1 00:00:10,511 --> 00:00:13,911 [dramatic music] 2 00:00:14,014 --> 00:00:20,924 ♪ ♪ 3 00:00:21,021 --> 00:00:22,661 - There are some ripples forming. 4 00:00:22,756 --> 00:00:24,286 Those are fish biting. 5 00:00:24,391 --> 00:00:26,331 Probably should extend the pier. 6 00:00:26,426 --> 00:00:27,386 ♪ ♪ 7 00:00:27,494 --> 00:00:28,634 Score. 8 00:00:28,729 --> 00:00:29,759 [bow thuds] 9 00:00:29,863 --> 00:00:31,333 - [whispering] Oh, my God, I got one. 10 00:00:31,431 --> 00:00:32,601 ♪ ♪ 11 00:00:32,699 --> 00:00:34,329 I got a muskrat. 12 00:00:34,434 --> 00:00:35,804 [chuckles] 13 00:00:35,903 --> 00:00:36,803 [bow thuds] 14 00:00:36,904 --> 00:00:38,274 - Got it. 15 00:00:38,372 --> 00:00:40,842 Like running on a high right now. 16 00:00:40,941 --> 00:00:42,081 Yes. 17 00:00:42,175 --> 00:00:47,005 - I have been feeling extremely homesick. 18 00:00:47,114 --> 00:00:48,724 It’s, like, gripped me. 19 00:00:48,815 --> 00:00:51,345 ♪ ♪ 20 00:00:51,451 --> 00:00:52,621 - [bleep]. 21 00:00:52,719 --> 00:00:53,719 This is Tom. 22 00:00:53,820 --> 00:00:55,620 I buggered my knee up pretty good, 23 00:00:55,722 --> 00:00:58,122 and I think that that’s gonna have to be it 24 00:00:58,225 --> 00:01:00,035 for me, unfortunately. 25 00:01:00,127 --> 00:01:01,857 - Stomach doesn’t feel good. 26 00:01:01,962 --> 00:01:03,002 [vomits] 27 00:01:03,096 --> 00:01:04,596 - It’s not safe for you to remain. 28 00:01:04,698 --> 00:01:06,398 I have to medically extract you. 29 00:01:06,500 --> 00:01:09,800 - To end like this, this wasn’t what I anticipated. 30 00:01:09,903 --> 00:01:12,073 This isn’t how I saw it going down. 31 00:01:12,172 --> 00:01:19,182 ♪ ♪ 32 00:01:23,183 --> 00:01:25,823 - I can’t wait to have this place try and break me. 33 00:01:25,919 --> 00:01:27,849 narrator: For the first time on "Alone," 34 00:01:27,955 --> 00:01:29,925 ten participants fight to survive 35 00:01:30,023 --> 00:01:31,293 in the hunting ground 36 00:01:31,391 --> 00:01:33,831 of the world’s largest land predator. 37 00:01:33,927 --> 00:01:35,657 - Oh, my God. Where’d he go? 38 00:01:35,762 --> 00:01:36,902 Those are bear. 39 00:01:36,997 --> 00:01:38,327 - I heard a big animal. 40 00:01:38,432 --> 00:01:39,332 - Hey, bear. 41 00:01:39,433 --> 00:01:40,873 - Oh, no. [bleep]. 42 00:01:40,968 --> 00:01:43,338 - Sometimes you eat the bear. 43 00:01:43,437 --> 00:01:45,837 Sometimes the bear eats you. 44 00:01:45,939 --> 00:01:47,869 narrator: Battling merciless conditions... 45 00:01:47,975 --> 00:01:50,185 - This is some hard-core bushwhacking. 46 00:01:50,277 --> 00:01:53,347 - Why does it have to be such a struggle every night? 47 00:01:53,447 --> 00:01:55,277 [bow thuds] - I hit it. I hit it. I hit it. 48 00:01:55,382 --> 00:01:57,522 - I feel more alive every day I’m out here. 49 00:01:57,618 --> 00:01:58,748 Ahh. 50 00:01:58,852 --> 00:02:00,252 - Here comes the rain again. 51 00:02:00,354 --> 00:02:03,194 - Labrador, you’re not gonna make it easy for us, are you? 52 00:02:03,290 --> 00:02:05,020 narrator: In complete isolation... 53 00:02:05,125 --> 00:02:07,985 - The most dangerous thing out here is myself. 54 00:02:08,095 --> 00:02:09,165 - Look at that! 55 00:02:09,262 --> 00:02:10,702 - The cold ground is just pulling 56 00:02:10,797 --> 00:02:12,227 all the warmth from me. 57 00:02:12,332 --> 00:02:14,302 - How many days can this go on? 58 00:02:14,401 --> 00:02:15,541 - Very, very hungry. 59 00:02:15,636 --> 00:02:16,766 - I feel like I’m hitting a wall. 60 00:02:16,870 --> 00:02:18,940 narrator: Last one standing wins. 61 00:02:19,039 --> 00:02:21,669 - Only gonna get harder the longer you stay out here. 62 00:02:21,775 --> 00:02:28,785 ♪ ♪ 63 00:02:50,103 --> 00:02:51,343 - So my friend wrote 64 00:02:51,438 --> 00:02:55,038 this song for me to sing while I’m out here. 65 00:02:55,142 --> 00:02:58,282 And now anytime that I’m having a hard day-- 66 00:02:58,378 --> 00:03:01,918 and I really haven’t had very many hard days. 67 00:03:02,015 --> 00:03:04,075 I’ve gotten down a little bit. 68 00:03:04,184 --> 00:03:07,124 But I sing it a lot. 69 00:03:07,220 --> 00:03:10,990 So I want to share it with you. 70 00:03:11,091 --> 00:03:15,561 ♪ I remember why I came here ♪ 71 00:03:15,662 --> 00:03:20,002 ♪ I remember weaving this dream ♪ 72 00:03:20,100 --> 00:03:24,770 ♪ I remember tending the embers ♪ 73 00:03:24,871 --> 00:03:28,641 ♪ Tender hearts render the space in between ♪ 74 00:03:28,742 --> 00:03:31,982 ♪ Connecting ♪ 75 00:03:32,079 --> 00:03:34,049 ♪ The seen and unseen ♪ 76 00:03:34,147 --> 00:03:37,317 ♪ The spirit that moves through all things ♪ 77 00:03:37,417 --> 00:03:38,817 ♪ ♪ 78 00:03:38,919 --> 00:03:42,989 ♪ Hi-aye-aye, hi-aye-aye, hi-aye-aye-hi ♪ 79 00:03:43,090 --> 00:03:46,930 ♪ Hi-aye-aye, hi-aye-aye, hi-hi-aye ♪ 80 00:03:47,027 --> 00:03:51,157 ♪ Hi-aye-aye, aye-aye-aye, hi-aye-aye-hi ♪ 81 00:03:51,264 --> 00:03:54,874 ♪ Hi-aye-aye, hi-aye-aye, hi-aye-aye-hi ♪ 82 00:03:54,968 --> 00:04:00,008 ♪ ♪ 83 00:04:00,107 --> 00:04:03,007 So that’s my song. 84 00:04:03,110 --> 00:04:08,310 ♪ ♪ 85 00:04:08,415 --> 00:04:11,185 I am going to hike to the yonder river 86 00:04:11,284 --> 00:04:13,694 on the back of my sight. 87 00:04:13,787 --> 00:04:15,357 It’s a new moon. 88 00:04:15,455 --> 00:04:17,655 The animals should be active. 89 00:04:17,758 --> 00:04:20,758 So, of course, I’ll do hunting along the way. 90 00:04:20,861 --> 00:04:22,031 It’s gonna be an adventurous day, 91 00:04:22,129 --> 00:04:23,099 and I’m feeling up for it. 92 00:04:23,196 --> 00:04:26,296 ♪ ♪ 93 00:04:26,399 --> 00:04:31,039 My muskrat plus the bone broth lasted three days. 94 00:04:31,138 --> 00:04:34,108 So I’m running on berry juice right now. 95 00:04:34,207 --> 00:04:35,907 My tummy’s like, "Enough berries. 96 00:04:36,009 --> 00:04:37,039 I need some meat." 97 00:04:37,144 --> 00:04:39,154 [animals chittering] 98 00:04:41,748 --> 00:04:42,878 ♪ ♪ 99 00:04:42,983 --> 00:04:44,683 You know, I’m getting skinnier. 100 00:04:44,785 --> 00:04:48,055 And food, that’s my weak spot. 101 00:04:48,155 --> 00:04:51,825 ♪ ♪ 102 00:04:51,925 --> 00:04:54,635 [animals chittering] 103 00:04:54,728 --> 00:04:56,328 Oh, there you are. You’re up there 104 00:04:56,429 --> 00:04:58,129 [chittering continues] 105 00:04:58,231 --> 00:04:59,571 Do I dare? 106 00:05:04,671 --> 00:05:05,571 Oh. 107 00:05:05,672 --> 00:05:07,372 Oh, nice, it bounced back. 108 00:05:07,474 --> 00:05:09,284 Thank God. 109 00:05:09,376 --> 00:05:12,776 I’m just gonna back up, and maybe he’ll come down. 110 00:05:12,879 --> 00:05:13,809 ♪ ♪ 111 00:05:13,914 --> 00:05:15,624 He’s back in the same spot. 112 00:05:15,715 --> 00:05:20,285 ♪ ♪ 113 00:05:20,387 --> 00:05:22,657 [bleep]. 114 00:05:22,756 --> 00:05:25,116 That’s what I get for being cocky. 115 00:05:25,225 --> 00:05:26,865 Damn, it went way over there. 116 00:05:26,960 --> 00:05:30,130 ♪ ♪ 117 00:05:30,230 --> 00:05:31,900 I missed it by one inch. 118 00:05:31,998 --> 00:05:35,128 I’m not keeping my form. I’m not keeping my technique. 119 00:05:35,235 --> 00:05:38,405 And that’s really disturbing to me. 120 00:05:38,505 --> 00:05:41,115 I hate looking for arrows. 121 00:05:41,208 --> 00:05:44,238 As time progresses, yeah, I’m gonna get a little weaker, 122 00:05:44,344 --> 00:05:47,154 and that can throw off a shot by a lot. 123 00:05:47,247 --> 00:05:51,447 ♪ ♪ 124 00:05:51,551 --> 00:05:53,951 Yeah, screw you. 125 00:05:54,054 --> 00:05:56,594 I don’t know what to do about my shot. 126 00:05:56,690 --> 00:05:58,560 Something has got to change, 127 00:05:58,658 --> 00:06:00,328 or I don’t have much time left, 128 00:06:00,427 --> 00:06:02,757 and that makes me really sad. 129 00:06:06,366 --> 00:06:10,096 ♪ ♪ 130 00:06:10,203 --> 00:06:12,313 Oh, I found it. 131 00:06:12,405 --> 00:06:14,335 No, I’m not way off. 132 00:06:14,441 --> 00:06:16,111 Yay. 133 00:06:16,209 --> 00:06:18,079 Ah, thank you, trees. 134 00:06:18,178 --> 00:06:19,608 Thank you for catching my arrow 135 00:06:19,713 --> 00:06:22,253 and putting it on the ground for me. 136 00:06:22,349 --> 00:06:25,019 Okay, on with our journey. 137 00:06:25,118 --> 00:06:27,548 So glad I have you back. 138 00:06:27,654 --> 00:06:29,624 ♪ Aye-aye-aye, aye-aye-aye ♪ 139 00:06:29,723 --> 00:06:32,963 ♪ Hi-aye-aye-aye, hi-aye-aye-aye ♪ 140 00:06:33,059 --> 00:06:34,989 [humming] 141 00:06:35,095 --> 00:06:38,005 [dramatic music] 142 00:06:38,098 --> 00:06:45,098 ♪ ♪ 143 00:06:54,514 --> 00:06:57,524 [wind whistling] 144 00:06:59,419 --> 00:07:02,689 - It is blowing out there. 145 00:07:05,225 --> 00:07:08,065 I did not sleep well again last night. 146 00:07:08,161 --> 00:07:10,561 I woke up... 147 00:07:10,664 --> 00:07:14,434 with some deep, deep hunger pangs. 148 00:07:14,534 --> 00:07:18,004 [yawns] 149 00:07:18,104 --> 00:07:19,174 They kept me awake 150 00:07:19,272 --> 00:07:21,842 for the rest of the night, just about. 151 00:07:21,942 --> 00:07:24,042 I’m just hungry, guys. 152 00:07:25,879 --> 00:07:30,519 I’m just really hungry. [chuckles] 153 00:07:30,617 --> 00:07:35,017 The solution is to find something today. 154 00:07:35,121 --> 00:07:41,391 ♪ ♪ 155 00:07:41,494 --> 00:07:44,164 When you’re well-fed and you’re warm 156 00:07:44,264 --> 00:07:46,134 and you’re sitting in your home 157 00:07:46,232 --> 00:07:47,802 and you get a bad night’s sleep, 158 00:07:47,901 --> 00:07:50,071 you can feel a little bit crappy. 159 00:07:50,170 --> 00:07:52,340 When you’re out here and you’re living on margins 160 00:07:52,439 --> 00:07:55,939 as thin as we are, with temperatures like this, 161 00:07:56,042 --> 00:07:59,152 a bad night’s sleep can put you behind for days. 162 00:07:59,245 --> 00:08:01,105 ♪ ♪ 163 00:08:01,214 --> 00:08:03,684 Important day of hunting today. 