1 00:00:06,756 --> 00:00:07,966 [piano music playing] 2 00:00:14,055 --> 00:00:15,473 [shutter clicking] 3 00:00:17,809 --> 00:00:19,060 [sighs] 4 00:00:20,311 --> 00:00:21,354 [mutters] 5 00:00:34,451 --> 00:00:35,535 [shutter clicking] 6 00:00:47,881 --> 00:00:48,840 [shutter clicking] 7 00:01:08,610 --> 00:01:09,778 [chuckles] 8 00:01:14,991 --> 00:01:16,284 [shutter whirring] 9 00:01:17,494 --> 00:01:18,536 [whispers] Shit. 10 00:01:24,626 --> 00:01:25,460 [sighs] 11 00:01:25,543 --> 00:01:27,462 It's supposed to be three seconds... 12 00:01:27,545 --> 00:01:28,463 Okay. 13 00:01:29,464 --> 00:01:30,423 [shutter whirring] 14 00:01:32,467 --> 00:01:34,135 [Penny] Mom, we have to go now. 15 00:01:34,427 --> 00:01:35,261 Just... 16 00:01:36,221 --> 00:01:38,014 give me like, three more minutes. 17 00:01:39,224 --> 00:01:40,391 Go eat something. 18 00:01:55,532 --> 00:01:58,451 [girls giggling] 19 00:02:05,500 --> 00:02:06,459 [Penny] That was bad. 20 00:02:06,543 --> 00:02:08,586 God damn it. Can you... Can you... 21 00:02:08,670 --> 00:02:09,587 Penny, seriously. 22 00:02:09,671 --> 00:02:11,506 - I want you to get behind me, guys. -All right. 23 00:02:11,589 --> 00:02:13,925 -I have asked you five times. -Fine. 24 00:02:16,386 --> 00:02:17,428 [sighs] 25 00:02:18,555 --> 00:02:20,723 -[Kyle] What do you think? You like it? -Mm-hm. 26 00:02:20,807 --> 00:02:22,350 -It's really good. -Yeah? 27 00:02:22,600 --> 00:02:24,144 You like Indian food, Penny? 28 00:02:24,227 --> 00:02:25,353 Yeah. 29 00:02:25,436 --> 00:02:26,479 What's your favorite? 30 00:02:27,355 --> 00:02:28,690 This. What is it? 31 00:02:29,232 --> 00:02:30,275 That's naan. 32 00:02:30,650 --> 00:02:32,902 It's, like, Indian bread. It's sorta like pita. 33 00:02:33,444 --> 00:02:35,613 -You've had pita before. You like it. -Yeah. 34 00:02:35,822 --> 00:02:38,449 You can kind of scoop up the curry with the naan. 35 00:02:38,533 --> 00:02:40,160 You can kind of use it like a little... 36 00:02:40,243 --> 00:02:42,412 -a little mitt. -[Allen] What's... What's this stuff? 37 00:02:42,495 --> 00:02:45,290 That's a potato. That's... That's, like, a green pea curry. 38 00:02:45,373 --> 00:02:46,541 [phone rings] 39 00:02:49,836 --> 00:02:52,714 You know, I probably didn't have Indian food until I was in college. 40 00:02:52,797 --> 00:02:55,508 -[Allen] Really? -[Kyle] Yeah. I was probably 19-20, 41 00:02:55,592 --> 00:02:56,801 -until I had that. -[Penny] Wow. 42 00:02:56,885 --> 00:02:58,928 -[Kyle] So you're ahead of your time. -[Allen] Mm. 43 00:02:59,304 --> 00:03:01,431 Your mom introduced me to all these things. 44 00:03:02,849 --> 00:03:05,268 She had, you know, much better taste than I did. 45 00:03:06,895 --> 00:03:08,062 Andi, it's Ryan. 46 00:03:08,730 --> 00:03:10,565 I'm sorry that I'm just now getting back to you. 47 00:03:10,648 --> 00:03:13,526 It's been sort of a crazy... 24 hours. 48 00:03:13,610 --> 00:03:14,611 Uh... 49 00:03:14,694 --> 00:03:19,157 Sadie... surprised me last night by coming into town. 50 00:03:19,240 --> 00:03:20,825 [chuckles] And she just... 51 00:03:21,576 --> 00:03:23,912 showed up at my show and, uh... 52 00:03:24,996 --> 00:03:26,456 Yeah, but I'm... 53 00:03:27,123 --> 00:03:30,335 thinking about you, and I can't wait to see you again. 54 00:03:38,968 --> 00:03:40,511 [Kyle] Should we go youngest to oldest? 55 00:03:40,595 --> 00:03:42,764 -[Penny] Yeah. [laughs] -[Kyle] All right. 56 00:03:42,847 --> 00:03:45,975 -Once Mom gets back from the bathroom. -Oh, yes, yes, yes, yes. 57 00:03:46,935 --> 00:03:47,769 Hi. 58 00:03:48,186 --> 00:03:49,729 [Allen] You guys ready to lose? 59 00:03:50,396 --> 00:03:51,481 [whispers] Oh, my God. 60 00:03:51,940 --> 00:03:53,149 Not possible. 61 00:03:54,984 --> 00:03:55,818 Nice. 62 00:03:55,902 --> 00:03:56,903 [jazz playing] 63 00:04:10,458 --> 00:04:12,877 ♪ It was only yesterday ♪ 64 00:04:13,586 --> 00:04:16,339 ♪ When you stole my heart away ♪ 65 00:04:16,422 --> 00:04:17,382 Hi. 66 00:04:20,635 --> 00:04:21,511 -[bartender] Hey. -Hi. 67 00:04:21,594 --> 00:04:23,721 -Can I bring you something to drink? -Um... 68 00:04:24,430 --> 00:04:25,682 Yeah, can I get a, uh... 69 00:04:26,975 --> 00:04:28,393 Uh, just a vodka soda. 70 00:04:28,518 --> 00:04:31,187 -Sure. Lemon? -Yeah. Great, thank you. 71 00:04:32,355 --> 00:04:33,439 [sighs] 72 00:04:34,315 --> 00:04:35,149 Hey. 73 00:04:43,700 --> 00:04:46,828 ♪ I know that this love ♪ 74 00:04:46,911 --> 00:04:49,956 ♪ Has come to an end ♪ 75 00:04:50,290 --> 00:04:53,918 ♪ Why did I have to mess up ♪ 76 00:04:54,377 --> 00:04:55,920 ♪ Till the end? ♪ 77 00:05:06,514 --> 00:05:07,348 [gasping] Okay... 78 00:05:07,849 --> 00:05:08,891 I gotta stop. 79 00:05:09,517 --> 00:05:10,601 Oh, God. 80 00:05:13,062 --> 00:05:14,314 I gotta stop. 81 00:05:28,453 --> 00:05:29,787 -Hi. -[whispers] Hi. 82 00:05:31,497 --> 00:05:32,832 I missed you. 83 00:05:33,416 --> 00:05:35,293 -Oh, yeah? -[chuckles] Mm-hm. 84 00:05:37,628 --> 00:05:38,504 That's nice. 85 00:05:38,588 --> 00:05:41,632 I had a super hot night. I wanna tell you about it. 86 00:05:44,594 --> 00:05:45,428 [chuckles] 87 00:05:45,636 --> 00:05:47,138 -Tell me about it. -[chuckles] 88 00:05:50,683 --> 00:05:53,603 -My pussy's on fire right now. -Oh, boy. 89 00:05:53,686 --> 00:05:54,979 [chuckles] 90 00:05:58,399 --> 00:06:00,068 Do you wanna hear about my night? 91 00:06:01,319 --> 00:06:02,987 Um... I don't know, do I? 92 00:06:03,446 --> 00:06:04,739 I think you do. 93 00:06:04,822 --> 00:06:06,199 -Yeah? -Mm-hm. 94 00:06:07,158 --> 00:06:08,576 I was in Ryan's car... 95 00:06:10,286 --> 00:06:12,538 and I was sitting on his lap... 96 00:06:12,830 --> 00:06:14,832 I was straddling him... 97 00:06:15,166 --> 00:06:19,003 and I was grinding on his big fat hard cock for an hour 98 00:06:19,587 --> 00:06:21,422 begging him to fuck me with it. 99 00:06:22,298 --> 00:06:23,841 He wouldn't do it. 100 00:06:28,137 --> 00:06:30,139 And I need you to fix it. 101 00:06:31,849 --> 00:06:35,144 I need you to hit all my little spots. 102 00:06:36,020 --> 00:06:37,355 Hurt me a little. 103 00:06:39,023 --> 00:06:39,857 [moans] 104 00:06:42,068 --> 00:06:42,985 [Andi laughs] 105 00:06:43,069 --> 00:06:45,696 Let me get this straight. You didn't get what you wanted with Ryan... 106 00:06:45,780 --> 00:06:47,073 [yells] 107 00:06:48,157 --> 00:06:48,991 What? 108 00:06:51,452 --> 00:06:54,205 You didn't get what you wanted with Ryan, so I'm like... 109 00:06:55,039 --> 00:06:57,208 -second best? -No, you're not second best. 110 00:06:57,291 --> 00:06:59,252 -You're number one. -Your "what's in front of you"? 111 00:06:59,335 --> 00:07:01,337 No, you're just gonna make sure it happens. 112 00:07:01,421 --> 00:07:03,423 -I'm not. -You're gonna hit all my little spots. 113 00:07:03,506 --> 00:07:04,632 -I'm not. -Yeah. 114 00:07:04,715 --> 00:07:05,633 -Nope. -Mm-hm. 115 00:07:05,716 --> 00:07:08,553 -No, I'm tired. -You're gonna flip me over and do it. 116 00:07:08,636 --> 00:07:10,263 No. Okay. 117 00:07:14,642 --> 00:07:15,768 [sighs] 118 00:07:31,617 --> 00:07:33,995 I don't feel like doing that with you right now. 119 00:07:38,332 --> 00:07:41,586 [Kyle] I mean, to be honest, it just felt like, uh, it wasn't about me. 120 00:07:41,669 --> 00:07:42,837 Um... 121 00:07:42,920 --> 00:07:44,505 I mean, I hear your point about... 