1 00:00:17,931 --> 00:00:19,689 This is a nasty place. 2 00:00:19,689 --> 00:00:21,000 You gotta be damn tough... 3 00:00:23,137 --> 00:00:26,965 And damn stubborn to still be here doing this right now. 4 00:00:26,965 --> 00:00:28,413 Go home, guys. 5 00:00:30,379 --> 00:00:33,137 Building this lean-to reminds me of my family. 6 00:00:33,137 --> 00:00:34,137 I miss them. 7 00:00:34,137 --> 00:00:35,655 My boy is turning 12. 8 00:00:35,655 --> 00:00:37,344 My last coney head. 9 00:00:37,344 --> 00:00:39,206 I hated to miss his birthday. 10 00:00:39,206 --> 00:00:40,862 I'll remember this meal forever. 11 00:00:40,862 --> 00:00:43,206 I've got one toe that's super painful. 12 00:00:43,206 --> 00:00:44,482 No. 13 00:00:44,482 --> 00:00:45,827 I need my sleeping bag. 14 00:00:45,827 --> 00:00:49,344 I'm losing all feeling. 15 00:00:49,344 --> 00:00:51,206 Med check. 16 00:00:52,344 --> 00:00:54,068 This has gotta be it. 17 00:00:54,068 --> 00:00:56,620 Dub Paetz, the winner of season 11 "Alone." 18 00:01:12,000 --> 00:01:14,000 Oh, [bleep]. 19 00:01:30,931 --> 00:01:32,517 OK. 20 00:01:34,793 --> 00:01:36,758 Firewood patrol. 21 00:01:40,620 --> 00:01:43,724 It's harder every day to get this damn wood, man. 22 00:01:46,344 --> 00:01:48,448 I was really let down today when I found out 23 00:01:48,448 --> 00:01:50,862 that I wasn't done, man. 24 00:01:52,758 --> 00:01:55,896 I thought, holy crap, dude. 25 00:01:55,896 --> 00:01:58,724 They got my dad or my mom or my sister or somebody 26 00:01:58,724 --> 00:02:00,137 hidden in that helicopter, 27 00:02:00,137 --> 00:02:02,413 and they're gonna sneak around right now. 28 00:02:03,965 --> 00:02:06,344 But that didn't happen. 29 00:02:08,000 --> 00:02:09,620 I was like, what the hell, dude? 30 00:02:09,620 --> 00:02:11,000 Come on. 31 00:02:11,000 --> 00:02:12,758 This can't be real. 32 00:02:16,172 --> 00:02:18,275 I never should have allowed myself to-- 33 00:02:18,275 --> 00:02:19,896 to let that sink in, that I-- 34 00:02:19,896 --> 00:02:22,137 I was gonna go home. 35 00:02:22,137 --> 00:02:24,758 I should have just continued on with the thought process 36 00:02:24,758 --> 00:02:31,034 of do not set expectations that you aren't sure of, 37 00:02:31,034 --> 00:02:34,379 because you could be here for a lot longer still. 38 00:02:34,379 --> 00:02:36,586 And here we are. 39 00:02:38,413 --> 00:02:40,103 We're here for who knows-- 40 00:02:40,103 --> 00:02:43,379 we still might be here another 30-plus days. 41 00:02:49,413 --> 00:02:51,379 Get back to work, dude. 42 00:02:54,310 --> 00:02:55,896 You never know, man. 43 00:02:57,724 --> 00:03:01,931 Whoever that is out there, they might have kids, dude. 44 00:03:01,931 --> 00:03:03,344 They're gonna miss those kids, 45 00:03:03,344 --> 00:03:05,551 and they're gonna probably want to go home for that. 46 00:03:07,448 --> 00:03:09,413 All right, I think I'm gonna go fishing. 47 00:03:25,275 --> 00:03:28,241 Let me feel that sweet strike. 48 00:03:34,344 --> 00:03:38,724 It's so crazy not having the sun ever come up. 49 00:03:38,724 --> 00:03:42,655 Goes to the edge of the horizon and never pops. 50 00:03:44,172 --> 00:03:47,620 What the hell is gonna happen in permanent darkness? 51 00:04:03,655 --> 00:04:05,551 I'm in a desperate situation. 52 00:04:05,551 --> 00:04:08,517 I got a couple of days worth of food left, at the most. 53 00:04:10,000 --> 00:04:12,172 I'm gonna think positively. 54 00:04:13,413 --> 00:04:17,482 Negativity is freaking cancer out here. 55 00:04:21,000 --> 00:04:24,344 I'll tell you, this has been the hardest thing 56 00:04:24,344 --> 00:04:27,827 I've ever done in my life. 57 00:04:27,827 --> 00:04:30,448 And it's not necessarily the survival part of it. 58 00:04:30,448 --> 00:04:33,862 It's the not pushing the button part that's been hard. 59 00:04:33,862 --> 00:04:35,344 It's so easy to do. 60 00:04:35,344 --> 00:04:37,034 It's just one moment of weakness, 61 00:04:37,034 --> 00:04:39,206 and you push it, and boom, you're gone. 62 00:04:39,206 --> 00:04:42,103 But it's the kind of thing that can come back 63 00:04:42,103 --> 00:04:43,586 to haunt you and regret-- 64 00:04:43,586 --> 00:04:46,862 and have regrets the rest of your life. 65 00:04:46,862 --> 00:04:50,137 About 30 years ago, my dad had the opportunity 66 00:04:50,137 --> 00:04:55,758 to buy a cabin on a particular river that he loves, 67 00:04:55,758 --> 00:04:57,931 that we both loved. 68 00:04:57,931 --> 00:05:00,241 And he let somebody talk him out of buying it, 69 00:05:00,241 --> 00:05:03,241 and he's regretted it for his entire life. 70 00:05:03,241 --> 00:05:07,931 Dude, one little quick decision can bring 71 00:05:07,931 --> 00:05:11,724 so much haunting and so much pain. 72 00:05:11,724 --> 00:05:15,689 So that's what that red button is. 73 00:05:15,689 --> 00:05:19,517 The red button is a dream-crushing killer 74 00:05:19,517 --> 00:05:22,586 that's got a nice little sugar coating on it. 75 00:05:22,586 --> 00:05:24,206 And once you push it... 76 00:05:27,275 --> 00:05:29,655 You get the sugar, 77 00:05:29,655 --> 00:05:32,413 but you don't get the big cake that's--that's coming 78 00:05:32,413 --> 00:05:36,172 after it if you push-- push on through and wait. 79 00:05:57,344 --> 00:05:59,344 T-shirt full of moose. 80 00:06:00,689 --> 00:06:02,172 And that's not all of it. 81 00:06:02,172 --> 00:06:03,965 That's not all of it. 82 00:06:11,827 --> 00:06:13,448 Mmm. 83 00:06:13,448 --> 00:06:15,103 That's good. 84 00:06:18,482 --> 00:06:20,241 Every now and then you just find a piece of jerky 85 00:06:20,241 --> 00:06:22,517 that's so much better than the rest. 86 00:06:24,551 --> 00:06:27,965 All right, I'm gonna go have a look at the fish lines. 87 00:06:30,965 --> 00:06:33,413 I know I can go past 100 days on the jerky. 88 00:06:34,862 --> 00:06:38,586 But once I get down to eating only jerky, 89 00:06:38,586 --> 00:06:40,517 I know that's gonna play a major factor 90 00:06:40,517 --> 00:06:43,275 in where I'm at in my mind. 91 00:06:43,275 --> 00:06:44,827 My gums just bleed. 92 00:06:44,827 --> 00:06:46,758 My teeth are tore up from eating it. 93 00:06:48,310 --> 00:06:51,689 So I'd really like to get more fresh meat and fish. 94 00:06:53,206 --> 00:06:55,655 My ice fishing--so far, 95 00:06:55,655 --> 00:06:58,931 the results have been really disappointing. 96 00:06:58,931 --> 00:07:02,482 I'm not sure if the pike have largely left my little zone 97 00:07:02,482 --> 00:07:05,793 of the river or if they're doing something 98 00:07:05,793 --> 00:07:07,793 completely different. 99 00:07:07,793 --> 00:07:09,517 But my instincts tell me I'm missing 100 00:07:09,517 --> 00:07:11,931 some opportunities there. 101 00:07:11,931 --> 00:07:15,724 Let's see if there's been any action on these fish lines. 102 00:07:15,724 --> 00:07:17,551 And the only thing different is that 103 00:07:17,551 --> 00:07:20,482 I put guts on it yesterday. 104 00:07:20,482 --> 00:07:25,724 So some slight chance to be eager about. 105 00:07:30,724 --> 00:07:32,724 No. 106 00:07:32,724 --> 00:07:34,517 I think everybody in the whole world 107 00:07:34,517 --> 00:07:36,586 ought to do "Alone," really. 108 00:07:36,586 --> 00:07:40,172 I think it would help everyone. 109 00:07:40,172 --> 00:07:41,793 It's helped me so much. 110 00:07:41,793 --> 00:07:42,931 And I've loved it. 111 00:07:42,931 --> 00:07:45,000 This is my thing, you know? 112 00:07:45,000 --> 00:07:46,827 I'm a wild man. I love the wilderness. 113 00:07:46,827 --> 00:07:48,965 I just love the wilderness. 114 00:07:50,241 --> 00:07:52,034 Out here, I've experienced 115 00:07:52,034 --> 00:07:55,344 some huge windfalls of food 116 00:07:55,344 --> 00:07:58,068 and also food insecurity. 117 00:08:00,241 --> 00:08:02,103 There's something there, I think. 118 00:08:04,793 --> 00:08:06,586 Nope. 119 00:08:06,586 --> 00:08:08,206 Empty. 120 00:08:08,206 --> 00:08:10,068 And I'm thinking about all those people 121 00:08:10,068 --> 00:08:12,551 that I've seen in conflict zones 122 00:08:12,551 --> 00:08:16,827 and disaster zones that have to live with that reality 123 00:08:16,827 --> 00:08:18,206 as their life. 124 00:08:18,206 --> 00:08:19,862 They don't have a button that they can push 125 00:08:19,862 --> 00:08:22,103 to be like, OK, I'm done. 126 00:08:22,103 --> 00:08:23,965 I want food now. 127 00:08:23,965 --> 00:08:28,448 And I think to exist as a human in this world 128 00:08:28,448 --> 00:08:30,310 and not look into that and see if there's 129 00:08:30,310 --> 00:08:34,655 something that we can do, it's a shame of an existence. 