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["The Promise" playing]
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[horn honks]
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♪ If you need a friend ♪
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[man] Hey, move it, lady.
What's your problem?
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[honking]
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You can't park here.
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Okay!
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Got it!
I'm going.
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[horn honks]
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We're moving!
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[horns continue honking]
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-Can we go home now?
-[laughs] Absolutely not.
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I gotta good feeling
about that deli over on 12th Street.
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-Hey.
-[horns honking]
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What? Don't pout.
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What happened to my trusty sidekick, huh?
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[Nadia laughs]
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Let's get rid of this.
It's your crown and glory.
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Look at that beautiful hair, huh?
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This is it, Nadia.
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[engine turns over]
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This is the day we get free.
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♪ I promise ♪
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♪ I promise you I will ♪
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[Alan] I killed myself.
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I know it sounds impossible
when I think about it,
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but in my bones, I know I did it.
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That settles it. I'm dead.
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Alan, I'm still here.
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And we are not dead.
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Well, regardless,
I definitely started this whole thing.
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You said my first death was the only
unknown factor, and now we know.
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I killed myself. I--
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-I did this to us.
-[Nadia] Alan, Alan, Alan.
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Your first death does not explain
how or why we're connected.
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Lucky for you...
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I figured that out.
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Last loop, I went back to the deli
and I remembered something.
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We met each other
that first night that we died.
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I saw you at the deli
that night with Ferran.
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No, I don't remember that.
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Well, of course you don't.
You were fucked up beyond repair,
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but I saw you.
I even thought about helping you,
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but I decided to fuck
with these Wall Street guys instead.
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But if I hadn't...
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I could have stopped you
from killing yourself.
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If I hadn't gotten so drunk, I could've
stopped you from getting hit by that car.
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And that is where things went sideways.
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So the loops started
because we didn't help the other person.
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I think so.
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I knew we were being punished.
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Easy there, Mr. Rogers.
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This is not good or bad. It's just a bug.
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It's like if a program
keeps crashing, you know?
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The crashing is just a symptom
of a bug in the code.
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If the deaths are us crashing,
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then that moment is the bug
that we need to go and fix.
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But if we were supposed
to help each other and we didn't...
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how is that not a moral issue?
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What do time and morality have in common?
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Relativity.
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They're both relative to your experience.
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I need a visual aid.
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All right, so our universe
has three spatial dimensions,
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so it's hard for us to picture
a four-dimensional world.
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But, you know, computers
do it all the time.
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Now lucky for you, I have the capacity
to think like a computer.
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What's this?
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Oh. It's a rotten orange
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In a two-dimensional world, it's a circle.
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In a three-dimensional world,
it's a sphere.
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But in a four-dimensional world...
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It's still ripe.
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Time is relative to your experience.
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We've been experiencing time differently
in these loops.
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But this, this tells us that somewhere
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time, linear time,
as we used to understand it, still exists.
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So the moment in the deli
when we first interacted...
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Still exists.
So we should go back to the deli.
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[Nadia] To that same moment.
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And we rewrite our first interaction.
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Just like you would fix a flaw in a code.
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Then we run a unit test.
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Is that a term
that people should know or...
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Basically, we run a little program
and we see if the bug is triggered.
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And how do we know if it's triggered?
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We die.
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Then... we go right back to the deli...
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and we try it again.
You're pretty smart.
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Thank you for finally noticing. Eh...
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-Okay. It's almost 11.
-When do you think we first met?
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Uh, Ruth arrived at my party at 11ish.
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Uh, so that's when I left with Mike.
We were at the deli by 11:30.
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Do we need to recreate
the whole experience? Like, Mike, Ferran?
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Should I be drunk?
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That sounds like a terrible idea.
I have to get the cake.
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[dark music playing]
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What? What is it?
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Do you see that?
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[Alan] See what?
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[Alan] Whoa.
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-Uh...
-I think I'm having a heart attack.
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Okay. If we're dying right now,
I'll meet you back at the deli.
