1 00:00:05,320 --> 00:00:06,980 {\an8}[dramatic music] 2 00:00:07,080 --> 00:00:09,820 {\an8}[Ziga] This is what I'm eating from this moose hide. 3 00:00:09,920 --> 00:00:13,060 {\an8}I like this experience, but I wouldn't like it 4 00:00:13,160 --> 00:00:15,540 {\an8}to go forever and ever. 5 00:00:15,640 --> 00:00:17,640 {\an8}♪ 6 00:00:19,880 --> 00:00:21,180 {\an8}[bow thwacks] 7 00:00:21,280 --> 00:00:22,620 {\an8}[Aaron] What the [bleep]? 8 00:00:22,720 --> 00:00:25,100 {\an8}Flinging arrows at [bleep] squirrels. 9 00:00:25,200 --> 00:00:27,340 {\an8}What the [bleep] is happening to me here? 10 00:00:27,440 --> 00:00:30,020 {\an8}My mind is breaking down. 11 00:00:30,120 --> 00:00:31,820 {\an8}Hands are tattered. 12 00:00:31,920 --> 00:00:34,140 {\an8}Body's broken. 13 00:00:34,240 --> 00:00:36,260 {\an8}Might be fighting a losing battle no matter what. 14 00:00:36,360 --> 00:00:38,100 {\an8}[Nero] No, no, no. Come on. 15 00:00:38,200 --> 00:00:40,620 {\an8}Yeah! 16 00:00:40,720 --> 00:00:42,860 {\an8}This is the perfect example 17 00:00:42,960 --> 00:00:45,580 {\an8}of how much of a mental game this thing is. 18 00:00:45,680 --> 00:00:47,420 {\an8}Yes! 19 00:00:47,520 --> 00:00:51,220 {\an8}I'm realising that I'm winding myself down mentally, 20 00:00:51,320 --> 00:00:53,420 {\an8}and that's affecting me physically. 21 00:00:53,520 --> 00:00:55,980 {\an8}It's not over until it's actually over, dude. 22 00:00:56,080 --> 00:00:57,260 {\an8}Yes! 23 00:00:57,360 --> 00:01:04,120 ♪ 24 00:01:34,960 --> 00:01:37,620 {\an8}- It's day 80! 25 00:01:37,720 --> 00:01:39,060 {\an8}Whoop, whoop, whoop, whoop! 26 00:01:39,160 --> 00:01:41,140 {\an8}[upbeat funky music] 27 00:01:41,240 --> 00:01:43,220 Let's take it back to the '80s. 28 00:01:43,320 --> 00:01:45,100 We got the sprinkler. 29 00:01:45,200 --> 00:01:47,740 [imitates water sprinkler whirring] 30 00:01:47,840 --> 00:01:49,220 ♪ 31 00:01:49,320 --> 00:01:50,740 Lawn mower. 32 00:01:50,840 --> 00:01:53,100 ♪ 33 00:01:53,200 --> 00:01:55,740 [imitates lawn mower engine rumbling] 34 00:01:55,840 --> 00:01:57,300 ♪ 35 00:01:57,400 --> 00:01:58,780 The bus driver. 36 00:01:58,880 --> 00:01:59,860 ♪ 37 00:01:59,960 --> 00:02:02,980 Hey-yo, hey-yo. 38 00:02:03,080 --> 00:02:04,260 And the cowboy. 39 00:02:04,360 --> 00:02:11,160 ♪ 40 00:02:13,440 --> 00:02:16,420 Day 80! 41 00:02:16,520 --> 00:02:17,820 Yeah. 42 00:02:17,920 --> 00:02:18,620 ♪ 43 00:02:18,720 --> 00:02:20,460 And... 44 00:02:20,560 --> 00:02:23,260 ♪ Oonse-oonse-oonse-oonse 45 00:02:23,360 --> 00:02:26,300 Rocking my Kie hat. 46 00:02:26,400 --> 00:02:28,940 Kie's wolf hat. 47 00:02:29,040 --> 00:02:32,580 {\an8}Yeah, I know she'll be thinking about today. 48 00:02:32,680 --> 00:02:34,540 {\an8}Good vibes going around. 49 00:02:34,640 --> 00:02:36,380 {\an8}Ah. 50 00:02:36,480 --> 00:02:39,340 {\an8}Let's see if I can land some fish out of the gillnet. 51 00:02:39,440 --> 00:02:40,460 {\an8}♪ 52 00:02:40,560 --> 00:02:41,820 {\an8}Whoop, whoop! 53 00:02:41,920 --> 00:02:43,820 ♪ 54 00:02:43,920 --> 00:02:47,460 Kie as support has just been incredible, 55 00:02:47,560 --> 00:02:51,180 one of my best friends, basically family to me. 56 00:02:51,280 --> 00:02:53,620 And to join her at 80 days 57 00:02:53,720 --> 00:02:55,620 and to kind of get some sort of glimpse 58 00:02:55,720 --> 00:02:58,220 into what her experience actually means, 59 00:02:58,320 --> 00:02:59,740 I feel really, really honoured. 60 00:02:59,840 --> 00:03:02,020 ♪ 61 00:03:02,120 --> 00:03:05,020 It's always optimistic when I come out and have a look, 62 00:03:05,120 --> 00:03:07,500 and you can see with the gillnet, 63 00:03:07,600 --> 00:03:10,100 and you can see there's, like, that dark patch there 64 00:03:10,200 --> 00:03:12,300 where there's no ice that's formed. 65 00:03:12,400 --> 00:03:14,620 Kind of tells me that there might be 66 00:03:14,720 --> 00:03:17,300 some movement... about. 67 00:03:17,400 --> 00:03:20,060 ♪ 68 00:03:20,160 --> 00:03:23,620 Going through this journey, it's really cemented in myself 69 00:03:23,720 --> 00:03:25,980 like, this is what I want to do... 70 00:03:26,080 --> 00:03:28,180 All right. 71 00:03:28,280 --> 00:03:31,780 Got to break away... the ice. 72 00:03:31,880 --> 00:03:34,500 Finding ways to be able to help facilitate people 73 00:03:34,600 --> 00:03:37,020 with the land and being an outdoor advocate 74 00:03:37,120 --> 00:03:38,980 and finding that balance between the natural world 75 00:03:39,080 --> 00:03:40,340 and the modern world. 76 00:03:40,440 --> 00:03:42,260 Come on. 77 00:03:42,360 --> 00:03:43,540 Stop, stop, stop, stop, stop, stop, stop. 78 00:03:43,640 --> 00:03:44,540 Chill. 79 00:03:44,640 --> 00:03:46,260 Jeez, jeez. 80 00:03:46,360 --> 00:03:47,820 Hold up, hold up, hold up. 81 00:03:47,920 --> 00:03:49,860 Come on. 82 00:03:49,960 --> 00:03:51,620 Come on, come on, come on, come on. 83 00:03:51,720 --> 00:03:53,620 Yeah. 84 00:03:53,720 --> 00:03:56,460 Inconnu. 85 00:03:56,560 --> 00:03:57,780 Phew. 86 00:03:57,880 --> 00:03:59,060 ♪ 87 00:03:59,160 --> 00:04:01,540 Yes. 88 00:04:01,640 --> 00:04:03,620 And it's not about people coming out 89 00:04:03,720 --> 00:04:06,500 and doing 80 days solo in the wilderness. 90 00:04:06,600 --> 00:04:08,820 It's just about people having that same relationship 91 00:04:08,920 --> 00:04:10,740 that I do with the land. 92 00:04:10,840 --> 00:04:12,420 Dispatch it. 93 00:04:12,520 --> 00:04:17,860 ♪ 94 00:04:17,960 --> 00:04:20,820 Day 80, inconnu. 95 00:04:20,920 --> 00:04:22,500 Whoo-hoo! 96 00:04:22,600 --> 00:04:24,420 Mwah! 97 00:04:24,520 --> 00:04:26,660 Thank you. 98 00:04:26,760 --> 00:04:28,780 Thank you! 99 00:04:28,880 --> 00:04:31,860 Hoo, hoo, yeah! 100 00:04:31,960 --> 00:04:38,680 {\an8}♪ 101 00:04:41,120 --> 00:04:43,620 {\an8}Inconnu for dinner. 102 00:04:43,720 --> 00:04:46,380 So it's, like, sort of coming down a little bit, 103 00:04:46,480 --> 00:04:49,260 you know, coming down off the high 104 00:04:49,360 --> 00:04:51,660 of the 80. 105 00:04:51,760 --> 00:04:53,860 And... 106 00:04:53,960 --> 00:04:55,620 you know, it's those, like... 107 00:04:55,720 --> 00:04:57,620 it's those times where you kind of come down 108 00:04:57,720 --> 00:05:00,460 where you need to sort of be able to regroup 109 00:05:00,560 --> 00:05:03,500 and refocus and think about, 110 00:05:03,600 --> 00:05:05,380 all right, what's next to move forward? 111 00:05:05,480 --> 00:05:08,420 ♪ 112 00:05:08,520 --> 00:05:11,220 Like, celebrate, absolutely, but just also just know, like, 113 00:05:11,320 --> 00:05:12,940 I'm eating one fish a day. 114 00:05:13,040 --> 00:05:17,820 {\an8}So it's not going to sustain me much longer. 115 00:05:17,920 --> 00:05:21,100 {\an8}And so just not getting wrapped up in that too much 116 00:05:21,200 --> 00:05:23,380 {\an8}and just focusing on... 117 00:05:23,480 --> 00:05:25,780 you know, the next thing. 118 00:05:25,880 --> 00:05:27,860 ♪ 119 00:05:27,960 --> 00:05:30,780 You know, not quit because I'm tired. 120 00:05:30,880 --> 00:05:34,140 ♪ 121 00:05:34,240 --> 00:05:35,260 Like, none of it's... 122 00:05:35,360 --> 00:05:37,700 ♪ 123 00:05:37,800 --> 00:05:41,260 Individually, none of it's really difficult, but... 124 00:05:41,360 --> 00:05:43,220 ♪ 125 00:05:43,320 --> 00:05:44,980 The cumulative, it's... 126 00:05:45,080 --> 00:05:46,380 ♪ 127 00:05:46,480 --> 00:05:48,580 It builds up. It's tough. 128 00:05:48,680 --> 00:05:55,360 ♪ 129 00:06:13,320 --> 00:06:16,300 {\an8}[Ziga] I want to show you something. 130 00:06:16,400 --> 00:06:18,540 {\an8}I don't know if you can see 131 00:06:18,640 --> 00:06:20,960 {\an8}this mist cloud. 132 00:06:23,160 --> 00:06:25,160 There are mountains. 133 00:06:27,280 --> 00:06:29,640 And they have some sun. 134 00:06:33,360 --> 00:06:36,640 And that's pretty much it. 135 00:06:39,000 --> 00:06:41,860 I won't see sun again... 136 00:06:41,960 --> 00:06:43,960 {\an8}as long as I'm here. 137 00:06:46,120 --> 00:06:47,820 {\an8}Quite soon, there will be 138 00:06:47,920 --> 00:06:49,960 {\an8}complete darkness all the time. 139 00:06:52,720 --> 00:06:54,720 {\an8}Quite sad moment again. 140 00:06:57,160 --> 00:06:59,580 [sighs] 141 00:06:59,680 --> 00:07:02,660 Okay, I'm going to check snares. 142 00:07:02,760 --> 00:07:08,900 ♪ 143 00:07:09,000 --> 00:07:11,620 I know that days 144 00:07:11,720 --> 00:07:14,300 where I will be still able to see sun 145 00:07:14,400 --> 00:07:17,380 are very, very few now. 146 00:07:17,480 --> 00:07:20,020 [grunts] 147 00:07:20,120 --> 00:07:23,500 [laughs] 148 00:07:23,600 --> 00:07:27,060 It's getting worse and worse here down. 149 00:07:27,160 --> 00:07:31,100 In couple of days, sun won't rise anymore. 150 00:07:31,200 --> 00:07:34,580 So I'm very close to the polar night. 151 00:07:34,680 --> 00:07:36,860 I see a lot of new footprints. 152 00:07:36,960 --> 00:07:38,580 ♪ 153 00:07:38,680 --> 00:07:40,900 I was preparing before, but to be honest, 154 00:07:41,000 --> 00:07:43,500 I don't know how it will feel to be without sun 155 00:07:43,600 --> 00:07:46,140 for I don't know how long. 156 00:07:46,240 --> 00:07:48,240 ♪ 157 00:07:52,080 --> 00:07:56,220 I imagine that to be in complete darkness, 158 00:07:56,320 --> 00:07:58,180 that might be very depressing. 159 00:07:58,280 --> 00:08:00,300 Damn. 160 00:08:00,400 --> 00:08:03,700 It was the fox walking here. 161 00:08:03,800 --> 00:08:06,300 Crazy. 