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Be honest. You miss him.
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Every day.
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And so you came up with this idea.
The frozen man.
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He doesn't age.
He doesn't change.
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You don't like change.
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I'm okay with change.
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Hon, please.
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You told me about your house.
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You still have his voice
on the answering machine.
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His clothes in the closet.
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- Can't I miss my husband?
- Dr. Bird, don't bullshit me.
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You've been in my seat.
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If I were sitting here right now telling you
how my husband died 20 years ago...
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...and I haven't touched a thing,
and not only...
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...but I keep this fantasy alive
that he isn't dead.
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He's actually frozen
in some kind of cryogenic chamber.
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He's coming back.
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But you see it, right?
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How you're the one who's frozen?
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Tell me about your mother.
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She died loading the dishwasher.
January 2nd.
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A Thursday. I was 5.
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We were in the yellow house
on Potsdamer Platz.
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This was when Pops
was stationed in Germany.
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I'm in half pants and a dinosaur shirt
playing with Silly Putty on the floor.
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You could press it
into the newspaper...
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...make a copy of Marmaduke, etcetera.
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- Hmm.
- Heh, heh.
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9:15 in the morning.
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It was raining
and it stopped and the sun came out.
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And I'm pressing the Silly Putty
to this paper on the floor.
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This black and white linoleum
in, like, a chevron pattern.
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And the kitchen is warm from the steam
when you open the dishwasher.
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And she finished the plates
and took out the cutlery basket.
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[CHUCKLES]
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Did you know they called it that?
A cutlery basket?
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No.
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- Ha-ha-ha.
- Hmm.
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She's unloading the dinner dishes,
singing along with the radio.
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"99 Luftballoons."
She had a nice voice.
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You spend a lot of time in this memory.
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In the past.
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I like to think I'm a time traveler.
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I go back, back, back.
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But all I can do is watch.
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You see how unhealthy that is,
this attachment between you.
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Oh.... Uh...
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I know why you'd think that,
but we're really--
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- The same person. Basically.
- Yeah, basically.
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- The way we move and how we....
- Finish each other's sentences almost.
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Not that we're-- I mean, I know we're not
literally the same, like, sharing a body or--
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That'd be--
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We're not crazy, we just really....
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KERRY: Really like being together.
- Or not "like," but, um....
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What's it--? Who's it hurting?
That's my....
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- That's what I wanna know.
- Mm.
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I'm sensing a lot of hostility.
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Didn't you tell me how you were
the last boy in your class to mature?
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Your voice dropping,
the hair coming in, down there?
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It's not a race.
What a boy goes through.
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His physical and emotional growth.
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What matters is where you end up.
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Do I seem like
less than a man to you now? Hmm?
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I'm just trying to help you see the truth.
This constant anger.
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You feel isolated by the world,
but it's not the world isolating you.
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It's you.
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Look, I know you're just trying to help.
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But it just doesn't, for some reason,
feel real.
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Talk about that.
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I don't know. There's...
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Something's wrong.
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Like a dream, you know?
But not an interesting one.
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More like the one
where you're folding laundry.
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Or eating.
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Everything seems normal,
but somehow you know.
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Okay.
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Well, the old clock on the wall says
it's time for your meds...
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...so let's pick this up tomorrow.
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Okay?
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[WOMAN OVER PA
SPEAKING INDISTINCTLY]
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[INDISTINCT CHATTERING]
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[MUSIC BLARING]
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[INDISTINCT CHATTERING]
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[PA WHIRS]
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WOMAN [OVER PA]: Sydney Barrett
to nurse's station. This is warning number one.
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MAN 1: Yeah. I like it.
MAN 2: Yeah, yeah.
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MAN 1: Ooh.
MAN 2: Yeah, yeah.
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MAN 1: Heh. Yeah.
MAN 2: Yeah.
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[INDISTINCT CHATTERING]
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MAN:
Twenty-nine, you have....
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Spot check. Arms out.
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Do we...?
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I just....
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You know I can't stand to be touched.
There's a note in....
95
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It's just spit, right? Human spit?
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Maybe he ate yogurt.
Like a creamy or...?
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What's he on? Klonopin?
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Yeah, Klonopin'll-- Or....
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Hold the phone, yogurt and Klonopin.
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That old cocktail.
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DAVID: Do you ever wonder
what he was like before this place?
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Like, did he have a bank account
or a girlfriend?
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- Maybe he loved dogs.
- Everybody loves dogs.
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Not me.
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00:09:06,507 --> 00:09:13,472
- I'm saying, who was he before this?
