1 00:00:02,322 --> 00:00:04,364 [CHILDREN GIGGLING] 2 00:00:06,446 --> 00:00:09,149 OLIVIA, VOICE-OVER: THE BOND BETWEEN A FATHER AND A DAUGHTER... 3 00:00:09,249 --> 00:00:12,032 THERE'S ABSOLUTELY NOTHING LIKE IT. 4 00:00:12,132 --> 00:00:16,716 I ALWAYS USED TO SAY MY MOM GAVE ME MY DRIVE BUT 5 00:00:16,816 --> 00:00:18,818 MY DAD GAVE ME MY DREAMS. 6 00:00:20,140 --> 00:00:23,523 AS LITTLE GIRLS, WE DREAM OF ALL THE BIG 7 00:00:23,623 --> 00:00:26,806 LIFE MOMENTS WE'RE GONNA SHARE WITH OUR DADS... 8 00:00:26,906 --> 00:00:31,411 FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL, FIRST BIKE RIDE WITH OUR TRAINING WHEELS, 9 00:00:31,511 --> 00:00:34,774 FIRST DANCE, PRE-K GRADUATION, 10 00:00:34,874 --> 00:00:39,239 MIDDLE SCHOOL GRADUATION, JUST ALL THE GRADUATIONS. 11 00:00:40,560 --> 00:00:42,382 AND, OF COURSE, OUR WEDDINGS. 12 00:00:42,482 --> 00:00:46,746 MY GOWN IS GOING TO BE PURE WHITE WITH TONS OF LACE 13 00:00:46,846 --> 00:00:48,588 AND A TRAIN STRETCHING ON 14 00:00:48,688 --> 00:00:51,791 FOR MILES AND MILES, JUST LIKE MY MOM'S. 15 00:00:51,891 --> 00:00:55,595 OK, BUT WHO'S GOING TO HELP YOU CARRY THAT TRAIN? 16 00:00:55,695 --> 00:00:57,037 YOU, OF COURSE. 17 00:00:57,137 --> 00:00:58,678 FOR MY WEDDING, I'M GOING TO HAVE 18 00:00:58,778 --> 00:01:00,640 A SIMPLE BUT ELEGANT PANT SUIT. 19 00:01:00,740 --> 00:01:03,283 YOU CAN'T WEAR A PANT SUIT FOR YOUR WEDDING, OLIVIA. 20 00:01:03,383 --> 00:01:05,445 OF COURSE I CAN. MY DAD SAYS 21 00:01:05,545 --> 00:01:08,688 I CAN DO WHATEVER I WANT, 'CAUSE I'M A CHANGE-MAKER. 22 00:01:08,788 --> 00:01:11,651 HE SAYS ONE DAY I'M GONNA CHANGE THE WHOLE WORLD. 23 00:01:11,751 --> 00:01:12,932 WITH A PANT SUIT? 24 00:01:13,032 --> 00:01:14,454 ALL I KNOW IS DADDY'S 25 00:01:14,554 --> 00:01:16,556 ALWAYS RIGHT. 26 00:01:17,157 --> 00:01:18,978 OLIVIA, VOICE-OVER: PROBLEM IS, WHILE WE'RE 27 00:01:19,078 --> 00:01:22,102 DREAMING THESE BIG DREAMS OF LIFE WITH OUR HERO, 28 00:01:22,202 --> 00:01:24,424 NO ONE EVER WARNS US THAT THOSE SAME DREAMS 29 00:01:24,524 --> 00:01:26,186 COULD BE CUT SHORT. 30 00:01:26,286 --> 00:01:27,907 THAT WE COULD JUST WAKE UP ONE DAY 31 00:01:28,007 --> 00:01:30,910 AND...OUR DAD'S JUST... 32 00:01:31,010 --> 00:01:33,573 GONE. 33 00:01:38,858 --> 00:01:40,360 [SOFTLY] HEY. 34 00:01:40,460 --> 00:01:42,282 HEY. YOU OK? 35 00:01:42,382 --> 00:01:44,824 I JUST--I'M SORRY. I JUST REALLY NEED YOU TO GET UP. 36 00:01:47,467 --> 00:01:49,489 LIV, IT'S THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT. WHAT'S WRONG? 37 00:01:49,589 --> 00:01:51,091 I'M NOT GONNA MAKE IT THROUGH THE NIGHT 38 00:01:51,191 --> 00:01:52,492 WITHOUT TAKING A DRINK. 39 00:01:52,592 --> 00:01:54,294 I JUST--I NEED BOTH OF YOU, PLEASE. 40 00:01:54,394 --> 00:01:56,456 [OLIVIA SOBBING] 41 00:01:56,556 --> 00:01:58,058 HEY, HEY. COME HERE. 42 00:01:58,158 --> 00:02:00,160 COME HERE, COME HERE, COME HERE. 43 00:02:05,845 --> 00:02:09,509 KWABS: ♪ WAR'S OVER BUT I SOLDIER ON ♪ 44 00:02:09,609 --> 00:02:12,832 ♪ STILL BATTLING THE GHOST LONG GONE ♪ 45 00:02:12,932 --> 00:02:15,195 ♪ OH ♪ 46 00:02:15,295 --> 00:02:19,499 ♪ OH-OH ♪ 47 00:02:21,541 --> 00:02:25,285 ♪ STILL STRUGGLING TO SEE THE SIGNS ♪ 48 00:02:25,385 --> 00:02:28,928 ♪ TOO HEAVY FOR A HEART LIKE MINE ♪ 49 00:02:29,028 --> 00:02:34,734 ♪ SAVE ME, SAVE ME ♪ 50 00:02:34,834 --> 00:02:38,738 ♪ OOH, OH, OOH ♪ 51 00:02:38,838 --> 00:02:45,064 ♪ OH, OH, OH ♪ 52 00:02:45,164 --> 00:02:48,708 ♪ KEEP MY HERITAGE TO KEEP ME CLEAN ♪ 53 00:02:48,808 --> 00:02:51,711 ♪ KEEP THE DEVIL WATCHING OVER ME ♪ 54 00:02:51,811 --> 00:02:58,118 ♪ SAVE ME, SAVE ME ♪ 55 00:02:58,218 --> 00:02:59,879 ♪ OOH, OOH... ♪ 56 00:02:59,979 --> 00:03:01,841 OLIVIA: THANK YOU. 57 00:03:01,941 --> 00:03:04,924 I'M GLAD YOU HAVE EACH OTHER. 58 00:03:05,024 --> 00:03:13,933 KWABS: ♪ OOH, OOH ♪ 59 00:03:14,033 --> 00:03:20,360 ♪ OOH, OOH ♪ 60 00:03:25,485 --> 00:03:26,946 OK. 61 00:03:27,046 --> 00:03:28,988 HEY. I DIDN'T HEAR YOU COME IN. 62 00:03:29,088 --> 00:03:31,591 I DIDN'T WANNA WAKE YOU, AND ASH LET ME IN. 63 00:03:31,691 --> 00:03:33,193 OH. 64 00:03:33,293 --> 00:03:35,515 WHATCHA GOT HERE? 65 00:03:35,615 --> 00:03:37,557 THESE ARE MY FAMOUS HOT CAKES. 66 00:03:37,657 --> 00:03:39,479 WELL, THANK YOU, BUT I CAN'T EAT ALL THAT 67 00:03:39,579 --> 00:03:41,761 BEFORE A WORKOUT. 68 00:03:41,861 --> 00:03:43,363 UH, WELL, MY MAMA ALWAYS SAID 69 00:03:43,463 --> 00:03:44,764 FOOD IS MEDICINE FOR THE SOUL. 70 00:03:44,864 --> 00:03:47,046 I APPRECIATE YOU AND YOUR MAMA, 71 00:03:47,146 --> 00:03:48,368 BUT I GOTTA GET TO THE GYM. 72 00:03:48,468 --> 00:03:50,009 SPENCE, WHY THE RUSH? 73 00:03:50,109 --> 00:03:51,411 I KNOW COACH BAKER'S FUNERAL WAS 74 00:03:51,511 --> 00:03:52,532 ONLY A COUPLE DAYS AGO. 75 00:03:52,632 --> 00:03:54,053 I DON'T THINK ANYONE'S 76 00:03:54,153 --> 00:03:56,095 EXPECTING YOU TO RUSH BACK TO ANYTHING. 77 00:03:56,195 --> 00:03:57,977 I WAS THINKING WE COULD TALK. 78 00:03:58,077 --> 00:03:59,339 I KNOW HOW HARD IT MUST HAVE BEEN 79 00:03:59,439 --> 00:04:00,780 FOR YOU LOSING COACH BAKER. 80 00:04:00,880 --> 00:04:03,783 IT'S THE CYCLE OF LIFE, RIGHT? 81 00:04:03,883 --> 00:04:05,024 WHAT HAPPENED TO COACH AIN'T SOMETHING 82 00:04:05,124 --> 00:04:06,586 NONE OF US CAN CHANGE. 83 00:04:06,686 --> 00:04:08,308 LOOK, I REALLY GOTTA GET THIS WORKOUT IN, 84 00:04:08,408 --> 00:04:09,709 SO MAYBE LATER, YOU AND I CAN 85 00:04:09,809 --> 00:04:11,591 TEAR INTO THAT STACK OF HOT CAKES. 86 00:04:11,691 --> 00:04:13,733 SPENCER: ALL RIGHT. 87 00:04:18,338 --> 00:04:20,240 [DOOR OPENS] 88 00:04:20,340 --> 00:04:24,844 JORDAN: DO I CALL MY MOM? DO--DO WE KEEP HER WITH US ALL DAY? 89 00:04:24,944 --> 00:04:26,286 YOU KNOW WHAT? SCREW IT. 90 00:04:26,386 --> 00:04:27,687 I'M JUST GONNA CALL HER SPONSOR 91 00:04:27,787 --> 00:04:29,849 AND IF LIV GETS MAD, SHE CAN GET MAD, OK? 92 00:04:29,949 --> 00:04:31,951 [KNOCK ON DOOR] 93 00:04:33,232 --> 00:04:35,014 LAYLA. HI. 94 00:04:35,114 --> 00:04:36,696 LAYLA: HI. NURSE JOY: IT'S GOOD TO SEE YOU. HEH! 95 00:04:36,796 --> 00:04:39,379 LAYLA: YEAH. JORDAN? [DOOR CLOSES] 96 00:04:39,479 --> 00:04:41,781 YOU BOTH LOOK LIKE YOU'VE SEEN A GHOST. 97 00:04:41,881 --> 00:04:43,743 LAYLA: UM, NO, SORRY, IT'S JUST WE WERE 98 00:04:43,843 --> 00:04:45,265 LITERALLY ABOUT TO CALL YOU. 99 00:04:45,365 --> 00:04:47,267 YEAH, UH, HOW DID YOU KNOW TO COME HERE? 100 00:04:47,367 --> 00:04:49,369 OLIVIA: I CALLED HER. 101 00:04:50,330 --> 00:04:52,151 I CALLED EVERYONE, ACTUALLY. 102 00:04:52,251 --> 00:04:53,473 IF I'M GONNA GET THROUGH TODAY 103 00:04:53,573 --> 00:04:54,754 AND NOT DRINK, I'M-- 104 00:04:54,854 --> 00:04:56,396 I'M GONNA NEED MY VILLAGE. 105 00:04:56,496 --> 00:04:57,757 ATTA GIRL. 106 00:04:57,857 --> 00:05:00,139 [DOOR OPENS] 107 00:05:04,303 --> 00:05:06,626 [DOOR CLOSES] 108 00:05:16,356 --> 00:05:18,578 [OLIVIA SIGHS] THESE PAST COUPLE WEEKS HAVE BEEN 109 00:05:18,678 --> 00:05:20,059 REALLY, REALLY HARD. 110 00:05:20,159 --> 00:05:23,703 UM, LAST NIGHT, I JUST-- I HAD NOTHING LEFT, 111 00:05:23,803 --> 00:05:26,306 AND I WOULD'VE HAD A DRINK 112 00:05:26,406 --> 00:05:28,187 IF I DIDN'T GET HELP, SO... 113 00:05:28,287 --> 00:05:30,710 LAURA: WHY DIDN'T YOU SAY ANYTHING SOONER, SWEETHEART? 