. 469 00:30:39,724 --> 00:30:41,517 I can stand up. 470 00:30:41,517 --> 00:30:44,206 Oh, I'm so excited. 471 00:30:59,862 --> 00:31:03,551 This tree has a little bird's nest in it. 472 00:31:05,758 --> 00:31:08,068 That's cool. 473 00:31:08,172 --> 00:31:10,068 I wonder if this would be good for starting a fire. 474 00:31:10,172 --> 00:31:13,827 Probably. A literal bird's nest. 475 00:31:13,827 --> 00:31:15,103 Usually when you make a fire, 476 00:31:15,206 --> 00:31:17,413 you take a whole bunch of really dry material, 477 00:31:17,413 --> 00:31:20,241 and you shape it into a ball with a little crevice 478 00:31:20,241 --> 00:31:22,517 in the center, and you call it a bird's nest. 479 00:31:22,620 --> 00:31:27,310 And here, I literally have a bird's nest. 480 00:31:27,310 --> 00:31:29,275 That's really cool. 481 00:31:29,275 --> 00:31:32,413 So there's moose around here, 'cause there's moose hairs 482 00:31:32,517 --> 00:31:35,379 in this bird's nest. 483 00:31:35,482 --> 00:31:38,793 Save that for a cold day. 484 00:31:38,896 --> 00:31:43,137 OK. We continue the shelter. 485 00:31:45,206 --> 00:31:50,000 So I would like to cut all the poles for this side. 486 00:31:52,965 --> 00:31:54,689 About... 487 00:31:58,206 --> 00:32:00,758 I love my shelter. It's a great shelter. 488 00:32:00,862 --> 00:32:04,758 It's a simple A-frame attached to a big tree, so it's strong. 489 00:32:04,862 --> 00:32:06,172 One side is facing north, 490 00:32:06,172 --> 00:32:08,206 so that's where the main winds are gonna come. 491 00:32:08,206 --> 00:32:11,379 I'm gonna leave all the trees there to be a wind block. 492 00:32:11,379 --> 00:32:14,413 And then the other side is facing south. 493 00:32:14,413 --> 00:32:16,379 And I'm thinking that maybe I can capture 494 00:32:16,379 --> 00:32:18,275 some radiant heat from the sun 495 00:32:18,379 --> 00:32:21,620 and then all the spruce boughs is insulation. 496 00:32:28,275 --> 00:32:29,896 It is small, 497 00:32:29,896 --> 00:32:33,344 but I'm willing to sacrifice a little bit of comfort 498 00:32:33,448 --> 00:32:36,758 so that I'm staying warm and safe. 499 00:32:36,862 --> 00:32:39,379 ♪ I need another tree ♪ 500 00:32:42,137 --> 00:32:45,620 I grew up out in the trapline, being homeschooled. 501 00:32:45,724 --> 00:32:48,586 And I always thought my world was so small. 502 00:32:48,586 --> 00:32:50,551 All I wanted to do was just go to the real world. 503 00:32:50,551 --> 00:32:52,586 That's what I called it. 504 00:32:52,586 --> 00:32:54,586 So I went to university. 505 00:32:54,586 --> 00:32:56,413 And when I got to the city, 506 00:32:56,413 --> 00:33:00,172 I wanted to experience everything all at once. 507 00:33:00,172 --> 00:33:02,896 So I was going to all the parties, 508 00:33:02,896 --> 00:33:04,724 I was in all the sports. 509 00:33:04,724 --> 00:33:07,413 I tried it all out, from the good to the bad. 510 00:33:07,517 --> 00:33:09,758 But I was trying to fit in some other box 511 00:33:09,862 --> 00:33:11,482 that was not me at all. 512 00:33:11,482 --> 00:33:13,000 And then one day, 513 00:33:13,103 --> 00:33:16,551 I had a complete mental breakdown. 514 00:33:16,551 --> 00:33:18,482 And I was hospitalized. 515 00:33:18,586 --> 00:33:21,793 And my mom came rushing to the city 516 00:33:21,793 --> 00:33:24,241 and she's like, "You need to come home." 517 00:33:24,344 --> 00:33:27,172 And the first thing that really healed me 518 00:33:27,172 --> 00:33:31,655 when I got home was the quietness. 519 00:33:31,655 --> 00:33:34,275 There was no traffic. There was no machines. 520 00:33:34,275 --> 00:33:36,068 There was just nature, 521 00:33:36,068 --> 00:33:40,103 and I could just really be safe. 522 00:34:10,896 --> 00:34:12,000 Oh, my God. 523 00:34:21,517 --> 00:34:24,551 It's a marten hunting rabbit. 524 00:34:35,482 --> 00:34:37,103 Hey. 525 00:34:38,586 --> 00:34:39,689 Hey. 526 00:34:48,448 --> 00:34:50,620 Oh, my God. 527 00:34:57,689 --> 00:34:59,068 What? 528 00:34:59,068 --> 00:35:01,206 This place is wild, man. 529 00:35:02,793 --> 00:35:04,000 Oh, man. 530 00:35:14,310 --> 00:35:15,896 Look at that. 531 00:35:15,896 --> 00:35:17,896 Fresh rabbit. 532 00:35:20,137 --> 00:35:22,758 I guess I'm skinning some rabbit. 