1 00:00:02,000 --> 00:00:07,000 Downloaded from YTS.MX 2 00:00:08,000 --> 00:00:13,000 Official YIFY movies site: YTS.MX 3 00:01:08,068 --> 00:01:10,157 - Everybody, I feel like everybody heals differently 4 00:01:10,200 --> 00:01:12,376 and everybody has a different process of healing 5 00:01:13,812 --> 00:01:16,424 and dealing with trauma, and like, 6 00:01:16,467 --> 00:01:18,556 events that have happened with them. 7 00:01:20,819 --> 00:01:22,169 I was trying to heal it on my own. 8 00:01:53,287 --> 00:01:56,159 - Hi, Josiah! Smile, come on! 9 00:02:02,470 --> 00:02:04,385 - Come on! Wah! 10 00:02:04,428 --> 00:02:06,865 - Ah, he's not doing it. 11 00:02:06,909 --> 00:02:09,085 - Do you take the responsibilities as parents 12 00:02:09,129 --> 00:02:11,696 to raise, promise to do all you can, 13 00:02:11,740 --> 00:02:15,265 to help present Josiah to know Jesus? 14 00:02:16,875 --> 00:02:18,399 - Yes, we do. 15 00:02:27,451 --> 00:02:29,410 - Qu'est-ce que tu penses, Jos? 16 00:02:29,453 --> 00:02:31,716 Est-ce que tu surpris? 17 00:02:34,719 --> 00:02:36,982 Qui est là? Qui est l? 18 00:02:42,858 --> 00:02:44,903 Merci pour Bella Bella. 19 00:02:44,947 --> 00:02:47,254 - Thank you, Bella Bella. 20 00:03:41,786 --> 00:03:43,745 - I'm Black, I'm from Haiti. 21 00:03:43,788 --> 00:03:46,008 I got adopted into a half white-half Native family. 22 00:03:48,010 --> 00:03:49,925 Because of that, I got Native status. 23 00:03:51,840 --> 00:03:54,277 This is the only life I've known. This is day one. 24 00:03:54,321 --> 00:03:56,366 - Coming bowling with us? What the heck? 25 00:03:56,410 --> 00:03:57,715 Of course, you're coming bowling with us. 26 00:03:57,759 --> 00:03:59,674 It's always a toss up - basketball, bowling, 27 00:03:59,717 --> 00:04:02,329 basketball, bowling. Right? - Uh-- 28 00:04:02,372 --> 00:04:04,679 - We go bowling like, once every five years so it's, 29 00:04:04,722 --> 00:04:06,550 so it's hard for us to get good at it. 30 00:04:06,594 --> 00:04:08,291 - Literally, I haven't-- 31 00:04:08,335 --> 00:04:10,554 - Happy adoption day, Everyone. Woo-hoo! 32 00:04:10,598 --> 00:04:13,340 - Can you believe it's been 22 and 23 years? 33 00:04:13,383 --> 00:04:15,342 Like, how did that happen? 34 00:04:15,385 --> 00:04:16,952 - It only became fun when I was born though, right? 35 00:04:16,995 --> 00:04:19,389 - The heck?! - 36 00:04:19,433 --> 00:04:21,086 - Don, this chicken's really good. 37 00:04:21,130 --> 00:04:23,219 - Unlike you, you tell Mom everything. 38 00:04:23,263 --> 00:04:24,960 - I'm glad you like it. 39 00:04:25,003 --> 00:04:26,918 - Yo, you gotta get one of these guys on your farm. 40 00:04:26,962 --> 00:04:28,746 The all-black chickens. - Oh, yeah, yeah. 41 00:04:28,790 --> 00:04:30,705 - The Blacks are black meat and everything. 42 00:04:30,748 --> 00:04:32,707 I don't know where they're from, but-- 43 00:04:32,750 --> 00:04:34,709 - They're from Indonesia. - All right, let's go get one. 44 00:04:34,752 --> 00:04:36,711 - Yeah. Like, they're black, black, black. 45 00:04:36,754 --> 00:04:38,800 Even their meat is dark, dark, dark purple. 46 00:04:38,843 --> 00:04:40,715 - So weird. - Yeah. 47 00:04:40,758 --> 00:04:42,760 - That doesn't look appetizing. - A black pig. 48 00:04:42,804 --> 00:04:44,545 Black is beautiful! 49 00:04:44,588 --> 00:04:46,155 - It's true. 50 00:04:48,288 --> 00:04:50,464 - I don't even know what age I even like, 51 00:04:50,507 --> 00:04:52,379 it hit me that I was adopted, or nothin', like, 52 00:04:52,422 --> 00:04:54,337 honestly, for the longest time, I thought 53 00:04:54,381 --> 00:04:56,339 I was just the same as everybody else. 54 00:04:56,383 --> 00:04:58,428 All I knew is I didn't actually have a like, 55 00:04:58,472 --> 00:05:00,387 a birth Mom and Dad, and all that stuff. 56 00:05:00,430 --> 00:05:01,779 Like, that's all I knew. 57 00:05:01,823 --> 00:05:03,738 I knew, I knew something was up because I was like, 58 00:05:03,781 --> 00:05:05,435 I don't actually have parents, like, 59 00:05:05,479 --> 00:05:06,828 I'm living with somebody else. 60 00:05:06,871 --> 00:05:08,786 Something that I didn't know yet was just off, 61 00:05:08,830 --> 00:05:11,354 and it was that like, that connection, 62 00:05:11,398 --> 00:05:13,443 that like full blood on connection. 63 00:05:13,487 --> 00:05:15,358 They never really made it seem like if I was different, 64 00:05:15,402 --> 00:05:18,187 or anything like that like-- I felt like, the same, 65 00:05:18,230 --> 00:05:20,102 but I knew something wasn't fully there. 66 00:05:22,104 --> 00:05:24,280 - Our adoption day tradition has always been to say 67 00:05:24,324 --> 00:05:27,457 that it's a very special time, and we all get very cheesy, 68 00:05:27,501 --> 00:05:29,546 so I'm trying not to be cheesy, Josiah. 69 00:05:29,590 --> 00:05:31,635 He's like, "Don't get cheesy." 70 00:05:31,679 --> 00:05:34,246 - Are we all gonna say one thing we appreciate? 71 00:05:34,290 --> 00:05:36,379 - No that's Thanksgiving. - 72 00:05:36,423 --> 00:05:38,425 - But anyways, our tradition has always been just to say 73 00:05:38,468 --> 00:05:42,080 that Mariah and Josiah are amazing, and we love them, 74 00:05:42,124 --> 00:05:44,082 and we're so happy that they're in our family. 75 00:05:46,389 --> 00:05:48,086 - Don't drag it on. 76 00:05:49,523 --> 00:05:51,089 - We have to leave in five minutes, for bowling. 77 00:05:51,133 --> 00:05:54,223 - Uh, okay. Goodbye. - Jos, don't run away! 78 00:05:54,266 --> 00:05:56,094 - No. - You're very fun. 79 00:05:57,531 --> 00:05:59,315 - Always give thanks to God 80 00:05:59,359 --> 00:06:02,013 for giving Mariah and Josiah to our family. 81 00:06:03,101 --> 00:06:04,799 Always. 82 00:06:04,842 --> 00:06:06,583 I think um, 83 00:06:06,627 --> 00:06:09,020 you're much easier to look after 84 00:06:09,064 --> 00:06:11,806 before you turn 26. - 85 00:06:11,849 --> 00:06:13,851 - I agree. 86 00:06:13,895 --> 00:06:16,071 - Alright. - 87 00:06:17,333 --> 00:06:19,291 - Okay, Jos, your turn. Damian, your turn. 88 00:06:19,335 --> 00:06:21,250 - I've gotta thank Josiah for toughening me up 89 00:06:21,293 --> 00:06:24,732 and roughing me around all until I was like, 13. 90 00:06:26,473 --> 00:06:28,431 And now I'm immune. 91 00:06:28,475 --> 00:06:30,607 Stronger, because of him. 92 00:06:30,651 --> 00:06:32,261 And then, thanks for Mariah, 93 00:06:32,304 --> 00:06:35,177 for showing me the other side of siblings. 94 00:06:35,220 --> 00:06:36,744 - We didn't know what the hell we were doing, 95 00:06:36,787 --> 00:06:38,136 but it turned out pretty good. 96 00:06:38,180 --> 00:06:39,877 - We did not know what the hell we were doing. 97 00:06:39,921 --> 00:06:42,097 Nowadays, people have read like, 19 books 98 00:06:42,140 --> 00:06:44,273 before they even get pregnant, and we didn't read anything, 99 00:06:44,316 --> 00:06:46,449 we didn't know anything, we didn't, had no idea. 100 00:06:46,493 --> 00:06:49,060 - Remember that time and we had that quilt thing, 101 00:06:49,104 --> 00:06:51,628 and it was one of the few blankets. 102 00:06:51,672 --> 00:06:53,325 - Oh, and she got all tangled up in it. 103 00:06:53,369 --> 00:06:55,110 - And she got tangled up in it and her whole head 104 00:06:55,153 --> 00:06:57,112 was wrapped in that quilt. - Oh, my God. 105 00:06:57,155 --> 00:06:59,157 - And she fell off the end of the bed into a basket 106 00:06:59,201 --> 00:07:01,203 with this thing wrapped around her head. 107 00:07:01,246 --> 00:07:02,944 I'm like, "Why does she sound so muffled?" 108 00:07:02,987 --> 00:07:05,468 - What the heck?! 109 00:07:05,512 --> 00:07:07,688 That's why you don't put blanket on a baby! 110 00:07:07,731 --> 00:07:09,777 - That explains a lot. 111 00:07:09,820 --> 00:07:11,866 - We didn't have anything there! No crib. 112 00:07:11,909 --> 00:07:13,737 - We had no nothing. We literally, 113 00:07:13,781 --> 00:07:15,565 were not going to Haiti to try to find kids. 114 00:07:15,609 --> 00:07:17,219 She landed in our laps. 115 00:07:18,873 --> 00:07:21,919 As a Heiltsuk person, 116 00:07:21,963 --> 00:07:25,314 home will always be Bella Bella, 117 00:07:25,357 --> 00:07:28,012 will always be the Heiltsuk Nation. 118 00:07:28,056 --> 00:07:29,884 The kids always knew that. 119 00:07:29,927 --> 00:07:32,190 They knew that that's where Daddy's from, 120 00:07:32,234 --> 00:07:34,976 that's where our family all is. 121 00:07:35,019 --> 00:07:37,587 I had 14 years to live immersed 122 00:07:37,631 --> 00:07:40,198 in my Nation and my community, 123 00:07:40,242 --> 00:07:42,287 and I haven't had that opportunity ever since. 124 00:07:43,637 --> 00:07:45,943 I watch it all from afar. 125 00:07:45,987 --> 00:07:48,685 It didn't take the core identity out of me. 126 00:07:51,558 --> 00:07:53,342 - This is Bella Bella. 127 00:07:54,952 --> 00:07:56,911 - And I still identify as a, 128 00:07:56,954 --> 00:07:59,304 as a Heiltsuk person above, above all else. 129 00:07:59,348 --> 00:08:01,002 - Look at Mama! 130 00:08:01,045 --> 00:08:04,527 - And I tried to instil that connectedness to my children. 131 00:08:06,137 --> 00:08:08,618 - Welcome home. That is beautiful! 132 00:08:08,662 --> 00:08:11,360 You guys did a great job. 133 00:08:11,403 --> 00:08:13,754 - We go to Bella, and like, they love us. 134 00:08:15,582 --> 00:08:17,540 - Papa can ring for service! 135 00:08:19,237 --> 00:08:20,804 - We've been part of the family there. 136 00:08:20,848 --> 00:08:22,980 They, they treat us like one of their own, they, 137 00:08:23,024 --> 00:08:24,982 it ain't no different. 138 00:08:25,026 --> 00:08:26,984 So, I mean, they've always just accepted us, 139 00:08:27,028 --> 00:08:29,030 which is beautiful. 140 00:08:35,776 --> 00:08:37,908 - Hey! 141 00:08:37,952 --> 00:08:39,606 - Hey-hey-hey! 142 00:08:42,783 --> 00:08:45,437 - Oh! Ooh! - Yo, this guy! 143 00:08:45,481 --> 00:08:47,135 - He would've been like, that's not my name. 144 00:08:50,225 --> 00:08:51,879 As long as I can remember, 145 00:08:51,922 --> 00:08:54,403 basketball has been the one thing that I've played, 146 00:08:54,446 --> 00:08:55,752 dreamt of. 147 00:09:03,238 --> 00:09:04,892 It was very important to me, like, 148 00:09:04,935 --> 00:09:07,677 I played it from a young age, I played on multiple teams, 149 00:09:07,721 --> 00:09:09,766 I travelled all over with them. 150 00:09:09,810 --> 00:09:12,682 I won a couple championships, and whatnot. 151 00:09:12,726 --> 00:09:15,685 Basketball was always like, the one that stuck around, 152 00:09:15,729 --> 00:09:17,905 like, no matter what else I did, or whatever, 153 00:09:17,948 --> 00:09:20,298 I'd always come back to basketball at the end of the day. 154 00:09:20,342 --> 00:09:22,387 It was a very important piece of my life. 155 00:09:24,738 --> 00:09:27,088 So, Josiah got involved with the high school team 156 00:09:27,131 --> 00:09:29,046 and some community leagues, and he just loved it 157 00:09:29,090 --> 00:09:32,354 and he was really good at it. 158 00:09:32,397 --> 00:09:34,661 And he got invited to participate 159 00:09:34,704 --> 00:09:37,577 in the Heiltsuk Nation um, Junior All Native team. 160 00:09:39,317 --> 00:09:41,276 The All Native basketball tournament is a big deal 161 00:09:41,319 --> 00:09:44,758 on the West Coast. Basketball is, 162 00:09:44,801 --> 00:09:47,630 is the sport that everybody is really passionate about, 163 00:09:47,674 --> 00:09:50,807 and it goes back a long ways, like decades. 164 00:09:50,851 --> 00:09:53,462 Teams would train all year, 165 00:09:53,505 --> 00:09:55,333 they would bring all of their village pride 166 00:09:55,377 --> 00:09:58,728 to the tournament and compete for their Nations. 167 00:09:58,772 --> 00:10:00,817 So, this was a really cool way for him 168 00:10:00,861 --> 00:10:03,646 to get involved with people from home, and sort of learn, 169 00:10:03,690 --> 00:10:06,344 and connect, and learn about the culture. 170 00:10:06,388 --> 00:10:08,346 He played for two years 171 00:10:08,390 --> 00:10:10,174 at the All Native basketball tournament. 172 00:10:11,611 --> 00:10:13,482 Until the third year, 173 00:10:13,525 --> 00:10:16,703 somebody protested his involvement, 174 00:10:16,746 --> 00:10:19,357 and one of their rules was that 175 00:10:19,401 --> 00:10:21,838 an individual had to be born 176 00:10:21,882 --> 00:10:25,146 with at least one-eighth Indigenous blood. 177 00:10:25,189 --> 00:10:28,758 That is a type of a blood quantum rule. 178 00:10:28,802 --> 00:10:31,326 They can't legally be that, because I was adopted, 179 00:10:31,369 --> 00:10:33,894 and it's, from, from me being adopted, 180 00:10:33,937 --> 00:10:36,984 it's pretty much the same thing as if I had Native blood, 181 00:10:37,027 --> 00:10:39,464 because it's not like if I had a choice for this situation. 182 00:10:39,508 --> 00:10:41,423 But they didn't want to see it like that. 183 00:10:41,466 --> 00:10:44,905 And then, when they found out that he was born Haitian 184 00:10:44,948 --> 00:10:48,778 and we adopted him, they said well, he can't play. 185 00:10:48,822 --> 00:10:50,911 Who is Indigenous? 186 00:10:50,954 --> 00:10:52,826 The question has been at the centre 187 00:10:52,869 --> 00:10:55,742 of a controversial decision to deny Josiah Wilson 188 00:10:55,785 --> 00:10:58,875 from playing in the All Native basketball tournament. 189 00:10:58,919 --> 00:11:01,704 - He had already provided his status card uh, 190 00:11:01,748 --> 00:11:04,707 as proof that his is a Registered Status Indian. 191 00:11:04,751 --> 00:11:07,579 - The family was shocked when the 21 year old 192 00:11:07,623 --> 00:11:09,407 was sent a letter barring him from playing 193 00:11:09,451 --> 00:11:11,540 in the All Native Basketball Tournament. 194 00:11:11,583 --> 00:11:13,803 - Do you consider yourself First Nations? 195 00:11:13,847 --> 00:11:16,414 - Yes, I do. I've been, I've been part 196 00:11:16,458 --> 00:11:19,330 of the community in Bella Bella, the Heiltsuk community, 197 00:11:19,374 --> 00:11:21,202 for a while now, and I was a social worker out there 198 00:11:21,245 --> 00:11:23,204 and I helped out with the kids, and everything like that. 199 00:11:23,247 --> 00:11:25,989 So, yeah, I do consider myself part of their community. 200 00:11:26,033 --> 00:11:27,730 I was actually shocked and hurt, just knowing that 201 00:11:27,774 --> 00:11:30,385 after two years of playing for the All Native, 202 00:11:30,428 --> 00:11:33,388 and they've seen me play before, and then just boom, 203 00:11:33,431 --> 00:11:35,433 they say that I can't play for them, 204 00:11:35,477 --> 00:11:37,479 I was actually very shocked on that. 205 00:11:37,522 --> 00:11:39,481 If they see that I'm adopted and I have a Native status, 206 00:11:39,524 --> 00:11:40,830 I feel like I should be allowed to play. 207 00:11:43,572 --> 00:11:44,965 - You got this! 208 00:11:48,359 --> 00:11:50,231 - You're gonna break things here. 209 00:11:50,274 --> 00:11:52,450 - It goes by the name. - Well, that's racist. 210 00:11:52,494 --> 00:11:54,626 - What? 211 00:11:54,670 --> 00:11:56,411 - Why do the Black kids have to go last, huh? 212 00:11:56,454 --> 00:11:58,413 - Wait a minute, no, I go first! 213 00:11:58,456 --> 00:12:01,068 - Yeah, you literally put-- 214 00:12:01,111 --> 00:12:03,244 - I put my name in first. 