1 00:00:05,572 --> 00:00:08,442 [dramatic music] 2 00:00:08,575 --> 00:00:15,582 ♪ ♪ 3 00:00:16,049 --> 00:00:17,518 ‐ I am officially tapping out. 4 00:00:17,651 --> 00:00:20,554 No amount of glory is worth harming yourself 5 00:00:20,687 --> 00:00:23,524 to the level that starvation can do. 6 00:00:23,657 --> 00:00:26,560 ‐ Yes! Oh, thank you, fish. 7 00:00:26,693 --> 00:00:28,428 I am all in right now on fish. 8 00:00:28,562 --> 00:00:30,697 I'm going to spend a lot of time on this boat. 9 00:00:30,831 --> 00:00:33,567 ‐ There's so many reasons I want to make a pit house. 10 00:00:33,700 --> 00:00:37,738 They are incredibly efficient at keeping in heat. 11 00:00:37,871 --> 00:00:39,673 ‐ I'm not living up to what I want 12 00:00:39,806 --> 00:00:41,975 to live up to as a survivalist. 13 00:00:42,109 --> 00:00:44,645 I am officially tapping out. 14 00:00:44,778 --> 00:00:47,247 Family is more important then my ego. 15 00:00:47,381 --> 00:00:49,516 I want to be driven by what's in my heart. 16 00:00:49,650 --> 00:00:56,657 ♪ ♪ 17 00:01:06,099 --> 00:01:09,670 narrator: In "Alone's" most terrifying location yet, 18 00:01:09,803 --> 00:01:12,706 10 participants face the deadliest predator 19 00:01:12,839 --> 00:01:14,575 in North America. 20 00:01:14,708 --> 00:01:16,376 ‐ There he is right there. ‐ Grizzly bears. 21 00:01:16,510 --> 00:01:17,444 ‐ Hey, bear! 22 00:01:17,578 --> 00:01:18,512 ‐ There's a lot of grizzly here. 23 00:01:18,645 --> 00:01:19,513 I'm gonna have to live with them. 24 00:01:19,646 --> 00:01:20,747 ‐ Go on, get! 25 00:01:20,881 --> 00:01:22,583 ‐ Every second we're on the land, 26 00:01:22,716 --> 00:01:23,584 we're being hunted. 27 00:01:23,717 --> 00:01:25,285 ‐ Holy [bleep], mountain lion. 28 00:01:25,419 --> 00:01:27,120 ‐ It's circling around my shelter. 29 00:01:27,254 --> 00:01:28,589 narrator: Bone chilling cold. 30 00:01:28,722 --> 00:01:29,957 ‐ Winter is coming. 31 00:01:30,090 --> 00:01:32,192 You combine the wind with the rain and the cold, 32 00:01:32,326 --> 00:01:34,127 this place could make the Arctic look easy. 33 00:01:34,261 --> 00:01:35,829 Oh [bleep]. 34 00:01:35,963 --> 00:01:37,698 narrator: And complete isolation. 35 00:01:37,831 --> 00:01:39,600 ‐ You cannot hide from yourself, 36 00:01:39,733 --> 00:01:40,767 mentally and emotionally. 37 00:01:40,901 --> 00:01:41,935 ‐ Ahh! 38 00:01:42,069 --> 00:01:43,303 ‐ There's no place to go. 39 00:01:43,437 --> 00:01:45,772 ‐ I am suffering from loneliness. 40 00:01:45,906 --> 00:01:47,341 narrator: Who will survive? 41 00:01:47,474 --> 00:01:48,942 ‐ Yes, yes! 42 00:01:49,076 --> 00:01:51,511 ‐ This could be the end. 43 00:01:51,645 --> 00:01:53,880 ‐ I don't want to tap, but I don't want to die either. 44 00:01:54,014 --> 00:01:56,383 ‐ You have to suffer before you can succeed. 45 00:01:56,516 --> 00:01:57,584 ‐ [retching] 46 00:01:57,718 --> 00:02:00,454 narrator: The last one standing wins. 47 00:02:00,587 --> 00:02:02,956 ‐ At what point do I push the button? 48 00:02:03,090 --> 00:02:05,959 [dramatic music] 49 00:02:06,093 --> 00:02:13,100 ♪ ♪ 50 00:02:25,612 --> 00:02:29,149 [birds chirping] 51 00:02:42,796 --> 00:02:45,332 ‐ [whispering] I just shot a buck. 52 00:03:32,279 --> 00:03:35,148 [tense music] 53 00:03:35,282 --> 00:03:42,289 ♪ ♪ 54 00:04:26,733 --> 00:04:29,803 Oh, my God. 55 00:04:29,936 --> 00:04:31,805 Oh... 56 00:04:31,938 --> 00:04:33,774 ♪ ♪ 57 00:04:33,907 --> 00:04:37,210 [breathes deeply] 58 00:04:37,344 --> 00:04:44,351 ♪ ♪ 59 00:04:53,460 --> 00:04:55,762 Oh, my God. 60 00:04:55,896 --> 00:04:57,063 ♪ ♪ 61 00:04:57,197 --> 00:04:59,299 I killed it. 62 00:04:59,432 --> 00:05:00,801 Yeah! 63 00:05:00,934 --> 00:05:05,872 ♪ ♪ 64 00:05:06,006 --> 00:05:08,842 Mm. Whew! 65 00:05:08,975 --> 00:05:11,444 Hunting is something that I've done my whole life. 66 00:05:11,578 --> 00:05:13,814 But I've always had support, 67 00:05:13,947 --> 00:05:15,849 I've always been able to bring things. 68 00:05:15,982 --> 00:05:19,119 But to do it completely on your own, self‐supported, 69 00:05:19,252 --> 00:05:21,121 just from what the land provides, 70 00:05:21,254 --> 00:05:23,156 that's a different story. 71 00:05:23,290 --> 00:05:30,297 ♪ ♪ 72 00:05:31,798 --> 00:05:33,834 Backstraps tonight! 73 00:05:33,967 --> 00:05:36,102 I'm going to go ahead and drop the guts right here, 74 00:05:36,236 --> 00:05:39,339 and then drag him away. 75 00:05:39,472 --> 00:05:42,008 Cut those hind quarters off and take those. 76 00:05:42,142 --> 00:05:43,076 [dramatic music] 77 00:05:43,210 --> 00:05:44,578 This location is different 78 00:05:44,711 --> 00:05:47,814 because there is a major predator here. 79 00:05:47,948 --> 00:05:50,016 So I have to get this thing gutted, 80 00:05:50,150 --> 00:05:51,084 I have to get it quartered out, 81 00:05:51,218 --> 00:05:54,187 I have to get the usable, good meat, 82 00:05:54,321 --> 00:05:56,223 because the last thing that I want to do 83 00:05:56,356 --> 00:05:59,426 is have to deal with a bear coming in here 84 00:05:59,559 --> 00:06:01,962 and wanting to take this kill. 85 00:06:02,095 --> 00:06:03,496 ♪ ♪ 86 00:06:03,630 --> 00:06:07,167 I don't have my pack, so I have to start shuttling the meat 87 00:06:07,300 --> 00:06:10,036 in stages back to the shelter. 88 00:06:10,170 --> 00:06:13,139 [panting] 89 00:06:13,273 --> 00:06:16,576 Oh, man, first load done. 90 00:06:20,680 --> 00:06:23,550 [dramatic music] 91 00:06:23,683 --> 00:06:30,690 ♪ ♪ 92 00:06:37,297 --> 00:06:39,299 ‐ Checking myself here real quick. 93 00:06:52,612 --> 00:06:54,848 I don't remember having any gray in my beard 94 00:06:54,981 --> 00:06:56,549 before this started. 95 00:07:02,322 --> 00:07:04,124 Maybe a little. 96 00:07:04,257 --> 00:07:06,793 [tense music] 97 00:07:06,927 --> 00:07:08,862 I haven't seen any deer. 98 00:07:08,995 --> 00:07:11,965 But every morning, I pick 100 onions, 99 00:07:12,098 --> 00:07:14,834 rose hips, and cranberries. 100 00:07:14,968 --> 00:07:16,303 I'm just working on foraging 101 00:07:16,436 --> 00:07:19,205 'cause that stuff's gonna go away when the snow comes. 102 00:07:19,339 --> 00:07:23,543 ♪ ♪ 103 00:07:23,677 --> 00:07:26,212 Mmm, mmm. 104 00:07:26,346 --> 00:07:29,249 Plants, man, they provide. 105 00:07:29,382 --> 00:07:30,850 ♪ ♪ 106 00:07:30,984 --> 00:07:33,286 Oh, there's my onion friends. 107 00:07:33,420 --> 00:07:34,888 Be with you shortly. 108 00:07:35,021 --> 00:07:38,224 ♪ ♪ 109 00:07:38,358 --> 00:07:39,659 Cranberry hole. 110 00:07:39,793 --> 00:07:42,429 ♪ ♪ 111 00:07:42,562 --> 00:07:45,398 Tiny, but sure are tasty. 112 00:07:45,532 --> 00:07:47,200 ♪ ♪ 113 00:07:51,604 --> 00:07:55,041 These cranberries have been in this hole for almost 3 weeks. 114 00:07:56,476 --> 00:07:57,911 Still are good. 115 00:07:58,044 --> 00:08:00,413 [tense music] 116 00:08:00,547 --> 00:08:04,384 It's calories over comfort right now. 117 00:08:04,517 --> 00:08:06,252 Every spare minute I have has to go 118 00:08:06,386 --> 00:08:08,254 to trying to acquire calories. 119 00:08:08,388 --> 00:08:10,457 ♪ ♪ 120 00:08:10,590 --> 00:08:13,259 Moderation, eat 'em in moderation. 121 00:08:13,393 --> 00:08:15,362 I have to pick onions. 122 00:08:15,495 --> 00:08:16,963 ♪ ♪ 123 00:08:17,097 --> 00:08:18,398 I don't know when they disappear. 124 00:08:18,531 --> 00:08:20,567 Unfamiliar with the land. 125 00:08:20,700 --> 00:08:22,102 All right, let's go. 126 00:08:22,235 --> 00:08:24,871 ♪ ♪ 127 00:08:25,005 --> 00:08:28,775 If they disappear and I don't have 1,000 or more, 128 00:08:28,908 --> 00:08:32,846 that's a big shame on me. 129 00:08:32,979 --> 00:08:36,349 It's almost like harvesting out of the garden, 130 00:08:36,483 --> 00:08:39,219 which I would be doing right now if I was at home. 131 00:08:40,987 --> 00:08:43,556 I'd really like to start community farms 132 00:08:43,690 --> 00:08:46,493 in rural Alaska. 133 00:08:46,626 --> 00:08:49,295 I want to use the money that I could win 134 00:08:49,429 --> 00:08:52,966 to expose people to wilderness 135 00:08:53,099 --> 00:08:56,102 and wild places and intact ecosystems. 136 00:08:56,236 --> 00:08:58,805 Two thirds of our planet lives in urban areas, 137 00:08:58,938 --> 00:09:01,941 which is fine, but it's hard to get a population 138 00:09:02,075 --> 00:09:04,444 that care about wild places like this 139 00:09:04,577 --> 00:09:06,279 if they've never been in it. 140 00:09:06,413 --> 00:09:07,313 ♪ ♪ 141 00:09:07,447 --> 00:09:09,382 So, for me, winning the money 142 00:09:09,516 --> 00:09:13,887 means being able to start my dream of a school or a camp. 143 00:09:14,020 --> 00:09:16,322 I want to build that. 144 00:09:16,456 --> 00:09:19,592 I like this foraging business, man. 145 00:09:19,726 --> 00:09:23,096 Sitting on my ass picking calories. 