1 00:00:10,433 --> 00:00:11,903 "TO MY FAMILY." 2 00:00:11,900 --> 00:00:14,630 IF I SHOULD EVER LEAVE THIS WORLD BEFORE YOU DO, 3 00:00:14,633 --> 00:00:16,603 HERE'S WHAT I ASK OF YOU. 4 00:00:16,600 --> 00:00:18,300 BURY ME IN PINK. 5 00:00:18,300 --> 00:00:22,170 "PLEASE DO NOT BE SAD FOREVER BECAUSE I AM HAPPY NOW." 6 00:00:24,333 --> 00:00:28,133 ME AND SANDY WERE LIKE, OF THE SAME SOUL. 7 00:00:28,133 --> 00:00:32,433 IT'S LIKE A... 8 00:00:32,433 --> 00:00:36,173 INSEPARABLE. 9 00:00:36,167 --> 00:00:38,997 AND THAT'S WHY WHEN SHE DIED, MY SOUL DIED. 10 00:00:52,267 --> 00:00:55,627 "DEAR MRS. VIRGINIA THOMAS." 11 00:00:55,633 --> 00:00:58,033 I'll START THIS LETTER TO YOU BY SAYING, 12 00:00:58,033 --> 00:01:02,133 I AM NOT SORRY FOR WHAT I DID TO YOUR DAUGHTER. 13 00:01:02,133 --> 00:01:05,533 SHE DESERVED EVERYTHING SHE GOT. 14 00:01:05,533 --> 00:01:09,373 "I STOLE HER FUTURE AND I RAPED HER." 15 00:01:11,867 --> 00:01:16,327 THAT'S WHEN MY THOUGHTS SHIFTED FROM THIS 16 00:01:16,333 --> 00:01:19,403 IS A GUY WHO COMMITTED AN EVIL ACT 17 00:01:19,400 --> 00:01:21,400 TO THIS IS AN EVIL MAN. 18 00:01:34,600 --> 00:01:40,170 BRIAN DID A JOURNAL AND I KNOW YOU HAVEN'T READ IT, OKAY. 19 00:01:40,167 --> 00:01:44,267 BUT I THINK IT WOULD REALLY HELP 20 00:01:44,267 --> 00:01:48,067 IF YOU WOULD READ THIS ONE, ONE PAGE. 21 00:01:52,167 --> 00:01:56,297 "TWO AND A HALF YEARS AGO, I COMMITTED A CRIME, COWARD ACT, 22 00:01:56,300 --> 00:01:59,370 THAT I'M TOTALLY ASHAMED OF. 23 00:01:59,367 --> 00:02:03,767 I HOPE YOU COULD ONE DAY FIND PEACE IN FORGIVING ME 24 00:02:03,767 --> 00:02:06,927 FOR MY SHAMEFUL BEHAVIOR." 25 00:02:14,133 --> 00:02:16,873 HE SAID HE WAS SORRY. 26 00:02:18,967 --> 00:02:21,367 I THINK WE ALL ARE SORRY. 27 00:02:38,800 --> 00:02:41,800 Captions by VITAC... www.vitac.com 28 00:02:41,800 --> 00:02:44,830 CAPTIONS PAID FOR BY DISCOVERY COMMUNICATIONS 29 00:03:06,367 --> 00:03:08,497 THE DAY WAS BEAUTIFUL. 30 00:03:08,500 --> 00:03:12,470 IT WAS A FRIDAY, SEPTEMBER 2ND. 31 00:03:12,467 --> 00:03:15,727 I GUESS I GOT UP AROUND, I DON'T KNOW, 8:30, 9:00. 32 00:03:25,733 --> 00:03:29,403 I WAS GOING OUT TO CLEAN MY HALLWAYS BECAUSE I DID THAT 33 00:03:29,400 --> 00:03:32,200 A COUPLE DAYS A WEEK TO GET FREE RENT. 34 00:03:32,200 --> 00:03:35,100 SO I THREW ON MY HEADBAND WITH MY HAIR UP 35 00:03:35,100 --> 00:03:39,430 AND I WENT OUT WITH MY LITTLE VACUUM CLEANER. 36 00:03:39,433 --> 00:03:42,933 AND I GOT ONE SIDE OF THE BUILDING DONE, 37 00:03:42,933 --> 00:03:45,533 AND THEN MOM CAME RUNNING OVER ABOUT A HALF HOUR LATER 38 00:03:45,533 --> 00:03:48,673 AND SHE SAID, "SANDRA'S APARTMENT'S ON FIRE." 39 00:03:52,233 --> 00:03:54,873 THE LOOK ON MY MOM'S FACE WAS SO DEVASTATING 40 00:03:54,867 --> 00:03:56,827 THAT I JUST DROPPED EVERYTHING. 41 00:04:06,900 --> 00:04:10,100 SANDRA WAS MY SOUL MATE. 42 00:04:10,100 --> 00:04:13,970 THERE WAS A CONNECTION THAT WE HAD. 43 00:04:13,967 --> 00:04:18,567 WE WERE ALWAYS TOGETHER, ALWAYS TOGETHER. 44 00:04:18,567 --> 00:04:20,497 SHE HAD A CERTAIN CHARISMA ABOUT HER. 45 00:04:20,500 --> 00:04:25,330 SHE WAS JUST VERY LOVING AND SHE ATTRACTED PEOPLE LIKE A MAGNET. 46 00:04:25,333 --> 00:04:27,233 YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN? 47 00:04:27,233 --> 00:04:29,403 IF YOU MET HER, YOU LOVE HER. 48 00:04:29,400 --> 00:04:33,470 YOU KNOW, SHE WAS JUST ALWAYS LAUGHING AND HAPPY, 49 00:04:33,467 --> 00:04:35,667 BUT WE WERE JUST THAT TYPE OF FAMILY. 50 00:04:52,067 --> 00:04:54,767 WHEN WE SEE THE SMOKE, WE REALIZE THAT IT IS 51 00:04:54,767 --> 00:04:57,697 IN THE AREA OF AN APARTMENT COMPLEX 52 00:04:57,700 --> 00:05:00,170 AND IT'S A SIGNIFICANT ENOUGH AMOUNT OF SMOKE 53 00:05:00,167 --> 00:05:03,567 TO REALIZE THAT IT'S A RELATIVELY LARGE FIRE. 54 00:05:14,367 --> 00:05:16,197 WE GET OUT OF THE CAR. 55 00:05:16,200 --> 00:05:17,700 THE SMOKE IS OBVIOUS. 56 00:05:17,700 --> 00:05:19,430 IT'S HEAVY. 57 00:05:19,433 --> 00:05:21,073 I CAN SEE A LOT OF ACTIVITY. 