130 00:08:37,379 --> 00:08:38,931 Oh, well. 131 00:08:40,206 --> 00:08:43,241 I'm gonna go get a fish out of the food cache. 132 00:08:51,275 --> 00:08:54,827 All right, guys, I want to show you what I have. 133 00:08:54,827 --> 00:08:56,896 I have a chunk of fish. 134 00:08:56,896 --> 00:08:59,862 I was gonna cook this whole thing for supper tonight. 135 00:08:59,862 --> 00:09:05,206 But let me tell you, it struck my mind 136 00:09:05,206 --> 00:09:10,379 how many children tonight won't have a meal at all. 137 00:09:10,379 --> 00:09:12,206 And it breaks my heart. 138 00:09:12,206 --> 00:09:14,758 And I'm gonna take the tail section of this fish 139 00:09:14,758 --> 00:09:17,586 that I would have eaten, 140 00:09:17,586 --> 00:09:19,172 and instead of cooking it tonight, 141 00:09:19,172 --> 00:09:22,206 I'm gonna put it right here, 142 00:09:22,206 --> 00:09:24,172 and maybe a wild animal will come get it, 143 00:09:24,172 --> 00:09:25,896 maybe a pine marten that's been running around 144 00:09:25,896 --> 00:09:26,896 or a gray jays. 145 00:09:26,896 --> 00:09:28,758 They'll eat it, for sure. 146 00:09:28,758 --> 00:09:32,448 But instead of eating that tail section, 147 00:09:32,448 --> 00:09:35,310 I want to raise awareness for those children 148 00:09:35,310 --> 00:09:38,620 who won't have anything to eat tonight. 149 00:09:38,620 --> 00:09:42,758 That is more important 150 00:09:42,758 --> 00:09:45,448 than a piece of fish and a warm meal. 151 00:10:20,310 --> 00:10:21,965 A snowy day in the Northland. 152 00:10:21,965 --> 00:10:25,137 Boy, we got a snowy day in the Northland. 153 00:10:28,827 --> 00:10:30,758 Yep. 154 00:10:30,758 --> 00:10:32,034 Old lean-to behind me. 155 00:10:32,034 --> 00:10:33,551 Boy, it's getting a little better all the time. 156 00:10:33,551 --> 00:10:34,758 A few small branches here. 157 00:10:36,724 --> 00:10:38,620 I'll fill all that in now. 158 00:10:42,448 --> 00:10:43,965 That's the plan, no? 159 00:10:48,724 --> 00:10:50,275 A cup of coffee now wouldn't hurt. 160 00:10:54,655 --> 00:10:56,862 The wife's chocolate cake and dream whip 161 00:10:56,862 --> 00:10:58,793 would be all right too. 162 00:10:58,793 --> 00:11:01,827 I don't know why, but that's the only thing I really crave. 163 00:11:03,793 --> 00:11:05,551 Something sweet, I guess. 164 00:11:10,413 --> 00:11:11,827 Whoo-whee. 165 00:11:11,827 --> 00:11:12,827 Ooh, I'll tell you. 166 00:11:14,413 --> 00:11:15,448 Ooh. 167 00:11:19,655 --> 00:11:22,896 First thing I gotta do is check the rabbit snares. 168 00:11:27,517 --> 00:11:29,034 The days are getting super short, 169 00:11:29,034 --> 00:11:31,689 and it'll be getting colder and colder and colder. 170 00:11:31,689 --> 00:11:32,896 This late in the game, 171 00:11:32,896 --> 00:11:34,896 you spend a lot of time in the tilt. 172 00:11:36,827 --> 00:11:39,413 Right there. 173 00:11:39,413 --> 00:11:42,448 I'm always looking for fresh rabbit tracks. 174 00:12:00,517 --> 00:12:02,344 Very encouraging, what I'm seeing here. 175 00:12:03,827 --> 00:12:06,275 Set a couple more rabbit snares over this way now. 176 00:12:07,620 --> 00:12:09,862 I can't let my food stock go too low. 177 00:12:09,862 --> 00:12:12,206 I'm getting hunger pangs. 178 00:12:12,206 --> 00:12:15,724 I think about my wife's chocolate cake every night. 179 00:12:15,724 --> 00:12:17,827 Pretty much that's all I do, dream of food. 180 00:12:17,827 --> 00:12:21,758 But I think that's because I'm missing her, too. 181 00:12:21,758 --> 00:12:23,275 Yeah, that's pretty good. 182 00:12:26,275 --> 00:12:29,896 Yeah, I'm just gonna check the ice fishing hole. 183 00:12:37,827 --> 00:12:40,517 The old net hasn't been producing lately. 184 00:12:40,517 --> 00:12:41,793 I'm well at fishing, 185 00:12:41,793 --> 00:12:43,793 and she's, like, rock solid in, like, 186 00:12:43,793 --> 00:12:45,413 being able to look after things. 187 00:12:45,413 --> 00:12:47,793 But you just--you never know. 188 00:12:47,793 --> 00:12:49,827 I just hope everything's going well. 189 00:12:49,827 --> 00:12:52,344 The mama whitefish, that's what we're going after. 190 00:12:53,586 --> 00:12:54,931 I really miss her. 191 00:12:56,448 --> 00:12:58,827 No fish. 192 00:12:58,827 --> 00:13:00,482 The water levels has dropped. 193 00:13:02,517 --> 00:13:05,655 Yeah, that's not good. 194 00:13:05,655 --> 00:13:08,724 No rabbits, nothing in the net. 195 00:13:18,034 --> 00:13:20,000 Oh, God. 196 00:13:20,000 --> 00:13:21,241 My hair froze in it. 197 00:13:41,137 --> 00:13:43,965 Guys, I'm really nervous because I've come this far. 198 00:13:43,965 --> 00:13:45,586 I really want to win this. 199 00:13:46,758 --> 00:13:48,551 And now, ladies and gentlemen, 200 00:13:48,551 --> 00:13:53,793 it is finally time for the epic conclusion of Trial by Fire. 201 00:13:53,793 --> 00:13:55,620 The tribes are assembled. 202 00:13:55,620 --> 00:13:57,551 Alliances are forming. 203 00:13:57,551 --> 00:13:58,793 Give it all you've got, guys. 204 00:13:58,793 --> 00:13:59,793 Five. 205 00:13:59,793 --> 00:14:02,517 Ah! 206 00:14:02,517 --> 00:14:05,172 Seven players remain, and I am one of them. 207 00:14:05,172 --> 00:14:07,103 A lot of broken alliances last time. 208 00:14:07,103 --> 00:14:08,862 Short Johnny came up short. 209 00:14:08,862 --> 00:14:11,344 Ah! 210 00:14:11,344 --> 00:14:14,379 The stakes are high. 211 00:14:14,379 --> 00:14:16,413 Let's keep it tight. 212 00:14:16,413 --> 00:14:18,896 Guys, I'm in the third voting position. 213 00:14:18,896 --> 00:14:23,379 Alexandra is second, and Daryl is first. 214 00:14:23,379 --> 00:14:24,413 Three! 215 00:14:24,413 --> 00:14:25,413 One vote for three. 216 00:14:25,413 --> 00:14:26,931 Guys, I got one vote. 217 00:14:26,931 --> 00:14:28,620 At least I will not be going home 218 00:14:28,620 --> 00:14:30,000 with a big goose egg, no votes. 219 00:14:30,000 --> 00:14:32,034 I got one vote, and there's still a chance. 220 00:14:32,034 --> 00:14:33,275 Three! Another vote. 221 00:14:33,275 --> 00:14:35,586 That puts Timber and Alexandra even. 222 00:14:35,586 --> 00:14:38,103 I'm so nervous. 223 00:14:38,103 --> 00:14:39,517 A two. 224 00:14:39,517 --> 00:14:45,448 And it is Alexandra who wins Trial by Fire! 225 00:14:45,448 --> 00:14:47,275 I cannot believe this! 226 00:14:47,275 --> 00:14:48,724 I cannot believe it-- it was close with Timber, 227 00:14:48,724 --> 00:14:50,172 but I was right to make alliance 228 00:14:50,172 --> 00:14:51,862 and go with him, to trust him. 229 00:14:51,862 --> 00:14:54,172 We gotta the end, and I won. 230 00:14:54,172 --> 00:14:55,896 And just so you guys know, in real life, 231 00:14:55,896 --> 00:14:57,586 my wife's middle name is Alexandra. 232 00:14:57,586 --> 00:14:59,172 So this is who I'm picturing this whole time 233 00:14:59,172 --> 00:15:00,793 with this cool player in the middle. 234 00:15:00,793 --> 00:15:02,206 Eh-eh-eh, 235 00:15:02,206 --> 00:15:04,310 so cheesy and sappy, but I like it. 236 00:15:06,517 --> 00:15:10,793 It's supposed to be morning, late morning. 237 00:15:10,793 --> 00:15:13,793 The sun scarcely comes up at all now, 238 00:15:13,793 --> 00:15:16,724 but it's light enough to see for a few hours. 239 00:15:16,724 --> 00:15:19,413 And it cannot dampen our spirits. 240 00:15:19,413 --> 00:15:21,965 So I'm gonna check the snare lines. 241 00:15:24,172 --> 00:15:27,000 I have a couple snares to check just right close to camp 242 00:15:27,000 --> 00:15:29,655 because I saw tracks from a hare. 243 00:15:29,655 --> 00:15:30,827 He came hopping through camp. 244 00:15:30,827 --> 00:15:32,758 I guess he moved in from somewhere. 245 00:15:32,758 --> 00:15:35,448 Hadn't seen hare tracks in ages. 246 00:15:35,448 --> 00:15:36,827 I saw a set of hare tracks, 247 00:15:36,827 --> 00:15:39,793 so I set a couple of those yesterday. 