(knocking)
Bobby?
-Bobby, open up. -(doorbell rings)
He ever gone MIA like this before?
(sighs) No.
Honestly, I-I don't know much about his story
before he took over the house, just that he, uh...
-he's in recovery. -Hey, wait, wait, wait.
(phone ringing distantly)
Hear that?
Bobby?
(phone continues ringing)
Help.
(sobbing)
WENDALL: God, grant me the serenity to accept
the things I cannot change...
ALL: ...the courage to change the things I can,
and the wisdom to know the difference.
That's it for today.
But remember, whether it's been 24 hours since your last drink,
or 24 years...
we've all found the courage to be here.
And hope to see you again soon.
Nice to see you, brother.
WOMAN: See you next week.
-Hi. -Hi. Good to see you, too.
You've been here before.
Nope.
I've been there myself.
In that foxhole.
Hiding out in the back row,
the thousand-yard stare.
Guarded. Hiding from undue shame.
I have been on that same battlefield.
But I don't take you for a fellow Marine.
Maybe a... cop.
Firefighter.
I'm right only a third of the time.
I know those crossed arms are supposed to be a sign
that you don't want company.
Sorry to tell you, for me,
it's a signal, that someone needs support.
You might not think so right now.
But you made it a point to come here today.
Some coworkers brought me in.
You drinking at work?
-It happens. -Not to me.
I know this isn't your regular meeting,
but do you have a regular someone to talk to?
I did back in Minnesota, but not since I moved here.
Mostly I just go to church.
I'm all for talking to the man upstairs.
But sometimes...
you need someone who can talk back.
I've been feeling a little lost.
Then let's help you find your way back.
(sirens wailing)
You think that somebody did this on purpose?
-Good morning. -Good morning.
Mm.
Looks like you've been up awhile.
Oh.
Yep. Wendall's son called.
Medical examiner finally got the toxicology results back.
And the official finding is that Wendall died of a drug overdose.
And since he didn't die
on the premises of the rehab facility...
They're closing the investigation into Winding Path?
-Yeah. -Aww.
It's not like any of this is a surprise.
There's been dozens of investigations into that place,
-nothing ever sticks. -(Athena sighs)
I'm sorry, baby.
Four months of searching
and this is all we've come up with.
It's not all.
I was thinking about that girl that you and May met,
-at Winding Path. -Tamara.
Yeah.
Maybe it's time to try talking to her again.
You did say that May thought she was making progress with her.
Until the conversation turned to Wendall.
And then Tamara shut her down and cut off all communication.
With May.
I'm thinking she might talk to me.
We're both in recovery. We both knew Wendall.
Could be an opening.
Athena, I need to talk to her.
There might be a way.
♪ Don't wait too long to tell the ones you love ♪
♪ Every single wish you had ♪
♪ Wish you had... ♪
Hi. Tamara?
Yeah, uh, do I know you?
I'm May's stepdad.
-I think she told you about me? -(scoffs)
Ambushing people in flower shops.
Is that the family trait?
I didn't know how else to get ahold of you.
May said you stopped returning her calls.
Usually a sign that someone doesn't want to talk to you.
Okay, listen, I'm sorry for just showing up here like this,
but Wendall was a really good friend.
And he pulled me out of more than a few dark places.
I think you knew him, too.
If you knew him like I did,
you know he was a good man.
And he did not deserve to die alone
in an abandoned lot like that.
No matter what was going on with him.
(whispering): He didn't die there.
What?
He didn't die there.
Okay.
Listen, Tamara, he came to see me
a couple days before he died,
and I could tell something was off,
but I couldn't tell what, and I didn't push.
Now, Wendall, you know, he-he would've pushed.
He wouldn't have given up until I let him in.
I let him in, too.
(exhales)
And then I pulled him down with me.
Pulled him down? What do you mean?
Is this after you met him at Winding Path?
No. We met before that.
Wendall was never a patient there.
He only checked himself in to help me.
To help all of us.
He knew something was wrong with that place.
And he was gonna prove it.
Prove it how?
You have to let this go.
Or you'll end up like Wendall.
Hey, you do remember that I-I live alone, right?
But you're supposed to be taking it easy
and letting your body heal, so I thought I would save you
a few trips to the grocery store.