146 00:09:23,229 --> 00:09:25,165 Keep doing it. 147 00:09:25,298 --> 00:09:28,134 [dramatic music] 148 00:09:28,268 --> 00:09:34,974 ♪ ♪ 149 00:09:41,347 --> 00:09:43,650 ‐ Close up of my face. 150 00:09:43,783 --> 00:09:45,518 Look at those cheek bones. 151 00:09:49,089 --> 00:09:50,990 Seriously sunken in. 152 00:09:52,125 --> 00:09:53,726 Look at that brow. 153 00:09:55,361 --> 00:09:57,230 Look at that skull structure. 154 00:09:57,363 --> 00:09:59,132 You think that that's not, 155 00:09:59,265 --> 00:10:04,070 like Cro‐Magnon or like early human? 156 00:10:05,705 --> 00:10:06,973 Those high ridges. 157 00:10:07,107 --> 00:10:08,341 [exhales sharply] 158 00:10:08,475 --> 00:10:10,477 It's a tough skull. 159 00:10:10,610 --> 00:10:13,947 Trust me, it's a tough skull. 160 00:10:14,080 --> 00:10:16,349 [dramatic music] 161 00:10:16,483 --> 00:10:17,484 It's getting dark. 162 00:10:17,617 --> 00:10:19,252 ♪ ♪ 163 00:10:19,385 --> 00:10:22,155 I'm gonna head up and check my lines. 164 00:10:22,288 --> 00:10:24,357 ♪ ♪ 165 00:10:24,491 --> 00:10:27,627 I would like to believe there's a fish on my line. 166 00:10:27,760 --> 00:10:30,230 ♪ ♪ 167 00:10:30,363 --> 00:10:31,931 Tell you what, I miss my family. 168 00:10:32,065 --> 00:10:33,333 ♪ ♪ 169 00:10:33,466 --> 00:10:35,802 The struggle for me is the value 170 00:10:35,935 --> 00:10:38,071 that I place on my responsibility 171 00:10:38,204 --> 00:10:41,107 to be a dad, since I didn't have a dad. 172 00:10:41,241 --> 00:10:43,076 ♪ ♪ 173 00:10:43,209 --> 00:10:45,345 When you don't have that resource, 174 00:10:45,478 --> 00:10:48,014 especially for boy stuff, 175 00:10:48,148 --> 00:10:51,284 you kind of learn from another kid. 176 00:10:51,417 --> 00:10:53,553 But there was no heart in it. 177 00:10:53,686 --> 00:10:56,256 That's what I think is interesting for me. 178 00:10:56,389 --> 00:10:59,893 Not having a dad that has a passion. 179 00:11:00,093 --> 00:11:03,263 I feel like my passion is my family. 180 00:11:03,396 --> 00:11:05,798 Maybe that's because of my own upbringing. 181 00:11:05,932 --> 00:11:07,934 ♪ ♪ 182 00:11:08,034 --> 00:11:09,536 Super exciting. 183 00:11:09,669 --> 00:11:11,070 ♪ ♪ 184 00:11:11,204 --> 00:11:14,073 We all come from a struggle. 185 00:11:14,207 --> 00:11:18,344 At some point, we all struggle, no matter where we come from. 186 00:11:18,478 --> 00:11:21,114 ♪ ♪ 187 00:11:21,247 --> 00:11:22,448 Big fish. 188 00:11:22,582 --> 00:11:25,885 ♪ ♪ 189 00:11:26,019 --> 00:11:27,687 Easy, big fella. 190 00:11:27,820 --> 00:11:29,355 [suspenseful music] 191 00:11:29,489 --> 00:11:33,459 Come on, come on. 192 00:11:33,593 --> 00:11:36,529 ♪ ♪ 193 00:11:36,663 --> 00:11:38,998 [bleep]! 194 00:11:39,132 --> 00:11:41,000 No! 195 00:11:41,134 --> 00:11:41,834 [dramatic music] 196 00:11:45,972 --> 00:11:46,606 ♪ ♪ 197 00:11:46,739 --> 00:11:48,107 [bleep]! 198 00:11:48,241 --> 00:11:52,145 ♪ ♪ 199 00:11:52,278 --> 00:11:53,413 [bleep]. 200 00:11:56,416 --> 00:11:57,984 Damn it. 201 00:11:58,117 --> 00:12:00,153 [dramatic music] 202 00:12:00,286 --> 00:12:01,888 That was a huge bull trout. 203 00:12:02,021 --> 00:12:03,690 ♪ ♪ 204 00:12:03,823 --> 00:12:05,558 My jacket's wet. 205 00:12:05,692 --> 00:12:07,994 ♪ ♪ 206 00:12:08,127 --> 00:12:11,064 I saw that it was just barely hooked on the nose. 207 00:12:11,197 --> 00:12:12,232 [tense music] 208 00:12:12,365 --> 00:12:15,068 Son of a‐‐[bleep]. Dang it. 209 00:12:15,201 --> 00:12:17,203 ♪ ♪ 210 00:12:17,337 --> 00:12:20,440 I saw him slip off right when he got in the shallow water. 211 00:12:20,573 --> 00:12:23,076 God dang it. 212 00:12:23,209 --> 00:12:25,278 All right, we're gonna set it again. 213 00:12:25,411 --> 00:12:27,680 ♪ ♪ 214 00:12:27,814 --> 00:12:30,450 That's a meal for a few days. 215 00:12:30,583 --> 00:12:32,585 That's so many calories. 216 00:12:32,719 --> 00:12:35,722 I could start to replenish stored fat. 217 00:12:35,855 --> 00:12:38,825 It's just such a blast to your time spent. 218 00:12:38,958 --> 00:12:40,260 ♪ ♪ 219 00:12:40,393 --> 00:12:44,030 So I've got to figure this out. 220 00:12:44,163 --> 00:12:46,599 Can't let that happen again. 221 00:12:46,733 --> 00:12:49,569 [dramatic music] 222 00:12:49,702 --> 00:12:56,709 ♪ ♪ 223 00:13:04,917 --> 00:13:07,687 ‐ I just got back to camp with the last load. 224 00:13:11,524 --> 00:13:13,326 [sighs] 225 00:13:13,459 --> 00:13:17,230 I don't think I've ever‐‐ I know I've never‐‐ 226 00:13:17,363 --> 00:13:21,601 I've never reacted like that to‐‐ 227 00:13:21,734 --> 00:13:23,836 to killing a deer or an animal. 228 00:13:23,970 --> 00:13:28,875 But there's‐‐I don't know, being out here and... 229 00:13:29,008 --> 00:13:32,211 ♪ ♪ 230 00:13:32,345 --> 00:13:35,615 Being‐‐having the fish situation be what it is 231 00:13:35,748 --> 00:13:39,385 where it's just, like, staying 232 00:13:39,519 --> 00:13:42,455 maybe just a day or two ahead, 233 00:13:42,588 --> 00:13:44,824 you know, that's all I can do is stay a day or two ahead. 234 00:13:44,957 --> 00:13:48,061 It's just, it was kind of‐‐ 235 00:13:48,194 --> 00:13:49,162 that was worrying me. 236 00:13:49,295 --> 00:13:51,197 That was stressful. 237 00:13:51,331 --> 00:13:54,934 And to have all of that just poof, 238 00:13:55,034 --> 00:13:58,171 lifted off your shoulders is like... 239 00:13:58,304 --> 00:14:02,241 ♪ ♪ 240 00:14:02,375 --> 00:14:03,843 That is a beautiful sight. 241 00:14:03,976 --> 00:14:05,778 [tense music] 242 00:14:05,912 --> 00:14:07,714 [sighs] Man. 243 00:14:07,847 --> 00:14:09,082 ♪ ♪ 244 00:14:09,215 --> 00:14:12,785 I have to get all this stuff cut into strips. 245 00:14:12,919 --> 00:14:15,188 Gotta keep it from spoiling. 246 00:14:15,321 --> 00:14:17,357 Gotta keep a bear from taking it. 247 00:14:17,490 --> 00:14:19,559 ♪ ♪ 248 00:14:19,692 --> 00:14:21,160 Backstrap. 249 00:14:21,294 --> 00:14:24,230 ♪ ♪ 250 00:14:24,364 --> 00:14:25,965 That's the rib meat. 251 00:14:26,099 --> 00:14:27,467 ♪ ♪ 252 00:14:27,600 --> 00:14:28,901 Tenderloin. 253 00:14:29,035 --> 00:14:30,303 ♪ ♪ 254 00:14:30,436 --> 00:14:32,572 That's dinner tonight. 255 00:14:32,705 --> 00:14:34,774 Heart. 256 00:14:34,907 --> 00:14:35,975 That's always the first thing. 257 00:14:36,109 --> 00:14:37,910 You gotta eat the heart first. 258 00:14:38,044 --> 00:14:40,613 I've got to take it all back there and hang it now. 259 00:14:40,747 --> 00:14:42,115 ♪ ♪ 260 00:14:42,248 --> 00:14:44,650 There is a real risk of having meat 261 00:14:44,784 --> 00:14:47,553 hanging in your shelter where there's bears around. 262 00:14:47,687 --> 00:14:51,057 I want to make sure that it's up off the ground 263 00:14:51,190 --> 00:14:53,793 and protected, because that is my future. 264 00:14:53,926 --> 00:14:56,529 ♪ ♪ 265 00:14:56,662 --> 00:14:59,332 Never had to haul meat so far without a pack. 266 00:14:59,465 --> 00:15:02,368 [tense music] 267 00:15:02,502 --> 00:15:09,509 ♪ ♪ 268 00:15:14,647 --> 00:15:16,249 [grunts] 269 00:15:16,382 --> 00:15:23,389 ♪ ♪ 270 00:15:25,758 --> 00:15:29,729 Yeah, that'll work for now. 271 00:15:29,862 --> 00:15:32,165 Revamp it later. 272 00:15:33,666 --> 00:15:36,769 Man, that deer heart is gonna be good tonight. 273 00:15:36,903 --> 00:15:39,338 [dramatic music] 274 00:15:39,472 --> 00:15:43,075 The first meal of any deer or elk that I ever kill, 275 00:15:43,209 --> 00:15:45,311 I always eat the heart first. 276 00:15:45,445 --> 00:15:48,214 It's just kind of a significant thing to me. 277 00:15:48,347 --> 00:15:49,482 ♪ ♪ 278 00:15:49,615 --> 00:15:52,585 Buck heart fried in buck fat. 279 00:15:52,718 --> 00:15:55,388 Man, oh, man. 280 00:15:55,521 --> 00:15:57,857 [tense music] 281 00:15:57,990 --> 00:16:00,726 There's the end of the heart. 282 00:16:00,860 --> 00:16:03,129 ♪ ♪ 283 00:16:03,262 --> 00:16:05,331 Oh, my God. 284 00:16:05,465 --> 00:16:07,500 ♪ ♪ 285 00:16:07,633 --> 00:16:09,101 Mmm. 286 00:16:12,705 --> 00:16:15,374 Oh, my God, that's good. 287 00:16:16,576 --> 00:16:18,444 Whew! 288 00:16:18,578 --> 00:16:20,613 That may be the best thing I ever ate. 289 00:16:24,183 --> 00:16:25,852 Thank you, young buck. 290 00:16:28,154 --> 00:16:30,122 Thank you, thank you. 291 00:16:30,256 --> 00:16:31,791 Mmm. 292 00:16:33,993 --> 00:16:36,863 [dramatic music] 293 00:16:36,996 --> 00:16:43,970 ♪ ♪ 294 00:16:53,613 --> 00:16:56,616 [rain pattering] 295 00:16:58,551 --> 00:17:00,686 ‐ Mm... 296 00:17:00,820 --> 00:17:03,389 Having a slow, slow morning. 297 00:17:05,625 --> 00:17:09,328 It's windy and rainy, cold. 298 00:17:10,830 --> 00:17:14,233 Kind of set it out where my goal is, like, 100 days, 299 00:17:14,367 --> 00:17:17,069 so I'm 23% of the way there. 