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Pastor Crawford:
Okay.

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Everybody, eyes up here.
It's time to get started.

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So, I was thinking this morning.

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I was thinking about what it
was like being your age,

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how I'd come to worship like
I was ticking off a to-do list.

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I didn't get it like I do now,

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and I thought, "Well, maybe I
should tell you guys a secret."

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Do you know what we're
trying to do every Sunday

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in church as adults?

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We're trying to undo the things
we did when we were your age.

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Think about it.
You're our future,

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and you are at an age

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where you are especially
vulnerable to evil.

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Now when I say,
"Evil," I mean evil.

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And you won't see it now.

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You won't see it tomorrow.

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But what feels like fun
is actually the enemy,

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and that enemy is closing
the noose around your neck.

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Bruce?!
Is anyone home?!

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♪♪

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While you experiment
and play with that yoke

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like it's a toy and you think,

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"Oh, just this once, just...

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just a little longer,"
click.

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It's got you.

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[ Irma Thomas' "Anyone Who Knows What
Love Is (Will Understand)" plays ]

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♪ Anyone ♪

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♪ Anyone ♪

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Okay. Wait.
H-Honey. Honey.

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♪ You can blame ♪
Can you stop it?

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♪ Try to shame me ♪

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♪ And still I'll care ♪

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♪ For you ♪
[ Doorbell rings ]

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They're here.

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♪ You can run around ♪

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Eyes to camera.

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♪ Even put me down ♪
Boys...

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put your arms
around the girls' waists.

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♪ Still, I'll be there for you ♪

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Yeah, or should I go up?
Okay.

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♪ The world ♪

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♪ May be gone foolish ♪

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♪ They can't see you ♪

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♪ Like I can ♪

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You look really,
really beautiful.

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♪ Oh, but anyone ♪

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Thanks.

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♪ Who knows what love is ♪

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♪ Will understand ♪

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♪ Anyone ♪

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♪ Anyone ♪

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♪ Anyone ♪
♪ I just feel so sorry ♪

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♪ Anyone ♪
♪ For the ones ♪

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♪ Who pity me ♪

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♪ Anyone ♪
♪ 'Cause they just don't know ♪

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♪ Anyone ♪
♪ Oh, they don't know ♪

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♪ What happiness and love
can be ♪

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♪ Ohhh ♪
♪ I know ♪

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♪ I know to ever let you go ♪

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♪ Oh-oh, is more ♪

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♪ Than I could ever stand ♪

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♪ Ohhh, but anyone ♪

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♪ Who knows what love is ♪

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♪ Will understand ♪

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♪ Ohhh ♪

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♪ Anyone ♪
♪ They will understand ♪

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♪ Anyone ♪

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♪ If they try love ♪

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♪ Anyone ♪
♪ They'll understand ♪

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♪ Anyone ♪

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♪ Ohhh, try ♪

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♪ Anyone ♪
♪ And understand ♪

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[ Inhales deeply ]

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[ Insects chirping ]

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[ Both breathing heavily ]

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I want to try something.

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[ Gasps ]

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[ Both breathing heavily ]

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[ Moaning softly ]

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[ Both breathing heavily ]

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[ Moaning softly ]

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Oh, my God.
Oh, my God.

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Oh, my God.

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Jamie: [ Crying ]
Cameron, what the fuck?

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Jamie.

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What the fuck?

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[ Crying ]

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I can't fucking believe this.

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I'm sorry.

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It's just so messed up!

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♪♪

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♪♪

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♪♪

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♪♪

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Woman: And by the time
I was in my 30s,

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I didn't believe in God
at all.

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You know what, George?
It wasn't until...

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George: The Scripture
we're referencing

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is Matthew 10:11,

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and if you go
to Matthew 10:11,

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you'll probably know
this one.

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Uh, whatever town
or villa...

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[ Engine shuts off ]

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Hey.

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Hello.
[ Chuckles nervously]

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I'm looking
for Reverend Rick.

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He's still in a sermon.
I'll take you to him.

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I'm Cameron.
I know.

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♪ Want to see the land
so pure and true ♪

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♪ No, there's nothing
I wouldn't do ♪

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♪ Just to be born anew ♪

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[Acoustic guitar strumming ]

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♪ Just to be born anew ♪

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♪ In Your eyes, my savior ♪

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♪ In Your heart, my savior ♪

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♪ In Your love, my savior ♪

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♪ My Lord ♪

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[ Strumming continues ]

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[ Song ends ]

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[ Chuckles ]
[Applause ]

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All right, guys. Time's up.
See you at dinner.

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[Zippers zipping
and unzipping ]

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Erin's a big Vikings fan,
aren't you?

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Guilty as charged.
[ Chuckles ]

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But don't worry.
You'll get decorating privileges soon.

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You have to earn certain
rights at God's Promise.

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I swear it's not that bad...
just decorating and mail.

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Most disciples get there
in a few weeks.

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It's all spelled out
in the contract.

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Maybe in the meantime,
you'll become a Vikings fan.

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Who's your favorite team?
I-I don't have one.

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I'm impressed.

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It's pretty rare
that I don't manage to...

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Oh, spoke too soon.
[ Chuckles ]

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I'm guessing The Breeders aren't
singing in praise of the Lord.

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Where did you get this?

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Columbia House.

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I'm done here.

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Take a look at the contract?

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Yeah.

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All that's left is your
signature, and we're good to go.

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I think you're going to do
really well here, Cammie.

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Perfect. Now you're officially
a disciple of God's Promise.

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Welcome.

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Whoo!

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[ Sighs ]

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Fuck.

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I want you to put on
your clothes and leave.

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No, you don't.
Yes, I do.

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[Voice breaking ]
No, you don't.

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This movie's weird.
[ Chuckles ]

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I want you to leave.

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You knew that was
going to happen.

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[ Chuckling ]
No, I didn't.

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I wouldn't know
what to do.

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You can start by putting

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the do-not-disturb sign
on the door.

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I really didn't know
it was going to happen.

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Yes, you did.

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No, I didn't.
Yes, you did.

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That part went smoothly.

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I'm not...

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taking off my robe.

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Well, everybody
draws the line somewhere.

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I don't usually...

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...feel this way.
It's blocking me.

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I don't know
if I've ever felt...

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this way before.

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[Indistinct talking ]

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Tell me when to stop.

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[Talking continues ]

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[ Hinges creak,
flashlight clicks ]

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[ Breathing heavily ]

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[ Flashlight clicks ]

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[ Breathing heavily ]

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I think if your top priority
is to get better,

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that should also be
true of the people

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you surround yourself
with, you know?

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And you think you're
getting... better?

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Of course.

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I've been brought
closer to God,

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and I can feel
Him guiding me.

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Like, Helen's
a really good friend,

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and we're positive
influences on each other.

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That's her by the milk.

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It's a shame she's so...
Hi!

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Well, she's kind
of butch, isn't she?

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[ Chuckles softly]

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I know that's a mean word,
but I mean it, like,

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factually, like,
not in a mean way.

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That girl's name
is Jane Fonda...

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like, her actual name.

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[ Speaking indistinctly ]

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Either that or she's lying.

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She could be lying.

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Mark is really cool.

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Don't look now,
but he's at my 12:00.

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You looked.

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He has a really nice
singing voice,

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and, okay, you have to promise
not to tell anyone,

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but I have a really
big crush on him.

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My lips are sealed.

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Rick is such an inspiration.

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Do you know he used to struggle
with same-sex attractions?

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Really?

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Yeah, and he's been
in recovery for years,

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and now he and Bethany
are girlfriend and boyfriend.

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Yeah. How cute is that?

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I think they could
both do better.

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Totally.
Wait. What?

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Honey, what grade were
you starting at school?

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Um, 11th.

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Oh, great.
I think we have that one.

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Okay.

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Uh... ah.

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Here we go.

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Does this look right to you?

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Yes.
[ Chuckles ]

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I apologize
for the interruption,

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Ms. Kimballs-Ericson.

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I've come to meet
our new disciple.

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Welcome, Cameron.
I'm Dr. Lydia Marsh.

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I'm the director
of God's Promise.

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Hi.

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It's a pleasure
to meet you.

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I know the adjustment
can be difficult at first,

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but I have every faith you'll
find yourself at home here soon.

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In the meantime,
please don't hesitate to ask

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if you need anything.

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Thank you.

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You should consider yourself
amongst family, Cameron.

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You can call me "Cam."

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"Cameron" is already
a masculine name.

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To abbreviate as something
even less feminine

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only exacerbates
your gender confusion.

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Right.

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Glad we're
on the same page.

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I have told you

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to keep your hair

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out of your eyes.

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There's no hiding from God.

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[ Door opens ]

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[ Door closes ]

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♪♪

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♪♪

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♪♪

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[ Breathing heavily ]

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♪♪

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♪♪

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♪♪

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♪♪

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♪♪

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Would you say that the tip
of the iceberg looks scary

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to the people on the boat?

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Yeah.

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It's all the people
on the ship want to focus on,

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but we know it's not
the real problem, is it?

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No.

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Um, the same can be said
for your same-sex attraction.

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The sin is so overwhelming

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that we become fixated on it,

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but the problems we
really need to deal with

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are below the surface.

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Your attractions are a symptom
of a larger problem.

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We're going to spend our time
together like detectives

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investigating what
in your past led you here,

267
00:19:09,858 --> 00:19:12,026
especially your relationship
with your parents.

268
00:19:12,318 --> 00:19:14,988
What relationship?

269
00:19:15,280 --> 00:19:19,033
They died a long time ago.

270
00:19:19,325 --> 00:19:20,994
I know we're throwing
a lot at you.

271
00:19:21,286 --> 00:19:23,538
How are you feeling?

272
00:19:23,830 --> 00:19:28,334
Good. Good. I'm good.
I-I...

273
00:19:28,626 --> 00:19:30,795
I've just never thought
of homosexuality like this.

274
00:19:31,087 --> 00:19:32,755
There's no such thing
as homosexuality.

275
00:19:33,047 --> 00:19:36,801
There's only the same struggle
with sin we all face.

276
00:19:37,093 --> 00:19:39,971
Would you let drug addicts
throw parades for themselves?

277
00:19:42,557 --> 00:19:46,102
No. No, you wouldn't.

278
00:19:46,394 --> 00:19:47,729
Sin is sin.

279
00:19:48,021 --> 00:19:51,232
Your struggle is with the sin
of same-sex attraction.

280
00:19:51,524 --> 00:19:53,164
The first step is for you
to stop thinking

281
00:19:53,359 --> 00:19:54,652
of yourself as a homosexual.

282
00:19:54,944 --> 00:19:57,113
But I don't think of myself
as a homosexual.

283
00:19:59,157 --> 00:20:01,201
I mean, I don't really think
of myself as anything.

284
00:20:01,492 --> 00:20:04,495
You should think of
yourself as a Christian.

285
00:20:04,787 --> 00:20:06,789
We're here to support you.

286
00:20:07,081 --> 00:20:11,127
Rick did the work, was able
to overcome his own illness,

287
00:20:11,419 --> 00:20:14,422
and I have no doubt that
you're capable of the same.

288
00:20:14,714 --> 00:20:16,424
I've been right where you are.

289
00:20:18,593 --> 00:20:21,054
I know how you feel.

290
00:20:22,639 --> 00:20:32,638
♪♪

291
00:20:34,984 --> 00:20:37,528
Is that your mom?

292
00:20:37,820 --> 00:20:40,990
She really looked like you.

293
00:20:41,282 --> 00:20:43,201
[ Sighs ]

294
00:20:43,493 --> 00:20:44,994
Erin:
How's the iceberg coming?

295
00:20:45,286 --> 00:20:47,038
Good.

296
00:20:47,330 --> 00:20:48,331
Good, just slow.

297
00:20:51,292 --> 00:20:54,170
Oh, cool.

298
00:20:54,462 --> 00:20:57,799
I have gender confusion
'cause of sports, too.

299
00:20:58,091 --> 00:21:01,261
Wow.

300
00:21:01,552 --> 00:21:03,054
Cool.

301
00:21:03,346 --> 00:21:04,806
See you later.

302
00:21:20,530 --> 00:21:24,450
Erin: "Too much masculine
bonding with Dad over football."

303
00:21:24,742 --> 00:21:26,953
Right up the middle!

304
00:21:27,245 --> 00:21:28,413
Yeah!
Yeah!