For the next six months?
For however long it takes you to recover.
Maddie, I'm fine. (sighs)
Buck. You died.
Okay? And not almost,
you actually died.
We don't know the long-term repercussions of that.
Well, it was only for three minutes.
Come on. If I can't make a joke about dying,
what's the point in living?
Okay, uh, hey, don't you have a shift today?
Are you trying to get rid of me?
No, I'm just turning the tables.
You know, I'm starting to worry about you
because you have a job, you have a new house,
you have a little girl that needs taking care of.
-You shouldn't be running over here all the time. -I don't mind.
Well, I can tell that you don't mind,
but I promise you I can take care of myself, okay?
My fingers are not broken,
I can order my own food.
Although, I will admit that pot roast does smell pretty good.
It'll be ready in two hours, you can have it for lunch.
Well, maybe I'll take a nap until then.
Fine, I'm going to work now.
(sighs)
Uh, listen, hey, um... thank you, okay?
I do appreciate what you're doing,
it's just I don't need you to fuss over me.
I'm just glad that you're still here to fuss over.
Yeah, me, too.
BOBBY: And then she just ran off.
That girl was so scared.
Yeah, with good reason.
Maybe that's why they gave her a job there.
Keep tabs on her, make sure she doesn't talk.
Hmm.
She said Wendall was going to prove
that something was wrong at Winding Path.
That's why he checked himself in.
I guess he wanted to see for himself what was going on there.
Yeah, maybe to collect evidence.
What kind of evidence?
Sounds like an undercover sting.
You know, send someone in posed as a criminal,
to bear witness to the commission of a crime.
Well, that would be a police operation.
As far as we know, Wendall wasn't working
with the authorities.
Oh, you don't have to be police to go undercover, Bobby.
Journalists, filmmakers, even private citizens nowadays.
Right. All you need is a camera.
Here.
A $300 purchase to an electronics website.
Same week he died.
Okay, even if Wendall installed the camera, that was months ago.
What do you think the chances are any recordings still exist?
Not sure. But...
I do know some people who might be able to tell me.
I'm gonna take this down to the station
and ask the techs.
Hey. Thank you.
I don't know if I ever slowed down enough to tell you
how much I appreciate you doing this with me.
You know, Wendall wasn't your sponsor and...
Look, I know how important he was to you.
And to this family.
You're not the only one who misses him.
(inhales sharply)
(sighs)
(knocking)
(sighs)
(grunts)
(knocking continues)
Sorry. Did I wake you?
Uh, it's okay.
Thought I'd swing by and see how you're doing.
Make sure you're not climbing the walls.
Nope, just-just the stairs.
(sniffs)
Something smells good.
Is that pot roast?
It is. Uh, come on in.
You're just in time for lunch.
Your sister makes a good pot roast.
Uh, yeah. It's kind of her go-to meal.
(both laughing)
Karen makes it in a Crock-Pot.
We, uh, we never had one of those growing up.
My father always said it was a fad.
He might've been thinking of a fondue pot.
Though those do keep coming back.
Every ten years, like clockwork.
I think someone gave me one of those when I moved in here.
In fact, uh, I think it was you.
Karen and I got four when we got married.
I'm still trying to get rid of the last two.
Re-gifting is my love language.
Uh, hey, so did I pass?
The Dr. Wilson follow-up exam.
Or do you need to check my pulse while you're here?
Oh, you know what? I should.
Okay. Uh, ow. What was that for?
Ungratefulness.
So what'd your cardiologist say that's gotten you so cranky?
(sighs) Um, nothing.
No, she just keeps on ordering tests and doing scans.
I had to wear this Holter monitor device for two days.
And I couldn't use my cell phone or microwave.
But I just keep on waiting for her to tell me I'm okay.
Or that I'm not okay.
Just something. Instead, it's just more tests.
You think it's gonna be bad news?
That's the thing. I-I don't know.
I mean, I really do, uh, I feel fine.
But?
But I also felt pretty good
right before I got struck by lightning.
WENDALL: You're mistaking a mistake, Bobby.
You're the one who told me to get back out there again.
I thought you'd be happy.
I actually thought you'd try to take credit for the whole thing.
