1 00:00:10,577 --> 00:00:13,447 [dramatic music] 2 00:00:13,580 --> 00:00:20,187 ♪ ♪ 3 00:00:20,320 --> 00:00:21,822 - Holy [bleep]. Look at this. 4 00:00:21,955 --> 00:00:23,423 That's a chunk of dock. 5 00:00:23,557 --> 00:00:25,993 The universe has handed a carpenter 6 00:00:26,126 --> 00:00:28,762 a bunch of boards and nails. 7 00:00:28,896 --> 00:00:31,732 Old dock door and old moss house. 8 00:00:31,865 --> 00:00:34,167 - [gasps] Oh, my God. I got one. 9 00:00:34,301 --> 00:00:37,271 Every frustrating day something exciting happens. 10 00:00:37,404 --> 00:00:38,639 I got a squirrel! 11 00:00:38,772 --> 00:00:40,307 There's more to do, it seems. 12 00:00:40,440 --> 00:00:41,975 Hodgepodge will get done 13 00:00:42,109 --> 00:00:43,610 when Hodgepodge is supposed to get done. 14 00:00:43,744 --> 00:00:45,579 [chuckles] It's within reach. 15 00:00:45,712 --> 00:00:46,713 ♪ ♪ 16 00:00:46,847 --> 00:00:48,248 - We got a squirrel, finally. 17 00:00:48,382 --> 00:00:50,183 I couldn't do this if it was just for me. 18 00:00:50,317 --> 00:00:51,552 I want to do it for the people 19 00:00:51,685 --> 00:00:52,552 that I love at home. 20 00:00:52,686 --> 00:00:54,121 And it's time for me 21 00:00:54,254 --> 00:00:56,323 to stop trying to be a good doctor. 22 00:00:56,456 --> 00:00:59,126 I need to try to be a better son. 23 00:00:59,259 --> 00:01:02,229 - The thing right now is just to finish the damn shelter. 24 00:01:02,362 --> 00:01:03,297 [crashing] 25 00:01:03,430 --> 00:01:05,732 Whoa! [bleep]. 26 00:01:08,035 --> 00:01:10,570 [dramatic music] 27 00:01:10,704 --> 00:01:11,738 [grunts] 28 00:01:11,872 --> 00:01:13,574 ♪ ♪ 29 00:01:13,707 --> 00:01:15,709 - Oh, my goodness. 30 00:01:15,842 --> 00:01:18,312 - You could put yourself in some serious risk. 31 00:01:18,445 --> 00:01:20,347 I'm gonna have to extract you for medical reasons. 32 00:01:20,480 --> 00:01:23,317 [dramatic music] 33 00:01:23,483 --> 00:01:24,985 - [voice breaking] So soon. 34 00:01:26,386 --> 00:01:29,256 [eerie music] 35 00:01:29,389 --> 00:01:34,061 ♪ ♪ 36 00:01:34,194 --> 00:01:36,897 - I can't wait to have this place try and break me. 37 00:01:37,030 --> 00:01:38,932 narrator: For the first time on "Alone," 38 00:01:39,066 --> 00:01:40,968 ten participants fight to survive 39 00:01:41,101 --> 00:01:42,336 in the hunting ground 40 00:01:42,469 --> 00:01:44,871 of the world's largest land predator. 41 00:01:45,005 --> 00:01:46,707 - Oh, my God. Where'd he go? 42 00:01:46,840 --> 00:01:47,941 Those are bear. 43 00:01:48,075 --> 00:01:49,443 - I heard a big animal. 44 00:01:49,576 --> 00:01:51,912 - Hey, bear. - Oh, no. [bleep]. 45 00:01:52,045 --> 00:01:54,848 - Sometimes you eat the bear. 46 00:01:54,982 --> 00:01:56,450 Sometimes the bear eats you. 47 00:01:56,583 --> 00:01:58,952 narrator: Battling merciless conditions... 48 00:01:59,086 --> 00:02:01,254 - This is some hard-core bushwhacking. 49 00:02:01,388 --> 00:02:04,424 - Why does it have to be such a struggle every night? 50 00:02:04,558 --> 00:02:06,493 - I hit it. I hit it. I hit it. 51 00:02:06,626 --> 00:02:08,762 - I feel more alive every day I'm out here. 52 00:02:08,895 --> 00:02:09,997 - Ahh. 53 00:02:10,130 --> 00:02:12,332 - Here comes the rain again. - I have an oar. 54 00:02:12,466 --> 00:02:14,267 - You're not gonna make it easy for us, are you? 55 00:02:14,401 --> 00:02:16,036 narrator: In complete isolation... 56 00:02:16,169 --> 00:02:18,805 - The most dangerous thing out here is myself. 57 00:02:18,939 --> 00:02:19,973 - Look at that! 58 00:02:20,107 --> 00:02:21,642 - The cold ground is just pulling 59 00:02:21,775 --> 00:02:23,276 all the warmth from me. 60 00:02:23,410 --> 00:02:25,445 - How many days can this go on? 61 00:02:25,579 --> 00:02:26,646 - Very, very hungry. 62 00:02:26,780 --> 00:02:27,814 - I feel like I'm hitting a wall. 63 00:02:27,948 --> 00:02:30,283 narrator: Last one standing wins. 64 00:02:30,417 --> 00:02:32,452 - It's only gonna get harder the longer you stay out here. 65 00:02:32,586 --> 00:02:35,455 [dramatic music] 66 00:02:35,589 --> 00:02:42,596 ♪ ♪ 67 00:02:43,964 --> 00:02:46,833 [tense music] 68 00:02:46,967 --> 00:02:53,940 ♪ ♪ 69 00:02:55,375 --> 00:02:57,811 - Wow, black teeth. 70 00:02:57,944 --> 00:02:58,945 ♪ ♪ 71 00:03:04,651 --> 00:03:06,486 [laughs] 72 00:03:06,620 --> 00:03:07,921 ♪ ♪ 73 00:03:08,055 --> 00:03:09,656 I have a cast-iron pot. 74 00:03:09,790 --> 00:03:12,826 And when I cook the berries, the stringency in the berries 75 00:03:12,959 --> 00:03:14,461 strips out all the seasoning. 76 00:03:14,594 --> 00:03:18,532 So now I'm absorbing all that iron into my fruit leather, 77 00:03:18,665 --> 00:03:21,401 and my teeth are turning black. 78 00:03:21,535 --> 00:03:23,003 ♪ ♪ 79 00:03:23,136 --> 00:03:26,006 So I'm gonna try and see 80 00:03:26,139 --> 00:03:30,844 if I can get some tooth powder 81 00:03:30,977 --> 00:03:34,181 out of this dead horsetail. 82 00:03:34,314 --> 00:03:35,716 It may work, it may not, 83 00:03:35,849 --> 00:03:37,250 but I'm gonna try and powder it. 84 00:03:37,384 --> 00:03:40,287 And, I mean, it's worth a shot, right? 85 00:03:40,420 --> 00:03:41,955 ♪ ♪ 86 00:03:42,089 --> 00:03:43,356 I'm super freaking out. 87 00:03:43,490 --> 00:03:46,359 Like, "Oh, my God. I'm gonna look horrible on TV." 88 00:03:46,493 --> 00:03:47,761 But look at this. 89 00:03:47,894 --> 00:03:51,798 I'm trying to solve the problem with what I've got. 90 00:03:51,932 --> 00:03:55,535 ♪ ♪ 91 00:03:55,669 --> 00:03:58,538 Look at that-- toothpaste powder. 92 00:03:58,672 --> 00:04:00,006 ♪ ♪ 93 00:04:02,742 --> 00:04:04,244 I think they're turning white again. 94 00:04:04,377 --> 00:04:06,046 Oh, my God. 95 00:04:07,314 --> 00:04:09,950 [chuckles] 96 00:04:10,083 --> 00:04:11,818 Oh, this is so awesome. 97 00:04:13,587 --> 00:04:14,788 So awesome. Oh, my God. 98 00:04:14,921 --> 00:04:16,790 That's the best thing I've done. 99 00:04:16,923 --> 00:04:18,091 All right. 100 00:04:18,225 --> 00:04:20,160 Let's go down and do some muskrat hunting. 101 00:04:20,293 --> 00:04:21,561 ♪ ♪ 102 00:04:21,695 --> 00:04:24,331 At this time of year, the fishing dies off. 103 00:04:24,464 --> 00:04:26,233 But while I'm fishing, 104 00:04:26,366 --> 00:04:28,835 I've seen muskrats going back and forth. 105 00:04:28,969 --> 00:04:30,871 And the more I was not getting fish, 106 00:04:31,004 --> 00:04:32,472 the more I was thinking to myself, 107 00:04:32,606 --> 00:04:34,741 "How can I get a muskrat with a bow and arrow 108 00:04:34,875 --> 00:04:36,443 "without losing my arrow? 109 00:04:36,576 --> 00:04:37,811 "He's gonna swim away, 110 00:04:37,944 --> 00:04:40,747 and I'll lose the muskrat and the arrow." 111 00:04:40,881 --> 00:04:41,948 ♪ ♪ 112 00:04:42,082 --> 00:04:45,752 So I'm thinking that if I take my arrow 113 00:04:45,886 --> 00:04:47,854 and get the bow ready 114 00:04:47,988 --> 00:04:50,223 and tether the end of the arrow 115 00:04:50,357 --> 00:04:53,627 with my floating line, which is attached to a reel, 116 00:04:53,760 --> 00:04:56,129 then I could possibly shoot him 117 00:04:56,263 --> 00:04:59,699 and then be able to retrieve the arrow and a muskrat. 118 00:04:59,833 --> 00:05:01,468 ♪ ♪ 119 00:05:13,680 --> 00:05:17,284 I just don't want another day to go by without a meal. 120 00:05:17,417 --> 00:05:18,451 ♪ ♪ 121 00:05:18,585 --> 00:05:19,753 It means a lot, 122 00:05:19,886 --> 00:05:21,855 if I win half a million dollars. 123 00:05:21,988 --> 00:05:24,257 I just closed on some land, 124 00:05:24,391 --> 00:05:27,661 and I'm wanting to build a wilderness school there. 125 00:05:27,794 --> 00:05:29,596 And so this money would help me 126 00:05:29,729 --> 00:05:31,565 to start living my dreams of what I really want 127 00:05:31,698 --> 00:05:33,667 to be doing for the rest of my life. 128 00:05:33,800 --> 00:05:34,768 ♪ ♪ 129 00:05:39,539 --> 00:05:42,409 [tense music] 130 00:05:42,542 --> 00:05:48,915 ♪ ♪ 131 00:05:49,049 --> 00:05:50,217 [whispering] He's right there. 132 00:05:50,383 --> 00:05:54,154 ♪ ♪ 133 00:05:55,589 --> 00:05:57,791 [bleep]. 134 00:05:57,924 --> 00:06:00,126 He dove before I could even get set. 135 00:06:15,909 --> 00:06:17,911 [dramatic music] 136 00:06:18,044 --> 00:06:20,280 [wind whistling] 137 00:06:20,413 --> 00:06:26,820 ♪ ♪ 138 00:06:26,953 --> 00:06:29,956 [fire crackles] 139 00:06:31,258 --> 00:06:34,261 [exhaling deeply] 140 00:06:36,563 --> 00:06:39,432 I was just sitting here thinking about... 141 00:06:39,566 --> 00:06:42,135 you know, if I wanted to call in on an ancestor 142 00:06:42,269 --> 00:06:44,537 right now to help me out, who would I call? 143 00:06:44,671 --> 00:06:45,805 And I thought, 144 00:06:45,939 --> 00:06:48,108 my great-great-great-grandfather 145 00:06:48,241 --> 00:06:50,343 was a scout on the Oregon Trail. 146 00:06:50,477 --> 00:06:53,613 So I come from a long lineage of a pioneering family. 147 00:06:53,747 --> 00:06:55,548 All of our ancestors 148 00:06:55,682 --> 00:06:58,051 had to hunt and gather their food, 149 00:06:58,184 --> 00:07:01,888 and just reflecting on how they figured things out 150 00:07:02,022 --> 00:07:04,524 and the mistakes they made 151 00:07:04,658 --> 00:07:06,793 and... [sighs] 152 00:07:06,926 --> 00:07:08,194 The harshness. 153 00:07:08,328 --> 00:07:10,563 And that was just the way of life, you know? 154 00:07:10,697 --> 00:07:12,032 They didn't go to the grocery store. 155 00:07:12,165 --> 00:07:14,267 So, yeah, I'm just... 156 00:07:14,401 --> 00:07:16,169 ♪ ♪ 157 00:07:16,303 --> 00:07:18,505 Really realizing this right now. 158 00:07:22,409 --> 00:07:23,677 Huh. 159 00:07:26,546 --> 00:07:28,748 I'm not giving up on the muskrats. 