1 00:00:01,724 --> 00:00:04,034 Previously on Before The 90 Days... 2 00:00:04,034 --> 00:00:06,655 I feel like I've entered this cute world. 3 00:00:06,655 --> 00:00:08,206 You did all of this yourself. 4 00:00:08,206 --> 00:00:09,551 Yeah, plus, like, a... 5 00:00:10,413 --> 00:00:11,379 Can I use the toilet? 6 00:00:17,034 --> 00:00:19,758 This is definitely gonna take some time to get used to. 7 00:00:19,758 --> 00:00:22,034 I have irritable bowels. 8 00:00:22,034 --> 00:00:25,724 But being here with Dempsey in person just feels right. 9 00:00:27,206 --> 00:00:28,000 Mm. 10 00:00:31,241 --> 00:00:33,448 Build the good memories 11 00:00:33,448 --> 00:00:35,965 so that when you have disagreements, 12 00:00:35,965 --> 00:00:38,965 you will tolerate them better. 13 00:00:38,965 --> 00:00:42,172 What really matters is what your actions are after this meeting. 14 00:00:42,172 --> 00:00:45,862 Is she really gonna fix what she's saying she's gonna fix? 15 00:00:45,862 --> 00:00:48,965 Somebody has to put the fire down. 16 00:00:48,965 --> 00:00:52,172 She needs to work that stuff out first before... 17 00:01:22,000 --> 00:01:23,620 Excuse me. Are you guys like celebrating something tonight? 18 00:01:24,448 --> 00:01:25,655 Your birthday? 19 00:01:28,931 --> 00:01:30,310 In past relationships, 20 00:01:30,310 --> 00:01:32,551 my girlfriends have understood that I'm just like a friendly guy, 21 00:01:35,793 --> 00:01:39,241 If this is how every single day 22 00:01:39,241 --> 00:01:43,034 is to go, I'm just worrying whether we are compatible. 23 00:01:49,379 --> 00:01:51,172 She's just squirming around, looking nervous. 24 00:01:51,172 --> 00:01:52,586 I don't understand this. 25 00:01:52,586 --> 00:01:54,827 This is a major red flag for me. 26 00:01:54,827 --> 00:01:56,965 You know what? You don't wanna... 27 00:01:57,931 --> 00:02:00,034 I went back to see if you were on the app. 28 00:02:00,034 --> 00:02:01,275 You're not my boss. 29 00:02:01,275 --> 00:02:03,310 - Do not talk down to me. - I don't talk with you. 30 00:02:03,310 --> 00:02:04,965 We stop now, okay? 31 00:02:04,965 --> 00:02:06,551 Okay, beat it. Bye. 32 00:02:06,551 --> 00:02:09,000 Bye! Bye! 33 00:02:09,344 --> 00:02:10,172 I'm done. 34 00:07:13,758 --> 00:07:15,275 So sorry for what happened. 35 00:08:17,758 --> 00:08:20,000 It's my responsibility to 36 00:08:20,000 --> 00:08:22,689 spend the night by my mom's casket. 37 00:08:23,586 --> 00:08:24,931 Bye-bye. 38 00:09:25,310 --> 00:09:26,758 That really feels... 39 00:09:30,827 --> 00:09:34,068 Uh, David, he has to help me. 40 00:09:37,724 --> 00:09:40,551 And he respect me... 41 00:09:41,724 --> 00:09:44,827 that I want to be alone. 42 00:10:10,758 --> 00:10:13,586 - This mall is so big. - Yes, it is. 43 00:10:13,586 --> 00:10:15,724 But I know where we're going. 44 00:10:15,724 --> 00:10:17,413 I'm very familiar with this mall here. 45 00:10:19,310 --> 00:10:21,793 After the session with our therapist yesterday, 46 00:10:21,793 --> 00:10:24,241 I'm feeling good. I'm glad we went 47 00:10:24,241 --> 00:10:25,931 because I think it was productive overall. 48 00:10:29,896 --> 00:10:31,103 - Smells good. - Right? 49 00:10:32,793 --> 00:10:34,689 Of course I still have concerns about 50 00:10:34,689 --> 00:10:36,068 the amount of arguing, 51 00:10:36,068 --> 00:10:39,586 but I think Jasmine and I need to focus on 52 00:10:39,586 --> 00:10:41,551 creating good memories together so we can 53 00:10:41,551 --> 00:10:43,068 improve our relationship, 54 00:10:43,068 --> 00:10:44,620 you know, while I'm here in Panama. 55 00:10:45,586 --> 00:10:48,206 This is where we're going. 56 00:10:57,068 --> 00:11:00,551 Today is my little sister's Liz's 20th birthday. 57 00:11:00,551 --> 00:11:05,655 And since she has been living with Gino and I for these two weeks, 58 00:11:05,655 --> 00:11:08,965 that poor thing had been dealing with all the crap 59 00:11:08,965 --> 00:11:10,689 that's going on between Gino and I. 60 00:11:10,689 --> 00:11:14,275 So, Gino agreed on getting her something special. 61 00:11:25,517 --> 00:11:26,896 I'm gonna take this one. 62 00:11:27,689 --> 00:11:29,172 It's very beautiful. 63 00:11:29,172 --> 00:11:30,275 Okay. 64 00:11:32,724 --> 00:11:33,724 Um... 65 00:11:37,896 --> 00:11:38,862 Okay. 66 00:11:39,965 --> 00:11:41,655 So, since I'm already here... 67 00:11:50,344 --> 00:11:51,310 You already have a ring. 68 00:11:52,034 --> 00:11:53,379 No, I lost it. 69 00:11:56,034 --> 00:11:57,793 I don't really believe that 70 00:11:57,793 --> 00:11:59,448 that she lost the engagement ring. 71 00:11:59,448 --> 00:12:00,448 That's what I did. 72 00:12:00,448 --> 00:12:03,689 I accidentally lost it. 73 00:12:09,724 --> 00:12:11,620 That's a good question. 74 00:12:11,620 --> 00:12:14,413 Did you like the ring that I bought you? 75 00:12:14,862 --> 00:12:16,034 It's meaningful, 76 00:12:16,034 --> 00:12:18,517 but it's not a ring that I would ever buy it for me. 77 00:12:18,517 --> 00:12:19,758 Or for any other person. 78 00:12:21,448 --> 00:12:23,689 He promised to upgrade the ring. 79 00:12:23,689 --> 00:12:24,896 That never happened. 80 00:12:24,896 --> 00:12:27,793 So, even before I lost the ring, 81 00:12:27,793 --> 00:12:31,172 sometimes I was wearing the previous... 82 00:12:33,517 --> 00:12:34,517 That was nicer. 83 00:12:36,448 --> 00:12:38,896 That's... that's terrible, 84 00:12:38,896 --> 00:12:41,241 that you're wearing a ring from your previous marriage, I mean... 85 00:12:41,241 --> 00:12:42,965 But in my mind, it's not like, 86 00:12:42,965 --> 00:12:45,517 "Oh, this represents me being engaged to my ex." 87 00:12:45,517 --> 00:12:48,551 I'm even divorced. I don't care about him. 88 00:12:48,551 --> 00:12:52,689 That's like me wearing like, a necklace that my ex gave me 89 00:12:52,689 --> 00:12:53,758 - or something. - What necklace? 90 00:12:53,758 --> 00:12:55,448 Wearing a necklace that she gave me. 91 00:12:55,448 --> 00:12:57,275 How would you feel if I did that? 92 00:12:57,275 --> 00:12:58,275 She gave you a necklace? 93 00:12:58,275 --> 00:13:00,241 No, I'm saying how would you feel? 94 00:13:00,241 --> 00:13:01,275 - if I... - Do you have a necklace? 95 00:13:01,965 --> 00:13:03,448 Stop comparing everything. 96 00:13:03,448 --> 00:13:05,448 I'm just asking how you'd feel. 97 00:13:05,448 --> 00:13:07,586 You were being cheap about replacing it. 98 00:13:07,586 --> 00:13:09,068 You were not giving me a new one. 99 00:13:09,068 --> 00:13:10,931 So I found a solution. 100 00:13:15,482 --> 00:13:16,655 Oh, my God. 101 00:13:17,931 --> 00:13:19,793 Babe, you don't need a ring now. 102 00:13:22,413 --> 00:13:23,413 What? 103 00:13:25,448 --> 00:13:27,620 I do need a ring because I don't have a ring. 104 00:13:27,620 --> 00:13:29,620 It's Liz's birthday. We should be focusing on that. 105 00:13:29,620 --> 00:13:31,517 I am. I already have a gift. 106 00:13:33,827 --> 00:13:35,586 What's the matter? 107 00:13:35,586 --> 00:13:37,620 What? I told you I'd buy you a ring 108 00:13:37,620 --> 00:13:39,758 after visa approval 109 00:13:39,758 --> 00:13:42,931 And, uh, before our wedding, not now. 110 00:13:53,034 --> 00:13:54,827 Do you know, talking about wedding 111 00:13:54,827 --> 00:13:57,344 and all this K-1 process, 112 00:13:57,344 --> 00:13:59,068 don't use that as an excuse 113 00:13:59,068 --> 00:14:01,068 because we've been waiting for 12 months. 114 00:14:01,068 --> 00:14:02,689 Like, why is it taking forever? 115 00:14:05,517 --> 00:14:07,172 Okay. 116 00:14:07,172 --> 00:14:10,655 Immigration says within 13 months. 117 00:14:10,655 --> 00:14:12,724 Eighty percent of cases are resolved. 118 00:14:12,724 --> 00:14:14,241 We're not there at 13 months yet. 119 00:14:14,241 --> 00:14:16,241 But I don't wanna wait 13 months. 120 00:14:16,241 --> 00:14:17,379 I do believe that... 121 00:14:18,620 --> 00:14:21,137 No. No! I don't need a lawyer. 122 00:14:21,137 --> 00:14:23,000 Because I have waited a lot. 123 00:14:23,000 --> 00:14:24,724 We haven't hit the timing yet. 124 00:14:24,724 --> 00:14:26,103 - That's why. - Forget about it. 125 00:14:26,103 --> 00:14:28,655 - Timing? 12 months is more than enough. - Tell you what. 126 00:14:28,655 --> 00:14:30,241 You give me the money for the lawyer, 127 00:14:30,241 --> 00:14:32,034 - and I'll get one. How does that sound? - I knew that it was 128 00:14:32,034 --> 00:14:33,034 all about the money. 129 00:14:33,034 --> 00:14:34,655 - It is about the money. - You don't want... 130 00:14:34,655 --> 00:14:35,931 I'm not gonna waste money. 131 00:14:35,931 --> 00:14:38,172 - Do you waste money? - So am I a waste of money? 132 00:14:43,000 --> 00:14:45,758 It just frustrates me that Jasmine 133 00:14:45,758 --> 00:14:48,034 even thinks I need an immigration attorney. 134 00:14:48,931 --> 00:14:50,482 My ex-wife is from Brazil 135 00:14:50,482 --> 00:14:53,896 and I brought her here to the US on a K-1 visa. 136 00:14:53,896 --> 00:14:55,551 I had no trouble doing it. 137 00:14:55,551 --> 00:14:57,413 So, I know I can do this myself. 138 00:14:58,931 --> 00:15:01,620 Yeah, I feel like Jasmine's kinda manipulating me 139 00:15:01,620 --> 00:15:05,448 by trying to convince me to buy her a ring right now. 140 00:15:05,448 --> 00:15:07,103 And you know, it's... 141 00:15:07,793 --> 00:15:09,103 It's not what I came here for. 142 00:15:10,931 --> 00:15:13,931 What you should be doing is spending money 143 00:15:13,931 --> 00:15:16,862 on a lawyer to get me to the United States 144 00:15:16,862 --> 00:15:18,034 - as soon as possible. - No. 145 00:15:18,034 --> 00:15:19,448 You do not tell me what to do. 146 00:15:20,862 --> 00:15:22,620 I'm the one that did all the paperwork. 147 00:15:22,620 --> 00:15:24,413 I'm the one that took hours 148 00:15:24,413 --> 00:15:26,655 figuring out how to fill everything out. 149 00:15:26,655 --> 00:15:28,068 I'm the one that did everything. 150 00:15:28,068 --> 00:15:30,413 I know what's going on. You're clueless. 151 00:15:30,413 --> 00:15:32,103 - Why you have to be-- - You have no clue what's going on. 152 00:15:32,103 --> 00:15:34,206 Why you have to be a jerk every time? 153 00:15:36,137 --> 00:15:38,034 You better change your attitude because 154 00:15:38,034 --> 00:15:40,724 we're gonna have some huge problems coming up. 155 00:15:40,724 --> 00:15:42,310 - But I have-- - Change your attitude. 156 00:15:42,310 --> 00:15:44,448 I have an attitude because-- 157 00:15:44,448 --> 00:15:46,689 I'm not ready to buy it. I'm not ready to buy a ring today. 158 00:15:46,689 --> 00:15:47,620 You can buy it yourself. 159 00:15:52,827 --> 00:15:53,827 What a jerk. 160 00:15:56,068 --> 00:15:57,655 This is the she pulls all the time. 161 00:16:00,310 --> 00:16:01,310 That's crazy. 162 00:16:03,551 --> 00:16:05,689 He knows that this K-1 visa 163 00:16:05,689 --> 00:16:08,310 topic is super sensitive to me. 164 00:16:09,551 --> 00:16:13,620 Twelve months for me waiting living in the limbo. 165 00:16:13,620 --> 00:16:16,448 And it's shatters my heart to know 166 00:16:16,448 --> 00:16:19,862 that you know he's not going to spend any money that he has 167 00:16:19,862 --> 00:16:22,034 on something as important as 168 00:16:22,034 --> 00:16:24,206 paying for an immigration lawyer, 169 00:16:24,206 --> 00:16:27,310 to try to accelerate the process of me 170 00:16:27,310 --> 00:16:28,931 getting a K-1 visa, 171 00:16:28,931 --> 00:16:30,620 and finally being together. 