1 00:00:04,804 --> 00:00:09,241 I have not slept a night, one night, 2 00:00:09,342 --> 00:00:11,076 since all this has started. 3 00:00:12,345 --> 00:00:13,946 My God. 4 00:00:15,615 --> 00:00:18,751 You think that you know somebody, 5 00:00:18,852 --> 00:00:21,120 and then they do something like this. 6 00:00:21,221 --> 00:00:22,454 I had nothing to lose. 7 00:00:24,190 --> 00:00:27,326 You got... there is absolutely nothing 8 00:00:27,427 --> 00:00:28,560 that could hurt me now. 9 00:00:28,661 --> 00:00:31,363 I have no consequences for my actions, 10 00:00:31,464 --> 00:00:32,865 and I plan on hurting people. 11 00:00:32,966 --> 00:00:37,302 It's just unbelievable that I've raised a child 12 00:00:37,404 --> 00:00:40,839 that would be capable of doing something like that. 13 00:00:40,940 --> 00:00:42,641 He wasn't raised like that. 14 00:00:42,742 --> 00:00:45,944 I wholeheartedly have nothing to lose, 15 00:00:46,046 --> 00:00:48,680 and I'm gonna take it out on everybody I can. 16 00:00:48,782 --> 00:00:51,116 I'd rather just kill people. It's much easier. 17 00:00:52,585 --> 00:00:55,154 My son is damaged goods. 18 00:00:55,255 --> 00:00:57,356 There's no fixing him now. 19 00:00:57,457 --> 00:01:00,592 You can't fix something that's that broken. 20 00:01:00,693 --> 00:01:06,732 ♪♪ 21 00:01:06,833 --> 00:01:08,067 MAN: Some of the most damning testimony in 22 00:01:08,168 --> 00:01:11,070 the trial of Peter Avsenew came from his own mother, 23 00:01:11,171 --> 00:01:13,105 the woman who turned him into police. 24 00:01:13,206 --> 00:01:16,041 JEANNE: He said he had done something that he needed to get 25 00:01:16,142 --> 00:01:18,844 away for six months, and then everything would be all right. 26 00:01:18,945 --> 00:01:22,147 People think I'm terrible, 27 00:01:22,248 --> 00:01:24,416 and I don't care. 28 00:01:24,517 --> 00:01:28,020 I couldn't let him continue doing what he was doing. 29 00:01:28,121 --> 00:01:29,721 Somebody had to stop him. 30 00:01:31,524 --> 00:01:34,560 He broke God's law... Thou shall not kill. 31 00:01:36,529 --> 00:01:39,932 When you break God's law, you have to pay up the God. 32 00:01:41,668 --> 00:01:45,104 But then he got two death sentences. 33 00:01:47,373 --> 00:01:49,508 God, I wish none of this had ever happened. 34 00:01:55,315 --> 00:01:57,783 [The Paper Chase's "What's So Amazing About Grace?" plays] 35 00:01:57,884 --> 00:02:00,886 [strings continue playing sinister tune] 36 00:02:00,987 --> 00:02:05,991 [static crackling] 37 00:02:06,092 --> 00:02:07,759 [knock at door] [creaking] 38 00:02:07,861 --> 00:02:12,931 [banging on door] 39 00:02:13,032 --> 00:02:18,170 [creaking] 40 00:02:18,271 --> 00:02:20,806 [water dripping] 41 00:02:20,907 --> 00:02:23,475 [banging on door] [creaking] 42 00:02:23,576 --> 00:02:24,943 [sinister chord strikes] 43 00:02:32,452 --> 00:02:35,854 I had the hardest time picking out these pictures, 44 00:02:35,955 --> 00:02:37,823 finding them, 45 00:02:37,924 --> 00:02:41,160 because it's so hard for me to look at them anymore. 46 00:02:41,261 --> 00:02:42,861 Just breaks my heart. 47 00:02:44,764 --> 00:02:46,465 It makes me cry. 48 00:02:48,301 --> 00:02:49,368 Never thought... 49 00:02:50,703 --> 00:02:52,704 we'd been doing what we're doing. 50 00:02:52,805 --> 00:02:54,439 When he was that age, 51 00:02:54,541 --> 00:02:57,643 he was the happiest little guy, always smiling. 52 00:02:57,744 --> 00:03:00,979 He had so much potential. 53 00:03:01,080 --> 00:03:02,814 I had such hopes for him. 54 00:03:05,985 --> 00:03:09,555 He was the light of my life, 55 00:03:09,656 --> 00:03:12,758 and then this monster came along, 56 00:03:12,859 --> 00:03:17,062 and where this monster came from, I don't know. 57 00:03:18,831 --> 00:03:23,569 All the hopes and dreams I had for him are just gone. 58 00:03:25,338 --> 00:03:27,539 I look at his pictures, 59 00:03:27,640 --> 00:03:31,143 and I say, "This is not a murderer. 60 00:03:31,244 --> 00:03:34,646 This can't be a murderer," but it is! 61 00:03:36,349 --> 00:03:38,450 What happened? 62 00:03:38,551 --> 00:03:41,753 What happened to make him turn into 63 00:03:41,854 --> 00:03:47,092 this horrible... psychotic... thing? 64 00:03:47,193 --> 00:03:54,600 ♪♪ 65 00:03:54,701 --> 00:04:02,701 ♪♪ 66 00:04:04,577 --> 00:04:06,078 He first started to change 67 00:04:06,179 --> 00:04:07,613 when my daughter was murdered. 68 00:04:10,183 --> 00:04:12,084 Peter was eight years old. 69 00:04:12,185 --> 00:04:15,287 I had to tell him, sat down on his bed and said 70 00:04:15,388 --> 00:04:18,357 I had to talk to him, and I told him 71 00:04:18,458 --> 00:04:20,225 that something awful had happened. 72 00:04:20,326 --> 00:04:21,727 What's going on? 73 00:04:21,828 --> 00:04:23,328 JEANNE: Peter had two siblings. 74 00:04:23,429 --> 00:04:27,032 Jennifer was 20 years older than him, 75 00:04:27,133 --> 00:04:30,469 and Eric was 10 years older than him. 76 00:04:31,537 --> 00:04:33,171 Something's happened to your sister. 77 00:04:34,540 --> 00:04:36,608 JEANNE: My daughter was dating George, 78 00:04:36,709 --> 00:04:38,543 the guy that murdered her. 79 00:04:38,611 --> 00:04:41,079 She didn't want to see him anymore, because he was 80 00:04:41,180 --> 00:04:46,518 harassing her, and she got a restraining order on him. 81 00:04:46,619 --> 00:04:49,221 And that night, 82 00:04:49,322 --> 00:04:51,857 he went to her house, 83 00:04:51,958 --> 00:04:53,959 and, um, 84 00:04:54,060 --> 00:04:58,363 he shot her point blank with a .357 Magnum 85 00:04:58,464 --> 00:05:00,232 in the base of her brain. 86 00:05:02,468 --> 00:05:05,304 When I told Peter that his sister was gone, 87 00:05:05,405 --> 00:05:06,805 that she had been murdered, 88 00:05:06,906 --> 00:05:10,208 he said, "No, that's not true. You're lying." 89 00:05:10,310 --> 00:05:11,743 - No. - I'm sorry. 90 00:05:11,844 --> 00:05:14,546 - I don't believe you. - I'm so, so sorry. 