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[dramatic music]
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♪ ♪
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‐ Ow.
Bloody [bleep].
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This is really
what I was afraid of.
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I don't want the end
of my story
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to be all about
the breakdown of my body.
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‐ Holy [bleep].
Fresh grizz tracks.
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It made a complete circle
around the tent.
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That means trouble.
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‐ I wanna be healthy so
I can watch my kids grow up.
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If I was to die out here,
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and then I'd miss out
on everything.
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‐ We don't it's safe for you
to stay in the field anymore.
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We're gonna have to pull you
for medical reasons.
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‐ God, I wanted to do this.
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This was my "Super Bowl,"
this was my survival big game,
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and I did not have
my best performance.
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♪ ♪
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male narrator: In "Alone's"
most terrifying location yet,
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ten participants face
the deadliest predator
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in North America.
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‐ There he is right there.
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‐ Grizzly bears.
‐ Hey, bear.
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‐ There are a lot
of grizzly here.
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I'm gonna have to live
with them.
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‐ Go on! Get!
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‐ Every second we're on
the land, we're being hunted.
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‐ Holy [bleep], mountain lion.
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‐ He's circling around
my shelter.
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narrator:
Bone‐chilling cold...
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‐ Winter is coming.
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‐ You combine the wind
with the rain and the cold,
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this place could make
the Arctic look easy.
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‐ Oh, [bleep].
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narrator:
And complete isolation.
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‐ You cannot hide
from yourself
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mentally and emotionally.
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‐ Ah!
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‐ There's no place to go.
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‐ I am suffering
from loneliness.
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narrator: Who will survive?
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‐ Yes! Yes!
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‐ This could be the end.
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‐ I don't want to tap,
but I don't want
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to die either.
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‐ You have to suffer
before you can succeed.
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[gagging]
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narrator:
The last one standing wins.
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‐ At what point
do I push the button?
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♪ ♪
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[soft tense music]
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♪ ♪
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‐ There was something jacking
around outside last night,
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but I don't know what it was.
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It doesn't matter.
But I have no more food.
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That deer is done.
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♪ ♪
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Let's see about this gill net.
First thing.
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I gotta get busy
and not burn up all my fat.
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Judging by the way
my belt fits,
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I'm dropping weight rapidly.
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Let's see
if we can catch a fish.
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I'm withering away.
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Even though
I've killed a deer,
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I'm still withering away.
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Switched the gill net
over there the other day.
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I haven't caught
anything in it.
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And now I'm concerned that
I might get pulled for weight.
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♪ ♪
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The rocks are treacherous.
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♪ ♪
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[bleep].
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♪ ♪
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♪ ♪
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Done!
Done with it!
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♪ ♪
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[wind howling]
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‐ [groans]
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Oh, boy.
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Absolutely no point in getting
up early today.
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It is snowing.
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I can hear it
on the tarp outside.
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Definitely gonna be a projects
in the house kind of day,
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I think.
[chuckles]
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And project‐wise,
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probably today is the day
to make a broom.
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I basically have one activity
a day at this point
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where I really have the energy
for it, so yeah.
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♪ ♪
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And this is just
beautiful grass, it really is.
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You could, of course,
do all of this binding
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that I'm doing with the girls.
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Since I have paracord
inner liner
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and it's coming out my ears,
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don't think I'm going
to spend the time.
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[soft dramatic music]
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Remember now,
we're not going all crazy
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domestic goddess here.
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This is for taking snow
off the tarp
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and potentially being able
to brush off
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enough Kinnikinnick
to get some more.
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[chuckles]
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♪ ♪
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Can you live on Kinnikinnick?
Nope.
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♪ ♪
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Oh God, my hands are so weak.
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Come on.
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♪ ♪
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I mean, all of me is so weak,
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but it's especially notable
for me in my hands.
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♪ ♪
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which means my knife work
is a little bit scary.
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♪ ♪
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I'm sure there will be a point
where I'm just too tired,
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I'm too thin,
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and it's just gotten
to the brink
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of what I can handle.
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I know that point will come
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unless a deer dies
in my front yard.
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All right.
And ta‐da.
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We have the broom.
Perfect.
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Okay, so the weather
is reasonable.
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Let's test it out, eh?
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♪ ♪
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Yup, it works.
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A little less snow
in the house.
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♪ ♪
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Oh, I'm a little bit dizzy.
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I just need to sit for a bit.
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[bleep].
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Okay, so the fire
has just died.
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I really wish I had collected
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a whole bunch
of firewood yesterday,
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which was actually one of
my plans and it didn't do it.
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Now, I'm gonna have to
play the firewood game.
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[bleep].
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[soft tense music]
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It's so hard to do heavy
physical activity,
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like collecting firewood.
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When I tilt sideways or have
to catch myself quickly,
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my muscle response time
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is much slower.
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♪ ♪
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You feel like
you're moving through water.
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That's what it feels like.
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I want to say
I just have a really,
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really limited time left.
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And I'm so frustrated by that.
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♪ ♪
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[bleep].
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♪ ♪
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Not a track
I expected to see here.
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So they're down
from the high country then.
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How lucky would one
have to get
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to have just been walking
to the loo with their bow?
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I hope that deer will be here.
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I mean honestly right now,
if I shot a deer,
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I can win this.
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But you know,
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I'm not sure I'd be capable
of processing one.
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[soft dramatic music]
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♪ ♪
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Maybe?
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Oof.
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♪ ♪
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Suck it up, buttercup.
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♪ ♪
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Get the firewood in.
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‐ See these cute, little twins.
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It's been the main motivation
keeping me here.
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Look at their little feet
and hands.
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Their big heads.
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They're so much bigger
than that now, no doubt.
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They're gonna need that money,
so let's get to it.
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I can't help but wonder
who's left
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and how much fight
they got left in them.
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♪ ♪
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I have more fight in me.
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My family's future
is on the line.
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I gotta go check my gill net.
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Try a few casts
while I'm down there.
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♪ ♪
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It's a strange thing
to be on the cusp.
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So close to a fortune,
you know,
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that would take me decades
to make.
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So close yet so far.
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Things that would push me
further, I'm not finding.
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It's hard.
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♪ ♪
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No fish, as usual.
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♪ ♪
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It ain't easy
getting this far.
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You either get here
from doing well
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or you get here
on pure stubbornness
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and sheer will like I did.
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I'm just gonna keep on
going a little longer.
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I don't have a whole lot
of quit in me, man.
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My mindset is still
in the game
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and there's more foraging
I can do.
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I can start eating
some of the things
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I haven't been eating
like the under bark.
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♪ ♪
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As long as I stay hydrated,
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my body has got plenty left
on it to give.
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The Sam Rations,
as I call them.
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It's how Sam won, you know.
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He went in heavy and he
just out‐starved everyone.
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I'm just a broke musician
construction laborer.
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I can't walk away from this.
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♪ ♪
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So food thought of the day
has been a random one.
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Quite a random one.
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Frito pie, which is...
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really, just think nachos
but made with Fritos.
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Very high fat,
which I'm pretty sure
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is what I'm on about,
really, just in general.
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Like, I mean,
I'm actually planning a trip
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to do a little nostalgic
food tour.
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♪ ♪
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I don't yet have refrigeration
capability in my van.
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That'll be something that
some of this money
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sorts out, actually.
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I can finally do
the proper remodel of my van
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into a working home
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so that I can travel
and live in it,
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and live in it properly,
you know?
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I want refrigeration.
I want the ability to cook.
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Right now I have a bed
and a cooler,
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you know, and I make it work.
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♪ ♪
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All right, so it's done.
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Okay, and now I want to
just sit for a moment
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with my cup of tea.
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Wow, I never thought
I'd see the day
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where washing some underwear,
and some socks, a shirt,
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and a pair of trousers
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in a pot of water
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would tire me out.
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♪ ♪
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It is a noticeable
daily decrease in energy.
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♪ ♪
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I want desperately
to stay out here.
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I want desperately to win.
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♪ ♪
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At the moment, I'm tired.
Weak and tired.
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♪ ♪
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Broken. I feel broken.
[chuckles]
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♪ ♪
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I'm not actually sure
I can draw my bow,
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to be perfectly honest.
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♪ ♪
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Yeah, I just need a nap.
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♪ ♪
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[electronic chime]
Oh, yes, yes.
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Message received.
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♪ ♪
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Production is coming
a day early.
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Well, okay, there we are then.
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♪ ♪
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I wonder
why they're coming early.
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♪ ♪
269
00:16:35,394 --> 00:16:37,763
I know my body's shot.
I know.
270
00:16:37,897 --> 00:16:39,599
I know we're gonna have
that conversation,
271
00:16:39,732 --> 00:16:43,703
but you never really completely
let go of the possibility
272
00:16:43,836 --> 00:16:45,805
that you might be
the last one out here.