248 00:15:39,793 --> 00:15:43,517 And then just decide how to kill my time the rest-- 249 00:15:52,103 --> 00:15:55,068 Yes! 250 00:15:55,068 --> 00:15:56,172 Look at this. Look at this. 251 00:15:56,172 --> 00:15:57,379 Look at this. Look at this. 252 00:15:58,586 --> 00:16:00,655 Yes. 253 00:16:00,655 --> 00:16:03,448 Yes, yes, yes. 254 00:16:03,448 --> 00:16:04,655 Yes. 255 00:16:06,034 --> 00:16:08,206 Ha-ha! 256 00:16:08,206 --> 00:16:12,413 Nailed him right here, right close to camp. 257 00:16:12,413 --> 00:16:15,000 Yeah! 258 00:16:15,000 --> 00:16:16,517 Yeah. 259 00:16:16,517 --> 00:16:18,103 A nice hare. 260 00:16:18,103 --> 00:16:20,344 Nice, big fatty. 261 00:16:20,344 --> 00:16:22,103 Yes. 262 00:16:22,103 --> 00:16:24,344 Yes! 263 00:16:24,344 --> 00:16:26,827 The connection that I've shared with this land 264 00:16:26,827 --> 00:16:29,793 and every form of life that lives on it 265 00:16:29,793 --> 00:16:33,000 is deeper than words can express. 266 00:16:33,000 --> 00:16:38,793 I value its life and its meat and its innards. 267 00:16:38,793 --> 00:16:40,586 Rah, rah, rah, rah. 268 00:16:40,586 --> 00:16:43,000 In my mind, I'm already sucking its lungs and heart 269 00:16:43,000 --> 00:16:45,379 out of its chest after it's boiled. 270 00:16:45,379 --> 00:16:48,103 This is gonna be delicious. 271 00:16:48,103 --> 00:16:52,689 This is the most pure life that I've ever lived, 272 00:16:52,689 --> 00:16:55,103 the most pure connection with nature that 273 00:16:55,103 --> 00:16:57,689 I've ever experienced and enjoyed. 274 00:16:57,689 --> 00:17:00,103 And it's because my very life and existence 275 00:17:00,103 --> 00:17:01,758 was dependent on it. 276 00:17:01,758 --> 00:17:03,551 Take you back to camp. 277 00:17:04,827 --> 00:17:07,000 The wild places of this world 278 00:17:07,000 --> 00:17:08,275 mean the same thing to me 279 00:17:08,275 --> 00:17:10,793 now that they've always meant, 280 00:17:10,793 --> 00:17:12,379 but in a deeper way now, 281 00:17:12,379 --> 00:17:15,793 because I've truly tasted it for long enough 282 00:17:15,793 --> 00:17:19,862 to know that it is where I belong. 283 00:17:22,310 --> 00:17:23,482 All right. 284 00:17:23,482 --> 00:17:25,896 Now, Levi, Elliot, 285 00:17:25,896 --> 00:17:27,517 you remember how I taught you to do it. 286 00:17:27,517 --> 00:17:29,689 You take the lower jawbone off first, 287 00:17:29,689 --> 00:17:31,275 then you take them apart. 288 00:17:31,275 --> 00:17:33,137 And you use the jawbone as a scoop 289 00:17:33,137 --> 00:17:34,931 to scoop out the brains. 290 00:17:37,000 --> 00:17:39,103 That's a "for sure you gotta do it" step 291 00:17:39,103 --> 00:17:41,172 because otherwise, it's hard to get the brains out. 292 00:17:42,172 --> 00:17:43,827 The back part of the brain comes first. 293 00:17:43,827 --> 00:17:46,379 You take your scooper, and you begin-- 294 00:17:46,379 --> 00:17:48,000 ow, it's burning my fingers-- 295 00:17:48,000 --> 00:17:49,137 to scoop. 296 00:17:49,137 --> 00:17:50,620 And there. 297 00:17:58,034 --> 00:18:00,379 A delicious morsel of brain. 298 00:18:01,793 --> 00:18:03,344 It's good. 299 00:18:04,517 --> 00:18:07,000 I miss my family a lot, 300 00:18:07,000 --> 00:18:09,931 but I'm really enjoying this hare. 301 00:18:24,931 --> 00:18:29,103 ♪ Who wants to 302 00:18:29,103 --> 00:18:32,241 ♪ Live in the Arctic 303 00:18:32,241 --> 00:18:36,172 ♪ Well, let me tell you something, friend ♪ 304 00:18:36,172 --> 00:18:38,758 ♪ Ooh 305 00:18:38,758 --> 00:18:42,103 ♪ It's not a nice place to live ♪ 306 00:18:42,103 --> 00:18:45,000 ♪ In the middle of winter 307 00:18:48,448 --> 00:18:50,275 Oh, now come on, pike. 308 00:18:50,275 --> 00:18:52,965 Let's go, please. 309 00:18:52,965 --> 00:18:55,551 ♪ I'm gonna lose my mind 310 00:19:05,689 --> 00:19:08,517 I really, really need to get some food. 311 00:19:13,413 --> 00:19:15,344 Pretty bold move here. 312 00:19:29,655 --> 00:19:31,310 That's about all I have left in my cache 313 00:19:31,310 --> 00:19:33,655 is one part of a burbot. 314 00:19:42,103 --> 00:19:45,551 Dude. 315 00:19:45,551 --> 00:19:48,310 Look at that big hunk of burbot. 316 00:19:50,172 --> 00:19:54,344 The hardest job in the world right now 317 00:19:54,344 --> 00:19:56,724 is just staying alive. 318 00:20:04,655 --> 00:20:07,965 Man, my hands and feet... 319 00:20:10,517 --> 00:20:13,241 Cold as the damn Dickens. 320 00:20:15,482 --> 00:20:19,103 I knew it was gonna get cold, and I prepared for cold. 321 00:20:19,103 --> 00:20:22,103 But this caliber of cold, 322 00:20:22,103 --> 00:20:25,551 I didn't realize existed. 323 00:20:25,551 --> 00:20:29,482 And it's to the point where I'm sleeping every night 324 00:20:29,482 --> 00:20:33,448 in my snow pants with two pairs of socks. 325 00:20:33,448 --> 00:20:36,655 And then I stuff my feet inside mittens 326 00:20:36,655 --> 00:20:40,551 just to keep my toes from getting frostbite. 327 00:20:40,551 --> 00:20:42,551 But it's still cold as hell. 328 00:20:44,241 --> 00:20:45,379 Oh, my goodness. 329 00:20:45,379 --> 00:20:47,103 I needed that. 330 00:20:47,103 --> 00:20:49,827 And I've got 20 hours of darkness 331 00:20:49,827 --> 00:20:51,931 in a small shelter every night, 332 00:20:51,931 --> 00:20:54,965 and it's just me. 333 00:20:54,965 --> 00:20:57,172 And I get a taste of what it feels like to really 334 00:20:57,172 --> 00:20:59,482 not have any human interaction. 335 00:21:00,931 --> 00:21:03,862 And it's exactly like solitary confinement. 336 00:21:05,344 --> 00:21:07,827 You can leave this prison, though, if you want, 337 00:21:07,827 --> 00:21:10,862 but then you're gonna be incarcerated 338 00:21:10,862 --> 00:21:12,689 after you leave here 339 00:21:12,689 --> 00:21:16,034 because you have to live with the decision. 340 00:21:20,724 --> 00:21:22,586 Not a very good broth, dude. 341 00:21:27,620 --> 00:21:29,551 It's warm, though. 342 00:21:36,206 --> 00:21:39,413 I'm running on fumes. 343 00:21:41,586 --> 00:21:43,551 I wish I could just go to sleep and, like, 344 00:21:43,551 --> 00:21:46,551 be done with this day. 345 00:21:46,551 --> 00:21:48,793 There's only so much sleep my body can take. 346 00:21:48,793 --> 00:21:51,965 And then it's like, OK, you gotta be awake. 347 00:21:51,965 --> 00:21:57,655 And it's a freaking constant battle of-- 348 00:21:57,655 --> 00:22:01,137 of hey, Dub... 349 00:22:01,137 --> 00:22:02,689 Push the button. It'll be great. 350 00:22:02,689 --> 00:22:07,310 You can go do fun things and do stuff. 351 00:22:07,310 --> 00:22:12,137 And then it's like, hey, Dub, you push that button, 352 00:22:12,137 --> 00:22:15,965 you're gonna regret it for the rest of your life. 353 00:22:15,965 --> 00:22:20,000 If I have a bunch of food and I--and I feel secure, 354 00:22:20,000 --> 00:22:21,448 then it's not-- 355 00:22:21,448 --> 00:22:23,413 it doesn't happen as much. 356 00:22:23,413 --> 00:22:28,517 But when I'm low on food, like I am right now, 357 00:22:28,517 --> 00:22:31,724 it's like a constant loop, and it's driving me insane. 358 00:22:34,310 --> 00:22:36,896 That frightens me 359 00:22:36,896 --> 00:22:39,482 because food supplies are scarce out there. 360 00:22:40,827 --> 00:22:44,034 I can't snare rabbits that don't exist. 361 00:22:44,034 --> 00:22:47,724 I can't trap all this stuff that's not here. 362 00:22:47,724 --> 00:22:50,620 I do need food coming in because that's gonna be 363 00:22:50,620 --> 00:22:52,344 the end of me if I don't have it. 364 00:22:53,482 --> 00:22:55,172 And it turns my brain into overdrive 365 00:22:55,172 --> 00:22:56,482 trying to solve it. 366 00:22:56,482 --> 00:23:00,034 And there's nothing I can do besides fish harder. 367 00:23:01,655 --> 00:23:04,275 So here's what's happened. 368 00:23:04,275 --> 00:23:08,551 I brought this belt right here. 369 00:23:11,379 --> 00:23:17,172 It's the color of a brook trout. 370 00:23:17,172 --> 00:23:21,172 So I just cut a chunk off it, about this much. 371 00:23:21,172 --> 00:23:23,758 And here's what I've done. 372 00:23:27,655 --> 00:23:31,413 This is gonna work freaking good, you guys. 373 00:23:31,413 --> 00:23:35,482 So here's my--my lure, right? 374 00:23:35,482 --> 00:23:38,551 So what I've done is I make-- 375 00:23:38,551 --> 00:23:43,344 I pop a little hole 376 00:23:43,344 --> 00:23:47,275 where I want my stitch to be, 377 00:23:47,275 --> 00:23:48,724 like that. 378 00:23:51,965 --> 00:23:53,862 It's a time-consuming process. 