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Previously on "The Good Doctor"...

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You work together and
you are sleeping together.

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You don't see any way that can go wrong?

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You went out on a limb for me.

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You fire me now, you look like
a fool in front of the board.

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Dr. Andrews, I don't think you
have the votes to carry it.

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But I don't need the votes.

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Just as you have the power
to fire someone

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under your supervision, so do I.

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MELENDEZ: Did you hear about Han?

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LIM: Can't imagine Andrews
will survive the fallout.

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They're gonna need
a new Chief of Surgery.

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Aoki should be calling you
with the offer any minute.

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Here are flowers and chocolates.

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Are you asking me out?

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Yes.

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I would love to.

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[GASPS]

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[INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS]

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♪♪

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Why are you smiling?

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I don't know.

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I just... I wanted you to know that...

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things are okay.

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♪ If I start a commotion ♪

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Good.

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♪ I run the risk of losing you,
and that's worse ♪

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[CLEARS THROAT]

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♪ Ever fallen in love with someone ♪

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♪ Ever fallen in love,
in love with someone ♪

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♪ Ever fallen in love,
in love with someone ♪

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♪ You shouldn't have
fallen in love with? ♪

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I saw a movie last weekend.

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Which one? Was it good?

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What kind of movies do you like?

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♪ What a shame ♪

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Oh. This looks delicious. Thank you.

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♪ Ever fallen in love with someone ♪

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♪ Ever fallen in love ♪

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I said no pickles.

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- ♪ Ever fallen in love ♪
- Pardon me?

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It's okay. They can just take that off...

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I said no pickles.

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Oh. I am so sorry.

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I said no pickles.

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- [DISTORTED AUDIO]
- [GRUNTS]

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SHAUN: It was a disaster.

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What happened?

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Don't you all have work to do?

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Sorry. We were just...

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Shaun was on a date.

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Hmm.

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Congratulations on your promotion.

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I believe you're our first
female Chief of Surgery.

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That's nice. Uh, thank you. Yes.

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And you're still not working.

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[CLEARS THROAT]

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Not you.

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We need to go to H.R. and break up.

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[FOOTSTEPS DEPART]

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[ENGINE REVS]

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- [TIRES SQUEAL]
- We need a head CT and a trauma panel.

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Please! Someone! Help my wife!

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[GRUNTING, BREATHING HEAVILY]

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♪♪

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www.addic7ed.com

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♪♪

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We've been married for 45 years.

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Two children.

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Eh, so far.

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Oh, stop it.

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Ricky and Tammy.

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Ricky's got two kids of his own.

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When did you first notice the pain?

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- This morning.
- No, on Saturday.

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He has a history of kidney stones.

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I try to get him to drink more water...

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You "try"?

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When did I ever say no to you?

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It's probably another stone,
but we'll do some imaging

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to rule out anything more serious.

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Oh, thank you.

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Did you tell them about the kids?

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[CHUCKLES] We have two, you know.

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So far. [CHUCKLES]

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That's nice.

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[SIGHS]

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- Not it.
- What?

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He's got dementia,
and even worse, it's boring.

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Probably stones.

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Best case scenario, it's a kidney tumor.

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We've assisted on eight nephrectomies.

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It's your case,
your chart, you're primary.

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Kellan's coming to town.
I need to be out of here

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at a decent hour,
and we are not children.

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We do not decide things by who called it.

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You touched the chart first. It's yours.

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- Did not.
- Did so.

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We walked up together, Petringa
handed the chart to you.

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- Did not.
- Did so.

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- Did not.
- Did so.

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Why?

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It just wasn't working out.

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Oh. Well, I certainly hope
it's not because in light of

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Dr. Lim's recent promotion
to Chief of Surgery

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that she's now your supervisor?

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We knew that arrangement
would be unacceptable,

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and since we only recently
started seeing each other...

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You were seeing each other
secretly for some time

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before you reported it, correct?

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So, maybe you've just gone back

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to seeing each other in secret.

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No. Uh, we made

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the decision that this opportunity

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for Dr. Lim is just...

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You're... What... What are you writing?

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I have accepted
your explanation and report.

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Thank you.

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But I don't believe it.

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You're going to keep seeing each other,

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and I can't do anything to stop
that, nor do I even want to.

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But know this...
love doesn't conquer all,

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lust doesn't either, and like
doesn't even come close.

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This is gonna be a lot more complicated

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than either of you think.

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SHAUN: Looks like you have
a large uterine fibroid

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that's bled.

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It has to be removed surgically.

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Yes, routine surgery. You should be fine.

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Uterine? Am I gonna be able to have...

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The surgery won't affect
your ability to have children.

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[INDISTINCT TALKING OVER P.A.]

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I didn't let her finish
her question because

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I anticipated what she was
going to ask because

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the uterus has very few functions.

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- Nicely done.
- Yes.

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To improve O.R. access,
we're going to automatic block

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release and implement
staggered starts for anesthesia.

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Any questions?

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Dr. Andrews and Dr. Han wouldn't
authorize staff overtime.

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Now, our nurses...

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Good point. Thank you.

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Yes. Authorized.

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One other thing, and this is
really for our third years,

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but it will affect all of you.

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Traditionally, you don't
get to lead surgeries

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until fourth year.

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That will be changing.

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The earlier you get in there
and take responsibility,

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the more chance you have to learn.

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When the right surgery comes
along... something simple,

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basic, it'll be yours.

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Start prepping.

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Maybe I did touch the chart first.

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Relax. It's okay.

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I can stay late now and again.
This is my job.

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Stop it.

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You don't want the case.
It's boring. I get it.

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I know you get it.
Boring is now exciting.

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Boring means it's a routine surgery,

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which means it's a surgery
that Lim just said

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one of us may well lead.

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This one's probably no surgery at all.

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It's probably just
kidney stones and late nights

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with a man with dementia.

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I'll take that chance.

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You hate people.

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People don't know that.

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People like me.

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You need to be with your family.

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Kellan's 16. He barely talks to me.

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It's who touched the chart first,
which, as you said, was me.

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- And as you said...
- HARVEY: Excuse me.

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Y-Yes, Harvey? Is everything okay?

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Why am I in here?

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Nothing to worry about.
It's likely just a kidney stone.

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You just have to...

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Yes! It's cancer.

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Nicely isolated, simple surgery.

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Perfect for a resident.

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Put some traction on the uterus
to expose the broad ligament.

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I'll slide the pelvic
retractor under the fundus.

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[SIGHS]

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Did the wine spill all over you?

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Um...

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Did it spill all over Carly?

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S-Stop.

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Look above the posterior cul De sac.

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- Cancer.
- Yes.

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Very extensive, I think.

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It appears to have
metastasized everywhere.

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Liver, kidney, abdominal wall.

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Close her up.

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- [BIRDS CHIRPING]
- [FOOTSTEPS APPROACHING]

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I rang the doorbell.

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Yes, you did.

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Are you gonna spend the rest of your life

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lying around in this backyard?

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That, and lying next to my future wife.

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Congratulations. I heard.

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But what are you going to
do professionally?

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When people think they're
going to die, like you did,

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they assess their life,
reevaluate what's important.

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You're going to need
to make a difference.

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Do you have a puppy for me to adopt?

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I have a vacancy at President.

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Again?

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You're interested,

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but you think things have to change.

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They don't.

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You led a meaningful life before cancer,

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and you will lead
a meaningful life after.

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Well, thank you. I'm very inspired.

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Think about it.

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Also, sunscreen.

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♪♪

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What's going on behind
the pancreas at the root

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of the superior mesenteric artery?

