1 00:00:01,102 --> 00:00:02,903 -Previously on Chance... -HYNES: Hey. 2 00:00:03,003 --> 00:00:05,073 Woman found with her throat cut, a kid shot in the head 3 00:00:05,173 --> 00:00:08,509 breaking into a car registered to Ryan Winter. 4 00:00:08,609 --> 00:00:11,412 I'm gonna need you to get into Ryan Winter's head for me. 5 00:00:11,512 --> 00:00:15,216 You were attacked by a stranger, targeted for whatever reason. 6 00:00:15,316 --> 00:00:17,885 Rear choke like that for longer than 40 seconds, 7 00:00:17,985 --> 00:00:19,720 and you wouldn't be here. 8 00:00:19,820 --> 00:00:21,589 Winter is here in my office. 9 00:00:21,689 --> 00:00:22,790 Change rattles him. 10 00:00:22,890 --> 00:00:23,891 If I keep him here, 11 00:00:23,991 --> 00:00:25,459 can you get into his house? 12 00:00:25,559 --> 00:00:27,461 Already out the door, Doc. 13 00:00:27,561 --> 00:00:29,029 You spread that shit around about me and John. 14 00:00:29,130 --> 00:00:30,364 -Chill out. -And then just sit here. 15 00:00:30,464 --> 00:00:31,732 You are not my friend! 16 00:00:31,832 --> 00:00:33,467 Whatever, stalker freak. 17 00:00:33,567 --> 00:00:35,469 WINTER: Someone's broken into my house 18 00:00:35,569 --> 00:00:37,071 and taken things, moved things. 19 00:00:37,171 --> 00:00:39,273 What they stole has no value other than to me. 20 00:00:39,373 --> 00:00:42,643 -Did you call the police? -He is the police. 21 00:00:42,743 --> 00:00:44,778 Detective Kevin Hynes. 22 00:00:44,878 --> 00:00:46,114 It really freaked him out, what you did. 23 00:00:46,214 --> 00:00:48,616 Look, I don't give a shit, but I can't lose this job. 24 00:00:48,716 --> 00:00:50,918 In case you get hungry. Why didn't you scream 25 00:00:51,018 --> 00:00:53,053 when you saw me in the house? 'Cause you're not scary. 26 00:00:53,154 --> 00:00:55,623 When I was 8, I was standing on a train platform. 27 00:00:55,723 --> 00:00:57,958 This woman had come out of the crowd, grabbed him, 28 00:00:58,058 --> 00:01:00,094 and tossed him in front of the train. 29 00:01:00,194 --> 00:01:02,496 I found a way to cope. 30 00:01:02,596 --> 00:01:05,065 There's this asshole bullied me or whatever. 31 00:01:05,166 --> 00:01:07,067 D: Anytime somebody bullies you, you should thank them every day. 32 00:01:07,168 --> 00:01:09,403 Learn to stand up for yourself now. 33 00:01:09,503 --> 00:01:10,571 Anything can be a weapon. 34 00:01:10,671 --> 00:01:12,406 -Oh. -Oh! 35 00:01:12,506 --> 00:01:14,108 -Thank you. -Hey, take a bow. 36 00:01:14,208 --> 00:01:16,677 For what? Your good work made this happen. 37 00:01:16,777 --> 00:01:20,181 Ryan Winter just donated $1 million to the unit 38 00:01:20,281 --> 00:01:21,682 in Josefa's name. 39 00:01:22,916 --> 00:01:26,987 ** 40 00:01:27,087 --> 00:01:30,958 ** 41 00:01:31,058 --> 00:01:33,127 ** 42 00:01:33,227 --> 00:01:36,130 ** 43 00:01:36,230 --> 00:01:39,967 ** 44 00:01:40,067 --> 00:01:45,673 ** 45 00:01:45,773 --> 00:01:50,844 ** 46 00:01:50,944 --> 00:01:54,448 ** 47 00:01:54,548 --> 00:01:57,050 (streetcar bell dings) 48 00:01:57,151 --> 00:02:02,623 ** 49 00:02:02,723 --> 00:02:06,694 ** 50 00:02:09,062 --> 00:02:10,531 (indistinct conversation) 51 00:02:10,631 --> 00:02:13,167 (woman speaking indistinctly over P.A.) 52 00:02:13,267 --> 00:02:16,404 ** 53 00:02:16,504 --> 00:02:20,508 ** 54 00:02:20,608 --> 00:02:22,410 Pinch me, right? 55 00:02:22,510 --> 00:02:24,044 This is too good to be true. 56 00:02:24,144 --> 00:02:25,913 CHANCE: I agree. 57 00:02:26,013 --> 00:02:28,182 ** 58 00:02:28,282 --> 00:02:31,084 What? 59 00:02:31,185 --> 00:02:34,087 Come on. 60 00:02:34,188 --> 00:02:40,394 ** 61 00:02:40,494 --> 00:02:42,763 I don't think you should take this money. 62 00:02:42,863 --> 00:02:43,997 ** 63 00:02:44,097 --> 00:02:47,601 What do you mean, don't? Based on what? 64 00:02:47,701 --> 00:02:49,069 Well, he's a patient with head trauma for one thing. 65 00:02:49,169 --> 00:02:50,404 We've accepted money from victims 66 00:02:50,504 --> 00:02:52,039 and families of victims before. 67 00:02:52,139 --> 00:02:55,509 I mean, not this much money, but they donate all the time. 68 00:02:55,609 --> 00:02:56,777 It's not unethical. 69 00:02:56,877 --> 00:02:58,446 It's what helps keep our doors open. 70 00:02:58,546 --> 00:03:00,681 Will you -- Will you just listen to me for a second? 71 00:03:00,781 --> 00:03:02,383 I'm just concerned that this donation 72 00:03:02,483 --> 00:03:03,451 is gonna come with strings. 73 00:03:03,551 --> 00:03:05,219 Access. 74 00:03:05,319 --> 00:03:07,721 This is not the type of guy who can give a million dollars 75 00:03:07,821 --> 00:03:09,056 -and just leave it at that. -Fine. 76 00:03:09,156 --> 00:03:11,592 He can have my parking spot. 77 00:03:11,692 --> 00:03:13,126 I'm serious. 78 00:03:13,227 --> 00:03:16,129 So am I. 79 00:03:16,230 --> 00:03:17,731 Do I really have to tell you what a million dollars 80 00:03:17,831 --> 00:03:18,866 means for this unit? 81 00:03:18,966 --> 00:03:19,900 I know, I know. I just -- 82 00:03:20,000 --> 00:03:21,034 (cellphone chiming) 83 00:03:21,134 --> 00:03:22,436 I just don't want him 84 00:03:22,536 --> 00:03:24,972 to distract from the people who actually need us. 85 00:03:25,072 --> 00:03:26,807 (chiming stops) Yeah? 86 00:03:26,907 --> 00:03:28,476 ** 87 00:03:28,576 --> 00:03:32,280 Whoa, whoa, whoa. C-Christina, s-slow down. 88 00:03:32,380 --> 00:03:33,381 ** 89 00:03:33,481 --> 00:03:34,548 Is she with you now? 90 00:03:34,648 --> 00:03:35,649 Okay. 91 00:03:35,749 --> 00:03:39,453 Uh, I'll meet you at my place in 20 minutes. 92 00:03:39,553 --> 00:03:41,088 -Nicole? -Yeah. 93 00:03:41,188 --> 00:03:42,222 I got to go. (door opens) 94 00:03:42,323 --> 00:03:43,291 I'll call you later. 95 00:03:43,391 --> 00:03:44,558 Hey. This money, 96 00:03:44,658 --> 00:03:46,427 it'll be a good thing. 97 00:03:46,527 --> 00:03:49,397 (indistinct conversations) 98 00:03:49,497 --> 00:03:51,899 ** 99 00:03:51,999 --> 00:03:54,101 (bell dinging) 100 00:03:54,201 --> 00:03:56,470 (indistinct talking) 101 00:03:56,570 --> 00:03:59,507 ** 102 00:03:59,607 --> 00:04:01,975 WOMAN: Jesus, carryout check stand 2. 103 00:04:02,075 --> 00:04:05,746 Jesus, carryout check stand 2. 104 00:04:05,846 --> 00:04:06,914 ** 105 00:04:07,014 --> 00:04:10,651 Folic acid and iron and a stool softener 106 00:04:10,751 --> 00:04:12,185 for the iron side effects. 107 00:04:12,286 --> 00:04:15,523 ** 108 00:04:15,623 --> 00:04:17,525 You know they have flowers here. 109 00:04:17,625 --> 00:04:21,094 Folic acid helps protect your baby against birth defects, 110 00:04:21,194 --> 00:04:23,163 and the iron prevents anemia. 111 00:04:23,263 --> 00:04:24,998 ** 112 00:04:25,098 --> 00:04:27,267 What's your name? 113 00:04:27,368 --> 00:04:28,302 D. 114 00:04:28,402 --> 00:04:30,137 D. 115 00:04:30,237 --> 00:04:32,473 I have a doctor, D. 116 00:04:32,573 --> 00:04:35,275 An O.B. for the baby. 117 00:04:35,376 --> 00:04:40,648 She tells me not to eat raw fish and weird cheeses or whatever. 118 00:04:40,748 --> 00:04:45,018 And she tells me to take vitamins, so I do that. 119 00:04:45,118 --> 00:04:48,456 But thank you. 120 00:04:48,556 --> 00:04:50,558 Okay, then. 121 00:04:50,658 --> 00:04:51,692 ** 122 00:04:51,792 --> 00:04:55,128 So, you're stalking me at the supermarket 123 00:04:55,228 --> 00:04:57,164 because of birth defects? 124 00:04:57,264 --> 00:04:58,466 Hmm? 125 00:04:58,566 --> 00:05:00,200 Then why? 126 00:05:00,300 --> 00:05:03,871 Y-Your boss, he's a very bad man. 127 00:05:03,971 --> 00:05:06,474 That's all I know is bad men. 128 00:05:06,574 --> 00:05:08,709 You're gonna have to say more than that. 129 00:05:08,809 --> 00:05:10,911 He kills people. 130 00:05:11,011 --> 00:05:13,080 What people? Women, mostly. 131 00:05:13,180 --> 00:05:14,915 ** 132 00:05:15,015 --> 00:05:16,517 So, he's gonna kill me? 133 00:05:16,617 --> 00:05:17,851 Doubt it. 134 00:05:17,951 --> 00:05:19,387 That'd be too obvious, 135 00:05:19,487 --> 00:05:21,221 although I guess you never know. 136 00:05:21,321 --> 00:05:22,523 ** 137 00:05:22,623 --> 00:05:24,858 You a cop? No. 138 00:05:24,958 --> 00:05:26,394 Good. 139 00:05:26,494 --> 00:05:28,261 You ever kill anybody? 140 00:05:28,362 --> 00:05:30,263 Nobody anyone would miss. 141 00:05:30,364 --> 00:05:32,900 ** 142 00:05:33,000 --> 00:05:34,902 So, what do you want from me, anyway? 143 00:05:35,002 --> 00:05:37,270 I just figured you should know. 144 00:05:37,371 --> 00:05:41,542 Yeah, that's an answer, but it's not the whole answer. 145 00:05:41,642 --> 00:05:44,545 You like Chinese food? 146 00:05:44,645 --> 00:05:45,779 Sure. 147 00:05:45,879 --> 00:05:48,048 Golden Pagoda, tomorrow at 2:00. 148 00:05:48,148 --> 00:05:49,683 You can take me to lunch. 149 00:05:49,783 --> 00:05:52,920 The baby likes the chicken in black bean sauce. 150 00:05:53,020 --> 00:05:55,055 Okay. 151 00:05:55,155 --> 00:05:56,957 Good. 152 00:05:57,057 --> 00:05:59,259 WOMAN: Price check in produce. Price check in produce. 