172 00:16:32,344 --> 00:16:34,172 I'm sick and tired of trying my best. 173 00:16:34,172 --> 00:16:37,620 And I am sick and tired of that jerk. 174 00:16:40,482 --> 00:16:42,827 I feel like I mean nothing to him. 175 00:16:47,517 --> 00:16:50,344 - Did you sleep well? - Uh... 176 00:16:50,827 --> 00:16:51,931 Yeah. 177 00:16:51,931 --> 00:16:53,793 Not used to this kinda cold. 178 00:16:53,793 --> 00:16:55,448 Last night was freezing. 179 00:16:55,448 --> 00:16:57,482 Being cold is my version of hell. 180 00:16:57,482 --> 00:16:58,655 I wanna take a shower, 181 00:16:58,655 --> 00:17:00,517 but I can't just, like, hop in and shower. 182 00:17:00,517 --> 00:17:01,862 It doesn't have hot water. 183 00:17:01,862 --> 00:17:03,379 Gotta take a dump at some point. 184 00:17:03,379 --> 00:17:05,896 What the hell? Where am I supposed to go? 185 00:17:05,896 --> 00:17:08,000 I don't know. I feel like I might be in over my head here. 186 00:17:35,586 --> 00:17:36,724 Good morning. 187 00:17:38,103 --> 00:17:39,689 - You okay? - Yeah. 188 00:17:39,689 --> 00:17:41,413 - Did you sleep? - Well... 189 00:17:41,724 --> 00:17:42,689 Uh... 190 00:17:45,724 --> 00:17:47,034 I don't know. 191 00:17:48,724 --> 00:17:49,724 But you're stressed? 192 00:17:50,620 --> 00:17:52,206 I don't... Maybe a little bit. 193 00:17:52,206 --> 00:17:53,413 What about? 194 00:17:53,413 --> 00:17:54,689 It's just very different. Everything's very different. 195 00:17:55,413 --> 00:17:56,862 Not used to this kind of cold. 196 00:18:00,689 --> 00:18:04,206 It's my first morning waking up at the farm. 197 00:18:04,206 --> 00:18:06,965 And Dempsey doesn't have central heat. 198 00:18:07,655 --> 00:18:09,379 So, last night was freezing. 199 00:18:09,379 --> 00:18:10,758 It was really cold, 200 00:18:10,758 --> 00:18:13,413 and being cold is my version of hell. 201 00:18:14,344 --> 00:18:15,413 So you don't like it? 202 00:18:15,413 --> 00:18:16,862 Oh, yeah, no, it's nice. 203 00:18:16,862 --> 00:18:19,137 It's good. It's good, yeah. 204 00:18:21,103 --> 00:18:23,206 Just uncomfortable when you're out of your comfort zone. 205 00:18:25,689 --> 00:18:27,655 I was so excited to wake up this morning. 206 00:18:27,655 --> 00:18:30,586 And I was like, "Oh, my God, like, you're actually here." 207 00:18:30,586 --> 00:18:33,758 - Shall we get ready? - Yeah. 208 00:18:33,758 --> 00:18:37,172 But it bothers me that she saying that she's uncomfortable. 209 00:18:37,172 --> 00:18:40,241 If she were to say that she just needs some time to, like, 210 00:18:40,241 --> 00:18:42,310 settle in 'cause the surroundings are new, 211 00:18:42,310 --> 00:18:44,413 that's completely different to saying that you're uncomfortable. 212 00:18:44,413 --> 00:18:45,758 Like, what's making you uncomfortable? 213 00:18:45,758 --> 00:18:47,034 Me, or... 214 00:18:48,000 --> 00:18:49,413 the space or what? 215 00:18:49,413 --> 00:18:52,379 Like, I wanted to feel like, happy here. 216 00:18:52,379 --> 00:18:54,965 But, yeah, what am I meant to do if she doesn't? 217 00:18:54,965 --> 00:18:56,137 Can't change anything. 218 00:18:58,586 --> 00:19:02,000 We use this like, clear the energies in the space. 219 00:19:05,827 --> 00:19:07,448 Sage in here. 220 00:19:09,758 --> 00:19:11,724 All around. It doesn't smell the best. 221 00:19:12,586 --> 00:19:14,655 All good vibes. 222 00:19:14,655 --> 00:19:16,448 Good vibes. 223 00:19:16,827 --> 00:19:17,758 Whoo! 224 00:19:17,758 --> 00:19:19,206 - Let's go. - Okay. 225 00:19:19,206 --> 00:19:21,827 Feel like that's cleaning out something in my lungs for sure. 226 00:19:23,517 --> 00:19:26,482 People would probably describe me as a bit hippified or... 227 00:19:27,724 --> 00:19:28,965 spiritual. 228 00:19:28,965 --> 00:19:31,448 I'm just like, a holistic person. 229 00:19:31,448 --> 00:19:33,448 So, I protect my energy 230 00:19:33,448 --> 00:19:36,793 Every morning, I put like, a protective bubble wrap around me 231 00:19:36,793 --> 00:19:38,310 and a protective shield 232 00:19:38,310 --> 00:19:41,448 'cause I like to be positive. 233 00:19:41,448 --> 00:19:44,724 Feel like you're saging me behind my back when I'm not looking. 234 00:19:44,724 --> 00:19:46,034 Can you like, turn around? I can sage... 235 00:19:46,827 --> 00:19:47,965 Excuse me. 236 00:19:47,965 --> 00:19:50,344 I think that needs saging a lot, like... 237 00:19:50,344 --> 00:19:51,758 Okay. All right. 238 00:19:51,758 --> 00:19:53,448 That's been places. 239 00:19:56,827 --> 00:19:58,724 That's not offensive at all. 240 00:19:59,379 --> 00:20:00,689 You told me. 241 00:20:01,241 --> 00:20:03,275 Well, okay, I mean... 242 00:20:03,793 --> 00:20:05,137 I can do it again. 243 00:20:05,137 --> 00:20:06,827 I feel like you're really wanting to do that a lot. 244 00:20:06,827 --> 00:20:09,206 Well, it's just that the sage is calling it. 245 00:20:09,206 --> 00:20:11,103 - It's not me. - The sage is calling it? 246 00:20:11,103 --> 00:20:13,448 The sage is sending-- Look how much it's smoking. 247 00:20:13,448 --> 00:20:16,310 Jesus! 248 00:20:16,310 --> 00:20:19,137 Being a slut is not a bad thing, like... 249 00:20:20,137 --> 00:20:21,965 Well, the sage says different. 250 00:20:24,586 --> 00:20:27,482 I'm not ashamed or embarrassed of my history, 251 00:20:27,482 --> 00:20:30,379 my sexual history. I'm kinda proud of it, honestly. 252 00:20:31,344 --> 00:20:32,655 It's not that big of a deal. 253 00:20:32,655 --> 00:20:35,827 Uh, but apparently it is for her, so. 254 00:20:37,172 --> 00:20:38,965 I know it's cold and stuff in here 255 00:20:38,965 --> 00:20:41,517 so I need to run get some firewood 256 00:20:41,517 --> 00:20:43,517 - So I'm gonna get changed - Yeah. 257 00:20:43,517 --> 00:20:45,275 ...and let you settle in 258 00:20:45,275 --> 00:20:46,793 and I'm gonna get some wood and come back. 259 00:20:47,620 --> 00:20:48,448 - Okay. - Okay. 260 00:20:49,241 --> 00:20:50,758 - Yeah, I guess so. - Yeah? 261 00:20:51,965 --> 00:20:53,689 I'll just roam around, I guess. 262 00:21:00,689 --> 00:21:01,655 When you're with somebody, 263 00:21:01,655 --> 00:21:03,034 you, like, think of the future 264 00:21:03,034 --> 00:21:04,620 and, you know, what it can hold for you. 265 00:21:05,379 --> 00:21:07,206 So I'm worried that Statler 266 00:21:07,206 --> 00:21:08,758 might not get used to farm life. 267 00:21:09,551 --> 00:21:11,413 But I really like it here. 268 00:21:13,068 --> 00:21:16,379 I love just being in the middle of nowhere. 269 00:21:16,379 --> 00:21:18,206 It's just and easy... easy life. 270 00:21:18,206 --> 00:21:19,689 Like, it's... it's a slow life. 271 00:21:21,034 --> 00:21:22,862 I've always lived in caravans 272 00:21:22,862 --> 00:21:25,103 like, um, most of my life. 273 00:21:25,103 --> 00:21:27,103 My family, we moved around a lot, 274 00:21:27,103 --> 00:21:28,275 part of the travelling community 275 00:21:28,275 --> 00:21:30,724 that travels around with fairground rides, 276 00:21:30,724 --> 00:21:32,758 what Americans call carnival. 277 00:21:33,793 --> 00:21:36,000 My family is part of the Showmen's Guild. 278 00:21:36,000 --> 00:21:37,724 My grandparents, their grandparents, 279 00:21:37,724 --> 00:21:40,517 it run back for generations and generations. 280 00:21:40,517 --> 00:21:42,172 So we go from place to place 281 00:21:42,172 --> 00:21:44,758 and we would organize the carnivals 282 00:21:44,758 --> 00:21:46,793 with all our rides and food stalls and... 283 00:21:46,793 --> 00:21:48,931 and then we would pull everything down and then 284 00:22:00,413 --> 00:22:02,724 My parents had three daughters. 285 00:22:02,724 --> 00:22:03,965 We were like best friends. 286 00:22:04,689 --> 00:22:08,310 Unfortunately, when I was 16, 287 00:22:08,793 --> 00:22:09,620 uh... 288 00:22:11,172 --> 00:22:12,344 my big sister died. 289 00:22:14,965 --> 00:22:18,137 And she was 19. 290 00:22:18,137 --> 00:22:20,137 She got carbon monoxide poison in her sleep 291 00:22:20,137 --> 00:22:21,448 and never woke up. 292 00:22:21,793 --> 00:22:22,620 Uh... 293 00:22:28,793 --> 00:22:30,413 Yeah, so that really affected me. 294 00:22:33,172 --> 00:22:34,931 I left home when I was 18. 295 00:22:35,931 --> 00:22:38,103 I just was so unhappy, I couldn't... 296 00:22:38,103 --> 00:22:40,275 I just couldn't live that life anymore 297 00:22:40,275 --> 00:22:41,758 without my sister being there. 298 00:22:41,758 --> 00:22:43,413 So I was just, like... 299 00:22:43,413 --> 00:22:45,137 staying on friend's couches, 300 00:22:45,137 --> 00:22:47,344 moved around a lot from house to house. 301 00:22:47,344 --> 00:22:49,310 I was just so unsettled within myself. 302 00:22:49,310 --> 00:22:51,586 I... No way... I just know I was making me happy. 303 00:22:52,655 --> 00:22:55,344 But then I met my friend Ben 304 00:22:55,344 --> 00:22:56,931 on the farm in Darlington, 305 00:22:56,931 --> 00:22:59,517 told him my situation and stuff like that 306 00:22:59,517 --> 00:23:02,689 and he said, "Do you wanna just stay and have a job?" 307 00:23:02,689 --> 00:23:04,000 So I was like, "Yeah, all right", 308 00:23:04,000 --> 00:23:06,000 as I literally have nothing to lose. 309 00:23:07,379 --> 00:23:10,000 I worked for the business which is called Kip and Nook. 310 00:23:10,000 --> 00:23:11,896 And it's, like, shipping containers 311 00:23:11,896 --> 00:23:13,827 converted into living spaces 312 00:23:13,827 --> 00:23:15,724 and it's like a staycation business 313 00:23:15,724 --> 00:23:17,068 what we would call in England. 314 00:23:20,379 --> 00:23:22,172 I think everything that happens 315 00:23:22,172 --> 00:23:24,482 to everybody in their lives happens for a reason. 316 00:23:24,482 --> 00:23:26,517 And you can either sit and dwell on it 317 00:23:26,517 --> 00:23:29,689 or you can be positive and take every opportunity 318 00:23:29,689 --> 00:23:31,793 and look at the brighter side of it. 319 00:23:31,793 --> 00:23:33,206 That way your life would be better. 320 00:23:35,000 --> 00:23:36,758 Jeez, what the heck's going on out there? 321 00:23:38,413 --> 00:23:39,241 Ugh. 322 00:23:40,793 --> 00:23:42,758 Doing some kind of construction out there. 323 00:23:46,758 --> 00:23:48,310 Ugh. Yikes. 324 00:23:49,379 --> 00:23:51,344 Little louder, please. 325 00:23:51,344 --> 00:23:53,862 I feel like I was pretty positive last night 326 00:23:53,862 --> 00:23:56,000 because I was just, kind of, shell-shocked, 327 00:23:56,000 --> 00:23:58,689 but now I'm like, settled in and it's like, 328 00:23:58,689 --> 00:24:02,379 "Wait a second." There's like less space, you know, realizing. 329 00:24:02,379 --> 00:24:03,586 I wanna take a shower 330 00:24:03,586 --> 00:24:05,448 but I can't just, like, hop into the shower. 331 00:24:05,448 --> 00:24:06,793 Doesn't have hot water. 332 00:24:06,793 --> 00:24:08,379 Gotta take a dump at some point. 333 00:24:08,379 --> 00:24:09,793 Like, I'm hoping I don't have to take one 334 00:24:09,793 --> 00:24:12,586 while she's gone or she's gonna walk back and see me 335 00:24:12,586 --> 00:24:14,206 squatted in a field, like... 336 00:24:15,448 --> 00:24:16,586 or with this guy watching. 337 00:24:16,586 --> 00:24:18,482 Like, what the hell. Where am I supposed to go? 338 00:24:20,275 --> 00:24:22,413 Dempsey doesn't know that I wanna move in with her. 339 00:24:22,413 --> 00:24:25,413 But I'm realizing that I'm not comfortable here. 340 00:24:25,413 --> 00:24:27,758 I am freezing cold. 341 00:24:27,758 --> 00:24:30,482 I don't feel like there's a lot of space for me. 342 00:24:31,620 --> 00:24:33,034 I'm out in the middle of nowhere. 343 00:24:33,034 --> 00:24:36,413 So I'm not sure about living in her caravan. 