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I have not slept a night,
one night,

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since all this has started.

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My God.

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You think that
you know somebody,

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and then they do something
like this.

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I had nothing to lose.

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You got -- there is
absolutely nothing

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that could hurt me now.

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I have no consequences
for my actions,

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and I plan
on hurting people.

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It's just unbelievable
that I've raised a child

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that would be capable of
doing something like that.

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He wasn't raised like that.

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I wholeheartedly
have nothing to lose,

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and I'm gonna take it out
on everybody I can.

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I'd rather just kill people.
It's much easier.

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My son is damaged goods.

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There's no fixing him now.

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You can't fix something
that's that broken.

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♪♪

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MAN: Some of the most
damning testimony in

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the trial of Peter Avsenew
came from his own mother,

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the woman who turned him
into police.

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JEANNE: He said he had done
something that he needed to get

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away for six months, and then
everything would be all right.

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People think I'm terrible,

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and I don't care.

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I couldn't let him continue
doing what he was doing.

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Somebody had to stop him.

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He broke God's law --
thou shall not kill.

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When you break God's law,
you have to pay up the God.

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But then he got
two death sentences.

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God, I wish none of this
had ever happened.

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[The Paper Chase's "What's So
Amazing About Grace?" plays]

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[strings continue
playing sinister tune]

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[static crackling]

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[knock at door]
[creaking]

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[banging on door]

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[creaking]

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[water dripping]

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[banging on door]
[creaking]

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[sinister chord strikes]

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I had the hardest time
picking out these pictures,

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finding them,

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because it's so hard for me
to look at them anymore.

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Just breaks my heart.

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It makes me cry.

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Never thought...

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we'd been doing
what we're doing.

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When he was that age,

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he was the happiest little
guy, always smiling.

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He had so much potential.

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I had such hopes for him.

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He was the light of my life,

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and then
this monster came along,

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and where this monster
came from, I don't know.

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All the hopes and dreams
I had for him are just gone.

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I look at his pictures,

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and I say,
"This is not a murderer.

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This can't be a murderer,"
but it is!

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What happened?

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What happened to make him
turn into

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this horrible...
psychotic...thing?

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♪♪

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♪♪

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He first started to change

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when my daughter was murdered.

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Peter was eight years old.

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I had to tell him, sat down
on his bed and said

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I had to talk to him,
and I told him

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that something awful
had happened.

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What's going on?

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JEANNE:
Peter had two siblings.

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Jennifer was
20 years older than him,

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and Eric was
10 years older than him.

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Something's happened to
your sister.

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JEANNE: My daughter
was dating George,

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the guy that murdered her.

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She didn't want to see him
anymore, because he was

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harassing her, and she got
a restraining order on him.

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And that night,

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he went to her house,

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and, um,

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he shot her point blank
with a .357 Magnum

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in the base of her brain.

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When I told Peter that his
sister was gone,

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that she had been murdered,

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he said, "No, that's not true.
You're lying."

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-No.
-I'm sorry.

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-I don't believe you.
-I'm so, so sorry.

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-You're lying! You're a liar!
-JEANNE: He was devastated.

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It was like he lost his hero.

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His whole little world was
just shattered.

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-You're a liar! No!
-I'm so, so sorry.

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Here he had
this person he worshiped,

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and now they were gone.

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He he was, like, lost.

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He was just inconsolable.
He was so angry.

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♪♪

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After the murder,
Peter started getting

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anger issues.
He became very bitter.

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He started going around
just screaming.

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And he was never like that.
He was never like that.

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Peter!

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JEANNE:
He was so angry.

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He wanted to go to jail
and get George.

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He wanted to do something
bad so he could

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get in jail,
and he could kill George.

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He wanted to do
the same thing

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to George that
he did to Jennifer.

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Then I said,
"You can't do that."

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You don't hurt people.

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Then you'd be
just as bad as he is.

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He deserves to die.

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I didn't know
what to do, because

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I didn't know how
to handle his anger.

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♪♪

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♪♪

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He started getting
in fights.

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We ended up in court
when he was nine,

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because, um,
he broke a kid's nose.

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The kid was saying something
about Jennifer,

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and he just told him to shut up
about his sister,

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and the kid kept it up,
and, uh,

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and Peter broke his nose.

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Now, I hadn't really seen
Peter do anything like that.

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So I kind of, um,
was shocked.

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♪♪

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Peter?

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In court, he had to tell
the judge that

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he was sorry and he wouldn't
do it anymore.

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We have to show the judge
you're serious about this.

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Why aren't you ready yet?

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JEANNE: I was hoping
that he would realize

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that he can't do stuff
like that, and it's not right,

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but he just kept
getting worse,

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kept getting more violent
and more violent.

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Now!

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JEANNE: He was becoming
this person that I didn't know.

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We tried desperately
to get Peter help.

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We had him in
a grief group,

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and, um -- but that
didn't seem to help.

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He just didn't respond
well at all.

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I mean, I felt like
I was losing him,

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and I didn't know
what to do.

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I mean, we thought
we were doing everything

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that we could by taking him
to therapy.

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♪♪

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But then it just...

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steadily got worse.

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♪♪

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When Peter was around
10 years old,

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he started to get into
his fascination for knives.

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He wanted anything sharp.
He had to have something sharp.

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At first, he just had a
fascination with little knives.

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Then it got to be where

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he wanted bigger knives
and bigger knives.

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And then he started
sharpening them.

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He got his own little
sharpening tool.

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He would sit and sharpen
the knives obsessively.

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I disagree
that he should be allowed

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to have the knives
to begin with,

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but his stepfather thought
that it was perfectly manly

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for him
to wanna do that.

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He used to bring it
closer and closer to me.

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"Look at this."

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-Watch this.
-And he would, like,

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cut a piece of paper in front
of me and stuff like that.

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I bled easily,
because I took blood thinners,

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and he would be like,

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"This would really make you
bleed, wouldn't it, Mom?"