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We need a better angle.

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We're not gonna get a better angle.

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Definitely not when
we're actually operating.

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So what's the solution?

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[SIGHS] There isn't one.

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Not surgically.

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We should refer them to an oncologist.

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Chemo might help, but I'm not hopeful.

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[SIGHS]

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What are you gonna tell them?

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You guys are third year.

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You want stuff to learn by doing?

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How about sympathetic communication?

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Shaun, let the bride know
she's probably dying.

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♪♪

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[DOOR OPENS, CLOSES]

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This morning, who did you
give the Calderon chart to?

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I gave it to you guys.

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Uh, but you handed it to one of us.

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One of us actually took it from you.

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It was me, right?

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I don't know. What does it matter?
You just came up and...

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From the right.
I came up on Morgan's left.

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You're left-handed?

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It only makes sense
that I would be closer to...

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Excuse me.

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Is there any news about my husband?

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[INDISTINCT TALKING OVER P.A.]

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Harvey, you remember
Drs. Park and Reznick.

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They did your scan.

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R-Right. For my, uh...

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They were looking for kidney stones.

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Unfortunately, we found some cancer.

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- It's on your left kidney.
- Cancer?

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The good news is it's isolated

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and in a very operable location.

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Cancer.

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I have cancer?

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We have to tell the children.

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We'll do a biopsy to confirm,
but I'm confident

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that we caught it early.

266
00:10:31,906 --> 00:10:35,076
This is terrible. I... I can't die.

267
00:10:35,910 --> 00:10:37,269
I... You need me.

268
00:10:38,727 --> 00:10:39,993
I know.

269
00:10:40,498 --> 00:10:42,829
But with surgery, radiation,
and immunotherapy,

270
00:10:42,831 --> 00:10:44,664
the prognosis is excellent.

271
00:10:44,666 --> 00:10:52,672
♪♪

272
00:10:53,568 --> 00:10:54,899
[DOOR OPENS]

273
00:10:54,901 --> 00:10:57,209
You're supposed to be
talking to our patient.

274
00:10:57,891 --> 00:10:59,878
They can wait until we're sure.

275
00:10:59,880 --> 00:11:03,048
We are sure. Dr. Melendez is sure.

276
00:11:03,050 --> 00:11:06,719
Dr. Lim told us we're ready
for more responsibility,

277
00:11:06,721 --> 00:11:09,387
so I decided I can make
a decision on my own,

278
00:11:09,389 --> 00:11:11,223
and I decided to do some more research.

279
00:11:11,225 --> 00:11:13,558
Shaun, you need to learn how to do this,

280
00:11:13,560 --> 00:11:15,450
and stalling just makes it worse.

281
00:11:20,334 --> 00:11:24,002
I think maybe you're feeling
bad about your date,

282
00:11:24,004 --> 00:11:26,020
and you're in here
burying yourself in things

283
00:11:26,022 --> 00:11:28,207
you subconsciously think you can control.

284
00:11:28,209 --> 00:11:31,843
How do people know what's going
on in their subconscious?

285
00:11:33,819 --> 00:11:36,596
What happened, Shaun...

286
00:11:37,416 --> 00:11:39,283
when you jumped up?

287
00:11:43,056 --> 00:11:45,890
♪ Fallen in love with someone,
ever fallen in love ♪

288
00:11:45,892 --> 00:11:48,226
♪ In love with someone,
ever fallen in love ♪

289
00:11:48,228 --> 00:11:49,593
♪ In love with someone ♪

290
00:11:49,595 --> 00:11:51,229
♪ You shouldn't
have fallen in love with ♪

291
00:11:51,231 --> 00:11:55,133
♪♪

292
00:11:55,135 --> 00:11:58,836
[CELLPHONE RINGING]

293
00:11:58,838 --> 00:12:01,412
Your phone is ringing.

294
00:12:02,175 --> 00:12:03,507
- It can wait.
- Mm.

295
00:12:03,509 --> 00:12:05,176
It's your mother.

296
00:12:05,178 --> 00:12:06,510
It can wait.

297
00:12:06,512 --> 00:12:08,310
What went wrong? What was the disaster?

298
00:12:08,312 --> 00:12:09,846
She called earlier, too.

299
00:12:09,848 --> 00:12:12,182
If stalling is bad, then why are you

300
00:12:12,184 --> 00:12:13,917
avoiding your mother's calls?

301
00:12:13,919 --> 00:12:15,635
[CLICKS TONGUE]

302
00:12:17,590 --> 00:12:21,158
Did you ever forgive your mother
for not protecting you?

303
00:12:21,160 --> 00:12:24,161
Is that what your mother wants to know?

304
00:12:24,163 --> 00:12:25,996
My mother was a terrible mother.

305
00:12:25,998 --> 00:12:28,165
It wasn't all her fault. She was bipolar.

306
00:12:28,167 --> 00:12:30,801
That doesn't change the fact
that she was terrible.

307
00:12:30,803 --> 00:12:35,306
I... I don't think it's good
for her to be in my life.

308
00:12:40,326 --> 00:12:42,996
Are you looking for guidance...

309
00:12:43,448 --> 00:12:44,580
from me?

310
00:12:49,421 --> 00:12:51,421
Am I a role model to you?

311
00:12:54,092 --> 00:12:56,259
On some issues, absolutely.

312
00:13:06,305 --> 00:13:08,771
I don't usually think about the past.

313
00:13:08,773 --> 00:13:09,973
It doesn't help.

314
00:13:14,345 --> 00:13:15,644
But the date.

315
00:13:15,646 --> 00:13:16,846
Mm-mm.

316
00:13:16,848 --> 00:13:21,683
Yesterday is part of the past,
and the past matters.

317
00:13:21,685 --> 00:13:23,411
What happened?

318
00:13:27,825 --> 00:13:30,492
I... told a joke.

319
00:13:30,494 --> 00:13:32,230
- No.
- Yes.

320
00:13:32,232 --> 00:13:34,112
Lea said I should.

321
00:13:34,114 --> 00:13:37,366
No. That is not what I said.

322
00:13:37,368 --> 00:13:38,868
Does this tie look good?

323
00:13:38,870 --> 00:13:40,802
Yes. But not with those pants.

324
00:13:40,804 --> 00:13:43,834
And what I was saying was that
jokes are the types of things

325
00:13:43,859 --> 00:13:45,341
people do on dates.

326
00:13:45,343 --> 00:13:47,343
They talk about the weather, hobbies,

327
00:13:47,345 --> 00:13:48,507
where they went to college.

328
00:13:48,509 --> 00:13:49,987
I'm a person.

329
00:13:49,989 --> 00:13:52,180
Should I change my pants
with you in the room?

330
00:13:52,182 --> 00:13:53,314
No.

331
00:13:53,316 --> 00:13:55,049
And, yes, I know you're a person, Shaun,

332
00:13:55,051 --> 00:13:56,717
but we all have strengths and weaknesses.

333
00:13:56,719 --> 00:14:00,355
Telling jokes is easy.
There are books full of them.

334
00:14:00,357 --> 00:14:02,357
I said no.

335
00:14:02,359 --> 00:14:04,283
Yes, there are a lot of jokes,

336
00:14:04,285 --> 00:14:06,361
but you have to know how to tell them.

337
00:14:06,363 --> 00:14:09,290
You have to know when to tell them.

338
00:14:10,060 --> 00:14:13,394
So, I took a gap year
before college, which,

339
00:14:13,419 --> 00:14:15,719
in hindsight, I think
might have been a mistake.

340
00:14:16,255 --> 00:14:18,507
Staying at home.