122 00:07:45,256 --> 00:07:47,925 Yeah, we talked a lot about, when we opened the marriage, 123 00:07:48,009 --> 00:07:51,262 that it was als--  about also stimulating... 124 00:07:52,763 --> 00:07:53,931 our sex life, 125 00:07:54,015 --> 00:07:55,516 and I think there have been times 126 00:07:55,600 --> 00:07:58,019 when we've told each other about experiences that we've had, 127 00:07:58,102 --> 00:07:59,645 that it is hot, but like... 128 00:08:00,938 --> 00:08:03,357 in that moment, it just felt like you were all... 129 00:08:04,192 --> 00:08:05,067 jazzed up... 130 00:08:05,776 --> 00:08:08,196 to have sex with someone else and it didn't happen that night, 131 00:08:08,279 --> 00:08:10,323 so then I was like his stand-in. 132 00:08:11,115 --> 00:08:11,949 Which... 133 00:08:12,325 --> 00:08:16,329 [mediator] Maybe we can... I think what we really need to talk about is Ryan. 134 00:08:16,412 --> 00:08:19,040 Um... How are things going with...  with him? 135 00:08:19,832 --> 00:08:20,708 [sighs] I-- 136 00:08:24,420 --> 00:08:25,338 So good. 137 00:08:27,757 --> 00:08:32,094 It's just relaxed, you know, and it's a finite situation. 138 00:08:32,178 --> 00:08:35,765 So I think because I know he's leaving in, like, six and a half, seven weeks... 139 00:08:35,848 --> 00:08:38,142 -Mm-hm. -Like, I've allowed myself the intimacy... 140 00:08:39,018 --> 00:08:42,313 an intimacy with him that I probably wouldn't have allowed myself. 141 00:08:42,605 --> 00:08:45,149 -Mm-hm. -And it feels... 142 00:08:46,317 --> 00:08:47,777 It feels really different... 143 00:08:49,445 --> 00:08:51,656 than the bullshit that I was doing before 144 00:08:51,739 --> 00:08:53,199 with the... with the randos. 145 00:08:53,866 --> 00:08:56,327 [mediator] Right. And how are you feeling about that? 146 00:08:56,702 --> 00:08:58,079 [Kyle] I mean, I think it's, uh... 147 00:09:00,581 --> 00:09:01,832 I think it's complicated. 148 00:09:02,083 --> 00:09:05,545 I'm... I'm happy that you're...  you're happy, truly, but I think... 149 00:09:06,921 --> 00:09:08,339 it's reckless that... 150 00:09:09,131 --> 00:09:09,966 he is... 151 00:09:11,592 --> 00:09:14,011 married, and his wife doesn't know anything about this. 152 00:09:14,095 --> 00:09:16,597 He's not in an open marriage. He's in a monogamous marriage. 153 00:09:16,681 --> 00:09:20,351 So he's, you know, ostensibly  cheating on his wife, and, uh... 154 00:09:22,562 --> 00:09:25,314 Well, you seem...  you seem to have a problem with it. 155 00:09:25,439 --> 00:09:26,357 [Kyle] Well, yeah. 156 00:09:26,857 --> 00:09:28,359 -I just-- Why are you so-- -I get it. 157 00:09:28,484 --> 00:09:30,361 I just think if I started sleeping with someone 158 00:09:30,444 --> 00:09:33,364 who you were very good friends with at some point-- 159 00:09:33,739 --> 00:09:34,991 I'm not sleeping with him. 160 00:09:35,074 --> 00:09:37,076 Okay. You're right. I'm sorry. Um... 161 00:09:39,787 --> 00:09:42,582 I think if I was engaging in... 162 00:09:43,207 --> 00:09:46,669 a physical and emotional relationship with someone that you... 163 00:09:47,461 --> 00:09:49,213 -[groans] -had-- were friends with that-- 164 00:09:49,297 --> 00:09:51,173 You don't care about Ryan. 165 00:09:53,092 --> 00:09:55,761 -A, that's not true. I care about Ryan. -You don't. You don't, really. 166 00:09:55,845 --> 00:09:57,888 -We're not as close as we used to be. -Yeah. 167 00:09:57,972 --> 00:09:59,140 But he's not a stranger. 168 00:09:59,640 --> 00:10:01,309 -Oh-- -And I'm not saying there was a rule-- 169 00:10:01,392 --> 00:10:03,102 So now there's a rule it has to be strangers? 170 00:10:03,185 --> 00:10:06,397 Can I finish talking for one second without you interrupting me? 171 00:10:07,148 --> 00:10:08,065 Yes. 172 00:10:10,985 --> 00:10:13,738 I'm not even talking about a rule. I'm talking about I thought 173 00:10:13,988 --> 00:10:17,241 that there was a level of communication that was happening, that if you... 174 00:10:17,450 --> 00:10:21,495 I felt a little surprised, like, a little hoodwinked that, 175 00:10:21,871 --> 00:10:24,248 when you told me that... 176 00:10:25,124 --> 00:10:27,543 uh, you had told Ryan that we were in an open relationship, 177 00:10:27,627 --> 00:10:29,587 I asked if there was something there, 178 00:10:29,670 --> 00:10:31,672 and you were like, "I don't know. I don't think so." 179 00:10:31,756 --> 00:10:34,467 And then, all of a sudden, this thing was happening, 180 00:10:34,550 --> 00:10:39,639 and I'm just saying I would have liked a... a little more... 181 00:10:41,015 --> 00:10:46,354 just a little more care around our mutual friendship with him and his wife 182 00:10:46,437 --> 00:10:48,981 and the interconnectedness of our lives. 183 00:10:49,857 --> 00:10:51,942 I'm so enraged right now. 184 00:10:52,318 --> 00:10:55,071 -Why? -Because it's... it's like, which is it? 185 00:10:55,738 --> 00:10:57,156 That he's married? 186 00:10:57,573 --> 00:11:00,701 -That he's your friend? -Can both not be true things? 187 00:11:02,244 --> 00:11:04,121 Why are you using your theater voice? 188 00:11:05,831 --> 00:11:07,708 [sighs] Okay. 189 00:11:08,292 --> 00:11:10,378 You're not interested in us having a real conversation. 190 00:11:10,461 --> 00:11:12,713 [Andi] No, I didn't cause the crack in their marriage. 191 00:11:12,797 --> 00:11:15,007 If that marriage was, like, killin' it, 192 00:11:15,091 --> 00:11:18,219 he wouldn't be, you know, texting me a thousand times a day. 193 00:11:21,097 --> 00:11:22,848 Cool. Be careful. That's all I'm saying. 194 00:11:22,932 --> 00:11:26,102 [Andi] That's the most fucking irritating thing I've ever heard. 195 00:11:29,647 --> 00:11:32,316 [Kyle] We really had that thing, that sort of, like... 196 00:11:32,983 --> 00:11:36,946 hokey thing, where, like, I feel like we knew right away that we were... 197 00:11:37,822 --> 00:11:42,326 we have this, like, very deep, multi-dimensional connection. 198 00:11:42,410 --> 00:11:46,539 And we, like, met in college and we... we fell in love hard, 199 00:11:46,622 --> 00:11:47,915 and... and I'm... 200 00:11:48,416 --> 00:11:51,794 so glad that my wife is in my life, 201 00:11:51,877 --> 00:11:53,629 and that we're parents, that we're partners, 202 00:11:53,713 --> 00:11:56,841 but I just feel like we both cut ourselves off from... 203 00:11:58,050 --> 00:12:00,720 a whole universe of experience. 204 00:12:00,803 --> 00:12:01,637 -Mm. -And, um... 205 00:12:02,680 --> 00:12:05,391 Um, I don't even... I'm not even talking about sex and... 206 00:12:05,975 --> 00:12:07,101 dating, necessarily. 207 00:12:07,184 --> 00:12:08,936 I feel like a kind of self... 208 00:12:10,730 --> 00:12:11,647 development? 209 00:12:12,189 --> 00:12:14,150 -Yeah. -I mean, if I can get a little hokey, 210 00:12:14,233 --> 00:12:15,526 -like a kind of... -Yeah. 211 00:12:15,609 --> 00:12:17,361 ...evolving that I wasn't doing, 212 00:12:17,445 --> 00:12:19,321 -like, that I had just stopped... -Yeah. 213 00:12:19,864 --> 00:12:22,366 ...caring in so many areas of my life, 214 00:12:22,450 --> 00:12:26,078 because I was taking her for granted, because it was this sort of-- 215 00:12:26,162 --> 00:12:27,955 It's like you got used to it. 216 00:12:28,038 --> 00:12:30,833 -Yes. Yeah, I got used to it. -Yeah. 217 00:12:30,916 --> 00:12:33,586 And I-- And it felt, like, arranged. 