162 00:08:06,400 --> 00:08:09,100 So I really hope 163 00:08:09,200 --> 00:08:11,980 I will have enough of activities 164 00:08:12,080 --> 00:08:14,340 in my shelter to keep my mind busy 165 00:08:14,440 --> 00:08:18,060 and not to go in this depressive mode. 166 00:08:18,160 --> 00:08:19,260 Wait. 167 00:08:19,360 --> 00:08:20,580 ♪ 168 00:08:20,680 --> 00:08:22,680 Where is the snare? 169 00:08:26,080 --> 00:08:28,320 Where is this [bleep]? 170 00:08:31,880 --> 00:08:34,600 This animal managed to get away with a snare. 171 00:08:37,120 --> 00:08:39,120 How is this possible? 172 00:08:50,560 --> 00:08:52,900 [bleep] damn it. 173 00:08:53,000 --> 00:08:55,260 I could have the predator, 174 00:08:55,360 --> 00:08:57,940 probably the fox. 175 00:08:58,040 --> 00:09:00,100 But... 176 00:09:00,200 --> 00:09:02,540 obviously it got snared 177 00:09:02,640 --> 00:09:04,580 and managed to get away. 178 00:09:04,680 --> 00:09:08,060 ♪ 179 00:09:08,160 --> 00:09:11,300 There's a sign of the wire. The wire was with it. 180 00:09:11,400 --> 00:09:16,420 ♪ 181 00:09:16,520 --> 00:09:18,820 Damn it. 182 00:09:18,920 --> 00:09:22,180 I could have a fox now... 183 00:09:22,280 --> 00:09:24,860 if I would tie it more strong. 184 00:09:24,960 --> 00:09:29,660 ♪ 185 00:09:29,760 --> 00:09:32,540 But now I don't see the signs of wire anymore. 186 00:09:32,640 --> 00:09:34,640 ♪ 187 00:09:36,120 --> 00:09:39,060 ♪ 188 00:09:39,160 --> 00:09:41,060 Go back... 189 00:09:41,160 --> 00:09:45,580 because my toes--they feel cold. 190 00:09:45,680 --> 00:09:48,620 ♪ 191 00:09:48,720 --> 00:09:50,380 This is probably the coldest day 192 00:09:50,480 --> 00:09:52,300 I have ever had, 193 00:09:52,400 --> 00:09:56,060 and my toe feels numb, 194 00:09:56,160 --> 00:09:58,420 which is a bad sign. 195 00:09:58,520 --> 00:10:00,340 [bleep]. 196 00:10:00,440 --> 00:10:04,020 My toes are numb. 197 00:10:04,120 --> 00:10:06,340 I keep on moving them, 198 00:10:06,440 --> 00:10:10,940 but I can still feel a bit of numbness. 199 00:10:11,040 --> 00:10:14,860 I'm starting to get a bit afraid to get frostnip. 200 00:10:14,960 --> 00:10:17,020 Frostnip is actually the first stage 201 00:10:17,120 --> 00:10:19,260 towards frostbite. 202 00:10:19,360 --> 00:10:22,220 If it goes in very severe condition, 203 00:10:22,320 --> 00:10:25,060 {\an8}you can actually lose toes. 204 00:10:25,160 --> 00:10:27,380 {\an8}This will lead to tap-out in the end. 205 00:10:27,480 --> 00:10:29,900 {\an8}♪ 206 00:10:30,000 --> 00:10:32,300 Really, I think 207 00:10:32,400 --> 00:10:35,900 that in survival aspect now, 208 00:10:36,000 --> 00:10:40,180 it's the best to stay warm, mostly in the shelter, 209 00:10:40,280 --> 00:10:44,460 and mentally, I mean, staying sane... 210 00:10:44,560 --> 00:10:46,220 which is sad. 211 00:10:46,320 --> 00:10:48,260 ♪ 212 00:10:48,360 --> 00:10:50,740 It's, for me, a bit difficult to comprehend 213 00:10:50,840 --> 00:10:53,300 that this is really happening. 214 00:10:53,400 --> 00:10:56,460 I don't know how this will impact me mentally. 215 00:10:56,560 --> 00:10:59,420 I don't like this strategy. 216 00:10:59,520 --> 00:11:01,700 I would like to be outside 217 00:11:01,800 --> 00:11:04,180 and do, like, tons of different things. 218 00:11:04,280 --> 00:11:07,020 ♪ 219 00:11:07,120 --> 00:11:10,900 But maybe today's day was a nice warning 220 00:11:11,000 --> 00:11:13,860 that especially with this toe now... 221 00:11:13,960 --> 00:11:17,540 that, Ziga, mm, if you want to stay long... 222 00:11:17,640 --> 00:11:19,780 ♪ 223 00:11:19,880 --> 00:11:23,600 [sighs] You have to take care of yourself. 224 00:11:27,960 --> 00:11:30,860 {\an8}[dramatic music] 225 00:11:30,960 --> 00:11:37,960 {\an8}♪ 226 00:11:46,040 --> 00:11:47,140 {\an8}- What's up, guys? 227 00:11:47,240 --> 00:11:48,460 {\an8}Just got back from the trapline. 228 00:11:48,560 --> 00:11:50,560 {\an8}It is damn cold. 229 00:11:52,760 --> 00:11:54,140 Oh, my hands are going to freeze off. 230 00:11:54,240 --> 00:11:57,540 We got one bunny, but, like, the bunnies I've been getting, 231 00:11:57,640 --> 00:12:00,300 I've had to just take the snare off the tree, 232 00:12:00,400 --> 00:12:03,020 because my hands are too cold to get it off its neck. 233 00:12:03,120 --> 00:12:05,420 Sometimes you have to fight with it a bit. 234 00:12:05,520 --> 00:12:09,060 And, yeah, so it was a struggle this morning. 235 00:12:09,160 --> 00:12:10,479 We're burning through the firewood like crazy, 236 00:12:10,480 --> 00:12:13,940 so I have to, like... 237 00:12:14,040 --> 00:12:17,140 I have to get two trees done today no matter what. 238 00:12:17,240 --> 00:12:19,960 And that's just gonna be rinse and repeat, rinse and repeat. 239 00:12:28,880 --> 00:12:33,540 ♪ 240 00:12:33,640 --> 00:12:36,060 The cold temperatures are here to stay now, 241 00:12:36,160 --> 00:12:38,700 and this is unbearable almost. 242 00:12:38,800 --> 00:12:41,740 ♪ 243 00:12:41,840 --> 00:12:44,900 I have to warm up my toes after this. 244 00:12:45,000 --> 00:12:47,420 I can get the fire going quite easy, 245 00:12:47,520 --> 00:12:49,860 but the mud's starting to crack. 246 00:12:49,960 --> 00:12:52,060 I'm starting to see pinholes everywhere. 247 00:12:52,160 --> 00:12:54,420 I feel a breeze coming through. 248 00:12:54,520 --> 00:12:57,660 ♪ 249 00:12:57,760 --> 00:13:01,940 Took me a couple hours to do two trees. 250 00:13:02,040 --> 00:13:04,220 I have an issue with my fireplace. 251 00:13:04,320 --> 00:13:06,060 ♪ 252 00:13:06,160 --> 00:13:08,180 Put a big hole right here. 253 00:13:08,280 --> 00:13:10,280 I'm going to stack... 254 00:13:12,880 --> 00:13:16,240 These big timbers like so. 255 00:13:19,960 --> 00:13:22,820 I'm just going to pack snow and ice in there. 256 00:13:22,920 --> 00:13:25,180 So my plan is, I'll boil water, 257 00:13:25,280 --> 00:13:28,380 put snow in my pot to make a slush pit, 258 00:13:28,480 --> 00:13:31,140 and then I'm going to patch all my holes with ice. 259 00:13:31,240 --> 00:13:34,140 So this will be the glue. 260 00:13:34,240 --> 00:13:36,060 It'll close all the holes, 261 00:13:36,160 --> 00:13:39,340 and I'm just going to make this thing an icebox. 262 00:13:39,440 --> 00:13:42,060 So the bricks and mortar--it's... 263 00:13:42,160 --> 00:13:44,780 snow and timbers. 264 00:13:44,880 --> 00:13:47,020 ♪ 265 00:13:47,120 --> 00:13:50,100 It is any day now that somebody can win. 266 00:13:50,200 --> 00:13:51,660 It could be tomorrow, the next day, 267 00:13:51,760 --> 00:13:53,660 or it could be a month from now. 268 00:13:53,760 --> 00:13:56,060 Like, there might be five people left, 269 00:13:56,160 --> 00:13:59,100 so I got to prepare. 270 00:13:59,200 --> 00:14:01,220 No rest for the wicked. 271 00:14:01,320 --> 00:14:03,320 ♪ 272 00:14:06,200 --> 00:14:08,380 Once that freezes... 273 00:14:08,480 --> 00:14:11,220 ♪ 274 00:14:11,320 --> 00:14:13,580 She ain't going nowheres. 275 00:14:13,680 --> 00:14:15,380 No more hole. 276 00:14:15,480 --> 00:14:17,620 ♪ 277 00:14:17,720 --> 00:14:19,740 I put a lot into this. 278 00:14:19,840 --> 00:14:21,900 My body's pretty beat up. 279 00:14:22,000 --> 00:14:24,180 The feeling's not the same anymore 280 00:14:24,280 --> 00:14:27,300 in my feet or hands. 281 00:14:27,400 --> 00:14:30,500 Don't want to risk frostbite or anything, so I came inside. 282 00:14:30,600 --> 00:14:32,860 [grunts] 283 00:14:32,960 --> 00:14:34,780 Try to get these feet warm. 284 00:14:34,880 --> 00:14:36,540 ♪ 285 00:14:36,640 --> 00:14:38,140 It's going to get colder. 286 00:14:38,240 --> 00:14:40,020 I'm going to bitch and complain. 287 00:14:40,120 --> 00:14:41,740 ♪ 288 00:14:41,840 --> 00:14:43,780 Ripping the heat in here now. 289 00:14:43,880 --> 00:14:45,260 It's working. 290 00:14:45,360 --> 00:14:47,300 But I don't want to get it too warm 291 00:14:47,400 --> 00:14:50,140 and melt all the ice chunks. 292 00:14:50,240 --> 00:14:52,020 But guess what. 293 00:14:52,120 --> 00:14:54,120 We're not quitting yet. 294 00:14:56,440 --> 00:15:00,300 ♪ 295 00:15:00,400 --> 00:15:03,820 It's, like, I hate the wind. Now I hate the cold. 296 00:15:03,920 --> 00:15:06,700 Like, what does this guy even want? 297 00:15:06,800 --> 00:15:07,980 ♪ 298 00:15:08,080 --> 00:15:09,740 I want to go home. That's what I want. 299 00:15:09,840 --> 00:15:11,540 ♪ 300 00:15:11,640 --> 00:15:13,980 This has been an adventure, a hard one, mentally, 301 00:15:14,080 --> 00:15:15,780 physically, and emotionally, 302 00:15:15,880 --> 00:15:18,860 and I'm about ready for it to be done. 303 00:15:18,960 --> 00:15:20,940 ♪ 304 00:15:21,040 --> 00:15:25,380 But only if it's for a W. 305 00:15:25,480 --> 00:15:32,240 ♪ 306 00:16:01,760 --> 00:16:03,760 {\an8}- Okay. 307 00:16:05,240 --> 00:16:07,660 So down there... 308 00:16:07,760 --> 00:16:09,540 bed. 309 00:16:09,640 --> 00:16:12,180 And then I rotate up, a little bit on top, 310 00:16:12,280 --> 00:16:14,100 and it's just ice. 311 00:16:14,200 --> 00:16:18,300 Ice, ice, ice. 312 00:16:18,400 --> 00:16:20,220 There's a little of what my shelter looks like. 313 00:16:20,320 --> 00:16:22,100 And from the inside... 