58 00:05:21,067 --> 00:05:25,267 FIREFIGHTERS WERE RUNNING BACK AND FORTH. 59 00:05:25,267 --> 00:05:30,197 YOU FEEL THAT TENSION AND THAT ANXIETY. 60 00:05:30,200 --> 00:05:32,170 DON'T KNOW WHAT WE'RE WALKING INTO. 61 00:05:36,933 --> 00:05:38,173 WE WERE CORDONING OFF THE AREA 62 00:05:38,167 --> 00:05:40,067 TO KEEP PEOPLE BACK AT THAT POINT 63 00:05:40,067 --> 00:05:42,597 SO THE FIREFIGHTERS CAN DO THEIR JOB. 64 00:05:50,267 --> 00:05:51,597 STAND BEHIND THE LINE. 65 00:05:51,600 --> 00:05:53,170 - STAY BEHIND THE LINE. - EXCUSE ME. 66 00:05:53,167 --> 00:05:55,427 EXCUSE ME. 67 00:05:55,433 --> 00:05:58,473 I JUST REMEMBER RUNNING OVER TOWARDS THE BUILDING 68 00:05:58,467 --> 00:05:59,697 AND I SAW HER CAR 69 00:05:59,700 --> 00:06:03,070 AND THEN THAT'S WHEN I GOT A LITTLE SCARED. 70 00:06:03,067 --> 00:06:05,467 AND I REMEMBER JUST THINKING, "WHERE IS SANDRA? 71 00:06:05,467 --> 00:06:08,227 WHERE IS SANDRA?" 72 00:06:08,233 --> 00:06:11,673 AND I COULD HEAR SOMEBODY SCREAMING. 73 00:06:16,067 --> 00:06:17,927 I WANT TO KNOW IF I COULD HELP HER, 74 00:06:17,933 --> 00:06:20,973 BUT THEY WOULDN'T LET US NEAR THERE. 75 00:06:20,967 --> 00:06:23,197 SCREAMING, "HELP ME, HELP ME." 76 00:06:23,200 --> 00:06:25,930 AND AT THAT POINT I WENT IN TOTAL SHOCK. 77 00:06:25,933 --> 00:06:28,373 SANDY! SANDY! 78 00:06:31,767 --> 00:06:34,427 THEY PUSH US ALL AWAY AND THEN FROM THERE 79 00:06:34,433 --> 00:06:37,173 I JUST TOTALLY LOST IT. 80 00:06:40,200 --> 00:06:42,470 AND THAT'S WHAT STICKS IN MY HEAD TILL THIS DAY... 81 00:06:42,467 --> 00:06:44,767 "HELP ME, HELP ME." 82 00:06:47,167 --> 00:06:49,567 I KNOW THAT WAS HER VOICE BECAUSE IT HAUNTS ME 83 00:06:49,567 --> 00:06:51,367 EVERY SINGLE DAY. 84 00:07:13,500 --> 00:07:17,600 I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER THE SCENE. 85 00:07:17,600 --> 00:07:23,070 THE FIRE DAMAGE INSIDE THE APARTMENT WAS SIGNIFICANT. 86 00:07:25,800 --> 00:07:28,600 WALLPAPER AND PAINT ARE ALL BURNT OFF THE WALLS 87 00:07:28,600 --> 00:07:30,170 AS YOU CAN SEE. 88 00:07:33,267 --> 00:07:38,367 THERE'S A LOT OF DAMAGE INSIDE. 89 00:07:38,367 --> 00:07:43,267 I MEAN, HERE HE'S LOOKING AT THE BED, WHAT WAS THE BED, 90 00:07:43,267 --> 00:07:46,227 AND IT'S COMPLETELY DOWN TO JUST THE SPRINGS 91 00:07:46,233 --> 00:07:47,833 IS THE ONLY THING LEFT. 92 00:07:50,100 --> 00:07:55,900 WE LEARNED THAT THERE IS A BODY. 93 00:07:55,900 --> 00:07:58,400 KAREN, SANDY'S SISTER WAS PRESENT. 94 00:07:58,400 --> 00:08:01,670 HER MOTHER WAS ON THE SCENE. 95 00:08:01,667 --> 00:08:04,067 SHE KNEW LIKE WE DID THAT THE BODY WAS 96 00:08:04,067 --> 00:08:06,267 VERY LIKELY HER DAUGHTER'S. 97 00:08:09,533 --> 00:08:13,803 I TRY TO BE AS GENTLE WITH THE INFORMATION AS YOU CAN, 98 00:08:13,800 --> 00:08:15,400 BUT YOU HAVE TO TELL THEM. 99 00:08:20,367 --> 00:08:21,827 OH, MY GOD. 100 00:08:21,833 --> 00:08:25,903 HOW COULD THIS HAPPEN? 101 00:08:25,900 --> 00:08:28,330 YOU GO INTO COMPLETE SHOCK. 102 00:08:32,733 --> 00:08:37,433 ME AND SANDY WERE LIKE OF THE SAME SOUL. 103 00:08:37,433 --> 00:08:41,833 IT'S LIKE A... 104 00:08:41,833 --> 00:08:44,073 INSEPARABLE. 105 00:08:50,367 --> 00:08:54,097 SAME SOUL, TWO OF A KIND. 106 00:08:55,867 --> 00:08:57,167 OUR HEARTS WERE THE SAME. 107 00:08:57,167 --> 00:08:58,297 EVERYTHING WAS JUST... 108 00:08:58,300 --> 00:09:01,100 WE WERE SO MUCH ALIKE. 109 00:09:03,700 --> 00:09:06,330 THAT'S WHY WHEN SHE DIED, MY SOUL DIED. 110 00:09:27,333 --> 00:09:32,633 I SPEAK TO THE DEPUTY FIRE MARSHAL. 111 00:09:32,633 --> 00:09:33,573 WHAT'D YOU FIND OUT? 112 00:09:33,567 --> 00:09:37,397 AND HE TELLS ME IT APPEARS 113 00:09:37,400 --> 00:09:40,800 THAT THE FIRE WAS INTENTIONALLY SET. 114 00:09:50,067 --> 00:09:52,067 DETECTIVE HITCH. 115 00:09:52,067 --> 00:09:53,827 A SHORT TIME LATER, 116 00:09:53,833 --> 00:09:59,073 I LEARN THAT SOMEONE HAS CALLED THE LOCAL NEWSPAPER 117 00:09:59,067 --> 00:10:01,467 AND IDENTIFIED HIMSELF 118 00:10:01,467 --> 00:10:03,797 AS THE DRIFTWOOD KILLER. 