1 00:00:20,537 --> 00:00:22,746 - Really crazy weather. 2 00:00:22,850 --> 00:00:26,681 Because I'm fasting, my body is getting slower. 3 00:00:26,785 --> 00:00:30,685 It's almost as if I am the subject of my own experiments. 4 00:00:30,789 --> 00:00:34,482 I'm not afraid, but everything is a struggle. 5 00:00:34,586 --> 00:00:36,174 All right. 6 00:00:36,277 --> 00:00:39,453 I'm pushing past my limit each and every day. 7 00:00:39,556 --> 00:00:42,111 And clinically, I know that I'm declining. 8 00:00:42,214 --> 00:00:44,837 I'm gonna have to eat the last piece of grouse, 9 00:00:44,941 --> 00:00:48,289 and super important, the last wishbone. 10 00:00:48,393 --> 00:00:51,292 I wish that sharing this experience with my mom 11 00:00:51,396 --> 00:00:54,088 brings us closer together. 12 00:00:54,192 --> 00:00:56,918 That half a million dollars won't fix everything, 13 00:00:57,022 --> 00:00:58,644 but it'll get me close. 14 00:00:58,748 --> 00:01:01,544 - There's three traps right here. No squirrels. 15 00:01:01,647 --> 00:01:04,305 I'm so excited to, like, get this far in the journey. 16 00:01:04,409 --> 00:01:06,928 It's hard work, but it's where my drive just keeps 17 00:01:07,032 --> 00:01:08,240 pushing me to go forward. 18 00:01:08,344 --> 00:01:09,414 Oh, I see him. 19 00:01:09,517 --> 00:01:10,794 It's under a big log. 20 00:01:12,002 --> 00:01:13,211 Oh. 21 00:01:13,314 --> 00:01:15,316 I got a squirrel! 22 00:01:15,420 --> 00:01:18,216 Holy . Oh, my God. 23 00:01:26,983 --> 00:01:29,675 - I can't wait to have this place try and break me. 24 00:01:29,779 --> 00:01:31,712 narrator: For the first time on "Alone," 25 00:01:31,815 --> 00:01:33,783 ten participants fight to survive 26 00:01:33,886 --> 00:01:36,613 in the hunting ground of the world's largest 27 00:01:36,717 --> 00:01:37,649 land predator... 28 00:01:37,752 --> 00:01:39,444 - Oh, my God, where'd he go? 29 00:01:39,547 --> 00:01:40,686 Those are bear. 30 00:01:40,790 --> 00:01:42,205 - I heard a big animal. 31 00:01:42,309 --> 00:01:43,655 - Hey, bear. - Oh, no. 32 00:01:45,105 --> 00:01:47,279 - Sometimes you eat the bear. 33 00:01:47,383 --> 00:01:49,212 - Sometimes the bear eats you. 34 00:01:49,316 --> 00:01:51,697 narrator: Battling merciless conditions... 35 00:01:51,801 --> 00:01:54,010 - This is some hardcore bushwhacking. 36 00:01:54,114 --> 00:01:57,151 - Why does it have to be such a struggle every night? 37 00:01:57,255 --> 00:01:59,498 - I hit it. I hit it. I hit it. 38 00:01:59,602 --> 00:02:01,431 Feel more alive every day I'm out here. 39 00:02:01,535 --> 00:02:03,606 - Here comes the rain again. 40 00:02:03,709 --> 00:02:06,850 - Labrador, not gonna make it easy for us, are you? 41 00:02:06,954 --> 00:02:08,887 narrator: In complete isolation. 42 00:02:08,990 --> 00:02:11,579 - The most dangerous thing out here is myself. 43 00:02:11,683 --> 00:02:12,787 - Look at that! 44 00:02:12,891 --> 00:02:14,513 - The cold ground is just pulling 45 00:02:14,617 --> 00:02:16,066 all the warmth from me. 46 00:02:16,170 --> 00:02:17,896 - How many days can this go on? 47 00:02:17,999 --> 00:02:19,277 - Very, very hungry. 48 00:02:19,380 --> 00:02:20,623 - I feel like I'm hitting a wall. 49 00:02:20,726 --> 00:02:22,797 narrator: Last one standing wins. 50 00:02:22,901 --> 00:02:25,490 - Only gonna get harder the longer you stay out here. 51 00:02:54,795 --> 00:02:56,314 - Oh, it's beautiful. 52 00:02:57,970 --> 00:02:59,593 In a winter wonderland. 53 00:03:06,427 --> 00:03:10,776 It's quiet, no birds, no squirrels, nothing. 54 00:03:12,261 --> 00:03:15,298 Must be the snow. I don't know. 55 00:03:15,402 --> 00:03:19,889 But I'm feeling really, really tired. 56 00:03:19,992 --> 00:03:23,927 Think I'm just gonna go up the hill to get some firewood, 57 00:03:24,031 --> 00:03:25,722 and, uh, yeah-- 58 00:03:28,000 --> 00:03:29,864 Every day, I'm pushing, and I feel like 59 00:03:29,968 --> 00:03:31,452 I've been walking a line. 60 00:03:31,556 --> 00:03:35,145 Last night, I had almost a pot full of food, 61 00:03:35,249 --> 00:03:36,975 and I'm still getting weak. 62 00:03:38,977 --> 00:03:42,601 Come on, trees, give me something to work with. 63 00:03:42,705 --> 00:03:44,224 I'm running out of trees that I can 64 00:03:44,327 --> 00:03:47,296 realistically walk to, snap their branches, 65 00:03:47,399 --> 00:03:49,090 and come back home. 66 00:03:49,194 --> 00:03:52,853 I can feel my energy kind of going down a little bit. 67 00:03:54,579 --> 00:03:59,377 Doing everything I can to address everything that I can. 68 00:04:06,487 --> 00:04:08,144 Found two good trees. 69 00:04:22,814 --> 00:04:24,988 Think I can only do one bundle, guys. 70 00:04:26,783 --> 00:04:30,166 Feel like I'm reaching a limit over here. 71 00:04:30,270 --> 00:04:32,962 All right, let's go back. 72 00:04:37,207 --> 00:04:38,485 Okay, I'm home. 73 00:04:40,210 --> 00:04:41,108 Yeah. 74 00:04:45,043 --> 00:04:47,873 I'm freaking exhausted. 75 00:04:47,977 --> 00:04:49,116 It's too much. 76 00:04:49,219 --> 00:04:51,463 I did too much today. 77 00:04:53,741 --> 00:04:55,640 I'm ready to take a really long break. 78 00:04:57,814 --> 00:04:59,851 Here we go. 79 00:04:59,954 --> 00:05:03,475 40 minutes working is basically my max. 80 00:05:04,856 --> 00:05:07,134 So every day, I get a little weaker. 81 00:05:08,825 --> 00:05:13,692 But right here, right here... 82 00:05:13,796 --> 00:05:15,280 I can push with that. 83 00:05:34,437 --> 00:05:36,784 - Ow. What the heck? 84 00:05:40,823 --> 00:05:42,065 Hey! 85 00:05:45,275 --> 00:05:46,518 What are you doing? 86 00:05:49,452 --> 00:05:51,005 Yeah, take that. 87 00:05:53,560 --> 00:05:55,838 Ah! Boom! 88 00:05:55,941 --> 00:05:57,529 Ahh! 89 00:06:01,844 --> 00:06:03,155 I'm still just a kid. 90 00:06:03,259 --> 00:06:06,814 I'm just a kid in an older body, that's all, 91 00:06:06,918 --> 00:06:11,750 but I can't be wasting calories just having fun. 92 00:06:11,854 --> 00:06:14,339 But why not? 93 00:06:14,443 --> 00:06:18,343 I mean, all of this is fun, but now, we have snow, 94 00:06:18,447 --> 00:06:23,244 and my food procurement is going down, 95 00:06:23,348 --> 00:06:26,731 and if that's going down and not increasing, 96 00:06:26,834 --> 00:06:29,458 my time out here is getting shorter. 97 00:06:31,425 --> 00:06:33,323 So I decided I'm going to go see 98 00:06:33,427 --> 00:06:35,429 if I can roust up a squirrel. 99 00:06:35,533 --> 00:06:39,882 So I'm just gonna walk the edge of the east woods 100 00:06:39,985 --> 00:06:43,679 where I have my traps, and maybe I can uncover a trap, 101 00:06:43,782 --> 00:06:45,197 and who knows? 102 00:06:45,301 --> 00:06:48,131 I might have a frozen squirrel under the snow or something. 103 00:06:54,552 --> 00:06:57,278 Winter is a good time for dreaming things in. 104 00:06:57,382 --> 00:06:59,453 There's so many possibilities 105 00:06:59,557 --> 00:07:01,248 that I'm really looking forward to. 106 00:07:01,351 --> 00:07:03,664 I want to open a wilderness school. 107 00:07:03,768 --> 00:07:06,495 That's been my plan for years and years and years. 108 00:07:06,598 --> 00:07:08,324 So this spring, 109 00:07:08,428 --> 00:07:11,776 I jumped way out on a limb financially. 110 00:07:11,879 --> 00:07:16,021 I got the financing, and I bought a piece of property. 111 00:07:16,125 --> 00:07:18,679 It's a beautiful piece of land, 13 acres, 112 00:07:18,783 --> 00:07:22,614 and I will be taking down my yurt that I live in now 113 00:07:22,718 --> 00:07:25,168 and moving everything to the land, 114 00:07:25,272 --> 00:07:29,103 and my plan is my yurt 115 00:07:29,207 --> 00:07:31,485 will become an indoor classroom, 116 00:07:31,589 --> 00:07:34,454 and then I have the opportunity 117 00:07:34,557 --> 00:07:36,179 to build my dream home, 118 00:07:36,283 --> 00:07:38,768 and I can do whatever I want. 119 00:07:38,872 --> 00:07:41,426 This will be the first time that I've 120 00:07:41,530 --> 00:07:43,980 had my own home since I left 121 00:07:44,084 --> 00:07:46,017 when I was 18 to go to college. 122 00:07:46,120 --> 00:07:48,675 So 40 years, that's huge. 123 00:07:50,262 --> 00:07:52,920 I've been really resisting this elderhood, 124 00:07:53,024 --> 00:07:56,234 but now I feel like I'm ready to build my first real home. 125 00:07:57,442 --> 00:08:00,203 Now I gotta pay for it. 126 00:08:00,307 --> 00:08:03,793 Half a million dollars would enable me to pay off my land 127 00:08:03,897 --> 00:08:06,175 and step into a new beginning... 