305
00:21:28,705 --> 00:21:29,872
"Jessica's beauty,

306
00:21:30,164 --> 00:21:33,167
resulting in feelings
of feminine inadequacy."

307
00:21:33,459 --> 00:21:35,962
Mark: "Lack of physical
affection from my father."

308
00:21:40,800 --> 00:21:46,055
"Infatuation with soccer coach
at Holy Light Summer Camp."

309
00:21:46,347 --> 00:21:47,724
Helen: "Inappropriate obsession

310
00:21:48,016 --> 00:21:49,767
with Vicki Jones
from church choir."

311
00:21:50,059 --> 00:21:52,729
♪ This little light of mine ♪

312
00:21:53,021 --> 00:21:54,939
♪ I'm gonna let it shine ♪

313
00:21:55,231 --> 00:21:56,274
♪ This ♪

314
00:21:56,566 --> 00:21:58,126
"Unresolved sexual trauma
from 9th grade

315
00:21:58,276 --> 00:22:00,611
when Orin Bursock
slapped my backside."

316
00:22:03,489 --> 00:22:06,993
Adam: "Too much bonding with Mom
over feminine activities."

317
00:22:09,579 --> 00:22:13,333
"Belief in winkte
conflicting with the Bible."

318
00:22:13,624 --> 00:22:15,960
Jane: "Early exposure
to illegal drugs and alcohol

319
00:22:16,252 --> 00:22:18,338
at the commune."

320
00:22:18,629 --> 00:22:21,549
♪♪

321
00:22:21,841 --> 00:22:24,635
"Lack of stable
and singular masculine..."

322
00:22:24,927 --> 00:22:26,554
What are you doing?

323
00:22:26,846 --> 00:22:30,350
Oh, um, I'm sorry.
I was just...

324
00:22:30,641 --> 00:22:32,560
What?

325
00:22:32,852 --> 00:22:35,396
I was looking
at your iceberg.

326
00:22:35,688 --> 00:22:38,107
Everyone does it.

327
00:22:38,399 --> 00:22:40,068
You done yours yet?

328
00:22:40,360 --> 00:22:41,611
No, not yet.

329
00:22:41,903 --> 00:22:44,280
You run, right?
Yeah.

330
00:22:44,572 --> 00:22:47,052
[ Sighs ] Just talk about how
positive reinforcements for sports

331
00:22:47,200 --> 00:22:48,480
messed with your
gender identity.

332
00:22:48,659 --> 00:22:49,659
They love that shit.

333
00:22:49,827 --> 00:22:51,245
[ Chuckles softly]

334
00:22:51,537 --> 00:22:53,956
And how your parents gave you
too much physical affection

335
00:22:54,248 --> 00:22:55,625
or not enough
physical affection.

336
00:22:55,917 --> 00:22:59,170
Either way,
that's why you're gay.

337
00:22:59,462 --> 00:23:01,672
My parents are dead.

338
00:23:01,964 --> 00:23:04,759
That should probably
go in your iceberg.

339
00:23:07,345 --> 00:23:09,347
You grew up in a commune?

340
00:23:09,639 --> 00:23:11,599
Yeah.

341
00:23:11,891 --> 00:23:14,685
I didn't know hippies
were evangelical.

342
00:23:14,977 --> 00:23:18,106
They're not.
My mom's new husband is.

343
00:23:18,398 --> 00:23:21,734
One last question.
I was in a car accident.

344
00:23:22,026 --> 00:23:25,446
I was actually going to ask you
where you got your weed.

345
00:23:27,323 --> 00:23:28,825
I beg your pardon?

346
00:23:31,285 --> 00:23:33,663
I saw you and Adam
in the cellar.

347
00:23:38,167 --> 00:23:41,671
I grow it myself.
It's ditch weed.

348
00:23:41,963 --> 00:23:43,923
I already harvested,
but there are some stragglers

349
00:23:44,090 --> 00:23:46,175
Adam and I are going
to check out Thursday.

350
00:23:48,678 --> 00:23:51,013
[ Sniffs ]

351
00:23:53,975 --> 00:23:57,645
You don't really seem like the
kind of person that'd be here.

352
00:23:57,937 --> 00:23:59,897
Why? 'Cause I'm
such a dick magnet?

353
00:24:02,150 --> 00:24:04,110
No, just...

354
00:24:04,402 --> 00:24:06,571
I didn't have a choice.

355
00:24:06,863 --> 00:24:09,240
Did you?

356
00:24:13,536 --> 00:24:16,205
Helen: I will not pray
for God to change me

357
00:24:16,497 --> 00:24:19,167
because God does not
make mistakes,

358
00:24:19,459 --> 00:24:23,671
and I am the one
who is tempted by sin.

359
00:24:23,963 --> 00:24:26,841
Change will come
through God

360
00:24:27,133 --> 00:24:28,468
but within me.
Me.

361
00:24:28,759 --> 00:24:31,429
I must be the change.

362
00:24:34,640 --> 00:24:36,851
Steve: I've always known
I didn't want to act

363
00:24:37,143 --> 00:24:39,020
on my same-sex attractions,

364
00:24:39,312 --> 00:24:43,858
so, in the past, I would
resort to... self-pleasure.

365
00:24:44,150 --> 00:24:46,068
Then when I learned
that that was a sin, also,

366
00:24:46,360 --> 00:24:48,321
I stopped,

367
00:24:48,613 --> 00:24:51,657
but it's like...
shouldn't it be okay

368
00:24:51,949 --> 00:24:53,576
if it's
instead of acting out?

369
00:24:55,036 --> 00:24:56,120
What?

370
00:24:56,412 --> 00:24:58,331
You can't get a pass
from God to jerk off.

371
00:24:58,623 --> 00:24:59,624
Who asked you?

372
00:24:59,916 --> 00:25:03,461
Steve, what are
you experiencing?

373
00:25:03,753 --> 00:25:07,590
I'm experiencing irritation.
And why are you irritated?

374
00:25:07,882 --> 00:25:09,902
It's like he thinks he's better
than everybody else.

375
00:25:09,926 --> 00:25:11,177
Helen: I feel that, too.

376
00:25:11,469 --> 00:25:12,970
Like, look
at his body language.

377
00:25:13,262 --> 00:25:15,973
Yeah, Steve's projecting his
masculine securities onto me,

378
00:25:16,265 --> 00:25:18,142
and Helen has to have
an opinion on everything.

379
00:25:18,434 --> 00:25:19,769
That's not true.

380
00:25:20,061 --> 00:25:21,861
Dane brings up some interesting points.
Really?

381
00:25:21,979 --> 00:25:24,208
It's like he can't do anything
wrong because of his past.

382
00:25:24,232 --> 00:25:25,792
You have no idea what
you're talking about!

383
00:25:25,816 --> 00:25:27,568
Okay. Then, Dane,
just tell us.

384
00:25:27,860 --> 00:25:29,153
No.

385
00:25:29,445 --> 00:25:30,923
You don't go get to tell
your reverend later

386
00:25:30,947 --> 00:25:32,823
about how you met
a junkie in treatment.

387
00:25:33,115 --> 00:25:35,409
I'm not like you,
and I'm glad I'm not like you.

388
00:25:35,701 --> 00:25:37,179
I don't even know you,
but one look at you,

389
00:25:37,203 --> 00:25:38,663
and I can tell
you're a dyke.

390
00:25:38,955 --> 00:25:41,874
[ Laughs ]

391
00:25:52,468 --> 00:25:54,887
How are you finding
God's Promise, Cameron?

392
00:25:57,139 --> 00:26:00,142
Uh... good.

393
00:26:03,479 --> 00:26:06,148
I hope you use this time
as an opportunity to examine

394
00:26:06,440 --> 00:26:08,442
the way you respond
to discomfort.

395
00:26:11,612 --> 00:26:13,281
Okay.

396
00:26:13,573 --> 00:26:16,576
Dane, this instinct
of yours to punish others

397
00:26:16,867 --> 00:26:20,955
for not having experienced
the kind of trauma you have,

398
00:26:21,247 --> 00:26:22,790
who does it remind you of?

399
00:26:23,082 --> 00:26:26,294
My father.

400
00:26:26,586 --> 00:26:28,963
I can't hear you.

401
00:26:31,882 --> 00:26:34,343
My father.

402
00:26:41,851 --> 00:26:44,228
Hey. How's it going?

403
00:26:44,520 --> 00:26:45,688
It's okay.

404
00:26:48,524 --> 00:26:49,734
Follow me.

405
00:27:01,621 --> 00:27:04,790
So, this worked for you, then?

406
00:27:05,082 --> 00:27:06,417
Like, you changed?

407
00:27:06,709 --> 00:27:09,920
Yes. I changed.

408
00:27:10,212 --> 00:27:12,340
How?

409
00:27:12,632 --> 00:27:14,592
[ Sighs ] It was a process.

410
00:27:14,884 --> 00:27:18,387
[ Chuckles softly]
It's funny, actually.

411
00:27:18,679 --> 00:27:21,265
The moment things began
to turn around was in a bar.

412
00:27:21,557 --> 00:27:22,683
Bar?

413
00:27:22,975 --> 00:27:26,729
Yeah. A gay bar,
of all places.

414
00:27:27,021 --> 00:27:29,357
Two men from my church
came in.

415
00:27:29,649 --> 00:27:30,941
They saw my car
parked outside,

416
00:27:31,233 --> 00:27:32,502
and they knew
I'd been struggling,

417
00:27:32,526 --> 00:27:36,614
so they came in
looking for me.

418
00:27:36,906 --> 00:27:38,199
Wow.

419
00:27:38,491 --> 00:27:40,785
It was God, Cameron.

420
00:27:41,077 --> 00:27:42,495
I asked for His help,

421
00:27:42,787 --> 00:27:46,457
and He gave it to me
in the form of those allies.

422
00:27:46,749 --> 00:27:48,918
I was so deeply unhappy,

423
00:27:49,210 --> 00:27:53,047
but I didn't think
I was worth saving,

424
00:27:53,339 --> 00:27:55,716
and I wonder if you've
asked that of yourself.

425
00:27:57,843 --> 00:28:00,304
Are you worth saving?

426
00:28:02,765 --> 00:28:04,600
[ Ball clacking ]

427
00:28:04,892 --> 00:28:07,019
[Up-tempo music plays ]

428
00:28:07,311 --> 00:28:10,648
♪ It's gonna be fun
to Blessercize with Jesus ♪

429
00:28:10,940 --> 00:28:13,859
♪ To be fit for Him
in every way ♪

430
00:28:14,151 --> 00:28:16,904
♪ He will bless my body, soul,
and spirit... ♪

431
00:28:17,196 --> 00:28:20,282
You know it's God who created
these bodies of ours,

432
00:28:20,574 --> 00:28:22,284
and it's God who blesses them,

433
00:28:22,576 --> 00:28:24,078
and with His help,

434
00:28:24,370 --> 00:28:26,747
we can keep these bodies
working in optimum condition.

435
00:28:27,039 --> 00:28:28,332
Are you ready to start

436
00:28:28,624 --> 00:28:30,584
your "Fun to Be Fit"
Blessercize program?

437
00:28:30,876 --> 00:28:32,002
Huh? Come on, everybody!

438
00:28:32,294 --> 00:28:33,629
All right!

439
00:28:33,921 --> 00:28:36,006
You know, for too long,
we have disassociated

440
00:28:36,298 --> 00:28:39,885
our spiritual selves
from our physical selves,

441
00:28:40,177 --> 00:28:42,012
and it was only after the...

442
00:28:42,304 --> 00:28:45,433
only after I decided
to give God my body

443
00:28:45,725 --> 00:28:50,312
as well as my spirit and soul
that I discovered health...

444
00:28:50,604 --> 00:28:51,897
I mean, more energy

445
00:28:52,189 --> 00:28:53,941
than I think
I've ever known in my life!

446
00:28:54,233 --> 00:28:57,236
Keep it going. Good!

447
00:28:57,528 --> 00:29:00,656
You know, there's another
kind of warm-up that we do.

448
00:29:00,948 --> 00:29:02,575
Out you go and over.

449
00:29:02,867 --> 00:29:05,619
In fact, I think it's the most
important warm-up of all.

450
00:29:05,911 --> 00:29:07,538
It's our spiritual warm-up.

451
00:29:07,830 --> 00:29:10,124
After all, that's what this
whole program is all about.