218 00:12:33,669 --> 00:12:36,464 Like, it felt like, because of the legality of it, 219 00:12:36,547 --> 00:12:38,883 and just shit like health insurance, 220 00:12:39,425 --> 00:12:40,843 uh, that we were... 221 00:12:41,677 --> 00:12:43,554 -Like we owned each other, on some level. -Yeah. 222 00:12:43,888 --> 00:12:45,014 You know? And, like... 223 00:12:46,182 --> 00:12:48,267 I don't know. I'm... I'm clearly, like... 224 00:12:48,768 --> 00:12:51,145 processing all this right now, but like... 225 00:12:51,228 --> 00:12:53,022 -No, I love it. -[both laugh] 226 00:12:59,612 --> 00:13:01,906 -Yeah. Fuck. Do you have a condom? -Yeah. 227 00:13:02,031 --> 00:13:02,948 [panting] 228 00:13:51,038 --> 00:13:51,872 Hey. 229 00:13:52,498 --> 00:13:53,332 Hey. 230 00:13:54,792 --> 00:13:55,751 Did you have fun? 231 00:13:57,711 --> 00:13:59,129 Yeah. It was fun. 232 00:14:19,483 --> 00:14:22,444 [Kyle] These yellow ones are all different little emoji faces. 233 00:14:23,028 --> 00:14:25,155 This is a little slice of pizza, on this one. 234 00:14:25,656 --> 00:14:27,074 -Oh, yeah. -There's a pizza one? 235 00:14:27,157 --> 00:14:29,994 -Yeah. Do you want it? -I didn't know there was a pizza emoji. 236 00:14:30,119 --> 00:14:30,995 Sure. 237 00:14:31,370 --> 00:14:32,204 Thanks. 238 00:14:33,831 --> 00:14:35,833 Ooh, multicolor. 239 00:14:35,916 --> 00:14:37,793 -Yeah. -I like it. 240 00:14:38,377 --> 00:14:41,088 -You guys are... doing so good. -We're looking good. 241 00:14:42,339 --> 00:14:43,299 Um... 242 00:14:44,884 --> 00:14:46,385 I'm going out tonight. 243 00:14:48,345 --> 00:14:49,972 -Oh, okay. -I have to go out tonight. 244 00:14:50,306 --> 00:14:51,140 We just... 245 00:14:52,016 --> 00:14:55,477 You'll need to book a sitter, 'cause remember, I have plans as well. 246 00:14:55,561 --> 00:14:56,604 -You do? -Yeah. 247 00:14:56,687 --> 00:14:58,689 -No. Did you tell me? -Yeah. 248 00:14:59,481 --> 00:15:01,483 Oh. When did you tell me? 249 00:15:01,567 --> 00:15:02,693 A couple of days ago. 250 00:15:03,736 --> 00:15:04,570 When? 251 00:15:05,404 --> 00:15:08,616 Uh... I don't remember the exact day, but it's in our text history. 252 00:15:08,699 --> 00:15:11,076 -I don't think you did, actually. -I did. 253 00:15:11,660 --> 00:15:14,079 It's cool. Just, uh, see  if Alex or anyone is available. 254 00:15:14,163 --> 00:15:15,539 I don't really... Um... 255 00:15:15,623 --> 00:15:19,835 I don't really have time to get into that. Is there any way you could help me? 256 00:15:19,919 --> 00:15:23,589 -You don't have time to text Alex? -I don't have time to text Alex. 257 00:15:23,672 --> 00:15:24,924 Okay, well, I don't either. 258 00:15:25,007 --> 00:15:27,760 -I have a full day. -I... Well, I have to go to work. 259 00:15:27,843 --> 00:15:28,886 I'm working too. 260 00:15:28,969 --> 00:15:31,722 -I actually have to go to work. -I actually have to go as well. 261 00:15:31,847 --> 00:15:33,474 -What are you working on? -Writing a play. 262 00:15:33,599 --> 00:15:35,559 Okay. [scoffs] Okay. 263 00:15:37,728 --> 00:15:39,396 You're literally on your phone right now. 264 00:15:39,480 --> 00:15:40,564 Yeah, I'm literally-- 265 00:15:40,648 --> 00:15:42,650 Woke up to 77 emails 266 00:15:42,733 --> 00:15:44,693 that have to be answered before I get into work 267 00:15:44,777 --> 00:15:46,779 where I then walk into three back-to-back meetings. 268 00:15:46,862 --> 00:15:49,073 Why not make sure your children are being watched tonight, 269 00:15:49,156 --> 00:15:50,824 then you can answer all of your emails? 270 00:15:51,617 --> 00:15:52,993 Because I have a real job. 271 00:15:54,370 --> 00:15:56,288 -Where it actually matters... -That's not helpful. 272 00:15:56,372 --> 00:15:59,541 -...if I respond to an email in time. -I have a very real job. 273 00:15:59,875 --> 00:16:01,794 I'm not saying you don't have a real job. 274 00:16:01,877 --> 00:16:03,170 I respect what you are doing, 275 00:16:03,253 --> 00:16:06,173 -but you don't have a deadline. -When someone says, "I have a real job," 276 00:16:06,256 --> 00:16:08,509 -it usually means-- -You don't have a deadline, sweetheart. 277 00:16:08,592 --> 00:16:09,426 I have a deadline. 278 00:16:09,510 --> 00:16:12,179 -I do have a deadline. -Every single day, there's a deadline. 279 00:16:12,429 --> 00:16:13,931 No, you don't have a deadline. 280 00:16:16,100 --> 00:16:17,851 I do. The theater gave me a deadline. 281 00:16:17,935 --> 00:16:19,645 I need to have a draft done by the end of-- 282 00:16:19,728 --> 00:16:21,271 Is it today? Is it today? 283 00:16:21,563 --> 00:16:24,191 -In the amount of time you've taken... -In the amount of time... 284 00:16:24,274 --> 00:16:26,443 -...to belittle me... -I'm not belittling you. 285 00:16:26,902 --> 00:16:29,113 ...and throw your weight around, you could... 286 00:16:29,196 --> 00:16:30,614 -I'll text Alex. -I'm not. 287 00:16:30,698 --> 00:16:32,616 -Texting right now. -I'm working 80 hours a week. 288 00:16:32,700 --> 00:16:35,119 -Look how easy this is. -If that's throwing my weight around... 289 00:16:35,202 --> 00:16:38,080 -Thank you so much. -Oh, wow. She's-- I see the bubble. 290 00:16:38,163 --> 00:16:40,457 -She's responding already. -Thank you. I appreciate it. 291 00:16:40,833 --> 00:16:41,750 She can do it. 292 00:16:41,834 --> 00:16:44,086 -Great. I really appreciate it. -That was so tough. You... 293 00:16:44,169 --> 00:16:47,006 You just couldn't have done that because of those emails. 294 00:16:48,173 --> 00:16:50,426 I saw how the emails got in the way of that. 295 00:16:55,848 --> 00:16:58,475 -What? -What is going on with you? 296 00:17:02,896 --> 00:17:04,189 I don't appreciate you... 297 00:17:05,482 --> 00:17:06,316 being rude. 298 00:17:06,817 --> 00:17:10,738 I'm just sitting here, and you... you came in super activated. 299 00:17:11,822 --> 00:17:13,824 You're making a big deal out of nothing. 300 00:17:13,907 --> 00:17:15,617 No, you're making a big deal out of nothing. 301 00:17:15,701 --> 00:17:19,496 All I did was ask you to help me get a sitter because I have to go to work. 302 00:17:21,290 --> 00:17:22,207 Okay. 303 00:17:22,499 --> 00:17:25,711 You're gonna, like, just roll your eyes  at me at breakfast. 304 00:17:26,128 --> 00:17:28,130 There's clearly something goin' on, so... 305 00:17:28,422 --> 00:17:31,633 -Oh, you're all-knowing now? -I will figure out the sitter for you. 306 00:17:32,843 --> 00:17:34,720 You're a real hero. I appreciate it. 307 00:17:39,099 --> 00:17:41,935 That's a long one,  the one you're workin' on. 308 00:17:42,352 --> 00:17:45,064 Yeah, I'm makin' a necklace with different letters... 309 00:17:45,147 --> 00:17:47,775 Oh, I was gonna say, that's three times bigger than your wrist. 310 00:17:47,858 --> 00:17:49,318 [Penny chuckles] Yeah. 311 00:17:55,199 --> 00:17:56,617 Kyle, you need more coffee? 312 00:17:56,700 --> 00:17:58,243 -I'm good, man. Thanks. -All right. 313 00:17:59,912 --> 00:18:01,371 [phone vibrates] 314 00:18:37,991 --> 00:18:39,201 [sighs] 315 00:18:40,744 --> 00:18:42,955 I'm sorry for getting you involved in this... 316 00:18:43,497 --> 00:18:44,498 stupid... 317 00:18:45,290 --> 00:18:47,543 situation with my damn life... 318 00:18:48,210 --> 00:18:49,128 and... 319 00:18:55,968 --> 00:18:57,010 [sighs] 320 00:19:11,150 --> 00:19:12,109 Fuck. 321 00:19:17,990 --> 00:19:19,408 [sighs] 322 00:19:28,584 --> 00:19:29,418 Do you... 323 00:19:30,627 --> 00:19:31,962 Do you want me to just... 324 00:19:34,923 --> 00:19:37,050 -I'm sorry, I mean, um, I'm... -It's just... 325 00:19:37,134 --> 00:19:38,218 Do you want me to go? 326 00:19:38,302 --> 00:19:39,219 No. 327 00:19:43,599 --> 00:19:45,559 -Can I sit next to you? -Yeah. 328 00:19:45,642 --> 00:19:47,060 Yes, please. 