300 00:17:17,203 --> 00:17:19,705 Every day is just one more percent. 301 00:17:19,839 --> 00:17:24,343 I put that goal out there, mm, 302 00:17:24,477 --> 00:17:27,246 but food, I need food to get there. 303 00:17:36,956 --> 00:17:39,125 I need to get some passive fishing going, 304 00:17:39,258 --> 00:17:42,194 so I think I'm gonna build a fish trap. 305 00:17:42,328 --> 00:17:44,897 [wind whistling] 306 00:17:47,633 --> 00:17:50,403 Before I get to work, it's breakfast time. 307 00:17:50,536 --> 00:17:52,972 [tense music] 308 00:17:53,105 --> 00:17:55,441 All right, shelter, see you tonight. 309 00:17:55,575 --> 00:17:57,677 ♪ ♪ 310 00:17:57,810 --> 00:18:03,249 My little breakfast cranberries, have a few. 311 00:18:03,382 --> 00:18:06,719 Gonna stop by ol' cranberry hole. 312 00:18:06,852 --> 00:18:09,655 ♪ ♪ 313 00:18:09,789 --> 00:18:10,957 This fish trap, I'm pretty excited 314 00:18:11,090 --> 00:18:15,361 about catching fish for me passively, 24/7. 315 00:18:15,494 --> 00:18:17,229 Lots of excitement. 316 00:18:17,363 --> 00:18:20,600 ♪ ♪ 317 00:18:20,733 --> 00:18:22,034 Ooh. 318 00:18:25,938 --> 00:18:27,740 Something has been here. 319 00:18:27,873 --> 00:18:29,475 ♪ ♪ 320 00:18:29,609 --> 00:18:30,776 Something big. 321 00:18:30,910 --> 00:18:33,879 ♪ ♪ 322 00:18:34,013 --> 00:18:37,216 Tore up my fire pit. 323 00:18:37,350 --> 00:18:39,819 Ate my cranberries. 324 00:18:39,952 --> 00:18:41,721 Hey, bear! 325 00:18:53,933 --> 00:18:56,702 I think we had a bear. 326 00:18:56,836 --> 00:18:59,739 That ain't to squirrel moving those rocks. 327 00:19:01,540 --> 00:19:03,542 Ate half my cranberries. 328 00:19:03,676 --> 00:19:05,978 Oh. Any good ones left? 329 00:19:08,014 --> 00:19:11,250 Smell them and see if I can smell the bear's breath. 330 00:19:11,384 --> 00:19:13,653 [tense music] 331 00:19:13,786 --> 00:19:18,824 I'm worried about bears, but I need to get calories. 332 00:19:18,958 --> 00:19:21,193 I am building a fish trap today. 333 00:19:21,327 --> 00:19:24,730 ♪ ♪ 334 00:19:24,864 --> 00:19:27,533 God, it'd be sweet if this works. 335 00:19:27,667 --> 00:19:29,869 Some passive fishing. 336 00:19:30,002 --> 00:19:32,972 ♪ ♪ 337 00:19:33,105 --> 00:19:34,674 Last year there was a land slide 338 00:19:34,807 --> 00:19:36,175 that blocked the Chilko River, 339 00:19:36,308 --> 00:19:38,444 so now it's made it inaccessible 340 00:19:38,577 --> 00:19:40,279 for the salmon to reach the lake. 341 00:19:40,413 --> 00:19:43,315 Got a little system going here, guys. 342 00:19:43,449 --> 00:19:45,885 Migratory bears are showing up to get fish, 343 00:19:46,018 --> 00:19:48,287 and there ain't fish there. 344 00:19:48,421 --> 00:19:51,557 Now they're hungry and they're moving through your territory. 345 00:19:51,691 --> 00:19:53,793 Those bears probably scare me the most 346 00:19:53,926 --> 00:19:55,828 'cause they're the least predictable. 347 00:19:55,961 --> 00:19:58,664 Oh, that smell. 348 00:19:58,798 --> 00:20:00,599 Hey, bear! 349 00:20:05,237 --> 00:20:07,206 I just caught wind of something. 350 00:20:07,339 --> 00:20:08,207 [dramatic music] 351 00:20:08,340 --> 00:20:09,909 It's a little unnerving to know, 352 00:20:10,042 --> 00:20:12,878 like, what are they gonna turn to, skunk cabbage? 353 00:20:13,012 --> 00:20:14,947 "Alone" contestants? 354 00:20:15,081 --> 00:20:16,415 These bears aren't gonna come here and turn around and say, 355 00:20:16,549 --> 00:20:18,451 "Oh, the fish aren't here" and back out of here. 356 00:20:18,584 --> 00:20:19,885 They're gonna stay here, 357 00:20:20,019 --> 00:20:21,721 and they're gonna get desperate. 358 00:20:21,854 --> 00:20:24,924 Ah it looks fantastic. 359 00:20:25,057 --> 00:20:27,526 There's the entrance, 360 00:20:27,660 --> 00:20:30,863 this comes out and there's the trap. 361 00:20:30,996 --> 00:20:35,801 Fish go right in, can't get out. 362 00:20:35,935 --> 00:20:40,573 I'm gonna tie it on and go get it in the water. 363 00:20:42,174 --> 00:20:44,210 It's gonna be a producer, man. 364 00:20:44,343 --> 00:20:47,213 [tense music] 365 00:20:47,346 --> 00:20:51,317 ♪ ♪ 366 00:20:51,450 --> 00:20:55,121 ‐ Here we go, setting the fish trap. 367 00:20:55,254 --> 00:21:02,328 ♪ ♪ 368 00:21:08,601 --> 00:21:11,904 I have no idea how deep it is. 369 00:21:12,037 --> 00:21:16,642 All right, trap, catch some fish, please. 370 00:21:20,212 --> 00:21:22,248 Fish trap in. 371 00:21:26,786 --> 00:21:29,522 That's my buoy. 372 00:21:29,655 --> 00:21:33,492 It didn't sink. We're good, man. 373 00:21:33,626 --> 00:21:35,961 Let's get the boat put away. 374 00:21:36,095 --> 00:21:38,964 [dramatic music] 375 00:21:39,098 --> 00:21:45,771 ♪ ♪ 376 00:21:51,844 --> 00:21:54,446 ‐ Is there a point in getting out of my sleeping bag? 377 00:21:58,384 --> 00:22:01,253 Mm. 378 00:22:01,387 --> 00:22:06,759 My lips are okay and I can still smile so it's alright. 379 00:22:08,894 --> 00:22:10,029 My shirt needs a wash though. 380 00:22:10,162 --> 00:22:11,864 The reason I want to move into the pit house, 381 00:22:11,997 --> 00:22:13,032 'cause then I can wash clothing 382 00:22:13,165 --> 00:22:14,433 even when the weather is nasty 383 00:22:14,567 --> 00:22:17,136 and then I can dry it over the fire. 384 00:22:18,671 --> 00:22:20,439 Yep, really, really ready, 385 00:22:20,573 --> 00:22:23,509 really ready to move into my house. 386 00:22:23,642 --> 00:22:28,981 ♪ ♪ 387 00:22:29,114 --> 00:22:31,050 All right, before I move in, 388 00:22:31,183 --> 00:22:34,753 I need to get this fireplace area sorted. 389 00:22:34,887 --> 00:22:36,422 With the tarp over the smoke hole, 390 00:22:36,555 --> 00:22:38,090 I'm not really sure how this is gonna work out 391 00:22:38,224 --> 00:22:41,060 ventilation‐wise, so this is kind of a test. 392 00:22:41,193 --> 00:22:48,200 ♪ ♪ 393 00:22:51,837 --> 00:22:55,074 So far it's a smoke house. 394 00:22:55,207 --> 00:22:59,078 ♪ ♪ 395 00:22:59,211 --> 00:23:00,746 It's pulling all the air in from over there, 396 00:23:00,880 --> 00:23:03,249 just bringing the smoke inside. 397 00:23:05,184 --> 00:23:07,119 I have to figure out a way to temporarily open 398 00:23:07,253 --> 00:23:10,089 part of the smoke hole up top. 399 00:23:10,222 --> 00:23:11,357 Let me just go‐‐ 400 00:23:11,490 --> 00:23:15,461 I'm gonna grab a pole and see if I can do that. 401 00:23:15,594 --> 00:23:17,696 It's not calm here very often. 402 00:23:17,830 --> 00:23:21,500 It's very, very windy, 403 00:23:21,634 --> 00:23:25,371 and I have drafts around my door. 404 00:23:25,504 --> 00:23:29,074 So when the wind comes from the north, 405 00:23:29,208 --> 00:23:33,779 my fireplace does not function well. 406 00:23:33,913 --> 00:23:36,181 Potentially that actually made it worse. 407 00:23:36,315 --> 00:23:40,920 ♪ ♪ 408 00:23:41,053 --> 00:23:44,690 This isn't working. I can't move in. 409 00:23:44,823 --> 00:23:47,626 This is not gonna be good for my lungs. 410 00:23:47,760 --> 00:23:49,962 Smoke inhalation over a long periods of time 411 00:23:50,095 --> 00:23:53,499 can make you feel utterly rubbish. 412 00:23:53,632 --> 00:23:56,635 It's low level carbon monoxide poisoning. 413 00:23:56,769 --> 00:23:59,838 But I can't completely not have a fire. 414 00:24:00,039 --> 00:24:07,046 ♪ ♪ 415 00:24:08,147 --> 00:24:11,016 [dramatic music] 416 00:24:11,150 --> 00:24:18,157 ♪ ♪ 417 00:24:27,366 --> 00:24:28,600 ‐ Good morning. 418 00:24:29,868 --> 00:24:33,472 It's about five degrees colder today, noticeable. 419 00:24:34,807 --> 00:24:36,008 I'm gonna drink some hot water 420 00:24:36,141 --> 00:24:39,878 for my morning wake up, hot like coffee. 421 00:24:42,381 --> 00:24:45,150 [slurps] 422 00:24:45,284 --> 00:24:47,820 Wow, that's warm. 423 00:24:50,723 --> 00:24:54,326 Holy warm. That's really hot. 424 00:25:00,399 --> 00:25:03,068 Might as well go back in for seconds, though. 425 00:25:03,202 --> 00:25:04,737 Just dumb enough. 426 00:25:06,638 --> 00:25:08,807 [slurps] 427 00:25:08,941 --> 00:25:12,144 Yep, just as hot as the first time. 428 00:25:12,277 --> 00:25:14,913 [tense music] 429 00:25:15,047 --> 00:25:16,281 All right, back to work. 430 00:25:16,415 --> 00:25:17,950 ♪ ♪ 431 00:25:18,083 --> 00:25:19,051 First thing's first. 432 00:25:19,184 --> 00:25:21,887 Let's remedy the fishing situation 433 00:25:22,021 --> 00:25:23,789 so we don't lose another fish. 434 00:25:23,922 --> 00:25:26,158 ♪ ♪ 435 00:25:26,291 --> 00:25:31,397 I'm just gonna evenly space these around it, 436 00:25:31,530 --> 00:25:35,567 and just keep sectioning it down 437 00:25:35,701 --> 00:25:41,373 until we get to the desired size of the net we want. 438 00:25:41,507 --> 00:25:43,175 ♪ ♪ 439 00:25:43,308 --> 00:25:44,443 Awesome. 