1 00:00:10,493 --> 00:00:13,392 [dramatic music] 2 00:00:13,496 --> 00:00:20,399 ♪ ♪ 3 00:00:20,503 --> 00:00:23,782 - Here we are at the cache smokehouse, 4 00:00:23,885 --> 00:00:25,853 just pure elation. 5 00:00:25,956 --> 00:00:29,063 I mean, this is such a gift. 6 00:00:29,167 --> 00:00:31,617 - I heard a grouse behind me. 7 00:00:31,721 --> 00:00:34,034 Yep. Yep, I see another one. 8 00:00:35,414 --> 00:00:36,415 That's three grouse. 9 00:00:37,968 --> 00:00:38,866 - Something is not right. 10 00:00:38,969 --> 00:00:42,490 I have some kind of gut parasite. 11 00:00:43,595 --> 00:00:46,149 - Kind of in a pissy mood. 12 00:00:46,253 --> 00:00:47,392 I'm just really hungry. 13 00:00:47,495 --> 00:00:49,394 Here, fishy, fishy, fishy. 14 00:00:49,497 --> 00:00:52,259 Look. Oh, my God. 15 00:00:52,362 --> 00:00:54,364 Get on the shore! Whew, nice! 16 00:00:54,468 --> 00:00:57,643 13, 14 inches. Oh, my God. 17 00:00:57,747 --> 00:01:00,543 - Around the bend is where the beaver dam is. 18 00:01:00,646 --> 00:01:05,789 ♪ ♪ 19 00:01:05,893 --> 00:01:07,239 Where are you? 20 00:01:07,343 --> 00:01:11,209 If I didn't hit it well, it's gonna just tear me up, 21 00:01:11,312 --> 00:01:13,176 but I guess I could have missed. 22 00:01:15,834 --> 00:01:18,733 [dramatic music] 23 00:01:18,837 --> 00:01:22,806 ♪ ♪ 24 00:01:22,910 --> 00:01:25,602 - I can't wait to have this place try and break me. 25 00:01:25,706 --> 00:01:27,639 narrator: For the first time on "Alone," 26 00:01:27,742 --> 00:01:29,986 10 participants fight to survive 27 00:01:30,090 --> 00:01:31,263 in the hunting ground 28 00:01:31,367 --> 00:01:33,921 of the world's largest land predator. 29 00:01:34,024 --> 00:01:35,440 - Oh, my God, where'd he go? 30 00:01:35,543 --> 00:01:36,648 Those are bear. 31 00:01:36,751 --> 00:01:38,167 - I heard a big animal. 32 00:01:38,270 --> 00:01:40,652 - Hey, bear. - Oh, no. [bleep]. 33 00:01:40,755 --> 00:01:43,241 [animal huffing] - Sometimes, you eat the bear. 34 00:01:43,344 --> 00:01:45,484 Sometimes, the bear eats you. 35 00:01:45,588 --> 00:01:47,659 narrator: Battling merciless conditions. 36 00:01:47,762 --> 00:01:49,661 - This is some hard-core bushwhacking. 37 00:01:49,764 --> 00:01:53,113 - Why does it have to be such a struggle every night? 38 00:01:53,216 --> 00:01:55,184 - I hit it. I hit it. I hit it. 39 00:01:55,287 --> 00:01:57,255 - Feel more alive every day I'm out here. 40 00:01:57,358 --> 00:01:58,256 - [sighs] 41 00:01:58,359 --> 00:01:59,740 - Here comes the rain again. 42 00:01:59,843 --> 00:02:02,777 - Labrador, you're not gonna make it easy for us, are you? 43 00:02:02,881 --> 00:02:04,779 narrator: In complete isolation... 44 00:02:04,883 --> 00:02:07,610 - The most dangerous thing out here is myself. 45 00:02:07,713 --> 00:02:08,749 - Look at that! 46 00:02:08,852 --> 00:02:10,475 - The cold ground is just pulling 47 00:02:10,578 --> 00:02:11,786 all the warmth from me. 48 00:02:11,890 --> 00:02:13,823 - How many days can this go on? 49 00:02:13,926 --> 00:02:15,238 - Very, very hungry. 50 00:02:15,342 --> 00:02:16,584 - I feel like I'm hitting a wall. 51 00:02:16,688 --> 00:02:19,277 narrator: Last one standing wins. 52 00:02:19,380 --> 00:02:21,451 - Only gonna get harder the longer you stay out here. 53 00:02:21,555 --> 00:02:28,596 ♪ ♪ 54 00:02:32,704 --> 00:02:35,534 [mellow acoustic music] 55 00:02:35,638 --> 00:02:42,679 ♪ ♪ 56 00:02:51,309 --> 00:02:53,794 - ♪ They say that on the "Alone" show ♪ 57 00:02:53,897 --> 00:02:56,659 ♪ The food is mighty fine ♪ 58 00:02:56,762 --> 00:02:59,109 ♪ Well, how the heck would I know? ♪ 59 00:02:59,213 --> 00:03:02,216 ♪ I can't find much of mine ♪ 60 00:03:02,320 --> 00:03:04,632 ♪ They say that on the "Alone" show ♪ 61 00:03:04,736 --> 00:03:07,083 ♪ The beverage mighty fine ♪ 62 00:03:07,187 --> 00:03:10,431 ♪ My water looks like tannic acid ♪ 63 00:03:10,535 --> 00:03:13,089 ♪ And tastes like turpentine ♪ 64 00:03:13,193 --> 00:03:14,297 Yuck! 65 00:03:14,401 --> 00:03:16,541 ♪ ♪ 66 00:03:16,644 --> 00:03:19,129 ♪ They say that on the "Alone" show ♪ 67 00:03:19,233 --> 00:03:22,271 ♪ Your image mighty fine ♪ 68 00:03:22,374 --> 00:03:25,205 ♪ Now I look like Flat Stanley ♪ 69 00:03:25,308 --> 00:03:27,793 ♪ And walk like Frankenstein ♪ 70 00:03:27,897 --> 00:03:29,554 [groans] 71 00:03:29,657 --> 00:03:32,281 ♪ I'm getting very skinny ♪ 72 00:03:32,384 --> 00:03:34,800 ♪ But I don't want to go ♪ 73 00:03:34,904 --> 00:03:39,598 ♪ No ♪ 74 00:03:39,702 --> 00:03:41,048 No! 75 00:03:42,118 --> 00:03:43,533 All right, that sounded awful. 76 00:03:43,637 --> 00:03:44,810 My voice sounds awful. 77 00:03:44,914 --> 00:03:47,710 I sound like a horse, 78 00:03:47,813 --> 00:03:50,368 but no disrespect to horses. 79 00:03:51,231 --> 00:03:54,613 I just figured we ought to have some fun this morning. 80 00:03:54,717 --> 00:03:57,340 We're gonna call that a wrap on the skit. 81 00:03:57,444 --> 00:04:00,343 A wrap. Boy, that sounds fantastic. 82 00:04:01,827 --> 00:04:03,484 So does a gyro. 83 00:04:04,520 --> 00:04:07,661 All right, I'm ready to switch gears. 84 00:04:07,764 --> 00:04:10,664 [soft music] 85 00:04:10,767 --> 00:04:13,839 ♪ ♪ 86 00:04:13,943 --> 00:04:18,223 All right, got our beaver hide from the smokehouse cache, 87 00:04:18,327 --> 00:04:21,364 so I'm just going to get all the hunks of fat 88 00:04:21,468 --> 00:04:23,401 from this incredible animal, 89 00:04:23,504 --> 00:04:27,336 which there is a tremendous amount still on here. 90 00:04:27,439 --> 00:04:31,512 And I want to stretch the hide, dry the hide to preserve it 91 00:04:31,616 --> 00:04:34,619 and just to make sure that it is sanitized, if you will. 92 00:04:34,722 --> 00:04:38,761 ♪ ♪ 93 00:04:38,864 --> 00:04:42,040 And we're gonna start with these big, beautiful chunks 94 00:04:42,143 --> 00:04:44,284 of incredible, edible fat. 95 00:04:45,630 --> 00:04:48,736 I'm eating substantially more of it today 96 00:04:48,840 --> 00:04:50,082 than I did yesterday, 97 00:04:50,186 --> 00:04:51,808 and I ate substantially more yesterday 98 00:04:51,912 --> 00:04:53,776 than I did the day before that. 99 00:04:53,879 --> 00:04:56,226 I mean, I ate most of the beaver 100 00:04:56,330 --> 00:04:58,263 in the last 10 days, 101 00:04:58,367 --> 00:05:01,093 and we're gonna run out of jerky 102 00:05:01,197 --> 00:05:04,027 before we run out of fat, the way I've been eating it 103 00:05:04,131 --> 00:05:05,512 just to keep the stomach 104 00:05:05,615 --> 00:05:09,170 somewhat able to handle the fat. 105 00:05:09,274 --> 00:05:13,520 But I'm just aware that I'm deteriorating, 106 00:05:13,623 --> 00:05:17,317 so I got to throw everything at this weight loss. 107 00:05:19,180 --> 00:05:20,630 Does it make survival sense? 108 00:05:20,734 --> 00:05:21,700 Probably not. 109 00:05:21,804 --> 00:05:24,531 But it's the way my body operates, 110 00:05:24,634 --> 00:05:27,810 and we've got to respect the body 111 00:05:27,913 --> 00:05:30,330 the best we can out here. 112 00:05:30,433 --> 00:05:32,677 I think it's very important to be self-aware. 113 00:05:32,780 --> 00:05:36,888 That's one reason I really enjoy pushing myself. 114 00:05:36,991 --> 00:05:39,339 How do you know how far you can push 115 00:05:39,442 --> 00:05:41,064 if you haven't reached it? 116 00:05:42,100 --> 00:05:45,724 And I come to the finish line... 117 00:05:47,036 --> 00:05:49,245 I do not want my vehicle 118 00:05:49,349 --> 00:05:52,835 to be immaculate and clean and scar-free. 119 00:05:52,938 --> 00:05:55,389 I want to come wheels falling off, 120 00:05:55,493 --> 00:06:00,532 engine missing, throwing fuel and smoke and flame, 121 00:06:00,636 --> 00:06:04,605 and I want to skid across the finish line sideways. 122 00:06:04,709 --> 00:06:07,608 ♪ ♪ 123 00:06:07,712 --> 00:06:09,886 Such a magnificent hide. 124 00:06:09,990 --> 00:06:12,751 Finally got it fleshed out sufficiently. 125 00:06:12,855 --> 00:06:17,825 We've got some wire here, a couple holes from the Aero. 126 00:06:17,929 --> 00:06:20,310 Just work on getting it roughly hung 127 00:06:20,414 --> 00:06:24,453 so it has better air circulation, dries better. 128 00:06:24,556 --> 00:06:26,524 Put the lid on everything, cover it really well 129 00:06:26,627 --> 00:06:29,803 with spruce boughs to try to keep any moisture off. 130 00:06:29,906 --> 00:06:31,529 We're gonna work our way back towards camp, 131 00:06:31,632 --> 00:06:35,498 get a flame going, and then get an ember. 132 00:06:35,602 --> 00:06:38,190 We'll come back and put some smoke to it. 133 00:06:39,951 --> 00:06:42,056 All right, well, there it is. 134 00:06:43,472 --> 00:06:45,059 [chuckles] 135 00:06:45,163 --> 00:06:48,753 Not forgetting to smile over that, I tell you. 136 00:06:48,856 --> 00:06:55,898 ♪ ♪ 137 00:07:02,905 --> 00:07:04,458 - That's nice. 138 00:07:06,287 --> 00:07:07,772 Looking good. 139 00:07:09,774 --> 00:07:11,534 I just finished all the water I had 140 00:07:11,638 --> 00:07:13,225 in the pot from last night. 141 00:07:13,329 --> 00:07:16,263 The water cache looks pretty full. 142 00:07:16,366 --> 00:07:19,508 Release the line, 143 00:07:19,611 --> 00:07:21,958 keep holding the line... 144 00:07:23,684 --> 00:07:29,310 get pot approximately where I think water might drain. 145 00:07:33,867 --> 00:07:35,489 It's working. 146 00:07:35,593 --> 00:07:38,803 [laughs] I'm getting this. 147 00:07:46,776 --> 00:07:48,088 Sweet. 148 00:07:51,747 --> 00:07:53,300 Yay, water cache! 149 00:07:53,403 --> 00:07:54,784 [chuckles] 150 00:07:54,888 --> 00:07:59,444 ♪ ♪ 151 00:07:59,548 --> 00:08:04,311 So now I'm gonna be, basically, filling in walls. 152 00:08:04,414 --> 00:08:07,107 Just want to keep drafts from coming in. 153 00:08:07,210 --> 00:08:09,316 ♪ ♪ 154 00:08:09,419 --> 00:08:11,318 There's more to do, it seems. 