160 00:07:32,519 --> 00:07:35,221 [wind whistling] 161 00:07:35,355 --> 00:07:38,224 [tense music] 162 00:07:38,358 --> 00:07:45,365 ♪ ♪ 163 00:07:56,743 --> 00:07:57,978 - Oh, man. 164 00:07:58,111 --> 00:07:59,612 ♪ ♪ 165 00:08:04,651 --> 00:08:06,653 [winces] 166 00:08:08,021 --> 00:08:11,791 Day 42 was a rough one, y'all. 167 00:08:11,925 --> 00:08:14,027 I really buggered up my back. 168 00:08:17,931 --> 00:08:21,067 Whoa! [bleep]. 169 00:08:21,201 --> 00:08:23,236 [bleep]. 170 00:08:23,370 --> 00:08:26,039 That did not feel great. 171 00:08:26,172 --> 00:08:29,442 And last night was a very long 172 00:08:29,576 --> 00:08:31,878 and frustrating night 173 00:08:32,012 --> 00:08:34,714 with very, very, very little sleep. 174 00:08:34,848 --> 00:08:36,282 ♪ ♪ 175 00:08:36,416 --> 00:08:38,318 My body is ground down. 176 00:08:38,451 --> 00:08:40,920 If I fall again and mess something up, 177 00:08:41,054 --> 00:08:43,923 with this back being the way it is, 178 00:08:44,057 --> 00:08:45,392 that's just gonna be it. 179 00:08:45,525 --> 00:08:48,228 I'm throwing a Hail Mary at the beaver. 180 00:08:48,361 --> 00:08:49,729 If I can go down there, 181 00:08:49,863 --> 00:08:53,066 if I can hobble my busted ass down there 182 00:08:53,199 --> 00:08:56,503 and shoot that beaver, 183 00:08:56,636 --> 00:08:59,906 then I can hold up in this... 184 00:09:00,040 --> 00:09:04,811 little house for a couple of days... 185 00:09:04,944 --> 00:09:08,214 and eat beaver and lay down 186 00:09:08,348 --> 00:09:10,750 and rest my back. 187 00:09:10,884 --> 00:09:13,353 We're gonna, as they say in South Africa, 188 00:09:13,486 --> 00:09:14,754 hold thumbs for that. 189 00:09:14,888 --> 00:09:18,458 It's the South African version of cross your fingers. 190 00:09:18,591 --> 00:09:19,826 And just-- 191 00:09:19,959 --> 00:09:21,428 I think it's way better because, you know, 192 00:09:21,561 --> 00:09:23,163 it's like, when you really want something to happen, 193 00:09:23,296 --> 00:09:25,231 you're like, "Oh, come on." 194 00:09:25,365 --> 00:09:28,101 So I'm gonna heat this tea up from last night 195 00:09:28,234 --> 00:09:30,503 and get my stuff ready. 196 00:09:31,971 --> 00:09:34,174 [tense music] 197 00:09:34,307 --> 00:09:35,675 This challenge-- 198 00:09:35,809 --> 00:09:39,012 it's not the traps or the hunting. 199 00:09:39,145 --> 00:09:41,714 It's not the skills or the fire building. 200 00:09:41,848 --> 00:09:43,416 It's about you. 201 00:09:43,550 --> 00:09:45,819 ♪ ♪ 202 00:09:45,952 --> 00:09:48,922 I'm really scared of falling again now. 203 00:09:49,055 --> 00:09:56,062 ♪ ♪ 204 00:09:58,698 --> 00:10:00,166 [sighs] 205 00:10:00,300 --> 00:10:02,469 ♪ ♪ 206 00:10:02,602 --> 00:10:03,937 [exhales deeply] 207 00:10:04,070 --> 00:10:05,505 ♪ ♪ 208 00:10:05,638 --> 00:10:09,509 It's about facing the demons in the dark corners 209 00:10:09,642 --> 00:10:12,178 and the soft spots in you as a person 210 00:10:12,312 --> 00:10:13,880 that get poked by all the briars 211 00:10:14,013 --> 00:10:15,348 when you're out here. 212 00:10:15,482 --> 00:10:22,522 ♪ ♪ 213 00:10:28,128 --> 00:10:30,697 I hobbled all the way out here 214 00:10:30,830 --> 00:10:33,399 to shoot at a beaver 215 00:10:33,533 --> 00:10:35,235 and never saw one. 216 00:10:35,368 --> 00:10:36,870 ♪ ♪ 217 00:10:37,003 --> 00:10:40,773 I know this injury isn't just gonna fix itself overnight. 218 00:10:40,907 --> 00:10:44,677 Something is gonna have to change for me. 219 00:10:44,811 --> 00:10:46,513 I'm trying to stay positive. 220 00:10:46,646 --> 00:10:48,181 ♪ ♪ 221 00:10:48,314 --> 00:10:49,516 Oof. 222 00:10:49,649 --> 00:10:51,551 ♪ ♪ 223 00:10:51,684 --> 00:10:53,887 And I'm trying to continue to push. 224 00:10:54,020 --> 00:10:55,021 ♪ ♪ 225 00:10:56,890 --> 00:10:59,192 I'm just... 226 00:10:59,325 --> 00:11:04,230 finished my third boil of my Icelandic moss. 227 00:11:05,665 --> 00:11:09,302 The water came out clear, just like it's supposed to. 228 00:11:11,671 --> 00:11:12,972 The lichens and bunchberries 229 00:11:13,106 --> 00:11:15,108 are all I've eaten for three days. 230 00:11:17,710 --> 00:11:20,013 I had a couple of days with no protein. 231 00:11:22,682 --> 00:11:23,950 If we don't get some real food in, 232 00:11:24,117 --> 00:11:25,184 we're in trouble. 233 00:11:28,054 --> 00:11:31,758 The doc will come and haul me away. 234 00:11:31,891 --> 00:11:33,493 Do it again tomorrow. 235 00:11:35,261 --> 00:11:36,663 It's all we can do, man. 236 00:11:38,364 --> 00:11:41,601 It doesn't seem to do any good to sit still, so... 237 00:11:41,734 --> 00:11:43,903 I got to get a bunch of clay. 238 00:11:44,037 --> 00:11:46,806 I just need to seal up these little gaps 239 00:11:46,940 --> 00:11:50,376 so the sparks come this way out of the vents that I made. 240 00:11:55,381 --> 00:11:56,616 [dramatic music] 241 00:11:56,749 --> 00:11:57,984 [bleep]. 242 00:11:58,117 --> 00:11:59,986 [exhales deeply] 243 00:12:00,119 --> 00:12:04,691 ♪ ♪ 244 00:12:04,824 --> 00:12:07,527 [bleep]. Oh, God. 245 00:12:11,598 --> 00:12:14,467 [dramatic music] 246 00:12:14,601 --> 00:12:17,904 ♪ ♪ 247 00:12:30,850 --> 00:12:32,852 [sighs] 248 00:12:36,222 --> 00:12:39,926 That one was the back and the knee. 249 00:12:40,059 --> 00:12:47,066 ♪ ♪ 250 00:13:08,921 --> 00:13:11,290 Let's see how bad this is. 251 00:13:11,424 --> 00:13:18,431 ♪ ♪ 252 00:13:19,832 --> 00:13:22,468 Oh, yeah, it's swelling. 253 00:13:22,602 --> 00:13:24,671 It's definitely swelling. 254 00:13:37,183 --> 00:13:39,185 [bird calls] 255 00:13:39,318 --> 00:13:41,721 Whiskey jack laughing at me. 256 00:13:41,854 --> 00:13:43,423 [chuckles] 257 00:13:43,556 --> 00:13:44,791 Laugh it up, buddy. 258 00:13:44,924 --> 00:13:46,225 You got away. 259 00:13:49,896 --> 00:13:53,232 ♪ ♪ 260 00:13:53,366 --> 00:13:55,068 If I had any food at all... 261 00:13:55,201 --> 00:13:58,705 ♪ ♪ 262 00:13:58,838 --> 00:14:00,740 I'd try to stick it out. 263 00:14:00,873 --> 00:14:03,142 ♪ ♪ 264 00:14:03,276 --> 00:14:05,812 Probably won't even be able to get my firewood up tonight. 265 00:14:05,945 --> 00:14:06,913 I don't even know how the hell 266 00:14:07,046 --> 00:14:08,915 they're gonna get me off this hill. 267 00:14:09,048 --> 00:14:16,089 ♪ ♪ 268 00:14:18,324 --> 00:14:20,593 Not the way I wanted it to go. 269 00:14:22,562 --> 00:14:25,898 It's so funny that that whiskey jack's here. 270 00:14:26,032 --> 00:14:27,967 [bird chirping] 271 00:14:28,067 --> 00:14:30,903 [device beeping] 272 00:14:32,472 --> 00:14:34,474 Hey, there. This is Tom. 273 00:14:34,607 --> 00:14:36,409 I buggered my knee up pretty good, 274 00:14:36,542 --> 00:14:38,578 and I think that that's gonna have 275 00:14:38,711 --> 00:14:41,581 to be it for me, unfortunately. 276 00:14:41,714 --> 00:14:44,584 I'm officially tapping out. 277 00:14:44,717 --> 00:14:47,420 [dramatic music] 278 00:14:47,553 --> 00:14:48,955 ♪ ♪ 279 00:14:49,088 --> 00:14:50,790 This whole place has been amazing. 280 00:14:50,923 --> 00:14:52,792 ♪ ♪ 281 00:14:52,925 --> 00:14:54,026 God, it has fed me. 282 00:14:54,160 --> 00:14:56,462 It has fed my body. It fed my soul. 283 00:14:56,596 --> 00:14:58,898 ♪ ♪ 284 00:14:59,031 --> 00:15:02,502 It nurtured parts of me and touched pieces of me 285 00:15:02,635 --> 00:15:05,404 that I had no idea were even in there. 286 00:15:05,538 --> 00:15:07,440 ♪ ♪ 287 00:15:07,573 --> 00:15:11,844 God, I would just kill for another week... 288 00:15:11,978 --> 00:15:14,247 another day here. 289 00:15:14,380 --> 00:15:15,948 I'm gonna miss it. 290 00:15:16,082 --> 00:15:22,622 ♪ ♪ 291 00:15:22,755 --> 00:15:26,125 You know... 292 00:15:26,259 --> 00:15:30,830 I'm not done here, and I'm not done here. 293 00:15:30,963 --> 00:15:32,999 I'm just done here. 294 00:15:34,300 --> 00:15:36,769 It's a tough, tough man that never gives up, 295 00:15:36,903 --> 00:15:38,404 but it's a fool who doesn't know 296 00:15:38,538 --> 00:15:40,072 when he's beaten, you know? 297 00:15:40,206 --> 00:15:42,375 And I want to get up 298 00:15:42,508 --> 00:15:46,612 and enjoy a place like this another day, 299 00:15:46,746 --> 00:15:48,548 so it's time. 300 00:15:48,681 --> 00:15:51,584 [soft dramatic music] 301 00:15:51,717 --> 00:15:53,352 ♪ ♪ 302 00:15:53,486 --> 00:15:55,454 It's hard not to be disappointed 303 00:15:55,588 --> 00:15:57,390 that the ride's over. 304 00:15:57,523 --> 00:15:58,825 ♪ ♪ 305 00:15:58,958 --> 00:16:01,727 You know, it's like saying goodbye to a person. 306 00:16:01,861 --> 00:16:03,229 ♪ ♪ 307 00:16:03,362 --> 00:16:06,199 Never part ways with ill words. 308 00:16:06,332 --> 00:16:08,201 ♪ ♪ 309 00:16:08,334 --> 00:16:10,603 I want to be thanking this space, 310 00:16:10,736 --> 00:16:12,905 loving everything it gave me. 311 00:16:13,039 --> 00:16:14,874 ♪ ♪ 312 00:16:15,007 --> 00:16:19,045 Out here, you're racing your weaknesses. 313 00:16:19,178 --> 00:16:20,246 ♪ ♪ 314 00:16:20,379 --> 00:16:22,849 It's you against yourself. 315 00:16:22,982 --> 00:16:25,484 I hope to take the lessons that I learned 316 00:16:25,618 --> 00:16:26,986 and bring them home 317 00:16:27,119 --> 00:16:30,556 to make more of my dreams a reality. 318 00:16:30,690 --> 00:16:33,726 I wish that my father was still alive to see me do this. 319 00:16:33,860 --> 00:16:36,195 ♪ ♪ 320 00:16:36,329 --> 00:16:38,464 He taught me a lot. 321 00:16:38,598 --> 00:16:40,800 He was a huge inspiration. 322 00:16:40,933 --> 00:16:44,170 But I know my father is so proud of me 323 00:16:44,303 --> 00:16:45,805 for making it this far. 324 00:16:45,938 --> 00:16:47,039 ♪ ♪ 325 00:16:47,173 --> 00:16:49,575 Despite being physically broken, 326 00:16:49,709 --> 00:16:52,778 I feel made whole by this experience. 327 00:16:52,912 --> 00:16:53,980 ♪ ♪ 328 00:16:54,113 --> 00:16:55,481 I feel stronger. 