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♪ There'll be a new day ♪
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♪ Let's fly away ♪
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♪ And see the world as one ♪
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- ♪ La, la, la, la, la ♪
- [Karamo] ♪ La, la, la, la, la ♪
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[Jonathan]
We're gonna harmonize as a car. Ready?
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- ♪ La ♪
- ♪ La ♪
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- [Jonathan] ♪ Ah ♪
- ♪ Ah ♪
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- That was really good vibrato, Karamo.
- Thanks.
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Know what they say
about people who have good vibrato?
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- What?
- ♪ Oh ♪
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Bobby, you look so pretty today,
even when you make that face.
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Your skin looks great.
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- [laughing]
- You really do. You look great.
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[upbeat music plays]
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♪ Better ♪
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♪ Oh, things just keep getting better ♪
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[Jonathan] Oh yeah.
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So our hero this week
is Mary Henderson-Uloho.
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She is 65 years old,
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{\an8}and she owns Sister Hearts thrift store
in Arabi.
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- I love a thrift store!
- Yeah.
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[woman] Can't nobody tell me nothing.
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Nothing!
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'Cause I did that. I did that.
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[Jonathan] "Sister Hearts is also
a work program Ms. Mary created
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to employ the formerly incarcerated."
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Prison or not, I did that.
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This is nice.
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"While on vacation in New Orleans
more than 20 years ago,
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Mary was arrested
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and never returned
to her home in Dayton, Ohio."
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Went to prison for 12 and a half years,
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and I had to do
12 and a half years on parole
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for obstruction of justice.
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I met a guy.
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We were just having fun
when the police stopped us.
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They wanted me to lie on this man.
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I didn't talk. I refused.
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"Mary was convicted and sentenced
here in New Orleans,
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where she spent
the greatest portion of her adult life,
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leaving her seven children behind."
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I had to just cut that piece of my brain
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and just put it in a box and seal it
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in order for me to stay focused
on surviving inside prison.
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"Over the course of her sentence,
Mary not only lost her sense of self,
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but she missed out
on seeing her seven children grow up,
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which really took a toll on Mary's mind."
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I bet.
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Prison dehumanized me,
desensitized me, and demoralized me.
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Something happens to your brain in prison
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where you can't do your time inside
if your mind is outside.
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Why is it so... hard for me
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to just be a mother to my children
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when they're my world
and I love them all so much?
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"Still, Mary's children have continued
to adore her and even see her as a hero."
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"Mary, however, struggles
to see value in herself as a person
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and especially as a mom."
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No!
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- Uh-oh.
- I got it.
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Thank you.
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"Mary is nominated
by her companion, Anthony,
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who met Mary through Sister Hearts."
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{\an8}She spends a lot of time
helping people sort through prison trauma,
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but nobody, you know,
helps her with her struggles.
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She just doesn't stop working.
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But she spends all of her time
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to help improve the quality of life
for other people.
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And it gives her a way
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to avoid helping improve
the quality of her own life.
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Mary does not know who she is
outside of running her program.
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She has neglected herself a lot.
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She has grown children that she avoids,
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and I think that she needs to be there
before it wastes more time.
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"Mary is now officially a free woman,
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but she has found herself stuck in a place
where her body is free,
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but her heart and mind
still feel incarcerated."
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That is heartbreaking.
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I still represent prison.
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And I don't wanna
represent prison anymore.
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I'm no longer on parole.
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I am completely free.
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I want to change.
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I just don't know how.
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"Our mission this week is
to help this Sister Heart free her soul!"
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- Yes!
- [laughs]
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Yes, Mary!
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[energetic music plays]
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{\an8}- [Tan] My gosh. It's cute!
- [Bobby] Yeah.
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{\an8}[Tan] It's pink!
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{\an8}Tan, you brought your credit card, right?
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- Yeah. Always.
- Okay.
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- Hello?
- Oh, I love it here.
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- Mary!
- [Tan] Hi, Mary.
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- Look at you! Look at y'all!
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[Karamo] How are you doing,
beautiful lady?
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Mary reminded me of one of my aunties.
You just wanna get a hug from her.
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Those are fabulous.
Oh, look at these! Oh my God!
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- You can try them on later. I know.
- Okay.
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You just feel the love.
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- This is Anthony.
- [Tan] Hello.
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- [Tan] Nice to meet you.
- [Bobby] Ah, your nominator.
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Tell us what this business here
does for the community.
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When people come home from prison
and they can't find jobs,
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this, they know they got a job
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because this is created
specifically for them.
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Anthony was homeless,
just like I had been.
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He has done a total of 18 years.
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He was spiraling.
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In a year,
he completely runs this operation.
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He supports me.
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Everything about my life
is completely different.
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I have hope. I have confidence.
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[Mary] I do something
that's totally revolutionary.
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It's called decarceration.
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- Can you show us?
- [Jonathan] Please.
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- Let's see.
- Okay, if I put this up here...
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In prison,
I know that shoe doesn't belong there,
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but if I move that shoe,
I could go to solitary confinement.
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Now I don't know anything different.
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When they come to Sister Hearts,
I say, "Okay, Jonathan, declutter it."
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So Jonathan's gonna do this.
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He says, "I don't want that there.
I want this here."
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That's how simple decarceration is.
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Giving somebody permission
to think for themselves again.
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Everything that you see
that's placed in here
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has been done by a person that was broken,
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that is going
through organizational therapy.
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[Jonathan]
Look at how good it looks in here!
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[Karamo] Oh my gosh.
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I love a thrift store.
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Even the ridiculous things.
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Somebody made a choice
to buy that one day.
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- [Karamo] Do you like?
- Look at this.
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There are fanny packs.
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There are hats. There are scarves.
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There are shoes.
There are little trinkets.
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I'm at the thrift store.
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- I'm thrifting.
- So chic.
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There is something for everybody here.
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You are helping people around here,
so now we're gonna help you a little bit.
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- [Bobby] Let's get to your house.
- [Jonathan] We wanna see where you live.
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We're gonna take very good care of you.
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I'm gonna have to come back
for this fanny pack.
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- Bye, everyone!
- All right. Bye-bye, guys.
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♪ Come on ♪
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♪ Do it, do it ♪
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♪ Do it, do it ♪
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[Tan]
We're excited to see your house, Mary.
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Your house is done.
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[laughing]
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- [Mary] So this is home.
- [Antoni] Whoo!
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This is a very big kitchen.
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- Yes.
- So many pots. Very exciting.
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This is the bedroom.
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- [Bobby] I like the nice tall bed.
- This bed vibrates.
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[all] Ooh!
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[Jonathan]
Come to the Mary Love Motel, honey.
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[Tan] Lay down, Mary.
Let's see you vibrate.
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[Mary] No, I don't wanna.
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Put it on high. Tanny's coming in.
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Oh, that's nice.
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- I like this, Mary.
- Yes.
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[Tan] You guys go look around the house.
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- I'm gonna stay here.
- Catch me, Tanny! I'm coming.
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[Mary] Let me show you the bathroom.
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- Now--
- It's a good size.
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- It is a good size.
- [Bobby] But there--
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- [Mary] But--
- [Bobby] Got a lot of stuff in here too.
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Everything in the house
came from the thrift store.
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- Yeah.
- Everything.
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The home is dark.
All the curtains are pulled.
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She has all the clutter.
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[Tan] Mary, you have stuff.
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You got a lot of stuff.
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So, when I got out of prison,
you know, I just wanted to have stuff
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because I wasn't allowed to have stuff.
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Maybe we work out
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how we can help you choose the things
you actually care about.
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The less romantic term for that
is editing.
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Okay.
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[Bobby] If you were to take me
to one little spot in your house,
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what would be your favorite thing?
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{\an8}This is my favorite place
in the whole house right here.
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{\an8}As crazy as it may sound to some people,
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I just come sometimes
and I like to just sit on the sofa
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and just look out the window,
see my plants,
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and I feel in touch with nature,
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like I'm in touch with my creator,
you know?
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'Cause the same creator that created me
created these plants,
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and that just makes me feel human.
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- That is a beautiful thing. Yes.
- Right?
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- Karamo is really good with plants.
- [Mary] Really?
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No, I'm not.
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[Bobby laughs]
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Go. Go. Go.
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Whoa!
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I don't even know who she is.
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No. [chuckles]
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I wanna know a little bit more
about your life before you went to prison.
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Before prison?
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{\an8}I have a degree
in property management and real estate.
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{\an8}I would buy houses
from sheriff's sales, tax sales,
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and then I would sell them
to single moms, senior citizens.
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I'm also the mother of seven children.
Six sons and one baby girl.
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{\an8}- [Karamo] Tell me about your kids.
- [Mary] I got pregnant at 16.
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{\an8}My mother said, "You're pregnant.
You're gonna get married."
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{\an8}She just gave me to him,
actually forced me to go with him.
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I didn't wanna do it at all.
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My children, I grew up with them.
That's my firstborn.
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That one was my absolute best.
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I see that he passed away.
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Were you out of prison
when he passed away?
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- No.
- Mm.
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He was killed on a motor accident.
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I wasn't able to go to his funeral.
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And I never got a chance to say goodbye.
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I'm so sorry.
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That was... that was my breaking point.
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[voice breaking]
He was the first person on the planet
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that I felt like loved me for real.
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What's your relationship like
with your other children?
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- They're scattered. They're everywhere.
- Got it.
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You know, I don't know
how they even feel towards me.
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I almost feel guilty.
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You know, it's like,
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do you imagine being in a place
for 12 and a half, almost 13 years
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and you're not allowed
to touch one human being?
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- No.
- So I get out.
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And now I got this big 6'5'' son
that wants to hug.
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It's too much.
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Well, you spent 12 years disconnected.
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Some of them, they don't even know
what I've accomplished.
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- This is hurting you.
- It is.
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- [Karamo] Yeah.
- It is.
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When's the last time
you cooked for somebody?
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Before COVID.
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'Cause when I looked in your freezer,
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you have a lot of different proteins
in large amounts.
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I got seven kids,
so I'm used to cooking a lot of food.
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- How often do you cook for them?
- I used to. I still have that mentality.
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Everything was in a gray pot.
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I would put the meat,
the potatoes, the rice, the vegetables.
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[Antoni] One-pot deal.
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{\an8}- That's it. But I don't do it that often.
- Okay.
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I do like cooking.
246
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I do, but when I come in here
after 12, 14 hours a day,
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I'll just eat
a peanut butter and jelly sandwich,
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go to my room, and get on the computer.
249
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Not that it's bad to have
a peanut butter and jelly sandwich,
250
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but what if you want a home-cooked meal,
but you don't have the time for it?
251
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- Have you ever heard of meal prep?
- No.
252
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So it's the idea of just making
a large amount of something,
253
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and then you can store it,
label it, put it in the freezer.
254
00:11:15,551 --> 00:11:18,637
- So you can freeze stuff in them things?
- A hundred percent.
255
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Your home is now in New Orleans.
Have you tried New Orleans cuisine?
256
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I don't even eat gumbo.
