1
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Tabula rasa.

2
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What are you talking about?

3
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Tabula rasa.

4
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A blank slate.

5
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Do you know who I could've been
if everything had been different?

6
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-If anything had been different?

7
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The chance to be the me I could've been

8
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literally slid out of my body
on a 6 train platform.

9
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How, with all the time travel stories

10
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about people
accidentally obliterating themselves,

11
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do you find a way to make yourself double?

12
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I had to take her someplace safe.

13
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This is safe? Hmm?

14
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You have collapsed time, Nadia,

15
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and now we are back in this horrible,
evil freaking birthday party

16
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I spent lifetimes trying to escape!

17
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-Chicken's almost ready!

18
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Jesus Christ with this fucking song.

19
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I went through major shit, Nadia.
You don't think I wanted to change things?

20
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But no, I followed the rules of the train
because I am a good commuter.

21
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But you, you on the other hand,
you're just--

22
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Look, no kid should have to go through
what I went through, all right?

23
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Trust me, I've lived all sides of it.

24
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Who's a little<i> Rashomon</i> face?

25
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-I'm-- I'm sorry.

26
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A friend kidnapping her newborn self
then collapsing time is a hard boundary.

27
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Come on.

28
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-They went down…
-Oh boy.

29
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…alive, into the realm of the dead.

30
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Who-- who are they?

31
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Oh look at that.

32
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This used to be a school for Jews.

33
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Now, it's open-planned living
for the enlightened.

34
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I use the terms "now"
and "used to be" loosely.

35
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-Oh my God.
-Okay.

36
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-Who's Nadia Comăneci?

37
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-Yes, she is. Ten-ten-ten.
-God, oh God.

38
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Enough about me.

39
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How have you been?

40
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Can I hold her?

41
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Sure, but don't make it weird.

42
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She's me, you know?

43
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-Ah.

44
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Somebody likes you.

45
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This guy.

46
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Now, see, this is the type of shit
I was thinking about.

47
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Hey, baby.

48
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Okay, okay,
we-- we have to bring her back.

49
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Whoa, whoa, whoa!

50
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We cannot live
in this chaos forever. Look, look.

51
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Nadia, it's a simple decision. We just--

52
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Simple says you.
Me? I'm still exploring my options.

53
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What?

54
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I mean, the world is different, sure,
but it's not terrible.

55
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Guess what? There's time.

56
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There's time for everything.

57
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-Nadia, Nadia, please.

58
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Come on, man,
we've been through worse, all right?

59
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We can handle this.

60
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Hey, as Abraham used to say,

61
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"Trust that the fabric of space-time
is durable like Tyvek."

62
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Uh…

63
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Which is Sheol, where all dead go.

64
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The common grave for all humanity.

65
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Nadia, I understand
why you did this. I really do.

66
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Well, it makes sense,
you guilt-tripping me in front of a rabbi.

67
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Were you always this difficult?

68
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Please don't harass the baby.
She's in her formative years.

69
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-I'm so sorry. No yarmulke.
-Just relax, Alan.

70
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They're basically non-playable characters,

71
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just stuck in a loop, incapable
of deviating from preset grooves.

72
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To them, this is all status quo normal.

73
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Who wants a high-five? Yeah, hey.

74
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Hey. How you doing?

75
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Come here!

76
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This guy has always loved to hug, Alan.

77
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Hi. You want a light?

78
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There you go.

79
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You still look great, you know?

80
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All right. Hey.

81
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Hey, guys, how are ya?

82
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Look who's having white wine spritz.
That's great.

83
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Sweet birthday baby.

84
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It's laced
with cocaine, like the Israelis do it.

85
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How'd you know?

86
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I broke time.

87
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Oh, because you're so old.

88
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We should get out of here.

89
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Come on, Alan,
party's just getting started.

90
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And Ruth hasn't showed up yet.

91
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I've never had a birthday without her.
I'm not about to start now.

92
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-You want some chicken?
-I don't want your four-year-old chicken.

93
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Okay, well, I'll just put it in the oven
so it doesn't get cold.