215 00:12:03,287 --> 00:12:05,333 Okay! This looks promising, Dad! 216 00:12:06,726 --> 00:12:08,771 - Yeeahhhh! - Okay. 217 00:12:10,599 --> 00:12:12,340 I told Mariah if she doesn't get a strike 218 00:12:12,383 --> 00:12:13,776 she can't come back home, that's it. 219 00:12:16,344 --> 00:12:18,259 - Oh, maybe, maybe, maybe! Oh! 220 00:12:22,872 --> 00:12:24,831 I'm very proud of my parents for like, 221 00:12:24,874 --> 00:12:26,702 making those choices that they made in their life 222 00:12:26,746 --> 00:12:29,574 to adopt two, beautiful, great kids from Haiti, 223 00:12:29,618 --> 00:12:32,273 and then, um, having two of their own as well, 224 00:12:32,316 --> 00:12:34,754 and then like, being able to, 225 00:12:34,797 --> 00:12:36,320 to bond and to be stronger as a family, 226 00:12:36,364 --> 00:12:38,975 I think that's awesome how that story played out. 227 00:12:46,113 --> 00:12:48,289 Adoption is, certainly in my world view, 228 00:12:48,332 --> 00:12:51,031 it's a very powerful thing. 229 00:12:51,074 --> 00:12:52,815 - I was so close! 230 00:12:52,859 --> 00:12:54,643 We were young and naive, 231 00:12:54,686 --> 00:12:56,688 not knowing what we were getting ourselves into. 232 00:12:56,732 --> 00:12:59,082 Ended up moving to Haiti. 233 00:12:59,126 --> 00:13:01,258 The chapter of our lives in Haiti 234 00:13:01,302 --> 00:13:03,521 still reverberates today 235 00:13:03,565 --> 00:13:05,654 because we ended up starting our family down there 236 00:13:05,697 --> 00:13:08,004 and adopting our two kids. 237 00:13:11,921 --> 00:13:14,619 Bumpy ride, but we're at... 238 00:13:14,663 --> 00:13:17,361 at Numerson's compound in Léogâne. 239 00:13:19,886 --> 00:13:22,932 I had a nursing degree; she was a teacher. 240 00:13:22,976 --> 00:13:25,239 We thought we could do some good in the world 241 00:13:25,282 --> 00:13:27,241 and we looked for opportunities, 242 00:13:27,284 --> 00:13:30,157 so we both ended up working in the hospital. 243 00:13:50,612 --> 00:13:52,875 In my culture, in the Heiltsuk culture, 244 00:13:52,919 --> 00:13:56,748 adoption has been a very important part of our culture. 245 00:13:56,792 --> 00:13:59,403 It's the way we grow our families and, 246 00:13:59,447 --> 00:14:01,884 and strengthen ties between communities, 247 00:14:01,928 --> 00:14:04,887 so adoption was nothing strange or new, to me. 248 00:14:09,152 --> 00:14:11,067 Doesn't matter how you have your children, 249 00:14:11,111 --> 00:14:13,591 you just love them. You, you would do anything for them. 250 00:14:18,988 --> 00:14:21,382 There's the family that we're born into, 251 00:14:21,425 --> 00:14:23,558 there's the family that we married into. 252 00:14:23,601 --> 00:14:25,603 - Okay, avec la, okay. 253 00:14:29,433 --> 00:14:32,349 Even though my ex-wife and I are divorced, 254 00:14:32,393 --> 00:14:35,613 we still act like a family 255 00:14:35,657 --> 00:14:38,138 because we love these kids so much. 256 00:14:38,181 --> 00:14:41,010 - Eh, dansez-vous! 257 00:14:49,018 --> 00:14:50,715 - I mean, it was a good night, though. I ain't gonna lie 258 00:14:50,759 --> 00:14:52,804 like, we had fun, to an extent. 259 00:14:52,848 --> 00:14:55,198 I mean, they had fun. I had-- 260 00:14:55,242 --> 00:14:57,331 - You didn't have fun? 261 00:14:57,374 --> 00:15:00,160 - Hmm, I enjoyed seeing my Grandma. 262 00:15:02,466 --> 00:15:04,947 So, I haven't seen her in like three and a half, four months. 263 00:15:04,991 --> 00:15:06,557 So, it was definitely a good thing for me to see her. 264 00:15:08,298 --> 00:15:10,257 Dad asked if my Grandma was there, I already told, um, 265 00:15:10,300 --> 00:15:12,650 I would've dipped out so quick. I wouldn't have stayed. 266 00:15:14,087 --> 00:15:16,872 My Grandma, she's my OG, yo! - Yeah? 267 00:15:16,916 --> 00:15:18,961 - Ever since my Grandpa passed away, 268 00:15:19,005 --> 00:15:21,094 I just had to be there for her and like, 269 00:15:21,137 --> 00:15:23,879 my Grandpa was the, my day one. Yo, like, 270 00:15:23,923 --> 00:15:25,098 I'll show you my Grandpa, y'all. 271 00:15:25,141 --> 00:15:26,664 This man, 272 00:15:28,275 --> 00:15:29,537 he's straight Native, you know what I'm sayin', 273 00:15:31,017 --> 00:15:32,801 like, this is my Dad's Dad. 274 00:15:32,844 --> 00:15:34,455 I could straight up consider them like, 275 00:15:34,498 --> 00:15:38,067 a second set of parents, pretty much. 276 00:15:38,111 --> 00:15:40,635 Maybe even a third or fourth set of parents, if you wanna, 277 00:15:40,678 --> 00:15:43,246 go, like that, but that's another story. 278 00:15:43,290 --> 00:15:45,031 From the moment that, 279 00:15:45,074 --> 00:15:47,207 honestly, from the moment that my parents got separated, 280 00:15:47,250 --> 00:15:50,123 'til like, 'til now, yo, my Grandma, my Grandpa 281 00:15:50,166 --> 00:15:52,168 have been like, literally the closest, beside my homies. 282 00:15:53,822 --> 00:15:55,650 Oh, yeah, this is, this is my, 283 00:15:55,693 --> 00:15:57,652 this is one of the first times Papa ever went to Haiti. 284 00:15:57,695 --> 00:15:59,871 I think this is like, their only time they've ever went. 285 00:15:59,915 --> 00:16:01,482 That was like, one thing I was actually upset 286 00:16:01,525 --> 00:16:03,266 when he passed away is like, 287 00:16:03,310 --> 00:16:05,268 he really wanted to go back to Haiti again. 288 00:16:05,312 --> 00:16:08,315 You know, he was definitely one of a guy, one of a kind guy, 289 00:16:08,358 --> 00:16:10,273 like, yeah, he was special. 290 00:16:11,709 --> 00:16:13,189 He was really special to me. 291 00:16:17,802 --> 00:16:19,717 - I saw this guy downtown, this white guy, 292 00:16:19,761 --> 00:16:21,154 with the worst dreads. I was just like, "Oh, my God." 293 00:16:21,197 --> 00:16:23,243 - He was white? 294 00:16:23,286 --> 00:16:25,027 - First of all, white people shouldn't have dreads, but- 295 00:16:25,071 --> 00:16:26,681 That's what I'm saying, white people don't get dreads. 296 00:16:26,724 --> 00:16:28,639 - But- - Yo, they're ugly. 297 00:16:28,683 --> 00:16:30,902 - Because their hair doesn't lock, right, properly. 298 00:16:30,946 --> 00:16:33,731 But also, they were really hideous looking. 299 00:16:34,863 --> 00:16:37,039 - So disrespectful. So racist. 300 00:16:37,083 --> 00:16:38,519 - That's, yeah, he shouldn't be wearing-- 301 00:16:38,562 --> 00:16:40,738 - So racist to have red dreads like that, you ugly ass. 302 00:16:40,782 --> 00:16:42,523 - I think-- 303 00:16:44,133 --> 00:16:45,482 - I like, keeping hollers to be like, "Who does your hair?" 304 00:16:45,526 --> 00:16:47,528 - Uh huh! I know! 305 00:16:47,571 --> 00:16:49,530 - All I'm saying is that, fuck all that other shit, 306 00:16:49,573 --> 00:16:51,445 my Mom knows what she's doin'. 307 00:16:51,488 --> 00:16:53,273 We don't need all those extra tools. 308 00:16:53,316 --> 00:16:55,057 Y'all got money though? If y'all got money, 309 00:16:55,101 --> 00:16:56,754 you can come, you know what I'm saying? 310 00:16:56,798 --> 00:16:58,669 - Exactly, you gonna pay me? - Ten percent for the boy, 311 00:16:58,713 --> 00:17:00,454 you know, 90% for her, you know what I'm saying? 312 00:17:00,497 --> 00:17:03,109 - Oh, ten, okay, that sounds fair. 313 00:17:03,152 --> 00:17:05,502 Trying to make you look good. Price you pay to be beautiful. 314 00:17:06,808 --> 00:17:08,375 - Well, it shouldn't hurt to be beautiful. 315 00:17:08,418 --> 00:17:10,246 - Well, I know, it shouldn't, 316 00:17:10,290 --> 00:17:12,248 but tell that to every woman who waxes her legs. 317 00:17:12,292 --> 00:17:14,381 You're gonna be so handsome after this. 318 00:17:18,037 --> 00:17:20,691 The thing that he said then, and he said as he got older, 319 00:17:20,735 --> 00:17:22,476 Dad shouldn't have left us. 320 00:17:22,519 --> 00:17:24,086 Everybody leaves. 321 00:17:25,783 --> 00:17:27,655 Our divorce was extremely hard on him 322 00:17:29,396 --> 00:17:31,746 and he has taken that on as a bit of an abandonment. 323 00:17:36,881 --> 00:17:40,363 And so, then being rejected by the Indigenous community 324 00:17:40,407 --> 00:17:42,583 and that basketball community that had been important to him, 325 00:17:42,626 --> 00:17:44,150 there's been a lot there that he has to work through. 326 00:17:46,978 --> 00:17:49,198 Everybody's always looking for where do they belong 327 00:17:49,242 --> 00:17:51,809 in the world, and that was a place he belonged, right. 328 00:17:54,377 --> 00:17:56,727 What about this stings the most, 329 00:17:56,771 --> 00:18:00,209 I mean, this idea that you're, you're not Native enough 330 00:18:00,253 --> 00:18:02,211 to participate in the tournament? 331 00:18:02,255 --> 00:18:03,995 - Even though I have status 332 00:18:04,039 --> 00:18:06,563 and I've been part of the community for a long time now, 333 00:18:06,607 --> 00:18:08,522 and I lived out there with my Grandma, 334 00:18:08,565 --> 00:18:10,350 just not being able to go up there this year with the boys, 335 00:18:10,393 --> 00:18:12,787 to see them, everything just hurts. 336 00:18:14,354 --> 00:18:16,617 It made a scar on me, you know what I'm saying, 337 00:18:16,660 --> 00:18:18,793 like, it definitely let a mark. 338 00:18:18,836 --> 00:18:20,708 Who are you to tell me that I ain't Native? 339 00:18:22,666 --> 00:18:25,974 As a Black person adopted by a non-Black family, 340 00:18:26,017 --> 00:18:28,150 he's already had to contend with that side 341 00:18:28,194 --> 00:18:31,110 of his identity and figure out who he was. 342 00:18:32,850 --> 00:18:35,114 He came into our family by adoption and not by birth, 343 00:18:35,157 --> 00:18:37,855 doesn't make him any less legitimately Heiltsuk. 344 00:18:39,030 --> 00:18:41,076 The blood quantum rule, 345 00:18:41,120 --> 00:18:43,426 if you carry it to its logical conclusion, 346 00:18:43,470 --> 00:18:46,212 it will eliminate and erase Indigenous people down the road. 347 00:18:47,604 --> 00:18:50,041 That's a colonial concept 348 00:18:50,085 --> 00:18:52,609 that has been imposed on Indigenous people. 349 00:18:52,653 --> 00:18:56,874 Kinship and family is so important to us. 350 00:18:56,918 --> 00:18:58,833 It's nobody else's business to tell us 351 00:18:58,876 --> 00:19:01,140 who belongs and who doesn't. 352 00:19:01,183 --> 00:19:04,055 It's kind of one of the last things we have to protect 353 00:19:04,099 --> 00:19:08,016 is who we are, and our way of life, and you know, 354 00:19:08,059 --> 00:19:10,366 kinship and that part of our identity 355 00:19:10,410 --> 00:19:12,281 is crucial to our survival. 356 00:19:14,153 --> 00:19:15,937 I decided I wouldn't let it pass 357 00:19:15,980 --> 00:19:19,201 and tried to engage some communication 358 00:19:19,245 --> 00:19:21,029 with the All Native Basketball Tournament committee, 359 00:19:21,072 --> 00:19:23,336 and they wouldn't talk. 360 00:19:23,379 --> 00:19:27,122 So, I took it to the British Columbia Human Rights Tribunal 361 00:19:27,166 --> 00:19:29,429 and lodged a formal complaint. 362 00:19:29,472 --> 00:19:31,474 So, it's important to read the question over 363 00:19:31,518 --> 00:19:34,260 a couple of times. Especially on a final exam. 364 00:19:34,303 --> 00:19:39,265 So, 12,000, arrears were, divide that by 12 months. 365 00:19:39,308 --> 00:19:42,877 The adjustment amount would have been $1000. 366 00:19:42,920 --> 00:19:45,880 So on future test or exams ask yourself 367 00:19:47,751 --> 00:19:50,276 what period am I preparing this financial statement...? 368 00:19:50,319 --> 00:19:52,103 It was very traumatic, 369 00:19:52,147 --> 00:19:54,541 like it just had me questioning so much and just like, 370 00:19:54,584 --> 00:19:56,238 it just had me all fucked up. 371 00:19:59,198 --> 00:20:00,721 It was around that time too, was when I really started 372 00:20:00,764 --> 00:20:02,244 becoming a stoner, and whatnot. 373 00:20:04,899 --> 00:20:06,683 I definitely used weed like, 374 00:20:06,727 --> 00:20:08,946 to cope with a bunch of that bullshit. 375 00:20:10,513 --> 00:20:12,254 Doing that, that was definitely keeping me distracted 376 00:20:12,298 --> 00:20:15,083 and whatnot, and trying not to think of all this negativity, 377 00:20:15,126 --> 00:20:16,693 and all that bullshit, and all that. 378 00:20:23,700 --> 00:20:26,007 - Yeah, a lot of like, the fats, and lipids 379 00:20:26,050 --> 00:20:28,183 and like, the toxins that you would find. 380 00:20:28,227 --> 00:20:29,967 Like, I don't know, like you don't get the heavy tars 381 00:20:30,011 --> 00:20:31,708 from burning it, like when you smoke a bong, 382 00:20:31,752 --> 00:20:33,536 or when you smoke a joint. 383 00:20:33,580 --> 00:20:35,973 You can like, feel the like, heavy kind of resins and tars. 384 00:20:36,017 --> 00:20:38,324 Whereas you do this, it's already, it's all kind of, 385 00:20:38,367 --> 00:20:40,282 all that stuff's been removed, so, you're just kinda getting 386 00:20:40,326 --> 00:20:42,893 all the good stuff in one little bunch. 387 00:20:52,207 --> 00:20:54,383 I'll be flying like, in February though, 388 00:20:54,427 --> 00:20:56,385 because I have to go to a basketball tournament in BC, 389 00:20:56,429 --> 00:20:59,127 for like, this whole thing. - Yeah. 390 00:20:59,170 --> 00:21:01,303 - So, it's like maybe. I don't know if I'm gonna stay 391 00:21:01,347 --> 00:21:03,087 up for the whole tournament, yet. 392 00:21:03,131 --> 00:21:04,872 I just wanna go see my cousins and my homies, 393 00:21:04,915 --> 00:21:07,004 and all that stuff, the family. 394 00:21:07,048 --> 00:21:10,007 And then, deal with the stuff I gotta deal with. 395 00:21:10,051 --> 00:21:12,532 It's crazy how packed it gets. It's wild. 396 00:21:12,575 --> 00:21:14,229 It's honestly a good time though, it's just like, 397 00:21:14,273 --> 00:21:17,145 a huge gathering of like, Native clans, 398 00:21:17,188 --> 00:21:18,886 just to play ball. It's honestly like, 399 00:21:18,929 --> 00:21:20,627 it's a good time, that's all it is. 400 00:21:20,670 --> 00:21:22,933 But I mean, that's what it was. 401 00:21:22,977 --> 00:21:24,979 It was supposed to be, but they fucked up. 402 00:21:25,022 --> 00:21:27,024 But who knows. 403 00:21:28,678 --> 00:21:30,941 Only time can tell, I guess. 404 00:21:49,438 --> 00:21:52,528 A washing ceremony is a way, culturally, 405 00:21:52,572 --> 00:21:55,357 we take away the negative influence and impact 406 00:21:55,401 --> 00:21:57,794 of a bad experience on someone 407 00:21:57,838 --> 00:21:59,840 and we wash it off of the trauma 408 00:21:59,883 --> 00:22:01,232 and the negativity of that. 409 00:22:05,280 --> 00:22:08,414 - Yo, what's goin' on? - How you doin', Big Papa? 410 00:22:08,457 --> 00:22:09,980 - What's goin' on? - I'm good, man. How ya doin'? 411 00:22:10,024 --> 00:22:12,287 - Good to see you. - You too, Boss. 412 00:22:12,331 --> 00:22:14,420 - What ya doin'? - Man, we're just goin' up to Rupert. 413 00:22:14,463 --> 00:22:15,943 - You playin'? - No, not this year. 414 00:22:15,986 --> 00:22:18,032 - I'm playing. - You're playing? 415 00:22:18,075 --> 00:22:19,990 When my dad first told me about the washing ceremony, 416 00:22:20,034 --> 00:22:22,036 I was like, "What?" 417 00:22:22,079 --> 00:22:24,081 I ani't never heard of something like that before, 418 00:22:24,125 --> 00:22:26,780 but then he explained it to me, and I was like, you know what, 419 00:22:26,823 --> 00:22:29,565 this could be something we could do. 420 00:22:29,609 --> 00:22:31,175 Over there, I don't know if you can see the lights, 421 00:22:31,219 --> 00:22:33,482 there's like, that's the city, Bella Bella. 