164 00:08:03,783 --> 00:08:06,623 So we are gonna get out and do our thing, 165 00:08:06,720 --> 00:08:07,990 wind be damned. 166 00:08:08,088 --> 00:08:12,118 ♪ ♪ 167 00:08:12,225 --> 00:08:13,325 [wind gusting] 168 00:08:13,426 --> 00:08:18,056 Definitely gusting over 30 knots, 30, 35. 169 00:08:18,164 --> 00:08:20,134 Strongest winds we’ve had out here. 170 00:08:20,233 --> 00:08:22,373 ♪ ♪ 171 00:08:22,469 --> 00:08:24,639 Holy [bleep]. 172 00:08:24,738 --> 00:08:30,938 ♪ ♪ 173 00:08:31,044 --> 00:08:33,154 Crazy windy. 174 00:08:33,246 --> 00:08:37,746 You need to be careful for trees coming down, for sure. 175 00:08:37,851 --> 00:08:39,791 That would not be a fun way to go out. 176 00:08:39,886 --> 00:08:41,146 ♪ ♪ 177 00:08:41,254 --> 00:08:44,294 This is just not a great day to hunt. 178 00:08:44,391 --> 00:08:47,991 There’s so much wind noise, I can’t hear anything. 179 00:08:48,094 --> 00:08:50,464 But at the same time, we need food. 180 00:08:50,563 --> 00:08:57,473 ♪ ♪ 181 00:08:57,570 --> 00:09:00,770 I’m going out every day for three, four, or five hours, 182 00:09:00,874 --> 00:09:02,484 actively hunting, 183 00:09:02,575 --> 00:09:05,305 and the only reliable hunting 184 00:09:05,412 --> 00:09:07,512 I’ve found over the last couple of weeks 185 00:09:07,614 --> 00:09:09,654 has been to follow the river trail 186 00:09:09,749 --> 00:09:12,249 and go up and down looking for grouse. 187 00:09:12,352 --> 00:09:14,222 ♪ ♪ 188 00:09:14,320 --> 00:09:18,690 I’ve not been able to get ahead on food in any way. 189 00:09:18,792 --> 00:09:21,632 I only have half a grouse in the bag. 190 00:09:21,728 --> 00:09:23,998 And things are just starting to dry up. 191 00:09:24,097 --> 00:09:27,097 The grouse are getting harder to find. 192 00:09:27,200 --> 00:09:28,900 ♪ ♪ 193 00:09:29,002 --> 00:09:31,002 I have to be out every single day. 194 00:09:31,104 --> 00:09:33,844 That means more calories getting burned. 195 00:09:33,940 --> 00:09:39,410 ♪ ♪ 196 00:09:39,512 --> 00:09:40,782 Oh, no. 197 00:09:40,880 --> 00:09:42,520 ♪ ♪ 198 00:09:42,615 --> 00:09:44,445 I had an arrow fall out. 199 00:09:44,551 --> 00:09:46,651 [sniffs] 200 00:09:46,753 --> 00:09:50,323 An arrow fall out of the quiver. 201 00:09:50,423 --> 00:09:54,033 [bleep], [bleep], [bleep]. 202 00:09:54,127 --> 00:09:56,127 [sighs] 203 00:09:57,864 --> 00:09:59,974 That’s one more arrow down. 204 00:10:00,066 --> 00:10:04,136 I have to try and backtrack and find it. 205 00:10:04,237 --> 00:10:07,267 What a waste of time and energy this is gonna be. 206 00:10:07,373 --> 00:10:13,553 ♪ ♪ 207 00:10:13,646 --> 00:10:17,976 I had an arrow get pulled out of its bow quiver 208 00:10:18,084 --> 00:10:20,854 by just one of the branches just grabbing me 209 00:10:20,954 --> 00:10:22,424 everywhere I go. 210 00:10:22,522 --> 00:10:24,762 ♪ ♪ 211 00:10:24,858 --> 00:10:27,988 It’s hard going through that brush. 212 00:10:28,094 --> 00:10:30,804 I’m so tired of bushwhacking. 213 00:10:30,897 --> 00:10:32,627 Oh, my God. [sniffs] 214 00:10:32,732 --> 00:10:35,502 ♪ ♪ 215 00:10:35,602 --> 00:10:38,472 All these branches, these dead trees, 216 00:10:38,571 --> 00:10:41,841 they are wearing me down. 217 00:10:41,941 --> 00:10:43,341 ♪ ♪ 218 00:10:43,443 --> 00:10:45,243 [sighs] I don’t have the energy for it. 219 00:10:45,345 --> 00:10:47,355 I don’t have the gas in my legs. 220 00:10:47,447 --> 00:10:49,377 [sighs] 221 00:10:49,482 --> 00:10:51,822 It’s just hard to push through. 222 00:10:51,918 --> 00:10:53,548 ♪ ♪ 223 00:10:53,653 --> 00:10:57,193 There’s some ankle-breaking [bleep] in this forest. 224 00:10:57,290 --> 00:10:58,590 ♪ ♪ 225 00:10:58,691 --> 00:11:00,861 Oh. 226 00:11:00,960 --> 00:11:03,100 Aah! 227 00:11:03,196 --> 00:11:04,956 [bleep]! 228 00:11:08,735 --> 00:11:15,075 ♪ ♪ 229 00:11:18,912 --> 00:11:19,812 Over it. 230 00:11:19,913 --> 00:11:23,483 Over, over, over, over, over it. 231 00:11:23,583 --> 00:11:24,723 ♪ ♪ 232 00:11:24,817 --> 00:11:27,287 [groans] 233 00:11:27,387 --> 00:11:28,817 Get off me. 234 00:11:28,922 --> 00:11:31,322 These branches got me so twisted up. 235 00:11:31,424 --> 00:11:32,894 ♪ ♪ 236 00:11:32,992 --> 00:11:34,832 Two seconds-- I need two seconds. 237 00:11:34,928 --> 00:11:39,328 ♪ ♪ 238 00:11:39,432 --> 00:11:42,002 [exhales deeply] 239 00:11:42,101 --> 00:11:47,341 ♪ ♪ 240 00:11:47,440 --> 00:11:48,610 Okay. 241 00:11:48,708 --> 00:11:50,178 ♪ ♪ 242 00:11:50,276 --> 00:11:51,336 [sniffs] 243 00:11:51,444 --> 00:11:53,984 Just take your time. 244 00:11:54,080 --> 00:11:55,510 Everything’s good. 245 00:11:55,615 --> 00:12:02,625 ♪ ♪ 246 00:12:03,756 --> 00:12:05,726 I had a little bit of a temper tantrum. 247 00:12:05,825 --> 00:12:08,185 ♪ ♪ 248 00:12:08,294 --> 00:12:11,834 I’m just feeling it. My legs are pretty gassed. 249 00:12:11,931 --> 00:12:15,031 And it’s getting hard to move effectively 250 00:12:15,134 --> 00:12:17,444 through that dense, thick, steep hillside. 251 00:12:17,537 --> 00:12:18,867 ♪ ♪ 252 00:12:18,972 --> 00:12:22,012 I don’t have the energy in my legs 253 00:12:22,108 --> 00:12:23,978 to go for three hours today. 254 00:12:24,077 --> 00:12:25,307 ♪ ♪ 255 00:12:25,411 --> 00:12:27,711 Starting to feel the weight loss, I guess. 256 00:12:27,814 --> 00:12:29,654 ♪ ♪ 257 00:12:29,749 --> 00:12:31,749 I’m gonna head home. 258 00:12:31,851 --> 00:12:34,651 We burned a lot of calories for nothing. 259 00:12:34,754 --> 00:12:36,164 And I lost my arrow. 260 00:12:36,256 --> 00:12:37,656 ♪ ♪ 261 00:12:37,757 --> 00:12:40,087 That’s one more arrow down. 262 00:12:40,193 --> 00:12:42,333 Four arrows left. 263 00:12:42,428 --> 00:12:45,058 ♪ ♪ 264 00:12:45,164 --> 00:12:47,004 The wind about did me in. 265 00:12:47,100 --> 00:12:51,170 ♪ ♪ 266 00:12:51,271 --> 00:12:52,841 I’m missing my family 267 00:12:52,939 --> 00:12:55,509 more than I ever have in my life. 268 00:12:55,608 --> 00:12:58,108 ♪ ♪ 269 00:12:58,211 --> 00:13:00,481 And I’ve been away from home 270 00:13:00,580 --> 00:13:03,680 for up to a year at a time. 271 00:13:03,783 --> 00:13:05,923 But it’s the isolation, you know? 272 00:13:06,019 --> 00:13:08,019 It’s just the not knowing, 273 00:13:08,121 --> 00:13:11,061 the not knowing that everyone’s okay. 274 00:13:11,157 --> 00:13:15,027 I just want to see my friends and family and my dog... 275 00:13:15,128 --> 00:13:16,358 so bad. 276 00:13:16,462 --> 00:13:17,662 ♪ ♪ 277 00:13:17,764 --> 00:13:20,974 I’ve never felt anything like this before. 278 00:13:21,067 --> 00:13:22,967 And I cannot shake it. 279 00:13:23,069 --> 00:13:25,369 ♪ ♪ 280 00:13:25,471 --> 00:13:27,641 Combine that with being tired, 281 00:13:27,740 --> 00:13:31,110 just feeling lonely and down. 282 00:13:31,210 --> 00:13:32,480 ♪ ♪ 283 00:13:32,578 --> 00:13:34,148 We’re living day to day. 284 00:13:34,247 --> 00:13:35,277 ♪ ♪ 285 00:13:35,381 --> 00:13:37,481 And... 286 00:13:37,583 --> 00:13:39,823 you know, we’re just gonna do this one day at a time 287 00:13:39,919 --> 00:13:40,819 at this point. 288 00:13:40,920 --> 00:13:44,160 ♪ ♪ 289 00:13:44,257 --> 00:13:47,587 I want to be here. I want to continue to be here. 290 00:13:50,129 --> 00:13:53,529 So let’s see if we can make it happen. 291 00:13:53,633 --> 00:14:00,643 ♪ ♪ 292 00:14:07,814 --> 00:14:10,724 - I don’t know how many hours I slept last night, 293 00:14:10,817 --> 00:14:12,517 but I don’t think many. 294 00:14:14,253 --> 00:14:15,993 It’s all the wind and... 295 00:14:18,791 --> 00:14:21,061 It’s so noisy. 296 00:14:21,160 --> 00:14:23,260 I’m going to try to make some earplugs 297 00:14:23,363 --> 00:14:26,333 because I think it will really improve my sleep. 298 00:14:39,145 --> 00:14:40,115 Nice. 299 00:14:40,213 --> 00:14:41,883 That worked. 300 00:14:41,981 --> 00:14:44,981 That’s a little improvement... 301 00:14:45,084 --> 00:14:46,294 for my life. 302 00:14:48,454 --> 00:14:50,694 ♪ ♪ 303 00:14:50,790 --> 00:14:53,490 We had lots and lots of wind lately. 304 00:14:53,593 --> 00:14:55,693 The wind really brings me down. 305 00:14:55,795 --> 00:15:00,105 It just makes me, like, want to just stay in bed. 306 00:15:00,199 --> 00:15:03,599 But today I have two objectives. 307 00:15:03,703 --> 00:15:06,973 I want to set up a hanging line 308 00:15:07,073 --> 00:15:09,073 so that I can hang my sleeping bag 309 00:15:09,175 --> 00:15:13,115 and make sure the feathers don’t clump up. 310 00:15:13,212 --> 00:15:15,052 I also need to work on my bed. 311 00:15:15,148 --> 00:15:17,178 I want to make it way more comfortable, 312 00:15:17,283 --> 00:15:20,253 because my bed is uncomfortable. 313 00:15:20,353 --> 00:15:23,623 Now I need to hang my sleeping bag from here. 314 00:15:23,723 --> 00:15:25,793 ♪ ♪ 315 00:15:25,892 --> 00:15:28,832 Sleep is huge, super important, 316 00:15:28,928 --> 00:15:31,128 and the more hours of sleep I get, 317 00:15:31,230 --> 00:15:32,360 I think it’s better 318 00:15:32,465 --> 00:15:35,735 because that’s less calories I use. 319 00:15:35,835 --> 00:15:37,105 It’s better to be sleeping 320 00:15:37,203 --> 00:15:40,473 than to be awake in a survival situation. 321 00:15:40,573 --> 00:15:43,613 So I need to figure out a way to be 322 00:15:43,709 --> 00:15:46,479 as comfortable as possible so that I can sleep 323 00:15:46,579 --> 00:15:48,649 as many hours as possible. 324 00:15:48,748 --> 00:15:50,318 ♪ ♪ 325 00:15:50,416 --> 00:15:51,816 Nice. 326 00:15:51,918 --> 00:15:53,918 I’m gonna go work on my bed. 327 00:15:54,020 --> 00:16:01,030 ♪ ♪ 328 00:16:04,664 --> 00:16:07,334 I’m excited for the winter. 329 00:16:07,433 --> 00:16:11,443 The snow, the cold, it feels familiar to me. 330 00:16:11,537 --> 00:16:13,807 ♪ ♪ 331 00:16:13,906 --> 00:16:17,006 I think no one here has as much winter experience 332 00:16:17,109 --> 00:16:18,309 as me by far, 333 00:16:18,411 --> 00:16:20,351 so it’s my advantage. 