128 00:08:07,417 --> 00:08:09,834 So I can't give up. 129 00:08:09,937 --> 00:08:11,214 I can't quit trying. 130 00:08:15,115 --> 00:08:17,773 Oh, oh, this is so awesome. 131 00:08:17,876 --> 00:08:19,084 Oh, my gosh. 132 00:08:22,605 --> 00:08:24,469 Check it out. 133 00:08:24,573 --> 00:08:26,091 Bunny tracks! 134 00:08:28,059 --> 00:08:30,751 They go off into the abyss. 135 00:08:31,994 --> 00:08:35,031 Need to figure out where he's going. 136 00:08:35,135 --> 00:08:36,999 Game on. 137 00:08:41,279 --> 00:08:43,971 So many places where a hare could hide out. 138 00:08:46,042 --> 00:08:47,561 It's starting to snow again. 139 00:08:55,500 --> 00:08:56,812 Oh, there's a squirrel. 140 00:09:00,988 --> 00:09:02,472 Where'd it go? 141 00:09:04,992 --> 00:09:06,373 Let me get him up there. 142 00:09:25,565 --> 00:09:27,739 , so close. 143 00:09:29,361 --> 00:09:30,949 That definitely was a hard shot. 144 00:09:31,053 --> 00:09:33,642 Surprised I took it. 145 00:09:33,745 --> 00:09:35,367 The longer I stay out here, 146 00:09:35,471 --> 00:09:37,162 the weaker my muscles are getting, 147 00:09:37,266 --> 00:09:40,096 and it's getting colder. 148 00:09:40,200 --> 00:09:42,616 I have to wear more layers of clothes, 149 00:09:42,720 --> 00:09:46,689 and it's really affecting how I pull my bow. 150 00:09:46,793 --> 00:09:51,556 I know that I can only take shots at a close proximity. 151 00:09:51,660 --> 00:09:53,558 When you take a shot, you want it to be fatal. 152 00:09:53,662 --> 00:09:55,042 You don't want to wound an animal. 153 00:09:56,147 --> 00:09:57,838 Ooh. 154 00:09:57,942 --> 00:09:59,495 Wow, it's really hard. 155 00:09:59,599 --> 00:10:00,876 Oh, my gosh. 156 00:10:03,016 --> 00:10:05,432 I just don't feel as old as I am. 157 00:10:05,535 --> 00:10:08,987 Most of my friends are younger than me and very active, 158 00:10:09,091 --> 00:10:10,575 and I'm very active, 159 00:10:10,679 --> 00:10:13,992 so I've been really resisting this elderhood. 160 00:10:16,270 --> 00:10:18,583 Man, that arrow just disappeared. 161 00:10:21,759 --> 00:10:23,070 Ugh, where'd it go? 162 00:10:30,319 --> 00:10:31,941 Maybe it's over here. 163 00:10:36,359 --> 00:10:37,947 I don't know. 164 00:10:43,850 --> 00:10:45,852 OK, Karie, don't do that anymore. 165 00:10:48,061 --> 00:10:49,441 That squirrel is so onto me. 166 00:10:49,545 --> 00:10:51,202 Surprised he showed himself. 167 00:10:55,137 --> 00:10:56,517 My tummy hurts. 168 00:11:01,557 --> 00:11:03,904 I was hoping to get something today. 169 00:11:25,685 --> 00:11:27,134 - Really so hard. 170 00:11:27,238 --> 00:11:31,483 It's, like, snow and cold and ice. 171 00:11:31,587 --> 00:11:33,762 And now having rain. 172 00:11:33,865 --> 00:11:37,110 I feel hungry and stuck in one spot. 173 00:11:37,213 --> 00:11:40,734 And now, all these cycles... 174 00:11:40,838 --> 00:11:43,426 are destroying my tarp. 175 00:11:43,530 --> 00:11:46,050 This is what happens. 176 00:11:46,153 --> 00:11:49,191 There's ice at the top of the trees, 177 00:11:49,294 --> 00:11:50,779 and then, there's wind, 178 00:11:50,882 --> 00:11:53,678 then all the ice starts coming down, 179 00:11:53,782 --> 00:11:55,853 and they fall on my tarp, 180 00:11:55,956 --> 00:11:59,132 and they make holes. 181 00:11:59,235 --> 00:12:00,581 Let me show you. 182 00:12:03,792 --> 00:12:07,865 So that's one hole that happened last night, 183 00:12:07,968 --> 00:12:11,109 that big, big hole. 184 00:12:11,213 --> 00:12:13,560 That's something I need to work on. 185 00:12:16,908 --> 00:12:20,153 Well, I can get one and a half fingers in there. 186 00:12:20,256 --> 00:12:24,916 Heat will escape from there, so I'm going to sew a patch. 187 00:12:26,400 --> 00:12:28,230 When I was coming out, I told my partner, 188 00:12:28,333 --> 00:12:30,819 "I just need not to screw up. 189 00:12:30,922 --> 00:12:32,890 As long as I do not mess up, I got this." 190 00:12:34,754 --> 00:12:38,861 Helping her is such a powerful motivation for me. 191 00:12:38,965 --> 00:12:43,038 I like to model resilience for her. 192 00:12:43,141 --> 00:12:47,180 I'm separating some cord 193 00:12:47,283 --> 00:12:49,527 to use as thread. 194 00:12:49,630 --> 00:12:52,806 My strategy is to hunker down more into my shelter 195 00:12:52,910 --> 00:12:55,809 because I'm going to do what real people do 196 00:12:55,913 --> 00:12:57,362 in survival situations, 197 00:12:57,466 --> 00:13:00,020 and it's either they walk out, or they hunker down. 198 00:13:00,124 --> 00:13:04,059 My body is gonna have to understand 199 00:13:04,162 --> 00:13:08,201 that I'm going to go to this place, 200 00:13:08,304 --> 00:13:09,581 but it's all a big bet. 201 00:13:11,583 --> 00:13:13,102 So for the patch, 202 00:13:13,206 --> 00:13:15,864 I'm going to use this piece of tarp 203 00:13:15,967 --> 00:13:20,144 that I cut for the windows and for the stove pipe. 204 00:13:22,802 --> 00:13:25,977 It's a rough, rough patch, as you can see. 205 00:13:27,703 --> 00:13:30,844 It looks like a five-year-old did it. 206 00:13:30,948 --> 00:13:34,814 But it's not easy when you're-- 207 00:13:34,917 --> 00:13:38,507 like, you've been starving for so long, and you're surviving, 208 00:13:38,610 --> 00:13:41,096 and you're sewing from one side, 209 00:13:41,199 --> 00:13:42,822 and you cannot sew from the other. 210 00:13:42,925 --> 00:13:45,548 You're not using a proper needle. 211 00:13:45,652 --> 00:13:49,173 So that's that stuff. 212 00:13:49,276 --> 00:13:51,106 But it's what I signed up for. 213 00:14:14,336 --> 00:14:16,131 - All right, let's get some water. 214 00:14:25,450 --> 00:14:28,453 I think this is the weakest I've felt right now. 215 00:14:30,248 --> 00:14:31,871 That's not good. 216 00:14:35,771 --> 00:14:38,153 Let's see how frozen we are. 217 00:14:45,954 --> 00:14:48,646 Yeah, I can still get through. 218 00:14:48,749 --> 00:14:50,751 Easy does it. 219 00:14:55,584 --> 00:14:56,757 Oh. 220 00:14:57,931 --> 00:14:59,864 That was close. 221 00:15:09,046 --> 00:15:11,807 That's as fast as I can go. 222 00:15:21,851 --> 00:15:23,060 There we go. 223 00:15:25,027 --> 00:15:29,100 Just walking to get water is a lot for me. 224 00:15:32,828 --> 00:15:35,555 But, dang, that was a good sleep last night. 225 00:15:40,560 --> 00:15:44,771 My last thoughts were seeing my mom's face at the airport. 226 00:15:46,635 --> 00:15:48,016 Holding her for the first time 227 00:15:48,119 --> 00:15:51,951 and just giving her those big old kisses on the cheeks. 228 00:15:53,573 --> 00:15:57,611 That gave me just a bunch of clarity, 229 00:15:57,715 --> 00:15:59,475 and I just slept through the night. 230 00:16:00,752 --> 00:16:04,308 You know, how much-- 231 00:16:04,411 --> 00:16:05,688 how much is enough? 232 00:16:07,656 --> 00:16:11,280 I think everyone's asking that question. 233 00:16:11,384 --> 00:16:15,181 For me, I want my mom to be inspired by this. 234 00:16:15,284 --> 00:16:19,392 I want it to hit her right here 235 00:16:19,495 --> 00:16:23,085 and have her just smile and cry. 236 00:16:25,018 --> 00:16:28,815 I felt joy here in the beauty of this land, 237 00:16:28,918 --> 00:16:32,543 in the freedom and the endless learning. 238 00:16:32,646 --> 00:16:34,683 Life is just better being surrounded 239 00:16:34,786 --> 00:16:37,582 by people who love you, 240 00:16:37,686 --> 00:16:39,446 and, Mom, you deserve that, too. 241 00:16:42,139 --> 00:16:45,901 'Cause you're a beautiful, amazing, wonderful woman, 242 00:16:46,005 --> 00:16:48,317 and you deserve to be happy, 243 00:16:48,421 --> 00:16:53,943 and I know you've felt all alone, but you're not. 244 00:16:54,047 --> 00:16:56,636 That I promise you. 245 00:16:58,845 --> 00:17:01,434 So... 246 00:17:01,537 --> 00:17:05,955 Operation Save Mom is a go as of today. 247 00:17:09,511 --> 00:17:11,996 I'm excited to be a better son to you. 248 00:17:14,792 --> 00:17:16,311 Yeah. 249 00:17:19,486 --> 00:17:20,867 Do you know what? 250 00:17:25,423 --> 00:17:28,150 I think I have one more trick up my sleeve. 251 00:17:30,463 --> 00:17:32,396 I think I have one more good idea. 252 00:17:34,329 --> 00:17:35,813 I'm gonna show you. 253 00:17:55,108 --> 00:17:59,112 - I got one last surprise for you guys... 254 00:17:59,216 --> 00:18:02,288 one last trick up my sleeve, 255 00:18:02,391 --> 00:18:03,737 one last good idea. 256 00:18:05,912 --> 00:18:08,915 For the Canadian Grenadier Guards, 257 00:18:09,018 --> 00:18:10,158 this one's for you guys. 258 00:18:12,194 --> 00:18:16,267 At the age of 17, I had no idea what I wanted to do. 259 00:18:16,371 --> 00:18:18,166 Tarp, I need you. 260 00:18:18,269 --> 00:18:20,892 You have been a lifesaver. 