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Just go straight to the--
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-[knock on door]
-[water running]
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["Gotta Get Up" playing]
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[turns off faucet]
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[knocking on door]
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[knocking continues]
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♪ Gotta get up, gotta get out ♪
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♪ Gotta get home
Before the morning comes ♪
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♪ What if I'm late? Got a big date ♪
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♪ Gotta get home before the sun comes up ♪
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♪ Up and away, got a big day
Sorry, can't stay... ♪
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Sweet birthday baby.
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Where is everyone?
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Oh, it's only nine.
No one shows up to a party on time.
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You of all people should know this.
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Are you having fun?
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People are disappearing now.
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I didn't know it was also people. Fuck.
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Okay, come with me. Where's Lizzie?
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-What are you talking about?
-Let's go.
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I have to meet someone at the deli.
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I'm not leaving you here
at the mercy of the time gods.
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-I'm not leaving. I live here.
-What's going on?
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-Help me with this.
-Are you okay?
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-Are you guys leaving?
-No one's leaving.
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I love you both so much. I cannot be
the reason that you stop existing.
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I would never forgive myself.
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-I'll bite.
-No, thanks.
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Fine, but we have to come right back.
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We got to take the fire escape.
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-I have a fire escape?
-Great.
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All right, come on.
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We're coming.
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-Lizzy.
-Hey, what's up?
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[Maxine] I have to change
my Airbnb listing then if this is...
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-The app--
-I love fire escapes.
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It increases the value of-- by how much?
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[Maxine] Yeah, so too many colonics
is definitely a thing, you know?
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Hey, does this feel weird
to either of you?
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You know, like you haven't been outside
in a while? Maybe like a really long time?
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-Whoa, it's cold!
-Nope, I left as soon as I got here.
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-Shit, I should've brought another jacket.
-Where are we going, Nads?
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Damn it, I never know what jacket
to bring. It's a real problem in my life.
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Nads?
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Hey, what is it? What's wrong?
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What the fuck?
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[dark music playing]
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[Maxine] Hey, what is it? What's wrong?
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What--
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[softly] I can't breathe.
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What? You've had--
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-Asthma? You had asthma this whole time?
-Maxine, call 911!
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-[knock on door]
-[water running]
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[turns off faucet]
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["Gotta Get Up" playing]
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[breathing heavily]
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♪ Gotta get up, gotta get out ♪
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♪ Gotta get home
Before the morning comes ♪
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♪ What if I'm late? Got a big date ♪
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♪ Gotta get home before the sun comes up ♪
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♪ Up and away, got a big day
Sorry can't stay ♪
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♪ I gotta run, run, yeah ♪
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♪ Gotta get home, pick up the phone ♪
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♪ Gotta let the people know... ♪
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[Maxine] Hey, birthday baby.
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Maxine, come on. Come on.
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Lizzy?
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-Let's go.
-What? Where?
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-To the deli.
-But I don't need anything from the deli.
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We need supplies. Apocalypse! Fire escape!
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-[Lizzy] What's happening?
-[Maxine] What? I have a fire escape?
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[Maxine] I'm just realizing that I
really need to do more gyrotonics.
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[Lizzy] I feel like I'd be the best
in an apocalypse.
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[Maxine] Oh, yeah, for sure, first choice.
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There's so many things
that I could build with here.
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There's wood. There's metal to smelt.
[Maxine] Oh, I love that word, smelt.
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Hey, do you think that there's sage
at the deli or sandalwood?
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Nads, are you okay?
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Yeah, all right, coast is clear.
Come on, let's go.
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There's no room.
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There's room.
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Why would you say that?
You didn't even try.
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I have a trunk, don't I?
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You see I have a trunk?
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Does your wife need a coat?
They're going to Goodwill.
I'm not spending another fuckin' winter
in this city, huh?
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Are you okay?
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Why the fuck are you talking to my kid?
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Put the melons in the trunk.