329 00:16:55,615 --> 00:16:57,550 I feel more resilient. 330 00:16:57,717 --> 00:16:59,552 I feel wiser from it. 331 00:16:59,685 --> 00:17:00,920 ♪ ♪ 332 00:17:01,053 --> 00:17:03,422 I believe that things happen for reasons. 333 00:17:03,556 --> 00:17:04,857 My life took me here. 334 00:17:04,991 --> 00:17:06,826 And now I'm going home. 335 00:17:06,959 --> 00:17:08,694 No, I didn't win, but, like, 336 00:17:08,828 --> 00:17:11,163 hell, man, 43 days... 337 00:17:11,297 --> 00:17:12,732 I'm good with it. 338 00:17:12,865 --> 00:17:19,839 ♪ ♪ 339 00:17:31,250 --> 00:17:34,053 - I've been working on a song. 340 00:17:34,186 --> 00:17:36,622 I'm not sure if I'm ready to share it. 341 00:17:36,756 --> 00:17:39,025 I'm really close. 342 00:17:39,158 --> 00:17:41,694 I mean, I could try. 343 00:17:41,827 --> 00:17:44,864 ♪ This forest is my medicine ♪ 344 00:17:44,997 --> 00:17:48,734 ♪ Big River is my home ♪ 345 00:17:48,868 --> 00:17:52,271 ♪ I fill my lungs with the trees so green ♪ 346 00:17:52,405 --> 00:17:54,674 ♪ Flowing creek is my bloodstream ♪ 347 00:17:54,807 --> 00:17:57,543 ♪ I drink of the fresh spring water ♪ 348 00:17:57,677 --> 00:17:59,946 ♪ I eat the growing greens ♪ 349 00:18:00,079 --> 00:18:02,648 ♪ I sing along with sweet birdsong ♪ 350 00:18:02,782 --> 00:18:06,152 ♪ Like a circle, it goes on and on and on ♪ 351 00:18:06,285 --> 00:18:08,454 ♪ ♪ 352 00:18:08,588 --> 00:18:12,124 And I'm getting hungry, and I have no food. 353 00:18:12,258 --> 00:18:15,194 Yesterday I missed a possible opportunity 354 00:18:15,328 --> 00:18:18,598 to get a muskrat with my bow and arrow. 355 00:18:18,731 --> 00:18:22,034 It's gonna happen this time, I promise. 356 00:18:22,168 --> 00:18:23,836 I really do well when I'm focused. 357 00:18:23,970 --> 00:18:25,004 ♪ ♪ 358 00:18:25,137 --> 00:18:27,773 I don't know how much meat is on a muskrat, 359 00:18:27,907 --> 00:18:31,210 but it might be a day, maybe two days' worth of food. 360 00:18:31,344 --> 00:18:34,580 And that would be such a game changer, for sure. 361 00:18:34,714 --> 00:18:37,450 So let's get down to the river. 362 00:18:37,583 --> 00:18:43,622 ♪ ♪ 363 00:18:45,157 --> 00:18:48,494 First of all, I got to get into position. 364 00:18:48,628 --> 00:18:53,199 ♪ ♪ 365 00:19:01,841 --> 00:19:03,809 I can see little bubbles. 366 00:19:05,678 --> 00:19:06,979 ♪ ♪ 367 00:19:07,113 --> 00:19:08,547 There's a little muskrat. 368 00:19:08,681 --> 00:19:09,715 ♪ ♪ 369 00:19:09,849 --> 00:19:12,618 See all that mud coming out of the bank 370 00:19:12,752 --> 00:19:14,020 under the water? 371 00:19:14,153 --> 00:19:21,027 ♪ ♪ 372 00:19:21,160 --> 00:19:23,229 [water splashes] 373 00:19:23,362 --> 00:19:24,597 [bleep]. 374 00:19:27,066 --> 00:19:33,105 ♪ ♪ 375 00:19:33,239 --> 00:19:34,306 [bow thwacks] 376 00:19:37,043 --> 00:19:38,077 [bleep]. 377 00:19:38,210 --> 00:19:41,547 ♪ ♪ 378 00:19:41,680 --> 00:19:42,748 [bleep]. 379 00:19:42,882 --> 00:19:45,518 ♪ ♪ 380 00:19:45,651 --> 00:19:46,786 [bleep]. 381 00:19:46,919 --> 00:19:48,354 Ahh. [bleep]. 382 00:19:48,487 --> 00:19:51,023 ♪ ♪ 383 00:19:55,127 --> 00:19:57,997 [dramatic music] 384 00:19:58,130 --> 00:20:01,467 ♪ ♪ 385 00:20:05,371 --> 00:20:12,044 ♪ ♪ 386 00:20:12,178 --> 00:20:13,345 Holy crap. 387 00:20:15,147 --> 00:20:17,316 Holy [bleep]. That was a battle. 388 00:20:19,919 --> 00:20:21,921 [sighs] 389 00:20:29,428 --> 00:20:31,964 I got a muskrat. [chuckles] 390 00:20:32,098 --> 00:20:33,466 ♪ ♪ 391 00:20:33,599 --> 00:20:36,469 I got dinner, and I hope it tastes good. 392 00:20:36,602 --> 00:20:37,937 [chuckles] 393 00:20:38,070 --> 00:20:39,305 ♪ ♪ 394 00:20:39,438 --> 00:20:40,506 Oh, my God. 395 00:20:40,639 --> 00:20:41,874 Thank you, thank you, thank you. 396 00:20:42,007 --> 00:20:43,476 Wow. 397 00:20:43,609 --> 00:20:45,077 Beautiful. 398 00:20:45,211 --> 00:20:46,679 Soft fur, too. 399 00:20:46,812 --> 00:20:48,647 Thank you. Thank you for your life. 400 00:20:48,781 --> 00:20:49,782 Oh, my God. 401 00:20:49,915 --> 00:20:51,150 Thank you. 402 00:20:53,652 --> 00:21:00,392 ♪ ♪ 403 00:21:00,526 --> 00:21:01,894 Check it out. 404 00:21:02,027 --> 00:21:08,701 ♪ ♪ 405 00:21:08,834 --> 00:21:13,139 We got roasted muskrat leg. 406 00:21:22,548 --> 00:21:23,949 Oh, my God. 407 00:21:27,953 --> 00:21:29,588 That is incredible. 408 00:21:33,092 --> 00:21:34,827 That's not musky at all. 409 00:21:37,563 --> 00:21:38,664 Mmm. 410 00:21:40,099 --> 00:21:42,101 In fact, it tastes a lot like beaver. 411 00:21:44,303 --> 00:21:46,172 My gosh, it's snowing. 412 00:21:46,305 --> 00:21:47,773 ♪ ♪ 413 00:21:47,907 --> 00:21:50,209 What a crazy day. It's snowing. 414 00:21:50,342 --> 00:21:51,577 [chuckles] 415 00:21:51,710 --> 00:21:53,012 I'm eating muskrat. 416 00:21:53,145 --> 00:21:55,114 ♪ ♪ 417 00:21:55,247 --> 00:21:59,084 I've been thinking about how hard I worked to get here. 418 00:21:59,218 --> 00:22:02,054 It's a lifetime of preparing. 419 00:22:02,188 --> 00:22:04,323 It's just another step in the evolution 420 00:22:04,456 --> 00:22:05,958 of making it all happen, 421 00:22:06,091 --> 00:22:09,028 and it would take a lot to get me to leave. 422 00:22:09,161 --> 00:22:11,363 I'm here till I can't be here anymore. 423 00:22:11,497 --> 00:22:12,698 ♪ ♪ 424 00:22:12,832 --> 00:22:14,900 This is so freaking fantastic. 425 00:22:15,000 --> 00:22:16,635 [laughs] 426 00:22:16,769 --> 00:22:20,573 ♪ ♪ 427 00:22:20,706 --> 00:22:22,708 [grunts] 428 00:22:25,344 --> 00:22:28,214 [wind whistling] 429 00:22:28,347 --> 00:22:31,217 [tense music] 430 00:22:31,383 --> 00:22:38,390 ♪ ♪ 431 00:22:40,059 --> 00:22:43,262 - So tomorrow it's Halloween. 432 00:22:43,395 --> 00:22:45,464 I'm gonna get my costume ready. 433 00:22:45,598 --> 00:22:46,732 ♪ ♪ 434 00:22:46,866 --> 00:22:49,468 I think it's such a fun holiday, 435 00:22:49,602 --> 00:22:52,471 and I love making my own costumes. 436 00:22:53,939 --> 00:22:56,575 I wish I was getting ready to go trick or treating. 437 00:22:57,910 --> 00:22:59,144 There we go. 438 00:23:01,313 --> 00:23:06,252 In honor of the holiday and just like Woniya, 439 00:23:06,385 --> 00:23:10,589 who decided to be what she was eating, 440 00:23:10,723 --> 00:23:15,427 I decided to go as a grouse. 441 00:23:15,561 --> 00:23:17,062 [chimes tinkling] 442 00:23:17,196 --> 00:23:18,797 Ta-da! 443 00:23:18,931 --> 00:23:20,299 [laughs] 444 00:23:20,432 --> 00:23:23,836 [eerie music] 445 00:23:23,969 --> 00:23:25,304 What do you think? 446 00:23:25,437 --> 00:23:27,439 ♪ ♪ 447 00:23:30,542 --> 00:23:31,744 Yes... 448 00:23:31,877 --> 00:23:36,048 I have a piece of tarp cone 449 00:23:36,181 --> 00:23:40,486 covered in charcoal soot as a beak. 450 00:23:40,619 --> 00:23:44,023 But it's ten items, people. 451 00:23:44,156 --> 00:23:46,091 You got to get creative. 452 00:23:48,160 --> 00:23:49,561 I think it looks great. 453 00:23:49,695 --> 00:23:52,298 [chuckles] 454 00:23:52,431 --> 00:23:54,466 [dramatic music] 455 00:23:54,600 --> 00:23:56,869 [wind whistling] 456 00:23:57,002 --> 00:23:58,871 Winter is coming. 457 00:23:59,004 --> 00:24:02,007 That is where the champion rounds begin, 458 00:24:02,141 --> 00:24:04,410 where "Alone" is won or lost. 459 00:24:04,543 --> 00:24:09,748 So I can make insulated shutters for the window. 460 00:24:09,882 --> 00:24:13,252 This one's got a bunch of little nails in it. 461 00:24:13,385 --> 00:24:16,755 I'm going for something solid and dependable... 462 00:24:16,889 --> 00:24:18,490 There we go. 463 00:24:18,624 --> 00:24:20,626 That's gonna fit snug enough to keep almost all 464 00:24:20,759 --> 00:24:23,729 of the prevailing wind out of my shelter 465 00:24:23,862 --> 00:24:25,731 and to keep most of my heat in. 466 00:24:30,202 --> 00:24:33,906 So the window's framed out. 467 00:24:34,039 --> 00:24:36,241 Now... 468 00:24:36,375 --> 00:24:41,046 we just need to connect these two lovely boards... 469 00:24:45,818 --> 00:24:48,020 And we've got a shutter. 470 00:24:48,153 --> 00:24:50,422 And we can slide in and out at night. 471 00:24:54,426 --> 00:24:56,428 Pretty cool, huh? 472 00:24:56,562 --> 00:24:58,397 [chuckles] 473 00:24:58,530 --> 00:25:01,900 And that is going to help massively... 474 00:25:02,000 --> 00:25:03,369 keeping this place warm, 475 00:25:03,502 --> 00:25:05,704 'cause it was starting to get a little chilly 476 00:25:05,838 --> 00:25:07,506 the last couple of nights. 477 00:25:09,742 --> 00:25:12,611 [tense music] 478 00:25:12,745 --> 00:25:19,451 ♪ ♪ 479 00:25:20,719 --> 00:25:21,687 - [burps] 480 00:25:21,820 --> 00:25:28,827 ♪ ♪ 481 00:25:41,373 --> 00:25:43,876 [burps] 482 00:25:45,377 --> 00:25:48,213 [exhales deeply, sniffs] 483 00:25:57,256 --> 00:25:59,291 My stomach doesn't feel good. 484 00:25:59,425 --> 00:26:01,660 ♪ ♪ 485 00:26:01,794 --> 00:26:04,563 It's just felt queasy for the last few days. 486 00:26:04,696 --> 00:26:06,965 ♪ ♪ 487 00:26:07,099 --> 00:26:09,501 But today I want to go up 488 00:26:09,635 --> 00:26:13,539 and check the rabbit snares I set up yesterday. 489 00:26:13,672 --> 00:26:16,475 Wouldn't mind finishing up the walls today, 490 00:26:16,608 --> 00:26:19,545 which means just grabbing a little bit more moss. 491 00:26:19,678 --> 00:26:20,846 ♪ ♪ 492 00:26:20,979 --> 00:26:22,481 Boil water. 493 00:26:22,614 --> 00:26:23,782 The usual, I guess. 494 00:26:23,916 --> 00:26:25,551 ♪ ♪ 495 00:26:25,684 --> 00:26:27,386 [groans, burps] 496 00:26:27,519 --> 00:26:28,720 ♪ ♪ 497 00:26:28,854 --> 00:26:30,589 I don't usually belch like this. 498 00:26:30,722 --> 00:26:32,257 And I've just been belching a lot, 499 00:26:32,391 --> 00:26:33,492 which is really strange. 