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[dramatic music]
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♪ ♪
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- There are some
ripples forming.
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Those are fish biting.
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Probably should extend
the pier.
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♪ ♪
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Score.
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[bow thuds]
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- [whispering]
Oh, my God, I got one.
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♪ ♪
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I got a muskrat.
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[chuckles]
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[bow thuds]
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- Got it.
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Like running
on a high right now.
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Yes.
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- I have been feeling
extremely homesick.
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It’s, like, gripped me.
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♪ ♪
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- [bleep].
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This is Tom.
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I buggered my knee up
pretty good,
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and I think that that’s
gonna have to be it
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for me, unfortunately.
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- Stomach doesn’t feel good.
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[vomits]
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- It’s not safe
for you to remain.
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I have to medically
extract you.
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- To end like this, this
wasn’t what I anticipated.
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This isn’t
how I saw it going down.
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♪ ♪
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- I can’t wait to have
this place try and break me.
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narrator: For the first time
on "Alone,"
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ten participants
fight to survive
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in the hunting ground
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of the world’s largest
land predator.
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- Oh, my God.
Where’d he go?
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Those are bear.
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- I heard a big animal.
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- Hey, bear.
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- Oh, no. [bleep].
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- Sometimes you eat the bear.
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Sometimes the bear eats you.
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narrator: Battling
merciless conditions...
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- This is some
hard-core bushwhacking.
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- Why does it have to be
such a struggle every night?
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[bow thuds]
- I hit it. I hit it. I hit it.
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- I feel more alive
every day I’m out here.
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Ahh.
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- Here comes the rain again.
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- Labrador, you’re not gonna
make it easy for us, are you?
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narrator:
In complete isolation...
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- The most dangerous thing
out here is myself.
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- Look at that!
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- The cold ground
is just pulling
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all the warmth from me.
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- How many days can this go on?
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- Very, very hungry.
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- I feel like
I’m hitting a wall.
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narrator:
Last one standing wins.
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- Only gonna get harder
the longer you stay out here.
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♪ ♪
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- So my friend wrote
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this song for me to sing
while I’m out here.
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And now anytime
that I’m having a hard day--
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and I really haven’t
had very many hard days.
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I’ve gotten down
a little bit.
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But I sing it a lot.
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So I want to share it with you.
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♪ I remember
why I came here ♪
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♪ I remember weaving
this dream ♪
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♪ I remember tending
the embers ♪
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♪ Tender hearts render
the space in between ♪
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♪ Connecting ♪
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♪ The seen and unseen ♪
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♪ The spirit that moves
through all things ♪
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♪ ♪
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♪ Hi-aye-aye, hi-aye-aye,
hi-aye-aye-hi ♪
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♪ Hi-aye-aye, hi-aye-aye,
hi-hi-aye ♪
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♪ Hi-aye-aye, aye-aye-aye,
hi-aye-aye-hi ♪
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♪ Hi-aye-aye, hi-aye-aye,
hi-aye-aye-hi ♪
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♪ ♪
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So that’s my song.
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♪ ♪
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I am going to hike
to the yonder river
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on the back of my sight.
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It’s a new moon.
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The animals should be active.
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So, of course,
I’ll do hunting along the way.
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It’s gonna be
an adventurous day,
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and I’m feeling up for it.
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♪ ♪
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My muskrat plus the bone broth
lasted three days.
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So I’m running on berry juice
right now.
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My tummy’s like,
"Enough berries.
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I need some meat."
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[animals chittering]
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♪ ♪
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You know,
I’m getting skinnier.
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And food, that’s my weak spot.
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♪ ♪
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[animals chittering]
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Oh, there you are.
You’re up there
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[chittering continues]
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Do I dare?
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Oh.
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Oh, nice, it bounced back.
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Thank God.
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I’m just gonna back up,
and maybe he’ll come down.
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♪ ♪
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He’s back in the same spot.
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♪ ♪
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[bleep].
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That’s what I get
for being cocky.
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Damn, it went way over there.
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♪ ♪
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I missed it by one inch.
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I’m not keeping my form.
I’m not keeping my technique.
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And that’s really disturbing
to me.
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I hate looking for arrows.
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As time progresses, yeah,
I’m gonna get a little weaker,
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and that can throw off a shot
by a lot.
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♪ ♪
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Yeah, screw you.
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I don’t know what
to do about my shot.
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Something has got to change,
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or I don’t have
much time left,
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and that makes me really sad.
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♪ ♪
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Oh, I found it.
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No, I’m not way off.
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Yay.
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Ah, thank you, trees.
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Thank you for catching my arrow
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and putting it
on the ground for me.
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Okay, on with our journey.
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So glad I have you back.
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♪ Aye-aye-aye,
aye-aye-aye ♪
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♪ Hi-aye-aye-aye,
hi-aye-aye-aye ♪
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[humming]
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[dramatic music]
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♪ ♪
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[wind whistling]
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- It is blowing out there.
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I did not sleep well
again last night.
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I woke up...
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with some deep, deep
hunger pangs.
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[yawns]
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They kept me awake
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for the rest of the night,
just about.
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I’m just hungry, guys.
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I’m just really hungry.
[chuckles]
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The solution
is to find something today.
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♪ ♪
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When you’re well-fed
and you’re warm
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and you’re sitting
in your home
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and you get
a bad night’s sleep,
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you can feel
a little bit crappy.
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When you’re out here
and you’re living on margins
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as thin as we are,
with temperatures like this,
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a bad night’s sleep
can put you behind for days.
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♪ ♪
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Important day of hunting today.
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So we are gonna get out
and do our thing,
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wind be damned.
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♪ ♪
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[wind gusting]
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Definitely gusting
over 30 knots, 30, 35.
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Strongest winds
we’ve had out here.
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♪ ♪
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Holy [bleep].
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♪ ♪
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Crazy windy.
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You need to be careful for
trees coming down, for sure.
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That would not be
a fun way to go out.
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♪ ♪
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This is just not
a great day to hunt.
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There’s so much wind noise,
I can’t hear anything.
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But at the same time,
we need food.
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♪ ♪
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I’m going out every day for
three, four, or five hours,
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actively hunting,
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and the only reliable hunting
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I’ve found
over the last couple of weeks
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has been to follow
the river trail
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and go up and down
looking for grouse.
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♪ ♪
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I’ve not been able to get
ahead on food in any way.
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I only have
half a grouse in the bag.
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And things are just
starting to dry up.
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The grouse are getting
harder to find.
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♪ ♪
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I have to be out
every single day.
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That means more calories
getting burned.
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♪ ♪
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Oh, no.
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♪ ♪
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I had an arrow fall out.
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[sniffs]
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An arrow
fall out of the quiver.
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[bleep], [bleep], [bleep].
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[sighs]
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That’s one more arrow down.
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I have to try and backtrack
and find it.
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What a waste of time and energy
this is gonna be.
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♪ ♪
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I had an arrow get pulled
out of its bow quiver
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by just one of the branches
just grabbing me
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everywhere I go.
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♪ ♪
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It’s hard going
through that brush.
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I’m so tired of bushwhacking.
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Oh, my God.
[sniffs]
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♪ ♪
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All these branches,
these dead trees,
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they are wearing me down.
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♪ ♪
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[sighs] I don’t have
the energy for it.
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I don’t have the gas
in my legs.
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[sighs]
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It’s just hard to push through.
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♪ ♪
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There’s some ankle-breaking
[bleep] in this forest.
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♪ ♪
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Oh.
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Aah!
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[bleep]!
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♪ ♪
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Over it.
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Over, over, over,
over, over it.
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♪ ♪
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[groans]
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Get off me.
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These branches got me
so twisted up.
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♪ ♪
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Two seconds--
I need two seconds.
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♪ ♪
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[exhales deeply]
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♪ ♪
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Okay.
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♪ ♪
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[sniffs]
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Just take your time.
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Everything’s good.
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♪ ♪
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I had a little bit
of a temper tantrum.
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♪ ♪
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I’m just feeling it.
My legs are pretty gassed.
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And it’s getting hard
to move effectively
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through that dense,
thick, steep hillside.
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♪ ♪
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I don’t have the energy
in my legs
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to go for three hours today.
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♪ ♪
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Starting to feel
the weight loss, I guess.
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♪ ♪
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I’m gonna head home.
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We burned a lot of calories
for nothing.
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And I lost my arrow.
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♪ ♪
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That’s one more arrow down.
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Four arrows left.
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♪ ♪
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The wind about did me in.
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♪ ♪
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I’m missing my family
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more than I ever have
in my life.
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♪ ♪
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And I’ve been away from home
270
00:13:00,580 --> 00:13:03,680
for up to a year at a time.
271
00:13:03,783 --> 00:13:05,923
But it’s the isolation,
you know?
272
00:13:06,019 --> 00:13:08,019
It’s just the not knowing,
273
00:13:08,121 --> 00:13:11,061
the not knowing
that everyone’s okay.
274
00:13:11,157 --> 00:13:15,027
I just want to see my friends
and family and my dog...
275
00:13:15,128 --> 00:13:16,358
so bad.
276
00:13:16,462 --> 00:13:17,662
♪ ♪
277
00:13:17,764 --> 00:13:20,974
I’ve never felt anything
like this before.
278
00:13:21,067 --> 00:13:22,967
And I cannot shake it.
279
00:13:23,069 --> 00:13:25,369
♪ ♪
280
00:13:25,471 --> 00:13:27,641
Combine that with being tired,
281
00:13:27,740 --> 00:13:31,110
just feeling lonely and down.
282
00:13:31,210 --> 00:13:32,480
♪ ♪
283
00:13:32,578 --> 00:13:34,148
We’re living day to day.
284
00:13:34,247 --> 00:13:35,277
♪ ♪
285
00:13:35,381 --> 00:13:37,481
And...
286
00:13:37,583 --> 00:13:39,823
you know, we’re just gonna
do this one day at a time
287
00:13:39,919 --> 00:13:40,819
at this point.
288
00:13:40,920 --> 00:13:44,160
♪ ♪
289
00:13:44,257 --> 00:13:47,587
I want to be here.
I want to continue to be here.
290
00:13:50,129 --> 00:13:53,529
So let’s see
if we can make it happen.
291
00:13:53,633 --> 00:14:00,643
♪ ♪
292
00:14:07,814 --> 00:14:10,724
- I don’t know how many hours
I slept last night,
293
00:14:10,817 --> 00:14:12,517
but I don’t think many.
294
00:14:14,253 --> 00:14:15,993
It’s all the wind and...
295
00:14:18,791 --> 00:14:21,061
It’s so noisy.
296
00:14:21,160 --> 00:14:23,260
I’m going to try to make
some earplugs
297
00:14:23,363 --> 00:14:26,333
because I think it will
really improve my sleep.
298
00:14:39,145 --> 00:14:40,115
Nice.
299
00:14:40,213 --> 00:14:41,883
That worked.
300
00:14:41,981 --> 00:14:44,981
That’s a little improvement...
301
00:14:45,084 --> 00:14:46,294
for my life.
302
00:14:48,454 --> 00:14:50,694
♪ ♪
303
00:14:50,790 --> 00:14:53,490
We had lots and lots
of wind lately.
304
00:14:53,593 --> 00:14:55,693
The wind
really brings me down.
305
00:14:55,795 --> 00:15:00,105
It just makes me, like,
want to just stay in bed.
306
00:15:00,199 --> 00:15:03,599
But today I have
two objectives.
307
00:15:03,703 --> 00:15:06,973
I want to set up
a hanging line
308
00:15:07,073 --> 00:15:09,073
so that I can hang
my sleeping bag
309
00:15:09,175 --> 00:15:13,115
and make sure the feathers
don’t clump up.
