Oh, no.
No, no. Jo, don't.
You can't get up. You're in hospital.
There, there.
Alistair.
Joanna, it's OK.
Just lie down now.
I'd forgotten I used to be strong.
I knew I could be again. I had to...
...rescue myself.
You see, it's the Karpman triangle again.
Does that make me the persecutor?
It's been four months
since the disappearance of Noah.
After much discussion with the team
the senior colleagues both here and in Scotland
we've decided to scale the investigation down.
You're giving up?
No. The investigation stays open.
But we don't have any real suspects or enough evidence
to build a case that's going to stand up in Court.
Against us?
Or against anyone that we've been investigating.
There is always a possibility
that new evidence may be found.
Someone may remember something or someone may want to confess.
People think the weight of guilt will lessen with time
but in my experience, it's quite the opposite.
Let's hope you're right.
Woo!
Why are we here?
Well, I thought we could have a look.
I mean, if we, if we lived here, we'd be close to Chloe.
Close to Noah.
Live here?
Let's just have a look.
Come on in.
What is it?
I'm just trying to imagine us starting again.
Maybe having another baby.
I don't know.
We need to go home, don't we?
How?
Where is he?
Here.
Let me take a photo.
Sorry, I just wanted to have a look.
Powerless?
When someone else is in charge of your life, who decides
where you live, and how.
I wasn't a child, it was...
It was humiliating.
How did Alistair get that control?
I gave it to him.
Shameful.
And you wanted to get it back?
I can't sleep.
Please.
Take me to him.
And then I'll go home.
I'll have another baby.
I'll be the grieving wife.
I'll be the perfect... wife.
I'll be whoever the fuck you want me to be.
But I need to know where he is.
Understand me?
Thanks, mum.
I think that's the last lot.
I just want you to know, Al
I think your decision to return to Scotland is the right one.
It's important to get on with your lives.
Thanks, mum.
But It won't be easy.
No.
Little Noah.
Whether he's alive or not
someone knows what happened to him.
They have to live with that.
I just hope one day we know the truth.
Wouldn't you think if someone was going to feel remorse
they would have spoken up by now?
What if they didn't feel remorse?
They might have made a mistake.
Or a slip up.
Yes.
That's what the police were really hoping for, that
someone close to whoever took Noah
should've seen something and would have reported it.
It's not as easy as that though, is it?
What do you mean?
Well...
Whoever took Noah must be very good at hiding the truth.
Even from those close to them.
Well, it may not have been one person.
Two people can keep a secret much better than one.
OK, I can't even imagine that.
No.
No, you couldn't, mum.
I want you to think about coming to Scotland
in the next six months or so, and bringing Chloe with you.
A holiday.
Would you like that?
Yeah.
Yeah, that's a good idea.
Something to look forward to.
Joanna and Alistair
were living with you in Wildwood Bay
when the search for their missing child was in full swing.
How would you characterise their relationship?
They were under...
terrible, terrible stress
and pressure at that time.
So they fought?
I didn't say that.
They were coping with a dreadful situation
the best way they could.
How did you think Joanna responded
to the loss of her child?
She was devastated.
Tell me...
what kind of mother were you?
Excuse me?
Alistair was living in Scotland for ten years
and you never visited him once.
Yet you stayed in Scotland and visited in hospital
the woman accused of murdering your son.
What are we to think?
Objection, My Lord.
Mrs Robertson is not on trial.
Sustained.
No further questions, My Lord.
Excuse me
there's a couple of spare seats available in first class
and we'd like you to have them.
I'll help you get your bags.
It's like VIPs.
Stand back, just give us some space.
Some space, please.
Guys, I'm sure you can appreciate
that this is a very difficult time for Joanna and myself.
We would ask for some privacy
so we can try and rebuild our lives.
Are you smiling?
Are you gonna smile?
Give us a smile.
Can you smile?
Hi.
I need a signature.
Thank you.
Hey.
Ooh.
I'm here, I'm here.
Ooh...
Come on, ooh...
I'm here.
I've got you.
I can't see any way around it, Alistair.
Really? - My hands are tied.
There's no way I can risk my position by keeping you on.