273
00:16:45,938 --> 00:16:48,574
They might just shove up
and say,
274
00:16:48,708 --> 00:16:50,877
"Hey, it's not actually
a med check, you won.
275
00:16:51,010 --> 00:16:52,512
Here's your money."
276
00:16:52,645 --> 00:16:57,116
And that would be...
277
00:16:57,250 --> 00:16:59,085
I can say
it would be life‐altering.
278
00:16:59,218 --> 00:17:01,320
♪ ♪
279
00:17:01,454 --> 00:17:02,955
And I would very much
like to be the person
280
00:17:03,089 --> 00:17:04,557
who walks home with it.
281
00:17:04,690 --> 00:17:07,226
♪ ♪
282
00:17:07,360 --> 00:17:11,964
I can have a home,
eclectic and wonderful.
283
00:17:12,098 --> 00:17:16,502
It'd be so fantastic,
I'd be so excited.
284
00:17:16,636 --> 00:17:23,643
♪ ♪
285
00:17:26,979 --> 00:17:28,614
‐ Lightheadedness
every time I stand up.
286
00:17:28,748 --> 00:17:29,782
‐ Okay.
287
00:17:29,916 --> 00:17:36,923
♪ ♪
288
00:17:43,563 --> 00:17:46,832
‐ I would be really gutted
if I had to go home today.
289
00:17:53,406 --> 00:17:55,675
‐ Theresa.
‐ Yeah.
290
00:17:55,808 --> 00:17:58,244
‐ You've lost a tremendous
amount of weight.
291
00:17:58,377 --> 00:17:59,645
‐ Yes, I have.
292
00:17:59,779 --> 00:18:00,947
‐ And as you might imagine,
293
00:18:01,080 --> 00:18:02,748
we're deeply concerned
about your health...
294
00:18:02,882 --> 00:18:04,350
‐ Yes.
‐ As you may be as well.
295
00:18:04,483 --> 00:18:06,619
I think at this point,
if you stay in any longer,
296
00:18:06,752 --> 00:18:10,323
you risk reaching a level that
might be hard to recover from.
297
00:18:10,456 --> 00:18:11,657
So at this point,
298
00:18:11,791 --> 00:18:13,893
we're gonna have to pull you
for medical reasons.
299
00:18:14,026 --> 00:18:15,061
‐ Today?
300
00:18:15,194 --> 00:18:17,263
‐ It's not safe for you
to stay out here.
301
00:18:22,301 --> 00:18:25,171
[soft downbeat music]
302
00:18:25,304 --> 00:18:31,444
♪ ♪
303
00:18:31,577 --> 00:18:36,882
‐ [takes deep breath]
304
00:18:37,016 --> 00:18:39,085
Do you guys mind if you just
give me a moment?
305
00:18:39,218 --> 00:18:42,521
Can I go inside
and just have a minute?
306
00:18:42,655 --> 00:18:44,557
♪ ♪
307
00:18:44,690 --> 00:18:45,791
Thank you.
308
00:18:45,925 --> 00:18:52,932
♪ ♪
309
00:18:57,903 --> 00:18:59,038
Oh.
310
00:18:59,171 --> 00:19:05,077
♪ ♪
311
00:19:05,211 --> 00:19:07,313
[exhales deeply]
Suck it up and deal.
312
00:19:07,446 --> 00:19:10,316
♪ ♪
313
00:19:10,449 --> 00:19:12,184
[exhales deeply]
314
00:19:12,318 --> 00:19:14,286
Okay, pardon me.
I really don't like crying.
315
00:19:14,420 --> 00:19:16,589
And I sure as hell don't like
crying in front of people,
316
00:19:16,722 --> 00:19:18,257
so apologies.
317
00:19:18,391 --> 00:19:21,160
♪ ♪
318
00:19:21,293 --> 00:19:25,831
And I know, I completely
understand that we need to go.
319
00:19:25,965 --> 00:19:29,702
I pushed myself further than
I originally intended.
320
00:19:29,835 --> 00:19:31,671
Yeah.
321
00:19:31,804 --> 00:19:33,706
To say I wash, I do a full‐body
wash every three days.
322
00:19:33,839 --> 00:19:37,710
I know I am
a walking bag of bones.
323
00:19:37,843 --> 00:19:39,245
I'm not upset with you.
324
00:19:39,378 --> 00:19:42,114
I'm not upset with anybody.
I'm not even upset with myself.
325
00:19:42,248 --> 00:19:43,482
I'm just‐‐I'm...
326
00:19:43,616 --> 00:19:45,551
♪ ♪
327
00:19:45,685 --> 00:19:48,020
Just disappointed.
328
00:19:48,154 --> 00:19:50,890
I'm just disappointed.
That's all.
329
00:19:51,023 --> 00:19:53,225
♪ ♪
330
00:19:53,359 --> 00:19:56,228
I've seen 30‐year‐old horses
look better than me.
331
00:19:56,362 --> 00:19:58,197
[chuckles]
332
00:19:58,330 --> 00:20:01,200
[soft dramatic music]
333
00:20:01,333 --> 00:20:03,703
♪ ♪
334
00:20:03,836 --> 00:20:06,672
I got the opportunity
to do something
335
00:20:06,806 --> 00:20:09,208
that very few people do,
336
00:20:09,341 --> 00:20:14,447
and it was amazing.
337
00:20:14,580 --> 00:20:16,816
I'd love to have
the 500 grand,
338
00:20:16,949 --> 00:20:20,853
but at the same time,
I have now spent 69 days
339
00:20:20,986 --> 00:20:23,489
getting firsthand experiences.
340
00:20:23,622 --> 00:20:28,060
This place has become home.
This is my home.
341
00:20:28,194 --> 00:20:31,931
And that is actually
one of the hardest things.
342
00:20:32,064 --> 00:20:34,033
I was in control
of everything.
343
00:20:34,166 --> 00:20:39,438
Everything was mine.
I had absolute control.
344
00:20:39,572 --> 00:20:44,510
I've never felt like that
anywhere else.
345
00:20:44,643 --> 00:20:47,613
And now I have
to hand that over
346
00:20:47,747 --> 00:20:50,349
and that's tough.
347
00:20:50,483 --> 00:20:51,817
♪ ♪
348
00:20:51,951 --> 00:20:54,820
However, my motivation
for coming on this program
349
00:20:54,954 --> 00:20:56,455
wasn't just to win.
350
00:20:56,589 --> 00:21:00,392
It was to have an experience
that I have not had before,
351
00:21:00,526 --> 00:21:03,796
to do things I've not had
the opportunity to do before.
352
00:21:03,929 --> 00:21:05,731
And I have done that
353
00:21:05,865 --> 00:21:08,701
and I will continue
to do that.
354
00:21:08,834 --> 00:21:11,937
This is just the beginning.
355
00:21:16,308 --> 00:21:19,011
[soft tense music]
356
00:21:19,145 --> 00:21:26,152
♪ ♪
357
00:21:36,662 --> 00:21:38,631
‐ ♪ Warm the toes,
yes, you must ♪
358
00:21:38,764 --> 00:21:41,000
♪ It's important
for your trust ♪
359
00:21:41,133 --> 00:21:44,236
♪ To keep going on ♪
360
00:21:44,370 --> 00:21:46,505
♪ Warm the toes,
yes, you must ♪
361
00:21:46,639 --> 00:21:51,443
♪ Don't give up
on warming them toes ♪
362
00:21:51,577 --> 00:21:53,212
♪ And don't give up
on this contest ♪
363
00:21:53,345 --> 00:21:57,316
♪ 'Cause that money could
change your family's life ♪
364
00:21:57,449 --> 00:22:01,387
♪ And you've got
more fight in you ♪
365
00:22:08,294 --> 00:22:11,063
Isn't it true?
366
00:22:11,197 --> 00:22:15,100
♪ ♪
367
00:22:15,234 --> 00:22:19,004
Plan for the day
is to get some food.
368
00:22:19,138 --> 00:22:20,840
I'm running low on energy.
369
00:22:20,973 --> 00:22:22,241
♪ ♪
370
00:22:22,374 --> 00:22:25,077
[groans]
371
00:22:25,211 --> 00:22:27,446
I think I might try
and harvest some under bark.
372
00:22:27,580 --> 00:22:29,582
It's not something
I want to eat,
373
00:22:29,715 --> 00:22:32,918
but I'm running out of stuff
to forage.
374
00:22:33,052 --> 00:22:34,286
♪ ♪
375
00:22:34,420 --> 00:22:37,122
I just wanna
preemptively apologize...
376
00:22:37,256 --> 00:22:38,891
♪ ♪
377
00:22:39,024 --> 00:22:41,827
For the skinning you're
about to receive.
378
00:22:41,961 --> 00:22:43,929
♪ ♪
379
00:22:44,063 --> 00:22:48,133
This is tree meat.
There's nutrients in it.