310
00:15:13,212 --> 00:15:15,052
I also need to work on my bed.
311
00:15:15,148 --> 00:15:17,178
I want to make it
way more comfortable,
312
00:15:17,283 --> 00:15:20,253
because my bed
is uncomfortable.
313
00:15:20,353 --> 00:15:23,623
Now I need to hang
my sleeping bag from here.
314
00:15:23,723 --> 00:15:25,793
♪ ♪
315
00:15:25,892 --> 00:15:28,832
Sleep is huge,
super important,
316
00:15:28,928 --> 00:15:31,128
and the more hours
of sleep I get,
317
00:15:31,230 --> 00:15:32,360
I think it’s better
318
00:15:32,465 --> 00:15:35,735
because that’s less calories
I use.
319
00:15:35,835 --> 00:15:37,105
It’s better to be sleeping
320
00:15:37,203 --> 00:15:40,473
than to be awake
in a survival situation.
321
00:15:40,573 --> 00:15:43,613
So I need to figure out
a way to be
322
00:15:43,709 --> 00:15:46,479
as comfortable as possible
so that I can sleep
323
00:15:46,579 --> 00:15:48,649
as many hours as possible.
324
00:15:48,748 --> 00:15:50,318
♪ ♪
325
00:15:50,416 --> 00:15:51,816
Nice.
326
00:15:51,918 --> 00:15:53,918
I’m gonna go work on my bed.
327
00:15:54,020 --> 00:16:01,030
♪ ♪
328
00:16:04,664 --> 00:16:07,334
I’m excited for the winter.
329
00:16:07,433 --> 00:16:11,443
The snow, the cold,
it feels familiar to me.
330
00:16:11,537 --> 00:16:13,807
♪ ♪
331
00:16:13,906 --> 00:16:17,006
I think no one here has
as much winter experience
332
00:16:17,109 --> 00:16:18,309
as me by far,
333
00:16:18,411 --> 00:16:20,351
so it’s my advantage.
334
00:16:20,446 --> 00:16:26,916
♪ ♪
335
00:16:27,019 --> 00:16:30,119
Yeah, so I’m gonna call it
a day for the bed.
336
00:16:30,223 --> 00:16:31,693
It’s good, I think.
337
00:16:31,791 --> 00:16:34,931
We’ll see.
We’ll see tonight.
338
00:16:38,731 --> 00:16:41,631
[dramatic music]
339
00:16:41,734 --> 00:16:44,844
♪ ♪
340
00:16:52,879 --> 00:16:54,549
- Let’s get some water.
341
00:16:59,552 --> 00:17:01,652
The creek is iced up.
342
00:17:03,789 --> 00:17:06,059
This is where
I normally get my water.
343
00:17:12,164 --> 00:17:14,334
Oh, I can still get in there.
344
00:17:15,835 --> 00:17:17,405
Pretty cold out here.
345
00:17:17,503 --> 00:17:18,803
♪ ♪
346
00:17:18,905 --> 00:17:20,275
All righty.
347
00:17:20,373 --> 00:17:22,313
I think this cold’s
here to stay.
348
00:17:22,408 --> 00:17:25,438
It’s only gonna get more cold
and more windy.
349
00:17:25,545 --> 00:17:28,585
In the military, I trained in
Arctic warfare and survival.
350
00:17:28,681 --> 00:17:30,321
So I’ve been to minus 60.
351
00:17:30,416 --> 00:17:32,046
I’ve been to minus 70.
352
00:17:32,151 --> 00:17:34,851
This is the temperature
I operate in.
353
00:17:34,954 --> 00:17:36,894
See, there’s still
water draining,
354
00:17:36,989 --> 00:17:39,259
but we’ll just melt
ice if we need to.
355
00:17:39,358 --> 00:17:40,828
♪ ♪
356
00:17:40,927 --> 00:17:45,097
Out here, the only big factor
for me is, can I hunt?
357
00:17:45,197 --> 00:17:47,567
Can I procure food?
358
00:17:47,667 --> 00:17:49,737
Everything’s
a little more complex.
359
00:17:49,835 --> 00:17:53,605
When it’s cold,
there’s less food.
360
00:17:53,706 --> 00:17:54,936
The squirrels--
361
00:17:55,041 --> 00:17:56,511
they’re the most active thing
right now.
362
00:17:56,609 --> 00:17:58,839
So I’m focusing on squirrel.
363
00:17:58,945 --> 00:18:00,255
♪ ♪
364
00:18:00,346 --> 00:18:01,576
Let’s go get some food.
365
00:18:01,681 --> 00:18:03,621
♪ ♪
366
00:18:03,716 --> 00:18:07,146
I just need one kill to lift
my spirits a little bit.
367
00:18:07,253 --> 00:18:13,893
♪ ♪
368
00:18:13,993 --> 00:18:15,163
Hoo.
369
00:18:15,261 --> 00:18:17,001
♪ ♪
370
00:18:17,096 --> 00:18:20,896
Oh, my God, I’m not doing well.
371
00:18:21,000 --> 00:18:25,040
I’m getting to the point
where I’m a lot more hungry.
372
00:18:25,137 --> 00:18:26,867
♪ ♪
373
00:18:26,973 --> 00:18:30,213
At night, I wake up
just wanting to eat,
374
00:18:30,309 --> 00:18:34,049
and all I can give my body
is some cranberries.
375
00:18:34,146 --> 00:18:36,046
[animal chittering]
376
00:18:36,148 --> 00:18:37,378
♪ ♪
377
00:18:37,483 --> 00:18:39,593
Why don’t you show yourself?
378
00:18:39,685 --> 00:18:42,085
The biggest thing for me
are the cravings.
379
00:18:42,188 --> 00:18:44,418
They’re getting
a little painful now.
380
00:18:44,523 --> 00:18:48,263
And I have close to
zero fat reserves right now.
381
00:18:48,361 --> 00:18:55,371
♪ ♪
382
00:18:58,204 --> 00:19:01,214
There’s two chasing each other.
383
00:19:05,311 --> 00:19:07,111
Where did it go?
384
00:19:07,213 --> 00:19:08,353
♪ ♪
385
00:19:08,447 --> 00:19:09,777
Oh, there it is.
386
00:19:09,882 --> 00:19:14,492
♪ ♪
387
00:19:14,587 --> 00:19:15,917
[bleep].
388
00:19:16,022 --> 00:19:17,122
I missed it.
389
00:19:17,223 --> 00:19:20,963
♪ ♪
390
00:19:21,060 --> 00:19:23,360
I don’t feel so good.
391
00:19:23,462 --> 00:19:25,632
I’m just gonna sit down
for a little bit.
392
00:19:25,731 --> 00:19:27,131
♪ ♪
393
00:19:27,233 --> 00:19:28,733
I need a break.
394
00:19:28,834 --> 00:19:30,904
♪ ♪
395
00:19:31,003 --> 00:19:33,143
I’m too tired to walk anymore.
396
00:19:33,239 --> 00:19:34,139
♪ ♪
397
00:19:34,240 --> 00:19:36,310
I feel so frickin’ weak.
398
00:19:36,409 --> 00:19:37,939
♪ ♪
399
00:19:38,044 --> 00:19:40,814
My energy levels are just...
400
00:19:40,913 --> 00:19:41,983
too low,
401
00:19:42,081 --> 00:19:44,651
and my muscles
fatigue too fast.
402
00:19:44,750 --> 00:19:48,350
♪ ♪
403
00:19:48,454 --> 00:19:50,494
I don’t want any long hunts.
404
00:19:50,589 --> 00:19:54,689
♪ ♪
405
00:19:54,794 --> 00:19:57,834
My body is just not acting
the same.
406
00:19:57,930 --> 00:20:01,900
♪ ♪
407
00:20:02,001 --> 00:20:03,971
I need to adjust my behaviors
408
00:20:04,070 --> 00:20:07,770
so that I’m getting as much
as I can with what I got.
409
00:20:07,873 --> 00:20:10,143
♪ ♪
410
00:20:10,242 --> 00:20:12,782
It’s definitely a mental game.
411
00:20:12,878 --> 00:20:15,278
It’s hard. It’s really hard.
412
00:20:15,381 --> 00:20:21,951
♪ ♪
413
00:20:22,054 --> 00:20:24,264
For me to stay positive,
414
00:20:24,356 --> 00:20:27,956
I’m just gonna have
to take 20 minutes or so,
415
00:20:28,060 --> 00:20:31,560
kind of think of what my
happy thought is for the day.
416
00:20:33,399 --> 00:20:35,729
It always comes
back to Gabrielle.
417
00:20:37,903 --> 00:20:40,243
I’m here for my mom.
418
00:20:40,339 --> 00:20:43,039
I want her to see how hard
I can push.
419
00:20:43,142 --> 00:20:47,152
I want her to see the strength
that she instilled in me
420
00:20:47,246 --> 00:20:49,576
so she can see it
in herself again.
421
00:20:50,850 --> 00:20:54,320
But when that strength dwindles
422
00:20:54,420 --> 00:20:57,820
and I start to doubt myself...
423
00:20:57,923 --> 00:21:02,033
thinking about Gab
and what we have
424
00:21:02,128 --> 00:21:05,298
and what we hope to have
in the future...
425
00:21:05,397 --> 00:21:08,597
it gives me strength
that I didn’t know I had left.
426
00:21:08,701 --> 00:21:10,341
♪ ♪
427
00:21:10,436 --> 00:21:12,436
And she’s helping me
push through.
428
00:21:12,538 --> 00:21:15,508
♪ ♪
429
00:21:15,608 --> 00:21:18,238
Well, it’s snowing.
430
00:21:18,344 --> 00:21:19,614
Good night, guys...
431
00:21:19,712 --> 00:21:20,612
♪ ♪
432
00:21:20,713 --> 00:21:22,383
And gals.
433
00:21:23,716 --> 00:21:30,716
♪ ♪
434
00:21:54,446 --> 00:21:56,076
- Good morning.
435
00:21:56,182 --> 00:22:00,592
Oh, my gosh, what
a beautiful morning it is.
436
00:22:00,686 --> 00:22:03,356
[sighs]
It snowed.
437
00:22:04,924 --> 00:22:07,494
Yeah, it just gives you
a little taste of winter.
438
00:22:07,593 --> 00:22:10,433
It also is bitter cold.
439
00:22:10,529 --> 00:22:12,699
[laughs]
440
00:22:12,798 --> 00:22:13,928
Oh, my gosh.
441
00:22:14,033 --> 00:22:15,433
♪ ♪
442
00:22:15,534 --> 00:22:18,944
Today I’m gonna go check
my trap line.
443
00:22:19,038 --> 00:22:21,508
It’s been two days
since I’ve been there.
444
00:22:21,607 --> 00:22:25,877
And I just see
a lot more squirrel activity
445
00:22:25,978 --> 00:22:27,478
further in the woods
a little bit,
446
00:22:27,580 --> 00:22:30,280
so I might set up
a few more traps there.
447
00:22:32,384 --> 00:22:35,224
Yeah, just spectacular.
448
00:22:37,857 --> 00:22:41,787
♪ ♪
449
00:22:41,894 --> 00:22:44,834
Yesterday I was down on myself
450
00:22:44,930 --> 00:22:47,770
because I kept missing
the squirrels by one inch.
451
00:22:47,867 --> 00:22:48,897
♪ ♪
452
00:22:49,001 --> 00:22:50,641
Ah, this needs to be reset.
453
00:22:50,736 --> 00:22:52,296
♪ ♪
454
00:22:52,404 --> 00:22:53,974
Okay.