452
00:29:10,416 --> 00:29:13,627
And up. Let's warm up
with a Bible verse.

453
00:29:13,919 --> 00:29:16,088
Hey. Jane.

454
00:29:17,798 --> 00:29:20,634
Just in time.

455
00:29:20,926 --> 00:29:23,053
It's a really intense hike.

456
00:29:23,345 --> 00:29:25,890
Your shoes don't
look right for it.

457
00:29:26,182 --> 00:29:28,058
Jane and I are wearing
the exact same shoes.

458
00:29:28,350 --> 00:29:30,728
Don't be so paranoid.

459
00:29:33,314 --> 00:29:35,691
A warning would be nice.

460
00:29:35,983 --> 00:29:44,241
♪♪

461
00:29:44,533 --> 00:29:46,744
So, they let you go on hikes
whenever you want?

462
00:29:47,036 --> 00:29:49,580
It's a gender-neutral sport.

463
00:29:49,872 --> 00:29:51,999
I mean, couldn't we
just walk off?

464
00:29:52,291 --> 00:29:53,667
And go where?

465
00:29:53,959 --> 00:29:55,771
Yeah, should we go directly
to Times Square to turn tricks,

466
00:29:55,795 --> 00:29:58,214
or would you rather try
break-dancing first?

467
00:29:58,506 --> 00:30:01,801
What's worse... karaoke night
or living on the streets?

468
00:30:02,092 --> 00:30:05,054
Tough call.

469
00:30:05,346 --> 00:30:07,014
What do you guys
think of Dr. Marsh?

470
00:30:07,306 --> 00:30:09,600
I guess it's like having
your own Disney villain,

471
00:30:09,892 --> 00:30:12,895
only this one won't
let you jerk off.

472
00:30:13,187 --> 00:30:15,898
I find her kind of sexy.

473
00:30:16,190 --> 00:30:21,070
Sex with Lydia would be like
fucking the mom from "Carrie."

474
00:30:21,362 --> 00:30:23,948
Cameron, Lydia...
hot or not?

475
00:30:24,240 --> 00:30:25,950
Ugh. No comment.

476
00:30:28,035 --> 00:30:29,787
What's her deal anyway?

477
00:30:30,079 --> 00:30:32,289
Like, I know why Rick is here,

478
00:30:32,581 --> 00:30:35,417
but why does she
give such a shit?

479
00:30:35,709 --> 00:30:37,878
She's not, like,
ex-gay, is she?

480
00:30:38,170 --> 00:30:39,922
Ew, no.
She's Rick's sister.

481
00:30:40,214 --> 00:30:41,549
Seriously?
Yeah.

482
00:30:41,841 --> 00:30:42,967
She degayed him.

483
00:30:43,259 --> 00:30:45,261
Like, before, she was
just a regular therapist,

484
00:30:45,553 --> 00:30:47,513
and then he became
her human guinea pig.

485
00:30:47,805 --> 00:30:50,266
Wow.

486
00:30:50,558 --> 00:30:53,769
I bet she gives, like,
wool socks for Christmas.

487
00:30:54,061 --> 00:30:55,938
I'd be so down with
wool socks for Christmas.

488
00:30:56,230 --> 00:30:58,350
My grandma would be down
for wool socks for Christmas.

489
00:30:58,440 --> 00:31:01,986
Old-people tastes and
lesbian tastes run parallel.

490
00:31:05,072 --> 00:31:06,907
How long have you
guys been here?

491
00:31:07,199 --> 00:31:10,619
I started last fall,
and Adam came spring semester.

492
00:31:12,663 --> 00:31:17,668
Do you still consider
yourself, like... gay?

493
00:31:17,960 --> 00:31:19,295
Don't answer that.

494
00:31:19,587 --> 00:31:21,964
You read our icebergs, but we
don't know shit about you.

495
00:31:22,256 --> 00:31:23,424
How'd you get here?

496
00:31:23,716 --> 00:31:25,676
Were you caught, or could
they just smell the SSA?

497
00:31:25,718 --> 00:31:29,305
You don't have to answer
that if you don't want.

498
00:31:29,597 --> 00:31:32,057
It's okay.

499
00:31:32,349 --> 00:31:33,350
What's SSA?

500
00:31:33,642 --> 00:31:35,352
Same-sex attraction.

501
00:31:35,644 --> 00:31:38,314
Like, with Mark, you can just
tell by looking at him.

502
00:31:38,606 --> 00:31:41,275
I'm pretty sure Erin
turned herself in,

503
00:31:41,567 --> 00:31:43,485
and I think Helen
probably thought

504
00:31:43,777 --> 00:31:45,571
she was going to music camp.

505
00:31:45,863 --> 00:31:50,326
My boyfriend walked in on me
and this girl, Coley.

506
00:31:50,618 --> 00:31:53,621
Shit.

507
00:31:53,913 --> 00:31:55,289
Where'd they send her?

508
00:31:55,581 --> 00:31:56,874
Nowhere.

509
00:31:57,166 --> 00:31:58,292
It's fucked up.

510
00:31:58,584 --> 00:32:01,295
It's not her fault.

511
00:32:04,423 --> 00:32:06,008
You should forget about her.

512
00:32:06,300 --> 00:32:08,594
Why?

513
00:32:08,886 --> 00:32:10,406
I mean, who's to say
I haven't already?

514
00:32:10,554 --> 00:32:12,115
It's just messed up
that your life had to stop

515
00:32:12,139 --> 00:32:14,516
and hers didn't.

516
00:32:19,563 --> 00:32:22,650
What happened
happened to both of us.

517
00:32:22,942 --> 00:32:25,819
I'm sure you'll work it out
when you get out of here.

518
00:32:26,111 --> 00:32:27,947
That sounded sarcastic,
but it's not.

519
00:32:28,238 --> 00:32:30,616
This is my genuine voice.

520
00:32:36,163 --> 00:32:39,667
[Man singing indistinctly ]

521
00:32:39,959 --> 00:32:43,253
♪ I keep changing,
but you're still the same ♪

522
00:32:43,545 --> 00:32:47,841
[ Indistinct conversations ]

523
00:32:48,133 --> 00:32:49,152
Lydia says we can
use the rec room

524
00:32:49,176 --> 00:32:50,678
if we wake up
early enough.

525
00:32:50,970 --> 00:32:52,972
Cool.

526
00:32:53,263 --> 00:32:55,683
Tandy Campbell's
a huge deal.

527
00:32:55,975 --> 00:32:58,102
I bet my aunt Ruth
totally knows about her.

528
00:32:58,394 --> 00:32:59,979
I'm sure.

529
00:33:00,270 --> 00:33:01,855
Blessercize has helped
so many people

530
00:33:02,147 --> 00:33:04,900
find their bodies through God,

531
00:33:05,192 --> 00:33:09,780
and I need a workout buddy,
so it's a perfect fit.

532
00:33:10,072 --> 00:33:12,408
Sounds like a plan.

533
00:33:12,700 --> 00:33:15,244
[Mid-tempo music playing ]

534
00:33:15,536 --> 00:33:18,205
[ Baby crying ]

535
00:33:30,718 --> 00:33:32,302
You should get in line.

536
00:33:36,765 --> 00:33:37,933
You're stealing?

537
00:33:38,225 --> 00:33:39,703
No. It's only stealing
if I actually leave

538
00:33:39,727 --> 00:33:41,454
the store with it, okay?
I put it back on the shelf.

539
00:33:41,478 --> 00:33:42,855
No. No way.

540
00:33:43,147 --> 00:33:44,732
Erin, please.

541
00:33:45,024 --> 00:33:47,144
You had the sin in your heart,
and that's what counts.

542
00:33:47,317 --> 00:33:48,652
I put it back on the shelf.

543
00:33:48,944 --> 00:33:50,547
I'm not being a good friend
if I ignore your sin.

544
00:33:50,571 --> 00:33:52,948
Nice vest. [ Snickers ]
[ Snickers ]

545
00:33:56,326 --> 00:33:58,871
Okay, fine. I'll tell Rick.

546
00:33:59,163 --> 00:34:00,789
It's the right choice.

547
00:34:01,081 --> 00:34:03,792
Hey, guys.
Hi, Mark.

548
00:34:04,084 --> 00:34:05,895
So, I saw what happened.
Yeah, I know. I'm sorry, okay?

549
00:34:05,919 --> 00:34:07,439
I put it back on the shelf.
Yeah, I-I know.

550
00:34:07,463 --> 00:34:09,381
But I-I also think
Erin was right to stop you.

551
00:34:09,673 --> 00:34:11,050
I know.
Thank you.

552
00:34:11,341 --> 00:34:14,178
That took a lot of courage.
Yeah, I know.

553
00:34:14,470 --> 00:34:18,307
But maybe we could keep
this between us three?

554
00:34:18,599 --> 00:34:19,808
Wait, really?
Wh-Why?

555
00:34:20,100 --> 00:34:21,494
I think that you made
a split-second mistake

556
00:34:21,518 --> 00:34:24,063
and you're sorry.

557
00:34:24,354 --> 00:34:25,856
That... That's just my opinion,

558
00:34:26,148 --> 00:34:27,733
so, you know,
what do you think?

559
00:34:28,025 --> 00:34:30,152
I don't know.

560
00:34:30,444 --> 00:34:31,820
Well, you've learned
your lesson?

561
00:34:32,112 --> 00:34:34,114
Yes. I'm... I'm so ashamed.

562
00:34:37,159 --> 00:34:38,827
I just want to look out
for you

563
00:34:39,119 --> 00:34:41,205
the way I hope you'd
look out for me.

564
00:34:41,497 --> 00:34:43,832
Yeah. Yeah, and you know
how much I appreciate that?

565
00:34:48,837 --> 00:34:50,839
Thank you.

566
00:34:51,131 --> 00:34:55,719
[Music continues ]

567
00:34:56,011 --> 00:34:57,721
[ Cheers and applause ]

568
00:34:58,013 --> 00:34:59,139
♪ Once upon a time ♪

569
00:34:59,431 --> 00:35:01,350
♪ I was all alone ♪

570
00:35:01,642 --> 00:35:05,896
♪ I was scared and I was idle ♪

571
00:35:09,108 --> 00:35:12,903
♪ I couldn't ask for help
when I needed You ♪

572
00:35:13,195 --> 00:35:17,491
♪ 'Cause I was too full
of pride ♪

573
00:35:19,660 --> 00:35:23,288
♪ Ahhhh ♪
♪ And if anyone asks ♪

574
00:35:23,580 --> 00:35:27,251
♪ Ahhhh ♪
♪ "Are you alone tonight?" ♪

575
00:35:27,543 --> 00:35:32,422
♪ Ahhhh ♪ ♪ You've been
there the whole time ♪

576
00:35:32,714 --> 00:35:36,426
♪ Your footsteps
right behind mine ♪

577
00:35:36,718 --> 00:35:39,555
[ Singing indistinctly ]

578
00:35:39,847 --> 00:35:41,140
Check out Helen.

579
00:35:41,431 --> 00:35:44,143
♪ You've been there
the whole time ♪

580
00:35:44,434 --> 00:35:45,834
♪ Your footsteps
right behind mine ♪

581
00:35:46,061 --> 00:35:47,621
Jane: Her panties
would be on that stage

582
00:35:47,688 --> 00:35:51,942
if she wasn't so afraid
of the wrath of God.

583
00:35:52,234 --> 00:35:56,071
♪ You've been there
the whole time ♪

584
00:35:56,363 --> 00:36:00,200
♪ You've been there
the whole time ♪

585
00:36:00,492 --> 00:36:04,204
♪ You've been there
the whole time ♪

586
00:36:04,496 --> 00:36:11,837
♪ You've been there
the whole time ♪

587
00:36:12,129 --> 00:36:15,007
♪ You've been there
the whole time ♪

588
00:36:15,299 --> 00:36:19,469
♪ You've been there
the whole time ♪

589
00:36:19,761 --> 00:36:23,140
♪ You've been there
the whole time ♪

590
00:36:23,432 --> 00:36:26,852
♪ You've been there
the whole time ♪

591
00:36:27,144 --> 00:36:31,231
[ Cheers and applause ]

592
00:36:35,152 --> 00:36:37,529
♪♪

593
00:36:37,821 --> 00:36:40,741
Helen: I want to use my voice
in service of God,

594
00:36:41,033 --> 00:36:45,204
and I can't do that if I'm
living with sin in my heart,

595
00:36:45,495 --> 00:36:48,373
and they could tell.