334 00:16:20,446 --> 00:16:26,916 ♪ ♪ 335 00:16:27,019 --> 00:16:30,119 Yeah, so I’m gonna call it a day for the bed. 336 00:16:30,223 --> 00:16:31,693 It’s good, I think. 337 00:16:31,791 --> 00:16:34,931 We’ll see. We’ll see tonight. 338 00:16:38,731 --> 00:16:41,631 [dramatic music] 339 00:16:41,734 --> 00:16:44,844 ♪ ♪ 340 00:16:52,879 --> 00:16:54,549 - Let’s get some water. 341 00:16:59,552 --> 00:17:01,652 The creek is iced up. 342 00:17:03,789 --> 00:17:06,059 This is where I normally get my water. 343 00:17:12,164 --> 00:17:14,334 Oh, I can still get in there. 344 00:17:15,835 --> 00:17:17,405 Pretty cold out here. 345 00:17:17,503 --> 00:17:18,803 ♪ ♪ 346 00:17:18,905 --> 00:17:20,275 All righty. 347 00:17:20,373 --> 00:17:22,313 I think this cold’s here to stay. 348 00:17:22,408 --> 00:17:25,438 It’s only gonna get more cold and more windy. 349 00:17:25,545 --> 00:17:28,585 In the military, I trained in Arctic warfare and survival. 350 00:17:28,681 --> 00:17:30,321 So I’ve been to minus 60. 351 00:17:30,416 --> 00:17:32,046 I’ve been to minus 70. 352 00:17:32,151 --> 00:17:34,851 This is the temperature I operate in. 353 00:17:34,954 --> 00:17:36,894 See, there’s still water draining, 354 00:17:36,989 --> 00:17:39,259 but we’ll just melt ice if we need to. 355 00:17:39,358 --> 00:17:40,828 ♪ ♪ 356 00:17:40,927 --> 00:17:45,097 Out here, the only big factor for me is, can I hunt? 357 00:17:45,197 --> 00:17:47,567 Can I procure food? 358 00:17:47,667 --> 00:17:49,737 Everything’s a little more complex. 359 00:17:49,835 --> 00:17:53,605 When it’s cold, there’s less food. 360 00:17:53,706 --> 00:17:54,936 The squirrels-- 361 00:17:55,041 --> 00:17:56,511 they’re the most active thing right now. 362 00:17:56,609 --> 00:17:58,839 So I’m focusing on squirrel. 363 00:17:58,945 --> 00:18:00,255 ♪ ♪ 364 00:18:00,346 --> 00:18:01,576 Let’s go get some food. 365 00:18:01,681 --> 00:18:03,621 ♪ ♪ 366 00:18:03,716 --> 00:18:07,146 I just need one kill to lift my spirits a little bit. 367 00:18:07,253 --> 00:18:13,893 ♪ ♪ 368 00:18:13,993 --> 00:18:15,163 Hoo. 369 00:18:15,261 --> 00:18:17,001 ♪ ♪ 370 00:18:17,096 --> 00:18:20,896 Oh, my God, I’m not doing well. 371 00:18:21,000 --> 00:18:25,040 I’m getting to the point where I’m a lot more hungry. 372 00:18:25,137 --> 00:18:26,867 ♪ ♪ 373 00:18:26,973 --> 00:18:30,213 At night, I wake up just wanting to eat, 374 00:18:30,309 --> 00:18:34,049 and all I can give my body is some cranberries. 375 00:18:34,146 --> 00:18:36,046 [animal chittering] 376 00:18:36,148 --> 00:18:37,378 ♪ ♪ 377 00:18:37,483 --> 00:18:39,593 Why don’t you show yourself? 378 00:18:39,685 --> 00:18:42,085 The biggest thing for me are the cravings. 379 00:18:42,188 --> 00:18:44,418 They’re getting a little painful now. 380 00:18:44,523 --> 00:18:48,263 And I have close to zero fat reserves right now. 381 00:18:48,361 --> 00:18:55,371 ♪ ♪ 382 00:18:58,204 --> 00:19:01,214 There’s two chasing each other. 383 00:19:05,311 --> 00:19:07,111 Where did it go? 384 00:19:07,213 --> 00:19:08,353 ♪ ♪ 385 00:19:08,447 --> 00:19:09,777 Oh, there it is. 386 00:19:09,882 --> 00:19:14,492 ♪ ♪ 387 00:19:14,587 --> 00:19:15,917 [bleep]. 388 00:19:16,022 --> 00:19:17,122 I missed it. 389 00:19:17,223 --> 00:19:20,963 ♪ ♪ 390 00:19:21,060 --> 00:19:23,360 I don’t feel so good. 391 00:19:23,462 --> 00:19:25,632 I’m just gonna sit down for a little bit. 392 00:19:25,731 --> 00:19:27,131 ♪ ♪ 393 00:19:27,233 --> 00:19:28,733 I need a break. 394 00:19:28,834 --> 00:19:30,904 ♪ ♪ 395 00:19:31,003 --> 00:19:33,143 I’m too tired to walk anymore. 396 00:19:33,239 --> 00:19:34,139 ♪ ♪ 397 00:19:34,240 --> 00:19:36,310 I feel so frickin’ weak. 398 00:19:36,409 --> 00:19:37,939 ♪ ♪ 399 00:19:38,044 --> 00:19:40,814 My energy levels are just... 400 00:19:40,913 --> 00:19:41,983 too low, 401 00:19:42,081 --> 00:19:44,651 and my muscles fatigue too fast. 402 00:19:44,750 --> 00:19:48,350 ♪ ♪ 403 00:19:48,454 --> 00:19:50,494 I don’t want any long hunts. 404 00:19:50,589 --> 00:19:54,689 ♪ ♪ 405 00:19:54,794 --> 00:19:57,834 My body is just not acting the same. 406 00:19:57,930 --> 00:20:01,900 ♪ ♪ 407 00:20:02,001 --> 00:20:03,971 I need to adjust my behaviors 408 00:20:04,070 --> 00:20:07,770 so that I’m getting as much as I can with what I got. 409 00:20:07,873 --> 00:20:10,143 ♪ ♪ 410 00:20:10,242 --> 00:20:12,782 It’s definitely a mental game. 411 00:20:12,878 --> 00:20:15,278 It’s hard. It’s really hard. 412 00:20:15,381 --> 00:20:21,951 ♪ ♪ 413 00:20:22,054 --> 00:20:24,264 For me to stay positive, 414 00:20:24,356 --> 00:20:27,956 I’m just gonna have to take 20 minutes or so, 415 00:20:28,060 --> 00:20:31,560 kind of think of what my happy thought is for the day. 416 00:20:33,399 --> 00:20:35,729 It always comes back to Gabrielle. 417 00:20:37,903 --> 00:20:40,243 I’m here for my mom. 418 00:20:40,339 --> 00:20:43,039 I want her to see how hard I can push. 419 00:20:43,142 --> 00:20:47,152 I want her to see the strength that she instilled in me 420 00:20:47,246 --> 00:20:49,576 so she can see it in herself again. 421 00:20:50,850 --> 00:20:54,320 But when that strength dwindles 422 00:20:54,420 --> 00:20:57,820 and I start to doubt myself... 423 00:20:57,923 --> 00:21:02,033 thinking about Gab and what we have 424 00:21:02,128 --> 00:21:05,298 and what we hope to have in the future... 425 00:21:05,397 --> 00:21:08,597 it gives me strength that I didn’t know I had left. 426 00:21:08,701 --> 00:21:10,341 ♪ ♪ 427 00:21:10,436 --> 00:21:12,436 And she’s helping me push through. 428 00:21:12,538 --> 00:21:15,508 ♪ ♪ 429 00:21:15,608 --> 00:21:18,238 Well, it’s snowing. 430 00:21:18,344 --> 00:21:19,614 Good night, guys... 431 00:21:19,712 --> 00:21:20,612 ♪ ♪ 432 00:21:20,713 --> 00:21:22,383 And gals. 433 00:21:23,716 --> 00:21:30,716 ♪ ♪ 434 00:21:54,446 --> 00:21:56,076 - Good morning. 435 00:21:56,182 --> 00:22:00,592 Oh, my gosh, what a beautiful morning it is. 436 00:22:00,686 --> 00:22:03,356 [sighs] It snowed. 437 00:22:04,924 --> 00:22:07,494 Yeah, it just gives you a little taste of winter. 438 00:22:07,593 --> 00:22:10,433 It also is bitter cold. 439 00:22:10,529 --> 00:22:12,699 [laughs] 440 00:22:12,798 --> 00:22:13,928 Oh, my gosh. 441 00:22:14,033 --> 00:22:15,433 ♪ ♪ 442 00:22:15,534 --> 00:22:18,944 Today I’m gonna go check my trap line. 443 00:22:19,038 --> 00:22:21,508 It’s been two days since I’ve been there. 444 00:22:21,607 --> 00:22:25,877 And I just see a lot more squirrel activity 445 00:22:25,978 --> 00:22:27,478 further in the woods a little bit, 446 00:22:27,580 --> 00:22:30,280 so I might set up a few more traps there. 447 00:22:32,384 --> 00:22:35,224 Yeah, just spectacular. 448 00:22:37,857 --> 00:22:41,787 ♪ ♪ 449 00:22:41,894 --> 00:22:44,834 Yesterday I was down on myself 450 00:22:44,930 --> 00:22:47,770 because I kept missing the squirrels by one inch. 451 00:22:47,867 --> 00:22:48,897 ♪ ♪ 452 00:22:49,001 --> 00:22:50,641 Ah, this needs to be reset. 453 00:22:50,736 --> 00:22:52,296 ♪ ♪ 454 00:22:52,404 --> 00:22:53,974 Okay. 455 00:22:54,073 --> 00:22:58,413 I am changing my hunting plan to be more around trapping. 456 00:22:58,510 --> 00:22:59,480 ♪ ♪ 457 00:22:59,578 --> 00:23:01,078 That one’s still good. 458 00:23:01,180 --> 00:23:04,150 ♪ ♪ 459 00:23:04,250 --> 00:23:07,850 I’m focusing on snaring for the squirrels. 460 00:23:07,953 --> 00:23:09,353 Wow, look at this. 461 00:23:09,455 --> 00:23:10,595 I’m gonna put a trap. 462 00:23:10,689 --> 00:23:12,089 I’m gonna put five of them 463 00:23:12,191 --> 00:23:15,531 in this little squirrel kitchen area. 464 00:23:15,628 --> 00:23:18,098 Okay, let’s start with this one. 465 00:23:18,197 --> 00:23:19,427 You know, at some point, 466 00:23:19,531 --> 00:23:22,801 they’re gonna hunker down for the winter, 467 00:23:22,902 --> 00:23:25,072 so I need to take advantage of that, 468 00:23:25,170 --> 00:23:27,610 ’cause I am hungry. 469 00:23:27,706 --> 00:23:29,936 My thumbs are split. 470 00:23:30,042 --> 00:23:32,542 Both thumbs are split. 471 00:23:32,645 --> 00:23:36,255 Go, fingers, go, before you get cold. 472 00:23:36,348 --> 00:23:40,288 Squirrels are so forgiving when it comes to trapping. 473 00:23:40,386 --> 00:23:42,986 They don’t care about smells. 474 00:23:43,088 --> 00:23:44,688 ♪ ♪ 475 00:23:44,790 --> 00:23:46,790 Yeah, make a nice round hole 476 00:23:46,892 --> 00:23:49,802 the size of a squirrel head. 477 00:23:49,895 --> 00:23:51,495 Okay, perfect. 478 00:23:51,597 --> 00:23:58,597 ♪ ♪ 479 00:24:04,276 --> 00:24:06,076 It’s been a pretty good day. 480 00:24:06,178 --> 00:24:07,608 I feel pretty content. 481 00:24:07,713 --> 00:24:08,853 ♪ ♪ 482 00:24:08,948 --> 00:24:13,188 I just found myself very much at peace today. 483 00:24:14,520 --> 00:24:16,190 Um... 484 00:24:18,724 --> 00:24:21,534 I went and checked all my traps. 485 00:24:21,627 --> 00:24:22,757 There was no rush. 486 00:24:22,861 --> 00:24:25,661 I set, like, five new traps today. 487 00:24:25,764 --> 00:24:26,934 Um... 488 00:24:27,032 --> 00:24:30,142 I was very at peace, and I felt very humble. 489 00:24:30,235 --> 00:24:32,665 I felt... 490 00:24:32,771 --> 00:24:35,941 like I wasn’t here to do. 491 00:24:36,041 --> 00:24:37,981 What am I gonna do today? 492 00:24:38,077 --> 00:24:39,607 And... 493 00:24:39,712 --> 00:24:41,682 I was just present. 494 00:24:41,780 --> 00:24:43,350 ♪ ♪ 495 00:24:43,449 --> 00:24:46,849 To be honest, it’s been quite embarrassing 496 00:24:46,952 --> 00:24:51,722 as far as my inability to shoot a squirrel, 497 00:24:51,824 --> 00:24:54,134 and I found myself using words 498 00:24:54,226 --> 00:24:56,626 like "my successes" and "my failures." 499 00:24:56,729 --> 00:24:58,299 And I don’t want to be a failure. 500 00:24:58,397 --> 00:25:00,327 Well, what is failing? 