455
00:22:54,073 --> 00:22:58,413
I am changing my hunting plan
to be more around trapping.
456
00:22:58,510 --> 00:22:59,480
♪ ♪
457
00:22:59,578 --> 00:23:01,078
That one’s still good.
458
00:23:01,180 --> 00:23:04,150
♪ ♪
459
00:23:04,250 --> 00:23:07,850
I’m focusing on snaring
for the squirrels.
460
00:23:07,953 --> 00:23:09,353
Wow, look at this.
461
00:23:09,455 --> 00:23:10,595
I’m gonna put a trap.
462
00:23:10,689 --> 00:23:12,089
I’m gonna put five of them
463
00:23:12,191 --> 00:23:15,531
in this
little squirrel kitchen area.
464
00:23:15,628 --> 00:23:18,098
Okay, let’s start
with this one.
465
00:23:18,197 --> 00:23:19,427
You know, at some point,
466
00:23:19,531 --> 00:23:22,801
they’re gonna hunker down
for the winter,
467
00:23:22,902 --> 00:23:25,072
so I need to take advantage
of that,
468
00:23:25,170 --> 00:23:27,610
’cause I am hungry.
469
00:23:27,706 --> 00:23:29,936
My thumbs are split.
470
00:23:30,042 --> 00:23:32,542
Both thumbs are split.
471
00:23:32,645 --> 00:23:36,255
Go, fingers, go,
before you get cold.
472
00:23:36,348 --> 00:23:40,288
Squirrels are so forgiving
when it comes to trapping.
473
00:23:40,386 --> 00:23:42,986
They don’t care about smells.
474
00:23:43,088 --> 00:23:44,688
♪ ♪
475
00:23:44,790 --> 00:23:46,790
Yeah, make a nice round hole
476
00:23:46,892 --> 00:23:49,802
the size of a squirrel head.
477
00:23:49,895 --> 00:23:51,495
Okay, perfect.
478
00:23:51,597 --> 00:23:58,597
♪ ♪
479
00:24:04,276 --> 00:24:06,076
It’s been a pretty good day.
480
00:24:06,178 --> 00:24:07,608
I feel pretty content.
481
00:24:07,713 --> 00:24:08,853
♪ ♪
482
00:24:08,948 --> 00:24:13,188
I just found myself
very much at peace today.
483
00:24:14,520 --> 00:24:16,190
Um...
484
00:24:18,724 --> 00:24:21,534
I went and checked
all my traps.
485
00:24:21,627 --> 00:24:22,757
There was no rush.
486
00:24:22,861 --> 00:24:25,661
I set, like,
five new traps today.
487
00:24:25,764 --> 00:24:26,934
Um...
488
00:24:27,032 --> 00:24:30,142
I was very at peace,
and I felt very humble.
489
00:24:30,235 --> 00:24:32,665
I felt...
490
00:24:32,771 --> 00:24:35,941
like I wasn’t here to do.
491
00:24:36,041 --> 00:24:37,981
What am I gonna do today?
492
00:24:38,077 --> 00:24:39,607
And...
493
00:24:39,712 --> 00:24:41,682
I was just present.
494
00:24:41,780 --> 00:24:43,350
♪ ♪
495
00:24:43,449 --> 00:24:46,849
To be honest,
it’s been quite embarrassing
496
00:24:46,952 --> 00:24:51,722
as far as my inability
to shoot a squirrel,
497
00:24:51,824 --> 00:24:54,134
and I found myself
using words
498
00:24:54,226 --> 00:24:56,626
like "my successes"
and "my failures."
499
00:24:56,729 --> 00:24:58,299
And I don’t want
to be a failure.
500
00:24:58,397 --> 00:25:00,327
Well, what is failing?
501
00:25:00,432 --> 00:25:02,472
Those are words
I don’t even use at home.
502
00:25:02,568 --> 00:25:04,798
♪ ♪
503
00:25:04,903 --> 00:25:08,073
When I was 36 years old,
I was pregnant.
504
00:25:08,173 --> 00:25:09,743
And...
505
00:25:09,842 --> 00:25:12,882
♪ ♪
506
00:25:12,978 --> 00:25:15,648
At four months pregnant--
507
00:25:15,748 --> 00:25:18,248
when I was
four months pregnant...
508
00:25:18,350 --> 00:25:19,680
♪ ♪
509
00:25:19,785 --> 00:25:21,655
I ended up having
a miscarriage.
510
00:25:21,754 --> 00:25:24,524
And that’s pretty late in
the game to have a miscarriage,
511
00:25:24,623 --> 00:25:26,463
and so it was pretty big,
512
00:25:26,558 --> 00:25:28,058
because I still had to go
513
00:25:28,160 --> 00:25:30,730
through
the whole labor process.
514
00:25:30,829 --> 00:25:31,929
And...
515
00:25:32,031 --> 00:25:35,271
♪ ♪
516
00:25:35,367 --> 00:25:36,967
It was unique,
517
00:25:37,069 --> 00:25:39,599
even though I lost the child,
518
00:25:39,705 --> 00:25:42,775
because I still got
to experience having a birth.
519
00:25:42,875 --> 00:25:43,885
♪ ♪
520
00:25:43,976 --> 00:25:45,076
So I don’t know.
521
00:25:45,177 --> 00:25:47,577
Does that not make me
a mother?
522
00:25:47,679 --> 00:25:49,549
I learned death.
523
00:25:49,648 --> 00:25:52,518
It could happen anytime,
anytime.
524
00:25:52,618 --> 00:25:56,018
And for you to know
how to live,
525
00:25:56,121 --> 00:25:57,991
you need to know how to die.
526
00:25:58,090 --> 00:26:00,230
♪ ♪
527
00:26:00,325 --> 00:26:04,555
When I feel like
I’m failing or succeeding,
528
00:26:04,663 --> 00:26:06,573
I’m judging myself.
529
00:26:06,665 --> 00:26:07,725
♪ ♪
530
00:26:07,833 --> 00:26:09,573
And why am I doing that?
531
00:26:09,668 --> 00:26:13,468
♪ ♪
532
00:26:13,572 --> 00:26:14,742
I’m here.
533
00:26:14,840 --> 00:26:16,540
♪ ♪
534
00:26:16,642 --> 00:26:18,912
I must have done
something right to get here.
535
00:26:19,011 --> 00:26:23,751
♪ ♪
536
00:26:23,849 --> 00:26:25,749
Yeah.
537
00:26:25,851 --> 00:26:27,691
So thank you for listening.
538
00:26:29,354 --> 00:26:32,424
I think I covered it all.
[chuckles]
539
00:26:32,524 --> 00:26:35,864
[inhales deeply]
I think I covered it all.
540
00:26:42,901 --> 00:26:45,801
[dramatic music]
541
00:26:45,904 --> 00:26:49,474
♪ ♪
542
00:26:55,981 --> 00:26:57,821
- Still feeling
a little tired,
543
00:26:57,916 --> 00:27:01,886
but I think it’d be a good idea
to go down to the beach
544
00:27:01,987 --> 00:27:03,917
and make those bird traps,
545
00:27:04,022 --> 00:27:08,032
because if we can get birds
and squirrels,
546
00:27:08,127 --> 00:27:09,787
that would be a game changer.
547
00:27:09,895 --> 00:27:14,435
♪ ♪
548
00:27:14,533 --> 00:27:18,973
I’ve been storing
my grouse guts on the beach
549
00:27:19,071 --> 00:27:22,811
under some rocks,
hoping that a bear comes by,
550
00:27:22,908 --> 00:27:25,838
but the only thing
that I’ve seen is the ravens.
551
00:27:25,944 --> 00:27:27,214
♪ ♪
552
00:27:27,312 --> 00:27:28,912
And if this bird trap works,
553
00:27:29,014 --> 00:27:31,484
that’s gonna be
a huge morale booster.
554
00:27:31,583 --> 00:27:33,123
♪ ♪
555
00:27:33,218 --> 00:27:34,448
Let’s see.
556
00:27:34,553 --> 00:27:36,093
Got to make sure
to implement
557
00:27:36,188 --> 00:27:39,488
as many food-procuring
strategies that I can
558
00:27:39,591 --> 00:27:42,061
so that I get
some passive food.
559
00:27:42,161 --> 00:27:43,091
Okay.
560
00:27:43,195 --> 00:27:45,005
♪ ♪
561
00:27:52,171 --> 00:27:55,741
♪ ♪
562
00:27:55,841 --> 00:27:59,681
Am I concerned
about how tired I’m getting?
563
00:27:59,778 --> 00:28:00,908
♪ ♪
564
00:28:01,013 --> 00:28:02,753
Yeah.
565
00:28:02,848 --> 00:28:05,348
I still think
this is a little too tight.
566
00:28:05,450 --> 00:28:07,420
I’m eating every day,
567
00:28:07,519 --> 00:28:09,919
but my body knows
that it’s not enough,
568
00:28:10,022 --> 00:28:11,162
and it’s screaming.
569
00:28:11,256 --> 00:28:13,116
It’s yelling at me.
570
00:28:15,961 --> 00:28:18,961
♪ ♪
571
00:28:19,064 --> 00:28:22,104
Every day it’s a fight
572
00:28:22,201 --> 00:28:25,041
to not press that button,
573
00:28:25,137 --> 00:28:27,307
just to hear Gab’s voice.
574
00:28:29,808 --> 00:28:31,108
♪ ♪
575
00:28:31,210 --> 00:28:34,610
I guess
my always-happy thought is...
576
00:28:34,713 --> 00:28:35,983
Gab.
577
00:28:44,489 --> 00:28:46,689
♪ ♪
578
00:28:46,792 --> 00:28:49,732
I was thinking
about the first time we met.
579
00:28:49,828 --> 00:28:53,468
You know, we work in different
departments in the hospital.
580
00:28:53,565 --> 00:28:56,465
This was during COVID,
so I was so tired
581
00:28:56,568 --> 00:28:58,698
and hungry and overworked.
582
00:28:58,804 --> 00:29:00,574
It kind of felt like today.
583
00:29:00,672 --> 00:29:01,572
♪ ♪
584
00:29:01,673 --> 00:29:02,913
Almost through.
585
00:29:03,008 --> 00:29:05,338
♪ ♪
586
00:29:05,444 --> 00:29:06,954
And then I saw her.
587
00:29:07,045 --> 00:29:08,545
And she looked right at me.
588
00:29:08,647 --> 00:29:12,817
And I swear I could have seen
her smiling at me
589
00:29:12,918 --> 00:29:14,418
through that mask.
590
00:29:14,519 --> 00:29:16,959
♪ ♪
591
00:29:17,055 --> 00:29:20,785
What started with small talk
continued with banter.
592
00:29:20,892 --> 00:29:24,532
And I think
we realized early on,
593
00:29:24,630 --> 00:29:29,100
everything was just
better together.
594
00:29:29,201 --> 00:29:31,141
♪ ♪
595
00:29:31,236 --> 00:29:35,306
All right, I got
a little perch over here.
596
00:29:35,407 --> 00:29:36,937
The idea...
597
00:29:37,042 --> 00:29:40,452
is that bait’s on this stick.
598
00:29:40,545 --> 00:29:44,815
There’s a rope,
kind of like a cowboy lasso,
599
00:29:44,916 --> 00:29:46,986
that rests over here.
600
00:29:47,085 --> 00:29:51,485
And then as the bird lands
on this, this falls down.
601
00:29:51,590 --> 00:29:54,760
And there’s a string
attached to that rock
602
00:29:54,860 --> 00:29:57,430
that falls down here.
603
00:29:57,529 --> 00:29:59,229
So...
