1 00:00:08,491 --> 00:00:15,532 ♪ ♪ 2 00:00:15,946 --> 00:00:18,777 - The bird trap was triggered. No birdie. 3 00:00:18,880 --> 00:00:21,573 If I go another week without catching anything, 4 00:00:21,676 --> 00:00:23,575 it's gonna be really freaking hard. 5 00:00:24,783 --> 00:00:27,061 - . That was way over there. 6 00:00:27,165 --> 00:00:29,201 I don't know what to do about my shot, 7 00:00:29,305 --> 00:00:30,444 but it's gotta change 8 00:00:30,547 --> 00:00:32,101 or I don't have much time left. 9 00:00:32,204 --> 00:00:34,896 - I just need to last a day longer 10 00:00:35,000 --> 00:00:36,243 than the other contestants. 11 00:00:36,346 --> 00:00:38,314 You don't have to outrun the bear. 12 00:00:38,417 --> 00:00:41,144 You just have to outrun your friends. 13 00:00:41,248 --> 00:00:46,460 My plan right now basically is to fast for 20 more days. 14 00:00:46,563 --> 00:00:48,048 Isn't that insane? 15 00:00:48,634 --> 00:00:50,429 - Any other day 16 00:00:50,533 --> 00:00:53,018 that spruce grouse would be dinner, 17 00:00:53,122 --> 00:00:55,538 and he's gonna get away with it 'cause we're going home. 18 00:00:55,641 --> 00:00:58,368 I came out here to burn my candle down to the wick, 19 00:00:58,472 --> 00:01:00,060 and I got 52 days out of it. 20 00:01:00,163 --> 00:01:01,716 I'm pretty proud of that. 21 00:01:03,373 --> 00:01:10,380 ♪ ♪ 22 00:01:11,243 --> 00:01:13,901 - I can't wait to have this place try and break me. 23 00:01:14,004 --> 00:01:15,903 narrator: For the first time on "Alone," 24 00:01:16,006 --> 00:01:18,285 Ten participants fight to survive 25 00:01:18,388 --> 00:01:19,596 in the hunting ground 26 00:01:19,700 --> 00:01:21,874 of the world's largest land predator... 27 00:01:21,978 --> 00:01:23,704 - Oh, my God, where'd he go? 28 00:01:23,807 --> 00:01:24,946 Those are bear. 29 00:01:25,050 --> 00:01:26,396 - I heard a big animal. 30 00:01:26,500 --> 00:01:27,535 - Hey, bear. 31 00:01:27,639 --> 00:01:29,158 - Oh, no. 32 00:01:29,261 --> 00:01:30,400 - Sometimes you eat the bear... 33 00:01:31,919 --> 00:01:33,541 - Sometimes the bear eats you. 34 00:01:34,197 --> 00:01:36,165 narrator: Battling merciless conditions... 35 00:01:36,268 --> 00:01:38,201 - This is some hard-core bushwhacking. 36 00:01:38,305 --> 00:01:41,653 - Why does it have to be such a struggle every night? 37 00:01:41,756 --> 00:01:43,413 - I hit it. I hit it. I hit it. 38 00:01:43,517 --> 00:01:45,519 - I feel more alive every day I'm out here. 39 00:01:45,622 --> 00:01:48,315 Ahh. - Here comes the rain again. 40 00:01:48,418 --> 00:01:51,111 - Labrador, you're not gonna make it easy for us, are you? 41 00:01:51,387 --> 00:01:53,078 narrator: In complete isolation. 42 00:01:53,182 --> 00:01:55,977 - The most dangerous thing out here is myself. 43 00:01:56,081 --> 00:01:57,324 - Look at that! 44 00:01:57,427 --> 00:01:58,704 - The cold ground is just pulling 45 00:01:58,808 --> 00:02:00,223 all the warmth from me. 46 00:02:00,327 --> 00:02:03,502 - How many days can this go on? - Very, very hungry. 47 00:02:03,606 --> 00:02:04,848 - Feel like I'm hitting a wall. 48 00:02:04,952 --> 00:02:07,437 narrator: Last one standing wins. 49 00:02:07,541 --> 00:02:09,715 - Only gonna get harder the longer you stay out here. 50 00:02:09,819 --> 00:02:16,860 ♪ ♪ 51 00:02:35,672 --> 00:02:37,260 - Oh, no way. 52 00:02:37,743 --> 00:02:39,573 Got another one. 53 00:02:55,278 --> 00:02:58,488 Rungu, I'm grateful for you, bud. 54 00:03:08,084 --> 00:03:12,053 Now that's what I call a good frickin' morning. 55 00:03:12,157 --> 00:03:17,197 This looks like a male, a decent-sized one as well. 56 00:03:17,300 --> 00:03:21,580 So I'm still in the game, still in the game. 57 00:03:21,684 --> 00:03:24,376 All right, let's gut this little guy. 58 00:03:25,377 --> 00:03:27,966 Here we go, in between his shoulders. 59 00:03:32,384 --> 00:03:35,076 Rungu did it again. 60 00:03:35,180 --> 00:03:36,837 Brings back all those good memories. 61 00:03:37,769 --> 00:03:41,255 This Rungu is the first one I've made. 62 00:03:41,359 --> 00:03:43,844 The two that I've had prior to this 63 00:03:43,947 --> 00:03:45,535 was when I was living with a Maasai 64 00:03:45,639 --> 00:03:46,778 and they were gifted to me. 65 00:03:48,124 --> 00:03:49,953 You got some tough skin, buddy. 66 00:03:51,023 --> 00:03:52,715 When I first dropped in Kenya, 67 00:03:52,818 --> 00:03:56,028 I spent every moment with the Maasai. 68 00:03:56,132 --> 00:03:57,892 I traded my clothes, traded my shoes, 69 00:03:57,996 --> 00:03:59,411 got rid of everything. 70 00:03:59,515 --> 00:04:03,035 Got my machete, had my goat-herding stick, 71 00:04:03,139 --> 00:04:05,624 and I went full on in and they taught me. 72 00:04:07,592 --> 00:04:08,593 There you go. 73 00:04:09,318 --> 00:04:11,906 I felt something magical run through me 74 00:04:12,010 --> 00:04:13,425 when practicing those traditions. 75 00:04:13,529 --> 00:04:15,185 ♪ ♪ 76 00:04:15,289 --> 00:04:18,016 So one of the biggest reasons 77 00:04:18,119 --> 00:04:20,846 why I want to do what I want to do, 78 00:04:20,950 --> 00:04:22,227 not only take care of people-- 79 00:04:22,331 --> 00:04:24,885 but being a bridge between the medical world 80 00:04:24,988 --> 00:04:26,266 and the traditional world is 81 00:04:26,369 --> 00:04:29,199 to give back to Indigenous communities. 82 00:04:30,131 --> 00:04:33,618 When we looked at communities of people who got the bad deal 83 00:04:33,721 --> 00:04:37,656 out of every single country that was colonized, 84 00:04:37,760 --> 00:04:39,624 it's the native people there. 85 00:04:40,245 --> 00:04:42,627 And they deserve a louder voice. 86 00:04:42,730 --> 00:04:44,456 They deserve better care. 87 00:04:45,526 --> 00:04:48,288 All right, you sweet little guy... 88 00:04:48,391 --> 00:04:51,808 Want to make sure I'm getting all the brains and stuff. 89 00:04:51,912 --> 00:04:53,396 Don't want to waste that part. 90 00:04:53,500 --> 00:04:55,225 ♪ ♪ 91 00:04:55,329 --> 00:05:00,714 And much-deserved painting of Rungu. 92 00:05:00,817 --> 00:05:03,199 Here you go, buddy. 93 00:05:03,303 --> 00:05:04,269 Warpaint. 94 00:05:04,373 --> 00:05:05,408 ♪ ♪ 95 00:05:05,512 --> 00:05:06,616 They've changed my life 96 00:05:06,720 --> 00:05:09,136 on multiple different levels. 97 00:05:09,239 --> 00:05:10,724 It's only right to give back. 98 00:05:10,827 --> 00:05:13,002 ♪ ♪ 99 00:05:13,105 --> 00:05:17,765 All right, Rungu all painted up with his kill. 100 00:05:17,869 --> 00:05:19,940 Thank you. 101 00:05:20,043 --> 00:05:27,085 ♪ ♪ 102 00:05:29,777 --> 00:05:32,746 A 103 00:05:33,091 --> 00:05:39,304 ♪ ♪ 104 00:05:40,685 --> 00:05:41,755 - I just have to do this. 105 00:05:41,858 --> 00:05:48,900 ♪ ♪ 106 00:05:50,142 --> 00:05:53,456 Angels on Blueberry Hill. 107 00:06:06,987 --> 00:06:08,333 It's wintertime. 108 00:06:08,437 --> 00:06:10,024 Whoo-hoo! 109 00:06:12,026 --> 00:06:18,930 ♪ ♪ 110 00:06:19,793 --> 00:06:21,691 I think we're gonna get colder 111 00:06:21,795 --> 00:06:23,590 and more snow in the next few days, 112 00:06:23,693 --> 00:06:26,869 so I definitely want to button up the shelter. 113 00:06:28,008 --> 00:06:29,181 Here we go. 114 00:06:29,285 --> 00:06:32,392 Karie Lee's excavation service. 115 00:06:33,496 --> 00:06:34,842 Oh, wow. 116 00:06:36,016 --> 00:06:37,845 I want to build a cob oven 117 00:06:37,949 --> 00:06:40,952 because there's dry grass here, clay. 118 00:06:41,055 --> 00:06:42,850 There's even a little sand. 119 00:06:44,369 --> 00:06:45,957 Okay, I think that's good. 120 00:06:46,923 --> 00:06:48,511 Let's make the form. 121 00:06:49,961 --> 00:06:55,725 Got some rotten pieces of wood for the clay to stick to. 122 00:06:55,829 --> 00:06:57,900 So I'm gonna bundle up a bunch of wood 123 00:06:58,003 --> 00:07:01,766 and then pile the cob up all around it 124 00:07:01,869 --> 00:07:03,181 and light it on fire. 125 00:07:03,284 --> 00:07:06,978 And the fire will dry it in place. 126 00:07:07,081 --> 00:07:09,739 I feel the cob oven would be really important 127 00:07:09,843 --> 00:07:12,259 because the clay is gonna be able to hold heat. 128 00:07:12,362 --> 00:07:15,676 And because it's enclosed I could burn fur, 129 00:07:15,780 --> 00:07:19,300 which is really sparky, but it has a high BTU rate. 130 00:07:22,131 --> 00:07:25,306 Ooh, yes, it's gonna be a cold night tonight. 