596
00:36:48,665 --> 00:36:53,045
Of course, they could all tell
that I was struggling with SSA,

597
00:36:53,337 --> 00:36:57,925
and they asked me
to leave the group,

598
00:36:58,217 --> 00:37:02,304
and it was...
[ Sighs ]

599
00:37:02,596 --> 00:37:05,891
Yeah, it was
the worst day of my life.

600
00:37:06,183 --> 00:37:08,227
[ Indistinct conversations
in distance ]

601
00:37:08,518 --> 00:37:12,064
[ Sighs ]

602
00:37:12,356 --> 00:37:16,193
What about you?

603
00:37:16,485 --> 00:37:19,529
I was running with her faster.
[ Door closes ]

604
00:37:19,821 --> 00:37:22,324
Did you hear that?
What?

605
00:37:22,616 --> 00:37:23,825
Ruth: Cam, I'm home!

606
00:37:24,117 --> 00:37:28,580
♪♪

607
00:37:28,872 --> 00:37:30,832
Um...

608
00:37:31,124 --> 00:37:33,669
[ Conversations continue ]

609
00:37:33,961 --> 00:37:36,338
...I can't really
think of anything.

610
00:37:36,630 --> 00:37:38,340
Don't overthink it.

611
00:37:38,632 --> 00:37:40,425
When did your
same-sex attractions

612
00:37:40,717 --> 00:37:43,095
get in the way
of your goals?

613
00:37:47,557 --> 00:37:49,643
I don't know.

614
00:37:49,935 --> 00:37:52,020
Why can't you try?

615
00:37:54,898 --> 00:37:56,275
I mean, I am trying.

616
00:37:56,566 --> 00:37:57,566
No, you're not.

617
00:37:57,609 --> 00:38:00,195
What?
Is there a problem?

618
00:38:00,487 --> 00:38:02,322
I'm... I'm sorry.
I don't...

619
00:38:02,614 --> 00:38:04,741
I-Is this
just a joke to you?

620
00:38:05,033 --> 00:38:06,785
What? I-I didn't
even say anything.

621
00:38:07,077 --> 00:38:09,204
Exactly.
You never say anything,

622
00:38:09,496 --> 00:38:12,833
and... and your silence feels
aggressive and judgmental,

623
00:38:13,125 --> 00:38:14,376
and it makes the space
not safe.

624
00:38:14,668 --> 00:38:15,836
That's ridiculous.

625
00:38:16,128 --> 00:38:19,006
Well, Helen perceives
hostility in your behavior.

626
00:38:19,298 --> 00:38:20,465
You can agree or not,

627
00:38:20,757 --> 00:38:23,844
but you must recognize
that that is her truth.

628
00:38:26,221 --> 00:38:29,725
Well, I-I mean, what do you
want me to say?

629
00:38:30,017 --> 00:38:32,978
Anything.
Just be honest.

630
00:38:39,735 --> 00:38:41,028
[ Sighs softly]

631
00:38:41,320 --> 00:38:44,614
Tell us about that girl
you knew from home.

632
00:38:51,580 --> 00:38:53,874
Okay. Um...

633
00:38:54,166 --> 00:38:57,794
her name was Coley.

634
00:38:58,086 --> 00:39:01,173
We were in the same
Bible study.

635
00:39:01,465 --> 00:39:03,842
What was she like?

636
00:39:06,803 --> 00:39:09,139
She was perfect.

637
00:39:10,599 --> 00:39:14,895
But she wasn't
full of herself.

638
00:39:15,187 --> 00:39:16,587
You know, she was
the type of person

639
00:39:16,730 --> 00:39:19,483
that, no matter who you were,
you'd meet her,

640
00:39:19,775 --> 00:39:21,568
and you'd... you'd want
to be her friend.

641
00:39:23,820 --> 00:39:28,241
It's said that cannibals
only eat the enemies they admire

642
00:39:28,533 --> 00:39:31,453
as a way to take inside
their best qualities.

643
00:39:33,789 --> 00:39:34,998
Okay.

644
00:39:35,290 --> 00:39:37,209
When you speak,
you reveal a compulsion

645
00:39:37,501 --> 00:39:39,294
to take into yourself

646
00:39:39,586 --> 00:39:41,838
the qualities you
admired in this girl.

647
00:39:46,218 --> 00:39:47,969
I wanted to be like her,

648
00:39:48,261 --> 00:39:50,555
and I confused that
with being with her?

649
00:39:50,847 --> 00:39:53,517
Correct.

650
00:39:56,436 --> 00:39:58,939
I guess that makes sense.

651
00:39:59,231 --> 00:40:03,527
[Chuckling ] It's like I thought
I was in love with Vicki Jones,

652
00:40:03,819 --> 00:40:07,197
but... what I really loved
was her perfect pitch.

653
00:40:09,866 --> 00:40:18,291
♪♪

654
00:40:18,583 --> 00:40:26,925
♪♪

655
00:40:27,217 --> 00:40:29,761
Looks like I'm going home
at the end of this semester.

656
00:40:30,053 --> 00:40:32,097
Oh, cool.

657
00:40:32,389 --> 00:40:34,057
Congratulations.

658
00:40:39,479 --> 00:40:41,231
Can I ask you
a personal question?

659
00:40:41,523 --> 00:40:42,941
Uh-huh, sure.

660
00:40:43,233 --> 00:40:44,818
Do you believe in God?

661
00:40:48,655 --> 00:40:50,699
Um...

662
00:40:56,329 --> 00:40:58,049
...I-I guess I don't...
I don't really know.

663
00:41:00,250 --> 00:41:02,711
Yeah. That's okay.

664
00:41:06,631 --> 00:41:09,718
I guess every time...

665
00:41:10,010 --> 00:41:12,679
I pray...

666
00:41:12,971 --> 00:41:16,266
I kind of feel like
I'm being phony.

667
00:41:17,392 --> 00:41:21,146
Yeah. I-I think everybody
can feel like that sometimes,

668
00:41:21,438 --> 00:41:22,958
but I also think that
those are moments

669
00:41:23,064 --> 00:41:26,485
where it's really important
to lean back on your faith

670
00:41:26,776 --> 00:41:28,820
and trust that that
will take you forward.

671
00:41:34,034 --> 00:41:35,952
I don't think I really
have any faith.

672
00:41:38,663 --> 00:41:40,582
Or at least I don't...

673
00:41:40,874 --> 00:41:42,474
really know how to go
about getting it...

674
00:41:42,542 --> 00:41:44,628
[ Chuckles softly]

675
00:41:44,920 --> 00:41:47,756
...or if I really want it.

676
00:41:48,048 --> 00:41:51,843
Look, I get it.
I'm not going to lie to you.

677
00:41:52,135 --> 00:41:54,971
I can feel very lost.

678
00:41:55,263 --> 00:42:00,352
But I find it important
to remember...

679
00:42:00,644 --> 00:42:02,938
one foot
in front of the other.

680
00:42:06,233 --> 00:42:08,033
You write here that
the positive reinforcement

681
00:42:08,151 --> 00:42:11,363
you receive for athleticism
confused your gender identity.

682
00:42:15,116 --> 00:42:17,118
Expand on that.

683
00:42:17,410 --> 00:42:20,372
Um...

684
00:42:20,664 --> 00:42:22,123
I don't know.

685
00:42:22,415 --> 00:42:24,543
You must have had a reason
to put it on your iceberg.

686
00:42:29,422 --> 00:42:31,925
Well, I was always
encouraged to compete.

687
00:42:32,217 --> 00:42:33,857
You know, I was all-state
track and field,

688
00:42:33,885 --> 00:42:37,764
so my entire family would
come and watch, cheer me on.

689
00:42:38,056 --> 00:42:40,225
That's how you
earned their love?

690
00:42:40,517 --> 00:42:43,353
No. I wouldn't say that.

691
00:42:43,645 --> 00:42:45,689
They weren't... like that.

692
00:42:45,981 --> 00:42:48,858
What were they like?

693
00:42:52,070 --> 00:42:54,489
They were fine.

694
00:42:54,781 --> 00:42:57,742
Cameron...

695
00:42:58,034 --> 00:42:59,536
if your parents
were still alive,

696
00:42:59,828 --> 00:43:02,455
do you think they'd
be proud of you?

697
00:43:05,709 --> 00:43:06,918
Uh, I don't know.

698
00:43:07,210 --> 00:43:09,671
Your aunt said they had
concerns about you.

699
00:43:22,851 --> 00:43:25,979
Cameron, your progress
is dependent

700
00:43:26,271 --> 00:43:28,148
on the effort you put in,

701
00:43:28,440 --> 00:43:30,025
in our work together.

702
00:43:30,317 --> 00:43:34,821
Your success or failure
is entirely in your own hands.

703
00:43:35,113 --> 00:43:38,867
Do you understand that?

704
00:43:39,159 --> 00:43:40,452
Okay.

705
00:43:40,744 --> 00:43:44,497
Okay.

706
00:43:59,095 --> 00:44:01,056
[ Erin snoring softly]

707
00:44:01,348 --> 00:44:07,687
♪♪

708
00:44:07,979 --> 00:44:14,319
♪♪

709
00:44:14,611 --> 00:44:20,950
♪♪

710
00:44:21,242 --> 00:44:27,582
♪♪

711
00:44:27,874 --> 00:44:34,214
♪♪

712
00:44:34,506 --> 00:44:40,804
♪♪

713
00:44:41,096 --> 00:44:47,435
♪♪

714
00:44:47,727 --> 00:44:55,026
♪♪

715
00:44:55,318 --> 00:44:57,278
Fuck.

716
00:44:57,570 --> 00:44:59,322
[ Sighs ]

717
00:44:59,614 --> 00:45:01,908
[ Snoring continues ]

718
00:45:02,200 --> 00:45:04,077
[ Sighs ]

719
00:45:18,758 --> 00:45:22,053
[ Indistinct conversations ]

720
00:45:22,345 --> 00:45:25,223
[Woman singing indistinctly]

721
00:45:25,515 --> 00:45:28,393
[ Conversations continue ]

722
00:45:38,403 --> 00:45:40,363
[ Dialing ]

723
00:45:43,366 --> 00:45:50,749
[ Ringing ]

724
00:45:51,040 --> 00:45:52,792
Coley: Hello?

725
00:45:53,084 --> 00:45:54,085
Hey.

726
00:45:54,377 --> 00:45:57,464
Uh, it's me...

727
00:45:57,756 --> 00:45:59,048
Cameron.

728
00:46:01,217 --> 00:46:03,344
Hey.

729
00:46:03,636 --> 00:46:05,764
Are you at that place?

730
00:46:06,055 --> 00:46:08,850
Yeah. Um...

731
00:46:09,142 --> 00:46:11,895
listen, I've been thinking
about what happened,

732
00:46:12,187 --> 00:46:15,607
and I just want
to say I'm sorry.

733
00:46:15,899 --> 00:46:18,818
It was really shitty
the way it all went down.

734
00:46:19,110 --> 00:46:20,945
Yeah.

735
00:46:21,237 --> 00:46:24,199
Did you get my letter?
I sent you a letter.

736
00:46:24,491 --> 00:46:26,868
Wait, really?
Yeah.

737
00:46:27,160 --> 00:46:28,304
Rick: Hey, guys!
Time to wrap it up!

738
00:46:28,328 --> 00:46:29,513
Bethany:
Hey, eyes up here, guys!

739
00:46:29,537 --> 00:46:31,748
Coley, I have to...
I have to go.

740
00:46:32,040 --> 00:46:33,374
I'll call you back.

741
00:46:35,418 --> 00:46:37,498
How long did it take you guys
to get mail privileges?

742
00:46:37,629 --> 00:46:38,922
I don't know.

743
00:46:39,214 --> 00:46:42,467
Like, two months...
maybe longer.

744
00:46:42,759 --> 00:46:45,386
Hey! I did it!

745
00:46:45,678 --> 00:46:47,305
Great!

746
00:46:47,597 --> 00:46:50,016
[Applause ]

747
00:47:09,744 --> 00:47:11,496
What the...?

748
00:47:19,128 --> 00:47:22,382
Hey, Adam.

749
00:47:22,674 --> 00:47:24,509
What's winkte mean?