341
00:14:18,532 --> 00:14:20,032
My relationship with my dad...

342
00:14:20,057 --> 00:14:21,723
Caesar walked into a bar

343
00:14:21,748 --> 00:14:24,183
and asked the bartender for a martinus.

344
00:14:24,208 --> 00:14:26,374
The bartender said,
"Do you mean a martini?"

345
00:14:26,399 --> 00:14:28,065
And Caesar says, "If I wanted two,

346
00:14:28,090 --> 00:14:29,727
I would have ordered two."

347
00:14:30,853 --> 00:14:33,220
Uh... did she laugh?

348
00:14:33,222 --> 00:14:34,388
I'm not sure.

349
00:14:34,390 --> 00:14:35,823
Well, what did she say?

350
00:14:38,093 --> 00:14:41,295
[CHUCKLING]

351
00:14:44,767 --> 00:14:47,435
She made a sound.

352
00:14:47,437 --> 00:14:49,269
"Heh.

353
00:14:49,271 --> 00:14:50,471
Heh heh heh."

354
00:14:50,473 --> 00:14:51,639
You got a chuckle, I think.

355
00:14:51,641 --> 00:14:53,140
- That's... That's good.
- No, it's not.

356
00:14:53,142 --> 00:14:55,142
I read six joke books, and all I got

357
00:14:55,144 --> 00:14:57,144
was a... "Heh. Heh, heh, heh."

358
00:14:57,146 --> 00:14:58,145
It was a disaster.

359
00:14:58,147 --> 00:14:59,747
[SCOFFS] Because of a joke?

360
00:15:02,050 --> 00:15:04,345
Something bigger must have gone wrong.

361
00:15:05,219 --> 00:15:06,285
What happened?

362
00:15:06,287 --> 00:15:08,454
[BREATHES DEEPLY]

363
00:15:08,456 --> 00:15:14,460
♪♪

364
00:15:14,462 --> 00:15:15,925
A young woman may be dying.

365
00:15:15,927 --> 00:15:18,630
I have a lot of research to do.

366
00:15:18,632 --> 00:15:24,470
♪♪

367
00:15:24,472 --> 00:15:30,376
♪♪

368
00:15:30,378 --> 00:15:31,710
[MOUSE CLICKS]

369
00:15:31,712 --> 00:15:35,381
♪♪

370
00:15:35,383 --> 00:15:37,816
Boom. My chart, my case,
my patient, my surgery.

371
00:15:37,818 --> 00:15:38,884
You took it from me.

372
00:15:38,886 --> 00:15:40,051
It touched my fingers... I know it did...

373
00:15:40,053 --> 00:15:41,319
- and then you took it from me.
- All I know is

374
00:15:41,321 --> 00:15:42,653
I'm the one holding the chart.

375
00:15:42,655 --> 00:15:44,238
That's the evidence we got to deal with.
If you could prove...

376
00:15:44,263 --> 00:15:45,996
Angles. We need more angles.

377
00:15:45,998 --> 00:15:47,725
How many cameras
do we have in that section?

378
00:15:47,727 --> 00:15:57,369
♪♪

379
00:15:57,371 --> 00:16:00,571
Dr. Lim, I'm glad you made that
decision on the overtime.

380
00:16:00,573 --> 00:16:01,973
Oh. You're welcome.

381
00:16:01,975 --> 00:16:03,641
But I thought you'd want to
know the real issue

382
00:16:03,643 --> 00:16:05,710
isn't the overtime.
It's being understaffed.

383
00:16:05,712 --> 00:16:08,503
We need two more nurses on
this floor alone, one in ICU...

384
00:16:08,505 --> 00:16:10,648
I'm sorry. I'm sure you're right,

385
00:16:10,650 --> 00:16:12,650
but we just don't have the budget.

386
00:16:12,652 --> 00:16:14,239
[SIGHS]

387
00:16:14,241 --> 00:16:15,985
- Excuse me?
- [SIGHS]

388
00:16:15,987 --> 00:16:17,221
Nothing, ma'am.

389
00:16:17,223 --> 00:16:19,189
I gave you the OT. You're not being fair.

390
00:16:19,191 --> 00:16:20,257
Aren't I?

391
00:16:20,259 --> 00:16:21,392
You told me I was right,

392
00:16:21,394 --> 00:16:23,560
then you told me you're not gonna do it.

393
00:16:23,562 --> 00:16:25,396
Who's being unfair?

394
00:16:28,054 --> 00:16:30,334
Nobody said this job...

395
00:16:30,336 --> 00:16:38,442
♪♪

396
00:16:38,444 --> 00:16:46,615
♪♪

397
00:16:46,617 --> 00:16:48,157
Shaun.

398
00:16:49,620 --> 00:16:50,819
Come with me.

399
00:16:56,666 --> 00:16:58,594
Is everything okay?

400
00:16:58,596 --> 00:17:00,711
The nurse told us
you didn't finish the surgery.

401
00:17:04,769 --> 00:17:06,635
Suzanne...

402
00:17:09,040 --> 00:17:13,209
...you have very extensive cancer

403
00:17:13,599 --> 00:17:16,379
throughout your abdomen.

404
00:17:16,381 --> 00:17:20,550
♪♪

405
00:17:20,552 --> 00:17:23,452
It appears to be malignant.

406
00:17:23,454 --> 00:17:25,454
[SOBS]

407
00:17:25,456 --> 00:17:29,191
♪♪

408
00:17:29,193 --> 00:17:35,263
And it appears to have
metastasized around every organ.

409
00:17:35,265 --> 00:17:37,766
[BREATHING SHAKILY]

410
00:17:37,768 --> 00:17:45,273
♪♪

411
00:17:45,275 --> 00:17:47,743
But there's hope with surgery.

412
00:17:47,745 --> 00:17:54,783
♪♪

413
00:17:56,848 --> 00:17:59,519
We can't see the retrohepatic part
of the cancer because of the liver.

414
00:17:59,521 --> 00:18:01,192
We can't see the retroperitoneal part

415
00:18:01,194 --> 00:18:02,186
because of the right kidney.

416
00:18:02,188 --> 00:18:04,984
Yes, I know. That's why we should
take out the organs.

417
00:18:07,236 --> 00:18:10,187
You want to remove
her liver and right kidney?

418
00:18:10,212 --> 00:18:11,277
Yes.

419
00:18:11,302 --> 00:18:13,970
And also her left kidney and her pancreas

420
00:18:13,972 --> 00:18:15,805
and her intestinal tract and the stomach.

421
00:18:15,807 --> 00:18:17,640
You do know that several of those organs

422
00:18:17,642 --> 00:18:18,774
are quite essential.

423
00:18:18,776 --> 00:18:20,009
We'll put them back.

424
00:18:21,846 --> 00:18:24,847
We remove them, clean up the cancer,

425
00:18:24,849 --> 00:18:26,338
then put them back.

426
00:18:27,885 --> 00:18:29,051
Ex vivo surgery.

427
00:18:29,053 --> 00:18:30,886
It's been done for pancreatic cancer.

428
00:18:30,888 --> 00:18:32,387
Without much success.

429
00:18:32,389 --> 00:18:33,421
No.

430
00:18:33,423 --> 00:18:35,124
You think it'd work better here?

431
00:18:35,389 --> 00:18:37,126
Not really.

432
00:18:37,128 --> 00:18:40,129
But the alternative is death.