94
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Oh, hey, hey.
Okay, yeah, I-- I don't know what to do.

95
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Hush, she's fine. She loves parties.
Look, I've got a bottle.

96
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Uh, I'll hold her. Is she-- she a her?

97
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She's a neither nor.

98
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-Hmm. Chic.
-Yes.

99
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Maxine.

100
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Maxine, it's--

101
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-Oh.
-What the hell? Dude, it's not ready.

102
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Oh!

103
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-Chicken's raw.
-Very interesting.

104
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Nadia, this is crazy.

105
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It's entropy, Alan. Right? Entropy.

106
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It's what gives us linear time,
irreversible processes,

107
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so things can only move
in one direction, into the future.

108
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You can't un-fry an egg, usually.

109
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You can't un-cook a chicken, usually.

110
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-Except, hey, look at us, right?
-Mm-hmm.

111
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-Now, we can.
-No, you cannot.

112
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-No, no, you cannot un-cook the baby.
-Come on. That's a little impressive.

113
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No, Nadia, you cannot un-cook that baby.

114
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-The baby's fine.
-Can we bring it back?

115
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She loves Lizzy.

116
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Ple-- please,
can we just bring her back?

117
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Do you not care that their lives
are literally disintegrating?

118
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They're artists, Alan.
They love the surreal.

119
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-See?
-Come back here.

120
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-Look how happy.
-Nadia. Nadia.

121
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If you cannot figure out
how to do this for me,

122
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or for your best friends, or for yourself,

123
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just do it so you don't go to hell
for being the most selfish person ever.

124
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I am painfully misunderstood.

125
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Hey, hey, hey!
Who invited these kids to my party?

126
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-I gotta go handle this.
-Yeah.

127
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Take my baby.

128
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Ha.

129
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Come on, let's get the fuck
out of here, kiddo.

130
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Nadia, whoa. Nadia, where are you going?

131
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Nadia, where are you go--

132
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-Oh.
-Hey, it's all right.

133
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Easy. She's not worth it, trust me.

134
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Which is a lesson
I've learned in spades from my ex-wife.

135
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She could never forget
my past transgressions, you know what--

136
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Hi.

137
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Fuck.

138
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-Fuck it.
-Excu-- Nadia.

139
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-Hey.
-Huh.

140
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Ah-ha! There's my birthday girl.

141
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No need to roll out
the red carpet for me, pumpkin.

142
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What'd I tell ya?

143
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Ruth's here. Not so bad.

144
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-Come on, man, just hold the baby.
-It's Ruth from four years ago.

145
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Yeah, I know it won't
make a difference, but, uh--

146
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-Well, I'll just wait. I'll wait.
-All right.

147
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Hiya, Ruthie.

148
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Oh…

149
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-Come on.
-We're waiting.

150
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-Oh, my fucking knees.
-Yeah.

151
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Upsie-pupsie, Ruthie.

152
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I can do it.

153
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-Yeah, I know you can.
-Okay.

154
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Okay.

155
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Um, Na-- Nadia?

156
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Yeah?

157
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Look.

158
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Ah.

159
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Would you look at that?

160
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They just keep coming.

161
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-Nadia?

162
00:07:01,754 --> 00:07:03,756
What? Aren't you coming in?

163
00:07:04,465 --> 00:07:06,384
Oh no. No, no.

164
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You cannot Irish exit your own party.

165
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I'm sorry I'm not in the hospital
with you right now, Ruthie.

166
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I'm trying. I am.

167
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You won't be alone, okay?

168
00:07:18,646 --> 00:07:22,525
Sweetheart, what have you
got to be sorry for?

169
00:07:22,608 --> 00:07:25,570
You're right here with me right now.

170
00:07:25,653 --> 00:07:30,658
Nothing in this world is easy
except pissing in the shower.

171
00:07:31,242 --> 00:07:32,452
-Okay.
-Nadia?

172
00:07:33,661 --> 00:07:34,996
-Nadia?
-Yeah?

173
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And there's my birthday girl.

174
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Uh…

175
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I fucked up.