750
00:47:24,801 --> 00:47:27,762
Adam: Winkte?
Why do you ask?

751
00:47:28,054 --> 00:47:29,597
Um...

752
00:47:29,889 --> 00:47:31,266
I read it...

753
00:47:31,558 --> 00:47:33,518
on your iceberg.

754
00:47:35,270 --> 00:47:37,355
Yeah. It's a... It's a Lakotan
word for two-spirit.

755
00:47:37,647 --> 00:47:39,607
It's like a...
It's like a third gender.

756
00:47:41,985 --> 00:47:44,404
Okay, so, I am two-spirit,

757
00:47:44,696 --> 00:47:46,739
which, uh, means I was born
with a man's soul

758
00:47:47,031 --> 00:47:48,324
and a woman's soul,

759
00:47:48,616 --> 00:47:50,696
and, uh, literally, "winkte"
means "killed by woman,"

760
00:47:50,785 --> 00:47:52,078
so it's as if
the male part of me

761
00:47:52,370 --> 00:47:54,330
is being killed
by the female part.

762
00:47:54,622 --> 00:47:56,875
That make sense?

763
00:47:57,166 --> 00:48:00,003
He's basically like the
Native American David Bowie.

764
00:48:00,295 --> 00:48:03,172
[ Chuckles softly]
I'll take it.

765
00:48:03,464 --> 00:48:05,133
So, why'd your parents
send you here?

766
00:48:05,425 --> 00:48:07,051
His dad got into politics,

767
00:48:07,343 --> 00:48:10,680
and then he converted
to Christianity.

768
00:48:10,972 --> 00:48:12,557
Me being like this...

769
00:48:12,849 --> 00:48:14,517
fucks his image.

770
00:48:23,860 --> 00:48:25,612
Did, um...

771
00:48:25,904 --> 00:48:28,007
Did Rick tell you guys the story
about how he was saved?

772
00:48:28,031 --> 00:48:30,158
[ Chuckles softly]

773
00:48:30,450 --> 00:48:32,452
You mean how Christian allies
happened upon his car

774
00:48:32,744 --> 00:48:35,914
in the parking lot of a gay bar
and went inside to investigate?

775
00:48:36,205 --> 00:48:38,458
There was this, like,
weird staredown,

776
00:48:38,750 --> 00:48:44,464
and everybody is like, "Fuck,"
and, finally, Rick is like,

777
00:48:44,756 --> 00:48:47,675
"Oh, my God. Did you guys
come here to save me?"

778
00:48:47,967 --> 00:48:53,139
They're like, "Oh, yeah. We were
driving, and we saw your car."

779
00:48:53,431 --> 00:48:56,017
"You drive the blue..."
"Gray Toyota Camry," yes.

780
00:48:56,309 --> 00:48:57,936
"Yeah, yeah, yeah.
Of course." Mm-hmm.

781
00:48:58,227 --> 00:48:59,987
We were driving.
We saw it, and we were like,

782
00:49:00,021 --> 00:49:03,566
'Wow, Rick really needs
our help finding God, '

783
00:49:03,858 --> 00:49:07,195
and that's why we're here,
not to suck your dick."

784
00:49:07,487 --> 00:49:08,487
[ Laughs ]

785
00:49:08,613 --> 00:49:10,156
[ Laughs ]

786
00:49:10,448 --> 00:49:12,992
[Woman singing indistinctly]

787
00:49:13,284 --> 00:49:15,411
[Young woman laughs ]

788
00:49:15,703 --> 00:49:18,456
[Singing continues ]

789
00:49:18,748 --> 00:49:21,709
That's really good.

790
00:49:22,001 --> 00:49:24,629
Adam: I'm too stoned
for art therapy.

791
00:49:27,507 --> 00:49:30,593
Cameron: I'm sorry.
How is this supposed to help us?

792
00:49:30,885 --> 00:49:33,137
Just think of it as a test
of how far your bullshit

793
00:49:33,429 --> 00:49:35,098
can take you. Like...
[ Laughs ]

794
00:49:35,390 --> 00:49:38,059
...let's see. Um...

795
00:49:38,351 --> 00:49:40,144
this woman riding a horse?
Mm-hmm.

796
00:49:40,436 --> 00:49:44,107
She's you galloping away
from a past of gender confusion

797
00:49:44,399 --> 00:49:48,027
and into a bright future
of opposite-sex lovemaking.

798
00:49:48,319 --> 00:49:49,445
And, uh...

799
00:49:49,737 --> 00:49:50,905
hold on.

800
00:49:51,197 --> 00:49:52,573
This cat...

801
00:49:52,865 --> 00:49:55,576
and this cat is the devil.
Think of it as your past,

802
00:49:55,868 --> 00:49:58,538
the temptations
and the dangers and...

803
00:49:58,830 --> 00:49:59,830
Hey, how are you?

804
00:50:00,081 --> 00:50:01,791
Good work, Adam.
Thank you.

805
00:50:03,960 --> 00:50:05,253
"Good work, Adam."

806
00:50:05,545 --> 00:50:07,255
This Pillsbury Doughboy?

807
00:50:07,547 --> 00:50:10,174
Domesticity and
comfort and family.

808
00:50:10,466 --> 00:50:13,011
I mean, just imagine you're
all sitting at a table together

809
00:50:13,302 --> 00:50:16,889
eating crescent rolls
like a healthy American family.

810
00:50:17,181 --> 00:50:21,019
It's like watching Michaelangelo
paint the Sistine Chapel.

811
00:50:21,310 --> 00:50:23,630
[ Snickers ] What? Why are you laughing?
You know I'm right.

812
00:50:23,896 --> 00:50:25,023
That is why I'm laughing.

813
00:50:25,314 --> 00:50:28,443
I mean, the system
is working on you.

814
00:50:28,735 --> 00:50:32,822
Fuck you. No, it's not
working on me at all.

815
00:50:33,114 --> 00:50:36,576
[Music cutting in and out ]

816
00:50:36,868 --> 00:50:39,829
[ Radio tuning ]

817
00:50:40,121 --> 00:50:41,664
♪ Oooh ♪

818
00:50:41,956 --> 00:50:43,541
♪ Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh, ooh ♪

819
00:50:43,833 --> 00:50:46,961
♪ Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh ♪

820
00:50:47,253 --> 00:50:52,258
♪ Ooh, ahh, ahh, ahh, ahh, ahh ♪

821
00:50:52,550 --> 00:50:54,969
♪ And I try ♪

822
00:50:55,261 --> 00:50:58,514
♪ Oh, my God, do I try ♪

823
00:50:58,806 --> 00:51:02,643
♪ I try all the time ♪

824
00:51:02,935 --> 00:51:06,522
♪ In this institution ♪

825
00:51:06,814 --> 00:51:09,484
♪ And I pray ♪

826
00:51:09,776 --> 00:51:12,487
♪ Oh, my God, do I pray ♪

827
00:51:12,779 --> 00:51:16,866
♪ I pray every single day ♪

828
00:51:17,158 --> 00:51:19,243
♪ For revolution ♪

829
00:51:19,535 --> 00:51:21,454
Whoo!
[ Chuckles ] It's really embarrassing.

830
00:51:21,746 --> 00:51:23,766
♪ And so I cry sometimes ♪
Please... Please don't stop.

831
00:51:23,790 --> 00:51:25,249
♪ When I'm lying in bed ♪

832
00:51:25,541 --> 00:51:28,544
♪ Just to get it all out
what's in my head ♪

833
00:51:28,836 --> 00:51:29,921
♪ And I ♪
[Wolf-whistles ]

834
00:51:30,213 --> 00:51:31,547
♪ I am feeling ♪
Get up on stage.

835
00:51:31,839 --> 00:51:35,259
♪ A little peculiar ♪

836
00:51:35,551 --> 00:51:37,553
Sing it.
♪ And I wake in the morning ♪

837
00:51:37,845 --> 00:51:39,514
♪ And I step outside ♪

838
00:51:39,806 --> 00:51:41,140
♪ And I take a deep breath ♪

839
00:51:41,432 --> 00:51:43,684
♪ And I get real high, and I ♪

840
00:51:43,976 --> 00:51:45,536
Whoo!
♪ Scream from the top of my lungs ♪

841
00:51:45,812 --> 00:51:47,230
♪ "What's going on?!" ♪

842
00:51:47,522 --> 00:51:48,940
Come on, everyone!

843
00:51:49,232 --> 00:51:53,986
♪ And I say,
"Hey, yeah, yeah, yeah" ♪

844
00:51:54,278 --> 00:51:56,781
♪ "Hey, yeah, yeah" ♪

845
00:51:57,073 --> 00:51:59,867
♪ I said, "Hey!" ♪
Helen!

846
00:52:00,159 --> 00:52:01,744
♪ What's going on?! ♪

847
00:52:02,036 --> 00:52:03,329
[ Music stops ]

848
00:52:03,621 --> 00:52:06,541
[ Breathing heavily ]

849
00:52:10,837 --> 00:52:12,505
Back to work.

850
00:52:12,797 --> 00:52:18,719
The station went static,
so we changed it.

851
00:52:19,011 --> 00:52:20,656
Adam, if you don't get
that hair out of your eyes,

852
00:52:20,680 --> 00:52:21,840
I'll shave it off.
Yes, ma'am.

853
00:52:22,098 --> 00:52:24,684
Cameron, come with me.

854
00:52:24,976 --> 00:52:27,228
Shit.

855
00:52:36,237 --> 00:52:38,030
Why now?

856
00:52:38,322 --> 00:52:40,575
I think you'll benefit
from what's in those letters.

857
00:52:41,826 --> 00:52:44,829
[ Door locks ]

858
00:52:45,121 --> 00:52:47,081
Thank you.

859
00:53:16,777 --> 00:53:19,363
[Train whistle blows
in distance ]

860
00:53:19,655 --> 00:53:21,282
Cameron: I'm sorry.

861
00:53:21,574 --> 00:53:25,244
Jamie:
It's just so messed up!

862
00:53:25,536 --> 00:53:28,414
[ Crying ]

863
00:53:30,208 --> 00:53:34,462
I'm sorry.

864
00:53:34,754 --> 00:53:35,922
Coley.

865
00:53:36,214 --> 00:53:37,715
Are you fucking kidding me?

866
00:53:38,007 --> 00:53:40,635
Coley, please just get
out of the car.

867
00:53:40,927 --> 00:53:42,220
[ Crying continues ]

868
00:53:42,511 --> 00:53:45,097
Coley, come on.
Just get out of the car.

869
00:53:45,389 --> 00:53:51,854
[Train whistle blows
in distance ]

870
00:53:52,146 --> 00:53:54,398
F-Fuck!

871
00:54:01,197 --> 00:54:02,865
Jamie, I...

872
00:54:07,578 --> 00:54:09,747
"Dear Cameron,
I'm very angry at you

873
00:54:10,039 --> 00:54:12,875
for taking advantage
of our friendship."

874
00:54:13,167 --> 00:54:15,795
Shit.
Keep reading it.

875
00:54:16,087 --> 00:54:18,047
"You already had this thing
in you, but I didn't.

876
00:54:18,339 --> 00:54:19,608
When I think of
how long it took me

877
00:54:19,632 --> 00:54:20,817
to gain the strength
to tell my mom..."

878
00:54:20,841 --> 00:54:23,678
She told.
It wasn't Jamie.

879
00:54:23,970 --> 00:54:27,848
What if she's right...

880
00:54:28,140 --> 00:54:30,059
you know, like I-I-I
took complete advantage

881
00:54:30,351 --> 00:54:31,477
of our friendship

882
00:54:31,769 --> 00:54:34,313
and I wasn't even aware
I was doing it?

883
00:54:34,605 --> 00:54:36,691
No.

884
00:54:36,983 --> 00:54:38,985
Pink stationery does not
get to fuck with you.

885
00:54:41,821 --> 00:54:44,407
[Water running ]

886
00:54:44,699 --> 00:54:47,785
This girl is spineless.

887
00:54:48,077 --> 00:54:49,704
Let's say what you
did was fucked up

888
00:54:49,996 --> 00:54:51,539
and you infected
her or whatever.

889
00:54:51,831 --> 00:54:54,208
It was a shit move
to rat you out.

890
00:54:54,500 --> 00:54:55,740
She was just trying to help me.