- Who were you?
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Who was I? There is no before.
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Not once the sickness starts.
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That's the lie, the cruelest joke.
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How somehow, with the right dosage,
the right therapy...
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...stand on one leg, touch your nose,
we could all go back to, what?
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Loving dogs?
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Twenty bucks it breaks before
it hits the floor.
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- It never breaks.
PTONOMY: Never say never.
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Hi.
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- There's pie at lunch.
- I got an inside track.
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- Fish fingers, broccoli florets and pie. Heh.
- Cherry.
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00:10:04,481 --> 00:10:08,819
Paul knows this guy in the cafeteria.
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That so? I know you love that.
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00:10:16,243 --> 00:10:19,663
Hey, did you guys notice there's
a different door in the south hall?
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Different how?
121
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- It's like a bedroom door, like from a--
- David.
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- Hey. It's time for your session.
DAVID: Um....
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LENNY:
So, how are you feeling?
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Good, you know.
I've been much clearer actually.
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I really feel like I've found myself here.
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[CLASSICAL MUSIC PLAYING
OVER PHONOGRAPH]
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DAVID:
A rhythm, a sense of peace.
128
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I'm reading a lot, painting.
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00:11:07,419 --> 00:11:10,172
And with Syd, how close we've gotten.
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- The world is starting to make sense.
LENNY: Hmm.
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Good.
132
00:11:17,554 --> 00:11:20,474
And these issues you used to raise...
133
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...feelings of separation,
of difference from the rest of the world?
134
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Well, I have somebody now, you know?
A relationship and that-- I don't know.
135
00:11:32,861 --> 00:11:38,242
I just feel in control here.
Like, my expectations.
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Like I'm not trying to bite off
more than I can chew.
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But at the same time,
I have so much more than--
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Do you ever worry you'll lose it?
139
00:11:48,877 --> 00:11:52,965
I used to, all the time.
140
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I think about the mirage,
how this feeling, clarity...
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...how maybe that's just...
142
00:12:02,808 --> 00:12:06,061
...you know, a symptom of the other
side of the disease kicking in.
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00:12:06,228 --> 00:12:07,980
- You're talking about mania.
- Yes.
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Because people always talk
about the depression side...
145
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...but it's the other side,
that invulnerable feeling...
146
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...that's dangerous.
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I just don't wanna mess things up,
you know?
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Now that I have balance.
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Stop. No pie for you.
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00:13:13,462 --> 00:13:15,714
What? Why?
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Mm.
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- Here. Take mine.
AMY: No.
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Eat.
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00:13:38,070 --> 00:13:44,326
- No. Not if you can't have any.
- Go ahead. It's just pie.
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[RETCHES]
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- There's bugs. Bugs, bugs.
- You okay?
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00:14:03,887 --> 00:14:07,641
[INDISTINCT CHATTERING]
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00:14:07,849 --> 00:14:09,309
[ROCK MUSIC PLAYING]
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00:14:09,518 --> 00:14:14,356
Sun in the sky
You know how I feel
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00:14:15,399 --> 00:14:20,445
Breeze driftin' on by
You know how I feel
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00:14:21,655 --> 00:14:23,282
It's a new dawn
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00:14:23,448 --> 00:14:26,034
It's a new day
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It's a new life for me, yeah
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It's a new dawn
It's a new day
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It's a new life for me
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00:14:38,755 --> 00:14:42,342
And I'm feeling good
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Fish in the sea
You know how I feel
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00:14:59,443 --> 00:15:04,531
River running free
You know how I feel
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00:15:05,449 --> 00:15:10,078
Blossom on the tree
You know how I feel
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00:15:10,245 --> 00:15:13,290
It's a new dawn
It's a new day
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It's a new life
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00:15:15,917 --> 00:15:18,253
For me
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And I'm feeling good
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00:15:28,513 --> 00:15:30,057
You know how I feel
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00:15:40,734 --> 00:15:42,611
You know how I feel
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Birds flyin' high, high, high
You know how I feel
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Feel, feel
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Sun in the sky
You know how I feel
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Breeze driftin' on by
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[WOMAN SPEAKING OVER PA
INDISTINCTLY]
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[SYD WHIMPERING]
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Boo.
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Jesus.
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- Are you allowed to be in here?
- Don't be a baby. Move over.
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00:17:24,921 --> 00:17:28,383
- What?
- Nothing.
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00:17:32,053 --> 00:17:34,181
I just....