131 00:07:25,859 --> 00:07:29,518 ♪ ♪ 132 00:07:29,621 --> 00:07:31,140 So what we do, 133 00:07:31,243 --> 00:07:35,282 we take the cob, make little patties, 134 00:07:35,385 --> 00:07:38,458 and we're just gonna pat it on. 135 00:07:39,769 --> 00:07:41,150 I want to stay a long time 136 00:07:41,253 --> 00:07:44,291 because I want to see 137 00:07:44,394 --> 00:07:48,329 how spiritually deep I can connect with the Earth. 138 00:07:48,433 --> 00:07:49,572 Ah, jeez. 139 00:07:50,608 --> 00:07:52,920 But you spend so much time out here 140 00:07:53,024 --> 00:07:56,027 taking care of your survival needs-- 141 00:07:56,130 --> 00:07:59,030 the shelter, the fire, the food-- 142 00:07:59,133 --> 00:08:02,999 the time that you have to actually just be 143 00:08:03,103 --> 00:08:04,518 is very limited. 144 00:08:11,456 --> 00:08:13,493 This is taking longer than I thought. 145 00:08:16,357 --> 00:08:17,704 I'm getting there. 146 00:08:17,807 --> 00:08:21,259 ♪ ♪ 147 00:08:21,362 --> 00:08:22,916 Here's my chimney. 148 00:08:23,019 --> 00:08:25,263 ♪ ♪ 149 00:08:25,366 --> 00:08:26,713 Instead of going out a wall, 150 00:08:26,816 --> 00:08:27,886 I'm just gonna have the chimney come 151 00:08:27,990 --> 00:08:30,579 straight up out of the ground. 152 00:08:30,682 --> 00:08:32,512 Hopefully it'll draft correctly. 153 00:08:34,272 --> 00:08:38,794 Not too close to the shelter, standing upright. 154 00:08:38,897 --> 00:08:40,623 Ready or not, let's cob it up. 155 00:08:40,727 --> 00:08:42,211 ♪ ♪ 156 00:08:42,314 --> 00:08:44,972 I've actually done a brain test of the four quadrants, 157 00:08:45,076 --> 00:08:48,182 and I discovered I'm a frontal-brain thinker. 158 00:08:49,701 --> 00:08:52,946 My strongest point is visionary creative, 159 00:08:53,049 --> 00:08:54,292 but my other hat, 160 00:08:54,395 --> 00:08:56,121 which is totally the other side of the brain, 161 00:08:56,225 --> 00:08:58,676 is I'm also very analytical. 162 00:08:58,779 --> 00:09:00,056 ♪ Mmm mmm mmm ♪ 163 00:09:00,160 --> 00:09:02,024 I'm gonna be so happy to have a wall 164 00:09:02,127 --> 00:09:03,957 so it can retain some of the heat in here. 165 00:09:04,060 --> 00:09:05,545 ♪ ♪ 166 00:09:05,648 --> 00:09:07,995 And I'm discovering with myself 167 00:09:08,099 --> 00:09:11,309 that when my logical brain takes over and I think, 168 00:09:11,412 --> 00:09:13,242 "Okay, now this morning I need to do this, 169 00:09:13,345 --> 00:09:15,175 I need, I need, I need," 170 00:09:15,278 --> 00:09:16,935 things don't go as smoothly. 171 00:09:17,971 --> 00:09:21,008 Yes, the clay is perfectly packable. 172 00:09:21,112 --> 00:09:25,116 ♪ ♪ 173 00:09:31,398 --> 00:09:38,439 ♪ ♪ 174 00:09:39,406 --> 00:09:41,132 Whew. 175 00:09:41,235 --> 00:09:43,859 I did a good job layering in that wood. 176 00:09:45,619 --> 00:09:47,448 I can hear the clay sizzling. 177 00:09:52,143 --> 00:09:55,353 Oh, we have breakthrough. 178 00:09:55,456 --> 00:09:57,562 ♪ ♪ 179 00:09:57,666 --> 00:10:01,531 See, we got a total blow-out down there. 180 00:10:01,635 --> 00:10:04,431 ♪ ♪ 181 00:10:04,534 --> 00:10:08,435 The cob oven is falling apart. 182 00:10:08,538 --> 00:10:11,990 My problem now is I'm gonna have to get more clay, 183 00:10:12,094 --> 00:10:13,578 but the clay is dry. 184 00:10:13,682 --> 00:10:14,924 It's not gonna stick. 185 00:10:15,028 --> 00:10:17,513 I'm gonna have to haul up some water and get it wet. 186 00:10:17,617 --> 00:10:19,964 And it's gonna take more energy and more time 187 00:10:20,067 --> 00:10:21,862 when I should be out getting food. 188 00:10:21,966 --> 00:10:23,277 ♪ ♪ 189 00:10:23,381 --> 00:10:24,831 I should probably just tear it down. 190 00:10:24,934 --> 00:10:26,660 ♪ ♪ 191 00:10:26,764 --> 00:10:29,042 A lot of work. 192 00:10:29,145 --> 00:10:31,631 That was a waste of time. 193 00:10:39,500 --> 00:10:46,507 ♪ ♪ 194 00:11:01,488 --> 00:11:03,835 - I'm dressing inside my sleeping bag. 195 00:11:06,389 --> 00:11:11,187 I know it's exaggerated, but why not stay warm, 196 00:11:11,291 --> 00:11:12,913 preserve calories? 197 00:11:14,777 --> 00:11:17,746 And also, dressing up inside a sleeping bag 198 00:11:17,849 --> 00:11:20,645 gets your blood flowing, that's for sure. 199 00:11:20,749 --> 00:11:22,578 It's my yoga. 200 00:11:24,235 --> 00:11:26,375 Because I'm fasting, I need to be 201 00:11:26,478 --> 00:11:29,447 extremely strategic about my energy 202 00:11:29,550 --> 00:11:31,725 ♪ ♪ 203 00:11:31,829 --> 00:11:34,624 and maximize the return of my effort. 204 00:11:34,728 --> 00:11:36,454 ♪ ♪ 205 00:11:36,557 --> 00:11:38,939 Almost done, almost done. 206 00:11:39,043 --> 00:11:40,665 ♪ ♪ 207 00:11:40,769 --> 00:11:42,356 But it's all a big bet. 208 00:11:44,496 --> 00:11:46,326 First drink water. 209 00:11:47,051 --> 00:11:54,092 ♪ ♪ 210 00:11:56,232 --> 00:11:59,580 So this is wet snow. 211 00:11:59,684 --> 00:12:02,031 As soon as it touches your body, 212 00:12:02,135 --> 00:12:03,377 it turns into water. 213 00:12:03,481 --> 00:12:05,517 Perfect hypothermia weather. 214 00:12:07,209 --> 00:12:08,969 I'm not gonna spend too much time outside. 215 00:12:09,073 --> 00:12:11,385 I'm just gonna grab some water. 216 00:12:12,455 --> 00:12:15,665 Just seeing the snow makes you feel colder. 217 00:12:15,769 --> 00:12:19,255 It's like, oh, . It's getting real. 218 00:12:19,946 --> 00:12:21,671 It's gonna be quite challenging. 219 00:12:21,775 --> 00:12:24,019 ♪ ♪ 220 00:12:24,122 --> 00:12:27,539 Survival is brutal, 221 00:12:27,643 --> 00:12:30,370 but it doesn't have to crush you down. 222 00:12:30,473 --> 00:12:32,890 We can do unbelievable feats 223 00:12:32,993 --> 00:12:35,030 when our mind and our body 224 00:12:35,133 --> 00:12:38,205 and our soul are working together, 225 00:12:38,309 --> 00:12:40,035 and when we just have that willingness 226 00:12:40,138 --> 00:12:43,072 to give it all for our families. 227 00:12:43,176 --> 00:12:45,178 It's so powerful. 228 00:12:46,904 --> 00:12:49,078 I'm gonna put some sticks on my roof 229 00:12:49,182 --> 00:12:53,393 because I don't want a huge snowfall to come 230 00:12:53,496 --> 00:12:56,914 and my tarp to sag too much. 231 00:12:57,017 --> 00:12:59,675 But that's it, not gonna do too much. 232 00:12:59,779 --> 00:13:02,540 I like to work with the weather, not against it. 233 00:13:02,643 --> 00:13:04,611 I think you should do like the animals 234 00:13:04,714 --> 00:13:06,233 and just hunker down. 235 00:13:06,337 --> 00:13:13,344 ♪ ♪ 236 00:13:32,087 --> 00:13:35,159 When you're in survival mode, it's so easy to understand 237 00:13:35,262 --> 00:13:36,988 what is truly important in life 238 00:13:38,852 --> 00:13:40,612 and how simple life can be. 239 00:13:40,716 --> 00:13:42,649 ♪ ♪ 240 00:13:47,481 --> 00:13:49,035 And then it teaches you 241 00:13:49,138 --> 00:13:51,106 the importance of being present, 242 00:13:51,209 --> 00:13:52,314 enjoying the moment, 243 00:13:52,417 --> 00:13:53,902 even if it's really challenging. 244 00:13:54,005 --> 00:13:55,006 ♪ ♪ 245 00:13:55,110 --> 00:13:56,663 Because if you cannot do that, 246 00:13:56,766 --> 00:13:59,873 mentally, you're not gonna be able to survive. 247 00:13:59,977 --> 00:14:02,255 ♪ ♪ 248 00:14:02,358 --> 00:14:05,810 All right, work is finished here. 249 00:14:12,921 --> 00:14:14,439 It's way better. 250 00:14:16,407 --> 00:14:20,238 But right now the calm before the storm. 251 00:14:20,342 --> 00:14:27,383 ♪ ♪ 252 00:14:46,230 --> 00:14:47,438 - Just wanted to show you 253 00:14:47,541 --> 00:14:50,613 how on the outside this shelter looks pretty big, 254 00:14:50,717 --> 00:14:54,548 but really it's just the 1 to 2 feet of insulation. 255 00:14:54,652 --> 00:14:57,068 So this is all I get. 256 00:14:57,172 --> 00:15:01,176 Everything's pretty compact, but very functional. 257 00:15:02,039 --> 00:15:04,179 It's a lot colder than yesterday. 258 00:15:05,835 --> 00:15:09,701 Just looking at, like, places that I can pack some more moss. 259 00:15:11,634 --> 00:15:15,293 So let's see what's in the outside--outside world. 260 00:15:16,294 --> 00:15:22,887 ♪ ♪ 261 00:15:22,991 --> 00:15:24,406 Plan for today, 262 00:15:24,509 --> 00:15:26,304 I'm gonna grab some spruce boughs 263 00:15:26,408 --> 00:15:28,375 for the front of the shelter. 264 00:15:28,479 --> 00:15:30,826 I want to bolster this side. 265 00:15:30,930 --> 00:15:32,828 The wind comes this way. 266 00:15:32,932 --> 00:15:35,348 There's a draft that comes this way. 267 00:15:35,451 --> 00:15:38,178 So let's make this better. 