501 00:25:00,432 --> 00:25:02,472 Those are words I don’t even use at home. 502 00:25:02,568 --> 00:25:04,798 ♪ ♪ 503 00:25:04,903 --> 00:25:08,073 When I was 36 years old, I was pregnant. 504 00:25:08,173 --> 00:25:09,743 And... 505 00:25:09,842 --> 00:25:12,882 ♪ ♪ 506 00:25:12,978 --> 00:25:15,648 At four months pregnant-- 507 00:25:15,748 --> 00:25:18,248 when I was four months pregnant... 508 00:25:18,350 --> 00:25:19,680 ♪ ♪ 509 00:25:19,785 --> 00:25:21,655 I ended up having a miscarriage. 510 00:25:21,754 --> 00:25:24,524 And that’s pretty late in the game to have a miscarriage, 511 00:25:24,623 --> 00:25:26,463 and so it was pretty big, 512 00:25:26,558 --> 00:25:28,058 because I still had to go 513 00:25:28,160 --> 00:25:30,730 through the whole labor process. 514 00:25:30,829 --> 00:25:31,929 And... 515 00:25:32,031 --> 00:25:35,271 ♪ ♪ 516 00:25:35,367 --> 00:25:36,967 It was unique, 517 00:25:37,069 --> 00:25:39,599 even though I lost the child, 518 00:25:39,705 --> 00:25:42,775 because I still got to experience having a birth. 519 00:25:42,875 --> 00:25:43,885 ♪ ♪ 520 00:25:43,976 --> 00:25:45,076 So I don’t know. 521 00:25:45,177 --> 00:25:47,577 Does that not make me a mother? 522 00:25:47,679 --> 00:25:49,549 I learned death. 523 00:25:49,648 --> 00:25:52,518 It could happen anytime, anytime. 524 00:25:52,618 --> 00:25:56,018 And for you to know how to live, 525 00:25:56,121 --> 00:25:57,991 you need to know how to die. 526 00:25:58,090 --> 00:26:00,230 ♪ ♪ 527 00:26:00,325 --> 00:26:04,555 When I feel like I’m failing or succeeding, 528 00:26:04,663 --> 00:26:06,573 I’m judging myself. 529 00:26:06,665 --> 00:26:07,725 ♪ ♪ 530 00:26:07,833 --> 00:26:09,573 And why am I doing that? 531 00:26:09,668 --> 00:26:13,468 ♪ ♪ 532 00:26:13,572 --> 00:26:14,742 I’m here. 533 00:26:14,840 --> 00:26:16,540 ♪ ♪ 534 00:26:16,642 --> 00:26:18,912 I must have done something right to get here. 535 00:26:19,011 --> 00:26:23,751 ♪ ♪ 536 00:26:23,849 --> 00:26:25,749 Yeah. 537 00:26:25,851 --> 00:26:27,691 So thank you for listening. 538 00:26:29,354 --> 00:26:32,424 I think I covered it all. [chuckles] 539 00:26:32,524 --> 00:26:35,864 [inhales deeply] I think I covered it all. 540 00:26:42,901 --> 00:26:45,801 [dramatic music] 541 00:26:45,904 --> 00:26:49,474 ♪ ♪ 542 00:26:55,981 --> 00:26:57,821 - Still feeling a little tired, 543 00:26:57,916 --> 00:27:01,886 but I think it’d be a good idea to go down to the beach 544 00:27:01,987 --> 00:27:03,917 and make those bird traps, 545 00:27:04,022 --> 00:27:08,032 because if we can get birds and squirrels, 546 00:27:08,127 --> 00:27:09,787 that would be a game changer. 547 00:27:09,895 --> 00:27:14,435 ♪ ♪ 548 00:27:14,533 --> 00:27:18,973 I’ve been storing my grouse guts on the beach 549 00:27:19,071 --> 00:27:22,811 under some rocks, hoping that a bear comes by, 550 00:27:22,908 --> 00:27:25,838 but the only thing that I’ve seen is the ravens. 551 00:27:25,944 --> 00:27:27,214 ♪ ♪ 552 00:27:27,312 --> 00:27:28,912 And if this bird trap works, 553 00:27:29,014 --> 00:27:31,484 that’s gonna be a huge morale booster. 554 00:27:31,583 --> 00:27:33,123 ♪ ♪ 555 00:27:33,218 --> 00:27:34,448 Let’s see. 556 00:27:34,553 --> 00:27:36,093 Got to make sure to implement 557 00:27:36,188 --> 00:27:39,488 as many food-procuring strategies that I can 558 00:27:39,591 --> 00:27:42,061 so that I get some passive food. 559 00:27:42,161 --> 00:27:43,091 Okay. 560 00:27:43,195 --> 00:27:45,005 ♪ ♪ 561 00:27:52,171 --> 00:27:55,741 ♪ ♪ 562 00:27:55,841 --> 00:27:59,681 Am I concerned about how tired I’m getting? 563 00:27:59,778 --> 00:28:00,908 ♪ ♪ 564 00:28:01,013 --> 00:28:02,753 Yeah. 565 00:28:02,848 --> 00:28:05,348 I still think this is a little too tight. 566 00:28:05,450 --> 00:28:07,420 I’m eating every day, 567 00:28:07,519 --> 00:28:09,919 but my body knows that it’s not enough, 568 00:28:10,022 --> 00:28:11,162 and it’s screaming. 569 00:28:11,256 --> 00:28:13,116 It’s yelling at me. 570 00:28:15,961 --> 00:28:18,961 ♪ ♪ 571 00:28:19,064 --> 00:28:22,104 Every day it’s a fight 572 00:28:22,201 --> 00:28:25,041 to not press that button, 573 00:28:25,137 --> 00:28:27,307 just to hear Gab’s voice. 574 00:28:29,808 --> 00:28:31,108 ♪ ♪ 575 00:28:31,210 --> 00:28:34,610 I guess my always-happy thought is... 576 00:28:34,713 --> 00:28:35,983 Gab. 577 00:28:44,489 --> 00:28:46,689 ♪ ♪ 578 00:28:46,792 --> 00:28:49,732 I was thinking about the first time we met. 579 00:28:49,828 --> 00:28:53,468 You know, we work in different departments in the hospital. 580 00:28:53,565 --> 00:28:56,465 This was during COVID, so I was so tired 581 00:28:56,568 --> 00:28:58,698 and hungry and overworked. 582 00:28:58,804 --> 00:29:00,574 It kind of felt like today. 583 00:29:00,672 --> 00:29:01,572 ♪ ♪ 584 00:29:01,673 --> 00:29:02,913 Almost through. 585 00:29:03,008 --> 00:29:05,338 ♪ ♪ 586 00:29:05,444 --> 00:29:06,954 And then I saw her. 587 00:29:07,045 --> 00:29:08,545 And she looked right at me. 588 00:29:08,647 --> 00:29:12,817 And I swear I could have seen her smiling at me 589 00:29:12,918 --> 00:29:14,418 through that mask. 590 00:29:14,519 --> 00:29:16,959 ♪ ♪ 591 00:29:17,055 --> 00:29:20,785 What started with small talk continued with banter. 592 00:29:20,892 --> 00:29:24,532 And I think we realized early on, 593 00:29:24,630 --> 00:29:29,100 everything was just better together. 594 00:29:29,201 --> 00:29:31,141 ♪ ♪ 595 00:29:31,236 --> 00:29:35,306 All right, I got a little perch over here. 596 00:29:35,407 --> 00:29:36,937 The idea... 597 00:29:37,042 --> 00:29:40,452 is that bait’s on this stick. 598 00:29:40,545 --> 00:29:44,815 There’s a rope, kind of like a cowboy lasso, 599 00:29:44,916 --> 00:29:46,986 that rests over here. 600 00:29:47,085 --> 00:29:51,485 And then as the bird lands on this, this falls down. 601 00:29:51,590 --> 00:29:54,760 And there’s a string attached to that rock 602 00:29:54,860 --> 00:29:57,430 that falls down here. 603 00:29:57,529 --> 00:29:59,229 So... 604 00:29:59,331 --> 00:30:00,771 that’s how that’ll work. 605 00:30:00,866 --> 00:30:02,896 ♪ ♪ 606 00:30:03,001 --> 00:30:05,841 You know, it’s all about your spirit out here. 607 00:30:05,937 --> 00:30:07,667 Your body can feel like it’s breaking, 608 00:30:07,773 --> 00:30:11,083 but if you still have it in your soul and in your mind, 609 00:30:11,176 --> 00:30:13,406 you can push a ways. 610 00:30:13,512 --> 00:30:16,752 All right, that should do the trick. 611 00:30:16,848 --> 00:30:19,848 ♪ ♪ 612 00:30:19,951 --> 00:30:23,021 And Gabrielle--she is my rock 613 00:30:23,121 --> 00:30:24,891 that doesn’t weigh me down. 614 00:30:24,990 --> 00:30:26,590 Keeps me grounded when I feel 615 00:30:26,692 --> 00:30:28,532 like the wind’s gonna push me away. 616 00:30:28,627 --> 00:30:30,227 ♪ ♪ 617 00:30:30,329 --> 00:30:32,759 And I love her. I love her so much. 618 00:30:32,864 --> 00:30:34,174 ♪ ♪ 619 00:30:34,266 --> 00:30:38,966 Hopefully they’ll let me push a wee bit more, 620 00:30:39,071 --> 00:30:40,611 see what happens. 621 00:30:40,706 --> 00:30:41,636 ♪ ♪ 622 00:30:41,740 --> 00:30:43,440 Yeah, day by day. 623 00:30:43,542 --> 00:30:44,782 Okay. 624 00:30:44,876 --> 00:30:46,776 ♪ ♪ 625 00:30:46,878 --> 00:30:48,278 That was a lot of work, 626 00:30:48,380 --> 00:30:51,280 but that’s a beautiful bird trap. 627 00:30:51,383 --> 00:30:52,723 If I catch a bird with this, 628 00:30:52,818 --> 00:30:54,318 I might just eat the whole thing 629 00:30:54,419 --> 00:30:57,459 right then and there just to celebrate. 630 00:30:57,556 --> 00:31:00,186 Oh, I’m done! 631 00:31:00,292 --> 00:31:07,302 ♪ ♪ 632 00:31:18,977 --> 00:31:22,677 - Just getting everything prepped for the day. 633 00:31:24,750 --> 00:31:27,990 Fortunately for us, we won’t be wasting any time 634 00:31:28,086 --> 00:31:29,386 eating breakfast this morning. 635 00:31:29,488 --> 00:31:31,688 We can just get straight under way. 636 00:31:32,858 --> 00:31:33,758 ♪ ♪ 637 00:31:33,859 --> 00:31:35,089 Isn’t it great? 638 00:31:35,193 --> 00:31:36,633 ♪ ♪ 639 00:31:36,728 --> 00:31:39,898 Such a time saver, not having any food. 640 00:31:39,998 --> 00:31:46,908 ♪ ♪ 641 00:31:47,005 --> 00:31:49,765 Today is all about hunting. 642 00:31:49,875 --> 00:31:51,585 ♪ ♪ 643 00:31:51,676 --> 00:31:53,776 Very cold. 644 00:31:53,879 --> 00:31:58,149 This snow on the ground-- just a tiny little dusting. 645 00:31:58,250 --> 00:32:02,220 And the river is already icing over. 646 00:32:02,320 --> 00:32:04,390 We’re gonna head down 647 00:32:04,489 --> 00:32:08,389 to some of the further valleys and look for grouse. 648 00:32:08,493 --> 00:32:10,803 ♪ ♪ 649 00:32:10,896 --> 00:32:13,396 Out here, I’m grateful for every life 650 00:32:13,498 --> 00:32:15,228 that I’ve taken. 651 00:32:15,333 --> 00:32:18,573 You know, killing is a hard thing to do every day. 652 00:32:18,670 --> 00:32:20,940 It can be exhausting. 653 00:32:21,039 --> 00:32:24,409 It takes a lot of grouse to feed a man in the wild. 654 00:32:24,509 --> 00:32:26,079 ♪ ♪ 655 00:32:26,178 --> 00:32:29,348 Look at how pretty this little valley is right now. 656 00:32:29,448 --> 00:32:31,748 The camera doesn’t do it justice. 657 00:32:31,850 --> 00:32:32,780 ♪ ♪ 658 00:32:32,884 --> 00:32:35,254 No grouse, though. [sniffs] 659 00:32:35,353 --> 00:32:38,223 [sighs] I’m getting tired early. 660 00:32:38,323 --> 00:32:41,793 Not a good sign, but we need to keep pushing on. 661 00:32:41,893 --> 00:32:42,863 ♪ ♪ 662 00:32:42,961 --> 00:32:44,431 Fingers crossed. 663 00:32:44,529 --> 00:32:45,759 ♪ ♪ 664 00:32:45,864 --> 00:32:49,474 I’m still losing weight at a pretty steady pace. 665 00:32:49,568 --> 00:32:52,538 The number-one thing is just conserving calories. 666 00:32:52,637 --> 00:32:55,007 But if I have to actively hunt 667 00:32:55,106 --> 00:32:56,976 for three or four hours every day, 668 00:32:57,075 --> 00:33:00,205 I’m burning a tremendous amount of calories. 