91 00:05:14,647 --> 00:05:17,482 - You're lying! You're a liar! - JEANNE: He was devastated. 92 00:05:17,583 --> 00:05:19,584 It was like he lost his hero. 93 00:05:19,686 --> 00:05:22,321 His whole little world was just shattered. 94 00:05:22,422 --> 00:05:25,390 - You're a liar! No! - I'm so, so sorry. 95 00:05:25,491 --> 00:05:28,660 Here he had this person he worshiped, 96 00:05:28,761 --> 00:05:30,796 and now they were gone. 97 00:05:30,897 --> 00:05:33,465 He he was, like, lost. 98 00:05:33,566 --> 00:05:37,502 He was just inconsolable. He was so angry. 99 00:05:37,603 --> 00:05:45,603 ♪♪ 100 00:05:47,146 --> 00:05:50,549 After the murder, Peter started getting 101 00:05:50,650 --> 00:05:53,652 anger issues. He became very bitter. 102 00:05:56,589 --> 00:05:59,191 He started going around just screaming. 103 00:06:02,729 --> 00:06:05,430 And he was never like that. He was never like that. 104 00:06:05,531 --> 00:06:06,765 Peter! 105 00:06:06,866 --> 00:06:08,200 JEANNE: He was so angry. 106 00:06:08,301 --> 00:06:12,637 He wanted to go to jail and get George. 107 00:06:12,772 --> 00:06:15,474 He wanted to do something bad so he could 108 00:06:15,575 --> 00:06:18,043 get in jail, and he could kill George. 109 00:06:18,144 --> 00:06:19,277 He wanted to do the same thing 110 00:06:19,379 --> 00:06:21,513 to George that he did to Jennifer. 111 00:06:21,614 --> 00:06:23,315 Then I said, "You can't do that." 112 00:06:23,416 --> 00:06:25,250 You don't hurt people. 113 00:06:25,351 --> 00:06:27,586 Then you'd be just as bad as he is. 114 00:06:27,687 --> 00:06:30,322 He deserves to die. 115 00:06:30,423 --> 00:06:31,957 I didn't know what to do, because 116 00:06:32,058 --> 00:06:35,093 I didn't know how to handle his anger. 117 00:06:35,194 --> 00:06:39,998 ♪♪ 118 00:06:40,066 --> 00:06:48,066 ♪♪ 119 00:06:49,142 --> 00:06:50,976 He started getting in fights. 120 00:06:52,345 --> 00:06:55,380 We ended up in court when he was nine, 121 00:06:55,481 --> 00:07:00,218 because, um, he broke a kid's nose. 122 00:07:03,022 --> 00:07:05,657 The kid was saying something about Jennifer, 123 00:07:05,758 --> 00:07:10,328 and he just told him to shut up about his sister, 124 00:07:10,430 --> 00:07:12,831 and the kid kept it up, and, uh, 125 00:07:12,932 --> 00:07:15,801 and Peter broke his nose. 126 00:07:17,370 --> 00:07:21,540 Now, I hadn't really seen Peter do anything like that. 127 00:07:21,641 --> 00:07:25,110 So I kind of, um, was shocked. 128 00:07:25,211 --> 00:07:33,211 ♪♪ 129 00:07:33,586 --> 00:07:34,786 Peter? 130 00:07:36,422 --> 00:07:38,557 In court, he had to tell the judge that 131 00:07:38,658 --> 00:07:40,725 he was sorry and he wouldn't do it anymore. 132 00:07:40,827 --> 00:07:43,395 We have to show the judge you're serious about this. 133 00:07:43,496 --> 00:07:44,596 Why aren't you ready yet? 134 00:07:46,065 --> 00:07:48,400 JEANNE: I was hoping that he would realize 135 00:07:48,501 --> 00:07:52,003 that he can't do stuff like that, and it's not right, 136 00:07:52,104 --> 00:07:53,972 but he just kept getting worse, 137 00:07:54,073 --> 00:07:57,876 kept getting more violent and more violent. 138 00:07:57,977 --> 00:07:58,944 Now! 139 00:08:01,514 --> 00:08:04,950 JEANNE: He was becoming this person that I didn't know. 140 00:08:05,051 --> 00:08:07,552 We tried desperately to get Peter help. 141 00:08:07,653 --> 00:08:09,821 We had him in a grief group, 142 00:08:09,922 --> 00:08:13,625 and, um... but that didn't seem to help. 143 00:08:13,726 --> 00:08:15,660 He just didn't respond well at all. 144 00:08:15,761 --> 00:08:18,497 I mean, I felt like I was losing him, 145 00:08:18,598 --> 00:08:20,632 and I didn't know what to do. 146 00:08:20,733 --> 00:08:22,400 I mean, we thought we were doing everything 147 00:08:22,502 --> 00:08:25,871 that we could by taking him to therapy. 148 00:08:25,972 --> 00:08:33,078 ♪♪ 149 00:08:33,179 --> 00:08:34,579 But then it just... 150 00:08:36,682 --> 00:08:38,183 steadily got worse. 151 00:08:38,284 --> 00:08:46,284 ♪♪ 152 00:08:46,592 --> 00:08:48,627 When Peter was around 10 years old, 153 00:08:48,728 --> 00:08:52,998 he started to get into his fascination for knives. 154 00:08:54,834 --> 00:08:58,270 He wanted anything sharp. He had to have something sharp. 155 00:08:59,739 --> 00:09:04,409 At first, he just had a fascination with little knives. 156 00:09:04,510 --> 00:09:06,344 Then it got to be where 157 00:09:06,445 --> 00:09:10,181 he wanted bigger knives and bigger knives. 158 00:09:10,283 --> 00:09:12,050 And then he started sharpening them. 159 00:09:12,151 --> 00:09:14,286 He got his own little sharpening tool. 160 00:09:14,387 --> 00:09:18,857 He would sit and sharpen the knives obsessively. 161 00:09:21,027 --> 00:09:22,961 I disagree that he should be allowed 162 00:09:23,062 --> 00:09:25,230 to have the knives to begin with, 163 00:09:25,331 --> 00:09:29,668 but his stepfather thought that it was perfectly manly 164 00:09:29,769 --> 00:09:32,370 for him to wanna do that. 165 00:09:32,471 --> 00:09:35,407 He used to bring it closer and closer to me. 166 00:09:35,508 --> 00:09:36,308 "Look at this." 167 00:09:36,409 --> 00:09:40,178 - Watch this. - And he would, like, 168 00:09:40,279 --> 00:09:43,648 cut a piece of paper in front of me and stuff like that. 169 00:09:43,749 --> 00:09:47,319 I bled easily, because I took blood thinners, 170 00:09:47,420 --> 00:09:48,954 and he would be like, 171 00:09:49,055 --> 00:09:52,891 "This would really make you bleed, wouldn't it, Mom?" 172 00:09:52,992 --> 00:09:55,493 I could cut you so easily with this knife. 173 00:09:58,097 --> 00:09:59,965 I started getting scared. 174 00:10:00,066 --> 00:10:02,367 Don't you have schoolwork to do? 175 00:10:05,771 --> 00:10:07,539 Oh, no. 176 00:10:07,640 --> 00:10:09,841 I was always afraid he was gonna cut me, 177 00:10:09,942 --> 00:10:11,476 and then I would bleed to death. 