187
00:17:34,347 --> 00:17:39,519
You ever have that feeling
like something's happened before?
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Except differently.
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So like déjà vu, but different.
190
00:17:50,697 --> 00:17:54,576
Are you happy here?
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00:17:56,328 --> 00:18:00,081
Look at us.
Why wouldn't I be happy?
192
00:18:00,248 --> 00:18:07,255
I know, but shouldn't we be trying
to get better, get out?
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00:18:07,881 --> 00:18:11,009
I'm no good at out there.
194
00:18:11,176 --> 00:18:15,806
No. It's too much. Too loud.
195
00:18:15,972 --> 00:18:19,017
It's life. What life is.
196
00:18:19,184 --> 00:18:22,687
Well, the last time I tried "life"...
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00:18:22,854 --> 00:18:25,524
...I ended up with an extension cord
around my neck so--
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00:18:25,690 --> 00:18:27,818
I'm not saying....
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00:18:30,070 --> 00:18:32,823
I know it's not gonna be easy
but come on...
200
00:18:32,989 --> 00:18:36,076
...you can't stay here forever,
popping pills five times a day.
201
00:18:37,911 --> 00:18:40,872
First, I am down to twice a day.
202
00:18:41,039 --> 00:18:45,585
And second, maybe, who knows?
203
00:18:45,752 --> 00:18:50,549
Maybe they'll give us our own room.
We could be together.
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00:18:50,715 --> 00:18:54,970
You know?
Simple, just living day by day.
205
00:18:55,136 --> 00:18:57,514
Till what? Osteoporosis?
206
00:19:00,225 --> 00:19:03,812
You really want to grow old
in a mental hospital?
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00:19:04,688 --> 00:19:08,900
- Die here, surrounded by--?
- What? The other freaks?
208
00:19:09,067 --> 00:19:11,027
Maybe we should.
Maybe we belong here.
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00:19:11,194 --> 00:19:14,990
Lenny, Dr. Busker, she says that not
everybody is cut out for real life...
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...the grind of it.
211
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And me with my sensitivity.
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00:19:24,457 --> 00:19:28,545
I need the routine, the grounding.
I'm good.
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00:19:31,381 --> 00:19:33,842
I can't stay here.
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00:19:37,596 --> 00:19:39,806
Not even for me?
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00:19:51,192 --> 00:19:52,277
CARY:
Abilify.
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[INDISTINCT CHATTERING]
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00:19:59,576 --> 00:20:01,745
KERRY:
Brintellix.
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00:20:02,746 --> 00:20:09,753
[INDISTINCT CHATTERING]
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00:20:14,090 --> 00:20:15,175
CARY:
Chlorpromazine.
220
00:20:19,471 --> 00:20:21,640
Duloxetine.
221
00:20:21,806 --> 00:20:23,767
Escitalopram.
222
00:20:23,934 --> 00:20:27,187
MELANIE: Such a beautiful day.
- Flupentixol.
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CARY:
That's an injectable.
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00:20:29,481 --> 00:20:33,526
- You ever seen a sky so blue?
- It can also be a tablet.
225
00:20:33,693 --> 00:20:34,819
Mm....
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00:20:34,986 --> 00:20:38,657
I'll allow it. Geodon.
227
00:20:40,659 --> 00:20:45,288
- We're exercising our minds.
- Yeah, I see that.
228
00:20:46,289 --> 00:20:50,085
- Sorry. I didn't sleep well.
KERRY: Is it the dream again?
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I'm in a room that's not a room...
230
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...full of people I can't see.
231
00:21:01,763 --> 00:21:05,100
And there's this feeling,
like we're already dead.
232
00:21:05,266 --> 00:21:07,477
We just don't know it.
233
00:21:09,938 --> 00:21:13,149
- Clozapine.
- Or Effexor in large doses.
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00:21:13,316 --> 00:21:14,567
Yeah.
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00:21:22,993 --> 00:21:28,289
I personally dreamed
of a very large ice cube.
236
00:21:28,456 --> 00:21:32,919
Which.... You know,
I could kill for, like, a lemonade.
237
00:21:33,086 --> 00:21:36,172
- A nice frosty....
- Mine was....
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00:21:37,007 --> 00:21:38,633
Wait.
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00:21:39,092 --> 00:21:43,596
Do you remember that old movie,
20,000 Leagues Under the Sea?
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00:21:43,763 --> 00:21:46,433
- Melanie?
- What?
241
00:21:46,599 --> 00:21:49,477
- What do you dream about?
- Love.