379 00:23:53,862 --> 00:23:59,586 But just like that, I've managed to secure 380 00:23:59,586 --> 00:24:03,517 this 7/0 hook onto this piece of belt 381 00:24:03,517 --> 00:24:05,965 that looks exactly like a damn fish. 382 00:24:05,965 --> 00:24:09,034 It's just gonna--it's gonna, like, dart around, 383 00:24:09,034 --> 00:24:13,172 which is the perfect action you could have 384 00:24:13,172 --> 00:24:16,551 to attract pike to strike. 385 00:24:16,551 --> 00:24:19,724 I guarantee we're gonna get big fish on that. 386 00:24:19,724 --> 00:24:21,827 I love it. 387 00:24:21,827 --> 00:24:24,137 It's not over for Dub. 388 00:24:38,620 --> 00:24:42,137 Another very comfortable night in the tilt. 389 00:24:42,137 --> 00:24:44,655 I am very blessed for this tilt. 390 00:24:44,655 --> 00:24:48,551 It worked out better than expected, way better. 391 00:24:48,551 --> 00:24:50,689 I bet the little fella would like one. 392 00:24:50,689 --> 00:24:52,724 I will do it in the backyard, back out in the bushes. 393 00:25:15,758 --> 00:25:19,344 My food supply now is good, but it's not great. 394 00:25:19,344 --> 00:25:22,965 So my main focus is try to cache more food. 395 00:25:22,965 --> 00:25:27,758 See if there's any fresh track of anything over that way. 396 00:25:29,793 --> 00:25:32,931 My strategy right now is just go after food to cache. 397 00:25:34,379 --> 00:25:36,000 If I get rabbits, well, then that prolongs 398 00:25:36,000 --> 00:25:37,379 the fish that I got. 399 00:25:37,379 --> 00:25:39,379 It gives me a chance now to catch some more, 400 00:25:39,379 --> 00:25:40,793 because the weather could turn, 401 00:25:40,793 --> 00:25:42,620 and then it could be hard. 402 00:25:42,620 --> 00:25:45,068 Two more snares. 403 00:25:45,068 --> 00:25:46,413 A bit of rabbit-- a bit of rabbit liver 404 00:25:46,413 --> 00:25:48,793 in the morning would be nice. 405 00:25:48,793 --> 00:25:50,689 That would be awesome. 406 00:25:53,620 --> 00:25:55,068 I worked up a sweat. 407 00:25:55,068 --> 00:25:57,517 I was going too fast, man. 408 00:25:57,517 --> 00:25:59,275 Slow it in. 409 00:26:00,965 --> 00:26:03,586 Walking back and forth over that hill too many times 410 00:26:03,586 --> 00:26:06,068 just takes a lot of energy to get over there. 411 00:26:06,068 --> 00:26:07,413 I've been doing a lot more exertion 412 00:26:07,413 --> 00:26:10,172 that I planned to, walking and carrying 413 00:26:10,172 --> 00:26:11,724 around all the different gear. 414 00:26:11,724 --> 00:26:14,344 So now I really gotta be careful what I do, 415 00:26:14,344 --> 00:26:16,068 especially this late in the game, 416 00:26:16,068 --> 00:26:17,413 because I don't want to get hurt 417 00:26:17,413 --> 00:26:19,068 and get pulled before I'm done. 418 00:26:21,310 --> 00:26:23,310 I got a rabbit! I got a rabbit! 419 00:26:23,310 --> 00:26:25,068 Oh, blessed redeemers. 420 00:26:25,068 --> 00:26:26,758 Look at that. 421 00:26:26,758 --> 00:26:28,482 Oh, my God. 422 00:26:30,172 --> 00:26:32,241 We're gonna fix him up, see? 423 00:26:32,241 --> 00:26:33,517 Well, well, well, well. 424 00:26:35,103 --> 00:26:37,413 That was a total shock, you know? 425 00:26:37,413 --> 00:26:39,413 Oh, man. 426 00:26:39,413 --> 00:26:40,827 Whoo-hoo! 427 00:26:40,827 --> 00:26:42,000 For a while, I didn't think 428 00:26:42,000 --> 00:26:44,206 there was even one left in the world. 429 00:26:44,206 --> 00:26:48,241 After such a nifty spell with nothing, 430 00:26:48,241 --> 00:26:50,068 that is a total surprise. 431 00:26:51,724 --> 00:26:53,000 The snare's good. 432 00:26:53,000 --> 00:26:55,413 I'm just gonna reset the same one here again. 433 00:26:55,413 --> 00:26:58,137 Oh, merciful, this is so good. 434 00:26:58,137 --> 00:27:00,103 Days and days and days, never seen a grouse 435 00:27:00,103 --> 00:27:01,793 or rabbit track, or nothing. 436 00:27:01,793 --> 00:27:04,862 You never know what to expect out here. 437 00:27:24,655 --> 00:27:26,931 Oh, what a beautiful rabbit. 438 00:27:40,103 --> 00:27:42,172 If I win this money, this will allow me 439 00:27:42,172 --> 00:27:44,103 to get out of the fishery earlier. 440 00:27:45,862 --> 00:27:48,068 Kiki, me, and Whit, we're gonna do some marvelous things 441 00:27:48,068 --> 00:27:50,241 and enjoy some time with, you know, the kids. 442 00:27:53,758 --> 00:27:55,655 Oh, yeah. 443 00:27:58,068 --> 00:27:59,310 Oh, my gosh. 444 00:27:59,310 --> 00:28:00,724 Good old hot food. 445 00:28:00,724 --> 00:28:02,172 Look at this. 446 00:28:02,172 --> 00:28:04,413 Mmm. 447 00:28:04,413 --> 00:28:09,000 Ah, so long since I had rabbit liver. 448 00:28:09,000 --> 00:28:12,172 It's, oh, so good. 449 00:28:12,172 --> 00:28:14,724 Mmm. 450 00:28:14,724 --> 00:28:17,068 That is so dang good. 451 00:28:17,068 --> 00:28:18,793 That was a real morale booster. 452 00:28:30,034 --> 00:28:32,137 It's snowing hard. 453 00:28:32,137 --> 00:28:34,931 It is significantly below freezing right now. 454 00:28:34,931 --> 00:28:37,137 Cold hands. Cold hands. 455 00:28:37,137 --> 00:28:38,965 So cozy. 456 00:28:38,965 --> 00:28:41,137 Every night, I have no idea how cold it been. 457 00:28:42,862 --> 00:28:44,172 Hopefully it blows it overnight, 458 00:28:44,172 --> 00:28:45,206 and we get a good day tomorrow, 459 00:28:45,206 --> 00:28:47,137 and we'll be extra productive. 460 00:28:53,206 --> 00:28:55,655 Boy, the snow is really drifting. 461 00:28:58,034 --> 00:28:59,827 Oh, my God. 462 00:29:03,758 --> 00:29:07,137 I think it's gonna do this until doomsday, 463 00:29:07,137 --> 00:29:09,482 when we all descend to Niflheim, 464 00:29:09,482 --> 00:29:12,758 where the frozen cold will never release us. 465 00:29:26,862 --> 00:29:29,310 That was, by far, the coldest night 466 00:29:29,310 --> 00:29:31,448 I've ever had in my life. 467 00:29:31,448 --> 00:29:34,586 I tossed and turned for many, many hours. 468 00:29:36,655 --> 00:29:40,275 There's gonna be a lot of snow, 469 00:29:40,275 --> 00:29:42,344 a hell of a lot of snow out there. 470 00:29:44,482 --> 00:29:47,482 So to make it even down to the-- 471 00:29:47,482 --> 00:29:50,137 the ice holes is gonna be a pain in the butt. 472 00:29:51,482 --> 00:29:53,551 But I'll tell you what. 473 00:29:55,965 --> 00:29:58,206 I'm not joking when I say I'm gonna be 474 00:29:58,206 --> 00:30:01,586 out there fishing my ass off. 475 00:30:05,448 --> 00:30:06,827 Holy crap, look at that. 476 00:30:09,655 --> 00:30:12,620 My door is--usually falls straight to the ground. 477 00:30:16,689 --> 00:30:20,482 It was one heck of a storm last night. 478 00:30:33,793 --> 00:30:36,000 I can't see where I've been. 479 00:30:36,000 --> 00:30:40,655 All my trails that I've been working are all gone. 480 00:30:42,793 --> 00:30:44,344 . 481 00:30:53,482 --> 00:30:56,310 Oh, my God, I just walked away from the fire. 482 00:30:56,310 --> 00:30:58,413 Feet are already [bleep]. 483 00:31:02,793 --> 00:31:07,241 There it is, my lure. 484 00:31:07,241 --> 00:31:11,413 I'm gonna try fishing for a little 485 00:31:11,413 --> 00:31:14,000 until I can't take it anymore. 486 00:31:16,896 --> 00:31:20,000 I hope I win, but I don't have 487 00:31:20,000 --> 00:31:23,551 a lot of days left to get that title. 488 00:31:23,551 --> 00:31:26,068 My body does not have the reserves 489 00:31:26,068 --> 00:31:28,310 to be out here starving to death. 490 00:31:28,310 --> 00:31:31,689 This is for all the marbles. 491 00:31:31,689 --> 00:31:33,551 And I'm right at the finish line. 492 00:31:33,551 --> 00:31:37,103 I know there's only one or two people left, for sure. 493 00:31:38,586 --> 00:31:40,793 A fish right now would be the only thing 494 00:31:40,793 --> 00:31:45,034 that could pull me from the edge of the cliff I'm on, 495 00:31:45,034 --> 00:31:51,689 with the whole financial future of my life with me on it. 496 00:31:56,172 --> 00:31:58,655 How are they not hitting? 497 00:31:58,655 --> 00:32:00,724 It's such a good spot. 498 00:32:05,206 --> 00:32:07,103 Boy, it's a cold one. 499 00:32:09,137 --> 00:32:13,551 The colder I get, the less sleep I get, 500 00:32:13,551 --> 00:32:16,620 the more I start worrying about my parents. 501 00:32:19,241 --> 00:32:24,068 And there's a sheet that you sign when you come in here, 502 00:32:24,068 --> 00:32:26,034 and you check a box that says, 503 00:32:26,034 --> 00:32:29,068 please notify me of family emergencies, 504 00:32:29,068 --> 00:32:31,620 please do not notify me of family emergencies. 505 00:32:31,620 --> 00:32:33,310 You check one of those boxes. 