You're serious.
I thought you of all people would understand.
Joanna and I are victims of a horrific crime.
I've lost my son and months of my life
and that makes me unsuitable to work for the party?
It was decided that your...
notoriety would cloud the role.
And how's your daughter?
Alistair, don't make this personal.
But you still have your seat
your job, because I managed your family's crisis
and many others before that.
Of course you're upset. OK, OK.
Perhaps I could call Stuart Galwick.
Stuart who? - Galwick.
He may have something for you in the party administration, or...
I don't know. Uh...
Al!
Hey. - Hey.
How are you? - I'm good.
Well, no, I've been better.
Yeah.
Oh, I can't believe that just happened.
Jo!
Here you are.
Hi.
They're pretty.
How was your day?
Hard.
Well, I lost my job.
The party don't want me back.
Bastard Fossery
he says we're too much in the public eye.
It's disgraceful.
I just spent the afternoon wandering about.
People treat me like the grieving mother.
I just want to... disappear.
I'll get you a glass of wine.
Do you ever hear me?
Yes.
Yes, I hear you.
I'm sorry you feel like that.
I've just lost my job.
I've got a bit to think about.
Hello.
What are you doing here?
Uh, the cleaner let me in.
You don't respond to my calls or texts anymore, so...
It's been...
It's been busy.
Shh... should I go?
No.
Sorry, um...
End of day, not myself.
What is that supposed to be?
Um...
"The monster was only pretending to be asleep."
Jesus, it's terrifying.
How are you?
Yeah,good. You know, busy.
You should come in and get your hair cut.
I've not had it out since I was away.
You should have made an appointment.
Yeah.
Yeah, maybe I could um...
Maybe I could come over
you know, when nobody else is around.
Of course.
We could have some wine...
Yeah.
It's OK.
Can you go?
Jo.
I'm fine, it's OK.
I'll call you.
I will, promise.
The PR consultant says that it's going to cost $1,000.
Uh-huh. - And the guy says
$1,000, that's expensive.
And the PR con...
Jo.
Hi- Hi-
Jo, this is... this is Jean Louise Talbot.
Hi. - Ah...
our mysterious publicist. - That's me.
I'll just get you a glass of wine.
Joanna, I'm so sorry for what you've been through.
Thank you.
Um, are we celebrating?
Yeah. The book deal came through today.
Um...
We've been commissioned to write a book.
Our story.
Oh, why would we want to do that?
People are very interested in both of you.
It will sell. - I wish they weren't.
I wish it would all just go away.
Exactly.
And you should make that a part of the book.
The intrusion of the press.
Be brutally honest about everything; why not?
And I might have a job. - If you want it, believe me
it's yours. - It's... it's...
It's an organisation called Broken Circle.
And it's, it's for parent's
who have lost their children to violent crimes
and they want me to come and work for them.
Broken Circle UK are one of my clients.
Alistair would be both spokesperson for the foundation
and manage their global press and publicity.
And Alistair's public position would help keep
the search for Noah in the public eye.
Well, that's... that's great.
Sorry, everything's just become...
very strange to me.
What we've become.
Of course.
What you've been through
I can't even begin to imagine.
There's a lot to take in.
Why don't I go?
Let you two talk about it.
So then, I'll walk you out.
It was really great to meet you.
So um...
See ya.
Are you actually considering this job?
Yeah.
It's um...
It's... its a good package. - It's such a lie.
How can you do it?
I know this experience from the inside.
I thought... I thought you'd be happy for m-
It would be ideal if she would, because you're seen as a team.
You're both Noah's parents.
You know how she feels about this stuff.
What if you sold it to her as a one-off? Just a...
good set of photos of the two of you for the website?
Or I could do it without her.
Yes.
You need to be aware
that it's Joanna the public most want to see and hear from.
It's photos of her that are the magnet.
You alone, not so much.
Mothers.
Fallen mothers.
Thank you for this.
It means a lot.
Just stills, no interviews? - Absolutely.
And don't ask me to cry.
Thank you.
You know, another baby's just what we need.
Yeah, you're right.
- Hi, Jo.