380
00:22:49,501 --> 00:22:52,171
And try to not get the wood
if you can avoid it.
381
00:22:54,640 --> 00:22:56,008
I hope that doing this
helps me
382
00:22:56,141 --> 00:22:58,744
find a better way
to live my life.
383
00:22:58,878 --> 00:23:01,013
♪ ♪
384
00:23:01,146 --> 00:23:03,582
My whole life
I've done hard labor,
385
00:23:03,716 --> 00:23:07,620
just busting my ass
for crap pay.
386
00:23:07,753 --> 00:23:09,588
It's not worth it.
387
00:23:09,722 --> 00:23:12,458
All right,
that's enough for now.
388
00:23:12,591 --> 00:23:14,460
[soft dramatic music]
389
00:23:14,593 --> 00:23:18,130
I quit my job to do this
and can't go back to it.
390
00:23:18,264 --> 00:23:19,598
♪ ♪
391
00:23:19,732 --> 00:23:22,234
Having that money
would give me the ability
392
00:23:22,368 --> 00:23:25,871
to work on the things
that I enjoy.
393
00:23:26,005 --> 00:23:30,910
Like doing something in the
outdoors or working on music.
394
00:23:31,043 --> 00:23:35,748
♪ ♪
395
00:23:35,881 --> 00:23:37,716
Calling that done.
396
00:23:37,850 --> 00:23:42,421
I can't tap without playing
every last bit I have into it.
397
00:23:42,554 --> 00:23:48,394
♪ ♪
398
00:23:50,162 --> 00:23:53,265
Let's try the broth, shall we?
399
00:23:53,399 --> 00:23:54,700
It's red.
400
00:23:54,833 --> 00:23:59,004
♪ ♪
401
00:23:59,138 --> 00:24:02,541
Mmm, tastes like trees
and fireweed.
402
00:24:02,675 --> 00:24:04,510
♪ ♪
403
00:24:04,643 --> 00:24:09,615
Yeah, that's about as rough
as I imagined it would taste.
404
00:24:09,748 --> 00:24:10,950
♪ ♪
405
00:24:11,083 --> 00:24:13,686
This meal is enough
to make me wanna tap, man.
406
00:24:13,819 --> 00:24:15,287
[chuckles]
407
00:24:15,421 --> 00:24:18,023
♪ ♪
408
00:24:18,157 --> 00:24:20,225
This is so hard to eat.
409
00:24:20,359 --> 00:24:25,197
♪ ♪
410
00:24:25,331 --> 00:24:28,767
Matter of fact, I don't think I
can eat anymore at the moment.
411
00:24:28,901 --> 00:24:30,035
I might throw up.
412
00:24:30,169 --> 00:24:32,071
♪ ♪
413
00:24:32,204 --> 00:24:35,808
Holy [bleep], man,
what a disaster this meal is.
414
00:24:38,110 --> 00:24:41,547
Ugh.
[bleep] terrible.
415
00:24:41,680 --> 00:24:44,616
It's getting really
hard out here, man.
416
00:24:44,750 --> 00:24:47,052
Hard to be out here.
417
00:24:47,186 --> 00:24:54,193
♪ ♪
418
00:25:12,344 --> 00:25:15,347
[wind whistling]
419
00:25:19,485 --> 00:25:22,988
‐ When I lay in here like this,
there's,
420
00:25:23,122 --> 00:25:26,792
like, recurring thoughts
that go through my mind.
421
00:25:26,925 --> 00:25:29,695
One of them is what day is it,
422
00:25:29,828 --> 00:25:32,598
and how many days we have left?
423
00:25:32,731 --> 00:25:36,301
And the other one is,
what do I have to eat?
424
00:25:36,435 --> 00:25:41,607
And the answer's always
the same.
425
00:25:41,740 --> 00:25:44,743
A lot and nothing.
426
00:25:44,877 --> 00:25:47,079
[soft tense music]
427
00:25:47,212 --> 00:25:49,481
A lot of days left
and nothing to eat.
428
00:25:49,615 --> 00:25:52,618
♪ ♪
429
00:25:52,751 --> 00:25:54,586
I'm hungry all the time now.
430
00:25:54,720 --> 00:25:57,823
It wasn't like that before
but now,
431
00:25:57,956 --> 00:26:02,861
I think about using
every scrap
432
00:26:02,995 --> 00:26:05,264
of an animal.
433
00:26:05,397 --> 00:26:08,667
Like eyeballs.
434
00:26:08,801 --> 00:26:10,335
And brains.
435
00:26:10,469 --> 00:26:14,306
♪ ♪
436
00:26:14,440 --> 00:26:16,375
That'd be so good.
437
00:26:16,508 --> 00:26:17,910
♪ ♪
438
00:26:18,043 --> 00:26:20,079
I guess I'll check the snares.
439
00:26:24,149 --> 00:26:26,718
A few rabbits would be great.
440
00:26:26,852 --> 00:26:29,388
[soft dramatic music]
441
00:26:29,521 --> 00:26:32,958
I've never snared rabbits.
It's not legal back home.
442
00:26:33,092 --> 00:26:36,128
Oh, he's been back and forth,
back and forth through here.
443
00:26:36,261 --> 00:26:38,597
Rascals all over the place.
444
00:26:38,730 --> 00:26:41,266
I've run a trap line and I've
snared lots of other things,
445
00:26:41,400 --> 00:26:43,102
but this is something
that's new for me.
446
00:26:43,235 --> 00:26:44,369
♪ ♪
447
00:26:44,503 --> 00:26:47,639
Nothing in that one.
Damn it.
448
00:26:47,773 --> 00:26:50,142
I can see its tracks
going right through the snare.
449
00:26:50,275 --> 00:26:51,777
He hopped right over it
or around it
450
00:26:51,910 --> 00:26:54,446
or under it or something.
451
00:26:54,580 --> 00:26:57,749
There is a real risk
but at this point,
452
00:26:57,883 --> 00:27:01,487
this is the best chance
to find food.
453
00:27:01,620 --> 00:27:04,456
♪ ♪
454
00:27:09,528 --> 00:27:11,897
I'm moving slow this morning.
455
00:27:14,500 --> 00:27:16,468
Slow but steady.
456
00:27:19,605 --> 00:27:21,340
Check this one over here.
457
00:27:27,946 --> 00:27:30,249
[bleep], got one.
458
00:27:30,382 --> 00:27:31,817
♪ ♪
459
00:27:31,950 --> 00:27:33,752
Oh, man, I needed this.
460
00:27:33,886 --> 00:27:35,254
♪ ♪
461
00:27:35,387 --> 00:27:39,558
It got him around the chest.
My loop was a little too big.
462
00:27:39,691 --> 00:27:43,128
♪ ♪
463
00:27:43,262 --> 00:27:47,199
Nice.
Man, I really needed that.
464
00:27:47,332 --> 00:27:48,767
Thank you, thank you,
thank you.
465
00:27:48,901 --> 00:27:49,902
♪ ♪
466
00:27:50,035 --> 00:27:52,838
Man,
this brings back memories.
467
00:27:52,971 --> 00:27:56,808
I remember, I bet I was
probably ten years old,
468
00:27:56,942 --> 00:27:59,878
and I saw a rabbit
and I shot him
469
00:28:00,078 --> 00:28:03,282
and he jumped up and then
started flopping around.
470
00:28:03,415 --> 00:28:05,517
I said,
"I got him. I got him."
471
00:28:05,651 --> 00:28:07,252
I ran up there
and grabbed him up
472
00:28:07,386 --> 00:28:09,454
and I was so proud of myself.
473
00:28:09,588 --> 00:28:10,589
♪ ♪
474
00:28:10,722 --> 00:28:12,791
All right, one more to go.
475
00:28:12,925 --> 00:28:14,459
♪ ♪
476
00:28:14,593 --> 00:28:16,595
And I don't think
I'll ever forget that.
477
00:28:16,728 --> 00:28:19,598
Hot dog, I got another one.
478
00:28:19,731 --> 00:28:24,403
I didn't expect this one,
this is a pleasant surprise.
479
00:28:24,536 --> 00:28:27,206
Very nice. I love it.
I love it.
480
00:28:27,339 --> 00:28:28,840
♪ ♪
481
00:28:28,974 --> 00:28:31,710
There is nothing in life
worth achieving
482
00:28:31,843 --> 00:28:34,112
that's going to come easy.
483
00:28:34,246 --> 00:28:36,114
Everything that you want
to accomplish
484
00:28:36,248 --> 00:28:38,483
that's worth anything at all,
485
00:28:38,617 --> 00:28:42,254
you're gonna have to
overcome serious obstacles.
486
00:28:42,387 --> 00:28:43,922
♪ ♪
487
00:28:44,056 --> 00:28:46,692
Excellent,
excellent, excellent.
488
00:28:46,825 --> 00:28:49,094
Quit worrying
about the road ahead.