329 00:19:48,854 --> 00:19:51,857 -I don't wanna stand on your hand. -It's all right. 330 00:19:55,068 --> 00:19:56,737 I just feel trapped. 331 00:19:59,781 --> 00:20:02,367 Did you feel trapped before you got here? 332 00:20:03,827 --> 00:20:05,120 Yeah, I think so. 333 00:20:06,038 --> 00:20:11,293 I mean, coming here was like a way out of something for a little bit. 334 00:20:11,585 --> 00:20:12,878 -Mm. -Uh... 335 00:20:12,961 --> 00:20:15,255 Being back here, being around you,  being... 336 00:20:15,964 --> 00:20:17,132 like, on stage again. 337 00:20:17,216 --> 00:20:19,509 Like, it was like, "Oh my God, this is what I..."- 338 00:20:19,593 --> 00:20:20,636 Mm-hm. 339 00:20:21,094 --> 00:20:23,388 "...don't have out there," you know, like... 340 00:20:24,473 --> 00:20:27,559 And... like,  "Why don't I have this anymore?" 341 00:20:29,728 --> 00:20:33,523 And not like it's anybody's fa... fault, but it fucking sucks. 342 00:20:34,191 --> 00:20:35,442 Uh... 343 00:20:35,525 --> 00:20:38,278 -But we're also, like, not in real life. -I-- 344 00:20:38,987 --> 00:20:40,906 -[sighs] -This isn't your real life. 345 00:20:40,989 --> 00:20:41,949 Yeah. 346 00:20:43,742 --> 00:20:45,702 -I'm just saying... I don't wanna say... -I know. 347 00:20:45,786 --> 00:20:48,413 I don't wanna, like, say that this isn't real, but... 348 00:20:48,497 --> 00:20:49,748 this is not your... 349 00:20:50,666 --> 00:20:51,500 life. 350 00:20:52,918 --> 00:20:53,835 Yeah, I can't-- 351 00:20:53,919 --> 00:20:56,505 -I guess my question-- -You don't live here. You don't... 352 00:20:57,547 --> 00:20:59,132 You live in LA. 353 00:20:59,633 --> 00:21:01,426 You are married to someone. 354 00:21:02,010 --> 00:21:03,887 What if it was my real life, though? 355 00:21:07,140 --> 00:21:10,978 That you move back to Chicago and do plays? 356 00:21:11,728 --> 00:21:12,604 Yeah. 357 00:21:14,022 --> 00:21:17,067 And, like, not do TV anymore? 358 00:21:17,150 --> 00:21:18,026 Yeah. 359 00:21:20,237 --> 00:21:22,823 And just figure out a way to be with you. 360 00:21:44,761 --> 00:21:45,971 Um... 361 00:21:46,555 --> 00:21:47,639 I'm very... 362 00:21:52,019 --> 00:21:54,396 I like you a lot. I care about you. 363 00:21:55,647 --> 00:21:57,482 I'm into you, obviously. 364 00:21:59,318 --> 00:22:01,320 I just wanna remind you that I am... 365 00:22:02,571 --> 00:22:03,405 married. 366 00:22:03,822 --> 00:22:05,615 -Mm-hm. -And I have a family, and... 367 00:22:06,533 --> 00:22:08,285 I love... him. 368 00:22:08,744 --> 00:22:09,703 -Mm-hm. -And... 369 00:22:10,037 --> 00:22:10,912 Yeah. 370 00:22:11,913 --> 00:22:12,789 It's just... 371 00:22:14,958 --> 00:22:16,918 not so straightforward. 372 00:22:17,044 --> 00:22:18,003 Yeah. 373 00:22:21,423 --> 00:22:23,216 Yeah, I know all those things. 374 00:22:24,217 --> 00:22:25,385 Um... 375 00:22:28,055 --> 00:22:31,099 All right, like, I... I... I hear... 376 00:22:31,183 --> 00:22:32,517 and I'd still... 377 00:22:33,268 --> 00:22:34,519 am willing to... 378 00:22:36,605 --> 00:22:37,439 be... 379 00:22:37,981 --> 00:22:39,066 uh... 380 00:22:41,485 --> 00:22:44,988 in... uh, in a completely,  like, crazy situation 381 00:22:45,072 --> 00:22:46,656 if it means that I can just... 382 00:22:47,741 --> 00:22:49,993 spend more time with you, 'cause... 383 00:22:51,161 --> 00:22:53,246 that's something  I've wanted for a long time, 384 00:22:53,330 --> 00:22:55,540 and to actually be able to have it... 385 00:22:56,541 --> 00:22:57,918 and to be able to... 386 00:22:58,877 --> 00:22:59,711 say it... 387 00:23:01,380 --> 00:23:02,214 You know? 388 00:23:03,048 --> 00:23:04,925 And tell you, and, like, have you... 389 00:23:05,926 --> 00:23:08,345 just hear it, um... 390 00:23:09,930 --> 00:23:11,515 is, uh... [chuckles] 391 00:23:11,932 --> 00:23:13,183 [sniffles] 392 00:23:13,892 --> 00:23:14,768 ...is great. 393 00:23:15,727 --> 00:23:18,688 Oh, and I can certainly figure out a way to explain, like, 394 00:23:19,189 --> 00:23:21,066 that it wasn't just, like... 395 00:23:22,984 --> 00:23:25,404 a whim, you know, to her-- 396 00:23:25,487 --> 00:23:26,321 [phone rings] 397 00:23:26,405 --> 00:23:27,239 Fuck. 398 00:23:27,572 --> 00:23:28,740 -Is that her? -Yep. 399 00:23:29,574 --> 00:23:30,659 You should-- 400 00:23:32,744 --> 00:23:34,287 Uh, I'm gonna take this, okay? 401 00:23:34,371 --> 00:23:35,414 -Yeah. -Okay. 402 00:23:39,709 --> 00:23:40,544 Hey. 403 00:23:42,546 --> 00:23:43,505 Where are you? 404 00:23:46,508 --> 00:23:47,342 [sighs] 405 00:23:47,426 --> 00:23:48,343 [knocking] 406 00:23:54,057 --> 00:23:56,143 -Hey. -Hey, what's up? 407 00:23:56,226 --> 00:23:57,436 Nothin'. How are you? 408 00:23:57,769 --> 00:23:59,354 I'm good. Good to see you. 409 00:23:59,896 --> 00:24:01,481 It's really good to see you. 410 00:24:02,732 --> 00:24:03,608 Yeah. 411 00:24:03,859 --> 00:24:04,901 So... 412 00:24:07,529 --> 00:24:08,447 what's up? 413 00:24:09,156 --> 00:24:10,031 Well... 414 00:24:11,616 --> 00:24:15,662 What do you mean? I mean, nothing's up. I just missed you. I wanted to hang out. 415 00:24:20,667 --> 00:24:26,173 [sighs] Sure, um, and I was really excited to...hear from you. 416 00:24:26,256 --> 00:24:27,924 I've missed you, too. I, uh... 417 00:24:28,508 --> 00:24:33,221 It's just sort of super complicated to get that text from you when I'm like... 418 00:24:34,598 --> 00:24:35,932 trying to give you... 419 00:24:36,600 --> 00:24:39,478 -space, and, like, maintain, like... -Right. 420 00:24:40,353 --> 00:24:41,605 strictly friend... 421 00:24:42,439 --> 00:24:44,900 -behavior and, uh... you know... -Right. 422 00:24:45,358 --> 00:24:46,276 I definitely wanted... 423 00:24:47,319 --> 00:24:48,153 to... 424 00:24:48,945 --> 00:24:50,655 have some space, and... 425 00:24:50,739 --> 00:24:52,365 -Mm-hm. -Um... 426 00:24:54,242 --> 00:24:55,744 try that out. [laughs] 427 00:24:56,369 --> 00:24:57,412 And I'm... 428 00:24:58,747 --> 00:25:02,584 I'm really glad that we did, but, uh... I don't think... 429 00:25:04,169 --> 00:25:05,420 I don't think that... 430 00:25:06,713 --> 00:25:07,756 Hm. 431 00:25:09,633 --> 00:25:13,595 I just want-- I-- I would love to-- When we were in the park that day, 432 00:25:13,678 --> 00:25:17,265 you sort of said, like, if I wanted to hang out in the future, 433 00:25:17,349 --> 00:25:19,935 that we could, right? 434 00:25:21,394 --> 00:25:23,688 Oh, shit. Yeah. I mean, I actually... 435 00:25:23,772 --> 00:25:25,982 This is what I'm confused about. I-- So... 436 00:25:26,983 --> 00:25:29,528 I came over here assuming that, uh... 437 00:25:29,611 --> 00:25:31,071 you still wanna keep it... 438 00:25:32,322 --> 00:25:33,782 strictly in the friend zone. 439 00:25:33,865 --> 00:25:34,699 So, like... 440 00:25:35,116 --> 00:25:35,951 Well... 441 00:25:37,244 --> 00:25:40,830 I guess I was curious to see how you felt about... 442 00:25:40,914 --> 00:25:41,748 [both chuckle] 443 00:25:41,831 --> 00:25:45,919 Um... revisiting a different version of... 444 00:25:46,002 --> 00:25:48,838 Oh, this... this meeting has shifted. See, I didn't see that... 445 00:25:49,506 --> 00:25:52,008 that negotiating tactic. Uh... 446 00:25:52,300 --> 00:25:55,845 -Now I see why you're behaving that way. -Yeah, I'm totally, uh... 447 00:25:56,471 --> 00:25:59,099 Yeah, I'm totally open to that. I mean, I think I've... 448 00:25:59,683 --> 00:26:01,268 always been open to that. 449 00:26:01,351 --> 00:26:02,394 I'm also, like... 450 00:26:03,853 --> 00:26:07,148 intellectually aware that, like, it's an unfair... 