178 00:10:15,514 --> 00:10:18,049 Now put it away and get some work done. 179 00:10:20,152 --> 00:10:21,620 I would say, "Put them away. 180 00:10:21,721 --> 00:10:24,155 Please. Put them away." 181 00:10:24,256 --> 00:10:26,758 He didn't listen. 182 00:10:26,859 --> 00:10:31,262 You question yourself, because this is your child, 183 00:10:31,364 --> 00:10:32,597 and your child is not 184 00:10:32,698 --> 00:10:34,566 supposed to do things like this to you. 185 00:10:34,667 --> 00:10:36,201 And yet he was doing it. 186 00:10:36,302 --> 00:10:40,372 He was... he was... and he would seem to be enjoying it. 187 00:10:40,473 --> 00:10:43,241 And that was very upsetting. Very. 188 00:10:43,342 --> 00:10:51,342 ♪♪ 189 00:10:52,051 --> 00:10:53,518 [knife scraping] 190 00:10:53,619 --> 00:10:56,721 [suspenseful chord strikes] 191 00:10:56,822 --> 00:10:58,723 You don't want to believe that it's happening, 192 00:10:58,824 --> 00:11:02,527 and you want to ignore it, because maybe it'll go away. 193 00:11:02,628 --> 00:11:04,663 Maybe it's just a phase they're in, 194 00:11:04,764 --> 00:11:07,165 and it's gonna pass. 195 00:11:07,266 --> 00:11:12,370 But unfortunately, Peter's never passed. 196 00:11:12,471 --> 00:11:13,972 Just kept getting worse and worse, 197 00:11:14,073 --> 00:11:16,775 and he kept getting in more trouble and more trouble. 198 00:11:16,876 --> 00:11:24,015 ♪♪ 199 00:11:24,083 --> 00:11:28,753 ♪♪ 200 00:11:28,854 --> 00:11:30,288 It was almost like there was 201 00:11:30,389 --> 00:11:33,391 a demonic possession that came over him. 202 00:11:35,061 --> 00:11:38,196 He took a samurai sword, and he came after me 203 00:11:38,297 --> 00:11:39,631 with a samurai sword. 204 00:11:39,732 --> 00:11:45,770 ♪♪ 205 00:11:55,381 --> 00:12:00,418 I worked at a vet's shop, and we had so many animals. 206 00:12:00,519 --> 00:12:02,287 He was always so kind to them. 207 00:12:05,391 --> 00:12:08,793 But then, as he got older, his whole personality changed. 208 00:12:10,763 --> 00:12:13,698 And because Peter was so volatile, 209 00:12:13,766 --> 00:12:16,167 you never knew what was gonna come next. 210 00:12:22,742 --> 00:12:26,344 The thing with him and wanting to cut my dog open... 211 00:12:26,445 --> 00:12:29,447 That will always stick in my mind. 212 00:12:31,550 --> 00:12:34,552 I'm probably doing laundry or something like that, 213 00:12:34,653 --> 00:12:36,788 and I thought everything was fine. 214 00:12:36,889 --> 00:12:39,057 I didn't think there was a problem going on. 215 00:12:41,160 --> 00:12:44,462 And all of a sudden, he grabbed my dog. 216 00:12:44,563 --> 00:12:46,698 [Young Peter laughing] 217 00:12:46,799 --> 00:12:49,701 [dog whining] 218 00:12:49,802 --> 00:12:53,705 And took a knife, a brutally sharp one, 219 00:12:53,806 --> 00:12:55,740 and he held it down at the bottom of her, 220 00:12:55,841 --> 00:12:57,075 like in her groin. 221 00:13:00,780 --> 00:13:04,482 And he said, "Just how 222 00:13:04,583 --> 00:13:08,887 easy do you think it would be for me to just slit her open?" 223 00:13:11,390 --> 00:13:13,091 And my blood ran cold. 224 00:13:14,560 --> 00:13:17,328 You ever seen people with just mean eyes, 225 00:13:17,429 --> 00:13:19,864 and... and you know that 226 00:13:19,965 --> 00:13:22,400 you don't wanna go in their space? 227 00:13:22,501 --> 00:13:24,636 Well, that's the way he would look. 228 00:13:26,839 --> 00:13:29,707 His eyes were glassy and black, 229 00:13:29,842 --> 00:13:33,778 and... and it was very frightening, very scary. 230 00:13:35,147 --> 00:13:38,016 He was gonna kill her right there in front of me. 231 00:13:40,653 --> 00:13:43,955 You put her down, now. 232 00:13:44,056 --> 00:13:46,658 I said, "You put that dog down", 233 00:13:46,759 --> 00:13:50,795 "and if you're smart, you'll get out of my sight, 234 00:13:50,896 --> 00:13:53,398 you'll stay out of my sight," 235 00:13:53,499 --> 00:13:58,036 I said, "because you won't live to make it to the door 236 00:13:58,137 --> 00:13:59,237 if you hurt that dog." 237 00:13:59,338 --> 00:14:04,876 ♪♪ 238 00:14:04,977 --> 00:14:05,977 I must have scared him. 239 00:14:06,078 --> 00:14:08,813 I must have had the look, because he put the dog 240 00:14:08,914 --> 00:14:11,583 down quickly. 241 00:14:11,684 --> 00:14:13,685 [laughs] 242 00:14:14,753 --> 00:14:16,087 Then he'd laugh. 243 00:14:16,188 --> 00:14:18,556 He had a little sicky laugh. 244 00:14:18,657 --> 00:14:23,027 He would just say, you know, like, "You're overreacting." 245 00:14:23,162 --> 00:14:26,965 - It's not a big deal. - Get out of my face. Now! 246 00:14:27,066 --> 00:14:31,169 The sad part is Peter was such a good little boy. 247 00:14:31,270 --> 00:14:33,238 He was a sweetheart. 248 00:14:33,339 --> 00:14:36,107 You're like, this can't be happening, 249 00:14:36,208 --> 00:14:38,343 not to my child. 250 00:14:38,444 --> 00:14:41,145 My child can't be this way. 251 00:14:41,247 --> 00:14:44,349 But it is happening right there before your eyes. 252 00:14:44,450 --> 00:14:47,852 It's like he progressively got worse 253 00:14:47,953 --> 00:14:51,289 and worse and harder and harder to deal with. 254 00:14:51,390 --> 00:14:59,390 ♪♪ 255 00:15:01,066 --> 00:15:04,102 That same day, right after that happened, 256 00:15:04,203 --> 00:15:07,538 I remember now, he took a samurai sword 257 00:15:07,640 --> 00:15:10,208 and he came after me with a samurai sword. 258 00:15:13,078 --> 00:15:14,879 AS JEANNE: Peter! Peter! 259 00:15:18,183 --> 00:15:19,083 Peter! 260 00:15:19,184 --> 00:15:20,885 JEANNE: It was almost like there was 261 00:15:20,986 --> 00:15:23,922 a demonic possession that came over him. 262 00:15:25,891 --> 00:15:27,926 I mean, he was swinging that thing. 263 00:15:28,027 --> 00:15:30,795 You could hear it going [mimics blade slashing] 264 00:15:32,598 --> 00:15:34,532 And oh, my God, 265 00:15:34,633 --> 00:15:38,236 you have no idea what it... what that sound is 266 00:15:38,337 --> 00:15:40,038 when it goes past your head, 267 00:15:40,139 --> 00:15:42,507 it's just like [makes whooshing noise], 268 00:15:42,608 --> 00:15:46,778 and you realize how sharp that thing is. 269 00:15:46,879 --> 00:15:49,547 I was scared to death. 