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[dramatic music]

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♪ ♪

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- Really crazy weather.

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Because I'm fasting,
my body is getting slower.

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It's almost as if I am the
subject of my own experiments.

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I'm not afraid,
but everything is a struggle.

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All right.

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I'm pushing past
my limit each and every day.

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And clinically,
I know that I'm declining.

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I'm gonna have to eat
the last piece of grouse,

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and super important,
the last wishbone.

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I wish that sharing
this experience with my mom

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brings us closer together.

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That half a million dollars
won't fix everything,

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but it'll get me close.

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- There's three traps
right here. No squirrels.

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I'm so excited to, like,
get this far in the journey.

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It's hard work, but it's where
my drive just keeps

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pushing me to go forward.

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Oh, I see him.

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It's under a big log.

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♪ ♪

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Oh.

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I got a squirrel!
[laughs]

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Holy [bleep].
Oh, my God.

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♪ ♪

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- I can't wait to have
this place try and break me.

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narrator:
For the first time on "Alone,"

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ten participants
fight to survive

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in the hunting ground
of the world's largest

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land predator...

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- Oh, my God, where'd he go?

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Those are bear.

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- I heard a big animal.

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- Hey, bear.
- Oh, no.

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[bleep]

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- Sometimes you eat the bear.
- [exhales]

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- Sometimes the bear eats you.

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narrator: Battling
merciless conditions...

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- This is some
hardcore bushwhacking.

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- Why does it have to be
such a struggle every night?

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- I hit it.
I hit it. I hit it.

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Feel more alive every
day I'm out here.

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- [sighs]
- Here comes the rain again.

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- Labrador, not gonna make it
easy for us, are you?

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narrator:
In complete isolation.

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- The most dangerous thing
out here is myself.

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- Look at that!

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- The cold ground
is just pulling

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all the warmth from me.

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- How many days can this go on?

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- Very, very hungry.

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- I feel like
I'm hitting a wall.

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narrator:
Last one standing wins.

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- Only gonna get harder
the longer you stay out here.

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♪ ♪

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- Oh, it's beautiful.

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In a winter wonderland.

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It's quiet, no birds,
no squirrels, nothing.

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Must be the snow.
I don't know.

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But I'm feeling
really, really tired.

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Think I'm just gonna go up
the hill to get some firewood,

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and, uh, yeah--

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♪ ♪

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Every day, I'm pushing,
and I feel like

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I've been walking a line.

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Last night, I had almost
a pot full of food,

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and I'm still getting weak.

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Come on, trees,
give me something to work with.

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I'm running out
of trees that I can

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realistically walk to,
snap their branches,

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and come back home.

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I can feel my energy kind of
going down a little bit.

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♪ ♪

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Doing everything I can to
address everything that I can.

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♪ ♪

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Found two good trees.

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♪ ♪

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Think I can only do
one bundle, guys.

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♪ ♪

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Feel like I'm reaching
a limit over here.

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All right, let's go back.

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♪ ♪

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Okay, I'm home.

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♪ ♪

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Yeah.

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[sighs]
I'm freaking exhausted.

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It's too much.

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I did too much today.

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♪ ♪

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I'm ready to take
a really long break.

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♪ ♪

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Here we go.

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40 minutes working
is basically my max.

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♪ ♪

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So every day,
I get a little weaker.

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♪ ♪

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But right here, right here...

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I can push with that.

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♪ ♪

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- Ow.
What the heck?

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♪ ♪

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[grunts]

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Hey!

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♪ ♪

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What are you doing?

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♪ ♪

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[grunts]

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Yeah, take that.

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♪ ♪

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Ah!
Boom!

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Ahh!

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♪ ♪

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[laughs]

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I'm still just a kid.

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I'm just a kid
in an older body, that's all,

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but I can't be wasting
calories just having fun.

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But why not?

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I mean, all of this is fun,
but now, we have snow,

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and my food procurement
is going down,

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and if that's going down
and not increasing,

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my time out here
is getting shorter.

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♪ ♪

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So I decided
I'm going to go see

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if I can roust up a squirrel.

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So I'm just gonna walk
the edge of the east woods

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where I have my traps,
and maybe I can uncover a trap,

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and who knows?

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I might have a frozen squirrel
under the snow or something.

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♪ ♪

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Winter is a good time
for dreaming things in.

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There's so many possibilities

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that I'm really
looking forward to.

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I want to open
a wilderness school.

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That's been my plan for
years and years and years.

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So this spring,

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I jumped way out
on a limb financially.

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I got the financing, and I
bought a piece of property.

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It's a beautiful piece
of land, 13 acres,

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and I will be taking down
my yurt that I live in now

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and moving everything
to the land,

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and my plan is my yurt

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will become
an indoor classroom,

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and then I have
the opportunity

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to build my dream home,

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and I can do whatever I want.

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This will be
the first time that I've

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had my own home since I left

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when I was 18
to go to college.

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So 40 years, that's huge.

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♪ ♪

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I've been really resisting
this elderhood,

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but now I feel like I'm ready
to build my first real home.

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♪ ♪

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Now I gotta pay for it.
[laughs]

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Half a million dollars would
enable me to pay off my land

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and step into
a new beginning...

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♪ ♪

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So I can't give up.

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I can't quit trying.

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♪ ♪

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Oh, oh, this is so awesome.

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Oh, my gosh.

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[chuckles]

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♪ ♪

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Check it out.

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Bunny tracks!

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They go off into the abyss.

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♪ ♪

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Need to figure out
where he's going.

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Game on.

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♪ ♪

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So many places
where a hare could hide out.

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♪ ♪

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It's starting to snow again.

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♪ ♪

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Oh, there's a squirrel.

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[tense music]

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♪ ♪

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Where'd it go?

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♪ ♪

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Let me get him up there.

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♪ ♪

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[dramatic music]

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♪ ♪

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[bleep], so close.

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That definitely was
a hard shot.

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Surprised I took it.

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The longer I stay out here,

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the weaker my muscles
are getting,

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and it's getting colder.

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I have to wear
more layers of clothes,

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and it's really affecting
how I pull my bow.

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I know that I can only take
shots at a close proximity.

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When you take a shot,
you want it to be fatal.

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You don't want
to wound an animal.

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♪ ♪

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Ooh.

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Wow, it's really hard.

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Oh, my gosh.

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♪ ♪

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I just don't feel
as old as I am.

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Most of my friends are younger
than me and very active,

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and I'm very active,

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so I've been really
resisting this elderhood.

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Man, that arrow
just disappeared.

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Ugh, where'd it go?

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Maybe it's over here.

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I don't know.

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OK, Karie,
don't do that anymore.

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That squirrel is so onto me.

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Surprised he showed himself.

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My tummy hurts.

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I was hoping
to get something today.

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[sighs]

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[tense music]

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♪ ♪

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- Really so hard.

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It's, like,
snow and cold and ice.

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And now having rain.

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I feel hungry
and stuck in one spot.

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And now, all these cycles...

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are destroying my tarp.
[chuckles]

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This is what happens.

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There's ice
at the top of the trees,

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and then, there's wind,

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then all the ice
starts coming down,

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and they fall on my tarp,

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and they make holes.

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Let me show you.

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So that's one hole
that happened last night,

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that big, big hole.

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That's something
I need to work on.

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[chuckles]

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♪ ♪

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Well, I can get one and a half
fingers in there.

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Heat will escape from there,
so I'm going to sew a patch.

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♪ ♪

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When I was coming out,
I told my partner,

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"I just need not to screw up.

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As long as I do not mess up,
I got this."

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♪ ♪

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Helping her is such
a powerful motivation for me.

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I like to model resilience
for her.

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I'm separating some cord

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to use as thread.

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My strategy is to hunker down
more into my shelter

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because I'm going to do
what real people do

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in survival situations,

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and it's either they walk out,
or they hunker down.

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My body is gonna have
to understand

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that I'm going to go
to this place,

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but it's all a big bet.

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♪ ♪

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So for the patch,

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I'm going to use
this piece of tarp

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that I cut for the windows
and for the stove pipe.

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[laughs]

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It's a rough, rough patch,
as you can see.

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[laughs]

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It looks like
a five-year-old did it.

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But it's not easy when you're--

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like, you've been starving for
so long, and you're surviving,

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and you're sewing
from one side,

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and you cannot sew
from the other.

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You're not using
a proper needle.

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So that's that stuff.

269
00:13:49,276 --> 00:13:51,106
But it's what I signed up for.

270
00:13:52,279 --> 00:13:55,144
[tense music]

271
00:13:55,248 --> 00:14:02,289
♪ ♪

272
00:14:14,336 --> 00:14:16,131
- All right,
let's get some water.

273
00:14:25,450 --> 00:14:28,453
I think this is the weakest
I've felt right now.

274
00:14:30,248 --> 00:14:31,871
That's not good.

275
00:14:31,974 --> 00:14:35,667
♪ ♪

276
00:14:35,771 --> 00:14:38,153
Let's see how frozen we are.

277
00:14:38,256 --> 00:14:40,258
♪ ♪

278
00:14:40,362 --> 00:14:43,158
[pounding]

279
00:14:43,261 --> 00:14:45,850
♪ ♪

280
00:14:45,954 --> 00:14:48,646
Yeah, I can still get through.

281
00:14:48,749 --> 00:14:50,751
Easy does it.

282
00:14:50,855 --> 00:14:55,480
♪ ♪

283
00:14:55,584 --> 00:14:56,757
Oh.

284
00:14:57,931 --> 00:14:59,864
That was close.

285
00:14:59,968 --> 00:15:06,975
♪ ♪

286
00:15:09,046 --> 00:15:11,807
That's as fast as I can go.

287
00:15:11,911 --> 00:15:18,918
♪ ♪

288
00:15:21,851 --> 00:15:23,060
There we go.

289
00:15:25,027 --> 00:15:29,100
Just walking
to get water is a lot for me.

290
00:15:32,828 --> 00:15:35,555
[sighs] But, dang, that was
a good sleep last night.

291
00:15:40,560 --> 00:15:44,771
My last thoughts were seeing
my mom's face at the airport.

292
00:15:46,635 --> 00:15:48,016
Holding her
for the first time

293
00:15:48,119 --> 00:15:51,951
and just giving her those
big old kisses on the cheeks.

294
00:15:53,573 --> 00:15:57,611
That gave me
just a bunch of clarity,

295
00:15:57,715 --> 00:15:59,475
and I just slept
through the night.

296
00:16:00,752 --> 00:16:04,308
You know, how much--

297
00:16:04,411 --> 00:16:05,688
how much is enough?

298
00:16:07,656 --> 00:16:11,280
I think everyone's
asking that question.

299
00:16:11,384 --> 00:16:15,181
For me, I want my mom
to be inspired by this.

300
00:16:15,284 --> 00:16:19,392
I want it
to hit her right here

301
00:16:19,495 --> 00:16:23,085
and have her
just smile and cry.

302
00:16:23,189 --> 00:16:24,914
♪ ♪

303
00:16:25,018 --> 00:16:28,815
I felt joy here
in the beauty of this land,

304
00:16:28,918 --> 00:16:32,543
in the freedom
and the endless learning.

305
00:16:32,646 --> 00:16:34,683
Life is just better
being surrounded

306
00:16:34,786 --> 00:16:37,582
by people who love you,

307
00:16:37,686 --> 00:16:39,446
and, Mom,
you deserve that, too.

308
00:16:39,550 --> 00:16:42,035
♪ ♪

309
00:16:42,139 --> 00:16:45,901
'Cause you're a beautiful,
amazing, wonderful woman,

310
00:16:46,005 --> 00:16:48,317
and you deserve to be happy,

311
00:16:48,421 --> 00:16:53,943
and I know you've felt
all alone, but you're not.

312
00:16:54,047 --> 00:16:56,636
That I promise you.

313
00:16:56,739 --> 00:16:58,741
♪ ♪

314
00:16:58,845 --> 00:17:01,434
So...

315
00:17:01,537 --> 00:17:05,955
Operation Save Mom
is a go as of today.

316
00:17:09,511 --> 00:17:11,996
I'm excited to be
a better son to you.

317
00:17:14,792 --> 00:17:16,311
Yeah.