604
00:29:59,331 --> 00:30:00,771
that’s how that’ll work.
605
00:30:00,866 --> 00:30:02,896
♪ ♪
606
00:30:03,001 --> 00:30:05,841
You know, it’s all
about your spirit out here.
607
00:30:05,937 --> 00:30:07,667
Your body can feel
like it’s breaking,
608
00:30:07,773 --> 00:30:11,083
but if you still have it
in your soul and in your mind,
609
00:30:11,176 --> 00:30:13,406
you can push a ways.
610
00:30:13,512 --> 00:30:16,752
All right,
that should do the trick.
611
00:30:16,848 --> 00:30:19,848
♪ ♪
612
00:30:19,951 --> 00:30:23,021
And Gabrielle--she is my rock
613
00:30:23,121 --> 00:30:24,891
that doesn’t weigh me down.
614
00:30:24,990 --> 00:30:26,590
Keeps me grounded when I feel
615
00:30:26,692 --> 00:30:28,532
like the wind’s gonna
push me away.
616
00:30:28,627 --> 00:30:30,227
♪ ♪
617
00:30:30,329 --> 00:30:32,759
And I love her.
I love her so much.
618
00:30:32,864 --> 00:30:34,174
♪ ♪
619
00:30:34,266 --> 00:30:38,966
Hopefully they’ll let me push
a wee bit more,
620
00:30:39,071 --> 00:30:40,611
see what happens.
621
00:30:40,706 --> 00:30:41,636
♪ ♪
622
00:30:41,740 --> 00:30:43,440
Yeah, day by day.
623
00:30:43,542 --> 00:30:44,782
Okay.
624
00:30:44,876 --> 00:30:46,776
♪ ♪
625
00:30:46,878 --> 00:30:48,278
That was a lot of work,
626
00:30:48,380 --> 00:30:51,280
but that’s
a beautiful bird trap.
627
00:30:51,383 --> 00:30:52,723
If I catch a bird with this,
628
00:30:52,818 --> 00:30:54,318
I might just eat
the whole thing
629
00:30:54,419 --> 00:30:57,459
right then and there
just to celebrate.
630
00:30:57,556 --> 00:31:00,186
Oh, I’m done!
631
00:31:00,292 --> 00:31:07,302
♪ ♪
632
00:31:18,977 --> 00:31:22,677
- Just getting everything
prepped for the day.
633
00:31:24,750 --> 00:31:27,990
Fortunately for us,
we won’t be wasting any time
634
00:31:28,086 --> 00:31:29,386
eating breakfast this morning.
635
00:31:29,488 --> 00:31:31,688
We can just get
straight under way.
636
00:31:32,858 --> 00:31:33,758
♪ ♪
637
00:31:33,859 --> 00:31:35,089
Isn’t it great?
638
00:31:35,193 --> 00:31:36,633
♪ ♪
639
00:31:36,728 --> 00:31:39,898
Such a time saver,
not having any food.
640
00:31:39,998 --> 00:31:46,908
♪ ♪
641
00:31:47,005 --> 00:31:49,765
Today is all about hunting.
642
00:31:49,875 --> 00:31:51,585
♪ ♪
643
00:31:51,676 --> 00:31:53,776
Very cold.
644
00:31:53,879 --> 00:31:58,149
This snow on the ground--
just a tiny little dusting.
645
00:31:58,250 --> 00:32:02,220
And the river
is already icing over.
646
00:32:02,320 --> 00:32:04,390
We’re gonna head down
647
00:32:04,489 --> 00:32:08,389
to some of the further valleys
and look for grouse.
648
00:32:08,493 --> 00:32:10,803
♪ ♪
649
00:32:10,896 --> 00:32:13,396
Out here,
I’m grateful for every life
650
00:32:13,498 --> 00:32:15,228
that I’ve taken.
651
00:32:15,333 --> 00:32:18,573
You know, killing is
a hard thing to do every day.
652
00:32:18,670 --> 00:32:20,940
It can be exhausting.
653
00:32:21,039 --> 00:32:24,409
It takes a lot of grouse
to feed a man in the wild.
654
00:32:24,509 --> 00:32:26,079
♪ ♪
655
00:32:26,178 --> 00:32:29,348
Look at how pretty this
little valley is right now.
656
00:32:29,448 --> 00:32:31,748
The camera
doesn’t do it justice.
657
00:32:31,850 --> 00:32:32,780
♪ ♪
658
00:32:32,884 --> 00:32:35,254
No grouse, though.
[sniffs]
659
00:32:35,353 --> 00:32:38,223
[sighs]
I’m getting tired early.
660
00:32:38,323 --> 00:32:41,793
Not a good sign,
but we need to keep pushing on.
661
00:32:41,893 --> 00:32:42,863
♪ ♪
662
00:32:42,961 --> 00:32:44,431
Fingers crossed.
663
00:32:44,529 --> 00:32:45,759
♪ ♪
664
00:32:45,864 --> 00:32:49,474
I’m still losing weight
at a pretty steady pace.
665
00:32:49,568 --> 00:32:52,538
The number-one thing
is just conserving calories.
666
00:32:52,637 --> 00:32:55,007
But if I have
to actively hunt
667
00:32:55,106 --> 00:32:56,976
for three or four hours
every day,
668
00:32:57,075 --> 00:33:00,205
I’m burning a tremendous
amount of calories.
669
00:33:00,312 --> 00:33:01,912
The grouse are around,
670
00:33:02,013 --> 00:33:05,083
but getting harder to find
and harder to shoot--
671
00:33:05,183 --> 00:33:07,393
same with the squirrels.
672
00:33:07,486 --> 00:33:10,086
And I’m not finding
any new bear sign.
673
00:33:10,188 --> 00:33:16,828
♪ ♪
674
00:33:18,563 --> 00:33:25,573
♪ ♪
675
00:33:30,842 --> 00:33:31,982
It’s right there.
676
00:33:32,077 --> 00:33:35,547
♪ ♪
677
00:33:35,647 --> 00:33:37,247
Stay right there.
678
00:33:37,349 --> 00:33:40,249
♪ ♪
679
00:33:40,352 --> 00:33:41,652
[bow thuds]
680
00:33:41,753 --> 00:33:48,663
♪ ♪
681
00:33:48,760 --> 00:33:49,930
Yes.
682
00:33:50,028 --> 00:33:52,098
♪ ♪
683
00:33:52,197 --> 00:33:53,927
We got something
to eat tonight.
684
00:33:54,032 --> 00:33:56,202
♪ ♪
685
00:33:56,301 --> 00:33:57,941
Ah, thank God.
686
00:33:58,036 --> 00:34:00,636
[exhales deeply]
687
00:34:00,739 --> 00:34:03,739
It’s a beautiful,
beautiful grouse.
688
00:34:03,842 --> 00:34:05,882
♪ ♪
689
00:34:05,977 --> 00:34:08,607
I can’t tell you
what this bird means to me.
690
00:34:08,713 --> 00:34:11,223
I’m so hungry.
691
00:34:11,316 --> 00:34:15,286
And I’m really deeply,
deeply appreciative.
692
00:34:15,387 --> 00:34:17,187
♪ ♪
693
00:34:17,289 --> 00:34:19,389
We get to stay
for another day.
694
00:34:19,491 --> 00:34:23,461
♪ ♪
695
00:34:23,562 --> 00:34:25,732
I’m just letting her
calmly die.
696
00:34:25,830 --> 00:34:26,960
♪ ♪
697
00:34:27,065 --> 00:34:29,565
Go to sleep.
It’ll be okay.
698
00:34:29,668 --> 00:34:34,638
♪ ♪
699
00:34:34,739 --> 00:34:37,239
You’re okay.
700
00:34:37,342 --> 00:34:39,242
[exhales sharply]
701
00:34:39,344 --> 00:34:41,914
♪ ♪
702
00:34:42,013 --> 00:34:45,453
I’m getting a little burned out
on killing things...
703
00:34:45,550 --> 00:34:50,390
♪ ♪
704
00:34:50,488 --> 00:34:52,818
Watching them die.
705
00:34:52,924 --> 00:34:55,934
I feel a little bit sad
every time.
706
00:34:56,027 --> 00:34:57,727
♪ ♪
707
00:34:57,829 --> 00:34:59,029
And I think day after day,
708
00:34:59,130 --> 00:35:02,700
that kind of takes
a little bit of a toll.
709
00:35:02,801 --> 00:35:04,201
♪ ♪
710
00:35:04,302 --> 00:35:06,742
I wish I could just kill
one more animal
711
00:35:06,838 --> 00:35:10,408
and be set
for my time out here,
712
00:35:10,508 --> 00:35:14,708
not have to continue
to kill and kill and kill.
713
00:35:14,813 --> 00:35:18,023
♪ ♪
714
00:35:18,116 --> 00:35:22,146
I feel a deep, deep commune
with this place.
715
00:35:23,555 --> 00:35:26,565
The only other place I felt
this deeply connected to land
716
00:35:26,658 --> 00:35:29,728
is in my own property.
717
00:35:29,828 --> 00:35:32,228
♪ ♪
718
00:35:32,330 --> 00:35:35,430
At home, I could shoot
a white-tail deer
719
00:35:35,533 --> 00:35:39,373
and be good
for a couple months.
720
00:35:39,471 --> 00:35:41,571
That’s one animal
to watch die,
721
00:35:41,673 --> 00:35:43,243
to appreciate their death.
722
00:35:43,341 --> 00:35:44,511
♪ ♪
723
00:35:44,609 --> 00:35:46,539
But that is unlikely
to happen.
724
00:35:46,645 --> 00:35:48,085
♪ ♪
725
00:35:48,179 --> 00:35:51,749
And if I want to stay,
then other things need to die.
726
00:35:51,850 --> 00:35:53,420
♪ ♪
727
00:35:53,518 --> 00:35:57,088
And that’s the web of life
that we live in.
728
00:35:57,188 --> 00:36:01,188
♪ ♪
729
00:36:05,597 --> 00:36:06,827
[dramatic music]
730
00:36:06,931 --> 00:36:11,271
♪ ♪
731
00:36:28,987 --> 00:36:32,987
- Today is day 50, day 50.
732
00:36:34,359 --> 00:36:35,829
Big milestone.
733
00:36:35,927 --> 00:36:38,327
Just as a treat to myself,
734
00:36:38,430 --> 00:36:40,300
today I’m wearing new socks,
735
00:36:40,398 --> 00:36:43,728
so completely unused,
736
00:36:43,835 --> 00:36:46,945
nice, new wool socks.
737
00:36:47,038 --> 00:36:49,268
The last socks that I’ve used,
738
00:36:49,374 --> 00:36:52,784
I’ve used them continuously
for about 20 days.
739
00:36:52,877 --> 00:36:55,507
It’s kind of like
when it’s Christmas
740
00:36:55,613 --> 00:36:59,323
and your grandma
gives you socks,
741
00:36:59,417 --> 00:37:02,987
and you’re like,
"Oh, thanks, Grandma."
742
00:37:03,088 --> 00:37:05,288
But--[laughs]
743
00:37:05,390 --> 00:37:08,260
In my case, it’s like,
"Thanks, Grandma!
744
00:37:08,359 --> 00:37:10,329
I really wanted these."
[chuckles]
745
00:37:10,428 --> 00:37:12,258
"They’re awesome."
[chuckles]
746
00:37:12,363 --> 00:37:19,373
♪ ♪
747
00:37:22,474 --> 00:37:25,014
Right now
I’m a bit dehydrated.
748
00:37:25,110 --> 00:37:26,940
I need to drink water.