261 00:18:22,377 --> 00:18:25,069 So I was walking on St. Catherine in Montreal, 262 00:18:25,173 --> 00:18:30,247 and I remember just having an urge to just look up, 263 00:18:30,350 --> 00:18:32,421 and I see this statue, 264 00:18:32,525 --> 00:18:35,666 big, old lion, unicorn with a shield 265 00:18:35,769 --> 00:18:37,046 plated right in the middle. 266 00:18:37,150 --> 00:18:42,397 Just zigzagging paracord. 267 00:18:42,500 --> 00:18:45,952 I just thought to myself, 268 00:18:46,055 --> 00:18:49,128 "I really wanna help people." 269 00:18:49,231 --> 00:18:52,165 Get up there. 270 00:18:52,269 --> 00:18:55,410 Turns out, that statue was the Canadian coat of arms. 271 00:18:58,758 --> 00:19:02,382 Flag-- You gotta put the flag on this. 272 00:19:02,486 --> 00:19:03,970 It was a calling. 273 00:19:04,073 --> 00:19:06,421 That was the start of the journey. 274 00:19:06,524 --> 00:19:10,114 And then I joined the army and just been walking a path 275 00:19:10,218 --> 00:19:14,912 towards finding out who I need to help and how. 276 00:19:15,015 --> 00:19:18,847 Now, you are complete, sled, to get me out of here. 277 00:19:20,228 --> 00:19:22,161 I'm declining at a rapid rate 278 00:19:22,264 --> 00:19:24,370 each and every day. 279 00:19:24,473 --> 00:19:25,509 Let's see. 280 00:19:27,994 --> 00:19:30,410 Half a million dollars, that's pretty juicy, 281 00:19:30,514 --> 00:19:34,311 but my options are to leave strong 282 00:19:34,414 --> 00:19:36,451 or to leave broken, 283 00:19:36,554 --> 00:19:38,591 so I'm gonna walk out of here. 284 00:19:38,694 --> 00:19:41,249 Ain't nobody carrying my kit for me, 285 00:19:41,352 --> 00:19:44,459 and I don't want my mom to see me suffer. 286 00:19:44,562 --> 00:19:45,494 Ah. 287 00:19:45,598 --> 00:19:47,807 One last push, baby. 288 00:19:47,910 --> 00:19:50,189 Leaving standing tall, I think that's 289 00:19:50,292 --> 00:19:52,225 what my mom needs to see. 290 00:19:54,123 --> 00:19:55,021 Let's go! 291 00:19:56,436 --> 00:19:57,368 Ugh! 292 00:19:59,370 --> 00:20:00,682 Yeah! 293 00:20:00,785 --> 00:20:02,684 I have a long life ahead of me, 294 00:20:02,787 --> 00:20:07,309 and now, I have such clarity in who I am... 295 00:20:07,413 --> 00:20:08,655 Yeah. 296 00:20:08,759 --> 00:20:10,347 What I'm meant to do in this Earth... 297 00:20:10,450 --> 00:20:12,072 It's working. 298 00:20:12,176 --> 00:20:14,799 And who I want by my side. 299 00:20:25,293 --> 00:20:27,709 This is Teimojin. 300 00:20:27,812 --> 00:20:30,470 I am officially tapping out. 301 00:20:33,404 --> 00:20:37,028 All right, let's go home. 302 00:20:42,137 --> 00:20:43,587 I've won. 303 00:20:43,690 --> 00:20:45,451 This is a victory for me. 304 00:20:53,838 --> 00:20:56,807 My body has reached a limit, 305 00:20:56,910 --> 00:20:59,119 and I'm here to take care of my mom, 306 00:20:59,223 --> 00:21:01,087 to inspire her. 307 00:21:01,190 --> 00:21:04,297 I think this is how I want my story to end, 308 00:21:04,401 --> 00:21:08,543 and I think she'll be proud of how much I pushed. 309 00:21:09,958 --> 00:21:12,271 This is going to show her the strength that she needs. 310 00:21:14,445 --> 00:21:15,860 Not me being carried out. 311 00:21:25,939 --> 00:21:27,320 When I first got the call 312 00:21:27,424 --> 00:21:29,598 that I would be on this show... 313 00:21:32,636 --> 00:21:33,982 I wanted to have fun. 314 00:21:34,085 --> 00:21:38,711 I wanted it to be about testing myself, my skills, 315 00:21:38,814 --> 00:21:41,679 and it was only when I got here, 316 00:21:41,783 --> 00:21:45,476 reflected on my life, who I am, who I want to be 317 00:21:45,580 --> 00:21:47,271 where I realized 318 00:21:47,375 --> 00:21:49,825 that it can't be about me. 319 00:21:49,929 --> 00:21:52,380 I've been selfish for so long and so focused 320 00:21:52,483 --> 00:21:55,624 on this one goal, to become a doctor, 321 00:21:55,728 --> 00:22:01,561 that I let everyone around me down. 322 00:22:01,665 --> 00:22:05,220 So when I get home, one of the first things 323 00:22:05,324 --> 00:22:08,672 is to say sorry for being absent. 324 00:22:10,259 --> 00:22:14,125 Now, I feel 100% me, 325 00:22:14,229 --> 00:22:16,783 but renewed, reborn, 326 00:22:16,887 --> 00:22:20,787 and after this, I can see myself just being 327 00:22:20,891 --> 00:22:24,032 filled with joy and love, 328 00:22:24,135 --> 00:22:28,139 and that's just worth so much more 329 00:22:28,243 --> 00:22:30,314 than a half a million dollars. 330 00:23:00,620 --> 00:23:03,692 - Today is toque time 331 00:23:03,796 --> 00:23:05,867 and maybe have warm tea. 332 00:23:07,282 --> 00:23:09,664 That would be nice. 333 00:23:09,767 --> 00:23:11,459 So I'm just gonna grab some water. 334 00:23:18,362 --> 00:23:22,262 And you can see, the river is all slush. 335 00:23:24,023 --> 00:23:26,991 Not good for ice fishing. Not good for walking. 336 00:23:27,095 --> 00:23:28,061 Whoa. 337 00:23:29,891 --> 00:23:33,032 It's quite icy, like, super icy, 338 00:23:33,135 --> 00:23:36,035 and my boots are not super grippy. 339 00:23:42,662 --> 00:23:43,698 Here. 340 00:23:46,217 --> 00:23:49,669 Ready for the fire in my stove. 341 00:23:49,773 --> 00:23:54,122 I can see this cold really wearing down people, 342 00:23:54,225 --> 00:23:56,400 but I've been waiting for this moment 343 00:23:56,504 --> 00:23:59,092 for, like, 70 days. 344 00:23:59,196 --> 00:24:00,853 This huge mental strategy 345 00:24:00,956 --> 00:24:03,476 that I'm using that I believe it's very important 346 00:24:03,580 --> 00:24:06,583 is I'm trying to punctuate my adventure 347 00:24:06,686 --> 00:24:08,826 and have different, like, milestones. 348 00:24:08,930 --> 00:24:12,347 I do this milestone, and I get this reward, 349 00:24:12,451 --> 00:24:16,040 and it helps me have something I look forward to 350 00:24:16,144 --> 00:24:19,423 and also, it just changes the monotony. 351 00:24:19,527 --> 00:24:22,599 This is the way to cut firewood. 352 00:24:22,702 --> 00:24:24,186 Mallet. 353 00:24:27,638 --> 00:24:29,295 My ax. 354 00:24:34,576 --> 00:24:38,373 In terms of safety, I am textbook perfect almost. 355 00:24:48,901 --> 00:24:51,248 First fire. 356 00:24:53,768 --> 00:24:55,597 This is sweet, sweet. 357 00:25:02,742 --> 00:25:04,261 I would not be here for just, like, oh, yeah, 358 00:25:04,364 --> 00:25:06,470 I'm gonna be in a TV show. 359 00:25:06,574 --> 00:25:10,612 I'm here because I feel I can win this. 360 00:25:10,716 --> 00:25:14,651 I've invested so much energy, 361 00:25:14,754 --> 00:25:16,894 so much passion, so much soul. 362 00:25:16,998 --> 00:25:19,448 I've invested my health. 363 00:25:19,552 --> 00:25:22,935 I want some money to really start 364 00:25:23,038 --> 00:25:26,421 going after my dream of having 365 00:25:26,525 --> 00:25:28,872 a homestead and a community 366 00:25:28,975 --> 00:25:31,391 and to start a family and to marry. 367 00:25:32,841 --> 00:25:34,602 That's why I'm here. 368 00:25:42,989 --> 00:25:44,853 Holy . 369 00:25:46,027 --> 00:25:47,787 I used paint cans. 370 00:25:47,891 --> 00:25:50,790 I should have known better. 371 00:25:50,894 --> 00:25:53,552 There's some weird smell from, like, 372 00:25:53,655 --> 00:25:55,864 whatever was in these cans. 373 00:25:57,452 --> 00:26:00,110 It's likely that it's toxic. 374 00:26:00,213 --> 00:26:02,388 Such a dummy mistake. 375 00:26:02,491 --> 00:26:05,149 I'm going to open the door for a little bit. 376 00:26:08,670 --> 00:26:12,329 It's a smell that you know is just not good for you. 377 00:26:12,432 --> 00:26:15,435 It makes my head hurt. 378 00:26:15,539 --> 00:26:18,369 So bad, oh. 379 00:26:18,473 --> 00:26:21,476 I am a little bit pissed. 380 00:26:21,580 --> 00:26:25,376 It's something that I was really looking forward to. 381 00:26:25,480 --> 00:26:27,655 Like, what the ? 382 00:26:27,758 --> 00:26:31,624 Really makes this struggle harder. 383 00:26:31,728 --> 00:26:33,143 I feel sick. 384 00:26:59,445 --> 00:27:03,656 - The problem with my stove is that I used paint cans, 385 00:27:03,760 --> 00:27:06,763 and they had lots of paint still, 386 00:27:06,866 --> 00:27:08,972 and it just doesn't burn off. 387 00:27:09,075 --> 00:27:13,701 So I'm gonna redo 388 00:27:13,804 --> 00:27:15,737 almost entirely the stove 389 00:27:15,841 --> 00:27:20,500 with some cans that I saved just in case I needed them. 390 00:27:20,604 --> 00:27:22,330 I have to work with mud. 391 00:27:22,433 --> 00:27:26,748 I can actually use mud from the sides of the stove. 