257
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I don't venture out and try new things.
258
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[Tan] I would totally wear that.
That is beautiful.
259
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- Look at how pretty that is.
- She has some good stuff up here.
260
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- See this?
- [Jonathan] Love your wrap.
261
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- I made this.
- You did?
262
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- I made it.
- You sewed that?
263
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Let me show you how gorgeous...
264
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{\an8}- It matches.
- With my outfit too!
265
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{\an8}Yes.
266
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{\an8}Look-a there.
267
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- [gasps] Mary!
- Ain't that gorgeous? [laughs]
268
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It's gorgeous, isn't it?
269
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[Tan] Wow.
270
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Old school.
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I love my elliptical.
272
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Faster.
273
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It's zebra, but for the bathroom.
274
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[upbeat synth music plays]
275
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How long have you been growing your locs?
276
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I'd say about 12 years.
277
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Twelve years of length.
Let's see how long they are
278
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'cause we haven't gotten to see so far.
279
00:12:09,730 --> 00:12:11,607
You got a full-ass head of hair.
280
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- [Mary] Yeah.
- [Jonathan] That is down to your knees.
281
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[Mary] Yeah. Yeah.
282
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You could take those locs
and throw 'em into the river
283
00:12:17,946 --> 00:12:19,740
and let someone climb up 'em, honey.
284
00:12:19,740 --> 00:12:21,742
These are some long locs.
285
00:12:21,742 --> 00:12:24,745
But that's what you were rocking
the whole time when you were in.
286
00:12:24,745 --> 00:12:27,164
It's what you've been rocking
since you've been out.
287
00:12:27,164 --> 00:12:31,418
These locs are serving time in memoriam.
288
00:12:31,418 --> 00:12:34,713
Is there a dream that you've ever wanted
to play with your hair
289
00:12:34,713 --> 00:12:36,173
that we never had a chance?
290
00:12:36,173 --> 00:12:39,510
Jonathan, these locs
was for security purposes.
291
00:12:39,510 --> 00:12:43,055
These locs, they helped to keep me safe.
292
00:12:43,055 --> 00:12:45,599
In prison, they grab your hair,
293
00:12:46,183 --> 00:12:49,853
and they use your hair
to control your body.
294
00:12:49,853 --> 00:12:52,773
So what I did
was I put little plaits in my hair
295
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so I didn't have long hair,
and my hair wasn't exposed.
296
00:12:56,944 --> 00:12:59,279
- Right.
- And dreadlocks just grew and grew.
297
00:12:59,279 --> 00:13:02,991
- It was like a literal protective style.
- It was a literal protective style.
298
00:13:02,991 --> 00:13:04,326
- Right.
- It was not a style.
299
00:13:04,326 --> 00:13:07,079
I don't know anything
to do with these at all.
300
00:13:07,579 --> 00:13:09,832
- And now--
- So maybe you want a little change?
301
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Maybe a little change.
302
00:13:11,959 --> 00:13:13,335
[upbeat music plays]
303
00:13:14,336 --> 00:13:16,046
This is actually a computer mouse.
304
00:13:16,547 --> 00:13:18,257
I haven't seen one of these
in a long time.
305
00:13:18,257 --> 00:13:20,259
- What is this, Antoni?
- [Antoni] It's a chopped--
306
00:13:20,259 --> 00:13:22,719
- Oh, that's a Fleshlight.
- It's... [laughs]
307
00:13:26,098 --> 00:13:27,850
I don't know what any of that means.
308
00:13:29,059 --> 00:13:30,936
What makes you feel good in clothes?
309
00:13:31,687 --> 00:13:33,522
- [Mary] I have a dress in here.
- [Tan] Show me.
310
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This dress right here,
311
00:13:34,898 --> 00:13:37,484
{\an8}I wore this kind of stuff
before I went to prison.
312
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{\an8}- Okay.
- It made me feel feminine.
313
00:13:39,736 --> 00:13:41,488
{\an8}- Okay.
- It made me feel ladylike.
314
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I'm authoritative.
I'm not a very joking person.
315
00:13:44,533 --> 00:13:47,035
Not a jokey person?
You feel like a bag of fun.
316
00:13:47,035 --> 00:13:48,787
- No.
- [Tan laughs] No?
317
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Have you ever worn it?
You've got your tag on still.
318
00:13:51,290 --> 00:13:53,667
I think I need to lose
maybe a pound or two.
319
00:13:53,667 --> 00:13:56,295
I had a little snoop. Who is she?
320
00:13:56,295 --> 00:13:59,006
- She's not Mary. She can't be Mary.
- [Mary] No.
321
00:13:59,006 --> 00:14:01,466
This closet is all over the place.
322
00:14:01,466 --> 00:14:04,344
There are a thousand personalities
in this closet.
323
00:14:04,344 --> 00:14:07,014
One, maybe two of them, are Mary.
324
00:14:07,014 --> 00:14:09,308
The rest of them
are some other random lady.
325
00:14:09,308 --> 00:14:13,145
I would struggle every morning, thinking,
"There's so much going on here."
326
00:14:13,145 --> 00:14:15,188
"How do I figure out
who I wanna be today?"
327
00:14:15,188 --> 00:14:18,442
Even if you lived another hundred years,
you couldn't wear all this stuff.
328
00:14:18,442 --> 00:14:20,527
I am very overwhelmed by the stuff.
329
00:14:20,527 --> 00:14:24,156
So wearing a uniform
just makes my life more simpler.
330
00:14:24,156 --> 00:14:27,743
So then, my question is,
what is this all for?
331
00:14:27,743 --> 00:14:30,162
I wanna feel beautiful again.
332
00:14:30,162 --> 00:14:32,372
When was the last time, Mary,
that you felt beautiful?
333
00:14:33,206 --> 00:14:34,750
When... I married at 16.
334
00:14:34,750 --> 00:14:39,046
I remember one time
when he took me to a party,
335
00:14:39,713 --> 00:14:44,051
and my mother made
this beautiful long, flowing dress.
336
00:14:44,051 --> 00:14:47,971
- It fit in the waist, and it flared out.
- What color was it?
337
00:14:47,971 --> 00:14:50,015
It was a red color.
338
00:14:50,015 --> 00:14:51,600
- Okay.
- Red's my favorite color.
339
00:14:51,600 --> 00:14:54,895
I felt like
the most beautiful woman on the planet.
340
00:14:54,895 --> 00:14:58,732
I wanna try and get you back
to feeling that way about yourself.
341
00:14:58,732 --> 00:15:01,610
The thing that we need to work on,
it's editing.
342
00:15:01,610 --> 00:15:04,821
Making sure you're pulling
the things that aren't gonna work for you
343
00:15:04,821 --> 00:15:07,616
and keeping the things that do.
We're gonna figure this out.
344
00:15:08,241 --> 00:15:10,994
[Bobby] Was this breakfast? Or was this...
345
00:15:10,994 --> 00:15:14,581
I feel this was lunch a few days ago
'cause those pickles look pretty dry.
346
00:15:14,581 --> 00:15:17,167
- It was.
- Okay.
347
00:15:17,167 --> 00:15:20,629
In prison, if they decide not to feed me,
348
00:15:20,629 --> 00:15:24,841
I have to have food that I've stashed.
349
00:15:24,841 --> 00:15:28,345
So it's difficult for me
to just throw that away.
350
00:15:28,345 --> 00:15:32,057
Mary, I've got a question
that is truly curiosity
351
00:15:32,057 --> 00:15:33,642
and no judgment, obviously.
352
00:15:33,642 --> 00:15:37,437
What makes you wanna stay here
in New Orleans?
353
00:15:37,437 --> 00:15:38,397
[voice breaks]
354
00:15:38,397 --> 00:15:40,983
Allah wouldn't have put me
on this mountain
355
00:15:41,775 --> 00:15:44,403
if he didn't want me
to show people that it can move,
356
00:15:45,195 --> 00:15:47,114
that things could change.
357
00:15:47,114 --> 00:15:50,742
And so that's why I stayed,
because this is where I was planted.
358
00:15:50,742 --> 00:15:53,912
I was in prison,
where I saw the most suffering.
359
00:15:53,912 --> 00:15:56,623
I left a promise.
I said, "If you just get to me,
360
00:15:57,541 --> 00:16:00,711
when you get out,
you'll have a place to stay."
361
00:16:00,711 --> 00:16:04,506
"I'll help you get clothes and food.
Just get to me."
362
00:16:04,506 --> 00:16:05,507
[weeps]
363
00:16:05,507 --> 00:16:09,886
I feel so deeply
the sadness that she has in her heart.
364
00:16:09,886 --> 00:16:15,434
All she's trying to do is to help others
and make the most of it now.
365
00:16:15,434 --> 00:16:17,728
But it's very clear
from what she's telling us
366
00:16:17,728 --> 00:16:21,273
she's not had an opportunity
to really find a way forward.
367
00:16:21,273 --> 00:16:22,733
That's what we're gonna help with.
368
00:16:22,733 --> 00:16:26,695
You've given so much.
This week is about us giving to you.
369
00:16:26,695 --> 00:16:27,821
[Jonathan] To you.
370
00:16:27,821 --> 00:16:31,074
You teach everyone how to kind of,
like, find their best selves
371
00:16:31,074 --> 00:16:32,534
and find their new life.
372
00:16:32,534 --> 00:16:34,828
And now we wanna help you
find your best self
373
00:16:34,828 --> 00:16:36,830
and help you come into your new life
374
00:16:36,830 --> 00:16:38,248
'cause it's your turn, Mary.
375
00:16:38,248 --> 00:16:40,876
How does that sound?
That's different than your everyday.
376
00:16:40,876 --> 00:16:43,211
- It's wonderful.
- [Karamo laughs]
377
00:16:43,211 --> 00:16:46,214
- Let's get this week started, then.
- We're starting in three, two...
378
00:16:46,214 --> 00:16:48,091
No, I'm kidding. We're doing it now.
379
00:16:48,091 --> 00:16:49,176
[funky music plays]
380
00:16:49,176 --> 00:16:51,303
[boat horn blares]
381
00:16:51,303 --> 00:16:55,098
[Karamo] I love that Mary is opening up.
She wants to reconnect with her family.
382
00:16:55,098 --> 00:16:58,769
But I gotta get a little bit more clarity
about really what happened in Mary's past
383
00:16:58,769 --> 00:17:01,021
so we can figure out
how to give her the better future.
384
00:17:02,022 --> 00:17:06,610
Her locs came from a place of protection,
not from a place of expression,
385
00:17:06,610 --> 00:17:08,820
so what I'm here to do
is give her the access,
386
00:17:08,820 --> 00:17:10,614
give her the resources that she needs
387
00:17:10,614 --> 00:17:13,992
to be able to present the vibe
that she wants to be able to present.
388
00:17:13,992 --> 00:17:17,537
Mary's ready for a what? New chapter.
389
00:17:17,537 --> 00:17:19,664
[Bobby]
I wanna breathe life into this space.