422 00:22:33,526 --> 00:22:35,789 But like, we just take them up, and now we're goin', 423 00:22:35,832 --> 00:22:37,834 now we're goin' like, up north. 424 00:22:37,878 --> 00:22:39,619 It's like, it's Natives. 425 00:22:42,709 --> 00:22:44,972 - Jos! 426 00:22:45,015 --> 00:22:47,191 - Oh, come here, kid! Oh, my God! 427 00:22:47,235 --> 00:22:50,020 I've been lookin' for you this whole time. 428 00:22:50,064 --> 00:22:51,674 How you doin', girl? - Good. 429 00:22:57,158 --> 00:22:59,682 - The Rupert people that kicked me outta this shit, 430 00:22:59,726 --> 00:23:02,119 saying I can't play because I'm Black, know what I'm sayin'. 431 00:23:02,163 --> 00:23:04,426 But they didn't say those words, but 432 00:23:04,470 --> 00:23:06,080 we all know that's what they meant. 433 00:23:06,123 --> 00:23:08,517 See a Black man dunkin' around and stuff like that, 434 00:23:08,561 --> 00:23:10,867 and actually you know, you can't play, bro. 435 00:23:10,911 --> 00:23:13,304 But it is what it is, you know what I'm sayin'. 436 00:23:13,348 --> 00:23:15,089 That's why we on this trip. 437 00:23:15,132 --> 00:23:17,178 Not knowin' what's poppin'. 438 00:23:17,221 --> 00:23:19,093 So is it that you just like, 439 00:23:19,136 --> 00:23:21,182 you wanna meet people. 440 00:23:21,225 --> 00:23:22,966 - Yeah, the main thing. I just wanna see who these niggas is. 441 00:23:27,406 --> 00:23:29,059 - Oh, y'all didn't hear about that, huh? Y'all didn't hear, 442 00:23:29,103 --> 00:23:30,713 you didn't hear what was happenin' with that? 443 00:23:30,757 --> 00:23:32,933 - What happened? - Oh! 444 00:23:32,976 --> 00:23:34,978 Yeah, we're not getting it no more. 445 00:23:36,502 --> 00:23:39,113 It's like, 'cause I didn't come up last year 446 00:23:39,156 --> 00:23:41,463 because of my surgery, like, as if it was my fault right, 447 00:23:41,507 --> 00:23:43,117 because you know like, I planned to get surgery. 448 00:23:44,510 --> 00:23:46,512 So, if you can't do that man, you a bum nigga. 449 00:23:46,555 --> 00:23:48,035 That's all I'm saying. 450 00:23:50,124 --> 00:23:52,082 But hey, like I said, 451 00:23:53,388 --> 00:23:54,911 we'll see what happens when we get up there. 452 00:24:03,616 --> 00:24:05,531 - I'd like to call on the 453 00:24:05,574 --> 00:24:08,795 Intermediate Coach and Manager. 454 00:24:10,579 --> 00:24:11,754 So, you know, we had a problem with getting Josiah 455 00:24:11,798 --> 00:24:13,669 on the basketball team, 456 00:24:15,279 --> 00:24:17,368 and we're thankful for all our people 457 00:24:17,412 --> 00:24:20,154 for standing up for Josiah, the Hereditary Chiefs, 458 00:24:20,197 --> 00:24:22,286 Tribal Council, and all our people. 459 00:24:22,330 --> 00:24:24,071 You know, he was adopted in the traditional way 460 00:24:25,420 --> 00:24:27,161 and we've always accepted him 461 00:24:27,204 --> 00:24:29,163 and we're so thankful for him to be coming to play 462 00:24:29,206 --> 00:24:31,992 with his team, the young men that he played with 463 00:24:32,035 --> 00:24:34,995 over the time at the All Native Tournament. 464 00:24:35,038 --> 00:24:38,041 We all know that Josiah's from Haiti, 465 00:24:38,085 --> 00:24:39,956 that's where he's originally from, 466 00:24:40,000 --> 00:24:42,306 but he only knows Heiltsuk, you know, 467 00:24:42,350 --> 00:24:44,265 and that's the important part. 468 00:24:44,308 --> 00:24:46,615 So, we wanted to do this here today 469 00:24:46,659 --> 00:24:49,009 because the All Native Tournament committee 470 00:24:49,052 --> 00:24:51,228 wouldn't allow us to do it in 471 00:24:51,272 --> 00:24:53,143 the All Native Tournament, 472 00:24:54,275 --> 00:24:56,407 which is unfortunate. 473 00:24:56,451 --> 00:24:58,279 So, if we can stand up in front of our people 474 00:24:58,322 --> 00:25:00,411 and just let him know how happy we are to, 475 00:25:00,455 --> 00:25:02,544 to have him back here today. 476 00:25:02,588 --> 00:25:04,459 He knows how much you care for him, 477 00:25:04,503 --> 00:25:06,548 because he can feel it. 478 00:25:06,592 --> 00:25:08,376 You know, he knows he's around family right now. 479 00:25:14,817 --> 00:25:16,993 - Thank you. 480 00:25:17,037 --> 00:25:18,995 Thank you. 481 00:25:22,477 --> 00:25:24,566 I just wanted to say thank you to all of you, 482 00:25:24,610 --> 00:25:26,263 for all the support and all the love 483 00:25:26,307 --> 00:25:29,049 that you guys have shown throughout the last four years 484 00:25:29,092 --> 00:25:31,399 since I got kicked out. 485 00:25:31,442 --> 00:25:33,053 Um, it's been hard on me and my family, 486 00:25:33,096 --> 00:25:35,577 and I know it's been hard on my teammates and my community, 487 00:25:35,621 --> 00:25:37,884 but I just wanted to say that you guys stood behind me 488 00:25:37,927 --> 00:25:39,842 and was with me the whole time, 489 00:25:39,886 --> 00:25:41,670 so I just wanted to say thank you a lot, for that. 490 00:25:41,714 --> 00:25:43,585 It means the world to me. 491 00:26:15,748 --> 00:26:18,489 - For those of you that don't know the words of this song, 492 00:26:18,533 --> 00:26:21,449 it says "We are Heiltsuk, We are strong. 493 00:26:23,494 --> 00:26:27,107 We are proud. We are good-looking." Woo! 494 00:26:29,457 --> 00:26:31,764 So, that's to you, Josiah. 495 00:26:31,807 --> 00:26:33,330 - Thank you very much. Thank you so much. Thank you. 496 00:26:35,724 --> 00:26:38,118 It's just tough for him because he got robbed. 497 00:26:38,161 --> 00:26:41,382 Like, it hurts him. Like, he'll never forget this. 498 00:26:41,425 --> 00:26:44,298 He got robbed of what, three years now? 499 00:26:44,341 --> 00:26:46,953 Four. - Four years, 500 00:26:46,996 --> 00:26:49,129 four years of basketball. 501 00:26:49,172 --> 00:26:52,349 One of things that got him excited was to go to the... 502 00:26:52,393 --> 00:26:54,700 All Native, to us, is the biggest thing for us. 503 00:26:54,743 --> 00:26:57,354 It's the most exciting thing, one time of the year. 504 00:26:57,398 --> 00:27:00,270 We call it second Christmas, right, like, 505 00:27:00,314 --> 00:27:02,751 that's how much we love the All Native. 506 00:27:02,795 --> 00:27:04,971 He got an unfair shot right, like, 507 00:27:05,014 --> 00:27:07,626 that's all he's ever known is Heiltsuk. 508 00:27:07,669 --> 00:27:11,238 He's never known, really, his other side until... what? 509 00:27:13,414 --> 00:27:15,068 - Until I was older. - Yeah, yeah. 510 00:27:15,111 --> 00:27:17,157 - Even then it wasn't like, I didn't, 511 00:27:17,200 --> 00:27:19,202 I didn't know them the same was as I did for Bella Bella. 512 00:27:19,246 --> 00:27:20,987 Like, I'd go to Haiti, but it was like, 513 00:27:21,030 --> 00:27:23,119 my Mom's Grandma has an orphanage over there, 514 00:27:23,163 --> 00:27:25,121 so it's not like I'm going to see my blood family. 515 00:27:25,165 --> 00:27:27,167 Like, they all passed away, and stuff like that. 516 00:27:27,210 --> 00:27:29,865 So, I mean, I don't, when I go to Haiti, it's a trip, 517 00:27:29,909 --> 00:27:31,737 it's a vacation for me, you know what I'm saying? 518 00:27:31,780 --> 00:27:33,564 When I come out here, yeah, it's a vacation, 519 00:27:33,608 --> 00:27:35,566 but I'm coming out here to see family and stuff, 520 00:27:35,610 --> 00:27:38,091 so, it's, it's two different ways I see it. 521 00:27:38,134 --> 00:27:39,788 - It's good to see you though, man. 522 00:27:39,832 --> 00:27:42,095 You too. Good to see you. 523 00:27:42,138 --> 00:27:44,184 - Glad you're good. - Thank you, you too. 524 00:27:44,227 --> 00:27:46,621 - At least you didn't get that bad of a depression anyway. 525 00:27:46,665 --> 00:27:48,057 Could've went a whole different way. 526 00:27:48,101 --> 00:27:50,016 - Mm-hmm. - Right? 527 00:27:50,059 --> 00:27:51,931 - Wasn't too bad, like-- - At least you stayed positive. 528 00:27:51,974 --> 00:27:53,802 - Mm-hmm. I tried to, - That's the good part. 529 00:27:53,846 --> 00:27:55,369 as much as I could. It was an honour being on their team. 530 00:27:56,849 --> 00:27:58,633 - Our team. - Our team. 531 00:27:58,677 --> 00:28:00,287 Yeah, our team. 532 00:29:32,509 --> 00:29:33,989 Amen. 533 00:30:14,943 --> 00:30:17,946 Coming to Prince Rupert is a bit of an ordeal. 534 00:30:17,990 --> 00:30:20,514 If there was going to be a public apology, 535 00:30:20,557 --> 00:30:23,517 that totally makes it worth it to come all this way. 536 00:30:23,560 --> 00:30:26,563 What is disappointing is the lack of willingness 537 00:30:26,607 --> 00:30:29,784 to take accountability for what they've done to him, 538 00:30:29,828 --> 00:30:32,656 to his family, to his Nation, 539 00:30:32,700 --> 00:30:35,094 to our elected leadership. 540 00:30:35,137 --> 00:30:39,011 They actually threatened to ban the Heiltsuk team 541 00:30:39,054 --> 00:30:42,753 if we included something like a welcome back gesture, 542 00:30:42,797 --> 00:30:46,148 for Josiah, and or, a washing ceremony. 543 00:31:01,468 --> 00:31:06,081 Defence! 544 00:31:13,523 --> 00:31:15,395 - Let's go! Go! - Woo! 545 00:31:24,708 --> 00:31:29,626 Defence! 546 00:31:38,897 --> 00:31:40,986 - They're switching everything. That's what we've gotta do 547 00:31:41,029 --> 00:31:43,118 every time on that top side, right. 548 00:31:43,162 --> 00:31:44,990 We've gotta make them make decisions, right. 549 00:31:45,033 --> 00:31:46,643 If you're having to pick up the ball, 550 00:31:46,687 --> 00:31:48,384 they're making sloppy passes now. 551 00:31:48,428 --> 00:31:50,386 Continue to fight through. Call those screws. 552 00:31:50,430 --> 00:31:53,041 Count on everything. 553 00:31:53,085 --> 00:31:54,782 This was like the big, the big year for me, 554 00:31:54,825 --> 00:31:56,392 you know what I'm saying, like I, 555 00:31:56,436 --> 00:31:58,829 I got a couple years they said I couldn't play. 556 00:31:58,873 --> 00:32:01,963 Like, just a lot of work, and time, 557 00:32:02,007 --> 00:32:04,052 and effort came to like, this year. 558 00:32:04,096 --> 00:32:06,141 And then, I thought they was gonna do the ceremony 559 00:32:06,185 --> 00:32:08,056 and all that, and now they're not. 560 00:32:08,100 --> 00:32:11,016 Nothing. They didn't even follow through with nothing. 561 00:32:11,059 --> 00:32:13,148 Other than saying that I can come back and play. 562 00:32:14,845 --> 00:32:17,022 They put a big damper on me, like, 563 00:32:17,065 --> 00:32:19,720 I've low-key kind of lost hope for it. 564 00:32:19,763 --> 00:32:21,548 Like, I don't, I have no idea what's happening anymore. 565 00:32:26,074 --> 00:32:29,034 - Man, you playing? - Huh? Not this year, 566 00:32:29,077 --> 00:32:30,992 I got surgery over the summer, so I'm in recovery. 567 00:32:31,036 --> 00:32:33,255 It's alright. 568 00:32:33,299 --> 00:32:35,040 It's, in the cold it hurts because I mean, 569 00:32:35,083 --> 00:32:36,824 I've got a metal pole in my foot, 570 00:32:36,867 --> 00:32:38,478 so when I get cold out I feel it a lot, 571 00:32:38,521 --> 00:32:40,306 but right now, I'm okay. 572 00:32:40,349 --> 00:32:42,438 It's just more recovery, 573 00:32:42,482 --> 00:32:44,005 but hopefully I'll be playing next year. 574 00:32:45,572 --> 00:32:47,704 - Hello. - Hey, what's up, man? 575 00:32:47,748 --> 00:32:49,706 - How ya doin'? - How ya doin'? Good. 576 00:32:49,750 --> 00:32:51,839 - I'm good. How you doing? I like your trainers. 577 00:32:51,882 --> 00:32:53,667 I'm not, not on TV right now, but it will be. 578 00:32:55,495 --> 00:32:57,714 We're filming for the future. 579 00:32:57,758 --> 00:33:00,935 - Filming for the future? - Yeah, man. 580 00:33:00,979 --> 00:33:03,024 - That's cool. - Yeah, I know. - That's lit. 581 00:33:03,068 --> 00:33:05,766 - Check out my nigger, Mark. Ha ha. 582 00:33:06,854 --> 00:33:08,116 My nigga-- 583 00:33:12,207 --> 00:33:13,730 - What the hell? 584 00:33:15,906 --> 00:33:17,734 Honestly, it's gotten to the point 585 00:33:17,778 --> 00:33:19,910 where everybody be using the word nigger nowadays, 586 00:33:19,954 --> 00:33:21,651 like I know so many people that ain't niggers, they be like, 587 00:33:21,695 --> 00:33:24,089 bro, you the pastiest thing alive, what do you mean? 588 00:33:24,132 --> 00:33:26,917 They all used the word, trust me. 589 00:33:26,961 --> 00:33:28,876 I've kind of just accepted it. 590 00:33:35,143 --> 00:33:37,885 - I'm guessing, yes. 591 00:33:37,928 --> 00:33:40,061 Any dip in there, Ken, for veggies? 592 00:33:41,715 --> 00:33:43,499 - Whoa! 593 00:33:43,543 --> 00:33:45,675 - I don't know what that is. 594 00:33:45,719 --> 00:33:47,677 - White people food. - Mm-hmm. 595 00:33:49,984 --> 00:33:51,986 - You are what you eat. 596 00:33:52,030 --> 00:33:54,728 - Oh, brother! 597 00:33:54,771 --> 00:33:57,122 Oh! - How are you? 598 00:33:58,993 --> 00:34:01,082 - Oh, it's nice to see you. - It's good to see you, too. 599 00:34:01,126 --> 00:34:03,693 - You doin' okay? - Yeah. - So am I. 600 00:34:03,737 --> 00:34:05,782 - Good stuff. Yeah. - Uh huh. 601 00:34:05,826 --> 00:34:08,524 - Well, I'm happy to see you. 602 00:34:08,568 --> 00:34:10,352 - Do you know what time I've been up since? 603 00:34:10,396 --> 00:34:12,093 - I know but-- 604 00:34:12,137 --> 00:34:13,921 - Yeah, a 12, 24-hour boat ride. - Good. 605 00:34:17,664 --> 00:34:19,405 - Initially when I booked my flight, 606 00:34:19,448 --> 00:34:22,234 there was this plan that there would be something happening 607 00:34:22,277 --> 00:34:24,758 actually with the tournament itself, like some sort of, 608 00:34:24,801 --> 00:34:28,283 they would provide some time before, after, or during a game, 609 00:34:28,327 --> 00:34:30,677 sort of officially with the tournament. 610 00:34:30,720 --> 00:34:32,722 With the committee refusing 611 00:34:32,766 --> 00:34:35,247 to acknowledge anything publicly, 612 00:34:35,290 --> 00:34:38,293 it doesn't feel done to me, but that's frustrating. 613 00:34:38,337 --> 00:34:41,340 How long did it, what time were you guys there, 614 00:34:41,383 --> 00:34:43,168 like half an hour? - Where, in Bella? 615 00:34:43,211 --> 00:34:45,126 - No, no in like-- - The room? 616 00:34:45,170 --> 00:34:46,997 The ceremony, yeah. What about, not the ceremony, 617 00:34:47,041 --> 00:34:48,999 but you know what I mean. - I don't even know. 618 00:34:49,043 --> 00:34:50,740 Couple minutes, like, 10, 20 minutes maybe. 619 00:34:50,784 --> 00:34:53,178 - Okay. - It wasn't the longest thing. 620 00:34:53,221 --> 00:34:54,962 - No, but it was nice. - It was just a quick thing. 621 00:34:55,005 --> 00:34:56,572 - Oh, that's good! 622 00:34:56,616 --> 00:34:58,835 - No, I am so grateful for what they did. 623 00:34:58,879 --> 00:35:01,186 Because I just wish I could've been there. 624 00:35:01,229 --> 00:35:03,144 - That's awesome. Yeah, me too. That would've been neat. 625 00:35:03,188 --> 00:35:06,321 I'm not, I didn't really miss the like, 626 00:35:06,365 --> 00:35:08,584 19-hour ferry ride, to be honest. 627 00:35:08,628 --> 00:35:10,847 - - You didn't miss nothin'. 628 00:35:10,891 --> 00:35:12,806 - Thank you, thank you, thank you 629 00:35:12,849 --> 00:35:15,025 to everybody for coming and being here today. 630 00:35:15,069 --> 00:35:17,680 Something that my daughter and I talk about all the time 631 00:35:17,724 --> 00:35:19,856 that we're lacking, we're missing here 632 00:35:19,900 --> 00:35:22,163 is just this family connections. 