440 00:25:46,478 --> 00:25:47,813 It's a good start. 441 00:25:47,946 --> 00:25:50,649 ♪ ♪ 442 00:25:50,783 --> 00:25:55,387 Fishing, it was almost what's for breakfast. 443 00:25:55,521 --> 00:25:58,457 I would say I'm in one of the worst of times. 444 00:25:58,590 --> 00:26:01,293 I'm not catching any or killing any food. 445 00:26:01,427 --> 00:26:02,928 ♪ ♪ 446 00:26:03,062 --> 00:26:05,431 This is the longest I've ever gone without eating. 447 00:26:05,564 --> 00:26:09,201 ♪ ♪ 448 00:26:09,334 --> 00:26:16,341 Well, task one has been completed. 449 00:26:20,279 --> 00:26:21,647 I'm happy with it. 450 00:26:21,780 --> 00:26:24,983 It should serve its purpose. 451 00:26:25,117 --> 00:26:27,319 Perfect. 452 00:26:27,453 --> 00:26:29,121 It works. 453 00:26:29,254 --> 00:26:32,791 [wind whistling] 454 00:26:36,695 --> 00:26:39,698 [waves crashing] 455 00:26:39,832 --> 00:26:41,767 Get to test out our net. 456 00:26:41,900 --> 00:26:43,635 ♪ ♪ 457 00:26:43,769 --> 00:26:45,938 I'm always optimistic about tomorrow. 458 00:26:46,071 --> 00:26:46,939 ♪ ♪ 459 00:26:47,072 --> 00:26:50,109 But I find myself very thin 460 00:26:50,242 --> 00:26:53,645 and concerned at how much weight I've lost. 461 00:26:53,779 --> 00:26:58,117 I know that physically I'm in a dangerous place. 462 00:26:58,250 --> 00:27:00,219 All right, I think I got a fish. 463 00:27:02,121 --> 00:27:07,025 I don't know how big it is, but it's moving the line. 464 00:27:07,159 --> 00:27:09,862 Oh, wow. 465 00:27:09,995 --> 00:27:15,300 [bleep] Here we go. 466 00:27:15,434 --> 00:27:16,702 Whoo‐hoo. 467 00:27:16,835 --> 00:27:19,838 ♪ ♪ 468 00:27:22,040 --> 00:27:23,308 There was a bull trout 469 00:27:23,442 --> 00:27:28,614 with this 12‐inch rainbow in his mouth on the hook. 470 00:27:30,716 --> 00:27:32,184 I'll take it. 471 00:27:34,853 --> 00:27:37,422 You can see his teeth marks. 472 00:27:37,556 --> 00:27:40,092 So this guy was food. 473 00:27:40,225 --> 00:27:42,227 That's crazy. 474 00:27:42,361 --> 00:27:45,764 It means the fish are back. 475 00:27:45,898 --> 00:27:48,400 I'm sure happy to see 'em. 476 00:27:48,534 --> 00:27:50,502 It means we're still in the game. 477 00:27:54,673 --> 00:27:57,075 [dramatic music] 478 00:27:57,209 --> 00:28:04,283 ♪ ♪ 479 00:28:12,024 --> 00:28:15,027 ‐ [panting] 480 00:28:23,035 --> 00:28:25,571 Well, there's no flies on it, so good, 481 00:28:25,704 --> 00:28:27,072 I'm just gonna leave it. 482 00:28:29,741 --> 00:28:31,743 It's kind of a race now. 483 00:28:31,877 --> 00:28:35,914 I have got to get my deer meat dry so I can preserve it. 484 00:28:36,048 --> 00:28:40,118 I'm gonna have to build a smoke house. 485 00:28:40,252 --> 00:28:43,188 Here's what I'm thinking, let's do a log cabin style. 486 00:28:43,322 --> 00:28:46,992 It's going to make it stronger, simpler. 487 00:28:47,125 --> 00:28:50,128 I have to build a smoker that's pretty sturdy. 488 00:28:50,262 --> 00:28:51,863 And I know I can't build something 489 00:28:51,997 --> 00:28:53,532 that's going to stop a bear. 490 00:28:53,665 --> 00:28:55,867 I mean, they're so incredibly powerful. 491 00:28:55,968 --> 00:28:58,837 But I can build one that'll slow one down long enough 492 00:28:58,971 --> 00:29:01,640 for me to hopefully come outside and deal with it. 493 00:29:01,773 --> 00:29:04,576 ♪ ♪ 494 00:29:04,710 --> 00:29:06,511 Man, I'm glad I brought this saw. 495 00:29:06,645 --> 00:29:08,680 It was a last‐minute item. 496 00:29:08,814 --> 00:29:11,617 I don't have the advantage of cold weather like they have 497 00:29:11,750 --> 00:29:13,785 with other big game kills in past seasons, 498 00:29:13,919 --> 00:29:17,122 where you can just leave whole quarters out here. 499 00:29:17,256 --> 00:29:20,359 In order for this meat to dry out enough to keep, 500 00:29:20,492 --> 00:29:22,594 you have to reduce the moisture content so low 501 00:29:22,728 --> 00:29:26,632 that bacteria and things like that won't grow. 502 00:29:26,765 --> 00:29:31,737 I think my shoulder is gonna feel this tomorrow. 503 00:29:31,870 --> 00:29:34,640 I gotta get this done. 504 00:29:34,773 --> 00:29:37,843 Ideally what you want to do is dry those quarters, 505 00:29:37,976 --> 00:29:40,612 and it creates a rind on the outside and protects them. 506 00:29:40,746 --> 00:29:42,214 In relatively warm weather, 507 00:29:42,347 --> 00:29:45,284 they'll be good just hanging for days. 508 00:29:45,417 --> 00:29:46,685 Stringing this wire in there 509 00:29:46,818 --> 00:29:50,122 so I'll have a place to hang that meat. 510 00:29:50,255 --> 00:29:52,090 Gonna chink the cracks. 511 00:29:52,224 --> 00:29:57,095 ♪ ♪ 512 00:29:57,229 --> 00:30:00,098 All right. I'm gonna do the roof. 513 00:30:00,232 --> 00:30:01,867 Now I just need some moss. 514 00:30:01,967 --> 00:30:05,404 ♪ ♪ 515 00:30:05,537 --> 00:30:07,005 I think once I get all this done, 516 00:30:07,139 --> 00:30:10,142 I'm gonna have to start just chilling a little bit. 517 00:30:10,275 --> 00:30:11,476 ♪ ♪ 518 00:30:11,610 --> 00:30:13,912 I have some little projects that don't really 519 00:30:14,046 --> 00:30:16,515 require a big expenditure. 520 00:30:16,648 --> 00:30:20,385 I've been working hard, burning a lot of calories. 521 00:30:20,519 --> 00:30:21,486 ♪ ♪ 522 00:30:21,620 --> 00:30:24,690 But I have to protect this meat. 523 00:30:24,823 --> 00:30:27,059 I'm not about to give this up to a bear. 524 00:30:27,192 --> 00:30:29,461 ♪ ♪ 525 00:30:29,594 --> 00:30:31,163 All right. 526 00:30:39,538 --> 00:30:42,574 This thing is gonna be perfect size 527 00:30:42,708 --> 00:30:44,209 to fit all this meat. 528 00:30:46,411 --> 00:30:47,879 I just need a fire. 529 00:30:48,013 --> 00:30:50,849 ♪ ♪ 530 00:30:50,982 --> 00:30:52,384 Started with some of this pine, 531 00:30:52,517 --> 00:30:56,088 and then I'll put that alder on there. 532 00:30:56,221 --> 00:31:00,158 Oh, look at that. Bam. 533 00:31:00,292 --> 00:31:01,626 Now, that's just cool. 534 00:31:01,760 --> 00:31:04,629 [dramatic music] 535 00:31:04,763 --> 00:31:11,737 ♪ ♪ 536 00:31:16,208 --> 00:31:23,215 ♪ ♪ 537 00:31:31,390 --> 00:31:33,125 ‐ So not gonna lie. 538 00:31:33,258 --> 00:31:38,230 Yesterday after the rain when I got up that morning, 539 00:31:38,363 --> 00:31:40,132 I had left my pot lidless, 540 00:31:40,265 --> 00:31:43,769 and it had collected that 2 inches of water. 541 00:31:43,902 --> 00:31:45,971 It wasn't very light out when I was drinking out of it. 542 00:31:46,104 --> 00:31:47,305 And when it did get light, 543 00:31:47,439 --> 00:31:51,243 I swear there were squirrel turds in my water. 544 00:31:51,376 --> 00:31:52,811 Not gonna lie. 545 00:31:52,944 --> 00:31:56,815 I think I drank squirrel poo yesterday. 546 00:31:56,948 --> 00:31:58,250 Hopefully there's nothing wrong with it. 547 00:31:58,383 --> 00:31:59,885 But I didn't get sick. 548 00:32:00,085 --> 00:32:01,586 ♪ ♪ 549 00:32:01,720 --> 00:32:03,188 What to do today? 550 00:32:03,321 --> 00:32:06,658 Well, I'm getting lighter by the day, 551 00:32:06,792 --> 00:32:11,229 so I got to build up my caloric intake. 552 00:32:11,363 --> 00:32:15,233 Plan is to build a fishing rod and reel. 553 00:32:15,367 --> 00:32:17,803 Being able to cast out quite a ways, 554 00:32:17,936 --> 00:32:20,639 might be able to pull a bull trout a day. 555 00:32:20,772 --> 00:32:24,743 ♪ ♪ 556 00:32:24,876 --> 00:32:27,479 That's gonna fit into there. 557 00:32:27,612 --> 00:32:31,450 I think that the fishing rod and reel might change things, 558 00:32:31,583 --> 00:32:33,552 put more gas in my tank. 559 00:32:33,685 --> 00:32:36,054 Trying to, you know, open this belt up some more. 560 00:32:36,188 --> 00:32:37,823 ♪ ♪ 561 00:32:37,956 --> 00:32:40,992 So after seeing the size of the bull trout, 562 00:32:41,126 --> 00:32:45,096 I think it's advisable to use the 15‐pound test, 563 00:32:45,230 --> 00:32:48,767 if I'm gonna throw that big minnow lure on. 564 00:32:48,900 --> 00:32:51,169 I need that extra fat back. 565 00:32:51,303 --> 00:32:54,239 Otherwise, it's gonna be a daily battle. 566 00:32:54,372 --> 00:32:57,108 All right. 567 00:32:57,242 --> 00:33:01,947 I think we should do a double wrap to a single. 568 00:33:02,080 --> 00:33:04,483 I definitely don't want to go anywhere. 569 00:33:04,616 --> 00:33:06,718 My desire is to stay here the longest. 570 00:33:06,852 --> 00:33:09,287 That's what I want to do. 571 00:33:09,421 --> 00:33:12,724 But I always miss my family. 572 00:33:12,858 --> 00:33:14,926 Let's see how well it winds. 573 00:33:15,060 --> 00:33:16,161 I miss cooking them dinner. 574 00:33:16,294 --> 00:33:18,530 I miss hanging out with my boys. 575 00:33:18,663 --> 00:33:19,831 Miss my wife. 576 00:33:19,965 --> 00:33:24,503 I need to stay positive and stay healthy. 