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Go get the rest.
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Thank you.
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[exhales]
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[cries]
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What's fucking wrong with people?
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[sniffs]
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I didn't do anything to him.
I don't know why he yelled at me.
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I don't know, Mom.
He was wrong. You were right.
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[sniffs]
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Thank you, Nadia.
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Don't ever let them tear us apart, okay?
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Never?
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Never.
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Go tell his boss what he did.
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What?
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Go tell his boss
what he fucking did to me.
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[Lizzy] That's how I feel about it.
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Well, I know it's crazy,
but I bought the chicken here.
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-[Lizzy] Yeah.
-What is happening?
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Oh. Hey, Lizzy, Maxine.
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-Hey.
-Hello.
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-[whispers] Who is that guy?
-I don't know.
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Uh, I had a heart attack.
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Then I just stopped breathing.
I'm thinking maybe asthma. You?
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Yeah, me too. Something internal,
like liver failure or--
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It's 9:30. We have two hours.
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Why did you bring Lizzy and Maxine?
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People are disappearing
at the party now, okay?
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I-- I'm scared to leave them.
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Shit, that's why Ferran's not here.
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Wait, if people are disappearing,
what does it mean?
They're erased from existence?
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Do you think that Bea is gone?
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I don't fucking know.
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Well, you're the one with the big
fourth-dimensional brain, right?
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[Lizzy and Maxine chat indistinctly]
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[sighs]
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[dark music playing]
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How do you know Nadia?
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What's going on? Is this like
the shittiest scavenger hunt of all time?
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-[Alan] I wish.
-[Lizzy] Did you set this up?
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[Alan] No.
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-[Lizzy] Seriously, who are you?
-[Alan] A friend of Nadia's.
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Something's wrong.
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[Alan] Nadia.
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Your nose is bleeding.
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Are you okay?
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I'm seeing things.
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Should we go to a hospital?
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[Alan] Nadia, we're dying again.
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-Whoa, whoa. Whoa!
-[Lizzy] Oh, my God!
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-Lizzy, call 911!
-We can't keep doing this.
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You-- You have to meet me
at my place next time, Nadia.
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You-- You have to--
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-[thud]
-[Ruth] You have to eat.
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You have to eat at some point.
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You want chicken noodle
or cream of mushroom?
248
00:11:44,412 --> 00:11:45,955
[knife slicing]
249
00:11:48,874 --> 00:11:50,918
You can't live on watermelon, sweetheart.
250
00:11:53,754 --> 00:11:55,214
I don't think so, Ruth.
251
00:11:55,297 --> 00:11:57,383
So help me, if you say you're fat...
252
00:12:04,473 --> 00:12:05,307
[door closes]
253
00:12:06,100 --> 00:12:07,184
[Lenora groans]
254
00:12:07,268 --> 00:12:08,728
[objects clatter]
255
00:12:10,312 --> 00:12:11,147
Chicken noodle.
256
00:12:12,273 --> 00:12:13,441
[glass breaks]
257
00:12:15,943 --> 00:12:17,486
You practicing your piano?
258
00:12:20,573 --> 00:12:21,824
[dark music playing]
259
00:12:30,916 --> 00:12:34,295
♪ Gotta get home
Before the morning comes ♪
260
00:12:34,378 --> 00:12:36,380
♪ What if I'm late? Got a a big date ♪
261
00:12:36,464 --> 00:12:39,800
♪ Gotta get home before the sun comes up ♪
262
00:12:39,884 --> 00:12:41,844
♪ Up and away, got a big day ♪
263
00:12:41,927 --> 00:12:45,306
♪ Sorry, can't stay
I gotta run, run, yeah ♪
264
00:12:45,389 --> 00:12:47,391
♪ Gotta get home, pick up the phone ♪
265
00:12:47,475 --> 00:12:50,227
♪ I gotta let the people know
I'm gonna be late ♪
266
00:12:55,816 --> 00:12:57,151
♪ There was a time... ♪
267
00:12:57,234 --> 00:12:58,194
[Nadia] Max?