I told you to get out and date, maybe some nice dinners,
a couple of movies,
maybe some sexy fun times between the sheets.
Don't worry, all that's definitely happening.
I wanted you to rejoin the world and live.
But asking this woman to marry you?
You haven't even been together a year.
That's impulsive.
And acting impulsively is dangerous for people like us.
But you need to meet her, it's how she makes me feel.
Like you're flying high?
Like I'm standing on solid ground.
After years of having...
nothing to hold on to,
no way to keep myself from spinning out of control,
I found her and...
...with that, maybe a piece of myself again.
(sighs)
Just do us both a favor
and slow down a little.
At least promise it'll be a long engagement.
So no luck tracking down the purchase?
ATHENA: Not yet.
I've been trying to get ahold of whoever runs the website,
but it's a phone tree labyrinth.
The tech guys
did mention something interesting, though.
When Wendall's body was found, he didn't have a camera on him.
Yeah, the fire...
ATHENA: They say there should have been something.
Melted plastic. A piece of circuitry.
Which means maybe it wasn't a camera that you wear.
It could've been a camera that you leave behind.
BOBBY: You think a camera could still be
at Winding Path?
Maybe. If it's small enough,
or something that could be disguised as something else,
they might not even know it was there.
Uh, listen, I got to go.
I'll call you as soon as I know more.
-Love you. -Love you, too.
(knocking)
Connor.
Hey, uh... did my sister call you?
-Was she supposed to? -No.
(chuckles) Uh, come on in.
Can I get you a drink or anything?
Yes, please. (chuckles)
I just wanted to check on you, though, man.
I brought some brownies.
Un, not the special kind of brownies
-Kyle's mom used to make? -(chuckling): No.
I still don't understand the point of a fiber brownie.
Right, uh...
Hey, man, so how is everything? How-How's Cameron doing?
Uh, she's great, actually.
You know, I thought pregnancy was gonna be more like
naps and morning sickness,
but the woman's got more energy than ever.
That's great, right? Must be exciting.
Yeah. Yeah, I think so.
You hope for something for so long
and then when it finally happens...
it doesn't quite feel real.
Well, uh, it's gonna feel pretty real pretty soon.
Yeah, yeah, it's gonna be great.
Um, but what about you, though, man?
I tried calling.
Uh, yeah, I was-I was living in a cell-free zone.
But no, I-I'm good, I got no complaints.
Just waiting for the doctor to give me
the all-clear to resume my life.
All the rest and relaxation starting to get to you, huh?
(knocking)
You know, there's been less of that than you might think.
Uh, give me one second.
(knocking)
I brought Sudoku.
Hi, Josh. (sighs)
JOSH: Oh, sorry.
-Did I get my time wrong? -BUCK: I don't know.
What time did Maddie tell you to be here?
Uh... (mumbles)
Okay.
MADDIE: I promise that you didn't ruin anything, Josh.
He was on to me way before you showed up.
But thanks for checking in on him.
Okay. I'll see you tomorrow.
-Hey. -Hi.
Let me guess.
Operation Buck Up Buttercup has been blown?
He was suspicious of the pot roast,
but he figured it out by Sudoku.
Because, as much as I like making fun of your brother,
he's not an actual idiot.
Which is good news.
Because I know you're worried about him
doing too much, too fast,
but I think he's taking his recovery seriously.
I really hope so.
What is this?
That is a fondue set.
Hen dropped it off. No, I don't know why.
-(phone chimes) -Is that Buck?
Julie Rosen.
She and some of the guys were supposed to bring him dinner.
He was not home, but he left a note:
"Tell Maddie I went out."
Uh-oh. He's gone on the lam.
(knocking)
Hey.
Please don't ask me how I am.
Okay.
-Want a beer? -Eh, probably more than one.
Guess all that company must've wore you out.
All right.
Cheers.
(phone buzzing)
Hello?
TAMARA: Hi.
Tamara, is that you?
Are you high?
TAMARA: Please don't be mad at me.
I feel like everyone's always mad at me.
I am not mad at you.
TAMARA: You seem really nice.
Wendall was really nice, too.
Maybe that's why you guys were friends.
I don't have any friends.
Wendall tried...
...but he's dead now.
Maybe I can be your friend.