500 00:26:33,625 --> 00:26:35,060 I don't understand it. 501 00:26:35,194 --> 00:26:36,428 I'm just not sure why I have 502 00:26:36,562 --> 00:26:39,798 so much gassy-like burps coming up. 503 00:26:39,932 --> 00:26:41,767 I'm okay. 504 00:26:41,900 --> 00:26:43,402 I'm okay. 505 00:26:43,535 --> 00:26:46,572 [dramatic music] 506 00:26:46,705 --> 00:26:47,706 ♪ ♪ 507 00:26:47,840 --> 00:26:50,375 Amazing what a lot of moss will do. 508 00:26:50,509 --> 00:26:52,611 Kind of like caulking in your house. 509 00:26:52,744 --> 00:26:54,813 [chuckles] 510 00:26:54,947 --> 00:26:57,749 Not that that's the recommended method, but... 511 00:26:57,883 --> 00:26:59,885 ♪ ♪ 512 00:27:00,018 --> 00:27:01,386 It does work. 513 00:27:01,520 --> 00:27:03,522 ♪ ♪ 514 00:27:09,394 --> 00:27:11,630 I give you Hodgepodge Lodge. 515 00:27:11,763 --> 00:27:13,665 Ta-da. 516 00:27:13,799 --> 00:27:17,169 I probably spent a solid three weeks working on it, huh? 517 00:27:19,004 --> 00:27:20,739 I don't know about full eight-hour days, 518 00:27:20,873 --> 00:27:22,508 three weeks, but... 519 00:27:25,611 --> 00:27:27,146 I've definitely put in a lot of time 520 00:27:27,279 --> 00:27:28,447 working on Hodgepodge... 521 00:27:28,580 --> 00:27:30,315 [chuckles] 522 00:27:30,449 --> 00:27:33,418 A lot more than I probably should have. 523 00:27:33,552 --> 00:27:35,888 But she's a cool shelter. 524 00:27:36,021 --> 00:27:40,292 My only priority really now is getting food. 525 00:27:40,425 --> 00:27:41,760 [exhales deeply] 526 00:27:41,894 --> 00:27:45,497 Yeah, see, now I'm back to just feeling nauseous. 527 00:27:45,631 --> 00:27:46,765 ♪ ♪ 528 00:27:46,899 --> 00:27:48,934 I'm gonna go check my snares. 529 00:27:49,034 --> 00:27:51,570 ♪ ♪ 530 00:27:51,703 --> 00:27:52,838 At first, I was like, "Oh, God. 531 00:27:52,971 --> 00:27:54,706 "Did I do something stupid 532 00:27:54,840 --> 00:27:56,808 and end up with giardia or something?" 533 00:27:56,942 --> 00:27:58,010 [burps] 534 00:27:58,143 --> 00:28:00,345 ♪ ♪ 535 00:28:00,479 --> 00:28:01,747 But I'm like, "No, I don't have 536 00:28:01,880 --> 00:28:04,182 any of the other symptoms of giardia." 537 00:28:04,316 --> 00:28:07,486 I'm just belching a lot. None of it's sulfur. 538 00:28:07,619 --> 00:28:09,721 And my stomach's upset, but I don't have the diarrhea. 539 00:28:09,855 --> 00:28:11,557 I don't have, you know, lots of flatulence. 540 00:28:11,690 --> 00:28:12,858 I don't have any of that going on. 541 00:28:12,991 --> 00:28:14,226 So I'm like, "No, I don't think 542 00:28:14,359 --> 00:28:15,727 "it's some kind of bacteria I got. 543 00:28:15,861 --> 00:28:18,397 I think it's starvation." 544 00:28:18,530 --> 00:28:22,968 All three snares, still in place here. 545 00:28:23,101 --> 00:28:24,202 Damn it. 546 00:28:40,218 --> 00:28:42,254 ♪ ♪ 547 00:28:42,387 --> 00:28:44,790 What I understand happens 548 00:28:44,923 --> 00:28:46,425 if you don't eat for a long time 549 00:28:46,558 --> 00:28:49,428 is the body stops producing acid or bile 550 00:28:49,561 --> 00:28:51,163 because there's nothing to digest. 551 00:28:51,296 --> 00:28:53,098 And if it produces bile with nothing there 552 00:28:53,232 --> 00:28:54,433 for it to break down, 553 00:28:54,566 --> 00:28:55,934 it starts breaking down the stomach lining. 554 00:28:56,034 --> 00:28:57,069 ♪ ♪ 555 00:28:57,202 --> 00:28:59,671 Nothing in the snares today. 556 00:28:59,805 --> 00:29:02,674 And I really, really don't want that to happen. 557 00:29:02,808 --> 00:29:06,745 ♪ ♪ 558 00:29:06,878 --> 00:29:08,447 [burps] 559 00:29:08,580 --> 00:29:11,817 I'm getting some stomach cramping right now. 560 00:29:11,950 --> 00:29:14,820 ♪ ♪ 561 00:29:14,953 --> 00:29:16,555 It just sucks. 562 00:29:16,688 --> 00:29:23,695 ♪ ♪ 563 00:29:27,899 --> 00:29:30,736 [dramatic music] 564 00:29:30,869 --> 00:29:34,206 ♪ ♪ 565 00:29:40,646 --> 00:29:42,614 - Got it... 566 00:29:42,748 --> 00:29:44,650 in the neck, 567 00:29:44,783 --> 00:29:46,485 through the shoulder. 568 00:29:46,618 --> 00:29:48,720 This bashed it. 569 00:29:48,854 --> 00:29:52,057 This is rungu's second kill. 570 00:29:52,190 --> 00:29:55,260 So I got one squirrel today. 571 00:29:56,695 --> 00:29:58,096 We're gonna keep on going. 572 00:29:58,230 --> 00:30:00,766 [tense music] 573 00:30:00,899 --> 00:30:04,936 I'm really focusing on land animals right now. 574 00:30:05,070 --> 00:30:07,572 The animals out here are very active. 575 00:30:07,706 --> 00:30:10,108 There is a lot of life that I hear around here, 576 00:30:10,242 --> 00:30:12,711 and the forest and the land's providing. 577 00:30:12,844 --> 00:30:15,614 I feel so blessed to be here. 578 00:30:15,747 --> 00:30:18,316 [bird calling] 579 00:30:18,483 --> 00:30:19,751 Frickin' grouse. 580 00:30:23,488 --> 00:30:25,457 Heard it. 581 00:30:25,590 --> 00:30:27,459 Catch it. 582 00:30:27,592 --> 00:30:30,662 ♪ ♪ 583 00:30:30,796 --> 00:30:34,566 It's funny how some days you just feel... 584 00:30:34,700 --> 00:30:36,601 different. 585 00:30:36,735 --> 00:30:39,071 Maybe it's just seeing the sun. 586 00:30:39,204 --> 00:30:40,939 ♪ ♪ 587 00:30:41,073 --> 00:30:42,841 Maybe it's something else. 588 00:30:42,974 --> 00:30:44,910 But knowing what I know... 589 00:30:45,043 --> 00:30:46,178 ♪ ♪ 590 00:30:46,311 --> 00:30:47,979 Oh, there it is. 591 00:30:48,113 --> 00:30:51,450 Someone's looking out for me. 592 00:30:51,583 --> 00:30:53,118 I can feel it. 593 00:30:53,251 --> 00:30:54,319 [bow thwacks] 594 00:30:54,453 --> 00:30:56,321 ♪ ♪ 595 00:30:56,455 --> 00:30:58,623 Got it. Got it. 596 00:30:58,757 --> 00:31:05,630 ♪ ♪ 597 00:31:05,764 --> 00:31:07,432 Frickin' got it. 598 00:31:07,566 --> 00:31:09,101 ♪ ♪ 599 00:31:09,234 --> 00:31:11,103 The trick for these guys... [sniffs] 600 00:31:11,236 --> 00:31:13,605 Is as soon as you approach them, 601 00:31:13,739 --> 00:31:16,074 they kind of get a little jumpy. 602 00:31:16,208 --> 00:31:17,909 So you have to... 603 00:31:18,043 --> 00:31:21,446 kind of look at a 45 away from them 604 00:31:21,580 --> 00:31:22,948 as you're going. 605 00:31:23,081 --> 00:31:26,218 And then when you're ready, you have, like, a clear shot, 606 00:31:26,351 --> 00:31:28,754 you take it and anchor and everything 607 00:31:28,887 --> 00:31:31,256 and then aim and then release. 608 00:31:32,924 --> 00:31:35,160 'Cause they're kind of seeing that your face 609 00:31:35,293 --> 00:31:37,796 is, like, over there, so they think they're safe. 610 00:31:37,929 --> 00:31:39,798 Then you take it. 611 00:31:39,931 --> 00:31:41,633 I'm, like, running on a high right now. 612 00:31:41,767 --> 00:31:43,201 It's crazy. 613 00:31:43,335 --> 00:31:46,104 [exhales deeply] 614 00:31:46,238 --> 00:31:47,639 Yes! 615 00:31:47,773 --> 00:31:50,642 [dramatic music] 616 00:31:50,776 --> 00:31:57,783 ♪ ♪ 617 00:32:00,085 --> 00:32:03,789 - I'm trying a new look today. [chuckles] 618 00:32:03,922 --> 00:32:07,793 I'm just trying out my cap because... 619 00:32:07,926 --> 00:32:10,529 it's been chilly. 620 00:32:10,662 --> 00:32:13,732 It didn't frost today, but... 621 00:32:16,368 --> 00:32:19,204 But the ground looks chilly. 622 00:32:19,337 --> 00:32:23,575 I think it might start getting consistently cold soon. 623 00:32:23,708 --> 00:32:25,243 Maybe once there's some snow, 624 00:32:25,377 --> 00:32:28,914 I can see if there's some rabbit runs. 625 00:32:29,047 --> 00:32:32,784 But I guess I need to focus on fishing for now. 626 00:32:32,918 --> 00:32:35,854 There are some ripples forming. 627 00:32:35,987 --> 00:32:37,589 Those are fish biting. 628 00:32:37,722 --> 00:32:39,624 But, unfortunately, 629 00:32:39,758 --> 00:32:42,894 there's no way for me to cast that far. 630 00:32:43,028 --> 00:32:43,962 ♪ ♪ 631 00:32:44,095 --> 00:32:46,031 Probably should extend the pier. 632 00:32:46,164 --> 00:32:50,202 The thing is, how much effort do I put into it? 633 00:32:50,335 --> 00:32:53,071 [sighs] Decisions, decisions. 634 00:32:55,140 --> 00:32:57,042 [bleep] it. Let's do it. 635 00:32:57,175 --> 00:32:58,944 You only live once, eh? 636 00:32:59,077 --> 00:33:02,214 ♪ ♪ 637 00:33:02,347 --> 00:33:04,482 I really hope I don't regret this. 638 00:33:04,616 --> 00:33:08,086 ♪ ♪ 639 00:33:08,220 --> 00:33:11,823 My pier is basically two tripods 640 00:33:11,957 --> 00:33:14,092 latched together at the base. 641 00:33:14,226 --> 00:33:18,363 At the top, there's this log across to join the tripod, 642 00:33:18,496 --> 00:33:21,766 and it's not very solid, but it really is a tripod 643 00:33:21,900 --> 00:33:23,635 that provides the structural integrity. 644 00:33:23,768 --> 00:33:27,405 And then I'm lashing that pole to launch it. 645 00:33:27,539 --> 00:33:29,975 All right, this is it. 646 00:33:30,108 --> 00:33:31,843 Ready for launch. 647 00:33:31,977 --> 00:33:33,612 ♪ ♪ 648 00:33:33,745 --> 00:33:36,815 I'm okay with putting my life on the line... 649 00:33:36,948 --> 00:33:41,386 ♪ ♪ 650 00:33:41,520 --> 00:33:44,189 Because I need to win "Alone." 651 00:33:44,322 --> 00:33:45,891 All right, let's try it. 652 00:33:46,024 --> 00:33:46,892 ♪ ♪ 653 00:33:47,025 --> 00:33:48,426 As a Latino, 654 00:33:48,560 --> 00:33:51,162 I don't want to be just that person 655 00:33:51,296 --> 00:33:54,132 that you just add for diversity. 656 00:33:54,266 --> 00:33:56,234 I don't want to be a decoration. 657 00:33:56,368 --> 00:33:59,337 I want to be the first non-white that wins. 658 00:33:59,471 --> 00:34:06,478 ♪ ♪ 659 00:34:08,413 --> 00:34:09,614 Nice. 660 00:34:09,748 --> 00:34:12,417 Not very big, but it's a good one. 661 00:34:12,550 --> 00:34:14,386 And I want to make people think 662 00:34:14,519 --> 00:34:16,254 it's not where you come from, 663 00:34:16,388 --> 00:34:18,423 that if you are passionate enough, 664 00:34:18,556 --> 00:34:21,593 you can be better than anyone else. 665 00:34:21,726 --> 00:34:22,827 ♪ ♪ 666 00:34:22,961 --> 00:34:24,663 One more. 667 00:34:24,796 --> 00:34:26,631 To me, it would be amazing... 