390
00:17:19,664 --> 00:17:25,003
Right now, it feels like
a dark, dank cell,
391
00:17:25,003 --> 00:17:28,048
and I want it to feel
completely the opposite of that.
392
00:17:28,715 --> 00:17:32,177
[Antoni] That same intention
that she's teaching her employees
393
00:17:32,177 --> 00:17:33,929
to engage in in her store,
394
00:17:33,929 --> 00:17:37,474
I want Mary to do that
with herself for herself.
395
00:17:37,474 --> 00:17:39,101
And I want her to start small.
396
00:17:39,101 --> 00:17:42,813
I want to reinvigorate that excitement
of being in the kitchen.
397
00:17:43,480 --> 00:17:46,858
She has been stuck
in this Sister Hearts uniform.
398
00:17:46,858 --> 00:17:49,277
Before that, she was in a prison uniform.
399
00:17:49,277 --> 00:17:52,280
I want to remind her
that she's still a person,
400
00:17:52,280 --> 00:17:55,117
she's still a woman, she's still a human,
401
00:17:55,117 --> 00:17:58,370
and that she gets to feel beautiful.
402
00:17:58,370 --> 00:18:00,997
- [energetic music plays]
- ♪ Oh, oh, oh ♪
403
00:18:00,997 --> 00:18:04,459
♪ Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh ♪
404
00:18:04,459 --> 00:18:07,420
[Tan] You're in your favorite color, red,
which makes me so happy.
405
00:18:07,420 --> 00:18:08,505
Yeah. Thank you.
406
00:18:08,505 --> 00:18:09,714
It's a joyful color.
407
00:18:09,714 --> 00:18:12,008
This is gonna be the fun part right here.
408
00:18:12,008 --> 00:18:14,511
This is gonna be the fun part.
409
00:18:14,511 --> 00:18:17,848
- How are you feeling about shopping?
- I am feeling so excited.
410
00:18:17,848 --> 00:18:19,182
[Tan] You said you wanted color.
411
00:18:19,182 --> 00:18:21,143
- [Mary] Yes.
- We got you a place that has color.
412
00:18:21,143 --> 00:18:24,396
For over ten years,
she didn't get to play with color,
413
00:18:24,396 --> 00:18:27,899
and West London Boutique is full of color.
414
00:18:27,899 --> 00:18:29,234
It's full of play.
415
00:18:29,234 --> 00:18:31,987
So I wanna show her what can be done.
416
00:18:31,987 --> 00:18:33,280
You're a bit of a hoarder.
417
00:18:33,780 --> 00:18:36,741
I'm almost positive you know this.
It can't come as a surprise.
418
00:18:36,741 --> 00:18:37,993
But mostly in your closet.
419
00:18:37,993 --> 00:18:40,996
I wanna really show you
that you can pare back
420
00:18:40,996 --> 00:18:42,497
and have just a few things,
421
00:18:42,497 --> 00:18:44,624
and those few things
can make you look beautiful,
422
00:18:44,624 --> 00:18:48,628
as opposed to having a thousand things
and not knowing how to build a look.
423
00:18:48,628 --> 00:18:50,714
You had said
that you like a fit and flare,
424
00:18:50,714 --> 00:18:52,549
which is fitted at the waist and out.
425
00:18:52,549 --> 00:18:57,220
Now, I wanna show you versions of that.
We're not gonna go too boop-boop.
426
00:18:57,220 --> 00:18:59,222
- That feels a little princess.
- Yes.
427
00:18:59,222 --> 00:19:01,183
- And you're a lady.
- Yes.
428
00:19:01,183 --> 00:19:04,978
And I also want you
to be in light and flowy.
429
00:19:04,978 --> 00:19:07,939
It is hot here,
and I'm sure you're used to the heat.
430
00:19:07,939 --> 00:19:09,524
- No.
- [Tan] You wanna be comfortable.
431
00:19:09,524 --> 00:19:12,569
No. Who's used to this heat?
It's horribly hot. So...
432
00:19:12,569 --> 00:19:16,156
Oh. Oh!
433
00:19:16,156 --> 00:19:18,116
- [Tan] Isn't that pretty?
- That's nice.
434
00:19:18,116 --> 00:19:19,618
- [Tan] Like...
- This is royal.
435
00:19:19,618 --> 00:19:23,830
The reason why I wanted things that flow
is when you walk, you see movement.
436
00:19:23,830 --> 00:19:25,332
You seem almost ethereal.
437
00:19:25,332 --> 00:19:28,919
But we're gonna team it with dresses.
We're gonna layer things up.
438
00:19:28,919 --> 00:19:30,921
- [Mary] My goodness!
- You're gonna be blown away.
439
00:19:30,921 --> 00:19:33,965
- Oh wow. You want me to go put it on?
- [Tan] Yes, I do.
440
00:19:33,965 --> 00:19:36,885
Give me a shout if you need anything.
We're gonna give this a go.
441
00:19:36,885 --> 00:19:38,136
[Mary] Okay. Okay.
442
00:19:38,136 --> 00:19:39,304
[Tan] Mary?
443
00:19:39,304 --> 00:19:41,306
- Are you ready?
- [Mary] Yes.
444
00:19:42,182 --> 00:19:43,016
[Tan] Ah!
445
00:19:45,852 --> 00:19:48,438
Oh my goodness.
446
00:19:48,438 --> 00:19:51,608
This is so regal.
447
00:19:51,608 --> 00:19:52,651
This is so me.
448
00:19:53,151 --> 00:19:57,030
- Really?
- This is so me, yes.
449
00:19:57,030 --> 00:19:59,741
[Tan] It's missing one thing.
I got you new glasses.
450
00:19:59,741 --> 00:20:02,535
I wanted you to have
something a little chicer.
451
00:20:03,161 --> 00:20:04,663
Oh, that's better.
452
00:20:04,663 --> 00:20:07,165
- Oh my goodness.
- [Tan] Oh my gosh. That's better, Mary.
453
00:20:07,165 --> 00:20:09,834
We've cinched your waist with a belt,
454
00:20:09,834 --> 00:20:14,339
so you really are highlighting
all the most beautiful parts of yourself.
455
00:20:14,339 --> 00:20:16,383
I feel sexy.
456
00:20:16,383 --> 00:20:17,759
- [Tan] Yeah!
- I do.
457
00:20:17,759 --> 00:20:19,636
You look sexy, Mary!
458
00:20:20,595 --> 00:20:24,224
It's clear that she hasn't seen herself
look like this in a long time.
459
00:20:24,224 --> 00:20:27,686
Does this feel more like the you
that you wanna be going forward?
460
00:20:27,686 --> 00:20:28,603
Yes.
461
00:20:29,104 --> 00:20:30,230
- Great.
- Yes.
462
00:20:30,230 --> 00:20:33,483
The thing I want to keep
is Mary's essence,
463
00:20:33,483 --> 00:20:38,738
and this outfit is still very much
an elevated, sophisticated Mary.
464
00:20:39,614 --> 00:20:41,533
Ah! Mary!
465
00:20:42,033 --> 00:20:43,326
I know it's a high heel.
466
00:20:43,326 --> 00:20:45,745
[Mary]
I would have never thought of red shoes.
467
00:20:45,745 --> 00:20:49,958
Jeans and T-shirt are fine for work,
but you are this person, not that person.
468
00:20:49,958 --> 00:20:53,253
I feel powerful in this.
469
00:20:53,920 --> 00:20:55,880
We've hugged your body
in all the right places.
470
00:20:55,880 --> 00:20:58,008
- We're not doing hoochie.
- No.
471
00:20:58,008 --> 00:21:00,093
[Tan] We are doing so refined.
472
00:21:00,093 --> 00:21:01,678
- Sophisticated.
- Yes.
473
00:21:01,678 --> 00:21:04,139
I love that you're thrifty.
I don't want you to stop that.
474
00:21:04,139 --> 00:21:05,807
However, every now and then,
475
00:21:05,807 --> 00:21:10,729
going to a boutique like this
to really feel special is important.
476
00:21:10,729 --> 00:21:14,649
I am going to now make it my business.
477
00:21:14,649 --> 00:21:15,734
Good.
478
00:21:16,901 --> 00:21:18,862
[jaunty music plays]
479
00:21:22,949 --> 00:21:24,034
[Antoni] After you.
480
00:21:24,034 --> 00:21:26,494
- [Mary] This is a restaurant.
- [Antoni] Yeah.
481
00:21:26,494 --> 00:21:30,373
They really pride themselves
on Creole cuisine.
482
00:21:30,373 --> 00:21:32,500
Cajun cuisine is country food.
483
00:21:32,500 --> 00:21:34,544
Creole cuisine is city food.
484
00:21:34,544 --> 00:21:38,048
And city folk typically have access
to a lot of seafood.
485
00:21:38,548 --> 00:21:40,050
[Mary] Cajun, country.
486
00:21:40,050 --> 00:21:42,635
- Cajun, country. Creole?
- City.
487
00:21:42,635 --> 00:21:43,928
- [Antoni] City.
- [Mary] Got it.
488
00:21:43,928 --> 00:21:46,139
And you've decided
to make Louisiana your home.
489
00:21:46,139 --> 00:21:47,057
Yes.
490
00:21:47,057 --> 00:21:49,434
Since you are a one-pot queen,
491
00:21:49,434 --> 00:21:53,438
I wanted to bring all that together
and make something called shrimp étouffée.
492
00:21:53,438 --> 00:21:56,358
- I'm gonna make étouffée?
- You're gonna make étouffée.
493
00:21:56,358 --> 00:21:58,777
- Let's make some étouffée.
- We're gonna make it together.
494
00:21:58,777 --> 00:22:00,362
- Have you ever had it?
- No.
495
00:22:00,362 --> 00:22:01,404
- Never had it?
- No.
496
00:22:01,404 --> 00:22:04,532
So if you have one day
where you can make a large batch of this,
497
00:22:04,532 --> 00:22:07,660
you can put it into containers
that are nicely sealed,
498
00:22:07,660 --> 00:22:09,037
put them in the freezer.
499
00:22:09,037 --> 00:22:12,499
When you go to work, you come back,
you have a wonderful home-cooked meal.
500
00:22:12,499 --> 00:22:15,668
Down here,
everybody put they stuff on rice.
501
00:22:15,668 --> 00:22:18,588
- Do you put rice on this?
- Don't worry. We're gonna have rice.
502
00:22:18,588 --> 00:22:20,423
- You are jumping ahead.
- Okay.
503
00:22:20,423 --> 00:22:22,509
- You ready to get started?
- I am so ready.
504
00:22:22,509 --> 00:22:25,887
[Antoni] We're basically gonna go ahead
and prepare our base.
505
00:22:25,887 --> 00:22:31,434
So we have four parts onion,
one part bell pepper, one part celery.
506
00:22:31,434 --> 00:22:32,602
Beautiful.
507
00:22:33,269 --> 00:22:37,065
Perfect, and just so you know,
I'm starting on chopping the garlic up.
508
00:22:37,065 --> 00:22:38,858
Really give it a nice press.
509
00:22:39,359 --> 00:22:40,860
And then, with my curled fingers...