TAMARA: Carrie and Trey wouldn't like that.
They say I'm only safe
under their supervision.
Well, I don't think that's true.
Why don't I come and get you?
-TAMARA: You'd do that? -Yeah.
That's... really nice.
You seem really nice.
But I think it's too late for that.
No, no.
TAMARA: I just wanted to say...
I'm really sorry about Wendall.
I wish I could say that to him.
-Uh... -TAMARA: I...
Maybe I can soon.
Tamara?
I'm so tired.
-BOBBY: Tamara? -(thudding)
-(phone beeps) -Tamara.
WENDALL: And I'm tired now. So tired.
(beeps)
(keys jingling)
ATHENA (recorded): You've reached Athena Grant. Leave a message.
Athena, Tamara just called me.
Sounded like she's in really bad shape.
I feel like I got to go check on her.
Give me a call when you get this.
(silverware rattling)
(Buck grunting)
How did I pass out so fast?
You fell asleep before I got the beers out of the refrigerator.
-Sorry. -Nah, no worries. Still want that beer?
Uh... Maybe some water.
Agua on the way.
(Buck sighing)
(sniffs)
Thank you.
There you go, sir.
I mean, it-it's fine if you want to have a beer.
I already did. Both of them.
Right. (chuckles)
Hey, what do you remember about getting shot?
There was a searing pain.
It felt like I got hit by a bus.
And I was still standing.
I remember falling.
And everything got dark.
And I thought, this is it.
This is the last moment of my life.
Then I woke up in the hospital.
And that was it?
That was it.
No bright white lights, no trippy mind puzzles, just...
thought I was dead and...
then I wasn't.
So now am I allowed to ask how you are?
Uh...
Honestly, Eddie, I...
I don't know.
You died, Buck.
You're gonna feel a lot of different ways about that.
Sometimes all at the same time.
I found the best way to process it is to...
...allow yourself to feel it.
Yeah, but you... You do eventually, right? You...
You process it.
Every day you open your eyes in the morning,
you feel a little less surprised the world is still there.
♪ ♪
(engine revving)
I know you.
I'm looking for Tamara.
I told you before, we don't give out information--
I know, patient confidentiality.
-Yeah. -But she called me from here and asked me to pick her up.
-(device beeping) -Who called you?
Tamara.
Well, she's a very troubled girl.
-You can save it. Where is she? -TREY: Not here.
Whatever you said must've really scared her.
-Tamara! -CARRIE: Is that how you like
to spend your time? Terrorizing young women?
Hey. This is private property. I'm gonna ask you to leave.
Hey.
Leave!
-(grunting) -Trey!
I'm calling 911.
Yeah. Ask them to send someone to arrest you.
-I'd like to report an intruder. -BOBBY: Tamara!
-And an assault in progress at the Winding Path Residence. -BOBBY: Tamara!
Tamara!
(alarm blaring)
Tamara?
Everyone out! He's dangerous!
Tamara?
-Do you know Tamara? -Mm-mm.
Tamara!
Tamara?
Tamara!
Tamara.
Tamara. Tamara. Can you hear me?
Can you hear me?
It's you.
I didn't think you'd come.
She said you'd come,
but I didn't believe her.
What? Who-who said that?
Carrie. She said you're a do-gooder.
All right, Tamara, let's get you out of here.
Nice and easy. Come here.
This is the room where people die.
Nope, nobody's dying in here.
Wendall died in here.
-What? -He said he was gonna
take them down, but they got to him first.
Come here. Come here. Come on.
Okay, is this where Wendall hid the camera?
Do you know where the camera is?
He said they'd never find it.
(alarm continues blaring)
-(smoke alarm beeping) -(Tamara coughing)
I think someone burned the toast again.
BOBBY: Smoke?
(people shouting)
Tamara, the building's on fire! We got to go!
Why is it always fire with them?
Hang on to me. Come on, let's go.
Come on.
(flames whooshing)
-Come on. -(coughing)
Come on, Tamara. Come on.
(coughing)
Come on, Tamara. Stay with me.
Stay with me, Tamara. Come on.
-Let's go. -(coughing)
(sirens wailing)
Okay, all right. Come here. Okay.
Okay. You're okay.