268 00:15:38,282 --> 00:15:42,527 It's been dreadfully hard to poop. 269 00:15:42,631 --> 00:15:45,151 It's a bittersweet experience being 270 00:15:45,254 --> 00:15:46,738 the first physician out here. 271 00:15:46,842 --> 00:15:49,949 I'm more aware of what my body's doing. 272 00:15:50,052 --> 00:15:53,538 Like, just constipation out here can be 273 00:15:53,642 --> 00:15:56,196 very, very difficult. 274 00:15:56,300 --> 00:15:58,612 And just forcing that crap out of you-- 275 00:15:58,716 --> 00:16:02,202 know what you can do out here for a hemorrhoid, 276 00:16:02,306 --> 00:16:05,067 that's helpful because the pain of that 277 00:16:05,171 --> 00:16:06,758 could take someone out. 278 00:16:06,862 --> 00:16:08,105 ♪ ♪ 279 00:16:08,208 --> 00:16:10,417 Got these big boys. 280 00:16:10,521 --> 00:16:13,765 And the body consumes on a priority basis. 281 00:16:13,869 --> 00:16:16,561 There are preferences for energy. 282 00:16:16,665 --> 00:16:18,874 I've burnt through the blood sugar, 283 00:16:18,978 --> 00:16:21,428 burned through the liver stores of sugar, 284 00:16:21,532 --> 00:16:22,843 burnt through all the fat, 285 00:16:22,947 --> 00:16:26,088 'cause I can just feel skin on my stomach. 286 00:16:26,192 --> 00:16:28,780 And organ fat, that's probably very depleted 287 00:16:28,884 --> 00:16:30,299 'cause I can suck in now. 288 00:16:30,403 --> 00:16:32,370 Before I couldn't even do that. 289 00:16:32,474 --> 00:16:36,443 All righty, add a little more. 290 00:16:36,547 --> 00:16:39,343 I think we're pretty golden. 291 00:16:39,446 --> 00:16:42,415 But I'm very grateful that I know what I know. 292 00:16:44,279 --> 00:16:48,352 It's been helpful to not only evaluate a true emergency, 293 00:16:48,455 --> 00:16:50,975 but to take care of all the small things that's happened. 294 00:16:52,528 --> 00:16:54,599 I wouldn't have been able to do that if I didn't have 295 00:16:54,703 --> 00:16:56,118 the training, the knowledge, and the skills 296 00:16:56,222 --> 00:16:58,051 that I have gained over the years. 297 00:16:59,225 --> 00:17:04,161 There are some boughs there, too, that I want to get. 298 00:17:04,264 --> 00:17:07,129 ♪ ♪ 299 00:17:07,233 --> 00:17:09,028 I'm gonna use you guys. 300 00:17:11,064 --> 00:17:17,001 ♪ ♪ 301 00:17:17,105 --> 00:17:19,348 Some nice long boughs. 302 00:17:19,452 --> 00:17:26,355 ♪ ♪ 303 00:17:26,459 --> 00:17:27,632 Okay. 304 00:17:29,013 --> 00:17:32,258 Let's see if I can get this guy. 305 00:17:32,361 --> 00:17:34,156 ♪ ♪ 306 00:17:34,260 --> 00:17:35,261 Whoa-- 307 00:17:35,364 --> 00:17:38,298 ♪ ♪ 308 00:17:45,926 --> 00:17:49,965 ♪ ♪ 309 00:18:08,363 --> 00:18:09,881 Let's not do that again. 310 00:18:09,985 --> 00:18:12,953 ♪ ♪ 311 00:18:13,057 --> 00:18:17,820 Getting weaker and balance is getting off. 312 00:18:17,924 --> 00:18:20,202 The mind's not as sharp. 313 00:18:20,306 --> 00:18:23,895 My body is kind of declining, you know? 314 00:18:23,999 --> 00:18:31,040 ♪ ♪ 315 00:18:49,714 --> 00:18:51,475 Too far for me. 316 00:18:52,269 --> 00:18:59,276 ♪ ♪ 317 00:19:01,761 --> 00:19:04,626 All right, I just need to take a break. 318 00:19:06,593 --> 00:19:08,285 A long break. 319 00:19:09,458 --> 00:19:12,012 Oh, that feels better. 320 00:19:13,669 --> 00:19:18,950 Who knew breaking some twigs with my hands 321 00:19:19,054 --> 00:19:23,817 and some boughs in that's-- 322 00:19:23,921 --> 00:19:26,199 that's a day for me, you know? 323 00:19:26,303 --> 00:19:29,754 That's all I can do today. 324 00:19:31,031 --> 00:19:32,792 That's what it feels like. 325 00:19:32,895 --> 00:19:37,452 ♪ ♪ 326 00:19:40,455 --> 00:19:42,215 Mmm. 327 00:19:42,319 --> 00:19:44,286 I think it's tough for anyone out here 328 00:19:44,390 --> 00:19:47,116 that has a limited food supply. 329 00:19:47,220 --> 00:19:48,842 ♪ ♪ 330 00:19:48,946 --> 00:19:52,881 I have a winter's worth of reindeer moss, 331 00:19:52,984 --> 00:19:55,642 a handful of cranberries, 332 00:19:55,746 --> 00:19:58,542 and there's one piece of grouse left. 333 00:19:58,645 --> 00:20:02,028 But I've been saving that for American Thanksgiving. 334 00:20:02,131 --> 00:20:04,341 That's gonna give me a huge, huge boost 335 00:20:04,444 --> 00:20:06,205 for the mental game. 336 00:20:09,622 --> 00:20:12,452 Crazy, you know? 337 00:20:12,556 --> 00:20:15,352 ♪ ♪ 338 00:20:15,455 --> 00:20:17,423 Body is constantly changing... 339 00:20:17,526 --> 00:20:19,390 ♪ ♪ 340 00:20:19,494 --> 00:20:22,048 Telling me what I can and cannot do. 341 00:20:22,151 --> 00:20:23,601 ♪ ♪ 342 00:20:23,705 --> 00:20:28,019 I think one activity a day is 343 00:20:28,123 --> 00:20:30,298 all I'm gonna be doing from now on, you know? 344 00:20:30,401 --> 00:20:31,885 ♪ ♪ 345 00:20:31,989 --> 00:20:36,096 You don't need to push every single day. 346 00:20:37,166 --> 00:20:38,961 That's what I need to kind of hammer in, 347 00:20:39,065 --> 00:20:42,586 'cause I'm pushing hard, you know? 348 00:20:42,689 --> 00:20:46,728 ♪ ♪ 349 00:20:46,831 --> 00:20:48,177 Too hard. 350 00:20:52,423 --> 00:20:59,396 ♪ ♪ 351 00:21:13,686 --> 00:21:17,345 - Oh, my gosh, a gorgeous day. 352 00:21:17,448 --> 00:21:18,691 Frigid. 353 00:21:18,794 --> 00:21:21,383 It snowed more last night. 354 00:21:21,487 --> 00:21:25,422 I was just about to fall asleep, and I heard this... 355 00:21:27,355 --> 00:21:30,875 Actually it was a-- like that. 356 00:21:30,979 --> 00:21:33,084 ♪ ♪ 357 00:21:33,188 --> 00:21:37,917 And then there was like-- that's not a bear, is it? 358 00:21:38,020 --> 00:21:40,678 The sound sounded like it was very, very large, 359 00:21:40,782 --> 00:21:43,025 but I don't know. 360 00:21:43,129 --> 00:21:44,199 It's hard to say. 361 00:21:44,303 --> 00:21:46,684 I don't see any footprints in the snow, 362 00:21:46,788 --> 00:21:50,205 but I wish I knew what it was. 363 00:21:50,309 --> 00:21:54,036 Anyway, the cob oven's not working, 364 00:21:54,140 --> 00:21:56,591 so I'm going to set that aside. 365 00:21:56,694 --> 00:22:00,629 But I'm amazed how much energy I have 366 00:22:00,733 --> 00:22:03,149 just running off of berries. 367 00:22:03,252 --> 00:22:07,015 This piece of fruit leather here is 368 00:22:07,118 --> 00:22:09,604 at least a quart of berries. 369 00:22:09,707 --> 00:22:12,331 I can carry this in my pocket when I'm walking around 370 00:22:12,434 --> 00:22:14,091 and just nibble on it all day. 371 00:22:16,162 --> 00:22:19,890 So this is really super nutritious and, like I said, 372 00:22:19,993 --> 00:22:21,823 I can walk around with it in my pocket. 373 00:22:21,926 --> 00:22:24,619 ♪ ♪ 374 00:22:24,722 --> 00:22:28,208 But just eating berries is not enough 375 00:22:28,312 --> 00:22:30,383 for you to win "Alone," 376 00:22:30,487 --> 00:22:32,903 so I'm gonna go check my traps 377 00:22:33,006 --> 00:22:35,664 and maybe see some snowshoe hare tracks. 378 00:22:35,768 --> 00:22:36,803 Please, please, please! 379 00:22:36,907 --> 00:22:39,772 ♪ ♪ 380 00:22:39,875 --> 00:22:43,189 I'm so excited to, like, get this far in the journey. 381 00:22:43,292 --> 00:22:44,604 It's hard work. 382 00:22:44,708 --> 00:22:46,192 But this is where my drive just keeps 383 00:22:46,295 --> 00:22:48,228 pushing me to go forward. 384 00:22:48,332 --> 00:22:50,541 In the past few seasons, 385 00:22:50,645 --> 00:22:52,612 the person who won is 386 00:22:52,716 --> 00:22:55,166 the person who gets the big game. 387 00:22:55,270 --> 00:22:57,962 And here the only big game that we're allowed to hunt 388 00:22:58,066 --> 00:22:59,205 is the bear. 389 00:22:59,308 --> 00:23:01,587 I'm prepared and ready to do that, 390 00:23:01,690 --> 00:23:03,174 but I haven't even seen a bear. 391 00:23:03,278 --> 00:23:06,523 I'm just setting all these traps and wandering around. 392 00:23:06,626 --> 00:23:11,666 This is about as close as I can get to hunting a bear. 393 00:23:11,769 --> 00:23:15,566 So it snowed in the trees, 394 00:23:17,085 --> 00:23:18,811 which is awesome for tracking. 395 00:23:19,846 --> 00:23:24,920 Except when you want to check your traps. 396 00:23:26,301 --> 00:23:31,133 There's my ribbon for one, but where the heck is my trap? 397 00:23:35,621 --> 00:23:38,555 And this one's a trail, 398 00:23:38,658 --> 00:23:40,419 and it's way in there, 399 00:23:40,522 --> 00:23:42,213 and there's no squirrel. 400 00:23:44,630 --> 00:23:45,527 Super challenging. 