669 00:33:00,312 --> 00:33:01,912 The grouse are around, 670 00:33:02,013 --> 00:33:05,083 but getting harder to find and harder to shoot-- 671 00:33:05,183 --> 00:33:07,393 same with the squirrels. 672 00:33:07,486 --> 00:33:10,086 And I’m not finding any new bear sign. 673 00:33:10,188 --> 00:33:16,828 ♪ ♪ 674 00:33:18,563 --> 00:33:25,573 ♪ ♪ 675 00:33:30,842 --> 00:33:31,982 It’s right there. 676 00:33:32,077 --> 00:33:35,547 ♪ ♪ 677 00:33:35,647 --> 00:33:37,247 Stay right there. 678 00:33:37,349 --> 00:33:40,249 ♪ ♪ 679 00:33:40,352 --> 00:33:41,652 [bow thuds] 680 00:33:41,753 --> 00:33:48,663 ♪ ♪ 681 00:33:48,760 --> 00:33:49,930 Yes. 682 00:33:50,028 --> 00:33:52,098 ♪ ♪ 683 00:33:52,197 --> 00:33:53,927 We got something to eat tonight. 684 00:33:54,032 --> 00:33:56,202 ♪ ♪ 685 00:33:56,301 --> 00:33:57,941 Ah, thank God. 686 00:33:58,036 --> 00:34:00,636 [exhales deeply] 687 00:34:00,739 --> 00:34:03,739 It’s a beautiful, beautiful grouse. 688 00:34:03,842 --> 00:34:05,882 ♪ ♪ 689 00:34:05,977 --> 00:34:08,607 I can’t tell you what this bird means to me. 690 00:34:08,713 --> 00:34:11,223 I’m so hungry. 691 00:34:11,316 --> 00:34:15,286 And I’m really deeply, deeply appreciative. 692 00:34:15,387 --> 00:34:17,187 ♪ ♪ 693 00:34:17,289 --> 00:34:19,389 We get to stay for another day. 694 00:34:19,491 --> 00:34:23,461 ♪ ♪ 695 00:34:23,562 --> 00:34:25,732 I’m just letting her calmly die. 696 00:34:25,830 --> 00:34:26,960 ♪ ♪ 697 00:34:27,065 --> 00:34:29,565 Go to sleep. It’ll be okay. 698 00:34:29,668 --> 00:34:34,638 ♪ ♪ 699 00:34:34,739 --> 00:34:37,239 You’re okay. 700 00:34:37,342 --> 00:34:39,242 [exhales sharply] 701 00:34:39,344 --> 00:34:41,914 ♪ ♪ 702 00:34:42,013 --> 00:34:45,453 I’m getting a little burned out on killing things... 703 00:34:45,550 --> 00:34:50,390 ♪ ♪ 704 00:34:50,488 --> 00:34:52,818 Watching them die. 705 00:34:52,924 --> 00:34:55,934 I feel a little bit sad every time. 706 00:34:56,027 --> 00:34:57,727 ♪ ♪ 707 00:34:57,829 --> 00:34:59,029 And I think day after day, 708 00:34:59,130 --> 00:35:02,700 that kind of takes a little bit of a toll. 709 00:35:02,801 --> 00:35:04,201 ♪ ♪ 710 00:35:04,302 --> 00:35:06,742 I wish I could just kill one more animal 711 00:35:06,838 --> 00:35:10,408 and be set for my time out here, 712 00:35:10,508 --> 00:35:14,708 not have to continue to kill and kill and kill. 713 00:35:14,813 --> 00:35:18,023 ♪ ♪ 714 00:35:18,116 --> 00:35:22,146 I feel a deep, deep commune with this place. 715 00:35:23,555 --> 00:35:26,565 The only other place I felt this deeply connected to land 716 00:35:26,658 --> 00:35:29,728 is in my own property. 717 00:35:29,828 --> 00:35:32,228 ♪ ♪ 718 00:35:32,330 --> 00:35:35,430 At home, I could shoot a white-tail deer 719 00:35:35,533 --> 00:35:39,373 and be good for a couple months. 720 00:35:39,471 --> 00:35:41,571 That’s one animal to watch die, 721 00:35:41,673 --> 00:35:43,243 to appreciate their death. 722 00:35:43,341 --> 00:35:44,511 ♪ ♪ 723 00:35:44,609 --> 00:35:46,539 But that is unlikely to happen. 724 00:35:46,645 --> 00:35:48,085 ♪ ♪ 725 00:35:48,179 --> 00:35:51,749 And if I want to stay, then other things need to die. 726 00:35:51,850 --> 00:35:53,420 ♪ ♪ 727 00:35:53,518 --> 00:35:57,088 And that’s the web of life that we live in. 728 00:35:57,188 --> 00:36:01,188 ♪ ♪ 729 00:36:05,597 --> 00:36:06,827 [dramatic music] 730 00:36:06,931 --> 00:36:11,271 ♪ ♪ 731 00:36:28,987 --> 00:36:32,987 - Today is day 50, day 50. 732 00:36:34,359 --> 00:36:35,829 Big milestone. 733 00:36:35,927 --> 00:36:38,327 Just as a treat to myself, 734 00:36:38,430 --> 00:36:40,300 today I’m wearing new socks, 735 00:36:40,398 --> 00:36:43,728 so completely unused, 736 00:36:43,835 --> 00:36:46,945 nice, new wool socks. 737 00:36:47,038 --> 00:36:49,268 The last socks that I’ve used, 738 00:36:49,374 --> 00:36:52,784 I’ve used them continuously for about 20 days. 739 00:36:52,877 --> 00:36:55,507 It’s kind of like when it’s Christmas 740 00:36:55,613 --> 00:36:59,323 and your grandma gives you socks, 741 00:36:59,417 --> 00:37:02,987 and you’re like, "Oh, thanks, Grandma." 742 00:37:03,088 --> 00:37:05,288 But--[laughs] 743 00:37:05,390 --> 00:37:08,260 In my case, it’s like, "Thanks, Grandma! 744 00:37:08,359 --> 00:37:10,329 I really wanted these." [chuckles] 745 00:37:10,428 --> 00:37:12,258 "They’re awesome." [chuckles] 746 00:37:12,363 --> 00:37:19,373 ♪ ♪ 747 00:37:22,474 --> 00:37:25,014 Right now I’m a bit dehydrated. 748 00:37:25,110 --> 00:37:26,940 I need to drink water. 749 00:37:27,045 --> 00:37:29,915 So I’m gonna check how thick the ice is 750 00:37:30,014 --> 00:37:31,554 and grab some water. 751 00:37:31,649 --> 00:37:32,919 ♪ ♪ 752 00:37:33,017 --> 00:37:35,847 I’m excited for the ice. 753 00:37:35,954 --> 00:37:38,224 Time to start using my ax. 754 00:37:38,323 --> 00:37:40,963 ♪ ♪ 755 00:37:41,059 --> 00:37:43,489 Very conveniently, I have a pier. 756 00:37:43,595 --> 00:37:46,205 That means that I can go to the deeper ice 757 00:37:46,297 --> 00:37:47,827 and just use my ax. 758 00:37:47,932 --> 00:37:50,202 ♪ ♪ 759 00:37:50,301 --> 00:37:52,541 Another day in Labrador. 760 00:37:52,637 --> 00:37:54,167 I’m dying. 761 00:37:58,276 --> 00:38:00,276 [gulps] 762 00:38:01,946 --> 00:38:04,246 ♪ ♪ 763 00:38:04,349 --> 00:38:06,849 I’m thankful that there’s water here, 764 00:38:06,951 --> 00:38:09,221 but there’s no food coming in. 765 00:38:09,320 --> 00:38:12,520 And trapping, hunting, fishing 766 00:38:12,624 --> 00:38:15,064 takes so much energy. 767 00:38:15,160 --> 00:38:17,400 With the fish, I kind of screwed up. 768 00:38:17,495 --> 00:38:19,825 I think I probably spent more energy 769 00:38:19,931 --> 00:38:23,431 trying to build the pier and the fishing pole. 770 00:38:23,535 --> 00:38:25,545 And now I realize 771 00:38:25,637 --> 00:38:29,137 I have to be strategic about my energy. 772 00:38:29,240 --> 00:38:31,440 This is not my first time starving. 773 00:38:31,543 --> 00:38:34,453 So I know that if I just eat a little bit, 774 00:38:34,546 --> 00:38:36,246 I’m going to have extreme hunger 775 00:38:36,347 --> 00:38:38,347 and I’m gonna have hunger pangs. 776 00:38:38,449 --> 00:38:41,219 This mental hunger is an obsession. 777 00:38:41,319 --> 00:38:45,259 And it takes a lot of mental energy to come back. 778 00:38:45,356 --> 00:38:48,956 But if you go full fast, you basically jump that, 779 00:38:49,060 --> 00:38:51,600 and you do not get the mental hunger 780 00:38:51,696 --> 00:38:53,556 because your body really understands 781 00:38:53,665 --> 00:38:55,905 that this is an extreme situation. 782 00:38:56,000 --> 00:39:00,400 So my plan right now basically is to fast 783 00:39:00,505 --> 00:39:02,615 for 20 more days. 784 00:39:02,707 --> 00:39:04,077 Isn’t that insane? 785 00:39:04,175 --> 00:39:06,275 ♪ ♪ 786 00:39:06,377 --> 00:39:09,077 What inspires me the most is the amazing things 787 00:39:09,180 --> 00:39:12,750 we can do when our minds and bodies are in sync. 788 00:39:12,851 --> 00:39:16,591 I feel everything is telling me hunker down. 789 00:39:16,688 --> 00:39:17,958 It’s all a risk. 790 00:39:18,056 --> 00:39:20,316 But I improvise a lot, 791 00:39:20,425 --> 00:39:24,035 and I’m not afraid to just go, like, completely opposite 792 00:39:24,128 --> 00:39:27,428 of what everyone would do and go with my intuition. 793 00:39:27,532 --> 00:39:30,102 I just need to last a day longer 794 00:39:30,201 --> 00:39:31,601 than the other contestants. 795 00:39:31,703 --> 00:39:33,303 That’s all I need, you know? 796 00:39:33,404 --> 00:39:36,114 You don’t have to outrun the bear. 797 00:39:36,207 --> 00:39:39,437 You just have to outrun your friend. 798 00:39:39,544 --> 00:39:43,784 That’s my plan. It’s a little bit crazy. 799 00:39:43,882 --> 00:39:46,082 But I think it’s doable. 800 00:39:46,184 --> 00:39:48,224 20 more days of starving. 801 00:39:50,588 --> 00:39:52,418 I think my body can take it, 802 00:39:52,523 --> 00:39:54,563 and my mind can take it. 803 00:39:56,261 --> 00:39:58,731 We’ll see. 804 00:39:58,830 --> 00:40:01,730 [dramatic music] 805 00:40:01,833 --> 00:40:08,843 ♪ ♪ 806 00:40:17,949 --> 00:40:20,749 - Well, good afternoon. 807 00:40:20,852 --> 00:40:22,392 Oh, my God. 808 00:40:22,487 --> 00:40:27,217 I’ll show you, but the river is frozen over. 809 00:40:27,325 --> 00:40:29,365 I can’t believe it. [chuckles] 810 00:40:29,460 --> 00:40:32,660 Let’s see if we can pick it up on the camera. 811 00:40:32,764 --> 00:40:34,704 Gonna spin you around. 812 00:40:37,135 --> 00:40:39,145 There we go. Zoom right in. 813 00:40:39,237 --> 00:40:42,367 Look at that. That’s all ice. 814 00:40:42,473 --> 00:40:47,013 And a section in the middle is actually flowing. 815 00:40:47,111 --> 00:40:48,351 It hasn’t froze yet. 816 00:40:48,446 --> 00:40:50,706 ♪ ♪ 817 00:40:50,815 --> 00:40:53,775 Winter is upon us. 818 00:40:53,885 --> 00:40:57,425 ♪ ♪ 819 00:40:57,522 --> 00:41:01,062 I’m out here as long as I can stay out. 820 00:41:01,159 --> 00:41:04,799 Winter, here we come. Bring it on. 821 00:41:04,896 --> 00:41:06,696 This is "monumentous." 822 00:41:06,798 --> 00:41:10,898 My fishing pole is gonna become a walking stick 823 00:41:11,002 --> 00:41:14,072 ’cause I love this stick and I think fishing’s out. 824 00:41:14,172 --> 00:41:15,842 [chuckles] 825 00:41:15,940 --> 00:41:20,010 I know some really cold weather is coming in. 826 00:41:20,111 --> 00:41:22,381 I’m just gonna keep doing what I’m doing-- 827 00:41:22,480 --> 00:41:24,380 hunting and trapping every day. 828 00:41:24,482 --> 00:41:26,182 I’m definitely on the trail for food 829 00:41:26,284 --> 00:41:28,194 because that’s what’s gonna keep me out here. 830 00:41:28,286 --> 00:41:30,046 [ax thumping] 831 00:41:30,154 --> 00:41:31,764 I’m going to be so happy to have this 832 00:41:31,856 --> 00:41:33,256 when I’m trekking around. 