Oh, hello.
Ah, how was your flight?
Hello, Chloe.
Come in, it's cold. - Yeah.
This bag. - That's for you, that one there.
Oh, thank you.
Um, I've made up two beds in the spare bedroom.
My old bedroom?
Oh, of course. - Thank you.
Do you, uh, want a cup of tea, Mum?
Oh, Alistair, I'd love a cup of tea.
I'll just pop these...
here.
Everything looks smaller.
We're looking into opening
a branch of Broken Circle in Australia.
It makes sense, we, we had so much press there.
Did Alistair tell you he's writing a book?
Will I be in it?
No. Not, not much.
It's... it's about the investigation.
What about mum?
Yeah, I mean we'll we'll let Alexandra
read anything before it's published, of course.
You know, there are people...
still looking for Noah.
You, um...
you... you still read all the online stuff?
Yes.
Well, don't you?
Chloe... - We've tried not to.
It's too painful.
Well, how else is anyone gonna find him unless we keep trying?
This is what you guys should be doing
not having your photos taken like you're stupid celebrities.
Chloe, that's enough.
Perhaps we should call it a night.
Yeah.
Night.
Is it not the case that
Joanna Lyndsay is a stranger to the truth?
I don't know how to answer that.
Well, the accused is an adulteress who...
destroyed your marriage and left you a single mother.
Her only child apparently disappeared
when she popped into the shops.
Do you agree that she has a history
of covering up her own questionable behaviours?
I think there's a difference between lying...
and doing what you have to do, to survive.
I think Joanna was trapped.
Alistair was not an easy man...
to love.
Sorry I'm late.
Should we get a cab?
No, let's, let's walk.
I wish they weren't here tonight.
I know.
It's a tough day.
But let's try and celebrate.
Today?
On Noah's birthday?
Yes.
Marry me.
I want us to move forward.
I want us to get Chloe
to move over here, I wanna...
I wanna have another baby
maybe two.
Remember, we are invincible.
Together
we can do anything.
OK.
Great.
Let's tell Chloe tonight.
She'll be so excited for a wedding.
Hello?
What is this?
It's Noah's birthday today.
Chloe, what is all this?
Mum, what's going on?
I had no idea, I've been asleep.
I just bought some balloons from the shop.
The man gave me these streamers
he said he was throwing them out.
Did you forget?
You forgot it was his birthday?
Chloe... - This is what he might look like now.
Someone has made this, it's amazing.
I had no idea, I am so sorry, Jo.
Nan! - That's enough!
How could you be so stupid?
So insensitive?
I can't do this.
Jo, wait.
- Jo, please, wait.
Please. - Wait.
Oh, it's too horrible.
Chloe will be devastated, OK. She'll think you don't like her.
Well, I don't! - Jesus, Jo.
She's fifteen years old. - I don't want to be her mother!
The damage is too much to repair
and I don't want the responsibility of failing another child.
When something of this magnitude happens to a family
it may be many people '3 first experience
with the police, with lawyers and the press.
The Broken Circle Foundation puts the expert support
on the ground with the parents.
And we follow through for as long as it takes.
Was that alright?
You're amazing.
Let's go again.
Hey - Thanks for popping by.
Here it is.
All for you and Alistair.
Mostly to you though.
My God.
I can shred it all if you want.
No one expects you to respond to it.
No, I'd like to look through.
People took the time.
You have such heart
and it appears so genuine.
Effortless.
You are Alistair's greatest asset
and about to become his wife, I believe.
Uh...
Congrats.
I'll leave you to it.
”My deepest sympathies go out to you and your family."
”May God find you the comfort and peace that you seek."
"I know you did it. You're a liar and a fraud
and I hope you rot in hell."
”Dear Joanna...
I was sitting behind you...
on the flight to Melbourne.
Despite everything that has been said about you
I want you to know that I saw a young couple
caring for their baby with patience and love.
Even after we landed
your husband was so tender With the little fellow
at the car hire when he was crying.
/ Wish you well and hope you find some peace in your days."
Well, jetlag's not caused by lack of sleep.
You know that, right?
Ssh, ssh.