153 00:05:59,359 --> 00:06:00,728 Cashier 2. 154 00:06:00,828 --> 00:06:03,096 You can tell me the rest of the answer then. 155 00:06:03,196 --> 00:06:07,935 ** 156 00:06:08,035 --> 00:06:10,571 ** 157 00:06:10,671 --> 00:06:13,941 CHANCE: Nic thanked Pepper? 158 00:06:14,041 --> 00:06:17,044 Right after she broke her nose. 159 00:06:17,144 --> 00:06:18,912 And that Pepper is a piece of work, 160 00:06:19,012 --> 00:06:20,448 just pretending to be her friend 161 00:06:20,548 --> 00:06:24,051 so she could humiliate her? 162 00:06:25,619 --> 00:06:26,887 So, what now? 163 00:06:26,987 --> 00:06:30,090 Expulsion, possibly. I don't know. 164 00:06:30,190 --> 00:06:31,992 I'll know more when I talk to the dean tomorrow. 165 00:06:32,092 --> 00:06:33,260 What time? 166 00:06:33,360 --> 00:06:36,430 I'll come with you. 167 00:06:36,530 --> 00:06:37,831 There's another shoe. 168 00:06:37,931 --> 00:06:40,400 Of course there is. 169 00:06:42,770 --> 00:06:44,472 Her parents are pressing charges, 170 00:06:44,572 --> 00:06:46,907 aggravated assault. 171 00:06:47,007 --> 00:06:49,009 Aggravated? 172 00:06:49,109 --> 00:06:52,079 They're saying the book was a weapon, a blunt instrument. 173 00:06:52,179 --> 00:06:55,649 The hospital's holding her overnight for observation. 174 00:06:55,749 --> 00:06:58,418 That's standard concussion protocol. 175 00:06:58,519 --> 00:07:01,789 Okay, well, I guess I'll go talk to the parents. 176 00:07:01,889 --> 00:07:02,990 And then I'll handle the dean? 177 00:07:05,459 --> 00:07:10,430 Eldon, uh, she's going to be charged with a felony. 178 00:07:10,531 --> 00:07:13,667 Is there a scenario where she goes to jail 179 00:07:13,767 --> 00:07:17,137 or some kind of, like, juvenile detention center? 180 00:07:17,237 --> 00:07:18,472 No. 181 00:07:18,572 --> 00:07:20,107 That's not gonna happen. 182 00:07:20,207 --> 00:07:23,343 I really thought that we were over this. I -- 183 00:07:23,443 --> 00:07:24,612 She was doing so well. 184 00:07:27,047 --> 00:07:28,482 I'll go talk to her. 185 00:07:30,217 --> 00:07:32,520 Do you ever think that maybe this is our fault? 186 00:07:32,620 --> 00:07:36,990 I mean, she's so bright and -- and beautiful and young 187 00:07:37,090 --> 00:07:39,660 and unjaded and unspoiled. 188 00:07:39,760 --> 00:07:44,031 I don't know where this is coming from. 189 00:07:45,198 --> 00:07:48,502 I mean, the stalking last year, and now? 190 00:07:48,602 --> 00:07:50,904 I-I keep thinking that 191 00:07:51,004 --> 00:07:52,573 the only common denominator is -- 192 00:07:52,673 --> 00:07:53,674 is us. 193 00:07:54,842 --> 00:07:58,011 You had nothing to do with this. 194 00:07:58,111 --> 00:08:04,184 ** 195 00:08:04,284 --> 00:08:08,388 (door closes) 196 00:08:13,493 --> 00:08:16,530 Pepper humiliated me in front of basically everyone, 197 00:08:16,630 --> 00:08:19,533 so forget putting anything behind me or starting over. 198 00:08:19,633 --> 00:08:21,368 Not to mention ruining any chance 199 00:08:21,468 --> 00:08:24,371 I had at making any other friends besides her. 200 00:08:24,471 --> 00:08:28,676 And the rest, as they say, is history. 201 00:08:33,013 --> 00:08:39,386 Look, I -- I understand the impulse, I do. 202 00:08:39,486 --> 00:08:42,522 I just -- 203 00:08:42,623 --> 00:08:46,760 You ever feel like your life is just some ride? 204 00:08:46,894 --> 00:08:49,262 You're at a carnival, you strap yourself in, 205 00:08:49,362 --> 00:08:52,365 and then somebody else decides how fast or high you go? 206 00:08:52,465 --> 00:08:55,035 ** 207 00:08:55,135 --> 00:08:57,104 But you do have control. 208 00:08:57,204 --> 00:08:59,973 It might not always feel like that, but... 209 00:09:00,073 --> 00:09:03,210 Yeah, but even before this. 210 00:09:03,310 --> 00:09:05,478 Too many times I'd get up in the morning and think, 211 00:09:05,579 --> 00:09:08,415 (scoffs) "Here we go again." 212 00:09:08,515 --> 00:09:11,118 Walking the school halls, worried, 213 00:09:11,218 --> 00:09:13,253 wondering what's next, 214 00:09:13,353 --> 00:09:17,157 what's out there waiting for me now? 215 00:09:17,257 --> 00:09:18,792 But today with Pepper? 216 00:09:18,892 --> 00:09:21,829 I was what was waiting. 217 00:09:21,929 --> 00:09:24,397 And to be honest, it felt awesome. 218 00:09:24,497 --> 00:09:29,770 ** 219 00:09:29,870 --> 00:09:34,808 Look, after what Pepper did, you had every right to be upset. 220 00:09:34,908 --> 00:09:35,943 This is not the way to deal with it. 221 00:09:36,043 --> 00:09:37,477 Really? 222 00:09:37,577 --> 00:09:42,082 You tried "walking and reading" at the same time lately? 223 00:09:42,182 --> 00:09:43,817 Look, do me a favor. 224 00:09:43,917 --> 00:09:45,753 In the future, will you talk to me first? 225 00:09:45,853 --> 00:09:47,120 Well, I tried, 226 00:09:47,220 --> 00:09:49,757 and I could not find you anywhere, 227 00:09:49,857 --> 00:09:50,958 so I talked to D. 228 00:09:51,058 --> 00:09:52,259 D? 229 00:09:52,359 --> 00:09:53,827 Yeah, he thinks we should thank bullies. 230 00:09:53,927 --> 00:09:56,964 What? We should -- Thank them for what? 231 00:09:57,064 --> 00:09:58,531 Well, he says everyone else 232 00:09:58,632 --> 00:10:02,369 just wants to keep us weak and calm, 233 00:10:02,469 --> 00:10:03,804 but bullies challenge us, 234 00:10:03,904 --> 00:10:05,973 show us how to handle adversity 235 00:10:06,073 --> 00:10:08,208 and give us insight into who we really are. 236 00:10:08,308 --> 00:10:10,043 Mm-hmm. 237 00:10:10,143 --> 00:10:11,945 So this is who you really are now? 238 00:10:12,045 --> 00:10:16,616 Mm. I don't know. 239 00:10:16,717 --> 00:10:19,687 I just know that whoever I was today, 240 00:10:19,787 --> 00:10:21,955 I like her way more than who I've been. 241 00:10:22,055 --> 00:10:28,161 ** 242 00:10:31,298 --> 00:10:33,233 (beep) 243 00:10:33,333 --> 00:10:36,236 (indistinct conversations) 244 00:10:36,336 --> 00:10:37,905 (telephone ringing in distance) 245 00:10:38,005 --> 00:10:41,174 (conversations continues) 246 00:10:41,274 --> 00:10:44,011 (woman speaking indistinctly over P.A.) 247 00:10:44,111 --> 00:10:47,580 (conversations continues) 248 00:10:47,681 --> 00:10:50,583 This is not smart, you being here. 249 00:10:50,684 --> 00:10:51,752 You got no way of knowing 250 00:10:51,885 --> 00:10:53,320 whether you're gonna run into him. 251 00:10:53,420 --> 00:10:54,521 I wouldn't have had to come 252 00:10:54,621 --> 00:10:56,690 if you'd answer your fucking cell. 253 00:10:56,790 --> 00:11:00,227 Besides, you said you were gonna keep him from coming in here. 254 00:11:00,327 --> 00:11:02,095 He noticed and wrote a check so big, 255 00:11:02,195 --> 00:11:03,764 no one cares what I think. 256 00:11:03,864 --> 00:11:06,934 (telephone ringing in distance) 257 00:11:07,034 --> 00:11:09,436 WOMAN: Diagnostics, please dial 7-1. 258 00:11:09,536 --> 00:11:11,571 Diagnostics, dial 7-1. 259 00:11:11,671 --> 00:11:13,106 (conversations continue) 260 00:11:13,206 --> 00:11:18,545 So, his story about a kid being throw on the train tracks? 261 00:11:18,645 --> 00:11:21,281 The woman's name is Amy Debbs. 262 00:11:21,381 --> 00:11:23,383 Has a history of mental illness, 263 00:11:23,483 --> 00:11:27,087 in and out of psych wards until July of '82, 264 00:11:27,187 --> 00:11:29,289 where she tossed this kid on the tracks 265 00:11:29,389 --> 00:11:32,225 at the Emeryville train station. 266 00:11:32,325 --> 00:11:36,229 So that really happened. Winter was telling the truth. 267 00:11:36,329 --> 00:11:38,698 Yep. And there's more. 268 00:11:38,799 --> 00:11:42,469 The kid (groans) with the grace of fucking God 269 00:11:42,569 --> 00:11:46,606 ends up under the train or beside the train and survives. 270 00:11:46,706 --> 00:11:48,275 And Debbs was arrested on the scene 271 00:11:48,375 --> 00:11:50,610 and brought straight in to be processed. 272 00:11:50,710 --> 00:11:52,946 But no one ever claims the kid. 273 00:11:53,046 --> 00:11:56,316 In 1982, Winter would have been 6 or 7. 274 00:11:56,416 --> 00:11:58,551 Yeah, I could never get anything on Winter's childhood. 275 00:11:58,651 --> 00:11:59,787 I mean, the things I did get, 276 00:11:59,887 --> 00:12:03,924 I couldn't be sure it wasn't some revisionist history 277 00:12:04,024 --> 00:12:08,796 done after he shot into rich people stratosphere. 278 00:12:08,896 --> 00:12:11,431 And I don't even know where he was originally from 279 00:12:11,531 --> 00:12:13,566 or if Winter was even his name. 280 00:12:13,666 --> 00:12:17,404 Where is Amy Debbs now? 281 00:12:17,504 --> 00:12:18,738 Do we know if she's still alive? 282 00:12:18,839 --> 00:12:20,440 Patton State Hospital. 283 00:12:20,540 --> 00:12:22,475 (sighs) All right, well, I know one of the deputy chiefs 284 00:12:22,575 --> 00:12:23,576 of psychiatry down there. 