Previously on Before The 90 Days...
Finally I am engaged.
Mmm!
Happy birthday, princess.
I can't believe that Statler has booked a full castle for my birthday.
Statler makes me feel safe,
so maybe I shouldn't be pushing away
the happily ever after that I've always wanted.
Ask your mother why her and your ex-wife didn't get along.
- Do you think we match? - I don't know.
They tell me different things.
To be totally honest with you,
I did call a private investigator to look into your background.
See, this is the thing is, like, making me seem like
I'm, like, seeking out lone women at bars all the time
- No, that's... okay. - to have conversations with
How am I gonna be able to be with somebody
who can't even tell how I feel?
I don't know if I can go on if this is gonna continue.
All you do is to compare me to your family,
to just let me know that they are more important than me.
I'm breaking up with you because I believe that this is the best decision.
Walk away.
I can't stay here.
It's over.
- Oh, look how beautiful that is. - Yes, I know.
Looks so pretty.
- It's nice, right? - Yeah.
Today is our last day in Croatia,
so Razvan planned a beach day with us and his family.
And while things did get tense yesterday at his family's house,
we're in a much better place today.
Mmm.
Oh, my God.
Well, no, continue.
- No, I'm stopping! - No, I like it.
You like it last night.
Last night we had sex, I think, four times.
Oh.
She just come to me, grab me, and tell me,
"You need to [bleep] me right now."
in that moment, and it was a nice release.
Hello, guys. Here are some of these for you to look.
- Thank you. - Thank you.
I want a mojito.
So a mojito
and two energy drinks.
I cannot say I'm 100% back to the relationship,
but I'm happy that she's trying.
I just want to live in the present and see how things are.
- Hey. Good morning. - Hi.
Hi.
Oh.
Okay.
Oh, I see you got company.
Huh?
What do you want? You want something?
So, one pizza. - Sure. Okay.
And, for me, a margherita.
French fries for me. Thank you.
Tell your mom that I had a really nice time last night
- and she's an amazing cook. - Um...
She's glad that you like her.
She also like you.
- Not that much but she likes you. - Did she say that?
- Are you gonna put on your swimsuit? - Yeah, going now.
Yeah, so, what do you think about Razvan?
I think he's a really good guy with such a good, pure heart. That's why I love him.
I was really nervous about my kids liking him,
but they get along so good.
Oh, thank you.
Okay, should I put it maybe over here?
- Uh, yeah. - Thank you.
Oh, look at this food.
Uh...
Oh.
I do love Amanda, but the last days have been incredible confusing for me.
I'm having a hard time to know what to do.
My mother's opinion really matters,
so I want to see what she thinks about Amanda.
When Razvan asks his mom to talk it makes me anxious
because I don't know what him and his mom are gonna be discussing.
I really hope that Razvan does not bring up our fights that we've had
because I don't want her to get the wrong impression
or have a bad view of our relationship.
My trip has gone down the drain.
This trip I thought that was gonna be so amazing
is just...
I'm going back to the apartment alone because...
...Jasmine decided to end our relationship.
I'm heartbroken
because she's the love of my life.
I expected to marry her.
I'm angry as well because I feel like
I've tried very hard in this relationship to make her happy.
And I'm just so tired of her losing it like this.
And she'll probably continue to do so, you know, in the future
and I don't want that.
So I'm gonna pack my things
and I'm going home.
Like...
Because I love you, Gino.
Mmm.
I get angry, so angry, and I, like...
We have had very bad moments and argument.
I feel like I ruin it, you know,
because
I keep bringing some, like, big baggage that I have.
So [sniffs] I felt to myself, like,
the best that could happen to Gino
was just to take a plane
and forget about my existence in Panama
and everything that we ever had.
But...
...you really know how much you love a person
when you imagine your life without that person.
Physically sick.
I feel like I cannot be without him.
Are you mad at me?
- And I'm sorry, baby. - I'm not mad at you.
Your family is important, I get it.
- Yeah, they are to me. - And I have to earn that place
and be the most important person in your life.
I'm gonna earn it because I want to be your wife.
I don't want to lose you.
Well, I mean, I don't want you to be angry and blowing up at me,
and I want to, I don't want, it's not easy to handle that for me.
We've known each other for two-and-a-half years now,
and it's like something that we can't overcome.
It breaks my heart to see Jasmine crying.
Um...