242
00:21:51,062 --> 00:21:58,069
Have you guys noticed a door in the hall?
It's not always there.
243
00:21:58,278 --> 00:22:01,823
So where is it?
When it's not there, I mean.
244
00:22:01,990 --> 00:22:05,326
SYD: Exactly.
- What?
245
00:22:05,493 --> 00:22:08,872
How can a door be there
and not be there at the same time?
246
00:22:09,039 --> 00:22:13,376
Uh.... Alternate dimensions, perhaps.
247
00:22:13,543 --> 00:22:18,631
Or physical displacement rooted
in four dimensional geometry.
248
00:22:18,798 --> 00:22:23,053
Or simpler still, the subject...
249
00:22:23,219 --> 00:22:26,598
...you, confusing one hallway
with another.
250
00:22:26,765 --> 00:22:30,518
- I'm not making it up.
- Oh, no. No one said making up.
251
00:22:30,685 --> 00:22:34,230
Confusing is what I said, as in the
interchangeability of the hallways...
252
00:22:34,397 --> 00:22:40,361
...and how one memory could
be confused with another memory.
253
00:22:40,528 --> 00:22:44,657
No. This is something else.
254
00:23:00,924 --> 00:23:02,425
[KERRY CHUCKLES]
255
00:23:09,849 --> 00:23:14,646
Hold that thought.
I have to go to the little boy's room.
256
00:24:02,152 --> 00:24:05,488
- Aah! Uncle, uncle. It's me.
- Sorry.
257
00:24:05,655 --> 00:24:08,825
That's quite a grip you've got there. Heh.
258
00:24:17,959 --> 00:24:22,005
I'll be right next door, okay?
If you get scared, just knock on the wall.
259
00:24:22,172 --> 00:24:23,298
Affirmative.
260
00:24:56,664 --> 00:24:58,374
Namaste.
261
00:25:10,303 --> 00:25:12,889
[KNOCKS ON WALL]
262
00:25:15,516 --> 00:25:17,143
Hmm.
263
00:26:26,713 --> 00:26:28,047
Hello.
264
00:26:29,215 --> 00:26:30,925
Hello.
265
00:26:31,551 --> 00:26:33,344
[CARY SPEAKS IN GERMAN]
266
00:26:34,178 --> 00:26:36,556
[SPEAKS IN SPANISH]
267
00:26:38,891 --> 00:26:41,269
[SPEAKING IN JAPANESE]
268
00:26:41,436 --> 00:26:43,104
Uh....
269
00:26:44,564 --> 00:26:48,276
[IN ENGLISH]
I'm.... Is this...?
270
00:26:48,443 --> 00:26:52,405
Am I dreaming?
I saw an ice cube.
271
00:26:52,572 --> 00:26:55,283
Like, a huge....
272
00:26:57,327 --> 00:27:01,164
Can you take me there?
273
00:27:08,046 --> 00:27:09,172
Oh.
274
00:27:09,339 --> 00:27:10,798
Yeah.
275
00:27:12,967 --> 00:27:17,638
[CLASSICAL MUSIC PLAYING
OVER SPEAKER]
276
00:27:24,354 --> 00:27:25,480
Maybe.
277
00:27:27,607 --> 00:27:28,649
Maybe what?
278
00:27:28,816 --> 00:27:31,194
Well, I was thinking about that door...
279
00:27:31,361 --> 00:27:34,238
...and how it's there sometimes
and not other times.
280
00:27:34,405 --> 00:27:35,448
And how....
281
00:27:35,615 --> 00:27:40,453
I didn't tell you this, but I heard banging
inside, like someone wanted to get out.
282
00:27:40,620 --> 00:27:41,996
Except nobody else....
283
00:27:42,163 --> 00:27:45,249
And then I thought, you know,
I've had this feeling for weeks...
284
00:27:45,416 --> 00:27:48,711
...of how sometimes this place
just doesn't seem real.
285
00:27:48,878 --> 00:27:53,299
And in this book I'm reading about
dream states and memory palaces...
286
00:27:53,466 --> 00:27:57,762
...and this idea of how maybe this place,
the hospital...
287
00:27:57,929 --> 00:28:03,017
...maybe it's a version of reality
and not reality itself.
288
00:28:04,435 --> 00:28:05,478
[SIGHS]
289
00:28:05,645 --> 00:28:07,980
- What?
- Just be careful.
290
00:28:09,857 --> 00:28:12,402
- What do you mean?
- Nothing.
291
00:28:13,861 --> 00:28:18,741
Just with your diagnosis.