268
00:12:59,069 --> 00:13:00,654
Sweet birthday baby.
269
00:13:00,738 --> 00:13:03,324
There's nobody here. There's no party.
270
00:13:03,407 --> 00:13:04,658
I am the party.
271
00:13:06,368 --> 00:13:07,870
We're in an empty apartment...
272
00:13:08,871 --> 00:13:10,581
with nothing in it
273
00:13:11,874 --> 00:13:15,795
Maybe we should do one of those
sense-deprivation baths or whatever.
274
00:13:15,878 --> 00:13:17,797
That would be
a good birthday thing, right?
275
00:13:18,881 --> 00:13:20,049
I got to fix this.
276
00:13:21,675 --> 00:13:22,510
Come with me.
277
00:13:23,427 --> 00:13:25,471
♪ What if I'm late? Got a big date ♪
278
00:13:25,554 --> 00:13:28,724
♪ Gotta get home before the sun comes up ♪
279
00:13:29,350 --> 00:13:30,351
I can't.
280
00:13:30,851 --> 00:13:34,188
♪ Sorry, can't stay
I gotta run, run, yeah ♪
281
00:13:34,271 --> 00:13:36,315
♪ Gotta get home, pick up the phone ♪
282
00:13:36,398 --> 00:13:38,984
♪ I gotta let the people know
I'm gonna be late ♪
283
00:13:46,158 --> 00:13:48,077
I keep seeing myself, Alan.
284
00:13:49,954 --> 00:13:50,871
What do you mean?
285
00:13:52,498 --> 00:13:54,250
I don't know how...
286
00:13:54,834 --> 00:13:55,835
or why...
287
00:13:56,544 --> 00:13:59,046
but, uh, my past self...
288
00:13:59,672 --> 00:14:01,507
the little girl that I used to be...
289
00:14:02,299 --> 00:14:03,300
literally...
290
00:14:03,843 --> 00:14:04,927
keeps showing up.
291
00:14:05,594 --> 00:14:06,804
Is she here right now?
292
00:14:06,887 --> 00:14:07,805
No.
293
00:14:08,931 --> 00:14:11,475
But every time I see her, we die.
294
00:14:12,810 --> 00:14:14,645
I think that maybe she's...
295
00:14:15,312 --> 00:14:16,272
lost.
296
00:14:16,856 --> 00:14:19,525
Trapped somewhere
between the past and present.
297
00:14:20,109 --> 00:14:21,986
That little girl lives...
298
00:14:23,237 --> 00:14:26,073
She lives at a time
that things with my mom were not...
299
00:14:27,241 --> 00:14:28,117
not good.
300
00:14:28,909 --> 00:14:29,743
Uh...
[sighs]
301
00:14:34,623 --> 00:14:35,457
Ah...
302
00:14:35,541 --> 00:14:37,918
I did something unforgivable that year.
303
00:14:38,419 --> 00:14:40,170
Well, then we should make it right.
304
00:14:41,422 --> 00:14:42,590
That could be the answer.
305
00:14:43,799 --> 00:14:46,927
I don't know how to do that
because my mom is dead.
306
00:14:48,596 --> 00:14:49,847
[Alan sighs] I-I do.
307
00:14:51,223 --> 00:14:52,057
I do.
308
00:14:54,351 --> 00:14:56,854
What? Okay, where are you going?
309
00:14:56,937 --> 00:14:58,147
You can't leave.
310
00:14:59,398 --> 00:15:00,357
What is with the helmet?
311
00:15:00,441 --> 00:15:02,860
Nadia, I can't leave Beatrice here
and let her disappear
without making things right.
312
00:15:05,863 --> 00:15:07,239
And you should do the same.
313
00:15:08,157 --> 00:15:09,408
Whatever that means for you.
314
00:15:09,992 --> 00:15:10,826
No.
315
00:15:12,077 --> 00:15:13,162
Stay with me.