392 00:27:26,852 --> 00:27:30,718 It's moist. It's not completely frozen. 393 00:27:30,821 --> 00:27:35,170 The risk is I up, and then I don't have a stove, 394 00:27:35,274 --> 00:27:38,898 but the reward is worth the risk. 395 00:27:40,728 --> 00:27:43,627 Let's do it. There's no going back. 396 00:27:43,731 --> 00:27:45,491 Here we go. 397 00:27:45,594 --> 00:27:47,873 It's a big job because there's lots 398 00:27:47,976 --> 00:27:51,221 of thinking, lots of things that need to go right. 399 00:27:51,324 --> 00:27:53,257 There's many moving parts. 400 00:27:55,674 --> 00:27:57,330 It's gonna be a challenge. 401 00:27:59,885 --> 00:28:02,991 I removed this front piece. 402 00:28:03,095 --> 00:28:04,441 I don't know if you can see all this, 403 00:28:04,544 --> 00:28:07,962 like, paint, but it smells very bad. 404 00:28:09,446 --> 00:28:13,415 But this is a new can I can use. 405 00:28:29,500 --> 00:28:31,917 Have to warm it up in my hand. 406 00:28:42,824 --> 00:28:44,964 That's it. 407 00:28:49,589 --> 00:28:52,627 The previous week, I was really, really 408 00:28:52,731 --> 00:28:57,252 missing family and friends and my partner Jennifer. 409 00:28:58,391 --> 00:29:00,946 She's, like, my best friend. 410 00:29:01,049 --> 00:29:03,811 My life gravitates around her, 411 00:29:03,914 --> 00:29:06,572 so it's hard to be without her. 412 00:29:08,229 --> 00:29:09,368 I have exciting plans 413 00:29:09,471 --> 00:29:11,611 for when I get back with my partner. 414 00:29:20,448 --> 00:29:21,587 It's working. 415 00:29:22,864 --> 00:29:25,798 My frankenstove is alive. 416 00:29:25,902 --> 00:29:28,214 It's alive! 417 00:29:29,733 --> 00:29:32,356 I'm really satisfied with my decision. 418 00:29:32,460 --> 00:29:36,360 It was a risk, but the universe came together. 419 00:29:38,811 --> 00:29:40,744 This is a natural smoke. 420 00:29:40,848 --> 00:29:44,230 It doesn't feel like any kind of plastic or garbage 421 00:29:44,334 --> 00:29:46,232 or anything like that. 422 00:29:46,336 --> 00:29:49,442 A new stove that doesn't smell. 423 00:29:49,546 --> 00:29:51,065 Sweet. 424 00:30:21,820 --> 00:30:23,373 - Mmm. 425 00:30:23,476 --> 00:30:25,237 Nice, warm water. 426 00:30:28,654 --> 00:30:30,898 Here, I have some fruit leather. 427 00:30:35,385 --> 00:30:37,801 I can't eat too much of it at one time... 428 00:30:39,492 --> 00:30:40,873 'cause that gives me a tummy ache. 429 00:30:42,564 --> 00:30:44,532 And so I'm grabbing my bow, 430 00:30:44,635 --> 00:30:47,846 and I'm gonna go get some alternative sources of food 431 00:30:47,949 --> 00:30:49,571 so I don't have to eat this. 432 00:30:52,298 --> 00:30:53,368 Hello! 433 00:31:08,245 --> 00:31:09,902 Oh, my gosh. 434 00:31:12,111 --> 00:31:14,286 Snowshoe hare tracks. Oh, my gosh. 435 00:31:14,389 --> 00:31:16,357 There's a bit of movement. 436 00:31:24,952 --> 00:31:28,300 The problem is, I don't even know if I can pull my bow. 437 00:31:32,131 --> 00:31:33,546 Ah. 438 00:31:39,104 --> 00:31:40,484 All right. 439 00:31:45,593 --> 00:31:48,044 Don't cry. Don't cry. 440 00:31:48,147 --> 00:31:50,080 Stay positive. 441 00:32:04,888 --> 00:32:08,996 I'm just having a hard time. 442 00:32:09,099 --> 00:32:10,687 But I was starting to remember the layers 443 00:32:10,790 --> 00:32:13,207 of why I came out here. 444 00:32:13,310 --> 00:32:16,589 I'm dedicating my experience and my time 445 00:32:16,693 --> 00:32:19,006 for those people who want to be here 446 00:32:19,109 --> 00:32:21,491 and for whatever reason can't. 447 00:32:23,976 --> 00:32:28,843 I'm here for my dear friend, Collette, who has cancer, 448 00:32:28,947 --> 00:32:31,673 and she wants to live out her days in nature, 449 00:32:31,777 --> 00:32:33,917 and she can't. 450 00:32:34,021 --> 00:32:36,816 She asked me if I would dedicate my journey to her, 451 00:32:36,920 --> 00:32:39,750 and I was like, "Sure." 452 00:32:39,854 --> 00:32:42,512 And so I asked her, "Well, what happens 453 00:32:42,615 --> 00:32:44,859 if you leave before I get back?" 454 00:32:44,963 --> 00:32:47,137 And her answer was like, "My goal is to live 455 00:32:47,241 --> 00:32:49,795 long enough to watch you on TV." 456 00:32:49,898 --> 00:32:52,315 That's huge for somebody 457 00:32:52,418 --> 00:32:55,111 to say that to you. 458 00:32:55,214 --> 00:32:58,804 So she's inspiring me at the same time 459 00:32:58,907 --> 00:33:02,221 to keep going, to keep living out here. 460 00:33:03,982 --> 00:33:07,709 You know, if she can stomach the radiation 461 00:33:07,813 --> 00:33:11,196 and the chemotherapy and all the crap 462 00:33:11,299 --> 00:33:13,819 that she has to go through to live, 463 00:33:13,922 --> 00:33:16,822 I can stomach this fruit leather, you know? 464 00:33:19,031 --> 00:33:20,653 So here's to you, Collette. 465 00:33:22,552 --> 00:33:27,419 Thank you for inspiring me and keeping me going, 466 00:33:27,522 --> 00:33:29,697 and I hope I'm keeping you going. 467 00:33:36,566 --> 00:33:38,775 I'm feeling it. 468 00:33:38,878 --> 00:33:40,708 Feeling it right now. 469 00:34:02,626 --> 00:34:05,008 I really hope so. 470 00:34:05,112 --> 00:34:07,976 I hope it's a polar bear, man. 471 00:34:08,080 --> 00:34:11,325 I hope so. I see some stuff in the distance. 472 00:34:11,428 --> 00:34:14,845 , I hope so, man. 473 00:34:14,949 --> 00:34:17,883 Ah. See? 474 00:34:17,986 --> 00:34:20,748 I've never seen a polar bear up close, 475 00:34:20,851 --> 00:34:22,819 but it's not up close. 476 00:34:22,922 --> 00:34:24,407 It's so far away. 477 00:34:27,548 --> 00:34:29,826 That's not it. 478 00:34:29,929 --> 00:34:31,414 Where are you? 479 00:34:36,522 --> 00:34:38,041 Are you serious? 480 00:34:39,905 --> 00:34:41,665 You know what, it's the second time 481 00:34:41,769 --> 00:34:43,184 this happens to me. 482 00:34:43,288 --> 00:34:45,876 It happened to me on another trip. 483 00:34:45,980 --> 00:34:48,465 I think I see polar bears. 484 00:34:51,710 --> 00:34:52,711 Nope. 485 00:34:55,162 --> 00:34:57,336 I wish it had been a polar bear. 486 00:34:59,476 --> 00:35:01,099 Would have been the fricking highlight 487 00:35:01,202 --> 00:35:02,859 of my challenge, for sure. 488 00:35:25,019 --> 00:35:27,504 I'm gonna go get some alder 489 00:35:27,608 --> 00:35:31,922 so that I can make some snow skis, 490 00:35:32,026 --> 00:35:34,787 and the only alder that I see that's not, like, 491 00:35:34,891 --> 00:35:38,205 totally collapsed over is this little group 492 00:35:38,308 --> 00:35:40,828 right back there. 493 00:35:40,931 --> 00:35:43,486 I really wanna go tracking in this fresh new snow, 494 00:35:43,589 --> 00:35:46,074 find some snowshoe hares, find some food, 495 00:35:46,178 --> 00:35:48,974 so I'm gonna make some snow skis 496 00:35:49,077 --> 00:35:50,631 so I can stay on top of the snow. 497 00:35:52,943 --> 00:35:55,187 Here's a third of the load. 498 00:35:55,291 --> 00:35:56,188 It's not so heavy. 499 00:35:56,292 --> 00:35:58,811 It's just hard getting up there. 500 00:36:02,229 --> 00:36:04,852 So I've been just questioning of where I'm at. 501 00:36:04,955 --> 00:36:07,372 Like, am I done? 502 00:36:07,475 --> 00:36:10,098 How far do I want to push my body? 503 00:36:10,202 --> 00:36:11,514 I don't feel like I'm done, 504 00:36:11,617 --> 00:36:13,101 but I feel like I'm close, 505 00:36:13,205 --> 00:36:15,034 like it's the beginning of the end. 506 00:36:16,795 --> 00:36:19,107 So I've got a decision to make. 507 00:36:19,211 --> 00:36:22,076 Am I just gonna hunker down and conserve my energy 508 00:36:22,180 --> 00:36:24,837 and live out my days until I'm done? 509 00:36:24,941 --> 00:36:27,944 Or I can push myself 510 00:36:28,047 --> 00:36:30,602 and go out and get food. 511 00:36:30,705 --> 00:36:32,845 OK, oh, my gosh. 512 00:36:32,949 --> 00:36:35,434 I think that's it. Whew. 513 00:36:35,538 --> 00:36:37,367 My fingertips are cold. 514 00:36:39,162 --> 00:36:43,822 So I think I am going to-- whew-- 515 00:36:43,925 --> 00:36:45,858 start a fire, 516 00:36:45,962 --> 00:36:49,483 and I'll sit in my doorway 517 00:36:49,586 --> 00:36:53,625 and peel the bark off, keep my hands warm. 518 00:36:53,728 --> 00:36:56,283 I'm gonna make some skis and venture out 519 00:36:56,386 --> 00:36:58,112 and just do what I can do. 520 00:36:58,216 --> 00:37:01,219 My body will tell me when I'm done. 521 00:37:07,570 --> 00:37:09,917 - Nothing like straight ice cold water 522 00:37:10,020 --> 00:37:11,643 to start your day. 523 00:37:13,990 --> 00:37:16,820 Seriously, like, now, my body and my mind 524 00:37:16,924 --> 00:37:20,893 is just like, "Yeah, just another day at the office." 