119 00:10:06,800 --> 00:10:09,770 HE HAS CLAIMED RESPONSIBILITY FOR THE FIRE 120 00:10:09,767 --> 00:10:13,197 AND THE DEATH OF SANDY, 121 00:10:13,200 --> 00:10:16,970 BUT HE ALSO IDENTIFIES HIS NEXT VICTIM BY NAME 122 00:10:16,967 --> 00:10:19,667 AND SAYS SHE IS GOING TO BE THE NEXT ONE TO DIE. 123 00:10:43,900 --> 00:10:46,800 THEY HAD EVERYTHING SPRAWLED OUT ALL OVER THE YARD. 124 00:10:46,800 --> 00:10:48,970 THIS POLICE OFFICER, HE SAID, "MS. THOMAS", 125 00:10:48,967 --> 00:10:51,267 YOU CAN COME UP AND GO THROUGH THE STUFF. 126 00:10:54,100 --> 00:10:58,430 EVERYTHING WAS CHARRED, EVERYTHING. 127 00:10:58,433 --> 00:11:02,203 THIS IS THIS REALLY STRANGE THING. 128 00:11:02,200 --> 00:11:06,800 IT WAS A LITTLE BIBLE AND THIS WHITE BIBLE... 129 00:11:08,733 --> 00:11:10,603 IT WAS NOT TOUCHED. 130 00:11:10,600 --> 00:11:11,970 IT WAS NOT BURNT. 131 00:11:11,967 --> 00:11:14,097 IT WAS NOT BLACK. 132 00:11:20,433 --> 00:11:24,473 I HAVEN'T SEEN THIS BIBLE SINCE IT HAPPENED. 133 00:11:24,467 --> 00:11:27,767 YOU CAN SMELL A LITTLE BIT OF FIRE, SMOKE. 134 00:11:29,467 --> 00:11:35,067 YOU CAN SEE A LITTLE BIT OF IT ON THE PAGES, NOT MUCH. 135 00:11:35,067 --> 00:11:38,727 LIKE SOOT. 136 00:11:38,733 --> 00:11:41,833 I DON'T SEE ANY BURNS ON IT. 137 00:11:44,800 --> 00:11:47,570 THIS IS THE PART I LOVE TO HEAR. 138 00:11:47,567 --> 00:11:51,897 12/24/92, SO IT WAS A COUPLE OF YEARS BEFORE. 139 00:11:51,900 --> 00:11:53,900 "TO MY FAMILY." 140 00:11:53,900 --> 00:11:56,630 IF I SHOULD EVER LEAVE THIS WORLD BEFORE YOU DO, 141 00:11:56,633 --> 00:11:58,603 HERE'S WHAT I ASK OF YOU. 142 00:11:58,600 --> 00:12:00,400 BURY ME IN PINK. 143 00:12:00,400 --> 00:12:05,230 PLEASE DO NOT BE SAD FOREVER BECAUSE I AM HAPPY NOW. 144 00:12:05,233 --> 00:12:10,273 "I LOVE YOU. SANDRA LEE." 145 00:12:10,267 --> 00:12:12,697 DON'T BE SAD FOREVER BECAUSE I AM HAPPY NOW. 146 00:12:12,700 --> 00:12:17,070 SO, HOW WOULD SHE KNOW THAT? 147 00:12:17,067 --> 00:12:20,827 TO ME, THIS IS SOMETHING THAT SHOWS A LOT OF LOVE 148 00:12:20,833 --> 00:12:25,133 FOR HER FAMILY AND ALSO SHOWS A PERSON WHO'S VERY, VERY SAD. 149 00:12:51,733 --> 00:12:56,303 THE LOCAL NEWSPAPER RECEIVED SOME PHONE CALLS 150 00:12:56,300 --> 00:13:00,130 FROM AN INDIVIDUAL WHO IDENTIFIED HIMSELF 151 00:13:00,133 --> 00:13:04,573 AS THE DRIFTWOOD KILLER. 152 00:13:04,567 --> 00:13:07,567 HE HAS CLAIMED RESPONSIBILITY FOR THE FIRE 153 00:13:07,567 --> 00:13:10,427 AND THE DEATH OF SANDY, 154 00:13:10,433 --> 00:13:13,473 BUT HE ALSO IDENTIFIES HIS NEXT VICTIM. 155 00:13:22,433 --> 00:13:25,233 DETECTIVES GO TO THE APARTMENT 156 00:13:25,233 --> 00:13:29,603 WHERE THE SECOND POTENTIAL VICTIM RESIDES 157 00:13:29,600 --> 00:13:31,670 AND SHE IS TRANSPORTED 158 00:13:31,667 --> 00:13:35,067 IMMEDIATELY BACK TO HEADQUARTERS. 159 00:13:35,067 --> 00:13:37,927 WE'VE RECEIVED SOME THREATS AGAINST YOU. 160 00:13:37,933 --> 00:13:41,733 AND EXPLAIN TO HER THAT WE ARE CONDUCTING 161 00:13:41,733 --> 00:13:44,073 A HOMICIDE INVESTIGATION 162 00:13:44,067 --> 00:13:49,167 AND THIS PERSON NAMED HER AS A POTENTIAL SECOND VICTIM. 163 00:13:49,167 --> 00:13:51,297 DO YOU HAVE ANY ISSUES WITH ANYONE? 164 00:13:51,300 --> 00:13:56,470 ANY IDEA WHO COULD BE MAKING THESE THREATS TO YOU? 165 00:13:58,667 --> 00:14:05,367 SHE HAS RECENTLY BEEN RECEIVING OBSCENE THREATENING PHONE CALLS. 166 00:14:05,367 --> 00:14:08,297 SHE HAD HAD THE PHONE CALLS TRACED 167 00:14:08,300 --> 00:14:13,700 AND SHE IMMEDIATELY IDENTIFIES BRIAN STECKEL. 168 00:14:23,700 --> 00:14:28,900 MY BROTHER'S NICKNAME ALL HIS LIFE WAS BIG RED. 169 00:14:28,900 --> 00:14:31,470 HE HAD THE BRIGHTEST RED HAIR. 170 00:14:31,467 --> 00:14:35,127 I DON'T THINK ANYBODY'S HAIR WAS BRIGHTER THAN THAT. 171 00:14:41,667 --> 00:14:49,397 I WAS AN OLDER BROTHER, BUT I ALWAYS LOOKED UP TO HIM. 172 00:14:49,400 --> 00:14:51,870 WE WERE NOT A RICH FAMILY, 173 00:14:51,867 --> 00:14:55,367 SO WE DIDN'T HAVE THE STUFF THAT OTHER FAMILY'S HAD. 174 00:14:55,367 --> 00:14:58,327 YOU KNOW, THEY WOULD LAUGH ABOUT OUR SHOES, 175 00:14:58,333 --> 00:15:02,073 MAKE FUN OF THE CLOTHES WE WORE, 176 00:15:02,067 --> 00:15:05,267 AND BRIAN WAS ALWAYS THE PERSON 177 00:15:05,267 --> 00:15:08,797 TO STAND BEHIND US AND BE STRONG. 