You know, I want to save our relationship, I really do.
I love her.
But...
...after our talk in the park, she didn't seem very willing to try to work things out.
I need to give you something.
Okay.
So just a minute.
At this point...
...I'm not really feeling like anything's gonna change.
I just...
I'm confused.
Could you please stand up?
Baby.
Like, ever since I met you,
I crave your smell, your hugs, your kisses,
and I know, baby, that I'm so [bleep] messed up.
And I'm so crazy sometimes.
But I promise that I'm gonna change.
And this that I'm gonna show you...
I'm sorry for being a bitch
and wanting you to upgrade this ring.
But you know what?
Like, in my eyes, and for me this ring is priceless
and not even all the money on the world can buy it
because this is from the love of my life.
So, Gino...
Will you take me, like, as your fiancé back again?
Will you marry me?
Seriously?
I don't know if I want kids.
Statler has told me that she is open to having kids,
so I'm a little bit confused to hear something different now.
This is a beautiful country. Beautiful city.
Even when it's raining it's just beautiful here.
Yeah, I like it a lot.
Are you sad that I'm leaving?
Mmm.
You have to think about it?
You look beautiful.
- Thank you. - You're welcome.
Oh, hello.
Oh, okay.
Uh, you order first.
Peach tea and, oh, ice cream.
So I'm gonna have salted caramel.
- Okay? - Okay.
Okay.
Yeah.
Why you look sad? - Because I'm leaving.
I don't want to necessarily leave.
For the most part I really enjoyed myself,
so, yeah.
- Mmm. - I'm gonna be, oh.
Oh, wow.
You want to share this with me?
- Mmm, no. - No?
So I'm gonna be a fat kid by myself? Okay, that's fine.
So I, you know, I feel really bad
about the private investigator,
and I really just want to apologize.
I had a lot of questions that I wanted answers to when I came here,
but I realized that the thing that matter the most
was us being able to communicate properly.
Did you um...
Did you enjoy my time here, like, me coming to visit you?
Mmm...
Yeah.
Yeah, we have a history.
Two years, man.
Can't just walk away from two years without really trying,
and I realize...
100 years?
We'll try.
You know, we owe it to each other,
we owe it to ourselves to make a real effort.
I feel that we are moving in the right direction.
I feel that we have a strong understanding.
We're having better conversations.
So I do believe this relationship is fixable.
Yes.
Yes, ma'am.
- Oh, my luggage? - Your luggage.
- Yes. - Yeah, that would be nice.
We get to spend a little bit more time together before I leave.
That would be awesome.
Yeah.
Is it a date tomorrow morning?
- It's a date? - Mmm-hmm.
After yesterday, Violet, by right, could have said
she didn't want to speak to me again.
But I can see and I know that she still cares,
and she hasn't given up on us.
We both have a hard time expressing ourselves,
but time is running out and I still really want to solidify this relationship.
So there's something I want to tell her
before I get on that plane tomorrow.
Wow.
Oh, look, it's the dining room.
Would you care to pass me the sugar?
I will if I could have the servant to do it.
En garde.
Ha, ha, ha!
Look at this!
This is how proper royalty takes, like, a dump.
- Wow! - I've never seen grass this green.
Can see for miles.
We just arrived in Scotland yesterday,
and today is Dempsey's birthday
so I'm hoping to make this
the most memorable birthday ever.
We definitely did have castle sex. Check that off the list.
And now we're driving to Edinburgh to get some sightseeing in.
Everything's just been insane. It's just been magic.
Stay in a castle? Come on.
That was all you.
I was having some doubts about Statler after she met my friends,
but the time I've spent with Statler
has been the happiest I've ever been
in a relationship.
And if anything goes wrong between me and Statler at this point
I would be devastated.
The idea of Statler moving in with me still scares me,
but the more time we spend with each other I am warming up to the idea.
You have the most beautiful eyes,
aside from mine.
We could just have our eyes have sex
and make their own babies.
I could be a full-time mom.
Seriously?
Dang.
- You do? - Yeah.
I feel like I wouldn't be that great.
I don't know if I want kids.
Yeah.
Statler and I had conversations
when we first started speaking,
and she has told me that she is open to having kids.
So I'm just a little bit confused
to hear her say something different now.
We're in Scotland.
But she's planned this amazing birthday trip for me,
and we're having such a great time,
so I don't want to bring the mood down right now.