525 00:37:22,688 --> 00:37:23,620 Man. 526 00:37:23,724 --> 00:37:25,519 This is my life now. 527 00:37:27,106 --> 00:37:31,421 I get water, and then I do nothing. 528 00:37:33,285 --> 00:37:36,495 I think I'm on a sustainable path, 529 00:37:36,599 --> 00:37:40,810 but at night, you can really feel the hunger pangs. 530 00:37:49,853 --> 00:37:51,338 - It's just cold today, 531 00:37:51,441 --> 00:37:53,616 and I am having trouble staying warm, 532 00:37:53,719 --> 00:37:57,758 but I have decided that I'm back in the game. 533 00:37:57,861 --> 00:38:00,795 I am not thinking about tapping out. 534 00:38:02,383 --> 00:38:04,040 I have recommitted myself. 535 00:38:04,143 --> 00:38:06,629 I hope to have these skis done tomorrow. 536 00:38:06,732 --> 00:38:09,045 Gonna go tracking, see what I can find. 537 00:38:09,148 --> 00:38:11,599 So glad I came to my senses. 538 00:38:11,703 --> 00:38:14,292 You know, I wanna stay out here and rough it. 539 00:38:18,986 --> 00:38:20,539 That's what I came here to do. 540 00:38:25,095 --> 00:38:29,134 - Oh, my back. I'm like an old man. 541 00:38:29,237 --> 00:38:32,137 Too much standing up, too much blah, blah, blah. 542 00:38:33,794 --> 00:38:36,003 Oh. 543 00:38:36,106 --> 00:38:38,419 Going out. 544 00:38:38,523 --> 00:38:41,042 I'm being sloppy. 545 00:38:42,941 --> 00:38:44,252 I can't let that go out 546 00:38:44,356 --> 00:38:47,221 because I worked so hard for it. 547 00:38:48,947 --> 00:38:52,502 It's freezing, and trying to sustain a fire all the time, 548 00:38:52,606 --> 00:38:57,335 all that effort has been quite a drain. 549 00:38:57,438 --> 00:38:59,958 Ehh. Wow. 550 00:39:00,061 --> 00:39:02,547 That was so freaking close, man. 551 00:39:04,134 --> 00:39:07,552 I need to focus. 552 00:39:15,007 --> 00:39:18,977 Oh, um-- 553 00:39:19,080 --> 00:39:22,325 Yeah, I'm tired. I'm tired today. 554 00:39:22,429 --> 00:39:25,811 I may--may make some tea and go back to bed. 555 00:39:27,019 --> 00:39:29,919 And that's OK. It's OK. 556 00:39:30,022 --> 00:39:31,507 Got time. 557 00:39:34,406 --> 00:39:36,512 - Definitely reached the part of my journey 558 00:39:36,615 --> 00:39:37,996 when I'm just, like, a little bit 559 00:39:38,099 --> 00:39:40,826 ooh, hoo, hoo. 560 00:39:40,930 --> 00:39:42,483 Cuckoo. 561 00:39:43,898 --> 00:39:47,350 I don't really give a about anything. 562 00:39:49,766 --> 00:39:53,045 Cuckoo. Cuckoo. 563 00:39:56,704 --> 00:39:59,086 , I'm going crazy. 564 00:40:03,539 --> 00:40:05,575 - So I didn't get much done on the skis. 565 00:40:05,679 --> 00:40:07,888 That takes energy. 566 00:40:07,991 --> 00:40:10,304 I think I'm gonna take today moment by moment. 567 00:40:13,756 --> 00:40:14,653 Yeah. 568 00:40:21,660 --> 00:40:24,422 - I'm prepared for full starvation, so... 569 00:40:29,219 --> 00:40:31,843 I still feel that there's a long time to go. 570 00:40:36,434 --> 00:40:38,746 I'm afraid that my body will deteriorate 571 00:40:38,850 --> 00:40:41,818 without vitamins and minerals. 572 00:40:45,132 --> 00:40:47,617 - Oh, ow, ow, ow. 573 00:40:47,721 --> 00:40:50,655 Every joint in my body hurts. 574 00:40:53,002 --> 00:40:56,315 Oh, been tossing and turning all night. 575 00:40:58,663 --> 00:40:59,974 There's just not enough fat 576 00:41:00,078 --> 00:41:02,667 on my body to cushion the joints. 577 00:41:07,741 --> 00:41:11,227 I'm not down for the count yet. 578 00:41:11,330 --> 00:41:12,573 I'll feel better. 579 00:41:19,269 --> 00:41:22,031 - What--why am I even recording? 580 00:41:22,134 --> 00:41:23,204 It's, like... 581 00:41:25,828 --> 00:41:30,418 15 at night. 582 00:41:30,522 --> 00:41:32,144 Just go to bed. 583 00:41:34,871 --> 00:41:36,873 What am I doing with my life? 584 00:41:39,911 --> 00:41:42,603 - No, it's not nighttime yet, 585 00:41:42,707 --> 00:41:44,398 but I'm in my shelter. 586 00:41:45,537 --> 00:41:46,883 Having trouble staying warm, 587 00:41:46,987 --> 00:41:50,300 and mostly because I'm just not very active today. 588 00:41:50,404 --> 00:41:52,613 Today's been kind of a down day. 589 00:42:29,788 --> 00:42:32,377 - Oh, there's a mouse there. 590 00:42:38,590 --> 00:42:40,799 Oh, guacamole. 591 00:42:42,629 --> 00:42:44,976 , that's funny. 592 00:42:46,598 --> 00:42:49,843 I am lower in weight, and I haven't been eating, 593 00:42:49,946 --> 00:42:52,811 so I'm sure my blood pressure is low. 594 00:42:54,572 --> 00:42:57,022 This has been an ordeal, but at the same time, 595 00:42:57,126 --> 00:43:01,544 it's such a blur, man, such a blur. 596 00:43:03,719 --> 00:43:06,549 So I'm kind of thinking that I should go for a walk 597 00:43:06,653 --> 00:43:09,034 because I haven't had a walk for a long time. 598 00:43:11,796 --> 00:43:15,282 After that, I think I'm gonna be mentally much better. 599 00:43:18,906 --> 00:43:21,875 I really wanna walk over the ice. 600 00:43:23,221 --> 00:43:25,603 I waited so long for this moment. 601 00:43:35,440 --> 00:43:39,617 And ever since day zero, I wanted to go on the ice. 602 00:43:41,273 --> 00:43:43,931 It's just like a mental liberation of, like, 603 00:43:44,035 --> 00:43:47,625 now that there's ice, I feel that I have legs again 604 00:43:47,728 --> 00:43:52,181 because when you have ice, walking is so easy. 605 00:43:56,288 --> 00:43:59,050 This is the neat thing about having an ice chisel 606 00:43:59,153 --> 00:44:02,191 like this, is can go walk. 607 00:44:02,294 --> 00:44:05,608 And then you just... 608 00:44:05,712 --> 00:44:08,024 push like that, and if the ice 609 00:44:08,128 --> 00:44:12,926 was thin, very thin, 610 00:44:13,029 --> 00:44:14,444 just the likelihood 611 00:44:14,548 --> 00:44:17,275 that you would feel something. 612 00:44:17,378 --> 00:44:20,243 This is a natural way to be 613 00:44:20,347 --> 00:44:22,383 in the wilderness on the ice. 614 00:44:32,462 --> 00:44:34,499 I'm so emotional lately. 615 00:44:40,988 --> 00:44:44,336 It's probably so many things... 616 00:44:45,510 --> 00:44:48,133 Starving... 617 00:44:48,237 --> 00:44:49,617 being without people. 618 00:44:52,344 --> 00:44:54,933 I just keep thinking, 619 00:44:55,037 --> 00:44:58,109 "I'm so thankful for Jennifer." 620 00:44:59,593 --> 00:45:01,871 Being in survival mode amplifies 621 00:45:01,975 --> 00:45:05,219 the need for family and friends 622 00:45:05,323 --> 00:45:07,152 and the importance of that. 623 00:45:08,429 --> 00:45:11,881 I think I'm gonna propose after I get back. 624 00:45:11,985 --> 00:45:13,572 I think it's time. 625 00:45:49,125 --> 00:45:50,126 - Whew. 626 00:45:55,994 --> 00:45:59,066 It is a blanket of snow. 627 00:45:59,170 --> 00:46:01,655 Oh, my gosh. 628 00:46:01,759 --> 00:46:03,036 Whoa. 629 00:46:04,451 --> 00:46:05,866 Crazy. 630 00:46:05,970 --> 00:46:07,972 And it's blistery cold. 631 00:46:13,736 --> 00:46:15,738 Wow. 632 00:46:18,292 --> 00:46:20,087 Which is awesome. 633 00:46:20,191 --> 00:46:23,470 Look, there's a cornice. 634 00:46:23,573 --> 00:46:25,437 Wow, it was windy. 635 00:46:28,475 --> 00:46:30,788 And... 636 00:46:33,549 --> 00:46:34,895 My spirits are good. 637 00:46:34,999 --> 00:46:36,276 My body's tired. 638 00:46:37,656 --> 00:46:40,245 I didn't sleep half the night. 639 00:46:40,349 --> 00:46:41,902 I was feeling queasy. 640 00:46:42,006 --> 00:46:44,663 I'm actually feeling lightheaded right now. 641 00:46:44,767 --> 00:46:48,771 I can go look for animal tracks. 642 00:46:48,875 --> 00:46:50,462 It take so much energy, 643 00:46:50,566 --> 00:46:53,949 and my quads don't really wanna do much. 644 00:46:55,985 --> 00:46:58,919 Oh, I just all of a sudden wanna cry. 645 00:47:01,853 --> 00:47:03,682 I don't know where that came up all of a sudden. 646 00:47:09,792 --> 00:47:12,622 Guess I'll just be with it for a moment. 647 00:47:27,810 --> 00:47:29,674 Sorry. Here I go again. 648 00:47:37,889 --> 00:47:39,097 I'll be right back. 649 00:47:45,759 --> 00:47:47,243 So I set out... 650 00:47:50,557 --> 00:47:52,800 To do my dream. 651 00:47:52,904 --> 00:47:55,079 And it took me a lot to get here. 652 00:47:56,735 --> 00:47:59,117 I mean, years, years. 