285 00:12:23,676 --> 00:12:25,478 I'll give him a call, 286 00:12:25,578 --> 00:12:27,247 see what kind of cocktail they've got her on. (dialing) 287 00:12:27,347 --> 00:12:29,116 If she would talk to me. 288 00:12:29,216 --> 00:12:30,117 About? 289 00:12:30,217 --> 00:12:31,418 (breathes sharply) 290 00:12:31,518 --> 00:12:34,421 About why she tried to kill her son. 291 00:12:34,521 --> 00:12:36,756 ** 292 00:12:36,857 --> 00:12:42,629 (indistinct talking) 293 00:12:42,729 --> 00:12:43,931 WOMAN: Thank you so much. 294 00:12:44,031 --> 00:12:46,099 (horn honking) 295 00:12:46,199 --> 00:12:48,468 (indistinct talking) 296 00:12:48,568 --> 00:12:54,374 ** 297 00:12:54,474 --> 00:12:58,445 ** 298 00:12:58,545 --> 00:13:00,780 ** 299 00:13:00,881 --> 00:13:04,384 The VOVC. I'm one of the schedulers. 300 00:13:04,484 --> 00:13:05,785 Right. I thought what you did 301 00:13:05,886 --> 00:13:08,021 was pretty cool. 302 00:13:08,121 --> 00:13:10,457 What I did? 303 00:13:10,557 --> 00:13:12,159 I've done a lot of things. 304 00:13:12,259 --> 00:13:13,393 Oh, right. 305 00:13:13,493 --> 00:13:16,163 The donation -- the ginormous amount of money. 306 00:13:16,263 --> 00:13:17,297 I thought it was pretty awesome. 307 00:13:17,397 --> 00:13:18,665 Oh, yeah. 308 00:13:18,765 --> 00:13:21,501 Well, thanks. 309 00:13:21,601 --> 00:13:23,403 That was pretty awesome, wasn't it? 310 00:13:23,503 --> 00:13:26,573 (chuckles) 311 00:13:26,673 --> 00:13:28,241 Have you worked there a long time? 312 00:13:28,341 --> 00:13:30,710 The unit? Uh, no, but I used to work with 313 00:13:30,810 --> 00:13:33,013 Dr. Chance when he had his own practice. 314 00:13:33,113 --> 00:13:35,582 No kidding. 315 00:13:37,717 --> 00:13:39,519 You know, I'm working with Dr. Chance right now. 316 00:13:39,619 --> 00:13:42,022 Yeah, I know. 317 00:13:42,122 --> 00:13:43,656 You do? I mean, I don't know-know. 318 00:13:43,756 --> 00:13:45,725 I mean, I know you are. I do the scheduling. 319 00:13:45,825 --> 00:13:48,896 I don't know anything else, so don't worry. 320 00:13:48,996 --> 00:13:50,663 (chuckling) Oh, wow. 321 00:13:50,763 --> 00:13:51,899 It literally sounds like I've never had 322 00:13:51,999 --> 00:13:53,733 an adult conversation before. 323 00:13:55,768 --> 00:13:57,437 So, how long have you known him? 324 00:13:57,537 --> 00:14:02,542 A couple of years. Um... I used to run his practice. 325 00:14:02,642 --> 00:14:04,878 Anyway, I just wanted to say that what you did was amazing, 326 00:14:04,978 --> 00:14:07,780 and we all really appreciate it. 327 00:14:07,881 --> 00:14:09,182 What is your name? 328 00:14:09,282 --> 00:14:10,517 Lucy. 329 00:14:10,617 --> 00:14:11,784 Baek. 330 00:14:11,885 --> 00:14:14,054 I'm Ryan Winter, but you know that. 331 00:14:14,154 --> 00:14:15,855 Mm-hmm. 332 00:14:15,956 --> 00:14:18,892 Not just because of stalky scheduling weirdness. 333 00:14:18,992 --> 00:14:21,861 Also because I'm kind of a tech nerd. 334 00:14:21,962 --> 00:14:23,563 Well, those and Star Wars 335 00:14:23,663 --> 00:14:25,298 are my two favorite kinds of nerds. 336 00:14:25,398 --> 00:14:27,434 (chuckles) 337 00:14:27,534 --> 00:14:30,270 You know, I'm actually speaking at a thing... 338 00:14:30,370 --> 00:14:32,272 Oh. ...that you might like. 339 00:14:32,372 --> 00:14:35,742 Mm. It's a conference on mixed reality. 340 00:14:35,842 --> 00:14:38,711 Oh! Um, yeah. Uh... 341 00:14:40,713 --> 00:14:42,649 It's just with work and my kid, it's a little hard 342 00:14:42,749 --> 00:14:43,883 to get away for last-minute stuff. 343 00:14:43,984 --> 00:14:46,586 You're a mom. 344 00:14:46,686 --> 00:14:48,288 Yeah, the single kind. 345 00:14:48,388 --> 00:14:49,889 ** 346 00:14:49,990 --> 00:14:52,559 (cup thumps lightly) 347 00:14:52,659 --> 00:14:53,927 Well, listen. 348 00:14:54,027 --> 00:14:56,763 ** 349 00:14:56,863 --> 00:14:58,665 If you can get away... 350 00:14:58,765 --> 00:15:00,900 Mm-hmm. 351 00:15:01,001 --> 00:15:03,103 (paper tears) 352 00:15:03,203 --> 00:15:06,739 ...here's the information. 353 00:15:06,839 --> 00:15:10,510 I -- (scoffs) It could be interesting, too. 354 00:15:10,610 --> 00:15:13,813 So, bye. Bye. 355 00:15:13,913 --> 00:15:18,285 ** 356 00:15:21,021 --> 00:15:22,855 MAN: They have a gift shop in there. 357 00:15:22,956 --> 00:15:25,358 (indistinct conversations) 358 00:15:25,458 --> 00:15:28,828 (curtain opens) 359 00:15:28,928 --> 00:15:31,131 Hi. 360 00:15:31,231 --> 00:15:36,136 I'm Nicole's father, Eldon Chance. 361 00:15:36,236 --> 00:15:38,805 I just wanted to check on Pepper, 362 00:15:38,905 --> 00:15:40,673 tell you how sorry we all are 363 00:15:40,773 --> 00:15:41,841 that this has happened. 364 00:15:41,941 --> 00:15:43,376 Not as sorry as you're gonna be, pal. 365 00:15:43,476 --> 00:15:46,613 -It's okay. -I understand your being upset. 366 00:15:46,713 --> 00:15:48,215 Oh, do you? 367 00:15:48,315 --> 00:15:50,217 Because I didn't see you sleeping in a plastic chair... 368 00:15:50,317 --> 00:15:52,152 Hey, hey, hey. ...all night while nurses 369 00:15:52,252 --> 00:15:53,820 came in to check your daughter's pupils every hour. 370 00:15:53,920 --> 00:15:56,323 Bob. 371 00:15:56,423 --> 00:15:57,991 Pepper has a nasal fracture. 372 00:15:58,091 --> 00:16:02,562 Thankfully, there's no sign of concussion. 373 00:16:02,662 --> 00:16:05,298 Just spoke with the attending physician. 374 00:16:05,398 --> 00:16:08,068 What? You talked to her. 375 00:16:08,168 --> 00:16:09,869 I'm a neuropsychiatrist. 376 00:16:09,969 --> 00:16:11,238 I work with a lot of head trauma patients. 377 00:16:11,338 --> 00:16:12,472 Yeah, it figures, huh? 378 00:16:12,572 --> 00:16:13,706 it's always the shrink's kids that are the fucking -- 379 00:16:13,806 --> 00:16:15,342 Stop it! 380 00:16:15,442 --> 00:16:16,809 (sighs) 381 00:16:16,909 --> 00:16:19,412 Just take it outside, okay? Both of you. 382 00:16:19,512 --> 00:16:21,414 Maybe this is not the best time. 383 00:16:21,514 --> 00:16:23,916 What was your first clue? 384 00:16:24,017 --> 00:16:26,186 Bob, please. 385 00:16:26,286 --> 00:16:27,487 Once again, I'm so sorry that this has happened. 386 00:16:27,587 --> 00:16:29,722 And maybe when you're ready, 387 00:16:29,822 --> 00:16:31,091 we can all sit down and talk about what to do next. 388 00:16:31,191 --> 00:16:33,160 Your daughter fucking broke our daughter's nose. 389 00:16:33,260 --> 00:16:36,263 There is nothing for us to talk about. At all. 390 00:16:36,363 --> 00:16:37,764 Okay? That's what lawyers are for. 391 00:16:37,864 --> 00:16:39,099 (sighs) 392 00:16:39,199 --> 00:16:40,700 ** 393 00:16:40,800 --> 00:16:42,769 Okay, come on. Get your stuff. Let's get out of here. 394 00:16:42,869 --> 00:16:44,337 (door slams) 395 00:16:44,437 --> 00:16:48,041 ** 396 00:16:48,141 --> 00:16:49,909 (clattering) 397 00:16:50,009 --> 00:16:51,611 (clattering echoes) 398 00:16:51,711 --> 00:16:52,779 WINTER: Lyndsay! 399 00:16:52,879 --> 00:16:54,114 Lyndsay! 400 00:16:54,214 --> 00:16:55,182 Yes? 401 00:16:55,282 --> 00:16:57,016 Where is the briefc-- Right here. 402 00:16:57,117 --> 00:16:59,686 Thank you. Listen, a talk and a lunch, too, 403 00:16:59,786 --> 00:17:01,721 is too much for me. I'm not gonna be able to d it. 404 00:17:01,821 --> 00:17:03,456 I'm sorry. I told them that you probably 405 00:17:03,556 --> 00:17:05,258 wouldn't be staying to eat. 406 00:17:05,358 --> 00:17:06,893 Did you call them yet? 407 00:17:06,993 --> 00:17:08,061 No. 408 00:17:08,161 --> 00:17:09,529 Do you want me to do it? 409 00:17:09,629 --> 00:17:11,698 No, I will, but just not right now. 410 00:17:11,798 --> 00:17:13,733 Is the car here? It's out front. 411 00:17:13,833 --> 00:17:16,236 You know, trespassing is a crime. 412 00:17:16,336 --> 00:17:19,239 Yeah, I know that. 413 00:17:21,641 --> 00:17:23,276 But what am I gonna tell 'em? 414 00:17:23,376 --> 00:17:25,044 That Detective Hynes broke into my house 415 00:17:25,145 --> 00:17:27,414 and rearranged my shirts? 416 00:17:27,514 --> 00:17:29,048 Uh, I wouldn't even have known he was here 417 00:17:29,149 --> 00:17:31,451 except he stole my rock. 418 00:17:31,551 --> 00:17:33,386 (chuckles) 419 00:17:33,486 --> 00:17:34,787 I would tell me to fuck off. 420 00:17:34,887 --> 00:17:37,490 Be that as it may -- I hate when people say that. 421 00:17:37,590 --> 00:17:40,260 Why is he doing this? Why is he doing it again? 422 00:17:40,360 --> 00:17:41,594 It's been four years. 423 00:17:41,694 --> 00:17:43,130 Why is he doing it? 424 00:17:43,230 --> 00:17:45,332 Because he wants to torment you, 425 00:17:45,432 --> 00:17:47,100 and he is, 426 00:17:47,200 --> 00:17:48,901 and you can't let him get away with it. 427 00:17:49,001 --> 00:17:50,770 We can't. 428 00:17:50,870 --> 00:17:52,739 We have to deal with it. 429 00:17:55,308 --> 00:17:57,310 Okay, but not right now. 430 00:17:57,410 --> 00:17:59,346 I can't think about this right now. 431 00:17:59,446 --> 00:18:01,114 And you don't have to. 432 00:18:01,214 --> 00:18:02,449 I'm here for that. 433 00:18:02,549 --> 00:18:03,750 (beep) 434 00:18:03,850 --> 00:18:05,418 AUTOMATED VOICE: Kitchen door open. 435 00:18:06,686 --> 00:18:09,756 Don't schedule without talking to me first. 