178 00:15:17,967 --> 00:15:21,627 THE FIRST MEMORY OF BRIAN'S TEMPER SCARING US 179 00:15:21,633 --> 00:15:23,733 WOULD HAVE BEEN, 180 00:15:23,733 --> 00:15:29,073 I'D SAY, ABOUT 13, 14 YEARS OLD. 181 00:15:29,067 --> 00:15:31,227 RIGHT OUTSIDE OF THE SCHOOL... 182 00:15:34,267 --> 00:15:37,097 WE WERE HEADING HOME AND SOMEBODY STARTED 183 00:15:37,100 --> 00:15:39,670 A FIGHT WITH HIM. 184 00:15:39,667 --> 00:15:45,867 AND HE BASICALLY TURNED AROUND AND IT GOT REALLY UGLY. 185 00:15:48,267 --> 00:15:53,567 HE JUST STARTED, YOU KNOW, WAILING ON THE GUY 186 00:15:53,567 --> 00:15:55,627 JUST FOR THE SAKE OF DOING IT. 187 00:16:03,333 --> 00:16:07,803 HE WENT FROM BEING GOOD TO BEING BAD, 188 00:16:07,800 --> 00:16:11,270 VERY BAD, TERRIBLE. 189 00:16:29,200 --> 00:16:34,400 WE LEARNED THAT STECKEL FREQUENTS BARS IN THE CITY 190 00:16:34,400 --> 00:16:39,800 OF WILMINGTON AREA, SO ALL AVAILABLE DETECTIVES, 191 00:16:39,800 --> 00:16:44,170 WE ARE GOING IN AND OUT OF BARS. 192 00:16:44,167 --> 00:16:45,727 HAVE YOU SEEN THIS GENTLEMAN? 193 00:16:45,733 --> 00:16:48,803 LOOKING FOR HIM, TRYING TO FIND HIM. 194 00:16:48,800 --> 00:16:50,630 NO. 195 00:16:53,200 --> 00:16:58,700 THERE IS A SENSE OF URGENCY TO GET HIM INTO CUSTODY. 196 00:16:58,700 --> 00:17:01,500 THE CALLS TO THE LOCAL NEWSPAPER 197 00:17:01,500 --> 00:17:05,070 INDICATED THERE WOULD BE ANOTHER VICTIM, 198 00:17:05,067 --> 00:17:09,067 SO THE POTENTIAL THAT HE COULD KILL SOMEONE ELSE IS VERY REAL. 199 00:17:17,333 --> 00:17:21,073 PATROLMAN MIKE MCGOWAN, HE OBSERVES A SUBJECT 200 00:17:21,067 --> 00:17:22,897 WALKING ON UNION STREET 201 00:17:22,900 --> 00:17:28,470 THAT HE BELIEVES MATCHES THE DESCRIPTION OF BRIAN STECKEL. 202 00:17:28,467 --> 00:17:34,567 ASKS THE PERSON TO STOP AND ASKS FOR A NAME. 203 00:17:34,567 --> 00:17:38,627 HE PROVIDES HIM WITH A FICTITIOUS NAME, 204 00:17:38,633 --> 00:17:45,473 BUT MIKE RECOGNIZES FROM THE PICTURE THAT HE'S BEEN PROVIDED. 205 00:17:45,467 --> 00:17:49,897 THIS IS BRIAN STECKEL, AND I INSTRUCTED THEM 206 00:17:49,900 --> 00:17:55,400 TO BRING BRIAN BACK TO HEADQUARTERS. 207 00:17:55,400 --> 00:17:58,900 WHEN PATROLMAN MCGOWAN WALKS HIM IN THE BACK DOOR, 208 00:17:58,900 --> 00:18:04,730 I AM AT THE DOORWAY OF OUR TURNKEY AREA. 209 00:18:04,733 --> 00:18:09,233 IT'S AT THAT POINT, I OBSERVE ON BRIAN'S BOOTS 210 00:18:09,233 --> 00:18:13,633 WHAT APPEARS TO BE A DROP OF BLOOD. 211 00:18:17,933 --> 00:18:19,603 THE CONFESSION AT THIS POINT 212 00:18:19,600 --> 00:18:21,730 IS VERY CRITICAL TO THE INVESTIGATION 213 00:18:21,733 --> 00:18:24,173 IF HE IN FACT HAS MURDERED THIS YOUNG LADY. 214 00:18:29,400 --> 00:18:31,630 AND I BELIEVE IT'S AT THAT POINT 215 00:18:31,633 --> 00:18:33,433 THAT BRIAN SAYS, IS SHE DEAD? 216 00:18:52,867 --> 00:18:55,967 THERE WAS A KNOCK ON MY DOOR IN TAMPA. 217 00:18:58,467 --> 00:19:02,527 AND THERE WAS TWO POLICE OFFICERS THERE TO SAY 218 00:19:02,533 --> 00:19:03,933 YOU HAVE TO CALL HOME. 219 00:19:03,933 --> 00:19:06,473 IT'S AN EMERGENCY. 220 00:19:06,467 --> 00:19:08,227 THEY DIDN'T SAY WHAT IT WAS ABOUT. 221 00:19:08,233 --> 00:19:10,273 THEY JUST TOLD ME TO CALL HOME. 222 00:19:14,367 --> 00:19:16,897 MOM GETS ON THE PHONE. 223 00:19:16,900 --> 00:19:19,470 I SAID, "WELL, YOU'RE OKAY. 224 00:19:19,467 --> 00:19:22,627 WHAT SEEMS TO BE THE PROBLEM?" 225 00:19:22,633 --> 00:19:25,603 AND SHE SAID, 226 00:19:25,600 --> 00:19:34,970 "YOUR BROTHER WAS ARRESTED FOR MURDER IN DELAWARE." 227 00:19:39,700 --> 00:19:42,470 I WAS IN TOTAL DISBELIEF. 228 00:19:50,767 --> 00:19:52,267 IT'S YOUR BROTHER. 229 00:19:52,267 --> 00:19:54,897 YOU WANT TO SAY THAT, "NO HE DIDN'T DO IT. 230 00:19:54,900 --> 00:19:56,700 YEAH, IT IS A BIG DREAM. 231 00:19:56,700 --> 00:19:58,200 YEAH, IT'S GONNA GO AWAY TOMORROW," 232 00:19:58,200 --> 00:20:01,630 BUT IT DIDN'T AND IT DOESN'T EVER GO AWAY. 233 00:20:33,167 --> 00:20:36,767 WHEN WE INITIALLY INTERVIEWED BRIAN, 234 00:20:36,767 --> 00:20:39,697 HE IS CALM. HE'S DOCILE. 