318
00:17:17,795 --> 00:17:19,383
[chuckles]

319
00:17:19,486 --> 00:17:20,867
Do you know what?

320
00:17:20,970 --> 00:17:25,320
♪ ♪

321
00:17:25,423 --> 00:17:28,150
I think I have one more trick
up my sleeve.

322
00:17:28,254 --> 00:17:30,359
♪ ♪

323
00:17:30,463 --> 00:17:32,396
I think I have
one more good idea.

324
00:17:32,499 --> 00:17:34,225
♪ ♪

325
00:17:34,329 --> 00:17:35,813
I'm gonna show you.

326
00:17:40,645 --> 00:17:43,545
[dramatic music]

327
00:17:43,648 --> 00:17:46,996
♪ ♪

328
00:17:55,108 --> 00:17:59,112
- I got one last surprise
for you guys...

329
00:17:59,216 --> 00:18:02,288
one last trick up my sleeve,

330
00:18:02,391 --> 00:18:03,737
one last good idea.

331
00:18:05,912 --> 00:18:08,915
For the Canadian
Grenadier Guards,

332
00:18:09,018 --> 00:18:10,158
this one's for you guys.

333
00:18:12,194 --> 00:18:16,267
At the age of 17, I had
no idea what I wanted to do.

334
00:18:16,371 --> 00:18:18,166
Tarp, I need you.

335
00:18:18,269 --> 00:18:20,892
You have been a lifesaver.

336
00:18:22,377 --> 00:18:25,069
So I was walking
on St. Catherine in Montreal,

337
00:18:25,173 --> 00:18:30,247
and I remember just having
an urge to just look up,

338
00:18:30,350 --> 00:18:32,421
and I see this statue,

339
00:18:32,525 --> 00:18:35,666
big, old lion,
unicorn with a shield

340
00:18:35,769 --> 00:18:37,046
plated right in the middle.

341
00:18:37,150 --> 00:18:42,397
Just zigzagging paracord.

342
00:18:42,500 --> 00:18:45,952
I just thought to myself,

343
00:18:46,055 --> 00:18:49,128
"I really wanna help people."

344
00:18:49,231 --> 00:18:52,165
Get up there.

345
00:18:52,269 --> 00:18:55,410
Turns out, that statue was
the Canadian coat of arms.

346
00:18:58,758 --> 00:19:02,382
Flag--
You gotta put the flag on this.

347
00:19:02,486 --> 00:19:03,970
It was a calling.

348
00:19:04,073 --> 00:19:06,421
That was the start
of the journey.

349
00:19:06,524 --> 00:19:10,114
And then I joined the army
and just been walking a path

350
00:19:10,218 --> 00:19:14,912
towards finding out
who I need to help and how.

351
00:19:15,015 --> 00:19:18,847
Now, you are complete, sled,
to get me out of here.

352
00:19:18,950 --> 00:19:20,124
♪ ♪

353
00:19:20,228 --> 00:19:22,161
I'm declining
at a rapid rate

354
00:19:22,264 --> 00:19:24,370
each and every day.

355
00:19:24,473 --> 00:19:25,509
Let's see.

356
00:19:25,612 --> 00:19:27,890
♪ ♪

357
00:19:27,994 --> 00:19:30,410
Half a million dollars,
that's pretty juicy,

358
00:19:30,514 --> 00:19:34,311
but my options
are to leave strong

359
00:19:34,414 --> 00:19:36,451
or to leave broken,

360
00:19:36,554 --> 00:19:38,591
so I'm gonna walk out of here.

361
00:19:38,694 --> 00:19:41,249
Ain't nobody
carrying my kit for me,

362
00:19:41,352 --> 00:19:44,459
and I don't want my mom
to see me suffer.

363
00:19:44,562 --> 00:19:45,494
Ah.

364
00:19:45,598 --> 00:19:47,807
One last push, baby.

365
00:19:47,910 --> 00:19:50,189
Leaving standing tall,
I think that's

366
00:19:50,292 --> 00:19:52,225
what my mom needs to see.

367
00:19:52,329 --> 00:19:54,020
[grunts]

368
00:19:54,123 --> 00:19:55,021
Let's go!

369
00:19:55,124 --> 00:19:56,333
♪ ♪

370
00:19:56,436 --> 00:19:57,368
Ugh!

371
00:19:57,472 --> 00:19:59,267
♪ ♪

372
00:19:59,370 --> 00:20:00,682
Yeah!

373
00:20:00,785 --> 00:20:02,684
I have a long life
ahead of me,

374
00:20:02,787 --> 00:20:07,309
and now, I have such clarity
in who I am...

375
00:20:07,413 --> 00:20:08,655
Yeah.

376
00:20:08,759 --> 00:20:10,347
What I'm meant to do
in this Earth...

377
00:20:10,450 --> 00:20:12,072
It's working.

378
00:20:12,176 --> 00:20:14,799
And who I want by my side.

379
00:20:14,903 --> 00:20:17,561
♪ ♪

380
00:20:17,664 --> 00:20:20,874
[phone beeping]

381
00:20:25,293 --> 00:20:27,709
This is Teimojin.

382
00:20:27,812 --> 00:20:30,470
I am officially tapping out.

383
00:20:30,574 --> 00:20:33,301
♪ ♪

384
00:20:33,404 --> 00:20:37,028
All right, let's go home.

385
00:20:37,132 --> 00:20:42,033
♪ ♪

386
00:20:42,137 --> 00:20:43,587
I've won.

387
00:20:43,690 --> 00:20:45,451
This is a victory for me.

388
00:20:45,554 --> 00:20:52,527
♪ ♪

389
00:20:53,838 --> 00:20:56,807
My body has reached a limit,

390
00:20:56,910 --> 00:20:59,119
and I'm here to take care
of my mom,

391
00:20:59,223 --> 00:21:01,087
to inspire her.

392
00:21:01,190 --> 00:21:04,297
I think this is how
I want my story to end,

393
00:21:04,401 --> 00:21:08,543
and I think she'll be proud
of how much I pushed.

394
00:21:09,958 --> 00:21:12,271
This is going to show her
the strength that she needs.

395
00:21:14,445 --> 00:21:15,860
Not me being carried out.

396
00:21:17,966 --> 00:21:20,865
[somber music]

397
00:21:20,969 --> 00:21:25,836
♪ ♪

398
00:21:25,939 --> 00:21:27,320
When I first got the call

399
00:21:27,424 --> 00:21:29,598
that I would be
on this show...

400
00:21:29,702 --> 00:21:32,532
♪ ♪

401
00:21:32,636 --> 00:21:33,982
I wanted to have fun.

402
00:21:34,085 --> 00:21:38,711
I wanted it to be about
testing myself, my skills,

403
00:21:38,814 --> 00:21:41,679
and it was only
when I got here,

404
00:21:41,783 --> 00:21:45,476
reflected on my life,
who I am, who I want to be

405
00:21:45,580 --> 00:21:47,271
where I realized

406
00:21:47,375 --> 00:21:49,825
that it can't be about me.

407
00:21:49,929 --> 00:21:52,380
I've been selfish
for so long and so focused

408
00:21:52,483 --> 00:21:55,624
on this one goal,
to become a doctor,

409
00:21:55,728 --> 00:22:01,561
that I let
everyone around me down.

410
00:22:01,665 --> 00:22:05,220
So when I get home,
one of the first things

411
00:22:05,324 --> 00:22:08,672
is to say sorry
for being absent.

412
00:22:08,775 --> 00:22:10,156
♪ ♪

413
00:22:10,259 --> 00:22:14,125
Now, I feel 100% me,

414
00:22:14,229 --> 00:22:16,783
but renewed, reborn,

415
00:22:16,887 --> 00:22:20,787
and after this,
I can see myself just being

416
00:22:20,891 --> 00:22:24,032
filled with joy and love,

417
00:22:24,135 --> 00:22:28,139
and that's just
worth so much more

418
00:22:28,243 --> 00:22:30,314
than a half a million dollars.

419
00:22:30,418 --> 00:22:36,700
♪ ♪

420
00:22:51,473 --> 00:22:58,411
♪ ♪

421
00:23:00,620 --> 00:23:03,692
- Today is toque time

422
00:23:03,796 --> 00:23:05,867
and maybe have warm tea.

423
00:23:07,282 --> 00:23:09,664
That would be nice.

424
00:23:09,767 --> 00:23:11,459
So I'm just gonna
grab some water.

425
00:23:11,562 --> 00:23:18,258
♪ ♪

426
00:23:18,362 --> 00:23:22,262
And you can see,
the river is all slush.

427
00:23:22,366 --> 00:23:23,919
♪ ♪

428
00:23:24,023 --> 00:23:26,991
Not good for ice fishing.
Not good for walking.

429
00:23:27,095 --> 00:23:28,061
Whoa.

430
00:23:28,165 --> 00:23:29,787
♪ ♪

431
00:23:29,891 --> 00:23:33,032
It's quite icy,
like, super icy,

432
00:23:33,135 --> 00:23:36,035
and my boots
are not super grippy.

433
00:23:36,138 --> 00:23:42,559
♪ ♪

434
00:23:42,662 --> 00:23:43,698
Here.

435
00:23:43,801 --> 00:23:46,114
[chuckles]

436
00:23:46,217 --> 00:23:49,669
Ready for the fire
in my stove.

437
00:23:49,773 --> 00:23:54,122
I can see this cold
really wearing down people,

438
00:23:54,225 --> 00:23:56,400
but I've been waiting
for this moment

439
00:23:56,504 --> 00:23:59,092
for, like, 70 days.

440
00:23:59,196 --> 00:24:00,853
This huge mental strategy

441
00:24:00,956 --> 00:24:03,476
that I'm using that I believe
it's very important

442
00:24:03,580 --> 00:24:06,583
is I'm trying to punctuate
my adventure

443
00:24:06,686 --> 00:24:08,826
and have different,
like, milestones.

444
00:24:08,930 --> 00:24:12,347
I do this milestone,
and I get this reward,

445
00:24:12,451 --> 00:24:16,040
and it helps me have something
I look forward to

446
00:24:16,144 --> 00:24:19,423
and also, it just changes
the monotony.

447
00:24:19,527 --> 00:24:22,599
This is the way
to cut firewood.

448
00:24:22,702 --> 00:24:24,186
Mallet.

449
00:24:27,638 --> 00:24:29,295
My ax.

450
00:24:34,576 --> 00:24:38,373
In terms of safety,
I am textbook perfect almost.

451
00:24:41,894 --> 00:24:48,797
♪ ♪

452
00:24:48,901 --> 00:24:51,248
First fire.

453
00:24:51,351 --> 00:24:53,664
[chuckles]

454
00:24:53,768 --> 00:24:55,597
This is sweet, sweet.

455
00:24:55,701 --> 00:24:57,910
♪ ♪

456
00:25:01,292 --> 00:25:02,639
♪ ♪

457
00:25:02,742 --> 00:25:04,261
I would not be here
for just, like, oh, yeah,

458
00:25:04,364 --> 00:25:06,470
I'm gonna be in a TV show.

459
00:25:06,574 --> 00:25:10,612
I'm here because I feel
I can win this.

460
00:25:10,716 --> 00:25:14,651
I've invested so much energy,

461
00:25:14,754 --> 00:25:16,894
so much passion, so much soul.

462
00:25:16,998 --> 00:25:19,448
I've invested my health.

463
00:25:19,552 --> 00:25:22,935
I want some money
to really start

464
00:25:23,038 --> 00:25:26,421
going after my dream of having

465
00:25:26,525 --> 00:25:28,872
a homestead and a community

466
00:25:28,975 --> 00:25:31,391
and to start a family
and to marry.

467
00:25:31,495 --> 00:25:32,738
♪ ♪

468
00:25:32,841 --> 00:25:34,602
That's why I'm here.

469
00:25:42,989 --> 00:25:44,853
Holy [bleep].

470
00:25:44,957 --> 00:25:45,923
♪ ♪

471
00:25:46,027 --> 00:25:47,787
I used paint cans.

472
00:25:47,891 --> 00:25:50,790
I should have known better.