510
00:22:42,695 --> 00:22:43,780
Thanks, Mary.
511
00:22:43,780 --> 00:22:45,657
You have a maternal instinct.
512
00:22:45,657 --> 00:22:48,284
What was your favorite thing
that you made for your kids?
513
00:22:48,284 --> 00:22:49,911
- Chili.
- What do you put in your chili?
514
00:22:49,911 --> 00:22:52,831
Everything hot. In Ohio, it's very cold.
515
00:22:52,831 --> 00:22:57,127
The pepper helped to preserve my children
so they ain't getting colds and all that.
516
00:22:57,127 --> 00:23:01,673
We're using some similar elements here.
There's paprika, for, like, that smoke.
517
00:23:01,673 --> 00:23:03,716
Some oregano, some thyme,
518
00:23:03,716 --> 00:23:06,511
garlic powder, onion powder,
white and black pepper.
519
00:23:07,095 --> 00:23:08,096
We make this?
520
00:23:08,096 --> 00:23:11,266
This, you can buy it ready-made,
or you can just make it on your own.
521
00:23:11,266 --> 00:23:13,935
- I like to make it.
- It's a basic Creole spice blend.
522
00:23:13,935 --> 00:23:17,939
Add a little bit of butter to the center.
Put the entire spice mix in there.
523
00:23:18,606 --> 00:23:19,524
Perfect.
524
00:23:19,524 --> 00:23:21,776
- [Mary] I can smell it.
- Yeah.
525
00:23:21,776 --> 00:23:23,778
I'm gonna put in the garlic now.
526
00:23:24,404 --> 00:23:26,781
And then I'm gonna
put in the hot sauce as well.
527
00:23:27,282 --> 00:23:28,700
A little bit of white wine.
528
00:23:30,076 --> 00:23:31,369
- [Mary] The aroma!
- [Antoni] Yes.
529
00:23:31,369 --> 00:23:32,996
Now our tomatoes.
530
00:23:32,996 --> 00:23:36,166
[Mary] Oh, that smells so good.
531
00:23:36,166 --> 00:23:37,083
Okay.
532
00:23:37,083 --> 00:23:39,502
So then I'm gonna show you
how to make the slurry.
533
00:23:39,502 --> 00:23:43,173
We wanna add it as a thickening agent.
I have some shrimp stock here.
534
00:23:44,090 --> 00:23:47,010
Into this little pitcher.
And I'm gonna go ahead and put my flour.
535
00:23:47,010 --> 00:23:50,263
This is how my Polish mama made it
when I was growing up.
536
00:23:50,263 --> 00:23:52,348
So now we're gonna go ahead
and pour that in.
537
00:23:52,348 --> 00:23:53,558
Smells beautiful.
538
00:23:53,558 --> 00:23:55,310
- [Mary] It is.
- And looks super pretty.
539
00:23:55,310 --> 00:23:57,687
And this doesn't take
a long time to cook either.
540
00:23:57,687 --> 00:23:58,771
[Antoni] Not really.
541
00:23:58,771 --> 00:24:01,774
Our shrimp stock,
it's gonna thicken up as it reduces,
542
00:24:01,774 --> 00:24:04,402
and then I have
some parsley leaves as well.
543
00:24:04,944 --> 00:24:06,070
You said you like spice.
544
00:24:06,070 --> 00:24:08,072
- Did you want to add cayenne?
- [Mary] Yes.
545
00:24:08,072 --> 00:24:10,450
Great. You decide. You're the boss.
546
00:24:11,326 --> 00:24:12,494
Wow.
547
00:24:12,494 --> 00:24:13,495
What?!
548
00:24:13,495 --> 00:24:15,830
- [chuckles] That's good?
- I'm a Polish boy.
549
00:24:15,830 --> 00:24:18,166
- That's a lot of heat for me!
- [Mary chuckles]
550
00:24:19,042 --> 00:24:20,335
This is so wonderful.
551
00:24:20,335 --> 00:24:22,212
- It's therapy.
- [Antoni] A hundred percent.
552
00:24:22,212 --> 00:24:24,547
This étouffée is not gonna take away
553
00:24:24,547 --> 00:24:26,925
from the horrible things
that you experienced,
554
00:24:26,925 --> 00:24:28,551
but it's a tool, right?
555
00:24:28,551 --> 00:24:32,514
Whenever you're feeling overwhelmed,
to just be like, "All right, Mary,
556
00:24:32,514 --> 00:24:36,184
we'll center ourselves in the kitchen
and make something for ourselves."
557
00:24:36,184 --> 00:24:39,604
To me, this is a form of decarceration.
558
00:24:39,604 --> 00:24:44,192
It is reversing a mindset
that I had forgotten I even had.
559
00:24:44,192 --> 00:24:46,277
I'm looking in this pot, I'm like...
560
00:24:46,277 --> 00:24:50,073
- It's just lifting something inside of me.
- [Antoni] Yeah!
561
00:24:50,073 --> 00:24:51,616
You do so much for other people,
562
00:24:52,450 --> 00:24:55,995
but understand the importance of being
able to do this for yourself as well.
563
00:24:55,995 --> 00:24:58,790
You see, I wouldn't have got that
'cause that's about me.
564
00:24:59,374 --> 00:25:03,670
- It's not automatic for you.
- It is not automatic. Absolutely.
565
00:25:03,670 --> 00:25:06,798
There's a difference
with opening up a packet of crackers
566
00:25:06,798 --> 00:25:09,759
and just eating them so that
you get enough calories for the day
567
00:25:09,759 --> 00:25:12,470
versus nourishing yourself
and making something.
568
00:25:12,470 --> 00:25:16,140
You're telling yourself you're worthy
of the time and the effort that it took
569
00:25:16,140 --> 00:25:18,726
with something wonderful
you get to feed yourself with.
570
00:25:18,726 --> 00:25:21,062
'Cause I think that's an important part
of healing as well,
571
00:25:21,062 --> 00:25:23,481
is just showing up for yourself.
572
00:25:23,481 --> 00:25:25,692
Who's been showing me
how to do that before you came?
573
00:25:25,692 --> 00:25:27,443
- I don't know.
- Nobody!
574
00:25:28,111 --> 00:25:29,862
Now I know how to do it for myself,
575
00:25:29,862 --> 00:25:33,741
and I'm gonna be the best
shrimp-étouffée maker in New Orleans.
576
00:25:33,741 --> 00:25:34,826
That's right.
577
00:25:34,826 --> 00:25:36,119
[chuckles]
578
00:25:36,119 --> 00:25:38,496
[Antoni]
So I've peeled some beautiful shrimp.
579
00:25:38,496 --> 00:25:40,415
These are ready to go into the pot.
580
00:25:40,415 --> 00:25:44,586
Étouffée comes from the French word
"to smother" or "suffocate."
581
00:25:44,586 --> 00:25:46,337
Let's smother those shrimp.
582
00:25:46,337 --> 00:25:48,172
Our heat is nice and low.
583
00:25:48,172 --> 00:25:50,425
When they get nice and pink,
they're ready.
584
00:25:50,425 --> 00:25:52,885
Look at this shrimp étouffée.
585
00:25:52,885 --> 00:25:56,556
- I cooked up some medium-grain rice.
- Oh wow.
586
00:25:56,556 --> 00:25:59,892
Fluffed it up with a bit of butter.
Just like to put it around the rice.
587
00:25:59,892 --> 00:26:02,770
So we have
our beautiful little rice island
588
00:26:02,770 --> 00:26:05,023
and then everything around. There you go.
589
00:26:05,023 --> 00:26:08,026
[Mary] I am really feeling like
a gourmet chef here.
590
00:26:08,026 --> 00:26:10,069
- 'Cause you are.
- [Mary] Look at that.
591
00:26:10,069 --> 00:26:12,071
[Antoni] Beau-ti-ful.
592
00:26:12,071 --> 00:26:13,573
- Yes.
- [Antoni] It's really pretty.
593
00:26:14,157 --> 00:26:15,575
- May I put some lemon on yours?
- Yes.
594
00:26:15,575 --> 00:26:18,578
[Antoni] It kind of wakes everything up
in a nice, fresh way.
595
00:26:18,578 --> 00:26:20,872
And then help yourself to some garnishes.
596
00:26:20,872 --> 00:26:23,207
- Ready to try?
- [Mary] Yes.
597
00:26:26,711 --> 00:26:28,296
Oh, this is so good.
598
00:26:28,296 --> 00:26:30,757
- Whoo! There's heat!
- Yes.
599
00:26:31,382 --> 00:26:33,217
- This is delicious.
- [Antoni] Yeah.
600
00:26:33,217 --> 00:26:34,302
[Mary] You ain't playin'.
601
00:26:34,302 --> 00:26:37,764
I'm gonna make this
faster than quick got ready.
602
00:26:37,764 --> 00:26:40,224
- You know how fast quick is, right?
- [Antoni] Quick. Yeah.
603
00:26:40,224 --> 00:26:41,309
- Quick.
- Got it. [laughs]
604
00:26:41,309 --> 00:26:44,937
I'll tell you how fast I'm gonna make it.
Faster than quick got ready.
605
00:26:44,937 --> 00:26:46,230
I love that.
606
00:26:46,230 --> 00:26:47,273
Creole cuisine.
607
00:26:47,273 --> 00:26:49,817
♪ Check, I tiptoe on the rhythm
Tell 'em ♪
608
00:26:49,817 --> 00:26:52,445
♪ I'm moving mountains
It echoes loud when I preach to them ♪
609
00:26:52,445 --> 00:26:53,905
♪ Yeah, I see the purpose ♪
610
00:26:53,905 --> 00:26:57,033
{\an8}♪ Tell 'em divine lights align
Right, you know when it's your time ♪
611
00:26:57,033 --> 00:26:58,159
♪ Never tell 'em ♪
612
00:27:00,203 --> 00:27:02,038
[Karamo] I'm showing Mary this photo album
613
00:27:02,038 --> 00:27:05,541
because it's a good reminder
of who she was before she went to prison.
614
00:27:05,541 --> 00:27:07,627
But if I'm really gonna be able
to help her,
615
00:27:07,627 --> 00:27:09,587
I gotta figure out who that is.
616
00:27:10,380 --> 00:27:12,632
I'm glad we're getting
to spend our time together.
617
00:27:12,632 --> 00:27:15,134
I enjoyed getting to know you
for that little bit of time.
618
00:27:15,134 --> 00:27:16,219
Me too.
619
00:27:17,136 --> 00:27:19,347
You talk about your experience in prison,
620
00:27:19,347 --> 00:27:22,183
you talk about how you help people after,
which is all important,
621
00:27:22,183 --> 00:27:24,769
but there were
some things that stood out to me.
622
00:27:24,769 --> 00:27:27,271
You said you think
you lost your maternal instinct.
623
00:27:27,271 --> 00:27:32,193
That makes sense, but I wanted
to learn more about Mary before prison.
624
00:27:32,193 --> 00:27:33,820
You were married at 16.