270 00:15:49,648 --> 00:15:52,150 I thought, "This is it. I'm getting it now." 271 00:15:53,852 --> 00:15:57,021 Any minute, I'm gonna be... Blood everywhere. 272 00:15:58,657 --> 00:16:01,225 I picked up a cushion off the sofa... 273 00:16:05,597 --> 00:16:09,968 and he slit the sofa cushion almost in half. 274 00:16:10,069 --> 00:16:12,170 That's how sharp his samurai sword was. 275 00:16:12,271 --> 00:16:19,677 ♪♪ 276 00:16:19,778 --> 00:16:23,748 And if I had not taken the cushion and held it up, 277 00:16:23,849 --> 00:16:26,284 he would have hit me with a samurai sword. 278 00:16:27,686 --> 00:16:28,820 You can't imagine. 279 00:16:28,921 --> 00:16:31,089 You just can't imagine what it feels like. 280 00:16:32,191 --> 00:16:35,193 Peter's stepfather was absolutely useless. 281 00:16:35,294 --> 00:16:37,428 He didn't want to get involved. 282 00:16:37,529 --> 00:16:40,098 I had to do it all on my own. 283 00:16:40,199 --> 00:16:43,368 I felt all alone and desperate, because I had 284 00:16:43,469 --> 00:16:45,770 no one to help me deal with him. 285 00:16:47,239 --> 00:16:50,241 And that was more than I could handle. 286 00:16:50,342 --> 00:16:53,378 One thing just led into the next and the next, 287 00:16:53,479 --> 00:16:56,047 and it just kept getting worse and worse and worse. 288 00:16:56,148 --> 00:17:04,148 ♪♪ 289 00:17:04,523 --> 00:17:08,559 Peter just did things. 290 00:17:08,660 --> 00:17:12,096 He did... you didn't know why he did things. 291 00:17:12,197 --> 00:17:14,165 He wouldn't tell you why he did things. 292 00:17:14,266 --> 00:17:16,367 He didn't give you answers. 293 00:17:20,506 --> 00:17:24,509 One day, he put his trash can right at his door. 294 00:17:26,979 --> 00:17:29,247 And then he was sitting there, 295 00:17:29,348 --> 00:17:32,617 and he's striking matches and throwing them into trash can 296 00:17:32,718 --> 00:17:34,118 full of paper. 297 00:17:37,289 --> 00:17:39,390 I said, "Don't do that." 298 00:17:39,491 --> 00:17:40,491 What are you doing? 299 00:17:42,461 --> 00:17:44,162 You could start a fire. 300 00:17:44,263 --> 00:17:45,797 He taunted me. 301 00:17:48,434 --> 00:17:50,234 "So what if I do? 302 00:17:50,335 --> 00:17:52,170 What are you gonna do about it?" 303 00:17:53,939 --> 00:17:55,606 I said, "I'm gonna call the authorities", 304 00:17:55,707 --> 00:17:57,308 "that's what I'm gonna do about it. 305 00:17:57,409 --> 00:17:59,644 I'm gonna call the fire marshal." 306 00:17:59,745 --> 00:18:01,446 "Do what you gotta do, mom." 307 00:18:03,082 --> 00:18:03,981 So I did. 308 00:18:04,083 --> 00:18:07,085 [music building] 309 00:18:07,186 --> 00:18:11,722 ♪♪ 310 00:18:11,824 --> 00:18:15,426 They send this woman over, and that... 311 00:18:15,527 --> 00:18:17,595 He wouldn't talk to the girl. 312 00:18:17,696 --> 00:18:22,233 She tried so hard, but he was such an obnoxious little snot. 313 00:18:22,334 --> 00:18:24,102 He was so nasty to her. 314 00:18:25,571 --> 00:18:27,505 So she told him that she would have 315 00:18:27,606 --> 00:18:30,875 to take him into custody if he didn't stop. 316 00:18:30,976 --> 00:18:35,279 That got a little bit of respect out of him. 317 00:18:35,380 --> 00:18:37,115 During that period of time, 318 00:18:37,216 --> 00:18:40,384 Peter's rage towards me really intensified, 319 00:18:43,889 --> 00:18:46,991 and it never stopped. Just didn't stop. 320 00:18:47,092 --> 00:18:51,929 ♪♪ 321 00:18:52,030 --> 00:18:58,736 ♪♪ 322 00:18:58,837 --> 00:19:00,705 That's when I found the bullets. 323 00:19:00,806 --> 00:19:03,307 [intense music] 324 00:19:09,915 --> 00:19:13,751 ♪♪ 325 00:19:13,852 --> 00:19:15,486 Oh, my. 326 00:19:20,292 --> 00:19:22,493 See the eyes? 327 00:19:22,594 --> 00:19:24,228 The eyes are starting to get dark. 328 00:19:27,766 --> 00:19:30,301 This is when he was a teenager. 329 00:19:32,271 --> 00:19:37,475 You can see the darkness coming in the eyes, the stare. 330 00:19:37,576 --> 00:19:39,777 They could just burn, like, burn a hole 331 00:19:39,878 --> 00:19:42,980 through you when they were staring at you. 332 00:19:45,284 --> 00:19:48,452 When he became a teenager, I started losing him. 333 00:19:50,289 --> 00:19:52,557 This is where he was becoming uncontrollable. 334 00:19:52,658 --> 00:19:56,861 ♪♪ 335 00:19:56,962 --> 00:20:02,934 ♪♪ 336 00:20:03,035 --> 00:20:06,837 I found jewelry and collectibles 337 00:20:06,939 --> 00:20:08,639 and stuff like that. 338 00:20:08,740 --> 00:20:11,442 I was like, "Where is this stuff coming from?" 339 00:20:11,543 --> 00:20:14,345 And it was coming from the houses he was robbing. 340 00:20:14,446 --> 00:20:18,249 You get to a point where you really are scared. 341 00:20:20,652 --> 00:20:24,455 And you also get to a point where you're pretty fed up. 342 00:20:24,556 --> 00:20:26,958 [door creaking] 343 00:20:27,059 --> 00:20:28,259 Mom? 344 00:20:30,429 --> 00:20:32,096 What is this? 345 00:20:32,197 --> 00:20:35,800 I had the police take him right out of the bathroom one day. 346 00:20:35,901 --> 00:20:38,636 Come on out, put your hands up against this wall for me. 347 00:20:39,805 --> 00:20:43,140 And he'd be like, "I can't believe you did this." 348 00:20:45,611 --> 00:20:48,546 Well, I don't approve of what you're doing. 349 00:20:49,715 --> 00:20:50,948 You won't stop. 350 00:20:52,884 --> 00:20:55,319 I will never forgive you. 351 00:20:55,420 --> 00:20:58,256 JEANNE: It's terrible to have to turn your own child in. 352 00:20:58,357 --> 00:21:06,197 ♪♪ 353 00:21:06,298 --> 00:21:08,466 He went to juvie. 354 00:21:08,567 --> 00:21:11,202 I went to see him with my mother. 355 00:21:12,437 --> 00:21:16,007 We were supposed to spend Christmas with him, 356 00:21:16,108 --> 00:21:18,542 and I had taken him presents and everything. 