749
00:37:27,045 --> 00:37:29,915
So I’m gonna check
how thick the ice is
750
00:37:30,014 --> 00:37:31,554
and grab some water.
751
00:37:31,649 --> 00:37:32,919
♪ ♪
752
00:37:33,017 --> 00:37:35,847
I’m excited for the ice.
753
00:37:35,954 --> 00:37:38,224
Time to start using my ax.
754
00:37:38,323 --> 00:37:40,963
♪ ♪
755
00:37:41,059 --> 00:37:43,489
Very conveniently,
I have a pier.
756
00:37:43,595 --> 00:37:46,205
That means that I can go
to the deeper ice
757
00:37:46,297 --> 00:37:47,827
and just use my ax.
758
00:37:47,932 --> 00:37:50,202
♪ ♪
759
00:37:50,301 --> 00:37:52,541
Another day in Labrador.
760
00:37:52,637 --> 00:37:54,167
I’m dying.
761
00:37:58,276 --> 00:38:00,276
[gulps]
762
00:38:01,946 --> 00:38:04,246
♪ ♪
763
00:38:04,349 --> 00:38:06,849
I’m thankful
that there’s water here,
764
00:38:06,951 --> 00:38:09,221
but there’s no food coming in.
765
00:38:09,320 --> 00:38:12,520
And trapping,
hunting, fishing
766
00:38:12,624 --> 00:38:15,064
takes so much energy.
767
00:38:15,160 --> 00:38:17,400
With the fish,
I kind of screwed up.
768
00:38:17,495 --> 00:38:19,825
I think I probably spent
more energy
769
00:38:19,931 --> 00:38:23,431
trying to build the pier
and the fishing pole.
770
00:38:23,535 --> 00:38:25,545
And now I realize
771
00:38:25,637 --> 00:38:29,137
I have to be strategic
about my energy.
772
00:38:29,240 --> 00:38:31,440
This is not
my first time starving.
773
00:38:31,543 --> 00:38:34,453
So I know that
if I just eat a little bit,
774
00:38:34,546 --> 00:38:36,246
I’m going to have
extreme hunger
775
00:38:36,347 --> 00:38:38,347
and I’m gonna have
hunger pangs.
776
00:38:38,449 --> 00:38:41,219
This mental hunger
is an obsession.
777
00:38:41,319 --> 00:38:45,259
And it takes a lot
of mental energy to come back.
778
00:38:45,356 --> 00:38:48,956
But if you go full fast,
you basically jump that,
779
00:38:49,060 --> 00:38:51,600
and you do not get
the mental hunger
780
00:38:51,696 --> 00:38:53,556
because your body
really understands
781
00:38:53,665 --> 00:38:55,905
that this
is an extreme situation.
782
00:38:56,000 --> 00:39:00,400
So my plan right now basically
is to fast
783
00:39:00,505 --> 00:39:02,615
for 20 more days.
784
00:39:02,707 --> 00:39:04,077
Isn’t that insane?
785
00:39:04,175 --> 00:39:06,275
♪ ♪
786
00:39:06,377 --> 00:39:09,077
What inspires me the most
is the amazing things
787
00:39:09,180 --> 00:39:12,750
we can do when our minds
and bodies are in sync.
788
00:39:12,851 --> 00:39:16,591
I feel everything
is telling me hunker down.
789
00:39:16,688 --> 00:39:17,958
It’s all a risk.
790
00:39:18,056 --> 00:39:20,316
But I improvise a lot,
791
00:39:20,425 --> 00:39:24,035
and I’m not afraid to just go,
like, completely opposite
792
00:39:24,128 --> 00:39:27,428
of what everyone would do
and go with my intuition.
793
00:39:27,532 --> 00:39:30,102
I just need
to last a day longer
794
00:39:30,201 --> 00:39:31,601
than the other contestants.
795
00:39:31,703 --> 00:39:33,303
That’s all I need, you know?
796
00:39:33,404 --> 00:39:36,114
You don’t have
to outrun the bear.
797
00:39:36,207 --> 00:39:39,437
You just have to outrun
your friend.
798
00:39:39,544 --> 00:39:43,784
That’s my plan.
It’s a little bit crazy.
799
00:39:43,882 --> 00:39:46,082
But I think it’s doable.
800
00:39:46,184 --> 00:39:48,224
20 more days of starving.
801
00:39:50,588 --> 00:39:52,418
I think my body can take it,
802
00:39:52,523 --> 00:39:54,563
and my mind can take it.
803
00:39:56,261 --> 00:39:58,731
We’ll see.
804
00:39:58,830 --> 00:40:01,730
[dramatic music]
805
00:40:01,833 --> 00:40:08,843
♪ ♪
806
00:40:17,949 --> 00:40:20,749
- Well, good afternoon.
807
00:40:20,852 --> 00:40:22,392
Oh, my God.
808
00:40:22,487 --> 00:40:27,217
I’ll show you,
but the river is frozen over.
809
00:40:27,325 --> 00:40:29,365
I can’t believe it.
[chuckles]
810
00:40:29,460 --> 00:40:32,660
Let’s see if we can pick it up
on the camera.
811
00:40:32,764 --> 00:40:34,704
Gonna spin you around.
812
00:40:37,135 --> 00:40:39,145
There we go.
Zoom right in.
813
00:40:39,237 --> 00:40:42,367
Look at that.
That’s all ice.
814
00:40:42,473 --> 00:40:47,013
And a section in the middle
is actually flowing.
815
00:40:47,111 --> 00:40:48,351
It hasn’t froze yet.
816
00:40:48,446 --> 00:40:50,706
♪ ♪
817
00:40:50,815 --> 00:40:53,775
Winter is upon us.
818
00:40:53,885 --> 00:40:57,425
♪ ♪
819
00:40:57,522 --> 00:41:01,062
I’m out here as long
as I can stay out.
820
00:41:01,159 --> 00:41:04,799
Winter, here we come.
Bring it on.
821
00:41:04,896 --> 00:41:06,696
This is "monumentous."
822
00:41:06,798 --> 00:41:10,898
My fishing pole is gonna become
a walking stick
823
00:41:11,002 --> 00:41:14,072
’cause I love this stick
and I think fishing’s out.
824
00:41:14,172 --> 00:41:15,842
[chuckles]
825
00:41:15,940 --> 00:41:20,010
I know some really cold
weather is coming in.
826
00:41:20,111 --> 00:41:22,381
I’m just gonna keep
doing what I’m doing--
827
00:41:22,480 --> 00:41:24,380
hunting and trapping
every day.
828
00:41:24,482 --> 00:41:26,182
I’m definitely
on the trail for food
829
00:41:26,284 --> 00:41:28,194
because that’s what’s gonna
keep me out here.
830
00:41:28,286 --> 00:41:30,046
[ax thumping]
831
00:41:30,154 --> 00:41:31,764
I’m going to be
so happy to have this
832
00:41:31,856 --> 00:41:33,256
when I’m trekking around.
833
00:41:33,358 --> 00:41:35,888
♪ ♪
834
00:41:35,994 --> 00:41:38,064
Yay, I got a walking stick.
835
00:41:38,162 --> 00:41:40,802
Fishing...krr, done.
836
00:41:42,700 --> 00:41:44,470
Let’s go find some food.
837
00:41:44,569 --> 00:41:50,769
♪ ♪
838
00:41:50,875 --> 00:41:53,275
I need to get
some blood moving.
839
00:41:53,378 --> 00:41:57,748
Every time I check my traps,
I come home empty-handed.
840
00:41:57,849 --> 00:42:01,289
Today I woke up feeling
super refreshed,
841
00:42:01,386 --> 00:42:03,216
and I’m hungry.
842
00:42:03,321 --> 00:42:05,761
[laughs]
843
00:42:05,857 --> 00:42:10,427
Mentally, emotionally,
I feel ready for winter.
844
00:42:10,528 --> 00:42:13,728
It’s really dependent on food
right now for me.
845
00:42:13,831 --> 00:42:15,171
♪ ♪
846
00:42:15,266 --> 00:42:17,026
Oh, here’s one of my traps.
847
00:42:17,135 --> 00:42:18,575
And...
848
00:42:18,669 --> 00:42:19,639
♪ ♪
849
00:42:19,737 --> 00:42:21,067
It got blown out.
850
00:42:21,172 --> 00:42:22,242
Looks like...
851
00:42:22,340 --> 00:42:23,770
♪ ♪
852
00:42:23,875 --> 00:42:26,285
Someone went through there,
which is good.
853
00:42:26,377 --> 00:42:28,577
♪ ♪
854
00:42:28,679 --> 00:42:31,519
With the fishing days
coming to an end,
855
00:42:31,616 --> 00:42:34,886
I am changing my plan
to spending as much time
856
00:42:34,986 --> 00:42:36,746
as possible trapping.
857
00:42:36,854 --> 00:42:37,924
♪ ♪
858
00:42:38,022 --> 00:42:40,392
That one still looks good.
859
00:42:40,491 --> 00:42:44,261
That’s really my only
food options at this point.
860
00:42:44,362 --> 00:42:45,702
♪ ♪
861
00:42:45,797 --> 00:42:48,097
Looks like someone’s
been digging there.
862
00:42:48,199 --> 00:42:50,029
♪ ♪
863
00:42:50,134 --> 00:42:51,704
Where is it?
864
00:42:51,803 --> 00:42:52,773
Oh!
865
00:42:52,870 --> 00:42:54,440
[gasps] Oh.
866
00:42:54,539 --> 00:42:55,669
Oh, my gosh.
867
00:42:55,773 --> 00:42:58,313
♪ ♪
868
00:43:02,447 --> 00:43:05,347
[dramatic music]
869
00:43:05,450 --> 00:43:07,250
♪ ♪
870
00:43:15,526 --> 00:43:17,126
- Oh. [gasps]
871
00:43:17,228 --> 00:43:20,098
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh.
872
00:43:20,198 --> 00:43:21,598
Oh, my gosh.
873
00:43:21,699 --> 00:43:22,799
♪ ♪
874
00:43:22,900 --> 00:43:24,270
I got one.
875
00:43:24,368 --> 00:43:28,468
♪ ♪
876
00:43:28,573 --> 00:43:30,873
I got one.
[chuckles]
877
00:43:30,975 --> 00:43:32,575
He’s frozen.
878
00:43:32,677 --> 00:43:35,107
Looks like he still has
snowflakes on his head,
879
00:43:35,213 --> 00:43:37,953
so obviously not from today.
880
00:43:38,049 --> 00:43:39,279
Aw.
881
00:43:39,383 --> 00:43:42,253
Yay, I got
something for dinner.
882
00:43:42,353 --> 00:43:45,123
[laughs]
883
00:43:45,223 --> 00:43:46,293
Wow.
884
00:43:46,390 --> 00:43:47,660
Mwah.
885
00:43:49,026 --> 00:43:52,226
I got a frozen dinner
for my dinner tonight.
886
00:43:52,330 --> 00:43:53,560
[laughs]
887
00:43:53,664 --> 00:43:54,904
Oh, that’s not funny.
888
00:43:54,999 --> 00:43:59,069
I hope he hasn’t been there
for too long.
889
00:43:59,170 --> 00:44:01,340
Let me put you in the pocket.
890
00:44:03,608 --> 00:44:06,178
I’ll have to thaw him out
just to gut him.
891
00:44:07,712 --> 00:44:14,722
♪ ♪
892
00:44:20,191 --> 00:44:22,231
This one tastes really good.
893
00:44:22,326 --> 00:44:25,226
♪ ♪
894
00:44:25,329 --> 00:44:27,769
It makes me wonder how long
it’s been sitting there frozen.