- Hey, do you take requests? - Yeah, yeah.
- Do you know "Happy Birthday?" - Uh, aye.
It's her birthday so that would be neat.
Statler makes me feel so special,
but the whole topic of, you know, having kids
is something that we need to discuss further
because I do feel that we need to be on the same page about that
before she goes back to the US or we get more serious.
♪ To me ♪
Whoo!
Thank you.
Uhh...
I am so happy, happy, happy, happy.
I know we still have a lot of things to work out,
but I can't wait to marry David,
and our family will be complete.
I just really want to understand
where we stand in terms of being exclusive.
Some of the things that Christian said
about his interactions with women were red flags to me,
and I am worried about faithfulness.
When I do go home are you still gonna be able to trust me?
So I still haven't had a proper English breakfast.
In Italy, people regularly have, like, sweet breakfast.
- Like a slice of cake or something? - Yeah.
Speaking of sweet, donuts.
See what they've got.
This looks interesting.
- They're, like, very full of things. - Yes.
- They're, like, a little overloaded. - Yeah.
Cool.
Christian and I only have a couple of days left
in London together.
And I am feeling really conflicted
because on one end I think there's a true deep connection,
and we are right for each other.
But after Thanksgiving dinner, things have been tense.
I feel like we still have these issues that we need to resolve.
- We are going with pink fun one. - Yeah.
- The very plain cinnamon and sugar. - Yeah.
The toasted marshmallow.
So many things that Christian said
about his interactions with women
were definitely red flags to me,
and I, I am worried about faithfulness.
Ship inserts. Beep-boop-beep-boop...
Maybe Christian gets really easily bored or distracted,
and perhaps that might
unconsciously lead him to seek, you know,
and even if it's not ill-intended,
it's still putting yourself in a situation where
cheating is a lot more likely.
And if you're in a long-term relationship,
especially us being long-distance at the moment,
I don't want to have those worries.
- Ooh. - This is the winner.
- Big bite boy. - That is second, second-best.
Now that our trip is coming to an end,
I just want to make sure that
I just really want to understand where we stand
in terms of being exclusive
after this trip is over.
What do you mean, like, I'm gonna start a relationship with somebody else?
I wanna remain exclusive.
I don't feel any drive to be with anybody else.
There's definitely things that have been discussed that maybe
brought into question, you know, some of my,
you know, anxieties or insecurities.
For example,
hang out with your already-existing female friends.
But probably, it would not make me happy if you were to approach
girls that appear to be single and just sitting on their own.
That probably would not make me feel great.
I mean, there's nothing in the way that I approach women in a bar
that would lead them to think that I'm hitting on them.
So, I feel like I have nothing to be guilty about.
I, I knew that Cleo doesn't want me
approaching women at bars.
But hearing her say that it worries her that,
you know, if I'm gonna be faithful or not,
that's really unsettling for me.
I don't like feeling held down.
I don't like feeling that
I need to change the way that I am.
I'm a social butterfly,
but there's nothing that I've done on this trip
to give Cleo any reason
to not trust me.
When I do go home, like,
I'm back to just being alone, me.
Are you still gonna be able to trust me, you think?
It is something that we would have to work on
because it does not make me comfortable
- if it's just a single girl, if she's sitting alone... - Like--
...and you approaching her and offering, offering her drinks and...
But I'm telling you, like, I'm with you.
- What's wrong? - Just, like, I just...
Babe?
Babe, it's okay. It's all right.
When I'm with you, I'm with you, all right?
If I wanted to be going out on dates or picking up women,
I would just not be in a relationship with you.
Honestly, I think we're gonna be fine, to be honest.
It's hard for me to fully trust Christian.
I don't want him to change, you know, who he is,
but I, I feel that should come natural to him to sort of understand that
when you're in a relationship, that's not really how you behave.
When it comes to relationships, I sometimes
can ignore some things that might not be ideal
because I fear that if I am overly critical,
that that could, you know, ruin our relationship.
And, and yeah, I'm worried that's what I'm doing with Christian.
Because I am completely terrified
of losing him.
Will you take me, like, as your fiancé back again?
Um...
I had really good time with your family but
it was like a different vibe,
like, before you and your mom left, and then after.
Like, what did you talk about?
It feels like she's trying to make another fight between us.
So, what did she say?
- I don't know, like-- - You do know.
Oh, my gosh.