506 00:32:33,310 --> 00:32:36,793 So I said, do not tell me about family emergencies 507 00:32:36,793 --> 00:32:39,137 because it's gonna compromise my ability 508 00:32:39,137 --> 00:32:41,068 to stay in the competition. 509 00:32:42,758 --> 00:32:46,965 And now it's been so long, and I'm like, oh, crap, dude. 510 00:32:46,965 --> 00:32:49,931 I'm out here having to live with that. 511 00:32:49,931 --> 00:32:52,206 That goes through my head all the time. 512 00:32:56,827 --> 00:33:00,655 And there's no way anybody could possibly understand, 513 00:33:00,655 --> 00:33:05,586 when you're isolated with no distractions 514 00:33:05,586 --> 00:33:10,379 for 20-plus hours a day in a small, little space, 515 00:33:10,379 --> 00:33:12,827 where your mind goes and what it thinks about 516 00:33:12,827 --> 00:33:16,241 and the kind of stories it can create out of thin air. 517 00:33:17,620 --> 00:33:20,206 Where are the fish at? 518 00:33:20,206 --> 00:33:22,206 I always tell myself, it's OK. 519 00:33:23,344 --> 00:33:25,413 But what if it's not? 520 00:33:29,034 --> 00:33:31,586 . 521 00:33:31,586 --> 00:33:35,103 This place, man. 522 00:33:35,103 --> 00:33:37,413 What do I gotta do? 523 00:33:45,344 --> 00:33:47,448 Nothing on that. 524 00:33:49,344 --> 00:33:51,275 Oh, we're in trouble. 525 00:33:53,793 --> 00:33:55,689 So much trouble. 526 00:34:03,724 --> 00:34:05,724 Breathe. It's OK. 527 00:34:06,896 --> 00:34:08,620 You're gonna make it. 528 00:34:10,724 --> 00:34:12,379 Five. 529 00:34:12,379 --> 00:34:15,068 My heart's just fricking pounding. 530 00:34:15,068 --> 00:34:16,758 I can barely breathe. 531 00:34:19,689 --> 00:34:21,827 And I can't-- 532 00:34:21,827 --> 00:34:23,896 dude, I can't do anything. 533 00:34:25,620 --> 00:34:30,034 I can't--how can I go walk someplace to go hunting 534 00:34:30,034 --> 00:34:33,620 or to--to somewhere where I can find food 535 00:34:33,620 --> 00:34:36,965 if I can't walk up a freaking small little hill, like-- 536 00:34:36,965 --> 00:34:39,103 like I'm walking up right now? 537 00:34:53,379 --> 00:34:58,965 I've tried everything, man. 538 00:35:15,724 --> 00:35:20,517 My body's missing-- my body's missing something. 539 00:35:20,517 --> 00:35:23,724 It's missing some sort of nutrient or something. 540 00:35:23,724 --> 00:35:26,172 And it doesn't work. 541 00:35:30,172 --> 00:35:31,827 I mean, I don't know-- 542 00:35:31,827 --> 00:35:34,206 I don't know if what's wrong with me is, like, 543 00:35:34,206 --> 00:35:38,551 gonna just go away and I'll be normal, or if I'm, 544 00:35:38,551 --> 00:35:42,482 like, permanently doing damage to my body that I can't fix. 545 00:35:42,482 --> 00:35:44,931 Like, I might be walking around like I'm 90 year old-- 546 00:35:44,931 --> 00:35:47,827 90 years old forever because of whatever it is 547 00:35:47,827 --> 00:35:49,275 I'm doing to my body. 548 00:35:53,931 --> 00:35:57,724 There is every single reason in the world for me 549 00:35:57,724 --> 00:36:03,758 to stop right now, to quit and leave and feel OK about it. 550 00:36:04,965 --> 00:36:07,241 But all the dreams I've been, like, building 551 00:36:07,241 --> 00:36:11,689 in my head for--for the months that I've been here, 552 00:36:11,689 --> 00:36:15,068 all get wiped out the moment I hit that button. 553 00:36:19,896 --> 00:36:22,137 I'm worried about my--my family. 554 00:36:22,137 --> 00:36:24,137 I don't know how they are. 555 00:36:28,137 --> 00:36:30,448 I don't know what to do, man. 556 00:36:35,379 --> 00:36:37,379 How the hell? 557 00:36:37,379 --> 00:36:40,137 How do I freaking tap out? 558 00:36:44,068 --> 00:36:46,172 It hurts to walk. 559 00:36:48,034 --> 00:36:50,241 This is bad. 560 00:36:52,620 --> 00:36:55,931 I'll never have another chance at this kind of money. 561 00:36:58,862 --> 00:37:02,862 To think of going home without it is a bummer. 562 00:37:02,862 --> 00:37:05,758 But to think of going home to a passed-away family member 563 00:37:05,758 --> 00:37:07,793 is a lot worse than that. 564 00:37:29,965 --> 00:37:31,517 I think I got it. 565 00:37:39,896 --> 00:37:41,620 Hey, this is Dub. 566 00:37:43,620 --> 00:37:46,310 I'm officially tapping out. 567 00:38:07,724 --> 00:38:09,724 It's time to go. 568 00:38:10,517 --> 00:38:13,241 I'm tapping out for so many reasons. 569 00:38:13,241 --> 00:38:16,206 It's like, I'm tapping out for my health. 570 00:38:16,206 --> 00:38:19,068 I'm tapping out because I want to see my mom, 571 00:38:19,068 --> 00:38:21,448 which is--which seems insane. 572 00:38:21,448 --> 00:38:23,241 It's like, three months is not that long. 573 00:38:23,241 --> 00:38:25,862 I go three months all the time without seeing my mom. 574 00:38:25,862 --> 00:38:28,689 But at least I talk to her, and at least I know she's OK. 575 00:38:28,689 --> 00:38:31,000 I mean, I know I could do it physically. 576 00:38:31,000 --> 00:38:33,241 I can--I can sit by the fire, and I can-- 577 00:38:33,241 --> 00:38:34,965 I can do it. 578 00:38:34,965 --> 00:38:38,931 But mentally, is it worth-- 579 00:38:38,931 --> 00:38:43,000 is it worth me getting out of here with a bunch of money 580 00:38:43,000 --> 00:38:46,000 and then having something wrong with my mom or my dad 581 00:38:46,000 --> 00:38:48,413 or--or them just being gone? 582 00:38:48,413 --> 00:38:50,517 I mean, how the hell am I gonna live with that 583 00:38:50,517 --> 00:38:53,137 for the rest of my life? 584 00:38:53,137 --> 00:38:56,482 Money comes and goes, but family, you only get one. 585 00:38:56,482 --> 00:39:00,862 And they're all I got, man. 586 00:39:00,862 --> 00:39:04,724 Turns out I like people more than I thought. 587 00:39:04,724 --> 00:39:06,275 That's why I'm going home, because-- 588 00:39:06,275 --> 00:39:10,310 because I want to be by people again. 589 00:39:12,068 --> 00:39:15,206 It's like, being alone is pointless. 590 00:39:15,206 --> 00:39:16,482 Why? 591 00:39:19,724 --> 00:39:26,275 Making the call was just as hard as I envisioned it being. 592 00:39:26,275 --> 00:39:29,103 Yes, I'm officially tapping out. 593 00:39:29,103 --> 00:39:32,965 That's a painful batch of words right there. 594 00:39:32,965 --> 00:39:37,448 But this experience has made me realize 595 00:39:37,448 --> 00:39:39,793 that I'm capable of a hell of a lot more 596 00:39:39,793 --> 00:39:41,620 than I ever thought I was. 597 00:39:42,758 --> 00:39:44,482 I've always loved nature, 598 00:39:44,482 --> 00:39:46,482 and I've spent a lot of time in it, 599 00:39:46,482 --> 00:39:49,793 but I've never really been so immersed into it. 600 00:39:51,068 --> 00:39:53,000 And for once, I guess I became 601 00:39:53,000 --> 00:39:56,172 part of--like, the legit part of the ecosystem. 602 00:39:56,172 --> 00:39:58,206 Like, I was in the Arctic battle, 603 00:39:58,206 --> 00:40:00,793 just like every other animal. 604 00:40:00,793 --> 00:40:04,620 It's a connection that most people could never imagine, 605 00:40:04,620 --> 00:40:06,241 and I'll never forget it. 606 00:40:07,758 --> 00:40:09,034 I've always thought 607 00:40:09,034 --> 00:40:11,724 being alone was the right thing for me 608 00:40:11,724 --> 00:40:14,689 until I was really, truly alone. 609 00:40:16,206 --> 00:40:18,241 There's no reason for me to put myself 610 00:40:18,241 --> 00:40:20,275 in solitary confinement 611 00:40:20,275 --> 00:40:22,586 because I'm afraid of the pain 612 00:40:22,586 --> 00:40:24,275 that may be caused by other people. 613 00:40:26,034 --> 00:40:28,413 Some people might be bad, 614 00:40:28,413 --> 00:40:30,931 but a lot of people are good. 615 00:40:32,758 --> 00:40:35,758 We are made to be social animals. 616 00:40:35,758 --> 00:40:41,689 And I'm not impervious to the laws of humanity, I guess. 617 00:40:41,689 --> 00:40:43,758 And it's so much more than that. 618 00:40:43,758 --> 00:40:47,241 I get to talk to my mom. 619 00:40:47,241 --> 00:40:51,689 That moment is gonna be worth $500,000 to me. 620 00:41:24,068 --> 00:41:25,310 I was thinking back this morning, 621 00:41:25,310 --> 00:41:28,172 laying in the sleeping bag, about the phases 622 00:41:28,172 --> 00:41:30,862 that I've gone through being out here. 623 00:41:30,862 --> 00:41:32,379 In the early part, 624 00:41:32,379 --> 00:41:34,103 there's life's heart beating everywhere. 625 00:41:34,103 --> 00:41:35,724 There's waterfowl making such a ruckus. 626 00:41:35,724 --> 00:41:37,862 There's fish striking. 