114 00:05:30,810 --> 00:05:32,792 BECAUSE I'M NOT THE ONLY ONE THAT LOST DAD, 115 00:05:32,892 --> 00:05:36,556 AND FOCUSING IT ON ME JUST FELT SELFISH. 116 00:05:36,656 --> 00:05:38,157 NO ONE WOULD'VE THOUGHT THAT, LIV. 117 00:05:38,257 --> 00:05:40,239 NURSE JOY: OK, WE'RE HERE NOW, 118 00:05:40,339 --> 00:05:42,041 SO HOW CAN WE HELP, OLIVIA? 119 00:05:42,141 --> 00:05:44,444 I TEXTED EVERYONE 120 00:05:44,544 --> 00:05:46,886 ALL MY USUAL HIDING PLACES FOR MY PILLS AND STUFF. 121 00:05:46,986 --> 00:05:48,808 JORDAN ALREADY DID A SWEEP THIS MORNING, 122 00:05:48,908 --> 00:05:50,410 SO I GUESS JUST KEEP CHECKING 123 00:05:50,510 --> 00:05:52,612 AND KEEP ME HONEST. 124 00:05:52,712 --> 00:05:55,335 JORDAN: OK, THIS IS, UM, THIS IS ALL THAT WAS LEFT IN THE HOUSE. 125 00:05:55,435 --> 00:05:57,977 THAT'S YOUR DAD'S. THAT'S FROM-- 126 00:05:58,077 --> 00:05:59,859 HOW DID YOU GET-- 127 00:05:59,959 --> 00:06:01,301 I TOOK IT FROM HIS OFFICE THE NIGHT 128 00:06:01,401 --> 00:06:03,102 OF THE MEMORIAL AND I'VE BEEN 129 00:06:03,202 --> 00:06:05,565 HOLDING ON TO IT AND, UM... 130 00:06:07,246 --> 00:06:09,989 I JUST--I CAN'T KEEP FIGHTING THIS ALONE. 131 00:06:10,089 --> 00:06:13,393 COOP: YOU DON'T HAVE TO. WE CAN DO REGULAR SWEEPS. 132 00:06:13,493 --> 00:06:15,515 WE CAN TAKE TURNS DRIVING YOU TO A.A. 133 00:06:15,615 --> 00:06:17,817 I MEAN, WHATEVER IT TAKES, HONESTLY. 134 00:06:20,460 --> 00:06:23,002 I DON'T THINK I CAN BE LEFT ALONE. 135 00:06:23,102 --> 00:06:25,104 [SNIFFLES] 136 00:06:28,668 --> 00:06:31,310 UH, WELL, THEN WE WON'T LEAVE YOU ALONE. 137 00:06:34,874 --> 00:06:37,417 ASHER: HEY, BABY. JAYMEE: HEY. HOW'S LIV? 138 00:06:37,517 --> 00:06:39,499 IMPRESSIVELY STRONG. 139 00:06:39,599 --> 00:06:41,501 WE'RE ALL TAKING SHIFTS WITH HER TODAY. 140 00:06:41,601 --> 00:06:45,144 HMM. AND THIS IS WHY THE VORTEX ROCKS. HEH! 141 00:06:45,244 --> 00:06:47,226 I'M GONNA GET A REFILL. DO YOU WANT ONE? 142 00:06:47,326 --> 00:06:49,308 THESE BABY BOOKS I'M READING SAY THAT TOO MUCH CAFFEINE 143 00:06:49,408 --> 00:06:51,150 CAN ELEVATE YOUR BLOOD PRESSURE AND HEART RATE. 144 00:06:51,250 --> 00:06:55,154 SO CAN SEX. YOU GONNA STOP THAT, TOO? 145 00:06:55,254 --> 00:06:57,517 - NO, WE DON'T HAVE TO FOLLOW THESE BOOKS WORD FOR WORD. - HA HA! 146 00:06:57,617 --> 00:06:59,198 [CELL PHONE BUZZES] ASHER: WE CAN JUST, YOU KNOW. 147 00:06:59,298 --> 00:07:01,080 THAT'S WHAT I THOUGHT. MM-HMM. 148 00:07:01,180 --> 00:07:03,803 OH! MY DOCTOR JUST GOT BACK TO ME. 149 00:07:03,903 --> 00:07:05,445 SHE CAN SEE US AT 2:00 TODAY 150 00:07:05,545 --> 00:07:08,047 FOR OUR FIRST ULTRASOUND. OK. 151 00:07:08,147 --> 00:07:10,650 WAIT. I THOUGHT OUR APPOINTMENT WAS IN A FEW WEEKS. 152 00:07:10,750 --> 00:07:13,052 IT WAS, BUT SHE WANTS TO START MONITORING ME EARLY 153 00:07:13,152 --> 00:07:14,333 BECAUSE OF MY LUPUS. 154 00:07:14,433 --> 00:07:16,135 IS THAT NORMAL? IS SHE CONCERNED? 155 00:07:16,235 --> 00:07:17,977 DOES SHE THINK THAT-- THAT SOMETHING COULD BE WRONG OR-- 156 00:07:18,077 --> 00:07:20,500 HEY, ASH, SLOW DOWN. SHE'S JUST TAKING PRECAUTIONS 157 00:07:20,600 --> 00:07:22,982 TO MAKE SURE I HAVE A HEALTHY PREGNANCY. 158 00:07:23,082 --> 00:07:25,084 IT'S A GOOD THING, BABE. 159 00:07:35,054 --> 00:07:37,136 [DOOR CLOSES] 160 00:07:46,826 --> 00:07:48,327 OK. 161 00:07:48,427 --> 00:07:51,110 DAD MUST'VE ORDERED THIS BEFORE... 162 00:07:52,672 --> 00:07:54,534 YOU KNOW, IT'S WEIRD TO THINK THAT THIS--THIS-- 163 00:07:54,634 --> 00:07:57,216 THIS COULD'VE BEEN ONE OF THE LAST THINGS THAT HE DID. 164 00:07:57,316 --> 00:07:59,579 I'M SORRY, JORDAN. 165 00:07:59,679 --> 00:08:01,781 YOU KNOW, WE CAN JUST SET IT ASIDE 166 00:08:01,881 --> 00:08:03,623 TILL YOUR MOM'S READY TO DEAL WITH IT. 167 00:08:03,723 --> 00:08:05,505 NO, I DON'T--I DON'T WANNA PUT HER THROUGH THAT. 168 00:08:05,605 --> 00:08:07,026 OK. DO YOU WANT ME TO OPEN IT? 169 00:08:07,126 --> 00:08:09,909 I DON'T KNOW. IF--IF WE OPEN IT, 170 00:08:10,009 --> 00:08:11,150 THAT'S IT. 171 00:08:11,250 --> 00:08:12,992 WHAT'S IT? 172 00:08:13,092 --> 00:08:15,635 THERE'LL BE NO MORE PACKAGES, LAYLA. 173 00:08:15,735 --> 00:08:19,098 THE--THERE'LL BE NO MORE MOMENTS WITH DAD. 174 00:08:25,184 --> 00:08:27,567 MARKUS GLEISSNER: ♪ YO, I'M NOT AN UNDERDOG ♪ MAN: ♪ NAH ♪ 175 00:08:27,667 --> 00:08:29,529 MARKUS: ♪ NOT THE UNDERCARD ♪ MAN: ♪ NO ♪ 176 00:08:29,629 --> 00:08:31,330 MARKUS: ♪ I'M THE MAIN EVENT ♪ MAN: ♪ UH-HUH ♪ 177 00:08:31,430 --> 00:08:32,932 MARKUS: ♪ STAY UNINVOLVED, AND YOU KNOW ♪ 178 00:08:33,032 --> 00:08:34,614 ♪ THAT I ALWAYS GO THE DISTANCE ♪ 179 00:08:34,714 --> 00:08:37,376 ♪ AND THEN WIN BY MAJORITY DECISION ♪ 180 00:08:37,476 --> 00:08:40,139 ♪ WHATEVER YOU DO, DON'T LET YOUR GUARD DOWN ♪ 181 00:08:40,239 --> 00:08:42,381 ♪ SO KNUCKLE UP, YOU GOTTA KNUCKLE UP ♪ 182 00:08:42,481 --> 00:08:45,224 ♪ YO, WHATEVER YOU DO, DON'T LET YOUR GUARD DOWN ♪ 183 00:08:45,324 --> 00:08:47,186 YO, MAN. THERE YOU ARE. 184 00:08:47,286 --> 00:08:49,228 WHY WEREN'T YOU AT THE BAKER HOUSE THIS MORNING? 185 00:08:49,328 --> 00:08:51,030 WAS I SUPPOSED TO BE? 186 00:08:51,130 --> 00:08:53,593 LIV CALLED A FAMILY MEETING THIS MORNING. 187 00:08:53,693 --> 00:08:55,354 SHE'S STRUGGLING WITH HER SOBRIETY, 188 00:08:55,454 --> 00:08:57,436 SO WE ALL TAKING SHIFTS TO HELP HER. 189 00:08:57,536 --> 00:09:00,600 NAH. NO, I AIN'T GET THE CALL. 190 00:09:00,700 --> 00:09:02,802 YOU SERIOUS, MAN? THAT'S ALL YOU GOTTA SAY? 191 00:09:02,902 --> 00:09:04,924 WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME, COOP? 192 00:09:05,024 --> 00:09:08,067 SOUNDS LIKE SHE GOT ALL THE SUPPORT SHE NEEDS, SO... 193 00:09:18,878 --> 00:09:20,540 WHAT'S REALLY GOING ON, OLIVIA? 194 00:09:20,640 --> 00:09:22,381 WHAT DO YOU MEAN? I--I TOLD YOU. 195 00:09:22,481 --> 00:09:23,823 I'M TRYING NOT TO RELAPSE. 196 00:09:23,923 --> 00:09:25,344 YOUR FATHER PASSED AND YOU'RE TRYING 197 00:09:25,444 --> 00:09:26,666 NOT TO DRINK TO NUMB THE PAIN. 198 00:09:26,766 --> 00:09:27,987 EXACTLY. 199 00:09:28,087 --> 00:09:29,468 LOSING YOUR DAD HURTS. 200 00:09:29,568 --> 00:09:31,110 I UNDERSTAND THAT. 201 00:09:31,210 --> 00:09:32,992 AND I'M SORRY FOR YOUR PAIN. 202 00:09:33,092 --> 00:09:34,994 BUT THAT'S NOT THE WHOLE STORY. 203 00:09:35,094 --> 00:09:37,316 I'VE BEEN WHERE YOU ARE, REMEMBER? 204 00:09:37,416 --> 00:09:40,239 YOU DID THE RIGHT THING BY ACTIVATING YOUR VILLAGE 205 00:09:40,339 --> 00:09:43,162 INSTEAD OF TRYING TO GO AT IT ALONE THIS TIME. 206 00:09:43,262 --> 00:09:44,764 AND THAT IS GROWTH. 207 00:09:44,864 --> 00:09:47,727 BUT YOUR VILLAGE CAN'T BABYSIT YOU FOREVER. 208 00:09:47,827 --> 00:09:49,529 SO YOU NEED TO DIG DEEP 209 00:09:49,629 --> 00:09:51,851 AND FIND YOUR WHY, LIV. 210 00:09:51,951 --> 00:09:53,893 WHY NOW DO YOU WANT THAT DRINK? 211 00:09:53,993 --> 00:09:58,297 TAKE THE LEAP AND FIND THOSE ANSWERS, TODAY, 212 00:09:58,397 --> 00:10:01,861 WHILE YOU HAVE YOUR ENTIRE VILLAGE SURROUNDING YOU, 213 00:10:01,961 --> 00:10:04,003 READY TO CATCH YOU IF NEEDED. 214 00:10:09,929 --> 00:10:11,871 EDDY: COACH BAKER ALWAYS HAD THIS THING ABOUT SHOES. 215 00:10:11,971 --> 00:10:14,754 HE SAID RESPECT STARTED AT THE FEET. 216 00:10:14,854 --> 00:10:16,876 I NEVER UNDERSTOOD IT 217 00:10:16,976 --> 00:10:19,639 UNTIL ONE DAY, HE GAVE ME A BRAND-NEW PAIR OF CLEATS. 