633 00:35:22,207 --> 00:35:25,775 - Love you all, and thank you for supporting my boy, 634 00:35:25,819 --> 00:35:28,822 and with what he's been going through. 635 00:35:28,865 --> 00:35:31,172 It's been a very um, it's been quite the rollercoaster. 636 00:35:31,216 --> 00:35:33,174 - Yes. 637 00:35:33,218 --> 00:35:35,220 Yeah, I'm glad we can all be here. 638 00:35:35,263 --> 00:35:38,179 And Liette, flying all the way from Calgary today, 639 00:35:38,223 --> 00:35:40,268 Li getting up at four in the morning. 640 00:35:40,312 --> 00:35:42,444 See, your parents, 641 00:35:42,488 --> 00:35:44,446 you might think your parents might love you a bit. 642 00:35:44,490 --> 00:35:46,883 - Yeah. - 643 00:36:02,290 --> 00:36:04,074 - I think it's, I feel like maybe it's in the summertime. 644 00:36:04,118 --> 00:36:05,815 - Huh? 645 00:36:05,859 --> 00:36:07,643 - I think it's maybe in the summertime, 646 00:36:07,687 --> 00:36:09,210 but I have no idea. I'll have to check when I get back. 647 00:36:09,254 --> 00:36:10,907 - Okay. 648 00:36:18,393 --> 00:36:20,221 - Jasmine. 649 00:36:20,265 --> 00:36:22,919 Jasmine can you come here for a minute, please? 650 00:36:22,963 --> 00:36:24,312 - They're struggling without you. 651 00:36:25,879 --> 00:36:27,968 They'd like to hear Creole, 652 00:36:28,011 --> 00:36:29,622 so can you two talk about something? 653 00:36:29,665 --> 00:36:31,667 - Or hey, you and my Dad go ahead. 654 00:36:31,711 --> 00:36:33,408 Yeah, you and Don go ahead, 655 00:36:33,452 --> 00:36:34,801 because you guys are better than me. 656 00:36:47,292 --> 00:36:48,945 - I understand. I understand it; I don't speak. 657 00:36:54,995 --> 00:36:56,736 - Uh, A, took me out of my beautiful country 658 00:36:56,779 --> 00:36:59,304 and brought me to the Badlands. 659 00:36:59,347 --> 00:37:00,957 Nobody speaks Creole here, yo, how am I supposed to speak? 660 00:37:09,052 --> 00:37:11,490 Because we wanted them to have that linguistic connections. 661 00:37:11,533 --> 00:37:15,276 So, it's ironic like, I speak English, French, 662 00:37:15,320 --> 00:37:18,671 Haitian Creole, uh, a fair amount of Spanish, 663 00:37:18,714 --> 00:37:20,542 and American Sign Language, 664 00:37:20,586 --> 00:37:23,110 and tiny bit of Heiltsuk. 665 00:37:23,153 --> 00:37:26,505 I just wish I could speak my original, 666 00:37:26,548 --> 00:37:30,683 my Aboriginal language better than I speak it, 667 00:37:30,726 --> 00:37:33,294 but no opportunity. I had way more opportunity 668 00:37:33,338 --> 00:37:35,470 to learn other languages than my own. 669 00:37:35,514 --> 00:37:37,167 - And that's what they did to me. 670 00:37:37,211 --> 00:37:39,082 They took me out of my native language place 671 00:37:39,126 --> 00:37:41,128 and brought me up. 672 00:37:41,171 --> 00:37:43,304 - Josiah, that's why you speak French, and then, 673 00:37:43,348 --> 00:37:45,088 when you go back to Haiti, people can understand you. 674 00:37:45,132 --> 00:37:46,829 - Well, they look at me like, man, 675 00:37:46,873 --> 00:37:48,788 what are you talkin' about? - Yeah. 676 00:37:48,831 --> 00:37:51,051 - It's sad. It's not the same. 677 00:37:54,968 --> 00:37:56,883 - Oh, that flash was...! - 678 00:37:56,926 --> 00:37:59,059 - Did it work? 679 00:37:59,102 --> 00:38:00,843 Okay, Josiah is the hard one to see. 680 00:38:07,241 --> 00:38:09,374 My opinion, they're just failing to recognize 681 00:38:09,417 --> 00:38:11,898 the human beings on the other side of those rules. 682 00:38:11,941 --> 00:38:14,248 Rules are, they're necessary, 683 00:38:14,292 --> 00:38:16,598 you can't have a functional tournament without rules, 684 00:38:16,642 --> 00:38:18,905 but on the other hand, 685 00:38:18,948 --> 00:38:21,429 there's sort of a rigidity 686 00:38:21,473 --> 00:38:23,823 and a lack of compassion 687 00:38:23,866 --> 00:38:26,347 regarding who is on the other side of those rules. 688 00:38:28,218 --> 00:38:31,352 This whole experience has been eye-opening, you know. 689 00:38:33,223 --> 00:38:35,400 - Tell me about it. - Indigenous politics are, 690 00:38:35,443 --> 00:38:37,184 are complicated to begin with, 691 00:38:37,227 --> 00:38:39,534 and then you add Nation allegiances 692 00:38:39,578 --> 00:38:41,623 and personalities, 693 00:38:43,886 --> 00:38:45,932 it's all, it is what it is. 694 00:38:47,412 --> 00:38:48,978 - Wow that sun is really killing you. 695 00:38:49,022 --> 00:38:51,372 - It's hitting my eye, like right in my eyes. 696 00:38:53,200 --> 00:38:54,941 - Jos, you're gonna get black. 697 00:38:54,984 --> 00:38:57,770 - Hopefully. 698 00:38:57,813 --> 00:38:59,989 - You're gonna get darker. - Hopefully. 699 00:39:00,033 --> 00:39:02,122 See, if you keep wearing that jacket you're, 700 00:39:02,165 --> 00:39:03,863 you're gonna run out of Vitamin D. 701 00:39:06,039 --> 00:39:08,302 You need the sun on your skin to get Vitamin D. 702 00:39:08,346 --> 00:39:10,130 - I'll take medicine. 703 00:39:10,173 --> 00:39:12,393 - This is, this is your doctor father speaking to you. 704 00:39:14,700 --> 00:39:17,006 - He might know a thing or two. - I think you guys need 705 00:39:17,050 --> 00:39:18,530 a little bit more Vitamin D, than me. 706 00:39:37,636 --> 00:39:39,551 It was nice to be back and see 707 00:39:39,594 --> 00:39:41,422 all the homies and everything, but at the same time, 708 00:39:41,466 --> 00:39:43,206 it was like, I don't know if I wanna be part 709 00:39:43,250 --> 00:39:45,905 of such a negative thing, you know? 710 00:39:49,691 --> 00:39:51,693 Our Hereditary Chiefs are not satisfied 711 00:39:51,737 --> 00:39:53,956 at leaving it there. 712 00:39:54,000 --> 00:39:55,828 Their desire and preference is 713 00:39:55,871 --> 00:39:58,613 to have a proper washing ceremony for Josiah done 714 00:39:58,657 --> 00:40:01,268 in Bella Bella, in the fall of 2019, 715 00:40:02,791 --> 00:40:05,925 to do it in our own territory. 716 00:40:05,968 --> 00:40:09,494 In some ways, it's gonna be that much more powerful. 717 00:40:24,117 --> 00:40:27,294 - Ariane, this one's even better! Come check this! 718 00:40:27,337 --> 00:40:29,165 - Hey, Mariah, I'm in a really big rush. 719 00:40:29,209 --> 00:40:30,689 I have leave in 10 minutes. - Man! 720 00:40:32,386 --> 00:40:34,301 Josiah was the cutest one out of all four of us. 721 00:40:35,694 --> 00:40:37,347 Then, I don't know what happened. 722 00:40:37,391 --> 00:40:39,349 At least he's actually legit smiling 'cause like, 723 00:40:39,393 --> 00:40:41,264 there are times that honestly, 724 00:40:41,308 --> 00:40:43,484 smiling for Josiah was like, not a thing. 725 00:40:43,528 --> 00:40:45,573 I guess every child that gets adopted, 726 00:40:45,617 --> 00:40:48,881 they seem to have different reactions. 727 00:40:50,491 --> 00:40:51,840 Sometimes they have different way of coping 728 00:40:51,884 --> 00:40:54,016 through different situations, and for Josiah, 729 00:40:54,060 --> 00:40:56,323 he's never really been great at expressing himself. 730 00:41:00,066 --> 00:41:02,024 That's Josiah with his Papa. 731 00:41:02,068 --> 00:41:04,592 That's who he was closest to. 732 00:41:04,636 --> 00:41:07,290 I guess probably his favourite person. 733 00:41:09,945 --> 00:41:11,773 They always knew, and we always talked about it, 734 00:41:11,817 --> 00:41:13,732 and we talked about how they came to join our family. 735 00:41:13,775 --> 00:41:16,038 Mariah always had her biological father in Haiti; 736 00:41:16,082 --> 00:41:17,736 we used to be able to go and visit him 737 00:41:17,779 --> 00:41:20,216 and spend time with him. And Josiah, 738 00:41:20,260 --> 00:41:22,175 both of his birth parents had passed away, 739 00:41:22,218 --> 00:41:24,046 so there was definitely a sense of, sort of, 740 00:41:24,090 --> 00:41:26,005 a real sense of loss in his life. 741 00:41:26,048 --> 00:41:28,355 I think that's pretty normal for adoptive kids 742 00:41:28,398 --> 00:41:30,400 to have to work through that in various stages of their life, 743 00:41:30,444 --> 00:41:32,838 as they mature. 744 00:41:32,881 --> 00:41:35,188 It's like an onion, you don't just deal with it once. 745 00:41:40,628 --> 00:41:42,587 I didn't even get to really talk to my Mama 746 00:41:42,630 --> 00:41:44,458 because I mean, she passed away so quick. 747 00:41:44,502 --> 00:41:47,417 I've always just had an image that my Mama and my Papa 748 00:41:47,461 --> 00:41:49,202 are always watching over me. So, I mean, 749 00:41:49,245 --> 00:41:51,030 I believe they're watching over me. 750 00:41:55,077 --> 00:41:58,211 - Anything that my biological children would have 751 00:41:58,254 --> 00:42:00,343 according to Canadian law, 752 00:42:00,387 --> 00:42:03,259 my adoptive children also have the right too. 753 00:42:03,303 --> 00:42:05,610 So, that's why they all have status, 754 00:42:05,653 --> 00:42:07,612 and people are like, "Oh, I never thought of it that way." 755 00:42:07,655 --> 00:42:10,092 - And I think the other thing is like, Indigeneity 756 00:42:10,136 --> 00:42:13,618 is not necessarily blood. - Blood, right. 757 00:42:13,661 --> 00:42:16,055 - It's not blood, it's like, involvement in your community. 758 00:42:16,098 --> 00:42:19,667 It's like, informing people, it's having like a pride 759 00:42:19,711 --> 00:42:21,408 and like, knowing your culture. - Yeah. 760 00:42:21,451 --> 00:42:23,584 - It's not just, "Oh, I'm full Native, 761 00:42:23,628 --> 00:42:25,847 I'm 100%," like, that's kind of weird. 762 00:42:25,891 --> 00:42:28,807 Blood just doesn't constitute being an Indigenous person, 763 00:42:28,850 --> 00:42:31,244 fully to me. 764 00:42:31,287 --> 00:42:33,594 And a lot of like, our questions about um, 765 00:42:33,638 --> 00:42:35,422 being Heiltsuk are always gonna come back to us being, 766 00:42:35,465 --> 00:42:37,598 white passing. - Yeah. 767 00:42:37,642 --> 00:42:40,209 - For sure, because to me, I do feel 768 00:42:40,253 --> 00:42:42,081 a responsibility to my community 769 00:42:42,124 --> 00:42:44,823 but I also almost feel like I don't have a say, 770 00:42:44,866 --> 00:42:46,651 and I don't want to centre myself in these discussions. 771 00:42:46,694 --> 00:42:48,087 What is this white girl doing? 772 00:42:48,130 --> 00:42:50,176 Talking about our issues, 773 00:42:50,219 --> 00:42:52,439 centring yourself on our issues, 774 00:42:52,482 --> 00:42:54,833 when she's not living the same experiences as us. 775 00:42:56,574 --> 00:42:58,880 Obviously, in terms of like, my ancestry and my Dad, 776 00:42:58,924 --> 00:43:02,057 like I am in Indigenous person but I don't look like one. 777 00:43:02,101 --> 00:43:04,669 I can very easily navigate like, the world, 778 00:43:04,712 --> 00:43:07,410 in way that I could pretend that I am not Indigenous at all. 779 00:43:07,454 --> 00:43:09,935 - I had this teacher in elementary, I think, 780 00:43:09,978 --> 00:43:12,198 that didn't believe me I was First Nations, 781 00:43:12,241 --> 00:43:15,027 for some reason, just super strange. 782 00:43:15,070 --> 00:43:17,638 And like, the next day I brought my status card 783 00:43:17,682 --> 00:43:20,902 to school, she was like, "Oh, like..." you know, 784 00:43:20,946 --> 00:43:23,252 because I don't look it, right. So, I mean, it does happen. 785 00:43:25,515 --> 00:43:28,344 But there's a sense of like, resentfulness 786 00:43:28,388 --> 00:43:31,434 when it comes to being white. Do I personally want 787 00:43:31,478 --> 00:43:34,133 to identify more with or whatever, right. 788 00:43:34,176 --> 00:43:37,136 And it's a tough question and I feel like I always 789 00:43:37,179 --> 00:43:39,138 kind of struggle with it. 790 00:43:39,181 --> 00:43:41,662 - Josiah, you were very cute. We were watching baby pictures. 791 00:43:41,706 --> 00:43:43,446 - I know I was cute. Y'all always tell me that. 792 00:43:44,883 --> 00:43:46,928 - Why you always so mad? Just be happy. 793 00:43:46,972 --> 00:43:48,930 - Yeah, and I was lying on the ground and you were next to me, 794 00:43:48,974 --> 00:43:50,845 Josiah, and I just put my arm around you like, 795 00:43:50,889 --> 00:43:52,673 "Josiah," just gonna lie there. 796 00:43:52,717 --> 00:43:54,675 - Josiah, you actually used to love me. 797 00:43:54,719 --> 00:43:57,069 You were always, you were playing trucks in my face, 798 00:43:57,112 --> 00:43:59,332 and you were trying to get me to play trucks. 799 00:43:59,375 --> 00:44:01,595 - Yeah, yeah, the keyword, they keyword, "loved". 800 00:44:01,639 --> 00:44:03,684 - Isn't that sad, though? - No, not really. 801 00:44:03,728 --> 00:44:05,686 - I'm sad about it. 802 00:44:05,730 --> 00:44:07,775 - Like, I remember in high school, he would like, 803 00:44:07,819 --> 00:44:09,995 protect me from like, the big, scary people who would like, 804 00:44:10,038 --> 00:44:11,866 make fun of me, or they would like, say things to me 805 00:44:11,910 --> 00:44:13,694 that were offensive, and he'd be like, 806 00:44:13,738 --> 00:44:15,130 "Oh, you're gonna talk to my sister like that? 807 00:44:15,174 --> 00:44:17,567 And [grumbles]" And kinda like, scare them away. 808 00:44:17,611 --> 00:44:19,657 So, he definitely cares about me and I know that. 809 00:44:19,700 --> 00:44:21,920 - If anything happens in this thing, you know what I'm sayin', 810 00:44:21,963 --> 00:44:23,791 it ain't 'cause of her, it's 'cause of me. 811 00:44:23,835 --> 00:44:25,706 - Josiah. - So just know. 812 00:44:25,750 --> 00:44:27,708 - This would not have happened without Dad 813 00:44:27,752 --> 00:44:29,797 and us pushing you to do it to begin with. 814 00:44:29,841 --> 00:44:32,321 - My nigga, it would've happened either way. 815 00:44:34,541 --> 00:44:36,456 You know why? 816 00:44:36,499 --> 00:44:38,763 'Cause the world needs to know that I am-- 817 00:44:38,806 --> 00:44:40,416 - This is not your attitude! 818 00:44:40,460 --> 00:44:42,201 You're just stunting for cameras. 819 00:44:42,244 --> 00:44:44,420 - I'm just talking outta my ass. - Stunting for the camera. 820 00:44:44,464 --> 00:44:46,771 - Always talking outta my ass. She's been knowing that shit. 821 00:44:46,814 --> 00:44:48,598 - Okay, well, you promised me a hug from this morning. 822 00:44:48,642 --> 00:44:50,470 - No, I didn't. - Yeah, ya did. 823 00:44:50,513 --> 00:44:52,646 - My nigger-- - If I change numbers. 824 00:44:52,690 --> 00:44:55,257 Yeah, you did! You promised. Oh. 825 00:44:55,301 --> 00:44:57,607 - Now, hey, listen to me. - I love you. 826 00:44:57,651 --> 00:45:00,045 - Get outta here! - Gotta get one more! 827 00:45:00,088 --> 00:45:02,743 - Come on! That was your turn! 828 00:45:02,787 --> 00:45:05,833 - Oh, can I get one on the, when I'm back? 829 00:45:05,877 --> 00:45:07,530 - We'll see how ya did! 830 00:45:09,184 --> 00:45:11,447 See what I mean by tough love? 831 00:45:11,491 --> 00:45:14,450 - Anyway, I love him. He's my brother, so. 832 00:45:16,104 --> 00:45:17,453 - And he puts on like, a brave face for everything, 833 00:45:17,497 --> 00:45:19,368 like he won't, even like, 834 00:45:19,412 --> 00:45:21,588 I don't think I've seen him cry 835 00:45:21,631 --> 00:45:23,938 since probably my Grandpa passed away, 836 00:45:23,982 --> 00:45:26,462 and even that was like, one tear. He just like, 837 00:45:26,506 --> 00:45:28,595 he might have cried in private and stuff, 838 00:45:28,638 --> 00:45:30,902 but he's like, like really, really private 839 00:45:30,945 --> 00:45:32,599 and he doesn't really share his emotions, at least with us. 840 00:45:34,644 --> 00:45:36,168 ♪ Jesus loves me 841 00:45:36,211 --> 00:45:38,997 ♪ Yes, he does love me 842 00:45:41,739 --> 00:45:44,785 Ah, ici, Ariane. - Ariane! Hey. 843 00:45:44,829 --> 00:45:46,047 Hey. Ariane! 