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[dramatic music]
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♪ ♪
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‐ I don't plan to be here
for three weeks.
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I plan to be here
for three months.
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But I want a nice home
in which to live.
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Brilliant.
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‐ What am I gonna find out
about myself?
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That's the biggest thing,
is to see if I am the man
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that I think I am.
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Oh, yeah. That is a bull trout.
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‐ My boat is a high risk.
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This could be a decision
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that costs me
the whole experience.
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It's tippy as hell.
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Hey, bear!
[bear growls]
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‐ If I don't succeed,
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have I just put
a speed bump in life?
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Come on! Come on!
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[laughing]
Yeah!
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Unbelievable!
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♪ ♪
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narrator: In "Alone's"
most terrifying location yet,
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ten participants face
the deadliest predator
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in North America...
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‐ There here is, right there.
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‐ Grizzly bears. Hey, bear!
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‐ There's a lot
of grizzly here.
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I'm gonna have to live
with them.
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‐ Go on! Get!
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‐ Every second
we're on the land,
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we're being hunted.
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‐ Holy [bleep], mountain lion.
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‐ He's circling
around my shelter.
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narrator:
Bone‐chilling cold...
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‐ Winter is coming.
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‐ You combine the wind
with the rain and the cold,
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this place could make
the Arctic look easy.
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‐ Oh, [bleep].
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narrator:
And complete isolation.
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‐ You cannot hide
from yourself,
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mentally and emotionally.
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‐ Ahh!
‐ There's no place to go.
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‐ I am suffering
from loneliness.
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narrator: Who will survive?
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‐ Yes! Yes!
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‐ This could be the end.
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‐ I don't want to tap,
but I don't want to die either.
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‐ You have to suffer
before you can succeed.
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‐ [retches]
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narrator:
The last one standing wins.
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‐ At what point
do I touch the button?
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♪ ♪
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‐ Hmm, I'm gonna set that
over here
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'cause that'll definitely dry.
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Smoking the underwear
might not be all bad.
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One more try
at warming my butt up,
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and then I'll have
my cup of tea.
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All right.
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It's mostly my butt
that's cold.
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♪ ♪
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Today is‐‐it's a windy day.
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It's not a day
to think about fishing,
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so we will get back
to working on the shelter.
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Cool, so I guess the best
analogy for this, then,
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is that we've basically
framed the house,
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and now we get to shingle.
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We're gonna go around
and collect
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all of the big sheets of bark
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that are just lying
on the forest floor.
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All over is this fir.
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When it dies, it leaves
these big huge sheets of bark,
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which is pretty awesome.
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So when I say shingle,
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this is what I mean.
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‐ The one limitation that I've
probably most often run into
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in sort of these long‐term
living situations
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would be my size,
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and it is an advantage
in the sense that, you know,
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you can function on a fairly
low number of calories,
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lower than perhaps
bigger people require.
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However, it does limit
how much you can carry,
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how many trips you need to do.
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You know,
you need to do five trips
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when someone else can do two.
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It limits how much
physical activity
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you can really knock out
in a day.
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These shingles
will have to overlap,
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but we start at the bottom
and go all the way around,
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and then we do
another layer halfway up,
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and then we put pine duff on
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to fill in
any of the fragments,
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provides a little bit
of insulation.
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There's so many reasons
I want to make a pit house.
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They are incredibly efficient
at keeping in heat,
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and I cannot play
fattest‐man‐wins game.
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♪ ♪
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I need a house where,
when I'm in it,
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no extra calories
are being burned
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because if you have
a lot of wind on your fire,
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it just eats through firewood.
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Oof.
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All right,
so if I sit on the stair,
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you can sort of see
the skylight and the interior.
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And then this is
our next big project:
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the fireplace and chimney.
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That's definitely in the cards,
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but that is a bloody fantastic
day's work.
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That's what that is.
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♪ ♪
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‐ Here it comes.
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♪ ♪
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Lovely.
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♪ ♪
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Get some vitamin D released
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in this tiny patch of skin.
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♪ ♪
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It's amazing.
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♪ ♪
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I feel like I'm back in Hawaii,
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yet a lot colder and windier.
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♪ ♪
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It's been five days since
I've had any meat at all,
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and I want to fish,
but the wind is relentless.
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I can't get my set lines
to stay out
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because the waves just
push them right back to shore.
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I need to get
my line out further,
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so I have an idea for a pier.
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The longest driftwoods
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that I see on my beach
are about 30 feet,
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so my plan is to build
something where I can
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just walk out at least 25 feet
and drop a line.
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That offers me potential
in bad weather.
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I can go out
on my pier anytime,
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and I need deep water
come winter
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because the fish
are gonna push off.
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They're not gonna stay
in the shallows.
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♪ ♪
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Very nice.
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Nice for a pier‐sized peg.
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♪ ♪
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I want to utilize engineering
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instead of just building
with logs
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and trying to tie that
together with cordage,
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so I want to put together
kind of a dovetail peg system.
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♪ ♪
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One done! I like it.
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Next!
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[as Arnold Schwarzenegger]
Get to the chopper!
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[shouts as Arnold]
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My son does a better
Arnold impression.
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♪ ♪
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I have a wonderful family
of seven,
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my wife and five kids.
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When I'm successful
at this challenge
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and I get the money,
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we can set sail, literally.
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My wife has the idea
that we'll buy a boat
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and we'll hit the seas.
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That would be awesome.
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♪ ♪
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I reckon that's deep enough
to catch a fish.
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All right.
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I'll give you one guess
which way the wind's blowing.
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Let's straighten it out.
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Nope.
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It just comes right off
of those snow‐covered
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glacier mountains.
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I'm debating on waiting
another day for the winds
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and waves to calm down
to set this.
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That's the logical thing to do.
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♪ ♪
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‐ Can you see it behind me,
over my shoulder?
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I can't tell,
but it's back there.
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Right about here.
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Maybe here? No. Here.
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You can see my boat
in the background.
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Sweetness.
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♪ ♪
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I've been working
on building a boat.
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It's floating great,
seems pretty solid,
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but it's not stable.
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It's very tippy,
so I built outriggers
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so I have something
coming off the boat
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that gives stability.
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So it's another point
of contact on the water,
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so if you lean one way
or lean the other,
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you have now multiple holds
touching the water,
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and they give you kickback,
and they hold you up.
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All right.
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You ready
for the finished product?
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♪ ♪
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I built these outriggers
just like I built the boat,
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so I have a frame,
a fir frame,
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and I have ribs that are
of alder, green alder,
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and thankfully,
I had scrap tarp material
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to cover it with.
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Let's go get on the water.
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♪ ♪
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I think boats are a high‐value
and a high‐risk entity.
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It is very dangerous
to be out here,
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but if this works
and it's dependable and safe,
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I think
it's gonna give me an edge
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because I can get to places
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where the fish are migrating
or moving through,
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so I'm not just limited
to the bank.
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Oh!
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♪ ♪
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Yeah!
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♪ ♪
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We're stable.
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We're cruising.
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Yes, yes, yes.
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♪ ♪
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Whoo!
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♪ ♪
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Yes, yes, yes, yes.
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♪ ♪
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Big success.
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Love it.
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♪ ♪
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That was awesome.
I'm gonna enjoy this moment.
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I haven't showered
since I've been out here.
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I want to get in the water
so bad and clean myself.
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♪ ♪
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I love this lifestyle,
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living by the Earth
and the land.
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Oof!
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The pride and the fulfillment
when things work,
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when your shelter works,
when your boat works,
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when your bow drill works.
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♪ ♪
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It gives you so much joy,
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and I want to keep living it.
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Whoo!
[laughs]
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♪ ♪
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Oh, that's refreshing.
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♪ ♪
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Oh.
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Holy, [bleep].
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There's a grizz
walking down the beach.
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♪ ♪
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Hey, bear! No!
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[dramatic music]
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♪ ♪
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‐ Hey, bear!
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♪ ♪
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Hey, bear!
[clapping]
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Hey!
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He hasn't even stopped.
He's still walking this way.
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♪ ♪
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Hey, bear! No!
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♪ ♪
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I can't believe
I'm [bleep] naked,
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and a bear is freaking
right there.
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I'm gonna have fire
some bangers.
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[popping]
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♪ ♪
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Nothing.
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It's not good.
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Hey, bear! No!
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♪ ♪
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Man, I just got my boat done,
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and I don't want him
to shred it.
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♪ ♪
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Hey, bear!
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00:13:53,633 --> 00:13:54,701
No!
271
00:13:54,834 --> 00:13:57,503
♪ ♪
272
00:13:57,637 --> 00:13:58,571
No!
273
00:13:58,705 --> 00:14:03,676
♪ ♪
274
00:14:03,810 --> 00:14:06,446
[bleep]. He's coming.
275
00:14:06,579 --> 00:14:09,882
[popping]
276
00:14:10,016 --> 00:14:16,222
♪ ♪
277
00:14:16,356 --> 00:14:19,559
Come on.
278
00:14:19,692 --> 00:14:20,927
Get out of here.
279
00:14:21,060 --> 00:14:22,762
♪ ♪
280
00:14:22,895 --> 00:14:24,430
Hey, bear! No!
281
00:14:24,564 --> 00:14:29,902
♪ ♪
282
00:14:30,036 --> 00:14:32,305
Hey, bear!
283
00:14:32,438 --> 00:14:33,873
I'm over here!
284
00:14:34,006 --> 00:14:37,043
[claps]
285
00:14:37,176 --> 00:14:39,245
Nothing I seem to do
seems to scare him off.
286
00:14:39,379 --> 00:14:41,581
♪ ♪
287
00:14:41,714 --> 00:14:43,015
Hey, bear!
288
00:14:43,149 --> 00:14:45,785
[clapping]
289
00:14:45,918 --> 00:14:47,019
♪ ♪
290
00:14:47,153 --> 00:14:48,388
Hey, bear!