314 00:16:22,200 --> 00:16:25,440 just completely iced up. 315 00:16:28,160 --> 00:16:32,820 Need more heat fire. 316 00:16:32,920 --> 00:16:35,340 [chuckles] 317 00:16:35,440 --> 00:16:37,660 It's like, no, you need to think 318 00:16:37,760 --> 00:16:40,100 of the weather window now. 319 00:16:40,200 --> 00:16:42,660 So I'm going to the gillnet now 320 00:16:42,760 --> 00:16:44,500 whilst there's still light outside 321 00:16:44,600 --> 00:16:46,600 and do all that sort of stuff, so... 322 00:16:49,000 --> 00:16:51,740 My home that I love is changing a little bit now 323 00:16:51,840 --> 00:16:53,900 with the relationship, and it's doing its job. 324 00:16:54,000 --> 00:16:55,940 As soon as you're up out of the bag, you know, 325 00:16:56,040 --> 00:16:58,860 there's, like, a race to go back into the sleeping bag. 326 00:16:58,960 --> 00:17:01,180 I can't help but think, like, at this stage, 327 00:17:01,280 --> 00:17:03,140 we're getting to the end. 328 00:17:03,240 --> 00:17:05,980 And as each day goes by, 329 00:17:06,080 --> 00:17:08,500 like, the possibility of actually winning this, 330 00:17:08,600 --> 00:17:11,140 yeah, starts to become more and more real. 331 00:17:11,240 --> 00:17:13,540 ♪ 332 00:17:13,640 --> 00:17:15,740 And it's hard, because looking historically 333 00:17:15,840 --> 00:17:17,220 at the other seasons, 334 00:17:17,320 --> 00:17:18,980 I could have actually won by now. 335 00:17:19,080 --> 00:17:21,260 {\an8}And, yeah, you start to fantasise about that 336 00:17:21,360 --> 00:17:23,340 {\an8}and think about, like, what does that mean? 337 00:17:23,440 --> 00:17:26,340 {\an8}And the idea of having an Australian to come 338 00:17:26,440 --> 00:17:30,340 to the Arctic and to win the world championship 339 00:17:30,440 --> 00:17:33,100 is just-- like, what a statement. 340 00:17:33,200 --> 00:17:36,100 ♪ 341 00:17:36,200 --> 00:17:37,660 That gets me really excited and gives me 342 00:17:37,760 --> 00:17:39,340 a lot of motivation to continue. 343 00:17:39,440 --> 00:17:42,140 And every day that ticks by... 344 00:17:42,240 --> 00:17:44,380 ♪ 345 00:17:44,480 --> 00:17:46,660 That possibility becomes more and more real. 346 00:17:46,760 --> 00:17:50,140 But, also, I try not to get too carried away with it, 347 00:17:50,240 --> 00:17:52,700 because there's still a lot of work to be done 348 00:17:52,800 --> 00:17:55,260 and it really can still be a really long season. 349 00:17:55,360 --> 00:17:57,140 So it's exciting, 350 00:17:57,240 --> 00:17:59,860 but not getting too carried away with it. 351 00:17:59,960 --> 00:18:01,340 ♪ 352 00:18:01,440 --> 00:18:03,300 Oh, we got a fish. 353 00:18:03,400 --> 00:18:05,400 Let's see if we can get her out. 354 00:18:07,680 --> 00:18:11,420 Whoa! 355 00:18:11,520 --> 00:18:13,420 That is huge. 356 00:18:13,520 --> 00:18:16,300 Holy crap. 357 00:18:16,400 --> 00:18:19,300 [laughs] 358 00:18:19,400 --> 00:18:23,180 {\an8}Look at the size of this guy. 359 00:18:23,280 --> 00:18:25,460 {\an8}That is the biggest fish I've ever caught. 360 00:18:25,560 --> 00:18:27,020 [laughs] 361 00:18:27,120 --> 00:18:29,940 Huge pike. 362 00:18:30,040 --> 00:18:32,040 Big, full belly. 363 00:18:34,080 --> 00:18:36,020 It's already frozen. 364 00:18:36,120 --> 00:18:38,260 How am I going to do this? 365 00:18:38,360 --> 00:18:40,100 ♪ 366 00:18:40,200 --> 00:18:42,300 I'm going to break a hole again. 367 00:18:42,400 --> 00:18:46,100 I definitely have food up to 91. 368 00:18:46,200 --> 00:18:49,380 Jeez, that is so cold. 369 00:18:49,480 --> 00:18:50,700 ♪ 370 00:18:50,800 --> 00:18:52,860 But it's so much different 371 00:18:52,960 --> 00:18:55,700 when you don't have, like, a sanctuary, 372 00:18:55,800 --> 00:18:58,660 a place to retreat to when it's really cold 373 00:18:58,760 --> 00:19:01,380 and you're just out in the elements. 374 00:19:01,480 --> 00:19:03,480 ♪ 375 00:19:05,320 --> 00:19:08,140 Trying to scale a fish when the fish is freezing 376 00:19:08,240 --> 00:19:10,420 and trying to manage your hands... 377 00:19:10,520 --> 00:19:11,940 [grunts] 378 00:19:12,040 --> 00:19:15,820 Just makes things really difficult. 379 00:19:15,920 --> 00:19:18,700 Yes, we got roe. 380 00:19:18,800 --> 00:19:22,100 {\an8}Oh, hard on the hands. 381 00:19:22,200 --> 00:19:23,660 {\an8}Hard on the hands. 382 00:19:23,760 --> 00:19:26,620 {\an8}♪ 383 00:19:26,720 --> 00:19:28,740 {\an8}She's done. 384 00:19:28,840 --> 00:19:30,700 {\an8}I just got to get back and warm up. 385 00:19:30,800 --> 00:19:35,940 {\an8}♪ 386 00:19:36,040 --> 00:19:39,220 {\an8}You know, I was thinking about this before. 387 00:19:39,320 --> 00:19:41,300 {\an8}Out of a 24-hour period, 388 00:19:41,400 --> 00:19:44,780 I spend about 16 hours of that 389 00:19:44,880 --> 00:19:48,580 lying down in my sleeping bag, pretty much warm. 390 00:19:48,680 --> 00:19:53,340 So that leaves 8 hours I'm vertical. 391 00:19:53,440 --> 00:19:57,180 My moving around is getting water, 392 00:19:57,280 --> 00:20:01,180 getting firewood at the point, putting food in my pot. 393 00:20:01,280 --> 00:20:05,300 I'm eating three full pots a day, 394 00:20:05,400 --> 00:20:07,300 along with the liquid, 395 00:20:07,400 --> 00:20:09,340 so I'm hydrated as well. 396 00:20:09,440 --> 00:20:11,820 ♪ 397 00:20:11,920 --> 00:20:14,460 Yet at the end of the day... 398 00:20:14,560 --> 00:20:15,740 ♪ 399 00:20:15,840 --> 00:20:17,700 I'm exhausted. 400 00:20:17,800 --> 00:20:19,300 ♪ 401 00:20:19,400 --> 00:20:21,140 Now, I'm not a doctor... 402 00:20:21,240 --> 00:20:23,180 ♪ 403 00:20:23,280 --> 00:20:26,140 But that doesn't add up. 404 00:20:26,240 --> 00:20:30,020 Pay attention to that, because that can become... 405 00:20:30,120 --> 00:20:31,340 ♪ 406 00:20:31,440 --> 00:20:33,300 A big red flag. 407 00:20:33,400 --> 00:20:34,620 ♪ 408 00:20:34,720 --> 00:20:36,300 And, like, if you collapse out here, 409 00:20:36,400 --> 00:20:38,140 particularly when it's cold-- 410 00:20:38,240 --> 00:20:40,060 even when it's not super cold-- if you collapse out here... 411 00:20:40,160 --> 00:20:44,180 ♪ 412 00:20:44,280 --> 00:20:45,820 It can be fatal. 413 00:20:45,920 --> 00:20:50,600 ♪ 414 00:20:53,840 --> 00:20:56,740 {\an8}[dramatic music] 415 00:20:56,840 --> 00:21:03,920 {\an8}♪ 416 00:21:05,960 --> 00:21:09,140 {\an8}[dynamic music] 417 00:21:09,240 --> 00:21:10,620 {\an8}- Hello, everybody. 418 00:21:10,720 --> 00:21:14,220 {\an8}We will have an interview with Mr. Moose. 419 00:21:14,320 --> 00:21:17,140 So let's see how this guy is doing here. 420 00:21:17,240 --> 00:21:18,980 Hello, Mr. Moose. 421 00:21:19,080 --> 00:21:20,420 [imitates moose bellow] 422 00:21:20,520 --> 00:21:24,180 How are you dealing with all this cold up here? 423 00:21:24,280 --> 00:21:27,020 Oh, come on, it's just the beginning of December. 424 00:21:27,120 --> 00:21:29,780 Wait for January. 425 00:21:29,880 --> 00:21:31,100 "January"? 426 00:21:31,200 --> 00:21:33,640 Oh, yeah, then it's cold. 427 00:21:41,000 --> 00:21:42,660 For me, it's totally fine. 428 00:21:42,760 --> 00:21:45,340 This is why I have the fur, you know, to protect me 429 00:21:45,440 --> 00:21:47,860 from all this cold weather. 430 00:21:47,960 --> 00:21:49,940 Okay. 431 00:21:50,040 --> 00:21:51,700 Thank you, Mr. Moose. 432 00:21:51,800 --> 00:21:53,900 ♪ 433 00:21:54,000 --> 00:21:56,000 Stupid moose. 434 00:21:57,800 --> 00:21:59,700 ♪ 435 00:21:59,800 --> 00:22:01,940 With this long night, 436 00:22:02,040 --> 00:22:05,900 I think I entered the third phase of survival. 437 00:22:06,000 --> 00:22:07,020 ♪ 438 00:22:07,120 --> 00:22:08,700 Look at this guy. 439 00:22:08,800 --> 00:22:09,820 ♪ 440 00:22:09,920 --> 00:22:12,700 This bird is just, like, a few centimetres 441 00:22:12,800 --> 00:22:14,860 from my finger... 442 00:22:14,960 --> 00:22:17,540 feeding on my fat. 443 00:22:17,640 --> 00:22:20,000 I think you had enough, buddy. 444 00:22:28,120 --> 00:22:30,940 Okay, guys, I will just do everything 445 00:22:31,040 --> 00:22:34,980 that is needed outside and go back to the shelter. 446 00:22:35,080 --> 00:22:37,060 Just survive... 447 00:22:37,160 --> 00:22:39,580 a couple of more days 448 00:22:39,680 --> 00:22:41,260 or weeks, hopefully. 449 00:22:41,360 --> 00:22:44,260 [chuckles] Damn. 450 00:22:44,360 --> 00:22:48,860 After day 40 and snow and ice, things calmed down a bit, 451 00:22:48,960 --> 00:22:52,060 but still there was a lot of things to do. 452 00:22:52,160 --> 00:22:55,020 But now the third phase of survival 453 00:22:55,120 --> 00:22:58,540 is pretty much staying alive... 454 00:22:58,640 --> 00:23:01,580 especially with this frostnip. 455 00:23:01,680 --> 00:23:04,820 And, also, I have a lot of time to think, 456 00:23:04,920 --> 00:23:08,220 and I'm thinking a lot about my life, 457 00:23:08,320 --> 00:23:11,780 about who I am, and what is important for me. 458 00:23:11,880 --> 00:23:14,780 And I think that this phase 459 00:23:14,880 --> 00:23:16,580 is actually the most important one 460 00:23:16,680 --> 00:23:19,340 for my personal growth. 461 00:23:19,440 --> 00:23:23,380 {\an8}♪ 462 00:23:23,480 --> 00:23:25,480 {\an8}[sighs] 463 00:23:31,120 --> 00:23:33,500 So this is a dog. 464 00:23:33,600 --> 00:23:35,620 I mean, it won't look like this one. 465 00:23:35,720 --> 00:23:37,260 [clears throat] This is the first one 466 00:23:37,360 --> 00:23:40,260 that I tried to make. 467 00:23:40,360 --> 00:23:42,360 Um... 468 00:23:43,600 --> 00:23:47,740 It's more like prototype. 469 00:23:47,840 --> 00:23:49,860 And now I know how to make it, 470 00:23:49,960 --> 00:23:52,580 and, of course, I'll just make another one. 471 00:23:52,680 --> 00:23:55,340 So... 472 00:23:55,440 --> 00:23:57,460 it's going to be for my son. 473 00:23:57,560 --> 00:24:02,020 ♪ 474 00:24:02,120 --> 00:24:06,460 I'm glad I entered this third phase relatively late, 475 00:24:06,560 --> 00:24:09,460 because otherwise I would get insane. 476 00:24:09,560 --> 00:24:12,020 I was thinking, oh, I don't want to be a guy like that, 477 00:24:12,120 --> 00:24:14,740 you know, staying in the shelter, but... 478 00:24:14,840 --> 00:24:18,540 pretty much almost everybody did it in the end. 479 00:24:18,640 --> 00:24:21,260 {\an8}I know that this guy in Patagonia, 480 00:24:21,360 --> 00:24:25,620 {\an8}he was carving a lot in the shelter. 