891
00:54:55,960 --> 00:54:58,296
She's a fucking rat.
And she misspelled "courage."

892
00:54:58,587 --> 00:55:00,464
Stop it.

893
00:55:00,756 --> 00:55:03,050
She's better than all of us.

894
00:55:03,342 --> 00:55:06,637
And I hurt her.

895
00:55:06,929 --> 00:55:12,518
What if this really is our only
chance and we're blowing it?

896
00:55:12,810 --> 00:55:15,521
I'm tired of feeling
disgusted with myself.

897
00:55:19,650 --> 00:55:21,861
Maybe you're supposed to feel
disgusted with yourself

898
00:55:22,153 --> 00:55:23,654
when you're a teenager.

899
00:55:28,200 --> 00:55:35,875
♪♪

900
00:55:36,167 --> 00:55:44,842
♪♪

901
00:55:45,134 --> 00:55:46,802
[ Dialing ]

902
00:55:47,094 --> 00:55:49,513
[ Ringing ]

903
00:55:49,805 --> 00:55:58,105
♪♪

904
00:55:58,397 --> 00:56:00,441
Ruth: Hello?

905
00:56:00,733 --> 00:56:02,151
Ruth?

906
00:56:02,443 --> 00:56:03,903
Cam?

907
00:56:04,195 --> 00:56:05,821
Hey.

908
00:56:06,113 --> 00:56:09,492
What a nice surprise!
How are you?

909
00:56:09,784 --> 00:56:12,370
[Voice breaking ]
I miss you.

910
00:56:12,661 --> 00:56:14,622
Are you okay?

911
00:56:16,415 --> 00:56:18,292
[ Sighs ]

912
00:56:18,584 --> 00:56:22,380
If I told you
I was unhappy...

913
00:56:22,671 --> 00:56:27,176
and that I wanted
to come home...

914
00:56:27,468 --> 00:56:29,178
would you let me?

915
00:56:29,470 --> 00:56:31,263
Cam, come on.

916
00:56:31,555 --> 00:56:34,225
You have to give it a chance.

917
00:56:36,519 --> 00:56:39,730
You know I'm doing this
because I love you.

918
00:56:47,446 --> 00:56:50,157
Don't you want to have
a family someday?

919
00:56:54,328 --> 00:56:55,996
[ Crying ]

920
00:56:56,288 --> 00:56:58,249
I love you, Cammie.

921
00:56:58,541 --> 00:57:01,544
[ Crying ]
I love you, too.

922
00:57:01,836 --> 00:57:03,379
[ Both crying ]

923
00:57:03,671 --> 00:57:05,423
Bye, Ruth.

924
00:57:13,556 --> 00:57:16,517
[ Crying ]

925
00:57:34,994 --> 00:57:37,788
♪♪

926
00:57:38,080 --> 00:57:39,457
[ Door opens ]

927
00:57:39,748 --> 00:57:45,588
How are you feeling,
Cameron?

928
00:57:45,880 --> 00:57:49,175
Um...

929
00:57:49,467 --> 00:57:51,927
I'm okay.

930
00:57:52,219 --> 00:57:53,929
You don't seem okay.

931
00:57:54,221 --> 00:57:57,975
♪♪

932
00:57:58,267 --> 00:57:59,810
I've been better.

933
00:58:00,102 --> 00:58:04,899
You're facing the consequences
of your actions, and it's ugly.

934
00:58:08,402 --> 00:58:10,654
Now what?

935
00:58:10,946 --> 00:58:14,783
Now you stop fighting
the process.

936
00:58:15,075 --> 00:58:21,415
♪♪

937
00:58:25,544 --> 00:58:27,129
Are you ready?

938
00:58:27,421 --> 00:58:29,673
You know it's God who created
these bodies of ours

939
00:58:29,965 --> 00:58:32,092
and it's God who blesses them.

940
00:58:32,384 --> 00:58:37,056
And with His help, we can keep these
bodies working in optimum condition.

941
00:58:37,348 --> 00:58:40,059
Are you ready to start your
"Fun to Be Fit" Blessercize program?

942
00:58:40,351 --> 00:58:42,061
Huh? Come on, everybody!

943
00:58:42,353 --> 00:58:43,687
All right!

944
00:58:43,979 --> 00:58:46,106
Let's engage in some
cardiovascular fitness

945
00:58:46,398 --> 00:58:48,108
unto the Lord. Ready?

946
00:58:48,400 --> 00:58:51,612
♪ It's gonna be fun
to Blessercize with Jesus ♪

947
00:58:51,904 --> 00:58:55,115
♪ To be fit for Him
in every way ♪

948
00:58:55,407 --> 00:58:58,118
♪ He will bless my body,
soul, and spirit ♪

949
00:58:58,410 --> 00:59:00,746
♪ And keep me with Him
every day ♪

950
00:59:01,038 --> 00:59:03,457
♪ I'm gonna sing praise,
hallelujah! ♪

951
00:59:03,749 --> 00:59:06,961
♪ 'Cause my body's
growing firm and strong ♪

952
00:59:07,253 --> 00:59:08,493
You know what we're doing here?

953
00:59:08,629 --> 00:59:10,464
We're developing
our inner person.

954
00:59:10,756 --> 00:59:13,175
You are heading toward
godliness, you see,

955
00:59:13,467 --> 00:59:14,843
in every area of your life,

956
00:59:15,135 --> 00:59:17,221
and that takes some work.

957
00:59:17,513 --> 00:59:18,793
♪ The Lord
is gonna Blessercize ♪

958
00:59:18,847 --> 00:59:20,182
♪ Blessercize ♪

959
00:59:20,474 --> 00:59:22,810
♪ I'm growing stronger
every day ♪

960
00:59:23,102 --> 00:59:24,353
♪ I'm gonna make a new start ♪

961
00:59:24,645 --> 00:59:28,983
And that is your stomach
workout. Terrific!

962
00:59:29,275 --> 00:59:31,360
♪ Blessercize ♪

963
00:59:31,652 --> 00:59:32,820
[ Chuckles softly]

964
00:59:33,112 --> 00:59:35,573
♪♪

965
00:59:43,372 --> 00:59:46,250
Is there anything
I can help you with?

966
00:59:55,676 --> 00:59:57,469
Cameron.
[ Gasps ]

967
00:59:57,761 --> 00:59:59,241
Shh, shh. No. I'm sorry.
It's just me.

968
00:59:59,388 --> 01:00:00,388
What the fuck?

969
01:00:00,639 --> 01:00:02,141
You were making
a lot of noise.

970
01:00:02,433 --> 01:00:04,602
I'm sorry. I'm fine.

971
01:00:04,893 --> 01:00:07,229
What were you
dreaming about?

972
01:00:07,521 --> 01:00:09,231
I don't remember, okay?
It was scary.

973
01:00:09,523 --> 01:00:10,774
No, it wasn't.
Yeah, it was.

974
01:00:11,066 --> 01:00:12,986
How would you know?
You weren't dreaming with me.

975
01:00:13,152 --> 01:00:15,213
I was listening to you,
and those weren't scared noises.

976
01:00:15,237 --> 01:00:17,239
It was. This is ridiculous.
Go back to bed.

977
01:00:19,742 --> 01:00:21,035
I heard you.

978
01:00:21,327 --> 01:00:22,703
I don't give two...

979
01:00:35,507 --> 01:00:38,093
Let me do this.

980
01:00:46,727 --> 01:00:49,688
[ Breathing heavily ]

981
01:01:01,742 --> 01:01:04,536
[ Breathing intensifies ]

982
01:01:04,828 --> 01:01:07,706
[ Moaning softly ]

983
01:01:18,300 --> 01:01:21,720
[ Moaning softly ]

984
01:01:22,012 --> 01:01:23,514
[ Gasps softly ]

985
01:01:23,806 --> 01:01:25,015
[ Breathing heavily ]

986
01:01:25,307 --> 01:01:29,186
[ Breathing slows ]

987
01:01:39,822 --> 01:01:42,658
No. I-It's okay.
I'm good.

988
01:01:42,950 --> 01:01:46,537
What?

989
01:01:46,829 --> 01:01:48,914
Get off.

990
01:01:49,206 --> 01:01:52,042
Are you serious?

991
01:01:52,334 --> 01:01:55,170
I should go back
to my own bed now.

992
01:01:58,132 --> 01:01:59,591
Right now?

993
01:01:59,883 --> 01:02:01,927
They could do a pop-in
at any minute.

994
01:02:05,389 --> 01:02:07,349
[ Sighs ]

995
01:02:10,060 --> 01:02:13,731
[ Breathing heavily ]

996
01:02:14,022 --> 01:02:16,150
[ Exhales sharply]

997
01:02:18,277 --> 01:02:20,821
You can't tell anyone, Cam.

998
01:02:21,113 --> 01:02:23,615
I won't.

999
01:02:23,907 --> 01:02:28,036
I really do want
to get past this.

1000
01:02:28,328 --> 01:02:29,621
Yeah. I believe you.

1001
01:02:29,913 --> 01:02:31,790
I don't care if you
believe me or not.

1002
01:02:35,794 --> 01:02:38,046
I knew this would happen.

1003
01:02:38,338 --> 01:02:40,632
[ Chuckling ] I didn't.

1004
01:02:43,302 --> 01:02:46,054
Because you don't
think of me that way.

1005
01:02:59,985 --> 01:03:02,946
Is part of the reason why you
watch those Tandy Campbell videos

1006
01:03:03,238 --> 01:03:05,783
'cause she's kind of hot,
huh?

1007
01:03:06,074 --> 01:03:08,577
We shouldn't encourage each
other's homosexual attractions.

1008
01:03:08,869 --> 01:03:10,454
Are you fucking
serious right now?

1009
01:03:10,746 --> 01:03:12,474
I don't want to talk anymore.
I just want to go to sleep.

1010
01:03:12,498 --> 01:03:17,586
[ Scoffs ] Okay.
Well, I mean, you're the one that woke me up.

1011
01:03:26,303 --> 01:03:28,388
Tandy Campbell's
not even my type.

1012
01:03:34,061 --> 01:03:37,481
♪♪

1013
01:03:37,773 --> 01:03:40,484
[ Buzzing in distance ]

1014
01:03:40,776 --> 01:03:47,282
♪♪

1015
01:03:47,574 --> 01:03:54,122
♪♪

1016
01:03:54,414 --> 01:04:00,921
♪♪

1017
01:04:01,213 --> 01:04:07,719
♪♪

1018
01:04:08,011 --> 01:04:15,519
♪♪

1019
01:04:15,811 --> 01:04:19,523
God, please help so that
the pitch and lyrics

1020
01:04:19,815 --> 01:04:21,316
become second nature

1021
01:04:21,608 --> 01:04:27,030
and I can sing in
worship from my heart.

1022
01:04:28,407 --> 01:04:34,830
[Mid-tempo music plays ]

1023
01:04:35,122 --> 01:04:37,624
♪ So much to believe in ♪

1024
01:04:37,916 --> 01:04:41,503
♪ We were lost in time ♪

1025
01:04:41,795 --> 01:04:43,589
♪ Always thought of keeping ♪

1026
01:04:43,881 --> 01:04:48,385
♪ Your heart next to mine ♪

1027
01:04:48,677 --> 01:04:55,350
♪ But now that seems
so far away ♪

1028
01:04:55,642 --> 01:05:01,398
♪ Don't know how love
can leave without a trace ♪

1029
01:05:01,690 --> 01:05:04,276
♪ Where do silent hearts go? ♪

1030
01:05:04,568 --> 01:05:09,072
♪ Where does
my heart beat now? ♪

1031
01:05:09,364 --> 01:05:13,368
♪ Where is the sound ♪

1032
01:05:13,660 --> 01:05:17,414
♪ That only echoes through
through the night? ♪

1033
01:05:17,706 --> 01:05:20,083
♪ Where do all
the lonely hearts go? ♪

1034
01:05:23,962 --> 01:05:26,673
♪ Where do all
the lonely hearts go? ♪

1035
01:05:29,051 --> 01:05:30,761
Change will come through

1036
01:05:31,053 --> 01:05:36,558
God, but within me,
I must be the change.

1037
01:05:45,400 --> 01:05:47,402
Mark, why don't
you start us off?

1038
01:05:51,615 --> 01:05:54,785
I know you've had
an especially hard week.

1039
01:05:55,077 --> 01:05:56,912
No. I...