533 00:35:23,931 --> 00:35:26,344 After my college experience, 534 00:35:26,344 --> 00:35:30,379 the land healed and gave me a new education. 535 00:35:30,379 --> 00:35:32,655 It's like I found purpose again. 536 00:35:32,758 --> 00:35:36,379 Now, rabbit skin is very fragile. 537 00:35:38,965 --> 00:35:40,275 So if you want it to be intact, 538 00:35:40,379 --> 00:35:44,482 you kind of have to be gentle. 539 00:35:44,586 --> 00:35:48,517 The Cree philosophy of teaching is kinisitohten. 540 00:35:48,620 --> 00:35:52,551 That's the Cree word for "Do you understand?" 541 00:35:52,655 --> 00:35:54,482 And that's something that 542 00:35:54,482 --> 00:35:56,827 my dad has asked me throughout my life. 543 00:35:56,827 --> 00:35:59,103 "Kinisitohten?" 544 00:35:59,103 --> 00:36:01,344 It's not a written language, 545 00:36:01,344 --> 00:36:04,862 so the way that Cree people teach is by showing. 546 00:36:04,965 --> 00:36:09,206 And my dad isn't really, like, explaining things beforehand. 547 00:36:09,206 --> 00:36:11,689 I would just have to start helping him out 548 00:36:11,793 --> 00:36:16,689 and copying his actions and figuring it out on the go. 549 00:36:18,206 --> 00:36:20,655 And then eventually, it becomes part of your body 550 00:36:20,655 --> 00:36:23,172 because you've been doing it with your own hands. 551 00:36:25,103 --> 00:36:27,344 Inspect the liver. 552 00:36:29,793 --> 00:36:33,379 So now, I'm just gonna start slicing. 553 00:36:33,379 --> 00:36:36,758 And then when you can say "ninistohten," 554 00:36:36,758 --> 00:36:39,620 which means "I understand," 555 00:36:39,620 --> 00:36:44,344 that means you can actually teach someone else. 556 00:36:44,344 --> 00:36:46,620 And now I'm showing other people 557 00:36:46,620 --> 00:36:48,827 my knowledge, what I'm doing. 558 00:36:48,827 --> 00:36:51,034 Whoo. That's amazing. 559 00:36:57,034 --> 00:37:00,137 All right. Here it is, my rabbit. 560 00:37:04,965 --> 00:37:07,379 Oh, my gosh. It's so good. 561 00:37:07,379 --> 00:37:09,000 Wow. 562 00:37:09,000 --> 00:37:11,931 Thank you for this gift of rabbit. 563 00:37:15,586 --> 00:37:16,896 Normally, I don't like rabbit that much. 564 00:37:17,000 --> 00:37:18,620 But I must be out here a long time, 565 00:37:18,620 --> 00:37:21,310 because this is delicious. 566 00:37:22,620 --> 00:37:24,310 That is so good. 567 00:37:39,517 --> 00:37:44,448 I keep seeing fish hitting on this point right here. 568 00:37:44,551 --> 00:37:48,413 So I got this whitefish. We're gonna try that as bait. 569 00:37:53,482 --> 00:37:54,862 Try here. 570 00:37:57,000 --> 00:38:00,103 A school of whitefish in front of me. 571 00:38:03,758 --> 00:38:05,137 Whitefish, how do you feel about 572 00:38:05,137 --> 00:38:08,620 a little bit of cannibalism? 573 00:38:10,310 --> 00:38:12,758 How's that sound? 574 00:38:15,344 --> 00:38:17,862 They're not into that, apparently. 575 00:38:21,172 --> 00:38:25,068 I'm about ready to indulge in a little cannibalism. 576 00:38:25,068 --> 00:38:29,068 About ready to creep into the next "Alone" survivalist area 577 00:38:29,068 --> 00:38:31,275 and... 578 00:38:31,275 --> 00:38:33,862 cut myself a femur to chew on. 579 00:38:37,620 --> 00:38:39,724 Just kidding, of course. 580 00:38:39,724 --> 00:38:41,275 Just kidding. 581 00:38:44,689 --> 00:38:47,620 But I'm not kidding about these whitefish 582 00:38:47,724 --> 00:38:50,206 needing to become cannibalistic. 583 00:38:51,379 --> 00:38:52,586 'Cause this morning, 584 00:38:52,586 --> 00:38:54,620 they were going bananas all along the edge. 585 00:38:54,620 --> 00:38:56,000 Now that the sun's out and bright, 586 00:38:56,000 --> 00:38:58,172 they moved out a bit. 587 00:38:59,862 --> 00:39:02,448 Nature's gonna be throwing curveballs left and right 588 00:39:02,448 --> 00:39:04,172 every day, 589 00:39:04,275 --> 00:39:06,620 but I'm ready. 