218 00:10:19,739 --> 00:10:21,601 TOLD ME EVERYONE ALWAYS THOUGHT HIS HANDS 219 00:10:21,701 --> 00:10:23,162 WERE THE KEY TO HIS SUCCESS ON THE FIELD, 220 00:10:23,262 --> 00:10:24,764 BUT REALLY IT WAS HIS FOOTWORK. 221 00:10:24,864 --> 00:10:28,047 HE SAID I HAD THE SAME POTENTIAL 222 00:10:28,147 --> 00:10:31,330 AND THEN EVERY DAY, HE MADE SURE I BELIEVED IT. 223 00:10:31,430 --> 00:10:33,292 PREACH: YEAH, HE WAS ALWAYS GOOD AT HELPING PEOPLE 224 00:10:33,392 --> 00:10:34,974 FIND THEIR VALUE. 225 00:10:35,074 --> 00:10:37,476 ANYONE ELSE WANNA SHARE? 226 00:10:40,439 --> 00:10:43,983 I'MA BE IN THIS ROOM, SAME TIME, EVERY DAY. 227 00:10:44,083 --> 00:10:46,065 WE'RE ALL GRIEVING COACH BAKER, 228 00:10:46,165 --> 00:10:47,987 BUT DON'T NOBODY GOTTA DO IT ALONE. 229 00:10:48,087 --> 00:10:49,989 [SCHOOL BELL RINGS] 230 00:10:50,089 --> 00:10:51,871 Y'ALL CAN ROLL. 231 00:10:51,971 --> 00:10:54,013 [INDISTINCT CHATTER] 232 00:11:00,299 --> 00:11:02,201 WE NEED TO TALK ABOUT JABARI. 233 00:11:02,301 --> 00:11:03,843 YEAH, I'M WORRIED ABOUT HIM. 234 00:11:03,943 --> 00:11:06,085 HE STILL HASN'T RESUMED HIS AFTER-SCHOOL TUTORING, 235 00:11:06,185 --> 00:11:08,207 AND NOW HE'S FAILED HIS LAST TWO TESTS. 236 00:11:08,307 --> 00:11:10,129 I DON'T NEED TO TELL YOU WHERE THIS PATH LEADS 237 00:11:10,229 --> 00:11:12,992 IF HE DOESN'T COURSE CORRECT, AND FAST. 238 00:11:18,557 --> 00:11:21,680 OLIVIA: WELL, HOW'S THAT FOR ACCURACY? 239 00:11:23,162 --> 00:11:25,144 LIV, YOU ARE NOT FOUNDERING. 240 00:11:25,244 --> 00:11:28,107 JUST WISH YOU COULD SEE YOURSELF THE WAY WE SEE YOU. 241 00:11:28,207 --> 00:11:30,029 YOU MEAN LIKE A CLICHE THAT'S RELAPSING 242 00:11:30,129 --> 00:11:31,190 'CAUSE THEY'RE GRIEVING? 243 00:11:31,290 --> 00:11:33,472 NO, LIKE A BADASS 244 00:11:33,572 --> 00:11:35,675 WHO I'M INCREDIBLY PROUD OF 245 00:11:35,775 --> 00:11:39,959 FOR BEING HONEST AND LETTING US BE HERE FOR HER. 246 00:11:40,059 --> 00:11:43,562 BUT YOU'VE BEEN HANDLING EVERYTHING SO WELL AND I'M-- 247 00:11:43,662 --> 00:11:45,164 I HAVE NOT 248 00:11:45,264 --> 00:11:48,487 BEEN HANDLING MY GRIEF WELL AT ALL. 249 00:11:48,587 --> 00:11:50,129 I CRY. 250 00:11:50,229 --> 00:11:52,411 EVERY DAY. 251 00:11:52,511 --> 00:11:55,574 MOSTLY IN THE SHOWER SO YOU GUYS DON'T HEAR ME. 252 00:11:55,674 --> 00:11:58,658 AND EVERY MORNING THAT I CAN EVEN GET OUT OF BED 253 00:11:58,758 --> 00:12:00,459 IS NOTHING SHORT OF A MIRACLE. 254 00:12:00,559 --> 00:12:03,422 MOM, I'M SO SORRY. I DIDN'T KNOW. 255 00:12:03,522 --> 00:12:05,384 BECAUSE I DIDN'T WANT YOU TO KNOW. 256 00:12:05,484 --> 00:12:07,667 [CELL PHONE BUZZING] 257 00:12:07,767 --> 00:12:11,070 I'M SORRY, SWEETIE. I GOTTA GET THIS. ONE SECOND. 258 00:12:11,170 --> 00:12:13,272 HELLO? YES, THIS IS LAURA. 259 00:12:13,372 --> 00:12:15,274 [FOOTSTEPS RETREAT] 260 00:12:15,374 --> 00:12:17,376 [BREATHING HEAVILY] 261 00:12:26,625 --> 00:12:28,527 IS EVERYTHING OK? 262 00:12:28,627 --> 00:12:30,489 YEAH. APPARENTLY, IN ORDER TO GET 263 00:12:30,589 --> 00:12:32,611 A COPY OF YOUR DAD'S DEATH CERTIFICATE, 264 00:12:32,711 --> 00:12:34,213 THE MEDICAL EXAMINER NEEDS A COPY OF 265 00:12:34,313 --> 00:12:36,295 HIS SOCIAL SECURITY CARD. 266 00:12:36,395 --> 00:12:38,337 WELL, IS IT HERE? I CAN HELP YOU LOOK. 267 00:12:38,437 --> 00:12:39,578 NO. IT'S AT HIS OFFICE. 268 00:12:39,678 --> 00:12:42,181 BUT I CAN GET IT ANOTHER DAY. 269 00:12:42,281 --> 00:12:45,064 OR WE--WE COULD GO TODAY. I CAN COME WITH YOU. 270 00:12:45,164 --> 00:12:49,028 SWEETIE, THE BOTTLE THAT YOU ALMOST DRANK FROM 271 00:12:49,128 --> 00:12:51,030 WAS IN DAD'S OFFICE. 272 00:12:51,130 --> 00:12:53,953 CLEARLY, IT'S TRIGGERING FOR YOU. 273 00:12:54,053 --> 00:12:57,276 I MEAN, YOU'RE RIGHT. I-- 274 00:12:57,376 --> 00:13:00,599 YEAH, I DID FIND THE BOTTLE THERE, BUT... 275 00:13:00,699 --> 00:13:03,202 I THINK THAT'S WHY I NEED TO GO BACK THERE. 276 00:13:03,302 --> 00:13:05,765 YOU KNOW, NURSE JOY SAYS SHE THINKS THERE'S 277 00:13:05,865 --> 00:13:08,447 MORE TO MY WANTING TO DRINK THAN JUST MISSING DAD, 278 00:13:08,547 --> 00:13:12,051 AND SHE SAID THAT I NEED TO USE TODAY TO DIG DEEP AND FIND 279 00:13:12,151 --> 00:13:15,614 MY REAL "WHY" IF I'M GONNA GET THROUGH THIS, SO... 280 00:13:15,714 --> 00:13:17,716 IF YOU THINK IT'S WHAT YOU NEED. 281 00:13:25,764 --> 00:13:28,387 SPENCER: WHAT UP, COACH? COACH KENNY: SPENCE. 282 00:13:28,487 --> 00:13:30,229 DID NOT EXPECT TO SEE YOU HERE. 283 00:13:30,329 --> 00:13:31,991 HAD TO GET A WORKOUT IN, YOU KNOW? 284 00:13:32,091 --> 00:13:33,312 I CAN'T BLAME YOU. 285 00:13:33,412 --> 00:13:35,274 GRIEF ISN'T A STRAIGHT LINE, RIGHT? 286 00:13:35,374 --> 00:13:37,676 IF YOU NEED TO TALK, BRUH, I'M HERE. 287 00:13:37,776 --> 00:13:38,958 ACTUALLY, I DO. 288 00:13:39,058 --> 00:13:41,040 WHERE WE AT WITH THE TEAM? 289 00:13:41,140 --> 00:13:43,803 [SCOFFS] THAT SHOULD BE THE LEAST OF YOUR CONCERNS. 290 00:13:43,903 --> 00:13:46,445 IT'S MY ONLY CONCERN. LOOK, WHAT HAPPENED TO COACH BAKER 291 00:13:46,545 --> 00:13:48,607 IS HORRIBLE, BUT I CAN'T CHANGE THE PAST. 292 00:13:48,707 --> 00:13:51,290 I GOTTA FOCUS ON WHAT'S NEXT, AND RIGHT NOW, 293 00:13:51,390 --> 00:13:53,332 THAT'S REBUILDING GAU's FOOTBALL TEAM. 294 00:13:53,432 --> 00:13:55,254 WE'LL GET THERE. LET'S FOCUS ON YOURSELF. 295 00:13:55,354 --> 00:13:57,656 HAS A.D. BARNES REACHED OUT ABOUT THE HEAD COACHING GIG? 296 00:13:57,756 --> 00:14:00,299 - WE HAVEN'T CONNECTED YET. - AND WHAT ABOUT YOU? YOU REACHING OUT 297 00:14:00,399 --> 00:14:01,740 - TO OUR NEW RECRUITS? - A FEW HERE AND THERE. 298 00:14:01,840 --> 00:14:03,222 ARE YOU SCHEDULING WORKOUTS? 299 00:14:03,322 --> 00:14:04,703 ARE YOU WORKING ON NEW PLAYS? WHAT? 300 00:14:04,803 --> 00:14:06,185 HEY, SPENCE, SPENCE, TAKE A BEAT, ALL RIGHT? 301 00:14:06,285 --> 00:14:08,227 GAU FOOTBALL STILL HAS A LOT TO FIGURE OUT 302 00:14:08,327 --> 00:14:10,469 BEFORE WE CAN EVEN THINK ABOUT REBUILDING THE PROGRAM AGAIN. 303 00:14:10,569 --> 00:14:12,992 SOUNDS LIKE YOU WAITING TO BE TOLD WHAT TO DO. 304 00:14:13,092 --> 00:14:15,995 WHY AIN'T YOU IN THERE DEMANDING A MEETING WITH A.D. BARNES? 305 00:14:16,095 --> 00:14:18,717 WHEN DID YOU STOP CARING ABOUT THE FUTURE OF GAU FOOTBALL, MAN? 306 00:14:18,817 --> 00:14:21,040 I CARE ABOUT THIS PROGRAM, AND YOU KNOW THAT. 307 00:14:21,140 --> 00:14:23,282 BUT MORE IMPORTANTLY, I CARE ABOUT YOU. 308 00:14:23,382 --> 00:14:25,324 AND IT'S CLEAR THAT YOU STILL NEED MORE TIME. 309 00:14:25,424 --> 00:14:28,207 UNTIL THEN, IF YOU NEED TO TALK 310 00:14:28,307 --> 00:14:31,770 OR JUST GET A WORKOUT IN IN SILENCE, I'M HERE. 311 00:14:31,870 --> 00:14:33,872 NAH, I'M GOOD. 312 00:14:40,159 --> 00:14:41,901 LAYLA: SORRY. THAT CONFERENCE CALL WENT 313 00:14:42,001 --> 00:14:43,903 LONGER THAN I EXPECTED. 314 00:14:44,003 --> 00:14:45,945 JORDAN, PLEASE TELL ME YOU'VE MOVED AN INCH 315 00:14:46,045 --> 00:14:47,827 SINCE I LEFT YOU. 316 00:14:47,927 --> 00:14:50,429 [SIGHS] THIS IS 317 00:14:50,529 --> 00:14:53,032 THE LAST PART OF MY DAD THAT IS STILL ALIVE. 318 00:14:53,132 --> 00:14:56,035 AND I KNOW THAT DOESN'T MAKE ANY SENSE AT ALL, BUT-- 319 00:14:56,135 --> 00:14:58,037 NO, IT MAKES TOTAL SENSE. 