451 00:26:07,607 --> 00:26:11,611 scenario for you if you're looking  to find, like, a long-term relationship. 452 00:26:11,695 --> 00:26:13,154 So, like, I don't know if you're... 453 00:26:13,238 --> 00:26:15,865 dating anyone right now, I don't know  what happened with that guy... 454 00:26:16,616 --> 00:26:18,493 -Malcolm from the bar the other night-- -I mean-- 455 00:26:18,577 --> 00:26:21,413 I'm still dating some people a little bit, 456 00:26:21,496 --> 00:26:24,124 but that guy, it didn't work out with that guy, but-- 457 00:26:24,207 --> 00:26:25,041 Really? 458 00:26:27,419 --> 00:26:29,838 -He's very nice, but it didn't work out. -He's very nice? 459 00:26:30,589 --> 00:26:32,924 Did he have a lot of homework for his high school classes? 460 00:26:33,008 --> 00:26:33,967 Shut up. 461 00:26:35,135 --> 00:26:36,511 You're one to talk. 462 00:26:36,595 --> 00:26:37,971 [laughs] 463 00:26:38,054 --> 00:26:38,972 Uh... 464 00:26:39,681 --> 00:26:41,266 But... [laughs] 465 00:26:42,642 --> 00:26:45,645 I mean, even that night before he showed up, it was like... 466 00:26:46,855 --> 00:26:49,691 I had such a good time with you and... 467 00:26:50,609 --> 00:26:52,319 even just sitting there with you that night, 468 00:26:52,402 --> 00:26:55,196 I just wanted to, like, kiss you. 469 00:26:55,739 --> 00:26:59,743 And it was sort of fun, in a way, to experiment with... 470 00:27:00,201 --> 00:27:02,078 -not doing that. -Sure, yeah. 471 00:27:02,454 --> 00:27:04,289 -I agree. -Um... 472 00:27:05,332 --> 00:27:08,418 But as time has worn on a little bit, I think I just... 473 00:27:09,085 --> 00:27:10,587 I don't think that, um... 474 00:27:11,171 --> 00:27:14,674 I don't think it... it's what I wanted, you know? 475 00:27:15,050 --> 00:27:16,134 -Okay. -[laughs] 476 00:27:16,217 --> 00:27:18,386 -I'm in a very different position. -Yeah. 477 00:27:18,470 --> 00:27:19,387 Like, I'm... 478 00:27:21,473 --> 00:27:22,974 uh, married, and I have kids. 479 00:27:23,058 --> 00:27:23,933 You are? 480 00:27:24,059 --> 00:27:25,602 [both chuckle] 481 00:27:25,685 --> 00:27:27,437 -Can I interrupt you? -Yeah, please. 482 00:27:27,520 --> 00:27:28,438 Would you... 483 00:27:28,813 --> 00:27:31,608 Can we go sit on the couch? I feel like we're... 484 00:27:32,025 --> 00:27:33,943 Like I should have paperwork in front of me. 485 00:27:34,903 --> 00:27:36,112 Sure, yeah. 486 00:27:36,196 --> 00:27:37,781 -Okay. -Let's move to the couch. 487 00:27:40,784 --> 00:27:42,827 Hey, just to reiterate, I... 488 00:27:44,746 --> 00:27:49,167 I really don't wanna ever get in the way of you meeting someone, though, and... 489 00:27:49,834 --> 00:27:52,545 and having, like, a... a real... 490 00:27:55,256 --> 00:27:57,676 big kind of relationship that you wanna have. 491 00:27:58,218 --> 00:27:59,052 Yeah. 492 00:28:00,053 --> 00:28:01,638 I'm not that worried about that. 493 00:28:01,805 --> 00:28:03,431 -Okay. -[chuckles] 494 00:28:04,140 --> 00:28:06,559 -Is that okay? -Yeah, of course. 495 00:28:12,649 --> 00:28:13,650 I really missed you. 496 00:28:13,733 --> 00:28:15,235 -I love you. -I love you, too. 497 00:28:19,406 --> 00:28:21,324 I was going on all these dates and things. 498 00:28:21,408 --> 00:28:23,201 -Mm-hm. -[chuckles] 499 00:28:24,119 --> 00:28:25,286 Yeah, me too. 500 00:28:27,080 --> 00:28:28,331 I just missed you. 501 00:28:48,935 --> 00:28:50,103 Hey, I've changed my mind. 502 00:28:50,186 --> 00:28:52,480 Can you pull up here on the right? I wanna get out. 503 00:29:17,297 --> 00:29:18,339 What the fuck? 504 00:29:26,848 --> 00:29:27,974 I mean... 505 00:29:29,684 --> 00:29:30,602 what? 506 00:29:34,230 --> 00:29:35,565 Can I buy you a drink? 507 00:29:36,608 --> 00:29:37,525 Yeah. 508 00:29:40,028 --> 00:29:41,070 This is crazy. 509 00:29:43,448 --> 00:29:44,616 How surreal. 510 00:29:48,161 --> 00:29:50,038 -Hey, how are you doing? -Hi, good. 511 00:29:50,121 --> 00:29:52,165 Um, can I get a vodka soda, please? 512 00:29:52,248 --> 00:29:53,541 -I gotcha. -Thank you. 513 00:29:55,251 --> 00:29:56,669 [sighs] 514 00:30:03,468 --> 00:30:04,469 I mean... 515 00:30:06,721 --> 00:30:07,806 this is crazy. 516 00:30:11,935 --> 00:30:12,769 [ice clinking] 517 00:30:12,852 --> 00:30:13,728 Thanks. 518 00:30:15,522 --> 00:30:17,023 [clears throat] 519 00:30:17,106 --> 00:30:17,941 Cheers. 520 00:30:18,817 --> 00:30:19,943 [glasses clink] 521 00:30:23,571 --> 00:30:24,572 [chuckles] 522 00:30:26,032 --> 00:30:27,033 So, how are you? 523 00:30:31,538 --> 00:30:33,122 I'm so... 524 00:30:35,416 --> 00:30:36,417 bewildered. 525 00:30:38,336 --> 00:30:39,379 Um... 526 00:30:40,421 --> 00:30:43,091 I just kind of, like, I just feel like something... 527 00:30:44,759 --> 00:30:45,593 lifted. 528 00:30:46,386 --> 00:30:49,681 I had a whole thing where I basically ruined... 529 00:30:50,515 --> 00:30:51,891 Ryan's marriage... 530 00:30:52,600 --> 00:30:53,643 uh... 531 00:30:55,144 --> 00:30:56,938 for no good reason. 532 00:30:57,188 --> 00:30:58,022 Uh... 533 00:30:58,982 --> 00:30:59,941 His... 534 00:31:00,358 --> 00:31:02,527 Sadie found a picture. 535 00:31:02,610 --> 00:31:04,279 -Oh, shit. -And... 536 00:31:05,446 --> 00:31:07,240 But what was... 537 00:31:07,615 --> 00:31:09,409 For me, what was most sort of... 538 00:31:11,536 --> 00:31:13,413 Do you... Do you care?  Do you wanna know this? 539 00:31:13,496 --> 00:31:14,539 Are you kidding me? 540 00:31:14,622 --> 00:31:15,540 I just... uh... 541 00:31:15,623 --> 00:31:17,876 -Nothing I'd rather hear about. -I'm so freaked out. 542 00:31:17,959 --> 00:31:21,504 What really...  I-- I was really... I was very into him. 543 00:31:21,880 --> 00:31:24,591 -I... Yeah, I know. -And, uh... 544 00:31:25,174 --> 00:31:27,844 And... and then I--  It, uh... it, like, lifted. 545 00:31:29,429 --> 00:31:30,263 Why? 546 00:31:30,680 --> 00:31:32,557 I-- I just... I saw him. 547 00:31:32,640 --> 00:31:34,684 You know? I had... I had created this... 548 00:31:35,727 --> 00:31:38,146 -character in my mind... -Mm. 549 00:31:38,521 --> 00:31:42,108 and it was like some version of him that I had decided he was 550 00:31:42,191 --> 00:31:44,235 when he was gone in LA, and... 551 00:31:44,986 --> 00:31:47,447 I sort of combined him with my... 552 00:31:47,822 --> 00:31:50,575 the person that I knew when I was 20, and... 553 00:31:51,534 --> 00:31:56,623 decided he was...  super fascinating, and, um... 554 00:31:57,415 --> 00:32:00,710 you know, cared about me, and... and I think he really does, 555 00:32:00,793 --> 00:32:03,338 -and in fact, really, really does. -Sure he does. Yeah. 556 00:32:03,421 --> 00:32:06,758 And then something... it just sort of... 557 00:32:07,091 --> 00:32:09,802 In... in dismantling of his... 558 00:32:11,346 --> 00:32:13,765 his marriage, his whole sort of... 559 00:32:14,265 --> 00:32:16,684 personhood fell apart. 560 00:32:17,060 --> 00:32:19,479 -Mm. -And I--  It... it sort of, like... 561 00:32:21,648 --> 00:32:22,774 Like, the... the... 562 00:32:23,566 --> 00:32:26,277 whatever... whatever fog of... 563 00:32:28,446 --> 00:32:30,657 Just-- It's so embarrassing. 564 00:32:30,949 --> 00:32:35,578 It just lifted and I'm...  