176
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I know.

177
00:07:46,048 --> 00:07:49,469
Ugh. Yeah, let's take her back.

178
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Fire escape?

179
00:07:51,220 --> 00:07:53,055
I guess. Thank God.

180
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Ladies and gentlemen,

181
00:07:55,850 --> 00:07:57,977
boys and girls,

182
00:07:58,561 --> 00:08:02,482
experience the New York sky!

183
00:08:02,565 --> 00:08:04,817
-Ten cents a ride…
-I'm proud of you.

184
00:08:04,901 --> 00:08:07,278
-…for your first bona fide…

185
00:08:07,361 --> 00:08:09,322
…hydrogen balloon!

186
00:08:09,405 --> 00:08:11,407
Jesus. Oh shit.

187
00:08:11,949 --> 00:08:13,326
Told ya. Pamphlet.

188
00:08:13,409 --> 00:08:14,410
Oh hey.

189
00:08:14,494 --> 00:08:15,328
Yeah.

190
00:08:15,411 --> 00:08:16,245
Well, here.

191
00:08:16,746 --> 00:08:18,956
Yeah, two pockets.

192
00:08:19,040 --> 00:08:21,417
This balloon won't be here for long!

193
00:08:21,501 --> 00:08:23,878
All right, let's get this baby
back to the '80s.

194
00:08:23,961 --> 00:08:25,296
Experience the New York sky!

195
00:08:25,379 --> 00:08:27,924
<i>This is a downtown</i>
<i>local 6 train to Brooklyn Bridge,</i>

196
00:08:28,007 --> 00:08:31,260
<i>approaching the station.</i>
<i>Please stand away from the platform edge.</i>

197
00:08:31,344 --> 00:08:34,639
<i>-Stand clear of the closing doors.</i>
-Man, where's this fucking train?

198
00:08:34,722 --> 00:08:36,682
<i>-This is a Pelham Bay Park bound 6 train.</i>
-Come on.

199
00:08:36,766 --> 00:08:38,893
<i>Next stop, 77th Street, Lenox Hill.</i>

200
00:08:38,976 --> 00:08:40,770
Tell you, this baby's gonna be
a moody teenager

201
00:08:40,853 --> 00:08:42,897
by the time we get her back
if we don't get a move on.

202
00:08:43,940 --> 00:08:45,942
Spoiler alert, she gets her period at 12,

203
00:08:46,025 --> 00:08:48,069
so <i>basta la pasta.</i>

204
00:08:48,945 --> 00:08:51,113
<i>Please stand away</i>
<i>from the platform edge.</i>

205
00:08:52,031 --> 00:08:54,867
<i>This is a Brooklyn Bridge-City Hall</i>
<i>bound 6 train. Next stop…</i>

206
00:08:54,951 --> 00:08:57,078
This is ridiculous.
What if the train never comes?

207
00:08:57,161 --> 00:08:59,163
What if we're stuck here for forever?

208
00:08:59,247 --> 00:09:00,998
We should have a plan B just in case.

209
00:09:01,582 --> 00:09:05,169
Oh man. You know, you're getting
very stressed out, Alan, all right?

210
00:09:05,253 --> 00:09:07,088
-Why don't you hold the little baby?
-Oh no.

211
00:09:07,171 --> 00:09:11,634
It will help you calm down.
Ah, okay. There you go. That's right.

212
00:09:11,717 --> 00:09:13,511
My fucking neck is killing me.

213
00:09:13,594 --> 00:09:16,347
I swear to God, this is why people
get abortions. No offense, baby.

214
00:09:16,430 --> 00:09:18,432
<i>Stand clear of the closing doors.</i>

215
00:09:18,516 --> 00:09:20,768
<i>-The Metro City Police Department…</i>
-Hey.

216
00:09:20,851 --> 00:09:22,728
<i>-Remain aware of your surroundings.</i>
-Look.

217
00:09:22,812 --> 00:09:26,107
<i>-If you see something, say something.</i>
-Yo! Yo!

218
00:09:26,190 --> 00:09:28,276
Hey, you know where the trains are?