155 00:08:11,421 --> 00:08:13,182 But hodgepodge will get done 156 00:08:13,285 --> 00:08:14,977 when hodgepodge is supposed to get done. 157 00:08:15,080 --> 00:08:17,427 ♪ ♪ 158 00:08:17,531 --> 00:08:19,809 Kinda fit in there. 159 00:08:21,086 --> 00:08:24,987 As a kid, I had a lot of emotional suffering. 160 00:08:25,090 --> 00:08:27,852 My mom is an incredibly loving, wonderful woman, 161 00:08:27,955 --> 00:08:30,613 but part of it was me trying to create the perfect image 162 00:08:30,717 --> 00:08:33,616 and just be a good girl, do what you're told. 163 00:08:33,720 --> 00:08:36,964 And that quitting never really even entered my mind. 164 00:08:37,068 --> 00:08:39,795 You can go right here. 165 00:08:39,898 --> 00:08:41,348 And now you're in the wilderness. 166 00:08:41,451 --> 00:08:42,798 You're in the middle of nowhere. 167 00:08:42,901 --> 00:08:46,008 You can curl up and die, or you can keep going. 168 00:08:46,111 --> 00:08:48,355 [exhales sharply] More debris. 169 00:08:48,458 --> 00:08:50,046 You just gotta keep going. 170 00:08:50,150 --> 00:08:54,085 ♪ ♪ 171 00:08:54,188 --> 00:08:55,742 All good? 172 00:08:55,845 --> 00:08:58,227 Getting enough debris to fill in that many cubic feet 173 00:08:58,330 --> 00:09:01,057 is a lot, so I need to be more conservative 174 00:09:01,161 --> 00:09:03,232 and just not try to do things fast. 175 00:09:04,544 --> 00:09:07,719 I just gotta push through the suffering, 176 00:09:07,823 --> 00:09:10,515 and eventually, it'll be okay. 177 00:09:10,619 --> 00:09:12,310 Maybe I'm too optimistic, 178 00:09:12,413 --> 00:09:14,484 but I'm very hopeful, 179 00:09:14,588 --> 00:09:16,970 and I feel like I have the skills and the ability 180 00:09:17,073 --> 00:09:18,247 to win it. 181 00:09:18,350 --> 00:09:20,283 And that's my goal. 182 00:09:20,387 --> 00:09:23,045 Here's the whole wall. 183 00:09:24,633 --> 00:09:29,016 That whole stretch. 184 00:09:29,120 --> 00:09:31,432 It's about 12 feet. 185 00:09:31,536 --> 00:09:36,679 Hodgepodge walls being finished is within reach. 186 00:09:36,783 --> 00:09:38,163 We're getting close. 187 00:09:40,027 --> 00:09:42,754 Without challenge, there's no growth. 188 00:09:43,375 --> 00:09:46,758 There's no black without white. 189 00:09:46,862 --> 00:09:49,968 And there's something that comes 190 00:09:50,072 --> 00:09:52,005 on a spiritual level 191 00:09:52,108 --> 00:09:56,181 when we're stripped down to our basic self, 192 00:09:56,285 --> 00:09:59,668 when all the masks, all the convenience, 193 00:09:59,771 --> 00:10:01,946 all of that is stripped away, 194 00:10:02,049 --> 00:10:05,605 and I feel like that's when I'm the most alive. 195 00:10:09,850 --> 00:10:12,232 What kind of animal 196 00:10:12,335 --> 00:10:14,717 Jesse might be cooking up tonight? 197 00:10:15,822 --> 00:10:17,237 It's a squirrel! 198 00:10:17,340 --> 00:10:18,963 [laughs] 199 00:10:19,066 --> 00:10:22,035 However, this one is unusual 200 00:10:22,138 --> 00:10:26,004 'cause when I went up to the snare, 201 00:10:26,108 --> 00:10:27,903 he just looked so bedraggled. 202 00:10:28,006 --> 00:10:30,077 ♪ ♪ 203 00:10:30,181 --> 00:10:31,251 But the poor little guy, like, 204 00:10:31,354 --> 00:10:33,840 I was going to, like, skin him out, 205 00:10:33,943 --> 00:10:35,807 and, like, literally his head fell off. 206 00:10:35,911 --> 00:10:40,674 Like, that's how hard something was really trying 207 00:10:40,778 --> 00:10:42,089 to get ahold of this guy. 208 00:10:44,229 --> 00:10:46,784 There's all these little teeth marks in it. 209 00:10:46,887 --> 00:10:49,959 Something else came and, like, was able to yank 210 00:10:50,063 --> 00:10:52,030 hard enough to snap the wire. 211 00:10:52,134 --> 00:10:54,067 It's gotta be a fox. 212 00:10:55,482 --> 00:10:56,552 I don't think I've ever eaten fox. 213 00:10:56,656 --> 00:10:58,209 I've eaten coyote. 214 00:10:59,486 --> 00:11:01,833 I don't mind eating the canines. 215 00:11:04,422 --> 00:11:06,700 Don't worry, your pets are safe with me. 216 00:11:11,325 --> 00:11:14,225 [dramatic music] 217 00:11:14,328 --> 00:11:17,849 ♪ ♪ 218 00:11:22,889 --> 00:11:25,063 [sizzling] 219 00:11:25,167 --> 00:11:27,203 - What we have here is a collection 220 00:11:27,307 --> 00:11:31,829 of deep fried beaver fat bits. 221 00:11:31,932 --> 00:11:34,797 I'm just trying to pick out the crispy bits that are meat. 222 00:11:36,626 --> 00:11:38,663 [crunching] Oh, yeah. 223 00:11:41,010 --> 00:11:43,633 So I'm gonna try and mix some bits with the rendered fat. 224 00:11:44,876 --> 00:11:47,603 And you got the melt-in-your-mouth fat. 225 00:11:47,707 --> 00:11:50,882 You got the bacon bit-esque crunch. 226 00:11:52,297 --> 00:11:54,817 I know I'm losing more than a pound a day, 227 00:11:54,921 --> 00:11:59,132 but I'm losing it a lot slower. 228 00:11:59,235 --> 00:12:02,204 I'm definitely getting enough fat in, 229 00:12:02,307 --> 00:12:04,758 enough of it that your stomach is like, "Okay..." 230 00:12:06,346 --> 00:12:08,244 "That's enough at this point." 231 00:12:09,176 --> 00:12:11,627 You know, I can palm a basketball, 232 00:12:11,731 --> 00:12:15,320 and I'm eating more rendered fat 233 00:12:15,424 --> 00:12:18,738 than would fit in the palm of my hand. 234 00:12:22,155 --> 00:12:24,778 1/2 to 3/4 of an inch deep. 235 00:12:24,882 --> 00:12:28,989 I mean, I eat that a couple times a day right now. 236 00:12:30,439 --> 00:12:32,130 Ever since I got this beaver, 237 00:12:32,234 --> 00:12:34,029 I've had such a responsibility 238 00:12:34,132 --> 00:12:35,996 to preserve it in every way, 239 00:12:36,100 --> 00:12:37,446 and that's the project 240 00:12:37,549 --> 00:12:39,551 that takes all of my waking moments, 241 00:12:39,655 --> 00:12:43,141 other than attempting to keep up with hydration. 242 00:12:43,245 --> 00:12:48,215 But I am acutely aware that this is not the way 243 00:12:48,319 --> 00:12:51,391 you sustain yourself long-term. 244 00:12:51,494 --> 00:12:53,151 I just feel lethargic. 245 00:12:53,255 --> 00:12:54,877 Like, as goofy as it sounds, 246 00:12:54,981 --> 00:12:57,052 it almost feels like my blood's thick. 247 00:12:57,915 --> 00:13:00,918 So I need to focus on hunting and fishing 248 00:13:01,021 --> 00:13:04,404 and things of such natures. 249 00:13:04,507 --> 00:13:11,549 ♪ ♪ 250 00:13:29,705 --> 00:13:30,810 - Come on, man. 251 00:13:34,986 --> 00:13:36,539 [wings fluttering] 252 00:13:40,440 --> 00:13:41,821 That was a grouse. 253 00:13:41,924 --> 00:13:43,339 [bleep]. 254 00:13:44,754 --> 00:13:51,796 ♪ ♪ 255 00:13:53,902 --> 00:13:56,559 Just gotta keep my eye open. 256 00:13:56,663 --> 00:13:58,078 Should come down to feed eventually. 257 00:13:58,182 --> 00:14:01,392 ♪ ♪ 258 00:14:01,495 --> 00:14:04,671 [flapping] 259 00:14:04,774 --> 00:14:05,879 There we go. 260 00:14:05,983 --> 00:14:11,505 ♪ ♪ 261 00:14:11,609 --> 00:14:12,506 [bow string twangs] 262 00:14:12,610 --> 00:14:17,373 ♪ ♪ 263 00:14:17,477 --> 00:14:18,754 Oh, man. 264 00:14:18,858 --> 00:14:23,863 ♪ ♪ 265 00:14:23,966 --> 00:14:26,969 [chuckling] 266 00:14:28,902 --> 00:14:29,834 Hell yeah. 267 00:14:29,938 --> 00:14:33,838 ♪ ♪ 268 00:14:33,942 --> 00:14:35,805 Just like that, 269 00:14:35,909 --> 00:14:40,120 sometimes your dinner wanders into camp 270 00:14:40,224 --> 00:14:41,846 while you're cutting wood. 271 00:14:41,950 --> 00:14:43,365 [laughs] 272 00:14:44,469 --> 00:14:46,195 My stomach feels better. 273 00:14:46,299 --> 00:14:48,301 That was really draining me for a while there. 274 00:14:49,474 --> 00:14:51,269 Already got a grouse. 275 00:14:51,373 --> 00:14:53,754 I'm feeling nothing but good vibes today. 276 00:14:55,342 --> 00:14:56,240 [wings flapping] 277 00:14:56,343 --> 00:14:57,758 Oh, holy [bleep]. 278 00:14:57,862 --> 00:14:58,932 There's a second one. 279 00:14:59,036 --> 00:15:00,796 ♪ ♪ 280 00:15:04,731 --> 00:15:06,422 Perfect. Perfect. Perfect. 281 00:15:06,526 --> 00:15:07,458 Stay right on that one. 282 00:15:07,561 --> 00:15:10,461 ♪ ♪ 283 00:15:10,564 --> 00:15:11,462 [bow string twangs] 284 00:15:11,565 --> 00:15:13,257 Holy [bleep]. 285 00:15:13,360 --> 00:15:15,293 [gasps] Oh, my God. 286 00:15:15,397 --> 00:15:17,019 [chuckles] 287 00:15:19,919 --> 00:15:22,680 Oh, thank you, sweet little bird. 288 00:15:24,854 --> 00:15:28,168 ♪ ♪ 289 00:15:28,272 --> 00:15:30,688 Two birds, 290 00:15:30,791 --> 00:15:32,690 without even leaving the front yard. 291 00:15:32,793 --> 00:15:36,659 ♪ ♪ 292 00:15:36,763 --> 00:15:37,764 What a day. 293 00:15:37,867 --> 00:15:39,593 ♪ ♪ 294 00:15:39,697 --> 00:15:43,218 Okay, we're gonna go down to the river and pluck. 295 00:15:43,321 --> 00:15:44,633 ♪ ♪ 296 00:15:44,736 --> 00:15:46,324 Very curious to know if I'm the only one 297 00:15:46,428 --> 00:15:49,120 that's been so lucky with these grouse. 298 00:15:49,224 --> 00:15:51,019 I mean, I say lucky. 299 00:15:51,122 --> 00:15:54,505 I've been working my ass off as well. 300 00:15:54,608 --> 00:15:55,989 What do they say? 301 00:15:56,093 --> 00:15:58,164 Luck is where preparation and opportunity meet. 302 00:15:58,267 --> 00:16:01,995 ♪ ♪ 303 00:16:02,099 --> 00:16:04,964 All right, we'll start on this guy. 304 00:16:05,067 --> 00:16:06,655 Just keep sending them, Labrador. 305 00:16:08,105 --> 00:16:09,244 Ooh. 306 00:16:10,452 --> 00:16:13,455 Cold winds. 307 00:16:13,558 --> 00:16:15,491 A portent of things to come. 308 00:16:15,595 --> 00:16:17,528 ♪ ♪ 309 00:16:17,631 --> 00:16:20,013 I love it out here. 310 00:16:20,117 --> 00:16:24,190 I'm looking forward to seeing the landscape covered in snow. 311 00:16:24,293 --> 00:16:26,537 I feel that coming soon. 312 00:16:26,640 --> 00:16:31,093 But I miss my family terribly. 