Now I'm, like, mortified, and I am not... 565 00:32:36,037 --> 00:32:39,707 There's a reason why I didn't end up with Ryan, you know? 566 00:32:41,876 --> 00:32:43,211 God, I'm... 567 00:32:44,212 --> 00:32:45,797 so sorry, that's a lot. 568 00:32:46,714 --> 00:32:47,924 -Yeah. -That must... 569 00:32:49,258 --> 00:32:50,677 That must be really painful. 570 00:32:52,762 --> 00:32:55,556 I mean, it's painful in that it's disappointing, 571 00:32:55,640 --> 00:32:57,392 but it's not that painful... 572 00:32:58,810 --> 00:32:59,644 for me. 573 00:33:01,354 --> 00:33:02,230 I mean, it's... 574 00:33:02,981 --> 00:33:04,440 [Kyle sighs] 575 00:33:05,984 --> 00:33:06,985 It's depressing. 576 00:33:10,071 --> 00:33:10,947 Yeah. 577 00:33:11,030 --> 00:33:12,281 It just felt shitty. 578 00:33:15,076 --> 00:33:17,120 I had no idea. I'm sorry. 579 00:33:19,455 --> 00:33:20,832 I don't like that you had no idea. 580 00:33:20,915 --> 00:33:23,501 I don't like that you're saying sorry like you're my friend. 581 00:33:24,252 --> 00:33:26,462 -I am your friend. -I appreciate you saying you're sorry, 582 00:33:26,546 --> 00:33:29,215 -but, like, that makes me feel sad. -Why? 583 00:33:29,298 --> 00:33:31,300 Because it feels like I'm talking to a friend 584 00:33:31,384 --> 00:33:32,885 who's, like, "Oh, I'm sorry." 585 00:33:36,014 --> 00:33:37,598 Um... I... 586 00:33:39,142 --> 00:33:41,019 I mean, I don't know how else to respond. 587 00:33:41,102 --> 00:33:46,566 I'm here for you, and I love you, and that sounds terrible and complicated, 588 00:33:46,649 --> 00:33:48,443 and... painful for you. 589 00:33:48,526 --> 00:33:50,611 So, I'm sorry that you're experiencing... 590 00:33:51,821 --> 00:33:52,947 -distress. -I know. 591 00:33:53,031 --> 00:33:54,866 Thank you. I just... 592 00:33:57,744 --> 00:33:58,661 And I'm... 593 00:33:59,162 --> 00:34:00,163 Thank you. 594 00:34:00,246 --> 00:34:03,499 And as your friend and... and as someone who loves you, thank you, 595 00:34:03,583 --> 00:34:05,001 but I don't feel you. 596 00:34:07,754 --> 00:34:09,756 -[sighs] -I don't like this. 597 00:34:12,925 --> 00:34:14,594 -What is this-- -I don't feel you! 598 00:34:15,845 --> 00:34:17,889 -What do you mean? -I don't... I don't know. 599 00:34:17,972 --> 00:34:20,016 I just... I don't like this. 600 00:34:21,684 --> 00:34:23,269 Being in an open relationship? 601 00:34:23,895 --> 00:34:25,313 -Yeah. -Um... 602 00:34:26,814 --> 00:34:28,024 Okay. I... 603 00:34:32,361 --> 00:34:34,864 I sort of don't know how to respond. I mean, uh... 604 00:34:37,158 --> 00:34:40,995 That's a... That's...  That's a big thing to take in. 605 00:34:41,079 --> 00:34:43,372 I mean, I, uh...  I think I'm gonna need... 606 00:34:44,457 --> 00:34:46,125 a minute to sort of process that. 607 00:34:46,209 --> 00:34:47,293 I... 608 00:34:49,462 --> 00:34:50,505 I do like it. 609 00:34:51,547 --> 00:34:52,381 Or... 610 00:34:54,217 --> 00:34:58,179 Uh... I don't know if "like" is the right  word, but I'm... I'm invested in it. 611 00:34:59,138 --> 00:35:01,099 And I'm interested in it, and I feel... 612 00:35:01,557 --> 00:35:04,685 challenged by it  in a good, interesting way. 613 00:35:06,145 --> 00:35:08,856 And I don't know that I can walk it back at this point. 614 00:35:09,232 --> 00:35:11,275 Do you... Do you want me? 615 00:35:11,359 --> 00:35:12,235 Yes. 616 00:35:14,153 --> 00:35:15,863 -Do you? -Absolutely. 617 00:35:15,947 --> 00:35:17,448 What does that mean to you? 618 00:35:17,532 --> 00:35:18,950 -What do you mean? -What's the point? 619 00:35:19,033 --> 00:35:20,034 What does it mean to you? 620 00:35:20,118 --> 00:35:23,246 I mean, I-- The point is that we have committed to each other 621 00:35:23,329 --> 00:35:24,163 and we have children, 622 00:35:24,247 --> 00:35:27,500 and we have a life that we have built  together, and I'm... I don't... 623 00:35:27,834 --> 00:35:29,335 You don't have to do that, though. 624 00:35:29,418 --> 00:35:32,296 You don't have to be committed.  You don't... You don't have to do that. 625 00:35:32,380 --> 00:35:36,384 Oh, I actually know, for the first time, that I don't have to do that. 626 00:35:36,843 --> 00:35:40,263 And this past year and change is the first time that I think... 627 00:35:41,222 --> 00:35:44,267 in a long time that I am consciously choosing to be with you. 628 00:35:44,642 --> 00:35:48,396 Like, I'm more awake now to the idea that I don't-- 629 00:35:48,479 --> 00:35:52,358 That I'm not stuck with you or bound to you or shackled to you. 630 00:35:52,441 --> 00:35:54,569 Like, I'm now knowing that, like... 631 00:35:55,153 --> 00:35:57,280 every day, I'm choosing to... 632 00:35:58,239 --> 00:35:59,198 partner with you, 633 00:36:00,199 --> 00:36:03,035 -and... and live a life together. -But why? 634 00:36:03,661 --> 00:36:04,537 For what? 635 00:36:04,620 --> 00:36:06,789 You... It's great, like, it's great? 636 00:36:07,456 --> 00:36:09,000 I don't feel close to you. 637 00:36:11,419 --> 00:36:13,838 -I'm sorry. I don't. -Yeah, I haven't felt close to you either. 638 00:36:13,921 --> 00:36:16,007 So why, then? What-- what are you getting out of this? 639 00:36:16,090 --> 00:36:18,676 I mean, it's great, 'cause you have, like, a mom 640 00:36:18,759 --> 00:36:22,388 and someone who, like...  who gives a shit and takes care of you, 641 00:36:22,471 --> 00:36:24,891 but, like, you get to go and do all these fun things 642 00:36:24,974 --> 00:36:27,518 and go to your whatever things, 643 00:36:27,602 --> 00:36:30,563 -and see your girlfriends and whatever... -It hasn't been that fun for me. 644 00:36:30,646 --> 00:36:32,815 -...your Tinder dates. -But it's... I think you're not... 645 00:36:32,899 --> 00:36:34,233 It's-- This isn't fun. 646 00:36:34,525 --> 00:36:37,445 It's been incredibly messy and challenging, 647 00:36:37,528 --> 00:36:39,739 and destabilizing and upsetting. 648 00:36:42,825 --> 00:36:45,077 I mean, I...  I had my heart broken recently. 649 00:36:45,161 --> 00:36:48,206 It's been so long since I've felt that... 650 00:36:49,248 --> 00:36:50,082 and it... 651 00:36:50,750 --> 00:36:51,667 shook me up. 652 00:36:53,294 --> 00:36:54,128 I feel... 653 00:36:54,712 --> 00:36:57,173 insecure and judged and... 654 00:36:58,341 --> 00:37:01,177 ugly and fat and old and... 655 00:37:01,636 --> 00:37:04,222 unattractive and completely... 656 00:37:05,223 --> 00:37:07,725 uncool and ill-equipped to be, like... 657 00:37:08,267 --> 00:37:10,937 throwing myself out there, but I keep doing it 658 00:37:11,437 --> 00:37:13,189 because I was dead. 659 00:37:16,943 --> 00:37:18,694 I mean, we were... we were stuck. 660 00:37:21,239 --> 00:37:23,199 And now I feel like we're not stuck. 661 00:37:24,617 --> 00:37:26,744 And I don't know what I'm doing, 662 00:37:26,827 --> 00:37:30,498 but I feel like I'm actually engaging with the world again. 663 00:37:34,710 --> 00:37:37,880 But you're not engaging with me. You don't want me. 664 00:37:40,174 --> 00:37:41,968 [sighs] I do want you, and I hear that, 665 00:37:42,051 --> 00:37:44,053 but I think we're not engaging with each other. 666 00:37:44,136 --> 00:37:45,471 I don't think this is about... 667 00:37:46,597 --> 00:37:48,516 No, we're not. We're not engaging with each other. 