590 00:39:06,724 --> 00:39:09,103 There's a lot of subtle cues in nature 591 00:39:09,103 --> 00:39:10,931 that a lot of people might not pick up on, 592 00:39:10,931 --> 00:39:12,379 but you spend enough time out there, 593 00:39:12,482 --> 00:39:15,620 and you can read everything sort of like a book. 594 00:39:15,724 --> 00:39:18,413 You just got to know what to look for. 595 00:39:22,000 --> 00:39:25,448 Dude, come on back. 596 00:39:25,551 --> 00:39:26,827 Pike's right at my feet. 597 00:39:33,379 --> 00:39:34,448 Ooh. 598 00:39:34,448 --> 00:39:37,068 Ah. I lost him. 599 00:39:37,068 --> 00:39:38,793 Dude. 600 00:39:40,655 --> 00:39:42,689 That was insane, man. 601 00:39:43,758 --> 00:39:45,896 Damn it, fish. 602 00:39:45,896 --> 00:39:47,275 You're killing me. 603 00:39:49,206 --> 00:39:51,068 We gotta go fish that river. 604 00:39:52,827 --> 00:39:56,620 It's worth taking the time at our money spot. 605 00:40:07,862 --> 00:40:09,379 He stared right at me, 606 00:40:09,379 --> 00:40:12,586 came up out of the grass that I had it packed in. 607 00:40:12,586 --> 00:40:14,689 There's a freaking mink 608 00:40:14,689 --> 00:40:18,137 eating my meat in my meat cache. 609 00:40:18,241 --> 00:40:19,689 I better get leather gloves in case 610 00:40:19,793 --> 00:40:21,103 I have to grab him. 611 00:40:21,103 --> 00:40:23,103 Mink can bite like the devil. 612 00:40:25,103 --> 00:40:27,620 I'm going to scare it away. 613 00:40:27,724 --> 00:40:29,896 It's in my meat cache right now. 614 00:40:38,689 --> 00:40:42,000 Hoo, hoo, hoo, hoo! 615 00:40:43,551 --> 00:40:45,413 Freaking mink. 616 00:40:45,413 --> 00:40:47,896 There you go. Good. Get out of here, you. 617 00:40:48,896 --> 00:40:52,275 Yeah, mink tracks for sure. 618 00:40:52,379 --> 00:40:54,793 He's run here two days in a row. 619 00:40:58,413 --> 00:41:01,793 I know he'll be back, plus probably others. 620 00:41:01,793 --> 00:41:03,724 Yeah, he chewed up the heart really good. 621 00:41:03,724 --> 00:41:04,724 Look. 622 00:41:04,724 --> 00:41:06,103 That's the moose heart, 623 00:41:06,103 --> 00:41:08,068 and he's eaten the whole bottom end of it off. 624 00:41:08,172 --> 00:41:10,482 So I have a problem now. 625 00:41:10,586 --> 00:41:11,827 Any little thing that gets in there 626 00:41:11,827 --> 00:41:14,655 is going for the fat first, so I'm gonna-- 627 00:41:14,655 --> 00:41:16,103 I'm gonna start rendering this fat, 628 00:41:16,206 --> 00:41:20,241 because the fat is the most precious commodity out here. 629 00:41:24,000 --> 00:41:25,310 It's hard to build something out here 630 00:41:25,413 --> 00:41:26,689 that would be mink-proof. 631 00:41:26,689 --> 00:41:29,482 And pine martens are the same way, same size. 632 00:41:29,482 --> 00:41:31,275 They can get through that stuff. 633 00:41:31,275 --> 00:41:32,344 That's a big problem. 634 00:41:32,448 --> 00:41:35,689 I've got to do something about that meat. 635 00:41:37,344 --> 00:41:38,517 I know one thing. 636 00:41:38,517 --> 00:41:39,517 I've got to start making some containers 637 00:41:39,517 --> 00:41:41,000 and rendering the fat, 638 00:41:41,000 --> 00:41:42,793 'cause the fat is the first thing everything goes for. 639 00:41:42,896 --> 00:41:44,793 And the fat is what I need the most. 640 00:41:44,793 --> 00:41:47,620 So I'm gonna start cooking it down a bit each day 641 00:41:47,620 --> 00:41:50,551 as fast as I can cook it through this pot. 642 00:41:50,551 --> 00:41:54,068 I don't know how else to keep it away from everything. 643 00:42:18,275 --> 00:42:20,034 I have to save the fat. 644 00:42:20,137 --> 00:42:22,896 Starting to render this down pot by pot. 645 00:42:28,137 --> 00:42:29,896 It's sealing. 646 00:42:30,000 --> 00:42:32,655 Yeah. 647 00:42:32,655 --> 00:42:35,137 This birch bark lard canister. 648 00:42:35,241 --> 00:42:36,344 And I'll make more of these and just 649 00:42:36,448 --> 00:42:39,068 fill them with rendered lard. 650 00:42:39,068 --> 00:42:40,931 All right. 651 00:42:40,931 --> 00:42:43,172 I should be moving into my shelter, 652 00:42:43,275 --> 00:42:46,724 but it's big enough, I think, to smoke a whole moose, 653 00:42:46,724 --> 00:42:48,724 so I'm staying in a tarp. 654 00:42:48,724 --> 00:42:53,586 This is just one of many, many huge hunks of meat. 655 00:42:53,586 --> 00:42:57,482 What I'm gonna do is just strip it pretty thin 656 00:42:57,586 --> 00:43:01,896 and get it on a bunch of skewers like this 657 00:43:01,896 --> 00:43:05,896 and hang it in racks inside the smoker. 