489
00:28:49,228 --> 00:28:50,862
Quit worrying about
the big picture
490
00:28:50,996 --> 00:28:53,432
and look at what is
right in front of you.
491
00:28:53,565 --> 00:28:58,537
Thank you, buddy.
You are much appreciated.
492
00:28:58,670 --> 00:29:01,707
Overcome that obstacle
and move on.
493
00:29:01,840 --> 00:29:03,809
It's one step at a time.
494
00:29:03,942 --> 00:29:10,949
♪ ♪
495
00:29:20,192 --> 00:29:22,427
Look at them little teeth
right there.
496
00:29:25,664 --> 00:29:28,367
The head.
497
00:29:28,500 --> 00:29:32,471
Begin by removing
the lower jaw...
498
00:29:33,872 --> 00:29:36,975
separating the jawbones...
499
00:29:37,109 --> 00:29:39,511
and sucking the meat off.
500
00:29:39,645 --> 00:29:40,879
Mmm.
501
00:29:47,953 --> 00:29:49,755
The world would be
a much better place
502
00:29:49,888 --> 00:29:52,257
if at least once
in their life,
503
00:29:52,391 --> 00:29:56,528
everybody got to experience
the kind of hunger
504
00:29:56,662 --> 00:29:58,263
that'll make you suck
the eyeballs
505
00:29:58,397 --> 00:30:01,566
out of a rabbit skull
with much pleasure.
506
00:30:08,240 --> 00:30:11,276
[soft tense music]
507
00:30:11,410 --> 00:30:18,417
♪ ♪
508
00:30:42,407 --> 00:30:45,277
[rustling]
509
00:30:45,410 --> 00:30:48,113
♪ ♪
510
00:30:48,246 --> 00:30:50,282
Something just knocked over.
511
00:30:50,415 --> 00:30:53,418
♪ ♪
512
00:30:56,288 --> 00:31:01,460
♪ ♪
513
00:31:01,593 --> 00:31:02,828
What the hell?
514
00:31:02,961 --> 00:31:06,998
♪ ♪
515
00:31:07,132 --> 00:31:08,834
[bleep].
516
00:31:14,072 --> 00:31:15,807
[bleep]
517
00:31:15,941 --> 00:31:17,776
[whoops]
Hey.
518
00:31:17,909 --> 00:31:19,444
♪ ♪
519
00:31:19,578 --> 00:31:20,746
[sighs]
520
00:31:20,879 --> 00:31:26,151
♪ ♪
521
00:31:26,284 --> 00:31:27,252
Damn it!
522
00:31:27,386 --> 00:31:30,055
Oh, you son of a [bleep],
don't you‐‐
523
00:31:30,188 --> 00:31:35,193
hey, hey, hey!
524
00:31:35,327 --> 00:31:38,330
♪ ♪
525
00:31:38,463 --> 00:31:39,931
Holy [bleep].
526
00:31:40,065 --> 00:31:46,004
♪ ♪
527
00:31:54,212 --> 00:31:57,382
[sighs]
528
00:31:57,516 --> 00:31:59,751
I've never seen a fisher
that close before.
529
00:31:59,885 --> 00:32:03,288
He wasn't shy at all.
I mean, he came right up.
530
00:32:03,422 --> 00:32:05,190
I thought he was gonna
come in the tent.
531
00:32:05,323 --> 00:32:08,193
♪ ♪
532
00:32:08,326 --> 00:32:12,330
But I'm gonna have to start
closing the door when I leave
533
00:32:12,464 --> 00:32:16,201
'cause he'll come in here
and get my rabbit.
534
00:32:16,334 --> 00:32:19,738
♪ ♪
535
00:32:19,871 --> 00:32:24,576
A fisher is a mustelid,
the same family as wolverines.
536
00:32:24,709 --> 00:32:28,146
Basically, it's a predator.
It's not good.
537
00:32:28,280 --> 00:32:29,948
♪ ♪
538
00:32:30,081 --> 00:32:31,249
And I have to compete with it
539
00:32:31,383 --> 00:32:34,186
to get my rabbits
before he gets them.
540
00:32:36,388 --> 00:32:43,395
♪ ♪
541
00:32:54,806 --> 00:32:56,741
‐ [groans]
542
00:32:56,875 --> 00:32:59,678
My guts are in [bleep]
knots, man.
543
00:33:05,784 --> 00:33:11,022
♪ ♪
544
00:33:11,156 --> 00:33:13,525
[groans]
545
00:33:13,658 --> 00:33:16,027
The under bark
did not help me out.
546
00:33:16,161 --> 00:33:18,330
It hurt me a lot.
547
00:33:18,463 --> 00:33:19,998
Sucks.
548
00:33:20,131 --> 00:33:22,901
♪ ♪
549
00:33:23,001 --> 00:33:25,103
Plan for the day is to try
550
00:33:25,237 --> 00:33:27,606
and get my stomach
feeling better, man.
551
00:33:27,739 --> 00:33:30,342
♪ ♪
552
00:33:30,475 --> 00:33:34,613
'Cause I just do not
feel good, man.
553
00:33:41,152 --> 00:33:44,656
♪ ♪
554
00:33:44,789 --> 00:33:48,026
I think I ought to go
get some foraging done.
555
00:33:48,159 --> 00:33:51,162
I'd like to get something
decent in my stomach
556
00:33:51,296 --> 00:33:52,831
so that it's not in knots.
557
00:33:52,964 --> 00:33:55,534
♪ ♪
558
00:33:55,667 --> 00:33:57,369
I think I'm gonna go that‐a‐way
559
00:33:57,502 --> 00:33:59,504
and try to find some
wild onions.
560
00:33:59,638 --> 00:34:01,373
♪ ♪
561
00:34:01,506 --> 00:34:04,142
There's less and less onions
to harvest.
562
00:34:04,276 --> 00:34:07,245
I've harvested a lot of them.
563
00:34:07,379 --> 00:34:12,217
My body is now clinging to
the weight I have left on me.
564
00:34:12,350 --> 00:34:19,357
♪ ♪
565
00:34:23,428 --> 00:34:26,431
Oh, look at that.
566
00:34:26,565 --> 00:34:28,567
I've found
a ton of wild onions.
567
00:34:28,700 --> 00:34:30,535
[soft upbeat music]
568
00:34:30,669 --> 00:34:31,703
Whoo.
569
00:34:31,836 --> 00:34:34,272
♪ ♪
570
00:34:34,406 --> 00:34:36,007
Let's get to collecting, huh.
571
00:34:36,141 --> 00:34:37,609
♪ ♪
572
00:34:37,742 --> 00:34:40,845
This whole hillside
is covered with them, too.
573
00:34:40,979 --> 00:34:45,750
All the way up,
which is awesome.
574
00:34:45,884 --> 00:34:50,221
Oh, onion soup,
how I can't wait to have you.
575
00:34:50,355 --> 00:34:51,723
♪ ♪
576
00:34:51,856 --> 00:34:54,826
Awesome to know that
I've got food resources again
577
00:34:54,960 --> 00:34:58,897
and don't have to just starve
the rest of the week.
578
00:34:59,030 --> 00:35:01,633
That definitely means
it ain't over.
579
00:35:01,766 --> 00:35:03,868
♪ ♪
580
00:35:04,002 --> 00:35:06,271
I think I'm ready
to head back.
581
00:35:06,404 --> 00:35:07,906
[grunts]
582
00:35:08,039 --> 00:35:11,176
I know I've got
more fight in me.
583
00:35:11,309 --> 00:35:13,945
I could be a week away
from winning.
584
00:35:14,079 --> 00:35:16,147
♪ ♪
585
00:35:16,281 --> 00:35:18,850
I gotta stick it out
for my family.
586
00:35:18,984 --> 00:35:22,687
I have lots of reserves
to keep me going.
587
00:35:22,821 --> 00:35:26,424
Just try to wait it out.
588
00:35:26,558 --> 00:35:29,427
♪ ♪
589
00:35:29,561 --> 00:35:31,096
Oh, yeah.
590
00:35:31,229 --> 00:35:34,132
[slurps]
591
00:35:34,265 --> 00:35:36,768
That's hitting the spot, man,
I don't care.
592
00:35:36,901 --> 00:35:39,871
I don't care who you are.
593
00:35:40,005 --> 00:35:41,640
That's hitting the spot
right there.
594
00:35:41,773 --> 00:35:43,541
♪ ♪
595
00:35:43,675 --> 00:35:45,777
There might be
one other person out here
596
00:35:45,910 --> 00:35:48,146
for all I know.
597
00:35:48,279 --> 00:35:51,049
One of us is going home
with the win,
598
00:35:51,182 --> 00:35:53,385
and I ain't leaving
till they pull me.
599
00:35:53,518 --> 00:35:56,588
[soft dramatic music]
600
00:35:56,721 --> 00:36:03,795
♪ ♪
601
00:36:23,314 --> 00:36:24,516
‐ I like these pants.