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I could cut you
so easily with this knife.

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I started getting scared.

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Don't you have
schoolwork to do?

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Oh, no.

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I was always afraid
he was gonna cut me,

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and then I would
bleed to death.

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Now put it away
and get some work done.

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I would say,
"Put them away.

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Please. Put them away."

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He didn't listen.

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You question yourself,
because this is your child,

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and your child is not

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supposed to do
things like this to you.

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And yet he was doing it.

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He was -- he was -- and he would
seem to be enjoying it.

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And that was very upsetting.
Very.

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♪♪

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[knife scraping]

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[suspenseful chord strikes]

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You don't want to believe
that it's happening,

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and you want to ignore it,
because maybe it'll go away.

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Maybe it's just a phase
they're in,

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and it's gonna pass.

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But unfortunately,
Peter's never passed.

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Just kept getting worse
and worse,

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and he kept getting in more
trouble and more trouble.

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♪♪

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♪♪

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It was almost
like there was

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a demonic possession
that came over him.

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He took a samurai sword,
and he came after me

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with a samurai sword.

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♪♪

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I worked at a vet's shop,
and we had so many animals.

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He was always so kind to them.

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But then, as he got older,
his whole personality changed.

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And because Peter
was so volatile,

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you never knew
what was gonna come next.

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The thing with him and wanting
to cut my dog open --

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that will always
stick in my mind.

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I'm probably doing laundry
or something like that,

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and I thought everything
was fine.

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I didn't think there was
a problem going on.

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And all of a sudden,
he grabbed my dog.

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[Young Peter laughing]

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[dog whining]

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And took a knife,
a brutally sharp one,

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and he held it down at
the bottom of her,

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like in her groin.

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And he said,
"Just how

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easy do you think it would be
for me to just slit her open?"

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And my blood ran cold.

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You ever seen people
with just mean eyes,

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and -- and you know that

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you don't wanna
go in their space?

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Well, that's the way
he would look.

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His eyes were glassy
and black,

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and -- and it was very
frightening, very scary.

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He was gonna kill her
right there in front of me.

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You put her down, now.

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I said,
"You put that dog down,

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"and if you're smart,
you'll get out of my sight,

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you'll stay out of my sight,"

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I said, "because you won't live
to make it to the door

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if you hurt that dog."

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♪♪

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I must have scared him.

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I must have had the look,
because he put the dog

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down quickly.

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[laughs]

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Then he'd laugh.

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He had a little sicky laugh.

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He would just say, you know,
like, "You're overreacting."

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-It's not a big deal.
-Get out of my face. Now!

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The sad part is Peter was
such a good little boy.

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He was a sweetheart.

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You're like,
this can't be happening,

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not to my child.

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My child can't be this way.

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But it is happening right
there before your eyes.

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It's like he progressively
got worse

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and worse and harder
and harder to deal with.

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♪♪

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That same day,
right after that happened,

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I remember now,
he took a samurai sword

257
00:15:09,586 --> 00:15:12,103
and he came after me
with a samurai sword.

258
00:15:15,000 --> 00:15:16,793
AS JEANNE: Peter!
Peter!

259
00:15:20,103 --> 00:15:21,000
Peter!

260
00:15:21,103 --> 00:15:22,827
JEANNE:
It was almost like there was

261
00:15:22,931 --> 00:15:25,827
a demonic possession
that came over him.

262
00:15:27,827 --> 00:15:29,862
I mean, he was
swinging that thing.

263
00:15:29,965 --> 00:15:32,689
You could hear it going
[mimics blade slashing]

264
00:15:34,482 --> 00:15:36,482
And oh, my God,

265
00:15:36,586 --> 00:15:40,172
you have no idea
what it -- what that sound is

266
00:15:40,275 --> 00:15:41,965
when it goes past your head,

267
00:15:42,068 --> 00:15:44,448
it's just like
[makes whooshing noise],

268
00:15:44,551 --> 00:15:48,689
and you realize how
sharp that thing is.

269
00:15:48,793 --> 00:15:51,482
I was scared to death.

270
00:15:51,586 --> 00:15:54,034
I thought, "This is it.
I'm getting it now."

271
00:15:55,793 --> 00:15:58,931
Any minute, I'm gonna be --
blood everywhere.

272
00:16:00,586 --> 00:16:03,103
I picked up a cushion
off the sofa...

273
00:16:07,517 --> 00:16:11,896
and he slit the sofa cushion
almost in half.

274
00:16:12,000 --> 00:16:14,103
That's how sharp
his samurai sword was.

275
00:16:14,206 --> 00:16:21,620
♪♪

276
00:16:21,724 --> 00:16:25,689
And if I had not taken
the cushion and held it up,

277
00:16:25,793 --> 00:16:28,172
he would have hit me
with a samurai sword.

278
00:16:29,586 --> 00:16:30,758
You can't imagine.

279
00:16:30,862 --> 00:16:33,000
You just can't imagine
what it feels like.

280
00:16:34,103 --> 00:16:37,103
Peter's stepfather was
absolutely useless.

281
00:16:37,206 --> 00:16:39,344
He didn't want
to get involved.

282
00:16:39,448 --> 00:16:42,000
I had to do it
all on my own.

283
00:16:42,103 --> 00:16:45,310
I felt all alone and desperate,
because I had

284
00:16:45,413 --> 00:16:47,689
no one to help me deal
with him.

285
00:16:49,172 --> 00:16:52,172
And that was more
than I could handle.

286
00:16:52,275 --> 00:16:55,310
One thing just led into
the next and the next,

287
00:16:55,413 --> 00:16:57,965
and it just kept getting
worse and worse and worse.

288
00:16:58,068 --> 00:17:06,344
♪♪

289
00:17:06,448 --> 00:17:10,482
Peter just did things.

290
00:17:10,586 --> 00:17:14,000
He did -- you didn't know
why he did things.

291
00:17:14,103 --> 00:17:16,103
He wouldn't tell you
why he did things.