658 00:43:08,896 --> 00:43:11,931 This is good. Putting up food in the fall. 659 00:43:11,931 --> 00:43:13,482 Food for winter. 660 00:43:13,482 --> 00:43:15,379 Some of my best childhood memories 661 00:43:15,379 --> 00:43:19,103 are putting up food in the fall with my family. 662 00:43:19,103 --> 00:43:21,827 I'm one of 11 kids. 663 00:43:21,931 --> 00:43:23,482 We grew everything we ate; 664 00:43:23,586 --> 00:43:27,379 green beans, apple sauce, tomatoes, venison-- 665 00:43:27,379 --> 00:43:28,620 to keep it any way we could. 666 00:43:28,620 --> 00:43:29,586 We didn't have a refrigerator, you see, 667 00:43:29,586 --> 00:43:31,448 we had no electricity. 668 00:43:31,448 --> 00:43:35,724 Fresh stuff is just so delicious. 669 00:43:37,448 --> 00:43:41,310 I'm torn about smoking this much meat right in my camp. 670 00:43:41,310 --> 00:43:43,448 There's decent-sized bear tracks that I've seen 671 00:43:43,448 --> 00:43:46,137 three times now close to my camp. 672 00:43:46,137 --> 00:43:49,482 But I don't have the luxury of choosing another option, 673 00:43:49,482 --> 00:43:52,034 so I'm just going forward. 674 00:43:54,206 --> 00:43:56,827 The silence out here and the isolation 675 00:43:56,931 --> 00:43:58,793 has really brought me to a point of thinking 676 00:43:58,793 --> 00:44:01,689 about other situations in my life, 677 00:44:01,689 --> 00:44:03,655 doubts that start pouring into my mind. 678 00:44:03,655 --> 00:44:04,689 It's all very dirty 679 00:44:04,793 --> 00:44:07,689 because that mink wallowed in it. 680 00:44:07,689 --> 00:44:09,931 Not real proud of my butchering right now 681 00:44:10,034 --> 00:44:12,034 because I'm in a rush. 682 00:44:12,758 --> 00:44:15,379 All it is is just functional and adequate at the moment. 683 00:44:15,482 --> 00:44:16,965 Nothing beautiful. 684 00:44:18,137 --> 00:44:20,103 When I was a kid, 685 00:44:20,103 --> 00:44:22,931 my parents viewed society as becoming really godless 686 00:44:22,931 --> 00:44:25,965 and wanted to protect their children from that. 687 00:44:25,965 --> 00:44:27,965 But at the time, what I got instead 688 00:44:27,965 --> 00:44:32,241 was the message that God hated everybody. 689 00:44:32,344 --> 00:44:33,827 I remember living every day thinking 690 00:44:33,827 --> 00:44:36,103 that I wasn't worthy of, you know, 691 00:44:36,206 --> 00:44:37,620 the food that I was eating. 692 00:44:37,620 --> 00:44:40,655 Like, I could never deserve to exist. 693 00:44:40,655 --> 00:44:44,068 And I thought you could compensate for that feeling 694 00:44:44,068 --> 00:44:45,689 by hard work. 695 00:44:45,793 --> 00:44:48,620 It's time to get this thing done. 696 00:44:57,896 --> 00:44:59,896 Look at all this meat. 697 00:44:59,896 --> 00:45:01,862 Rows and rows and rows 698 00:45:01,862 --> 00:45:05,241 and rows and rows of it all the way back. 699 00:45:05,241 --> 00:45:07,413 I'm just about to fire it up. 700 00:45:09,068 --> 00:45:10,689 The smell of fresh meat coming from there 701 00:45:10,793 --> 00:45:13,689 is almost overwhelming. 702 00:45:13,689 --> 00:45:18,275 And I've never had such an urge to just eat it just like it is. 703 00:45:20,068 --> 00:45:22,689 Controlling the airflow to the fire 704 00:45:22,689 --> 00:45:24,344 is what's gonna make it smolder and smoke 705 00:45:24,344 --> 00:45:26,620 and not just burn and cook the meat. 706 00:45:26,724 --> 00:45:30,344 So yeah, I think it's gonna work. 707 00:45:34,172 --> 00:45:37,034 As a child, trying to be worthy of living 708 00:45:37,034 --> 00:45:40,379 made me basically suicidal through my teenage years. 709 00:45:40,379 --> 00:45:42,310 And even afterwards as an adult, 710 00:45:42,413 --> 00:45:45,482 I remember it just becoming such a reality for me 711 00:45:45,586 --> 00:45:49,448 that I could not be enough for God or for people. 712 00:45:49,448 --> 00:45:52,448 But now, somehow, out here with nature, 713 00:45:52,448 --> 00:45:55,482 I'm starting to find a peace and balance with God 714 00:45:55,482 --> 00:45:57,448 about my story somehow. 715 00:46:01,344 --> 00:46:03,275 Hoo. 716 00:46:03,379 --> 00:46:06,448 This is a pot of total goodness. 717 00:46:06,551 --> 00:46:07,827 God's bounty. 