436 00:18:09,856 --> 00:18:14,994 ** 437 00:18:15,094 --> 00:18:16,629 ALVIN: You act like you didn't start this whole shit here. 438 00:18:16,729 --> 00:18:19,098 Like you didn't just wake up one day and say, 439 00:18:19,199 --> 00:18:21,268 "Fuck them, this is how it's gonna be." 440 00:18:21,368 --> 00:18:23,336 Yes, one day I woke up. 441 00:18:23,436 --> 00:18:25,605 But I never said fuck you or anyone. 442 00:18:25,705 --> 00:18:27,474 And you know that. 443 00:18:27,574 --> 00:18:29,709 Don't you put that on me. 444 00:18:29,809 --> 00:18:31,144 I guess you could just remember it however 445 00:18:31,244 --> 00:18:32,612 you want to remember it, huh? Huh? 446 00:18:32,712 --> 00:18:35,448 What I want is for you to tell me 447 00:18:35,548 --> 00:18:36,816 what else I can do to help you. 448 00:18:36,916 --> 00:18:38,551 Carl still jawing at that guy in the alley? 449 00:18:38,651 --> 00:18:40,653 -Yeah. -God damn toyboys. 450 00:18:40,753 --> 00:18:42,522 What the fuck were you doing, 451 00:18:42,622 --> 00:18:43,690 talking to Nicole like that? 452 00:18:43,790 --> 00:18:45,525 What the fuck were you thinking? 453 00:18:45,625 --> 00:18:48,328 Careful, Doc. Lacquer's wet. 454 00:18:48,428 --> 00:18:50,497 Fuck the lacquer. 455 00:18:50,597 --> 00:18:52,565 She broke a girl's nose. 456 00:18:52,665 --> 00:18:54,501 I didn't tell her to do that. 457 00:18:54,601 --> 00:18:55,735 Just showed her how. 458 00:18:55,835 --> 00:18:57,570 Yeah, you showed her how, all right. 459 00:18:57,670 --> 00:19:00,507 How to get fucking suspended 460 00:19:00,607 --> 00:19:03,009 and probably expelled from a public school. 461 00:19:03,109 --> 00:19:04,344 How to go to prison for assault. 462 00:19:04,444 --> 00:19:07,314 She's 16, D. She's a child. She -- She -- 463 00:19:07,414 --> 00:19:08,981 A confident member of the tribe 464 00:19:09,081 --> 00:19:10,983 who isn't afraid to stand up for themselves. 465 00:19:11,083 --> 00:19:13,052 Who's ready to deal on her own 466 00:19:13,152 --> 00:19:14,654 with the reality of the world. 467 00:19:14,754 --> 00:19:17,023 What are you, a life coach? Listen to yourself. 468 00:19:17,123 --> 00:19:18,358 This isn't a half-empty glass. 469 00:19:18,458 --> 00:19:20,327 This fucking glass is full. 470 00:19:20,427 --> 00:19:22,229 If she was my kid, I'd take her out 471 00:19:22,329 --> 00:19:23,830 for fucking ice cream and nunchucks. 472 00:19:23,930 --> 00:19:26,266 She's not your kid. She's mine. 473 00:19:26,366 --> 00:19:28,435 Think of it as a brush-back pitch. 474 00:19:28,535 --> 00:19:30,670 At the very least, Nicole showed this 475 00:19:30,770 --> 00:19:31,938 Pepper to herself. 476 00:19:32,038 --> 00:19:33,340 Oh! 477 00:19:33,440 --> 00:19:35,107 Showed her where that road leads, 478 00:19:35,208 --> 00:19:37,210 and I bet Pepper will give her a wide berth from now on. 479 00:19:37,310 --> 00:19:39,612 Pepper spent last night in the hospital. 480 00:19:39,712 --> 00:19:41,080 She's a mess. 481 00:19:41,180 --> 00:19:43,049 Parents are on the warpath, and I don't blame them. 482 00:19:43,149 --> 00:19:45,418 I do. She's a piece of shit. 483 00:19:45,518 --> 00:19:47,220 Pretty sure they had something to do with that. 484 00:19:47,320 --> 00:19:49,589 You don't start worrying about their child's morality 485 00:19:49,689 --> 00:19:51,291 until she's a teenager? Oh, Jesus, will -- 486 00:19:51,391 --> 00:19:53,059 They're already broken. Will you stop 487 00:19:53,159 --> 00:19:55,094 talking to me about parenting?! 488 00:19:57,264 --> 00:20:01,301 It's a good thing, Doc, Nicole wanting to stand up, 489 00:20:01,401 --> 00:20:04,036 face her struggle with honor and dignity. 490 00:20:04,136 --> 00:20:05,405 That's badass. 491 00:20:05,505 --> 00:20:08,575 I don't want my daughter to be badass, 492 00:20:08,675 --> 00:20:11,544 not the way you mean, not the way you are. 493 00:20:11,644 --> 00:20:16,215 If she ever comes here again for advice, you better go deaf. 494 00:20:16,316 --> 00:20:19,886 (indistinct conversation in distance) 495 00:20:21,821 --> 00:20:24,156 You're welcome. 496 00:20:26,225 --> 00:20:29,996 (birds chirping) 497 00:20:30,096 --> 00:20:31,130 (speaking indistinctly) 498 00:20:31,230 --> 00:20:32,432 Yeah. 499 00:20:35,435 --> 00:20:38,471 AMY: He sent me signs. 500 00:20:38,571 --> 00:20:41,841 I didn't recognize them at first, 501 00:20:41,941 --> 00:20:47,914 but when I did, they were everywhere. 502 00:20:48,014 --> 00:20:49,081 CHANCE: And what was the first sign you saw? 503 00:20:49,181 --> 00:20:52,151 Do you remember? 504 00:20:52,251 --> 00:20:54,854 I had the dishes in the sink. 505 00:20:54,954 --> 00:20:58,024 The TV was on. 506 00:20:58,124 --> 00:21:01,093 And a child had been mauled 507 00:21:01,193 --> 00:21:04,531 by a lion at a zoo in Milwaukee. 508 00:21:05,865 --> 00:21:07,700 And what did that tell you? 509 00:21:07,800 --> 00:21:12,104 That He was coming, and I had to prove myself. 510 00:21:12,204 --> 00:21:15,375 So, what did you do? 511 00:21:17,644 --> 00:21:19,646 I told Matthew. 512 00:21:19,746 --> 00:21:23,115 Told him what? 513 00:21:23,215 --> 00:21:26,185 That the Lord wanted me to kill him. 514 00:21:28,821 --> 00:21:30,657 How old was he when you told him that? 515 00:21:30,757 --> 00:21:32,825 3. 516 00:21:34,327 --> 00:21:36,329 His eyes were like stars. 517 00:21:36,429 --> 00:21:41,000 I would look in them and... 518 00:21:41,100 --> 00:21:42,535 I just couldn't. 519 00:21:44,303 --> 00:21:47,407 You couldn't -- You couldn't do what the Lord was asking? 520 00:21:47,507 --> 00:21:48,541 No. 521 00:21:49,976 --> 00:21:51,378 Did He stop asking? 522 00:21:51,478 --> 00:21:52,845 I thought so. 523 00:21:52,945 --> 00:21:54,046 But then, 524 00:21:54,146 --> 00:21:57,584 I went into Matthew's room in the morning, 525 00:21:57,684 --> 00:22:00,086 and Matthew rolled over on his bed, 526 00:22:00,186 --> 00:22:01,654 and he looked at me. 527 00:22:01,754 --> 00:22:06,493 And there was a spider on his pajamas. 528 00:22:06,593 --> 00:22:08,761 So that night, I did it. 529 00:22:11,531 --> 00:22:13,900 You -- You tried to kill Matthew. 530 00:22:14,000 --> 00:22:16,503 No. 531 00:22:16,603 --> 00:22:18,405 Myself. 532 00:22:18,505 --> 00:22:20,440 Mm. 533 00:22:20,540 --> 00:22:21,841 ** 534 00:22:21,941 --> 00:22:24,343 But it didn't work. 535 00:22:24,444 --> 00:22:25,945 ** 536 00:22:26,045 --> 00:22:30,883 The way He wanted me to do it after that was so much worse. 537 00:22:30,983 --> 00:22:33,252 Because I was fighting it. 538 00:22:33,352 --> 00:22:36,456 He wanted Matthew s-strangled, 539 00:22:36,556 --> 00:22:39,892 stabbed, cut up 540 00:22:39,992 --> 00:22:44,063 because I wouldn't listen. 541 00:22:45,632 --> 00:22:46,933 Is that when He told you about the train? 542 00:22:47,033 --> 00:22:50,202 That's not exactly what He said. 543 00:22:50,302 --> 00:22:52,805 What did He say? 544 00:22:52,905 --> 00:22:54,941 Metal. 545 00:22:55,041 --> 00:22:57,243 Metal was His message. 546 00:22:57,343 --> 00:22:59,145 ** 547 00:22:59,245 --> 00:23:03,315 I couldn't put my hands on my baby. 548 00:23:03,416 --> 00:23:07,153 Not like God wanted me to, not like that. 549 00:23:07,253 --> 00:23:11,724 Not cut him and stab him and beat him to death. 550 00:23:11,824 --> 00:23:15,995 But when I stopped fighting, I knew. 551 00:23:16,095 --> 00:23:18,931 (metal screeches) 552 00:23:19,031 --> 00:23:20,800 (train rumbling) 553 00:23:20,900 --> 00:23:24,804 I stepped out in faith. 554 00:23:24,904 --> 00:23:29,175 The train would fulfill him. 555 00:23:29,275 --> 00:23:31,744 It would be quick. 556 00:23:31,844 --> 00:23:34,581 It would be enough. 557 00:23:34,681 --> 00:23:37,083 ** 558 00:23:37,183 --> 00:23:41,988 ** 559 00:23:50,162 --> 00:23:52,599 (sighs) 560 00:23:56,969 --> 00:24:00,006 People thought I was crazy, too. 561 00:24:00,106 --> 00:24:02,642 I mean, not Amy Debbs crazy, 562 00:24:02,742 --> 00:24:06,345 but they washed their hands of me pretty much. 563 00:24:08,014 --> 00:24:10,650 I guess I was glad when the brass shipped me 564 00:24:10,750 --> 00:24:14,621 to Fremont after I, uh... 565 00:24:15,522 --> 00:24:17,456 I told myself, hey, that's just what I needed 566 00:24:17,557 --> 00:24:19,792 was a clean slate, you know? 567 00:24:19,892 --> 00:24:21,360 But that didn't fucking last. 568 00:24:21,460 --> 00:24:23,663 I mean, Winter for me 569 00:24:23,763 --> 00:24:25,832 is like the princess and the fucking pea. 570 00:24:25,932 --> 00:24:26,799 No matter what I do, 571 00:24:26,899 --> 00:24:29,869 that piece of shit keeps me awake. 572 00:24:32,672 --> 00:24:35,341 Why do you think that is? 573 00:24:35,441 --> 00:24:37,376 I mean, to that extent. Is it Travis? 