602
00:36:24,649 --> 00:36:26,484
I stole these
from Fish and Game.
603
00:36:29,554 --> 00:36:31,523
I never thought
I'd be this light.
604
00:36:39,030 --> 00:36:40,165
Think I'll take
a little, short walk
605
00:36:40,298 --> 00:36:44,669
and let's go check out
the snares.
606
00:36:44,803 --> 00:36:48,273
♪ ♪
607
00:36:48,406 --> 00:36:50,275
I can't even describe
how much I would love
608
00:36:50,408 --> 00:36:52,110
to go home right now.
609
00:36:52,243 --> 00:36:53,411
♪ ♪
610
00:36:53,545 --> 00:36:55,046
Difficult thing about this
611
00:36:55,180 --> 00:36:58,883
is you don't know when the end
is, so you can't count down.
612
00:36:59,017 --> 00:37:00,351
♪ ♪
613
00:37:00,485 --> 00:37:02,454
I heard a quote one time.
614
00:37:02,587 --> 00:37:07,358
Said that "Money is what
we trade our lives for."
615
00:37:07,492 --> 00:37:09,594
That's pretty damn true.
616
00:37:09,728 --> 00:37:13,364
♪ ♪
617
00:37:13,498 --> 00:37:16,000
[bleep].
That little bastard.
618
00:37:17,268 --> 00:37:19,104
There's tracks right here.
619
00:37:19,237 --> 00:37:25,443
♪ ♪
620
00:37:44,696 --> 00:37:48,032
♪ ♪
621
00:37:48,166 --> 00:37:49,901
So here's his track.
622
00:37:50,034 --> 00:37:51,703
♪ ♪
623
00:37:51,836 --> 00:37:54,205
And there's my snare
right there.
624
00:37:54,339 --> 00:37:58,843
His track actually comes up
right to the snare
625
00:37:58,977 --> 00:38:00,545
and checks it.
626
00:38:00,678 --> 00:38:04,849
That is not good.
[bleep].
627
00:38:04,983 --> 00:38:06,551
♪ ♪
628
00:38:06,684 --> 00:38:10,522
I knew this was gonna happen,
I mean, it's inevitable.
629
00:38:10,655 --> 00:38:14,926
There's predators
out searching around.
630
00:38:15,059 --> 00:38:16,861
And if I catch a rabbit,
he's gonna find it.
631
00:38:16,995 --> 00:38:18,530
I'm wasting my time.
632
00:38:18,663 --> 00:38:24,969
♪ ♪
633
00:38:25,103 --> 00:38:27,071
[indistinct]
634
00:38:27,205 --> 00:38:29,240
And there's blood in the snow.
635
00:38:29,374 --> 00:38:32,410
♪ ♪
636
00:38:32,544 --> 00:38:33,845
[chuckles]
637
00:38:33,978 --> 00:38:36,381
♪ ♪
638
00:38:36,514 --> 00:38:38,016
This is a problem.
639
00:38:38,149 --> 00:38:40,852
♪ ♪
640
00:38:40,985 --> 00:38:43,922
[wind howling]
641
00:38:49,494 --> 00:38:51,863
He got a rabbit
out of this trap here.
642
00:38:51,996 --> 00:38:56,534
♪ ♪
643
00:38:56,668 --> 00:38:58,369
Can't trap him.
644
00:38:58,503 --> 00:39:02,273
I don't know what‐‐I don't know
what you're supposed to do
645
00:39:02,407 --> 00:39:05,710
when you can't do your‐‐
your hands are tied.
646
00:39:05,844 --> 00:39:07,779
It's‐‐[chuckles]
647
00:39:07,912 --> 00:39:09,080
♪ ♪
648
00:39:09,214 --> 00:39:10,915
He'll be back every night.
649
00:39:11,049 --> 00:39:12,150
♪ ♪
650
00:39:12,283 --> 00:39:13,818
Every day, he'll do this.
651
00:39:13,952 --> 00:39:15,220
♪ ♪
652
00:39:15,353 --> 00:39:19,257
Damn it, damn it, damn it.
653
00:39:19,390 --> 00:39:21,226
That's, uh...
654
00:39:21,359 --> 00:39:24,362
it's not good.
655
00:39:24,495 --> 00:39:25,463
Not good at all.
656
00:39:25,597 --> 00:39:27,232
♪ ♪
657
00:39:27,365 --> 00:39:29,901
It's deep into the season
658
00:39:30,001 --> 00:39:32,237
and I'm not eating enough
to keep my weight up.
659
00:39:32,370 --> 00:39:33,972
And so I know that I've got
660
00:39:34,105 --> 00:39:35,974
very limited time
to find food.
661
00:39:36,107 --> 00:39:37,642
So each one of those animals
662
00:39:37,775 --> 00:39:40,511
just becomes more
and more important to me.
663
00:39:40,645 --> 00:39:42,413
That's what I'm depending on.
664
00:39:42,547 --> 00:39:44,649
But that fisher's coming back
665
00:39:44,782 --> 00:39:47,018
on a regular basis
to get my rabbits,
666
00:39:47,151 --> 00:39:49,187
and there's nothing to be done
about it.
667
00:39:49,320 --> 00:39:52,824
The regulations say
that I can't shoot them.
668
00:39:52,957 --> 00:39:55,827
And that fisher may be
the reason
669
00:39:55,960 --> 00:39:57,395
that I have to go home.
670
00:39:57,528 --> 00:40:04,569
♪ ♪
671
00:40:24,622 --> 00:40:27,025
‐ Today is day 71.
672
00:40:29,260 --> 00:40:31,663
Happy Thanksgiving to you all.
673
00:40:33,064 --> 00:40:34,799
I'm here alone.
674
00:40:36,768 --> 00:40:40,538
Away from all that family
675
00:40:40,672 --> 00:40:43,975
and good times.
676
00:40:46,611 --> 00:40:48,980
Sure am thinking about 'em,
though.
677
00:40:51,516 --> 00:40:55,386
♪ ♪
678
00:40:55,520 --> 00:40:58,222
First thing on the list
is to get some water.
679
00:40:58,356 --> 00:41:01,459
♪ ♪
680
00:41:01,592 --> 00:41:05,430
This is gonna be icy
as [bleep].
681
00:41:05,563 --> 00:41:06,931
I gotta be really careful.
682
00:41:07,065 --> 00:41:10,268
♪ ♪
683
00:41:10,401 --> 00:41:13,271
How in the [bleep]
am I gonna do this?
684
00:41:13,404 --> 00:41:16,407
This looks like an ice slide.
685
00:41:18,576 --> 00:41:20,578
Whoa.
[bleep].
686
00:41:20,712 --> 00:41:21,946
[groans]
687
00:41:22,080 --> 00:41:23,781
♪ ♪
688
00:41:23,915 --> 00:41:25,283
This is [bleep] great.
689
00:41:25,416 --> 00:41:30,154
I love falling and slipping.
Thank you for that.
690
00:41:30,288 --> 00:41:31,990
That was really pleasant.
691
00:41:32,123 --> 00:41:34,459
♪ ♪
692
00:41:34,592 --> 00:41:36,594
Getting real sick of this!
693
00:41:36,728 --> 00:41:39,530
♪ ♪
694
00:41:39,664 --> 00:41:40,698
Come on.
695
00:41:40,832 --> 00:41:42,667
♪ ♪
696
00:41:42,800 --> 00:41:44,635
Oh‐ho.
697
00:41:44,769 --> 00:41:48,639
♪ ♪
698
00:41:48,773 --> 00:41:49,640
Good enough.
699
00:41:49,774 --> 00:41:52,076
♪ ♪
700
00:41:52,210 --> 00:41:54,779
Every day gets tougher
to be here,
701
00:41:54,912 --> 00:41:57,315
especially when you've got
a good life
702
00:41:57,448 --> 00:42:00,351
back at home to get to,
you know?
703
00:42:00,485 --> 00:42:02,086
Holy crap.
704
00:42:02,220 --> 00:42:04,622
Getting risky just
to get water.
705
00:42:04,756 --> 00:42:08,960
♪ ♪
706
00:42:09,093 --> 00:42:10,628
[sighs]
707
00:42:10,762 --> 00:42:17,735
♪ ♪
708
00:42:22,306 --> 00:42:23,741
Over the hill.
709
00:42:23,875 --> 00:42:26,644
Every time
I think about quitting
710
00:42:26,778 --> 00:42:30,348
and getting out of here,
I'm just like, "No, you can't.
711
00:42:30,481 --> 00:42:32,250
"You don't have a career
back home.
712
00:42:32,383 --> 00:42:35,053
"You don't have any way
to make money right now.
713
00:42:35,186 --> 00:42:37,188
"We're bringing little ones
into the world, man,
714
00:42:37,321 --> 00:42:40,124
and you need to do
better for them."