627 00:41:37,862 --> 00:41:40,310 I was so content. 628 00:41:40,310 --> 00:41:41,620 But as freeze-up starts to happen, 629 00:41:41,620 --> 00:41:44,000 the land got really silent. 630 00:41:44,000 --> 00:41:45,379 The heartbeat of the land itself stopped, 631 00:41:45,379 --> 00:41:47,620 and everything went colorless. 632 00:41:47,620 --> 00:41:50,586 And that, I realized, is what started to wear on me 633 00:41:50,586 --> 00:41:52,413 is--is that-- 634 00:41:52,413 --> 00:41:58,379 that silence and colorlessness and absolute lack of life 635 00:41:58,379 --> 00:42:02,586 making the isolation feel so intense. 636 00:42:02,586 --> 00:42:05,931 And the noises in your head are so loud and deafening 637 00:42:05,931 --> 00:42:08,034 that they can overwhelm you. 638 00:42:08,034 --> 00:42:10,137 For me, it overwhelms me, looks like. 639 00:42:10,137 --> 00:42:15,137 You start to search inside yourself for meaning, 640 00:42:15,137 --> 00:42:18,275 for something to think of to break up the monotony 641 00:42:18,275 --> 00:42:21,827 and give you a reason to keep thinking. 642 00:42:21,827 --> 00:42:24,655 You know, you got plans at home. 643 00:42:24,655 --> 00:42:26,172 You got other life outside there. 644 00:42:26,172 --> 00:42:27,448 But you've gotta be real careful with those, 645 00:42:27,448 --> 00:42:29,103 'cause those can make you super miserable. 646 00:42:30,862 --> 00:42:32,793 Um... 647 00:42:35,310 --> 00:42:36,517 Yeah. 648 00:42:44,758 --> 00:42:47,172 I'm gonna check the fish lines. 649 00:42:50,620 --> 00:42:53,379 I feel like the end of my nose is gonna get frostbite 650 00:42:53,379 --> 00:42:55,586 if I don't bury it up in here. 651 00:42:57,655 --> 00:42:58,862 Ugh. 652 00:43:00,620 --> 00:43:02,965 It's too cold for this boy. 653 00:43:02,965 --> 00:43:04,448 Telling ya. 654 00:43:05,862 --> 00:43:09,172 But there's still water under the snow on top of the ice. 655 00:43:10,689 --> 00:43:12,068 It just freezes all over you, 656 00:43:12,068 --> 00:43:13,896 get on the bottom of your boots. 657 00:43:22,379 --> 00:43:24,068 That was a big crack under me. 658 00:43:25,379 --> 00:43:28,413 Big ice crack. 659 00:43:28,413 --> 00:43:30,448 The river ice sucks. 660 00:43:30,448 --> 00:43:32,689 It's dangerous, and it sucks. 661 00:43:34,206 --> 00:43:35,793 You can't fish in this. 662 00:43:35,793 --> 00:43:36,793 I can't. 663 00:43:36,793 --> 00:43:38,310 I don't know how to. 664 00:43:40,103 --> 00:43:42,275 So I'm gonna pull all the fish stuff. 665 00:43:44,344 --> 00:43:47,137 The ice continually has me worried. 666 00:43:47,137 --> 00:43:49,344 I'm walking through big, slushy water 667 00:43:49,344 --> 00:43:51,172 on top of the ice. 668 00:43:51,172 --> 00:43:54,000 And even being out there to ice fish at all 669 00:43:54,000 --> 00:43:58,586 is not only risky for falling through... 670 00:43:58,586 --> 00:44:00,793 Just want to get this hook and get out of here. 671 00:44:02,000 --> 00:44:04,448 But it's risky to all my gear, 672 00:44:04,448 --> 00:44:07,241 just for the amount of ice that it clumps on me 673 00:44:07,241 --> 00:44:09,586 before I come home and go back to my shelter, 674 00:44:09,586 --> 00:44:12,551 from all that slushy water. 675 00:44:12,551 --> 00:44:14,655 It's kind of miserable. 676 00:44:15,931 --> 00:44:19,310 So now I have to hope for more hares. 677 00:44:20,758 --> 00:44:23,172 And then I'm gonna eat just as much jerky 678 00:44:23,172 --> 00:44:25,413 as my teeth will allow me. 679 00:44:48,689 --> 00:44:51,310 Yeah. 680 00:44:51,310 --> 00:44:53,931 We'll go and check the rest of our rabbit snares. 681 00:45:01,068 --> 00:45:02,655 At this point in the game, 682 00:45:02,655 --> 00:45:04,551 I've got a limited food supply. 683 00:45:13,827 --> 00:45:16,517 I know, at the beginning, I had a really good chance. 684 00:45:16,517 --> 00:45:18,344 But as time goes on, I'm getting 685 00:45:18,344 --> 00:45:20,965 more skeptical in my mind because 686 00:45:20,965 --> 00:45:25,517 I'm pretty sure somebody got either a moose or a bear. 687 00:45:25,517 --> 00:45:28,448 I don't want to go home, but I don't know 688 00:45:28,448 --> 00:45:31,000 how long it's gonna take to win this. 689 00:45:37,586 --> 00:45:39,379 Yeah. 690 00:46:02,413 --> 00:46:05,241 You know, I've done a lot. 691 00:46:05,241 --> 00:46:09,275 I've lived a lot of vibrant life out here. 692 00:46:09,275 --> 00:46:11,620 I've received everything I've asked for out here, 693 00:46:11,620 --> 00:46:12,827 except the money. 694 00:46:12,827 --> 00:46:15,068 I've--I have a vision for the future. 695 00:46:15,068 --> 00:46:17,068 I know what's next for our family, 696 00:46:17,068 --> 00:46:19,586 and I'm ready to get that life started. 697 00:46:21,862 --> 00:46:25,241 I could make this go on much longer. 698 00:46:25,241 --> 00:46:29,137 But all I'd be thinking about each day is the money 699 00:46:29,137 --> 00:46:32,482 and trying to impress people or something. 700 00:46:32,482 --> 00:46:33,896 And I don't need to prove anything. 701 00:46:33,896 --> 00:46:36,689 I've--I am who I am. 702 00:46:38,448 --> 00:46:41,620 And as I think about who else might be out here, 703 00:46:41,620 --> 00:46:44,137 I know that it will go way past 100 days. 704 00:46:44,137 --> 00:46:45,551 There's no chance that either one of us 705 00:46:45,551 --> 00:46:47,827 taps out for pain or hunger. 706 00:46:47,827 --> 00:46:50,241 There's no chance. 707 00:46:50,241 --> 00:46:52,103 So what am I doing? 708 00:46:53,448 --> 00:46:54,931 I'm gonna turn this camera off. 709 00:46:54,931 --> 00:46:57,413 Looking at it is a little too much right now. 710 00:47:09,620 --> 00:47:12,482 It's so hard to do. 711 00:47:12,482 --> 00:47:15,448 I hoped that it wouldn't turn on, but it turned on. 712 00:47:41,172 --> 00:47:43,482 Them buttons are hot fire. 713 00:48:04,965 --> 00:48:06,793 I can't do it. 714 00:48:19,620 --> 00:48:20,965 Not today. 715 00:48:41,551 --> 00:48:43,724 Good morning, everybody. 716 00:48:49,206 --> 00:48:50,517 I'm enjoying this enough, 717 00:48:50,517 --> 00:48:52,965 and I'm in good enough health. 718 00:48:52,965 --> 00:48:55,000 I could easily do this to 100. 719 00:49:03,310 --> 00:49:06,965 But it's just kind of going on and on, just for-- 720 00:49:06,965 --> 00:49:08,310 for what? 721 00:49:08,310 --> 00:49:10,724 For what now? 722 00:49:10,724 --> 00:49:12,137 For money. 723 00:49:15,206 --> 00:49:17,172 Today, it started feeling pointless. 724 00:49:17,172 --> 00:49:19,620 Like, why? 725 00:49:23,172 --> 00:49:27,586 Unexpectedly, this thought has pressed itself through 726 00:49:27,586 --> 00:49:29,068 into my mind. 727 00:49:30,689 --> 00:49:33,793 What if I go ahead and win this money? 728 00:49:33,793 --> 00:49:36,241 What'll happen to me in my work 729 00:49:36,241 --> 00:49:38,896 that I've dedicated my life to? 730 00:49:38,896 --> 00:49:42,551 Every family I meet needs $10,000, $15,000 731 00:49:42,551 --> 00:49:44,896 to emigrate to somewhere better. 732 00:49:44,896 --> 00:49:48,482 It could never reach all of them. 733 00:49:50,482 --> 00:49:52,068 This is a tough juncture. 734 00:49:53,689 --> 00:49:57,000 And after I give away the last dollar to the next person, 735 00:49:57,000 --> 00:49:59,655 they may not understand that it's gone because 736 00:49:59,655 --> 00:50:01,793 it's a fortune too big to imagine. 737 00:50:01,793 --> 00:50:04,793 So would this money create a barrier 738 00:50:04,793 --> 00:50:06,620 between me and those very people 739 00:50:06,620 --> 00:50:09,241 that I would be trying to help? 740 00:50:09,241 --> 00:50:13,034 Throughout this time, my love and value for this work 741 00:50:13,034 --> 00:50:16,931 has only deepened as my connection with life 742 00:50:16,931 --> 00:50:20,068 through nature has been strengthened. 743 00:50:20,068 --> 00:50:22,068 So I don't want all of this good 744 00:50:22,068 --> 00:50:25,241 that I've gained to get lost 745 00:50:25,241 --> 00:50:28,689 in the meaningless and the suck. 746 00:50:29,862 --> 00:50:32,379 And I think I've received everything, 747 00:50:32,379 --> 00:50:35,137 besides the money, that I can possibly receive 748 00:50:35,137 --> 00:50:37,758 from something like this. 749 00:50:37,758 --> 00:50:40,379 I've done 83 days. 750 00:50:40,379 --> 00:50:43,034 And I've succeeded 751 00:50:43,034 --> 00:50:45,551 because I've finished 752 00:50:45,551 --> 00:50:47,793 with the questions that I had for God. 753 00:50:49,241 --> 00:50:51,241 I know how to approach life with my family 754 00:50:51,241 --> 00:50:52,896 so much better, 755 00:50:52,896 --> 00:50:56,103 since I'm at peace with my own existence. 