574 00:24:37,476 --> 00:24:40,647 -'Cause you and he were -- -What? 575 00:24:40,747 --> 00:24:41,881 Us two were what? 576 00:24:45,251 --> 00:24:47,019 Forget it. 577 00:24:52,925 --> 00:24:55,261 You know, we weren't -- if that's what you were thinking. 578 00:24:55,361 --> 00:24:58,598 It wasn't like that. I've only been with women. 579 00:24:58,698 --> 00:25:03,035 Almost got married, even, twice. 580 00:25:03,135 --> 00:25:06,238 I took the road I-I knew, and once I got going, 581 00:25:06,338 --> 00:25:07,740 I ended up where it took me. 582 00:25:07,840 --> 00:25:10,042 Till Travis. 583 00:25:10,142 --> 00:25:11,277 You know, and I told myself 584 00:25:11,377 --> 00:25:13,045 it was -- it was just a mentor thing, 585 00:25:13,145 --> 00:25:15,948 a parental, like a -- like a dad and a son. 586 00:25:16,048 --> 00:25:18,618 You know, but inside, 587 00:25:18,718 --> 00:25:21,453 it all just felt like a load of shit. 588 00:25:21,554 --> 00:25:24,791 Everything felt like shit. 589 00:25:24,891 --> 00:25:28,027 And so, you know, one day, I just -- 590 00:25:28,127 --> 00:25:30,196 I just stopped fighting, and then I said to myself, 591 00:25:30,296 --> 00:25:32,899 I'm gonna just feel what I'm feeling. 592 00:25:32,999 --> 00:25:37,804 Secretly to myself. 593 00:25:37,904 --> 00:25:39,906 In case I was wrong. 594 00:25:40,006 --> 00:25:42,474 ** 595 00:25:42,575 --> 00:25:44,276 And what happened? 596 00:25:44,376 --> 00:25:46,979 (scoffs) 597 00:25:47,079 --> 00:25:49,582 I guess that's what happiness is. 598 00:25:49,682 --> 00:25:54,286 Got a glimpse of it. 599 00:25:54,386 --> 00:25:56,889 ** 600 00:25:56,989 --> 00:25:58,991 (indistinct conversations) 601 00:25:59,091 --> 00:26:04,731 ** 602 00:26:04,831 --> 00:26:07,834 ** 603 00:26:07,934 --> 00:26:13,740 ** 604 00:26:13,840 --> 00:26:19,245 ** 605 00:26:19,345 --> 00:26:20,947 D: Barrio Cazadores. 606 00:26:21,047 --> 00:26:24,617 Your tattoo, the hunters, Tijuana gang. 607 00:26:24,717 --> 00:26:27,586 You affiliated? 608 00:26:27,687 --> 00:26:29,255 It was another life. 609 00:26:29,355 --> 00:26:30,757 ** 610 00:26:30,857 --> 00:26:32,792 Is that where your baby's daddy is? 611 00:26:32,892 --> 00:26:35,862 You don't take girls out a whole lot, do you? 612 00:26:35,962 --> 00:26:37,296 No. 613 00:26:37,396 --> 00:26:39,198 ** 614 00:26:39,298 --> 00:26:41,300 How'd you become a murderer's maid? 615 00:26:41,400 --> 00:26:43,803 I was a coyote. 616 00:26:43,903 --> 00:26:47,106 Just outside of Tecate. 617 00:26:47,206 --> 00:26:49,876 I would take people 10, 12, 14 hours, on foot, 618 00:26:49,976 --> 00:26:51,377 through the mountains, until they were picked up 619 00:26:51,477 --> 00:26:53,179 outside Highway 94. 620 00:26:53,279 --> 00:26:55,314 I'd smuggled so many other people across the border, 621 00:26:55,414 --> 00:26:57,684 I figured I could go ahead and smuggle myself over. 622 00:26:57,784 --> 00:27:00,152 And I did. 623 00:27:00,252 --> 00:27:01,721 I stayed with a friend. 624 00:27:01,821 --> 00:27:04,857 She would clean houses under the table. 625 00:27:04,957 --> 00:27:06,192 And she couldn't make all of her jobs, 626 00:27:06,292 --> 00:27:08,695 so I started to fill in for her, 627 00:27:08,795 --> 00:27:14,834 and that's how I met Mr. Ryan's assistant, Lyndsay. 628 00:27:14,934 --> 00:27:16,035 So, what's it like? 629 00:27:16,135 --> 00:27:19,138 It's pretty boring. 630 00:27:19,238 --> 00:27:22,174 There's cleaning, errands, 631 00:27:22,274 --> 00:27:28,414 and Mr. Ryan has talked to me maybe twice. 632 00:27:28,514 --> 00:27:29,749 He talks to himself a lot, though. 633 00:27:29,849 --> 00:27:31,217 What do you mean, like, he mumbles? 634 00:27:31,317 --> 00:27:35,087 No, more like full-on conversations. 635 00:27:35,187 --> 00:27:36,889 With who? Nobody. 636 00:27:36,989 --> 00:27:38,657 There's nobody there. 637 00:27:38,758 --> 00:27:41,894 It's passionate, or he just yell, or maybe he's crying, 638 00:27:41,994 --> 00:27:43,195 but there's nobody there. 639 00:27:43,295 --> 00:27:45,531 (chuckling) Mr. Ryan is not all there. 640 00:27:45,631 --> 00:27:48,835 He has his ways. 641 00:27:48,935 --> 00:27:51,570 He hates certain plates, so a salad plate he hates. (chuckles) 642 00:27:51,670 --> 00:27:54,073 And he has, you know, this beautiful swimming pool, 643 00:27:54,173 --> 00:27:55,875 but he never uses his swimming pool. 644 00:27:55,975 --> 00:27:57,576 Except maybe one time. 645 00:27:57,676 --> 00:28:00,012 One time a man came over, and he teach him how to swim. 646 00:28:00,112 --> 00:28:02,348 To swim? 647 00:28:02,448 --> 00:28:04,951 LORENA: Mm-hmm, and he's never been in it since. 648 00:28:05,051 --> 00:28:06,719 (chuckles) 649 00:28:06,819 --> 00:28:07,954 You like pie? 650 00:28:09,789 --> 00:28:10,890 I don't like it. 651 00:28:10,990 --> 00:28:12,358 Oh. 652 00:28:12,458 --> 00:28:14,026 I love it. 653 00:28:14,126 --> 00:28:16,729 ** 654 00:28:16,829 --> 00:28:18,030 -Awesome. -(chuckles) 655 00:28:18,130 --> 00:28:20,199 I'm gonna make a quick phone call, 656 00:28:20,299 --> 00:28:21,533 and then let's go get some pie. 657 00:28:21,633 --> 00:28:23,535 ** 658 00:28:23,635 --> 00:28:25,738 (indistinct conversation) 659 00:28:27,473 --> 00:28:28,407 (conversation continues) 660 00:28:28,507 --> 00:28:30,476 (beep) 661 00:28:30,576 --> 00:28:31,744 (woman speaking indistinctly over P.A.) 662 00:28:31,844 --> 00:28:32,979 (sighs) 663 00:28:33,079 --> 00:28:34,380 What is this? 664 00:28:34,480 --> 00:28:36,749 Pretty awesome is what it is. 665 00:28:36,849 --> 00:28:40,219 Ryan Winter replaced the whole unit's computers for free. 666 00:28:40,319 --> 00:28:42,254 Baller. 667 00:28:42,354 --> 00:28:45,157 When? Why -- Why would he do that? 668 00:28:45,257 --> 00:28:46,658 Apparently, he heard someone say 669 00:28:46,759 --> 00:28:49,628 something about our computers being slow and shitty, 670 00:28:49,728 --> 00:28:52,631 and he just, you know, made the call. 671 00:28:52,731 --> 00:28:56,102 No biggie for him. Huge deal for us. 672 00:29:00,239 --> 00:29:01,573 I'm excited, too. 673 00:29:01,673 --> 00:29:03,475 (indistinct conversations) 674 00:29:07,079 --> 00:29:09,181 (conversations continue) 675 00:29:12,018 --> 00:29:13,820 (bag thumps lightly) 676 00:29:13,920 --> 00:29:15,521 (keys rattle) 677 00:29:24,931 --> 00:29:28,167 ** 678 00:29:28,267 --> 00:29:30,636 (cellphone dialing) 679 00:29:30,736 --> 00:29:32,671 ** 680 00:29:32,771 --> 00:29:34,306 (line ringing) 681 00:29:34,406 --> 00:29:37,643 (cellphone chiming) 682 00:29:37,743 --> 00:29:41,547 ** 683 00:29:41,647 --> 00:29:42,982 (chiming stops) 684 00:29:43,082 --> 00:29:45,051 ** 685 00:29:45,151 --> 00:29:46,452 Hey? 686 00:29:46,552 --> 00:29:48,220 CHANCE: Hi. 687 00:29:48,320 --> 00:29:51,223 Listen, I have to cancel group tonight. 688 00:29:51,323 --> 00:29:53,893 I got a family issue. 689 00:29:53,993 --> 00:29:57,163 Wondered if you wanted to get together this afternoon. 690 00:29:57,263 --> 00:29:58,630 The two of us? 691 00:29:58,730 --> 00:30:01,968 If that works for you. 692 00:30:02,068 --> 00:30:04,470 I wanted to continue with what we discussed the other day, 693 00:30:04,570 --> 00:30:06,305 but I don't want too much time 694 00:30:06,405 --> 00:30:09,175 to -- to lapse between sessions. 695 00:30:09,275 --> 00:30:11,010 Do you like to walk? 696 00:30:11,110 --> 00:30:14,746 Sure. What did you have in mind? 697 00:30:14,847 --> 00:30:16,682 Beach. 698 00:30:16,782 --> 00:30:19,351 Dune Point, just north of the old baths -- 699 00:30:19,451 --> 00:30:20,686 you know it? 700 00:30:20,786 --> 00:30:22,721 I know of it. 701 00:30:22,821 --> 00:30:25,257 Great. So, in about an hour? 702 00:30:25,357 --> 00:30:27,593 (mouse clicking) 703 00:30:27,693 --> 00:30:30,897 Sure, fine. 704 00:30:30,997 --> 00:30:33,599 I hope everything's okay? 705 00:30:33,699 --> 00:30:34,867 ** 706 00:30:34,967 --> 00:30:36,402 What do you mean? 707 00:30:36,502 --> 00:30:38,037 ** 708 00:30:38,137 --> 00:30:41,840 With your family, with your family issue, I hope it's okay. 709 00:30:41,941 --> 00:30:43,709 ** 710 00:30:43,809 --> 00:30:45,878 Thank you for saying so. 711 00:30:45,978 --> 00:30:47,113 ** 712 00:30:47,213 --> 00:30:49,215 You're welcome. 713 00:30:49,315 --> 00:30:54,686 ** 714 00:30:54,786 --> 00:30:57,056 (cellphone clatters) 715 00:30:57,156 --> 00:30:58,958 ** 716 00:30:59,058 --> 00:31:05,531 ** 717 00:31:05,631 --> 00:31:11,971 ** 718 00:31:12,071 --> 00:31:14,573 ** 719 00:31:14,673 --> 00:31:19,478 ** 720 00:31:19,578 --> 00:31:23,315 ** 721 00:31:23,415 --> 00:31:25,551 (water lapping) 722 00:31:25,651 --> 00:31:30,456 (waves crashing) 723 00:31:30,556 --> 00:31:34,260 ** 724 00:31:34,360 --> 00:31:36,262 (highlighter cap clicks) 725 00:31:36,362 --> 00:31:42,001 ** 726 00:31:42,101 --> 00:31:44,136 ** 727 00:31:44,236 --> 00:31:46,838 (indistinct conversations) 728 00:31:46,939 --> 00:31:49,175 (cellphone ringing) 729 00:31:52,344 --> 00:31:55,081 CARL: D? Is that you, D? 730 00:31:55,181 --> 00:31:56,815 You're calling my phone, Carl. 731 00:31:56,915 --> 00:31:58,350 (breathes deeply) 732 00:31:58,450 --> 00:32:01,787 I need you to come, son. 733 00:32:01,887 --> 00:32:04,756 There's, um -- There's, um, trouble brewing. 