715
00:42:40,258 --> 00:42:42,060
Ooh, heart's racing.
716
00:42:45,029 --> 00:42:46,731
[sighs]
717
00:42:46,864 --> 00:42:50,134
My heart is beating hard
right now.
718
00:42:50,268 --> 00:42:52,870
♪ ♪
719
00:42:53,004 --> 00:42:55,206
I'm just feeling weird.
720
00:42:55,339 --> 00:42:59,277
It's not good.
It's really not good at all.
721
00:42:59,410 --> 00:43:01,679
♪ ♪
722
00:43:01,813 --> 00:43:04,582
I think I'm having heart
palpitations or something.
723
00:43:04,715 --> 00:43:06,050
♪ ♪
724
00:43:06,184 --> 00:43:09,187
Erin said, "If you start
worrying about your health
725
00:43:09,320 --> 00:43:11,789
"or anything like that,
call it.
726
00:43:11,923 --> 00:43:13,825
It's not worth it."
727
00:43:13,958 --> 00:43:15,660
She said, "I would much
rather have you
728
00:43:15,793 --> 00:43:18,162
than any amount of money."
729
00:43:18,296 --> 00:43:19,430
♪ ♪
730
00:43:19,564 --> 00:43:22,600
Weakness, hunger,
mental battles,
731
00:43:22,733 --> 00:43:24,302
they're all adding up.
732
00:43:24,435 --> 00:43:31,442
♪ ♪
733
00:43:33,644 --> 00:43:34,612
[sighs]
734
00:43:34,745 --> 00:43:37,415
I just feel so weak
and lethargic.
735
00:43:39,317 --> 00:43:42,053
My body feels like
it's falling apart.
736
00:43:48,860 --> 00:43:52,096
I'm sorry, Erin.
I'm really sorry.
737
00:44:01,339 --> 00:44:08,346
♪ ♪
738
00:44:21,959 --> 00:44:25,396
‐ I'm sorry, Erin.
I'm really sorry.
739
00:44:31,035 --> 00:44:31,936
[sniffles]
740
00:44:32,069 --> 00:44:34,205
You gave it
everything I got.
741
00:44:45,750 --> 00:44:47,151
[sniffles]
742
00:44:55,560 --> 00:44:58,429
[soft downbeat music]
743
00:44:58,563 --> 00:45:05,603
♪ ♪
744
00:45:06,504 --> 00:45:09,240
I know I can do
a few more days.
745
00:45:09,373 --> 00:45:12,076
♪ ♪
746
00:45:12,210 --> 00:45:14,312
The person I was before,
747
00:45:14,445 --> 00:45:17,114
I would have quit
when it got super hard.
748
00:45:17,248 --> 00:45:21,252
But the hunger, the cold,
the weather,
749
00:45:21,385 --> 00:45:25,189
I think it just has
hardened me
750
00:45:25,323 --> 00:45:29,060
like quenching a blade
after forging it.
751
00:45:29,193 --> 00:45:32,597
But the biggest factor
out here is the aloneness.
752
00:45:32,730 --> 00:45:36,067
That's what takes people out
more than anything else,
753
00:45:36,200 --> 00:45:38,369
but not me.
754
00:45:38,502 --> 00:45:39,971
♪ ♪
755
00:45:40,104 --> 00:45:43,241
I can keep pushing with mental
toughness and keep going.
756
00:45:43,374 --> 00:45:44,976
♪ ♪
757
00:45:45,109 --> 00:45:47,778
I wish I could be
with my family right now.
758
00:45:47,912 --> 00:45:49,180
♪ ♪
759
00:45:49,313 --> 00:45:51,682
Sitting down to have
a good feast.
760
00:45:51,816 --> 00:45:55,052
♪ ♪
761
00:45:55,186 --> 00:45:56,554
Still holding on.
762
00:45:56,687 --> 00:45:58,456
♪ ♪
763
00:45:58,589 --> 00:46:00,758
I hope you guys are having
a good Thanksgiving
764
00:46:00,891 --> 00:46:02,026
back in America.
765
00:46:02,159 --> 00:46:03,527
♪ ♪
766
00:46:03,661 --> 00:46:05,496
I hope that you're not
being bombarded
767
00:46:05,630 --> 00:46:08,466
with cold, windy storms.
768
00:46:13,137 --> 00:46:16,507
And, um...
769
00:46:16,641 --> 00:46:18,409
hopefully, I'll be back soon.
770
00:46:21,779 --> 00:46:24,649
[soft dramatic music]
771
00:46:24,782 --> 00:46:31,489
♪ ♪
772
00:46:37,094 --> 00:46:40,498
‐ [sighs]
Today...
773
00:46:43,501 --> 00:46:46,103
Already wanna tear up.
774
00:46:46,237 --> 00:46:48,339
Might shed a lot
of tears today.
775
00:46:49,640 --> 00:46:52,710
Um...
776
00:46:52,843 --> 00:46:54,512
[blows air]
Uh...
777
00:46:54,645 --> 00:46:56,514
[soft dramatic music]
778
00:46:56,647 --> 00:46:57,882
I'm not even gonna try to stop.
779
00:46:58,015 --> 00:47:00,451
That doesn't even do any good.
[sniffles]
780
00:47:00,584 --> 00:47:03,087
This is the first Thanksgiving
I've been away from Liz
781
00:47:03,220 --> 00:47:08,259
since we've been together,
which is 23 years.
782
00:47:08,392 --> 00:47:12,029
♪ ♪
783
00:47:12,163 --> 00:47:14,765
23 years,
she's been by my side.
784
00:47:14,899 --> 00:47:16,267
♪ ♪
785
00:47:16,400 --> 00:47:19,637
Oh, man.
786
00:47:19,770 --> 00:47:23,074
Days like today make me wanna
pick up that sat phone
787
00:47:23,207 --> 00:47:25,910
and say,
"Come and get me right now."
788
00:47:26,043 --> 00:47:29,313
♪ ♪
789
00:47:29,447 --> 00:47:30,648
We'll see.
790
00:47:30,781 --> 00:47:33,017
♪ ♪
791
00:47:33,150 --> 00:47:35,886
Liz and I have been together
since we were 17.
792
00:47:36,020 --> 00:47:39,890
She's always been there.
793
00:47:40,024 --> 00:47:42,460
She has been a constant
in my life.
794
00:47:42,593 --> 00:47:44,495
♪ ♪
795
00:47:44,628 --> 00:47:49,900
And when something or someone
is a constant in your life,
796
00:47:50,000 --> 00:47:52,737
you take it for granted.
797
00:47:52,870 --> 00:47:55,239
Think about your hand,
your right hand‐‐
798
00:47:55,373 --> 00:47:57,174
how often do you look
at your right hand
799
00:47:57,308 --> 00:47:58,376
and you say, "You know what?
800
00:47:58,509 --> 00:48:01,145
I am so grateful
I have this right hand"?
801
00:48:01,278 --> 00:48:02,713
Never, you don't ever do that.
802
00:48:02,847 --> 00:48:04,115
It's just always been there
803
00:48:04,248 --> 00:48:07,685
and you assume it always
will be until it's not.
804
00:48:07,818 --> 00:48:09,387
♪ ♪
805
00:48:09,520 --> 00:48:11,922
And then you think
how good you had it
806
00:48:12,056 --> 00:48:13,290
when you had that right hand.
807
00:48:13,424 --> 00:48:15,493
It's photo time.
808
00:48:15,626 --> 00:48:17,294
I brought a family photo
with me
809
00:48:17,428 --> 00:48:20,698
and I refrained
from looking at it.
810
00:48:20,831 --> 00:48:24,835
But at this point,
I don't wanna be here.
811
00:48:24,969 --> 00:48:27,438
I want to be with my family
812
00:48:27,571 --> 00:48:30,408
because that is what
I am thankful for.
813
00:48:30,541 --> 00:48:32,009
[exhales deeply]
814
00:48:32,143 --> 00:48:33,144
[sniffles]
815
00:48:33,277 --> 00:48:39,950
♪ ♪
816
00:48:40,084 --> 00:48:42,486
[exhales deeply]
817
00:48:42,620 --> 00:48:46,123
[sighs and sniffles]
818
00:48:47,591 --> 00:48:50,227
My boy, they ain't never
seen me shed a tear.
819
00:48:54,598 --> 00:48:57,435
[soft tense music]
820
00:48:57,568 --> 00:48:59,804
One of the things
that the total isolation
821
00:48:59,937 --> 00:49:03,607
has brought into focus
for me is...
822
00:49:03,741 --> 00:49:05,109
♪ ♪
823
00:49:05,242 --> 00:49:08,379
How incredibly lucky I am
824
00:49:08,512 --> 00:49:12,883
to have her and those two boys.