316
00:15:15,748 --> 00:15:16,624
Fuck you!
317
00:15:18,709 --> 00:15:20,544
That might be the last thing
you ever say to me.
318
00:15:21,503 --> 00:15:22,421
Seriously.
319
00:15:23,380 --> 00:15:26,050
This time, we might die and not come back.
320
00:15:27,009 --> 00:15:29,428
Maybe I'll kill myself
just to fuck you over.
321
00:15:29,511 --> 00:15:31,472
Well, that's what I did,
and look where it got us.
322
00:15:32,973 --> 00:15:35,643
You are
the most selfish person I have ever met.
323
00:15:37,311 --> 00:15:38,854
Thank you for changing my life.
324
00:15:39,855 --> 00:15:41,231
Lives are hard to change.
325
00:15:46,403 --> 00:15:48,322
[door opens, closes]
326
00:15:51,909 --> 00:15:54,912
You're alive.
I called you like 50 times last night.
327
00:15:54,995 --> 00:15:55,871
Come in.
328
00:15:57,456 --> 00:15:58,290
[Beatrice sighs]
329
00:15:59,208 --> 00:16:00,250
Are you okay?
330
00:16:00,793 --> 00:16:03,545
Yes, I am, under the circumstances.
331
00:16:04,380 --> 00:16:05,839
Why are you wearing a helmet?
332
00:16:06,423 --> 00:16:07,549
Bea, we need to talk.
333
00:16:09,927 --> 00:16:10,803
Okay.
334
00:16:21,480 --> 00:16:22,982
[Ruth] Nadia.
335
00:16:23,065 --> 00:16:24,692
I did something terrible, Ruth.
336
00:16:24,775 --> 00:16:26,443
You couldn't return the coat.
337
00:16:26,527 --> 00:16:28,404
No, I abandoned mom.
338
00:16:29,613 --> 00:16:30,614
[sighs]
339
00:16:31,907 --> 00:16:36,120
Lock the door behind you.
There's somebody in the neighborhood.
340
00:16:36,203 --> 00:16:37,454
I locked the door.
341
00:16:42,960 --> 00:16:44,294
What's going on, baby?
342
00:16:45,379 --> 00:16:46,338
I love you.
343
00:16:47,673 --> 00:16:50,801
I mean that in the truest sense.
And I know-- I know about Mike.
344
00:16:51,301 --> 00:16:54,722
I know how it started and why.
I want you to be...
345
00:16:57,266 --> 00:16:58,726
Just be whoever you are.
346
00:16:59,393 --> 00:17:01,437
I didn't know how to tell you.
347
00:17:01,520 --> 00:17:02,438
You did.
348
00:17:03,439 --> 00:17:05,274
You did tell me. I just didn't listen.
349
00:17:05,357 --> 00:17:08,861
You told me every time I asked you
what was wrong, and you said, "Nothing."
350
00:17:08,944 --> 00:17:11,363
Every time I touched you,
you gently pulled away.
351
00:17:12,072 --> 00:17:15,200
No matter how much we think
we're fooling people, our bodies...
352
00:17:16,368 --> 00:17:18,662
they can't keep lying
the way that our minds can.
353
00:17:19,371 --> 00:17:20,456
Yeah.
354
00:17:20,539 --> 00:17:22,791
[Alan] Mine stopped lying a long time ago.
355
00:17:23,917 --> 00:17:25,335
For years, I've just been...
356
00:17:26,462 --> 00:17:28,130
I've just been hollow. [sniffs]
357
00:17:28,630 --> 00:17:29,465
[sighs]
358
00:17:29,548 --> 00:17:31,675
You know, I thought if I-- if I...
[sniffs]
359
00:17:31,759 --> 00:17:33,802
if I worked hard enough, if I-- if I...
360
00:17:34,595 --> 00:17:35,429
[inhales]
361
00:17:35,512 --> 00:17:37,014
kept putting the time in,
362
00:17:37,097 --> 00:17:40,267
and if I kept my head down,
you know, did everything right, I...