344 00:24:36,931 --> 00:24:38,586 And that scares me 345 00:24:38,586 --> 00:24:41,034 because I don't really have another plan. 346 00:24:41,034 --> 00:24:42,793 My lease is about to end 347 00:24:42,793 --> 00:24:45,655 and, you know, I've got all my eggs in this one basket. 348 00:24:47,241 --> 00:24:48,517 Oh, boy. 349 00:24:48,517 --> 00:24:50,379 I don't know, I feel like I might be in over my head here. 350 00:24:57,586 --> 00:24:59,000 She sent me a message last night. 351 00:25:00,344 --> 00:25:01,206 Then I blocked her. 352 00:25:03,413 --> 00:25:05,827 "You trampled and insult me. 353 00:25:05,827 --> 00:25:07,344 You don't deserve to be a man." 354 00:25:07,724 --> 00:25:08,689 Wow. Okay. 355 00:25:10,000 --> 00:25:12,620 I'm not sure if this relationship can be salvaged 356 00:25:12,620 --> 00:25:14,206 or if I even want it to be salvaged 357 00:25:14,206 --> 00:25:15,379 or she wants it to be salvaged. 358 00:25:40,620 --> 00:25:42,448 It was supposed to just be a nice... 359 00:25:43,655 --> 00:25:45,068 evening together. 360 00:25:45,620 --> 00:25:47,482 A real date, you know? 361 00:25:47,482 --> 00:25:49,655 Just enjoying each other's company... 362 00:25:50,689 --> 00:25:52,482 and it turned into... 363 00:25:52,482 --> 00:25:54,275 It turned into fireworks. 364 00:25:55,310 --> 00:25:57,000 Uh... I don't... 365 00:25:57,000 --> 00:25:58,413 It wasn't supposed to be that. 366 00:26:00,000 --> 00:26:01,827 From last night, it was not supposed to be that. 367 00:26:04,896 --> 00:26:07,241 I've been in Vietnam about a week now 368 00:26:07,241 --> 00:26:10,517 and last night Violet and I had 369 00:26:10,517 --> 00:26:12,689 a big blowout at the restaurant 370 00:26:14,172 --> 00:26:16,310 I really wish things didn't get so heated 371 00:26:16,310 --> 00:26:17,241 but I felt insulted. 372 00:26:19,206 --> 00:26:21,517 I'm upset more at myself 373 00:26:22,551 --> 00:26:24,379 for letting me, myself 374 00:26:24,379 --> 00:26:27,206 get so angry, uh, get so upset, 375 00:26:27,206 --> 00:26:30,000 that I'mma have an outburst like that in public 376 00:26:30,000 --> 00:26:31,206 in a foreign country. 377 00:26:31,931 --> 00:26:33,241 I regret that. 378 00:26:33,241 --> 00:26:35,551 But I don't regret telling her... 379 00:26:35,551 --> 00:26:37,758 pretty much I'm not putting up with the nonsense any more. 380 00:26:38,344 --> 00:26:39,758 So I blocked her. 381 00:26:39,758 --> 00:26:41,000 I really have nothing to say to her. 382 00:27:30,482 --> 00:27:31,310 Okay. 383 00:29:35,379 --> 00:29:36,793 She sent me a message last night. 384 00:29:38,103 --> 00:29:38,931 Then I blocked her. 385 00:29:39,620 --> 00:29:40,448 I didn't even read it... 386 00:29:41,206 --> 00:29:42,206 the message from last night. 387 00:29:43,068 --> 00:29:43,896 I should read it, huh? 388 00:29:45,793 --> 00:29:47,862 "You are supposed to protect me. 389 00:29:47,862 --> 00:29:51,413 Over here you trampled and insult me. 390 00:29:51,413 --> 00:29:53,241 You don't deserve to be a man." 391 00:29:53,241 --> 00:29:54,517 Wow, okay. 392 00:29:54,517 --> 00:29:57,689 Um, "If you come to Vietnam to meet my family, 393 00:29:57,689 --> 00:29:59,862 my family is allowed to ask you 394 00:29:59,862 --> 00:30:01,448 and when I come to your country 395 00:30:01,448 --> 00:30:04,172 you are allowed to ask me. 396 00:30:04,172 --> 00:30:05,931 You want to know me. 397 00:30:05,931 --> 00:30:11,172 You have an uneducated, unscrupulous attitude. 398 00:30:11,172 --> 00:30:13,275 If you're like that, you should go away." 399 00:30:15,448 --> 00:30:16,689 So that sounds like I'm not allowed 400 00:30:16,689 --> 00:30:18,000 to ask any questions at all. 401 00:30:20,241 --> 00:30:21,689 It's her way. 402 00:30:21,689 --> 00:30:23,896 It's everything what she wants. 403 00:30:23,896 --> 00:30:24,931 I not built that way. 404 00:30:27,137 --> 00:30:28,206 It's really disappointing 405 00:30:28,206 --> 00:30:30,068 because for the last two years, 406 00:30:30,068 --> 00:30:31,931 Violet and I have been talking about being together 407 00:30:31,931 --> 00:30:33,758 and being a family. 408 00:30:33,758 --> 00:30:36,551 And I'm not sure if this relationship can be salvaged 409 00:30:36,551 --> 00:30:38,206 or if I even want it to be salvaged 410 00:30:38,206 --> 00:30:39,379 or she wants it to be salvaged. 411 00:31:05,793 --> 00:31:07,758 ...but it won't be because I reach out to her. 412 00:31:08,862 --> 00:31:10,620 She will have to make a effort to meet with me. 413 00:31:11,793 --> 00:31:12,931 She will have to apologize. 414 00:31:12,931 --> 00:31:14,000 She will have to do the talking. 415 00:31:14,000 --> 00:31:16,310 She will have to explain herself to me. 416 00:31:16,310 --> 00:31:17,689 I have nothing to explain to her. 417 00:31:49,862 --> 00:31:51,344 Like, you know, when we got there, 418 00:31:51,344 --> 00:31:52,344 we're having a good time, 419 00:31:52,344 --> 00:31:53,482 we're getting to know each other. 420 00:31:53,482 --> 00:31:55,000 And I still think we're on a... 421 00:31:55,000 --> 00:31:56,827 Just seemed like you were really overwhelmed. 422 00:31:58,034 --> 00:31:59,517 I already had some worries 423 00:31:59,517 --> 00:32:01,586 about how he's gonna deal with the fact 424 00:32:01,586 --> 00:32:03,931 that I'm trans, but now I'm also having to worry 425 00:32:03,931 --> 00:32:07,034 about how being on a spectrum affects our relationship. 426 00:32:07,034 --> 00:32:09,000 And I feel like everywhere that we go 427 00:32:09,000 --> 00:32:10,172 this is gonna be, like, a common occurrence. 428 00:32:12,862 --> 00:32:15,241 Don't worry. I've got you in good hands. 429 00:32:15,241 --> 00:32:16,310 There are cars coming. 430 00:32:18,206 --> 00:32:20,379 Our fighting back and forth 431 00:32:20,379 --> 00:32:23,310 should not affect Liz's birthday. 432 00:32:23,310 --> 00:32:24,586 Ah! 433 00:32:24,586 --> 00:32:26,758 Let's go! 434 00:32:26,758 --> 00:32:28,931 I hope that Jasmine can see that too. 435 00:32:49,413 --> 00:32:51,379 So where are we going now? 436 00:32:53,448 --> 00:32:55,275 - Do they, like, sell, uh, like, mushrooms or something? - No. 437 00:32:57,827 --> 00:32:59,103 It's been two days 438 00:32:59,103 --> 00:33:01,310 since Christian arrived in London 439 00:33:01,310 --> 00:33:03,000 and so far things have been 440 00:33:03,000 --> 00:33:04,931 both good and bad. 441 00:33:04,931 --> 00:33:06,172 Have you ever been shopping here before? 442 00:33:06,172 --> 00:33:07,103 Yeah, definitely. 443 00:33:07,103 --> 00:33:08,827 - I come here quite often. - Right on. 444 00:33:08,827 --> 00:33:10,551 I hope we cam kinda find us a little extra 445 00:33:10,551 --> 00:33:11,379 - or something like that. - Yeah. 446 00:33:12,379 --> 00:33:14,137 Last night we had our first date. 447 00:33:14,896 --> 00:33:16,931 It didn't necessarily go well. 448 00:33:16,931 --> 00:33:19,793 When we got home, I literally passed out. 449 00:33:19,793 --> 00:33:21,103 There was not any... 450 00:33:22,137 --> 00:33:24,034 of... you know, intimacy. 451 00:33:24,034 --> 00:33:25,034 Is there anything that you like? 452 00:33:25,034 --> 00:33:25,896 I'm trying to see, like, 453 00:33:28,655 --> 00:33:29,482 Sure. 454 00:33:30,586 --> 00:33:33,931 I'm feeling disappointed that right now 455 00:33:33,931 --> 00:33:35,551 I'm just hoping that we can leave 456 00:33:35,551 --> 00:33:38,103 yesterday's date behind us 457 00:33:38,103 --> 00:33:39,620 and have a cute morning together 458 00:33:39,620 --> 00:33:41,655 exploring one of my favorite places in London. 459 00:33:45,896 --> 00:33:47,551 Oh, crystals. I love me some crystals. 460 00:33:50,034 --> 00:33:51,344 Oh my God, I've been wanting one of this 461 00:33:51,344 --> 00:33:53,034 for the longest time. 462 00:33:53,034 --> 00:33:54,793 Yeah? Right now it probably looks like you're showing... 463 00:33:54,793 --> 00:33:56,034 You're... you're honed right in on that. 464 00:33:56,310 --> 00:33:57,137 Yes. 465 00:33:59,586 --> 00:34:00,896 Sure, yeah. She went right there. 466 00:34:00,896 --> 00:34:02,689 - I probably go over here or... - So what would that be good for? 467 00:34:08,758 --> 00:34:09,586 Like, a relationship? 468 00:34:10,724 --> 00:34:12,379 Oh, I need me some of that. 469 00:34:13,896 --> 00:34:15,241 Right on. 470 00:34:15,241 --> 00:34:16,689 - Let me get it for you. I'll buy for you. - No. No baby. 471 00:34:16,689 --> 00:34:18,931 No, I'll buy for you. Something you can remember me. 472 00:34:18,931 --> 00:34:19,862 I'll buy it to you. 473 00:34:19,862 --> 00:34:20,758 - All right. - Yeah. 474 00:34:20,758 --> 00:34:21,724 Thank you. I appreciate that. 475 00:34:24,448 --> 00:34:25,275 Oh, thank you. 476 00:34:30,034 --> 00:34:31,103 - Thank you. - Yeah, absolutely. 477 00:34:32,689 --> 00:34:34,103 Cool. 478 00:34:34,103 --> 00:34:35,586 - Have a nice day. Have a good lunch. - You too. Take care. Goodbye. 479 00:34:37,206 --> 00:34:38,103 Here. 480 00:34:38,103 --> 00:34:39,689 Our first date 481 00:34:39,689 --> 00:34:41,689 wasn't exactly flawless. 482 00:34:42,620 --> 00:34:44,862 Her being autistic, she's told me 483 00:34:44,862 --> 00:34:47,482 some of the things that can affect her 484 00:34:47,482 --> 00:34:48,896 on a daily basis. 485 00:34:48,896 --> 00:34:50,241 But, being in person 486 00:34:50,241 --> 00:34:52,103 noticing these things 487 00:34:52,103 --> 00:34:54,000 and experiencing them with her, 488 00:34:54,000 --> 00:34:56,620 there's things that I need to learn more about 489 00:34:56,620 --> 00:34:58,103 and understand more about her as well. 490 00:35:06,517 --> 00:35:08,896 And maybe last night at the bar 491 00:35:08,896 --> 00:35:10,068 I was pushing her too hard 492 00:35:10,068 --> 00:35:11,482 to do something that she wasn't comfortable with. 493 00:35:12,689 --> 00:35:15,793 But I hope that we can kinda turn things around. 494 00:35:15,793 --> 00:35:17,965 I'd like to order the half-ribs. 495 00:35:17,965 --> 00:35:20,758 - She's going to get the cod and chips. - Okay. 496 00:35:20,758 --> 00:35:21,931 Because I don't want last night 497 00:35:21,931 --> 00:35:23,931 to be something that kinda overshadows 498 00:35:23,931 --> 00:35:24,793 the rest of our trip together. 499 00:35:25,448 --> 00:35:26,620 Oh, thank you. 500 00:35:26,620 --> 00:35:27,724 - Oh, wonderful. - Have fun. 501 00:35:27,724 --> 00:35:28,586 Thank you, brother. 502 00:35:30,137 --> 00:35:32,931 - All right. Well, these chips are for sharing. - Yes. 503 00:35:32,931 --> 00:35:34,931 Let me cut you a little piece of... 504 00:35:35,827 --> 00:35:36,931 There you go. 505 00:35:36,931 --> 00:35:38,000 - Let's try. You wanna feed me? - Yeah. 506 00:35:38,275 --> 00:35:39,103 Do it. 507 00:35:42,137 --> 00:35:44,413 - Mmm. - How is it? Do you like it? 508 00:35:44,413 --> 00:35:45,724 I like that a lot. I need that whole thing. 509 00:35:45,724 --> 00:35:46,827 Yeah, so you liked it a lot? 510 00:35:47,379 --> 00:35:48,586 I'm so happy. 511 00:35:48,586 --> 00:35:50,448 This is literally one of my favorite British foods so... 512 00:35:50,448 --> 00:35:52,620 - Okay, I guess probably good for a hangover too. - It's like a... Yeah. 513 00:35:53,448 --> 00:35:54,241 Oh, that's perfect today. 514 00:35:55,724 --> 00:35:57,689 - Those were huge drinks. I mean, they... - Yeah. 515 00:35:57,689 --> 00:35:59,275 They're pretty heavy handed on the porch there. 516 00:36:01,103 --> 00:36:02,655 It felt like, you know, when we got there, 517 00:36:02,655 --> 00:36:04,482 we're having a good time, we're getting to know each other, 518 00:36:04,482 --> 00:36:05,413 you know, out and about. 