718 00:46:07,827 --> 00:46:11,275 So I'm gonna sit here and eat my fill. 719 00:46:11,379 --> 00:46:12,862 If I'm a tough person, 720 00:46:12,862 --> 00:46:14,827 it's because of my dad diligently teaching that. 721 00:46:14,827 --> 00:46:16,310 I love him for that. 722 00:46:16,413 --> 00:46:18,482 That's because of my mother, the person who she was 723 00:46:18,482 --> 00:46:20,862 raising 11 kids and schooling them all. 724 00:46:20,862 --> 00:46:22,655 I love her for that. 725 00:46:22,655 --> 00:46:25,310 And out here, I'm actually feeling 726 00:46:25,310 --> 00:46:29,724 just incredible joy in my soul 727 00:46:29,724 --> 00:46:33,862 that I exist, that I live. 728 00:46:33,862 --> 00:46:37,000 I smell cooler weather on the wind. 729 00:46:37,103 --> 00:46:39,689 And I thank God for it. 730 00:46:59,413 --> 00:47:00,862 Welcome, man. 731 00:47:00,862 --> 00:47:02,931 Welcome to "Alone's" first freaking rave. 732 00:47:06,724 --> 00:47:07,827 I think this smoke's starting to make 733 00:47:07,931 --> 00:47:10,034 my head go a little bit wrong. 734 00:47:12,551 --> 00:47:14,137 What is wrong with my head? 735 00:47:15,655 --> 00:47:19,620 I'm not thinking nearly as clearly as I'd normally do. 736 00:47:21,310 --> 00:47:22,689 Ugh. 737 00:47:24,793 --> 00:47:26,689 Let's go fishing. 738 00:47:26,793 --> 00:47:30,034 Because Dub is hungry. 739 00:47:36,517 --> 00:47:37,758 Couple more days of no food, 740 00:47:37,758 --> 00:47:43,172 and I will probably fall into a downward spiral. 741 00:47:43,172 --> 00:47:45,517 Today has got to be a good one. 742 00:47:49,206 --> 00:47:52,206 I need to start focusing on food again. 743 00:47:54,793 --> 00:47:57,620 There's my pike club right there. 744 00:48:00,275 --> 00:48:03,655 I'm gonna make a bushcraft... 745 00:48:03,655 --> 00:48:05,103 situation here. 746 00:48:07,344 --> 00:48:11,413 So this is gonna make it so that when a pike hits, 747 00:48:11,517 --> 00:48:13,103 this rig that I'm making 748 00:48:13,103 --> 00:48:16,586 is gonna set the hook automatically on the pike. 749 00:48:16,586 --> 00:48:20,586 So this is gonna be... 750 00:48:20,586 --> 00:48:24,068 pretty much what you call an L7 trigger. 751 00:48:24,172 --> 00:48:27,655 So it's two triggers that sit together like that. 752 00:48:27,758 --> 00:48:29,551 So when this trigger, 753 00:48:29,655 --> 00:48:33,241 the top trigger, gets pulled off, boom. 754 00:48:33,241 --> 00:48:36,965 This stick... 755 00:48:37,068 --> 00:48:40,896 that I'm carving right here... 756 00:48:40,896 --> 00:48:44,172 is gonna get jammed into the ground. 757 00:48:44,172 --> 00:48:47,310 And then I'm gonna get a nice, super spring-loaded tree, 758 00:48:47,310 --> 00:48:50,034 and I can set the hook on the fish. 759 00:48:50,137 --> 00:48:52,379 Probably from about age seven or eight, 760 00:48:52,379 --> 00:48:54,551 I decided I wanted to be a pro fisherman, 761 00:48:54,551 --> 00:48:56,068 so I bought a bass boat 762 00:48:56,172 --> 00:48:59,137 and won a bunch of bass tournaments. 763 00:48:59,137 --> 00:49:03,724 Turns out gas for bass boats is really expensive. 764 00:49:03,724 --> 00:49:06,241 There was a time I had just enough gas in my boat 765 00:49:06,241 --> 00:49:08,517 and my truck to make it to the tournament. 766 00:49:08,517 --> 00:49:10,724 But in the back of my truck was a trash bag 767 00:49:10,724 --> 00:49:12,413 filled with pop cans. 768 00:49:12,517 --> 00:49:16,517 And in Michigan, they have a 10¢ refund on cans. 769 00:49:16,517 --> 00:49:17,965 I'm like, "If I don't win it, 770 00:49:17,965 --> 00:49:19,551 "I'm gonna have to turn these pop cans in 771 00:49:19,551 --> 00:49:22,275 and get, like, four bucks and maybe get home." 772 00:49:22,379 --> 00:49:27,551 So I risked all my money that I had to pay the entry fee. 773 00:49:27,551 --> 00:49:30,000 That's actually really easy. 774 00:49:30,000 --> 00:49:32,586 So I'm just tying them. 775 00:49:32,586 --> 00:49:34,931 Overhand loop. 776 00:49:35,034 --> 00:49:36,482 Now, I want to tie it right around the area 777 00:49:36,586 --> 00:49:38,241 where this trigger is. 778 00:49:38,241 --> 00:49:40,344 So I go there, win the bass tournament. 779 00:49:40,448 --> 00:49:41,862 I win, like, 5 grand. 