895
00:44:27,865 --> 00:44:29,365
[chuckles]
896
00:44:31,536 --> 00:44:34,936
Okay, one more leg.
I did three legs.
897
00:44:35,039 --> 00:44:37,109
Got to save some meat
for tomorrow.
898
00:44:37,208 --> 00:44:40,678
♪ ♪
899
00:44:40,778 --> 00:44:42,778
I often think
of the word "survival"
900
00:44:42,880 --> 00:44:44,950
in a military perspective.
901
00:44:45,049 --> 00:44:47,849
It’s a hard-core term.
902
00:44:47,952 --> 00:44:51,722
But then the word "wilderness"
to me is very different.
903
00:44:51,822 --> 00:44:55,562
It’s about that spiritual
connection with the land.
904
00:44:55,660 --> 00:45:00,530
I am loving every single bite
that I get to eat.
905
00:45:00,631 --> 00:45:03,701
♪ ♪
906
00:45:03,801 --> 00:45:07,241
I see wilderness survival
as not just about the skills.
907
00:45:07,338 --> 00:45:11,878
It’s about the attitude,
the positive humility.
908
00:45:11,976 --> 00:45:14,376
It’s why I sing songs.
909
00:45:14,478 --> 00:45:17,548
The songs bring me
back to myself
910
00:45:17,648 --> 00:45:19,248
and ground me
911
00:45:19,350 --> 00:45:22,920
to the spiritual connection
with the Earth.
912
00:45:23,020 --> 00:45:25,690
It is that connection
with the land
913
00:45:25,790 --> 00:45:29,030
that keeps me ready
for whatever it’s going to be.
914
00:45:31,696 --> 00:45:33,896
Checked my traps,
got a squirrel.
915
00:45:33,998 --> 00:45:35,768
It’s been a good day.
916
00:45:35,866 --> 00:45:39,096
So just chillin’ tonight.
Gonna go to bed.
917
00:45:39,203 --> 00:45:42,113
Do it all over again tomorrow.
918
00:45:42,206 --> 00:45:46,106
♪ Aye-aye-aye,
aye-aye-aye-aye ♪
919
00:45:46,210 --> 00:45:49,680
♪ Aye-aye-aye-aye,
aye-aye-aye-aye ♪
920
00:45:49,780 --> 00:45:53,720
♪ Aye-aye-aye-aye,
aye-aye-aye-aye ♪
921
00:45:53,818 --> 00:45:55,718
♪ Aye-aye-aye-aye... ♪
922
00:45:55,820 --> 00:46:02,830
♪ ♪
923
00:46:11,335 --> 00:46:12,435
- Look.
924
00:46:12,536 --> 00:46:14,166
♪ ♪
925
00:46:15,406 --> 00:46:18,806
Plan for today--
still recovering on my legs,
926
00:46:18,909 --> 00:46:22,249
so I’m gonna set up snares
for squirrels.
927
00:46:22,346 --> 00:46:23,576
♪ ♪
928
00:46:23,681 --> 00:46:27,081
Kind of keep an eye out
for good snaring spots...
929
00:46:27,184 --> 00:46:31,464
so I take advantage
of every food opportunity.
930
00:46:31,555 --> 00:46:34,755
This is a nice snare point
right here.
931
00:46:34,859 --> 00:46:36,089
♪ ♪
932
00:46:36,193 --> 00:46:38,533
I know my hunting grounds
very well now,
933
00:46:38,629 --> 00:46:41,929
and I know the animal behavior
very well now.
934
00:46:42,033 --> 00:46:45,443
The hunting that I do
is based on sectors.
935
00:46:45,536 --> 00:46:47,836
I don’t overexert
myself walking around,
936
00:46:47,938 --> 00:46:51,038
and I’m only taking shots
when squirrels are feeding,
937
00:46:51,142 --> 00:46:53,642
when squirrels are shuttling
from points A and B
938
00:46:53,744 --> 00:46:56,784
and I’m waiting
at points A and B.
939
00:46:56,881 --> 00:46:58,651
Hopefully we catch something.
940
00:46:58,749 --> 00:47:00,649
♪ ♪
941
00:47:00,751 --> 00:47:03,451
Every day you have
to adapt here.
942
00:47:03,554 --> 00:47:05,994
The next challenge
for me is seeing
943
00:47:06,090 --> 00:47:08,690
if these new limits
on my body
944
00:47:08,793 --> 00:47:11,063
will affect my ability
to get food.
945
00:47:11,162 --> 00:47:13,062
♪ ♪
946
00:47:13,164 --> 00:47:15,234
This is a good one.
947
00:47:15,333 --> 00:47:18,543
I can see some of their stashes
over here,
948
00:47:18,636 --> 00:47:20,696
those little piles.
949
00:47:20,805 --> 00:47:23,575
Looking for kind of natural
funnel points,
950
00:47:23,674 --> 00:47:25,414
snare areas.
951
00:47:25,509 --> 00:47:26,579
♪ ♪
952
00:47:26,677 --> 00:47:28,647
I feel like no matter
how hard it gets,
953
00:47:28,746 --> 00:47:30,776
if it’s for family,
954
00:47:30,881 --> 00:47:32,151
everything’s worth it.
955
00:47:32,249 --> 00:47:33,919
♪ ♪
956
00:47:34,018 --> 00:47:36,518
In my heart,
I know that I need to push.
957
00:47:36,620 --> 00:47:38,920
I need to show
how strong I am,
958
00:47:39,023 --> 00:47:40,863
how strong my mom made me.
959
00:47:40,958 --> 00:47:44,058
♪ ♪
960
00:47:44,161 --> 00:47:46,401
[bird cawing]
961
00:47:46,497 --> 00:47:48,027
Oh, there’s the crow.
962
00:47:48,132 --> 00:47:51,242
[cawing continues]
963
00:47:51,335 --> 00:47:52,835
♪ ♪
964
00:47:52,937 --> 00:47:56,207
Let’s check the bird trap.
All right, to the beach.
965
00:47:56,307 --> 00:47:59,507
♪ ♪
966
00:47:59,610 --> 00:48:00,810
Holy cow.
967
00:48:03,114 --> 00:48:06,884
♪ ♪
968
00:48:10,921 --> 00:48:13,821
[dramatic music]
969
00:48:13,924 --> 00:48:17,164
♪ ♪
970
00:48:36,280 --> 00:48:37,950
[bleep].
971
00:48:39,650 --> 00:48:43,120
May have been tampered with.
972
00:48:46,590 --> 00:48:49,130
♪ ♪
973
00:48:49,226 --> 00:48:53,256
If I go another week
without catching anything...
974
00:48:53,364 --> 00:48:55,874
I think
that’s gonna be hard.
975
00:48:55,966 --> 00:48:58,266
That’s going to be
really frickin’ hard.
976
00:48:58,369 --> 00:49:01,969
♪ ♪
977
00:49:05,176 --> 00:49:06,676
Just got to keep
the spirits high,
978
00:49:06,777 --> 00:49:09,507
the energy levels
not overworked,
979
00:49:09,613 --> 00:49:12,153
and just need one win.
980
00:49:23,327 --> 00:49:27,227
♪ ♪
981
00:49:27,331 --> 00:49:30,231
I don’t know how I’m gonna
explain this experience.
982
00:49:30,334 --> 00:49:31,644
♪ ♪
983
00:49:31,735 --> 00:49:33,295
I think it’s a lot different
984
00:49:33,404 --> 00:49:36,514
than what I thought
it would be.
985
00:49:36,607 --> 00:49:38,207
Look at that.
986
00:49:38,309 --> 00:49:39,539
♪ ♪
987
00:49:39,643 --> 00:49:43,413
I wish Gabrielle could see
what I see right now.
988
00:49:43,514 --> 00:49:46,424
When I first signed up
for this challenge,
989
00:49:46,517 --> 00:49:49,047
I thought it was
to challenge myself.
990
00:49:49,153 --> 00:49:52,263
But the more
that I think about it,
991
00:49:52,356 --> 00:49:55,526
I couldn’t do this
if it was just for me.
992
00:49:55,626 --> 00:49:58,356
I want to do it for the people
that I love at home.
993
00:49:58,462 --> 00:49:59,662
♪ ♪
994
00:49:59,763 --> 00:50:01,403
I’m not
the most trained out here,
995
00:50:01,499 --> 00:50:05,069
but I’m relying
on the land to teach me.
996
00:50:05,169 --> 00:50:09,209
I take time to respect
the ancestors of this land.
997
00:50:09,306 --> 00:50:12,976
♪ ♪
998
00:50:13,077 --> 00:50:15,947
If you’re in it to really test
your boundaries,
999
00:50:16,046 --> 00:50:18,316
you might not come back
the same.
1000
00:50:18,415 --> 00:50:20,215
Relationships crumble,
1001
00:50:20,317 --> 00:50:25,017
and your life as you know it
is changed forever.
1002
00:50:25,122 --> 00:50:29,232
Kind of just want to skip rocks
on the river...
1003
00:50:29,326 --> 00:50:31,056
see how thick that ice is.
1004
00:50:31,161 --> 00:50:32,801
♪ ♪
1005
00:50:32,897 --> 00:50:36,497
Whoever catches fish in this,
kudos, man.
1006
00:50:36,600 --> 00:50:38,000
♪ ♪
1007
00:50:38,102 --> 00:50:39,502
I feel like
I’m gonna come back
1008
00:50:39,603 --> 00:50:42,513
with a very strong sense
of who I am,
1009
00:50:42,606 --> 00:50:46,576
what I want to do in life,
in my relationships,
1010
00:50:46,677 --> 00:50:48,807
everything.
1011
00:50:48,913 --> 00:50:50,213
Ooh.
1012
00:50:52,316 --> 00:50:53,676
How about this one?
1013
00:50:53,784 --> 00:50:57,454
♪ ♪
1014
00:50:57,555 --> 00:50:58,725
Yeah.
1015
00:51:02,960 --> 00:51:07,700
This experience has made me
feel closer to Gab, too.
1016
00:51:07,798 --> 00:51:09,298
♪ ♪
1017
00:51:09,400 --> 00:51:12,470
I’ll fight for her
every single step of the way,
1018
00:51:12,570 --> 00:51:14,540
as hard
as I’ll fight over here...
1019
00:51:14,638 --> 00:51:15,838
♪ ♪
1020
00:51:15,940 --> 00:51:18,840
’Cause she’s everything.
1021
00:51:18,943 --> 00:51:20,813
♪ ♪
1022
00:51:22,079 --> 00:51:23,549
All right.
1023
00:51:23,647 --> 00:51:26,177
Wind’s telling me to go home.
1024
00:51:26,283 --> 00:51:27,623
I get it.
1025
00:51:32,790 --> 00:51:39,800
♪ ♪
1026
00:51:54,278 --> 00:51:56,448
- [sighs] How do we look?
1027
00:51:59,883 --> 00:52:03,723
We are looking skinny, boy.
1028
00:52:03,821 --> 00:52:05,791
We are looking skinny.
1029
00:52:09,793 --> 00:52:12,633
♪ ♪
1030
00:52:16,300 --> 00:52:19,940
Sorry for having to show you
that beautiful sight.
1031
00:52:20,037 --> 00:52:24,707
♪ ♪
1032
00:52:24,808 --> 00:52:26,808
I don’t know what to do.
1033
00:52:26,910 --> 00:52:30,750
♪ ♪
1034
00:52:30,848 --> 00:52:34,618
The calorie game here just
isn’t working in my favor.
1035
00:52:34,718 --> 00:52:37,218
I’ve got food.
1036
00:52:37,321 --> 00:52:40,991
I’m working harder to get it,
and it’s not enough.