291
00:14:48,521 --> 00:14:50,390
♪ ♪
292
00:14:50,523 --> 00:14:52,325
Ah, [bleep]! Hey!
293
00:14:52,458 --> 00:14:53,993
[claps]
294
00:14:54,127 --> 00:14:56,295
♪ ♪
295
00:14:56,429 --> 00:14:59,065
Hey, bear!
296
00:14:59,198 --> 00:15:00,700
Hello!
297
00:15:00,833 --> 00:15:02,435
♪ ♪
298
00:15:02,568 --> 00:15:06,072
[popping]
299
00:15:14,781 --> 00:15:16,449
I think he's out of here.
300
00:15:18,484 --> 00:15:21,721
Holy [bleep]. That was insane.
301
00:15:23,956 --> 00:15:27,660
I need to get clothes on.
302
00:15:27,794 --> 00:15:34,801
♪ ♪
303
00:15:42,041 --> 00:15:44,710
The bear encounter today
definitely got me
304
00:15:44,844 --> 00:15:46,379
taking it
a little more seriously.
305
00:15:46,512 --> 00:15:47,880
♪ ♪
306
00:15:48,014 --> 00:15:51,818
He didn't really care about me
yelling, throwing rocks.
307
00:15:51,951 --> 00:15:54,287
Even the bear bangers,
he was pretty indifferent.
308
00:15:55,621 --> 00:15:59,125
I'm in his territory,
and I'm the foreigner here,
309
00:15:59,258 --> 00:16:01,294
and he just put me
in my place.
310
00:16:01,427 --> 00:16:04,130
Literally, if it decided
for some reason‐‐
311
00:16:04,263 --> 00:16:06,199
it was hungry,
it was stressed,
312
00:16:06,332 --> 00:16:07,567
it was distressed‐‐
313
00:16:07,700 --> 00:16:09,001
there's nothing stopping it.
314
00:16:09,135 --> 00:16:10,937
If it wanted to
at that moment,
315
00:16:11,070 --> 00:16:12,605
your life is gone.
316
00:16:14,073 --> 00:16:21,080
♪ ♪
317
00:16:33,893 --> 00:16:35,094
‐ [sighs]
318
00:16:41,367 --> 00:16:44,470
No fish this morning,
but luckily,
319
00:16:44,604 --> 00:16:47,607
I've still got
plenty of smoked trout.
320
00:17:01,153 --> 00:17:04,724
Just look at that.
321
00:17:04,857 --> 00:17:07,026
All these nice, thin strips.
322
00:17:07,159 --> 00:17:09,695
It is so unbelievably good.
323
00:17:15,768 --> 00:17:18,371
It doesn't need any seasoning
or anything.
324
00:17:21,474 --> 00:17:27,713
♪ ♪
325
00:17:27,847 --> 00:17:32,552
I've never wired together
a stick door before.
326
00:17:33,719 --> 00:17:36,622
So it's all a little new to me.
327
00:17:36,756 --> 00:17:39,158
♪ ♪
328
00:17:39,292 --> 00:17:42,495
I've got a real cabin.
I want a real door.
329
00:17:42,628 --> 00:17:45,097
Psychologically,
I don't want to feel like
330
00:17:45,231 --> 00:17:47,066
I'm on a camping trip.
331
00:17:47,199 --> 00:17:48,734
Oh, yeah.
332
00:17:48,868 --> 00:17:51,103
I want someplace
that feels like home,
333
00:17:51,237 --> 00:17:53,906
something that has
permanence to it.
334
00:17:54,040 --> 00:17:56,008
I just feel like
it's gonna help me
335
00:17:56,142 --> 00:17:59,111
stick around long‐term.
336
00:17:59,245 --> 00:18:03,950
Now I need to make some hinges
for the wall,
337
00:18:04,083 --> 00:18:05,885
which is not easy considering
338
00:18:06,018 --> 00:18:08,821
I don't have any way
to drill a hole,
339
00:18:08,955 --> 00:18:12,158
so I'm going to get
creative with that.
340
00:18:12,291 --> 00:18:14,093
♪ ♪
341
00:18:14,226 --> 00:18:18,064
In typical fashion,
I had not preplanned anything.
342
00:18:18,197 --> 00:18:20,366
I just know I want
a door on hinges.
343
00:18:20,499 --> 00:18:21,867
♪ ♪
344
00:18:21,968 --> 00:18:26,272
Then I realized
that I could use my saw
345
00:18:26,405 --> 00:18:27,473
to cut a notch
346
00:18:27,607 --> 00:18:29,709
and continually widen
that notch
347
00:18:29,842 --> 00:18:31,944
to create
almost, like, a hole,
348
00:18:32,078 --> 00:18:35,581
but it would work for a hinge.
349
00:18:35,715 --> 00:18:37,216
It's like that?
350
00:18:44,023 --> 00:18:45,891
I was able to find
some alder branches around
351
00:18:46,025 --> 00:18:49,829
that have 90‐degree bends
that I wired onto the door.
352
00:18:49,962 --> 00:18:52,798
Alder is very strong
for its size,
353
00:18:52,932 --> 00:18:54,934
and it has a little bit
of flex to it,
354
00:18:55,034 --> 00:18:56,802
so it's not going to break.
355
00:18:56,936 --> 00:18:58,738
♪ ♪
356
00:18:58,871 --> 00:19:00,973
It's not the most elegant...
357
00:19:03,976 --> 00:19:06,779
But I have a door.
358
00:19:06,912 --> 00:19:08,948
As I'm putting
all this together,
359
00:19:09,081 --> 00:19:11,117
I'm constantly thinking, like,
360
00:19:11,250 --> 00:19:13,619
"What if my wife
was out here?"
361
00:19:13,753 --> 00:19:15,354
Well, she would want it
neat and clean,
362
00:19:15,488 --> 00:19:17,723
and she would want a place
to hang things.
363
00:19:17,857 --> 00:19:19,258
She would want something nice.
364
00:19:19,392 --> 00:19:20,726
♪ ♪
365
00:19:20,860 --> 00:19:23,029
All right.
I'm gonna make a door latch.
366
00:19:23,162 --> 00:19:25,731
♪ ♪
367
00:19:25,865 --> 00:19:28,134
I'm thinking
I can make a latch
368
00:19:28,267 --> 00:19:32,304
that will go in and turn
and lock behind the logs.
369
00:19:32,438 --> 00:19:39,111
♪ ♪
370
00:19:39,245 --> 00:19:41,347
Yeah.
371
00:19:41,480 --> 00:19:42,581
There we go.
372
00:19:45,184 --> 00:19:47,420
Did I spend way too long on it?
373
00:19:47,553 --> 00:19:50,423
Absolutely I did,
but here is my door.
374
00:19:52,591 --> 00:19:54,627
Knock, knock. Can I come in?
375
00:19:54,760 --> 00:19:57,763
Okay. Cool.
376
00:19:57,897 --> 00:19:59,065
Look at that.
377
00:20:05,104 --> 00:20:07,339
It's actually
pretty [bleep] kickass.
378
00:20:07,473 --> 00:20:14,480
♪ ♪
379
00:20:23,556 --> 00:20:28,094
‐ It was about 10:00
last night.
380
00:20:28,227 --> 00:20:30,429
I don't know why I woke up,
for some reason.
381
00:20:30,563 --> 00:20:31,697
That's rare.
382
00:20:31,831 --> 00:20:34,333
But dead calm.
383
00:20:34,467 --> 00:20:36,502
No wind. No waves.
384
00:20:36,635 --> 00:20:40,740
It stayed that way all night
until about 6:30.
385
00:20:42,308 --> 00:20:44,677
And then it just
started blowing,
386
00:20:44,810 --> 00:20:45,945
and the waves started crashing,
387
00:20:46,078 --> 00:20:49,815
so I think we're just
gonna go for it.
388
00:20:49,949 --> 00:20:52,818
That means
we're putting the pier in,
389
00:20:52,952 --> 00:20:55,321
wind or waves be damned.
390
00:20:55,454 --> 00:21:02,528
♪ ♪
391
00:21:03,529 --> 00:21:06,632
I've got to get off
this shoreline to catch fish.
392
00:21:06,766 --> 00:21:10,369
I'm running down
on my last bit of body fat.
393
00:21:10,503 --> 00:21:12,204
If I get the pier planks
on it,
394
00:21:12,338 --> 00:21:14,573
that should be enough
to hold everything in place,
395
00:21:14,707 --> 00:21:16,375
and then I can
shimmy out there
396
00:21:16,509 --> 00:21:17,777
and set a set line.
397
00:21:17,910 --> 00:21:19,378
Then we'll start
catching fish.
398
00:21:19,512 --> 00:21:21,614
♪ ♪
399
00:21:21,747 --> 00:21:23,582
It's a 1,000 foot deep lake.
400
00:21:23,716 --> 00:21:24,850
Glacier‐fed,
401
00:21:24,984 --> 00:21:27,219
so the temperature
is insanely cold.
402
00:21:27,353 --> 00:21:30,956
♪ ♪
403
00:21:39,365 --> 00:21:45,271
♪ ♪
404
00:21:45,404 --> 00:21:46,639
[exhales deeply]
405
00:21:46,772 --> 00:21:51,243
♪ ♪
406
00:21:51,377 --> 00:21:52,711
[grunts]
407
00:21:52,845 --> 00:21:54,079
[exhales sharply]
408
00:21:54,213 --> 00:21:56,081
♪ ♪
409
00:21:56,215 --> 00:21:58,350
Oh.
410
00:21:58,484 --> 00:22:03,088
[grunting]
411
00:22:03,222 --> 00:22:04,256
[bleep].
412
00:22:04,390 --> 00:22:07,226
♪ ♪
413
00:22:11,597 --> 00:22:14,066
What the [bleep]?
414
00:22:14,200 --> 00:22:15,701
[bleep].