363
00:17:41,060 --> 00:17:44,730
this aching, gnawing feeling
of being an absolute failure
364
00:17:44,813 --> 00:17:46,315
would just-- would just go away.
365
00:17:46,398 --> 00:17:47,441
I know.
366
00:17:47,524 --> 00:17:48,525
[Alan sniffs]
367
00:17:49,109 --> 00:17:51,737
And now I'm stuck
with a body that is broken
368
00:17:51,820 --> 00:17:53,280
and in a world that is...
369
00:17:53,363 --> 00:17:54,448
[chuckles]
370
00:17:54,531 --> 00:17:56,200
is literally falling apart.
371
00:17:57,242 --> 00:17:58,744
And a mind that...
372
00:18:00,120 --> 00:18:01,580
A mind that wants to kill me.
373
00:18:03,207 --> 00:18:04,374
You got help, right?
374
00:18:04,958 --> 00:18:05,793
[Alan] I did.
375
00:18:06,376 --> 00:18:07,836
I-- I let somebody help me.
376
00:18:08,337 --> 00:18:09,213
Who?
377
00:18:11,548 --> 00:18:12,883
I just want to tell you...
378
00:18:14,176 --> 00:18:15,886
before this whole thing is over...
379
00:18:16,970 --> 00:18:17,805
um...
380
00:18:19,431 --> 00:18:20,432
I killed her.
381
00:18:22,059 --> 00:18:23,352
I took the easy way out.
382
00:18:23,435 --> 00:18:24,770
What easy way out?
383
00:18:25,395 --> 00:18:28,107
I told the social worker
that I wanted to live with you
384
00:18:28,190 --> 00:18:29,441
and not with her,
385
00:18:29,525 --> 00:18:31,693
and then she was fucking dead
within a year.
386
00:18:32,194 --> 00:18:34,196
You've got it all wrong.
387
00:18:34,279 --> 00:18:39,284
You said you wanted to live with your mom
just like she told you to,
388
00:18:39,368 --> 00:18:41,620
but that just couldn't happen.
389
00:18:42,746 --> 00:18:45,707
No one was gonna let that continue.
390
00:18:46,667 --> 00:18:48,127
I don't think it matters.
391
00:18:49,294 --> 00:18:51,004
[Ruth] What are you talking about?
392
00:18:51,505 --> 00:18:55,342
Whatever I said,
I wanted to live with you.
393
00:18:55,843 --> 00:18:57,010
[Ruth] Listen to me.
394
00:18:57,594 --> 00:18:58,637
You were this...
395
00:18:59,388 --> 00:19:04,309
tiny seed buried in darkness
fighting your way to the light.
396
00:19:06,436 --> 00:19:07,980
You wanted to live.
397
00:19:08,981 --> 00:19:11,984
It's the most beautiful thing
in the world.
398
00:19:12,734 --> 00:19:14,778
Do you still have that in you?
399
00:19:20,409 --> 00:19:21,785
Oh.
400
00:19:21,869 --> 00:19:22,828
Nadia...
401
00:19:25,455 --> 00:19:27,457
I look at you now...
402
00:19:28,208 --> 00:19:31,920
chasing down death
at every corner and...
403
00:19:32,588 --> 00:19:33,505
sweetheart...
404
00:19:34,173 --> 00:19:38,093
where is that gorgeous piece of you
405
00:19:38,177 --> 00:19:41,054
pushing to be a part of this world?
406
00:19:46,310 --> 00:19:47,978
I'm gonna make you some tea.
407
00:19:53,233 --> 00:19:54,109
[Ruth exhales]
408
00:19:59,615 --> 00:20:01,033
-Lenora.
-[knocking on door]
409
00:20:02,451 --> 00:20:04,077
Stop it. She can hear you.
410
00:20:04,161 --> 00:20:05,704
She can hear all of it.