1037
00:52:41,091 --> 00:52:42,891
I’m losing a pound
of weight a day.
1038
00:52:42,993 --> 00:52:46,503
And there doesn’t seem to be
anything I can do about that.
1039
00:52:46,597 --> 00:52:47,897
♪ ♪
1040
00:52:47,998 --> 00:52:50,828
No one on this show
has ever really thrived
1041
00:52:50,934 --> 00:52:52,574
on small game.
1042
00:52:52,670 --> 00:52:54,570
People have eked by.
1043
00:52:54,672 --> 00:52:55,572
♪ ♪
1044
00:52:55,673 --> 00:52:57,513
So I’m gonna focus
1045
00:52:57,608 --> 00:52:59,508
on getting a black bear.
1046
00:52:59,610 --> 00:53:01,140
♪ ♪
1047
00:53:01,245 --> 00:53:03,185
I’m gonna walk out
to the back lot
1048
00:53:03,280 --> 00:53:06,780
and see if we can find
any bear sign out there.
1049
00:53:06,884 --> 00:53:11,524
♪ ♪
1050
00:53:11,622 --> 00:53:13,462
[exhales deeply]
1051
00:53:13,557 --> 00:53:16,327
Hard to make this walk.
[sighs]
1052
00:53:16,427 --> 00:53:19,457
Used to be I could walk
up this hill
1053
00:53:19,563 --> 00:53:22,703
two minutes,
four or five steps at a time.
1054
00:53:22,800 --> 00:53:23,870
♪ ♪
1055
00:53:23,967 --> 00:53:25,697
[exhales deeply]
1056
00:53:25,803 --> 00:53:29,873
My energy levels are
definitely at an all-time low.
1057
00:53:29,973 --> 00:53:33,683
I can feel my body slipping
into starvation mode.
1058
00:53:33,777 --> 00:53:36,277
My body’s just getting weak.
1059
00:53:36,380 --> 00:53:39,480
♪ ♪
1060
00:53:39,583 --> 00:53:41,653
I keep having to stop
every couple minutes
1061
00:53:41,752 --> 00:53:44,322
and catch my breath.
1062
00:53:44,421 --> 00:53:49,461
♪ ♪
1063
00:53:49,560 --> 00:53:51,430
Not a great sign.
1064
00:53:51,528 --> 00:53:53,858
♪ ♪
1065
00:53:53,964 --> 00:53:56,504
I have been grinding away
out here...
1066
00:53:56,600 --> 00:53:57,830
[exhales sharply]
1067
00:53:57,935 --> 00:54:00,605
Day in and day out,
for over 50 days.
1068
00:54:00,704 --> 00:54:02,944
It hasn’t been an easy time.
1069
00:54:03,040 --> 00:54:05,410
Every day has been a challenge
1070
00:54:05,509 --> 00:54:09,179
that I have embraced
and loved.
1071
00:54:09,279 --> 00:54:12,519
But my trajectory
1072
00:54:12,616 --> 00:54:15,016
has been bad for weeks.
1073
00:54:15,119 --> 00:54:19,059
♪ ♪
1074
00:54:19,156 --> 00:54:21,456
All right, my friends...
1075
00:54:21,558 --> 00:54:24,858
we have reached
a critical juncture,
1076
00:54:24,962 --> 00:54:26,862
I believe.
1077
00:54:26,964 --> 00:54:28,634
[exhales deeply]
1078
00:54:28,732 --> 00:54:31,742
My legs are gassed.
1079
00:54:31,835 --> 00:54:34,665
I’m not walking right
through the forest.
1080
00:54:34,772 --> 00:54:36,072
I’m stumbling.
1081
00:54:36,173 --> 00:54:37,413
♪ ♪
1082
00:54:37,508 --> 00:54:40,308
I’m walking like
I’m really tired, and I am.
1083
00:54:40,410 --> 00:54:41,810
♪ ♪
1084
00:54:41,912 --> 00:54:43,652
And I have to call it.
1085
00:54:43,747 --> 00:54:46,317
♪ ♪
1086
00:54:46,416 --> 00:54:48,486
It’s time to go home.
1087
00:54:48,585 --> 00:54:55,485
♪ ♪
1088
00:54:55,592 --> 00:54:59,662
I don’t know how to logic my
way around this food equation.
1089
00:54:59,763 --> 00:55:01,333
♪ ♪
1090
00:55:01,431 --> 00:55:04,471
We just aren’t
bringing enough in,
1091
00:55:04,568 --> 00:55:07,998
and I’m not finding
any new bear sign.
1092
00:55:08,105 --> 00:55:09,915
♪ ♪
1093
00:55:10,007 --> 00:55:13,477
Grouse and squirrels,
berries and mushrooms...
1094
00:55:13,577 --> 00:55:17,207
that’s worked for 52 days,
1095
00:55:17,314 --> 00:55:21,854
but it’s not gonna work
for another 20.
1096
00:55:21,952 --> 00:55:23,352
I just don’t think I have
1097
00:55:23,453 --> 00:55:25,193
20 days’ worth of weight
to lose,
1098
00:55:25,289 --> 00:55:27,189
which is what I think
I need to win.
1099
00:55:27,291 --> 00:55:29,191
♪ ♪
1100
00:55:29,293 --> 00:55:31,593
I wish I had fishing
to fall back on
1101
00:55:31,695 --> 00:55:35,225
or gill netting
or something, something,
1102
00:55:35,332 --> 00:55:37,372
something, something, you know?
1103
00:55:37,467 --> 00:55:40,737
♪ ♪
1104
00:55:40,838 --> 00:55:43,968
I have to work a physical job.
1105
00:55:44,074 --> 00:55:46,414
And if I can’t win,
1106
00:55:46,510 --> 00:55:48,810
I can’t screw my body up
1107
00:55:48,912 --> 00:55:51,312
to the point where I can’t
work when I get home.
1108
00:55:51,415 --> 00:55:52,525
♪ ♪
1109
00:55:52,616 --> 00:55:54,576
But that black bear could walk
1110
00:55:54,685 --> 00:55:57,655
down that river valley trail
1111
00:55:57,754 --> 00:55:59,194
three days from now.
1112
00:55:59,289 --> 00:56:01,789
I could get a 20-yard shot
from my front door.
1113
00:56:01,892 --> 00:56:03,462
♪ ♪
1114
00:56:03,560 --> 00:56:05,900
I really do love it out here.
1115
00:56:05,996 --> 00:56:08,496
I just wish I could get
a little bit more food.
1116
00:56:08,599 --> 00:56:10,399
♪ ♪
1117
00:56:10,500 --> 00:56:12,340
[sighs]
1118
00:56:12,436 --> 00:56:18,436
♪ ♪
1119
00:56:20,110 --> 00:56:21,010
Okay.
1120
00:56:21,111 --> 00:56:22,681
♪ ♪
1121
00:56:22,779 --> 00:56:24,349
Let me show you something.
1122
00:56:24,448 --> 00:56:29,688
♪ ♪
1123
00:56:29,786 --> 00:56:32,956
There’s a spruce grouse
in my camp.
1124
00:56:33,056 --> 00:56:36,786
♪ ♪
1125
00:56:40,864 --> 00:56:43,774
[dramatic music]
1126
00:56:43,867 --> 00:56:47,197
♪ ♪
1127
00:56:48,639 --> 00:56:50,739
♪ ♪
1128
00:56:50,841 --> 00:56:54,681
That bird has fueled my body.
1129
00:56:54,778 --> 00:56:58,208
My time in this place
is inextricably linked
1130
00:56:58,315 --> 00:57:01,225
with that spruce grouse.
1131
00:57:01,318 --> 00:57:04,048
I wouldn’t be here right now
if not for them.
1132
00:57:04,154 --> 00:57:06,024
♪ ♪
1133
00:57:06,123 --> 00:57:09,393
What a beautiful creature...
1134
00:57:09,493 --> 00:57:11,233
I’m grateful for.
1135
00:57:11,328 --> 00:57:15,868
♪ ♪
1136
00:57:15,966 --> 00:57:19,166
Any other day...
1137
00:57:19,269 --> 00:57:22,339
the last 52 days,
1138
00:57:22,439 --> 00:57:25,439
and this little guy
would be dinner.
1139
00:57:28,612 --> 00:57:31,952
Today he’s gonna get away
with it...
1140
00:57:33,750 --> 00:57:35,350
’Cause we’re going home.
1141
00:57:35,452 --> 00:57:38,822
♪ ♪
1142
00:57:38,922 --> 00:57:40,492
It’s a sad thing
to think about--
1143
00:57:40,590 --> 00:57:42,360
my time here coming to an end.
1144
00:57:42,459 --> 00:57:44,089
♪ ♪
1145
00:57:44,194 --> 00:57:47,734
Today when I felt
my legs just turn to lead
1146
00:57:47,831 --> 00:57:52,241
and every step just be
a massive effort
1147
00:57:52,336 --> 00:57:54,066
just to move,
1148
00:57:54,171 --> 00:57:55,711
that’s when you know.
1149
00:57:55,806 --> 00:58:00,576
♪ ♪
1150
00:58:00,677 --> 00:58:03,507
It feels like a good time
to make that phone call.
1151
00:58:03,613 --> 00:58:04,983
What do you say?
1152
00:58:05,082 --> 00:58:07,352
♪ ♪
1153
00:58:07,451 --> 00:58:10,091
Go up top and admire the view
a little bit.
1154
00:58:10,187 --> 00:58:14,917
♪ ♪
1155
00:58:15,025 --> 00:58:18,335
I want to leave here
on my own two feet,
1156
00:58:18,428 --> 00:58:21,758
of my own volition,
with my head held high.
1157
00:58:21,865 --> 00:58:24,665
I don’t want to get medically
pulled for weight loss.
1158
00:58:24,768 --> 00:58:28,868
I don’t feel like
that’s a noble way to leave.
1159
00:58:28,972 --> 00:58:30,342
♪ ♪
1160
00:58:30,440 --> 00:58:33,740
I came out here to burn
my candle down to the wick,
1161
00:58:33,844 --> 00:58:36,384
and I got 52 days out of it.
1162
00:58:36,480 --> 00:58:38,480
Some could do better.
1163
00:58:38,582 --> 00:58:39,922
Others will do worse.
1164
00:58:40,017 --> 00:58:42,947
♪ ♪
1165
00:58:43,053 --> 00:58:45,723
[phone beeping]
1166
00:58:45,822 --> 00:58:50,992
♪ ♪
1167
00:58:51,094 --> 00:58:53,634
Hey, this is Adam.
1168
00:58:53,730 --> 00:58:56,130
I’m officially tapping out.
1169
00:58:56,233 --> 00:59:02,273
♪ ♪
1170
00:59:02,372 --> 00:59:04,672
There is a sadness there now,
1171
00:59:04,775 --> 00:59:07,945
sadness
at the definite finality.
1172
00:59:08,045 --> 00:59:10,055
[sighs]
1173
00:59:10,147 --> 00:59:14,677
But I’m excited
to see my loved ones,
1174
00:59:14,785 --> 00:59:16,955
to tell them all
how much I love them...
1175
00:59:17,054 --> 00:59:18,894
♪ ♪
1176
00:59:18,989 --> 00:59:22,229
Deeper than I ever have
1177
00:59:22,325 --> 00:59:25,395
my whole life thanks to this.
1178
00:59:25,495 --> 00:59:26,925
♪ ♪
1179
00:59:27,030 --> 00:59:28,730
What a gift that is.
1180
00:59:28,832 --> 00:59:30,402
♪ ♪
1181
00:59:30,500 --> 00:59:33,240
Absence really does make
the heart grow fonder.