415
00:22:15,835 --> 00:22:22,842
♪ ♪
416
00:22:26,846 --> 00:22:27,880
Damn.
417
00:22:28,013 --> 00:22:32,985
♪ ♪
418
00:22:33,118 --> 00:22:36,889
I made a mistake,
which led to a failure.
419
00:22:37,022 --> 00:22:41,493
Forgot to put that joist,
that little pressure joist,
420
00:22:41,627 --> 00:22:44,897
at the top of those leans,
421
00:22:45,030 --> 00:22:48,901
forcing the middle one tighter
so it wouldn't fall out.
422
00:22:49,001 --> 00:22:50,836
And it fell out.
I bumped it, and it fell out.
423
00:22:50,970 --> 00:22:53,339
I knew it.
424
00:22:53,472 --> 00:22:54,607
I picked it up, and I knew it,
425
00:22:54,740 --> 00:22:56,075
but I was already down
to nothing,
426
00:22:56,208 --> 00:22:59,111
so I forced it, and I should've
stopped, got dressed.
427
00:22:59,245 --> 00:23:00,846
♪ ♪
428
00:23:00,980 --> 00:23:01,981
It's silly.
429
00:23:02,114 --> 00:23:04,250
♪ ♪
430
00:23:04,383 --> 00:23:05,985
Silly.
431
00:23:06,118 --> 00:23:07,453
I think the biggest fear
432
00:23:07,586 --> 00:23:10,856
we face, usually,
is the fear of failure,
433
00:23:10,990 --> 00:23:14,193
and I think that holds
a lot of people back.
434
00:23:14,326 --> 00:23:17,263
If you don't accept failure
as a part of your journey,
435
00:23:17,396 --> 00:23:19,131
then you'll never
find success.
436
00:23:19,265 --> 00:23:20,766
I appreciate the failure
437
00:23:20,900 --> 00:23:23,636
because that's the only lesson
you're actually gonna learn,
438
00:23:23,769 --> 00:23:25,371
and I know
how to handle failure,
439
00:23:25,504 --> 00:23:27,072
to be optimistic.
440
00:23:27,206 --> 00:23:29,441
Do you give up
after your first failure?
441
00:23:29,575 --> 00:23:31,410
I don't.
I don't give up at all.
442
00:23:31,543 --> 00:23:33,445
♪ ♪
443
00:23:33,579 --> 00:23:37,449
So I've got some work to do...
444
00:23:39,885 --> 00:23:42,688
Before I do that again.
445
00:23:42,821 --> 00:23:49,828
♪ ♪
446
00:24:06,111 --> 00:24:07,579
‐ I'll be so happy.
447
00:24:10,249 --> 00:24:11,817
I'll stay forever.
448
00:24:15,654 --> 00:24:18,557
Pretty much, if I have a bed
and a dry spot,
449
00:24:18,691 --> 00:24:21,460
I'm in general
pretty damned happy,
450
00:24:21,593 --> 00:24:24,363
so I'm gonna attempt
to make the bed.
451
00:24:24,496 --> 00:24:25,931
We'll start with the frame.
452
00:24:26,065 --> 00:24:29,034
This post is just
the right height.
453
00:24:29,168 --> 00:24:31,437
I'm gonna lash this all down
454
00:24:31,570 --> 00:24:33,505
so they don't move around
all the time.
455
00:24:33,639 --> 00:24:35,441
♪ ♪
456
00:24:35,574 --> 00:24:37,242
Good.
457
00:24:37,376 --> 00:24:39,812
I have been in the outdoors,
458
00:24:39,945 --> 00:24:43,048
rather immersed in it,
from the time I was a child.
459
00:24:43,182 --> 00:24:44,984
I'm originally from Wyoming,
460
00:24:45,117 --> 00:24:46,919
from a tiny town
called Lander.
461
00:24:47,052 --> 00:24:48,454
♪ ♪
462
00:24:48,587 --> 00:24:51,557
So I'm sure that you have
noticed my accent
463
00:24:51,690 --> 00:24:54,126
is not exactly from Wyoming.
464
00:24:54,259 --> 00:24:57,529
I have lived now in England
for 11 years,
465
00:24:57,663 --> 00:25:00,165
long enough to sound funny
in both places.
466
00:25:00,299 --> 00:25:02,201
I don't sound American
to Americans.
467
00:25:02,334 --> 00:25:05,070
I do not sound British
to British people either.
468
00:25:05,204 --> 00:25:07,706
They're not quite sure
what I am or where I'm from,
469
00:25:07,840 --> 00:25:09,375
but it's not fooling anyone.
470
00:25:09,508 --> 00:25:11,243
♪ ♪
471
00:25:11,377 --> 00:25:14,713
Everything is golden,
and then we cover the bed
472
00:25:14,847 --> 00:25:18,050
in grass and then pine boughs,
and then we have a bed.
473
00:25:18,183 --> 00:25:19,418
It's a usable bed
at this point.
474
00:25:19,551 --> 00:25:22,187
It just needs
the squishy bit put on now.
475
00:25:24,456 --> 00:25:25,557
Yeah.
476
00:25:28,894 --> 00:25:35,868
♪ ♪
477
00:25:41,774 --> 00:25:44,810
I feel‐‐I feel odd.
478
00:25:44,943 --> 00:25:46,779
Actually, it's been
a really long time
479
00:25:46,912 --> 00:25:49,148
since I felt this feeling,
480
00:25:49,281 --> 00:25:52,117
but I think I'm potentially
481
00:25:52,251 --> 00:25:54,653
a little bit homesick
right now.
482
00:25:54,787 --> 00:25:57,022
♪ ♪
483
00:25:57,156 --> 00:26:00,692
And I'm not 100% sure,
for me, what that means.
484
00:26:00,826 --> 00:26:02,828
Like, what home
am I longing for?
485
00:26:02,961 --> 00:26:05,097
♪ ♪
486
00:26:05,230 --> 00:26:08,600
I need to, I think, acknowledge
the fact that I miss something
487
00:26:08,734 --> 00:26:13,405
from back in my other life,
488
00:26:13,539 --> 00:26:15,074
my life before "Alone."
489
00:26:15,207 --> 00:26:18,610
[laughs]
490
00:26:18,744 --> 00:26:21,613
[humming soft melody]
491
00:26:21,747 --> 00:26:27,786
♪ ♪
492
00:26:27,920 --> 00:26:32,991
♪ I am just ♪
493
00:26:33,125 --> 00:26:38,363
♪ A lonely soul ♪
494
00:26:38,497 --> 00:26:43,035
♪ So where, I ask ♪
495
00:26:43,168 --> 00:26:48,140
♪ Shall I call my ♪
496
00:26:48,273 --> 00:26:53,245
♪ Home? ♪
497
00:26:57,683 --> 00:26:59,017
[chuckles]
498
00:27:06,158 --> 00:27:09,027
[dramatic music]
499
00:27:09,161 --> 00:27:16,135
♪ ♪
500
00:27:30,048 --> 00:27:32,551
‐ Good morning.
501
00:27:32,684 --> 00:27:35,354
[yawns]
502
00:27:35,487 --> 00:27:38,157
I had some food dreams
last night.
503
00:27:38,290 --> 00:27:40,425
Oh, that's terrible.
This early?
504
00:27:41,894 --> 00:27:44,496
Ay.
505
00:27:44,630 --> 00:27:47,332
[scoffs]
506
00:27:47,466 --> 00:27:50,469
I was in a football tournament,
507
00:27:50,602 --> 00:27:52,504
and they had a room...
508
00:27:54,273 --> 00:27:56,441
That everybody could go to
and just...
509
00:27:56,575 --> 00:27:59,444
[laughs]
510
00:27:59,578 --> 00:28:02,281
Eat all they wanted.
511
00:28:02,414 --> 00:28:04,583
Aww.
512
00:28:07,619 --> 00:28:09,321
[yawns]
513
00:28:09,454 --> 00:28:12,658
So I'm trying to block it out,
514
00:28:12,791 --> 00:28:15,861
try and get some food
of my own out here.
515
00:28:15,994 --> 00:28:21,033
♪ ♪
516
00:28:21,166 --> 00:28:22,434
Mom told me before I left,
517
00:28:22,568 --> 00:28:25,204
the last thing was to look
at the moon,
518
00:28:25,337 --> 00:28:28,540
and know I'm looking
at the same thing.
519
00:28:28,674 --> 00:28:30,209
We'll be looking
at the same time.
520
00:28:30,342 --> 00:28:31,677
♪ ♪
521
00:28:31,810 --> 00:28:34,279
I really want to make
my mom and dad proud.
522
00:28:34,413 --> 00:28:36,548
They've always loved
and supported me.
523
00:28:36,682 --> 00:28:39,151
They're my biggest fans.
524
00:28:39,284 --> 00:28:41,053
I want to do well for them.
525
00:28:41,186 --> 00:28:42,854
♪ ♪
526
00:28:42,988 --> 00:28:45,757
Oh, yeah.
527
00:28:45,891 --> 00:28:48,126
I've got a lot of faith
in this boat.
528
00:28:48,260 --> 00:28:50,629
♪ ♪
529
00:28:50,762 --> 00:28:55,033
This boat is amazing.
I love it. It's solid.
530
00:28:55,167 --> 00:28:57,703
The outriggers
are working perfect.
531
00:28:57,836 --> 00:29:00,105
I feel like
I can go anywhere now,
532
00:29:00,239 --> 00:29:01,640
So I'm gonna go for it.
533
00:29:01,773 --> 00:29:04,243
♪ ♪
534
00:29:04,376 --> 00:29:06,678
Going for a white fish.
535
00:29:10,182 --> 00:29:16,054
♪ ♪
536
00:29:16,188 --> 00:29:19,591
My dad and I used to fish
bull trout in Oregon.
537
00:29:22,694 --> 00:29:25,964
Spent a lot of hours
trolling with my dad,
538
00:29:26,098 --> 00:29:28,567
days and days of my life.