780 00:49:41,862 --> 00:49:44,379 And fortunately, I didn't have to use my pop cans. 781 00:49:44,482 --> 00:49:47,551 That's how poor I am and how much I love fishing. 782 00:49:49,517 --> 00:49:52,137 So we want one more loop. 783 00:49:52,137 --> 00:49:55,275 Probably right about there. 784 00:49:56,827 --> 00:49:58,379 And they fit on each other. 785 00:49:58,379 --> 00:50:03,206 So when something pulls even pretty lightly right there... 786 00:50:03,206 --> 00:50:05,793 it's gonna pull this trigger off that, 787 00:50:05,793 --> 00:50:08,137 and this rod's gonna spring like crazy. 788 00:50:09,965 --> 00:50:11,620 Something's happening on this one. 789 00:50:11,620 --> 00:50:13,275 Something just hit. 790 00:50:16,586 --> 00:50:17,655 That's definitely got it. 791 00:50:17,655 --> 00:50:19,793 I'm gonna give it a little line. 792 00:50:21,689 --> 00:50:23,689 Hmm. 793 00:50:23,689 --> 00:50:26,655 Hook set right there, boy. 794 00:50:31,689 --> 00:50:33,379 He's coming. 795 00:50:36,689 --> 00:50:38,689 Good size. 796 00:50:38,689 --> 00:50:40,551 It's a really good size. 797 00:50:45,137 --> 00:50:47,000 Hell yeah, little pike. 798 00:50:47,000 --> 00:50:48,827 Yeah. 799 00:50:51,379 --> 00:50:54,241 Yes! Dude. 800 00:50:54,241 --> 00:50:57,482 Put them up on these pine boughs. 801 00:51:00,068 --> 00:51:02,137 Oh, hell. 802 00:51:02,137 --> 00:51:03,896 I weakened ya. 803 00:51:05,379 --> 00:51:07,965 And what I'm gonna do is 804 00:51:07,965 --> 00:51:11,275 cast this one back out... 805 00:51:11,379 --> 00:51:15,862 and let it fish while I clean that pike. 806 00:51:15,965 --> 00:51:17,655 There's gonna be a time frame where 807 00:51:17,655 --> 00:51:21,068 the river starts to freeze and I can't ice fish. 808 00:51:21,068 --> 00:51:23,655 Can't walk on the ice till it's at least 4 inches. 809 00:51:23,655 --> 00:51:25,551 So I'm gonna be snaring. 810 00:51:25,655 --> 00:51:28,379 I'm gonna do hunting and trapping, everything. 811 00:51:28,482 --> 00:51:30,517 Fishing will not get you all the way, 812 00:51:30,517 --> 00:51:32,344 no matter how good you are at it. 813 00:51:32,448 --> 00:51:35,517 So I want to try to bring this one in 814 00:51:35,517 --> 00:51:37,275 without triggering it 815 00:51:37,275 --> 00:51:40,586 and put a fresh piece of bait on there. 816 00:51:40,689 --> 00:51:42,000 And right then--look at that. 817 00:51:42,103 --> 00:51:43,758 Right then, something's grabbing that. 818 00:51:43,758 --> 00:51:45,931 Look at that. 819 00:51:45,931 --> 00:51:47,758 That line's moving right now. 820 00:51:49,965 --> 00:51:51,655 That's game on. 821 00:51:56,793 --> 00:51:58,896 Holy crap. Are you kidding me? 822 00:52:06,068 --> 00:52:07,448 Boom! 823 00:52:09,103 --> 00:52:10,827 Got him. 824 00:52:17,551 --> 00:52:19,172 Coming right at me. 825 00:52:21,965 --> 00:52:23,068 Yeah. 826 00:52:23,172 --> 00:52:25,586 Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes. yes, yes, yes, yes. 827 00:52:27,000 --> 00:52:29,275 Get in here, bro. Mm, mm. 828 00:52:34,241 --> 00:52:35,586 Yeah! 829 00:52:42,068 --> 00:52:44,068 Thank you, spring pole. 830 00:52:46,275 --> 00:52:48,793 He wasn't coming off that big hook. 831 00:52:51,344 --> 00:52:52,724 Oh, my goodness. 832 00:52:52,724 --> 00:52:55,241 That is so amazing, dude. 833 00:52:55,344 --> 00:52:57,551 Rod demonstration, done. 834 00:53:00,000 --> 00:53:03,379 And I could not be any freaking happier. 835 00:53:04,827 --> 00:53:07,896 'Cause it's freaking lunch time! 836 00:53:09,862 --> 00:53:12,862 I love nature more than anything. 837 00:53:12,862 --> 00:53:15,620 Nature is honest. 838 00:53:15,724 --> 00:53:17,379 People, in general, are not honest. 839 00:53:17,379 --> 00:53:20,137 But fish aren't gonna lie to you. 840 00:53:20,137 --> 00:53:23,413 The grizzly bear is not gonna lie to you. 841 00:53:23,413 --> 00:53:25,379 Grizzly bear is just gonna kill you. 842 00:53:25,379 --> 00:53:27,137 It's not hiding that fact. 843 00:53:28,275 --> 00:53:29,862 So I strongly believe that 844 00:53:29,965 --> 00:53:31,068 you're never gonna beat nature. 845 00:53:31,172 --> 00:53:33,862 But when nature throws you a tidal wave, 846 00:53:33,862 --> 00:53:38,310 you build a bushcraft surfboard and ride it out. 847 00:53:38,413 --> 00:53:41,034 I'm so happy we got that spring pole. 848 00:53:42,448 --> 00:53:43,931 Yes. 849 00:54:00,551 --> 00:54:03,241 I'm gonna go get some more water. 