577 00:33:24,636 --> 00:33:26,872 I want to see this through for them. 578 00:33:27,005 --> 00:33:30,275 ♪ ♪ 579 00:33:30,408 --> 00:33:33,845 I'll tell you right now, if the fish keep coming, 580 00:33:33,979 --> 00:33:37,215 I am not going anywhere. 581 00:33:37,349 --> 00:33:38,617 ♪ ♪ 582 00:33:38,750 --> 00:33:41,486 Can't get me out of this game. 583 00:33:41,620 --> 00:33:43,922 No, sir. 584 00:33:52,597 --> 00:33:56,167 Okay. Here's what's happening. 585 00:34:00,105 --> 00:34:04,109 When you're out here 586 00:34:04,242 --> 00:34:10,348 going through this type of situation, 587 00:34:10,482 --> 00:34:13,552 you pay attention to your body, 588 00:34:13,685 --> 00:34:19,624 and about 2 hours ago, I started feeling nauseous. 589 00:34:19,758 --> 00:34:23,228 ♪ ♪ 590 00:34:23,361 --> 00:34:24,896 So we're gonna just see. 591 00:34:25,030 --> 00:34:28,833 Just gonna let it play out and see what happens. 592 00:34:28,967 --> 00:34:33,505 ♪ ♪ 593 00:34:33,638 --> 00:34:37,475 That water I drank concerns me. 594 00:34:37,609 --> 00:34:38,843 ♪ ♪ 595 00:34:38,977 --> 00:34:42,480 But that would be crazy. 596 00:34:42,614 --> 00:34:44,649 I mean, it's squirrel poo, I guess. 597 00:34:44,783 --> 00:34:49,421 But I don't know what a nut, mushroom, 598 00:34:49,554 --> 00:34:51,923 seed‐eating squirrel would carry. 599 00:34:52,057 --> 00:34:54,693 ♪ ♪ 600 00:34:54,826 --> 00:34:57,195 Probably nothing, though. 601 00:34:57,329 --> 00:35:04,235 ♪ ♪ 602 00:35:04,369 --> 00:35:07,339 Probably nothing. 603 00:35:07,472 --> 00:35:13,511 Just a symptom of starvation. 604 00:35:13,645 --> 00:35:16,448 ♪ ♪ 605 00:35:16,581 --> 00:35:20,352 Mm. [sighs] 606 00:35:20,485 --> 00:35:22,420 This, too, shall pass, I guess. 607 00:35:22,554 --> 00:35:24,522 ♪ ♪ 608 00:35:24,656 --> 00:35:27,859 I need to get my fire going again. 609 00:35:27,993 --> 00:35:31,396 ♪ ♪ 610 00:35:31,529 --> 00:35:32,931 [sighs] 611 00:35:45,677 --> 00:35:46,811 [groans] 612 00:35:53,084 --> 00:35:54,119 [groans] 613 00:35:54,252 --> 00:35:57,122 [coughing, retching] 614 00:35:57,255 --> 00:36:02,394 ♪ ♪ 615 00:36:06,765 --> 00:36:11,770 ♪ ♪ 616 00:36:13,338 --> 00:36:16,341 [groaning] 617 00:36:20,145 --> 00:36:22,047 [belches, sighs] 618 00:36:22,180 --> 00:36:25,316 [bleep]. 619 00:36:25,450 --> 00:36:27,285 [groans] 620 00:36:27,419 --> 00:36:30,488 Well, that's [bleep] special. 621 00:36:33,892 --> 00:36:35,694 Son of a [bleep]. 622 00:36:42,033 --> 00:36:44,436 Now I have the shakes. 623 00:36:44,569 --> 00:36:46,037 That's awesome. 624 00:36:46,171 --> 00:36:49,274 ♪ ♪ 625 00:36:49,407 --> 00:36:52,077 That concerns me. 626 00:36:52,210 --> 00:36:55,280 I can be as optimistic as I want 627 00:36:55,413 --> 00:36:59,951 and as stubborn as I want, but this is troubling. 628 00:37:00,151 --> 00:37:02,520 ♪ ♪ 629 00:37:02,654 --> 00:37:06,524 I know my body, and my health is important to me. 630 00:37:06,658 --> 00:37:08,593 [grunting] 631 00:37:08,727 --> 00:37:13,465 And I'm not interested in battling 632 00:37:13,598 --> 00:37:18,269 whatever it is that's going on in my body right now... 633 00:37:18,403 --> 00:37:20,572 with also being on a starvation diet. 634 00:37:20,705 --> 00:37:22,540 ♪ ♪ 635 00:37:22,674 --> 00:37:25,143 It's more important to me to be healthy, 636 00:37:25,276 --> 00:37:31,783 so I do apologize if I let anybody down that... 637 00:37:31,916 --> 00:37:36,855 But I'm not gonna get sick or put my body 638 00:37:36,988 --> 00:37:41,092 in any harm for anything. 639 00:37:41,226 --> 00:37:47,599 So I wish I could have gone longer, 640 00:37:47,732 --> 00:37:51,369 but 24 days is my limit. 641 00:37:51,503 --> 00:37:56,074 ♪ ♪ 642 00:37:56,207 --> 00:38:00,278 [beeping] 643 00:38:02,447 --> 00:38:03,681 Hi. 644 00:38:04,816 --> 00:38:06,084 Um... 645 00:38:08,486 --> 00:38:11,689 I'm officially tapping out. 646 00:38:11,823 --> 00:38:13,224 I'm done. 647 00:38:13,358 --> 00:38:14,692 [spits] 648 00:38:17,462 --> 00:38:20,265 I'm out. I'm done. 649 00:38:20,398 --> 00:38:21,833 Just like that. 650 00:38:21,966 --> 00:38:24,803 [solemn music] 651 00:38:24,936 --> 00:38:31,943 ♪ ♪ 652 00:38:34,379 --> 00:38:37,649 ‐ You seeing this weather? 653 00:38:37,782 --> 00:38:41,186 This is the day when it happens. 654 00:38:41,319 --> 00:38:42,520 ♪ ♪ 655 00:38:42,654 --> 00:38:45,657 The second I tap out, it starts snowing. 656 00:38:45,790 --> 00:38:52,430 ♪ ♪ 657 00:38:52,564 --> 00:38:56,434 ‐ How you doing, Nate? ‐ Um, I'm all right. 658 00:38:56,568 --> 00:38:57,702 Emotionally, I'm all right. 659 00:38:57,836 --> 00:39:01,639 I've got waves of nausea still. 660 00:39:01,773 --> 00:39:03,575 My body's in a process now 661 00:39:03,708 --> 00:39:06,611 where I think it's slowed everything down, 662 00:39:06,744 --> 00:39:09,347 including heating itself. 663 00:39:09,480 --> 00:39:13,218 So it's enough for me to know my priority is my health, 664 00:39:13,351 --> 00:39:15,453 and I'm not gonna compromise it. 665 00:39:15,587 --> 00:39:17,822 ♪ ♪ 666 00:39:17,956 --> 00:39:19,924 My family rely on me. 667 00:39:20,058 --> 00:39:24,095 And I have to remember that it's not about me. 668 00:39:24,229 --> 00:39:27,799 So I have to stay healthy, and I have to recognize that. 669 00:39:27,932 --> 00:39:30,501 And I'm conscious of my body. 670 00:39:30,635 --> 00:39:31,903 ♪ ♪ 671 00:39:32,036 --> 00:39:34,472 Life, when you're mission‐focused, 672 00:39:34,606 --> 00:39:36,975 it's like a train on a track. 673 00:39:37,108 --> 00:39:40,879 And I've just been on the tracks. 674 00:39:41,012 --> 00:39:43,248 I've been so mission‐focused on the homestead 675 00:39:43,381 --> 00:39:46,484 and getting my family in a comfortable place 676 00:39:46,618 --> 00:39:48,820 that I've neglected other places, 677 00:39:48,953 --> 00:39:51,890 my family, my kids. 678 00:39:52,023 --> 00:39:54,859 I gotta give my kids more of me. 679 00:39:54,993 --> 00:39:56,294 ♪ ♪ 680 00:39:56,427 --> 00:40:00,932 This provided me a station stop on my train. 681 00:40:01,065 --> 00:40:04,235 It forced me to stop and take a break 682 00:40:04,369 --> 00:40:06,271 and look at my life 683 00:40:06,404 --> 00:40:09,507 and remember what's most important. 684 00:40:09,641 --> 00:40:11,542 And that's what I did. 685 00:40:11,676 --> 00:40:15,813 ♪ ♪ 686 00:40:15,947 --> 00:40:18,816 [dramatic music] 687 00:40:18,950 --> 00:40:25,957 ♪ ♪ 688 00:40:36,234 --> 00:40:37,735 ‐ Good morning. 689 00:40:37,869 --> 00:40:40,905 Let's read my personal rules list. 690 00:40:41,839 --> 00:40:46,611 Carry bow always for potential game/threat 691 00:40:46,744 --> 00:40:48,846 any time you're out. 692 00:40:48,980 --> 00:40:52,884 Be aware. That's a good rule. 693 00:40:53,017 --> 00:40:56,621 Wear gloves any time I'm using a blade. 694 00:40:56,754 --> 00:40:59,390 Keep track of all critical gear. 695 00:41:00,558 --> 00:41:05,330 And last but not least, don't push the [bleep] tap button. 696 00:41:07,532 --> 00:41:10,301 Trying to keep that one going. 697 00:41:10,435 --> 00:41:13,805 [tense music] 698 00:41:13,938 --> 00:41:17,175 Sounds pretty calm out there, so I think I'm gonna get up 699 00:41:17,308 --> 00:41:18,810 and go try some fishing. 700 00:41:18,943 --> 00:41:20,478 ♪ ♪ 701 00:41:20,611 --> 00:41:22,380 Wonder if there's any fish hunkering down 702 00:41:22,513 --> 00:41:23,681 in my fish trap yet. 703 00:41:23,815 --> 00:41:25,183 ♪ ♪ 704 00:41:25,316 --> 00:41:28,820 It's worth checking my fish trap, right? 705 00:41:28,953 --> 00:41:30,788 Maybe something's hiding out in there. 706 00:41:30,922 --> 00:41:32,890 ♪ ♪ 707 00:41:33,024 --> 00:41:37,161 I definitely expected to have some fish in me by now, 708 00:41:37,295 --> 00:41:40,498 'cause back home, I'm a pretty big fisherman. 709 00:41:40,631 --> 00:41:43,368 ♪ ♪ 710 00:41:43,501 --> 00:41:47,572 But out here, it's, like‐‐ it's different. 711 00:41:47,705 --> 00:41:50,742 I haven't been able to catch one fish. 712 00:41:50,875 --> 00:41:52,744 Please have fish in there. 713 00:41:52,877 --> 00:41:56,014 ♪ ♪ 714 00:41:56,147 --> 00:41:58,916 You don't have no fish in there. 715 00:41:59,050 --> 00:42:01,519 [sighs] 716 00:42:01,652 --> 00:42:03,955 Oh, well. 717 00:42:04,088 --> 00:42:05,990 Gonna try something different. 718 00:42:06,124 --> 00:42:08,726 ♪ ♪ 719 00:42:08,860 --> 00:42:11,796 It's funny, when I was gearing up to come out here, 720 00:42:11,929 --> 00:42:16,801 I wanted lure fishing to be my last resort fishing. 721 00:42:16,934 --> 00:42:21,372 I didn't want it to be, like, my main fishing thing. 722 00:42:21,506 --> 00:42:25,143 So it's kind of funny to find myself in this situation. 