And the things you're saying.
292
00:28:18,908 --> 00:28:21,285
I would hate them to find out
and up your meds.
293
00:28:22,120 --> 00:28:24,122
What do you mean?
294
00:28:24,288 --> 00:28:28,167
What do imaginary doors have to do
with not wanting to be touched?
295
00:28:29,836 --> 00:28:34,674
- What do you mean touched?
- You know, my thing.
296
00:28:34,841 --> 00:28:37,468
How I don't like to be touched.
How it hurts me.
297
00:28:41,013 --> 00:28:44,058
Uh, well.
298
00:28:44,809 --> 00:28:46,686
That's not....
299
00:28:47,895 --> 00:28:51,983
You're in here because of, well,
the delusional thinking, right?
300
00:28:52,150 --> 00:28:57,822
- Seeing things that aren't real.
- No. That's you.
301
00:28:57,989 --> 00:29:01,993
Me? No, I'm manic depression.
Sad, happy. Sad, happy.
302
00:29:02,160 --> 00:29:04,412
Just more so. Remember?
303
00:29:04,579 --> 00:29:08,833
All the stories, awake for 72 hours straight,
the frantic alphabetizing...
304
00:29:09,000 --> 00:29:11,627
...and then I tied a knot.
305
00:29:11,794 --> 00:29:17,467
What are you talking about?
You're schizophrenic.
306
00:29:17,633 --> 00:29:21,387
I have an anti-social personality disorder.
307
00:29:21,554 --> 00:29:24,098
- Schizo--?
- I'm not....
308
00:29:24,265 --> 00:29:26,309
I don't have crazy thoughts.
You're the....
309
00:29:26,476 --> 00:29:28,728
I just don't wanna--
Why are you saying that?
310
00:29:28,895 --> 00:29:31,689
You're right. I'm--
I must have gotten....
311
00:29:31,856 --> 00:29:33,065
- David.
- Look. I'm sorry.
312
00:29:33,232 --> 00:29:36,402
You're much, much better.
And I shouldn't have--
313
00:29:36,569 --> 00:29:38,696
It's like-- Dr. Busker says it's like...
314
00:29:38,863 --> 00:29:41,240
...how you're not supposed
to wake a sleep walker.
315
00:29:41,407 --> 00:29:44,744
I wanna make sure that you're not,
because when I start to turn...
316
00:29:44,911 --> 00:29:49,832
...when the sad lifts and the manic comes
on, you know, at first it feels good.
317
00:29:49,999 --> 00:29:54,128
You know? Like I have more energy.
I feel more positive.
318
00:29:54,295 --> 00:29:58,591
- David, I'm not psychotic.
- No. I never said--
319
00:29:58,758 --> 00:30:02,345
Baby, please. You are so much
better than when you first....
320
00:30:02,512 --> 00:30:06,766
I mean, they had you in straps.
Remember? Raving and violent.
321
00:30:06,933 --> 00:30:13,064
So just, for me,
just take some deep breaths. Okay?
322
00:30:14,482 --> 00:30:15,525
[EXHALES]
323
00:30:15,691 --> 00:30:20,238
It's just a hospital.
All the doors are hospital doors.
324
00:30:21,531 --> 00:30:22,573
I'm....
325
00:30:25,743 --> 00:30:28,037
I got to go.
326
00:30:28,204 --> 00:30:29,372
Syd.
327
00:30:31,541 --> 00:30:32,583
Syd, wait.
328
00:30:35,628 --> 00:30:36,921
Syd.
329
00:31:15,418 --> 00:31:18,462
LENNY:
I killed your friend.
330
00:31:20,840 --> 00:31:21,882
[GRUNTS]
331
00:31:22,049 --> 00:31:23,676
DAVID: Wanna be my girlfriend?
LENNY: Hey, gorgeous.
332
00:31:23,843 --> 00:31:25,011
[SYD SCREAMING]
333
00:31:28,514 --> 00:31:30,224
DAVID:
I'm the magic man.
334
00:31:42,320 --> 00:31:45,031
- Sydney?
- Aah. Hey.
335
00:31:45,197 --> 00:31:48,618
What are you doing out here?
It's after hours.
336
00:31:49,493 --> 00:31:52,163
I'm sorry. I was just on my way
back from the bathroom.
337
00:31:52,330 --> 00:31:56,083
- Do you like music?
- Music?
338
00:31:56,250 --> 00:31:59,754
I've had a lot of luck lately
with music therapies.
339
00:31:59,920 --> 00:32:01,756
Patients find it very calming.