So, Gino,
will you take me, like, as your fiancé back again?
Will you marry me?
Um...
Mmm.
Of course, I will.
Forever and always.
Aw, Baby.
Mmm.
We have so many big problems. It's a lot of back and forth.
Honestly, I thought we are done.
But once she got on one knee
with the engagement ring she said she lost,
it shows me that the commitment we made to each other still matters
just as much to her as it does to me.
And so, it gives me hope... you know, it gives me hope.
I love you.
- I know. - You know,
Give me, give me chance.
I'm gonna change. I'm gonna calm down.
I believe you.
We both work together... We both work together.
I was actually super scared about Gino rejecting my proposal.
And even if he did,
I felt like I deserve it
because of the mean things that I told him.
Baby, I am so sorry.
I love you, Baby,
- and I have no doubt, like... - Aw.
...you are the love of my life, Baby.
Aw.
So, can we celebrate now?
I don't know if we have wine.
I will choose you one, one and a thousand life.
That's so beautiful. I would choose you too.
Oh, sorry.
Oh, your...
Oh, my God.
Cheers.
For us to work,
to fix any problems we have and
so we can have a long-lasting relationship.
- I'm your gringo bonito. - You're my gringo,
and I'm your Latina.
- Always. - Yes.
Cheers.
When I was a little girl, like,
the idea that I have of love was like a fairy tale.
You know?
But this is not a movie. We are two
super imperfect people,
and our love is not the best example to follow
when it comes to a healthy relationship.
I don't wanna be your sugar baby.
I wanna be your wife, I wanna be your partner,
but if you wanna be my sugar daddy, I won't be mad.
I'm gonna start proudly wearing
my engagement ring again.
And it symbolizes all of the struggle
that Gino and I have been through,
because I know in my heart that he is my person.
You want more?
- Oops. - Oh, you wanna get drunk tonight.
- Mmm-hmm. - Let's take off your socks.
Yeah, my feet hurt.
I know, Baby.
You ready, Baby?
For what?
Pool?
Yeah.
Are we crossing?
Oh, here we go.
I always wanted to do this, like in the movies, you know?
- Oh, yeah? - Like in New York, when you just stop the taxi.
- You have to whistle, though. - Oh.
- Do it. - Shoo.
What?
Tonight, Razvan is taking me on a date
since it's our last night in Croatia.
I think we have a lot to celebrate
because we're doing much better,
and we made it through a lot with meeting his family.
Hello, did you hear my whistle?
He's being, like, so caring and loving,
but at the same time I am feeling insecure
about Razvan's feelings
because I am worried about
what he said to his mother.
After their walk, I feel like the vibe shifted,
so whatever it is that they talked about,
I feel like it wasn't good.
Yeah.
This looks strange.
Uh, yeah.
Have you played this before?
Oh, okay.
Should I back up over here?
- Yeah. - Okay.
- Here we go. - Okay. Let's see...
- Okay, you do it, okay? You do it. - Oh, my God.
- Just rerack them. - Oh, okay.
I am, by far, better at pool than Razvan.
- Oh, my God. That was good. - How was it?
And it's true.
Here we go.
Yeah.
I had really good time with your family,
but it was like a different vibe,
like, before you and your mom left, and then after.
Well, yeah.
Like, what did you talk about?
- You told your mom about our fights? - Yes.
Just to get an advice, like, how to handle some things, you know, between us.
Yeah.
Because I just wanted to hear what she said...
- Yeah. - ...because maybe something new for me.
So, what did she say?
I, I don't know, like,
- nothing-- - You do know.
From my experience of being in a relationship, in a marriage,
when you involve other people into your relationship
for advice, for counsel, for whatever it may be,
when you involve them too much,
it becomes a problem.
I know. I'm, I'm, yes,
Hey, whatever. You're being annoying. It's your turn.
This is why I talk her,
because sometimes you just change.
You just change your mood.
- It's not about me. You just change. - Okay.
I don't wanna have a fight. This is supposed to be a nice night.
- I don't want to have a fight. - Yeah...
I feel like you do.
Things have been
better between us.
But I still have my doubts,
and this is why.
It feels like she's trying to make another fight between us.
Your turn.
We only have a few days left
before Amanda will leave to U.S.
And I'm really scared that
may she will not be able to change.
Hello.
I invested so much into this relationship.
I really don't wanna go home.