625
00:27:34,320 --> 00:27:37,824
I really wanna get to know
more about that.
626
00:27:37,824 --> 00:27:39,992
When I got pregnant at 16,
627
00:27:39,992 --> 00:27:42,286
I felt all of the shame and the guilt
628
00:27:42,286 --> 00:27:45,873
and all the other things
that any other 16-year-old would feel.
629
00:27:45,873 --> 00:27:47,875
I was mad at the baby daddy,
630
00:27:47,875 --> 00:27:50,211
and I didn't really love him.
631
00:27:50,211 --> 00:27:53,965
I learned to respect him
because he was older.
632
00:27:53,965 --> 00:27:56,884
But I didn't even know him
or know what love and all...
633
00:27:56,884 --> 00:28:00,179
I was just... He was the first person
that I'd ever really been with.
634
00:28:00,179 --> 00:28:03,015
He was from a very, very wealthy family.
635
00:28:03,015 --> 00:28:06,227
You know, in all actuality,
when I step back,
636
00:28:06,227 --> 00:28:09,772
I feel as if
I was actually used as chattel.
637
00:28:11,065 --> 00:28:13,943
My family got gifts and money.
638
00:28:13,943 --> 00:28:16,028
Which leads me to say,
"Who was protecting you?"
639
00:28:18,990 --> 00:28:20,241
No one, really.
640
00:28:20,241 --> 00:28:22,285
I'm looking at this timeline now,
641
00:28:23,161 --> 00:28:26,038
and I understand
where your shame journey starts.
642
00:28:26,914 --> 00:28:29,625
This is a little girl who...
643
00:28:31,335 --> 00:28:33,171
didn't get the love she deserved.
644
00:28:33,171 --> 00:28:36,924
[Mary] I didn't grow up
in a household of love and nurturing.
645
00:28:36,924 --> 00:28:38,843
I didn't know how to do any of that.
646
00:28:40,845 --> 00:28:43,765
I think it's...
it's important to establish that,
647
00:28:44,265 --> 00:28:48,269
because when we talk
about journeys to being parents,
648
00:28:48,269 --> 00:28:51,397
we have to always remember
who are we as human beings?
649
00:28:51,397 --> 00:28:53,900
I'm not trying to take away
your prison experience,
650
00:28:53,900 --> 00:28:56,819
but what I need you to know
is that the trauma started before,
651
00:28:57,320 --> 00:29:00,281
that there's some things
that made you make choices before.
652
00:29:00,281 --> 00:29:01,240
Yeah.
653
00:29:01,783 --> 00:29:04,702
[Karamo] When I was going through
your house, I saw this.
654
00:29:04,702 --> 00:29:07,538
It looks like it was addressed to you
while you were in prison.
655
00:29:08,539 --> 00:29:11,209
This is the last letter
that I received from my son.
656
00:29:11,209 --> 00:29:12,126
[Karamo] Got it.
657
00:29:12,627 --> 00:29:13,878
Can you read this letter?
658
00:29:14,962 --> 00:29:17,507
He said, "Hello. It's me."
659
00:29:18,382 --> 00:29:20,301
This is... "It's me."
660
00:29:20,301 --> 00:29:22,595
He said, "Your number-one child."
661
00:29:23,262 --> 00:29:25,389
"I got the Koran you sent me."
662
00:29:25,389 --> 00:29:27,809
"When I was younger,
663
00:29:27,809 --> 00:29:33,564
people would actually ask me
what do I believe in, what religion."
664
00:29:34,148 --> 00:29:35,775
"I would say, 'My mother.'"
665
00:29:37,109 --> 00:29:38,820
"Sometimes I look back
666
00:29:38,820 --> 00:29:43,157
and wonder what things had to be like
for you raising us."
667
00:29:43,157 --> 00:29:45,785
"It could not have been easy. Was it?"
668
00:29:46,869 --> 00:29:49,872
"In one of your letters,
you said, 'I didn't do nothing else.'"
669
00:29:49,872 --> 00:29:52,083
"'I taught you boys how to fight.'"
670
00:29:52,083 --> 00:29:53,709
"What about love?"
671
00:29:54,460 --> 00:29:58,381
"Like, that is the only thing
I never really got to understand,
672
00:29:58,381 --> 00:30:00,132
love and emotions."
673
00:30:00,132 --> 00:30:02,552
"Mom, you did the best you could."
674
00:30:02,552 --> 00:30:05,513
"Your best has always been good for me."
675
00:30:08,432 --> 00:30:10,184
Five days before his death.
676
00:30:11,853 --> 00:30:13,104
[Karamo] He acknowledged
677
00:30:14,188 --> 00:30:16,983
that you taught him
how to fight and how to survive,
678
00:30:17,692 --> 00:30:19,485
because that's what you had to do.
679
00:30:19,485 --> 00:30:23,531
But he said he doesn't know how to love.
680
00:30:25,825 --> 00:30:27,785
Do you think
you knew how to love your kids?
681
00:30:27,785 --> 00:30:28,703
No.
682
00:30:29,412 --> 00:30:30,997
You didn't receive love,
683
00:30:30,997 --> 00:30:33,708
and then someone
put seven children in your lap
684
00:30:33,708 --> 00:30:35,626
and said, "Love them."
685
00:30:36,961 --> 00:30:39,755
How are you supposed to teach something
when you don't know how to do it?
686
00:30:40,506 --> 00:30:45,219
[voice breaking] I think I don't know how
to love them even less now than before,
687
00:30:45,720 --> 00:30:48,890
and that might be some of the reason
that I didn't wanna go back.
688
00:30:54,020 --> 00:30:56,898
Because I never really knew
how to be a mother.
689
00:30:58,608 --> 00:31:00,443
This is the first time
I've heard you be honest
690
00:31:00,443 --> 00:31:02,236
about avoiding that relationship.
691
00:31:03,154 --> 00:31:06,365
And the more you avoid something
that you know you need to look at
692
00:31:06,365 --> 00:31:09,952
is the more that shame
grows and grows in our minds
693
00:31:10,745 --> 00:31:13,998
because the shame is what's keeping you
from being with your kids.
694
00:31:13,998 --> 00:31:17,501
It's what's keeping you from saying,
"Let me just be there."
695
00:31:18,419 --> 00:31:20,046
What are you thinking right now?
696
00:31:20,046 --> 00:31:24,258
I'm thinking I would love
to call 'em back.
697
00:31:24,258 --> 00:31:25,217
Your child.
698
00:31:25,885 --> 00:31:28,554
He reaches out to me all the time.
699
00:31:28,554 --> 00:31:30,765
He's looking for love from me.
700
00:31:30,765 --> 00:31:31,974
There you go.
701
00:31:32,558 --> 00:31:37,396
You know... And I don't like excuses,
and I'm not trying to make an excuse.
702
00:31:37,396 --> 00:31:41,067
- It's just that I didn't know any better.
- Boom. That's not an excuse.
703
00:31:41,067 --> 00:31:45,613
I have to explain to them
and tell them how sorry I am.
704
00:31:45,613 --> 00:31:48,950
And what that does,
when you can acknowledge,
705
00:31:48,950 --> 00:31:51,702
give yourself forgiveness,
and then ask for forgiveness,
706
00:31:51,702 --> 00:31:52,912
it takes away the shame.
707
00:31:52,912 --> 00:31:54,413
Because you deserve it.
708
00:31:54,413 --> 00:31:57,208
- Yeah.
- But more so, your children deserve it.
709
00:31:57,208 --> 00:31:59,460
- And my grandchildren.
- [Karamo] And your grandbabies.
710
00:31:59,460 --> 00:32:01,003
It means every morning saying,
711
00:32:01,003 --> 00:32:03,798
"I'mma get up. I acknowledge
I didn't know what I was doing,
712
00:32:03,798 --> 00:32:07,051
but I know what I'm doing today,
so let me call and say, 'I love you.'"
713
00:32:07,051 --> 00:32:10,429
"Let me try to do for you everything
little Mary didn't have done for her."
714
00:32:10,429 --> 00:32:12,098
But you can break those cycles.
715
00:32:12,890 --> 00:32:13,891
You know I will. [laughs]
716
00:32:13,891 --> 00:32:14,934
- [Karamo] I do.
- I will.
717
00:32:14,934 --> 00:32:17,061
[Karamo]
If I know anything about your personality...
718
00:32:17,853 --> 00:32:21,107
- [Mary] Karamo, thank you so much.
- [Karamo] Mm.
719
00:32:25,236 --> 00:32:26,529
♪ Ooh! ♪
720
00:32:26,529 --> 00:32:28,447
- [Mary] Yes.
- [Bobby] I listen. I listen.
721
00:32:29,198 --> 00:32:30,700
[Mary] Ooh!
722
00:32:30,700 --> 00:32:34,954
[Bobby] I want to teach Mary
how to be more intentional
723
00:32:34,954 --> 00:32:37,248
about the things
we surround ourselves with.
724
00:32:37,248 --> 00:32:40,418
Plants are such an important part
of someone's home
725
00:32:40,418 --> 00:32:44,630
'cause not only do they literally
breathe life into your space,
726
00:32:44,630 --> 00:32:46,382
it's something that you can nurture.
727
00:32:46,382 --> 00:32:48,134
That's beautiful.
728
00:32:49,719 --> 00:32:55,850
♪ I had a feeling coming over me
Like oh, oh, oh, oh, oh ♪
729
00:32:57,351 --> 00:33:00,604
♪ I feel something ♪
730
00:33:01,188 --> 00:33:04,650
♪ Ahhhh ♪
731
00:33:04,650 --> 00:33:06,277
♪ For you ♪
732
00:33:07,236 --> 00:33:09,780
- [Jonathan] Look at this gorgeous space.
- This is so nice!
733
00:33:09,780 --> 00:33:11,741
The green, it's so calming.
734
00:33:11,741 --> 00:33:14,452
Mary is so beautiful externally.
735
00:33:14,452 --> 00:33:16,412
She's so beautiful internally.
736
00:33:16,412 --> 00:33:19,790
But she doesn't feel beautiful.
737
00:33:19,790 --> 00:33:22,418
- How are you? You own this place?
- This is Mary. We love her.
738
00:33:22,418 --> 00:33:25,337
She is welcoming us
into her space and her salon.
739
00:33:25,337 --> 00:33:27,673
- Nice to meet you.
- I've been waiting.
740
00:33:27,673 --> 00:33:30,301
[Jonathan] We have been waiting.
We've all been waiting, queen.
741
00:33:30,301 --> 00:33:31,218
Yes.
742
00:33:31,218 --> 00:33:33,095
I just wanna be a cheerleader for Mary.
743
00:33:33,095 --> 00:33:35,723
You've been having
these gorgeous locs for...
744
00:33:35,723 --> 00:33:38,851
Twelve years. A long... Oh yes.
745
00:33:38,851 --> 00:33:44,523
You'd said the other day that you're ready
for, like, a new Mary, a new vibe.
746
00:33:45,274 --> 00:33:46,692
- Is it true?
- It is true.