825
00:49:13,017 --> 00:49:16,620
I would die for any one of them
in a heartbeat.
826
00:49:16,754 --> 00:49:23,561
♪ ♪
827
00:49:23,694 --> 00:49:24,862
[sighs]
828
00:49:24,995 --> 00:49:28,165
I am so ready to get home
and to see all of them.
829
00:49:28,299 --> 00:49:31,168
I'm so ready to hug my kids
and to kiss my wife,
830
00:49:31,302 --> 00:49:34,104
and to wake up in the morning
with her beside me.
831
00:49:34,238 --> 00:49:41,078
♪ ♪
832
00:49:41,212 --> 00:49:43,781
I really...
833
00:49:43,914 --> 00:49:45,216
I really wanna be home.
834
00:49:45,349 --> 00:49:49,353
♪ ♪
835
00:49:54,525 --> 00:49:57,394
[soft tense music]
836
00:49:57,528 --> 00:50:04,001
♪ ♪
837
00:50:10,474 --> 00:50:13,511
[dramatic music]
838
00:50:13,644 --> 00:50:20,651
♪ ♪
839
00:50:29,960 --> 00:50:33,564
‐ How's it going?
[chuckles]
840
00:50:35,566 --> 00:50:39,670
Yep, it's that time.
841
00:50:39,803 --> 00:50:42,806
Just got to the end, man.
842
00:50:42,940 --> 00:50:44,375
The last couple of days,
843
00:50:44,508 --> 00:50:46,443
my heart's been pounding
super hard
844
00:50:46,577 --> 00:50:50,781
and breathing has been
a little labored,
845
00:50:50,915 --> 00:50:54,251
and I reached the point where
846
00:50:54,385 --> 00:50:56,086
I just felt that I couldn't do
it anymore.
847
00:50:56,220 --> 00:50:58,522
[soft dramatic music]
848
00:50:58,656 --> 00:51:01,292
I'm feeling emotional
about leaving.
849
00:51:01,425 --> 00:51:03,694
[sniffles]
I didn't want to‐‐
850
00:51:03,827 --> 00:51:05,095
I didn't wanna quit.
851
00:51:05,229 --> 00:51:07,598
♪ ♪
852
00:51:07,731 --> 00:51:11,135
But I'm proud
of the cabin I built.
853
00:51:11,268 --> 00:51:14,572
Proud of the stuff I made,
and I'm proud
854
00:51:14,705 --> 00:51:19,176
that I kept fighting through
all the failures.
855
00:51:19,310 --> 00:51:22,846
My lady has been going
through pregnancy by herself
856
00:51:22,980 --> 00:51:25,282
while I was out here.
857
00:51:25,416 --> 00:51:29,920
I'm definitely ready
to go back home,
858
00:51:30,054 --> 00:51:31,522
but it's still hard.
859
00:51:31,655 --> 00:51:34,058
♪ ♪
860
00:51:34,191 --> 00:51:36,927
When I set out
on this adventure,
861
00:51:37,061 --> 00:51:38,862
I just knew
I was gonna come out
862
00:51:38,996 --> 00:51:42,866
and try as hard as I could
to stay as long as I could‐‐
863
00:51:43,000 --> 00:51:45,202
[sniffles]
And I did that.
864
00:51:45,336 --> 00:51:48,439
It's really hard
to make it 73 days.
865
00:51:48,572 --> 00:51:51,775
I'm leaving here
with my head high.
866
00:51:51,909 --> 00:51:57,047
I learned a lot about pushing
past difficult times here,
867
00:51:57,181 --> 00:51:59,950
mentally and physically.
868
00:52:00,150 --> 00:52:03,754
And I leave here
a more fulfilled person,
869
00:52:03,887 --> 00:52:06,256
a more understanding person.
870
00:52:06,390 --> 00:52:09,393
I know my family is gonna be
proud of how I did,
871
00:52:09,526 --> 00:52:13,497
even though things didn't work
out as I wanted them to.
872
00:52:13,631 --> 00:52:14,965
♪ ♪
873
00:52:15,099 --> 00:52:17,534
I've always lived hand
to mouth pretty much
874
00:52:17,668 --> 00:52:21,639
and it would have been
nice to win.
875
00:52:21,772 --> 00:52:25,876
But I'm just gonna have
to work harder.
876
00:52:26,010 --> 00:52:29,246
I'll figure out raising
those two girls.
877
00:52:29,380 --> 00:52:34,218
The biggest win I have is
waiting back at home for me.
878
00:52:34,351 --> 00:52:38,188
I wanna be a better man
than I've ever been.
879
00:52:38,322 --> 00:52:41,125
I can't wait to show Erin.
880
00:52:41,258 --> 00:52:46,997
♪ ♪
881
00:52:47,131 --> 00:52:49,967
[energetic dramatic music]
882
00:52:50,100 --> 00:52:57,107
♪ ♪
883
00:53:01,311 --> 00:53:04,181
[birds singing]
884
00:53:04,314 --> 00:53:05,849
♪ ♪
885
00:53:07,184 --> 00:53:08,519
‐ [sighs]
886
00:53:11,455 --> 00:53:15,492
Thank you for the sunshine.
887
00:53:19,163 --> 00:53:22,633
Little sun on your face sure
does wonders for the soul.
888
00:53:24,168 --> 00:53:28,038
I'd just love to have Liz
and the boys here right now.
889
00:53:28,172 --> 00:53:31,508
This would be a wonderful day
just to spend fishing
890
00:53:31,642 --> 00:53:34,278
and turning over rocks.
891
00:53:34,411 --> 00:53:35,946
Just exploring.
892
00:53:38,482 --> 00:53:42,786
More days like this.
This is exactly what we need.
893
00:53:48,692 --> 00:53:50,561
[soft dramatic music]
894
00:53:50,694 --> 00:53:52,730
♪ ♪
895
00:53:52,863 --> 00:53:55,132
They're coming by today
for health check
896
00:53:55,265 --> 00:53:56,734
and all that stuff,
897
00:53:56,867 --> 00:53:57,768
so it's a good thing
it warmed up
898
00:53:57,901 --> 00:53:58,936
'cause I wasn't
looking forward
899
00:53:59,069 --> 00:54:01,405
to stripping down
to my skivvies.
900
00:54:01,538 --> 00:54:05,342
♪ ♪
901
00:54:05,476 --> 00:54:08,779
Sit in the sun
on my half‐finished box.
902
00:54:08,912 --> 00:54:10,547
♪ ♪
903
00:54:10,681 --> 00:54:11,915
[sighs]
904
00:54:12,049 --> 00:54:19,056
♪ ♪
905
00:54:19,923 --> 00:54:22,392
It's just a waiting game.
906
00:54:22,526 --> 00:54:26,663
♪ ♪
907
00:54:30,634 --> 00:54:33,804
"Alone," they say,
"You should go do that.
908
00:54:33,937 --> 00:54:37,074
Because at the end, there
may be a paycheck that's fat."
909
00:54:41,178 --> 00:54:45,349
Surreal at first,
reality soon sets in.
910
00:54:45,482 --> 00:54:48,852
You'd best find lots of food
before you get too thin.
911
00:54:48,986 --> 00:54:52,623
♪ ♪
912
00:54:52,756 --> 00:54:56,660
Day after day,
the time grinds by,
913
00:54:56,794 --> 00:54:59,963
and about 50 days in,
you begin to wonder why.
914
00:55:00,164 --> 00:55:01,698
♪ ♪
915
00:55:01,832 --> 00:55:04,201
You felt it was a good idea
to come to this place...
916
00:55:04,334 --> 00:55:05,536
♪ ♪
917
00:55:05,669 --> 00:55:10,073
As the time grinds by
and the sun sets the pace.
918
00:55:10,207 --> 00:55:13,644
♪ ♪
919
00:55:13,777 --> 00:55:16,480
But the sun on your face
and a hare in the pot
920
00:55:16,613 --> 00:55:20,450
makes you happy
to have filled this spot.
921
00:55:20,584 --> 00:55:23,420
It won't be long now
before I'll be headed home...
922
00:55:23,554 --> 00:55:25,556
♪ ♪
923
00:55:25,689 --> 00:55:27,591
And it will be quite some time
924
00:55:27,724 --> 00:55:30,060
before I feel the need
to be alone.
925
00:55:30,194 --> 00:55:31,261
♪ ♪
926
00:55:31,395 --> 00:55:34,164
[suspenseful dramatic music]
927
00:55:34,298 --> 00:55:35,232
♪ ♪
928
00:55:35,365 --> 00:55:36,533
‐ Clay.
‐ Hello.
929
00:55:36,667 --> 00:55:43,607
♪ ♪
930
00:55:45,509 --> 00:55:46,977
‐ And turn, please.
931
00:55:47,110 --> 00:55:48,946
♪ ♪
932
00:55:49,079 --> 00:55:50,714
Okay.
Thanks.