320 00:14:58,137 --> 00:15:01,160 HEY, WHEN WE LOSE SOMEONE WE LOVE, 321 00:15:01,260 --> 00:15:03,162 WE DO EVERYTHING WE CAN TO HOLD ON TO THEM. 322 00:15:03,262 --> 00:15:05,164 OK, BUT LAYLA, WHAT IF THIS IS WHERE 323 00:15:05,264 --> 00:15:07,166 THE REMINDERS OF HIM END? 324 00:15:07,266 --> 00:15:09,969 THIS LAST BOX. 325 00:15:10,069 --> 00:15:13,372 ABOUT A YEAR AGO, I WAS REALLY MISSING MY MOM, 326 00:15:13,472 --> 00:15:17,576 AND THEN THIS TRACK POPPED UP ON MY COMPUTER 327 00:15:17,676 --> 00:15:20,860 FROM THE RECENT BATCH MY DAD GAVE ME. 328 00:15:20,960 --> 00:15:23,903 MONICA KEATING: ♪ JUST KNOW ♪ 329 00:15:24,003 --> 00:15:28,147 ♪ I'M ON YOUR SIDE WHEN YOU'RE MISSING ME...♪ 330 00:15:28,247 --> 00:15:30,749 IT'S ONE OF MY MOM'S OLD SONGS, 331 00:15:30,849 --> 00:15:34,193 AND THE CHORUS GOES, "AS HARD AS IT CAN BE, 332 00:15:34,293 --> 00:15:36,755 NEVER STOP REMEMBERING ME." 333 00:15:36,855 --> 00:15:39,598 THE UNIVERSE GAVE ME THIS LITTLE REMINDER WHEN I NEEDED IT. 334 00:15:39,698 --> 00:15:42,281 SO THIS BOX, JORDAN, IT'S JUST-- 335 00:15:42,381 --> 00:15:44,803 JUST THE BEGINNING OF YOUR DAD'S REMINDERS. 336 00:15:44,903 --> 00:15:48,047 KEATING: ♪ NEVER STOP REMEMBERING ME... ♪ 337 00:15:48,147 --> 00:15:50,809 [SOFTLY] THANK YOU. 338 00:15:50,909 --> 00:15:53,192 [SIGHS] 339 00:15:58,157 --> 00:16:00,059 [CHUCKLES] 340 00:16:00,159 --> 00:16:01,420 YOU WOULD'VE NEVER HAVE GUESSED 341 00:16:01,520 --> 00:16:03,102 THAT THIS WAS JUST MOMENTS AFTER 342 00:16:03,202 --> 00:16:05,504 WE BOTH GOT FOOD POISONING AFTER DAD INSISTED 343 00:16:05,604 --> 00:16:07,506 THAT WE GET STREET FISH TACOS. 344 00:16:07,606 --> 00:16:09,548 - I TRIED TO WARN YOU GUYS. - HEH! I KNOW. 345 00:16:09,648 --> 00:16:12,891 BUT DAD WAS SO EXCITED I DIDN'T WANT HIM TO EAT ALONE. 346 00:16:17,856 --> 00:16:21,160 THE MEMORIES WON'T ALWAYS HURT SO MUCH. 347 00:16:21,260 --> 00:16:23,963 OR SO THEY SAY. 348 00:16:24,063 --> 00:16:26,105 [CELL PHONE BUZZES] 349 00:16:28,067 --> 00:16:31,370 UM, COOP'S HERE TO PICK ME UP FOR HER SHIFT. 350 00:16:31,470 --> 00:16:33,372 DO YOU WANT ME TO TELL HER TO COME BACK LATER? 351 00:16:33,472 --> 00:16:36,135 OH, NO, SWEETIE. YOU GO. I--I CAN LOOK FOR HIS CARD. 352 00:16:36,235 --> 00:16:38,417 OLIVIA: ARE YOU SURE? LAURA: LIV, I'M--I'M OK HERE. 353 00:16:38,517 --> 00:16:39,898 I PROMISE. 354 00:16:39,998 --> 00:16:41,900 GO. COOP'S WAITING. 355 00:16:42,000 --> 00:16:44,123 OLIVIA: OK. LAURA: BYE. 356 00:16:49,288 --> 00:16:52,731 [DOOR OPENS, CLOSES] 357 00:16:54,493 --> 00:16:56,495 [SLAM] 358 00:16:59,298 --> 00:17:01,300 GIRLS: AAH! 359 00:17:02,901 --> 00:17:05,304 WATCH WHERE YOU GOING, FOOL. 360 00:17:07,546 --> 00:17:10,449 [STUDENTS SHOUTING INDISTINCTLY] 361 00:17:10,549 --> 00:17:12,451 PREACH: HEY, HEY. HEY! HEY! 362 00:17:12,551 --> 00:17:15,234 HEY! WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU, MAN? 363 00:17:24,763 --> 00:17:26,105 YOU'RE ABOUT 7 WEEKS ALONG. 364 00:17:26,205 --> 00:17:28,027 BABY'S MEASURING PERFECTLY. 365 00:17:28,127 --> 00:17:30,189 AND THERE'S YOUR BABY'S HEARTBEAT. 366 00:17:30,289 --> 00:17:33,372 [THUMPING] WE'LL GET SOME BLOODWORK TODAY. 367 00:17:34,973 --> 00:17:36,835 ASHER: WAIT, WHAT FOR? DOCTOR: STANDARD PROCEDURE. 368 00:17:36,935 --> 00:17:39,798 EVERYTHING'S LOOKING GOOD. CONGRATULATIONS. 369 00:17:39,898 --> 00:17:42,281 THANK YOU. 370 00:17:42,381 --> 00:17:44,523 [DOOR OPENS] 371 00:17:44,623 --> 00:17:46,245 I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS IS REAL. HEH! 372 00:17:46,345 --> 00:17:49,248 I'M--I'M GONNA LET YOU GET DRESSED, OK? 373 00:17:49,348 --> 00:17:51,510 I'LL BE-- I'LL BE RIGHT OUTSIDE. 374 00:17:53,752 --> 00:17:55,254 [DOOR OPENS] 375 00:17:55,354 --> 00:17:56,735 UH, EXCUSE ME? 376 00:17:56,835 --> 00:17:58,617 [DOOR CLOSES] YES. MR. ADAMS. 377 00:17:58,717 --> 00:18:00,979 ARE YOU SURE EVERYTHING LOOKED OK? 378 00:18:01,079 --> 00:18:03,422 I'VE BEEN DOING THIS A LONG TIME. THINGS LOOKED GREAT. 379 00:18:03,522 --> 00:18:05,104 AND THE HEARTBEAT. IT WASN'T-- 380 00:18:05,204 --> 00:18:07,306 WASN'T TOO FAST OR TOO SLOW? 381 00:18:07,406 --> 00:18:09,868 DOCTOR: IT WAS PERFECT. ASHER: WHAT--WHAT ABOUT JAYMEE'S LUPUS? 382 00:18:09,968 --> 00:18:12,351 WE'RE GONNA KEEP A CLOSE EYE ON HER AND THE BABY, 383 00:18:12,451 --> 00:18:13,912 BUT YOU REALLY SHOULDN'T WORRY RIGHT NOW. 384 00:18:14,012 --> 00:18:15,274 WELL, ON THE INTERNET, IT SAID 385 00:18:15,374 --> 00:18:16,595 PREGNANT WOMEN WHO HAVE LUPUS ARE-- 386 00:18:16,695 --> 00:18:17,916 LET ME STOP YOU RIGHT THERE. 387 00:18:18,016 --> 00:18:19,198 DON'T READ THE INTERNET. 388 00:18:19,298 --> 00:18:20,879 JAYMEE'S DOING REALLY WELL 389 00:18:20,979 --> 00:18:22,361 AND TAKES REALLY GOOD CARE OF HERSELF. 390 00:18:22,461 --> 00:18:25,584 FOR NOW, TRY TO ENJOY THIS MOMENT. 391 00:18:30,108 --> 00:18:32,110 WHAT WAS THAT ABOUT? 392 00:18:33,552 --> 00:18:35,534 UH, I--I JUST HAD A FEW MORE QUESTIONS. 393 00:18:35,634 --> 00:18:37,976 JAYMEE: ABOUT MY BODY? ASHER: ABOUT OUR BABY. 394 00:18:38,076 --> 00:18:39,698 NEXT TIME, ASK THEM IN FRONT OF ME. 395 00:18:39,798 --> 00:18:42,221 I KNOW HOW TO TAKE CARE OF MYSELF 396 00:18:42,321 --> 00:18:44,563 AND THIS BABY, ASH. 397 00:18:49,288 --> 00:18:51,310 HERE WE GO. 398 00:18:51,410 --> 00:18:53,352 [CHUCKLING] UH... 399 00:18:53,452 --> 00:18:55,074 OK... 400 00:18:55,174 --> 00:18:57,236 DID YOU LEAVE ANY FOOD FOR ANYONE ELSE? 401 00:18:57,336 --> 00:18:58,517 YUP, BUT I FIGURED 402 00:18:58,617 --> 00:19:00,079 AS LONG AS YOUR MOUTH IS CHEWING, 403 00:19:00,179 --> 00:19:02,121 IT CAN'T BE DRINKING. [OLIVIA SNICKERS] 404 00:19:02,221 --> 00:19:05,284 THAT'S ONE WAY TO APPROACH IT. 405 00:19:05,384 --> 00:19:07,686 I STILL FEEL LIKE... 406 00:19:07,786 --> 00:19:09,688 THERE'S A LOT THAT'S BEEN LEFT UNSAID BETWEEN US 407 00:19:09,788 --> 00:19:11,730 SINCE MY BREAKUP WITH SPENCER. 408 00:19:11,830 --> 00:19:14,573 COOP: YEAH, BUT WE AIN'T GOTTA GET INTO THAT NOW. OLIVIA: ACTUALLY, 409 00:19:14,673 --> 00:19:16,895 UM... IT'S IMPORTANT 410 00:19:16,995 --> 00:19:19,298 FOR BOTH MY GRIEF AND MY SOBRIETY TO HONESTLY 411 00:19:19,398 --> 00:19:21,340 SPEAK UP ABOUT WHAT I'M FEELING, SO... 412 00:19:21,440 --> 00:19:23,342 [SIGHS] WELL, IN THAT CASE, 413 00:19:23,442 --> 00:19:24,943 GO FOR IT. 414 00:19:25,043 --> 00:19:27,045 FULL DISCLOSURE... 415 00:19:28,607 --> 00:19:30,509 I USED TO BE JEALOUS 416 00:19:30,609 --> 00:19:32,791 OF WHAT YOU AND SPENCER HAD. 417 00:19:32,891 --> 00:19:35,394 YOU WERE HIS BEST FRIEND AT SOUTH CRENSHAW 418 00:19:35,494 --> 00:19:38,117 AND I WAS HIS BEST FRIEND AT BEVERLY, 419 00:19:38,217 --> 00:19:41,760 BUT TRUTHFULLY, I MEAN, THERE WAS--THERE WAS NO COMPARISON. 420 00:19:41,860 --> 00:19:45,764 I MEAN, WHAT YOU AND SPENCER HAD AND STILL HAVE IS... 421 00:19:45,864 --> 00:19:50,569 AN UNCONDITIONAL LOVE THAT MOST PEOPLE CAN ONLY DREAM OF. 422 00:19:50,669 --> 00:19:52,691 IT'S SEEN SPENCER THROUGH SOME OF 423 00:19:52,791 --> 00:19:54,453 THE TOUGHEST TIMES IN HIS LIFE. 424 00:19:54,553 --> 00:19:57,416 AND AS SOMEONE WHO LOVES HIM, YOUR LOYALTY 425 00:19:57,516 --> 00:20:00,219 TO HIM IS SOMETHING THAT I'M GRATEFUL FOR. 426 00:20:00,319 --> 00:20:04,062 WELL, SINCE WE'RE BEING ALL HONEST AND STUFF, 427 00:20:04,162 --> 00:20:07,105 I ACTUALLY WAS--I WAS SCARED WHEN YOU TWO 428 00:20:07,205 --> 00:20:09,828 STARTED DATING THAT I'D LOSE HIM. 429 00:20:09,928 --> 00:20:11,870 THAT THERE'D BE NO ROOM FOR ME. 430 00:20:11,970 --> 00:20:14,233 BUT YOU MADE SURE THERE WAS. 431 00:20:14,333 --> 00:20:16,515 I DON'T THINK-- 432 00:20:16,615 --> 00:20:19,158 I DON'T THINK I EVER SAID THANK YOU. 433 00:20:19,258 --> 00:20:21,480 I LEARNED THAT FROM MY DAD. 434 00:20:21,580 --> 00:20:23,442 HE ALWAYS MADE ROOM IN HIS HEART 435 00:20:23,542 --> 00:20:25,404 FOR WHOEVER WALKED THROUGH OUR FRONT DOOR. 436 00:20:25,504 --> 00:20:28,727 IT NEVER TOOK ANYTHING AWAY FROM WHAT HE FELT FOR US. 437 00:20:28,827 --> 00:20:30,609 YOU KNOW, HE JUST MADE THE EXTRA ROOM. 438 00:20:30,709 --> 00:20:32,451 THAT'S SUCH A BEAUTIFUL THING. 