292
00:17:16,205 --> 00:17:18,275
He didn't give you answers.

293
00:17:22,448 --> 00:17:26,413
One day, he put his trash can
right at his door.

294
00:17:28,896 --> 00:17:31,172
And then he was
sitting there,

295
00:17:31,275 --> 00:17:34,517
and he's striking matches and
throwing them into trash can

296
00:17:34,620 --> 00:17:36,000
full of paper.

297
00:17:39,206 --> 00:17:41,310
I said, "Don't do that."

298
00:17:41,413 --> 00:17:42,379
What are you doing?

299
00:17:44,379 --> 00:17:46,068
You could
start a fire.

300
00:17:46,172 --> 00:17:47,689
He taunted me.

301
00:17:50,379 --> 00:17:52,172
"So what if I do?

302
00:17:52,275 --> 00:17:54,068
What are yougonna
do about it?"

303
00:17:55,896 --> 00:17:57,551
I said, "I'm gonna call
the authorities,

304
00:17:57,655 --> 00:17:59,241
"that's what
I'm gonna do about it.

305
00:17:59,344 --> 00:18:01,620
I'm gonna call
the fire marshal."

306
00:18:01,724 --> 00:18:03,344
"Do what you gotta do, mom."

307
00:18:05,000 --> 00:18:05,896
So I did.

308
00:18:06,000 --> 00:18:09,000
[music building]

309
00:18:09,103 --> 00:18:13,655
♪♪

310
00:18:13,758 --> 00:18:17,344
They send this woman over,
and that --

311
00:18:17,448 --> 00:18:19,517
he wouldn't talk to
the girl.

312
00:18:19,620 --> 00:18:24,172
She tried so hard, but he was
such an obnoxious little snot.

313
00:18:24,275 --> 00:18:26,000
He was so nasty to her.

314
00:18:27,517 --> 00:18:29,448
So she told him
that she would have

315
00:18:29,551 --> 00:18:32,827
to take him into custody
if he didn't stop.

316
00:18:32,931 --> 00:18:37,206
That got a little bit of
respect out of him.

317
00:18:37,310 --> 00:18:39,034
During that period of time,

318
00:18:39,137 --> 00:18:42,275
Peter's rage towards me
really intensified,

319
00:18:45,827 --> 00:18:48,896
and it never stopped.
Just didn't stop.

320
00:18:49,000 --> 00:18:53,827
♪♪

321
00:18:53,931 --> 00:19:00,689
♪♪

322
00:19:00,793 --> 00:19:02,620
That's when
I found the bullets.

323
00:19:02,724 --> 00:19:05,206
[intense music]

324
00:19:13,655 --> 00:19:17,482
♪♪

325
00:19:17,586 --> 00:19:19,206
Oh, my.

326
00:19:24,034 --> 00:19:26,241
See the eyes?

327
00:19:26,344 --> 00:19:27,965
The eyes are starting
to get dark.

328
00:19:31,551 --> 00:19:34,034
This is when
he was a teenager.

329
00:19:36,068 --> 00:19:41,241
You can see the darkness
coming in the eyes, the stare.

330
00:19:41,344 --> 00:19:43,551
They could just burn,
like, burn a hole

331
00:19:43,655 --> 00:19:46,724
through you when they were
staring at you.

332
00:19:49,068 --> 00:19:52,172
When he became a teenager,
I started losing him.

333
00:19:54,034 --> 00:19:56,275
This is where he was
becoming uncontrollable.

334
00:19:56,379 --> 00:20:00,586
♪♪

335
00:20:00,689 --> 00:20:06,689
♪♪

336
00:20:06,793 --> 00:20:10,586
I found jewelry
and collectibles

337
00:20:10,689 --> 00:20:12,413
and stuff like that.

338
00:20:12,517 --> 00:20:15,206
I was like, "Where is this
stuff coming from?"

339
00:20:15,310 --> 00:20:18,103
And it was coming from
the houses he was robbing.

340
00:20:18,206 --> 00:20:22,000
You get to a point where
you really are scared.

341
00:20:24,413 --> 00:20:28,206
And you also get to a point
where you're pretty fed up.

342
00:20:28,310 --> 00:20:30,689
[door creaking]

343
00:20:30,793 --> 00:20:32,000
Mom?

344
00:20:34,172 --> 00:20:35,862
What is this?

345
00:20:35,965 --> 00:20:39,586
I had the police take him right
out of the bathroom one day.

346
00:20:39,689 --> 00:20:42,379
Come on out, put your hands up
against this wall for me.

347
00:20:43,586 --> 00:20:46,896
And he'd be like, "I can't
believe you did this."

348
00:20:49,379 --> 00:20:52,275
Well, I don't approve
of what you're doing.

349
00:20:53,482 --> 00:20:54,689
You won't stop.

350
00:20:56,620 --> 00:20:59,103
I will never forgive you.

351
00:20:59,206 --> 00:21:02,068
JEANNE: It's terrible to have
to turn your own child in.

352
00:21:02,172 --> 00:21:09,931
♪♪

353
00:21:10,034 --> 00:21:12,241
He went to juvie.

354
00:21:12,344 --> 00:21:14,965
I went to see him
with my mother.

355
00:21:16,206 --> 00:21:19,793
We were supposed to spend
Christmas with him,

356
00:21:19,896 --> 00:21:22,310
and I had taken him presents
and everything.

357
00:21:22,413 --> 00:21:26,241
And we didn't get to do that,
because he went off on us.

358
00:21:26,344 --> 00:21:31,000
There she is,
my mother, the slut.

359
00:21:33,206 --> 00:21:35,448
He started when he saw me.

360
00:21:35,551 --> 00:21:37,310
He called me every name in

361
00:21:37,413 --> 00:21:40,965
the book, every kind of
horror imaginable.

362
00:21:41,068 --> 00:21:44,275
And Peter started coming
at me.