734 00:32:04,856 --> 00:32:07,359 I bought a lot of drinks for a lot of people. 735 00:32:07,459 --> 00:32:08,460 Bring money now. 736 00:32:08,560 --> 00:32:09,461 Where are you? 737 00:32:09,561 --> 00:32:11,130 ** 738 00:32:11,230 --> 00:32:13,799 I'm at the Admiral's Arms. 739 00:32:13,899 --> 00:32:17,169 ** 740 00:32:17,269 --> 00:32:19,471 Quickly, D. 741 00:32:19,571 --> 00:32:21,140 Coming. 742 00:32:21,240 --> 00:32:22,208 S.O.S. from a friend. 743 00:32:22,308 --> 00:32:23,809 -You game? -Okay. 744 00:32:23,909 --> 00:32:25,144 (indistinct conversation) 745 00:32:25,244 --> 00:32:28,847 (waves crashing) 746 00:32:30,482 --> 00:32:33,352 WINTER: How do I cope? 747 00:32:33,452 --> 00:32:37,856 You said that after you saw the boy being thrown 748 00:32:37,956 --> 00:32:40,292 in front of the train, you found ways to cope. 749 00:32:40,392 --> 00:32:42,161 I just wondered what they were. 750 00:32:43,529 --> 00:32:45,031 (birds calling) 751 00:32:45,131 --> 00:32:48,534 Back then, it was school. 752 00:32:48,634 --> 00:32:51,803 How about now? 753 00:32:51,903 --> 00:32:54,506 Work. I run sometimes. 754 00:32:54,606 --> 00:32:56,475 Nothing too unusual. 755 00:32:56,575 --> 00:32:58,744 (birds calling) 756 00:32:58,844 --> 00:33:00,412 For me, it was work, 757 00:33:00,512 --> 00:33:03,082 and then drink when work wasn't enough. 758 00:33:06,052 --> 00:33:08,054 What are you talking about? 759 00:33:08,154 --> 00:33:11,223 I had a fall. 760 00:33:11,323 --> 00:33:15,394 Actually, in a place not very different from this. 761 00:33:16,662 --> 00:33:17,996 You fell off a cliff? 762 00:33:18,097 --> 00:33:19,265 Uh-huh. 763 00:33:19,365 --> 00:33:21,167 How? 764 00:33:21,267 --> 00:33:22,834 (birds calling) 765 00:33:22,934 --> 00:33:24,236 One moment I was walking. 766 00:33:24,336 --> 00:33:26,538 Next thing I knew, I woke up in an ambulance 767 00:33:26,638 --> 00:33:28,607 with my head in a cage. 768 00:33:28,707 --> 00:33:32,578 My PET scan was not very dissimilar to yours. 769 00:33:32,678 --> 00:33:34,546 Well, way to bury a lead, Doc. 770 00:33:34,646 --> 00:33:37,083 Yeah, well, protocol is, 771 00:33:37,183 --> 00:33:40,852 we're not supposed to share personal details with patients. 772 00:33:42,188 --> 00:33:45,124 So, did you feel different after? 773 00:33:45,224 --> 00:33:48,194 You mean besides the physical effects? 774 00:33:48,294 --> 00:33:50,296 Double vision, memory loss? 775 00:33:52,598 --> 00:33:54,766 I find I am more prone to anger. 776 00:33:54,866 --> 00:33:57,803 And it has been pointed out to me 777 00:33:57,903 --> 00:34:00,272 that I have grown reckless. 778 00:34:00,372 --> 00:34:06,545 Okay, okay, but you -- you must do something to -- to cope. 779 00:34:06,645 --> 00:34:08,147 Not really. 780 00:34:09,648 --> 00:34:10,982 I just embrace. 781 00:34:11,083 --> 00:34:12,118 (wave crashes) 782 00:34:12,218 --> 00:34:15,321 Whoa! 783 00:34:16,288 --> 00:34:19,558 I think the tide's coming in. 784 00:34:19,658 --> 00:34:22,094 So, I mean, what the fuck are we supposed to do now? 785 00:34:22,194 --> 00:34:23,795 Wait it out? 786 00:34:23,895 --> 00:34:26,665 Not with this swell. 787 00:34:26,765 --> 00:34:30,136 This whole place is gonna be under water very soon. 788 00:34:30,236 --> 00:34:31,237 I hope you can swim. 789 00:34:31,337 --> 00:34:32,738 You're kidding me. 790 00:34:32,838 --> 00:34:34,640 (laughs) 791 00:34:34,740 --> 00:34:35,841 That's not funny. 792 00:34:35,941 --> 00:34:36,908 I -- It's -- 793 00:34:37,008 --> 00:34:38,244 That water is freezing! 794 00:34:38,344 --> 00:34:39,611 It's 56. 795 00:34:39,711 --> 00:34:44,250 I caught the surf report driving in. 796 00:34:44,350 --> 00:34:45,984 Just never thought to actually check and see 797 00:34:46,084 --> 00:34:47,119 what the tide was doing. 798 00:34:47,219 --> 00:34:48,687 It never occurred to me. Sorry. 799 00:34:48,787 --> 00:34:49,855 But you can swim, right? 800 00:34:49,955 --> 00:34:52,758 Yeah, I can swim, but I'm not going in there! Okay. 801 00:34:52,858 --> 00:34:54,526 Come on! 802 00:34:54,626 --> 00:34:56,862 This is just, like, five minutes. It's... 803 00:34:56,962 --> 00:34:59,198 Go out around the point, swells from the north, 804 00:34:59,298 --> 00:35:00,832 that'll help, easy. 805 00:35:00,932 --> 00:35:02,834 ** 806 00:35:02,934 --> 00:35:04,002 You know, I told Dr. Clayton 807 00:35:04,102 --> 00:35:07,806 we should have a sign emblazoned over the door saying, 808 00:35:07,906 --> 00:35:09,675 "Life begins when things go wrong." 809 00:35:09,775 --> 00:35:12,811 ** 810 00:35:12,911 --> 00:35:17,516 ** 811 00:35:17,616 --> 00:35:22,888 ** 812 00:35:25,957 --> 00:35:28,960 ** 813 00:35:29,060 --> 00:35:31,963 (coughing) 814 00:35:32,063 --> 00:35:33,232 (gasps) 815 00:35:33,332 --> 00:35:34,733 ** 816 00:35:34,833 --> 00:35:35,901 (panting) 817 00:35:36,001 --> 00:35:38,304 (gurgling) 818 00:35:38,404 --> 00:35:40,239 (grunts) Eldon! 819 00:35:40,339 --> 00:35:41,873 ** 820 00:35:41,973 --> 00:35:43,875 Eldon! 821 00:35:43,975 --> 00:35:46,645 ** 822 00:35:46,745 --> 00:35:49,581 (gasps) 823 00:35:49,681 --> 00:35:50,982 ** 824 00:35:51,082 --> 00:35:56,087 ** 825 00:35:56,188 --> 00:35:59,591 ** 826 00:35:59,691 --> 00:36:02,060 ** 827 00:36:02,160 --> 00:36:07,098 ** 828 00:36:07,199 --> 00:36:08,200 (coughing) 829 00:36:08,300 --> 00:36:09,901 (gasping) 830 00:36:10,001 --> 00:36:12,738 ** 831 00:36:12,838 --> 00:36:16,942 ** 832 00:36:17,042 --> 00:36:18,176 (gasps) 833 00:36:18,277 --> 00:36:21,046 ** 834 00:36:21,146 --> 00:36:22,414 (coughing) 835 00:36:22,514 --> 00:36:23,549 ** 836 00:36:23,649 --> 00:36:24,683 (gasps) 837 00:36:24,783 --> 00:36:26,685 ** 838 00:36:26,785 --> 00:36:32,291 ** 839 00:36:32,391 --> 00:36:34,726 And who, may I ask, 840 00:36:34,826 --> 00:36:39,765 is this lovely young lady who came to my rescue? 841 00:36:39,865 --> 00:36:40,766 Lorena. 842 00:36:40,866 --> 00:36:44,903 -Lorena. -Why this, and why today? 843 00:36:45,003 --> 00:36:48,407 Have something to do with that new boyfriend of yours? 844 00:36:48,507 --> 00:36:51,277 The guy I saw you talking to in the alley? 845 00:36:51,377 --> 00:36:52,378 All amped up? 846 00:36:52,478 --> 00:36:53,545 (scoffs) 847 00:36:54,980 --> 00:36:59,117 That was my son, Alvin. 848 00:36:59,217 --> 00:37:00,419 My son. 849 00:37:00,519 --> 00:37:02,788 The last time I saw him, he was just a little boy. 850 00:37:02,888 --> 00:37:04,956 What happened? 851 00:37:05,056 --> 00:37:07,225 I'm gay is what happened. 852 00:37:07,326 --> 00:37:10,562 Carl came out, they cut him off -- his family. 853 00:37:10,662 --> 00:37:13,765 Wanted him out of their lives and said so. 854 00:37:13,865 --> 00:37:14,766 She's sick and dying, 855 00:37:14,866 --> 00:37:18,304 Olivia, my wife. 856 00:37:18,404 --> 00:37:19,505 Once. 857 00:37:19,605 --> 00:37:22,741 Had insurance from a job, 858 00:37:22,841 --> 00:37:25,344 but the out-of-pocket expenses crippled them. 859 00:37:25,444 --> 00:37:27,613 That's what the fucking stolen Mayan shit is about? 860 00:37:27,713 --> 00:37:29,481 They needed my help, D. 861 00:37:29,581 --> 00:37:32,351 ** 862 00:37:32,451 --> 00:37:35,954 They're so broke, it forced them to come to me. 863 00:37:36,054 --> 00:37:38,624 You risked your reputation, your business. 864 00:37:38,724 --> 00:37:40,659 No more than what you and I have done together. 865 00:37:40,759 --> 00:37:41,827 (taps) 866 00:37:41,927 --> 00:37:43,495 Yeah, it is. 867 00:37:43,595 --> 00:37:44,996 We may fudge names and dates, 868 00:37:45,096 --> 00:37:46,532 but the product is all top drawer. 869 00:37:46,632 --> 00:37:51,337 You start letting in hot shit, third-party assholes, 870 00:37:51,437 --> 00:37:53,505 risk it all for what? 871 00:37:53,605 --> 00:37:55,641 People who dumped you out like a dirty ashtray. 872 00:37:55,741 --> 00:37:57,008 He's my son, D. 873 00:37:57,108 --> 00:38:03,315 ** 874 00:38:03,415 --> 00:38:06,151 My first son. 875 00:38:06,251 --> 00:38:09,621 ** 876 00:38:09,721 --> 00:38:13,859 WINTER: When I left here today, I had no idea what would -- 877 00:38:13,959 --> 00:38:15,494 (birds calling) 878 00:38:15,594 --> 00:38:17,996 I almost didn't come back here. 879 00:38:18,096 --> 00:38:19,998 (sniffles) 880 00:38:20,098 --> 00:38:24,570 I almost died. 881 00:38:24,670 --> 00:38:25,904 You had a limit experience. 882 00:38:26,004 --> 00:38:28,073 That's what philosophers call it. 883 00:38:32,143 --> 00:38:34,012 It's a near-death experience, 884 00:38:34,112 --> 00:38:37,916 that point of living that lies as close as possible 885 00:38:38,016 --> 00:38:39,985 to the impossibility of living. 