357 00:21:18,644 --> 00:21:22,480 And we didn't get to do that, because he went off on us. 358 00:21:22,581 --> 00:21:27,251 There she is, my mother, the slut. 359 00:21:29,454 --> 00:21:31,689 He started when he saw me. 360 00:21:31,790 --> 00:21:33,557 He called me every name in 361 00:21:33,659 --> 00:21:37,228 the book, every kind of horror imaginable. 362 00:21:37,329 --> 00:21:40,531 And Peter started coming at me. 363 00:21:40,632 --> 00:21:43,501 I really was scared for my life. 364 00:21:43,602 --> 00:21:46,304 He's grasping at you, trying to hit you, 365 00:21:46,405 --> 00:21:48,306 trying to grab you. 366 00:21:48,407 --> 00:21:51,776 And then these guys, these great big, 367 00:21:51,877 --> 00:21:55,146 burly guys come and have to pull this kid off of you. 368 00:21:58,817 --> 00:22:02,219 They had to take him out and restrain him 369 00:22:02,321 --> 00:22:04,955 and give him medication, 370 00:22:05,057 --> 00:22:07,892 because he was going after me so bad. 371 00:22:09,161 --> 00:22:11,829 It's horrible. I'm his mother. 372 00:22:11,930 --> 00:22:16,767 I can't imagine being that angry with my mother. 373 00:22:18,537 --> 00:22:21,405 And he got away with it. Nobody would help me. 374 00:22:21,506 --> 00:22:24,875 Nobody would put him away and keep him there 375 00:22:24,976 --> 00:22:26,977 so they could do something with him. 376 00:22:27,079 --> 00:22:30,581 They kept letting him out early, and he kept doing, 377 00:22:30,682 --> 00:22:33,250 re-offending, re-offending. 378 00:22:33,352 --> 00:22:36,354 And, uh, I kept trying. 379 00:22:36,455 --> 00:22:38,756 I wasn't giving up on him. 380 00:22:38,857 --> 00:22:41,992 I always thought that he could be saved. 381 00:22:42,094 --> 00:22:44,261 Um, I prayed that he would be saved. 382 00:22:44,363 --> 00:22:50,868 ♪♪ 383 00:22:50,969 --> 00:22:52,770 I got a phone call at work 384 00:22:52,871 --> 00:22:55,606 that Peter was in the emergency room. 385 00:22:55,707 --> 00:22:59,276 He... he wasn't hurt, but they had him in there, 386 00:22:59,378 --> 00:23:01,879 and the State Police were holding him, 387 00:23:01,980 --> 00:23:04,482 and I was very confused. 388 00:23:04,583 --> 00:23:07,084 I had no idea what was going on. 389 00:23:07,185 --> 00:23:11,756 The police officer came in and told me that Peter had this 390 00:23:11,857 --> 00:23:15,393 whole diagram of what he was gonna do to the school. 391 00:23:18,263 --> 00:23:20,264 He was gonna blow it up. 392 00:23:23,769 --> 00:23:26,337 He had picked out certain people in 393 00:23:26,438 --> 00:23:28,272 the rooms that he was gonna blow up. 394 00:23:31,943 --> 00:23:34,111 You're looking at this, and you're just 395 00:23:34,212 --> 00:23:36,847 in total disbelief that this is happening. 396 00:23:38,316 --> 00:23:39,550 Is it okay if I speak with him? 397 00:23:45,090 --> 00:23:48,559 I asked him, I said, you know, "So what's going on?" 398 00:23:51,129 --> 00:23:55,032 "Oh, mom. You know, just don't get excited about it, mom, 399 00:23:55,100 --> 00:23:57,268 It's all right, everything's gonna be all right." 400 00:23:57,369 --> 00:24:00,037 It's not a big deal. 401 00:24:01,673 --> 00:24:06,310 Your heart drops. Your heart just drops 402 00:24:06,411 --> 00:24:08,579 to your ankles. It's terrible. 403 00:24:09,881 --> 00:24:14,485 He went to the psych hospital, and from the psych hospital, 404 00:24:14,586 --> 00:24:15,619 he went to juvie. 405 00:24:15,720 --> 00:24:23,720 ♪♪ 406 00:24:25,664 --> 00:24:27,731 After we took care of Peter, 407 00:24:27,833 --> 00:24:31,469 I went home, and I started looking in his room 408 00:24:31,570 --> 00:24:33,938 to see what else was there. 409 00:24:34,039 --> 00:24:37,174 And the floorboard was up in his closet, 410 00:24:37,275 --> 00:24:39,543 and I reached in there, and there was the gun. 411 00:24:47,652 --> 00:24:50,554 And then I found the attache case, 412 00:24:50,655 --> 00:24:53,524 and the attache case obviously had something in it, 413 00:24:53,625 --> 00:24:55,459 because I could hear it when I shook it. 414 00:24:59,231 --> 00:25:01,265 And that's when I found the bullets. 415 00:25:03,168 --> 00:25:07,004 The shotgun shells, and there were four of them. 416 00:25:07,105 --> 00:25:09,740 One of the bullets had "mom" on it. 417 00:25:13,578 --> 00:25:17,681 When I looked at that bullet and it said "mom," 418 00:25:17,782 --> 00:25:22,186 I thought, Oh, my God. What did I do? 419 00:25:22,287 --> 00:25:23,954 What did I do to him 420 00:25:24,055 --> 00:25:26,090 to make him hate me so much? 421 00:25:28,360 --> 00:25:30,127 What did I do to him 422 00:25:30,228 --> 00:25:33,964 to make him so vicious and mean? 423 00:25:34,065 --> 00:25:35,533 I didn't know what to think. 424 00:25:35,634 --> 00:25:36,667 I was scared. 425 00:25:36,768 --> 00:25:38,669 I really didn't know what to think. 426 00:25:38,770 --> 00:25:41,138 And you question yourself. 427 00:25:41,239 --> 00:25:43,574 You question yourself over and over again, 428 00:25:43,675 --> 00:25:46,443 because you don't know what you did wrong. 429 00:25:46,545 --> 00:25:48,879 Why would he want to kill me? 430 00:25:48,980 --> 00:25:51,982 I did everything for him, and why? 431 00:25:52,083 --> 00:25:54,351 I cried a lot. 432 00:25:56,254 --> 00:25:59,823 It was just so, so heartbreaking. 433 00:25:59,925 --> 00:26:02,026 I can't take anymore. 434 00:26:04,396 --> 00:26:06,130 [sighs heavily] 435 00:26:06,231 --> 00:26:14,231 ♪♪ 436 00:26:15,774 --> 00:26:18,409 He just turned around, and shoving me against 437 00:26:18,510 --> 00:26:21,912 the refrigerator. 438 00:26:22,013 --> 00:26:23,681 He had just lost control. 439 00:26:33,658 --> 00:26:38,262 He spent 11 months in a facility 440 00:26:38,363 --> 00:26:41,265 for, um, 441 00:26:41,366 --> 00:26:43,667 aggressive teenagers. 442 00:26:45,337 --> 00:26:48,305 I thought, well, this is really gonna help. 443 00:26:48,406 --> 00:26:49,974 He was on medication. 