539
00:29:28,700 --> 00:29:30,302
I'd love to be trolling
with him.
540
00:29:34,640 --> 00:29:35,674
I got a hit.
541
00:29:35,807 --> 00:29:37,509
♪ ♪
542
00:29:37,643 --> 00:29:41,280
Fish today, baby. Fish today.
Come on, fish. Let's do it.
543
00:29:41,413 --> 00:29:42,814
♪ ♪
544
00:29:42,948 --> 00:29:45,817
Holy [bleep].
I might have done it.
545
00:29:45,951 --> 00:29:47,819
Yes! Yes, yes!
546
00:29:47,953 --> 00:29:49,888
♪ ♪
547
00:29:50,022 --> 00:29:52,991
Dang it! [bleep]! Ah!
548
00:29:59,331 --> 00:30:02,701
Ahh! So close.
549
00:30:02,834 --> 00:30:08,307
♪ ♪
550
00:30:09,975 --> 00:30:11,543
♪ ♪
551
00:30:11,677 --> 00:30:14,279
My dad is what got me
into this lifestyle.
552
00:30:14,413 --> 00:30:15,547
He introduced me
at a young age
553
00:30:15,681 --> 00:30:16,682
to the outdoors,
554
00:30:16,815 --> 00:30:18,417
into hunting, into fishing,
555
00:30:18,550 --> 00:30:21,687
eating wild game,
being outdoors, camping.
556
00:30:21,820 --> 00:30:25,490
And I loved it. This is life!
557
00:30:25,624 --> 00:30:28,860
I've been out here
for at least three hours.
558
00:30:28,994 --> 00:30:32,331
I've had four bites,
no hook‐ups, no fish.
559
00:30:32,464 --> 00:30:33,999
♪ ♪
560
00:30:34,132 --> 00:30:36,735
I connect with my body
through this lifestyle.
561
00:30:36,868 --> 00:30:38,870
I connect with my mind
and my heart
562
00:30:39,004 --> 00:30:40,972
more than any other
living situation
563
00:30:41,106 --> 00:30:42,207
I've ever had in my life.
564
00:30:42,341 --> 00:30:43,909
♪ ♪
565
00:30:44,042 --> 00:30:47,579
It's physically, emotionally,
intellectually,
566
00:30:47,713 --> 00:30:50,849
socially more stimulating
than the alternative.
567
00:31:14,106 --> 00:31:16,975
♪ ♪
568
00:31:17,109 --> 00:31:20,912
Yes!
It came off right in the boat.
569
00:31:21,046 --> 00:31:23,081
Ha, ha!
570
00:31:23,215 --> 00:31:25,050
Hey.
571
00:31:25,183 --> 00:31:28,453
Hey, I'll take it.
I'll take it. Yes!
572
00:31:28,587 --> 00:31:29,688
♪ ♪
573
00:31:29,821 --> 00:31:31,223
Oh, thank you, fish.
574
00:31:31,356 --> 00:31:33,158
God, I needed a fish today.
575
00:31:33,291 --> 00:31:36,495
♪ ♪
576
00:31:36,628 --> 00:31:38,563
I needed a fish today.
577
00:31:38,697 --> 00:31:40,932
♪ ♪
578
00:31:41,066 --> 00:31:43,468
I am gonna invest
all in right now on fish
579
00:31:43,602 --> 00:31:45,637
because I think that's
the best use of my calories.
580
00:31:45,771 --> 00:31:47,606
That's the best use
of my time.
581
00:31:47,739 --> 00:31:50,609
I'm gonna go fish.
582
00:31:50,742 --> 00:31:53,545
All right, just need to catch
one a day for the next 80 days.
583
00:31:53,678 --> 00:31:54,880
♪ ♪
584
00:31:55,013 --> 00:31:57,482
This boat is not gonna have
a single focus.
585
00:31:57,616 --> 00:31:59,151
I am gonna troll
out of this boat.
586
00:31:59,284 --> 00:32:00,452
I'm gonna jig
out of this boat.
587
00:32:00,585 --> 00:32:01,787
I'm gonna anchor up
in this boat.
588
00:32:01,920 --> 00:32:04,189
I'm gonna set fish traps
at 20 feet, 30 feet,
589
00:32:04,322 --> 00:32:05,524
50 feet, 100 feet.
590
00:32:05,657 --> 00:32:07,826
I'm gonna spend
a lot of time in this boat.
591
00:32:09,361 --> 00:32:11,496
Let's go eat some fish.
592
00:32:11,630 --> 00:32:18,603
♪ ♪
593
00:32:24,109 --> 00:32:27,646
‐ I've heard what a great smoke
594
00:32:27,779 --> 00:32:29,581
this kinnikinnick is.
595
00:32:30,849 --> 00:32:32,751
And I don't smoke,
596
00:32:32,884 --> 00:32:36,221
but I figured
I'd give it a shot,
597
00:32:36,354 --> 00:32:40,125
so I'm gonna take
this random piece of driftwood,
598
00:32:40,258 --> 00:32:42,994
and I'm just gonna make a pipe
599
00:32:43,128 --> 00:32:45,630
or attempt to make
a little pipe out of it,
600
00:32:45,764 --> 00:32:49,134
and I've got two cameras
just in case I cut myself.
601
00:32:49,267 --> 00:32:50,702
Double the fun.
602
00:32:50,836 --> 00:32:52,838
♪ ♪
603
00:32:52,971 --> 00:32:55,774
Mentally,
the biggest strategy for me
604
00:32:55,907 --> 00:32:57,209
is keep my hands busy,
605
00:32:57,342 --> 00:33:00,745
keep building things,
keep working on things,
606
00:33:00,879 --> 00:33:03,081
and that will keep
my mind distracted
607
00:33:03,215 --> 00:33:05,116
away from what's going on
back home.
608
00:33:05,250 --> 00:33:06,218
♪ ♪
609
00:33:06,351 --> 00:33:09,888
I guess I got to bore down
a hole
610
00:33:10,021 --> 00:33:13,758
with which to put tobaccy.
611
00:33:13,892 --> 00:33:17,229
♪ ♪
612
00:33:17,362 --> 00:33:20,665
There's probably better options
than to stab
613
00:33:20,799 --> 00:33:22,033
right through my quad.
614
00:33:22,167 --> 00:33:23,802
♪ ♪
615
00:33:23,935 --> 00:33:28,039
I have to not allow myself
to think about those things
616
00:33:28,173 --> 00:33:30,709
because if I think
about my wife and my son
617
00:33:30,842 --> 00:33:35,146
and make that the pinnacle
of why I'm out here
618
00:33:35,280 --> 00:33:38,850
and really push
to succeed for them,
619
00:33:38,984 --> 00:33:41,353
then my constant thoughts
about them
620
00:33:41,486 --> 00:33:43,355
will make me miss them
621
00:33:43,488 --> 00:33:46,291
and will distract me
from surviving.
622
00:33:46,424 --> 00:33:48,393
Not a bad little pipe.
623
00:33:48,527 --> 00:33:52,097
Let's get that kinnikinnick out
and pack it up.
624
00:33:53,064 --> 00:33:55,066
I need to be mentally strong
625
00:33:55,200 --> 00:33:58,336
because I have been presented
626
00:33:58,470 --> 00:34:01,840
with a once‐in‐a‐lifetime
opportunity.
627
00:34:01,973 --> 00:34:03,308
It's pretty crumbly.
628
00:34:03,441 --> 00:34:05,076
And if I don't win,
629
00:34:05,210 --> 00:34:08,146
I feel like I'd be doing
a disservice to my family.
630
00:34:08,280 --> 00:34:12,050
That $1/2 million
would allow me
631
00:34:12,183 --> 00:34:14,686
to pay off
all of our bills
632
00:34:14,819 --> 00:34:16,288
and have money left over.
633
00:34:16,421 --> 00:34:17,956
♪ ♪
634
00:34:18,089 --> 00:34:20,592
That would allow me
to work even less
635
00:34:20,725 --> 00:34:22,861
and spend even more time
with my family.
636
00:34:22,994 --> 00:34:28,433
♪ ♪
637
00:34:33,271 --> 00:34:36,474
That's not bad.
638
00:34:36,608 --> 00:34:37,776
Huh!
639
00:34:43,014 --> 00:34:45,951
All right. What's up next?
640
00:34:48,453 --> 00:34:55,460
♪ ♪
641
00:35:08,707 --> 00:35:10,342
[squirrel chittering]
642
00:35:10,475 --> 00:35:12,444
‐ There he is.
643
00:35:12,577 --> 00:35:16,047
[mimicking squirrel chittering]
644
00:35:18,817 --> 00:35:20,452
[squirrel chitters]
645
00:35:20,585 --> 00:35:22,053
We say hello every morning.
646
00:35:25,156 --> 00:35:26,424
So...
647
00:35:30,762 --> 00:35:34,065
If you believe
that you can talk to animals,
648
00:35:34,199 --> 00:35:38,203
meaning communicate your
thought energy in your sound
649
00:35:38,336 --> 00:35:41,272
or in your voice,
650
00:35:41,406 --> 00:35:43,842
do you think
that if you mean no harm,
651
00:35:43,975 --> 00:35:45,810
they can read that?
652
00:35:45,944 --> 00:35:48,446
I'd like to believe so.
653
00:35:48,580 --> 00:35:51,683
I'd like to believe
I'm sending good vibes out
654
00:35:51,816 --> 00:35:54,352
to the local wildlife.
655
00:35:55,420 --> 00:35:57,889
Unfortunately, the vibes that
I'm sending out to the grouse
656
00:35:58,023 --> 00:36:01,226
and the hare is
that I want to eat them,
657
00:36:01,359 --> 00:36:04,195
and therefore, they're like,
"I'm gonna avoid that man."