411
00:20:05,787 --> 00:20:07,831
[Lenora] Good, then she can hear this too.
412
00:20:07,915 --> 00:20:08,916
[glass shatters]
413
00:20:08,999 --> 00:20:10,834
There is a kid out here!
414
00:20:10,918 --> 00:20:11,877
[banging]
415
00:20:12,920 --> 00:20:14,838
You are not her mother!
416
00:20:14,922 --> 00:20:16,924
Well, her mother keeps fucking up!
417
00:20:24,139 --> 00:20:25,766
[Lenora coughing]
418
00:20:25,849 --> 00:20:26,850
[Ruth] Lenora.
419
00:20:28,435 --> 00:20:29,686
Lenora, come on.
420
00:20:29,770 --> 00:20:31,438
[tea kettle whistling]
421
00:20:38,779 --> 00:20:40,072
I don't know why I'm alive.
422
00:20:40,572 --> 00:20:43,533
Listen. Your life force is strong.
423
00:20:43,617 --> 00:20:47,371
I don't know how you survived
all those years, but it worked.
424
00:20:47,454 --> 00:20:48,497
Emily!
425
00:20:48,580 --> 00:20:49,998
-Who's Emily?
-The book.
426
00:20:50,082 --> 00:20:51,166
Life force!
427
00:21:01,593 --> 00:21:05,013
You know that's the woman
that wrote Anne of Green Gables.
428
00:21:05,555 --> 00:21:06,682
You know what I heard?
429
00:21:06,765 --> 00:21:08,642
She OD'd. I know.
430
00:21:08,725 --> 00:21:12,813
I was going to say she's haunting a house
on Prince Edward Island.
431
00:21:16,817 --> 00:21:18,151
I love you, Ruthie.
432
00:21:19,444 --> 00:21:20,404
[smooches]
433
00:21:21,113 --> 00:21:22,030
I love you...
434
00:21:22,114 --> 00:21:24,741
and I'll see you in the next one, Ruthie.
435
00:21:29,788 --> 00:21:31,081
[knocking on door]
436
00:21:31,915 --> 00:21:33,542
Oh, shit.
437
00:21:33,625 --> 00:21:34,793
I forgot he was coming.
438
00:21:34,876 --> 00:21:36,461
Hey, it's okay, Bea.
439
00:21:36,545 --> 00:21:38,338
I-- I don't want you to meet him yet.
440
00:21:38,422 --> 00:21:40,841
You know, I already faced
this guy so many times.
441
00:21:40,924 --> 00:21:41,925
It's fine.
442
00:21:43,510 --> 00:21:44,428
[Beatrice sighs]
443
00:21:46,888 --> 00:21:47,973
There she is.
444
00:21:49,057 --> 00:21:50,767
-Hey, I came as soon as I could.
-Hi.
445
00:21:50,851 --> 00:21:52,102
-You okay?
-Yeah.
446
00:21:52,185 --> 00:21:54,062
I had to bring him.
Sorry. I hope that's okay.
447
00:21:54,146 --> 00:21:55,522
Of course it's okay.
448
00:21:55,605 --> 00:21:57,190
-Hi, Edson!
-[Mike laughs]
449
00:21:57,274 --> 00:21:59,109
-[Beatrice] How's my little guy?
-There you go.
450
00:21:59,192 --> 00:22:00,777
Oh, he's so cute.
451
00:22:00,861 --> 00:22:02,237
This is Alan.
452
00:22:02,321 --> 00:22:03,613
He's all right.
453
00:22:03,697 --> 00:22:05,407
-[Mike] Hi.
-Hi.
454
00:22:05,490 --> 00:22:08,410
She was pretty worried about you
yesterday. I got a lot of calls.
455
00:22:08,493 --> 00:22:10,287
She doesn't need
to worry about me anymore.
456
00:22:10,871 --> 00:22:13,373
Oh, my God, Alan, your nose is bleeding.
457
00:22:13,457 --> 00:22:14,499
What?