844 00:45:46,091 --> 00:45:48,310 That's not nice. 845 00:45:53,838 --> 00:45:55,796 - Hold up. Hi, hi, hi! - 846 00:46:15,685 --> 00:46:17,513 - Ah! - Yeah! - Ah! 847 00:46:20,038 --> 00:46:21,909 - Whoa, Jos! 848 00:46:28,655 --> 00:46:31,614 - Um, I've asked you a few times 849 00:46:31,658 --> 00:46:34,313 but can you talk about your Dad? 850 00:46:34,356 --> 00:46:37,446 - I mean, we can maybe talk about him. Not today. 851 00:46:37,490 --> 00:46:38,970 - Not today? - Maybe another day. 852 00:46:39,013 --> 00:46:40,841 - Okay. 853 00:46:42,495 --> 00:46:44,627 - I don't know we, we had our differences. 854 00:46:44,671 --> 00:46:47,587 You know, I dunno, stuff happened in the past. 855 00:46:47,630 --> 00:46:50,503 We kinda, I kinda just didn't accept stuff 856 00:46:50,546 --> 00:46:52,722 and got upset. 857 00:46:52,766 --> 00:46:55,769 And I, I just kinda did my own thing, really. 858 00:46:55,813 --> 00:46:58,859 But... I dunno, life happens, really. 859 00:47:00,905 --> 00:47:03,733 We fight too much, honestly. Like, I, I'm honestly, 860 00:47:03,777 --> 00:47:05,474 I'm just an instigator with my family. 861 00:47:05,518 --> 00:47:07,825 I'm always starting some shit, yo. 862 00:47:07,868 --> 00:47:10,262 I don't even know why half the time, I just, I dunno, 863 00:47:10,305 --> 00:47:12,090 I'm an instigator for some reason. 864 00:47:12,133 --> 00:47:13,874 I'm always, there's always some shit goin' down 865 00:47:13,918 --> 00:47:15,615 and I'm always in the middle of it. 866 00:47:15,658 --> 00:47:17,486 It's always Josiah and this, Josiah and that. 867 00:47:17,530 --> 00:47:20,272 But so, we figured out that like, 868 00:47:20,315 --> 00:47:22,578 the best thing for us, 869 00:47:22,622 --> 00:47:24,537 I just stay away from them and we all be good. 870 00:47:26,017 --> 00:47:27,540 I don't go out instigating everybody, 871 00:47:27,583 --> 00:47:29,542 just like really my siblings mainly. 872 00:47:29,585 --> 00:47:31,283 But I don't know, there's something about the way 873 00:47:31,326 --> 00:47:34,373 they react it just, oh, it gets me. 874 00:47:34,416 --> 00:47:37,376 Makes me happy. I dunno. 875 00:47:37,419 --> 00:47:40,074 Me and Mariah, we had thing goin' on when we was kids 876 00:47:40,118 --> 00:47:43,295 like, we was like, we was honestly OG's and then, 877 00:47:43,338 --> 00:47:46,341 these white things came around. 878 00:47:47,865 --> 00:47:49,562 Changed the whole game. 879 00:47:52,782 --> 00:47:54,828 - And who? What are, what are white things? 880 00:47:54,872 --> 00:47:57,526 - Ariane and Tevan! Yeah. 881 00:47:57,570 --> 00:48:00,442 Me and Mariah, Liette and Don, 882 00:48:00,486 --> 00:48:02,575 were living good, y'all. Know what I'm saying? 883 00:48:02,618 --> 00:48:05,056 Life was good. We was out in Vancouver 884 00:48:05,099 --> 00:48:07,841 doing our thing, me and Mariah would eat some Cheerios 885 00:48:07,885 --> 00:48:10,365 behind the toilet at like 5:00 a.m. sometimes, 886 00:48:10,409 --> 00:48:12,324 you know. Just the way it was, you know what I'm saying, like. 887 00:48:13,978 --> 00:48:15,936 And then we had some more kids. 888 00:48:15,980 --> 00:48:18,156 Well, not we, but them. What? 889 00:48:18,199 --> 00:48:20,201 And then the house just got packed, like, 890 00:48:20,245 --> 00:48:22,812 people everywhere and always just, there was so much, 891 00:48:22,856 --> 00:48:24,640 there was just too much goin' on all the time. 892 00:48:26,729 --> 00:48:29,341 Like, there was just never a quiet place. 893 00:48:29,384 --> 00:48:30,864 It was kind of annoying honestly, sometimes. 894 00:48:34,650 --> 00:48:37,392 Honestly, I think ever since my Grandpa passed away really, 895 00:48:37,436 --> 00:48:40,178 I was definitely that hurt, that hurt a lot. 896 00:48:40,221 --> 00:48:43,833 But he was like the main, he kept me in order, yo. 897 00:48:43,877 --> 00:48:45,574 He, he didn't like when I, when I fought with the, 898 00:48:45,618 --> 00:48:47,446 with the other kids, and stuff like that. 899 00:48:47,489 --> 00:48:50,057 So, he'd always keep me straight. He'd be like, "Hey!" 900 00:48:50,101 --> 00:48:52,364 Whenever I'd start some shit, he'd be like, "Josiah!" 901 00:48:54,018 --> 00:48:55,410 So, like, he kept me in order. And then, like... 902 00:48:58,718 --> 00:49:00,850 don't mean I don't like him, though. 903 00:49:00,894 --> 00:49:02,678 He's always gonna be my blood and whatnot, 904 00:49:02,722 --> 00:49:06,160 but that dude piss me off sometimes. I tell ya that. 905 00:49:18,346 --> 00:49:20,000 I might be playing now. 906 00:49:20,044 --> 00:49:21,480 So, I don't know what's happening really, 907 00:49:21,523 --> 00:49:23,308 but I was on the phone with them just now, so. 908 00:49:23,351 --> 00:49:25,832 We'll see what happens. 909 00:49:25,875 --> 00:49:29,009 - Okay. So, you'd be playing with the Heiltsuk team? 910 00:49:29,053 --> 00:49:31,664 - Yeah, I guess so. Okay, yo, um, 911 00:49:31,707 --> 00:49:34,101 I got a call today saying that they want me to play 912 00:49:34,145 --> 00:49:35,929 for the tournament now. 913 00:49:35,973 --> 00:49:38,323 Okay. Bella Bella? 914 00:49:38,366 --> 00:49:40,934 - Yeah, but I'm figuring it out. Like, I messaged him. 915 00:49:40,978 --> 00:49:42,980 I messaged the coach yesterday and he's like, 916 00:49:43,023 --> 00:49:44,633 "Oh, I'll get back to you this afternoon, so." 917 00:49:44,677 --> 00:49:46,418 - I would, I mean, I would love to see you play 918 00:49:46,461 --> 00:49:48,333 in the tournament. That would just go. 919 00:49:48,376 --> 00:49:49,682 - Yeah, I mean, I'm cool with just going too, 920 00:49:49,725 --> 00:49:51,423 but alright, okay. 921 00:49:51,466 --> 00:49:53,468 - I know, but it's better if you can play. 922 00:49:53,512 --> 00:49:56,036 - Let's get it! - How does it feel? 923 00:49:56,080 --> 00:49:58,125 - I mean, I don't know. Good, I guess. 924 00:49:58,169 --> 00:50:00,301 I don't really have emotions for it. Doesn't really faze me. 925 00:50:00,345 --> 00:50:02,956 It is what it is. 926 00:50:03,000 --> 00:50:04,740 It was meant to happen. I don't know. 927 00:50:06,742 --> 00:50:08,483 I'm not gonna say that like, I'm overly excited or like, 928 00:50:08,527 --> 00:50:11,095 out of joy just for the... no. 929 00:50:11,138 --> 00:50:13,053 Cool, I'm playing ball. 930 00:50:13,097 --> 00:50:14,054 That's that. 931 00:50:49,350 --> 00:50:51,787 - Oh, it be like that, though. - It be like that. 932 00:50:51,831 --> 00:50:54,181 - I just, I literally was chilling one day 933 00:50:54,225 --> 00:50:55,835 and I seen a nigger and I was like, 934 00:50:55,878 --> 00:50:57,793 that kid right there, that's my bro. 935 00:50:57,837 --> 00:50:59,534 And that's how it went. - Is that how it went? 936 00:50:59,578 --> 00:51:01,580 - Pretty much. - Yo, literally like, 937 00:51:01,623 --> 00:51:03,495 ever since we was young 938 00:51:03,538 --> 00:51:05,410 we either was gonna become athletes 939 00:51:05,453 --> 00:51:07,368 or was gonna get into the music industry or something. 940 00:51:07,412 --> 00:51:09,327 Like, I mean, we stuck by. 941 00:51:09,370 --> 00:51:11,416 For the longest time we were straight, we played, 942 00:51:11,459 --> 00:51:13,331 we played sports. Like, the weed and all this shit, 943 00:51:13,374 --> 00:51:15,376 the lifestyle you guys see now, man, 944 00:51:15,420 --> 00:51:17,204 this came like years after fucking high school, bro. 945 00:51:19,119 --> 00:51:21,339 Yeah, no I'm going back now. - What, to play? 946 00:51:21,382 --> 00:51:23,776 - Yeah. I got a call today. - Have fun with your lungs. 947 00:51:23,819 --> 00:51:26,387 - Fuck me. - 948 00:51:26,431 --> 00:51:29,260 - Better start that cardio. - Better play half court, then. 949 00:51:29,303 --> 00:51:30,783 - Oh, Josiah, you're actually trying to hoop again? 950 00:51:30,826 --> 00:51:32,785 - Hoop? Oh, like, it's goin' down. 951 00:51:32,828 --> 00:51:35,353 Like, I'm going up. - Yikes. 952 00:51:35,396 --> 00:51:37,006 - I wanna come watch. WE should just go to watch. 953 00:51:37,050 --> 00:51:38,878 - Fuck you, guys. 954 00:51:38,921 --> 00:51:42,055 Can I just say, bro, I'm sorry, I'll give you a hoop mix tape. 955 00:51:42,099 --> 00:51:44,971 - When he plays he's gonna beyond fitted out of his mind too, 956 00:51:45,014 --> 00:51:47,321 so like, you know, like-- 957 00:51:47,365 --> 00:51:49,236 - I don't work out, I don't run, I don't hoop, 958 00:51:49,280 --> 00:51:52,021 I barely eat, I smoke weed. 959 00:51:52,065 --> 00:51:53,849 - Whadda ya mean ya barely? That shit. 960 00:52:01,118 --> 00:52:02,336 - Um, 961 00:52:04,208 --> 00:52:08,037 I think it's definitely like harder when you're younger 962 00:52:08,081 --> 00:52:11,432 'cause you're a little bit more unappreciative. 963 00:52:11,476 --> 00:52:15,088 'Cause I mean, for me, 'cause I was always thinking 964 00:52:15,132 --> 00:52:17,438 that I still wanted my family there 965 00:52:17,482 --> 00:52:20,180 and this wasn't really my family here until like, 966 00:52:20,224 --> 00:52:21,877 I grew up and I started appreciating 967 00:52:21,921 --> 00:52:23,966 what they actually do for me. 968 00:52:24,010 --> 00:52:27,100 But for the most part it's pretty good. 969 00:52:27,144 --> 00:52:29,276 - It's kinda, it's kind of, with the all Native shit, 970 00:52:29,320 --> 00:52:31,235 I don't, I didn't really know any different, 971 00:52:31,278 --> 00:52:32,975 you know what I'm sayin', like this is how it was. 972 00:52:33,019 --> 00:52:34,586 Like, I had no other choice. 973 00:52:34,629 --> 00:52:36,457 So, it's like, it is what it is. 974 00:52:36,501 --> 00:52:38,851 But like, I don't know, 975 00:52:38,894 --> 00:52:40,679 I'm not even gonna talk bad about my parents or nothing, 976 00:52:40,722 --> 00:52:42,637 like I fucks with them but... 977 00:52:42,681 --> 00:52:45,118 I don't know there's definitely, 978 00:52:45,162 --> 00:52:46,598 I dunno, something different about it, y'all. 979 00:52:46,641 --> 00:52:48,904 Something's weird about it. 980 00:52:48,948 --> 00:52:52,821 - I don't think me personally, I would do adoption though. 981 00:52:52,865 --> 00:52:55,389 Just from knowing how I went through. 982 00:52:55,433 --> 00:52:57,304 - I don't think I would personally. 983 00:52:57,348 --> 00:52:59,698 I've always thought about doing it just because I feel like, 984 00:52:59,741 --> 00:53:01,656 okay, yeah, there are those struggling kids out there, 985 00:53:01,700 --> 00:53:03,615 and all that, that want, like that need a family, 986 00:53:03,658 --> 00:53:05,443 but at the same time it's like, 987 00:53:05,486 --> 00:53:07,314 I don't know if I wanna do that to a kid. 988 00:53:07,358 --> 00:53:09,098 Like, I don't know, it's that weird feeling like yeah, 989 00:53:09,142 --> 00:53:11,405 no, there's all the love and everything there, but like-- 990 00:53:11,449 --> 00:53:13,712 - It's not the same. 991 00:53:13,755 --> 00:53:16,062 - I feel like there's different energy it being like, 992 00:53:16,105 --> 00:53:18,151 your legit blood, you know what I'm saying. 993 00:53:18,195 --> 00:53:20,458 And I could be wrong, but I mean, that's how I feel. 994 00:53:20,501 --> 00:53:23,287 I just feel like there's something different there that's like-- 995 00:53:23,330 --> 00:53:24,331 - I just felt like it's like, 996 00:53:25,898 --> 00:53:27,247 like especially like for us, 997 00:53:29,510 --> 00:53:32,339 you're not really gonna know what that real Mom 998 00:53:32,383 --> 00:53:35,647 love feel like, or real Dad love feel like. 999 00:53:35,690 --> 00:53:37,910 - 'Cause you know how whenever-- 1000 00:53:37,953 --> 00:53:39,955 - Straight from your own blood, you know what I mean. 1001 00:53:39,999 --> 00:53:41,740 - Cuz, you know, how every Mother says there's like, 1002 00:53:41,783 --> 00:53:44,438 that motherly love? Like-- - Yeah. We don't have that. 1003 00:53:44,482 --> 00:53:48,312 - What mother? I don't know? I haven't met. Cool. 1004 00:53:48,355 --> 00:53:49,835 - What is it, like you know what I mean? Like, you know. 1005 00:53:49,878 --> 00:53:52,054 - I got the love that I got. 1006 00:53:52,098 --> 00:53:53,926 And I'm not saying it was shitty, 1007 00:53:53,969 --> 00:53:56,233 I'm not saying there's like, any better or wrong way, 1008 00:53:56,276 --> 00:53:58,278 but I mean like-- - You only knew one thing. 1009 00:53:58,322 --> 00:54:00,933 - Yeah, so I mean, you never, - It was regular. 1010 00:54:00,976 --> 00:54:02,761 - There's a feel, there's a tension, or something. 1011 00:54:02,804 --> 00:54:04,458 - Yeah. - At the end of the day, 1012 00:54:04,502 --> 00:54:06,460 you know like, we're different 1013 00:54:06,504 --> 00:54:09,463 - There's that image of niggers, you know what I'm saying, 1014 00:54:09,507 --> 00:54:12,988 and I am a nigger. And the way that I dress. 1015 00:54:13,032 --> 00:54:15,295 Like, the people, like just my lifestyle, 1016 00:54:15,339 --> 00:54:17,993 I've got that image portrayed around me, so it's like. 1017 00:54:19,734 --> 00:54:21,823 And then you've got my siblings that are the good white kids, 1018 00:54:21,867 --> 00:54:24,173 you know what I'm saying. So, it's like, 1019 00:54:24,217 --> 00:54:26,393 am I competing against them, or what? Like-- 1020 00:54:26,437 --> 00:54:28,917 I'm not gonna say they treated us differently, but I just, 1021 00:54:28,961 --> 00:54:31,485 I don't know, just like, the energy around us, 1022 00:54:31,529 --> 00:54:33,400 and like at times I've just, I've noticed some. 1023 00:54:33,444 --> 00:54:35,968 But I don't know, I guess it is what it is. 1024 00:55:00,471 --> 00:55:02,777 Back home in Bella Bella, 1025 00:55:02,821 --> 00:55:05,258 when we were growing up, if you did something wrong 1026 00:55:05,302 --> 00:55:06,825 with your fishing skills, or whatever, 1027 00:55:06,868 --> 00:55:10,219 you got called a farmer. 1028 00:55:10,263 --> 00:55:13,440 So, I never dreamed I would be doing this. 1029 00:55:13,484 --> 00:55:17,401 But it matches my philosophy of raising your own food 1030 00:55:17,444 --> 00:55:19,446 and I'm a meat eater, 1031 00:55:19,490 --> 00:55:22,188 so I like the idea of knowing where it comes from. 1032 00:55:26,192 --> 00:55:28,150 I grew up in the 70s, in Bella Bella. 1033 00:55:30,327 --> 00:55:32,503 When I was growing up, 1034 00:55:32,546 --> 00:55:36,245 most of my exposure to religion was the United Church 1035 00:55:36,289 --> 00:55:38,378 because we lived literally across the street 1036 00:55:38,422 --> 00:55:41,294 from the United Church building. 1037 00:55:41,338 --> 00:55:44,384 Missionaries have been involved in, 1038 00:55:44,428 --> 00:55:47,387 in my Nation since the 1800's or maybe even earlier. 1039 00:55:49,868 --> 00:55:52,566 There had been uh, influence 1040 00:55:52,610 --> 00:55:54,351 of more Evangelical Christianity 1041 00:55:54,394 --> 00:55:57,528 that had some kind of an impact on social norms 1042 00:55:57,571 --> 00:56:00,444 or social values becoming a little bit more conservative 1043 00:56:00,487 --> 00:56:03,403 in that domain. 1044 00:56:03,447 --> 00:56:06,798 Religion became a bigger thing for me 1045 00:56:06,841 --> 00:56:10,105 after I left Bella Bella and um, 1046 00:56:10,149 --> 00:56:11,933 left and went away for high school 1047 00:56:11,977 --> 00:56:13,848 and got more deeply involved. 