340
00:32:01,922 --> 00:32:03,799
Yeah, I like music. I'm just, you know.
341
00:32:03,966 --> 00:32:06,344
- It's bedtime and all that.
- It's okay.
342
00:32:07,553 --> 00:32:09,263
Go ahead.
343
00:32:10,973 --> 00:32:15,019
Go ahead. Put them on.
344
00:32:19,774 --> 00:32:21,233
Hmm.
345
00:32:23,611 --> 00:32:26,280
[CHIRPING]
346
00:32:30,951 --> 00:32:32,578
It's beautiful.
347
00:32:35,206 --> 00:32:36,415
What is it?
348
00:32:37,583 --> 00:32:41,462
- Crickets.
- Crickets?
349
00:32:41,629 --> 00:32:43,214
Just listen.
350
00:34:35,075 --> 00:34:37,244
[GASPING]
351
00:35:02,019 --> 00:35:03,103
Cary?
352
00:35:03,813 --> 00:35:08,108
And when spring comes,
the baby birds must leave the nest.
353
00:35:10,194 --> 00:35:13,572
Did you see...?
Is Cary, is he out there?
354
00:35:14,532 --> 00:35:17,785
What big eyes you have, says the wolf.
355
00:35:19,078 --> 00:35:22,748
I-- Stop. I have to find--
I have to find him.
356
00:35:38,973 --> 00:35:40,099
Young.
357
00:35:41,141 --> 00:35:45,020
- Not too young.
- Careful, I bite.
358
00:35:45,271 --> 00:35:48,190
Hmm. Me too.
359
00:35:50,234 --> 00:35:52,069
Don't.
360
00:35:57,366 --> 00:36:01,412
Did you ever eat an animal
that was still living?
361
00:36:03,539 --> 00:36:09,253
There's a smell. A heat.
362
00:36:09,920 --> 00:36:11,255
[KERRY WHIMPERS]
363
00:36:11,672 --> 00:36:13,799
You're burning up.
364
00:36:17,761 --> 00:36:22,892
Cary! Cary! Cary! Cary!
365
00:36:24,476 --> 00:36:29,857
THE EYE: You can run, my love,
but there's just no place to go.
366
00:37:15,486 --> 00:37:18,906
AMY: Nobody wants you here.
DAVID: What?
367
00:37:19,073 --> 00:37:22,034
I said you're unwanted.
368
00:37:25,412 --> 00:37:30,584
- I have friends.
- They only pretend to like you.
369
00:37:31,335 --> 00:37:36,340
See? You know I'm right.
Your whole life you've felt it.
370
00:37:36,507 --> 00:37:39,760
You're a freak.
You're disgusting.
371
00:37:39,927 --> 00:37:43,806
We adopt you because we have to,
but deep down...
372
00:37:43,973 --> 00:37:47,893
...it's all we can do to keep from puking
whenever you're around.
373
00:37:50,604 --> 00:37:53,107
[RETCHING]
374
00:37:53,273 --> 00:37:55,985
[GRUNTING]
375
00:38:04,660 --> 00:38:06,662
[RETCHES THEN COUGHING]
376
00:38:06,829 --> 00:38:07,913
Stop.
377
00:38:08,080 --> 00:38:10,624
[AMY RETCHING]
378
00:38:56,253 --> 00:38:57,463
What's that, my love?
379
00:39:00,632 --> 00:39:03,385
Yes, I'm here.
380
00:39:05,637 --> 00:39:07,765
I've waited.
381
00:39:24,782 --> 00:39:27,409
Yes. I understand.
382
00:39:28,744 --> 00:39:31,163
I'm on my way.
383
00:40:43,610 --> 00:40:45,654
[GASPS]
384
00:40:54,454 --> 00:40:56,832
I don't understand.
385
00:40:57,457 --> 00:40:59,501
Why can't you just talk to me?
386
00:41:56,433 --> 00:41:59,269
[GRUNTING]
387
00:42:20,624 --> 00:42:22,876
[KNOCKS ON DOOR]
388
00:42:23,710 --> 00:42:25,671
Hello, David.
389
00:42:27,589 --> 00:42:30,300
- Our session's not until the morning.
- I know. I just....
390
00:42:30,467 --> 00:42:33,929
- Have you seen Syd?
- Have I seen her? No.
391
00:42:34,096 --> 00:42:37,224
But it is a locked ward.
She shouldn't be too hard to find.
392
00:42:37,391 --> 00:42:40,060
- I've looked everywhere.