756 00:50:56,103 --> 00:50:58,551 And I can go home, and I can watch this with my boys 757 00:50:58,551 --> 00:51:01,241 on the couch and be proud of every moment. 758 00:51:03,000 --> 00:51:06,241 I've seen God feed me every day on this land. 759 00:51:06,241 --> 00:51:08,965 So, in my heart, I know that He will provide the money, 760 00:51:08,965 --> 00:51:11,241 day by day, so we can continue to do 761 00:51:11,241 --> 00:51:13,448 this humanitarian work that we love. 762 00:51:15,172 --> 00:51:17,689 What more could I ask? 763 00:51:43,000 --> 00:51:45,310 Hi, um, this is Timber, 764 00:51:45,310 --> 00:51:49,931 and I'm officially tapping out today. 765 00:51:54,827 --> 00:51:57,206 83 days, you guys. 766 00:51:58,551 --> 00:52:00,620 It's good. 767 00:52:00,620 --> 00:52:03,862 I would've won, by far, most seasons. 768 00:52:06,206 --> 00:52:07,862 This is how I want it, guys. 769 00:52:09,379 --> 00:52:10,758 This is how I want it. 770 00:52:22,482 --> 00:52:25,586 You know, the--the Arctic is not too much for me. 771 00:52:25,586 --> 00:52:29,724 Um, I'm not being forced out by anything. 772 00:52:29,724 --> 00:52:31,862 I overcame the limits. 773 00:52:31,862 --> 00:52:33,827 I've tested myself. 774 00:52:33,827 --> 00:52:36,758 So I have to choose each day, what's the right way? 775 00:52:36,758 --> 00:52:39,310 And for tomorrow, the right way is for me 776 00:52:39,310 --> 00:52:41,137 to go be with my family. 777 00:52:43,137 --> 00:52:45,379 I'm super happy. 778 00:52:45,379 --> 00:52:47,862 I'm happier than I've been in years. 779 00:52:51,517 --> 00:52:54,551 I feel alive. 780 00:52:54,551 --> 00:52:57,241 I feel fully alive again. 781 00:52:59,413 --> 00:53:01,896 I've had a lot of baggage with me 782 00:53:01,896 --> 00:53:05,103 from experiences in the past few years. 783 00:53:05,103 --> 00:53:06,793 Um... 784 00:53:06,793 --> 00:53:10,517 and I feel that I've really, really won the battle. 785 00:53:12,586 --> 00:53:14,896 I'm proud of having lived 786 00:53:14,896 --> 00:53:17,310 the realest life a man can live. 787 00:53:19,241 --> 00:53:21,172 So I'll take my moose head, put it in my house 788 00:53:21,172 --> 00:53:22,931 that I'll build someday. 789 00:53:22,931 --> 00:53:25,379 And it'll be awesome. 790 00:53:30,931 --> 00:53:35,448 As I pack up my tools and I pack up all my things, 791 00:53:35,448 --> 00:53:37,103 the main thought running through my head 792 00:53:37,103 --> 00:53:40,724 is that I could have brought my wife here to see this. 793 00:53:40,724 --> 00:53:43,379 But I know that I'll be seeing her soon enough at home 794 00:53:43,379 --> 00:53:46,517 and that she will understand and agree with 795 00:53:46,517 --> 00:53:48,896 the reasons that I ended it. 796 00:53:50,517 --> 00:53:53,551 I want my children to see the true victory 797 00:53:53,551 --> 00:53:55,344 in the immaterial things 798 00:53:55,344 --> 00:54:00,000 like integrity and joy and resilience 799 00:54:00,000 --> 00:54:02,310 and the ways that I've walked through this journey, 800 00:54:02,310 --> 00:54:04,000 which I know I can be proud of. 801 00:54:05,517 --> 00:54:07,551 And I just want my children to see those 802 00:54:07,551 --> 00:54:11,482 as the real victory rather than $500,000. 803 00:54:13,103 --> 00:54:16,551 I think my case shows everyone that if you believe 804 00:54:16,551 --> 00:54:19,724 that the show is all about kill big game and win, 805 00:54:19,724 --> 00:54:20,931 you're wrong. 806 00:54:20,931 --> 00:54:22,379 It's not. 807 00:54:22,379 --> 00:54:24,586 There's so many more layers. 808 00:54:24,586 --> 00:54:27,103 I killed big game. 809 00:54:27,103 --> 00:54:29,103 I'm not the winner. 810 00:54:29,103 --> 00:54:31,448 It's not a 1 plus 1 equals 2. 811 00:54:31,448 --> 00:54:34,517 Survival itself is much more complex than that. 812 00:54:35,827 --> 00:54:40,000 This has been my absolute dream life. 813 00:54:40,000 --> 00:54:44,655 "Alone" is the gold standard test of survivalists. 814 00:54:44,655 --> 00:54:47,931 And I know that I have passed the test. 815 00:54:47,931 --> 00:54:51,827 In survival, it's so easy to say you can do one thing, 816 00:54:51,827 --> 00:54:53,862 and it's impossible to prove. 817 00:54:55,103 --> 00:54:57,931 But if you do 83 days on "Alone," 818 00:54:57,931 --> 00:55:00,517 you've showed that you can do it. 819 00:55:37,034 --> 00:55:40,034 Good morning, good morning, good morning. 820 00:55:49,896 --> 00:55:51,724 Bottom of me left foot feels a bit funny today. 821 00:55:51,724 --> 00:55:53,310 Almost like I have something--you know, 822 00:55:53,310 --> 00:55:55,137 if there was a little something in your boot, 823 00:55:55,137 --> 00:55:57,448 and it chafed or something, like. 824 00:55:57,448 --> 00:56:00,137 Nothing serious, but it just feels funny. 825 00:56:00,137 --> 00:56:01,586 I looked at it, I couldn't see nothing. 826 00:56:01,586 --> 00:56:03,172 So I don't know. 827 00:56:05,827 --> 00:56:07,965 Have a little look at my family, the ladies there, 828 00:56:07,965 --> 00:56:09,379 God bless them. 829 00:56:09,379 --> 00:56:11,103 Oh, boy, a long time. 830 00:56:11,103 --> 00:56:12,827 Oh. 831 00:56:12,827 --> 00:56:15,965 I miss my family and my pets. 832 00:56:15,965 --> 00:56:17,310 Who wouldn't? 833 00:56:17,310 --> 00:56:19,482 But you just gotta stay mentally strong 834 00:56:19,482 --> 00:56:22,103 and take it day by day. 835 00:56:23,620 --> 00:56:25,482 Yep. 836 00:56:38,758 --> 00:56:41,896 . What a piece of crap. 837 00:57:04,000 --> 00:57:07,551 In my mind, I'm thinking, it's day 84. 838 00:57:07,551 --> 00:57:09,034 I feel good. 839 00:57:09,034 --> 00:57:10,103 But, you know... 840 00:57:17,241 --> 00:57:18,448 You know, I want that record. 841 00:57:18,448 --> 00:57:20,068 I want--and I want to win so bad. 842 00:57:20,068 --> 00:57:22,620 I know, without a fact, that I'll never call in. 843 00:57:24,068 --> 00:57:26,758 Go home with gas in the tank and think on that, 844 00:57:26,758 --> 00:57:28,344 that I could have stayed another day? 845 00:57:28,344 --> 00:57:29,931 That'd destroy me. 846 00:57:32,655 --> 00:57:37,344 So if I lose this, I prefer to be pulled. 847 00:57:37,344 --> 00:57:38,413 How's your health been? 848 00:57:38,413 --> 00:57:39,931 Uh, good, really good. 849 00:57:41,137 --> 00:57:42,310 I'm gonna need you to pull that toque off 850 00:57:42,310 --> 00:57:44,034 quickly, too. - Oh, shoot. 851 00:57:47,137 --> 00:57:49,862 If the doctor said your toes froze too much 852 00:57:49,862 --> 00:57:51,413 and you gotta go, well, it's all I could do. 853 00:57:51,413 --> 00:57:53,275 Like, I can't do nothing else. 854 00:57:53,275 --> 00:57:54,620 Give them a wiggle. 855 00:57:54,620 --> 00:57:55,931 Yeah. 856 00:57:55,931 --> 00:57:58,068 Take a nice, big, deep breath for me, Will. 857 00:57:58,068 --> 00:58:01,103 And out. 858 00:58:01,103 --> 00:58:03,137 You're all good. 859 00:58:05,758 --> 00:58:06,965 Emotionally, how are you feeling? 860 00:58:06,965 --> 00:58:07,965 Uh, good. 861 00:58:07,965 --> 00:58:08,965 You know, like everyone else, 862 00:58:08,965 --> 00:58:09,965 you're gonna miss your family 863 00:58:09,965 --> 00:58:11,379 and stuff like that, you know? 864 00:58:11,379 --> 00:58:14,517 But--but, you know, Christmas is the only thing 865 00:58:14,517 --> 00:58:15,551 I kind of worry about. 866 00:58:15,551 --> 00:58:17,413 You know, we go so late. 867 00:58:22,172 --> 00:58:23,517 But I'm here this far. 868 00:58:23,517 --> 00:58:25,034 I've gone this far and gone this long 869 00:58:25,034 --> 00:58:27,379 that there's no stopping. 870 00:58:28,896 --> 00:58:30,758 And long-term strategy? 871 00:58:30,758 --> 00:58:32,655 Well, I don't know what "long term" means anymore 872 00:58:32,655 --> 00:58:33,931 after this late in the game. 873 00:58:33,931 --> 00:58:36,310 You know what I mean? 874 00:58:36,310 --> 00:58:38,275 You know, it's getting--it's getting well up there now. 875 00:58:51,172 --> 00:58:53,724 What would you say you miss the most? 876 00:58:53,724 --> 00:58:55,344 Yeah, I can't--my family. 