473
00:25:50,894 --> 00:25:53,552
There's some weird smell
from, like,

474
00:25:53,655 --> 00:25:55,864
whatever was in these cans.

475
00:25:55,968 --> 00:25:57,348
♪ ♪

476
00:25:57,452 --> 00:26:00,110
It's likely that it's toxic.

477
00:26:00,213 --> 00:26:02,388
Such a dummy mistake.

478
00:26:02,491 --> 00:26:05,149
I'm going to open the door
for a little bit.

479
00:26:05,253 --> 00:26:08,567
♪ ♪

480
00:26:08,670 --> 00:26:12,329
It's a smell that you know
is just not good for you.

481
00:26:12,432 --> 00:26:15,435
It makes my head hurt.

482
00:26:15,539 --> 00:26:18,369
So bad, oh.

483
00:26:18,473 --> 00:26:21,476
I am a little bit pissed.

484
00:26:21,580 --> 00:26:25,376
It's something that I was
really looking forward to.

485
00:26:25,480 --> 00:26:27,655
Like, what the [bleep]?

486
00:26:27,758 --> 00:26:31,624
Really makes this
struggle harder.

487
00:26:31,728 --> 00:26:33,143
[bleep] I feel sick.

488
00:26:40,115 --> 00:26:43,015
[dramatic music]

489
00:26:43,118 --> 00:26:46,466
♪ ♪

490
00:26:59,445 --> 00:27:03,656
- The problem with my stove
is that I used paint cans,

491
00:27:03,760 --> 00:27:06,763
and they had lots
of paint still,

492
00:27:06,866 --> 00:27:08,972
and it just doesn't burn off.

493
00:27:09,075 --> 00:27:13,701
So I'm gonna redo

494
00:27:13,804 --> 00:27:15,737
almost entirely the stove

495
00:27:15,841 --> 00:27:20,500
with some cans that I saved
just in case I needed them.

496
00:27:20,604 --> 00:27:22,330
I have to work with mud.

497
00:27:22,433 --> 00:27:26,748
I can actually use mud
from the sides of the stove.

498
00:27:26,852 --> 00:27:30,718
It's moist.
It's not completely frozen.

499
00:27:30,821 --> 00:27:35,170
The risk is I [bleep] up,
and then I don't have a stove,

500
00:27:35,274 --> 00:27:38,898
but the reward
is worth the risk.

501
00:27:39,002 --> 00:27:40,624
♪ ♪

502
00:27:40,728 --> 00:27:43,627
Let's do it.
There's no going back.

503
00:27:43,731 --> 00:27:45,491
Here we go.

504
00:27:45,594 --> 00:27:47,873
It's a big job
because there's lots

505
00:27:47,976 --> 00:27:51,221
of thinking, lots of things
that need to go right.

506
00:27:51,324 --> 00:27:53,257
There's many moving parts.

507
00:27:53,361 --> 00:27:55,570
♪ ♪

508
00:27:55,674 --> 00:27:57,330
It's gonna be a challenge.

509
00:27:57,434 --> 00:27:59,781
♪ ♪

510
00:27:59,885 --> 00:28:02,991
I removed this front piece.

511
00:28:03,095 --> 00:28:04,441
I don't know if you
can see all this,

512
00:28:04,544 --> 00:28:07,962
like, paint,
but it smells very bad.

513
00:28:08,065 --> 00:28:09,342
♪ ♪

514
00:28:09,446 --> 00:28:13,415
But this is a new can
I can use.

515
00:28:15,763 --> 00:28:22,114
♪ ♪

516
00:28:29,500 --> 00:28:31,917
Have to warm it up in my hand.

517
00:28:32,020 --> 00:28:38,993
♪ ♪

518
00:28:42,824 --> 00:28:44,964
That's it.

519
00:28:49,589 --> 00:28:52,627
The previous week,
I was really, really

520
00:28:52,731 --> 00:28:57,252
missing family and friends
and my partner Jennifer.

521
00:28:57,356 --> 00:28:58,288
♪ ♪

522
00:28:58,391 --> 00:29:00,946
She's, like, my best friend.

523
00:29:01,049 --> 00:29:03,811
My life gravitates around her,

524
00:29:03,914 --> 00:29:06,572
so it's hard
to be without her.

525
00:29:06,675 --> 00:29:08,125
♪ ♪

526
00:29:08,229 --> 00:29:09,368
I have exciting plans

527
00:29:09,471 --> 00:29:11,611
for when I get back
with my partner.

528
00:29:11,715 --> 00:29:18,584
♪ ♪

529
00:29:20,448 --> 00:29:21,587
It's working.

530
00:29:22,864 --> 00:29:25,798
My frankenstove is alive.

531
00:29:25,902 --> 00:29:28,214
It's alive!
[chuckles]

532
00:29:28,318 --> 00:29:29,629
♪ ♪

533
00:29:29,733 --> 00:29:32,356
I'm really satisfied
with my decision.

534
00:29:32,460 --> 00:29:36,360
It was a risk, but
the universe came together.

535
00:29:36,464 --> 00:29:38,707
♪ ♪

536
00:29:38,811 --> 00:29:40,744
This is a natural smoke.

537
00:29:40,848 --> 00:29:44,230
It doesn't feel like any kind
of plastic or garbage

538
00:29:44,334 --> 00:29:46,232
or anything like that.

539
00:29:46,336 --> 00:29:49,442
A new stove
that doesn't smell.

540
00:29:49,546 --> 00:29:51,065
Sweet.

541
00:29:51,168 --> 00:29:58,175
♪ ♪

542
00:30:21,820 --> 00:30:23,373
- Mmm.

543
00:30:23,476 --> 00:30:25,237
Nice, warm water.

544
00:30:28,654 --> 00:30:30,898
Here,
I have some fruit leather.

545
00:30:35,385 --> 00:30:37,801
I can't eat too much
of it at one time...

546
00:30:39,492 --> 00:30:40,873
'cause that gives me
a tummy ache.

547
00:30:42,564 --> 00:30:44,532
And so I'm grabbing my bow,

548
00:30:44,635 --> 00:30:47,846
and I'm gonna go get some
alternative sources of food

549
00:30:47,949 --> 00:30:49,571
so I don't have to eat this.

550
00:30:49,675 --> 00:30:52,195
[laughs]

551
00:30:52,298 --> 00:30:53,368
Hello!

552
00:30:53,472 --> 00:30:54,645
[laughs]

553
00:30:54,749 --> 00:31:01,825
♪ ♪

554
00:31:08,245 --> 00:31:09,902
Oh, my gosh.

555
00:31:12,111 --> 00:31:14,286
Snowshoe hare tracks.
Oh, my gosh.

556
00:31:14,389 --> 00:31:16,357
There's a bit of movement.

557
00:31:18,428 --> 00:31:23,329
♪ ♪

558
00:31:24,952 --> 00:31:28,300
The problem is, I don't even
know if I can pull my bow.

559
00:31:28,403 --> 00:31:32,028
♪ ♪

560
00:31:32,131 --> 00:31:33,546
Ah. [chuckles]

561
00:31:36,239 --> 00:31:39,000
♪ ♪

562
00:31:39,104 --> 00:31:40,484
All right.

563
00:31:40,588 --> 00:31:43,246
♪ ♪

564
00:31:45,593 --> 00:31:48,044
Don't cry.
Don't cry.

565
00:31:48,147 --> 00:31:50,080
Stay positive.

566
00:31:50,184 --> 00:31:55,879
♪ ♪

567
00:32:04,888 --> 00:32:08,996
I'm just having a hard time.

568
00:32:09,099 --> 00:32:10,687
But I was starting
to remember the layers

569
00:32:10,790 --> 00:32:13,207
of why I came out here.

570
00:32:13,310 --> 00:32:16,589
I'm dedicating
my experience and my time

571
00:32:16,693 --> 00:32:19,006
for those people
who want to be here

572
00:32:19,109 --> 00:32:21,491
and for whatever reason can't.

573
00:32:21,594 --> 00:32:23,872
♪ ♪

574
00:32:23,976 --> 00:32:28,843
I'm here for my dear friend,
Collette, who has cancer,

575
00:32:28,947 --> 00:32:31,673
and she wants to live out
her days in nature,

576
00:32:31,777 --> 00:32:33,917
and she can't.

577
00:32:34,021 --> 00:32:36,816
She asked me if I would
dedicate my journey to her,

578
00:32:36,920 --> 00:32:39,750
and I was like, "Sure."

579
00:32:39,854 --> 00:32:42,512
And so I asked her,
"Well, what happens

580
00:32:42,615 --> 00:32:44,859
if you leave
before I get back?"

581
00:32:44,963 --> 00:32:47,137
And her answer was like,
"My goal is to live

582
00:32:47,241 --> 00:32:49,795
long enough
to watch you on TV."

583
00:32:49,898 --> 00:32:52,315
That's huge for somebody

584
00:32:52,418 --> 00:32:55,111
to say that to you.

585
00:32:55,214 --> 00:32:58,804
So she's inspiring me
at the same time

586
00:32:58,907 --> 00:33:02,221
to keep going,
to keep living out here.

587
00:33:02,325 --> 00:33:03,878
♪ ♪

588
00:33:03,982 --> 00:33:07,709
You know, if she can
stomach the radiation

589
00:33:07,813 --> 00:33:11,196
and the chemotherapy
and all the crap

590
00:33:11,299 --> 00:33:13,819
that she has to go through
to live,

591
00:33:13,922 --> 00:33:16,822
I can stomach this
fruit leather, you know?

592
00:33:16,925 --> 00:33:18,927
♪ ♪

593
00:33:19,031 --> 00:33:20,653
So here's to you, Collette.

594
00:33:20,757 --> 00:33:22,448
♪ ♪

595
00:33:22,552 --> 00:33:27,419
Thank you for inspiring me
and keeping me going,

596
00:33:27,522 --> 00:33:29,697
and I hope
I'm keeping you going.

597
00:33:29,800 --> 00:33:36,462
♪ ♪

598
00:33:36,566 --> 00:33:38,775
[sighs]
I'm feeling it.

599
00:33:38,878 --> 00:33:40,708
Feeling it right now.

600
00:33:40,811 --> 00:33:42,572
♪ ♪

601
00:33:46,507 --> 00:33:49,406
[dramatic music]

602
00:33:49,510 --> 00:33:52,858
♪ ♪

603
00:34:02,626 --> 00:34:05,008
I really hope so.

604
00:34:05,112 --> 00:34:07,976
I hope it's a polar bear, man.

605
00:34:08,080 --> 00:34:11,325
I hope so. I see some stuff
in the distance.

606
00:34:11,428 --> 00:34:14,845
[bleep], I hope so, man.

607
00:34:14,949 --> 00:34:17,883
Ah. See?

608
00:34:17,986 --> 00:34:20,748
I've never seen
a polar bear up close,

609
00:34:20,851 --> 00:34:22,819
but it's not up close.

610
00:34:22,922 --> 00:34:24,407
It's so far away.

611
00:34:27,548 --> 00:34:29,826
That's not it.

612
00:34:29,929 --> 00:34:31,414
Where are you?

613
00:34:36,522 --> 00:34:38,041
Are you serious?

614
00:34:39,905 --> 00:34:41,665
You know what,
it's the second time

615
00:34:41,769 --> 00:34:43,184
this happens to me.

616
00:34:43,288 --> 00:34:45,876
It happened to me
on another trip.

617
00:34:45,980 --> 00:34:48,465
I think I see polar bears.

618
00:34:51,710 --> 00:34:52,711
Nope.

619
00:34:55,162 --> 00:34:57,336
I wish
it had been a polar bear.

620
00:34:59,476 --> 00:35:01,099
Would have been
the fricking highlight

621
00:35:01,202 --> 00:35:02,859
of my challenge, for sure.

622
00:35:05,103 --> 00:35:12,110
♪ ♪

623
00:35:24,018 --> 00:35:24,915
- [chuckles]

624
00:35:25,019 --> 00:35:27,504
I'm gonna go get some alder

625
00:35:27,608 --> 00:35:31,922
so that I can make
some snow skis,

626
00:35:32,026 --> 00:35:34,787
and the only alder
that I see that's not, like,

627
00:35:34,891 --> 00:35:38,205
totally collapsed over
is this little group

628
00:35:38,308 --> 00:35:40,828
right back there.