723 00:42:25,276 --> 00:42:28,279 ♪ ♪ 724 00:42:37,422 --> 00:42:42,660 Trying not to get mad, but it's hard. 725 00:42:42,794 --> 00:42:44,796 Hard not to get mad when things don't work 726 00:42:44,929 --> 00:42:47,031 all the time. 727 00:42:47,165 --> 00:42:49,500 Normally, I love fishing. 728 00:42:49,634 --> 00:42:53,104 It's relaxing, it's fun, 729 00:42:53,237 --> 00:42:57,442 but fishing out here just frustrates me, man. 730 00:42:57,575 --> 00:42:58,843 ♪ ♪ 731 00:42:58,976 --> 00:43:02,914 But so much rather be doing this than my old job. 732 00:43:03,047 --> 00:43:04,849 I mean, there's no comparison. 733 00:43:04,982 --> 00:43:08,619 Breathing in fiberglass, building trailers all day. 734 00:43:08,753 --> 00:43:12,423 My dad thought I should bring a photo of my old work. 735 00:43:12,557 --> 00:43:13,724 He was like, 736 00:43:13,858 --> 00:43:17,295 "That'll give you more incentive to not leave." 737 00:43:17,428 --> 00:43:19,230 Totally right, man. 738 00:43:19,363 --> 00:43:21,165 But I'm a fighter, 739 00:43:21,299 --> 00:43:23,701 and I'm gonna hang on as long as I can. 740 00:43:23,835 --> 00:43:26,838 ♪ ♪ 741 00:43:30,975 --> 00:43:32,477 I got one. 742 00:43:32,610 --> 00:43:39,117 ♪ ♪ 743 00:43:39,250 --> 00:43:40,852 Come on, baby. 744 00:43:40,985 --> 00:43:44,655 Come on in. Come on in, baby. 745 00:43:50,928 --> 00:43:53,464 Yes. Yes. 746 00:43:53,598 --> 00:43:55,800 [bleep] yes! 747 00:43:55,933 --> 00:43:58,936 Beautiful rainbow trout. 748 00:43:59,070 --> 00:44:01,539 Thank you for your life, fish. 749 00:44:03,674 --> 00:44:05,643 Thank you. 750 00:44:05,776 --> 00:44:10,148 Oh, yes. 751 00:44:10,281 --> 00:44:14,819 Finally, a decent meal. 752 00:44:18,823 --> 00:44:21,125 Oh, that's so exciting. 753 00:44:21,259 --> 00:44:24,061 [tense music] 754 00:44:24,195 --> 00:44:26,464 Caught my first fish. 755 00:44:26,597 --> 00:44:31,202 [celebratory shout] 756 00:44:31,335 --> 00:44:32,970 ♪ ♪ 757 00:44:33,104 --> 00:44:34,839 Oh, I'm gonna eat fish today. 758 00:44:34,972 --> 00:44:36,841 That's so awesome. 759 00:44:36,974 --> 00:44:39,610 Thank you, gods. 760 00:44:39,744 --> 00:44:41,179 Thank you, Chilko. 761 00:44:41,312 --> 00:44:43,347 ♪ ♪ 762 00:44:43,481 --> 00:44:45,383 It's time to get this sucker rolling. 763 00:44:48,920 --> 00:44:52,690 I can't tell you how excited I am to eat a sizable fish. 764 00:44:55,560 --> 00:44:58,462 Gonna be tasty, my friend. 765 00:44:58,596 --> 00:45:02,300 I'm gonna have my first protein out here. 766 00:45:02,433 --> 00:45:06,637 It's a morale booster, and hopefully it's a turn 767 00:45:06,771 --> 00:45:09,707 in my ability to get food out here. 768 00:45:09,840 --> 00:45:11,108 ♪ ♪ 769 00:45:11,242 --> 00:45:14,178 That's gonna be a decent meal, right there. 770 00:45:14,312 --> 00:45:15,947 Super stoked. 771 00:45:16,080 --> 00:45:18,249 ♪ ♪ 772 00:45:18,382 --> 00:45:20,918 I gotta say, it kind of sucks to be constantly, like, 773 00:45:21,052 --> 00:45:25,890 stressed about my surroundings while cooking, 774 00:45:26,023 --> 00:45:28,826 'cause these grizzly bears will just walk right up 775 00:45:28,960 --> 00:45:30,428 and take what's yours, 776 00:45:30,561 --> 00:45:33,431 'cause they know they're big and bad. 777 00:45:33,564 --> 00:45:36,601 So I try to make a lot of noise while I'm cooking fish. 778 00:45:36,734 --> 00:45:41,739 Oh, yeah! Fish, baby! 779 00:45:46,043 --> 00:45:48,713 Smells like breakfast over here. 780 00:45:50,581 --> 00:45:52,984 I normally scrape out the spine. 781 00:45:55,319 --> 00:45:58,656 But out here, I'm eating that black stuff. 782 00:46:03,227 --> 00:46:07,798 I'm sure it's got some kind of nutrients in it that I want. 783 00:46:07,932 --> 00:46:11,936 All right. here comes my dad's favorite part, 784 00:46:12,069 --> 00:46:15,172 the sucking out of the eyes. 785 00:46:15,306 --> 00:46:17,174 Here it goes, Dad. This one's for you. 786 00:46:17,308 --> 00:46:19,577 Let me see! 787 00:46:22,413 --> 00:46:24,915 That was something my dad used to do when I was a kid. 788 00:46:25,049 --> 00:46:27,151 When we'd catch trout and cook them up, 789 00:46:27,285 --> 00:46:29,654 he would suck out the eyes and yell, 790 00:46:29,787 --> 00:46:33,257 "Let me see," which of course would freak me out as a kid. 791 00:46:33,391 --> 00:46:35,893 But now I do it for him. 792 00:46:36,027 --> 00:46:39,163 Well, hello, little trout brain. 793 00:46:39,297 --> 00:46:42,266 Do you mind if I eat you? 794 00:46:42,400 --> 00:46:45,236 [dramatic music] 795 00:46:45,369 --> 00:46:52,376 ♪ ♪ 796 00:46:57,581 --> 00:47:01,652 ‐ Going to wash my hair with hot water. 797 00:47:01,786 --> 00:47:03,854 Hope I get smell of smoke off me. 798 00:47:06,457 --> 00:47:09,827 Oh, man, that feels lovely. 799 00:47:12,396 --> 00:47:13,464 Yeah. 800 00:47:13,597 --> 00:47:14,832 Sometimes the little things in life 801 00:47:14,965 --> 00:47:17,001 make everything better. 802 00:47:18,436 --> 00:47:20,004 ♪ ♪ 803 00:47:20,137 --> 00:47:22,673 I'm so tired of the wind. 804 00:47:22,807 --> 00:47:26,811 The wind direction is southwest in the fall. 805 00:47:26,944 --> 00:47:29,080 It's from the north in the winter. 806 00:47:29,213 --> 00:47:33,317 If it's from the north most of the time this time of year, 807 00:47:33,451 --> 00:47:35,052 I'm in a real pickle. 808 00:47:35,186 --> 00:47:37,788 ♪ ♪ 809 00:47:37,922 --> 00:47:39,323 So all right. We're gonna push today. 810 00:47:39,457 --> 00:47:42,693 We're finishing the fireplace. 811 00:47:43,527 --> 00:47:45,196 [grunts] 812 00:47:45,329 --> 00:47:48,265 So I'm gonna keep on with the rocking all the way up 813 00:47:48,399 --> 00:47:53,070 to where I think approximately where the posts will be. 814 00:47:53,204 --> 00:47:56,474 Yeah. I think that'll help a lot with the smoke. 815 00:47:56,607 --> 00:47:59,410 So we are gonna set that in sand. 816 00:47:59,543 --> 00:48:01,746 ♪ ♪ 817 00:48:01,879 --> 00:48:03,647 Try to actually make the chimney narrow 818 00:48:03,781 --> 00:48:05,750 a little bit here. 819 00:48:05,883 --> 00:48:08,919 See if that helps. 820 00:48:09,053 --> 00:48:12,423 I need a nice, long‐ish big one. 821 00:48:12,556 --> 00:48:14,592 ♪ ♪ 822 00:48:14,725 --> 00:48:16,894 That's spot‐on. 823 00:48:17,027 --> 00:48:20,164 Fireplace and the chimney, they're incredibly important. 824 00:48:20,297 --> 00:48:23,334 Fall is probably coming to a close here, 825 00:48:23,467 --> 00:48:26,871 and winter is coming, and it is gonna get colder, 826 00:48:27,004 --> 00:48:29,039 and I want to have a fireplace with a chimney, 827 00:48:29,173 --> 00:48:31,175 and all sealed up so that when it is cold 828 00:48:31,308 --> 00:48:32,910 and the weather is atrocious, 829 00:48:33,043 --> 00:48:35,913 we can sit all nice and toasty warm in our house. 830 00:48:36,046 --> 00:48:41,318 ♪ ♪ 831 00:48:41,452 --> 00:48:44,188 And we can go there. 832 00:48:46,924 --> 00:48:51,195 Is that tightened? Yeah? 833 00:48:51,328 --> 00:48:53,798 We happy? We're happy. 834 00:48:54,865 --> 00:48:57,501 I think I might just steal some of these rocks 835 00:48:57,635 --> 00:48:59,537 just to make the chimney, because they're really 836 00:48:59,670 --> 00:49:02,440 unnecessary where they are right now. 837 00:49:02,573 --> 00:49:05,609 I have a well‐managed, 838 00:49:05,743 --> 00:49:09,447 but fairly strong component of OCD. 839 00:49:09,580 --> 00:49:11,782 I have very specific routines. 840 00:49:11,916 --> 00:49:16,086 And to feel like I have not completed a thing 841 00:49:16,220 --> 00:49:19,623 makes it very difficult for me to move on from that. 842 00:49:19,757 --> 00:49:24,261 So that makes "Alone" an absolute juggling act, 843 00:49:24,395 --> 00:49:27,698 both mentally and physically. 844 00:49:27,832 --> 00:49:28,866 That works. 845 00:49:28,999 --> 00:49:32,536 Da, da, da, da, da, da, da, da, da. 846 00:49:32,670 --> 00:49:35,005 This is the inside. 847 00:49:35,139 --> 00:49:36,607 When all of this rock heats up, 848 00:49:36,740 --> 00:49:39,810 it's gonna reflect a lot of heat back into the house, 849 00:49:39,944 --> 00:49:42,079 you know, overnight even after the fire dies down 850 00:49:42,213 --> 00:49:43,981 or even dies out. 851 00:49:44,114 --> 00:49:48,152 And here is the chimney. 852 00:49:51,155 --> 00:49:54,024 [tense music] 853 00:49:54,158 --> 00:50:01,165 ♪ ♪ 854 00:50:07,137 --> 00:50:09,440 Oh, I can tell there's a much better draw now. 855 00:50:09,573 --> 00:50:14,311 The flames are staying lit of their own accord. 