313 00:16:31,197 --> 00:16:35,304 Plucking chickens back home, I drop them in hot water first. 314 00:16:35,408 --> 00:16:37,720 Makes the feathers come out easier. 315 00:16:39,205 --> 00:16:40,965 When you're on "Alone," 316 00:16:41,069 --> 00:16:43,312 you have no way of knowing 317 00:16:43,416 --> 00:16:47,040 your family is okay or not okay, 318 00:16:47,144 --> 00:16:49,594 and that does weigh on your mind. 319 00:16:49,698 --> 00:16:51,320 ♪ ♪ 320 00:16:51,424 --> 00:16:53,771 But I'm not lonely. 321 00:16:53,874 --> 00:16:56,498 I don't care to be around just anybody 322 00:16:56,601 --> 00:16:59,121 for the sake of having other human beings around me. 323 00:16:59,225 --> 00:17:01,882 And, ironically, I feel 324 00:17:01,986 --> 00:17:04,471 much closer to my loved ones. 325 00:17:04,575 --> 00:17:07,198 It will not be a reason for me to tap out. 326 00:17:07,302 --> 00:17:09,028 ♪ ♪ 327 00:17:09,131 --> 00:17:10,960 All right. 328 00:17:11,064 --> 00:17:13,929 We're gonna mosey on back to the house. 329 00:17:16,069 --> 00:17:17,450 [exhales] 330 00:17:18,451 --> 00:17:19,762 [snapping] 331 00:17:19,866 --> 00:17:20,763 What the hell was that? 332 00:17:20,867 --> 00:17:27,184 ♪ ♪ 333 00:17:27,287 --> 00:17:28,357 What the [bleep]? 334 00:17:28,461 --> 00:17:30,221 ♪ ♪ 335 00:17:30,325 --> 00:17:31,567 Oh, my God. 336 00:17:31,671 --> 00:17:34,467 ♪ ♪ 337 00:17:34,570 --> 00:17:36,676 Holy [bleep]. 338 00:17:40,852 --> 00:17:42,095 [dramatic music] 339 00:17:42,199 --> 00:17:47,549 ♪ ♪ 340 00:17:55,350 --> 00:17:57,490 Check--look at this. 341 00:17:57,593 --> 00:18:00,217 [chuckles] 342 00:18:00,320 --> 00:18:02,736 That's a chunk of floating dock. 343 00:18:04,428 --> 00:18:06,361 You know how useful that could be? 344 00:18:08,501 --> 00:18:12,988 I mean, my--my mind's already flooded with possibilities. 345 00:18:13,092 --> 00:18:15,266 Let's go take a look. 346 00:18:15,370 --> 00:18:17,717 I think I can come in from the other side. 347 00:18:17,820 --> 00:18:19,201 ♪ ♪ 348 00:18:19,305 --> 00:18:20,823 So I've been here a month, 349 00:18:20,927 --> 00:18:24,689 and I haven't found any man-made anything, 350 00:18:24,793 --> 00:18:26,105 and I was truly starting to think 351 00:18:26,208 --> 00:18:30,799 that I was in a pure, untouched wilderness. 352 00:18:30,902 --> 00:18:32,766 And then suddenly, I find 353 00:18:32,870 --> 00:18:35,079 one of the most useful pieces of trash 354 00:18:35,183 --> 00:18:37,806 that I could ever think about finding. 355 00:18:37,909 --> 00:18:40,878 Man, I am one lucky SOB. 356 00:18:40,981 --> 00:18:42,121 [chuckles] 357 00:18:42,224 --> 00:18:47,195 ♪ ♪ 358 00:18:47,298 --> 00:18:48,782 I know what some of you are thinking. 359 00:18:48,886 --> 00:18:51,130 Stick that sucker back out onto the river, 360 00:18:51,233 --> 00:18:53,235 and you got yourself a boat or a dock 361 00:18:53,339 --> 00:18:55,064 that you could fish off of. 362 00:18:57,101 --> 00:18:58,275 Mm-mm. 363 00:18:59,414 --> 00:19:02,175 As a sailor and a boat builder, 364 00:19:02,279 --> 00:19:04,281 this thing ain't gonna float. 365 00:19:04,384 --> 00:19:08,147 But the universe has handed a carpenter 366 00:19:08,250 --> 00:19:10,563 a bunch of boards and nails. 367 00:19:10,666 --> 00:19:12,358 [chuckles] 368 00:19:12,461 --> 00:19:14,670 Oh, I'm so stoked. 369 00:19:14,774 --> 00:19:17,259 Labrador delivering again. 370 00:19:17,363 --> 00:19:20,642 We'll take a couple boards home now. 371 00:19:20,745 --> 00:19:22,816 I don't feel like the dock could have landed 372 00:19:22,920 --> 00:19:24,818 on a better shore. 373 00:19:24,922 --> 00:19:26,889 I've got the imagination, and I got the skills 374 00:19:26,993 --> 00:19:28,995 to put them good use. 375 00:19:29,098 --> 00:19:31,791 Oh, man, some good nails in here. 376 00:19:31,894 --> 00:19:33,413 ♪ ♪ 377 00:19:33,517 --> 00:19:37,659 Immediately, I'm thinking, okay, I'm far from home. 378 00:19:37,762 --> 00:19:39,902 I want to be able to make my site feel 379 00:19:40,006 --> 00:19:42,491 as homey as possible. 380 00:19:42,595 --> 00:19:46,288 Moss House is about to level up, y'all. 381 00:19:46,392 --> 00:19:48,014 ♪ ♪ 382 00:19:48,117 --> 00:19:50,499 Couldn't ask for a better present, 383 00:19:50,603 --> 00:19:52,363 other than maybe everybody else tapping out 384 00:19:52,467 --> 00:19:54,676 and me winning half a million dollars. 385 00:19:54,779 --> 00:19:57,265 ♪ ♪ 386 00:19:57,368 --> 00:19:58,714 But this is a good second. 387 00:19:58,818 --> 00:20:05,859 ♪ ♪ 388 00:20:27,295 --> 00:20:29,538 - So I'm making a lamp 389 00:20:29,642 --> 00:20:31,437 'cause it gets dark in here. 390 00:20:31,540 --> 00:20:34,025 And I know that sounds silly, 391 00:20:34,129 --> 00:20:35,786 but just bear with me. 392 00:20:35,889 --> 00:20:37,753 You gotta be real gentle with this mushroom 393 00:20:37,857 --> 00:20:39,755 because anywhere you bruise it on the underside, 394 00:20:39,859 --> 00:20:41,032 it turns brown, 395 00:20:41,136 --> 00:20:43,587 and I need it white to reflect the light. 396 00:20:43,690 --> 00:20:50,559 ♪ ♪ 397 00:20:50,663 --> 00:20:52,389 I wouldn't be doing this if it wasn't dark 398 00:20:52,492 --> 00:20:53,700 and I could be doing something else 399 00:20:53,804 --> 00:20:55,115 like working on the shelter. 400 00:20:55,219 --> 00:20:58,429 ♪ ♪ 401 00:20:58,533 --> 00:21:01,674 Headlamp, she sits in here. 402 00:21:01,777 --> 00:21:04,780 [chuckles victoriously] 403 00:21:04,884 --> 00:21:06,230 Look at that. 404 00:21:08,301 --> 00:21:09,337 Yes. 405 00:21:09,440 --> 00:21:10,683 I'm gonna turn the infrared off 406 00:21:10,786 --> 00:21:13,099 just so you can see the difference. 407 00:21:15,964 --> 00:21:17,655 Look, you can see me. 408 00:21:19,450 --> 00:21:21,901 How about that [bleep] right there? 409 00:21:22,004 --> 00:21:24,041 Isn't that so much nicer for you all to look at 410 00:21:24,144 --> 00:21:26,975 than the crazy psycho vision? 411 00:21:27,078 --> 00:21:29,909 That stuff is just so spooky, man. 412 00:21:30,012 --> 00:21:35,190 ♪ ♪ 413 00:21:40,057 --> 00:21:41,748 I'm awfully hungry, 414 00:21:41,852 --> 00:21:43,647 but I'm a little bit concerned 415 00:21:43,750 --> 00:21:47,029 about the shelter 'cause it just goes so slow. 416 00:21:47,133 --> 00:21:48,721 I wonder if that's gonna be enough. 417 00:21:50,067 --> 00:21:52,172 Let's see how far they go. 418 00:21:52,276 --> 00:21:55,210 So try to put some shelter worries behind me, 419 00:21:55,314 --> 00:21:58,317 and then I can focus more on the hunts 420 00:21:58,420 --> 00:22:00,767 'cause I don't want to get tired trying to do both. 421 00:22:00,871 --> 00:22:01,906 Yoink. 422 00:22:03,667 --> 00:22:07,636 If I trip over this rock one more time without moving it... 423 00:22:13,711 --> 00:22:15,403 All right, we're gonna do 424 00:22:15,506 --> 00:22:18,751 weaving and stuffing piles. 425 00:22:18,854 --> 00:22:20,408 I'd always rather hunt, 426 00:22:20,511 --> 00:22:23,549 but it's probably the right thing to do. 427 00:22:23,652 --> 00:22:25,516 I know it goes something like that. 428 00:22:26,345 --> 00:22:28,416 ♪ ♪ 429 00:22:28,519 --> 00:22:31,280 Trying to be a grown-up. 430 00:22:31,384 --> 00:22:33,282 But I don't feel like a grown-up out here, 431 00:22:33,386 --> 00:22:37,528 I feel like Tom Sawyer and Huck Finn combined. 432 00:22:37,632 --> 00:22:39,875 Okay, that'll do. 433 00:22:39,979 --> 00:22:42,844 That part of this experience has been pretty awesome, 434 00:22:42,947 --> 00:22:46,261 the freedom, the lack of worry, 435 00:22:46,365 --> 00:22:51,646 the break from things like work and bills and emails. 436 00:22:54,338 --> 00:22:58,446 I feel made whole by this experience. 437 00:22:58,549 --> 00:23:01,172 ♪ ♪ 438 00:23:01,276 --> 00:23:04,590 This is the original human lifestyle. 439 00:23:04,693 --> 00:23:07,972 I want people to get outside and just be humbled by it. 440 00:23:09,664 --> 00:23:11,700 Will that work? 441 00:23:11,804 --> 00:23:15,670 I'm so lucky to have this time in this beautiful place. 442 00:23:15,773 --> 00:23:17,361 Just that mindset, 443 00:23:17,465 --> 00:23:19,743 I'm gonna keep that when I go home. 444 00:23:21,986 --> 00:23:23,643 Super nice. 445 00:23:24,713 --> 00:23:27,820 Thank you for spending the morning with me. 446 00:23:27,923 --> 00:23:30,719 I feel like I just started the "Mr. Rogers Show." 447 00:23:30,823 --> 00:23:32,238 "Hello, neighbor." 448 00:23:33,342 --> 00:23:35,034 No neighbors out here, man. 449 00:23:35,137 --> 00:23:42,075 ♪ ♪ 450 00:23:42,628 --> 00:23:47,391 15 squirrel, 19 trout, 5 grouse, 451 00:23:47,495 --> 00:23:50,187 1 rabbit, 1 whisky jack. 452 00:23:51,395 --> 00:23:53,017 That's what I've eaten. 453 00:23:53,121 --> 00:23:56,711 And about a bazillion bunchberries 454 00:23:56,814 --> 00:23:58,747 and some mushrooms. 455 00:23:58,851 --> 00:24:00,818 41 critters. 456 00:24:00,922 --> 00:24:03,407 That's 82 eyeballs. 457 00:24:03,511 --> 00:24:06,375 It's really not enough calories. 458 00:24:06,479 --> 00:24:09,378 It's total feast or famine, and I'm living hand to mouth. 459 00:24:09,482 --> 00:24:12,485 I'm living paycheck to paycheck, if you will. 460 00:24:12,589 --> 00:24:13,935 You know, I'm getting a piece of food, 461 00:24:14,038 --> 00:24:15,833 and I'm just immediately cooking and eating it. 462 00:24:15,937 --> 00:24:20,320 ♪ ♪ 463 00:24:20,424 --> 00:24:23,082 I'm getting skinny, but I'm getting beast. 464 00:24:23,185 --> 00:24:26,361 My legs from walking these hills, man, 465 00:24:26,465 --> 00:24:28,328 I got legs like a cyclist. 466 00:24:28,432 --> 00:24:29,847 [chirping] 467 00:24:29,951 --> 00:24:31,262 [dramatic music] 468 00:24:31,366 --> 00:24:32,678 Just heard a squirrel. 