668 00:34:26,765 --> 00:34:27,866 Nice. 669 00:34:27,999 --> 00:34:29,534 To break those mental barriers 670 00:34:29,668 --> 00:34:31,970 and rock the boat a little bit. 671 00:34:32,103 --> 00:34:37,242 ♪ ♪ 672 00:34:37,375 --> 00:34:38,677 Score. 673 00:34:41,079 --> 00:34:42,781 [laughs] 674 00:34:42,914 --> 00:34:44,249 Thank you, fish. 675 00:34:44,382 --> 00:34:51,423 ♪ ♪ 676 00:35:05,670 --> 00:35:08,039 That's my meal. 677 00:35:08,173 --> 00:35:11,743 Funnily enough, I don't feel like eating, 678 00:35:11,876 --> 00:35:14,212 so I'm just gonna eat what I can. 679 00:35:14,346 --> 00:35:15,647 ♪ ♪ 680 00:35:15,780 --> 00:35:17,048 But... 681 00:35:17,182 --> 00:35:19,117 ♪ ♪ 682 00:35:19,250 --> 00:35:22,520 My stomach right now is just feeling like, pfft. 683 00:35:22,654 --> 00:35:24,255 It doesn't want food. 684 00:35:24,389 --> 00:35:29,094 ♪ ♪ 685 00:35:29,227 --> 00:35:32,430 This is such an unexpected challenge for me... 686 00:35:32,564 --> 00:35:33,665 ♪ ♪ 687 00:35:33,798 --> 00:35:35,200 Not wanting to eat. 688 00:35:35,333 --> 00:35:36,434 ♪ ♪ 689 00:35:36,568 --> 00:35:37,736 Crazy. 690 00:35:37,869 --> 00:35:42,140 ♪ ♪ 691 00:35:42,273 --> 00:35:43,475 Crazy, crazy. 692 00:35:43,608 --> 00:35:44,809 ♪ ♪ 693 00:35:44,943 --> 00:35:49,581 And I know it's weird and I should force myself. 694 00:35:49,714 --> 00:35:51,282 But at the same time, 695 00:35:51,416 --> 00:35:55,453 if I force myself and I puke, then... 696 00:35:55,587 --> 00:35:56,654 ♪ ♪ 697 00:35:56,788 --> 00:35:59,324 [burps, grunts] 698 00:35:59,457 --> 00:36:03,628 All that effort for nothing... 699 00:36:03,762 --> 00:36:05,830 wasted. 700 00:36:05,964 --> 00:36:07,632 [burps, exhales deeply] 701 00:36:07,766 --> 00:36:09,100 So I don't want to do that. 702 00:36:09,234 --> 00:36:10,568 ♪ ♪ 703 00:36:10,702 --> 00:36:13,638 The fact that my body just doesn't want to eat, 704 00:36:13,772 --> 00:36:15,707 that is a problem. 705 00:36:15,840 --> 00:36:17,909 I do not want to get sick. 706 00:36:18,043 --> 00:36:20,211 I don't want to get to that point where I puke, 707 00:36:20,345 --> 00:36:24,049 because that can be extremely harsh on your body 708 00:36:24,182 --> 00:36:26,084 and can bring you down. 709 00:36:26,217 --> 00:36:27,986 ♪ ♪ 710 00:36:28,119 --> 00:36:29,721 Ay, ay, ay. 711 00:36:29,854 --> 00:36:32,891 What the heck is going on? 712 00:36:37,729 --> 00:36:40,598 [creepy music] 713 00:36:40,732 --> 00:36:44,035 ♪ ♪ 714 00:36:53,745 --> 00:36:55,747 [knock at door] 715 00:36:55,880 --> 00:36:58,616 - A knock at the door? Out here? 716 00:36:58,750 --> 00:37:00,185 Who could that be? 717 00:37:06,224 --> 00:37:08,393 Trick or treat. 718 00:37:08,526 --> 00:37:09,594 Oh, a trick-or-treater. 719 00:37:09,728 --> 00:37:13,131 Wow, you look so cute. 720 00:37:13,264 --> 00:37:15,333 What are you, a little ptarmigan? 721 00:37:15,467 --> 00:37:16,968 I'm a grouse. 722 00:37:17,102 --> 00:37:18,870 Oh, a grouse. 723 00:37:19,003 --> 00:37:22,774 [laughs] I can never tell the two apart. 724 00:37:22,907 --> 00:37:25,910 Man, I don't have any candy. 725 00:37:26,044 --> 00:37:27,879 How about some berries? 726 00:37:28,012 --> 00:37:29,948 Berries? 727 00:37:30,081 --> 00:37:34,219 You know how far I had to walk to get here? 728 00:37:34,352 --> 00:37:37,122 All the last guy had was bear meat. 729 00:37:37,255 --> 00:37:39,124 Someone's got bear meat? 730 00:37:39,257 --> 00:37:40,125 Damn it. 731 00:37:40,258 --> 00:37:42,293 Man, I'll tell you what. 732 00:37:42,427 --> 00:37:44,596 You're gonna be getting egged tonight, 733 00:37:44,729 --> 00:37:47,065 that's for sure. 734 00:37:47,198 --> 00:37:48,233 You got eggs? 735 00:37:48,366 --> 00:37:50,068 Wait. You got eggs? 736 00:37:50,201 --> 00:37:52,370 No, no, no, no, no. Come on in, buddy. 737 00:37:52,504 --> 00:37:53,838 Oh, man. 738 00:37:53,972 --> 00:37:56,307 I haven't had eggs in a month and a half. 739 00:37:56,441 --> 00:37:59,878 [dramatic music] 740 00:38:00,011 --> 00:38:03,381 Does this whole thing... 741 00:38:03,515 --> 00:38:06,351 make me seem totally insane? 742 00:38:06,484 --> 00:38:08,586 ♪ ♪ 743 00:38:08,720 --> 00:38:10,021 Probably, eh? 744 00:38:10,155 --> 00:38:11,089 ♪ ♪ 745 00:38:11,222 --> 00:38:14,159 And stitch all that together for me, 746 00:38:14,292 --> 00:38:16,094 you got yourself an Emmy. 747 00:38:16,227 --> 00:38:17,395 ♪ ♪ 748 00:38:17,529 --> 00:38:19,831 Happy Halloween, y'all. 749 00:38:19,964 --> 00:38:26,804 ♪ ♪ 750 00:38:26,938 --> 00:38:29,374 - Happy Halloween! 751 00:38:29,507 --> 00:38:32,210 Yes, I'm Muskrat Suzie. 752 00:38:32,343 --> 00:38:33,912 ♪ ♪ 753 00:38:34,045 --> 00:38:35,947 I'm going to celebrate Halloween 754 00:38:36,080 --> 00:38:37,916 by honoring the animal 755 00:38:38,049 --> 00:38:40,351 that I just fell in love with 756 00:38:40,485 --> 00:38:42,654 and just recently ate 757 00:38:42,787 --> 00:38:45,023 and just have some fun with it. 758 00:38:45,156 --> 00:38:46,691 Oh, yeah. 759 00:38:46,824 --> 00:38:47,926 Oh. 760 00:38:55,500 --> 00:38:57,836 [laughs] 761 00:38:57,969 --> 00:38:59,037 Oh. 762 00:39:01,940 --> 00:39:03,875 [laughs] 763 00:39:04,008 --> 00:39:05,009 Oh! 764 00:39:06,411 --> 00:39:07,445 That was painful. 765 00:39:07,579 --> 00:39:09,781 [laughs] Happy Halloween! 766 00:39:09,914 --> 00:39:11,182 Oh, my glasses are crooked. 767 00:39:11,316 --> 00:39:12,217 There. 768 00:39:12,383 --> 00:39:13,518 There we go. 769 00:39:13,651 --> 00:39:15,587 [laughs] 770 00:39:17,989 --> 00:39:20,258 [wind whistling] 771 00:39:20,391 --> 00:39:23,261 [dramatic music] 772 00:39:23,394 --> 00:39:26,831 ♪ ♪ 773 00:39:26,965 --> 00:39:30,368 - This is definitely a Halloween to remember. 774 00:39:30,501 --> 00:39:33,771 Today is also Samhain, 775 00:39:33,905 --> 00:39:37,175 and that's when the lines 776 00:39:37,308 --> 00:39:40,211 between the living and the dead 777 00:39:40,345 --> 00:39:42,013 get a little thinner. 778 00:39:42,146 --> 00:39:44,916 And it'd be a good time 779 00:39:45,049 --> 00:39:48,019 to reach out to... 780 00:39:48,152 --> 00:39:51,956 people beyond the grave, loved ones, ancestors. 781 00:39:52,090 --> 00:39:56,160 Upon our launch, we were given this. 782 00:39:57,362 --> 00:40:01,266 It's kind of like a ceremonial fungus thing 783 00:40:01,399 --> 00:40:04,569 that traditionally is used to smudge. 784 00:40:04,702 --> 00:40:07,071 I wanted to save this for Samhain 785 00:40:07,205 --> 00:40:09,974 so I can say thank you to the ancestors, 786 00:40:10,108 --> 00:40:11,676 to the spirits of the forest, 787 00:40:11,809 --> 00:40:14,078 and my grandfather. 788 00:40:14,212 --> 00:40:15,280 All right. [sniffs] 789 00:40:15,413 --> 00:40:17,482 Just gonna put this on this flat rock... 790 00:40:17,615 --> 00:40:19,617 ♪ ♪ 791 00:40:19,751 --> 00:40:21,552 And let it fill the room. 792 00:40:21,686 --> 00:40:24,255 ♪ ♪ 793 00:40:24,389 --> 00:40:25,256 Mmm. 794 00:40:25,390 --> 00:40:27,125 That's pleasant. 795 00:40:27,258 --> 00:40:28,660 ♪ ♪ 796 00:40:28,793 --> 00:40:32,163 Ancestors, guardians... 797 00:40:32,297 --> 00:40:34,999 loved ones from beyond... 798 00:40:35,133 --> 00:40:38,002 ♪ ♪ 799 00:40:38,136 --> 00:40:39,637 This is for you. 800 00:40:39,771 --> 00:40:44,742 ♪ ♪ 801 00:40:44,876 --> 00:40:46,077 [sniffs] 802 00:40:46,210 --> 00:40:47,912 Before my mom had me, 803 00:40:48,046 --> 00:40:51,316 she was in a previous marriage 804 00:40:51,449 --> 00:40:55,186 with a man who... 805 00:40:55,320 --> 00:40:57,121 I have his last name. 806 00:40:57,255 --> 00:41:00,625 And his father, my grandfather, 807 00:41:00,758 --> 00:41:02,460 they both live in Singapore. 808 00:41:02,593 --> 00:41:04,796 I can't visit often, 809 00:41:04,929 --> 00:41:08,633 especially when I was in medical school. 810 00:41:08,766 --> 00:41:13,504 My grandfather, he fell forward from a seat, 811 00:41:13,638 --> 00:41:17,308 and it's kind of like a whiplash type of a deal. 812 00:41:17,442 --> 00:41:22,146 And there's little blood vessels in your head, 813 00:41:22,280 --> 00:41:24,716 and those rip, and those bleed, 814 00:41:24,849 --> 00:41:26,818 and that causes more pressure in the brain, 815 00:41:26,951 --> 00:41:28,653 and you lose consciousness, 816 00:41:28,786 --> 00:41:32,657 and you can slowly or quickly pass away. 817 00:41:32,790 --> 00:41:34,192 ♪ ♪ 818 00:41:34,325 --> 00:41:36,494 And that's what happened. 819 00:41:36,627 --> 00:41:39,163 But in his lucid state, 820 00:41:39,297 --> 00:41:41,599 he still knew me. 821 00:41:41,733 --> 00:41:44,902 That's how important I was to him, 822 00:41:45,036 --> 00:41:48,573 even though I wasn't present for most of my life 823 00:41:48,706 --> 00:41:51,075 because I was so far away. 824 00:41:51,209 --> 00:41:54,545 And I just wanted to reach out to him... 825 00:41:54,679 --> 00:41:57,248 to let him know that I'm grateful, 826 00:41:57,382 --> 00:41:59,283 that I love him very much... 827 00:41:59,417 --> 00:42:06,290 ♪ ♪ 828 00:42:06,424 --> 00:42:09,627 That I feel his strength and his presence 829 00:42:09,761 --> 00:42:11,629 in all the good things that I do. 830 00:42:11,763 --> 00:42:13,664 ♪ ♪ 831 00:42:13,798 --> 00:42:15,299 And I'm trying my best 832 00:42:15,433 --> 00:42:17,935 to be an instrument of good in the world. 833 00:42:18,069 --> 00:42:20,204 ♪ ♪ 834 00:42:20,338 --> 00:42:22,607 So I thank you for... 835 00:42:22,740 --> 00:42:24,108 ♪ ♪ 836 00:42:24,242 --> 00:42:26,110 Considering me family... 837 00:42:26,244 --> 00:42:28,212 ♪ ♪ 838 00:42:28,346 --> 00:42:30,448 [voice breaking] Considering me your grandson. 