481 00:24:25,720 --> 00:24:29,100 {\an8}Sam and Juan Pablo--they were pretty much in the shelter 482 00:24:29,200 --> 00:24:31,660 {\an8}as much as possible. 483 00:24:31,760 --> 00:24:35,260 {\an8}That's a bit more easy to start now. 484 00:24:35,360 --> 00:24:36,900 {\an8}♪ 485 00:24:37,000 --> 00:24:41,060 It's really hard keeping my mind occupied. 486 00:24:41,160 --> 00:24:44,500 If I stop now, I can go back, have my job, 487 00:24:44,600 --> 00:24:47,300 and be back with my family. 488 00:24:47,400 --> 00:24:49,980 If I decide not to stop no matter what, 489 00:24:50,080 --> 00:24:51,620 this can easily go 490 00:24:51,720 --> 00:24:55,860 over day 120 and more. 491 00:24:55,960 --> 00:24:59,740 Normally, these things last around 80 days, 492 00:24:59,840 --> 00:25:03,020 but maybe there is another guy who says, 493 00:25:03,120 --> 00:25:04,980 no matter what, I'm not giving up. 494 00:25:05,080 --> 00:25:07,980 ♪ 495 00:25:08,080 --> 00:25:11,780 If I tap out now, I would be still proud of myself. 496 00:25:11,880 --> 00:25:14,980 If I continue, I would be missing Bor 497 00:25:15,080 --> 00:25:19,260 {\an8}for a very long time and missing important milestones. 498 00:25:19,360 --> 00:25:21,940 {\an8}So, yeah, I'm risking a lot. 499 00:25:22,040 --> 00:25:23,700 {\an8}♪ 500 00:25:23,800 --> 00:25:24,900 Okay. 501 00:25:25,000 --> 00:25:26,860 ♪ 502 00:25:26,960 --> 00:25:29,900 A bit better version. 503 00:25:30,000 --> 00:25:32,620 Won't be perfect, but... 504 00:25:32,720 --> 00:25:35,740 it might look a bit more like a dog 505 00:25:35,840 --> 00:25:37,840 than the previous one... 506 00:25:42,720 --> 00:25:44,720 Hopefully. 507 00:25:46,560 --> 00:25:50,860 Okay, I'm ready to go to sleep now. 508 00:25:50,960 --> 00:25:57,280 {\an8}♪ 509 00:26:03,520 --> 00:26:05,700 I've had quite bad dreams 510 00:26:05,800 --> 00:26:07,900 getting out of this competition 511 00:26:08,000 --> 00:26:11,460 because of this toe numbness. 512 00:26:11,560 --> 00:26:14,420 Can be frostbite or frostnip. 513 00:26:14,520 --> 00:26:15,980 ♪ 514 00:26:16,080 --> 00:26:18,220 But still, because of the numbness, 515 00:26:18,320 --> 00:26:20,140 I believe it's frostnip. 516 00:26:20,240 --> 00:26:21,700 ♪ 517 00:26:21,800 --> 00:26:24,300 Damn it. 518 00:26:24,400 --> 00:26:27,900 {\an8}The problem is that these things usually just get worse. 519 00:26:28,000 --> 00:26:30,660 {\an8}♪ 520 00:26:30,760 --> 00:26:34,860 {\an8}So I have to be extremely careful what I'm doing. 521 00:26:34,960 --> 00:26:36,220 ♪ 522 00:26:36,320 --> 00:26:38,860 Otherwise, I am [bleep]. 523 00:26:38,960 --> 00:26:40,960 ♪ 524 00:26:42,800 --> 00:26:45,700 {\an8}[dramatic music] 525 00:26:45,800 --> 00:26:52,460 {\an8}♪ 526 00:26:52,560 --> 00:26:54,560 {\an8}[Aaron] What's up, guys? 527 00:26:56,080 --> 00:26:57,820 {\an8}It's amazing how soft we get 528 00:26:57,920 --> 00:27:00,100 {\an8}because of, like, our accessibility 529 00:27:00,200 --> 00:27:03,780 {\an8}to food and stuff. 530 00:27:03,880 --> 00:27:05,660 When you don't have it, man, you want it, 531 00:27:05,760 --> 00:27:07,420 and you'll eat every-- 532 00:27:07,520 --> 00:27:12,180 I'm eating ribs, back, bone... 533 00:27:12,280 --> 00:27:14,940 eating the whole bunny now. 534 00:27:15,040 --> 00:27:18,040 I need the nutrients, man. I need to win this. 535 00:27:20,800 --> 00:27:23,180 If you would gave me this 90 days ago and said drink up, 536 00:27:23,280 --> 00:27:25,400 I'd have told you to go eff yourself. 537 00:27:29,800 --> 00:27:31,860 Damn, man. 538 00:27:31,960 --> 00:27:33,980 My hands-- 539 00:27:34,080 --> 00:27:38,340 there's a cut or burn on each and every finger. 540 00:27:38,440 --> 00:27:40,100 I've put my body on the line. 541 00:27:40,200 --> 00:27:43,140 I've ran this meat wagon damn near to the ground. 542 00:27:43,240 --> 00:27:46,200 I've only eaten bunnies for about 50 days. 543 00:27:48,440 --> 00:27:53,340 And we're ready to pack it in, but... 544 00:27:53,440 --> 00:27:55,760 only for the win, man. 545 00:27:57,600 --> 00:27:59,860 Throw the jacket on, 546 00:27:59,960 --> 00:28:03,180 get in my sleeping bag, warm up. 547 00:28:03,280 --> 00:28:06,100 ♪ 548 00:28:06,200 --> 00:28:08,580 I think I'm hard on myself when I don't win. 549 00:28:08,680 --> 00:28:13,420 And in a game like this with such high stakes, 550 00:28:13,520 --> 00:28:15,940 the pressure I put on myself might have affected me 551 00:28:16,040 --> 00:28:18,340 in the early days big-time. 552 00:28:18,440 --> 00:28:20,180 ♪ 553 00:28:20,280 --> 00:28:22,500 Oh, [bleep]. 554 00:28:22,600 --> 00:28:25,980 This morning my zipper broke on my sleeping bag, 555 00:28:26,080 --> 00:28:30,580 and my boot fell off the... 556 00:28:30,680 --> 00:28:32,260 off the woodpile 557 00:28:32,360 --> 00:28:34,980 into my water dish-- my boot liner. 558 00:28:35,080 --> 00:28:37,500 So it is... 559 00:28:37,600 --> 00:28:40,300 a block of ice. 560 00:28:40,400 --> 00:28:42,820 Out here in the darkness, 561 00:28:42,920 --> 00:28:45,740 I can't escape from my mind. 562 00:28:45,840 --> 00:28:47,340 The rushing with the shelter-- 563 00:28:47,440 --> 00:28:50,300 I didn't step back and look at the design. 564 00:28:50,400 --> 00:28:53,620 With the moose, I might have rushed the shot. 565 00:28:53,720 --> 00:28:55,380 There's so many things I could have done 566 00:28:55,480 --> 00:28:57,860 to give myself a better chance. 567 00:28:57,960 --> 00:29:01,700 Oh, man, my feet are numb. 568 00:29:01,800 --> 00:29:04,780 ♪ 569 00:29:04,880 --> 00:29:06,780 But we're going to battle. 570 00:29:06,880 --> 00:29:09,820 ♪ 571 00:29:09,920 --> 00:29:12,540 I believe David Booth is left, 572 00:29:12,640 --> 00:29:14,960 and he said he only wants to make it till 84. 573 00:29:17,920 --> 00:29:21,140 So if he makes it to 84 and I make it to 85, 574 00:29:21,240 --> 00:29:23,240 I'm the winner. 575 00:29:25,240 --> 00:29:27,240 {\an8}Oh, I hope he quits. 576 00:29:29,000 --> 00:29:31,940 I'm in trouble. 577 00:29:32,040 --> 00:29:33,700 My zipper broke on my sleeping bag. 578 00:29:33,800 --> 00:29:36,940 Like, I'm screwed. 579 00:29:37,040 --> 00:29:38,420 I might not-- 580 00:29:38,520 --> 00:29:40,940 I need that boot to... 581 00:29:41,040 --> 00:29:44,780 dry out so I can even cut firewood. 582 00:29:44,880 --> 00:29:46,780 Everything's breaking. 583 00:29:46,880 --> 00:29:49,660 We're trying not to break, though, but... 584 00:29:49,760 --> 00:29:51,380 she's getting hard. 585 00:29:51,480 --> 00:29:53,780 ♪ 586 00:29:53,880 --> 00:29:56,340 Can't complain about it. 587 00:29:56,440 --> 00:29:58,140 Nobody's here to complain to. 588 00:29:58,240 --> 00:29:59,700 ♪ 589 00:29:59,800 --> 00:30:01,700 {\an8}And it's like, I'm not out, 590 00:30:01,800 --> 00:30:05,340 {\an8}so it's not like I'm, like, crying because I'm done. 591 00:30:05,440 --> 00:30:09,300 {\an8}But it's like, come on, why are you fighting me? 592 00:30:09,400 --> 00:30:10,940 {\an8}You're so close. 593 00:30:11,040 --> 00:30:13,420 {\an8}Like, I can see the finish line, man. 594 00:30:13,520 --> 00:30:16,340 {\an8}♪ 595 00:30:16,440 --> 00:30:18,940 {\an8}And then everything starts collapsing. 596 00:30:19,040 --> 00:30:20,780 {\an8}♪ 597 00:30:20,880 --> 00:30:22,620 {\an8}It's like, I got food. 598 00:30:22,720 --> 00:30:25,620 {\an8}I got water. I got a shelter. 599 00:30:25,720 --> 00:30:28,580 {\an8}I just need my equipment to hold up. 600 00:30:28,680 --> 00:30:30,420 {\an8}I'll do the work. 601 00:30:30,520 --> 00:30:31,740 {\an8}♪ 602 00:30:31,840 --> 00:30:34,340 {\an8}What I did to deserve this? 603 00:30:34,440 --> 00:30:37,660 {\an8}Why are you testing me so hard? 604 00:30:37,760 --> 00:30:39,460 {\an8}Oh, damn. 605 00:30:39,560 --> 00:30:41,340 {\an8}♪ 606 00:30:41,440 --> 00:30:44,100 {\an8}[voice breaking] I'm going to [bleep] show you, though. 607 00:30:44,200 --> 00:30:46,860 I didn't do all this for so long 608 00:30:46,960 --> 00:30:50,100 to go home without a win. 609 00:30:50,200 --> 00:30:52,500 Like, people will say, oh, it's not that big of a deal. 610 00:30:52,600 --> 00:30:54,140 It's just a TV show. 611 00:30:54,240 --> 00:30:56,660 You know, it's just 500 grand. 612 00:30:56,760 --> 00:30:58,820 It's not like-- Who cares? Life goes on. 613 00:30:58,920 --> 00:31:01,860 It's like, yeah, for you. 614 00:31:01,960 --> 00:31:04,180 ♪ 615 00:31:04,280 --> 00:31:06,900 This is--I want this. 616 00:31:07,000 --> 00:31:08,420 This is a goal of mine. 617 00:31:08,520 --> 00:31:10,520 This is something I want to achieve. 618 00:31:15,080 --> 00:31:17,620 It's what I do. 619 00:31:17,720 --> 00:31:20,220 I create the problem, 620 00:31:20,320 --> 00:31:22,700 and then I somehow usually try to fix it. 621 00:31:22,800 --> 00:31:29,360 ♪ 622 00:31:43,440 --> 00:31:45,620 - To 12 weeks. 623 00:31:45,720 --> 00:31:48,100 {\an8}Cheers, everyone. 624 00:31:48,200 --> 00:31:51,100 {\an8}And cheers, whoever's still out here. 625 00:31:51,200 --> 00:31:53,200 {\an8}Solid effort. 626 00:31:55,400 --> 00:31:57,020 {\an8}Ahh. 627 00:31:57,120 --> 00:31:59,120 {\an8}Good work. 628 00:32:01,360 --> 00:32:03,900 Hope you guys are having fun... 629 00:32:04,000 --> 00:32:05,780 and enjoying it... 630 00:32:05,880 --> 00:32:07,980 soaking it in. 631 00:32:08,080 --> 00:32:10,180 Not long now. 632 00:32:10,280 --> 00:32:12,280 Definitely closing stages. 633 00:32:14,000 --> 00:32:15,980 Could be, yeah... 634 00:32:16,080 --> 00:32:18,080 final episode. 