653 00:47:59,221 --> 00:48:02,672 But my dream isn't all about to be on the show. 654 00:48:02,776 --> 00:48:05,020 My dream is a lot deeper than that, 655 00:48:05,123 --> 00:48:08,644 and I wanted it to come to fruition 656 00:48:08,747 --> 00:48:12,027 and have that completion in my heart and completion 657 00:48:12,130 --> 00:48:15,478 in my being to say, 658 00:48:15,582 --> 00:48:21,001 "OK. It's OK. I've done it. 659 00:48:21,105 --> 00:48:24,177 And to-- 660 00:48:24,280 --> 00:48:25,972 Gosh darn it. 661 00:48:29,768 --> 00:48:32,392 Maybe I'm done today. 662 00:48:32,495 --> 00:48:35,084 No, I'm not done today. I'm not. 663 00:48:37,638 --> 00:48:38,881 Anyway, I'm... 664 00:48:41,746 --> 00:48:43,990 I'm close. 665 00:48:44,093 --> 00:48:47,027 And I'm still gonna stay here for a little while. 666 00:48:48,995 --> 00:48:51,514 So, wow. 667 00:48:54,586 --> 00:48:57,003 I was just gonna do a quick morning check-in. 668 00:48:57,106 --> 00:49:01,835 And I just spilled my guts out. 669 00:49:01,939 --> 00:49:05,011 Whew, OK, I'm going to get my fire going 670 00:49:05,114 --> 00:49:08,221 and drink some tea. 671 00:49:08,324 --> 00:49:09,532 Maybe I'll take a nap. 672 00:49:12,259 --> 00:49:13,605 Ohh. 673 00:49:17,333 --> 00:49:18,645 I love it here. 674 00:49:41,012 --> 00:49:43,290 - Oh, man. 675 00:49:43,394 --> 00:49:45,913 Last night, I had a dream where a friend of mine 676 00:49:46,017 --> 00:49:47,985 gave me this bowl of fruit. 677 00:49:48,088 --> 00:49:50,539 And lucidly woke up for a moment like, 678 00:49:50,642 --> 00:49:54,370 "No, no, no, go back and enjoy that fruit. 679 00:49:54,474 --> 00:49:57,132 "Just enjoy that. 680 00:49:57,235 --> 00:49:59,582 Enjoy it. It's OK." 681 00:49:59,686 --> 00:50:01,205 Then I realized, like, "Wow, 682 00:50:01,308 --> 00:50:03,414 I'm actually craving healthy food." 683 00:50:05,071 --> 00:50:07,280 I just wanna nurture my body back to health. 684 00:50:09,040 --> 00:50:11,629 I mean, here's my bow. 685 00:50:12,664 --> 00:50:14,011 And... 686 00:50:18,222 --> 00:50:20,983 I can't really kill anything like that. 687 00:50:21,087 --> 00:50:22,502 I can't even pull it. 688 00:50:22,605 --> 00:50:24,090 I can't even take an aim. 689 00:50:25,815 --> 00:50:28,611 And so I can't even get any food. 690 00:50:49,184 --> 00:50:51,151 It's just time to take care of myself. 691 00:50:58,986 --> 00:51:00,505 I'm going to. 692 00:51:03,715 --> 00:51:05,200 I know this is the right thing. 693 00:51:07,892 --> 00:51:11,344 OK, push it, Karie, push it. 694 00:51:11,447 --> 00:51:12,724 It's so hard. 695 00:51:22,389 --> 00:51:24,736 Hi, this is Karie Lee. 696 00:51:24,840 --> 00:51:29,534 I am officially tapping out. 697 00:51:39,303 --> 00:51:44,066 The last 2 and 1/2 months has been pretty amazing, 698 00:51:44,170 --> 00:51:45,309 and... 699 00:51:48,450 --> 00:51:51,280 I'm gonna remember it for the rest of my life. 700 00:51:57,562 --> 00:51:59,081 Ohh. 701 00:52:01,118 --> 00:52:04,707 I'm just so blessed by this land... 702 00:52:06,364 --> 00:52:08,125 And the fish that fed me, 703 00:52:08,228 --> 00:52:11,473 and the squirrels that fed me, and the muskrat, 704 00:52:11,576 --> 00:52:14,061 that was such a--such a gift. 705 00:52:19,929 --> 00:52:21,586 I can hear the helicopter coming. 706 00:52:29,974 --> 00:52:32,597 Oh, my God, my heart's just beating so fast. 707 00:52:37,602 --> 00:52:39,017 I get to go home. 708 00:52:49,131 --> 00:52:50,926 Hi. 709 00:52:51,029 --> 00:52:52,479 I'm just done. 710 00:52:52,583 --> 00:52:54,067 I know my body is done. 711 00:52:56,069 --> 00:52:57,795 It's a hard decision to leave. 712 00:52:59,383 --> 00:53:02,455 I did my dream here, and now, 713 00:53:02,558 --> 00:53:04,284 I'm ready for the next dream. 714 00:53:04,388 --> 00:53:06,700 It's time to step into that elderhood 715 00:53:06,804 --> 00:53:09,151 and just be there for the people that need me, 716 00:53:09,255 --> 00:53:12,810 my friends and my family. 717 00:53:17,677 --> 00:53:20,404 I wanted to have this experience 718 00:53:20,507 --> 00:53:22,440 of being perfectly comfortable 719 00:53:22,544 --> 00:53:25,098 in my shelter, warm, with a plate of food. 720 00:53:25,202 --> 00:53:26,893 So I asked myself, 721 00:53:26,996 --> 00:53:29,896 "Is this fulfilling my childhood dream?" 722 00:53:29,999 --> 00:53:33,831 And the answer is yes. 723 00:53:33,934 --> 00:53:35,798 But this experience, I feel, 724 00:53:35,902 --> 00:53:38,422 has been a rite of passage. 725 00:53:38,525 --> 00:53:41,494 I've been really resisting this elderhood, 726 00:53:41,597 --> 00:53:44,738 and now, I feel like I'm ready to accept 727 00:53:44,842 --> 00:53:47,465 the fact that I am an elder. 728 00:53:49,295 --> 00:53:52,125 And I feel I have a lot to share. 729 00:53:52,229 --> 00:53:55,335 I feel like I'm ready to use my voice. 730 00:53:55,439 --> 00:53:58,131 So I don't feel like I lost. 731 00:53:58,235 --> 00:54:01,099 I may not be rich financially, but I feel like 732 00:54:01,203 --> 00:54:03,826 I'm coming home with a lot of wisdom. 733 00:54:38,309 --> 00:54:41,899 - My body right now is asking for a day of full recovery 734 00:54:42,002 --> 00:54:44,142 of just sleep. 735 00:54:45,937 --> 00:54:49,044 You don't even have to go for water. 736 00:54:49,147 --> 00:54:51,253 Get dehydrated for a bit. 737 00:54:51,357 --> 00:54:53,359 It's fine. 738 00:54:53,462 --> 00:54:56,672 So I think I'm gonna sleep in a little bit right now. 739 00:55:14,759 --> 00:55:17,590 Would be the day that I'm dehydrated, man. 740 00:55:17,693 --> 00:55:21,283 . Seriously. 741 00:55:21,387 --> 00:55:25,494 , right before the med check. 742 00:55:25,598 --> 00:55:29,153 Well, my blood is gonna pump pretty fast now. 743 00:55:29,256 --> 00:55:31,397 going down. 744 00:55:31,500 --> 00:55:33,675 Medcheck in one hour. 745 00:55:33,778 --> 00:55:36,471 OK, let's rumble. 746 00:55:36,574 --> 00:55:40,233 . 747 00:55:40,337 --> 00:55:42,028 OK, hydrate. 748 00:55:44,306 --> 00:55:45,859 Ah. 749 00:55:45,963 --> 00:55:47,585 This water is hard to drink. 750 00:55:49,104 --> 00:55:50,899 Gonna make a fire. 751 00:55:51,002 --> 00:55:53,936 If I can warm water, I can drink it fricking fast. 752 00:56:01,047 --> 00:56:04,809 I can get a fire going in no time if I need to. 753 00:56:11,954 --> 00:56:14,232 Well, here's the chopper. 754 00:56:19,721 --> 00:56:22,724 I think I've downed how much? 755 00:56:22,827 --> 00:56:24,001 Three liters? 756 00:56:36,185 --> 00:56:39,050 When you're walking on this thin line, 757 00:56:39,154 --> 00:56:42,951 you need to be fully engaged for the experience. 758 00:56:45,022 --> 00:56:48,232 And if you're not, you're not gonna match the struggle. 759 00:56:49,958 --> 00:56:54,480 This point is beautiful because you're so present. 760 00:56:54,583 --> 00:56:56,758 You don't even have a concept of time. 761 00:56:59,277 --> 00:57:02,522 I can't let them pull me out. 762 00:57:02,626 --> 00:57:04,317 - Juan Pablo, how are you feeling 763 00:57:04,421 --> 00:57:05,836 since the last time we saw you? 764 00:57:05,939 --> 00:57:08,977 - I'm so engaged with the situation. 765 00:57:09,080 --> 00:57:12,325 Like, these wintry scenes are so... 766 00:57:15,017 --> 00:57:18,435 They're so similar to where I live with my partner. 767 00:57:19,850 --> 00:57:22,231 I've started to feel like home, 768 00:57:22,335 --> 00:57:24,717 and with the ice, 769 00:57:24,820 --> 00:57:27,754 I just walked and I enjoyed the view 770 00:57:27,858 --> 00:57:30,447 from a different perspective that I hadn't had. 771 00:57:30,550 --> 00:57:34,105 I just thought of my partner 772 00:57:34,209 --> 00:57:36,314 and got a little bit emotional. 773 00:57:40,698 --> 00:57:42,493 Just that I was waiting so long... 774 00:57:46,601 --> 00:57:48,223 To go on the ice. 775 00:57:56,576 --> 00:58:00,649 Since that--since day zero, I've had this plan of, like, 776 00:58:00,753 --> 00:58:04,342 I'm gonna go on the ice... 777 00:58:04,446 --> 00:58:06,552 and-- 778 00:58:08,139 --> 00:58:09,209 - You won! 779 00:58:36,202 --> 00:58:39,516 - It's just-- it's hitting me slowly. 780 00:58:39,619 --> 00:58:40,758 - Like-- 781 00:58:40,862 --> 00:58:43,520 - Yeah. - Thank you. 782 00:58:52,045 --> 00:58:54,323 - I'm so glad they brought you! - I know! 783 00:58:57,085 --> 00:58:58,707 - I look what? - You look good. 784 00:59:00,191 --> 00:59:02,090 - Thanks. 785 00:59:02,193 --> 00:59:03,781 I'm so glad you're here. 786 00:59:07,613 --> 00:59:11,651 We can go see some polar bears. - You saw a polar bear? 787 00:59:11,755 --> 00:59:14,343 - I thought I saw one, just like on our canoe trip. 788 00:59:14,447 --> 00:59:16,725 - Oh, my gosh. - Like, it was the same thing. 