433
00:18:40,131 --> 00:18:43,465
♪♪

434
00:18:43,467 --> 00:18:45,000
[SIGHS]

435
00:18:45,002 --> 00:18:46,601
[DOORBELL RINGS]

436
00:18:46,603 --> 00:18:48,603
[SIGHS]

437
00:18:48,605 --> 00:18:50,806
[BIRDS CHIRPING]

438
00:18:56,713 --> 00:18:57,879
- Hi.
- Hi.

439
00:18:57,881 --> 00:18:59,547
How are you?

440
00:18:59,549 --> 00:19:00,548
Good.

441
00:19:00,550 --> 00:19:02,349
[DOG BARKING IN DISTANCE]

442
00:19:02,351 --> 00:19:04,318
N-Not working?

443
00:19:04,320 --> 00:19:05,586
Yeah.

444
00:19:05,588 --> 00:19:08,121
It's been 72 hours,
and I still haven't found a job.

445
00:19:08,123 --> 00:19:09,557
Relax. I'll be fine.

446
00:19:09,559 --> 00:19:12,860
I got some irons in the fire.
What do you need?

447
00:19:13,636 --> 00:19:15,563
How do you say no to a person?

448
00:19:15,565 --> 00:19:17,065
I don't think I'm doing it right.

449
00:19:17,556 --> 00:19:19,834
Okay. Watch closely.

450
00:19:26,642 --> 00:19:29,010
[SIGHS]

451
00:19:30,579 --> 00:19:32,579
Really?

452
00:19:32,581 --> 00:19:35,241
If you're gonna give up that easily,
you might as well just quit now.

453
00:19:45,160 --> 00:19:47,694
The biopsy confirmed
that the kidney cancer is

454
00:19:47,696 --> 00:19:48,995
a renal cell carcinoma.

455
00:19:48,997 --> 00:19:52,074
Cancer? I have cancer?

456
00:19:52,647 --> 00:19:54,212
Yes.

457
00:19:54,837 --> 00:19:56,218
Why didn't you tell me?

458
00:19:56,798 --> 00:19:57,831
We did.

459
00:19:57,833 --> 00:20:00,867
The good news is that
it's treatable with surgery

460
00:20:00,869 --> 00:20:02,803
and immunotherapy and radiation.

461
00:20:02,805 --> 00:20:04,604
We have to tell the children.

462
00:20:04,606 --> 00:20:06,039
The children know.

463
00:20:06,041 --> 00:20:07,441
How do they know?

464
00:20:08,649 --> 00:20:10,401
What's going on?

465
00:20:11,279 --> 00:20:12,612
Am I dying?

466
00:20:12,614 --> 00:20:14,481
The cancer is serious, but...

467
00:20:14,483 --> 00:20:17,083
Ruby, we'd like to talk to you outside.

468
00:20:17,085 --> 00:20:21,087
♪♪

469
00:20:21,089 --> 00:20:22,956
I'll be right back.

470
00:20:22,958 --> 00:20:28,394
♪♪

471
00:20:28,396 --> 00:20:30,597
The problem isn't how you said no.

472
00:20:30,599 --> 00:20:32,599
The problem is how you said yes.

473
00:20:32,601 --> 00:20:34,233
She seemed quite happy with the yes.

474
00:20:34,235 --> 00:20:35,435
It came too quickly.

475
00:20:35,437 --> 00:20:36,770
You made her think she was helping you

476
00:20:36,772 --> 00:20:39,105
instead of the other way around,
so she came asking for more,

477
00:20:39,107 --> 00:20:40,740
feeling she was entitled to more.

478
00:20:41,348 --> 00:20:44,577
So I should have said no
when I wanted to say yes?

479
00:20:44,579 --> 00:20:46,379
You shouldn't tell her
what you want to tell her.

480
00:20:46,381 --> 00:20:48,114
You should tell her
what she needs to hear.

481
00:20:48,116 --> 00:20:49,415
[SIGHS]

482
00:20:49,417 --> 00:20:51,717
See, it's your job to figure out
what you can give them,

483
00:20:51,719 --> 00:20:53,219
convince them that's what they need,

484
00:20:53,221 --> 00:20:55,738
and then make them feel
like they owe you.

485
00:20:56,557 --> 00:20:58,458
N-None of that sounds like me.

486
00:20:58,460 --> 00:21:00,293
And you want to do the job your way,

487
00:21:00,295 --> 00:21:02,095
without changing who you are?

488
00:21:02,097 --> 00:21:04,897
Is that amusing to you? Yes, I do.

489
00:21:05,623 --> 00:21:07,900
Yesterday, you were an attending.

490
00:21:07,902 --> 00:21:09,902
Today, you're Chief.

491
00:21:09,904 --> 00:21:11,795
You are a different person.

492
00:21:13,339 --> 00:21:15,907
Want an espresso?

493
00:21:15,909 --> 00:21:18,955
[ESPRESSO MACHINE CLICKS, CUP CLATTERS]

494
00:21:18,957 --> 00:21:20,612
Without surgery, your husband would

495
00:21:20,614 --> 00:21:22,647
probably live another two to five years.

496
00:21:23,265 --> 00:21:25,150
He would have very little discomfort

497
00:21:25,152 --> 00:21:29,121
until very close to the end,
and that can be managed.

498
00:21:29,123 --> 00:21:30,872
- You said it was treatable.
- It is.

499
00:21:30,874 --> 00:21:33,125
But fighting cancer's never easy.

500
00:21:33,127 --> 00:21:37,129
We have to weigh the benefits
against the suffering,

501
00:21:37,131 --> 00:21:40,589
and the surgery itself
is usually the easiest part.

502
00:21:40,591 --> 00:21:42,022
He's strong. He's healthy.

503
00:21:42,024 --> 00:21:44,636
He's not healthy. Not mentally.

504
00:21:45,287 --> 00:21:46,971
And the burden on you...

505
00:21:46,973 --> 00:21:49,951
I am not letting my husband die

506
00:21:49,976 --> 00:21:52,577
because caring for him is inconvenient,

507
00:21:52,602 --> 00:21:55,479
because I'm gonna have to
repeat a conversation.

508
00:21:55,481 --> 00:21:57,148
Just go to hell.

509
00:21:57,150 --> 00:21:59,050
♪♪

510
00:21:59,052 --> 00:22:03,220
[FOOTSTEPS DEPART]

511
00:22:03,222 --> 00:22:06,390
This type of surgery's never
been done for this condition.

512
00:22:06,392 --> 00:22:08,893
We'd be dealing with every one
of your abdominal organs,

513
00:22:08,895 --> 00:22:11,195
and something could
go wrong with any of them.

514
00:22:11,197 --> 00:22:15,866
You could be on dialysis
for the rest of your life.

515
00:22:15,868 --> 00:22:17,868
You could have a very compromised

516
00:22:17,870 --> 00:22:21,072
digestive tract, lifelong diabetes.

517
00:22:21,074 --> 00:22:23,659
You could have liver failure.

518
00:22:24,910 --> 00:22:26,910
That's not a complete list.

519
00:22:26,912 --> 00:22:28,412
You could die.

520
00:22:28,414 --> 00:22:32,083
♪♪

521
00:22:32,085 --> 00:22:34,418
And, um...

522
00:22:34,420 --> 00:22:36,087
if we don't do the surgery?

523
00:22:36,089 --> 00:22:38,055
Chemotherapy and radiation.

524
00:22:38,057 --> 00:22:42,678
Although the likelihood of
success is slim, about 25%.

525
00:22:43,563 --> 00:22:45,848
You may prefer hospice care.

526
00:22:46,398 --> 00:22:48,864
You'd probably live maybe a year,

527
00:22:48,866 --> 00:22:50,133
but it'd be a good year.