363
00:21:44,379 --> 00:21:47,275
I really was scared
for my life.

364
00:21:47,379 --> 00:21:50,068
He's grasping at you,
trying to hit you,

365
00:21:50,172 --> 00:21:52,068
trying to grab you.

366
00:21:52,172 --> 00:21:55,551
And then these guys,
these great big,

367
00:21:55,655 --> 00:21:58,896
burly guys come and have to
pull this kid off of you.

368
00:22:02,655 --> 00:22:05,965
They had to take him out
and restrain him

369
00:22:06,068 --> 00:22:08,724
and give him medication,

370
00:22:08,827 --> 00:22:11,620
because he was going
after me so bad.

371
00:22:12,896 --> 00:22:15,586
It's horrible.
I'm his mother.

372
00:22:15,689 --> 00:22:20,517
I can't imagine being
that angry with my mother.

373
00:22:22,310 --> 00:22:25,172
And he got away with it.
Nobody would help me.

374
00:22:25,275 --> 00:22:28,655
Nobody would put him away
and keep him there

375
00:22:28,758 --> 00:22:30,758
so they could do
something with him.

376
00:22:30,862 --> 00:22:34,344
They kept letting him out early,
and he kept doing,

377
00:22:34,448 --> 00:22:37,000
re-offending, re-offending.

378
00:22:37,103 --> 00:22:40,103
And, uh, I kept trying.

379
00:22:40,206 --> 00:22:42,517
I wasn't giving up on him.

380
00:22:42,620 --> 00:22:45,758
I always thought
that he could be saved.

381
00:22:45,862 --> 00:22:48,000
Um, I prayed
that he would be saved.

382
00:22:48,103 --> 00:22:54,620
♪♪

383
00:22:54,724 --> 00:22:56,551
I got a phone call at work

384
00:22:56,655 --> 00:22:59,379
that Peter was in
the emergency room.

385
00:22:59,482 --> 00:23:03,103
He -- he wasn't hurt, but they
had him in there,

386
00:23:03,206 --> 00:23:05,620
and the State Police
were holding him,

387
00:23:05,724 --> 00:23:08,241
and I was very confused.

388
00:23:08,344 --> 00:23:10,862
I had no idea
what was going on.

389
00:23:10,965 --> 00:23:15,517
The police officer came in
and told me that Peter had this

390
00:23:15,620 --> 00:23:19,103
whole diagram of what he was
gonna do to the school.

391
00:23:22,000 --> 00:23:24,000
He was gonna blow it up.

392
00:23:27,551 --> 00:23:30,103
He had picked out certain
people in

393
00:23:30,206 --> 00:23:32,000
the rooms that he was gonna
blow up.

394
00:23:35,724 --> 00:23:37,896
You're looking at this,
and you're just

395
00:23:38,000 --> 00:23:40,586
in total disbelief
that this is happening.

396
00:23:42,068 --> 00:23:43,275
Is it okay if I speak
with him?

397
00:23:48,862 --> 00:23:52,275
I asked him, I said, you know,
"So what's going on?"

398
00:23:54,896 --> 00:23:58,793
"Oh, mom. You know, just don't
get excited about it, mom,

399
00:23:58,896 --> 00:24:01,103
It's all right, everything's
gonna be all right."

400
00:24:01,206 --> 00:24:03,793
It's not a big deal.

401
00:24:05,448 --> 00:24:10,068
Your heart drops.
Your heart just drops

402
00:24:10,172 --> 00:24:12,310
to your ankles.
It's terrible.

403
00:24:13,655 --> 00:24:18,241
He went to the psych hospital,
and from the psych hospital,

404
00:24:18,344 --> 00:24:19,344
he went to juvie.

405
00:24:19,448 --> 00:24:29,310
♪♪

406
00:24:29,413 --> 00:24:31,482
After we took care of Peter,

407
00:24:31,586 --> 00:24:35,241
I went home, and I started
looking in his room

408
00:24:35,344 --> 00:24:37,724
to see what else was there.

409
00:24:37,827 --> 00:24:40,965
And the floorboard
was up in his closet,

410
00:24:41,068 --> 00:24:43,275
and I reached in there,
and there was the gun.

411
00:24:51,413 --> 00:24:54,310
And then I found
the attache case,

412
00:24:54,413 --> 00:24:57,275
and the attache case
obviously had something in it,

413
00:24:57,379 --> 00:24:59,172
because I could hear it
when I shook it.

414
00:25:03,034 --> 00:25:05,000
And that's when
I found the bullets.

415
00:25:06,965 --> 00:25:10,758
The shotgun shells, and there
were four of them.

416
00:25:10,862 --> 00:25:13,482
One of the bullets
had "mom" on it.

417
00:25:17,344 --> 00:25:21,448
When I looked at that bullet
and it said "mom,"

418
00:25:21,551 --> 00:25:25,931
I thought, Oh, my God.
What did I do?

419
00:25:26,034 --> 00:25:27,689
What did I do to him

420
00:25:27,793 --> 00:25:29,827
to make him hate me so much?

421
00:25:32,103 --> 00:25:33,862
What did I do to him

422
00:25:33,965 --> 00:25:37,689
to make him
so vicious and mean?

423
00:25:37,793 --> 00:25:39,310
I didn't know
what to think.

424
00:25:39,413 --> 00:25:40,448
I was scared.

425
00:25:40,551 --> 00:25:42,448
I really didn't know
what to think.

426
00:25:42,551 --> 00:25:44,896
And you question yourself.

427
00:25:45,000 --> 00:25:47,344
You question yourself
over and over again,

428
00:25:47,448 --> 00:25:50,206
because you don't know
what you did wrong.

429
00:25:50,310 --> 00:25:52,655
Why would he want
to kill me?

430
00:25:52,758 --> 00:25:55,724
I did everything for him,
and why?

431
00:25:55,827 --> 00:25:58,068
I cried a lot.