747
00:33:46,692 --> 00:33:49,653
This represents an old me,
748
00:33:49,653 --> 00:33:51,322
a strong me,
749
00:33:51,322 --> 00:33:54,158
but now she is light and airy,
750
00:33:54,158 --> 00:33:56,327
and she can just be.
751
00:33:56,327 --> 00:34:00,289
And you have just been,
like, literally deprived
752
00:34:00,289 --> 00:34:02,124
of getting to play with your hair.
753
00:34:02,124 --> 00:34:03,209
Yes.
754
00:34:04,251 --> 00:34:05,503
Give me your hands.
755
00:34:07,838 --> 00:34:10,007
I'm so proud of you.
756
00:34:10,007 --> 00:34:11,717
Everything that you've been through,
757
00:34:11,717 --> 00:34:15,012
any aspects of it
that no longer serve you,
758
00:34:15,012 --> 00:34:17,223
I want you to let those things go.
759
00:34:18,057 --> 00:34:18,974
[exhales]
760
00:34:18,974 --> 00:34:20,726
We are exhaling those things out today
761
00:34:20,726 --> 00:34:24,522
because you are walking out of here
a different woman than what you walked in.
762
00:34:24,522 --> 00:34:26,440
Yes. I receive that.
763
00:34:26,440 --> 00:34:29,819
Supermodel documentary hour, commence! Ah!
764
00:34:29,819 --> 00:34:31,529
- [Mary laughs]
- [man] Fun.
765
00:34:31,529 --> 00:34:33,948
- [Jonathan] We're doing it, queen.
- My name's Quentin.
766
00:34:33,948 --> 00:34:36,742
[Jonathan]
Quentin is the most talented hairstylist.
767
00:34:37,243 --> 00:34:40,162
- I'm glad to be a part of this journey.
- [Mary] Thank you.
768
00:34:40,162 --> 00:34:42,289
I don't have to hide
behind my locs anymore.
769
00:34:43,082 --> 00:34:44,375
- You ready, Mary?
- I'm ready.
770
00:34:44,375 --> 00:34:46,252
- It's happening.
- [Mary] I'm free now.
771
00:34:47,586 --> 00:34:48,963
- I am free.
- [Jonathan] Wow.
772
00:34:50,339 --> 00:34:54,593
- I literally feel love in this hair.
- Yes.
773
00:34:55,803 --> 00:34:58,222
My hand is, like, buzzing when I hold it.
774
00:34:58,222 --> 00:35:01,851
We are going
on a whole new journey, for real.
775
00:35:01,851 --> 00:35:04,854
We're just gonna start getting done
with our bad selves.
776
00:35:04,854 --> 00:35:05,938
[Quentin] Let's detangle.
777
00:35:05,938 --> 00:35:08,107
[Jonathan] Should we come in,
detangle crew?
778
00:35:08,607 --> 00:35:10,442
{\an8}Yes, we are coming in.
779
00:35:10,943 --> 00:35:11,777
{\an8}Oh fuck.
780
00:35:11,777 --> 00:35:13,279
{\an8}[laughing]
781
00:35:13,279 --> 00:35:15,364
{\an8}- [Quentin] That comb was mad!
- [Jonathan] Want Advil?
782
00:35:15,364 --> 00:35:16,740
{\an8}[Mary] No, not yet.
783
00:35:17,741 --> 00:35:18,993
♪ I got to get up ♪
784
00:35:20,578 --> 00:35:22,663
{\an8}[Jonathan] Someone get
this woman an Advil.
785
00:35:25,958 --> 00:35:27,042
{\an8}Oh my God, my hands.
786
00:35:27,042 --> 00:35:29,378
{\an8}I just tried to move them,
and they were like...
787
00:35:29,378 --> 00:35:30,546
{\an8}[laughing]
788
00:35:31,422 --> 00:35:33,090
{\an8}♪ And I'm gonna say what I want ♪
789
00:35:33,090 --> 00:35:34,300
{\an8}♪ And... ♪
790
00:35:35,426 --> 00:35:37,469
{\an8}[Mary] I'm fascinated with the color.
791
00:35:38,137 --> 00:35:39,930
{\an8}[Jonathan] I think
we should keep your natural.
792
00:35:39,930 --> 00:35:42,683
{\an8}It's taken me 65 years to get this gray.
793
00:35:42,683 --> 00:35:44,393
{\an8}[Jonathan] I think we should treasure it.
794
00:35:44,393 --> 00:35:46,395
{\an8}- That's how I feel.
- [Jonathan] Let's treasure it.
795
00:35:46,395 --> 00:35:48,898
{\an8}- Yeah.
- [Jonathan] I love that for us.
796
00:35:48,898 --> 00:35:49,857
{\an8}♪ Up and go ♪
797
00:35:49,857 --> 00:35:51,775
{\an8}♪ I got to get up and go ♪
798
00:35:52,359 --> 00:35:54,195
{\an8}♪ Up, up, and go
I got to get up ♪
799
00:35:54,195 --> 00:35:56,155
{\an8}[Jonathan] Damn, Mare-bear.
800
00:35:56,655 --> 00:35:58,657
{\an8}- [woman] That's it!
- [Quentin] That's the last one.
801
00:35:58,657 --> 00:36:01,327
{\an8}- [Jonathan] Good job, team.
- [applause]
802
00:36:01,327 --> 00:36:05,456
{\an8}- Record-breaking time!
- [woman] Oh my God!
803
00:36:05,456 --> 00:36:06,457
{\an8}Damn!
804
00:36:06,457 --> 00:36:10,127
{\an8}Do you know, Mary? That's amazing.
805
00:36:10,127 --> 00:36:12,838
Group hug. We did it. Come here.
Come here. Come here.
806
00:36:12,838 --> 00:36:14,215
- Get in here!
- My hair's wet.
807
00:36:14,215 --> 00:36:16,425
We did it. It's okay. We love.
808
00:36:16,425 --> 00:36:17,843
Yay! We did it.
809
00:36:17,843 --> 00:36:20,387
Oh yes.
810
00:36:20,387 --> 00:36:22,848
- It is thick.
- [Mary laughs]
811
00:36:22,848 --> 00:36:26,310
- It is gorgeous!
- [Mary laughs]
812
00:36:26,310 --> 00:36:27,353
Mary, it really is.
813
00:36:27,353 --> 00:36:29,355
I don't know what you take,
but I want some.
814
00:36:29,355 --> 00:36:30,856
[both laugh]
815
00:36:30,856 --> 00:36:33,734
- [Jonathan] Let's start twisting.
- [Quentin] Let's start twisting it out.
816
00:36:34,360 --> 00:36:35,861
[Jonathan] You're glowing.
817
00:36:35,861 --> 00:36:37,446
- I see you.
- [Mary] Yeah.
818
00:36:38,072 --> 00:36:39,073
[Quentin] I see you.
819
00:36:42,326 --> 00:36:45,287
- [Jonathan] Are you ready to see?
- [Mary] I'm so ready.
820
00:36:48,082 --> 00:36:50,960
Oh my goodness.
821
00:36:50,960 --> 00:36:52,169
Look at there.
822
00:36:52,169 --> 00:36:55,798
- Isn't she beautiful?
- Yes, she is.
823
00:36:55,798 --> 00:36:57,174
[Jonathan] Isn't she pretty?
824
00:36:57,174 --> 00:36:59,051
She's cute.
825
00:36:59,051 --> 00:37:01,011
She's beautiful. She's gorgeous.
826
00:37:01,011 --> 00:37:02,471
This is just...
827
00:37:02,471 --> 00:37:03,764
That shine.
828
00:37:03,764 --> 00:37:05,766
Yes! Yes! Yes! Yes!
829
00:37:06,558 --> 00:37:08,269
- Isn't that gorgeous?
- Don't you love?
830
00:37:08,269 --> 00:37:09,770
Yes.
831
00:37:10,271 --> 00:37:11,814
That is so cute.
832
00:37:11,814 --> 00:37:13,857
[Jonathan] How does it feel?
833
00:37:13,857 --> 00:37:16,110
[Mary] It feels wonderful.
834
00:37:16,110 --> 00:37:18,487
- This says wisdom.
- [Jonathan] And you've earned this.
835
00:37:18,487 --> 00:37:20,322
- I've earned this.
- [Jonathan] You have.
836
00:37:20,322 --> 00:37:22,533
- And you look beautiful.
- Thank you.
837
00:37:22,533 --> 00:37:25,953
♪ Time to get a grip
And make a change ♪
838
00:37:27,288 --> 00:37:30,958
♪ Yes, I'll do it for you
Rearrange ♪
839
00:37:30,958 --> 00:37:36,964
♪ 'Cause there's just so much
A girl can hold onto ♪
840
00:37:38,340 --> 00:37:41,176
- [horn honks]
- [Antoni] They're here.
841
00:37:41,176 --> 00:37:42,511
Hey, they're here!
842
00:37:42,511 --> 00:37:44,054
[Antoni] They're here!
843
00:37:44,054 --> 00:37:46,015
I'm so excited to see her.
844
00:37:47,016 --> 00:37:48,267
[Tan] Oh my gosh!
845
00:37:48,267 --> 00:37:49,852
- [Bobby] Oh my God.
- [Antoni] What?
846
00:37:49,852 --> 00:37:51,645
- What?
- Oh my gosh.
847
00:37:51,645 --> 00:37:53,147
This looks amazing.
848
00:37:53,147 --> 00:37:55,899
[Tan] You look gorge! Hi, Mary.
849
00:37:55,899 --> 00:37:57,943
- [Bobby] Hi!
- [Jonathan] Isn't it so good?
850
00:37:57,943 --> 00:38:01,405
You know what you're giving me
with these subtle movements? Diana Ross.
851
00:38:01,405 --> 00:38:02,614
- [Jonathan] Yes.
- Yes.
852
00:38:02,614 --> 00:38:04,450
- Yes, she is.
- [Karamo] Oh my gosh.
853
00:38:04,450 --> 00:38:06,618
- It's about to start!
- To start. Are you ready?
854
00:38:06,618 --> 00:38:08,120
Somebody needs to hold my hand.
855
00:38:08,120 --> 00:38:09,788
- We're ready.
- [Mary] Ready.
856
00:38:09,788 --> 00:38:10,789
[gasps]
857
00:38:10,789 --> 00:38:12,207
Oh!
858
00:38:12,207 --> 00:38:14,585
Oh my goodness.
859
00:38:14,585 --> 00:38:16,128
- Who lives here, right?
- No.
860
00:38:16,128 --> 00:38:17,546
- You!
- This is not my house.
861
00:38:17,546 --> 00:38:19,548
- [Bobby] This is your house!
- [Mary] This is not.
862
00:38:19,548 --> 00:38:20,758
[Bobby] This is your house.
863
00:38:22,301 --> 00:38:25,054
[Mary] It's refreshing.
It's new. It's calming.
864
00:38:25,054 --> 00:38:27,681
It's tranquil. It's peaceful.
865
00:38:28,349 --> 00:38:31,643
- [cheering]
- [Mary] Bobby.