- Sit.
393
00:42:40,644 --> 00:42:42,271
Please.
394
00:42:46,441 --> 00:42:50,487
I'm starting to wonder
if she's really the right girl for you.
395
00:42:51,363 --> 00:42:53,490
What do you--? We're in love.
396
00:42:56,827 --> 00:43:01,498
Do you know what love is? A chemical.
397
00:43:01,665 --> 00:43:06,670
Electrons in your brain, sending signals.
398
00:43:07,713 --> 00:43:12,467
Are you familiar
with Ophiocordyceps unilateralis?
399
00:43:12,634 --> 00:43:17,639
It's a fungus that infects ants.
It's amazing, really.
400
00:43:17,806 --> 00:43:21,226
The spores take over their
central nervous systems...
401
00:43:21,393 --> 00:43:23,895
...and force them to climb
to a high point...
402
00:43:24,062 --> 00:43:27,899
...and then the fungus
begins to grow up...
403
00:43:28,066 --> 00:43:33,989
...bursting from the tops
of their heads like a branch.
404
00:43:34,781 --> 00:43:37,534
And it kills them, of course.
405
00:43:38,201 --> 00:43:41,330
All so it can spray new spores...
406
00:43:41,496 --> 00:43:44,958
...over the jungle, infecting more ants.
407
00:43:45,584 --> 00:43:48,712
When people say love,
that's what I think of.
408
00:43:52,382 --> 00:43:57,637
- A simple "I haven't seen her" was all I--
- Tell me, what is the point of all this love?
409
00:43:57,804 --> 00:44:03,268
All the striving, the friendships?
410
00:44:03,935 --> 00:44:06,605
I mean,
what is the ****ing point of babies?
411
00:44:08,523 --> 00:44:11,193
- You mean life?
- Yes, life.
412
00:44:11,360 --> 00:44:13,362
What is the point of life?
413
00:44:13,528 --> 00:44:17,908
All of you running around trying to what,
be happy?
414
00:44:18,075 --> 00:44:21,745
- Fulfilled?
- You tell me.
415
00:44:22,746 --> 00:44:24,539
I'll say this.
416
00:44:24,706 --> 00:44:30,087
There's only one being in the vast
multiplicity of space that matters.
417
00:44:30,253 --> 00:44:34,716
God.
And do you know why God matters?
418
00:44:36,093 --> 00:44:38,011
- Power.
- Aah.
419
00:44:39,346 --> 00:44:43,975
That is the point of what you call life.
420
00:44:45,268 --> 00:44:46,436
The only point.
421
00:44:47,479 --> 00:44:49,356
Power.
422
00:44:50,816 --> 00:44:53,318
Walter understands.
423
00:45:02,994 --> 00:45:07,249
[BLACK EYE WHISTLING]
424
00:45:07,416 --> 00:45:09,960
[PANTING]
425
00:45:11,711 --> 00:45:13,839
LENNY:
David.
426
00:45:14,423 --> 00:45:16,425
I knew your father, did you know that?
427
00:45:17,467 --> 00:45:19,970
- My--?
- Your real father.
428
00:45:20,720 --> 00:45:22,806
The guy that gave you away.
429
00:45:23,682 --> 00:45:24,724
I know.
430
00:45:25,267 --> 00:45:27,644
Boo-hoo. Talk about an asshole.
431
00:45:27,811 --> 00:45:31,815
Always acting so holy
and then gives away his only son.
432
00:45:31,982 --> 00:45:33,024
Stop. Stop.
433
00:45:33,191 --> 00:45:37,571
He thought he could hide you from me,
but he was wrong.
434
00:45:37,737 --> 00:45:43,243
I found you.
Such a sweet little baby.
435
00:45:43,952 --> 00:45:49,499
And me, your very own walking...
436
00:45:49,666 --> 00:45:53,003
...talking fungus.
437
00:45:54,463 --> 00:45:58,175
What do you think he'll say
when he finds out?
438
00:45:58,675 --> 00:46:00,552
I'm trying to help you, kid. Come on.
439
00:46:00,719 --> 00:46:04,347
Man, you have so much potential.
440
00:46:04,514 --> 00:46:07,642
Much more powerful
than I ever imagined.
441
00:46:07,809 --> 00:46:10,312
I mean, I figured I'd just poison you
and move on...
442
00:46:10,479 --> 00:46:14,357
...but then I thought,
our powers together, man, that'll....
443
00:46:14,524 --> 00:46:16,151
A cocktail!