You're OK, bubba.
Barn! - Queen of Hearts.
Nine of Hearts. - Ten of Hearts.
Please.
Oh no skirt, that's your go...
I promise.
OK, hearts, hearts, King of Hearts.
Easy.
Perfect, let's go to the One of Spades.
Three of Diamonds.
Oh look.
You should hold onto that.
Remember the happiness you had with him.
Al, let's go for a drive.
What, now?
But I'm winning.
No you're not. - Yes, I am.
I need some fresh air.
We'll be back for dinner.
Now, that's a good idea.
Chloe, we can go to the art gallery.
Yeah, OK.
Just don't touch the game.
We'll finish it tonight.
A drive?
Cabin fever.
OK, where are we going?
I'm not sure.
Out of the city?
Sure.
I was thinking we should take Chloe down to London
before she goes home.
Get her excited about living here.
It'll take time.
When we have another baby
she'll want to be here, for sure.
I don't want another baby.
You've got to forgive yourself.
Let's drive.
Alistair...
I need to ask you something.
Did you give Noah medicine at the airport?
What?
At Melbourne Airport.
I went to get us coffee
you were at the car hire desk with Noah.
Did you give him medicine then?
No. What are you talking about?
Alistair.
Tell me.
Tell me the truth.
Did you?
Fuck.
Ssh, ssh, ssh.
There you go.
Yes.
And did you taste it?
No.
It was you.
All this time.
All of this time, you've let me believe it was me.
Jo, the medicine.
What?
When we found him
I was delirious.
I forgot that I gave him the medicine at the airport.
Well, you've remembered before now?
You could have told me, millions of times.
I wanted to tell you, Jo.
You have watched it destroy me.
Look, I've had to live with it too.
You're a coward.
I had to bury him.
I had to dig a hole
and put my son's body in it, he was dead.
He was gone: who did it, where he was buried
I mean, what did it matter? - Where he was buried?
What do you mean, where he was buried?
You took me there, you showed me where he was buried.
Oh my God!
You lied about that too. - Yes, because I had to!
The cops were tracking our every move!
They never followed us there.
Yes. Yes, they did and they found nothing.
He's not buried under the tree.
I drove you to a fake spot.
The cops tracked us there, they dug it up
and they found nothing. It helped us.
It took the heat off us. I did that!
I did that for us! For you!
The road was dry
and there was no evidence of skid marks
on the road at the point of exit.
Meaning? - Meaning no attempt had been made
to slow the car by applying the brake.
The damage to the car shows
that the car was travelling at speed when it came off the road.
Thank you. No more questions, My Lord.
Um, this is for you.
It's Alistair's things.
There's been enough pain.
You're family now.
How do you know if any of your patients
are telling you the truth?
Experience.
Time.
Instinct.
Am I telling you the truth?
My job is not to determine if you're telling the truth
but whether or not you're fit to stand trial.
Well, we both know I'm fit to stand trial.
What does your instinct...
tell you about my story?
I have everything I need to complete my report, Joanna.
Good luck.
Perhaps you can tell us in your own words
what happened on the afternoon of the 1st October last year.
It was the day after our son's birthday.
We went for a drive
out of town.
Um...
We were talking about...
Noah, together.
Quietly sharing our precious memories of him.
I... I took my eyes off the road for...
a second
and I missed a bend.
My fiancé died.
I lived.
So I could tell the truth.
My Lord, I'd like to request an adjournment.
I don't want that, I want to continue.
I'm sorry I've been the cause of so much grief
to Alistair's family.
When Noah...
left us...
Alistair and I, we were, um...
devastated.
- Jo!
Broken.
We had to try to rebuild our lives.
What we went through
brought out the best and...
worst
in both of us.
Help!
Where is my little boy?
Whoever took my son from me
made me think I had failed to protect him.
Made me think I was a bad mother.
I was a good mother.
I know I loved my son.
I loved Alistair.
You can judge me
how you see fit.
You can punish me as you see fit. I've...
I've already been to hell.
I've lost my child
and now I've lost Alistair.
The only person who truly...
knew the truth...
of my pain.
I did that!
I did that for us! For you!