886 00:38:41,853 --> 00:38:43,021 It can give you knowledge about yourself 887 00:38:43,121 --> 00:38:45,424 that you can't get any other way. 888 00:38:45,524 --> 00:38:47,926 Whether you like it or not. 889 00:38:48,026 --> 00:38:50,028 Like when you fell off that cliff. 890 00:38:50,128 --> 00:38:51,096 Yeah. 891 00:38:51,196 --> 00:38:54,666 Going beyond without actually going beyond. 892 00:38:54,766 --> 00:38:56,735 How'd you feel? 893 00:38:56,835 --> 00:39:00,238 You saved me. 894 00:39:00,338 --> 00:39:02,708 You would have done the same. 895 00:39:02,808 --> 00:39:07,278 I would like to think so. 896 00:39:07,379 --> 00:39:11,282 But I don't think so. 897 00:39:13,685 --> 00:39:17,689 I've done some things that I know are bad, 898 00:39:17,789 --> 00:39:21,359 and I don't think I would take them back, even if I could. 899 00:39:24,630 --> 00:39:27,699 ** 900 00:39:27,799 --> 00:39:30,936 How do you feel about saving my life now? 901 00:39:31,036 --> 00:39:33,138 ** 902 00:39:33,238 --> 00:39:36,975 Maybe you should tell me about those bad things. 903 00:39:37,075 --> 00:39:40,879 Because you can't decide how you feel unless you know? 904 00:39:40,979 --> 00:39:46,284 ** 905 00:39:46,384 --> 00:39:48,787 Fine. 906 00:39:48,887 --> 00:39:52,458 Tell me something else, then. 907 00:39:52,558 --> 00:39:57,295 Something else that I've wondered for a long time. 908 00:39:57,395 --> 00:39:58,930 You remember the story that I told you 909 00:39:59,030 --> 00:40:02,000 about the boy on the train platform? 910 00:40:02,100 --> 00:40:06,472 If I hadn't seen that, 911 00:40:06,572 --> 00:40:09,741 I mean, if I hadn't had to explain that to myself, 912 00:40:09,841 --> 00:40:10,976 like you said, 913 00:40:11,076 --> 00:40:15,914 would I be the person that I am now? 914 00:40:16,014 --> 00:40:17,516 Would I do the things I do now, 915 00:40:17,616 --> 00:40:20,686 be whatever it is I am, 916 00:40:20,786 --> 00:40:23,789 if I hadn't been there? 917 00:40:23,889 --> 00:40:25,657 ** 918 00:40:25,757 --> 00:40:27,793 You want to know what I think? 919 00:40:27,893 --> 00:40:29,661 (sniffs) 920 00:40:29,761 --> 00:40:33,098 I think it might be the reason why we met. 921 00:40:33,198 --> 00:40:37,035 I'll tell you what I think when you tell me the whole story. 922 00:40:37,135 --> 00:40:40,205 ** 923 00:40:40,305 --> 00:40:41,707 I don't follow. 924 00:40:41,807 --> 00:40:44,342 The whole story about why you were there. 925 00:40:44,442 --> 00:40:47,112 Who you were there. 926 00:40:47,212 --> 00:40:49,314 That woman on the platform was your mother. 927 00:40:49,414 --> 00:40:51,282 The boy was you. 928 00:40:51,382 --> 00:40:53,151 I knew that when you were telling it to me. 929 00:40:53,251 --> 00:40:54,620 I could hear it in your voice. 930 00:40:54,720 --> 00:40:56,221 You were testing me to see if I could 931 00:40:56,321 --> 00:40:59,825 really hear you, and I can. 932 00:40:59,925 --> 00:41:01,993 That's why I saved you. 933 00:41:02,093 --> 00:41:05,463 And that's the reason we met. 934 00:41:05,564 --> 00:41:08,199 I still need you to trust me, and you don't. 935 00:41:08,299 --> 00:41:09,835 Until you do, 936 00:41:09,935 --> 00:41:12,403 I don't think we can keep doing this. 937 00:41:12,504 --> 00:41:13,572 (sighs) 938 00:41:13,672 --> 00:41:15,473 Don't forget to have someone go to the beach, 939 00:41:15,574 --> 00:41:17,976 pick up your car. 940 00:41:18,076 --> 00:41:20,812 ** 941 00:41:20,912 --> 00:41:25,216 ** 942 00:41:25,316 --> 00:41:30,522 ** 943 00:41:30,622 --> 00:41:32,257 WINTER: (screams) (glass shatters) 944 00:41:32,357 --> 00:41:33,659 ** 945 00:41:33,759 --> 00:41:35,260 (dog barking in distance) 946 00:41:38,597 --> 00:41:40,365 LYNDSAY: I filed it this afternoon. 947 00:41:40,465 --> 00:41:42,033 They promised to look into it further. 948 00:41:42,133 --> 00:41:45,070 The sergeant seemed to already know something 949 00:41:45,170 --> 00:41:47,939 about your history with Detective Hynes. 950 00:41:48,039 --> 00:41:50,241 (sighs) 951 00:41:51,509 --> 00:41:54,212 Why did you do this? 952 00:41:54,312 --> 00:41:55,380 We had to. 953 00:41:55,480 --> 00:41:57,683 No, I said -- I said not right now. 954 00:41:57,783 --> 00:42:00,552 I said I wanted to think about it. 955 00:42:00,652 --> 00:42:02,387 No. Ryan. 956 00:42:02,487 --> 00:42:04,455 I'm sorry. 957 00:42:04,556 --> 00:42:05,557 (sighs) 958 00:42:05,657 --> 00:42:08,393 (chuckling) No. No, no. 959 00:42:08,493 --> 00:42:10,528 Oh, God. But if -- 960 00:42:10,629 --> 00:42:14,465 Ryan, if you could see you the way that I see you. 961 00:42:14,566 --> 00:42:18,970 How upset you are by all this, how hurt. 962 00:42:19,070 --> 00:42:20,606 I couldn't wait. 963 00:42:20,706 --> 00:42:23,241 I couldn't let him do that to you again. 964 00:42:23,341 --> 00:42:27,245 You are too good of a man to have to deal with this. 965 00:42:27,345 --> 00:42:29,447 I had to do something. 966 00:42:29,547 --> 00:42:30,616 No. 967 00:42:30,716 --> 00:42:32,984 Because we're a team. Aren't we? 968 00:42:33,084 --> 00:42:34,586 Aah! 969 00:42:34,686 --> 00:42:36,487 (grunts) 970 00:42:36,588 --> 00:42:39,825 (whimpers) 971 00:42:41,092 --> 00:42:43,428 (sighs) 972 00:42:43,528 --> 00:42:49,467 ** 973 00:42:49,567 --> 00:42:51,002 (sobs) 974 00:42:51,102 --> 00:42:57,508 ** 975 00:42:57,609 --> 00:42:59,410 I'm sorry. 976 00:42:59,510 --> 00:43:00,846 I'm sorry. 977 00:43:00,946 --> 00:43:02,614 You are not her. 978 00:43:02,714 --> 00:43:05,116 You will never be her. 979 00:43:05,216 --> 00:43:06,417 ** 980 00:43:06,517 --> 00:43:08,086 Be glad about that. 981 00:43:08,186 --> 00:43:09,487 ** 982 00:43:09,587 --> 00:43:11,089 I am. 983 00:43:11,189 --> 00:43:13,859 ** 984 00:43:13,959 --> 00:43:19,765 ** 985 00:43:19,865 --> 00:43:22,333 (engine starts) 986 00:43:22,433 --> 00:43:28,807 ** 987 00:43:28,907 --> 00:43:30,008 (tires screech) 988 00:43:30,108 --> 00:43:34,145 ** 989 00:43:34,245 --> 00:43:36,682 CHANCE: Mrs. Atkinson. Uh, I'm sorry. 990 00:43:36,782 --> 00:43:39,317 I should have called ahead, but I, uh... 991 00:43:39,417 --> 00:43:41,552 I was hoping maybe we could talk. 992 00:43:41,653 --> 00:43:43,054 (breathes deeply) 993 00:43:43,154 --> 00:43:45,356 Uh, look, my husband's not here, okay? 994 00:43:45,456 --> 00:43:46,557 He's at a work dinner. 995 00:43:46,658 --> 00:43:49,728 Oh. 996 00:43:49,828 --> 00:43:54,900 Okay, well, I can talk out here if it's more comfortable. 997 00:43:55,000 --> 00:43:56,902 How's Pepper? 998 00:43:57,002 --> 00:44:00,371 (insects chirping) 999 00:44:00,471 --> 00:44:02,007 She's asleep. 1000 00:44:02,107 --> 00:44:05,844 I was just wondering if you and your husband would be open 1001 00:44:05,944 --> 00:44:07,512 to sitting down with Nicole's mother and me 1002 00:44:07,612 --> 00:44:09,480 and just talking about what happened. 1003 00:44:10,916 --> 00:44:11,983 Civilly. 1004 00:44:12,083 --> 00:44:13,251 (dog barking in distance) 1005 00:44:13,351 --> 00:44:16,321 (scoffs) 1006 00:44:16,421 --> 00:44:19,190 No offense, but don't you think the time for that 1007 00:44:19,290 --> 00:44:21,026 would have been the moment before your daughter 1008 00:44:21,126 --> 00:44:22,894 decided to break my -- my daughter's nose? 1009 00:44:22,994 --> 00:44:28,333 Pepper humiliated Nicole in front of the entire school. 1010 00:44:28,433 --> 00:44:30,902 For no other reason apparently than a sadistic enjoyment 1011 00:44:31,002 --> 00:44:34,873 of her own power and moral bankruptcy. 1012 00:44:34,973 --> 00:44:37,675 A less charitable person might call your daughter broken. 1013 00:44:37,776 --> 00:44:39,911 Wow, this is what you call civility, huh? 1014 00:44:40,011 --> 00:44:41,679 You know how many kids kill themselves 1015 00:44:41,780 --> 00:44:43,514 over things like this? 1016 00:44:43,614 --> 00:44:45,717 I'm sure you could imagine an alternate landscape 1017 00:44:45,817 --> 00:44:47,786 in which Nicole takes a handful of pills instead. 1018 00:44:47,886 --> 00:44:50,455 I don't know why Pepper did this, okay? 1019 00:44:50,555 --> 00:44:52,623 I have no idea. Maybe it's me, you know. 1020 00:44:52,724 --> 00:44:54,425 Maybe I'm -- I'm the reason. 1021 00:44:54,525 --> 00:44:57,896 Maybe I'm the broken one. 1022 00:44:57,996 --> 00:44:59,364 I don't really care what I am anyway 1023 00:44:59,464 --> 00:45:04,936 because I know that she knows that I've got her back. 1024 00:45:05,036 --> 00:45:07,105 ** 1025 00:45:07,205 --> 00:45:08,539 Want to try it? 1026 00:45:08,639 --> 00:45:10,375 I'm -- No, I'm good. Thank you. 1027 00:45:10,475 --> 00:45:11,709 (laughs) 1028 00:45:11,810 --> 00:45:13,578 (indistinct conversations) 1029 00:45:13,678 --> 00:45:14,913 What's wrong? 1030 00:45:15,013 --> 00:45:16,915 Listen. 1031 00:45:17,015 --> 00:45:19,885 There's something I-I want to talk to you about. 