458
00:22:14,583 --> 00:22:17,252
-Hold on, let me get you something.
-[Alan] No, it's fine. I got it.
459
00:22:17,336 --> 00:22:18,545
-No, don't be silly.
-It's fine.
460
00:22:18,628 --> 00:22:20,339
[Beatrice] Wait there.
I'll get it for you.
461
00:22:20,422 --> 00:22:21,673
Oh, you're gonna leave?
462
00:22:24,092 --> 00:22:25,510
[classical music playing]
463
00:22:40,400 --> 00:22:41,234
Uh...
464
00:22:42,027 --> 00:22:42,986
Where's your dad?
465
00:22:43,070 --> 00:22:44,154
He's late.
466
00:22:44,237 --> 00:22:46,031
Right, or maybe he disappeared.
467
00:22:46,114 --> 00:22:48,283
-Do you know this woman?
-You know, she doesn't. Um...
468
00:22:48,367 --> 00:22:50,494
She used to be my dad's girlfriend.
469
00:22:50,577 --> 00:22:51,411
[scoffs]
470
00:22:51,953 --> 00:22:52,829
Yeah.
471
00:22:56,666 --> 00:22:57,793
All right, uh...
472
00:22:58,418 --> 00:23:01,171
I want to give you something.
It's not really a present.
473
00:23:01,254 --> 00:23:03,465
It's more like something that we share.
474
00:23:04,049 --> 00:23:04,883
Okay.
475
00:23:09,471 --> 00:23:11,598
Emily is the hero.
476
00:23:13,016 --> 00:23:13,934
Thank you.
477
00:23:15,394 --> 00:23:16,311
You're welcome.
478
00:23:18,730 --> 00:23:19,648
[coughing]
479
00:23:22,734 --> 00:23:23,819
Are you sick?
480
00:23:23,902 --> 00:23:25,028
[coughs]
481
00:23:28,490 --> 00:23:29,324
[coughs]
482
00:23:33,703 --> 00:23:35,163
[continues coughing]
483
00:23:44,381 --> 00:23:45,590
She's still inside you.
484
00:24:15,829 --> 00:24:16,663
[grunts]
485
00:24:18,457 --> 00:24:19,916
[panting]
486
00:24:21,751 --> 00:24:22,919
Mommy.
487
00:24:31,261 --> 00:24:32,971
Are you ready to let her die?
488
00:24:34,389 --> 00:24:36,433
[whispers] This is the day we get free.
489
00:24:45,734 --> 00:24:46,735
Oh, my God!
490
00:24:46,818 --> 00:24:48,487
Someone call 911! She's dying!
491
00:24:50,947 --> 00:24:52,365
["Organs" by Pussy Riot plays]
492
00:24:56,244 --> 00:24:58,371
♪ Law enforcement bodies
Bodies, bodies, bodies ♪
493
00:24:58,914 --> 00:25:00,916
♪ Bodies in cassocks
And bodies in uniforms ♪
494
00:25:01,458 --> 00:25:03,585
♪ Bodies, bodies, bodies, bodies ♪
495
00:25:04,252 --> 00:25:06,505
♪ Bodies, bodies, bodies in uniforms ♪
496
00:25:06,796 --> 00:25:08,798
♪ Female orgasm faces obstacles ♪
497
00:25:09,466 --> 00:25:12,010
♪ My strap-ons are being replaced
With uniforms and icons ♪
498
00:25:12,093 --> 00:25:14,387
♪ Shitfaced parliament bans condoms ♪
499
00:25:14,721 --> 00:25:17,224
♪ Agony, spasm
Big bang of the falling-down crown ♪
500
00:25:17,474 --> 00:25:20,018
♪ My country is suffering from neurosis
Worse than Anna O's ♪
501
00:25:20,101 --> 00:25:22,395
♪ My government is a total waste
Laws are useless ♪
502
00:25:22,479 --> 00:25:24,397
♪ They promised us economy
And military defense ♪