789 00:59:16,829 --> 00:59:19,417 - Oh, no. - Seriously. 790 00:59:19,521 --> 00:59:21,661 - I can't believe you did this. 791 00:59:21,765 --> 00:59:24,388 You're amazing. - Thank you. 792 00:59:24,491 --> 00:59:26,873 - And it's so beautiful here. 793 00:59:26,977 --> 00:59:29,151 - Yeah, it is beautiful. 794 00:59:29,255 --> 00:59:30,843 Do you wanna see my shelter? 795 00:59:30,946 --> 00:59:33,915 - Yeah, yeah. - Let's go. 796 00:59:34,018 --> 00:59:35,399 - Oh, wow. 797 00:59:35,502 --> 00:59:37,159 This is so nice. 798 00:59:39,334 --> 00:59:41,957 - When you're isolated, all this longing 799 00:59:42,061 --> 00:59:43,614 for your family and your friends 800 00:59:43,718 --> 00:59:46,583 just intensifies so much. 801 00:59:46,686 --> 00:59:49,758 It was hard to turn that off. 802 00:59:49,862 --> 00:59:52,934 It's not super cozy. - Yeah, it is. 803 00:59:53,037 --> 00:59:56,627 - Well, spend, like, 70 something days in here, 804 00:59:56,731 --> 00:59:59,423 and you'll see that it's not that comfy. 805 01:00:02,184 --> 01:00:05,429 I just feel so happy that Jennifer is here. 806 01:00:09,778 --> 01:00:12,470 - Such an amazing day. 807 01:00:15,508 --> 01:00:18,822 I still cannot believe I won half a million dollars. 808 01:00:20,789 --> 01:00:22,308 I am so excited. 809 01:00:22,411 --> 01:00:25,863 We can fulfill our dreams. 810 01:00:25,967 --> 01:00:28,417 It feels so liberating. 811 01:00:31,593 --> 01:00:34,527 Jennifer is an amazing person. 812 01:00:34,631 --> 01:00:37,081 She's everything to me. 813 01:00:37,185 --> 01:00:39,325 I don't know when I'm gonna propose to her, 814 01:00:39,428 --> 01:00:41,016 but I need to plan something 815 01:00:41,120 --> 01:00:43,363 that will make her feel special. 816 01:00:45,849 --> 01:00:47,989 This was my goal, right? - Mm-hmm. 817 01:00:48,092 --> 01:00:50,888 - Every day, I mark to here. 818 01:00:50,992 --> 01:00:53,097 This was very important, I think... 819 01:00:55,272 --> 01:00:57,723 For my mind... 820 01:00:57,826 --> 01:00:59,725 just to see the progress. - Mm-hmm. 821 01:01:01,899 --> 01:01:05,558 - I was prepared to just... 822 01:01:05,662 --> 01:01:08,457 go for it, no matter what, you know? 823 01:01:08,561 --> 01:01:10,563 - Mm-hmm. 824 01:01:10,667 --> 01:01:13,773 - I feel that many people nowadays 825 01:01:13,877 --> 01:01:16,396 need more resilience. 826 01:01:16,500 --> 01:01:18,605 I take it as a personal mission 827 01:01:18,709 --> 01:01:20,228 to be resilient. 828 01:01:20,331 --> 01:01:22,057 There was a lot of heart 829 01:01:22,161 --> 01:01:25,992 that I put into this, a lot of heart. 830 01:01:26,096 --> 01:01:28,926 I'm just a survival nerd, you know? 831 01:01:30,756 --> 01:01:32,999 My biggest takeaway from this experience 832 01:01:33,103 --> 01:01:36,865 is that your soul matters, 833 01:01:36,969 --> 01:01:40,420 having a strong mission in life matters, 834 01:01:40,524 --> 01:01:43,734 and that your life experience really matters. 835 01:01:45,563 --> 01:01:47,945 78 days is something I can be proud of. 836 01:01:49,464 --> 01:01:53,640 I just feel like I've achieved something 837 01:01:53,744 --> 01:01:57,230 that I worked so hard to achieve. 838 01:01:59,923 --> 01:02:02,995 It feels really good to break barriers 839 01:02:03,098 --> 01:02:06,274 and be the first Latino to win "Alone". 840 01:02:07,862 --> 01:02:10,657 It's awesome that it doesn't matter 841 01:02:10,761 --> 01:02:15,593 where you come from, as long as you are passionate enough. 842 01:02:15,697 --> 01:02:19,425 You can be better than anyone else 843 01:02:19,528 --> 01:02:21,945 if you are obsessed like I am. 844 01:02:25,327 --> 01:02:28,054 It's not easy, but it's possible. 845 01:02:41,758 --> 01:02:45,382 - I'll give you that last 10%. 846 01:02:45,485 --> 01:02:47,625 I'll show you how I'm gonna do it. 847 01:02:48,765 --> 01:02:51,284 Gonna walk out tall, proud, 848 01:02:51,388 --> 01:02:54,701 and walk out whole. 849 01:02:54,805 --> 01:02:57,843 I have thought about family for a long time. 850 01:02:57,946 --> 01:03:00,086 My grandfather would understand 851 01:03:00,190 --> 01:03:02,468 so many things about this; 852 01:03:02,571 --> 01:03:04,815 the hunger, the self-doubt, 853 01:03:04,919 --> 01:03:07,714 and the unexpected successes. 854 01:03:09,475 --> 01:03:11,511 We gotta put the flag on this. 855 01:03:11,615 --> 01:03:14,066 My grandfather has experienced civil war. 856 01:03:14,169 --> 01:03:18,346 He's known starvation at a young, young age. 857 01:03:18,449 --> 01:03:21,314 Sled to get me out of here. 858 01:03:21,418 --> 01:03:25,077 I understand a lot of what he does on a daily basis 859 01:03:25,180 --> 01:03:26,354 a lot better. 860 01:03:26,457 --> 01:03:27,665 Let's see. 861 01:03:27,769 --> 01:03:29,875 The moments that he's just staring off, 862 01:03:29,978 --> 01:03:33,257 and I understand his relationship with food now. 863 01:03:35,708 --> 01:03:37,675 Let's go home proud. 864 01:03:37,779 --> 01:03:39,436 Let's go home strong. 865 01:03:45,028 --> 01:03:48,065 One last push, baby. 866 01:03:49,791 --> 01:03:51,758 Let's go! 867 01:03:54,761 --> 01:03:58,420 Let's go home walking on our own two feet. 868 01:03:59,870 --> 01:04:01,596 Yeah. 869 01:04:01,699 --> 01:04:03,460 I've already won. 870 01:04:03,563 --> 01:04:05,117 That's how this feels. 871 01:04:05,220 --> 01:04:06,912 It's working. 872 01:04:12,262 --> 01:04:13,539 Fight for your happiness. 873 01:04:13,642 --> 01:04:15,196 Fight for your passions. 874 01:04:15,299 --> 01:04:17,163 Fight for someone you love. 875 01:04:17,267 --> 01:04:18,993 It'll always be worth it. 876 01:04:19,096 --> 01:04:21,478 Fill your heart 877 01:04:21,581 --> 01:04:23,411 with strength 878 01:04:23,514 --> 01:04:25,378 and joy 879 01:04:25,482 --> 01:04:27,173 and peace! 880 01:04:41,670 --> 01:04:45,605 This whole challenge was nothing like I expected. 881 01:04:45,709 --> 01:04:47,193 I dropped... 882 01:04:47,297 --> 01:04:50,127 and everything changed. 883 01:04:50,231 --> 01:04:52,923 The reason why I was here changed, 884 01:04:53,027 --> 01:04:57,824 and having a deeper purpose, that meant the world to me. 885 01:04:57,928 --> 01:05:01,552 And I think my relationships with everyone in my life 886 01:05:01,656 --> 01:05:04,452 is just different now. 887 01:05:04,555 --> 01:05:06,178 - We have something for you. 888 01:05:06,281 --> 01:05:07,834 - Oh, my God. 889 01:05:09,215 --> 01:05:10,354 Thank you. 890 01:05:13,288 --> 01:05:14,980 Oh, thank you. 891 01:05:21,469 --> 01:05:23,643 - Oh, that salty goodness. 892 01:05:28,925 --> 01:05:30,271 I'll miss the freedom, 893 01:05:30,374 --> 01:05:32,652 the infinite lessons, 894 01:05:32,756 --> 01:05:36,656 and just the joy of 895 01:05:36,760 --> 01:05:40,074 finding happiness in the smallest things, 896 01:05:40,177 --> 01:05:42,697 whether it's a fish the size of your hand, 897 01:05:42,800 --> 01:05:44,354 or... 898 01:05:44,457 --> 01:05:46,770 just the right snowfall, 899 01:05:46,873 --> 01:05:49,842 or a squirrel. 900 01:05:53,673 --> 01:05:57,436 I've been out here for 63 days and... 901 01:05:57,539 --> 01:06:01,716 received so much more than I gave. 902 01:06:01,819 --> 01:06:03,545 I just feel so lucky 903 01:06:03,649 --> 01:06:05,685 to have done this experience 904 01:06:05,789 --> 01:06:08,826 and to have... 905 01:06:08,930 --> 01:06:14,073 had no input in how it was gonna pan out. 906 01:06:14,177 --> 01:06:17,283 And have it pan out like this? 907 01:06:17,387 --> 01:06:22,357 I have such clarity in who I am, 908 01:06:22,461 --> 01:06:24,635 what I'm meant to do in this Earth. 909 01:06:26,223 --> 01:06:30,089 And who I want by my side. 910 01:06:30,193 --> 01:06:32,989 After this, 911 01:06:33,092 --> 01:06:35,094 I think I'm just gonna be 912 01:06:35,198 --> 01:06:39,857 just so much more open about every little thing. 913 01:06:39,961 --> 01:06:42,688 I think my relationships are gonna be deeper, 914 01:06:42,791 --> 01:06:46,899 profound, and... 915 01:06:47,003 --> 01:06:48,832 my mission clear. 916 01:06:48,935 --> 01:06:51,283 So... 917 01:06:51,386 --> 01:06:53,009 let's change the world, just a little bit. 918 01:07:04,675 --> 01:07:07,575 - My body's not producing a lot of heat. 919 01:07:07,678 --> 01:07:10,164 I've lost a lot of weight. 920 01:07:10,267 --> 01:07:12,649 My body's done... 921 01:07:13,995 --> 01:07:16,135 And I've given it all I can. 922 01:07:16,239 --> 01:07:19,725 So I might as well move on and take care of myself. 