635 00:32:20,080 --> 00:32:22,940 Hope you've enjoyed this season 636 00:32:23,040 --> 00:32:25,580 of "Alone" U.S., 637 00:32:25,680 --> 00:32:30,160 season 13, Arctic World Championships. 638 00:32:32,160 --> 00:32:34,320 It's been quite a show. [chuckles] 639 00:32:36,160 --> 00:32:38,140 I'm thinking it might be nice 640 00:32:38,240 --> 00:32:43,100 to actually go for a walk on Lake Learning. 641 00:32:43,200 --> 00:32:46,140 Might be a good way to celebrate 12 weeks, I think. 642 00:32:46,240 --> 00:32:53,420 ♪ 643 00:32:53,520 --> 00:32:57,140 It's been a really long time out here, 644 00:32:57,240 --> 00:33:00,980 and I was hopeful that the person I was at the start 645 00:33:01,080 --> 00:33:05,180 compared to who I would grow into at the end of this 646 00:33:05,280 --> 00:33:07,260 would be something that would continue 647 00:33:07,360 --> 00:33:09,100 through the rest of my life. 648 00:33:09,200 --> 00:33:12,260 This lake is so special. 649 00:33:12,360 --> 00:33:16,180 I want to go out and greet her and walk on her surface 650 00:33:16,280 --> 00:33:18,660 and just... 651 00:33:18,760 --> 00:33:20,100 take it all in. 652 00:33:20,200 --> 00:33:21,740 ♪ 653 00:33:21,840 --> 00:33:23,700 Now that I've been out here, 654 00:33:23,800 --> 00:33:26,140 I'll be forever changed for the better 655 00:33:26,240 --> 00:33:28,900 because of this experience. 656 00:33:29,000 --> 00:33:32,180 I've received exactly what I want and more. 657 00:33:32,280 --> 00:33:34,020 Magical. 658 00:33:34,120 --> 00:33:40,960 ♪ 659 00:33:51,920 --> 00:33:53,220 ♪ 660 00:33:53,320 --> 00:33:55,300 Through my whole entire journey, 661 00:33:55,400 --> 00:33:58,340 it's never crossed my mind to tap out. 662 00:33:58,440 --> 00:34:02,220 But just the everyday effort of getting up, 663 00:34:02,320 --> 00:34:06,220 walking around, eating, getting water-- 664 00:34:06,320 --> 00:34:08,540 I'm doing very minimal physical work, 665 00:34:08,640 --> 00:34:13,100 and I'm eating quite a lot, yet I'm absolutely exhausted. 666 00:34:13,200 --> 00:34:16,220 I don't need more fish. 667 00:34:16,320 --> 00:34:18,420 I don't need more snowshoe hare. 668 00:34:18,520 --> 00:34:20,900 I need other things that I can't get out here, 669 00:34:21,000 --> 00:34:24,340 and my body is starting to give me the signs that, 670 00:34:24,440 --> 00:34:27,380 hey, Nero, you're still in a safe area, 671 00:34:27,480 --> 00:34:29,820 but you're coming to the end. 672 00:34:29,920 --> 00:34:31,920 ♪ 673 00:34:39,800 --> 00:34:42,780 {\an8}[dramatic music] 674 00:34:42,880 --> 00:34:50,100 {\an8}♪ 675 00:34:50,200 --> 00:34:53,700 {\an8}[Nero] Oof, another cold start... 676 00:34:53,800 --> 00:34:55,500 {\an8}to the day. 677 00:34:55,600 --> 00:34:58,220 {\an8}Yeah, I can still be safe within this area, this zone, 678 00:34:58,320 --> 00:35:02,500 {\an8}but that zone's slowly been shrinking over time. 679 00:35:02,600 --> 00:35:04,020 ♪ 680 00:35:04,120 --> 00:35:06,660 Now that I'm really close to the end, 681 00:35:06,760 --> 00:35:09,220 I know that there's a possibility 682 00:35:09,320 --> 00:35:11,780 that I could win this. 683 00:35:11,880 --> 00:35:14,260 Also there's a possibility that I could just be 684 00:35:14,360 --> 00:35:15,740 up against someone who's just-- 685 00:35:15,840 --> 00:35:17,740 they got, like, 120 days set in mind, 686 00:35:17,840 --> 00:35:20,060 and they're not going anywhere. 687 00:35:20,160 --> 00:35:23,340 I don't want to redline physically. 688 00:35:23,440 --> 00:35:25,900 I don't want to push past the limit where... 689 00:35:26,000 --> 00:35:27,380 ♪ 690 00:35:27,480 --> 00:35:29,740 Something breaks... 691 00:35:29,840 --> 00:35:33,660 whether that's physically, mentally, or emotionally. 692 00:35:33,760 --> 00:35:36,300 I'm not going to go that far. 693 00:35:36,400 --> 00:35:38,340 It's really important 694 00:35:38,440 --> 00:35:41,060 that I leave on my own terms. 695 00:35:41,160 --> 00:35:42,700 ♪ 696 00:35:42,800 --> 00:35:44,340 Hmm. 697 00:35:44,440 --> 00:35:47,260 ♪ 698 00:35:47,360 --> 00:35:49,860 What's kept me here for a long time now 699 00:35:49,960 --> 00:35:52,260 has been to be able to share 700 00:35:52,360 --> 00:35:54,340 my learnings from this experience 701 00:35:54,440 --> 00:35:56,020 to my son. 702 00:35:56,120 --> 00:35:58,420 And I've done that. 703 00:35:58,520 --> 00:36:00,220 I've shared it all... 704 00:36:00,320 --> 00:36:02,140 All right. 705 00:36:02,240 --> 00:36:05,380 In a beautiful, wholesome, complete way. 706 00:36:05,480 --> 00:36:07,140 ♪ 707 00:36:07,240 --> 00:36:08,980 And, yeah, absolutely. 708 00:36:09,080 --> 00:36:12,140 I'd love for my wife to come to the Arctic. 709 00:36:12,240 --> 00:36:15,980 But I also know, like, she just wants me to be okay, 710 00:36:16,080 --> 00:36:17,620 to follow my intuition... 711 00:36:17,720 --> 00:36:21,140 Gillnet era done. 712 00:36:21,240 --> 00:36:23,980 And me being here 713 00:36:24,080 --> 00:36:27,340 doesn't serve anyone anymore 714 00:36:27,440 --> 00:36:30,820 other than a title and winning. 715 00:36:30,920 --> 00:36:33,340 ♪ 716 00:36:33,440 --> 00:36:36,660 I just--I'm ready to see my family. 717 00:36:36,760 --> 00:36:39,380 Life is a communal thing, and... 718 00:36:39,480 --> 00:36:41,140 ♪ 719 00:36:41,240 --> 00:36:43,380 Yeah, it's meant to be spent... 720 00:36:43,480 --> 00:36:45,380 ♪ 721 00:36:45,480 --> 00:36:47,060 With each other. 722 00:36:47,160 --> 00:36:49,180 ♪ 723 00:36:49,280 --> 00:36:51,860 So happy with the whole entire journey. 724 00:36:51,960 --> 00:36:53,380 ♪ 725 00:36:53,480 --> 00:36:55,340 Honestly, I wouldn't change any of it. 726 00:36:55,440 --> 00:36:56,860 ♪ 727 00:36:56,960 --> 00:36:58,620 When you know, you know. 728 00:36:58,720 --> 00:36:59,700 ♪ 729 00:36:59,800 --> 00:37:02,700 [walkie-talkie beeping] 730 00:37:02,800 --> 00:37:05,300 ♪ 731 00:37:05,400 --> 00:37:07,340 Hey, this is Nero. 732 00:37:07,440 --> 00:37:09,660 I'm officially tapping out. 733 00:37:09,760 --> 00:37:11,660 ♪ 734 00:37:11,760 --> 00:37:13,700 [helicopter blades thrumming] 735 00:37:13,800 --> 00:37:15,460 [sighs] 736 00:37:15,560 --> 00:37:18,460 It is day 85, 737 00:37:18,560 --> 00:37:22,220 and it's the first day 738 00:37:22,320 --> 00:37:25,220 of the next chapter of my life. 739 00:37:25,320 --> 00:37:27,460 I'm ready. 740 00:37:27,560 --> 00:37:30,020 [helicopter blades thrumming] 741 00:37:30,120 --> 00:37:36,800 ♪ 742 00:37:44,920 --> 00:37:47,460 Hey, hey. 743 00:37:47,560 --> 00:37:50,700 Big thing for me being out here has been... 744 00:37:50,800 --> 00:37:54,220 being guided by fulfilment rather than achievement. 745 00:37:54,320 --> 00:37:56,020 And... 746 00:37:56,120 --> 00:37:58,300 I've received so much from this land, 747 00:37:58,400 --> 00:38:02,060 so much love, guidance, and healing. 748 00:38:02,160 --> 00:38:05,780 The only thing left is a title and money, 749 00:38:05,880 --> 00:38:07,580 and I'm not motivated by either of them. 750 00:38:07,680 --> 00:38:09,580 I've still got some more food there, 751 00:38:09,680 --> 00:38:12,100 but I could just tell with my body, 752 00:38:12,200 --> 00:38:13,660 my mind, my emotions, 753 00:38:13,760 --> 00:38:16,020 like, I was starting to get towards the limit. 754 00:38:16,120 --> 00:38:17,740 I didn't want to hit that limit. 755 00:38:17,840 --> 00:38:19,780 I wanted to be able to end things positively, 756 00:38:19,880 --> 00:38:21,940 not leaving this place... 757 00:38:22,040 --> 00:38:24,740 broken or weak. 758 00:38:24,840 --> 00:38:27,180 I wanted to end it on my own terms and end it right. 759 00:38:27,280 --> 00:38:29,860 I've been as raw... 760 00:38:29,960 --> 00:38:31,620 and as open as I can, 761 00:38:31,720 --> 00:38:33,500 and I've given everything, 762 00:38:33,600 --> 00:38:36,540 and it's time to take all of the amazing lessons 763 00:38:36,640 --> 00:38:39,060 and experience that I've had from this place 764 00:38:39,160 --> 00:38:41,860 and combine it with the beautiful life 765 00:38:41,960 --> 00:38:43,820 that I have waiting for me back home. 766 00:38:43,920 --> 00:38:45,860 And... 767 00:38:45,960 --> 00:38:49,500 it's time to go, my friend, time to go. 768 00:38:49,600 --> 00:38:52,060 ♪ 769 00:38:52,160 --> 00:38:54,900 I feel like this is the right way 770 00:38:55,000 --> 00:38:56,500 to conclude my journey. 771 00:38:56,600 --> 00:38:59,300 It's been the perfect experience. 772 00:38:59,400 --> 00:39:00,940 ♪ 773 00:39:01,040 --> 00:39:03,140 And, man, I can't wait to see my family, 774 00:39:03,240 --> 00:39:05,020 make sure they're okay, 775 00:39:05,120 --> 00:39:08,220 and share with them all the incredible things 776 00:39:08,320 --> 00:39:09,540 that have happened out here 777 00:39:09,640 --> 00:39:13,580 and then just create more amazing memories 778 00:39:13,680 --> 00:39:15,940 and moments together. 779 00:39:16,040 --> 00:39:18,420 I wanted to come out here and work internally 780 00:39:18,520 --> 00:39:21,220 to become a better father for my son. 781 00:39:21,320 --> 00:39:22,940 And for me to do that, 782 00:39:23,040 --> 00:39:25,940 I really needed to reconcile my relationship with my dad, 783 00:39:26,040 --> 00:39:28,340 because that's what's connecting 784 00:39:28,440 --> 00:39:31,300 the lack of self-love, the lack of self-worth. 