850 00:54:11,724 --> 00:54:14,103 Look at that. 851 00:54:14,103 --> 00:54:18,448 It's a happy family of swans. 852 00:54:21,172 --> 00:54:22,551 That's what I want. 853 00:54:22,551 --> 00:54:25,172 I want to start a family. 854 00:54:27,344 --> 00:54:32,551 I really want my future kids to see the possibilities 855 00:54:32,551 --> 00:54:35,344 of a life living close to the land. 856 00:54:35,344 --> 00:54:39,620 And I hope that I inspire them to follow in my footsteps 857 00:54:39,620 --> 00:54:43,241 like I'm following my parents' footsteps. 858 00:54:50,448 --> 00:54:52,896 Got some water. 859 00:54:52,896 --> 00:54:56,068 Boil it and then get back to work. 860 00:55:04,241 --> 00:55:06,275 I thought this would be a really good spot 861 00:55:06,379 --> 00:55:10,275 to set up a squirrel pole. 862 00:55:10,275 --> 00:55:14,206 Because there is a very active squirrel here. 863 00:55:52,000 --> 00:55:53,517 I feel so alone. 864 00:55:53,620 --> 00:55:57,862 I feel really alone, and it's really hard for me. 865 00:55:57,862 --> 00:56:00,586 It's hard for my mentality. 866 00:56:02,517 --> 00:56:06,000 I just--I came into this game so mentally strong. 867 00:56:06,000 --> 00:56:08,241 I thought I was so strong. 868 00:56:08,344 --> 00:56:09,517 And then I came out here 869 00:56:09,620 --> 00:56:15,172 and I just feel like my brain is struggling. 870 00:56:15,172 --> 00:56:18,655 It's mentally really tough out here. 871 00:56:18,655 --> 00:56:21,413 I don't like it. 872 00:56:24,655 --> 00:56:26,724 I feel like I'm going back and forth 873 00:56:26,724 --> 00:56:30,551 between feeling great success here 874 00:56:30,551 --> 00:56:33,724 and then feeling anxiety, 875 00:56:33,724 --> 00:56:35,758 almost a sense of depression coming in 876 00:56:35,758 --> 00:56:39,724 because I feel so disconnected. 877 00:56:41,310 --> 00:56:43,586 I live in an isolated place, far away from people 878 00:56:43,586 --> 00:56:45,862 and I've spent a lot of time alone. 879 00:56:47,344 --> 00:56:49,586 But this feels different somehow. 880 00:56:49,586 --> 00:56:52,413 It's really isolated here. 881 00:56:52,413 --> 00:56:56,068 I've chosen this path, but this extreme sense 882 00:56:56,068 --> 00:57:00,068 of being taken away from my family and my culture 883 00:57:00,068 --> 00:57:03,586 and placed in this environment that I'm unfamiliar with 884 00:57:03,689 --> 00:57:05,758 is really instilling in me 885 00:57:05,758 --> 00:57:08,655 that feeling of what it might be like 886 00:57:08,758 --> 00:57:12,137 to be taken away to a residential school. 887 00:57:14,137 --> 00:57:15,344 I didn't think that these feelings 888 00:57:15,344 --> 00:57:17,655 would come up out here. 889 00:57:17,758 --> 00:57:19,827 I thought this was in my past. 890 00:57:19,827 --> 00:57:23,000 I mean, one place that I feel most healthy 891 00:57:23,000 --> 00:57:25,344 is when I'm in nature. 892 00:57:25,448 --> 00:57:29,068 But for some reason, there is a huge piece of me missing. 893 00:57:31,034 --> 00:57:33,517 Oh, I just wanted to be out here. 894 00:57:35,655 --> 00:57:39,068 At the same time, I feel, 895 00:57:39,068 --> 00:57:41,344 as an Indigenous woman, 896 00:57:41,344 --> 00:57:43,965 I need to keep staying here, 897 00:57:43,965 --> 00:57:47,413 that I need to keep pushing myself. 898 00:58:20,379 --> 00:58:22,620 It [bleep] sucks. 899 00:58:25,000 --> 00:58:28,034 And everything is fine. Everything's good. 900 00:58:28,034 --> 00:58:31,103 My shelter is getting warmer. 901 00:58:31,206 --> 00:58:32,827 I have food. 902 00:58:35,482 --> 00:58:37,896 I'll just keep going. 903 00:58:41,034 --> 00:58:43,310 Come on. Just one more day. 904 00:58:43,310 --> 00:58:45,586 Just one more day. 905 00:59:04,310 --> 00:59:08,482 You know... 906 00:59:08,482 --> 00:59:10,517 the more time I spend here, 907 00:59:10,517 --> 00:59:14,000 the more I want to be with someone that is from here, 908 00:59:14,103 --> 00:59:16,379 the Gwich'in and Aleut. 