1048 00:56:15,546 --> 00:56:17,025 If you were LGBT, 1049 00:56:18,679 --> 00:56:20,725 which I actually didn't know that I was 1050 00:56:20,768 --> 00:56:23,467 when I left Bella Bella at age 14, 1051 00:56:23,510 --> 00:56:26,731 it took about a year before I consciously realized 1052 00:56:26,774 --> 00:56:28,733 that I was gay, 1053 00:56:28,776 --> 00:56:30,822 but I couldn't accept it. 1054 00:56:32,693 --> 00:56:35,740 And just as I became aware that I was gay, 1055 00:56:35,783 --> 00:56:38,438 there was this big debate over whether you were acceptable 1056 00:56:38,482 --> 00:56:41,093 as a person, or not. 1057 00:56:41,136 --> 00:56:44,618 And so, I wasn't about to come out of the closet. 1058 00:56:44,662 --> 00:56:48,230 And then I got in my relationship with my ex-wife, 1059 00:56:48,274 --> 00:56:51,277 with Liette, and we fell in love 1060 00:56:51,320 --> 00:56:54,323 and it was legit, and got married, 1061 00:56:54,367 --> 00:56:56,282 because that's just what you did back in those, 1062 00:56:56,325 --> 00:56:58,545 in those circles. 1063 00:56:58,589 --> 00:57:01,548 You didn't prolong a relationship um, 1064 00:57:01,592 --> 00:57:03,463 and move in together without being married. 1065 00:57:03,507 --> 00:57:05,900 That was prohibited by the church. 1066 00:57:05,944 --> 00:57:08,120 And that kinda took precedence over my, 1067 00:57:08,163 --> 00:57:09,948 my Heiltsuk identity. 1068 00:57:12,429 --> 00:57:15,170 Um, and it wasn't until 13 years into marriage 1069 00:57:15,214 --> 00:57:17,695 when I just couldn't, couldn't um, 1070 00:57:19,348 --> 00:57:21,481 pretend to be something that I wasn't anymore, 1071 00:57:21,525 --> 00:57:25,224 and then, came out and we separated and divorced, 1072 00:57:25,267 --> 00:57:28,183 and sorted all of that out afterwards. 1073 00:57:29,402 --> 00:57:31,056 Come here, Bella. 1074 00:57:31,099 --> 00:57:32,971 But I feel like I was railroaded 1075 00:57:33,014 --> 00:57:35,495 into that path of life 1076 00:57:35,539 --> 00:57:37,845 where you had to just follow the evangelical 1077 00:57:37,889 --> 00:57:40,326 uh, script. 1078 00:57:40,369 --> 00:57:43,503 I've completely discarded and rejected all of that 1079 00:57:43,547 --> 00:57:46,288 because I feel like it was so damaging. 1080 00:57:46,332 --> 00:57:48,769 Like, why can't you be who you are? 1081 00:57:48,813 --> 00:57:51,337 If there is a Creator, 1082 00:57:51,380 --> 00:57:54,035 the Creator made me who and what I am, 1083 00:57:54,079 --> 00:57:56,342 and I'm not, I'm not gonna try to mess with that. 1084 00:58:09,355 --> 00:58:12,967 As a gay man with two partners, 1085 00:58:13,011 --> 00:58:15,361 a polyamorous triad relationship, 1086 00:58:15,404 --> 00:58:17,319 well, that's my family. 1087 00:58:22,194 --> 00:58:24,588 In a lot of ways, I, I live with that decision 1088 00:58:24,631 --> 00:58:28,548 to not come out of the closet for so many years, 1089 00:58:28,592 --> 00:58:30,637 and how it impacted people, 1090 00:58:30,681 --> 00:58:33,031 especially Liette and my children, 1091 00:58:33,074 --> 00:58:35,468 but on the other hand, like, she's a remarkable person. 1092 00:58:35,512 --> 00:58:38,384 I, I just think I, I, I don't know, 1093 00:58:38,427 --> 00:58:41,213 I won the lottery of the universe 1094 00:58:41,256 --> 00:58:43,476 having her as the Mother of my children, 1095 00:58:43,520 --> 00:58:46,566 because she's done such a good job 1096 00:58:46,610 --> 00:58:49,177 getting through all of that, moving on with her life, 1097 00:58:49,221 --> 00:58:53,007 while maintaining a relationship with someone who, 1098 00:58:53,051 --> 00:58:55,923 in a lot of ways, although unintentionally, 1099 00:58:55,967 --> 00:58:58,230 it was a betrayal. 1100 00:58:58,273 --> 00:59:01,407 So, you know, I feel bad about that, even to this day, 1101 00:59:01,450 --> 00:59:03,365 I probably will to the day I die. 1102 00:59:04,932 --> 00:59:08,196 So, in a lot of ways, I felt very unburdened. 1103 00:59:08,240 --> 00:59:11,678 And then, in other ways, by doing so, 1104 00:59:11,722 --> 00:59:14,986 I just destroyed someone's life, 1105 00:59:15,029 --> 00:59:18,424 namely my ex-wife, right, 1106 00:59:18,467 --> 00:59:21,688 and threatened the sort of psychological stability 1107 00:59:21,732 --> 00:59:24,430 and well-being of my children by initiating a divorce. 1108 00:59:27,389 --> 00:59:29,304 I don't doubt that Josiah loves me. 1109 00:59:29,348 --> 00:59:31,045 I, I know he does, 1110 00:59:31,089 --> 00:59:34,701 um, but whether it's a, 1111 00:59:34,745 --> 00:59:37,182 it's a conflicted thing that he has to go through, 1112 00:59:38,705 --> 00:59:39,706 that's his journey. 1113 00:59:41,403 --> 00:59:43,841 My, my journey was conflicted as well. 1114 00:59:43,884 --> 00:59:47,496 So, I, I just hope that eventually at some point 1115 00:59:47,540 --> 00:59:50,499 or other, he just comes to realize that you don't, 1116 00:59:50,543 --> 00:59:52,501 you don't always get to pick your family. 1117 00:59:52,545 --> 00:59:55,069 Sometimes you do, but you don't usually. 1118 00:59:55,113 --> 00:59:57,245 So, it is what it is. 1119 01:00:27,580 --> 01:00:29,887 This is Bella Bella. 1120 01:00:29,930 --> 01:00:31,758 Honestly, for me, this is the closest I get to Haiti, 1121 01:00:31,802 --> 01:00:33,760 'cause like, you've got water, the weather's beautiful, 1122 01:00:33,804 --> 01:00:35,196 you got a little bit of sunshine. 1123 01:00:35,240 --> 01:00:37,546 Calgary, you got nothin' of that. 1124 01:00:37,590 --> 01:00:40,288 So, I mean, honestly, feel, being here, 1125 01:00:40,332 --> 01:00:42,203 I'm like, this is like, pretty much my second, 1126 01:00:42,247 --> 01:00:44,292 I'd say this is probably like second closest home to Haiti. 1127 01:00:44,336 --> 01:00:46,512 So, for me, it's definitely a vibe coming out here. 1128 01:00:46,555 --> 01:00:48,340 And I mean, just my Grandpa, like, my Grandpa was like, 1129 01:00:48,383 --> 01:00:50,559 really the backbone of me and all that. 1130 01:00:50,603 --> 01:00:52,561 So, just being here is like, it just make, 1131 01:00:52,605 --> 01:00:53,911 I feel like I'm closer to him, and all that. 1132 01:00:53,954 --> 01:00:55,608 And I mean like, his burial is over there, so, 1133 01:00:55,652 --> 01:00:58,524 I mean, yeah, no, I flex with this place. 1134 01:00:58,567 --> 01:01:00,744 It's definitely, it's definitely a spot. 1135 01:01:00,787 --> 01:01:03,485 Like, these people are homies; they family, and all that. 1136 01:01:03,529 --> 01:01:05,009 So, it's dope. 1137 01:01:08,012 --> 01:01:10,797 I dunno, growing up, after my parents got a divorce, 1138 01:01:10,841 --> 01:01:12,756 I was a really difficult child. 1139 01:01:12,799 --> 01:01:14,801 Went through a bunch of rough stages. 1140 01:01:14,845 --> 01:01:16,542 Fucked shit up. Was really angry. 1141 01:01:16,585 --> 01:01:18,370 Just not happy with life and just everything. 1142 01:01:18,413 --> 01:01:21,373 So um, ever since then, 1143 01:01:21,416 --> 01:01:24,724 I definitely pushed away from my parents, 1144 01:01:24,768 --> 01:01:26,813 and I just like, I don't know, 1145 01:01:26,857 --> 01:01:28,728 I definitely made it a weird situation with them, like, 1146 01:01:28,772 --> 01:01:31,165 from like, the age of probably like, 12, 13, 1147 01:01:31,209 --> 01:01:33,037 'til I was like, 1148 01:01:35,256 --> 01:01:37,563 shit like, 18, 19, 1149 01:01:37,606 --> 01:01:39,347 maybe 20, 21, something like that. 1150 01:01:40,958 --> 01:01:42,786 I was just a, I was just a shit. 1151 01:01:42,829 --> 01:01:45,136 They pretty much like, ignited the rowdiness in my life, yo. 1152 01:01:45,179 --> 01:01:48,008 If anything, it was on them. I blame you! 1153 01:01:48,052 --> 01:01:50,445 Like, if it wasn't for them, yo, I was a chill kid. 1154 01:01:50,489 --> 01:01:52,230 Somewhat chill, you know what I'm saying. 1155 01:01:52,273 --> 01:01:54,362 Like, I was somewhat chill. Life might've been different; 1156 01:01:54,406 --> 01:01:56,147 life might've not been different. 1157 01:01:56,190 --> 01:01:57,975 Who knows what would've happened 1158 01:01:58,018 --> 01:01:59,628 if I didn't go through the way, life as I did, 1159 01:01:59,672 --> 01:02:01,630 you know what I'm saying, so. 1160 01:02:01,674 --> 01:02:03,458 And I've said this multiple times, 1161 01:02:03,502 --> 01:02:05,591 if you ask me when I see a family, I see, 1162 01:02:05,634 --> 01:02:08,681 I picture Mama, Papa, junior, and sissy, 1163 01:02:08,725 --> 01:02:10,814 alls chillin' under one roof, you know what I'm saying. 1164 01:02:10,857 --> 01:02:13,947 That's how, that's how when, and if you asked me 1165 01:02:13,991 --> 01:02:15,819 when I was 10 years old or when I was younger. 1166 01:02:15,862 --> 01:02:17,821 If you ask me now, if you ask me in like, 50 years, 1167 01:02:17,864 --> 01:02:21,999 when you ask me when I see a family, that's what I see, like. 1168 01:02:22,042 --> 01:02:24,479 Or you could've asked me how, how I would've wanted it to go, 1169 01:02:24,523 --> 01:02:26,873 I would've been like, no, don't, like there's no break-ups, 1170 01:02:26,917 --> 01:02:28,440 like, shut the fuck up, like, that's stupid. 1171 01:02:28,483 --> 01:02:30,659 But I mean, I, I can't tell them to do that, you know. 1172 01:02:30,703 --> 01:02:34,402 So, it is what it is, but yeah, no, yeah, 1173 01:02:34,446 --> 01:02:36,274 no that's pretty much it, like. 1174 01:02:38,537 --> 01:02:40,191 - So, how did your, what was the conversation like, 1175 01:02:40,234 --> 01:02:44,021 when your Dad, like, came out to you guys? 1176 01:02:44,064 --> 01:02:45,457 I don't know, you'd have to ask him. 1177 01:02:47,111 --> 01:02:49,156 I try not to keep--remember that shit in my life. 1178 01:02:49,200 --> 01:02:51,898 I just toss that all out really. I don't, I don't care about it. 1179 01:02:51,942 --> 01:02:54,074 Like, you'd have to ask him if you really wanna know. 1180 01:02:54,118 --> 01:02:56,860 He could tell you, probably. I honestly probably left 1181 01:02:56,903 --> 01:02:58,426 halfway through. I did, I did leave halfway through, 1182 01:02:58,470 --> 01:03:00,298 so I really wouldn't know. - Really? 1183 01:03:00,341 --> 01:03:02,343 - Yeah, I just, I was like, nigger this is stupid as fuck, 1184 01:03:02,387 --> 01:03:04,563 like you're breaking up with my Mom? Like, alright peace out. 1185 01:03:04,606 --> 01:03:06,695 I was just pissed off and I left. 1186 01:03:06,739 --> 01:03:09,263 So, if you wanna know, you can ask him, but... 1187 01:03:09,307 --> 01:03:11,570 I just dipped out. 1188 01:03:13,877 --> 01:03:15,879 It took him a lot of work to get me to like, 1189 01:03:15,922 --> 01:03:17,881 start talking up again, because I would not talk to him, 1190 01:03:17,924 --> 01:03:20,709 I wouldn't answer his calls. Um, 1191 01:03:20,753 --> 01:03:23,712 I was just disappointed. 1192 01:03:23,756 --> 01:03:25,845 Coming from my situation, not having parents 1193 01:03:25,889 --> 01:03:27,673 and just like having a Mom pass away and all that shit, 1194 01:03:27,716 --> 01:03:30,328 and just finally getting a family and all that, 1195 01:03:30,371 --> 01:03:33,679 and then, that just not working on it and all that shit, 1196 01:03:33,722 --> 01:03:35,681 I'm not saying it's my fault, but it's just fucked up. 1197 01:03:35,724 --> 01:03:37,726 So, I mean, it was just the whole thing 1198 01:03:37,770 --> 01:03:39,554 that was kinda fucked up for me. 1199 01:03:39,598 --> 01:03:43,471 But yeah, that's kinda why I just do my thing, 1200 01:03:43,515 --> 01:03:46,344 'cause like, I dunno, it's kinda fucked up still. 1201 01:03:46,387 --> 01:03:48,868 I'm still, it's all fucked up. 1202 01:03:48,912 --> 01:03:51,784 I ain't gonna say I ain't got love for the man. 1203 01:03:51,828 --> 01:03:53,917 You know, he helped me get my, beat this case. 1204 01:03:53,960 --> 01:03:55,744 You know, we filed for the right shit and all that, man. 1205 01:03:55,788 --> 01:03:57,659 We out here, doing shit and all that, so, 1206 01:03:57,703 --> 01:04:00,140 so I definitely still have love 1207 01:04:00,184 --> 01:04:01,750 and I still fucks with that nigger for that shit. 1208 01:04:01,794 --> 01:04:02,969 No, that was a lot, you know what I'm saying, 1209 01:04:03,013 --> 01:04:04,710 it was a long process. 1210 01:04:04,753 --> 01:04:06,755 The fact that he did that, you know, means he's like, 1211 01:04:06,799 --> 01:04:08,366 his heart is in the right place and he want, 1212 01:04:08,409 --> 01:04:10,194 he wants to do good, but... 1213 01:04:13,414 --> 01:04:15,764 with the big picture, 1214 01:04:15,808 --> 01:04:17,897 we both standing on different corners of the temple, so. 1215 01:04:20,334 --> 01:04:22,119 Don't mean we're enemies, or nothin'. 1216 01:04:40,964 --> 01:04:43,923 Can someone call Josiah, please? Dad? 1217 01:04:47,492 --> 01:04:49,537 Can you call? I can't call. - Why? 1218 01:04:49,581 --> 01:04:51,365 - 'Cause I don't know. 1219 01:04:51,409 --> 01:04:53,367 - I don't think he's gonna answer. 1220 01:04:53,411 --> 01:04:55,935 Dad, can you call Jos? 1221 01:04:55,979 --> 01:04:58,503 Procession in starts at 10. 1222 01:04:58,546 --> 01:05:00,940 And it's five after nine now. 1223 01:05:02,463 --> 01:05:04,770 So, we're all here now just waiting on you. 1224 01:05:06,293 --> 01:05:07,860 Okay, okay. 1225 01:05:08,469 --> 01:05:10,602 A bientôt. Okay, bye. 1226 01:05:23,484 --> 01:05:25,051 Why is my whole family spread out? 1227 01:05:25,095 --> 01:05:28,054 Tevan's right there, Mariah's over there, 1228 01:05:28,098 --> 01:05:30,056 Liette's over there. Who knows where everybody's at, man? 1229 01:05:30,100 --> 01:05:32,667 - Get someone to come talk to you. 1230 01:05:50,859 --> 01:05:53,862 - We're turning a page on some of the dark chapters 1231 01:05:53,906 --> 01:05:55,038 in our people's history, 1232 01:05:57,910 --> 01:05:59,738 and we're coming together here to celebrate 1233 01:05:59,781 --> 01:06:02,567 the opening of our new 1234 01:06:04,482 --> 01:06:06,397 Our people have been waiting for this moment 1235 01:06:06,440 --> 01:06:08,225 for a long, long time, 1236 01:06:09,748 --> 01:06:12,055 and it was the belief of our Elders 1237 01:06:12,098 --> 01:06:14,231 that it was the missionaries who intentionally destroyed 1238 01:06:14,274 --> 01:06:16,581 the last Big House 1239 01:06:16,624 --> 01:06:19,671 that stood here in our community, 1240 01:06:19,714 --> 01:06:21,934 our territory. 1241 01:06:21,978 --> 01:06:24,023 The churches that were here at the time. 1242 01:06:25,764 --> 01:06:28,288 So, how ironic is it that we're here on a Sunday 1243 01:06:28,332 --> 01:06:30,247 celebrating this again. 1244 01:07:45,017 --> 01:07:46,714 - Okay. 1245 01:08:07,257 --> 01:08:09,128 - Why did you ask me to do your hair? 1246 01:08:09,172 --> 01:08:10,956 - Especially living here, in Bella Bella, 1247 01:08:10,999 --> 01:08:13,219 like now that I just moved here, I'm like okay, 1248 01:08:13,263 --> 01:08:15,352 there's no hair product stuff here. 1249 01:08:15,395 --> 01:08:17,919 I'm like, like literally the only Black people 1250 01:08:17,963 --> 01:08:20,444 in Bella Bella. 1251 01:08:22,576 --> 01:08:25,013 So, then like, who taught you to, to do hair? 1252 01:08:25,057 --> 01:08:27,190 - Honestly, YouTube. 