432
00:26:00,000 --> 00:26:03,620
It was just so,
so heartbreaking.

433
00:26:03,724 --> 00:26:05,758
I can't take anymore.

434
00:26:08,137 --> 00:26:09,862
[sighs heavily]

435
00:26:09,965 --> 00:26:19,448
♪♪

436
00:26:19,551 --> 00:26:22,172
He just turned around,
and shoving me against

437
00:26:22,275 --> 00:26:25,655
the refrigerator.

438
00:26:25,758 --> 00:26:27,413
He had just lost control.

439
00:26:39,241 --> 00:26:43,827
He spent 11 months in
a facility

440
00:26:43,931 --> 00:26:46,827
for, um,

441
00:26:46,931 --> 00:26:49,241
aggressive teenagers.

442
00:26:50,965 --> 00:26:53,896
I thought, well, this is
really gonna help.

443
00:26:54,000 --> 00:26:55,586
He was on medication.

444
00:26:55,689 --> 00:26:57,689
I thought,
oh, my God, this is working.

445
00:26:57,793 --> 00:27:00,896
It's gonna work.
Everything's gonna be okay.

446
00:27:01,000 --> 00:27:03,482
He's gonna be acting normal.

447
00:27:03,586 --> 00:27:05,586
Didn't work that way.

448
00:27:09,000 --> 00:27:11,551
I was all excited,
because when he came home,

449
00:27:11,655 --> 00:27:13,655
he looked so good,

450
00:27:13,758 --> 00:27:15,310
and he sounded so good.

451
00:27:15,413 --> 00:27:18,241
And, you know, it was like
having my son back.

452
00:27:18,344 --> 00:27:20,379
He was affectionate.

453
00:27:20,482 --> 00:27:22,758
Oh, it was wonderful.

454
00:27:22,862 --> 00:27:25,379
But it didn't last long.

455
00:27:26,965 --> 00:27:28,965
One day,
I was in the kitchen with him.

456
00:27:29,068 --> 00:27:31,482
Peter, I asked you
to take out the garbage.

457
00:27:31,586 --> 00:27:33,482
I'm not gonna ask you again.

458
00:27:33,586 --> 00:27:35,413
I said something to him --
I don't even know what

459
00:27:35,517 --> 00:27:37,586
I said to him,
and he just turned around

460
00:27:37,689 --> 00:27:39,862
and shoved me
against the refrigerator.

461
00:27:43,620 --> 00:27:45,310
I was very shocked.

462
00:27:45,413 --> 00:27:49,137
He had never put his hands
on me before.

463
00:27:50,965 --> 00:27:54,827
You don't tell me
what to do ever again.

464
00:27:54,931 --> 00:27:56,758
He had just lost control.

465
00:27:58,137 --> 00:27:59,068
You understand me?

466
00:27:59,172 --> 00:28:02,068
[music intensifying]

467
00:28:06,931 --> 00:28:12,034
He left shortly after that,
and I just went in my room,

468
00:28:12,137 --> 00:28:14,000
stayed away from him
for a while.

469
00:28:17,172 --> 00:28:20,931
I had lost control completely,
because he was

470
00:28:21,034 --> 00:28:23,206
just doing whatever
he wanted to do.

471
00:28:23,310 --> 00:28:31,655
♪♪

472
00:28:31,758 --> 00:28:35,379
♪♪

473
00:28:35,482 --> 00:28:37,862
After Peter turned 18,

474
00:28:37,965 --> 00:28:40,689
there was no other place
for him but jail.

475
00:28:40,793 --> 00:28:46,172
He just was in jail
all the time, so, um,

476
00:28:46,275 --> 00:28:48,034
I didn't see him that often.

477
00:28:49,551 --> 00:28:51,241
[phone ringing]

478
00:28:51,344 --> 00:28:53,344
He would try
and call me collect,

479
00:28:53,448 --> 00:28:56,034
always begging for money
when he was in jail.

480
00:28:56,137 --> 00:28:58,137
[phone ringing]

481
00:28:58,241 --> 00:29:02,620
I just decided one day
that I had given enough,

482
00:29:02,724 --> 00:29:05,310
and I wasn't gonna
give anymore.

483
00:29:05,413 --> 00:29:06,965
[phone ringing]

484
00:29:07,068 --> 00:29:09,896
And I stopped receiving
the calls.

485
00:29:10,000 --> 00:29:12,689
[phone ringing]

486
00:29:15,103 --> 00:29:16,724
And it was relieving.

487
00:29:16,827 --> 00:29:19,034
It was freedom
to be away from it.

488
00:29:19,137 --> 00:29:21,689
When I didn't have to have
contact with him,

489
00:29:21,793 --> 00:29:24,758
it was almost refreshing
that I didn't

490
00:29:24,862 --> 00:29:26,689
have to put up with it
every day.

491
00:29:26,793 --> 00:29:34,931
♪♪

492
00:29:38,551 --> 00:29:40,724
[phone ringing]

493
00:29:40,827 --> 00:29:42,551
Hello?

494
00:29:42,655 --> 00:29:45,965
"Hi, Mom.
It's your favorite son, Peter.

495
00:29:46,068 --> 00:29:50,448
How about I come over
for dinner?"

496
00:29:50,551 --> 00:29:51,965
I'm like, what?

497
00:29:52,068 --> 00:29:54,137
I said, "Where are you?"

498
00:29:54,241 --> 00:29:56,448
He said, "I'm right across
the street."

499
00:29:56,551 --> 00:30:01,724
I'm like, aw...God.

500
00:30:01,827 --> 00:30:04,344
You gotta be kidding.

501
00:30:04,448 --> 00:30:06,724
[knocking noises]

502
00:30:06,827 --> 00:30:09,068
When he came home,
he brought in

503
00:30:09,172 --> 00:30:13,448
guns, knives, stun guns.

504
00:30:15,034 --> 00:30:17,241
I was like,
"What are you doing?"

505
00:30:17,344 --> 00:30:19,344
No way.