I just wanna make sure
we are committed to working on things, right?
I have something very important I want to
tell her before I leave Vietnam.
I really care about you a lot.
This is my last day in Vietnam,
and Violet is coming to the hotel this morning to help me pack.
She has a family obligation later,
so that means she can't come to the airport.
So, this is very important
because this is the last few hours we have together.
It's really sad that I'm leaving because I invested so much
into this relationship over the last two years,
and to be honest, I really don't wanna go home.
- Hello, come on in. - Hello.
- Good morning. - How are you?
That's a nice, uh, outfit there.
- Look at you, you look cute. Ah! - Thank you. Aw.
Thank you.
I...
Okay.
- All right, thank you. Yeah, that'd be great. - Uh...
Wow, too much.
- Too much luggage. - It's not a lot.
- Hmm. - I did a lot. But, yeah, thank you.
Mmm-hmm.
How are you feeling about me leaving?
Mmm.
Mmm-hmm.
Oh. I'm feeling sad, also.
I just wanna make sure
that we are committed to talking
and still working on things, right?
Okay. All right, no problem.
Okay.
Violet seems like she has her walls up.
I honestly don't know if that's her way of coping,
but what I don't wanna do is get back to America
and think back and think "what if?"
I'm leaving.
It's not easy for me to get back here, so let's talk.
- Yes, boss. - Yes, boss.
So...
So, you... you... you know how I feel about you, right?
Tell me how you feel.
I really, really, really care about you a lot.
And...
I hope that you can see that
it may be deeper than caring.
- Are you listening to what I'm saying to you? - Yes.
What am I saying to you?
Violet knows that I don't...
say the L-word to people, to anyone.
Because I feel that if I say it, I lose them.
But, I just don't want to leave this country.
I don't want to leave us,
without letting her know exactly how I feel.
I just told you something that I don't ever say.
I just said to you without saying it that I...
I?
- Why don't I tell? Why? Why? - Don't tell.
Just tell me why.
Okay.
Ready to go?
Okay, all right. Let's go.
So, this is it.
I'm leaving.
Thank you.
And, um...
I will talk to you as soon as I land, okay?
Okay.
I'm a little confused because after last night
it just, it felt like we were on the same page but
her not hugging me, her not giving me a kiss goodbye
and especially, not allowing me to say the L-word.
It took... It just took a lot out of me
to put those words together to get ready to say.
It feels like...
it was in vain.
I don't know.
This [bleep] hurt, man.
That's your cab? Okay.
- Bye. - Bye-bye.
If she's not ready to receive it
or if she's not open to receive the word...
it's on her.
But it is difficult to accept that
this just might be the last time Violet and I see each other in person.
Uh, it's a... it's a little somber.
Little sad.
Whatever's next in this relationship is really up to Violet.
She has all the cards. She holds them.
I would love the opportunity for us to figure this out.
But, if she does not want to spend the time and effort to figure it out...
God bless her. Good luck.
I'll move on. You move on.
My goal for this trip was to get to know her.
To build a strong and better connection with her.
That's what I wanted for the trip.
I didn't get to know her, I didn't...
get to understand her.
♪ I thought we were Going to last forever ♪
♪ Then you said Well all good things Must come to an end ♪
I think that I definitely need to, uh, figure out
if I want to fight for this anymore.
But right now, I'm just ready to go home.
♪ So distant and I've never felt so low ♪
♪ So long ♪
Don't worry. You'll be headed to the USA sooner than you think.
I love you.
But, I am gonna put my faith
that he's gonna do whatever he has to do
I would feel better about our relationship
if you were willing to commit...
I want, like, an outlook for the future.
...Like, when I leave do you think we're gonna be, like, engaged?
- So, you're ready? You're packed? - Yeah.
I think that's almost everything.
Today is Gino's last morning in Panama.
We've been through a lot the last 24 hours.
So many [chuckles] emotions.
We had a very, very bad fight. Like, the worst ever.
But, I am so grateful that
at the end of the day
we were able to work through this
because at least we're saying goodbye not in a permanent way.
Wow.
Do you need a new bag? That one is broken.
No. I spent a lot of money on it.
I'm gonna use it until it's dead.
All right. I think that's it.
Ready?
I think I got everything.
- Oh, whose that money? - Oh, that's yours.
- It's mine? - I left it for you.
I wanted you to have a little cash.
Oh, you're welcome.