1253 01:08:27,233 --> 01:08:29,061 - Yeah. 1254 01:08:29,105 --> 01:08:31,150 - YouTube, more than anything. I'm not perfect at it. 1255 01:08:33,631 --> 01:08:35,589 My Mom did my hair a lot. 1256 01:08:35,633 --> 01:08:38,418 Um, my Dad would a lot of ponytails, too. 1257 01:08:38,462 --> 01:08:40,159 I guess growing up 1258 01:08:41,595 --> 01:08:44,032 we didn't really um, like me, 1259 01:08:45,730 --> 01:08:48,385 I, I wasn't taught exactly like, 1260 01:08:48,428 --> 01:08:49,995 how to do like, cornrows and things like that. 1261 01:08:51,692 --> 01:08:55,218 Um, but now I find that I've been practicing 1262 01:08:55,261 --> 01:08:58,351 doing a few things, so they're not super perfect, 1263 01:08:58,395 --> 01:09:00,658 but I've been, I've been practicing because I'm like, 1264 01:09:00,701 --> 01:09:02,790 oh, when I have my own children, 1265 01:09:02,834 --> 01:09:05,315 I wanna try this, and I would love to do that. 1266 01:09:05,358 --> 01:09:09,057 So, I kinda feel sometimes like I've sorta missed out. 1267 01:09:09,101 --> 01:09:10,885 a little disappointed that I'm like, oh, yeah, 1268 01:09:10,929 --> 01:09:12,365 I didn't get to learn to braid hair, and all that, 1269 01:09:12,409 --> 01:09:14,280 at a young age, 1270 01:09:14,324 --> 01:09:17,196 or have that many people teach me 1271 01:09:17,240 --> 01:09:18,197 how to braid hair. 1272 01:09:20,025 --> 01:09:22,897 Um, but now I guess like, it's better... 1273 01:09:22,941 --> 01:09:25,248 to do, late than never. 1274 01:09:25,291 --> 01:09:27,119 So, I'm learning, little by little. 1275 01:09:27,163 --> 01:09:29,643 Um, I'm so happy that I moved here, 1276 01:09:29,687 --> 01:09:32,255 but I'm also like, ooh, I hope I don't like lose, 1277 01:09:32,298 --> 01:09:34,518 like, lose my Black-ness a little bit. 1278 01:09:34,561 --> 01:09:36,737 - Yeah? - You know, 1279 01:09:36,781 --> 01:09:38,217 like I'm loving like, the culture that I'm learning 1280 01:09:38,261 --> 01:09:40,350 and um, 1281 01:09:43,004 --> 01:09:45,485 and I do, I do take a lot of pride into, 1282 01:09:46,530 --> 01:09:49,141 into my heritage and um, 1283 01:09:49,185 --> 01:09:51,274 especially the Heiltsuk side. 1284 01:09:51,317 --> 01:09:53,450 It's amazing just to learn a lot of, 1285 01:09:53,493 --> 01:09:55,843 a lot of things. Like, especially this weekend, 1286 01:09:55,887 --> 01:09:57,454 like there's a lot of things I didn't know. 1287 01:09:57,497 --> 01:10:00,283 Um, and it's kinda been, 1288 01:10:00,326 --> 01:10:02,285 but I feel like this weekend also has kinda been 1289 01:10:02,328 --> 01:10:05,331 a bit of a emotional, emotional rollercoaster; 1290 01:10:05,375 --> 01:10:06,767 a bit of a struggle, too, 1291 01:10:06,811 --> 01:10:08,595 like just being there for Josiah. 1292 01:10:08,639 --> 01:10:10,423 Um, 1293 01:10:10,467 --> 01:10:13,992 and also actually, even just being there for my family. 1294 01:10:15,298 --> 01:10:17,909 And just knowing like, 1295 01:10:17,952 --> 01:10:19,954 the hardship that we actually did face, and the stress, 1296 01:10:19,998 --> 01:10:22,130 and the negativity, and all that. 1297 01:10:22,174 --> 01:10:24,176 I think my Grandpa would be really proud, 1298 01:10:24,220 --> 01:10:27,701 how my Dad really, really fought for, for his family. 1299 01:10:30,182 --> 01:10:33,011 And to make sure that our culture is not disrespected, 1300 01:10:35,143 --> 01:10:37,668 um, and that we really uplift those that are, 1301 01:10:37,711 --> 01:10:39,887 that are our own. 1302 01:10:39,931 --> 01:10:43,108 - I noticed that Josiah can be a little mean... 1303 01:10:43,151 --> 01:10:45,153 - Mm-hmm. - towards you. 1304 01:10:45,197 --> 01:10:47,547 - I don't know, I think it's 'cause since I've, 1305 01:10:49,419 --> 01:10:50,942 I think it's since, probably since I've been dating girls, 1306 01:10:50,985 --> 01:10:53,292 probably is where he's-- 1307 01:10:53,336 --> 01:10:55,555 Well, he kind of did the same with my Dad, like, 1308 01:10:55,599 --> 01:10:57,731 it took him a long time when my Dad came out, 1309 01:10:57,775 --> 01:11:00,168 and everything. It was like, super hard on him 1310 01:11:00,212 --> 01:11:03,128 and it took a long time to get where he is today, 1311 01:11:03,171 --> 01:11:06,218 where he can kinda be part of like, 1312 01:11:06,262 --> 01:11:08,176 when we have family dinners and stuff. 1313 01:11:08,220 --> 01:11:11,789 But like, he was really angry for a while. 1314 01:11:11,832 --> 01:11:14,792 So, I'm assuming that's probably the same thing. 1315 01:11:14,835 --> 01:11:17,490 They've really embraced, 1316 01:11:17,534 --> 01:11:20,319 you know, my identity and everything, and they, 1317 01:11:20,363 --> 01:11:22,974 they just, 1318 01:11:23,017 --> 01:11:24,845 yeah, they didn't make it a big deal. 1319 01:11:26,151 --> 01:11:29,023 So, yeah, that's, that's kinda how I like it. 1320 01:11:29,067 --> 01:11:30,982 For sure. 1321 01:11:38,206 --> 01:11:39,556 - Thank you. 1322 01:11:44,038 --> 01:11:45,866 I was more sad than devastated, 1323 01:11:45,910 --> 01:11:48,086 when Mom and Dad, they both sat us down and said 1324 01:11:48,129 --> 01:11:50,958 that they were, they were gonna separate and then, 1325 01:11:51,002 --> 01:11:53,613 they were getting a divorce, and that they couldn't, 1326 01:11:53,657 --> 01:11:55,441 they couldn't be together anymore, and everything. 1327 01:11:58,314 --> 01:12:00,011 - No, we have to take one at a time, you guys. 1328 01:12:00,054 --> 01:12:01,795 - Aha! - Okay. Ready? 1329 01:12:01,839 --> 01:12:03,797 We need Josiah here, too. 1330 01:12:03,841 --> 01:12:05,669 Tim's ears take up half the thing. 1331 01:12:05,712 --> 01:12:08,236 - - Okay, let's go. 1332 01:12:21,424 --> 01:12:23,164 - This is the crazy thing 1333 01:12:23,208 --> 01:12:25,297 when I don't get to come home that often, 1334 01:12:25,341 --> 01:12:28,039 and like even just remembering landmarks. 1335 01:12:29,519 --> 01:12:32,870 Like, when I know that, there's an opening in the trees, 1336 01:12:32,913 --> 01:12:35,307 you can sort of see this little 1337 01:12:35,351 --> 01:12:37,396 pathway that goes in. 1338 01:12:40,094 --> 01:12:42,358 All those years, and everything, and having to, 1339 01:12:42,401 --> 01:12:45,056 having to pluck the courage to, to tell his family. 1340 01:12:47,406 --> 01:12:48,625 Like, I know that was like, super difficult for him, 1341 01:12:48,668 --> 01:12:50,496 for sure. 1342 01:12:54,282 --> 01:12:57,024 That was more sad than you know, like, 1343 01:12:57,068 --> 01:12:59,810 my Dad saying that he was gay. 1344 01:13:07,644 --> 01:13:09,646 I knew he was still my father and everything, 1345 01:13:09,689 --> 01:13:12,605 and that my love for, for him never changed. 1346 01:13:16,566 --> 01:13:18,655 - 1 and 46. - Okay. 1347 01:13:18,698 --> 01:13:20,308 Wait. So if we see the number - what happens? 1348 01:13:20,352 --> 01:13:21,832 - We're good. 1349 01:13:21,875 --> 01:13:23,442 - And if we don't see the same number? 1350 01:13:33,147 --> 01:13:34,714 - I'm still trying to wrap my head around 1351 01:13:34,758 --> 01:13:37,500 why you don't wanna be, 1352 01:13:37,543 --> 01:13:39,545 why you didn't wanna go with the, with the Grave Island, 1353 01:13:39,589 --> 01:13:41,982 just 'cause I know how you felt about your Grandpa. 1354 01:13:42,026 --> 01:13:43,897 and how close you two were. - Mm-hmm. 1355 01:13:43,941 --> 01:13:47,335 - Yeah. - I dunno. 1356 01:13:47,379 --> 01:13:50,338 I have no, I don't really have a reason for it 1357 01:13:50,382 --> 01:13:52,210 other than I didn't wanna go. 1358 01:13:54,691 --> 01:13:57,433 That's mainly it. 1359 01:13:57,476 --> 01:13:59,304 - Are you gonna try to go by yourself, or what? 1360 01:13:59,347 --> 01:14:00,871 - I dunno, we'll see. 1361 01:14:03,569 --> 01:14:05,441 There's definitely a reason to but not with them. 1362 01:14:05,484 --> 01:14:07,138 I dunno. 1363 01:14:09,619 --> 01:14:12,099 My Grandpa and I used to fuck around all the time. 1364 01:14:12,143 --> 01:14:14,406 We would, we were always just joking, 1365 01:14:14,450 --> 01:14:16,582 and always getting ourselves into some kinda trouble. 1366 01:14:18,628 --> 01:14:21,108 What, no matter what sorta stuff it was, 1367 01:14:21,152 --> 01:14:22,675 it was always something. 1368 01:14:22,719 --> 01:14:25,330 But my uh, I dunno, 1369 01:14:27,593 --> 01:14:30,335 I honour him like, every day. I pray to this guy. 1370 01:14:30,378 --> 01:14:33,556 I dunno. I have multiple pictures in my, 1371 01:14:33,599 --> 01:14:37,342 just stuff of his in my room in my house, so I dunno, 1372 01:14:37,385 --> 01:14:40,606 I don't really have, yeah. 1373 01:14:40,650 --> 01:14:43,348 And like, I don't like graveyards, yo. 1374 01:14:56,840 --> 01:14:58,450 Is it good, Papa? - Yep, really good. 1375 01:15:00,147 --> 01:15:02,193 Yeah. We're doing things together. 1376 01:15:02,236 --> 01:15:04,935 Ohhh. That's very nice. 1377 01:15:12,420 --> 01:15:15,598 Josiah, ou sommes-nous, maintenant? 1378 01:15:15,641 --> 01:15:18,252 - A Bella Bella! 1379 01:15:18,296 --> 01:15:20,472 What about Papa, any famous last words? 1380 01:15:20,516 --> 01:15:23,214 - Yes, I'd like to say that I'm very happy 1381 01:15:23,257 --> 01:15:25,477 that my Grandkids are here, 1382 01:15:25,521 --> 01:15:28,088 and Christmas and the New Year. 1383 01:15:30,308 --> 01:15:32,484 - I'm just happy to be here with our family 1384 01:15:32,528 --> 01:15:36,444 and I'm looking forward to all that God has in store for us 1385 01:15:36,488 --> 01:15:38,577 in the next, in the year 2000 and beyond. 1386 01:15:40,013 --> 01:15:42,755 Happy New Year! 1387 01:15:42,799 --> 01:15:44,931 Cheers! Cheers! 1388 01:15:44,975 --> 01:15:47,586 - Cheers! Cheers! - Cheers! 1389 01:15:54,811 --> 01:15:57,378 - I hadn't been to see my Dad's grave for quite a while, 1390 01:15:57,422 --> 01:15:59,598 so that was really meaningful. 1391 01:15:59,642 --> 01:16:02,427 And the fact that I had my four kids with me, um, 1392 01:16:03,907 --> 01:16:06,083 that is uh, a rare event. 1393 01:16:07,650 --> 01:16:10,348 I was telling my kids about my Dad's sense of humour, 1394 01:16:11,567 --> 01:16:13,525 and he always used to say this phrase 1395 01:16:13,569 --> 01:16:15,832 about in the future, 1396 01:16:15,875 --> 01:16:18,443 he goes, "When I'm in the graveyard pushing up daisies..." 1397 01:16:18,486 --> 01:16:20,401 and I'm like, I said, 1398 01:16:20,445 --> 01:16:22,055 we need to bring some daisies over here 1399 01:16:22,099 --> 01:16:24,449 and plant them around his grave. 1400 01:16:24,492 --> 01:16:27,844 But they actually take over, so we might not do that, 1401 01:16:27,887 --> 01:16:30,324 But... 1402 01:16:30,368 --> 01:16:32,065 kinda lightened the mood a little bit 1403 01:16:32,109 --> 01:16:34,067 and talked about his, his humour 1404 01:16:34,111 --> 01:16:36,504 about when he would talk about when he was gone. 1405 01:16:36,548 --> 01:16:38,637 So, and of course, 1406 01:16:38,681 --> 01:16:41,814 the kids knew him very well and remembered his humour, 1407 01:16:41,858 --> 01:16:44,295 so we got just to share some memories, yeah. 1408 01:16:45,775 --> 01:16:48,081 - Um, Jos was supposed to come. 1409 01:16:48,125 --> 01:16:49,953 - Um, he just, he decided not to. 1410 01:16:51,694 --> 01:16:54,479 So, you know, we, we let him process things 1411 01:16:54,522 --> 01:16:56,655 how he processes them. 1412 01:16:56,699 --> 01:16:59,658 He's, he tries to be such a tough guy. 1413 01:17:01,921 --> 01:17:03,880 And he, and in a way, in a lot of ways, he is. 1414 01:17:03,923 --> 01:17:05,708 He's been through a lot in, in his life. 1415 01:17:05,751 --> 01:17:09,407 But um, he's also a very sensitive human being, 1416 01:17:09,450 --> 01:17:11,670 and so, sometimes it's just too much. 1417 01:17:13,106 --> 01:17:15,065 And he and my Dad were particularly close. 1418 01:17:15,108 --> 01:17:17,110 So, for him to go 1419 01:17:19,199 --> 01:17:21,114 and sort of relive that, 1420 01:17:22,725 --> 01:17:25,771 and have all of those emotions brought up again, 1421 01:17:25,815 --> 01:17:28,121 I guess he just wasn't in the space to do it. 1422 01:17:28,165 --> 01:17:30,558 So, that, that's okay. 1423 01:17:30,602 --> 01:17:32,909 Um, he'll have other opportunities, so. 1424 01:17:32,952 --> 01:17:34,693 - Yeah. - Yeah. 1425 01:17:48,185 --> 01:17:50,317 The whole purpose of this washing ceremony 1426 01:17:50,361 --> 01:17:53,538 is to mark a moment in time, 1427 01:17:53,581 --> 01:17:55,496 and what we are doing as your family 1428 01:17:55,540 --> 01:17:58,543 and as your community is standing um, 1429 01:17:58,586 --> 01:18:00,371 with you. - Mm-hmm. 1430 01:18:00,414 --> 01:18:02,373 - Is to make a statement 1431 01:18:02,416 --> 01:18:04,244 so that you have this moment in time 1432 01:18:04,288 --> 01:18:06,812 that you can think back to, 1433 01:18:06,856 --> 01:18:09,554 and you will remember that from that moment forward, 1434 01:18:09,597 --> 01:18:11,817 you don't have to hold on to any of that stuff. 1435 01:18:11,861 --> 01:18:14,124 - Mm-hmm. - Any of it. - Okay. 1436 01:18:15,995 --> 01:18:17,780 - Just keep in mind, a lot of the reasons 1437 01:18:17,823 --> 01:18:20,957 why people are so good to us is because of your Papa. 1438 01:18:21,000 --> 01:18:23,350 - Mm-hmm. 1439 01:18:23,394 --> 01:18:26,527 - And how much they really esteemed him 1440 01:18:28,051 --> 01:18:29,748 and they love that they had for your Papa, 1441 01:18:32,011 --> 01:18:34,492 they're now, that's what they hold for you, now. 1442 01:18:35,841 --> 01:18:37,974 So, don't forget. - Yep. 1443 01:18:38,017 --> 01:18:39,758 - Okay? - Mm-hmm. 1444 01:18:39,802 --> 01:18:41,760 - So, this is how important it is. 1445 01:18:41,804 --> 01:18:44,981 And why this washing ceremony means so much to me, 1446 01:18:45,024 --> 01:18:46,765 that they're gonna do this for you. 1447 01:18:46,809 --> 01:18:48,636 - Okay. - Okay? 1448 01:18:48,680 --> 01:18:52,684 So... do you have any, do you have any questions? 1449 01:18:52,728 --> 01:18:54,817 - I ain't, I ain't talking though, that's it. 1450 01:18:54,860 --> 01:18:56,427 - No, you don't have to. 1451 01:18:56,470 --> 01:18:58,255 - That's it. That's, I'm out of here. 1452 01:19:11,703 --> 01:19:13,400 - I'm just tired. 1453 01:19:13,444 --> 01:19:15,620 I don't even wanna be here anymore, like this is-- 1454 01:19:34,595 --> 01:19:36,641 Today, we want to thank the Hemas 1455 01:19:36,684 --> 01:19:38,948 and the Tribal Council, 1456 01:19:38,991 --> 01:19:41,211 for giving us the opportunity to uplift Josiah today 1457 01:19:41,254 --> 01:19:43,343 in our Great House. 1458 01:19:43,387 --> 01:19:46,782 Josiah is of Haitian ancestry by birth 1459 01:19:46,825 --> 01:19:49,741 and was adopted by my brother, Don, and his wife, Liette, 1460 01:19:49,785 --> 01:19:51,308 when he was months old, 1461 01:19:51,351 --> 01:19:53,310 when they were living in Haiti. 1462 01:19:53,353 --> 01:19:55,834 In 2015, Josiah received a letter 1463 01:19:57,314 --> 01:19:59,272 that banned him from participating 1464 01:19:59,316 --> 01:20:01,666 in the tournament to a blood quantum rule. 1465 01:20:01,709 --> 01:20:05,496 This was devastating to Josiah, and in turn, 1466 01:20:05,539 --> 01:20:07,759 to our family and our Nation as a whole. 1467 01:20:09,413 --> 01:20:11,850 Blood quantum was a policy enacted by the government 1468 01:20:11,894 --> 01:20:14,461 to eventually abolish us as Indigenous people. 