401 00:23:45,631 --> 00:23:47,149 There's three traps right here. 402 00:23:48,806 --> 00:23:50,187 No squirrels. 403 00:23:50,290 --> 00:23:52,361 That gives you an idea what I'm up against. 404 00:23:52,465 --> 00:23:55,606 Like, oh, my gosh, traps are getting buried. 405 00:23:58,022 --> 00:23:59,092 All righty. 406 00:23:59,196 --> 00:24:06,168 ♪ ♪ 407 00:24:06,272 --> 00:24:09,206 Here's one, and no squirrel. 408 00:24:09,309 --> 00:24:12,451 ♪ ♪ 409 00:24:12,554 --> 00:24:14,038 Okay, let's go on. 410 00:24:14,142 --> 00:24:16,800 ♪ ♪ 411 00:24:16,903 --> 00:24:20,010 I'm keeping my eyes out for polar bears. 412 00:24:20,113 --> 00:24:21,701 I don't want to be surprised. 413 00:24:21,805 --> 00:24:24,497 ♪ ♪ 414 00:24:24,601 --> 00:24:25,912 This is mine. 415 00:24:26,016 --> 00:24:27,845 This is site two. 416 00:24:28,501 --> 00:24:29,951 But where's the trap? 417 00:24:36,751 --> 00:24:41,134 Hey, chickadees, can you tell me where my traps are? 418 00:24:41,238 --> 00:24:43,551 ♪ ♪ 419 00:24:43,654 --> 00:24:45,553 The snow in places is over my knees 420 00:24:45,656 --> 00:24:49,522 and it's a lot of work to move through the snow. 421 00:24:49,626 --> 00:24:51,041 Okay. 422 00:24:52,318 --> 00:24:55,494 I think I just have to move slower. 423 00:24:55,597 --> 00:24:58,635 ♪ ♪ 424 00:24:58,738 --> 00:25:00,257 I'm looking for my ribbons. 425 00:25:00,360 --> 00:25:02,190 ♪ ♪ 426 00:25:02,293 --> 00:25:04,710 They're probably buried under the snow. 427 00:25:04,813 --> 00:25:08,507 ♪ ♪ 428 00:25:08,610 --> 00:25:11,855 Ah, there it is. It's buried in the snow. 429 00:25:11,958 --> 00:25:13,546 Okay. Gotta fix this one. 430 00:25:13,650 --> 00:25:15,168 ♪ ♪ 431 00:25:16,618 --> 00:25:19,483 It's discouraging and it's frustrating. 432 00:25:19,587 --> 00:25:21,312 ♪ ♪ 433 00:25:21,416 --> 00:25:23,936 But I don't know where it is. 434 00:25:24,039 --> 00:25:25,731 Because one squirrel is another day 435 00:25:25,834 --> 00:25:28,216 that I'm able to be here. 436 00:25:30,494 --> 00:25:33,083 Ah, damn. 437 00:25:33,186 --> 00:25:35,706 I think that's it. 438 00:25:35,810 --> 00:25:37,881 Okay, I'm gonna go back 439 00:25:37,984 --> 00:25:39,296 'cause my hands are frozen. 440 00:25:39,399 --> 00:25:41,436 ♪ ♪ 441 00:25:41,540 --> 00:25:43,921 I'm feeling like I'm not good enough 442 00:25:44,025 --> 00:25:48,547 to come home with a meal, and that's embarrassing. 443 00:25:51,860 --> 00:25:58,867 ♪ ♪ 444 00:26:00,213 --> 00:26:02,077 I think I'm kind of over the squirrel trapping. 445 00:26:02,181 --> 00:26:04,183 It's a lot of energy 446 00:26:04,286 --> 00:26:06,668 and it's not really producing much. 447 00:26:06,772 --> 00:26:10,776 And the snow's--the snow is covering most of them. 448 00:26:10,879 --> 00:26:13,123 ♪ ♪ 449 00:26:13,226 --> 00:26:14,331 I guess it's a challenge to see 450 00:26:14,434 --> 00:26:16,333 how long we can live on berries. 451 00:26:16,436 --> 00:26:17,990 I mean, I got a lot of berries. 452 00:26:19,647 --> 00:26:21,303 We'll see what tomorrow brings. 453 00:26:22,788 --> 00:26:25,273 I'm a little discouraged, yes, for sure. 454 00:26:25,376 --> 00:26:26,343 Still hopeful. 455 00:26:26,446 --> 00:26:28,656 ♪ ♪ 456 00:26:28,759 --> 00:26:30,519 The snow is beautiful. 457 00:26:30,623 --> 00:26:33,384 The moon's out-- at least it was. 458 00:26:36,387 --> 00:26:39,321 So I think it's gonna get really, really cold. 459 00:26:41,116 --> 00:26:43,463 So that's why I'm racing to find food. 460 00:26:43,567 --> 00:26:45,051 I can't quit trying. 461 00:26:46,950 --> 00:26:50,022 So I'll see you in the morning. 462 00:26:52,162 --> 00:26:53,853 Okay, have a good night. 463 00:27:03,587 --> 00:27:06,590 ♪ ♪ 464 00:27:19,292 --> 00:27:23,055 - This is the view from my window inside my shelter. 465 00:27:24,988 --> 00:27:29,095 As you can see, it's pretty stormy outside. 466 00:27:34,204 --> 00:27:37,414 Wet, cold, and windy. 467 00:27:38,829 --> 00:27:40,624 It's a trifecta. 468 00:27:42,833 --> 00:27:43,834 There's this saying, 469 00:27:43,938 --> 00:27:46,423 "There's no such thing as bad weather." 470 00:27:47,182 --> 00:27:50,427 Well, today is the exception of that saying. 471 00:27:52,463 --> 00:27:54,327 Today is bad weather. 472 00:27:54,431 --> 00:27:57,089 No matter what clothes you wear, 473 00:27:58,297 --> 00:28:00,609 this is not a good day to be out. 474 00:28:00,713 --> 00:28:03,543 ♪ ♪ 475 00:28:03,647 --> 00:28:05,269 Right. I'm gonna do it. 476 00:28:05,373 --> 00:28:06,754 ♪ ♪ 477 00:28:06,857 --> 00:28:09,032 I'm gonna go out and get water. 478 00:28:15,072 --> 00:28:17,696 Really crazy weather. 479 00:28:23,356 --> 00:28:26,428 Man, I keep thinking that there's not many people left. 480 00:28:28,258 --> 00:28:29,293 I don't know. 481 00:28:31,882 --> 00:28:36,197 The landscape has considerably changed. 482 00:28:36,300 --> 00:28:40,063 All this snow has made travel difficult. 483 00:28:40,166 --> 00:28:43,273 ♪ ♪ 484 00:28:43,376 --> 00:28:46,794 This is a harsh place for survival. 485 00:28:47,726 --> 00:28:49,037 Harsh place. 486 00:28:51,971 --> 00:28:58,978 ♪ ♪ 487 00:29:06,917 --> 00:29:09,748 - I have to do the inevitable. 488 00:29:11,439 --> 00:29:13,199 I have to go pee. 489 00:29:16,064 --> 00:29:18,549 And I might as well get water while am at it. 490 00:29:21,587 --> 00:29:23,451 Ooh. Oh, my. 491 00:29:24,452 --> 00:29:27,075 ♪ ♪ 492 00:29:27,179 --> 00:29:28,283 You know, I have to say 493 00:29:28,387 --> 00:29:30,527 that wind is not my favorite element. 494 00:29:31,839 --> 00:29:34,220 Wet, slippery snow. 495 00:29:34,324 --> 00:29:35,843 Wow, look at those trees. 496 00:29:35,946 --> 00:29:37,603 ♪ ♪ 497 00:29:37,706 --> 00:29:39,674 Yeah, snowing sideways. 498 00:29:40,951 --> 00:29:43,609 It's getting harder to get around. 499 00:29:44,506 --> 00:29:46,267 It's getting a bit overwhelming. 500 00:29:47,924 --> 00:29:54,931 ♪ ♪ 501 00:30:05,355 --> 00:30:06,632 - In the military, 502 00:30:06,735 --> 00:30:08,530 this is the weather that I'm trained in. 503 00:30:08,634 --> 00:30:10,739 Cold weather warfare is 504 00:30:10,843 --> 00:30:13,742 the bread and butter of the Canadian force. 505 00:30:13,846 --> 00:30:15,503 Gotta learn how to thrive in it, 506 00:30:15,606 --> 00:30:17,470 gotta learn how to defend it. 507 00:30:17,919 --> 00:30:20,059 Ooh. Check it out. 508 00:30:20,163 --> 00:30:22,406 I got a little walking stick 509 00:30:22,510 --> 00:30:26,031 that'll be good firewood for our journey up the hill. 510 00:30:27,239 --> 00:30:32,692 Call me crazy, but I swear I'm hearing grouse flapping. 511 00:30:32,796 --> 00:30:34,936 ♪ ♪ 512 00:30:38,457 --> 00:30:40,252 I've been in complete whiteouts 513 00:30:40,355 --> 00:30:41,736 in the subarctic before 514 00:30:41,840 --> 00:30:44,049 where you can't really see in front of your face. 515 00:30:44,152 --> 00:30:45,602 ♪ ♪ 516 00:30:45,705 --> 00:30:47,052 It can be pretty scary. 517 00:30:47,155 --> 00:30:49,640 ♪ ♪ 518 00:30:49,744 --> 00:30:52,264 Three steps uphill and I need a break. 519 00:30:55,750 --> 00:31:02,861 ♪ ♪ 520 00:31:08,280 --> 00:31:09,315 - Survival. 521 00:31:09,419 --> 00:31:11,110 ♪ ♪ 522 00:31:11,214 --> 00:31:13,009 The party goes on. 523 00:31:14,873 --> 00:31:18,531 It's crazy how long this has been going on. 524 00:31:18,635 --> 00:31:20,948 And it just hasn't stopped. 525 00:31:22,639 --> 00:31:24,986 All the trees-- everything is moving 526 00:31:25,090 --> 00:31:27,195 so strongly with the wind. 527 00:31:28,921 --> 00:31:30,647 Pretty dangerous. 528 00:31:30,750 --> 00:31:36,032 You better practice your resilience or just tap out. 529 00:31:36,135 --> 00:31:38,034 There's no up here. 530 00:31:39,311 --> 00:31:43,349 Pretty much staying in my-- my shelter the whole day. 531 00:31:47,457 --> 00:31:50,322 You know what would really suck? 532 00:31:50,425 --> 00:31:53,014 If your shelter collapsed. 533 00:31:53,118 --> 00:31:54,326 ♪ ♪ 534 00:31:54,429 --> 00:31:58,088 That would suck. 535 00:31:58,192 --> 00:32:05,130 ♪ ♪ 536 00:32:11,584 --> 00:32:13,345 - That's a strong wind. 537 00:32:13,448 --> 00:32:17,038 ♪ ♪ 538 00:32:17,142 --> 00:32:21,456 Everything's more complex when it's this cold. 539 00:32:23,872 --> 00:32:24,977 Just looking at the roof, 540 00:32:25,081 --> 00:32:27,635 the structural boughs I added-- 541 00:32:29,740 --> 00:32:32,019 It's strong. It's doing its job. 542 00:32:34,883 --> 00:32:39,405 On the beach, the wind down there is whipping. 