219
00:09:28,359 --> 00:09:30,444
Hey! Hey, slow down!

220
00:09:30,528 --> 00:09:31,362
Alan!

221
00:09:31,445 --> 00:09:34,448
-<i>We apologize for the delay.</i>
-Hey, man, I'm talking to you!

222
00:09:34,532 --> 00:09:35,533
<i>Now arriving--</i>

223
00:09:36,993 --> 00:09:37,827
This way.

224
00:09:37,910 --> 00:09:40,580
Hey, man,
do you know where the 6 train is?

225
00:09:42,540 --> 00:09:43,833
Shit.

226
00:09:43,916 --> 00:09:45,126
Horse?

227
00:09:45,209 --> 00:09:46,711
You work for the MTA now?

228
00:09:46,794 --> 00:09:49,714
What? No, Haircut,
I live down here with my wife. Fuck you.

229
00:09:49,797 --> 00:09:50,798
Can you help us?

230
00:09:50,881 --> 00:09:52,967
Uh, I'm looking for my train.

231
00:09:53,050 --> 00:09:55,261
It's number 6622.

232
00:09:56,304 --> 00:09:57,471
-For a price.

233
00:09:57,555 --> 00:09:59,724
Nadia, this guy is no help, okay? So--

234
00:09:59,807 --> 00:10:02,351
-The baby needs a diaper change.
-Come on, the baby's fine.

235
00:10:02,435 --> 00:10:04,604
We're both fathers. I respect that.

236
00:10:05,771 --> 00:10:07,064
Okay, we'll make a trade.

237
00:10:07,148 --> 00:10:08,107
A trade?

238
00:10:08,190 --> 00:10:09,191
It's good negotiating.

239
00:10:09,775 --> 00:10:11,902
I know where your train is. Follow me.

240
00:10:12,820 --> 00:10:13,863
Come on.

241
00:10:13,946 --> 00:10:15,656
Yeah. Uh--

242
00:10:18,117 --> 00:10:19,619
Everything falls down.

243
00:10:20,119 --> 00:10:23,706
Closer to the center of the Earth you are,
the closer you are to the truth. Gravity.

244
00:10:23,789 --> 00:10:26,292
I'm sorry, can we-- can we hurry?
We're kind of in a rush.

245
00:10:26,375 --> 00:10:27,418
You got time, man.

246
00:10:27,501 --> 00:10:30,546
Time as you understand was invented
to synchronize European train systems

247
00:10:30,630 --> 00:10:32,798
so that goods
could be moved across borders.

248
00:10:32,882 --> 00:10:34,425
Watch the third rail.

249
00:10:38,471 --> 00:10:39,555
Let me hold the baby.

250
00:10:39,639 --> 00:10:41,807
Uh, your hands seem so full already.

251
00:10:41,891 --> 00:10:44,518
Come on, just for a little bit.
Please? Let me hold her.

252
00:10:44,602 --> 00:10:46,187
What do you need, baby, huh?

253
00:10:46,270 --> 00:10:47,897
Babies are true materialists.

254
00:10:47,980 --> 00:10:50,733
-Alan, don't give Horse the baby.
-Is she okay?

255
00:10:50,816 --> 00:10:52,777
She's a subway baby. She's me, we're fine.

256
00:10:52,860 --> 00:10:55,446
As long as I'm still standing,
that means that she's okay.

257
00:10:56,030 --> 00:10:56,864
Fine.

258
00:10:57,531 --> 00:11:00,034
Follow the tracks, end of the line,
you'll see your train. Pay up.

259
00:11:00,117 --> 00:11:02,078
-For real?
-Yep. Pay up.

260
00:11:05,206 --> 00:11:06,874
-Money. Mm-hmm. I take cash.
-How's that?

261
00:11:06,957 --> 00:11:08,668
All right, 40 bucks, man. Not bad.

262
00:11:08,751 --> 00:11:09,710
I hear a jingle.

263
00:11:09,794 --> 00:11:11,212
-All right, keys.
-That's good. Go.