629
00:35:40,931 --> 00:35:43,486
I really wanna go tracking
in this fresh new snow,

630
00:35:43,589 --> 00:35:46,074
find some snowshoe hares,
find some food,

631
00:35:46,178 --> 00:35:48,974
so I'm gonna make
some snow skis

632
00:35:49,077 --> 00:35:50,631
so I can stay on top
of the snow.

633
00:35:50,734 --> 00:35:52,840
♪ ♪

634
00:35:52,943 --> 00:35:55,187
Here's a third of the load.

635
00:35:55,291 --> 00:35:56,188
It's not so heavy.

636
00:35:56,292 --> 00:35:58,811
It's just hard
getting up there.

637
00:35:58,915 --> 00:36:02,125
♪ ♪

638
00:36:02,229 --> 00:36:04,852
So I've been just questioning
of where I'm at.

639
00:36:04,955 --> 00:36:07,372
Like, am I done?

640
00:36:07,475 --> 00:36:10,098
How far do I want
to push my body?

641
00:36:10,202 --> 00:36:11,514
I don't feel like I'm done,

642
00:36:11,617 --> 00:36:13,101
but I feel like I'm close,

643
00:36:13,205 --> 00:36:15,034
like it's the beginning
of the end.

644
00:36:15,138 --> 00:36:16,691
♪ ♪

645
00:36:16,795 --> 00:36:19,107
So I've got
a decision to make.

646
00:36:19,211 --> 00:36:22,076
Am I just gonna hunker down
and conserve my energy

647
00:36:22,180 --> 00:36:24,837
and live out my days
until I'm done?

648
00:36:24,941 --> 00:36:27,944
Or I can push myself

649
00:36:28,047 --> 00:36:30,602
and go out and get food.

650
00:36:30,705 --> 00:36:32,845
OK, oh, my gosh.

651
00:36:32,949 --> 00:36:35,434
I think that's it.
Whew.

652
00:36:35,538 --> 00:36:37,367
My fingertips are cold.

653
00:36:39,162 --> 00:36:43,822
So I think I am going to--
whew--

654
00:36:43,925 --> 00:36:45,858
start a fire,

655
00:36:45,962 --> 00:36:49,483
and I'll sit in my doorway

656
00:36:49,586 --> 00:36:53,625
and peel the bark off,
keep my hands warm.

657
00:36:53,728 --> 00:36:56,283
I'm gonna make some skis
and venture out

658
00:36:56,386 --> 00:36:58,112
and just do what I can do.

659
00:36:58,216 --> 00:37:01,219
My body will tell me
when I'm done.

660
00:37:01,322 --> 00:37:07,466
♪ ♪

661
00:37:07,570 --> 00:37:09,917
- Nothing like straight
ice cold water

662
00:37:10,020 --> 00:37:11,643
to start your day.

663
00:37:11,746 --> 00:37:13,886
♪ ♪

664
00:37:13,990 --> 00:37:16,820
Seriously, like, now,
my body and my mind

665
00:37:16,924 --> 00:37:20,893
is just like, "Yeah, just
another day at the office."

666
00:37:20,997 --> 00:37:22,585
♪ ♪

667
00:37:22,688 --> 00:37:23,620
Man.

668
00:37:23,724 --> 00:37:25,519
This is my life now.

669
00:37:25,622 --> 00:37:27,003
♪ ♪

670
00:37:27,106 --> 00:37:31,421
I get water,
and then I do nothing.

671
00:37:31,525 --> 00:37:33,181
♪ ♪

672
00:37:33,285 --> 00:37:36,495
I think I'm on
a sustainable path,

673
00:37:36,599 --> 00:37:40,810
but at night, you can
really feel the hunger pangs.

674
00:37:40,913 --> 00:37:42,708
[burps]

675
00:37:42,812 --> 00:37:49,750
♪ ♪

676
00:37:49,853 --> 00:37:51,338
- It's just cold today,

677
00:37:51,441 --> 00:37:53,616
and I am having trouble
staying warm,

678
00:37:53,719 --> 00:37:57,758
but I have decided
that I'm back in the game.

679
00:37:57,861 --> 00:38:00,795
I am not thinking
about tapping out.

680
00:38:00,899 --> 00:38:02,280
♪ ♪

681
00:38:02,383 --> 00:38:04,040
I have recommitted myself.

682
00:38:04,143 --> 00:38:06,629
I hope to have
these skis done tomorrow.

683
00:38:06,732 --> 00:38:09,045
Gonna go tracking,
see what I can find.

684
00:38:09,148 --> 00:38:11,599
So glad I came to my senses.

685
00:38:11,703 --> 00:38:14,292
You know, I wanna stay
out here and rough it.

686
00:38:16,915 --> 00:38:18,882
[laughs]

687
00:38:18,986 --> 00:38:20,539
That's what I came here to do.

688
00:38:20,643 --> 00:38:22,092
[chuckles]

689
00:38:22,196 --> 00:38:24,992
♪ ♪

690
00:38:25,095 --> 00:38:29,134
- Oh, my back.
I'm like an old man.

691
00:38:29,237 --> 00:38:32,137
Too much standing up,
too much blah, blah, blah.

692
00:38:32,240 --> 00:38:33,690
♪ ♪

693
00:38:33,794 --> 00:38:36,003
Oh.

694
00:38:36,106 --> 00:38:38,419
Going out.

695
00:38:38,523 --> 00:38:41,042
I'm being sloppy.

696
00:38:41,146 --> 00:38:42,837
♪ ♪

697
00:38:42,941 --> 00:38:44,252
I can't let that go out

698
00:38:44,356 --> 00:38:47,221
because I worked
so hard for it.

699
00:38:47,325 --> 00:38:48,843
[blowing]

700
00:38:48,947 --> 00:38:52,502
It's freezing, and trying to
sustain a fire all the time,

701
00:38:52,606 --> 00:38:57,335
all that effort
has been quite a drain.

702
00:38:57,438 --> 00:38:59,958
Ehh. Wow.

703
00:39:00,061 --> 00:39:02,547
That was
so freaking close, man.

704
00:39:02,650 --> 00:39:04,031
♪ ♪

705
00:39:04,134 --> 00:39:07,552
I need to focus.

706
00:39:07,655 --> 00:39:09,761
♪ ♪

707
00:39:09,864 --> 00:39:12,488
- [sighs]

708
00:39:15,007 --> 00:39:18,977
Oh, um--

709
00:39:19,080 --> 00:39:22,325
Yeah, I'm tired.
I'm tired today.

710
00:39:22,429 --> 00:39:25,811
I may--may make some tea
and go back to bed.

711
00:39:27,019 --> 00:39:29,919
And that's OK.
It's OK.

712
00:39:30,022 --> 00:39:31,507
Got time.

713
00:39:31,610 --> 00:39:34,302
♪ ♪

714
00:39:34,406 --> 00:39:36,512
- Definitely reached
the part of my journey

715
00:39:36,615 --> 00:39:37,996
when I'm just, like,
a little bit

716
00:39:38,099 --> 00:39:40,826
ooh, hoo, hoo.
[chuckles]

717
00:39:40,930 --> 00:39:42,483
Cuckoo.

718
00:39:42,587 --> 00:39:43,795
[chuckles]

719
00:39:43,898 --> 00:39:47,350
I don't really give
a [bleep] about anything.

720
00:39:47,454 --> 00:39:49,663
[laughs]

721
00:39:49,766 --> 00:39:53,045
Cuckoo.
Cuckoo.

722
00:39:53,149 --> 00:39:56,601
♪ ♪

723
00:39:56,704 --> 00:39:59,086
[bleep], I'm going crazy.

724
00:40:00,674 --> 00:40:03,435
♪ ♪

725
00:40:03,539 --> 00:40:05,575
- So I didn't get much done
on the skis.

726
00:40:05,679 --> 00:40:07,888
That takes energy.

727
00:40:07,991 --> 00:40:10,304
I think I'm gonna take
today moment by moment.

728
00:40:10,408 --> 00:40:13,652
♪ ♪

729
00:40:13,756 --> 00:40:14,653
Yeah.

730
00:40:14,757 --> 00:40:21,557
♪ ♪

731
00:40:21,660 --> 00:40:24,422
- I'm prepared
for full starvation, so...

732
00:40:27,425 --> 00:40:29,116
♪ ♪

733
00:40:29,219 --> 00:40:31,843
I still feel that there's
a long time to go.

734
00:40:31,946 --> 00:40:36,330
♪ ♪

735
00:40:36,434 --> 00:40:38,746
I'm afraid that my body
will deteriorate

736
00:40:38,850 --> 00:40:41,818
without vitamins and minerals.

737
00:40:41,922 --> 00:40:45,028
♪ ♪

738
00:40:45,132 --> 00:40:47,617
- Oh, ow, ow, ow.

739
00:40:47,721 --> 00:40:50,655
Every joint in my body hurts.

740
00:40:50,758 --> 00:40:52,898
♪ ♪

741
00:40:53,002 --> 00:40:56,315
Oh, been tossing
and turning all night.

742
00:40:56,419 --> 00:40:58,559
♪ ♪

743
00:40:58,663 --> 00:40:59,974
There's just not enough fat

744
00:41:00,078 --> 00:41:02,667
on my body
to cushion the joints.

745
00:41:02,770 --> 00:41:07,637
♪ ♪

746
00:41:07,741 --> 00:41:11,227
I'm not down
for the count yet.

747
00:41:11,330 --> 00:41:12,573
I'll feel better.

748
00:41:12,677 --> 00:41:19,166
♪ ♪

749
00:41:19,269 --> 00:41:22,031
- What--why am I
even recording?

750
00:41:22,134 --> 00:41:23,204
It's, like...

751
00:41:23,308 --> 00:41:25,724
♪ ♪

752
00:41:25,828 --> 00:41:30,418
12:15 at night.

753
00:41:30,522 --> 00:41:32,144
Just go to bed.

754
00:41:32,248 --> 00:41:34,768
♪ ♪

755
00:41:34,871 --> 00:41:36,873
What am I doing with my life?

756
00:41:36,977 --> 00:41:39,807
♪ ♪

757
00:41:39,911 --> 00:41:42,603
- No, it's not nighttime yet,

758
00:41:42,707 --> 00:41:44,398
but I'm in my shelter.

759
00:41:44,502 --> 00:41:45,433
♪ ♪

760
00:41:45,537 --> 00:41:46,883
Having trouble staying warm,

761
00:41:46,987 --> 00:41:50,300
and mostly because
I'm just not very active today.

762
00:41:50,404 --> 00:41:52,613
Today's been
kind of a down day.

763
00:41:52,717 --> 00:41:59,655
♪ ♪

764
00:42:01,829 --> 00:42:04,798
[fire crackling]

765
00:42:15,222 --> 00:42:18,121
[dramatic music]

766
00:42:18,225 --> 00:42:25,232
♪ ♪

767
00:42:29,788 --> 00:42:32,377
- Oh, there's a mouse there.

768
00:42:38,590 --> 00:42:40,799
Oh, guacamole.

769
00:42:42,629 --> 00:42:44,976
[bleep], that's funny.

770
00:42:45,079 --> 00:42:46,494
♪ ♪

771
00:42:46,598 --> 00:42:49,843
I am lower in weight,
and I haven't been eating,

772
00:42:49,946 --> 00:42:52,811
so I'm sure
my blood pressure is low.

773
00:42:52,915 --> 00:42:54,468
♪ ♪

774
00:42:54,572 --> 00:42:57,022
This has been an ordeal,
but at the same time,

775
00:42:57,126 --> 00:43:01,544
it's such a blur, man,
such a blur.

776
00:43:01,648 --> 00:43:03,615
♪ ♪

777
00:43:03,719 --> 00:43:06,549
So I'm kind of thinking
that I should go for a walk

778
00:43:06,653 --> 00:43:09,034
because I haven't had a walk
for a long time.

779
00:43:09,138 --> 00:43:11,692
♪ ♪

780
00:43:11,796 --> 00:43:15,282
After that, I think I'm gonna
be mentally much better.