235 00:20:45,700 --> 00:20:48,070 BRIAN HAS BEEN LIVING IN AN APARTMENT 236 00:20:48,067 --> 00:20:51,167 IN THE SAME BUILDING, ON THE SAME FLOOR. 237 00:20:51,167 --> 00:20:54,797 HE HAD SEEN SANDY, THOUGHT SHE WAS ATTRACTIVE. 238 00:21:07,100 --> 00:21:11,070 ON THE DAY OF THE MURDER, 239 00:21:11,067 --> 00:21:14,327 STECKEL SAYS HE WENT TO THE APARTMENT 240 00:21:14,333 --> 00:21:17,773 AND THERE IS A CONFRONTATION. 241 00:21:24,367 --> 00:21:29,497 BRIAN ADMITS TO RAPING, STRANGLING, 242 00:21:29,500 --> 00:21:33,070 BEATING SANDY AND SETTING HER APARTMENT ON FIRE. 243 00:21:40,067 --> 00:21:42,067 IT'S AS IF HE'S TALKING ABOUT SOMETHING 244 00:21:42,067 --> 00:21:43,867 VERY INSIGNIFICANT TO HIM. 245 00:21:53,167 --> 00:21:54,927 IT WAS REALLY HARD TO GET A TAKE ON BRIAN 246 00:21:54,933 --> 00:21:56,473 IN THAT FIRST INTERVIEW. 247 00:21:56,467 --> 00:21:59,227 ARE WE DEALING WITH A TRULY EVIL PERSON HERE 248 00:21:59,233 --> 00:22:04,073 OR ARE WE DEALING WITH, YOU KNOW, 249 00:22:04,067 --> 00:22:06,397 A GUY WHO DID A BAD THING? 250 00:22:40,333 --> 00:22:43,233 YOU KNOW, YOU THINK MAYBE SHE LEFT THE KETTLE ON. 251 00:22:43,233 --> 00:22:45,833 SHE WENT SOMEWHERE OR SOMETHING, YOU KNOW. 252 00:22:48,833 --> 00:22:54,073 DETECTIVE HITCH CALLED AND SAID, "I HAVE SOMETHING TO TELL YOU." 253 00:22:56,967 --> 00:22:59,667 AND HE TOLD US THAT SHE WAS MURDERED 254 00:22:59,667 --> 00:23:03,497 AND THE GUY TURNED HIMSELF IN. 255 00:23:08,933 --> 00:23:10,803 IT WAS JUST DEVASTATING TO KNOW 256 00:23:10,800 --> 00:23:16,300 THAT SOMEBODY WAS IN CONTROL OF HER LIFE ENDING. 257 00:23:16,300 --> 00:23:20,630 I STILL LIVE FOR HER EVERYDAY AND I CAN'T GET OVER IT. 258 00:23:34,200 --> 00:23:36,130 THE NIGHT BEFORE SHE GOT KILLED, 259 00:23:36,133 --> 00:23:42,073 I JUST REMEMBERED BEING OUT ON THE PATIO AND HER CALLING. 260 00:23:43,633 --> 00:23:48,273 Karen, pick up. 261 00:23:48,267 --> 00:23:51,597 I LET IT GO INTO VOICE MAIL A FEW TIMES. 262 00:23:55,700 --> 00:24:00,330 SHE SAID, "SIS, WHY AREN'T YOU ANSWERING YOUR CALL?" 263 00:24:00,333 --> 00:24:02,203 I GUESS I WAS AVOIDING HER. 264 00:24:08,167 --> 00:24:10,667 SANDRA WAS IN AN ABUSIVE MARRIAGE 265 00:24:10,667 --> 00:24:14,097 AND FINALLY SHE GOT DIVORCED. 266 00:24:14,100 --> 00:24:17,130 SHE WAS DEFINITELY IN A LOT OF PAIN AND SHE WAS ON DRUGS. 267 00:24:17,133 --> 00:24:20,303 AND SANDRA TO ME WAS ABOVE THAT, 268 00:24:20,300 --> 00:24:22,900 AND I WAS PLAYING THAT HARD LOVE. 269 00:24:26,767 --> 00:24:29,567 I want to talk to you. Call me back. 270 00:24:29,567 --> 00:24:31,667 I THINK MY SISTER WAS TRYING TO CONTACT ME 271 00:24:31,667 --> 00:24:34,727 BECAUSE SHE WAS ASKING EVERYBODY ELSE, 272 00:24:34,733 --> 00:24:36,833 YOU KNOW, IF SHE COULD MOVE IN WITH THEM. 273 00:24:39,867 --> 00:24:43,127 AND YOU KNOW, I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WOULD HAVE SAID. 274 00:24:45,300 --> 00:24:48,070 AND THAT'S WHAT BOTHERS ME IS WHEN SHE GOT MURDERED, 275 00:24:48,067 --> 00:24:51,067 SHE FELT LIKE I DIDN'T LOVE HER. 276 00:25:05,367 --> 00:25:09,067 BRIAN SEEMED TO BE PROUD OF WHAT HE DID. 277 00:25:09,067 --> 00:25:14,297 HE SEEMED TO WANT TO DO IT AGAIN. 278 00:25:14,300 --> 00:25:18,800 DETECTIVE DOWNS SAID TO ME, STECKEL WAS A SERIAL KILLER 279 00:25:18,800 --> 00:25:20,870 WHO GOT CAUGHT HIS FIRST TIME OUT. 280 00:25:25,900 --> 00:25:28,900 BUT THEN THERE WERE OTHER POINTS DURING THAT INTERVIEW 281 00:25:28,900 --> 00:25:30,570 WHERE YOU SAW A DIFFERENT PERSON. 282 00:25:39,800 --> 00:25:42,170 I THINK PROBABLY FOR A PERIOD OF TIME, 283 00:25:42,167 --> 00:25:44,767 HE DID WONDER, "WHAT THE HECK DID I DO? 284 00:25:44,767 --> 00:25:48,467 WHAT DID I DO HERE?" 285 00:25:48,467 --> 00:25:51,767 BUT WHAT WE SAW AFTER THAT, 286 00:25:51,767 --> 00:25:56,297 THE THINGS HE DID TO TAUNT SANDY'S MOTHER, 287 00:25:56,300 --> 00:25:58,800 TO TAUNT THE PROSECUTORS, 288 00:25:58,800 --> 00:26:02,500 THIS WAS NOT A MAN WHO WAS REMORSEFUL. 