You can use it for your rent.
Okay?
Gino and I came to an agreement with this apartment,
and we decided to...
So, that I could feel like I have some stability
until my visa gets approved.
This is the sad part.
I've realized now that it wasn't fair for me
to expect Gino to keep paying for this apartment.
And I'm very grateful that he's willing to invest to make me feel more comfortable.
All right. Uh...
Wow. This... It's stuck.
The future is so uncertain for me,
But I feel stronger
for him proving that, "Yes, baby, I got your back."
- You're so beautiful. Oh, my God. - Thank you. Okay.
I am so lucky to have you, baby.
Aw.
Don't worry.
You'll be headed to the USA
probably sooner than you think.
You'll see.
The K-1 visa really is the only thing keeping us apart right now.
And that's hard to take because
we have no control over it.
And the long distance, in general,
you know, it's... it's so stressful on our relationship.
So, this visa process dragging on
that... that definitely concerns me.
There we go.
Hola.
But at the same time it was, like,
probably the most productive trip I've ever had with Jasmine.
I think the security's that way.
You know, we overcame a lot
and I feel like we have a stronger connection now than we ever had before.
This is us over here. Not us, but me.
Okay.
I know it always sucks
but...
we're close now. It's not like from the beginning.
I'll try to be patient.
I will always be waiting for you.
I love you.
Mmm.
Like, sometimes I, I think to myself, you know, like,
life is so unfair because I love him so much and why I cannot be with him.
I understand there are rules. He's American...
You know, I know that's crazy but, like,
guys, if you could only see what we are going through you would understand.
I'll see you soon, okay?
I am heartbroken that he's leaving again.
But I am gonna put all my faith into his words
that he's gonna do whatever he has to do
to be finally together.
I love you, baby.
Because...
Razvan and I got back from Croatia yesterday.
Things have been kind of tense.
and it's upsetting to feel like
there hasn't been much progress in our relationship.
We only have two days left together
and I want more solid answers and
like, an outlook for the future.
Are you upset?
No, why would I be upset?
- So, what? Okay. - I just wanted to say hi.
You know I don't have, like, many days left.
I know.
Like, we had a good time in Croatia...
Like...
everything has been going good.
So, when I leave...
do you think we're gonna be, like, engaged?
You want to be engaged?
I would feel better about our relationship and, like, more secure
if I knew you were, like, willing to commit more.
Engagement was something Razvan and I discussed before I came to Romania.
Since I've been here we've had so many fights but
I feel like I still want to be engaged to Razvan.
I want to feel like, despite all of our fights
he's committed to me because I'm scared, like, when I leave
that he will say, "Okay, you know what,
our relationship isn't the best
and, you know, we just need to, like, part ways."
70% of the time were just fights.
Like, from the fights that we've had here
I've tried to explain it, like,
my emotions, like, with Jason and feeling like finally
- ending that part of my life was difficult for me to-- Yes. - No.
All... all of this time was so difficult for you.
Five months, so difficult.
Through the phone, so difficult.
And again and again and again.
Like, it's not about...
Jason, it's not about anything.
So many things happened until this point.
After so many things you think
I just need to forget everything.
I'm shocked that Amanda is talking about being engaged.
How can you want to be engaged with someone when we only have fights?
Only because you want a commitment?
I mean, the biggest commitment is I didn't give up until now.
And I'm still here and I'm still fighting.
I don't know. It's not enough.
But...
I feel like...
sometimes my feelings stopped a long time ago...
and I just try to recreate them and then you are just shutting me down,
and we have little time left
and even these days, even there are perfect days,
it will not save... everything.
It sounds like you don't even know
if you want to be together with me right now.
I don't know.
Honey babe,
I'm preparing myself to say goodbye to David.
Because he is going back to the U.S. tonight.
But, I'm not ready to see him leave.
I'm worried about our future.
Because I don't know when will I see him again.
♪ Someday you're gonna come out and it's so beautiful ♪
♪ Someday you're gonna wake up and feel no pain ♪
♪ Like a butterfly rising on the wind ♪
♪ When you found your wings ♪
*Then your life begins ♪
Okay.
I really want to have clarity from Statler about whether she wants kids or not.
Because if we want different things it could just be a waste of time.
So you know, if we like did get married and I wanted kids,
I don't think it would work between us.
- This is super cute. - It is very cute.
Aw!