1040
01:05:57,204 --> 01:05:58,956
Every week
is especially hard.

1041
01:05:59,247 --> 01:06:00,457
Is there something...

1042
01:06:00,749 --> 01:06:03,585
Look, if you want me
to talk about my father,

1043
01:06:03,877 --> 01:06:07,464
then I'd prefer
if you just ask.

1044
01:06:07,756 --> 01:06:10,092
Sounds like you want to talk
about your father's decision.

1045
01:06:10,384 --> 01:06:13,220
I don't see what
there is to talk about.

1046
01:06:13,512 --> 01:06:15,889
I mean,
you've read his letter.

1047
01:06:22,312 --> 01:06:23,480
"I am denying your request

1048
01:06:23,772 --> 01:06:26,608
to return home at the end
of the semester.

1049
01:06:26,900 --> 01:06:29,444
You are still
very effeminate...

1050
01:06:29,736 --> 01:06:33,448
and this is a weakness
I cannot have in my home."

1051
01:06:35,909 --> 01:06:37,577
How did that make you feel?

1052
01:06:40,038 --> 01:06:43,125
I'd like to read a passage.

1053
01:06:43,417 --> 01:06:45,043
It's one of my
father's favorites.

1054
01:06:45,335 --> 01:06:47,713
Please do.

1055
01:06:59,725 --> 01:07:02,310
"There was given to me
a thorn in the flesh..."

1056
01:07:05,480 --> 01:07:09,735
"...the messenger of Satan
to buffet me,

1057
01:07:10,027 --> 01:07:12,154
lest I should be
exalted above measure."

1058
01:07:16,700 --> 01:07:19,369
"And for this thing,

1059
01:07:19,661 --> 01:07:21,413
I besought the Lord
thrice..."

1060
01:07:23,874 --> 01:07:26,334
"...that it might depart
from me."

1061
01:07:30,047 --> 01:07:31,757
[Voice breaking ]
"And unto me he said..."

1062
01:07:34,551 --> 01:07:37,345
"...'My grace is sufficient
for thee...'"

1063
01:07:42,309 --> 01:07:46,938
"'...for my strength is made
perfect in weakness.'"

1064
01:07:53,361 --> 01:07:56,865
"Most gladly, therefore,
will I rather...

1065
01:07:57,157 --> 01:07:59,993
will I rather glory
in infirmities,

1066
01:08:00,285 --> 01:08:04,206
that the power of Christ
may rest upon me.

1067
01:08:04,498 --> 01:08:07,375
Therefore, I-I take...
I take pleasure in... in...

1068
01:08:07,667 --> 01:08:08,752
in infirmities, in...

1069
01:08:09,044 --> 01:08:10,044
in reproaches,

1070
01:08:10,295 --> 01:08:12,172
in necessities,
in persecutions,

1071
01:08:12,464 --> 01:08:14,174
in distresses,
for Christ's sake,

1072
01:08:14,466 --> 01:08:17,010
for when I am weak,
then am I strong!

1073
01:08:17,302 --> 01:08:18,970
For when I am weak..."

1074
01:08:22,516 --> 01:08:24,142
"...then am I strong."

1075
01:08:29,606 --> 01:08:32,567
"When I am weak...

1076
01:08:32,859 --> 01:08:34,152
then am I strong."

1077
01:08:38,865 --> 01:08:45,413
♪♪

1078
01:08:45,705 --> 01:08:47,791
[ Shouting in distance ]

1079
01:08:48,083 --> 01:08:50,836
[Vehicle doors close ]

1080
01:08:51,128 --> 01:08:54,131
♪♪

1081
01:08:54,422 --> 01:08:56,967
[Vehicle departs ]

1082
01:08:57,259 --> 01:09:00,804
♪♪

1083
01:09:01,096 --> 01:09:03,140
There is no need for theatrics.

1084
01:09:03,431 --> 01:09:05,311
No, I've got this weakness,
but this weakness...

1085
01:09:05,392 --> 01:09:06,744
If weakness equals strength...
Please sit down.

1086
01:09:06,768 --> 01:09:08,287
...then this weakness
makes me strong, right?

1087
01:09:08,311 --> 01:09:09,664
Discuss the passage
you have selected.

1088
01:09:09,688 --> 01:09:11,249
Give me the strength
of 10 Marks, of 20 Marks!

1089
01:09:11,273 --> 01:09:13,513
When I am weak, I am strong!
When I am weak, I am strong!

1090
01:09:13,733 --> 01:09:16,236
Mark, stop it!
When I am weak, I am strong!

1091
01:09:16,528 --> 01:09:17,648
When I am weak, I am strong!

1092
01:09:17,904 --> 01:09:19,215
Mark!
When I am weak, I am strong!

1093
01:09:19,239 --> 01:09:20,866
Stop it right now!
Strong, strong!

1094
01:09:21,158 --> 01:09:27,455
♪♪

1095
01:09:27,747 --> 01:09:34,963
♪♪

1096
01:09:35,255 --> 01:09:36,255
I am strong!

1097
01:09:36,423 --> 01:09:37,424
[ Crying ] I am strong!

1098
01:09:37,716 --> 01:09:40,260
I am strong! I am weak!
Stop it!

1099
01:09:40,552 --> 01:09:43,430
I will remove my foot

1100
01:09:43,722 --> 01:09:46,433
when you are ready to
get control of yourself.

1101
01:09:46,725 --> 01:09:54,399
♪♪

1102
01:09:54,691 --> 01:10:03,491
♪♪

1103
01:10:03,783 --> 01:10:09,372
[ Sobbing ]

1104
01:10:09,664 --> 01:10:14,502
♪♪

1105
01:10:14,794 --> 01:10:19,633
♪♪

1106
01:10:19,925 --> 01:10:24,763
♪♪

1107
01:10:25,055 --> 01:10:30,810
♪♪

1108
01:10:41,488 --> 01:10:43,008
Rick: I know
that some of you are aware

1109
01:10:43,073 --> 01:10:48,078
that Mark had a little bit
of an accident last night.

1110
01:10:48,370 --> 01:10:49,829
Adam found him in the bathroom,

1111
01:10:50,121 --> 01:10:51,998
and we rushed him
to the hospital.

1112
01:10:54,542 --> 01:10:55,710
His dad's already flown out.

1113
01:10:56,002 --> 01:10:59,422
He is stable, and he's
going to be okay.

1114
01:10:59,714 --> 01:11:01,383
Dane: Fuck this.

1115
01:11:01,675 --> 01:11:03,051
You guys are talking
in circles.

1116
01:11:03,343 --> 01:11:05,220
If he didn't kill himself,
then what did he do?

1117
01:11:05,512 --> 01:11:06,846
Dane, yelling and swearing

1118
01:11:07,138 --> 01:11:09,033
won't help you feel better
about what happened to Mark.

1119
01:11:09,057 --> 01:11:11,297
See, that's where you're wrong,
'cause it does, actually.

1120
01:11:11,351 --> 01:11:13,061
It makes me feel
a fuck of a lot better.

1121
01:11:13,353 --> 01:11:16,231
[ Helen laughing ]

1122
01:11:20,110 --> 01:11:22,153
What the fuck is wrong
with you, Helen?

1123
01:11:22,445 --> 01:11:23,571
I'm sorry.

1124
01:11:23,863 --> 01:11:26,700
[ Laughing continues ]
I can't stop.

1125
01:11:26,992 --> 01:11:28,272
Okay. Everybody go
to your rooms.

1126
01:11:28,535 --> 01:11:31,204
We're going to have
individual one-on-ones.

1127
01:11:31,496 --> 01:11:33,707
[ Laughing continues ]

1128
01:11:33,999 --> 01:11:36,001
Go to your rooms
until we call you!

1129
01:11:38,086 --> 01:11:39,921
Helen and Dane, stay.

1130
01:11:40,213 --> 01:11:44,259
[ Laughing continues ]

1131
01:11:44,551 --> 01:11:46,928
Is he going to be all right?

1132
01:11:47,220 --> 01:11:50,348
I think so.

1133
01:11:50,640 --> 01:11:54,394
It is a serious injury.

1134
01:11:54,686 --> 01:11:57,105
This is
completely pointless

1135
01:11:57,397 --> 01:11:59,065
if you don't tell me
what's happened.

1136
01:12:02,235 --> 01:12:07,032
I can tell you what happened,
if that's what you want.

1137
01:12:07,324 --> 01:12:08,825
But it's... It's, uh...

1138
01:12:09,117 --> 01:12:10,452
I can handle ugly.

1139
01:12:17,334 --> 01:12:23,006
Last night, Mark used a razor to
cut his genitals several times.

1140
01:12:23,298 --> 01:12:25,383
Then he poured bleach
over the wounds.

1141
01:12:33,224 --> 01:12:35,685
Adam found him.

1142
01:12:42,359 --> 01:12:44,819
If you were worried about him,
why did you leave him alone?

1143
01:12:54,496 --> 01:12:56,498
I don't have a very
good answer for you.

1144
01:13:02,212 --> 01:13:04,130
Is Adam okay?

1145
01:13:04,422 --> 01:13:09,094
I think so,
all things considered.

1146
01:13:09,386 --> 01:13:12,389
It is going to take him
some time to process.

1147
01:13:17,519 --> 01:13:18,895
How the fuck do you process

1148
01:13:19,187 --> 01:13:21,564
watching your roommate try
and cut his dick off?

1149
01:13:24,734 --> 01:13:27,070
What's he going to do,
put it on his iceberg?

1150
01:13:34,494 --> 01:13:36,621
You people have no idea
what you're doing, do you?

1151
01:13:41,376 --> 01:13:43,545
You're just making it up
as you go along.

1152
01:13:50,718 --> 01:13:53,721
[ Crying ]

1153
01:13:59,936 --> 01:14:01,536
I don't know how
to answer you right now.

1154
01:14:01,729 --> 01:14:04,524
I...

1155
01:14:04,816 --> 01:14:07,193
I'm so sorry.

1156
01:14:10,238 --> 01:14:12,991
I'm so sorry.

1157
01:14:21,499 --> 01:14:25,712
[ Crying continues ]

1158
01:14:26,004 --> 01:14:34,179
♪♪

1159
01:14:34,471 --> 01:14:42,604
♪♪

1160
01:14:42,896 --> 01:14:51,070
♪♪

1161
01:14:51,362 --> 01:15:00,705
♪♪

1162
01:15:00,997 --> 01:15:03,500
[ Breathing heavily ]

1163
01:15:03,791 --> 01:15:08,463
♪♪

1164
01:15:08,755 --> 01:15:14,093
♪♪

1165
01:15:14,385 --> 01:15:18,348
Um, mostly
independent study.

1166
01:15:18,640 --> 01:15:21,518
Do you have access to the
outdoors on a regular basis?

1167
01:15:21,809 --> 01:15:22,936
Yeah.

1168
01:15:23,228 --> 01:15:25,271
Do you feel safe
in your dorm rooms at night?

1169
01:15:25,563 --> 01:15:27,649
Yeah.

1170
01:15:27,941 --> 01:15:31,277
Do you feel threatened by staff
members or fellow students?

1171
01:15:31,569 --> 01:15:33,613
No.

1172
01:15:33,905 --> 01:15:35,573
Do you trust those
in charge here?

1173
01:15:39,619 --> 01:15:41,913
Not really.

1174
01:15:42,205 --> 01:15:45,416
You don't trust
the staff here?

1175
01:15:45,708 --> 01:15:50,463
Well, what do you...
I mean, trust them how?

1176
01:15:50,755 --> 01:15:52,840
Do you think they have
your best interests in mind?

1177
01:15:55,969 --> 01:15:59,138
No one's, you know,
beating us.

1178
01:16:01,474 --> 01:16:03,518
But you asked me
if I trust them.

1179
01:16:05,603 --> 01:16:07,021
And, sure, yeah.

1180
01:16:07,313 --> 01:16:08,898
I trust them to drive
the van safely,

1181
01:16:09,190 --> 01:16:11,192
and I trust them
to buy food, but...

1182
01:16:16,573 --> 01:16:20,159
Look, I know you're here because
of what happened to Mark.

1183
01:16:20,451 --> 01:16:22,829
Something didn't
just happen to him.

1184
01:16:23,121 --> 01:16:25,957
He injured himself.

1185
01:16:26,249 --> 01:16:28,585
While under the care
of this facility.