781
00:43:18,906 --> 00:43:21,875
I really wanna
walk over the ice.

782
00:43:23,221 --> 00:43:25,603
I waited so long
for this moment.

783
00:43:25,706 --> 00:43:29,607
♪ ♪

784
00:43:35,440 --> 00:43:39,617
And ever since day zero,
I wanted to go on the ice.

785
00:43:41,273 --> 00:43:43,931
It's just like
a mental liberation of, like,

786
00:43:44,035 --> 00:43:47,625
now that there's ice, I feel
that I have legs again

787
00:43:47,728 --> 00:43:52,181
because when you have ice,
walking is so easy.

788
00:43:52,284 --> 00:43:56,185
♪ ♪

789
00:43:56,288 --> 00:43:59,050
This is the neat thing
about having an ice chisel

790
00:43:59,153 --> 00:44:02,191
like this, is can go walk.

791
00:44:02,294 --> 00:44:05,608
And then you just...

792
00:44:05,712 --> 00:44:08,024
push like that, and if the ice

793
00:44:08,128 --> 00:44:12,926
was thin, very thin,

794
00:44:13,029 --> 00:44:14,444
just the likelihood

795
00:44:14,548 --> 00:44:17,275
that you would feel something.

796
00:44:17,378 --> 00:44:20,243
This is a natural way to be

797
00:44:20,347 --> 00:44:22,383
in the wilderness on the ice.

798
00:44:22,487 --> 00:44:24,800
♪ ♪

799
00:44:32,462 --> 00:44:34,499
I'm so emotional lately.

800
00:44:40,988 --> 00:44:44,336
It's probably
so many things...

801
00:44:44,440 --> 00:44:45,406
♪ ♪

802
00:44:45,510 --> 00:44:48,133
Starving...

803
00:44:48,237 --> 00:44:49,617
being without people.

804
00:44:49,721 --> 00:44:52,241
♪ ♪

805
00:44:52,344 --> 00:44:54,933
I just keep thinking,

806
00:44:55,037 --> 00:44:58,109
"I'm so thankful
for Jennifer."

807
00:44:58,212 --> 00:44:59,489
♪ ♪

808
00:44:59,593 --> 00:45:01,871
Being in survival mode
amplifies

809
00:45:01,975 --> 00:45:05,219
the need for family
and friends

810
00:45:05,323 --> 00:45:07,152
and the importance of that.

811
00:45:07,256 --> 00:45:08,326
♪ ♪

812
00:45:08,429 --> 00:45:11,881
I think I'm gonna propose
after I get back.

813
00:45:11,985 --> 00:45:13,572
I think it's time.

814
00:45:13,676 --> 00:45:17,576
♪ ♪

815
00:45:22,581 --> 00:45:25,412
♪ ♪

816
00:45:25,515 --> 00:45:28,415
[tense music]

817
00:45:28,518 --> 00:45:35,525
♪ ♪

818
00:45:49,125 --> 00:45:50,126
- Whew.

819
00:45:52,439 --> 00:45:53,958
[chuckles]

820
00:45:55,994 --> 00:45:59,066
It is a blanket of snow.

821
00:45:59,170 --> 00:46:01,655
Oh, my gosh.

822
00:46:01,759 --> 00:46:03,036
Whoa.

823
00:46:04,451 --> 00:46:05,866
Crazy.

824
00:46:05,970 --> 00:46:07,972
And it's blistery cold.

825
00:46:08,075 --> 00:46:10,595
♪ ♪

826
00:46:13,736 --> 00:46:15,738
Wow.

827
00:46:18,292 --> 00:46:20,087
Which is awesome.

828
00:46:20,191 --> 00:46:23,470
Look, there's a cornice.

829
00:46:23,573 --> 00:46:25,437
Wow, it was windy.

830
00:46:25,541 --> 00:46:28,371
♪ ♪

831
00:46:28,475 --> 00:46:30,788
And...

832
00:46:33,549 --> 00:46:34,895
My spirits are good.

833
00:46:34,999 --> 00:46:36,276
My body's tired.

834
00:46:37,656 --> 00:46:40,245
I didn't sleep half the night.

835
00:46:40,349 --> 00:46:41,902
I was feeling queasy.

836
00:46:42,006 --> 00:46:44,663
I'm actually feeling
lightheaded right now.

837
00:46:44,767 --> 00:46:48,771
I can go look
for animal tracks.

838
00:46:48,875 --> 00:46:50,462
It take so much energy,

839
00:46:50,566 --> 00:46:53,949
and my quads
don't really wanna do much.

840
00:46:55,985 --> 00:46:58,919
Oh, I just
all of a sudden wanna cry.

841
00:46:59,023 --> 00:46:59,955
[sighs]

842
00:47:01,853 --> 00:47:03,682
I don't know where that
came up all of a sudden.

843
00:47:05,132 --> 00:47:07,238
[sighs]

844
00:47:07,341 --> 00:47:09,688
♪ ♪

845
00:47:09,792 --> 00:47:12,622
Guess I'll just be
with it for a moment.

846
00:47:12,726 --> 00:47:16,247
♪ ♪

847
00:47:16,350 --> 00:47:18,421
[exhales]

848
00:47:18,525 --> 00:47:20,630
♪ ♪

849
00:47:20,734 --> 00:47:24,013
[sniffles, crying]

850
00:47:24,117 --> 00:47:27,706
♪ ♪

851
00:47:27,810 --> 00:47:29,674
Sorry.
Here I go again.

852
00:47:29,777 --> 00:47:36,336
♪ ♪

853
00:47:37,889 --> 00:47:39,097
I'll be right back.

854
00:47:39,201 --> 00:47:45,655
♪ ♪

855
00:47:45,759 --> 00:47:47,243
So I set out...

856
00:47:50,557 --> 00:47:52,800
To do my dream.

857
00:47:52,904 --> 00:47:55,079
And it took me
a lot to get here.

858
00:47:55,182 --> 00:47:56,632
♪ ♪

859
00:47:56,735 --> 00:47:59,117
I mean, years, years.

860
00:47:59,221 --> 00:48:02,672
But my dream isn't all
about to be on the show.

861
00:48:02,776 --> 00:48:05,020
My dream is
a lot deeper than that,

862
00:48:05,123 --> 00:48:08,644
and I wanted it
to come to fruition

863
00:48:08,747 --> 00:48:12,027
and have that completion
in my heart and completion

864
00:48:12,130 --> 00:48:15,478
in my being to say,

865
00:48:15,582 --> 00:48:21,001
"OK. It's OK.
I've done it.

866
00:48:21,105 --> 00:48:24,177
And to--
[crying]

867
00:48:24,280 --> 00:48:25,972
Gosh darn it.

868
00:48:26,075 --> 00:48:29,665
♪ ♪

869
00:48:29,768 --> 00:48:32,392
Maybe I'm done today.
[laughs]

870
00:48:32,495 --> 00:48:35,084
No, I'm not done today.
I'm not.

871
00:48:35,188 --> 00:48:37,535
♪ ♪

872
00:48:37,638 --> 00:48:38,881
Anyway, I'm...

873
00:48:38,985 --> 00:48:41,642
♪ ♪

874
00:48:41,746 --> 00:48:43,990
I'm close.

875
00:48:44,093 --> 00:48:47,027
And I'm still gonna stay here
for a little while.

876
00:48:47,131 --> 00:48:48,891
♪ ♪

877
00:48:48,995 --> 00:48:51,514
So, wow.

878
00:48:54,586 --> 00:48:57,003
I was just gonna do
a quick morning check-in.

879
00:48:57,106 --> 00:49:01,835
[laughs]
And I just spilled my guts out.

880
00:49:01,939 --> 00:49:05,011
Whew, OK, I'm going to get
my fire going

881
00:49:05,114 --> 00:49:08,221
and drink some tea.

882
00:49:08,324 --> 00:49:09,532
Maybe I'll take a nap.

883
00:49:09,636 --> 00:49:12,156
[chuckles]

884
00:49:12,259 --> 00:49:13,605
Ohh.

885
00:49:17,333 --> 00:49:18,645
I love it here.

886
00:49:24,030 --> 00:49:26,929
[dramatic music]

887
00:49:27,033 --> 00:49:34,005
♪ ♪

888
00:49:41,012 --> 00:49:43,290
- Oh, man.

889
00:49:43,394 --> 00:49:45,913
Last night, I had a dream
where a friend of mine

890
00:49:46,017 --> 00:49:47,985
gave me this bowl of fruit.

891
00:49:48,088 --> 00:49:50,539
And lucidly woke up
for a moment like,

892
00:49:50,642 --> 00:49:54,370
"No, no, no, go back
and enjoy that fruit.

893
00:49:54,474 --> 00:49:57,132
"Just enjoy that.

894
00:49:57,235 --> 00:49:59,582
Enjoy it.
It's OK."

895
00:49:59,686 --> 00:50:01,205
Then I realized, like, "Wow,

896
00:50:01,308 --> 00:50:03,414
I'm actually craving
healthy food."

897
00:50:03,517 --> 00:50:04,967
[chuckles]

898
00:50:05,071 --> 00:50:07,280
I just wanna nurture
my body back to health.

899
00:50:09,040 --> 00:50:11,629
I mean, here's my bow.

900
00:50:12,664 --> 00:50:14,011
And...

901
00:50:16,944 --> 00:50:18,118
[grunts]

902
00:50:18,222 --> 00:50:20,983
I can't really kill
anything like that.

903
00:50:21,087 --> 00:50:22,502
I can't even pull it.

904
00:50:22,605 --> 00:50:24,090
I can't even take an aim.

905
00:50:25,815 --> 00:50:28,611
And so I can't
even get any food.

906
00:50:31,994 --> 00:50:33,754
♪ ♪

907
00:50:33,858 --> 00:50:35,411
[sighs]

908
00:50:35,515 --> 00:50:40,244
♪ ♪

909
00:50:40,347 --> 00:50:42,177
[exhales]

910
00:50:42,280 --> 00:50:49,080
♪ ♪

911
00:50:49,184 --> 00:50:51,151
It's just time
to take care of myself.

912
00:50:51,255 --> 00:50:56,536
♪ ♪

913
00:50:56,639 --> 00:50:58,883
[crying]

914
00:50:58,986 --> 00:51:00,505
I'm going to.

915
00:51:00,609 --> 00:51:03,612
♪ ♪

916
00:51:03,715 --> 00:51:05,200
I know this is the right thing.

917
00:51:05,303 --> 00:51:07,788
♪ ♪

918
00:51:07,892 --> 00:51:11,344
OK, push it, Karie, push it.

919
00:51:11,447 --> 00:51:12,724
It's so hard.

920
00:51:12,828 --> 00:51:14,657
♪ ♪

921
00:51:14,761 --> 00:51:18,282
[chuckles]
[phone beeping]

922
00:51:22,389 --> 00:51:24,736
Hi, this is Karie Lee.

923
00:51:24,840 --> 00:51:29,534
I am officially tapping out.

924
00:51:29,638 --> 00:51:36,300
♪ ♪

925
00:51:36,403 --> 00:51:37,301
[sighs]

926
00:51:37,404 --> 00:51:39,199
♪ ♪

927
00:51:39,303 --> 00:51:44,066
The last 2 and 1/2 months
has been pretty amazing,

928
00:51:44,170 --> 00:51:45,309
and...

929
00:51:48,450 --> 00:51:51,280
I'm gonna remember it
for the rest of my life.

930
00:51:51,384 --> 00:51:57,459
♪ ♪

931
00:51:57,562 --> 00:51:59,081
Ohh.

932
00:52:01,118 --> 00:52:04,707
I'm just so blessed
by this land...

933
00:52:04,811 --> 00:52:06,261
[hopeful music]

934
00:52:06,364 --> 00:52:08,125
And the fish that fed me,

935
00:52:08,228 --> 00:52:11,473
and the squirrels that fed me,
and the muskrat,

936
00:52:11,576 --> 00:52:14,061
that was such a--such a gift.

937
00:52:14,165 --> 00:52:15,718
[kisses]

938
00:52:15,822 --> 00:52:19,826
♪ ♪

939
00:52:19,929 --> 00:52:21,586
I can hear
the helicopter coming.