469 00:24:32,781 --> 00:24:34,956 [chirping] 470 00:24:35,059 --> 00:24:36,647 Where are you, you little bugger? 471 00:24:36,751 --> 00:24:39,408 [chirping, whistling] 472 00:24:42,895 --> 00:24:48,003 ♪ ♪ 473 00:24:52,318 --> 00:24:55,183 [dramatic music] 474 00:24:55,286 --> 00:24:58,082 ♪ ♪ 475 00:25:10,163 --> 00:25:12,234 Iced that sucker. 476 00:25:12,338 --> 00:25:13,857 Good grief. 477 00:25:15,065 --> 00:25:18,862 That was a good shot, I'd say so myself. 478 00:25:18,965 --> 00:25:25,800 ♪ ♪ 479 00:25:25,903 --> 00:25:27,422 Hm, more food. 480 00:25:27,526 --> 00:25:30,149 ♪ ♪ 481 00:25:30,252 --> 00:25:32,254 I guess I'll graze my way on home. 482 00:25:32,358 --> 00:25:34,567 [crunching] 483 00:25:34,671 --> 00:25:40,987 ♪ ♪ 484 00:25:41,091 --> 00:25:42,886 [wings flapping] 485 00:25:42,989 --> 00:25:45,129 Hang on a second. 486 00:25:45,233 --> 00:25:46,372 I heard a grouse. 487 00:25:46,475 --> 00:25:47,822 ♪ ♪ 488 00:25:47,925 --> 00:25:50,065 They're so difficult to spot. 489 00:25:50,169 --> 00:25:52,896 ♪ ♪ 490 00:25:52,999 --> 00:25:54,863 [whispering] There he is right there 491 00:25:54,967 --> 00:25:56,244 on the ground. 492 00:25:56,347 --> 00:26:00,662 ♪ ♪ 493 00:26:10,154 --> 00:26:11,673 Yes, sir. 494 00:26:13,157 --> 00:26:16,126 Can't tell you how impatient I am 495 00:26:16,229 --> 00:26:18,369 to get these cooked. 496 00:26:18,473 --> 00:26:25,514 ♪ ♪ 497 00:26:28,828 --> 00:26:31,210 I'm excited about food. 498 00:26:33,350 --> 00:26:36,111 I'm sure this looks so gross to everybody back home, 499 00:26:36,215 --> 00:26:38,044 but I'm telling you, 500 00:26:38,148 --> 00:26:40,737 I've tasted them three different ways. 501 00:26:40,840 --> 00:26:42,393 This is the way. 502 00:26:42,497 --> 00:26:44,499 ♪ ♪ 503 00:26:44,603 --> 00:26:46,328 See, you're not eating the hair. 504 00:26:46,432 --> 00:26:48,296 ♪ ♪ 505 00:26:48,399 --> 00:26:49,711 The hair is gone. 506 00:26:49,815 --> 00:26:51,989 ♪ ♪ 507 00:26:52,093 --> 00:26:53,335 Or it will be gone 508 00:26:53,439 --> 00:26:55,234 by the time the squirrel is done. 509 00:26:55,337 --> 00:26:56,994 ♪ ♪ 510 00:26:57,098 --> 00:26:58,789 I'm not lonely out here. 511 00:26:58,893 --> 00:27:00,342 There's so much life around me. 512 00:27:00,446 --> 00:27:02,966 There's so much to do and think about. 513 00:27:03,069 --> 00:27:05,831 I find myself to be really content out here 514 00:27:05,934 --> 00:27:10,525 and thinking about how special my childhood really was. 515 00:27:10,629 --> 00:27:13,217 And when the skin starts to crack 516 00:27:13,321 --> 00:27:16,945 like a hog on a spit, 517 00:27:17,049 --> 00:27:18,982 it's done. 518 00:27:19,085 --> 00:27:20,708 Taking the things that I learned in Africa 519 00:27:20,811 --> 00:27:24,470 and adapting them to Labrador is really fascinating to me. 520 00:27:24,573 --> 00:27:26,645 Wild places are vanishing, 521 00:27:26,748 --> 00:27:29,855 so it's important to focus on the ethics of hunting. 522 00:27:29,958 --> 00:27:32,858 I want to create a more modern day image of the hunter, 523 00:27:32,961 --> 00:27:34,618 the hunter that cares about conservation, 524 00:27:34,722 --> 00:27:36,102 the hunter that honors the game 525 00:27:36,206 --> 00:27:38,967 with the way that he cooks and presents the food. 526 00:27:39,071 --> 00:27:40,520 They're full of cartilage. 527 00:27:40,624 --> 00:27:42,591 ♪ ♪ 528 00:27:42,695 --> 00:27:46,285 Oh, yeah, when the joint just pops like that, 529 00:27:46,388 --> 00:27:47,458 you know it's done. 530 00:27:47,562 --> 00:27:49,081 ♪ ♪ 531 00:27:49,184 --> 00:27:50,945 Fortunately, we're moving into a movement 532 00:27:51,048 --> 00:27:53,844 where hunters are chefs. 533 00:27:53,948 --> 00:27:55,018 Hunters are white collar guys 534 00:27:55,121 --> 00:27:57,020 looking to escape their lifestyle 535 00:27:57,123 --> 00:27:59,160 and get more connected to the land. 536 00:28:00,644 --> 00:28:02,197 It's cooked to perfection. 537 00:28:05,097 --> 00:28:12,138 ♪ ♪ 538 00:28:28,292 --> 00:28:29,846 - Good morning! 539 00:28:33,470 --> 00:28:34,782 [chuckles] 540 00:28:36,611 --> 00:28:38,889 Gotta go a little lower. [chuckles] 541 00:28:45,378 --> 00:28:49,313 I've got berry butt! 542 00:28:49,417 --> 00:28:53,283 [laughs] 543 00:28:53,386 --> 00:28:54,663 I'm making my fruit leather, 544 00:28:54,767 --> 00:28:57,977 and I did want to share the process. 545 00:28:58,081 --> 00:28:59,668 ♪ ♪ 546 00:28:59,772 --> 00:29:02,395 I keep checking my traps and trying to hunt 547 00:29:02,499 --> 00:29:04,087 and coming home with nothing, 548 00:29:04,190 --> 00:29:06,123 so to preserve these berries, 549 00:29:06,227 --> 00:29:07,573 I'm making fruit leather 550 00:29:07,676 --> 00:29:09,230 so it will carry on to the wintertime. 551 00:29:09,333 --> 00:29:11,232 I'll have those berries when it gets cold 552 00:29:11,335 --> 00:29:12,889 and there are no berries. 553 00:29:12,992 --> 00:29:15,132 It's going rather well. 554 00:29:16,202 --> 00:29:18,998 So it's just on a slow simmer, which, yeah, is a process. 555 00:29:19,102 --> 00:29:21,069 ♪ ♪ 556 00:29:21,173 --> 00:29:23,554 Look how red that is. 557 00:29:23,658 --> 00:29:25,833 And this is my berry masher. 558 00:29:25,936 --> 00:29:27,731 You don't want any chunks 559 00:29:27,835 --> 00:29:29,284 'cause they're really hard to dry. 560 00:29:29,388 --> 00:29:34,427 I just want as much puree as possible. 561 00:29:35,601 --> 00:29:37,637 To make the fruit leather is a full day process, 562 00:29:37,741 --> 00:29:38,949 so it's a commitment. 563 00:29:39,053 --> 00:29:40,537 When I cook the berries, 564 00:29:40,640 --> 00:29:41,883 I have to cook them down 565 00:29:41,987 --> 00:29:44,196 as thick as it possibly can get. 566 00:29:44,299 --> 00:29:48,338 All the water moisture content out so it's thicker than jam. 567 00:29:48,441 --> 00:29:49,891 Okay, back on the stove. 568 00:29:49,995 --> 00:29:53,792 ♪ ♪ 569 00:29:53,895 --> 00:29:56,449 To be out here is a little more hardcore, 570 00:29:56,553 --> 00:29:57,692 but at the same time, 571 00:29:57,796 --> 00:29:59,280 it's what I do at home in the fall. 572 00:29:59,383 --> 00:30:01,109 I'm putting up food. 573 00:30:01,213 --> 00:30:05,251 I'm making fruit leather, making fruit jam. 574 00:30:05,355 --> 00:30:07,322 If you leave the lid off, then the water can start 575 00:30:07,426 --> 00:30:09,083 evaporating out of there. 576 00:30:09,186 --> 00:30:12,741 And at home, I'm alone a lot. 577 00:30:12,845 --> 00:30:14,847 I live alone. I work alone. 578 00:30:14,951 --> 00:30:18,506 And I'm constantly go, go, go and never rest. 579 00:30:18,609 --> 00:30:20,577 Now, that's some awesome sauce. 580 00:30:20,680 --> 00:30:22,475 I'm always doing something, 581 00:30:22,579 --> 00:30:26,031 and I was feeling like, "I'm not gonna do that anymore." 582 00:30:26,134 --> 00:30:28,274 I want to spend more time with my friends 583 00:30:28,378 --> 00:30:31,208 and not isolate myself so much. 584 00:30:31,312 --> 00:30:33,348 ♪ ♪ 585 00:30:33,452 --> 00:30:35,834 On the sides where it's getting dry... 586 00:30:37,421 --> 00:30:38,906 you have fruit leather. 587 00:30:39,009 --> 00:30:40,148 I don't know how long 588 00:30:40,252 --> 00:30:42,081 one can survive on just berries, 589 00:30:42,185 --> 00:30:44,428 but if I don't start getting some meat-- 590 00:30:44,532 --> 00:30:46,258 [laughs] 591 00:30:46,361 --> 00:30:48,191 Okay, back on the fire. 592 00:30:52,264 --> 00:30:55,129 [dramatic music] 593 00:30:55,232 --> 00:30:58,615 ♪ ♪ 594 00:31:09,522 --> 00:31:11,973 - Got myself a good little sitting spot here. 595 00:31:18,566 --> 00:31:20,568 I feel like I'm waiting for a bus. 596 00:31:20,671 --> 00:31:22,190 [chuckles] 597 00:31:25,090 --> 00:31:27,955 All right, next item on the agenda. 598 00:31:28,058 --> 00:31:29,680 ♪ ♪ 599 00:31:29,784 --> 00:31:32,097 Moss House is gonna get a proper door. 600 00:31:32,200 --> 00:31:38,344 ♪ ♪ 601 00:31:38,448 --> 00:31:41,037 So the plan is, 602 00:31:41,140 --> 00:31:43,280 keep these four rigid, 603 00:31:43,384 --> 00:31:45,662 this cross beam, 604 00:31:45,765 --> 00:31:49,217 and connect them together 605 00:31:49,321 --> 00:31:50,839 with the smaller ones. 606 00:31:50,943 --> 00:31:52,427 ♪ ♪ 607 00:31:52,531 --> 00:31:55,775 [sawing] 608 00:31:55,879 --> 00:31:57,605 I'm not going for something fancy. 609 00:31:57,708 --> 00:31:59,779 I'm going for something solid. 610 00:31:59,883 --> 00:32:02,196 That means I don't need hinges. 611 00:32:02,299 --> 00:32:04,577 It's just gonna be something that I can slip into place 612 00:32:04,681 --> 00:32:07,097 in the evenings to keep them warmth in 613 00:32:07,201 --> 00:32:11,170 and to potentially keep bears out as well. 614 00:32:11,274 --> 00:32:13,034 I'm building a door that would slow them down 615 00:32:13,138 --> 00:32:15,312 enough for me to blast them from the window. 616 00:32:17,590 --> 00:32:18,867 Huh, nice. 617 00:32:20,628 --> 00:32:23,838 Don't want to lose any of these precious nails. 618 00:32:27,117 --> 00:32:31,535 For me, this is such a psychological necessity. 619 00:32:31,639 --> 00:32:33,261 ♪ ♪ 620 00:32:33,365 --> 00:32:34,504 I miss home. 621 00:32:34,607 --> 00:32:37,093 But riding the emotional ups and downs, 622 00:32:37,196 --> 00:32:39,474 that's an aspect of survival. 623 00:32:39,578 --> 00:32:41,131 ♪ ♪ 624 00:32:41,235 --> 00:32:44,617 That, my friends, is a back country door. 625 00:32:44,721 --> 00:32:46,378 We're gonna keep on going, 626 00:32:46,481 --> 00:32:48,967 see how far this train's gonna take us. 627 00:32:49,070 --> 00:32:52,349 Hopefully all the way to Moneyville, USA. 628 00:32:53,557 --> 00:32:56,664 And I couldn't be happier with my shelter. 