839 00:42:30,581 --> 00:42:36,320 ♪ ♪ 840 00:42:36,454 --> 00:42:38,156 That's why I keep the name. 841 00:42:38,289 --> 00:42:41,225 ♪ ♪ 842 00:42:45,430 --> 00:42:52,403 ♪ ♪ 843 00:42:55,873 --> 00:42:57,708 [Jessie groans] 844 00:42:57,842 --> 00:43:00,378 [burping] 845 00:43:00,511 --> 00:43:05,883 ♪ ♪ 846 00:43:08,753 --> 00:43:11,589 I never make a good sick person. 847 00:43:15,293 --> 00:43:17,595 I hate being sick. 848 00:43:21,399 --> 00:43:24,402 Want some cheese to go with that whine? 849 00:43:27,071 --> 00:43:29,640 Want your milk and cookies? 850 00:43:29,774 --> 00:43:31,242 Yes, please. 851 00:43:35,346 --> 00:43:38,816 No milk, though-- I'm lactose intolerant-- 852 00:43:38,950 --> 00:43:41,919 unless it's coconut milk or almond milk. 853 00:43:42,053 --> 00:43:44,555 Oat milk-- I really like oat milk. 854 00:44:04,542 --> 00:44:07,245 I don't feel like I want to throw up the water, 855 00:44:07,378 --> 00:44:08,746 but... 856 00:44:08,880 --> 00:44:12,250 I definitely still feel nauseous. 857 00:44:12,383 --> 00:44:15,920 I definitely have no interest in drinking more water. 858 00:44:47,385 --> 00:44:49,253 [spits] 859 00:44:49,387 --> 00:44:51,756 ♪ ♪ 860 00:44:51,889 --> 00:44:52,924 Yeah. 861 00:44:53,057 --> 00:44:54,926 ♪ ♪ 862 00:44:55,059 --> 00:44:56,727 That's not good. 863 00:45:01,132 --> 00:45:03,968 [dramatic music] 864 00:45:04,101 --> 00:45:06,103 ♪ ♪ 865 00:45:13,911 --> 00:45:16,581 ♪ ♪ 866 00:45:16,714 --> 00:45:19,584 [groans] 867 00:45:19,717 --> 00:45:21,485 I don't throw up much. 868 00:45:21,619 --> 00:45:23,287 I rarely have thrown up in my life, 869 00:45:23,421 --> 00:45:25,323 so this is really disconcerting 870 00:45:25,456 --> 00:45:27,758 and alarming to me right now. 871 00:45:27,892 --> 00:45:30,661 I guess somewhere along the line, I made a mistake. 872 00:45:30,795 --> 00:45:34,432 ♪ ♪ 873 00:45:34,565 --> 00:45:36,434 I've been drinking water I shouldn't, 874 00:45:36,567 --> 00:45:38,970 or just have a lot of acid in my system 875 00:45:39,103 --> 00:45:40,805 because I'm not eating. 876 00:45:40,938 --> 00:45:47,945 ♪ ♪ 877 00:45:50,147 --> 00:45:54,685 This time, maybe eat some charcoal beforehand. 878 00:45:54,819 --> 00:45:57,688 I'll use a little bit to make a slurry, 879 00:45:57,822 --> 00:45:59,290 see if it'll help absorb 880 00:45:59,423 --> 00:46:01,826 whatever's going on in my stomach. 881 00:46:01,959 --> 00:46:04,128 Drink that first 882 00:46:04,262 --> 00:46:07,465 and then try drinking the water. 883 00:46:07,598 --> 00:46:09,133 [exhales deeply] 884 00:46:09,266 --> 00:46:11,268 ♪ ♪ 885 00:46:11,402 --> 00:46:13,270 Eating a gritty mud. 886 00:46:13,404 --> 00:46:20,411 ♪ ♪ 887 00:46:28,452 --> 00:46:30,988 [exhales deeply] 888 00:46:31,122 --> 00:46:34,325 Hopefully my body was able to absorb some of that. 889 00:46:34,458 --> 00:46:36,694 ♪ ♪ 890 00:46:36,827 --> 00:46:38,329 I feel better... [scoffs] 891 00:46:38,462 --> 00:46:39,830 ♪ ♪ 892 00:46:39,964 --> 00:46:42,667 Not fantastic, but I feel better. 893 00:46:42,800 --> 00:46:45,336 ♪ ♪ 894 00:46:45,469 --> 00:46:50,174 I need to have faith, and I need to... 895 00:46:50,308 --> 00:46:55,146 remember that even when the odds seem impossible, 896 00:46:55,279 --> 00:46:57,715 ♪ ♪ 897 00:46:57,848 --> 00:46:59,784 I just need to have faith that... 898 00:46:59,917 --> 00:47:01,552 ♪ ♪ 899 00:47:01,686 --> 00:47:03,120 It'll get better. 900 00:47:03,254 --> 00:47:04,955 ♪ ♪ 901 00:47:05,089 --> 00:47:09,160 I come from a line of women that have just been so strong 902 00:47:09,293 --> 00:47:11,295 and have been through so much. 903 00:47:11,429 --> 00:47:12,963 I need to use that. 904 00:47:13,097 --> 00:47:16,667 I just got to push through the suffering, 905 00:47:16,801 --> 00:47:19,537 and eventually it'll be okay. 906 00:47:19,670 --> 00:47:21,739 I'm not out of the game yet. 907 00:47:23,307 --> 00:47:30,314 ♪ ♪ 908 00:47:41,292 --> 00:47:46,030 - I have been feeling extremely homesick. 909 00:47:46,163 --> 00:47:48,332 ♪ ♪ 910 00:47:48,466 --> 00:47:51,769 I've never felt anything like this before. 911 00:47:55,272 --> 00:47:57,475 It's, like, gripped me. 912 00:47:58,776 --> 00:48:02,847 It's a cruel thing doing this through the holidays. 913 00:48:07,651 --> 00:48:09,587 I miss all my people. 914 00:48:09,720 --> 00:48:12,356 ♪ ♪ 915 00:48:12,490 --> 00:48:16,360 Staying busy--that's the strategy going forward. 916 00:48:16,494 --> 00:48:19,196 So we're gonna head out as far inland as we can 917 00:48:19,330 --> 00:48:21,832 in the next couple of hours, see what we find. 918 00:48:21,966 --> 00:48:24,769 ♪ ♪ 919 00:48:24,902 --> 00:48:26,837 This morning was the first time 920 00:48:26,971 --> 00:48:28,773 I felt like tapping out, 921 00:48:28,906 --> 00:48:30,241 because the simple fact of the matter 922 00:48:30,374 --> 00:48:32,977 is that I can go home whenever I want to, 923 00:48:33,110 --> 00:48:37,314 but that's an evil little worm in my subconscious. 924 00:48:37,448 --> 00:48:41,552 And that worm doesn't belong there. 925 00:48:41,685 --> 00:48:46,557 ♪ ♪ 926 00:48:46,690 --> 00:48:49,226 Well, I'll be damned. 927 00:48:49,360 --> 00:48:51,362 [chuckles] 928 00:48:52,530 --> 00:48:54,498 This is a new river. 929 00:48:54,632 --> 00:48:57,001 This is a whole other stream... 930 00:49:02,440 --> 00:49:05,376 Rife with possibilities. 931 00:49:05,509 --> 00:49:06,977 There's beaver in the area. 932 00:49:07,111 --> 00:49:09,413 The fish could be biting here. 933 00:49:09,547 --> 00:49:12,650 Oh, I wish I'd found this sooner. 934 00:49:12,783 --> 00:49:13,851 Oh, man. 935 00:49:13,984 --> 00:49:15,853 [clears throat] 936 00:49:15,986 --> 00:49:18,622 We have it now. 937 00:49:18,756 --> 00:49:20,858 Cool. Let's keep going. 938 00:49:20,991 --> 00:49:22,693 ♪ ♪ 939 00:49:22,827 --> 00:49:26,130 I need to really discipline my mind against despondency 940 00:49:26,263 --> 00:49:27,431 or loneliness. 941 00:49:27,565 --> 00:49:34,138 ♪ ♪ 942 00:49:35,339 --> 00:49:37,908 This is the way that people have lived 943 00:49:38,042 --> 00:49:40,644 for hundreds of thousands of years, 944 00:49:40,778 --> 00:49:42,046 and... 945 00:49:42,179 --> 00:49:44,482 Got to stay strong mentally. 946 00:49:47,284 --> 00:49:49,220 Oh, [bleep]. 947 00:49:49,353 --> 00:49:51,689 That's the first hare I've seen. 948 00:49:53,824 --> 00:49:57,228 Be "vewy, vewy" quiet. 949 00:49:57,361 --> 00:50:00,264 We're hunting "wabbits." [laughs] 950 00:50:00,397 --> 00:50:07,371 ♪ ♪ 951 00:50:14,044 --> 00:50:16,046 [arrow thwacks] 952 00:50:20,684 --> 00:50:23,554 [dramatic music] 953 00:50:23,687 --> 00:50:27,024 ♪ ♪ 954 00:50:31,495 --> 00:50:32,863 Oh, [bleep]. 955 00:50:32,997 --> 00:50:34,765 That's the first hare I've seen. 956 00:50:34,899 --> 00:50:37,735 ♪ ♪ 957 00:50:37,868 --> 00:50:39,904 [arrow thwacks] 958 00:50:40,037 --> 00:50:41,538 Hell, yeah, brother. 959 00:50:41,672 --> 00:50:45,109 [breathing heavily] 960 00:50:48,078 --> 00:50:50,915 Look at the size of this guy. 961 00:50:51,048 --> 00:50:54,351 That is a huge hare. 962 00:50:54,485 --> 00:50:58,088 And he was maybe 20 yards out, and I took a shot, 963 00:50:58,222 --> 00:51:00,024 and it was the perfect hit. 964 00:51:01,692 --> 00:51:04,128 That's a lot of meat. 965 00:51:04,261 --> 00:51:05,863 That's a lot of meat. 966 00:51:08,766 --> 00:51:10,401 Rabbit stew. 967 00:51:10,534 --> 00:51:12,870 I didn't know I was gonna be getting that here. 968 00:51:13,003 --> 00:51:20,010 ♪ ♪ 969 00:51:29,720 --> 00:51:32,723 Piece of backstrap in there... 970 00:51:36,727 --> 00:51:39,063 And one these thighs. 971 00:51:41,231 --> 00:51:43,934 I miss my family a lot, 972 00:51:44,034 --> 00:51:46,971 and that's not a healthy mindset 973 00:51:47,104 --> 00:51:49,073 for an experience like this. 974 00:51:49,206 --> 00:51:51,408 ♪ ♪ 975 00:51:51,542 --> 00:51:53,911 Piece of squirrel head. 976 00:51:54,044 --> 00:51:56,180 That's why I try and practice gratitude 977 00:51:56,313 --> 00:51:59,516 for every single day that I'm here, you know? 978 00:51:59,650 --> 00:52:01,218 I want something to remind myself 979 00:52:01,352 --> 00:52:03,554 of the opportunity I have to be here. 980 00:52:03,687 --> 00:52:07,324 ♪ ♪ 981 00:52:07,458 --> 00:52:10,260 How do we win this sucker? 982 00:52:10,394 --> 00:52:12,896 In a tightrope walk, you know? 983 00:52:13,030 --> 00:52:14,231 ♪ ♪ 984 00:52:14,365 --> 00:52:16,734 Every day is a balancing act. 985 00:52:16,867 --> 00:52:19,703 Some days will come out negative. 986 00:52:19,837 --> 00:52:21,705 Some days will come out positive. 987 00:52:21,839 --> 00:52:23,707 ♪ ♪ 988 00:52:23,841 --> 00:52:26,710 Just got to have a couple more positives than negatives. 989 00:52:26,844 --> 00:52:29,680 ♪ ♪ 990 00:52:29,813 --> 00:52:33,017 Now we're getting into some real "Alone" [bleep]. 991 00:52:37,654 --> 00:52:39,156 Mmm. 992 00:52:42,359 --> 00:52:45,229 This is my first-ever wild hare. 993 00:52:53,604 --> 00:52:56,473 It tastes amazing. [chuckles] 994 00:52:58,142 --> 00:53:00,310 And this is... 995 00:53:01,645 --> 00:53:03,514 Mmm. 996 00:53:03,647 --> 00:53:05,649 All organ meat. 997 00:53:11,522 --> 00:53:14,725 And that's a chunk of liver. 998 00:53:14,858 --> 00:53:17,728 Today was a caloric gamble 999 00:53:17,861 --> 00:53:21,398 that really paid off. 1000 00:53:21,532 --> 00:53:26,203 It's a long way to get back into that backstretch, 1001 00:53:26,336 --> 00:53:29,706 but this has been one of the most eventful days 1002 00:53:29,840 --> 00:53:31,809 I've had out here. 1003 00:53:31,942 --> 00:53:35,479 If there's other animals there, bigger animals, 1004 00:53:35,612 --> 00:53:38,515 animals that I can really... 