833 00:41:33,358 --> 00:41:35,888 ♪ ♪ 834 00:41:35,994 --> 00:41:38,064 Yay, I got a walking stick. 835 00:41:38,162 --> 00:41:40,802 Fishing...krr, done. 836 00:41:42,700 --> 00:41:44,470 Let’s go find some food. 837 00:41:44,569 --> 00:41:50,769 ♪ ♪ 838 00:41:50,875 --> 00:41:53,275 I need to get some blood moving. 839 00:41:53,378 --> 00:41:57,748 Every time I check my traps, I come home empty-handed. 840 00:41:57,849 --> 00:42:01,289 Today I woke up feeling super refreshed, 841 00:42:01,386 --> 00:42:03,216 and I’m hungry. 842 00:42:03,321 --> 00:42:05,761 [laughs] 843 00:42:05,857 --> 00:42:10,427 Mentally, emotionally, I feel ready for winter. 844 00:42:10,528 --> 00:42:13,728 It’s really dependent on food right now for me. 845 00:42:13,831 --> 00:42:15,171 ♪ ♪ 846 00:42:15,266 --> 00:42:17,026 Oh, here’s one of my traps. 847 00:42:17,135 --> 00:42:18,575 And... 848 00:42:18,669 --> 00:42:19,639 ♪ ♪ 849 00:42:19,737 --> 00:42:21,067 It got blown out. 850 00:42:21,172 --> 00:42:22,242 Looks like... 851 00:42:22,340 --> 00:42:23,770 ♪ ♪ 852 00:42:23,875 --> 00:42:26,285 Someone went through there, which is good. 853 00:42:26,377 --> 00:42:28,577 ♪ ♪ 854 00:42:28,679 --> 00:42:31,519 With the fishing days coming to an end, 855 00:42:31,616 --> 00:42:34,886 I am changing my plan to spending as much time 856 00:42:34,986 --> 00:42:36,746 as possible trapping. 857 00:42:36,854 --> 00:42:37,924 ♪ ♪ 858 00:42:38,022 --> 00:42:40,392 That one still looks good. 859 00:42:40,491 --> 00:42:44,261 That’s really my only food options at this point. 860 00:42:44,362 --> 00:42:45,702 ♪ ♪ 861 00:42:45,797 --> 00:42:48,097 Looks like someone’s been digging there. 862 00:42:48,199 --> 00:42:50,029 ♪ ♪ 863 00:42:50,134 --> 00:42:51,704 Where is it? 864 00:42:51,803 --> 00:42:52,773 Oh! 865 00:42:52,870 --> 00:42:54,440 [gasps] Oh. 866 00:42:54,539 --> 00:42:55,669 Oh, my gosh. 867 00:42:55,773 --> 00:42:58,313 ♪ ♪ 868 00:43:02,447 --> 00:43:05,347 [dramatic music] 869 00:43:05,450 --> 00:43:07,250 ♪ ♪ 870 00:43:15,526 --> 00:43:17,126 - Oh. [gasps] 871 00:43:17,228 --> 00:43:20,098 Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh. 872 00:43:20,198 --> 00:43:21,598 Oh, my gosh. 873 00:43:21,699 --> 00:43:22,799 ♪ ♪ 874 00:43:22,900 --> 00:43:24,270 I got one. 875 00:43:24,368 --> 00:43:28,468 ♪ ♪ 876 00:43:28,573 --> 00:43:30,873 I got one. [chuckles] 877 00:43:30,975 --> 00:43:32,575 He’s frozen. 878 00:43:32,677 --> 00:43:35,107 Looks like he still has snowflakes on his head, 879 00:43:35,213 --> 00:43:37,953 so obviously not from today. 880 00:43:38,049 --> 00:43:39,279 Aw. 881 00:43:39,383 --> 00:43:42,253 Yay, I got something for dinner. 882 00:43:42,353 --> 00:43:45,123 [laughs] 883 00:43:45,223 --> 00:43:46,293 Wow. 884 00:43:46,390 --> 00:43:47,660 Mwah. 885 00:43:49,026 --> 00:43:52,226 I got a frozen dinner for my dinner tonight. 886 00:43:52,330 --> 00:43:53,560 [laughs] 887 00:43:53,664 --> 00:43:54,904 Oh, that’s not funny. 888 00:43:54,999 --> 00:43:59,069 I hope he hasn’t been there for too long. 889 00:43:59,170 --> 00:44:01,340 Let me put you in the pocket. 890 00:44:03,608 --> 00:44:06,178 I’ll have to thaw him out just to gut him. 891 00:44:07,712 --> 00:44:14,722 ♪ ♪ 892 00:44:20,191 --> 00:44:22,231 This one tastes really good. 893 00:44:22,326 --> 00:44:25,226 ♪ ♪ 894 00:44:25,329 --> 00:44:27,769 It makes me wonder how long it’s been sitting there frozen. 895 00:44:27,865 --> 00:44:29,365 [chuckles] 896 00:44:31,536 --> 00:44:34,936 Okay, one more leg. I did three legs. 897 00:44:35,039 --> 00:44:37,109 Got to save some meat for tomorrow. 898 00:44:37,208 --> 00:44:40,678 ♪ ♪ 899 00:44:40,778 --> 00:44:42,778 I often think of the word "survival" 900 00:44:42,880 --> 00:44:44,950 in a military perspective. 901 00:44:45,049 --> 00:44:47,849 It’s a hard-core term. 902 00:44:47,952 --> 00:44:51,722 But then the word "wilderness" to me is very different. 903 00:44:51,822 --> 00:44:55,562 It’s about that spiritual connection with the land. 904 00:44:55,660 --> 00:45:00,530 I am loving every single bite that I get to eat. 905 00:45:00,631 --> 00:45:03,701 ♪ ♪ 906 00:45:03,801 --> 00:45:07,241 I see wilderness survival as not just about the skills. 907 00:45:07,338 --> 00:45:11,878 It’s about the attitude, the positive humility. 908 00:45:11,976 --> 00:45:14,376 It’s why I sing songs. 909 00:45:14,478 --> 00:45:17,548 The songs bring me back to myself 910 00:45:17,648 --> 00:45:19,248 and ground me 911 00:45:19,350 --> 00:45:22,920 to the spiritual connection with the Earth. 912 00:45:23,020 --> 00:45:25,690 It is that connection with the land 913 00:45:25,790 --> 00:45:29,030 that keeps me ready for whatever it’s going to be. 914 00:45:31,696 --> 00:45:33,896 Checked my traps, got a squirrel. 915 00:45:33,998 --> 00:45:35,768 It’s been a good day. 916 00:45:35,866 --> 00:45:39,096 So just chillin’ tonight. Gonna go to bed. 917 00:45:39,203 --> 00:45:42,113 Do it all over again tomorrow. 918 00:45:42,206 --> 00:45:46,106 ♪ Aye-aye-aye, aye-aye-aye-aye ♪ 919 00:45:46,210 --> 00:45:49,680 ♪ Aye-aye-aye-aye, aye-aye-aye-aye ♪ 920 00:45:49,780 --> 00:45:53,720 ♪ Aye-aye-aye-aye, aye-aye-aye-aye ♪ 921 00:45:53,818 --> 00:45:55,718 ♪ Aye-aye-aye-aye... ♪ 922 00:45:55,820 --> 00:46:02,830 ♪ ♪ 923 00:46:11,335 --> 00:46:12,435 - Look. 924 00:46:12,536 --> 00:46:14,166 ♪ ♪ 925 00:46:15,406 --> 00:46:18,806 Plan for today-- still recovering on my legs, 926 00:46:18,909 --> 00:46:22,249 so I’m gonna set up snares for squirrels. 927 00:46:22,346 --> 00:46:23,576 ♪ ♪ 928 00:46:23,681 --> 00:46:27,081 Kind of keep an eye out for good snaring spots... 929 00:46:27,184 --> 00:46:31,464 so I take advantage of every food opportunity. 930 00:46:31,555 --> 00:46:34,755 This is a nice snare point right here. 931 00:46:34,859 --> 00:46:36,089 ♪ ♪ 932 00:46:36,193 --> 00:46:38,533 I know my hunting grounds very well now, 933 00:46:38,629 --> 00:46:41,929 and I know the animal behavior very well now. 934 00:46:42,033 --> 00:46:45,443 The hunting that I do is based on sectors. 935 00:46:45,536 --> 00:46:47,836 I don’t overexert myself walking around, 936 00:46:47,938 --> 00:46:51,038 and I’m only taking shots when squirrels are feeding, 937 00:46:51,142 --> 00:46:53,642 when squirrels are shuttling from points A and B 938 00:46:53,744 --> 00:46:56,784 and I’m waiting at points A and B. 939 00:46:56,881 --> 00:46:58,651 Hopefully we catch something. 940 00:46:58,749 --> 00:47:00,649 ♪ ♪ 941 00:47:00,751 --> 00:47:03,451 Every day you have to adapt here. 942 00:47:03,554 --> 00:47:05,994 The next challenge for me is seeing 943 00:47:06,090 --> 00:47:08,690 if these new limits on my body 944 00:47:08,793 --> 00:47:11,063 will affect my ability to get food. 945 00:47:11,162 --> 00:47:13,062 ♪ ♪ 946 00:47:13,164 --> 00:47:15,234 This is a good one. 947 00:47:15,333 --> 00:47:18,543 I can see some of their stashes over here, 948 00:47:18,636 --> 00:47:20,696 those little piles. 949 00:47:20,805 --> 00:47:23,575 Looking for kind of natural funnel points, 950 00:47:23,674 --> 00:47:25,414 snare areas. 951 00:47:25,509 --> 00:47:26,579 ♪ ♪ 952 00:47:26,677 --> 00:47:28,647 I feel like no matter how hard it gets, 953 00:47:28,746 --> 00:47:30,776 if it’s for family, 954 00:47:30,881 --> 00:47:32,151 everything’s worth it. 955 00:47:32,249 --> 00:47:33,919 ♪ ♪ 956 00:47:34,018 --> 00:47:36,518 In my heart, I know that I need to push. 957 00:47:36,620 --> 00:47:38,920 I need to show how strong I am, 958 00:47:39,023 --> 00:47:40,863 how strong my mom made me. 959 00:47:40,958 --> 00:47:44,058 ♪ ♪ 960 00:47:44,161 --> 00:47:46,401 [bird cawing] 961 00:47:46,497 --> 00:47:48,027 Oh, there’s the crow. 962 00:47:48,132 --> 00:47:51,242 [cawing continues] 963 00:47:51,335 --> 00:47:52,835 ♪ ♪ 964 00:47:52,937 --> 00:47:56,207 Let’s check the bird trap. All right, to the beach. 965 00:47:56,307 --> 00:47:59,507 ♪ ♪ 966 00:47:59,610 --> 00:48:00,810 Holy cow. 967 00:48:03,114 --> 00:48:06,884 ♪ ♪ 968 00:48:10,921 --> 00:48:13,821 [dramatic music] 969 00:48:13,924 --> 00:48:17,164 ♪ ♪ 970 00:48:36,280 --> 00:48:37,950 [bleep]. 971 00:48:39,650 --> 00:48:43,120 May have been tampered with. 972 00:48:46,590 --> 00:48:49,130 ♪ ♪ 973 00:48:49,226 --> 00:48:53,256 If I go another week without catching anything... 974 00:48:53,364 --> 00:48:55,874 I think that’s gonna be hard. 975 00:48:55,966 --> 00:48:58,266 That’s going to be really frickin’ hard. 976 00:48:58,369 --> 00:49:01,969 ♪ ♪ 977 00:49:05,176 --> 00:49:06,676 Just got to keep the spirits high, 978 00:49:06,777 --> 00:49:09,507 the energy levels not overworked, 979 00:49:09,613 --> 00:49:12,153 and just need one win. 980 00:49:23,327 --> 00:49:27,227 ♪ ♪ 981 00:49:27,331 --> 00:49:30,231 I don’t know how I’m gonna explain this experience. 982 00:49:30,334 --> 00:49:31,644 ♪ ♪ 983 00:49:31,735 --> 00:49:33,295 I think it’s a lot different 984 00:49:33,404 --> 00:49:36,514 than what I thought it would be. 985 00:49:36,607 --> 00:49:38,207 Look at that. 986 00:49:38,309 --> 00:49:39,539 ♪ ♪ 987 00:49:39,643 --> 00:49:43,413 I wish Gabrielle could see what I see right now. 988 00:49:43,514 --> 00:49:46,424 When I first signed up for this challenge, 989 00:49:46,517 --> 00:49:49,047 I thought it was to challenge myself. 990 00:49:49,153 --> 00:49:52,263 But the more that I think about it, 991 00:49:52,356 --> 00:49:55,526 I couldn’t do this if it was just for me. 992 00:49:55,626 --> 00:49:58,356 I want to do it for the people that I love at home. 993 00:49:58,462 --> 00:49:59,662 ♪ ♪ 994 00:49:59,763 --> 00:50:01,403 I’m not the most trained out here, 995 00:50:01,499 --> 00:50:05,069 but I’m relying on the land to teach me. 996 00:50:05,169 --> 00:50:09,209 I take time to respect the ancestors of this land. 997 00:50:09,306 --> 00:50:12,976 ♪ ♪ 998 00:50:13,077 --> 00:50:15,947 If you’re in it to really test your boundaries, 999 00:50:16,046 --> 00:50:18,316 you might not come back the same. 1000 00:50:18,415 --> 00:50:20,215 Relationships crumble, 1001 00:50:20,317 --> 00:50:25,017 and your life as you know it is changed forever. 