909 00:59:16,482 --> 00:59:19,034 I want them to show me how much they love this land, 910 00:59:19,137 --> 00:59:21,379 what they know about this land. 911 00:59:23,586 --> 00:59:27,241 I came here with skills enough to feed me, 912 00:59:27,344 --> 00:59:31,896 to shelter me, to keep me alive and thriving. 913 00:59:34,655 --> 00:59:37,206 This is an amazing experience for me. 914 00:59:40,206 --> 00:59:42,724 But I wish I was with someone. 915 00:59:46,310 --> 00:59:49,689 I just want to get through the isolation. 916 00:59:50,379 --> 00:59:53,482 So I want to go check the fishnet. 917 01:00:07,137 --> 01:00:08,793 Look at that. 918 01:00:25,482 --> 01:00:27,344 . 919 01:00:36,344 --> 01:00:40,034 It just didn't feel right, keeping that fish. 920 01:00:40,137 --> 01:00:41,689 I need to honor it. 921 01:00:41,689 --> 01:00:44,172 I need to eat it with joy. 922 01:00:47,344 --> 01:00:48,758 Ugh. 923 01:01:01,551 --> 01:01:02,793 18 days. 924 01:01:02,896 --> 01:01:06,379 I got this far. 925 01:01:06,379 --> 01:01:08,379 I got this far. 926 01:01:11,206 --> 01:01:14,000 Oh, what the heck? 927 01:01:15,206 --> 01:01:16,827 I don't want to go to that place again. 928 01:01:16,827 --> 01:01:19,793 I don't want to have another mental breakdown 929 01:01:19,793 --> 01:01:23,689 that I can't come back from that takes me years and years. 930 01:01:26,068 --> 01:01:27,275 It's a delicate balance 931 01:01:27,275 --> 01:01:30,068 and you really got to be careful. 932 01:01:37,793 --> 01:01:40,103 This is a nice place. 933 01:01:40,103 --> 01:01:42,896 It'll always be in my memories. 934 01:01:44,689 --> 01:01:46,620 It's time to call in. 935 01:01:52,965 --> 01:01:56,000 Hi, this is Michela. I'm officially tapping out. 936 01:02:11,344 --> 01:02:15,241 I just couldn't deal with the social isolation aspect of it. 937 01:02:16,724 --> 01:02:19,620 I needed to be connected again to people, 938 01:02:19,724 --> 01:02:21,586 to my family, to my home. 939 01:02:23,586 --> 01:02:25,241 It's been a really beautiful time here. 940 01:02:25,241 --> 01:02:27,241 I've had so many blessings. 941 01:02:27,241 --> 01:02:31,068 And this competition has made me understand that 942 01:02:31,068 --> 01:02:33,137 I am the Saskatchewan River Delta, 943 01:02:33,241 --> 01:02:36,551 I am my home, I am my family, 944 01:02:36,655 --> 01:02:39,413 and I really feel that in my heart now. 945 01:02:44,517 --> 01:02:49,137 It's really disappointing to have to go home so early, 946 01:02:49,137 --> 01:02:51,931 but this experience has taught me 947 01:02:51,931 --> 01:02:55,689 something even deeper than I've ever known before. 948 01:02:56,896 --> 01:02:59,827 Finally, I can say "ninistohten" 949 01:02:59,827 --> 01:03:02,310 because now, I understand completely 950 01:03:02,413 --> 01:03:08,241 how being Indigenous is more than just living off the land. 951 01:03:08,241 --> 01:03:12,689 We need community. We need connection. 952 01:03:12,689 --> 01:03:14,965 And I'm feeling a really strong calling 953 01:03:14,965 --> 01:03:18,000 to go home with a new sense of how to share 954 01:03:18,103 --> 01:03:21,206 what I know about Cree culture. 955 01:03:21,310 --> 01:03:24,137 I need to take people out into nature, 956 01:03:24,137 --> 01:03:25,482 onto the canoe trips, 957 01:03:25,586 --> 01:03:28,586 and we can just connect deeply to each other. 958 01:03:29,965 --> 01:03:33,275 I came here to take care of my family. 959 01:03:33,379 --> 01:03:38,827 But now, I realize that there's no way to separate us. 960 01:03:38,827 --> 01:03:41,137 We're stronger together. 961 01:03:41,241 --> 01:03:44,965 So I feel like I am going home with a prize. 962 01:03:49,896 --> 01:03:53,517 They're doing med check sometime today. 963 01:03:53,517 --> 01:03:55,103 I must be getting sick. 964 01:03:56,275 --> 01:03:57,689 Kind of nervous. 965 01:03:57,689 --> 01:03:59,206 How thorough is the med check? 966 01:04:01,793 --> 01:04:04,034 My stomach is feeling really lean. 967 01:04:04,034 --> 01:04:06,827 I'm actually worried about this med check. 968 01:04:06,827 --> 01:04:08,275 OK, that's sore. 969 01:04:08,275 --> 01:04:09,896 I've thought about whether or not I should just 970 01:04:09,896 --> 01:04:13,724 grit my teeth and fake it through this check. 971 01:04:13,724 --> 01:04:18,137 We need to officially extract you for medical reasons.