543 00:32:39,509 --> 00:32:45,342 Whoever is beach side or, like, close to the water, man, 544 00:32:45,446 --> 00:32:47,931 I do not envy you. 545 00:32:49,553 --> 00:32:51,486 I'm really happy to be deep in the forest. 546 00:32:51,590 --> 00:32:58,597 ♪ ♪ 547 00:33:01,772 --> 00:33:03,050 - I decided I'm gonna spend the day 548 00:33:03,153 --> 00:33:04,879 just getting firewood. 549 00:33:04,983 --> 00:33:07,675 'Cause, really, that's all I need to hunker down. 550 00:33:07,778 --> 00:33:10,712 ♪ ♪ 551 00:33:10,816 --> 00:33:13,267 Yeah, we like wood that breaks easy. 552 00:33:13,370 --> 00:33:16,304 Oh, my gosh, it's deep. 553 00:33:16,891 --> 00:33:20,964 ♪ ♪ 554 00:33:21,068 --> 00:33:23,001 You just don't know what's underneath your feet. 555 00:33:23,104 --> 00:33:26,901 ♪ ♪ 556 00:33:27,005 --> 00:33:28,351 Okay. 557 00:33:28,454 --> 00:33:33,149 ♪ ♪ 558 00:33:33,252 --> 00:33:36,290 Yay. It's free. 559 00:33:36,393 --> 00:33:37,877 ♪ ♪ 560 00:33:37,981 --> 00:33:39,258 Man, this is a workout. 561 00:33:39,362 --> 00:33:41,019 ♪ ♪ 562 00:33:45,333 --> 00:33:47,370 It is definitely getting chillier. 563 00:33:47,473 --> 00:33:49,165 The wind has picked up. 564 00:33:49,268 --> 00:33:50,787 I gotta get this wood inside 565 00:33:50,890 --> 00:33:53,169 or it's gonna be buried by tomorrow. 566 00:33:53,272 --> 00:33:56,344 Defeat the whole purpose of getting it today. 567 00:33:56,448 --> 00:33:58,001 ♪ ♪ 568 00:34:05,112 --> 00:34:08,115 ♪ ♪ 569 00:34:08,218 --> 00:34:10,151 I think I'm gonna call it a day. 570 00:34:11,532 --> 00:34:15,674 I think I'm gonna make a fire... 571 00:34:18,780 --> 00:34:20,092 And just rest. 572 00:34:22,508 --> 00:34:23,578 Whoa. 573 00:34:24,579 --> 00:34:29,032 ♪ ♪ 574 00:34:29,136 --> 00:34:30,275 You all right? 575 00:34:30,378 --> 00:34:32,380 ♪ ♪ 576 00:34:32,484 --> 00:34:35,625 Told you, winds are coming. 577 00:34:44,599 --> 00:34:51,641 ♪ ♪ 578 00:34:57,405 --> 00:35:00,236 - Well, good morning, everyone. 579 00:35:01,582 --> 00:35:03,273 Still snowing pretty hard. 580 00:35:04,723 --> 00:35:06,518 Feeling it. 581 00:35:06,621 --> 00:35:09,314 I'm really cold and really hungry. 582 00:35:09,417 --> 00:35:10,694 ♪ ♪ 583 00:35:10,798 --> 00:35:13,318 I'm boiling moss today. 584 00:35:13,421 --> 00:35:18,599 Right now I'm relying on moss to get me through for food. 585 00:35:18,702 --> 00:35:21,533 And I think that's only gonna go so far. 586 00:35:23,500 --> 00:35:24,708 Coming out. 587 00:35:26,434 --> 00:35:30,611 But since you have to boil it several times, 588 00:35:30,714 --> 00:35:32,544 I think I might as well use that trash water, 589 00:35:32,647 --> 00:35:37,411 the oxalic acid water, to freeze up the outside. 590 00:35:39,067 --> 00:35:41,760 Oh, yeah, soak it in. 591 00:35:41,863 --> 00:35:43,486 Soak it in, fellas. 592 00:35:45,626 --> 00:35:48,215 Make this a moss ice castle. 593 00:35:48,318 --> 00:35:50,217 ♪ ♪ 594 00:35:50,320 --> 00:35:51,494 In the military, 595 00:35:51,597 --> 00:35:53,944 to increase insulation and protection 596 00:35:54,048 --> 00:35:56,015 we made our shelters out of big logs, 597 00:35:56,119 --> 00:35:59,122 filled it with gravel, debris, all sorts of stuff, 598 00:35:59,226 --> 00:36:00,227 but then at the end, 599 00:36:00,330 --> 00:36:01,435 when we packed all the snow in, 600 00:36:01,538 --> 00:36:03,678 we would throw water on top of it 601 00:36:03,782 --> 00:36:05,059 to freeze everything together. 602 00:36:05,163 --> 00:36:06,612 ♪ ♪ 603 00:36:06,716 --> 00:36:08,925 Yeah, get on there. 604 00:36:09,028 --> 00:36:10,789 In Arctic warfare, we make things 605 00:36:10,892 --> 00:36:13,171 that stop heavy weight, like, artillery rounds, 606 00:36:13,274 --> 00:36:14,965 basically bazookas. 607 00:36:15,069 --> 00:36:17,175 So I'm gonna do the same thing here. 608 00:36:17,278 --> 00:36:20,764 'Cause it's no joke running into a black bear, 609 00:36:20,868 --> 00:36:21,972 especially over here. 610 00:36:22,076 --> 00:36:23,974 They're at least two times my weight, 611 00:36:24,078 --> 00:36:27,668 more aggressive and hungry, just like I am. 612 00:36:27,771 --> 00:36:31,982 ♪ ♪ 613 00:36:32,086 --> 00:36:33,363 It's really hard. 614 00:36:33,467 --> 00:36:38,851 Just down to the creek, 15, 20 feet, and coming back 615 00:36:38,955 --> 00:36:41,233 is difficult. 616 00:36:41,337 --> 00:36:45,133 So kind of tells you where I'm at. 617 00:36:47,929 --> 00:36:49,931 Keep going. 618 00:36:50,035 --> 00:36:53,349 This is an incredibly personal journey for me. 619 00:36:54,384 --> 00:36:55,937 Like, the past seven years 620 00:36:56,041 --> 00:36:58,664 I haven't stopped pushing for one goal, 621 00:36:58,768 --> 00:37:00,010 to become a doctor, 622 00:37:00,114 --> 00:37:02,565 and that requires a lot of sacrifice. 623 00:37:02,668 --> 00:37:04,498 You study, you do research, 624 00:37:04,601 --> 00:37:06,465 try to impress people on clinical rounds. 625 00:37:06,569 --> 00:37:08,916 So you show early, you stay late. 626 00:37:09,019 --> 00:37:11,539 You feel like nothing else matters. 627 00:37:11,643 --> 00:37:15,785 You sacrifice your own health, mental and physical, 628 00:37:15,888 --> 00:37:17,718 spiritual sometimes. 629 00:37:17,821 --> 00:37:19,858 Let's go. 630 00:37:19,961 --> 00:37:23,413 You sacrifice relationships that should mean more to you, 631 00:37:23,517 --> 00:37:25,173 but you don't even see it 632 00:37:25,277 --> 00:37:28,211 because of how hard and how long you've worked 633 00:37:28,315 --> 00:37:31,663 and how that turns into a habit. 634 00:37:31,766 --> 00:37:33,527 All righty, one to two more. 635 00:37:33,630 --> 00:37:34,838 ♪ ♪ 636 00:37:34,942 --> 00:37:37,876 So after seven years, I come home, 637 00:37:37,979 --> 00:37:40,223 I don't even know my family members. 638 00:37:40,327 --> 00:37:41,949 ♪ ♪ 639 00:37:42,052 --> 00:37:44,469 Forget about the friends that I used to have. 640 00:37:44,572 --> 00:37:46,885 I don't know where I fit in. 641 00:37:46,988 --> 00:37:48,680 That's not right. 642 00:37:48,783 --> 00:37:50,302 Almost there. 643 00:37:50,406 --> 00:37:54,962 Being out here, I realize I can't be that selfish. 644 00:37:55,065 --> 00:37:57,447 It has to be about people I care about. 645 00:37:57,551 --> 00:37:59,415 ♪ ♪ 646 00:37:59,518 --> 00:38:05,386 Got a nice full pot of moss right here. 647 00:38:05,490 --> 00:38:09,252 So after this, I'm hoping to right some wrongs 648 00:38:09,356 --> 00:38:11,427 and be a better me. 649 00:38:14,361 --> 00:38:21,333 ♪ ♪ 650 00:38:33,656 --> 00:38:34,829 - Oy. 651 00:38:36,590 --> 00:38:37,970 Ha. 652 00:38:39,317 --> 00:38:41,733 I just fell through the ice a little bit. 653 00:38:43,493 --> 00:38:44,874 No worries. 654 00:38:51,329 --> 00:38:53,607 ♪ ♪ 655 00:38:53,710 --> 00:38:57,058 We just passed this crazy storm. 656 00:38:57,162 --> 00:38:59,302 I don't think I've ever experienced 657 00:38:59,406 --> 00:39:02,547 so much continuous wind ever. 658 00:39:02,650 --> 00:39:04,169 ♪ ♪ 659 00:39:04,272 --> 00:39:08,898 There was so much wind that some snow got into my shelter. 660 00:39:15,939 --> 00:39:19,909 Right now I need to hydrate-- never-ending yeoman task. 661 00:39:28,020 --> 00:39:30,747 I make an effort to drink sketchy water 662 00:39:30,851 --> 00:39:32,646 during my everyday life. 663 00:39:32,749 --> 00:39:34,302 ♪ ♪ 664 00:39:34,406 --> 00:39:36,926 Man, I'm thirsty. 665 00:39:37,029 --> 00:39:39,653 And I've been drinking water straight 666 00:39:39,756 --> 00:39:42,932 for 10 years in the wilderness. 667 00:39:43,035 --> 00:39:44,554 So I feel quite confident 668 00:39:44,658 --> 00:39:47,661 that even if my immune system is down, 669 00:39:47,764 --> 00:39:49,835 I can still keep some immunity. 670 00:39:51,285 --> 00:39:56,290 Think I didn't bring enough water last night on my pot 671 00:39:56,394 --> 00:39:58,603 for the night and the morning. 672 00:39:58,706 --> 00:39:59,983 ♪ ♪ 673 00:40:00,087 --> 00:40:01,744 Because I'm not boiling water, 674 00:40:01,847 --> 00:40:04,125 I don't need to make fires daily. 675 00:40:04,229 --> 00:40:05,541 That's part of my strategy. 676 00:40:05,644 --> 00:40:08,371 I'm trying to be as efficient as possible. 677 00:40:10,097 --> 00:40:14,135 It's funny because everyone is like, "You need a fire." 678 00:40:14,239 --> 00:40:16,310 but I did 100 days in the winter 679 00:40:16,414 --> 00:40:19,451 and I realized you cannot sustain a fire all the time. 680 00:40:19,555 --> 00:40:21,936 So you're gonna be cold at night anyways. 