264
00:11:11,295 --> 00:11:12,380
Great, thanks.

265
00:11:12,463 --> 00:11:13,381
Ah, ah, ah, ah.

266
00:11:13,464 --> 00:11:15,132
You too, bud. Pay up.

267
00:11:19,470 --> 00:11:22,807
Is that your fucking train, huh?
Is that your train?

268
00:11:22,890 --> 00:11:23,933
Is that your train?

269
00:11:24,016 --> 00:11:27,478
I don't know, man.
I'm an R32, number 6622, so…

270
00:11:27,561 --> 00:11:29,271
-How do you even know?
-Oh, come on, man.

271
00:11:29,355 --> 00:11:32,483
You gotta know your make and model.
That's Quantum Leaping 101.

272
00:11:33,859 --> 00:11:34,694
Run.

273
00:11:36,737 --> 00:11:37,697
Hey, Nadia.

274
00:11:37,780 --> 00:11:38,614
Yeah.

275
00:11:39,115 --> 00:11:41,492
Wardog. Yeah.

276
00:11:43,869 --> 00:11:47,623
Um, Oh! Nadia, hey.
We didn't think you were gonna show.

277
00:11:48,207 --> 00:11:50,042
-Uh--
-And you have a baby.

278
00:11:50,126 --> 00:11:51,544
Oh, cute baby.

279
00:11:51,627 --> 00:11:52,461
Uh…

280
00:11:53,629 --> 00:11:54,463
What's going on?

281
00:11:54,547 --> 00:11:57,591
I don't know.
The train's been stopped for 30 minutes.

282
00:11:57,675 --> 00:11:59,593
-We're gonna be late for the wake.

283
00:12:09,103 --> 00:12:09,937
Ah.

284
00:12:10,438 --> 00:12:12,106
-This isn't right.

285
00:12:12,898 --> 00:12:14,108
Hold up. Hold up.

286
00:12:14,191 --> 00:12:17,111
You don't like these flowers?
I thought Ruth loved orchids.

287
00:12:18,237 --> 00:12:19,405
Consider them gone.

288
00:12:22,408 --> 00:12:24,410
Hey. Hey, Nads.

289
00:12:24,493 --> 00:12:27,747
You have to stop
beating yourself up for not being there.

290
00:12:27,830 --> 00:12:29,707
What do you mean I don't get there?

291
00:12:29,790 --> 00:12:31,333
Ruth dies alone?

292
00:12:32,168 --> 00:12:33,461
After everything?

293
00:12:34,879 --> 00:12:37,131
I just talked to her on my birthday.

294
00:12:38,007 --> 00:12:39,675
Your birthday was a month ago.

295
00:12:39,759 --> 00:12:41,719
-It's April. It's April 30th.
-No.

296
00:12:42,553 --> 00:12:45,014
It is March 30th, okay?

297
00:12:45,598 --> 00:12:47,808
Today is still my birthday, so…

298
00:12:48,934 --> 00:12:50,019
you're in the future.

299
00:12:50,102 --> 00:12:51,729
-Nadia…
-It's okay.

300
00:12:51,812 --> 00:12:53,647
Grief doesn't move you in a straight line.

301
00:12:53,731 --> 00:12:56,400
Hey, do you-- do you know
what you're gonna say tonight?

302
00:12:58,152 --> 00:12:59,528
-It's okay.

303
00:13:00,154 --> 00:13:03,532
Um, "Do you believe
in the future of humanity?" Um, okay.

304
00:13:05,409 --> 00:13:07,745
<i>The 6 train is now departing…</i>

305
00:13:07,828 --> 00:13:10,122
Hey, come on.
Hey, hey, we need to get off this train.

306
00:13:10,206 --> 00:13:11,165
We need--

307
00:13:11,248 --> 00:13:12,875
We don't belong here, come on.

308
00:13:12,958 --> 00:13:15,002
Nadia, we have to bring
the baby back, right?

309
00:13:15,085 --> 00:13:16,712
I'm not leaving. Fuck that.