785 00:39:31,400 --> 00:39:33,220 Now I've come to a place 786 00:39:33,320 --> 00:39:35,980 where I have that internal self-worth 787 00:39:36,080 --> 00:39:38,020 and value and love. 788 00:39:38,120 --> 00:39:39,940 It's something that I could only have discovered 789 00:39:40,040 --> 00:39:42,140 by being out here. 790 00:39:42,240 --> 00:39:44,020 ♪ 791 00:39:44,120 --> 00:39:47,620 For Lucky, for my boy, it's not about him seeing 792 00:39:47,720 --> 00:39:51,100 these hard survival bushcraft skills 793 00:39:51,200 --> 00:39:54,180 and thinking him to maybe get inspired by that. 794 00:39:54,280 --> 00:39:57,580 It's about him seeing his dad walk the path 795 00:39:57,680 --> 00:39:59,660 of loving and being themselves 796 00:39:59,760 --> 00:40:02,540 that is really important to me. 797 00:40:02,640 --> 00:40:07,180 I'm really proud to represent my country up here. 798 00:40:07,280 --> 00:40:09,740 After so many years of my whole entire life 799 00:40:09,840 --> 00:40:13,220 of just trying to find who I am as a person, 800 00:40:13,320 --> 00:40:16,620 to now have that just lock into place, 801 00:40:16,720 --> 00:40:17,780 I have my identity. 802 00:40:17,880 --> 00:40:19,540 {\an8}I know who I am. 803 00:40:19,640 --> 00:40:22,380 {\an8}I am and always will be, moving forward, 804 00:40:22,480 --> 00:40:23,900 {\an8}an outdoor advocate. 805 00:40:24,000 --> 00:40:27,540 And everything I do, say, and feel 806 00:40:27,640 --> 00:40:30,860 will be with that as my guiding light. 807 00:40:30,960 --> 00:40:33,060 [helicopter blades thrumming] 808 00:40:33,160 --> 00:40:35,160 ♪ 809 00:40:37,760 --> 00:40:40,700 {\an8}[dramatic music] 810 00:40:40,800 --> 00:40:46,160 {\an8}♪ 811 00:40:53,840 --> 00:40:57,300 {\an8}[Ziga] I have very cold feet. 812 00:40:57,400 --> 00:41:01,180 {\an8}I want to do something about my boots. 813 00:41:01,280 --> 00:41:05,940 {\an8}My front part-- I mean, toes are still exposed. 814 00:41:06,040 --> 00:41:08,140 {\an8}So I'm not sure 815 00:41:08,240 --> 00:41:11,580 {\an8}there's any good way... 816 00:41:11,680 --> 00:41:13,380 {\an8}I mean, with what I could protect them, 817 00:41:13,480 --> 00:41:14,940 {\an8}but I was thinking about this. 818 00:41:15,040 --> 00:41:17,040 {\an8}[grunts] 819 00:41:20,560 --> 00:41:22,860 Yeah, really going to become like a caveman. 820 00:41:22,960 --> 00:41:26,700 But if it's going to help... 821 00:41:26,800 --> 00:41:30,860 I would be glad to have it on my boots. 822 00:41:30,960 --> 00:41:35,100 ♪ 823 00:41:35,200 --> 00:41:39,300 I'm not sure if this frostnip goes away 824 00:41:39,400 --> 00:41:42,100 that easily and that quick. 825 00:41:42,200 --> 00:41:45,380 I'm afraid not. 826 00:41:45,480 --> 00:41:48,900 I mean, it's really not much of it, 827 00:41:49,000 --> 00:41:50,860 but it's my big toe. 828 00:41:50,960 --> 00:41:53,700 Of course, I would like to keep it as it is. 829 00:41:53,800 --> 00:41:55,900 The fitting-- it's, like, perfect. 830 00:41:56,000 --> 00:41:57,740 Look at this. 831 00:41:57,840 --> 00:42:00,500 So I have to be careful 832 00:42:00,600 --> 00:42:02,780 and keep it warm. 833 00:42:02,880 --> 00:42:04,580 But... 834 00:42:04,680 --> 00:42:06,060 that's not always easy. 835 00:42:06,160 --> 00:42:11,380 ♪ 836 00:42:11,480 --> 00:42:15,340 Okay, insulation is done, 837 00:42:15,440 --> 00:42:18,700 and I think this will help a lot. 838 00:42:18,800 --> 00:42:21,860 Okay, I have to get water. 839 00:42:21,960 --> 00:42:26,940 ♪ 840 00:42:27,040 --> 00:42:29,740 This is actually one of the toughest competitions 841 00:42:29,840 --> 00:42:31,340 in the world, 842 00:42:31,440 --> 00:42:34,340 considering how many days it takes, 843 00:42:34,440 --> 00:42:38,580 how much of your knowledge it requires... 844 00:42:38,680 --> 00:42:41,340 ♪ 845 00:42:41,440 --> 00:42:46,300 How many mental battles you have to face. 846 00:42:46,400 --> 00:42:49,860 I'm glad I'm here, but on the other hand, 847 00:42:49,960 --> 00:42:53,300 I just can't wait for it to be finished. 848 00:42:53,400 --> 00:42:54,540 ♪ 849 00:42:54,640 --> 00:42:56,900 It is a hardcore thing. 850 00:42:57,000 --> 00:43:00,700 ♪ 851 00:43:00,800 --> 00:43:02,800 [shovel clangs] 852 00:43:05,800 --> 00:43:08,120 You're [bleep] kidding me. 853 00:43:17,280 --> 00:43:21,660 ♪ 854 00:43:21,760 --> 00:43:24,420 [groans] 855 00:43:24,520 --> 00:43:26,620 Broken shovel. 856 00:43:26,720 --> 00:43:28,300 ♪ 857 00:43:28,400 --> 00:43:29,900 [sighs] 858 00:43:30,000 --> 00:43:31,700 ♪ 859 00:43:31,800 --> 00:43:34,420 It's quite a big thing in this environment. 860 00:43:34,520 --> 00:43:35,700 ♪ 861 00:43:35,800 --> 00:43:38,260 This hinders my game a lot. 862 00:43:38,360 --> 00:43:41,820 I cannot do any ice fishing anymore. 863 00:43:41,920 --> 00:43:44,300 I cannot get water for drinking, 864 00:43:44,400 --> 00:43:46,820 so I will have to melt snow. 865 00:43:46,920 --> 00:43:49,580 This is a very bad situation. 866 00:43:49,680 --> 00:43:51,940 [sighs] 867 00:43:52,040 --> 00:43:54,140 That's all. 868 00:43:54,240 --> 00:43:56,240 I have to keep on going. 869 00:43:58,200 --> 00:44:05,120 {\an8}♪ 870 00:44:12,240 --> 00:44:15,780 [Aaron] Holy [bleep], I think we got a zipper, guys. 871 00:44:15,880 --> 00:44:18,060 ♪ 872 00:44:18,160 --> 00:44:21,180 Man, when that zipper broke, I was in tears. 873 00:44:21,280 --> 00:44:22,820 It's like, why? 874 00:44:22,920 --> 00:44:26,860 I'm so close. Why are you doing this to me? 875 00:44:26,960 --> 00:44:28,460 Let me see if I can try to show you. 876 00:44:28,560 --> 00:44:30,100 Yes. 877 00:44:30,200 --> 00:44:33,140 So this is a two-zipper system. 878 00:44:33,240 --> 00:44:37,700 This zipper was down here and just held those together, 879 00:44:37,800 --> 00:44:41,020 and then the other one that broke would zip up. 880 00:44:41,120 --> 00:44:44,940 Well, I've cut the top, took the bottom zipper off, 881 00:44:45,040 --> 00:44:49,900 flipped it now so that it just zips. 882 00:44:50,000 --> 00:44:51,820 But I have to tie this together, 883 00:44:51,920 --> 00:44:53,820 because this will just separate now. 884 00:44:53,920 --> 00:44:56,540 Now, how do we tie that together? 885 00:44:56,640 --> 00:44:58,100 Hmm. 886 00:44:58,200 --> 00:44:59,740 ♪ 887 00:44:59,840 --> 00:45:02,980 I'd like to use the inside of paracord 888 00:45:03,080 --> 00:45:04,700 so I can tie knots. 889 00:45:04,800 --> 00:45:08,420 Fishhook for my needle 890 00:45:08,520 --> 00:45:11,180 or if I can use snare wire would be-- 891 00:45:11,280 --> 00:45:12,340 ♪ 892 00:45:12,440 --> 00:45:14,700 Snare wire is thinner, right? 893 00:45:14,800 --> 00:45:16,980 ♪ 894 00:45:17,080 --> 00:45:20,900 Here's a little piece here. 895 00:45:21,000 --> 00:45:23,620 I expected some ups and downs, 896 00:45:23,720 --> 00:45:27,900 but I didn't expect it to go this long, 897 00:45:28,000 --> 00:45:31,100 and I didn't expect us to be this deep 898 00:45:31,200 --> 00:45:32,860 into the weather 899 00:45:32,960 --> 00:45:35,620 and get this cold and dark this quick. 900 00:45:35,720 --> 00:45:37,580 ♪ 901 00:45:37,680 --> 00:45:40,140 Here's my thread and needle. 902 00:45:40,240 --> 00:45:43,860 You will not defeat us, and I will not defeat me. 903 00:45:43,960 --> 00:45:48,140 ♪ 904 00:45:48,240 --> 00:45:51,820 I'm a seamstress now. 905 00:45:51,920 --> 00:45:53,660 I'm so close to the end. 906 00:45:53,760 --> 00:45:56,260 I need to just keep pushing my body, 907 00:45:56,360 --> 00:45:58,460 and it's going to end any day. 908 00:45:58,560 --> 00:46:00,820 If I quit, I would be failing 909 00:46:00,920 --> 00:46:03,180 the promises I made to my family-- 910 00:46:03,280 --> 00:46:06,420 my dad, my brothers, my friend Travis, 911 00:46:06,520 --> 00:46:08,700 but, most importantly, myself. 912 00:46:08,800 --> 00:46:11,180 Oh, if this works, I'll be the man. 913 00:46:11,280 --> 00:46:13,140 I've tapped in mixed martial arts fights before. 914 00:46:13,240 --> 00:46:14,540 Like, that's quitting. 915 00:46:14,640 --> 00:46:16,380 That's going to be hard. 916 00:46:16,480 --> 00:46:18,580 ♪ 917 00:46:18,680 --> 00:46:21,220 I wonder if I should pull it down, 918 00:46:21,320 --> 00:46:25,260 do a bunch, pull it through, then tighten it. 919 00:46:25,360 --> 00:46:27,300 I believe quitting is a habit. 920 00:46:27,400 --> 00:46:28,820 There's lots of things I've quit 921 00:46:28,920 --> 00:46:30,060 and failed in my life, 922 00:46:30,160 --> 00:46:32,300 and I had some regrets. 923 00:46:32,400 --> 00:46:35,420 If you continue to do it, you'll do it more easily. 924 00:46:35,520 --> 00:46:37,780 So I'm going to keep pushing my body 925 00:46:37,880 --> 00:46:40,300 until they either pull me or I win. 926 00:46:40,400 --> 00:46:41,620 ♪ 927 00:46:41,720 --> 00:46:43,380 So... 928 00:46:43,480 --> 00:46:47,460 right down here it's, like, a really hard plastic. 929 00:46:47,560 --> 00:46:51,220 So I used a fishhook, punched the holes through. 930 00:46:51,320 --> 00:46:54,180 Before I had the needle just in there and then pinched, 931 00:46:54,280 --> 00:46:56,380 and it was getting caught on threads, 932 00:46:56,480 --> 00:46:58,480 so this actually works better. 933 00:47:02,880 --> 00:47:06,380 Ah, you [bleep], I knew that was going to happen. 934 00:47:06,480 --> 00:47:09,340 Oh, it's good enough for now. I'm gonna warm up. 935 00:47:09,440 --> 00:47:16,160 ♪ 936 00:47:24,000 --> 00:47:26,500 {\an8}[Ziga] Good days here are over. 937 00:47:26,600 --> 00:47:29,780 {\an8}I'm so far away... 938 00:47:29,880 --> 00:47:32,300 {\an8}from the place I belong to... 939 00:47:32,400 --> 00:47:34,460 ♪ 940 00:47:34,560 --> 00:47:38,020 And from the people I belong to. 941 00:47:38,120 --> 00:47:41,340 It is really getting hard, really hard. 942 00:47:41,440 --> 00:47:44,100 ♪ 943 00:47:44,200 --> 00:47:46,820 [sighs] I should keep on pushing. 944 00:47:46,920 --> 00:47:52,660 ♪ 945 00:47:52,760 --> 00:47:54,860 So let's keep on pushing. 