(indistinct chatter)
BOBBY: A little help! Over here!
She's gonna need to be treated
for smoke inhalation and narcotic use.
Probably opioids.
-(coughing) -You got her?
Thank you.
We'll take care of her.
All right.
PHELPS: What have we got?
MAN: Detective Phelps, these are our witnesses.
CARRIE: That's him! He pushed his way in
and he attacked my husband.
And said that he would make us all pay.
What are you talking about?
And then he started the fire.
-Arrest him! -That is a lie.
He's been here before.
He harassed me a couple of months ago.
We've always tried to protect our residents,
but we had no idea what this man was capable of
until it was too late.
That's his truck right over there.
Reeks of gasoline.
Go check it out.
(sighs)
Is that your vehicle, sir?
Yeah, that's my truck, but I have no idea
how that got there.
He barged in and the whole place went up in smoke.
PHELPS: Quite an accusation.
He has a history.
His family died in a very suspicious fire in Minnesota.
This is what he does.
♪ ♪
(door opening)
I've taken statements from Carrie and Trey Walsh.
And the receptionist at Winding Path, Rochelle.
They've got quite a lot to say.
Most of it's not good for you.
Evidently you were seen on the property
more than once after Wendall died.
And they of course have surveillance footage
they are more than happy to provide.
They say you harassed several of their employees.
Including some sort of threat at a flower shop?
The word "stalking" was used several times,
by multiple people.
So, look, here's what I'm looking at.
I got a pile of ash where there used to be a house.
And I've got a suspect who knows an awful lot
about starting fires.
And I got witnesses who are willing to testify
they saw you start the fire.
And I got physical evidence
that corroborates this whole story,
that was found in the back of your truck.
I mean, it's a lot.
I don't even think a jury's
gonna leave the courtroom to deliberate.
They're gonna pronounce you guilty
before they even leave the box.
Save everybody an awful lot of time.
I got a perfect trail of breadcrumbs
leading straight up to your front door.
But here's my problem:
I don't trust perfect.
See, I think there's more to this story.
And I think that if I'm gonna hear it,
it's gonna come from you.
I can help you, Captain, if you talk to me.
I have someone I need you to call.
PHELPS: Your friend planted a camera at Winding Path?
BOBBY: We think so.
I looked when I went inside, couldn't find it.
Bobby had no idea what he was looking for.
A camera can look like almost anything nowadays.
But we finally
tracked down the guy who sold it
and he told me where to look.
♪ ♪
You feeling all right, Tamara?
What about the firefighter? Is he okay?
He's safe. He's in custody.
Carrie and Trey say that he's the one who set the fire.
No. That's not what happened.
Then why don't you tell us what really happened?
(monitor beeping steadily)
Wendall said this camera was gonna save us all.
But instead it got him killed.
I'd been in and out of Winding Path for over a year.
And never really getting any better.
One day, I walked past this church.
The sign said all were welcome.
That's how I met Wendall.
I know it's hard.
I know what you're going through,
and believe me, I have been there before.
I don't think you have.
Why don't you try me?
TAMARA: I told him about Winding Path.
How it never seemed like anyone got clean.
I can't do anything right.
TAMARA: About the overdoses.
Five that I knew about.
I was so scared, but Wendall...
he got mad.
There's got to be a way to stop these people
before anyone else dies there.
Carrie and Trey are too smart for that.
They always have a plan.
Maybe we need to make our own plan.
TAMARA: He checked himself in.
Said his employer was making him do it.
The fee was pretty steep,
but he only needed a couple hours to fool Carrie and Trey.
By the time the check bounced, he'd be long gone.
I knew that he'd be searched
so I smuggled the camera in.
♪ ♪
Do you need me to help you with that?
It's better if you don't know what I do next.
That way you don't have to lie.
Okay. The office is down the hall to the right.
They keep everything there.
TAMARA: I was supposed to find Carrie and distract her.
But I guess she was already on to us.
-You need to hurry up. -Where's Carrie?
I don't know. Something's wrong.
What are you doing in here?
I just got turned around, just...
Big house, lots of rooms.
She was just telling me to get the hell out of here.
Is that all?
Yeah. That was all.
I saw the two of you in the hallway earlier.
Thick as thieves.