940
00:52:21,690 --> 00:52:24,865
[helicopter whirring]

941
00:52:24,969 --> 00:52:29,870
♪ ♪

942
00:52:29,974 --> 00:52:32,597
Oh, my God, my heart's
just beating so fast.

943
00:52:32,701 --> 00:52:34,254
[chuckles]

944
00:52:37,602 --> 00:52:39,017
I get to go home.

945
00:52:39,121 --> 00:52:46,093
♪ ♪

946
00:52:49,131 --> 00:52:50,926
Hi.

947
00:52:51,029 --> 00:52:52,479
I'm just done.

948
00:52:52,583 --> 00:52:54,067
I know my body is done.

949
00:52:56,069 --> 00:52:57,795
It's a hard decision to leave.

950
00:52:59,383 --> 00:53:02,455
I did my dream here, and now,

951
00:53:02,558 --> 00:53:04,284
I'm ready for the next dream.

952
00:53:04,388 --> 00:53:06,700
It's time to step
into that elderhood

953
00:53:06,804 --> 00:53:09,151
and just be there
for the people that need me,

954
00:53:09,255 --> 00:53:12,810
my friends and my family.

955
00:53:15,778 --> 00:53:17,573
♪ ♪

956
00:53:17,677 --> 00:53:20,404
I wanted to have
this experience

957
00:53:20,507 --> 00:53:22,440
of being
perfectly comfortable

958
00:53:22,544 --> 00:53:25,098
in my shelter, warm,
with a plate of food.

959
00:53:25,202 --> 00:53:26,893
So I asked myself,

960
00:53:26,996 --> 00:53:29,896
"Is this fulfilling
my childhood dream?"

961
00:53:29,999 --> 00:53:33,831
And the answer is yes.

962
00:53:33,934 --> 00:53:35,798
But this experience, I feel,

963
00:53:35,902 --> 00:53:38,422
has been a rite of passage.

964
00:53:38,525 --> 00:53:41,494
I've been really resisting
this elderhood,

965
00:53:41,597 --> 00:53:44,738
and now, I feel like
I'm ready to accept

966
00:53:44,842 --> 00:53:47,465
the fact that I am an elder.

967
00:53:47,569 --> 00:53:49,191
♪ ♪

968
00:53:49,295 --> 00:53:52,125
And I feel I have a lot
to share.

969
00:53:52,229 --> 00:53:55,335
I feel like I'm ready
to use my voice.

970
00:53:55,439 --> 00:53:58,131
So I don't feel like I lost.

971
00:53:58,235 --> 00:54:01,099
I may not be rich financially,
but I feel like

972
00:54:01,203 --> 00:54:03,826
I'm coming home
with a lot of wisdom.

973
00:54:03,930 --> 00:54:10,937
♪ ♪

974
00:54:38,309 --> 00:54:41,899
- My body right now is asking
for a day of full recovery

975
00:54:42,002 --> 00:54:44,142
of just sleep.

976
00:54:45,937 --> 00:54:49,044
You don't even have
to go for water.

977
00:54:49,147 --> 00:54:51,253
Get dehydrated for a bit.

978
00:54:51,357 --> 00:54:53,359
It's fine.

979
00:54:53,462 --> 00:54:56,672
So I think I'm gonna sleep
in a little bit right now.

980
00:54:58,467 --> 00:55:01,505
[phone beeping]

981
00:55:12,999 --> 00:55:14,656
[bleep]

982
00:55:14,759 --> 00:55:17,590
Would be [bleep] the day
that I'm dehydrated, man.

983
00:55:17,693 --> 00:55:21,283
[bleep]. Seriously.

984
00:55:21,387 --> 00:55:25,494
[bleep], right
before the med check.

985
00:55:25,598 --> 00:55:29,153
Well, my blood is gonna pump
pretty fast now.

986
00:55:29,256 --> 00:55:31,397
[bleep] going down.

987
00:55:31,500 --> 00:55:33,675
Medcheck in one hour.

988
00:55:33,778 --> 00:55:36,471
OK, let's rumble.

989
00:55:36,574 --> 00:55:40,233
[bleep], [bleep].

990
00:55:40,337 --> 00:55:42,028
OK, hydrate.

991
00:55:42,131 --> 00:55:44,202
♪ ♪

992
00:55:44,306 --> 00:55:45,859
Ah.

993
00:55:45,963 --> 00:55:47,585
This water is hard to drink.

994
00:55:47,689 --> 00:55:49,000
♪ ♪

995
00:55:49,104 --> 00:55:50,899
Gonna make a fire.

996
00:55:51,002 --> 00:55:53,936
If I can warm water,
I can drink it fricking fast.

997
00:55:54,040 --> 00:56:00,943
♪ ♪

998
00:56:01,047 --> 00:56:04,809
I can get a fire going
in no time if I need to.

999
00:56:04,913 --> 00:56:11,851
♪ ♪

1000
00:56:11,954 --> 00:56:14,232
Well, here's the chopper.

1001
00:56:16,062 --> 00:56:19,617
♪ ♪

1002
00:56:19,721 --> 00:56:22,724
I think I've downed how much?

1003
00:56:22,827 --> 00:56:24,001
Three liters?

1004
00:56:24,104 --> 00:56:31,111
♪ ♪

1005
00:56:36,185 --> 00:56:39,050
When you're walking
on this thin line,

1006
00:56:39,154 --> 00:56:42,951
you need to be fully engaged
for the experience.

1007
00:56:43,054 --> 00:56:44,918
♪ ♪

1008
00:56:45,022 --> 00:56:48,232
And if you're not, you're not
gonna match the struggle.

1009
00:56:48,335 --> 00:56:49,854
♪ ♪

1010
00:56:49,958 --> 00:56:54,480
This point is beautiful
because you're so present.

1011
00:56:54,583 --> 00:56:56,758
You don't even have
a concept of time.

1012
00:56:56,861 --> 00:56:59,174
♪ ♪

1013
00:56:59,277 --> 00:57:02,522
I can't let them pull me out.

1014
00:57:02,626 --> 00:57:04,317
- Juan Pablo,
how are you feeling

1015
00:57:04,421 --> 00:57:05,836
since the last time
we saw you?

1016
00:57:05,939 --> 00:57:08,977
- I'm so engaged
with the situation.

1017
00:57:09,080 --> 00:57:12,325
Like, these wintry scenes
are so...

1018
00:57:15,017 --> 00:57:18,435
They're so similar to where
I live with my partner.

1019
00:57:19,850 --> 00:57:22,231
I've started to feel
like home,

1020
00:57:22,335 --> 00:57:24,717
and with the ice,

1021
00:57:24,820 --> 00:57:27,754
I just walked
and I enjoyed the view

1022
00:57:27,858 --> 00:57:30,447
from a different perspective
that I hadn't had.

1023
00:57:30,550 --> 00:57:34,105
I just thought of my partner

1024
00:57:34,209 --> 00:57:36,314
and got a little bit emotional.

1025
00:57:40,698 --> 00:57:42,493
Just that I was waiting
so long...

1026
00:57:46,601 --> 00:57:48,223
To go on the ice.

1027
00:57:56,576 --> 00:58:00,649
Since that--since day zero,
I've had this plan of, like,

1028
00:58:00,753 --> 00:58:04,342
I'm gonna go on the ice...

1029
00:58:04,446 --> 00:58:06,552
and--

1030
00:58:06,655 --> 00:58:08,036
♪ ♪

1031
00:58:08,139 --> 00:58:09,209
- You won!

1032
00:58:09,313 --> 00:58:11,108
♪ ♪

1033
00:58:15,043 --> 00:58:17,942
[dramatic music]

1034
00:58:18,046 --> 00:58:21,325
♪ ♪

1035
00:58:28,539 --> 00:58:31,438
- [laughs]

1036
00:58:31,542 --> 00:58:34,856
♪ ♪

1037
00:58:36,202 --> 00:58:39,516
- It's just--
it's hitting me slowly.

1038
00:58:39,619 --> 00:58:40,758
- [laughs]
- Like--

1039
00:58:40,862 --> 00:58:43,520
- Yeah.
- Thank you.

1040
00:58:52,045 --> 00:58:54,323
- I'm so glad they brought you!
- I know!

1041
00:58:57,085 --> 00:58:58,707
- I look what?
- You look good.

1042
00:58:58,811 --> 00:59:00,088
[laughs]

1043
00:59:00,191 --> 00:59:02,090
- Thanks.

1044
00:59:02,193 --> 00:59:03,781
I'm so glad you're here.

1045
00:59:03,885 --> 00:59:07,509
♪ ♪

1046
00:59:07,613 --> 00:59:11,651
We can go see some polar bears.
- You saw a polar bear?

1047
00:59:11,755 --> 00:59:14,343
- I thought I saw one,
just like on our canoe trip.

1048
00:59:14,447 --> 00:59:16,725
- Oh, my gosh.
- Like, it was the same thing.

1049
00:59:16,829 --> 00:59:19,417
- Oh, no.
- Seriously.

1050
00:59:19,521 --> 00:59:21,661
- I can't believe you did this.

1051
00:59:21,765 --> 00:59:24,388
You're amazing.
- Thank you.

1052
00:59:24,491 --> 00:59:26,873
- And it's so beautiful here.

1053
00:59:26,977 --> 00:59:29,151
- Yeah, it is beautiful.

1054
00:59:29,255 --> 00:59:30,843
Do you wanna see my shelter?

1055
00:59:30,946 --> 00:59:33,915
- Yeah, yeah.
- Let's go.

1056
00:59:34,018 --> 00:59:35,399
- Oh, wow.

1057
00:59:35,502 --> 00:59:37,159
This is so nice.

1058
00:59:37,263 --> 00:59:39,230
[laughs]

1059
00:59:39,334 --> 00:59:41,957
- When you're isolated,
all this longing

1060
00:59:42,061 --> 00:59:43,614
for your family
and your friends

1061
00:59:43,718 --> 00:59:46,583
just intensifies so much.

1062
00:59:46,686 --> 00:59:49,758
It was hard to turn that off.

1063
00:59:49,862 --> 00:59:52,934
It's not super cozy.
- Yeah, it is.

1064
00:59:53,037 --> 00:59:56,627
- Well, spend, like, 70
something days in here,

1065
00:59:56,731 --> 00:59:59,423
and you'll see that
it's not that comfy.

1066
00:59:59,526 --> 01:00:02,081
♪ ♪

1067
01:00:02,184 --> 01:00:05,429
I just feel so happy
that Jennifer is here.

1068
01:00:05,532 --> 01:00:08,328
♪ ♪

1069
01:00:08,432 --> 01:00:09,675
- [laughs]

1070
01:00:09,778 --> 01:00:12,470
- Such an amazing day.

1071
01:00:12,574 --> 01:00:15,404
♪ ♪

1072
01:00:15,508 --> 01:00:18,822
I still cannot believe I won
half a million dollars.

1073
01:00:18,925 --> 01:00:20,686
♪ ♪

1074
01:00:20,789 --> 01:00:22,308
I am so excited.

1075
01:00:22,411 --> 01:00:25,863
We can fulfill our dreams.

1076
01:00:25,967 --> 01:00:28,417
It feels so liberating.

1077
01:00:28,521 --> 01:00:31,489
♪ ♪

1078
01:00:31,593 --> 01:00:34,527
Jennifer is
an amazing person.

1079
01:00:34,631 --> 01:00:37,081
She's everything to me.

1080
01:00:37,185 --> 01:00:39,325
I don't know
when I'm gonna propose to her,

1081
01:00:39,428 --> 01:00:41,016
but I need to plan something

1082
01:00:41,120 --> 01:00:43,363
that will
make her feel special.

1083
01:00:45,849 --> 01:00:47,989
This was my goal, right?
- Mm-hmm.

1084
01:00:48,092 --> 01:00:50,888
- Every day, I mark to here.

1085
01:00:50,992 --> 01:00:53,097
This was very important,
I think...

1086
01:00:55,272 --> 01:00:57,723
For my mind...

1087
01:00:57,826 --> 01:00:59,725
just to see the progress.
- Mm-hmm.