- This is like a proper tea party. - Proper, yeah.
Except you don't drink tea.
It's our last morning in Scotland.
And we are having our last little breakfast in the castle.
Overall, our time together here has been absolutely amazing.
But, I'm feeling sad because I'm going after this trip.
So, it is hard to enjoy the moment.
Because, I know it's about to end.
Can I get you any cute breakfast this morning?
- Yes, do you have any vegan options for breakfast? - We do.
We've got vegan bacon sausage.
Yeah, how about toast?
- Yeah, of course, yeah. - Thank you.
- This is nice. - It's very nice.
Very quiet, though.
- Like too quiet. - It's too quiet, isn't it?
The last two days have been so nice.
And I am starting to imagine what our life together can be like.
But I'm worried because, in the car right yesterday,
me and Statler had a conversation
about having a family.
And it doesn't seem like we're on the same page about that.
I really want to have clarity from Statler about whether she wants kids or not.
Because if we want different things, our whole relationship
could just be a waste of time.
So, I'm getting a little bit emotional as our time is coming to an end.
I know, I didn't wanna think about it.
Sad.
I kind of wanna talk about our future.
Okay.
- So you know, if you'd like to get married one day? - Yeah.
And say...
like I wanted... I wanted kids.
And...
I... obviously has to be like both of us that makes a decision.
- Yeah. - Whether we do or not.
- Why do you want kids. Yeah. - Why?
I just think I'd be really good Mom.
And children make the world a better place, you can learn so much from kids.
- You don't want kids? - I don't know if I want kids.
It just seems like a lot of work.
Yeah, but... But it'll be worth it.
Like, I look at my dad's relationship with me and my
grandparents relationship with what they had with my dad
and it was just a beautiful thing to... to watch and be a part of.
And I would like to have a like a little mini me running around.
Would you adopt?
Yeah, I would consider adoption, yeah.
I would have one of each.
I don't know if I could adopt.
'Cause I'm an adoptee and I just know
all of the incredible struggles that adoptees face, I don't know if I
personally have the mental willpower, emotional willpower.
Okay, I just, I don't feel like I have that maternal bond inside me.
I think a lot of people go into adoption just thinking it's all hunky-dory,
and the kid's gonna be grateful to you.
and things are gonna be easy and you're really gonna have to think about
a million different things.
And it's just not the case.
You know, I was taken away pretty much the second I was born,
so I've always felt
that missing part of me.
And I still have a lot of
adoptee trauma that I have not worked through.
It's honestly kind of triggering just to have this kind of conversation.
Mmm, well...
I will have a child at some point, whether I do it at my own or not.
If you wanted kids badly
then like you had to have kids then I don't think it will work between us.
'Cause I really don't... I really don't want kids.
Okay.
Cool.
Great talk. I'm gonna go get ready now.
Okay.
Dempsey and I have talked about
kids and she said, you know she might want kids in the future.
Now, she really, really wants kids.
But, it's a lot of responsibility
And I don't have that same experience of what she saw with
her granddad and her dad and how they all have like this super tight family.
It's hard to relate to.
I was really hoping I'd be enough for her.
But, now I'm terrified that I'm not.
It's something that she hadn't made her mind upon yet and
that she would consider it.
Yeah. It's a make it or break it for her, isn't it so?
Next time on, Before the 90 Days
You know that, I love you so much, Meisha.
I have no doubts that I'm willing to marry her. But I don't know how
her brain, her heart will say to me.
Are you saying yes or no?
What is this?
Like a little present, because I love you.
What?
After our disagreement I'm worried that he's gonna give up on us.
In my head, I'm just trying to mentally prepare myself for what's about to happen.
I love you so much.
But, that... you are my worst enemy.
Things will not change.
Are congratulations in order?
Am I gonna be an aunty?
Last week Violet called me and told me that she's pregnant.
And it's my...
What happened?
Dempsey.
Like, can you frickin talk to me?
That's make or break for our relationship
and you just said our relationship is not gonna work.
Are you done with us?
I'm just holding on to the positives.
It's not like I can forget things that happened.
Some of the things are little bit like a dent in our relationship.
Sometimes you can really love somebody.
At the same time, you just know that maybe you're not meant to be together.
It's a huge day, because Jasmine has her visa interview
at the embassy in Panama.
We've been waiting over an year and a half. I'm so excited.
I can't wait.
Jasmine, baby, there you are.