519 00:36:05,413 --> 00:36:07,034 And, I would say, they were, um... 520 00:36:07,034 --> 00:36:08,827 Just seemed like you were really overwhelmed. 521 00:36:10,862 --> 00:36:12,068 Maybe it's just me being... 522 00:36:12,689 --> 00:36:14,241 cliche or... 523 00:36:15,586 --> 00:36:17,862 I don't know, boring or whatever, 524 00:36:17,862 --> 00:36:19,034 but I feel, 525 00:36:19,034 --> 00:36:21,206 like, a first date with a girl, 526 00:36:21,206 --> 00:36:24,862 you kind of wanna make it about you two. 527 00:36:24,862 --> 00:36:27,379 And you felt the need 528 00:36:27,379 --> 00:36:28,586 to make it about 529 00:36:28,586 --> 00:36:31,206 - a larger group of girls. - But I didn't. 530 00:36:31,206 --> 00:36:33,689 I didn't... I didn't care about talking to those girls. 531 00:36:33,689 --> 00:36:35,241 You know, like I don't want you to feel like 532 00:36:35,241 --> 00:36:36,517 I was giving you, like, the cold shoulder. 533 00:36:38,448 --> 00:36:39,896 But you didn't not really include me 534 00:36:39,896 --> 00:36:42,206 in the conversation other than mentioning my name. 535 00:36:45,448 --> 00:36:47,379 I wouldn't go on a first date with you 536 00:36:47,379 --> 00:36:50,137 and then start talking to, like, a group of dudes 537 00:36:50,137 --> 00:36:51,172 and sit next to them 538 00:36:51,172 --> 00:36:54,000 and tell them I'm from Italy and everything 539 00:36:54,000 --> 00:36:56,068 when I'm literally there to get to know you. 540 00:36:56,896 --> 00:36:58,379 I get that. 541 00:36:58,379 --> 00:37:00,103 I mean, I... I feel kind of stupid. 542 00:37:02,413 --> 00:37:04,137 Of course, I already had some worries 543 00:37:04,137 --> 00:37:05,310 about how, 544 00:37:05,310 --> 00:37:07,620 you know, he's gonna deal with the fact that I am trans 545 00:37:07,620 --> 00:37:09,068 but now I'm also having to worry 546 00:37:09,068 --> 00:37:11,448 about how being on the spectrum 547 00:37:11,448 --> 00:37:13,793 affects our relationship and I fear 548 00:37:13,793 --> 00:37:15,275 that if I let him know 549 00:37:15,275 --> 00:37:16,689 that I wasn't 100 per cent comfortable 550 00:37:16,689 --> 00:37:17,724 in that place, 551 00:37:17,724 --> 00:37:19,655 I could turn him off. 552 00:37:19,655 --> 00:37:21,206 You know, at some point through the night 553 00:37:21,206 --> 00:37:22,413 I did have a good time. 554 00:37:23,758 --> 00:37:26,137 I just did not like the place... 555 00:37:26,137 --> 00:37:29,896 and I feel that was, like, the biggest issue for me. 556 00:37:29,896 --> 00:37:31,827 Those parts which I really enjoy, 557 00:37:31,827 --> 00:37:34,586 because there's more freeway and you can move around. 558 00:37:34,586 --> 00:37:38,551 But that place was so tiny and claustrophobic. 559 00:37:38,551 --> 00:37:39,413 Sure. 560 00:37:41,068 --> 00:37:42,310 I was kinda worried the date would 561 00:37:42,310 --> 00:37:44,655 damper on the rest of our trip, in a way. 562 00:37:44,655 --> 00:37:46,931 - Why? - I don't know. I... I... I feel like 563 00:37:46,931 --> 00:37:49,379 you'd have fears that everywhere that we go 564 00:37:49,379 --> 00:37:50,724 this is gonna be, like, a common occurrence 565 00:37:50,724 --> 00:37:52,551 or might be hesitant to go out 566 00:37:52,551 --> 00:37:53,620 to a place again with me. 567 00:37:55,172 --> 00:37:57,931 But, like, the way you feel... 568 00:37:57,931 --> 00:37:59,206 like, it matters to me too. 569 00:38:06,241 --> 00:38:08,724 Like, I... I wanna make sure 570 00:38:08,724 --> 00:38:10,379 you're able to experience as much of the things 571 00:38:10,379 --> 00:38:11,379 that you would want to. 572 00:38:22,310 --> 00:38:23,310 I'm sensitive. 573 00:38:23,310 --> 00:38:26,172 I can be very picky about certain things. 574 00:38:31,517 --> 00:38:34,551 This trip isn't just about me, it's about us. 575 00:38:34,551 --> 00:38:36,103 I didn't come here to just go see London 576 00:38:36,103 --> 00:38:37,827 and have you join me 577 00:38:37,827 --> 00:38:39,206 you know, as my arm candy. 578 00:38:39,206 --> 00:38:40,896 You know, I came here to have a good time with you. 579 00:38:42,551 --> 00:38:44,724 I just want you to be happy and I... 580 00:38:44,724 --> 00:38:46,448 I am. I mean, this has been fun. 581 00:38:46,448 --> 00:38:47,310 This has been nice. 582 00:38:49,379 --> 00:38:52,137 I like Christian and, of course, I hope 583 00:38:52,137 --> 00:38:53,275 that things will work out. 584 00:38:53,965 --> 00:38:55,275 But I do worry 585 00:38:55,275 --> 00:38:57,827 whether this is all proving to be a little too much for him. 586 00:38:59,379 --> 00:39:00,482 You're not gonna dampen my sparkle 587 00:39:00,482 --> 00:39:02,344 by just being who you are, you know, and telling me 588 00:39:02,344 --> 00:39:03,586 that something's uncomfortable for you. 589 00:39:05,275 --> 00:39:07,206 Last night I have learnt something about you 590 00:39:07,206 --> 00:39:10,620 and, like, going forward, it's definitely gonna be 591 00:39:10,620 --> 00:39:11,793 a situation that I'm not gonna forget. 592 00:39:14,241 --> 00:39:15,275 It... It's trial and error. 593 00:39:27,448 --> 00:39:29,206 Oh! 594 00:39:37,724 --> 00:39:40,586 Coco, take care of the house. 595 00:39:40,586 --> 00:39:43,551 All right, so let's go have a good birthday for Liz. 596 00:39:43,551 --> 00:39:45,413 - She deserves it. - Yes, I know. 597 00:39:46,241 --> 00:39:47,034 All right. 598 00:39:53,689 --> 00:39:54,896 Do you feel one... 599 00:39:54,896 --> 00:39:56,206 one year wiser now? 600 00:39:59,586 --> 00:40:00,862 What? 601 00:40:00,862 --> 00:40:03,379 Do you feel... But may be you can tell her, but... 602 00:40:03,379 --> 00:40:05,379 Do you feel one... one year wiser? 603 00:40:14,793 --> 00:40:16,275 Oh, it's just a saying. 604 00:40:22,034 --> 00:40:23,413 I've had a lot of time 605 00:40:23,413 --> 00:40:25,068 to think about what happened 606 00:40:25,068 --> 00:40:26,758 this morning at the jewelry store. 607 00:40:27,965 --> 00:40:31,862 And Jasmine's behavior was not okay today. 608 00:40:31,862 --> 00:40:33,689 But, you know, I've been reflecting 609 00:40:33,689 --> 00:40:35,758 on myself and I believe 610 00:40:35,758 --> 00:40:37,000 I could have handled it better. 611 00:40:40,896 --> 00:40:42,586 I feel like I'm the president or something in this car. 612 00:40:43,758 --> 00:40:45,620 I just reacted to her anger 613 00:40:45,620 --> 00:40:47,068 with, you know, anger of my own, 614 00:40:47,586 --> 00:40:48,896 which is exactly 615 00:40:48,896 --> 00:40:51,448 what the therapist told me not to do. 616 00:40:51,448 --> 00:40:53,103 So I really don't know 617 00:40:53,103 --> 00:40:54,862 where I stand with Jasmine right now 618 00:40:54,862 --> 00:40:57,172 but our fighting back and forth 619 00:40:57,172 --> 00:41:00,517 should not affect Liz's birthday. 620 00:41:00,517 --> 00:41:02,827 And I hope that Jasmine can see that too. 621 00:41:04,862 --> 00:41:06,827 Are you, uh, excited to ride the bicycles? 622 00:41:08,862 --> 00:41:10,000 What do you call this, the causeway? 623 00:41:12,862 --> 00:41:14,344 Yes, this is a causeway. 624 00:41:15,551 --> 00:41:17,068 How come you never took me here? 625 00:41:18,379 --> 00:41:20,586 Gino, we just came here a few days ago. 626 00:41:22,310 --> 00:41:23,482 How you don't remember? 627 00:41:24,275 --> 00:41:25,068 Uh-huh. 628 00:41:27,000 --> 00:41:27,931 Sure it was me? 629 00:41:31,344 --> 00:41:32,758 I'm still mad at Gino 630 00:41:32,758 --> 00:41:34,172 for the argument we have 631 00:41:34,172 --> 00:41:35,517 this morning at the jewelry store. 632 00:41:36,448 --> 00:41:37,551 It is one thing 633 00:41:37,551 --> 00:41:40,000 that he doesn't wanna spend money on the ring, 634 00:41:40,586 --> 00:41:42,413 but it is another thing 635 00:41:42,413 --> 00:41:44,931 refusing to pay for an immigration lawyer. 636 00:41:46,103 --> 00:41:48,586 It feels like Gino has no urgency 637 00:41:48,586 --> 00:41:50,517 to bring me to United States. 638 00:41:50,517 --> 00:41:52,758 So I feel like I'm more invested 639 00:41:52,758 --> 00:41:54,793 on this relationship than he is. 640 00:41:57,034 --> 00:41:58,241 We're here. 641 00:42:02,379 --> 00:42:04,689 Even though I'm still mad at Gino, 642 00:42:04,689 --> 00:42:06,586 it's my sister's birthday 643 00:42:06,586 --> 00:42:09,724 and she deserve to have a good evening. 644 00:42:09,724 --> 00:42:11,586 So now I just wanna have fun. 645 00:42:13,275 --> 00:42:15,310 These are such cool little bikes. 646 00:42:16,758 --> 00:42:17,758 - Oh! - I like this one. 647 00:42:19,206 --> 00:42:22,724 - Uh, Liz can go in - Yeah. 648 00:42:22,724 --> 00:42:25,241 - Okay. - If you want to, you know, 649 00:42:25,241 --> 00:42:27,206 you can even paddle, paddle to help us. 650 00:42:28,379 --> 00:42:30,862 Wait, don't go without me. 651 00:42:30,862 --> 00:42:32,482 Wait. 652 00:42:35,068 --> 00:42:36,034 You ready? 653 00:42:38,379 --> 00:42:40,896 Uh, don't worry, I've got you in good hands. 654 00:42:40,896 --> 00:42:42,344 You're in good hands. 655 00:42:42,344 --> 00:42:44,896 you got Liz. Fire power. Good hands, I was just... 656 00:42:44,896 --> 00:42:47,827 hit by a branch. 657 00:42:47,827 --> 00:42:51,172 I'm glad I'm with someone like you that has strong legs. 658 00:42:51,172 --> 00:42:53,586 All right, ready, let's go. It's gonna cross this. 659 00:42:53,586 --> 00:42:54,655 Are you sure about... 660 00:42:55,448 --> 00:42:56,758 You have-- We have-- 661 00:42:56,758 --> 00:42:58,551 - Babe-- Babe, there are cars coming. - Don't worry. 662 00:42:59,862 --> 00:43:01,620 - Go ahead. - You have the brakes. 663 00:43:03,551 --> 00:43:05,793 Let's go. 664 00:43:09,103 --> 00:43:10,689 - Ah! - Let's go. 665 00:43:10,689 --> 00:43:13,310 Whoo! 666 00:43:14,241 --> 00:43:16,551 Is this fun or what? 667 00:43:17,103 --> 00:43:18,241 Eh. 668 00:43:21,413 --> 00:43:24,103 Babe-- Gino, if you're tired, let me know. 669 00:43:24,103 --> 00:43:26,310 I don't want you to have a heart attack. 670 00:43:26,310 --> 00:43:31,034 Baby, you think I'm some kind of old, shriveled up prune. 671 00:43:31,034 --> 00:43:32,896 - Yes, you never have-- - I'm not. 672 00:43:32,896 --> 00:43:34,931 But you have-- never have conditions for sex. 673 00:43:34,931 --> 00:43:36,758 Why would you have for riding bike? 674 00:43:36,758 --> 00:43:38,551 I don't have what? 675 00:43:38,551 --> 00:43:43,103 - You never have good physical condition for sex. - Yes, I do. 676 00:43:43,103 --> 00:43:45,862 - I'm always in condition, you always orgas-- - Why-- 677 00:43:45,862 --> 00:43:46,896 Now, um... 678 00:43:46,896 --> 00:43:48,827 Baby, that's something we need to talk about. 679 00:43:50,655 --> 00:43:51,482 Why? 680 00:43:53,586 --> 00:43:54,724 Okay, just for the record, 681 00:43:55,724 --> 00:43:57,310 when we have sex, 682 00:43:57,310 --> 00:43:59,275 I have never had an orgasm with you. 683 00:44:01,482 --> 00:44:02,793 Yes, you have. 684 00:44:02,793 --> 00:44:03,896 - I-- - I fake it. 685 00:44:05,482 --> 00:44:06,551 No, you don't. I-- 686 00:44:06,551 --> 00:44:07,827 - I fake it. - No, you don't. 687 00:44:07,827 --> 00:44:09,103 I swear to God. 688 00:44:09,103 --> 00:44:10,034 No, you don't. 689 00:44:10,034 --> 00:44:12,689 I fake my orgasms, I'm telling you. 690 00:44:12,689 --> 00:44:14,034 Why are you... 691 00:44:14,034 --> 00:44:16,103 What? 692 00:44:23,965 --> 00:44:27,275 This is the mood that I was hoping for tonight. 