444 00:26:50,075 --> 00:26:52,076 I thought, oh, my God, this is working. 445 00:26:52,177 --> 00:26:55,245 It's gonna work. Everything's gonna be okay. 446 00:26:55,347 --> 00:26:57,848 He's gonna be acting normal. 447 00:26:57,949 --> 00:27:00,017 Didn't work that way. 448 00:27:03,388 --> 00:27:05,990 I was all excited, because when he came home, 449 00:27:06,091 --> 00:27:08,092 he looked so good, 450 00:27:08,193 --> 00:27:09,727 and he sounded so good. 451 00:27:09,828 --> 00:27:12,663 And, you know, it was like having my son back. 452 00:27:12,764 --> 00:27:14,765 He was affectionate. 453 00:27:14,866 --> 00:27:17,167 Oh, it was wonderful. 454 00:27:17,268 --> 00:27:19,803 But it didn't last long. 455 00:27:21,373 --> 00:27:23,374 One day, I was in the kitchen with him. 456 00:27:23,475 --> 00:27:25,876 Peter, I asked you to take out the garbage. 457 00:27:25,977 --> 00:27:27,878 I'm not gonna ask you again. 458 00:27:27,979 --> 00:27:29,813 I said something to him... I don't even know what 459 00:27:29,914 --> 00:27:31,982 I said to him, and he just turned around 460 00:27:32,083 --> 00:27:34,284 and shoved me against the refrigerator. 461 00:27:38,056 --> 00:27:39,723 I was very shocked. 462 00:27:39,824 --> 00:27:43,594 He had never put his hands on me before. 463 00:27:45,363 --> 00:27:49,233 You don't tell me what to do ever again. 464 00:27:49,334 --> 00:27:51,168 He had just lost control. 465 00:27:52,537 --> 00:27:53,470 You understand me? 466 00:27:53,571 --> 00:27:56,440 [music intensifying] 467 00:28:01,312 --> 00:28:06,450 He left shortly after that, and I just went in my room, 468 00:28:06,551 --> 00:28:08,419 stayed away from him for a while. 469 00:28:11,589 --> 00:28:15,359 I had lost control completely, because he was 470 00:28:15,460 --> 00:28:17,628 just doing whatever he wanted to do. 471 00:28:17,729 --> 00:28:25,729 ♪♪ 472 00:28:26,171 --> 00:28:29,773 ♪♪ 473 00:28:29,874 --> 00:28:32,276 After Peter turned 18, 474 00:28:32,377 --> 00:28:35,079 there was no other place for him but jail. 475 00:28:35,180 --> 00:28:40,584 He just was in jail all the time, so, um, 476 00:28:40,685 --> 00:28:42,486 I didn't see him that often. 477 00:28:43,988 --> 00:28:45,656 [phone ringing] 478 00:28:45,757 --> 00:28:47,758 He would try and call me collect, 479 00:28:47,859 --> 00:28:50,461 always begging for money when he was in jail. 480 00:28:50,562 --> 00:28:52,563 [phone ringing] 481 00:28:52,664 --> 00:28:56,934 I just decided one day that I had given enough, 482 00:28:57,035 --> 00:28:59,636 and I wasn't gonna give anymore. 483 00:28:59,738 --> 00:29:01,371 [phone ringing] 484 00:29:01,473 --> 00:29:04,308 And I stopped receiving the calls. 485 00:29:04,409 --> 00:29:07,111 [phone ringing] 486 00:29:09,514 --> 00:29:11,115 And it was relieving. 487 00:29:11,216 --> 00:29:13,450 It was freedom to be away from it. 488 00:29:13,551 --> 00:29:16,086 When I didn't have to have contact with him, 489 00:29:16,187 --> 00:29:19,189 it was almost refreshing that I didn't 490 00:29:19,290 --> 00:29:21,125 have to put up with it every day. 491 00:29:21,226 --> 00:29:29,226 ♪♪ 492 00:29:32,971 --> 00:29:35,139 [phone ringing] 493 00:29:35,240 --> 00:29:36,940 Hello? 494 00:29:37,041 --> 00:29:40,377 "Hi, Mom. It's your favorite son, Peter. 495 00:29:40,478 --> 00:29:44,882 How about I come over for dinner?" 496 00:29:44,983 --> 00:29:46,383 I'm like, what? 497 00:29:46,484 --> 00:29:48,552 I said, "Where are you?" 498 00:29:48,653 --> 00:29:50,854 He said, "I'm right across the street." 499 00:29:50,955 --> 00:29:56,160 I'm like, aw... God. 500 00:29:56,261 --> 00:29:58,762 You gotta be kidding. 501 00:29:58,863 --> 00:30:01,165 [knocking noises] 502 00:30:01,266 --> 00:30:03,467 When he came home, he brought in 503 00:30:03,568 --> 00:30:07,871 guns, knives, stun guns. 504 00:30:09,440 --> 00:30:11,642 I was like, "What are you doing?" 505 00:30:11,743 --> 00:30:13,777 No way. 506 00:30:15,547 --> 00:30:18,482 I said, "Oh, no... No, no, no, no, no. 507 00:30:18,583 --> 00:30:19,950 Out with the gun." 508 00:30:20,051 --> 00:30:21,819 I said, "The gun doesn't stay." 509 00:30:21,920 --> 00:30:25,689 "The knives don't stay, the tear gas doesn't stay. 510 00:30:25,790 --> 00:30:27,357 "I don't care what you do with it, 511 00:30:27,458 --> 00:30:30,727 but you get it out of this house, and you get it out now." 512 00:30:30,829 --> 00:30:32,162 Take them to the car. 513 00:30:33,731 --> 00:30:36,500 I didn't ask him anything, because knowing Peter, 514 00:30:36,601 --> 00:30:40,304 I knew that he was gonna come up with some cockamamie story, 515 00:30:40,405 --> 00:30:43,040 and I really didn't want to hear it. 516 00:30:43,141 --> 00:30:50,881 ♪♪ 517 00:30:56,154 --> 00:31:00,657 ♪♪ 518 00:31:00,758 --> 00:31:03,160 Is everything okay? 519 00:31:05,663 --> 00:31:08,532 JEANNE: After dinner, Peter started telling me 520 00:31:08,633 --> 00:31:11,201 how he had done something, 521 00:31:11,302 --> 00:31:14,638 something that he could never get back from. 522 00:31:14,739 --> 00:31:17,341 I said, "Did you hurt someone?" 523 00:31:17,442 --> 00:31:18,775 And he said yes. 524 00:31:18,877 --> 00:31:20,878 Two men. 525 00:31:20,979 --> 00:31:24,281 And I said, "Did you, you know, hurt them bad?" 526 00:31:24,382 --> 00:31:27,451 He said, "Well, yes, I murdered them." 527 00:31:30,521 --> 00:31:34,391 I honestly just didn't know what to do. 528 00:31:34,492 --> 00:31:36,026 That's not funny. 529 00:31:36,127 --> 00:31:39,229 Then I thought he was lying, because Peter's notorious for 530 00:31:39,330 --> 00:31:42,132 making up stories, and I thought, well, 531 00:31:42,233 --> 00:31:44,968 this can't be true. It just can't. 532 00:31:45,069 --> 00:31:48,205 I can't get the smell of bleach off of my hands. 