629 00:32:56,767 --> 00:32:58,148 It's cozy. It's warm. 630 00:32:58,252 --> 00:33:01,220 It feels safe, and it feels sturdy enough 631 00:33:01,324 --> 00:33:03,671 to keep me in the game 632 00:33:03,774 --> 00:33:05,293 when the skinny ones have tapped. 633 00:33:05,397 --> 00:33:10,505 ♪ ♪ 634 00:33:10,609 --> 00:33:13,129 Okay, so the door is pretty much done. 635 00:33:34,357 --> 00:33:38,050 Old dock door on old Moss House. 636 00:33:38,154 --> 00:33:39,983 Hell yeah. 637 00:33:40,087 --> 00:33:47,094 ♪ ♪ 638 00:33:51,995 --> 00:33:54,101 - That's so cool. 639 00:33:54,204 --> 00:33:57,242 Right above me here, there's some species of bird 640 00:33:57,345 --> 00:33:58,726 I've never seen before, 641 00:33:58,829 --> 00:34:02,971 never heard, don't recognize at all. 642 00:34:03,075 --> 00:34:05,457 Let's see if I can find it here. 643 00:34:07,459 --> 00:34:08,805 Where you at? 644 00:34:10,082 --> 00:34:12,498 Ah, there we go, perfect. 645 00:34:12,602 --> 00:34:14,500 Well, thanks a lot for cooperating. 646 00:34:14,604 --> 00:34:15,915 ♪ ♪ 647 00:34:16,019 --> 00:34:18,953 I love seeing new wildlife, new birds. 648 00:34:19,057 --> 00:34:22,646 Super excited. That is absolutely fantastic. 649 00:34:22,750 --> 00:34:23,647 ♪ ♪ 650 00:34:23,751 --> 00:34:25,270 Hi, little bird. 651 00:34:25,373 --> 00:34:26,685 Hope you're having a great day. 652 00:34:26,788 --> 00:34:28,790 I sure appreciate you gracing me with your presence. 653 00:34:28,894 --> 00:34:30,137 [bird chirps] 654 00:34:30,240 --> 00:34:36,419 ♪ ♪ 655 00:34:36,522 --> 00:34:39,456 We're going to try to slowly work our way down 656 00:34:39,560 --> 00:34:42,010 to the river, 657 00:34:42,114 --> 00:34:44,668 set up there at the first place we caught a fish 658 00:34:44,772 --> 00:34:46,463 on location. 659 00:34:46,567 --> 00:34:48,810 ♪ ♪ 660 00:34:48,914 --> 00:34:52,366 We can be so blessed, lucky, and fortunate. 661 00:34:52,469 --> 00:34:54,092 My clothing's fitting looser. 662 00:34:54,195 --> 00:34:56,508 I need to put another hole in the belt. 663 00:34:56,611 --> 00:35:01,996 Even my hat is fitting looser, which is a trip to me. 664 00:35:02,100 --> 00:35:05,827 But I am still confident that I can stay 665 00:35:05,931 --> 00:35:07,726 for an appreciable amount of time. 666 00:35:07,829 --> 00:35:09,831 ♪ ♪ 667 00:35:09,935 --> 00:35:11,971 I think I got a couple teeny, tiny, little strips 668 00:35:12,075 --> 00:35:13,249 of jerky left. 669 00:35:13,352 --> 00:35:15,078 I say we could use some protein. 670 00:35:15,182 --> 00:35:20,911 ♪ ♪ 671 00:35:21,015 --> 00:35:23,293 It's a wonderful, wonderful day to be fishing. 672 00:35:23,397 --> 00:35:24,984 The two best times are when it's raining 673 00:35:25,088 --> 00:35:26,227 and when it's not, 674 00:35:26,331 --> 00:35:29,644 so any day is the right day to go fishing. 675 00:35:29,748 --> 00:35:35,719 ♪ ♪ 676 00:35:35,823 --> 00:35:38,964 Really feeling the hunger, the thunger. 677 00:35:39,067 --> 00:35:41,932 Feeling the thunger, the thirsty-hungry. 678 00:35:42,036 --> 00:35:44,487 ♪ ♪ 679 00:35:44,590 --> 00:35:46,937 I'm still so thankful to be out here, 680 00:35:47,041 --> 00:35:50,355 but I am noticing my body changing. 681 00:35:50,458 --> 00:35:54,048 My stamina? Way, way lower. 682 00:35:54,152 --> 00:35:56,326 I'm constantly thirsty, 683 00:35:56,430 --> 00:35:58,363 and if I stand up a little too fast, 684 00:35:58,466 --> 00:36:01,676 I get really lightheaded. 685 00:36:01,780 --> 00:36:03,333 I can barely even walk. 686 00:36:03,437 --> 00:36:06,957 I get really weak and shaky. 687 00:36:07,061 --> 00:36:09,270 Sure didn't fish very long. 688 00:36:09,374 --> 00:36:10,685 But I've just gotta be careful, 689 00:36:10,789 --> 00:36:14,137 so I'm gonna do it in slow, short, little increments. 690 00:36:14,241 --> 00:36:21,248 ♪ ♪ 691 00:36:23,457 --> 00:36:25,528 I just want to go sit 692 00:36:25,631 --> 00:36:28,220 and just be. 693 00:36:32,293 --> 00:36:34,122 My stomach has sharper pains, 694 00:36:34,226 --> 00:36:38,265 as well as just the nausea and the queasiness. 695 00:36:38,368 --> 00:36:42,027 I've got a feeling dehydration is a big part of it, 696 00:36:42,130 --> 00:36:44,754 but so is starvation. 697 00:36:44,857 --> 00:36:48,171 Even with all that fat, but honestly, 698 00:36:48,275 --> 00:36:51,623 I think it's necessary to feel pain and discomfort. 699 00:36:51,726 --> 00:36:54,350 I think that we're fed this narrative 700 00:36:54,453 --> 00:36:56,835 we're meant to seek comfort. 701 00:36:56,938 --> 00:36:59,182 I don't think that's right. 702 00:36:59,286 --> 00:37:03,531 I think it robs determination from the soul. 703 00:37:03,635 --> 00:37:07,673 I think it robs strength from the mind. 704 00:37:07,777 --> 00:37:10,849 You know, it's not like I'm purposefully seeking out 705 00:37:10,952 --> 00:37:12,195 an upset stomach, 706 00:37:12,299 --> 00:37:14,266 but I do put myself in situations 707 00:37:14,370 --> 00:37:16,510 where that is an outcome. 708 00:37:16,613 --> 00:37:19,444 But I still think it's a gift. 709 00:37:19,547 --> 00:37:22,895 I think it can give perspective. 710 00:37:22,999 --> 00:37:27,279 So to be here is a true, true privilege. 711 00:37:27,383 --> 00:37:29,212 It has just brought me so much joy, 712 00:37:29,316 --> 00:37:32,491 and the clarity, and the focus you can achieve out here. 713 00:37:35,114 --> 00:37:37,116 So with that, 714 00:37:37,220 --> 00:37:40,361 let's slowly, slowly 715 00:37:40,465 --> 00:37:43,433 work our way back to camp. 716 00:37:43,537 --> 00:37:45,573 Sure not forgetting to smile. 717 00:37:47,368 --> 00:37:48,749 We may not feel our best, 718 00:37:48,852 --> 00:37:51,683 but we came out here expecting that. 719 00:37:55,721 --> 00:37:58,586 [dramatic music] 720 00:37:58,690 --> 00:38:05,800 ♪ ♪ 721 00:38:13,394 --> 00:38:16,570 - Nobody likes a lackluster fire. 722 00:38:16,673 --> 00:38:17,778 Think it's complaining 723 00:38:17,881 --> 00:38:19,642 'cause it's already done its job for the day, 724 00:38:19,745 --> 00:38:21,954 made tea early this morning. 725 00:38:26,994 --> 00:38:29,755 You don't have any coals underneath you. 726 00:38:29,859 --> 00:38:31,447 I see. 727 00:38:31,550 --> 00:38:33,172 Why didn't you just say so? 728 00:38:34,001 --> 00:38:36,106 ♪ ♪ 729 00:38:36,210 --> 00:38:38,350 I can feel the fatigue. 730 00:38:38,454 --> 00:38:39,903 I'm eating a lot, 731 00:38:40,007 --> 00:38:42,423 but I'm still getting real thin, 732 00:38:42,527 --> 00:38:48,222 so, you know, we gotta get more food in somehow. 733 00:38:48,326 --> 00:38:51,570 ♪ ♪ 734 00:38:51,674 --> 00:38:54,573 [bird calling] 735 00:38:54,677 --> 00:38:57,507 I hear my whisky jack. 736 00:38:57,611 --> 00:38:59,440 I got a theory about my trap. 737 00:38:59,544 --> 00:39:01,615 ♪ ♪ 738 00:39:01,718 --> 00:39:04,480 I'm employing an Ojibwe bird snare. 739 00:39:04,583 --> 00:39:07,310 These birds are just making a fool of me, 740 00:39:07,414 --> 00:39:09,174 and there's this one in particular 741 00:39:09,277 --> 00:39:11,176 that's exceptionally smart. 742 00:39:11,279 --> 00:39:13,558 He triggers it repeatedly. 743 00:39:13,661 --> 00:39:18,148 Folks, none of these traps work if you don't adapt them 744 00:39:18,252 --> 00:39:20,634 to the animal or the environment. 745 00:39:20,737 --> 00:39:22,118 That's the thing. 746 00:39:22,221 --> 00:39:27,019 The noose was falling away from under his feet, 747 00:39:27,123 --> 00:39:29,090 so I'm trying to get it to... 748 00:39:30,782 --> 00:39:32,024 sit up. 749 00:39:36,339 --> 00:39:37,513 We're gonna try it. 750 00:39:39,377 --> 00:39:41,655 ♪ ♪ 751 00:39:41,758 --> 00:39:43,622 The beaver tanked me for, like, a week, 752 00:39:43,726 --> 00:39:45,935 and it really messed me up out here. 753 00:39:46,038 --> 00:39:47,902 After that, I had a really bad week 754 00:39:48,006 --> 00:39:50,042 where I think I only shot two things, 755 00:39:50,146 --> 00:39:52,735 so that doesn't work for me. 756 00:39:52,838 --> 00:39:55,496 I just set the trap, and it's way better. 757 00:39:57,187 --> 00:39:59,638 If he steps in the noose, I think we got him. 758 00:39:59,742 --> 00:40:06,611 ♪ ♪ 759 00:40:06,714 --> 00:40:10,166 All right, we're off to stagger, stumble, and trip 760 00:40:10,269 --> 00:40:12,686 through the woods. 761 00:40:12,789 --> 00:40:14,032 Adventure. 762 00:40:14,135 --> 00:40:17,725 ♪ ♪ 763 00:40:17,829 --> 00:40:21,039 We are on the lookout for... 764 00:40:21,142 --> 00:40:23,869 clean Icelandic moss. 765 00:40:23,973 --> 00:40:27,114 Clean witch's hair, 766 00:40:27,217 --> 00:40:33,223 grouse, squirrels, bunchberries, 767 00:40:33,327 --> 00:40:34,673 what have you. 768 00:40:36,572 --> 00:40:39,333 Here's pretty clean stuff right there. 769 00:40:42,819 --> 00:40:45,097 Still frozen. It's kind of hard to... 770 00:40:47,134 --> 00:40:49,136 peel up when it's frozen. 771 00:40:49,757 --> 00:40:56,799 ♪ ♪ 772 00:40:57,731 --> 00:41:00,492 All right, back to home. 773 00:41:00,596 --> 00:41:02,667 Found nothing else. 774 00:41:02,770 --> 00:41:04,841 Head on down the mountain. 775 00:41:06,947 --> 00:41:08,845 I try to zig zag down to camp 776 00:41:08,949 --> 00:41:10,468 a different way each time, 777 00:41:10,571 --> 00:41:12,918 hoping to stumble across something. 778 00:41:13,022 --> 00:41:14,506 ♪ ♪ 779 00:41:14,610 --> 00:41:16,750 We're triggered on our trap. 780 00:41:16,853 --> 00:41:18,545 ♪ ♪ 781 00:41:18,648 --> 00:41:20,788 I don't see a whisky jack, though. 782 00:41:20,892 --> 00:41:22,652 ♪ ♪ 783 00:41:22,756 --> 00:41:24,343 I see what happened. 