946 00:47:54,960 --> 00:47:58,300 ♪ 947 00:47:58,400 --> 00:48:00,380 [saw scraping] 948 00:48:00,480 --> 00:48:03,700 [Aaron] Somebody's obviously got a big-game animal. 949 00:48:03,800 --> 00:48:06,700 Somebody's done better than me, 950 00:48:06,800 --> 00:48:09,900 because nobody possibly pushed as hard as I can 951 00:48:10,000 --> 00:48:11,180 without the food. 952 00:48:11,280 --> 00:48:18,200 ♪ 953 00:48:20,520 --> 00:48:24,700 [Ziga] Can you imagine staying so long, risking so much, 954 00:48:24,800 --> 00:48:28,020 and go home empty-handed? 955 00:48:28,120 --> 00:48:31,100 Who knows what the reality will be? 956 00:48:31,200 --> 00:48:35,820 {\an8}I guess none of us is going home for Christmas. 957 00:48:35,920 --> 00:48:38,660 {\an8}[Aaron] I'm trying to fight the urge to quit, 958 00:48:38,760 --> 00:48:41,140 but I've pushed my body, my mind, 959 00:48:41,240 --> 00:48:43,420 my emotions to the absolute limit. 960 00:48:43,520 --> 00:48:45,380 I want to win this. I'm trying to win this. 961 00:48:45,480 --> 00:48:47,540 I'm doing what I can. 962 00:48:47,640 --> 00:48:49,580 [Ziga] Losing... 963 00:48:49,680 --> 00:48:53,020 that would be like, oh, [bleep]. 964 00:48:53,120 --> 00:48:54,900 What did I do with my life? 965 00:48:55,000 --> 00:48:57,980 [Aaron] I feel like at any day, it can end, 966 00:48:58,080 --> 00:48:59,900 but any day can end me, too. 967 00:49:00,000 --> 00:49:03,940 So I need whoever's out here to quit. 968 00:49:04,040 --> 00:49:09,140 ♪ 969 00:49:09,240 --> 00:49:12,140 [Ziga] In life, people often say, never give up. 970 00:49:12,240 --> 00:49:14,980 But that's not necessarily true. 971 00:49:15,080 --> 00:49:17,180 Sometimes you have to give up. 972 00:49:17,280 --> 00:49:20,180 - If I called it in, man, I would hate myself. 973 00:49:20,280 --> 00:49:22,660 ♪ 974 00:49:22,760 --> 00:49:26,220 ♪ 975 00:49:26,320 --> 00:49:28,720 [helicopter blades thrumming] 976 00:49:32,240 --> 00:49:34,780 {\an8}[walkie-talkie beeping] 977 00:49:34,880 --> 00:49:37,780 [dramatic music] 978 00:49:37,880 --> 00:49:44,600 ♪ 979 00:50:25,440 --> 00:50:27,020 - Sorry, guys. 980 00:50:27,120 --> 00:50:30,060 [somber music] 981 00:50:30,160 --> 00:50:31,140 ♪ 982 00:50:31,240 --> 00:50:33,140 [cries softly] 983 00:50:33,240 --> 00:50:36,660 ♪ 984 00:50:36,760 --> 00:50:38,900 [crying] My body's just broken. 985 00:50:39,000 --> 00:50:43,460 ♪ 986 00:50:43,560 --> 00:50:47,140 My mind's shot, my mental, everything. 987 00:50:47,240 --> 00:50:50,100 ♪ 988 00:50:50,200 --> 00:50:52,500 I'm frozen to the core. 989 00:50:52,600 --> 00:50:54,180 My back's buggered up. 990 00:50:54,280 --> 00:50:57,260 My feet hurt. My hands hurt. 991 00:50:57,360 --> 00:50:59,140 My balance is shot. 992 00:50:59,240 --> 00:51:01,060 I have a hard time walking. 993 00:51:01,160 --> 00:51:02,860 I'm, like, falling over. 994 00:51:02,960 --> 00:51:05,140 ♪ 995 00:51:05,240 --> 00:51:06,500 And I can't-- 996 00:51:06,600 --> 00:51:09,180 I can't get food if I can't walk. 997 00:51:09,280 --> 00:51:10,980 ♪ 998 00:51:11,080 --> 00:51:14,420 Then last night I was so cold, I couldn't warm up. 999 00:51:14,520 --> 00:51:16,900 And my mind and everything is just breaking. 1000 00:51:17,000 --> 00:51:20,260 Like, I've broke. 1001 00:51:20,360 --> 00:51:21,540 I've tried. 1002 00:51:21,640 --> 00:51:23,780 Like, I'm just like, next med check, 1003 00:51:23,880 --> 00:51:27,020 I just got to make it through this med check... 1004 00:51:27,120 --> 00:51:28,620 and it's just--it's bad. 1005 00:51:28,720 --> 00:51:30,860 Like, I can't even take the camera with me, 1006 00:51:30,960 --> 00:51:33,780 but it's just like, keep going. 1007 00:51:33,880 --> 00:51:35,780 Any day, any day. 1008 00:51:35,880 --> 00:51:38,200 And it's just like, finally I broke. 1009 00:51:40,320 --> 00:51:42,340 Oh, it's tough, man. It's a tough decision. 1010 00:51:42,440 --> 00:51:44,180 I'm going to regret it forever. 1011 00:51:44,280 --> 00:51:46,060 That's what drives me nuts. 1012 00:51:46,160 --> 00:51:48,660 It's different if you get pulled, like, medically pulled. 1013 00:51:48,760 --> 00:51:50,860 It's like, okay, I didn't quit. 1014 00:51:50,960 --> 00:51:52,660 I quit. 1015 00:51:52,760 --> 00:51:54,760 I bitched out. 1016 00:51:59,240 --> 00:52:02,420 [cries] And I literally just gave up on my dreams. 1017 00:52:02,520 --> 00:52:05,300 [sighs, sniffles] 1018 00:52:05,400 --> 00:52:12,420 ♪ 1019 00:52:12,520 --> 00:52:16,940 I pushed to the absolute limit, 1020 00:52:17,040 --> 00:52:20,220 and my body finally said, this is enough. 1021 00:52:20,320 --> 00:52:22,340 We're done. 1022 00:52:22,440 --> 00:52:24,140 And I didn't have a choice. 1023 00:52:24,240 --> 00:52:26,260 My mind wouldn't let me continue. 1024 00:52:26,360 --> 00:52:28,140 ♪ 1025 00:52:28,240 --> 00:52:30,940 But I came out here and grew so much 1026 00:52:31,040 --> 00:52:33,100 as a person, 1027 00:52:33,200 --> 00:52:35,700 as an outdoorsman, as a trapper. 1028 00:52:35,800 --> 00:52:37,620 Might have went a little backwards in the hunting, 1029 00:52:37,720 --> 00:52:41,060 but I feel like I grew 1030 00:52:41,160 --> 00:52:42,580 a substantial amount out here. 1031 00:52:42,680 --> 00:52:44,340 ♪ 1032 00:52:44,440 --> 00:52:48,340 87 days has given me a lot of time to reflect. 1033 00:52:48,440 --> 00:52:53,140 I feel I need to take my time with things, 1034 00:52:53,240 --> 00:52:56,660 especially decisions that hold a lot of weight, 1035 00:52:56,760 --> 00:52:59,300 like friendship with Travis, 1036 00:52:59,400 --> 00:53:02,380 the separation with Melissa. 1037 00:53:02,480 --> 00:53:05,740 I feel we need to slow down, 1038 00:53:05,840 --> 00:53:08,580 step back, take a look. 1039 00:53:08,680 --> 00:53:11,380 Everything else is a distraction. 1040 00:53:11,480 --> 00:53:13,380 Not going to go back to work right away. 1041 00:53:13,480 --> 00:53:15,140 I'm going to sit down with Melissa. 1042 00:53:15,240 --> 00:53:16,740 We'll figure out our stuff. 1043 00:53:16,840 --> 00:53:18,980 That's what we're going to focus on 1044 00:53:19,080 --> 00:53:22,500 with the same but better mental strength. 1045 00:53:22,600 --> 00:53:26,300 {\an8}87 days has given me a fresh start. 1046 00:53:26,400 --> 00:53:28,060 {\an8}♪ 1047 00:53:28,160 --> 00:53:30,740 {\an8}I don't like losing, 1048 00:53:30,840 --> 00:53:34,260 but it might be the best thing that's ever happened to me. 1049 00:53:34,360 --> 00:53:35,900 This isn't my destiny. 1050 00:53:36,000 --> 00:53:37,740 There's something else waiting for me. 1051 00:53:37,840 --> 00:53:39,500 ♪ 1052 00:53:39,600 --> 00:53:41,860 I'm ready to find out what that is. 1053 00:53:41,960 --> 00:53:44,740 [helicopter blades thrumming] 1054 00:53:44,840 --> 00:53:47,700 [dramatic music] 1055 00:53:47,800 --> 00:53:54,480 ♪ 1056 00:54:25,760 --> 00:54:29,500 {\an8}- I am alone, cold to the bone. 1057 00:54:29,600 --> 00:54:34,460 {\an8}I'm eating moose meat and missing home. 1058 00:54:34,560 --> 00:54:37,020 My friends are small bird 1059 00:54:37,120 --> 00:54:39,980 and the fat coney. 1060 00:54:40,080 --> 00:54:43,540 You can talk to the camera if you feel lonely. 1061 00:54:43,640 --> 00:54:47,060 I'll stay in the shelter and do some pottery, 1062 00:54:47,160 --> 00:54:50,780 because catching a fish now, it's like winning the lottery. 1063 00:54:50,880 --> 00:54:54,100 ♪ 1064 00:54:54,200 --> 00:54:57,060 For pain and to suffer... 1065 00:54:57,160 --> 00:55:00,100 hiding stupidity... 1066 00:55:00,200 --> 00:55:02,380 by saying I'm tougher. 1067 00:55:02,480 --> 00:55:03,980 ♪ 1068 00:55:04,080 --> 00:55:08,460 Risking job, family, Christmas in solitude. 1069 00:55:08,560 --> 00:55:10,220 ♪ 1070 00:55:10,320 --> 00:55:13,940 If you'll be second, you won't feel any gratitude. 1071 00:55:14,040 --> 00:55:18,220 ♪ 1072 00:55:18,320 --> 00:55:20,900 Sad, huh? 1073 00:55:21,000 --> 00:55:23,000 But true. 1074 00:55:28,160 --> 00:55:29,820 It's getting hard here. 1075 00:55:29,920 --> 00:55:31,940 ♪ 1076 00:55:32,040 --> 00:55:36,340 If I would know, like, it's 100, that's it. 1077 00:55:36,440 --> 00:55:38,580 That would be easy peasy. 1078 00:55:38,680 --> 00:55:41,860 But it can be tomorrow. It can be in February. 1079 00:55:41,960 --> 00:55:44,140 ♪ 1080 00:55:44,240 --> 00:55:46,660 And, yeah, I know that today in the evening, 1081 00:55:46,760 --> 00:55:48,660 I will be very sad, 1082 00:55:48,760 --> 00:55:51,020 because I know that Miha won't be here, 1083 00:55:51,120 --> 00:55:53,020 and then I'll be like, [bleep]. 1084 00:55:53,120 --> 00:55:54,300 {\an8}♪ 1085 00:55:54,400 --> 00:55:56,020 {\an8}How much longer? 1086 00:55:56,120 --> 00:55:57,660 {\an8}♪ 1087 00:55:57,760 --> 00:56:00,740 One of the reasons I keep on pushing is, 1088 00:56:00,840 --> 00:56:03,140 I want to see Miha coming to this place 1089 00:56:03,240 --> 00:56:05,340 and see my location. 1090 00:56:05,440 --> 00:56:08,420 Until I die. 1091 00:56:08,520 --> 00:56:11,660 ♪ 1092 00:56:11,760 --> 00:56:15,740 Hiding stupidity by saying, I'm tougher. 1093 00:56:15,840 --> 00:56:17,380 ♪ 1094 00:56:17,480 --> 00:56:19,020 Yeah. 1095 00:56:19,120 --> 00:56:21,620 It's not that nice as it was before. 1096 00:56:21,720 --> 00:56:23,820 I have to be much more in the shelter, 1097 00:56:23,920 --> 00:56:26,860 but I'm still kind of living. 1098 00:56:26,960 --> 00:56:29,860 I'm not there where I have to struggle, 1099 00:56:29,960 --> 00:56:31,540 and I want to reach this point. 