289 00:26:02,500 --> 00:26:04,470 I MEAN, HE WAS A MONSTER. 290 00:26:20,200 --> 00:26:24,070 THE LAST TIME I SPOKE TO BRIAN, 291 00:26:24,067 --> 00:26:26,927 HE KNOCKED ON THE DOOR 292 00:26:26,933 --> 00:26:32,173 AND HE WANTED TO STAY THE NIGHT WITH US. 293 00:26:32,167 --> 00:26:36,727 I WOULD HAVE LOVED TO LET HIM STAY, 294 00:26:36,733 --> 00:26:40,073 BUT I WAS CONCERNED HE WAS ON PROBATION 295 00:26:40,067 --> 00:26:44,727 AND I DIDN'T KNOW IF IT WOULD HAVE BEEN THE RIGHT THING TO DO 296 00:26:44,733 --> 00:26:46,703 BECAUSE OF MY FAMILY BEING SO YOUNG 297 00:26:46,700 --> 00:26:51,270 AND WE WERE JUST NEWLY MARRIED. 298 00:26:51,267 --> 00:26:56,127 I GAVE HIM A HUG. I TOLD HIM I LOVED HIM. 299 00:26:56,133 --> 00:27:03,073 HE JUST LEFT AND DIDN'T TURN BACK. 300 00:27:06,067 --> 00:27:08,297 AND THAT'S THE LAST TIME I SAW HIM 301 00:27:08,300 --> 00:27:12,570 UNTIL I HAD TO COME BACK HOME. 302 00:27:20,700 --> 00:27:24,470 I THINK HE FANTASIZED ABOUT KILLING OTHER PEOPLE, 303 00:27:24,467 --> 00:27:29,067 AND BRIAN WANTED TO BE A SERIAL KILLER. 304 00:27:35,733 --> 00:27:39,933 HE THEN STARTS WRITING LETTERS FROM PRISON 305 00:27:39,933 --> 00:27:45,073 DESCRIBING WHAT HE HAD DONE TO SANDY. 306 00:27:49,300 --> 00:27:53,570 BRIAN WAS TRYING TO STRETCH THIS MURDER 307 00:27:53,567 --> 00:27:58,897 THAT HE COMMITTED AND WAS TRYING TO DRAW EVERY BIT OF EXCITEMENT 308 00:27:58,900 --> 00:28:02,370 THAT HE COULD GET OUT OF IT. 309 00:28:02,367 --> 00:28:06,767 HE BEGINS TO SEND LETTERS TO THE PROSECUTORS 310 00:28:06,767 --> 00:28:08,527 ASSIGNED TO THE CASE, 311 00:28:08,533 --> 00:28:12,073 TO THE ORIGINAL JUDGE ASSIGNED TO THE CASE, 312 00:28:12,067 --> 00:28:14,767 SAYING I'M GOING TO DO THIS AGAIN. 313 00:28:17,067 --> 00:28:19,727 BUT THE WORSE OF THOSE LETTERS 314 00:28:19,733 --> 00:28:23,203 WERE WHAT HE SENT TO GINNY THOMAS, 315 00:28:23,200 --> 00:28:26,430 SANDY'S MOM, 316 00:28:26,433 --> 00:28:29,073 DESCRIBING IN INTIMATE DETAIL 317 00:28:29,067 --> 00:28:32,467 THE WAY HE KILLED HER BABY GIRL. 318 00:28:54,267 --> 00:28:56,227 I WAS IN THE DETECTIVE DIVISION. 319 00:28:56,233 --> 00:28:57,703 I RECEIVE A CALL. 320 00:28:57,700 --> 00:29:00,200 IT'S GINNY THOMAS AND SHE SAYS, 321 00:29:00,200 --> 00:29:02,700 "MARK, I HAVE THE LETTER." 322 00:29:02,700 --> 00:29:04,970 AND I TOLD HER, 323 00:29:04,967 --> 00:29:10,667 "I'M ON MY WAY, PLEASE DON'T OPEN IT." 324 00:29:10,667 --> 00:29:13,967 I TRIED TO PROTECT GINNY DURING THIS THE WAY 325 00:29:13,967 --> 00:29:19,297 I WOULD WANT A POLICE OFFICER TO PROTECT MY MOTHER. 326 00:29:19,300 --> 00:29:23,400 THERE WAS NO OTHER PURPOSE TO SEND THAT TO SANDY'S MOM, 327 00:29:23,400 --> 00:29:27,070 BUT AN EFFORT TO DESTROY HER, 328 00:29:27,067 --> 00:29:30,727 EMOTIONALLY DESTROY HER. 329 00:29:30,733 --> 00:29:34,473 WHEN I PULL UP IN FRONT OF THE RESIDENCE, 330 00:29:34,467 --> 00:29:37,327 GINNY IS SITTING ON THE FRONT STEP 331 00:29:37,333 --> 00:29:45,733 OF THE HOUSE HOLDING THE LETTER, AND I WENT UP TO HER. 332 00:29:45,733 --> 00:29:53,073 I TAKE THE LETTER FROM HER AND SHE SAYS TO ME, 333 00:29:53,067 --> 00:29:55,597 "IT WAS ALL I COULD DO NOT TO OPEN THIS AND READ IT." 334 00:30:11,133 --> 00:30:13,873 SO, THIS LETTER TO GINNY 335 00:30:13,867 --> 00:30:16,027 THAT BRIAN SENT SAYS, 336 00:30:16,033 --> 00:30:18,633 "DEAR MRS. VIRGINIA THOMAS." 337 00:30:18,633 --> 00:30:21,073 I'll START THIS LETTER TO YOU BY SAYING 338 00:30:21,067 --> 00:30:25,067 I AM NOT SORRY FOR WHAT I DID TO YOUR DAUGHTER. 339 00:30:25,067 --> 00:30:28,467 SHE DESERVED EVERYTHING SHE GOT. 340 00:30:28,467 --> 00:30:32,527 "I STOLE HER FUTURE AND I RAPED HER." 341 00:30:36,667 --> 00:30:39,127 THE LETTER GOES ON FOR 17 PAGES. 342 00:30:43,300 --> 00:30:48,130 AND THAT'S WHEN MY THOUGHTS SHIFTED FROM THIS IS 343 00:30:48,133 --> 00:30:50,903 A GUY WHO COMMITTED AN EVIL ACT 344 00:30:50,900 --> 00:30:52,930 TO THIS IS AN EVIL MAN. 345 00:31:03,433 --> 00:31:07,073 I DIDN'T HAVE ANY KNOWLEDGE OF WHAT REALLY HAPPENED. 