506
00:30:21,137 --> 00:30:24,068
I said, "Oh, no --
no, no, no, no, no.

507
00:30:24,172 --> 00:30:25,551
Out with the gun."

508
00:30:25,655 --> 00:30:27,413
I said,
"The gun doesn't stay.

509
00:30:27,517 --> 00:30:31,275
"The knives don't stay,
the tear gas doesn't stay.

510
00:30:31,379 --> 00:30:32,965
"I don't care what
you do with it,

511
00:30:33,068 --> 00:30:36,310
but you get it out of this
house, and you get it out now."

512
00:30:36,413 --> 00:30:37,724
Take them to the car.

513
00:30:39,310 --> 00:30:42,137
I didn't ask him anything,
because knowing Peter,

514
00:30:42,241 --> 00:30:45,896
I knew that he was gonna come
up with some cockamamie story,

515
00:30:46,000 --> 00:30:48,620
and I really didn't want to
hear it.

516
00:30:48,724 --> 00:30:56,448
♪♪

517
00:31:01,793 --> 00:31:06,241
♪♪

518
00:31:06,344 --> 00:31:08,724
Is everything okay?

519
00:31:11,241 --> 00:31:14,137
JEANNE: After dinner,
Peter started telling me

520
00:31:14,241 --> 00:31:16,827
how he had done something,

521
00:31:16,931 --> 00:31:20,241
something that he could never
get back from.

522
00:31:20,344 --> 00:31:22,931
I said,
"Did you hurt someone?"

523
00:31:23,034 --> 00:31:24,344
And he said yes.

524
00:31:24,448 --> 00:31:26,482
Two men.

525
00:31:26,586 --> 00:31:29,862
And I said, "Did you,
you know, hurt them bad?"

526
00:31:29,965 --> 00:31:33,000
He said, "Well, yes,
I murdered them."

527
00:31:36,103 --> 00:31:39,965
I honestly just
didn't know what to do.

528
00:31:40,068 --> 00:31:41,620
That's not funny.

529
00:31:41,724 --> 00:31:44,827
Then I thought he was lying,
because Peter's notorious for

530
00:31:44,931 --> 00:31:47,724
making up stories,
and I thought, well,

531
00:31:47,827 --> 00:31:50,586
this can't be true.
It just can't.

532
00:31:50,689 --> 00:31:53,827
I can't get the smell
of bleach off of my hands.

533
00:31:53,931 --> 00:31:56,172
JEANNE: He was saying
how he couldn't believe that

534
00:31:56,275 --> 00:31:59,310
it had been so many days
since he had been able

535
00:31:59,413 --> 00:32:02,206
to get rid of the smell
in his nostrils.

536
00:32:02,310 --> 00:32:03,448
Do you smell it?

537
00:32:06,827 --> 00:32:07,931
No.

538
00:32:10,655 --> 00:32:13,551
He never told me
what he actually had done

539
00:32:13,655 --> 00:32:16,241
to those people.

540
00:32:16,344 --> 00:32:21,241
He didn't tell me how he maimed
them, how he slaughtered them,

541
00:32:21,344 --> 00:32:26,482
how he wrapped him in
bleach-covered blankets

542
00:32:26,586 --> 00:32:29,103
after they were dead.

543
00:32:29,206 --> 00:32:34,137
How he shot one in the head
twice and the other 8 times.

544
00:32:34,241 --> 00:32:37,206
He didn't tell me any
of the gruesome facts.

545
00:32:37,310 --> 00:32:40,965
I didn't learn those until
way into the trial.

546
00:32:41,068 --> 00:32:44,793
I couldn't go to sleep.
I just laid there.

547
00:32:44,896 --> 00:32:47,413
I kept thinking
all night long.

548
00:32:51,931 --> 00:33:01,379
♪♪

549
00:33:01,482 --> 00:33:02,482
I'll be right back.

550
00:33:02,586 --> 00:33:03,689
I have to stop you,

551
00:33:03,793 --> 00:33:06,275
because nobody else seems
to be able to stop you.

552
00:33:07,586 --> 00:33:11,241
So I have got to stop you
before you hurt somebody else.

553
00:33:23,379 --> 00:33:26,724
I honestly don't know
how I got

554
00:33:26,827 --> 00:33:29,862
through that --
the rest of that night,

555
00:33:29,965 --> 00:33:33,137
but the next day,
I asked him,

556
00:33:33,241 --> 00:33:35,586
I said,
"Did you really do that?"

557
00:33:35,689 --> 00:33:38,482
Last night,

558
00:33:38,586 --> 00:33:39,586
were you serious?

559
00:33:43,689 --> 00:33:45,448
"Yes, mom.
I really did it."

560
00:33:47,655 --> 00:33:51,551
"I murdered two people,
and they deserved it."

561
00:33:51,655 --> 00:33:54,862
I said, "What do you
mean, they deserved it?

562
00:33:54,965 --> 00:33:57,931
How could they deserve it?"

563
00:33:58,034 --> 00:34:01,034
I don't know
what I was thinking.

564
00:34:01,137 --> 00:34:03,620
To be honest with you,
I really don't.

565
00:34:03,724 --> 00:34:06,827
All I know is I was so...

566
00:34:06,931 --> 00:34:09,482
emotionally distraught.

567
00:34:11,413 --> 00:34:12,620
I was scared.

568
00:34:14,000 --> 00:34:15,068
I was so scared.

569
00:34:15,172 --> 00:34:17,413
I didn't know what was gonna
happen to me.

570
00:34:17,516 --> 00:34:19,965
I didn't know what
he was capable of.

571
00:34:23,172 --> 00:34:24,206
Where are you going?

572
00:34:25,793 --> 00:34:28,620
JEANNE: I told him that
my friend had called me,

573
00:34:28,724 --> 00:34:30,275
and she needed help.

574
00:34:30,379 --> 00:34:33,757
So then he wanted to know if
I wanted him to go with me.