658
00:36:05,530 --> 00:36:08,033
I tried asking the eagle this
morning to bring me a fish,
659
00:36:08,166 --> 00:36:10,035
but he didn't turn around.
660
00:36:10,168 --> 00:36:17,175
♪ ♪
661
00:36:43,968 --> 00:36:50,075
♪ ♪
662
00:36:50,208 --> 00:36:52,010
I have an idea.
663
00:36:52,143 --> 00:36:53,478
For pier number one,
664
00:36:53,611 --> 00:36:56,581
I chose just to block it
like Lincoln Logs
665
00:36:56,715 --> 00:36:59,718
and then put a middle brace
between it,
666
00:36:59,851 --> 00:37:02,854
but I realized
that was my fail point,
667
00:37:02,987 --> 00:37:05,190
and my initial H is pegged.
668
00:37:05,323 --> 00:37:07,258
It's fantastic, solid,
669
00:37:07,392 --> 00:37:10,695
so I decide to peg
my supports into the main.
670
00:37:10,829 --> 00:37:13,231
♪ ♪
671
00:37:13,364 --> 00:37:17,202
We're on mission set
right now, which is find food.
672
00:37:17,335 --> 00:37:20,105
So do everything we can
to get food,
673
00:37:20,238 --> 00:37:23,108
and that includes
beat the elements.
674
00:37:23,241 --> 00:37:26,678
♪ ♪
675
00:37:26,811 --> 00:37:28,546
All right. It's time.
676
00:37:28,680 --> 00:37:35,687
♪ ♪
677
00:37:45,497 --> 00:37:46,664
Beautiful.
678
00:37:46,798 --> 00:37:50,201
♪ ♪
679
00:37:50,335 --> 00:37:51,469
When you're in the wild
680
00:37:51,603 --> 00:37:53,505
and you're in
a survival situation,
681
00:37:53,638 --> 00:37:56,174
if you don't have the ability
to pivot
682
00:37:56,307 --> 00:37:59,043
when things don't go
the way you planned,
683
00:37:59,177 --> 00:38:00,979
then it's gonna be a struggle,
684
00:38:01,112 --> 00:38:03,181
and that's where I think
creative problem‐solving
685
00:38:03,314 --> 00:38:04,849
comes into play.
686
00:38:04,983 --> 00:38:07,819
♪ ♪
687
00:38:07,952 --> 00:38:10,488
This is a huge
stepping‐stone for me,
688
00:38:10,622 --> 00:38:12,991
to be able to walk out 25 feet
689
00:38:13,124 --> 00:38:15,393
because I know
there's gonna be fish.
690
00:38:15,527 --> 00:38:17,061
This is where
I start thriving.
691
00:38:17,195 --> 00:38:19,964
♪ ♪
692
00:38:20,098 --> 00:38:23,701
Oh, wow.
693
00:38:23,835 --> 00:38:24,803
Awesome.
694
00:38:29,040 --> 00:38:31,910
[dramatic music]
695
00:38:32,043 --> 00:38:39,050
♪ ♪
696
00:38:56,434 --> 00:38:59,204
‐ Seaweed.
697
00:38:59,337 --> 00:39:01,706
I'll start small, just eat one.
698
00:39:06,477 --> 00:39:09,480
Hmm.
699
00:39:09,614 --> 00:39:10,648
It's crunchy.
700
00:39:19,090 --> 00:39:22,660
Yeah, it doesn't taste good.
Mm‐mm.
701
00:39:22,794 --> 00:39:24,696
It's time to get back to work.
702
00:39:24,829 --> 00:39:26,631
♪ ♪
703
00:39:26,764 --> 00:39:29,434
I'm having
zero success fishing.
704
00:39:29,567 --> 00:39:31,870
I need to really finish
the fish basket.
705
00:39:32,003 --> 00:39:34,606
Since I can't catch
a larger trout,
706
00:39:34,739 --> 00:39:37,675
I can hopefully get some
smaller fish with this basket
707
00:39:37,809 --> 00:39:40,678
and maybe cook those up
and make a stew out of those.
708
00:39:40,812 --> 00:39:43,181
I'm gonna wrap this
with cordage just to make sure
709
00:39:43,314 --> 00:39:47,185
it stays the shape that I want.
710
00:39:47,318 --> 00:39:49,387
A fish basket has two baskets,
711
00:39:49,520 --> 00:39:51,789
a smaller basket
inside of a larger basket.
712
00:39:51,923 --> 00:39:55,360
It's a cone shape,
and once they swim into it,
713
00:39:55,493 --> 00:39:57,028
they can't figure out
how to turn around
714
00:39:57,161 --> 00:39:58,363
and swim back out
the same hole
715
00:39:58,496 --> 00:39:59,631
that they came in.
716
00:39:59,764 --> 00:40:02,000
Yeah, I think that's gonna be
all right there.
717
00:40:02,133 --> 00:40:03,801
I'm not really
that far into it,
718
00:40:03,935 --> 00:40:05,803
and I've already lost
quite a bit of weight,
719
00:40:05,937 --> 00:40:07,639
so I have to get some food.
720
00:40:07,772 --> 00:40:11,342
I have to find a better way
to get a fish.
721
00:40:11,476 --> 00:40:14,979
This lake is just
extremely difficult.
722
00:40:15,113 --> 00:40:16,648
I can't get my line
out far enough.
723
00:40:16,781 --> 00:40:18,283
My lures aren't working.
724
00:40:18,416 --> 00:40:20,318
I have to get food soon.
725
00:40:20,451 --> 00:40:24,122
If I don't,
I can't keep enough weight on.
726
00:40:25,156 --> 00:40:28,293
There's so much I wanted to do
and make while I was here,
727
00:40:28,426 --> 00:40:31,229
but I feel like I'm forced
to get things done
728
00:40:31,362 --> 00:40:33,464
so that I can get food.
729
00:40:33,598 --> 00:40:39,804
♪ ♪
730
00:40:39,938 --> 00:40:41,072
I knew coming in here
731
00:40:41,205 --> 00:40:43,341
that I move so fast
through life
732
00:40:43,474 --> 00:40:46,311
that my thoughts don't really
get to catch up with me.
733
00:40:46,444 --> 00:40:48,579
Ah, it's gonna have
to have a rock on it.
734
00:40:48,713 --> 00:40:49,881
♪ ♪
735
00:40:50,014 --> 00:40:53,151
I think that if you want
to clear your mind
736
00:40:53,284 --> 00:40:55,019
and sort things out,
737
00:40:55,153 --> 00:40:57,889
the wilderness is definitely
the place to do that.
738
00:40:58,022 --> 00:40:59,357
♪ ♪
739
00:40:59,490 --> 00:41:01,626
I need to it to be
out there way farther.
740
00:41:01,759 --> 00:41:03,127
♪ ♪
741
00:41:03,261 --> 00:41:06,197
All I keep thinking about
is my family.
742
00:41:06,331 --> 00:41:08,967
My children are
so worried about me.
743
00:41:09,100 --> 00:41:10,935
It's like they're my parents.
744
00:41:11,069 --> 00:41:13,871
I think because of the things
that I went through,
745
00:41:14,005 --> 00:41:15,340
been through a lot of ups
and downs
746
00:41:15,473 --> 00:41:18,543
and some very rough
situations in my life,
747
00:41:18,676 --> 00:41:21,612
and I think they just don't
want to see me get hurt,
748
00:41:21,746 --> 00:41:23,915
but all of those
different situations,
749
00:41:24,048 --> 00:41:26,150
I just learned to adapt.
750
00:41:26,284 --> 00:41:29,921
Okay, the fish basket
is submerged.
751
00:41:30,054 --> 00:41:31,622
♪ ♪
752
00:41:31,756 --> 00:41:33,257
I'm very resilient.
753
00:41:33,391 --> 00:41:35,059
Nothing is gonna
knock me off my path.
754
00:41:35,193 --> 00:41:37,762
I'm just gonna pick myself up,
and I'm gonna keep going.
755
00:41:37,895 --> 00:41:40,765
And I always come back
even stronger than I was.
756
00:41:42,100 --> 00:41:43,067
[stomach growls]
757
00:41:46,371 --> 00:41:53,378
♪ ♪
758
00:42:12,897 --> 00:42:16,267
‐ That's the benefit to having
a mustache like a walrus.
759
00:42:17,602 --> 00:42:19,570
It filters everything
out of your water.
760
00:42:20,571 --> 00:42:22,240
All the large stuff.
761
00:42:25,777 --> 00:42:28,246
The only problem
is kissing the wife.
762
00:42:32,450 --> 00:42:34,952
Maybe I'll shave my beard off
when I go home.
763
00:42:38,322 --> 00:42:45,329
♪ ♪
764
00:42:49,667 --> 00:42:51,302
Let's go see if there's a fish.
765
00:42:58,910 --> 00:43:02,313
Oh, my God. Think I got a fish!
766
00:43:02,447 --> 00:43:04,048
♪ ♪
767
00:43:04,182 --> 00:43:05,550
Look at that.
768
00:43:12,657 --> 00:43:19,297
♪ ♪
769
00:43:19,430 --> 00:43:20,698
Easy, fella.
770
00:43:20,832 --> 00:43:22,967
♪ ♪
771
00:43:23,067 --> 00:43:24,602
That's a rainbow.
772
00:43:24,735 --> 00:43:26,471
♪ ♪
773
00:43:26,604 --> 00:43:29,006
Rainbow trout.
774
00:43:29,140 --> 00:43:32,110
It's promising.
That's what that is.
775
00:43:32,243 --> 00:43:39,250
♪ ♪
776
00:43:41,285 --> 00:43:44,388
Cooking up
this tiny little guy.
777
00:43:44,522 --> 00:43:47,558
So we're gonna eat
every single piece of him,
778
00:43:47,692 --> 00:43:49,627
for sure.
779
00:43:49,760 --> 00:43:51,195
♪ ♪
780
00:43:51,329 --> 00:43:52,530
I'm excited.