346 00:31:07,067 --> 00:31:10,597 I REALLY TRIED TO BLOCK IT OUT OF MY LIFE SO I CAN MOVE ON. 347 00:31:27,533 --> 00:31:30,933 I SAW SOME OF THE PICTURES AND SOME 348 00:31:30,933 --> 00:31:33,233 OF THE EFFECTS OF THE CRIME. 349 00:31:38,467 --> 00:31:42,897 IT JUST, LIKE, WAS UNFATHOMABLE TO ME. 350 00:31:42,900 --> 00:31:45,070 I JUST WALKED OUT. 351 00:31:45,067 --> 00:31:48,797 I DIDN'T WANT TO HEAR ANYMORE. 352 00:31:48,800 --> 00:31:50,800 I JUST WANTED TO GO AWAY FROM IT. 353 00:31:50,800 --> 00:31:55,070 I JUST WANTED TO BE OVER THAT. 354 00:31:55,067 --> 00:31:57,727 MY BROTHER, AT THAT MOMENT IN TIME, 355 00:31:57,733 --> 00:32:00,773 WASN'T THE PERSON THAT I KNEW, NOT GROWING UP. 356 00:32:03,167 --> 00:32:05,167 I DON'T KNOW HOW YOU CAN DO THAT 357 00:32:05,167 --> 00:32:08,967 IF YOU'RE NOT ON DRUGS OR ALCOHOL 358 00:32:08,967 --> 00:32:12,097 OR SOMETHING THAT'S DISTORTED YOUR MIND TO THAT DEGREE. 359 00:32:33,733 --> 00:32:38,503 THAT'S KIND OF DISTURBING, VERY DISTURBING 360 00:32:38,500 --> 00:32:43,400 BECAUSE I DIDN'T KNOW THAT. 361 00:32:43,400 --> 00:32:49,300 THAT WOULD MEAN TO ME THAT HE... 362 00:32:49,300 --> 00:32:52,930 WAS REALLY GONNA DO THIS WAY BEFORE. 363 00:32:52,933 --> 00:32:55,603 THAT IS... 364 00:33:03,200 --> 00:33:05,170 BUT I DID NOT KNOW 365 00:33:05,167 --> 00:33:08,927 AND THAT WILL DISTURB ME A LONG TIME 366 00:33:08,933 --> 00:33:12,633 THAT HE WAS THERE THE DAY BEFORE. 367 00:33:12,633 --> 00:33:15,303 SO I AM GLAD I DID THIS INTERVIEW. 368 00:33:20,067 --> 00:33:28,427 VERY GLAD BECAUSE I FOUND OUT WHAT I NEEDED TO KNOW 369 00:33:28,433 --> 00:33:32,973 THAT HE WAS A VERY BAD MAN. 370 00:33:37,767 --> 00:33:39,927 CAN YOU CUT? 371 00:33:54,133 --> 00:33:58,273 OH, THIS IS THE LETTER HE WROTE ON OCTOBER 31ST. 372 00:33:58,267 --> 00:34:04,127 AND HE WAS TALKING ABOUT HOW HAPPY HE WAS TO SEE ME AGAIN. 373 00:34:04,133 --> 00:34:07,803 "LOVE YOU, BRO. KEEP YOUR EYES ON THE FUTURE." 374 00:34:11,100 --> 00:34:14,070 HE WOULD SEND US LETTERS VERY FREQUENTLY. 375 00:34:19,300 --> 00:34:23,700 HE DID A LOT OF WRITING BECAUSE HIS TIME WAS VERY LIMITED. 376 00:34:32,700 --> 00:34:34,930 - YOU DON'T. - YOU DON'T. 377 00:34:34,933 --> 00:34:36,333 YOU DON'T. 378 00:34:56,533 --> 00:35:02,973 I SAW HIM LIKE A COUPLE WEEKS PRIOR TO THE EXECUTION. 379 00:35:02,967 --> 00:35:05,167 THE COUNSELOR SAID, "IT'S IN YOUR BEST INTEREST 380 00:35:05,167 --> 00:35:07,827 THAT THE LAST THING YOU DO 381 00:35:07,833 --> 00:35:10,673 IS GIVE YOUR HUG GOODBYE OR WHATEVER 382 00:35:10,667 --> 00:35:16,627 AND WALK OUT OF THE ROOM AND LEAVE AND DON'T TURN BACK." 383 00:35:16,633 --> 00:35:19,073 WE WERE AT THE END OF OUR 29 MINUTES OR SO. 384 00:35:19,067 --> 00:35:23,627 THEY SAID, "YOU HAVE A MINUTE TO GO." 385 00:35:23,633 --> 00:35:27,073 I SAID I LOVE YOU, 386 00:35:27,067 --> 00:35:29,167 I GAVE HIM A HUG... 387 00:35:32,933 --> 00:35:37,833 AND THEN WE HEADED FOR THE DOOR. 388 00:35:37,833 --> 00:35:44,733 AS I WAS EXITING, I TURNED TO LOOK BACK 389 00:35:44,733 --> 00:35:47,673 AND THAT WAS THE LAST TIME I SEEN MY BROTHERS FACE 390 00:35:47,667 --> 00:35:50,067 WITH A SMILE ON IT. 391 00:35:50,067 --> 00:35:54,127 I TURNED AROUND WHEN I WASN'T SUPPOSED TO TURN AROUND, 392 00:35:54,133 --> 00:35:57,133 AND THAT'S THE FACE I SEE EVERYDAY 393 00:35:57,133 --> 00:36:00,073 I WALK AROUND WITH MY OWN LIFE. 394 00:36:18,600 --> 00:36:24,470 I HAD NO OVERWHELMING DESIRE TO GO SEE BRIAN STECKEL DIE, 395 00:36:24,467 --> 00:36:28,597 BUT I KNEW SANDY'S MOM WAS GOING TO BE 396 00:36:28,600 --> 00:36:33,530 AT BRIAN STECKEL'S EXECUTION 397 00:36:33,533 --> 00:36:38,073 AND I THOUGHT IT WAS MY RESPONSIBILITY TO GINNY 398 00:36:38,067 --> 00:36:41,097 TO BE THERE FOR HER. 399 00:36:41,100 --> 00:36:48,830 I FELT LIKE WHAT I WITNESSED, HOW I WATCHED BRIAN STECKEL DIE 400 00:36:48,833 --> 00:36:54,603 WAS FAR LESS TERRIFYING AND HORRIFIC 401 00:36:54,600 --> 00:37:01,070 THAN THE DEATH THAT SANDY LONG EXPERIENCED. 