856 00:50:14,445 --> 00:50:18,115 Fantastic. It means that I can go and move in here. 857 00:50:18,249 --> 00:50:21,118 [dramatic music] 858 00:50:21,252 --> 00:50:28,259 ♪ ♪ 859 00:50:31,161 --> 00:50:32,763 ‐ Moved everything out of the tarp 860 00:50:32,897 --> 00:50:38,135 and into the pit house, which is where I now am. 861 00:50:38,269 --> 00:50:41,338 Feels really nice to have worked in here all day, 862 00:50:41,472 --> 00:50:44,208 and just crawl in bed. 863 00:50:44,341 --> 00:50:47,945 Not have to faff about with going back and forth 864 00:50:48,078 --> 00:50:50,848 between two different shelters. 865 00:50:50,981 --> 00:50:52,850 This is my new reality. 866 00:50:52,983 --> 00:50:56,253 In my adult life, this is the first time 867 00:50:56,387 --> 00:50:58,322 I have had my own home. 868 00:50:58,455 --> 00:51:01,492 I have never lived anywhere where it was just me. 869 00:51:01,625 --> 00:51:04,862 It's me inside and out, and it's solely mine. 870 00:51:04,995 --> 00:51:06,297 If I wanted to do projects, 871 00:51:06,430 --> 00:51:08,232 I could do projects till 2:00 a. m. 872 00:51:08,365 --> 00:51:11,168 There's no one to keep awake but me. 873 00:51:11,302 --> 00:51:14,438 It's warm enough in here to actually stand up, 874 00:51:14,572 --> 00:51:17,341 take all of my clothing off normally. 875 00:51:17,474 --> 00:51:22,012 Crawl up into my sleeping bag on my nice raised bed. 876 00:51:22,146 --> 00:51:25,049 Uh, yeah. 877 00:51:25,182 --> 00:51:31,088 So...okay. 878 00:51:31,221 --> 00:51:33,324 Good night, camera. 879 00:51:38,162 --> 00:51:40,531 [dramatic music] 880 00:51:40,664 --> 00:51:47,638 ♪ ♪ 881 00:51:54,078 --> 00:51:55,613 ‐ Good morning. 882 00:51:55,746 --> 00:51:59,350 That was probably the most restless night 883 00:51:59,483 --> 00:52:01,118 of sleep I've had. 884 00:52:01,251 --> 00:52:04,855 That wind is brutal. 885 00:52:04,989 --> 00:52:07,558 It's a good indicator for what's to come for winter, 886 00:52:07,691 --> 00:52:10,461 so I want to make sure that I get this door done. 887 00:52:10,594 --> 00:52:12,963 ♪ ♪ 888 00:52:13,097 --> 00:52:15,466 The cold weather is coming, so I definitely need 889 00:52:15,599 --> 00:52:17,835 to get this buttoned up pretty good here. 890 00:52:17,968 --> 00:52:19,203 ♪ ♪ 891 00:52:19,336 --> 00:52:20,437 Man, this wind. 892 00:52:20,571 --> 00:52:22,940 It's not usually windy right here. 893 00:52:23,073 --> 00:52:24,074 I hope that that's not 894 00:52:24,208 --> 00:52:26,310 what this winter is going to be like. 895 00:52:26,443 --> 00:52:29,647 I think I'll just make that door a triangle shape, 896 00:52:29,780 --> 00:52:32,249 so at nighttime I can put up against it. 897 00:52:32,383 --> 00:52:35,052 And I'd really like to have that frame nailed, 898 00:52:35,185 --> 00:52:37,287 'Cause I'm gonna be moving it all the time. 899 00:52:37,421 --> 00:52:39,490 Let's see if there were any other nails 900 00:52:39,623 --> 00:52:41,425 that I could salvage. 901 00:52:41,558 --> 00:52:43,694 He did have a nail. 902 00:52:43,827 --> 00:52:47,998 And so did that guy. 903 00:52:48,132 --> 00:52:50,834 [tense music] 904 00:52:50,968 --> 00:52:54,338 The longer I'm here, my life back home 905 00:52:54,471 --> 00:52:57,074 weighs so heavy on my mind. 906 00:52:57,207 --> 00:53:00,210 My life changed so much 4 years ago. 907 00:53:00,344 --> 00:53:02,346 Someone had broke into my little store 908 00:53:02,479 --> 00:53:05,349 and stole a lot of stuff, 909 00:53:05,482 --> 00:53:07,785 and so I suffered a really big loss. 910 00:53:07,918 --> 00:53:09,753 At the same time, my marriage was ending 911 00:53:09,887 --> 00:53:11,955 and my son went away to college. 912 00:53:12,089 --> 00:53:15,059 Everything that I knew, being a mother, and a wife, 913 00:53:15,192 --> 00:53:19,697 and my store just kind of came to a screeching halt. 914 00:53:19,830 --> 00:53:22,266 So I thought, "What am I gonna do? 915 00:53:22,399 --> 00:53:24,301 I don't know who I am anymore." 916 00:53:24,435 --> 00:53:26,770 It was like someone kicked me in the stomach. 917 00:53:26,904 --> 00:53:27,838 ♪ ♪ 918 00:53:27,971 --> 00:53:29,707 This is a good, solid frame 919 00:53:29,840 --> 00:53:32,109 using those old nails. 920 00:53:32,242 --> 00:53:35,112 That's pretty cool. 921 00:53:35,245 --> 00:53:38,415 Now pine again. 922 00:53:38,549 --> 00:53:40,951 ♪ ♪ 923 00:53:41,085 --> 00:53:43,153 I think I'll just start filling that in. 924 00:53:43,287 --> 00:53:45,989 ♪ ♪ 925 00:53:46,123 --> 00:53:48,192 I'm very purpose‐driven. 926 00:53:48,325 --> 00:53:52,563 And to just exist without a great purpose 927 00:53:52,696 --> 00:53:54,932 wasn't something that I was gonna be able to do. 928 00:53:55,065 --> 00:53:57,735 So I just started doing what I loved. 929 00:53:57,868 --> 00:54:01,672 So it became my quest to teach the next generation hunting, 930 00:54:01,805 --> 00:54:05,909 hide tanning, and why it's beneficial to our environment. 931 00:54:06,043 --> 00:54:09,179 ♪ ♪ 932 00:54:09,313 --> 00:54:11,315 If I wouldn't have started to do something 933 00:54:11,448 --> 00:54:13,317 that I felt so passionate about, 934 00:54:13,450 --> 00:54:15,919 I would have been in really bad shape. 935 00:54:16,053 --> 00:54:18,088 I think maybe that's how I have to feel 936 00:54:18,222 --> 00:54:21,792 about this challenge that I have taken on. 937 00:54:21,925 --> 00:54:25,028 Being on "Alone," I can do this. 938 00:54:25,162 --> 00:54:28,532 There's no reason that I can't. 939 00:54:28,665 --> 00:54:31,201 I'm just gonna put that wire up there. 940 00:54:31,335 --> 00:54:36,373 And then it will just kind of hang right there. 941 00:54:36,507 --> 00:54:39,910 So at nighttime it will help block that wind a little bit. 942 00:54:40,043 --> 00:54:42,913 [dramatic music] 943 00:54:43,046 --> 00:54:50,053 ♪ ♪ 944 00:55:01,965 --> 00:55:04,768 ‐ Look at that. That is just gorgeous. 945 00:55:04,902 --> 00:55:07,771 [shimmering tones] 946 00:55:07,905 --> 00:55:14,912 ♪ ♪ 947 00:55:15,813 --> 00:55:17,347 A double rainbow. 948 00:55:17,481 --> 00:55:22,486 ♪ ♪ 949 00:55:22,619 --> 00:55:23,854 [sighs] 950 00:55:23,987 --> 00:55:25,923 [tranquil music] 951 00:55:26,056 --> 00:55:28,225 I don't know what I did to deserve this. 952 00:55:28,358 --> 00:55:30,594 ♪ ♪ 953 00:55:30,727 --> 00:55:33,931 Look at that. That is just unbelievable. 954 00:55:34,064 --> 00:55:36,800 It's right there. 955 00:55:36,934 --> 00:55:40,537 Can almost reach out and grab it. 956 00:55:40,671 --> 00:55:43,507 This is something that I've always wanted to do. 957 00:55:43,640 --> 00:55:47,244 I've always wanted to see if all of these skills 958 00:55:47,377 --> 00:55:49,112 that I've spent my life developing 959 00:55:49,246 --> 00:55:50,681 could actually see me through 960 00:55:50,814 --> 00:55:56,053 a real‐life wilderness survival situation. 961 00:55:56,186 --> 00:55:58,055 Nature is amazing. 962 00:55:58,188 --> 00:56:02,125 And it's a test of will 963 00:56:02,259 --> 00:56:05,829 when you grind against having not enough to eat, 964 00:56:05,963 --> 00:56:08,565 and in total isolation from your family. 965 00:56:08,699 --> 00:56:10,567 Those things suck. 966 00:56:10,701 --> 00:56:14,438 But suck is the price you pay to be out here. 967 00:56:14,571 --> 00:56:17,774 You don't get that sitting on your couch. 968 00:56:17,908 --> 00:56:20,110 I don't know if I've ever seen one so spectacular 969 00:56:20,244 --> 00:56:22,312 and so close‐looking. 970 00:56:22,446 --> 00:56:24,448 Beautiful. 971 00:56:24,581 --> 00:56:28,619 I've studied Stoic philosophy for years. 972 00:56:28,752 --> 00:56:31,889 And you can know these things logically. 973 00:56:32,022 --> 00:56:36,860 But until you go through a time of struggle, 974 00:56:36,994 --> 00:56:39,196 you can't know it in your soul. 975 00:56:39,329 --> 00:56:43,767 Right now, that deer is everything to me. 976 00:56:43,901 --> 00:56:46,036 But it's not going to last forever. 977 00:56:46,169 --> 00:56:51,642 I want to win this thing, but that is a long way away. 978 00:56:51,775 --> 00:56:54,144 Maybe there's a pot of gold at the end. 979 00:56:59,616 --> 00:57:02,085 [dramatic music] 980 00:57:02,219 --> 00:57:09,226 ♪ ♪ 981 00:57:11,061 --> 00:57:12,229 ‐ Nate, thanks for joining me. 982 00:57:12,362 --> 00:57:13,897 ‐ Thanks for having me. It's good to be here. 983 00:57:14,031 --> 00:57:15,265 ‐ You were a corpsman in the Navy, 984 00:57:15,399 --> 00:57:17,034 which is essentially a medic. 985 00:57:17,167 --> 00:57:20,203 You seem to really understand your body and what it needed. 986 00:57:20,337 --> 00:57:23,240 You know, when did you realize that you were near your limit? 987 00:57:23,373 --> 00:57:26,310 ‐ I always had an idea. I mean, I've been thin before. 