668 00:37:48,599 --> 00:37:51,769 But I just don't... I don't feel like-- You don't want me. 669 00:37:52,603 --> 00:37:53,938 You don't want me. 670 00:37:54,647 --> 00:37:56,232 -Andi, you need to trust-- -It feels-- 671 00:37:56,315 --> 00:37:58,818 -It feels like you don't want me. -Don't tell me what I want. 672 00:37:58,901 --> 00:38:00,361 If this is gonna work, we gotta-- 673 00:38:00,444 --> 00:38:03,739 Like, if I'm saying I want you, you have to trust that. 674 00:38:03,823 --> 00:38:06,242 Do I always want you in the same way? No. 675 00:38:06,659 --> 00:38:09,328 Like, I think spending a life with someone is about... 676 00:38:10,037 --> 00:38:13,708 riding the wave of ups and downs and, like, I'm aware that-- 677 00:38:13,791 --> 00:38:16,752 Yeah, but you're not talking about the thing that I'm talking about. 678 00:38:16,836 --> 00:38:19,547 -What are you talking about? -That you're... That you're... 679 00:38:19,630 --> 00:38:23,175 Like, I don't wanna actually go do this shit with other guys. 680 00:38:23,759 --> 00:38:26,512 -I don't want to. I don't... I don't... -Okay. Okay! 681 00:38:29,807 --> 00:38:31,392 I wanted to have sex... 682 00:38:32,435 --> 00:38:35,396 and we weren't having sex, and I wanted... I wanted that. 683 00:38:38,733 --> 00:38:39,775 Yeah, me too. 684 00:38:41,027 --> 00:38:42,570 And now that's happening. 685 00:38:42,820 --> 00:38:44,739 Yeah, and now I just feel like... 686 00:38:46,407 --> 00:38:47,241 Why? 687 00:38:48,617 --> 00:38:49,535 For what? 688 00:38:56,584 --> 00:38:58,794 -I... I mean... -Is that really what it is? 689 00:38:59,420 --> 00:39:01,672 -I-- -You need, you have to fuck other people? 690 00:39:01,756 --> 00:39:03,215 You know that that's not-- 691 00:39:03,299 --> 00:39:05,259 I'm... I'm genuinely asking. 692 00:39:05,634 --> 00:39:06,594 What is it, then? 693 00:39:07,636 --> 00:39:09,388 No, I mean it's not about... 694 00:39:09,638 --> 00:39:10,556 I think... 695 00:39:10,890 --> 00:39:11,849 you're the one... 696 00:39:12,350 --> 00:39:13,434 who... 697 00:39:13,517 --> 00:39:15,102 this has been more about, like, 698 00:39:15,186 --> 00:39:17,229 when you say, like, "I just wanted to have sex." 699 00:39:17,355 --> 00:39:18,606 Well, I wanted to feel sexy, 700 00:39:18,689 --> 00:39:22,360 -and I wanted to feel paid attention to. -Right, but I'm actually... I'm like... 701 00:39:23,235 --> 00:39:25,029 in a relationship with someone. 702 00:39:26,322 --> 00:39:27,281 -Like-- -You mean... 703 00:39:27,740 --> 00:39:28,616 Amy. 704 00:39:29,116 --> 00:39:30,034 Like, we... 705 00:39:32,745 --> 00:39:35,498 We're figuring it out. We... We... 706 00:39:36,749 --> 00:39:38,084 sort of re... 707 00:39:39,251 --> 00:39:40,920 considered being together tonight. 708 00:39:41,003 --> 00:39:43,798 We reconciled. We are... 709 00:39:44,924 --> 00:39:46,384 reengaging with each other. 710 00:39:49,011 --> 00:39:51,472 And I don't know what that'll be. I mean, I-- It... 711 00:39:53,974 --> 00:39:57,937 Yeah, I... I might be playing with fire. It's, like, it has... 712 00:39:58,521 --> 00:40:01,065 sort of, eventually, an expiration date, 713 00:40:01,148 --> 00:40:04,151 because she wants to be married and have kids, 714 00:40:04,235 --> 00:40:07,071 and... and I can't give that to her. 715 00:40:07,154 --> 00:40:09,490 So I know that she might meet someone, but... 716 00:40:10,449 --> 00:40:12,618 I don't wanna shut myself off to... 717 00:40:14,161 --> 00:40:15,454 continuing to know her. 718 00:40:30,219 --> 00:40:31,053 Okay. 719 00:40:32,513 --> 00:40:33,347 Okay. 720 00:40:33,431 --> 00:40:36,183 Look, I hear, I see that this is really hard for you. 721 00:40:36,267 --> 00:40:37,268 Do you love her? 722 00:40:38,185 --> 00:40:39,019 Yeah. 723 00:40:44,191 --> 00:40:45,484 What is the point? 724 00:40:45,693 --> 00:40:47,653 Why are you talking-- Why are you here? 725 00:40:49,947 --> 00:40:51,323 Why are you doing this? 726 00:40:52,241 --> 00:40:53,075 Why? 727 00:40:53,534 --> 00:40:54,702 It sucks. 728 00:40:55,286 --> 00:40:56,662 Fucking sucks. 729 00:40:59,165 --> 00:41:00,708 It sucks for me. 730 00:41:00,958 --> 00:41:02,543 For me, it sucks. 731 00:41:04,503 --> 00:41:05,754 Do you understand? 732 00:41:06,422 --> 00:41:08,382 -Now... Now I do. I-- -It sucks! 733 00:41:15,473 --> 00:41:18,684 -I'm so sorry. I-- -How would you feel? 734 00:41:22,855 --> 00:41:27,735 What do you mean? I mean, like, you've  been obsessed with Ryan for weeks now. 735 00:41:28,235 --> 00:41:30,863 -I feel-- -That's exactly right. I've been obsessed. 736 00:41:31,572 --> 00:41:33,824 -And so stupid. -Uh-- I guess I just don't know 737 00:41:33,908 --> 00:41:35,784 what you thought we were doing. 738 00:41:35,868 --> 00:41:38,704 -I don't know what we're doing. -I feel a little, like... 739 00:41:40,122 --> 00:41:41,290 uh, tricked right now. 740 00:41:41,373 --> 00:41:43,250 -Like, we've been-- -I'm sorry, I don't mean to-- 741 00:41:43,334 --> 00:41:46,170 You've known about Amy from the beginning. Like, we've... 742 00:41:46,378 --> 00:41:47,213 I... 743 00:41:47,588 --> 00:41:51,592 I think what's happening here is, like, we ha-- we lost each other in this. 744 00:41:51,675 --> 00:41:52,885 We have not been... 745 00:41:53,844 --> 00:41:56,597 You haven't told me any of this. You haven't shared any of this with me. 746 00:41:56,680 --> 00:41:58,349 Obviously I've known something was going on, 747 00:41:58,432 --> 00:42:02,102 because you've been really sharp with me, and I'm sure I have been with you. 748 00:42:02,853 --> 00:42:04,188 But-- And I get it. 749 00:42:04,271 --> 00:42:06,857 -It's horrible to hear that-- -I'm not even mad at you. 750 00:42:06,941 --> 00:42:09,693 I'm not mad at all. I'm just so sad. 751 00:42:11,195 --> 00:42:12,780 You can't get it back. 752 00:42:13,948 --> 00:42:15,991 Can you? How do you get it back? 753 00:42:17,326 --> 00:42:18,953 This is so stupid. 754 00:42:20,162 --> 00:42:21,705 I feel so stupid. 755 00:42:25,960 --> 00:42:28,963 I don't know. I don't wanna do it. You can be in love with her. 756 00:42:29,046 --> 00:42:29,880 [sniffles] 757 00:42:30,214 --> 00:42:32,049 Obviously, I can't stop you. 758 00:42:34,385 --> 00:42:36,345 But I don't think you'll get closer to me 759 00:42:36,428 --> 00:42:37,638 -by being in love with her. -I-- 760 00:42:37,721 --> 00:42:39,014 -By being with her. -I don't think 761 00:42:39,098 --> 00:42:41,475 this is something that we can decide in a bar. 762 00:42:41,559 --> 00:42:45,729 -You don't have to decide anything. -Like, I think that I deserve more... 763 00:42:46,355 --> 00:42:48,232 of a continuing... 764 00:42:48,774 --> 00:42:50,651 conversation and process about this. 765 00:42:50,734 --> 00:42:51,819 I think maybe 766 00:42:51,902 --> 00:42:54,530 -we can talk about it in couples' therapy. -What am I getting? 767 00:42:54,613 --> 00:42:56,865 I don't know.You need to tell me what you're getting. 768 00:42:57,408 --> 00:43:00,202 But I also know you weren't getting anything out of our marriage 769 00:43:00,536 --> 00:43:02,705 -a year and a half ago. -Yeah, yeah, you're right. 770 00:43:02,830 --> 00:43:05,457 So I don't know what you wanna go back to, Andi. 771 00:43:06,041 --> 00:43:07,668 I don't know what was so thrilling 772 00:43:07,751 --> 00:43:09,378 -and compelling for you before. -Right. 773 00:43:10,462 --> 00:43:11,589 I don't know. 774 00:43:12,464 --> 00:43:13,340 I think it was... 775 00:43:14,300 --> 00:43:17,428 compelling to love someone and be loved. 