1002 00:50:25,122 --> 00:50:29,232 Kind of just want to skip rocks on the river... 1003 00:50:29,326 --> 00:50:31,056 see how thick that ice is. 1004 00:50:31,161 --> 00:50:32,801 ♪ ♪ 1005 00:50:32,897 --> 00:50:36,497 Whoever catches fish in this, kudos, man. 1006 00:50:36,600 --> 00:50:38,000 ♪ ♪ 1007 00:50:38,102 --> 00:50:39,502 I feel like I’m gonna come back 1008 00:50:39,603 --> 00:50:42,513 with a very strong sense of who I am, 1009 00:50:42,606 --> 00:50:46,576 what I want to do in life, in my relationships, 1010 00:50:46,677 --> 00:50:48,807 everything. 1011 00:50:48,913 --> 00:50:50,213 Ooh. 1012 00:50:52,316 --> 00:50:53,676 How about this one? 1013 00:50:53,784 --> 00:50:57,454 ♪ ♪ 1014 00:50:57,555 --> 00:50:58,725 Yeah. 1015 00:51:02,960 --> 00:51:07,700 This experience has made me feel closer to Gab, too. 1016 00:51:07,798 --> 00:51:09,298 ♪ ♪ 1017 00:51:09,400 --> 00:51:12,470 I’ll fight for her every single step of the way, 1018 00:51:12,570 --> 00:51:14,540 as hard as I’ll fight over here... 1019 00:51:14,638 --> 00:51:15,838 ♪ ♪ 1020 00:51:15,940 --> 00:51:18,840 ’Cause she’s everything. 1021 00:51:18,943 --> 00:51:20,813 ♪ ♪ 1022 00:51:22,079 --> 00:51:23,549 All right. 1023 00:51:23,647 --> 00:51:26,177 Wind’s telling me to go home. 1024 00:51:26,283 --> 00:51:27,623 I get it. 1025 00:51:32,790 --> 00:51:39,800 ♪ ♪ 1026 00:51:54,278 --> 00:51:56,448 - [sighs] How do we look? 1027 00:51:59,883 --> 00:52:03,723 We are looking skinny, boy. 1028 00:52:03,821 --> 00:52:05,791 We are looking skinny. 1029 00:52:09,793 --> 00:52:12,633 ♪ ♪ 1030 00:52:16,300 --> 00:52:19,940 Sorry for having to show you that beautiful sight. 1031 00:52:20,037 --> 00:52:24,707 ♪ ♪ 1032 00:52:24,808 --> 00:52:26,808 I don’t know what to do. 1033 00:52:26,910 --> 00:52:30,750 ♪ ♪ 1034 00:52:30,848 --> 00:52:34,618 The calorie game here just isn’t working in my favor. 1035 00:52:34,718 --> 00:52:37,218 I’ve got food. 1036 00:52:37,321 --> 00:52:40,991 I’m working harder to get it, and it’s not enough. 1037 00:52:41,091 --> 00:52:42,891 I’m losing a pound of weight a day. 1038 00:52:42,993 --> 00:52:46,503 And there doesn’t seem to be anything I can do about that. 1039 00:52:46,597 --> 00:52:47,897 ♪ ♪ 1040 00:52:47,998 --> 00:52:50,828 No one on this show has ever really thrived 1041 00:52:50,934 --> 00:52:52,574 on small game. 1042 00:52:52,670 --> 00:52:54,570 People have eked by. 1043 00:52:54,672 --> 00:52:55,572 ♪ ♪ 1044 00:52:55,673 --> 00:52:57,513 So I’m gonna focus 1045 00:52:57,608 --> 00:52:59,508 on getting a black bear. 1046 00:52:59,610 --> 00:53:01,140 ♪ ♪ 1047 00:53:01,245 --> 00:53:03,185 I’m gonna walk out to the back lot 1048 00:53:03,280 --> 00:53:06,780 and see if we can find any bear sign out there. 1049 00:53:06,884 --> 00:53:11,524 ♪ ♪ 1050 00:53:11,622 --> 00:53:13,462 [exhales deeply] 1051 00:53:13,557 --> 00:53:16,327 Hard to make this walk. [sighs] 1052 00:53:16,427 --> 00:53:19,457 Used to be I could walk up this hill 1053 00:53:19,563 --> 00:53:22,703 two minutes, four or five steps at a time. 1054 00:53:22,800 --> 00:53:23,870 ♪ ♪ 1055 00:53:23,967 --> 00:53:25,697 [exhales deeply] 1056 00:53:25,803 --> 00:53:29,873 My energy levels are definitely at an all-time low. 1057 00:53:29,973 --> 00:53:33,683 I can feel my body slipping into starvation mode. 1058 00:53:33,777 --> 00:53:36,277 My body’s just getting weak. 1059 00:53:36,380 --> 00:53:39,480 ♪ ♪ 1060 00:53:39,583 --> 00:53:41,653 I keep having to stop every couple minutes 1061 00:53:41,752 --> 00:53:44,322 and catch my breath. 1062 00:53:44,421 --> 00:53:49,461 ♪ ♪ 1063 00:53:49,560 --> 00:53:51,430 Not a great sign. 1064 00:53:51,528 --> 00:53:53,858 ♪ ♪ 1065 00:53:53,964 --> 00:53:56,504 I have been grinding away out here... 1066 00:53:56,600 --> 00:53:57,830 [exhales sharply] 1067 00:53:57,935 --> 00:54:00,605 Day in and day out, for over 50 days. 1068 00:54:00,704 --> 00:54:02,944 It hasn’t been an easy time. 1069 00:54:03,040 --> 00:54:05,410 Every day has been a challenge 1070 00:54:05,509 --> 00:54:09,179 that I have embraced and loved. 1071 00:54:09,279 --> 00:54:12,519 But my trajectory 1072 00:54:12,616 --> 00:54:15,016 has been bad for weeks. 1073 00:54:15,119 --> 00:54:19,059 ♪ ♪ 1074 00:54:19,156 --> 00:54:21,456 All right, my friends... 1075 00:54:21,558 --> 00:54:24,858 we have reached a critical juncture, 1076 00:54:24,962 --> 00:54:26,862 I believe. 1077 00:54:26,964 --> 00:54:28,634 [exhales deeply] 1078 00:54:28,732 --> 00:54:31,742 My legs are gassed. 1079 00:54:31,835 --> 00:54:34,665 I’m not walking right through the forest. 1080 00:54:34,772 --> 00:54:36,072 I’m stumbling. 1081 00:54:36,173 --> 00:54:37,413 ♪ ♪ 1082 00:54:37,508 --> 00:54:40,308 I’m walking like I’m really tired, and I am. 1083 00:54:40,410 --> 00:54:41,810 ♪ ♪ 1084 00:54:41,912 --> 00:54:43,652 And I have to call it. 1085 00:54:43,747 --> 00:54:46,317 ♪ ♪ 1086 00:54:46,416 --> 00:54:48,486 It’s time to go home. 1087 00:54:48,585 --> 00:54:55,485 ♪ ♪ 1088 00:54:55,592 --> 00:54:59,662 I don’t know how to logic my way around this food equation. 1089 00:54:59,763 --> 00:55:01,333 ♪ ♪ 1090 00:55:01,431 --> 00:55:04,471 We just aren’t bringing enough in, 1091 00:55:04,568 --> 00:55:07,998 and I’m not finding any new bear sign. 1092 00:55:08,105 --> 00:55:09,915 ♪ ♪ 1093 00:55:10,007 --> 00:55:13,477 Grouse and squirrels, berries and mushrooms... 1094 00:55:13,577 --> 00:55:17,207 that’s worked for 52 days, 1095 00:55:17,314 --> 00:55:21,854 but it’s not gonna work for another 20. 1096 00:55:21,952 --> 00:55:23,352 I just don’t think I have 1097 00:55:23,453 --> 00:55:25,193 20 days’ worth of weight to lose, 1098 00:55:25,289 --> 00:55:27,189 which is what I think I need to win. 1099 00:55:27,291 --> 00:55:29,191 ♪ ♪ 1100 00:55:29,293 --> 00:55:31,593 I wish I had fishing to fall back on 1101 00:55:31,695 --> 00:55:35,225 or gill netting or something, something, 1102 00:55:35,332 --> 00:55:37,372 something, something, you know? 1103 00:55:37,467 --> 00:55:40,737 ♪ ♪ 1104 00:55:40,838 --> 00:55:43,968 I have to work a physical job. 1105 00:55:44,074 --> 00:55:46,414 And if I can’t win, 1106 00:55:46,510 --> 00:55:48,810 I can’t screw my body up 1107 00:55:48,912 --> 00:55:51,312 to the point where I can’t work when I get home. 1108 00:55:51,415 --> 00:55:52,525 ♪ ♪ 1109 00:55:52,616 --> 00:55:54,576 But that black bear could walk 1110 00:55:54,685 --> 00:55:57,655 down that river valley trail 1111 00:55:57,754 --> 00:55:59,194 three days from now. 1112 00:55:59,289 --> 00:56:01,789 I could get a 20-yard shot from my front door. 1113 00:56:01,892 --> 00:56:03,462 ♪ ♪ 1114 00:56:03,560 --> 00:56:05,900 I really do love it out here. 1115 00:56:05,996 --> 00:56:08,496 I just wish I could get a little bit more food. 1116 00:56:08,599 --> 00:56:10,399 ♪ ♪ 1117 00:56:10,500 --> 00:56:12,340 [sighs] 1118 00:56:12,436 --> 00:56:18,436 ♪ ♪ 1119 00:56:20,110 --> 00:56:21,010 Okay. 1120 00:56:21,111 --> 00:56:22,681 ♪ ♪ 1121 00:56:22,779 --> 00:56:24,349 Let me show you something. 1122 00:56:24,448 --> 00:56:29,688 ♪ ♪ 1123 00:56:29,786 --> 00:56:32,956 There’s a spruce grouse in my camp. 1124 00:56:33,056 --> 00:56:36,786 ♪ ♪ 1125 00:56:40,864 --> 00:56:43,774 [dramatic music] 1126 00:56:43,867 --> 00:56:47,197 ♪ ♪ 1127 00:56:48,639 --> 00:56:50,739 ♪ ♪ 1128 00:56:50,841 --> 00:56:54,681 That bird has fueled my body. 1129 00:56:54,778 --> 00:56:58,208 My time in this place is inextricably linked 1130 00:56:58,315 --> 00:57:01,225 with that spruce grouse. 1131 00:57:01,318 --> 00:57:04,048 I wouldn’t be here right now if not for them. 1132 00:57:04,154 --> 00:57:06,024 ♪ ♪ 1133 00:57:06,123 --> 00:57:09,393 What a beautiful creature... 1134 00:57:09,493 --> 00:57:11,233 I’m grateful for. 1135 00:57:11,328 --> 00:57:15,868 ♪ ♪ 1136 00:57:15,966 --> 00:57:19,166 Any other day... 1137 00:57:19,269 --> 00:57:22,339 the last 52 days, 1138 00:57:22,439 --> 00:57:25,439 and this little guy would be dinner. 1139 00:57:28,612 --> 00:57:31,952 Today he’s gonna get away with it... 1140 00:57:33,750 --> 00:57:35,350 ’Cause we’re going home. 1141 00:57:35,452 --> 00:57:38,822 ♪ ♪ 1142 00:57:38,922 --> 00:57:40,492 It’s a sad thing to think about-- 1143 00:57:40,590 --> 00:57:42,360 my time here coming to an end. 1144 00:57:42,459 --> 00:57:44,089 ♪ ♪ 1145 00:57:44,194 --> 00:57:47,734 Today when I felt my legs just turn to lead 1146 00:57:47,831 --> 00:57:52,241 and every step just be a massive effort 1147 00:57:52,336 --> 00:57:54,066 just to move, 1148 00:57:54,171 --> 00:57:55,711 that’s when you know. 1149 00:57:55,806 --> 00:58:00,576 ♪ ♪ 1150 00:58:00,677 --> 00:58:03,507 It feels like a good time to make that phone call. 1151 00:58:03,613 --> 00:58:04,983 What do you say? 1152 00:58:05,082 --> 00:58:07,352 ♪ ♪ 1153 00:58:07,451 --> 00:58:10,091 Go up top and admire the view a little bit. 1154 00:58:10,187 --> 00:58:14,917 ♪ ♪ 1155 00:58:15,025 --> 00:58:18,335 I want to leave here on my own two feet, 1156 00:58:18,428 --> 00:58:21,758 of my own volition, with my head held high. 1157 00:58:21,865 --> 00:58:24,665 I don’t want to get medically pulled for weight loss. 1158 00:58:24,768 --> 00:58:28,868 I don’t feel like that’s a noble way to leave. 1159 00:58:28,972 --> 00:58:30,342 ♪ ♪ 1160 00:58:30,440 --> 00:58:33,740 I came out here to burn my candle down to the wick, 1161 00:58:33,844 --> 00:58:36,384 and I got 52 days out of it. 1162 00:58:36,480 --> 00:58:38,480 Some could do better. 