933
00:55:50,848 --> 00:55:53,417
♪ ♪
934
00:55:53,550 --> 00:55:56,086
How are you feeling?
935
00:55:56,220 --> 00:55:58,255
‐ I mean, it's...
936
00:55:58,388 --> 00:56:00,791
it's...
937
00:56:00,924 --> 00:56:02,793
it's an amazing place.
It's‐‐it's‐‐
938
00:56:02,926 --> 00:56:04,795
the scenery is beautiful.
939
00:56:04,928 --> 00:56:08,332
The weather is questionable.
Um...
940
00:56:08,465 --> 00:56:11,501
but...
941
00:56:11,635 --> 00:56:14,771
I'm...
942
00:56:14,905 --> 00:56:19,977
closing in on 100 days
of being away from my family.
943
00:56:20,110 --> 00:56:24,681
And that's not‐‐that's not fun.
944
00:56:24,815 --> 00:56:27,718
You know,
I can handle the hunger.
945
00:56:27,851 --> 00:56:32,155
I can handle the physical
challenges, you know,
946
00:56:32,289 --> 00:56:37,628
but the toughest part
has always been...
947
00:56:37,761 --> 00:56:41,365
not a word from them.
948
00:56:41,498 --> 00:56:43,200
Nothing.
949
00:56:43,333 --> 00:56:45,736
‐ How many days do you think
you have left in you?
950
00:56:45,869 --> 00:56:47,471
♪ ♪
951
00:56:47,604 --> 00:56:50,507
‐ Depends on how many rabbits
and grouse I can catch.
952
00:56:50,641 --> 00:56:54,811
I can make it to 90,
for certain.
953
00:56:54,945 --> 00:56:58,916
And then I can
make it beyond that, uh...
954
00:56:59,049 --> 00:57:02,219
♪ ♪
955
00:57:02,352 --> 00:57:04,755
I just don't know how far.
956
00:57:04,888 --> 00:57:09,526
‐ Well, as it turns out...
957
00:57:09,660 --> 00:57:11,061
you're not going to have
to do any of that.
958
00:57:18,368 --> 00:57:20,637
♪ ♪
959
00:57:20,771 --> 00:57:23,974
It's time to go home, mate.
960
00:57:24,107 --> 00:57:27,144
You've outlasted everyone.
‐ Oh, [bleep].
961
00:57:27,277 --> 00:57:30,480
I'm coming home, baby.
Oh, get the coffee ready.
962
00:57:30,614 --> 00:57:34,017
[soft upbeat music]
963
00:57:34,151 --> 00:57:35,252
[bleep].
964
00:57:35,385 --> 00:57:36,620
♪ ♪
965
00:57:36,753 --> 00:57:38,889
Oh, [bleep].
966
00:57:39,022 --> 00:57:43,994
♪ ♪
967
00:57:44,127 --> 00:57:47,497
Oh, boys‐‐
[sniffles]
968
00:57:47,631 --> 00:57:48,699
y'all get ready
969
00:57:48,832 --> 00:57:50,267
'cause we got lots
of adventures to go on
970
00:57:50,400 --> 00:57:51,401
when I get back.
971
00:57:51,535 --> 00:57:52,936
♪ ♪
972
00:57:53,070 --> 00:57:55,639
[exhales deeply and chuckles]
973
00:57:55,772 --> 00:57:57,341
Oh.
974
00:57:57,474 --> 00:58:03,547
♪ ♪
975
00:58:03,680 --> 00:58:05,048
[sniffles]
976
00:58:05,182 --> 00:58:06,984
♪ ♪
977
00:58:07,117 --> 00:58:08,752
[chuckles]
978
00:58:08,885 --> 00:58:10,187
[sighs]
979
00:58:10,320 --> 00:58:12,422
♪ ♪
980
00:58:12,556 --> 00:58:15,192
I'm thankful for every
single animal, every fish,
981
00:58:15,325 --> 00:58:19,997
every mushroom and berry
that I found on this place.
982
00:58:20,130 --> 00:58:22,699
I'm thankful for all of that.
They got me to this point.
983
00:58:22,833 --> 00:58:26,203
They got me through,
but it doesn't matter.
984
00:58:26,336 --> 00:58:28,672
I just wanna go home.
I don't care.
985
00:58:28,805 --> 00:58:30,007
♪ ♪
986
00:58:30,140 --> 00:58:32,676
I mean, like I said,
I'm thankful for all of it,
987
00:58:32,809 --> 00:58:35,746
but I'm ready to go.
988
00:58:35,879 --> 00:58:38,248
I'm ready to see my kids
and my wife.
989
00:58:38,382 --> 00:58:39,249
♪ ♪
990
00:58:39,383 --> 00:58:41,785
I love you.
991
00:58:41,918 --> 00:58:43,754
More than anything.
[sniffles]
992
00:58:43,887 --> 00:58:49,126
♪ ♪
993
00:58:49,259 --> 00:58:52,262
[phone line trilling]
994
00:58:53,096 --> 00:58:54,031
Hey, baby.
995
00:58:54,164 --> 00:58:56,366
‐ Oh, my God.
‐ I love you.
996
00:58:56,500 --> 00:58:59,403
‐ Oh, I love you so much.
I've missed you so much.
997
00:58:59,536 --> 00:59:02,973
‐ [chuckles]
998
00:59:03,106 --> 00:59:04,641
I‐‐
999
00:59:04,775 --> 00:59:08,211
I'm coming home.
I'm the last one here.
1000
00:59:08,345 --> 00:59:09,780
‐ Oh, my God, Clay.
1001
00:59:09,913 --> 00:59:12,783
‐ Do you got the‐‐do you got
the boys there with you?
1002
00:59:12,916 --> 00:59:14,518
‐ They're here.
1003
00:59:14,651 --> 00:59:16,553
‐ Guess what?
I'm coming home to see you.
1004
00:59:16,686 --> 00:59:20,891
I'm the last one.
[laughter]
1005
00:59:21,024 --> 00:59:23,360
I have missed you.
1006
00:59:23,493 --> 00:59:24,895
I've thought about both of you
1007
00:59:25,028 --> 00:59:28,632
every single day
since I've been out here.
1008
00:59:28,765 --> 00:59:31,968
I'm so ready to be home
to see you.
1009
00:59:32,102 --> 00:59:32,969
Love you.
1010
00:59:33,103 --> 00:59:35,772
♪ ♪
1011
00:59:35,906 --> 00:59:37,407
This is the hardest thing
I've ever done,
1012
00:59:37,541 --> 00:59:41,378
but for reasons
I didn't expect.
1013
00:59:41,511 --> 00:59:44,514
I expected it to be
a physical challenge,
1014
00:59:44,648 --> 00:59:46,516
I expected it to be
1015
00:59:46,650 --> 00:59:50,253
a test of
1016
00:59:50,387 --> 00:59:53,490
my skills,
1017
00:59:53,623 --> 00:59:57,194
but it's a test of will.
1018
00:59:57,327 --> 01:00:01,465
It's a test of fortitude,
1019
01:00:01,598 --> 01:00:03,800
of resolve.
1020
01:00:03,934 --> 01:00:07,471
It was an emotional challenge
for me.
1021
01:00:07,604 --> 01:00:10,407
[dramatic music]
1022
01:00:10,540 --> 01:00:17,547
♪ ♪
1023
01:00:22,986 --> 01:00:26,223
This experience changed me
as a person.
1024
01:00:26,356 --> 01:00:29,126
♪ ♪
1025
01:00:29,259 --> 01:00:34,131
When you grind against the
reality of having to be there
1026
01:00:34,264 --> 01:00:36,600
with not enough to eat
1027
01:00:36,733 --> 01:00:39,202
and in total isolation
from your family,
1028
01:00:39,336 --> 01:00:41,404
that stuff exposes you.
1029
01:00:41,538 --> 01:00:44,241
♪ ♪
1030
01:00:44,374 --> 01:00:45,842
It grinds away the facade,
1031
01:00:45,976 --> 01:00:48,145
the varnish
that you put on yourself,
1032
01:00:48,278 --> 01:00:53,350
and to have gone through it
and come out the other side,
1033
01:00:53,483 --> 01:00:56,386
I feel a better person.
1034
01:00:56,520 --> 01:01:00,790
That's the real prize,
1035
01:01:00,924 --> 01:01:04,261
because that will be with me
for the rest of my life.
1036
01:01:04,394 --> 01:01:08,698
That will be one of the most
valuable things
1037
01:01:08,832 --> 01:01:10,834
that I carry away from here‐‐
1038
01:01:10,967 --> 01:01:15,338
is knowing in my bones...
1039
01:01:15,472 --> 01:01:16,673
♪ ♪
1040
01:01:16,806 --> 01:01:20,010
A much deeper appreciation
for my family.
1041
01:01:20,143 --> 01:01:27,150
♪ ♪