310
00:13:17,296 --> 00:13:19,048
If I don't make it to her deathbed,

311
00:13:19,131 --> 00:13:21,300
the least I can do
is show up to her fucking funeral!

312
00:13:21,383 --> 00:13:23,469
-No, Nadia! That's enough!
-All right?

313
00:13:23,552 --> 00:13:25,012
-Come on!
-Are they fucking?

314
00:13:25,095 --> 00:13:27,431
-Alan, I know how to fucking walk.
-Watch the baby.

315
00:13:27,515 --> 00:13:28,349
God!

316
00:13:31,227 --> 00:13:33,437
Nadia? Nadia, calm down.

317
00:13:33,521 --> 00:13:34,980
Nadia, please.

318
00:13:35,064 --> 00:13:36,816
Calm down?

319
00:13:36,899 --> 00:13:39,068
Man, it's fucking over, all right?

320
00:13:39,151 --> 00:13:41,070
I don't get there for Ruth.

321
00:13:41,153 --> 00:13:43,489
Wasn't there for the best mother I had.

322
00:13:44,031 --> 00:13:46,534
All this shit, for nothing.

323
00:13:47,117 --> 00:13:49,078
So, great.

324
00:13:49,829 --> 00:13:53,040
How the fuck do we get outta here? Yeah.

325
00:13:54,166 --> 00:13:55,709
I don't--

326
00:13:55,793 --> 00:13:56,877
Wait.

327
00:13:56,961 --> 00:13:58,712
Where are you going? Nadia?

328
00:14:02,967 --> 00:14:05,261
-I told you about Lenny, right?
-Oh yeah.

329
00:14:05,344 --> 00:14:08,180
I tried to tell him
that the wall was gonna come down.

330
00:14:09,515 --> 00:14:11,851
That I had solid information
from the future.

331
00:14:11,934 --> 00:14:13,686
Total control of the situation, right?

332
00:14:13,769 --> 00:14:14,687
Yeah.

333
00:14:14,770 --> 00:14:15,771
He went anyway.

334
00:14:17,022 --> 00:14:19,483
Well, you couldn't change anything.

335
00:14:19,567 --> 00:14:20,401
Closed loop.

336
00:14:20,484 --> 00:14:22,319
Right. Because of…

337
00:14:22,403 --> 00:14:23,696
Laws of physics.

338
00:14:24,613 --> 00:14:26,448
I was gonna say "human nature."

339
00:14:27,992 --> 00:14:30,494
We can't escape being the product
of things we can't change.

340
00:14:30,578 --> 00:14:33,289
Are you trying to say
that I'm not an original, man?

341
00:14:33,372 --> 00:14:34,331
No one is.

342
00:14:34,415 --> 00:14:35,666
Well, what about Bowie?

343
00:14:35,749 --> 00:14:37,084
That's not my point. Look,

344
00:14:38,043 --> 00:14:40,045
Ruth would not want you
to carry that guilt.

345
00:14:40,129 --> 00:14:44,758
Sweetheart, guilt,
it's a wasted emotion.

346
00:14:44,842 --> 00:14:46,677
He tried to escape. He tried to get out.

347
00:14:46,760 --> 00:14:50,055
Lenny went to West Berlin,
and I don't even know that he got there.

348
00:14:50,139 --> 00:14:50,973
I mean…

349
00:14:52,182 --> 00:14:54,018
I think I was supposed
to stop him from going,

350
00:14:54,101 --> 00:14:57,187
and I didn't even make it
in time to say goodbye.

351
00:14:57,271 --> 00:14:59,064
I don't know what I was supposed to do.

352
00:14:59,648 --> 00:15:01,734
I'm never gonna forgive myself.

353
00:15:01,817 --> 00:15:05,237
Alan, you're okay, all right?

354
00:15:05,321 --> 00:15:06,488
It's okay.

355
00:15:07,031 --> 00:15:08,532
It's just, it's a--

356
00:15:08,616 --> 00:15:09,867
It's a Coney Island.

357
00:15:09,950 --> 00:15:11,118
A what?