533 00:31:48,306 --> 00:31:50,574 JEANNE: He was saying how he couldn't believe that 534 00:31:50,675 --> 00:31:53,710 it had been so many days since he had been able 535 00:31:53,811 --> 00:31:56,546 to get rid of the smell in his nostrils. 536 00:31:56,648 --> 00:31:57,814 Do you smell it? 537 00:32:01,252 --> 00:32:02,352 No. 538 00:32:05,056 --> 00:32:07,991 He never told me what he actually had done 539 00:32:08,092 --> 00:32:10,661 to those people. 540 00:32:10,762 --> 00:32:15,632 He didn't tell me how he maimed them, how he slaughtered them, 541 00:32:15,733 --> 00:32:20,871 how he wrapped him in bleach-covered blankets 542 00:32:20,972 --> 00:32:23,473 after they were dead. 543 00:32:23,574 --> 00:32:28,545 How he shot one in the head twice and the other 8 times. 544 00:32:28,646 --> 00:32:31,615 He didn't tell me any of the gruesome facts. 545 00:32:31,716 --> 00:32:35,385 I didn't learn those until way into the trial. 546 00:32:35,486 --> 00:32:39,222 I couldn't go to sleep. I just laid there. 547 00:32:39,324 --> 00:32:41,858 I kept thinking all night long. 548 00:32:46,364 --> 00:32:54,364 ♪♪ 549 00:32:55,807 --> 00:32:56,840 I'll be right back. 550 00:32:56,941 --> 00:32:58,008 I have to stop you, 551 00:32:58,109 --> 00:33:00,711 because nobody else seems to be able to stop you. 552 00:33:01,980 --> 00:33:05,682 So I have got to stop you before you hurt somebody else. 553 00:33:15,960 --> 00:33:19,296 I honestly don't know how I got 554 00:33:19,397 --> 00:33:22,432 through that... The rest of that night, 555 00:33:22,533 --> 00:33:25,702 but the next day, I asked him, 556 00:33:25,803 --> 00:33:28,171 I said, "Did you really do that?" 557 00:33:28,272 --> 00:33:31,074 Last night, 558 00:33:31,175 --> 00:33:32,175 were you serious? 559 00:33:36,247 --> 00:33:38,048 "Yes, mom. I really did it." 560 00:33:40,218 --> 00:33:44,121 "I murdered two people, and they deserved it." 561 00:33:44,222 --> 00:33:47,457 I said, "What do you mean, they deserved it? 562 00:33:47,558 --> 00:33:50,527 How could they deserve it?" 563 00:33:50,628 --> 00:33:53,563 I don't know what I was thinking. 564 00:33:53,664 --> 00:33:56,133 To be honest with you, I really don't. 565 00:33:56,234 --> 00:33:59,336 All I know is I was so... 566 00:33:59,437 --> 00:34:02,072 emotionally distraught. 567 00:34:03,975 --> 00:34:05,208 I was scared. 568 00:34:06,577 --> 00:34:07,644 I was so scared. 569 00:34:07,745 --> 00:34:09,980 I didn't know what was gonna happen to me. 570 00:34:10,081 --> 00:34:12,549 I didn't know what he was capable of. 571 00:34:15,753 --> 00:34:16,820 Where are you going? 572 00:34:18,356 --> 00:34:21,224 JEANNE: I told him that my friend had called me, 573 00:34:21,325 --> 00:34:22,859 and she needed help. 574 00:34:22,960 --> 00:34:26,363 So then he wanted to know if I wanted him to go with me. 575 00:34:26,464 --> 00:34:27,798 I said, "Oh, no, that's all right. 576 00:34:27,899 --> 00:34:29,533 Stay here and relax." 577 00:34:29,634 --> 00:34:31,301 I'll be right back. 578 00:34:31,402 --> 00:34:34,738 Meanwhile, I'm going to my friend's house, 579 00:34:34,839 --> 00:34:36,440 and that's how I got out of the house. 580 00:34:37,942 --> 00:34:40,543 And I went to my friend's house, 581 00:34:40,611 --> 00:34:43,680 and we called the police, and... 582 00:34:43,781 --> 00:34:46,183 they came, and he gave himself up. 583 00:34:46,284 --> 00:34:50,620 ♪♪ 584 00:34:50,721 --> 00:34:56,827 ♪♪ 585 00:34:56,928 --> 00:34:59,663 WOMAN: Stephen Adams and his partner, Kevin Powell, 586 00:34:59,764 --> 00:35:02,632 were found shot to death in their Wilton Manors home 587 00:35:02,733 --> 00:35:04,401 over Christmas 2010. 588 00:35:04,502 --> 00:35:07,037 Prosecutors say Avsenew met the couple 589 00:35:07,138 --> 00:35:10,474 after posting a suggestive ad on Craigslist. 590 00:35:10,575 --> 00:35:13,376 They told me that the two guys were gay, 591 00:35:13,478 --> 00:35:18,448 and that that's why Peter murdered them, 592 00:35:20,051 --> 00:35:21,651 that he had picked them up. 593 00:35:21,752 --> 00:35:26,056 He was soliciting himself on Craigslist. 594 00:35:26,157 --> 00:35:28,425 He'd been selling himself 595 00:35:28,526 --> 00:35:29,960 to gay guys. 596 00:35:31,829 --> 00:35:35,832 I still in the back of my mind was hoping that he was lying. 597 00:35:35,933 --> 00:35:38,335 I was hoping that this wasn't true. 598 00:35:38,436 --> 00:35:41,738 I kept praying that it wasn't true, but it was. 599 00:35:41,839 --> 00:35:49,839 ♪♪ 600 00:35:51,849 --> 00:35:53,150 Well, I was scared. 601 00:35:56,320 --> 00:35:58,989 I mean, come on. I was really scared. 602 00:35:59,090 --> 00:36:00,090 I didn't know whether he was gonna go 603 00:36:00,191 --> 00:36:03,126 off on me and attack me or what. 604 00:36:04,896 --> 00:36:09,032 I went in, and I said, "You know, Peter, 605 00:36:09,133 --> 00:36:10,967 "I can't let you do this anymore. 606 00:36:12,270 --> 00:36:14,437 "I brought you into this world, 607 00:36:14,539 --> 00:36:16,907 "and not to do the things that you've done. 608 00:36:17,008 --> 00:36:20,343 "I just can't watch this go on anymore. 609 00:36:20,444 --> 00:36:22,179 "I've got to stop you. 610 00:36:22,280 --> 00:36:24,881 So yeah, I'm turning you in." 611 00:36:24,982 --> 00:36:31,154 ♪♪ 612 00:36:31,255 --> 00:36:33,089 And he said, "It's not your fault." 613 00:36:34,659 --> 00:36:37,961 Well, no, it wasn't my fault. 614 00:36:38,062 --> 00:36:41,765 I've tried to raise you the best I could, 615 00:36:41,866 --> 00:36:44,935 and you have rejected me and rejected me. 616 00:36:45,036 --> 00:36:49,606 I cannot keep beating my head against the wall. 617 00:36:49,707 --> 00:36:52,375 And I have to stop you, because nobody 618 00:36:52,476 --> 00:36:54,244 else seems to be able to stop you. 619 00:36:56,914 --> 00:36:59,316 He said, "Don't worry. I'm not mad at you." 620 00:36:59,417 --> 00:37:02,953 He said, "I understand." 621 00:37:03,054 --> 00:37:04,154 I started crying. 