784 00:41:24,447 --> 00:41:26,656 ♪ ♪ 785 00:41:26,760 --> 00:41:29,797 Noose didn't tighten up. 786 00:41:29,901 --> 00:41:32,904 This damn knot stopped it. 787 00:41:33,007 --> 00:41:34,630 The sad thing is... 788 00:41:36,942 --> 00:41:38,116 he's crushing me at the game, 789 00:41:38,219 --> 00:41:40,394 and he doesn't even know he's playing. 790 00:41:41,913 --> 00:41:44,743 So it continues. 791 00:41:44,847 --> 00:41:51,888 ♪ ♪ 792 00:41:59,758 --> 00:42:03,106 - All you Canadians out there and people who love Canada, 793 00:42:03,210 --> 00:42:05,799 check this out: just follow the rock. 794 00:42:05,902 --> 00:42:08,526 Normal rock, follow it. 795 00:42:08,629 --> 00:42:09,630 Goes up. 796 00:42:17,120 --> 00:42:20,020 I couldn't bring the Canadian flag with me, 797 00:42:20,123 --> 00:42:23,748 but I got the next best thing. 798 00:42:23,851 --> 00:42:25,335 Ta-da! 799 00:42:25,439 --> 00:42:28,062 So I got a little Canadian flag for my shelter. 800 00:42:30,478 --> 00:42:33,861 And let's spruce it up, shall we? 801 00:42:39,246 --> 00:42:40,592 Oh, Canada. 802 00:42:42,387 --> 00:42:45,286 Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful country. 803 00:42:46,943 --> 00:42:48,738 Would you look at that? 804 00:42:48,842 --> 00:42:51,292 I think that completes it. 805 00:42:51,396 --> 00:42:52,362 I don't know. That's pretty cool. 806 00:42:52,466 --> 00:42:53,605 I like that. 807 00:42:53,709 --> 00:42:55,987 It's gonna boost my spirits, 808 00:42:56,090 --> 00:42:58,368 and... 809 00:42:58,472 --> 00:43:02,200 We're just about ready for that late morning hunt. 810 00:43:02,303 --> 00:43:04,858 So let me put on my quiver. 811 00:43:04,961 --> 00:43:06,514 ♪ ♪ 812 00:43:06,618 --> 00:43:08,102 In the coming weeks, I think food 813 00:43:08,206 --> 00:43:11,209 is gonna be a little scarce, so... 814 00:43:11,312 --> 00:43:13,107 every day is a hunting day now. 815 00:43:13,211 --> 00:43:14,592 ♪ ♪ 816 00:43:14,695 --> 00:43:15,593 [squirrel chirping] 817 00:43:15,696 --> 00:43:16,766 There's a squirrel. 818 00:43:19,044 --> 00:43:20,598 All right. 819 00:43:21,737 --> 00:43:25,361 So we got one up here, 820 00:43:25,464 --> 00:43:28,053 one over there. 821 00:43:28,157 --> 00:43:30,055 I'm just gonna get these guys ready. 822 00:43:33,645 --> 00:43:35,095 Right here, right here. 823 00:43:35,198 --> 00:43:41,619 ♪ ♪ 824 00:43:41,722 --> 00:43:43,517 Right there. 825 00:43:43,621 --> 00:43:44,829 [dramatic music] 826 00:43:44,932 --> 00:43:46,244 [bleep]. 827 00:43:46,347 --> 00:43:48,280 ♪ ♪ 828 00:43:48,384 --> 00:43:51,801 He went up the tree, but he's coming down. 829 00:43:51,905 --> 00:43:58,912 ♪ ♪ 830 00:44:00,292 --> 00:44:03,226 Nope, still moving. 831 00:44:03,330 --> 00:44:08,784 ♪ ♪ 832 00:44:08,887 --> 00:44:10,095 Come down. 833 00:44:10,199 --> 00:44:11,510 That's it. Come down. 834 00:44:12,788 --> 00:44:13,858 [bleep]. 835 00:44:19,898 --> 00:44:21,106 Here it is. 836 00:44:25,455 --> 00:44:27,492 We got a squirrel, finally. 837 00:44:27,595 --> 00:44:28,735 Look at that. 838 00:44:30,288 --> 00:44:32,911 We're eating squirrel tonight. 839 00:44:33,015 --> 00:44:35,086 Let's get some stuff ready, go to the beach, 840 00:44:35,189 --> 00:44:36,535 gut this guy out... 841 00:44:39,228 --> 00:44:41,092 And yeah. 842 00:44:41,195 --> 00:44:45,268 ♪ ♪ 843 00:44:45,372 --> 00:44:46,925 All right, to the beach. 844 00:44:47,029 --> 00:44:49,445 ♪ ♪ 845 00:44:49,548 --> 00:44:51,896 When I first signed up for this challenge, 846 00:44:51,999 --> 00:44:54,968 I thought it was to challenge myself. 847 00:44:55,071 --> 00:44:56,797 The more that I think about it 848 00:44:56,901 --> 00:44:59,489 and how much I want to push myself, 849 00:44:59,593 --> 00:45:01,733 I couldn't do this if it was just for me. 850 00:45:01,837 --> 00:45:03,252 I want to do it for the people 851 00:45:03,355 --> 00:45:05,772 that I love at home, specifically my mom. 852 00:45:07,774 --> 00:45:11,122 I just want it to open nicely so I can... 853 00:45:13,227 --> 00:45:14,297 Savor it. 854 00:45:14,401 --> 00:45:17,749 ♪ ♪ 855 00:45:17,853 --> 00:45:21,788 It's pretty funny what you think of when you're out here. 856 00:45:21,891 --> 00:45:25,067 I was remembering a moment in my childhood. 857 00:45:25,170 --> 00:45:28,208 I remember riding in my mom's black Acura, 858 00:45:28,311 --> 00:45:30,693 and she asked me, "What do you want to do when you grow up?" 859 00:45:30,797 --> 00:45:33,247 And I said, "I want to be like Indiana Jones 860 00:45:33,351 --> 00:45:35,456 or like a modern day pirate." 861 00:45:35,560 --> 00:45:37,769 And I remember what she said. 862 00:45:37,873 --> 00:45:39,046 "That's great, son. 863 00:45:39,150 --> 00:45:40,772 "No matter what you choose, 864 00:45:40,876 --> 00:45:43,568 "as long as you're happy with it, 865 00:45:43,671 --> 00:45:45,743 I'll be proud of you." 866 00:45:45,846 --> 00:45:48,780 Just catch all the squirrel in the area, 867 00:45:48,884 --> 00:45:51,645 hopefully run into some grouse, 868 00:45:51,749 --> 00:45:53,198 and we're golden. 869 00:45:53,302 --> 00:45:57,133 My mom, she would fight for me no matter what. 870 00:45:57,237 --> 00:45:58,790 If something was wrong, 871 00:45:58,894 --> 00:46:01,241 if something needed to be done, 872 00:46:01,344 --> 00:46:04,658 I could always count on her being there, 873 00:46:04,762 --> 00:46:09,732 and I remember her being such a powerful, courageous woman. 874 00:46:09,836 --> 00:46:12,977 Incredibly kind, and she always puts people 875 00:46:13,080 --> 00:46:16,014 in front of herself, even strangers. 876 00:46:16,118 --> 00:46:20,398 But over the years, I've seen life beat her down. 877 00:46:20,501 --> 00:46:23,504 Unhealthy relationships, six figures of debt 878 00:46:23,608 --> 00:46:25,161 for over 30 years, 879 00:46:25,265 --> 00:46:29,096 an insurmountable amount of responsibilities and pressure. 880 00:46:29,200 --> 00:46:31,719 That's done. 881 00:46:31,823 --> 00:46:35,965 And I've watched her health go down the drain. 882 00:46:36,069 --> 00:46:38,830 And she's one of the main reasons 883 00:46:38,934 --> 00:46:40,176 I wanted to be a doctor, 884 00:46:40,280 --> 00:46:43,939 to figure out how I could help her. 885 00:46:44,042 --> 00:46:46,596 It takes an incredible amount of strength 886 00:46:46,700 --> 00:46:48,288 to do what she has done, 887 00:46:48,391 --> 00:46:52,430 and I want to remind her of that. 888 00:46:52,533 --> 00:46:54,432 I'll sun that. 889 00:46:54,535 --> 00:46:57,849 Because everything I do out here, how hard I push, 890 00:46:57,953 --> 00:47:00,818 that's just a fraction of what she's taught me, 891 00:47:00,921 --> 00:47:05,581 so it's time for me to stop trying to be a good doctor... 892 00:47:05,684 --> 00:47:08,032 ♪ ♪ 893 00:47:08,135 --> 00:47:12,484 And I need to try to be a better son. 894 00:47:12,588 --> 00:47:14,728 And she deserves 895 00:47:14,832 --> 00:47:16,764 to fight for a life 896 00:47:16,868 --> 00:47:19,077 that is better than what she has. 897 00:47:19,181 --> 00:47:21,804 ♪ ♪ 898 00:47:21,908 --> 00:47:24,634 And if this journey of mine 899 00:47:24,738 --> 00:47:26,222 can inspire her, 900 00:47:26,326 --> 00:47:28,846 that would be worth more than the money. 901 00:47:30,019 --> 00:47:31,572 That's why I'm here. 902 00:47:31,676 --> 00:47:34,127 That's why I'll stay. 903 00:47:38,614 --> 00:47:41,513 [dramatic music] 904 00:47:41,617 --> 00:47:44,965 ♪ ♪ 905 00:47:51,523 --> 00:47:54,768 - Today is my mom's birthday, whoo! 906 00:47:54,872 --> 00:47:58,841 I've been counting down the days. 907 00:47:58,945 --> 00:48:01,706 [exhales] 908 00:48:01,809 --> 00:48:03,397 Oh, wait, I got a piece of birthday cake. 909 00:48:03,501 --> 00:48:04,709 Hang on. 910 00:48:06,297 --> 00:48:08,299 It's fudge pudding cake 911 00:48:08,402 --> 00:48:11,992 with lichen birthday candles on it. 912 00:48:12,096 --> 00:48:14,305 [chuckles] 913 00:48:14,408 --> 00:48:15,927 Ah. 914 00:48:16,031 --> 00:48:17,722 Make a wish, Mom. 915 00:48:24,902 --> 00:48:26,731 [blows] 916 00:48:26,834 --> 00:48:28,250 Happy birthday. 917 00:48:28,353 --> 00:48:30,148 I love you, and I miss you. 918 00:48:30,252 --> 00:48:32,633 And I hope you and Dad are doing well. 919 00:48:32,737 --> 00:48:34,152 And... 920 00:48:35,947 --> 00:48:37,224 I just wanted to let you know 921 00:48:37,328 --> 00:48:40,089 I've been thinking about you a lot. 922 00:48:40,193 --> 00:48:42,160 And when I do, I just feel warm hugs, 923 00:48:42,264 --> 00:48:44,714 and I just wanna--I'm so grateful for all the support 924 00:48:44,818 --> 00:48:45,819 that you've given me 925 00:48:45,923 --> 00:48:48,201 and for all the wild, crazy stuff 926 00:48:48,304 --> 00:48:51,859 that I do that, you know... 927 00:48:51,963 --> 00:48:54,621 [laughing] 928 00:48:54,724 --> 00:48:56,554 Whether you understand what I do or not, 929 00:48:56,657 --> 00:48:58,245 you still support me and love me. 930 00:48:58,349 --> 00:49:00,040 And I really feel that. 931 00:49:00,144 --> 00:49:02,560 [crying] 932 00:49:02,663 --> 00:49:03,561 [sniffles] 933 00:49:03,664 --> 00:49:06,564 [dramatic music] 934 00:49:06,667 --> 00:49:10,223 ♪ ♪ 935 00:49:10,326 --> 00:49:11,569 I'm gonna go check my traps 936 00:49:11,672 --> 00:49:13,433 if I want some dinner tonight, 937 00:49:13,536 --> 00:49:14,882 hopefully get some. 938 00:49:14,986 --> 00:49:16,746 ♪ ♪ 939 00:49:16,850 --> 00:49:19,784 I really need to focus on getting food. 940 00:49:19,887 --> 00:49:22,269 I mean, I would love to catch something for dinner 941 00:49:22,373 --> 00:49:24,340 for my mom's birthday. 942 00:49:24,444 --> 00:49:27,171 ♪ ♪ 943 00:49:27,274 --> 00:49:30,553 My mom, she and I are very opposite, 944 00:49:30,657 --> 00:49:35,144 but she's the quiet, shy, soft-spoken, very sweet, 945 00:49:35,248 --> 00:49:37,802 very compassionate, and I love her. 946 00:49:43,083 --> 00:49:44,567 [gasps] 947 00:49:44,671 --> 00:49:46,776 Oh, my God, 948 00:49:46,880 --> 00:49:48,192 I got one. 949 00:49:49,434 --> 00:49:51,781 Holy [bleep], it worked. 