1182
00:59:33,336 --> 00:59:35,236
[chuckles]
1183
00:59:35,338 --> 00:59:42,348
♪ ♪
1184
00:59:44,648 --> 00:59:46,778
Done good, moss house.
1185
00:59:46,883 --> 00:59:48,083
Done good.
1186
00:59:48,185 --> 00:59:49,625
♪ ♪
1187
00:59:49,719 --> 00:59:51,789
Be sad to see you go.
1188
00:59:51,888 --> 00:59:58,798
♪ ♪
1189
01:00:01,198 --> 01:00:02,568
[distant engines rumbling]
1190
01:00:02,666 --> 01:00:04,166
Here they come.
1191
01:00:08,305 --> 01:00:09,545
Hey, guys.
1192
01:00:11,208 --> 01:00:13,938
I failed at my goal
1193
01:00:14,044 --> 01:00:16,414
of winning
a half million dollars,
1194
01:00:16,513 --> 01:00:17,913
and when you fail at something,
1195
01:00:18,014 --> 01:00:21,154
you’re always going
to want to review the playbook
1196
01:00:21,251 --> 01:00:24,951
and figure out what
you could have done better.
1197
01:00:25,055 --> 01:00:27,865
But I did 100%--
1198
01:00:27,958 --> 01:00:29,888
and I can say
this with confidence--
1199
01:00:29,993 --> 01:00:33,403
give everything I had
to every single day,
1200
01:00:33,497 --> 01:00:36,097
even if on that day it meant
that I couldn’t get out of bed
1201
01:00:36,199 --> 01:00:38,899
until 9:30
because I was so tired
1202
01:00:39,002 --> 01:00:40,702
’cause I hadn’t slept all night
1203
01:00:40,804 --> 01:00:43,174
and I could only do
two or three hours of hunting
1204
01:00:43,273 --> 01:00:44,943
instead of five,
and I came home empty-handed.
1205
01:00:45,041 --> 01:00:47,311
I still did the best I could.
1206
01:00:47,410 --> 01:00:51,550
And when you know
that you’ve done your best,
1207
01:00:51,648 --> 01:00:54,078
losing at something
1208
01:00:54,184 --> 01:00:57,924
doesn’t feel quite so...
1209
01:00:58,021 --> 01:01:00,091
bitter.
1210
01:01:00,190 --> 01:01:02,890
What more could you have done,
you know?
1211
01:01:02,993 --> 01:01:07,933
♪ ♪
1212
01:01:08,031 --> 01:01:10,601
I came out here with
a backpack full of clothes
1213
01:01:10,700 --> 01:01:12,870
and ten items,
1214
01:01:12,969 --> 01:01:15,809
and I built myself a house,
1215
01:01:15,906 --> 01:01:20,376
and I kept myself fed
and rested and watered
1216
01:01:20,477 --> 01:01:22,707
for close to eight weeks.
1217
01:01:22,812 --> 01:01:24,382
I’m pretty proud of that.
1218
01:01:24,481 --> 01:01:25,721
♪ ♪
1219
01:01:25,815 --> 01:01:26,915
I’m not a professional.
1220
01:01:27,017 --> 01:01:30,017
I’m a tradesman
that loves the outdoors.
1221
01:01:30,120 --> 01:01:33,820
And I want to encourage anyone
1222
01:01:33,924 --> 01:01:36,394
to just get outside
and to learn
1223
01:01:36,493 --> 01:01:39,433
and to try new things
1224
01:01:39,529 --> 01:01:44,069
because you don’t have to be
a professional survivalist.
1225
01:01:44,167 --> 01:01:48,197
You just need to have
some tenacity, some skills.
1226
01:01:48,305 --> 01:01:49,745
♪ ♪
1227
01:01:49,839 --> 01:01:52,139
I played my hand
the best I could,
1228
01:01:52,242 --> 01:01:56,782
and I don’t quite match up,
1229
01:01:56,880 --> 01:01:58,250
and that’s okay.
1230
01:01:58,348 --> 01:02:00,248
♪ ♪
1231
01:02:00,350 --> 01:02:04,920
The risk that comes
from doing things on your own
1232
01:02:05,021 --> 01:02:07,361
also comes
with a great reward,
1233
01:02:07,457 --> 01:02:10,387
which is the opportunity
to learn things about yourself
1234
01:02:10,493 --> 01:02:12,263
that you can’t learn
in any other way.
1235
01:02:12,362 --> 01:02:16,602
♪ ♪
1236
01:02:16,700 --> 01:02:17,900
- Getting weaker.
1237
01:02:18,001 --> 01:02:19,901
My mind’s not as sharp.
1238
01:02:20,003 --> 01:02:22,543
My body’s kind of declining.
1239
01:02:22,639 --> 01:02:24,409
Oh. [bleep].
1240
01:02:24,507 --> 01:02:27,737
- The landscape
has considerably changed.
1241
01:02:27,844 --> 01:02:30,084
Really crazy weather!
1242
01:02:30,180 --> 01:02:32,520
And it just hasn’t stopped.
1243
01:02:32,616 --> 01:02:34,946
Perfect hypothermia weather.
1244
01:02:35,051 --> 01:02:37,421
- Oh, my gosh, it’s deep!
1245
01:02:37,520 --> 01:02:39,390
I’m feeling
like I’m not good enough
1246
01:02:39,489 --> 01:02:41,389
to come home with a meal.
1247
01:02:41,491 --> 01:02:43,731
It’s getting overwhelming.
1248
01:02:43,827 --> 01:02:44,987
Ah!
1249
01:02:45,095 --> 01:02:48,065
♪ ♪
1250
01:02:49,499 --> 01:02:54,299
♪ ♪
1251
01:02:54,371 --> 01:02:57,211
- Any other day
1252
01:02:57,274 --> 01:02:59,814
of the last 52 days,
1253
01:02:59,876 --> 01:03:02,306
and this little guy
would be dinner.
1254
01:03:03,713 --> 01:03:04,913
Today...
1255
01:03:06,082 --> 01:03:09,792
He’s gonna get away with it...
1256
01:03:09,853 --> 01:03:11,123
’cause we’re going home.
1257
01:03:11,187 --> 01:03:16,387
♪ ♪
1258
01:03:16,459 --> 01:03:19,699
My body is telling me
it’s time to go,
1259
01:03:19,763 --> 01:03:22,233
and my brain is telling me,
1260
01:03:22,299 --> 01:03:24,429
"Hey, dude,
it’s also time to go."
1261
01:03:24,501 --> 01:03:26,241
♪ ♪
1262
01:03:26,303 --> 01:03:29,113
A final gift from the land
1263
01:03:29,172 --> 01:03:32,412
is reassurance...
1264
01:03:32,475 --> 01:03:34,135
in my decision.
1265
01:03:34,210 --> 01:03:41,250
♪ ♪
1266
01:03:47,791 --> 01:03:49,231
Here they come.
1267
01:03:53,263 --> 01:03:54,633
Hey, guys.
1268
01:03:56,099 --> 01:03:57,299
Great to see you.
1269
01:03:58,501 --> 01:03:59,741
- How do you think
this experience
1270
01:03:59,803 --> 01:04:01,843
has changed you?
- [sighs]
1271
01:04:01,905 --> 01:04:03,875
So many ways actually.
1272
01:04:03,940 --> 01:04:06,610
First and foremost,
I feel like it has changed
1273
01:04:06,676 --> 01:04:10,506
my relationship to food
in a pretty profound way,
1274
01:04:10,580 --> 01:04:14,420
and this whole time
that I’ve been out here,
1275
01:04:14,484 --> 01:04:17,854
and I’ve been living
off of the land,
1276
01:04:17,921 --> 01:04:21,661
I want to go home and take
that kind of connection
1277
01:04:21,725 --> 01:04:24,265
with me and really work
towards deepening
1278
01:04:24,327 --> 01:04:27,957
my connection with the food
that I eat at home as well.
1279
01:04:29,265 --> 01:04:31,395
Ooh, what is this?
- Ooh.
1280
01:04:31,468 --> 01:04:33,568
- Oh, my God,
it smells amazing.
1281
01:04:40,677 --> 01:04:43,607
Oh, my God, yes.
Thank you.
1282
01:04:46,683 --> 01:04:47,723
Oh.
1283
01:04:49,686 --> 01:04:51,686
Okay, I gotta ask.
1284
01:04:51,755 --> 01:04:52,965
How many people are left?
1285
01:04:55,792 --> 01:04:57,562
- You really can’t tell me?
1286
01:04:57,627 --> 01:04:58,557
- Okay.
1287
01:04:58,628 --> 01:05:02,698
♪ ♪
1288
01:05:02,766 --> 01:05:04,626
I’ve had a great run.
1289
01:05:04,701 --> 01:05:07,871
I get to leave here
with a smile on my face
1290
01:05:07,937 --> 01:05:10,637
and my head held high
and my health intact...
1291
01:05:10,707 --> 01:05:12,307
♪ ♪
1292
01:05:12,375 --> 01:05:15,275
Having learned
so much about myself
1293
01:05:15,345 --> 01:05:19,055
and learned
so many new skills...
1294
01:05:19,115 --> 01:05:23,585
and there’s no loss in that.
1295
01:05:23,653 --> 01:05:25,223
♪ ♪
1296
01:05:25,288 --> 01:05:26,888
That’s me taking home a win.
1297
01:05:26,956 --> 01:05:28,816
♪ ♪
1298
01:05:28,892 --> 01:05:32,132
I will always remember
this place fondly.
1299
01:05:32,195 --> 01:05:35,035
I have nothing
but positive memories,
1300
01:05:35,098 --> 01:05:36,368
and that’s another win.
1301
01:05:36,433 --> 01:05:38,533
♪ ♪
1302
01:05:38,601 --> 01:05:42,671
I’m a blue collar tradesman
that likes the outdoors
1303
01:05:42,739 --> 01:05:44,669
and has some cool skills.
1304
01:05:44,741 --> 01:05:46,611
♪ ♪
1305
01:05:46,676 --> 01:05:49,406
It was always gonna be a bit
of a longshot win for me.
1306
01:05:50,980 --> 01:05:53,480
This landscape
is entirely new to me...
1307
01:05:53,550 --> 01:05:55,790
♪ ♪
1308
01:05:55,852 --> 01:06:00,492
And I managed
to make it a home...
1309
01:06:00,557 --> 01:06:02,117
based on the skills
and the knowledge
1310
01:06:02,192 --> 01:06:03,132
that I do have...
1311
01:06:03,193 --> 01:06:04,563
♪ ♪
1312
01:06:04,627 --> 01:06:07,427
Just by adapting
and by listening
1313
01:06:07,497 --> 01:06:10,497
and by...
1314
01:06:10,567 --> 01:06:13,337
being malleable
to the conditions.
1315
01:06:13,403 --> 01:06:14,973
♪ ♪
1316
01:06:15,038 --> 01:06:17,008
I’m proud of what I’ve done.
1317
01:06:17,073 --> 01:06:19,743
♪ ♪
1318
01:06:19,809 --> 01:06:21,639
I don’t feel disappointed
1319
01:06:21,711 --> 01:06:24,351
about losing
the half a million.
1320
01:06:24,414 --> 01:06:27,854
I am leaving here
with a wealth
1321
01:06:27,917 --> 01:06:30,217
of new knowledge and wisdom
1322
01:06:30,286 --> 01:06:32,686
and deepened love
and appreciation
1323
01:06:32,755 --> 01:06:34,885
for my family and for my home,
1324
01:06:34,958 --> 01:06:37,058
and that’s a pretty good
consolation prize.