693 00:44:27,275 --> 00:44:30,448 Liz and Jasmine are laughing, smiling. 694 00:44:31,068 --> 00:44:32,034 Let's go. 695 00:44:32,034 --> 00:44:34,965 It's moments like this that prove that 696 00:44:34,965 --> 00:44:36,793 we can put our differences aside 697 00:44:36,793 --> 00:44:39,034 and have a good time together. 698 00:44:40,620 --> 00:44:42,448 Oh, no. 699 00:44:42,448 --> 00:44:44,000 Did we cause that? 700 00:44:44,862 --> 00:44:45,689 Is that our fault? 701 00:44:48,000 --> 00:44:50,620 Whoo! I love this thing. 702 00:45:18,241 --> 00:45:19,689 I mean, this is like the point in the evening 703 00:45:19,689 --> 00:45:22,275 where, you know, you put on the baby making playlist. 704 00:45:22,275 --> 00:45:24,206 - Baby making? - Yeah. 705 00:45:24,206 --> 00:45:26,241 Not sure how that's gonna work with me. 706 00:45:26,862 --> 00:45:27,896 I feel like, you know, 707 00:45:27,896 --> 00:45:29,103 things are a little bit more awkward 708 00:45:29,103 --> 00:45:32,068 because I've never been with a trans woman before. 709 00:45:32,068 --> 00:45:34,517 Are we gonna be compatible intimately? 710 00:45:35,068 --> 00:45:35,896 I mean, I think... 711 00:50:53,172 --> 00:50:54,068 Mmm. 712 00:52:04,000 --> 00:52:05,034 Hi. 713 00:52:05,034 --> 00:52:06,413 - Yeah, yeah. - You hugging? 714 00:52:06,413 --> 00:52:07,827 - Sure. - Oh, my God. 715 00:52:07,827 --> 00:52:11,103 Ben is my friend, I love him very much. 716 00:52:11,103 --> 00:52:12,241 I'm feeling nervous, 717 00:52:12,241 --> 00:52:14,448 because I can't imagine being with someone 718 00:52:14,448 --> 00:52:16,000 that Ben doesn't get along with. 719 00:52:17,931 --> 00:52:20,275 Dating app. I like, uh, English girls. 720 00:52:45,310 --> 00:52:47,103 - This is the farm. - Yeah. 721 00:52:47,103 --> 00:52:48,862 Is it as cold as you thought? 722 00:52:48,862 --> 00:52:52,137 It's colder. Yeah, a lot colder. 723 00:52:52,137 --> 00:52:55,931 Everything's different, huh? - Yeah. 724 00:52:55,931 --> 00:52:59,586 Statler seems a little bit nervous about the caravan. 725 00:52:59,586 --> 00:53:01,344 I think that she has this perception 726 00:53:01,344 --> 00:53:04,310 that it's just like a dirty little farm that stinks. 727 00:53:04,827 --> 00:53:05,862 And, uh, 728 00:53:05,862 --> 00:53:09,482 it's actually a very beautiful place to live. 729 00:53:09,482 --> 00:53:12,586 And people from all over England come and stay. 730 00:53:12,586 --> 00:53:14,000 It's stunning. 731 00:53:14,000 --> 00:53:17,241 So I'm super excited to show Statler around the farm, 732 00:53:17,241 --> 00:53:18,517 introduce her to people, 733 00:53:18,517 --> 00:53:22,172 and get to know a bit more about my life, 734 00:53:22,172 --> 00:53:24,344 and my way of living. 735 00:53:24,344 --> 00:53:26,275 There's like, some smoke coming out of there. 736 00:53:26,275 --> 00:53:27,275 - What is that? - Oh, yeah. 737 00:53:27,275 --> 00:53:28,379 So that's the containers. 738 00:53:28,379 --> 00:53:30,931 That's like, the staycation, where the people stay. 739 00:53:30,931 --> 00:53:32,310 The guest's in there. 740 00:53:32,310 --> 00:53:34,448 - Wow, that's nice. - And like, they have hot tubs. 741 00:53:34,448 --> 00:53:36,000 - That's really cool. - Yeah, it's really cool. 742 00:53:37,379 --> 00:53:38,724 A typical day for me, 743 00:53:38,724 --> 00:53:41,137 I would get up around 5:30, 744 00:53:41,137 --> 00:53:43,172 clean like, the containers. 745 00:53:43,172 --> 00:53:46,482 So I do like, housekeeping, I do the cooking. 746 00:53:46,482 --> 00:53:48,310 I love cooking. 747 00:53:48,310 --> 00:53:50,620 - So excited for you to see in here. - So-- 748 00:53:50,620 --> 00:53:52,275 - Yeah. - It's such a cool space. 749 00:53:55,172 --> 00:53:56,310 After you. 750 00:53:56,310 --> 00:53:58,758 Wow, this is really modern. 751 00:53:58,758 --> 00:54:00,482 Yeah, it's cool, isn't it? 752 00:54:00,482 --> 00:54:01,896 Yeah, very cool. 753 00:54:01,896 --> 00:54:03,241 This is like, a chill out area. 754 00:54:03,241 --> 00:54:06,344 So in-- in-- on the night time, I come in here, 755 00:54:06,344 --> 00:54:07,620 talk to the guests, 756 00:54:07,620 --> 00:54:08,931 and we like, make pizzas. 757 00:54:08,931 --> 00:54:11,344 Well, I make pizzas. The guests eat the pizzas. 758 00:54:11,344 --> 00:54:13,000 Ah, very nice. 759 00:54:13,000 --> 00:54:16,241 And then, this space is super cool, in here. 760 00:54:16,241 --> 00:54:17,758 Yeah, we can play pool in here. 761 00:54:17,758 --> 00:54:19,827 The guests come in here and play pool. 762 00:54:19,827 --> 00:54:22,241 - Nice. - Jenga, and then the TV. 763 00:54:22,241 --> 00:54:24,034 - You like it? - Yeah, it's awesome. 764 00:54:25,172 --> 00:54:26,965 - Ben! - Oh, my God. 765 00:54:26,965 --> 00:54:28,068 - Hi. - Dempsey, you look good. 766 00:54:28,068 --> 00:54:29,172 - Yes. - Long time. 767 00:54:34,275 --> 00:54:35,827 I've missed them hugs. 768 00:54:39,034 --> 00:54:40,137 - Hi. - Statler. 769 00:54:40,137 --> 00:54:41,034 - This is-- Yeah, this is Statler - Yeah. 770 00:54:41,034 --> 00:54:42,241 - You hugging? - Yeah, sure, sure. 771 00:54:42,241 --> 00:54:43,448 - Hi-- How are you-- - Oh, my God. How you doing? 772 00:54:43,448 --> 00:54:44,517 - You all right? - How are you? Yeah, good. How are you? 773 00:54:44,517 --> 00:54:46,517 - How's things? - Yeah, good, you know. 774 00:54:47,241 --> 00:54:49,310 Ben is my friend. 775 00:54:49,310 --> 00:54:52,344 He owns the company where I work. 776 00:54:52,344 --> 00:54:55,068 He's like a main character in my life, 777 00:54:55,068 --> 00:54:56,758 I love him very much. 778 00:54:56,758 --> 00:54:59,896 He's seen me go through, through a lot. 779 00:54:59,896 --> 00:55:02,310 So I'm feeling nervous at this point, 780 00:55:02,310 --> 00:55:06,482 because I know that Statler can be quiet and awkward at times. 781 00:55:06,482 --> 00:55:08,034 And I can't imagine being with someone 782 00:55:08,034 --> 00:55:09,448 that Ben doesn't get along with. 783 00:55:11,068 --> 00:55:11,931 Ah. 784 00:55:11,931 --> 00:55:12,965 So where are you actually from? 785 00:55:12,965 --> 00:55:13,896 You're obviously from the States, 786 00:55:13,896 --> 00:55:15,137 I can hear you've got a bit of a twang. 787 00:55:15,137 --> 00:55:16,413 Yeah. 788 00:55:16,413 --> 00:55:17,758 - You've got a little bit of an accent. - Ah. 789 00:55:17,758 --> 00:55:19,103 Yeah, I'm from Texas. 790 00:55:19,103 --> 00:55:21,379 - No way. - Yeah, yeah. 791 00:55:21,379 --> 00:55:24,482 So, you guys, how did you exactly meet? 792 00:55:24,482 --> 00:55:26,931 Uh, dating app. Yeah. 793 00:55:26,931 --> 00:55:29,034 - No way. - I like, uh, English girls. 794 00:55:31,310 --> 00:55:33,724 So you came all the way here just to see Dempsey? 795 00:55:33,724 --> 00:55:35,655 Just for her, yeah. 796 00:55:35,655 --> 00:55:38,241 - Wow. - I think it was just the-- the last thing, you know? 797 00:55:38,241 --> 00:55:40,931 'Cause our-- our conversations are going so well, 798 00:55:40,931 --> 00:55:42,620 - the emotional thing was there. - Mmm-hmm. 799 00:55:42,620 --> 00:55:44,551 So it was just the physical thing that was missing and-- 800 00:55:44,551 --> 00:55:45,551 Sure. 801 00:55:45,551 --> 00:55:46,896 She blushes a lot, doesn't she? 802 00:55:46,896 --> 00:55:48,137 And she's also fidgeting an awful lot 803 00:55:48,137 --> 00:55:49,344 - with her scarf. - Yeah. 804 00:55:49,344 --> 00:55:50,931 So it means you've already had the physical already. 805 00:55:50,931 --> 00:55:52,413 - And you've been here for... - Ben. 806 00:55:52,413 --> 00:55:54,000 What, I'm just saying like, 807 00:55:54,000 --> 00:55:56,103 you've only been here a day and you're already physical. 808 00:55:56,103 --> 00:55:57,379 Like, it's mad. 809 00:55:57,379 --> 00:55:59,551 Like, I'm a fast mover, but like. 810 00:56:01,310 --> 00:56:03,172 Well, one thing lead to another. 811 00:56:03,172 --> 00:56:05,103 - We had a little kiss and then it just... - I get that. 812 00:56:07,068 --> 00:56:09,655 I actually haven't seen Dempsey this excited in a long time. 813 00:56:09,655 --> 00:56:11,724 - But like-- Yeah. - Oh, wow, well, that's a good sign, isn't it? 814 00:56:11,724 --> 00:56:14,172 You're like, super like, cool, poker face, calm and collected, 815 00:56:14,172 --> 00:56:16,068 - hands in pockets, like, just... - Yeah. 816 00:56:16,068 --> 00:56:18,241 And Dempsey's just like, fun around everywhere. 817 00:56:20,206 --> 00:56:21,827 A cyber relationship. 818 00:56:21,827 --> 00:56:23,793 I think it-- I think it's nuts, for me. 819 00:56:23,793 --> 00:56:26,482 Nevermind different countries overseas. 820 00:56:26,482 --> 00:56:29,862 And plus, I'm super surprised that they hooked up. 821 00:56:29,862 --> 00:56:31,310 Statler's super different to Dempsey. 822 00:56:31,310 --> 00:56:34,482 Like, I would say they are chalk and cheese. 823 00:56:35,965 --> 00:56:37,448 Chalk and cheese. 824 00:56:37,448 --> 00:56:39,137 So chalk, as in like a whiteboard, 825 00:56:39,137 --> 00:56:40,068 chalking, 826 00:56:40,068 --> 00:56:41,724 and cheese, as in like cheese you'd eat. 827 00:56:41,724 --> 00:56:44,379 So basically, they're just two opposites to each other. 828 00:56:44,379 --> 00:56:46,551 I mean, Dempsey looks super happy, 829 00:56:46,551 --> 00:56:49,034 but they've been chatting online for like, however long, 830 00:56:49,034 --> 00:56:50,793 and then they've hung out for two days. 831 00:56:50,793 --> 00:56:52,172 You can't be fully sure of someone 832 00:56:52,172 --> 00:56:54,862 when you've only known someone for 48 hours. 833 00:56:54,862 --> 00:56:56,689 Give it a week, give it two weeks' time. 834 00:56:56,689 --> 00:56:57,689 Things may be very different. 835 00:56:59,137 --> 00:57:00,137 How was Thailand, by the way? 836 00:57:00,137 --> 00:57:01,379 Ah, I absolutely loved it. 837 00:57:01,379 --> 00:57:03,827 - It's so nice, yeah. - How'd you get on? 838 00:57:03,827 --> 00:57:06,241 Things were going good, my dad left, 839 00:57:06,241 --> 00:57:09,034 made my way up North to Chiang Mai. 840 00:57:09,034 --> 00:57:10,896 - Stayed in, like, the hostels and stuff... - Yeah? 841 00:57:10,896 --> 00:57:11,965 ...making friends. 842 00:57:14,724 --> 00:57:17,586 What did you think to Dempsey being in Thailand for so long? 843 00:57:17,586 --> 00:57:19,586 Did you chat to her much? You keep in touch, or... 844 00:57:22,206 --> 00:57:25,724 Ah, the communication was kind of crappy towards the end, 845 00:57:25,724 --> 00:57:28,241 but she was living her best life, so... 846 00:57:28,241 --> 00:57:30,206 - Yeah, definitely, you've gotta let her be. - Yeah. 847 00:57:33,586 --> 00:57:35,586 The communication being off in Thailand 848 00:57:35,586 --> 00:57:38,344 did make me feel pretty rejected. 849 00:57:38,344 --> 00:57:41,620 I felt like she was, you know, just wild and free and... 850 00:57:41,620 --> 00:57:42,724 It makes me kind of question, like, 851 00:57:42,724 --> 00:57:44,275 did some stuff happen there? 852 00:57:45,379 --> 00:57:47,896 I do still feel insecure. 853 00:57:47,896 --> 00:57:51,172 So I'm trying to work up my nerves to ask her tonight. 854 00:57:51,172 --> 00:57:53,103 But I'm feeling pretty anxious about it. 855 00:57:55,379 --> 00:57:57,103 I haven't seen Dempsey for so long either, 856 00:57:57,103 --> 00:57:58,448 - and obviously like-- - I missed you. 857 00:57:58,448 --> 00:57:59,689 - Come here, you. - Mmm. 858 00:57:59,689 --> 00:58:00,758 And then, uh, 859 00:58:00,758 --> 00:58:02,000 obviously now, I was thinking that-- 860 00:58:02,000 --> 00:58:03,103 I was expecting her to be happy, 861 00:58:03,103 --> 00:58:04,000 'cause she's been away. 862 00:58:04,000 --> 00:58:05,310 - I've never been happier. - Not this happy. 