And now I find you in here, together again.
And I can't help but wonder...
just how stupid do you think I am?
-Carrie, it's not like that. -CARRIE: Tamara.
We took you in.
When you were at your lowest.
No one wanted to deal with you.
Your own parents couldn't wait to get rid of you.
But we, we cared for you, despite your numerous flaws.
And all we asked for in return...
is honesty.
I'm sorry, Carrie, I'm sorry.
This is my fault. This is my fault.
She didn't want to bring me here. I insisted.
-Why? -Someone mentioned this might be the place where I could,
you know, find something to take the edge off.
CARRIE: Oh.
All you had to do was ask.
Sorry. Not sure about the rules here.
Oh, we don't have that many hard and fast rules.
Everybody's path to recovery is different.
(safe beeping)
Thanks.
Think I'll take this to my room.
CARRIE: You'll take it here.
That is a rule.
Not really one to put on a show.
CARRIE: Okay. Don't take it then.
Maybe Tamara will.
She's been shockingly sober for the past few weeks.
It's very unlike her.
Um...
Sure. It's been a while.
TAMARA: It was a test.
And I failed.
But Wendall still tried to cover for me.
Uh, sorry. I think this is... mine.
(gasps)
CARRIE: We'll give you a minute.
Tamara, a word.
Who is he? And what is he doing here?
(Tamara gasps)
I don't know. He's just some guy.
-You're lying. -No, I swear.
(crashing)
Wendall...
Oh, my God. (sobbing)
-He's dead. Wendall... -CARRIE: You did this.
CARRIE: This is your fault.
-I'm so sorry. -CARRIE: Trey!
Get in here!
-Come back. -CARRIE: Now!
Trey!
TAMARA: If I hadn't told Wendall the truth...
if I hadn't brought him to Winding Path Residence,
he'd still be alive.
Carrie lies about everything.
But I think that part... was true.
Wendall wasn't like other people.
Anyone else looks away when they see someone's pain.
Wendall didn't do that.
He took it on, made it his own.
That's what he did for me.
Wendall broke his sobriety so that Tamara could keep hers.
He thought he could take it.
Pass Carrie's test and save them both.
He didn't know it would kill him.
I think he would've done it anyway.
MAN: Folks, please stand back. Give us some space.
Let's go.
(cameras clicking)
(indistinct chatter)
♪ ♪
TREY: It was all her idea.
All of it.
I just raised the initial seed money to start Winding Path.
She said that you can't make money
running a legitimate rehab center.
If you're too good,
the customer only pays once.
CARRIE: We offered them salvation.
But my husband got too ambitious.
It was all her idea.
It was her idea to call
that fire captain and lure him there.
She used Tamara as bait.
(dialing)
(beeps)
(line ringing)
BOBBY: Hello?
Hi.
He said what?
Your husband's taking a plea deal.
You're the last one going down with the ship.
Trey thought if we burned the whole place down,
we could get the insurance money.
(alarm blaring)
And run.
(flames whooshing)
Turned on each other like a pack of hungry dogs.
Did you get everything you need?
Oh, and then some.
Yeah, those two were real talkers.
You know, it turns out they've done this before.
Operated another dirty rehab?
-Mm. -Well, we searched for other locations
operated by the Walshes.
But never found any.
They weren't Walshes then.
When we started looking for other privately owned rehabs
that conveniently burned to the ground
when authorities started asking questions,
first one in Westchester County,
the other one in Palm Beach.
-Grifters got to grift. -(chuckling): Yeah.
Thanks, Detective.
It'll be good to see these two put away.
No problem.
I don't really feel like I did much.
(chuckles)
PHELPS: Oh, hey, Sergeant?
Sorry about Wendall's death.
Everyone we interviewed said he was a good guy.
He was.
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DR. SALAZAR: You're looking good.
You passed your cardiac stress test
and your troponin levels have stabilized quite nicely.
How you feeling?
Yeah, like I'm getting my strength back.
Good.
Your O2 levels are consistently above 96,
so I take it you're not having any trouble breathing?
No, none.
Well, at this point,
there aren't really any remaining medical reasons
you can't return to all your regular activities.
Including resuming full-time employment
as early as next week if you so choose.
Really? You-You're sure?