358
00:15:11,201 --> 00:15:14,413
The thing that would make
everything better

359
00:15:14,496 --> 00:15:16,373
if only it had happened, right?

360
00:15:16,457 --> 00:15:18,375
Or-- or didn't happen.

361
00:15:19,001 --> 00:15:21,754
You know, uh, an "if only."

362
00:15:24,006 --> 00:15:25,132
Do you hear that?

363
00:15:27,760 --> 00:15:29,887
Shit. Let me take her.

364
00:16:07,716 --> 00:16:09,051
Nadia?

365
00:16:11,804 --> 00:16:13,263
Nadia!

366
00:16:17,351 --> 00:16:18,352
Alan!

367
00:16:21,021 --> 00:16:22,523
Alan!

368
00:16:22,606 --> 00:16:23,732
Nadia.

369
00:16:39,999 --> 00:16:41,125
Shh.

370
00:16:48,382 --> 00:16:49,675
Nadia!

371
00:17:33,469 --> 00:17:34,470
Hmm.

372
00:17:49,526 --> 00:17:50,486
Oh shit.

373
00:17:54,782 --> 00:17:55,783
All right.

374
00:18:05,125 --> 00:18:06,835
Shit.

375
00:18:09,379 --> 00:18:10,714
Come on, would you?

376
00:18:11,340 --> 00:18:12,257
Come on.

377
00:18:16,804 --> 00:18:17,721
Fine.

378
00:18:21,100 --> 00:18:22,101
You win.

379
00:18:41,912 --> 00:18:42,746
Grandma?

380
00:18:48,127 --> 00:18:48,961
Alan.

381
00:18:51,004 --> 00:18:52,047
Look at you.

382
00:18:52,798 --> 00:18:54,341
What happened to Lenny?

383
00:18:56,009 --> 00:18:58,303
Lenny? I-- I don't know.

384
00:18:58,887 --> 00:19:02,057
You don't know? So was I supposed
to stop him from going then,

385
00:19:02,141 --> 00:19:03,934
or I shouldn't have done anything?

386
00:19:04,017 --> 00:19:06,770
I-- I shouldn't have done anything at all.
Why did I do anything?

387
00:19:06,854 --> 00:19:07,938
I fuck it all up.

388
00:19:08,021 --> 00:19:09,231
I always fuck it up.

389
00:19:09,314 --> 00:19:11,942
Alan, Alan, I don't know.
And that's all right.

390
00:19:12,860 --> 00:19:14,778
Everybody says that I'm just like you.

391
00:19:14,862 --> 00:19:17,781
He was never going to stay.
I was never going to go.

392
00:19:17,865 --> 00:19:20,450
I couldn't leave the life I was building.

393
00:19:21,118 --> 00:19:23,036
I helped him get out.

394
00:19:23,120 --> 00:19:25,330
There was no other way
it was supposed to happen.

395
00:19:25,914 --> 00:19:27,082
So I got it wrong.

396
00:19:28,500 --> 00:19:30,669
I just want answers. I just--

397
00:19:30,752 --> 00:19:32,212
I just wanna know.

398
00:19:32,296 --> 00:19:34,214
I'm sorry. I'm sorry for being this way.

399
00:19:34,298 --> 00:19:35,841
You are just like me.

400
00:19:38,510 --> 00:19:42,598
We can't spend our lives
so scared of making the wrong move

401
00:19:42,681 --> 00:19:44,641
that-- that we never live at all.

402
00:19:45,559 --> 00:19:47,311
Don't be so afraid to live.

403
00:19:48,478 --> 00:19:50,189
Yeah, I killed myself, so I…

404
00:19:51,857 --> 00:19:54,026
I don't really know how to live with that.

405
00:19:57,321 --> 00:20:01,283
It all just seems
so much easier for everybody else.

406
00:20:02,117 --> 00:20:03,327
Am I wrong?

407
00:20:03,827 --> 00:20:05,871
My perfect baby boy.

408
00:20:08,373 --> 00:20:09,666
Didn't I tell you?

409
00:20:11,543 --> 00:20:13,503
You were too young. You don't remember.