528
00:22:50,135 --> 00:22:55,371
♪♪

529
00:22:55,373 --> 00:23:00,676
♪♪

530
00:23:00,678 --> 00:23:03,679
Could you give us some time
to think about it?

531
00:23:03,681 --> 00:23:05,482
Of course.

532
00:23:05,484 --> 00:23:10,720
♪♪

533
00:23:10,722 --> 00:23:15,958
♪♪

534
00:23:19,086 --> 00:23:21,086
[BIRDS CHIRPING]

535
00:23:21,088 --> 00:23:23,088
SHAUN: We're supposed to be at lunch.

536
00:23:23,090 --> 00:23:24,857
We're gonna be late.

537
00:23:24,859 --> 00:23:25,991
Why?

538
00:23:25,993 --> 00:23:28,326
Why? Because I need meaning in my life.

539
00:23:28,328 --> 00:23:29,795
Your heart seems fine.

540
00:23:29,797 --> 00:23:32,389
Your liver... seems to be
in the right place.

541
00:23:32,391 --> 00:23:34,313
You're a brain surgeon.

542
00:23:34,934 --> 00:23:38,560
You don't think you can get
meaning being a brain surgeon?

543
00:23:38,562 --> 00:23:42,362
This is a boring patient
with boring symptoms.

544
00:23:44,865 --> 00:23:47,144
Shaun, meet Marco Higgins,

545
00:23:47,146 --> 00:23:49,293
diesel mechanic,
currently in between jobs.

546
00:23:49,295 --> 00:23:51,448
Three sons, two of whom
he hasn't spoken to

547
00:23:51,450 --> 00:23:53,484
in quite some time,
but he's working on that.

548
00:23:53,486 --> 00:23:54,750
Open.

549
00:23:55,796 --> 00:23:57,495
Wide.

550
00:23:57,520 --> 00:23:59,487
It's good to get to know people, Shaun.

551
00:23:59,512 --> 00:24:00,944
It makes you a better doctor.

552
00:24:00,969 --> 00:24:02,135
Say, "Ah."

553
00:24:02,160 --> 00:24:03,993
MARCO: Ah.

554
00:24:04,018 --> 00:24:07,240
You have boring symptoms.
That's a good thing.

555
00:24:07,265 --> 00:24:09,478
You do not want exciting symptoms.

556
00:24:11,070 --> 00:24:13,003
You had a date last night, didn't you?

557
00:24:13,005 --> 00:24:14,505
Mm.

558
00:24:14,507 --> 00:24:15,572
I want to hear about this.

559
00:24:15,574 --> 00:24:18,315
Marco, you want to hear about this?

560
00:24:18,984 --> 00:24:20,317
Yes, please.

561
00:24:20,342 --> 00:24:23,042
Yes, please. Open.

562
00:24:29,321 --> 00:24:31,155
It was a disaster.

563
00:24:31,157 --> 00:24:35,359
[INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS]

564
00:24:35,361 --> 00:24:36,860
Oh, thank you, Shaun,
but it's really not...

565
00:24:36,862 --> 00:24:38,695
No, it's polite and chivalrous...

566
00:24:38,697 --> 00:24:39,736
[CHAIR LEGS SCRAPE]

567
00:24:39,738 --> 00:24:42,209
...and even though chivalry
is a problematic notion,

568
00:24:42,211 --> 00:24:44,300
politeness is a good thing,
no matter which...

569
00:24:44,302 --> 00:24:45,702
- Ohh!
- Shaun!

570
00:24:45,704 --> 00:24:46,937
- [THUD]
- [CROWD GASPING]

571
00:24:46,939 --> 00:24:48,672
- Are you okay?
- Oh, my.

572
00:24:48,674 --> 00:24:50,840
- I'm okay.
- She might not be okay.

573
00:24:50,842 --> 00:24:53,843
- No, I am okay.
- Okay. Don't get up.

574
00:24:53,845 --> 00:24:55,712
I'm pretty sure she's okay.

575
00:24:55,714 --> 00:24:57,860
[EXHALES SHARPLY]

576
00:24:57,862 --> 00:25:00,183
Take off his boots.

577
00:25:00,816 --> 00:25:02,185
What?

578
00:25:02,187 --> 00:25:04,353
Do you think Marco's diabetic?

579
00:25:04,355 --> 00:25:06,355
Based on the color
of his skin in the crease

580
00:25:06,357 --> 00:25:07,891
of his neck, I do.

581
00:25:07,893 --> 00:25:09,893
Based on what it says
on his chart, I do, too.

582
00:25:09,895 --> 00:25:12,395
He could have an infection in his feet,

583
00:25:12,397 --> 00:25:15,331
and the pain is being masked
by diabetic neuropathy.

584
00:25:15,333 --> 00:25:18,876
That infection could be causing
the abdominal symptoms.

585
00:25:19,911 --> 00:25:21,944
Marco, would you mind
taking off your boots?

586
00:25:21,969 --> 00:25:28,041
♪♪

587
00:25:28,066 --> 00:25:34,136
♪♪

588
00:25:34,161 --> 00:25:40,056
♪♪

589
00:25:40,081 --> 00:25:42,900
I was wrong. It's not boring.

590
00:25:45,830 --> 00:25:47,363
[DOOR CLOSES]

591
00:25:47,365 --> 00:25:49,281
[SIGHS]

592
00:25:50,260 --> 00:25:52,260
I can do it myself.

593
00:25:52,285 --> 00:25:55,675
I'm sure, but our job here
is to help each other,

594
00:25:55,700 --> 00:25:59,480
and today I didn't do that.

595
00:26:00,209 --> 00:26:04,079
I'm trying to make up for that
with a jar of pickles.

596
00:26:07,985 --> 00:26:10,819
I overstepped and... [GRUNTS]

597
00:26:10,821 --> 00:26:13,321
...undercut you in front
of the patient's wife.

598
00:26:13,323 --> 00:26:14,932
[GRUNTS]

599
00:26:15,849 --> 00:26:17,926
I accept your apology.

600
00:26:17,928 --> 00:26:19,686
What I should have done

601
00:26:20,931 --> 00:26:23,523
was privately tell you that you're wrong.

602
00:26:24,434 --> 00:26:26,568
- Give me the jar back.
- And let you, as lead doctor,

603
00:26:26,570 --> 00:26:29,087
tell them that this surgery's a bad idea.

604
00:26:29,906 --> 00:26:32,073
Because we should let
a 70-year-old man die

605
00:26:32,075 --> 00:26:33,175
of a treatable condition?

606
00:26:33,177 --> 00:26:35,009
Because we shouldn't
condemn a 70-year-old man

607
00:26:35,011 --> 00:26:37,111
to years of confusion and fear.

608
00:26:37,113 --> 00:26:39,247
His life still has value.

609
00:26:41,118 --> 00:26:42,626
Seriously?

610
00:26:43,399 --> 00:26:46,000
He has memory issues.
He's not a vegetable.

611
00:26:46,421 --> 00:26:50,559
He's funny, he's charming.

612
00:26:50,561 --> 00:26:52,844
They've lived a life together.

613
00:26:53,997 --> 00:26:57,933
He brings happiness
to his wife, to his children.

614
00:26:59,068 --> 00:27:01,373
- He's happy.
- Exactly.

615
00:27:01,375 --> 00:27:04,305
Let him stay happy
for whatever time he has left.