444
00:46:16,318 --> 00:46:19,529
Shit, we could give God
a run for his money, right?
445
00:46:19,696 --> 00:46:22,032
But then all this love bullshit.
446
00:46:22,199 --> 00:46:25,660
I'm beginning to think
I have to go it alone.
447
00:46:26,077 --> 00:46:28,413
Do you know what happens to you
in this scenario?
448
00:46:37,047 --> 00:46:39,299
- Doctor.
- Please, Lenny.
449
00:46:39,841 --> 00:46:42,219
Come on, we've known each other
since the womb.
450
00:46:43,678 --> 00:46:47,933
- What did you do to Syd?
- Oh, shut up.
451
00:46:48,099 --> 00:46:53,188
I've tried making you comfortable.
I let you have your friends, your woman.
452
00:46:54,439 --> 00:46:57,859
But the fact is, it's too much work.
And honestly?
453
00:46:58,026 --> 00:47:01,696
All I need from you is your body.
And your mind?
454
00:47:01,863 --> 00:47:05,534
Well, I could give a shit about your mind.
455
00:47:06,701 --> 00:47:07,869
[EXHALES AUDIBLY]
456
00:47:08,036 --> 00:47:09,621
[PANTING]
457
00:47:09,788 --> 00:47:11,164
[THUDDING]
458
00:47:11,331 --> 00:47:13,875
[INDISTINCT CHATTERING]
459
00:47:18,547 --> 00:47:20,215
DAVID:
Help!
460
00:47:20,799 --> 00:47:22,884
Help!
461
00:47:23,051 --> 00:47:26,012
[INDISTINCT YELLING]
462
00:47:34,396 --> 00:47:35,647
[ROCK MUSIC PLAYING]
463
00:47:35,855 --> 00:47:38,650
Wake up, you sleepy head
464
00:47:38,817 --> 00:47:42,362
Put on some clothes
Shake off your bed
465
00:47:42,529 --> 00:47:46,199
Put another log on the fire for me
466
00:47:46,366 --> 00:47:49,661
I've made some breakfast and coffee
467
00:47:49,828 --> 00:47:53,373
Look out my window, what do I see
468
00:47:53,540 --> 00:47:58,670
A crack in the sky
And a hand reaching down to me
469
00:47:58,837 --> 00:48:01,756
All the nightmares came today
470
00:48:02,799 --> 00:48:07,345
Looks as though
They're here to stay
471
00:48:08,722 --> 00:48:11,016
Oh, you pretty things
472
00:48:11,182 --> 00:48:12,809
Oh, you pretty things
473
00:48:12,976 --> 00:48:15,061
Don't you know you're driving
474
00:48:15,228 --> 00:48:21,610
Your mamas and papas insane?
475
00:48:22,152 --> 00:48:24,738
Oh, you pretty things
476
00:48:24,904 --> 00:48:26,448
Oh, you pretty things
477
00:48:26,615 --> 00:48:28,700
Don't you know you're driving
478
00:48:28,867 --> 00:48:33,622
Your mamas and papas insane?
479
00:48:33,788 --> 00:48:35,624
Let me make it plain
480
00:48:35,790 --> 00:48:42,797
You gotta make way for the Homo Superior
481
00:48:45,383 --> 00:48:48,345
Look at your children
482
00:48:48,595 --> 00:48:51,681
See their faces in golden rays
483
00:48:51,848 --> 00:48:55,852
Don't kid yourself they belong to you
484
00:48:56,019 --> 00:48:58,938
They're the start of a coming race
485
00:48:59,105 --> 00:49:00,732
The earth is a bitch
486
00:49:00,899 --> 00:49:03,151
We've finished our news
487
00:49:03,318 --> 00:49:07,822
Homo sapiens have outgrown their use
488
00:49:07,989 --> 00:49:11,868
All the strangers came today
489
00:49:12,035 --> 00:49:16,748
And it looks as though they're here to stay
490
00:49:17,666 --> 00:49:20,126
Oh, you pretty things
491
00:49:20,293 --> 00:49:21,920
Oh, you pretty things
492
00:49:22,087 --> 00:49:24,214
Don't you know you're driving
493
00:49:24,381 --> 00:49:30,970
Your mamas and papas insane?
494
00:49:31,429 --> 00:49:33,890
Oh, you pretty things
495
00:49:34,057 --> 00:49:35,600
Oh, you pretty things
496
00:49:35,767 --> 00:49:37,936
Don't you know you're driving
497
00:49:38,103 --> 00:49:42,649
Your mamas and papas insane?