950 00:49:51,885 --> 00:49:54,819 Oh, my God, after all that frustration, wow. 951 00:49:54,922 --> 00:49:56,994 ♪ ♪ 952 00:49:57,097 --> 00:49:58,236 [bleep]. 953 00:49:58,340 --> 00:50:00,204 [laughing] 954 00:50:00,307 --> 00:50:03,655 Look, Mom! [chuckles] 955 00:50:03,759 --> 00:50:07,280 I got a squirrel for your birthday dinner! 956 00:50:07,383 --> 00:50:09,489 ♪ ♪ 957 00:50:09,592 --> 00:50:11,663 I can't believe it. 958 00:50:11,767 --> 00:50:18,808 ♪ ♪ 959 00:50:20,914 --> 00:50:23,365 It seems to be the theme here. 960 00:50:23,468 --> 00:50:24,849 For every frustrating day, 961 00:50:24,952 --> 00:50:27,196 something exciting happens too. 962 00:50:27,300 --> 00:50:28,853 I'm very determined. 963 00:50:28,956 --> 00:50:30,751 When I have something in my mind 964 00:50:30,855 --> 00:50:33,133 that this is what I'm gonna do, I do it. 965 00:50:33,237 --> 00:50:35,066 ♪ ♪ 966 00:50:35,170 --> 00:50:38,552 Mmm, oh, my God. 967 00:50:38,656 --> 00:50:43,281 I don't plan on coming out unless I'm taken out... 968 00:50:43,385 --> 00:50:45,352 or I win. [laughs] 969 00:50:45,456 --> 00:50:48,804 Mmm, I love squirrel. 970 00:50:48,907 --> 00:50:50,116 Wow. 971 00:50:51,772 --> 00:50:55,673 It's amazing, amazing they don't sell squirrel in stores. 972 00:50:55,776 --> 00:50:57,571 Mmm. 973 00:50:57,675 --> 00:50:59,884 Now, this is gonna make my body strong. 974 00:51:01,299 --> 00:51:03,715 Again, happy birthday, Mom. 975 00:51:03,819 --> 00:51:05,614 Bon appétit. 976 00:51:05,717 --> 00:51:07,581 Hope you ate as well as I did. 977 00:51:07,685 --> 00:51:09,273 I hope you enjoyed the birthday cake. 978 00:51:09,376 --> 00:51:10,757 [chuckles] 979 00:51:10,860 --> 00:51:17,867 ♪ ♪ 980 00:51:31,053 --> 00:51:32,917 - Good morning. 981 00:51:33,020 --> 00:51:35,506 I got the message that today's med check, 982 00:51:35,609 --> 00:51:39,268 and since I've got this big fire, 983 00:51:39,372 --> 00:51:42,685 the biggest fire I've had in here, 984 00:51:42,789 --> 00:51:44,929 and it's warmer than it usually is, 985 00:51:45,032 --> 00:51:47,034 I haven't seen myself for a while, 986 00:51:47,138 --> 00:51:49,761 and I probably should not be doing this, 987 00:51:49,865 --> 00:51:52,557 but I just gotta know. 988 00:51:52,661 --> 00:51:53,800 I'm so weak. 989 00:52:01,290 --> 00:52:03,361 It hurts. 990 00:52:03,465 --> 00:52:05,122 It hurts to breathe. 991 00:52:09,022 --> 00:52:11,956 ♪ ♪ 992 00:52:12,059 --> 00:52:13,889 Oh, my goodness. 993 00:52:13,992 --> 00:52:21,034 ♪ ♪ 994 00:52:22,587 --> 00:52:25,659 I should be four times this. 995 00:52:25,763 --> 00:52:28,731 I have-- 996 00:52:28,835 --> 00:52:31,113 I've never been able to do that. 997 00:52:31,217 --> 00:52:34,254 I've never seen this. 998 00:52:34,358 --> 00:52:39,190 I feel like I can see the bone structure. 999 00:52:39,294 --> 00:52:41,365 I am very concerned 1000 00:52:41,468 --> 00:52:43,229 about the amount of weight I'm losing, 1001 00:52:43,332 --> 00:52:45,300 but I can slow it down. 1002 00:52:45,403 --> 00:52:46,611 ♪ ♪ 1003 00:52:46,715 --> 00:52:49,442 The last 10 years, I have had the privilege 1004 00:52:49,545 --> 00:52:51,133 of pushing my body, 1005 00:52:51,237 --> 00:52:54,412 and every once in a while, it pushes back. 1006 00:52:54,516 --> 00:52:59,245 I survived a plane crash in the Amazon. 1007 00:52:59,348 --> 00:53:02,731 I fell through the ice ice-fishing, 20 below zero. 1008 00:53:02,834 --> 00:53:05,527 Pulled myself out, hiked out 11 miles 1009 00:53:05,630 --> 00:53:09,393 to drive myself two hours to the hospital. 1010 00:53:09,496 --> 00:53:11,602 So not to sound arrogant, 1011 00:53:11,705 --> 00:53:16,227 but I would not label this as hard for me. 1012 00:53:16,331 --> 00:53:19,196 I think I'll be out here for quite a while. 1013 00:53:19,299 --> 00:53:22,406 ♪ ♪ 1014 00:53:22,509 --> 00:53:24,925 Gotta keep going. 1015 00:53:25,029 --> 00:53:32,070 ♪ ♪ 1016 00:53:39,216 --> 00:53:40,562 - Step on. 1017 00:53:50,468 --> 00:53:53,782 [thermometer beeping] 1018 00:53:53,885 --> 00:53:55,301 - Just to walk 10 or 20 steps, 1019 00:53:55,404 --> 00:53:56,854 are you completely out of breath? 1020 00:53:56,957 --> 00:54:01,099 - No, but I get light-headed if I bend over too quickly. 1021 00:54:02,894 --> 00:54:04,102 - Any nausea at all? 1022 00:54:04,206 --> 00:54:06,760 - Yeah, and then some sharp pains as well. 1023 00:54:06,864 --> 00:54:07,761 Like, sharp. 1024 00:54:07,865 --> 00:54:08,935 - Okay. 1025 00:54:10,523 --> 00:54:11,558 [groans] 1026 00:54:11,662 --> 00:54:13,215 Oh, that was a little painful there. 1027 00:54:13,319 --> 00:54:14,389 Oh. 1028 00:54:15,597 --> 00:54:16,839 - Thank you. 1029 00:54:16,943 --> 00:54:23,984 ♪ ♪ 1030 00:54:36,342 --> 00:54:39,241 [dramatic music] 1031 00:54:39,345 --> 00:54:46,317 ♪ ♪ 1032 00:55:04,784 --> 00:55:08,097 - Terry, we're concerned about your condition. 1033 00:55:08,201 --> 00:55:09,513 The biggest concern 1034 00:55:09,616 --> 00:55:11,929 is you're showing significant signs of dehydration. 1035 00:55:12,032 --> 00:55:13,586 You're having some fever, 1036 00:55:13,689 --> 00:55:16,727 abdominal pains that indicate a parasitic infection. 1037 00:55:16,830 --> 00:55:20,040 Signs are showing dramatic decline physically. 1038 00:55:20,144 --> 00:55:24,113 You could put yourself in some serious risk. 1039 00:55:24,217 --> 00:55:27,669 It's just not being safe for you to operate out here. 1040 00:55:27,772 --> 00:55:29,360 I'm gonna have to extract you from the field 1041 00:55:29,464 --> 00:55:31,155 for medical reasons. 1042 00:55:33,640 --> 00:55:34,917 - So soon. 1043 00:55:37,023 --> 00:55:41,061 So much still to experience and... 1044 00:55:43,167 --> 00:55:44,617 Learn. 1045 00:55:44,720 --> 00:55:47,585 [somber music] 1046 00:55:47,689 --> 00:55:52,383 ♪ ♪ 1047 00:55:52,487 --> 00:55:53,764 Sorry to everybody. 1048 00:55:53,867 --> 00:55:57,250 I don't feel that I represented 1049 00:55:57,354 --> 00:55:59,217 hunters or fishers, 1050 00:55:59,321 --> 00:56:03,049 and I'm sorry to Alaskans and West Virginians. 1051 00:56:03,152 --> 00:56:04,291 I, uh... 1052 00:56:04,395 --> 00:56:09,435 ♪ ♪ 1053 00:56:09,538 --> 00:56:11,885 As bad as I hate to admit it, 1054 00:56:11,989 --> 00:56:13,922 yeah, I hit my edge. 1055 00:56:14,025 --> 00:56:15,682 I hit the limit. 1056 00:56:15,786 --> 00:56:19,997 I, uh--I could have changed so many things. 1057 00:56:20,100 --> 00:56:22,448 I should have foraged far more. 1058 00:56:22,551 --> 00:56:25,968 I didn't hunt for the first eight days I was here. 1059 00:56:26,072 --> 00:56:27,901 When I harvested the beaver, 1060 00:56:28,005 --> 00:56:32,250 I got so concerned with preserving it 1061 00:56:32,354 --> 00:56:35,046 that I didn't hunt anything else. 1062 00:56:35,150 --> 00:56:36,634 But I didn't, 1063 00:56:36,738 --> 00:56:40,500 and I wouldn't change one of those decisions now 1064 00:56:40,604 --> 00:56:44,677 because this has been such an experience of a lifetime. 1065 00:56:44,780 --> 00:56:47,887 And if I change any of those decisions, 1066 00:56:47,990 --> 00:56:50,752 the entire experience is different. 1067 00:56:50,855 --> 00:56:53,824 [dramatic music] 1068 00:56:53,927 --> 00:56:56,240 I've been super blessed, lucky, and fortunate 1069 00:56:56,343 --> 00:57:00,520 to have such an incredible experience. 1070 00:57:00,624 --> 00:57:03,868 10 years ago, after quite a severe accident, 1071 00:57:03,972 --> 00:57:05,801 I was drawn to Alaska. 1072 00:57:05,905 --> 00:57:08,597 And this is absolutely 1073 00:57:08,701 --> 00:57:10,806 another turning point in my life. 1074 00:57:10,910 --> 00:57:13,119 Through the pain, through the suffering, 1075 00:57:13,222 --> 00:57:15,362 I was thankful to be out here, 1076 00:57:15,466 --> 00:57:17,054 and I'm leaving Labrador 1077 00:57:17,157 --> 00:57:20,160 with the clarity that everything you need 1078 00:57:20,264 --> 00:57:23,267 is right in front of you. 1079 00:57:23,370 --> 00:57:27,271 So now I want to go home, consolidate, 1080 00:57:27,374 --> 00:57:29,273 and get everything that I'm not using 1081 00:57:29,376 --> 00:57:30,723 to people that would benefit, 1082 00:57:30,826 --> 00:57:32,725 and then appreciate every day to the fullest, 1083 00:57:32,828 --> 00:57:35,831 and live it to the fullest, and pursue my passions 1084 00:57:35,935 --> 00:57:38,489 and just hunt and fish and travel all the time. 1085 00:57:39,766 --> 00:57:41,250 That's a reason to smile, 1086 00:57:41,354 --> 00:57:43,390 and there's much to be thankful for. 1087 00:57:43,494 --> 00:57:50,501 ♪ ♪ 1088 00:58:00,028 --> 00:58:02,824 [sawing] 1089 00:58:02,927 --> 00:58:03,928 - Look at this. 1090 00:58:10,210 --> 00:58:13,213 I counted the rings on this tree. 1091 00:58:13,317 --> 00:58:15,319 This tree is 48 years old. 1092 00:58:18,391 --> 00:58:21,256 Hardest two sets of woodpecker lips, 1093 00:58:21,359 --> 00:58:23,672 48 years old. 1094 00:58:23,776 --> 00:58:25,156 Pretty awesome. 1095 00:58:25,260 --> 00:58:30,783 ♪ ♪ 1096 00:58:30,886 --> 00:58:33,233 The thing right now is just to finish-- 1097 00:58:33,337 --> 00:58:35,788 finish the damn shelter. 1098 00:58:35,891 --> 00:58:38,791 We are trying to tighten this up 1099 00:58:38,894 --> 00:58:40,413 so that I can lay-- 1100 00:58:40,517 --> 00:58:42,553 'cause we're trying to get to the roof. 1101 00:58:42,657 --> 00:58:43,692 Before I get to the roof, 1102 00:58:43,796 --> 00:58:46,833 I need to lay one from here up there. 1103 00:58:46,937 --> 00:58:49,180 It's gotta be sturdy. 