Would you like a second opinion?
Well, it's just you keep on ordering these tests.
I was doing my due diligence as a doctor.
I've also been having this weird feeling, like a...
sense of dread.
It's not unusual, given what you've been through.
My sister keeps on looking at me,
uh, like she thinks I'm gonna die.
Again.
Well, that I cannot help you with.
Uh...
Hey, you, um...
You see people who've been through...
near-death experiences all the time, right?
It's an unfortunately large percentage of my clientele.
What happens to them after?
They just... go back to their same old lives,
go back to being the same old people?
Some do.
(sighs) They tell me that almost dying
makes them appreciate what they have.
But for others, they'll walk out of my office and...
decide to quit their job, or leave their spouse.
And for some reason, a lot of them want to go to Italy.
That's one place I've never been.
What I've learned from watching them
is that water finds its own level.
And people do, too.
Recovery is a bumpy road.
But eventually...
everyone finds their equilibrium.
Even if it is in another country.
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CHIMNEY: I got this.
BUCK: No way, you got the last one.
CHIMNEY: I didn't realize we were keeping track.
(thunder rumbling)
(crashing)
♪ ♪
(laughing): Bobby.
Sorry, am I ambushing you again?
Not at all. It's great to see you.
Well, it's good to see you, too.
I heard you were working here now,
-I wanted to check up on you. -It's crazy, right?
The owner saw the story on the news
-and reached out, offered me a job, -Ah.
on the condition that I stay clean.
How's that going?
It was a rough detox, but...
I'm feeling a lot better now.
-Good. -Or at least remembering what it used to feel like.
Before all of this.
Well, I am really glad to see you back on your feet.
Thanks to you.
And him.
-Yeah. (sighs) -I still can't believe it.
No, you've been through a lot.
May take you some time to...
put all those feelings into focus.
No, I just mean I can't believe that the both of you
went to these great lengths to help me.
When neither of you really even knew me and...
didn't owe me anything.
I was just someone sitting
in the back of the room at a meeting.
So was I.
(both laughing)
You have to stop trying to fix me.
-Buck, that's not-- -The cooked meals,
the groceries, the babysitting brigade,
it-it's all too much.
I'm just trying to help you.
I know you are. But I can take care of myself.
But I don't want you to feel like you have to.
Look, when I was sick, I felt so alone.
And I didn't want to ask for help
because I didn't want to be a burden.
But then I just...
I kept drifting farther away until...
Till you were gone.
Whatever it is you're feeling, you don't have to hide it.
Um...
When-when I wake up,
uh, and I mean like every single time,
I have this-this checklist now
that I run in my head,
like a way to test that I'm really here.
So, what do you check?
First, uh, time of day.
For some reason, it's never night in my coma dream.
Then I-I text Bobby,
make sure he's okay.
Today is a special day.
Today was meant to be a day of celebration.
Because today...
would've been my friend and sponsor Wendall's...
ten-year anniversary of sobriety.
We talked about milestones like this when I first got here.
Actually, when I first got here, Wendall did most of the talking.
(laughter)
And we started setting these goals for ourselves.
He had his, I had mine.
And slowly they became the same.
And more slowly still,
along with others,
Wendall helped save my life.
And he reminded me that there is always a reason to live,
to fight for another day.
And that no matter how dark that tunnel gets,
there's always a light at the end of it.
And that part of that darkness
is believing that it will never end,
that we will never be free.
But that is a lie.
That is a lie.
And our addiction is fuel on that fire.
So now if I find myself walking down that dark tunnel,
I will know that Wendall is still with me.
All I have to do is reach out my hand.
Thank you for coming and celebrating
our dear lost friend.
And I want to finish by asking if...
anyone feels a burning need to use or do self-harm,
because if so, we are here...
to listen and help.
Oh, excuse me.
Well, Wendall would be very proud.
I hope so. Thank you.
You ready to get out of here?
I think I need a few minutes.
You take all the time you need.
-All right. I love you. -Love you.
♪ I can see clearly now the rain is gone ♪
♪ ♪
Mind if I sit?
♪ Gone are the dark clouds that had me blind ♪
♪ ♪
♪ It's gonna be a bright, bright... ♪
Think I've been where you are right now.
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