410
00:20:14,546 --> 00:20:16,131
I'll tell you again…

411
00:20:18,008 --> 00:20:19,593
my perfect baby boy.

412
00:20:21,595 --> 00:20:22,429
Okay?

413
00:20:24,223 --> 00:20:25,682
What-- what is this place?

414
00:20:25,766 --> 00:20:26,808
Um,

415
00:20:26,892 --> 00:20:28,227
we call it the void.

416
00:20:29,353 --> 00:20:31,772
It's an empty pocket of space

417
00:20:31,855 --> 00:20:34,900
left over from a job
that was never completed.

418
00:20:35,984 --> 00:20:37,194
Am I dead?

419
00:20:40,322 --> 00:20:41,490
You must go.

420
00:20:41,573 --> 00:20:43,367
-Follow the blue lights.
-Okay.

421
00:20:43,450 --> 00:20:45,953
There's an emergency exit
around the corner

422
00:20:46,036 --> 00:20:47,371
that will take you to the surface.

423
00:20:47,454 --> 00:20:49,623
Okay, okay. Thank you.

424
00:20:50,207 --> 00:20:51,041
I was lost.

425
00:20:51,124 --> 00:20:54,711
There's so much empty space
beneath the city we've forgotten about.

426
00:20:55,545 --> 00:20:57,673
It's a wonder
the whole thing doesn't cave in.

427
00:21:29,413 --> 00:21:30,497
Look at that.

428
00:21:31,456 --> 00:21:32,416
That's good.

429
00:21:32,499 --> 00:21:34,835
Just a little bit of piss on my blazer.

430
00:21:35,377 --> 00:21:37,879
It's fine. It's why we buy clothes, right?

431
00:21:37,963 --> 00:21:39,798
-All right.

432
00:21:40,340 --> 00:21:42,259
Look at this.

433
00:21:44,970 --> 00:21:45,804
Okay.

434
00:21:48,640 --> 00:21:51,101
We got this. We got this.

435
00:22:21,465 --> 00:22:22,299
Hello.

436
00:22:23,759 --> 00:22:25,010
Am I dead?

437
00:22:26,136 --> 00:22:28,180
How am I supposed to answer
a question like that?

438
00:22:28,764 --> 00:22:31,308
So I'm not dead?

439
00:22:31,975 --> 00:22:34,978
Just because I came before you
doesn't mean I have all the answers.

440
00:22:35,562 --> 00:22:37,189
You're looking in the wrong place.

441
00:22:37,272 --> 00:22:41,526
Well, that is starting to become a theme.

442
00:22:42,277 --> 00:22:44,363
If you could choose your mother all over,

443
00:22:45,655 --> 00:22:46,990
would you choose me again?

444
00:23:16,603 --> 00:23:17,687
Ma…

445
00:23:18,980 --> 00:23:21,608
Yeah, I didn't choose you the first time,

446
00:23:21,691 --> 00:23:25,654
but I guess that's just
how the story goes, huh, Mom?

447
00:23:32,619 --> 00:23:33,787
Come on, kid.

448
00:23:57,269 --> 00:23:59,062
Please make room for my babies.

449
00:23:59,146 --> 00:24:02,983
Miss, please, give room for my babies.

450
00:24:05,026 --> 00:24:07,779
Hey, do you know what station this is?

451
00:24:07,863 --> 00:24:09,448
I don't know. I'm not a conductor.

452
00:24:09,531 --> 00:24:10,782
Nora, let's get her home.

453
00:24:10,866 --> 00:24:13,785
Uh, you had no obligation,
but you loved me anyway, right?

454
00:24:15,745 --> 00:24:16,872
Bye, Ruthie.

455
00:24:26,715 --> 00:24:30,051
<i>This is a southbound 6 train.</i>
<i>Next stop, Astor Place.</i>

456
00:24:41,605 --> 00:24:43,648
<i> Stand clear</i>
<i>of the closing doors.</i>

457
00:26:45,061 --> 00:26:46,605
Mmm. You hungry?

458
00:26:47,272 --> 00:26:48,106
Me too.