622 00:37:04,255 --> 00:37:05,889 I couldn't stay in there with him. 623 00:37:09,093 --> 00:37:12,128 The last thing I said to Peter before I left him was, 624 00:37:12,230 --> 00:37:13,797 "I love you." 625 00:37:13,898 --> 00:37:16,800 And I said, "That will never change." 626 00:37:18,169 --> 00:37:20,570 And he said, "I love you too, mom." 627 00:37:20,671 --> 00:37:27,310 ♪♪ 628 00:37:27,411 --> 00:37:35,411 ♪♪ 629 00:37:36,854 --> 00:37:38,788 I had nothing to lose. 630 00:37:38,889 --> 00:37:42,525 You g... there is absolutely nothing 631 00:37:42,627 --> 00:37:44,928 that can hurt me now. 632 00:37:45,029 --> 00:37:47,264 I have no consequences for my actions, 633 00:37:47,365 --> 00:37:49,032 and I plan on hurting people. 634 00:37:49,133 --> 00:37:52,369 I wholeheartedly have nothing to lose, 635 00:37:52,470 --> 00:37:55,205 and I'm gonna take it out on everybody I can. 636 00:37:55,306 --> 00:37:57,240 Peter has never shown any remorse. 637 00:37:59,110 --> 00:38:01,211 None whatsoever. 638 00:38:01,279 --> 00:38:04,881 If you ask him why he did it, 639 00:38:04,982 --> 00:38:06,549 he said, "Because they deserved it." 640 00:38:06,651 --> 00:38:09,486 MAN: Avsenew sent a letter to the judge saying in part, 641 00:38:09,587 --> 00:38:11,454 "You will never be able to stop me." 642 00:38:11,555 --> 00:38:13,189 Then he went on a bigoted rant, 643 00:38:13,291 --> 00:38:16,526 saying, "It is my duty as a white man to cull the weak" 644 00:38:16,627 --> 00:38:18,762 and tired from existence," he continued, 645 00:38:18,863 --> 00:38:21,298 "Homosexuals are a disease to mankind 646 00:38:21,399 --> 00:38:22,932 that must be put down." 647 00:38:23,034 --> 00:38:27,771 JEANNE: When it I knew what he had done, it disgusts me so bad. 648 00:38:27,872 --> 00:38:30,440 I don't have the empathy for him. 649 00:38:30,541 --> 00:38:31,941 I really don't. 650 00:38:36,080 --> 00:38:38,948 At trial, the judge asked me, 651 00:38:39,050 --> 00:38:41,785 "Mrs. Avsenew, what would you do?" 652 00:38:43,287 --> 00:38:45,989 And I said, "Your honor, I got to say that..." 653 00:38:47,224 --> 00:38:50,260 "I can't ask you for mercy for my son, 654 00:38:50,361 --> 00:38:51,861 "because he doesn't deserve it." 655 00:38:55,132 --> 00:38:56,399 "He did this. 656 00:38:56,500 --> 00:38:58,401 "He's guilty, 657 00:38:58,536 --> 00:39:00,804 "and he needs to pay. 658 00:39:02,073 --> 00:39:04,474 "And whatever that be, 659 00:39:04,575 --> 00:39:05,809 that has to be up to you." 660 00:39:05,910 --> 00:39:13,910 ♪♪ 661 00:39:15,920 --> 00:39:18,688 When the sentence came down, I was there, 662 00:39:18,789 --> 00:39:20,824 and he did 663 00:39:20,925 --> 00:39:23,827 one of these... pulled over like he was pulling 664 00:39:23,928 --> 00:39:28,598 a sling or a... a hangman's noose around his neck. 665 00:39:28,699 --> 00:39:31,634 He went like that to me. 666 00:39:31,736 --> 00:39:35,238 He shot the finger at the family. 667 00:39:35,339 --> 00:39:39,342 He did it to the judge, and that's terrible. 668 00:39:39,443 --> 00:39:42,879 He kills their family, and then he turns around, 669 00:39:42,980 --> 00:39:46,649 and he's gonna sit there and shoot the finger at them. 670 00:39:46,751 --> 00:39:50,553 Come on, that's total disrespect. 671 00:39:50,654 --> 00:39:53,523 He has no respect for anybody. 672 00:39:53,624 --> 00:39:55,892 - We pray for Peter's mom. - Yeah, we do. 673 00:39:55,993 --> 00:39:58,928 Because she is really the one 674 00:39:59,029 --> 00:40:02,065 that allowed Stephen and Kevin had this justice, too. 675 00:40:02,166 --> 00:40:04,868 - Yeah. - So we thank Jeanne Avsenew 676 00:40:04,969 --> 00:40:08,037 for coming forward. - Our prayers are with her. 677 00:40:08,172 --> 00:40:11,274 I do agree with the judge, 678 00:40:11,375 --> 00:40:13,943 and it's gut-wrenching. 679 00:40:15,613 --> 00:40:19,616 It hurts. It hurts to know that your son's gonna die. 680 00:40:19,717 --> 00:40:23,052 But he had no right to take two people's lives. 681 00:40:23,154 --> 00:40:26,623 He has to pay. He has to give back. 682 00:40:28,092 --> 00:40:30,093 What he did is inexcusable. 683 00:40:30,194 --> 00:40:37,867 ♪♪ 684 00:40:37,968 --> 00:40:45,968 ♪♪ 685 00:40:47,978 --> 00:40:50,146 Peter has not called me 686 00:40:50,247 --> 00:40:53,149 or spoken to me since he was sentenced, 687 00:40:53,284 --> 00:40:57,620 because he said that if I couldn't accept him 688 00:40:57,721 --> 00:40:59,255 and what he did 689 00:40:59,356 --> 00:41:01,858 that I could no longer be a part of this family. 690 00:41:03,727 --> 00:41:06,329 Let him blame me. I've had it. 691 00:41:06,430 --> 00:41:09,032 I'm 74 years old. 692 00:41:09,133 --> 00:41:11,701 I don't need this anymore. 693 00:41:11,802 --> 00:41:14,037 He has put me through hell and back. 694 00:41:15,406 --> 00:41:18,107 And maybe that sounds selfish on my part, 695 00:41:18,209 --> 00:41:21,177 but my whole life was dedicated to Peter 696 00:41:21,278 --> 00:41:22,912 and getting Peter out of jail, 697 00:41:23,013 --> 00:41:24,447 getting Peter out of juvie. 698 00:41:24,548 --> 00:41:27,350 I don't have any time anymore. 699 00:41:27,451 --> 00:41:30,220 I'm used up, and he's guilty. 700 00:41:30,321 --> 00:41:37,093 ♪♪ 701 00:41:37,194 --> 00:41:42,499 ♪♪ 702 00:41:42,566 --> 00:41:45,768 If I could speak to him, I'd tell him I love him. 703 00:41:45,870 --> 00:41:49,405 That's never changing. He's my son, 704 00:41:49,507 --> 00:41:50,773 and I would tell him that. 705 00:41:54,044 --> 00:41:57,514 But I sure do miss him, and I sure do miss 706 00:41:57,615 --> 00:41:58,882 trying to talk to him. 707 00:41:58,983 --> 00:42:04,521 ♪♪ 708 00:42:04,622 --> 00:42:06,823 I feel so desperately alone. 709 00:42:08,526 --> 00:42:10,126 I lost my best friend. 710 00:42:10,227 --> 00:42:13,062 I just really miss him. 711 00:42:16,700 --> 00:42:17,734 He was my buddy. 712 00:42:21,705 --> 00:42:23,907 We were really close, I thought. 713 00:42:26,410 --> 00:42:27,744 [sighs heavily]