781
00:43:52,663 --> 00:43:54,999
♪ ♪
782
00:43:55,133 --> 00:43:57,135
It's not gonna take much
to get this guy done.
783
00:43:57,268 --> 00:44:00,338
♪ ♪
784
00:44:00,471 --> 00:44:01,706
Wonderful.
785
00:44:01,839 --> 00:44:07,411
♪ ♪
786
00:44:07,545 --> 00:44:08,813
That was his tail.
787
00:44:08,946 --> 00:44:15,853
♪ ♪
788
00:44:16,854 --> 00:44:19,157
Told you.
789
00:44:19,290 --> 00:44:20,625
Every piece.
790
00:44:20,758 --> 00:44:23,728
♪ ♪
791
00:44:23,861 --> 00:44:25,897
All the way down to the lips.
792
00:44:26,030 --> 00:44:28,799
I know who I am,
and I don't have any doubt
793
00:44:28,933 --> 00:44:32,870
about my capability
to succeed in a challenge.
794
00:44:33,004 --> 00:44:34,972
Wow.
795
00:44:35,106 --> 00:44:38,276
That was a fast, fast meal.
796
00:44:38,409 --> 00:44:42,079
I'm just an out‐of‐the‐box
thinker and problem‐solver.
797
00:44:42,213 --> 00:44:44,982
Perfect.
798
00:44:45,116 --> 00:44:47,885
And I'll figure out
a way to succeed,
799
00:44:48,019 --> 00:44:51,522
and I don't have that quit
in me when there's a struggle.
800
00:44:57,995 --> 00:45:00,932
[dramatic music]
801
00:45:01,065 --> 00:45:08,039
♪ ♪
802
00:45:18,182 --> 00:45:19,817
[insect buzzes]
803
00:45:19,951 --> 00:45:22,019
‐ Oh, yeah,
bug right in the eye,
804
00:45:22,153 --> 00:45:23,888
right when I'm about to talk.
805
00:45:24,021 --> 00:45:25,156
Mm.
806
00:45:27,358 --> 00:45:29,527
While I'm waiting
for my boiled water to cool,
807
00:45:29,660 --> 00:45:31,395
I'm gonna put the one final
808
00:45:31,529 --> 00:45:34,131
most important touch
on the cabin,
809
00:45:34,265 --> 00:45:37,101
and that is
our family initials.
810
00:45:37,235 --> 00:45:39,570
♪ ♪
811
00:45:39,704 --> 00:45:43,541
So I'm gonna put that
on the ridge beam,
812
00:45:43,674 --> 00:45:44,942
J, J, O, A.
813
00:45:45,076 --> 00:45:47,445
♪ ♪
814
00:45:47,578 --> 00:45:49,247
We put that on everything.
815
00:45:49,380 --> 00:45:51,849
That's inscribed
on our wedding bands.
816
00:45:51,983 --> 00:45:54,685
My wife inscribed it
on my ax handle.
817
00:45:54,819 --> 00:45:56,020
♪ ♪
818
00:45:56,153 --> 00:45:58,589
It's on everything.
819
00:45:58,723 --> 00:46:03,094
Now the O is going to be
the fun one,
820
00:46:03,227 --> 00:46:04,929
all curve.
821
00:46:05,062 --> 00:46:08,299
♪ ♪
822
00:46:08,432 --> 00:46:09,567
That's better.
823
00:46:09,700 --> 00:46:14,205
♪ ♪
824
00:46:14,338 --> 00:46:16,707
Now the cabin is complete.
825
00:46:18,209 --> 00:46:21,379
Julia, Jordon, Odin, Aura,
826
00:46:21,512 --> 00:46:23,047
the initials of my wife,
827
00:46:23,180 --> 00:46:26,117
myself, my son,
and my daughter.
828
00:46:27,852 --> 00:46:32,256
♪ ♪
829
00:46:32,390 --> 00:46:34,959
[sighs]
830
00:46:35,092 --> 00:46:38,963
♪ ♪
831
00:46:45,136 --> 00:46:48,506
I just had a moment
832
00:46:48,639 --> 00:46:50,741
thinking about my daughter,
833
00:46:50,875 --> 00:46:54,345
and it gets easier
834
00:46:54,478 --> 00:46:56,714
as time goes on,
835
00:46:56,847 --> 00:47:00,785
but I still have
836
00:47:00,918 --> 00:47:03,688
waves of grief
that come over me.
837
00:47:03,821 --> 00:47:10,428
♪ ♪
838
00:47:12,730 --> 00:47:15,833
Now, I'm a very private person.
839
00:47:15,966 --> 00:47:18,035
I don't have a lot of friends.
840
00:47:18,169 --> 00:47:21,806
I don't talk to a lot of people
about personal things,
841
00:47:21,939 --> 00:47:24,809
and very few people
842
00:47:24,942 --> 00:47:29,447
know the details
of what I'm about to say.
843
00:47:36,821 --> 00:47:39,323
My daughter was born
with a heart defect,
844
00:47:39,457 --> 00:47:41,826
and by the time
she was two weeks old,
845
00:47:41,959 --> 00:47:45,329
she had had two
open heart surgeries.
846
00:47:45,463 --> 00:47:47,398
When she was six months old,
847
00:47:47,531 --> 00:47:49,667
she had another
open heart surgery
848
00:47:49,800 --> 00:47:52,470
that lasted over ten hours,
849
00:47:52,603 --> 00:47:55,473
and every six months
after that,
850
00:47:55,606 --> 00:47:57,708
she had catheter procedures
851
00:47:57,842 --> 00:48:00,177
where they would balloon
her arteries.
852
00:48:01,545 --> 00:48:05,816
Her long‐term prognosis
was good through childhood,
853
00:48:05,950 --> 00:48:10,154
and yet
we unexpectedly lost her
854
00:48:10,287 --> 00:48:11,922
before she turned four.
855
00:48:12,056 --> 00:48:14,125
♪ ♪
856
00:48:14,258 --> 00:48:17,928
But the most painful things
857
00:48:18,062 --> 00:48:19,797
to deal with,
858
00:48:19,930 --> 00:48:22,666
the most painful memory
859
00:48:22,800 --> 00:48:26,637
are the echoes
860
00:48:26,771 --> 00:48:28,406
of the good times
861
00:48:28,539 --> 00:48:30,107
that are no longer there.
862
00:48:30,241 --> 00:48:31,509
♪ ♪
863
00:48:31,642 --> 00:48:34,078
It wasn't her passing.
864
00:48:34,211 --> 00:48:36,881
It wasn't the trauma
of surgeries.
865
00:48:37,014 --> 00:48:39,550
It was the good times
that are no longer there.
866
00:48:39,683 --> 00:48:40,885
♪ ♪
867
00:48:41,018 --> 00:48:44,722
She was the most dynamic,
868
00:48:44,855 --> 00:48:45,956
most vibrant,
869
00:48:46,090 --> 00:48:49,860
most amazing spark of light
870
00:48:49,994 --> 00:48:51,896
that you could imagine.
871
00:48:52,029 --> 00:48:53,831
♪ ♪
872
00:48:53,964 --> 00:48:55,099
That is the most private part,
873
00:48:55,232 --> 00:48:57,301
the most intimate detail
of who I am.
874
00:48:57,435 --> 00:49:01,972
♪ ♪
875
00:49:02,106 --> 00:49:06,177
And I'm willing to sit here...
876
00:49:06,310 --> 00:49:09,079
♪ ♪
877
00:49:09,213 --> 00:49:13,784
And tell it to a camera
878
00:49:13,918 --> 00:49:15,853
to be seen by who knows...
879
00:49:15,986 --> 00:49:18,355
♪ ♪
880
00:49:18,489 --> 00:49:23,027
Because that little girl
was that magical,
881
00:49:23,160 --> 00:49:25,996
that special
882
00:49:26,130 --> 00:49:29,467
that her tale
883
00:49:29,600 --> 00:49:33,270
should be known
throughout the world.
884
00:49:33,404 --> 00:49:37,374
♪ ♪
885
00:49:37,508 --> 00:49:39,410
She was our little wildflower.
886
00:49:39,543 --> 00:49:41,545
♪ ♪
887
00:49:41,679 --> 00:49:43,481
She bloomed so bright.
888
00:49:43,614 --> 00:49:45,382
♪ ♪
889
00:49:45,516 --> 00:49:47,184
So vibrant.
890
00:49:50,588 --> 00:49:54,425
And then spring was gone,
and so was she.
891
00:50:00,097 --> 00:50:01,565
I love you, Aura.
892
00:50:18,883 --> 00:50:21,752
[dramatic music]
893
00:50:21,886 --> 00:50:28,893
♪ ♪
894
00:50:35,599 --> 00:50:38,168
‐ Checked my fish basket out.
Nothing in it.
895
00:50:38,302 --> 00:50:40,037
♪ ♪
896
00:50:40,170 --> 00:50:42,206
So I'm just gonna
throw it back out there.
897
00:51:00,824 --> 00:51:02,359
Interesting.
898
00:51:07,431 --> 00:51:09,066
Apparently, every day,
we're gonna do something
899
00:51:09,199 --> 00:51:10,668
a little different.
900
00:51:13,470 --> 00:51:14,838
There we go.
901
00:51:17,641 --> 00:51:19,009
All right.
902
00:51:19,143 --> 00:51:20,878
♪ ♪
903
00:51:21,011 --> 00:51:23,781
I think fish basket would be
more successful in, like,
904
00:51:23,914 --> 00:51:27,084
a pond or, like,
my little creeks at home.
905
00:51:28,252 --> 00:51:29,920
This giant lake, I don't know.
906
00:51:31,188 --> 00:51:34,758
But there's one thing
that is certain for me,
907
00:51:34,892 --> 00:51:36,260
and that is berries,
908
00:51:36,393 --> 00:51:38,095
and they're gonna be
going away.