575
00:34:33,862 --> 00:34:35,206
I said, "Oh, no,
that's all right.

576
00:34:35,310 --> 00:34:36,965
Stay here and relax."

577
00:34:37,068 --> 00:34:38,757
I'll be right back.

578
00:34:38,862 --> 00:34:42,172
Meanwhile, I'm going
to my friend's house,

579
00:34:42,275 --> 00:34:43,862
and that's how I got
out of the house.

580
00:34:45,379 --> 00:34:47,931
And I went to my friend's house,

581
00:34:48,034 --> 00:34:51,103
and we called the police,
and...

582
00:34:51,206 --> 00:34:53,585
they came,
and he gave himself up.

583
00:34:53,688 --> 00:34:58,034
♪♪

584
00:34:58,137 --> 00:35:04,310
♪♪

585
00:35:04,413 --> 00:35:07,137
WOMAN: Stephen Adams
and his partner, Kevin Powell,

586
00:35:07,241 --> 00:35:10,068
were found shot to death in
their Wilton Manors home

587
00:35:10,172 --> 00:35:11,827
over Christmas 2010.

588
00:35:11,931 --> 00:35:14,482
Prosecutors say
Avsenew met the couple

589
00:35:14,586 --> 00:35:17,896
after posting a suggestive ad
on Craigslist.

590
00:35:18,000 --> 00:35:20,827
They told me that
the two guys were gay,

591
00:35:20,931 --> 00:35:25,862
and that that's why
Peter murdered them,

592
00:35:27,482 --> 00:35:29,068
that he had picked them up.

593
00:35:29,172 --> 00:35:33,482
He was soliciting himself
on Craigslist.

594
00:35:33,586 --> 00:35:35,827
He'd been selling himself

595
00:35:35,931 --> 00:35:37,344
to gay guys.

596
00:35:39,275 --> 00:35:43,275
I still in the back of my mind
was hoping that he was lying.

597
00:35:43,379 --> 00:35:45,793
I was hoping that
this wasn't true.

598
00:35:45,896 --> 00:35:49,172
I kept praying that
it wasn't true, but it was.

599
00:35:49,275 --> 00:35:59,172
♪♪

600
00:35:59,275 --> 00:36:00,620
Well, I was scared.

601
00:36:03,827 --> 00:36:06,482
I mean, come on.
I was really scared.

602
00:36:06,586 --> 00:36:07,586
I didn't know
whether he was gonna go

603
00:36:07,689 --> 00:36:10,517
off on me and attack me
or what.

604
00:36:12,310 --> 00:36:16,482
I went in, and I said,
"You know, Peter,

605
00:36:16,586 --> 00:36:18,379
"I can't let you do
this anymore.

606
00:36:19,724 --> 00:36:21,862
"I brought you into this world,

607
00:36:21,965 --> 00:36:24,344
"and not to do the things
that you've done.

608
00:36:24,448 --> 00:36:27,758
"I just can't watch
this go on anymore.

609
00:36:27,862 --> 00:36:29,620
"I've got to stop you.

610
00:36:29,724 --> 00:36:32,275
So yeah, I'm turning you in."

611
00:36:32,379 --> 00:36:38,586
♪♪

612
00:36:38,689 --> 00:36:40,482
And he said,
"It's not your fault."

613
00:36:42,068 --> 00:36:45,379
Well, no,
it wasn't my fault.

614
00:36:45,482 --> 00:36:49,172
I've tried to raise you
the best I could,

615
00:36:49,275 --> 00:36:52,379
and you have rejected me
and rejected me.

616
00:36:52,482 --> 00:36:57,034
I cannot keep beating
my head against the wall.

617
00:36:57,137 --> 00:36:59,793
And I have to stop you,
because nobody

618
00:36:59,896 --> 00:37:01,724
else seems to be able to
stop you.

619
00:37:04,413 --> 00:37:06,793
He said, "Don't worry.
I'm not mad at you."

620
00:37:06,896 --> 00:37:10,379
He said, "I understand."

621
00:37:10,482 --> 00:37:11,586
I started crying.

622
00:37:11,689 --> 00:37:13,275
I couldn't stay in there
with him.

623
00:37:16,517 --> 00:37:19,517
The last thing I said to Peter
before I left him was,

624
00:37:19,620 --> 00:37:21,206
"I love you."

625
00:37:21,310 --> 00:37:24,206
And I said,
"That will never change."

626
00:37:25,620 --> 00:37:28,000
And he said,
"I love you too, mom."

627
00:37:28,103 --> 00:37:34,724
♪♪

628
00:37:34,827 --> 00:37:44,172
♪♪

629
00:37:44,275 --> 00:37:46,206
I had nothing to lose.

630
00:37:46,310 --> 00:37:49,931
You g -- there is
absolutely nothing

631
00:37:50,034 --> 00:37:52,344
that can hurt me now.

632
00:37:52,448 --> 00:37:54,655
I have no consequences
for my actions,

633
00:37:54,758 --> 00:37:56,482
and I plan on hurting people.

634
00:37:56,586 --> 00:37:59,827
I wholeheartedly
have nothing to lose,

635
00:37:59,931 --> 00:38:02,724
and I'm gonna take it out
on everybody I can.

636
00:38:02,827 --> 00:38:04,724
Peter has never shown
any remorse.

637
00:38:06,586 --> 00:38:08,620
None whatsoever.

638
00:38:08,724 --> 00:38:12,310
If you ask him why he did it,

639
00:38:12,413 --> 00:38:14,000
he said,
"Because they deserved it."

640
00:38:14,103 --> 00:38:16,896
MAN: Avsenew sent a letter to
the judge saying in part,

641
00:38:17,000 --> 00:38:18,862
"You will never be able
to stop me."