1032 00:45:19,985 --> 00:45:22,287 (conversations continue) 1033 00:45:22,387 --> 00:45:24,756 It's something I've been putting off for a long time. 1034 00:45:24,856 --> 00:45:26,892 (sighs) 1035 00:45:26,992 --> 00:45:28,426 But so much has happened. 1036 00:45:28,526 --> 00:45:30,996 It's time you heard the truth. 1037 00:45:31,096 --> 00:45:33,664 About what? You're -- You're kind of scaring me. 1038 00:45:35,266 --> 00:45:38,236 The reason -- 1039 00:45:38,336 --> 00:45:41,106 I think the reason that, uh... 1040 00:45:41,206 --> 00:45:46,912 frightening things feel good to you, 1041 00:45:47,012 --> 00:45:50,115 I think it's because I had a version of that myself. 1042 00:45:51,349 --> 00:45:52,984 What are you talking about? 1043 00:45:53,084 --> 00:45:55,320 When I was in my 20s, 1044 00:45:55,420 --> 00:45:59,858 I was doing my residency, and, uh, I met a girl. 1045 00:45:59,958 --> 00:46:03,494 And it was, uh -- it was serious. 1046 00:46:03,594 --> 00:46:07,465 I thought it was serious. And she broke it off. 1047 00:46:07,565 --> 00:46:11,502 I didn't take it well. I did not take it well. 1048 00:46:11,602 --> 00:46:15,673 And she moved to San Diego, and I followed. 1049 00:46:15,773 --> 00:46:20,011 I followed, and I followed, and, uh... 1050 00:46:20,111 --> 00:46:22,447 She took out a restraining order. 1051 00:46:24,983 --> 00:46:27,285 Which I broke, I violated. 1052 00:46:29,654 --> 00:46:32,223 Many times. 1053 00:46:32,323 --> 00:46:35,293 So, eventually, I was arrested. 1054 00:46:36,561 --> 00:46:38,063 And I was hospitalized, 1055 00:46:38,163 --> 00:46:41,799 and I was on suicide watch for 28 days. 1056 00:46:41,900 --> 00:46:46,404 ** 1057 00:46:46,504 --> 00:46:49,340 I could just feel my life unravel. 1058 00:46:49,440 --> 00:46:52,643 And I...was powerless to stop it. 1059 00:46:52,743 --> 00:46:56,747 ** 1060 00:46:56,848 --> 00:46:59,184 And then, when I got out, I had no money for med school. 1061 00:46:59,284 --> 00:47:03,154 I had -- I had nothing left. 1062 00:47:03,254 --> 00:47:06,892 ** 1063 00:47:06,992 --> 00:47:10,561 So, what are we? 1064 00:47:10,661 --> 00:47:15,066 I mean, is it some kind of brain disease? 1065 00:47:15,166 --> 00:47:18,769 No, it's, uh... 1066 00:47:18,870 --> 00:47:19,938 (breathes sharply) 1067 00:47:20,038 --> 00:47:24,943 It's a propensity to compulsion. 1068 00:47:25,043 --> 00:47:28,013 Think of it as a genetic predisposition. 1069 00:47:28,113 --> 00:47:30,081 To being fucked up? 1070 00:47:31,249 --> 00:47:33,284 Nic, it's -- Does Mom know? 1071 00:47:33,384 --> 00:47:34,285 (sighs) 1072 00:47:35,320 --> 00:47:35,553 About what happened, about everything you said? 1073 00:47:36,354 --> 00:47:37,788 No, she does not know any of this. 1074 00:47:37,889 --> 00:47:40,191 Oh, my God. 1075 00:47:40,291 --> 00:47:41,759 Here I've been thinking I'm crazy, 1076 00:47:41,859 --> 00:47:43,561 and now you're telling me I am. 1077 00:47:43,661 --> 00:47:44,896 No, you're not. That's what I'm saying. 1078 00:47:44,996 --> 00:47:48,699 You're not crazy. We are not crazy. 1079 00:47:48,799 --> 00:47:49,767 We just -- 1080 00:47:49,867 --> 00:47:51,202 We just have to figure out a way 1081 00:47:51,302 --> 00:47:54,439 to make this work for us and not against us. 1082 00:47:54,539 --> 00:47:57,108 You have to learn how to recognize the triggers 1083 00:47:57,208 --> 00:47:58,977 and how not to act on them. 1084 00:47:59,077 --> 00:48:00,912 Trust me. Why? 1085 00:48:01,012 --> 00:48:03,581 You didn't trust me. 1086 00:48:03,681 --> 00:48:05,951 Letting me go this long, thinking that it was me, 1087 00:48:06,051 --> 00:48:07,452 that I was nuts. 1088 00:48:07,552 --> 00:48:10,221 Every time you talked to me about what I did, 1089 00:48:10,321 --> 00:48:11,822 you were lying. 1090 00:48:12,991 --> 00:48:15,660 Why? 1091 00:48:15,760 --> 00:48:19,097 I don't know. 1092 00:48:19,197 --> 00:48:21,832 I was reluctant to admit the possible -- I don't know. 1093 00:48:21,933 --> 00:48:23,935 I honestly -- Well, how can you not know? 1094 00:48:24,035 --> 00:48:26,938 Because I -- You're a neuropsychiatrist! 1095 00:48:27,038 --> 00:48:29,107 You should have told me. 1096 00:48:29,207 --> 00:48:31,276 ** 1097 00:48:31,376 --> 00:48:33,244 You should have told me. 1098 00:48:33,344 --> 00:48:36,247 Well, I-I'm telling you now. 1099 00:48:36,347 --> 00:48:38,416 Well, now is too late. 1100 00:48:38,516 --> 00:48:43,454 ** 1101 00:48:43,554 --> 00:48:46,091 HYNES: You call that a fucking plan? 1102 00:48:46,191 --> 00:48:48,526 You trap him on the beach, and you force him to swim, 1103 00:48:48,626 --> 00:48:50,928 and you count on yourself to be able to save his ass? 1104 00:48:51,029 --> 00:48:53,598 Yeah, and he's starting to break. 1105 00:48:53,698 --> 00:48:55,000 It's working. 1106 00:48:55,100 --> 00:48:56,534 Because you knew everything was gonna 1107 00:48:56,634 --> 00:48:57,969 play out just like it did. 1108 00:48:58,069 --> 00:48:59,704 You were sure. 1109 00:48:59,804 --> 00:49:03,808 As opposed to, he drowns, or he pulls you under, 1110 00:49:03,908 --> 00:49:08,013 and you both drown, or -- or you drown, and he makes it, 1111 00:49:08,113 --> 00:49:10,781 or you get eaten by a fucking shark. 1112 00:49:10,881 --> 00:49:13,351 Listen to me, Detective Hynes. 1113 00:49:13,451 --> 00:49:15,220 Winter is about to talk. 1114 00:49:15,320 --> 00:49:18,623 He's already admitted to doing bad things 1115 00:49:18,723 --> 00:49:20,992 because he was pushed to a place of extremity. 1116 00:49:21,092 --> 00:49:22,227 Somewhere he never would have gotten 1117 00:49:22,327 --> 00:49:23,995 if he'd been sitting on a couch. 1118 00:49:24,095 --> 00:49:25,063 [ Thumps ] 1119 00:49:25,163 --> 00:49:27,465 You know, I don't know, Doc. 1120 00:49:27,565 --> 00:49:30,801 But what I do know is that you just put everything 1121 00:49:30,901 --> 00:49:33,338 we've been toward at risk. 1122 00:49:33,438 --> 00:49:35,540 This hump at the bar of justice, 1123 00:49:35,640 --> 00:49:38,209 facing a reckoning before this world 1124 00:49:38,309 --> 00:49:40,578 for what he's done. 1125 00:49:40,678 --> 00:49:43,048 What the fuck? 1126 00:49:43,148 --> 00:49:44,749 What? 1127 00:49:44,849 --> 00:49:46,484 You're at home, right? 1128 00:49:46,584 --> 00:49:50,388 Turn on your TV now, local news. 1129 00:49:50,488 --> 00:49:55,693 ** 1130 00:49:55,793 --> 00:49:57,562 ANNOUNCER: And it looks like they're gonna substitute him. 1131 00:49:57,662 --> 00:49:59,864 REPORTER: This morning, a couple was hiking with their dog 1132 00:49:59,964 --> 00:50:01,166 when they found a body. 1133 00:50:01,266 --> 00:50:04,435 All this a week after the body of Travis Webber 1134 00:50:04,535 --> 00:50:06,537 was found buried. 1135 00:50:06,637 --> 00:50:08,373 Causing the excavation that led to the latest... 1136 00:50:08,473 --> 00:50:11,242 HYNES: Tell me you're seeing this. ...gruesome discoveries yesterday. 1137 00:50:11,342 --> 00:50:13,111 I'm seeing it. 1138 00:50:13,211 --> 00:50:15,246 REPORTER: Now, police are saying that as many three bodies 1139 00:50:15,346 --> 00:50:16,881 have been found as of now, and they are continuing... 1140 00:50:16,981 --> 00:50:21,619 You forced this guy to a breaking point, Doc. 1141 00:50:21,719 --> 00:50:24,021 Pushing him to an extremity like you said, 1142 00:50:24,122 --> 00:50:27,292 and he may tell you secrets because of it, but -- 1143 00:50:27,392 --> 00:50:28,726 but what else? 1144 00:50:28,826 --> 00:50:31,962 What else might you have pushed him to do? 1145 00:50:32,063 --> 00:50:33,798 ** 1146 00:50:33,898 --> 00:50:38,303 Do you even know? 1147 00:50:38,403 --> 00:50:41,139 Sorry this was last minute. 1148 00:50:41,239 --> 00:50:44,409 I'm glad you could get free. 1149 00:50:44,509 --> 00:50:45,743 You ever have one of those weeks 1150 00:50:45,843 --> 00:50:49,580 that kind of turns you on your head? 1151 00:50:50,715 --> 00:50:53,551 It's sort of an hour-to-hour proposition for me. 1152 00:50:53,651 --> 00:50:57,788 ** 1153 00:50:57,888 --> 00:50:59,957 I feel like we're getting away with something. 1154 00:51:00,057 --> 00:51:02,760 I mean, you're sure this is okay? 1155 00:51:02,860 --> 00:51:04,495 Us going out like this? 1156 00:51:04,595 --> 00:51:08,733 I'm actually not sure because it isn't. 1157 00:51:08,833 --> 00:51:11,236 But if we just keep this on the DL, we should be fine. 1158 00:51:11,336 --> 00:51:12,503 ** 1159 00:51:12,603 --> 00:51:16,241 I mean, it's not like we're hurting anyone, right? 1160 00:51:16,341 --> 00:51:19,344 ("Last One Dies" by Blindness playing) 1161 00:51:19,444 --> 00:51:26,184 ** 1162 00:51:26,284 --> 00:51:31,289 ** 1163 00:51:31,389 --> 00:51:37,462 ** 1164 00:51:37,562 --> 00:51:42,633 ** 1165 00:51:42,733 --> 00:51:47,938 ** 1166 00:51:48,038 --> 00:51:53,378 ** 1167 00:51:53,478 --> 00:51:59,384 ** 1168 00:51:59,484 --> 00:52:04,822 ** 1169 00:52:04,922 --> 00:52:08,659 ** 1170 00:52:08,759 --> 00:52:14,899 **