909
00:51:39,063 --> 00:51:41,398
I can notice every day
that they are,
910
00:51:41,532 --> 00:51:42,833
but I really need to make sure
911
00:51:42,967 --> 00:51:45,603
that I'm getting
as many of these as I can
912
00:51:45,736 --> 00:51:47,905
because it's really
what's keeping me
913
00:51:48,038 --> 00:51:49,974
fed most of the day now.
914
00:51:50,107 --> 00:51:52,009
You can see that
they're starting to fall off
915
00:51:52,142 --> 00:51:53,477
onto the ground,
916
00:51:53,611 --> 00:51:56,180
and then some are drying up
at the top.
917
00:51:56,313 --> 00:51:58,082
♪ ♪
918
00:51:58,215 --> 00:52:02,186
It's funny how some people
need to have other people
919
00:52:02,319 --> 00:52:05,589
in their life
or it affects them terribly.
920
00:52:05,723 --> 00:52:07,124
♪ ♪
921
00:52:07,257 --> 00:52:10,060
And other people
can exist without it.
922
00:52:10,194 --> 00:52:11,395
♪ ♪
923
00:52:11,528 --> 00:52:14,031
They're starting to turn black.
924
00:52:14,164 --> 00:52:16,900
I think for most of my life
I've felt alone
925
00:52:17,001 --> 00:52:19,603
because most of the people
in my life
926
00:52:19,737 --> 00:52:21,405
had always left anyways.
927
00:52:22,473 --> 00:52:26,477
Like, my marriage,
he was never there.
928
00:52:26,610 --> 00:52:29,213
He was always running off and
doing things with his friends
929
00:52:29,346 --> 00:52:32,383
and wanted me to basically
take care of everything,
930
00:52:32,516 --> 00:52:34,018
so I did.
931
00:52:34,151 --> 00:52:37,488
That was no fun
because I worked all the time.
932
00:52:37,621 --> 00:52:39,590
I had to 'cause he wanted
this giant life,
933
00:52:39,723 --> 00:52:41,725
and so I built it.
934
00:52:41,859 --> 00:52:43,894
And when the kids moved out,
935
00:52:44,028 --> 00:52:46,230
he decided he didn't want
to be there either.
936
00:52:49,767 --> 00:52:52,770
And make me able to deal
with being alone.
937
00:52:52,903 --> 00:52:53,937
♪ ♪
938
00:52:54,071 --> 00:52:56,540
I function okay alone.
939
00:52:56,674 --> 00:52:59,043
Well, I got a half a can,
thankfully.
940
00:52:59,176 --> 00:53:02,346
So that's not bad
for one little spot.
941
00:53:02,479 --> 00:53:03,881
♪ ♪
942
00:53:04,014 --> 00:53:08,752
That's just what I need to do
all the time now, every day.
943
00:53:08,886 --> 00:53:12,990
I need to make sure
that I'm doing something
944
00:53:13,123 --> 00:53:16,827
to prepare
for the upcoming days.
945
00:53:17,995 --> 00:53:24,968
♪ ♪
946
00:53:34,078 --> 00:53:37,514
‐ I really thought about going
for a walk,
947
00:53:37,648 --> 00:53:40,718
but really crazy windy day,
948
00:53:40,851 --> 00:53:42,786
and I don't know what it's
gonna bring for weather.
949
00:53:42,920 --> 00:53:44,988
It's hard to tell.
Clouds are moving fast,
950
00:53:45,122 --> 00:53:49,093
and the winds are just howling.
951
00:53:51,295 --> 00:53:52,196
Look at these ducks.
952
00:53:52,329 --> 00:53:53,731
These ducks don't care
953
00:53:53,864 --> 00:53:56,633
about a little wind and wave.
954
00:53:58,202 --> 00:54:01,472
They're headed somewhere,
and you know their feet
955
00:54:01,605 --> 00:54:03,974
are going a million miles
an hour right now.
956
00:54:06,210 --> 00:54:10,547
Just chugging along,
but they've got each other.
957
00:54:10,681 --> 00:54:17,688
♪ ♪
958
00:54:27,131 --> 00:54:31,435
When I began this journey,
I was determined to win
959
00:54:31,568 --> 00:54:33,303
or at least go as far
960
00:54:33,437 --> 00:54:36,273
as I possibly could
before my body gave out.
961
00:54:37,508 --> 00:54:41,211
I came here because this is
the ultimate challenge.
962
00:54:41,345 --> 00:54:44,014
It's the ultimate test
of a survivalist.
963
00:54:44,148 --> 00:54:46,583
It's the ultimate test
of willpower.
964
00:54:46,717 --> 00:54:49,353
It's the ultimate test
of your mind,
965
00:54:49,486 --> 00:54:52,623
your body,
and your spiritual connection.
966
00:54:52,756 --> 00:54:54,057
♪ ♪
967
00:54:54,191 --> 00:54:57,995
And I knew that
the only way to succeed
968
00:54:58,128 --> 00:55:01,865
was to forget about home,
to forget about my wife,
969
00:55:01,999 --> 00:55:05,669
my son, and to forget
about my daughter
970
00:55:05,803 --> 00:55:08,172
and to immerse myself
into this life.
971
00:55:08,305 --> 00:55:11,275
♪ ♪
972
00:55:11,408 --> 00:55:14,645
And I've found
that I can't do that.
973
00:55:14,778 --> 00:55:16,814
♪ ♪
974
00:55:16,947 --> 00:55:20,250
They are woven into the fabric
of my heart and my soul.
975
00:55:20,384 --> 00:55:21,485
♪ ♪
976
00:55:21,618 --> 00:55:23,854
I find myself
977
00:55:23,987 --> 00:55:26,790
continually thinking
of my daughter,
978
00:55:26,924 --> 00:55:29,927
and I realize that
I'm actually going through
979
00:55:30,060 --> 00:55:33,063
the same grieving process
that I am at home.
980
00:55:34,264 --> 00:55:36,967
But the difference is, at home
981
00:55:37,067 --> 00:55:39,469
I can look
into the eyes of my wife,
982
00:55:39,603 --> 00:55:41,805
I can look
into the eyes of my son,
983
00:55:41,939 --> 00:55:45,309
and I see a part of her there,
and that soothes me,
984
00:55:45,442 --> 00:55:47,377
and that comforts me.
985
00:55:47,511 --> 00:55:49,413
And I don't have that here.
986
00:55:49,546 --> 00:55:56,553
♪ ♪
987
00:56:04,595 --> 00:56:07,431
[beeping]
988
00:56:07,564 --> 00:56:10,901
♪ ♪
989
00:56:11,001 --> 00:56:14,838
This is Jordon.
I am officially tapping out.
990
00:56:14,972 --> 00:56:21,979
♪ ♪
991
00:56:27,384 --> 00:56:31,622
I'm ready to head back
and be with my family.
992
00:56:32,789 --> 00:56:36,994
It is a very,
very difficult decision.
993
00:56:37,127 --> 00:56:40,264
You know, if I was here,
and it was cold,
994
00:56:40,397 --> 00:56:41,865
and my shelter burned down,
995
00:56:41,999 --> 00:56:43,700
or there was
a medical emergency,
996
00:56:43,834 --> 00:56:44,935
or I was starving,
997
00:56:45,068 --> 00:56:47,437
everyone would understand
and say,
998
00:56:47,571 --> 00:56:50,307
"Hey, he's got to go,"
999
00:56:50,440 --> 00:56:52,609
but I'm okay with saying,
1000
00:56:52,743 --> 00:56:55,545
"This is who I am,
and this is my time to leave,"
1001
00:56:55,679 --> 00:56:59,182
and to leave for my family
and to leave for myself.
1002
00:57:00,183 --> 00:57:02,753
♪ ♪
1003
00:57:02,886 --> 00:57:07,291
I am naturally
such a competitive person.
1004
00:57:07,424 --> 00:57:11,561
I figured that I would have
to be dragged from the show.
1005
00:57:11,695 --> 00:57:13,630
I never thought
that my boundary
1006
00:57:13,764 --> 00:57:16,433
was gonna come
in an emotional form,
1007
00:57:16,566 --> 00:57:20,003
but one of my biggest
takeaways from this
1008
00:57:20,137 --> 00:57:22,572
is that I'm not missing out.
1009
00:57:22,706 --> 00:57:24,408
There are parts of me
1010
00:57:24,541 --> 00:57:27,878
that sometimes longs
for the adventures
1011
00:57:28,011 --> 00:57:30,013
as a younger man,
1012
00:57:30,147 --> 00:57:32,015
but then I come out here,
1013
00:57:32,149 --> 00:57:35,018
and I realize very quickly
1014
00:57:35,152 --> 00:57:37,621
I don't get the same thrill
1015
00:57:37,754 --> 00:57:41,525
out of experiencing
these things by myself.
1016
00:57:41,658 --> 00:57:43,894
The real excitement
comes from sharing
1017
00:57:44,027 --> 00:57:47,164
those moments with my family.
1018
00:57:47,297 --> 00:57:51,168
All this time
seeking to be alone,
1019
00:57:51,301 --> 00:57:53,203
and yet maybe I don't want
to be alone.
1020
00:57:53,337 --> 00:57:56,606
♪ ♪
1021
00:58:00,877 --> 00:58:03,747
[dramatic music]
1022
00:58:03,880 --> 00:58:10,887
♪ ♪
1023
00:58:13,056 --> 00:58:15,792
‐ Jordon, thank you for sharing
your story with us today.
1024
00:58:15,926 --> 00:58:17,427
You have dealt with tragedy,
1025
00:58:17,561 --> 00:58:19,997
and yet you are
the happiest person,
1026
00:58:20,130 --> 00:58:22,966
and I think that happiness
has got to do
1027
00:58:23,100 --> 00:58:26,336
with this authentic connection
with your family.