402 00:37:01,067 --> 00:37:08,227 BRIAN WAS EXECUTED 10 OR SO YEARS AFTER HE KILLED SANDY. 403 00:37:08,233 --> 00:37:15,303 BRIAN HAD 10 YEARS TO VISIT WITH HIS FAMILY. 404 00:37:15,300 --> 00:37:21,330 SANDY'S LAST 10 MINUTES WERE IN SHEER TERROR AND AGONY. 405 00:37:25,333 --> 00:37:29,433 I STOOD DIRECTLY BEHIND GINNY THOMAS. 406 00:37:29,433 --> 00:37:33,603 ALL I REMEMBER FEELING IS JUST SYMPATHY FOR HER, 407 00:37:33,600 --> 00:37:36,100 SORROW FOR HER. 408 00:37:36,100 --> 00:37:40,630 I DID NOT HAVE ANY SYMPATHY FOR BRIAN STECKEL. 409 00:37:40,633 --> 00:37:43,433 I KNOW THAT'S COLD. 410 00:37:43,433 --> 00:37:47,933 WHAT I FELT FOR BRIAN WAS, THIS IS JUSTICE. 411 00:37:58,367 --> 00:37:59,727 HEY, BUDDY. 412 00:37:59,733 --> 00:38:02,273 HOW ARE YOU, HONEY? 413 00:38:02,267 --> 00:38:04,367 NICE TO SEE YOU. 414 00:38:04,367 --> 00:38:07,267 IT'S BEEN 23 YEARS. 415 00:38:07,267 --> 00:38:11,167 OVER THAT PERIOD OF TIME, GINNY THOMAS AND I 416 00:38:11,167 --> 00:38:13,867 DEVELOPED A RELATIONSHIP 417 00:38:13,867 --> 00:38:16,497 THAT IS DIFFICULT TO DESCRIBE. 418 00:38:16,500 --> 00:38:18,070 IT'S BEEN AWHILE FOR US ANYWAY, RIGHT? 419 00:38:18,067 --> 00:38:19,327 IT HAS. IT'S BEEN REAL LONG. 420 00:38:19,333 --> 00:38:20,503 I DON'T REMEMBER... 421 00:38:20,500 --> 00:38:26,430 YOU'RE NEVER GOING TO COMPLETELY HEAL 422 00:38:26,433 --> 00:38:29,203 THE EMOTIONAL PAIN. 423 00:38:29,200 --> 00:38:30,300 BUT YOU'VE BEEN STRONG. 424 00:38:30,300 --> 00:38:31,530 YOU'VE ALWAYS BEEN STRONG. 425 00:38:31,533 --> 00:38:34,333 YEAH. YUP. 426 00:38:34,333 --> 00:38:37,373 BUT THERE IS SOME SENSE OF SATISFACTION 427 00:38:37,367 --> 00:38:40,097 THAT YOU DID EVERYTHING YOU COULD DO 428 00:38:40,100 --> 00:38:43,670 TO HELP THEM TO FIND SOME LEVEL OF CLOSURE. 429 00:38:46,733 --> 00:38:50,533 YOU'RE WORKING THESE CASES FOR THESE FAMILIES. 430 00:38:54,733 --> 00:38:57,803 I INVESTIGATED A LOT OF CASES. 431 00:38:57,800 --> 00:38:59,800 SOME OF THE DEFENDANTS I REMEMBER. 432 00:38:59,800 --> 00:39:02,670 SOME OF THEM I DON'T. 433 00:39:02,667 --> 00:39:07,327 BRIAN IS SOMEONE THAT I DON'T THINK I'll EVER FORGET. 434 00:39:19,567 --> 00:39:25,627 MY BROTHER WAS SO ANGRY, PARANOID. 435 00:39:25,633 --> 00:39:28,103 HE DRANK. 436 00:39:28,100 --> 00:39:32,370 TOOK SOME PILLS FOR, YOU KNOW, ANXIETY AND STUFF LIKE THAT. 437 00:39:32,367 --> 00:39:37,197 MY DAD, HE DIED OF A HEART ATTACK SUDDENLY. 438 00:39:37,200 --> 00:39:39,530 HE DIED OF A BROKEN HEART BASICALLY. 439 00:39:39,533 --> 00:39:43,573 HE WAS NEVER THE SAME. 440 00:39:43,567 --> 00:39:47,697 AND THEN AFTER MY DAD DIED, MY BROTHER DIED. 441 00:39:47,700 --> 00:39:50,600 BRIAN STECKEL, I FEEL STOLE MY FATHER 442 00:39:50,600 --> 00:39:54,930 AND MY BROTHER'S WILL TO LIVE AND MINE. 443 00:40:06,700 --> 00:40:07,900 I'VE BEEN LIKE THIS FOR YEARS. 444 00:40:07,900 --> 00:40:10,970 I TRY. I JUST CAN'T. 445 00:40:10,967 --> 00:40:13,397 I MISS THEM ALL. 446 00:40:40,300 --> 00:40:45,870 BRIAN DID A JOURNAL AND I KNOW YOU HAVEN'T READ IT, OKAY. 447 00:40:45,867 --> 00:40:50,067 BUT I THINK IT WOULD REALLY HELP 448 00:40:50,067 --> 00:40:55,267 IF YOU WOULD READ THIS ONE PAGE, OKAY? 449 00:40:58,233 --> 00:41:01,273 "TEN AND A HALF YEARS AGO, I COMMITTED A CRIME, 450 00:41:01,267 --> 00:41:04,897 A COWARD ACT THAT I'M TOTALLY ASHAMED OF 451 00:41:04,900 --> 00:41:07,730 AND NO ONE AS NICE AS HER 452 00:41:07,733 --> 00:41:12,933 DESERVED TO DIE IN THE MANNER IN WHICH SHE DID. 453 00:41:12,933 --> 00:41:17,273 I HOPE YOU COULD ONE DAY FIND PEACE IN FORGIVING ME 454 00:41:17,267 --> 00:41:19,567 "FOR MY SHAMEFUL BEHAVIOR." 455 00:41:31,167 --> 00:41:33,167 AT LEAST HE SAID HE WAS SORRY. 456 00:41:33,167 --> 00:41:34,527 YEP. 457 00:41:34,533 --> 00:41:36,673 HE SAID HE WAS SORRY. 458 00:41:44,933 --> 00:41:47,673 I THINK WE ALL ARE SORRY. 459 00:41:54,600 --> 00:41:57,630 IT STILL WON'T BRING ANY OF THEM BACK. 460 00:42:02,133 --> 00:42:07,073 THEY STILL LOSE HER AND WE LOSE HIM. 461 00:42:10,933 --> 00:42:13,533 IT'LL NEVER RIGHT THE WRONG.