681 00:40:22,799 --> 00:40:25,492 The Inuit have barely any fire 682 00:40:25,595 --> 00:40:28,840 because they only use oil in some small lamps. 683 00:40:28,943 --> 00:40:30,220 ♪ ♪ 684 00:40:30,324 --> 00:40:32,326 So I decided not to have any fires 685 00:40:32,430 --> 00:40:34,501 unless I need to cook anything. 686 00:40:34,604 --> 00:40:38,608 ♪ ♪ 687 00:40:38,712 --> 00:40:41,922 I'm gonna go before my stomach explodes 688 00:40:42,025 --> 00:40:44,165 from drinking so much water. 689 00:40:47,548 --> 00:40:54,555 ♪ ♪ 690 00:40:56,695 --> 00:40:59,698 I think today I'm gonna patch up my door, man. 691 00:40:59,802 --> 00:41:01,286 It's so open. 692 00:41:03,495 --> 00:41:05,532 And then after that, the walls. 693 00:41:07,119 --> 00:41:08,845 Right now, I don't mind it too much 694 00:41:08,949 --> 00:41:10,295 because my shelter is cold. 695 00:41:10,398 --> 00:41:11,676 ♪ ♪ 696 00:41:11,779 --> 00:41:13,781 But once I really start using my stove, 697 00:41:13,885 --> 00:41:15,507 I want to trap the heat. 698 00:41:15,611 --> 00:41:17,302 ♪ ♪ 699 00:41:17,405 --> 00:41:18,372 Pretty good. 700 00:41:18,476 --> 00:41:20,201 ♪ ♪ 701 00:41:20,305 --> 00:41:24,412 Now I'm gonna patch the holes in the walls. 702 00:41:24,516 --> 00:41:27,036 I know about this 80/20 rule. 703 00:41:27,139 --> 00:41:31,696 You can get 80% of the benefit from 20% of the input. 704 00:41:34,561 --> 00:41:37,011 Okay, I'm gonna put a little bit more. 705 00:41:37,115 --> 00:41:38,772 I try to follow that rule, 706 00:41:38,875 --> 00:41:40,843 but because I'm fasting, 707 00:41:40,946 --> 00:41:45,882 my body is getting slower, so everything is just harder. 708 00:41:50,853 --> 00:41:52,337 I'm getting tired. 709 00:41:53,200 --> 00:41:54,373 So I'm gonna drink some water. 710 00:41:54,477 --> 00:41:57,066 ♪ ♪ 711 00:41:57,169 --> 00:41:59,206 It's not easy. 712 00:41:59,309 --> 00:42:03,900 Today I did a considerable amount of work 713 00:42:04,004 --> 00:42:08,664 for a person that's starving and not eating at all. 714 00:42:10,113 --> 00:42:12,599 Every calorie counts. 715 00:42:12,702 --> 00:42:18,121 I need to be very, very strategic and efficient. 716 00:42:18,225 --> 00:42:21,262 You should be resting and sleeping. 717 00:42:21,366 --> 00:42:28,269 ♪ ♪ 718 00:42:28,373 --> 00:42:30,996 It's not good. It's not good. 719 00:42:38,866 --> 00:42:44,562 ♪ ♪ 720 00:42:46,909 --> 00:42:49,567 - Looks like a beautiful wintry day. 721 00:42:55,089 --> 00:42:58,748 And this is how I get rid of all the ice on my pot. 722 00:42:58,852 --> 00:42:59,956 Just bang it. 723 00:43:01,579 --> 00:43:02,752 Just bang it. 724 00:43:03,822 --> 00:43:05,099 Just bang it. 725 00:43:06,825 --> 00:43:13,832 ♪ ♪ 726 00:43:22,289 --> 00:43:26,258 Today, four fingers, but this ice is weak. 727 00:43:26,362 --> 00:43:28,226 It's not clear blue ice. 728 00:43:29,434 --> 00:43:32,092 Not as strong as, like, pure clear ice. 729 00:43:39,133 --> 00:43:40,341 Four fingers. 730 00:43:40,445 --> 00:43:43,103 Let's see how much that is in my multi-tool. 731 00:43:46,106 --> 00:43:48,833 A little under 3 inches. 732 00:43:49,592 --> 00:43:52,526 Maybe in a couple days it's gonna be 4 inches. 733 00:43:52,630 --> 00:43:54,424 And once it's 4 inches, 734 00:43:54,528 --> 00:43:57,531 I'm gonna start walking on it for sure. 735 00:43:57,635 --> 00:44:00,085 I could walk on it already, I think, but... 736 00:44:03,054 --> 00:44:04,193 we're not gonna risk it. 737 00:44:04,296 --> 00:44:07,058 And I need an ice chisel, so-- 738 00:44:08,680 --> 00:44:10,717 Every season has its advantages. 739 00:44:10,820 --> 00:44:14,721 And when you have ice, walking is so easy. 740 00:44:14,824 --> 00:44:16,654 I could go to different spots in my side 741 00:44:16,757 --> 00:44:19,380 and burn less calories. 742 00:44:19,484 --> 00:44:23,212 I'm trying to choose a good pole for my ice chisel. 743 00:44:23,315 --> 00:44:24,731 It has to have good weight, 744 00:44:24,834 --> 00:44:27,768 but at the same time it shouldn't weigh too much. 745 00:44:27,872 --> 00:44:28,907 ♪ ♪ 746 00:44:29,011 --> 00:44:30,115 The ice chisel really lets 747 00:44:30,219 --> 00:44:33,049 you test the ice as you walk, 748 00:44:33,153 --> 00:44:36,708 every step or every several hundred feet. 749 00:44:36,812 --> 00:44:39,746 If you cannot break the ice easily with an ice chisel, 750 00:44:39,849 --> 00:44:41,264 then it's safe. 751 00:44:42,127 --> 00:44:44,785 This one seems all right. 752 00:44:50,204 --> 00:44:55,313 ♪ ♪ 753 00:44:55,416 --> 00:44:57,764 Having a strong hunger pang right now. 754 00:44:57,867 --> 00:45:00,214 ♪ ♪ 755 00:45:00,318 --> 00:45:03,148 I'm fasting, but my strategy is 756 00:45:03,252 --> 00:45:05,875 I'm just gonna hunt, trap and fish if I can 757 00:45:05,979 --> 00:45:07,325 because it will be easy to preserve. 758 00:45:07,428 --> 00:45:09,051 You just freeze it. 759 00:45:09,154 --> 00:45:11,053 So I'm gonna save all that protein 760 00:45:11,156 --> 00:45:12,433 for when I'm gonna eat. 761 00:45:13,918 --> 00:45:16,679 So I'm so excited to make my ice chisel. 762 00:45:16,783 --> 00:45:17,853 ♪ ♪ 763 00:45:17,956 --> 00:45:20,062 That's good. 764 00:45:20,165 --> 00:45:23,203 When I was six months in the forest with my partner, 765 00:45:23,306 --> 00:45:26,654 it was a struggle just to get into the wilderness. 766 00:45:26,758 --> 00:45:28,933 It would be nice if I could finish it today. 767 00:45:29,036 --> 00:45:30,486 ♪ ♪ 768 00:45:30,589 --> 00:45:33,558 And because I feel very responsible for other people, 769 00:45:33,661 --> 00:45:36,561 I was taking a lot of the workload on myself. 770 00:45:36,664 --> 00:45:40,634 So by the time we were at our spot, I was already spent. 771 00:45:41,324 --> 00:45:45,708 It's hard to work with partially frozen clothes. 772 00:45:45,812 --> 00:45:47,330 We had rations, 773 00:45:47,434 --> 00:45:49,505 but very, very quickly 774 00:45:49,608 --> 00:45:52,232 I got to, like, POW skinny. 775 00:45:52,335 --> 00:45:56,512 One day I fainted twice and that really scared my partner. 776 00:45:56,615 --> 00:45:57,893 ♪ ♪ 777 00:45:57,996 --> 00:46:01,137 So I learned that nature can rip your head off. 778 00:46:01,241 --> 00:46:03,933 And now if I could sum up my strategy, 779 00:46:04,037 --> 00:46:07,040 it would be to not bring a knife to a gunfight. 780 00:46:07,143 --> 00:46:08,317 ♪ ♪ 781 00:46:08,420 --> 00:46:11,941 And these opportunities are so scarce. 782 00:46:12,045 --> 00:46:13,943 So I'm gonna honor that 783 00:46:14,047 --> 00:46:16,704 by giving it all I have to stay in the fight. 784 00:46:16,808 --> 00:46:20,778 ♪ ♪ 785 00:46:20,881 --> 00:46:21,986 Moving on. 786 00:46:22,089 --> 00:46:23,228 ♪ ♪ 787 00:46:23,332 --> 00:46:26,059 So here's the genius of this axe. 788 00:46:26,162 --> 00:46:28,786 The chisel's gonna go through here. 789 00:46:28,889 --> 00:46:32,755 I want this to look like this. 790 00:46:32,859 --> 00:46:36,345 ♪ ♪ 791 00:46:36,448 --> 00:46:37,898 So I made a hole. 792 00:46:38,002 --> 00:46:39,486 ♪ ♪ 793 00:46:39,589 --> 00:46:41,557 We are getting there. Very close. 794 00:46:41,660 --> 00:46:43,352 ♪ ♪ 795 00:46:43,455 --> 00:46:46,873 So now my axe goes all the way through. 796 00:46:46,976 --> 00:46:49,876 ♪ ♪ 797 00:46:49,979 --> 00:46:53,638 This is a nail that I found, and I use it for leverage. 798 00:46:54,639 --> 00:46:55,605 Okay. 799 00:46:55,709 --> 00:46:59,955 ♪ ♪ 800 00:47:00,058 --> 00:47:01,439 And that's that. 801 00:47:01,542 --> 00:47:02,820 ♪ ♪ 802 00:47:02,923 --> 00:47:05,098 It's done. 803 00:47:05,201 --> 00:47:06,547 It's looking good. 804 00:47:06,651 --> 00:47:08,722 Yeah, I like it. 805 00:47:11,104 --> 00:47:18,111 ♪ ♪ 806 00:47:26,015 --> 00:47:30,537 - The bottoms of my pants 807 00:47:30,640 --> 00:47:33,574 are frozen shut. 808 00:47:36,232 --> 00:47:38,786 I can't get my feet in them. 809 00:47:49,452 --> 00:47:50,350 Okay. 810 00:47:50,453 --> 00:47:52,076 ♪ ♪ 811 00:47:52,179 --> 00:47:54,837 I only have so much really dry firewood, 812 00:47:54,941 --> 00:47:57,288 so it's hard to start a fire. 813 00:47:58,013 --> 00:48:00,981 What I need is some pitch. 814 00:48:01,085 --> 00:48:05,503 ♪ ♪ 815 00:48:05,606 --> 00:48:07,091 Slow and steady. 816 00:48:09,162 --> 00:48:12,510 I have a history of adrenal exhaustion. 