439 00:20:32,551 --> 00:20:35,734 PLUS, UM, CONFESSION NUMBER TWO? 440 00:20:35,834 --> 00:20:38,457 I MADE ROOM FOR YOU FOR SELFISH REASONS 441 00:20:38,557 --> 00:20:41,380 'CAUSE I WANTED SOME OF THAT COOP MAGIC IN MY LIFE. 442 00:20:41,480 --> 00:20:43,982 COOP: COME ON, MAN. [OLIVIA CHUCKLING] 443 00:20:44,082 --> 00:20:46,625 AND LOOK AT US NOW. WE'RE NOT JUST FRIENDS. 444 00:20:46,725 --> 00:20:49,308 WE'RE ROOMMATES, SOBRIETY PARTNERS, 445 00:20:49,408 --> 00:20:50,549 FAMILY. 446 00:20:50,649 --> 00:20:52,471 I MISSED YOU, LIV. 447 00:20:52,571 --> 00:20:54,112 I'VE MISSED OUR FRIENDSHIP. 448 00:20:54,212 --> 00:20:56,214 ME, TOO. 449 00:21:04,142 --> 00:21:06,645 [DOOR OPENS AND CLOSES] 450 00:21:06,745 --> 00:21:08,207 HEY. 451 00:21:08,307 --> 00:21:10,168 HOW WAS YOUR DAY? 452 00:21:10,268 --> 00:21:12,211 GOOD. YOU REALLY BEEN HERE THIS WHOLE TIME? 453 00:21:12,311 --> 00:21:14,012 NO, I LEFT BUT I CAME BACK 454 00:21:14,112 --> 00:21:15,734 AND JAYMEE AND ASHER, YOU KNOW, LET ME IN. 455 00:21:15,834 --> 00:21:17,496 OK, LOOK, UM, 456 00:21:17,596 --> 00:21:19,498 AS MUCH AS I APPRECIATE ALL THIS, 457 00:21:19,598 --> 00:21:21,059 YOU REALLY DON'T GOTTA FOLD MY LAUNDRY, OK? 458 00:21:21,159 --> 00:21:24,282 WAIT. I DON'T MIND, OK? PLUS, IT'S NO BIG DEAL. 459 00:21:25,924 --> 00:21:28,347 HEY, HOW ABOUT WE WATCH A MOVIE, 460 00:21:28,447 --> 00:21:29,628 SNACK ON SOME COLD HOT CAKES? 461 00:21:29,728 --> 00:21:31,590 SURE. MOVIE SOUNDS GREAT. 462 00:21:31,690 --> 00:21:33,912 - OK. - BUT WE WARMING UP THOSE HOT CAKES, OK? 463 00:21:34,012 --> 00:21:36,595 ALICIA: OK. OK. [DOOR OPENS] 464 00:21:36,695 --> 00:21:38,957 [DOOR CLOSES] COOP: UH, HEY. 465 00:21:39,057 --> 00:21:40,759 IS, UH, ASHER AROUND? 466 00:21:40,859 --> 00:21:43,562 ALICIA: HE'S NOT HERE. OLIVIA: UM, IT'S OK. 467 00:21:43,662 --> 00:21:45,364 WE'RE A LITTLE EARLY ANYWAY, SO... 468 00:21:45,464 --> 00:21:47,686 SPENCER: EARLY FOR WHAT? COOP: ASHER'S SHIFT IS UP. 469 00:21:47,786 --> 00:21:49,608 HE WAS GONNA TAKE LIV TO HER A.A. MEETING. 470 00:21:49,708 --> 00:21:51,930 I'D DO IT, BUT I GOTTA MAKE IT TO ANOTHER CLASS. 471 00:21:52,030 --> 00:21:53,532 OLIVIA: I CAN WAIT ON THE PATIO. 472 00:21:53,632 --> 00:21:55,494 I'M SURE HE'LL BE HERE ANY SEC. 473 00:21:55,594 --> 00:21:57,736 ALICIA: ACTUALLY, HE TOOK JAYMEE TO A DOCTOR'S APPOINTMENT. 474 00:21:57,836 --> 00:21:59,177 I DON'T KNOW WHEN HE'LL BE BACK. 475 00:21:59,277 --> 00:22:01,740 IS SHE OK? DID HER LUPUS FLARE BACK UP OR-- 476 00:22:01,840 --> 00:22:04,543 I'LL DO IT. 477 00:22:04,643 --> 00:22:06,585 I'LL TAKE YOU. 478 00:22:06,685 --> 00:22:09,428 ARE YOU SURE? I DON'T WANT TO INTERRUPT. 479 00:22:09,528 --> 00:22:11,029 SPENCER: NO, YOU'RE NOT. WE WAS JUST ABOUT 480 00:22:11,129 --> 00:22:13,672 TO WATCH A MOVIE, BUT FROM EVERYTHING 481 00:22:13,772 --> 00:22:15,474 I HEARD TODAY, SOUNDS LIKE YOUR SITUATION 482 00:22:15,574 --> 00:22:17,916 IS A LITTLE MORE LIFE AND DEATH SO, 483 00:22:18,016 --> 00:22:20,999 UM...RAINCHECK? 484 00:22:21,099 --> 00:22:22,240 YEAH. 485 00:22:22,340 --> 00:22:24,342 OF COURSE. SURE. 486 00:22:27,386 --> 00:22:28,527 THANK YOU. 487 00:22:28,627 --> 00:22:30,168 BOTH OF YOU. 488 00:22:30,268 --> 00:22:31,810 MM-HMM. 489 00:22:31,910 --> 00:22:33,912 OK. 490 00:22:35,914 --> 00:22:37,916 OK. 491 00:22:40,719 --> 00:22:43,622 [DOOR OPENS AND CLOSES] 492 00:22:43,722 --> 00:22:45,624 YO, YOU GOOD? 493 00:22:45,724 --> 00:22:47,746 BUSTER GOT IN MY WAY. 494 00:22:47,846 --> 00:22:49,388 YOU CAN'T BE HITTING EVERYBODY THAT GETS 495 00:22:49,488 --> 00:22:51,109 IN YOUR WAY BECAUSE YOU ANGRY. 496 00:22:51,209 --> 00:22:53,792 LOOK, I KNOW YOU HURTIN'. WE ALL ARE. AND I CAN'T EVEN 497 00:22:53,892 --> 00:22:56,274 IMAGINE WHAT ELSE YOU BEEN GOIN' THROUGH AFTER BEING ON THAT BUS. 498 00:22:56,374 --> 00:22:57,796 YOU WASTING MY TIME. CAN I GO NOW? 499 00:22:57,896 --> 00:22:59,898 MAN, SIT YOUR ASS DOWN. 500 00:23:06,384 --> 00:23:09,047 LOOK, I'LL NEVER BE COACH BAKER, 501 00:23:09,147 --> 00:23:11,850 BUT I'M SURE AS HELL GONNA KEEP HIS LEGACY ALIVE 502 00:23:11,950 --> 00:23:13,852 BY LOOKING AFTER HIS SOUTH CRENSHAW KIDS. 503 00:23:13,952 --> 00:23:15,334 AM I SUPPOSED TO SAY THANK YOU? 504 00:23:15,434 --> 00:23:16,935 YOU AIN'T GOTTA SAY NOTHING TO ME. 505 00:23:17,035 --> 00:23:18,977 BUT YOU CAN'T LET YOUR FUTURE GO TO WASTE 506 00:23:19,077 --> 00:23:20,739 BECAUSE YOU IN PAIN. 507 00:23:20,839 --> 00:23:22,821 TALK TO SOMEBODY. ANYONE. 508 00:23:22,921 --> 00:23:26,725 OR THAT GRIEF WILL EAT YOU ALIVE. 509 00:23:34,212 --> 00:23:37,476 YOU'RE PROBABLY WONDERING WHY I DIDN'T CALL YOU OVER THIS MORNING. 510 00:23:37,576 --> 00:23:39,117 YOU CALLED WHO YOU NEEDED. 511 00:23:39,217 --> 00:23:42,420 NO, I CALLED WHO I DIDN'T THINK I'D BE BURDENING. 512 00:23:45,103 --> 00:23:47,606 YOU'VE SAVED MY LIFE ENOUGH TIMES, SPENCER. 513 00:23:47,706 --> 00:23:51,490 IT DIDN'T FEEL FAIR TO LAY THIS AT YOUR FEET TOO AFTER EVERYTHING. 514 00:23:51,590 --> 00:23:55,534 THAT NIGHT AT THE HOSPITAL, AFTER I GOT SHOT, 515 00:23:55,634 --> 00:23:57,536 YOU THANKED ME FOR SAVING YOUR LIFE. 516 00:23:57,636 --> 00:23:59,217 YOU REMEMBER WHAT I SAID? 517 00:23:59,317 --> 00:24:01,500 YOU SAID ANYTIME. 518 00:24:01,600 --> 00:24:03,602 AND I MEANT IT. 519 00:24:06,805 --> 00:24:09,347 [OLIVIA SIGHS] SPENCER: SO HOW BAD'S IT BEEN? 520 00:24:09,447 --> 00:24:11,269 LAST NIGHT WAS THE WORST OF IT. 521 00:24:11,369 --> 00:24:14,473 THAT'S WHY I'M SEARCHING FOR CLARITY TODAY. 522 00:24:14,573 --> 00:24:16,995 I MISS HIM SO MUCH. 523 00:24:17,095 --> 00:24:19,097 I KNOW. 524 00:24:20,258 --> 00:24:21,760 [SIGHS] 525 00:24:21,860 --> 00:24:25,003 [DISTANT CHATTER] 526 00:24:25,103 --> 00:24:26,405 OH, MY GOD. 527 00:24:26,505 --> 00:24:28,967 MY DAD USED TO LOVE POP UP CARNIVALS. 528 00:24:29,067 --> 00:24:30,769 [CHUCKLES] 529 00:24:30,869 --> 00:24:33,371 I CALLED THEM DEATHTRAPS IN THE MAKING 530 00:24:33,471 --> 00:24:35,974 BUT HE ALWAYS USED TO SAY THEY WERE LIKE 531 00:24:36,074 --> 00:24:38,376 ROSES THAT BLOOM IN CONCRETE-- 532 00:24:38,476 --> 00:24:41,520 A BEAUTIFUL SURPRISE. 533 00:24:44,442 --> 00:24:46,184 WHAT ARE YOU DOING? 534 00:24:46,284 --> 00:24:48,667 WE GOT 45 MINUTES BEFORE YOUR MEETING, RIGHT? 535 00:24:48,767 --> 00:24:51,009 TRUST ME. 536 00:24:53,491 --> 00:24:56,114 [INDISTINCT SHOUTING] 537 00:24:56,214 --> 00:24:58,256 WHOO! 538 00:25:00,739 --> 00:25:02,120 YOU'RE NOT SERIOUS. 539 00:25:02,220 --> 00:25:04,322 YEAH, YOU WANTED CLARITY, RIGHT? 540 00:25:04,422 --> 00:25:07,766 IT DOESN'T GET QUIETER OR MORE ZEN THAN UP THERE. 