616
00:27:04,307 --> 00:27:05,972
[LID POPS]

617
00:27:05,974 --> 00:27:12,680
♪♪

618
00:27:12,682 --> 00:27:16,517
[DOOR OPENS, CLOSES]

619
00:27:16,519 --> 00:27:19,986
♪♪

620
00:27:19,988 --> 00:27:21,522
Nurse Petringa.

621
00:27:23,593 --> 00:27:25,067
I'm sorry if I overstepped.

622
00:27:25,069 --> 00:27:26,881
I didn't track you down for an apology.

623
00:27:26,883 --> 00:27:29,188
You gonna get us the additional staff?

624
00:27:29,190 --> 00:27:30,931
No.

625
00:27:30,933 --> 00:27:32,599
If I get you the additional staff,

626
00:27:32,601 --> 00:27:34,434
you lose hours, you lose overtime.

627
00:27:34,436 --> 00:27:36,603
So you're doing us a favor by making sure

628
00:27:36,605 --> 00:27:38,038
we never see our families?

629
00:27:38,040 --> 00:27:39,706
Your problem isn't the staff.

630
00:27:39,708 --> 00:27:41,541
Your problem is the actual work,

631
00:27:41,543 --> 00:27:43,376
the crap part of the work
that takes too long

632
00:27:43,378 --> 00:27:45,230
and too many of you.

633
00:27:46,715 --> 00:27:49,549
I authorized the purchase
of two Hoya patient lifts

634
00:27:49,551 --> 00:27:51,551
and a mechatronic ICU bed.

635
00:27:51,553 --> 00:27:53,419
A smart bed?

636
00:27:55,190 --> 00:27:56,688
[CHUCKLES]

637
00:27:56,690 --> 00:27:58,357
Those are actually
supposed to be kind of fun.

638
00:27:58,359 --> 00:28:00,659
You got to promise to let me try it.

639
00:28:01,413 --> 00:28:02,628
You got it.

640
00:28:04,198 --> 00:28:05,709
Dr. Lim?

641
00:28:06,200 --> 00:28:07,566
Thank you.

642
00:28:07,878 --> 00:28:09,869
You owe me.

643
00:28:12,673 --> 00:28:15,677
I'm well aware of what
he'll be going through.

644
00:28:16,177 --> 00:28:18,055
My sister had cancer.

645
00:28:18,846 --> 00:28:21,308
The chemo, the radiation...

646
00:28:22,683 --> 00:28:25,062
They beat the crap out of her,
didn't they?

647
00:28:26,187 --> 00:28:27,564
Yeah.

648
00:28:28,355 --> 00:28:31,022
Now imagine going through that

649
00:28:31,024 --> 00:28:34,726
and not understanding, every day.

650
00:28:36,196 --> 00:28:39,993
Throwing up and not knowing why,

651
00:28:40,433 --> 00:28:43,872
losing your hair and not knowing why,

652
00:28:44,538 --> 00:28:48,836
learning he has cancer
and being devastated by it

653
00:28:48,836 --> 00:28:50,403
day after day.

654
00:28:50,405 --> 00:28:51,571
But at the end...

655
00:28:51,573 --> 00:28:53,840
There are no guarantees.

656
00:28:55,577 --> 00:28:59,445
He's old, and his body's breaking down.

657
00:29:02,150 --> 00:29:04,935
His mind is breaking down,

658
00:29:06,487 --> 00:29:10,485
and it's gonna end, no matter what we do.

659
00:29:10,487 --> 00:29:17,362
♪♪

660
00:29:17,364 --> 00:29:21,299
In 45 years, I have never
once lied to him.

661
00:29:21,301 --> 00:29:25,971
♪♪

662
00:29:25,973 --> 00:29:30,308
When memory goes,
all that's left is emotion.

663
00:29:30,310 --> 00:29:32,477
♪♪

664
00:29:32,479 --> 00:29:34,479
What we've learned doesn't matter.

665
00:29:34,481 --> 00:29:35,648
[SNIFFLES]

666
00:29:35,650 --> 00:29:38,969
What we had for lunch,
where we went for vacation,

667
00:29:39,819 --> 00:29:41,763
none of it matters.

668
00:29:43,823 --> 00:29:45,600
But how we feel...

669
00:29:47,460 --> 00:29:49,460
who we're close to...

670
00:29:49,462 --> 00:29:51,996
♪♪

671
00:29:51,998 --> 00:29:54,734
He's the same man I've always loved.

672
00:29:56,169 --> 00:29:59,030
[SNIFFLES] Same sense of humor.

673
00:30:00,640 --> 00:30:02,450
Same everything.

674
00:30:04,032 --> 00:30:06,177
He hasn't changed.

675
00:30:06,179 --> 00:30:08,479
♪♪

676
00:30:08,481 --> 00:30:13,484
And what I owe him hasn't changed.

677
00:30:13,486 --> 00:30:18,354
♪♪

678
00:30:18,356 --> 00:30:19,556
CLAIRE: Have you decided?

679
00:30:19,558 --> 00:30:20,657
Not yet.

680
00:30:20,659 --> 00:30:23,293
Take your time. There is no urgency to...

681
00:30:23,295 --> 00:30:25,348
What are you waiting for?

682
00:30:26,331 --> 00:30:28,799
Dr. Murphy, they are kind of facing

683
00:30:28,801 --> 00:30:29,800
an impossible choice.

684
00:30:29,802 --> 00:30:31,438
But they have to make it.

685
00:30:33,273 --> 00:30:36,506
What additional information
are you waiting for?

686
00:30:36,508 --> 00:30:38,341
- Shaun...
- I'll be a better doctor

687
00:30:38,343 --> 00:30:39,876
if I understand the patient.

688
00:30:39,878 --> 00:30:41,845
True, but right now, your skills
are secondary to their...

689
00:30:41,847 --> 00:30:45,849
Are you debating whether
you should find somebody else

690
00:30:45,851 --> 00:30:49,218
to fall in love with, someone healthy?

691
00:30:49,220 --> 00:30:51,420
No. No, of course not.

692
00:30:52,292 --> 00:30:53,589
You should be.

693
00:30:53,591 --> 00:30:57,426
♪♪

694
00:30:57,428 --> 00:30:59,591
We're kids.

695
00:31:00,098 --> 00:31:01,797
You shouldn't have to
spend the rest of your life

696
00:31:01,799 --> 00:31:04,054
taking care of an invalid.

697
00:31:04,936 --> 00:31:07,269
You think that's the issue?

698
00:31:07,271 --> 00:31:10,606
Me? A-A burden on me?

699
00:31:10,608 --> 00:31:12,975
This is so much easier on me than you.

700
00:31:12,977 --> 00:31:14,476
No, it's not.

701
00:31:14,478 --> 00:31:18,480
♪♪

702
00:31:18,482 --> 00:31:21,696
Whatever happens to me is gonna happen,

703
00:31:22,486 --> 00:31:24,486
and I have to live with it.

704
00:31:24,488 --> 00:31:27,322
♪♪

705
00:31:27,324 --> 00:31:28,745
You...

706
00:31:29,826 --> 00:31:31,777
You have a choice.

707
00:31:31,779 --> 00:31:37,499
♪♪

708
00:31:37,501 --> 00:31:40,502
"In sickness and in health."

709
00:31:42,050 --> 00:31:44,719
That was the commitment I made...

710
00:31:46,343 --> 00:31:47,915
this morning.

711
00:31:47,917 --> 00:31:52,180
♪♪

712
00:31:52,182 --> 00:31:54,182
Now, if this had happened yesterday...

713
00:31:54,184 --> 00:31:55,516
[CHUCKLES LIGHTLY]

714
00:31:55,518 --> 00:31:57,065
[CHUCKLES]

715
00:31:59,651 --> 00:32:02,390
So... it's not

716
00:32:02,392 --> 00:32:05,176
that difficult a decision then, right?