1088
01:01:01,899 --> 01:01:05,558
- I was prepared to just...

1089
01:01:05,662 --> 01:01:08,457
go for it, no matter what,
you know?

1090
01:01:08,561 --> 01:01:10,563
- Mm-hmm.

1091
01:01:10,667 --> 01:01:13,773
- I feel
that many people nowadays

1092
01:01:13,877 --> 01:01:16,396
need more resilience.

1093
01:01:16,500 --> 01:01:18,605
I take it as
a personal mission

1094
01:01:18,709 --> 01:01:20,228
to be resilient.

1095
01:01:20,331 --> 01:01:22,057
There was a lot of heart

1096
01:01:22,161 --> 01:01:25,992
that I put into this,
a lot of heart.

1097
01:01:26,096 --> 01:01:28,926
I'm just a survival nerd,
you know?

1098
01:01:29,030 --> 01:01:30,652
♪ ♪

1099
01:01:30,756 --> 01:01:32,999
My biggest takeaway
from this experience

1100
01:01:33,103 --> 01:01:36,865
is that your soul matters,

1101
01:01:36,969 --> 01:01:40,420
having a strong mission
in life matters,

1102
01:01:40,524 --> 01:01:43,734
and that your life experience
really matters.

1103
01:01:43,838 --> 01:01:45,460
♪ ♪

1104
01:01:45,563 --> 01:01:47,945
78 days is something
I can be proud of.

1105
01:01:48,049 --> 01:01:49,360
♪ ♪

1106
01:01:49,464 --> 01:01:53,640
I just feel like
I've achieved something

1107
01:01:53,744 --> 01:01:57,230
that I worked so hard
to achieve.

1108
01:01:57,334 --> 01:01:59,819
♪ ♪

1109
01:01:59,923 --> 01:02:02,995
It feels really good
to break barriers

1110
01:02:03,098 --> 01:02:06,274
and be the first Latino
to win "Alone".

1111
01:02:06,377 --> 01:02:07,758
♪ ♪

1112
01:02:07,862 --> 01:02:10,657
It's awesome
that it doesn't matter

1113
01:02:10,761 --> 01:02:15,593
where you come from, as long
as you are passionate enough.

1114
01:02:15,697 --> 01:02:19,425
You can be better
than anyone else

1115
01:02:19,528 --> 01:02:21,945
if you are obsessed like I am.

1116
01:02:22,048 --> 01:02:25,224
♪ ♪

1117
01:02:25,327 --> 01:02:28,054
It's not easy,
but it's possible.

1118
01:02:28,158 --> 01:02:35,165
♪ ♪

1119
01:02:37,823 --> 01:02:39,721
[dramatic music]

1120
01:02:39,825 --> 01:02:41,067
♪ ♪

1121
01:02:41,758 --> 01:02:45,382
- I'll give you that last 10%.

1122
01:02:45,485 --> 01:02:47,625
I'll show you how
I'm gonna do it.

1123
01:02:47,729 --> 01:02:48,661
♪ ♪

1124
01:02:48,765 --> 01:02:51,284
Gonna walk out tall, proud,

1125
01:02:51,388 --> 01:02:54,701
and walk out whole.

1126
01:02:54,805 --> 01:02:57,843
I have thought about family
for a long time.

1127
01:02:57,946 --> 01:03:00,086
My grandfather
would understand

1128
01:03:00,190 --> 01:03:02,468
so many things about this;

1129
01:03:02,571 --> 01:03:04,815
the hunger, the self-doubt,

1130
01:03:04,919 --> 01:03:07,714
and the unexpected successes.

1131
01:03:07,818 --> 01:03:09,371
♪ ♪

1132
01:03:09,475 --> 01:03:11,511
We gotta put the flag on this.

1133
01:03:11,615 --> 01:03:14,066
My grandfather has experienced
civil war.

1134
01:03:14,169 --> 01:03:18,346
He's known starvation
at a young, young age.

1135
01:03:18,449 --> 01:03:21,314
Sled to get me out of here.

1136
01:03:21,418 --> 01:03:25,077
I understand a lot of what
he does on a daily basis

1137
01:03:25,180 --> 01:03:26,354
a lot better.

1138
01:03:26,457 --> 01:03:27,665
Let's see.

1139
01:03:27,769 --> 01:03:29,875
The moments that
he's just staring off,

1140
01:03:29,978 --> 01:03:33,257
and I understand his
relationship with food now.

1141
01:03:33,361 --> 01:03:35,604
♪ ♪

1142
01:03:35,708 --> 01:03:37,675
Let's go home proud.

1143
01:03:37,779 --> 01:03:39,436
Let's go home strong.

1144
01:03:39,539 --> 01:03:41,748
♪ ♪

1145
01:03:41,852 --> 01:03:43,371
[grunts]

1146
01:03:43,474 --> 01:03:44,924
♪ ♪

1147
01:03:45,028 --> 01:03:48,065
One last push, baby.

1148
01:03:48,169 --> 01:03:49,687
[grunts]

1149
01:03:49,791 --> 01:03:51,758
Let's go!

1150
01:03:51,862 --> 01:03:54,658
[groans]

1151
01:03:54,761 --> 01:03:58,420
Let's go home
walking on our own two feet.

1152
01:03:58,524 --> 01:03:59,766
♪ ♪

1153
01:03:59,870 --> 01:04:01,596
Yeah.

1154
01:04:01,699 --> 01:04:03,460
I've already won.

1155
01:04:03,563 --> 01:04:05,117
That's how this feels.

1156
01:04:05,220 --> 01:04:06,912
It's working.

1157
01:04:07,015 --> 01:04:09,397
[steady beeping]

1158
01:04:09,500 --> 01:04:12,158
[dramatic music]

1159
01:04:12,262 --> 01:04:13,539
Fight for your happiness.

1160
01:04:13,642 --> 01:04:15,196
Fight for your passions.

1161
01:04:15,299 --> 01:04:17,163
Fight for someone you love.

1162
01:04:17,267 --> 01:04:18,993
It'll always be worth it.

1163
01:04:19,096 --> 01:04:21,478
Fill your heart

1164
01:04:21,581 --> 01:04:23,411
with strength

1165
01:04:23,514 --> 01:04:25,378
and joy

1166
01:04:25,482 --> 01:04:27,173
and peace!

1167
01:04:27,277 --> 01:04:34,318
♪ ♪

1168
01:04:41,670 --> 01:04:45,605
This whole challenge
was nothing like I expected.

1169
01:04:45,709 --> 01:04:47,193
I dropped...

1170
01:04:47,297 --> 01:04:50,127
and everything changed.

1171
01:04:50,231 --> 01:04:52,923
The reason why I was here
changed,

1172
01:04:53,027 --> 01:04:57,824
and having a deeper purpose,
that meant the world to me.

1173
01:04:57,928 --> 01:05:01,552
And I think my relationships
with everyone in my life

1174
01:05:01,656 --> 01:05:04,452
is just different now.

1175
01:05:04,555 --> 01:05:06,178
- We have something for you.

1176
01:05:06,281 --> 01:05:07,834
- Oh, my God.

1177
01:05:09,215 --> 01:05:10,354
Thank you.

1178
01:05:10,458 --> 01:05:13,185
[dramatic music]

1179
01:05:13,288 --> 01:05:14,980
Oh, thank you.

1180
01:05:15,083 --> 01:05:16,360
- [indistinct speech]

1181
01:05:16,464 --> 01:05:21,365
♪ ♪

1182
01:05:21,469 --> 01:05:23,643
- Oh, that salty goodness.

1183
01:05:23,747 --> 01:05:28,821
♪ ♪

1184
01:05:28,925 --> 01:05:30,271
I'll miss the freedom,

1185
01:05:30,374 --> 01:05:32,652
the infinite lessons,

1186
01:05:32,756 --> 01:05:36,656
and just the joy of

1187
01:05:36,760 --> 01:05:40,074
finding happiness
in the smallest things,

1188
01:05:40,177 --> 01:05:42,697
whether it's a fish
the size of your hand,

1189
01:05:42,800 --> 01:05:44,354
or...

1190
01:05:44,457 --> 01:05:46,770
just the right snowfall,

1191
01:05:46,873 --> 01:05:49,842
or a squirrel.

1192
01:05:49,946 --> 01:05:53,570
♪ ♪

1193
01:05:53,673 --> 01:05:57,436
I've been out here for 63 days
and...

1194
01:05:57,539 --> 01:06:01,716
received so much more
than I gave.

1195
01:06:01,819 --> 01:06:03,545
I just feel so lucky

1196
01:06:03,649 --> 01:06:05,685
to have done this experience

1197
01:06:05,789 --> 01:06:08,826
and to have...

1198
01:06:08,930 --> 01:06:14,073
had no input
in how it was gonna pan out.

1199
01:06:14,177 --> 01:06:17,283
And have it pan out like this?

1200
01:06:17,387 --> 01:06:22,357
I have such clarity
in who I am,

1201
01:06:22,461 --> 01:06:24,635
what I'm meant to do
in this Earth.

1202
01:06:24,739 --> 01:06:26,120
♪ ♪

1203
01:06:26,223 --> 01:06:30,089
And who I want by my side.

1204
01:06:30,193 --> 01:06:32,989
After this,

1205
01:06:33,092 --> 01:06:35,094
I think I'm just gonna be

1206
01:06:35,198 --> 01:06:39,857
just so much more open
about every little thing.

1207
01:06:39,961 --> 01:06:42,688
I think my relationships
are gonna be deeper,

1208
01:06:42,791 --> 01:06:46,899
profound, and...

1209
01:06:47,003 --> 01:06:48,832
my mission clear.

1210
01:06:48,935 --> 01:06:51,283
So...

1211
01:06:51,386 --> 01:06:53,009
let's change the world,
just a little bit.

1212
01:06:53,112 --> 01:06:56,219
♪ ♪

1213
01:06:58,773 --> 01:07:00,016
[dramatic music]

1214
01:07:00,119 --> 01:07:04,572
♪ ♪

1215
01:07:04,675 --> 01:07:07,575
- My body's not producing
a lot of heat.

1216
01:07:07,678 --> 01:07:10,164
I've lost a lot of weight.

1217
01:07:10,267 --> 01:07:12,649
My body's done...

1218
01:07:12,752 --> 01:07:13,891
♪ ♪

1219
01:07:13,995 --> 01:07:16,135
And I've given it all I can.

1220
01:07:16,239 --> 01:07:19,725
So I might as well move on
and take care of myself.

1221
01:07:19,828 --> 01:07:22,728
[soft dramatic music]

1222
01:07:22,831 --> 01:07:25,558
♪ ♪

1223
01:07:25,662 --> 01:07:28,354
You know, I promised myself
before I left,

1224
01:07:28,458 --> 01:07:30,149
because I'm older,

1225
01:07:30,253 --> 01:07:33,497
that I didn't need to push
myself to the extremes

1226
01:07:33,601 --> 01:07:36,293
that some younger people
might do and...

1227
01:07:39,124 --> 01:07:40,780
And so it's painful.

1228
01:07:40,884 --> 01:07:42,644
Like, I can't even
really go hunting

1229
01:07:42,748 --> 01:07:45,889
so getting food is just
not really an option.

1230
01:07:45,992 --> 01:07:48,478
And I'm just
starving myself more

1231
01:07:48,581 --> 01:07:52,240
and depleting my body more
for no reason.

1232
01:07:52,344 --> 01:07:55,554
I mean, yeah, it gets me
a few more days on the--

1233
01:07:55,657 --> 01:07:57,694
the check card.
[chuckles]

1234
01:07:57,797 --> 01:08:00,076
On the game board.

1235
01:08:00,179 --> 01:08:04,873
But I just don't wanna do that
to my body anymore.

1236
01:08:04,977 --> 01:08:05,874
You know?

1237
01:08:05,978 --> 01:08:07,359
[soft resonant music]

1238
01:08:07,462 --> 01:08:08,670
This place here?

1239
01:08:08,774 --> 01:08:10,500
Oh, my God.

1240
01:08:10,603 --> 01:08:12,295
♪ ♪

1241
01:08:12,398 --> 01:08:13,468
[sighs]

1242
01:08:13,572 --> 01:08:16,851
♪ ♪

1243
01:08:16,954 --> 01:08:19,785
It's been my home for the last
two and a half months.