642
00:38:18,965 --> 00:38:20,620
Then he went on
a bigoted rant,

643
00:38:20,724 --> 00:38:23,931
saying, "It is my duty as
a white man to cull the weak

644
00:38:24,034 --> 00:38:26,172
and tired from existence,"
he continued,

645
00:38:26,275 --> 00:38:28,689
"Homosexuals are a disease
to mankind

646
00:38:28,793 --> 00:38:30,379
that must be put down."

647
00:38:30,482 --> 00:38:35,206
JEANNE: When it I knew what he
had done, it disgusts me so bad.

648
00:38:35,310 --> 00:38:37,862
I don't have the empathy
for him.

649
00:38:37,965 --> 00:38:39,344
I really don't.

650
00:38:43,517 --> 00:38:46,379
At trial,
the judge asked me,

651
00:38:46,482 --> 00:38:49,172
"Mrs. Avsenew,
what would you do?"

652
00:38:50,724 --> 00:38:53,379
And I said, "Your honor,
I got to say that...

653
00:38:54,655 --> 00:38:57,689
"I can't ask you
for mercy for my son,

654
00:38:57,793 --> 00:38:59,241
"because he doesn't
deserve it.

655
00:39:02,586 --> 00:39:03,896
"He did this.

656
00:39:04,000 --> 00:39:05,896
"He's guilty,

657
00:39:06,000 --> 00:39:08,206
"and he needs to pay.

658
00:39:09,517 --> 00:39:11,896
"And whatever that be,

659
00:39:12,000 --> 00:39:13,206
that has to be up to you."

660
00:39:13,310 --> 00:39:23,241
♪♪

661
00:39:23,344 --> 00:39:26,103
When the sentence came down,
I was there,

662
00:39:26,206 --> 00:39:28,241
and he did

663
00:39:28,344 --> 00:39:31,241
one of these -- pulled over
like he was pulling

664
00:39:31,344 --> 00:39:36,000
a sling or a -- a hangman's
noose around his neck.

665
00:39:36,103 --> 00:39:39,068
He went like that to me.

666
00:39:39,172 --> 00:39:42,689
He shot the finger
at the family.

667
00:39:42,793 --> 00:39:46,793
He did it to the judge,
and that's terrible.

668
00:39:46,896 --> 00:39:50,310
He kills their family,
and then he turns around,

669
00:39:50,413 --> 00:39:54,068
and he's gonna sit there
and shoot the finger at them.

670
00:39:54,172 --> 00:39:57,965
Come on, that's
total disrespect.

671
00:39:58,068 --> 00:40:00,931
He has no respect
for anybody.

672
00:40:01,034 --> 00:40:03,310
-We pray for Peter's mom.
-Yeah, we do.

673
00:40:03,413 --> 00:40:06,344
Because she is really
the one

674
00:40:06,448 --> 00:40:09,517
that allowed Stephen and Kevin
had this justice, too.

675
00:40:09,620 --> 00:40:12,310
-Yeah.
-So we thank Jeanne Avsenew

676
00:40:12,413 --> 00:40:15,482
for coming forward.
-Our prayers are with her.

677
00:40:15,586 --> 00:40:18,689
I do agree with the judge,

678
00:40:18,793 --> 00:40:21,344
and it's gut-wrenching.

679
00:40:23,068 --> 00:40:27,034
It hurts. It hurts to know
that your son's gonna die.

680
00:40:27,137 --> 00:40:30,482
But he had no right
to take two people's lives.

681
00:40:30,586 --> 00:40:34,000
He has to pay.
He has to give back.

682
00:40:35,517 --> 00:40:37,482
What he did is inexcusable.

683
00:40:37,586 --> 00:40:45,275
♪♪

684
00:40:45,379 --> 00:40:55,310
♪♪

685
00:40:55,413 --> 00:40:57,586
Peter has not called me

686
00:40:57,689 --> 00:41:00,620
or spoken to me since
he was sentenced,

687
00:41:00,724 --> 00:41:05,103
because he said that if
I couldn't accept him

688
00:41:05,206 --> 00:41:06,758
and what he did

689
00:41:06,862 --> 00:41:09,241
that I could no longer be
a part of this family.

690
00:41:11,137 --> 00:41:13,724
Let him blame me.
I've had it.

691
00:41:13,827 --> 00:41:16,448
I'm 74 years old.

692
00:41:16,551 --> 00:41:19,137
I don't need this anymore.

693
00:41:19,241 --> 00:41:21,448
He has put me through hell
and back.

694
00:41:22,862 --> 00:41:25,551
And maybe that sounds selfish
on my part,

695
00:41:25,655 --> 00:41:28,620
but my whole life was
dedicated to Peter

696
00:41:28,724 --> 00:41:30,344
and getting Peter
out of jail,

697
00:41:30,448 --> 00:41:31,862
getting Peter out of juvie.

698
00:41:31,965 --> 00:41:34,758
I don't have any time anymore.

699
00:41:34,862 --> 00:41:37,620
I'm used up,
and he's guilty.

700
00:41:37,724 --> 00:41:44,482
♪♪

701
00:41:44,586 --> 00:41:49,931
♪♪

702
00:41:50,034 --> 00:41:53,206
If I could speak to him,
I'd tell him I love him.

703
00:41:53,310 --> 00:41:56,827
That's never changing.
He's my son,

704
00:41:56,931 --> 00:41:58,172
and I would tell him that.

705
00:42:01,551 --> 00:42:05,000
But I sure do miss him,
and I sure do miss

706
00:42:05,103 --> 00:42:06,344
trying to talk to him.

707
00:42:06,448 --> 00:42:11,931
♪♪

708
00:42:12,034 --> 00:42:14,206
I feel so desperately alone.

709
00:42:15,931 --> 00:42:17,517
I lost my best friend.

710
00:42:17,620 --> 00:42:20,448
I just really miss him.

711
00:42:24,137 --> 00:42:25,137
He was my buddy.

712
00:42:29,137 --> 00:42:31,310
We were really close,
I thought.

713
00:42:33,827 --> 00:42:35,137
[sighs heavily]