717
00:32:05,178 --> 00:32:09,863
♪♪

718
00:32:09,865 --> 00:32:10,864
I guess not.

719
00:32:10,866 --> 00:32:18,939
♪♪

720
00:32:18,941 --> 00:32:21,275
[MONITOR BEEPING]

721
00:32:21,277 --> 00:32:27,682
♪♪

722
00:32:27,684 --> 00:32:34,054
♪♪

723
00:32:37,914 --> 00:32:40,281
I can feel her humeral head
outside the glenoid fossa.

724
00:32:40,283 --> 00:32:43,952
It's an anterior dislocation.

725
00:32:43,954 --> 00:32:45,712
I can reduce that.

726
00:32:45,714 --> 00:32:46,864
Here?

727
00:32:46,866 --> 00:32:50,282
Yes, with traction and external rotation.

728
00:32:50,284 --> 00:32:51,867
- [BONE CRACKS]
- Ow!

729
00:32:51,869 --> 00:32:53,727
[CROWD GASPS]

730
00:32:53,729 --> 00:32:56,730
Oh. Oh.

731
00:32:56,732 --> 00:32:58,832
Oh, my, that... that...
that feels better.

732
00:32:58,834 --> 00:33:00,446
I bumped you.

733
00:33:00,448 --> 00:33:01,501
Oh, d-d-don't worry.

734
00:33:01,503 --> 00:33:04,004
It happens. I-I wasn't watching, either.

735
00:33:04,006 --> 00:33:05,906
[APPLAUSE]

736
00:33:05,908 --> 00:33:08,541
[LAUGHS]

737
00:33:08,543 --> 00:33:10,180
Come on.

738
00:33:11,213 --> 00:33:13,058
CLAIRE: That's it?

739
00:33:14,059 --> 00:33:16,750
You bumped into
a very understanding woman,

740
00:33:16,752 --> 00:33:19,920
you amazingly caught a bottle of wine.

741
00:33:19,922 --> 00:33:21,566
Where was the disaster?

742
00:33:24,319 --> 00:33:27,042
Unclamp the superior mesenteric
to perfuse the organs.

743
00:33:27,044 --> 00:33:36,168
♪♪

744
00:33:36,170 --> 00:33:41,007
The small intestines
look dusky and cyanotic.

745
00:33:41,009 --> 00:33:43,520
We'll need to resect
all the necrotic segments.

746
00:33:43,522 --> 00:33:45,412
Claire, find the first
viable part of the ilium

747
00:33:45,414 --> 00:33:47,034
and clamp proximal to it.

748
00:33:47,036 --> 00:33:50,817
♪♪

749
00:33:52,521 --> 00:33:54,587
[DOORBELL RINGS]

750
00:34:01,272 --> 00:34:04,563
I don't think your irons
in the fire are very hot.

751
00:34:04,565 --> 00:34:06,333
Any job interviews you get,

752
00:34:06,335 --> 00:34:09,068
you're gonna spend a large chunk of time
trying to explain why

753
00:34:09,070 --> 00:34:12,160
you lasted less than a year
as President at St. Bonaventure.

754
00:34:12,162 --> 00:34:14,205
I mean, how do you put a positive spin on

755
00:34:14,207 --> 00:34:16,408
why you spent a fortune
on a Chief of Surgery

756
00:34:16,410 --> 00:34:19,411
you fired weeks later to protect
a second-year resident?

757
00:34:19,413 --> 00:34:20,627
You think I made a mistake?

758
00:34:20,629 --> 00:34:22,448
No, I think you did the right thing.

759
00:34:22,450 --> 00:34:26,464
I admire you, which is why
I want to do you a favor.

760
00:34:28,425 --> 00:34:31,437
What you need to do is prove that
you haven't burned any bridges,

761
00:34:31,462 --> 00:34:34,973
which means you have to come
back to work at St. Bonaventure.

762
00:34:35,662 --> 00:34:39,077
As what? As a surgeon working for you?

763
00:34:39,978 --> 00:34:42,100
And the fact that you're
undoubtedly in need of

764
00:34:42,102 --> 00:34:43,801
a surgical attending to replace yourself

765
00:34:43,803 --> 00:34:45,070
is just a coincidence?

766
00:34:45,984 --> 00:34:48,606
It's what you need.

767
00:34:49,863 --> 00:34:51,776
I admire the effort.

768
00:34:51,778 --> 00:34:53,979
But don't con a con man.

769
00:34:57,582 --> 00:34:59,650
[DOORBELL RINGS]

770
00:35:04,944 --> 00:35:07,224
Your greatest strength
and your greatest weakness

771
00:35:07,226 --> 00:35:09,226
as a leader was your stubbornness.

772
00:35:09,228 --> 00:35:11,462
Don't let it be a weakness today.

773
00:35:11,464 --> 00:35:13,965
♪♪

774
00:35:13,967 --> 00:35:17,768
My back hurts on the left side.

775
00:35:18,391 --> 00:35:19,937
That's where you had your biopsy.

776
00:35:19,939 --> 00:35:21,438
It's gonna hurt for a little while.

777
00:35:21,440 --> 00:35:22,937
What biopsy?

778
00:35:25,315 --> 00:35:26,777
Harvey, you came in here
because you thought

779
00:35:26,779 --> 00:35:27,945
you had kidney stones.

780
00:35:27,947 --> 00:35:30,280
We did some imaging, and you don't.

781
00:35:30,282 --> 00:35:33,198
What is it? What... What's wrong?

782
00:35:34,086 --> 00:35:38,412
What? What's going on, Ruby?

783
00:35:38,414 --> 00:35:40,038
I...

784
00:35:40,592 --> 00:35:43,041
Why isn't anybody saying anything?

785
00:35:45,543 --> 00:35:47,831
Am I dying?

786
00:35:47,833 --> 00:35:49,365
Ruby?

787
00:35:49,367 --> 00:35:51,868
I... I can't die.

788
00:35:51,870 --> 00:35:54,538
I need to take care of you.

789
00:35:54,540 --> 00:35:57,040
I... I can't...

790
00:35:57,042 --> 00:35:58,708
They didn't find stones.

791
00:35:58,710 --> 00:36:02,546
♪♪

792
00:36:02,548 --> 00:36:04,187
Everything is okay.

793
00:36:06,189 --> 00:36:08,384
[SNIFFLES]

794
00:36:08,386 --> 00:36:10,654
The pain will go away.

795
00:36:10,656 --> 00:36:12,988
We're gonna go home tonight.

796
00:36:12,990 --> 00:36:15,323
♪♪

797
00:36:15,325 --> 00:36:18,260
Okay? Okay?

798
00:36:18,262 --> 00:36:21,730
♪♪

799
00:36:21,732 --> 00:36:23,065
[SNIFFLES]

800
00:36:23,067 --> 00:36:25,935
♪♪

801
00:36:28,342 --> 00:36:30,141
[INSECTS CHIRPING]

802
00:36:39,447 --> 00:36:41,146
I had a nice time.

803
00:36:53,794 --> 00:36:55,494
[GATE OPENS]

804
00:36:58,833 --> 00:37:01,900
[FOOTSTEPS DEPARTING]

805
00:37:08,042 --> 00:37:09,836
That's it?

806
00:37:10,878 --> 00:37:12,511
It's over?

807
00:37:12,513 --> 00:37:14,346
Where's the disaster?

808
00:37:14,348 --> 00:37:15,714
I've listened to an hour of this.