541 00:25:07,866 --> 00:25:10,529 [CHUCKLES] CARNIVALS WERE YOUR POP'S THING, 542 00:25:10,629 --> 00:25:12,531 SO YOU ALREADY GOT A CONNECTION TO HIM HERE. 543 00:25:12,631 --> 00:25:15,133 JUST TRY IT. 544 00:25:15,233 --> 00:25:18,577 IT'S THE CLOSEST TO HEAVEN WE'RE GONNA GET FROM WHERE WE ARE. 545 00:25:18,677 --> 00:25:21,540 CAN WE JUST TAKE A SECOND? 546 00:25:21,640 --> 00:25:23,982 I DON'T KNOW. MAYBE PLAY SOME GAMES OR SOMETHING FIRST? 547 00:25:24,082 --> 00:25:26,024 SPENCER: LIV. OLIVIA: I'LL GO UP. 548 00:25:26,124 --> 00:25:28,226 I WILL. 549 00:25:28,326 --> 00:25:30,348 I'M JUST... 550 00:25:30,448 --> 00:25:32,611 I'M--I'M NOT READY YET. 551 00:25:36,254 --> 00:25:38,156 HOW ABOUT THE BASKETBALL TOSS? 552 00:25:38,256 --> 00:25:41,079 LAST TIME I WENT UP AGAINST YOU, YOU WHOOPED MY ASS. 553 00:25:41,179 --> 00:25:43,161 SOUNDS LIKE YOU'RE SCARED TO GET YOUR ASS BEAT AGAIN. 554 00:25:43,261 --> 00:25:45,123 OK. ALL RIGHT. LET'S GO. 555 00:25:45,223 --> 00:25:47,125 GAME ON, WOMAN. [OLIVIA CHUCKLES] 556 00:25:47,225 --> 00:25:49,528 MALE SINGER: ♪ TODAY'S LOOKING LIKE A GOOD DAY ♪ 557 00:25:49,628 --> 00:25:51,610 ♪ GOOD VIBES, YA, I FEEL, FEEL LIKE IT'S MY BIRTHDAY... ♪ 558 00:25:51,710 --> 00:25:53,692 OLIVIA: IT'S IMPOSSIBLE. SPENCER: IT'S NOT IMPOSSIBLE. 559 00:25:53,792 --> 00:25:55,934 - YOU GOTTA BELIEVE. - YOU GOTTA JUST-- 560 00:25:56,034 --> 00:25:57,816 IT WORKS. HA HA! 561 00:25:57,916 --> 00:25:59,538 SINGERS: ♪ IT'S GONNA BE A GOOD DAY ♪ 562 00:25:59,638 --> 00:26:01,459 [BELL RINGS] ♪ AND I'M FEELING ALL RIGHT ♪ 563 00:26:01,559 --> 00:26:03,822 ♪ IT'S GONNA BE A GOOD DAY ♪ 564 00:26:03,922 --> 00:26:06,464 ♪ SO HANG AROUND A WHILE, WHILE, WHILE ♪ 565 00:26:06,564 --> 00:26:08,507 ♪ GONNA BE A GOOD DAY...♪ 566 00:26:08,607 --> 00:26:11,469 SPENCER: CHILL OUT. CHILL OUT. [BOTH CHUCKLE] 567 00:26:11,569 --> 00:26:13,471 SINGERS: ♪ IT'S GONNA BE A GOOD DAY ♪ 568 00:26:13,571 --> 00:26:15,113 ♪ SO HANG AROUND A WHILE, WHILE, WHILE ♪ 569 00:26:15,213 --> 00:26:16,515 WHOO! 570 00:26:16,615 --> 00:26:18,436 SPENCER: AHH! OLIVIA: HA HA! 571 00:26:18,536 --> 00:26:20,478 - OK. SOMEBODY GET ME A FOOTBALL. - HA HA HA! 572 00:26:20,578 --> 00:26:22,721 HA HA HA HA! [SEATBELT CLICKS] 573 00:26:22,821 --> 00:26:25,063 I FEEL LIKE I WAS HUSTLED. 574 00:26:27,225 --> 00:26:28,567 YOU READY? 575 00:26:28,667 --> 00:26:30,569 NO. 576 00:26:30,669 --> 00:26:33,712 BUT I'M GONNA DO IT ANYWAY. 577 00:26:38,316 --> 00:26:40,959 [MACHINERY HISSING] 578 00:26:48,927 --> 00:26:51,609 [METAL SQUEAKING] 579 00:26:53,171 --> 00:26:55,073 OK. 580 00:26:55,173 --> 00:26:56,755 I'M UP HERE. 581 00:26:56,855 --> 00:26:59,598 CLOSE YOUR EYES. 582 00:26:59,698 --> 00:27:02,500 TAKE IN THE QUIET. 583 00:27:06,104 --> 00:27:08,106 [EXHALES] 584 00:27:11,589 --> 00:27:13,591 WOW. 585 00:27:15,313 --> 00:27:17,355 IT'S LIKE I'M IN THE CLOUDS. 586 00:27:20,598 --> 00:27:24,282 THIS IS THE CLOSEST I'VE FELT TO HIM SINCE HE'S BEEN GONE. 587 00:27:26,044 --> 00:27:27,946 YOU WANTED CLARITY ON WHY HIS LOSS 588 00:27:28,046 --> 00:27:30,088 WAS PUSHING YOU TO DRINK. 589 00:27:32,130 --> 00:27:34,032 TALK TO HIM... 590 00:27:34,132 --> 00:27:35,994 IN HERE. 591 00:27:36,094 --> 00:27:39,117 RUM.GOLD: ♪ OHH ♪ [OLIVIA EXHALES] 592 00:27:39,217 --> 00:27:42,340 ONLY YOU AND HIM CAN FIGURE THIS OUT. 593 00:27:43,822 --> 00:27:47,105 RUM.GOLD: ♪ FATHER, FATHER ♪ 594 00:27:49,908 --> 00:27:52,611 ♪ MAYBE I WILL LEAVE ♪ 595 00:27:52,711 --> 00:27:55,153 ♪ JUST LIKE YOU ♪ 596 00:27:57,235 --> 00:28:00,238 ♪ BROTHER, BROTHER ♪ 597 00:28:04,042 --> 00:28:06,344 ♪ OH, IF YOU'RE READING THIS ♪ 598 00:28:06,444 --> 00:28:08,987 ♪ YOU PROBABLY KNOW BY NOW ♪ 599 00:28:09,087 --> 00:28:12,771 ♪ I'VE FINALLY FOUND A LOVER ♪ 600 00:28:14,933 --> 00:28:20,919 ♪ OH, I LOVE HIM, I DO ♪ 601 00:28:21,019 --> 00:28:26,865 ♪ I JUST COULDN'T SAVE YOU ♪ 602 00:28:31,469 --> 00:28:34,012 JORDAN: SPICES AND FROZEN MEAT? LAYLA: HMM. 603 00:28:34,112 --> 00:28:36,214 - OOH, THE MEAT IS A LITTLE THAWED. - OH. 604 00:28:36,314 --> 00:28:38,216 MM. HEH! I AM GRATEFUL 605 00:28:38,316 --> 00:28:40,218 YOU DIDN'T KEEP THAT PACKAGE SEALED FOREVER, 606 00:28:40,318 --> 00:28:41,780 'CAUSE THAT SMELL WOULD'VE DIVIDED US. 607 00:28:41,880 --> 00:28:43,261 - OK. REALLY? - YEAH. 608 00:28:43,361 --> 00:28:45,343 BUT WHAT IS--WHAT IS ALL THIS--ALL THIS FOR? 609 00:28:45,443 --> 00:28:48,226 - OH. LOUISIANA NIGHT. - WHAT? 610 00:28:48,326 --> 00:28:51,029 WELL, I SAW A FLYER ON THE TABLE AT YOUR PARENTS' HOUSE. 611 00:28:51,129 --> 00:28:53,151 SOUTH CRENSHAW'S HOSTING A "LOUISIANA NIGHT" NEXT WEEK. 612 00:28:53,251 --> 00:28:57,676 MY DAD MUST'VE BEEN MAKING MY GRANDMA MARY'S JUMPIN' JAMBALAYA. 613 00:28:57,776 --> 00:28:59,798 HE ALWAYS SAID HE PERFECTED THE RECIPE 614 00:28:59,898 --> 00:29:01,880 WITH HIS SECRET INGREDIENT. 615 00:29:01,980 --> 00:29:03,561 LAYLA: WHAT IS IT? JORDAN: WHOA! 616 00:29:03,661 --> 00:29:06,004 A SECRET. HEH! LAYLA: OK. 617 00:29:06,104 --> 00:29:08,366 BUT NOW I REMEMBER WHY IT'S CALLED "JUMPIN' JAMBALAYA." 618 00:29:08,466 --> 00:29:11,169 MM. WELL, I MEAN, WE CAN'T LET THIS GO TO WASTE, 619 00:29:11,269 --> 00:29:15,093 SO I SAY WE END THE DAY THE SAME WAY WE STARTED IT. 620 00:29:15,193 --> 00:29:17,615 ALL TOGETHER. FAMILY DINNER, 621 00:29:17,715 --> 00:29:20,178 MAKING YOUR DAD'S JAMBALAYA, YEAH? 622 00:29:20,278 --> 00:29:21,820 - I SAY LET'S DO IT. - OK. 623 00:29:21,920 --> 00:29:23,181 YEAH. 624 00:29:23,281 --> 00:29:25,363 CAN I GET YOU ANYTHING? 625 00:29:26,845 --> 00:29:29,467 I'M FINE... 626 00:29:29,567 --> 00:29:31,870 BUT YOU CAN TELL ME WHAT'S GOING ON WITH YOU. 627 00:29:31,970 --> 00:29:34,873 YOU COULDN'T EVEN ENJOY HEARING YOUR BABY'S HEARTBEAT TODAY. 628 00:29:34,973 --> 00:29:37,996 WHY ARE YOU SO FREAKED OUT ABOUT THE BABY ALL OF A SUDDEN? 629 00:29:38,096 --> 00:29:41,039 IT'S NOT THE BABY THAT HAS ME FREAKED OUT. 630 00:29:41,139 --> 00:29:43,141 IT'S THE BUS CRASH. 631 00:29:44,582 --> 00:29:46,604 ONE MINUTE EVERYTHING IS FINE 632 00:29:46,704 --> 00:29:48,606 AND THEN THE NEXT... 633 00:29:48,706 --> 00:29:50,608 WE'RE ON THE SIDE OF A CLIFF 634 00:29:50,708 --> 00:29:52,911 AND COACH IS DEAD. 635 00:29:54,712 --> 00:29:57,095 I LEARNED THE HARD WAY THAT NOTHING IS PROMISED 636 00:29:57,195 --> 00:29:58,576 AND NOW I CAN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT 637 00:29:58,676 --> 00:30:01,059 SOMETHING BAD HAPPENING TO YOU OR THE BABY. 638 00:30:01,159 --> 00:30:03,101 YOU BOTH ARE MY WHOLE WORLD. 639 00:30:03,201 --> 00:30:05,423 YOU'RE OUR WHOLE WORLD, TOO. 640 00:30:05,523 --> 00:30:09,067 AND YOU'RE RIGHT. NOTHING IS PROMISED. 641 00:30:09,167 --> 00:30:12,670 THAT'S WHY WE HAVE TO LIVE IN THE NOW. 642 00:30:12,770 --> 00:30:16,434 FIND JOY IN THE NOW. 643 00:30:16,534 --> 00:30:18,877 HAVE YOU THOUGHT ABOUT TALKING TO SOMEONE? 644 00:30:18,977 --> 00:30:20,879 I'M TALKING TO YOU. 645 00:30:20,979 --> 00:30:22,881 I MEAN SOMEONE THAT CAN HELP YOU 646 00:30:22,981 --> 00:30:25,403 DEAL WITH YOUR PTSD. 647 00:30:25,503 --> 00:30:27,445 SOMEONE THAT CAN HELP YOU START BELIEVING 648 00:30:27,545 --> 00:30:30,448 THAT YOU DESERVE ALL OF THE GOOD THINGS IN YOUR LIFE. 649 00:30:30,548 --> 00:30:32,991 YEAH, MAYBE YOU'RE RIGHT. 650 00:30:38,396 --> 00:30:40,698 OLIVIA: ASHER, IT'S FINE. 651 00:30:40,798 --> 00:30:43,301 REALLY. I GOT TO MY A.A. MEETING. 