988 00:57:26,443 --> 00:57:29,279 My experience as a wrestler‐‐ I know, I've been fasting, 989 00:57:29,413 --> 00:57:30,714 and I've lost a lot of weight 990 00:57:30,847 --> 00:57:32,983 and been below 3 percent body fat in the past. 991 00:57:33,116 --> 00:57:36,153 So I knew my limitations in my mind. 992 00:57:36,286 --> 00:57:37,554 But I also have a stubborn side, 993 00:57:37,688 --> 00:57:40,090 which likes to take on that challenge 994 00:57:40,223 --> 00:57:43,860 and push myself as far as I can possibly push myself. 995 00:57:43,994 --> 00:57:44,995 And I pushed it. 996 00:57:45,128 --> 00:57:46,630 I pushed past it until I got sick. 997 00:57:46,763 --> 00:57:49,566 [coughing, retching] 998 00:57:49,700 --> 00:57:51,001 And then that was the end for me, 999 00:57:51,134 --> 00:57:53,036 where I knew I had gone beyond my red line 1000 00:57:53,170 --> 00:57:55,238 where I was comfortable taking my body. 1001 00:57:57,274 --> 00:57:59,843 ‐ I learned a lot of new ideas watching you out there. 1002 00:58:00,043 --> 00:58:03,013 Your creative problem‐solving was brilliant. 1003 00:58:03,146 --> 00:58:04,581 Let's talk about that pier. 1004 00:58:04,715 --> 00:58:07,684 That was an engineering masterpiece. 1005 00:58:07,818 --> 00:58:09,720 ‐ I mean, I went through a whole bunch of different 1006 00:58:09,853 --> 00:58:11,555 design ideas and how to put it together. 1007 00:58:11,688 --> 00:58:14,257 But ideally, I didn't want to use any of my cordage for it, 1008 00:58:14,391 --> 00:58:16,159 'cause I knew it would take a lot of cordage 1009 00:58:16,293 --> 00:58:19,129 to hold something together like that in those waves. 1010 00:58:19,262 --> 00:58:22,899 So I just decided to peg it and build it that way. 1011 00:58:23,033 --> 00:58:25,502 What the [bleep]? 1012 00:58:25,635 --> 00:58:26,837 [bleep]. 1013 00:58:26,970 --> 00:58:29,239 I mean, I failed a bunch of times on the shoreline 1014 00:58:29,373 --> 00:58:33,010 before I tried to carry the second attempt out. 1015 00:58:33,143 --> 00:58:36,246 But, I mean, for me, failure, that's the process. 1016 00:58:36,380 --> 00:58:38,515 ‐ Yeah. It's the only way you can make something work, 1017 00:58:38,648 --> 00:58:40,384 is by making a ton of mistakes. 1018 00:58:40,517 --> 00:58:41,518 ‐ Right. ‐ How did it feel 1019 00:58:41,651 --> 00:58:43,487 to finally have that pier in place? 1020 00:58:43,620 --> 00:58:46,556 ‐ I was super excited, 'cause I had put so much into it. 1021 00:58:46,690 --> 00:58:49,459 And I saw so much potential in fishing beyond it. 1022 00:58:49,593 --> 00:58:50,927 Perfect. 1023 00:58:51,061 --> 00:58:52,696 ‐ You found some really creative ways 1024 00:58:52,829 --> 00:58:54,731 to make yourself more comfortable out there. 1025 00:58:54,865 --> 00:58:57,567 That bed spring mattress was awesome. 1026 00:58:57,701 --> 00:59:00,103 ‐ I've had two spine surgeries in my life. 1027 00:59:00,237 --> 00:59:02,672 So my back is a concern of mine. 1028 00:59:02,806 --> 00:59:05,675 It's great normally, but the second you start losing weight 1029 00:59:05,809 --> 00:59:07,210 you start to lose a lot of the fat pad 1030 00:59:07,344 --> 00:59:08,645 that you're used to having. 1031 00:59:08,779 --> 00:59:11,014 And that's your comfort when you're lying down. 1032 00:59:11,148 --> 00:59:13,850 So I figured the best way to remedy that would be 1033 00:59:13,984 --> 00:59:16,286 to make a suspension bed. 1034 00:59:16,420 --> 00:59:17,687 Oh! 1035 00:59:17,821 --> 00:59:19,122 ‐ That thing was sick. 1036 00:59:19,256 --> 00:59:21,091 It must have been just so nice and, like‐‐ 1037 00:59:21,224 --> 00:59:22,793 ‐ Changed everything. ‐ I bet it did. 1038 00:59:22,926 --> 00:59:24,327 [laughter] 1039 00:59:24,461 --> 00:59:26,129 So let's talk about your mental game. 1040 00:59:26,263 --> 00:59:27,898 "Alone" can be a real challenge for people, 1041 00:59:28,031 --> 00:59:30,267 not just physically but mentally. 1042 00:59:30,400 --> 00:59:32,369 How did you think that your military training 1043 00:59:32,502 --> 00:59:34,704 and your experience was gonna help you on the show? 1044 00:59:34,838 --> 00:59:36,106 ‐ I think my military experience, 1045 00:59:36,239 --> 00:59:39,476 or just my experience over the last 3 decades, 1046 00:59:39,609 --> 00:59:41,978 it involves deployments and being away from family. 1047 00:59:42,112 --> 00:59:43,847 I've been there before, so I know 1048 00:59:43,980 --> 00:59:46,616 that my separation from home 1049 00:59:46,750 --> 00:59:48,885 and that trusting my wife will take care of the house, 1050 00:59:49,019 --> 00:59:50,153 and not having to worry about my kids, 1051 00:59:50,287 --> 00:59:51,521 and stuff like that, 1052 00:59:51,655 --> 00:59:53,457 that alleviates a lot of stress. 1053 00:59:53,590 --> 00:59:56,560 Challenge is can you be alone? 1054 00:59:56,693 --> 00:59:58,862 ♪ ♪ 1055 00:59:58,995 --> 01:00:00,630 Oh, I think I can be. 1056 01:00:00,764 --> 01:00:02,766 But this game is just a little bit different 1057 01:00:02,899 --> 01:00:04,935 when it comes to that, 'cause you are isolated. 1058 01:00:05,068 --> 01:00:06,303 You don't have that conversation piece, 1059 01:00:06,436 --> 01:00:07,637 except with yourself. 1060 01:00:07,771 --> 01:00:10,140 So it really does force you to search yourself 1061 01:00:10,273 --> 01:00:11,908 and try to figure things out. 1062 01:00:12,042 --> 01:00:13,510 So it wasn't that I had 1063 01:00:13,643 --> 01:00:15,178 a tremendous advantage in that sense. 1064 01:00:15,312 --> 01:00:18,315 It's just that I've been through the process before. 1065 01:00:18,448 --> 01:00:20,984 But what I found was the hardest part was that, 1066 01:00:21,118 --> 01:00:23,520 when I was in the military and separated from family, 1067 01:00:23,653 --> 01:00:25,222 I didn't have a choice. ‐ Mm. 1068 01:00:25,355 --> 01:00:26,656 ‐ It was an obligation and I was there. 1069 01:00:26,790 --> 01:00:29,092 I couldn't just go home. 1070 01:00:29,226 --> 01:00:31,061 And being out here, you had that freedom. 1071 01:00:31,194 --> 01:00:32,963 I had the opportunity to get on the radio 1072 01:00:33,096 --> 01:00:34,798 or the phone and say, "Hey. 1073 01:00:34,931 --> 01:00:36,733 I'm gonna go back to where I'm comfortable." 1074 01:00:36,867 --> 01:00:38,335 So that was a challenge for me. 1075 01:00:38,468 --> 01:00:40,904 Almost completely convinced myself 1076 01:00:41,037 --> 01:00:45,308 that it was perfectly fine to tap out this morning. 1077 01:00:45,442 --> 01:00:46,977 What a weird day. 1078 01:00:47,110 --> 01:00:49,679 ‐ There's a lot of long, dark nights in our shelters. 1079 01:00:49,813 --> 01:00:51,348 ‐ The rainy days were the hardest. 1080 01:00:51,481 --> 01:00:53,817 You're in your thoughts and in your head most of it. 1081 01:00:53,950 --> 01:00:54,918 It was a struggle. 1082 01:00:55,051 --> 01:00:56,119 When you're out there, 1083 01:00:56,253 --> 01:00:57,921 you start to put things in perspective. 1084 01:00:58,054 --> 01:00:59,489 I know that if I talked to my wife, 1085 01:00:59,623 --> 01:01:00,991 she'd be like, "You're done." 1086 01:01:01,124 --> 01:01:03,527 My life's just always been this fast‐paced 1087 01:01:03,660 --> 01:01:06,530 mission completion and stay focused on the tasks. 1088 01:01:06,663 --> 01:01:08,431 And I never really take time to pause 1089 01:01:08,565 --> 01:01:10,333 and think about what's going on. 1090 01:01:10,467 --> 01:01:13,136 You know, you just make quick decisions and try to adjust. 1091 01:01:13,270 --> 01:01:18,308 So this really slowed me down and let me take pause 1092 01:01:18,441 --> 01:01:20,977 and think about my life and what's going on. 1093 01:01:21,111 --> 01:01:22,712 ‐ Nate, it was a real pleasure meeting you. 1094 01:01:22,846 --> 01:01:25,248 I learned so much from your journey out there. 1095 01:01:25,382 --> 01:01:27,150 Thanks for sharing it with us. All the best. 1096 01:01:27,284 --> 01:01:28,151 ‐ Thanks. 1097 01:01:28,285 --> 01:01:29,886 ‐ Man, it's freezing. 1098 01:01:30,020 --> 01:01:31,655 [bleep]. 1099 01:01:31,788 --> 01:01:34,958 ♪ ♪ 1100 01:01:35,091 --> 01:01:36,493 ‐ I think I'd like to start 1101 01:01:36,626 --> 01:01:38,662 bringing rocks up for the fireplace. 1102 01:01:38,795 --> 01:01:39,763 ♪ ♪ 1103 01:01:39,896 --> 01:01:41,798 Oh, [bleep]. 1104 01:01:41,932 --> 01:01:43,033 ‐ Oh, [bleep]. 1105 01:01:43,166 --> 01:01:45,035 There are bear tracks right through camp. 1106 01:01:45,168 --> 01:01:46,269 That little bastard. 1107 01:01:46,403 --> 01:01:49,906 I have to be prepared to engage a bear. 1108 01:01:50,040 --> 01:01:52,609 ‐ Oh, there he is. Right there. [bleep]. 1109 01:01:52,742 --> 01:01:55,011 Get out of here! [air horn blares] 1110 01:01:55,145 --> 01:01:57,147 There is a point that this is not worth it. 1111 01:01:57,280 --> 01:02:02,352 ♪ ♪