809
00:37:15,716 --> 00:37:17,215
I was promised a disaster.

810
00:37:17,217 --> 00:37:19,046
Where's the disaster?

811
00:37:19,048 --> 00:37:22,119
♪♪

812
00:37:22,121 --> 00:37:25,155
It... was exhausting.

813
00:37:25,157 --> 00:37:27,658
♪♪

814
00:37:27,660 --> 00:37:31,729
Everything was always out of control.

815
00:37:32,775 --> 00:37:34,899
Anything could happen at any time.

816
00:37:34,901 --> 00:37:36,863
Anything did.

817
00:37:38,070 --> 00:37:40,738
There was too much to remember to do,

818
00:37:40,740 --> 00:37:44,662
too much to remember not to do,
and none of it made sense.

819
00:37:45,244 --> 00:37:49,213
It was hard, uncomfortable, unpleasant.

820
00:37:49,215 --> 00:37:52,049
I spent the whole evening
doing unnatural things

821
00:37:52,051 --> 00:37:55,052
to make her happy, and I have
no idea if she was happy,

822
00:37:55,054 --> 00:37:58,624
and I know I wasn't happy.

823
00:37:58,626 --> 00:38:06,563
♪♪

824
00:38:06,565 --> 00:38:08,899
It was all a disaster.

825
00:38:08,901 --> 00:38:16,073
♪♪

826
00:38:16,075 --> 00:38:19,906
I want you to meet our new
attending, Dr. Marcus Andrews.

827
00:38:22,047 --> 00:38:23,743
Pleasure to meet you.

828
00:38:24,916 --> 00:38:26,829
[SIGHS]

829
00:38:28,686 --> 00:38:31,854
How long have you been working here?

830
00:38:31,856 --> 00:38:33,022
Ms. McDougal?

831
00:38:33,024 --> 00:38:34,523
She didn't ask for ID.

832
00:38:34,525 --> 00:38:35,524
It's policy.

833
00:38:35,526 --> 00:38:37,113
We take a lot of immigrants here.

834
00:38:37,115 --> 00:38:38,594
She also didn't look at me.

835
00:38:38,596 --> 00:38:40,930
Check the symptom I told her I had...

836
00:38:40,932 --> 00:38:42,765
A cut over the left eye.

837
00:38:42,767 --> 00:38:44,934
You heal very nicely, Ms. McDougal.

838
00:38:44,936 --> 00:38:46,936
[CHUCKLES] You hate it here.

839
00:38:46,938 --> 00:38:49,472
[SIGHS] "Hate" is a strong word.

840
00:38:50,061 --> 00:38:51,474
What would you do differently?

841
00:38:51,476 --> 00:38:53,642
[CHUCKLES]

842
00:38:53,644 --> 00:38:55,543
Give me five things.

843
00:38:55,545 --> 00:38:59,547
Diabetes clinical educator,
onsite lab and X-ray,

844
00:38:59,549 --> 00:39:02,050
mental health advisor,
multidisciplinary care team,

845
00:39:02,052 --> 00:39:03,718
electronic medical records.

846
00:39:03,720 --> 00:39:05,587
We had the clinic at the hospital

847
00:39:05,589 --> 00:39:08,423
and had to shut it down
because it was a money pit.

848
00:39:08,425 --> 00:39:11,526
Come back as President,
and we'll re-open it.

849
00:39:15,499 --> 00:39:18,256
Your office can be in the clinic.

850
00:39:18,668 --> 00:39:20,369
Do I have to wear a tie?

851
00:39:22,606 --> 00:39:24,706
[SIREN WAILING IN DISTANCE]

852
00:39:29,046 --> 00:39:30,268
Hey.

853
00:39:31,381 --> 00:39:32,880
Welcome back.

854
00:39:32,882 --> 00:39:35,082
[SIGHS] Am I okay?

855
00:39:35,084 --> 00:39:36,750
The surgery went very well.

856
00:39:36,752 --> 00:39:38,886
We're confident that
we got all of the cancer.

857
00:39:39,569 --> 00:39:40,921
[SIGHS]

858
00:39:42,625 --> 00:39:44,625
There's a bag by her side.

859
00:39:44,627 --> 00:39:46,627
Is that just to drain stuff post-surgery?

860
00:39:46,629 --> 00:39:49,064
There were complications.

861
00:39:49,066 --> 00:39:51,798
We had to remove
a large portion of your bowel

862
00:39:51,800 --> 00:39:54,135
and divert the waste
through a stoma in your skin.

863
00:39:54,137 --> 00:39:56,637
That's an ileostomy bag.

864
00:39:56,639 --> 00:39:58,629
How long will I have that?

865
00:39:59,602 --> 00:40:00,800
Forever.

866
00:40:02,311 --> 00:40:03,977
So I have to go to the bathroom

867
00:40:03,979 --> 00:40:05,612
in this thing for the rest of my life?

868
00:40:05,887 --> 00:40:07,415
Yes.

869
00:40:07,417 --> 00:40:09,917
We'll teach you how to change it,

870
00:40:09,919 --> 00:40:11,601
how to dispose of it.

871
00:40:12,921 --> 00:40:14,792
They'll teach both of us.

872
00:40:14,794 --> 00:40:26,162
♪♪

873
00:40:26,164 --> 00:40:29,802
Now, this is why we do it, Shaun.

874
00:40:29,804 --> 00:40:31,671
Every date is a disaster.

875
00:40:31,673 --> 00:40:34,206
Every relationship is out of control.

876
00:40:34,676 --> 00:40:37,843
But if you stick with it,
you wind up with someone

877
00:40:37,845 --> 00:40:41,681
in your life who will help you
when you need to be helped,

878
00:40:41,683 --> 00:40:44,508
love you when you do not feel lovable,

879
00:40:45,152 --> 00:40:47,352
be with you no matter what.

880
00:40:47,354 --> 00:40:53,358
♪♪

881
00:40:53,360 --> 00:40:55,269
It's not worth it.

882
00:40:56,163 --> 00:40:59,164
[CELLPHONE RINGS]

883
00:40:59,166 --> 00:41:01,166
- [BEEP]
- Hi, Mom.

884
00:41:01,168 --> 00:41:02,835
♪♪

885
00:41:02,837 --> 00:41:04,169
My son's coming to town.

886
00:41:04,171 --> 00:41:06,171
Think I'll pick him up at the airport.

887
00:41:06,173 --> 00:41:14,179
♪♪

888
00:41:14,181 --> 00:41:16,616
♪ And when I see ♪

889
00:41:16,618 --> 00:41:20,785
♪♪

890
00:41:20,787 --> 00:41:24,456
♪ And if I walk ♪

891
00:41:24,458 --> 00:41:27,626
♪♪

892
00:41:27,628 --> 00:41:32,464
♪ And when I run away ♪

893
00:41:32,466 --> 00:41:37,469
♪♪

894
00:41:37,471 --> 00:41:39,938
Hi, Grandpa.

895
00:41:39,940 --> 00:41:46,043
♪ And when I run away ♪

896
00:41:46,045 --> 00:41:50,948
♪ Hold me in your arms ♪

897
00:41:50,950 --> 00:41:55,286
♪ Don't let go ♪

898
00:41:55,288 --> 00:41:58,289
♪♪

899
00:41:58,291 --> 00:42:04,462
♪ Don't let go ♪

900
00:42:04,464 --> 00:42:08,132
♪ And when I see ♪

901
00:42:08,134 --> 00:42:14,071
♪♪

902
00:42:14,073 --> 00:42:20,980
♪♪