923 01:07:25,662 --> 01:07:28,354 You know, I promised myself before I left, 924 01:07:28,458 --> 01:07:30,149 because I'm older, 925 01:07:30,253 --> 01:07:33,497 that I didn't need to push myself to the extremes 926 01:07:33,601 --> 01:07:36,293 that some younger people might do and... 927 01:07:39,124 --> 01:07:40,780 And so it's painful. 928 01:07:40,884 --> 01:07:42,644 Like, I can't even really go hunting 929 01:07:42,748 --> 01:07:45,889 so getting food is just not really an option. 930 01:07:45,992 --> 01:07:48,478 And I'm just starving myself more 931 01:07:48,581 --> 01:07:52,240 and depleting my body more for no reason. 932 01:07:52,344 --> 01:07:55,554 I mean, yeah, it gets me a few more days on the-- 933 01:07:55,657 --> 01:07:57,694 the check card. 934 01:07:57,797 --> 01:08:00,076 On the game board. 935 01:08:00,179 --> 01:08:04,873 But I just don't wanna do that to my body anymore. 936 01:08:04,977 --> 01:08:05,874 You know? 937 01:08:07,462 --> 01:08:08,670 This place here? 938 01:08:08,774 --> 01:08:10,500 Oh, my God. 939 01:08:16,954 --> 01:08:19,785 It's been my home for the last two and a half months. 940 01:08:24,617 --> 01:08:26,723 I'm so grateful from the bottom of my heart 941 01:08:26,826 --> 01:08:28,449 for everything that I've learned here 942 01:08:28,552 --> 01:08:30,692 and everything I've received. 943 01:08:33,109 --> 01:08:35,180 All the blessings, just-- 944 01:08:35,283 --> 01:08:37,872 thank you, thank you, thank you. 945 01:08:37,975 --> 01:08:39,770 Need to take my mittens off. 946 01:08:42,670 --> 01:08:45,431 Aww, thank you. 947 01:08:45,535 --> 01:08:48,503 My hands are numb. 948 01:08:48,607 --> 01:08:50,816 I've been dreaming about this for days. 949 01:08:50,919 --> 01:08:52,576 Oh, gosh. 950 01:08:54,647 --> 01:08:56,201 Mmm! 951 01:08:56,304 --> 01:08:58,341 Oh, my God. 952 01:09:06,625 --> 01:09:08,730 It's hard for me to let go. 953 01:09:09,904 --> 01:09:12,665 'Cause this is my home. 954 01:09:12,769 --> 01:09:17,429 I just absolutely love it here and I don't want to go, 955 01:09:17,532 --> 01:09:19,085 but I know I need to. 956 01:09:22,261 --> 01:09:26,127 And this journey, it gave me confidence 957 01:09:26,231 --> 01:09:30,718 because wilderness survival is not just about the skills; 958 01:09:30,821 --> 01:09:35,757 it's about the attitude, the positive mindset. 959 01:09:35,861 --> 01:09:39,796 Being in a place of gratitude, it felt like I was being 960 01:09:39,899 --> 01:09:41,694 nurtured and held out there with the land 961 01:09:41,798 --> 01:09:44,283 and I feel that was a big part of why, 962 01:09:44,387 --> 01:09:45,940 even though my body's tired, 963 01:09:46,043 --> 01:09:49,564 my energy level was pretty high most of the time. 964 01:09:51,325 --> 01:09:54,983 So I don't feel disappointed or embarrassed 965 01:09:55,087 --> 01:09:57,814 or that it's a failure 966 01:09:57,917 --> 01:10:01,300 because it was an experiment. 967 01:10:03,095 --> 01:10:04,717 And that's part of why I wanted to see 968 01:10:04,821 --> 01:10:06,478 how deep I could go 969 01:10:06,581 --> 01:10:09,377 because I wanna turn around and share that experience 970 01:10:09,481 --> 01:10:11,862 of what I learned out there. 971 01:10:13,657 --> 01:10:17,834 When I get home, I am going to take it easy 972 01:10:17,937 --> 01:10:20,802 and I really want to spend my evenings 973 01:10:20,906 --> 01:10:23,633 having dinner with my friends, 974 01:10:23,736 --> 01:10:26,222 and not isolate myself so much. 975 01:10:26,325 --> 01:10:29,017 I'm ready to move on 976 01:10:29,121 --> 01:10:30,916 to the next adventure of my life. 977 01:10:42,755 --> 01:10:46,966 - With the ice, I just walked and enjoy the view. 978 01:10:47,070 --> 01:10:49,866 I--I just thought of my partner 979 01:10:49,969 --> 01:10:53,318 and got a little bit emotional. 980 01:10:53,421 --> 01:10:57,667 Just that, since day zero, I had this plan of, like, 981 01:10:57,770 --> 01:11:01,360 I'm gonna go in the ice... 982 01:11:01,464 --> 01:11:03,776 and... 983 01:11:12,440 --> 01:11:13,614 - Baby. 984 01:11:15,823 --> 01:11:17,894 I'm so glad they brought you! 985 01:11:23,865 --> 01:11:25,695 - You're amazing. 986 01:11:25,798 --> 01:11:26,972 - Thank you. 987 01:11:29,595 --> 01:11:30,838 - I know. It's just, like-- 988 01:11:30,941 --> 01:11:34,013 it's hitting me slowly, OK? 989 01:11:34,117 --> 01:11:36,775 Like, it's a shock. It's great. 990 01:11:36,878 --> 01:11:38,673 - Your shelter looks awesome. - Yeah, I want to-- 991 01:11:38,777 --> 01:11:41,745 I want to show you my shelter so bad. 992 01:11:42,884 --> 01:11:44,817 - And it's so beautiful here. 993 01:11:44,921 --> 01:11:47,199 - Yeah, it is beautiful. 994 01:11:47,303 --> 01:11:48,959 - This is so nice. 995 01:11:51,928 --> 01:11:55,000 - I'm so glad to show her my shelter and just, like, 996 01:11:55,103 --> 01:11:59,384 to show her where I spent, like, 70-plus days. 997 01:11:59,487 --> 01:12:01,869 By the way, we never speak in English-- 998 01:12:01,972 --> 01:12:04,147 - So it's a bit odd. 999 01:12:07,668 --> 01:12:08,703 - Wow, that's so cool. 1000 01:12:08,807 --> 01:12:10,740 - So see how it fits there? 1001 01:12:10,843 --> 01:12:13,190 And then this is the door. 1002 01:12:13,294 --> 01:12:14,951 - Wow. 1003 01:12:15,054 --> 01:12:17,367 - And then, yeah, these are all cans. 1004 01:12:17,471 --> 01:12:19,921 And this is a can over here too. 1005 01:12:20,025 --> 01:12:21,544 - Oh, my gosh. 1006 01:12:21,647 --> 01:12:24,512 - I just feel so happy that Jennifer is here. 1007 01:12:29,483 --> 01:12:31,416 - Such an amazing day. 1008 01:12:34,315 --> 01:12:35,903 We can go on the ice. 1009 01:12:36,006 --> 01:12:38,561 - Yeah, let's go. 1010 01:12:38,664 --> 01:12:40,804 - It's slowly sinking in. 1011 01:12:40,908 --> 01:12:45,257 I still cannot believe I won half a million dollars. 1012 01:12:45,361 --> 01:12:47,017 It's kind of nice to show the world 1013 01:12:47,121 --> 01:12:48,709 that I'm freaking tough. 1014 01:12:50,642 --> 01:12:52,091 - No. - No? 1015 01:12:52,195 --> 01:12:54,818 - I drank three liters in one hour. 1016 01:12:56,579 --> 01:12:58,581 - Oh. No, it's fine. 1017 01:12:58,684 --> 01:12:59,789 - Not right now. I'm good. 1018 01:12:59,892 --> 01:13:01,446 - OK. 1019 01:13:01,549 --> 01:13:03,655 - Like, I'm good. 1020 01:13:06,071 --> 01:13:07,452 Let's go on the ice. 1021 01:13:08,763 --> 01:13:10,903 I'm the first Latino to win "Alone." 1022 01:13:11,007 --> 01:13:12,388 It feels good. 1023 01:13:12,491 --> 01:13:13,734 I'm an urban person. 1024 01:13:13,837 --> 01:13:15,149 I'm from, like, 1025 01:13:15,252 --> 01:13:18,463 a 4-million people city in Mexico. 1026 01:13:18,566 --> 01:13:19,947 That's where I was born. 1027 01:13:20,050 --> 01:13:24,400 And I think it's pretty cool that you can show people 1028 01:13:24,503 --> 01:13:27,610 that you can come from any background. 1029 01:13:27,713 --> 01:13:29,957 And if you are passionate enough, 1030 01:13:30,060 --> 01:13:33,305 you can accomplish a lot. 1031 01:13:37,033 --> 01:13:39,173 - I know! 1032 01:13:39,276 --> 01:13:41,209 - It was so hard, right? 1033 01:13:41,313 --> 01:13:43,246 - It was hard, but it's such a blur. 1034 01:13:43,349 --> 01:13:44,730 It's such a blur. 1035 01:13:46,214 --> 01:13:51,254 I just feel like I've achieved something 1036 01:13:51,357 --> 01:13:54,775 that I worked so hard to achieve. 1037 01:13:56,224 --> 01:13:59,193 I just felt, like, possessed by this dream 1038 01:13:59,296 --> 01:14:03,059 of, like, I need to win "Alone," 1039 01:14:03,162 --> 01:14:05,924 so I'm gonna do it no matter what. 1040 01:14:06,027 --> 01:14:09,893 Sometimes, I can be so task-oriented. 1041 01:14:09,997 --> 01:14:13,138 But there was a lot of heart, 1042 01:14:13,241 --> 01:14:15,623 a lot of heart I put into this. 1043 01:14:18,523 --> 01:14:22,319 I got the perfect closure for this journey. 1044 01:14:22,423 --> 01:14:24,943 I think I progressed on my next stage, 1045 01:14:25,046 --> 01:14:27,255 from not caring what people think about me 1046 01:14:27,359 --> 01:14:30,051 to...just being more open 1047 01:14:30,155 --> 01:14:32,260 about showing my emotions. 1048 01:14:33,538 --> 01:14:36,126 Jennifer is an amazing person. 1049 01:14:36,230 --> 01:14:39,233 We've done so many adventures together. 1050 01:14:39,336 --> 01:14:42,961 And now, we can fulfill our dreams. 1051 01:14:43,064 --> 01:14:47,759 I'm really excited to start this new chapter in my life.