652 00:30:43,401 --> 00:30:46,664 JORDAN'S ALREADY HERE TO PICK ME UP. I PROMISE. 653 00:30:46,764 --> 00:30:49,788 I'LL SEE YOU GUYS BACK AT THE HOUSE LATER. 654 00:30:49,888 --> 00:30:51,790 SO, WHAT WAS THAT? 655 00:30:51,890 --> 00:30:53,872 APOLOGY NUMBER 9 OR-- 656 00:30:53,972 --> 00:30:56,074 YEAH, SOMETHING LIKE THAT. 657 00:30:56,174 --> 00:30:57,675 THANKS FOR COMING TO GET ME. 658 00:30:57,775 --> 00:30:59,838 BEEN LOOKING FORWARD TO MY SHIFT ALL DAY. 659 00:30:59,938 --> 00:31:01,840 HOW WAS A.A.? 660 00:31:01,940 --> 00:31:04,262 EVERYTHING I NEEDED. 661 00:31:08,226 --> 00:31:10,328 ALL OF TODAY WAS. [SIGHS] 662 00:31:10,428 --> 00:31:12,130 - I'M PROUD OF YOU. - YOU KNOW, 663 00:31:12,230 --> 00:31:14,132 FOR THE FIRST TIME TODAY, 664 00:31:14,232 --> 00:31:17,735 I CAN HONESTLY SAY I'M REALLY PROUD OF MYSELF, TOO. 665 00:31:17,835 --> 00:31:20,538 [SIGHS] 666 00:31:20,638 --> 00:31:23,581 I THINK I FOUND MY WHY. 667 00:31:23,681 --> 00:31:26,164 IT'S THE SILENCE. 668 00:31:27,725 --> 00:31:30,548 AND NOT, YOU KNOW, JUST, LIKE, THE QUIET, 669 00:31:30,648 --> 00:31:35,493 BUT THE SILENCE IN THINGS LEFT UNSAID. 670 00:31:37,815 --> 00:31:40,358 SILENCE IN FRIENDSHIP, 671 00:31:40,458 --> 00:31:43,962 RELATIONSHIP, AND... 672 00:31:44,062 --> 00:31:47,905 ESPECIALLY THE SILENCE OF DEATH. 673 00:31:49,627 --> 00:31:53,491 SILENCE IS THE HARDEST THING FOR ME TO FACE. 674 00:31:53,591 --> 00:31:55,693 [SIGHS] AND I THINK I FINALLY 675 00:31:55,793 --> 00:31:58,836 REALISED THAT UP ON THAT FERRIS WHEEL. 676 00:32:00,318 --> 00:32:02,480 AND YET YOU'RE FACING IT. 677 00:32:05,923 --> 00:32:08,826 WHAT ABOUT OTHERS, YOU KNOW? 678 00:32:08,926 --> 00:32:11,789 PEOPLE LIKE ME WHO ARE... 679 00:32:11,889 --> 00:32:16,374 EQUALLY SCARED OF THE SILENCE, BUT DON'T HAVE A VILLAGE TO TURN TO? 680 00:32:20,378 --> 00:32:22,000 WHAT? 681 00:32:22,100 --> 00:32:24,282 [CHUCKLES] I KNOW THAT LOOK. 682 00:32:24,382 --> 00:32:26,284 - WHAT LOOK? - THE LOOK THAT DAD 683 00:32:26,384 --> 00:32:28,286 ALWAYS SAID MEANT YOU WERE ABOUT TO DO SOMETHING 684 00:32:28,386 --> 00:32:30,948 THAT WOULD CHANGE THE WORLD FOR GOOD. 685 00:32:32,510 --> 00:32:35,553 ALL RIGHT. LET'S GO HOME. 686 00:32:45,243 --> 00:32:47,385 LAURA: AM I DOING THIS RIGHT? 687 00:32:47,485 --> 00:32:48,786 [CHUCKLING] MOM, IT'S JUST RICE. 688 00:32:48,886 --> 00:32:50,788 IT'S REALLY HARD TO MESS UP. 689 00:32:50,888 --> 00:32:52,911 YOU'D BE SURPRISED. THE ONE TIME 690 00:32:53,011 --> 00:32:54,352 YOUR DAD ASKED ME TO HELP, 691 00:32:54,452 --> 00:32:56,594 LET'S JUST SAY I WAS NEVER ASKED BACK. 692 00:32:56,694 --> 00:32:58,796 JORDAN: DO YOU GUYS REMEMBER THE TIME 693 00:32:58,896 --> 00:33:00,438 THAT DAD THREW OUT THE ENTIRE POT 694 00:33:00,538 --> 00:33:02,680 BECAUSE LIV USED VEGETABLE STOCK 695 00:33:02,780 --> 00:33:04,322 INSTEAD OF CHICKEN STOCK? LAURA: MM-HMM. 696 00:33:04,422 --> 00:33:07,085 IT WASN'T MY FAULT. HE BOUGHT THE WRONG THING. 697 00:33:07,185 --> 00:33:09,207 [LAUGHTER, INDISTINCT CHATTER] COOP: ASHER, YOU SURE YOU KNOW 698 00:33:09,307 --> 00:33:11,009 WHAT YOU'RE DOING OVER THERE, BRUH? ASHER: GREEN PEPPERS... 699 00:33:11,109 --> 00:33:12,770 [LAYLA GIGGLES] JORDAN: HI. 700 00:33:12,870 --> 00:33:14,252 HI. 701 00:33:14,352 --> 00:33:16,454 - MY DAD WOULD'VE LOVED THIS. - HMM. 702 00:33:16,554 --> 00:33:19,697 KITCHEN FULL OF HIS FAMILY AND FRIENDS, COOKING HIS FAVOURITE MEAL. 703 00:33:19,797 --> 00:33:22,740 HE'D PROBABLY EVEN USE MY MOM'S RICE, WHICH IS... LAYLA: WOW. 704 00:33:22,840 --> 00:33:24,422 JORDAN: SO THANK YOU. 705 00:33:24,522 --> 00:33:26,664 WHY? I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING. 706 00:33:26,764 --> 00:33:29,307 JORDAN: THIS HAS BEEN THE WORST COUPLE WEEKS OF MY LIFE 707 00:33:29,407 --> 00:33:32,951 AND EVERY STEP OF THE WAY, YOU'VE KNOWN EXACTLY WHAT I NEEDED. 708 00:33:33,051 --> 00:33:35,873 I'M SO GRATEFUL TO HAVE YOU. [LAYLA CHUCKLES] 709 00:33:35,973 --> 00:33:37,975 AHEM. 710 00:33:39,697 --> 00:33:42,200 I GUESS THIS IS YOUR COMING OUT DINNER. 711 00:33:42,300 --> 00:33:44,802 JORDAN: HUH. [LAYLA CHUCKLES] 712 00:33:44,902 --> 00:33:46,924 JORDAN: I GUESS SO. COOP: OOH, OK. ENOUGH. 713 00:33:47,024 --> 00:33:49,287 YOU GUYS ARE MAKING ME LOSE MY APPETITE WITH ALL THIS SAP. 714 00:33:49,387 --> 00:33:51,929 ASHER: FOR REAL. YOU TWO NEED TO GET A ROOM, LIKE, ASAP. 715 00:33:52,029 --> 00:33:54,532 BRO, THEY ALREADY GOT A ROOM, AND I SHARE A WALL WITH 'EM. 716 00:33:54,632 --> 00:33:57,135 LAURA: OK! THANK YOU. OLIVIA: OH, WOW. 717 00:33:57,235 --> 00:33:59,817 GRACE: CAN WE GET BACK TO COOKING, PLEASE? 718 00:33:59,917 --> 00:34:01,659 LAURA: YES. GRACE: I'M HUNGRY. 719 00:34:01,759 --> 00:34:03,661 JORDAN: YEAH. COOP: WHAT I WAS GONNA SAY WAS THAT-- 720 00:34:03,761 --> 00:34:06,364 SPENCER: NO, CHILL OUT. LAURA: OH, NO. THAT'S OK. 721 00:34:08,326 --> 00:34:10,328 [SNIFFLES] 722 00:34:11,929 --> 00:34:14,952 SO... [SIGHS] 723 00:34:15,052 --> 00:34:19,597 IN MY QUEST TO EMBRACE FULL HONESTY TODAY, UM... 724 00:34:19,697 --> 00:34:24,082 I GUESS WE SHOULD TALK ABOUT WHAT I SAID A COUPLE WEEKS AGO. 725 00:34:24,182 --> 00:34:25,963 BEFORE YOUR LIFE TURNED UPSIDE DOWN. 726 00:34:26,063 --> 00:34:28,506 YOURS TURNED UPSIDE DOWN, TOO. 727 00:34:30,468 --> 00:34:33,611 YOU KNOW, I'VE ALWAYS ADMIRED YOU FOR HOW BRAVE YOU ARE. 728 00:34:33,711 --> 00:34:36,614 TELLING ME YOU WANTED ME BACK COULDN'T HAVE BEEN EASY. 729 00:34:36,714 --> 00:34:40,058 AND WE OWE EACH OTHER AN HONEST CONVERSATION ABOUT WHAT WE FEEL 730 00:34:40,158 --> 00:34:44,022 AND WHERE WE STAND, BUT... 731 00:34:44,122 --> 00:34:46,744 I WANT TO HAVE IT WHEN WE'RE CLEAR-HEADED. 732 00:34:46,844 --> 00:34:49,027 - MM. - WHEN THE BATTLE FOR YOUR SOBRIETY AIN'T 733 00:34:49,127 --> 00:34:52,670 AT DEFCON FOUR AND I AIN'T... 734 00:34:52,770 --> 00:34:55,012 WHAT WERE YOU GONNA SAY? 735 00:34:57,495 --> 00:35:00,038 [SIGHS] SPENCER, 736 00:35:00,138 --> 00:35:01,839 MY DAD WAS LIKE A DAD TO YOU. 737 00:35:01,939 --> 00:35:05,483 IT'S ALL GOOD. IT'S ALL GOOD. I'M JUST... 738 00:35:05,583 --> 00:35:09,607 I'M JUST GLAD I COULD BE THERE FOR YOU TODAY. 739 00:35:09,707 --> 00:35:13,431 AND, UH, AND WE'LL HAVE THAT CONVERSATION WHEN THE TIME'S RIGHT. 740 00:35:14,912 --> 00:35:16,914 THAT'S A PROMISE. 741 00:35:24,081 --> 00:35:26,424 WHAT'S ALL THIS? 742 00:35:26,524 --> 00:35:29,427 I THINK I'M GONNA BRING BACK "LIVE THE TRUTH." 743 00:35:29,527 --> 00:35:32,870 UM, I HAVE SOME THINGS I WANT TO SAY TO YOU GUYS 744 00:35:32,970 --> 00:35:36,574 AND ANYONE ELSE WHO NEEDS TO HEAR IT. 745 00:35:43,901 --> 00:35:45,803 [SIGHS] 746 00:35:45,903 --> 00:35:47,405 [CLICK] 747 00:35:47,505 --> 00:35:50,548 THE BOND BETWEEN A FATHER AND A DAUGHTER... 748 00:35:52,350 --> 00:35:54,692 THERE'S ABSOLUTELY NOTHING LIKE IT. 749 00:35:54,792 --> 00:35:58,296 I ALWAYS USED TO SAY MY MOM GAVE ME MY DRIVE 750 00:35:58,396 --> 00:36:02,340 BUT...MY DAD GAVE ME MY DREAMS. 