1028
00:58:26,470 --> 00:58:28,939
‐ My wife and son
are everything to me,
1029
00:58:29,072 --> 00:58:31,908
and so possibly winning
$1/2 million,
1030
00:58:32,042 --> 00:58:34,978
all I could think about
was paying off our house
1031
00:58:35,112 --> 00:58:37,614
and any bills
and basically allowing me
1032
00:58:37,748 --> 00:58:40,217
to work less
to spend time with my family.
1033
00:58:40,350 --> 00:58:42,319
‐ I know, for a lot of people
on the show,
1034
00:58:42,452 --> 00:58:44,121
one of the hardest things is,
1035
00:58:44,254 --> 00:58:46,123
you know, being alone,
but it's more than that.
1036
00:58:46,256 --> 00:58:47,624
It's being alone
with your thoughts.
1037
00:58:47,758 --> 00:58:49,726
‐ I spent a lot of time
in my life alone
1038
00:58:49,860 --> 00:58:51,661
and doing adventures alone,
1039
00:58:51,795 --> 00:58:54,798
and I thought that I was
really gonna be rekindling
1040
00:58:54,931 --> 00:58:57,667
some of that adventurous spirit
coming out here,
1041
00:58:57,801 --> 00:58:59,770
and going into this,
my strategy
1042
00:58:59,903 --> 00:59:04,074
was really to focus on myself
and my survival tasks at hand
1043
00:59:04,207 --> 00:59:07,244
and not even allow myself
to think about my family.
1044
00:59:07,377 --> 00:59:08,979
‐ Things like fishing,
just standing there
1045
00:59:09,112 --> 00:59:11,481
for hours and hours, I mean,
it's hard in those moments
1046
00:59:11,615 --> 00:59:13,150
to keep your mind busy.
1047
00:59:13,283 --> 00:59:15,519
‐ Yeah, and I think that's
when it hit me the hardest.
1048
00:59:15,652 --> 00:59:17,654
It's different when
you're talking about grieving
1049
00:59:17,788 --> 00:59:19,423
because it's a lot harder
to control
1050
00:59:19,556 --> 00:59:21,358
when those moments hit you.
1051
00:59:21,491 --> 00:59:23,026
Once you start doing things
1052
00:59:23,160 --> 00:59:25,529
like picking berries
or fishing,
1053
00:59:25,662 --> 00:59:28,398
your hands may be busy,
but your mind is idle
1054
00:59:28,532 --> 00:59:32,135
and free to wander
to those darker places,
1055
00:59:32,269 --> 00:59:36,606
and I came to the realization
that I actually needed
1056
00:59:36,740 --> 00:59:37,841
my wife and my son.
1057
00:59:37,974 --> 00:59:39,543
They're part
of my coping mechanism
1058
00:59:39,676 --> 00:59:41,178
of dealing with grief.
1059
00:59:41,311 --> 00:59:43,680
Being out there
and trying to process it alone
1060
00:59:43,814 --> 00:59:46,450
was so much more difficult
than I ever imagined.
1061
00:59:46,583 --> 00:59:50,020
The joy of being out here,
of being outdoors,
1062
00:59:50,153 --> 00:59:52,255
of making things
and troubleshooting
1063
00:59:52,389 --> 00:59:54,958
and all that kind of stuff,
1064
00:59:55,092 --> 00:59:57,127
that joy is fading.
1065
00:59:57,260 --> 01:00:00,263
‐ You compared your time
on "Alone" to gambling.
1066
01:00:00,397 --> 01:00:03,433
‐ Yeah, it really felt
like a gamble in a way
1067
01:00:03,567 --> 01:00:06,603
because you don't know
how the fishing is going to be.
1068
01:00:06,736 --> 01:00:09,706
You don't know how the game
hunting is going to be.
1069
01:00:09,840 --> 01:00:14,044
Maybe bring my bow just in case
I scare up any grouse.
1070
01:00:15,045 --> 01:00:17,647
You also don't know how
your competitors are doing.
1071
01:00:17,781 --> 01:00:20,350
You're thinking everyone else
has a better fishing hole
1072
01:00:20,484 --> 01:00:22,185
or better hunting grounds.
1073
01:00:22,319 --> 01:00:23,720
‐ I mean, that was a struggle
for you, right?
1074
01:00:23,854 --> 01:00:26,156
‐ It absolutely was, you know?
1075
01:00:26,289 --> 01:00:27,991
Here I am on Choko Lake
thinking
1076
01:00:28,125 --> 01:00:32,095
that the fishing is easy,
and that wasn't the case.
1077
01:00:32,229 --> 01:00:34,865
‐ You spent a ton of time
on that log, your fishing pier,
1078
01:00:34,998 --> 01:00:36,933
and tell us about
that incredible moment
1079
01:00:37,033 --> 01:00:39,903
when you hooked that trout
and dragged it to shore.
1080
01:00:40,036 --> 01:00:42,873
‐ I was in utter disbelief
when I hooked that fish.
1081
01:00:43,006 --> 01:00:45,075
[laughing]
Yeah!
1082
01:00:45,208 --> 01:00:47,377
Yeah!
1083
01:00:47,511 --> 01:00:52,282
And I was in such shock,
and to finally get that fish
1084
01:00:52,415 --> 01:00:54,885
made me feel
like I did something
1085
01:00:55,018 --> 01:00:57,387
that is actually contributing
to survival,
1086
01:00:57,521 --> 01:00:58,855
and I could not wait
to eat it.
1087
01:00:58,989 --> 01:01:01,458
‐ Oh, yeah, your joy at the end
of that was just great.
1088
01:01:01,591 --> 01:01:05,328
I totally knew how that fell.
Just, like, so exciting.
1089
01:01:05,462 --> 01:01:07,931
‐ Whoo!
‐ Tell me about the importance
1090
01:01:08,064 --> 01:01:09,366
of those small victories
for you.
1091
01:01:09,499 --> 01:01:11,334
‐ Those small victories
were everything.
1092
01:01:11,468 --> 01:01:13,303
Look what I found.
1093
01:01:13,436 --> 01:01:16,206
So just finding a couple
of gooseberries
1094
01:01:16,339 --> 01:01:18,275
underneath the leaves
or finding
1095
01:01:18,408 --> 01:01:21,211
the perfect alder branch
to make the door handle,
1096
01:01:21,344 --> 01:01:23,380
any little win felt like
1097
01:01:23,513 --> 01:01:26,116
it was just another
check mark of,
1098
01:01:26,249 --> 01:01:27,250
hey, I'm making it.
1099
01:01:27,384 --> 01:01:28,885
I'm getting there.
‐ Yeah.
1100
01:01:29,019 --> 01:01:30,787
‐ The remains of the flowers
1101
01:01:30,921 --> 01:01:32,122
look like little suns,
1102
01:01:32,255 --> 01:01:35,125
and that is enough
to make me smile this morning.
1103
01:01:35,258 --> 01:01:37,127
‐ Now, let's talk about
your permanent shelter.
1104
01:01:37,260 --> 01:01:41,731
‐ I had a strong plan going in
to make a solid shelter
1105
01:01:41,865 --> 01:01:44,134
and feel like
I actually have a home.
1106
01:01:44,267 --> 01:01:45,468
‐ Feels good to be in there
1107
01:01:45,602 --> 01:01:47,137
when other things
could be going wrong.
1108
01:01:47,270 --> 01:01:49,773
‐ Yeah, it's kind of like
when you come home from work,
1109
01:01:49,906 --> 01:01:51,107
and you put down your wallet
1110
01:01:51,241 --> 01:01:52,742
and your keys
in that one spot.
1111
01:01:52,876 --> 01:01:55,612
I wanted to be able to walk
into my shelter and feel like
1112
01:01:55,745 --> 01:01:59,416
I had a place for everything
and everything in its place.
1113
01:01:59,549 --> 01:02:01,985
Spot for my hat at night.
1114
01:02:02,118 --> 01:02:04,087
That's something
that kept me mentally healthy
1115
01:02:04,221 --> 01:02:05,088
during that time.
1116
01:02:05,222 --> 01:02:06,556
‐ Yeah, totally.
1117
01:02:06,690 --> 01:02:08,692
I always have to have a shelf
of treasures and whatever.
1118
01:02:08,825 --> 01:02:10,694
It doesn't even matter if it's,
like, a pile of leaves.
1119
01:02:10,827 --> 01:02:12,028
I have to have, like, my‐‐
1120
01:02:12,162 --> 01:02:14,931
to feel that kind of sense
of, you're at home,
1121
01:02:15,065 --> 01:02:16,600
and it feels good
to be in there
1122
01:02:16,733 --> 01:02:18,335
when other things
could be going wrong.
1123
01:02:18,468 --> 01:02:19,703
‐ Exactly.
[both laugh]
1124
01:02:19,836 --> 01:02:22,105
‐ Jordon, your story
is inspiring.
1125
01:02:22,239 --> 01:02:23,373
Thank you for setting
1126
01:02:23,506 --> 01:02:26,476
such a beautiful example
for us to follow.
1127
01:02:26,610 --> 01:02:28,211
‐ Thank you.
I'm very, very lucky.
1128
01:02:28,345 --> 01:02:31,147
♪ ♪
1129
01:02:31,281 --> 01:02:33,483
‐ Holy [bleep].
Those are bears.
1130
01:02:33,617 --> 01:02:35,085
Hey!
[air horn blares]
1131
01:02:35,218 --> 01:02:38,455
‐ I need to get some food.
Definitely seeing some grouse.
1132
01:02:41,024 --> 01:02:44,394
‐ Oh, [bleep]. Hornets.
Ah, [bleep].
1133
01:02:44,527 --> 01:02:45,729
‐ Some fresh deer sign.
1134
01:02:45,862 --> 01:02:47,330
That gives me
a little bit of confidence
1135
01:02:47,464 --> 01:02:49,099
that we're gonna have
some deer here.
1136
01:02:51,301 --> 01:02:58,308
♪ ♪