1244
01:08:19,888 --> 01:08:24,514
♪ ♪

1245
01:08:24,617 --> 01:08:26,723
I'm so grateful
from the bottom of my heart

1246
01:08:26,826 --> 01:08:28,449
for everything that
I've learned here

1247
01:08:28,552 --> 01:08:30,692
and everything I've received.

1248
01:08:30,796 --> 01:08:31,969
♪ ♪

1249
01:08:32,073 --> 01:08:33,005
[sniffles]

1250
01:08:33,109 --> 01:08:35,180
All the blessings, just--

1251
01:08:35,283 --> 01:08:37,872
thank you, thank you,
thank you.

1252
01:08:37,975 --> 01:08:39,770
Need to take my mittens off.
[chuckles]

1253
01:08:39,874 --> 01:08:42,566
♪ ♪

1254
01:08:42,670 --> 01:08:45,431
Aww, thank you.

1255
01:08:45,535 --> 01:08:48,503
My hands are numb.
[sighs]

1256
01:08:48,607 --> 01:08:50,816
I've been dreaming
about this for days.

1257
01:08:50,919 --> 01:08:52,576
Oh, gosh.

1258
01:08:52,680 --> 01:08:54,544
♪ ♪

1259
01:08:54,647 --> 01:08:56,201
Mmm!

1260
01:08:56,304 --> 01:08:58,341
Oh, my God.

1261
01:08:58,444 --> 01:08:59,928
[sighs]

1262
01:09:00,032 --> 01:09:01,516
♪ ♪

1263
01:09:01,620 --> 01:09:04,485
[soft determined music]

1264
01:09:04,588 --> 01:09:06,521
♪ ♪

1265
01:09:06,625 --> 01:09:08,730
It's hard for me to let go.

1266
01:09:08,834 --> 01:09:09,800
♪ ♪

1267
01:09:09,904 --> 01:09:12,665
'Cause this is my home.

1268
01:09:12,769 --> 01:09:17,429
I just absolutely love it here
and I don't want to go,

1269
01:09:17,532 --> 01:09:19,085
but I know I need to.

1270
01:09:19,189 --> 01:09:22,158
♪ ♪

1271
01:09:22,261 --> 01:09:26,127
And this journey,
it gave me confidence

1272
01:09:26,231 --> 01:09:30,718
because wilderness survival
is not just about the skills;

1273
01:09:30,821 --> 01:09:35,757
it's about the attitude,
the positive mindset.

1274
01:09:35,861 --> 01:09:39,796
Being in a place of gratitude,
it felt like I was being

1275
01:09:39,899 --> 01:09:41,694
nurtured and held out
there with the land

1276
01:09:41,798 --> 01:09:44,283
and I feel that was
a big part of why,

1277
01:09:44,387 --> 01:09:45,940
even though my body's tired,

1278
01:09:46,043 --> 01:09:49,564
my energy level was pretty
high most of the time.

1279
01:09:49,668 --> 01:09:51,221
♪ ♪

1280
01:09:51,325 --> 01:09:54,983
So I don't feel disappointed
or embarrassed

1281
01:09:55,087 --> 01:09:57,814
or that it's a failure

1282
01:09:57,917 --> 01:10:01,300
because it was an experiment.

1283
01:10:01,404 --> 01:10:02,991
♪ ♪

1284
01:10:03,095 --> 01:10:04,717
And that's part of
why I wanted to see

1285
01:10:04,821 --> 01:10:06,478
how deep I could go

1286
01:10:06,581 --> 01:10:09,377
because I wanna turn around
and share that experience

1287
01:10:09,481 --> 01:10:11,862
of what I learned out there.

1288
01:10:11,966 --> 01:10:13,554
♪ ♪

1289
01:10:13,657 --> 01:10:17,834
When I get home,
I am going to take it easy

1290
01:10:17,937 --> 01:10:20,802
and I really want to
spend my evenings

1291
01:10:20,906 --> 01:10:23,633
having dinner with my friends,

1292
01:10:23,736 --> 01:10:26,222
and not isolate myself
so much.

1293
01:10:26,325 --> 01:10:29,017
I'm ready to move on

1294
01:10:29,121 --> 01:10:30,916
to the next adventure
of my life.

1295
01:10:31,019 --> 01:10:35,507
♪ ♪

1296
01:10:38,199 --> 01:10:39,752
[dramatic music]

1297
01:10:40,753 --> 01:10:42,652
♪ ♪

1298
01:10:42,755 --> 01:10:46,966
- With the ice, I just walked
and enjoy the view.

1299
01:10:47,070 --> 01:10:49,866
I--I just thought
of my partner

1300
01:10:49,969 --> 01:10:53,318
and got a little bit emotional.

1301
01:10:53,421 --> 01:10:57,667
Just that, since day zero,
I had this plan of, like,

1302
01:10:57,770 --> 01:11:01,360
I'm gonna go in the ice...

1303
01:11:01,464 --> 01:11:03,776
and...

1304
01:11:03,880 --> 01:11:06,365
- [laughs]

1305
01:11:06,469 --> 01:11:08,885
[crying, laughing]

1306
01:11:08,988 --> 01:11:12,337
♪ ♪

1307
01:11:12,440 --> 01:11:13,614
- Baby.

1308
01:11:13,717 --> 01:11:15,719
♪ ♪

1309
01:11:15,823 --> 01:11:17,894
I'm so glad they brought you!

1310
01:11:17,997 --> 01:11:19,827
- [laughs]
- [inaudible]

1311
01:11:19,930 --> 01:11:23,762
♪ ♪

1312
01:11:23,865 --> 01:11:25,695
- You're amazing.

1313
01:11:25,798 --> 01:11:26,972
- Thank you.

1314
01:11:29,595 --> 01:11:30,838
- I know. It's just, like--

1315
01:11:30,941 --> 01:11:34,013
it's hitting me slowly, OK?

1316
01:11:34,117 --> 01:11:36,775
Like, it's a shock. It's great.

1317
01:11:36,878 --> 01:11:38,673
- Your shelter looks awesome.
- Yeah, I want to--

1318
01:11:38,777 --> 01:11:41,745
I want to show you
my shelter so bad.

1319
01:11:42,884 --> 01:11:44,817
- And it's so beautiful here.

1320
01:11:44,921 --> 01:11:47,199
- Yeah, it is beautiful.

1321
01:11:47,303 --> 01:11:48,959
- This is so nice.

1322
01:11:49,063 --> 01:11:51,824
[laughs]

1323
01:11:51,928 --> 01:11:55,000
- I'm so glad to show
her my shelter and just, like,

1324
01:11:55,103 --> 01:11:59,384
to show her where I spent,
like, 70-plus days.

1325
01:11:59,487 --> 01:12:01,869
By the way,
we never speak in English--

1326
01:12:01,972 --> 01:12:04,147
- [laughs]
- So it's a bit odd.

1327
01:12:04,250 --> 01:12:06,045
♪ ♪

1328
01:12:06,149 --> 01:12:07,564
[laughs]

1329
01:12:07,668 --> 01:12:08,703
- Wow, that's so cool.

1330
01:12:08,807 --> 01:12:10,740
- So see how it fits there?

1331
01:12:10,843 --> 01:12:13,190
And then this is the door.

1332
01:12:13,294 --> 01:12:14,951
- Wow.

1333
01:12:15,054 --> 01:12:17,367
- And then, yeah,
these are all cans.

1334
01:12:17,471 --> 01:12:19,921
And this is a can
over here too.

1335
01:12:20,025 --> 01:12:21,544
- Oh, my gosh.

1336
01:12:21,647 --> 01:12:24,512
- I just feel so happy
that Jennifer is here.

1337
01:12:24,616 --> 01:12:27,998
♪ ♪

1338
01:12:28,102 --> 01:12:29,379
- [laughs]

1339
01:12:29,483 --> 01:12:31,416
- Such an amazing day.

1340
01:12:31,519 --> 01:12:34,211
♪ ♪

1341
01:12:34,315 --> 01:12:35,903
We can go on the ice.

1342
01:12:36,006 --> 01:12:38,561
- Yeah, let's go.

1343
01:12:38,664 --> 01:12:40,804
- It's slowly sinking in.

1344
01:12:40,908 --> 01:12:45,257
I still cannot believe I won
half a million dollars.

1345
01:12:45,361 --> 01:12:47,017
It's kind of nice
to show the world

1346
01:12:47,121 --> 01:12:48,709
that I'm freaking tough.

1347
01:12:50,642 --> 01:12:52,091
- No.
- No?

1348
01:12:52,195 --> 01:12:54,818
- I drank three liters
in one hour.

1349
01:12:56,579 --> 01:12:58,581
- Oh. No, it's fine.

1350
01:12:58,684 --> 01:12:59,789
- Not right now. I'm good.

1351
01:12:59,892 --> 01:13:01,446
- OK.

1352
01:13:01,549 --> 01:13:03,655
- Like, I'm good.

1353
01:13:03,758 --> 01:13:05,967
[laughter]

1354
01:13:06,071 --> 01:13:07,452
Let's go on the ice.

1355
01:13:07,555 --> 01:13:08,660
♪ ♪

1356
01:13:08,763 --> 01:13:10,903
I'm the first Latino
to win "Alone."

1357
01:13:11,007 --> 01:13:12,388
It feels good.

1358
01:13:12,491 --> 01:13:13,734
I'm an urban person.

1359
01:13:13,837 --> 01:13:15,149
I'm from, like,

1360
01:13:15,252 --> 01:13:18,463
a 4-million people city
in Mexico.

1361
01:13:18,566 --> 01:13:19,947
That's where I was born.

1362
01:13:20,050 --> 01:13:24,400
And I think it's pretty cool
that you can show people

1363
01:13:24,503 --> 01:13:27,610
that you can come
from any background.

1364
01:13:27,713 --> 01:13:29,957
And if you are
passionate enough,

1365
01:13:30,060 --> 01:13:33,305
you can accomplish a lot.

1366
01:13:37,033 --> 01:13:39,173
- I know! [laughs]

1367
01:13:39,276 --> 01:13:41,209
- It was so hard, right?

1368
01:13:41,313 --> 01:13:43,246
- It was hard,
but it's such a blur.

1369
01:13:43,349 --> 01:13:44,730
It's such a blur.

1370
01:13:44,834 --> 01:13:46,111
♪ ♪

1371
01:13:46,214 --> 01:13:51,254
I just feel
like I've achieved something

1372
01:13:51,357 --> 01:13:54,775
that I worked so hard
to achieve.

1373
01:13:54,878 --> 01:13:56,121
♪ ♪

1374
01:13:56,224 --> 01:13:59,193
I just felt, like,
possessed by this dream

1375
01:13:59,296 --> 01:14:03,059
of, like,
I need to win "Alone,"

1376
01:14:03,162 --> 01:14:05,924
so I'm gonna do it
no matter what.

1377
01:14:06,027 --> 01:14:09,893
Sometimes,
I can be so task-oriented.

1378
01:14:09,997 --> 01:14:13,138
But there was a lot of heart,

1379
01:14:13,241 --> 01:14:15,623
a lot of heart
I put into this.

1380
01:14:15,727 --> 01:14:18,419
[helicopter whirring]

1381
01:14:18,523 --> 01:14:22,319
I got the perfect
closure for this journey.

1382
01:14:22,423 --> 01:14:24,943
I think I progressed
on my next stage,

1383
01:14:25,046 --> 01:14:27,255
from not caring
what people think about me

1384
01:14:27,359 --> 01:14:30,051
to...just being more open

1385
01:14:30,155 --> 01:14:32,260
about showing my emotions.

1386
01:14:32,364 --> 01:14:33,434
♪ ♪

1387
01:14:33,538 --> 01:14:36,126
Jennifer is an amazing person.

1388
01:14:36,230 --> 01:14:39,233
We've done so many
adventures together.

1389
01:14:39,336 --> 01:14:42,961
And now,
we can fulfill our dreams.

1390
01:14:43,064 --> 01:14:47,759
I'm really excited to start
this new chapter in my life.