1104 00:58:49,284 --> 00:58:50,975 Not finishing the shelter 1105 00:58:51,079 --> 00:58:53,909 stops me from being active and doing the things 1106 00:58:54,013 --> 00:58:55,221 that I want to be doing, 1107 00:58:55,324 --> 00:58:56,912 like going out and getting food. 1108 00:58:59,156 --> 00:59:01,503 I've always appreciated food, you know, 1109 00:59:01,607 --> 00:59:03,643 growing up without a lot of money, 1110 00:59:03,747 --> 00:59:07,923 but I will have a newfound appreciation for food 1111 00:59:08,027 --> 00:59:09,407 after this. 1112 00:59:10,788 --> 00:59:12,756 It's a really positive thing 1113 00:59:12,859 --> 00:59:18,244 to, like, think about how fortunate you are 1114 00:59:18,347 --> 00:59:19,625 to have what you have. 1115 00:59:21,454 --> 00:59:24,561 ♪ ♪ 1116 00:59:24,664 --> 00:59:25,941 Getting sturdy. 1117 00:59:26,045 --> 00:59:30,636 ♪ ♪ 1118 00:59:30,739 --> 00:59:33,052 [axe thwacking] 1119 00:59:34,778 --> 00:59:37,988 Whoa, [bleep]. 1120 00:59:38,091 --> 00:59:39,230 [bleep]. 1121 00:59:44,546 --> 00:59:45,720 Mm. 1122 00:59:57,179 --> 00:59:58,249 Whoa. 1123 01:00:03,669 --> 01:00:06,119 All right, get up, boy. 1124 01:00:06,223 --> 01:00:12,643 ♪ ♪ 1125 01:00:12,747 --> 01:00:14,058 Ugh! 1126 01:00:14,162 --> 01:00:18,891 [bleep]. Son of a [bleep]. 1127 01:00:18,994 --> 01:00:20,789 [wincing] 1128 01:00:23,792 --> 01:00:25,345 That was a bad fall. 1129 01:00:32,214 --> 01:00:35,217 I'm gonna have to be real careful from here on out. 1130 01:00:38,704 --> 01:00:40,188 That slowed me down a ton. 1131 01:00:41,810 --> 01:00:44,364 Maybe if we walk it off, it'll feel a little better. 1132 01:00:45,711 --> 01:00:48,610 [ominous music] 1133 01:00:48,714 --> 01:00:54,858 ♪ ♪ 1134 01:00:54,961 --> 01:00:56,445 [groans] 1135 01:00:56,549 --> 01:01:03,625 ♪ ♪ 1136 01:01:04,005 --> 01:01:06,559 Ooh, gosh. 1137 01:01:06,663 --> 01:01:08,734 My back is on fire. 1138 01:01:10,459 --> 01:01:14,671 I'm at, like, a pain level seven, probably, 1139 01:01:14,774 --> 01:01:17,846 and I don't say that easily. 1140 01:01:17,950 --> 01:01:21,954 Maybe just stay in bed all day tomorrow and rest this back, 1141 01:01:22,057 --> 01:01:26,165 but without food, I will not get better. 1142 01:01:26,268 --> 01:01:28,512 Without rest, I will not get better. 1143 01:01:28,615 --> 01:01:32,412 So what's it gonna be? 1144 01:01:32,516 --> 01:01:35,415 [wind whistling] 1145 01:01:35,519 --> 01:01:38,384 [ominous music] 1146 01:01:38,487 --> 01:01:45,529 ♪ ♪ 1147 01:01:50,223 --> 01:01:53,917 I cannot find a position. 1148 01:01:54,020 --> 01:01:56,264 ♪ ♪ 1149 01:01:56,367 --> 01:01:58,922 And I'm exhausted, but I can't sleep 1150 01:01:59,025 --> 01:02:01,856 more than 10, 20 minutes at a time. 1151 01:02:01,959 --> 01:02:03,720 ♪ ♪ 1152 01:02:03,823 --> 01:02:09,587 And then my leg falls asleep, and my hip starts burning up. 1153 01:02:09,691 --> 01:02:11,589 [sighs] 1154 01:02:11,693 --> 01:02:15,110 ♪ ♪ 1155 01:02:15,214 --> 01:02:18,458 This is brutal. 1156 01:02:18,562 --> 01:02:20,978 I'm not gonna lie. It's pretty brutal. 1157 01:02:21,082 --> 01:02:23,532 [chuckles] 1158 01:02:23,636 --> 01:02:24,637 ♪ ♪ 1159 01:02:24,741 --> 01:02:25,914 I'm not ready to leave. 1160 01:02:26,018 --> 01:02:28,814 I'm not ready to call it, you know? 1161 01:02:28,917 --> 01:02:30,194 You can push your mind, 1162 01:02:30,298 --> 01:02:33,715 but your body doesn't negotiate with you. 1163 01:02:33,819 --> 01:02:35,234 It is what it is. 1164 01:02:35,337 --> 01:02:37,132 ♪ ♪ 1165 01:02:37,236 --> 01:02:39,445 That's the situation, folks. 1166 01:02:39,548 --> 01:02:42,724 ♪ ♪ 1167 01:02:42,828 --> 01:02:44,381 - Trick or treat! 1168 01:02:44,484 --> 01:02:47,591 Wow, you look so cute! 1169 01:02:47,694 --> 01:02:52,492 Does this whole thing make me seem totally insane? 1170 01:02:52,596 --> 01:02:53,666 [thump] 1171 01:02:53,770 --> 01:02:55,530 - Got it. 1172 01:02:55,633 --> 01:02:56,669 Yes! 1173 01:02:58,084 --> 01:02:59,465 - [bleep]. 1174 01:02:59,568 --> 01:03:01,018 - Stomach doesn't feel good. 1175 01:03:01,122 --> 01:03:02,261 [belches] 1176 01:03:02,364 --> 01:03:05,885 I will not hit the button, ever. 1177 01:03:05,989 --> 01:03:10,338 ♪ ♪ 1178 01:03:11,580 --> 01:03:15,653 ♪ ♪ 1179 01:03:15,722 --> 01:03:19,140 - [exhales, sighs] 1180 01:03:19,209 --> 01:03:21,867 Yeah. Dizzy. Way lightheaded. 1181 01:03:23,075 --> 01:03:24,283 Ah. 1182 01:03:25,422 --> 01:03:27,079 I hear the boat 1183 01:03:27,148 --> 01:03:29,288 Today's med check. 1184 01:03:29,357 --> 01:03:30,876 I don't feel good. 1185 01:03:30,945 --> 01:03:33,464 And I don't feel good about this. 1186 01:03:34,672 --> 01:03:35,812 - Ready? 1187 01:03:37,710 --> 01:03:40,161 - I really feel like I'm getting to the edge 1188 01:03:40,230 --> 01:03:43,543 of massive weight loss. 1189 01:03:43,612 --> 01:03:46,995 I can tell by my interactions with the production team 1190 01:03:47,064 --> 01:03:48,790 what they say, how they say it, 1191 01:03:48,859 --> 01:03:51,034 and their body language when they say it. 1192 01:03:51,103 --> 01:03:52,898 - It shows he's dehydrated. 1193 01:03:52,967 --> 01:03:56,280 He's been vomiting-- - There's concerns. 1194 01:03:56,349 --> 01:03:58,627 I think they're just seeing the effects 1195 01:03:58,696 --> 01:04:03,115 of my body deteriorating and eating itself. 1196 01:04:03,184 --> 01:04:05,980 - I am worried about his dizziness with standing up 1197 01:04:06,049 --> 01:04:08,154 and the diarrhea and the feeling chill 1198 01:04:08,223 --> 01:04:10,916 could be the early start of a parasitic 1199 01:04:10,985 --> 01:04:12,400 or bacterial infection. 1200 01:04:13,919 --> 01:04:16,749 - Terry, the concern is that if you pass out, 1201 01:04:16,818 --> 01:04:18,164 you could pass out into the river 1202 01:04:18,233 --> 01:04:21,236 or in a way that leaves you in danger. 1203 01:04:21,305 --> 01:04:22,893 Could be a sign of something worse. 1204 01:04:22,962 --> 01:04:24,584 Could be a parasite, could be something else. 1205 01:04:24,653 --> 01:04:27,518 Obviously the inability to keep anything down. 1206 01:04:27,587 --> 01:04:29,313 All of this is concerning to us. 1207 01:04:29,382 --> 01:04:31,074 I'm gonna have to extract you from the field 1208 01:04:31,143 --> 01:04:33,386 for medical reasons. 1209 01:04:33,455 --> 01:04:35,423 Is this how you saw yourself leaving? 1210 01:04:35,492 --> 01:04:36,769 - No. 1211 01:04:36,838 --> 01:04:40,462 This is not how I saw myself leaving. 1212 01:04:40,531 --> 01:04:42,706 I just didn't think It'd be so soon. 1213 01:04:42,775 --> 01:04:44,950 'Cause I'm just not ready to leave. 1214 01:04:45,019 --> 01:04:47,504 Mentally, I'm not ready. 1215 01:04:47,573 --> 01:04:50,610 And it hurts me, and it will hurt me 1216 01:04:50,679 --> 01:04:52,578 for the rest of my life, I expect. 1217 01:04:54,235 --> 01:04:58,377 But I'm so thankful for the time I have had here 1218 01:04:58,446 --> 01:05:02,519 and the things I've seen and experienced and felt. 1219 01:05:04,831 --> 01:05:07,765 [light music] 1220 01:05:07,834 --> 01:05:11,321 ♪ ♪ 1221 01:05:11,390 --> 01:05:14,980 I'm absolutely unprepared and very saddened 1222 01:05:15,049 --> 01:05:17,603 at the thought of leaving Labrador. 1223 01:05:17,672 --> 01:05:21,745 I'm too stubborn for my own good. 1224 01:05:21,814 --> 01:05:24,644 I could have done more. I could've hunted more. 1225 01:05:24,713 --> 01:05:26,163 I could've fished more. 1226 01:05:26,232 --> 01:05:28,994 Could've hydrated more the entire time. 1227 01:05:29,063 --> 01:05:31,375 But when I harvested the beaver, 1228 01:05:31,444 --> 01:05:35,172 I just got so caught up in just preserving it 1229 01:05:35,241 --> 01:05:37,174 that I didn't hunt anything else. 1230 01:05:37,243 --> 01:05:38,451 I should've balanced. 1231 01:05:38,520 --> 01:05:41,040 ♪ ♪ 1232 01:05:41,109 --> 01:05:43,560 I do believe that I am the type of person 1233 01:05:43,629 --> 01:05:48,289 that will push myself further than I should. 1234 01:05:48,358 --> 01:05:50,877 But in life, 1235 01:05:50,947 --> 01:05:52,707 there is no tap out button. 1236 01:05:52,776 --> 01:05:54,019 That's not an option. 1237 01:05:54,088 --> 01:05:57,091 So I don't view pain or suffering 1238 01:05:57,160 --> 01:05:58,816 in the outdoors as a negative thing. 1239 01:05:58,885 --> 01:06:01,612 I think it's a growth, an opportunity. 1240 01:06:01,681 --> 01:06:04,581 ♪ ♪ 1241 01:06:04,650 --> 01:06:08,033 Staying 42 days, I feel like I lived two lifetimes 1242 01:06:08,102 --> 01:06:09,517 in that time out there. 1243 01:06:09,586 --> 01:06:11,070 I, of course, had ambitions 1244 01:06:11,139 --> 01:06:12,623 of staying far longer, 1245 01:06:12,692 --> 01:06:16,731 but 42 days is the longest solo trip I've conducted. 1246 01:06:16,800 --> 01:06:20,528 So I'm really proud of that. 1247 01:06:20,597 --> 01:06:23,772 This experience was enjoyable and enriching, 1248 01:06:23,841 --> 01:06:26,120 and I'm so thankful for it. 1249 01:06:26,189 --> 01:06:29,295 And I did achieve some goals while I was out there 1250 01:06:29,364 --> 01:06:32,298 that I won't ever forget. 1251 01:06:32,367 --> 01:06:35,198 Through the pain, through the suffering, 1252 01:06:35,267 --> 01:06:38,408 I was able to learn more about this incredible place 1253 01:06:38,477 --> 01:06:40,927 and what I'm capable of 1254 01:06:40,997 --> 01:06:43,447 and just learn things that I hope 1255 01:06:43,516 --> 01:06:45,242 I can navigate the rest of my life 1256 01:06:45,311 --> 01:06:46,623 in a better way with. 1257 01:06:46,692 --> 01:06:49,971 Though, physically far weaker, far smaller. 1258 01:06:50,040 --> 01:06:53,733 Mentally, I will be going home stronger. 1259 01:06:53,802 --> 01:06:57,703 ♪ ♪