1005 00:53:40,050 --> 00:53:42,086 You know... 1006 00:53:42,219 --> 00:53:45,722 shoot once and be good for a couple of days, 1007 00:53:45,856 --> 00:53:47,724 that is... 1008 00:53:50,060 --> 00:53:52,362 Potentially massive. 1009 00:53:52,496 --> 00:53:55,232 I'm gonna to be spoiled by this. 1010 00:53:57,134 --> 00:53:59,002 Spoiled. 1011 00:53:59,136 --> 00:54:00,804 I want another one. 1012 00:54:02,339 --> 00:54:09,346 ♪ ♪ 1013 00:54:18,689 --> 00:54:20,991 - My stomach's pretty upset again. 1014 00:54:21,125 --> 00:54:22,126 I think it's just-- 1015 00:54:22,259 --> 00:54:24,094 I think it's actually just acid reflux. 1016 00:54:24,228 --> 00:54:27,631 It's just my stomach producing a lot of acid, 1017 00:54:27,764 --> 00:54:31,101 and there's nothing in there for it to digest. 1018 00:54:31,235 --> 00:54:33,504 It's not a fun feeling, for sure. 1019 00:54:35,839 --> 00:54:39,543 So I picked out some charcoal before I started the fire... 1020 00:54:39,676 --> 00:54:41,478 from last night, 1021 00:54:41,612 --> 00:54:45,048 and I'll eat some of that this evening. 1022 00:54:45,182 --> 00:54:48,418 ♪ ♪ 1023 00:54:48,552 --> 00:54:51,755 All right, here's the ground charcoal. 1024 00:54:51,889 --> 00:54:53,423 ♪ ♪ 1025 00:54:53,557 --> 00:54:55,559 Out here you can't just run down 1026 00:54:55,692 --> 00:54:57,928 to your local pharmacy or something 1027 00:54:58,061 --> 00:55:00,197 and grab whatever it is you need. 1028 00:55:00,330 --> 00:55:02,466 And I'm not an herbalist. 1029 00:55:02,599 --> 00:55:04,701 The only things I know for stomach issues 1030 00:55:04,835 --> 00:55:06,436 are things like charcoal. 1031 00:55:06,570 --> 00:55:08,472 Oh, just come on. 1032 00:55:10,140 --> 00:55:12,142 I got to get this down. 1033 00:55:17,247 --> 00:55:24,288 ♪ ♪ 1034 00:55:29,193 --> 00:55:31,061 [spits] 1035 00:55:31,195 --> 00:55:34,398 ♪ ♪ 1036 00:55:34,531 --> 00:55:37,367 [vomits, spits] 1037 00:55:37,501 --> 00:55:42,372 ♪ ♪ 1038 00:55:42,506 --> 00:55:45,375 [vomits, spits] 1039 00:55:45,509 --> 00:55:50,714 ♪ ♪ 1040 00:55:50,848 --> 00:55:55,252 [vomiting] 1041 00:55:55,385 --> 00:55:57,254 [spits] 1042 00:55:57,387 --> 00:56:00,958 ♪ ♪ 1043 00:56:01,091 --> 00:56:04,328 [groaning] 1044 00:56:08,999 --> 00:56:11,635 [spits] 1045 00:56:11,768 --> 00:56:14,438 I'm gonna go to bed. 1046 00:56:14,571 --> 00:56:17,341 [burping] 1047 00:56:17,474 --> 00:56:18,609 Hoo. 1048 00:56:18,742 --> 00:56:25,148 ♪ ♪ 1049 00:56:25,282 --> 00:56:27,551 So I just woke up and... 1050 00:56:27,684 --> 00:56:30,220 ♪ ♪ 1051 00:56:30,354 --> 00:56:32,723 Vomited for the third time tonight. 1052 00:56:32,856 --> 00:56:35,892 [clears throat] 1053 00:56:36,026 --> 00:56:38,061 Throat's feeling pretty raw. 1054 00:56:38,195 --> 00:56:41,465 ♪ ♪ 1055 00:56:41,598 --> 00:56:44,334 This last time it was water again. 1056 00:56:44,468 --> 00:56:47,938 I'm getting a pretty good headache, 1057 00:56:48,071 --> 00:56:49,706 I'm sure, from dehydration. 1058 00:56:49,840 --> 00:56:51,008 ♪ ♪ 1059 00:56:51,141 --> 00:56:53,543 I don't know. We'll see how much... 1060 00:56:53,677 --> 00:56:55,312 ♪ ♪ 1061 00:56:55,445 --> 00:56:57,147 how much water I'm able to keep down, 1062 00:56:57,281 --> 00:56:59,149 if I can stay hydrated enough. 1063 00:56:59,283 --> 00:57:02,853 ♪ ♪ 1064 00:57:02,986 --> 00:57:06,189 I'm still hoping I'll reach a point where this will pass. 1065 00:57:06,323 --> 00:57:09,459 ♪ ♪ 1066 00:57:09,593 --> 00:57:10,794 I've got to get down water. 1067 00:57:10,928 --> 00:57:12,629 If I don't keep down water at this point 1068 00:57:12,763 --> 00:57:14,564 and start getting really badly dehydrated, 1069 00:57:14,698 --> 00:57:16,366 there's no way I can stay out. 1070 00:57:16,500 --> 00:57:17,834 ♪ ♪ 1071 00:57:17,968 --> 00:57:19,670 They're gonna medically pull me. 1072 00:57:19,803 --> 00:57:21,838 I will not hit the button. 1073 00:57:21,972 --> 00:57:25,442 ♪ ♪ 1074 00:57:25,575 --> 00:57:27,844 I will not... 1075 00:57:27,978 --> 00:57:30,847 hit the button, ever. 1076 00:57:30,981 --> 00:57:33,850 [burps, vomits] 1077 00:57:33,984 --> 00:57:36,353 How many days can this go on? 1078 00:57:41,058 --> 00:57:43,927 [dramatic music] 1079 00:57:44,061 --> 00:57:47,397 ♪ ♪ 1080 00:58:17,227 --> 00:58:19,796 - [breathing heavily] 1081 00:58:19,930 --> 00:58:23,834 ♪ ♪ 1082 00:58:23,967 --> 00:58:25,469 Jessie? 1083 00:58:25,602 --> 00:58:32,609 ♪ ♪ 1084 00:58:36,313 --> 00:58:37,647 - I'm okay. 1085 00:58:37,781 --> 00:58:40,250 But if I get up and do anything, 1086 00:58:40,384 --> 00:58:43,954 then the odds of me throwing up are way high. 1087 00:58:44,087 --> 00:58:45,155 - Okay. 1088 00:58:48,492 --> 00:58:50,994 And how many times have you thrown up? 1089 00:58:54,431 --> 00:58:55,799 - Nine or ten. 1090 00:58:55,932 --> 00:58:59,770 - And are you able to drink any water at this point? 1091 00:58:59,903 --> 00:59:01,905 - I drink it. 1092 00:59:04,007 --> 00:59:06,276 It just usually doesn't stay down. 1093 00:59:06,410 --> 00:59:11,782 ♪ ♪ 1094 00:59:11,915 --> 00:59:13,283 I'm bad right now. 1095 00:59:13,417 --> 00:59:14,684 It makes me want to vomit 1096 00:59:14,818 --> 00:59:16,553 every time I try to even take a sip of water, 1097 00:59:16,686 --> 00:59:17,954 and it just keeps getting worse. 1098 00:59:18,088 --> 00:59:19,990 So it's probably a pipe dream 1099 00:59:20,123 --> 00:59:22,492 that I'm gonna be able to make it better out here. 1100 00:59:22,626 --> 00:59:25,062 But I didn't come out here to just quit. 1101 00:59:25,195 --> 00:59:26,596 It's not why I came. 1102 00:59:26,730 --> 00:59:28,131 I've watched people quit at something, 1103 00:59:28,265 --> 00:59:31,001 and they regret it for the rest of their life. 1104 00:59:31,134 --> 00:59:33,303 And not only that, but then it makes it easier 1105 00:59:33,437 --> 00:59:34,805 to quit at the next thing. 1106 00:59:34,938 --> 00:59:38,074 ♪ ♪ 1107 00:59:38,208 --> 00:59:40,444 I never want to go down that road. 1108 00:59:40,577 --> 00:59:43,146 I want to be able to look at myself and who I am 1109 00:59:43,280 --> 00:59:47,884 and say I did my absolute best at whatever I'm doing. 1110 00:59:48,018 --> 00:59:49,986 ♪ ♪ 1111 00:59:50,120 --> 00:59:52,689 So I am not leaving unless they pull me out of here. 1112 00:59:52,823 --> 00:59:55,959 ♪ ♪ 1113 00:59:56,092 --> 00:59:58,295 - Hey, Jessie. 1114 00:59:58,428 --> 01:00:00,797 Our concerns right now are that you have 1115 01:00:00,931 --> 01:00:03,967 a pretty severe inflammation of your stomach lining, 1116 01:00:04,067 --> 01:00:06,102 which, if that's left untreated, 1117 01:00:06,236 --> 01:00:09,439 could lead to bleeding or a hole in your stomach, 1118 01:00:09,573 --> 01:00:11,808 both of which can be life-threatening. 1119 01:00:11,942 --> 01:00:14,945 It doesn't feel like you are able to take care of yourself 1120 01:00:15,078 --> 01:00:16,213 at this point. 1121 01:00:16,346 --> 01:00:18,348 It's not safe for you to remain. 1122 01:00:18,482 --> 01:00:20,617 I have to medically extract you. 1123 01:00:36,967 --> 01:00:40,303 - Definitely not how I envisioned this ending. 1124 01:00:40,437 --> 01:00:47,444 ♪ ♪ 1125 01:00:48,778 --> 01:00:52,048 To end like this, this wasn't what I anticipated. 1126 01:00:52,182 --> 01:00:54,150 This isn't how I saw it going down. 1127 01:00:54,284 --> 01:00:56,119 ♪ ♪ 1128 01:00:56,253 --> 01:00:58,722 I got so enmeshed in Hodgepodge, 1129 01:00:58,855 --> 01:01:02,425 and this showed that, that I was still in that ego place 1130 01:01:02,559 --> 01:01:04,661 where I can work, I can be strong, 1131 01:01:04,794 --> 01:01:06,830 and just going with the nose to the grindstone, 1132 01:01:06,963 --> 01:01:08,565 I can make it through. 1133 01:01:08,698 --> 01:01:11,835 But I believe if I'd taken the other path, 1134 01:01:11,968 --> 01:01:14,437 if I had connected more with the moment 1135 01:01:14,571 --> 01:01:16,273 while I was out there, 1136 01:01:16,406 --> 01:01:19,109 my sense is, I actually would have done a lot better. 1137 01:01:19,242 --> 01:01:20,610 ♪ ♪ 1138 01:01:20,744 --> 01:01:22,946 I want to connect with spirit, 1139 01:01:23,079 --> 01:01:25,782 and I want to be able to smile and laugh 1140 01:01:25,916 --> 01:01:29,152 and authentically just be me. 1141 01:01:29,286 --> 01:01:32,289 And that can't happen if I've... 1142 01:01:32,422 --> 01:01:33,924 got the nose to the grindstone 1143 01:01:34,057 --> 01:01:36,660 and I'm just buckling down and trying to get the job done. 1144 01:01:36,793 --> 01:01:38,762 ♪ ♪ 1145 01:01:38,895 --> 01:01:41,665 So I need to step back... 1146 01:01:41,798 --> 01:01:44,634 spend more time on my own spiritual growth 1147 01:01:44,768 --> 01:01:46,336 and not working quite so hard. 1148 01:01:46,469 --> 01:01:48,972 ♪ ♪ 1149 01:01:49,105 --> 01:01:52,642 I mean, what's the point of life if we're not enjoying it? 1150 01:01:52,776 --> 01:01:55,111 ♪ ♪ 1151 01:01:55,245 --> 01:01:58,014 - Oh, [bleep], [bleep], [bleep]. 1152 01:01:58,148 --> 01:01:59,649 I'm so tired of bushwhacking. 1153 01:01:59,783 --> 01:02:03,153 There is some ankle-breaking [bleep] in this forest. 1154 01:02:03,286 --> 01:02:05,422 [screams] 1155 01:02:05,555 --> 01:02:06,790 [bleep]. 1156 01:02:06,923 --> 01:02:09,726 - My fishing pole is gonna become a walking stick. 1157 01:02:09,859 --> 01:02:13,330 The river is frozen over. I think fishing's out. 1158 01:02:13,463 --> 01:02:15,465 - See how thick that ice is. 1159 01:02:15,599 --> 01:02:17,234 ♪ ♪ 1160 01:02:17,367 --> 01:02:20,437 - If you're in it to really test your boundaries, 1161 01:02:20,570 --> 01:02:21,771 you might not come back the same. 1162 01:02:21,905 --> 01:02:25,275 Your life as you know it is changed forever. 