863 00:58:06,000 --> 00:58:07,103 Oh. 864 00:58:07,103 --> 00:58:09,103 - That's good. - Yeah. 865 00:58:12,724 --> 00:58:14,482 Typically, I'm the guy who waits for the girl 866 00:58:14,482 --> 00:58:16,758 - to make the first move, like... - Oh. 867 00:58:16,758 --> 00:58:19,000 Christian has always been very forward, 868 00:58:19,000 --> 00:58:20,172 and you know, flirtatious. 869 00:58:20,172 --> 00:58:22,344 So, for him to now say that 870 00:58:22,344 --> 00:58:24,000 he's somebody who likes to wait, 871 00:58:24,517 --> 00:58:25,758 I don't buy it. 872 00:58:25,758 --> 00:58:28,275 Like, if I go in for a kiss, and the girl like, denies it, 873 00:58:28,275 --> 00:58:29,827 like, I feel like, really crushed. 874 00:58:29,827 --> 00:58:31,448 Well, we've kissed before. 875 00:58:34,517 --> 00:58:36,241 She's beautiful, but she's crazy. 876 00:58:36,241 --> 00:58:37,551 She's-- 877 00:58:38,896 --> 00:58:40,482 Okay. 878 00:58:40,482 --> 00:58:42,758 At this moment, I don't know where we're at. 879 00:58:42,758 --> 00:58:44,896 And last night, I wanted to take a flight home. 880 00:58:44,896 --> 00:58:46,827 I got very angry and I blocked her. 881 00:58:46,827 --> 00:58:49,172 Come on. You need to apologize. 882 00:58:49,172 --> 00:58:52,000 - Yeah, I mean-- - She should be the one who blocking you. 883 00:59:01,896 --> 00:59:04,793 ♪ You are the one That makes me feel young ♪ 884 00:59:04,793 --> 00:59:07,103 ♪ You are the one for me ♪ 885 00:59:11,172 --> 00:59:12,344 - I do, I found it. - Oh, cool. 886 00:59:15,172 --> 00:59:16,655 Might bust the candles out. 887 00:59:16,655 --> 00:59:19,551 - I'll just make it like, a little more romantic. - Oh. 888 00:59:19,551 --> 00:59:21,689 I mean, this is probably like the point in the evening 889 00:59:21,689 --> 00:59:22,689 where, you know, you put on the-- 890 00:59:22,689 --> 00:59:24,379 like the sexy sex music. 891 00:59:24,379 --> 00:59:27,689 Do we have any sexy sex music? 892 00:59:30,931 --> 00:59:33,275 - That'd be kind of weird, wouldn't it? - Yeah. 893 00:59:33,275 --> 00:59:35,724 No, I do not have like, a baby making playlist. 894 00:59:36,482 --> 00:59:37,827 Baby making? 895 00:59:37,827 --> 00:59:39,448 Yeah, you know, something special, 896 00:59:39,448 --> 00:59:41,310 some cute music to play. 897 00:59:41,310 --> 00:59:43,724 Not sure how that's gonna work with me. 898 00:59:43,724 --> 00:59:45,103 Uh-- oh, really? Okay. 899 00:59:45,103 --> 00:59:47,448 That's good to know. Noted. Um... 900 00:59:47,448 --> 00:59:48,482 I'm gonna grab the candles, too. 901 00:59:48,482 --> 00:59:50,000 Gotta find a lighter. 902 00:59:50,689 --> 00:59:51,517 Cool. 903 00:59:58,517 --> 01:00:01,862 - Here's the bottle, ma'am. - Nice. 904 01:00:01,862 --> 01:00:04,310 I really wanna do something special just for the two of us. 905 01:00:04,310 --> 01:00:06,551 So I suggested that we stay in tonight, 906 01:00:06,551 --> 01:00:08,275 and hopefully fix some mistakes 907 01:00:08,275 --> 01:00:09,448 that we had last night. 908 01:00:10,896 --> 01:00:12,103 Cheers to... 909 01:00:12,103 --> 01:00:14,137 - A romantic night in. Yeah. - ...a romantic night in. 910 01:00:16,896 --> 01:00:18,310 So what should we do? 911 01:00:18,310 --> 01:00:22,344 Well, I actually did bring something kind of special, 912 01:00:22,344 --> 01:00:25,310 something that maybe you haven't experienced before. 913 01:00:25,310 --> 01:00:27,310 Oh, seems nice. 914 01:00:27,310 --> 01:00:29,000 Gotta go upstairs, I will be right back. 915 01:00:32,137 --> 01:00:34,068 We're having this cozy night in, 916 01:00:34,068 --> 01:00:37,137 you know, it's more intimate, we can actually talk, 917 01:00:37,137 --> 01:00:38,965 and not having the pressure 918 01:00:38,965 --> 01:00:41,172 of being surrounded by a lot of people. 919 01:00:41,172 --> 01:00:44,103 So, this is definitely feeling more like, 920 01:00:44,103 --> 01:00:47,379 a first date to me than yesterday. 921 01:00:47,379 --> 01:00:50,103 So I would be open to him making the first move, 922 01:00:50,103 --> 01:00:51,620 and I hope he does. 923 01:00:54,448 --> 01:00:55,551 Ooh, what's that? 924 01:00:56,241 --> 01:00:57,793 Okay, so, 925 01:00:57,793 --> 01:01:02,448 this is VR headset. 926 01:01:02,448 --> 01:01:05,000 - I've never ever tried VR before. - Very cool. 927 01:01:05,000 --> 01:01:06,793 It's like, really techy, really cool. 928 01:01:07,931 --> 01:01:10,551 I brought my VR headset with me. 929 01:01:10,551 --> 01:01:13,206 Having her experience VR for the first time, 930 01:01:13,206 --> 01:01:15,896 is definitely something that brings us back 931 01:01:15,896 --> 01:01:18,172 to when we were first starting to talk. 932 01:01:18,172 --> 01:01:19,758 We both enjoy video games a whole lot, 933 01:01:19,758 --> 01:01:23,000 and I think it's really romantic sharing hobbies together, 934 01:01:23,000 --> 01:01:24,689 or things that we both find interesting. 935 01:01:26,655 --> 01:01:28,275 - Oh, my God. - Okay, stay right here, don't move. 936 01:01:28,275 --> 01:01:29,344 - All right. - No-- No matter what, 937 01:01:29,344 --> 01:01:31,965 nothing can hurt you, it's not real. 938 01:01:31,965 --> 01:01:34,862 It's hard to believe when it's literally 3D. 939 01:01:38,310 --> 01:01:40,758 Why does it not die? 940 01:01:40,758 --> 01:01:41,793 Well, they're zombies. 941 01:01:45,413 --> 01:01:46,206 Good shot. 942 01:01:47,068 --> 01:01:48,517 You're crack shot, babe. 943 01:01:50,896 --> 01:01:52,586 It's so much fun. 944 01:01:52,586 --> 01:01:53,931 It's incredible, 945 01:01:53,931 --> 01:01:55,655 It literally feels like reality, 946 01:01:55,655 --> 01:01:58,103 but with less detail... 947 01:02:01,275 --> 01:02:03,172 ...which makes it less overwhelming. 948 01:02:03,172 --> 01:02:06,517 But I actually think virtual reality was really cool for me. 949 01:02:06,862 --> 01:02:08,413 Very nice. 950 01:02:08,413 --> 01:02:10,000 There you go. Shoot 'em right in the face. 951 01:02:10,000 --> 01:02:12,103 Yep. Yeah, you're doing really good. 952 01:02:12,103 --> 01:02:14,241 - Like, I'm just having a good time. - Cool. 953 01:02:20,103 --> 01:02:21,551 - Actually, you look-- You look kind of cool. - All right. 954 01:02:23,827 --> 01:02:25,241 Oh, that sucks. 955 01:02:26,034 --> 01:02:27,689 I think I did pretty well, 956 01:02:27,689 --> 01:02:29,482 'cause I got to like, the next stage. 957 01:02:29,482 --> 01:02:30,724 Yeah, you did pretty good. 958 01:02:30,724 --> 01:02:32,241 - You got a little-- - My hair looks really crazy, yeah. 959 01:02:32,241 --> 01:02:33,344 No, your hair looks fine. 960 01:02:33,344 --> 01:02:35,310 It's just, your face is a little red. 961 01:02:35,793 --> 01:02:36,620 Cool. 962 01:02:37,827 --> 01:02:39,965 - Let's cheers to a good day now. - That's right. 963 01:02:48,000 --> 01:02:49,620 There are times where I feel like, 964 01:02:49,620 --> 01:02:50,793 you know, things are a little bit more awkward 965 01:02:50,793 --> 01:02:51,862 than they should be. 966 01:02:51,862 --> 01:02:54,758 And a lot of that stems just from the pressure 967 01:02:54,758 --> 01:02:58,551 that I'm putting on myself to finally be intimate. 968 01:02:58,551 --> 01:02:59,793 Babe? 969 01:02:59,793 --> 01:03:01,413 I'm just getting changed, I'll be out in a second. 970 01:03:02,793 --> 01:03:05,034 But I really wanna take things slow, 971 01:03:05,034 --> 01:03:08,068 because I've never been with a trans woman before. 972 01:03:08,068 --> 01:03:11,000 Are we gonna be compatible intimately? 973 01:03:11,000 --> 01:03:13,068 Am I gonna be comfortable with her anatomy? 974 01:03:13,068 --> 01:03:15,206 I just don't know how that's all gonna go. 975 01:03:15,206 --> 01:03:17,517 So, if we were to rush into intimacy, 976 01:03:17,517 --> 01:03:20,206 and I wasn't comfortable with it, 977 01:03:20,206 --> 01:03:22,000 or she wasn't comfortable with it, 978 01:03:22,000 --> 01:03:24,310 I don't want it to be, you know, be a deal breaker. 979 01:03:32,896 --> 01:03:34,000 Oh, you look cute. 980 01:03:34,000 --> 01:03:36,172 - Can you give a little twirl? - Sure. 981 01:03:37,068 --> 01:03:38,689 - Thanks. - You look cute, too. 982 01:03:38,689 --> 01:03:40,724 Thank you. 983 01:03:40,724 --> 01:03:41,724 - Cool. - Yeah. 984 01:03:48,758 --> 01:03:50,517 - How do you-- - What up? 985 01:03:50,517 --> 01:03:51,758 Huh? 986 01:03:51,758 --> 01:03:53,206 - What up? - Nothing, nothing. I'm just, uh... 987 01:03:54,793 --> 01:03:58,034 just, uh, getting ready for bed, um... 988 01:04:01,965 --> 01:04:03,896 - I had a great time tonight. - Yeah? 989 01:04:03,896 --> 01:04:04,896 - Yeah. - Yeah, me too. 990 01:04:04,896 --> 01:04:06,448 That-- That's definitely why you're fun. 991 01:04:06,448 --> 01:04:08,034 You know, just a night in, 992 01:04:08,034 --> 01:04:09,758 good company and playing video games. 993 01:04:09,758 --> 01:04:11,758 - And a bottle of wine. - Yeah. 994 01:04:11,758 --> 01:04:13,379 Yeah, made up for yesterday. 995 01:04:14,103 --> 01:04:14,965 Yeah. 996 01:04:17,068 --> 01:04:21,793 I mean, I feel like this is like a weird question. 997 01:04:23,344 --> 01:04:26,068 I mean, I think we both are obviously attracted to each other. 998 01:04:27,586 --> 01:04:29,896 I have a feeling but I might be wrong, but... 999 01:04:29,896 --> 01:04:31,448 No, no you're right. You're totally right. 1000 01:04:32,241 --> 01:04:34,517 But also I don't mind like 1001 01:04:34,517 --> 01:04:37,137 the fact that we're still hanging out and getting to know each other in person. 1002 01:04:37,137 --> 01:04:41,655 Yeah, same and obviously it's good to know that 1003 01:04:41,655 --> 01:04:44,137 I guess we both you know are attracted to each other. 1004 01:04:45,758 --> 01:04:47,551 Yeah, definitely. 1005 01:04:49,586 --> 01:04:52,448 Yeah, I don't want you to think that like, I'm less attracted to you because 1006 01:04:52,448 --> 01:04:54,517 I haven't tried to like initiate 1007 01:04:54,517 --> 01:04:56,586 anything intimate, uh, 1008 01:04:56,586 --> 01:05:00,137 typically I'm kind of the guy who waits for the girl to make the first move like... 1009 01:05:00,137 --> 01:05:04,137 Oh... Oh well that is not... 'cause I never make the first move. 1010 01:05:06,275 --> 01:05:09,965 Okay, all right. I get that like I totally get that but at the same time it's like 1011 01:05:09,965 --> 01:05:13,482 I kind of like to feel wanted and 1012 01:05:13,482 --> 01:05:16,379 you know, like if I go in for a kiss and the girl like 1013 01:05:16,379 --> 01:05:18,448 denies it, like I feel like really crushed. 1014 01:05:18,448 --> 01:05:19,689 We have kissed before. 1015 01:05:19,689 --> 01:05:21,827 Well, I know that but like if I was 1016 01:05:21,827 --> 01:05:24,172 you know so like, you know start grabbing your legs 1017 01:05:24,172 --> 01:05:26,655 grabbing your butt, and all of a sudden like, you're like, 1018 01:05:26,655 --> 01:05:28,103 "Yeah, I think we're moving a little too fast." 1019 01:05:28,103 --> 01:05:30,275 It'll kind of like, set me back a little bit. 1020 01:05:33,103 --> 01:05:36,965 I don't know, maybe it's just something that you know, we'll just have to 1021 01:05:36,965 --> 01:05:38,344 let happen when it happens. 1022 01:05:38,344 --> 01:05:40,620 Well it's... Well it's like we'll just have to see I guess. 