817 00:48:12,613 --> 00:48:16,307 That happens a lot for people who go, go, go, go. 818 00:48:16,410 --> 00:48:18,343 And it's like a bank. 819 00:48:18,447 --> 00:48:20,311 You use up energy, you have to restore it. 820 00:48:20,414 --> 00:48:24,694 ♪ ♪ 821 00:48:24,798 --> 00:48:28,215 So this tree here has a bunch of pitch on it. 822 00:48:28,319 --> 00:48:30,700 ♪ ♪ 823 00:48:30,804 --> 00:48:35,291 And when you exhaust that, your life is hell. 824 00:48:35,395 --> 00:48:37,259 ♪ ♪ 825 00:48:37,362 --> 00:48:39,330 That was just dust. 826 00:48:39,433 --> 00:48:41,642 I'm very aware of when I'm pushing that edge 827 00:48:41,746 --> 00:48:43,334 because I've pushed it a number of times 828 00:48:43,437 --> 00:48:45,163 and backed off. 829 00:48:46,268 --> 00:48:49,650 And so now I'm taking things slow and steady, 830 00:48:49,754 --> 00:48:51,583 kind of like the tortoise and the hare. 831 00:48:51,687 --> 00:48:53,931 And we're gonna get to the very end. 832 00:48:58,797 --> 00:48:59,833 Oh, hey. 833 00:48:59,937 --> 00:49:05,390 ♪ ♪ 834 00:49:05,494 --> 00:49:06,874 Stay there for a moment. 835 00:49:06,978 --> 00:49:13,881 ♪ ♪ 836 00:49:13,985 --> 00:49:18,024 Oh, I see him. He's--he's under a big log. 837 00:49:18,127 --> 00:49:24,927 ♪ ♪ 838 00:49:38,320 --> 00:49:42,600 ♪ ♪ 839 00:49:44,843 --> 00:49:50,677 ♪ ♪ 840 00:49:50,780 --> 00:49:52,403 Oh, my gosh. 841 00:49:52,506 --> 00:49:54,508 Oh, oh, oh, oh. 842 00:49:54,612 --> 00:49:56,441 Oh, my God. 843 00:49:56,545 --> 00:49:57,925 Oh, my God. 844 00:50:03,448 --> 00:50:05,278 I got a squirrel. 845 00:50:06,727 --> 00:50:09,316 This is the first squirrel I've actually shot. 846 00:50:11,215 --> 00:50:13,941 He's gonna look cuter roasting on my fire. 847 00:50:15,426 --> 00:50:17,842 I got a squirrel! 848 00:50:17,945 --> 00:50:18,843 Holy . 849 00:50:18,946 --> 00:50:23,951 ♪ ♪ 850 00:50:24,055 --> 00:50:25,884 It's been a good day. 851 00:50:25,988 --> 00:50:27,783 I love squirrel. 852 00:50:27,886 --> 00:50:28,784 Mmm. 853 00:50:28,887 --> 00:50:30,130 ♪ ♪ 854 00:50:30,234 --> 00:50:31,131 I'm in heaven. 855 00:50:31,235 --> 00:50:32,512 ♪ ♪ 856 00:50:32,615 --> 00:50:34,031 This is part of my dream, 857 00:50:35,342 --> 00:50:38,035 to be thriving 858 00:50:38,138 --> 00:50:41,969 in a primitive shelter that you built... 859 00:50:42,073 --> 00:50:43,626 ♪ ♪ 860 00:50:43,730 --> 00:50:46,043 Eating food that you killed. 861 00:50:47,251 --> 00:50:51,496 ♪ ♪ 862 00:50:51,600 --> 00:50:54,189 Next to a warm fire that you made, 863 00:50:54,292 --> 00:50:57,364 collected the wood, everything off the land. 864 00:50:57,468 --> 00:51:04,268 ♪ ♪ 865 00:51:04,371 --> 00:51:05,545 Yeah. 866 00:51:05,648 --> 00:51:07,167 Now, if I could just get a squirrel every day. 867 00:51:07,271 --> 00:51:09,169 ♪ ♪ 868 00:51:10,274 --> 00:51:11,585 ♪ ♪ 869 00:51:11,689 --> 00:51:14,105 Yeah, then I'd really be thriving. 870 00:51:14,209 --> 00:51:16,521 ♪ ♪ 871 00:51:16,625 --> 00:51:19,835 Proud of myself because of what I've accomplished 872 00:51:19,938 --> 00:51:26,083 and what I've learned and, you know, what I set out to do. 873 00:51:26,186 --> 00:51:30,708 ♪ ♪ 874 00:51:30,811 --> 00:51:33,814 Survival is not just about the skills. 875 00:51:33,918 --> 00:51:37,473 It's about the attitude, the positive mindset, 876 00:51:37,577 --> 00:51:39,648 being in a place of gratitude. 877 00:51:39,751 --> 00:51:41,546 And while I'm out there, 878 00:51:41,650 --> 00:51:45,481 I use those things primarily for my survival. 879 00:51:45,585 --> 00:51:46,896 ♪ ♪ 880 00:51:47,000 --> 00:51:50,452 I'm thinking, "Two more weeks, two more weeks." 881 00:51:50,555 --> 00:51:54,973 And then, "Keep going. Two more weeks." 882 00:51:55,077 --> 00:51:57,493 but I'm gonna need more food. 883 00:51:57,597 --> 00:51:58,736 Yeah. 884 00:52:02,015 --> 00:52:09,056 ♪ ♪ 885 00:52:22,380 --> 00:52:25,072 - I'm gonna clip my toenails right now. 886 00:52:31,113 --> 00:52:33,495 So important to take care of your feet. 887 00:52:33,598 --> 00:52:34,910 So important. 888 00:52:36,360 --> 00:52:37,602 Look at that. 889 00:52:38,258 --> 00:52:42,331 They look like I need to go for some pedicure. 890 00:52:42,435 --> 00:52:44,782 But I bet if I went for some pedicure, 891 00:52:44,885 --> 00:52:48,717 the person would be like, "Um, we're gonna have 892 00:52:48,820 --> 00:52:50,443 to charge you triple." 893 00:52:51,927 --> 00:52:58,934 ♪ ♪ 894 00:53:05,561 --> 00:53:09,600 I'm gonna put more snow up in the sides 895 00:53:09,703 --> 00:53:12,844 because the snow really, really insulates well. 896 00:53:12,948 --> 00:53:19,989 ♪ ♪ 897 00:53:22,164 --> 00:53:25,167 You can see that it's quite well-covered. 898 00:53:25,271 --> 00:53:27,238 There's some ice, too. 899 00:53:27,342 --> 00:53:30,137 Because of the wet snow, it started to freeze. 900 00:53:30,241 --> 00:53:35,281 But inside it's, like, almost entirely covered in snow. 901 00:53:35,384 --> 00:53:37,075 And look at the sides, 902 00:53:37,179 --> 00:53:40,458 the bottom is pretty well-insulated. 903 00:53:40,562 --> 00:53:42,149 Nature will do the rest. 904 00:53:44,082 --> 00:53:46,740 Basically no wind will come through there. 905 00:53:48,225 --> 00:53:52,608 Yeah, it's basically, like, 90% airtight right now. 906 00:53:56,163 --> 00:53:59,581 ♪ ♪ 907 00:54:02,791 --> 00:54:08,417 ♪ ♪ 908 00:54:08,521 --> 00:54:10,488 The shelter is staying a little bit warmer, 909 00:54:10,592 --> 00:54:12,801 I think, than the outside, 910 00:54:12,904 --> 00:54:14,699 even though I don't have 911 00:54:14,803 --> 00:54:17,909 absolutely any source of heat, 912 00:54:18,013 --> 00:54:19,980 except my body heat, I guess. 913 00:54:20,947 --> 00:54:23,501 I feel confident enough with no fire right now. 914 00:54:23,605 --> 00:54:25,469 ♪ ♪ 915 00:54:25,572 --> 00:54:27,954 I apply some lateral thinking to survival 916 00:54:28,057 --> 00:54:31,406 and I try to combine all these strategies 917 00:54:31,509 --> 00:54:33,270 from different Indigenous peoples. 918 00:54:33,373 --> 00:54:34,512 ♪ ♪ 919 00:54:34,616 --> 00:54:36,411 I dry all the things I need to dry 920 00:54:36,514 --> 00:54:38,309 inside my sleeping bag with my own body heat. 921 00:54:38,413 --> 00:54:39,759 ♪ ♪ 922 00:54:39,862 --> 00:54:42,382 I've found ways to be without fires 923 00:54:42,486 --> 00:54:44,004 for long periods of time. 924 00:54:44,108 --> 00:54:46,800 ♪ ♪ 925 00:54:46,904 --> 00:54:50,010 And I just follow my intuition. 926 00:54:50,114 --> 00:54:52,496 ♪ ♪ 927 00:54:52,599 --> 00:54:56,085 Feel content with the work that I did. 928 00:54:56,189 --> 00:54:59,226 Feels like I'm really improving my shelter. 929 00:54:59,330 --> 00:55:01,298 ♪ ♪ 930 00:55:01,401 --> 00:55:05,923 It's almost as if I am the subject of my own experiment. 931 00:55:06,026 --> 00:55:08,512 I'm not afraid... 932 00:55:08,615 --> 00:55:12,309 But everything is a struggle here. 933 00:55:12,999 --> 00:55:14,656 It's tough. 934 00:55:14,759 --> 00:55:19,005 I'm just curious about how far can humans go? 935 00:55:20,593 --> 00:55:23,527 Um, who knows? 936 00:55:37,299 --> 00:55:39,819 ♪ ♪ 937 00:55:44,479 --> 00:55:46,273 - I did a thing, guys. 938 00:55:49,276 --> 00:55:50,312 See that? 939 00:55:52,659 --> 00:55:55,213 Right there. 940 00:55:55,317 --> 00:55:57,250 Kind of, like, in the middle. 941 00:55:57,354 --> 00:55:59,045 It's like an upside down U now. 942 00:56:00,909 --> 00:56:02,807 I didn't fall down and knock it out. 943 00:56:02,911 --> 00:56:06,052 I was just chewing on a bone the wrong way. 944 00:56:07,364 --> 00:56:11,022 I think one of the weird thing is 945 00:56:11,126 --> 00:56:13,231 is if it falls out because you hit it or something-- 946 00:56:13,335 --> 00:56:15,682 Like, let's say if you're a hockey player 947 00:56:15,786 --> 00:56:18,720 or if you just fall down and it hits just the right way 948 00:56:18,823 --> 00:56:20,687 that it pops out, 949 00:56:20,791 --> 00:56:23,310 you can actually put it back in. 950 00:56:23,414 --> 00:56:27,314 So it's kind of like a dislocated bone, in a sense. 951 00:56:27,418 --> 00:56:29,558 You don't want to put it in water. 952 00:56:29,662 --> 00:56:31,491 What water does is it kind of destroys 953 00:56:31,595 --> 00:56:34,183 all the cells in the tooth. 954 00:56:34,287 --> 00:56:37,670 So I'm lucky it was just a little superficial ding. 955 00:56:38,809 --> 00:56:40,120 A little souvenir. 