1163 00:58:38,582 --> 00:58:39,922 Others will do worse. 1164 00:58:40,017 --> 00:58:42,947 ♪ ♪ 1165 00:58:43,053 --> 00:58:45,723 [phone beeping] 1166 00:58:45,822 --> 00:58:50,992 ♪ ♪ 1167 00:58:51,094 --> 00:58:53,634 Hey, this is Adam. 1168 00:58:53,730 --> 00:58:56,130 I’m officially tapping out. 1169 00:58:56,233 --> 00:59:02,273 ♪ ♪ 1170 00:59:02,372 --> 00:59:04,672 There is a sadness there now, 1171 00:59:04,775 --> 00:59:07,945 sadness at the definite finality. 1172 00:59:08,045 --> 00:59:10,055 [sighs] 1173 00:59:10,147 --> 00:59:14,677 But I’m excited to see my loved ones, 1174 00:59:14,785 --> 00:59:16,955 to tell them all how much I love them... 1175 00:59:17,054 --> 00:59:18,894 ♪ ♪ 1176 00:59:18,989 --> 00:59:22,229 Deeper than I ever have 1177 00:59:22,325 --> 00:59:25,395 my whole life thanks to this. 1178 00:59:25,495 --> 00:59:26,925 ♪ ♪ 1179 00:59:27,030 --> 00:59:28,730 What a gift that is. 1180 00:59:28,832 --> 00:59:30,402 ♪ ♪ 1181 00:59:30,500 --> 00:59:33,240 Absence really does make the heart grow fonder. 1182 00:59:33,336 --> 00:59:35,236 [chuckles] 1183 00:59:35,338 --> 00:59:42,348 ♪ ♪ 1184 00:59:44,648 --> 00:59:46,778 Done good, moss house. 1185 00:59:46,883 --> 00:59:48,083 Done good. 1186 00:59:48,185 --> 00:59:49,625 ♪ ♪ 1187 00:59:49,719 --> 00:59:51,789 Be sad to see you go. 1188 00:59:51,888 --> 00:59:58,798 ♪ ♪ 1189 01:00:01,198 --> 01:00:02,568 [distant engines rumbling] 1190 01:00:02,666 --> 01:00:04,166 Here they come. 1191 01:00:08,305 --> 01:00:09,545 Hey, guys. 1192 01:00:11,208 --> 01:00:13,938 I failed at my goal 1193 01:00:14,044 --> 01:00:16,414 of winning a half million dollars, 1194 01:00:16,513 --> 01:00:17,913 and when you fail at something, 1195 01:00:18,014 --> 01:00:21,154 you’re always going to want to review the playbook 1196 01:00:21,251 --> 01:00:24,951 and figure out what you could have done better. 1197 01:00:25,055 --> 01:00:27,865 But I did 100%-- 1198 01:00:27,958 --> 01:00:29,888 and I can say this with confidence-- 1199 01:00:29,993 --> 01:00:33,403 give everything I had to every single day, 1200 01:00:33,497 --> 01:00:36,097 even if on that day it meant that I couldn’t get out of bed 1201 01:00:36,199 --> 01:00:38,899 until 9:30 because I was so tired 1202 01:00:39,002 --> 01:00:40,702 ’cause I hadn’t slept all night 1203 01:00:40,804 --> 01:00:43,174 and I could only do two or three hours of hunting 1204 01:00:43,273 --> 01:00:44,943 instead of five, and I came home empty-handed. 1205 01:00:45,041 --> 01:00:47,311 I still did the best I could. 1206 01:00:47,410 --> 01:00:51,550 And when you know that you’ve done your best, 1207 01:00:51,648 --> 01:00:54,078 losing at something 1208 01:00:54,184 --> 01:00:57,924 doesn’t feel quite so... 1209 01:00:58,021 --> 01:01:00,091 bitter. 1210 01:01:00,190 --> 01:01:02,890 What more could you have done, you know? 1211 01:01:02,993 --> 01:01:07,933 ♪ ♪ 1212 01:01:08,031 --> 01:01:10,601 I came out here with a backpack full of clothes 1213 01:01:10,700 --> 01:01:12,870 and ten items, 1214 01:01:12,969 --> 01:01:15,809 and I built myself a house, 1215 01:01:15,906 --> 01:01:20,376 and I kept myself fed and rested and watered 1216 01:01:20,477 --> 01:01:22,707 for close to eight weeks. 1217 01:01:22,812 --> 01:01:24,382 I’m pretty proud of that. 1218 01:01:24,481 --> 01:01:25,721 ♪ ♪ 1219 01:01:25,815 --> 01:01:26,915 I’m not a professional. 1220 01:01:27,017 --> 01:01:30,017 I’m a tradesman that loves the outdoors. 1221 01:01:30,120 --> 01:01:33,820 And I want to encourage anyone 1222 01:01:33,924 --> 01:01:36,394 to just get outside and to learn 1223 01:01:36,493 --> 01:01:39,433 and to try new things 1224 01:01:39,529 --> 01:01:44,069 because you don’t have to be a professional survivalist. 1225 01:01:44,167 --> 01:01:48,197 You just need to have some tenacity, some skills. 1226 01:01:48,305 --> 01:01:49,745 ♪ ♪ 1227 01:01:49,839 --> 01:01:52,139 I played my hand the best I could, 1228 01:01:52,242 --> 01:01:56,782 and I don’t quite match up, 1229 01:01:56,880 --> 01:01:58,250 and that’s okay. 1230 01:01:58,348 --> 01:02:00,248 ♪ ♪ 1231 01:02:00,350 --> 01:02:04,920 The risk that comes from doing things on your own 1232 01:02:05,021 --> 01:02:07,361 also comes with a great reward, 1233 01:02:07,457 --> 01:02:10,387 which is the opportunity to learn things about yourself 1234 01:02:10,493 --> 01:02:12,263 that you can’t learn in any other way. 1235 01:02:12,362 --> 01:02:16,602 ♪ ♪ 1236 01:02:16,700 --> 01:02:17,900 - Getting weaker. 1237 01:02:18,001 --> 01:02:19,901 My mind’s not as sharp. 1238 01:02:20,003 --> 01:02:22,543 My body’s kind of declining. 1239 01:02:22,639 --> 01:02:24,409 Oh. [bleep]. 1240 01:02:24,507 --> 01:02:27,737 - The landscape has considerably changed. 1241 01:02:27,844 --> 01:02:30,084 Really crazy weather! 1242 01:02:30,180 --> 01:02:32,520 And it just hasn’t stopped. 1243 01:02:32,616 --> 01:02:34,946 Perfect hypothermia weather. 1244 01:02:35,051 --> 01:02:37,421 - Oh, my gosh, it’s deep! 1245 01:02:37,520 --> 01:02:39,390 I’m feeling like I’m not good enough 1246 01:02:39,489 --> 01:02:41,389 to come home with a meal. 1247 01:02:41,491 --> 01:02:43,731 It’s getting overwhelming. 1248 01:02:43,827 --> 01:02:44,987 Ah! 1249 01:02:45,095 --> 01:02:48,065 ♪ ♪ 1250 01:02:49,499 --> 01:02:54,299 ♪ ♪ 1251 01:02:54,371 --> 01:02:57,211 - Any other day 1252 01:02:57,274 --> 01:02:59,814 of the last 52 days, 1253 01:02:59,876 --> 01:03:02,306 and this little guy would be dinner. 1254 01:03:03,713 --> 01:03:04,913 Today... 1255 01:03:06,082 --> 01:03:09,792 He’s gonna get away with it... 1256 01:03:09,853 --> 01:03:11,123 ’cause we’re going home. 1257 01:03:11,187 --> 01:03:16,387 ♪ ♪ 1258 01:03:16,459 --> 01:03:19,699 My body is telling me it’s time to go, 1259 01:03:19,763 --> 01:03:22,233 and my brain is telling me, 1260 01:03:22,299 --> 01:03:24,429 "Hey, dude, it’s also time to go." 1261 01:03:24,501 --> 01:03:26,241 ♪ ♪ 1262 01:03:26,303 --> 01:03:29,113 A final gift from the land 1263 01:03:29,172 --> 01:03:32,412 is reassurance... 1264 01:03:32,475 --> 01:03:34,135 in my decision. 1265 01:03:34,210 --> 01:03:41,250 ♪ ♪ 1266 01:03:47,791 --> 01:03:49,231 Here they come. 1267 01:03:53,263 --> 01:03:54,633 Hey, guys. 1268 01:03:56,099 --> 01:03:57,299 Great to see you. 1269 01:03:58,501 --> 01:03:59,741 - How do you think this experience 1270 01:03:59,803 --> 01:04:01,843 has changed you? - [sighs] 1271 01:04:01,905 --> 01:04:03,875 So many ways actually. 1272 01:04:03,940 --> 01:04:06,610 First and foremost, I feel like it has changed 1273 01:04:06,676 --> 01:04:10,506 my relationship to food in a pretty profound way, 1274 01:04:10,580 --> 01:04:14,420 and this whole time that I’ve been out here, 1275 01:04:14,484 --> 01:04:17,854 and I’ve been living off of the land, 1276 01:04:17,921 --> 01:04:21,661 I want to go home and take that kind of connection 1277 01:04:21,725 --> 01:04:24,265 with me and really work towards deepening 1278 01:04:24,327 --> 01:04:27,957 my connection with the food that I eat at home as well. 1279 01:04:29,265 --> 01:04:31,395 Ooh, what is this? - Ooh. 1280 01:04:31,468 --> 01:04:33,568 - Oh, my God, it smells amazing. 1281 01:04:40,677 --> 01:04:43,607 Oh, my God, yes. Thank you. 1282 01:04:46,683 --> 01:04:47,723 Oh. 1283 01:04:49,686 --> 01:04:51,686 Okay, I gotta ask. 1284 01:04:51,755 --> 01:04:52,965 How many people are left? 1285 01:04:55,792 --> 01:04:57,562 - You really can’t tell me? 1286 01:04:57,627 --> 01:04:58,557 - Okay. 1287 01:04:58,628 --> 01:05:02,698 ♪ ♪ 1288 01:05:02,766 --> 01:05:04,626 I’ve had a great run. 1289 01:05:04,701 --> 01:05:07,871 I get to leave here with a smile on my face 1290 01:05:07,937 --> 01:05:10,637 and my head held high and my health intact... 1291 01:05:10,707 --> 01:05:12,307 ♪ ♪ 1292 01:05:12,375 --> 01:05:15,275 Having learned so much about myself 1293 01:05:15,345 --> 01:05:19,055 and learned so many new skills... 1294 01:05:19,115 --> 01:05:23,585 and there’s no loss in that. 1295 01:05:23,653 --> 01:05:25,223 ♪ ♪ 1296 01:05:25,288 --> 01:05:26,888 That’s me taking home a win. 1297 01:05:26,956 --> 01:05:28,816 ♪ ♪ 1298 01:05:28,892 --> 01:05:32,132 I will always remember this place fondly. 1299 01:05:32,195 --> 01:05:35,035 I have nothing but positive memories, 1300 01:05:35,098 --> 01:05:36,368 and that’s another win. 1301 01:05:36,433 --> 01:05:38,533 ♪ ♪ 1302 01:05:38,601 --> 01:05:42,671 I’m a blue collar tradesman that likes the outdoors 1303 01:05:42,739 --> 01:05:44,669 and has some cool skills. 1304 01:05:44,741 --> 01:05:46,611 ♪ ♪ 1305 01:05:46,676 --> 01:05:49,406 It was always gonna be a bit of a longshot win for me. 1306 01:05:50,980 --> 01:05:53,480 This landscape is entirely new to me... 1307 01:05:53,550 --> 01:05:55,790 ♪ ♪ 1308 01:05:55,852 --> 01:06:00,492 And I managed to make it a home... 1309 01:06:00,557 --> 01:06:02,117 based on the skills and the knowledge 1310 01:06:02,192 --> 01:06:03,132 that I do have... 1311 01:06:03,193 --> 01:06:04,563 ♪ ♪ 1312 01:06:04,627 --> 01:06:07,427 Just by adapting and by listening 1313 01:06:07,497 --> 01:06:10,497 and by... 1314 01:06:10,567 --> 01:06:13,337 being malleable to the conditions. 1315 01:06:13,403 --> 01:06:14,973 ♪ ♪ 1316 01:06:15,038 --> 01:06:17,008 I’m proud of what I’ve done. 1317 01:06:17,073 --> 01:06:19,743 ♪ ♪ 1318 01:06:19,809 --> 01:06:21,639 I don’t feel disappointed 1319 01:06:21,711 --> 01:06:24,351 about losing the half a million. 1320 01:06:24,414 --> 01:06:27,854 I am leaving here with a wealth 1321 01:06:27,917 --> 01:06:30,217 of new knowledge and wisdom 1322 01:06:30,286 --> 01:06:32,686 and deepened love and appreciation 1323 01:06:32,755 --> 01:06:34,885 for my family and for my home, 1324 01:06:34,958 --> 01:06:37,058 and that’s a pretty good consolation prize.