751 00:36:02,440 --> 00:36:05,183 YOU KNOW, AS LITTLE GIRLS, WE DREAM OF ALL 752 00:36:05,283 --> 00:36:08,626 THE BIG LIFE MOMENTS WE'RE GONNA SHARE WITH OUR DADS. 753 00:36:08,726 --> 00:36:10,908 THE PROBLEM IS, WHILE WE'RE DREAMING 754 00:36:11,008 --> 00:36:13,991 THOSE BIG DREAMS OF LIFE WITH OUR HERO, 755 00:36:14,091 --> 00:36:16,994 NO ONE EVER WARNS US THAT THOSE SAME DREAMS 756 00:36:17,094 --> 00:36:21,239 CAN BE CUT SHORT. THAT WE COULD JUST... 757 00:36:21,339 --> 00:36:25,243 WAKE UP ONE DAY AND OUR DADS JUST BE... 758 00:36:25,343 --> 00:36:27,525 GONE. 759 00:36:27,625 --> 00:36:31,008 THE SILENCE FROM THAT LOSS IS, UH, 760 00:36:31,108 --> 00:36:33,611 DEAFENING. HEH! 761 00:36:33,711 --> 00:36:35,813 AND THE DESIRE TO RUN FROM IT... 762 00:36:35,913 --> 00:36:39,577 [SIGHS] IT'S OVERWHELMING. 763 00:36:39,677 --> 00:36:41,819 BUT I'M HERE TO TELL YOU, 764 00:36:41,919 --> 00:36:43,821 DON'T RUN. 765 00:36:43,921 --> 00:36:45,783 GATHER YOUR VILLAGE. 766 00:36:45,883 --> 00:36:49,387 FACE THE SILENCE... 767 00:36:49,487 --> 00:36:52,930 AND WHATEVER FEELINGS COME WITH IT. 768 00:36:55,092 --> 00:36:58,035 OLIVIA, VOICE-OVER: IT CAN BE FEELINGS OF ABANDONMENT, 769 00:36:58,135 --> 00:37:00,137 FEELINGS OF FEAR. 770 00:37:03,741 --> 00:37:05,643 [SIGHS] 771 00:37:05,743 --> 00:37:08,085 SPENCER: "I DON'T WANT YOU TO FEEL PRESSURED BY ME, 772 00:37:08,185 --> 00:37:10,488 "SO I'M GONNA TAKE A STEP BACK. 773 00:37:10,588 --> 00:37:14,071 IF YOU NEED ME, YOU KNOW WHERE TO FIND ME." 774 00:37:15,553 --> 00:37:17,555 [KNOCK ON DOOR] 775 00:37:22,800 --> 00:37:24,822 NOW'S NOT A GOOD TIME, COACH. 776 00:37:24,922 --> 00:37:27,785 JUST CAME TO CHECK ON YOU. 777 00:37:27,885 --> 00:37:29,987 OUR CONVERSATION EARLIER, IT WENT 778 00:37:30,087 --> 00:37:32,270 IN A DIRECTION THAT I DIDN'T EXPECT. 779 00:37:32,370 --> 00:37:34,872 OK, OK, SO NOW YOU CHECKED. I'M GOOD. 780 00:37:34,972 --> 00:37:37,635 COACH KENNY: I'M HERE FOR YOU, SON. COREY: I LOVE YOU, SON. 781 00:37:37,735 --> 00:37:40,318 BILLY, VOICE-OVER: I DO CONSIDER YOU MY SON. COACH KENNY: I JUST WANT YOU 782 00:37:40,418 --> 00:37:42,159 TO KNOW-- SPENCER: DON'T CALL ME SON. 783 00:37:42,259 --> 00:37:44,962 I DON'T NEED A DADDY, MAN. 784 00:37:45,062 --> 00:37:48,366 I DON'T NEED A MENTOR OR EVEN A FRIEND. 785 00:37:48,466 --> 00:37:51,369 - SPENCE, I-- - I NEED A DAMN COACH. 786 00:37:51,469 --> 00:37:54,532 THAT IS IT. SOMEBODY WHO'S GONNA DO 787 00:37:54,632 --> 00:37:57,735 WHATEVER IT TAKES TO WIN AND GET ME TO THE NFL. 788 00:37:57,835 --> 00:38:02,159 THAT IS ALL I CAN COUNT ON AND THAT NEGRO AIN'T YOU! 789 00:38:03,681 --> 00:38:06,744 I SHOULDA LISTENED TO THOSE COACHES AT TNT AND TOLEDO. 790 00:38:06,844 --> 00:38:09,627 ALL THEY CARED ABOUT WAS THE GAME. 791 00:38:09,727 --> 00:38:12,470 I'M DONE WASTING MY TIME WITH YOU, MAN, 792 00:38:12,570 --> 00:38:15,112 AND GAU FOOTBALL. 793 00:38:15,212 --> 00:38:18,596 SO CONSIDER THIS MY OFFICIAL NOTICE. 794 00:38:18,696 --> 00:38:21,198 I'M ENTERING THE PORTAL. 795 00:38:21,298 --> 00:38:24,482 OLIVIA, VOICE-OVER: SOMETIMES, IT FEELS LIKE ANGER. 796 00:38:24,582 --> 00:38:27,485 AND THAT WAS MY EPIPHANY TODAY. 797 00:38:27,585 --> 00:38:30,488 I'M ANGRY AT MY DAD FOR DYING. 798 00:38:30,588 --> 00:38:32,810 AND HIDING FROM THAT TRUTH ALMOST COST ME 799 00:38:32,910 --> 00:38:35,733 MY SANITY AND MY SOBRIETY. 800 00:38:35,833 --> 00:38:39,657 SO NOW I'M SPEAKING MY TRUTH OUT LOUD NOT JUST FOR ME, 801 00:38:39,757 --> 00:38:43,661 BUT FOR ANYONE ELSE WHO'S GOING THROUGH SOMETHING SIMILAR. [DOOR CLOSES] 802 00:38:43,761 --> 00:38:48,145 JABARI: SORRY, MRS. BAKER. I WAS JUST-- LAURA: NO, NO, IT'S OK, IT'S OK. 803 00:38:48,245 --> 00:38:52,690 PREACH TOLD ME YOU WERE HERE. PLEASE, STAY. 804 00:39:06,664 --> 00:39:08,706 THE SILENCE IS LOUD, ISN'T IT? 805 00:39:11,429 --> 00:39:14,372 LEAVES A LOT OF ROOM FOR YOUR MIND TO PLAY TRICKS ON YOU 806 00:39:14,472 --> 00:39:16,974 IF YOU DON'T FACE IT HEAD ON. 807 00:39:17,074 --> 00:39:18,936 IT DON'T MATTER. 808 00:39:19,036 --> 00:39:21,659 I DON'T MATTER. LAURA: YES, YOU DO MATTER. 809 00:39:21,759 --> 00:39:24,422 THAT'S WHY MY HUSBAND WENT BACK FOR YOU. 810 00:39:24,522 --> 00:39:28,065 YOU CAN'T KEEP CARRYING ALL THIS GUILT, JABARI. 811 00:39:28,165 --> 00:39:30,688 IT'S NOT WHAT BILLY WOULD HAVE WANTED. 812 00:39:32,169 --> 00:39:34,712 TELL ME... 813 00:39:34,812 --> 00:39:37,715 WHAT HAPPENED WHEN... 814 00:39:37,815 --> 00:39:40,237 WHEN BILLY WENT BACK ON THE BUS. 815 00:39:40,337 --> 00:39:42,239 NO. 816 00:39:42,339 --> 00:39:44,442 NO, I'M SORRY. 817 00:39:44,542 --> 00:39:47,204 I--I'VE ALREADY CAUSED YOU ENOUGH PAIN. 818 00:39:47,304 --> 00:39:49,527 AND YOU DON'T WANT TO HEAR THAT. 819 00:39:49,627 --> 00:39:52,169 NO. I DON'T. 820 00:39:52,269 --> 00:39:54,972 BUT I NEED TO. 821 00:39:55,072 --> 00:39:59,477 AND YOU NEED... TO RELEASE IT. 822 00:40:02,840 --> 00:40:04,982 BILLY, DISTORTED: 823 00:40:05,082 --> 00:40:07,144 JABARI! 824 00:40:07,244 --> 00:40:09,987 ALL RIGHT, TAKE MY HAND. ALL RIGHT, COME ON. 825 00:40:10,087 --> 00:40:11,989 ALL RIGHT, USE THIS LEG. [JABARI GRUNTING] 826 00:40:12,089 --> 00:40:15,433 BILLY: THERE WE GO. OK. [BUS THUDS] 827 00:40:15,533 --> 00:40:17,435 ALL RIGHT, YOU GOOD? [JABARI PANTING] 828 00:40:17,535 --> 00:40:18,956 [BUS CREAKING] BILLY: ALL RIGHT. 829 00:40:19,056 --> 00:40:20,758 WHAT DO YOU SAY WE GET OFF THIS DAMN BUS? 830 00:40:20,858 --> 00:40:21,719 [LOUD CREAK] 831 00:40:21,819 --> 00:40:23,721 OH! WHOA! WHOA. 832 00:40:23,821 --> 00:40:25,923 OK, THIS IS GONNA BE FUN. OK. 833 00:40:26,023 --> 00:40:28,526 ALL RIGHT. WE GOT THIS. UM, 834 00:40:28,626 --> 00:40:31,128 WE'RE JUST GONNA GO ONE AT A TIME, RIGHT? 835 00:40:31,228 --> 00:40:33,210 GONNA BE EASY. ONE AT A TIME. 836 00:40:33,310 --> 00:40:35,373 YOU GO FIRST. ONE AT A TIME. 837 00:40:35,473 --> 00:40:37,575 BILLY: YOU GOT IT. I'M RIGHT BEHIND YOU, BABY. [JABARI GRUNTS] 838 00:40:37,675 --> 00:40:39,577 [BUS CREAKING] BILLY: THERE WE GO. MY MAN. 839 00:40:39,677 --> 00:40:42,940 AH! ALL RIGHT, COACH. COME ON. IT'S YOUR TURN. 840 00:40:43,040 --> 00:40:45,583 [LOUD RUMBLING AND CREAKING] 841 00:40:45,683 --> 00:40:49,266 TELL MY FAMILY THAT I LOVE THEM. 842 00:40:49,366 --> 00:40:51,909 [METAL CRUNCHING LOUDLY] 843 00:40:52,009 --> 00:40:55,913 COACH! 844 00:40:56,013 --> 00:40:58,476 [SNIFFLES] 845 00:40:58,576 --> 00:41:01,759 THERE'S NOTHING YOU COULD HAVE DONE, JABARI. 846 00:41:01,859 --> 00:41:04,041 [SIGHS] 847 00:41:04,141 --> 00:41:06,143 LOOK AT ME. 848 00:41:09,066 --> 00:41:11,328 THERE IS NOTHING 849 00:41:11,428 --> 00:41:14,191 THAT YOU COULD HAVE DONE. [SNIFFLES] 850 00:41:16,954 --> 00:41:19,857 OLIVIA, VOICE-OVER: FOR WHOEVER IS OUT THERE LISTENING, 851 00:41:19,957 --> 00:41:23,941 I NEED YOU TO KNOW THAT YOU AREN'T ALONE IN YOUR GRIEF. 852 00:41:24,041 --> 00:41:26,544 FEMALE SINGER: ♪ THERE ARE BETTER DAYS TO COME ♪ 853 00:41:26,644 --> 00:41:29,346 OLIVIA, VOICE-OVER: AND IF YOU DON'T HAVE ANYONE TO TURN TO, 854 00:41:29,446 --> 00:41:31,308 I WILL BE HERE FOR YOU. 855 00:41:31,408 --> 00:41:34,311 FEMALE SINGER: ♪ THERE ARE BETTER DAYS TO COME ♪ 856 00:41:34,411 --> 00:41:37,194 OLIVIA, VOICE-OVER: BECAUSE WHEN YOU CAN'T HOLD YOURSELF UP, 857 00:41:37,294 --> 00:41:41,999 IT'S LIFESAVING TO HAVE A VILLAGE THAT'LL DO THAT FOR YOU. 858 00:41:42,099 --> 00:41:46,003 FEMALE SINGER: ♪ WHEN ALL OF THIS IS SAID AND DONE ♪ 859 00:41:46,103 --> 00:41:50,247 ♪ THERE ARE BETTER DAYS ♪ 860 00:41:50,347 --> 00:41:52,990 ♪ TO COME ♪ 861 00:42:14,932 --> 00:42:16,934 MAN: GREG, MOVE YOUR HEAD.