956 00:56:40,949 --> 00:56:47,058 ♪ ♪ 957 00:56:47,162 --> 00:56:51,511 All right, we are out, ready. Flag is up. 958 00:56:51,615 --> 00:56:54,376 ♪ ♪ 959 00:56:54,480 --> 00:56:58,069 And let's check some snares. 960 00:56:58,173 --> 00:56:59,381 ♪ ♪ 961 00:56:59,485 --> 00:57:02,522 I'm just gonna take it one step at a time, 962 00:57:02,626 --> 00:57:03,834 go really slow. 963 00:57:03,937 --> 00:57:08,114 ♪ ♪ 964 00:57:08,217 --> 00:57:09,633 Don't see any tracks? 965 00:57:09,736 --> 00:57:12,463 ♪ ♪ 966 00:57:12,567 --> 00:57:13,809 Nothing really there. 967 00:57:13,913 --> 00:57:15,708 ♪ ♪ 968 00:57:15,811 --> 00:57:16,778 Okay. 969 00:57:16,881 --> 00:57:18,296 ♪ ♪ 970 00:57:18,400 --> 00:57:20,195 I still have a grouse. 971 00:57:20,816 --> 00:57:25,994 Challenge for me is if these new limits on my body 972 00:57:26,097 --> 00:57:29,066 will affect my ability to get food. 973 00:57:29,722 --> 00:57:31,689 Taking, like, baby steps right now. 974 00:57:32,345 --> 00:57:33,657 ♪ ♪ 975 00:57:33,760 --> 00:57:35,175 All I can handle. 976 00:57:35,279 --> 00:57:38,593 ♪ ♪ 977 00:57:38,696 --> 00:57:39,801 All right. 978 00:57:39,904 --> 00:57:42,459 ♪ ♪ 979 00:57:42,562 --> 00:57:44,840 A little short of breath right now. 980 00:57:44,944 --> 00:57:46,877 ♪ ♪ 981 00:57:46,980 --> 00:57:50,156 Just gotta wait till it passes a little bit. 982 00:57:50,259 --> 00:57:52,296 ♪ ♪ 983 00:57:52,399 --> 00:57:53,849 Oh. 984 00:57:53,953 --> 00:57:57,094 I'm pushing past my limit each and every day. 985 00:57:57,197 --> 00:57:58,440 ♪ ♪ 986 00:57:58,544 --> 00:58:02,444 And, clinically, I know that I'm declining. 987 00:58:03,100 --> 00:58:06,586 Structural integrity will go eventually. 988 00:58:06,690 --> 00:58:09,278 It's just a simple calculation. 989 00:58:09,382 --> 00:58:12,212 So I really gotta get more food. 990 00:58:13,248 --> 00:58:16,216 Any squirrelies? Nope. 991 00:58:17,010 --> 00:58:18,425 Phew. 992 00:58:23,085 --> 00:58:24,190 Nothing. 993 00:58:27,538 --> 00:58:28,746 Whoop. 994 00:58:28,850 --> 00:58:30,368 ♪ ♪ 995 00:58:30,472 --> 00:58:32,025 That was close. 996 00:58:32,129 --> 00:58:34,441 ♪ ♪ 997 00:58:34,545 --> 00:58:36,685 All right, I think that's it. 998 00:58:36,789 --> 00:58:39,516 I can't afford an injury right now. 999 00:58:39,619 --> 00:58:41,207 ♪ ♪ 1000 00:58:41,310 --> 00:58:44,003 Let's go back to the bear hang 1001 00:58:44,106 --> 00:58:45,694 and get the last of the food. 1002 00:58:45,798 --> 00:58:46,868 The last of the grouse. 1003 00:58:46,971 --> 00:58:54,013 ♪ ♪ 1004 00:58:54,807 --> 00:58:56,774 All right, almost there. 1005 00:58:56,878 --> 00:58:58,845 ♪ ♪ 1006 00:58:58,949 --> 00:59:00,467 Let's go home. 1007 00:59:03,850 --> 00:59:10,132 ♪ ♪ 1008 00:59:10,236 --> 00:59:12,134 It's not American Thanksgiving, 1009 00:59:12,238 --> 00:59:16,173 but I'm gonna have to eat the last piece of grouse. 1010 00:59:16,276 --> 00:59:19,417 Hopefully this gives us enough energy 1011 00:59:19,521 --> 00:59:21,592 and morale to keep pushing on. 1012 00:59:22,662 --> 00:59:26,735 And super important, the last wishbone. 1013 00:59:27,564 --> 00:59:28,599 Mmm. 1014 00:59:30,221 --> 00:59:34,053 These guys are so precious to me. 1015 00:59:34,156 --> 00:59:37,850 Every time I make a wish, I get animal protein. 1016 00:59:37,953 --> 00:59:40,611 So these guys, I swear, are magical. 1017 00:59:42,164 --> 00:59:44,857 But today I don't want to ask for food. 1018 00:59:44,960 --> 00:59:47,342 I don't want to ask for animal protein. 1019 00:59:47,445 --> 00:59:49,137 Um... 1020 00:59:49,240 --> 00:59:51,933 I want to ask for something much, much more. 1021 00:59:52,036 --> 00:59:55,971 I wish that sharing this experience with my mom 1022 00:59:56,075 --> 00:59:57,939 brings us closer together. 1023 00:59:59,354 --> 01:00:01,701 I love her so much. 1024 01:00:01,805 --> 01:00:05,015 Even though she probably thinks I love her, 1025 01:00:05,118 --> 01:00:06,637 I know that she doesn't necessarily 1026 01:00:06,741 --> 01:00:08,708 feel it all the time 1027 01:00:08,812 --> 01:00:09,985 because of how absent I've been. 1028 01:00:10,089 --> 01:00:11,366 ♪ ♪ 1029 01:00:11,469 --> 01:00:15,542 I've had excuses-- medical school, work, 1030 01:00:15,646 --> 01:00:18,338 but it's all BS. 1031 01:00:18,442 --> 01:00:21,134 Could at least call her every day, you know? 1032 01:00:21,928 --> 01:00:23,378 Look at that. 1033 01:00:23,481 --> 01:00:26,484 With the grouse in there and some reindeer moss, 1034 01:00:26,588 --> 01:00:28,452 look at how much food that is. 1035 01:00:28,555 --> 01:00:29,695 ♪ ♪ 1036 01:00:29,798 --> 01:00:32,042 As a doctor, I saw that her health 1037 01:00:32,145 --> 01:00:34,561 was headed in a wrong direction 1038 01:00:34,665 --> 01:00:36,149 and I wanted to fix that. 1039 01:00:36,253 --> 01:00:40,464 So I got frustrated, angry at times, 1040 01:00:40,567 --> 01:00:45,020 and I just stopped caring. 1041 01:00:45,124 --> 01:00:47,436 Because if that's the way she wanted to live, 1042 01:00:47,540 --> 01:00:49,473 that's the way she wanted to live. 1043 01:00:49,576 --> 01:00:50,957 ♪ ♪ 1044 01:00:51,061 --> 01:00:54,029 But what she is going through is something 1045 01:00:54,133 --> 01:00:57,446 that I went through when I was living in my car. 1046 01:00:57,550 --> 01:00:59,172 That's being truly alone. 1047 01:01:00,933 --> 01:01:04,212 And that's--that's on me. 1048 01:01:04,315 --> 01:01:05,627 ♪ ♪ 1049 01:01:05,731 --> 01:01:08,250 I still have a few handfuls of this. 1050 01:01:08,354 --> 01:01:10,356 Might last me till tomorrow. 1051 01:01:10,459 --> 01:01:11,357 ♪ ♪ 1052 01:01:11,460 --> 01:01:12,841 Mmm. 1053 01:01:12,945 --> 01:01:16,603 When my mom sees this, I hope she can forgive me. 1054 01:01:16,707 --> 01:01:17,984 ♪ ♪ 1055 01:01:18,088 --> 01:01:20,435 The journey will be complicated, 1056 01:01:20,538 --> 01:01:22,955 but she's never gonna be alone, 1057 01:01:23,058 --> 01:01:24,128 not from now on. 1058 01:01:24,232 --> 01:01:25,474 ♪ ♪ 1059 01:01:25,578 --> 01:01:27,476 I have been so grateful 1060 01:01:27,580 --> 01:01:30,514 for how this experience has changed me. 1061 01:01:30,617 --> 01:01:33,034 I want to take that and light the world on fire 1062 01:01:33,137 --> 01:01:34,656 with the same juice. 1063 01:01:34,760 --> 01:01:38,418 That half million dollars won't fix everything, 1064 01:01:38,522 --> 01:01:40,489 but it will get me close. 1065 01:01:40,593 --> 01:01:41,594 ♪ ♪ 1066 01:01:41,698 --> 01:01:43,458 My stomach is full. 1067 01:01:43,561 --> 01:01:47,324 My heart is full with good wishes 1068 01:01:47,427 --> 01:01:49,602 to everyone, especially my mom. 1069 01:01:49,706 --> 01:01:52,156 ♪ ♪ 1070 01:01:52,260 --> 01:01:54,503 So, wishbone, you're going into my pocket. 1071 01:01:54,607 --> 01:01:55,953 I'm gonna keep you safe. 1072 01:01:56,057 --> 01:01:58,093 ♪ ♪ 1073 01:01:58,197 --> 01:01:59,508 I love you, Mom. 1074 01:01:59,612 --> 01:02:02,546 ♪ ♪ 1075 01:02:02,649 --> 01:02:04,030 And I'm gonna be right next to you 1076 01:02:04,134 --> 01:02:05,756 every step of the way, 1077 01:02:05,860 --> 01:02:07,931 no matter which direction you go. 1078 01:02:08,034 --> 01:02:09,104 I'll be there. 1079 01:02:09,208 --> 01:02:14,282 ♪ ♪ 1080 01:02:14,385 --> 01:02:15,628 How much is enough? 1081 01:02:15,732 --> 01:02:17,630 I think everyone's asking that question. 1082 01:02:17,734 --> 01:02:20,840 - Am I just gonna hunker down and conserve my energy 1083 01:02:20,944 --> 01:02:23,843 or push myself and go out and get food? 1084 01:02:25,707 --> 01:02:26,846 Don't cry, don't cry. 1085 01:02:27,433 --> 01:02:28,675 - This is my life now. 1086 01:02:28,779 --> 01:02:31,678 I get water and then I do nothing. 1087 01:02:31,782 --> 01:02:33,439 - Every day I'm pushing, and I feel 1088 01:02:33,542 --> 01:02:35,234 like I've been walking a line. 1089 01:02:35,337 --> 01:02:36,822 Let's go! 1090 01:02:36,925 --> 01:02:38,444 But right here-- 1091 01:02:38,547 --> 01:02:40,998 right here... 1092 01:02:41,102 --> 01:02:42,689 I can push with that. 1093 01:02:42,793 --> 01:02:44,208 - I'm not down for the count. 1094 01:02:44,312 --> 01:02:46,245 My body will tell me when I'm done. 1095 01:02:46,348 --> 01:02:47,971 - Definitely reached the part of my journey 1096 01:02:48,074 --> 01:02:50,905 when I'm just, like, a little bit cuckoo. 1097 01:02:52,078 --> 01:02:55,081 ♪ ♪ 1098 01:02:55,185 --> 01:02:58,015 - Oh, my God, my heart's just beating so fast. 1099 01:02:58,119 --> 01:03:01,708 ♪ ♪