776 00:43:18,137 --> 00:43:20,389 I think that's pretty compelling, you know? 777 00:43:21,432 --> 00:43:24,935 I know this is stupid and I'm sorry, but it's just sad. 778 00:43:26,145 --> 00:43:27,187 I'm sorry. 779 00:43:28,188 --> 00:43:30,357 I'm not trying to take anything away from you. 780 00:43:30,441 --> 00:43:32,568 I just feel so sad. 781 00:43:33,527 --> 00:43:35,654 We don't have to do anything. It's fine. 782 00:43:35,779 --> 00:43:37,239 You can be with her. 783 00:43:37,323 --> 00:43:39,199 -I just don't wanna do it. -All right. 784 00:43:40,576 --> 00:43:43,287 And... And I hear that. I hear what you're saying. 785 00:43:44,121 --> 00:43:47,583 I'm asking you to also hear me and meet me halfway, in that... 786 00:43:48,208 --> 00:43:51,295 I think right now you're... you're making this a little black and white. 787 00:43:51,378 --> 00:43:53,339 I don't know what will happen with her. 788 00:43:53,839 --> 00:43:55,883 I don't--  I... I love her. 789 00:43:55,966 --> 00:43:57,760 I have love for her. 790 00:43:57,843 --> 00:44:01,263 She is... has become a very special person to me. 791 00:44:01,347 --> 00:44:04,642 It's also very possible that tomorrow, she will freak out again 792 00:44:04,725 --> 00:44:06,393 and say, "I don't wanna do this." 793 00:44:06,477 --> 00:44:09,688 It's not really about what she's gonna do, for me. 794 00:44:09,772 --> 00:44:11,899 I don't really care what she's gonna do. 795 00:44:12,399 --> 00:44:13,942 I feel sorry for her. 796 00:44:14,026 --> 00:44:15,569 I'm sad for her, too. 797 00:44:15,653 --> 00:44:19,198 I just think there's a real possibility that you're gonna change your mind... 798 00:44:19,281 --> 00:44:21,367 in a couple of days, and realize that... 799 00:44:22,618 --> 00:44:23,869 [Andi sighs] 800 00:44:31,335 --> 00:44:32,586 I don't know what to say. 801 00:44:32,670 --> 00:44:36,590 I mean, I... I don't see right now how I can walk this decision back, 802 00:44:36,674 --> 00:44:38,175 I mean, I feel like... 803 00:44:38,634 --> 00:44:40,052 I have opened up a whole... 804 00:44:41,345 --> 00:44:43,514 Pandora's Box that, like, I'm not... 805 00:44:45,140 --> 00:44:48,352 I'm committed to this more than just, like, having sex with people. 806 00:44:48,435 --> 00:44:50,145 Like, it's actually, like, a... 807 00:44:50,521 --> 00:44:52,189 It feels like an intrinsic... 808 00:44:53,190 --> 00:44:56,360 shift inside of, like, who I am and how I view the world, 809 00:44:56,443 --> 00:44:59,363 and how I feel like... uh... 810 00:45:01,573 --> 00:45:04,326 I like myself better now. I like... 811 00:45:05,744 --> 00:45:07,037 our life better now. 812 00:45:07,121 --> 00:45:11,875 I feel better about myself. I feel more in my... 813 00:45:12,960 --> 00:45:14,795 self than I ever did. 814 00:45:16,004 --> 00:45:18,757 And I don't believe that it's healthy... 815 00:45:19,633 --> 00:45:21,552 for us or anyone to... 816 00:45:21,969 --> 00:45:24,722 lock into this... 817 00:45:26,682 --> 00:45:30,728 you know, "I own you and you own me and you can't think about anybody else." 818 00:45:30,811 --> 00:45:32,146 And, I mean... 819 00:45:33,856 --> 00:45:37,359 I'm not saying that we have to always have sex with other people 820 00:45:37,443 --> 00:45:40,028 or relationships with other people, but, like, I think... 821 00:45:40,112 --> 00:45:41,613 the open, the con-- uh-- 822 00:45:42,156 --> 00:45:43,741 Having the conversation, to me, 823 00:45:43,824 --> 00:45:46,577 makes me feel like it's not taboo, and it's not... 824 00:45:47,244 --> 00:45:50,581 And that I'm not perverted, and that, like, I can... 825 00:45:52,499 --> 00:45:53,917 That I'm not trapped. 826 00:46:01,508 --> 00:46:02,885 I don't wanna trap you. 827 00:46:09,433 --> 00:46:11,393 I'd like to continue figuring out... 828 00:46:12,895 --> 00:46:15,898 being together side-by-side, raising our children, and... 829 00:46:21,236 --> 00:46:23,489 growing up as people together, and... 830 00:46:23,572 --> 00:46:25,824 But, like,  if you're not interested in that, 831 00:46:25,908 --> 00:46:29,536 then we can start talking about what that looks like, but I'm not... 832 00:46:30,913 --> 00:46:31,747 Um... 833 00:46:32,623 --> 00:46:34,917 I'm not interested in making some snap decision 834 00:46:35,000 --> 00:46:37,085 tonight, or any night soon, about... 835 00:46:37,419 --> 00:46:39,630 -I'm just lonely. -Yeah. 836 00:46:41,340 --> 00:46:42,925 I mean, I'm not just lonely. 837 00:46:43,342 --> 00:46:44,384 I'm lonely. 838 00:46:44,468 --> 00:46:45,427 I get it. 839 00:46:45,969 --> 00:46:46,929 This isn't... 840 00:46:48,639 --> 00:46:49,681 This isn't good. 841 00:46:52,559 --> 00:46:56,355 I don't have to make any snap decisions. I'm just saying it isn't good. 842 00:46:57,439 --> 00:46:59,775 And it sounds like it's really good for you. 843 00:46:59,858 --> 00:47:00,984 No, That's-- I mean, like-- 844 00:47:01,068 --> 00:47:04,238 No, you just... you just said all the ways in which it's good for you, 845 00:47:04,321 --> 00:47:05,489 and I'm... I'm really happy. 846 00:47:05,572 --> 00:47:08,659 And I know I don't look happy, but I'm happy for you and I mean that. 847 00:47:09,368 --> 00:47:10,494 I can't deny that. 848 00:47:14,498 --> 00:47:15,541 [whispers] Yeah. 849 00:47:16,333 --> 00:47:17,251 I think... 850 00:47:17,751 --> 00:47:19,419 you're romanticizing... 851 00:47:19,920 --> 00:47:20,754 this whole... 852 00:47:21,922 --> 00:47:22,756 thing. 853 00:47:23,090 --> 00:47:24,049 Uh... 854 00:47:24,132 --> 00:47:26,802 -Okay. -And I say that as a friend. 855 00:47:27,678 --> 00:47:29,847 I don't-- I'm not saying that, like, you're a dumb fuck. 856 00:47:29,930 --> 00:47:32,307 I'm saying I think you're romanticizing... 857 00:47:33,851 --> 00:47:37,187 That you're having a romance with your... your idea of this, 858 00:47:38,021 --> 00:47:41,650 and it's 'cause it's feeling really good and you're in love with someone. 859 00:47:43,110 --> 00:47:44,152 I mean... 860 00:47:44,653 --> 00:47:47,322 I've never been with-- in love with anyone else. 861 00:47:49,658 --> 00:47:52,244 The only person I've ever been in love with was you. 862 00:48:02,921 --> 00:48:06,258 Can we just go? I don't... I don't feel like crying anymore. 863 00:48:06,341 --> 00:48:07,342 I'm sick of it. 864 00:48:09,136 --> 00:48:10,470 [sighs] 865 00:48:11,638 --> 00:48:12,472 Yeah. 866 00:48:18,854 --> 00:48:20,606 Let me pay for these drinks. 867 00:48:37,122 --> 00:48:38,373 [sighs] 868 00:48:51,553 --> 00:48:52,554 I do love you. 869 00:48:55,015 --> 00:48:56,475 I love you, too. 870 00:49:01,647 --> 00:49:02,564 So much. 871 00:49:14,242 --> 00:49:16,036 Can you just think about me... 872 00:49:17,204 --> 00:49:18,330 for tonight? 873 00:49:21,375 --> 00:49:23,210 And will you not look at your phone? 874 00:49:25,587 --> 00:49:26,588 Yeah. 875 00:49:28,966 --> 00:49:30,133 Absolutely. 876 00:49:31,802 --> 00:49:33,428 Let's go relieve the babysitter. 877 00:49:47,651 --> 00:49:49,444 ♪ Welcome the spring 878 00:49:49,528 --> 00:49:51,488 ♪ And the summer rain ♪ 879 00:49:53,240 --> 00:49:57,369 ♪ Softly turned to sing again ♪ 880 00:49:59,162 --> 00:50:01,248 ♪ Welcome the bud ♪ 881 00:50:01,331 --> 00:50:07,879 ♪ The summer blooming flower ♪ 882 00:50:10,507 --> 00:50:12,676 ♪ Welcome the child ♪ 883 00:50:12,759 --> 00:50:15,262 ♪ Whose hand I hold ♪ 884 00:50:16,513 --> 00:50:20,559 ♪ Welcome to you, both young and old ♪ 885 00:50:21,226 --> 00:50:23,562 ♪ We are ever new ♪ 886 00:50:23,937 --> 00:50:30,193 ♪ We are ever new ♪