866
00:38:31,643 --> 00:38:35,981
[Bobby] The color choices she made before
were just a visceral reaction
867
00:38:35,981 --> 00:38:41,153
to her not being allowed
to have any color while in prison.
868
00:38:41,153 --> 00:38:44,573
But instead of painting walls
these dark, depressing colors,
869
00:38:44,573 --> 00:38:46,742
I brightened everything up,
870
00:38:46,742 --> 00:38:49,495
and I brought in color
through the accessories in her home.
871
00:38:49,495 --> 00:38:52,206
- All the walls are painted!
- All the walls are painted.
872
00:38:52,206 --> 00:38:56,001
- It's bright. It's happy.
- Oh, look-a here!
873
00:38:56,001 --> 00:38:59,380
Oh, Mommy's baby.
874
00:38:59,380 --> 00:39:00,923
Oh.
875
00:39:01,632 --> 00:39:05,511
This is unbelievable.
876
00:39:05,511 --> 00:39:07,012
Oh my goodness.
877
00:39:07,012 --> 00:39:09,681
- America is not ready for this.
- [Tan] America's not ready.
878
00:39:09,681 --> 00:39:13,310
America needs to see the crown molding
on that light fixture because it's cool.
879
00:39:13,310 --> 00:39:15,145
[Mary] It's beautiful.
880
00:39:15,145 --> 00:39:17,439
- Oh my God.
- Oh!
881
00:39:18,065 --> 00:39:20,317
Oh! Oh!
882
00:39:20,317 --> 00:39:22,611
Look at this bathroom.
883
00:39:22,611 --> 00:39:25,197
[Bobby] Nice and organized and cleaned.
884
00:39:25,197 --> 00:39:27,199
Everything in here is intentional.
885
00:39:27,199 --> 00:39:29,284
- [Mary] The floor! It's a new floor.
- [Bobby] Yes.
886
00:39:29,284 --> 00:39:31,995
- [Jonathan] This floor.
- [Mary] It's a floor. Yes.
887
00:39:32,496 --> 00:39:36,708
This is more
than I've ever had in my entire life.
888
00:39:36,708 --> 00:39:39,670
I didn't wanna go minimal
'cause I do know you do love things.
889
00:39:39,670 --> 00:39:42,673
So I put a lot of stuff,
but everything again is very intentional.
890
00:39:42,673 --> 00:39:45,759
[Mary] This is beautiful.
Thank you so much.
891
00:39:45,759 --> 00:39:47,719
Look! There's a dishwasher!
892
00:39:48,679 --> 00:39:50,431
Okay, calm down.
893
00:39:50,431 --> 00:39:52,850
- You don't need to calm down.
- There's a dishwasher!
894
00:39:52,850 --> 00:39:55,477
You don't need to calm down.
Scream at the dishwasher!
895
00:39:55,477 --> 00:39:57,688
- Yeah!
- Oh my goodness!
896
00:39:57,688 --> 00:39:59,690
Oh!
897
00:39:59,690 --> 00:40:02,025
Shrimp étouffée.
898
00:40:02,025 --> 00:40:05,529
[Antoni] I love storing food.
After a long day, and you're like,
899
00:40:05,529 --> 00:40:08,782
"Peanut butter and jelly sandwich
or shrimp étouffée?"
900
00:40:08,782 --> 00:40:13,078
And after we're all gone,
and you're left with your feelings,
901
00:40:13,078 --> 00:40:16,373
I thought it would be nice if you did
something nice and meditative.
902
00:40:16,373 --> 00:40:19,543
You can make your shrimp étouffée
and think about what the week was like,
903
00:40:19,543 --> 00:40:21,503
and you can have a moment for yourself.
904
00:40:21,503 --> 00:40:23,922
I know how I felt
when we were at the restaurant,
905
00:40:23,922 --> 00:40:27,259
and we cooked this for the first time.
I know what that did for me.
906
00:40:27,259 --> 00:40:30,012
Cooking through trauma.
That transformed me.
907
00:40:30,012 --> 00:40:31,638
Not gonna solve everything immediately.
908
00:40:31,638 --> 00:40:33,432
- I know.
- But it's a tool, right?
909
00:40:33,432 --> 00:40:36,852
- [Mary] Cooking through trauma.
- Yes. Cooking through trauma.
910
00:40:38,437 --> 00:40:42,107
[Tan] There's so much beautiful stuff here
that I can't wait to show you.
911
00:40:42,107 --> 00:40:44,693
So the jewelry is mostly yours.
912
00:40:44,693 --> 00:40:47,529
Even if all you did was stack the bangles,
913
00:40:47,529 --> 00:40:50,449
it really is a beautiful way
to complement any outfit.
914
00:40:50,449 --> 00:40:53,827
The most important thing
in here for me is this.
915
00:40:54,786 --> 00:40:58,790
You mentioned there was a red dress
that you wore when you were younger.
916
00:40:58,790 --> 00:41:01,960
- This is a modern take on that dress.
- [Mary] Yes.
917
00:41:01,960 --> 00:41:04,463
I hope you feel just as gorgeous
in this as you did in that.
918
00:41:04,463 --> 00:41:05,380
Yes.
919
00:41:05,380 --> 00:41:08,050
Now, because you had a lot
of African-inspired clothing
920
00:41:08,050 --> 00:41:09,384
in your closet already,
921
00:41:09,384 --> 00:41:14,097
we wanted to go with bold prints
that feel almost reminiscent of that.
922
00:41:14,097 --> 00:41:16,517
Ready to get dressed?
I wanna put you in something different.
923
00:41:16,517 --> 00:41:17,559
- Yes.
- Okay, great.
924
00:41:18,769 --> 00:41:20,187
Kids, we ready?
925
00:41:20,187 --> 00:41:21,355
- Yeah.
- Yes.
926
00:41:21,355 --> 00:41:23,440
Ms. Mary, would you join me, please?
927
00:41:25,442 --> 00:41:29,363
♪ Because I'm rolling, rolling... ♪
928
00:41:29,363 --> 00:41:30,989
[Bobby] I love this.
929
00:41:30,989 --> 00:41:33,283
[Jonathan] Mare!
930
00:41:33,283 --> 00:41:35,452
- Oh my God.
- [Karamo] Mary!
931
00:41:35,452 --> 00:41:36,787
[Tan] She's feeling herself.
932
00:41:36,787 --> 00:41:39,456
Tan, you really gave her,
like, maximalist.
933
00:41:39,456 --> 00:41:41,416
- Yes!
- [laughs]
934
00:41:42,292 --> 00:41:44,461
[Tan] The prints she had
in her closet were gorgeous.
935
00:41:44,461 --> 00:41:46,380
We wanted to give a modern take of it,
936
00:41:46,380 --> 00:41:50,008
and also, she's looking real regal,
and I wanted to really give regal.
937
00:41:50,008 --> 00:41:51,593
- Look how she's standing.
- [Tan] I know.
938
00:41:51,593 --> 00:41:55,973
Well, even though this is
very chic and ladylike and regal,
939
00:41:55,973 --> 00:41:57,266
but I feel powerful.
940
00:41:57,266 --> 00:41:58,183
Yeah.
941
00:41:58,183 --> 00:42:00,227
Over the past 12 and a half years,
942
00:42:00,727 --> 00:42:04,356
I've been made to feel like,
you know, "Hold your head down."
943
00:42:04,356 --> 00:42:06,692
- [Tan] Stifled.
- And, yeah, that kind of thing.
944
00:42:06,692 --> 00:42:10,153
"What are you looking at, inmate?"
You know, so you hold your head down.
945
00:42:10,153 --> 00:42:12,489
But it's like, "I'm looking at you."
946
00:42:12,489 --> 00:42:13,532
- Okay!
- [Tan] Yeah!
947
00:42:13,532 --> 00:42:14,866
And I'm sizzling.
948
00:42:15,367 --> 00:42:16,493
Ah!
949
00:42:16,493 --> 00:42:18,579
[Bobby] Ay, ay, ay, ay, ay, ay, ay!
950
00:42:18,579 --> 00:42:19,580
Yes, Mary.
951
00:42:19,580 --> 00:42:20,956
Next look, please.
952
00:42:20,956 --> 00:42:22,541
- Thanks, kids.
- [Mary] Be right back.
953
00:42:26,628 --> 00:42:28,672
Be quiet when you come in.
Don't be too loud.
954
00:42:28,672 --> 00:42:30,924
- We don't want her to know you're here.
- Hi!
955
00:42:30,924 --> 00:42:33,218
- Hey, everybody.
- [Bobby] Hey, Anthony, man.
956
00:42:33,218 --> 00:42:35,387
What's up? Have a seat.
957
00:42:36,179 --> 00:42:38,098
[Antoni] I saw that coming from a mile.
958
00:42:38,098 --> 00:42:39,141
[Tan] Okay, kids.
959
00:42:39,141 --> 00:42:41,393
Our gorgeous Mary.
960
00:42:43,145 --> 00:42:44,980
Yes!
961
00:42:44,980 --> 00:42:45,939
Oh!
962
00:42:45,939 --> 00:42:47,941
[all laughing]
963
00:42:48,525 --> 00:42:50,360
This is beautiful.
964
00:42:50,360 --> 00:42:52,070
[Karamo] Look at how gorgeous she looks!
965
00:42:52,070 --> 00:42:54,656
- [Anthony] She looks beautiful.
- [Karamo] Right?
966
00:42:54,656 --> 00:42:56,825
- [Antoni] Isn't she a stunner?
- [Mary] What you...
967
00:42:56,825 --> 00:42:58,160
[laughs]
968
00:42:58,160 --> 00:43:00,579
[Anthony] You look magnificent.
969
00:43:00,579 --> 00:43:02,205
Beautiful.
970
00:43:02,205 --> 00:43:04,041
- Excuse me one second.
- Look at her smile.
971
00:43:04,625 --> 00:43:06,543
- Her eyes are smiling.
- [Jonathan] Right?
972
00:43:07,544 --> 00:43:11,423
- I feel so beautiful.
- [Anthony] Your eyes are sparkling.
973
00:43:11,423 --> 00:43:14,176
- Like years have been lifted.
- [Tan] Yeah.
974
00:43:14,176 --> 00:43:18,180
I've not seen you this coy and shy
like a little... Who are you?
975
00:43:18,180 --> 00:43:20,098
I know. I know.
976
00:43:20,098 --> 00:43:21,767
{\an8}What's going on out here? Hey. Hey.
977
00:43:21,767 --> 00:43:23,727
{\an8}How you doing? Karamo. Nice to meet you.
978
00:43:23,727 --> 00:43:26,396
- [Jonathan] We love Mary.
- Absolutely gorgeous.
979
00:43:26,396 --> 00:43:27,981
- Isn't she?
- [Anthony] Yes.
980
00:43:28,565 --> 00:43:31,652
So I'm about to go get your mama right now
so she's surprised.
981
00:43:31,652 --> 00:43:32,944
I'll see y'all in a second.
982
00:43:33,695 --> 00:43:35,822
- [boy] My heart's beating.