877 00:58:55,344 --> 00:58:57,413 I can't say just-- but I miss my boy, 878 00:58:57,413 --> 00:58:59,206 you know, because I know he's more sensitive, 879 00:58:59,206 --> 00:59:00,896 like, in that sense, like. 880 00:59:00,896 --> 00:59:03,655 But--but, you know? 881 00:59:03,655 --> 00:59:05,517 Do you think your sons would be proud of you? 882 00:59:05,517 --> 00:59:06,862 Oh, my God, yes. 883 00:59:06,862 --> 00:59:08,172 Yes, indeed. 884 00:59:08,172 --> 00:59:09,551 Most--yeah. 885 00:59:09,551 --> 00:59:10,931 I know when I sees them, they're gonna give me 886 00:59:10,931 --> 00:59:12,896 a bear hug like you wouldn't believe. 887 00:59:12,896 --> 00:59:14,517 He'd probably strangle me now. 888 00:59:18,896 --> 00:59:20,724 Ah! - Will, you won! 889 00:59:20,724 --> 00:59:22,172 - I did? - You did! 890 00:59:22,172 --> 00:59:24,034 Oh, God! 891 00:59:24,034 --> 00:59:25,379 Jesus. 892 00:59:30,275 --> 00:59:31,758 Let me look at you. 893 00:59:31,758 --> 00:59:33,413 Oh, my God! 894 00:59:33,413 --> 00:59:35,000 You're so pretty. 895 00:59:38,103 --> 00:59:39,862 Oh, my God. 896 00:59:39,862 --> 00:59:42,275 Oh, my God, let me look at you again. 897 00:59:42,275 --> 00:59:43,862 Oh, my God, you did it. 898 00:59:43,862 --> 00:59:45,862 - I can't believe it. - You did it! 899 00:59:45,862 --> 00:59:47,517 Oh, my God. 900 00:59:47,517 --> 00:59:49,620 I love you so much! 901 00:59:51,931 --> 00:59:53,310 Oh, my God, Will. 902 00:59:53,310 --> 00:59:54,379 Oh, my God, how--how's the kids? 903 00:59:54,379 --> 00:59:56,482 They're doing good. 904 01:00:00,620 --> 01:00:02,896 Oh, God. 905 01:00:02,896 --> 01:00:04,965 I love me tilt, but no more tilt. 906 01:00:04,965 --> 01:00:06,275 Oh, my God. 907 01:00:06,275 --> 01:00:07,517 Go, go, go, go, go crawl in me tilt. 908 01:00:07,517 --> 01:00:08,965 Have a look. 909 01:00:08,965 --> 01:00:10,413 I can show you me tilt. 910 01:00:12,413 --> 01:00:13,586 Oh, my God. 911 01:00:13,586 --> 01:00:15,448 Crawl in and lie down. 912 01:00:15,448 --> 01:00:17,172 You just lived in that? 913 01:00:17,172 --> 01:00:19,379 Can you fit in there? 914 01:00:19,379 --> 01:00:22,068 Ah. 915 01:00:22,068 --> 01:00:25,724 This is where I spent all those nights. 916 01:00:25,724 --> 01:00:28,310 After, like, day 50 or 60 or something, it was like, 917 01:00:28,310 --> 01:00:31,172 oh, my God, is he, like, dying? 918 01:00:31,172 --> 01:00:33,310 And then I went back, and I looked at, like, 919 01:00:33,310 --> 01:00:34,931 the last text message that you sent, 920 01:00:34,931 --> 01:00:37,413 and it said that you'll be out here as long as it takes. 921 01:00:37,413 --> 01:00:39,896 And then I was like, OK, I just need to calm down 922 01:00:39,896 --> 01:00:41,379 and stop worrying because he's just gonna 923 01:00:41,379 --> 01:00:43,758 be out there for as long as it takes. 924 01:00:43,758 --> 01:00:46,758 Oh, my God. 925 01:00:46,758 --> 01:00:48,482 This is the biggest dream that you could dream of. 926 01:00:48,482 --> 01:00:50,551 And now it's actually happening. 927 01:00:50,551 --> 01:00:52,068 I mean, I couldn't be happier. 928 01:00:52,068 --> 01:00:54,620 Oh, my God, you got so small. 929 01:00:54,620 --> 01:00:56,034 What? 930 01:00:56,034 --> 01:00:59,310 You should see my-- you should've seen my belt. 931 01:00:59,310 --> 01:01:01,310 All the little holes I had to chisel in 932 01:01:01,310 --> 01:01:04,379 and keep moving them down. 933 01:01:04,379 --> 01:01:05,827 The greatest adventure of my life. 934 01:01:05,827 --> 01:01:07,103 I really can't--it's unreal. 935 01:01:07,103 --> 01:01:08,931 I gotta start writing stuff down. 936 01:01:08,931 --> 01:01:10,034 Oh, my God. 937 01:01:10,034 --> 01:01:11,724 I was eating boiled fish and boiled meat 938 01:01:11,724 --> 01:01:13,034 now for 80-odd days. 939 01:01:14,827 --> 01:01:17,965 You ever has a champion of champions, I'm coming back, OK? 940 01:01:17,965 --> 01:01:23,034 No, no, no. 941 01:01:23,034 --> 01:01:25,310 I can't believe it. 942 01:01:25,310 --> 01:01:27,965 To have my wife here with me where I spent all this time, 943 01:01:27,965 --> 01:01:30,413 to see where I've been, I'm over the moon, 944 01:01:30,413 --> 01:01:33,620 because that was a crucial part of my motivation 945 01:01:33,620 --> 01:01:34,931 that kept me going. 946 01:01:34,931 --> 01:01:36,310 It was super special. 947 01:01:36,310 --> 01:01:38,896 You just--a moment that, like, I'll relive 948 01:01:38,896 --> 01:01:42,655 in my mind time and time and time again going forward. 949 01:01:42,655 --> 01:01:44,241 My family is everything to me. 950 01:01:44,241 --> 01:01:46,344 That's why I would never quit because I knew 951 01:01:46,344 --> 01:01:49,137 if I was successful, their future is gonna be brighter. 952 01:01:49,137 --> 01:01:52,103 Winning this prize, this $500,000, 953 01:01:52,103 --> 01:01:55,758 allows us to do things we never thought possible before. 954 01:01:55,758 --> 01:01:57,448 A dream of the wife's was to move back 955 01:01:57,448 --> 01:01:58,655 to her home community. 956 01:01:58,655 --> 01:02:00,379 I want to make her dream come true. 957 01:02:00,379 --> 01:02:03,310 This money will allow us to be able to bring our family back 958 01:02:03,310 --> 01:02:05,793 and raise them in that small community atmosphere 959 01:02:05,793 --> 01:02:07,793 that we really think is important. 960 01:02:07,793 --> 01:02:10,862 It will also secure the kids' education. 961 01:02:10,862 --> 01:02:13,034 It's a life-changing moment for our family. 962 01:02:13,034 --> 01:02:15,724 Our future just got way brighter. 963 01:02:17,862 --> 01:02:20,413 I think staying positive out here 964 01:02:20,413 --> 01:02:22,827 played a crucial role, especially in the latter 965 01:02:22,827 --> 01:02:24,379 part of the game. 966 01:02:24,379 --> 01:02:26,034 And, you know, to survive for 84 days, 967 01:02:26,034 --> 01:02:29,655 I think I even got more mental strength than I realized. 968 01:02:29,655 --> 01:02:31,275 I am resilient the way I am 969 01:02:31,275 --> 01:02:33,896 just because of the way I grew up. 970 01:02:33,896 --> 01:02:36,344 I come from a community with a lot of pride, hard workers. 971 01:02:36,344 --> 01:02:38,137 So I went out with that same kind of drive, 972 01:02:38,137 --> 01:02:39,862 the same work ethic. 973 01:02:39,862 --> 01:02:42,931 You always gotta find new ways around things. 974 01:02:42,931 --> 01:02:45,172 Everybody has trouble, but how you react 975 01:02:45,172 --> 01:02:47,758 and deal with it is what really makes the difference. 976 01:02:47,758 --> 01:02:52,034 I'm so happy that the skills that I learned from my parents 977 01:02:52,034 --> 01:02:54,931 and what I learned from the Indigenous people, 978 01:02:54,931 --> 01:02:58,586 all that come together to make this successful. 979 01:02:58,586 --> 01:03:00,137 You cannot come in here 980 01:03:00,137 --> 01:03:01,724 and pretend to be somebody else. 981 01:03:01,724 --> 01:03:04,103 You've gotta take the tools with the skills you got. 982 01:03:04,103 --> 01:03:06,896 And I have definitely proven that you do not have to 983 01:03:06,896 --> 01:03:09,241 get big game to win "Alone." 984 01:03:10,482 --> 01:03:12,275 I'm a Labradorian, true and strong. 985 01:03:12,275 --> 01:03:13,413 It's who I am. 986 01:03:13,413 --> 01:03:14,862 It's in my DNA. 987 01:03:14,862 --> 01:03:16,310 It's a part of me. 988 01:03:16,310 --> 01:03:18,586 Nothing but good things is gonna come from this, 989 01:03:18,586 --> 01:03:19,931 not only in my community, 990 01:03:19,931 --> 01:03:22,103 but in all the communities across Labrador. 991 01:03:28,172 --> 01:03:30,724 When I go back, they're gonna be super excited. 992 01:03:32,448 --> 01:03:34,689 I'm proud of my little shelter and what I accomplished there, 993 01:03:34,689 --> 01:03:37,862 and I'm really happy with the obstacles I overcame. 994 01:03:37,862 --> 01:03:39,862 It's a little sad, you know, to walk away from it, 995 01:03:39,862 --> 01:03:42,896 but I know I will be back here again someday. 996 01:03:42,896 --> 01:03:44,310 The stuff that happened here, 997 01:03:44,310 --> 01:03:45,931 I'll be talking about for the rest of my life 998 01:03:45,931 --> 01:03:47,965 and sharing with others. 999 01:03:47,965 --> 01:03:50,034 I'm a part of this land now. 1000 01:03:50,034 --> 01:03:52,310 I'm proud of it, super proud of it.