1100 00:56:31,640 --> 00:56:34,540 [device beeping] 1101 00:56:34,640 --> 00:56:38,940 ♪ 1102 00:56:39,040 --> 00:56:42,380 {\an8}I have a media swap. 1103 00:56:42,480 --> 00:56:45,060 {\an8}Let's put on everything I have. 1104 00:56:45,160 --> 00:56:47,380 {\an8}♪ 1105 00:56:47,480 --> 00:56:50,060 [helicopter blades thrumming] 1106 00:56:50,160 --> 00:56:52,160 {\an8}♪ 1107 00:56:54,360 --> 00:57:01,240 ♪ 1108 00:57:17,040 --> 00:57:18,500 [Ziga] Hey, guys. 1109 00:57:18,600 --> 00:57:24,700 ♪ 1110 00:57:24,800 --> 00:57:26,700 GoPros? - Yes, GoPros. 1111 00:57:26,800 --> 00:57:28,860 Yes. 1112 00:57:28,960 --> 00:57:30,220 [Ziga] Okay. 1113 00:57:30,320 --> 00:57:37,420 ♪ 1114 00:57:37,520 --> 00:57:40,460 I mean, I'm staying outside less because of this frostnip. 1115 00:57:40,560 --> 00:57:42,820 I didn't expect that the cold 1116 00:57:42,920 --> 00:57:45,140 will start to become a limiting factor for me, 1117 00:57:45,240 --> 00:57:47,780 but it's happening. 1118 00:57:47,880 --> 00:57:51,460 Mentally, it's getting more difficult, I must admit. 1119 00:57:51,560 --> 00:57:54,420 Pretty much staying alive. 1120 00:57:54,520 --> 00:57:56,860 And you do the most necessary stuff 1121 00:57:56,960 --> 00:57:58,960 and go back in the shelter. 1122 00:58:01,440 --> 00:58:03,580 - Oh, man, that's for sure. 1123 00:58:03,680 --> 00:58:04,900 I really miss home. 1124 00:58:05,000 --> 00:58:06,820 ♪ 1125 00:58:06,920 --> 00:58:09,420 I mean, I love this place, 1126 00:58:09,520 --> 00:58:11,520 but it would be nice to be back. 1127 00:58:16,720 --> 00:58:18,620 - I don't know. He would say, like, go, Ziga. 1128 00:58:18,720 --> 00:58:19,940 I know you have it. 1129 00:58:20,040 --> 00:58:22,500 You have been preparing for this all your life, 1130 00:58:22,600 --> 00:58:27,500 because we spent all these years in forest learning-- 1131 00:58:27,600 --> 00:58:29,600 - [whistles] 1132 00:58:32,880 --> 00:58:34,880 {\an8}[dramatic music] 1133 00:58:39,200 --> 00:58:40,860 [Ziga] He would say, like, go, Ziga. 1134 00:58:40,960 --> 00:58:43,100 I know you have it, because we spent 1135 00:58:43,200 --> 00:58:47,140 all these years in forest learning-- 1136 00:58:47,240 --> 00:58:48,860 - [whistles] 1137 00:58:48,960 --> 00:58:51,140 - No [bleep] way! 1138 00:58:51,240 --> 00:58:54,100 No [bleep] way! - [laughs] 1139 00:58:54,200 --> 00:58:55,540 - I cannot do it anymore! 1140 00:58:55,640 --> 00:58:57,620 - [yelling] 1141 00:58:57,720 --> 00:59:00,480 [laughter] 1142 00:59:05,920 --> 00:59:06,980 You did it! 1143 00:59:07,080 --> 00:59:08,820 You won "Alone," season-- 1144 00:59:08,920 --> 00:59:10,780 - Oh, man, I heard this sound. 1145 00:59:10,880 --> 00:59:12,820 I said, no, that's only Miha. 1146 00:59:12,920 --> 00:59:17,380 [laughter] 1147 00:59:17,480 --> 00:59:20,620 I'm so ready to go home. 1148 00:59:20,720 --> 00:59:22,620 But I would also love to show you 1149 00:59:22,720 --> 00:59:25,140 how I lived here for so long. 1150 00:59:25,240 --> 00:59:28,660 - You know, three days in the wild is like a week at home, 1151 00:59:28,760 --> 00:59:30,980 so you have stories for a year now. 1152 00:59:31,080 --> 00:59:32,940 - Oh, man. 1153 00:59:33,040 --> 00:59:35,420 - You did it! - Oh, I just can't believe it. 1154 00:59:35,520 --> 00:59:36,980 [laughter] 1155 00:59:37,080 --> 00:59:39,500 Seeing Miha, it feels a bit like a dream. 1156 00:59:39,600 --> 00:59:41,020 It's impossible. 1157 00:59:41,120 --> 00:59:43,500 It's the end of the game. It feels amazing. 1158 00:59:43,600 --> 00:59:45,740 - You said you're going to build a small shelter. 1159 00:59:45,840 --> 00:59:48,100 What is this, a house? [laughter] 1160 00:59:48,200 --> 00:59:50,740 - Let's start with the shelter, and then I can show you 1161 00:59:50,840 --> 00:59:52,140 place where I shot the moo-- 1162 00:59:52,240 --> 00:59:53,660 Wow. - What? 1163 00:59:53,760 --> 00:59:55,820 [laughing] 1164 00:59:55,920 --> 00:59:57,740 - Now look at this there. - Where, where, where? 1165 00:59:57,840 --> 01:00:00,580 - Do you see that? - No way! 1166 01:00:00,680 --> 01:00:02,860 [laughs] You did it! 1167 01:00:02,960 --> 01:00:04,940 Wow. - Let's have a look. 1168 01:00:05,040 --> 01:00:06,380 - Dude. 1169 01:00:06,480 --> 01:00:07,900 This is the arrow? 1170 01:00:08,000 --> 01:00:09,980 [Ziga] Yeah, that was the arrow. 1171 01:00:10,080 --> 01:00:13,220 Tried it on day 17, but it took me 2 days to get it there-- 1172 01:00:13,320 --> 01:00:15,220 2 days of drama. 1173 01:00:15,320 --> 01:00:16,940 [Miha] Dude, you're amazing. 1174 01:00:17,040 --> 01:00:20,220 [laughing] 1175 01:00:20,320 --> 01:00:22,260 ♪ 1176 01:00:22,360 --> 01:00:23,780 - Well, go in. 1177 01:00:23,880 --> 01:00:25,300 - Whoa. It gets bigger. 1178 01:00:25,400 --> 01:00:27,100 - Yeah, it's dug in. 1179 01:00:27,200 --> 01:00:28,580 [Miha] No way. 1180 01:00:28,680 --> 01:00:30,060 It's so warm. 1181 01:00:30,160 --> 01:00:31,580 [Ziga] Yeah, of course it's warm, 1182 01:00:31,680 --> 01:00:33,300 because look at this chimney. 1183 01:00:33,400 --> 01:00:35,860 [Miha] You found good clay? [Ziga] Yeah. 1184 01:00:35,960 --> 01:00:37,340 [Miha] I cannot believe it. 1185 01:00:37,440 --> 01:00:38,900 ♪ 1186 01:00:39,000 --> 01:00:42,100 - I'm very glad that I can show Miha 1187 01:00:42,200 --> 01:00:45,260 how I lived for 90 days. 1188 01:00:45,360 --> 01:00:48,220 It's like, you know, candies in a way. 1189 01:00:48,320 --> 01:00:50,820 It felt a bit like being a kid again, 1190 01:00:50,920 --> 01:00:53,700 doing crazy stuff and exploring. 1191 01:00:53,800 --> 01:00:55,260 And nice mountain view. 1192 01:00:55,360 --> 01:00:58,260 That's also important-- you know, to feel well. 1193 01:00:58,360 --> 01:01:00,900 - You're not just surviving. You're living here, man. 1194 01:01:01,000 --> 01:01:02,860 [laughs] You're living it. 1195 01:01:02,960 --> 01:01:04,540 ♪ 1196 01:01:04,640 --> 01:01:06,060 [Ziga] Miha, without you, 1197 01:01:06,160 --> 01:01:08,380 I definitely wouldn't develop this passion 1198 01:01:08,480 --> 01:01:10,980 for survival and push that far. 1199 01:01:11,080 --> 01:01:13,340 This victory is also your victory. 1200 01:01:13,440 --> 01:01:14,980 - Yes. 1201 01:01:15,080 --> 01:01:18,220 [Ziga] I'm so glad for you... for everything. 1202 01:01:18,320 --> 01:01:20,420 - You feel taller. You're a bigger man now. 1203 01:01:20,520 --> 01:01:23,380 [laughter] 1204 01:01:23,480 --> 01:01:25,780 - Oh, guys, you have to do a bow drill. 1205 01:01:25,880 --> 01:01:27,060 - Yeah? [Ziga] Oh, yeah. 1206 01:01:27,160 --> 01:01:28,260 - Amazing. 1207 01:01:28,360 --> 01:01:30,820 ♪ 1208 01:01:30,920 --> 01:01:33,900 [Ziga] We were doing this together for so many years, 1209 01:01:34,000 --> 01:01:37,860 and he can really feel how I feel 1210 01:01:37,960 --> 01:01:42,060 and understand how it is to be out there. 1211 01:01:42,160 --> 01:01:45,620 I'm very happy to share this with my brother. 1212 01:01:45,720 --> 01:01:47,940 ♪ 1213 01:01:48,040 --> 01:01:52,660 I'm very proud of what I did out here... 1214 01:01:52,760 --> 01:01:55,340 that I'm capable to go that far. 1215 01:01:55,440 --> 01:01:57,660 I have something in me 1216 01:01:57,760 --> 01:01:59,940 that people maybe did not expect. 1217 01:02:00,040 --> 01:02:02,220 ♪ 1218 01:02:02,320 --> 01:02:06,140 Out there, being alone has definitely changed me. 1219 01:02:06,240 --> 01:02:09,580 I really missed my family. 1220 01:02:09,680 --> 01:02:13,940 At home, I was really aiming too much for my career. 1221 01:02:14,040 --> 01:02:16,820 Joy should be shared. 1222 01:02:16,920 --> 01:02:19,700 I definitely want to spend more time with them 1223 01:02:19,800 --> 01:02:22,260 and watch them and listen to them 1224 01:02:22,360 --> 01:02:24,300 and be happy with them. 1225 01:02:24,400 --> 01:02:25,860 ♪ 1226 01:02:25,960 --> 01:02:27,900 It feels amazing 1227 01:02:28,000 --> 01:02:30,780 that I'm representing one very small country-- 1228 01:02:30,880 --> 01:02:33,340 Slovenia. 1229 01:02:33,440 --> 01:02:34,980 No matter where you're coming from, 1230 01:02:35,080 --> 01:02:37,060 if you really live for something, 1231 01:02:37,160 --> 01:02:39,060 go for your passion, 1232 01:02:39,160 --> 01:02:42,500 and not be scared of doing things different 1233 01:02:42,600 --> 01:02:45,820 and keep on living it no matter what. 1234 01:02:45,920 --> 01:02:50,620 $500,000 gives my family freedom, 1235 01:02:50,720 --> 01:02:54,460 money independence, less stressful life. 1236 01:02:54,560 --> 01:02:57,940 Would definitely put part of it to our survival school 1237 01:02:58,040 --> 01:03:00,100 to increase the things we can share 1238 01:03:00,200 --> 01:03:01,420 with other people. 1239 01:03:01,520 --> 01:03:03,980 ♪ 1240 01:03:04,080 --> 01:03:06,860 It feels very good to be the first scientist 1241 01:03:06,960 --> 01:03:08,740 to win "Alone." 1242 01:03:08,840 --> 01:03:12,020 I was able to test my skills, my knowledge 1243 01:03:12,120 --> 01:03:15,980 but, at the same time, also learn a lot. 1244 01:03:16,080 --> 01:03:20,580 Leaving this place, it's a bit bittersweet. 1245 01:03:20,680 --> 01:03:22,060 In these 90 days, 1246 01:03:22,160 --> 01:03:25,940 I found some kind of harmony with nature. 1247 01:03:26,040 --> 01:03:30,100 {\an8}I really felt not so much like surviving 1248 01:03:30,200 --> 01:03:32,460 {\an8}but rather like living out in nature. 1249 01:03:32,560 --> 01:03:34,100 {\an8}♪ 1250 01:03:34,200 --> 01:03:37,380 {\an8}Nature--there are infinitive possibilities 1251 01:03:37,480 --> 01:03:40,740 {\an8}and new ways and techniques to discover, 1252 01:03:40,840 --> 01:03:44,340 {\an8}and we should try to understand it, 1253 01:03:44,440 --> 01:03:47,820 {\an8}try to respect it, and try to live with it. 1254 01:03:47,920 --> 01:03:54,640 {\an8}♪