1163 01:02:25,408 --> 01:02:29,512 ♪ ♪ 1164 01:02:29,879 --> 01:02:32,782 ] 1165 01:02:32,882 --> 01:02:38,555 @ ♪ ♪ 1166 01:02:38,655 --> 01:02:41,891 - [bleep]. 1167 01:02:41,992 --> 01:02:45,795 [bleep]. Oh, God. 1168 01:02:45,895 --> 01:02:49,899 ♪ ♪ 1169 01:02:50,000 --> 01:02:52,802 - Tom, what happened? 1170 01:02:52,902 --> 01:02:56,573 - [sighs] I took a spill. 1171 01:02:56,673 --> 01:02:59,175 And then when I went to go get up, the knee-- 1172 01:02:59,276 --> 01:03:00,577 the knee was buggered. 1173 01:03:00,677 --> 01:03:05,181 So I think I probably knocked the kneecap on the log 1174 01:03:05,282 --> 01:03:09,552 with the full weight of my body underneath it. 1175 01:03:09,653 --> 01:03:10,887 Like, I--you know, without being 1176 01:03:10,987 --> 01:03:12,922 able to get firewood or food, 1177 01:03:13,023 --> 01:03:15,592 like, I can't hobble around like this. 1178 01:03:15,692 --> 01:03:17,961 I thought about like trying to rest up for a couple of days, 1179 01:03:18,061 --> 01:03:20,830 but I'm so low already. 1180 01:03:20,930 --> 01:03:23,800 I just--I was worried that I was going to hurt myself 1181 01:03:23,900 --> 01:03:26,703 out here, and I've got a beautiful life 1182 01:03:26,803 --> 01:03:28,972 where I do this sort of stuff all the time. 1183 01:03:29,072 --> 01:03:31,274 ♪ ♪ 1184 01:03:31,374 --> 01:03:33,043 I thought about all the spring gobbler seasons 1185 01:03:33,143 --> 01:03:35,612 and all the fall bow seasons in Virginia 1186 01:03:35,712 --> 01:03:37,414 and all the trout fishing and everything. 1187 01:03:37,514 --> 01:03:42,552 And I just didn't want to risk all that for another week 1188 01:03:42,652 --> 01:03:43,853 out here. 1189 01:03:43,953 --> 01:03:46,523 And I do have so much respect for this place. 1190 01:03:46,623 --> 01:03:48,892 It's so wild and so gorgeous. 1191 01:03:48,992 --> 01:03:52,095 I don't want to cuss my way out of this place. 1192 01:03:52,195 --> 01:03:53,330 I want to-- 1193 01:03:53,430 --> 01:03:59,369 I want to leave here feeling good about it. 1194 01:03:59,469 --> 01:04:03,506 - Well, we have a nice little treat for you. 1195 01:04:03,606 --> 01:04:05,008 - What is that? - This is... 1196 01:04:05,108 --> 01:04:06,609 - Bourbon? - First aid. 1197 01:04:06,710 --> 01:04:08,078 [laughter] 1198 01:04:08,178 --> 01:04:11,414 First thing you get to taste, and it's healthier for you 1199 01:04:11,514 --> 01:04:13,817 than bourbon. 1200 01:04:13,950 --> 01:04:15,618 ♪ ♪ 1201 01:04:15,719 --> 01:04:17,153 - That's soup. 1202 01:04:17,253 --> 01:04:20,023 ♪ ♪ 1203 01:04:20,123 --> 01:04:21,991 I could chug this right now, but I am not. 1204 01:04:22,092 --> 01:04:24,160 I just need to... 1205 01:04:24,260 --> 01:04:26,262 I am thrilled, over the moon. 1206 01:04:26,362 --> 01:04:29,599 Thank you all so much. 1207 01:04:29,699 --> 01:04:32,569 [dramatic music] 1208 01:04:32,669 --> 01:04:34,270 ♪ ♪ 1209 01:04:34,370 --> 01:04:35,705 - You know, this is something 1210 01:04:35,805 --> 01:04:38,007 that I've been conscious of since day one, 1211 01:04:38,108 --> 01:04:43,880 how you're one false step away from ending it all out here. 1212 01:04:43,980 --> 01:04:46,349 It really just stings, because I'm not done yet. 1213 01:04:46,449 --> 01:04:50,720 I've still got a ton of things I want to do and see, 1214 01:04:50,820 --> 01:04:53,656 but I'm proud of my 43 days. 1215 01:04:53,757 --> 01:04:54,858 I swung for the fences. 1216 01:04:54,958 --> 01:04:56,025 I was creative. 1217 01:04:56,126 --> 01:04:58,261 I wasn't scared to try new things, 1218 01:04:58,361 --> 01:05:00,130 and I hope that people understand 1219 01:05:00,230 --> 01:05:02,565 what this really is. 1220 01:05:02,665 --> 01:05:05,335 At the core of it all is this journey 1221 01:05:05,435 --> 01:05:08,104 and this transformation. 1222 01:05:08,204 --> 01:05:10,473 My mind is so at peace with this freedom 1223 01:05:10,573 --> 01:05:12,175 and this simple lifestyle. 1224 01:05:12,275 --> 01:05:15,645 This just took that to another level that I didn't know 1225 01:05:15,745 --> 01:05:17,013 was possible. 1226 01:05:17,113 --> 01:05:18,681 ♪ ♪ 1227 01:05:18,782 --> 01:05:21,151 My ancestors sailed with Erik the Red. 1228 01:05:21,251 --> 01:05:24,621 Like, to be on this land and wonder if, you know, 1229 01:05:24,721 --> 01:05:26,422 I'm standing in the footsteps of somebody that 1230 01:05:26,523 --> 01:05:28,691 came before me in my own bloodline 1231 01:05:28,792 --> 01:05:30,460 but also in this sacred place that 1232 01:05:30,560 --> 01:05:32,729 belongs to these other people that let me come 1233 01:05:32,829 --> 01:05:34,631 and do this, I mean, wow, man. 1234 01:05:34,731 --> 01:05:38,568 It's just been incredible. 1235 01:05:38,668 --> 01:05:40,203 ♪ ♪ 1236 01:05:40,303 --> 01:05:43,473 You know I didn't win, but, like, I've made peace with it. 1237 01:05:43,573 --> 01:05:47,110 And now I'm going home, and I feel 1238 01:05:47,210 --> 01:05:48,945 made whole by this experience. 1239 01:05:49,045 --> 01:05:52,448 ♪ ♪ 1240 01:05:56,452 --> 01:05:59,055 - Now my stomach's pretty upset again. 1241 01:05:59,155 --> 01:06:00,723 I think it's just acid reflux, 1242 01:06:00,824 --> 01:06:03,626 and there's nothing in there for it to digest. 1243 01:06:03,726 --> 01:06:05,728 It's not a fun feeling for sure. 1244 01:06:05,829 --> 01:06:09,699 ♪ ♪ 1245 01:06:09,799 --> 01:06:11,100 I've got to get down water. 1246 01:06:11,201 --> 01:06:12,635 If I don't keep down water at this point 1247 01:06:12,735 --> 01:06:14,838 and start getting really badly dehydrated, 1248 01:06:14,938 --> 01:06:16,406 there's no way I can stay out. 1249 01:06:16,506 --> 01:06:19,342 Like, they're gonna medically pull me. 1250 01:06:19,442 --> 01:06:20,343 ♪ ♪ 1251 01:06:20,443 --> 01:06:22,312 [burps] Ooh. 1252 01:06:22,412 --> 01:06:23,546 ♪ ♪ 1253 01:06:23,646 --> 01:06:25,582 How many days can this go on? 1254 01:06:25,682 --> 01:06:32,722 ♪ ♪ 1255 01:06:35,959 --> 01:06:37,360 - We haven't heard from Jessie, 1256 01:06:37,460 --> 01:06:38,494 so we're gonna head out 1257 01:06:38,595 --> 01:06:39,796 and check on her with the medic. 1258 01:06:39,896 --> 01:06:41,030 Hey, there. 1259 01:06:41,130 --> 01:06:42,398 We reached out and didn't hear from you, 1260 01:06:42,498 --> 01:06:44,000 so we got concerned. 1261 01:06:52,609 --> 01:06:54,577 - Have you been having any dizziness or weakness? 1262 01:06:57,680 --> 01:06:59,516 - And when was the last time you threw up approximately? 1263 01:07:05,655 --> 01:07:06,923 - 3:00 or 4:00 this morning? 1264 01:07:07,023 --> 01:07:08,558 Did you eat anything? 1265 01:07:08,658 --> 01:07:09,826 - Not a thing? 1266 01:07:11,661 --> 01:07:13,162 - Okay. 1267 01:07:13,263 --> 01:07:15,698 Give us a couple minutes. We'll step outside. 1268 01:07:15,798 --> 01:07:18,568 Her BP is pretty low. It's around 90. 1269 01:07:18,668 --> 01:07:21,037 She's in bad shape, yeah, yeah. 1270 01:07:21,137 --> 01:07:22,505 She hasn't eaten in ten days, 1271 01:07:22,605 --> 01:07:24,908 and she's barely consumed any water whatsoever. 1272 01:07:25,008 --> 01:07:26,409 - And what happens if she stays in? 1273 01:07:26,509 --> 01:07:27,844 - If she stays in here now, she's just gonna 1274 01:07:27,944 --> 01:07:29,579 completely dehydrate herself to the point 1275 01:07:29,679 --> 01:07:31,681 of danger, or she's gonna start to bleed 1276 01:07:31,781 --> 01:07:32,815 from her stomach... - Mm-hmm. 1277 01:07:32,916 --> 01:07:34,250 - And start vomiting blood, 1278 01:07:34,350 --> 01:07:35,485 and she will probably eventually die 1279 01:07:35,585 --> 01:07:37,053 in that shelter. - Mm. 1280 01:07:37,153 --> 01:07:41,190 ♪ ♪ 1281 01:07:41,291 --> 01:07:44,861 Hey, Jessie, it doesn't feel like you are able 1282 01:07:44,961 --> 01:07:46,896 to take care of yourself at this point. 1283 01:07:46,996 --> 01:07:49,065 It's not safe for you to remain. 1284 01:07:49,165 --> 01:07:50,800 I have to medically extract you. 1285 01:07:50,900 --> 01:07:55,805 ♪ ♪ 1286 01:07:55,905 --> 01:07:57,140 Your stomach is in bad shape, 1287 01:07:57,240 --> 01:07:58,608 and we need to take you to a hospital 1288 01:07:58,708 --> 01:08:00,176 if we can't treat you out here. 1289 01:08:01,844 --> 01:08:03,613 Our goal is to make sure that you're safe, 1290 01:08:03,713 --> 01:08:05,081 and right now, we don't feel you are. 1291 01:08:08,952 --> 01:08:10,420 ♪ ♪ 1292 01:08:10,520 --> 01:08:11,487 - Careful. 1293 01:08:11,588 --> 01:08:14,490 ♪ ♪ 1294 01:08:14,590 --> 01:08:16,659 - I think I've learned more that it's very easy 1295 01:08:16,759 --> 01:08:19,462 for me to still just kind of shut down the emotion 1296 01:08:19,562 --> 01:08:20,964 and just go. 1297 01:08:21,064 --> 01:08:23,666 That nose to the grindstone work mentality, 1298 01:08:23,766 --> 01:08:25,034 but that's not where I want to be. 1299 01:08:25,134 --> 01:08:26,336 That's not who I want to be. 1300 01:08:26,436 --> 01:08:29,072 That's not where I want to live anymore. 1301 01:08:43,019 --> 01:08:44,253 ♪ ♪ 1302 01:08:50,360 --> 01:08:56,699 ♪ ♪ 1303 01:08:59,135 --> 01:09:00,870 ♪ ♪ 1304 01:09:00,970 --> 01:09:03,006 - I want to be able to smile and laugh 1305 01:09:03,106 --> 01:09:06,242 and authentically just be me, 1306 01:09:06,342 --> 01:09:08,911 and if that's how I'm feeling, I need to step back 1307 01:09:09,012 --> 01:09:13,850 and relax and refresh and recharge basically 1308 01:09:13,950 --> 01:09:15,918 and just enjoy life more 1309 01:09:16,019 --> 01:09:18,054 and not working quite so hard. 1310 01:09:18,154 --> 01:09:19,989 That really has come to the forefront 1311 01:09:20,089 --> 01:09:23,192 during this experience, and what's the point of life 1312 01:09:23,292 --> 01:09:24,694 if we're not enjoying it? 1313 01:09:24,794 --> 01:09:26,796 ♪ ♪