1469 01:20:15,680 --> 01:20:17,595 So, as we began to figure out 1470 01:20:17,638 --> 01:20:19,684 how we could challenge this further, 1471 01:20:19,727 --> 01:20:22,556 we decided that this was about a human right. 1472 01:20:22,600 --> 01:20:24,732 This was about our Heiltsuk right, 1473 01:20:24,776 --> 01:20:26,822 our Indigenous rights as people. 1474 01:20:26,865 --> 01:20:29,563 In the end, we ended up settling the matter; 1475 01:20:29,607 --> 01:20:32,088 that rule was taken away, 1476 01:20:32,131 --> 01:20:34,568 it no longer exists within the All Native committee. 1477 01:20:42,750 --> 01:20:45,536 Your story has helped others who have been adopted 1478 01:20:45,579 --> 01:20:47,625 and to have brought into their place, 1479 01:20:47,668 --> 01:20:50,193 to be reaffirmed that you are one of ours. 1480 01:20:50,236 --> 01:20:52,717 That's never been a question for us, 1481 01:20:52,760 --> 01:20:54,893 and we want you to recognize that today 1482 01:20:54,937 --> 01:20:56,068 and really sink that. 1483 01:20:57,504 --> 01:20:59,202 - My Son was born 1484 01:20:59,245 --> 01:21:01,117 in a rural hospital in Haiti 1485 01:21:04,685 --> 01:21:07,427 and he was orphaned at age four days. 1486 01:21:11,431 --> 01:21:12,955 When he was two weeks old, 1487 01:21:12,998 --> 01:21:16,219 I got him discharged into the care of a lady, 1488 01:21:16,262 --> 01:21:18,569 an American lady that was living there. 1489 01:21:18,612 --> 01:21:20,919 Never thinking 1490 01:21:20,963 --> 01:21:22,921 that I was gonna have anything more to do with it. 1491 01:21:24,880 --> 01:21:26,794 And when Josiah was two months old, 1492 01:21:28,187 --> 01:21:31,364 my Mother and Father came from home 1493 01:21:31,408 --> 01:21:33,149 to visit us down there. 1494 01:21:33,192 --> 01:21:35,194 And we have a photo 1495 01:21:36,761 --> 01:21:38,850 of my father holding Josiah 1496 01:21:38,894 --> 01:21:41,548 when he was a two-month-old infant, 1497 01:21:41,592 --> 01:21:43,202 and he didn't know at that time 1498 01:21:43,246 --> 01:21:45,596 that this was his future Grandson 1499 01:21:46,684 --> 01:21:48,991 until a few months later, 1500 01:21:49,034 --> 01:21:50,818 we told him 1501 01:21:50,862 --> 01:21:53,212 that we were gonna move ahead with an adoption 1502 01:21:56,172 --> 01:21:58,565 of that little baby. 1503 01:21:59,827 --> 01:22:02,395 And he said, 1504 01:22:02,439 --> 01:22:04,484 "I just knew 1505 01:22:04,528 --> 01:22:06,051 that was my Grandson that I was holding," 1506 01:22:09,228 --> 01:22:12,840 and it seems like from that moment onwards, 1507 01:22:12,884 --> 01:22:15,495 the two of them had such a bond. 1508 01:22:17,933 --> 01:22:21,066 And for me, this whole story 1509 01:22:21,110 --> 01:22:22,285 of what he has been through, 1510 01:22:24,852 --> 01:22:28,900 it just shines a light on our right as Heiltsuk 1511 01:22:28,944 --> 01:22:32,034 to exercise our sovereignty 1512 01:22:32,077 --> 01:22:34,036 to decide who is one of us. 1513 01:22:34,079 --> 01:22:37,517 Just like any nation has the right to do that, 1514 01:22:37,561 --> 01:22:39,563 we have the right to do that. 1515 01:23:05,284 --> 01:23:07,330 - Thank you. 1516 01:23:07,373 --> 01:23:09,419 See what they're doing for you? 1517 01:24:48,605 --> 01:24:50,302 Healing is um, 1518 01:24:50,346 --> 01:24:53,262 a necessary process of any kind of damage 1519 01:24:53,305 --> 01:24:55,438 done to anybody. 1520 01:24:56,830 --> 01:24:58,745 You just can't rush it. 1521 01:24:58,789 --> 01:25:00,356 Everybody heals at a different pace. 1522 01:25:04,360 --> 01:25:06,797 My family, I guess they would've thought that 1523 01:25:06,840 --> 01:25:09,060 the washing ceremony 1524 01:25:09,104 --> 01:25:11,845 would help with trauma and everything, 1525 01:25:11,889 --> 01:25:14,370 and it was really nice, 1526 01:25:14,413 --> 01:25:17,764 and it was really good, and I appreciate it a lot. 1527 01:25:21,116 --> 01:25:23,161 When that happened, we just took another turn. 1528 01:25:25,294 --> 01:25:27,339 He was like, "I got you." 1529 01:25:28,645 --> 01:25:30,473 If it wasn't for him, 1530 01:25:30,516 --> 01:25:31,735 I probably wouldn't be here right now, honestly. 1531 01:25:36,696 --> 01:25:38,742 You know, I definitely just, I appreciate him for that. 1532 01:25:52,103 --> 01:25:53,583 Even though, yeah, okay, I was mad, 1533 01:25:53,626 --> 01:25:54,627 or like yeah, we didn't, we hadn't talked, 1534 01:25:54,671 --> 01:25:57,326 and all that kind of stuff, 1535 01:25:57,369 --> 01:26:00,807 like, we still on good terms. Like, I still got love. 1536 01:26:00,851 --> 01:26:04,898 It's like, it's just life tings, I guess. 1537 01:26:11,470 --> 01:26:13,255 It's gonna take time. Like, it's not something 1538 01:26:13,298 --> 01:26:16,475 that I'm gonna forget about and just move on about 1539 01:26:16,519 --> 01:26:19,130 within the next couple days, or whatever. 1540 01:26:19,174 --> 01:26:21,437 I'm gonna still think about this for a long time. 1541 01:26:29,271 --> 01:26:31,316 Whatever it is, you just gotta let that person heal 1542 01:26:31,360 --> 01:26:32,796 at their pace and just let them do them. 1543 01:27:43,780 --> 01:27:46,130 Though Josiah's story is unique, it represents 1544 01:27:46,173 --> 01:27:47,871 the many layers to our identities 1545 01:27:47,914 --> 01:27:49,960 and where we belong in the world. 1546 01:27:50,003 --> 01:27:51,527 Joining me now to talk about "One of Ours" 1547 01:27:51,570 --> 01:27:53,093 are former Canadian basketball player 1548 01:27:53,137 --> 01:27:56,183 and First Nation councilman Michael Linklater 1549 01:27:56,227 --> 01:27:58,229 and US Representative Sharice Davids. 1550 01:27:58,273 --> 01:28:01,014 Hi, yeah, thanks for having me. I'm so happy to be here. 1551 01:28:01,058 --> 01:28:03,147 What were both of your thoughts and/or takeaways 1552 01:28:03,190 --> 01:28:04,627 upon watching the film? 1553 01:28:04,670 --> 01:28:06,237 I appreciated that we had to 1554 01:28:06,281 --> 01:28:08,587 not just explore ideas of identity 1555 01:28:08,631 --> 01:28:10,415 but also explore 1556 01:28:10,459 --> 01:28:13,026 the concept of healing from trauma. 1557 01:28:13,070 --> 01:28:15,202 I was very, very, uh, touched 1558 01:28:15,246 --> 01:28:17,857 by the heavy topics that were brought up, 1559 01:28:17,901 --> 01:28:21,426 but also the beauty in things like ceremony 1560 01:28:21,470 --> 01:28:24,821 and communities coming together to support each other. 1561 01:28:24,864 --> 01:28:26,953 Yes, coping and healing. 1562 01:28:26,997 --> 01:28:28,607 Uh, Michael, what were your thoughts? 1563 01:28:28,651 --> 01:28:31,001 I really felt for Josiah, 1564 01:28:31,044 --> 01:28:33,003 his journey, the struggles, 1565 01:28:33,046 --> 01:28:35,092 the adversity that he had to face. 1566 01:28:35,135 --> 01:28:36,789 You can really empathize with him 1567 01:28:36,833 --> 01:28:39,183 and where he's coming from and what he's gone through, 1568 01:28:39,226 --> 01:28:41,185 but I think one of the most important things 1569 01:28:41,228 --> 01:28:44,623 that I would like to kind of shine some light on 1570 01:28:44,667 --> 01:28:46,277 is the fact that, you know, 1571 01:28:46,321 --> 01:28:48,671 they're indigenous to a different place. 1572 01:28:48,714 --> 01:28:51,761 Let's just take, you know, a non-indigenous family 1573 01:28:51,804 --> 01:28:53,980 adopting somebody who is indigenous. 1574 01:28:54,024 --> 01:28:56,200 I think it's really important 1575 01:28:56,243 --> 01:28:59,421 that you have your -- your family structure 1576 01:28:59,464 --> 01:29:01,423 and the culture of your family, 1577 01:29:01,466 --> 01:29:05,688 but it's really important to honor where you come from. 1578 01:29:05,731 --> 01:29:08,865 Josiah was not confused about who he was 1579 01:29:08,908 --> 01:29:12,434 and where his place was within the Heiltsuk community 1580 01:29:12,477 --> 01:29:14,174 until he was told he was different, 1581 01:29:14,218 --> 01:29:16,699 and how does our view of ourselves change 1582 01:29:16,742 --> 01:29:17,961 with outside influence? 1583 01:29:18,004 --> 01:29:19,310 A-And should it? 1584 01:29:19,354 --> 01:29:20,964 I have thought a lot about 1585 01:29:21,007 --> 01:29:23,923 what it means to be native. 1586 01:29:23,967 --> 01:29:26,186 You know, I am -- I am Ho-Chunk, 1587 01:29:26,230 --> 01:29:29,233 which is a tribe in Wisconsin. 1588 01:29:29,276 --> 01:29:31,235 The thing that struck me the most 1589 01:29:31,278 --> 01:29:35,152 was it wasn't just Josiah that -- that felt really solid 1590 01:29:35,195 --> 01:29:39,112 in his, uh, place in -- in his community. 1591 01:29:39,156 --> 01:29:42,028 It was the leaders of his community. 1592 01:29:42,072 --> 01:29:45,292 It was the other tribal, uh, members. 1593 01:29:45,336 --> 01:29:48,339 It was the folks on the basketball team. 1594 01:29:48,383 --> 01:29:50,950 Even when it comes to, um, you know, 1595 01:29:50,994 --> 01:29:52,996 other, like, external factors 1596 01:29:53,039 --> 01:29:54,737 or making reference to, 1597 01:29:54,780 --> 01:29:56,347 let's just say, basketball teams, 1598 01:29:56,391 --> 01:29:58,697 you decide who becomes a part of your team, 1599 01:29:58,741 --> 01:30:00,177 and that's your team. 1600 01:30:00,220 --> 01:30:02,658 Uh, and it's the same thing for nations. 1601 01:30:02,701 --> 01:30:05,965 Nations who -- who have that sovereignty 1602 01:30:06,009 --> 01:30:08,185 over themselves as First Peoples, 1603 01:30:08,228 --> 01:30:09,665 they're the ones that decide that. 1604 01:30:09,708 --> 01:30:11,275 The blood quantum -- 1605 01:30:11,318 --> 01:30:12,929 you know, that's a colonial construct. 1606 01:30:12,972 --> 01:30:16,715 It was a construct designed to eradicate us 1607 01:30:16,759 --> 01:30:19,718 in hopes that we would eventually fall off, 1608 01:30:19,762 --> 01:30:22,329 where there is no blood quantum 1609 01:30:22,373 --> 01:30:25,332 for us to identify as who we are. 1610 01:30:25,376 --> 01:30:27,552 My great-great-grandmother was Choctaw, 1611 01:30:27,596 --> 01:30:30,163 and so -- my great-great-grandmother Ari. 1612 01:30:30,207 --> 01:30:31,730 I remember always being discouraged 1613 01:30:31,774 --> 01:30:33,515 from following up on that 1614 01:30:33,558 --> 01:30:36,082 because, like, "Well, you can't go to a reservation 1615 01:30:36,126 --> 01:30:38,345 because you have to prove this amount of, you know, 1616 01:30:38,389 --> 01:30:41,087 'blood,'" so to speak, which -- which comes up a lot, 1617 01:30:41,131 --> 01:30:44,482 which I didn't even recognize as a huge, you know, 1618 01:30:44,526 --> 01:30:47,920 colonialist kind of, like, stigma, you know? 1619 01:30:47,964 --> 01:30:51,010 When you look at different religions or different beliefs, 1620 01:30:51,054 --> 01:30:53,491 you don't necessarily have to, like, 1621 01:30:53,535 --> 01:30:57,582 come from where that religion or belief was founded 1622 01:30:57,626 --> 01:31:00,803 in order to practice that way of life. 1623 01:31:00,846 --> 01:31:03,022 Even Josiah's white siblings struggle with identity 1624 01:31:03,066 --> 01:31:05,329 because they don't "look" indigenous. 1625 01:31:05,372 --> 01:31:07,723 Is too much importance placed on appearance 1626 01:31:07,766 --> 01:31:11,727 as a part of identity and belonging in our society? 1627 01:31:11,770 --> 01:31:15,513 There are a lot of, uh, constructs around 1628 01:31:15,557 --> 01:31:19,778 who should be considered native or indigenous 1629 01:31:19,822 --> 01:31:22,520 here in North America, 1630 01:31:22,564 --> 01:31:24,304 and this story is a great example 1631 01:31:24,348 --> 01:31:27,612 of having to deal with issues of identity. 1632 01:31:27,656 --> 01:31:31,834 What is the modern Native experience in North America? 1633 01:31:31,877 --> 01:31:33,531 We just don't get to see that that often. 1634 01:31:33,575 --> 01:31:34,967 Truly, truly. 1635 01:31:35,011 --> 01:31:36,839 What are your thoughts on representation 1636 01:31:36,882 --> 01:31:39,537 of indigenous people in media, as well as people like Josiah, 1637 01:31:39,581 --> 01:31:42,540 whose identities are less identifiable? 1638 01:31:42,584 --> 01:31:48,154 The only time you see indigenous people in the media, 1639 01:31:48,198 --> 01:31:53,029 majority of the time, it's for negative things. 1640 01:31:53,072 --> 01:31:55,205 You rarely see the positive things, 1641 01:31:55,248 --> 01:31:57,250 and there are so many wonderful things 1642 01:31:57,294 --> 01:31:58,817 that indigenous people do. 1643 01:31:58,861 --> 01:32:00,602 It speaks to the misrepresentation 1644 01:32:00,645 --> 01:32:03,996 and the under-representation of minorities. 1645 01:32:04,040 --> 01:32:06,085 I do think that we're in a time 1646 01:32:06,129 --> 01:32:11,569 of racial reckoning and also a historical acknowledgement 1647 01:32:11,613 --> 01:32:14,790 of how our country got to the place 1648 01:32:14,833 --> 01:32:16,618 that we are in now. 1649 01:32:16,661 --> 01:32:18,402 The film shines a spotlight 1650 01:32:18,445 --> 01:32:21,231 on the themes of identity and belonging. 1651 01:32:21,274 --> 01:32:24,060 How do you personally define identity? 1652 01:32:24,103 --> 01:32:27,759 It's a lifetime journey full of twists and turns 1653 01:32:27,803 --> 01:32:31,676 and one that is shaped by your -- your circumstances. 1654 01:32:31,720 --> 01:32:35,419 I have certainly, um, become more solid 1655 01:32:35,462 --> 01:32:39,205 in -- in who I am in a number of different ways 1656 01:32:39,249 --> 01:32:42,208 since, uh, since getting into Congress. 1657 01:32:42,252 --> 01:32:43,601 I have learned a lot. 1658 01:32:43,645 --> 01:32:45,647 I have seen a lot of things 1659 01:32:45,690 --> 01:32:48,693 that I never would've seen if I weren't in this position. 1660 01:32:48,737 --> 01:32:51,870 You know, there's constant changes within your identity, 1661 01:32:51,914 --> 01:32:53,611 and as you grow, 1662 01:32:53,655 --> 01:32:55,787 and I think even looking at Josiah's father, 1663 01:32:55,831 --> 01:32:58,094 you know, he didn't identify 1664 01:32:58,137 --> 01:33:00,705 or even really recognize he was gay 1665 01:33:00,749 --> 01:33:02,620 'til a long time throughout his life. 1666 01:33:02,664 --> 01:33:05,362 I think that identity is constantly searching 1667 01:33:05,405 --> 01:33:07,146 in where you belong and where you fit 1668 01:33:07,190 --> 01:33:09,148 or where you feel most comfortable 1669 01:33:09,192 --> 01:33:12,325 is where you'll -- you'll identify. 1670 01:33:12,369 --> 01:33:15,459 Michael, Representative Davids, thanks for digging into the -- 1671 01:33:15,502 --> 01:33:17,417 the intersectionalities of identity. 1672 01:33:17,461 --> 01:33:19,942 It's been a pleasure having you both. 1673 01:33:19,985 --> 01:33:21,813 Thank you so much for having me today. 1674 01:33:21,857 --> 01:33:23,510 Thanks so much for inviting me to this. 1675 01:33:23,554 --> 01:33:25,034 This was such a great conversation. 1676 01:33:25,077 --> 01:33:27,079 Films like "One of Ours," 1677 01:33:27,123 --> 01:33:29,952 which force us to challenge the way we perceive each other, 1678 01:33:29,995 --> 01:33:33,042 are the exact kind of stories we need to see more of. 1679 01:33:33,085 --> 01:33:34,870 Thanks so much for watching "Can We Talk About This?" 1680 01:33:34,913 --> 01:33:36,915 Join me next time for another compelling film 1681 01:33:36,959 --> 01:33:38,177 and riveting convo. 1682 01:33:38,221 --> 01:33:40,310 I'm Jordan Carlos. Goodbye for now.