1023 01:05:42,448 --> 01:05:44,275 - Yeah. - Yeah. 1024 01:05:46,241 --> 01:05:48,620 Okay, um, see ya. I'm getting the paycheck. 1025 01:05:48,620 --> 01:05:50,137 I'll get the lights. 1026 01:05:51,758 --> 01:05:54,827 What I think that I've known about Christian since the beginning was that 1027 01:05:54,827 --> 01:05:58,862 you know, affection and PDA are super vital things to him. 1028 01:06:02,310 --> 01:06:06,068 And since the beginning of our, you know, talking to each other, Christian 1029 01:06:06,068 --> 01:06:09,241 has always been very forward and, you know flirtatious 1030 01:06:09,793 --> 01:06:11,413 for him to now to say, 1031 01:06:11,413 --> 01:06:13,896 that he's somebody who likes to wait 1032 01:06:13,896 --> 01:06:16,000 for women to make the first move 1033 01:06:16,000 --> 01:06:17,931 I don't buy it. 1034 01:06:17,931 --> 01:06:20,000 And of course that makes me quite insecure. 1035 01:06:25,310 --> 01:06:27,068 - Good night. - Good night, baby. 1036 01:06:46,482 --> 01:06:48,379 - Hey! - Hello, this is gonna be great. 1037 01:06:48,379 --> 01:06:50,379 Hi, I'm Riley. 1038 01:06:50,379 --> 01:06:52,689 Nice to meet you. Thank you for this. 1039 01:06:52,689 --> 01:06:56,275 - Thank you, thank you. This is going to be great. - Yeah. 1040 01:06:56,275 --> 01:06:58,620 I haven't spoken to Violet since the fight last night 1041 01:06:58,620 --> 01:07:02,310 but I'm already here in Vietnam and not gonna sit in the hotel. 1042 01:07:02,310 --> 01:07:07,034 So, tonight I decided that I'm going to venture out in the Ho Chi Min City. 1043 01:07:07,034 --> 01:07:09,137 So, I hired a tour guide to take me around on his bike. 1044 01:07:10,655 --> 01:07:12,482 This is crazy. 1045 01:07:27,724 --> 01:07:31,172 You know, it's really weird because I ride motorcycles but, 1046 01:07:31,172 --> 01:07:34,310 riding in a city like, Ho Chi Minh City 1047 01:07:34,310 --> 01:07:37,793 and with all the activity on the road, I'm losing my mind. 1048 01:07:37,793 --> 01:07:39,448 I'm enjoying myself. 1049 01:07:39,448 --> 01:07:42,758 I just wanna make it from A to B.in one piece. 1050 01:07:59,793 --> 01:08:01,758 Ho Chi Minh city is a beautiful city 1051 01:08:01,758 --> 01:08:05,724 and it really sucks that, I'm not experiencing this with Violet right now. 1052 01:08:05,724 --> 01:08:08,000 At this moment I don't know where we're at 1053 01:08:08,000 --> 01:08:11,241 and last night to be honest I wanted to take a flight home. 1054 01:08:11,241 --> 01:08:13,310 But I had time to think about it and I 1055 01:08:13,310 --> 01:08:16,758 feel bad about my reaction to things. 1056 01:08:16,758 --> 01:08:21,413 In the past I've had girl friends that were not very honest with me. 1057 01:08:21,413 --> 01:08:24,103 And, I've been hurt. 1058 01:08:24,103 --> 01:08:27,206 So, I'm already there were I don't necessarily trust 1059 01:08:27,206 --> 01:08:30,034 everything I'm told, everything I see. 1060 01:08:30,034 --> 01:08:33,758 So, I might have been a little too sensitive within the situation, 1061 01:08:33,758 --> 01:08:37,379 but I want to navigate this with the most clarity going forward. 1062 01:08:37,379 --> 01:08:38,586 All right, thank you. 1063 01:08:39,517 --> 01:08:40,689 Thank you. 1064 01:08:40,689 --> 01:08:44,172 Are you... you doing anything? 1065 01:08:44,172 --> 01:08:46,344 How about you go out with me? 1066 01:08:46,344 --> 01:08:48,310 How about you come have a cigar with me, because uh... 1067 01:08:48,310 --> 01:08:49,827 Yeah, I'm here by myself. 1068 01:08:50,862 --> 01:08:52,000 All right. 1069 01:08:53,586 --> 01:08:54,896 Oh, wow. 1070 01:08:56,689 --> 01:08:59,896 Wow, this is... wow. 1071 01:08:59,896 --> 01:09:02,068 - Nice place, huh? - Yes, nice. 1072 01:09:02,068 --> 01:09:03,241 We chose a good one. 1073 01:09:05,655 --> 01:09:07,551 - We gotta sit here. - Wow. 1074 01:09:10,103 --> 01:09:11,793 - Hi. - Hi. How are you today? 1075 01:09:11,793 --> 01:09:13,965 - Good, how are you? - I'm good thanks. 1076 01:09:15,724 --> 01:09:17,586 Can we do 1077 01:09:18,827 --> 01:09:21,310 two double shot um, 1078 01:09:22,517 --> 01:09:23,793 - Cube of ice. - Yes. 1079 01:09:23,793 --> 01:09:25,620 - Uh, you want. - The same? 1080 01:09:25,620 --> 01:09:27,620 - Same, same. - Yeah. 1081 01:09:27,620 --> 01:09:29,068 All right, thank you. 1082 01:09:29,068 --> 01:09:31,000 - Uh, cheers. - Cheers. 1083 01:09:33,793 --> 01:09:36,068 - So how long have you been here? - Six days. 1084 01:09:36,068 --> 01:09:38,137 You know, I came to meet someone. 1085 01:09:38,137 --> 01:09:39,551 - Wow. - Yeah. 1086 01:09:39,551 --> 01:09:42,379 She's beautiful but she's uh, she's crazy. 1087 01:09:44,793 --> 01:09:46,206 Uh, okay. 1088 01:09:46,206 --> 01:09:48,206 I don't know. I don't understand women here. 1089 01:09:49,275 --> 01:09:52,310 We had a argument, 'cause uh, 1090 01:09:52,310 --> 01:09:57,793 my friend who I consider my sister, asked her a question. 1091 01:09:57,793 --> 01:09:59,482 What did she ask? 1092 01:10:00,655 --> 01:10:02,620 Um, I met her on an app. 1093 01:10:02,620 --> 01:10:04,724 - And uh... Yeah. - Dating app? All right. 1094 01:10:04,724 --> 01:10:07,931 And one day I said, let me see your sister on the app 1095 01:10:07,931 --> 01:10:09,827 and I went on the app and she was still on the app. 1096 01:10:09,827 --> 01:10:12,068 - Okay. - So my friend asked her 1097 01:10:12,068 --> 01:10:13,275 - Uh... - what happened? 1098 01:10:14,448 --> 01:10:15,827 So the thing is... 1099 01:10:22,586 --> 01:10:24,000 Okay. 1100 01:10:24,000 --> 01:10:26,655 So from what I'm understanding she would have been more accepting 1101 01:10:26,655 --> 01:10:28,551 of that question if that came from my father 1102 01:10:29,793 --> 01:10:31,413 than a friend. 1103 01:10:31,413 --> 01:10:33,965 - Who have the right, real right. - Who has the real right. 1104 01:10:33,965 --> 01:10:35,206 Yeah. 1105 01:10:35,206 --> 01:10:39,068 I don't know if I... if she tries to explain that to me 1106 01:10:39,068 --> 01:10:42,137 and I just wasn't hearing it because I was so upset. 1107 01:10:42,137 --> 01:10:44,413 When her tone to me, how she was speaking to me 1108 01:10:46,310 --> 01:10:47,206 - Right? - Yeah. 1109 01:10:51,379 --> 01:10:52,931 Yeah, yeah. 1110 01:10:54,448 --> 01:10:55,517 Yeah. 1111 01:10:55,517 --> 01:10:58,448 - I regret it. I regret my action. - All right. 1112 01:10:58,448 --> 01:11:01,551 You need to apologize. I think. 1113 01:11:01,551 --> 01:11:05,344 Well, last night when it happened, I got very angry and I blocked her. 1114 01:11:05,344 --> 01:11:07,206 I think I blocked her. 1115 01:11:07,206 --> 01:11:10,344 - Come on she should be the one whose blocking you. - Yeah, I mean... 1116 01:11:14,137 --> 01:11:15,827 Even when I think I'm right, I'm wrong. 1117 01:11:18,379 --> 01:11:21,965 - So, here's what you need to do. - Okay, I'm listening. 1118 01:11:21,965 --> 01:11:23,793 - You need to unblock her as you know. - Yeah. 1119 01:11:33,172 --> 01:11:36,655 Thank you, I'm listening. You know, 'cause I... I 1120 01:11:36,655 --> 01:11:41,655 I came here to discover our relationship 1121 01:11:41,655 --> 01:11:43,000 to hopefully move it forward. 1122 01:11:45,482 --> 01:11:46,310 That's if she forgives me. 1123 01:11:49,827 --> 01:11:50,724 Biggest. 1124 01:11:51,310 --> 01:11:52,793 Ah! 1125 01:11:52,793 --> 01:11:58,137 Even though, Violet hasn't been really open about her past, 1126 01:11:58,137 --> 01:12:02,724 I'm starting to realize that maybe I've been going about it the wrong way. 1127 01:12:02,724 --> 01:12:05,379 I need to rethink my approach when it comes to Violet. 1128 01:12:05,379 --> 01:12:09,620 But in the meantime, I'm making the first move unblocking her 1129 01:12:09,620 --> 01:12:12,965 accepting my part and my role in what happened. 1130 01:12:12,965 --> 01:12:16,620 Because, at the end of the day I don't wanna throw away the last two years 1131 01:12:16,620 --> 01:12:18,862 and we owe it to each other to make this thing work. 1132 01:12:19,965 --> 01:12:22,206 I hope that she's open to meeting with me 1133 01:12:22,206 --> 01:12:25,034 because after everything that happened last night, I'm just hoping that I... 1134 01:12:26,103 --> 01:12:27,000 don't lose her. 1135 01:12:28,931 --> 01:12:30,517 Cheers. Thank you, Tommy. 1136 01:12:30,517 --> 01:12:33,206 - You're... You're the best tour guy ever. - Thanks. 1137 01:12:37,379 --> 01:12:40,034 So, before we have ice-cream 1138 01:12:41,413 --> 01:12:43,724 I have something here for you Jasmine. 1139 01:12:45,103 --> 01:12:46,275 What is it? 1140 01:12:50,551 --> 01:12:51,517 Well... 1141 01:13:01,413 --> 01:13:02,965 Yay. 1142 01:13:02,965 --> 01:13:05,931 - Look man, no hands. - Gino! 1143 01:13:06,931 --> 01:13:08,448 Always with the stupidity. 1144 01:13:14,931 --> 01:13:17,241 - Whoo! - Strong finish. 1145 01:13:18,000 --> 01:13:19,724 The brakes. 1146 01:13:19,724 --> 01:13:21,620 - Brake. - Okay. 1147 01:13:28,068 --> 01:13:29,517 Uh, that was fun. 1148 01:13:32,068 --> 01:13:35,413 Tonight, Jasmine and I put our differences aside 1149 01:13:35,413 --> 01:13:37,275 and now we're feeling good and positive. 1150 01:13:39,137 --> 01:13:41,689 Hey, whose up for an ice-cream? 1151 01:13:41,689 --> 01:13:44,517 Liz, do you like ice-cream? 1152 01:13:48,931 --> 01:13:52,586 Obviously, one good night is not gonna fix all of our problems. 1153 01:13:52,586 --> 01:13:56,551 But I just wanna get back on track. 1154 01:13:56,551 --> 01:14:00,482 It's like, what the therapist told us, improving our relationship 1155 01:14:00,482 --> 01:14:03,689 focusing on ourselves and trying to improve on ourselves. 1156 01:14:03,689 --> 01:14:05,517 Instead of pointing the finger at each other. 1157 01:14:09,206 --> 01:14:10,103 So... 1158 01:14:10,862 --> 01:14:12,275 Before we have ice cream, 1159 01:14:14,000 --> 01:14:16,172 I have something for you here, Jasmine. 1160 01:14:18,344 --> 01:14:19,275 What is it? 1161 01:14:23,517 --> 01:14:24,344 Well... 1162 01:14:26,655 --> 01:14:27,965 I think you might like it. 1163 01:14:29,379 --> 01:14:31,862 If I can open it. Um... 1164 01:14:39,551 --> 01:14:40,448 It's a ring. 1165 01:14:44,655 --> 01:14:46,103 This is a promise ring, 1166 01:14:48,344 --> 01:14:50,103 that I will try harder 1167 01:14:52,000 --> 01:14:54,275 to do better and you know... 1168 01:14:54,275 --> 01:14:56,862 avoid arguments with you as much as I can 1169 01:14:57,482 --> 01:15:02,241 and to uh, give you more 1170 01:15:02,241 --> 01:15:05,000 uh, what do I say, meat. 1171 01:15:07,379 --> 01:15:12,206 And, uh... you know, 1172 01:15:12,206 --> 01:15:15,620 you know, all the things the counsellor told us. 1173 01:15:15,620 --> 01:15:19,724 You know, do better so we can have a better future 1174 01:15:20,275 --> 01:15:21,724 be married and be happy. 1175 01:15:23,758 --> 01:15:24,724 What do you think? 1176 01:15:26,206 --> 01:15:27,034 Do you like it? 1177 01:15:29,517 --> 01:15:30,448 I do. 1178 01:15:31,344 --> 01:15:33,724 Oh, baby. 1179 01:15:41,103 --> 01:15:43,620 I snuck away when we were 1180 01:15:43,620 --> 01:15:46,413 at the plaza where they have the bikes. 1181 01:15:46,413 --> 01:15:49,793 There was like a vendor selling many different things. 1182 01:15:49,793 --> 01:15:52,068 And then I see this ring and it just stood out and I was like 1183 01:15:52,068 --> 01:15:54,758 "Wow, you know, I wanna get this for Jasmine." 1184 01:15:54,758 --> 01:15:56,344 I thought he was going to pee. 1185 01:15:59,137 --> 01:16:01,655 Go and get us ice-cream. 