- Why is your heart beating?
983
00:43:35,822 --> 00:43:37,824
- Are you nervous?
- Yes, I'm nervous.
984
00:43:37,824 --> 00:43:40,035
[Karamo]
We have one more surprise. Come with me.
985
00:43:40,035 --> 00:43:41,995
- [Bobby] Okay.
- [Mary] Outside?
986
00:43:42,871 --> 00:43:44,122
Here we go. Here we go.
987
00:43:45,832 --> 00:43:46,875
Who got on heels?
988
00:43:48,335 --> 00:43:52,172
- Oh my goodness!
- [man] Stop it! Stop it!
989
00:43:52,172 --> 00:43:54,174
- Look who's there!
- [man] Who in the--
990
00:43:54,174 --> 00:43:56,218
{\an8}I'll go first. Excuse me. Excuse me.
991
00:43:56,218 --> 00:43:57,928
{\an8}[laughing]
992
00:44:00,555 --> 00:44:02,599
- [Mary] Hey.
- [David] The shoes!
993
00:44:02,599 --> 00:44:04,267
[Mary laughing]
994
00:44:05,519 --> 00:44:07,604
{\an8}You look so pretty. You look so pretty.
995
00:44:08,313 --> 00:44:10,023
[boy] I like your shoes, Grandma Mary.
996
00:44:10,023 --> 00:44:11,316
Thank you.
997
00:44:12,609 --> 00:44:15,278
This is your son? And this your daughter!
998
00:44:15,278 --> 00:44:16,363
- Yes.
- Oh my God.
999
00:44:16,363 --> 00:44:18,782
Look how big they are!
1000
00:44:18,782 --> 00:44:21,660
{\an8}Mary has finally gotten to a place
where she can forgive herself,
1001
00:44:21,660 --> 00:44:23,870
{\an8}and now she can ask her kids
for forgiveness.
1002
00:44:23,870 --> 00:44:26,164
{\an8}[Taquilla] I've never group-hugged
my mom before.
1003
00:44:26,164 --> 00:44:29,167
It's time for her to actually do the work
so she can heal her family
1004
00:44:29,167 --> 00:44:31,712
and create a legacy
that is strong and vibrant.
1005
00:44:31,712 --> 00:44:34,131
[Mary] This week has been a new birth.
1006
00:44:34,131 --> 00:44:39,302
I'm not gonna say the old Mary has died
because she's still there,
1007
00:44:39,302 --> 00:44:43,849
but I have hugged more in this past week
1008
00:44:43,849 --> 00:44:47,477
than I have hugged in over 20 years.
1009
00:44:47,477 --> 00:44:49,855
- [Tan] Yes.
- [Mary] You have opened my soul.
1010
00:44:50,522 --> 00:44:51,773
My soul.
1011
00:44:52,774 --> 00:44:55,819
And you've given me
and all these people behind me
1012
00:44:55,819 --> 00:44:57,571
another opportunity.
1013
00:44:57,571 --> 00:44:59,614
Man, you guys have changed my world.
1014
00:45:01,742 --> 00:45:04,244
- Thank you so much.
- Thank you.
1015
00:45:04,244 --> 00:45:07,497
My shrimp étouffée.
1016
00:45:08,373 --> 00:45:10,459
- [Tan] And on that note...
- On that note, we love you.
1017
00:45:10,459 --> 00:45:11,668
- Y'all have fun.
- [Bobby] Bye.
1018
00:45:11,668 --> 00:45:13,044
Bye.
1019
00:45:13,044 --> 00:45:14,963
- [Anthony] Thank you so much.
- Bye, everyone.
1020
00:45:14,963 --> 00:45:16,965
Bye.
1021
00:45:16,965 --> 00:45:18,800
Oh.
1022
00:45:18,800 --> 00:45:20,302
The Fab Five.
1023
00:45:20,302 --> 00:45:22,804
- [horn honks]
- [Mary] Are you ready to go inside?
1024
00:45:23,472 --> 00:45:26,057
Welcome to my home.
1025
00:45:26,057 --> 00:45:27,476
Oh my goodness!
1026
00:45:27,476 --> 00:45:30,270
- This is beautiful.
- [chuckles]
1027
00:45:30,270 --> 00:45:33,607
This is beyond cr--
Y'all don't underst-- It's beautiful.
1028
00:45:33,607 --> 00:45:36,067
- [Jamar] Look at these shoes.
- [David] I'm tripping on that!
1029
00:45:36,067 --> 00:45:37,110
[chuckles]
1030
00:45:37,110 --> 00:45:41,072
[Mary] Hey, guys, sit down for a second.
Mama needs to tell you something, okay?
1031
00:45:41,072 --> 00:45:45,702
Um, I learned a lot this week
about myself for real.
1032
00:45:46,203 --> 00:45:50,582
And I was reading Junior's letter,
the last letter that he sent me.
1033
00:45:50,582 --> 00:45:54,795
He said, "Well, Mom,
you didn't teach me love and emotions,"
1034
00:45:54,795 --> 00:45:57,422
and I know you needed
a certain love from me.
1035
00:45:58,131 --> 00:46:01,635
I didn't know how to give that to you.
I didn't know love.
1036
00:46:03,386 --> 00:46:05,430
- I didn't know.
- Makes a big difference.
1037
00:46:05,430 --> 00:46:08,225
I kinda had a detachment.
1038
00:46:08,225 --> 00:46:10,769
And then, when I got out of prison,
1039
00:46:10,769 --> 00:46:15,023
I felt like you guys
would feel shame of me
1040
00:46:15,023 --> 00:46:16,650
because I had been to prison,
1041
00:46:16,650 --> 00:46:18,860
so I just stayed away.
1042
00:46:19,945 --> 00:46:24,241
I'm really sorry
for not being able to give you the love,
1043
00:46:24,241 --> 00:46:27,744
to be able to show you guys what love is.
1044
00:46:28,411 --> 00:46:31,081
- Right.
- We have to break that cycle.
1045
00:46:32,290 --> 00:46:33,500
We have to break it.
1046
00:46:34,376 --> 00:46:36,795
[David] I appreciate you, you know,
putting that on the table
1047
00:46:37,295 --> 00:46:39,381
'cause it's a great first step.
1048
00:46:39,965 --> 00:46:43,301
Bring everybody together,
put this whole thing behind us,
1049
00:46:43,301 --> 00:46:46,638
and really start to move
in a positive direction.
1050
00:46:47,430 --> 00:46:51,184
- I've been proud of you this whole time.
- Thank you.
1051
00:46:51,184 --> 00:46:54,271
The work that you've been doing
for yourself, that's what I'm watching.
1052
00:46:56,481 --> 00:46:58,275
But I know this is the beginning, so...
1053
00:46:59,025 --> 00:47:00,026
Thank you.
1054
00:47:00,026 --> 00:47:02,195
- I love you.
- [Jamar] And I love you back.
1055
00:47:02,195 --> 00:47:04,573
[breathes deeply]
1056
00:47:04,573 --> 00:47:07,993
- [voice breaking] I'm so proud of you.
- I'm real proud of you too.
1057
00:47:08,535 --> 00:47:13,790
[Mary] So, hopefully, this won't be
your last time here, you know?
1058
00:47:13,790 --> 00:47:15,083
[Taquilla] No, definitely not.
1059
00:47:15,083 --> 00:47:19,004
- [Mary] I'm so happy to see the baby.
- [David] I'll work on my emotions later.
1060
00:47:19,004 --> 00:47:20,505
[Mary chuckles]
1061
00:47:20,505 --> 00:47:23,216
- Well, have you had any shrimp étouffée?
- [Taquilla] I have not.
1062
00:47:23,884 --> 00:47:25,760
[Mary] Come on. Let's go feed everybody.
1063
00:47:25,760 --> 00:47:27,721
[Taquilla] The smell? Definitely.
1064
00:47:27,721 --> 00:47:29,347
[laughing]
1065
00:47:29,347 --> 00:47:30,807
We have done well.
1066
00:47:31,516 --> 00:47:35,854
We are going to have some shrimp étouffée.
1067
00:47:37,147 --> 00:47:38,773
[Anthony] This is really delicious.
1068
00:47:38,773 --> 00:47:39,858
[girl] This is good.
1069
00:47:40,775 --> 00:47:44,362
There was all this time lost.
It's so easy to get caught up on the past.
1070
00:47:44,946 --> 00:47:48,283
But she doesn't seem to hold
any bitterness or resentment.
1071
00:47:48,283 --> 00:47:51,620
She's excited about the now,
and she's hopeful for the future.
1072
00:47:51,620 --> 00:47:53,246
I think that's a lesson for all of us.
1073
00:47:53,246 --> 00:47:56,041
[laughs] You ain't got rhythm!
1074
00:47:56,041 --> 00:47:57,709
[laughing]
1075
00:47:57,709 --> 00:48:00,587
Mary teaches us
that our trauma doesn't define us,
1076
00:48:00,587 --> 00:48:03,173
and no matter what we go through,
we are capable
1077
00:48:03,173 --> 00:48:06,885
of healing, love, joy, and community.
1078
00:48:06,885 --> 00:48:08,303
And that's what life's about.
1079
00:48:10,055 --> 00:48:12,057
[smooth music plays]
1080
00:48:12,724 --> 00:48:13,725
[squeak]
1081
00:48:14,643 --> 00:48:15,477
[squeak]
1082
00:48:15,477 --> 00:48:17,938
Got a squeak that makes you tweak?
1083
00:48:17,938 --> 00:48:20,774
Don't recoil. Get some olive oil.
1084
00:48:26,780 --> 00:48:28,198
See? No more squeak.
1085
00:48:28,198 --> 00:48:29,824
[door squeaking]
1086
00:48:29,824 --> 00:48:31,993
[jazzy music plays]
1087
00:48:38,500 --> 00:48:39,918
♪ I know I got my man ♪
1088
00:48:40,794 --> 00:48:44,547
{\an8}♪ But sometimes
It feels like he's holding me down ♪
1089
00:48:45,340 --> 00:48:48,385
{\an8}♪ Your love feels like an ocean ♪
1090
00:48:48,385 --> 00:48:50,428
♪ And I try to walk ♪
1091
00:48:50,428 --> 00:48:52,639
♪ Walk on water ♪
1092
00:48:52,639 --> 00:48:54,766
♪ But the waves keep crashing ♪
1093
00:48:54,766 --> 00:48:56,977
♪ The waves keep crashing ♪
1094
00:48:56,977 --> 00:49:00,563
♪ Now I'mma need someone to rescue me ♪
1095
00:49:00,563 --> 00:49:03,733
♪ Your love feels like a mountain ♪
1096
00:49:03,733 --> 00:49:05,652
♪ I keep climbing ♪
1097
00:49:05,652 --> 00:49:07,529
♪ Climbing higher ♪
1098
00:49:08,446 --> 00:49:12,158
♪ Clouds keep coming ♪
1099
00:49:12,158 --> 00:49:15,704
♪ I can't see
Someone save me, please ♪