1186
01:16:28,876 --> 01:16:31,212
Correct, and that's
why I'm here,

1187
01:16:31,504 --> 01:16:33,381
to investigate the care
that is given

1188
01:16:33,673 --> 01:16:35,842
by those
who run this facility,

1189
01:16:36,134 --> 01:16:38,803
not to investigate
the mission of this facility,

1190
01:16:39,095 --> 01:16:42,807
unless that includes
abuse or neglect.

1191
01:16:43,099 --> 01:16:45,935
Yeah, but what about
emotional abuse?

1192
01:16:46,227 --> 01:16:47,871
Are you saying you're
being emotionally abused

1193
01:16:47,895 --> 01:16:51,608
by the staff here?

1194
01:16:51,899 --> 01:16:54,611
How is programming people
to hate themselves

1195
01:16:54,902 --> 01:16:56,779
not emotional abuse?

1196
01:16:59,782 --> 01:17:01,326
I've made note
of what you said,

1197
01:17:01,618 --> 01:17:03,536
and it will be
in the official file.

1198
01:17:09,667 --> 01:17:12,128
Thank you.

1199
01:17:21,554 --> 01:17:29,062
♪♪

1200
01:17:29,354 --> 01:17:31,314
I didn't even know
Mark shaved.

1201
01:17:33,232 --> 01:17:35,276
He doesn't.

1202
01:17:35,568 --> 01:17:38,821
It was my razor.

1203
01:17:39,113 --> 01:17:45,286
♪♪

1204
01:17:45,578 --> 01:17:47,914
I thought he was dead.

1205
01:17:48,206 --> 01:17:54,420
♪♪

1206
01:17:54,712 --> 01:18:00,927
♪♪

1207
01:18:01,219 --> 01:18:08,351
♪♪

1208
01:18:08,643 --> 01:18:11,229
Fuck this place.

1209
01:18:11,521 --> 01:18:17,735
♪♪

1210
01:18:18,027 --> 01:18:19,696
I'll steal the keys to the van.

1211
01:18:19,987 --> 01:18:22,281
We'll be in Canada by morning.

1212
01:18:22,573 --> 01:18:25,493
[ Chuckles ]
[ Chuckles ]

1213
01:18:25,785 --> 01:18:31,582
♪♪

1214
01:18:31,874 --> 01:18:37,630
♪♪

1215
01:18:37,922 --> 01:18:44,595
♪♪

1216
01:18:44,887 --> 01:18:47,056
I'm going to turn
the light off.

1217
01:18:47,348 --> 01:18:49,308
Okay.

1218
01:18:49,600 --> 01:18:57,483
♪♪

1219
01:18:57,775 --> 01:19:07,774
♪♪

1220
01:19:09,871 --> 01:19:12,457
[ Footsteps approach,
flashlight clicks ]

1221
01:19:16,919 --> 01:19:20,465
[ Flashlight clicks,
footsteps depart ]

1222
01:19:43,863 --> 01:19:45,656
Early bird
gets the worm, huh?

1223
01:19:45,948 --> 01:19:47,825
You know it.

1224
01:19:51,454 --> 01:19:54,290
What are y'all
doing up so early?

1225
01:19:54,582 --> 01:19:56,959
Um, we went on a hike.

1226
01:19:57,251 --> 01:20:00,421
Sounds fun.

1227
01:20:00,713 --> 01:20:02,673
[ Clears throat ]

1228
01:20:11,182 --> 01:20:14,143
So, how's it going?
Good. Real good.

1229
01:20:16,395 --> 01:20:19,899
I found out we'll be getting
a new disciple...

1230
01:20:20,191 --> 01:20:22,819
young man from Indiana.

1231
01:20:23,110 --> 01:20:25,350
Looks like you'll be getting
a new roommate on Wednesday.

1232
01:20:25,446 --> 01:20:27,824
Oh, cool. Can't wait.

1233
01:20:43,714 --> 01:20:47,468
So, you seen any
new movies lately?

1234
01:20:47,760 --> 01:20:49,512
I finally watched
"Young Frankenstein"

1235
01:20:49,804 --> 01:20:52,265
on your recommendation.

1236
01:20:52,557 --> 01:20:55,685
[ Laughing ] I haven't laughed
that hard in a long time.

1237
01:20:55,977 --> 01:20:57,353
I figured
you'd like that one.

1238
01:20:57,645 --> 01:21:00,857
Mm. I love that part with
the elbow kiss, you know?

1239
01:21:01,148 --> 01:21:02,567
Right.
"Not on the lips!"

1240
01:21:02,859 --> 01:21:04,902
[ Both laugh ]

1241
01:21:05,194 --> 01:21:08,072
My dad and I
used to do that.

1242
01:21:16,789 --> 01:21:20,376
We should go, you know,
so we can make our day.

1243
01:21:20,668 --> 01:21:23,462
You guys are serious hikers.
I'm impressed.

1244
01:21:23,754 --> 01:21:27,550
Maybe next time I'll come.
Yeah, definitely.

1245
01:21:34,098 --> 01:21:35,099
Have fun.

1246
01:21:35,391 --> 01:21:38,269
You, too.

1247
01:21:38,561 --> 01:21:41,355
Bye, Rick.
Bye, Rick.

1248
01:22:21,979 --> 01:22:29,737
♪♪

1249
01:22:30,029 --> 01:22:37,703
♪♪

1250
01:22:37,995 --> 01:22:45,670
♪♪

1251
01:22:45,962 --> 01:22:53,636
♪♪

1252
01:22:53,928 --> 01:23:01,602
♪♪

1253
01:23:01,894 --> 01:23:09,568
♪♪

1254
01:23:09,860 --> 01:23:17,535
♪♪

1255
01:23:17,827 --> 01:23:25,501
♪♪

1256
01:23:25,793 --> 01:23:33,467
♪♪

1257
01:23:33,759 --> 01:23:41,434
♪♪

1258
01:23:41,726 --> 01:23:49,442
♪♪

1259
01:23:49,734 --> 01:23:57,408
♪♪

1260
01:23:57,700 --> 01:24:05,374
♪♪

1261
01:24:05,666 --> 01:24:13,340
♪♪

1262
01:24:13,632 --> 01:24:22,433
♪♪

1263
01:24:22,725 --> 01:24:31,734
♪♪

1264
01:24:32,026 --> 01:24:41,035
♪♪

1265
01:24:41,327 --> 01:24:50,336
♪♪

1266
01:24:50,628 --> 01:24:59,637
♪♪

1267
01:24:59,929 --> 01:25:08,938
♪♪

1268
01:25:09,230 --> 01:25:11,190
♪ Sit around ♪

1269
01:25:11,482 --> 01:25:16,487
♪ Sit around ♪

1270
01:25:16,779 --> 01:25:18,864
Say something to him.

1271
01:25:19,156 --> 01:25:24,120
What kind of a slut
do you think I am?

1272
01:25:24,411 --> 01:25:25,491
My friend
thinks you're hot!

1273
01:25:25,579 --> 01:25:26,872
Hey, stop it!

1274
01:25:27,164 --> 01:25:28,749
Say something sexy.
Say something sexy.

1275
01:25:29,041 --> 01:25:31,919
Uh... pull my finger.

1276
01:25:32,211 --> 01:25:35,172
[ Chuckles ]

1277
01:25:35,464 --> 01:25:40,136
[ Engine revs ]
Whoa!

1278
01:25:40,427 --> 01:25:42,388
Shit.
Dude!

1279
01:25:42,680 --> 01:25:43,680
[ Laughs ]

1280
01:25:43,931 --> 01:25:45,391
"Pull my finger."
"Pull my finger."

1281
01:25:45,683 --> 01:25:46,683
Yes.

1282
01:25:46,934 --> 01:25:47,934
Oh, man.

1283
01:25:48,060 --> 01:25:49,270
[ Chuckles ]

1284
01:25:49,562 --> 01:25:50,896
That is stupid.

1285
01:25:51,188 --> 01:25:52,898
Hey, it worked.

1286
01:25:53,190 --> 01:26:01,282
♪♪

1287
01:26:01,574 --> 01:26:09,665
♪♪

1288
01:26:09,957 --> 01:26:18,090
♪♪

1289
01:26:18,382 --> 01:26:26,473
♪♪

1290
01:26:26,765 --> 01:26:35,024
♪♪

1291
01:26:44,033 --> 01:26:51,749
♪♪

1292
01:26:52,041 --> 01:26:59,632
♪♪

1293
01:26:59,924 --> 01:27:07,556
♪♪

1294
01:27:07,848 --> 01:27:15,439
♪♪

1295
01:27:15,731 --> 01:27:23,364
♪♪

1296
01:27:23,656 --> 01:27:31,288
♪♪

1297
01:27:31,580 --> 01:27:39,171
♪♪

1298
01:27:39,463 --> 01:27:47,096
♪♪

1299
01:27:47,388 --> 01:27:54,979
♪♪

1300
01:27:55,271 --> 01:28:02,903
♪♪

1301
01:28:03,195 --> 01:28:10,160
♪♪

1302
01:28:10,452 --> 01:28:17,376
♪♪

1303
01:28:17,668 --> 01:28:24,633
♪♪

1304
01:28:24,925 --> 01:28:31,849
♪♪

1305
01:28:32,141 --> 01:28:39,106
♪♪

1306
01:28:39,398 --> 01:28:46,322
♪♪

1307
01:28:46,613 --> 01:28:53,579
♪♪

1308
01:28:53,871 --> 01:29:00,794
♪♪

1309
01:29:01,086 --> 01:29:08,218
♪♪

1310
01:29:09,928 --> 01:29:12,806
[ Mid-tempo music plays ]

1311
01:29:21,565 --> 01:29:23,484
♪ Once upon a time ♪

1312
01:29:23,776 --> 01:29:25,444
♪ I was all alone ♪

1313
01:29:25,736 --> 01:29:30,282
♪ I was scared and I was idle ♪

1314
01:29:33,369 --> 01:29:37,247
♪ I couldn't ask for help
when I needed You ♪

1315
01:29:37,539 --> 01:29:42,002
♪ 'Cause I was too full
of pride ♪

1316
01:29:44,922 --> 01:29:49,051
♪ But I was walking on my own ♪

1317
01:29:49,343 --> 01:29:51,345
♪ Ohhhh ♪

1318
01:29:53,138 --> 01:29:56,725
♪ You've been there
the whole time ♪

1319
01:29:57,017 --> 01:29:59,895
♪ Your footsteps
right behind mine ♪

1320
01:30:00,187 --> 01:30:07,986
♪ And I am never scared
'cause I... ♪

1321
01:30:11,156 --> 01:30:14,284
♪ I'm never going
to be perfect ♪

1322
01:30:14,576 --> 01:30:18,747
♪ But with your love
I will keep striving ♪

1323
01:30:22,793 --> 01:30:26,505
♪ And I will ask for help
when it all goes wrong ♪

1324
01:30:26,797 --> 01:30:31,760
♪ And I will spread
Your love like fire ♪

1325
01:30:34,805 --> 01:30:37,224
♪ Ahhhh ♪
♪ And if anyone asks ♪

1326
01:30:37,516 --> 01:30:41,687
♪ Ahhhh ♪
♪ "Are you alone tonight?" ♪

1327
01:30:41,979 --> 01:30:46,108
♪ You've been there
the whole time ♪

1328
01:30:46,400 --> 01:30:49,987
♪ Your footsteps
right behind mine ♪

1329
01:30:50,279 --> 01:30:54,116
♪ I'm never scared because ♪

1330
01:30:54,408 --> 01:30:57,786
♪ You've been there
the whole time ♪

1331
01:30:58,078 --> 01:31:02,166
♪ Your footsteps
right behind mine ♪

1332
01:31:02,458 --> 01:31:05,711
♪ I am never scared 'cause ♪

1333
01:31:06,003 --> 01:31:09,882
♪ You've been there
the whole time ♪

1334
01:31:10,174 --> 01:31:13,969
♪ You've been there
the whole time ♪

1335
01:31:14,261 --> 01:31:17,848
♪ You've been there
the whole time ♪

1336
01:31:18,140 --> 01:31:21,477
♪ You've been there
the whole time ♪

1337
01:31:21,768 --> 01:31:25,355
♪ You've been there
the whole time ♪

1338
01:31:25,647 --> 01:31:29,151
♪ You've been there
the whole time ♪