1186 01:16:01,655 --> 01:16:03,758 It's the promise ring, it's not engagement ring. 1187 01:16:03,758 --> 01:16:06,689 But when Jasmine gets to the U.S.A 1188 01:16:06,689 --> 01:16:09,517 I will buy an engagement ring for Jasmine. 1189 01:16:10,482 --> 01:16:12,517 But you know what, 1190 01:16:12,517 --> 01:16:15,965 I like the ring because, it has two hearts, 1191 01:16:16,965 --> 01:16:18,827 one heart represent you 1192 01:16:18,827 --> 01:16:21,517 - and the other heart is me. - Yeah. 1193 01:16:21,517 --> 01:16:25,931 Uh... You are romantic, I like when he is romantic. 1194 01:16:25,931 --> 01:16:27,103 He surprise me. 1195 01:16:32,758 --> 01:16:34,275 Like she's holding? 1196 01:16:35,931 --> 01:16:37,344 Okay. 1197 01:16:38,275 --> 01:16:41,310 Uh, for me, um... 1198 01:16:55,068 --> 01:16:57,482 Me, I'll order mine after. 1199 01:17:01,689 --> 01:17:03,482 I'll order mine later. 1200 01:17:09,620 --> 01:17:10,896 I used to know the word. 1201 01:17:12,206 --> 01:17:14,034 We have had a lot of arguments 1202 01:17:14,034 --> 01:17:20,379 but just seeing that this time it's Gino the one you know, making the effort 1203 01:17:21,172 --> 01:17:22,586 means a lot. 1204 01:17:22,586 --> 01:17:25,965 But I know that I cannot put all the blame on Gino. 1205 01:17:25,965 --> 01:17:28,206 I also need to work 1206 01:17:28,206 --> 01:17:30,413 on a lot of things to make this work. 1207 01:17:37,241 --> 01:17:38,655 - That one? - Which one. 1208 01:17:38,655 --> 01:17:41,241 I didn't... I didn't touch it with my tongue, I promise. 1209 01:17:46,931 --> 01:17:50,482 Our communication was not so good in Thailand. 1210 01:17:50,482 --> 01:17:53,689 There is unresolved stuff between us. 1211 01:17:53,689 --> 01:17:56,137 I thought you were meeting other people 1212 01:17:56,551 --> 01:17:57,551 cheating. 1213 01:18:18,793 --> 01:18:21,068 I am available. 1214 01:18:21,068 --> 01:18:22,379 You like mashed potatoes? 1215 01:18:22,379 --> 01:18:24,965 - I love mashed potatoes. - I know. 1216 01:18:24,965 --> 01:18:27,517 Tonight, Dempsey is making me dinner for the first time. 1217 01:18:27,517 --> 01:18:30,862 So this is gonna be my first vegan meal made by Dempsey. 1218 01:18:30,862 --> 01:18:34,862 But I think her level of cooking is different than mine. 1219 01:18:34,862 --> 01:18:37,206 I'm more of like a microwave person. 1220 01:18:37,206 --> 01:18:40,344 So, I'm not very good at chopping things 1221 01:18:40,344 --> 01:18:43,689 not super great and helping but I'm gonna give it my all. 1222 01:18:44,206 --> 01:18:45,379 Am I doing it right? 1223 01:18:45,379 --> 01:18:47,931 Jesus, wow, you're good at this. 1224 01:18:49,103 --> 01:18:50,620 Here's your garlic slice. 1225 01:18:50,620 --> 01:18:52,344 - Thank you. - I love garlic. 1226 01:18:53,379 --> 01:18:54,689 I don't know, I kind of like it. 1227 01:18:54,689 --> 01:18:56,000 You like it raw. 1228 01:18:56,000 --> 01:18:57,000 I love it raw. 1229 01:18:58,724 --> 01:19:00,862 - Really? - I dare you to eat the full garlic. 1230 01:19:02,206 --> 01:19:03,931 I know, I like them apples. 1231 01:19:03,931 --> 01:19:05,241 Oh, it's rough. It's rough. 1232 01:19:07,103 --> 01:19:08,689 Shut up. 1233 01:19:11,862 --> 01:19:13,310 Why is it spicy? 1234 01:19:13,310 --> 01:19:15,758 - Because it's garlic. Yeah. - Oh. 1235 01:19:15,758 --> 01:19:18,793 Oh, God, 'cause my tongue... my tongue is on fire. 1236 01:19:18,793 --> 01:19:20,482 You have a hospital nearby? 1237 01:19:24,275 --> 01:19:27,448 - Oh, that's not good. - No! 1238 01:19:36,172 --> 01:19:37,517 I'm dead. 1239 01:19:37,517 --> 01:19:41,620 Oh, Christ. It still hurts. It seriously hurts, still hurts. 1240 01:19:43,068 --> 01:19:46,931 Things are going really well. I feel very comfortable with her. 1241 01:19:46,931 --> 01:19:49,758 - Do you want some wine? Maybe, yeah. - Maybe. 1242 01:19:49,758 --> 01:19:51,172 It's probably a good idea. 1243 01:19:51,172 --> 01:19:55,482 But there is unresolved stuff between us. 1244 01:19:55,482 --> 01:19:59,586 So, I feel like in order for us to have a good foundation to start off with 1245 01:19:59,586 --> 01:20:02,413 we just need to have everything that's in the past, sorted out. 1246 01:20:02,413 --> 01:20:03,482 Yeah, okay. 1247 01:20:03,482 --> 01:20:05,827 - Cheers. - Cheers to you as well. Mostly you. 1248 01:20:06,517 --> 01:20:07,689 Mmm-hmm. 1249 01:20:08,586 --> 01:20:10,000 Okay. 1250 01:20:10,000 --> 01:20:13,931 - We're feeling the love, the good energy. - Feeling... 1251 01:20:13,931 --> 01:20:15,172 Yeah. 1252 01:20:15,172 --> 01:20:18,379 I wasn't expecting things to go so well as they're going. 1253 01:20:18,379 --> 01:20:19,896 Why? 1254 01:20:19,896 --> 01:20:24,655 Because, um, our communication was not so good in Thailand I thought. 1255 01:20:26,000 --> 01:20:28,862 Yeah, it wasn't. I'm sorry about that. 1256 01:20:29,862 --> 01:20:32,620 Yeah, I just felt like maybe you were, 1257 01:20:32,620 --> 01:20:35,344 doing other things meeting other people. 1258 01:20:36,827 --> 01:20:40,275 - Cheating. I don't know. - What? Cheating? 1259 01:20:40,275 --> 01:20:41,241 Mmm-hmm. 1260 01:20:41,965 --> 01:20:43,931 Why would you say that? 1261 01:20:43,931 --> 01:20:47,689 It's like we went from a lot of communication, like we talked everyday 1262 01:20:47,689 --> 01:20:51,517 but as soon as your dad left it just went like it just went downhill. 1263 01:20:52,206 --> 01:20:54,241 I told you before I went like, 1264 01:20:54,241 --> 01:20:55,862 I'm not going to be speaking to you as much 1265 01:20:55,862 --> 01:20:58,965 the time is so different, I don't have Wi-Fi there. 1266 01:20:58,965 --> 01:21:02,310 Wasn't gee, it blows my mind that you would think that. 1267 01:21:02,310 --> 01:21:04,551 - Oh, you didn't meet anyone else. - No. 1268 01:21:04,551 --> 01:21:07,310 It doesn't even cross into my mind. 1269 01:21:08,241 --> 01:21:10,344 To meet anybody else. 1270 01:21:10,344 --> 01:21:12,482 Right, but that's easy for someone to say 1271 01:21:12,482 --> 01:21:14,517 everyone has said that, you know what I mean. 1272 01:21:14,517 --> 01:21:16,241 I'm just used to, 1273 01:21:16,241 --> 01:21:17,689 people are saying that and then 1274 01:21:21,275 --> 01:21:24,862 I have cheated on someone once. Yeah. 1275 01:21:27,862 --> 01:21:29,689 - So, I've never cheated on anybody, - Yep. 1276 01:21:30,172 --> 01:21:31,137 ever. 1277 01:21:32,724 --> 01:21:36,172 It's a bit of a red flag for her to say, yes, she cheated 1278 01:21:36,172 --> 01:21:39,344 because I'm a massive trusting person. I don't believe in cheating 1279 01:21:39,344 --> 01:21:40,827 I've been cheated on in the past 1280 01:21:41,517 --> 01:21:43,206 It's not something that, 1281 01:21:43,206 --> 01:21:45,586 would even cross my mind to do. 1282 01:21:46,896 --> 01:21:49,896 I do think that if I'm gonna be getting accused of 1283 01:21:49,896 --> 01:21:51,793 doing things that I haven't done 1284 01:21:51,793 --> 01:21:53,827 and just there's no trust there 1285 01:21:53,827 --> 01:21:55,862 it could just ruin the whole thing. 1286 01:21:57,241 --> 01:21:59,000 Why would you even feel that I would even, 1287 01:21:59,862 --> 01:22:01,103 do something like that? 1288 01:22:01,793 --> 01:22:04,448 I guess, I'm just um... 1289 01:22:04,448 --> 01:22:08,068 putting my past relationships on to you. 1290 01:22:08,068 --> 01:22:10,068 Where I... Where I have been cheated on. 1291 01:22:10,965 --> 01:22:12,448 I'm not gonna do that. 1292 01:22:12,448 --> 01:22:14,103 - 'Cause you're so into me. - Yeah. 1293 01:22:16,310 --> 01:22:17,206 Oh! 1294 01:22:18,931 --> 01:22:23,137 This is just embarrassing. I... I'm embarrassed that I'm not healed as I should be. 1295 01:22:25,827 --> 01:22:29,241 Can't be south about stuff. You just have to learn from that. 1296 01:22:29,241 --> 01:22:31,413 I want us to grow together, I don't want us to go 1297 01:22:31,413 --> 01:22:33,482 back, I want us to go forward. 1298 01:22:33,482 --> 01:22:35,965 Like, you make me laugh so much, you make me happy. 1299 01:22:37,517 --> 01:22:38,896 You really make me happy. 1300 01:22:40,517 --> 01:22:42,000 You make me happy too. 1301 01:22:44,758 --> 01:22:45,724 Sorry. 1302 01:22:51,275 --> 01:22:53,344 It's extremely hard for me to trust people. 1303 01:22:53,344 --> 01:22:58,448 Just from like, being adopted and being rejected like a lot during my life. 1304 01:22:58,448 --> 01:23:02,551 But, she gives me all the things that I really really need. 1305 01:23:02,551 --> 01:23:05,000 Like, reassurance and safety. 1306 01:23:05,000 --> 01:23:07,655 And at the end of this whole trip, 1307 01:23:07,655 --> 01:23:10,862 I want to convince her to let me move in with her. 1308 01:23:11,827 --> 01:23:15,172 By tomorrow, I'm supposed to meet her dad. 1309 01:23:15,172 --> 01:23:18,896 Which makes me extremely nervous because he is her best friend 1310 01:23:18,896 --> 01:23:20,620 and he doesn't know anything about me. 1311 01:23:21,862 --> 01:23:23,896 I have to have his approval 1312 01:23:23,896 --> 01:23:26,517 or our entire relationship could be for nothing. 1313 01:23:34,827 --> 01:23:37,448 Next time on, Before The 90 days... 1314 01:23:37,448 --> 01:23:41,275 Do you know, he is so into having a super romantic night. 1315 01:23:43,827 --> 01:23:45,482 Oh, my God. 1316 01:23:45,482 --> 01:23:46,793 Uh-huh, ah... 1317 01:23:48,000 --> 01:23:50,793 You've been a bad, bad girl. 1318 01:23:53,310 --> 01:23:55,827 There was lot that was said last night. 1319 01:23:55,827 --> 01:23:59,344 And I'm feeling just super confused. 1320 01:23:59,344 --> 01:24:01,206 Okay, what do you want me to do with you? 1321 01:24:01,206 --> 01:24:05,000 We are not communicating the same way that we have been on the phone and I have 1322 01:24:05,000 --> 01:24:06,896 no idea what to do. 1323 01:24:06,896 --> 01:24:08,862 You don't care about how I feel. You're not... 1324 01:24:08,862 --> 01:24:10,724 I don't even know if you're ever like listening. 1325 01:24:12,689 --> 01:24:13,965 Hey! 1326 01:24:13,965 --> 01:24:16,689 I'm nervous about meeting Razwan's friends 1327 01:24:16,689 --> 01:24:19,448 especially a female friend that I've never even heard of. 1328 01:24:23,241 --> 01:24:24,517 I'm in love with him. 1329 01:24:24,517 --> 01:24:27,413 When I look in your eyes and after I look was, in Razwan's eyes 1330 01:24:27,413 --> 01:24:30,275 it was like, "I love you so much but I want to kill you right now." 1331 01:24:31,068 --> 01:24:33,103 It's a toxic relationship. 1332 01:24:35,137 --> 01:24:38,758 I am about to meet her dad and he has no clue that we're in a relationship. 1333 01:24:42,068 --> 01:24:45,758 - Yeah, yeah. - Statler has a thing for English girls. 1334 01:24:45,758 --> 01:24:49,931 So this my second time coming to England to meet an... an English woman. 1335 01:24:53,034 --> 01:24:54,413 Things needs to slow down. 1336 01:24:56,931 --> 01:24:58,000 You okay? 1337 01:25:01,655 --> 01:25:02,758 What happened? 1338 01:25:06,172 --> 01:25:08,482 I feel like I have been manipulated. 1339 01:25:08,482 --> 01:25:12,689 At this point, there's a slim chance of relationship right now. 1340 01:25:16,655 --> 01:25:17,931 I'm worried about you going. 1341 01:25:20,724 --> 01:25:23,827 Last week, the real Carmella told me she'd be open to meeting. 1342 01:25:27,206 --> 01:25:28,275 It could be possible. 1343 01:25:29,344 --> 01:25:31,931 I don't know what to expect but meeting her 1344 01:25:31,931 --> 01:25:34,862 could bring me one step closer in getting the closure that I need.